Loud and Silence Explained

By Loud and Silence

I am a woman who talks a lot. I like to be surrounded by

people whom I deeply care about- my family and my friends. I
like the loud banters at home, doing karaoke with the fam,
eating with them, supporting each other’s endeavors in life, and
so on. Nothing beats the family. No one loves you the most
except for family. My friends? I love hanging out with them. I
could spend hours just talking, eating, and chilling with them.
I immediately go to them when I am sad, happy, afraid or mad.
I could say that I really am an extrovert as I love going
out, with my friends especially. I love travelling with them and
I would love to travel more with them! I like eating with them
because it always boosts my appetite even more to know that I
get to share such feast with them without thinking of how I
SHOULD behaving when I eat. I like being under the sun (just not
when it is too hot), just walking around and observing things
around me- from the noise of the vehicles, the chirping of
birds, boisterous laughing from the neighbors, to the faces of
each passing strangers. Despite this, I HATE MEETING NEW PEOPLE.
Meeting new people means adjustment and change and in most
times, I don’t really like how it goes. Just like when I was in
my junior year of high school. I was looking forward to being
classmates with my best friends but I ended up being up with
only one of them in the section where most of the not-so-good
kids are. Of course I hated it! I had to be surrounded by people
whom I barely know and it means I have to start getting to know
each of them and try my best to be friendly. And the thought of
losing the only best friend I had in that classroom was almost
unimaginable. Unfortunately, it almost happened. I didn’t really
want to be around my new classmates that much, but she was just
too friendly and welcoming. In fact almost everyone in the class
wanted to be her friend right away. She’s really one of the
kindest persons I know and I have to admit that she’s also one
of the prettiest girls of the batch- which was something that
never really bothered me before but it definitely did right at
the moment. She got closer to most of them, leaving me almost
feeling like the villain for they see me as someone who’s
intimidating and very unapproachable. Fast forward and the big
fight really happened. It took us days but she’s my bestie so I
really made an effort to fix it. Eventually, I got the hang of
being with the new faces and we somehow clicked.
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 As much as I like to be surrounded with people, I still love
my peace and alone time. For starters, I love to read. I don’t
really own books because I find them too pricey and I wanted to
have a mini library inside my room once I renovate it. I like
eating alone too because no one gets to ask me for some food. I
like walking home alone because it keeps me sane. I like to
watch TV series or anime alone, too. I like to stay in my room
alone as well. It’s probably because being with people and
hearing so much noise tire me out at some point that I tend
looking for peace and quiet. There are times when I do not
answer to any calls or messages from my friends because I just
want to read and stay at home. In fact, my bedroom is my safe
haven. It is where I could truly be calm, be myself, be sane. I
value my alone time so much that I would really ditch my friends
to go home and sleep or eat or read inside my room.
Another thing about me is that I can be too girly, as in
with full-on make-up and short and sexy dresses matched with
very high heels and glittering accessories. However, there are
times when I just want to be plain Jane in my pants or shorts
and loose shirts; just braless and even barefoot, if not with
slippers or flat shoes; no make-up on and my hair stuck in a
very lousy ponytail or bun. I could look fat and horrible for
all I care.
Just like anybody else, I have so many dreams to achieve. I
want to pursue further studies- get a master’s degree then
proceed to law school. I want to get fit and finally find a good
looking rich, humorous, loving, and intelligent man. Oh boy,
what a dreamer! But hey! I’m just a girl with fairy tale dreams
and all that.
I am an open book as much as I am a closed one. I am sweet
as much as I am spicy and sour the next time. I am a mixed sane
and insane human. This is me- loud and silence. I am loud yet I
long for silence.

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