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by tigriot
ladbook pieces of my write entity
vol. 1
When you call the world from isolation, you find answers that you never knew you
got wrong.
Give thanks for the friendships that survived all the weather and weathering, falling
from summer’s end to the frost of winter ten degrees below the base of the springs
that help us get back to where we started from.
I give thanks for you all, for those who helped with this and to those who are helping
to take it to places I never imagined it would reach.
Lem.
ladbook
table of contents
Lines i
T-3/4h ii
T-4/5h iv
Ease vi
Mulher viii
Loc me down x
Strings xii
River Land xiv
the walk xv
And the black sands sing xvi
River Land ii xvii
Write Me xix
To you xx
There was a boy xxi
The Man of Many Masks xxiv
he xxvi
rhythm and rhyme xxvii
I realize xxix
Love xxx
Reflection xxxii
Lines
Strings and bars are the lines that direct space in music
The thing is when a string plays, it vibrates
It doesn’t remain as linear
You get to see it in its element
Moving to and fro
Some chords are only beautiful because of the strings that are animated
Energized with the passion of the appendages that bring them to life
Which every push and cascade
There is music.
t-3/4h
I lit the joint and I have to remember who I am
Regardless of how I feel in the moment
Regardless of how introspection infects my mood
It’s baileys
Irish cream, cool steamed
That green orange drapeau
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I seize to cease and desist from following through on what I cannot resist
I may have missed a line, but that’s fine
I persist
T-4.5h
I’ve got projects in the pipeline
I sigh, align my spine as I descend to write rhymes
Is it the right time ?
What about the tight lines
That I’ve crossed and patrolled with a fine stride
I watch the sunset on the last day of the dirty virgin
The moon is coming and I feel the mood surging
Urging myself not to indulge in the cannabis I got for my iftar
Fourteen days would have felt like a lifetime if I didn’t journey down this road in this
car
But that was a week ago, it’s twenty-three now
And you’re not here
7 days, 7 years
I remember you in all that I do and the places I go
My success is for you, my brothers.
Never look down on yourself when you’re looking in from the outside
Never look down on others when looking out from the inside
Passion and the rain are your friends and your visors keep the vices away
Lest they taunt that and your awn tears up
The sun is your friend but she has no discretion for anyone but the moon
Reflect, deflect, inspect and reject the illumination as it comes from both sides of
the mountain
“That’s mine”
Ease
Times like now is to just open a blanket in the breeze
Lay with your sounds
Put the body at ease
They say the breeze in the night time not for the week
Everybody like her but she have a secret I hear
Is the sea and the mountain that passing her back and forth
Tug of war for my poor doudou breeze
Mulher
A woman to pick my mind
That is all.
Someone to give the right answers to
Someone who can make me realize that maybe I’m asking the wrong questions
And be there.
Loc me down
Curly hair, loc me down
Tangle me in your strands
The fertilizer of your follicles
Is the pheromone of my demise
Everywhere
I foresee
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Curly hair.
Strings
The strings play and I think of you
The drums knead my thoughts vigorously
And I see you in my mind
The synths play with the vocals and they make me remember
You
Long ago
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Maybe the nature boy will live to find the girl from ipanema
You write as if you fear you may never speak the stories you write about .
River Land
We were all just kids
Cold nights in the heat
Late long evenings after high school being caught up in our feelings
Bumping PND or whatever atmosphere and climate our happy place existed in
Mine ?
I see mine on cobblestone porches
And I hear the howls in the street in the back of the mix
Pain
Feelings I had not even felt but anticipated and ending up feeling them all the same
Pain
You know ?
Unfaith on the bus ride home
And whatever else the kids in River Land used to listen to.
What did the kids in River Land listen to in the cold nights ?
The crickets singing in the breeze with the trees and the hollow night echoing your
melancholy through your mind.
the walk
It was a long walk home, I’ll say that for sure
Where we came out, I won’t say
But it was black outside, and trust me when I say not a soul stopped for us on the
way home
Was it a sign to not come home that late again , when the call went unanswered ?
