First Station: #reticent — not revealing one's thoughts or feelings readily.
- The time that I really felt that all are against me was this summer before Grade 12 started. I felt that I am worthless and cannot do everything that I want to do in life since I have a lot of time to think because I only stayed at home during summer. I felt as if everyone judges me in everything that I do. I chose reticent as my hashtag since I’m not that kind of person who reveals her thoughts to anyone. I barely open making it worse since I cannot share it to anyone. I was afraid to open up to anyone even my family.
Second Station: #vicissitude — a change of circumstances or fortune, typically one
that is unwelcome or unpleasant. - Since it’s summer, I have more time to realize and to process my thoughts. I wasn’t ready for anything vicissitude, but it was already there and I should just learn to cope with it. Everynight, or rather morning at 4 o’ clock in the morning, I still stare at the ceiling thinking if I am worth it, am I not enough? Things like that came to my mind and it became my bedtime stories; founding myself crying into sleep. I admit that there came I time that I was beyond stressed and depressed. But these thoughts actually made my persepctive more clearer and made me mature as an individual.
Third Station: #cornucopia — great source of something
- My family became my cornucopia. Even though I’m not willing to share away my thoughts. I can feel that they were there to support me and knew that I’m not feeling better. My little sister became my pillow, I literally hug her everynight to feel some sense of comfort since night time was usually the enemy: it made me realize more things in life and made me question things.
Fourth Station: #seventh heaven — state of extreme joy
- My partner, or rather bestfriend in life was my seventh heaven. He gave me so
much comfort and made me feel loved. Whenever I’m with him, I immediately forgot all of my problems and felt peace from my thoughts even just for a moment. He always help me to process my thoughts, make me feel at ease, and made sure to remind me that I will be always and always be loved. He always make sure that when he leaves to go home, he’ll leave me with a smile on my face. I know that from the bottom of my heart, he will always and be always my seventh heaven; my greatest source of comfort and joy.
Fifth Station: #axiomatic — obviously true
- It’s obviously true that the thing that I need to sacrifice is to lessen to think thoughts like these and to stop hating myself, because I know that at the end of the day I only got myself and no one can ever help me except for myself only. I need to get rid of these thoughts and make sure to be optimistic in life always. Deep down, I will always know that life is wonderful and filled with so much hope. Hope is the certain thing that I always clung to.
Sixth Station: #nirvana — state of perfect happiness and peace
- This experience made me grow as an individual. It made my perspectiv ein lofe so much clearer and helped me to be more mature. I thought I was being mature, but I didn’t expect that I can be more mature than that. This experience made me a better version of myself, I became more of a calm person and I was less impulsive. I must say that it was a journey that made me the person that I am today, but the journey doesn’t end here. It’s still the beginning to achieve my ideal nirvana.