It’s 2:30 in the morning. I wanted to make this letter for you.

Tbh, I’m at loss of the right words to say,

but I will say what’s on my mind like I always do. I hope you bear with me and what’s coming because it
may be like waves at night. Haha, kidding!

My bestfriend that I’ve known for years. Words alone cannot describe how much you mean to me. Your
friendship has been one of the greatest parts of my life. You know how I am always in denial of such
feeling? It’s because it shows my vulnerability. I am also at my vulnerability state whenever I’m with you.
And that’s what I hate the most.

Thinking of how we were and this friendship, you were the very first one I get to close with. I think you
know me the most (u think?) I did a lot of silly things with you, we’re the cheaters in partner, I liked how
you knew if I am in a bad mood before. You would notice how quiet I get and you would choose not to
bother me and say “Ay, badtrip ya. Mamaya ko nalang kakausapin.” I laugh inside everytime u say that
before.

You know, I don’t believe in soulmates but you made me think that maybe there is really something
near enough. Could be a best friend maybe. Here’s a secret. We became friends because I wanted to.
Sinadya ko na maging close sayo because u were…. There was something in you. I..i cant really explain it.
It was like I need to be friends with you. You were the one that I really trusted before.

We were very close, eve n though we had our differences. We talked about our ideas, plans for the
future, our dreams, na ikaw magrereview sa math at ako sa science and english, we talked about our
imagination and everything. I remember how we stayed together all the time, and talked all night, either
when the other wasn’t really physically there.

When I say, I’m at my vulnerability state whenever I’m with you. It’s true. Whenever i’m with you or
talking about you, I can get very emotional. Sobrang babaw ng nararamdaman ko. You can actually make
me cry easily, and that’s,, that’s not a joke. Janine and the trolls know that.

Anyway, some things went shitty. Whenever I think of you with her, my trust in you? Nawawala sya. I
can’t seem to trust you knowing you guys are so close. You guys are business partner for life or smth. I
don’t know. Yeah, it’s my problem. It’s my trust issue whatever. I just… I really can’t

I don’t know if I wanna cry or laugh bitterly. My throat is tight with emotions. And my heart is heavy like
my tears. But for some reason, maybe that’s okay. Because… I can’t stay with you forever.

I always tell my friends or bestfriends this one thing. As in, sinasabi ko ‘to sakanila, sa inyo, sayo, even
once or twice. It’s that… we’re not gonna be friends for lifetime. Alam mo yan. Alam ko na hindi ka
magugulat kung one day, bigla nalang na, hindi na tayo naguusap because that’s bound to happen.

We will lost contact with each other, maybe not now, but soon. With me, that is something inevitable.

Regardless of what will happen to us, you will always remain somewhere in my heart. I don’t hate you.
No, not ever. Yet I’m proud of you. You’re braver than you think you are. I wish happiness for you, even
if it means to not having me with you. Thank you for all these memories, those realizations you made
me realize without u even knowing. Thank you for everything.
You went through so much in life, you’ve been through so many hard times in your life and you still have
the heart to laugh and raise the mood of other people. You are so strong, so brave and so bright in a
very special way. I want to see you become successful because you deserve it.

I promise, in the future, I will always be there to do my very best to get you back on your feet, even if u
have no idea.

I love you always.

With all the love, your not-for-a-lifetime-bestfriend, Mita.