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An Unchangeable State (FINAL)
An Unchangeable State (FINAL)
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CONTENTS
CHAPTER ONE ............................................................................... 4
AN UNPLEASANT DAY AND A PARTY ................................. 4
CHAPTER TWO............................................................................... 9
OFF TO KWAZULU NATAL...................................................... 9
CHAPTER THREE ......................................................................... 17
GAUTENG COURT ................................................................... 17
CHAPTER FOUR ........................................................................... 21
3 WEEKS LATER... ................................................................... 21
CHAPTER FIVE ............................................................................. 32
SCHOOL SCANDAL ................................................................. 32
CHAPTER SIX ............................................................................... 44
FINALLY, FULL TIME DANCING .......................................... 44
CHAPTER SEVEN ......................................................................... 49
THE BAD EXPERIENCE .......................................................... 49
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CHAPTER ONE
So this is my story...
As an 'albino' I face many challenges fighting for
success, most of the times I feel out of place around people
at school because they always make fun of me; especially
the black people.
It happened this day when I was going for an eye
surgery. (It is rare for an ‘albino’ to have perfect eyesight.)
"Anne Petersons?" — The tall white optician called me.
I stood up and took a deep breath before the theatre
doors had welcomed and trapped me in.
"Good luck!” – Whispered my faithful mother.
In the theatre they were two opticians, a brain surgeon
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and an eye surgeon. What a scary scenario! I was given a
puce gown to put on. I could see how shiny and sharp their
tools were. My shoulders shivered when I saw the eye
surgeon coming to me with a very sharp needle on a
syringe about to inject my eye lids. I screamed my guts
out when the brain surgeon took one of the small tiny
sharp knives, I could see he was about to shave off my hair.
I felt like the blood in my veins boiled to its highest boiling
point. I had so much fear of those sharp instruments.
As I shook with fear of being hurt and imagining my
eye wrapped with a band aid afterwards, I suddenly
opened my eyes and behold, it was all a dream, just scary
events in my mind whilst I was sleeping. I came out of bed,
my pyjamas looked sweaty and I felt uncomfortable. I was
really fighting the dream yazi. I took a cold shower. No
one was home. I went to check the calendar just to see it
was Carnival day. I wore my Adidas tracksuits and
sneakers and went to town with so much joy and
anticipation to meet my uncle and his family who had
promised would be in town that day.
"Anne, Anne!" I heard a voice shouting behind me from
a distance and it was my uncle with his daughters who
were about to get in the car after shopping at Spar. I ran
with joy and gave my uncle a brief hug. He was really a
gentleman that day, looking all good in his fancy grey suit.
I couldn't believe he was the same guy who used to come
home at 3am early in the morning drunk and smelling
alcohol. He used to play checkers with amajita eGauteng.
The guy who used to skip lectures, but now he was a
graduate and had three kids: Naledi, Nomsa and Thabiso;
but he was married to a wicked wife. I had a very close
relationship with my uncle.
"Long time dear, you should come with us to Durban
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for the holidays," he said.
Durban is my favourite city. I love the sea side, the
eateries, the jewellery stores nje and even the top
academies. On our way home I saw my father's car
bumping in front of us. Kentsani was the one who came
out first– uncle's crazy buddy of all times.
"Happy Birthday my angel," said uncle.
I had completely forgotten it was Kentsani's birthday,
I was only thinking about the Carnival day. I squeezed her
into my arms trying to stop myself from laughing.
She made an angry face, "Wena you didn't even text me
just to say Happy birthday!"
"Ngiyanxolisa s'thandwa sam."
We drove home and prepared for Kentsani's birthday
party. She asked me if I could help her with what to wear.
Kentsani had a lot of clothes, I mean some of them still had
price tags on and she never bothered to wear them. She
had skin jeans, boyfriend jeans, t-shirts, sweaters, joggers,
tracksuits. Every latest costume on Instagram she would
make sure she had it by the end of that week.
"How do I look?" she wore a pair of black ripped jeans
and a crop top with her face on it.
"Stunning girl!"
