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HEAL 223
Autobiographies are intended to discuss our personal life story and how we became the
individual we are today. Autobiographies also reflect major events in our life that influence our
personal, adolescent and/or college development. Each individual have their very own personal
story background. Our personal development can be driven by our upbringing, outside
influences, role models, significant life events and more. This paper will discuss my very own
personal development experiences and relate it to the literature we have discussed in class thus
far.
I first want to begin from the very beginning of my life, starting from the womb. I was
not supposed to make it out into this world. Doctors advised my mom to abort me because I was
going to be a baby with disabilities or possibly not make it out alive. The reason why they
suggested abortion was because my mom was unaware to be pregnant with me and had involved
herself with taking a drug that could have possibly harmed me. My mom went against the
doctor’s orders and proceeded with the pregnancy. Fast forward to present day I am a healthy
thirty year old woman, working full time, in grad school, with a husband and two kids. My mom
has always told me I was born a fighter and I truly believe that. I was never a follower my entire
life and I always fought for what I believed to be right. From our classroom literature we learned
about Erikson’s Identity Development Theory. From the theory there are four stages that begin in
early childhood, begins from early childhood development into early adolescence (Patton et al.,
2016).
I can relate to stage one and two. Stage one is basic trust versus mistrust where children
develop and maintain trust levels and learn the process of reciprocity from family and caregivers
(Patton et al., 2016). Stage two is autonomy versus shame and doubt, children explore their
environments and rely on encouragement from caretakers to help them build confidence (Patton
et al., 2016). Stage one is present in my childhood with believing and confining to my mom. I
believe and trust her when she tells me I am a fighter. The words my mom gives me as a child, I
trust them and lead me to where I am today. She has always told me to have respect for myself
and for others, also to “go to school all the way.” Those were her exact words to me growing up.
Stage two involves the encouragement and building of confidence for caregivers. I strongly fall
under this stage because if it wasn’t for my mom giving me the words, wisdom and
enough to not take any nonsense or mistreatment from anyone. To stand up for what is right, is
something my mom always told me to do. Again if it wasn’t for my mom instilling these
influences and words onto me, not sure what person I would be today.
I was raised in a single parent household, I relied solely on my mom and my grandmother
who lived with us. Growing up in a single parent household is another influence factor in my
personal development. It has taught me to be an independent woman and not to rely on anyone
other than myself. In chapter one of Patton we learned about the ecology models under Urie
Bronfenbrenner. The model consists of four levels that have influenced my student development
theory. Being raised in a single parent home I believe this influence falls under the exosystem,
which is the third level. I will go in depth on how the Urie Bronfenbrenner theory reflects my
includes four levels of context that have influence in our student development theory. Those four
levels include the person whom is the center, surrounded by the microsystem, mesosystem,
exosystem, and macrosystem (Patton, 2016). Microsystems are patterns of activities, life roles,
and interpersonal relationships experiences by the developing individual. Mesosystems are the
connections between two or more settings, for example work and home setting. Exosystem are
based on environmental influences that can shape the development process. Lastly macrosystem
involved my college courses, instructors, guidance counselors, high school friends, college
friends and working part time at The Bulldog Shop. These factors I listed highly influenced my
student development. Before entering college my high school friends and I would discuss life
after high school at times. It would never go any deeper than just simply stating where we would
want to go for college or what career we wish to study. The guidance counselors at my high
school weren’t very helpful. They didn’t explore with me the many options of colleges, all I
knew was Fresno State. Especially being the first to go to college, I did not know anything about
college seeking, applications, financial aid etc. When I started my first year of college I would
