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KEEPSAKE
Submitted to the 2011 Baen Memorial Writing Contest
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RUSSELL MICKLER
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Keepsake is a short story that was submitted to the 2011 Baen Memorial Writing Contest. It
explores a tween’s perspective of space and her conflict with the rather mature notion of “for the
betterment of mankind”. The story also addresses an ethical dilemma concerning artificial
intelligence and the problem of preserving relationships over extended duration spaceflight. But
really it’s just a story about a mother and her daughter, and the vast distances of space, ambition,
and selflessness between them.
Keepsake
By RP Mickler
“Ms. Fuller?”
The attendant received no reply from the young lady in the seat. Her earphones were
blaring and she was preoccupied with her tablet. Reaching across the girl, the attendant scooped
up a plastic cup, napkin, and foil wrapper and deposited them in a rubbish bag.
Politely, the attendant gently tapped the girl’s shoulder and - with a slight dramatic roll of
“Ms. Fuller. We’re about to go sub-orbital. I’m going to have to ask you to stow your
Kyra nodded and pressed a recessed button on the tablet that turned the unit off. She
removed her earbuds then locked them both away in a net in front of her seat.
Seizing an obvious opportunity, the attendant smiled. “It’s a pleasure to have you on-
board today, Ms. Fuller. We’re all very proud of your mother.”
“Yes,” Kyra acknowledged. She slowly nodded and just stared at the back of the chair in
Recognizing the awkward silence for what it was, the attendant straightened up. “When
you see her, wish her the best from everyone here, would you?”
Without looking back to the attendant, Kyra nodded and then closed her eyes. Servicing
the remaining eleven passengers, Kyra could hear the attendant’s affable greeting over and over
again. The repetitiveness of it irritated her. Kyra folded her arms and sunk back into her chair,
This was Kyra’s seventh sub-orbital flight; her third to the Moondock. She had spent all
of her life between her dad’s home in Denver and her mom’s training locations in space, whether
those were at the E-ISS or on the Moon. No aspect of the travel was really fun for Kyra primarily
because - she felt - there we no children in space. This was one critical flaw with space travel. It
was a place for adults. Whenever she traveled, it was always just her and her mother in ultra-
close proximity eating crappy food, in cramped places, doing dull things, and abiding by rules.
Tons of rules. To Kyra, space was a place for confinement, isolation, and rules, and really, if
Other mission trainees that her mom worked with opted not to have children. Kyra
thought that was pretty smart; she had frequently thought of herself as a monkey-wrench in her
mom’s career. Her visits were only authorized by NASA and ESA so that she could spend time
with her mother before the mission where her mother would then disappear from Kyra’s life for
twelve years - fourteen counting rehabilitation. Kyra infrequently asked her mom what the point
was: why do this when she’d be leaving for so long? Why go, knowing that you won’t be able to
stand or sit upright for weeks after coming home? Her momma never had a good answer.
The Lockheed S310 began its pre-orbital acceleration and Kyra was gently forced by
gravity into the snug contours of her seat. Its twin scramjet engines thrust the ship forward at an
exponential speed, and its nose lifted only slightly above the horizon.
On this flight, there were two passengers who were not as familiar with the ship as Kyra
was and they marveled at how fast the ship was going. On-screen diagrams of the Lockheed’s
thrust, angle of ascent, velocity, and geographic position above Earth could be watched on the
vidscreen all the while a calming music was provided to convey the eventual sensation of
weightlessness and an inspired-orbital-awe that the passengers will feel in about four minutes.
The ship raced across the stratosphere to mach sixteen, then seventeen, and then eighteen.
Within a minute from acceleration, the sky faded giving way to a blue halo and an inky-black
void.
Kyra could feel the gravity pressing against her chest, making it harder for her to breathe.
She wasn’t worried though. All of it was normal. But the newbies gulped on their giddy giggling
when the ship accelerated to mach twenty and twenty-one, and the angle of the ship tilted just
slightly so that the ship could meet its exit window. Beyond mach twenty-two, it was too
difficult for anybody to talk, so the music did what its was supposed to do: it was comforting.
Weightlessness started about ten or fifteen seconds after the ship reached its terminal
velocity and cleared the stratopause, and Kyra could feel her body ease up from the seat; her belt
held her securely. Some of the passengers with longer hair suddenly found their hair drifting
uncontrollably in an odd manner. Outside, the ship had crossed into the mesosphere and its
engines shut down as the craft was hurtled into space while its single ion engine - mounted on
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the dorsal of the craft - engaged its thrust. It didn’t make any noise but Kyra could feel the kick.