She was also a ‘selfie’ addict. I mean she would take two
hundred photos of herself every day and only upload one
on Instagram and Facebook. So the party started and
there were a lot of school friends and our cousins from the
Western Cape. I felt out of place because at school people
always humiliated me and I never liked their company.
They called me 'Ugly Scary Albino', uscobino. I didn't like
confronting people so I always ignored them to avoid
noise. Suddenly someone pushed me to the ground and
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stepped on my head.
"Stop it, you are hurting me"
"Uscobino, unjan' mgani wami"
The crowd starting laughing.
It was Marth-nee, a giant girl who bullied other
learners at school. I pulled her leg and she immediately
fell to the ground.
"So you want to fight me?" she asked.
"Marth-nee I don't want to fight with you."
She slapped me and I smiled as I walked away. She
pulled me back and I didn't allow defeat this time. I was
about to punch her on the tummy but suddenly my father
and uncle showed up.
"Kakathi go and take my leather belt," I knew it was
totally going to be bad this time.
"Kanti ngenzeni baba?" – my eyes dissolved in tears.
"Kanti ngenzeni when you are busy fighting other kids?"
he pulled his sleeves.
"She is not a kid baba," I meant to say she was a female
goliath though and that's when you hear my father calling
her a kid.
"You think because of your skin colour you are so
unique than these black people!" he raised his voice.
This time I was angry too. I quickly wiped a tear from
my cheek.
"Dad is it my fault that I'm living with albinism? You
never get it when I say I also wish to be black." I surely
was about to cry this time.
I made him angry the more.
"You are enigmatically a fierce monster!" he shouted at
me.
The party was not going to be fun for me anymore. I
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looked at Kentsani and she was enjoying with the cousins
so I went to my room. It was unbelievable my father had
spit such words and I couldn't believe that l had
confronted him too.
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CHAPTER TWO
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other.
"Saubona"
"What's up?" You know me as someone from the urban
I was not a big fan of local languages excluding afrikaans
which I was only good at but the rest I tried a bit.
"I am Matsindiso and my friend here nguCleopatra."
"Oh that's good, I'm Anne."
They walked me to the river. I was surprised to see
some people bathing and even washing in the water. I
mean they were contaminating the water yazi.
They helped me to fill the bucket and Cleopatra adraitly
put it on top of her head. Ouch that would be really painful
though.
"There is a place we want to show you before you go,"
said Matsindiso.
We walked through the bushes and arrived at a very
calm site which was beautiful though.
"Wow this is beautiful," eye catching site nje.
We chilled at the place for a while as I continued to
search for network. They were even surprised that at my
age I had a phone because they said they will only to get
cellphones at the age of twenty five. That's a whole lot of
years to go until you open a Facebook and Instagram
account.
It was getting late and they walked me home. I showed
them where I was staying and they promised to visit.
My grandmother was already waiting for me, old
people maar mxm.
"Where were you?"
"Kanti thela utatela a manzi"
"You took a long time there," she said.
"Hai don't suspect me of anything bad."
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"Thula wena, do you know the reason why you are here
and not in Durban? it's because of that stupid behaviour
you got from your mother," she said.
"And who the hell are you to say such words about my
mother, she gave birth to an albino and you see her as a
bad person maar why? Mxm."
That was one of the thousand reasons why my parents
were going through a divorce. I walked away from my
grandmother's sight. The next morning I was told to
wake up early and clean the yard. While I was sweeping I
fell to the ground and I started bleeding on my left knee.
"Khuyenza khaleni?" Fikile came running as she heard
me screaming.
"I fell."
"Rest for a while whilst I go fetch herbs from Ma
Dhlamini," she said.
I lay down on the rough surface outside. So Fikile
prepared herbs for me. Later that day I got a little better
but I still couldn't wear skin jeans, I had to wear skirts for
a while.
The next day I met Matsindiso and Cleopatra whilst I
was just having a walk listening to music on my ipod.
"Unjani wena and why are you limping?" Said Cleopatra
looking at my knee.
"Don't worry I'm okay I just fell yesterday"
"I guess you are used to cleaning with machines and
advanced tools."