counselors often not knowing exactly what I wanted to study. My mom is such an influence on
me that I decided to pursue a career in journalism. Growing up my mom worked at KMPH Fox
26 in Fresno, CA. I always admired and looked up to her. I decided to follow in those footsteps
Other surrounding factors that were impactful during my college years of developing my
student identity was when I began my internship at ABC 30 Fresno, CA. It was so impactful in a
negative way and it happened towards the end of my degree. During my internship and even in
my last semester of college I was told finding a job in this field is very hard. Also that I would
have to leave to a small TV market to start my career. Hearing that when you are about to
graduate with the degree that people are telling you you won’t find a job with it, was very
devastating. I felt as if I studied the wrong degree I pursued, I wasted time and effort. When I
graduated I moved in with my boyfriend who is now my husband and became pregnant. So I was
definitely not able to relocate to pursue a career in journalism. I felt very lost at the time and
defeated. Throughout my pregnancy I continued to try and find a job in TV that was either part
time or full time. I did not give up looking for employment. I ended up working for an Autism
center working as a behavioral technician for learning arts. I did not enjoy it but it gave me a
check and maternity leave/pay. Which is something I was also looking for to secure myself and
my child. That is when I knew I can only tolerate the child I am about to have and not others. My
personality taught me I cannot be around children. Five months after I had my son I was hired as
a staff member at Fresno State. This is where my life changed for the better, doing what I do now
and how it lead me to HEAL. During my college years I also worked as a student assistant and
loved it. Being back for almost six years has been the greatest opportunity. Life has its own way
As for exosystem there were external forces that influenced my student identity that were
living in a single parent home, furloughs, financial aid polices and being a first generation
college student. I discussed living in a single parent home impact at the beginning of this paper. I
will discuss the other factors and the reasons why they are in my exosystem category. Furloughs
were a part of my college experience. In my eyes at the time they were good because classes
were cancelled but being aware and wiser now, I see they were very hurtful. Hurtful to staff,
faculty and the entire university. Employees were being laid off, classes were being cancelled or
some individuals had to come to work without pay. Financial aid was something I relied on
heavily during college. It was my outlet to buy books, school supplies and help my family out in
some ways. Towards the end of my college year my financial aid fund would be reduced or I
would receive it late. I may have possibly exhausted my efforts, since it took me five years to
graduate. It is hard to experience that especially when college is taking longer that you expected,
As a first generation college student it was difficult navigating the whole college “thing.”
I am the first to go to college in my family. Being that I am the first, it was very hard to figure
the college system out. I had to resort to friends that were already in college, especially when
financial aid documents or the application was due. I would also go to them to navigate the
student portal by enrolling for classes, resources and who was my assigned counselor. My
friends assisted me through the college process, rather than the college I attended. The first year
Events that occurred during my college experience can reflect under the environmental
influence of the macrosystem in the theory. The event of the killing of Osama bin Laden, I had
mentioned furloughs and the impact on the university, and we had the first African American
president during my college years. The killing of Osama bin Laden didn’t have much of an
impact on me during my college years, I think due to being young. Being young and in my first
year of college, important events or politics unfortunately do not matter. Again furloughs were
rough on staff and the university. As for me I thought the cancellation of classes was a time for
me to take a beat. But it wasn’t the same response to everyone else. Our first African American
president occurred when I was in college. I had voted for President Obama and it was my first
time voting. I will never forget the first time I voted and knowing it was a historical event that I
participated in. All of these factors had an impact on my college student identity development.
