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2005 M Kukura September 07 Rev 2 PDF
2005 M Kukura September 07 Rev 2 PDF
Wednesday
September 07
2005
Why believe literally what CC writes any more than what Esther
Hicks does? Possibilities. Seeing this made me realize that the
abstract pattern sketched in “The View I Could Not Stand” applies
to me in this regard. We àre alike. I immerse myself in analyzing
every detail of my chosen writer/speaker/communicator never
until now really seriously considering that both communicators
are merely sharing their interpretation – not mine. Mine is
unique.
Conformity for the masses and liberty for the very rare few who
experience emancipation and know self actualization. Some
secret. Some possibilities seem almost unimaginable. Seeing
over the longer term of evolutionary history of the species homo
sapiens (n-s: transgender humans expose the fallacy of dualistic
division. Relativity and absolutivity. Dialecticism – relativity is an
abstract pattern – the other syntax) I see that these are two
extremes with a broad spectrum of fluctuations of intensity.
Conformity or Self Actualization! No wonder I feel the interaction
of the two so acutely. Nowhere could the juxtaposition be so
clearly defined. For the individual too, the experience of
conforming and of emancipated self actualizing are two extremes
of a spectrum of infinite variations of intensity.
Now I can see that this must have been very obvious to
others who knew us in America. Mary has told me she saw
that and out of compassion wanted to help emancipate me.
That was why we became so close until she began to make
her bid to defeat my real mind self all over again. Out of the
fire and into the frying pan it was.
This is not the first time I have been aware of the pattern of
my emancipation. Having just freshly opened up
Castaneda’s last book again, I am well aware again of what I
saw back at the time of the evoys – that I had indeed
experienced a liberation in connection with the assistance
provided by the three women in the front and all those
behind them who influenced them to act in support of my
bid for freedom.
I’ve often had clear insights into the truth that Newton and
Einstein have left us their psychologies disguised as their
science and their physics or their laws and principles. As
with the scientific approach of Siddartha to the reality of the
infinite, the ultimate, it’s possible to strip all the
unnecessary and superfluous trimmings used by Newton
and Einstein to reveal the bare and naked abstract core of
their art. They merely pretend to be physicists or scientists.
At their core they are shamans, they are philosophers (they
held doctoral degrees in philosophy); they are psychologists.
Newton and Einstein are alike in that they chose to explore
and contemplate the psychical regions encompassed by and
limited to physical sensory perception. Both of them
described their journeys into psyche as explorers in new
realms. Both of them saw and artistically represented the
abstract principles of the worlds they witnessed.
I have just this moment seen for the first time that there is a
strategy of emancipation, a strategy of nourishment of
embryonic consciousness, that is prominently perceptible
when the fragments I associate with each of the companions
are joined together. That new. The experience of seeing
this is reminiscent of the experience of seeing the linkage
between the three women who emancipated me from
domination by Gail. Those experiences were some of the
more memorable of the evoys and that was twenty years
ago plus some. This links all of my companions together.
Gail, Elly, Sheila, Mary, Mikki, Coates, Bill, Ruud, Lizza,
Tammi, Rebecca, Hille, Coates and mother now.
“I think that the crux of the matter is that the concept of the mind being a
foreign installation is so outlandish that my mind refuses to take it seriously,” I
said, feeling that I had made a real discovery.
Don Juan did not comment on what I had said. He continued explaining the
issue of the two minds as if I hadn’t said a word.
“To resolve the conflict of the two minds is a matter of intending it,” he said.
“Sorcerers beckon intent by voicing the word intent loud and clear. Intent is a
force that exists in the universe. When sorcerers beckon intent, it comes to
them and sets up the path for attainment, which means that sorcerers always
accomplish what they set out to do.”
“Do you mean, don Juan, that sorcerers get anything they want, even if it is
something petty and arbitrary?” I asked.
“No, I didn’t mean that. Intent can be called, of course, for anything,” he replied,
“but sorcerers have found out, the hard way, that intent comes to them only for
something that is abstract. That’s the safety valve for sorcerers, otherwise they
would be unbearable. In your case, beckoning intent to resolve the conflict of
your two minds, or to hear the voice of your true mind, is not a petty or arbitrary
matter. Quite the contrary, it is ethereal and abstract, and yet as vital to you as
anything can be.” P9,10.
There were many times at about the era of the evoys when I recall
being in enlightened states and seeing that I had access to power
that could be used to accomplish anything I might set out to do.
The thing was, that once I was back in ordinary fragmental
egocentric awareness I just didn’t believe and believed the
opposite (clear evidence of the conflict of my two minds) so that I
would cancel out the beckoning of the force of intent. Now I am
seeing that it is only after the egocentric mind begins to collapse
in utter sobriety that it become possible to believe that such
power is accessible. It’s like Carlos comments in “The Return Trip”
on p 267.
“Don Juan had decribed it as a common occurrence among male sorcerers: an incapacity
to remember events that had transpired while I was in states of heightened awareness.”
A displacement of this kind (heightened awareness) had two consequences for me: an
extraordinary keenness of thought and perception, and an incapacity to remember,
once I was back in my normal state of awareness, what had transpired while I had been
in that other state.”
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