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Kamu Raft
Kamu Raft
It’s almost the end of the year. Time passes by very quickly once you start enjoying your life. I finally took up
volunteering work at the Argenon hospital. I’ve thought it through a bit, not only do I get to meet and help those who
feel the same way as I did, I also get to meet with some of my “friends”. People with the most problems give the best
advice, that’s what I learned. I don’t really care about the school credit for doing volunteer work because that’s not
the reason I’m back here and I will be transferring soon anyways.
It’s been less stressful in school after my mom contacted them about my decisions. I can now take it easy. But
it can still get stressful sometimes, after the news about my problems spread out. Most are chill with it, cause they
understand (or at least show some compassion). Some people would make fun of me and treat me like I’m not normal.
Well. I’m not, and not in the good way. But I’ve learned to live with it. Those who treat others like shit, are in a way
insecure themselves. I would describe them as having very simple networks of neurons in their head. One leading
down a river, one leading to a landfill and the rest is just winding around and around keeping the driver stuck forever. I
digressed. Back to the volunteering work. Today was the first day and I had mixed feelings about it. I heard him again,
the voice in my head. He would come back from time to time. But, I’m no longer the soldier though. It’s like I rose in
rank or I’m finally discharged after winning the war. He asked me why I decided to return to the battlefield, it might
It was a week ago that I decided to take up this program though, but before I could even start, the paperwork
overwhelmed me. Even with my mother’s help, it was still a hurdle. There was this one section about the school I went
to and I didn’t know whether I need to consider my transfer. My mother did know either. That’s when I remember that
I can contact Neil, since I had his business card. He’d helped me through the forms, all of it. He was stoked (is that
what people say now?) for me to come out and help those who faced the same problems as me. I would say they faced
the “same” problems as me, especially the reason of admission, but I guess it’s similar enough. Drug abuse, depression,
in a way, they are kind of realated. Neil is of course still doing volunteer work playing his music for the people after his
shift at the local coffee shop. I might go play music with him once in a while, but I’ll stay with the art department for
now. Neil also advised me to take breaks from time to time. Funny enough, I’d never thought of that. Anyone who
works here for too long might convert from volunteer to patient at any time. Anyways, with the papers. It took around
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one week for them to do all of their things and finally I’m here, back at the Six North. Only for 2 hours a day, 5 days a
week. I applied for the 5 to 7 shift cause, after all, I still have to go to school.
Being back here is kind of “nostalgic” I would say. It’s almost exactly the same as when I was here. The teen
section is now done renovating though. It’s basically the same but with more teen friendly environment and more
guards. Because, as the nurses explained, teens are more volatile and violent than adults. That’s probably why Neil
told me to apply for the adults section. Most of the teens that ended up here are drug abusers anyways and they are
very keen on making friends. Ah, that’s probably why the teen section is renovated more often than the adults, it’s not
Then I met Smitty. He was cool as always and still sitting at the same desk. He took me on a tour around
the place, not to get a feel for the place because believe me when I say it, I know this place like it’s the palm of my
hands (is that how you say it?). Even Though I was here for no more than two gastrotrich’s life span (don’t even ask
me how I know that), I remember almost every detail of this building. The H- shaped hallway, the table I ate food on,
that chair and the bed. Instead I got a tour of the people/patients who are there. Most of them are gone though, the
one I know of course. Humble and president Armelio are at Seaside Paradise (that’s what he told me). Johnny and
Bobby are nowhere to be found, as well as Ebony and the Professor. Smitty had no detail of where everyone is
because he just came back from his months-long break. I really hope everyone is doing fine. It’s kind of a funny story,
right? When you look back at the times you are sad, you laugh about it. But when you look back at the good times, you
feel sad. Muqtada is still here though. He’s finally out and about now and not just staying in his room. He was happy to
see me of course, we hugged and yeah, he still smells (I’m used to it though). Now that I think about it, I never drew a
map for Muqtada. It’s a good opportunity during the activity time to make him one. Other than Muqtada, Human Being
The rest of the patients are all new to me, like Richard Feinmen who’s obsessed with mathematics and
Johnny Depth who’s kind of crazy and looks like he’s always high. Then, before getting to meet the female patients, I
was pulled out of the tour to meet with Dr. Minerva. The staff told me that it’s like an interview about my experiences
and why I’m back here to help. It’s for those kind of videos/interviews they do to both to “inspire people” and promote
the hospital. I’m back in the same room with Dr. Minerva. Although most of the things are the same it felt different.
Excluding the camera and the crew and the missing poster in the room though. It was like I’m no longer the sheep
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targeted by wolves or like a prisoner standing in front of the judge waiting for the sentence. It was like I’m a normal
person talking to another normal person. It was surprising though. Because I’m no longer the patient, Dr. Minerva
dropped her poker face and spoke with me normally. She, of course didn’t lose her professional looks and her formal
wordings, but the tone and reaction of her questions and speeches are genuine (or that’s what I think at least). I wish
all of them were like this, it would have helped me more (or maybe not now that I think about it).
The interview was fun, and although there are cameras around, I didn’t feel pressure squeezing me to speak
out and so I didn’t hold back any information, it just all went out like a waterfall. Before I knew it, it was over, the
interview, my shift; the day was over. Time passes by fast when you are enjoying the moment. It’s still kind of weird to
see/feel the real Dr. Minerva came out, but I enjoyed our talk. I however don’t think the interview would help anyone,
because it wouldn’t have helped me (maybe, but I don’t think so). But if it did help even one person, then that would be
awesome.
The day went better than I would have ever expected. I’m still unsure of the other days to come though, I’ll
have to see what happens next. Good or bad, I’m (probably) ready for it. I guess the man was wrong, the voice in my
head. Visiting the battlefield might remind me of the things I’d lost, but it also reminds me of what I’d achieved on it.
One step back, two steps forward. So, I guess from this day onward, it’s only stepping forward. Hopefully.