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ngwi t
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udgi ngy ou.Wel l Iwasbl essedenought ohav e
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threeofuswer et hickast hi
evesgr owingup,
beenf ri
endssi ncepr eschool day s.Unt il
high
school day st hingsst ar
tedchangi ngourbodi es
start
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hmy
sheet sfi
lledwi t hbl oodandt hatwasi tallofa
suddenmymot herwasal waysonmycase
aboutspendi ngt oomucht i
mewi thmyf ri
ends
shest artedf orcingmei ntodr essesr atherthan
pants.Myf riendsst artedmaki ngcomment s
aboutgi rlsthatmademeuncomf or tabl eall
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suddent heygotgi r
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iendsIwasnol ongert he
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l i
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landt heywer eboy s.Iam Si nov uyo
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tyat
Wi t
sdoi ngmedi cine.Mybestf ri
endsar e
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whi l
eLungel oandIar e16weal lingr ade11.
Nkany i
soi salsoaPKheandIhav ean
under standingwheni tcomest ot hepr essures
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what everorwhoev erhewant stobehi sarti
stic
i
nt opoet rynev ery t
hingt hatisar thej usthas
thatcal mingspi ri
thi spar entslethi m be
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ons,unli
keuswehav e
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ment shavet oattendev er
ydayif
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c
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m
alwayscompar edt omybi gsisterwhoi san
angelandast raightAstudentswhenshe
passedhergr ade12shewasal l
owedt odat e
soshehasaboy fr
iendthatisknownbymy
parentsSethunPhi wearethesame.Butt hana
personcant akeonl ysomuchpr essur
ebef ore
theybrake.
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nov
uyo'
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kwanel
e-me
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inci
pal
atahi
ghschool
i
nMl azi
)
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cli
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psy
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eacher
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o-mybest
ie
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iso-mybest
ie
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hu-bi
gsi
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incessoft
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ami
l
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12,
21:
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maki ngbreakfastdadwasr eadinganews
paperwhi l
ehav ingcoffee
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ning"
Them:
"mor
ning"
Daddy
:"sl
eptwel
lnci
nci"t
hat'
swhatdadcal
l
s
meim ki
ndoffadaddy'
sgir
l
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esdaddy
"mom di
shedupwest
art
ed
eat
ing
Mom:
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act
icet
oday
?"
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'
llgetat
axiback"Iusuall
ytakeat
axi
backhomeunlessi
tfr
idaymom pi cksmeup
Daddy
:"y
ourmot
herwi
l
lpi
cky
ouup"
Me:
"ther
e'snoneed"
Mom: "
oknowt hatset t
leimr unninglat egota
meet ingt hi
smor ning"shet ookhert hings
kissedmyheadanddaddywal kedherouthe
camebackaf t
erawhi l
ewef i
nshedeat i
ngIdi d
thedishes.Wel eftdadwor ksatKi ngEdwar d
hospitalsohedr opsmeof fev erymor ning
school wasj ustschool Ihadhockeypr actice
afterpract i
ceBat howasal readywai tingf orme
outsidet heschool gateleaningonhi sbr other
's
carwear i
ngshor tsnt shir
tIstoodbyt hegat e
wel ookedateachot hersmi l
ingheopenedhi s
arm andIr ant ohi m hewr appedhi sar ms
aroundl ifti
ngmeup
Batho:"
Imissedyoubbe"heputmedownand
cuppedmyf acegi
vi
ngmeahar ddeepki
ss
beforel
ett
inggo
Me:"Ial
somissedyou"hetookmybackpackn
gym bagputi
tinthecart
hanopenedthedoor
formehealsogotinanddroveof
f
Bat
ho:
"howwasschool
"
Me:"
youknowj
ustnor
mal
l
ybor
ingandony
our
si
de?
"
Batho:"j
ustcool
rememberIgotagame
tomorrowy oupr
omisedtocome"Bat
hopl
ays
rugbyhealsogoestoGlenwoodhi
gh
Me:
"oh"Ihadt
ogoLungel
o'
sreci
te
Bat
ho:
"whatdoes'
oh'
mean?
"
Me:
"Il
ovey
ou"hechuckl
ed
Bat
ho:
"don'
tpl
aysmar
t"
Me:
"I'
m notpl
ayi
ngatany
thi
ng"
Bat
ho:"
youcomingr
ightwecancat
chl
ate
l
unchaf
ter
wards"
Me:
"wi
l
litbeoki
fImi
ssedt
hisgame"
Batho:"
itoneoft
hemosti
mpor
tantgamesthi
s
seasonbbeIneedyout
her
eIwantyouther
e"
Me:
"justIhav
etobesomewher
e"
Bat
ho:
"doest
hissomewher
enothav
eaname"
Me:
"batcent
er"
Bat
ho:
"yougonnat
ell
mewhy
?"
Me: "
Lungel
oisgoingtobeperf
ormi
ng"he
chuckledwhi
leshaki
nghishead
Batho:
"shoul
dhav
eknownt
hati
twasbecause
ofoneofthem"
Me:"don'
tsayitl
ikethatbaby"hepar
kedtwo
housesawayfrom minehel ower
edhisseat
andlai
donitlookingupIgotupandsatonmy
l
egs
Batho:"i
tal
waysthesamet hi
ngbbeim start
ing
togetusedtoitandt hat
'snotagoodthi
ng
bel
ieveme"hisvoicewasl ownsoftthat
'sjust
howhei snomat t
erhowangr yheishehas
neverrai
sedhi
sv oiceatme
Me:
"Il
ovey
ou"
Bat
ho:
"youj
ustl
ovet
hem mor
e"
Me:
"that
'snott
rue"
Batho:"i
tsur
ef eel
sli
ke"Imovedandsatont
op
ofhim str
addl
inghim hesatupandhel
dmy
waist
Me:"
Ilov
eyouj
usty
out
heymyf
ri
endsy
oumy
ki
ng"
Bat
ho:
"aki
ngshoul
dcomef
ir
st"
Me: "
andyoudocomef irstyouknowthat"I
wrappedmyar msaroundhisneckheheldmy
assbringmecloserwekissedunti
lour
breat
hingchangedhewasget ti
nghardIpul
led
backhepressedhisfor
eheadonmi ne
Bat
ho:
"I'
l
lwai
t"Igi
ggl
ed
Me:
"IknowandIshoul
dgo"
Bat
ho:
"sot
omor
row"
Me:"I
'
llmeetyouafterthegamei m sur
ethe
showwillbeoverbythan"hemov edmef rom
hi
m si
tti
ngmedownont hepassengersit
Bat
ho:"
itcool
don'
tcomeI
'
llhangwi
tht
he
guy
s"hewasdismi
ssiv
e
Me:
"Iwantt
ocome"
Bat
ho:
"noy
oudon'
t"
Me:
"babydon'
tbel
i
ket
his"
Bat
ho:
"justgoIneedt
oheadhome"
Me:
"I'
l
lseey
out
omor
row"
Batho:"
whatever
"hegotoutwenttoopenmy
doorIgotouthegavememybagsandki ssed
myf or
eheadthanwentt
ot hedr
iversi
de
Me:
"justl
i
ket
hat
"
Bat
ho:
"whatdoy
ouwantmet
osaySi
no"
Me:
"howaboutIl
ovey
ou"hesi
ghed
Bat
ho:
"Il
ovey
ou"
Me: "Il
oveyout oo"henoddedgotint hecar
anddr oveoffIwat chedthecarunt
ili
t
disappearedthanIwenthomemypar ent
swere
homeIcoul dsmel l t
hefoodintheki
tchen
daddywaswat chingtvIdroppedmybagand
satnexttodadput ti
ngmyheadonhi slap
Dad:
"howwaspr
act
ice"
Me:
"okj
ustt
ir
ingdaddy
"
Mom: "
takeyourbagsinyourr
oom Si
no"she
shout
edfrom t
hekitchen
Me:"howdi
dsheevenknowIdroppedt
hem
her
e"Iwhi
sper
eddadlaughed
Dad:"
she'
sgotsuperpower
snci
nci
youknow
t
hat"Il
aughedandgotup
Mom: "
weleavein30mi
nutesy
oubet
ter
f
reshenup"Ir
oll
edmyeyes
Me:
"canIski
pchur
chdaddy
"
Dad:
"nopegoshower
"
Me:"y
essir
"Idragmybagstomyroom It
ooka
qui
ckshowergotdr
essedi
namaxi dr
essput
onabenni
esatonthebedchat
ti
ngtonkanyi
so
Me:
"goi
ngt
ochur
ch"
Nka:
"lol
asi
fI'
dmi
ssi
t"
Me:
"I'
m soov
ert
his"
Nka:
"tel
lmeabouti
t,I
'
m abouttol
eav
edr
ivi
ng
bymysel
fpar
entscan'
tmakeit"
Me:
"pi
ckmeup"
Nka:
"or
ytcomeout
"
Me:"
cool
"Iwentdownst
air
sfoundmypar
ent
s
ki
ssi
ngIcl
ear
edmyt hr
oat
Dad:
"what
"
Me:"youguy
sshoul
dreal
l
yleav
ethatf
ory
our
bedr
oom"
Dad:
"itourhouse"
Mom:
"youdone"
Me:
"yesbutI
'
mleav
ingwi
thNkahi
sgonnapi
ck
meupnow"
Mom:"y
ounotaski
ngy
out
ell
i
ngus"Il
ooked
down
Me:
"I'
m aski
ng"
Dad:
"goonnci
nci
wil
lmeety
out
her
e"
Me:"ok"Il
eftNkawasal
readypar
kedbyt
he
gat
eIgotin
Nka:
"hey
"heki
ssedmyf
orehead
Me:
"yougood"
Nka:
"yepny
ou"
Me:
"yepwher
e'sLungel
o"
Nka:
"athi
shouseIt
hink"
Me:
"cool
"
Nka:
"youandBat
host
il
lgood"
Me:
"yeah"hel
aughedandshookhi
shead
"
what?"
Nka:"nothi
ngSino"wegott ochurchsooni t
wasov erIdrovebackwi thnkainsteadofgoing
backtohomehedr ov etothebeachwet ooka
walkitdi
dn'teventake20mi nut
esbef or
emom
star
tedcall
ingshoutingatmewel eftIgot
homewehaddi nneraf t
erdinnerIwashedt he
di
shesandcl eanedtheki t
chen.Iwentt othe
l
oungewat chedtvwhilechat
tingBathowas
madatmebutheagr eedtomeetmeatsun
coastaft
erthematchaf t
erly
ingtomypar ents
thatIhadastudygrouptomor rowsoIcan'tgo
tochurchIwenttosleep.
.
Satur
daymor
ningBat
howokemeupwi
tha
FaceTi
mecal
l
Me:
"mor
ningbaby
"
Bat
ho:
"mor
ningbbe"
Me:
"goodl
uck"hechuckl
ed
Bat
ho:
"wi
shy
ouwoul
dcome"
Me:"I
'
llcatchupwi
thyouandyourfr
iendsat
suncoast"thet
eam wasgoi
ngther
ef orl
ate
l
unch
Bat
ho:
"Il
ovey
ounowgetup"
Me:"Il
oveyou"heblewmeakissIblewitback
anddroppedthecal
lIgotupwentdownstai
rs
f
oundast
icknot
eont
hef
ri
dge
*
wegonef ort
hedaynci
nci
won'
tbebackunt
il
t
oni
ghtdaddylov
esyou*
Imadecer eal ateinfrontoft heTVwhi le
chatt
ingtheboy swer epickingmeupat12: 30
theshowwasst art
ing13: 00itwasal ready
11:00aftereat i
ngIrinsedmydi shtookabat h
gotoutlotionedgotdr essedi na3quar t
erti
ght
fi
tt
ingdress, Nikeroshersandabasebal lcapI
hadast r
aightbackIputonadar kpur ple
l
ipsti
ckpackedupmysl i
gbackIwentbackt o
watchtvunt ilLungelocalledsay i
ngt heybyt he
gateItookmybagt urnedt healarm sy st
em on
l
ockedupandl eft
.Theywer estandingout si
de
thecar
Lungel
o:"
thequar
ter
back'
sgi
rl
fr
iend"I
chuckl
ed
Me: "
shutup"hebroughtmetohischestand
ki
ssedmyf oreheadthanl
etgoIhugged
nkanyi
so
Nka:"l
et'
sgetoutofher
e"wegotinthecar
Lungel
osatattheback(Nkany
isodri
veshi
s
fat
her'
scar)wedroveofft
owardstown
Nka:
"Ineedasmoke"nkany
isoi
saweedhead
heal
sodrinksbuthi
spar
ent
sarecl
uel
ess
Lungelo:"met oo"wet al
kedaboutstupidthings
unti
l wegott obatcent erwegotoutt hecar
theyhadt heirsmoket hanwegoti n.Theshow
wentonunt i
l 17:00Lungelowasthelastonet o
perform IsentBat hoat extt
ell
i
ngIcan'tmeet
upwi thhim, aftertheshowwewentt oMl azi
kaVatYandi nwegotmeatandbeerwesat
ther
el i
steningt omusi ceati
nganddrinkingunti
l
l
atewel eftwhenIgothomemypar entswer e
notbackIt ookabat handslept.
.
Sundaymymot herwokemeupIt ookashower
aftermakingmybed, gotoutlot
ionedgot
dressedinhisghwai
stedwhi t
epencilski
rtand
tuckedinwhiteshi
rtwithstocki
ngsandbl ack
heelsputonadoekwehadbr eakfastandleft.
Chur chwasamazingwhenitwasov erwewent
forlunchthanwenthomeIcall
edBat hobuthe
didn'tpi
ckhewasalsonotr
eplyi
ngt omyt extI
wentonwhat sapphewasonline
Me: "
baby "nix"i
m sorr
yaboutyesterday "sti
l
l
nothi
ng" Bathandwaim sorr
y"hejustr eadand
didn'
treply"Ilov
ey oubabyandimr eallysorry
youstartedtomakemesad"st il
lnor eplyI
call
edhim hepi ckedupbutdidn'
tsayany thi
ng
Me:
"babyi
m sor
ry"
Bat
ho:
"it
'sok"
Me:
"Il
ovey
ou"
Bat
ho:
"Il
ovey
out
oo"
Me:
"I'
m sor
ry"
Bat
ho:
"cool
I'
ll
getov
eri
tjustgi
vemet
ime"
Me:
"I'
m sor
ry"
Bat
ho:
"wewont
hegamebyt
heway
"he
droppedt hecall,nowt hesear eoneoft hose
moment swher eIreali
zet hatI'm areall
yfucked
upgfIt extednkany i
sot omeetatourspotI
changedmyshoesandwentt hereIfoundhim
alr
eadyt heresitti
ngont hegr assIjustsatnext
tohim andst artedcryi
nghedi dn'tsayanythi
ng
hejusthel dmeandl etmecr yunt ilIwasdone
hewi pedmyt earski
ssedmyheadandhel dme
ti
ghter.
[
08/
12,
21:
22]Wadz
:Inser
t02
.
Nka:
"whatdi
dhedo?
"
Me:
"not
hing"
Nka:
"wanat
alkabouti
t?Youknowgeti
tout
"
Me:
"nonotr
eal
l
y"
Nka:
"hedoesn'
tdeser
vey
ou"Ichuckl
ed
Me:"
act
ual
l
yimt
heonet
hatdoesn'
tdeser
ve
hi
m"
Nka:
"whywoul
dyousayt
hat
?"
Me:
"cozi
ttr
ue"
Lungel
o:"
youguysbondi
ngwithoutme"we
tur
nedtoseehi
m walki
ngtowardsus
Me:"nev
er"hesatonmylef
tandIwas
sandwhi
chedbetweent
hem
Nka:"
dadwasaskingwhyyouwer
enoti
n
chur
ch"Lungel
olaughed
Lungel
o:"
uncl
eknowsI
'
m notaboutt
hatl
i
fe"
Nka:
"yeahhest
il
laskst
hough"
Lungel
o:"
whatdi
dthequar
ter
backdowhywer
e
youcry
ingSi
no"
Me:
"hedi
dn'
tdoany
thi
ng"
Lungel
o:"
wedon'
tl
iet
oeachot
her
"Isi
ghed
Me;"hi
sjustupsett
hatIwenttoyourr
ecit
e
i
nsteadofhisgame"theyl
aughed"guysstop
hi
sreall
yupset"
Nka:
"oksor
ry"
Lungel
o:"
yeahsor
rybutwhyy
oucr
yingi
fhi
s
upset"
Me:
"itmyf
aul
tthathi
supset
"
Nka:"
itnoty
ourf
aul
tthathi
sanemot
ional
pr
ick"
Me: "
hey
!"Theylookedateachot
herand
star
tedl
aughing"st
opbeingmeanguys
seri
ousl
y"
Lungel
o:"ourf
ri
endshi
pcomesfir
stany
onewe
geti
nar el
ati
onshi
pwithneedst
ounderst
and
that
"
Nka:
"tr
ue"
Me:"
buthedoesn'
tgett
hatmay
beIshoul
dput
hi
mfir
st"
Nka:
"bul
l
!"
Lungel
o:"r
ememberwhenIl ef
tNomf undoat
themallonourdatecozyouneededmet opi
ck
youupfrom pr
acti
cebecauseyoudidn'
twana
takeataxi
"welaughed
Nka:
"shebl
oodydumpedy
ouaf
tert
hat
"
Lungel
o:"don'
tmatt
erherkushi
sov
erused
anyway"welaughed
Nka:"
don'
tsayi
tdon'
tmat
tercozy
ouwer
esad
AF"
Lungel
o:"
pret
ense"
Me:
"li
ar!
"Wel
aughed
Nka:"
youfucknwrot
eapoem abouther
,you
werepi
ssedoff"
Lungel
o:"
itbecauseIdi
dn'
thav
eabackupshe
wasmyonl ygir
l"
Me:"y
oushoul
dhavetol
dmey ouwer
eondat
e
Iwoul
dhavegott
enNkatopi
ckmeup"
Lungel
o:"
youcomef
ir
sty
ouknowt
hat
"he
ki
ssedmyhead
Me:
"yeahy
eah"Isi
ghed
Nka:
"what
'sup"
Me:
"Il
ovehi
mli
keIf
inal
l
yfel
lforaguyandi
ts
hi
m Idon'
twanaruinusbutIj
ustdon'
tknow
howtobalancet
hings"
Lungel
o:"youwil
lfi
gur
eitouty
out
hebr
ainsof
thi
sgroup"welaughed
Nka:
"I'
mthemuscl
eandf
ace"
Me:
"thoughtIwast
hef
ace"
Nka:
"naht
hat
'sme"
Me:
"what
ever
"Lungel
olaughed
Lungel
o:"
andimt
hecent
er,
thepeaceandl
ove"
Nkachuckl
ed
Me:
"wor
d!"
Nka:"andpeopl
ewonderwhyy
ourr
elat
ionshi
ps
neverlast
"
Lungel
o:"t
hat'
sbecauseI'
m ady namit
egir
ls
can'
thandlemeplusI'
m gi
fted"hegrabbedhi
s
j
unkwel aughed
Me:"It
houghtyoubei
nggif
tedwoul
dmake
gi
rl
sstay"herol
ledhi
sey
es
Lungelo:
"youwoul
dn'
tunder
standmot
her
Teresa"
Me:
"hey
!!Nodi
ssi
ngaboutmyv
irgi
nit
y"
Nka:
"weal
lknowt haty
ouwait
ingf
oroneofus
t
obrakey
ourvir
ginit
y"t
heyl
aughed
Me:"eeeewugross!Missmewiththatshi
t,i
f
any
one'ssnakeisgoinginmeitwil
lbe
bat
handwa'snotoneofy ouf
ools"
Lungel
o:"
buty
ou'
veknownusf
orev
er"
Me:
"exact
lymypoi
nt!
"
Nka:"any
waylet
'smoveonf
rom t
hisnoone'
s
snakeisgoi
nginany
onewefamil
y"
Lungel
o:"
fami
l
y"
Me:"f
ami
l
y"wel
aidont
hegr
assl
ooki
ngatt
he
sky
Nka:
"It
hinkI
'
minl
ove"
Me:
"woah!
"
Lungel
o:"
wit
hwho"
Nka:
"Mbal
ithatgi
rlwemetatDav
enpor
t"
Lungel
o:"
shor
tdar
k?"
Nka:
"yep"
Lungel
o:"
nice"
Nka:
"Si
no"
Me:
"yeah"
Nka:
"hear
dwhatIsai
d"
Me:
"yeahgoodf
ory
ou"
Lungel
o:"
she'
sgotani
ceassandki
l
lerl
i
ps"
Nka:
"dude!Shegotanassf
ordecades"
Lungel
o:"
Ist
il
lsaySi
no'
sassi
sthebest
"
Nka:"
thebestthebestthebestcassper
nyov
estnyovestnyovest
"hescreamedwe
l
aughed
Me:
"shutupfool
andIt
houghtIt
oldy
ouguy
s
t
onottal
kaboutmybody"
Them:
"yesma'
am"
Me:"l
etmegogothomewor kst
owrit
eneedt
o
getsomestudy
ingdoneJuneexamsare
al
mosthere"
Nka:
"sur
e"Ist
oodup
Me:
"I'
dsuggesty
out
wodot
hesame"
Lungel
o:"
soonneedasmokef
ir
st"
Me:
"or
ytl
etmel
oveandl
eav
eyal
l
"
Them:
"lov
eyou"Ist
art
edwal
ki
ngaway
Lungelo:
"tel
lBat
hot
ocuty
ousomesl
ack"he
shouted
Me:"wil
ldo"Iscreamedback,Iwalkhomewe
havethi
splacethatwechil
latitexcludedhar
d
tofi
nditasmallopenspacewi t
hgr ass
sur
rondedbytressitl
ike5minutesr unfr
om
ourhouses.
Igothomemom star
tedshout
ingassoonasI
openedthedoor
Mom:
"wher
ehav
eyoubeen?
"
Me:
"wasj
ustwi
thnkany
isoandLungel
o"
Mom: "di
dInottel
lyoutostopspendingso
mucht i
mewi t
hthoseboys?Don'tyouhave
anythi
ngbett
ertodorat
herthanpar adet
he
str
eetwithboys"
Me:"
butmom whyy
ougot
tat
alkl
i
ket
hey
r
andom boy
s"
Mom:
"ohy
oubackchatnow"Il
ookeddown
Me:
"noma'
am"
Mom: "
isyourhomeworkdone?Didy
our
ead
andunder
standtoday
'sscr
ipt
ure?
"
Me:
"noma'
am"
Mom: "
whatgoodbusi
nessdoy
ouhav
eint
he
st
reett
han"
Me:
"none"
Mom:"Ididnotgivebir
tht
otwoboy
sbutt
wo
gi
rl
sdoy ougetthat"
Me:
"yesma'
am"
Mom: "Ihopeso"shel eftmei ntheloungewent
backtothekitchendadwasnotathome, Iwent
upstai
rschangedt oshor t
snv estsgotmy
homewor kdone, r
eadt hescr
ipturefrom t
oday'
s
serv
icewr ot
eitdownonast ickynotestuckit
onmymi r
ror,i
ronedmyf i
veuniformsthantook
anap.
Iwokeupawhi
l
elat
ercozmyphonewas
ri
ngi
ng
Me:
"heybi
gbr
o"
Phi
we:
"heysi
showar
eyou"
Me:
"I'
m cool
andy
ou"
Phi
we:
"I'
m good,
Iheary
our
aisi
nghav
oct
her
e"
Me: "
mxm youknowhowy
ourmot
heri
s"he
chuckled
Phi
we:
"howar
ethi
ngsy
ount
heboy
s"
Me:
"yeahwegood"
Phi
we:
"andschool
?"
Me:
"I'
m copi
ng"
Phiwe:"
ther
e'st
hatnewi Phonethatj
ustcame
outneedanupgrade?"Isqueal
edinexcit
ement
Me:
"yeahof
cos"hel
aughed
Phiwe:"cool
im comi
nghomemont
hendwe'
l
l
getitt
han"
Me:
"per
fect
"
Phi
we:
"st
opst
ressi
ngmom"
Me:
"ar
gPhi
we"
Phi
we: "
I'
mj oki
ngj
ustdoy
ouSi
nov
uyomom
wil
lgetoverit
"
Me:
"Il
ovey
ou"hechuckl
ed
Phi
we:
"lov
eyoumor
eki
dandImi
ssy
ou"
Me;
"wi
l
lseey
ousoon"
Phi
we:
"yeahgotgoby
e"
Me:"bye"hedroppedt
hecal
lIgotoutofbed
wenttorinsemymouthandwashmyf acethan
wentdownst
air
sdadwasbackwat
chi
ngt
v
Dad:
"thoughty
ouwer
edead"i
laughed
Me:
"mi
ssmemuch"
Dad: "
yeahcomeher eki d"Iwentt osi
tnextto
him ont hecouchsatonmyl egsandputmy
headonhi sshoul derwesatl ikethatwatchi
ng
tvhavingr andom chat sunt i
litiswasdinner
ti
me.Af t
erdi nnerIcleanedtheki t
chenand
washeddi sheswedon' thaveahel perathome.
AftercleaningupIdi dsomest udyi
ngthanslept
withoutt al
kingt oBathohewasnotonl i
neandi
wasdonenaggi nghim.
.
WokeupMondaymor ningmademybedpl ay
ed
myHi pHoppl
ayl
i
stim ahugeHipHopheadI
openedthewi
ndowandwentaboutgetti
ng
readywhenIwasdoneIsentBathoansms
*i
real
lymi
ssyouBat
hocanIseeyousoon
pl
easeandmosti
mport
ant
lyIl
oveyoubaby.
Youknowt hi
sismyfi
rstrel
ati
onshipi
m sti
ll
l
earni
ngpleasebepat
ientIcan'
tloseyouIdon'
t
wanttol
osey ou*
It
ookmybagandblazerwentdownst
air
sdad
washav
ingbr
eakf
ast
Me:
"mor
ningdaddy
"
Dad:
"mor
ningnci
nci
"
Me:
"mom al
readyl
eft
"
Dad:"
yesandy
oushoul
deatf
asti
mrunni
ng
l
ate"
Me:
"I'
l
lski
pbr
eakf
astwecanl
eav
e"
Dad:"
I'
dratherbelat
ethanl
etyouski
p
br
eakfastnci
nciyouknowthat
"
Me: "
I'
lleatthan"Isatdownandatewhilehe
coll
ectedhisthingswhenIwasdonewel eft,
he
droppedmeof fatschoolandwenttowor k.I
gotintheschool premisesandwenttofi
ndmy
crewIgot3f r
iendsinschoolAmil
e,Ki
m and
spheIf oundthem bythegroundswherewe
al
way
schi
l
l
Me:
"gi
rl
s"
Them:
"hey
"
Kim:"wemissedyouSat
urdayatt
hegameI
thoughty
ouwouldbether
esupporti
ngBat
ho"
Me:
"hadt
obesomewher
e"
Kim:"shoul
dhaveseenBathohewasaki
l
ler
ther
eandgirlswer
ecrazyoverhi
m"
Me:
"musthav
ebeenni
ce"t
heyl
aughed
Sphe:
"justl
i
ket
hat
"
Me:
"whatel
sedoy
ouexpectmet
osay
"
Sphe:
"Idon'
tknowj
ustnott
hat
"myphoner
ang
It
ookitoutofmypocket
Me:
"heybaby
"
Gir
ls:
"heycapt
ain!
!"Ichuckl
edandmov
edaway
fr
om them Bat
holaughed
Bat
ho:
"whatwast
hatabout
"
Me:
"justmyf
ri
endsbei
ngst
upi
d"
Bat
ho:
"Ial
somi
ssy
ou"
Me:
"youdo"
Bat
ho:
"of
cosbbe"
Me:
"youst
il
lmadatme"hesi
ghed
Bat
ho:
"nobbe"
Me:
"ok"
Bat
ho:
"howar
eyou"
Me:
"I'
m al
i
ttl
ebet
ternow"
Bat
ho:
"that
'sgoodI
'
llseey
ouaf
terschool
"
Me:
"I'
dlov
ethat
"
Bat
ho:
"goodIl
ovey
ouok"
Me:
"ok"
Bat
ho:"wi
llseey
ousoonby e"hedr
oppedt
he
cal
lIwentbackt
omyf r
iends
Ki
m:"
youneedt
ocomet
ohi
sgamesSi
no"
Me:
"itnotabi
gdeal
"
Kim:"
iti
syoushoul
dhav
eseenhowgi
rl
s
behav
earoundhim"
Me:
"It
rusthi
m"
Amil
e:"doesn'
tmeany
oushoul
dtr
ustot
her
gi
rl
saroundhim"
Me:
"youneedt
ochi
l
l"Ki
mlaughed
Ki
m:"becauseyoudi
dn'
tseenozi
phobei
ngal
l
ov
erhim atMimmosaft
erthegame"
Me:
"theski
nnyone"
Ki
m:"
sel
fi
est
ickl
egsnozi
pho"wel
aughed
Me:
"shedoesn'
tfazeme"
Ki
m:"
don'
tsayIdi
dn'
twar
nyou"
Me:
"what
ever
"Idi
smi
ssedj
ustast
hebel
lrang.
Schoolwasjustschool soonitwasoverwhen
thegir
lsandIsteppedoutt hegateBathowas
alr
eadywaiti
ngformeacr ossthest
reetl
ooki
ng
godlyi
nhisschool uni
forml eani
ngonhiscar
wi
thhi
shandsi
nhi
spocket
slooki
ngdown
Ami
l
e:"
mmh"
Me:
"don'
tst
art
"
Sphe:" goonwe'll
seey outomor row"we
huggedandIcr ossedt heroadhewasnow
l
ookingatmewi ththemostgor geoussmile
everheopenedhi sarmsasIgotcl oserIwalked
strai
ghtt ot
hem hewr appedt hem aroundwe
j
ustst ayedli
kethatnotsay i
ngawor dineach
other'
sar msforawhilebeforehepul l
edback
andgav emeasof tpeck
Bat
ho:
"hey
"
Me:
"hi
"
Bat
ho:
"let
'sgetoutofher
e"
Me: "ok"hetookmybagputitinthebackseat
thanwentt oopenupmysi twegotinanddr ov
e
offtowardsmor ningsi
demyparentsonl
ycome
homeear l
yonFridays
Me:
"howwast
hegame"hi
sey
esl
i
tup
Bat
ho:
"itwasepi
clov
ebestonet
hisseason"
Me:
"hear
dyouki
l
ledi
t"hechuckl
ed
Bat
ho:
"nahi
twast
eam ef
for
tbbe"
Me:"
alsoheardNozi
phowasal
lov
ery
oul
i
ke
badr
ash"helaughed
Bat
ho:
"notr
eal
l
ynott
hatInot
iced"
Me:
"hopeso"
Batho: "I'
m all
abouty oulovenooneel se"nast y
c-bam bam cameont heradi oIt
urnedupt he
volumewesangal ongwhi ledoingsomemov es
untilwegott ohishome.Hegotoutopenedmy
doort hanwewenti nhisbr otherwast here
wat chingtv wegr eetedIsatdownwhi le
Bathowentt oprepareasnackaf tereatinghe
askedmet ogohelphi m changesowewentt o
hisr oom.Hesmashedhi sl ipsonmi neassoon
ashecl osedthedoorbehi ndhi mselfIwr apped
myhandsar oundhisneckandst oodonmy
toessi ncehewasgr abbi
ngmybut t
Me:
"baby
"
Bat
ho:
"mmh"
Me:
"sl
owdown"hegr
oanedandpul
l
edback
Batho:"
ok"hepickedmeupandthr
ewmeon
thebedthanchangedint
osweat
pantsanda
tanktopthanhejoi
nedmeinbed
Bat
ho:
"let
'sbunkt
omor
row"
Me:
"whatIcan'
t"
Bat
ho:
"whynot
"
Me:
"youknowmydaddr
opsmeof
fatschool
"
Batho:
"youwil
lfi
gur
eitoutbutl
et'
sdi
tch
schoolspendt
hedaytoget
her"
Me:
" I
'
llt
ry"heki
ssedmycheekt
hanl
i
ftmeup
t
ositontopofhim
Bat
ho:
"Il
ovey
ou"
Me:"sodoI"wekissedslowlybutastimewent
onitst
art
edgett
inghotterandhotterhefli
pped
usoverandgotbetweenmyt highsthefeelof
hi
serect
ionpressingagai
nstmykushdrov
eme
i
nsaneIletoutamoanhepul l
edbackand
mutt
eredacur se
Me:
"sor
ry"hechuckl
ed
Bat
ho:
"itcool
"hemov
edandl
aidnextt
ome
Me:"youshouldtakemehome"hebr
oughtme
cl
osertohim andwrappedhi
sar
msandlegs
ar
oundmybody
Batho:"soon"west ayedwit
hhiser ect
ion
pressi
ngonmyst omachunti
l i
tfadeawayt han
wel ef
thedr oppedmeof ftwohousesf r
om
mine.Mypar ent
swer est
il
lnotathomeIt ooka
bathgotdr essinalosesummerdr esswentto
watchtval it
tleover30minutesmom came
home
Mom:
"Si
no"
Me:
"mah"
Mom:
"hav
eyoust
art
edondi
nner
"
Me:
"st
il
ldon'
tknowhowt
ocook"
Mom:
"youneedt
olear
n"
Me:
"noIdont
"
Mom:
"whatki
ndofwi
fewi
l
lyoube"
Dad:
"woahwhosegetti
ngmar
ri
ed"hewas
comi
nginthef
rontdoor
Mom:
"youdaught
erwhocan'
tcook"
Me:"mom say
snoonewi
l
lmar
rymesi
nceI
can'
tcook"
Dad:"
that
'sgoodthancozIdon'
twantnci
nci
get
ti
ngmar r
ied"
Me: "
itawi
nwinsi
tuati
onIdon'tl
earnhowto
cookIdon'
tgetmarr
ied"daddychuckl
edand
winkedatme
Dad:
"wi
nwi
nsi
tuat
ionOnge"
Mom: "
foryout
wo"shewentupstai
rsdad
fol
l
owedhertheycamebackaft
erawhil
ethey
hadchanged
Dad:
"putonaj
acketandl
et'
sleav
e"
Me:
"wher
eto?
"
Dad:
"di
nner
"
Me: "
cool
"Ijumpedoffthecouchwentt o
changemyshoesandputonaj acketwel
eft
wenttomusgr av
ehaddi nnerandcamebackI
l
eftthem i
ntheloungewentt ogetmy
homewor kdoneIstay
edupl atechatti
ngt
omy
fr
iendsandbatho.
.
Tuesdaymorni
ngmyal arm wentof
fIt
urnedi
t
offwentbacktobedIstayedi
nbedunti
l
someonestart
edknocking
Me:
"comei
n"daddycamei
n
Dad:
"nci
nci
"Igr
oanedl
i
keI
'
minpai
n
Me:
"daddy
"
Dad:
"what
'swr
ong"
Me:
"Idon'
tfeel
sogood"
Dad:
"what
'swr
ong"
Me:
"I'
minpai
nIt
hinkmyper
iodsar
ecomi
ng"
Dad:"ohokwel
lrestt
here'
ssomemedi
cat
ioni
n
ourbathr
oom I
'
llseeyouaft
erwor
k"
Me: "
ok"hewal kedoutIl etoutasi ghassoon
asIhear dthesensort hatgoesof fwhent he
maindoorget sclosedoropenIwentt obath.I
gotoutlotionedgotdr essedi nblackJeanbum
short
st hatmymot herhasnev erseenabl ack
croptopov ersizedblueshi rtunbuttonedputon
mybl uenwhi t
esuper starsIwentdownst ai
rs
madecer eal aft
ertell
i
ngBat hotocomegetme
Isatdownandat eIwasn' tevenfinishedwhen
Bathocalledsay ingImustcomeoutIr i
nsedmy
dishtookmybagandl eft
Bat
ho:
"heybaby
"hesai
ditl
azy
ly
Me:"st
opdrool
ingbaby"Ist
oodonmyt
oesand
gav
ehim asoftpeckonhisli
ps
Me:"l
et'
sgetoutofher
e"hegav
emeanot
her
peckwenttoopenmydoorwegoti
nandl
eft
Me:
"wher
eto"
Batho:
"mov
iel
uncht
hanhomey
oucool
wit
h
that
"
Me:
"let
'sj
ustgohome"
Bat
ho:
"yousur
e"
Me: "
yep"helookedatmegrinni
ngthandrove
straighttohishome.Wespentthewhol eday
wat chingmov i
esmakingoutandeatingmaking
outmor ethanhetookmehomel aterIgot
homechangedi ntomypjsgotunderthecovers
Ifellasleepimmediat
ely
,mom wokemeup
l
aterwewentt ochurch.
.
Therestoftheweekwentbyqui ckl
ybetween
chil
l
ingwithmyboy s,
schoolandchurcht wo
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nwasmont hendmybi gbrocame
homewespentt hewholeweekendt ogetherhe
tookmeshoppingthat'
stheonlytimeIgetto
buythekindofcl
othesIwanttowear ,hegot
meanupgr adeonmyphoneIchangedmyhair
i
ntoashortbeachwav
ePeruvi
anthanhelef
t
Sundayni
ght.
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ofeachot herbutwewer egood, myexams
di
dn'tgosowel l
Ijustknewt hatmyr esul
twi l
l
dropandmom wi llhav
eaf it
.Betweenchur ch
everyday
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heconnectgr oupIwas
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me.
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08/
12,
21:
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:Inser
t02
.
Nka:
"whatdi
dhedo?
"
Me:
"not
hing"
Nka:
"wanat
alkabouti
t?Youknowgeti
tout
"
Me:
"nonotr
eal
l
y"
Nka:
"hedoesn'
tdeser
vey
ou"Ichuckl
ed
Me:"
act
ual
l
yimt
heonet
hatdoesn'
tdeser
ve
hi
m"
Nka:
"whywoul
dyousayt
hat
?"
Me:
"cozi
ttr
ue"
Lungel
o:"
youguysbondi
ngwithoutme"we
tur
nedtoseehi
m walki
ngtowardsus
Me:"nev
er"hesatonmylef
tandIwas
sandwhi
chedbetweent
hem
Nka:"
dadwasaskingwhyyouwer
enoti
n
chur
ch"Lungel
olaughed
Lungel
o:"
uncl
eknowsI
'
m notaboutt
hatl
i
fe"
Nka:
"yeahhest
il
laskst
hough"
Lungel
o:"
whatdi
dthequar
ter
backdowhywer
e
youcry
ingSi
no"
Me:
"hedi
dn'
tdoany
thi
ng"
Lungel
o:"
wedon'
tl
iet
oeachot
her
"Isi
ghed
Me;"hi
sjustupsett
hatIwenttoyourr
ecit
e
i
nsteadofhisgame"theyl
aughed"guysstop
hi
sreall
yupset"
Nka:
"oksor
ry"
Lungel
o:"
yeahsor
rybutwhyy
oucr
yingi
fhi
s
upset"
Me:
"itmyf
aul
tthathi
supset
"
Nka:"
itnoty
ourf
aul
tthathi
sanemot
ional
pr
ick"
Me: "
hey
!"Theylookedateachot
herand
star
tedl
aughing"st
opbeingmeanguys
seri
ousl
y"
Lungel
o:"ourf
ri
endshi
pcomesfir
stany
onewe
geti
nar el
ati
onshi
pwithneedst
ounderst
and
that
"
Nka:
"tr
ue"
Me:"
buthedoesn'
tgett
hatmay
beIshoul
dput
hi
mfir
st"
Nka:
"bul
l
!"
Lungel
o:"r
ememberwhenIl ef
tNomf undoat
themallonourdatecozyouneededmet opi
ck
youupfrom pr
acti
cebecauseyoudidn'
twana
takeataxi
"welaughed
Nka:
"shebl
oodydumpedy
ouaf
tert
hat
"
Lungel
o:"don'
tmatt
erherkushi
sov
erused
anyway"welaughed
Nka:"
don'
tsayi
tdon'
tmat
tercozy
ouwer
esad
AF"
Lungel
o:"
pret
ense"
Me:
"li
ar!
"Wel
aughed
Nka:"
youfucknwrot
eapoem abouther
,you
werepi
ssedoff"
Lungel
o:"
itbecauseIdi
dn'
thav
eabackupshe
wasmyonl ygir
l"
Me:"y
oushoul
dhavetol
dmey ouwer
eondat
e
Iwoul
dhavegott
enNkatopi
ckmeup"
Lungel
o:"
youcomef
ir
sty
ouknowt
hat
"he
ki
ssedmyhead
Me:
"yeahy
eah"Isi
ghed
Nka:
"what
'sup"
Me:
"Il
ovehi
mli
keIf
inal
l
yfel
lforaguyandi
ts
hi
m Idon'
twanaruinusbutIj
ustdon'
tknow
howtobalancet
hings"
Lungel
o:"youwil
lfi
gur
eitouty
out
hebr
ainsof
thi
sgroup"welaughed
Nka:
"I'
mthemuscl
eandf
ace"
Me:
"thoughtIwast
hef
ace"
Nka:
"naht
hat
'sme"
Me:
"what
ever
"Lungel
olaughed
Lungel
o:"
andimt
hecent
er,
thepeaceandl
ove"
Nkachuckl
ed
Me:
"wor
d!"
Nka:"andpeopl
ewonderwhyy
ourr
elat
ionshi
ps
neverlast
"
Lungel
o:"t
hat'
sbecauseI'
m ady namit
egir
ls
can'
thandlemeplusI'
m gi
fted"hegrabbedhi
s
j
unkwel aughed
Me:"It
houghtyoubei
nggif
tedwoul
dmake
gi
rl
sstay"herol
ledhi
sey
es
Lungelo:
"youwoul
dn'
tunder
standmot
her
Teresa"
Me:
"hey
!!Nodi
ssi
ngaboutmyv
irgi
nit
y"
Nka:
"weal
lknowt haty
ouwait
ingf
oroneofus
t
obrakey
ourvir
ginit
y"t
heyl
aughed
Me:"eeeewugross!Missmewiththatshi
t,i
f
any
one'ssnakeisgoinginmeitwil
lbe
bat
handwa'snotoneofy ouf
ools"
Lungel
o:"
buty
ou'
veknownusf
orev
er"
Me:
"exact
lymypoi
nt!
"
Nka:"any
waylet
'smoveonf
rom t
hisnoone'
s
snakeisgoi
nginany
onewefamil
y"
Lungel
o:"
fami
l
y"
Me:"f
ami
l
y"wel
aidont
hegr
assl
ooki
ngatt
he
sky
Nka:
"It
hinkI
'
minl
ove"
Me:
"woah!
"
Lungel
o:"
wit
hwho"
Nka:
"Mbal
ithatgi
rlwemetatDav
enpor
t"
Lungel
o:"
shor
tdar
k?"
Nka:
"yep"
Lungel
o:"
nice"
Nka:
"Si
no"
Me:
"yeah"
Nka:
"hear
dwhatIsai
d"
Me:
"yeahgoodf
ory
ou"
Lungel
o:"
she'
sgotani
ceassandki
l
lerl
i
ps"
Nka:
"dude!Shegotanassf
ordecades"
Lungel
o:"
Ist
il
lsaySi
no'
sassi
sthebest
"
Nka:"
thebestthebestthebestcassper
nyov
estnyovestnyovest
"hescreamedwe
l
aughed
Me:
"shutupfool
andIt
houghtIt
oldy
ouguy
s
t
onottal
kaboutmybody"
Them:
"yesma'
am"
Me:"l
etmegogothomewor kst
owrit
eneedt
o
getsomestudy
ingdoneJuneexamsare
al
mosthere"
Nka:
"sur
e"Ist
oodup
Me:
"I'
dsuggesty
out
wodot
hesame"
Lungel
o:"
soonneedasmokef
ir
st"
Me:
"or
ytl
etmel
oveandl
eav
eyal
l
"
Them:
"lov
eyou"Ist
art
edwal
ki
ngaway
Lungelo:
"tel
lBat
hot
ocuty
ousomesl
ack"he
shouted
Me:"wil
ldo"Iscreamedback,Iwalkhomewe
havethi
splacethatwechil
latitexcludedhar
d
tofi
nditasmallopenspacewi t
hgr ass
sur
rondedbytressitl
ike5minutesr unfr
om
ourhouses.
Igothomemom star
tedshout
ingassoonasI
openedthedoor
Mom:
"wher
ehav
eyoubeen?
"
Me:
"wasj
ustwi
thnkany
isoandLungel
o"
Mom: "di
dInottel
lyoutostopspendingso
mucht i
mewi t
hthoseboys?Don'tyouhave
anythi
ngbett
ertodorat
herthanpar adet
he
str
eetwithboys"
Me:"
butmom whyy
ougot
tat
alkl
i
ket
hey
r
andom boy
s"
Mom:
"ohy
oubackchatnow"Il
ookeddown
Me:
"noma'
am"
Mom: "
isyourhomeworkdone?Didy
our
ead
andunder
standtoday
'sscr
ipt
ure?
"
Me:
"noma'
am"
Mom: "
whatgoodbusi
nessdoy
ouhav
eint
he
st
reett
han"
Me:
"none"
Mom:"Ididnotgivebir
tht
otwoboy
sbutt
wo
gi
rl
sdoy ougetthat"
Me:
"yesma'
am"
Mom: "Ihopeso"shel eftmei ntheloungewent
backtothekitchendadwasnotathome, Iwent
upstai
rschangedt oshor t
snv estsgotmy
homewor kdone, r
eadt hescr
ipturefrom t
oday'
s
serv
icewr ot
eitdownonast ickynotestuckit
onmymi r
ror,i
ronedmyf i
veuniformsthantook
anap.
Iwokeupawhi
l
elat
ercozmyphonewas
ri
ngi
ng
Me:
"heybi
gbr
o"
Phi
we:
"heysi
showar
eyou"
Me:
"I'
m cool
andy
ou"
Phi
we:
"I'
m good,
Iheary
our
aisi
nghav
oct
her
e"
Me: "
mxm youknowhowy
ourmot
heri
s"he
chuckled
Phi
we:
"howar
ethi
ngsy
ount
heboy
s"
Me:
"yeahwegood"
Phi
we:
"andschool
?"
Me:
"I'
m copi
ng"
Phiwe:"
ther
e'st
hatnewi Phonethatj
ustcame
outneedanupgrade?"Isqueal
edinexcit
ement
Me:
"yeahof
cos"hel
aughed
Phiwe:"cool
im comi
nghomemont
hendwe'
l
l
getitt
han"
Me:
"per
fect
"
Phi
we:
"st
opst
ressi
ngmom"
Me:
"ar
gPhi
we"
Phi
we: "
I'
mj oki
ngj
ustdoy
ouSi
nov
uyomom
wil
lgetoverit
"
Me:
"Il
ovey
ou"hechuckl
ed
Phi
we:
"lov
eyoumor
eki
dandImi
ssy
ou"
Me;
"wi
l
lseey
ousoon"
Phi
we:
"yeahgotgoby
e"
Me:"bye"hedroppedt
hecal
lIgotoutofbed
wenttorinsemymouthandwashmyf acethan
wentdownst
air
sdadwasbackwat
chi
ngt
v
Dad:
"thoughty
ouwer
edead"i
laughed
Me:
"mi
ssmemuch"
Dad: "
yeahcomeher eki d"Iwentt osi
tnextto
him ont hecouchsatonmyl egsandputmy
headonhi sshoul derwesatl ikethatwatchi
ng
tvhavingr andom chat sunt i
litiswasdinner
ti
me.Af t
erdi nnerIcleanedtheki t
chenand
washeddi sheswedon' thaveahel perathome.
AftercleaningupIdi dsomest udyi
ngthanslept
withoutt al
kingt oBathohewasnotonl i
neandi
wasdonenaggi nghim.
.
WokeupMondaymor ningmademybedpl ay
ed
myHi pHoppl
ayl
i
stim ahugeHipHopheadI
openedthewi
ndowandwentaboutgetti
ng
readywhenIwasdoneIsentBathoansms
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real
lymi
ssyouBat
hocanIseeyousoon
pl
easeandmosti
mport
ant
lyIl
oveyoubaby.
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rstrel
ati
onshipi
m sti
ll
l
earni
ngpleasebepat
ientIcan'
tloseyouIdon'
t
wanttol
osey ou*
It
ookmybagandblazerwentdownst
air
sdad
washav
ingbr
eakf
ast
Me:
"mor
ningdaddy
"
Dad:
"mor
ningnci
nci
"
Me:
"mom al
readyl
eft
"
Dad:"
yesandy
oushoul
deatf
asti
mrunni
ng
l
ate"
Me:
"I'
l
lski
pbr
eakf
astwecanl
eav
e"
Dad:"
I'
dratherbelat
ethanl
etyouski
p
br
eakfastnci
nciyouknowthat
"
Me: "
I'
lleatthan"Isatdownandatewhilehe
coll
ectedhisthingswhenIwasdonewel eft,
he
droppedmeof fatschoolandwenttowor k.I
gotintheschool premisesandwenttofi
ndmy
crewIgot3f r
iendsinschoolAmil
e,Ki
m and
spheIf oundthem bythegroundswherewe
al
way
schi
l
l
Me:
"gi
rl
s"
Them:
"hey
"
Kim:"wemissedyouSat
urdayatt
hegameI
thoughty
ouwouldbether
esupporti
ngBat
ho"
Me:
"hadt
obesomewher
e"
Kim:"shoul
dhaveseenBathohewasaki
l
ler
ther
eandgirlswer
ecrazyoverhi
m"
Me:
"musthav
ebeenni
ce"t
heyl
aughed
Sphe:
"justl
i
ket
hat
"
Me:
"whatel
sedoy
ouexpectmet
osay
"
Sphe:
"Idon'
tknowj
ustnott
hat
"myphoner
ang
It
ookitoutofmypocket
Me:
"heybaby
"
Gir
ls:
"heycapt
ain!
!"Ichuckl
edandmov
edaway
fr
om them Bat
holaughed
Bat
ho:
"whatwast
hatabout
"
Me:
"justmyf
ri
endsbei
ngst
upi
d"
Bat
ho:
"Ial
somi
ssy
ou"
Me:
"youdo"
Bat
ho:
"of
cosbbe"
Me:
"youst
il
lmadatme"hesi
ghed
Bat
ho:
"nobbe"
Me:
"ok"
Bat
ho:
"howar
eyou"
Me:
"I'
m al
i
ttl
ebet
ternow"
Bat
ho:
"that
'sgoodI
'
llseey
ouaf
terschool
"
Me:
"I'
dlov
ethat
"
Bat
ho:
"goodIl
ovey
ouok"
Me:
"ok"
Bat
ho:"wi
llseey
ousoonby e"hedr
oppedt
he
cal
lIwentbackt
omyf r
iends
Ki
m:"
youneedt
ocomet
ohi
sgamesSi
no"
Me:
"itnotabi
gdeal
"
Kim:"
iti
syoushoul
dhav
eseenhowgi
rl
s
behav
earoundhim"
Me:
"It
rusthi
m"
Amil
e:"doesn'
tmeany
oushoul
dtr
ustot
her
gi
rl
saroundhim"
Me:
"youneedt
ochi
l
l"Ki
mlaughed
Ki
m:"becauseyoudi
dn'
tseenozi
phobei
ngal
l
ov
erhim atMimmosaft
erthegame"
Me:
"theski
nnyone"
Ki
m:"
sel
fi
est
ickl
egsnozi
pho"wel
aughed
Me:
"shedoesn'
tfazeme"
Ki
m:"
don'
tsayIdi
dn'
twar
nyou"
Me:
"what
ever
"Idi
smi
ssedj
ustast
hebel
lrang.
Schoolwasjustschool soonitwasoverwhen
thegir
lsandIsteppedoutt hegateBathowas
alr
eadywaiti
ngformeacr ossthest
reetl
ooki
ng
godlyi
nhisschool uni
forml eani
ngonhiscar
wi
thhi
shandsi
nhi
spocket
slooki
ngdown
Ami
l
e:"
mmh"
Me:
"don'
tst
art
"
Sphe:" goonwe'll
seey outomor row"we
huggedandIcr ossedt heroadhewasnow
l
ookingatmewi ththemostgor geoussmile
everheopenedhi sarmsasIgotcl oserIwalked
strai
ghtt ot
hem hewr appedt hem aroundwe
j
ustst ayedli
kethatnotsay i
ngawor dineach
other'
sar msforawhilebeforehepul l
edback
andgav emeasof tpeck
Bat
ho:
"hey
"
Me:
"hi
"
Bat
ho:
"let
'sgetoutofher
e"
Me: "ok"hetookmybagputitinthebackseat
thanwentt oopenupmysi twegotinanddr ov
e
offtowardsmor ningsi
demyparentsonl
ycome
homeear l
yonFridays
Me:
"howwast
hegame"hi
sey
esl
i
tup
Bat
ho:
"itwasepi
clov
ebestonet
hisseason"
Me:
"hear
dyouki
l
ledi
t"hechuckl
ed
Bat
ho:
"nahi
twast
eam ef
for
tbbe"
Me:"
alsoheardNozi
phowasal
lov
ery
oul
i
ke
badr
ash"helaughed
Bat
ho:
"notr
eal
l
ynott
hatInot
iced"
Me:
"hopeso"
Batho: "I'
m all
abouty oulovenooneel se"nast y
c-bam bam cameont heradi oIt
urnedupt he
volumewesangal ongwhi ledoingsomemov es
untilwegott ohishome.Hegotoutopenedmy
doort hanwewenti nhisbr otherwast here
wat chingtv wegr eetedIsatdownwhi le
Bathowentt oprepareasnackaf tereatinghe
askedmet ogohelphi m changesowewentt o
hisr oom.Hesmashedhi sl ipsonmi neassoon
ashecl osedthedoorbehi ndhi mselfIwr apped
myhandsar oundhisneckandst oodonmy
toessi ncehewasgr abbi
ngmybut t
Me:
"baby
"
Bat
ho:
"mmh"
Me:
"sl
owdown"hegr
oanedandpul
l
edback
Batho:"
ok"hepickedmeupandthr
ewmeon
thebedthanchangedint
osweat
pantsanda
tanktopthanhejoi
nedmeinbed
Bat
ho:
"let
'sbunkt
omor
row"
Me:
"whatIcan'
t"
Bat
ho:
"whynot
"
Me:
"youknowmydaddr
opsmeof
fatschool
"
Batho:
"youwil
lfi
gur
eitoutbutl
et'
sdi
tch
schoolspendt
hedaytoget
her"
Me:
" I
'
llt
ry"heki
ssedmycheekt
hanl
i
ftmeup
t
ositontopofhim
Bat
ho:
"Il
ovey
ou"
Me:"sodoI"wekissedslowlybutastimewent
onitst
art
edgett
inghotterandhotterhefli
pped
usoverandgotbetweenmyt highsthefeelof
hi
serect
ionpressingagai
nstmykushdrov
eme
i
nsaneIletoutamoanhepul l
edbackand
mutt
eredacur se
Me:
"sor
ry"hechuckl
ed
Bat
ho:
"itcool
"hemov
edandl
aidnextt
ome
Me:"youshouldtakemehome"hebr
oughtme
cl
osertohim andwrappedhi
sar
msandlegs
ar
oundmybody
Batho:"soon"west ayedwit
hhiser ect
ion
pressi
ngonmyst omachunti
l i
tfadeawayt han
wel ef
thedr oppedmeof ftwohousesf r
om
mine.Mypar ent
swer est
il
lnotathomeIt ooka
bathgotdr essinalosesummerdr esswentto
watchtval it
tleover30minutesmom came
home
Mom:
"Si
no"
Me:
"mah"
Mom:
"hav
eyoust
art
edondi
nner
"
Me:
"st
il
ldon'
tknowhowt
ocook"
Mom:
"youneedt
olear
n"
Me:
"noIdont
"
Mom:
"whatki
ndofwi
fewi
l
lyoube"
Dad:
"woahwhosegetti
ngmar
ri
ed"hewas
comi
nginthef
rontdoor
Mom:
"youdaught
erwhocan'
tcook"
Me:"mom say
snoonewi
l
lmar
rymesi
nceI
can'
tcook"
Dad:"
that
'sgoodthancozIdon'
twantnci
nci
get
ti
ngmar r
ied"
Me: "
itawi
nwinsi
tuati
onIdon'tl
earnhowto
cookIdon'
tgetmarr
ied"daddychuckl
edand
winkedatme
Dad:
"wi
nwi
nsi
tuat
ionOnge"
Mom: "
foryout
wo"shewentupstai
rsdad
fol
l
owedhertheycamebackaft
erawhil
ethey
hadchanged
Dad:
"putonaj
acketandl
et'
sleav
e"
Me:
"wher
eto?
"
Dad:
"di
nner
"
Me: "
cool
"Ijumpedoffthecouchwentt o
changemyshoesandputonaj acketwel
eft
wenttomusgr av
ehaddi nnerandcamebackI
l
eftthem i
ntheloungewentt ogetmy
homewor kdoneIstay
edupl atechatti
ngt
omy
fr
iendsandbatho.
.
Tuesdaymorni
ngmyal arm wentof
fIt
urnedi
t
offwentbacktobedIstayedi
nbedunti
l
someonestart
edknocking
Me:
"comei
n"daddycamei
n
Dad:
"nci
nci
"Igr
oanedl
i
keI
'
minpai
n
Me:
"daddy
"
Dad:
"what
'swr
ong"
Me:
"Idon'
tfeel
sogood"
Dad:
"what
'swr
ong"
Me:
"I'
minpai
nIt
hinkmyper
iodsar
ecomi
ng"
Dad:"ohokwel
lrestt
here'
ssomemedi
cat
ioni
n
ourbathr
oom I
'
llseeyouaft
erwor
k"
Me: "
ok"hewal kedoutIl etoutasi ghassoon
asIhear dthesensort hatgoesof fwhent he
maindoorget sclosedoropenIwentt obath.I
gotoutlotionedgotdr essedi nblackJeanbum
short
st hatmymot herhasnev erseenabl ack
croptopov ersizedblueshi rtunbuttonedputon
mybl uenwhi t
esuper starsIwentdownst ai
rs
madecer eal aft
ertell
i
ngBat hotocomegetme
Isatdownandat eIwasn' tevenfinishedwhen
Bathocalledsay ingImustcomeoutIr i
nsedmy
dishtookmybagandl eft
Bat
ho:
"heybaby
"hesai
ditl
azy
ly
Me:"st
opdrool
ingbaby"Ist
oodonmyt
oesand
gav
ehim asoftpeckonhisli
ps
Me:"l
et'
sgetoutofher
e"hegav
emeanot
her
peckwenttoopenmydoorwegoti
nandl
eft
Me:
"wher
eto"
Batho:
"mov
iel
uncht
hanhomey
oucool
wit
h
that
"
Me:
"let
'sj
ustgohome"
Bat
ho:
"yousur
e"
Me: "
yep"helookedatmegrinni
ngthandrove
straighttohishome.Wespentthewhol eday
wat chingmov i
esmakingoutandeatingmaking
outmor ethanhetookmehomel aterIgot
homechangedi ntomypjsgotunderthecovers
Ifellasleepimmediat
ely
,mom wokemeup
l
aterwewentt ochurch.
.
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ybetween
chil
l
ingwithmyboy s,
schoolandchurcht wo
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nwasmont hendmybi gbrocame
homewespentt hewholeweekendt ogetherhe
tookmeshoppingthat'
stheonlytimeIgetto
buythekindofcl
othesIwanttowear ,hegot
meanupgr adeonmyphoneIchangedmyhair
i
ntoashortbeachwav
ePeruvi
anthanhelef
t
Sundayni
ght.
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di
dn'tgosowel l
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twi l
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dropandmom wi llhav
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.Betweenchur ch
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for
war dtoitclosingofschoolmeantmom wi ll
behomeal lt
het imeitmeantget t
ingal ong
l
ectureaboutmyr esultandIwasexpect i
ng
consideri
nghowbadl ymyexamswent .Igotof
f
thebedmadei tanddr aggedmy selftomy
bathr
oom It ookal ongassbathgotoutwor e
myuni for
mf ixedmyhai rtookmysl igback
wentdownst airsfounddadeatingbr eakfast
Me:
"heydaddy
"
Dad:
"heynci
nci
sleptwel
l
"
Me:"
yeahandy ou?"Whichwasal
ieIstayedup
al
lni
ghtchat
tingtonkanyi
soandwatchi
ng
pr
ett
yli
tt
leli
ars
Dad:"
coul
dhav
egonebet
ter
"Isatdownst
art
ed
eat
ing
Me:
"mmh"
Dad:
"youget
ti
ngy
ourr
epor
tcar
dtoday
"
Me:
"yeah"
Dad:
"howy
ouf
eel
i
ng"
Me:
"I'
m cool
"hechuckl
ed
Dad:"
asl
ongasy
oudi
dyourbestnci
nci
"I
smil
ed
Me:
"It
ri
ed"
Dad:
"that
'sal
lthatmat
teratt
heendoft
heday
"
Me:
"mom goneal
ready
"
Dad:
"yepshel
eftwi
thSet
hu"
Me:"okI'
m donewecango"hel
ookedatmy
pl
ateIhardl
ytouchedmyf
ood
Dad:
"ner
vous?
"
Me:
"ki
nda"heki
ssedmycheek
Dad:
"youwi
l
lbef
ine"
Me:"Iguess"wetookourthi
ngsandl eftdad
keptontryi
ngtocheermeupt hewhol eway .
thedayatschoolwassuchadr agev entually
wewer egivenoutr
eport
sIdidn'topenmi ne,I
gotataxiandwentstr
aighthomeaf terschool .
Likel
ywhenIgott herenoonewashomeIwent
tomyr oom andl ockedt hedoorwentt osleep.
Wokeupwhi lelat
ert ookmyr eportf
rom my
bagIhadpassedev erythingbutmyr esulthad
droppedfrom anav ar ageon80t o60Igotof f
thebedwentt ohidebet weenmybooksonmy
deskthant ookmyphonewentdownst ai
rs.
Mademy selfsomet hingt oeatandat einfront
oftheTVIst ay
edl i
ket hatuntilmymom came
home
Mom:
"Si
no"
Me:
"mom"
Mom: "wher
e'sy
ourrepor
tcard"shewassti
l
l
standi
ngbythepassagewit
hplasti
candSethu
behindher
Me:
"wedi
dn'
tgeti
t"
Mom:
"why
"
Me: "
theysai
dwegonagett
hem whent
he
schoolopensfor3r
dter
m"
Mom:
"ohokwegotf
oody
ouhungr
y"
Me:"I
'm okt
hanky
ou"theywentt
otheki
tchen
andcamebackSethusatdownmom went
upst
air
s
Set
hu:
"let
'
sgoout
"Il
ookedatherandchuckl
ed
Me:
"doy
ouknowt
hedef
ini
ti
onofgoi
ngout
"
Set
hu:"of
cosgoingoutdoesnotalwaysmean
goi
ngtothoseplacesyouandyourfr
iendsgo
towecanhav edi
nnerandcatchamov ie
not
hinghect
ic"
Me:
"whyy
oubei
ngni
ce"shel
aughed
Set
hu:
"youmyl
i
ttl
esi
ster
"
Me:
"or
ytsowhen"
Set
hu:
"af
terchur
chort
omor
row"
Me:
"tomor
row"
Sethu:
"cool
"shet
ookoutherphoneandsat
crossl
eggedIwentbackt
omyphoneandt v.
Whendaddycamebackwewentt ochurchaf
ter
churchwehaddi nneraft
erdinnerIwashedthe
dishesthanj
oinedmyf amil
yint hel
oungeup
untilIwasl
eftal
oneIwentt osleepintheearl
y
hoursofthemor ni
ng.
.
Thefoll
owingdayIwokeupl at emademybed
cl
eanedupmyr oom tookmyl aundrytot
he
mainbathroom putiti
nthewashert hanwent
downstai
rsSethuwaswat chingt vt
hat'
sallwe
evergettododuringholi
dayst vandchurch
Me: "
morni
ng"Iwal
kedpasshergoi
ngt
othe
ki
tchen
Set
hu:
"itact
ual
l
ygoodday
"
Me:
"whatever
"Imadeacer
eal
andwentt
oeat
i
nfr
ontofthetv
Set
hu:"
youknowwenotal
l
owedt
oeati
nthe
l
ounge"
Me:"y
eahandyourpoi
nti
s"sher
oll
edherey
es
butdi
dn'
tsayany
thi
ng
Me:
"thoughtasmuch"Icont
inuedeat
ing
Set
hu:
"st
il
lwanagoout
"
Me:
"yeahof
cos"
Set
hu:
"tr
ybei
ngni
cet
ome"Il
aughedoutl
oud
Me:
"ni
cet
rybi
gcc"shel
aughed
Set
hu:
"let
'
sjustgogetr
eady
"
Me: "
shot"Ifi
nishedeati
ngwhi l
eshewent
upstai
rstostartgett
ingready .WhenIwasdone
eati
ngIwentt owashmydi shthantookabath
gotoutloti
onedwor eabl ackr i
ppedboyfr
iend
j
eanwi t
habl acklowr i
sev estandwhi t
e
sti
l
ettosandawhi t
esleevelesscotSethucame
i
nasIwasf i
xingmyweav e
Me:
"don'
tyouknock"
Sethu:
"yout
akingt
ool
ong"It
urnedt
oli
keat
hermyjawdropped
Me:
"whatt
hef
uck!
"Shegi
ggl
ed
Set
hu:
"what
"
Me:"whatareyouwear
ing"shewasinbum
shor
tswithalacet
optuckedinshowingherbr
a
andankelheel
swit
haboy fr
iendbl
azer
Set
hu:
"cl
othes"
Me:"y
ouchangedyourst
yle"Set
huhasal
ways
beeni
ntodr
essesandnothingabov
etheknee
Set
hu:
"I'
minv
arsi
ty"
Me:"
yeahitdi
dn'
tev
ent
ake6mont
hsy
ouj
usta
f
ir
styearst
udent
"
Sethu:"
thedi
ff
erencebetweenyouandIist
hat
younotpati
entall
youhavetodoisobeythe
rul
esgetgoodmar ksandberespect
ful
assoon
asy oudonewit
hhighschoolyouwil
lbeoutof
here"
Me:
"smar tnev
erthoughtI
'
dsayi
tbutI
'
m
i
mpressed"shelaughed
Sethu:"
comeonl et
'sgobef
oreshecomes
back"Il
aughedtookmybagandwel ef
tI
l
ockedupwhi l
eshegothercaroutoft
he
gar
age.Igoti
nandwel
eft
Set
hu:
"wher
eto"
Me:
"gat
eway
"
Sethu:"cool
"wel i
stenedt omusicallt
hewayt o
gatewaywewentt owat ch'happi
nessisaf our
l
etterwor d'
aft
erthemov iewewerewal ki
ng
aroundt hemallwer anintoBathowithhis
brotherthesmileonhisf acewaspricel
essas
wewer ewal ki
ngtowar dseachother
Sethu:"
whoset
hatandwhyi
shesmi
l
ingl
i
ke
that"
Me:
"hush"
Bat
ho:"
baby"hegav
emeat
hightsqueezeand
ki
ssedmyhead
Me:"hi
"heheldmychi
nandgav
emeasof
t
peckonmylips
Bat
ho: "
youlookbeaut
if
ul"Igi
ggledand
bl
ushedSethuandhisbrotherwerej
ust
st
andingtherel
ooki
ngatus
Me:"uhm t
hisi
smysi st
erSethu,Set
hut
hisi
s
Bat
hoandhi sbr
otherst
habiso"
Sethu:
"ni
cet
omeety
ou"sheof
fer
edt
hem her
hand
St
ha:
"Iseebeaut
yrunsi
nthef
ami
l
ySi
no"
Set
hu:
"wet
ry"Bat
hopul
l
edmeasi
de
Bat
ho:
"Imi
ssedy
ou"heki
ssedmeagai
n
Me:
"sodi
dI"
Batho:"
canyoudi
tchyoursis"Ilookedather
andshewascaughtupwi t
hSt habisotoeven
real
izewehadmov edf
rom them
Me:
"Idon'
tknow"hechuckl
ed
Bat
ho:
"shel
ooksoccupi
edany
way
"
Me:"l
etmeaskher
"wewalkedbackt
othem
Set
huwasgiggl
i
ngsweet
ly
Set
hu:
"wewer
ejustaboutt
ohav
elat
elunch"
St
ha:"
canwejoi
nyou"Sethul
ookedatmeI
l
ookedatBat
howhojustsmil
edandwinkedat
me
Me:
"I'
m cool
"
Set
hu:
"aahy
eahi
tcool
"
Stha:
"gr
eat"t
heyledthewayt
oTashsBat
ho
andIwalkedbehi
ndthem
Bat
ho:
"looksl
i
kebi
gbr
oist
aken"Ichuckl
ed
Me:"seemsthatway"heputhisarm ov
ermy
shoul
derandbroughtmeclosertohi
m
Batho:"
comeovert
omorrow"me:
"wi
l
ltal
k
l
ater"heki
ssedmyhead
Bat
ho:
"youknowIl
ovey
our
yt"
Me:
"Iknowbaby
"
Batho:"
good"hepul l
edmychai rformeIsat
downandhesatnextt omewhenweor dered
dri
nksIgotagl assofwhi t
ewi neSet hugave
meal ookIjustshruggedmyshoul dersand
smiledshealsogotagl ass.Afterlunchthey
walkedusbackt othecarpar kBat hopull
edme
i
nforaveryImeanv erydeepkissbyt
het i
me
hepul
ledbackIwasdi zzySet
huwasst ar
ingat
mewithallherey
esoutandst hawasjust
l
aughi
ngsof t
lyaf
terthathegavemeababy
ki
ssandtoldmehel ovesme.Wegoti nthecar
anddr
oveof f
Set
hu:
"whatwast
hat
"Ichuckl
ed
Me:
"whatwaswhatsi
s"
Set
hu:
"yougotaboy
fri
endandhi
sint
opda"
Me:
"yeahIguess"
Set
hu:
"howcomeIdi
dn'
tknowy
oudat
ing"
Me:
"doy
ouneedmet
oanswert
hat
"
Sethu:"
Phiweknows?"Idi
dn'
tsayanyt
hingI
j
ustlookedatherandshechuckl
ed"of
coshe
knowheal way
slovedyoumore"
Me:"t
hat'
snott
ruej
ustt
haty
oumomsf
avor
it
e"
shechuckl
ed
Set
hu:
"youj
ustt
oodi
ff
erentPhi
weandInev
er
wor
ri
edmom t
hewayy
oudo"
Me:
"bul
l
"
Set
hu:
"tr
ue"
Me:"mom expectmetobel
ikeyouorPhiwe
butI
'
m not
hinglikey
outwo"shelaughed
Set
hu:"yeahy
ounot
hingl
i
keussoBat
ho"I
gi
ggled
Me:
"Il
ovehi
m"shechuckl
ed
Set
hu:
"Icant
ell
"
Me:
"hismyfi
rstboy
fri
endandIwanthi
mtobe
myfi
rstev
ery
thi
ng"
Set
hu:
"woahr
elaxonsex"
Me:
"chi
l
dim ol
dIcanhav
esexi
fIwantt
o"
Set
hu:
"noy
ouachi
l
da17y
earol
d"
Me:
"I'
m gr
own"
Sethu:"
Gody oustubbor
nanddadwil
lki
l
ly oui
f
youstarthav
ingsexletal
onet
haty
oudating"
Me:
"what
ever
"
Set
hu:
"st
ubbor
nyouj
ustl
i
kedad"Igr
innedat
her
Me:
"yeahIknow"
Set
hu:
"mom i
shome"Il
aughed
Me:"y
ouint
roubl
eangel
"shepar
kedi
nthe
gar
ageandwegotoff
Set
hu:
"God"shewasst
art
ingt
opani
c
Me:"f
uckhere"Igavehermytopandtookher
bl
azersheworeitandbutt
oneditupi
tcover
ed
herwholeout
fi
titst
oodjustbel
owherknee
Set
hu:
"thanky
ou"
Me: "
mmhyousooweme"wewentinmom
cameoutoft
heki
tchenandst
oodbyt
he
passage
Mom:
"cov
erupy
ourst
omachSi
no"
Me:
"yesma' am"Ir
oll
edmyeyesandwentt
o
myroom changedi
ntosweat
pant
snlungel
o'
s
t
shi
rtt
ookmyphoneandwentbackdownst
air
s.
.
Thingsweregoodmyhol i
dayswerenor malwe
hadaweekbef oreschool
openbigbrowas
homeSet huandIwereonnof ft
herewer edays
wherewewer ecloseanddayswherewe
arguedl
ikether
e'snotomorr
owlikethisti
meI
guessshewasf i
ghti
ngwithherboyf
riendshe
hadbeenmoodyAFshebumpedont omeatt he
passage
Me:
"younotgonaapol
ogi
zef
ort
hat
"
Set
hu:
"leav
emeal
one"
Me:"mxm f
uckyou"shetur
nedtolookatmeI
cr
ossedmyhandsov ermychestandrai
sedan
ey
ebrow
Set
hu:
"st
upi
d"Il
aughedather
Me:"t
hat
'st
hebesty
oucancomeupwi
th
angel
"
Set
hu:
"youneedt
otel
lmom t
het
rut
h"
Me:
"tr
uthabout
"
Sethu:"
yourr
epor
tIsawi
tandt
hatBat
hoof
yours"
Me:
"that
'snoneofy
ourbusi
ness"shechuckl
ed
Set
hu:
"I'
m maki
ngi
tmi
ne"
Me:
"fuckof
fbef
oreIbeaty
ouup"
Sethu:"
youwouldn'
t"wi
thi
ng5secondsIhad
cl
osedthedist
ancebetweenusIwasri
ghton
herface
Me:"wanabet
"thethi
ngisIcanbeatherupand
sheknowsitI
'
vedoneitbefor
eSethuisski
nny
andshorti
mtall
ert
hanherim a32shesa28
Set
hu:
"justgetoutofmyf
ace"shebackedup
Me:
"fucky
ou"
Set
hu:
"yeahwel
lf.
"Shest
oppedher
sel
f
Me: "
goonsayi t"Il
ookedatherwithasmi
rk
"F.
U.C.K"Isai
ditslowl
y"i
tnotabigwordangel
goonsayi tdi
rtyupthatl
it
tl
eperfectmout
hof
y
ours"sheturnedtowalkawayandil
aughed
"
fucknwhitepri
ncessscar
edalit
tl
ewordwil
l
t
aintyouup"
Sethu:
" l
eav
emeal oneSinovuyoandt
ell
mom
aboutyourrepor
t"shescreamedmom
appearedbythestai
rs
Mom:
"whatabouty
ourr
epor
tSi
no"
Set
hu:
"shegoti
tIsawi
tonherdesk"
Me:
"she'
sly
ing!
"
Mom:
"gogeti
tSi
no"
Me:
"mom she'
sly
ing"
Mom:
"Isai
dgogeti
t"
Me:"
fi
ne"Iwentupandgoti
tIgav
eitt
oher
shel
ookedoveri
t
Mom:"
whati
sthi
s?Whathappened"Il
ooked
down"
whydi
dyoumarksdropli
kethi
s"
Me:
"Ican'
tcopewi
thev
ery
thi
ng"
Mom:
"Set
huhadmor
egoi
ngont
hany
oudoi
n
hi
ghschool
butshehasnev
erpr
oducedsuch
marks"
Sethu:
"that
'sbecauseIwasn'
tdat
ingi
nhi
gh
school
"
Me:
"fuckof
fSi
phoset
hu!
!"
Mom: "
shutupbothofy
ouSethugomake
your
sel
fbusythi
shasnothi
ngtodowi
thyou"
Set
hu:
"yesma'
am"
Mom: "
yougotabfSi
no"Il
ookeddown"
im
t
alki
ngtoyou"
Me:
"no"
Mom:
"don'
tl
iet
ome"
Me:
"I'
m notl
yi
ng"
Mom:
"swearont
hel
ord"
Me:
"mom"
Mom:
"doi
t"
Me:
"yesIhav
eabf
"
Mom:"
don'
tyouknowt
haty
ounotal
l
owedt
o
hav
eabf"
Me:
"Iknow"
Mom: "y
our eal
lyareadisgraceanungrat
eful
spoi
ltbrat
,Idon'tevenknowy ouIswearI
fI
wasn'tt
hereduringlaborI
dsayy ounotmine"
Me:
"mom"t
ear
sst
art
edf
all
i
ng
Mom: "don'ty
oudarecr
yormom me"Iwal ked
awaySet huwashidi
ngbehindthecorner
l
ist
eningassoonasmyey esl andedonheri
gaveherahar dsl
apshestumbl edback
Mom: "
noti
nmyhouseSi
nov
uyoIdon'
thi
ty'
al
l
buty
ouseeitf
itt
ohi
tmychi
ld"
Me:"
Ifucknhatey
ouSet
hu"dadwal
kedi
nasI
wasopeningt
hedoor
Dad:
"what
'sgoi
ngonnci
nci
whyy
oucr
ying"
Me:
"not
hing"Iwal
kedout
Dad:
"nci
nci
wai
tOngezi
wewhatdi
dyoudot
o
mychi
l
d"dadspokewi
thsomuchaut
hor
it
y
Mom: "I
'
m notgoingt
oarguewit
hyouov
ert
his
br
ats"shewalkedupthest
air
s
Dad:
"nci
nci
"
Me: "
IjustneedspaceIneedmyfr
iends"he
noddedIwal kedoutt
hegateandcall
ed
nkanyi
so
Nka:
"hey
"Isobbed
Me:
"Ineedy
ou"
Nka: "
I'
m comi ng"Idroppedthecal
landwalked
toourspotIsatdownandcr ied.Ij
ustfel
thi
s
armsar oundmeIcr i
edlouderandharderhelet
mecal m downt hanaskedwhathappenedIt old
him everyt
hingwest ayedinsil
enceuntil
he
brokeit
Nka:
"let
'sgo"i
twasal
readydar
k
Me:
"Idon'
twanagohome"
Nka:
"nothomel
et'
sgetoutofher
ejustt
het
wo
ofus"
Me:
"gowher
e"
Nka:"
we'll
seesi
noIdon'
tmaybejhbwil
lj
ust
dr
iveandcomebackbefor
etheschool
opens
westi
llhaveaweek"
Me:"
goawayf
orawhol
eweekmypar
ent
s
woul
dnev
eral
l
owthat
"
Nka:
"wewon'ttel
lany
onewe'
l
ljustgoswi
tch
of
fourphones"
Me: "
howwi
l
lIf
acemypar
ent
swhenwecome
back"
Nka:"
wedon' thavet
ocomebackwewi l
lfi
gur
e
thi
ngsoutbutlet'
sgoIgott
hecarj
ustgopack
someclothesandsneakoutmeetmebackhere
i
n15mi nutes"
Me:
"ok"hest
oodupandpul
l
edmeup
Nka:
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wewentourseparatewaysIrushedhome.
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herenoonewashomedadl ef
ta
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tbeli
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his"hel
ookedat
meandsmiledthanhel
dmyhand
Nka:" t
her
e'snogoingbacknow"wehad
stoppedatmontrosegotsomef oodand
snacksIwentonlineandfoundaBnBIcall
ed
andmadeabooki ngwewer et
ryi
ngtobe
carefulwi
ththecashsowegotoner oom
Me: "
ourpar
ent
sar
egoi
ngt
oki
l
lus"he
chuckled
Nka:
"yeahwel
ltheywi
l
lgetov
eri
timj
ustso
t
ir
edoft
hiswhol
eshi
tIneedmyf
reedom"
Me:
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lmeabouti
t"Iy
awned
Nka:
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oucansl
eep"
Me:"y
ousur
e"Ihadbeent
ryi
ngt
ost
ayupbut
f
ail
i
ngmiser
ably
Nka:
"yeahwi
l
lwakey
ouupi
fitget
stool
onel
y"
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ok"Igotathr
owfrom t
hebackseatsi
nceit
wascol
dinthecarhewastryi
ngt
ost ayupI
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oughtt
heseatdownandletnat
uretakeover
.
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eltsomeoneshakeme
Nka:
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ovegetup"
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ed
Nka:"
weher
e"Iopenedmyey
est
othebr
ight
l
ight
sofj
hb
Me:
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Nka:
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ght
"Ipunchedhi
mli
ght
ly
Me:
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aughed"
weact
ual
l
ydi
ditf
uck"
Nka:"
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ered
t
headdressont hegpsandi tl
edust otheBnB
i
twasalreadyaroundtheearlyhoursofthe
morni
ngwhenwegott herewepr essedthe
i
nter
com andtheyletusinwepar kednkanyiso
t
ookourbagst heyshowedusourr oom
Me:
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'sni
ce"
Nka:"itnothomebuti tni
ce"t
heBnBwasi n
sandtonourr oom washugewithaflatscr
een,
i
nsuitwi t
hbuilti
nclosetandaKingsizebed.I
thr
ewmy selfonthebednkanyi
solaughedand
j
oined
Nka:
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osl
eep"
Me: "
yeahy oudot hanwhenthesunisoutwe
canexplorethi
sbeaut i
ful
place"hekissedmy
cheekandgotupchangedi ntohispj
sIalso
changedintomi newegotundert hecoversand
spoonedIfellasleepimmediatel
y.
.
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stwentt or insemymout hand
washmyf acet hanIsatont hebedl ookingat
nkany i
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meweact uallyslept
i
nt hesamebedsi ncet hey earwewer ei n
grade6butt hanIdi dn' tknowaguycoul dbe
gorgeousandnkany isoi sgor geousev enasleep
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ght
skinned,wit
ht hickdar kishl i
ps, hisbodyi stoned
nleanal lmuscl esnotadr opoff athispj top
wasav estyoucoul dseehi st attoothathi m
andLungel ohadgot tenwhenwewentdr inking
i
twasonhi sbackatt hel efttopcor ner* t
houI
walkint heshadowsIshal lfearnoev ilcozt he
l
or dismysav iorIwal kwi thhi mi nmyhear this
mypr otector*itwr it
t eni nChi nese.Hi shai ris
alwayscutev ent houghhehat escut tingithis
dadal waysremi ndshi mt ocuti tassoonasi t
start
sgr owing.Imov edf r
om t hebedwentt o
takeashowerIgotdonewr appedat owel
aroundmybodywal kedoutt hebat hroom he
wasupmaki ngt hebed
Me:"heyyouup"het
urnedt
olookatmesi
nce
hehadhisbackonme
Nka:
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dn'
tyouwakemeup?
"
Me:"
justwokeupt
houghtI
'
dtakeashower
f
ir
st"
Nka:"
ory
tletmegoshowerwhi
l
eyouget
dr
essed"
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l
edandt
ookhi
stoi
l
etr
ybag
Nka:
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l
lgoeatwhenI
'
m done"
Me:"ok"hegavemealookthatIcouldn'
tfigur
e
outbutitmademyheartst
artpoundingIran
mytongueov ermybot
tom l
iphiseyesstayed
onmyl i
ps
Nka:
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no"hi
svoi
cewasl
ow
Me:
"yeah"
Nka:"
I'
llbebacksoongetdressedquickl
y"he
tur
nedandwentinthebathroom Isatonthe
bedtr
yingtofi
gureoutwhatjusthappenedI
hadt hewatergoingoffIstoodupandgot
dressedinashor tl
oseblackt anktopdr essand
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arsletmyboxbr aidsloset hanlai
d
ont hebedonmyst omachIwasswi t
chingmy
phoneonwhenhegotoutt hebat hroom
Me:
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ost
epout
"
Nka:"nahI'
m cool
"Ididn'tturnt
olookathi m as
soonasmyphonewast urnedont extsst
arted
fl
oodi
ngi ni
twasmost l
ymi ssedcallsfr
om dad
PhiweandBat hoIcal
l
edBat hofi
rst
Bat
ho:
"myGodbabyI
vebeensowor
ri
ed"
Me:
"wor
ri
edabout
"
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stercal
l
edst
habi
sol
ooki
ngf
or
youwhereareyou"
Me:
"oht
heycal
l
edy
ou"
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we'vebeenoutt
hewholeni
ghtl
ooki
ng
foryouyourfat
heri
sgoingcr
azySi
nowhere
areyou"
Me:
"I'
m oki
m saf
e"
Bat
ho:
"youcheat
ingonme"
Me:
"what
?!Of
cosnothowcany
ouev
ent
hink
t
hat
"
Bat
ho:
"Idon'
tknowwhatt
othi
nk"
Me:"I
'
m notcheat
ingony
ouBat
handwai
d
nev
erdothat"
Bat
ho:
"thanwhat
'
sgoi
ngon"
Me:
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hing"
Bat
ho:
"pl
easedon'
tl
iet
ome"
Me:"
lookIl
oveyouokandI'
l
ltel
lyouwhenI
canj
ustdon'
tpushmeri
ghtnow"hesighed
Bat
ho:
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ovey
out
oobabyj
ustt
ell
mey
ousaf
e"
Me:
"I'
m saf
eIpr
omi
sey
ouI
'
llcal
lyou"
Batho:"
ok"hesoundedsodefeat
editbr
okemy
heartIj
ustdr
oppedthecal
landcall
edPhiwehe
pi
ckedmyi mmediatel
y
Phi
we:
"Si
nowher
ear
eyou"
Me:
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ningt
oyout
o"
Phi
we:"
don'
tpl
aygameswi
thSi
nov
uyowher
e
ar
eyou"
Me:
"I'
minj
hb"
Phiwe:"
jhb!
!!