"Yah sho," I rolled my eyes, kanti yin' mina namaShow
off's nyana.
"Ulehlahla nguwe," Matsindiso really wished for it, I
could see the look on her face.
"Do you like fruits?" Asked Matsindiso.
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"ngiyawathanda kakhulu," I said so showing a little bit of
locality and not showing off my English accent, British
like nje.
We gathered some fruits and we sat on the ground to
dig in them.
"Anne tell us about your family back home," said Cleo.
"Well I have two sisters and two twin brothers but I
am the last child though."
“Oh that's great, I had a twin sister but she died of
severe headaches that was last year,” Cleopatra shame. I
really get emotional when we talk about death.
"Oh my...I'm really sorry about that."
"KuRight," she was strong nje.
"I am the only child in my family and I'm really lonely
all the time, although my cousins usually visits...they just
show off when it comes to money," said Matsindiso.
I could feel her from her quietness though, she was
super calm and not crazy like mina who got Kentsani and
Kakathi the weirdest in the house.
"My parents are in the process of divorcing and my
father would like to marry another wife, some coloured
chick from Western Cape."
"Tjo ngiyakuzonda khonokhu, maar why?" said
Matsindiso.
"They never tell us the reasons."
We went to the stores to get traditional drinks. They
were really cool but a bit sour although the girls were
really enjoying.
The time I got home I decided to give Tiiletso a phone
call.
"Hie baby girl, missed you a lot."
"I am not fine, I'm at KZN, mxm, l don't know why your
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father hates me so much."
"Gosh, uleqiniso yini?" She was shocked though.
“Yebo sis, enza into," I mean she is the eldest maybe she
got some responsibilities nje.
"I have no option baby girl, but I promise to visit."
She dropped the phone and I started crying. My
grandfather entered in the room.
"Anne s'thandwa sami uyakhala?"
I wiped my tears and stood up to give him a hug. He
was only the person with a warm heart that moment.
"Well uBaba wakho called me and we have to be at the
Gauteng Magistrate Court."
"Yes it's about the divorce right?"
"Yebo," oupa was the only one who loved my mom from
my father's side.
"Can you excuse me?"
He excused me and I gave a call to mama.
"Mama."
"Baby girl, what's up? I'm busy right
now...ngiyakuthanda Anne, I will get back to you."
It seemed as if she was just having some rude talks with
uBaba, I could hear his voice in the background and he was
really drunk though. I just prayed he wouldn’t kill my
mother.
That evil man should rot in jail. He was the reason why
my mother had a weak backbone because she was hit when
she was pregnant with me. I just thank the Lord that I'm
not disabled although I'm living in this unchangeable state.
But why me all the time. The pain I feel gets deeper all
the time and it leaves unhealed wounds. My wish is just to
meet an albino like me but I guess I'm the only existing
fierce monster like my father said. And will I even succeed
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or death is welcoming me soon? Who knows?
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CHAPTER THREE
GAUTENG COURT
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We later went to watch a movie and afterwards she
drove me home. At least I was going to spend the rest of
the holidays in Polokwane. I got home and everyone was
in the dining room. They were enjoying themselves vele.
My mother walked out depressed without saying a
word. I went to my room and started crying. I was not
happy at all.
The moment I lay on the bed I drifted into a deep sleep.
The next day Kesha was taking us for camping. We all
prepared our sleeping bags, coats, food, braai stand, meat,
fishing hooks, tennis pack.
I guess it was going to be fun though. My father had to
remain behind for some office work.
It was such a great vacation. At least we had to get used
to our step mother. Kakathi and Kentsani got used to her
because they were full of humour and all she could do is
laugh and laugh. We visited a lot of sites.
After three days we got back home. I was really tired,
sick and missing my mother at the same time. The next
day it was my birthday. I was finally fifteen.
I went to the park with my friends; Kamo, Nelisiwe and
Cheryl. We ordered a lot of food. It was really great. We
went home and popping up was a birthday party. My
cousins were there, my best friend, my uncle and also my
friends from Cape Town as well. The party was legit. I
enjoyed every part of it. Kakathi being the naughty guy he
mixed alcohol and juice and we all ended up drunk. Lucky
uBaba was out of town.