The the cabin vibrated from the additional stress on the hull.
But by then the show was on. The captain had rotated the craft for optimal viewing of the
planet, and the music was a synthesized collage of ambient sound, and the newbies were
predictably embracing the moment. They were weightless, pointing, amazed, astounded, and
breathless. Those who’d been on sub-orbitals before were resting and still had their eyes closed.
Others were just silently admiring the view of the Earth rolling slowly beneath them. The
Kyra knew it was time for the tour-guide to speak and - on queue - the captain’s face
“Greetings,” he said, his eyes fixed on the camera. “We’ve climbed to one hundred and
thirty-one kilometers and we’ve engaged our ion drive system. We’ve a sub-orbital platform
rendezvous at the Husband Spacefield in seven minutes. In the meantime, please stay in your
seat and enjoy the amazing view of … “, the captain paused and looked away from the camera,
his voice muffled in the background as he asked a question of his copilot and then continued, “
Reaching for her tablet, Kyra ignored the vidscreen’s broadcast of a weightlessness safety
message and the canned announcement that electronic items could be used. Switching it on, her
tablet reconnected to the network and downloaded new status updates from her friends. They
popped up all over the screen. Although she couldn’t type very well in weightlessness, she could
Entirely on its dorsal with its belly towards the sun, the ship climbed higher into orbit. On
the horizon, other commercial crafts of similar composition could be seen. The Husband
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Spacefield was a designated staging area for passenger crafts entering and exiting Earth’s
atmosphere, and soon, no less than half-a-dozen ships could be seen drifting about in a well-
In the background, the heavenly, soothing music continued playing as Kyra peered
outside at the Spacefield, and she saw her ship approaching its booster. It had docking clamps
between a span of two huge ion engines - each of which were larger than the ship itself. As the
S310’s single ion thruster wouldn’t be practical for a trip to the Moon, the ship would need a
supplemental set of engines with greater thrust. Boosters were common in commercial space
flight: they were automated drive platforms which remained in low-Earth orbit and this one was
branded with the name of the spaceline. The ship neared the booster and it matched the ship’s
velocity until - with a gentle nudge - the S310 docked, nose-first, into the platform.
Outside, other rendezvous were taking place as two ships acquired boosters while yet one
ship shed a booster. And then it was time for the show to go on.
“Ladies and gentlemen,” the captain casually reappeared on the vidscreen. It was now
dark in the cockpit; his face was lit by the glow of instrumentation. “We’ve successfully docked
with our booster. Estimated transit time to Moondock is three hours and seventeen minutes.
During this time, you’re free to explore the cabin. Refreshments and break-room assistance are
Kyra felt a very slight pull from the front of the craft and their journey was underway.
She turned off her tablet and secured it in the stowage net then braced her arms into cuffs built-in
to the seat. Now came the really boring part and - like always - the transit vid would be really
stupid. Exhilarated, the newbie couple in the back of the craft unbuckled their restraints and
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drifted to the ceiling of the cabin over their chairs, laughing and chortling, enjoying the new-
After a solid nap, Kyra awoke to the newbie couple’s bemoans of discontent and
unpleasant stomach discomfort. Frustrated, she retrieved her tablet and slipped it into a Velcro
sheath whereas it was then affixed to her lap to keep it from drifting away. She was busily
skimming through friends’ status updates when the face of her nanna appeared on the screen.
“No, nanna,” she whispered at her tablet. Kyra continued digesting her status updates and
cycled her grandmother to the background. The vid had another thirty minutes meaning they
were still an hour from docking. Kyra hated it when she woke up early.
Her nanna continued. “We should talk ... we should talk about what you’re going to say
to your momma.”
“Nanna I don’t want to talk.” Her grandmother was always persistent but Kyra continued
skimming her updates. “There’s not gonna be anything to say. ‘Hi momma, enjoy Mars, grow
lots of plants and don’t die. Catch’ya in twelve years. Bye.’ That’s what’s I’m gonna say. So we
“Your momma cares the world about you, Ky,” her nanna scolded.
“Whatever.”
