I don't know why I am being so lazy day by day.

I know the facts that if I stay ideal it will be boredom

time and it will affect me. But why I am so dam about not doing anything at all. Nowadays I am just
having a time without anything or any work. My mind engages in only comfort time or in easy side. This
brain needs pleasure and it involve in some dizzy stuff which I don't want to repeat but I can't stop from
it. And this brain engages in more psychological drama. It involves in fear about office and its stuff. All
the time it creates an office scene and fear of ringing phone around me. Even when I am alone and
doing some stuff brain hit the office time and its boss attitude will hit me hard. There no more hard
feeling for anyone but my brain thinks, think about office and their staff around it. It creates some fear
what other will say, what would happen blab la will run through my mind. This is what my fucking brain
think in a useless direction. Yeah, I know this brain is fucking bastard and it create my bitterness. This
brain is useless fellow, it always thinks about that story which is not a cup of tea, and it make a point on
those stuff which I have never been or which is not a mine track. And it makes a web trap for me. This
brain is fucking genius for making you a fool and it make a master plan to slave you. This brain in not
you. You are just a awareness.