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Chapter 23 Dethroning Our Inner Critic
Chapter 23 Dethroning Our Inner Critic
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Our inner critic�s messages might be out in the open, but its roots are
often largely in our shadow. If we�re fused with our inner child, we�ll take
what our inner critic is saying as unquestioned truth, not even recognizing at such
times that we have an inner critic. Waking up to this�and to the origins and
anatomy of our inner critic�is essential for effective shadow work.
Shame is the emotion at the core of the inner critic. Healthy shame
triggers and is triggered by our conscience, but unhealthy shame, toxic
shame, triggers and is triggered by our inner critic. For all too many of us,
our inner critic masquerades as our conscience.
We tend to regress into a childlike state before our inner critic when we don�t see
the critic for what it is. And we all have that child in us, no matter what our
age, no matter how adult we may seem. When we fuse or identify with the child
within, our inner critic holds the power, talking to us as though we�re but a child
(or an incompetent somebody). But our inner critic doesn�t hold the power in any
innate sense. We are giving it the power, the authority, to shame us, to degrade us
for not making the grade.
We often look at the child in us through the eyes of our inner critic. So if
the child in us is shy, awkward, hurting, or dysfunctional, we might look
upon that little one with a sense of embarrassment or even revulsion, perhaps
thinking, �I shouldn�t be like that. I�m an adult. I�ve worked on myself. How can I
regress like that?� But this kind of thinking just provides fuel for our inner
critic, so that it can righteously proclaim things such as �Look at you! You�re
failing. You�re weak. Here you go again. You�re pathetic.� And on it goes�the
familiar litany of put-downs, making the case for us not being enough.
The impression we may get when our inner critic is speaking with such
certainty and authority is that it must be a valuable voice, a wise, parental
one, perhaps even one that has our best interests at heart. But one of its
defining characteristics is that it has no heart. As we work to cease
identifying with our inner critic and being a child before it, we learn
something valuable: if we hear an internal voice that lacks compassion, lacks
heart, we need not take its contents seriously.
As we acknowledge and observe our inner critic and move away from it,
we need at the same time to move toward the child in us. Doing so brings out in us
a sense of increased protectiveness of the child within, so that we�re both loving
that little one and keeping him or her safe. Once we sense the dynamic between our
inner critic and our inner child, seeing that it�s usually nothing but a shame-
centered dramatization of the bully and the bullied, healing can begin. At such
times, our inner critic retreats to the back bleachers of our psyche, perhaps so
far away that we can no longer hear it. It no longer has our ear. We�re taking the
much-needed step of getting in between our inner critic and inner child, keeping
the boundary between them intact.
We may think how great it would be to get rid of our inner critic, but we can
no more completely eliminate it than we can completely eliminate our
judging mind. What we can do is start changing how we relate to our inner
critic. Once we change that relationship, bringing our inner critic�s origins
out of our shadow, and we cease responding to it as if we�re a helpless child, the
critic loses its power over us, eventually manifesting as no more than occasional
background noise.
When your inner critic shows up, it�s immediately helpful to name it by
saying something such as �Inner critic� or �My inner critic is here.� Keep it
simple. It may be even more helpful if you already have a name for your
inner critic�a name that really fits for you (such as �the judge� or �the
inquisitor�). Then you can say this name, out loud if possible, as if
identifying an intruder or trespasser.
PRACTICE
Here is a sequential practice to use when you find yourself holed up in your
�headquarters,� with your inner critic whispering or shouting in your ear, and you
know that you need to shift without delay to a more life-giving stance.
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1. Name your inner critic: �Here�s__________.� Repeat this phrase,
a touch louder.
3. Direct your full attention to your chest, breathing deeply into it,
and also soften your belly. Count at least ten breaths, counting at
the end of each exhale; if you forget where you are, start at one
again. If you remain agitated, count to ten again.
4. Now direct your awareness to the child in you, feeling into and
feeling for that one, perhaps also visualizing her or him so as to
make the connection more palpable.
5. Breathe your inner child into your heart, and also breathe more
presence into the space you�re making for that one. Do not let
your thoughts convince you to do otherwise�as in �This is silly. I
shouldn�t be doing this.� Just simply be with this step. This causes
a softening and opening�your heart, shoulders, face, and whole
body softening, easing, settling.
6. Have a sense of standing between your inner critic and inner child,
with your back to the critic, so that the child isn�t subjected or
answerable to your inner critic. Then imagine picking up that little
one, holding him or her close with one hand. Turn to face the
critic, holding out your other hand, palm facing outward as if to
forcefully say, �Stop!� You�re generating both a field of caring
and a field of protection, safety, guardianship for your inner child.
It�s perhaps most difficult to step back from our inner critic�s content
when we know we�ve done some bad things�really hurt others, been selfish, cheated,
lied, broken the law, and so on�and hence feel deserving of being shamed, even
toxically shamed. So we bare ourselves for our inner critic�s beating. But such
self-battering does us no good and, in fact, prevents our healing.
To reduce our inner critic to its proper size we need to have a clear sense
of its origins, our history with it. Does it sound like one parent or the other, or
a composite of both? Or an older sibling who was harsh or cruel? A teacher?
Schoolmates who bullied us or put us down?
We can�t empty ourselves of our inner critic, because it�s not a something
that can be discharged or evacuated from us. But we can break our
identification with it. We can cease placing our inner child in the sights of our
inner critic, and instead of letting our inner critic examine and cross-examine us,
we examine it. Then we can live without our inner critic having any control over
us.