One of the newbies in the back of the cabin summoned the attendant for a barf bag. Kyra
“Being an astronaut and goin’ to Mars - that’s your momma’s greatest wish ever,” her
nanna replied. On the tablet, digital pictures and video stored on her mother’s social network
profile were cycled into the foreground. Kyra’s mom when she was just seven years old, dressed
in a lab coat with a round plastic bubble on her head; video of her mom when she was training in
water tanks at twelve; more video of her mother when she was fifteen being accepted to Mars
Academy; then video of when her mother turned twenty-two and graduated as an exobotanist.
It was a montage that she’d seen many times before. Her mother, Renita Fuller, the proud
American hero. Ren, the adorable kid-space-explorer. Doctor Fuller, the brilliant scientist from
Then the tablet cleared, new images were displayed, and her grandmother said, “Space
was always a big deal to her but you know what? So was being your momma. Look here.” A
video library strip appeared. Images of Kyra’s birth; of her mom taking care of her at three years
old; of the last time her mom was on Earth, on a picnic on a sunny day. “She made time where
“Right,” Kyra sulked and recalled her grandmother’s image to the foreground of her
tablet so they could look at each other, “except nobody hands out awards for just being a mom.”
Status updates began appearing in rapid succession on her tablet. Kyra’s friends were
competing for her attention. They disliked being ignored. Kyra busily shuffled her nanna to the
Abruptly, the Lockheed 310’s boosters cut off and the weight from Kyra’s body lifted
very slightly from her chair. Again, this wasn’t out of the ordinary - the spacecraft had crossed
the neutral gravity point between the Earth and Moon, and was now falling towards the Moon
“Now, you know that’s not how it was, Kyra Desere,” her nanna replied. Grandmother
asserted itself to the foreground of the tablet; Kyra gave an exacerbated sigh. “Your momma
didn’t give a darn about degrees or awards or medals. And I knew your momma. Nothin’ like
that ever made her happy or proud, not like you and your papa. I’d never seen that girl so happy
when she was on leave with ya’ll, and I ain’t never seen her so hurt as when she had to leave. All
of it was just means to an end - for her big adventure - and she was lookin’ after you.”
Kyra bit her lip and stared out into space. The Moon was so large that it consumed the
whole view from her cabin window. “You’re a sim. What the Hell do you know?”
Her grandmother’s face displayed dramatic shock. It was an unnatural expression for her.
“Kyra!”
“It’s true, nanna! You don’t know! It’s not the same, not after you left.” Kyra stripped the
tablet off of her lap and slowly raised the tablet closer to her face. “After you died, she just
disappeared, okay? She doesn’t vid with me like she used to when you were here. She doesn’t
message. She even waived her last leave and didn’t come home to see us. It’s because she’s done
better at the Academy, and she’s got more ‘promotions’ and stuff, and I don’t ever get a chance
to see her!”
“-my momma’s all busy!”, Kyra harshly whispered into her tablet’s mic. “She’s busy
workin’! Busy being a super-cool space-plant-person - whatever - but she’s not with me, on
“Ms. Fuller?”
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The pleasant face of the attendant snapped on the vidscreen on the chair in front of her.
She had a look of constipated-courtesy on her face. “Some of our fellow passengers … they are
Kyra’s temper roiled. With a slow weightless motion, she re-strapped the tablet to her
lap and disabled it - her grandmother’s sim winked out of existence to electronic suspension.
The attendant smiled cheerfully again and then said, “So good then. We’ll be docking
shortly. Not too much longer to go!” Then the vidscreen replaced the graphic transit image
Twenty minutes passed. Kyra stifled an irritated yawn and looked drearily across the
Moon’s surface: a bone-dry, silent lunar desert exposed to the vacuum of space where nobody
could hear you having fun. Visiting the Moon for Kyra was akin to an Earth-bound field-trip to a
city museum: you travel forever to see stuff you can’t touch but could have easily learned about
on a tablet, taking much less time and being much less boring.
The newbies on the other hand were chattering with unbridled delight as the 310
descended closer to the Moon. It wasn’t long thereafter that the tour-guide returned to the screen
to remind passengers about how the Moon was formed, where the Apollo missions landed, and
how far Shepard’s golf ball actually travelled without an atmosphere and at one-sixth of the
Earth’s gravity. That fetched a good laugh. Newbies always loved inane trivia.
“Right,” the captain concluded with a well-rehearsed smugness. His attention was fixed
on overhead displays and his left arm slowly drifted to toggle switches above his head. “It’s time
to complete our Moondock approach. Crew, secure the cabin and cross-check, please.” The
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vidscreen then demonstrated Moondock’s layout and the small ship as an icon approached it
rapidly.