!Whatthehel
lSi
nojhb!You'
ve
gonetoofarthi
sti
me"heshouted
Me:"Iwil
ldropt
hiscall
andswitchof
fmy
phoneifyoudon'
tcalm down"
Phi
we:"
GodSinohowcany oudothist
odad
andme"Idi
dn'
tsayanythi
ng"doyouhaveany
i
deahowworri
edweallhavebeendadhadto
gi
vemom sl
eepingpi
ll
s"
Me:"i
tnotl
i
keshecar
esshef
ucknhat
esme
Phi
we"
Phi
we:
"don'
ttal
kcr
azy
"
Me:
"I'
m not
"
Phi
we:
"youneedt
ocomehome"
Me:
"noty
et"
Phi
we:
"gi
veNkany
isot
hephone"
Me:
"whosai
dim wi
thhi
m"
Phiwe:
" Iknowy ouwit
hhim wewenttohis
houselastnightdidy
outwoev ent
hinkabout
Lungel
ohi sfreaki
ngout"
Me:
"oh"
Phi
we:
"justcomehome"
Me:
"I'
l
lcomewhenI
'
mready
"
Phi
we:
"don'
tbecr
azy
"
Me: "
I'
m safeim withNkanyisoyouknowhe
wouldnev erl
etany t
hinghappentome, I'
l
lcal
l
youev er
ydaywei nsandtonitasafeplace,I
l
ovey ouandt el
ldaddyim sorrybutIcan'
ttal
k
tohimr i
ghtnowIl oveyouboth"hesighedin
defeat
Phi
we:
"youpr
omi
set
ocal
lev
ery
day
"
Me:
"Ipr
omi
se"
Phi
we:
"okI
'
llsendy
ousomecash"
Me:
"thanky
ou"
Phi
we:"
besafeandrememberschool
star
tson
Monday
"itwassti
l
lWednesday
Me:
"I'
l
lbebackbyt
han"
Phiwe:
"ify
ouneededabreakyoushouldhave
tol
dmesoy oucancomespendyourholi
day
s
wit
hmei nPE"
Me:
"Idi
dn'
tthi
nkabouti
tI'
l
lcal
lyouok"
Phi
we:
"ok"
Me: "
tel
ldaddyim sorry"Idroppedt hecalland
j
uststartedcry
inglastthingIwant edwast o
worrydadPhiweandLungel o.Nkany isopull
ed
met ohim andwrappedhi sar
msar oundmeI
burr
iedmyf aceonhi schestandj ustcriedwe
stay
edlikethatunti
lmyphonest artedringi
ngit
wasdaddyIdecl i
nedt hecallandswi tchedoff
myphone.
Nka:
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m st
arv
ing"Ichuckl
ed
Me:
"yeahmet
oo"hegotupandpul
l
edmeup
Nka:"
let'
sgogetsomet hi
ngtoeat "It
ookmy
bagandl ookedathim ashewasget t
inghi
scar
keysnwal l
et,Idon'
tknowwhatchangedbut
Nkanyi
sowassuddenl yat
tracti
veandImean
ver
yattracti
vehewaswear i
ngrippedblue
ski
nnyjeanswi thawhitetshi
rtthatwaslonger
att
hebackwi thnavyaddi
dasf l
ux
Nka:
"whaty
out
hinki
ngabout
"
Me: "
hhuwhat"hewaslooki
ngatmehej
ust
chuckledandshookhi
shead
Nka: "
let'
sgo"Inoddedhet ookmyhandwe
walkedouthel ockedupwel eft.Wehadgot ten
thegat eremotlastni
ghtalongwi thourkey sso
wej ustdroveoutwentt owimpyhadbr eakfast
aft
erbr eakf
astwegoogl edplacest oseethan
wentexpl or
ingaroundjhb.Wewentbackt othe
BnBatni ghtaft
erhav i
ngdinneranddr i
nksat
newscaf eassoonaswegoti nwechanged
i
ntoourpj sandsl ept
,wehadt alkedabout
goingbackhomeandwewer eleavingSunday
mi
dday
.
.
Thefoll
owingmorni
ngthunderwokemeupthat
shitf
ri
ghtensmetothecoreIwokeNkauphe
bli
nkedacoupleoft
imesbeforel
ooki
ngatme
Me:
"hey
"
Nka:
"hi
what
'swr
ong"
Me;
"im scar
ed"
Nka: "
comehere"Igotcl
osertohi
m heputhis
thighbetweenmineandwrappedhishands
aroundmybodyIf el
twarm andsuf
focatedbut
Ilovedit
Me:
"thanky
ou"
Nka:
"any
time"
Me:
"thi
nkwegonnabel
ockedi
ntoday
"
Nka:"
yeahIsawy est
erdayt
hatthere'sgonna
beheavythunder
stor
msbutIdidn'tthinki
twil
l
st
artt
hisearl
y"
Me:"l
et'
sgogetsomethi
ngtoeatsowecan
j
ustgeti
toveranddonewit
h"
Nka: "goodi dea"wegotof fthebedhet ooka
showerwhi leIti
diedupi ntheroom whenhe
wasoutIt ookashowergotoutwebot hgot
dressedi nsweat pantsnhoodi esandbr ownair
forcesall3ofushadboughtt hem wel eft.We
boughtenoughf oodnsnackt olastust he
whol edayt hanwentbackIchangedi nt opjswe
gotundert hecov er
sandat ewhilewat chingtv
.
Wehadf inishedeat i
ngwewer ewatchinga
mov iewhenNkany i
soshift
eduncomf ortabl
yI
l
ookedathi m hi
sey eswererednl azyInot i
ced
thatmyt highwasonhi sdickandhewashar dI
waswear ingsummerpj sav estnbum shor tI
quicklymov edmyt high
Me:
"sor
ry"Il
ookedaway
Nka:"
itoki
t'
snoty
ourfaul
t"Inoddedand
l
ookeddownheturnedhi
sbodyt ol
aydown
l
ooki
ngatmeandhel dmychin
Nka:
"itnoty
ourf
aul
tok"
Me:"ok"welookingateachmyheartwas
poundi
ngfastnhar di
twasli
keitgoingt
ocome
outofmymout hIbitmybottom l
i
pthanletgo
whenNkaranhi sthumbonit
Nka:
"Si
no"
Me:
"Nka"
Nka:
"canIki
ssy
ou"
Me:"
y es"heleanedi
nandImethim hal
fway
whenhislipswerepr
essedonminehe
br
eathedout
Nka: "
yousur e"Inoddedhest art
edkissi
ngme
fi
ercelyIki
ssedhi m backhi
shandwentonmy
headashedeepenedt heki
ssi twasmagi calI
fel
tsomet hingIhadnev erf
eltbeforeitwas
purejoynlusthi sli
psweresof tncoldhis
mout htastedlikemintnweedIl etoutamoan
whileheplay f
ullybit
emybottom liphegroaned
andlif
tedmeof ft
ositonhi
m st r
addli
nghi m
Nka:
"Si
no"
Me:
"mmh"
Nka: "
Ican't..
..i cantsoyouneedtotellmet o
stop"hemubbl edi nmymout hashewast aki
ng
myt opoffwhenhet ouchmyboobsIt hrewmy
headbackandl etoutanothermoanIfeltan
acheinev erypar tyofmybodyIwasshi vering
hestartedkissingonmyneckl icki
ngitIheld
thebackohhi sheadev er
yli
cknbitesentmy
bodyintoshockIwassweat inghestoppedand
l
ookedatme
Nka: "
Sinoy ouneedtostopreacti
ngthi
sway
l
ov eimt r
yingsohardandwi t
hy oushiv
ering
andmoani ngy oumakingithardformet obe
goodIdon' twanttodosomet hi
ngy ougoingto
regret
"
Me: "
pleasedon'
tstopNkaIneedy oui taches
andIneedy outomakei tbetter
"hegr oaned
andclosedhiseyesthanflexedhishipsandhi s
erect
ionmadecont actwit
hmykushIcr iedout
Me:"please"hefli
ppedusoverandtookoffmy
pjbott
om Iwasnakedf orthefi
rstt
imeeverI
wasnakedi nfrontofaguyanditwasNkanyiso
Nka: "
fucky ouper fectlove"het ookhi s
sweatpant sandwasl eftwi t
hboxer sonlyhe
wentbackt omyl ipssmashedhi sli
pstomi ne
whilehishandwasmassagi ngmybr eastsn
pi
nchingt hem Icoul dn'tstopmoani ngIdidn't
evenknowwhatt odowi thmy selfIstart
ed
pushingmyhi psupneedi ngt of eelwhatIfelt
beforewhenhi serectionwaspr essedagainst
mehi slipsmov edtomyneckwhenhi serecti
on
pressedonmykushi tevenf eltmor eamazi ng
nowsi ncet herewasl esscl othingsepar ati
ngus
Il
etoutahugemoani twasl i
keIpr esseda
buttononNkany i
sohest artedgr i
ndingonme
dryhumpi ngmeIwental ongwi thhi sryt
hm and
pace
Me:"NkapleaseIneed..
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dn'
tevenfini
sh
thesent
enceIheldontohim asIfel
t
somethi
ngbuildi
nghigherandhi
gherint
ome
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otherandwi thaf i
nalgrindIf ell
intobli
ssi twas
l
ikeimi naj oyridethatkeptongoi ngIlost
my sel
fIwasi naplacet hatIdidn'twantto
l
eav eafterawhileitwasl ikeIcamebackt ol i
fe
theachewasgonei twasr epl
acedbyan
amazi ngfeeli
ngIcoul dn'texplai
nwhenI
openedmyey esNkany i
sowasl ookingatmeI
blushed
Me:
"hi
"
Nka:"yousobeaut i
fulthatwasf ucknperfect
I'
venev erseenany thi
ngt hatamazingly
gorgeous"Iputmyhandov ermyey esandhe
remov edi t"
don'thi
def rom met hatwas
unbeli
ev ableSinoyoucomi ngapartunderme
l
ikethat "heshookhi shead" I'
venever
experi
encedany thi
nglikethatbeforeloveyou
madet hepossessivecav emanbeastwi thinme
roartol i
velove"hef l
i
ppedusov ertoputmeon
topofhi ml et
ti
ngmyheadr estofhischest
"you'
ver uinedmeSi nov uyoI'
ll
neverbethe
sameagai
nnootherwomancanev ermeasur
e
uptowhatIj
ustf
eltandwi
tnessed"
Me:"ist
hatagoodthi
ng"myvoicewassmal
ln
squeakyhechuckl
edandki
ssedmyhead
Nka:"
itanamazingthi
ngforyouim notsur
ef or
mecoznowI '
l
lneedyoufort
herestofmylife"I
shi
ft
edal i
tt
leandfel
thisdi
ckonmyst omach
Me:
"ohNka"
Nka:
"yesl
ove"
Me:
"youst
il
lhar
d"hechuckl
ed
Nka:
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twor
ryabouti
t"
Me:"
isther
eany
thi
ngIcandot
ohel
pyouout
"
heki
ssedmyhead
Nka:
"nol
oveI
'
llbef
ine"
Me:
"ok"
Nka:
"Idoneedashowert
hough"
Me:
"ok"It
ri
edmov
ingf
rom hi
m buthehel
dme
Nka:
"wher
eyout
hinky
ougoi
ng"
Me:
"youneedashower
"
Nka:"
noty etim st
il
lenj
oyi
ngt hi
syournaked
bodypressedonme"Igi ggledandstar
ted
ki
ssi
nghi m" Si
nolovedon't
"Ishookmyhead
Me:"buti
tfeel
ssonice"Iki
ssedhim har
dthan
tr
ail
edmylipsdownhi sj
awlinet
ohisneck
whil
emov i
ngmyf i
ngersupndownhi spacks
hewasmoani ngsof
tlyIwentdownstart
ed
ki
ssingandli
cki
nghispacks
Me: "y
ouhaveanamazingbody"hepull
edme
upandsmashedhisli
psonmi nethatachy
feel
ingwasbackandbyful
lforcehegotont op
ofmeandt r
ail
edmyli
pswi t
hhi st
ongueandI
openedmymout hgi
vi
nghisaccesshest ar
ted
tast
ingmepossesi
ngme
Me:
"nkaaaa"Ihel
dont
ohi
sbr
oadshoul
der
s
Nka:"
yesl
ove"hewasmovinghi
shi
psi
n
ci
rcl
eshi
sdickrubbi
ngonmeImovedmyl
egs
upopeni ngwiderandhookmyt oesont he
waistbandofhi sboxer spull
ingthem downwi t
h
hi
shel phet ookt hem offwewer ebot h
compl et
elynakedhewentdownonmest arted
openingupmykushl ipsli
ckingmeupndown
andwhent hetipofhi stonguetouchmycl i
tI
star
tedshi ver
inghesuckedonmycl itwhil
ehis
fi
ngerwasgoi nginandoutofmebef orehe
shovedhi stonguei nmeIcr iedoutandpushed
hi
sheadmaki nghi m godeeperaf teracouple
ofstrokesnl i
ckingIf oundmyj oyagainbutthe
achewasn' tcompl etelygone
Me:
"Nkapl
ease"
Nka:
"yeslove"hecamebacktomyfacehi
sli
ps
nsur
roundingpart
sfi
ll
edwit
htheev
idenceof
myarousal
Me:
"Ineedy
ou"
Nka:
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lmewhatyouneed"hekeptonfl
exi
ng
hi
shipIcoul
dfeel
hist
iponmyent r
ance
Me:
"Ineedy
out
omakel
ovet
ome"hecl
osed
hisey
esandshookhi
shead"
pleaseNkaIneed
you"
Nka:
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elovecozIwantnothi
ngmore
t
hantodothatbutIdon'
twanty
out or
egr
etit
"
Me: "
I'
m sur
e"helookeddeepl
yint
omyeyeswe
maintai
nedeyecontactashewasgoi
ngin
str
etchi
ngmeIclosedmyey esandar
chedmy
back
Nka: "lookatmel ove"Idi
dIcoul df eelhi
m
aboutt ogot hrought hebar r
ier"i
tsof uckntight
l
ov e"Ihel dhisbackt i
ghterasIf eltashar ppain
goingt hr
oughmybodyIcl osedmyey esand
cri
ed" ohGodI 'm sosorrylove"hewi pedmy
tearsandki ssedmebef orepul l
ingbackand
pressinghi sf oreheadonmi ne" i
m sosor ryl
ov e
butt hisfeelsf ucknamazi ngI vefoundmy
nirvana"hepul l
edbackal mostgoi ngallout
befor ehet hrustedbacki nsl owly
Me:
"ithur
tsNka"
Nka:
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m sor
rybuti
tgoi
ngt
ogetbet
terI
promi sey ou"hewasmov i
ngi nasl owpacet he
room wasdar kwehadt ur nedt hel ightsof fbut
whent hel i
ghtningshott hr ought hewi ndowI
swearIsawt hemostamazi ngt hingev erdur i
ng
thestor m IsawpeaceIsawaper f ecti
onofar t
somet hingwor t
ht obedr awnoutandputi n
presti
gemuseumsf orpeopl et opayr i
di culous
amountofmoneyt oseeIsawmyGodandI
j
ustknewi mi nf ucknshi thi sheadwast hr own
backhi smout hfor mingasi l
entOhi sey esshut
hewasamazi nglyper fectwi thonest r
okeof
l
ightningdur i
ngt hest orm If ellinlov ewi th
Nkany isoPr inceDl ami ni t
hatsi ghtmademe
reachmyj oyandi twasamazi ngnot hingl ike
beforehecoul dn'thol donmuchl ongerhe
cameaf terthatIf elthisl oadgoi ngdeepwi thin
mywomanhood.Iwasawoman, awomani n
l
ov e,Ihadgi venhi m myv irgini
ty,Iwasmar ked,
mar kedbyhi sseedsandr uinedf oranyot her
manoutt herecozwhatIhadj ustexper ienced
withNkany i
socoul dnev erbeoutdonenoone
coul
dev
ercomecl
oseast
obei
ngper
fectl
i
ke
hi
m.
Nka:
"lov
e"
Me:
"yes"
Nka:"pl
easet
ell
youdon'
tregr
etwhatj
ust
happened"
Me:"neveri
namil
li
onyearswoul
dIeverregr
et
i
t"hebroughtmeevencl
osert
ohim hol
dingme
t
ight
ly
Nka:
"GodSi
not
hatwasper
fect
"
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08/
12,
21:
22]Wadz
:Inser
t05
.
Wer emainedlikethatnakedandi neachot her'
s
arm hekeptonpl ayi
ngwi thmyhai rwhilewe
tal
kedaboutal lt
het r
oubleweusedt ogetinto
growinghowLungel obai l
edusoutmostoft he
ti
meandt aki
ngthebl ameev enwheni twasn't
hisfaul
t.Thatmomenti tj
ustfel
tri
ghtbei ngin
hisarmslikethatli
steni
ngt ohissoothingvoice
whil
ehishear
tbeatsentt
ingl
ingf
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ings
t
hroughmybreastseventual
l
yIfel
lasl
eep.
.
WhenIwokeupt hefoll
owingdayIwasi nbed
aloneandi twasabeaut i
fulsunnydayy ou
wouldn'teventel
l t
hattheweatherwasbadj ust
thepreviousday.Iwasi nbedaloneIjust
smi l
edlikeanidi
otthinki
ngabouty est
erdayI
satupwhenIhadt hebat hr
oom dooropen
Nkany i
socameoutwi thnothi
ngbuthisboy leg
Nka:"
heylove"Ipul
l
edt
hecov
erupt
ocov
ermy
bodyhechuckled
Me:
"hi
"
Nka:"
yougood"hewentabouthi
sbusi
ness
l
oti
oni
nghisbody
Me:
"yeahi
m okandy
ou"
Nka:
"I'
m mor
ethangood"
Me:
"ok"
Nka:
"yousor
e"
Me:"al
it
tl
e"hej
umpedont
hebedandgav
eme
ababyki
ss
Nka:
"it
'sgonagetbet
ter
"
Me:
"mmh"
Nka:"
cleanupt
hanwecangoIwanat
akey
ou
out
"
Me:"takemeout"thethi
ngisyeahsurei
nthe
pastwe'vegoneoutbutthani
twasjustgoi
ng
outchil
li
ngasfri
ends
Nka:
"yeahoutasi
nadat
e"
Me:
"adat
e"hechuckl
ed
Nka:"
yeahadat
eremembert
hatt
hingt
hat
peopl
egoto"
Me:"Iknowwhatadat
eitbut.
..Okcool
letgo
bat
h"
Nka:
"gr
eat
"
Me:
"uhm doy
oumi
nd"
Nka:
"mi
ndwhat
"
Me:
"I'
m nakedIneedt
ogetupandgobat
h"
Nka:
"yeahso"
Me: "Nkat
urnaroundorpassmeat owel
"he
crackeduphelaughedsohadthathewasin
tears
Nka:"
comeonSi
noyoucan'
tbeser
ious"I
l
ookeddown"
goongobath"
Me:"
butNka"hesatont
hebedcrossi
nghis
l
egsinI
ndi
anstyl
eandheldmycheekIlooked
away
Nka:"l
ookatmeSi no"Idid"youhavean
amazingbodyimthel astpersonyoushoul
dbe
uncomfort
abl
ewi t
h,Iloveyourbodyok"I
nodded"nowgetupshaket hatboot
ytothe
bathr
oom andI'
l
lsitherenappr eci
atei
twhil
e
tr
yingtonotf
oll
owy ouandhav emywaywi t
h
you"Il
aughed
Me:
"youst
upi
d"hesmi
rked
Nka:"maybe"heleanedi
nandweki
ssedI
pul
ledbackhefrowned
Me: "l
etmebath"Igotof ft
hebedbuttookt he
cov erwithmecov eri
ngmybodyhehuf f
edi
turnedt olookathim Inoti
cedthebl
oodspot s
ont hesheetNkaf oll
owedmyey esandjumped
offt hebedcamet omewi thahugesmileon
hisf aceheheldmybackpr essi
ngourbodies
toget her
Nka:
"Isweary
ougonabet
hedeat
hofme"
Me:
"Ibl
ed"
Nka: "itnormal andbabyIthoughtthe
possessi vecav emanbeastinmer oaredl ast
nightwheny oucameapar tundermebut
seeingt hatjusttookthi
ngstoadi f
ferent
directionthebeastinmei ssingi
nggor il
laby
BrunoMar sr i
ghtnow"Ilaughed"youmi ne
Sinov uyonobodyget stoseey ouli
ket hatI
woul dn'tbeablet ohandl
eitandthosesheet s
are.."Heshookhi shead"areproofthaty ou
ownmel
ove"
Me:
"Nka"
Nka:
"yesl
ove"
Me:
"uhm .
."Il
ookeddown
Nka:
"lookatme"Idi
d
Me:
"canwedot
hatagai
n"hechuckl
ed
Nka:
"Isur
ehopeso"
Me:"ImeannowthatachethatIhadl
astni
ght
i
sbackandIwantt odothatagai
n"hel
aughed
andremovedthecoverf
rom mybodythan
pi
ckedme
Nka: "
whoknewy oucouldbesoshyandneedy
butIloveit"hewalkedustobedandwemade
l
ov e.Aft
ermakingl ovewet ookashower
togetherIwasuncor mfor
tableatfi
rstbutNka
keptonpl ayi
ngaroundIrelaxedandenjoyed.
Wegotoutt heshowerandst art
edgetti
ng
dressed
Nka:
"becasual
"
Me:
"wher
ewegoi
ng"
Nka: "gol
dr eefcit
y"Itookoutblackhighwai st
j
eggi ng,bl
ackbr atop,anarmygr eenshirtthatI
l
ef tunbuttonednt i
edjustunderthetopwi thmy
blacknwhi teNikerosher
s,It
eidhalfofmy
braidsintoat opbunNkany i
sowasl ay i
ngon
thebedwi thhisarmsunderhisheadst aringat
mei namusement
Me:
"what
?"
Nka:
"your
eal
l
ybeaut
if
ul"
Me:
"younev
ernot
icedt
hatbef
ore"
Nka:"
Imeangrowingupy ouwerej
ustmydar
k
ski
nnyfr
iendbutnow"Ichuckl
ed
Me: "
fi
rstl
yim notdarki
m caramelt
here'
sa
dif
fer
ence2ndl yIwasneverski
nny"helooked
atmet ry
ingtonotlaugh"okokyeahIwas
ski
nny"helaughed
Nka:
"butwest
il
lwor
shi
pedt
hegr
oundy
ou
wal
kedonyouhadLungeloandIwr
apped
ar
oundyourf
inger
"Ishr
uggedmyshoul
der
Me:"
someonehadt
o"hejumpedofthebedput
hi
shandonmysmallbackIshi
ver
ed
Nka:"
bloodyhell
loveyougonamakemehard
agai
nstopshiver
ingorwewill
neverl
eav
ethi
s
room"
Me: "
that'
snotabadi dea"hechuckledand
l
eanedi nwekissedkissingwithnkafel
tli
ke
nothi
ngI '
veeverexperiencedbef
orehepull
ed
backafterawhil
eleavingmebr eathl
ess
Nka:"
let
'sgetoutofIwanahav
efunwi
thmy
gi
rl
"
Me:"ok"myv
oicewassof
tandsqueakynka
l
aughed
Nka:
"I'
mlov
ingt
hissi
deofy
ou"Ipushedhi
m of
me
Me:"shutup"Iwal
kedtot
hedoorhewas
l
aughingbehindme,wegoti
nthecaranddr
ove
offafteraski
ngfornewsheet s.Wewentt oa
pharmcyf ir
stIgotmor ni
ngafterpillandhe
boughtsomecondomst hanwel eftforgol d
reef.Wehadanamazi ngt i
meplay edgames
wentonr ideshadbr eakfastandl uncht here,
beingoutwi thNkany i
sowasdi fferentitwasn't
l
ikebef or
ehekeptmyhandonhi st hewhol e
ti
me, keptonkissingme, hewaspl ayful and
attent
ivethewholeday .I
twasaf ter18:00when
wegotbackt oourroom wewer el ayingont he
bedwi thmyl egonhi sandmyheadonhi s
chest
Nka:
"whathappenswhenwegethome"
Me:
"whatdoy
oumean"
Nka:
"wi
thuswhathappenswhenwegethome"
Me:
"not
hing"
Nka:
"whatdoesnot
hingmeanSi
no"
Me:
"let
'st
alkaboutt
hisl
ateri
mti
red"
Nka:
"Isee"hegotof
fthebedt
ookhi
sphone
fr
om t
hecl
osetandcamebackhel
aidonhi
s
st
omachabitf
arfr
om meIfel
tgui
l
ty
Me:
"whatdoy
ouwantt
ohappen"
Nka:
"thoughty
ouwer
etoot
ir
edt
otal
k"
Me:"Iam buti
fyougoi
ngtositt
her
esul
ki
ng
l
ikeagir
lwemi ghtaswel
ltal
k"
Nka:
"I'
m sul
ki
ngl
i
keagi
rl
"
Me:"ki
nda"hel
ookedatmebi
ti
nghi
sli
pI
l
ookeddown
Nka:"Iwanabeinar
elat
ionshi
pwithy
ouSino
nothavesomethi
ngt
hatisjustgoi
ngtost
ayi
n
j
hb"
Me:
"ok"
Nka:
"whatdoesokmean"
Me:
"what
every
ouwant
"
Nka:
"wel
lIdon'
twanti
tify
ousayi
tli
ket
hat
"
Me:
"Iwantwhaty
ouwant
"hegotcl
osert
ome
Nka:
"yousur
e"
Me:"yesbutpl
easedon'
ttel
lLungel
onotj ust
yeti
tbadenoughthatwelef
thim behindand
nowwei narel
ati
onshi
phealreadyfeelsl
eft
out"
Nka:"
butourr
elat
ionshi
phasnot
hingt
odo
wit
hhim"
Me:"notyetj
ustl
ethi
m getov
erusl
eav
inghi
m"
hehuffed
Nka:"okfi
neIgetitbuti
fhemakesacomment
aboutyourassI
'l
lpunchhim"Il
aughed
Me:
"don'
tbecr
azy
"
Nka:
"yourassi
smi
neSi
no"
Me:
"myassi
smi
ne"
Nka:"
youmi
neyoumygi
rlsoy
ourassi
smi
ne"
Ir
oll
edmyeyes
Me:
"ar
gwhat
ever
"
Nka:
"sayy
ourassi
smi
ne"
Me:"youcr
azy
"hegotont
opofmest
art
ed
t
ickl
i
ngme
Nka:
"sayi
tlov
e"hedi
dn'
tst
opunt
ilIhadt
ear
s
comi
ngout
Me:
"myassisyour
sNka"hest
oppedhegav
e
meababyki
ss
Nka:
"goodnowcanIhav
esome"
Me: "y
eeeees"myey esrol
ledbackashestart
ed
bit
ingandlicki
ngonmyneckwhi l
erubbi
ngon
mykushIwasn' twear
ingpanti
esnthefabr
icon
thejeggi
ngf el
ttothi
n.Soonwewer ecuddl
ing
nakedafterhecamebackf r
om fl
ushi
ngthe
condom
Me:
"il
ovej
hb"hechuckl
ed
Nka:
"weshoul
dcomeback"
Me:
"af
termat
ri
cforv
arsi
ty"
Nka:"youknowIwanadoengineer
ingandt
he
bestschoolfort
hati
sMUTSino"
Me:"yeahIknow"suddenl
yIfel
thur
tatthe
t
houghtofusseparati
ngduri
ngourvar
sity
year
s
Nka:"
butyouandLungel
owil
lbeher
esoI'
l
l
comethi
ssidealotyouwon'
tev
ennoti
cewe
apar
t"
Me:
"Ihopeso"
Nka:"Ican'
tthi
nkofmyl
i
fewi
thouty
ouand
Lungelo"
Me:
"met
ooespeci
all
yyouNkany
iso"
Nka:
"ist
hatso"
Me:
"yesy
oumyst
orm Nkany
isodl
ami
ni"
Nka:
"yourst
orm?
"
Me:"onedayI'
l
lexpl
aini
ttoy
ouandy
ouwi
l
l
underst
and"
Nka:
"okl
ove"hel
i
ftedmeupt
ogetont
opof
hi
m
Me:
"hi
"heki
ssedmynose
Nka:
"wanagocl
ubbi
ng"
Me:"
Ididn'
tbri
nganyt
hingt
hatwil
lmakeme
l
ookoldenoughtogeti
naclub"
Nka:
"we'
ll
buyy
ousomet
hingt
omor
rowt
han
wecango"
Me:
"cool
"
Nka:
"youshoul
dcal
lPhi
weIgotmi
ssedcal
l
s
f
rom hi
m"
Me: "
yeah"Igotoffhi
mt ookmyphoneand
call
edmybr other
,Ihadsomanymi ssedcall
s
fr
om Bathoandt heweir
dt hi
ngwasthatIhadn'
t
eventhoughtabouthim si
nceWednesdayandit
wasnowf ri
dayIsatont hebedl
ookingathis
missedcall
s
Nka:
"whatwr
ongl
ove"hecamebehi
ndand
t
ookmyphone
Me:
"don'
tdot
hatNkany
iso"
Nka:"
ohsorr
y"hegav
eitback"
whaty
ougonna
doabouthi
m"
Me:
"not
hing"
Nka:
"not
hingSi
no"
Me:
"whatdoy
ouwantmet
odo"
Nka:"
I'
m notgonatelly
ouwhattodobuty
ou
mineSinoandim notshar
ingy
ou"
Me:
"that
'snotf
airandyoubasi
cal
lytel
li
ngme
t
odumphi m"heshruggedhi
sshoulder
s
Nka:"
I'
m notimjustsayi
ngi
m notaboutt
o
shar
eyouwi t
hthecaptai
n"
Me:"butIshoul
dshar
eyouwi
tht
hatgi
rlwemet
atdavenport
"
Nka:
"she'
sanonexi
sti
ngf
act
or"
Me:
"yousai
dyouf
all
i
ngf
orher
"
Nka:
"I'
m not
"hest
atedasamat
terofaf
act
Me:
"ok"
Nka:
"ok?
"
Me:
"oky
ounotgonnashar
eme"hesmi
l
edand
cuppedmyf
ace
Nka:"good"weki ssedandpul l
edbackwhenmy
phonest art
edringingitwasmymot herI
decl
inedt hecal
l andswitchedoffmyphone.
Nkaor deredinwej ustchil
l
edwat chi
ngt v
,
pl
ayingcar dsandmaki ngloveafteral
lthatwe
sl
ept.
.
Iwokeupthefol
lowingdaywhenIfel
tNka
moveopeningupmyt hi
ghsandgetti
ng
bet
weenthem hekissedmefrom mystomach
uptomyface
Nka:
"mor
ningbeaut
if
ul"
Me:
"hi
"
Nka:
"sl
eptwel
l
"
Me:
"yes"
Nka:
"goodI
dli
kemybr
eakf
astnow"
Me:
"hhu"Ishutmyey
esashesl
owl
yent
ered
meallNkahadtodowast ouchmetheache
wouldbebackf
ullf
orceandI'dbewethi
stouch
wasmor et
hanenoughafterawhi
leweboth
cr
iedoutaswecamet hesamet i
me
Nka:
"Icannev
ergetenoughofy
ou"hepul
l
ed
meclosert
ohim gr
abbi
ngmyass
Me:
"wher
e'st
hecondom"
Nka:
"di
dn'
tusei
t"
Me:
"why
"
Nka:
"don'
tl
ikehav
ingabar
ri
erbet
weenus
l
ove"
Me:
"Nkany
iso"
Nka:
"youshoul
dbeonapi
l
l"
Me:
"mmh"
Nka: "
let
'sgoshower"hegotoffthebedl i
ft
ed
meupwet ookashowergotoutl oti
onedgot
dressedinNikegreysweatpant
swi t
hv est
sand
ourbrownairsneakersIt
iedmybr ai
dsi nabun
wewentt ohav ebr eakf astIboughtashor t
blackf r
eakum dr essandmar oonankl eheel for
tonightIhadmakeupbutIhar dlyputiton.
Afterthatwewat chedamov ieboughtpi zza
wentbackt otheBnB, west ayedj ustchil
li
ng
around21: 00wet ookashowerandgot
dressedwest oodatt hef ul
l l
engt hmi r
rorand
tookapi ctureNkawasi nblackr ippedskinny
j
eanswi thabl ackshi r
tt hathadwhi tesmal lRz
oni tandhi sf l
uxwel eftwentt ocl ubtabooand
hadabl asttheot hert imeswhenwewent
clubbingi fourpar ent swer eoutoft own
becauseofchur chweal way swentwi t
h
Lungel owe' dendchi ll
ingwi thr andom girlscoz
theywant edt otapi tbutt hi
st imei twasj ustus
Ihadanamazi ngtimewewentbackt otheBnB
i
near lyhour sofmor ningandpassedoutnaked.
.
Sundayiwokeupf i
rsti
twasalreadylat
eandI
wasnotlookingf
orwardtogoinghomeIwent
totakealongshowerandjustthoughtabout
mypar ent
sIwasmor escaredofmom t han
anyt
hingeventhoughmypar ent
sdon'thitus
whenmom st ar
tstal
kingyouwishshewoul d
j
usthityouandgetitoverndoneIwasst il
li
n
deepthoughtwhenIfelthandswraparoundme
fr
om thebackhekissedmyneck
Nka:"
Imi
ssedseei
ngy
ouwakeup"hesounded
sad
Me:
"sor
ry"
Nka:
"let
'sgobackt
osl
eepsoIcanseei
t"
Me:
"don'
tbesi
l
ly"
Nka:"i
tgonabeawhil
ebef or
eIgettoseei
t
againandImissedi
ttoday"hetur
nedme
aroundtofacehi
m"what'swrongSino"
Me:
"wegoi
nghomet
oday
"
Nka:
"youscar
ed"
Me:
"obv
iousl
y"
Nka:
"ev
ery
thi
ngi
sgoi
ngt
obef
ine"
Me:"
itwon'
t"Ist
art
edsobbi
nghecl
osedt
he
wat
erandheldme
Nka:"
doy
ouwantustost
ayl
ongerwedon'
t
havet
ogohometoday
"
Me:"wehaveschool
tomor
rowandstayi
ng
l
ongeri
sjustgoi
ngtomakethi
ngsworse"
Nka:
"hat
eseei
ngy
oul
i
kei
ttear
smeapar
t"
Me:
"I'
m sor
ry"
Nka:
"don'
tapol
ogi
ze"
Me:
"whati
fmypar
ent
schasemeout
"
Nka:
"youcancomest
aywi
thme"
Me:
"I'
m ser
iousNkany
iso"
Nka:"okI
'm sor
rybuttheywon't "heturnedt he
wateronandgav emeabat hthanhet ookone
hedriedmeandl i
ft
edmeoutt hebat hroom t o
thebedwemadesl owpassionat el
ov ethan
tookanap.Wegotupf r
eshenedupgotdr essed
packedupourthingandleftaftercheckingout
wewentpassagaragewithst
eersgotfoodand
snackst
hanhi
ttheroadbacktodurban.Bythe
ti
mehepackedoutsi
demyhousei twasr eal
l
y
l
ate
Me:
"I'
m soscar
ed"
Nka:"i
tgonabeokaySinot
heymi
ghtbeangr
y
buttheywil
lbehappyy
ouhomeandyousafe
theywil
lgetoveri
t"
Me: "
ok"hecuppedmyf
aceandwekissedI
pul
ledbackaft
erafewminut
esswi
tchedmy
phoneonit01:30am
Nka:
"I'
l
lseey
ouaf
terschool
"
Me:
"okby
e"
Nka:"byelove"weki
ssedagainhegotout
camet oopenmydoort hant
ookmybagf rom
thebootIcalledmydadwhopi ckedup
i
mmedi atelyl
ikehewasn'
tevenasleep
Dad:
"nci
nci
"
Me:
"daddy
"
Dad:
"ohnci
nci
wher
ear
eyoucomehome"
Me:
"thegat
eisl
ocked"
Dad:
"ehwhat
"
Me: "
I'
m out
side"hedr
oppedthecal
landthe
gateopenedasIwasabouttogetinIsawhim
runni
ngtothegate
Nka:
"shi
tisheangr
y"
Me:
"Idon'
tknowi
m scar
ed"hecamet
ous
Dad:"nci
nci
"hebroughtmet ohi
schestand
squeezedme"don'tyoueverdot
hatagaindo
youhearme"Istart
edcryi
ng
Me:
"I'
m sor
rydaddy
"
Dad:"y
ouscar
edthel
iv
ingshi
toutofme"Nka
chuckl
eddadl
etgoofme
Me:
"daddyt
hat
'saswor
ewor
d"hechuckl
ed
Dad:"Iknow"helookedatNka"
yout
ookmy
daughteraway"
Me:
"daddyhedi
dn'
t"
Nka:
"sor
rysi
r"
Dad:"
Ihopeyoudidn'
ttouchmydaught
ercozi
f
youdi
dI'
lldi
agnoseyouwi t
hbi
pol
ar"we
l
aughed
Me:
"dad"
Nka:
"I'
dnevertouchSinol
i
kethatsi
rshe'
sli
ke
myli
tt
lesi
ster"Ir
aisedmyeyebr
ow
Dad:"goodl et
'sgoinncinci
andyouNkanyi
so
yourfatherwil
l deal
wit
hy oubutwesti
ll
cal
li
ng
i
nameet ingcozt hi
sbehavi
orwil
lnotbe
t
olerated"
Nka:
"yessi
rIshoul
dgo"
Dad:
"I'
m gl
ady
oubr
oughtherbacksaf
e"
Nka:"
yessi
r"Nkanyi
sodroveoffdadandIwent
i
nmom wasal r
eadyupintheloungewhenwe
goti
nthehouseIhi
dbehinddad
Me:"
I'
m sor
rymom"myv oi
cewasshakeymom
j
ustl
etoutaloudsobandwentupst
air
s
Me:"daddyi
m sor
ryIdi
dn'
tmeant
omakeher
upset"
Dad:
"itoknci
nci
got
osl
eepwegoi
ngt
otal
kin
t
hemor ni
ng"
Me:
"doy
ouhat
emenow"
Dad:
"nev
erncinciy
oumychildIl
ovey
ouas
muchasIlov
edy oubef
ore"
Me:"ok"heki
ssedmyheadandIwentt
osl
eep
af
tertext
ingNka.
.
Thef ol
lowingmor ningmom wokemeupand
tol
dmeIcanst ayathomeski pschoolandrest
soIwentbackt osleep.Iwokeupabi tlat
er
wentt owashmyf aceandr i
nsemymout hthan
Iwentdownst air
sSet huwaswat chi
ngt vI
walkedpasthermademy sel
fcerealthanwent
tositwithherinthel ounge
Me:
"hi
"
Set
hu:
"hi
"
Me:
"don'
tyouhav
eschool
"
Set
hu:
"weopennextweek"
Me:
"or
yti
m sor
ryf
orsl
appi
ngy
ou"
Sethu:"l
istenher
eandli
stengood,Imi
ghtbe
smallerthanyouyeahsureyouawholelot
str
ongert hanmebutI'
m sti
llyoubi
gsi
sterand
youwi l
lshowmesomer espect"
Me:
"Iwasapol
ogi
zi
ng"
Sethu: "doy ouhav eanyi deawhaty ouputour
parent st hr
oughwi tht hatl i
ttl
estunty oupulled,
dadwasamesshewasn' tspeakingtoany one
i
nt hi
shousehebasi callysur vi
vedont hecalls
youmadet oPhiwe,doy ouhav eanyideahowi t
wasl ikewat chi
ngourpar entsmakeupl ies
whenpeopl eatchurchaskedabouty ouand
Nkany iso, mom anddadhav ebeenf ighting
sincey oul eftcozdadbl amesmom f ory ou
runningaway ,mom tooksl eepingpil
lsev ery
nightsi ncey ouleft
,youar etooself
ishSi noand
youwi l
l destroythi
sf ami lyifyoudon'tchange
whenmom anddadgetadi vorceitwil
lbey our
fault
,Ihav enev erheardmom anddadf ightli
ke
howt heyhav ebeenf i
ghtingsincey ouleftandit
allony ou"shest oodupIwasi ntearsbyt han"I
don'thatey ouIl oveyou,y oumyl i
ttl
esisterbut
I'
dnev erforgivey ouforwhaty ouputour
parentsthrough"shel ef
tmei ntheloungeand
wentout ,Ileftmyf oodwentbackt omyr oom
tocrymy selftosleep.
[
08/
12,
21:
23]Wadz
:Inser
t06
.
Ifel
tsomeonewaki
ngmeupIbli
nkedacouple
ofti
mesandmyey esl
andedonmom Isatup
andrubbedmyeyes
Me:"mom"sheshoodemeov
erandImov
ed
shesatdownnextt
ome"mom"
Mom:
"whySi
no"
Me:
"I'
m sor
ry"
Mom:
"don'
tapol
ogi
zej
ustt
ell
mewhy
"
Me:
"ther
e'snor
eason"
Mom:
"thatcan'
tbe"
Me:
"If
eel
suf
focat
ed"
Mom:
"suf
focat
ed"
Me: "
If eelli
key ouexpectmet obesomeonei m
notyouputmeundert hemi cr
oscope, youhav e
thi
simageofwhataper fectdaught ershoul dbe
andy ouwantmet obet hatimagey oual ready
haveaSet hubuty out r
yingtoturnmei nt o
anotherSet hui nst eadofl ovi
ngmeandl etti
ng
mebeSi novuy o,im notlikePhi weorSet hu
mom andIt rybyal lmeanst onotdi sappoi nt
youbutwhenIf ailtomeety oust andardsy ou
sayhur tfulthingsi nsteadofappr eciatingmy
eff
orts, neveroncei nmyent ir
el i
fey outol dme
youpr oudofmeev enifIgetst r
aightAzal lyou
sayis'y oucoul ddobet t
er'myr esultdropev en
i
fwi t
h5%Igethel l,IhatehockeyIhat eitmom
i
m notanat hleticper sonbuty ouf orcedmei nt
o
toityety oudon' tev encomet omygames, im
mor ecl
osewi t
hboysthangir
lsIlov
emy
fr
iendsi
tjustsohappenthattheyboysbuty
ou
cruci
fymeev eryt
imeim wit
ht hem.
..
"
Mom:
"Idi
dn'
tknowy
ouf
eel
li
ket
hatSi
no"
Me:"all
Iwantisachancetobemeandf oryou
toknowi m smar
tnresponsi
blei
m notgonago
outther
eanddosomet hingcr
azy"
Mom: "
wellyoudi
djustski
ptoanot
herpr
ovi
nce
wi
thouttel
l
inganyone"
Me:
"IknowI
'
m sor
ry"
Mom: "
IloveyouSinoyoumylastbornyour
daddy'sncinciIj
ustwantwhat'
sbestforyoui
m
j
usttryingtogroom i
ntoawonderfulwoman
thatIknowy oucanbeandIam proudofy ouI'
l
l
trymybestt onotputyouunderamicroscope
andI'l
llety
oubeSi no"
Me:"nomor
ecompar
ingmewi
thSet
huand
Phi
we"
Mom:
"yes"
Me:
"okI
'
m st
il
lsor
ryf
orj
ustgoi
ngl
i
ket
hat
"
Mom: "
Isaidharshwor
dsIregr
etthosewords
butwhatyoudidwaswrongneverdothat
agai
n"
Me:
"nev
eragai
nIpr
omi
se"
Mom:"Ihopey
ourr
esul
twil
li
mprovecozify
ou
wantt
ogodopharmcyyouneedbet
terr
esul
ts"
Me:
"myr
esul
twi
l
limpr
ove"
Mom: "sowhati
sthi
saboutaboy fr
iendBat
ho
r
ightImethimtheothernighthewasso
worri
edaboutyoul
ookslikeagoodboy "
Me:
"hei
s"
Mom: "
youknowy ounotal
l
owedt
odat
eyour
f
atherwasfur
ious"
Me:
"heknows"shechuckl
ed
Mom:
"yeah"
Me:
"ohI
'
lldumphi
m"
Mom:
"youdon'
thav
eto"
Me:
"real
l
y"
Mom:"yeahandy
oucanst
oppl
ayi
nghockeyi
f
youwantto"
Me:"may
benexty
eart
heseasoni
sal
mostov
er
any
way"shest
oodup
Mom: "
okcleanupy ourdadwil
lbehomesoon
wehavetogot ochurchthanwehavea
meeti
ngwit
hnkany iso'
sparent
splusSet
hu
t
ell
smey ouhav en'
teatensogetup"
Me: "yesma' am"shel ef
tmyr oom Igotof ft
he
bedmadei twentt otakeashowergotdr essed
i
nal osemaxi dresswi t
hadeni mj ackettiedmy
braidsi napony tail
thenwentdownst air
sSet hu
wasbusyonherphonewhi l
ewat chingtvIwent
totheki tchenmom wascooki ngdi nnerImade
acheesenham sandwi chwithagl assofmi lk
ateint hekitchen.WhenIwasdoneIr i
nsedmy
platengl assgr abbedaf rui
twentt oj oi
nSet hu
i
nt hel oungewesatt hereinsilenceIwas
chattingt oBathoandNkany i
so, nkany i
sohad
ourpict ureashi spr ofil
epi ctureBat howant ed
ust omeett hef ol l
owi ngdayIsai dcool .Daddy
camebackl at erhef r
eshenedupandweal lleft
forchur ch, nkany isokeptonst aringatmehe
woul djustsmi lei fIcaughthi mt hisonet i
mehe
mout hed' stor m' andIl aughedoutl oudpeopl e
l
ookedatmel ikeI 'm crazymom gav emeal ook
Isaidsor ryandl ookeddownwhenIl ookedup
againmyey esl andedonnkany iso'shehada
hugegr i
nonhi sf aceIj ustsmi l
edandshook
myhead.Af terchur chwewenthomeand
nkany i
so' sdaddr ov ebehi ndusweal lwent
homet hemeet ingt ookpl aceweapol ogized
afterrecei vingal ongl ectur ewegotgr ounded
nocel l
phones, nol aptops, nohangi ngout
togetherf ort hewhol eterm upunt i
l wecl ose
forSept ember , nkany isolostt hecar ,theyt ook
ourbankcar ds, f
rom t hanwewer egoi ngt o
receivej ustt axi fareev erymor ningandcar r
y
l
uncht oschool .Whent hemeet i
ngwasov er
theyst ay edf ordi nnerIsatnextt onkany iso
whokeptonbrushi
ngmythi
ghundert
het
able
af
terdi
nnert
heylef
tSet
huandIwentt
odothe
di
shes.
Set
hu:
"soy
ouandnkany
iso"
Me:
"whataboutmeandnkany
iso"
Set
hu:
"youguy
stoget
her
"
Me:
"toget
her
?"
Set
hu:
"yeahi
nar
elat
ionshi
p"
Me:
"nowenot
"shechuckl
e
Set
hu:
"whyy
oul
yi
ngy
ousuchal
i
ar"
Me:"
nkanyi
soandIbeenf
riendssi
ncef
orev
er
wearenoti
narel
ati
onshi
p"
Set
hu: "
somethi
ngchangedbetweenyoutwoI
sawy'al
latchur
chIsawt hewayhewaslooki
ng
atyouandIsawhim brushi
ngyourl
ap"
Me:"y
ouimagini
ngthingsandy
ouknow
par
anoii
sasignofbipolar
"
Set
hu:
"don'
tbesmar
tSi
no"
Me:
"nev
er"
Set
hu:"mmhIwonderj
ustdon'
tfal
lpr
egnant
cozIknowy
ouguysarehavi
ngsex"
Me:
"but
toutofmybusi
ness"shechuckl
ed
Sethu:"IknewitbutIalwaysthoughtitgoingto
beLungel osonowwhataboutBat ho"Ididn'
t
sayany thi
ng"youintroubl
eli
ttl
esis"whenwe
weredoneIwentupst ai
rstoi
ronmyuni f
orm
butitwasal r
eadyironedsoIjusthadanear ly
night.
.
AweekwentbyIhadn' tchi
ll
edwithmyboy s
onlysawthem atchur chevenLungeloended
upcomi ngtochurchcozhemi ssedusI
couldn'
tgoseet hem wi t
hSethubeingathome
BathonewIdi dn'
thav eaphoneandt hatIwas
groundedbuthewoul dcallmeonsethu's
phone.AllIdi
dwasgot oschoolandchurch
anddomyschool work.Sethuwentbackto
schoolonSundayaf terchurch,soMondayafter
school
Bat
howaswai
ti
ngf
ormebyt
hegat
e
Kim:"l
ookatt
hecaptai
nwait
ingther
elooki
ng
hot"mygir
lsl
aughedIj
ustsmil
edandshook
myhead
Ami
l
e:"
goonweknowy
oumi
sshi
m"
Me:"chi
l
dIdon'
tneedy
ourper
missi
onIam
goi
ng"
Ami
l
e:"
seey
out
omor
row"
Me:"byegir
ls"Icr
ossedt
her
oadhej
ustopened
hi
sarmsIdr oppedmybagandj
umpedonhim
hespinnedmear ound
Bat ho:"
oohImi ssedy oubaby "hedr oppedme
andki ssedmehi ski sswasdifferentitdidn'
t
sendt hatachyfeelingIgetwhenIki ss
nkany i
soitdidn'
tmakemewantt otearhi s
cl
ot hesoffandpr essagainsthim orhav ehi s
dickinmei twasj ustasweetki sshist ouch
didn'tmakemeshi vereventuall
yhepul ledback
afterwhatfeltli
kehour s
Bat
ho:
"canwego"
Me:
"gowher
ebaby
"
Batho:"
myplace"hehel
dmybut
tgr
abbi
ngi
t
pressi
ngourbodiest
oget
her
Me:
"youknowI
'
m gr
oundedbaby
"
Bat
ho:"
I'
ll
bri
ngy
oubackbef
orey
ourmom
comeshome"
Me:
"shecomesbackear
lynow"hesi
ghed
Batho:"ImissyoubabyandIneedtospend
ti
mewi thyoupleasedon'ttur
nmeintot
his
needyinsecurepersonbecauset
hat'
swherei
n
headingri
ghtnow"Ist oodonmytoesandgave
hi
m asof tpeck
Me:
"I'
m sor
rybabyI
'
llmakei
tupt
oyou"
Bat
ho:
"comehomewi
thme"
Me:"
okletgoofmyass"hesmi
l
edand
gr
abbedithar
der
Bat
ho:
"Il
ovey
ou"
Me: "
Iknowl et'sgetoutofhere"hegavemea
softpeckthanwentt oopenmydooraf ter
picki
ngupmybagIwenti nwedr oveoffgoing
tomor ni
ngsi dewegott ohisplacewewer e
chil
li
nginhisr oom Iwaslayingontopofhim
whenhi sphonebeepedi twasont hebedside
drawerandt hankGodf oriPhonesthesms
showedont hescr eenitwasf r
om Zinhl
e
*
weneedt
otal
kBat
homyper
iodsar
elat
e*
Hetri
edturninghi
sphonedownbutitwast
oo
l
ateIhadalreadysawitIgotof
fhi
m and
j
umpedof fthebed
Bat
ho:
"baby
"
Me:
"yes"
Bat
ho:
"Icanexpl
ain"
Me:"
ther
e'snoneedpl
easet
akemehome"Iput
onmyshoeshecamet omeandhel
dmyarms
Bat
ho:
"itr
eal
l
ynotwhaty
out
hink"
Me:
"youcant
ell
whatgoesonmymi
ndnow"
Bat
ho:"
nobut"hest
rachedhi
shead"
Ilov
eyou
Si
nobutImessedupokIreal
l
ymessedup"
Me:
"ok"hedr
oppedhi
shead
Bat
ho:
"I'
m sor
ry"
Me:"
howwouldyoufeeli
ftherol
eswere
r
ever
sed"hi
seyesf
lashedangerthesamet
ime
Bat
ho:
"I'
dfucknf
ucksomeoneup"
Me:
"andwhatdoy
ouexpectmet
odo"
Bat
ho:"
Iknowy ouhurt
ingbutIl
ovey
oubaby
andpl
easefor
givebaby"
Me: "
yousleptwithher"hedidn'tsayany t
hing
"ar
ey oust
illsl
eepingwi t
hher?"Hel ooked
downIgotmyanswer" canyout akemehome
now"myv oicewassosof ty
ouwoul dn'
teven
tel
lIwaspissedof f
Bat
ho:
"itwasami
stake"
Me:"
itwoul
dhavehappenedoncei
fitwasa
mi
stakesotel
lmewhendiditst
art
"
Batho:"
whenwehadthatbi
ggamet
haty
ou
missedfory
ourf
ri
endsreci
tal
"
Me:"
ohthatwasmont
hsagosowhaty
ouguy
s
ar
etoget
her"
Bat
ho:
"nononono!Wenotbabypl
ease"
Me:
"youj
ustsl
eept
oget
her
"
Bat
ho:
"yes"
Me:
"andnowshemi
ghtbepr
egnant
"
Bat
ho:"Idon'
tknowIhav
en'
tseenheri
nov
er3
weeks"
Me:"canyout
akemehomeorshoul
dIcal
l
Lungel
otocomepi
ckmeup"
Bat
ho:"
areyoufucki
nghimisthatwhyy
ou
won'
thavesexwithme"Il
aughed
Me: "
ohwownotev er
yoneisl
ikeyou
Bathandwaim nothavi
ngsexwi t
hyoucozI'
m
notreadybutIwasactuall
yconsi
deri
ngitt
hank
GodIdidn'
tcozIwoul dhavebeenshari
nga
di
ckwi
thZi
nhl
e"
Batho: "
I'
m sosorrySi
novuy o"hecuppedmy
faceandki ssedmebutIdi dn'tki
sshim backhe
didn'tst
ophebi tmybott
om l ipIgaspedthat
gav ehim amomentt oshov ehistongueinmeI
kissedhim backbuttear
swer ejustf
all
i
ngf r
om
myey eseventual
l
yhepulledbackandwi ped
myt ears
Bat
ho:
"I'
m sosor
rybaby
"
Me: "
itok"het
ookmyhandandwewal kedhe
drovemehomei nsi
l
encehepar
kedtwo
housesawayf r
om minewher
eataxi
usuall
y
dropsmeof f
Bat
ho:
"yougoi
ngt
ofor
giv
emer
ight
"
Me:
"yesbutIneedt
ime"
Bat
ho:
"Iunder
standIl
ovey
ouSi
no"
Me: "
Ilov
eyoutoobutweov er"Igotoutt
hecar
tookmybagfrom thebackseatwhenItur
ned
aroundhewasstandingnexttomeheheldthe
carcagi
ngmei
n
Batho: "
y ounotleavi
ngmey oucan'tleaveme
dami tIloveyouSi noImadeami stakey ou
askedf orpatienceandfor
givenessbef orei
m
askingfort hesame"
Me: "
clear
lywenotworki
ngBat hoandi
m not
readyforarel
ati
onshi
pIthoughtIwasbutI
'm
not"
Batho:"Il
oveyou"at earf
ell
from hiseyeI
wipeditthancuppedhi sf
acegav ehim ababy
kisshelookedsobr oken,
Idon'tknowwher e
theycamef rom Ij
ustheardhisvoice
Nka:"ever
ythi
ngokhere"Bat
hoandIboth
tur
nedtheywer est
andingabi
tfur
therf
rom us
sti
l
linthei
rschooluni
form
Lungel
o:"
supcapt
ain"
Batho:
"shomf2"nkawaspi
ssedof
fbuthewas
tr
yingt
olookcool
Me:
"Bat
howasj
ustl
eav
inghecamet
odr
op
meof
f"Bat
hogav
emet
hat'
real
l
y'l
ook
Nka:
"let
'sgot
han"
Me:
"ok"
Bat
ho:
"west
il
ltal
ki
ng"
Nka:"Iguessy
'al
ldone"heof
fer
edmehishand
Bathomov edf
rom mecozIpushedhi
m of
f
Bat
ho:
"Si
no"
Me:"
I'
ll
seey
ouar
ound"Igav
enkamyhandwe
wal
kedaway
Lungel
o:"
whatt
hef
uckwast
hat
"
Me:"
nothi
ng"Igav
ehim af
akesmi
l
eBat
ho
dr
ovepassusinaspeed
Lungel
o:"
youpissedofft
hecaptai
nbr
uyou
gonagetyourasski
ckedatschool
"
Nka:
"hedon'
tscar
emeIcant
akehi
m"
Lungel
o:"
butSi
noi
shi
sgi
rly
oushoul
dn'
thav
e
gott
eninv
olv
ed"
Nka:
"she'
smygi
rl
"Lungel
ogav
eust
hat'
wtf
'
l
ook
Me:
"hemeansf
ri
end"
Nka:"y
eahthat
'swhatIsai
d"wegotathomeI
openedthegat
e
Me:
"by
eboy
s"
Nka:"nohugnix"Ichuckl
edandgaveLungel
oa
hugthanhim"Imi ssyou"hewhi
sper
edand
pul
ledback
Me:
"seey
ouatchur
chNkany
iso"
Lungel
o:"
whataboutme"
Me:
"youdon'
tdochur
ch"
Lungel
o:"
I'
ll
comej
ustt
oseey
ou"
Me:"gr
eat
"Iwalkedi
nandclosedt
hegat
e
behi
ndmet hanwenti
nthehouse.
.
Timewentbythingsathomeweregr
eatev
en
thoughIwasgroundedmom wasnotomyface
thatmuchshest i
llhadhermoment sthelast
gameofhockeyseasonwasepi cmyt eam was
onf i
rewewentoutwi t
habangmom ndad
camet owat cht hegame.Sept emberexams
wentof fsmoot hlymyr esultwer ethebestof
thewhol eyearmom washappyIgotmy
gadgetsback, school closedSet hudi dn'tcome
homeIwentt ospendaweekatPEwi thmy
brotherandwehadabl asthet reat edmel i
ke
hisli
ttl
epr i
ncessBat hoev entuallygav et r
ying
tomakemel istenZi nhlewasn' tpr egnant .
Nkany i
soandIwest il
l goodev ent houghno
oneknewaboutuswemanageandspendt ime
togetherifmypar entswer enotathomebutwe
hadn'thadsexsi ncej hbunt il
oneweekendt he
churchwast akingt hepr eacher soutt hatmeant
bothourpar ent swoul dbegonef orawhol e
weekend.Nkany isoist heoldestathi shomeso
hisparentssentt heki dstost ayatl ungelo'
s
housei twasOct oberLungel owasonat ripfor
poetrySA.Nkany isoandIspentt hewhol e
weekendt ogetherathi
shomewemadel ove
t
hroughoutt hewhol eweekend.Threeweeks
l
aterIhadacheckupwi thmygy nankanyi
so
t
ookmet hereIgotcall
edinwheni twasmy
t
urnIlefthim outandwentin
Me:
"gooddaydoc"
Doc:
"mi
ssDeyhowy
oudoi
ng"
Me:"
I'
m cool
"wewentaboutmycheckup
ev
ery
thi
ngwasok
Doc:
"ar
eyouact
ivenow"
Me:
"act
ivehow"
Doc:
"sexual
l
y"
Me:
"uhm t
hisi
sbet
weenusr
ight
"hechuckl
ed
Doc:
"yes"
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ookedatme
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ou"
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ake"
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"
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"
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hu:
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o:"
whoy
out
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ess"
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djoki
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y
Lungel
o:"
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ki
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daysLungel oandIwer er eal
ly
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so,
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ttl
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so,
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hedi dhistwopoemswheni twast i
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l
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emot ionsweusewor dsasourev eryt
hingand
todayI '
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ket odosomet hingI '
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can'tseeshi twit
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someonebyt heaudience"t hespotlightwent
offandt hewhol eplacel itupandhesmi led
"thanksbruIowey ou"someoneshout edy eah
youdoandLungel ochuckl edandl ookedatme
"heyhun"Ij ustshookmyheadandl ooked
down" st
anduphoney "Imout hedno" people
that'
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ove
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ewerebusyscreami
ngand
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appinghands
Lungelo:
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no"hecuppedmyf
ace"
im gonna
ki
ssy ounow"
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wasn'tl
ikewhatkissingnkanyi
sowasi twas
warm safesweetitfeltl
i
kehomei tfel
tli
kelov
e
Igotl
ostinitunti
lhepulledandpressedour
for
eheadstogether
Lungel
o:"
Ilov
eyou"
Me: "
Iloveyout oo"hesatnexttomet heli
ghts
wentof ft
henextper sonwentonst ageIputmy
headonhi slaphepl ayedwithmyhairwhil
ewe
watchedtheot hersperform wheni
twasov er
wewal kedoutwentt othecarheopenedmy
doorandwentt ohisside
Lungel
o:"
Sino"It
urnedt
olookathi
m wi
tha
smi
l
e
Me:
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Lungel
o:"
Idolov
eyoual
otli
kealotbraIdon'
t
knowwhyitt
ookmesolongtot
ellyou"
Me:
"I'
m gl
ady
out
oldme"
Lungel
o:"
soy
ounotmadatme"
Me:
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m not
"
Lungelo:
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tsaid
anyt
hingIwasstart
ingtofreakout
"Ilaughed
Me:
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m notmadi
m gl
ad"
Lungel
o:"
goodnowlet'
sgetoutofher
e"we
wenttohavedi
nnert
hanhetookmehome.
.
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wasj ustt
hebestmydaybeganandendedwi t
h
hi
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mom t houghti twasagr eatideay eahsheknew
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ual l
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ndadwant edSet huandIt ost aytoget herbutI
want edmyownspacey ouknowf indmy selfin
j
hbwi t
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ltur
ned
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ookather
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eisi
t"
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hu:
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and"
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m sur
eitsucks"
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ry"daddyj
ustl
aughed
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hal ounge,adini
ng
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wewi l
lturniti
ntoabedroom"
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azy
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ackedup
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der
edSet
hu"
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hu:
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tfi
ndany
thi
ngel
se"
Me:
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tgetwhyIcan'
tj
ustst
ayatar
es"
Dad:
"becausey
ouneedy
oursi
ster
"
Me: "noi
don'
twhenSethuwentt
her
eshe
stayedonherownandshe'
smoreshel
ter
ed
thanme"
Dad:
"ift
hat
'st
hecaset
hanSet
huneedsy
ou"
Me:"
thi
nkaboutSethudadshedoesn'
tneed
metobearoundherful
lti
mesheneedsabreak
f
rom me"t
heyalll
aughed
Mom:
"that
'ssoconsi
der
ateofy
ouSi
no"
Me:"
daddySet
huneedsherspacef
rom me"
dadl
aughed
Set
hu:"
I'
mf i
newi
thstay
ingwi
thy
ou"Ishother
adeadstat
eshel
aughed
Me:"okf
inebri
ngthatlaptophere"It
ookitwent
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cerangehe
tol
dmeaf t
erafewmi nutesIfoundaplace
Me:
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t"
Mom:
"wher
eisi
t"
Me:
"Hy
depar
k"
Dad:
"goodpl
acei
tsaf
e"
Me:
"3bedr
ooms"
Mom:
"youj
ustneed2Si
no"
Me:
"whati
fyouguy
swantt
ovi
sitorPhi
we"
Dad:
"ni
cet
hinki
ngnci
nci
"
Me: "
I'
m smar tl
ikethat,openplanli
vingarea,
hugekitchen,2lounges, 2bedr
oomsar een-sui
t
thanthere'
sonebat hroom downstairs,
topfloor
gotadoort hatopensupt oanopenspace
woodf l
oorwi t
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umpedof fthe
couchandgr abbedt helaptopfrom me
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ngi
tletmesee"t
heyl
ookedatt
he
pi
ctur
es
Set
hu:
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usi
tli
ke30mi
nut
esf
rom campus"
Mom:
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if
ulZuko"
Dad:"
yougirl
sli
kei
t"Set
hunIsaidyesatthe
sameit"Set
hucan'
tyougetsomeonetocheck
i
toutfi
rstbefor
ewecall
theagency
"
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hu:
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l
lcal
lmyf
ri
endshe'
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readyt
her
e"
Dad:
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akedownt
henumber
"
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aterwehadtheplace
daddyjustneededtosi
gntheleaseagr
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whenwegott her
e,wel
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hercart heywer egoi ngt ogetaf li
ghtbackt o
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i
nt oahot el hadt oshar ear oom wi t
hSet hu.The
foll
owingdaywewentt ot heapar t
mentSet hu
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bestonecozwi thmyl ongl egsIj usttookt wo
stair
satt hesamet i
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wi t
hasl idingdoort hatl edt othebal conyhad
anamazi ngv i
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iedpl ay ing
theim oldert heny oucar dbutourpar ent sdi dn'
t
wantt ogeti nv olved.Dadsi gnedt heleaset he
placecamef ul l
yf urnishedandi twasamazi ng
onel oungewasal l whitewi thabarwhi l
et he
otheronewasr ednbl ackwi thahugef lat
screen, t
heki tchenwasal lsi
lverwej ustneeded
togetourownbeddi ngandappl iances.When
wewer edonewel ockedIhadmyownkeyso
didSet hu, wewentt othemal ltobuyt het hings
thatweneededandgr ocerywegotourt hings
from thehot el checkedoutset tledinni celyat
ourplace.Lungel owasal soi njhbhegota
bachel orapar t
menti nsandt on.Thef ollowi ng
mor ningwewentt oregistergotev erything
donehadear l
ydi nnert henwet ookmom ndad
totheai rportafteral ongl ectur
eonhowt o
behav e, howt onotf orgetwher ewecomi ng
from andwhywei njhb, howweshoul dn't
disappoi ntt hem, howIshoul dtreatSethuwi th
respect ,booksbef or
eboy sandnopr egnancy
theylef t.IcalledLungel oonourwaybackf rom
theairpor ttol
dhi mt ocomeov erwhenwegot
therehewasal r
eadypar kedout si
deSet huj ust
l
aughedandsai di fyouguy saregoi ngt ohav e
sexpl easepl aymusi cI'l
ldot hesamewhen
sthabisocomesov er,sthabisost ayedatPt ahe
wor kst her eandBat hoi salsoher einjhbdoi ng
his2ndy earandLungel onIwer enothav ing
sexy et.Igotoutt hecarandr ant omybabyhe
wasal readyoutofhi scar
Lungelo:
"looksl
ikesomeonemi ssedme"Ihel
d
hi
mt ight
erhelaughedandkissedmyhead
sni
ff
ingmyhai
r
Me:"i
tbeenthel
ongest3daysever"Lungel
o
andIsaweachotherever
ydaysothose3day s
wereawful
Lungelo:"Iknowhoney "heheldmychi nandwe
kissedhel i
ft
edmeupsatmeonhi scarandgot
betweenmyl egsIheldhisheadrunningmy
handt hr
oughhi shairheletoutasoftmoanhe
l
ikeditwhenIdi ditIpull
edback
Me:
"Il
ovey
ou"
Lungel
o:"
loveyoumor ebabysohowabouty
ou
showmey ourplace"
Me:"
ok"Il
i
ftedmeof ft
hecart
henhel
dmy
wai
stwewalkedinIshowedhi
mtheplacet
han
t
ookhimtomyr oom
Lungel
o:"
sot
hisi
sourr
oom"
Me:
"yep"
Lungel
o:"y
ouknowI 'm pr
act
ical
l
ygonabe
stay
inghere"Il
aughed
Me:"
yesyouneedt
obri
ngabagov
ersoy
ou
wi
ll
havesomestuf
fher
e"
Lungel
o:"
andy
ouwi
l
lleav
esomest
uffatmy
pl
acetoo"
Me:
"yesbaby
"
Lungel
o:"
good"
Me: "comehere"It
ookhi shandledhim outthe
balconywest oodt her
ewi t
hhim standing
behi ndmeandhi shandsar oundmywai st
wat chingthestar
sandt hebeautif
ulviewthe
l
ight slookedamazingitwasal r
eadydar k
Lungel
o:"
wegoi
ngt
obehappyher
e"
Me:"yeswewi l
l"It
urnedtolookathi
m hej
ust
smil
edsomet hi
ngwar ml i
tupinmewheneverI
l
ookedathiseyesorhi ssmil
eespeci
all
ywhen
hi
ssmi l
ingbecauseofme
Lungel
o:"
Ilov
eyousomuch"
Me:
"Iknow"
Lungel
o:"
ist
hatso"
Me:
"tot
all
yhav
eyoueat
en"
Lungel
o:"
yep"
Me:
"let
'sgot
osl
eep"
Lungelo:"
ok"wewal kedbackinlocki
ngIgoti
n
mypj shetookoffhisclot
heswasl efti
n
boyl
egshej oi
nedmeundert hecoveraft
er
tur
ningtheli
ghtsoffhegotinbehindme we
spoonedwi t
hourlegsentwined
Me:
"goodni
ghtbaby
"
Lungel
o:"
nighthunIl
ovey
ou"
Me:"loveyoutoo"hebeganhummingzay
n-
pi
ll
owt alkwhi
ledrawi
ngcircl
esonmyhand
unt
ilIfel
lasl
eep.
.
Whenwokeupt
hef
oll
owi
ngdayLungel
owas
st
ari
ngatme
Me:
"hi
"
Lungel
o:"
hey
"
Me:"whyy
oustar
ingatme"hesmi
l
edand
ki
ssedmyfor
ehead
Lungel
o:"
becausey
oubeaut
if
ulandy
oumi
ne"
Me:
"yesIam y
our
s"heki
ssedmynose
Lungel
o:"goodlet
'skeepitt
hatway
"Igotup
satonhim str
addl
inghim
Me:
"whaty
ouwanadot
oday
"
Lungel
o:"
bei
ndoor
swi
thy
oubutatmypl
ace"
Me:
"okwe'
l
lleav
eaf
terbr
eakf
ast
"
Lungel
o:"
oknowcomeher
e"Igotcl
osert
ohi
m
andwekissed
Me: "Il
oveyou"Imoanedinhismout hIcoul
d
feelhisli
pscurvi
nginasmile,heloveditwhenI
tol
dhi m Il
ovehim heoncesaidifitwasupto
himI dtel
lhim ev
ery30minuteshesentme
random textj
ustsayi
nghelovesme
Lungel
o:"
Iknow"Ipul
l
edbackf
rom hi
sli
psand
pout
ed"
what
?"
Me:
"youget
ti
ngcocky
"hel
aughed
Lungel
o:"
ity
ou"Ir
oll
edmyey
es
Me:"what
ever"hef
li
ppedusov
erandgot
bet
weenmyl egs
Lungel
o:"don'
twhat
evermehun"Igi
ggl
edhe
doesn'
tl
ikeitwhenIsaywhat
ever
Me:"whatev
er"Isai
dslowlyhestar
tedtickl
i
ng
meIlaughedoutloudIdon'tev
enknowwhen
hemov edhi
sbodyIdidntfeeli
tmov i
ngbutI
gaspedwhenhistonguetouchedmycl i
t
Me:"
baby"Lungel
oandIhadn'
tgot
teni
nti
mat
e
i
nanykindofwayall
wedoi ski
ss
Lungel
o:"
rel
axyourbody
"thevi
brati
onofhi
s
voi
cedidsomet
hinginmesincehismouthwas
sti
l
lonmykush
Me:"ooohok"hei
ndul
gedi
nmykushunt
ilI
camehecamebackupt omyf
acewit
ha
sat
isfi
edgr
in
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o:"youtasteamazi
ng"Iwi pedhisl
i
ps
wit
hmyf inger
st hanbr
oughthisf acet
omine
wekissedhiserecti
onwasdiggingonmyt hi
gh
Ipul
led
Me:"l
et'
sbat
hthanwecaneatandgot
oyour
pl
ace"
Lungel
o:"
Idon'
thav
etoi
l
etr
iesher
elet
'sj
ust
l
eavenow"
Me: "
ok"hegotof fmeandgotoutthebedI
packedupmybagwhi l
ehemadet hebedand
gotdressedIwenttowashmyf acenrinsemy
moutht hanchangedi
ntoapairofl
eggingsand
avestwi t
huggs
Lungel
o:"youdoknowthatl
eggi
ngsarenot
pantsr
ightyoubasi
cal
l
ynaked"Irol
l
edmyey es
Me:
"yeahso"hechuckl
ed
Lungelo:"
justput
ti
ngitoutther
e"wewalked
outmybedr oom Itol
dSethuIwasleavi
ngfor
therestoftheweekitwasTuesdaylect
ureswe
star
ti
ngt hefoll
owingweekMonday .Wel ef
tfor
hisplacewhiledri
vingtherewewer eli
steni
ng
tomet rofm andBur naboy-cleani
ngthisB
star
tedplayi
ngIwassi ngi
ngandr appi
ngalong
whent hecarstoppedatt herobotLungelo
l
ookedatmei namusement
Me:
"Iamusey
ousi
r"hechuckl
ed
Lungel
o:"
yesma'
am pl
easegoon"whent
he
hookcameonIscr
eamedlouder
Me:"I'
m cleaningthi
sBni ggerwoahim
cl
eaningthisB"Iwasdabbi ngLungel
olaughed
andjoinedmewedi dn'
tev ennoti
cetherobot
hadturnedgr eenunti
lthecarsstart
edhooting
Lungel
o:"
fl
ip"hedr
oveof
fwhi
l
ewel
aughed
Me:
"bet
terpayat
tent
ionont
her
oadsi
r"
Lungel
o:"i
fyouwouldjustst
opbei
nga
beauti
ful
dist
ract
iont
hingswoul
dbegood
ma'am"
Me:
"Ishal
ldonot
hingbutsi
ther
eandst
are
ahead"hel
aughed
Lungelo:"evenwhenyoubli
nkyoufasci
nat
eme
Sino"Ireachedoverandki
ssedhi
scheek
Me:
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ed
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yfory
ou"
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aughed
Lungel
o:"
cockyass"
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Lungel
o:"
mostdef
ini
tel
yhun"
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ergoi
ngt
ohur
tmer
ight
"
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m sel
fi
shbecauseIknowwhat
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gi
ggled
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ouwant
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down"
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e
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wet
hu:
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hef
amousSi
no"
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"
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ougothi
m byt
he
ball
sy oubeaut
if
ul"
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ou"henodded
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wet
hu:
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l
lseey
oul
ater
"
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o:"
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n
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uffbaby
"
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o:"
uuh"
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ufft
hatol
wet
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ngabout
"
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o:"
ohweed"Ir
oll
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es
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edandhel
d
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vi
ngmeasoftpeck
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o:"
I'
m notaddi
cted"
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o:"
tr
ustme"i
nodded
Me:
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smeshowy ou
ourplace"Igi
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ing
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ul"
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heyleftso
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ngsarebutyouwil
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ther
e"
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m nomai
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'l
ldoitbutI
'm sur
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ngisy
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n
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o:"don'
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pl
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ook
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tment
Me:"
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ace"heki
ssed
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Lungel
o:"
Ilov
eyou"
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aught
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o
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woar
etoget
hernow"
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o:"
yesar
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ngt
ohav
eapr
obl
em"
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hu:
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cosnot
"
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o:"
good"
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ho:"
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hisbef
oreoraf
terwebr
okeup
Si
no"
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ter
"
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o:"
nott
hati
tyourbusi
nesst
hough"
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ho:
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way
sdi
dlov
ehi
m mor
e"
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tdot
hat
"
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o:"
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edusupst
air
stomy
room
Me:"Idi
dn'
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angr
y
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o:"whatdidyouexpecthi
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otheri
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er"hesnapped
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tdot
hat
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essedmyhandonhi
s
chest
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obear oundal
ot"he
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seyebrowstoget
her
Me:"
Idon'
tknowbutIwi
l
lspeakt
oSet
huabout
i
t"
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o:"
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eav
ingy
ouher
e"
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ayher
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ft
edmeof fIsqueal
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i
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t
henightinmyroom.
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owingdayi twasthefir
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asav arsi
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ecar scoz
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:"hey
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"
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ear"
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ect
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esoIknowmywayaround"
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im doi
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aughed
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abel
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m soogonnal
ovey
ou"
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peopl
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oveyouaswell
"
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ed
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sh?
"
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l
ddidn'
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efr
iends
whereyoucomefrom"
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rl
s"
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gnunusi
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enow"I
l
aughed
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ouar
e"
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'
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li
rt
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aightt
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n
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ustsmelthi
m hekissedmyhead
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o:"heyhun"It
urnedonmyseathegav
e
measof tpeckandsatnextt
ome
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dn'
tknowy
ouwer
etaki
ngt
his
st
ream"
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h
youdidn'twanty ouf
eeli
ngalll
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n
yourfi
rstclassbutIseeyoumadef ri
ends"
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es"It
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ustopenlydrool
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ed
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i
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ot heyshookhis
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mehe
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aughedand
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ll
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eor
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inkt
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l
edhim
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m wai
ti
ngher
e"
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edthemallyouwon't
beli
evewhoi m withwil
lseeyousoon"he
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dn'
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so
Nka:
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x"
Me:
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oodup
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ookgor
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emeahugas
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ouchesmyexposedbackI
shi
ver
ed
Nka:"
nicet
oknowIstil
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hisef
fectony
ou"
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l
edbackandjustsmil
ed
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o:"sor
ryI'
mlat
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ustlookedateachot
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hal
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essedhi
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eheadonmi
ne
Lungel
o:"Imissedyou"Icouldn'
tfi
ndmyv oi
ce
wasstil
lshockedfrom seei
ngNkany i
so"
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you"andthereitwas
Me:"Ial
somi ssedy oubabyandIlov
eyou"he
pul
l
edmychai rIsatdownacrossNkanyiso
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meweal wayssi tnextt
oeachwhenweout
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sv oi
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il
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th
di
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ochuckl
ed
Lungel
o:"
craz
yri
ghtbuty
ep"
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ncewhenandwhydi
dn'
tyout
ell
me"
Lungel
o:"
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ncey
oumov edtoCape
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led
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ingmeyou'
vemov edtojhb"
Nka:
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no"Il
ookedatLungel
owhowaslooki
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ati
on
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ght
"
Lungel
o:"
wecan'
t?
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ngwecoul
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ly
ni
ght
"
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o:"
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omor
row"
Nka:
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ethermakedeci
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ory
ounow"
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hishasnot
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odowi
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ou"Isai
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bi
tt
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o:"I
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cklycovereditwi
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"
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ouwil
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etodr
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meofff
ir
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dn'
tbr
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"
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hingel
se
maybepregnancy
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casm wasdri
ppi
nginhi
s
voi
ce
Lungel
o:"
thi
nky
ouwoul
dknowi
fIhadababy
"
Nka:"
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waysabor
tit
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inkLungel
obrushedmyback
Lungel
o:"
youknowSi
noi
snothear
tl
esswhy
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dyouev
ensayt
hat
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azyt
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hingmuch"
Me:
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egnancy
"
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o:"
Idon'
thav
etogocl
ubbi
ngwi
thhi
m
hun"
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t'
sokgoI'm sur
enkany i
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eazygir
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Nka:"Si
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Lungelo
Me: "gohav efunwithy ourcousin"ourfood
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hu:
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ght
"
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hu:
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sint
own"
Me:
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nti
s"
Set
hu:
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eyou"
Me:
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mfi
ne"
Set
hu:
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tgetoutofcont
rol
becauseofhi
m"
Me:
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ustoneni
ghtr
elax"
Set
hu;
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ngt
oseebat
ho'
sgamewana
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eam he
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ual
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p
Me:"
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hinkthat
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ookedat
st
habi
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aughed
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so:
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thusBat
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that
e
you"
Me:
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hu:
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eav
esoon"
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l
o"
Nka:
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"
Me:
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"
Nka:
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eyou"
Me:
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m good"
Nka:
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ouandLungel
o"
Me:
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m sur
pri
sedIt
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oul
ovedme"
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ookyoursuggest
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ookthelov
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ld"hei
nhal
ed
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ply
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m sosorryl
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fulIhat
edmysel
f
thesecondt
hosewor dsgotoutofmymouth"
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m ov
eri
t"
Nka:
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m soso.
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m of
f
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oppedt
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l
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n
Nka:
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vemeachancet
ofi
xthi
ngsIl
ovey
ou
Si
no"
Me:"
no!
!!Youdon'
tgett
ocomeher
eanddo
t
hat"
Nka:
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e"
Me:
"no!
!"Idr
oppedt
hecal
lhedi
dn'
tcal
lagai
nI
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llberemi ndedofwhathedi dto
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met ocomedownIwor emyNi kerosher s
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amazi ngLungel ocall
edi nt hemi ddleofi tt old
him wher eIwashesai dIshoul dlethi m know
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callsfrom nkanyisoafterthegameweal lwent
outf orsundowner sthanBat howentt ohi s
placewewentbackt oourpl aceIcal led
Lungel oonourwaybackbyt het imewegott o
theapar tmenthewasst andi ngout sideIj ust
l
aughedandwentt ohi m.Wegoti nweal l spent
theni ghtintheloungewat chingt vandhav i
ng
drinksweal l
wentt obedl ateatni ght.
.
Thef oll
owingdayLungel
owokemeupwi t
h
breakfastinbedshamemymanwast ry
ingI'
ve
beent eachinghi
m howtomakeaki
ll
er
breakfastsincei
twhatweat
eall
theti
mei fwe
don'
tgooutori fSet
hudoesn'
tcook.Isatuphe
ki
ssedmyf oreheadandsatnextt
omecr ymea
ri
verwentoffmyphoneItookitandquickl
yput
i
tonsil
ent
Me:
"thanky
oubaby
"
Lungel
o:"
youwel
come,
whowascal
l
ing"
Me:
"insur
ance"hel
aughed
Lungel
o:"
youchangedy
ourr
ingt
one"
Me: "yeah"weateaf t
ereatingIwentt owash
thedishesthatwet ookabat hitwasahot
Sundaywehadt hebal conydooropenIwasi n
histshirtnpanti
eshewasj ustwearingboxers
wewer elay
ingonthebedont heopposi t
e
dir
ectionsbusywi t
hourschool workLungelois
smar tandImeanl ikereall
ysmar tnothard
workingsmar t.Aknockcamet hrough
Me:
"yeah"
Set
hu:
"youhav
eav
isi
tor
"
Me:
"who"
Set
hu:
"nkany
iso"
Lungel
o:"t
ellhi
mt ocomeup"Il ookedathim
aft
erafewmi nutesthedooropenednkany i
so
cameinhelookedatuspai nnangerf l
ashed
thr
oughhisfacebuthequicklycovereditagai
n
wit
haf akesmileLungel
odidn'tnoti
ce
Nka:
"di
dn'
tknowy
ouguy
sar
ebusy
"
Lungel
o:"
school
wor
kbr
uyouknow"
Me:"whatyoudoi
ngher
e"i
tcameacr
ossasi
fI
wasangryIhadn'
tev
enmeantf
ori
ttocome
acr
ossli
kethat
Lungel
o:"
Sino!
"
Nka:
"itok"
Me:
"sor
ryIdi
dn'
tmeani
tli
ket
hat
"
Nka:"
Ithoughtwecoul
dtal
kyouknowcat
ch
up"
Me:"don'
thav
etheti
me"Lungel
osatupand
pul
l
edmebymyl egcausi
ngt
hetshi
rtt
ogoup
showi
ngmypant
ies
Me:
"baby
!!
"Hechuckl
ed
Lungel
o: "
sor
rybabybuti
tnkanyi
sohedoesn'
t
l
ookaty ouli
kethat
"Iwasjustl
i
keli
tt
ledoyou
know
Nka:"
yeahIdon'
t"Lungel
odi
dn'
tcat
chhis
sar
casm butIdi
dLungelomademesitup
acr
osshimlooki
ngathim
Lungel
o:"Iknowthatyouangr
yathimfor
l
eavingandmay benotkeepi
ngint
ouchbut
honeyhisherenowhistry
ingmeethi
m
hal
fway"
Me:
"Lungel
o"Iwhi
nedheki
ssedmynose
Lungel
o:"
doi
tformehunok"
Me:
"ok"
Lungel
o:"
Ilov
eyou"
Me:
"lov
eyout
oo"
Nka:
"st
il
lher
e"t
heyl
aughedIwasj
usti
rr
it
ated
"
wecanhangsomeotherti
meIwi
l
lleav
eyou
t
wotoyourschool
work"
Me:
"okby
e"
Lungel
o:"
Sino"Ir
oll
edmyey
es
Me:"stayweweregoingt
otakeabr eakandgo
swim soonsostayI
'l
lgogetussomet hi
ngto
dri
nkifyouwanttoswimim sur
eLungelocan
borr
owy ouoneofhisswi
m shortsIdont"
Nka:"ohwecangot oSowet
oIheart
hereare
real
l
yniceshisany
amaplacest
herej
ustli
ke
Yandinbackathome"
Me:"t
houghty
ourhomei
sinCapeTown"I
st
atedsar
cast
ical
l
y
Nka:
"youknowwhatImean"
Lungel
o:"
giv
eusachancetogetdr
essedwi
l
l
meetyoudownst
air
ssoon"
Nka:"
ok"hewentoutLungel
olookedatmeI
j
ustgotofft
hebed
Lungel
o:"
andt
hathun"
Me: "
don'
tstar
t"hegotof
fthebedcameto
standnextt
omehehel dmychinti
lt
ingmy
headback
Lungel
o:"
whatgoi
ngon"
Me:"nothi
ngIguessI'
m overemot
ional
Ishoul
d
begetti
ngmyper i
odssoon"
Lungelo:
"okcomeher
e"hewrappedhi
sarms
aroundmybodywehugged"Il
oveyouok"
Me:" Iloveyoutoo"Ipulledbackweki ssed
bri
eflyt hangotdressedIwor eshortswithan
oversizedshirttuckedinloselyonthef r
ontand
al
lstar sweal ll
eftforSowetowehadacool
chi
ll
edSundayaf t
ernoonwel eftatni
ght
Lungel oandIspentt henightatmypl ace.
.
