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Michael J. Diamond
To cite this article: Michael J. Diamond (2020) The Elusiveness of “The Feminine” in The Male
Analyst: Living�in Yet Not Being�of The Binary, The Psychoanalytic Quarterly, 89:3, 503-526, DOI:
10.1080/00332828.2020.1772671
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BY MICHAEL J. DIAMOND
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version, God creates Eve first and then tells her he will create a husband
for her. “What’s a husband?” Eve asks. God replies, “He’s someone who
can fight to protect you from enemies and who will hunt to help you
acquire food to eat.” Eve thinks that sounds pretty good, so she tells God
that it’s fine by her. “But,” God adds, “one thing you must understand –
he’s going to need to think he’s first so you will have to let him think that it
is so!”
I suggest that the joke’s wit connects deeply with something known
more unconsciously. Consequently, I will attempt to clarify how and why
such cognizance of the psyche of the “other” seems to more naturally
reflect what we tend to think of as “feminine.” In aiming to help male
analysts more successfully bear the tensions related to the feminine other-
ness within, I will contend that the feminine contained by the male ana-
lyst’s psyche stands for the recognition (and acknowledgement) of the
other within the self. As implied in the article’s title, I will argue that it is
vital for analysts to understand that while we live in a sexual (and gen-
der) binary of male/female, we are not subjectively positioned within it.
Consequently, we remain capable of making use of “feminine” and
“masculine” parts of ourselves – namely, our inherent “bigenderality”
wherein gender and sex stand less conflated.
wondered if Seth and I were both avoiding analytic work, perhaps from
my own more masculine, phallic perspective.
However, in reflecting now in terms of psychic bigenderality, per-
haps through tolerating both the shame and satisfactions of living with
my own bigendered tensions, might it have become more possible for
Seth to access what his shame had cordoned off? Nonetheless (and
regardless of the actual mechanism), as if from nowhere, something was
becoming formed: Seth recalled how “traumatized” he had been when
his father first separated from the family, and again later, during
puberty, when his father – out of jealousy – stopped paying for his fruit-
ful work with Dr. B, a child psychologist to whom Seth had grown very
attached. Seth was relieved and very moved when I subsequently inter-
preted his wish that I become his “new Dr. B,” who would remain avail-
able to recognize what he needed in order to develop. It was becoming
more apparent that the dream of my holding his penis—though overde-
termined, to be sure—indicated his longing for a stable, primarily preoe-
dipal and dyadic parental, even ambigendered attachment that allowed
him to simply be. I could then address this directly rather than focusing
on the dream’s conflictual, oedipal facets (and thus to take up the penis-
holding as a regressive defense).
Seth’s shame around feeling insufficiently masculine quickly
became our central focus. He described his forceful need to hide what he
called his “emotional self” in a “dark cave” lest he experience himself as
“weak and feminine,” by using an exaggerated yet aloof “masculine”
demeanor to repudiate his emotional self. The “cave” housing his emo-
tions suggested the vagina’s darkness that speaks to both the depth and
the terror of his early bodily identification with his mother. However, in
addition to the shame-ridden danger of the sensual-erotic contact in his
initial feminine/maternal identification, Seth also sought a mother who
could affirm his little-boy maleness by holding his penis in a sensual, loving
manner. And finally, partly signified by my own memory that helped me
further access and tolerate any shame associated with the feminine in
myself that is also necessary to affirm maleness (represented by a penis
of any size), I was beginning to find in Seth something that, because of
his struggles within the gender binary, resulted in uncompromising
attacks on his emotional, needy, and multigendered self.
ELUSIVENESS OF “THE FEMININE” IN THE MALE ANALYST 521
Several months later, Seth dreamt that he was playing a piano, only
to become overwhelmed by sadness and to cry uncontrollably.
Embarrassed, he tried to leave the room without being seen but was able
neither to get up nor to stop crying. In associating, Seth remembered
how, as a small child, he had loved hearing his mother play the piano.
His uncontrollable crying reminded him of being overcome by feelings
of loss as he recalled his maternal grandfather’s death, his parents’ sep-
aration, and his mother’s subsequent depression. While opening himself
to a long-familiar sadness and longing that he had sought to disavow, he
realized that this emotional memory attached to his mother remained
very much inside him and was connected to an attraction to, and a terror
of, “feminine” women, as well as his “repulsion” to touching his mother.
I continued to allow for time and space so that what could be found and
birthed—that is, gestated sufficiently before being named—could
come alive.
Toward the end of our work, Seth brought in a series of dreams
involving urinals. In one dream, despite feeling uncomfortably exposed,
he was using an unusually shaped public urinal, an expression of his
long-standing desire to freely urinate in public. At an adjacent urinal, a
very masculine man who had been squatting like a woman stood up
aggressively and shouted, “I am a man!” Seth then assertively and freely
pissed into a urinal that no longer seemed so oddly shaped. His growing
comfort with his maleness, including his aggressive and loving feelings,
had become clearer to him, and he wondered aloud, “What the hell is so
bad about wanting to win a pissing contest, anyway!” Seth was integrating
what had been split apart—in other words, the woman inside him could
begin to coexist alongside the emerging man. Seth was increasingly able
to play his mother’s ‘piano,’ to feel his sadness, and still openly display
his piss and vinegar (i.e., express his manliness and aggression in the
world around him).
In short, to appreciate his maleness in its essential emotional and
nongendered diversity—that is, his not being of the binary—Seth needed
my analytic help in establishing an ongoing dialogue between his gen-
dered—or, more accurately, multigendered, internal objects. And as I
hope to have illustrated, this required my finding a way to access my own
feminine or ‘matricial’ space through a generative form of waiting that may
have necessitated tolerating my own shame in accessing the space within
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A BRIEF CODA
I will conclude by noting that, although I treated Seth nearly twenty
years ago, I had a dream last month when thinking about presenting this
case. In the dream, I was scheduled to be videotaped for an interview
that surprisingly was to take place in a men’s public restroom. I was
placed in a chair in front of the urinals. However, I was anxious to be sit-
uated at the side of a particular urinal, perhaps to appear and perform
at my best. Interestingly, I awoke thinking about how much of my life as
a heterosexual man has required great care in revealing—or, perhaps
more accurately, in navigating or even disguising—what might not be so
easily acceptable in the phallocentric, binary world of gendered appear-
ances. Indeed, despite whatever gender fluidity has been attained, per-
haps we are all destined to fail in our unique ways in performing gender.
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