Who’s to say, the walk was interesting
Under the cliff, with the clacks clacking in the black top
Me self, I had done take out my shirt cause it had a little shaleh.
Cya remember what we talked about, if we even talked that much at all
But I remember every ride that passed
Didn’t even slow down to see if we needed help
I there writing the story and then boom, I seeing a dead snake in front me.
Had to make the round cause is not me tonight there with them thing.
River Land ii
The morning haze was the only thing that kept him warm
On most days, he’d hope for the best and ended up being let down
Without a warning
Everyone he had given the power to shied away from the responsibility
Because who really loves you out loud in River Land ?
Nobody loves you until they see someone else do it
And then it becomes a competition to see who can love you more
Until nobody does
And does nobody realize that if they want to be better, then they can be who they
want ?
The days and nights in River Land are no friend to the dreamer
And the people who live in River Land keep you at the end of the barrel until you feel
triggered
Everybody wants you to be like them but who really wants you to be better ?
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Write me
Write me a song, let your lies grab the pen
And tell me you love me, I’ll believe you and then
You’ll write me a letter, and you’ll write me the truth
You remind me of winter, the summer , my youth
Tell me a story
Of red trucks on highways
Tell me a ballad of the warm ocean breeze
Help me remember the lives I lived before
Help me remember these memories anew
Spell me a poem
Of young children playing
Chant me your mantra of Saturday mornings
Yawnings and awnings
These yester-morrow dayings
The days I was born in
To you
To the mothers of my siblings
Thank you for raising them
And fueling their ambitions
In what you have done and if what you could not do
In the things you said and the things they’ve learned
In the food they’ve eaten and the thirsts they’ve quenched
Would I dare talk about what went wrong in the same breath as I recall what went
wrong ?
It matters not what happened before but what needs to happen is that I address
what happened
For there were days where I refused your open arms and proceeded to open arms in
the battlefield where I stayed
There were days where I had to
Being a young one , the lad too has his issues with accepting the appreciation that
he sees now that he deserves
Move on
Move forward.
Well, who ever really does know the least that can happen?
Spaces to breathe
Safe place to dream
And you begin to realize
All is not as it seems
he
He just came from the phare
His notebook reeked of kerosene
His boots dropped seawater
It’s obscene
Obscure,
You don’t believe me, I’m sure
But I’m
Sigh,
Never mind.
I realize
I realize now that I had to forge on even when I felt the emotions
Not in the name of pretentious perseverance
Love
What can we say about love
Love, to me, is more of a decision than an emotion
Because emotions change
But choosing to act out of love
On the days when you don’t feel to
Is the definition of love itself
Of someone
Of them
Of him
Of her
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Reflection
I watch the mirror down the hall and say
“you’re not even a real one where you come from”
But what does it mean to be a real one where I come from ?
Was I me because I was comfortable or was I me because that’s just who I am
I sit on the toilet with my thoughts and I’m dealing with my shit, I gotta get it out
I should say hi but I can’t say it to you face cause I don’t think you wanna talk to me
in the moment
And me, I’d rather be in my own world
Take a risk.
Direction
Mistakes will tug at your heels because the minute you realize you can do better is
the moment they start losing the energy that they need to survive; your attention.
The longer you spend focusing on what went wrong is the less time you get to spend
on making things right. Punishing yourself won’t spark the improvement you need.
You’re human. You’ll fall short again like you’ve done before. The decision to get up
is yours.
You can be a victorious vector if you decide your direction and move in it. Trying to
go somewhere fast will only make you an empty vessel at the top of a mountain.
Gather what you can and gather it with intent. There’s no sense in riding out the
storm alone.
There’s so many blank pages for new stories that you use to rewrite the tales that
you know so well. Decide today what the tale will be and lend your being and your
essence to the moment.
And if you ever forget, you know where to find this message to remind you that what
you allow is what will continue.
You fought well today and I pray you wake up to fight tomorrow.
The decisions are made and they can’t be undone but the lessons you’ve learned
can show you how to make the most of the situation if you let them.
So let them.
So act naturally.