Well Fernanda, I wanted to write some special words only for you, I havent told you a lot of

things, that i will try to say some of them now. You are the special reason that why this cruise
was my best. You literally change my life, with you i have some of the best experiencies of my
life, and i cant belive that were only had five nights since we do the firts step, you know? Im
happy because i remember each moment that we had. I was in the plane to London and i was
listening to music, that I've listened in the cruice, and... well a lot of things come to my mind, I
remember each felling that i had, like the first day that i saw you, the moment when we play
fifa on the first time, the first time together in the disco, when i went out and you followed me,
that time outside ibiscus, our first kiss, the moments in the bars, the way that you looked at
me, and the way that i looked at you, our last hours, the way that you were waiting me next to
the elevators yesterday and you said to me "oh, no you're leaving" and i was thinking "No man,
dont cry, dont cry" fuck, this is so difficult. Every song that im listening right now are
rememebering to you. This so beautiful. Im having flashback of those moments every time
right now. Wow. I never feel like this way. I remember each time when i was paying atention if
you were okay, if you had cold, if you were tired, if you were mad, if you were happy or if you
were confortable, that was like this since i met you. I loved each strong hug (o abrazo) that i
gave you, every passionate kiss that i gave you with all my soul, that little kisses, every moment
when you were using my jacket,  that fucking sunrise i will never forget... I remember that little
conversation that we had when we were alone, when I said to you "What are you thinking
now? What are you thinking about this moment?" so you answered "I dont know... What are
you thinking?" and... Fuck, i dont know, Im remembering a lot of things, and i loved everyone
of this.

I loved, i fucking loved every time when we went out to see the stars, fuck, when we went out
the disco to see the back of the ship, everytime you said that you have cold and i gave you my
jacket

I love remember you so well, I dont know, its like im living that moment again. Sometimes, I
dont know why, I feel your smell, and I close my eyes and I feel like im hugging you again, you
know? Fuck Now I'm  thinking that we are so far away, than never will be again.

Fuck, fuck, fuck, this is hard, you know? It is unbelievable how just only 10 days or five days can
tell a lot of stories, how someone can remember every moment, every felling, every thinking.
Fuck, Its unbelievable too, how in only 10 days someone can feel love to another (I hope did
you understand this). I think that it's right, love hasn't got an explanation...

Love is a such beautiful thing, i hope that you will feel the same love that i feel with you in
during your long life (fuck, i dont know if it is understandable, i dont want you understand it in
a different context) 

You are my first lovely experience, so i will ever remember you, and it was fantastic, I want
that you know how importat you are for me, fuck

I thanks to Ana for said me to kiss you, fuck, i was a stupid. I really like that moment, sorry. It
was so special for me

Yesterday when you were leaving the cabine at 7:15 i was behind you and... fuck, all the things
that i think at that moment Look, all that little things literally touched my soul, it felt like
different, new for me, that feelings were so powerful.
I wanna tell you that now i have the bracelet that you gave me in my hand, i feel so much with
that thing... I almost cry when you gave it to me, I thought "Fuck, this girl is amazing, I love her,
fuck, fuck, fuck"

I would have like know you much better, I dont know anything about you, about your life, your
story, your family, about your feelings, about your thoughts, about how you live your life, and
which is the way that you follow. Fuck... a lot of things that i want to know

I show what that i think was the secret of all this shit. The secret because after i had asked
something instantly happend. I think this is da wey. There was a day that i ask something that i
didnt want and the things went wrong, i felt bad that day. I think that is the secret, if you
really, really wants something, I ask you to go outside, i prefer during the night, and look the
stars, be sure of what you want and ask it, like if it were god, is the same. You need to be sure.
The last nights when i were getting ready for go out, i looked through the mirror, and I thought
what i want, and became sure of that. And later, before went to the club, I went outside the
ship, I looked the stars and like if it was someone I started to ask... So every night you were in
my thoughts. The most important thing here is the faith...

I dont know why, because this is unexplained, the things happened. I always had an
opportunity but i didnt planned. It was so crazy. I think that this is the thing, this is the secret
of life, this is the way to make your life successful. Im sure because it was so clearly how it
works. It was so clearly how the things became true by themselves, all did like this.

This is hard to explain because i think it and i realised that i ask for something like this for a
while, and think that this shit is resposable of everything, from that our family choose the
same cruise, the same dates to meet among us. Fuck, i dont know, this is crazy, im thinking a
lot.

I've told you that i love the music, and here it was very, very important. The music is so
powerful, you need to find out what kind of music do you like, and you mustnt hear that
commercial music, that dont worth anything. Music can help you in every difficulties. Music
makes me feel a lot of things, that is incredible, the right music for you can be the key for
everything. I ask you listen another kinds of music, taste other genres, listen classics  from the
70s, 80s and 90s, that will open your mind

I think when you will read this, you have already leaved the cruise, and I hope you will
remember every each part of the cruise where we were together, like i do. After the cruise you
will come back to your hometown, dont you? So I wish you have a nice trip. Your family is
wonderful, i loved you mum, she was so good with me

I wrote all of this to show you how much worth can you be for someone, or how much value
can be for someone. You can make big changes to anyone. You are powerful, you musn't think
the opposite, you can do a lot of things, you are amazing Fernanda. You deserves everything,
my love, you deserves everything you wish...

I hope you could understand everything. And I wanna tell you that I love you, you enter to my
body, to my soul, and you did a party there, I love it. I've alredy read what you wrote me, and I
dont know what else can I said. You are the good bye, that i never gonna learn how to say. I
want to give you the hugs and kisses that I used to do, but you are far away. I love you
Fernanda, I fucking love you, I dont know other way how to tell you this, how express this.
I wanna tell you that every time that i wrote “Fuck”, I was crying, i didnt knew how to express
that moment.

I love you.