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CHAPTER FOUR
3 WEEKS LATER...
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"Hash tag Mrs Kellys naah mean."
"Hai Kentsani you are crazy over that guy right? The
day you will realize he is not loyal you are going to dig
your own grave trust me."
She laughed at me, "Maar wena you are not even in love
so what do you expect, you think all these novels and
movies you watch are reality?"
"Take the facts in your plate darling."
"Mxm," she got annoyed.
We went to the school hall. A lot of people were there.
My eyes kept searching for Jayden in the crowds but I
couldn't see him. Suddenly my eyes bumped on the albino
girl I saw at the hospital the other day.
"Hey Kentsani look."
"Huh? Is Nigel and Jayden here? Where?" She was
getting impatient yazi.
"No maan I mean the girl who was at the hospital."
She walked to us. She was in a stunning black dress and
glass heels shame. Jealous down this was Nicki Minaj in
South Africa.
We shared a brief hug.
"I am glad to see you again, recovering and looking
beautiful."
"Well thank you."
"My name is Thandie by the way." Oh so she was Zulu
too. Zulu girls nje.
"I am Anne and this is my sister Kent's ani."
I was starting to feel dizzy and I realized I didn't take
my medication that evening.
"Well excuse me guys I will join you in a second."
I went to the tuckshop and grabbed an apple and
macadamia nuts. I had to make sure I had something
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before I had taken the medication.
I went to the bathroom and tried calling on Jayden but
his phone went straight on voice mail.
When I went back. The red carpet was on and Kentsani
was with Nigel and I couldn't see Jayden anywhere.
Suddenly people made some noise and I walked closer just
to see Jayden and Thandie walking on the red carpet like
one perfect match.
I walked away disappointed. I couldn't believe this. I
went to the bathroom and washed my face. The mascaras
came off and I went outside to refresh away from the noise.
I decided to join my brothers at the photo shoot
apartment.
"Hey sister."
"Big brothers in the house what's popping?"
"And where is your partner?" Asked Vuyiso being the
sweetest brother of all the times.
"Well never mind, anyways I'm going home my head is
killing me."
"Don't forget to pray and I love you." Vuyiso the kind
hearted guy shame.
I smiled at him and walked away.
As I was about to walk out the school date I heard
someone calling me behind and it was Jayden. He was
drunk so I couldn't handle whatever he was going to spit
out of his mouth. I just walked away.
I arrived home feeling dizzy and I just drifted into a
deep sleep because no one was awake to entertain my
sickness.
The next day I got up feeling dizzy. I couldn't get out
of bed or shout out loud for Kesha. It seemed as if the
oxygen was being taken away from me but I was fighting
it. I really didn't want to die now. Kesha always being the
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caring mother, she took me to the hospital.
I was admitted for two weeks this time. It was either a
brain surgery or die. This condition was eating up
everything in my head. I would wake up with eye bags and
sometimes my face would be totally red. The person I
didn't want get worried about this was my mother.
The next day Thandie came to visit with flowers and a
box of chocolates.
She smiled at me and I looked away.
I closed my eyes and pretended as if there was no one
in the room. Suddenly Kentsani entered.
"Wena Thandie?", Kentsani entered shouting.
"Yes, how are you Kentsani?" Said Thandie
"You stole my sister's date and the next thing you want
is to kill her," she shouted.
She was surprised. She could not even reply I could feel
her eyes staring at me with such weird smiles. She left the
flowers and walked away.
"Vuka Anne, I know you are awake," Kentsani really
knew some games I played yazi.
"Kentsani I think Thandie is just trying to be sweet I
mean look at these flowers and your favourite chocolates,"
she really got annoyed of me and left.
Later that day Kamo, Cheryl and Nelly came to visit.
They really made me smile yazi. They are the only
people who never discouraged me.
"Hey fam."
"Anne, how are you doing?"
"I am fighting it"
We really had a lot to chat about. I mean school, what's
happening on social media you know.
"So Marth-nee was sent out of school," said Kamo.
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"Oh really?" At least I will have peace because that girl
was really hell in school.
