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Emotional Intelligence - Mark Manson
EMOTIONAL
INTELLIGENCE
A GUIDE TO
UNDERSTANDING YOURSELF
AND YOUR RELATIONSHIPS
MARK MANSON
MARKMANSON.NET
© 2019
Mark Manson
PART 1: EMOTIONAL AWARENESS
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I have this kind of twisted dream where one day I’d put on one of those
corporate retreats—you know, where they take you out into the middle
of the woods, make everyone turn in their cell phones, and proceed to
do trust falls or drum circles or personality quizzes or whatever is
being pushed by some overpaid “corporate consultant” that year.
(Note: this is one of the many reasons why I’m not a corporate
consultant.)
But maybe getting Dan to feel understood about his depression will
make him have fewer cases of “the Mondays.” Maybe knowing that
Brenda is having a hard time getting over a breakup will both relieve
her and make the rest of us a little more compassionate about her lack
of productivity. And maybe Bill will finally just fucking quit so Teresa’s
life won’t be so miserable every week.
Then maybe—just maybe—everyone will hate their jobs just a little bit
less, they’ll be a little more productive, and my nefarious corporate
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empire will sell a few extra widgets this year. And I can finally do that
bedroom renovation my wife has been dreaming of.
But I digress…
The real reason I’d get everyone to bare their souls and face their
demons in front of everyone else is to get them to finally acknowledge
and explore the real emotions driving their lives:
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● Are you worried about what your parents or neighbors will think
of you if you didn’t work a certain type of job and/or didn’t have
that nice car that’s costing you a fortune...and forcing you to stay
at your dead-end job?
● Is anger and jealousy causing you to be a dick to others because
you got passed up for that promotion and/or rejected for that
date last week?
This might sound ridiculous, but I’d bet that it would produce a lot
better outcomes for everyone, including the corporation, at least in the
long run. But obviously, corporate America will never do this.
This is not another “tactic.” It’s not another “life hack”—this is life.
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internet to boost your sales numbers or have a ton of friends or get
into someone’s pants that you’ve been chasing around this month.
Now, those things might happen as a side effect, but again, they’re not
the point.
If this is starting to sound a little weird to you, well buckle up, because
the rest of this guide is only going to get weirder.
I’m here to turn your little emotional world upside down and inside
out, leaving you wondering whether you should be angry, overjoyed,
sad, excited, confused, or outright mind-fucked.
But don’t worry, by the end of this, you’ll have a better handle on all
those feelings.
Feelings are just these… things that happen. The meaning we build
around them–what we decide is important or unimportant–comes
later.
But more often, these two things don’t align. Something feels shitty
but is right/good (getting up at 5AM and going to the gym, hanging
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out with grandma Joanie for an afternoon and making sure she’s still
breathing), or something feels fucking great but is the bad/wrong
thing to do (pretty much anything involving penises).
Acting based on our feelings is easy. You feel it. Then you do it. It’s like
scratching an itch. There’s a sense of relief and cessation that comes
along with it. It’s a quick satisfaction. But then that satisfaction is gone
just as quickly as it came.
The point is: doing what is good/right builds self-esteem and adds
meaning to our lives.
Well, like many things in life, it is simple. But that doesn’t necessarily
mean it’s easy.
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Philosophers have been trying to nail this good/right thing down for, oh, about 2,500 years. So don’t get
down on yourself if you don’t get it on your first try.
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The problem is that the brain doesn’t like to feel conflicted about its
decision making. It doesn’t like uncertainty or ambiguity and will do
mental acrobatics to avoid any discomfort. And our brain’s favorite
way to do this is to always try to convince itself that whatever feels
good is the same as what is good/right.
So you know you shouldn’t eat that ice cream. But your brain says,
“Hey, you had a hard day, a little bit won’t kill ya.” And you’re like,
“Hey, you’re right! Thanks, brain!” What feels good suddenly feels
right. And then you shamelessly inhale a pint of Cherry Garcia.
You know you shouldn’t cheat on your exam, but your brain says,
“You’re working two jobs to put yourself through college, unlike these
spoiled brats in your class. You deserve a little boost from
time-to-time,” and so you sneak a peek at your classmate’s answers
and voila, what feels good is also what feels right.