Thefol
lowingdaywewokeupgotr eadyfor
schooll
eftaf
terbreakf
astwhenwegotinclass
Teedohwasal r
eadythere
Teedoh:
"myfavor
it
ecoupl
e"hegav
emeahug
ngaveLungel
oawav e
Lungel
o:"
shomf
2"
Teedoh:
"ar
gLungelowhyy
oual
way
str
eatme
l
ikeaman"Ilaughed
Lungel
o:"
sor
ryma'
am"t
heyal
way
sdot
his
Teedoh:"
soundsbet
ter
"thespeakerwentoff
wealll
ookedatthef
rontandmyj awdropped
Lectr
:"morni
ngever
yoneim goi
ngt
obey
our
l
ecturerf
orthi
ssect
ion"
Teedoh:
"It
hinkmypant
iesj
ustgotwet
"
Me:
"indeed"
Lungel
o:"
excuseme"
Me:
"not
hing"
Teedoh:"t
hat'
sthehott
estf
ishI'
veseent
his
yearIcanalr
eadyimagi
nefryi
nghim"
Me:
"dude"t
heguywasdr
ippi
nghot
Lungel
o:"
excuseme"TeedohnIl
aughed
Teedoh:
"youwoul
dn'
tunder
standl
ungst
ar"
Me:
"itr
eal
l
ynot
hing"
Lungel
o:"
let
'shopeso"
Me:
"Il
ovey
ou"hechuckl
ed
Lungel
o:"
Iknow"
Me:
"cockyass"
Lungel
o:"
yourcockyass"
Me:"t
hatIlovesomuch"wewerel
ookingat
eachotherbr
eathi
ngoneachot
her
'sface
Lect
r:"
lov
ebi
rdsont
he3r
drowy
'al
ldone"I
l
ookeddown
Lungelo:"yeahal t
houghI dlovetokissherfi
rst
"
theclasslaughedt helecturerjustshookhi
s
headwentabouthi sbusi ness.After
managementwewentt oournextcl asswhich
i
smar ket
ingwehadi twithpear lLungel
owent
tohisnextcl ass.Nkanyisokeptoncal li
nghima
partofhi
m didn'
twanttoblockhisnumber,t
he
dayoncampuswentbyf astMonday'sare
al
way sbusy.WhenIgothomenkany isowas
parkedoutsi
deSethuwasnothomey etIgot
outmycardi dn'
tevengr
eethim hefoll
owedme
uptothedoor
Nka:
"Ineedt
otal
ktoy
ou"
Me: "
youwouldthinkwithmenotanswer i
ng
yourcall
syouwoul dgettheideathatIdon'
t
wanat al
ktoyou"Iopenedt hedoorwentupt o
myr oom hewasfollowi
ngme
Nka:
"Imi
ssy
oul
oveImessedupbi
gti
me"
Me:"
yesy
oudi
dbutI
'
m ov
eri
t"It
ookmyshoes
of
f
Nka:
"doesheknowaboutus"
Me:
"no"
Nka:
"whynot
"
Me:
"what
'st
hepoi
nt"
Nka: "sowhatI'
mj ustyourdi
rt
ysecretyou
nev erlov
edmeev enf r
om thebegi
nningyou
didn'twanttotel
lhim aboutuswhatdidyou
thinkitgoingt
omessupy ourchanceofbeing
withhi m"
Me:
"no"
Nka:
"I'
m goi
ngt
otel
lhi
m"
Me:
"don'
tyouf
uckndar
e"
Nka:"
whynot"hecameclosertomeImoved
backhekeptoncomingunti
lihadmybackon
thewal
l
Me:"
don'
trui
nthi
sformey
ouowemet
hat
much"
Nka:
"Idon'
towey
oumyhear
tbr
eak"
Me:
"yesy
oudo"
Nka:
"ar
eyouf
ucki
nghi
m"
Me:"
yes"heranhi
sfi
nger
sdownmycheekI
wasshi
veri
ng
Nka:"
thanhowcomeIcansti
llef
fecty
oulike
mydickist
heonl
ydi
cky ouknow"Iswall
owed
ahugelump
Me:"Im notandIdoknowhi sdi
ckwhi
ch
happenstobet hebestIev
erhad"
Nka: "
fucknliar"hesmashedhi sl i
pst omi neI
tri
edpushingbackbuthebi tmybot tom lipI
moanedandopenedmymout hIki ssedhi m
backweki ssedhar dteethcl ashi nghel i
ftedme
upandwal kedust ot hebedbef oreIev en
reali
zedwhatwasgoi ngwewer ebot hnakedi
waspushi nghi sheadmaki nghi m godeeperi n
mykushwhi leheat ei tl
ikether e'snot omor r
ow
suckingonmycl i
tuntilIfel
ti tget ti
ngswol l
enI
moanedl ouderwhenhesl i
dhi sf ingersi nme
whilehisotherhandwaspl ay ingwi t
hmyper ky
c-cupsmyni ppleswer ehardandachi ngIkept
onmoanhi snameoutwhenIr eachedmyj oyI
grabbedmycomf orterneedi ngt ohol dont o
somet hi
nghecamebackt of ace
Nka:"st
ill
themostbeauti
fulthi
ngIhaveev
er
seen"weki ssedf
uri
ousl
yIbithisl
iphar
dasI
fel
thim enteri
ngmehisdickmakingmygodly
wholeexpand
Nka:"you'v
ehadanot herdickmyassy our
pussystil
lcurvesformydi ckandmydickonl
y
l
ove"Iwr appedmyl egsaroundhiswaist
pushi
nghi mf urt
herunti
lhewasal li
nthepai
n
andpleasureIgotf r
om thatcausi
ngadeep
burni
ngsensat i
oninme
Nka:"
bloodyheel
loveI
'v
efoundmyni
rvana
agai
nIfeelcompl
eteagai
n"
Me:
"Nkapl
ease"
Nka:
"whatdoy
ouneedl
ove"
Me:"Ineedyout omoveplease"hestart
ed
movingslowlyhispacewaspickingupast i
me
wentonhemov edbackunti
lhewasal mostal l
outandthrustedbackinhar
dhisballsslapping
agai
nstmyski nIcri
edouthisnameev erytime
hediditunti
lIfoundmyreali
seitfel
tli
kea
neverendingjoyri
dehekeptonmov ingfast
screaminghowmuchhel ovesmeashecame
hardshoot i
ngall
hisloaddeepi
nmeandwi tha
fi
nal t
hrusthewenthardasifhewasmaki ng
hisspermsgodeeperi nt
omywomanhoodhe
gotoffmeandpul ledmet ohi
m butIjumped
offthebed
Me:
"nononono!
!!Youdon'
tgett
odot
hat
"
Nka:
"Si
no"hel
ookedatmeal
lconf
used
Me:"l
eave"hegotof fthebedandcamecloser
tome"stop!
!!FucknstopnkanyisoIwantyout
o
l
eavethi
swasami st
akeami st
akethatwi
ll
nev
erhappenagai n"
Nka:
"Si
nono"hepl
eaded
Me:"
Ilov
ehi
m Iwanty
out
ogetoutofher
eand
wal
koutofmyli
fe"
Nka:
"youchoosi
nghi
m ov
erme"
Me:
"yes"
Nka:
"fi
nef
ucknf
inegot
ohi
m seei
fIcar
e"
Me:
"gr
eatnowgo"
Nka: "
restassuredhewillhearaboutt
hisIwi
ll
tell
him everyt
hingandhowy ouki
ll
edmychild"
Ilookedathim withtear
sr unni
ngdownmyf ace
Me:
"youwoul
dn'
tdot
hatt
ohi
m"
Nka:
"wat
chme"hewasdoneget
ti
ngdr
essed
Me:
"Ihat
eyou"
Nka:
"good"
Me:
"getout
!!
!"Hewal
kedt
othedoor
Nka:
"youmightwantt
ocal
lhi
m andt
ell
him
nowbefor
eItel
lhi
m"
Me:
"If
ucknhat
eyou!
!"
Nka: "
greatcozthefeeli
ngi
sfucknmutuall
ove
Ifucknhateyout oo"hewal
kedoutthedoor
bangingitidroppedtomykneesandcried
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mykneespr opedupmyar mswr appedar ound
them andmychi nrestingont hem r ocki ng
my selfbackandf orthwhi leIcr i
edsi l
ent l
yaf ter
whatf eltl
ikeanhourIf el
tsomet hingcov ermy
bodyIr emember edt hatIwasnakedar ms
cir
cledar oundmybodyhi sscentf i
lledupmy
noseIj ustcr i
edi nhi sar ml i
kewhenIst opped
cryi
nghel etgoIhear dthebat hroom dooropen
andt hewat ergoi ngof fthescentf rom t he
cherryflavorf oam t hatIlov efill
edupt her oom
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tmov eIwasi nhisar mshe
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downont hef l
oorandj ustwat chedmesoaki ng
mybodyi nt hewat ernobodysai dany t
hing.
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toogr abbedat owel fr
om t her ai
l andwr apped
aroundmybodyhet ookmyhandandgui ded
meoutt hebat htub,hel otionedmeupputmei n
mypj s.Het uckedmei nt hebedki ssedmyl ips
sof
tl
y,hepushedmyhai
rback
Nka: "I'
m sosor rySinov uyoIl ovey oul ov eim so
i
nl ovewi t
hy ouithurts,itri
psmyhear toutof
mychestwhenIseey ouwi thhim, Ithoughtwe
wouldf i
nallygetachancet obet oget herwhenI
fi
nallyconv i
ncedmypar entsthatlettingme
studyher ewouldbegoodf ormyf utur eandI
comeher eonlytof i
ndy ouwi thhim Si nowi th
Lungel ooutofal l
people, Iwaspr epar edt hat
youmi ghtbewi thsomeonebutnothi m notmy
cousin, itwaswr ongofmet ojustleav el i
kethat
withoutanyexpl anati
onIhat edmy selff or
l
eav i
ngy oul i
keIcouldhav ehandl edt hewhol e
mov ingsi tuati
onbet t
er, Itr
iedconv i
nci ngmy
dadt ol etmest ayt oletmest aywi thl ungelo'
s
parent sandheagr eedbutaf tertheirfoundout
thaty ouwer epregnantev erythingchanged"I
satup
Me:"what.
..
..Whaty
oumeant
heyf
oundout
"
hesatup
Nka:"oneoft henursesthereknewmom and
shetoldmom t hatshesawmeandmygft here,
Itr
ieddenyingitbuttheydidn'
tbelievemeI
endedupt ell
i
ngt hetruthbutIt
oldhimi twas
anothergi
rlnotyouIgotabeat ingofmyl if
e"he
chuckledbit
terl
y"atmyagedadbeatt hel
ivi
ng
shi
toutofmedi dn'
tev enuseabel thewasall
aboutpunchesnki cksheonl ystoppedcoz
mom wascr yi
ng"
Me:
"I'
m sor
ry"
Nka:"
Ilovey ouSi
noIshoul
dhavet
oldyou
bef
oreIleftandwhatIsai
dtoyouwassocruel
"
Me: "
youlef
tmey ousai
dIshouldtakemyl ov
e
giv
eittoourdeadchi
ld"Iwhi
speredwithtear
s
fal
li
ngfrom myeyesatthememor yofhim
walki
ngawayfrom mewi t
houtevenlooki
ng
backatme
Nka:"
thatwast
he2ndbiggestmist
akeofmy
l
ifet
he1stwaslet
ti
ngyougot hr
oughwitht
he
abor
ti
onthatwasourchi
l
dSinoapar tofme
andyouIshoul
dhav
emanupandt
alkedy
ou
outofi
t"
Me:
"mymi
ndwasmadeup"
Nka: "
noi twasn' tIknowy ouSinoIknowt hatif
Ihadpushedandmadey ouseer easony ou
wouldn'thav egonet hr
oughwi thitbutIwast o
afrai
dofourpar ent sandt hatIwasn' treadyt o
beaf athery etIkeept hrowingi tony ourf ace
thatyoudi dim sosor r
ySi no"hest artedcr yi
ng
"youhav et oforgivemeIcan' tleavewi t
hmy sel
f
knowingI '
v ehurty ouknowi ngy ouhat eme"my
phoner angandl ungelo'spicf l
ashedonmy
screenIcl earedmyt hroatandpi ckedup
Me:
"hi
..
.Heybaby
"
Lungel
o:"
heyhuny
ouoky
oudon'
tsoundgood"
Me:
"I'
mfi
ne"
Lungel
o:"
you'
vebeencr
yingwhat
'
swr
ong"
Me:
"not
hingi
swr
ongbabyi
mfi
ne"hesi
ghed
Lungel
o:"
I'
ll
bet
her
esoonok"
Me:
"ok"
Lungel
o: "
act
uall
ycal
l
edtotelly
ouim att
hat
It
ali
anplaceyouli
kewhatshoul
dIgetyou"
Me:
"any
thi
ngbabyj
ustcomehomesoon"
Lungel
o:"
okIl
ovey
ou"
Me:"Il
oveyout
oo"Idr
oppedthecal
land
l
ookedatNkanyi
sohewasjustst
ari
ngatme
wi
thtearsr
unni
ngdownhisface
Nka:
"your
eal
l
ylov
ehi
m"
Me:
"yes"
Nka:
"andwhataboutmeSinoam Isupposedt
o
j
ustwalkawayf
rom you"
Me:
"youdi
ditonce"
Nka:
"younev
ergoi
ngt
ofor
vigemef
ort
hat
"
Me:"
Iwi
ll
event
uallybutri
ghtnowyouneedt
o
l
eav
eLungel
oisjustaroundthecor
ner
"
Nka:
"ev
ergoi
ngt
otel
lhi
m aboutus"
Me:"nother
e'snopoi
nti
ngi
nitandy
ouoweme
Nkanyi
so"hegotofft
hebed
Nka:"i
tyourdeci
sionwhet
hery
out
ell
him or
notbutIwon'tt
ell
him"
Me:
"thanky
ou"
Nka:" secret
shav eawayofcomi ngoutt hough"
hewal kedoutIgotoffthebedchangedt he
sheetst hanwentt osi
toutsi
debyt hebalcony
Lungel oboughtachairsowecansi tt
hereI
grabbedmygl assesnanov elwenttositthere
unti
lhecamewej ustchil
l
edafterhavi
ngdi nner
wesl ept .
.
Thef
oll
owingmor
ningLungel
owokemeuphe
hada12:
20nIhadamor ni
ngclass
Me:"
mor
ningbaby
"hesmi
l
edandki
ssedmy
ey
es
Lungel
o:"
morni
ngbeautif
ul"hegotont
opof
memyt hi
ghsaut
omatical
lyopenedhegot
bet
weent
hem
Lungel
o:"
homesweethome"al
aughbr
okeout
ofme
Me:
"youcr
azy
"
Lungel
o:"
itf
eel
sli
kehomet
ome"
Me: "yeahsure"Ir
oll
edmyey eshegavemea
dev i
l
ishgr i
nandbroughthi
sfacetominewe
kissedal ongpassi
onateki
sshestar
ted
rubbingonmykushIl etoutasoftmoan
Lungelo:
"Il
oveyou"hetookoffmypj topand
mov edfr
om mylipsst
artedpl
ant i
ngsoftki
sses
fr
om myj awli
netomyneckall overmy
stomachwhenhet ookmyshor tsoffI
screamedforhi
mt ostop
Lungel
o:"
wenotgonnagof arhunrel
ax"Iknew
thatwenotgonnagofarIknewwhathewas
aboutt
odoandi tf
reakedmeoutknowingIhad
sexwit
hnkaacoupleofhour sago
Me:
"I'
m gonnar
unl
ate"
Lungel o:"Iwon' ttakelong"hewentbackdownI
l
ett het ear sfall
asamoanwentoutofmy
mout hwi t houtmemeani ngtoomybody
betrayingmymor alstheguiltofhav i
nghis
tonguei nmewhi leIhadnkany i
so'sdickinme
toremepar tasIcamehar dwi t
hal oudmoanI
bodyj erkedf r
om t heaftershockofhav ingan
orgasim hecameupsmashedhi sl i
psonmi neI
partedmyl ipsweki ssedhar dhel etoutagroan
whenIsl ight l
ybithistongueher oll
edusoverI
gotont opofhi m withoutbrakingourkissI
pull
edbackandl ookedathi m
Me:
"Il
ovey
ousoomuchLungel
o"hesmi
l
ed
Lungel
o:"
Iknowhunnowgocl
eanupwhi
l
eI
makeyoubreakf
ast
"
Me:"ok"Igotoutofbedwenttobat
hIgotout
l
oti
onedandqui ckl
ygotdr
essedwent
downstai
rs
Me:
"don'
tbur
nourf
latdown"hel
aughed
Lungel
o:"
hav
eal
i
ttl
efai
th"Iki
ssedhi
scheek
pouredjui
ceforushefi
nishedupweateandI
l
eftdrovepastapharmcygotamorningaf
ter
pi
llt
hanwentt ocampusIfoundTeedohand
Pearlal
readyi
nclass
Me:
"heypeopl
e"
Teedoh:
"heyl
ove"Pear
lwav
ed
Pearl
:"Ihear
daboutt
hispl
acet
hatIwantust
o
checkoutonFri
day"
Me:"chi
l
di tTuesdayy oual
readyspeaki
ng
aboutFr
iday"theylaughed
Teedoh:
"whatpl
ace"
Pear
l:"
itadancehal
lcl
ub"
Me:
"I'
m soooi
n"
Teedoh:
"sowegott
ranspor
tgr
eat
"Il
aughed
Me:
"soi
mjustt
ranspor
t"
Teedoh:
"ki
nda"Ir
oll
edmyey
es
Me:
"ni
cet
oknow"
Pear
l:"sofr
idaythi
nky
oucangetawayf
rom
l
ungstar"Il
aughed
Me:
"yeahwi
thhi
scousi
nbei
ngher
eIcan"
Teedoh:
"hi
scousi
n?"
Me:
"yeah"
Teedoh:
"doeshel
ookany
thi
ngl
i
kel
ungst
ar"I
l
aughed
Me:
"hi
sst
rai
ghtl
ove"
Teedoh:
"what
ever
"
Pear
l:"
sodoeshel
ookl
i
kehi
m"TeedohandI
l
aughed
Me:
"hi
scool
"
Pear
l:"
act
ual
l
yinv
itet
hem f
orFr
idayni
ghtI
d
l
iket
omeethim"
Me:"
hehasagf
"Idon'
tev
enknowwher
ethat
camefr
om
Pear
l:"
ohwellthatsucksbutt
heycancome"
thel
ectur
ercamei n
Me:"we'
l
lsee"Iwhisperedthecl
asswentby
smoothl
yaft
erclassTeedohandIhadaf r
ee
per
iodwewenttochi l
lbytheopencaf
e
Me:"woul
ditbeweir
difIaskedyouify
ouknow
ofanygoodgynaouther
e"helaughed
Teedoh:
"cr
azyenoughi
m dat
ingone"
Me:
"li
ar!
"Hegi
ggl
ed
Teedoh:
"pr
omi
sey
ouwe'
l
lgoseehi
m af
ter
cl
ass"
Me: "
sure"i
ndeedwhenwewer edoneat tendi
ng
Teedohdirect
edmet ohisbf
'ssurgeryIgotmy
i
njecti
ondoneaf t
ertest
ingnegati
vef or
pregnancyweirdenoughim nothavingsexwith
mybfbutIf oundmy sel
fhavingtotakean
i
njecti
on.
.
Therestoft
heweekwentbyni
cel
yNkanyiso
remai
nedsil
entbesi
dest
heonesmshesent
Wednesdaysayi
ngheneedsmeIdi
dn'
treplyhe
di
dn'tsayanythi
ngaftert
hatItol
dLungelo
abouttheclubhetoldNkanyi
soandol wet
huso
nowt hewhole6ofuswer egoing.Aft
er
att
endingPearlTeedohandIwentt omyplaceI
metSet huatthedoorshewasgoi ngt
oPta
Teedoh:
"Ineedt
oseey
ourpar
ent
s"
Me:
"why
"
Teedoh:
"youandy
oursi
sterar
ehot
"Pear
lnI
l
aughed
Me:
"thanksIguess"
Pear
l:"
I'
m st
arv
ing"wewal
kedt
otheki
tchen
st
art
edmakinglunch
Teedoh:"i
fIdi
dn'
tknowbet
terI
'
dsayy
ou
pregnant
"
Pearl:
"tj
o!Nev
erSbuwoul
dki
l
lmei
fIgot
pregnant"
Teedoh:
"don'
tunder
standhowhehassexwi
th
youbutwouldki
ll
youifyoufel
lpr
egnant
"
Me:
"heshoul
dn'
tbeshov
inghi
sdi
cki
nyou"
Pear
l:"
youguy
swoul
dn'
tunder
stand"
Teedoh:
"yousodeser
vebet
tert
hant
hatguy
"
Pear
l:"
youguy
swoul
dn'
tunder
stand"
Teedoh:
"powerofagooddi
ckgame"
Me:
"what
"
Teedoh:"
whenthesexissogoodthati
thas
youallmessedupmist
akingl
ustf
orlov
e"
Me:
"oh"
Teedoh:"agooddi
ckgamewi
l
lfuckupy
our
emotions"
Me:
"that
smessedup"
Teedoh:"
Pear
ljustneedanewf
uckshe'
l
lget
oversbu"
Me: "
ayi"wechil
ledthanlaterwest
art
edgett
ing
readywewer echil
li
ngdownst ai
rswai
ti
ngfor
Lungelotheygotinafterawhil
e
Teedoh:"
Ineedtogotodurbanwhatdothey
feedyouguysther
e"hewhisper
edwhil
elooki
ng
atNkanyi
soIjustl
aughedgotuptoki
ssmy
man
Lungel
o:"heyHun"hegav
emeabi gfatwetone
whil
egrabbingmyassIwasinhighwai
stbum
short
snabr atopwepull
edbackwhenTeedoh
star
tedcomplai
ning
Me:
"heybaby
"
Lungel
o:"
youl
ookbeaut
if
ul"Igi
ggl
ed
Me: "TeedohnPear lt
hat '
sNkanyisoandthat'
s
olwethu"t heyall
greetedeachot herweleftI
rodewi thLungeloandTeedohi nlungel
o'
scar
theot hersusednkany i
so'swedr oveofftothe
clublisteningtomusic.Whengott her
ewe
grabbedat ablet
hemusi cwaspumpi ng
throught hespeakersthewhol eplacewasdar k
withfewl ightmov i
ngar oundpeoplewere
grindi
ngoneachot herwat chatthedancef l
oor
Lungel opul l
edmychai randsatnexttome
Lungel
o:"
whaty
ougonnadr
inkhun"hespoke
i
nmyear
Me: "
cir
ocnl
emonadewi
thl
i
me"heki
ssedmy
cheek
Lungel
o:"
Ilov
eyou"
Me:"
Ilov
ey oumore"whenever
yonesai
dwhat
t
heywantedtheboyswentt
obuy
Pear
l:"
ohmyGod!Nkany
isoi
ssohot
"Ij
ust
smil
ed
Teedoh:"
gir
ltel
lmeabouti
tSinohowdi
dyou
managebeingsurr
ondedbythetwooft
hem
yourwhol
elif
e"
Me:"theywerebot
hl i
kemybr othersunti
l
Lungelomademeseehi mi nadi f
ferentwayso
Isurv
ivedNkanyi
soisaplayerthoughIt hi
nk
youshouldtr
yolwethuPearly
ougonagethur t
i
fyougot her
ewithNkanyiso"
Pear
l:"
Icanhandl
emy
sel
f"
Me:
"or
ytdon'
tcomecr
yingt
ome"
Teedoh:" don'tbesonegat iv
eSi noletthegirl
ri
denkany i
so'sdick"Igavehim af akesmi l
e
l
ookedatt heywer egetti
ngalcohol theywere
makingt heirwaybackt ot hetablewhenone
gi
rlpressedherhandonl ungelo'
schestt hey
spokethanshet ookoutherphonet heyt
ooka
pi
cturetoget her
Olwethu:"
mrpoet
ryoverher
eisget
ti
ng
recogni
ti
on"t
heyl
aughedastheyweresi
tt
ing
down
Me:"i
sthatwhatt
hatwasabout
"Lungel
o
ki
ssedmycheek
Lungel
o:"
she'
sfr
om dbnhun"hedownpl
ayedi
t
Olwethu:
"itnotjustherpeoplewhoareint
o
poetr
yknowy oududenotj ustdbnpeopl
e"
Me:"Il
oveyou"hechuckl
edandpul
l
edme
cl
osertohi
m
Lungel
o:"
onlyy
ouhun"heknewIneedtohear
thatev
enbackathomewhengir
lsst
oppedhim
forpi
cturesorjusttot alksomeev eni nboxed
himtheirnumber shewoul djustsayonl yyou
hun,hekissedmyf oreheadandmi xedmydr i
nk
formePear lwasbusygi ggli
ngatwhat ever
Nkanyi
sowaswhi speringtoherbutt hewei r
d
thi
ngisthathekepthi seyesonme
Ol
wet hu:
"thi
sisnotacouplest
hingotherwi
se
I
'l
lbestuckherewithTeedohwemi ghtendup
makingout"welaughed
Teedoh:
"toobady
ounotmyt
ype"
Ol
wet
hu:
"ouchher
eIwast
hinki
ngI
'
llgetaki
ss"
Teedoh:
"nopey
out
ooshor
t"wel
aughed
Ol
wethu:
"letmestarthunt
ingt
henIneedt
o
st
icki
nmyr odgeri
nsomeone"
Teedoh:
"rodger
"
Ol
wet
hu:
"mycock"wel
aughed
Teedoh:
"younamey
ourdi
ck"
Ol
wet
hu:
"yesof
cosi
taper
sonev
ery
oneshoul
d
benamed"weal
ll
aughed
Me:"Lungelocal
lshi
sMi
ke"t
heboy
slaughed
Lungel
ogr oaned
Lungel
o:"
honey
!"
Teedoh:
"thef
uckl
ungst
ar"
Nka:
"Mi
kebr
areal
l
y"
Me: "
cozli
keMikeitl
ongnfiti
tcandomoves
thatwil
ll
eavey
ouaskingformore"Imi
micked
hisvoi
ceheputhishandovermymouth
Lungel
o:"
doyouevershutuphoney"he
removedhi
shandgavemeasof tpeck
Ol
wet
hu:
"pr
obabl
yonl
ywheny
ouont
opofher
"
Lungelo:
" oohshe'
sloudbrashebelikeaaah
Sibal
'
khulubusyscreamingmycl annamesli
ke
crazy
"Iflushedinembarrassmentwhil
e
every
onel aughed
Me:
"cozy
oudomegood"
Lungel
o:"
Ilov
eyouwoman"hesai
dsof
tl
ywe
ki
ssed
Teedoh:"
yer
rmani
justst
opy
out
woar
e
annoyi
ngnow"
Pear
l:"
don'
tbej
eal
ous"Ipul
l
edback
Me:
"jeal
ousyi
sanast
ycol
ourony
out
eedoh"
Teedoh:
"what
everbi
tch"Idon'
tknowwhenor
howbutall
ofasuddenPear l
andNkany
isol
ip
l
ocked
Me: "
let
'sgodancebaby "Rihanna-wor kplayed
j
ustashet ookmyhandl eadingont ot he
croweddancef l
oorhetur nedmear oundand
heldmywai stli
newest artedmov i
ngt ogether
gri
ndingoneachot herhepushedmyhead
downslight
lyIst ar
tedtwer kingwhent hesong
changedhet urnedmear oundagai nand
smashedhisl ipsonmi nepr essingourbodi es
toget
herthef eelofhiserectionsent
shockwavest hroughmybodyImoanedi nhis
mouthhegr abbedmyasst ighterhest art
ed
mov i
ngwhilehol di
ngmyassIf oll
owedhi slead
wemov edtogethertothemusict hefasterthe
bestwentthef asterhewentIheldont ohim
wanti
ngt oreali
set heachethatwasal lovermy
bodythealcohol andhavinghisbodypr essi
ng
onmel ikethatmademel oseallsenseIpul l
ed
backfrom hisli
ps
Me:"takemehomeIwantyou"hegr
oanedand
cl
osedhi sey
esshaki
nghi
sheadbef
orehe
openedthem
Lungelo:"I
'm notgonamakel ovet
oy ouforthe
fi
rsttimejustbecauseoft hecl
ubvi
beand
alcoholyoudeservebetterandourfi
rstti
me
togetherwil
lbeamazi ngwhenwebot hsoberI
l
ov eyou"Imel t
edinhisarms
Me:"
Iloveyout
ool
et'
ssi
tdown"wewentback
t
othetable
Pearl
:"y
out wosur
ecandance"wel
aughedI
tookadrink
Me:
"I'
l
lgot
othel
adi
es"
Lungel
o:"
wantmet
ocomewi
thy
ou"
Me: "I'
m ok"Iki
ssedhischeektookmybagand
l
eftthel i
newasn'tl
ongconsideri
ngi
taunisex
toi
letIgotinthestall
whenIwasabouttoclose
i
tsomeoneputt heirf
ootbythedoorandhegot
i
nlockedt hedooraf t
erhi
m myheartwas
beatingoutofmychest
Me:
"whatdoy
ouwant
"
Nka:
"you"
Me:
"whatdoy
oumean"
Nka:
"exact
lywhaty
out
hink"
Me: "
nkanopl easey oucan'tj
ust.
,"heshutme
upwi t
haki ssIt r
iedpushinghim backbuthe
di
dn'tmov einsteadhepoppedmybr eastoutof
myt opstar tedplayingwi t
hmyni pplesIl etout
amoan" fuckl ove"hegr oanedandshov edmy
breastinhismout hbi t
ingmyni pplesIhel dhis
head" nkapl ease"hel i
ckedmyneckupwhi l
e
workingonmyshor tstheydroppedt omyankel
alongIst eppedoutoft hem hebr oughthislips
backt omi neIunbuckl edhi sbel tand
unbuttonedhi sjeanspul lingthem downhe
beganonr ubbi ngmykushundermyt hongI
waspant i
ngashekeptonf li
ckinghi stongue
onmyni pplet hecol dnessofhi stonguer i
ng
drivi
ngmecr azy" nkapl ease"hel ookedatme
"whatdoy ouneedl ov e"" Ineedy oupl easeI
needy oui nmenkapl ease"het oreof fmy
thonglift
edmyt hi
ghupandsl i
di ntome" fuck
l
ov eitfeelsbet terev eryt ime"Igr abbedhi sass
pushinghi m deeperunt ilhewental l"f
uckme
hardernka"asi fhewaswai t
ingf ormydemand
hewental louthef uckedmel i
keourl iv
es
dependedoni tIscr eamedsol oudt hatpeopl e
beganbangi ngont hedoort hesoundoft he
musi cblastingt hesoundofpeopl ewast oo
l
oudbutIcoul dst il
lheart heslapsofourbodi es
ourmoansncr iesofpl easur ewer estil
ll
oudhe
putmedownaf terIgotmyi m orgasim and
turnedmet hanhesanki nt omehi shandwent
tothefrontplay
ingwithmycl i
twhi
let
heother
heldmei nplacewecr i
edouttoget
heraswe
cli
maxedt hansil
encefelluponuswhi
lewe
cleanedupandgotdr essedItookmytorn
pantyputitinmybag
Nka:"y
ouneedt
oleav
ehi
m"hebr
oket
he
si
lence
Me:
"IcantIl
ovehi
m"
Nka:
"youdon'
tl
ovehi
m andy
ouneedt
oleav
e
hi
m"
Me:
"Ican'
t"
Nka:"I
'
m notgonabet
heot
herguyt
haty
ou
cheatwit
h"
Me: "
I.
..
i"Ipushedmyhai
rback"
Ican'
t
nkanyi
so"
Nka:"
thel
ongeryoust
aywithhi
mthewor
seit
gonabehisgoi
ngtohurtmorel
eav
eSi
noim
nott
heotherguyi
tnotme"
Me:
"gi
veal
i
ttl
eti
mel
etmef
indt
her
ightt
ime"
Nka: "
ther
ewillnev
erbet
herightt
imedoit
soon"wewal kedoutt
hestal
kpeoplewere
star
ingatusandTeedohwasamongstt hose
peoplehelookedatusIl
ookeddown
Teedoh:
"Si
nowhatt
hef
uck"
Nka:
"itnoty
ourbusi
ness"
Teedoh:
"doesLungel
oknow"
Me:
"no"
Teedoh:
"youf
ucki
ngt
hem bot
h"
Nka:
"don'
ttal
kli
ket
hat
"
Me:
"Teedohpl
easeIcanexpl
aincanwet
alk
t
omorr
ow"
Nka:
"youdon'
towehi
m anexpl
anat
ion"
Me:
"cany
oushutup"
Teedoh:
"It
hinkI
'
llgot
ell
Lungel
o"
Me:
"Teedohno!
"Ist
art
edpani
cki
ng
Nka:
"youscar
ingherbr
aandI
'
llf
ucky
ouup"
Me:
"Nkany
isoj
ustst
opok"
Teedoh:
"si
nowhatar
eyoudoi
ng"
Me:"wewil
ltal
ktomor
rowbutpl
easedon'
ttel
l
any
oneplease"
Teedoh:"
mmh"hewenti
nthest
all
Ilookedat
Nkanyi
so
Me:
"cany
ounotpr
ovokehi
m pl
ease"
Nka:"Lungel
oneedst
oknowanywaysowecan
allmoveonwi t
hourl
i
veswi
thusbei
ng
toget
her"
Me: "
givemeti
me"hewaitedformetofi
xmy
facethanwewalkedoutwewentonopposi
te
dir
ecti
onsIwentbacktothet
ablewhi
lehewent
tothedancef
loor
Lungel
o:"
youbeengonel
onghuny
ouok"
Me:
"I'
m okbabyt
hel
i
newasl
ong"
Lungel
o:"
okwasstar
ti
ngtogetworri
ed"he
gavemeasoftpeckNkany
isosatdown
Me:
"sor
ryIwor
ri
edy
ou"
Lungel
o:"
it
'sokIl
ovey
ou"
Me:
"lov
eyout
oo"
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ewbyNkanyisoturnedit
downont hef li
rt
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l,byt
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l
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08/
12,
21:
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.
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slowlytofacehim andj ustadmi redhim
Lungelohadt hekindofcl eanbeaut yhewas
l
ightskinnedwi t
hsmal lfewf recklesaroundhis
nosey oucouldn'tseethem unl essy oulooked
closertohisface,besidest hosefreckleshis
facewascl eanwi t
hnospot s,hisunibrowwas
darksowashi shair.Il
ovedhi ml i
ket r
ulyloved
him whatIwasdoi ngwithNkany i
sowaski l
l
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meIdi dn' tev enknowwhatIwasdoi ngwi th
Nkany i
soIcoul dn' tunder standwhatkepton
drawi ngmet oNkany isot her ewasj ustthispull
factorabouthi m somet hingdar kandsexyt hat
madei tdi fficultformet osaynot ohi m.The
waymybr eathcaughtwhenhel ookedatme
withdesi ref lushingi nhi sey esandt hewaymy
hear twoul dbebeat i
ngoutofmychestwhenhe
camecl osert omeandhi st ouchf eltlikean
electricshotwasgoi ngt hroughmybodyt he
thingshedi dt omemademef eel sexywant ed
andal ittlenaught y .Itwasnowamont hafter
thewhol esexi nt het oilett hingatt hecl ubwi th
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didn'tmi sswast hecl assIhadwi thLungel o,
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meweev enhadi tint heci nemawe
wentt ocat chal atemov iebuti twassoempt y
sinceitwasdur ingt heweekandi twasl ate
nightweendedhav ingsext herewhenIgot
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tshir
tandgoti nt hebedhepul ledmecl osert o
him wesl ept .Everyt i
meNkany isoandIhadsex
Idtellmy selfitthel astt imeonlyt ofindmy sel
f
pantingwi thhi mi nme, ever
ytimehebegged
met ol eav eLungel obutIcoul dn'thet hr eatened
totellhim aboutusbutIknewhewoul dn'tcoz
thatmeanthewoul dl osebot hLungel oandI .I
avoidedTeedohev ersi ncethecl ubImadesur e
thatther e'snev erat i
mewher eitjustt het wous
eventual lyhegav eupt ry i
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l
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j
ustsai dIhopey ouknowwhaty oudoi ngt hat
wasi t.Sonowher eIam Idon' tev enr emember
whenorhowIf ellasleepIhadbeent ossi ngand
turni
ngt hewhol eni ghtcozIknewIhadno
choicebutt ot ellhim now.Thi sal lst
ar tedl ast
weekt heweekhadst artedoffgood, Lungel onI
wokeupMondaymor ninggotr eadyf orcampus
hadbreakf
astthanleftusi
nghiscaraft
er
att
endingwewentt othetatt
ooparl
orhehad
beenbeggingmef orustogetsamet at
toos
Me: "
I'
m scar
edbaby "helookedatmeand
smil
edIwassi tti
ngonthechairwatchinghi
m
hewassor elaxeditwasn'
tli
kehisgoing
thr
oughthepai nsofhavi
ngsomet hi
ngsharp
penetr
atehim
Lungel
o:"
yougonnabefi
nehunitnotpai
nful
"
theguywhowasdoinghi
stat
toolaughed
Me:"youseebabyhi
slaughi
ngcozheknows
youbull
shi
ti
ngme"
TatG:"
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l
ynotpai
nfull
ookatme"hi
swhol
e
toppartofhi
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edi
ninkhe
wasn'
tev enwear
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rt
Lungel
o:"
yougoi
ngt
obef
inehoneyIknowy
ou
wil
l"
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tknowbaby
"
Lungel
o:"
tr
ustme"i
twast
hoset
wowor
dst
hat
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onsden
cozIknewhewouldntl
etanyt
hinghur
tme
Me:
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rusty
ou"
Lungel
o:"goodnowcomehere"Iwentt
ohim
hepoint
edonhischeekIl
etoutagiggl
eand
ki
ssedhischeek
Me:
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ovey
ou"
Lungel
o:"
Ilov
eyout
ophun"
Tat
G:"
I'
m donei
tyourt
urnnow"
Me:"
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ostoodupandcuppedmyf
ace
gi
vi
ngmeashor twetki
ss
Lungelo:"
yougonnadogr eat
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owast alki
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enti
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i
t
Lungel
o:"
thi
sismor
ethanar
ingi
tasi
gnof
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mentthatcoul
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becauseyouwanacheatli
kearingcouldbe
takenoff
"hekissedmyfor
ehead
Me:
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ovey
ou"
Lungelo:"
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parl
orwenttohav eearl
ydinnerNkany i
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endedupswi tchi
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ndki ssi
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nedaroundwr appi
ngmyar msar oundhi s
neckwhilehehel dmybut t
Me:
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"
Lungelo:"
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sensualki
sshel if
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medownwhi leget ti
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ll
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ustaonceoft hingIwant edittobemydr ugI
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o:"
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feSino"hepul
l
ed
met ohi
m cl
oserhol
dingmeti
ghtly
Me:
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nyourl
i
fe"Iki
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hebot
tom ofhi
s
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n
Lungel
o:"
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l
yev
eraf
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air
ytal
e
endi
nghun"
Me:
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oumi
ne"
Lungel
o:"
thatwasamazi
ng"
Me:
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twas"
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o:"
GodIneedt
othankuncl
eZuko"I
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ggled
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ttal
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Lungel
o:"
IthinkI
'l
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racowst
ohi
mjust
formovi
ngy ourf
amilyt
odbn"
Me:
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d"i
yawned
Lungel
o:"
slephoney
"
Me: "
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ngemeli
sande-
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lywhil
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headIdrif
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.
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down
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ouok"hechuckl
ed
Teedoh:
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eyouok"
Me:
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"
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ovey
ouSi
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l
ed
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"
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lsaythatso
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othatpr
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sy ouwillknowi
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oveyou"
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eyouf
ucki
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hem bot
h"
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ort
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ngtol
ose
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hem bot
h"
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lar
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th
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edbr
u"he
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ossedhislegs
Teedoh: "
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dhim
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ythingfrom Nkanyi
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ngawayt o
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ousnight
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oll
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es
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art
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esh"
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"
Teedoh:
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"
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oveLungel
o"
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osehemi ghtaswellbehi
sbrother
"
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ovehi
m Teedoh"
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opbei
ngahoe"
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hat
'shar
sh"
Teedoh:"
that
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call
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ouareastupid
hoehowy ougonnasleepwi
thguy
sthatare
brot
hers"
Me:
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aul
t"
Teedoh:"
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llosi
ngy ourvir
ginityto
Nkanyi
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ati
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ory
out
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sh"
Teedoh:"
ther
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eryneednowIdsuggesty
ou
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ery
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Me:
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fewithwhosedickwoul dyourat
her
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ife"
Me:"
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i
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hi
m
Teedoh:
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ost
opf
ucki
ngNkany
iso"
Me:
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tdown"Il
ookedar
oundhel
aughed
Teedoh:
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na
toi
l
etataclub!
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aughed
Me:
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ouscr
eam t
hatshi
tlouder
"
Teedoh:
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ell
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i
ke
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rassment
Me:
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u!"Hel
aughed
Teedoh:
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ter
"
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ttel
lyout
hat
"
Teedoh:
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"
Me:
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u"
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ggl
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het abl
e
Teedoh:
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ff
erenthow"
Me: "
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Teedoh:
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azyov
er
you"
Me:
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aughed
Me:"f
ucky
oubr
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ttel
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ingy
out
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l
aughed
Teedoh:"
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ear
e
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ynotjustsomerandom boy
s"
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l
liml
eav
ingnkany
iso"
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er
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ikef
oryou
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e
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Lungel
o:"
heyhun"
Me:
"hi
babyt
hisi
sbeaut
if
ul"
Lungel
o:"
yousti
llt
hemostbeaut
if
ulthi
ngi
n
thi
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ushednsmil
ed
Me:"
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Lungel
o:"
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oser
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vi
ngmeasoftpeck
Me:"thankyoubaby
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ome
Lungel
o:"
notsur
ehowev
ery
thi
ngt
ast
esbutI
tr
ied"
Me:
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ed
Lungel
o:"
yeah"Il
aughed
Me: "
impossible"hel aughedandst ar
teddi
shing
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h
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h
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nghet ookmyhand
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Me:
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oucookedhhu"hel
aughed
Lungel
o:"
yes"
Me:
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ar"hel
aughedt
hrowi
nghi
sheadback
Lungel
o:"okbutIspentener
gygoi
ngt
obuy
theset
hings"
Me:
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oubabyi
twasamazi
ng"
Lungel
o:"
Ilov
eyou"
Me:
"Il
ovey
oumor
e"
Lungel
o:"
impossi
ble"Il
aughed
Me:
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hebest
"
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yf ory
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'
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Me:
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Lungel o: "Il
oveyou"hewi pedmyt earsand
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ni
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abbedmykush
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ibr
aryon
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fIhadthiscorner
thatIstudiedati
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ndIl etoutascream whensomeoneki ssed
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Me:
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hef
uckar
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ngher
e"
Nka:"Imi
ssedy
ouandyouhav
en'
tbeen
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ngmycall
sorr
epl
yi
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ssi
nce
Sunday"
Me:
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enf
indme"hesmi
rked
Nka:
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ndmyi
Phone"
Me:"noyoudidn'
t!
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tht
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i
gnor
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ghed
Me:
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tdot
hisany
mor
e"
Nka:
"no"
Me:
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"
Nka:
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!!Si
nov
uyo"
Me:
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ovehi
m"
Nka:"sowhatam Iy ourpl
ayt hingthi
nky oucan
usemekeeppr omisi
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ve
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yi twasst ar
ti
ngt o
scareme
Me:
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isopl
ease"hebangedt
het
abl
e
Nka:
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ouSi
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t
ome"
Me:"
youknowIl
ovehimI'
vebeent
ell
i
ngyou
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nceyoucamet
ojhb"hel
if
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ng
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essi
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lcagi
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Me:
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emoti
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rstI
l
oveyouGoddamit
!"Tear
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ng
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Me:
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ryNkabutt
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ouneed
t
omov eon"
Nka:"
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noandyou
knowthatyourheartismi
net
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Me:"
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easej
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e
l
etmego"
Nka:"
no!You.
are.
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zedeach
word
Me:"
I'
m hi
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eryway
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ookeddeepl
yin
myeyes
Nka:
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edI
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rom hi
m
Me:
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ease"
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s
Me: "goodI dr atherhavey ouhat emet hanl ove
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l i
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ng
Me:"t
hiscan'
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ngnkany
isoi
t
hur
ti
ngme"
Nka:
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m sor
ryI
'
llst
opi
tnotf
airofme"
hi
svoicewashusky
Me:
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ovey
ounkany
iso"
Nka:"
buty
oui
nlov
ewi
thhi
myoul
ovehi
m
more"
Me: "
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ft
edmeoffhi
mthan
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Nka: "
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wokeupIwasi nlungelo'
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.
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l
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tt
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Teedoh:
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m sosor
rySi
nobbe"
Me: "
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een
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noi
t'
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ougoi
ngt
obeok"
Me:"
howTeedohi
tont
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ucki
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nter
netwho
woul
ddothi
s"
Teedoh:"
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ng
Me:"howcoul
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ingi
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Teedoh:"
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ear
edmyt
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Me:
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l
o"
Nka:
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e"hewaspanicki
ng"stayt
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ng"Icoul
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ng
Me:
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sed
Nka:
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ou'
veseeni
t"
Me:
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Nka:"Pl
ztel
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old
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m
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edmetohis
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ap
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yloveIshoul
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thi
nkingbutIdidn'
tthi
nksomeonewouldsee
usletalonetapeus"
Me:
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Teedoh:
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acedoesn'
tshowSi
noonl
y
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iso'
sisv
isi
ble"
Nka:
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ovenoonecant
ell
ity
ou"
Me:
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dtel
l
"!
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hat'
sbecauseIknowyouandIsaw
youyester
daywearingthatdr
esspeopl
ewon'
t
fi
gureoutity
ou"
Nka:"
I'
m sosor
ryl
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dtakei
taway
"
Ij
ustcoul
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tst
opcryi
ng
Me:"you.
..
..
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ttel
li
tme"
Teedohkneel
ednexttous
Teedoh:"we'
l
lgochangey
ourhai
randbur
nthat
dress"Igi
ggl
ed
Me: "
whatabouty
ou"Il
ookedatNkahr
chuckled
Nka:"i
twon'
tdoanydamagel oveim aguyI
mightj
ustgetacoupleofgir
lsaf
tert
his"I
fr
ownedatthethoughtofnkanyi
sobeingwit
h
someone
Teedoh:"don'
tdothatgi
rly
ougotLungelo"I
j
ustletoutaloudsobatthethoughtofl
ungel
o
Me:"i
f..
..I
fheseest hi
shewil
lknowi
tmehe
..
..
.Hewi l
lknownkanyiso.
..
.OhGod"nkanyi
so
hel
dmet i
ghter"
hisgoi
ngtohatemehewill
l
eaveme"
Nka:
"Ialreadyr
epor
tedi
tonf
acebooki
tgoi
ng
t
obet akendown"
Me:"y
ouwon'tgoarounddel
eti
ngitfr
om
peopl
e'
sphoneift
heirhav
eitsaved"
Nka:"
I'
m sor
rylov
e"Ijustcriedunti
lIhadno
t
earswejustst
ayedinsilenceuntil
teedoht
ook
myhandgetti
ngmeof fnkany i
so'sl
ap
Teedoh;"enoughwi ththet earsl
etsgo"hetook
met owashmyf acet henweal ll
eftIworeahat
nglassesgirl
swer est ari
ngatnkany isoaswe
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mycarwewentt ot hesal oonIchangedmyhai r
i
ntoashor tcurl
yPer uv i
anf r
idgethenIwentto
drophim offwentbackhome.
Soherewear ei
nbedi mjuststar
ingathi
m
wonderi
nghowt otell
him coznowitnotl
ikeI
gotachoicebutt
ot el
lhi
m
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08/
12,
21:
23]Wadz
:Inser
t12
.
Lungelo:
"you'
vebeenstari
ngatmeforawhi
le
nowhunwhat '
sgoingon"Igiggl
edner
vousl
y
hi
sey esweresti
l
lclosed
Me: "
youjustt
hemostgorgeousguyI'
veev
er
seen"hechuckl
edandopenedhiseyes
Lungelo:
"youcan'
tsayaguyi
sgor
geous"be
fl
ippedusoverandgotbet
weenmylegs
Me:
"wel
lyoumygor
geousbae"hel
aughed
Lungel
o:"
andy oumygor geouswomanwhoi s
goingt
ogivemegor geousbabiesandwe
gonnabeabunchofgor geousDl ami
nis"I
l
aughedhekissedthespacebet weenmyey es
Me:
"thatwoul
dbeamazi
ng"
Lungel
o:"
wanat
alkt
ome"
Me:
"about
"
Lungelo:
"what
'sbot
her
ingy
ou,
youhar
dlysl
ept
l
astnight"
Me:
"I'
mfi
ne"
Lungel
o:"
don'
thi
det
hingsf
rom me"
Me:
"im nothi
dingany
thi
ng"
Lungel
o:"
sot
ell
mewhat
'sbot
her
ingy
ou"
Me:"not
hingbabyki
ssme"hegav
emeasof
t
peckIfr
owned
Lungel
o:"
tal
ktome"
Me:
"whaty
oudoi
ngt
oday
"
Lungel
o:"
don'
tdot
hat
"
Me:
"itnot
hingbabyIpr
omi
se"
Lungel
o:"
ok"
Me:
"sot
oday
"
Lungel
o:"
thoughtI
'
dgot
ocampusgetsome
not
esIneedt
ost
artst
udy
ingexamsst
artnext
week"
Me:"
teedoh'
smom i
shav
ingapar
tywana
comewithme"
Lungel
o:"
wanagot
oSowet
o"
Me:
"yeah"
Lungel
o:"
okwecango"
Me:
"or
yt"
Lungelo:"
I'
ll
gotothecampusfi
rstt
hanwecan
golaterorI'
l
lmeetyouther
e"
Me:
"ohokt
hat
'scool
"
Lungel
o: "
Ifeel
li
kenowthatwe'vest
artedI
can'
tgetenoughofyou"hestart
edkissi
ngmy
neckgoingupbehindmyearIletoutamoan
Me:"notnowbaby"hepoutedandIl
etouta
l
oudlaughpushinghi
m offme"ascut
ensad
asyoulooknotnowbabygetoffme"
Lungel
o:"
butbabyIwanty
ouf
eel
that
"he
movedhishiphi
serect
iondi
ggi
ngonmyt
high
t
hroughhisboyl
eg
Me:"t
onight"af
terseei
ngthetapeIjustcoul
dn'
t
t
heguiltandfearIcoul
dn'
tevenkisshim
wi
thouttear
swant i
ngtocomeout
Lungel
o:"
okoki
geti
t"her
oll
edov
erIgotof
f
thebed
Me:"
I'
ll
star
tonbreakf
astwhi
l
eyoucl
eanup"
heal
sogotofft
hebed
Lungelo:"
yesma'am"hespankedmyassI
giggl
edandwentt otheki
tchenhewal kedout
thebedroom t
otheloungeopenedt r
aceTory
Lanez-sayitwasplayi
nghet urnedupthe
volumetothemax i
mum Iwat chedhim si
ngi
ng
ndancingmakinghiswayt ome
Lungelo:
"wipethatgoof
ysmil
eanddancewi t
h
mewoman"Igi ggl
edashetookmyhandwe
dancedtothesongwhi l
esi
ngingnrappi
ng
al
ongwhent hesongwasoverheli
ft
edmeof f
spi
nningmear oundIheldt
hebackofhishead
thr
ewmyheadbackl
aughi
ngwhenhef
inal
l
y
putmedowniwasdi
zzy
Lungelo:"
Iloveyou"hesmashedhislipson
mineweki ssedhungri
lyheli
ft
edmeupI
wrappedmyl egsaroundhiswaistIpull
edback
whenIf el
thisdi
ckt wi
tchi
nghelaughedandlet
meslidedownhi mt othefl
oor
Me: "goclean"hegavemeasof tpeckandwent
aboutcleaningwhil
eImadebr eakf
ast.Af
ter
breakfasthegotreadyandl
eftforcampusI
wasst il
lwatchi
ngtvwhenaknockcame
throughIwentt ocheckwhoi
ti s
Me:
"ohhey
"
Gi
rl
:"hi
"Ir
aisedmyey
ebr
ow
Me:
"canIhel
p"
Gi
rl
:"uhm y
essor
ryf
orzoni
ngout
"
Me:
"itcool
"
Gir
l:"
Iuhm camet oaski
fIcoul
dgetsome
sugar"Ichuckl
ed
Me: "
sur
ecomei
n"shecamei
niwal
kedt
othe
ki
tchen
Gi
rl
:"soy
out
hegf
"
Me:
"yeah"
Gi
rl
:"cool
"Igav
ehersugar"
thanks"
Me:
"youwel
come"
Gi
rl
:"uhm soy
ouandLungel
o"
Me:
"meandLungel
o?"
Gi
rl
:"makeacut
ecoupl
e"
Me:
"thanks"
Gi
rl
:"y
ouguy
sbeent
oget
herf
orl
ong"
Me:
"yesI
'
m ki
ndofbusydoy
oumi
nd"
Gir
l:"
ohokbye"shewal kedoutIl ockedthe
doorwentbacktowat chingtv.Around13:00I
wenttothebathgotoutl ot
ionedgotdressedi
n
anavy3quarterspencilski
rtwithamat chi
ng
l
osecroptopandsandl asIputonmakeup
fi
xedmyweav egotmybagandl eftasIwas
l
ockingupt hedoort hegirl
whocamef orsugar
al
ongwi t
hanot hergirlwerestandi
ngbyt he
doornexttoOlwet hu'sroom theyl
ookedatme
whil
ewhisperingamongstt hemselv
esIjust
smil
edandwav edt henwalkedt ot
heelevator
.I
gotdownt othepar kinggotinmycaranddr ove
offt
oTeedoh' shousewhenIgott hereIcal
led
hi
mt ocomegett hereandhecame
Teedoh:
"lookaty
ou"Ismi
l
ed
Me:
"whatf
or"wehugged
Teedoh:
"youl
ookbeaut
if
ul"
Me:
"sodoy
ouboo"
Teedoh: "comemeetmyf amil
y"wewal kedin
thehouset herewasahuger edstrechtent
outsideithadcouchesnhi ghchai
rswith
cocktail
tabl es,heint
roducedmet ohisfamily
thenwewentouthewant edmet omeethi s
brotherwhenwegott owherehewaswi thother
guysTeedohpul l
edhim asi
de
Teedoh:"
well
Sinothisi
smybrotherJuni
or"
j
uniorsmil
edreveal
i
nghisper
fectwhit
eteet
h
Juni
or:"
soyouthefamousSi
nothatmybrot
her
can'
tshutupabout
"hetookmyhandthan
ki
ssedmycheek
Me:
"Iguesst
hatwoul
dbeme"
Juni
or:
"youasbeaut
if
ulashesai
d"whi
l
est
il
l
l
osti
nhissmileavoi
cewentoff
Voi
ce:"
jay
"weal
ltur
nedt
olookathershewas
maki
ngherwayt
ous
Juni
or:
"yeahwhatsphe"
Sphe:
"dadi
scal
l
ingy
ou"
Juni
or:
"I'
l
lseeyoul
aterSi
no"hesmil
edagai
n
andpatt
edTeedoh'
sshoul
derthanwal
ked
away
Me:
"mmh"Teedohgi
ggl
ed
Teedoh:
"comey ougotenoughshi
tgoi
ngon
wit
houtputt
ingJayi
nthemi x"wel
aughedwent
togetsomet hingtodr i
nkjustmingledwith
peoplethepartyst ar
tedlat
eronLungel ocall
ed
aski
ngf ordi
rect i
onsTeedohsenti ttohim.I
waschi l
li
ngbyt hecocktailt
ablewithTeedoh
andsomeofhi scousi nwhenLungel ocall
ed
sayi
nghi soutsideIwentt ohim onmywayt o
him Ibumpedi ntoJunior
Juni
or:
"Si
nohi
"
Me:"
Juni
orhi"hel
aughedmyGod!Hi
slaugh
hadmesmil
ingli
keafool
Juni
or:
"guessIsawthatcomi
ngany
wayl
et'
s
tr
yJayeveryonecal
l
smeJay "
Me:
"okJay
"
Jay
:"soTeedoht
ell
smey
ouatwi
ts"
Me:
"yeahpsy
cst
udent1sty
ear
"
Jay
:"y
ouwi
l
lgetmenexty
earIt
eachr
esear
ch"
Me:
"cool
lookIgotgo"
Jay
:"shoti
m st
il
lbusyany
wayl
etst
alkl
ater
neh"her
aisedhi
soneey
ebr
ow
Me: "sur
e"hewi nkedandwalkedawayIstood
therewatchi
nghi m whenhewasaboutt oturn
helookedbackatmeandl etoutalaughwitha
saluteandturnedacornerIshookmyheadand
wentt oLungelohegotouthiscarwhenhesaw
meappr oaching
Lungel
o:"
heyHun"heki
ssedmyhead
Me:
"howwascampusbaby
"
Lungel
o:"
goodt
oomuchwor
kIneedadr
ink"I
gi
ggled
Me:"l
et'
sgoin"het
ookmyhandandwewal
ked
backtothet
ent
Teedoh:
"awul
ungst
ar"
Lungel
o:"
shomf
2"
Teedoh:"
argther
ewego"t heyl
aughedIleft
them t
herewenttogetLungel
oadrinkatthe
barweallchi
l
led.Lungel
owasbusywhi sper
ing
thethi
ngshewant stodotomewhenwewent
backt
ohispl
aceIwasgi
ggl
i
ngshyl
ywhenJay
cametouswit
hanamusementl
ookonhi
sface
Jay:"
themeati sreadyTeedohim sureyour
sandt
onf ri
endsdon'twanastayherelonger
thantheyhaveto"Lungelomovedf r
om myear
hehadn'tnoti
cedJay
Teedoh:"
youjustl
i
ket
hatkeunnecessar
y
drama"herol
l
edhisey
esJaychuckled
Jay:
"I'
mjokingman"hel
ookedatLungel
o"i
m
Jayhisbr
other"
Lungel
o:"
Lungel
ohi
sfr
iend"t
heyshookhands
Teedoh:
"herboy
fri
end"
Jay:
"ni
ce"hel
eftandTeedohf
oll
owedaf
ter
hi
m
Lungel
o:"
wel
lhi
sabi
trude"t
heot
her
slaughed
Cuz1:
"hejustdoesn'tknowwhattosay
someti
mes"Ijustsmi l
edLungelowentbackto
myearhewant edust oleaveimmedi
atelybutI
sti
l
lwantedtostay.Aftereat
ingwestayedabit
l
ongerthanl ef
tonceitgotreal
l
ydark.Whenwe
gottohisplaceIsawnkany i
so'
scaratthe
parki
nglotLungelocamet omycaropeningmy
dooraft
erhepar ked
Me:
"Nkany
isoi
sher
e"
Lungel
o:"
yeshecal
ledwhil
eIwasdr
ivi
ngIt
old
hi
mt owaitwi
thol
wethu"
Me; "
ok"wewentupwegoti nLungel okissed
myheadandsai dhewi l
l gochill
wi ththem in
Olwethu' sfl
atItoldhim ok.Wentt obat hgotin
mypj sIt ookat hrowgotagl assofwi newent
towat cht vti
mewentby2hour spassed
Lungelowasst il
lnotbackIwassl owl ydri
fti
ng
offtosl eepuntilsomeoneopenedt hedoor
widelyandapi ssedoffLungelof oll
owedby
Nkany i
soandol wethustormedi nt hekitchenI
tookaconf usedlookatt hem Lungel owas
breathingf i
reNkanyisocouldn'tl
ookmei nthe
eyes
Lungel
o:"
tel
lmei
tnott
rue"Ist
oodup
Me:"
whatyoutal
kingabout"hehadhi
sphone
i
nhishandhethr
ewi tacr
osstheroom i
thi
tthe
wal
lnbrokei
ntopieces
Lungel
o:"
tel
lmeNkanyi
soistel
l
ingt
het
rut
h
whenhesaysthat
'
snotyou"
Me:
"thati
tnotmei
nwhat
"
Lungel
o:"
fuckof
fSi
nov
uyost
oppl
ayi
ngst
upi
d"
Me:"babyIai
n'
tpl
ayi
ngatany
thi
ngwhat
'
s
goi
ngon"
Lungel
o: "
what '
sgoingwhat'
sgoingt
hatfuckn
vi
deoofNkany i
sohavingsexwit
hagirl
isgoing
onIcouldn'tseeyourfacebuti
dknowyou
anywhere"
Me:"
babyI.
,"t
ear
sst
art
edr
unni
ngdownmy
f
aceIshookmyhead
Nka:
"itnotherLungel
oIt
oldy
ou"
Lungelo:"don'
tfucknl
ietome!
!"Her oar
edhis
faceturnedredsamet i
meIdon'tknowwhat
happenedIbl i
nkedthenextmi
nuteLungelo
wasont opofNkany i
sobeatingt heliv
ingshit
outofhi m Nkany i
sowasn'tfightingbackI
screamedf orLungelotostopbutmywor dsfel
l
ondeafear solwethuandIt r
iedpul l
ingthem
apar tbutLungelopushedmebackwi thso
muchf orcethatIhitmyshoul deront hecorner
ont hecount erIcr
iedoutinpai nitwasl i
ke
somet hingwentof fNkanyisoaf tert
hat
happenedheshov edLungeloof fhim and
foughtbackOl wethu'
sroommat eJust i
ncame
i
nt heymanagedt opullthem apar t
Lungel
o: "
youtworui
nedmey oufucknrui
nedI
l
ovedy oubothyoutwowerethemost
i
mpor t
antpeoplei
nmyl i
feandy'
allf
uckn
rui
nedy '
al
lbrokeme"
Me:"I
'
m sor
ryLungel
o"Itr
iedgoi
ngtohi
m but
hehel
dhishandupIstoppedmoving
Lungelo:"
IfucknlovedyouSinoandyoudothat
tomewi thmybr otherofal
lpeopl
emyown
blood"hecryi
ngandbl oodwascomingoutof
hi
smout
hnnose
Me:
"I'
m sosor
rybabyi
m sosor
ry"Icr
iedout
Lungel
o:"you!"Hepoi
ntedtoNkanyi
so" y
ou
knewIlovedherbutyoujusthadtofuckheri
n
afucknli
braryNkayoudon'tevenr
especther
e"
Nka:
"Idor
especthery
ouf
ool
"hespatout
Lungelo:"youknewhowIf eltforherI'
velov
ed
hersincepr i
mar ybutyoualway stoldmeweal l
famil
ysoImustnotmakemov esonherand
yougoanddot hat"hesatdown" tome
Nkany i
sotomeNkany i
soy ourbrotheryouj
ust
hadtohav ehercoul dn'
tletmebehappy"hel et
outasobbel i
evemeIdi edat housanddeaths
atthatsight
Nka:
"Ial
sol
oveher
"
Lungel
o:"si
ncewhenehyoufel
lforhert
heday
youfoundoutwetoget
hercozyouwerenever
i
nlovewithherbef
ore"
Nka:
"Im sor
ryy
ouhur
ti
ngi
m sor
ryy
ouhadt
o
f
indoutl
i
kethisweshouldhav
etol
dyoualong
t
imeago"Lungel
olookedatmethr
oughhi
s
t
ears
Lungelo:"alongt i
meago?!Thi
swasn'
taone
ti
met hing"Ilookedawayhestoodupnkany
iso
backedupol wet huhel
dLungel
oback
Nka:
"Il
oveherbrui
tnotmyf aul
twebot
hfel
l
f
orher,
Idi
dn'tpl
antofal
lforher
"
Me:
"Lungel
opl
ease"
Lungel
o: "
IlovedyouSinowit
hallofmyheartI
wouldhav eneverdonethi
stoyouIgaveyouall
ofmedi dn'thol
dbackaninchbutall
alongyou
busyfuckingmybr ot
her"
Me:
"I'
m sor
ry"
Lungelo:"
IhateyoubothandwhenIcomeback
Iwanty '
al
loutofmyplace"hewalkedout
OlwethuandJustinfol
l
owedafterthem when
thedoorclosednkanyi
socamet ome
Me:
"don'
ttouchme!
!"
Nka:
"Si
no"hepl
eaded
Me;"
hehatesmeIlovehi
m andhehat
esme
t
hisi
sal
lyourfaul
t"
Nka:
"Si
nopl
easey
ouhur
ti
ngme"
Me: "andyouthinkI'
m nothur
tinghefuckn
hatesme! !Andital
lyourfaul
tyoushouldhave
stayedindbnoutofourl i
veswewer ehappy
beforeyoucameher el
ikeastorm wi
thyour
destruct
ivenature"
Nka:
"si
nopl
ease"hecr
iedout
Me:
"justl
eav
ejustgetoutandnev
erl
ookback"
Nka:"
Ineedt
omakesur
eyouokt
haty
our
shoul
deri
snothur
t"
Me:
"I'
mfi
nej
ustl
eav
ejustgoaway
"henodded
Nka:
"Il
ovey
ou"
Me:
"Idon'
twanty
ourl
ove"
Nka:
"oh"hewalkedoutIgotof
fthef
loorwent
t
othebedroom grabbedl
ungel
o'
shoodymy
phoneandkeysIl
eftwhenIgottomypl
ace
Sethuwasther
ewatchi
ngtvwithst
habi
so
Sethu:"
Sino"shejumpedofft
hecouchand
rushedtomeIl etoutaf
ewheav ybreat
hs
beforeIdroppedtomykneesstart
edwai l
i
ng
sheheldme
Me:"heshoul
dhavest
ayedi
nCapeTown"I
sai
dbetweensobs
Set
hu:
"sshi
toki
tok"
Me:"
Ihat
ehi
mi tal
lhi
sfaul
tal
lhedoesi
sbr
ing
mi
seryi
nmyli
fe"
Set
hu:
"I'
m sor
ryy
ouhur
ti
ngsi
s"
Me:"Lungel
olef
tmebecauseofhi
m Lungel
o
hat
esmenow"
Sethu:"
Lungeloistooinlov
ewi
thyouhewi
l
l
for
giveyou"shestoodupandpull
edmeupled
met omyr oom shetuckedmei
n
Set
hu:"Il
ovey
ouncinci
kadaddythi
swill
pass"
sheki
ssedmycheekandwalkedoutaf
ter
swi
tchi
ngof
fthel
i
ght
sIsl
ept
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08/
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21:
23]Wadz
:Inser
t13
.
Iwokeupt hefoll
owingdaybecausemyphone
wasr i
ngingitwasnkany isoIjustdecl
ined
checkedt heti
mei twasst i
llear
lyIcouldmake
i
ttochur chwhenwemov edher edaddyfounda
churchforust hat'
sclosertoourplace.Igotof
f
thebedwor emyr obewentt osethu'
sroom I
knocked
St
habi
so:
"yes"
Me:
"uhm mor
ningi
sSet
hust
il
lasl
eep"
St
habi
so:
"yes"
Me:"ohwant
edt
oaski
fshewant
edt
ocomet
o
chur
chornot
"
St
habi
so:
"wegoi
ngI
'
llwakeherupsoon"
Me:"
okbye"Iwentbackt
omyr oom madet
he
bedwentt
obathIgotout
,gotdressedi
nmy
bodyhuggingwhitedressblackny
lonsand
bl
ackheelsfixedupmyweav ecoveredmyhead
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r sstar
tedon
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astSethuandsthabisocamei nasIwas
di
shingup
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hu:"I
'
m sur
pri
sedyouuphowy
ouf
eel
i
ng"I
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uggedmyshoulder
s
Me:"
I'
m okthere'
sr eall
ynopointincryi
ngover
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hingIcan'tchangeImessedupbi gti
me
madeami st
akeIcan' tundobutlessonlear
nt
nowI'
m movingon"
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habiso:
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aughedweal
lsatdown
st
art
edeating
Set
hu:
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dbepr
oud"
Me:"ofy
oushacki
ngupwi
thst
habi
so"st
habi
so
l
aughed
Sethu:"
hey!Of
cosnotbutofyouyou'
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normall
yyouwouldj
ustfi
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nst
eadof
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ngupt
othesi
tuat
ion"
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meIdi dto"we
fi
nishedeat ingandl ef
tusingst habiso'
scar .
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cewasamazi ngitmadememi ss
dad'spr eaching,af
terchurchIswi tchedmy
phoneonIhadsomanymi ssedcallsandt exts
from nkany i
somost lysayingsor ryothers
askingwhyam Inotopeni ngdoorcozheknows
I'
mi nhecanseemycari nt heparkinglot.Ij
ust
sighedswi tchedmyphoneof fagainwewentt o
haveluncht henwentbackhomewhenwegot
therenkany isowasi nhiscarhecameoutas
soonasIgotoutofst habiso'scar
Nka:
"hey
"
Me:
"hi
"
Nka:
"howi
syourshoul
der
"
Me:"i
tfi
ne"Il
i
edi
twasf
ucknpai
nful
and
br
uised
Set
hu:
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no"Il
ookedatherandnodded
Me:
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l
lseey
ouar
ound"Ist
art
edwal
ki
ngaway
Nka:
"Si
nov
uyodon'
tdot
hispl
ease"
Me:
"justl
eti
tgonkany
iso"
Nka:
"Ican'
tl
eav
eknowi
ngy
ouhat
eme"
Me:"Idon'
that
eyouandi tnotyourf
aul
twe
bot
hmessedupbuti tcoolbye"Iwal
kedint
ook
anel
ev at
oruptoourapartment
Set
hu:
"youok"
Me: "
yeahI'
m goodI'
ll
gonapsoIcanwakeup
studyIneedtostar
twithi
tmyf
ir
stpaperi
s
nextweekTuesday"
Set
hu:
"ok"
Me:
"by
est
habi
soandt
hanksf
orl
unch"
Sthabi
so:"
youwel
come"Ismiledwentuptomy
room It
ookoffmycl
othesoutonatanktop
andslept
.
Iwokeawhil
elat
erwenttot
heki
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oget
snackssoIcanst
artwi
thmybooksbutwe
wereoutIhuf f
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s
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opswentt otheshopsIpluggedmy
earphonetookat r
oll
eywhilebusyshoppingI
hitsomeonewi thmytroll
ey
Me:"
I'
m sososorr
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aughedI
br
oughtmyeyesuptol
ookathi
m Ij
ustsmi
l
ed
Jay
:"pani
cmuch"
Me:
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tpay
ingat
tent
ion"
Jay:"
youneedtotakebackyourl
i
censewher
e
everyouboughti
t"Igi
ggl
ed
Me:
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tbest
upi
d"hegaspeddr
amat
ical
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y
Jay
:"y
ouknowy
oucan'
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lal
ect
urerst
upi
d"
Me:
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ect
ureroutofcampus"
Jay:
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ingthatI
'
llhol
dyout
oit
oneday"Ilaughedshakingmyhead
Me:
"cool
"
Jay:
"youlookbeaut
if
ulbyt
hewayt
otal
l
ypr
efer
youwithoutmakeup"
Me: "
thankyouJaynby eJay"Ilef
thim
chuckli
ngwentaboutmybusi nessthenIwent
backtomypl ace.Ispentt
herestofthedayn
ni
ghtstudyi
ng.
.
Ispentthewhol eweekstudyi
ngallIdi
dwas
study,eat,swim,watchtv
,gotochurchand
sleep.Myphonehasbeenof fsinceSundayi
t
wasnowSat ur
daywhenSethucamei nmy
room talki
ngt othephone
Set
hu: "
yesdadshe'
sfi
nei
texam t
imeher
eshe
i
s"Itookthephone
Me:
"heydaddy
"
Dad:"nci
nciwhat
'
sgoingwe'
vebeent
ryi
ngt
o
cal
lyouthewholeweekdi
dyoulosey
our
phone"hetal
kedfast
Me:"slowdowndaddyimfinej
ustbeenbusy
gett
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ormyexam ngoingtochurchmy
phonehasbeenoffcozIdon'
twantdist
urbance
butI
'
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ner
eal
l
y"Iassur
edhi
m hesi
ghed
Dad:
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ourmom andIwer
ereal
l
ywor
ri
ed"
Me:"I
'
m sorr
yDadyIshoul
dhavekepti
ntouch
oratl
eastt
oldy
'al
lthatmyphonewoul
dbeoff"
Dad:
"oknci
nci
gobacktostudy
ingbutcal
l
homeever
ynowandthan"
Me:
"Iwi
l
lIpr
omi
se"
Dad:
"Il
ovey
ounci
nci
"
Me:
"Il
ovey
out
oodaddysendmyl
ovet
omom"
Dad:"Iwi
llbye"Icall
edSethushecamet otake
herphone.Iswitchmyphoneont ext
snmi ssed
call
scamef l
oodingmost l
yfrom nkanyi
son
Teedohbutwasr eal
l
ysurpri
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s
soIcall
edhim backandhepi ckedafterIcall
ed
the2ndti
me
Lungel
o:"
hel
l
o"
Me:
"uhm hi
sor
ryIwokey
ouup"
Lungel
o:"
itcool
"Ihear
dsomeshuf
fl
ingl
i
kehe
wassi
tt
ingup
Me:
"howar
eyou"
Lungel
o:"
I'
mfi
newhati
sthi
sabout
"
Me:
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ourmi
ssedcal
l
"
Lungel
o:"
ohjaIneedmyclothesandmybooks
thatar
eatyourpl
ace"myheartsank
Me:
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l
lbr
ingt
hem by
"
Lungel
o:"
goodt
heny
oucangety
ourt
hingsas
well
"
Me:
"I'
m onmyway
"
Lungelo: "
sure"hedroppedt hecallIgotoffthe
bedwentt owashmyf acerinsedmymout hI
packeduphi sclot
hesnbooksi nhisduffl
ebag
thanIgotdr essedinbl ackleatherminiskir
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thatwast ightfi
tti
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andl ef
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ll
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Iswall
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t
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o:"
hicomei
n"hemadewayIwenti
n
Me:"
hii
gotyourt
hings"hetookt
hebagand
wal
kedt
ohisbedr
oom Ifoll
owedhim
Lungel
o:"
youl
ookbeaut
if
ul"Ismi
l
ed
Me:
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ou"
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o:"youwelcome,youcanstar
tpacking"I
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lebagfrom mypartoft
hecloset
star
tedpacki
ngupmyt hi
ng
Lungel
o:"
howar
eyou"
Me:
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mfi
nej
ustmi
ssy
ou"
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o:"Imeantyourshoul
derIreal
l
yfeel
bad
fort
hatIshoul
dn'thaveshov
edy ouoffl
i
kethat
Iwasjustsoangry"
Me:
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t"
Lungel
o:"
sor
ry"
Me:
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mtheonewhosesor
ry"
Lungelo:"
don'
tbe"heputonhi ssweat pants
"giv
emeashoutwheny oudoneI 'l
lbeat
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s"Inoddedhewal kedoutIcont i
nued
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earsrunningdownmyf aceI
fi
nishedpacki
ngandl eftIsenthim ansms
sayingIwasdoneanddr oveoff.Igottomy
placecri
edmy sel
ftosleep.
.
Ispenttherestoft
heday sstudyi
ng.TuesdayI
wenttowr i
temyf i
rstpaperi
twentreall
ywel l
,
ti
mef l
ewby2weeksl aterIwaswrit
ingmyl ast
paperwhichhappenedt obemanagement
TeedohandIwer eattheecamsv enuewai t
ing
forti
met ogetinwhenIsawLungel otal
kingto
someboy shewasl aughinghelooked
gorgeousandcarefree
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"youmi
sshi
m"
Me:
"itgetwor
seev
ery
day
"
Teedoh:
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ytal
ki
nghi
mint
ofi
xi
ngt
hings"
Me: "Idon'
tthi
nkIwanttoIt
hinkI'
m donewi
th
thedlaminiboystheonl
ythi
ngIwishwecould
wor konisourfri
endshi
pbutIdon'
tseemysel
f
beingwi t
honeoft hem"
Teedoh:
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amini
boy s"wesighedthan
l
ookedateachotherweletoutaloudlaugh
Me:
"janehshi
thappens"
Teedoh:
"youwi
l
lfi
nebbe"
Me:
"Igoty
ou"
Teedoh:
"yesandIl
ovey
ou"
Me:
"lov
eyout
ooboo"
Teedoh:"
wedon'
thavet
oworryabouty
ou
messingusupwi
thsexcozy
ounotmyt ype"
welaughed
Me:"y
oual
sonotmyt
ypey
oubi
tch"we
l
aughed
Teedoh:
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ouhoe"peopl
est
art
edmaki
ng
thei
rwayi nweputournotesinmycarwel eft
.
Thepaperwentbysmoot hlyLungelogotout
fi
rstaft
erawhil
eIfol
lowedIwentt omycarto
waitforTeedohev
entual
lyhegotout
Teedoh:"
yohbbeIneedadr
ink"Il
aughedwe
gotinIdr
oveoff
Me:
"met
oo"
Teedoh:
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'shi
tacl
ubt
oni
ght
"
Me:
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textPear
l"het
ext
ed
Teedoh:
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eanaf t
ernoon
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onsowewentt oteedoh'
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upanovernightbagwewenttogetPear l
ather
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place
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l:"
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sl eaveearl
ysowecanst
artatt
his
i
ndyclubtheirhaveopenmi
csonFri
day"
Me:"
ok"soaftereat
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ackankel
grazerhi
ghwai stj
eanswithblack
br
atopandblackbfblazerwithl
i
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osI
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ysome
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ngingsomet ell
ingjokesitwasal lfununt
il
Lungelogotonthest agemybr eathcaught
whent hespotl
ighthithim hewassobeaut i
ful
i
nsimpl einkj
eansahoodyt shirtand
superstar
s
Teedoh:
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t"
Me:
"yeah"
Teedoh:
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eav
eify
ouwantt
o"
Pear
l:"
yeah"Pear
ldidn'
tknowwhatwasgoi
ng
onshejustknewthatwehadabadbreakup
Me:"i
tfi
ne"Lungel
ogr
eetedacoupl
eof
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eamsgotasmi l
eoutofhi
m
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o:"
I'
m sur
eev
eryoneherehasbeenin
l
ovebefor
esomearecurrent
lyi
nlove"peopl
e
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lsaidimi nlovewit
hyou
andhel aughednwi nked"Iwasoncesomadl y
i
nl ovethatIgotblindedbelievemei tsucked
bigtimefucknbr okemyhear ttopieces"
anothergir
lscreamedI '
l
lmendy ourheart
Lungelohesmi ledandsai dcatchmewhenI '
m
doneher e
Me:"okI'm done"Igul pedmydr i
nkt ookmybag
asIpushedt hechai rbacki nanat temptt o
l
eavehesai donewor dandIst oppedhewent
onaboutbet rayal
,aboutl ovingsomeoneonl yto
fi
ndoutt hei
rnotwhaty outhoughtt hei rwere,
aboutbeingcheat edonandcheat ing, about
pray
ingforsomeonewhoi sn'tpr ayingf oryou,
aboutfeeli
ngl i
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l
comingoutasal oser,aboutbei nghur tbythe
mosti mportantpersoni nyourl ife,hisl ast
sent
encewas' tr
uel ovenev erfadesr egardl
ess
ofbeinghurtandhumi liat
ed' .Byt het i
mehe
wasdoneIwasi ntearshegotof fthest age
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wentt
osi tbyt
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eOl
wet
huandhi
s
ot
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iendSivesat
.
Teedoh:
"youokbbe"
Me: "
yes"Pearlwentt
ogetmor edri
nksandI
drank.Laterwelef
twenttoKongtheplacewas
l
ithadt hewholeambi
tiouscr
ewperforming
Teedoh:"
lookatthem thi
rst
yhoes"hepoi
nted
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lsther
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ngmore
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nthanneccessarytheytabl
ehadonebottl
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:"t
ryi
ngtodrawi
nbl
esser
swi
tht
hatone
bott
le"welaughed
Me:
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hegi
rlgett
hei
rli
ves"
Teedoh:"
itt
hosegi
rl
sthatbeouther
efucki
ng
ourfat
hers"
Me: "
theirdon'tf
orcethem,whyi
sitt
hatsoci
ety
i
st ooquicktoblamet hewomanwhenshehas
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nev erymen'snat
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"
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l:"
that
'sj
usthowt
hingsar
e"
Me:"
welli
tfucknsucks,
ifIsl
eepwi
thaguy
si
mplybecauseIwanthim"
Teedoh:
"youahoe"hecutmeof
fwel
aughed
Me: "exactl
ybutifaguydoest hesameheget s
praised,whycan'tIsimplygot othecl
ubpick
upguy sbr i
ngthem tomypl acef uckt
hem than
sendt hem packinginthemor ningwit
houteven
offeri
ngt hem coff
ee"
Teedoh:
"hoet
endenci
esr
ightt
her
e!"Il
aughed
Me:
"shutup"
Pear
l:"
thatj
ustt
hewayt
hingsar
e"
Me: "
itt
hesestupidideologi
esthatweget
taughtgr
owingupf orawomansexmust
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t
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cal pl
easure,
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alkaboutort
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lyexper
ienced
whenitcomestosexi
tataboo"
Teedoh:
" pr
eachbabygi
rl
"Ishowedhi
m my
middl
efinger
Pearl:"
agi r
lcangetrappedandthesociet
ywill
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ngshewas
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dressedupnot
evenshowi ngherarmsnoonewi l
lwanthercoz
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scoveredupthat'
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thement all
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Voice:"
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e'sadif
fer
encebet
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nedtoseewhois
tal
kinganditwasbatho
Me:
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handwahey
"
Bat
ho:
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egi
rl
"hepul
l
edmeupand
gav
emeahug
Me:
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eyou"
Bat
ho:"
I'
m goodcomejoi
nusmyf ri
endsandI
ar
eseat
edupatthatsect
ion"hepoi
ntedt
othe
v
ipsect
ion
Me:
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iends"It
urnedt
olookat
t
hem theybot
hnodded
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eatcomeI '
vemissedyou"hetookmy
handandweal l
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tyhe
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oducedusto
everyonether
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sther
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nexttomeandl ookedatme
Me:
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"
Bat
ho:
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if
ul"Ibl
ushed
Me:
"thanky
ou"
Bat
ho:
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l
lbeback"heki
ssedmyheadandgot
up
Teedoh:"
andhowdoy
ouknowt
her
ugbyguy
"I
gi
ggled
Me:
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rom backathome"
Teedoh:
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ucknhat
eyou"
Pear
l:"
met
oo"wel
aughedBat
hocameback
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lst
art
eddr
inki
ng
Bat
ho:
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ethi
ngs"
Me:
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ustf
ini
shedmyexams"
Bat
ho:
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otewel
l
"
Me:
"yeah"
Bat
ho:
"st
il
lseei
ngLungel
o"
Me:
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dn'
twor
kout
"
Bat
ho:
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Me:
"what
"hechuckl
ed
Bat
ho:
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ry"
Me:"
yeahri
ght
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oll
edmyey
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emea
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n
Bat
ho:
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lyouaf
tert
his"
Me:
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hinkI
'
dli
ket
hat
"
Bat
ho:"coolI
'
vemi ssedyou"Ij
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ni
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Phi
we:"l
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sgota
br
other
"welaughed
Me:
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l
otoy
out
oSi
mphi
we"
Phi
we:
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eyou"
Me:
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m goodnowt
hatexamsar
eov
er"
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we:
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otewel
l
"
Me:
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d,wher
ear
eyou?
"Hel
aughed
Phi
we:
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kof
cos"
Me:
"or
yti
m onmyway
"
Phi
we:
"youcomi
ngt
oPE"
Me:
"yes"
Phi
we:
"gr
eat
!"Il
aughed
Me:"
hol
dont heent
husi
asm Idi
dn'
tknowy
ou
mi
ssmet hatmuch"
Phiwe:"
justgl
adI
'
llhav
esomeonet
ocl
eanand
cookforme"
Me:
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dyour
sel
fboyy
ouknowIcan'
tcook"
Phi
we:"t
here'
sat
woweekscooki
ngcour
se
her
eI'
l
ltakeyout
oit
"
Me:
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'swoul
dbesogr
eat
"
Phiwe:"
cool
leav
enowIdon'
twanty
oudr
ivi
ng
atnight
"
Me:
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ovey
ou"
Phiwe:"l
oveyoutoosis"Idroppedthecallgot
offmybedpackedupasui t
casenduf fl
ebagI
tookabathgotdressedinsweat pant
sat ank
topandallst
arsItookmybagdownst ai
rsthen
wenttosethu'
sroom shewasn' tdonewith
examsandshewasn' tgoinghomeshehad
pract
ical
s
Me:
"heyI
'
mleav
ing"
Set
hu:
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nghome"
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oPhi
we"
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hu:
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rav
elsaf
ely
"
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etmecal ldaddy "Icall
edhi
m puthim on
l
oudspeakerwepr ayedf orasafej
ourneythanI
l
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hedoor
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ncilookatyouallgrown"Il
aughed
andpulledoutofhischesttoldhimtogetmy
bagsimt ir
edIjustwanasleep,Igavehi
m my
keyshepar kedmycarinthegar agewewentin
heleftmyt hi
ngsintheroom Iwasgoingtouse
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we:"we'
l
lcat
chupt
omor
rowaf
terwor
kgo
sl
eep"
Me:
"or
yt"
Phiwe:
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m gl
adyouher
e"heki
ssedmyhead
"y
oulookbiggery
ou'
vegai
nedweight
"
Me:
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resseat
ing"
Phi
we:
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ght
"
Me:"ni
ght
"Ichangedintomypj
sandsl
eptaf
ter
t
ell
i
ngdaddyi hadar
ri
v ed.
.
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i
twasspot l
essmybr otherisacleanfr
eak,I
tookabathhadbreakfastthanjustchi
ll
edthe
wholedaywatchi
ngtvmyphonewasof fandI
waspl anni
ngtokeepi
toffthewhol
eholi
day
s.