All the time I would stand by the school gate I would
just regret the bad days I will always face with her always
pulling me down. Would wonder what she wanted from
me? I didn't date any of her boyfriends, I never copied her
styles, I was not popular like she was.
We had a lot to giggle about. They showed some of the
videos at school, how people were using their free periods
for rap battling, dancing and all the type of things you do
at school when there is nothing to do; you name them.
Later that day they went home and I was left alone
starring at the walls of the room, feeling like a monster. I
just felt like digging my grave right next to the bed I was
lying on because the pain was extremely unconditional.
That night I had nightmares. I saw owls on the ceiling. I
saw my mother's wedding gown hanging.
I saw Kesha's unborn baby screaming at me on the
window. I shook side to side but nothing changed. I tried
drifting from all that in the nightmare but I couldn't. Even
screaming didn't help because no one heard me. I really
wanted to die. This time I couldn't resist the struggle and
the pain I was feeling.
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CHAPTER FIVE
SCHOOL SCANDAL
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that. He was even starting to get drunk and I had no idea
about the location where we were at. I tried searching
online but my phone turned off.
I stood up and I had to take my way home now. I looked
for a taxi although I didn't even have ten rand with me I
had to make sure I paid him the moment I get home. My
heart was starting to beat fast. I had realised my father
was back in town and I was really going to be flogged
twenty times his age. In my life I really survived in hell. I
got home after forty five minutes and that's when I
realised Jayden had taken me out of town.
The moment I opened the door dad was the only person
still up but lucky he was on a phone call but the look he
gave me as I walked up stairs was really something else. I
went to my room and immediately got into my night wear.
I realised how hungry I was feeling so I decided to go grab
something in the kitchen. The moment I opened the door
he was standing with his leather belt. I tried walking back
but I suddenly fell because I was feeling scared and
shivering at the same time. I was beaten so bad. I could
not even sit or stand but all I could do was sleep with my
tummy against the sheets.
The next day I woke up feeling dizzy and weak. I took
a cold shower and went to school. The moment I arrived,
the people kept staring at me like I'm some new girl in
school. It was just awful. I went to the restroom and
washed my face. I had realised I was starting to sweat so
early. The bell rang and we went for assembly. The
Principal delayed for a while and she was in a bad mood I
guessed.
"Last night two of our students were noticed at some
gangster party out of town," and she continued, "I am
really disappointed, Jayden and Anne to my office right
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now!"
All eyes were on me. I waded to the Principal's office
and Jayden followed. I didn't want to have a word with
him that moment. Later the assembly was over and people
went back to their busy classes. That lady I was beginning
to hate, bumped in front of us and told us to follow her in
her office. I really didn't want to be rude but she really
deserved hell. I knew she was sending me out of school
only for finding out I was with Jayden last night. Jayden
tried crying out loud whilst I just left her office with my
transfer letter. I went back to class to take my bag and left
the school yard before anyone had found out I had been
kicked out of school. It was still nine and I knew my father
would still be home before ten so I had to walk slowly
home just to let the time pass by. I couldn't believe I was
kicked out of school but at the other side I was happy that
I would not be receiving the kind of treatment people at
school had always given me. On my way I met Thandie
just after the chic shops.
"Hello Anne, how are you?"
"Good and you?"
"Fine, I was just worried about you," she came close and
squeezed me in her arms. I was also starting to like her
though.
"So wena you are hustling in school clothes?" She
asked.
"Not really, you will get to know what happened," of
course I never wanted to tell her about it.
"Okay then come with me to the studio."
I wouldn't mind because I really wanted to go home the
time schools would've dismissed. We walked in the busy
streets of Polokwane to the suburbs where some Mexicans
lived. We arrived at this big building which looked more
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like the world's greatest malls. I mean it was even higher
than the buildings in Dubai. We walked in and Inside were
wonderful paintings on the walls — music instruments,
modern celebrity pictures, lyrics, quotes; you know all
things that had to do with creativity. That was all that. I
even saw this glass room where there was a group of
dancers and we walked in. It made me stop and follow the
dance moves that I was more familiar with.