You know you should vote, but you tell yourself that the system is
corrupt, and besides, your vote won’t matter anyway. And so you stay
home and play with your new drone that’s probably illegal to fly in
your neighborhood. But fuck it, who cares? This is America and the
whole point is to get fat doing whatever you want. That’s like, the sixth
amendment, or something.2
If you do this sort of thing long enough–if you convince yourself that
what feels good is the same as what is good–then your brain will
actually start to mix the two up. Your brain will start thinking the
whole point of life is to just feel really awesome, as often as possible.
And once this happens, you’ll start deluding yourself into believing
that your feelings actually matter. And once that happens, well…
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Sadly, the American Dream has mutated into this mass delusional form of “what feels good is what is
right” type thing. It’s arguably at the root of a lot of our social and cultural problems at the moment.
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Now, if this is rubbing you the wrong way right now, just think about it
for a second. Everything that’s screwed up in your life, chances are it
got that way because you were too beholden to your feelings. You were
too impulsive. Or too self-righteous and thought yourself the center of
the universe. Feelings have a way of doing that, you know? They make
you think you’re the center of the universe. And I hate to be the one to
tell you, but you’re not.
A lot of young people hate hearing this because they grew up with
parents who worshipped their feelings as children, and protected
those feelings, and tried to buy as many candy corns and swimming
lessons as necessary to make sure those feelings were nice and fuzzy
and protected at all times.
Sadly, these parents probably did this because they were also beholden
to their own feelings, because they were unable to tolerate the pain of
watching a child struggle, even if just for a moment.
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feel good all the time is pretty much a first-class ticket to having no
friends once you hit adulthood.
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have studied in school. All they can do is tell you what is best for
you now… and even that is debatable.
Or ever get really jealous or upset with somebody close to you for
a completely imagined reason? Like their phone dies and you
start thinking they hate you and never liked you and were just
using you for your Boy George tickets?
The problem is when you start trying to control your own emotions,
the emotions multiply. It’s like trying to exterminate rabbits. The
fuckers just keep popping up all over the place.
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Be vewy, vewy quiet, I’m trying to get rid of my fucking feelings.
There are four types of meta-feelings: feeling bad about feeling bad
(self-loathing), feeling bad about feeling good (guilt), feeling good
about feeling bad (self-righteousness), and feeling good about feeling
good (ego/narcissism).
Here, let me put those into a pretty little table for you to stare at:
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MEET YOUR META-FEELINGS
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They’re basically the sense of what is justified/not justified. They’re
our own acceptance of how we should respond emotionally and how
we shouldn’t.
If you always feel good about feeling good, you will become
self-absorbed and feel entitled to those around you.
If feeling good makes you feel bad about yourself, then you’ll become
this walking, talking pile of guilt and shame, feeling as though you
deserve nothing, have earned nothing, and have nothing of value to
offer to the people or the world around you.
And then there are those who feel bad about feeling bad. These
“positive thinkers” will live in fear that any amount of suffering
indicates that something must be sorely wrong with them.
People who feel good about feeling bad get to enjoy a certain righteous
indignation. They feel morally superior in their suffering, that they are
somehow martyrs in a cruel world.
Much of the social strife that we’re experiencing today is the result of
these meta-feelings. Moralizing mobs on both the political right and
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left see themselves as victimized and somehow special in every
miniscule pain or setback they experience. Greed skyrockets while the
rich congratulate themselves on being rich in tandem with the
increasing rates of anxiety and depression as the lower and middle
classes hate themselves for feeling left behind.
These narratives are spun not only by ourselves but fed by the
narratives invented in the media.
Maybe I’m sad today. Maybe there are eight different reasons I can be
sad today. Maybe some of them are important and some of them
aren’t. But I get to decide how important those reasons are–whether
those reasons state something about my character or whether it’s just
one of those sad days.
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This is the skill that’s perilously missing today: the ability to de-couple
meaning from feeling, to decide that just because you feel something,
it doesn’t mean life is that something.
Fuck your feelings. Sometimes, good things will make you feel bad.
Sometimes, bad things will make you feel good. That doesn’t change
the fact that they are good/bad. Sometimes, you will feel bad about
feeling good about a bad thing and you will feel good about feeling bad
about a good thi–you know what?
This doesn’t mean you should ignore your feelings. Feelings are
important. But they’re important not for the reasons we think they are.
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of these things. There’s no meaning attached to feelings. Sometimes
you hurt for a good reason. Sometimes for a bad reason. And
sometimes no reason at all.
The point is that you get to decide. And many of us have either
forgotten or never realized that fact. But we decide what our pain
means. Just as we decide what our successes expose.
And more often than not, any answer except one will tear you apart
inside. And that answer is: nothing.