WhenPhi wecamebackfrom homehehad
broughttakeawayswi
thhim.Hewenttobath
camebackweat e
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we:
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e"hegav
emebooksnanot
epad
Me:
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rey
ouser
ious"
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we:"yepi
twil
lkeepyouenter
tai
nedandy
ou
wil
lgai
nsomethi
ngitst
artst
omor r
ow"
Me:
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gPhi
weIj
ustf
ini
shedmyexams"
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we:
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l
ldoy
ougoodi
tonl
yfort
woweeks"
Me:
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ne"hesmi
l
ed
Phiwe:
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tbebuy
ingt
akeawayal
lthe
ti
mewhi l
ey ouher
e"
Me:
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l
lbegr
atef
ul"hechuckl
ed
Phi
we:
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ost
il
lgood"
Me:
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ndabr
okeup"
Phi
we:
"ohwhathappened"
me:
"rat
hernott
alkabouti
t"
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we:
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e"
Me:
"yep"
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we:"cool"wechi
ll
edunt
ilhehadt
ogoto
sl
eepIstayeduplat
ereadi
ngonmybooks.
.
Thef oll
owingdayIwentt otheschoolitwas
real
lyniceuntilwehadt otenderi
zeand
mar i
nateturkeythesmelloflemonnher bshad
mer unningintothenearestbathr
oom threwup
everythi
ngIhadi nmyst omachwhenIwas
doneIwentt ori
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ng
outsi
de
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ouok"
Me:
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'
llbef
ine"
Guy
:"I
'
m mav
u"
Me:
"Si
no"
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:"y
ousur
eyouok"
Me:
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Guy:
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erwasthesamewhenshewas
pr
egnantcer
tainsmel
lsjustt
ri
gger
edi
t"
Me:
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m notpr
egnant
"
Mav u: "
ohsor rymybadt han"wewal kedback
tothecl asshemov edtomyst ati
onandhel ped
meoutaf terclasshet ookmeoutf orl unch
showi ngmear ound.Ther estoftheweekwas
cool mav ut ookmet oadi ff
erentplaceev er
yday
certai
nt hingsmademev omi tl
ikethisot herday
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tothebat hroom Ij ustthr ewupi nabi nmav u
keptonsay ingImi ghtbepr egnantbutIknew
thatwasi mpossi blesinceIwast akingan
i
njectionandInev ermi ssedadat e.Anot her
weekl aterIwasdonewi thmycour sePhi we
tookoutt ocel ebrat ewewentshoppi ngt hat'
s
whenIr ealizedt hatIgai nedaj eansi zemyday
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ustgotf uckedupImeannoonewant st ogain
weight
.Aft
ershoppi
ngwewenttomuggnbean
Igotabaconncheesebur
gerbutIcoul
dn'
t
stomachit
Phi
we:"okt
hat
'si
timt
aki
ngy
out
othedoct
or"
hecal
l
edawaiter
Me:
"I'
mfi
ne"
Phi
we:"
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ookaty
ou"thewait
ercame
Phi
weaskedhi
mtopackupourfoodandbri
ng
usabi
l
l
Me:
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m okPhi
we"
Phiwe:
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ngupallt
he
ti
meandy oulookpalewhi
chiswei
rdfora
bl
ackperson"Ichuckl
ed
Me: "
oklet
's"goourfoodcamebackhepaid
andweleft.Whenwegott othedoct
orIwenti
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Itol
dhim whatwashappeninghemademe
takeapregnancytestwhi
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cul
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:"wel
lcongr
atul
ati
ons"
Me:
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ng"
Dr
:"y
oupr
egnant
"Ichuckl
ed
Me:
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tbul
l
shi
tme"
Dr
:"excuseme"
Me:
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rybutI
'
m onacont
racept
ion"
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:"i
tnot100%"
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'
m pr
egnantnahdoanot
hert
est
"
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:"wecandoanul
tr
asound"
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i
d"wedidandi
twas
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irmedIwas10weekspregnant
Me:"canImakeanappoi
ntmentf
oran
abor
tion"
Dr:"
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eImeany
oushoul
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east
t
hinkitover
"
Me:
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e'snot
hingt
othi
nkabout
"
Dr:"wedon'tdoabort
ionI'
l
lgiv
eanumbery ou
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onthatdoctorwil
l
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fer
entprocedur
esand
giveanopinionofwhat'
sthebestone"
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ou"
Dr:"
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butt
onandt hesoundcameof fIheardmy
baby'
shear t
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ookedatme
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hinkabouti
t"Inoddedicleanedup
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andthecardfortheotherdoct
or
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hanky
ou"hesmi
l
edandnoddedIwal
ked
outt
oPhiwe
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we:
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we:
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'swr
ong"
me:
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omachbug"
Phiwe:"
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sarm
aroundmyshoul
derki
ssedmyheadwewal ked
outwenttot
hepharmacyIgotmymedi cat
ion
wewentbacktothehouseIwentstr
aightt
omy
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osleepIkeptt hi
nking
ofhowmypar ent
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aket hi
st hemost
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couldn'tbelungelo'scozweal way suseda
condom Imeanwhatwer ethechancesand
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brokebuti talsomeanti m gonnabest uckwith
nkanyiso.
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elat
erIwentt
owash
myf acenrinsemymout
hthanIwentt
ohi
min
thelounge
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we:
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otal
k"
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m al
lear
s"
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we:
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inganabor
ti
on"
Me:"what.
..Excuseme?
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ookedathi
m al
l
shocked
Phiwe:"
Iknowyoupr
egnantandt
haty
ou
thi
nki
ngofhavi
nganabort
ion"
Me:
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m not
"
Phiwe:"
don'
tli
etome"her
oar
edIl
ookeddown
"Lut
handotol
dme"
Me:
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ightt
odot
hat
"
Phiwe:"hi
sphel
okazi
'
sbr
otherhewaswor
ri
ed"
phelokazi
ishi
sgf
Me:"
sti
ll
hadnor i
ghtt
otal
kaboutmybusi
ness
l
iket
hatIcansuehim!
"
Phiwe:"eyidon'
tmakemybl oodboilchil
dy ou
toospoiltbusytalki
ngaboutyourri
ght sand
suingpeople"Istoodup" y
oubettersityourass
downbef oreIstartbeat
ingyou"Isatdown
Me:
"sor
ry"hesi
ghed
Phiwe:"
whathaveyougot t
enyour
sel
fin"I
star
tedcry
inghecamet owhereIwassitt
ing
andheldme"mom i sgoingtoki
ll
mePhi we
anddaddywill
besodisappoint
ed"
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we: "
theywil
lfor
giveyoubuttheywi
l
lnev
er
for
giv
ey ouify
ouhav eanabort
ion"
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m nothav
ingi
tIhear
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shear
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wet
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nme"hel
aughed
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we:"
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ngf
ora
boy
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aughedthroughmytear
s
Me:"
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tknow"hehel
dmet
ight
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ng
me
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we:"
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woar
egoi
ngt
obef
ineI
'
llmake
sur
eofi
t"
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hankyouIl ovey ouPhi
we:"Il
ovey ou
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ltellmom ndadtogether
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.
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lowi
ngdayshewas
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umpingonmybedIl
aughedandsatup
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ooksl
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ssed"shel
aughed
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hu:
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enoi
dea"
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somi
ssedy
ou"
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nginter
est
inghappened"I
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l
ingherbutSet
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ngIneededwashersnitchi
ng
onme
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l
ledwi
thPhi
wet
ooka
cooki
ngclass"
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hu:"
great
!!I
'
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ngf
ory
ou"I
l
aughed
Me:
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welll
etmeleav
eIgotbeinPt
ainan
hoursthabi
so'
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acehost
ingal
uncht
o
cel
ebratehi
spromoti
on"
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omot
iont
hat
'
sgr
eat
"
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adder
soonI'
llbeaceo'
swi
fe"Il
aughed
Me: "
yourmotherwouldki
lly
ouifsheheardyou
saythatshewouldrat
heryousay'soonmy
husbandwill
sayI'
m marri
edtoadoct or
'not
thatway"welaughed
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ue"shej
umpedof
fthebed"
seey
ou
tomorr
owsis"
Me:
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ivesaf
ely
"
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hu:
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oul
ovey
ou"
Me:
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eyout
oo"
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ohyourboy
fri
endsbeenbl
owingupthe
housephoneandcameherealmostever
yday"
shelaughed
Me:
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hoft
hem"
Set
hu:
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hesamet
ime"
Me: "i
di ots"wel aughedshewal kedoutI
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ing
him weshoul dmeetuphesai dwe'l
lmeetat
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vi
ntagej eanshor t
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l
osel ynbl ockheel sletmybr ai
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smal llongbl ondebraidstookmybagnl eft
whenIgott omuggnbeanhewasal readyhe
stoodupandgav emeat i
ghthug
Teedoh:"
I'
vemissedyoubbeandIhopethi
s
shi
tofyouswit
chingoffy
ourphoneisov
er"I
l
aughed
Me:
"itov
er"
Teedoh:"
goodcozI'
vemissedyouandIsee
holi
dayst
reat
edyouwellyoul
ookbigger"I
rol
ledmyeyesthewait
ercamewepl acedour
orders
Me:
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'sbecauseI
'
m pr
egnant
"hesqueal
ed
Teedoh:
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oul
yi
ng"Igi
ggl
ed
Me:
"Iwi
sh"
Teedoh:
"who"
Me:
"hast
obeNkany
iso"
Teedoh:"f
uckyoui
nshi
t"welaughed"im her
e
thoughourbabywi
ll
hav
et wofabulous
mot her
s"
Me:
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dercamewest
art
edeat
ing
Teedoh:
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ngabouty
ou"Ismi
l
ed
Me:
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eah"hechuckl
ed
Teedoh:
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pet
hatgoof
ysmi
l
eyoupr
egnant
"
Me:"yeahIknowandim sodonewit
hguysI
don'
twanabei narel
ati
onshi
pforawhi
l
e"
Teedoh:
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l
ldoy
ougood"
Me:
"sohowwer
ethehol
i
day
s"
Teedoh:
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tti
mej
obbr
okeup
wi
thl
ebo"
Me:
"whatwhy
"
Teedoh:"
bastar
dgotagirl
pr egnantguesshe
for
gottotel
lmehisfucknbicuri
ous"
Me:
"sor
ryboo"
Teedoh:
"itcool
"
Me:"
needmetochangemydoct
orIcansee
someonenewi
fyouwant
"
Teedoh:
"nahi
tcool
im notspi
tef
ul"
Me:
"hedon'
tdeser
vey
ou"hel
aughed
Teedoh:
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ight
"
Me:
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ovey
ou"hesmi
l
ed
Teedoh:
"yout
oldNkany
isoy
oupr
egnant
"
Me:"nahI'
m notpl
anni
ngt
oupunt
ilIr
eal
l
y
hav
et o"
Teedoh:
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vest
oknowt
hough"
Me:
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tneedt
hedr
amar
ight
now"
Teedoh:
"howf
arar
eyou"
Me:
"3mont
hsi
naweek"
Teedoh:
"thatf
ar"
Me:
"yep"
Teedoh:
"itgoi
ngt
oki
l
lLungel
o"
Me:
"Iknow"hel
aughed
Teedoh:
"Nkany
isoi
sgoi
ngt
obef
ucknhappy
"
Me: "
happyf orwhatgoodreasonweboth1st
yearstudent syeahsomyal l
owancecantake
careofmybabyandmepl usifNkanyi
soandI
combi neoural lowancemybabywil
lli
vea
prett
yl uxuryli
febutwesti
llst
udent
sattheend
oftheday "hejustgavemeagoofysmile"and
thatsmi le"
Teedoh:"
lov
ethewayy
ousayy
ourbaby
"I
gi
ggled
Me:
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azy
"hehel
dmyhandsont
het
abl
e
Teedoh:"
wegoi
ngt
olov
eyourbabyorshoul
dI
sayourbaby
"
Me: "y
eswegonnal ov
eourbaby "hesmil
edwe
fi
nishedeat
ingtookawalkaroundthemallj
ust
tal
kingandlaughi
ngweranintoOlwethuand
Lungelo
Teedoh:"i
gnor
ethem"wewer
eaboutt
opass
eachother
Me:"
I'
m cool"myeyesmetl
ungel
o'
sandhe
st
oppedIalsost
opped
Lungel
o:"
hi"
Me:
"hi
"
Lungel
o:"
itni
cet
oseey
oust
il
lal
i
ve"
Me:
"yeahIguess"
Lungel
o:"
beent
ryi
ngt
oreachy
ou"
Me:
"wasi
nPEneededt
hespace"
Lungel
o:"
canwet
alkImi
ssy
ou"
Me:
"someot
hert
imemay
bey
oucancomeby
l
ateront
oday
"
Lungel
o:"
ifIcal
lyoul
aterwi
l
lyourphonebeon"
Me:
"yeah"
Lungel
o:"
okI
'
llcal
lyoul
ater
"
Me:
"ok"Ist
art
edwal
ki
ng
Lungelo:"
Sino"It
urnedtolookathim he
openedhisarmsIhesitat
edf orasecondbef
ore
gett
inginthem hehuggedmet i
ght
ly
Lungel
o: "
yousti
ll
smel
lgood"Igi
ggl
ed"
I'
ve
real
l
ymi ssedyou"
Me:
"Ineedt
ogo"Ipul
l
edoutoft
hehug
Lungel
o:"
youl
ookbeaut
if
ul"
Me:"
thankyou"IwalkedawaytoTeedohwho
wasstandi
ngabitfarfr
om whereIwas
Teedoh:
"hest
il
ll
ovesy
ou"Isi
ghed
Me:"ev
enifitwast
ruehewon'
tl
ovemewhenI
t
ell
him Nkanyi
somademepregnant
"
Teedoh:
"younev
erknowl
ovei
saf
ool
i
sht
hing"
Me:"
nomanshoul
dhav et
orai
seanot
her
man'
schi
l
despeci
all
yinmycase"
Teedoh:
"hel
ovesy
ou"
Me:"Ilovehi
m aswell
"wecontinuedwindow
shoppingendedupwatchi
ngamov i
eaf t
ert
he
mov i
eIwast i
rednsl
eepyItookTeedohback
tohisresandwentbacktomypl acetookanap.
Iwokeupbecausemyphonewasr
ingi
ngi
twas
Lungel
oIanswered
Me:
"hi
"
Lungel
o:"
heyl
etmei
nim her
e"
Me:"ok"Igotupwenttor
insemymouthn
washedmyf aceputonmysleeper
swentt
o
openforhim
Lungel
o:"
youwer
easl
eep"
Me:
"yeah"
Lungel
o:"
sti
l
lsl
eepy
"
Me:"ki
ndaimt
ir
edIdr
oveal
lthewayf
rom PE
yest
erday
"het
ookmyhandl
edusupstai
rsto
myroom
Me:"whatyoudoi
ng"hewast
aki
ngof
fhi
s
cl
otheshechuckl
ed
Lungel
o:"
taki
ngmycl
othesof
f"
Me:
"Iseet
hatbutwhy
"
Lungel
o:"
sowecansl
eep"
Me:
"Lungel
oIdon'
tthi
nkt
hat
'
sagoodi
dea"
Lungel
o:"j
ustsl
eepnothi
ngmor e"hegotunder
thecoverandpat
tedspacenexttohim Igoti
n
givi
nghim mybackwespooned
Me:
"si
ngt
ome"
Lungel
o:"ok"hebroughtmeevenclosert
ohim
andstart
edsingi
ngChr i
sBrown-li
tt
lemore
soft
lyIsl
owlydri
ft
edoft osl
eep.
Iwokeabitl
aterf
aci
ngLungel
ohewasasleepI
qui
etl
ygotofthebedwentdownst
air
smade
hotchocol
atewentt
owat
cht
v
Lungel
o:"
beenupforl
ong"hewasmaki
nghi
s
waytothecouchIwassi
tt
ingon
Me:"notr
eal
ly
"heli
ft
edmyl
egssatdownand
putmylegsonhi
slap
Lungel
o:"
ok"ther
ewassi l
encel
ikereall
y
awkwardsi
lence"uhm Si
no"hebrokethe
si
lence
Me:
"yes"
Lungel
o:"
youandNkany
iso"
Me:
"hav
eyouspoket
ohi
m"
Lungel
o:"
hav
enot
hingt
osayt
ohi
m"
Me:
"hi
syourf
ami
l
yandbestf
ri
end"
Lungel
o:"
hedi
dn'
tthi
nkaboutt
hatwhenhe
wassteal
i
ngyouf
rom me"
Me: "
itnothi
sfaul
tim al
sotobl
amebutyou
heretalki
ngt
ome"hel ookedaway"
youneedt
o
for
givehim"heshookhishead
Lungel
o:"
don'tt
hinkIcan'tbei
nthesamer
oom
wit
hhim wit
houtseei
ngr ed"
Me:
"youhavet
oyouguy
sar
efami
l
ydon'
tl
et
megetbet
weeny'
al
l"
Lungel
o:"
howl
onghasi
tbeengoi
ngondoy
ou
l
ovehim"
Me:
"Idi
doncebutnotany
mor
e"
Lungel
o:"
wast
hatwhi
l
eyouwer
ewi
thme"
Me:
"nobef
orewegott
oget
her
"
Lungel
o:"
Idon'
tunder
stand"
Me:
"If
ell
forhi
mthatt
imewecameher
e"
Lungel
o:"wheny'allr
anaway"Inodded"i
sthat
whenyout wostartedsl
eepi
ngtogether
"I
nodded"whydidn'tyout
ellme"Il
ookedaway
Me:"
didn'
tknowhowt
oandIthoughty
ou
woul
dlookatmeashi
slef
tov
ers"hesighed
Lungel
o:"heknewt
hatIl
ovey
oubuthest
il
l
wentaft
eryou"
Me:
"lov
eme"
Lungel
o:"
Sinoj
ustbecauseyouhur
tmedoesn'
t
meanmyemot i
onswillgoaway"
Me:
"I'
m sor
ry"
Lungelo:"
sowhenhecameher
ey oust
art
ed
sl
eepingwitht
hebot
hofus"Il
ookeddown
star
ingint
omycup
Me:"Ir
eal
l
ymessedupLungel
oImessedup
badl
y"
Lungel
o:"
yesy
oudi
d"
Me:
"I'
m sor
ry"
Lungel
o:"
hewant edyouSi noandy oulethi
m
haveyoueventhoughyouknewt hatyoumine
youhadsexwithhim andcamebackt osleep
wit
hmei nthesamebedl ett
ingmehol dwhen
youwereinhi
sar ms"Iletoutachokedsob
Me:
"I'
m sor
ryLungel
o"
Lungel
o:"
sohowdi
ditwor
kSi
noy
ousl
eptwi
th
him dur
ingthedayandIgott heni
ghtshif
t"Igot
offthecouchbuthegr abbedmyarm" don'
tdo
thatdon'
trunawayIwantt oknowI'v
ebeen
askingmyselfthesequesti
onswit
hnoanswer s
soanswert hem forme"
Me:"ImessedupLungeloIdidyouwrongI
knowbutplease"Icri
edouthewipedhi
stear
s
wit
hthebackofhi shand
Lungel
o;"youl
etmegodownony ouwhi
leyou
hadanotherman'sdi
ckinyouhowdoyouthink
thatmakesmef eel
"Ipul
ledmyar
m outofhis
hand
Me:
"youdone"hel
ookedatme
Lungel
o:"
whySi
nowasInotenough"
Me:
"Idon'
tknow"Iwi
pedmyt
ear
s
Lungelo:
"yout
wodeser veeachother
"my
breat
hcaught"IpassedupUCTt obewit
hyou
andthisi
swhatIget "
Me:
"I'
m sor
ryt
hatl
ovi
ngmeandbei
ngwi
thme
madey
oupassupwhaty
ouwant
ed"
Lungelo:
"don'ty
ougeti
tIdi
ditcozIlovedyou
fuckIsti
l
lfucknlov
eyoubutIwishIdidnt
"
Me:
"oh"
Lungelo:
"sowhatyoucouldn'
tstayawayafter
tast
inghimthef
irstt
imeishiscockthatgood"
Me:
"Lungel
o"Icr
iedout
Lungel
o:"
sincey
ou'
vehadusbot
hyoucan
comparenowso"
Me:
"pl
easel
eav
e"
Lungel
o:"y
oureal
lyfucknrui
nedmeSi
nov
uyo
youbrokemeIfucknlovedyou"
Me: "
Ithoughty
oust
il
ldo"hel
etoutabi
tt
er
chuckle
Lungel
o:"
Idoandi
tsucksbi
gti
me"
Me:
"sor
ry"
Lungel
o:"i
sther
eanyt
hingel
sethatIshoul
d
know"Ishookmyhead"don'
tli
etomecozIwil
l
f
indout
"Isi
ghedandl
ookeddown
Me:"
Igotpr
egnantandwet
houghti
tbesti
fI
di
dn'
tkeepi
t"
Lungel
o:"y
ouhadanabort
ion"hewispher
edI
nodded"wasthi
sbef
oreus"Inodded"Ir
eall
y
don'
tknowy ouSi
no"
Me:
"sor
ry"
Lungelo:
"IneedspaceIneedt
imet
othi
nkt
o
processall
ofthi
s"
Me:"Iunder
stand"heleftIl
ockedt
hedoorand
wenttocrymy sel
ftosleep.
.
Iwokeupt hefoll
owingdaypreparedforchurch
afterchurchIwentpastpicknpaybought
somegr oceryIwantedtocook.Iwentback
changedi ntosweatpant
snt anktopIstart
ed
cookingaf t
ercookingIhadlunchthanjust
chill
edbymy sel
ftookti
met orefl
ectaboutmy
l
ifewhi chwasaboutt ochangedramat i
cal
ly.I
j
usthadlazySundayIf
ixedmyti
metabl
eand
packedupmybagf ort
henextdayIwat
chedtv
unti
lIwentt
osleep.
.
Mondaymor ningIwokeupnauseousaf t
er
vomitingItookabat hgotoutl otionedIwas
gett
inglighterintermsofcompl eti
onwor ea
j
eanst ankt opandal lstarsti
edmybr aidsin
ponytailIgrabbedmybackpacki tmademe
thi
nkaboutLungel obutIpushedt hatthought
backIwentt ohav ebreakfastandl eft
.Meetup
wit
hTeedohandPear lwecompar edour
ti
met abl
esot hatwei nthesamest reamswhen
i
twast i
mef or1stlectur
ewewentf orHrtime
fl
ewbysooni twast helastlectureoft heday
whichhappenedt obemanagementTeedoh
andIwer esitt
ingont helastrowwhenLungel o
walkedinhewentt ositonthe2ndr ow
Me:"Ican'
tbeinthesamecl
asswi
thhi
mim
goi
ngt ochange"
Teedoh:
"butIwon'
tbeabl
etochangemy
st
ream i
twil
lmessupever
ythi
ng"
Me:"i
tokwedon'thavetobei
nthesame
cl
assesforev
ery
thing"
Teedoh:
"yousur
e"
Me: "
yeahletmeknowwheni tout"Iki
ssedhi
s
cheekandst eppedoutt
helecturehall
Iwentto
thefacul
tyoffi
cechangedmyst ream whenI
wascomi ngoutIbumpedintoJayhesmi l
ed
Me:
"hi
"
Jay
:"heyy
oubusy
"
Me:
"notr
eal
l
y"
Jay:"f
oll
owme"Inoddedfol
lowedhi
mt ohis
off
icewegoti
nhel ockedt
hedoorandpul
leda
chairf
ormeIsatdownhesatonhisdesk
Jay
:"sohowwer
eyourhol
i
day
s"
Me:
"goodandy
our
s"
Jay
:"j
ustcool
howar
eyou"
Me:
"I'
mfi
ne"hechuckl
ed
Jay:"whensomeonesaystheyfi
neitusual
l
y
meanst heynot
"Ij
ustsi
ghed"tal
ktome"I
star
tedcryi
ng
Me:
"I'
m pr
egnant
"
Jay
:"It
akei
t,i
twasn'
tpl
anned"
Me:
"yout
hink"
Jay:"
don'
tbesarcast
icandpr
egnancyi
snot
theendoftheworl
d"
Me:
"If
eel
li
kei
tis"
Jay
:"i
tnott
hepr
egnancyt
hati
sbot
her
ingy
ou
whati
sit
"
Me:
"Ineedt
ogo"
Jay
:"t
houghty
ouwer
en'
tbusy
"
Me:
"don'
twanabeoncampus"
Jay
:"y
oudoneat
tendi
ng"
Me:
"yeah"henodded
Jay
:"canIhav
eyournumber
"
Me:
"It
oldy
ouI
'
m pr
egnant
"hel
aughed
Jay
:"y
eahsoI'
mjustaskingfory
ournumberI
wanaoff
ery
oumyf r
iendship"
Me:"ok"Igavehim mynumberthanIstoodup
hegav emeawar mt i
ghthugIal
mosthadan
or
gasimj ustbybei
nginhisar
msf orl
i
ke5
minuteswhenIpull
edbackhekissedmycheek
Jay
:"I
'
llseey
ouar
oundMsDey
"Igi
ggl
ed
Me:"
yessir
"Iwal
kedoutstr
aightt
omycarasI
wasaboutt
odri
veoffatex
tcamet hr
ough
*
im al
way
sher
etol
i
sten.
..
jay
*
Ismi
l
edandt
ext
edhi
m back
*t
hanksI'
l
lhol
dyout
othat
*Isav
edhi
snumber
anddrov
eoffgoi
ngt
omyplace.
.
Ti
mef l
ewbyamonthl
aterIwas4months
pr
egnantmyst
omachwasv i
sibl
eIhadt
otel
l
Set hushewashappyf ormeandpr omi sednot
tot el
l ourpar ents.Bat hoandIwer egoodwe
talkedal otbet weenhi scrazyschedul eIwent
toseeaf ewofhi sgameshewant edmeback
event houghIwaspr egnanthedi dn'tmi ndbutI
didn'twantaboy f
ri
endbei ngsi nglef eltgood.I
hadn' thear dany thi
ngf r
om bot hLungel oand
Nkany isoi nov erweeksNkany i
sot helongest
Lungel ost oppedcal lingaftert hatlast
conv er sationwehadNkany i
sost oppeddur ing
thehol iday s.Jaywasj ustthebesthemademe
l
aughl iket here'
snot omor rowwespentl otof
ti
met oget hersomet imesj ustchi ll
ingathi s
placehecal l
edmybabyhi sbabyhewassoi n
l
ov ewi thmyt ummyhewoul djustlayhi shead
oni tandt alktoitwhi chwassowei r
dt osee
cozJayi smanl yIcalledhim mybabydaddyhe
calledmehi sbabymamai tannoy edTeedoh
somet imeshekeptcompl ainingsay ingJayi s
stealingme.Thi sdayIr anintoLungel oatt he
l
ibr ar
yIhadn' tseenhi m oncampussi nce
schoolopenedIpret
endedtonotseehim and
walkedtheotherwaybuthehadalreadyseen
him hehel
dmyar m andstoodinf
rontofme
l
ookingatmyst omachIwaswearingal ose
sweaterbutitwasst
il
lshowing
Lungel
o:"
Sino"
Me:
"hi
lungel
o"
Lungel
o:"
come"
Me:
"no"
Lungelo:
"yes"hepul
l
edmeout
side"
you
pregnant
"
Me:
"obv
iousl
y"
Lungelo:"
don'
tgi
vemeat
ti
tude"Ihadat
ti
tude
fordecadesmymoodswereonandoff
Me:
"whatdoy
ouwant
"
Lungel
o:"
whydi
dn'
tyout
ell
me"
Me:
"woul
dithadchangedany
thi
ng"
Lungel
o:"
ofcos!
"
Me:
"heydon'
trai
sey
ourv
oiceatme"
Lungel
o:"
GodSi
noy
oupr
egnant
"hepushedhi
s
hai
rback
Me:"yesIam nowl
etgoofmyar
m Ihav
ean
assi
gnmenttodo"
Lungel
o:"
isi
tmi
ne"
Me:
"no"
Lungel
o:"
younotsur
eoft
hat
"
Me: "Iam"Ipushedhim backhel etgoofmy
arm Iwentbacki ntheli
brary.Af
terthathe
call
edev er
ydaybutInev eransweredhiscallhe
wouldbuzzatt heapartmentbutIwoul dn'
tlet
him up.Aweekl aterNkanyisocorneredmeat
thecaf e
Nka:
"Ihearcaff
einei
snotgoodf
orpregnant
woman"Ilookeduphesatdownacr
ossmeI
washavi
ngcof f
ee
Me:
"itdecafwhatdoy
ouwant
"
Nka:
"mi
ssedy
ouandIwantt
otal
ktoy
ou"
Me:"t
her
e'snot
hingt
otal
kabout"Ist
ooduphe
l
ookedatmeItookmybagwalkedouthe
f
oll
owedme
Nka:
"soi
treal
l
ytr
uey
oupr
egnant
"
Me:
"yep"
Nka:
"andy
oudi
dn'
tthi
nkl
ett
ingmeknow
woul
dbeagoodi
dea"
Me:
"ther
e'snopoi
nti
nmet
ell
i
ngy
ou"
Nka:
"what.
..That
'smychi
l
d"
Me:
"nopei
tnot
"
Nka:
"sowhati
t'
slungel
o'
s"
Me:
"Idi
dn'
tsayt
hat
"
Nka:
"Goddami
tst
oppl
ayi
nggamesSi
nov
uyo"
Me:
"mmh"wer eachedt
hepar
kingl
otIopened
t
hedoorgoti
nmycar
Nka:
"Si
no"
Me:"i
tnotyour
sandstoptr
acki
ngmeIdon'
t
wanttochangemyID"Idr
oveoff
.
.
3daysl
ateri
twashotSaturdayIwasinmy
whit
ebi
kinswimmingwhenSet huscr
eamedfor
meIgotoutthepoolworemyf l
opspushes
backmywetweav ewentinthehouse
Me:
"yeah"
Set
hu:"yourboyf
ri
endsarehere"wel
aughedI
wal
kedtowar dst
hestai
rcasestoodt
her
e
l
ookingdownatthe3oft hem
Me: "hiboys"Sethujustl
aughedandwal kedout
thehouseLungel oandNkany i
sower estanding
therelooki
ngatme" comeupi m swimmi ng"I
turnedaroundwentbackt othepool Igotinjust
chill
edtheycameoutwal ki
ngt owardsmet hey
satont hechairsthatwehav eoutthere
Me:
"ni
cet
oseey
'al
lgoodnow"
Them:
"Si
no"Il
aughed
Nka:"
canyoucomeoutt
hewat
erandwear
somethi
ng"
Me:"
ithott
hewat
eri
scool
i
ngmedownIcan'
t
st
andtheheat
"
Lungel
o:"howwesupposedt
otal
kwhi
l
eyou
hal
fnaked"
Me: "
what'
sstoppi
ngyou"myphoner angitwas
nexttoNkanyi
so"pl
easebri
ngthatt
ome"he
di
dIgr i
nnedwhenIlookedatt
hescreenitwas
Jay
Me:
"hey
"
Jay
:"how'
smybabymamadoi
ng"
Me:"I
'
m goodnhow'smybabydaddydoi
ng"
Nkanyi
sostoodupbutLungel
opul
l
edhim
down
Jay:
"I'
m goodwhaty
oudoi
ngt
houghtIcoul
d
comepickyouup"
Me:"I
'
m swi
mmi
nggi
vemeanhourt
heny
ou
cancome"
Jay
:"okshotseey
ousoon"
Me:
"seeyousoon"Idroppedthecal
lgotout
t
hepoolwrappedatowelaroundmybody
Me:
"okwhat
'sup"
Nka:
"whowast
hat
"
Me:
"noty
ourconcer
n"
Nka:
"whatgoi
ngonwi
thy
ou"
Me:"i
nter
msofwhat
"hesi
ghedandl
ookedat
Lungel
o
Lungel
o:"
Sinoyousai
dim nott
hefat
herand
yousai
ditnotNkanyi
sost
opplayi
nggames
wit
hus"
Me:"whywouldyouthi
nki
tyour
swhenweused
acondom al
ltheti
me"
Lungel
o:"becausemostoft
het
imet
hef
uckn
condom broke"
Me:
"ohshi
t"
Them:
"yesohshi
t"
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08/
12,
21:
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:Inser
t15
.
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hingf
orov
er5mi nuteswe
j
ustremainedi
nawkwardsi
lenceIstoodup
andfl
ashedthem asmil
e
Me:
"cool
"theyl
ookedatmepuzzl
ed
Them:"cool
?"Iwal
kedbacki
nthehouset
omy
room t
heywerefol
l
owingme
Me:"y'
al
lcanl
eav
enowcl
oset
hedoorbehi
nd
y'
al
l"
Nka:
"ai
boSi
noj
ustl
i
ket
hat
"
Me: "whatdoy ouexpect "Iletthetowel dr
op
startedwalkingtothebat hroom Itookmybi ki
n
topof foneoft hem suckedi nsharpbreathi
untiedmybi kinbott
om i tfellt
othefloorI
steppedi nthebathroom cl osedthedoorand
tookashower .WhenIwasdoneIwr appeda
towel aroundmybodywal kedintomyr oom
Me:
"youguy
sst
il
lher
e"t
heywer
esi
tt
ingonmy
bed
Lungel
o:"
Sinoweneedt
otal
kaboutt
his"
Me: "
ther
e'snothi
ngtot alkabout.
.,
yougonna
stepoutsoIcangetdr essedorwhat "t
hey
l
ookedateachot herbutdi dn'
tmoveIshr ugged
myshoulderstookoutbl acklacematching
underwearIdroppedthet owelandputiton
Nka:
"Si
nost
op"
Me:"l
eav
emyr oom"Lungel
ost
oodupand
l
ookedatNkanyi
so
Lungel
o:"
dudei
m notleav
ingyouher
ewi
thher
j
ustsoyoucanhavesexwithher
"
Nka: "
shutup"hest
ooduptheywentoutI
fi
nishedlot
ioni
nggotdr
essinal
osemaxidress
Istart
edblowdryi
ngmyweav et
heycameback
i
nmyr oom
Me:"y
'al
lneedt
oleav
eim gonabel
eav
ing
soon"
Lungel
o:"
west
il
lneedt
otal
kaboutt
hebaby
"
Me:
"ther
e'snot
hingt
otal
kabout
"
Nka:
"whoi
scomi
ngt
opi
cky
ouup"
Me:
"noty
ourconcer
n"
Nka:"
ever
ythi
ngy
oudoismyconcernsi
nce
t
here'
sachanceyoupr
egnantwi
thmychi
ld"
Me:
"fuckof
fnkany
iso"
Nka:"y
oubet
ternotbescr
ewingsomeone
whil
eyouhav
emychi l
dinyou"
Me:
"it
'snoty
ourchi
l
d!"
Lungel
o:"If
eelthesamey oushouldn'
tbe
havi
ngsexwi t
hany oneunti
lyougivebi
rthIal
so
don'
twantsomeone' sdickpoki
ngmychi l
d"I
wasgetti
ngsoi r
ri
tatedIwasont hever
geof
tear
s
Me: "
itmychil
dok!Iknowwhat'sbestf
orhim
sodon'ty'
al
lcomehereafteral
ltheshi
tyou
bothputmet hr
oughandtalkaboutmybody
l
ikeitbel
ongstoy'
all
"tear
sdropped
Nka:
"andt
hanwhyy
oucr
ying"
Me:
"fucky
ounkany
iso"
Nka:
"youcani
fyouwanty
ouknowy
ouown
me"
Me: "
arg!!
"Iwal kedoutmyr oom l
eavingt
hem
chuckli
ngt heyfoll
owedmeIwentt ogetagl
ass
ofwaterIwasst il
ldr
inki
ngitwhenaknock
camet hrought hemai ndoorIwenttoopeni
t
theyweref oll
owingme
Me:"stopf
oll
owi
ngme!!"Theydi
dn'tIwentt
o
openitwasJayIj
ustst
artedcr
yingassoonasI
sawhim
Jay
:"what
'swrongbaby
"hehel
dmeIbur
ri
ed
myfaceonhischest
Lungel
o:"
Iknowy
ounotdat
ingt
hisf
ool
"
Nka:
"whoset
hisi
diot
"
Jay
:"wat
chy
our
sel
f"
Lungel
o:"
hist
eedoh'
sbr
other
"
Me:"
justt
ell
them t
oleav
e"Il
ookedupatJay
hewi
pedmyt ear
s
Jay
:"y
ouhear
dher
"
Lungel
o:"
Sino"
Me:
"justgo"
Nka:
"west
ilneedt
otal
k"
Me:
"ther
e'snot
hingt
otal
kabout
"
Lungel
o:"
tel
lhi
mtol
eav
esowecant
alk"Jay
hel
dmet i
ghter
Jay:"
justgetthefuckoutofherebeforeIlose
mycool "hespoket hroughhi
steethIturnedto
l
ookatt hem nkanyisowasbreat
hingfir
ewhi l
e
Lungelowasgr i
ndinghisteet
htogether
Me: "
go!
!"If
eltashar
ppaininmyst omachI
cri
edoutinpainIwasabouttofal
lwhenJay
hel
dmebot hLungelonnkanyisowerenextt
o
mei nasecondJaypickedmeupwentt olay
meont hecouch
Jay:"doyouneedmet ot
akeyoutoyour
doctor"Ishookmyheadt
ryi
ngtocontr
olmy
breathi
ng
Nka:"Si
nol
ovey
ouok"het
ouchedmyf
orehead
Inodded
Lungel
o:"
we'l
lgi
vey
ouspacecal
luswheny
ou
wantustotal
k"
Nka:
"justcal
li
fyouneedany
thi
ng"
Me:"
ok"t
heyl
eftJaysatdownandputmyhead
onhi
slap
Jay
:"y
ousur
eyouf
ine"
Me:
"yeahi
fitcar
ri
esonI
'
llgoseeadoct
or"
Jay:
"stopst
ressi
ngIdon'
twanty
out
oloseour
baby"Igi
ggl
edweakly
Me:"
I'
ll
stop"It
urnedt
ol i
eonmysi
dewr
apped
myarmsaroundhiswaist
Jay
:"mi
ssedme"Ismi
l
ed
Me:
"ki
nda"
Jay:"
wel
lImi
ssedy
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ssedmyf
orehead
"l
et'
sgo"
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ayi
nim al
i
ttl
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eepy
"
Jay:"
any
thi
ngyouwant
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ookt
her
emotand
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mybedwi t
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ymom
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mmedi
atel
y
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we:
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s"
Me:
"heyhowar
eyou"
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we:
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m goodny
ouhowar
eyout
wo"
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inenowIhadal
i
ttl
ebi
tofpai
nbef
ore"
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we:
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dgohav
eitcheckedout
"
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fitcomesbackIwi
l
l"
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Sinoweneedt otel
lmom ndad"now
that'
sonet hi
ngIdidn'
twantt odowhatwasI
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hem notonlyam Ipr
engantI
alsodon'tknowwhot hefatherofmybabyi
s
cozI'vebeenscrewingbothmybestfri
ends
Me:
"soon"
Phi
we: "
wheni
ssooncozy
oual
ready4
months"
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vemet
imeSi
mphi
we"
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noIt
hinkSept
emberholi
day
swe
shoul
dgohomesowecant ell
them youcan'
t
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vebi
rt
hwi
thoutt
ell
i
ngt
hem Si
no"
Me:"
whatam Isupposedt
osaywhent
heyask
whoi
sfather
"
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we:
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lthem i
tLungel
o"
Me:
"uhm.
..
"
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we:
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eyounott
ell
i
ngmeSi
nov
uyo"
Me:"Iki
ndadon'
tknowwhoisthefather
bet
weenLungeloandNkany
iso"Ispokefast
Phi
wemut ter
edacurse
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lSi
no!Kant
iwhatar
eyoudoi
ng
ther
e"
Me:
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'
m adi
sgr
ace"hesi
ghed
Phiwe:"don'tt
alkli
kethatbutcomeonSi nowe
wereraisedbetterthanthatyouact
ingli
keyou
di
dn'tgetlovefrom amal efi
gurewhil
edadnI
gaveyoual lourlov
ebutnowy ouacti
ngout"I
star
tedcrying
Me:
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m sor
rySi
mphi
we"
Phi
we:"
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ylookl
etmepr
ocesst
hisi
l
lcal
l
yout
omorr
ow"
Me: "
ok"hedroppedthecal
l Ididn'
tst
opcr
yingI
thi
nkIcriedf
orabout10mi nuteswhenmy
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houtcheckingt
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cal
lerID
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l
o"
Nka:
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oucr
yingl
ove"
Me:
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Nka:
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'swr
ong"
Me:
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tknow"
Nka:"
I'
m coming"hedr
oppedthecall
20
minut
eslatert
here'
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wenttoopenitwasNkanyi
so
Nka:
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kedi
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ocked
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hedoor
Me:"
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otheloungehef
oll
owedmeI
waswatchi
ngcart
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ome
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'swr
ong"
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ngt
osayt
omypar
ent
s"
Nka:
"about
"
Me:
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sthef
atherofmybaby
"
Nka:
"tel
lthem i
tme"
Me:
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fitnot
"
Nka:"i
thastobeLungel
oisjusthol
dingonf
or
noreasoncozhi
snotoveryou"
Me:
"itcoul
dbehi
s"
Nka:"
itcan'
tbeSi
not
hatchi
l
dist
heonl
yhopeI
havef
orus"
Me:
"Nkany
iso"
Nka:"
I'
m ser
iousl
ovet
heki
ndofloveIhav
efor
youdoesn'
tj
ustgoawayi
m hopi
ngthi
schil
d
wil
lbethegl
ueweneedtofi
xthi
stofi
xus"
Me:
"youst
il
ll
oveme"Iaskedi
nwhi
sper
Nka:
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thev
erypar
tofme"Inodded"
standup"
Ist
ooduphel
aidf
ull
yonthecouchandt
ook
myhandmaki
ngmel ayont
opofhim
Me:
"Idomi
ssy
ousomet
imes"hechuckl
ed
Nka:
"I'
l
ltaket
hatandhol
dont
oit
"
Me:"ok"hewentt
oboxoff
icewehi
redamov
ie
"
I'
ll
gogetsomesnacks"
Nka:"
sitI
'l
lgetyousomet hi
ng"Imov
edfr
om
hi
m hewentt otheki
tchenandcamebackwi
th
awholelotofthi
ngsIlaughed
Me:
"youdi
dn'
thav
etobr
ingal
loft
hat
"
Nka:"
I'
dhat
etogobackcozIdi
dn'
tbr
ing
somethi
ngt
hatyouwant
ed"
Me:"
ok"Itookacanofcokebuthequi
ckl
y
gr
abbeditIfr
owned
Nka:
"that
'smi
ne"hegav
emeabot
tl
eofj
uice
Me:
"Iwantcoke"heshookhi
shead
Nka:"notgoodf
orsomeonewhoi
spr
egnant
"I
chuckled
Me:
"youshi
tt
ingmer
ight
"
Nka:
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sh"
Me: "whatever "Itookt hej ui
cehesmi l
edand
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eIwassi t
ti
ng
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themov ieaf terthemov i
ehehi redanot herone
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him undermewasmaki ngmemoi stIl ookedat
him hewasl aughi ngatsomet hingt hatwas
happeningIwasn' tevenconcent ratingont he
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eIwasj ustl ookingathi m hav ingdi r
ty
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handwast ouchi nghi sf acewhi l
et heot herwas
underhist shirtgoi ngupanddownhi spacks
Nka:
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e"
Me:
"mmh"
Nka:
"whaty
oudoi
ng"
Me:
"touchi
ngy
ou"
Nka:
"Iseebutwhy
"
Me:
"am Inotal
l
owedt
o"
Nka:
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ouownme"
Me:"ok"Isatupstr
addlinghi
m maki
ngsur
emy
kushwasdi r
ect
lypressedonhisdi
ck
Nka:"
Sinol
ovedon'
tst
artsomet
hingyouwon'
t
handl
e"Il
eaneddowngoingt
ohisface
Me: "shutupandki ssme"hehel dmybackof
myheadweki ssedatf i
rstitwassl owast i
me
wentbyIst artedpressingdownonhi sdick
whilemov i
ngmywai sti
nci rcleshemoanedi n
mymout ht heki sswentf asterIopenedmy
mout hallowi nghimt otast emeasIt astedhim
het astedli
kecokencheeseIsuckedonhi s
toungehegr oanedhepul ledmydr essupIl et
himt akeitof fmehet ookof fmybr aIthrewmy
headbackmoani ngwhenhet ouchedmybr east
theirweresosensi ti
vehesatupst art
ed
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please"Ipresseddownhar deronhi sdickhe
puthi shandundermypant y"fucklovey ou
soaked"Il etoutamoan" nkapl ease"hel ifted
meupandmov edf r
om thecouchl ay ingmeon
i
thet ookoffmypant yputmyl egsonhi sbr oad
shoul dershewenti nforaki l
lIwasmoani ng
andpant i
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suckedmef ordearl i
fehishandspl ay ingwi t
h
mybr eastIletoutmywat erf
all Icamehar dhe
stoodupandhequi ckl
ydr oppedhi sj eans
al
ongwi thhisboy legIcriedouthemut t
ereda
cursewhenhesl owlysl i
di nmeunt i
l hewasal l
i
n" fucknper fectl ove"Hef l
exedhi shi pi cried
out" yes!
!Nka"heopenedmyl egswi derand
startedmov ingi nanamazi ngspeedIcoul dn't
evenmov ewi thhishandsspr eadi ngmyl egs
outlikethati tdidn'ttakelongf ormet or each
myj oyhehel pedmest andupt hant urnedme
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cki ngmy
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memykneesgav eouti almostf ellhechuckl ed
andhel dme" don'tgof al
li
ngonmenowl ov e"
hemademehol dt hecouchhest oodbehi nd
mespr eadmyl egswi thhi skneehesanki nme
hardIcr iedouthehel dmywai standf uckedme
l
ikeamademanwhenhewasaboutt ocome
hest artedplay i
ngwi thmycl it"comewi t hme
l
ov ey ougonacomef orme"Inodded" yesy es
yesy esy esoohGody eeesnkaaaaaf ucky es"
herammedmehar derourbodi esslappi ng
togetherwecamet oget hercr yi
ngouteach
other'snamehesatdownpul l
edmeont opof
him slowl ysinki
nghi st wof ingersinmehewas
mov ingt hem innoutandi nci rcl
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ont ohim whi lemov i
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i
nmeIst artedridinghi sfingerswhi lehe
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upsoonIf oundmyj oyagai naf tercomi nghe
stoodupandwal kedusupst ai
rs
Nka:
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ierl
ove"
Me:"shutupim pregnant"helaughedputont
he
bedwenttot hebathroom camebackwi t
ha
warmt owelcleanedmeupheki ssedmykushn
sni
ff
edi
tIl
aughed
Me:
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rd"hegav
emeasmuggr
in
Nka:"
I'
vemi
ssedi
t"hegotont
opoft
hebedwe
cuddl
ed
Me:
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ustmi
ssedmykush"
Nka:"nopeitanamazingkushbestIeverhad
cannev erbeanot
hermoreamazingbutIjust
missedal l
ofyoui
ncludi
ngourfr
iendship"
Me:
"ok"
Nka:
"Il
ovey
ouSi
noi
minl
ovewi
thy
ou"
Me:
"gi
vemet
ime"
Nka:"
all
thet
imeyouneed"heki
ssedmyhead
andhel
dmet i
ght
er
.
Imusthavesleptr
ightt
hroughtheni ghtcozI
wokeupnextdaybecausesomet hingsmel l
ed
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bleIj
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ushingmy
backwhenIwasdonehetookmyhandl edme
tothesi
nkIbr
ushedmyteethnwashedmy
face
Me:
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eakf
ast
"
Nka:"
wrongmov
ehhu"Inoddedhel
aughed
"
sorr
y"
Me:
"can'
thandl
ebacon"
Nka:"
Inot
icedcomeI
'
llr
emov
eitf
rom y
ou
pl
ate"
Me:"
thanky ou"Iki
ssedhi
scheekIwor
emy
r
obewentt otheloungehebr
oughtmyplat
eto
mewithoutbaconweat e
Me:
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'st
het
ime"hecheckedhi
sphone
Nka:
"07:
40"
Me:
"wecanst
il
lmakei
ttochur
ch"
Nka:
"oh"
Me:
"yeaheatup"wef
ini
shedeat
ingt
ookabat
h
Igotdressedweleftwentpasshi
splacehe
al
sogotdr essedwewenttochurch.Soont
he
churchwasov erwewenttohavelunch
Nka:"
can'
trememberl
astt
imeIwentt
o
chur
ch"
Me:"t
hat'
sonethingweshoul
dn'tst
opdoi
ng
wewereraisedtobeGodfear
ingandputt
he
l
ordbefor
eany t
hingIst
ray
edabitbutI
'
mt r
ying
now"hesmi l
ed
Nka:"
Iheary
oulove"hewasjustl
ooki
ngatme
wit
hahugegrinonhisface
Me:
"what
"
Nka:
"ar
eyougi
vi
ngmeachance"
Me:
"don'
tnkany
iso"
Nka:"
oksorryI
'
llmakeyouf
all
inlovewi
thme
agai
nthougheveni
fitt
akemey ear
s"
Me:"i
fyoustoppedbei
ngaj
erkt
hatwoul
dbea
goodstar
t"hechuckl
ed
Nka:
"I'
l
ltr
ymybestt
ost
op"
Me:
"thatwoul
dbel
ovel
y"
Nka:
"sohowf
arar
eyou"
Me:
"4mont
hs"
Nka:
"youdon'
tl
ook4mont
hs"Il
aughed
Me:"
howam Isupposedt
olook"heshr
ugged
hi
sshoul
der
s
Nka:
"Idon'
tknowbi
gIguess"
Me:
"myst
omachi
sbi
g"
Nka:
"notr
eal
l
y"
Me:
"itst
il
lear
ly"
Nka:
"youshoul
ddoaDNA"Isi
ghed
Me:"di
dyouhavetoremindmethatIdon'
t
knowwhothefatherofmybabyi
s"
Nka:
"sor
ry"hel
ookedgui
l
ty
Me:"
itokIal
readyspoketomydoct
orhesays
i
tgoi
ngtobehar mfulneedt
ogi
vebi
rthf
ir
st"
Nka:
"ok"
Me:
"whati
fitnoty
our
sar
eyougoi
ngt
oleav
e
me"
Nka:"Il
ovey
ouSinoofcosIwouldn'
tl
eav
ey ou
fort
hatbuti
twouldbebett
eri
fitweremine"I
nodded
Me:
"IguessIunder
stand"
Nka:
"Il
ovey
ou"Ismi
l
ed
Me:"
sohowisl
i
feaf
terasext
ape"hel
etouta
l
oudlaugh
Nka:"y
oudon'
twanaknow"If
rownedhe
chuckl
ed
Me:
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ouhav
eyourpi
ckatgi
rl
s"
Nka:
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hingl
i
ket
hat
"hewassmi
rki
ng
Me:"mxm andyoucomeandhav
esexwi
thme
wi
thoutacondom"
Nka:
"I'
dnev
erputy
ourl
i
fei
ndangerl
i
ket
hatI
pr
omise"
Me:
"mxm"hechuckl
ed
Nka:
"jeal
ous"
Me:
"no"
Nka:
"goodcozt
her
e'snoneed"
Me:
"meani
ng"
Nka:
"justthat
"hetookmyhandandki
ssedi
t
hemout hedstor
m Il
aughed
Me:
"fool
"
Nka:
"maybe"Ir
oll
edmyey
esmyphoner
angi
t
wasJay
Me:
"hey
"
Jay
:"babymamay
ougood"
Me:
"yep"
Jay
:"y
oudi
dn'
tcal
ll
astni
ghtaf
terwaki
ngup"
Me:
"itsl
i
ppedmymi
ndsor
ry"
Jay:"
itok,
wasj
ustchecki
ngonmyt
wof
avor
it
e
peopl
e"
Me:
"wegood"
Jay
:"okwe'
l
ltal
klat
er"
Me:
"cool
"
Jay
:"ImeantwhatIsai
daboutf
all
i
ngf
ory
ou"
Me:
"oh"
Jay
:"anyhopeofy
ougi
vi
ngmeachance"
Me:
"letmesl
eeponi
t"
Jay:
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tbeherethisweekhav
etogo
somewherebutI
'
llcheckonyouever
yti
meIget
achance"
Me:
"or
ytI
'
llhearf
rom y
out
han"
Jay:"shot
"hedr
oppedt
hecal
lNkany
isowas
star
ingatme
Nka:
"whoi
sthat
"
Me;
"hhaNkany
iso"
Nka:
"itt
hatf
ool
right
"
Me:
"Nkany
iso"
Nka:
"whathappenI
ngbet
weeny
'al
lany
way
"
Me:
"ni
xhi
sagoodf
ri
end"her
aisedaney
ebr
ow
Nka:
"Iwasonceagoodf
ri
end"
Me:
"whaty
oui
mpl
yi
ng"
Nka:"
not
hing"Iputmyel
bowsont
het
abl
e
l
eanedcl
osertohim
Me:"justbecauseImadeami st
akeoffucki
ng
youdoesn'tmeanI'l
lgoaroundfucki
ngever
y
guythatbecomesmyf ri
end"
Nka:
"let
'shopeso"
Me:
"youcanbear
eal
jer
ksomet
imes"he
smi
rked
Nka:
"atl
easti
tnotal
lthet
ime"
Me:
"idi
ot"Imov
edback
Nka:
"heneedst
obackofy
out
hough"Ir
oll
ed
myeyes
Me:"
justfi
nisheati
ngandpayt
hedamnbil
lso
wecanleaveim horny
"hel
etoutal
oudl
augh
peopl
ear
ounduswer
elooki
ngatus
Nka: "
I'
m done"hecall
edfort
hewaiterpai
dand
wel ef
thekeptonbrushingmythighwhil
e
speedingallt
hewayt ohispl
acebytheti
mewe
reachedthebedroom wehadhadoner oundon
thekit
chencounter.
.
Thef oll
owingmorningIwentbacktomypl ace
afterwehadamor ninggl
oryandabathI
changedi ntomyclothesoutofhi
ssweatpants
ntshirtIwenttocampusaf t
eratt
endi
ngour
fi
rsttwol ect
uresTeedohnIwenttothecafe
Teedoh;
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sact
ingwei
rd"
Me:
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rdhow"
Teedoh:"
dodgymom evencall
edameet i
ng
Satur
daytoconf
ronthi
m abouthi
sbehavior
sphefoundaguninhiscart
heotherdaymom
i
ssowor ri
ed"
Me:
"tj
o!ButI
'
m sur
ether
e'sanexpl
anat
ion"
Teedoh:
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ustwal
kedoutsayinghisagr
own
manwhenmom askedhim aboutit
"
Me;
"yoh"
Teedoh:
"tal
ktohi
m pl
easehewi
l
lexpl
aint
o
you"
Me:
"hhaTeedohwhyme"
Teedoh:
"cozhel
ovesy
ou"
Me:
"woahTeedohi
drat
hernotgeti
nvol
ved"
Teedoh:
"pl
easeSi
nohi
smybr
other
"Isi
ghed
Me:
"okIwi
l
lnextweek"
Teedoh:
"whynextweek"
Me:
"hi
soutoft
own"
Teedoh:
"ohokhowwasyourweekend"It
old
hi
m besi
desthewhol
esext
hingwit
hNkany i
so
Me:
"justt
hat
"
Teedoh:"
ifyougobackt
oNkany
isol
eav
emy
brot
heroutofit
"
Me:
"Teedoh!
"
Teedoh;
"imt
ell
i
ngy
ouSi
no"
Me:"okcool
nott
hati
tyourbusi
nesst
hough
butcool
"
Teedoh:"
cool
"Ir
oll
edmyey
esandcar
ri
edon
eati
ng.
Theweekwentbysmoot hlynkaandIt al
ked
everydayhesawmewhenhecoul dbuthewas
busyhiscourseisdemandi ng.Jaycameback
fr
idaywewentt ohav edi nnerwhenIaskedhi m
aboutwhatTeedohsai dhebr ushedmeof f.
SaturdaySethuSt habisoTeedohandIwentt o
watchBat ho'
sgamei twast henat i
onal f
inal
e
whenhescor edthewi nninggoal hekneeled
downandpoi ntt
owher ewewer esitt
ingweal l
j
umpedupandscr eamedt hecamer alandedon
usher anofthef i
el dcamet ousandsmashed
hi
sl i
psonmi neIcl osedmyey eswr appedmy
handsar oundhisneckweki ssedwhenI
openedmyey esflashlightsblindedmepeopl e
werescreaming.Hewi
nkedatmer
anof
ftot
he
changi
ngr ooms
Set
hu:
"andt
han"
Me:
"Idon'
tknow"st
habi
soj
ustl
aughed
Teedoh:
"whatj
usthappened"
Sthabi
so:"
hef
inal
l
ygr
ewsomebal
l
sthatwhat
happened"
Me:
"Ican'
ti
mleav
ing"
Sthabi
so:
"don'tsi
nodontdothatt
omybr other
youguysgowaybacky oubeentoget
hersince
youwereingrade9"
Me:"I.
..
.Teedoh"hejustshr
uggedhi
s
shoul
dersandsmill
ed
Set
hu:"i
tokwe'
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veTeedohar
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tert
he
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ty"t
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obeaparty
Me:
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ousi
s"
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habi
so:
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datl
easthearhi
m out
"
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l
ltal
ktohi
mtomor
rowI
'
llcal
lhi
m"I
walkedawayst
raightt
omyplaceassoonasI
gotinmyroom Iburi
edmyf
aceont hepi
ll
ow
andscreamed.
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eepcozIwokeupt othe
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'
s
whenIreal
izeditwasthefoll
owi
ngdayIwent
toopenNkanyisofl
ewinwi thamagazinei
nhis
hands
Nka:
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uckSi
nov
uyo!
!"Her
oar
ed
Me:
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lmor
ningt
oyout
o"Ir
oll
edmyey
es
Nka:
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tdot
hatdon'
tbesar
cast
ic"
Me:"whatdoy
ouwantNkany
isocomi
ngher
e
scr
eamingsoear
lyi
nthemorni
ng"
Nka:"
whatthefucki
sthis"hethrewthe
magazineatmyfaceIcatcheditbef
orei
tfel
l
Me:
"whatam Isupposedt
odowi
tht
his"
Nka:"checkthe3r
dpagefrom t
helast"Idida
pict
ureofBathoandIki
ssi
ngwast herewitha
capti
on* r
ugby'
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y
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ful
pregnantwomani
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Nka:
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uckohgoonr
eadt
hear
ti
cle"
Me:"Ij
ustwokeupNkany isoi
m st
il
lwearing
yest
erday
'scl
othespleasemakemebr eakfast
whil
eIgobath"Ithr
ewt hemagazi
neont he
couchwentup
Nka:
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tdot
hatSi
nodontwal
kawayf
rom
me"
Me:"I
'
m pr
egnantandim hungr
yNkany
iso
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ewentto
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eakfasti
nfrontofhi
m he
smi
l
edwhenhesawme
Me:
"thanky
ou"
Nka:"j
ustbecauseyoulookcutei
nmycl
othes
doesntmeanim notangry"Ipout
ed
Me:"
sor
ryImadey
ouangr
yNkany
iso"we
st
art
edeat
ing
Nka:"
soyougonnaexpl
ainorIshoul
djustl
i
ve
wit
hmythoughts"
Me:"hekissedmeIknowIshoul
dhavepushed
hi
m offIknowitwaswrongbutIr
eact
edlat
e
i
m sorry
"
Nka:"
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obeenjoy
ingt
hekissy ou
don'
tl
ookli
kesomeonewhowassur
prised"
Me:
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omi
sey
ou"hesi
ghed
Nka:
"sowhaty
ounotwi
thhi
m"
Me:
"I'
m wi
thy
ouNkaonl
yyounooneel
se"
Nka:
"yousur
eoft
hat
"Inodded
Me:
"Iswear
"
Nka:"
oksethi
m st
rai
ghti
nfactsetal
loft
hem
st
rai
ght"
Me:
"al
loft
hem?
"
Nka:"y
esdon'
tlookconfusedi
mt al
kingabout
Lungel
oBathoandteedoh'sbr
other
"
Me:
"Iwi
l
l"
Nka: "
goodnowcome"Ismi l
edgotofft
hechai
r
wentt ohi
m heopenedhisl
egsIgotbet
ween
them wekissedhepul
ledbackaf
terawhil
e
kissedmyforehead
Nka:"
Iloveyou"Iwenttositdownconti
nued
eat
ing"whenisyournextdoctor
'sappoi
ntment
"
Me:
"int
woweekst
ime"
Nka:
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thy
ou"
Me:
"oh"
Nka:
"what
"
Me:
"justt
hatIwasgoi
ngt
ogowi
thJay
"
Nka:
"whot
hef
ucki
sthatnow"
Me:
"Teedoh'
sbr
other
"
Nka:
"fuckt
hati
mtaki
ngy
ou"
Me:
"ok"
Nka:
"cl
ear
"Igi
ggl
ed
Me:
"cl
ear
"
Nka:
"youshoul
dreadt
hatar
ti
cle"
Me:
"whatdoesi
tsay
"
Nka: "
talksabouthowyouguysbeentogether
sincejnrhighnowy '
al
lexpect
ingy
ourfir
stchi
ld
rumour sarehisgoi
ngtoproposesoon"I
l
aughed
Me:
"youknowt
hat
'ssi
l
ly"
Nka:"i
tsay
syouhist
ruel
ovehedidn'
tev
en
stayatt
hepar
tycozhewasrushi
nghometo
you"
Me:
"mustbeni
ce"
Nka:
"mustbe"
Me:
"soy
our
eadgossi
pcol
umnsnow"
Nka:"notr
eal
l
ybutyourpi
cturewasonthe
coverpageof
cosIgotcur
ious"Il
aughed
Me:
"cur
iosi
ty"
Nka:"
shoul
dhav
etol
dmey
ougoi
ngt
ohi
s
game"
Me:"youknewwhereIwaswi
thoutmet
ell
i
ng
youanyway"hechuckl
ed
Nka:
"tr
ue"
Me:"y
oureal
l
yneedtostopt
histhi
ngofy
ou
t
racki
ngmeNkanyi
soitnotr
ight
"
Nka:
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tst
op"
Me:
"thany
ouwi
l
lfor
cemet
ochangemyI
D"
Nka:
"whygotsomet
hingt
ohi
de"
Me:
"noIdontbutwhaty
oudoi
ngi
snotr
ight
"
Nka:
"I'
l
lputmyI Donyourphoney
oucanknow
wher
eI'm atal
lthet
imetoo"
Me:"noIdon'
twantt
hat
"heshr
uggedhi
s
shoul
ders
Nka: "
yourchoicelove"Wefinishedeat i
ng
washedt hedishesIknewst habisowasi nthe
houselastthi
ngIwant edwashi m seeing
Nkany i
soorSet huknowingaboutNkany isoand
IsoItoldhim weshoul dspendt hedayathi s
placeIlef
tSethuanot eont hefridgeleftmy
phonebehindwel ef
tforhi
spl ace.
.
thefol
lowi
ngweekIwentt ohavelunchwi th
Bathohepickedmeupwhenwewal kedaround
themallgoi
ngtoeatsomepeopl erecognized
usBathowashol di
ngmyhandt heent i
reti
me
whenwegott otherest
aurantt
hehost ess
showedusourt abl
eBathopull
edachai rforme
hesatdownwhenhesawIwascomf ort
ably
seated
Me:
"ni
cepl
ace"hesmi
l
ed
Bat
ho:
"ri
ght
..
.Sohowar
ethi
ngshowi
sthe
baby"thewai
tercamewelookedatt
hemenui
n
si
lenceaft
erawhil
eweordered
Me:"
all
good,sawapict
ureofusi
nthe
magazi
ne"hechuckl
eduncor
mfor
tabl
y
Batho:
" j
aIsawitIguessIshoul
dhavet
hought
aboutthingsl
i
kethatbefor
eIjumpedonyou
l
ikeamadman"
Me:
"youshoul
dhav
ebuti
tok"
Bat
ho:
"soy
ounotmadatme"
Me;
"nope"
Bat
ho:
"ev
enaboutt
heki
ss"
Me:"ev
enaboutt
heki
ssbuti
tcan'
thappen
agai
n"
Batho:
"exact
lywhati
swr
ongwi
thmeki
ssi
ng
you"
Me:"ev
ery
thi
ngBathandwawenottogetherand
It
oldyouI
'm notl
ooki
ngforar
elat
ionshi
p"
Bat
ho:
"whyar
eyouseei
ngsomeone"
Me:"
noim notIj
ustneedt
ofocusonmeand
mybaby
"
Batho:
"butIcantakecar
eofy
ouandt
hebabyI
canbeaf at
hertohim"
Me:
"hehasaf
ather
"
Bat
ho:
"soy
ouandLungel
ofi
xedt
hings"
Me:"
noandwedon'thav
etobet
oget
herf
or
hi
mtobeafat
hertoourchi
l
d"
Bat
ho:"
Isee"ourf
oodcameItookabi
teand
moanedinappr
eci
ati
onhechuckl
ed
Bat
ho:
"itt
hatgood"If
inshedswal
l
owi
ng
Me:
"youhav
enoi
dea"
Bat
ho:
"Ist
il
ll
ovey
ouSi
no"
Me:"BathoIdon'twanal eadyouonimreal
l
y
notr
eadyf orarelat
ionshipIj
ustwanadome
andfocusonmybaby "
Bat
ho:"
youcanst
il
ldoyouandbewi
thme
whi
lef
ocusi
ngonthebaby"
Me:"thatcan'
thappenpl
easedon'
tpushmeon
t
his"hesighed
Bat
ho:
"canst
il
lbey
ourf
ri
endt
hough"
Me:"onl
yify
ouwon'tbekissi
ngmet
hatcan'
t
happenagai
n"hechuckl
ed
Bat
ho:
"whatam Iabadki
sser
"
Me:
"bestIev
erhad"
Bat
ho:
"sowhat
'
swr
ongwi
thmeki
ssi
ngy
ou"
Me:
"wef
ri
endsandf
ri
endsdon'
tki
ss"
Batho:
"oknomor
ekissi
ngbutIcanst
il
lcal
l
youandwecanst
il
lchil
landst
uff
"
Me;
"yes"
Batho;
"cooli
fyoueverhappent
ochangeyour
mindallyouhavet
odoi ski
ssme"Il
aughed
Me: "oryt
"wehadlunchov
erli
ghtconver sat
ion
afterithetookmehome.Afewday slaterJay
camet ocheckonmewewer ejustchi
ll
ingin
hiscarIwaseat i
ngmycheesecakethathehad
broughtformeheknewt hatIdi dn'twanabei n
arelat
ionshipsowewer ecool asbei ngf r
iends
alt
houghatf ir
sthepul l
edbackal it
tl
eIgav e
him hi
sspaceunt ilhewascool again.Lungel o
camet ocheckonmeev eryoncei nawhi l
ehe
neverbroughtupNkany isoIal sodidn' twejust
spokeaboutgener althi
ngsmost lyaboutt he
babymyemot i
onswer eal l overthepl acewhen
hetoldmet hathehasf orgi venmeand
NkanyisoIcriedsomuchIcr iedunt i
l Ifel
tli
keI
hadnot earslefti
nme.Af tercalmi ngmedown
hejustlaughedIendedupl aughingt hanhe
tookmet omuggnbeanf orcake.
.
SeptemberholidayscameIwas6mont hs
pregnantIwasn'tgai
ningweightmyst omach
wasni cenroundandIhadchubbycheekst hat
Nkany i
soli
kedt opul
lsayingIlookadorabl
e.I
wokeupf ri
daymi ddayIsleptalotwhenIwoke
upNkany i
sowasn' ti
nbedi hatedwakingup
withoutandheknewi t,Iwenttobathafter
makingt
hebedIgotoutloti
onedgotdr
essedin
shor
tsnhistshi
rthecameinwhenIwasfixi
ng
myhairi
nhisgym clot
hes
Nka:"
heyl
oveyouup"Inoddedheki
ssedmy
for
eheadt
ri
edhol
dingmebutIpushedhim
back
Nka:
"andnowwhatdi
dIdo"
Me:
"ni
x"hesi
ghed
Nka:
"Si
no"
Me:
"Nkany
iso"
Nka:
"whyy
ouupset
"
Me: "
I'
m not
"Iwal
kedouthi
sbedr
oom t
othe
ki
tchen
Nka:
"I'
m sor
ry"hewasf
oll
owi
ngme
Me:
"forwhat
"
Nka:
"aahf
or.
..Uhm what
everi
tist
hatIdi
d"
Me: "
mxm"Iopenedupt
hef
ri
dget
ookout
sconesnj
am
Nka:
"lov
e"
Me:"l
eav
emealoneNkany
iso"hehel
dmef
rom
behi
ndki
ssedt
hebackofmyneck
Nka:
"sor
ryl
ove"
Me:
"youdon'
tev
enknowwhyy
ouapol
ogi
zi
ng"
Nka:
"Iknow"
Me:
"why
"
Nka:
"aah"
Me: "
mxm yousee"Igotoutofhi
shol
dhe
chuckled
Nka:"
seewhatJri
sdoingtoyouim sorr
yIleft
youasl
eeplov
eIneededtoworkoutandIknow
youhatei
twhenIwakeyouupplusy ouneeded
t
herestaf
tert
hatworkyouputi
nwhenr idi
ng
me"
Me:
"Shutup"hel
aughed
Nka:
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ovey
ouok"
Me:
"ok"
Nka:
"sor
ry"Ir
oll
edmyey
es
Me:
"ok"
Nka:
"si
tdownI
'
llmakey
oursconesf
ory
ou"
Me: "t
hankyou"Isatdownhecutmyscones
nicel
yputti
ngjam onthem war
medupagl ass
ofsoymi l
kputsomeci nnamonini
tandgaveit
tomeheki ssedmyheadandsatnexttome
whileIate
Nka:"
soy'
al
ll
eav
ingMonday
"Phi
weandIwer
e
goi
nghome
Me:
"yeah"
Nka:"
yousur
eyoudon'
twantmet
ocomewi
th
y'
al
l"
Me:"It
hinki
tjustgoi
ngt
omaket
hingswor
se"
henodded
Nka:
"ify
out
hinkso"
Me:
"younotupsetov
eri
tri
ght
"hef
rowned
Nka:
"Idon'
tknow"
Me:"
Icanmakei
tupt
oyou"hegav
emea
smuggri
n
Nka:
"how"
Me:"Icandot
hatt
hingy
oul
i
ke"hebi
thi
s
bot
tom li
p
Nka; "
ohy eah"Inoddedhej umpedof ft
hehigh
chaircamet ome" yougotal i
tt
lemessover
herelove"helickedt hejam of
fmylipsIgi
ggled
Isquealedwhenhel ift
edmeupIhel dhisneck
andwr appedmyl egsaroundhiswaistl
aughing
Me:
"yougoi
ngt
odr
opme"hechuckl
ed
Nka:"seewhyIneedtoputmoreti
mei nt
he
gymy ouheavyl
ove"hestar
tedwal
kingusto
thebedroom
Me:
"shutupf
ool"hel
aughedandt
hrewmeon
t
hebedandgotontopofme
Nka:"sowhatwer eyousayi
ngaboutthatt
hing
thatIl
ike"Igiggl
edaft
eraboutanhourwewere
nakedcuddlinginbed
Nka:
"Il
ovey
ouSi
no"
Me:
"I'
m al
mostt
her
e"hel
aughed
Nka: "
I'
ll
takethat
"hepul
l
edmecloserbegan
drawingcircl
esonmytummyIsl
owlydrif
tedof
f
tosleep.
WhenIwokeuphewasst
ari
ngatmeIst
reched
Me:
"what
"
Nka:"
youbeaut
if
ul"Ismi
l
edgavehi
m asof
t
peck"
Sethucal
l
edshesayscomehomePhiwe
hasar
riv
ed"
Me:
"oh"
Nka:"y
ep"hegotofft
hebedandpull
edmeup
"l
et'
sgetyoucl
eanedupsoIcantakeyou
home"
Me:"ok"wet
ookashowert
hanhet
ookme
backtomyplace.
.
Mondayear
lymor
ningPhi
weandIdr
ovet
o
durbanIwasf reakingoutPhiwekeptont ryi
ng
toreassuremet hatev
eryt
hingwi l
lbej
ustfineI
waswear ingalosesummerdr esshopingmom
doesn'tnoti
ceassoonassheseesme.When
wegothomet heywer eatchurchweof fthecar
Phiwegav emehugandsai dev ery
thi
ngwi l
lgo
fi
ne.Hegotourbagsof fthecarleftmineinmy
room wewer eint hekit
cheneatingmom had
cookedbef or
et heylef
t
Phi
we:
"soy
ouwi
thNkany
isonow"
Me:
"yep"hel
aughed
Phi
we:"youamessy
ouknowt
hatr
ight
"I
l
aughed
Me:
"youst
il
ll
ovemet
hough"
Phiwe:"
total
l
yIbeenmeaningtoasky
ou
somethi
ngdi dn'
twanat
alkabouti
twi
thSet
hu
ther
e"Ichuckled
Me:
"what
'sup"
Phi
we:
"whatdoy
out
hinkofphel
okazi
"
Me:"she'
sgorgeousPhi
wegoodhear
tedIl
i
ke
her
"hesmi l
ed
Phi
we:
"thi
nkIwanamar
ryher
"Iscr
eamed
Me:
"what
??Gr
eat
!!
"Hesmi
l
ed
Phi
we:
"neh"
Me:
"e.
e"
Dad:
"nci
nci
"hewasget
ti
ngi
nthehouse
Me:
"ohshi
t"
Phi
we:
"yeah"
Dad:
"wher
ear
eyou?
"
Me:"i
ntheki
tchendaddy
"hecameinand
huggedmefr
om thebackmom goti
naft
ert
hat
Dad:
"Imi
ssedy
ouki
d"
Me:"mi
ssedy
out
oodaddy
"mom ki
ssedmy
head
Mom:
"howar
eyout
wo"
Phi
we:
"wegoodmom j
ustt
ir
edbeenal
ong
dr
ive"
Mom:
"Iseey
'al
lfoundt
hef
ood"
Me:
"yepi
tdel
i
cious"
Dad:
"I'
m sur
eitbeenawhi
l
esi
ncey
ouhada
homecookedmeal"
Me:
"Icancooknowdaddy
"
Mom:
"real
l
ymmhnowondery
oul
ookbi
g"
Phi
we:
"tookhert
ocooki
ngcl
ass"
Dad:
"that
'sgr
eat
"
Me:
"yeah"
Phiwe:"weneedtotal
k"Iwassi
tt
ingdownso
theycouldn'
tseemystomach
Mom:
"ev
ery
thi
ngokPhi
we"
Phiwe:"y
es"mom l
ookedatmeIj
ustsmi
l
ed
theysatdown
Phi
we:
"don'
tgetmadokandnohar
shwor
ds"
Dad:
"what
'sgoi
ngonPhi
we"
Phi
we:
"Si
no"Ishookmyhead"
she'
spr
egnant
"
Mom:
"what
?!!
"Il
ookeddown
Dad:
"isi
ttr
ueSi
nov
uyo"
Me:"y
es"dadstoodupwal
kedst
rai
ghtoutof
themaindooraf
teraf
ewminut
esweheardhis
cardr
ivi
ngoff
Mom:
"howf
ar"
Me:
"6mont
hs"sheshookherhead
Mom: "
youjustcoul
dn'twai
tGodSi novuyoyou
j
ustanundergradst
udentinfactafir
styear
st
udentyoucouldn'
tkeepyourlegsclosed"
Me:
"sor
rymom"
Mom:
"whosei
sit
"
Me:"
Lungel
o"Phi
wel
ookedatmewi
thar
aised
ey
ebrow
Mom:"t
hatdlaminiki
d"Inodded"seewhyIkept
awayf
rom thoseboysevery
onethoughtIwas
bei
ngunreasonabl
enowy ouseeev enNkany
iso
woul
dhavebeenbet
tert
hant
hatki
d"she
wal
kedout
Phiwe:"wel
lthatwentbet
tert
hanIwas
expect
ing"
Me:"
youthi
nk.
..Daddyj
ustwal
kedoutand
dr
oveof
f"
Phi
we:
"soLungel
o"
Me:"
Ipani
cked"hesi
ghedandwr
appedhi
s
ar
msaroundmyneckkissi
ngmyhead
Phi
we:
"comegot
obed"
Me:
"daddyhat
esmePhi
we"Ist
art
edcr
ying
Phi
we:
"hedoesn'
that
eyouSi
nohi
sshocked"
Me:
"hedoeshat
eme"
Mom: "
hedoesn'that
eyouSinohi
s
di
sappoi
nted"shespokebehi
ndme
Me:
"that
'swor
se"
Mom:"
comeher
e"Igotof
fthechairwentt
oher
"
youbi
ghowdi
dImissthat
"Ishruggedmy
shoul
der
sshegav
emeahugandl
etoutasi
gh
Me:
"I'
m sosor
rymommy
"shebr
ushedmyhai
r
Mom: "
itokt
hechi
l
disher
enowy
oucan'
ttake
i
tback"
Me:
"sor
ry"
Mom: "
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l
ed"
Dad:"Si
noyouunder
standhowdi
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ntedI
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ight"
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m sosor
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ghed
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legi
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m adi
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humil
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oubutI'
m sosorr
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peopl
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nci
nci y
oumydaught ernott hem If
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ti
ng
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waterbr oke
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heyl
ookedatme
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tlov
ecoul
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et"
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o:"
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ookedat
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o:"
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aygamesj ustbecausey
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eltpainandcr
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hu:
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s"
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hu: "shi
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oy ourcar
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zzat
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nhi
s
handandtookabi
te
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hu:
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!!
"
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owasi
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st
it
ches
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if
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ustr
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atul
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ouwanted"
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no"
Me:
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ease"
Nka:
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ngt
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ohi
m now?
"
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"
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t
you"
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tful
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uckngo!
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m hi
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ou
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ightgot
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sfat
her
"
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juststop!
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ookingbehindmeIt ur
nedsawLungel
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ust
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uggedhi sshoul
ders
Lungel
o:"
Iam happy
"
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nhi
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oveof
f
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dyouhav
etor
ubi
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i
ket
hat
"
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o:"
heaskedandIanswer
ed"
Me:
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!"
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o:"
comel et
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dli
ket
ohol
dmy
daught
erri
ghtnow"
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ouI
'
llcal
lacab"
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o:"
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amat
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ngt
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thesameplace"
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ouar
enotgoi
ngt
omypl
ace"
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o:"
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tfuckwithmeSinoim goingto
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eain'
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doabouti
tnowar eyoucomingornot"Itook
myphoneouttocallacabbuthesnatchedit
fr
om me
Me:
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uckLungel
ogi
vememyphone"
Lungelo:
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dishgeti
nthi
sf uckn
carandlet'
sgo"Ifloodedmyhandsov ermy
chestnpout edhechuckled"don'
tbedi
fficul
t
Sino"
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o"heopenedthe
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rmingoutofhishol
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ssi
degotinanddrove
off
Lungel
o:"
seet
hatwasn'
thar
d"
Me:"y
our
eal
l
ydi
dn'
thav
etor
ubi
tinl
ungel
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si
ghed
Lungel
o:"
IknowandI
'
llapol
ogi
zet
ohi
m once
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edof
f"
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Lungel
o:"
may
bet
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ort
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hough"
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ermsofwhat
"
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o:"
wecanmov eonfr
om thi
swhole
Nkanyi
sosagaandbeusagainr
aiseour
daught
erasacoupl
e"
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o"
Lungel
o:"
justt
hinkabouti
t"
Me:
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m wi
thNkany
iso"
Lungel
o:"
Idon'
tcar
eifhehadn'
tcameher
eyou
wouldbewit
hme"
Me:"hej
ustfoundoutthatLuvuyoisnothi
sI
knowyounotthatheartl
essthatyouwould
makemov esonmer ightnowont hesameday"
Lungel
o;"
your
ighti
m notbuthei
s"
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tbespi
tef
ul"
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o:"
hest
oley
ouf
rom me"
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ouwantr
evenge"hechuckl
ed
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o:"
noIl
ovey
ouandy
ouknowt
hat
"
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vememyphone"hetookitoutofhi
s
j
eanpocketandgavei
ttomeIcall
edNkanyiso
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ckup
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o:"
hisgoi
ngt
odosomet
hingst
upi
d"
Me:
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Lungel
o:"hewon'
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ouj
ust
don'
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ove"
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o:"
it
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het
rut
h"
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cal
l
ysay
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erl
ovedy
ou"
Lungel
o:"
yourwor
ds"
Me:
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ntt
aken"
Lungel
o:"
don'
tbeupsett
hisi
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ngday
Sinowehaveadaught
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rlmyver
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nci
"Il
aughed
Me:"
youhappy
"hel
ookedatmeputhi
shand
onmylap
Lungel
o:"
youhav
enoi
dea"
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'
m gl
adshe'
syours"hel
ookedatmeI
l
ookedoutt
hewindow
Lungel
o:"
hisgoi
ngtobefi
negivehi
mt i
me"I
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kedwent
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Lungel
o:"
youguy
sgoi
nghomedayaf
ter
tomorr
ow"
Me:"yeahdaddyi
sfly
ingint
omor
rowt
hanwe'
l
l
dr
ivedownt hef
oll
owingday
"
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o:"t
ell
himt onotcomeI'l
ltakey'
al
lhome
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ngto
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de"wegotof ft
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orwentin
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ngtvwithLuvuyoonher
stomach
Me:
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hatsi
de"Lungel
otook
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uyoki
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lov
erhert
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ace
Lungelo:"
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m soinlov
ewit
hy oubaby
"he
wispheredwhil
elooki
ngather
Set
hu:
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her
esul
tar
eout
"
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hisgoi
ngt
obe
fi
ne"
Me:"
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l"shelef
tusi
ntheloungeLungel
o
wasj
ustst
aringathi
sdaught
er
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herbutshe' smi neSi noIcan'texpl ai
nwhatI'm
feeli
ngri
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tears"Il
ov ehersomuch"
Me:"that
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rsthel
dher "he
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oundmebr oughtme
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osertohim whil
eLuv uy
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hisi
susSi noourcr
eationIknowit
wasn'tplannedbutI'
m sograt
eful
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myf oreheadLuvuyostar
tedcryi
ngmor eli
ke
wail
ing
Me:
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ingherher
e"
Lungelo:"
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tl
e
star
tedfeedi
ngherwhenshehadenoughhe
burpedhershefel
lasl
eepimmediat
ely
Lungel
o:"
magi
chands"Il
aughed
Me:
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osl
eep"
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hercotwewat chedhersleepi
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t
them ther
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conyjust
thi
nkingaboutNkanyisoLungel
ocamet ostand
nexttome
Lungel
o:"
Sino"
Me:
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Lungel
o:"
letmel
ovey
ouSi
nov
uyoandl
etme
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eachy
ouhowt
olov
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opl
easenotnowl
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Luv
uy o"
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ey outheki
ndof
l
ovey ouwoul
dnevergetf
rom anyone"
Me:
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Lungel
o:"
thenl
etmel
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ou"
Me:
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odon'
t"
Lungel
o:"
I'
m her
eI'
l
lal
way
sbeher
eSi
nof
or
youandLuvuyo"
Me:
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oveyoufori
t"myphoner
ang
i
nmypocketIt
ookitouti
twasTeedoh
Me:"
heyboo"hel
etoutasob"
heywhat
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s
wr
ong"
Teedoh:
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sint
hehospi
tal
"
Me:
"whathappened"
Teedoh:
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"
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m comi
ngt
extmewher
e
youare"Ihungup
Lungel
o:"
what
'swr
ong"
Me:
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"
Lungel
o:"ohwantmet
odr
ivey
out
othe
hospi
tal
"
Me:"nost
aywi
thherI
'
llbebackassoonasI
can"
Lungel
o:"
okdon'
tspeed"
Me:"Iwont
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anoutt heapart
mentgoti
nmy
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eofft
ot hehospi
talwhenIgott
her
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she"
Teedoh:
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ger
y"
Me:"comeher e"hecamet omeandwehel d
eachotherhejustcri
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ter
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ti
ngroom
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smom:
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smyson"
Doc:"hi
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ywentwell
now
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ngf orhimtowakeuplucki
l
ynone
ofthebull
etshithisorgans"
Me:
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ethanonebul
l
et"
Doc:
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imes"
T'
smom:
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Doc: "
I'
llgetanursetocomel ety'
allknowwhen
y'al
lcanseehi m buti
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visi
torpertime"wenoddedhewal kedout
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cewas
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ng
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oucan'
twhat
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swr
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Phi
we:
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hingIcan'
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Me:"wedon'
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hingsfr
om eachother
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wewhat'
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"Phi
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muchI '
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panicki
ngandbegginghertotell
mewhat's
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dshesay
"
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we:"shesai
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Me:"ohSi
mphiwewhowoul
dsaynot
oyoui
t
herl
ossyouperf
ect
"
Phi
we:
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ssi
ckSi
nov
uyo"
Me:
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ckhow"
Phi
we:
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tpr
obl
em shecan'
tcar
ry
chi
ldr
enbecauseofi
tandshe'
spregnantSino
she'
spregnantwi
thmychil
dherdoctornfamil
y
wanthertohaveanabor
ti
onbutshewon'tdo
i
t"
Me:
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tunder
stand"
Phiwe:
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tisnotstrongenought ol
ether
carr
yachil
dtofullter
m shemi ghtdi
eorthe
babymightdi
ewor stcasetheybothdie"
Me:
"ohmyGod"
Phiwe:"
howcanshenott ellmeallofthis
Sinov
uyowe'vebeentogetherfor4yearswhat
ki
ndofaboy fri
endam It
hatIdidn'
tev ennot
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shewast aki
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mentf or4bloodyyear
s"
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ndwhenitcomest o
t
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ourfaul
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ff
ed
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tIshoul
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dn'thav
emadeherpr egnant
"
Me:
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ourf
aul
tbr
oyoudi
dn'
tknow"
Phi
we:
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ghtdi
ebecauseshedoesn'
t
wanakil
lmychildshedoesn'tevenwanamarry
shethi
nksIdeserv
ebettercan'tsheseet
hat
she'
sallt
hatIwantnneed"
Me:"gi
vehert
imetoprocessthi
ngsPhi
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Me:"
whendi
dyougether
e"Ipul
l
edoutofhi
s
ar
ms
Dad:"
fewmi
nut
esagoshel
ooksbeaut
if
ul"I
smil
ed
Me:"
sheisdaddyI
'v
eneverseensomet
hingso
br
eat
htaki
ng"hesmil
ed
Dad:"I
'
llseeherpr
oper
lywhenshe'
supandout
ofherdad'sar
ms"
Me:
"ok"
Dad:
"youhappynci
nci
"
Me:"
alot"Il
ookedatmyt
woLusandsmi
l
ed
"
li
kealotdaddy"
Dad:"
goody ouandl
ungel
obet
ternotmake
anymorebabies"
Me:
"daddy
"
Dad:
"I'
m ser
iousnci
nci
itt
raumat
izi
ngt
oknow
t
hatyouhavi
ngsex"
Me:
"geesedaddy
"
Dad: "I
'm bei
nghonestcomel
etlet'
sthesetwo
rest"hetookmyhandwewentdownst ai
rs.The
restofthedaywentbysmoothlylungel
oleftas
soonashewasup, daddySet
huluvuyonIwent
outf ordi
nner.