"Well I see you are enjoying there?" Thandie even
giggled at me.
"The group is called the McSplash Stars of Dance from
Canada but it is even inviting talented African dancers to
it," she said.
I was starting to get interested in it because yes I had
realised that dancing is my talent and the only thing I
hoped for is that I wouldn't get discriminated in the group.
I just felt like I had found an opportunity to be successful,
famous and be someone who can be counted in the world.
We went to Thandie's apartment where she recorded
music. It had the same designs I had wished would be in
my bedroom one day. She played the guitar and sang one
of Zahara's songs – destiny. The song reminded me of my
mother. She would always play it in her car and even when
she was doing house chores. I had missed her a lot.
Sometimes I knew I was always the reason for her back
pain because if she weren’t pregnant with me that time she
wouldn't get hit; maybe she would have survived and
continued in her normal state. It made me cry.
"What's wrong Anne? You are crying?" She walked
close to me with a guilty face.
"The song reminds me of my mother."
"What happened to her? Is she dead?" She asked with
her eyes wide open.
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"No, we separated the day since she divorced my
father."
"Well I'm really sorry I didn't mean to, at least she is
alive," and she continued, "I lost my mother when I was
nine"
I felt more emotional especially for the fact that I was
crying and yet my mother was alive although there was a
distance between us, but here is a person whose mother
had died. I even felt guilty for my tears. I was even feeling
stupid inside and thinking why am I crying. I have to be
strong and everything will be okay. After some chatting
she later asked me to join her for lunch and it was now
twelve. We had French fries, chicken breasts, mixed fruit
salads and for dessert we had chocolate cake. The food was
very appetising. Thandie made my day and she made me
forget about what had happened earlier. She later walked
me home and I was really happy. The moment I arrived
home, Kesha and Tiiletso were about to go somewhere.
"Afternoon lovely family and where are you up to?"
They were even carrying a monarch with them.
"I am taking Kesha to the hospital, you are about to
have a baby brother," replied Tiiletso.
She had come all the way from Jo'burg just to help
Kesha; what a great work being a big sister.
I was happy that I won’t be the last child at least.
"Your brothers and Kentsani have left for Western
Cape to get their national identity cards," she said. And
continued, "And uBaba is out of town."
"Alright."
I was still fifteen so I would be getting mine the
following year and also if I might be lucky then I would
also get my license. At grade twelve I should be driving
like what the rich kids do. Although we were not rich I
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knew I would become rich from dancing. Yes travelling
all around the world; I really couldn’t wait.
They departed and I was all alone but at least there was
wifi so I would watch movies online and also update my
social media profiles. I took a shower, dressed in one of
Vuyiso’s basketball jerseys he had given me on my
birthday.
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CHAPTER SIX
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CHAPTER SEVEN
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sight!” he shouted angrily.
Who was going to be proud of me? Who was going to
support me in the dance competitions? I started crying on
my way out. I really didn't want to lose control. I ran in
the dark wishing I would find my way out of all this. I
went to the nearest bottle store and for the first time I
drank beer. I just wanted to get drunk and get myself into
a new habit. I had heard people say that drinking and
smoking makes you stress free. I really had to give it a try
because I was fed up. The biggest problem of my life was
my father, he had always argued with me and never
protected me from my own thoughts.
“Dear don't take too much okay?” Said the barman.
I started feeling dizzy after a few glasses and my head
got heavy. The barman started getting worried about me.
I was feeling weak and I couldn't stand.
“I want to lock the bar it's now getting late,” said the
barman.
“Mxm ng'zohamba manje...but I'm not going back to that
house, that son of a bitch is killing me everyday.”
He didn't even pay attention. He walked me out and
stopped a car that was passing by so that I would get
home. I got in the car and the driver kept asking for
directions to my place but I just felt so weak and dizzy the
more.
“Help me out, you are a man just take me to your place.”
“Are you sure wena ntombi?” He asked.
He really looked like a businessman. We drove to his
house and it was indeed a big mansion.
“And wena since when do you bring ama side chicks
akho to my house?” Shouted a pregnant lady standing on
the main door.
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“Hey wena Lettie, she is just a poor girl seeking help.”
He said.
I followed the man indoors and I was starting to get a
little sober. He showed me the guestroom and I quickly
fell asleep.
The couple kept shouting at each other in their
bedroom.
“Dav, kanti yini iproblem yakho,” she continued, “That
girl is drunk and you just picked her up in the streets to
come and sleep in my house. I really don’t want this. I
heard that an albino child is a bad luck.”
The moment I heard her last words I felt like crying,
and at the same time, as if I should wake up and go to slap
her.
The next morning I woke up a bit late feeling tired and
at the same time I was hungry. I was feeling ashamed of
myself. I couldn't get out of the room. I just felt like
jumping through the window when suddenly the
pregnant lady came in.
“What time will you be on your way out, the maid is
about to tidy up the guestrooms?” she said.
“Well actually now.” I took my sneakers and my phone.
“May the Lord bless you. Thank you.” I said.
She showed me the way out and I took a taxi home. The
moment I was on my way back home I realised I had really
travelled a long distance last night. I arrived home and the
doors were locked. Where could everyone be?
I also had to get the party things ready so I just decided
to go to town and buy Jayden some goodies and also his
birthday present. I went home really knowing I won’t be
having the same peace again. Vuyiso and Kakathi were
back at least.
“Where is Kesha?” I asked them.
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“Because she has a baby now you want to teach Kylie
your dance moves? Mxm” Kakathi responded.
“Are you crazy dude? I'm not your buddy akere? What
does that has to do with my dancing career?” He was
really out of his senses.
“Dancing career? I mean compare yourself with me, the
future scientist.” he said.
I almost slapped him, like seriously why would he say
that. So the next day it was Jayden's birthday. I woke up
early and we had to prepare for the party at the park.
Everything was done as planned. We danced, ate and had
a lot of fun. Suddenly he gathered everyone and he looked
depressed with what he was about to say.
“Well thank you a lot for this party guys, well I guess
this will turn into a farewell party after all,” he said.
I was surprised. Where would he be going after all he
was raised in Polokwane? This was his home nje.
“Anne, I know this will hurt you the most but I'm
leaving for good.” He further pricked my heart and
continued, “I am moving to Germany.”
I giggled with tears in my eyes. “No no! Tell me you
are joking, I know people always do pranks on their
birthdays and Jayden you are not an exception. Just tell
me that you are lying.”
He came close to me and squeezed me in his arms. At
that moment I realised he was telling the truth. Jayden
had become my best friend and I couldn't stand losing him.
I really cried and it made people emotional. The disk jocky
played one of the goodbye songs. I was ready to die if
everything was going to turn out this way. His phone rang
and it was his mother telling him to be ready for the early
flight the next day. I walked him home in tears and he kept
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comforting me but that really didn't work. I didn't want to
go home in that state so I walked to the bar again.
This time I really wanted to do some of drug dealing
for real. I guess the moment you get high after sniffing
them all will be totally okay. I made a deal with the bar
man and he drove me to one drug dealer's house. The drug
dealer was more like Rick Ross, I mean money on the table
and the girls all over his house like The Kardashians.
My phone rang and it was my mother in Santiago. For
the first time I declined her call.
“Okay let's make a deal, you will work for me in a men's
club as a stripper and I will give you drugs and thirty five
thousand rands every week, deal?”
Tjo that was really a lot. I mean I wouldn't say no after
all this was exactly what I wanted. I was also given a place
to stay after all. He called one of the strippers and we
drove to another mansion. They were a lot of ladies living
there. They were all dressed in tiny strips of clothing. I
was sharing a room with one of his girlfriends who looked
like NIcki Minaj nje.
“So I will be your roommate and I'm Lakitah,” she said.
“How do you feel being a stripper?” I was really getting
nervous after all I wanted to know.
“Just because I get paid, I have to manage it after all
because I can’t go back to my miserable past,” she said.
“Tell me about it.” I was curious now.