Kyra obediently put her tablet away and rested her arms against the Velcro of her chair to
keep them from drifting. The 310 was still pointed in its cruise orientation which meant the rear
of the spacecraft was closing on Moondock. Once again the massive ion engines fired, burned
for three minutes to slow the craft’s velocity, then simply detached while providing thrust to inch
the platform away from the craft. Slipping away, the drone engines would return to a spacefield
above the Moon for other ships’ use in transit back to Earth. Under its own power, the Lockheed
310 applied maneuvering thrust to execute a very slow, controlled, 180-degree spin to re-orient
the craft for docking. And the newbies gave a disquieted moan as their bodies adjusted again to
“Two-minutes, eight-seconds to clamp,” the Captain reported. The Moon’s surface was
speeding by now at a more moderate speed, and thrust was being applied to slow the craft down
as it approached Moondock.
alien on Earth. A central round dome of biosphere surrounded by nine giant columns of plastic
and steel that shot at 50-degree-angles six hundred meters into space. Other crafts of various size
were moored against the spires, and within them, Kyra could see people and cargo moving up
and down on hydraulic lifts. Ships bearing Indian, Chinese, EU, Japanese, Russian
Commonwealth, and US flags, and a number of dingy mining crafts - maybe thirty or forty years
One thing did catch Kyra’s attention because she’d never seen it before and not even on a
tablet. It was docked against two of the spires to support its thin, massive hull spanning three
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hundred meters in length. It was the biggest spacecraft Kyra had ever seen. It looked like a thick,
sleek white needle with a fifteen meter diameter and four disproportionately large drive
“Right. The United States’ Prometheus 3,” the captain announced over the vidscreen. It
was the ship that would ferry Kyra’s mother to Mars. Everyone on Kyra’s side of the Lockheed
310 gave little gasps of awe and started taking pictures with their phones. “She’s the fastest ship
in fleet; the latest in a proud tradition of intersolar explorers. Take a good look at her, folks.
She’ll leave tomorrow and be back in three months after the Mars mission.”
Kyra cringed. The Prometheus would be back, alright. Just without her momma.
Kyra watched as her mother paced about the small living quarters. Well, not really so
much as ‘pace’ as ‘bounce’ and ‘float’. Her mother kept leaving her chair - in small bounds - to
stand near the door to her apartment, to look out a rectangular glass into the adjacent hall. Her
“He’s late,” her mom said, glancing at a watch on her wrist. She peered outside through
the glass screen again, maybe hoping her visitor would suddenly come around the corner.
Kyra was wearing a yellow polyester jumper that was extremely efficient at sticking to
Velcro-lined furniture on the moon. So was her mom except hers was blue. Extremely
unfashionable mono-colored jumpers helped Moon-people keep straight who you were and
where you’re allowed to be. A yellow meant you were a civilian visitor. Her mom’s denoted a
Renita turned and looked at her daughter, feigning a weak smile. “Ky, it’s going to be
“What else am I going to do?”, Kyra asked sarcastically. “I don’t have anywhere to go.
Renita crossed her arms. She was hurt. “Yeah, I know. I’m sorry.” She was on the verge
“It’s not you, momma,” Kyra signed. She looked right into her mom’s face. “It’s here. I
don’t like bein’ here. I don’t like space. I wish you could have come home.”
“There wasn’t enough time for leave. MISCOM pushed us a month ahead of schedule to
shorten the time it takes to get to Mars. We have to leave right away. I’m sorry - I didn’t have a
choice, sugar.”
Kyra rolled her eyes. Renita turned and stared out into the hallway; moisture dampened
her check; her bottom lip quivered. “He should be here soon. It won’t take much time, I
promise.”
“Ky,” Renita asked, still looking into the hallway. “What are … are you afraid of? And I
mean ‘really’ afraid of? What scares the crap out of you?”
Giving an exacerbated sigh, Kyra thrust her arms between her legs and looked around the
room, as if the answer to her mom’s question was written on the ceiling or the wall. “I dunno.”
Renita swiftly wiped her face and nodded as if in confirmation of a suspicion. “Yeah?
Nothin’? The dark? Being stalked or trapped? Drowning? Something you saw in a vid?”
Kyra shrugged. She felt very uncomfortable and wanted desperately to change the
“There’s nothin’ to be afraid of at home, on Earth, is there?”, Renita said. “The sun rises.
It sets. You live, eat, sleep. Watch a vid. Message your friends. Go to school. You wake up and it
“Who?”, Renita asked. Kyra could see tiny beads of sweat on her mom’s forehead now.