.
Thef
oll
owingdayIpackedourthi
ngsl
ungel
o
cametotakesomeofthestuf
fsincemycari
s
smallwel
eftfordbnaft
erIwenttoseeJayhe
l
ookedbet
ter.mom metusoutsidewhenwe
gothomeshet ookLuv
uyo
Mom:
"she'
sbeaut
if
ulSi
no"
Me:
"shegotl
ungel
o'
sski
ncompl
exi
on"
Mom:
"butshe'
sal
lyou"
Dad:
"remi
ndsmeofwhenwebroughther
home"mom gav
edadati
ghtsmil
eshewalked
i
n
Me:
"ismom ok"
Dad:
"she'
sfi
nenci
nci
"wewal
kedi
n
Mom:
"Ihadanur
seysetupf
orher
"
Me:"thankyoumom"wewal kedupstairsa
room nexttominewaschangedfrom guest
room toanurseryi
twasbeauti
ful
allpinkwit
h
butt
erfl
iesall
overt
hewall
Mom:"It
hinkweshoul
dmov
ethecott
oyour
r
oom f
ortheti
mebeing"
Me:"y
eah"shesmiledandgavehertomeshe
movedhercottomyr oom dadwasalr
eady
br
ingi
nginourstuf
f.Luvuy
oandIslept
i
mmedi at
elyaf
tert
alki
ngtolungel
oandhavi
ng
di
nner.
.
Timef lewbyi twasSundaywewer egoi ngto
baptizeLuv uyot hingsbetweenmom ndad
wer ekindawei rdbutt heyt r
iedact i
nglike
everythingi sfinewhenweal lthesamer oom.I
tookabat hgotdr essedi nawhi tebodyhuggi ng
belowt hekneedr esswi thblackst al
kingsand
nudeheel sItiedmyweav einamessybunput
awhi tef l
oodeddoekl ikeahai r
bandmom had
gottenLuv uyor eady .Wel ef
tafterbreakf ast
whenwegott her elungelowasal readyt here
l
ooki ngamazi ngl ygorgeousi nblackchi nowith
awhi teshi rtnbl ackblazerwi thanav yt i
ehis
hairpushedbackwi thnav yformal shoesna
navybel thecamet ouswhenhesawushe
greetedmypar ent stheywentt ot heot her
pr
eacher
s
Lungel
o:"
isi
twei
rdt
hatI
'
m al
i
ttl
ener
vous"I
chuckl
ed
Me:"ki
nda,heret
akeher"hetookLuvuy
owe
wentinyoh!Theeyesnwhisperswhenpeopl
e
sawuswesatdownt oget
her
Lungel
o:"
isi
tmeorev
ery
onei
sst
ari
ngatus"
Me:"
theyar
ey oumadethepreacher
slastbor
n
pr
egnantwhatdoyout
hink"
Lungel
o:"
abeaut
if
ulPKIt
hinkt
heyj
eal
ous"I
l
aughedheki
ssedmyhead
Me:"youcan'
tdot
hathere"t
hegi
rlt
hatwas
si
tt
ingnexttousl
ookatusindi
sgust
Lungel
o:"
Ilov
eyou"Ismi
l
ed
Me: "
husht hesessionisabouttostar
t"he
chuckledandputhi shandaroundmywai stI
giggl
edandpushedhi m wesatquietl
ythr
ough
thesessionlungel
owassosl eepyi
twasf unny
towatcht owardstheendoft hesessi
onwe
wer ecalledf orwar dlungelonIst oodupt hat'
s
whenpeopl eact uall
yrealisedthatlungel ois
l
uv uyo'dadsomewer egaspingot hers
whi sper
ingal i
tt
letoloudl yaswewal kedt othe
frontoneoft hepreacher shadt otellthem to
remai nsilentwhent hepr eachersaidLuv uyo'
s
fullnamei ncludingsur namei heardlotof' '
mmh,
Jesus, yoh, hay i
"Iwasl i
kejanehChr istiansare
j
udgement al.Wheni twasov erwewentt osit
down
Lungelo:"well
thatwasf
un"hesai
d
sarcasti
call
y
Me:
"peopl
eal
way
stal
k"
Lungel
o:"asl
ongasIgotmygir
lsi
m good"I
l
ookedupathim andsmil
edaft
ert
heservi
ce
l
ungeloLuvuy
onIwentoutforl
unch.
.
Aweeki
ntoDecemberSet
huwashomeshe
camei
ntomyroom whi
leIwasf
eedi
ngLuv
uyo
Set
hu:
"hi
"
Me:
"hi
what
'sup"
Set
hu:
"canIasky
ousomet
hing"
Me:
"sur
e"
Sethu:
"Idon'tknowifitmeorwhatbutdoy
ou
sensethetensionbetweenmom ndad"
Me:
"yeahInot
icedi
t"
Sethu:
"hear
dthem ar
gui
ngl
astni
ghtmom was
cry
ing"
Me:
"whatdoy
out
hinki
swr
ong"
Sethu:
"Idon'
tknowbutI'
m worri
edSinoIdon't
wantmom ndadt ogetdi
vorced"shestar
ted
cry
ing
Me:"heyever
ythi
ngi
sgoi
ngt
obef
inet
heywi
l
l
sor
titout"
Set
hu:
"itbadSi
nolastt
imet
heyf
oughtl
i
ket
hat
waswheny our
anaway"
Me:
"theywi
l
lsor
titoutt
heyl
oveeachot
hert
oo
muchgetdi
vor
ced"
Set
hu;
"doy
out
hinkt
heyf
ight
ingov
erLuv
uyo"
Me:
"Set
huwhatt
heheck"
Set
hu;
"imj
ustaski
ng"
Me; "
therei
snoreasonfort
hem tof
ightover
Luvuyolungel
o'
sparent
saretaki
ngcareofher"
Isnapped
Set
hu:"sor
ryIdidn'
tmeani
tli
ket
hatj
ustt
hat
i
mr eal
l
ywor r
ied"
Me:
"ok"
Set
hu:
"sor
ry"shewal
kedout
.
OnFr i
daywewentt olungel
o'shousetheywere
havingther i
tualforLuvuyoitwentonupunt i
l
l
ateSatur day.Everythi
ngwentwel l
butitwasso
weirdseeingnkany i
so'
sparentswithouthi
m,
wehadn' tspokesi nceheleftj
hbhedi dn'
t
bothercalli
ngandmypr i
dewouldn'tl
etmecall
myst at
usonwhat sappwas* manf uckyour
pri
dejustt akeitallback*apartofmeknew
thatal
lheneededtodowasapologi
zeand
thi
ngsbetweenuswouldbegood.The
foll
owi
ngdaywewentt ochur
chanditwasa
normalbori
ngSunday.
.
Mondayt hingwe'recool Lungelocameov erwe
chil
ledoutsidewithLuvuy omypar ent sdidn't
wanthimi nt hehouse.Itwasget ti
ngl atedaddy
wasn'thomeweev enwentt ochur chcame
backwi t
houthi m bei
nghomewhenhegot
homei twasal most21:00hegr eetedwe
greetedbackbutmom di dn'tshejuststoodup
wentupst ai
rsdadf ol
lowedherupSet hujust
l
ookedatmeIshr uggedmyshoul dersaf t
era
fewmi nuteswehear dshout ingSet huran
upstair
scr y
inglockedher selfi
nherr oom Iwent
toputLuv uyodownsi nceshewasasl eepI
wentclosert omypar ent'
sbedr oom to
eavesdrop
Dad:
"she'
sher
enowOngewhatdoy
ouexpect
met
odo"
Mom: "she'smydaught
erZukoIrai
sedherfrom
theti
meshewasbor nt
hatl
it
tl
egirl
can'tcome
hereafter19year
stomakeclai
msov ermy
chil
d"shewascr y
ing
Dad:"nci
ncilov
esyouOngey ouwil
lal
waysbe
hermom butsheneedst oknowhermother
Nicol
ejustwantncinci
toknowabouthershe'
s
notheretotakeherawayfr
om you"
Mom: "whynowZuko!Shedi
dn'
twanther
befor
eallshe'
sher
etodoisbri
ngme
heart
ache"
Dad:
"shewant
sameet
ingwi
thusandnci
nci
"
Mom: "Zukono!
"Shecri
edoutIknockedont
he
doorbutnoonesaidanyt
hingIgoti
nmom was
i
ntearsherfacewasred
Me:
"mom y
ouok"shewast
rembl
i
ng
Dad:
"nci
nci
got
obed"
Me:
"no"
Dad:
"nci
nci
bednow"her
oar
ed
Me: "
no!!She'snotokdadcan' tyouseeandit
yourfaultIheardeveryt
hing"dadtookasharp
breat
hmom dr oppedtot hefl
oorandcriedI
wenttohert ri
edwr appi
ngmyar msar oundher
wecr i
ed
Me:"i
t'
sokmom youmymotherIdon'
tcar
e
aboutwNicol
eI'
venev
ermet
"
Mom:"gotobedSi
nowewi
l
ltal
kint
he
mor
ning"
Me:
"ar
eyouok"
Mom:
"yes"
Me:"Il
ovey
oumom"shesmi
l
edandki
ssedmy
f
orehead
Mom: "Il
oveyoutoochi
l
d"Igotupandpulled
herupthanIlef
tther
oom dadtr
iedhol
dingmy
arm butIqui
ckl
ymoveditf
rom him
Me:
"don'
ttouchme"
Dad:
"nci
nci
"
Me;"don'
t"Iwentt
omyr oom cal
ledLungel
oto
comet omeItookLuvuy
ot osethu'
sroom and
wentoutLungelowasal
readywaiti
ngformeby
thegate
Me:
"hi
sali
ar"Ist
artedcr
yingLungel
obrought
metohi
schestwrappedhisar
msar oundme
Lungel
o:"
what
'sgoi
ngon"
Me:
"mom i
snotmymot
her
"
Lungel
o:"
whatdoy
oumean"
Me:
"somewomancal
l
edNi
col
eismymot
her
"
Lungel
o:"
andy
ourdad"
Me:
"Idon'tknowmom saidwe'
l
ltal
kint
he
mor
ning"hekissedmyhead
Lungel
o:"
ever
ythi
ngi
sgoingtoworkoutok
l
ist
entothem i
nthemor
ning"Ishookmyhead
Me:"Idon'
twanaheari
tI'
l
ldi
eifdadi
snotmy
f
ather"
Lungel
o:"
heyl
et'
sgohomei
tcol
douther
e"
Me:
"Ishoul
dnt
"
Lungel
o:"comeIj
ustwanahol
dyoumakesur
e
youalr
ight"
Me: "
ok"heheldmyhandwewal kedtohis
housestrai
ghtuptohi sbedr
oom hi
sparents
werealr
eadyasleephegav emehistshir
tI
changedoutofthedr essIwasweari
ngwor e
thetshi
rtgotunderthecoverhegoti
nbehind
meandcamecl osertomewr appi
nghisarms
aroundme
Lungel
o:"
Itext
edSet
hut
oldhery
ouher
e"
Me:
"thanky
ou"
Lungel
o:"
youwel
come"wesl
ept
.
.
WokeupearlyIwenttor
insemymout hn
washedmyf acei
nhisbathroom t
henwe
walkedoutt
hebedroom r
ani nt
ohismom int
he
ki
tchenshewasmakingbr eakf
astaf
ter
exchanginggr eet
ingsanddecl
i
ningon
breakfastLungelowalkedmehome.Ifound
dadint heloungeIjustwal
kedpasshi
m
withoutgreeti
ngwhenIwasgoi ngupthest
air
s
hecalledme
Me:
"yes"
Dad:"thi
sisnotthet
imef oryourl
itt
leact
ing
outstuntsandyouarestil
lachil
dinthishouse
Iwil
lnotolerat
eyousleepingout"
Me:
"ok"
Dad:
"dami
tnci
nci
"
Me:
"don'
ttakeouty
ourf
rust
rat
ionsonme"
Dad:
"Jesust
hischi
l
dIwi
l
lbeaty
ouup"
Mom:"l
eavethechi
ldal
one"shecameinfrom
t
heki
tchen"gobathSi
noweneedt ot
alk"
Me:"y
esmom"Iwentupst ai
rscheckedon
Set
hunLuv uyobothoft
hem weresti
llasl
eepI
wenttot
akeal ongbat
hwhenIwasdone
get
ti
ngdressedIwentdownstai
rssatonthe
couch
Me:
"I'
m her
e"daddi
dn'
tsayany
thi
ng
Mom:
"tal
kZuko"hecl
ear
edhi
sthr
oat
Dad:"
ncinciIunder
standthaty
ouangrymaybe
youhavelotofquesti
onsbutyouneedtoget
t
hatwedi dwhatwet houghtwasr
ight
"
Me:
"ar
eyoumyf
ather
"
Dad:
"Gody
es"
Me:
"howi
sitt
hatshe'
snotmymot
her
"
Mom:
"hecheat
edonme"
Me:
"dad"
Dad:
"itwasami
stake"
Me:
"soi
m ami
stake"
Dad:
"ofcosnotnci
ncit
hat
'snotwhatImeanI
meantheaffai
rwit
hyourmother
"
Me:
"thatr
esul
tedi
nmesoi
m ami
stake"
Dad:
"don'
tputwor
dsi
nmymout
h"
Me:"
Itr
ustedyoudaddyy oul
iedtomeaft
er
t
hatyoucall
meami stake"Iwipedmyt
ears
Mom:
"younotami
stakeSi
nowel
ovey
ou"
Me:
"youshoul
dhav
elef
thi
m mom"
Mom:
"yesIshoul
dhav
e"dadl
ookeddown
Me:"
sothi
swomanwhogav
ebi
rt
htomewho
i
sshe"
Dad:"she'
sni
col
esmit
hshewasdoingher
pract
ical
satwor
kshestayesi
nMidrandnow
butshe'si
ndbnshewantstomeety
ou"
Me:
"whydi
dn'
tsher
aiseme"
Dad:"
shewast r
yingtofi
ndher
selfandyour
mom wantedyouNi col
ewasn'
treadyt
obea
mother
"Ichuckl
ed
Me: "
letherknowIhaveamothershecango
backt oj
hbma' Bhedl
aismymothernotsome
Nicolewhereisshecomingf
rom anywayaf
ter
al
l t
hesey ear
s"
Dad: "
shetrackedmedownandgotmywor k
contactsaft
ershesawyourpict
ureona
magazi net
herewasanarti
cleabouty
ou"afterI
gavebirthBathowasseenoncoupleofdates
wit
ht hi
sgirlagossi
pmagazinedidastor
yon
BathoandI
Me:"wel
lshecangobackt
oMi
drand"Iwal
ked
awaytotheki
tchen
Dad:" shesaysyouhavealit
tl
ebr ot
herhi
s14in
hi
ghschool hewantstomeety ou"Ist
opped
walkingandsmi ledatt
hethoughtofhavi
ng
anotherbrotherIlov
edSimphiwe
Me:
"I'
dlov
etomeetmybr
other
"
Dad:"
I'
ll
giv
ey ouhernumbery
ouwi
l
lcal
lher
whenyouready"
Me:
"ok"
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08/
12,
21:
24]Wadz
:Inser
t19
.
Mom:
"whataboutNi
col
e"
Me:"shecanhangher
sel
fonabananat
reef
or
al
lIcare"
Dad:
"Si
nov
uyo!
"
Me:"don'
t..Whyi
sshehereanywaywhat
'
sher
i
ntenti
ondoesshewantyouback"
Dad:
"Godchi
l
dwat
chhowy
out
alkandshe'
s
marr
ied"
Me;"
thatdi
dn'
tst
opyoubef
ore"hest
oodupso
f
asthewasabouttosl
apmewhenmom tal
ked
Mom: "dareslapmydaughterl
uzukomykids
andIwillwalkoutt
hathouseandnevert
urn
back"
Dad:"sowhatImustwat
chherbei
ng
di
srespect
ful
"
Mom: "
ital
lyourf
aul
t"dadwal
kedoutt
he
house
Me:
"I'
m sor
rymom"
Mom:
"Iunder
standy
ouhur
ti
ngbuty
oudon'
t
gett
otal
ktoy
ourf
atherl
i
ket
hat
"
Me:
"yesma'
am sor
ry"
Mom: "
I'
m goi
ngtodosomegr
ocer
yy our
br
otheri
scominghomewit
hphel
okazidoyou
wanttocomewit
hme"
Me:
"can'
tLuv
uyowi
l
lbeupsoon"
Mom: "
oryt"Isatdownshewentupst air
scame
backwi t
hherbagnkey sshel eft
.Isatthere
cryi
ngIfeltsodi sappointedinmyf athernever
i
nami l
li
ony ear sdi
dot hinkhecoul ddo
anythi
ngt ohur tmom hel ovedhertoomuchmy
parentshadt hekindofl ovenr el
ati
onshipthat
youwoul dlookatandsayy ouwanti tf
or
yoursel
foneday .Ihadanewsenseofr espect
formom t oraiseachi l
dt hati
snoty ourwor sea
chil
dthaty ourhusbandgotbecauseof
cheati
ngandf orhertot akemeasherdaught er
i
nsteadofl ookingatmeasar eminderofher
husband'saffairshelovedme.Af t
erawhi l
e
Sethucamedownwi t
hLuv uyoshesatnextt o
meItookmydaught
erIcoul
dn'ti
maginel
ett
ing
someoneel
ser
aiseherj
ustbecauseIwantt
o
fi
ndmysel
f.
Set
hu:
"youokIhear
dev
ery
thi
ng"
Me:
"I'
mfi
ne"
Set
hu:
"itokt
ohur
tSi
no"
Me:
"justcan'
tbel
i
evedaddycheat
edonmom"
Sethu:
"Iknowrighti
fdadcandothatt
omom I
guessitt
ruethatever
ymalecheat
s"
Me:"Idon'
tthi
nkI
'
m goi
ngt
olov
ebl
i
ndl
y
any
mor e"
Set
hu:
"can'
tbel
i
evemom i
snoty
ourmom"
Me:
"don'
tsayt
hatSi
phoset
humom i
smy
mot
her"
Set
hu:"
youknowwhatImean,
arey
ougoi
ngt
o
meett
hisni
col
ewoman"
Me:
"Idon'
twantt
o"
Set
hu:
"youshoul
dhearherout
"
Me:
"notsoon"
Set
hu:
"howcanshesl
eepwi
thamar
ri
edman"
Me:"don'
tdothatSet
hudon'
tbl
ameherfor
dad'
sdoingshewasn'tt
heonewhowas
marr
ieddadwas"
Set
hu:
"whyy
oudef
endi
ngher
"
Me:"
I'
m noti
mjustsayi
ngitdadwhocheat
ed
onhi
swifeshewasn'
tthemarri
edone"
Set
hu:
"samet
hingshe'
sgotnomor
als"
Me:
"yout
alkt
oomuch"
Set
hu:
"mxm"
Dad:
"don'
targueaboutt
hisnci
nci
isr
ight
"we
di
dn'
tevenhearhi
m comingin
Set
hu:
"nowondershe'
syourf
avor
it
e"
Dad:"
Siphoset
hu"shest
oodupwentback
upst
air
sItookmydaughterupst
air
sfedher,
gaveherabaththanwechi
ll
edinmyr oom dad
cameinwhenIwasf al
li
ngasl
eepLuvuyowas
al
readyasl
eep
Me:"
I'
mtr
yingt
osl
eep"hesi
ghedandsaton
mybed
Dad: "
Iknowy ouangryanddisappoint
edncinci
Ishouldhavetoldyoulongti
meagobutwehad
agreedthatweshouldn'tt
ell
youandnowni col
e
keptonpushingsaysheneedsy ouinherl
ife
andthatyoushouldbet ol
dev enifyoudon'
t
wantany t
hingtodowi t
hherbuty oushould
know"
Me:"
Idon'
twantany
thi
ngtodowi
thbutIr
eal
l
y
woul
dli
ketot
alktomybrot
her
"
Dad:"
Itol
dhershesaysshewi
l
lgethi
mindbn
bef
oretheweekend"
Me:
"ohsoy
out
alkt
oherof
ten"
Dad:
"itnotl
i
ket
hatnci
nci
"
Me:
"youhur
tmom Idon'
tthi
nkIcangetpass
t
hat
"
Dad:
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aughed
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other
"
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ery
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"
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Ni
c:"
ohsor
ry"
Me:
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eyou"
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c:"
I'
m wel
landy
ou"
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ne,
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ntown"
Ni
c:"
yes"
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ket
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row"
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c:"
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c:"
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tis"
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i
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c:"
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ter
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m
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comeonev enifi
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hesai dhi sthankscamet ome
Me:
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if
ul"
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o:"
youi
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reme"
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'
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thy
ou"hechuckl
ed
Lungel
o:"
yety
oudon'
twantme"
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owor
konme"
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Iunderstand"hekissedmyf orehead
puthisarm overmyshoul derwewat chedthe
restoftheshowi nsil
ence.Aftertheshowwe
wenttowat chamov i
ehaddi nnerthenhetook
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.
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alsoexcitedLuv uy
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ngt oLungelohewant edtocomewi thme
butIneededt odoi talone.Igotoffthebed
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aughed
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m sur
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ort
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twai
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ve
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hesameheartacheyougav
eme"
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"
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ket heDevi
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uyo"
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mleav
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Dad:
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ocomewi
thy
ou"
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mom"
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cal
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what
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"
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mmhy
oul
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if
ul"
Me:
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ou"
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youok"
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hinkso"
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l
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eahyouare,y
ousur
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'
m cool
"
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ou"
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lyneedtowearsomethi
ng
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ikethat
"he
l
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youwantme"
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Ni
c:"
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vi
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vi
n:"
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let
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vi
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let
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vi
n:"
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vi
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vi
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vi
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us"
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c:"
Domi
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m notDomini
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c:"gi
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ory
"
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vi
n:"
mybi
gbr
other
"
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gbr
other
"
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vi
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yeshi
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hough"
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unnyface"
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vi
n:"
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ace"Ichuckl
ed
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ce"
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vi
n:"
IwanagoUshakaIsawi
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i
ne"
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m notr
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l
ydr
essedf
orUshaka"
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vi
n:"
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fi
tthan"
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ight"wewentbackt otheshopsIwent
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ookhimto
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l
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her.Timef lewbyi twasNewYear sev emy
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"
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uhm .
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Nkanyi
so"
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hisher
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o:"
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dn'
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l
l youbeokcozhebroughtagi
rl
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hhim hejustgotbackf
rom f
etchi
ngher
"
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ll
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o:"
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llwaitforyoutogetdr
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rst"Il
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ll
aughing
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Voice:"
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rom hi
gh
school
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s"
Ki
m:"
myGodSi
noi
tbeenages"
Me:
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tis"
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o:"
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iso
l
ookedatourhands
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ink"Lungel
osmi
l
ed
Lungel
o:"
alr
eady
"
Me:"y
ep"Igotcl
osertohi
sface"l
ooksl
ikey
ou
goi
ngtobegetti
ngthatki
sssooner
"hegave
meagr i
n
Nka:
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out
woar
etoget
hernow"
Me:
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olookedatme
Lungel
o:"
I'
ll
gogety
out
hatdr
ink"
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l
lcomewithy
ouKi mi
l
l seesoonl
ovejust
needtogetadr
inkfi
rst
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hem st
andi
ng
ther
e
Lungel
o:"
sowet
oget
hernow"
Me:
"I.
..
"Il
ookeddown
Lungel
o:"
don'
tusemeSi
no"
Me:
"that
'snotwhati
m doi
ng"
Lungelo:"
good"hemi xedmyv odkanl emonade
wit
hl i
mewewentbackt otheothersther
e
wasn'tchai
rslef
tsoLungel osatont hegrass
hepulledmet ohim Isatbetweenhislegswe
al
ljustsatther
etalki
nganddr inki
ngNkany iso
keptonshoot i
ngdagger satusLungel ohadan
arm aroundmyshoul derwi thhisfaceonmy
neck.Bef orethecountdownweat eIwas
alreadyt i
psywhenwewel comedt henewy ear
Lungel osmashedhi slipsonmi neweki ssedwe
kissedf orsuchal ongt imeIgotmoi stinstantl
y
i
thadbeenl ongt i
mesi nceIgotaki ssletalone
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y one
wasl ookingatusNkany iso'sf
acewasr ed
veinsshowi ngonhi sf orehead.Iendedup
sleepinginlungelo'sroom cozbyt het i
met he
par t
yendedi twast ool ateandIdi dn'thavea
keywi thmebutwedi dn'tdoany t
hingwej ust
sleptineachot her'sarms.
.
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nwithLungel
oand
hi
scousins.Timeflewbylungel
o'
smom got
Luvuy
oanannyandLuv uyowasgoingtostay
wit
hthem afterl
otofgoingbacknfort
hthe
par
entsfi
nall
yagreedonl et
ti
ngLuvuyostay
wit
hlungelo'
sparents,
2ndweekofJanuar yI
wentbackt ojhbIwassosadov erleav ingmy
daught erbehi ndl ungel o'
spar entssatusdown
sayingj ustbecauset heyt akingcar eofLuv uyo
doesn' tmeanweshoul dmakeanot herbabywe
needt obest abl ef i
rstbef oreweev ent hink
aboutanot herchi ldbl ahbl ahbl ah.WhenIhad
settledi npr oper lyatourapar tmentr egi stration
tookpl aceIhadt odof ir
sty earext ramodul et o
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myexamsl ucki lyitwasj ustanel ectivenota
maj orsoIwasdoi ngmy2ndy earsowas
Lungel oandnkany i
soandTeedoh.Jaywas
goingt obet eachi ngusaf terhegotoutof
hospi tal hest arteddi stancinghi msel fwhenI
askedhi m abouti thesai di tformyownsaf ety
thi
ngsar eal itt
lehect icatt hemomenthecan' t
all
owhi msel ftobet oocl oset ome, Jayj ust
hadwei rdthingsatt imes.Lungel ohadf inally
conv incedmei ntoal l
owi ngNi colei ntomyl ifeI
haddi nnerwi thhert hisonet imesheexpl ained
howshef ellinlov ewi thmydadwhi l
eshewas
doingherpr acsdadhadn' ttoldherhewas
mar riedupunt i
lshef ellpregnantt heybr okeup
aftert hatshewasj usty oungwhenshehadme
herlifewasj ustbegi nni ngshewasonl y22
goingt ogr aduat eatmedi cal school the
foll
owi ngy earandwhenmom f oundoutt hat
dadhadmadeherpr engantshewant edtor aise
mecozni colewasal itt
let oowi l
datt hose
ti
mes.Shet oldmehersadst orywhi chfel tlike
anexcusecozI '
m 19butIhadLuv uyoandI
didn'tpushherof fbutwhat everIsawnopoi nt
i
nhol dingont othepastsowesl owlybui lding
ourr elat i
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met omeetherhusbandandst epsonIgotup
hadbr eakf asttookabat hgotdr essedi nbody
huggi ngar mygr eenmaxi dresswi thslit
sont he
sidesmyNi kerosher sandanyar mygr een
godlybasebal lcapl ettingmyweav el osegot
mybagandl eftpunchedi nt headdr essont he
gpsanddr ovet omi dr and.Ist oppedatt hi s
hugest eelgatecal l
edni col ethegat eopenedi
droveupthedriv
ewayt ot
hisbeauti
fulmansi
on
thehousewasf r
eaknhuget heyardwasev en
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scour tnbasket
ballcour
tnext
tothegarageIparkedmycarkelvinrantomeI
gotoutmethim halfwayhethrewhimselfatme
Me:
"heyt
her
ebi
gboy
"
Kelv
in:
"heybigsiscomei nev er
yoneisatthe
backdaddyismakingbar baque"hepull
edmy
handallt
hewayt othebackwher et
herewasa
hugepoolwithajacuzzi
nextt oitanoutsi
de
barandastainl
esssteelbraii
stand
Kelv
in:"
Nikkii
shere"Isi
ghedandr
oll
edmy
eyesIhatedt
henameni col
ecameoutofwhat
l
ookedlikeanoutsi
debathroom
Ni
c:"heybabywel
comehomecomel
etme
I
ntr
oducey out
omyhusband"
Me:"ok"wewal kedbackinthehousethrougha
whi
tet hemedr oom thewal l
swerefi
ll
edof
pi
cturesindiv
idual pi
ctur
esandfamil
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icedapi ctur
et hatkel
vinnIhadtakenin
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ureofLuvuy
othati
m sur
e
wasst ol
enf
rom mywhatsappweendedupin
thekit
chenandIsawthi
swhiteguyhewas
mar i
nati
ngt
hemeat
Nic:"
babythisisSi
no"hel
ookedatmegav
eme
ahugIdidn'tevenknowwhattodowi
thmy
handshepul l
edbackandsmil
e"Si
not
hisi
smy
husbandkyle"
Kyl
e:"Sinoitnicet
of i
nal
lymeety
ounicoleand
kel
vinbeenbr aggi
ngaboutyousi
ncetheycame
backfrom durbanniceofyoutoj
oinus"
Me:
"ni
cemeet
ingMrSmi
th"hel
aughed
Ky
le:
"justcal
lmeky
le"kel
vi
npul
l
edmyhand
Kel
vi
n:"
comel
etmeshowy
ouy
ourr
oom"
Nicol
e:"
Kel
vi
n!"Sheshout
edKel
vi
nlooked
down
Me: "
it
'sokl
et'
sgo"helookedatmebeaming
tookmyhandledusthroughlotofr
ooms
befor
ewegott ot
hestair
sthatledt
othe
bedroom heshowedmehi sroom fir
stbefore
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fulther
ewas
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swer eal l
glassthewhol e
fl
oorwaskel v
in'spar entsbedroom itincl
uded
theyownst udynl ounge.Af t
erKelvintookme
forat ourwewentbackdownst ai
rstot he
backsideni colegotmeagl assofwhi tewine
wej ustsatt alki
ngIexcusedmy selfcozI
neededt ouset hebat hr
oom whenIwasgoi ng
tothebackIr ani ntot hi
sgorgeousguyhewas
tal
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yat
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edat
hi
m wi thmymout hhangingtryi
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ndmy
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lpinkli
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swhen
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backhewassi tti
ngt herewithabot t
leofmil
ler
i
nhishand
Ni
c:"
ohy
oubackt
hisi
sKeenan"Ismi
l
ed
Me:
"hi
Keenan"
Keenan:"
youmustbemyl
i
ttl
esi
sterDomi
nic
youbeauti
ful
"
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e:"l
i
ttl
eandsi
sterbei
ngt
hekey
wor
ds
Keenanarewecl
ear"
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ystal
sir
"hegav
emeal
ookwhi
l
e
bi
ti
nghisbott
om li
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21:
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.
Me:
"thanky
oukeenan"hesatdownacr
ossme
Kyl
e:"
soy ourmot
hert
ell
smey
oudoi
ng
psy
chology"
Me:
"yep"
Kyl
e:"t
hat
'sagooddegreey
ouneedtost
ayup
unt
ilmast
ersbef
oreyougooutt
othework
pl
ace"
Me:
"pl
ant
o"
Ni
c:"
mybabyi
ssmar
tjustl
i
kehermama"t
hey
l
aughedIj ustsmi
lethi
nki
ngital
lmymom'
s
persi
stentnaggi
ngthatmyresul
tar
eal
way
s
good
Keenan:
"wher
edi
dyouj
ustgot
oNi
kky
"
Me:
"hhu"
Keenan:
"yourmi
ndj
ustwentsomewher
e"
Me:
"justt
hinki
ngabouthome"
Keenan:"
youmakeacutef acewhenyou
thi
nki
ng"kyl
ennicol
elookedateachother
Kelvi
n:"shemakescutefaceswi
thev
ery
thi
ng
thatshedoes"welaughed
Me:"y
oujustl
ovemecozI
'
myourbi
gsi
sterand
Igi
veyoumyphone"
Kel
vi
n:"
tr
ue"Il
aughed
Ky
le:
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ngmygr
anddaught
er"
Me:
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nky
ouwoul
dhav
etogot
odur
banf
or
t
hat
"
Ni
c:"
thatcoul
dbear
ranged"
Me:"
I'
dhav
etospeakt
omom f
ir
st"ni
col
e
f
rowned
Ni
c:"
oh"
Ky l
e:"ofcos"wecontinuedeati
ngoverli
ght
conv ersati
onwewer enowi ndoor
sjusttal
king
whenIgotansmsf rom Lungel
osayinghejust
gotint ownhi spl
aceisdir
tycanwecr ushoverI
textedhi m backsayi
ngcoolI'
ll
cal
lwhenI '
m
closert otheapart
ment
Me:
"uhm Ineedt
ogetgoi
ng"
Ni
c:"
thoughty
ouwer
est
ayi
ngov
er"
Me:
"sor
ryIcan'
tdi
dn'
tbr
inganycl
othes"
Nic;
"there'
scl
othesi
nyourcl
osetdi
dn'
tKel
vi
n
showy ou"
Me;
"cl
othes?
"
Nic:
"ki
ndaj
udgedyourst
ylefr
om whatI'
ve
seenyouwear
ingandIboughtyoucl
othes"
Me;
"ohwow"shegotupt
ookmyhand
Nic: "
comesee"wewal kedupstairsusinga
diff
erentroutefr
om theoneKel vinnIt ookwe
gott omyr oom l
oteasierwewentt hereshe
openedt hetwodoor sthatIthoughtledt oa
bathroom orsomet hi
ngwewenti nmyj aw
droppedi twasahugewal kinwor edr opf il
l
ed
withdesignershoesclothesjewelryand
handbagsf rom Diort
oMi chaelKorst oGuess
toLoui sVuit
tontoGucci t
oPr adatoVer saceto
Manol oBlahnik,
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clothesfrom YdetoZaratot opshopt ocot ton
on
Me:"t
hisi
stoomuchni
col
eIcant
"shel
ooked
sad
Ni
c:"
pleaseDomi
nici
mtr
ying"
Me:
"notbyt
hrowi
ngy
ourmoneyatme"
Ni
c:"don'
tlookati
tli
kethatt
hisi
smet
hisi
s
whatIlov
et hi
sismyli
fe"
Me:"guessthi
siswhyyougavemeuptofind
your
self
"Iregr
ett
edthewordsassoonasIsaw
tearsf
all
i
ngoutofhereyes"i
m sosor
ryni
col
eI
didn'
tmeani
tli
kethat"shenodded
Nic:"
Iunder
standDomi ni
cIwasn'
tther
ebutI
'
m
herenowandi mtr
ying"Isi
ghed
Me: "
Ilov
ethecl
othesnevery
thi
ngel
se"It
old
herwithasmall
smileshethr
ewherar
ms
aroundmeandhuggedme
Ni
c:"I
'm gl
ad"wesatdownont hecouchi
nthe
cl
osetremainedi
nsi
lenceunti
lmyphone
st
art
edr i
ngi
ngitwasluungel
o
Me: "
Ist
il
lhaveagoIhav
eaf r
iendcomi
ngov
er
Ineedtoleav
ebefor
ehestar
tsblowi
ngupmy
phone"
Ni
c:"
him hhu"Il
aughed
Me:
"af
ri
end"
Ni
c:"
name"
Me:
"Lungel
oluv
uyo'
sdad"shesmi
l
ed
Ni
c:"
okIgeti
tlet
sgobutpl
easecomeov
er
maybenextweekendI
'
llcal
ltherestofthe
f
amilyovery
oucanmeety ourcousinsnaunt
s
nuncle"
Me:"oknextweekend"wegotupwent
downstai
rs
Kyl
e:"
li
ket
hecl
otheswegotmostoft
hem f
rom
Par
is"
Me:"y
ouguy sbeentoPari
s"KeenannKelv
in
l
aughednicol
ethrewthem adeadstar
eand
t
heystoppedimmediatel
y
Nic:
"yeswewentt
her
efewweeksback
busi
nesstr
ip"
Me;
"cool
any
wayi
mleav
ingnow"
Kyle:
"we'l
lwal
kyouout"every
onest
oodupwe
all
walkedtothef
rontl
aughingataj
okeKel
vi
n
tol
dwhenwegotnexttomycarkeenan
chuckled
Keenan:
"cut
e"Kel
vi
nlaughed
Kel
vi
n:"
Iknowr
ight
"
Me:
"hey
!Nodi
ssi
ngonst
ar"
Keenan:
"st
ar"
Me:
"yesmybaby
"
Kyl
e:"
isn'
ti
tki
ndasmal
lforsomeonewi
tha
chi
l
d"
Me:
"smal
l
?"
Kyl
e:"y
ouneedsomet
hingbiggerli
keaRange
Roveri
fyouwer
etogetinanaccidentyoun
babyLuwoul
dgetcr
ashedinthatthing"
Me:
"excuseme"Ipoi
ntedt
otheMer
cedes
AMGc63coupe
Kyl
e:"
Keenanwon'
tbedr
ivi
nghi
scarwi
tha
babyi
nit
"
Keenan:"
andmycarissexyyour
sisjust.
..
..
CuteIguess"Iwaski
ndaget
ti
ngirr
it
ated
Ni
c;"
enough!
"
Me:"
Ilovemycarmyparentsboughtitf
orme
whenIpassedmymatr
icthatIstudi
edhardf
or
t
hanksmymomsf
orpushi
ngme"
Kyl
e:"wedidn'
tmeananyof f
enseDominicwas
j
ustworri
editnotasafecarIdoubtwhenyour
fat
herboughti
tforyouthoughtyouwoul
dbe
havi
ngababyany t
imesoon"
Me:"It
hinkyoumeanwhenMYPARENTS
boughti
t"ni
colesuckedi
nqui
ckbr
eat
hs
Kel
vi
n:"don'
tgetmadpl
easesi
s"hesounded
sadIsi
ghed
Me:"
I'
m notmadbigboyni
m sor
ryIspoketo
ni
col
ebeforet
hisi
sallt
oomuchtoosoon"
Ky
le:
"weunder
stand"
Me:
"I'
l
lseey
'al
lnextweekend"
Nic:"
seey ousoonbaby"weallsharedhugs
whenKeenanhuggedmei couldfeel t
he
wetnessbetweenmyl egsincr
easingwi t
hevery
passingsecondIqui
cklypull
edbackheopened
upmydoorIgoti nhecloseditIturnedn
hootedbeforeIdr
oveoff.WhenIwasal mostat
myplaceIcall
edLungelo.Igotther
ebef or
ehim
Iwar
medsomel asagnafrom l
astnightand
madegreensaladhegoti nasIwaswashi ng
myhandsafterdishi
ngupf orhi
m
Lungelo:"
honeyim homeandi m st
arv
ing
pl
easet el
lmey ougotfood"hewasmakinghis
waytot heki
tchenIjustl
aughedwhenhef i
nal
l
y
gotin
Me:
"di
nneri
sser
ved"
Lungel
o:"y
out hebest
"hekissedmycheekwe
wenttotheloungeIopenedtv
Me:
"onl
yfory
ou"hel
aughed
Lungelo:"y
ouusi
ngmywor dsnow"Igiggl
edn
shruggedmyshoulder
s"wherewer
ey ou
anyway "
Me:"Ni
col
e'
spl
acemeet
ingherhusbandn
st
epson"
Lungel
o:"
howwasi
t"
Me:
"If
eel
li
ket
heyf
lashi
ngof
fhowmuch
moneyt
heygot
"
Lungel
o:"
Nicol
eknowsy ourpar
ent
ssheknows
howwellofft
hei
rareandhowhumbl et
heyar
e
whywouldshedothat"
Me:
"don'
tknow"
Lungel
o:"
may
bey
our
eadi
ngt
oomuchi
nto
thi
ngs"
Me:"I
'
m not
"It
oldhi
m aboutt
hecl
othesnmy
car
Lungel
o:"ohi
tthei
rLi
fest
ylehoneyy
ougona
havetoadaptt
oit"If
rowned
Me:
"Idon'
twantt
o"hel
aughed
Lungel
o:"
whatdoesthi
sguydoany waycozi
doubtadoct
orcanleav
ethatkindofl
if
eeveni
f
shedoeshaveherownsurger
y"
Me:"
herhusbandky
lei
stheky
lesmi
th"hi
s
ey
espoppedout
Lungel
o:"
kyl
esmi
thasi
nFor
besmagazi
ne3r
d
r
ichestguyi
nSAky
lesmi
th"
Me:
"yep"
Lungelo:
"bloodyhel
lwhydoeshest
ayar
ound
j
hb"Ilaughed
Me:
"nocl
ue"
Lungel
o:"
danghun"
Me: "
yep"heputhispl
atedownonthecof
fee
tabl
esatproperl
ypull
edmetohisl
apIsaton
him wit
hhisarmsaroundmybodyl
ikeima
chil
d
Lungel
o:"
takei
teasy
"
Me:
"andi
fiteasyt
akei
thome"wel
aughed
Lungel
o:"
notwhatIhadi
nmi
ndbutok"
Me;
"yougonasl
eepwi
thme"
Lungel
o:"
Ihopeso"
Me:
"st
il
lwanawat
cht
v"
Lungel
o:"
let
'sgot
obed"
Me: "
ok"Igotoffhi
m hewentt owashhi splat
e
nlockupwhileIwentt otakeaqui ckshower
whenIgotoutthebat hroom hewasal readyin
bedIgotinmypj sj
oinedhi m underthecovers
hepulledmeclosertohi m
Me:"
don'ty
out
hinky
oushoul
dst
artseei
ng
someone"
Lungel
o:"
li
kegetagf
"?
Me:
"yeah"
Lungel
o:"
Ihav
eyou"
Me:
"butwenott
oget
her
"hechuckl
ed
Lungelo:
"theonl
ythi
ngwedon'tdoi
shavesex
thatandthatwehaven'
tki
ssedsi
nceNew
Yearseve"
Me:
"thi
nky
oushoul
dst
artseei
ngsomeone"
Lungel
o:"
ist
hatwhaty
ouwanthav
eyoumet
someone"
Me:
"noIhav
en'
tmetany
one"
Lungel
o:"
thanwhat
'
sgoi
ngon"
Me: "
nothingIjustwanty outoknowthatify
ou
meetsomeoney ouat
tractedtoI'
l
lbeokayas
l
ongasy oupromi set
oal waysputLuvuy
onI
fi
rstI
'l
ldot hesame"heki ssedthebackofmy
head
Lungelo:
"youandLuv
uyoar
emyf
ir
stpr
ior
it
yno
matterwhat"
Me:
"okgood"
Lungel
o:"
speaki
ngofLuvuy
oIwanttochange
hername"Isai
dexcusemeasIt
urnedtolook
athi
m
Me:
"what
'swr
ongwi
thhername"hechuckl
ed
Lungel
o:"sl
owdownmamabear ,justt
hinki
ng
i
nsteadofNoluvuy
owechangeittoLuvuyo
thanchangeKourt
neyt
oAvethandwa"
Me:
"oh"
Lungel
o:"
youdon'
tl
ikei
t"
Me:
"wecal
lherLuv
uyoany
waysoi
tcool
"
Lungel
o:"
greatI
'
llcal
lmom t
ell
hert
ogeti
t
donewhenshehasachance"
Me:
"ok"heki
ssedmyf
orehead
Lungel
o:"
canIki
ssy
ou"
Me:
"Lungel
o"
Lungelo:"j
ustaki
ssMakaAv eplease"Igi
ggled
nnoddedhebr oughthi
sfacecl osertominewe
ki
ssedi twasaslowpassionatekisswepul l
ed
apartwhenmyphoner angitwasni coleasking
i
fIgothomesaf elyIt
oldhery esIgavelungelo
mybackwespoonedt al
kedunt il
wef el
lasleep.
.
Thefoll
owingdayi twasSundaywewokeup
hadbreakf
asttookabat hnwenttohi splace
wespentthewhol edaycl eani
nggoinggrocery
shoppi
ngwhenev eryt
hingwasdonehet ook
mebackt omypl aceIjustgotther
et ooka
showerandslept.
.
Mondaymor ningIwokeupt ookabathgot
dressedi nwhitehi
ghwai stjeggi
ngsablack
croptopawhi teshor tsl
eevecotwithbl
ackair
maxt iedmyweav eintoamessybunputon
hopsgr abbedmybagwentdownst ai
rsSethu
wasal readyhavingbreakfast
Me:
"heyy
ouhome"Iwentaboutmaki
ngcer
eal
Sethu:"
youwouldn'
tknowy
out
oobusywi
th
yournewfamil
y"
Me:"
don'tst
artshi
tsoear
lyi
nthemor
ningI
waswit
hLungelo"
Set
hu:
"yougoi
ngbackt
oyourJezebel
way
s"
Me: "
ohwow"Ist oodupwi thouteveneati
ng
pouredt
hemi l
kinthesinkempt i
edthecoco
popsinthebinrinsedmydi shandleft,
Sethu
beencol
dsi ncethewhol enicol
ethi
ngcameout
thi
sonet i
mesheev encall
edmeherhal fsist
er
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appedherbutIhel dhishand.
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e
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n.Teedohcal
l
edwhil
eIwas
eati
ngtoldhi
m wherei
m atwejumpedoneach
otherwhenIsawhim
Teedoh:
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'
vebeenmi
ssi
ngy
oubbe"
Me:
"sameher
ebool
i
febeenhect
ic"
Teedoh:
"howi
smyGoddaught
er"
Me:
"goodst
ayi
ngwi
thl
ungel
o'
spar
ent
s"
Teedoh:"mustbeni
cei
m sur
ey ouandlungst
ar
areal
readyworki
ngonanot
her"welaughed
Me:
"don'
tbecr
azy
"
Teedoh:"
let
'sgocl
assisabouttost
artnwe
haveJayIwanasiti
nthefrontr
ow"
Me:
"tr
yingt
oat
eacher
spet
"hel
aughed
Teedoh:"
hismybr
otherIal
readypassed
resear
ch"
Me:
"mustbeni
ce"
Teedoh:
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tis"wewal
kedof
ftoourl
ect
ure
hallandi ndeedwesati nthefrontr
owi tdi
dn'
t
takel ongforJayt ogeti
nt hegir
lsnexttome
giggledast heytalkedabouthowhothel ooks
hecl earedhisthroat
Jay :"mor ningi m JurniorMot aunggonnabe
takingy 'allforpsyc201i ntroduct i
ont oresear
ch
myconsul tationti
menof fi
cenumberi sonthe
fi
r stslide, im nothar dt opleasesowhaty ou
giv eiswhaty ouwi l
lgetIhopet herestoft he
semest erwi llbysmoot hlyfir
stlyIneedcl ass
reps"nobodysai dany t
hing" okcool Ineedt wo
peopl ef rom t hefrontrow"Teedohpi ckedup
hishandhepi nchedmeIsqueal ednpi ckedmy
handup" greaty out wost andup"west oodup
"thesewi ll
bey ourclassr epsofy ouneed
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om meny oucan' tfindmei nmy
off i
cegot ot hem raisey ourconcer nst othem
andI '
l
l hearaboutt hem ...Arewecool "
Cl
ass:
"cool
"
Jay
:"y
oucansi
tdown"TeedohnIsatdownt
h
l
ect
urewentonsoonitwasoverJaysentmea
t
exttof
oll
owhimtohisoffi
ceItol
dTeedohI'l
l
meethi
mi ncl
assandtosavemeasi taf
ter
t
hatIwenttoj
ay'
soff
iceIknockedandgoti
n
Me: "
hi"hestoodupcamemywayclosedthe
doorlocki
ngitbefor
ehebr
oughtmetohis
chestsqueezingme
Me:
"can'
tbr
eat
h"hechuckl
ednl
etgo
Jay
:"I
'
vemi
ssedsobadl
y"
Me:
"yout
heonewhowentcol
donme"
Jay:"t
hingsaresocompli
cat
edrightnowSi
noI
can'
thav eyouinmyli
feIhadtokeepmy
dist
ance"
Me:
"whywhat
'sgoi
ngon"
Jay:"
I'
ll
tell
youonedaywhenwemarr
iedwhen
Iknowy ouwon'
trunaway
"Igi
ggl
ed
Me:
"don'tbecr
azy
"hesatonhi
sdesksnpul
l
ed
metostandbet
weenhi
slegs
Jay:"
doyouknowhowmuchIcar
eabouty
ou"I
shookmyheadli
ght
ly
Me:
"Idont
"
Jay
:"wel
lIdoal
otnIl
ovey
ou"
Me:
"oh"
Jay
:"If
oundoutIhav
eason"
Me:
"whaty
oumeany
ouj
ustf
oundout
"
Jay:
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ermyplaceandlef
t
hi
mt her
e3weeksbackhis2Idi
dn'
tevenknow
Ihaveason"
Me:
"howdoy
ouf
eel
aboutt
hat
"
Jay
:"mi
xedf
eel
i
ngmost
lyj
oynr
elei
f"
Me:
"what
'shi
sname"
Jay
:"zwel
i
banzi
lebohag"
Me:
"ni
ceIshoul
dgoneedt
obei
ncl
ass"
Jay
:"okguessI
'
llseey
ouar
ound"
Me:
"yeahby
eJuni
or"heki
ssedmycheeknl
et
goof
fmyhandIl
eft
.
.
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ewbyi twasFr
idayIwasspendi ngthe
weekendatNicol
e'
sIwentst r
aighttherefrom
campusIpunchedint
hecodeatt hegat eandit
openedIdr
oveupnpar ked.AsIopenedt he
maindoorkeenanwascomi ngoutwi thsome
gir
l
Keenan:"
ohheyNi
kki
I'
ll
bebacknownow"t
he
gi
rll
ookedatmeupndownwithat
ti
tude
Me:"cool
I'
ll
beinmyroom"Iwenti
nrant
oone
oft
hehelperst
heyhadtwohel
per
sandachef
Mam'Nkosi
;"hel
l
omssmi
th"Ij
ustl
aughedand
shookmyhead
Me: "itSi
nomahpl ease"shenoddednsmiled
"pleasedomeaf avorpointmetotheeasy
staircasethatwi
l
l l
eadtot he2ndf
loor
"
Mam'
Nkosi
:"st
il
lget
ti
ngl
ost
"
Me:
"ki
nda"shel
edmet
othest
air
caseIwent
uptomyr oom Igoti
ndroppedmyhandbagto
thef
loortookofmytopwasl ef
twi
thabran
j
eansthrewmy sel
fonthebedthedooropened
nkeenanpeepedin
Keenan:
"saf
etocomei
n"
Me: "
givemeasec"Iputonmyt
op"
comei
n"he
chuckled
Keenan:
"al
readysawity
oul
ookgoodi
nred"he
gavemeasmuggr i
n
Me:
"shutupwhatdoy
ouwantany
way
"
Keenan:"
mom saidtomakesureyouhadlunch
shewon'tbecomingbackunt
ill
atesoIhad
Andreaprepar
esomethi
ngforyoucomedown"
Me:"l
eadt
hewaybi
gbr
o"hel
aughedwewal
ked
out
Keenan:
"youknowwenotbl
oodr
elat
edr
ight
"I
l
aughed
Me: "
obviousl
ybr
uyouwhi
teandi
m bl
ack"he
chuckled
Keenan:"
thi
nky
oumeanhal
fbl
ackhal
f
col
oured"
Me:
"ther
e'snosuchat
hingi
m bl
ack"
Keenan:
"embr
acewhaty
ouar
eNi
kki
"
Me:
"andt
hat
'sbl
ack"her
oll
edhi
sey
es
Keenan:
"what
ever
"
Me: "
sogay "hestoppedwal
ki
ngandpull
edme
tohischestinsuchaspeedmyheartwas
beati
ngf asthewaslooki
ngdownatmewi t
ha
fi
ercelookinhiseyes
Keenan:
"sonotgayNi
kki
"Iswal
l
owedsal
i
va
Me:"
Ye.
..
.y
eah"hechucklednletgoofme
wal
kedof
fleav
ingmef eeli
ngstupi
d
Keenan:"
comeonDomi ni
c"Ishookmyhead
fl
owedhim whenwegottothedinni
ngar
ea
tabl
efor3wasalr
eadyset
Keenan:
"wher
e'st
hel
i
ttl
eman"
Kel
vi
n:"
her
eher
e"hewaswal
ki
ngi
n"heysi
s"
Me:
"heyhowwasschool
"
Kelv
in:
"cool
rememberAmberi scomi
ng
tomorr
owshe'ssoexci
tedaboutmeet
ingy
ou"
Me:
"can'
twai
ttomeety
ourgi
rlbr
o"hef
lushed
Kel
vin:
"yougonalovehershe'
ssobeaut
if
ul"
KeenannIlaughed
Me: "
ifshe'swi thy ouim sure"wef i
nishedl
unch
overlightconv ersati
onwhenwewer edone
every
onewentt heirwayIwentbackt omy
room Iwaschat tingtolungelowhohadmet
someonehedi dn'twanttot el
lmeabouther
j
usty etsincet heyjuststart
ing"chill
i
ng"
toget
hert hat'swhathecal l
edit.Keenanjust
gotinmyr oom lookinghoti ngy m short
salose
tanktopnNi keai rmax
Me:
"dude!
"
Keenan:"whatI'
veseeny ourbreast
snhalfof
yourthi
ghplusI'm notat
tractedtoyousorel
ax
youmyl i
ttl
esis"forsomer easonmyheart
br
oke
Me:
"thanf
uckof
fmyr
oom"hechuckl
ed
Keenan:
"goi
ngt
othegy
m wannacomewi
th
me"
Me:
"ther
e'sagy
m downst
air
sgot
her
e"
Keenan:
"nahpr
efergy
mingar
oundpeopl
eand
i
tagoodplacet
omeethotgir
ls"
Me:"Idon'
thav
eamember
shi
porcl
othes"he
l
aughed
Keenan:"bel
i
evemei fy
oulookcar
eful
l
yint
hat
cl
osetyouwi l
lfi
ndsomethi
ngnyouwithmeI'
l
l
getyouin"
Me:
"am If
at"
Keenan:
"ki
nda"If
rowned
Me:
"oh"hel
aughed
Keenan:
"joki
ngbuty
oucannev
erbef
itenough
l
et'
sgo"
Me:
"ok"wewenti
nthecl
oseti
ndeedIf
ound
somet
hingt
ookouty
ogapant
saspor
tbr
anai
r
max
Me:
"outsoIcangetdr
essed"
Keenan: "y
oushitt
ingme"Ipoi nt
edt othedoor
heroll
edhi seyesnwal kedouttheclosetIgot
dressedgr abbedasweatt owelti
edmyweav e
i
ntoapony tai
lIwalkedouttheclosethewas
j
ustst ar
ingatmewi thhi
smout hopen
Me:"l
et'
sgo"Iwalkedt
othedoorhewas
fol
l
owingmeIturnedtocheckhi
seyesonmy
assIj
ustsmil
ed
Me: "
notat
tract
edtomemyf ootpurebul
lshit
"I
whisper
edbutal i
tt
lel
oudenoughf orhi
mt o
hearmebutsoftenoughforhimtot hi
nkIdidn'
t
wanthimtohear
Keenan:
"wet
aki
ngmycar
"
Me:"whatev
er"wegoti
nhiscarndrov
eof ft
he
carwasabeast.Whenwegottothegym hegot
meinaf ewminut
esint
otheworki
ngouta
personal trai
nerint
roducedmet ohimselfn
startedhel pi
ngmeoutKeenanwasf uminghe
kepthi sey esonust heentir
et i
meitmademe
smileaf terhim say
inghedoesn' tfi
ndme
attr
act i
vent hatIwasf atIhadapoi nttopr ov
e
tothet rainerwasmaki ngthingseasyhewas
fl
irt
ingwi thmeopenl yandIwaseat ingitup
entertaininghim wedidn'tevenspendanhour
thereKeenansai dweshoul dleavethetrainer
askedf ormynumber
Keenan:"
youknowshe'smysisterr
ightt
hat
meansshe'syourboss'
sdaught
erIdwatch
myselfi
fIwer
ey ou"
Trai
ner
:"ohsor
rymssmithIwasn'
tawar
emy
apol
ogi
es"hewalkedof
fmoreli
keranof
f
Me:
"thef
uckwast
hatKeenan"
Keenan:"
justcome"hest
art
edwal
ki
ngbutI
di
dn'tmove"nottheti
metothr
owatant
rum
Dominic"
Me:
"excuseme"
Keenan:"
hishelpNi
kkiGodandy
ouwer
ejust
thr
owingyoursel
fathi
m"
Me: "
asswipe"Iwalkedtowardshi
m pushed
hi
m of fwal
kedouthef ol
lowedmetheride
backwasf astnsi
lencewhenwegott hereIgot
offfi
rstst
ormedtot hemaindoorhegotinjust
after
Keenan:
"Ni
kky
!"
Me:
"fuckof
fKeenan!
!"
Keenan:
"sor
ry!
"
Me:"
Isai
dfuckoff
"ni
col
enky
lecameoutof
somewher
erushi
ngtous
Ni
c:"
what
'
sgoi
ngon"
Me:
"hi
saf
ucknasswhol
e"Ist
art
edwal
ki
ngof
f
Keenan:
"Isai
dsor
ry"
Kyl
e:"
whatdidyoudo"Il
eftt
hem ther
et al
ki
ngI
st
art
edstri
ppi
ngassoonasIgoti nmyroom
wenttot
akeacoldshowerfi
nishedwrappeda
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oundmybodywhenIgotoutt
he
bathr
oom nicol
ewassi
tt
ingont
hecoucht
hat
'
s
bythewindow
Me:
"hi
"
Ni
c:"heybaby"Iputonmypant yst
arted
l
oti
oningshewasst ar
ingoutthewindowIgot
i
nmypj sIgotont opofthebed
Ni
c:"
younothav
ingdi
nnerwi
thus"
Me:
"I'
m st
il
lful
lfr
om l
unch"
Ni
c:"
youst
il
langr
yatKeenan"
Me:
"noi
m ov
eri
t"
Ni
c:"
hesay
shewasj
ustt
ryi
ngt
ohel
p"
Me;
"Igeti
tnow"
Ni
c:"
oksl
eepwel
l
"
Me:"t
hankyou"shetuckedmei
nki
ssedmy
headnwalkedout.
.
Thef
oll
owi
ngdayIwokeupt
oaknock
Me:"
comein"Keenangoti
nwi
that
rayof
br
eakf
ast
Keenan:
"mor
ningsi
s"
Me:
"mor
ning"
Keenan:
"apol
ogybr
eakf
ast
"Igi
ggl
ed
Me:
"youdi
dn'
tev
enmakei
t"
Keenan:
"yeahbutIr
equest
edi
tfr
om Andr
ea"
Me:"l
etmegor i
nsemymouth"Iwentt
othe
bat
hroom andcamebackhewassit
ti
ngonmy
bed
Me:
"joi
ningme"
Keenan:
"yougonnaf
ini
shal
loft
hisbyy
our
sel
f"
Me:
"nope"
Keenan:
"thani
mjoi
ningy
ou"
Me:"cool
"wehadbreakfastov
erl
i
ght
conv
ersati
onj
ustgett
ingtoknoweachot
her
better
.Afterbr
eakfasthel eftIwenttotakea
bathgotoutwor ethisbeaut i
fulManolotwo
pi
ecemi ntbluecroptopwi t
hamat chingshort
l
osehi ghwaistskir
tandLVnudegl adiator
heels,Il
etmyweav el ose.Iwasst i
l
llookingat
my sel
fwhenni col
egoti nthecloset
Ni
c:"
youl
ookgor
geousbaby
"
Me:"
thanky
ounicol
eyouhav
eanamazi
ng
t
ast
e"shegiggl
ed
Ni
c:"y
oubeaut
if
ulnwel
lshapedsoev
ery
thi
ng
l
ooksgoodonyou"
Me:"guessIhav
eyoutot
hankforthat
"she
smil
ednshookherheadwhi
leshruggi
ngher
shoul
ders
Ni
c:"
comeev
ery
onei
sher
e"
Me:
"soear
ly"shel
aughed
Ni
c:"
babyi
t13:
00al
ready
"
Me:
"oh"wewentdownst
air
sIwasi
ntr
oduced
t
osomanypeople2aunt
sn1unclepl
us
husbandsnawi fe,15cousinsandgr andma
whokeptonki ssi
ngmyf aceandcr y
ing
apparentl
ynicol
edidn'tt
ellherfamil
yshewas
pregnantsotheyhadnoi deaaboutme.Oneof
thegir
lcousinsAmypul l
edmeasi deshewas
alsodoingher2ndy eari
npsy chol
ogyatwit
s
Amy :"
soweir
dthatwenevermetbefore"
every
onehadadrinkwit
hthem theol
derpeopl
e
thati
sandtwowaiter
sthatkeptci
rcl
i
ngwi t
h
snacks
Me:
"tot
all
y"
Amy :"
needtogivemey ournumber"we
exchangednumbersIkeptonstar
ingatBi
anca
whokeptont hr
owinghersel
fatKeenan
Amy :"
theykindahadat hinggoingtwoy ears
backitwasal lsexforKeenanbutBi ancaf ell
in
l
oveitallgotmessedupwhent hefami l
yfound
outauntynicol
ewassof uri
ouswegotbanned
fr
om comi ngher ethi
sisact ual
l
ythef i
rsttime
we'v
ebeenher esincethewhol eaccident"
Me:"
whatwrongi
fthei
rwer
ehav
ingsexi
tnot
l
iket
heyr
elat
ed"
Amy :"
auntynicolesai
ditwasinappr
opri
ate
theyarebasical
lycousi
nsKeenangotshipped
offtoUKtost aywithhi
smotherhejustgot
backli
kelatelastyear
"
Me:
"oh"
Amy :"Bi
ancaissti
llnotoverhim pl
usshe's
bit
chysoI dsaystayawayf rom Keenanwhen
keenanst ar
tedshowingnannateat t
enti
on
Biancastart
edwaragai nstnannateitwasso
badt hat
'showthefami l
yactuall
yfoundout
Biancaandkeenan"
Me:
"toomuchdr
ama"shel
aughed
Amy:"
Biancai
sdramati
cnloudwhil
enannat
e
i
sshyndownt oear
thsoitwasn'
tafai
rfi
ght
"
Me:"
mmh"Imetkelvinsgir
lshewassopr etty
wi
thherst
rawber
ryblondehairandblueeyes
t
hedaywentonwellenoughIhadf unever
y one
l
eftl
ateatni
ght
.
.
Thef ol
l
owi ngdaynicol eandky l
ehadt orunoff
toCapeTownIdon' tknowsomet hi
ng
happenedatt hei
rhol i
dayhouset here.Iwas
onlygoingtoleaveMondaysoIwasbor edin
myr oom whenKeenancal l
edmesay i
nglet'
s
catchamov i
eIgotof ft hebedputonmyuggsI
waswear ingleggi
ngsnasweat shir
tIfound
himi nt
heki t
chenget tingsnacksIhel pedhim
carryever
y t
hingtotheci nemar oom itwasin
thebasement .Hesel ectedamov i
eandwesat
therewatchingandt alkingIf oundhim star
ing
atme
Me:
"what
'sup"
Keenan:"y
ouhav esomet hi
nghere"hedi
pped
hi
sthumbi nhismout handwipedofthe
chocol
atethatwasonmyl i
pthansuckedon
hi
sthumbmybr eathleftmybodyasheleaned
i
nwhi l
elooki
ngst r
aightinmyeyeshisli
ps
touchedmi newekissedi
twassl owatfi
rstbut
astimewentoni tgothothedroppedall
the
snackthatwerebetweenusont hecouchtothe
fl
oorlai
dmegent lywithmybackont hecouch
getti
ngont opofmeIpushedhi m uphe
stoppedkissi
ngmeandl ookedatme
Keenan:
"youdon'
tl
ikei
t"
Me:
"youmybr
other
"
Keenan:
"noti
nter
msofbl
ood"
Me:"
youandBianca"heshuthi
sey
esshaki
ng
hi
sheadsl
ight
ly
Keenan:
"wor
semi
stakeofmyl
i
fe"
Me:"Ican'
tyouwerewi
thmycousi
nandour
par
entsaremarri
ed"
Keenan:
"theymar
ri
ednotusanddon'
tj
udge
mebasedonmypast "
Me:
"Keenan"
keenan:
"don'
tthi
nkabouti
tjustdowhaty
our
bodynhearttel
l
syou"hegottomyneckm
star
tedsucki
ngnbit
ingonitIl
etoutasmal
l
moan
Me:
"keeeeeenan"
Keenan:"don'
tthi
nkabouti
t"i
tfel
tsogoodmy
eyesclosed

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Ipushedhi
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fme
Keenan: "
Nikki"Isatupbr oughtmyv estsdown
"NikkiI
..
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swr ong"Idon'tknowwhybutI
j
uststartedcryingsilentl
y"Nikkiim sorryI.
..I
thoughtyouwer efeeli
ngitto...
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i
m sor r
y"Iletoutasof tsobhepul l
edt ohis
chestIburriedmyf aceheputhi sarmsar ound
me" iam sosor ryNikki"
Me: "
itoki
m sorr
ytoojustthatt
hisi
snotme
keenanim notBi
ancaim notgoi
ngtobeyour
sperm di
sh"hewinced
Keenan:"
youcoul
dneverbemysper
m di
sh
DominicIcar
eabouty
ou"
Me:
"youshoul
dcar
ebutasmybr
other
"
Keenan: "
whatifIdon'
twanttocareasy our
brother
"Ipull
edoutofhisholdwipedmyt ears
whilesnif
fi
ngIwassi t
ti
ngcrossleggedIwipe
mynoseusi ngthebackofmyhandi nthemost
unladyl
ikewayhechuckledIjustsmil
edn
shuggredmyshoul der
Me:
"youcan'
tyounotal
l
owedt
o..
"
Keenan:
"notal
l
owedt
o?"Hecutmeof
f
Me:
"yes"
Keenan:
"say
swho"
Me:"say
smebesidesy
ousai dimfatandthat
younotatt
ract
edt
ome"hel aughedhi
slaugh
wassoloudnsweetnfunnyitj
ustmademe
smi
l
e
Keenan: "yousobeaut i
fult
hat'sthef i
rstthingI
not i
cedabouty out hany oustarttalki
ngt hat's
whenIbecameat tractedtoyouasf orbeingf at
yousooonotf at"her oll
edhisey es" y
oucur vey
yourassi sjust"hemadesi gnwi thhishandsI
nudgedhi m wel aughed" yourassi sper f
ect
yourboobsar enicenr oundandt hatsmal l
wai stGodNi kkii
tjustsot i
nythebestpar ty our
thighs"hebithisbot tom li
pIfrowned" perf
ect
sizencl ean"
Me:"
sowhenyouseemet hat
'
sally
ouseea
bi
gboot
yperkyboobst
inywai
st"
Keenan:"
nononothat
'snotwhatImean"I
gi
ggledathi
sdiscomfort
Me:
"whatdoy
oumean"hesi
ghed
Keenan:"l
et'
sstartovercont
inuewatchinga
mov i
eI'
ll
nev erki
ssyouagain"Ismil
ed" unt
il
youaskmet oo"hegavemeasmi r
kandt urned
tothescreen.Whenthemov iewasov erIst
ood
up
Keenan:
"don'
tyouwanawat
chanot
herone"
Me:
"nahI
'
m cool
"
Keenan:
"aboutear
li
eri
m sor
ryhey
"
Me:"youdi
dn'
tfor
cemebutjustknowthatI
'
m
notgoingt
ohavesexwi
thy
ou. .
.Clear
?
Keenan:"
cleari
fwenotgoi
ngtobefucki
ngI
don'
tknowwhatwegoi ngt
odowi t
hthi
ssexual
chemist
rybetweenusbuti
tcool
youmyl i
tt
le
si
sni myourbigbro"
Me:"
cool
"Igr
abbedapocketofsourwar
ms
andabot
tl
eofwaterwentt
omyr oom.
.
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ngnicolewokemeupdon' tknow
i
fshewasn' tawareofthist
hingcall
edanalarm
anywayIgotupt ookashowergotoutl ot
ioned
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umpsuitn
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ackdi esi
l
esneaker sti
edmyweav eina
messybunt ookmyChannel backpackwent
downstai
rstherewasalreadybreakfastsetup
fort
woKel v
injoinedwehadbr eakfastwhenwe
wereabouttofinishni
colegotin
Ni
c:"
babi
es"
Kel
vi
n:"
mor
ningmommy
"
Me:
"hey
"sheki
ssedbot
hourheads
Ni
c:"
pleaseaccepti
t"shegav
emeanenv
elope
Me:
"whati
sit
"
Nic:"I
'minar ushIlov eyouboth"shelef
t
walkingofffastItookt heenvel
opeputitinmy
bagwef inishedIleftbefor
ekelvi
n'sdri
vergot
theretotakehi mtoschool .If
oundTeedohin
classalr
eady ,af
terclasswewentt othecafe
Me:
"hav
eyoumeetj
ay'
sson"
Teedoh:"yeahhi
ssoador
abl
eyoushoul
dcome
seehim soon"
Me:
"Iwi
l
l"
Teedoh:
"soy
ouandJay
"
Me:
"fr
iends"
Teedoh:
"yougoi
ngt
obesingleunti
lwhensi
nce
youdon'
twantmybr
other
"Ilaughed
Me:"
Idi
dn'
tsayI..
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ookmyphonetoanswer
i
tsi
ncei
twasringi
ngitwasAmyt
oldherto
meetmeatt
hecafe
Teedoh:
"youknowJayl
ovesy
ou"
Me:"
youdon'
tknowthatandbesi
desJayi
s
compl
icat
edr
ightnow"
Teedoh:
"compl
i
cat
edhowbbe"
Me: "
Teedohy ouwoul
dntunderst
andohther
e
mycousincomi ngtous"Amygottouswe
exchangedgreeti
ngsIi
ntr
oducedthem weal
l
chil
l
edtalki
ngwhi l
eAmysmoked
Teedoh:"heyl
ungst
ar"Ihadn'
tev
enseenhi
m
approachi
ng
Lungel
o:"
hey
"
Me:
"wher
edi
dyoucomef
rom"hechuckl
ed
andsatbet
weenAmyandI
Lungel
o:"
howwouldyouhadnot
icedmesi
nce
youyappi
ngal
ltheway"
Me;
"mxm"heki
ssedmycheek
Lungel
o:"
Imi
ssedy
out
hisweekend"
Me:
"sodi
dI"west
aredateachot
hersmi
l
ing
Teedoh:"
okenoughweal
lmi
ssedeachother
"
welaughed"
waitar
eyout
wobacktoget
her"
Me:
"no"
Teedoh;"
looksli
key'
allgotdr
essedi
nthesame
house"welaughedLungelowasweari
nggray
Nikesweatpant
snagr ayNikesweat
erwit
h
samesneakersasmi ne
Lungel
o:"
greatmi
ndst
hinkal
i
ke"
Me:"
Lungel
othat
'smycousi
nAmynAmythi
s
i
sluv
uyo'
sdad"Lungel
ogaveherasmi
l
enwi
nk
Lungel
o:"
I'
mthebabydaddy
"
Teedoh:
"itwasmysper
mthoughAmy
"we
l
aughed
Me:
"ohhay
ike"
Lungel
o:"I
'
llcat
chyouguy
slater
"heki
ssedmy
cheek"
Iloveyouhoney
"hewispher
edandlef
t
Amy
:"y
ouguy
sar
esocut
etoget
her
"Igi
ggl
ed
Me:
"webr
okeupact
ual
l
y"
Teedoh:
"theyst
il
lactl
i
ket
heyt
oget
her
"
Amy ;
"butt
hat..
.Yout
wo.
..
.No.
..
.Y'
al
lbr
okeup"
TeedohnIlaughed
Me: "
wer eall
ybrokeupbutwe'
vebeenf
ri
ends
sincefor
ev ersoaft
ert
hebreakupwehel
donto
thefri
endship"
Amy
:"ncoohy
ouguy
s"Ir
oll
edmyey
esl
aughi
ng
Me:
"guessi
tancoohsi
tuat
ion"
Teedoh:
"bbel
etmeseeyournotes"Igav
ehi
m
mybackpack"
what
'sthi
s"hetookoutthe
envel
op
Me:
"somet
hingni
col
egav
emebr
ingi
ther
e"I
tooktheenvel
opeopeni
ngi
tandi
twasa
plat
inum cr
edi
tcar
dithadmydet
ail
s
Teedoh:
"ni
ce!
"
Me:
"I'
m gonnar
etur
nit
"
Teedoh:
"don'
tyoudar
ehoe"
Amy:"
auntyni
col
eisnotshor
tofcashIbeti
t
l
imi
tl
ess"
Me:"ayi
!"Iputi
tint
heenv
elopeandbacki
nmy
bagItookmyphonesentnicol
eatext
*
andwhat
'st
hecar
dfor
*
*
N-whenev
ery
ouneedsomet
hing*
*
idon'
tneedi
tni
col
eim notgoi
ngt
ousei
t*
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tdot
hatDomini
cpl
easej
ustt
aket
he
car
dkeepitf
orrai
nyday
s*
*
Nicol
e!"
*i
loveyoubabygott
agowor ki
sbusy*Ijust
si
ghedputmyphoneawaywechi ll
edunti
lit
wastimetogotothenextcl
ass.Soonenough
i
twashomet i
meIgothomeputonmyuggs
call
edlungelo'
smom tocheckonLuv uy oaft
er
thecal
l shesentmeapi ct
ureofherImi ssed
mydaught ersomuchIcalledmom aswel lj
ust
checkinathome.Igotbusywi t
hmyschool
workunt i
llat
eatni
ghtwhenIhear dvoices
shouti
ngdownst ai
rsIrandownstai
rsitwas
Sethunst habi
soSethuhadthedooropen
Sethu:
"leaveSt
hadon'
tmakemesayt
hingsI
mightregret
"
Stha:"
babyi
m sor
rypl
easeSiphosam y
oh
ma'Deywam"hekneel
eddownSet hudidn'
tsay
anythi
ngIst
oodbacksotheywouldn'
tseeme
Sethu: "Sthapleasejustgoimt i
redSthai
m so
ti
redi talwayst hesamet hi
ngwi t hyouwhy
can'ty oujustsetmef reeinsteadofhurti
ngme
l
iket his"shesni f
fedhhamysi sterwascry
ing
overaguyi tbrokemyhear t
St
ha:"
babyi
am sosor
ryyohthizasorr
y
munt
uwam i
twasamistakebabyplease"she
shookherheadandtri
edgoi
ngfurt
heri
nthe
housesthabi
sostoodupandhel
dherarm but
sheyankedit
Sethu:"
leav
enow!!!
"Sheroared"y
ou. .
.Youim
donewedonest habi
sokutheniam Inotenough
sthabi
soIdontsati
sfyy
ou"
St
ha:
"youdobabyi
nev
eryway
"
Sethu: "
thanwhat?
"Helookeddown" thanwhat
sthabisomaniismykushnothotenougham I
nottightthanwhatst
habi
sot al
k!"She
screamedhecuppedherf acewipinghertear
s
Stha:"
y oumyever
ythi
ngSiphosam myheartn
soulIloveyousomuchitwasami stakebabyI
promisesozenoteverev
eragainbaby"shelet
outasof tsob
Sethu:
"I'
mtir
edsthabisoyousaythesame
thi
ngeveryti
meIwi ll
forgi
veyouagainand
tomorr
owy ouwillbebetweensomeoneelse'
s
l
egsIcant"shepushedhi m of
franupst
air
sI
gotoutunderthestai
rcase
Me:"whatdi
dyoudo"hesatdownandcov er
ed
hi
sfacewithhi
shandIcoul
dt el
lhewascryi
ng
wi
ththewayhisbackwasri
singandfal
li
ng
Stha:
"I.
.ImessedupSi
no...Imessedbi
gti
me
andnowshe's.
..I
tal
lmyfault"
Me:
"gi
vehert
imet
ocool
offandcomeback
t
omorr
ow"
Stha:"
Ilovehersomuchshe'smyeverythi
ng
SinoIl
ov ethatwomanbutIkeepmessingup
andwhycan' tshej
ustst
ayawayfrom my
phone"
Set
hu:"don'
ty oufuckndare"sher
oar
edbehind
usfort
hef i
rstti
meev erSethusai
daswore
word
Me:
"Si
phoset
hu!
"
Sethu:"y
ougonnagoouttherefuckevery
thi
ng
thatcomesyourwayleavi
ngmet olookli
kea
foolshe'
syourbl
oodyp.asthabi
soallal
ong
whenIcomeov ertoyouroffi
ceshe'
sniceto
mekant
ishe'
sjustseei
ngaf
ool
cozshes
f
ucki
ngmybf"
Stha:
" babyi
tnotl
i
kethat"hetr
iedwal
king
towardshersheputherhanduphestopped
Sethu: "
nowy ougoingtosayitbecauseIcan't
stayawayf rom yourphone,wheny out
heone
whosebusygoi ngt hr
oughmyphonest arti
ng
argument sbecauseofboy sIstudywit
hi tal
l
cool butwhenIgot hroughyourphoney ousay
that.
...
.Youknowwhatl eav
egetoutbef oreI
callsecuri
ty"
St
ha:
"Si
phosam pl
ease"
Set
hu:
"leeeeeeav
e!!
!"
Me:
"youshoul
dgo"hewentt
othedoorst
ood
i
nfr
ontofi
t
Stha: "
Ilovey ouSiphosam andim sorryIddo
what everIcant omakei tbett
er"Sethulooked
awayhewal kedsheranupstairscry
ingIstood
theredumf looded.Afterawhil
eIwentt omake
asandwichnhotchocolatewatchedtvwhil
e
chatt
ingunt
ilIwenttobedaft
ercheckingon
Sethushewasalreadyasl
eep.
.
Therestoft heweekflewbySethunevergot
outofherr oom whenIwasthereinthehouse
shedidn'
twantt oseesthabi
soItoldhimto
l
eavewhenev erhewascamet oourapart
ment.
ItwasFridaynightLungel
oandIwer ewatchi
ng
amov iehav i
ngpizzanwinewhensomeone
buzzedatt hegate
Me:
"yeah"
Gir
l:"
letusupweher eforSethu"Iscr
eamed
aski
ngSet hui
fshewasexpect ingpeopl
eshe
sai
dy esIlett
hem up.Afterawhil
ethese2gi
rl
s
exposingtoomuchski nweari
ngt oomuch
makeupcamei nLungeloshift
ed
uncomf or
tabl
yIlaughedathim
Me:
"comei
nshewi
l
lbedownsoon"
Gir
l1:
"yout
hatgi
rlthatwasengagedtobat
ho
wow!Whatyoudoinghere"Il
ookedather
puzzl
ed
Me:
"Ist
ayher
eSet
hui
smysi
ster
"
Sethu:"
halfsi
ster
"Ifel
tmyheartbraki
ngshe
waswal ki
ngdownt hestai
rsi
nri
ppedbum
shortbr
acr optopnheelsl
ungel
o'seyes
popped
Lungelo:
"yoh!Set
huwhatar
eyouwear
ing"t
hey
sharedachuckle
Me:
"Set
hugochangei
fyougoi
ngout
"
Sethu:"
younotmymot
herandi
m wayol
der
thanyou"
Gir
l2;"
Sethuy oudi
dn'
ttel
lusbat
ho'
sfi
ancéi
s
yoursi
ster"sherol
l
edhereyes
Set
hu:"
halfsi
sterandt
heywer
enev
erengaged
j
usthav
ingsex"
Lungel
o:"
Set
hunowy
ououtofhand"
Set
hu:"
andt
hat'
sherchi
ld'
sfat
her.
.,
let
'sgo
gi
rl
s"t
heywal
kedtothedoor
Me:
"Set
hudon'
tgo"
Set
hu:"
argshoul
dn'
tyoubef
ucki
ngLungel
oor
hi
scousi
norsomethi
ng"
Me:
"by
e"t
heywal
kedoutl
aughi
ng
Lungel
o:"
thef
uckwast
hat
"
Me:"she'
sjusthurti
ngbecauseofst
habi
soshe
di
dn'
tmeanal lthosewords"Iwi
pedatearIwas
hur
ti
ng
Lungel
o:"st
il
lhoneysheshouldn'
ttakeouther
fr
ustr
ati
onsony ouitnotr
ight
"
Me:"
itoki
mfineev
ery
thi
ngshesai
dwast
he
t
rut
hanyway"
Lungel
o:"
ohsoyouwer
efuckingBat
ho"he
nudgedmeplay
ful
l
ywelaughed
Me:"nev
er"wewentbacktoourwi
neoverl
i
ght
conv
ersati
onunt
ilr
eal
lyl
atewewentt
obed.
.
SaturdayIwasgoingtothecar niv
al wit
hKel v
in.
Iwokeupf ir
stLungel
owasst i
llsnoringsoftl
y
nexttomeheal wayssnor ewhenhi sbeen
dri
nkinghisphoneactual
lywokemeupi twas
his'chi
ll
i
ngmat e'
Samkehest il
lhadn't
i
ntroducedmet ohersayingitstil
ltooear l
y
ri
ghtnowhej ustl
ikechil
l
ingwi thhernot hi
ng
muchIshookhi m abithet ur
nedt heotherside
Ikissedthebackofhisneckhel etoutamoan
Me:"
wakeupSamkei scall
i
ngnonstop"he
mumbledsomethi
ng"whatyousayi
ng"hegave
mehishandIgavehi
mt hephoneheanswered
i
t
Lungelo:"mmhhel l
o". .
."I
'
m sti
llasleep"..
..
"Whydi dn'
tyout el
l mey oucomi ngim noti n
thereim atsino'splace"..
.."
YesIslepther e"..
,,
"don'tbecrazy"hesatupr ubbi
nghi sey es"we
didn'
tdoany thing"..."
Don'thavetimef orthis
soear l
yinthemor ning"hedroppedt hecall
Me:
"andnow"
Lungelo:
"don'tknow"helai
donthebed"come
here"hepull
edmet ohim wespooned"sowhen
i
sy ourbrot
hercomi ngby
"
Me:
"ar
ound12:
00"
Lungel
o: "
stil
lenoughti
mel etssleep"I
snuggl
edcl oserhegroanedhi sphonerang
agai
nhesai dmxm ndecl inedt hecal
lwewent
backtosleep.Wokeupabi tlaterwokehim up
hewentt orinsehismoutht hanIwalkedhimto
thedoorwhenIgoti ntheloungesomeguy s
weresleepi
ngont hecouches
Lungel
o:"
thef
ucki
sthi
s"
Me:"I
'
m suretheyset
hu'
sfr
iendsgoongoI
needtogetr
eady"
Lungel
o:"l
ocky ourdoorunti
lyoudoneand
l
eavequickl
yIdon'ttrustt
heseguys"Igi
ggl
ed
"i
m ser
iousSino"Irol
ledmyey es
Me:
"okdad"hechuckl
edki
ssedmyheadand
l
eft
.