The sooner you realize this, the sooner you can escape those vicious
feedback loops in your mind.
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PART 2: THE FEEDBACK LOOP FROM
HELL
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There’s an insidious quirk to your brain that, if you let it, can drive you
absolutely batty. Tell me if this sounds familiar to you:
You get anxious about confronting somebody in your life. That anxiety
cripples you and you start wondering why you’re so anxious. Now
you’re becoming anxious about being anxious. Oh no! Doubly anxious!
Now you’re anxious about your anxiety, which is causing more anxiety.
Quick, where’s the whiskey?
Or let’s say you have an anger problem. You get pissed off at the
stupidest, most inane stuff, and you have no idea why. And the fact
that you get pissed off so easily starts to piss you off even more. And
then, in your petty rage, you realize that being angry all the time
makes you a shallow and mean person, and you hate this; you hate it
so much that you get angry at yourself.
Now look at you: you’re angry at yourself getting angry about being
angry. Fuck you, wall. Here, have a fist.
Or you’re so worried about doing the right thing all the time that you
become worried about how much you’re worrying.
Or you feel so guilty for every mistake you make that you begin to feel
guilty about how guilty you’re feeling.
Or you get sad and alone so often that it makes you feel even more sad
and alone just thinking about it.
Welcome to the Feedback Loop from Hell. Chances are you’ve engaged
in it more than a few times.
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feel like such a loser for calling myself a loser. I should stop calling
myself a loser. Ah, fuck! I’m doing it again! See? I’m a loser! Argh!”
Believe it or not, this is part of the beauty of being human. Very few
animals on earth have the ability to think cogent thoughts to begin
with, but we humans have the luxury of being able to have thoughts
about our thoughts.
Now here’s the problem: Our society today, through the wonders of
consumer culture and hey-look-my-life-is-cooler-than-yours social
media, has bred a whole generation of people who believe that having
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these negative experiences—anxiety, fear, guilt, etc.—is totally not
okay.
Look, eight people got married this week! And some sixteen-year-old
on TV got a Ferrari for her birthday. And another kid just made two
billion dollars inventing an app that automatically delivers you more
toilet paper when you run out.
Meanwhile, you’re stuck at home flossing your cat. And you can’t help
but think your life sucks even more than you thought.
Back in Grandpa’s day, he would feel like shit and think to himself,
“Gee whiz, I sure do feel like a cow turd today. But hey, I guess that’s
just life. Back to shoveling hay.”
But now? Now if you feel like shit for even five minutes, you’re
bombarded with 350 images of people totally happy and having
amazing fucking lives, and it’s impossible to not feel like there’s
something wrong with you.
It’s this last part that gets us into trouble. We feel bad about feeling
bad. We feel guilty for feeling guilty. We get angry about getting angry.
We get anxious about feeling anxious. What is wrong with me?
This is why not giving a fuck is so key. This is why it’s going to save the
world. And it’s going to save it by accepting that the world is totally
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fucked and that’s all right, because it’s always been that way, and
always will be.
By not giving a fuck that you feel bad, you short-circuit the Feedback
Loop from Hell; you say to yourself, “I feel like shit, but who gives a
fuck?” And then, as if sprinkled by magic fuck-giving fairy dust, you
stop hating yourself for feeling so bad.
George Orwell said that to see what’s in front of one’s nose requires a
constant struggle. Well, the solution to our stress and anxiety is right
there in front of our noses, and we’re too busy watching porn and
advertisements for ab machines that don’t work to notice, wondering
why we’re not banging a hot blonde with a rocking six-pack.
Because here’s the thing that’s wrong with all of the “How to Be
Happy” shit that’s been shared eight million times on Facebook in the
past few years—here’s what nobody realizes about all of this crap:
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The desire for more positive experience is itself a negative
experience. And, paradoxically, the acceptance of one’s
negative experience is itself a positive experience.
The more you desperately want to be rich, the poorer and more
unworthy you feel, regardless of how much money you actually make.
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The more you desperately want to be sexy and desired, the uglier you
come to see yourself, regardless of your actual physical appearance.
The more you desperately want to be happy and loved, the lonelier and
more afraid you become, regardless of those who surround you.
It’s like this one time I tripped on acid and it felt like the more I
walked toward a house, the farther away the house got from me.
As the existential philosopher Albert Camus said (and I’m pretty sure
he wasn’t on LSD at the time): “You will never be happy if you
continue to search for what happiness consists of. You will never live if
you are looking for the meaning of life.”
