When I was in 9th grade, I can tell that it is like a challenge that changes everything in my life right

now. At first, I thought I was just being a typical sad but I was wrong. It was like a nightmare, it
becomes darker and darker as I have to deal with it every single day in my life. I was struggling
depression back then, It made me feel terrible. I feel like everything in my life is really messed up that
I couldn’t escape. It was a hard time, I have no one to share in my family with that matter because I
know what their reaction will be.They wouldn’t believe, I guess. I can still remember those sleepless
nights where I cried and begged to God, to heal what’s hurting in me. I even asked Him what’s wrong
with me and there’s these phrases that keeps coming back in my mind, “I don’t deserve to live”, “ No
one cares about me”. I struggled for almost 2 years dealing with it, where only my friend knows. I was
helpless and hopeless at the same time. And then suddenly I could’t take it anymore, I was searching
for strength to keep fighting. I realized that I don’t want to live like this for my whole life. I tried to
searched of some practices that will help me become mentally heathy. I worked out, I was keeping
myself busy to avoid these thoughts coming back, and most importantly I value myself. When I feel
like it triggers, I search for some motivations which is really helpful. I have learned a lot with my
personal challenge, I learned that positivity and self love is important among other things in the
world. It will help us grow more and become better version of ourselves. Also, these positivity I have
right now wouldn’t be possible without faith.