Iwentt obat
hgotoutlotionedwor ehighwaist
bluejeanswit
hawhi t
ecr optopnsuper stars
ti
edmyweav einapony tailpackedupmysl i
g
backwentdownst ai
rswhenIgott heretheboys
wer eupsowasSet huandt hosetwogi rl
s
everyonewasinthekitchenf ryi
ngupast ormn
drinki
ngwekeptalcohol inthebaract uall
yI
keptalcohol
expensivealcohol thatis
Me:
"mor
ning"
Them:
"hey
"Set
hudi
dn'
tsayany
thi
ng
Boy
1:"
mmhheyi
m Rush"
Me:
"hi
"hesmi
l
edIgi
ggl
ednl
ookedaway
Rush:
"youhungr
ycomej
oinus"
Set
hu:
"she'
snothungr
y"herv
oicewassocol
d
Me:"yeahI
'
m good"j
ustasIwastaki
ngmy
phoneoutt
ocallKel
vi
nhecall
ed
Me:
"heybabybr
o"
Kel
vi
n:"
I'
m her
eNi
kki
comedown"
Me:"
bether
einami
nut
e"Idr
oppedt
hecal
l
"
byeguy
s"
Them:
"by
e"
Rush:
"howaboutsomedi
git
sbef
orey
oul
eav
e"
Me: "
Sethuwill
givet
hem toyou"Il
eftwhenI
gotdownstair
sbothKelv
innKeenanwer e
standi
ngthereinski
nnyj
eans,RawT- shi
rt
sn
Nikerosher
s
Me: "
hey"weexchangedhugs"
thoughty
our
dr
iverwasbri
ngingyou"
Kel
vi
n:"
keenanwant
edt
ojoi
nus"
Keenan:"
whywasIl ef
toutoft
hisdat
eIf
elt
di
scri
minatedagai
nst"
Me:
"ar
gdon'
tbeext
ra"t
heyl
aughed
Keenan:
"socanIj
oiny
'al
l
"
Me:
"youal
readyher
emos"
Keenan:
"Iwon'
tgoi
fyoudon'
twantmet
oo"
Kel
vi
nwasl
ooki
ngatmef
rowni
ng
Me:"noitcooll
etsgo"wegotinthebmwX4
Kel
vinsatatthebackwhil
ekeenanandIwer
e
i
nfronthewaspl ayi
nggoodhi
phopIstar
ted
si
ngingalongwhilemovi
ngmyhandsnhead
Me:"
cuti
tcuti
tcuti
tcutityourpr
iceswayto
hi
ghyouneedt
ocutityourbit
cheswaytoo
hi
ghyouneedt
ocutit"t
heybothjoinedme
Us:"cutitcutitcuti t"wesangal ongwhi le
l
aughi ngateachot hert hewholewayt here.We
hadanamazi ngdayev enthoughKelvinwas
scaredofsomer ideshescr eamedhi sl ugsout
keenanev enwonahugepandabearf orme
Kelvi
nnInamedhi m MrRoadywehadt he
mostmeat ynjuicebugger swithlot
soff r
iesn
pri
cklesforluncht ookawhol eloadsofpi ctures
ther
ewasonet hatt heywer ebothkissi ngmy
cheekswhi leIcov eredmymout hwi thmyhand
myey esallpoppedoutKel vi
nsentittoni cole
whosai dshe'shav i
ngi tpri
ntedoutandputi n
thepict
ureroom.Welef
treal
l
ylateKelv
inwas
asleepwhil
ekeenannIhadli
ghtconver
sat
ion
Keenan:
"Ihadf
unt
oday
"Ismi
l
ed
Me:
"sodi
dIandt
hanky
ouf
orMrRoady
"
Keenan:
"pl
easur
ebbe"
Me: "
eventhoughitt
ookyoualmostal
lyour
t
icketstogethim"welaughed
Keenan:
"itwaswor
thi
t"Il
ookedoutt
he
window"Nikky
"
Me:
"yeah"
Keenan:
"Ir
eal
l
yli
key
ou"
Me:
"nodon'
tdot
hat
"
Keenan:
"sowhatam Isupposedt
oignor
ethi
s
pul
lIhavet
owardsyou"
Me:
"yes"
Keenan:"
IcantIr
eall
ycan'
tIspentthewhol e
weektry
ingtogetyououtofmysy stem butas
soonasIsawy ouandthatsmil
eofy our
sn
y
ourey
esIj
ustmel
ted"
Me:"y
oucan'
ttalkl
i
ket
hatespeci
all
ywi
th
Kel
vi
nint
hecar "
Keenan:
"whencanwet
alkabouti
t"
Me:
"Idon'
tknowImeanweshoul
dn'
t"
Keenan:
"don'
tshutmeoutwi
thoutev
engi
vi
ng
meachance"
Me:
"Ican'
tkeenan"
Keenan: "
I'
m notgoi ngt ogiveupDomi nic"Ijust
pulledmykneesupr esti
ngmychi nont hem t he
reztoft heridetoNi cole'
swasqui et.Wegot
ther ehecar r
iedKel vintohisroom Iwentt o
mi nejustchangedi ntomypj sandsl ept.The
followingdayIwokeupmadet hebedwentt o
takeabat hgotoutwor eapeachsundr essand
fl
opsIwasst il
lfi
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ywas
eat i
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erbreakfastev ery
one
wenttheywaynicol
enIwenttot hesal
oonI
changedmyweav eint
oshortt
hickbrai
dsshe
j
ustwashedherswewentbackt othehouse.I
wasinmyr oom whenKeenanknocked
Me:
"sup"
Keenan:
"youl
ookbeaut
if
ul"
Me:
"thanky
ou"
Keenan:
"comedownIwanamakey
ou
somethi
ngtoeat
"Il
aughed
Me:"whatyouknowaboutmaki
ngf
oodMrIgot
achefathome"hechuckl
ed
Keenan: "notmuchIj ustknowmyspeci aldish
i
tmyf av orit
eIdon' tjustcookitforany oneI
mustr eallyl
ikey ouifIcookf oryou"hewas
smirki
nghet ookmyhandl edmet otheki tchen
everyt
hingwasal r
eadyoutpr eparedIsatont he
counterhav ingagl assofjuicewhi l
ehef r
ied
baconast hepast awasboi li
ngont hesi dewi th
herbsjustast hecheesesaucewasal so
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ryi
ngpanhewasf r
ying
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aughi
ngataj oke
keenanhadt ol
dwhenwehear dhervoi
ce
Bi
anca:
"keenan"
Keenan:"
fuck"shewasmaki
ngherwayt
othe
ki
tchenshegottous
Bi
anca:
"heyIdi
dn'
tknowy
ouher
e"
Me:
"yepI
'
m her
eial
sodi
dn'
tknowy
ouher
e"
Bianca:"wasintheneighbor
hoodthoughtI
'
d
popinf orl
unch"shelookedatkeenanwentto
hi
m wr appedherarmsar oundhi
swaist
Bi
anca:
"heybaby
"
Keenan:
"hi
"
Bianca:"hav
ey oumov edi
ncousi
nyoualways
herenowdon' tyouhaveli
keafl
atorsomethi
ng
i
nHi ll
brow"shewasl ooki
ngatmeupndown
withhatred
Me:
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astIcheckedi
tmymot
her
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sinHy
depar
k"she
rol
l
edherey
es
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ng
pastadishhaven'
thadi
tinages"Ichuckl
edgot
offthecounter
me:
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orspeci
aldi
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omy
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Ir
ani
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col
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hest
air
case
Me:
"I'
dli
ket
ogobackt
omyapar
tmentnow"
Ni
c:"
thoughty
oul
eav
ingi
nthemor
ning"
Me:
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tbr
ingmybooksnmysi
sterneeds
meri
ghtnow"
Ni
c:"
oht
akeoneoft
hecar
singar
age"
Me:
"Ican'
tdot
hat
"
Ni
c:"i
tjustacarDomini
cyoudon'
thavet
okeep
i
tyouwi l
lbr
ingi
tbackwhenyoucan"
Me:"canyoupl
easet
akemebackorIcancal
la
cab"shesi
ghed
Ni
c:"
giv
emeanhourI
'
llt
akey
ou"
Me:"t
hanky
ou"Iconti
nuedgoingt
omyroom
whi
leshewentdownstai
rsIt
ookmyphone
cal
l
edPhiwe
Phi
we:
"heysi
s"
Me:
"heyhowi
sphel
o"hel
aughed
Phiwe:
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sokt hi
ngsar
eabittensenowthat
she'
s7mont hsdoctor
sdon'
tthi
nkshewill
carr
yto8mont hs"
Me:"
Godwill
neverf
orsakeusi
fweputi
tal
li
n
hi
shandshewil
lpav
et heway"
Phi
we:
"amen"
Me:"phel
okazi
wil
lbef
ineandt
hebabywi
l
lbe
heal
thy"
Phi
we:
"Godhasspoken"
Me:
"Amen.
..Any
wayhowar
eyou"wel
aughed
Phi
we:"
isn'
tthatni
cei
m oksi
staki
ngt
heday
asi
tcomes"
Me:
"I'
l
lcomet
hatsi
deassoonasIcan"
Phi
we:
"br
ingLuv
uyowi
thy
ou"
Me:"
Iwi
l
l"someoneknockednt
hedooropened
sl
owl
y
Phi
we:"
Ilov
eyouSi
nov
uyo"keenangotinwit
h
atr
aywit
htwobowl
sntwoglassesofjui
ce
Me: "
Ilov
ey outooPhi
we"somet
hingdark
passedonhi sf
acebef
orehecover
editwit
ha
ti
ghtsmile
Phi
we:
"got
tagoki
d"
Me:"by
e"hehungup,
keenannIj
ustst
aredat
eachother
Keenan:
"Ibr
oughtf
ood"
Me:
"thanksbutI
'
m nothungr
y"
Keenan:"
ohIthoughtIcoul
djoi
nyouandwe
wouldeather
e"
Me:"
shouldn'
tyoubewit
hyourbaby"Ir
oll
ed
myeyesIdon'tknowwher
ethejeal
ousywas
comi
ngfrom
Keenan:"
don'
tbesarcast
icandshe'
snotmy
babyshe'
syourcousi
n"
Me:"t
hatyou'
vefucked"Ispatoutnhewinced
heputthetr
ayonthebedsideandsatonthe
bedacrossmetakingmyhandsi nt
ohis
Keenan: "whatBiancaandIhadwasl ongt i
me
agoi wasgoi ngthroughadar kphaseinmyl i
fe
asky ourmot herorjustgoongoogleyouwi ll
seeIwashi ghondi f
ferentdr
ugsallt
hetime
thatIsleptwithheritwasempt ymeaningless
sex"
Me:
"youwer
eondr
ugs"
Keenan:"i
twasalongtimeagowhenIwentt o
UKmymom t ookmetor ehabitwashardbut
I'
m overi
tandIdon'
twantwhatIhadwi t
h
BiancaorwhatIhavehadwi t
ht hesegi
rl
swho
sl
eepwi t
hmebecauseofmysur nameand
whatbei ngseeni nmyar mscandot ot heir
socialli
fe"heki ssedmyhandswhi l
el ooking
deepi nmyey esasi fhissearchi
ngf ormysoul
"IknowwhatIcanhav ewithyouwi llbe
diff
erenty ougoi ngt obewi thmebecauseof
menotbei ngofani mageorst atus,wi t
hy ouit
canal lbebet t
erandmeani ngfulNikkyal lIask
i
st haty oudon'tj udgemebasedonmypast
Nikkygi vemeachance"hi sey eslookedso
sinceret hegreeni nt hem t
winkledast ears
madet hem lookgl ossy
Me: "
let'
seatthisbef
oreitgetscold"he
chuckledhistearsdr
oppedhequi cklywi
ped
them gaveabowl nf
orkwhilehetookhishe
wait
edf ormet otast
eitfi
rstandImoanedin
appreciat
ion
Me: "
ohwowitamazi
ng"hechuckl
ednwiped
cheeset
hatwasontheconerofmyli
ps
Keenan:
"I'
m gl
ady
oul
i
kei
t"wecont
inued
Me:
"soy
oucookedf
orher
"
Keenan:
"noIcookeditforKel
vi
nshecame
whil
ewewer eeat
ingtherewassomelef
tover
shegotatast
e"Inodded
Me:"whyy
oulethert
ouchy
ouli
kethat
"he
l
ookeddownplayi
ngwit
hhi
sfood
Keenan:"I
'm notcr
uelDomi nicshefellformeit
notherfaul
tev ent
houghsheknewf ormei t
wasjustsexbutwedon' tcont r
olourhear t
s,I
cer
tai
nlydon'twanttobef eeli
ngthiswayf or
someonewhoi ssupposedt obemyl i
tt
lesist
er"
Me:
"Igeti
thowol
dar
eyouany
way
"
Keenan:
"Googleme"Ifl
i
ppedhi
m of
fwe
l
aughed"tur
ning25t
hisyear
"
Me:
"don'
tyouwantt
omov
eout
"
Keenan:
"neverr
eal
lythoughtabouti
tifImov
e
outwhowill
takecareofme"
Me: "
tr
ustfundbabi
es"Ir
oll
edmyey
eshe
chuckled
Keenan:
"youal
soat
rust
fundbaby
"
Me:
"yeahbutIwasn'
trai
sedasone"
Keenan:"
Ili
kest
ayi
ngathomebesi
desthi
s
houseissohugeIcangoaweekwi
thoutbei
ng
aroundmyfamil
y"
Me: "
yougonnaneedy ourownpl
acesoonnget
ajob"keenangotamast er
sinl
awandadegree
i
nbusi nessadmi
nist
rati
on
Keenan:
"wheny
oucar
ryi
ngmybabyIwi
l
l"we
l
aughed
Me:
"nev
ergonahappen"
Keenan:
"nev
ersaynev
er"Idr
ankmyj
uice
Me:
"thanky
out
hatwasdel
i
cious"
Keenan:
"tobady
oudidn'tstaytowat
chme
makingi
tyouwouldhavelearnthowt
o"
Me:
"wher
e'sBi
ancaany
way
"
Keenan:"t
oldherIwasn'
ti
nter
est
edandt hat
thi
sisyourmother'
shousesheshould
apologi
zeshejustst
ormedoutandleft
"I
smi
l
edshaki
ngmyhead
Me:"thatgi
rlgoti
ssues"hechuckl
edsomeone
knockedonthedoor"comei n"ni
col
egoti
nand
l
ookedatusf rowni
ng
Ni
c:"
what
'
sgoi
ngon"
Keenan:
"wej
usteat
ingni
col
e"
Me:
"yeah"
Ni
c:"
okl
et'
sgoDomi
nic"
Keenan:
"ohyoul
eav
ing"hesounded
di
sappoi
nted
Me:
"yep"
Keenan:"
Icant
akeherIneedt
ogot
osandt
on
anyway"
Ni
c:"
yousur
e"shel
ookedatme
Me:
"yeahi
tcool
"
Ni
c:"
okbabyI
'
llseey
ouonFr
iday
"
Me:
"Ican'
tbespendi
ngal
lmyweekendsher
e"
Ni
c:"
whynot
"
Me:
"Ihav
eal
i
fe"
Ni
c:"
ohor
ytwel
lwi
l
ltal
k"shegav
emeahug
Me:
"seey
ousoon"
Nic:"wal
kwi t
hmekeenan"t heywalkedoutI
tookthetrayfol
l
owedt hem outIheardthe
bedroom doorcloseandshoutingcomingfrom
i
tIwentclosertolist
en
Ni
c:"
she'
smydaught
erkeenan"
Keenan:
"andwhatdidIsayni
col
eInev
ersai
d
shewasn'ty
ourdaught
er"
Nic:"
Iloveyoukeenanbutstayawayfr
om my
daughtershe'
sbloody19forGodsakes"
Keenan:
"cany
oucalm downther
e'snot
hing
goi
ngonbetweenDominicandI"
Ni
c:"
IhopesoIdon'
twantherget
ti
ngsucked
i
ntoy
ourli
fe"
Keenan:
"whati
sthatsupposedt
omean"
Nic:"
itmeansst
ayawayf
rom hershe'
sof
fli
mit
keenan"
Keenan:
"whati
fimf
all
i
ngi
nlov
ewi
thher
"
Nic:"
Godareyoucrazy
!Youcan'
tfal
lforher
keenanyouwil
lbr
eakherhear
tIj
ustgother
backinmyli
fe"
Keenan:
"wedon'tchoosewhowelov
e"Ihear
d
somethi
ngl
ikeaslap"whatthef
uckyou
sl
appedmef or
"
Nic:"youwi
llstayawayfrom mydaughter
keenanorsohel pmeGodUKwi l
lbeyour
permanthome"Ihear dfoot
stepscoming
towardsthedoorIhurri
edawaygoi ngdownt
he
stair
sIgotinthekit
chenmam' radebewas
cleani
ngupIguesskeenanl eftamess
Me:"
hel
lomah"Iri
nsedt
hedi
shesl
eav
ingt
hem
i
nthedi
shwasher
Mam'
radebe:
"hel
l
osi
s"
Me:
"howi
syourkneet
oday
"shesmi
l
ed
Mam'r
adebe:
"itbett
ermychi
ldthankyouso
muchfort
aki
ngmet oseeadoctort
hose
medi
ciner
eal
lyhelped"
Me:"j
usttel
lmewheny
ourunoutIcangety
ou
aref
il
l"ni
col
ecameint
heki
tchencal
li
ngmy
name
Ni
c:"
let
'sgo!
"
Me:"I
'
m stil
ltal
ki
ngtomam'radebe"
mam'radebeshookherheadwhennicol
egav
e
heradeadstare
Mam'r
adebe:
"thanky
oumychi
l
dmayGod
bl
essyou"
Me:
"Amen"shequi
ckl
ywal
kedoutt
heki
tchen
Ni
c:"
let
'sgo"
Me:
"thoughtkeenanwast
aki
ngme"
Ni
c:"
hehadt
oransomewher
e"
Me:
"ok"Iwentt
ogetmybagnphonewelef
t
t
heri
dewasjustsi
l
enceal
lthewayf
rom
midrandtoHy deparkwhenwegott omypl ace
shesaidshecan' tgoupshe'sinar ushIgotout
thecarassoonasIgoti nthelobbyhedr ove
outIgreetedbobIwassecur i
tyguardwentup
tomypl ace.WhenIgott herethosegirlswer e
sti
ll
thereoj ustgreet
edwentupt omyr oom my
bedwasn' tmademeani ngsomeonesl epti nmy
room Ifel
tlikecryi
ngIchangedt hebeddi ng
packedanov erni
ghtbagtookmybooksl ocked
upmyr oom l eavi
ngwithmykeyIdr ov
eof fto
l
ungelo'splace.WhenIgott hereitwasl ockedI
openedusi ngmykeywhenIgoti nIcoul dhear
thetvinthel ounge
Me: "
honeyim home"Iwal
kedi
nthel
ounge
foundsomegirlwatchi
ngt
v"hi
"Ismi
l
edbutshe
didn'
tret
urni
t
Gir
l:"
whoarey
ouandhowdi
dyougeti
n"I
showedhermykey
Me:
"keywher
eisLungel
o"
Gi
rl
:"whoar
eyou"
Me:"Sinoandyouare"themomentIsai
dmy
nameshesatupl ookedatmeupndown
coupleofti
mesbeforeherey
essett
ledonmy
face
Gi
rl
:"Samke"
Me:"oh"If
eltsomeonepi
ckmeupfrom t
he
backIsquealeddr
oppedmybags"
putmedown
youfool
"helaughednputmedown
Lungel
o:"
whendi
dyougetback"
Me:
"awhi
l
eback"
Lungel
o:"
what
'swr
ong"
Me:"i
tsethu'sf
ri
endst heysti
l
lthereLungel
o
andoneoft hem usedmyr oom didn'
tevenhav
e
thedecencytocleanitormaket hebed"
Lungel
o:"
thef
uck"Ishr
uggedmyshoul
der
s
Me:"Iknowr
ight
"hewipedmytear
ski
ssi
ngmy
f
oreheadSamkeclear
edhert
hroat
Lungel
o:"
ohy
oumetSamke"
Me:"y
eahsor
ryIdi
dn'
tknowy
ouhav
eav
isi
tor
I
'l
ll
eave"
Lungel
o:"noitcool
Iwasaboutt otakeSamke
backtoherresanywayy ousl
eepingover
"I
l
ookedoverhisshouldertoSamkeshewas
fuming
Me:"Idon'
tthi
nkIshoul
difIwasinher
si
tuati
onIdbebri
ngthisf
latdownwithanger
soI'
llj
ustgobacktomyplacelookmyselfi
n
myr oom"
Lungel
o:"don'
tbecrazyMakaAv egoputy
our
bagsinthebedroom I
'l
lbebackbefor
eyou
knowit"
Me:
"Lungel
odon'
t"her
oll
edhi
sey
es
Lungel
o:"l
et'
sgoSamke"shest
oodupwor
eher
shoesstor
medouttheapart
ment
Me:
"she'
sangr
ybr
a"
Lungel
o:"
shewil
loveri
tI'
l
lbebacksoon"he
gavemeasoftpeck
Samke: "
youknowthatt
hisi
sfucknbul
lshi
t
ri
ght"shewasstandi
ngbythedoormusthave
camebackwhenshenot i
cedLungel
owas
runni
ngafterher
Me:
"Ishoul
dgo"
Lungel
o:"
Sinov
uyo"
Samke: "
y'
al
lgotmatchi
ngt
att
oos"ourgaze
droppedtoourankel
Me: "
lookSamkeyoucanst
ayifyouwanttoit
yourbf'
sapart
mentI'
l
lgobacktomyplace"
Lungel
o:"
don'tbesil
l
ySinosamkewasgoingto
l
eaveanyway"hewenttoleavemybagsinhi
s
room t
hantheylef
t.I
tdi
dn'
ttakel
ongLungel
o
wasback.
Me:"
youknowy ourr
elati
onshi
pisnotgoingt
o
wor
koutifyoukeepdoingthat
"helaughed
Lungelo:"
wenoti
nar
elat
ionshi
pwej
ust
chi
ll
ing"hegav
emeagrin
Me:
"what
'schi
l
li
ng"
Lungel
o:"
itchi
l
li
nghav
eyouhear
dany
thi
ng
fr
om Nkanyi
so"
Me:
"no"
Lungel
o:"
hewasherey
est
erdaysayshe
missesusnhi
ssorr
yweshouldal
ltal
k"
Me:
"oh"
Lungel
o:"
yep"wewat
chedt
vunt
ilwewentt
o
sl
eep.
.
Thefol
lowi
ngdayIwokeupbecauseLungel
o'
s
er
ecti
onwasdiggi
ngonmyasshewokeup
whenIwasmov i
ng
Lungel
o:"
morni
ng"Isnuggl
edcl
osershaki
ng
myasshegroaned
Me:
"what
'supwi
tht
hat
"hechuckl
ed
Lungel
o:"
comeonSinowhatdoyouexpect
whenyouweart
hesekindofpj
s"wel
aughed
Me:
"sor
ry"hehel
dmet
ight
er
Lungel
o:"
hel
pmeout
"
Me:
"noway
sbr
u"It
ri
edwi
ggl
i
ngoutofhi
shol
d
Lungel
o:"
pleasej
ustoner
ound"
Me:"Lungel
onoandbesi
desdon'
tyounSamke
hav
esex"
Lungel
o:"
thi
sisabouty
ounmenother
"
Me:
"justcl
eanupher
ewhi
l
eIgobat
h"
Lungelo:"
ory
t"hekissedmynecknl etgo.I
wenttobathwhenIgotouthewentt obathI
gotdressedqui
cklyinjeanstankt
opnal lst
ars.
Wentt omakebreakfasthecameoutdr essed
l
ikemesi ngi
ngJeremih-lovedon'
tchange
Lungelo:
"butwhenithur
tsIcanmakeitbet
ter
gir
lifi
tworksitgonnabefor
everl
ovedon'
t
change"hekissedmycheeksatdownnextto
me
Lungel
o:"
thanky
ouhun"
Me:
"youwel
come"
Lungelo:
"wast
hinki
ngwedr i
vedownhomet hi
s
monthendweekend"Isqueal
edinexci
tement
helaughed
Me:
"yeah!Beenmi
ssi
ngLuv
uyo"
Lungel
o:"
greaty
ougoi
ngt
ost
ayathomer
ight
"
Me:"noI
'l
lstayathomeI'
l
lgetheronFr
iday
br
ingherbackSunday"
Lungel
o;"
hey
!Ial
soneedt
ospendt
imewi
th
her"
Me:
"youwi
l
ldur
ingt
heday
"
Lungel
o:"
noSi
not
hat
'snotqui
tef
air
"
Me:"
buty
ouknowmyparentswoul
dnev
er
al
l
owmet ost
ayaty
ourhouse"
Lungel
o:"
youwon'
ttel
lthem y
oui
ndbn"
Me:
"hay
iLungel
ohow"
Lungel
o:"
simpl
y"
Me:
"easi
ersai
d"
Lungel
o:"
justt
hinkabouti
t"
Me: "
okletmel eavegota08: 40"Iwenttori
nse
mybowl gotmybackpackandl ef
t.Thedayon
campuswentbyni celywhenIgott omy
apart
mentSet huandherf r
iendswer ewatchi
ng
tvinpjsl
iket
heydi dn'tevenat t
endedIjust
greet
edwentt omyr oom.Wentback
downstair
stot hekit
chensoIcoul dmakea
sandwichSethucamei n
Sethu:
"wast
her
eapoi
nti
nyourl
ocki
ngy
our
room"
Me:"howcany ouletsomestrangerusemy
bedr
oom SethuIhav eal
lmythingsinther
e
whatifsomethi
ngwentmi ssi
ngandIdon't
wantrandom peopleusi
ngmybed"
Sethu:"
ohsowheny ouhavedi
ff
erentguys
sl
eepinginy
ourbeditokyousuchabit.
."I
di
dn'tevenl
etherf
ini
shIsl
appedthebitchness
outofher
Me:
"li
stenher
eSet
huIwi
l
lfucky
ouupandI
wil
ldoitgoodandther
e'snot
hingyouwil
ldo
abouti
tsowatchyoursel
fbef
or eIl
osemy
cool
"
Sethu:"
Sino"shewashol
dinghercheekwi
th
tearst
hreateni
ngtocomeout
Me:"
youwillt
ellt
hosefr
iendsofyoursthatt
his
i
snotahoteltheymustleavetheweekendis
l
ongovergetyouractt
ogetherbefor
eIcally
our
mom"
Sethu:"
Ihat
eyou"sher
anoutoft
heki
tcheni
n
tears
Me:"
good"Iscr
eamedafterheroneofher
f
ri
endscameintheki
tchen
Gi
rl
:"whatdi
dyoudo"
Me:
"fuckof
fngetoutofmyf
ace"
Gir
l:"
shewastel
li
ngthetr
uthy oureal
l
yar ea
sel
fcenter
edbit
ch"shewalkedoutIfi
nshed
makingmysandwichatei
nt hekit
chenwhenI
gottothel
oungetheywer
en'tther
eIplayed
somemusicncleanedtheplacei
twassodi
rt
y
whenIwasdoneItookmyphonesatdown
watchi
ngtvwhi
l
echat t
ingIhadorder
ed2
boxesofpi
zzat
hebuzzwentof fIwentt
o
answer
Me:
"yeah"
Bob:
"del
i
ver
ymsdey
"
Me: "t
hankyoubobsendi
tup"Sethunher
fri
endscamedownsatwithmet heywere
talki
ngIwasmindi
ngmyownbusi nesswhen
someoneknockedIwenttoopenthinki
ngitt
he
pizzaboybuti
twasn'
t
Me:
"hi
"
Guy :
"del
i
v er
yforaMsDominicSmi
th"Ij
ust
l
aughedt ookthet
hingsi
twasabunchofred
rosesnagi f
tbag
Me:
" t
hankyou"Isi
gnedhel
efti
wentbacki
n
t
helounge
Set
hu:
"doesmom knowy
ouchangedy
our
name"
Me:"Idi
dnt
"Ir
eadthenot
e*canIst
ealyout
his
weekendpr
ett
ypl
ease.
..
.Lov
ekeenan*
I
twas2dif
fer
entki
ndsofchocol
atenabot
tl
e
ofMoët
Gir
l1:
"yum canIhav
eaglass"Irol
l
edmyeyes
thegi
rlcal
l
edmeabi tchl
essthantwohour
s
ago
Me:
"sur
eyouguy
scandr
inki
t"shej
umpedf
or
i
t
Set
hu:
"canIhav
ethechocol
ate"
Me:"y
eahhel
pyour
sel
f"It
ookoneboxofLi
ndi
t
l
eftt
heFer
rer
oRocher
Set
hu:
"whoi
sitf
rom"
Me:"
noonei mpor
tant
"It
ooktherosesput
t
hem i
nav asewit
hwatert
ookitt
omyr oom
t
hanIcal
l
edkeenan
Keenan:
"heybeaut
if
ul"
Me:
"hey
"
Keenan:
"howar
eyou"
Me:
"I'
m goodny
ou"
Keenan:"
I'
m cooly
oulef
twi
thoutsay
ing
goodbyeyest
erday"
Me:
"ohy
eahsor
ry"
Keenan:
"itoky
oucanmakei
tupt
ome"
Me:"
thanky
ouIjustgotthedel
i
ver
yther
oses
ar
esobeauti
ful
"hechuckled
Keenan:"
beaut
if
ulr
osesf
orabeaut
if
ulwoman"
Igi
ggled
Me:
"socheesy
"
Keenan:
"may
be.
..Sowhaty
ousay
"
Me:
"wher
edoy
ouwanat
akeme"
Keenan:
"itasur
pri
sepl
easesayy
es"
Me:"youdoknowt hatitt
hev
alent
ines
weekend"hechuckled
Keenan:
"yeahI
'
m awar
eofsomet
hingl
i
ket
hat
"
Me:
"youpr
omi
set
obehav
e"
Keenan:
"Iswearwecanev
enusedi
ff
erent
rooms"
Me:
"okpi
ckmeupf
ri
dayaf
ter
noon"
Keenan:
"gr
eat
!"Igi
ggl
ed
Me:
"wi
l
lseey
ouFr
idaykeenan"
Keenan;"
byeNi kki
I'
ll
textyou"hedroppedthe
cal
lIwassmi l
ingli
keaf oolIwentback
downstai
rsthepizzawasal r
eadyherethey
wereeati
ngIsatdownat ewit
hthem after
eat
ingIwenttobusymy sel
fwithmyschool
workbefor
esleeping.
.

TimeflewbyThursdayIhaddinnerpl
answi t
h
NkanyisoandLungel
onkanyisonIsti
llhadn'
t
tal
ked.KeenannIbeentext
ingbacknf ort
hI
foundmy sel fsmili
ngnl aughingalltheti
me
whenIwaschat ti
ngwi thhim hewassucha
sweetper sonj ustthathewascar efulwi
thhi s
heartandwasscar edoflovingsomeonef ully.
Any wayitwasal r
eadylatewhenIgotoutt he
bathroom Igotdr essedi ntornblackankle
grazerabl ackshirttuckedinwi thblueankle
strapthi
ckheel sIfi
xedmybr aidsputona
fl
owerhai rbandIt ookmybagl eftforsandt on.
WhenIgott ot herestaurantIfoundt hem there
alr
eady
Lungel
o:"
heyHun"hegav
emeahug
Nka:
"Si
no"wehadanawkwar
dhug
Me:"y
ouguy
sbeenher
elong"Isi
gnal
eda
wai
ter
Nka:
"justf
ewmi
nut
es"
Me:
"sor
ryI
'
mlat
e"Ior
der
edmydr
ink
Lungel
o:"
itcool
"
Me:
"Iam st
arv
ing"Iwasl
ooki
ngatt
hemenu
Nka:
"wer eadyt
oorder
"It
ookaqui
ckl
ookt
hen
weplacedourorder
Me:
"sowhat
'sup"
Nka:"
Ijustwanaapol
ogi
zefort
hewayI'
vebeen
act
ingeversi
ncether
esul
tscameout
"
Me:
"youwer
eanasswhol
e"Lungel
ochuckl
ed
Nka:"IknowandI'
m sor
ryIhur
tpeoplewhen
I
'm hurt
ingbutI
'
m worki
ngonitcozitnotf
air
"
Me:
"noi
tnot
"
Nka:
"I'
m sor
ryIr
eal
lymissyouguysImissour
f
ri
endshipl
if
eisj
ustnotcoolwi
thouty
'al
l"
Lungel
o:"
Ial
somi
sst
het
hreeofust
oget
her
"
Me:"l
et'
sleav
ethepastwher
eiti
sandmov
e
on"
Nka:
"yeah"
Lungel
o:"
cool
"
Me:"
Lungel
oandIarenottogetherbytheway
ev
enthatt
imeIsai
dwet ogetherIli
ed"we
l
aughed
Nka:
"oh"
Me:
"yep"
Lungel
o:"
shedoesn'
twantme"
Me: "Ial
sodon'
twantNkanyi
sowef r
iendsi
t
shouldhaveremai
nedli
kethatsexandfeel
i
ngs
fuckedusup"
Lungel
o:"
yeahbutIdon'
tregr
etbei
ngwi
thy
ou
wegotLuvuyooutofit
"
Me:
"yeahwel
l
"
Nka:
"can'
tbel
i
evewe'v
ebot hbeeninyouhha
whowouldhavet
hought"t
heylaughed
Me:"
fuckoff
"weal
ll
aughedourf
oodcamewe
st
art
edeati
ng
Nka:
"soy
ouseei
ngany
wayr
ightnow"
Me:"can'
tl
abeli
tatthemoment"Lungel
o
l
ookedatme" whatwechi
ll
i
ng"hechuckled
Lungel
o:"
Idi
dn'
tknowwhoi
sit
"
Me: "
nooneandy
ouNkany
isost
il
lwi
thKi
m"he
chuckled
Nka:"
wasneverwi
thKim butI
'm al
sochi
l
li
ng
wit
hacoupl
eofpeople"welaughed
Lungel
o:"
eit
hischi
l
li
ngt
hing"
Me:
"youst
art
edi
t"
Lungel
o:"y
eahwellt
hinkIal
soneedt
ochi
l
lwi
th
acoupleofpeopl
e"
Me:"
youtwoaregoingbackt
oyourol
dpl
ayer
way
s"theyl
aughed
Nka:
"hur
twi
l
ldot
hatt
oyou"
Lungel
o:"
tr
ue"Ipi
ckedupmygl
ass
Me:
"tochi
l
li
ng"
Them:
"tochi
l
li
ng"wecl
i
ckedourgl
asses
Nka:
"doeschi
l
li
ngi
nvol
vesex"
Lungel
o:"
mosdef
ini
tel
y"
Me:
"eewu"
Nka:"
whosethi
sni
ggayouchi
l
li
ngwit
hanyway
needt
omeetupwithhi
mlethi
m knowwe
comefir
st"
Lungelo:"
yeaht
hatshi
tneedst
obesetout
str
aight"
Me:"ohGod"welaughedcont
inuedeati
ngn
dr
inki
ngovergoodconver
sati
onthenweall
wentoursepar
atewaysaft
erpaying.
.
FridayIwokeupexci t
edwewer eleav i
ngat
17:00Icoul dn'twaittof i
nishat t
endi nghest i
ll
didn'twanttot ellmewher ewegoi nghej ust
saidpackal i
ttl
ebitofev ery
thingincl udinga
sexybi ki
niIjustlaughedathi m andsai dcool.I
gotof fthebedmadei twentt obat hgotout
l
ot i
onedwor eshor tnv estswithall stars
grabbedmybackpackwentdownst airs.Ihad
breakfastSet huwasst il
lnotattendi ngIev en
calledPhiwehet alkedt ohershej ustsai dshe
needsabr eakf r
om ev erythi
ngherf riendswer e
sti
llatourapart
menteatingourfoodl eaving
dirt
ydishesinthesinkIwasaslowl yticking
ti
mebom IknewIwasgoi ngt
oexpl odesoon.I
fi
nishedeati
ngwentt ocampusaf terat t
ending
TeedohAmynIwentwentt oNorthgat e
shoppingcenterlooki
ngforgi
ft
swewer eat
sterns
Me:"
whatdoy
oubuysomeonewhohas
ev
ery
thi
nghewant
snneedsany
way"
Teedoh:"bbewhosethi
sguyofyour
syou've
beenall
mi ster
ousabouthi
misheablesser
"
AmynIl aughed
Me:"y
ouknowIdon'
tneedabl
esserIgotmy
par
entsnbr
other
"
Teedoh:
"hemustber
eal
l
yugl
y"
Me:"ohbooy
ouhav
enoi
deahi
samazi
ngl
y
godl
y"
Amy:"Iagr
eewi
thTeedohhi
sugl
y"t
heyhi
gh
fi
ved
Me;
"what
ever
"
Amy :"
thi
nkI'
m get
ti
ngawat ch"wewentt
othe
watchsecti
onthewatchesweregor
geousbut
keenanwearsthel
atestRol
ex
Teedoh:
"wayoutofmypri
cerange"Amy
boughtt
hewatchwhenwegotouttheshopwe
bumpedint
oNkanyisowi
thPearl
Me:"well
well
heyy
out
wo"Pear
lshi
ft
ed
uncomfort
abl
y
Teedoh:"
yeahgir
lbeuncomf
ort
abl
eyoudoi
ng
herex"Nkany
isochuckl
ednl
ookedaway
Me:
"itcool
mannohat
e"
Nka:
"heyl
ove"hescoopedmeupi
nahuge
Me:
"mmhshe'
soneofy
ourchi
l
lbuddi
esnow"
Nka:
"somet
hingl
i
ket
hat
"hewi
nked
Me:
"that
'smycousi
nAmy
"
Nka:
"youcousi
nwi
thcol
our
edpeopl
enow"I
gi
ggl
ed
Me:"we'
ll
talkabouti
tsomeot
herdayl
etusnot
i
nter
ruptyoutwo"
Nka:
"okl
ater
"
Teedoh:
"by
ehoe"
Me:"
Teedoh!LetPear
lhav
efun"Ibi
tthei
nsi
de
ofmyli
ptonotlaugh
Teedoh:"
lef
tov
ers"Ipul
l
edTeedohaway
Nkanyi
sowasjustshaki
nghi
sheadchuckl
i
ng
Amy
:"Teedohndr
ama"
Teedoh:
"nobbey
ouj
ustdon'
tdof
ri
end'
sex"
Me:"
well
she'
snotourf
ri
endnowandshe
al
wayswant
edhim"
Amy :"st
il
ldoesn'
tmakeitnice"wecont i
nued
shoppingIgotkeenannImat chingwhiteRaw
tshi
rtsweleft.Byt
heti
meIgott omypl aceit
was15: 00Ipackedmyduf f
lebagt ookabath
gotoutloti
onedputonmymakeupkeenan
call
edsay i
nghisal
mosthereIf i
nishedupgot
dressedingraypenci
lski
rtwithamat ching
l
ongsl eevecr optopandsandlashecall
ed
sayingImustcomedownIputonf inalt
ouches
onmyf acef i
xedupmyhairItookmybagn
handbagl ockedupmyr oom wentdownst ai
rs
Sethuwast herewit
hherfr
iendsdri
nking
Set
hu:
"wher
eyougoi
ng"
Me:
"outI
'
llbebackSunday
"
Set
hu:
"goi
ngt
oyourmom'
spl
ace"
Me:
"nooutwi
thsomeone"
Mbal
i
:"y
ourboy
fri
end"
Me:
"yes"
Sethu:
"mustbenicehav
efun"sher
oll
edher
eyesIshookmyheadnwalkedoutchangedmy
mindwentbackin
Me:"whenIcomebackSundayy outwobetter
beoutofher ethi
sisnotafreehot
el"Iwal
ked
outagainleavi
ngthem whi
speri
ng.WhenIgot
downstair
skeenanwasal r
eadywaiti
ngoutside
hi
scarlookinggorgeoushepushedhishai
r
backnsmiledasImademywayt ohim het
ook
mybagputi ti
ntheboott
henhuggedme
pressi
ngourbodiest
oget
herhesmell
edsonice
Keenan:
"heybeaut
if
ul"
Me:"heyy
our
sel
fhandsome"hechuckl
edi
pul
l
edback
Keenan:
"ready
"
Me:
"wher
ewegoi
ngt
o"
Keenan:
"nor
thwest
"
Me:"
eh"hel
aughedki
ssedmycheekopened
mydoor
Keenan:
"getin"Ididheclosedt
hedoorn
walkedt
ohissi degett
inginwedrov
eoffi
na
speedKeenan'scarisabeast
Me:
"younotgoi
ngt
oki
l
lmet
her
e"
Keenan:"
never
"theri
dewasf unny
conver
sati
onswithkeenanarejusteasygoing
i
nlessthen2hourswepar kedinthefrontof
suncit
yhotel
thebel
lboyqui
cklygotoutour
bagswhil
etheval
etguytookthecarthehot
el
wasamazingwewalkedtotherecepti
oni
st
hol
dinghands
Rec:
"goodev
eni
ngwel
comet
osunci
tyhot
el"
Keenan:"
thankyouIgotr
eservat
ionforKeenan
Smith"t
hegirl
wentaboutherbusiness
Rec:"y
espresi
denti
alsuit
e"keenangav
ehehis
cardIl
ookedaroundthelobbythepl
acewas
fi
ll
edwithcoupl
esngr oupoffri
ends
Keenan:
"let
'sgobbe"
Me:
"youdone"
Keenan:
"yep"
Me: "
ok"wewentt otheel ev
atorwit
ht he
bell
boyfollowi
nguswhenwegott ot hesuitei
t
wasabsol utel
ybeauti
fulwit
hapr i
vatejacuzzi
bythebalconyIlookedaroundwhi l
ehewas
busywi t
hourbagsIt hrewmy sel
font hebed
thebalconydoorwasopenwi thni
cebr eeze
comi
ngi
nhej
oinedmeont
hebedl
ayi
ngnext
tome
Me:"ev
ery
thi
ngl
ooksbeaut
if
ulkeenant
hank
you"
Keenan:
"youl
ovei
t"
Me:
"yep"
Keenan:"goodl
etsgoexpl
oret
hispl
aceand
eat"Ir
oll
edsoIcanlayonmystomachlooki
ng
athim
Me:
"what
'sy
ouragendawi
tht
his"
Keenan:"
gett
ingtoknoweachot
herbet
terout
ofourcomfortzone"
Me: "
oklet'
sgo"wegotof
fthebedwentout
tookawalkaroundj
ustl
ookingaf
terthatwe
haddinnerwenttot
hecasi
nogambl edwhil
e
havi
ngdr i
nkswhenIwasti
redwewentt osl
eep.
.
Thef
oll
owi
ngdayIwokeupwar
minKeenan'
s
armsImov edabithehel
dmet i
ght
ermoani
ngI
fel
tshockwavesgoingt
hroughmybody
Keenan:"mor
ningbeaut
if
ul"hi
svoi
cewasso
huskyitmademesmi l
e
Me:
"mor
ning"
Keenan:
"sl
eptwel
l
"
Me:
"yeahny
ou"
Keenan:
"met
oobr
eakf
astwi
l
lbeher
esoon"
Me:"okletmegowashmyf acenrinsemy
mouth"heletgoIgotof ft
hebedwor ear obe
wenttothebathroom whenIgotoutt her
ewer e
twoladi
essetti
ngupbr eakfastonatablebythe
bal
conyitwasabeaut i
fulsunnydaykeenan
huggedmef rom behi
ndkissingmycheek
Keenan:
"beaut
if
ulday
"
Me:
"yeah"
Keenan:
"happyval
enti
nesbbe"Ismi
l
edand
tur
nedtolookathi
m Iwrappedmyarms
ar
oundhi
sneckst
oodonmyt
oes
Me: "happyv alenti
nes"heloweredhisheadwe
kissedhishandonmybackbr oughtmecloser
tohisbodyIj ustmel t
ednletoutasoftmoan
ourt onguesgent l
yt easedeachothert
hekiss
feltsomagi cal wepul l
edbackwhensomeone
clearedthei
rt hroat
Lady
:"wedonemrsmi
th"
Keenan: "
thanky ousi tbbeI '
ll
bewi thyounow"
hewal kedbacki nt heroom whi leIsatdownhe
j
oinedmesoonweat e.AftereatingItooka
bathwhi l
ehewassor ti
ngoutsomet hingshe
tookabat hwhenIwasdoneIputonasun
dresswor ef l
i
pflopsheal sogotdr essedin
shortsnt anktopi twassol owont hesideshis
muscl eswer eal
l exposedwewentont hesafar
i
tourwheni twasov erwehadl atelunchkeenan
mademel aughal otnIl oveditIwassl owly
fal
li
ngf orhim event houghIhadbui ltwal
ls
aroundmyhear ttopr eventitfrom happening.
Wet ookawal kont hemazewhent hesunwas
set ti
ngwet ookahotai rbal l
oonr ideIwasso
sacr edkeenansmashedhi slipsonmi newhen
i
tt ookof fIwast oolosti nhiski sst oev en
real i
zewewer emov ingunt ilhepul l
edback
whenIopenedmyey esIscr eamedi nf r
ighthe
l
aughedandwr appedhi sar msar oundmewe
remai nedlikethatf orther estoft her ide.Af ter
thatwewentbackt ot her oom i twasst ill18:00
hehaddi nnerreser vationf or20: 30wej ustsat
i
nt heroom hav ingwi nenchocol at ewhi le
talking.Wegotr eadyl aterIwor eabody
huggi ngblackdr essshowcasi ngmywai stn
asswi thaopenbackl acyar oundmycl eav age
j
ustabov et hekneeIwor emybl ackr edbot t
om
heel s,keenanwaswear i
ngbl ackski nnychi nos
withamar oonshi r
tthreebut tonsundonewi tha
mar oonblazernbl ackshoesIgr abbedmy
clutchbaghet ookmyhandwel ef tfordi nner .
Wewer eshownourt ableheor der edabot t
leof
winewhi l
ewel ookedatt hemenu.Anhourl ater
wewerei
nthemi
ddl
eofourmai
ncour
sewhi
l
e
t
alki
ng
Keenan:
"wi
shwedidn'
thav
etol
eav
e"Ismi
l
ed
tookasi
pofmywine
Me:
"Iknowr
ightandt
hanky
ouagai
nkeenan"
Keenan:
"youwel
comeNi
kky
"
Me:"
I'
m sureyourprev
iousgf
swer
ejustmadl
y
i
nlov
ewi t
hy ou"hechuckl
ed
Keenan:
"onl
yhadonegfi
tdi
dn'
twor
kout
"
Me:
"wanat
alkabouti
t"
Keenan:
"ther
e'snostor
yactual
l
yshewant
ed
l
oveandIcouldn'tgi
vei
ttoher"
Me:
"why
"
Keenan:"
lov
escarest
hel
i
vingshi
toutofmeI
thi
nkitmyworstf
ear"
Me:
"howcany
oubescar
edofl
ove"
Keenan:"
youhav
en'
tseenl
ovet
hewayI
'
ve
seenit
"
Me:
"whatdoy
oumean"
Keenan:"mymom wasal i
vingcorpseshewent
throughatraumati
cdepr essiv
est atewhendad
l
efthershecouldn'ti
magi neherlifewithoutt
he
l
ov eofherli
feasifthat
'snotwor semybest
fri
endMat t
ykil
ledhimselfaweekaf terhe
burri
edhisgfwhohaddr ownedsoI '
veseen
l
ov edest
roypeopleIdon'twantt hat"
Me:
"Iam sosor
rykeenan"
Keenan:"
butwi
thy
ouGodSi
noy
ousosneaky
"I
gi
ggled
Me:
"youcal
l
edmeSi
no"her
oll
edhi
sey
es
Keenan:
"yousosneakybusysneaki
ngy ourway
i
nmyhear tev
eryt
hingofyour
sisjustf
lawless
youdon'
tevenhavetotr
y"Ismil
ed
Me:
"ist
hatabadt
hing"
Keenan:"
notatal
l"wefi
nisheddi
nnerwent
backtoourroom hegav
emeagi ftbagi
thada
Rolexwi
thdiamondearr
ings
Me: "
aahkeenany
our eal
l
ydi
dn'
thav
eto
especial
l
yaft
erbr
ingi
ngmehere"
Keenan: "
Iwant edt oy oubeaut if
ulandy ou
deservebeaut i
ful t
hings"hehel dmychi nt il
ting
myheadweki ssedt heki sswassl owhegent l
y
pushedmet ot hebedImov edmybodyupt o
l
ayint hemi ddleofi thegotont opofmewe
werest i
l
lkissingIst artedunbut t
oni nghisshi rtI
pushedbackhi sblazeral ongwi thhi sshirtI
moanedi nappr eciationwhenmyhandsl anded
onhispacksIt rail
edmyf ingerdownt ohi sV
hi
sbodywashar dnl eanal lmuscleshepul led
mydr essuppul l
ingitoutofmybodyIwasnt
weari
ngabr asonowIwasj ustl
efti nmybl ack
l
acythonghesatupl ookingatmybodywi t
h
desi
renl ustflushingal loverhisey es
Keenan:
"yousosexy
"
Me: "
soarey ou"Itol
dhim wit
hasmir
khe
chuckledIpulledhi
m backtomeopeni
ngmy
l
egsupIst artedonhisbeltdi
dhi
sbutt
onnzi
p
heshi mmyof fhispant swasl efti
nhisboy leg
hest ar
tedki ssingmef rom myj awl i
net omy
neckdownmyst omacht omyi nnerthi
ghs
whi l
ebitt
ingt hem Ishi veredhet ookof fmy
thongwi t
hhi steethwhi lekeepinghisey eson
mi neIsmi ledmysmi let urnedintoaloudmoan
whenhi st onguef oundmycl i
thewentdownon
meeat ingmeupunt i
lIcamehecamet omy
facehismout hnsur r
oundi ngf i
ll
edwi t
h
ev i
denceofwhathehadj ustdonetomewe
kissedhef l
ippedusov erput t
ingmeont opIdi
d
thesamet ohi m untilIhadhi shugeanaconda
i
nmymout hwhi l
emyhandpl ayedwithhi s
ballshisreact i
onwasmot i
vati
ngmehe
groanedloudwhi lepushi ngmyheadasheshot
hisloadinmymout hi wentbackupt ohi m wit
h
asmi rk
Me:"di
dn'
tknowwhiteguysgetcir
cumcised"he
l
aughedandfli
ppedusovergett
ingof
fthebed
hecamebackwi t
hacondom
Keenan:
"don'
tbecr
azyof
coswedo"hegav
e
met hecondom wewentbackt oki ssingwhile
hisf inger smov edslowl yi nmeIt oreoft he
condom puti tonhi m hemov edbackdownI
criedoutashesl owl ysanki nmewhi lehekept
hisey esonmi nehebr eat hedoutbef orehe
wental l i
nIar chedmybackmyt ear sfellheput
hisf aceonmyneck" ohGodbbet hisis
amazi ng"heki ssedmyey esnst artedmov i
ng
slowl yt hepai nsoonf adedIj oinedhi mi n
mov ingwewer ejustmov ingslowl ywhi le
kissinghepul l
edbackf rom myl i
pspr essedour
foreheadst oget her"lookatme"Iopenedmy
eyes" Ilovey ouSi noIl ov ey ousomuch"I
staredathi m notknowi ngwhatt odohemov ed
backunt i
l hewasal mostal loutonl yt osli
d
ri
ghtbacki nsl owlyIcr iedoutgr abbi ngthe
cov er" Ilov ey out oo"Isai dsof tlyhepul ledback
agai nandr ammedi ntome" oohGodkeenan"
hebi tmyneck" yesbbe"Ir oll
edmywai stin
circleshegr oanednshuthi sey es" mmh"I
pulledhi m closert omeneedi ngt of eeleven
closert ohim" keenanIneedy out omov e
faster "hepi ckeduphi sspeedt hrustingint ome
fasternhar derIsankmynai l
sinhi sbackasI
camehar dcr yingouthi sname" bloodyhel lt
hat
wasamazi ngSi no"hepushedbackmyhai r
from myf aceki ssedmei twassosof tnhothe
tastedl i
ket hechocol atepuddi ngt hathehad
fordeser thisspeedpi ckedupagai nhesatup
put ti
ngmyl egar oundhi sneckandr ammed
i
nt omehar dnf astmov i
nghi swai stf l
exinghi s
hipIcoul df eelmysel faboutt or eachmy
climax" yest hat'
si tcomewi thme"hecal led
outIl ookedathi mi nmydi zzyspel latthis
amazi nglybeaut i
ful creaturecal lingmeoutI
camehar dhekeptongoi ngashewas
empt yinghi msel fcomi ngr i
ghtal ongwi thme
whenhewasdonehebr oughthi sf acedownwe
kissedf oral ongt imebef or ehewentt ot he
bathr oom hef lushedt her ubbercamebackwi t
h
awar mt owel cleanedmeupdr oppedt het owel
tot hef loorgotont hebedpul l
edmecl osert o
hi
m
Keenan:
"ImeantwhatIsai
dIl
ovey
ou"
Me:"Il
ovey
out oo"Iki
ssedhi
schestwe
cuddl
edunt
ilIdri
ft
edofftol
alal
and.
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08/
12,
21:
24]Wadz
:#23
.
WhenIwokeupkeenanwasst il
lasleephe
l
ookedsobeaut if
ulnpeacefulhisthick
eyebrowsnlongey el
ashesIpushedhi shair
fr
om hisfacehelookedsodi f
ferentfrom t
he
pl
ay f
ulkeenanthatheisIgotont opof
st
raddli
nghim Istart
edkissi
nghi sneckhewas
al
readyhardhel i
psformedasmi l
eIsatupa
l
it
tlegentl
ysatdownonhi sdi
ckletti
ngitsli
de
i
nme
Keenan:"
fuckbabyi
tfeel
sev enbetter"he
groanedandhel
dmywai stIstart
edmov i
nghis
handswasplayi
ngwithmyboobswhenIwas
abouttocomeheheldmywai stt
ighterli
ft
ing
meupndownhi m hardhekeptongoi ngunt
il
wecamemybodyj erkedIcoll
apsedonhim he
pushedmyhai
rbackki ssedmyforehead
Keenan:"
welli
tdefi
nitel
yagoodmor
ningf
rom
whereI'
m st
anding"Igiggl
ed
Me:
"goodmor
ningi
ndeed"
Keenan:
"Il
ovey
ou"
Me:"Il
oveyout
oo"hesighedandhel
dme
t
ight
er"whatwedoi
ngtoday"
Keenan:
"val
l
eyofwav esandthespaf
oryou
whil
eIfi
xsomet hi
ngsIneedtogetaj
obas
soonaspossibl
ethanwegoinghome"
Me:
"what
'st
her
ushwi
thget
ti
ngaj
ob"
Keenan:"I
'm notgoingtokeepourr
elationship
asecretandIknowt hatwhenni
col
endadf ind
outshitwil
lhitt
hef ansoIwanabepr epared
coztheynotshippingmet oUKwellunlessy ou
comewi thme"
Me:
"nopei
m goodr
ighther
einSA"
Keenan:
"letmecal
lforbr
eakf
ast
"
Me:"oklov
er"Igotof
fhim whenIstar
ted
l
eakingImutter
edacurse"for
gotabouta
condom"helookedatmesmi l
ingl
ikeanidi
ot
Keenan:"
Ifel
titassoonasmyt
ipent
eredy
oui
t
fel
ttoogoodtostopyou"
Me:
"dude!
!I'
m notonapi
l
l"
Keenan:"wi
llgetyouamorningafterbut
tomorrowyouwi l
lgotoyourdoctorstar
tthepil
l
nowayI '
m goingbacktoacondom af t
erfeel
i
ng
thatI
'
venev erwentrawbeforei
tfuckn
amazing"
Me:
"idi
ot"
Keenan:
"youri
diotthatI
s"Ichuckl
edputonhis
shi
rtwhi
lehewor ehisboxer
sIwalkedtothe
bathr
oom si
ngi
ng
Me: "t
hinais'
l
aliwebeworkingal
ldaylong
siphusaspani weain'
tpl
ayingnogameabacavi
l
ightupt hepart
ysi'
j
aivakuzekusenabangani
bami"Iwasjustmov
ingmyhipstot
hesides
whil
elooki
ngatthemir
rorhecamebehi
ndme
star
tedki
ssi
ngonmyneck
Keenan:
"what
'st
hatsong"
Me:
"justsomet
hingf
rom Fi
FiCoopernEmt
ee"
Keenan:
"Emt
eethatPearlt
husi
nrol
lupguy"I
l
aughedandt
urnedtolookathi
m wi
tharai
sed
eyebr
ow
Me:"whaty
ouknowaboutemtee"hechuckl
ed
l
if
tedmeupsit
ti
ngmebyt hesi
nk
Keenan:
"Iwat
cht
vbbeandIl
i
stent
oradi
o"
Me:
"ist
hatso"henodded"
kissme"
Keenan:"
wit
hpleasure"hebroughthisf
ace
downgotbetweenmyl egsweki ssedImoaned
whenhishandcuppedmykushIcoul df
eelhi
s
l
ipsformi
ngasmi l
ehel i
ft
edmeupagai nI
wrappedmylegsaroundhim Ishookmyhead
whenhewaswal ki
ngust othebedhechuckled
nconti
nuedwhenwewer ehalft
heresomeone
knockedhewal
kedt
owar
dst
hedoorIpul
l
ed
out
Me:
"keenanputmedown"
Keenan:
"no"
Me:"keenansmi
th!
"Hel
aughednopenedt
he
door
Lady:"ohsor
rydi
dn'
tmeantodi
stur
bIbr
ought
food"Ihadmybackonher
Keenan:"
getin"Ibur
ri
edmyf
aceonhi
sneck
whil
elaughi
nghemadewayforher
Lady
:"wher
eshoul
dIl
eav
ethi
s"
Keenan:"setuponthedi
nningt able"hegav
e
herhisbackmakingmef acethel adyshewas
l
ookingatusi namusementwhi lesetti
ngupthe
tabl
eImout hedsor
ryshegigglednshookher
headkeenanwasbusynibblingonmyneckn
ear
Keenan:
"Il
ovey
ou"
Me:"
putmedownkeenan"hesl
idemedown
sl
owl
ymakingmefeelhi
serect
ion
Me:
"nast
y"
Keenan:"comehereI
'l
lshowy ounasty"I
walkedawayfrom hi
m sti
ckingmytongueout
"t
het hi
ngsIcoul
ddowi t
hthattongueNikky"I
l
ookedatt hel
adyshewasj ustsmil
ingshaki
ng
herhead
Me:
"shutup"
Keenan:"
comeher
enopeny ourlegsgi
vemy
mouthsomethi
ngtodo"hist
onewasso
suggest
ivet
hel
adylaughedoutl
oud
Me: "Keenan!"Hejustlaughedthel
adyfi
nished
het i
ppedherweat ewithmeonhi sl
ap.After
breakfastwet ookashowergotoutloti
onedI
gotdr essedinmyr edbikini
putonasee
throughl ar
geblacktshir
tdress
Keenan:
"letstayin"hehel
dmybackpressi
ng
ourbodi
est ogetherIj
ustmel
tedi
ntohi
sarms
Me;
"wanagohav
efun"
Keenan:
"wi
l
lhav
efunher
e"
Me:
"nope"
Keenan: "
fi
ne"hegavemeashotwetki sswe
l
eft.Ifeell
iket
hedayjustfl
ewrightt
hrough
soonenoughwewer epar kedbytheentr
anceat
mypl ace
Keenan:
"Il
ovey
ouok"Inodded
Me:
"sodoi
"
Keenan:
"tel
lyoursi
steraboutmesoonsoIcan
comeover"
Me:"Iwi
llbutI'
l
lint
roduceasmybfnotmy
st
epbrot
herIdon'tthi
nkI'
m upf
orthatki
ndof
j
udgementr i
ghtnow"
Keenan:"t
hingsar enotgoingtobeeasyonus
Nikkybutwehav eeachothernwhatwehav eis
realsowhent hetruthcomesoutitgoingtobe
usagainstallt
hingspeoplearegoingtohaten
bejudgment alourparent
swi l
lbef
uriousdad
wil
lprobabl
ydisownmecozni colewil
lhat
eme
j
usttellmethatwhenall
ofthathappensI'
ll
haveyou"hewaswi l
li
ngtogiveital
lupformeI
nodded
Me: "
I'
ll
beher ewit
hy ouIlov
ey ouandthi
sis
us"weki ssedpour
ingouralli
ntoonekissI
pul
ledhepr essedhisfor
eheadonmi ne
Keenan:
"I'
l
lseey
ousoon"
Me: "
seeyousoon"hegotoutthecarcameto
openmydoorhet ookmyhandIgotoutthecar
hepressedmeagai nstweki
ssedagai
nhard
fastoutofbreat
hkisshepul
ledbackwewere
bothbreathi
ngheavil
y
Keenan:"
Ilov
ey ouDomini
c"hetookoutmy
bagfrom t
hebootItookmyhandbaghewalked
meinwhenwegott ot hel
obbyhekissedmy
for
eheadwest ar
edateachother
Me: "y
oudon'twanal
eav
e"heshookhisheadn
Ichuckled"
gohomebabyI'l
lseey
ousoon
may beduri
ngtheweeki
fthi
ngsdon'
tgethect
ic
oncampus"
Keenan:"okIgeti
t"hegavemeasof tpeckI
gotintheelev
atorblewhi
m akissasi tclosed
whenIgott othefr
ontdoorofourapar tmentI
heardnoisesandwhatIsawasIwal kedinwas
tramuati
zing3nakedbodiesSethuridingRush
rever
secowgirlst
ylewhil
eMbali hadherkush
onhisface
Me:"whatthefuck!!!
!"Theyal
ljumpedup" eewu
eewugrossout! !
!"Sethuranupstai
rs"youtwo
getdr
essedandgett hefuckoutofmypl ace"
Rushwasn'tevenwear ingacondom they
qui
cklygotdressedandwal kedoutIlockedthe
doorwentupstair
sIst art
edpoundingon
set
hu'sdoor
Sethu:
"leav
emeal
oneSi
nov
uyo"shewas
cry
ing
Me:"y
oubett
eropenthi
sfuckndoori
fyou
knowwhat
'sgoodforyou"
Set
hu:
"goawaygobackt
oyourper
fectl
i
fe"I
si
ghed
Me:
"Si
phoset
huwhat
'sgoi
ngonwi
thy
ousi
s"
Sethu: "
justgoawayplease"hervoicewas
softerIwenttomyr oom Ilai
dont hebedcr y
ing
set
hu' slif
ewasfall
ingapartri
ghtinfrontofme
thi
swasher4t hyearsheneededt obeather
mostf ocusedmodeIt ookmyphoneandcal led
mom
Mom:
"Si
nowhat
'swr
ongi
tlat
e"
Me:
"Ineedy
out
ocomeher
emom"
Mom:
"what
'sgoi
ngon"
Me:"i
tSethuherl
i
fei
sspi
nni
ngoutofcont
rol
sheneedsyou"
Mom:
"whathappened"
Me:
"shebr
okeupwit
hst habi
sobutIt
hink
t
her
e'smor
etoitt
hanthatsheneedsyou"
Mom: "
I'
ll
takethef
ir
stf
li
ghtoutwi
l
lcal
lyou
bef
oreIboard"
Me:
"okmom Il
ovey
ou"
Mom: "l
oveyoutoo"Idroppedt hecall
tookmy
cl
othesoffgotundert
hecov ernakedandI
sl
eptkeenanwokemeupt ell
ingmehisalsoin
bedwet al
kedunti
lIcouldn'tstayupanymore.
.
Myal arm wokemeup07: 00Isawnopoi ntin
goingt ocampussi nceI'
llhavetogot othe
air
por tIputonsweat pantsnv ests,went
downst air
st hehousewassodi rtyIplay
ed
musi cloudlyst art
edcl eaningittookmeal most
3hour stof i
nishwewer eev enoutofgr oceryI
wentt otakeashowergotdr essedi namaxi
dressnsandl asIt ookmykey snpur sewentto
themal lIdidt hegr ocerymom cal l
edsay i
ng
shewasaboutt otakeof fwhileIwasshoppi ng
Ifi
nshedupwentbackt ot heapartmentpacked
upt hegrocer y.WhenIwasdoneIwentt o
knocki nsethu' sroom.
Set
hu:
"leav
emeal
oneSi
no"
Me:"openthisdooranddri
nkthesepil
lsIgot
youamor ni
ngaf t
erandyouneedt ocl
eanyour
room i
m goingtofet
chmom att heair
port
"she
openedherdoorfast
Set
hu:
"ar
eyoucr
azywhaty
oucal
l
edherf
or"
Me: "
I'
m notgoi
ngt owat
chyouthr
owy ourli
fe
awayy oumighthatemebutIl
oveyou"Igave
herthepil
lshedranki
t"i
mleavi
ngnowt akea
bathncleanup"
Sethu:"okthanky ou"Ilef
tf ortheair
por
twhenI
gottheremom wasal readywai ti
ngformewe
exchangedgr eetingsnleft.Whenwegoti nthe
apartmentSet huwaswat chingtvweari
nga
dressshejumpedonmom nst art
edcry
ingIlef
t
them ther
egi vingthem somet i
me.Igotbusy
withmywor kIhadmyphoneswi t
chedofft
he
dooropenedmom goti n
Mom:
"let
'
sgohav
edi
nnergetdr
essed"
Me:
"isi
tthatl
ateal
ready
"
Mom:
"yeahweal
sodi
dn'
tnot
ice"
Me: "
okgivemeachancet ofreshenup"she
noddedm wal kedoutIswit
chedmyphoneon
text
snmi ssedcall
sfrom keenancame
fl
oodingIcall
edhimimmedi ately
Keenan:
"Ni
kkygeesewher
ehav
eyoubeen"
Me: "
hibabyi
m sor
ryIgotcaughtupi
nmy
schoolwork"
Keenan:
"I'
vebeenwor
ri
ed"hi
stonegotsof
ter
Me:
"sor
ryIhady
ouwor
ri
edi
tbeenacr
azyday
"
Keenan:
"canIseey
ou"
Me:
"Ican'
tbaby
"
Keenan:"
pleaseImissy
ou"hepl
eadedi
na
whispermyheartbr
oke
Me:"mom i si
ntownweaboutt ogohav edi
nner
babyImi ssyouaswellbutIcan'tr
ightnowI
cantrytomorrowaft
erattendi
ngwecoul ddo
l
atelunchmay becheckamov ie"
Keenan:
"Iguesst
hat
'scool
Ilov
eyou"
Me;
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ovey
out
oomyl
oveIgot
tagonow"
Keenan: "
okbaby "Idroppedt hecal
lchanged
i
nt ojeanshoodynal lstarswhenIgot
downst ai
rstheywer ewai t
ingf ormewet ook
mycarwent .Ti
mef lewbymom l ef
tWednesday
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ngon
thingsIpunchedint hecodedr oveupIparked
out si
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frontdooritwasn'tlockedIf oundkeenann
Kel vi
nwatchingtv
Me:
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os"kel
vi
nsj
umpedup
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vi
n:"
sishey
"hehuggedme"
Idi
dn'
tknow
youwer
ecoming"
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oo"
Me:"di
dn'
tknowIneededt
orepor
ttoy
out
woi
f
Iwascominghome"
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vi
n:"t
hat
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ingbutmom n
dadar
enothere"
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col
ecal
ledmej
ustt
houghtI
'
d
spendtheni
ghtwi
thmytwof
avor
it
eguys"
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"
Kel
vi
n:"
we'v
ehaddinnerandthestaffi
sgone
ar
eyouhungry
"hespokefastkeenanlaughed
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l
lli
tt
lemanIat
e"
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sjustwor
ri
edabouthi
sbi
gsi
ster
"
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m goodKel
vi
n"
Keenan:
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imeKel
vi
n"
Kel
vi
n:"
noway
sNi
kkyj
ustgother
e"
Keenan:
"itl
ateKel
vi
n"
Kel
vi
n:"
butkeenan.
."
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stonewasf
ir
m
Kel
vi
n:"f
ine"hest
ormedoutt
hel
oungeIj
ust
l
aughed
Me:
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ghtKel
vi
nIl
ovey
ou"
Kel
vi
n:"
lov
eyout
oo"hescr
eamedkeenan
pul
l
edmeov
ert
hecoucht
ohi
m
Keenan:
"heybaby
"
Me:"
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si
tonhim st
raddl
inghi
m Ibithi
sli
phemoaned
gr
abbi
ngmyassbr i
ngi
ngmecl oserImoaned
Me:
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"
Keenan:
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l
edback
Me:"someonei
sgoi
ngtoseeus"hegotof
fthe
couchcar
ri
edmetohisr
oom t
her esti
sTMS.
.
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"heki
ssedmyneck
Me:
"mmh"
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oubr
eakf
astwakeup"hebi
tmy
ear
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eah"hechuckl
edIopenedmyey
es
Keenan:
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e'st
hosepr
ett
yey
es"
Me:
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ningmyl
ove"
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eptwel
l
"
Me:
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l
edmeupIsatupheput
t
hethetr
ayonmythi
ghIst
art
edeat
ing
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t"
Me:
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ar"wechuckl
ed
Keenan:
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omi
sebaby
"
Me:
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i
evey
ou"heki
ssedmyf
orehead
Keenan:"
Ilov
ethi
syoui
nmybednakedeat
ing
breakf
ast
"
Me: "
Iloveyou"Igavehim asoftpeckIf
ini
shed
upmybr eakfastworehistshi
rtwenttomy
room.IpreparedforschoolKeenanwas
fol
lowingmear oundwhenIwasdoneIl eft
.
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idayIwasatNicol
e'
sitwasacoldnightwe
werehavi
ngwinentalki
ngbythefi
replace
whenmyphoner angitwasaunknownnumber
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l
o"
Cal
l
er:
"Si
nov
uyo"
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l
er:
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handophel
o'
sbr
other
"
Me:
"ohy
es"
Lut
hando:
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we"Ist
oodup
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'swr
ongwi
thmybr
other
"
Luthando:"uhm phel
owasbr oughtin
unconsciousacoupleofhoursagonPhi we
hasn'tmov edhi
sbeenstandingfrozenout
side
theemer gencydoor"Idr
oppedmygl assof
wine
Me;
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ear
sst
art
edf
all
i
ng
Phi
we:"
I'
vecal
l
edyourparent
sbutyourdad
sai
donl
yyoucangett
hroughhim"
Me: "
I'
ll
bet hereassoonasIcan"Idr oppedthe
call
startedwalki
ngtowar dsthedoorkeenan
kyl
enni colewerefol
lowingmeaski ngwhat's
wrongbuti tseemedlikethei
rvoiceswerefar
awaywhenIgott omycarIwasaboutt oopen
thedoorwhenkeenanpul l
edmet ohi
schestI
j
ustbr
okedown
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kki
tal
ktome"
Me:"i
tmybr ot
herhisf
iancéispr
egnantand..
..
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cati
onsshe's
unconsci
ousnhisnottaki
ngitwellIneedt
ogo
toPE"
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erythi
ngisgoingtobeok"I
shookmyheadt r
iedgett
ingoutofhi
sarmshe
hel
dmet ight
er
Me:
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ogo"
Keenan:
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l
ldr
ivey
ou"
Kyl
e:"
taket
hej
etdr
ivet
otheai
rpor
tI'
l
lcal
lthe
pi
l
ot"
Keenan: "
okcomel et
'stakemycar "Inodded
wewentt ohiscarher ushedincameout
openedmydoorwedr ov eoffhespedal l
t he
wayt otheai
rportwhenwegott her
et hejetwas
readytotakeoffIdon'tevenknowwhatwas
happeningkeenanendedupbei ngt heonewho
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st al
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ed
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oningwhenIsawPhi wemybr otherwas
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uststandingtherelooki
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ednf ell
tohiskneeswhenhesawmeIhel d
him wejustcri
edtogetherwhenthedoctor
cameoutwest oodup
Doc;
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l
yofphel
okazi
"Lut
handocamet
ous
Lut
hando:
"itus"
Doc: "
thebabyisokwekeepi nghim under
observati
onbuthisf ul
l
ydev elopedandhisabig
babyconsider
ingthatitwasn' thi
sduet i
mebut
phelokazii
ssti
llunconsciouswe' v
edoneal l
thatwecoulddor ightnowi tuptoherifshe'
s
will
i
ngt owakeupornot "
Lut
hando:
"thanky
ou"
Doc:"
I'
ll
comeoutassoonasthere'
smore
newsandI'
l
lsendanurseassoonasyoucan
seet
hebaby"hewal
kedaway
Me:
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dthatPhi
wey
ougotasonl
i
ke
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orandphel
ois
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ustr
esti
ngnowshewi l
lwakeup
whenshef eel
sstr
ongenough"
Phi
we:
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nci
"
Me: "I
'm hereim hereevery
thingisgoingtobe
okPhi wey ouneedt obestrongf oryoursonn
phelo"henoddedandhel dmyhandshepr ay
ed
hepr ayeduntilt
hepeopl ethatwerearoundus
j
oinedi ncl
udingst af
fthatwasn'tbusywhenhe
sai
damenweal l sai
damen
Me: "
come"Itookhishandwewentt osi tdown
i
nt hewaiti
ngareakeenangavemehi sj acket
andsatnexttome.Wesatl ikethatunt i
lthe
suncameupwai t
ingfornewsbutnot hing, my
parentscameinwhilewewer eallst
il
l si
tting
there
Dad:
"nci
nci
"
Me:"daddy
"keenanshi
ft
edabitIgotupwent
todadwehuggedhepattedPhi
weonhi s
shoul
derwhil
emom hadherarmsaroundhi
m
Dad:
"whendi
dyougether
e"
Me:
"Idon'
tknowi
nthemi
ddl
eofni
ght
"
Mom:
"hav
ethedoct
orssai
dany
thi
ng"
Me:
"thebabyi
sok"
Mom:
"thankGod"
Me: "
theysti
llkeepinghi
m underobser
vati
on
theywill
letusknowwhenwecanseehi m or
Pheloshestil
l hasn'
twokenup"
Dad:"
thel
ordwi
l
lnev
erf
orsakeusi
nti
meof
need"
Mom:"Si
mphi
we"hedidn'
tsayanyt
hingshe
l
ookedatmeIshr
uggedmyshoulders
Dad:
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hat
"hewhi
sper
ed
Me:"keenanNi
col
e'
sst
epson"hepul
l
edme
asi
de
Dad:
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shedoi
ngher
e"
Me:"wasatNi
cole'shousewhenLut
hando
cal
l
edmeheof feredtodri
vemetotheair
por
tI
wasi
nnost
ateofdr
ivi
ng"
Dad:
"ok"t
henur
secamei
nthewai
ti
ngr
oom
Nurse:
"thebabycanbeseennowbutone
vi
sit
or"
Me:
"Phi
wego"
Phi
we:
"Icant
"
Me: "
youcanandy ouneedt oyouknowphel o
wouldwanty out herewi thhim heneedsy ou
Phiweheneedshi sdad"henoddedst oodup
fol
lowedt henur se.Wesatt her eunti
lmom
suggestedkeenannIgof r
esher nupget
somet hi
ngt oeatwel ef tgoi
ngt opiwe'shouse
whenwegott ot heairporttherewasal readya
cartherewaitingf orusIdi rectedkeenanwe
wentpastt hemal lfi
rstboughtt oil
etri
esn
somet hi
ngt ochangei nwentt her eIwasi nthe
showercry i
ngwhenIf el
thishandsonmehe
tur
nedmear oundnki ssedmeweki ssedfora
l
ongt i
meunt i
l Istoppedcr yinghewashedmy
bodynhi swegotoutl oti
onedngotdr essed.I
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etr
iesf
orPhiwe
thanwentt ot
henurserythebaby'
sbagalong
withPhelo'
swasalreadypackedtookthoseas
wellweleftwentpassthemallboughtfoodfor
every
one
Me:
"thanky
ou"
Keenan:
"forwhat
"
Me:
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ngher
eIr
eal
l
yappr
eci
atei
t"
Keenan:
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e'snopl
aceI
'
drat
herbe"
Me:"
andforbeingsmar
tenought
obr
ingy
our
wal
l
et"hechuckled
Keenan:
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m smar
tli
ket
hatNi
kky
"Igi
ggl
ed
Me:"
itwoul
dbeinyourbesti
nter
esti
fyou
di
dn'
tcal
lmethatar
oundmyf amil
y"
Keenan:
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usyourdaddyl
ooksscar
y
hhathel
ookhegaveme"welaughed
Me:
"thi
nkhet
houghtwet
oget
her
"
Keenan:
"wear
etoget
her
"
Me:
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eIl
ovey
ou"
Keenan:
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edy
ouf
ir
st"Ir
oll
edmyey
eski
ssed
hi
scheek
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what
'shappeningwi t
hyourbrot
her'
s
fi
ancéanyway
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dhi mt hewholest
ory,when
wegottothehospi
talnothinghadchanged.
.
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nghadchangedmypar ents
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l
l i
nPEwi th
keenanmybr otherwasdi sappear inginf rontof
mehehadl ostsomuchhar dl
ysl eptnev erl eft
thehostipit
al keenannIwoul dspendt hewhol e
daytherewi thhi m andt hebabyonl ygot ohi s
houset osleepatni ght .Wewer eal lowedt osee
pheloshedi dn'tlookany t
hingl i
ket hebeaut if
ul
phelokazithatshei sshel ookedl ikeadead
personthedoct orswer est art
ingt ol osehope
hervital
sshownoi mpr ovement .Unt ilt
heday
keenansuggest edt hatthebabybet akent oher
room het houghtt hathear ingthebaby '
sv oice
wi l
lgiv ehermor ereasontof i
ghtandcome
back.I ndeedt hebabywast akentheret hefirst
dayi tdi dn'tseem t owor kbutwhenwewentt o
visitthef ollowi ngdaytheyt oldusthatshe' s
startingt oshowi mprovementt hebabywasl eft
i
nherr oom agai nwhenhi shighpitchcr ywent
offphel osai dherf i
rstwor dshecalledoutf or
Phi weIr ant ocallthedoct orwewer et oldto
stepout .Af teraboutanhourt hedoct orcame
outt oldust hatphel ohaswokenupmybr other
pushedpastev er
yonet hatwasonhi sway
runningi nsidet heroom.KeenanandIl efttwo
day sl ateraf terphelohadwokenup, Ihad
mi ssedaweekwor thoflecturesitwas
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lychecked
myphoneitwasaround06:
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nyIgotof
fthebedworemyrobewenttot he
kit
chenwarmedacupofmilkwentbackupasI
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s
bedroom dooropenedBi
ancast
eppedout
wearingnothi
ngbutavest
snpant ywhenour
eyesmetshegav emeagr i
n
Me:
"whaty
oudoi
ngher
e"
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outhoughty
out
heonl
yonehi
s
fucki
ngnohoneyy
ounotspeci
al"
Me:
"Idon'
tknowwhaty
out
alki
ngabout
"
Bianca:
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e"sher
oll
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om
Me:"hehe"Ist
art
edcr
yingal
lov
eragai
nhe
pul
l
edmei nwrappedhi
sarmsaroundme
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ou"helockedupthedoor
l
ift
edmeof ft
aki
ngmet ohisbedroom wegot
underthecoverhewrappedhisar
msar oundI
burr
iedmyf aceonhischest
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o:"
whatdi
dhet
oyouhoney
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ff
ed
Me: "heplayedmenIf el
lforhist
raplikeaf ool
het ol
dmeIwasi tforhimt hatwhattheyhad
wasmeani ngl
essempt ysexandi twasi nt he
pasthel etmefallf
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l
ov esmebuthi ssti
llfucki
ngherLungel or i
ght
therewhi l
eI'
minanot herroom hedoesn' teven
hav ethedecencytofuckheri nanotherpl ace"
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o:"hedoesn'
tdeser
vey oui
fhecan'
t
real
i
zethatyouallaguyneeds"
Me:"maybeGodi spuni
shi
ngmeforwhatIdi
d
toy
ou"helif
tedmyf acemaki
ngmelookathi
m
hewipedmyt ear
s
Lungel
o:"
don'
ttal
kli
kethatok"Inodded"
he
messedupbigti
mewhoi sthisfool
anywaysoI
cangobeathi
m up"Ichuckl
ed
Me:
"canwegobackt
osl
eepI
'
llt
ell
youwhohe
i
swhenweup"
Lungel
o:"
okwhat
every
ouwanthun"
Me:
"justhol
dmensi
ngt
ome"
Lungel
o:"
ofcos"
WhenIwokeupagai nhewasn' tinbedmy
phonewasont hebedsideIunlockedi
tIhadso
manymi ssedcal
lsntextsfr
om him al
so
missedcall
sfrom Ni
coleIcal
ledher
Ni
c:"heybabyy
ouoky
ouwer
egonewhenwe
wokeup"
Me:"I'
m sor
ryni
col
emysi
stercal
l
edshe
neededme"
Nic:"
asl
ongasy
ouokbabyi
tfi
neI
'
llseey
ou
soon"
Me:
"ok"
Ni
c:"
Ilov
eyouNi
kky
"
Me:"l
oveyoutoo"shegi
ggl
edndr
oppedt
he
cal
lIt
extedKeenan
*yeahyougotwhatyouwantedhopey
ouhappy
butwedonenowI '
m notaboutt
oshar
eyou
withBi
anca*
Iswit
chedoffmyphonegotoutthebed
Lungel
owasi nt
heloungehav
ingcoff
eewhi
l
e
watchi
ngtv
Me:
"heywher
e'smycof
fee"
Lungel
o:"
heyy
ouup"
Me:"
yep"Iwenttomakeacupofhotchocol
ate
gr
abbedablanketf
rom t
hebedr
oom wenttosi
t
wi
thhim
Lungel
o:"
sot
ell
meabouthi
m"
Me:
"younotgoi
ngt
olett
hissl
i
de"
Lungel
o:"
noi
m notsot
alk"Isi
ghed
Me:
"hi
snamei
skeenanhi
s..
."
Lungel
o:"
heai
n'
tbl
ack"hecutmeof
fI
chuckl
ed
Me:
"nohi
snot
"
Lungel
o:"
damn"
Me:
"Lungel
o!"Hechuckl
ed
Lungel
o:"
okokt
ell
me"
Me:
"hi
sNi
col
e'
sst
epson"Il
ookedawayqui
ckl
y
Lungel
o:"
Sinono"
Me:
"Iknow"
Lungel
o:"
fuck"
Me:
"Iknow"
Lungelo;
"thi
siswrongSinoGod"hestoodup
"t
hisi
ssof uckedupworsepartyoufel
lforhi
m
Sinoyouknowi ft
hisget
soutyourparentswi
ll
befuri
ousthisi
snothowy
ouwer
erai
sedSi
no
hi
sy ourbr
other
"
Me:
"st
epbr
other
"
Lungel
o:"t
hat'
ssomewhi
teshi
tyouknowhi
s
yourbr
other"
Me:
"Il
ovehi
m"hesatdown
Lungel
o:"
andhehur
tyou"Inodded
Me:
"yeah"
Lungel
o:"comehere"Iscoopedclosert
ohi
m
heputhisarm ar
oundmyshoul der
Lungel
o:"
sowhoi
shesl
eepi
ngwi
th"
Me:
"Bi
ancamycousi
n"
Lungel
o:"
ohf
uckhel
i
keskeepi
ngi
tint
he
famil
y"
Me:
"Lungel
o!"Hel
aughed
Lungel
o:"
sor
rysorrydi
dyouact
ual
l
yseet
hem
orhear
dthem doi
ngit"
Me:
"Isawhercomi
ngoutofhi
sroom"
Lungel
o:"
thatdoesn'
tmeanany
thi
ng"
Me:"shewasbasical
lynakedlungel
oshegav
e
meacheekyatti
tudesay i
ngim nott
heonl
yone
hi
sfuckingi
m notspecial
"
Lungel
o:"
soundsli
keshe'sj
ustbit
tert
ome
hearhi
m outbef
orecl
osingthel
id"
Me:
"noi
m notbeingcheatedonisashit
ty
f
eel
i
ngim notset
tingmyselfupf
orthatagai
n"
Lungel
o:"
okwhat
every
ouneed"
Me:
"hi
sanasswhol
e"hel
aughed
Lungel
o:"
thaty
oul
ove"
Me:"mxm wi
shi
twasFr
idayal
readyImi
ssour
daught
er"
Lungel
o:"
we'
l
lgoassoonaswebot
hdone
att
endi
ng"
Me:"
great
"wecuddl
edont
hecouchwat
chi
ng
t
v.
Itwasl
atewehadjustfi
nisheddi
nnerwhen
someonestar
tedpoundi
ngont hedoor
Lungel
o:"
whatt
hef
uck"Isatupsi
nceIhadmy
headonhisl
ap
Me:
"may
bei
tSamke"
Lungelo:
"bet
ternotbeherpoundi ngonmy
doorli
kesheownst heplace"hewal ki
ng
towardsthedoor"ohshi
tIthinkthisisfory
ou"
hescreamedfrom thedoorIstoodupwentt o
him
Me:
"whatar
eyoudoi
ngher
ehowdi
dyouf
ound
me"
Keenan:
"doy
ouhav
eanyi
deahowwor
ri
edI
'
ve
been"
Me:
"Idi
dn'
tasky
out
obewor
ri
ed"
Keenan:
"comeonl
et'
sgo"
Me:
"no"
Keenan:
"no?
"
Me: "
noIain'
tgoi
ngany
wher
ewi
thy
our
cheati
ngass"
Keenan:
"doy
oumi
nd"hel
ookedatLungel
o
Lungel
o:"
honey
"
Keenan:
"honey
?"
Me:"
itf
inel
ungel
ogi
vemeami
nut
e"henodded
andwal
kedout
Lungel
o:"
I'
ll
beatol
wet
hu"
Keenan:
"don'
tl
eav
eyourapar
tmentwel
eav
ing"
Me:
"I'
m notgoi
ngany
wher
ewi
thy
ou"
Keenan:"baby "heheldmychin"lookatme"I
did"
Ilovey oubabyjustyouIwoul dneverdo
anyt
hingtor uinusIloveyoupleaseletmet ake
youtoyourpl acesowecant alkaboutthisand
workonusok"hegav emeasof tpeck
Me:
"but
..