Renita sniffed. “Oh - yeah, yeah, sugar, um, his name’s Tyler. He’s a friend. He’ll be here in a
Kyra leaned her back against the chair and her jumper’s backside stuck there. She closed
her eyes in total resignation. She was trapped, on the Moon, in a super-confined apartment, with
Nine hours, Kyra reminded herself. The Prometheus leaves in nine hours.
A few more minutes passed in uncomfortable silence. Renita’s room was nothing more
than two boxes comprising of plastic things. Living quarters weren’t exposed to space - rather
they were positioned in the center layers of the Moondock to protect inhabitants from radiation -
so there were no windows of any kind. Two plastic chairs and a twin-sized bed that was really
just a cot with thin mattress of memory foam. One pillow. Blankets. A comforter. Three pictures
were framed and affixed to the wall: a picture of the family, another of Renita’s parents, and one
of Kyra when she was seven. The kitchenette, sink, refrigerator, and washing station were built
into the same unit mounted against a wall. Cabinetry consisted of modular cubbies that also
fastened to the wall and they held towels, wash rags, clothing, and a hamper. A vidscreen and
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entertainment console was built into the wall in the main room. Kyra’s mother rarely left her
room and never watched vids. It was always so eerily quiet in her room.
So lame.
“In the past,” her mom said, abruptly, “you’ve asked me why. Why do this, why leave
Renita crossed her arms and wiped her face. “Why. Well, I think you expect me to say,
‘Because it’s a chance of a lifetime’ and ‘nobody else has done it before’? That the ‘why’ is all
Kyra squinted angrily. This was painful and obnoxious. “Yeah, I think that’s part of it.
“No, baby,” Renita said, trying to comfort her daughter. “Out there, on Mars and other
places, are ways to help people. Human experience on Mars will translate into new biomedical
cures, strong, super-fertile plants, better colonization methods, and a greater understanding of life
everywhere. So, why? Why leave you, and your dad, why be … scared out of my wits - pullin’
out my hair scared - and come back to Earth to live a wheelchair for years afterwards? Well, it’s
not for me. It’s for you. You and your generation, and the generation after that. That’s why,
sugar.”
Kyra tensed up and brought her knees closer to chest. She glared at her mother. “Why do
you have to leave, I mean, why does my momma - my momma, and not somebody elses’
“That seems really unfair to you? Sacrifice for the good of others is unfair?”, Renita
“Yeah, momma. that seems really unfair to me. It’s great for everybody else and for
everybody ain’t be born yet. It ain’t that great for me though, okay?”
Renita shook her head. “Risks are worthwhile, Ky. There’s value in doing something
“Ky, he’s here,” her mom said and pressed a button on the wall to open the door; it slid to
the left with a loud ‘woosh’. “Well, I … recognize that it’s hard to see things in that way at your
“Sure, momma.”
A young man of Chinese descent was at the door, maybe in his mid-twenties. His straight
black hair was cut just right above his eyes. He was her mom’s height.
He apologized to Renita. “They’re working us double-shifts.” Tyler wore the red jumper
“Tyler, this is Kyra,” her mom said, and invited Tyler inside the apartment. Renita closed
the door swiftly behind him. Tyler smirked, nodded, and waved; Kyra barely lifted her head from
“Um, we don’t have much time,” Tyler admitted, confirming the time on his watch and
removing a small tablet from the side of his hip. He unlocked the tablet and began accessing it.
“Okay, Kyra, listen to me,” her mom said very nervously. “Hold out your hands.”
Kyra suddenly felt very cold, like, all of the blood just drained out of her. “Momma-”
“-Kyra, please, hold out your hands,” Renita asked a bit more sternly. And Kyra held
“Thanks,” Tyler acknowledged flatly as his attention was mostly on his tablet. “Okay.
“We’re done,” he said. “You can put your hands down now.”
“I reset your jumper to a ‘null’ state,” Tyler admitted and re-strapped his tablet to a
position on his hip. “It’ll help us get you where we’re going.”
Renita didn’t answer. She was still near the door and looking into the hallway. “Okay, it’s
clear.”
Cold anxiety washed over Kyra. “‘Where we’re going?’”, and she stood a bit too fast and
too hard as her momentum sent her drifting into the ceiling. “Momma, please tell me where are
we going!”
“Ky, listen to me.” Her mom’s voice was hushed and uncertain. Renita moved closer to
Kyra and helped her balance and return to the floor where her socks found traction again. She
looked directly into Kyra’s eyes. “I need you to be quiet right now. And I need you to hear what
I’m sayin’ to you and to trust me. I need your help. Okay?”
Kyra didn’t understand but the pleading in her mom’s voice compelled her to be silent.
Her heart pounded. Kyra had never seen her mother uncertain and afraid about anything.
“Ren, we should move,” Tyler reminded Renita and opened the door. “C’mon, let’s go.”
All three of them moved into the hallway. The apartment door closed behind them, and a
wave of warmth and enthusiasm overcame Kyra. Her face lit up happily and she blurted, “Does
In that moment, Kyra was elated. Excitement welled up within her. She’d never, ever
thought this could happen! Maybe her mom wasn’t going to go to Mars? Maybe she was trying
to escape and get back to Earth! All kinds of thoughts flooded her mind - about how they’d go
back home, and how she’d find a place to live, and her momma would be there after school days,
All three of them took small almost hopping steps down the narrow hall, often using their
hands against the wall for balance and to help push their momentum into the right direction. It
wasn’t a way that Kyra was familiar with though - the elevators to the Moondock were another
direction. After a minute, they came to a utility hatch. Tyler entered a code into a keypad and the
hatch unlocked with a clank. He gripped two handles on the door, turned them counter-
clockwise, and pulled, revealing a vertical shaft and two opposing sets of ladders. A black
Renita urged Kyra inside the maintenance shaft and to grip the right-most ladder. “Go to
deck 17. We’re right behind you.” And as Kyra mounted the ladder and started up, Tyler and
Renita entered the small compartment and he shut the door behind them. It locked again but this
time much louder, with a scary heavy echo. Small florescent lights flickered and lit the shaft so
Kyra could see where she was going, but below her, the light was very faint and she could just
“Tyler,” Renita whispered but this time sounding stronger, more in control. Kyra could
tell. Her mother’s confidence was coming back because she was executing; she was doing.
“Three or four minutes,” Tyler called back. “SecOps recorded my code when I opened
the airlock. Right now, they will see both of us in this tube. That won’t be weird.”
Climbing a ladder on the Moon wasn’t any work at all - little pushes from one rung
allowed Kyra to launch over three or four rungs at a time - and it wasn’t long before Kyra
How fantastic, Kyra thought! Her mom’s chickened-out, or better: she’s come to her
senses and saw how important her daughter was. They’re going to leave Moondock and she’ll go
back home. Her momma doesn’t want to leave Earth or her family. She wants to stay!
“What will be weird,” Tyler continued, lightly leaping the chasm to the ladder on the
other side of the shaft so that he could position himself near a keypad adjacent to the door, “is
when we access the lab deck off-shift. I got it handled though. Ready?”
“Why? What did you do?”, Renita asked and suspended on the ladder right below Kyra.
Tyler shrugged. “Nah, nothing. I told the shift supervisor that I’d some last-minute
restorations to attend to - data requests by the Prometheus’ crew and mission specialists.”
“Yeah,” he replied smugly, “and, if he asks, you were with me to help get the right
botanical files. We used the tubes. They’ll have no vid on us coming or going between the lab
“What’re you all talking about?”, Kyra whispered just a bit too angrily. She really hated
being left out of the loop. Why weren’t they heading to the Moondock? “How’re we going to get
Renita then said, “Hush, Ky. Just wait. There’s no vid in the lab?”
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“Nope,” Tyler replied. His hand closed in on the keypad. “System admin’s are the good
guys, but we can’t stay in here much longer. It’ll look suspicious to SecOps. It’s really been too
Tyler punched in an access code, straddled rungs on both ladders, and turned two handles
on the hatch clock-wise. Another loud clank and a slight hiss, and the hatch opened. All three of
them left the tube and bounded into 360-room with a center console and a black chair with large
instrumentation above it. Tyler turned and immediately secured the hatch.
A 360-room is a modular ball where most of its walls and surface area can be used.
Without Earth gravity, ceilings and floors can be usable space, particularly for computer systems,
and that’s exactly what this room was. Large sections of computer systems, vidscreens, even
keyboards were anchored to nearly every space imaginable. The large black chair in the center of
the room was the only level object at the orientation of the hatch they entered from.
Grasping at stainless-steel handles placed strategically around the room, Tyler expertly
climbed to a set of control panels located on the ceiling. “Kyra, please sit in the chair.”
Kyra’s heart was pounding fiercely and that cold sensation came back, smothering all of
the warmth and excitement of the last five minutes. Kyra suddenly started thinking that she had it
all wrong and that this wasn’t an escape plan. She looked incredulously at her mother.
“Momma,” Kyra protested. She took an unconscious step backwards towards the hatch.
Tyler slipped his feet into a set of mounts and ordered three vidscreens to come to life.
Immediately began typing commands on a keyboard. In the center of the room, the chair whirred
and tiny LED’s blinked to life. Above the chair, instruments clicked and powered-on.
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“Kyra,” Renita cautiously held out her hands towards her daughter. Reluctantly, Kyra
reached out to her mom and they held hands. Renita paused for just a moment, savoring it, and
then her face got very soft and vulnerable again. “Mars is a long way away. Communications
isn’t the same out there as it is in Earth’s orbit. We won’t be able to vid, message, or stay in-
touch. I’m … I’m scared to be so far away, and in a place so different, and I’m really going to
miss you. I need to do this. I’ve trained for Mars all of my life, but I … I need your help.”
Kyra’s anger was boiling to the surface. Her mom was still talking like she was going to
leave! She couldn’t believe it. “Momma, we need to go! We need to get out of here! We’re going
“No, Kyra,” her mom whispered, tears welling in her eyes. Renita squeezed her
At that instant, Kyra felt like somebody kicked her right in the stomach. Her hands flew
“Wow,” Tyler instructed the chair to spin 180-degrees to face them. “A little loud-”
“NO!”, Kyra gasped and she tried to push herself away from her mom.
Tyler looked back to the drama unfolding below him. “Okay, Ren, I’m ready.”
Kyra was sobbing and barely heard her mother. “No, Ky, please. Listen to what I’m
“No! I hate space!”, Kyra wailed. “I hate leaving Earth! You can’t force me! I don’t want
to go! No!”
Renita almost seemed to laugh. “No - okay, wait. That’s not it at all, Ky. Calm down,
Tyler entered more commands into the computer. A flash of instructions cleared the
screen and created a progress meter. On another screen, a listing of files scrolled by, all of them
with the names of people. “Um, she really doesn’t understand, does she?”
“There wasn’t any time,” Renita snapped. “They upped the schedule - I never got around
to explaining it to her.”
Kyra shrieked, turned, pushed herself over to the hatch door and tried to open it, yanking
furiously on both handles. She wanted to get out, get away from her mother. The door didn’t
budge.
“Listen!”, her mom shouted, leaped ten feet, and twisted Kyra’s shoulders to face her -
away from the hatch - demanding Kyra’s attention. “You - that is, you you - you’re not going to
Mars. You’re staying on Earth with your papa. You’re not gong anywhere. I want you - a sim of
Kyra stared at her mother dumbfounded and stopped resisting. Confused, she then asked,
“Actually, yeah: same tech but a different application,” Tyler interjected from his perch
above them. “Sims are used on the Mars mission as a form of artificial intelligence. When they
need an egghead on a topic that they’re clueless about they can recall a sim from the computer to
help answer a question. Physicists, engineers, computer specialists, medical doctors, even
physical therapists. There’s a whole bunch of them in here. It doesn’t cost that much to bring
along two-hundred virtual people on a hard drive, you see?” Tyler tapped his vidscreen. “And,
Renita took her daughter’s hands again. “I’m the only specialist on the mission with a
child. Nobody else really knows what its like, to leave a kid for so long. Nobody around here
really gets it. But I know my duty. I know its for a bigger cause. I don’t want to be away from
A sick feeling rumbled in Kyra’s belly. She felt nauseated and then stared at the floor,
avoiding eye contact with her mother, and replied in a shallow voice, “Seriously? You want to …
“Well, it’s not really a copy,” Tyler interrupted again. “It’s more of a reconstruction of
the neural pathways in your brain. Then that map works like a model that can be re-played by a
Renita weakly smiled and tears began to stream down her face. “Tyler’s a good friend.
He’s going to hide your sim in the computer’s archive. I’d be able to talk to you when I’m lonely
Kyra flinched. She never heard her mother say she needed her.
“It’s a keepsake,” her mom continued, “like a picture and a picture’s not that creepy, is
it? It’d be a snapshot of who you are. I’m going to miss you so much, and it’s a way to stay
Kyra thought about this for a time and Renita waited patiently for her request to sink in.