Another theory that greatly resonated with me is the Torres’s Bicultural Orientation
Model and Influences on Latino Identity. Torres focus has been on the identity development of
Hispanic college students. She believes that there are three influences during the student’s first
year of college, first is environment where the student grew up, second the family influence and
generational status and thirdly self-perception and status in society (Patton, 2016). I can apply
the third influence within my student development. From the readings under the third influence
two possible outcomes can signal change in the student’s ethnic identity: conflict with the culture
or a shift in relationships within the environment (Patton, 2016). Both positive and negative
I fit into the third because I have had conflict with my culture or within my own family
members stating that I am not Mexican enough. I have been called white washed in the past and
even by coworkers to this day. Everyone in my family and my associates, state that I am not
Mexican enough. In their eyes I do not fit in the traditional cultural customs or norms of being a
celebrations, holidays, mass and play Mexican music from time to time. But we were never that
big obvious Mexican family. Now that I am an adult my family sees that I am my own person
that fits into the woman, wife or mother I have chosen to become. I did not have a quinceanera
only because I told my mom no, I knew she did not have the money to do so. But others
perceived me as being snotty. It can be difficult and uneasy having to explain myself. I say I am
Mexican American firmly but I do not fit your traditional Mexican American. It can be
exhausting having to think and rethink yourself. I am at the point where I am happy where I am
This leads me into the third theory that also stood out to me in regards to my student
identity development. Jean Phinney is a theorist that believes there are three stages a college
student can experience during their developmental process. I believe I am in stage one, but
possibly between stage one and two. Stage one states unexamined ethnic identity (diffusion-
foreclosure) which individuals have not explored feelings or attitudes regarding their ethnic
identity (Patton, 2016). Also show a disinterest in their ethnicity. Although I have experienced
feelings toward my ethic identity, they were negative experiences which have led me to lose
interest in my ethnicity. I have lost interest with my ethnicity and positive engagement within it.
Although I have lost interest, I continue to state I my ethnicity because that is the only thing that
ties me to it. But the practices of being Hispanic aren’t really there for me.
Stage two is ethnic identity search/moratorium where students can deal with
discrimination face to face encounters, harassment or perceived less than by their dominate
culture group (Patton, 2016). I know who I am and where I belong but I am not an exception to
my dominant culture group and again for that I have lost interest in finding my ethnicity roots.
Upbringings, life experiences, educational journey and even tragedy can direct the process of the
student development theory. Bronfenbrenner chart explains how life events shape our student
identity. Any change of signals can influence our student development. We also learn of the
negative and positive outcomes that can influence our thought process.
education in accounting services, specifically Dream, Nursing and Perkins Loan office. The
kind for we don’t know a person’s story. With each student I meet, I must be respectful of them
for the following reasons I was once an undergrad student myself, unaware of what they’ve been
through and the practice of being nonjudgmental. I am not aware of their story, successes or
struggles as I too have my own. I have dealt with students that have been misled or mistreated.
My role is to advocate for those students and create a better environment for them. Some are first
year students and I can highly relate to that specific group. I truly believe that if you have walked
in an individual’s shoes, you can relate. I immediately relate to first generation students and try
In my current work I strive to advocate for the students and uplift those that may feel lost
and without a voice. Again I want to leave a positive impact on students, this is the reason why I
do this work. I enjoy helping and advocating for students. As I mentioned what guides my work
in student affairs is my upbringing and personal values. My personal values will always impact
any form of work I do. I always plan to operate my work on being fair and unbiased towards
students. As well as offer everyone a chance at being a student they wish to be. It is hard when
obstacles are thrown their way and may become discourage. But life is about obstacles and as a
staff member on campus we want to strive that their fall outs will not define them.
My life story has never been an exciting one to write about nor does it consists of
multiple impactful events. It is hard to write of myself because I don’t always have much to say
and I don’t like talking about myself. In present day the only interesting fact about me is the
multiple roles I have. I try to do what I can and strive for the best in anything I do. Today I am a
mother, wife, full time employee and grad student. I am a woman with many titles. My
upbringing taught me a lot of what I know now. It also is a big influence on the person I am
today. I am a mother to a six year old and 1 year old that require much of my attention. Learning
to have a lot of balance is a requirement in my life. Also at this time we are facing a worldwide
crisis of the coronavirus epidemic. Currently it has impacted me by classes going virtual and
locking the department down where I work. I am only receiving emails and calls. I have never
experienced anything such as this but this is my continuing path of my life influences. Five years
from now I will reflect on what has transpired and influences that contributed to the person I
Patton, L. D., Renn, K. A., Guido, F. M., & Quaye, S. J. (2016). Student development in college: