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It
was a dark, damp, dreary night. The fog from the bay crept along the streets. Climbing on
shadows, whispering to souls beneath the cracks of stone on the cobble streets. You could
not hear the pitiful waves, or crickets –if there were any- or an owl snapping a mouse’s
neck in its beak. The salty air no longer felt cold to naked feet or hands. Dark circles had become black
eyes under windows of a tortured soul. Though one could not feel pity for this creature that huddled in
this narrow alley. This forgotten mortal did not expect warmth from wrapping its arms around a thin
body, nor comfort, nor peace of mind. For pure hatred and disgust and annoyance was etched into its
taut face. And this face that was so cruel, so demon-like that it felt no guilt, was no older than
seventeen. A young girl whose mind has been twisted and gnarled and succumbed to such malice that
it’s unclear whether her heart still beats after being crushed with madness. And all this vexation lies in
truth beside a secret that does not shame her. And if one ever got close enough before or after she went
mad, one would find a scar, stretching from the back of the bottom of her head to her left collar bone.
And an eagle tattooed on the back of her neck, its wings spread in flight aligned with her shoulders. But
during some dreadful night, when this scar was made, one of the eagle’s dark blue wings was broken.
They say a knife was once held, to be thrust into her skull, only to be foiled as she must have
turned, running the knife along her neck. It’s obvious this fight was won. It’s obvious this girl won it.
The thread between genius and madness is spare. And although many believe her to be lost, I
find her balancing still. I wonder what she knows. I wonder what she’s seen. Only someone half mad
could do want she must have done. Only someone half mad could get away with it.
She must have had a name. It must have been spoken once, and the one she goes by now may
or may not be hers. We do not call her by anything, except for those who know her. And those who
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know her, or knew her, are unknown. So her identity remains a secret, though I’m sure she’d tell u
herself, that her name is or was Joanne O’Donnell. A naive name, one that never expects much more of
If you sat beside her, she wouldn’t look your way. But she didn’t leave or move an inch either.
She always had a knife on her and -possibly full, possibly empty- money pouch, a soft pink ribbon, and a
note. The knife and pouch were normal, and the ribbon had to be a memory. But the note was
something else. She sometimes fumbled it in her hands, just feeling the rough parchment. Other times
she read it over and over again. The edges were worn and the lines faded and the tint no longer white
but a decaying gold. And sometimes if you looked really close when you caught her reading the note,
you’d see her dry, thick lips, once holding an “M”, crack into a small, honest, and very real smile.
We wonder what annoyed her, and if it was simply the build of annoyance, abuse, torture and
hatred that was rumored when her name was known, that made her this way. Is the knife she carries
the same that slashed the throats of the undiscovered bodies? We wonder where she went that one
year when she left in hidden red garments. What was it that she found hidden in that note?
Chapter 1
I
watched a brightly painted orange leaf flitter to the ground. The air was nippy, not too cold but I
felt it in the tips of my fingers and up to my shoulders. I let a shudder consume me, not only
because of the wind, but because of the stout woman coming near. Her smile was plastered onto
her face, I imagined her makeup flaking off as the mask it was. My mouth stayed a straight line. This
pompous woman called herself my mother, true or not I did not believe that my father ever loved this
monstrosity. Money. That’s all anyone ever married for. If you had money, you married to get more. This
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fat trout wouldn’t have gotten a first husband otherwise. But he was dead now. And mysteriously this
thing managed to wrap this new gentleman around her fat little finger.
Her white gown was as stiff as their backs as they stood under the thick orange and gold
plumage of a Japanese maple. It’s bending and swaying branches swept the ground, so full of life. The
plump erect pair didn’t seem to belong under its elegance. My gray skirts bobbed in the wind, the
bodice a slightly darker from being made cheap and in haste. It hung too loose around my thin waist.
That woman convinced I was almost as big as her, or rather, she believed she was as small as me. My
corset held me fast under the limp fabric. The dull gray color like overused chalkboard was typical of her.
Anything to wash me out and make me as unattractive as possible so those could wonder how
“someone as pretty as her could produce such an ugly child.” My fair features were not hidden, and
She wrinkled her nose, trying to be cute for the guests, they laughed but she looked just as ugly
as before. Perhaps uglier. She wasn’t old though I enjoyed called her a hag. Some might actually
describe her as homey, plump and the kind that would bustle around a house and eat honey as if it
Our argument still rang in my ears. It was about two months ago when she told me the news
about the wedding. She had called me to the den, but I called it her Cave. The wallpaper no longer was
cream but gray, along with everything else. She seemed to suck the life out of everything she touched.
The leather of sofas and chairs were cracked and bleeding cushions, but only in her Cave. The rest of the
She said in her high, dull, blunt screech she called a voice, “I am marrying Mr. Anderson in two
months time. You will not interfere nor say any word about it. Now out of my sight.”
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Mr. Anderson was actually bigger than she was, amazingly inhuman as that seemed. He looked
as though he might have been handsome once. I didn’t like him at all; his voice was higher that hers and
he had an annoyingly strange habit of smelling everything before he ate it. Not to mention he ate
everything… as in not only food, but things on the desk to things in his ear, smelling each and every one.
No wonder his first wife left him. The money must not have been worth it. He was extremely rude and
naïve. Just the fact that he was mating with this woman bloomed the smallest sympathy in my heart.
Somewhere in the very bottom covered in shadow. Dim, but it was there, and I almost laughed at his
“Make me! What are you going to do? Sit on me? Fat lot of good that’ll do. Kill me next why
don’t you!”
“Don’t look at me like that you impudent child. Like hell I won’t!”
“Don’t want your new toy to hear you. You could lose your money. You fat, sorry excuse of a
mother. You’ll eat the rest of your life bankrupted. I dare you to mess with me and see how well your
little wedding goes. Especially if no one’s there. I don’t think the Priest will perform the ceremony for
murderers.”
“You wouldn’t.”
“Yes I would. And if you don’t unhand me you’ll find my actions quick.”
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“Not if I snap your neck now.”
“No one, but you’re missing half the pleasure of a good kill. You haven’t planned at all on how to
hide yourself. What will be your excuse? That I annoyed you? Posh. You’ll have to do better than that.”
“You rat! I know what you’re doing. Ha! How’s that? Can’t smart mouth if you can’t breathe can
you? But don’t worry, you’re right. I won’t kill you now. I have a wedding. I need to be presentable. And
don’t try running off either. You won’t be let back in when you find yourself starving on the streets. You
leave you die without a penny to your name. You stay; you die after I squeeze every last dime out of
your father’s will. Your choice, but I will have my wedding and you won’t ruin it, understand?”
“I never believed I did or do. Your eyes reveal nothing. They’re dead already.”
“Unhand me.”
“As a final wish, but mark my words, you will have two months. I suggest doing anything you’ve
always wanted. As long as it’s free. I won’t pay for your trivial pastimes.”
“And you mark me, you won’t see a penny from your sick ceremony, and I intend on doing
And that was the end of that. Like usual we were separated until now. I knew she would try to
pull mother-daughter love, but I’d have no part. Let her pay for another daughter for the day. No money
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As the odd yet perfectly matched couple faced each other I slipped away, plucking a red rose
from a bouquet. The wood was familiar enough I didn’t need a path. My isolation from the world
resulted in my familiarity with the trees and brush. I walked with a steady mechanical beat petting the
soft petals, comforting it for having to see the distasteful display before. I reassured myself that she
hadn’t touched them. They were beautiful, but she hated them, called them a molding mess waiting to
happen. I lifted the bulb to my nose and breathed in its sweet perfume. I wanted to feel it swelling and
burst through me with relief in every vein. I wanted to taste it, let it melt on my tongue. But it hardly
I rested against a tree and sunk to the ground. I wanted to close my eyes and watch the sun
make shapes in my eyelids, but they stayed open. I put the rose to my lips, tapping it to a song I didn’t
know. I watched dead, painted leaves fall. I followed a shadow from a stone slowly make its way to
noon.