"
Keenan:
"nobutmyl
ovecomeon"
Me:
"ok"Lungel
ochuckl
ednmov
edf
urt
heri
nto
t
heapar
tment
Keenan: "
gety ourthingssowecango"he
cuppedmyf acenki ssedmeIj ustmel
tedinto
hi
m nl etoutasmal lmoanhedeepenedt he
ki
sshi stonguei nvadingmymout hIhel
dont o
hi
shoodyhi sar mswr appedaroundmywai st
bri
ngingourbodi esevencloserwhenhepulled
backIwasdi zzy
Keenan:
"Il
ovey
ou"
Me:"Il
ovey
out
oo"hesmi
l
ednki
ssedmy
f
orehead
Keenan:
"I'
l
lwai
ther
ewhi
l
eyougety
ourt
hings"
Me:"
ok"Iwal
kedi
ntotheapar
tmentl
ungel
o
wassi
tt
ingi
nthel
ounge
Lungel
o:"
youl
eav
ing"
Me:
"weneedt
otal
k"
Lungel
o:"
soundsl
i
key '
al
lal
readyt
alkedand
youfor
gavehi
m wi
thouthi
m evenexplai
ning"
Me:"
itnotl
iket
hat"henoddedIgotmyt
hings
i
nthebedroom wentbackt
ohim
Me:
"pl
easebr
ingmycarwheny
ougetachance
t
o"
Lungel
o:"
fi
ne"
Me:
"heyy
oumadatmeorsomet
hing"
Lungelo:
"nogoonI
'
llbr
ingt
hecari
nthe
morning"
Me:
"thanky
ou"
Keenan:
"baby
"heshout
edbyt
hedoor
Me:"
I'
m coming"Iki
ssedl
ungel
o'
shead"
I'
ll
see
yout
omorrowloveyou"
Lungelo:"
lovey ou"IwalkedoutKeenanwas
waiti
ngwithasmi l
ehewr appedhisarm ar
ound
myneckbr ingingmecl oserwewal kedtothe
l
iftdowntohi scarheopenedmydoorand
wenttohissideaf terIgotinwet omy
apartmentfoundSet hunst habisocuddl
ingon
thecouchwat chingtvwegr eet
edwentupt o
myr
oom
Keenan:
"ni
cer
oom"
Me:
"thanky
ou"
Keenan:"
I'
m sosorr
ybaby"heheldmyhandwe
satonthebedlooki
ngateachother
Me;
"howdi
dyouf
indme"
Keenan:"Icameher
eandyoursi
stersai
dyou
mightbeathispl
aceshegavemet he
di
recti
ons"
Me;
"oh"
Keenan:
"youscar
edmebaby
"
Me:
"youst
il
lfucki
ngher
"
Keenan:
"of
cosnot
"
Me:"t
hanexpl
ainwhatshewasdoi
ngi
ny our
bedr
oom hal
fnakedsoearl
yint
hemor
ning"he
si
ghed
Keenan:
"shesneakedi
nmybedIt houghti
t
wasIcall
edyournamenreachedoutforyou
bri
ngingy oucloserwhenItouchedherbody
that
'swhenIr eali
zeditwasn'
ty ousoIgotup
swit
chedt hel
ightonshewasj ustsit
ti
ngonmy
bedint earsshestar
tedswearingatmesay i
ng
nowt hatI'
v er
uinedheri
ml ookingfor
somet hingnewmynewdr ug"
Me:
"newdr
ug?
"
Keenan:
"Ihav
eanaddict
iveper
sonali
tyIeasi
l
y
getaddi
ctedt
othi
ngsandshethinksI
'm
makingyoumynewdrug"
Me:
"oh"
Keenan:"Itr
iedcomf ort
inghernt ell
ingher
that
'sshe'snotruinedshewi l
lfindsomeonei m
nottheoneshecr i
eduntilshefell asleepIl
et
herrestbeforeIwokeherupt el
linghert ogoto
herroom Iguesst hat
'swheny ousawherbabyI
promiseyouIdi dnothav esexwi tht hatgir
l
she'
sjusttryi
ngt ocauset r
ouble"
Me:
"Idon'
twantherar
oundy
oukeenan"
Keenan:"Iknowbaby"hepul
l
edmet
ohi
slap
"I
'
llsetherstr
aight
"
Me:"okI
'
mfreezi
ng"hechuckl
edopenedt
he
cov
erswegotin
Keenan:"
youknowy
ouwi
l
lfeel
lotwar
meri
fwe
naked"
Me:"i
sthatso"hest
art
edunbut
toni
ngmy
j
acket
Keenan:
"tot
all
yitasci
ent
if
icpr
ovenf
act
"
Me:"t
akemyclot
hesof
fthani
mfreezi
ng"he
l
aughedqui
ckl
ygotont
opofundr
essingme
Keenan:
"mi
ssedy
oui
tbeenawhi
l
e"
Me:
"justaweeknf
ewday
sbaby
"
Keenan:
"feel
sli
keafucknyeart
ome"whenI
wasnakedhealsotookoffhi
sclot
hes
Me:"nowthaty
ouhavemenakedundery
ou
whatyougonado"hefl
exedhi
shi
phiser
ect
ion
di
ggingonmyinnert
high
Keenan:
"Icant
hinkofaf
ewt
hings"
Me:
"li
ke"hesmashedi
ntomehar
dnIcr
iedout
Keenan:
"somet
hingl
i
ket
hat
"hel
ookedatme
Keenan:
"youl
oud"
Me: "
ity
ourfault
"welaughedbutmylaugh
tur
nedintoamoanwhenhef l
exedhishi
p
makinghisdickgodeeperhepushedmybrai
ds
back
Keenan:
"sur
efeel
shoti
nher
eyoust
il
lcol
d"
Me:"baby
"Itr
iedmovi
ngbuthelaughed
pr
essedhisbodyhar
deronminesoIcouldn'
t
move
Keenan:
"whaty
out
rynadobaby
"
Me:"ar
gkeenanjustfuckmeal r
eady
"he
l
aughedoutloudhislaughmademel aughI
wasstil
losti
nourlaughterwhenhestar
ted
movingramminginnoutofme
Keenan:
"howdoesi
tfeel
baby
"hewas
poundi
ngmehar
d
Me:"aaamazi
ngaahbabyabsf
uckn-l
out
ly
amazing"hewenthar
der
Keenan:"
tel
lmewhatyouwantt
hisi
sall
about
youaskmenI '
l
ldel
i
v er
"hebi
tmyneckhard
whil
epinchi
ngmynippl
e
Me:
"tur
nmear ound"hedi
djustt
hatr
ammed
mefr
om behi
ndunt i
lwecame.
Keenan:"
Icanbey ourcookiemonsterfuckyou
upcrackyourbackli
ckyouupl ikeanor eoI
can'
tkeepmyhandoutofy ourcooki
ejar"I
l
aughedoutloudhewasst il
l i
nme
Me:"
youcr
azy
"hepul
l
edoutandl
aidnextt
o
me
Keenan:
"Il
ovey
ou"
Me:"
mmhy ouwer er
ightaboutbei
ngwar
mer
whenyounaked"hel
aughed
Keenan:
"I'
m al
way
sri
ght
"
Me: "
ohlordher
ewego"Ir
oll
edmyey
eshe
chuckled
Keenan:
"pr
omi
semesomet
hing"
Me:
"yeah"
Keenan: "
youwil
lnotli
stentowhatotherpeopl
e
sayaboutmeandwhenev ersomethi
ngbot her
s
youinsteadofr
unningawayy ouwil
laskme
aboutitwewill
talkandmov eon"
Me:
" okIwil
l
"heki
ssedmyheadnsqueezed
melett
inggoqui
ckl
y
Keenan:
"thi
sisgr
eati
m happy
"
Me:
"howi
sthej
obhunt
ing"
Keenan:"
gotani
nter
viewwi
thAust
in&Dean
at
torney
s"
Me:
"that
'smajorlov
erthat
'sl
iket
hebi
ggest
l
awfi
rm around"hechuckl
ed
Keenan:
"Iknowr
ight
"
Me:
"howdi
dyoupul
li
tof
f"
Keenan:
"dad'
sinf
luence"
Me:"yourdad'
snamemi ghthavegot
tenyout
he
i
nter
viewbuttherestwi
llbeyoubabynyouwil
l
geti
t"Iki
ssedhischest
Keenan:
"thanksforthevot
eofconf
idence
ki
ndaneedi tr
ightnow"
Me:
"youwi
l
ldogood"
Keenan:
"Il
ovey
ou"
.
Thef ol
lowingdayKeenanwat
chedmeasI
preparedforcampus
Keenan:
"comeher
e"
Me:"
needtofi
nishgett
ingdr
essed"hewas
l
ayi
ngonmybedwhi leIwaslooki
ngfor
somet
hingt
owear
Keenan:
"ski
pacl
ass"Il
aughed
Me:"
noway
sny
ougotani
nter
viewt
opr
epar
e
f
or"
Keenan:"y
eah"Itookoutleggi
ngsputt
hem on
woreanov er
sizedkni
ttedwearjer
seynmy
kneelengt
hboot sworerabbihat
Me:
"needt
ogetmyhai
rdone"
Keenan:
"I'
l
ltakey
oul
ater
"
Me:
"thanky
oubuty
oudon'
tneedt
o"
Keenan:
"Iwantt
oandy
oul
ookbeaut
if
ul"
Me:
"thanky
ou"
Lungel
o:"
yohhoneywher
eyouat
"heshout
ed
Me:
"myr
oom"
Keenan:
"howcl
osear
eyouwi
tht
hisguy
"
Me:
"real
l
yclosehi
sluv
uyo'
sdad"Lungel
ogot
i
nwit
houtknocki
ng
Lungel
o:"
supohy
oust
il
lher
edude"
Keenan:
"wher
edoy
ouexpectmet
obe"
Lungel
o:"
don'
tknowmay
bebangi
ngBi
anca"
Me:
"lungeko!
!"Keenanj
umpedof
fthebedwent
t
ost
andi
nfr
ontofl
ungel
olooki
ngdownathi
m
Me;
"woaht
imeout
"Ist
oodnextt
othem
Lungel
o:"
don'
tknowwhyhi
sget
ti
ngwor
ked
up"
Me:"
goeatI
'
llbet
her
enowt
hanwe'
l
lgot
o
campus"
Lungel
o:"
shot
"hel
ookedatkeenanf
lushedhi
m
afakesmil
e"y
ouat
ealreadyhun"
Me:
"nomakemeapl
ate"
Lungel
o:"
whatabouty
ourst
epbr
other
"
Keenan:"
fuckoffbr
u"l
ungel
ol aughednwal
ked
out"whatthef
uckwasthatNikky"
Me:
"hi
spl
ayi
ngbabydon'
tl
ethi
m gett
oyou"
Keenan:"
whenwerey
ougoi
ngt
otel
lmehi
s
yourchi
l
d'sf
ather
"
Me:
"youdi
dn'
task"
Keenan:
"don'
tgi
vemet
hatshi
t"
Me:"ohwow"It
ookmybag"
youl
eav
ingor
j
oini
ngusforbr
eakf
ast
"
Keenan:
"I'
mleav
ing"
Me:
"cool
seey
ouwhenIseey
ou"
Keenan:
"Domi
nic"hecal
l
edi
nawhi
sper
Me:"oklookI'
m sorr
yaboutlungel
ohethinks
hi
slookingoutformeitbeenliket
hatsi
ncewe
werekidsyouwillmeetNkanyi
sosoonny ou
wi
llgetusedtothem"
Keenan:"
thatwasbef
orei
m her
enowIcan
l
ookafteryou"
Me: "
okmyl ovenowcomeki ssme"he
chuckledandcameclosert
omeweki ssedn
pull
edapartquickl
y
Keenan:
"wi
l
lseey
out
oni
ght
"
Me:
"ok"heki
ssedmyf
oreheadIwal
kedhi
mto
t
hedoor
Keenan:
"lov
eyou"
Me:"l
oveyout
oo"hegavemeasoftpecknl
eft
.
Iwenttot
heki
tchenl
ungel
owaseati
ng
Lungel
o:"
lov
erboygone"
Me:
"thef
uckwast
hatbr
u"
Lungel
o:"
nix"heshr
uggedhi
sshoul
der
s
Me:
"hay
ilungel
odon'
trui
nthi
sforme"
Lungelo:"
Iwon'
trui
nshi
thi
sgoi
ngt
or ui
n
every
thingbel
i
evemehisgoi
ngt
ohurtyou
Sino"
Me:
"youdon'
tknowt
hat
"
Lungelo:
"y'
al
lj
ustst
art
edbuty
est
erday
morningyoucamecryi
ngt
ome"
Me:
"somymi
stakewascomi
ngt
oyou"
Lungel
o:"
nononot
hat
'snotwhati
m say
ing"
Me:
"whatar
eyousay
ing"
Lungel
o:"
justt
hatbecar
eful
"Inodded
Me:
"Il
ovehi
mlungel
ojustr
emembert
hat
wheny
oui
nthesamespaceashi
m"
Lungel
o:"
cool
"
Me:
"thanky
ou"
Lungel
o:"
sowhatl
i
edi
dhespi
n"
Me:
"nol
i
e"
Lungel
o:"
yousur
e"
Me: "y
ep"wef i
nishedbreakf astwenttocampus,
thedayf l
ewbyIdi dn'
tev engett ohavelunch
hadlotofcatchingupt odobyt heti
meIl eft
campusi twaslateatnightIj usthaddinner
whilewaiti
ngforkeenanIhadj ustcameoutof
theshowerwhenhecal ledsay ingImustbuzz
himinIdidwentupst air
sl eavingthedoor
unlockedIgotinmypj shegoti nasIwas
remov i
ngtheextrapil
lowsont hebed
Keenan:"
bestsi
ghtev
er"Igi
ggl
edhehel
dme
fr
om thebackki
ssi
ngmyneck
Me:
"heyl
over
"
Keenan:"
yousmel
lheavenl
y"It
urnedar
ound
wrappedmyarmsaroundhisneck
Me:"
howwasy ourday
"Ist
artedpl
ayi
ngwi
th
hi
shairhel
eanedi
nonmyt ouch
Keenan:
"thatf
eel
ssogoodbaby
"
Me:
"I'
m gl
ad"
Keenan:"
goodbabytheinter
viewwentwellgot
hi
redonthespotthecontr
actisamazingbutI
gaveitt
othefami
lylawyertolookati
tIneeda
2ndopini
on"
Me:"t
hat
'samazi
ngkeenanim proudofy
ou"he
gav
emet hemostbeaut
if
ulsmileever
Keenan:
"youpr
oudofme"
Me:"t
otal
l
yMrSmi t
h"Ist
oodonmytoes
br
ingi
nghisheadl
owergavehi
m ababyki
ss
Keenan:"
thatmakesmesohappyknowi
ngy
ou
proudofme"
Me:
"ify
ouhappyt
heni
m happy
..
.Let
'
ssl
eepi
m
t
ir
edbeenal
ongday
"
Keenan:
"ok"hetookhi
ssweat
pant
sntshi
rtof
f
wegotunderthecover
shepul
ledmet
ohis
chest
Keena:
"Il
ovey
ou"
Me;"l
ovey outoo"wedr
if
tedof
ftosl
eepwit
h
hi
sarmsar oundmeandourthi
ghsbetween
oneanother.
[
08/
12,
21:
24]Wadz
:Inser
t25
.
Wheni
wokeupkeenanwasst
ari
ngatme
Keenan:
"mor
ning"Iy
awnednbl
i
nkedacoupl
e
ofti
mes
Me:
"mor
ningbaby
"
Keenan:
"sl
eptwel
l
"
Me:
"yeahhowl
onghav
eyoubeenup"
Keenan:
"notl
ongdadcal
l
edsoIwokeup"
Me:
"what
'sup"
Keenan:
"not
hingmuchj
ustchecki
ngup"
Me:
"okIgot3cl
assesaf
termi
dday
"
Keenan:
"mmh"heheputhi
shandi
nmypj
short
snIgi
ggl
ed
Me:
"notwhatIhadi
nmi
nd"
Keenan:
"whatdi
dyouhav
einmi
nd"
Me:
"br
eakf
astnget
ti
ngmyhai
rdone"
Keenan:
"thi
scoul
dbebr
eakf
ast
"
Me:
"pr
operbr
eakf
asty
ouknowt
oastnst
uff
"
Keenan:"
oklet'
sgetup"hegavemeasof tpeck
wegotupt ookashowerIgotdressedi
njeans
vestnabikerwit
hsuperst
arswhil
ekeenan
wentbacktohisyest
erdaycl
othes
Me:"
youcankeepcl
othesov
erher
eyouknow"
hel
ookedatmebeaming
Keenan:
"real
l
y"Ichuckl
ed
Me:"I
'
m notsayi
ngmov
einbuty
eahf
orwhen
yousl
eepover"
Keenan:
"gr
eatI
'
llbr
ingabagt
oni
ght
"
Me:"cool
"weleftt
aki
nghi
scarwentt
omuggn
beanforbr
eakfast
Me:
"I'
m goi
ngt
odbnt
hisweekend"
Keenan:
"ohwhy
"
Me:
"seemydaught
er"
Keenan:
"canIdr
ivey
oudownI
'
llst
ayatahot
el
orsomethi
ng"
Me:
"act
ual
l
ygoi
ngwi
thLungel
o"
Keenan:
"yourhoney
"
Me:
"don'
tbel
i
ket
hat
"
Keenan:
"Idon'
tl
iket
heguy
"
me:"
yougoingt
ohavet
owarm upt
ohi
m,he
wi
ll
neverbeoutofmyl
i
fe"
Keenan:
"thatj
ustmakesmenotl
i
kehi
m mor
e"
Me:
"comeon"
Keenan:
"may
beIshoul
dmakey
oupr
egnantas
well
"
Me;
"don'
tbepet
ty"
Keenan:
"hi
sst
il
lfeel
i
ngy
ou"
Me:
"sowhati
fheiswhi
chIdoubtcozI
'
m
f
eel
i
ngyounothi
m"
Keenan:
"pr
omisemeyouwi
l
lnotgor
unni
ngt
o
hi
mi fwehaveapr
obl
em"
Me:"
babyhismyf
ri
endmor
ethant
hathi
s
l
uvuy
o'sdad"
Keenan:
"exact
lyy
ou'
vehadsexwi
thhi
m"
Me:"
doesn'tmeani
m ev
ergoi
ngt
ohav
esex
wi
thhim agai
n"
Keenan:
"that
'snotwhati
m say
ing"
Me;
"whatar
eyousay
ing"
Keenan:
"justdon'
tgotohi
m wi
thourpr
obl
ems
i
nfactdon'tgotoanyonei
fwegoi
ngthr
ough
somethi
ngwedeal wit
hitthi
sisusj
ustt
het
wo
ofusourlov
eourrelat
ionshi
pourj
oyour
probl
emsnobodyelse'
s"
Me:
"Iheary
ou"
Keenan:
"soyougoingtoy
ourhomebutLuv
uyo
st
ayswithhi
sparents"
Me:"y
eahI'
l
lgetherwhenwear
ri
vesendher
backwhenweleave"
Keenan:"ohy
'al
ll
eav
ear
oundt
hesamepar
tof
durban"
Me:
"samest
reetj
ustsepar
atedbyf
ewhouses"
Keenan:
"sonotcomf
ort
abl
ewi
tht
his"
Me:
"sor
ry"
Keenan:
"I'
llgetusedtoitany
waywhenam I
meeti
ngy ourdaughter
"
Me:
"don'
tknowIguesswhent
het
imecomes"
Keenan:
"Isee"
Me:
"Il
ovey
oukeenan"hesmi
l
edl
eanedi
nfora
babyki
ss
Keenan:"Il
oveyoutoo"wefini
shedeati
ngwent
tothesaloonIj
ustunbrai
dednr el
axedmyhair
wel ef
thedroppedmeof foncampus.Iranint
o
Jaywhi l
ewalki
ngtoclasswehadhi scl
ass
Jay
:"MsDey
"
Me:
"si
r"wel
aughed
Jay
:"y
ougood"
Me:
"yepny
ou"
Jay
:"I
'
m br
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Me;
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ovey
ou"
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ouSunday
"
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nxa!
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l
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rs"
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ti
!"
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"
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tor
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ustr
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ter
"
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ight
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l
astt
imeIwasthere"
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ightnextt
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ax"
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s"
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o:"
fucky
ourboundar
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omecozhi sdefi
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o:"
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ter
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ed
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tdoes"Isai
dwi
th
amusement
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hef
uckdoest
hatmean"
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x"
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sdi
cki
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gger
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aughed
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isonIai
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shi
t"
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o:"
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tifhecan'
t
perf
orm"
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ngonfr
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hedi
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s"
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l
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ll
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lyshe'
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"
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o:"
ourbaby
"
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cos"
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o:"
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herone"
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m nobabymakerkewena"hel
aughed
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o:"
joki
ngIdon'
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ofuckme
up"
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tyourf
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thy
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l
aughed
Lungel
o;"
naht
hat
'sy
ou"
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shshame"
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o:"
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omakesur
eshebecomesa
bookworm"
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"
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ewi
thherbooksshe
won'thavetimeforboys"
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l
ldat
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t
imecomesri
ght
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l
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ke
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hat
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atest16y
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l
see"
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ll
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lsomeoneboy
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outthere"
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cewheni
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lim say
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"
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l
lbecomeal
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nnednIl
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athi
m shaki
ngmyhead
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ayi
ngi
ntodayr
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"
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o:"ei
shwashopi
ngwecoul
dgooutbut
atni
ght"
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m notgoi
ng"
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tgonabef
un"
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neI
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out
alki
ngcr
azy
"
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mos"
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mmh"
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l
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ssedy
ou"
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Keenan:"
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le;
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ou"
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m athome"
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1:"
outnow!
"
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4:"
thef
uckTK!
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TK:"
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oiceat
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ewassi
lence"am Iclear
"heroar
ed
Guy
4:"
clear
"
TK:
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m outandev
ery
bodyout
"
Keenan:"
Nikky!
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osed
someoneremov edthebli
ndf
oldIbli
nkeda
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eoftimeshewi pedmyt ear
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ontofme
Jay
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sbackpocketnIscreamed
Me:
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ease"
Jay:"heyi
tokim notgoi
ngtohurtyoubabyI
j
ustwanaunt i
eyourhands"Inoddedhecuton
thetapeonmyhand" canItakeyouhome"I
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Me: "
I'
m notl
eavinghim behi
ndpleasedon'
t
hurtus"hewipedmyt earsagai
nbutitdi
dn'
t
stopthem f
rom comingdown
Jay:"
babyim notgoingt
ohur ty
ouIdneverdo
thati
fIknewy ouknewhim noneofthi
swould
havehappened"
Me:
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'sgoi
ngon"
Jay
:"l
etmetakeyouhomesoyoucanr
estget
agoodni
ghtsl
eepint
hemorni
ngwewil
ltal
k"
Me:
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"
Jay
:"I
'
mtry
ingher
eSinobuty
oudon'tr
eal
l
y
hav
eachoi
cecozIdon'
twantyout
ogethurt
"
Me;"i
m notl
eav
inghi
m Jay
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m
l
if
tedmeup
Jay
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nobabyletsgetoutofher
elett
heboy
s
dowhattheysupposedtodo"
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ougoingtoki
ll
him"helookedawayIlet
outasof
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ovehi
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ti
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swer estandi
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outsi
dethehousesmoki
ng
Guy
1:"
ekseTKf
ede"
Jay
:"I
'
llbebacki
nthemor
ning"
Guy
4:"
andt
heboy
"
Jay
:"don'
tki
l
lhi
m buthav
efun"t
heyl
aughed
Me:
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!"Hel
ookedatmensi
ghed
Jay:
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thi
m"heputmei
nthecardi
dmy
seat
beltwenttogeti
nhi
ssi
de
Jay;"ar
eyougoi
ngt ostopcr
yinganyti
me
soon"Ishookmyheadhenoddedndr oveoffi
n
si
lenceunti
lwegottohishousehegotout
camet omyopeningthedoorbutIdi
dn'
tgetout
Jay
;"Si
nov
uyogetout
"
Me:"
helphel
p"Iscreamedhestoodbackwit
h
hi
shandscrossedoverhi
schestnwatchedme
"
hel
psomeonehel
p"
Jay:"
letmeknowwheny oudone"Igotoutn
pushedhim backIpushedmyfearaside
Me:"It
rustedy
oul
etyoui
nmyl
i
fel
ovedy
our
br
otherli
kemyown"
Jay
:"shutup"
Me:
"fucky
ou"
Jay:
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apped
hi
m sohardmyhandst i
nghespatoutnlooked
atmeangerbl
azinginhi
seyesIstart
ed
apol
ogizi
ngi
mmedi at
ely
Jay :
"move"hegrabbedmyar m walkedusto
thehouseheopenedt hedoorswitchedthe
alarm of
fwewalkedf ur
theri
ntothehouse
strai
ghttohi
sroom
Jay:"l
et'
sgetaf ewt hi
ngsstraightIl
ov eyouI
wouldnev erhurtyoubutyout rysomet hi
ng
stupi
dthoseguy sweleftbehindwon'thesit
ate
beli
evethisistheyli
fel
inetheydon'tplay"I
noddedhewenti nthebat hroom Ihear dt he
wat err
unninghecameoutgav emeat owel n
pointedtothebat hroom wi thhisheadIwent
therethetubwasal mostf il
ledupwi thf oam al
l
overitther
ewasaf acecl othnt oothbrushn
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ippedgoti nt hebat htubI
tookabat hwhi l
ecr y i
ngt het houghtofkeenan
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bodywhenIgoti nthebedr oom t herewas
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ht oil
etri
esIqui ckly
l
otionedngotdr essedIl ookedar oundt he
room looki
ngf ormyphonehegoti nasIwas
goingthroughhi scl oset
Jay
:"y
ouwon'
tfi
ndany
thi
ng"
Me:
"juni
orwhat
'sgoi
ngon"
Jay
:"got
obedsl
eepi
tlat
e"
Me: "
wher
eyousleepi
ng"hepoint
edtothebed
"andme"hepoi
ntedtothebedagain"
im not
shari
ngabedwit
hy ou"hechuckl
ed
Jay;"
you'
vedoneitbef
oreinf
acty
ou'
vesl
eptin
myarmsonmychestont opofmesowhat
's
theprobl
em now"
Me:
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eJaynotTK"
Jay
:"I
'
m st
il
lJay
"
Me:"
noyounotyouamur
der
eranda.
..A.
..A
f
uckncr
imi
nal"
Jay
:"mmhsoj
udgement
al"
Me:
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tbesar
cast
ici
tnotat
tract
ive"
Jay:"
getinbedSi
novuyo"hewal
kedoutt
he
room nl
ockedthedoorIthr
ewmysel
fonthe
bedncried.
.
Thef ol
lowingdayIwokeupwhenIhear dnoise
Iwast uckedinbedundert heblanketIquickl
y
satupnl ookedar oundbeforegetti
ngof ft
he
bed.Iopenedt hedooritwasn'tlockedany more
Ifol
lowedt henoiseallt
hewayt ot heloungeI
foundJayar guingwithanotherguytheybot h
st
oppedt
alki
ngwhent
heynot
icedme
Jay
:"ohbabyy
ouup"Inodded
Guy:
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ethi
sTK"Irecogni
zedhisv
oice
fr
om l
astni
ghtIdi
dntseeanyoftheyf
acescoz
t
heywereweari
ngmasks
Jay:"
comeherebaby
"Iwal
kedtohi
m nsat
nextt
ohim"doyouknowwhothi
sis"
Me:
"noIdont
"
Jay
:"y
ouseenowl
eav
emyhouse"
Guy:"I
'
m notgoi
ngt
ojai
lfort
hisTKIpr
omi
se
you"hest
oodup
Jay:"
whatt
hef
uckdoest
hatmeanbr
adon'
t
pushme"
Guy
:"al
li
m say
ingi
shandl
ethi
s"hewal
kedout
Jay
:"seet
heshi
tyouput
ti
ngmei
n"
Me:
"excuseme!
"
Jay
:"howthefuckdoy
ouendupbei
ngwi
tha
whi
teboySino"
Me: "
that'
snoneofy
ourbusi
nessJay
"he
chuckled
Jay:"
poi
nttakencome"hest
oodupt
ookmy
hand"br
eakfasti
sready
"
Me:"
pleaset
ellmewhat
'sgoi
ngt
ohappent
o
hi
m"hechuckled
Jay
:"y
ouwor
ri
edabouthi
m ai
n'
tthatcut
e"
Me:
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or"
Jay:
"lookSi
nothi
swassupposedtobeeasy
gett
hesmi t
hboygetmoneyfr
om hisf
atherki
l
l
hi
m nmov eon"Igasped
Me:
"juni
orno"
Jay:"
sonowthesest
upidfool
sgotyoumixed
upinall
oft
hisnyouknowmesot heyfr
eaking
outl
et'
sgoeatsoIcangetthi
ssort
ed"
Me:
"theygoi
ngt
oki
l
lme"Iwi
shper
edi
nfear
Jay:"
notheywon'
tI'
l
lmakesureofi
twegoing
tosendy
ouny ourbfhomebutyouneedt
o
pr
omi
semesomet
hing"
Me:
"any
thi
ng"
Jay
:"Si
noy
ouneedt
oli
stencar
eful
l
y"
Me:
"ok"
Jay :"t
hisneverhappenedy 'all
gothijackedn
thet hugslefty'
all
inadeser tedplaceI'l
lcall
the
policeassoonaswel eavey '
allt
herebut
promi semeSi nobabyIcan' temphasi zethis
mor ey oudonott ell
thepol iceaboutmej ust
sayev eryonewaswear ingmasksbecausei f
youdoI '
llf
orgi
vey oubutt hoseguy sar e
ruthlesstheywon'thesitatet ohurtyoui m not
threateningyouIlovey out oomucht ohur tyou
butt heydon'tcareabouty out heywi l
lhurtyou
theywantt ohur tyouev ennow"
Me:
"Iwon'
ttel
lIpr
omi
sej
ustdon'
thur
thi
m"
Jay
:"ar
gmxm"herol
l
edhiseyes"comelet
's
eat
"wewentt
otheki
tchennstar
tedeat
ing
Me:
"howdi
dyougety
our
sel
fint
hismess
j
uni
ory
ougotagoodj
ob"hel
aughed
Jay:
" y
oudon'
tknowshitaboutmyl
i
fesohow
di
dy oumeett
hisfool
keenan"
Me:
"hi
smymot
her
'sst
epson"hel
aughed
Jay
:"f
ucki
ngt
hef
ami
l
ythat
'
slow"
Me:"fucky
oujuni
ory
oual
sodon'
tknowshi
t
aboutmyli
fe"
Jay:
"can'
tbel
i
eveyouNi
col
e'
sdaught
er
expl
ainst
hebeaut
y"
Me:
"howdoy
ouev
enknowt
hem"
Jay
:"i
tmyj
obt
oknowcl
ear
lynotgoodati
t"
Me:
"mmh"
Jay:"
youcoul
dhavebeenwithmebuty
ou
choosetof
uckyourbr
other
"
Me: "
rathermybr ot
herthanacommont hugn
tohellwithyou"Igotoffthehighchai
rbuthe
grabbedmyar m sinki
nghi snail
sini
t
Jay
:"si
tyourassneat
"Idi
djustt
hatwe
fi
nishedeati
ngi nsi l
enceaf tereatinghet oldme
towearmyy esterday '
sclothesIdi djustthatwe
l
ef t
.Whenwegott heretheywer et akingkeenan
outthehousehi swhol eheadwascov er
edthey
puthiminacart hatcaral ongwi thKeenan' scar
droveoffwef oll
oweddr oveunt i
l wegotj ust
outsidePret
oriaall carsparkedt heygotkeenan
outandstartedbeat i
ngthel iv
ingshitoutofhi m
Iwaswat chi
ngi nt earswhi l
escr eami ngforJay
toletmeoutt hecarJaygotoutcamet omy
sidetookmeout
Jay;"
im sosor
rybaby"Idi
dn'tevengeta
chancetosayanyt
hinghepunchedmesohar d
Ifel
lncoughedoutbloodspatitontheground
theyal
lgotint
hecarsndroveof fIcr
awledto
keenanhewasunconscious
Me: "
keenanbabygetup"Ishookhim withtear
s
runni
ngdownmyf aceIscr
eamedf orhelpunti
l
myv oicewasn'
tcomingoutafterwhatfel
tli
ke
hoursIheardpol
icesir
ensfol
lowedby
ambulancestheyputusintheambulance
beganworkingonkeenanwhenwegott othe
hospit
alkyl
enni col
ewast heretheytook
keenaninIj
ustwentf oracheckupt henIwent
outtothewaiti
ngareanicoleflewtomeas
soonasshesawbeganki ssingment ouching
me
Me:
"I'
mfi
ne"
Ni
c:"
lookatwhatt
heydi
dtoy
ourbeaut
if
ul
f
ace"
Me:"nicol
epl
easeimf i
nehav
ey'
al
lhear
d
any
thingaboutkeenan"
Kyl
e:"nowest
il
lwai
ti
ngwhathappened
Dominic"
Me: "
wewer eri
dingbackfrom apart
ythese
carspull
edupfrom nowhereIreal
lydon'
t
remembertheguy swereallweari
ngmasks
theytookustothisaboundedhouse..
"
Ni
c:"
ohGod"shest
art
edshaki
ng"
didt
heydi
d
t
heyhur
tyoubabyl
i
kesexual
ly
"
Me:
"Godno"
Ni
c:"
thankGod"
Ky
le:
"sohowdi
dy'
al
lendupout
sidePr
etor
ia"
Me:"Idi
dn'
tevenknowwewer eoutsi
de
Pr
etori
atheycover
edusdroppedusther
en
dr
oveoffaft
erbeati
ngkeenanup"
Ky
le:
"mmh"Icoul
djustt
ell
hewon'
tl
ett
hisgo
Me:"
canwetal
kaboutthi
ssomeot
hert
imei
m
t
ir
ednIwanaseekeenan"
Ni
c:"I
'
llt
akeyouhomeyouwi
l
lcomebackl
ater
af
terr
esti
ngnbathi
ng"
Kyl
e:"yeahgohomeKel vi
nisgoi
ngoutofhi
s
mindwi t
hworryIdoubthewil
lev
en
concentr
ateatschool
"
Me:"ok"ni
col
enIl
eftt
hedriverwaswai
ti
ng
out
sidewegotint
hebackseatndrov
eoffIput
myheadonherlap
Ni
c:"
baby
"
Me:
"mmh"shewaspl
ayi
ngwi
thmyhai
r
Ni
c:"
howdi
dyouendupi
nacarwi
thkeenan"
Me:"
hewasgoi
ngtoapar
tyIwasbor
edasked
hi
mtotakemewit
hhi
m"
Nic:"
IknowIjustgoty
oubacki nmyli
fenI
havenorighti
ntell
i
ngy ouabouty
ourli
febut
babykeenanisnotaplaceyouwanttogoto"
Me:
"whatdoest
hatmean"
Ni
c:"
hisyourbr
otherbabynhisoldhewoul
d
br
akeyourhear
tIdon'twantt
oloseyou"
Me:"ther
e'snothi
nggoingonbetweenmen
Keenanwej ustwenttoapart
ytogetheri
tnot
l
ikeweslepttogether
"
Nic:
"justdon'
tgother
ewi
thhim babypl
easei
f
hehurtsyouitgoi
ngtomessupthewhole
famil
y"
Me:"
yousayi
tli
keifwewereev
ertogetheri
t
woul
dbeimpossi
bleforhi
mtonothurtme"
Ni
c:"Iknowhi
m andi
twouldbeDomini
cbaby
pl
easetell
meyounotfal
l
ingforhi
m"
Me:
"I'
m not
"sheki
ssedmycheek
Ni
c:"
Ical
l
edy
ourdadhecan'
tgetawayf
rom
wor
k"
Me:
"ok"wer
emai
nedi
nsi
l
enceunt
ilwegott
o
t
hehouse
Nic:
"I'
l
lgetAndret
opr epar
eyouf
oodgobat
hn
geti
nbedI '
l
lbri
ngitup"
Me: "
okthankyou"Iwentuptomyroom tooka
bat
hgotoutwor emypj swhenIgotoutthe
cl
osetnicol
ewassitti
ngonthebedwithatray
offoodonthebedsideIatewi
thherwatchi
ng
meaf t
ereati
ngshegav emepil
lsIt
ookthem
sherubbedsomecr eam onmybustedli
p
Nic:"
I'
ll
setupanappoi
ntmentf
ory
ouwi
tha
psychol
ogist
"
Me:
"I'
m nott
raumat
ized"
Ni
c:"
youneedt
otal
kaboutt
his"
Me;
"Idont
"
Nic:"
oksleepIl
oveyouim goi
ngbackt othe
hospi
talcal
lmewheny ouupI'
llsendacarfor
youdonotleavethi
shousewithoutsecur
ity
Dominic"
Me:"I
'
m notgoingtobest
ayi
nghereandIsur
e
ashel
lwil
lnothavesomeonefol
l
owme
ar
ound"
Ni
c:"
babypl
easei
twi
l
lgi
vemepi
eceofmi
nd"
Me:
"hay
ini
col
eim notgoi
ngt
obeapr
isoner
"
Nic:"
don'
tlookatitl
i
kethatyouwon'teven
noti
cesecuri
tyhaveyouevernot
iceditwhen
yououtwithKelv
inorme"
Me:
"no"
Ni
c:"exact
lyt
heyi
nvi
sibl
ebabybutal
way
s
t
here"
Me:
"noonewi
l
lcomeaf
terme"
Ni
c:"
guessy
oudi
dn'
tcat
cht
henewsl
astni
ght
sincey'
all
wer eheldhostageyourf
acenname
i
soutt her
enowpeopl eknowy oumydaught
er
thatyoukyle'
sstepdaughter
"
Me:
"oh"If
eltdr
ainedndi
zzy"
canIsl
eep"
Ni
c:"okseey ousoonIl
oveyou"sheki
ssedmy
f
oreheadtuckedmei nnl
eftIsl
ept.
IwokeupwithKel
vi
ninmybedIshookhi
m he
gotupnhuggedme
Me:
"I'
m her
eim br
eat
hing"hest
art
edcr
ying
Kelv
in:"
I'
m sosor
ryNi
kkysor
ryIwasn'
tther
eto
prot
ectyou"
Me:"heyi
tnotyourfaul
tf i
ner
eal
lyt
hey
messedupmyl ipbutI'
mf i
nel
ookatme"he
l
ookedatmennodded" havey
ouheard
any
thingaboutkeenan"
Kel
vin:
"hi
sfi
nehi
supmom sai
dwecancome
assoonasyouup"
Me:"okgowashy
ourf
acenbewar
m wecan
go"
Kelvin:"
ok"webot
hgotof fthebedIwentt o
ri
nsemymout hnwashedmyf acedfordressed
i
nj eansnhoodywithuggswel eftwhenwegot
therekeenanwasuphel ookedbadhi sface
wasbl uenpinkhi
soneey ewasswol lenn
closed
Me:"
hey
"Kel
vi
nal
readyhadhi
sar
msar
ound
hi
m
Keenan:
"I'
m sosor
ryDomi
nic"
Me: "
itnotyourf
ault
"weal l
satt her
et al
king
unti
litwastimetogohehadt wobr okenribsn
abadgear oundhisf
oreheadwewer ebyt he
doorleavi
ngwhenhecal l
edni colenky l
elooked
atmewi thquesti
onsbutleftIwentt ostand
nexttohim Il
eaneddowngav ehim akiss
whichhurtbothourl
ipswerecut
Me:
"Il
ovey
ou"hechuckl
ed
Keenan:
"ev
ent
houghi
m ugl
ynow"
Me:
"youbeaut
if
ulhur
tbutbeaut
if
ul"
Keenan:
"ev
enwi thyourbust
edli
pIsti
l
lwana
ki
ssyounsuckoni tsoIunderst
andwhaty
ou
sayi
ng"welaughed
Me: "
Iwassoscar
ed"Istar
tedcr
yinghemoved
abitpul
ledmetothebedIlai
dnexttohi
m he
puthisarmsar
oundme
Keenan:
"I'
m sosorr
ybabyIshouldn'
thav
elef
t
wit
houtsecuri
tyi
twasmyfault"
Me:"i
twasn'
tyourf
aul
tbaby
"heki
ssedmy
head
Keenan:
"Il
ovey
oubaby
"
Me:
"Il
ovey
out
oo"
Keenan:
"dadsai
dyout
oldhi
m wewer
ecomi
ng
fr
om apart
y"
Me:"
yesIdi
dn'
thaveanyot
herr
easonasto
whywewouldbetoget
hert
hatt
imeofthe
ni
ght
"
Keenan:
"howaboutt
het
rut
h"
Me:"thatwouldmeancomi
ngoutwi
thour
r
elat
ionship"
Keenan:"
itaboutt
imei
mti
redofkeepi
ngusa
secr
et"
Me:"babyI,
.
"ThedooropenednKel
vi
ncamei
n
Igotofft
hebed
Kel
vi
n:"
what
'sgoi
ngon"
Me:
"not
hingl
et'
sgo"
Kel
vi
n:"
okseey
out
omor
rowkeenan"
Keenan:
"sur
ekidi
hm cany
ouaskdadt
oget
meaphonet omor
row"
Kel
vi
n:"
sur
e"Ihel
dhi
shandwel
eft
.
.
Keenangotoutthehospit
al3dayslaterhi
scar
wasfoundinMpumal angathefol
lowingdayit
wasstri
pped.I
twasMondayIhadn' tbeenon
campussincetheprevi
ousMondaywehad
j
ay'
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rstIsatonthelastr
owi nacornerI
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ngi nf rontIhadn' t
spokenwi thTeedohIhadseenAmyon
Sat urdaysheandNannet t
ecamet ocheckon
memydadal sot houghtIshoul dgof or
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ht het raumabutIsawno
pointi wasn' ttraumat izedi tnotl i
keIcoul dn't
sleepbecauseIwast hinki
ngaboutt hebi gbad
scar yguyIknewwhot obl ameaboutal loft hi
s
andi twasJayIwant edabsol utel
ynot hingt o
dowi thhi m.Iknewmysecur ityguyRonnywas
somewher ear oundt hecampuscl oset omy
l
ect urehal lhehadmyt i
met ableIhadt oal ert
himi fIwasgoi ngoutofschedul eIfoundt he
whol et hingirri
tating.Aftercl assJaymadean
announcementt hathewant st oseet hecl ass
repsi nhi sof f
icenowsoaf terget t
ingoutt he
classIwentst raightthereIf oundTeedoh
alreadyi nhi sof f
icetheywer elaughingat
somet hing
Me:
"youcal
l
edsi
r"
Teedoh;
"yohbbeI
'
vebeenmi
ssi
ngy
ousobadI
sawont henewshowarey
oubbeIcoul
dn'
t
evengetintouchwi
thy
oubutAmysai
dyou
doingwell
"
Me:
"I'
mfi
ne"
Teedoh:
"peopl
ear
esohear
tl
essoutt
her
etj
o
moneyhungryswi
nes"
Me;"yeahuhm y
oucal
l
edsi
rimr
ushi
ngf
ormy
nextclass"
Jay:"y
esthere'
sasemi nargoi
ngont hatIwant
youtotel
ltheclassaboutgetsignat
uresof
thosewhoareinterest
edingoing"
Me:"
I'
m sor
rybutIcan'
tandim wit
hdrawing
f
rom bei
ngaclassrepgotalotonmypl at
e"
whenIwasabouttowalkouttheoff
iceheheld
myhand
Jay
:"don'
tdot
hisSi
no"
Me:"l
etgoofmeorIwi
l
lscr
eam t
hispl
ace
down"
Teedoh:
"what
'sgoi
ngonguy
s"
Me:
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lyourbr
othert
oletgoofmyhand"
Teedoh:"
youhear
dherJuniorl
etgoofher
hand"hedidIwal
kedoutTeedohfol
l
owedaft
er
me
Teedoh:
"what
'sgoi
ngonSi
no"
Me:
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hing"
Teedoh:"
bul
l
shi
ttal
ktome"Isi
ghednst
opped
walki
ng
Me:"
lookTeedohIl
ovey
oubutIcan'
tbey
our
f
ri
endanymore"
Teedoh:
"whydoesi
tsoundl
i
key
oubr
aki
ngup
wit
hme"
Me:"
becauseIam"Istar
tedwal
kingawayhe
gr
abbedmyshouldermakingmeturnpai
nful
l
yI
wi
ncedinpainRonnywasbyourside
i
mmediatel
y
Ronny
:"what
'sgoi
ngon"
Teedoh:
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ndy
ourbusi
ness"Ronnyi
snotol
d
hi
s27easil
ybl
endsinwi
thst
udent
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ooks
not
hingl
i
keabodyguar
d
Ronny
:"backof
fMsSmi
th"
Me:"
ever
y t
hingi
sfi
nelookTeedohl
et'
sjustbe
ci
vi
lbutr
ightnowIcan'
tgiv
eyoumyf r
iendshi
p"
Teedoh:"
fi
ne"hewalkedawaywi t
ht ear
s
runni
ngdownhisfaceIjustsi
lent
lyprayedfor
thesemestert
obeov eralr
eadysoIwon' thav
e
todealwi
thJayeveragain.
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ving
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n
herintheki t
chen
Me:
"howar
ethi
ngs"
Set
hu:
"ital
lgood"
Me:
"andst
habi
so"
Set
hu:
"hewant
smet
omar
ryhi
m"
Me:
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hat
'sgr
eatSi
phoset
hu"
Set
hu:
"nahhi
sjustscar
edgoi
ngt
oleav
ehi
m"
Me:
"st
habi
sol
ovey
ousi
s"
Set
hu:"Lungel
ooncesai
dyoudon'
tcheaton
someoney oul
ovehewasri
ght
"
Me:
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dthatf
ool
sayt
hat
"shegi
ggl
ed
Sethu:"t
heotherdaytheywereherewith
Nkany i
sonkeenany ouwereinyourroom
getti
ngreadykeenanwast aki
ngyou
somewher ehim nNkanyisopul
ledoutthebi
g
brotheractnthr
eatenedkeenan"welaughed
Me:
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ots"
Sethu:
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l3oft
hem l
ungel
oreal
l
ylov
es
you"
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m hemi ghthave
for
givenmebuthewi l
lneverf
orgetIcan'
tgo
backtherei
tjustwon'
tbethesame"
Set
hu:"
soyouwoul
drat
herbewi
thy
our
st
epbr
other
"
Me:
"ohy
ouf
igur
edt
hatout
"
Sethu:
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terdadcalledtell
i
ngmeaboutyoun
yourst
epbrotherbeinghi
jackedi
twaseasyt
o
put2n2t ogetherandcomeoutwi t
h4"
Me:
"Iknowi
twr
ongbutIl
ovehi
m andhel
oves
me"
Set
hu:
"mmhi
tiswr
ongbuti
tal
soy
ourchoi
ce"
Me:
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ounotgoi
ngt
ojudge"shel
aughed
Sethu:
"I'
vehadsexwitht
wopeopleatthesame
ti
meoneoft hem bei
ngagir
ljudgi
ngsomeone
i
st hel
astthi
ngonmymi nd"welaughed
Me: "t
hatwassotr
uamutazingSethudaddy
thi
nksIneedapsychol
ogistfort
heaccidentI
actuall
yneedonef
rom catchi
ngyouguy s"she
cov
eredherf
acewi
thherhandswel
aughed
Set
hu:
"sor
ryy
ouhadt
oseet
hat
"
Me:
"isi
tsomet
hingy
ou'
vedonebef
ore"
Set
hu: "
nahbutIthinkI
'ddoi
tagai
nhavi
nga
gi
rlgodownony ouisamazi
ng"wecr
ackedup
i
nal oudlaught
er
Me:
"yer
rSi
phoset
huy
ounast
y"
Sethu:
"don'
that
eonsomet
hingy
ou'
venev
er
donesis"
Me:
"tr
ue"
Sethu: "
ift
here'
sonet hi
ngI'
vereal
izedsofar
thi
sy earisthatapersonneedstoexplore
duri
ngherv ar
sit
yyearsdocrazyshitbutj
ust
don'tlosefocusonyourmai ngoal
"
Me:"t
rueIgetthatIj
ustwannagr
aduat
emake
ourpar
entsproudespeci
all
ymom"
Sethu:"
speaki
ngofparent
showi
syour
rel
ati
onshi
pwithni
cole"
Me:"okwethunot
hingmuchshe'
stryi
ngandim
al
lowinghert
owit
houthol
dingherpastagai
nst
her"
Sethu:
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'sgoodsowheny out
aki
ngmet
o
theSmithhousehol
d"Il
aughed
Me: "
itnot
hingmuchbutwecangoonFri
day
spendthenightt
heresi
ncet
heyhost
inga
barbecueonSatur
day"
Sethu:"
cool
im notseeingst habi
sothi
s
weekendanywayhisgoi ngtocomeby
Thursdaynl
eaveFridayf orLagos"
Me:
"forhowl
ong"
Set
hu:
"2weeks"
Me:
"hi
staki
nghi
sassi
stant
"
Sethu:"y
eahbutIfor
cedhi
mtogetanewonei
t
wasoneofmycondi ti
onsi
fhewant
edtof
ix
thi
ngsbet weenusget
ti
nganewmale
assist
ance"
Me:
"let
'shopehewon'
tbecomegay
"we
l
aughed
Set
hu:"I
'
dki
l
lhi
m wi
thmybar
ehandscutof
f
hi
sdick"
Me:"t
jothi
snewSethui
sscar
yingmetheway
younotscar
edofusi
ngvul
garl
anguagesi
s"
shel
aughed
Set
hu:
"aslongasIdon'
tacci
dent
all
ysayi
tto
mom i
m cool"
Me:
"yeah"
Set
hu:
"wher
eisTeedoh"Isi
ghed
Me:
"It
hinkImessedupSi
phoset
hu"
Set
hu:
"whathappened"
Me:"
hisbr
otherdi
dmewr
ongandIpushedhi
m
away
"
Set
hu:"
whywouldyouinvol
vehi
m over
somet
hinghehasnot
hingtodowit
h"
Me:
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ustpanickedseeinghi
mjustr
emi
nded
meofwhathisbrotherdidt
omeIwantnot
hing
t
yingmewi
thhi
sbr
other
"
Sethu:"y
ouandTeedohwer efri
endsbeforeyou
gotclosetoJaydon'tl
osey ourfr
iendshi
pover
whateveriti
sthatJaydid"
Me:
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l
lfor
giv
eme"
Set
hu:"hewi
l
lify
ouwanthi mt
oSinoyouvery
per
suasiv
enpeopleusual
l
ycan'
tsaynotoyou"
Me:
"neh"
Set hu:"
thewayIhatedthatwhenwewer e
growi ngupyougoteveryt
hingyouwantedjust
bybat ti
ngyoureyel
ashesny ougotawaywi t
h
thingsIcouldnev
ergetawaywi thi
fIdi
dt hem"
Ilaughed
Me:
"joy
sofbei
ngt
hebabyoft
hehouse"
Set
hu:
"ithadnot
hingtodowit
hthatdadn
Phi
wejustal
wayslovedyoumore"
Me:
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rue"sher
oll
edherey
es
Set
hu:
"whenl
astdi
dyout
alkt
oPhi
we"
Me:"l
astni
ghthecal
ledandPj
isdoi
ngwel
l
f
inal
l
youtofthehospit
al"
Sethu:"
that
'sgoodanywayletmegotomy
room gotaresear
chthatIneedt
ogetst
art
ed
on"
Me: "okcoolgoodni
ght"shel ef
tIcheckedifal
l
thosewer el
ockedturnedt heli
ght
sof fwentto
myr oom aswellIhadmi ssedcall
sfrom
keenannLungel oaswell asalandl
ineIcall
ed
thelandl
inefi
rst
Per
son:
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easedon'
thangup"
Me:
"whatdoy
ouwantJuni
or"
Jay:"
whatdi
dyoudot oTeedohhecal
l
edme
cry
ingsay
ingIr
uinedhisf
ri
endshi
pwit
hyou"
Me:"Idi
dn'
ttel
lhi
mt haty
ouwer ebehi
ndt
he
ki
dnappi
ngifthat
'swhatyouaski
ng"
Jay
:"Iknowy
ouwoul
dn'
ttel
lbutwhatdi
dyou
dotohim"
Me:
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oppedt
hecal
landcal
l
edLungel
o
aft
ert
hatIcal
l
edkeenanwesky
pedunt
ilIf
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asl
eepst
il
lonsky
pe.
.
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oll
owi
ngdaykeenanwas
st
ari
ngatmeont hescr
eenhewasal r
eady
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essedforworknatworklooki
ngdel
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n
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tnawhiteshir
t
Keenan:
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ninggor
geous"
Me:
"mor
ningbabyy
oul
ookdashi
ng"
Keenan:
"sl
eptwel
l
"
Me:"
yeahIdid"t
her
ewasaknockSet
hugoti
n
wi
thfol
lower
snagiftback
Sethu:
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iv
ery"Il
ookedatkeenanhesmi
l
edn
rai
sedhiseyebr
ow
Me: "
bri
ngitover
"Itookthefl
owerssmeltt
hem
"t
hankyoubabytheylovely
"Sethuwavedat
keenannleftt
heroom
Keenan:
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comemyl
ove"Iopenedt
he
gi
ftbagnl
aughed
Me:"
yougoi
ngtomakemef ati
twaschocol
ate
nadoubl
echocol
atecakef
rom muggnbean
Keenan:
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l
lhel
pyouwor
kout
"hechuckl
ed
Me:
"don'
tbenast
y"hebr
okeouti
nlaught
er
Keenan:
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mt al
kingaboutgy
mlov
ery
out
he
nast
yone"Iroll
edmyey es
Me: "
thankyoulover"Iscoopedupt hecream
withmyf i
ngersuckedont hefi
ngerseduct i
vel
y
keenanclear
edhi st
hroatIdiditagainbutthis
ti
mewi thtwofinger
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edmyt ongueov er
myf i
ngers
Keenan:"
myl ov
e"hisvoi
cewassuddenl
yhusky
Ibi
tmybot t
om li
pclosi
ngmyeyes"Domini
c"I
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ngmytongueovermy
upperl
ip
Me:
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over
"
Keenan:"
pleasestopim att
heof
fi
ce"hi
svoi
ce
wasstrai
nedIgiggled
Me:
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ovey
ou"
Keenan:
"loveyout
ooi
m sohar
di'
minphy
sical
pai
n"Igi
ggled
Me:
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rybabyI
'
llsor
tyououtt
oni
ght
"
Keenan:
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nbednakednspreadout
whenIgetther
etoni
ght
"Igi
ggledst
upi
dly
Me:
"ok"Isai
dinwhi
sper
Keenan:
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ovey
ounowgetupnpr
epar
efor
campus"
Me:
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ovey
out
oo"
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aterbaby"It
ookofmypj tophewas
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ted
onhissit"Nikkypl
ease"Isatupgotof
fthebed
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ckly"Ishi
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tsIwascompl
etel
ynaked
Keenan:
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ovey
ouwoman"Igi
ggl
ed
Me:
"Il
ovey
ou"
Keenan;"assoonasit16:00im outofhereyou
betterbenakedby16:15"Ilaughednspinned
aroundshakingass"
Ni kky!
"
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kisswentt othebathroom tookabat hgotout
wor eawhi tesundressngl adiat
or stookmy
bagal ongwi t
hmycakenchocol atewent
downst air
sIatehalfofthecakewi thmilklef
t
somef orSethuthanIlef
tforcampus.Teedoh
wasn' toncampust hatdayIspentmyt i
mewi th
AmywhenIwasdoneat tendingIwentt ot he
l
ibraryuntil15:
30Iwentbackt omyapar tment
tookashowerkeenangoti nther oom asIwas
getti
ngoutt hebathroom withat owel wrapped
aroundmybodynt herestisTMI .
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air
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erj
oinedSethui
nthe
l
oungewat
chedtvwhil
ehav
ingdinner
Keenan:"
Idon'
tunder
standt
his"wewer
e
watchi
nggener
ati
ons
Set
hu:
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'sbecausey
ouwhi
te"Ichuckl
edn
r
oll
edmyey
es
Me:"ev
enIdon'
tgett
hepoi
ntofi
tbaby
"he
l
aughednki
ssedmyheadIwassit
ti
ngbet
ween
hi
slegs
Keenan:
"seei
tnotar
acet
hingSet
hu"
Sethu:"
gener
ati
onsissomet hingwegrewup
watchi
ngitnoteasytojuststopwatchi
ngi
t
eventhoughi
tkindastupid"
Me:
"seey
oual
soagr
eet
hati
tst
upi
d"
Keenan:"
Ineedtolear
nxhosa"Set
hul
aughed
hepronouncedxhosafunny
Me:
"noy
oudon'
t"
Keenan:
"whynot
"
Me:
"unnecessar
ylov
e"
Set
hu:
"askSi
not
oteachy
ou"
Me:"Iwon'
twhatifIneedtotal
kabouthim
whenhisar
ound"IsaidinxhosaSet
hulaughed
Keenan:
"youseet
hisi
swhyIwantt
olear
nthe
otherdayLungel
onNkany
isower
etal
ki
ng
aboutmei nxhosa"
Me:
"that
'snott
ruet
heywoul
dn'
tdot
hat
"
Keenan:
"Set
hu"
Set
hu:
"hi
sri
ghtt
heydi
d"
Keenan:
"see"
Me:
"I'
l
ltal
ktot
hem"
Keenan:"
don'
ttheyhatemeenoughasi
tis
don'
tfi
ghtmybat t
les"
Me:"t
here'
snobat
tl
eher
ebabydon'
tl
ett
hem
gett
oy ou"
Keenan:"
ifIdi
dIwoul
dhav
ebeat
enupat
least
oneofthem"
Me:"pl
easedon'
tI'
l
ltal
ktot
hosef
ool
s"he
ki
ssedmyheadsniffi
ngmyhai
r
Keenan:
"don'
tj
ustt
eachmexhosa"
Me:
"ei
"Set
hul
aughed
Set
hu:
"teacht
hepoorguySi
nov
uyo"
Me:
"Iwi
l
l"myphoner
angi
twasmom "
himom"
Mom:
"heyhowar
eyou"
Me:
"I'
m wel
landy
ou"
Mom:
"I'
m wel
lhowar
ethi
ngshow'
sschool
"
Me: "
every
thi
ngi
sgoodi
m keepi
ngupwi
th
school"
Mom: "
okIj
ustmi
ssy
ou"Ismi
l
edasi
fshe
coul
dseeme
Me:"
ImissyoutooI
'
llbehomesoonwecl
osi
ng
f
orEast
erssoon"
Mom:
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e'sy
oursi
ster
"
Me:
"she'
sher
ewewat
chi
ngt
v"
Mom: "
okIsawLuvuyoyest
erdaywentt
o
chur
chwit
hheryourdadwenttogether
"
Me:
"that
'sni
ceImi
ssher
"
Mom:
"comehome"
Me:
"Iwi
l
lsoon"
Mom:
"okgoodni
ghtdon'
tfor
gett
opr
ay"
Me;
"yesmom goodni
ght
"shedr
oppedt
hecal
l
Keenan:
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'sgoup"hewispher
ednl
i
ght
lybi
t
myearIshivver
edngiggl
ed
Me:
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ghtSet
hu"west
oodup
Set
hu:
"goodni
ght
"
Keenan:"
wanahi
tyoufr
om behind"he
wispher
edwewentupst
air
sgiggli
ngwegoti
n
hethrewmeonthebedIbouncedal i
tt
le
Me:
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ktodo"
Keenan:"
met oo"hepull
edmeupItookmybag
satonthedeskstudyi
ngwhil
ehedidhi
swork
onthebedwewer eli
steni
ngtosof
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droppedmeof foncampusnpi ckedmeup
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erget ting
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someguyt osi gnmei nIwentupt ohi sr oom
knockednsomeoneshout
edcamei
nIwenti
n
hewasi nbedcuddl
i
ngwit
hhi
sbf
Me:
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l
o"
Si
zwe:
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noy
ougood"
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m hor
ri
ble"hechuckl
ed
Sizwe:
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l
lgi
veyouguyst
imetotal
kI'
l
lbei
nmy
room"hegotof
fthebedworehi
sshoes
Teedoh:"
don'
tgoshe'
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ingIgotnot
hingt
o
saytoher"
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lIhav
esomet
hingt
osay
"
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zwe:"
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eyou"hegavehim asof
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ushedmyshoulderwhenhewasnexttome
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'm gl
ady oucamehi salsohor r
ibl
e"he
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ht hepl asti
cI
tookoffmyshoesgoti nbedIt ookt hewineout
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psformingasmi l
ehel ookedaway
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vewineIpour
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asshet ooki
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osedhiseyesi
n
appreci
ati
onIgi
ggled
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ovey
ou"
Teedoh:
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ovemywi
ne"
Me:
"ouch"
Teedoh:
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tme"
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imeIwasmadat
Jayngoty oui
nvol
vedwhenyouhadnot
hingt
o
dowithit
"
Teedoh:"
what
'sgoi
ngonbet
weeny
ounhi
m
anyway"
Me: "
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yhurt
fult
hingsabout
keenanbooi m sorr
yIr eal
l
yshouldn'thav
e
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thadnot hi
ngtodowi t
hyou
andImessedupandI 'v
ebeensol onelyn
missingyousobadIl oveyouboo"
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ify
oueverdumpmeagai
nim not
taki
ngyouback"
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eragai
n"
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'seatngetdrunk"we
l
aughedIendedupspendi
ngthenight.
.
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l
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compl ement i
nt hehouseaswedr oveupt he
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wer eaboutt of indparking
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nowIseewhyy
ouspendal
mostal
l
yourweekendsher
e"
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hu:
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dhav
emov
edi
nal
ready
"
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tjustahouse"Kelv
inopenedmy
doornthr
ewhi sar
msar oundmywai stwhenI
gotout
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her
ebr
o"Imesseduphi
shai
r
Kel
vi
n:"
heyy
oul
atemom beeny
ell
i
ng"
Me:
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col
eneedsal
cohol
"hel
aughed
Kel
vi
n:"
I'
ll
tel
lher
"
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ouwoul dn'
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ntr
oducedhimt
oTeedoh
wewalkedinther
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ayfi
ll
ed
wit
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hey
bot
htookone
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cey
ounotdr
inki
ng"
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rst
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l
ed
myeyestheyl
aughedwewentout si
det owhere
ni
col
enky l
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roducedTeedohnSet hu
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ngmet o
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foundhimi nhi
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stoodbythedoorst ari
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ack
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ppedshor t
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l
aughednt ookhi sear phonesof f
Keenan:"
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ndmyneck
andpull
edmei mforakisswekissedalong
passi
onatei
nti
matekissIpull
edaft
erawhil
e
Me:
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"
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vemi
ssedy
ouwhydi
ditt
akey
ouso
l
ongtocomeuphere"
Me:
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dn'
tyoucomedownt
ome"
Keenan:
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ir
stt
hingI'
ddowhenI
seeyouiski
ssyouandyouwouldn'
tal
l
owme
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odot
hati
nfr
ontofev
ery
one"
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Keenan:
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m get
ti
ngtir
edoft
hisDomi
nicIl
ove
youandIwantevery
onetoknowyoumine"
Me;
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Keenan:
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omi
se"
Me:
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omi
seIl
ovey
ou"
Keenan: "
comeher e"Il
eanedi
nwekissedagai
n
thekisswasget t
ingsteamyhetookof
fmy
tshi
rtItookoffhi
swhenhewasaboutt ostar
t
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ssomeonegasped
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son:"t
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[
08/
12,
21:
24]Wadz
:Inser
t28
.
Hest
aredatuswi
thhi
sey
esout
Keenan: "
closethedoor "hi
sv oicewasdrippi
ng
wit
haut horit
ykelv i
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ngkeenanmut tereda
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l
ockedthedoor
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in:
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'sgoi
ngon"hel
ookedatmenI
l
ookedatKeenanhesi
ghednsatonhi
sbaggy
chai
r
Keenan:
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vi
nwhatdi
dyousee"
Me:
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iousl
ykeenanhi
snotababy
"
Kel
vi
n:"
exact
lysoexpl
ain"
Keenan;
"Ni
kkyandIar
etoget
hery
ouknowj
ust
l
i
kehowy
ouwi
thAmber
"
Kel
vin;
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efami
lyhowcanyou
seeherthewayIseeAmbert
hisisj
ustwei
rd"
Keenan;
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elat
ed"
Kel
vi
n:"
buty
oumybr
otherandshe'
smysi
ster
"
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'sitKel
vi
nshe'syoursi
sternot
mineandimy ourbrot
hernother'
s"
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vi
n:"
oh.
,
,soy
out
woar
einar
elat
ionshi
p"
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"yes"
Me:
"howdoy
ouf
eel
aboutt
hat
"
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vi
n:"i
tweir
dbutcool
Iguessj
ustdon'
thur
t
mysist
erkeenan"
Keenan:
"hey
"Il
aughed
Me:
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omi
semesomet
hingKel
vi
n"
Kel
vi
n:"
yeah"
Me:"don'
ttel
lnicol
eorkyl
eaboutthi
sinf
act
don'
ttel
lanyone"keenanl
ookedatmeall
i
rr
it
ated
Kel
vi
n:"
okIwon'
t"
Me:
"goodnowcomegi
vemeahug"
Kel
vi
n:"
eewuno"hel
aughednwal
kedout
Me:
"don'
tl
ookatmel
i
ket
hat
"
Keenan:
"andhowam Il
ooki
ngaty
ou"
Me;"Li
key
oudi
sappoi
ntedory
ouwana
st
raggl
eme"
Keenan:
"mmhmaybeitbot
h"Igotof
fthebed
walkedt
ohi
m st
andi
ngbetweenhisl
egs
Me:
"im soi
nlov
ewi
thy
ou"hehel
dthebackof
f
myl
egspull
ingmet
ohi
m
Keenan:
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e"hest
aresst
rai
ghti
ntomy
eyes
Me:
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sper
ed
Keenan:
"im cr
azyi
nlovewit
hyou"weki
ssed
forawhil
ethenpul
ledback
Me:
"Il
ovey
ouny
ouwi
l
lfi
ndmedownst
air
s"
Keenan: "
okIl ovey
out oo"Il
efthi
minhi
sroom
wentdownst ai
rsst
artedatthebarmi
xed
my selfaglassofvodkanl emonadet
hanwent
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chil
lingwit
hAmynBr addleynNannet
tebythe
tenniscourt
Amy
:"y
oubeengonel
ong"
Me:
"Ni
col
e"
Nan:
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yni
col
est
il
lshowi
ngy
ouof
f"
Me:"she'
sfi
nal
l
ydone"Ir
oll
edmyey
esnt
hey
l
aughed
Amy:"
ohherecomestr
ouble"weall
tur
nedn
sawBi
ancabounci
ngcomingourwayinashor
t
summerdr
essnanklest
rapheels
Nan:
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ad:"beni
cegi
rl
s"Braddl
eynAmyar
ebr
other
nsi
stermyuncl
e'
skids
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anca:
"heyf
ami
l
y"
Nan:
"hi
...Hi
Bianca"
Bi
anca:"
mmhmorebl
ackpeopl
e"shel
ookedat
Teedohnset
hu
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twi
thyourshi
tBi
anca"she
l
ookedbehi ndmef r
owni
ngnIf el
thi
shandson
mywai sthekissedmycheek
Keenan:"
heyever
yone"Nannet
teblushednIl
et
outachuckl
etheyal
lgreet
edbackbesides
Bianca
Br
ad;
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'supkeenani
sthej
obgood"
Keenan:
"al
lgoodcan'
tcompl
ain"
Bi
anca:
"keenancanwet
alk"
Amy
:"mov
eoncousi
ns"
Bi
anca:
"shutupf
ool
"
Keenan:
"what
'st
heret
otalkaboutBi
anca"she
l
ookedatmebeforel
ooki
ngbackatkeenan
Bi
anca:
"theot
herni
ght
"
Me:
"ther
e'snot
hingt
otal
kabout
"
Bi
anca:"
justgobackt
other
ural
s"Set
hun
Teedohl
aughed
Teedoh:
"sosal
ty"
Me:
"dr
yseason"wel
aughed
Bi
anca:
"shutupbi
tch"
Keenan:
"wat
chy
our
sel
fBi
anca"
Bi
anca:
"whydi
dyouhav
etocomeher
e"
Me:
"don'
thav
eti
mef
ort
his"
Bianca:"
heismymi neal
wayshasbeenalways
willbehi
sjusttakencozyounewpussyforhi
m
heal way
scomesbackdi dyoutel
lherkeenan
thatyoualwayscomebackt ome"
Keenan:
"shutupBi
anca"
Bi
anca:"whatyoudi
dn'
ttel
lherabouthowy ou
al
way scomerunni
ngtomewheny ougetti
red
ofyournewdrugtol
dherhowy oualwayscome
cr
yingtomewhent hi
ngsdon'tgoyourway"
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"youdel
usi
onal
"hewal
kedaway
Bi
anca:
"hel
ovesmewhatwehav
eis.
."
Me:"t
hinky
oumeanwhaty
ouhad"sher
oll
ed
herey
es
Bianca: "
sweet yy oubestbet tercr awl backto
what evercr
azyf army oufrom justv anish
nobodywant sy ouher eweal lknowy ouj ust
afterauntyNicol e'smoneynowy out hinkby
ri
dingKeenan' sdi cky ouwi ll
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e's
moneynt hefamet hatcomeswi t
hbei ngwith
him darli
nthisisj hbi tdoesn'twor kt hatway
may bey outhinky ouv oodooj uj
uwi lllaston
himi twon't
"Ijustl ookedawayt ears
threateni
ngmyey esoutofev erythingshewas
say i
ngwhathur twast hatkeenanwal kedaway
Teedoh:
"Si
nodon'
tl
ett
hishoegett
oyou"
Set
hu:
"let
'
sgosi
s"
Bi
anca:
"justknowt
hatwhil
ehi
sfucki
ngy
oui
t
mewhohemakesl oveto"
Br
ad:
"JesusBi
ancadon'
tyouev
ergi
veup"
Bianca: "
imjustt el
li
ngt het r
uthy '
all
knowi the
i
sj ustexcit
edov ernewpussyl ikehisnormal
drugr ushhewi l
l getoveri tsoondidhet el
l y
ou
abouthi saddicti
v epersonal i
tyandhi sf
earof
commi tment"shest eppedcl osertome
standinginfrontofmyf acenl ookedather
nailswithasmuggr i
nbef orelookingatme
"youseedearl it
tlecousi nKeenanIar ethe
sameweunder standeachot herwhi l
eont he
otherhandy ouj ustanewf l
avorofthemont h
youj ustcheapeasypussy "
Teedoh:
"Si
nodosomet
hingbef
oreIdo"
Me:
"letherspeak"
Bianca:
"youshouldhavest
ay edinyourli
tt
le
kokowiththatstupi
dmotherofy our
ssher eal
l
y
wasdesperatewasn'tsher
aisinganother
woman'schild"
Set
hu:
"Si
no!
!"Bi
ancast
art
edwal
ki
ngaway
Me:
"letherbe"
Sethu:"
yougoi
ngtoletherdi
srespectmom l
i
ke
that"Bi
ancal
aughed
Bianca;"
sheknowsi mr ightyourmom wasj ust
desperateImeanwhor aisestheirhusband'
s
bastardchil
dim sur
ey ouNi cole'
swor st
mistake"Sethustar
tedwal ki
ngt owardsherbut
Ipull
edherback
Me:"
youdoneBianca"shewasabitfarf
rom
mensti
ll
walki
ngawayshel ookedatmen
wi
nked
Bi
anca:
"yes"
Me:"good"Ir
antoherIwasaboutt or
eachher
whensomeonehel dmywaistl
ift
ingmeupbutI
hadalr
eadygrabbedherhai
rIpull
edherback
shefel
lhit
ti
ngherhead
Me:
"letgol
etgol
etgoofme!
!"
Keenan:"calm down"her
oar
edwi
thhi
s
aut
horit
ativevoice
Me:"putmedownkeenanyouweren'there
whenshewast al
ki
ngaboutmyparents"Iwas
scr
eamingnkicki
ng
Bianca:
"rat
chetbi
tch"shewasr
ubbi
ngher
head
Me:"i
fyoudon'
tputmedownnowwear
eso
donekeenansmi
th!
"
Keenan:"
youbet
terr
uncozI'
m put
ti
ngher
down"heputmeshequickl
yrannhidbehi
nd
Braddl
ey
Me: "
arg!
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art
edr
unningoffgoingintot
he
housekeenanwasri
ghtbehindmet akingl
ong
str
okesIwasabouttotakethestair
swhen
ni
colecall
edmyname
Me: "
what?
!"Shetookastepbackf
rowni
ng
keenanhadsteppedback
Ni
c:"
what
'
swr
ong"
Me:
"not
hingi
mleav
ing"
Ni
c:"
babywhati
sgoi
ngon"Isatont
hest
air
sn
st
art
edcr
ying
Me:"Ij
ustwanagohome"shesatnextt
ome
wrappedherarm ov
ermyar
m putt
ingmyhead
onhershoulder
Ni
c:"
youar
ehome"
Me:
"noi
m notIwanagot
omypar
ent
sIneed
mymom"
Ni
c:"
Domi
nic"shesoundedhur
t
Me;"whydidy
oucomeformeIwasper
fect
ly
happywit
hmyparent
s"Ist
oodup
Nic:"
Ididn'tknowyoufel
tthatwayDomini
cim
sorr
yIdisruptedyourl
i
feijustneededmy
daughter"Iwipedmytear
s
Me: "
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apart
mentIdon'twanttoforcemysist
ern
fr
iendtol
eavetheirst
il
lhavingf
un"
Nic:"
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tgojustgotoyourandr
estI
'
ll
holdyouunti
lyoufeelbet
terorsl
eep"
Me:
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one"shesi
ghed
Ni
c:"
thanI
'
llgowi
thy
out
oyourapar
tment
"
Me: "
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sgo"shest ooduptookmyhandwe
wentt ot el
lkyl
ewel eavi
ngnRonnydr oveusto
theapar tmentIwatchedkeenanwat chi
ngthe
carasi tdroveaway.Iwentt ot
akeabat hn
wor emypj swhenIgotdownst airsshehada
glassofchocol at
emi lknoreowithherI
switchedmyphoneof fweateOreoswhile
wat chingtv.
.
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o..
..
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ooking
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ngwi
thsomeonetoni
ght"
t
heyall
laughednhi
ghfi
vedmycrazycousi
n
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wayslookingf orawhol etosti
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n,
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tevenint hemoodt ogooutbutwhen
Olwet
huSivenNkany i
soburstedthr
oughmy
dooranddidn'
tt akenof orananswerIhadno
choi
cebuttogetr eady.SohereweareatKong
cl
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le
ofbel
veder
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so
nOlwethugot obuy
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ve:
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eri
tman"
Lungel
o:"
don'
tst
artSi
vei
m her
eam Inot
"
Si
ve:
"buty
oustil
lmoppi
ngaf
terhermov
eon
br
oshecert
ainl
yhas"
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o:"y
ouwouldn'
tunder
standt
hat
'
sthe
motherofmychi
l
d"
Si
ve:
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isonol
wet
hucameback
wi
ththeal
cohol
Nka:
"mov
eonf
rom what
"
Lungel
o:"
not
hingletsdr
ink"Imi
xedmydri
nkn
smil
edtomyselft
hinki
ngabouthowvodkan
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emonadei
sherf
avor
it
edr
ink
Olwet hu:"l
et'
sgetsomegi rlsoverhere"weal l
l
ookedar oundt heclubhopingtofindgirl
sto
j
oi nusnmyey esmetwi t
hapai rofbeautiful
bigey esI'
vealway shadat hingforbigeyesn
sino'sarejustperfectshi
tthereIgoagai n
thinkingaboutherIneedt omakemymov enow
bef oreIendupi nasourmoodnr uinthenight
fort heboys
Lungel
o:"
tabl
eonyourl
eftNkany
iso"t
heyal
l
tur
nedtol
ookatthegi
rl
s
Si
ve:
"per
fectt
her
e's4oft
hem"
Olwethu:
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sharedachuckl
eIwentov ert
ot hegirl
'stableI
ranmyhandov ermyhairtheywer ealr
eady
star
ingatmeasImademywayt othem Ibitmy
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om li
pnsmi l
ed
Lungel
o:"
ladi
eshey
"theygi
ggl
ed
Gi
rl
1:"
hi"
Lungel
o:"
im Lungel
odl
..
"
Gi
rl
2:"
Dlami
niweknow"
Lungel
o:"
ist
hatso"Ir
aisedmyey
ebr
ow
Gi
rl
2;"
fol
l
owy ouonTwi
tt
ernI
nst
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ovey
our
wor
k"j
ackpot
!
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o:"j
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ll
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Girl
2:"cool"t
heystoodupwi ththeirchampagne
gl
assesIl edthewaybackt oourt ableOlwet
hu
grabbedext r
achai
rsweal lsatdownn
i
ntroducti
onswentar oundthetableIalready
hadmypi ckwit
hthebigeyesgi rlNombuso
eventhoughshehadn' tsai
dawor dtome
Nka: "
whatar ethegirl
sdri
nking"hedidt
his
ri
diculoust hi
ngt hatalway
smakegi rl
scrazyhe
ranhist onguer i
ngov erhi
slipIsawBusi
squirmingnextt ohi m hewinkedatherI
chuckledt hisfool
Busi
:"Moët
"Ir
oll
edmyey
est
ypi
cal
jhbgi
rl
s
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way
swant
ingt
hingst
heycan'
taf
for
d
Lungel
o:"
wanacomewithmeNombusosoI
cangety'
al
lsomet
hingt
odri
nk"
Nombuso: "ok"Ist oodupt ookherhandl ett
ing
herwalki nfrontofmesoIcangetv i
ewofher
asswhi chwashugenj i
ggli
ngi nherleggings
gi
rlsshouldunder standleggingsar enotpant s.
Wegott othebarIbought2bot t
lesnameat
pl
atterwewai tedf orawhil
eget ti
ngt oknow
eachothernott hatIwasi nterestedIjust
couldn'
twai ttoseeherasst werkingwhi l
eI'm
burri
edinherhi t
ti
ngi tfrom behindoural cohol
nfoodcamewewentbackt ot hetable.Ast he
ni
ghtwentbyIhadj ustcamebackf r
om the
dancefloorwi thNombusot hemov esshemade
gavemeat hrobbinghar donSi nof l
ashedi nmy
mindItookoutmyphonesentherat ext*imiss
whatwehad*Iputmyphonebacki nmypocket
bytheendoft henightwhichwasear l
ymor ning
Nombusowassi t
tingonmyl apIwasbusy
ni
bblingonherearwhi lewedr anknt alked
Ol
wet
hu:
"let
'
staket
hisbackt
otheapar
tment
"
Gugu:
"imi
n"
Lungel
o:"
whaty
ousaybaby
"Iki
ssedherneck
Nombuso:
"ohoki
fitcool
wit
hev
ery
one"
Lungelo:"l
et'
sgetoutofher e"weall f
ini
shed
thedri
nkswehadi nourglassesnl eftIwas
dri
vingmycarwhi leNkanyisohadhi sIrode
withSivenombusonAndywedr ovepasssome
tar
veni nHil
lbrowboughtalcoholwentt o
Olwethu'splacewedranklisteni
ngt omusicI
couldtellNombusowasget ti
ngdrunknIwasn't
abouttohav esexwithadr unkperson
Lungel
o:"
im headi
ngt
obed"
Si
ve:
"aahbr
usoear
ly"
Lungel
o:"
fool
ital
most06:
00i
mleav
ing"
Ol
wet
hu:
"shobr
u"
Lungel
o:"
Nombusobaby"Iof
fer
edhermyhand
shetooki
twel
eftwal
kingtomyapart
mentI
smashedmyl ipsonher sassoonasIl ocked
thedoorsher espondedIgr abbedherassl ift
ing
herupshewr appedherl egsar oundmywai st
wal kedust omybedr oom byt het imewegot
ther ehertopwasof fnherbr eastwasi nmy
mout hIthrewheront hebedt ookmyt shirtoff
whi lecrawlingt oherIl etmyhandswonderal l
ov erherbodywhi l
eIwasl i
cki ngnbi t
ingonher
neckshet ookof fherleggingsnbeganwor ki
ng
onmybel tIstoodupt ookmyshoesnj eansof f
nIl ookedatherl ookingl i
keaf ucknpor nstar
spr eadnakedonmybedIwentbackt oki ssing
herbodywhi l
emyhandpl ay edwi thherkush
shewassoaki ngwetwhenIgott ohernav elI
wentbackupIcoul dhearhergr oani npr otest
butIwasn' taboutt ogodownonagi rlIdidn't
knowIgotacondom ont hebedsi dedr awerput
i
tonshecr iedoutwhenIt hrust eddeepi nherI
regr et
tednotgoi ngingent lywhent earsfell
from herey esnIswor eitfeltlikeIj ustwent
throughabar rierbutshecoul dn' tbeImeanshe
di
dn'
tactl
i
keone
Lungel
o:"babyy ouok"Ipushedherhai rbackn
ki
ssedhersoftlynIst artedmov i
nggentl
yher
moanswer emuf f
ledbymyl i
psonhersshebit
mylipwhenmyspeedpi ckedupshescr eamed
mynamewewentonf orlongandwhenher
musclesti
ghtenedar oundmydi ckf
orthe3rd
ti
meIpoundedherf asternweexpl odedatthe
samet i
meIcol l
apsednextt oherngrabbedher
bodywesl ept
.
Aft
erwhatfel
tli
ketwohourssl
eepIwokeup
cozsomeonewasknockingIpul
ledbackthe
cover
snIthoughtmyeyeswereplayi
ngtr
icksI
wokeherupshemoanednopenedherey es
Nombuso:
"mor
ning"
Lungel
o:"
mor
ningbabycanIask"shesatup
Nombuso:
"what
'swr
ong"
Lungel
o:"
youuhm bleedi
ngareyouony
our
peri
odsorsomet
hing"shefl
ushed
Nombuso:
"sor
ryImessedupy
oursheet
s"
Lungel
o:"
itokso?
"
Nombuso:"
im notonmyper
iods"shel
ooked
downIhadanepiphany
Lungel
o:"
youwereav i
rgi
n?"ShenoddedIsat
upranmyhandthroughmyhai rpul
l
ingi
t"f
uck!
"
.
Iwokeupwi thnicol
enextt omeshewassti
ll
sleepi
ngIgotoffthebedt ookmyphonefr
om
thedeskswitcheditontextscamefl
oodi
ng
most l
yfr
om keenanIsteppedoutofmyroom n
call
edhim hepickedupont he2ndri
ng
Keenan:
"baby
"
Me:
"hi
"
Keenan:
"howar
eyou"
Me:
"fi
ne"
Keenan:
"im sor
ry"
Me:
"ok"
Keenan:
"youmadatme"
Me:
"no"
Keenan:
"Domi
nic"
Me:
"yes"
Keenan:
"Il
ovey
ou"
Me:
"ok"
Keenan:
"babypl
ease"
Me:
"pl
easewhat
"
Keenan:
"im sor
ry"
Me:
"ok"ni
col
ecal
l
edmyname
Keenan:
"canIseey
out
oday
"
Me: "Ihavetogonicol
eiscall
ingme"Idr opped
thecal lni
col
ecamet omewehadbr eakfastn
l
eftIt ookabathworeLungelo'stshi
rtIthought
aboutt hesmshesentim surehewasdr unkt he
onlytimehet al
ksaboutusiswhenhi sbeen
dri
nking.AnywayIgotabottleofwat ernj el
ly
babiessatonmybedandst udied.IguessIf ell
asl
eepcozIwokeupwhensomeonewas
ki
ssingmyfor
eheadIopenedmyey
esnsaw
keenanhov
eri
ngontopofme
Me:
"hi
"
Keenan:"
heybaby"hecol
l
ectedmybooksn
l
aptopputitont
hedesksIsatuphecameto
satnextt
ome
Keenan:"
Imissedy
ou"Inodded"
im sor
rybabyI
am sosorr
y"
Me:"
youj
ustwal
kedaway
"at
earf
all
from my
ey
ehewipedi
t
Keenan:
"shewaspi ssingmeoffIwouldhave
endeduphit
tingiherbabynitwouldhavebeen
amajordealnicolendadwouldfindoutabout
usandIknowy ounotreadyf
orthat"
Me:"soy
outhoughti
tbestt
ojustl
eav
emewi
th
herl
i
kethat
"
Keenan:
"Ishoul
dhav
ewal
kedawaywi
thy
oui
m
sorr
y"
Me:"y
oucan'
tprot
ectmethanwhenIwantt
o
f
ightf
ormysel
fyouprot
ecther
"
Keenan:"
babyI.
,"hel
ookedatmeallconf
used
"i
sthatwhatyouthi
nkDomini
cyouthinkIhel
d
youbackbecauseIwasprot
ecti
ngher"
Me:
"that
swhaty
oudi
d"
Keenan:"nobabyGodnot hat
'
snotitIj
ust
di
dn'twanty oustoopi
ngt
oherlev
elyoumy
womanmyl adybabynotsomewildchi
ckwho
get
si nt
of i
ghts"
Me:"
youhur
tmekeenan"hel
ookeddown
f
rowni
ng
Keenan:
"Iam sor
ryl
ove"
Me:"wasshet
ell
i
ngt
het
rut
hdoy
oual
way
srun
backtoher
"
Keenan:
"noIdon'tshe'
sjustcr
azy"Inoddedhe
ki
ssedmyforeheadncuppedmyf acemaking
melookathim"ndiyakut
handaSinovuyoDey
wenaqha"Igi
ggledhegav emeasl ow
passi
onatekissIpul
ledbackaf
terawhi
l
ewe
gotunderthecovercuddl
ed
Me:
"whot
aughty
out
hat
"hechuckl
ed
Keenan:
"Set
hui
ttheonl
ysent
enceIknow"
Me: "
Ilov
ey outookeenansmit
h"heki
ssedmy
foreheadIdr i
ft
edofftosl
eepwhil
ehewas
playingwithmyhairtel
li
ngmeabouthisl
it
tl
e
sisternmom whowant stosky
pewit
hme.