Don’t try.
Now, I know what you’re saying: “Mark, this is making my nipples all
hard, but what about the Camaro I’ve been saving up for? What about
the beach body I’ve been starving myself for? After all, I paid a lot of
money for that ab machine! What about the big house on the lake I’ve
been dreaming of? If I stop giving a fuck about those things—well,
then I’ll never achieve anything. I don’t want that to happen, do I?”
Ever notice that sometimes when you care less about something, you
do better at it? Notice how it’s often the person who is the least
invested in the success of something that actually ends up achieving
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it? Notice how sometimes when you stop giving a fuck, everything
seems to fall into place?
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To try to avoid pain is to give too many fucks about pain.
By contrast, if you’re able to not give a fuck about the pain, you
become unstoppable.
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PART 3: THE THREE LEVELS OF
SELF-AWARENESS
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Disidentifying from your emotions and escaping the feedback loop
from hell are really just two ways of being more self-aware. And
gaining more self-awareness is a big step in the journey to emotional
maturity.
The fact is that the majority of our thoughts and actions are on
autopilot. This isn’t necessarily a bad thing either. Our habits,
routines, impulses, and reactions carry us through our lives so we
don’t have to stop and think about it every time we wipe our ass or
start a car.
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The problem is when we’re on autopilot for so long that we forget
we’re on autopilot. Because when we’re not even aware of our own
habits, routines, impulses, and reactions, then we no longer control
them; they control us.
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Chances are if you add all of those up, you’re going to be pretty close to
30 out of the last 30 days. That’s a lot of suckage!
Now, there’s nothing wrong with distraction. We all need some sort of
diversion to keep us sane and happy.
Put another way, we need to make sure that we’re choosing our
distractions and our distractions aren’t choosing us. We’re the ones
opting into the distraction, rather than simply being unable to opt out
of distraction. We need to know when we’re checking out. Our
distraction needs to be planned and moderated in bite-sized chunks.
We can’t binge on distraction.
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Most people spend much of their day drowned in a sea of distraction
without even realizing it. I do it, too. The other night at dinner, I
pulled out my phone to look at my calendar, and next thing I knew, I
was browsing video game forums on Reddit. Meanwhile, my wife is
staring at me as if I just had a lobotomy or something.
I’m getting better. This only happens about 23 times per day. Or
sometimes I do that thing where I’ll have Facebook open, and then I’ll
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open another tab and instinctively type in the URL for… Facebook, the
site I was already looking at. I don’t even realize I do it, but it’s my
mind’s automatic move to disconnect (or in this case, disconnect from
its disconnection).
We all think we know how we’re using our time. But we’re usually
wrong. We think we work more than we do (studies show most people
top out somewhere around three hours of actual work per day,3 the
rest is just fucking around). We think we spend more time with our
friends and loved ones than we do. We think we’re more present than
we are, that we’re better listeners than we are, that we’re more
thoughtful and intelligent than we are. But the truth is, we’re all pretty
bad at this.
Now, some people take the hardline approach of trying to remove all
distraction from their lives. This is a bit extreme. If time management
and self-awareness was a religion, this approach would be like
strapping a bomb to your chest and blowing up a mall thinking you’ve
got a one-way ticket to 72 distraction-free virgins, when really, you’re
just going to self-destruct (and probably harm a lot of people around
you in the process).
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Curtin, M. (2016, July 21). In an 8-Hour Day, the Average Worker Is Productive for This Many Hours.
Inc.
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The goal here is the elimination of compulsion. But to eliminate
compulsion you must first become aware of compulsion. When are you
engaging in an activity even though you don’t want to be engaging in
it? When are you checking out mentally and why? Is it around family?
Friends? Co-workers?
For years I used to carry around an iPod and put headphones on every
time I went into public. Leaving the house without it felt like I was
naked. For years, I just assumed I was really into music way more than
other people, that there was some special need inside me for badass
tunes that other people simply didn’t understand.
Don’t judge these observations, simply have them. This is the first
level of self-awareness, a simple understanding of where your mind
goes and when. You must be aware of the paths your mind likes to take
before you can begin to question why it takes those paths and whether
those paths are helping or hurting you.
What people often find is that the more they remove themselves from
distraction, the more they are forced to actually deal with a lot of the
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emotions that they’ve been avoiding for a long time. This is why
meditating for a long time freaks a lot of people out; meditation is
basically the practice of training your mind to become less distracted
and more focused on your immediate experience. The result is that
some people become overwhelmed by all of the feelings they’ve been
bottling up forever.
Therapy has a similar effect, but rather than quieting your mind and
staring at a wall for hours on end, you’re sitting on a couch and a really
nice and friendly-looking man/lady is slowly guiding you back to how
you feel, over and over, until your mind finally capitulates and you’re
snotting everywhere and crying like an upset child.
This second level of self-awareness is where you really start finding out
“who you are.” I hate using that phrase because it doesn’t really mean
anything, but this is the level that people talk about when they say they
are “finding themselves”—they are discovering how they actually feel
about the shit going on in their life, and often they have been hiding
these feelings from themselves for years.
Once they’re removed from these contexts they start to realize things
like, “Oh damn, I’m really sensitive and am sad a lot, and holy shit, I
never allowed myself to feel that because I thought it made me weak or
pathetic, but actually my sadness is part of what makes me different.”
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all of your emotions. Going back through those emotions and allowing
them to take place is something that requires a lot of focus and a lot of
effort.
But a lot of people also get held up on Level 2. They think Level 2 is as
deep as it goes and they get lost wallowing in their feelings for the rest
of forever. I think this happens for a couple reasons.
The first is that emotions are powerful, especially for people who have
been suppressing their emotions for most of their lives. Suddenly
opening up to them will feel life-changing and incredibly profound.
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You probably felt good looking at that.4 Now does that feeling mean
anything? Fuck no, it’s just a puppy. But a lot of people ascribe
profundity to any and every emotion that arises. It’s a simple but often
disastrous error. They assume that because some emotions are
incredibly important and vital, that all emotions must be incredibly
important and vital. And that’s simply not the case. A lot of emotions
are pointless or—and here’s the kicker—merely distractions!
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If not, then you’re a terrible human being.
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Yes, you heard me. Emotions can also be distractions. From what?
From other emotions.
See, there’s another subtle little trap with emotions. And that’s the fact
that analyzing one emotion will generate another. So you can end up
in this endless loop of self-inquiry, which, after a while, will turn you
into a really self-obsessed person.
But wait, hold on, this one deserves its own section.
CAVEAT – THE ENDLESS NAVEL-GAZEY SPIRAL OF DOOM
Upon arriving at the top of the mountain, the sage greeted the young
man and invited him to ask him anything (note: this was way before
Reddit threads). The young man then asked him his question, “Great
sage, we stand upon the world, but what does the world stand upon?”
The sage immediately replied, “The world rests upon the back of a
number of great elephants.”
The young man thought for a moment, and then asked, “Yes, but what
do the elephants stand upon?”
The sage replied again, without hesitation, “The elephants rest upon
the back of a great turtle.”
The young man, still not satisfied, asked, “Yes, but what does the great
turtle rest upon?”
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The young man, growing frustrated, began to ask, “But what does–”
“No, no,” the sage interrupted, “stop there–it’s turtles all the way
down.”
Layer 1: I’m aware that I’m writing this sentence right now—I feel
tired, a bit cloudy-headed, but also anxious to make progress on this
piece before I go to bed tonight.
Layer 2: I’m aware of my own anxiety and worried that this is a bad
trend in my recent work habits. Why am I up working at 1:30 AM
anyway? I’d probably write better if I got some sleep.
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Layer 5: I’m also aware that my Layer 4 awareness is hardly
comprehensible.
[…]
Layer 193: This shit is turtles all the way down, isn’t it?
A lot of people get caught in the trap of always looking one level
deeper. Doing this feels important but the truth is that beyond a
certain level, it’s just a navel-gazey spiral of doom. It’s turtles all the
way down. And the act of looking deeper itself will sometimes generate
more feelings of anxiety, despair, and self-judgment than it relieves.
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When looking at layers of intention and motivation, it’s best to just go
a few layers down until you start repeating yourself. You may be
anxious about your relationship with your mother. Let’s say that
anxiety stems from the fact that your mom is hyper-judgmental and
you fall into this unconscious habit of desperately trying to prove to
her that you’re not a piece of shit. This need to prove to her that you’re
worthy is underpinned by your desire to be loved. This realization then
makes you more anxious – an anxiety driven by the desire to please
your mother, which is underpinned by your desire to be loved – we’re
spiraling now. It’s time to just draw the line and say it’s turtles all the
way down and move on. You want love from mom and that’s that.5
And with that, I’m going to stop thinking about this section and just go
to bed.