Tyler issued a command into the computer system and the vidscreens flashed but the
progress meter remained. “Well, here’s the thing: creating sim’s out of kids and hiding them in
the computer system of a spaceship isn’t exactly reg’, you know? I told your mom that I
wouldn’t do this unless you were completely okay with it. You have to be totally willing. I won’t
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do it otherwise. That’s what I said,” Tyler affirmed. “We’ve got a limited amount of time here.
Kyra looked over at the chair then back up at Tyler. “Does it hurt?”
Tyler chuckled and shook his head. “Nope. It does take twenty minutes though. We must
Kyra looked deeply at her mother. Now, she saw her as a woman - a normal person,
scared, afraid, and insecure, yet every bit committed to her life’s work - ready to sacrifice so
much yet asking for so little; and not the ambitious academic or champion space explorer. Renita
Fuller was, simply, her momma, asking only for a digital memory. Still holding on to her mom’s
hands, Kyra took small steps backwards towards the chair and managed a clever smile. “Okay.
“Ms. Fuller?”
Kyra was startled. She was sitting, watching the Promethus through the transparent dome
of Moondock as it drifted slowly away. Kyra had been watching the decoupling procedure for
the last ten minutes. She hadn’t noticed the young American woman had joined her in the seat
beside hers.
“Oh, sorry,” the woman apologized and she extended her hand. “I didn’t mean to scare
you. I’m Gloria Pearson from spacetek-dot-com. You are Kyra Fuller, right? Specialist Fuller’s
daughter?”
Kyra nodded her head, shook Gloria Pearson’s hand, and smiled faintly.
“Forgive me for asking but it looks like you’ve had a long night! I’d bet you spent all that
“Yeah, I didn’t sleep at all. We looked at pictures and talked a lot with my nanna.”
“That’s awesome,” Gloria agreed. She handed Kyra a business card. “I’m a blogger.
You’re probably too tired right now but when you get planet-side, maybe we can message a bit?
I’d like to ask you a few questions about your mom. How you’re doing and so on? Would that be
okay?”
Kyra thought Gloria seemed very friendly. “Yeah, sure - that’d be okay.”
“Great!”, Gloria said and stood up. “We’ll do that. You’re the only kid who has a parent
on the mission. That’s a great angle. Say, one thing though? If I may ask, what’s the last thing
your mom said before she left? Really, what does one say to a daughter that one wouldn’t see for
“She said to do good in school,” Kyra grinned and scratched at her right ear. “That’s my
momma: she doesn’t want to see any bad report card while she’s, like, out camping a zillion
kilometers away. That’d just make her seriously mad. And she said to take care of my papa.”
Gloria laughed. “Of course. Thanks, Kyra. I’ll be in touch. Get some sleep, okay?”
After Gloria left and Kyra was alone again, she looked up through the dome and could
see the shining blue light of the Prometheus heading away from the Moon. She watched it get
smaller and smaller. Kyra’s own flight back to Earth wouldn’t be available for another hour.
Kyra was really tired and was looking forward to sleeping on the transit back.
Nearby, a couple was also watching the ship leave the Moon’s orbit. It was the newbies
who traveled on Kyra’s earlier flight. They must have known someone on the mission, too. They
were embracing, and their faces were lit with happiness, pride, and enthusiasm.
“Hey, sugar!” Her mother’s sim appeared on her tablet. “Miss me yet?”
Kyra shook her head and smiled, still staring into the stars. “Not yet, momma.”
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“Well I assumed as much,” her mom replied sarcastically, “and I’d think I would’ve said
“Uh-huh,” Kyra confirmed and looked back into the tablet. Her mother’s face consumed
the entirety of the foreground. “You did. You wouldn’t shut up.”
“All right, Ky. I’m going to tell you what I think I would have said.”
The sim appeared to straighten-up. “Kyra Desiree Fuller, I want you to live your life the
way you want to. No more trips to come and see me out in space. You can keep your feet on the
Earth if that’s what you want, but remember that risking and sacrificing for others is in itself a
great reward. I want you to be safe and treat everybody if your life with kindness and respect.
Succeed only in what makes you happy. I want you to fall in love, and I want you to be broken-
hearted, too, so you know their differences. And no matter what happens while I’m away, I will
“What?”
“That was about it,” Kyra explained, “except you said ‘no kids’ ‘cause you said you
“A ‘full-time nanna’ and not a ‘part-time, on-another-planet nanna’. That’s what you
said. You got the whole-name-thing right, too, and the part about not coming out and visiting
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