“I grew up with my mother in KZN after my father had
remarried in Gauteng. My mother had a heart problem so
I had to drop school and work on farms for the sake of my
siblings.” She continued, “My mother died and I received
a letter from a friend about being a stripper and getting
paid every week so this is what I do and I always send
money for my siblings back home.” She said.
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What a quite touching history. We talked and talked
and I was later feeling sleepy then I had to sleep. I went
to sleep knowing that the following day I was working
and getting paid a lot of money. I would even use the
money to book a plane and visit Jayden in Germany. He
even sent messages appreciating everything I had done to
him.
The next morning I woke up and Lakitah showed me a
shopping bag. They matched a suit of a crop top and a mini
skirt.
“No thanks, I will wear my jeans.” I don’t wear skirts.
“Listen you are now a stripper so you have to do what
other strippers do.” She said.
“Maar I can’t”
Suddenly they popped out with a gun at her right hand.
“Are you going to do it or not?" she asked.
Just because I was scared, I dressed into the stripper
wear. It was exposing a lot and I didn't feel comfortable.
We drove to the club and there were some strippers’ pole
dancing. I was told to join in but as someone who was used
to hip hop dancing I started doing and rocking some cool
moves. Suddenly Lakitah dragged me outside.
“This is not Chris Brown's club, get inside and do the
right thing.”
I tried and tried and after two weeks I was getting used
to it. It was almost my fourth week and Lakitah gave me
a different offer, and by the way, they hadn't been paying
me since the first week.
“You know the business man who owns three ships,” I
nodded and she continued, “Mamela, he needs you at his
place tonight and he is giving you a cheque of sixty
thousand rands,” she said.
“Tjo I'm going for that, I will get ready.”
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She took me to the salon and I had to get a new
hairstyle. Dreadlocks looked really good on me. The kind
of life I was beginning to live made me forget about all my
struggles as an albino. Later that night I went to the man's
house; it was like a castle in Disney land. Tjo if I get
married to a man like this, it will be heaven on earth. He
welcomed me in and locked all the doors which were
remote controlled.
“You live alone?” I asked.
“Yes baby girl,” he continued, “Come near me.”
“No, I need to visit the bathroom first.”
He pinned me against the walls and started touching
me. The next thing he had his hand in my pants.
“Stop!”
I pushed him and tried to unlock the door. I was really
getting scared. I opened the window and he pushed me on
the sofa. He squeezed my both hands in his and used his
teeth to unbutton my top. He was very strong, I swear I
couldn't even resist him. He rapped me and this wasn't my
first struggle. It also happened when I was in grade seven.
After that he ordered some kidnappers and I was locked
up at some garage far away. I felt like I was in hell guys. I
was in pain. It was just one of different feelings. I really
wanted to die. I was kidnapped for seven weeks. The day
I escaped I went to Lakitah's mansion to get my pay.
“Lakitah I'm here for imali yami.”
“Imali yakho? You didn't do your work as told.”
“Didn't I do the stripper thing? Didn’t I sleep with that
man?”
“You didn't,” she said.
“Listen young lady I'm pregnant uyang'zwa? So I want
my money now.”
“Go to school young guy and make your mommy proud
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akere?” She said
“Mxm”
I can't believe this is how I got paid and I was also
pregnant. I started sleeping in the streets. I started
missing my mother. I had lost my phone so there was no
communication. I later received a letter that she had
passed away after she had an accident and her back bone
broke.
My fellow peers you couldn't believe the much pain that
I was feeling. I fed on dry pieces of bread in the streets. I
would hide my face when I saw my old friends from school
in the streets. Until one day I was ready to commit suicide.
I tied a rope in the tree and climbed up the tree ready for
death. Suddenly it was all in a nightmare, just scary events
while I was asleep. I was later helped by the Pastor who
had prayed for me the other time in hospital. I started
living at an orphanage, not as an orphan but I taught some
orphans how to dance. After a few months I gave birth to
a baby boy who died after a year because of blindness. It
was really hard for me. I continued teaching orphans and
nothing went different. The Pastor always invited me to
church but it never transformed my life so quick. The
elders are never wrong when they say look before you leap,
follow the river and you will find a sea. I started to realise the
value of life after all and I had to fight harder for the best
of life.
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