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In her book Insight, Tasha Eurich points out that people get caught up when asking “why” questions too
much. “What” questions, on the other hand, get to the root of the problem faster. In this example: Why
are you anxious about your relationship with your mom? Because I need love. Why do you need love?
Because I need to feel secure and safe. Why…turtles turtles turtles… Instead, if you simply ask what you
would need to not feel so anxious about your relationship with your mother, you quickly get to “I need
love from my mother” and you’re both more self-aware in the situation and you have a tangible problem
to solve instead of gazing at your navel in an endless turtle dive.
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movie was good, the more I’ll relish the fact that I get to argue with her
about it – because it suddenly becomes a way to justify my anger.
(By the way, if you ever wondered why we tend to fight the most with
the ones we love the most, this is partly why: we can use them as an
emotional punching bag to validate all the crap that we are feeling,
whether they deserve it or not – usually not.)
I’ve written quite a bit about how flawed our conscious minds are,
both in my book and on this site. But to give a quick synopsis:
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contradictory memories of it (think of two opposing sports fans
both convinced they saw the ball land in or out of bounds.)
● Most of us, when given the opportunity, will tell small lies to
improve our results. Sometimes (i.e., usually), we’ll even tell
these lies to ourselves.
I could keep going, but I’ll stop there. Basically, the point is that you
suck, I suck, everybody sucks. Humans kind of suck. All the time.
And that’s OK. The important thing is just that we’re self-aware about
it. If we know our weaknesses then they stop being weaknesses.
Otherwise, we become enslaved to our mind’s faulty mechanisms.
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1. Hold weaker opinions. Recognize that unless you are an expert in
a field, there is a good chance that your intuitions or assumptions
are flat-out wrong. The simple act of telling yourself (and others)
before you speak, “I could be wrong about this,” immediately
puts your mind in a place of openness and curiosity. It implies an
ability to learn and to have a closer connection to reality.
Also, if you’re having trouble with this, one of the best ways to wrap
your head around your blind spots is to get feedback from other
people.
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their mind places and do all the work and practice the self-discovery
and open themselves to their emotions and their big takeaway from all
this will be, “I’m a piece of shit.”
They will see all their internal flaws, and come to understand their
biases and irrational mechanisms, and they will get a handle on their
distractions and their weak emotions.
And they will hate it. All of it. It will cause them to hate themselves.
Obviously, walking around and calling yourself a piece of shit for every
other thought or emotion you have is not exactly what we would call
the zenith of emotional health. In fact, this tendency is, ironically,
downright shitty itself.
But no, that’s not the point. Self-awareness is wasted if it does not
result in self-acceptance. The research bears this out, too:
self-awareness doesn’t make everyone happier, it makes some people
more miserable. Because if great self-awareness is coupled with
self-judgment, then you’re merely becoming more aware of all the
ways you deserve to be judged.6
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human dilemma.” Journal of Social and Clinical Psychology, 23(4), 475–489.
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These emotional outbursts and cognitive biases, they exist in everyone,
all the time. You’re not a bad person for having them just as other
people aren’t necessarily bad people for having them either. They’re
just human. And you’re just human.
Plato said that all evil is rooted in ignorance. If you think of the evilest,
shittiest people imaginable, they are shitty not because they have
flaws—but because they refuse to admit that they have flaws.
I saw a news story recently about some looney conspiracy theorist who
believes that all mass shootings are staged. This guy actually travels to
communities where these mass shootings occurred and confronts the
victims. He stands in front of parents of dead children and calls them
liars.
And he’s definitely nowhere near Level 3 where he’s able to actually
recognize that his conspiracy theories are elaborate networks of
irrational beliefs and impossible assumptions designed to protect
himself from these feelings on Level 2.
When looked at this way, you almost feel sorry for the guy. You see
how much he must suffer psychologically and how that psychological
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suffering drives him to do horrible, horrible things to the people who
are legitimately victims around him.
Welcome to empathy.
“Oh, he’s fucked up, too. I used to believe shit like that. I wonder what
he’s running from?”
This isn’t to say that empathy and compassion will solve all the world’s
ills. They won’t. But they certainly won’t make anything worse.
And here’s where that old cliche comes in, about only being able to
love others in proportion to how much we love ourselves.
And because I’ve come to terms with those flaws in myself, I’m able to
come to terms and forgive those flaws in others. And it’s only in this
way that any real love becomes possible.
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Our relationships—with others and even with ourselves—will become
transactional, conditional, and ultimately toxic and fail.
And for this reason, a couple years ago, I began to manage my own
community of readers.
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