Aubreyanna Nishya Thomas

Diary/Juornal Entreys

Dear Diary,

Today is Januuary 21st 2021, the day that I had decided to go on a secret diet. I'm
tired of looking like a tired, lumpy, and having no posture. So i will start by
running, running everyday and pacing myself. I just can't take the waking up a
seeing this... But i'll fight my urges, calm down on the candies and cookies and
just chill. I'll do my homework, make
my bed, and do what i need to do, because if i want to be healthy and not look like
my step-mom or step-sisters then I'll step up and be me and step back from the
table

Dear Diary,

Still the same day now 1 o-clock, and still have not done all of my homework, I
hate my step-mom. Though it is a strong word, I still feel it. I don't know what my
dad see's in her, she's just terrible.

Dear Diary,
Today is my brothers birthsay and I i think everyone hates me. I 'm the least
favorite, but when they need something my name is all i here. I'm slowly dying and
no-one wants to here. If only I felt alive. I'm stuck in a darkness I can't
control, someone help me!!!!

Dera Diary,
Why does it feel my dad would never give his life for me, but only for his wife and
her kids. It's like he's under her toe waiting for commands. Anyways, I haven't
been able to sleep later and my emotions seem to deplete away, I once pulled a
knife to my sister(kerah) while she was sleeping and then tried to cut myself. I
know I sound scycotic but with no emotions then they are pretty much useless to me
and dont give a rats ass about me and my brother.Well, it's time to go be used and
tossed around like I'm nothing.(though thats really what I feel I am)You know he
accualy told me to stay positive in this house happyness is a nessesity and if you
have it someone else will want it and try and ruin it for you
.......well bye

Dear Diary,
Today is 3/4/21, the day of the trip, we are on the road right now dads' playing
some 2000's music, and im kinda crampe tough its just me Bj and kinsley in the
front. I haven't moveen in an hour and 15 minuets. We are about to stop soon for a
bathroom break. I need to streth my legs anyways.

Dear Diary,
Its 3/19/2021 and toda is when i cut my arms at night i have a plan too. Just wait,
maybe by the time when my scars heall i'll heal