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08/
12,
21:
24]Wadz
:Inser
t29
.
IwokeupMondaymor ni
ngonKeenan' schest
hewasst i
l
lasleepIwasbey ondhor nyIstar
ted
pl
ayingwit
hhi sdickwhil
eki ssi nghisneckhe
moanednl i
ftedmeupput tingmeonhi m
makingmest raddlehi
m weki ssedunti
lwe
werebothnakedImov edupnsatdownsl owly
si
nkingi
ntohi sdi
ckhehel dmyboobs
massagingthem whilepinchi ngmyni pplesI
neededi
thardnf astIstartedmov ingont opof
himlikeamadper sonourmoansngr oans
cameouthar dandfastitwasn'teven2minut
es
whenIf el
thim abouttoshoothi sl
oadinmehe
mov edfasterwhil
eIwasshaki ngmyhead
tel
l
inghim notnowt ell
i
nghi mt oslowdownhis
bodyjerkedundermeIgotof fhim whenhewas
donecomi ng
Keenan:
"babyI.
..Thatwas.
..FuckIam sor
ry"
Me:"
itfi
ne"bul
lshi
titwasn'
tfi
neIwasn'teven
cl
osetoreachi
ngmyor gasi
m andhejust..
.
Keenan:"i
m sorr
yNi kkywecangoagainjust
gi
v emeaf ewmi nutesorletmemakey ou
comei notherways"Ijustl
ookedathi
m ngot
offthebed
Me:
"itf
inekeenanr
eal
l
y"hesatup
Keenan:
"il
ovey
ou"
Me:"
cool
"Iwenttotakeacoldshowerneedi
ng
t
ocoolof
fIdidn'
tevenst
aylongwhenhecame
i
nthebat
hroom Iwasdry
ingIfi
nisheddr
ying
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onedgotdr essedina
l
argeshorttshirtdressmyNi kerosher
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makeupbr ushedmyweav easIwast aki
ngmy
baghecameoutt hebat hr
oom wear i
ngjusthis
whiteboyl
egt hatmadehi mlooksogoodI
l
ookedathisdi ckf orawhilethi
nkingabouthow
somethingsol ongnt hickcouldjustdi
sappoint
mel i
kethatbef or
el ookingathisfacewhenI
gottohiseyeshewasst ari
ngatme
Me:
"iml
eav
ingI
'
llseey
oul
ater
"
Keenan:
"whataboutbr
eakf
ast
"
Me:"I
'l
lcat
chsomet
hingoncampusi
mrunni
ng
l
ate"
Keenan:"Ni
kky "Iwalkedouttheroom st
rai
ght
outoftheapar t
mentt omycarandl ef
tgoingto
campus.Igott ocampusgr abbedcoffeeatthe
caf
ewal kedoutt otheli
braryIst
il
lhadanhour
befor
emyf irstclassIspentitst
udyi
ng.ThenI
wenttolecturehallwehadJayf ir
stIwenttosi
t
i
nthef r
ontrowwi t
hTeedohnAmy
Me:"heybeaut
if
ulpeopl
e"theyl
ookedupn
smil
edIsatnexttoTeedohhegavemea
squeeze
Teedoh:
"howar
eyouboo"
Me:
"im cool
nyout
wo"
Amy
:"i
m good"
Teedoh:
"good"
Amy:"howyouf
eel
i
ngy
ouknowabout
Sat
urday"
Me:
"im ov
eri
t"
Teedoh:"
thatski
nnybi
tchwhatdi
dkeenanev
er
seeinher
"
Me: "
pussy"wel aughedwhenIl ookedupJay
wasst ar
ingatuswi thasmi leIsmil
edbackhe
winkedIchucklednl ookedwayIf i
guredther
e's
nopointinbeingangr yim notabit
terper
son
butI'
m keepi
ngmydi stance.
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ter3l
ect
ureswehada2f
reeper
iodsIwas
starvi
ngwewentt othecaf
eIboughtchi
cken
saladnl emoniceteawewenttoeatatt
he
quadt herewassomepromoti
ongoingonthere
theirhadDjSpeedstapl
ayi
ngLungel
on
Olwet huweret
herewewenttothem
Lungel
o:"
hey
"hepull
edmet
ohi
m hewas
si
tti
ngdownonastai
rs
Me:"
im hungr
yletmego"hewashol
dingmy
l
egs
Lungel
o:"
missedy
out
hisweekend"
Me:
"Inot
iced"hechuckl
ed
Lungelo:
"si
there"heopenedhisl
egsIsat
betweenthem onalowerstai
rsnstar
tedeat
ing
Lungel
o:"gi
vemesome"heputhi
sar
m ar
ound
myshoulder
Me:
"nahabr
ugogety
ourown"
Lungel
o:"
youwantmet
odi
eofhunger
"
Me:
"sobei
t"
Lungel
o: "
whowill
fat
heryourchi
l
d"Ilaughed
gotaforkful
ofsal
adngav ei
ttohim heki
ssed
mycheeknst ar
tedchewi
ng
Teedoh:"
youguyscanbereal
l
yannoy
ing"Ij
ust
chuckl
edcont
inuedeat
ing
Lungel
o:"
don'
tbej
eal
ousTeedohj
ustbecause
Sizwei
snother
e"
Teedoh:"
atleastsi
zweismyboy fr
iendandy
ou
whatareyou"theother
slaughed
Lungel
o:"
shutupneaty
ourf
ood"hewasal
i
ttl
e
i
rri
tat
ed
Me:"l
eav
emymanal oneTeedoh"It
urnedn
gav
ehim asof
tpeckonhisl
ipshesmiled
Lungel
o:"
yeahleavemealoneTeedoh"hegot
tomyearnstartedwhi
speri
ngthely
r i
csofSex
wit
hmebyRi hannatheDJwasplayingIjust
l
aughedshaki
ngmyhead
.
Nombuso.
..
..
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ycarvedi nwentoutwi t
h
myf ri
endsIl ostmyv irgi
nty,Ilostmymor al
s
thatmygr annyi nstal
ledinme.Iguesshi st he
typeofguyt hatmygr annyal way swar nedme
about , t
her i
chguywhoget swhathewant sn
j
ustmov eonwi thoutconsi deri
nghowot her
peopl ef eelbutwhatwasIt hinkingIknewhe
hadagi r
lfr
iendt hathiscrazyi nlov ewithI 'v
e
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meanwhywoul daguyl i
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om t hedeepv i
l
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get t
ingmyf ami lyoutoft hattwor oom house
we' velivedinsi nceIwasbor nnott obe
distractedbyr ichboy s.Buti thur t
ssobadhe
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ndingoutIwasav i
rginhe
actedwei rdt hewhol etimehepr eparedabat h
formeIgotl osti nmyt houghtwhi lebathing
thinkinghowsweetofhi m butaf terbat hinghe
toldmet ogetdr essedhet ookmebackt or es
afterbuy i
ngmeat akeawayhedr oppedmeof f
atreswi t
houtev enaski ngformynumber .Now
Ihavetowat chthem bei nghappyinfrontofme
Icouldnev ercompet ewi ththeli
kesof
Sinovuy
owet hecompl eteoppositethegirlhas
every
thingagi r
lwant sbesidesmat er
ialt
hings
shehashi shear tthey'v
ebeent ogethersince
highschool evenhav eadaught erhistone
alwayschangesnhi sey est wi
nklewhenev erhe
doesapoem aboutt hem
Busi
:"st
opst
ari
ngatt
hem Nombuso"
Nombuso:
"di
dn'
tmeant
oIj
ustgotl
osti
nmy
t
hought
s"
Gugu:
"youshoul
djustbehappyt
haty
ougot
somefrom hi
m"
Busi
:"bul
lshedeser
vesbet
terandi
tnothi
m"
Nombuso: "
Iwasjustf
ooli
ngmysel
fImeanwe
al
lknewhehasagf /babymamabutIst
il
lsl
ept
wi
thhim Ican'
tev
enbl ameal
cohol
Iwasn'
t
dr
unk"
Busi
:"Ist
il
lsayy
oushoul
dhav
escr
eamedr
ape"
Nombuso:
"don'
tbecr
azyIl
ovehi
m"t
hey
l
aughed
Gugu: "l
ookathisgfandlookaty ou"shehada
pointSinovuyowasallweavesnbr andname
cl
ot heswit
hmakeupdr i
vesanAudi whil
eI'
m
al
ltheMrpr i
cenJetstheonlybrandIhav ei
s
mywor noutall
star
sIalwayshav ebr ai
dson
becauseGugudoest hem forfr
ee
Nombuso:
"hest
il
lchoosemeov
ery
'al
l
"we
l
aughed
Busi:
"tr
ue"may beIshouldgivePatr
ickacall
aft
eralli
m notlongerav i
rgi
nmay begetti
nga
bl
esserwillmakemef i
tinali
ttl
e.Wesatatt he
qaudIwat chedt hem st
andingLungelostood
upfir
stnpul l
edherupt hei
rfr
iendsalsogotup
heheldherwai stkissedhercheeknt heyall
lef
t
goi
ngt othelibr
ar y.
.
Afteratt
endingIwentbacktotheapar tment
Keenan'scarwasparkednexttoSet hu'sI
parkedmycarnwentupIgoti nf oundt hem
wat chi
ngtvinthel
oungitwasalreadyl at
eI
greetedgavekeenanababykisswentupIput
mybagont hedesknthrewmy selfont hebed
l
ay i
ngonmyst omachKeenangotont opofme
Me:
"youheav
ybaby
"
Keenan:
"youst
il
lmadatme"
Me:
"no"
Keenan:"
Ireall
ydon'tknowwhathappenedbut
thatwi
ll
nev erhappenagai
nIpromiseyou"
Me:
"don'
tmakepr
omi
sesy
oucan'
tkeep"
Keenan:"
youknowIperf
orm wel
lal
ltheti
me
whenwehav esexIal
waysmakeitaboutyou
i
m sorryDomini
c"
Me:
"itokwedon'
tcont
rol
theset
hings"
Keenan:
"letmet
akey
ouout
"
Me:
"out
?"
Keenan:
"mov
iendi
nner
"
Me: "
okl etmef reshenupandchange"he
kissedmynecknmov edf rom meIwentt ot ake
aqui ckshowergotoutl oti
onedwor eboy fri
end
j
eanswi t
hal owcutv estsnabi kerjacketwor e
myal l star swelef twatchedamov iethenhad
dinnerandwentbackt ot heapar tmentwe
changedi ntoourpj sgotundert hecov ershe
pulledmecl osert ohi
m spooni ngheputhi s
handi nsi demypj bot
tom st artedpl ayi
ngwi t
h
mycl itwhi l
esucki ngnl i
ckingonmyneck
"mmht hatf eel
sni cebaby "Iopenedmyl egs
furthernwhenheputhi sfingeri nmeIst arted
mov i
ngheputhi s2ndoneIl etoutasof tmoan
"babyIl ov ey ou"hesai dwhi l
emov ingget ting
ont opofmehet ookmypj offalongwi thhi s
wentonki ssingmybody" babyIneedy oui nme
nowpl ease"hecamebackt omyl ipsIbi thi slip
ashesanki ntomest retchingmei tf el
t
absol utelyamazi ngwebeganmov i
ngt oget her
goingfastIcoul dfeelmyor gasi
m buildingupI
wasj ustont hevergewhenhi sbodyj erkedhe
groanedscreami ngmynameoutl oudashe
cameIj ustlaidthereunderhim angryn
confusedAFIf el
tlikecr
y i
nghegotof fmen
pull
edmet ohischestwr appinghisar ms
aroundnobodysai danythingforover5mi nutes
Keenan:
"baby
"
Me:
"don'
t"
Keenan:
"im sor
ry"
Me: "
goodni
ghtKeenan"hesighednkissedmy
head wer emainedsil
entunti
lIhear
dhi m
snori
ngsoft
lyIgotof
fthebedwentt othe
bathr
oom
Me: "whatthefuckwast hathejust,
..
,twi
ce.
..
.
Thef uck"Ithoughtoutl
oudIwaspaci ngupn
downt hebat hr
oom Iwashmyf acegobackt
o
thebedr oom putonmypj snsitonmydesk
l
ightthedeskl ightnst
artstudy
ingIgoonunti
lI
feelhishandsonmyshoul der
Keenan:
"comet
obed"
Me:
"st
il
lst
udy
ing"
Keenan:
"ital
most03:
00y
ouhav
etobeup
soon"
Me:
"I'
l
lbef
ineI
'
llgetcof
feei
nthemor
ning"
Keenan:"
Nikkybabyi
m sor
rybutpl
easecome
tobed"
Me:"ok"Imovefr
om t
hedeskwegetundert
he
cov
ernsl eep.
.
Ther estoft heweekwasj ustokIav oi
ded
havingsexwi thkeenanIjustdidn'twanttoset
my selfupdi sappoint
mentonSat urdaywehad
av i
ewi ngatsandt onhewant edt
obuyapl ace
wellky l
ewasbuy inghim aplacesowehadan
appoint mentwi t
har ealestateagent.Iwokeup
fi
rstwentt opreparebreakfasthecamedown
asIwasf inishi
ngSethuwasathomeal readyI
wasl eav i
ngonFr iday
Keenan:
"mor
ningl
over
"hehel
dmywai
st
ki
ssedmyneck
Me:
"sl
eptwel
ll
ove?
"
Keenan:
"yepny
ou"
Me:
"yepsi
tbr
eakf
asti
sal
mostdone"
Keenan:
"ok,
jui
ceorcof
fee"
Me:"j
uice"hepouredusj ui
ceIf
ini
shedupwe
satar
oundt hecountereati
ng
Keenan:
"soi
fIgett
hispl
acewi
l
lyoumov
ein
wit
hme"
Me:
"keenanweal
readyspokeaboutt
his"
Keenan:"pl
easei
fy ounotgoi
ngtomovei
nwi t
h
meImi ghtaswellstayathomensl
eepover
hereal
lthetimel
ikewe'vebeendoi
ngal
lthi
s
ti
me"
Me:"fi
neI'l
lmov
einwithyou"hej
umpedoffhi
s
chai
rpickedmeupspinni
ngusaroundwhi
le
sayi
ngthankyouIwasjustl
aughi
ngheputme
downwesharedal
ongslowki
ssIpul
l
edback
whenhi
shandswer
egoingtomyassIknewi
t
wil
ll
eadt
osex
Me:
"Il
ovey
ou"
Keenan:
"ar
eyouokayNi
kky
"
Me:
"yes,
Iam"hesi
ghs
Keenan:
"youseeIdon'
tthi
nkyouar
eNi
kky
, I
thi
nkyouavoi
dinghavi
ngsexwit
hme"myjaw
drops
Me:"
im sonot
"her
aiseshi
sey
ebr
ows"
why
woul
dI"
Keenan:"l
ovey out oo"heki ssedmyf orehead
wewentbackt oeat i
ng.Af terbreakfastweget
readyandleavef orsandt on.Thet ownhousei s
absolut
elyamazi ngdoubl est orywith4
bedrooms5bat hrooms, doubl egarage,
amazingroofpat io,outdoorpool nj
acuzzi,
openplankitchenndi ni
ngar ea, t
hemast er
bedroom ishugewi t
hanamazi ngviewanda
hugel oungewi thglasswal ls,itawal king
distancet oLungelo'splacehi snotr eallyhappy
aboutt hatbuthet akest hepl ace.Awhi lelat
er
i
m wi thhi m whenky lecall
ssay ingthesal e
wentt hroughnt hehousei sinhi snameand
thatnicolewi l
lgethim ani nteriordesignerhe
sayshi sthanksdr opsthecal l andpul lme
closert ohim wesi tonthecouchwat chi ngtv
whileeat i
ngpizzandr i
nkingwi neihav emy
chocol atecakenextt ome.
Thefollowingweeksmov esfasthispl aceis
al
mostdonei tfr
idayLungeloandIar edrivi
ng
downt oKznusi nghiscarkeenanki ssesme
goodby enput smeint hecarLungel odr i
veswe
arr
iveinDBNl ateIendupspendi ngt heni ghtas
hi
shouset hefoll
owingmor ni
ngIpackup
l
uvuyo'st hi
ngswhenIgetdownst airshehas
Luvuyoi nhishandsbusyswi ngi
ngar oundthe
l
oungesi ngingalongtoDiamondf tAka-Make
mesi ng,helooksatmewi t
hasmi lencome
cl
oserhol di
ngmyhandnst ar
tssingingt ome
Lungel
o:"
yout hequeenofmyki ngdom number
oneinamill
ionbouttimeIputar i
ngon"his
motherdi
sturbshi
m wi t
halaughter
L'
smom: "don'
tstopLuh"hej
ustl
aughsnwalk
awayshakinghi
sheadwi t
hhi
sdaughter"
y'
al
l
l
eavi
ngsoear l
y"
Me:
"Imi
ssmypar
ent
s"shegi
ggl
ed
L'
smom:
"okI
'
llmi
ssmybaby
"
Me:"wejust5minut
esawayI'
l
lbr
ingherby
wheneveryouwantmetoo"
L'
smom: "
okbaby
"shepat
tedmyshouldern
l
eftLungel
ocamedownwithanot
herbagwe
l
eft.
Theweekal sofl
ewbyFr idaymyparentsleftf
or
Swazil
andchurcht hi
ngsSethuhadalsogone
backtoJhbsoIwasgoi ngtospendFridayn
Satur
daynightatLungelo'shousewewoul dgo
backtojhbonSundaymor ning.Hef
etchedus
l
ateFridayweleftLuvuyowithhergr
andparents
andthenannywentoutmetupwi thsomeof
hi
sf r
iendsf
rom hi
ghschoolnthei
rgfswe
drankndanceduntil
ear
lyhoursofmorni
ngwe
gotbacktohishousenjustsl
ept.
.
Whenwewokeupi twasar oundmi ddayhi s
parentsleftwi thLuv uy oforthedayIt ooka
bathinhi sbat hroom whi lehedi dthesamei n
theguestbat hroom gotdonewor eshor tdr ess
wehadbr eakf astgrabbedsnackswentt o
watchmov i
esi nhisbedr oom.Asexscene
cameonIf eltmycl itdoingmov esLor dknows
howl ongi thadbeensi nceIlasthadan
orgasim Ipr essedmyt hi
ghst ogetherhopi ngto
fi
ndr el
ieffrom t heacheIwasf eeli
ngbet ween
myl egs.IlookedatLungel ohewasl ooki ngat
mehi slipswer emoi stsl
ightlypar
tedIwat ched
ashist onguesl owl ycameoutnher ani tata
l
eisurelypat hacr osshi sbot t
om li
pIf eltmy
heartpoundi ngoutofmychestashegotcl oser
tomehegr aspmyt highmyl egssl i
ghtlyopen
"i
m goi ngt oki ssy ouSi no"hi sli
psar ebr ushi ng
ov ermi neIl etoutabr eathnnodhehol dst he
backofmyneckashedeepenst hekisswhi l
e
pul l
i
ngmedownunt i
l i
m compl etelylaying
underhi m andhi sbetweenmyt highsnhi s
handsi si nmypant ypl ayingwi t
hmycl iti t
sendi ngel ecricshot sal l
ov ermybody" aaah"
that'sal lmymout hcanf or m whenhest ar ts
nibblingonmyneck" i
m goi ngtot akey our
dressnpant yof fSinoi sthatok"hedoesn' t
ev engi vemeachancet ot hinkabouti twhenhe
gent lyslideshi stwof inger sinmeInodnmoan
i
npr otestwhi chget sachuckl eoutofhi m when
her emov eshi sf i
ngersoutt otakemypant yoff
nmydr essnbr af ol
lowsandi m compl et ely
nakedunderLungel ohel ooksatmeal lov ermy
bodysmi li
ngheshi ft
sgoi ngdownnst arts
kissingmef rom myf eetlickingnsucki ngon
myt attoowi that winklei nhi sey esashest ares
upatmehemakehi swayupal lt hewayt omy
i
nnert highki ssi ngmeIcr youtwhenhi st ongue
fli
cksov ermycl it"Lungel opl
ease"hef li
ckshis
tongueacoupl eoft i
mebef orehest arts
sucki ngoni twhi lehisf i
ngersar emov inginme
i
nasweett ortur ousr yt
hm whenhesof tl
ybi t
es
mycl i
twhi l
eshov i
nghi sfi
ngersdeepIexpl ode
hekeepsongoi ngunt i
lmyor gasi m stop
spiralingoutofmehecomesbackt omyf acen
kissesmehar dnr oughlyIpraticallytorehi s
tshirtof fnpushhi ssweat pantsdownheuses
hisfeett aki
ngt hem of fhepushedmyhai rout
ofmyf acewel ookedateachot her"honeyy ou
sure"Inodded" yespl easeLungel oIneedy ou"
hegent l
ysanki nmeIcr i
edoutwr appedmy
l
egsar oundhiswai stpushinghi mt ogodeeper
untilhisal linandIar chmybackhel ookedat
me" Ilov eyouSi no"Ihel dmyheadki ssinghim
hest ar tedmov ingsl owlyasifwehav inglazy
sexbutwi thev er ythrustunti
lIcomeandi t
feelsamazi nghegotof fhefli
ppedmeov erI
positionedmy sel findoggyhesl ammedi nto
hardIcr iedoutmybodymov edf orwar dhehel d
mywai stbri
ngingmebackhewentwi l
dwhi leI
wast werki
ngonhi sdi ckwi t
heveryspankand
hardslam Ifel
tmy selflosingcont
rolofmy
bodyhegr abbedmyweav ehardpulli
ngitback
makingmyassgohi gheritdidntt
akelongI
reachedanul t
imateclimaxIdi dn'
tevenf eel
him comingIwast ool ostinthemomentt he
nextthingIfel
twashi sf i
ngersmov i
ngal lover
mykushspr eadingourj uicesaswewer e
breathi
ngheav i
lyl
ayingnextt oeachot her
Lungel
o:"
Sino"
Me:
"Idon'
tregr
eti
t"
Lungel
o:"good"hepul
ledmet
osleepontopof
hi
m withhisfi
ngersi
nmeIdri
ft
edofftosl
eep.
.
(I
m notcomingupwithexcusesbutpleasebare
withmeuntili
m donewit
hmyexamsi nJune.
I'
l
lpostwhenIcansomepost swil
lbeshor tbut
assoonasim donewithexamsthingswi l
lgo
backtonormal)
[
08/
12,
21:
24]Wadz
:Inser
t30
.
IwokeupwhenIfel
tsomethi
ngmoveinmeI
l
etoutasoftmoannopenedmyeyesLungel
o
waslooki
ngatmewithasmuggri
n
Me:"hi
"hemov
edhisfi
nger
sinmeagai
nI
openedmymouthbi
ti
ngmylip
Lungel
o:"
hey
"hemov
edhi
sfi
nger
sagai
nIhel
d
hi
sarm
Me:
"st
op"
Lungel
o:"
why"hemov
edhisfi
nger
sfast
er
goingi
nnoutandi
ncir
cles
Me:"Lungelo!!
"Hechuckl
ednf l
ippedusov er
gett
ingont opofmehepi nnedmyhandsabov e
myheadnsl ammedintomehar d,hewasst i
l
l
poundingmehar dwewer ebothscreamingn
moani ngreal
lyl
oudl
ywhensomeonest art
ing
bangingthedoorhardLungelostoppedmov i
ng
L'
smom:
"noti
nmyhouseLungel
odl
ami
ni!
!
Tshitheseki
dsIhopey '
all
usedacondom
Luvuyoistooyoung"Lungelomovedagai
nI
gavehim adeadstarehechuckl
edngotoffme
Icoveredmywhol ebodywithacoverngr
oaned
Me:"ohGodt
hiscan'
tbehappeni
ng"hej
ust
l
aughed
Lungel
o:"
itnotabi
gdeal
"
Me:"notabi
gdeal
arey
oucr
azy
"hepul
l
edt
he
cov
erofmyhead
Lungel
o:"
itr
eal
l
ynotabi
gdeal
itnotl
i
ket
hey
don'
tknowhowbabi
esar
emade"
Me:
"Lungel
oohGodt
akemehome"
Lungel
o:"
comel et
'sgobat
handgodownstai
rs
cozifwestayt
heygonnathi
nkwecont
inui
ng"
Me:
"noy
ougoI
'
llst
ayher
e"hechuckl
ed
Lungel
o:"
comeon"wewentt otakeaquick
showergotdr
essedwentdownstai
rshis
parent
swerei
ntheloungewit
hLuv uy
o
watchi
ngtvwegreet
ednsatdowni nawkward
si
l
ence
L'smom: "gowashy ourhandssowecan
prepar
edi nnerSino"Lungelonhisfather
l
aughedIl ookeddownwentt othekit
chenshe
foll
owedmeIwashedmyhandswhi l
eshetook
outtheingredientsyohthelookshegav eI
wishedthegr oundwoul dswall
owemeup
Me:"Iam sor
rymahwedidn'
tmeant
obe
di
srespect
ful
"shesi
ghed
L'
smom: "i
tokImeanIknowy outwoar ei
na
sexualrel
ati
onshi
plunderstandreal
lybutcome
onitjustaweekthany'
allgoingbacktojozi
wherey '
al
lcanhavesexinev er
ypartofhis
apart
ment "
Me:
"oh"
L'
smom:"IknowLungeloisalit
tl
eadvent
urous
buty
ouhavetoholdhim downlear
ntosayno
tohi
m"asifshecantel
lhim no
Me:
"Iheary
ou"
L'
smom; "sel
fcontr
olbabyandIhopey
ouona
pi
l
lbecauseLuvuyoissti
ll
ababyandyout
wo
ar
ejustst
udents"
Me:
"Iknow"
L'
smom: "Ihavetobeav oi
ceofreasoninthi
s
housebecausehisfatherseesnothi
ngwrongin
whatyoutwodidhej ustsaidIshoul
dletthe
ki
dshavefun"Ilookedawayt ryi
ngtosti
fl
emy
chuckl
e
Me:
"onceagai
nIam sor
ry"
L'smom: "i
tokjustmakesur eitdoesn'thappen
again"Inoddedwecont i
nuedcooki ngwhenwe
weredonewehaddi nner.AfterdinnerLungelo
andIdi dthedishesafterthatwewat chedtv
thanwentt obedwi thLuv uyo.Thef ol
lowing
daywewokeupwentt ochur chIdon'tknow
whent hesepeoplewer egoi ngtogetov ert
he
factthatLungelowasl uvuyo'sdadt heykept
stari
ngatusnwhi speri
ngaf terchurchwewent
tohav elunchwentbackt ohi shome.We
changedki ssedourdaught ergoodby esandi t
wasbackt ojhbbackt or eali
tyofkeenan
Lungel odr oppedmeof fatmyapar tmentand
wentt ohi saf t
erhebeggedmet osleepov er
andIdi dn'tallowhi m.Iwentupt omyr oom
tookabat hputonKeenan' stshir
tnIst aredat
ther oofthinkingwhathav eIgot t
enmy selfIl et
mysexual desir
egett hebet t
erof fmeIshoul d
hav ekeptmyl egscl osedsowhati fkeenani s
goingt hroughsomet hi ngsIshoul dhav ebeen
pateinceunt ilhewor ksonhi msel fbecausehi s
clearlygoingt hroughsomeshi t.Ifoundmy self
cryingitseemsl ikebei ngf ai
thfulissomet hi ngI
can'tdomay beIam j ustl i
kemyf atheraf teral l
i
m ar esultofinfidel
ity.Im goingt ohur tLungel o
agai nandt histimei mr eal
lygoingt ol osehi m.
.
IwokeupMondaymor ni
ngwithabangi
ng
headachemyeyeswereheavyIwentt
ot he
bathr
oom towashmyfacemyey eswerepuff
y
fr
om cryi
ngIwashedmyfaceri
nsedmymout h
wentt othekitchenmademy selfabowl ofcoco
popsaf tereati
ngIt ookagl assofwatert omy
room tooksomepi l
l
swentbackt obed.I
basicall
yspentt hewhol edayi nbedIdidn't
answerLungel o'scallsorreplytohist
extIj ust
hadnocl ueast owhatt osay,Igotoutofbed
tookashowerwor emypj swentdownst air
sI
madeasandwi chnhotchocol at
ewentt o
watcht vafteraboutanhourkeenangoti nwith
Sethutheywer el aughingatsomet hi
ng
Me:
"ai
n'
ty'
al
lj
ustt
oof
ri
endl
y"t
heychuckl
ed
Keenan:"heylov
er"hehel
dmychingavemea
shortwetkissbefor
epull
i
ngbackandsit
ti
ng
nexttome
Set
hu:
"heysi
showwashome"
Me:
"justgood"shewentupst
air
s
Keenan:"
Imissedy
ousobadbaby
"Ismi
l
edn
gotontopofhim
Me:
"howbad"hechuckl
edputhi
shandbehi
nd
mebr
ingi
ngmecl
oser
Keenan:"
real
l
ybadl over
"hebitmyearnI
gi
ggledwekissedIcouldfeelhi
m gett
inghar
d
wit
hev er
ypassingminuteIpull
edback
Keenan:
"st
il
ldon'
twanahav
esexwi
thme"Igot
offhi
m
Me:
"whosai
danyt
hingaboutmenotwant
ing
t
ohavesexwi
thy
oukeenan"
Keenan:
"comeonbabyy
ou'
vebeenl
i
ket
hisf
or
over3weeksnow"
Me:
"keenani
sourr
elat
ionshi
pbasedonsex"
Keenan:
"noof
cosnot
"
Me;
"okt
hen"
Keenan:
"oh"
Me:
"soi
sthehousecompl
ete"
Keenan:
"yesact
ual
l
ythoughtwewoul
dmov
ein
today
"
Me:
"tomor
row,
imt
ir
ed"
Keenan:"
okbabytomorrowaf
terwork"he
pul
ledmecloserandki
ssedmyf or
eheadwe
watchedtvwhi
lecuddl
i
ng.
.
Lungel
o..
..
Iminmyapar tmentwi thOl wethuSiveand
Nkany isowehav i
ngpi zzanbeerwhi l
ewat ching
amat chwehav i
ngournor mal shi
tty
conv ersat
ionbutIcan' tgetSinooutofmymi nd
thatgi r
lhasmet wistedshehasn' tanswer ed
anyofmycal l
snt extt hewhol edayshewasn' t
oncampusev en.Idon' tknowhowmanyt imesI
changedmymi ndaboutgoi ngt oherapartment
Idecidedsheneedst imet othinkthi
ngsov er
thi
si sallthatbloodyi diotKeenan'sfaul
tifhe
wasn' tinthepictureSi noandIwoul dbehappy
together.IknowI 'm pat het
icmyf ri
endsev en
Nkany isothinkssobutIcan' tgetoverhert hi
s
i
ssi noI '
velovedhersi ncegr ade9
Nka:
"dude!
"Hehi
tst
hebackofmyhead
Lungel
o:"
thef
uckPr
ince"t
heot
her
slaughed
Nka:"
don'tcal
lmethatandwe'
vebeent
alki
ng
t
oy oubutyouzonedout"
Lungel
o:"
eishsor
rybr
asowhat
'
sup"
Si
ve:
"heneedspussysohecan'
tst
opdr
aki
ng"
Olwethu:
"hi
sact
ingl
i
kehi
sAdel
enDr
ake'
s
chil
d"
Lungel
o:"
fuckof
ffool
"
Nka:
"cal
lSamkeov
er"
Lungel
o:"nahshe'
sst
art
ingt
ocat
chf
eel
i
ngsi
m
notaboutthatl
i
fe"
Olwet
hu:"
whathappenedt
othosegi
rl
swemet
atKongGugunhercrew"
Nka:"
nonono!Idon'
twantt
hosegi
rl
snearme"
welaughed
Lungel
o:"
whatBusi
didn'
tl
ety
out
api
t"he
chuckl
ed
Nka:
"youknowmeInev
ermi
sswheni
tcomes
t
opussy
"
Si
ve:
"sowhat'
swrongwi
ththem"Nkany
iso
madeafunnyf
aceandshi
vvered
Nka:"
herf
eetst
inkbr
ali
kesobad"weal
l
cr
ackedup
Lungel
o:"
whatt
hef
uck"
Nka:
"ser
iousl
ydudeIhadahardt
imeget
ti
ng
aner
ecti
onIhadtoopenal
lthewi
ndows"
Si
ve:
"youl
yi
ng"Si
vewasi
ntear
s
Nka:
"IswearSi
veneveragai
nworsepartshe
wasweari
ngthoseopentoeheel
sbra"
Lungel
o:"
Nombusowasavir
gin"Ibl
urt
edout
theyal
lst
aredatmei
ndi
sbel
ief
Ol
wet
hu:
"noway
s"
Lungelo:"Iswearf
ucknbar
ri
ernbl
oodal
lthat
fucker
y "
Nka:
"fuckt
hosear
erar
etof
indar
oundher
e"
Ol
wet
hu:
"I'
veseenherar
oundcampus"
Lungel
o:"
hhui
sthatso"
Ol
wet
hu:
"yep"
Lungel
o:"
shoul
dhavegot
tenhernumbercan'
t
y'
all
askoneofherf
ri
endsforherdi
git
s"
Nka:
"Ial
sodi
dn'
ttakei
t"
Si
ve:
"met
oo"
Ol
wet
hu:
"met
hree"weshar
edachuckl
ed
Lungel
o:"
youguy
sar
eev
il
"
Ol
wet
hu:
"besi
desNombusoi
snoty
ourt
ype"
Lungel
o:"
youknowmyt
ypenow"
Sive:
"ever
ygir
ly ou'
vebeenwithsinceyou
brokeupwithSinokindalooksl
ikeherandhas
herstyl
e"
Lungel
o:"
shutupt
hatdon'
tmeanshi
t"
Si
ve:"
herpussymustbemadeoutofgol
d"t
hey
l
aughed
Lungel
o:"
shutupSi
ve"
Siv
e:"nor
eal
lyherpussycan'
tbenor
mal
for
youtobehunguponherl i
kethi
s"
Lungel
o:"
fuckof
fSi
ve"Ir
oar
edt
heot
her
s
l
ookedatus
Siv
e: "
tel
lmeNkany i
sosinceyou'
vehaditisi
t
madeofgol dor..
"Hedidn'tev
enfi
nishhis
sentencemyf i
stmethi
sj awinahardbl
owhe
fel
loverthecouchNkanyisonOlwet
huheldme
back
Lungelo:"
youdon'tgettotal
kaboutherl
i
ke
thatareweclear"Ir
oaredIcoul
dfeelmybody
heati
ngupwi thangerIfel
tli
kepunchi
nghis
facerepeat
edly
Si
ve:"y
eahbr
ageesesor
ry"hewentt
othe
bat
hroom
Lungelo:"
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dweal lsatdown
i
nsi l
enceuntil
Sivecamebackfrom t
he
bathroom l
aughingwhi
lehol
dinghi
sjaw
Si
ve:
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oyoual
mostdi
slocat
edmy
j
aws"wel aughedandcar
ri
edonl
i
kenot
hing
happened
.
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sarmsIki
ssedhi
s
cheeksnheopenedhiseyes
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ningl
over
"Ismi
l
lednsnuggl
ed
cl
oser
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ningbaby
,sl
eptwel
l
"
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ou"
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dIlet
'sgetupwehav
eal
ongday
aheadofus"
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gotdressedhewentt ostartofbr eakfastwhil
eI
madet hebedcleanedupal i
ttl
einmyr oom we
hadbreakfastnlef
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campusmetupwi thTeedohnAmywe
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odsi nthelibr
ary
unti
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weboughtourf oodnwentt ositdown
Teedoh:
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eyousur
eaboutt
hisbbe"
Me:"
yeahwepr
act
ical
l
yleav
ingt
oget
herasi
t
i
s"
Amy
:"aunt
yNi
col
eisgoi
ngt
ofr
eak"
Me:
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l
lgetov
eri
t"
Amy :"
hav
ey'
al
ltol
dhert
haty
out
woar
e
toget
hernmovi
ngint
oget
her
"
Me:
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ness"
Teedoh:"Si
nobbeIlov
eyoubutnowy ouj
ust
cr
azybeingwithsomeoneandshacki
ngupisa
bi
tdiff
erent
"
Me:"Il
ovey
out
oobuty
ounott
alki
ngmeoutof
t
his"
Teedoh:
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easttel
lyourmot
hernhi
sdadt
hat
youtwoaret
ogetherbefor
ey'
all
movein
toget
her
"
Me:
"Teedoh"
Amy
:"hi
sri
ght
"
Teedoh:"
youjustst
art
eddat
ingl
i
kei
nFebr
uar
y
i
tonlyApri
lbbegivei
tti
me"
Me:"l
et'
smov
eonf
rom t
hisbef
oreIget
i
rr
it
ated"
Amy
:"ok"
Teedoh:"
bul
lweain'
tmov i
ngonfrom shi
tyou
aregoi
ngoutofy
oul anehereSi
no"
Me:
"itmychoi
ce"
Teedoh:
"wr
ongchoi
ce"
Me:
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ease"
Amy
:"t
her
e'sl
ungel
onOl
wet
hu"
Me:"
hushaboutt
hispl
ease"Teedohr
oll
edhi
s
ey
es
Olwethu:"
hell
omypeopl
e"t
heysatdown
Lungelosatnextt
omeweallexchanged
greet
ings
Lungel
o:"
youbeeni
gnor
ingme"hewi sphered
whil
eOlwethunAmywereteasi
ngeachot her
Teedohwasl
aughi
ng
Me:
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ryi
twasn'
tmyi
ntent
ioni
wasj
ustt
ir
ed"
Lungel
o:"t
oot
ir
edt
opi
ckupy
ourphonecome
onSino"
Me:
"Lungel
opl
easenotnow"
Lungel
o:"when"Itur
nedtolookathi
m ourey
es
wonderedaroundourfacesasifi
nsear
chI
pushedhisdreadsback
Me:
"Idon'
tknow"hesi
ghednki
ssedyf
orehead
Lungel
o:"
don'
tpl
aywi
thme"Ihel
dcheekhe
l
eanedinonmyhand
Me:"don'
tthi
nktoomucht akaLuvuyo"he
smil
ednshookhi sheadwej oi
nedtheconvo
theother
swer ehav
ing,
therewasthisgir
lwho
keptonstari
ngatusmostlyLungel
o
Me: "
whoi
sthat"Ipoi
ntedwit
hmyheadt heyal
l
tur
nedtol
ookatherOlwethunLungel
olooked
ateachot
herbefor
elooki
ngbackather
Lungel
o:"
Idon'
tknow"
Teedoh:"
shel
ooksl
i
keoneoft
hose1sty
ear
st
udents"
Me; "
mmh"Ol wethustoodupwenttoherhe
pul
ledherasidentookouthisphonel
ooked
l
ikehewast aki
nghernumberncamebackt o
uswealllookedathim
Ol
wet
hu:
"whatshe'
sbeaut
if
ul"
Amy
:"y
ousuchamanwhor
e"
Olwethu:
"youdon'
twantmewhatam I
supposedtodo"
Teedoh:"
ify
our eal
l
ywant
edAmyy
ouwoul
dn'
t
goaroundsnif
fi
ng"
Amy:"seeTeedohhisnotser
iousatal
l
"she
pout
edwel aughed
Olwet
hu:"
comeonbabygi
rli
m noti
ntohery
ou
knowIdon'
tl
ikey
ell
owbones"
Amy
:"i
m notdar
kduf
fs"
Ol
wet
hu:
"youar
etheonl
yexcept
ion"
Me:
"ncooh"
Ol
wet
hu:
"shutup"
Teedoh:
"whoset
hegi
rl
"
Ol
wet
hu:
"Nombuso"
Me:
"she'
ski
ndacut
e"
Teedoh:"
nextcl
assin10minut
eslet
'sgo"we
al
lstoodupnleftt
hecafel
aughi
ngat
somethi
ngOlwethusai
d.
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apartmentIst
artedpacki ngIwasn'
ttaki
ng
ever
y t
hingj
usttwosui tcasesnmyschool
thi
ngshecamebackl at eandwelefthewas
dri
vi
ngbehindmewhenwegott her
ehecarri
ed
myt hi
ngshedroppedt hem byt
hedoorn
scoopedmeupbr i
dal styl
e
Me:"
babyletgo"Igi
ggl
edheunl
ockedt
hedoor
ki
cki
ngitopen
Keenan:"
car
ryi
ngyouinmylove"Igi
ggl
edn
wrappedmyhandsaroundhi
sneck
Me:
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ovey
ou"
Keenan:"
loveyout
oo"hecarri
edaroundthe
houseshowingmeev er
ythi
ngitwasabsolut
ely
amazingnicol
eout
didhersel
f
Keenan:"
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ngthebestf
orlast"Igi
ggl
edcozI
knewwhathemeanthekickedt hedooropen
hewalkedinandthr
ewmeont hebedwhich
washuge
Me:
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tbeaut
if
ul"
Keenan:
"youbeaut
if
ul"
Me:
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ou"hewasl
ayi
ngnextt
ome
Keenan:
"Il
ovey
ousomuchNi
kky
"
Me:
"Il
ovey
ouj
ustasmuchl
over
"
Keenan:
"wegonnabehappyher
e"
Me: "
yep..
.Im ki
ndastarv
ingri
ghtnow"he
chuckledntookhisphoneorder
edpizza
Keenan:
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l
lgobuygr
ocer
iest
omor
rowaf
ter
work"
Me:"
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osert
omest
art
edni
bbl
i
ngon
myneck
Keenan: "
wehavet
hiswhol
ehousetooursel
ves
can'twaitt
ost
artmarki
ngever
yspace"I
giggled
Me:
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oo"
Keenan:
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artt
hebet
ter
"
Me:"
letmebathfi
rstnIdon'
tfeel
sowellIf
eel
l
ikeI
'
m gonnagetmyperiodssoon"hesi
ghed
Keenan: "
Dominicdon'
tholdwhathappened
beforeonmei tnotfai
ritact
ual
l
yhurtful
andit
real
lybrui
singmyego"
Me:
"that
'snotmyi
ntent
ionbaby
"
Keenan:
"goongobat
hI'
l
lwai
tforpi
zza"
Me:
"ok"Iwentt
opr
epar
eabat
h
Keenan:
"Igoty
ourbagsup"
Me: "
thankyou"hewal kedoutIt ookabat hgot
outwor ehi
stshir
tIunpackedmyt hingswent
downstair
stohim pizzahadar ri
v edweat e
whil
ewat chi
ngtvbef oregoingtosl eepthings
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t
wasn'tj
ustabouthim ejaculat
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acondom.Wef el
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ovey
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ovey
out
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kky
"
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ewest
il
ldoi
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ocer
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row"
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'
llseey
ouathome"
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ustcol
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nic"
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rykeenan"
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eal
l
y"
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ovey
ou"
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IknowbabyIl oveyoutoo"Idropped
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uststart
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l
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eduntiltearsstoppedcomingoutI
pull
edoutofhi sarms
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o:"
what
'swr
ong"
Me:
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hing"
Lungel
o:"
youf
ight
ingwi
thkeenan"
Me;
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twanat
alkabouti
t"
Lungel
o:"
honey
"
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opl ease"Iopenedt
hebackdoor
gotmybagl ockedt hecarnwal
kedawaylef
t
hi
m standi
ngt here.
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mef l
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veIwentpasst he
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i
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iedfal
li
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coul
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ououtsol
ateormor
eli
keear
ly
mor
ning"
Keenan:"
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ouasl
eep"hecamecl
osern
spooned
Me:
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Keenan:"
im sor
rybaby
"heki
ssedmyneck"
I
l
ovey ou"
Me:
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eyout
oo"
Keenan:"
mmh"hest
art
edsnor
ingsof
tl
yIwent
backtosl
eep.
.
Ti
mef
lewbyt
hingswer
est
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lki
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rd
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yingtohav e
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againstt hewal l
kissedmel i
keapossedman
het oremydr essof fIcoul dn'tbelieveitI
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hhi s
l
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hel i
ftedmeof fIhadmyl egsov erhisshoul der
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allov erhisfaceheputmebackdownt urned
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iedmet othebedr oom nwe
cuddl edt osleepal lIcansayi smymangothi s
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MidrandIremai
nedbehi ndIwaswat chingtv
whenLungelocalledIhadbeenignoringhim
si
ncet hatmor
ningIwasev enspendingmyf ree
peri
odsi nt
heli
braryatmycorner,Ianswered
Me:
"hel
l
o"
Lungel
o:"
wel
latl
eastIknowy
oual
i
ve"
Me:
"hi
Lungel
o"
Lungel
o:"
buzzmeupi
m aty
ourpl
ace"
Me:
"im nott
her
e"
Lungel
o:"
wher
ear
eyou"
Me:
"I'
l
ltexty
ou"
Lungelo:"
cool"Idr
oppedthecallsenthi
mt he
addressafterawhi
lehecall
edIopent hegate
forhim wenttounlockt
hefrontdoorhe
knockedncamei n
Lungel
o:"
nicepl
ace"
Me:
"itKeenan'
s"
Lungel
o:"
itl
i
kea10mi
nut
eswal
ktomypl
ace"I
chuckl
ed
Me:
"Iknowr
ight
"
Lungel
o:"
soyouher
efort
heweekend"he
l
ookedaround"
wher
eisheany
way "wewentt
o
si
tdown
Me:
"hi
sinmi
drand"
Lungel
o:"
Idon'
tfeel
comfort
abl
eher
ecanwe
gotoyourpl
aceormyplace"
Me:"Iki
ndamov
edi
nwi
thhi
m"hechuckl
edi
n
di
sbeli
ef
Lungel
o:"
youki
ddingme!"Il
ookeddown"
Sino
areyoucr
azyorj
ustpl
ainstupi
d"
Me:
"hey
!"
Lungel
o:"
youmov
ingonar
eal
l
yfastpace"
Me:
"noi
m not
"
Lungel
o:"
thi
sissowr
ongSi
no"
Me:
"itf
eel
sri
ght
"
Lungel
o:"
whataboutme"
Me:
"I.
..
.I.
..Lungel
o"
Lungel
o:"nowtel
lmey ou'
vebeenavoi
dingme
Sinosotell
meaf t
erwhathappenedathome
wheredoesy oumovi
nginwiththi
sguyleav
e
me"
Me:"Idon'
tregr
etwhathappenedbet
weenus
Lungel
obutI'm wi
thkeenan"
Lungel
o:"
sowhatIwasami
stake"
Me:
"noof
cosnott
hat
'snotwhati
m say
ing"
Lungelo:
"soyouj
ustcheatedonhim ar
eyou
pl
anningtotel
lhi
m aboutwhathappened"
Me:
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her
e'snoneed"
Lungel
o:"
Ilov
eyouSi
nopl
easedon'
tdot
his"
Me:
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o"
Lungel
o:"
what
"
Me:"j
ustmoveonfocusonSamkeorwhoever
youchi
ll
ingwi
thatt
hemoment"helooked
downshaki
nghi
shead
Lungel
o:"
youj
ustdon'
tgeti
t"
Me:
"getwhat
"
Lungelo:"
ifitain'
tyouitnotworthitnomatter
whatIdonot hi
ngiswor ki
nghoneyIknowl ove
i
snotper fectitdon'tmatt
erbabycozIchoose
you"hewi pedhi st
ears"nothi
ngiswor ki
ngcozI
keepcompar i
ngev ery
onetoyou,inthi
sgame
oflovethere'
snor ulesandIwanty ouSinowe
canmaket hi
swor kourwayIl ov
ey ou
Sinov
uy o"
Me:
"Lungel
oi.
..I
m sosor
ry"henodded
Lungel
o:"
youkeephur
ti
ngmehi
snotmeSi
no
howcanyoulovehi
m"
Me:"
Ilovehi
m andIwanamakeuswor
kbe
committ
edtohim"
Lungel
o:"
youcannev
erbef
ait
hful
"
Me:
"that
'shur
tful
"
Lungel
o:"y
oudon'
tknowwhatl
ovei
s"he
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ti
ngmeupnt he
scentt
oldmei tkeenan
Me;
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Keenan:"gobacktosleepi
mt aki
ngyoutobed"
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ednsnuggl edcl
oserwhenheputme
underthecoverIhel
donhistshir
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ed
Me:
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eepwi
thme"Ihear
dhi
m ki
cki
ngofhi
s
sneaker
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s
armsaroundmeputti
ngourthighbet
ween
eachother
Keenan:
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dyoudot
oday
"
Me:
"not
hingl
overj
ustwat
chedt
v"
Keenan:
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ying"
Me:
"sadmov
ie"hechuckl
ed
Keenan:
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tknowwhyy
oul
i
ket
hesemov
ie
l
ove"
Me:
"theyni
ce"
Keenan:
"Idon'
tl
ikeseei
ngy
ousad"Igi
ggl
ed
Me:
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tl
ikeseei
ngmy
sel
fsadaswel
l
"
Keenan:
"youneedt
ovisi
thomeNi
col
ewas
tal
ki
ngaboutyouwi
thdad"
Me:
"I'
l
lgot
hisweekend"
Keenan:
"youwon'
tbel
i
evewhatIwal
kedi
ntoat
home"
Me:
"what
"
Keenan:
"guess"
Me:
"keenant
ell
me"hechuckl
ed
Keenan:
"comeonmyl
ove"
Me:
"baby
!"Hechuckl
ednki
ssedmyhead
Keenan:
"Kel
vi
nbangi
ngt
hehel
loutofAmberi
n
hi
sroom"
Me:
"eeeewuGod"hel
aughed
Keenan:
"whatyouthoughty
out
heonl
yone
whoisgett
ingherf
reakon"
Me:
"aahakeenanhi
sjustababy
"
Keenan:"
ababythat
'sgotmov
eshewashi
tt
ing
i
tfrom t
heback"
Me:
"keenanno!
"Hel
aughed
Keenan:
"comeonhi
sol
denough"
Me: "
whendi
dyoul
osey
ourv
irgi
nit
y"he
chuckled
Keenan:"
youdon'
twanttoknowthat"Igotout
ofhi
sholdandlai
dont opofhi
m wit
hmyhands
onhischestnIr
estedonthem
Me:
"tel
lme"
Keenan:
"yousur
eyouwanaknow"
Me:
"yep"hesi
ghed
Keenan:
"whenIwas9"
Me:
"thef
uck!
"Hechuckl
ed
Keenan:
"what
"
Me: "
youwerej
ustababyi
npri
mar yJesus
keenan,wi
thwhoandhow"hegroaned
Keenan:
"mybabysi
tt
er.
."
Me:
"eeeewu"Icuthi
m of
f
Keenan:
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otel
lyout
hest
oryornot
"
Me:
"okgoon"
Keenan:
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ttersi
nceI
was7beencrushi
ngonhersi
ncethefir
stdayI
metherthi
soneni
ghtmom ndadwer
eoutf
or
di
nnershewasbabysi
tt
ingof
cos"
Me:
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cos"Ir
oll
myey
es
Keenan:"
myhor moneswereall
ov ert
heplace
shewasl ooki
ngextrahott
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deni
m skirtnthosevest
sthatshowst hebel
ly
butt
on..
"
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ebeenspeci
aly
ouev en
rememberwhatshewaswear
ing"Icuthi
m of
f
agai
n
Keenan:
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l
lst
opt
ell
i
ngy
oul
over
"
Me:
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rygoon"
Keenan:
"let
'sj
ustsayIwor
shi
pAmer
icanPi
e"
Me:
"hhu?
"
Keenan: "
wewerewatchi
ngi
tIwashar
dshe
washor nywhenshesawmyhardonshemade
thefi
rstmove"
Me:
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dwasshe"hel
aughed
Keenan:
"17"
Me:
"shi
t!Shewasal
mostt
wot
imesy
ourage"
Keenan:"t
hatwast hegr
eatpar
tshewas
exper
iencedtaughtmewell"
Me:
"youcont
inuedf
ucki
ngaf
tert
hatonet
ime"
Keenan:"
yepf
oraboutay
earunt
ilshewentt
o
uni
versi
ty"
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eher
"helaughedhischestv
ibr
ati
ng
undermeunti
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art
edfrowningheki
ssedmy
for
ehead
Keenan:
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e'snoneed"
Me:
"youst
il
lseeheri
fyoui
nUK"
Keenan:"
she'
shappi
l
ymar
ri
edherf
ir
stbor
nis
yourage"
Me:"mxm"hechuckl
ed"
yourl
ongest
r
elat
ionshi
p"
Keenan:
"4mont
hs"
Me:
"that
'snotgood"
Keenan:
"Iknow"
Me:
"why
"
Keenan:"
tol
dyoushewant
edl
oveandIcoul
dn'
t
gi
veittoher
"
Me:"t
hat'
ssadsohowmanysexual
par
tner
s
hav
ey ouhad"hecoughed
Keenan:
"baby
"
Me:
"mmht
ell
me"
Keenan:
"justaf
ew"
Me:
"numberest
imat
e"
Keenan:
"Jesus.
..
.Letsaypl
usmi
nus15"
Me:
"thef
uck!
!"
Keenan:
"Ni
kky
..
"Hewhi
nned
Me:
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tcool
just.
..Wow.
.God"
Keenan:
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d"
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oll
edmyey
es
Keenan:
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lysowhatabouty
ouwhowas
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ourf
ir
standwhen"
Me:
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i
evemey
oudon'
twanaknow"
Keenan:
"nowI
'
m cur
ious"
Me:
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iousi
tyki
l
ledacat
"
Keenan:
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i
ke9or7l
i
fesot
alk"
Me:
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"
Keenan:
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l
"
Me:"
not
hingmuchwas17kindagoingt
hrough
i
shIsor
taranawayf
rom homethat
'
sall
"
Keenan:
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thol
doutonme"
Me:
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oldy
ouev
ery
thi
ng"
Keenan:
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oforhow
l
ongandwhyy our
an"Isi
ghed
Me: "
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oahugeargumentwithmom f el
t
l
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ngmysi ster'
ssi
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ke
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lneverbegoodenoughorbeabl etomakeher
proudyouknowli
kethepressur
eki ndagoti
nto
me"
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doesy
ourmom st
il
lmakey
ouf
eel
thatway
"
Me:"
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tandmovedonwhi ch
br
oughtmaj
orimprovementi
nourr
elat
ionship"
Keenan:"sowheny
ouf oundoutshewasn'
t
yourbi
ological
mom howdidyoufeel
"
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yhurtbutangryaswel lmostlyatmy
fat
hernni col
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admirati
onwhatshedi draisinganother
woman' schil
dwor separtawomanwhohadan
aff
airwithyourhusbandcan' tbeeasy"
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disadmi
rabl
e"
Me: "
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ly"hecuppedmyf acepull
ingme
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onatekissesthatmakey oufeel
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ectedhepul l
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l
ookedi nmyey eswemai nt
ainedeyecont act
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oveyou"heki
ssedt
hespace
bet
weenmyey es
Me:
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ovey
out
oo"
Keenan:
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Me:
"nobodyi
mpor
tant
"
Keenan:"
Iknowhowgi r
lsareIknowyou
speci
fi
cal
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e'snowayy ouwouldl
ose
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rgi
nit
yonsomeoney oudon'tl
ove"
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be"
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handwa"Icr
ingedknowi
ngi
m
t
ell
i
ngalie
Keenan:
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howl
ongdi
dyouguy
sdat
e"
Me:
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ear
s"
Keenan:
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hat
'sl
ong"
Me:
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Keenan:
"Ihat
ehi
m"Il
aughed"
wishy
ouhad
wait
edforme"
Me:
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fyoudi
d"
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oll
edmyey
es
Me:
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tmeanshi
t"
Keenan:
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ourf
emi
nistway
s"
Me:"
im notafemi
nistIj
ustdon'
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i
eveinthat
whol
eim amansoIcandot hi
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t
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lshi
t"
Keenan:"
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heendofthedaymyl ov
ewecan
neverbeequalswemighthol
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ti
ons
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ybri
ng5050i
nour
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l
lbeamanandy ouawoman"
Me:"whatever
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li
ppedusov
er
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ingbetweenmythighshepi
nnedmyhands
abovemyhead
Keenan:
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hingsl
i
ket
his"
Me:"socani"heusedonehandtohol
dmy
handswhil
ehisotherwentinmypant
ybegan
pl
ayingwit
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Keenan:
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ucky
pusensel
essl
y"
Me:"
andIcant
ell
younoi
m noti
nthemood"
hel
aughed
Keenan:
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iousl
yyougoi
ngt
ohol
doutonme"
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ingerinme
Ibi
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i
ps"sti
l
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out
"
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yi
ng"
Me:"i
m not
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art
edmov
ingi
tinnoutIl
et
outamoan
Keenan:
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eyounoti
nthemood"
Me:"aahy
es"hesmi
rkedt
il
ti
nghi
sheadt
othe
l
eft
Keenan:"
okcool "het ookhisfi
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essedabut tonthe
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nfrontoft hebedopenedupt vscreen
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i
thur tssobad.IneedsexIneedhar droughsex
andIknowj ustwhot ocal l
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i
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ngonmet o
call
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l
o"
Me:
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tLungel
o"
Nombuso:
"ohhi
howareyou"shesounds
ner
vousni
tmakesmechuckl
e
Me:
"im goodny
ou"
Nombuso: "
im okjustsur
pri
sedt
ohearf
rom
you"Ir
oll
myey es
Me:
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"
Nombuso:
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eal
l
y"
Me:
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eadyi
m comi
ngt
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cky
ouup"
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Me:"packupanoverni
ghtbagnbr
ingy
our
booksI'
ll
bether
einanhour"
Nombuso:
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..
"
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l
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ouj
ustnow"
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ti
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ppedI
cal
lupNombuso
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l
o"
Me:
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sweetvoiceitdoesn'
tev entake5mi nutesIsee
hercomingoutt omycardoest hisgir
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anyt
hingelsebesidesleggingsIjumpof fthe
car
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if
ul"Igi
veherahug
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nthe
backseatopenthedoorf orhershegetsi
nIjog
tomysi dengetitstar
tthecar
Me:
"hav
eyoueat
en"
Nombuso:
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Me:"okyoulookbeauti
ful
"she'
sinl
eggi
ngs
vest
sbikernbootsall
black
Nombuso:
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ouy
oul
ookgoodt
oo"
Me:
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hatso"
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youknowy
oul
ookgoodsodon'
tdo
t
hat"Ichuckl
e
Me:"poi
ntt
akensowher
eshoul
dwehav
e
di
nner"
Nombuso:
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wher
eim cool
"
Me:
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e"
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yep"Idri
vestr
aightt
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ewhenIt akeherhandaswewalki
n
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esasmi l
e
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"
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tnot
hing"wel
lthat
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li
ng
Me:"scar
edwemi ghtr
uni
ntoy
ourboy
fri
end
her
e"shelookshurt
Nombuso:
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cosnoti
m notseei
ngany
one"
Me:"goodIhateshari
ng"shestopswalki
ngand
l
ookatme" whatim seri
ous"webeganwalki
ng
agai
nshequi ett
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atabl
eIpullbackachairforherpushi
tinwhen
shehassat
Nombuso:
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ou"
Me: "
forwhat
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ercomesweputonour
dri
nksorderi
m ali
tt
letakenbackwhenshe
order
saglassofwinecozt heni
ghtwemetshe
hadchampagne
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"whaty
oueat
ing"
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derf
ormeI
'
llhav
ewhaty
ou
hav
ing"
Me:
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e"
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nouror
der
Me:
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ell
meabouty
our
sel
f"
Nombuso:
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emy
sel
fessay
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ggl
es
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wel
li
m NombusoNdiza1sty
eari
n
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om asmal
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l
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al
l"
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ingsi
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ngs"shegi
ggl
es
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i
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esi
ster
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all
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abl
e"
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cegotpi
ctur
es"
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ng
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v esmet hatsmileagai n
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i
ket
his"
Me:
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kewhatbaby
"Iki
ssherf
orehead
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ouholdi
ngmyhandandt
hanksf
or
di
nnerIhadnicet
ime"
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ouwelcomebaby"t
heweatherhas
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shiver
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inghercl
osert
omeput ti
ngmyar
m
aroundher
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dbaby
"
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i
ttl
e"
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et'
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y"wewalkf ast
ertothecarIopen
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"
Nombuso:
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ome
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ilher
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hingchangesIcarryhertomybedandi m
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vebeenneeding.
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.
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eel
hispeni
s
betweenmythi
ghs
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ning"
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o:"
yougoodbaby
"
Me:
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ou"
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o:"
I'
dli
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oreweget
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orcampus"Il
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ipsIfeell
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ngs
Me:
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e"
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o:"yepandwel at
esoguesswehav et
o
ski
pbreakfastbutI'
l
lcal
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unchoncampus"ohGodohGod! !
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s
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terIreal
lyneedtodosometwerki
ng
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goessqueakyagai
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acet othecarhedr i
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l
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l
ost
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o:"
I'
ll
cal
lyouokkeepy
ourphoneon"
Me: "
ok"hekissesmyf or
eheadwegoour
separat
eway s.School
dragsIcan'
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en
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ateIkeepcheckingmyphonewhenim
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Lungelo:
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eyouati
m headi
ngt
othe
cafe"
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ustchi
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li
ng"
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o:"
wheni
syournex
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ass"
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mf r
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oto
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lmeformissi
nghis
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assbutIdon'
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o:"okmeetmeatt
hecaf
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getyou"
Me:"any
thi
ng"asl
ongasitnotasal
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nggir
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ookli
ke
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okseey oui
naf ew"hedr opst hecal
lI
prati
call
yr untothecafewhenI 'm outsideI
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tdown
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sel
fmbusoh"Lungel
o
chuckles
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i
keaboy
'sname"
Ol
wet
hu:
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houghti
tsoundscut
e"
Me:
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o:"
don'
tmi
ndt
hisf
ool
her
e'sy
ourf
ood
baby"
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thanky
ou"t
hankgodi
tabur
gernf
ri
es
wi
thcoke
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hu:"y
out
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orget
ti
ngher
number"
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o:"
shutupf
ool
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kawayI
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ou
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ater
"
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thingsnl eavewef i
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ngsayingshewil
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oveme
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smom:
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!!
"
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"
K'
smom:
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eyouwemi
ssy
out
err
ibl
y"
Keenan:
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esJor
daan"
K'
smom:
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"
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okmom Igotsomeonefory
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o
meet"keenanpul
l
edmet osi
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slegs
hi
smom wasbeaut
if
ulwi
thl
ongbl
ondehai
r
K'
smom:
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sbeaut
if
ul"
Me:
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ousoar
eyou"
Keenan:
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ooksev
enbet
ternaked"Inudged
hi
m
K'
smom:
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th!
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ustchuckl
ed
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sist
hebeaut
if
ulSi
not
hatI
'
vebeen
tal
ki
ngabout"
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smom:
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if
uli
ndeedhowar
eyouhoney
"
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am ny
ou"shegi
ggl
ed
K'smom:"nonsensecal
lmeBel
l
aim goodni
ce
tomeety
ou"
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cet
omeety
ouaswel
l
"
K'smom:"howdi dy
outwomeet
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ookedat
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hroat
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K'
smom:
"home?
"
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sNi
col
e'
sdaught
er"shef
rowned
K'
smom:
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col
easi
nyourst
epmot
herNi
col
e"
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K'
smom: "
keenancanwetalkal
one"I
at
tempt
edtomov ebuthehel
dme
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ouhav etosaymom we
don'
tkeepsecr
etsinourrel
ati
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si
ghed
K'smom: "babyNi
cole'
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ypeof
peopleyouwantinyourli
fe"Ifel
ttear
s
threat
eni
ngmyey es
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K'
smom: "
didn'
tyoul
ear
nany
thi
ngf
rom t
hat
cr
azyBi
ancagir
l"
Keenan:"
she'snothi
nglikeBi
ancaandshejust
foundoutNicol
eishermom likel
astyear
Decembershewasr aisedbyherfat
hernhis
wifeshe'
sdi
f f
erentmom"
K'
smom:
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Keenan:
"she'
sitf
ormemom Il
oveher
"
K'
smom:
"oohbaby
"
Me:
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ovehi
mjustasmuchi
fnotmor
e"
K'
smom: "i
fthat'
sthecasethenIhopeyout
wo
ar
ehappytogethernloveeachothernomat
ter
whatdon'
thurteachother
"
Keenan:"
Iwon'
thur
therbutshehasal
lthe
powertohur
tmeshecoulddestr
oymet hat
'
s
howmuchIloveher
"hekissedmycheeknI
smil
ed
Me:"I
'
dneverhur
tyoursonBel
l
amydayst
art
s
nendswi
thhim"shegiggl
ed
K'
smom:
"doesy
ourf
athernaNi
col
eknow"
Keenan:
"noty
et"
K'
smom:
"ohboy
..
.yout
woneedt
ocomev
isi
t
me"
Keenan:
"wewi
l
lformybi
rt
hday
"
Me:
"wewi
l
l?"
Keenan:
"of
cos"
K'
smom: "greatIcan'
twai
tfornextmont
hyour
si
steri
sgoingtobehappy"
Keenan:
"we'
l
lseey
ousoonmot
herIl
ovey
ou"
K'smom: "l
oveyoutoobaby
"shebl ewaki
ssn
l
oggedout .Heshutdownhi
slaptopnpull
ed
met ohim get
ti
ngusunderthecoverswe
cuddled
Keenan:
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ovey
ouwoman"Igi
ggl
ed
Me:
"Il
ovey
out
ooman"
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08/
12,
21:
24]Wadz
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t32
.
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ofi
ndapairof
eyeslooki
ngatmeIbl i
nkedacoupl
eofti
mes
befor
er et
urningasmil
ehewasgivi
ngme
Me:"di
dn'
tyourmothert
ell
youi
trudet
ost
are"
hechuckl
ednkissedmynose
Keenan:"
youmineinever
ywayi m all
owedto
st
areandy ouj
ustsobeaut
iful
Ican'thel
p
myself
"Iwasblushi
ngli
kethere'
snot omor
row
Me:
"yout
hebest
"
Keenan: "Ilovey ousomuchmyl ov eI dlaymy
wor l
daty ourf eetwi thi
nabl inkofaney e, you
mysunandmooncombi nedi none, thef i
rst
ti
meIsawy ouIswearmywor ldstoppedy our
beautyhadmet onguet i
edandt hany ouspokeI
couldn'tbelieveity ourvoicenper sonal i
t y
capturedmyhear talongwi thmyat tentionit
beeny our ssincet hen,Ilovey ousomuchy ou
myhappi nessmyv eryownMcDhappymeal "I
giggl
ed" youownmebabyy oursmi l
ebr ightens
upmyl i
feI ddongi veany thi
ngt oensur ey ou
alwayssmi li
ng"Ithr ewmyar msar oundhi s
neckbr oughthi mt omeki ssedhi m deepl yhe
settl
edbet weenmyt hi
ghsIt ookofhi spj t
op
"notwhatIwashopi ngfor"hemubbl edinmy
mout hIpul ledback
Me:
"compl
aini
ng"
Keenan: "
never"wewentbackt okissingwhich
endedi nslowpassi onatelovemaki ng.Aft
erour
l
ov emaki nghel i
ft
edmeupIwr appedmyl egs
aroundhiswai stgiggli
ngashewal kedt ot
he
bathroom int
ot helargeshoweri thad4shower
headsheopenedt hewat ernthecol donehitus
fi
rstIscreamedwhi l
ehel aughed
Keenan:
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rymyl
ove"t
hewat
ergotwar
m
Me:
"can'
tdeal
wit
hcol
dwat
er"
Keenan: "
comeher eI'
l
lkeepy ouwarm"he
broughtmecl osert
ohim pressingourbodi
es
togetherwhil
ehishandswentonasear chi
ng
spreeallovermybody
Me:
"weher
etobat
h"
Keenan:"
Iknowmylove"hetookmyhair
shampoofrom t
her
ailsqueezedsomeint
omy
hai
randstart
edmassagingmyheadIletouta
softmoan
Me:
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tfeel
ssoni
ce"hechuckl
ed
Keenan:"
Icant el
lmylove"hewashedmyhai
r
andri
nsedit"tell
meNikkyhowcanIsaymy
l
oveinyourlanguage"
Me:
"myl
ove"
Keenan:
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t"hesqueezedmybody
shampoointoaspongestar
tedwashingmy
body
Me:"myl
anguageisengl
i
sht
handol
wam"he
pi
nchedmynippl
emakingmesqui
rm
Keenan:
"ist
hati
t"
Me:
"yep"
Keenan:
"okt
handol
wam"Ichuckl
ed
Me:"
weneedt oworkonyourpronunci
ation"
whenhewaswashingmybut theslowlyputin
t
heti
pofhisindexf
ingeri
nmybut twholenI
j
umpedhelaughed
Me:
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uckKeenan"hepushedbackhi
s
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ippi
ngwethai
rshowi
nghi
sbeaut
if
ulf
ace
Keenan:
"ithur
ts"
Me;
"ki
nda"
Keenan:"
sorr
yt handol
wam"hegav emeababy
ki
ssbutIstoodonmyt oesheldthebackofhis
neckhechuckledweki ssedheli
ftedmeupI
wrappedmylegsar oundhiswaistnletouta
moanashi stoungemetmi newet astedeach
hegrabbedmyasssqueez i
ngit
Me:
"baby
"
Keenan:
"mmhm"Ipul
l
edback
Me: "putmedown"hechuckl ednl etmesl ide
downhi sbodywef ini
shedshower i
ngwhi l
e
fooli
ngar oundaf t
erdryingour selveswewent
tolotionngetdr essedIwasst il
linmybl ack
l
acehotpant ynamat chingbr alookingfor
somet hi
ngtoweari nthecl osethewas
standingbyt hedoorlooki ngatmeal ready
dressedi njeanshortandat shir
t
Keenan:
"yousosexy
"Igi
ggl
ednl
ookedathi
m
Me:
"younotbady
our
sel
f"
Keenan:
"Iwanty
ou"
Me:
"lat
er"
Keenan:
"now"
Me:"
lat
er"hetookafewstr
okesnpi
ckedme
upiwastryi
ngtowiggl
eoutofhi
shol
daswe
wal
kedtothebed
Keenan:
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twai
t"
Me:"keenanholdon"hesmashedhisl
ipson
minewhilepinni
ngmyhandsdownwi t
hhi s
handhet or
et hr
oughmypantyusi
nghisthumb
Me:
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Keenan:"yes"hemoanedwhenhisfi
nger
s
presseddownonmykush" fucknhel
ll
oveyou
soaked"IwassowetIcouldfeeli
tbet
weenmy
buttcheeks
Me:
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Keenan:
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wam"hef
li
ckedhi
stongueon
mykush
Me:"ohGody es"hechuckl
ednlookedatme
"
justfucknl
i
ckmekeenan"hel etoutal
oud
l
augh
Keenan:"
ok"hewentinf orakillaft
erIcamehe
fl
i
ppedusov erhol
dingmywai stlet
ti
ngme
sl
ideonhisdickIwasmov i
ngi nasteadypace
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wasstil
ll
ostonhowhewasmov ingunderme
whenhegent l
ysli
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eI
cri
edoutnmybodyj erked
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youok"hemovedi
toutsl
owl
y
thr
ustedi
tinIl
etoutamoan
Me:"woah"asmal
lsmil
ecr eptonhi sfaceI
smil
edbackmymout hformedasi lentOwhen
hestart
edmovi
ngitdi
dn'ttakelongf or
ever
ythi
ngtomoveinsl
owmot i
onasIgotl ost
i
nmyownwor l
dIcoul
dhearhi mt ell
ingmet o
l
etgoandIdidIcr
ashedlikeneverbef or
eitfel
t
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uckn-
amazi
ngIcol
l
apsedont
opofhi
m
hekissedmyhead
Keenan:
"Il
ovey
ou"
Me:
"mmh"hechuckl
ed
Keenan:
"doesi
thur
t"
Me:
"nah"
Keenan:
"okIthi
nkweneedt
ofr
eshenupand
goaboutourday"
Me:
"mmh"Iwassl
owl
ydr
if
ti
ngoft
osl
eep
Keenan:
"yousl
eepy
"
Me:
"al
i
ttl
e"
Keenan:
"ok"hepl
ayedwi
thmyhai
runt
ilIf
ell
asl
eep.
Hewokemeupabi
tlat
erwi
thf
ood
Me:
"thanky
ou"
Keenan:
"youwel
comethandol
wam"hekissed
mycheekwestar
tedeat
ingaft
ereat
ingwe
fr
eshenedupIgotdressedinawhi
tesummer
dressandananklest
rapthi
ckheel
tiedmyhai
r
i
nabunwel eftfort
hemal l
Keenan:
"wher
ewest
art
ing"
Me:
"sal
oon"
Keenan:"
coolaahdoest
hismeanIhav
etowai
t
for3hoursagai
n"
Me:
"Ist
hatapr
obl
em"hechuckl
ed
Keenan:
"noj
ustcur
ios"
Me:"
nahi
twon'
ttakemor
ethananhour
"he
br
eat
hedout
Keenan:
"thanky
ouJesus"
Me:
"hey
!"
Keenan:"Il
ovey ouloverbutsitt
ingst
il
lforover
3hour swhil
elisteni
ngt othoseloudwomeni s
painf
ul"Ipuckeredmyl ipshepulledmycheek
"y
oul ookcutewheny oupoutjustwanalicky
ou
up"Iroll
edmyey eslaughing
Me:
"yousuchani
diot
"
Keenan:
"youl
ovemet
hough"
Me:"
tot
all
y"hest
art
edspeedi
ng"
woahsl
ow
downMr"
Keenan:"
Ishoul
dlety
oudr
ivet
hiscarl
overi
t
powerful
"
Me:"nothanky
ouandsl
owdownIgota
daught
erIdon'
twanadi
e"hechuckl
ednsl
owed
down
Keenan:"y
ouknowourdaught
erwoul
dbeso
adorabl
e"
Me:
"yeahIknow"
Keenan:
"Ishoul
dtot
all
ymakey
oupr
egnant
"
Me:
"mi
ssmewi
tht
hatcr
ap"
Keenan:
"mmh"
Me:
"keenandon'
tst
artf
unnyshi
t"
Keenan:
"Iwont
"
Me:
"youbet
ter
"hej
ustchuckl
ed"
keenan!
"
Keenan:"
Isai
dIwon'
t"wearri
vedatthemall
wenttothesal
oonf
ir
stIgotmyt hi
ckstr
aight
backdonehepaid weleft
Keenan:
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ful
thandol
wam"I
smil
edhekissedmycheeknputhi sarm
ar
oundmywai stbri
ngingmeclosertohi
mI
l
ookedupathim smili
ng
Me:
"Il
ovey
ou"
Keenan:
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nchedhi
m whi
l
egi
ggl
i
ng
"of
cosIknow"
Me:"t
hat'
sgood"wewalkedtocott
ononI
pi
ckedupcoupleofcl
otheshesneakedi
nwi
th
metofit
ti
ngroom
Me:"y
ousogoi
ngtogetcaught
"wewer
e
l
aughi
ngsof
tl
yhesatdown
Keenan:
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ri
p"
Me:
"lookathowyourey
esaretwinkl
i
ng"Il
et
t
hestrapofmydr
essofftheshoul
dersway
ed
myhi
psal
i
ttl
e
Keenan:
"st
opt
easi
ng"
Me:
"youl
ovei
t"hechuckl
ed
Keenan:"
yeahIdo"Il
ettheotherstr
apfal
lnthe
dressl
andedont hef
loorIst
eppedoutofit
threwi
tathim hecat
cheditwhil
elaughi
ng
Me:"wanadoithere"hegr
abbedmyhand
pul
l
ingmet ositonhim
Keenan:"
ofcos"hest
art
edki
ssi
ngonmyneckI
wasjustgi
ggli
ng
Me:
"Iwasj
oki
ng"
Keenan:
"im not
"
Me:
"babyno"hegr
oaned
Keenan:"okokf ineletmeseet hatfashi
on
showy oupromi sed"Igavehim hisshowt her
e
wasal otofkissingassgrabbingwhenIwas
doneIputonmydr esshegotal l
theclothes
whenwewal kedoutsomegi rlwasst ari
ngatus
Keenan:
"thanky
ou"
Me:
"for
?"
Keenan:
"lov
ingme"
Me: "
aahbaby "hepul l
edmet ohim gav emea
ki
sshehel dmywai stdeepeni
ngtheki sswheni
pull
edoutInot i
cedt hegir
lwasstil
lstaringat
ushewentt opaywel eftgoi
ngtoanot hershop
bythetimewef ini
shedi twaslat
ehi shands
werefullofpaperbagsandpl ast
icwewer e
walki
ngt otheparkingtoleaveourthingsinthe
carcatchaear l
ydinnerwhenwer ani nto
Braddl
ey
Brad:"
wellwel
lwhowoul dhavethoughtkeenan
beingal
ldomesti
c"keenanchuckledweshar ed
hugs
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"ther
e'saf
ir
stt
imef
orev
ery
thi
ng"
Me:
"heycuzzy
"
Br
ad:
"yout
wogood"
Us:
"yeah"
Keenan:"
we'llseey
ouar
oundNi
kkyi
shungr
y"
Braddl
eylaughed
Brad:"
whatdi
dyoudot
othepoorguyDomi
nic"
Igiggl
ed
Me:
"not
hing"
Br
ad:
"hi
ssowhi
pped"Igi
ggl
ed
Me:
"Iknow"
Keenan:
"okenoughby
eBr
addl
eyl
etsgol
over
"
Me:"bye"wewal
kedt
othecarl
eftourt
hings
wenttoeat
.
Nombuso.
..
.
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li
ngmewe
hadabusydayatwor kt oday,aftermyauntlost
herjobasamai dIhadtogetaj obbecauseit
meantIwon' tbegetti
nganymoneyathome
sincetheyonlyhadgranny '
sgrantaswel las
thekidsgranttokeepthem goi ngandmynsf as
allowancei snotenought ol astmet hroughout
thewhol emont h.Ineednewcl othest okeepup
nott hatI'
m compet ingbutI 'veseenLungel o'
s
closetandSi nov uyoi snott het ypet hatr epeats
clothesunl ikeme, thisissoconf usingi f
Lungel oandSi novuy obr okeupwhyhashe
beenact i
ngt hiswayImeancl earlytheynot
toget herIjustsawhert odayatwor kwi tha
whi teguybei ngal lloveydov ey.ButLungel ohas
i
cedmeouthedoesn' tcal lany mor eafter
calling3day sinar owwi thouthi m cal l
ingmeI
gav eupmay behef oundsomeoneal r
eadycoz
i
tseemsl i
kehebr okeupwi thSi nov uyo,i
hav en'tseenhi m sincel astweekTuesdaywel l
act uall
yIhav eseenhi m ar oundcampusbutwe
hav en'tbeent ogetheri tjustHi 'sandHey '
s
whenwepasseachot her.Andev erytimei tl
ike
het akesawayapi eceofmei thur tssobadmy
phonei sconst antl
yonmyhandsomet i
mesI
swi tchitoffhopi ngt of i
ndami ssedort ext
from hi m butnot hing.Igetof ftoopent hedoor
si
ncesomeonei
sknocki
ngandi
tmyf
ri
ends
Me:
"heycomei
n"Il
ett
hem i
n
Busi
:"whaty
ouupt
owesobor
ed"
Me:
"imt
ir
edIj
ustgotbackf
rom wor
k"
Gugu:"
don'
tknowwhyyouwantt
oworkat
cot
tononreal
ly
"Ir
oll
myeyesnfl
oponmybed
Me:
"notev
ery
onehasabl
esser
"
Gugu:
"youdon'
twantPat
ri
c"
Me:
"youguy
sneedsomet
hing"
Andy
:"wegoi
ngout
"
Me:
"countmeout
"
Busi
:"aahcomeonNombuso"
Me:"
im br
okey
ouguy
sandIhav
etost
arton
myassi
gnment
"
Gugu:
"we'
ll
pit
chinforthefi
rstr
oundt
henget
someguystobuyusalcohol
"
Me:
"imr
eal
l
ynoti
nthemood"
Andy:"
sowhaty
ouwanasi
ther
eandmopov
er
Lungel
o"
Me:
"don'
ttal
kaboutt
hingsy
oudon'
tknow"
Gugu:"pl
easeNombusoyouknowy ouour
yel
lowboneweneedy out
obright
enusup"we
all
laughed
Me:
"don'
tbecr
azy
"
Andy
:"pl
ease"
Me:
"okf
inel
etmeeatandgetr
eady
"
Gugu:
"youhav
eanhour
"
Busi
:"l
ookgood"
Me: "
leav
enow"theyl
aughednwalkedoutIgot
outthebedtookmyMcDBi gMacmeal and
star
tedeati
ngsomeoneknocked
Me:"comein"Andygotinwithapai rofheel
sI
j
ustlaughedsheputthem downt ookabunch
offr
iesandlef
tIfi
nishedupeatingwhile
chat
tingtomyhighschoolfri
endsLungelowas
onlineonwhat sapphehadapi ctureof
Sinov uyocar ryi
nghi sdaught erwithast at
us
say i
ngmygi rl
sIj ustgotof flineaf t
erseei ng
that.If i
nshedupeat ingtookof fmycl othes
wrappedat owel aroundmybodywentt othe
showerr oom It ookashowerwentbackt omy
room l otionedt ookoutanav yshor tj
umpsui t
thatmademyski ncol ourlookl ighterokher eis
thet hingi mlightski nned,ki ndashor t,size30,
myassi skindasmal ltoobutnotf lat
,i don't
hav eat i
nywai stbuti tsmal landi m aBcup.
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edmybr aidinto
ahi ghhal fbunnyputoney el i
nernpur pl e
l
ipst i
ckIwor ethebl ackstil
et tosthatAndy
broughtf ormet ookmybl ackbagandl eft
goingt oBusi'sr oom If oundt hem alldressed
drinking3l i
tt
erwi ne
Gugu:"
grabaglasswejusthav
ingtwogl
asses
eachandwe'
lll
eave"Idi
dthatnsatdown
Busi
:"IneedagoodD"
Me:
"don'
tev
enst
artwi
tht
hatconv
o"
Gugu:
"st
opact
inghol
yyounol
ongerav
irgi
n"
Me:"shutup"welaughedwecontinuedhav i
ng
meaninglessconv
ersat
ionbefor
eget t
ingacab
wit
hKongwhenwegott her
ethemusicwas
poundingNastyCwasonst ageperforming
Andy
;"ohmyGodohmyGodl
etsgowat
ch"
Me:
"no"
Andy: "
y es"shewasal readypull
ingmyhand
sheledust owher ewecangetacl earpictur
e
wewat chedwhi l
edanci ngandsingingalong
aft
ertwosongsIwast iredIlef
thert her
ewent
tofi
ndt heot herIrani
nt osomeoneandal most
fel
lbuthehel dmywai stwhenIbr oughtupmy
headmyhear tski
ppedabeathel ookedev en
hott
ert hanbef orehi
shai rwasfreshlycuton
thesideshi sdreadspushedbackhesmi ledI
fel
tmyi nsidewarmingup
Lungel
o:"
hey
"
Me:
"h.
.hi
"
Lungelo:"
yougood"hemov
edhi
shandsslowl
y
unti
ltheygott
omyasshegavei
tasqueeze
Me:"i
m ok"hel
eanedandgav
emeashor twet
ki
sstast
ingmehepull
edbackaf
terawhi
l
en
gavemeababykiss
Lungel
o:"I
'
llcal
lyouwhenI
'
mleav
ingI
'
ve
missedyou"
Me:
"sohav
eI"
Lungel
o:"wi
llcal
lyousowecanl
eav
ekeep
yourphonenexttoyou"
Me: "
ok"hegavemeanot herbabyki
ssand
walkedawayIwasl ef
ttheref
eeli
ngmore
confusedIconti
nuedlooki
ngformyfri
endsI
foundthem si
tt
ingwit
h2guy sevenAndywas
back
Andy
:"wher
eyouwentof
fto"
Me:
"looki
ngf
ory
'al
lki
ndagotl
ost
"
Busi: "
oryt"t
heyintroducedmet ot
heguyswe
satdr i
nkingnt al
kingIkeptonchecki
ngonmy
phonewhi chwasonmyhandt hewhol
etimei
t
didn'teventakeanhourf oransmstocome
throughf rom Lungelo
*
meetmebyt
heent
rance*
Me:
"iml
eav
ing"
Gugu:
"what
"
Me:"Lungel
oisher
eandwel
eav
ing"t
hey
l
ookedateachother
Andy
:"hav
efunandbecar
eful
"
Me: "
sure"Igotmybagandwal kedtowardsthe
entr
ancehewasal r
eadywait
ingf ormetherehe
tookmyhandandwal kedustohi scaraf
ter
openingmydoorhewenttohi ssideandgotin
Lungel
o:"
hadf
un"Ichuckl
ed
Me:
"di
dn'
tst
ayl
ongenough"
Lungel
o:"
youst
il
lwant
edt
ost
ay"
Me:
"nopeI
'
m good"
Lungel
o:"
ok"heheldmychinandgav
emea
pantywet
ti
ngkissaft
ertheki
sshel
ookeddeep
i
nmyey esandImelted
Lungel
o:"
let
'sgohome"Inoddedhedr
oveof
f
thewordhomemademef eel
fuzzy
Me:
"youbeent
her
elong"
Lungel
o:"
nahIhadj
ustcamei
nwheny
ou
bumpedint
ome"
Me:
"ok"
Lungel
o:"
youlookbeaut
if
ul"hebr
ushedmy
thi
ghIsmil
ed
Me: "t
hanky ou"myv oi
cewassosqueakyev enI
couldn'trecogni
zeithespeedal
lthewayt ohis
placeassoonashegoti nthedoorhegrabbed
myassl if
ti
ngmeupIwr appedmylegsaround
hiswai stheldontohishead wehadsexon
thekitchencounteraft
erwebothcamehel i
fted
meupwewentt othel
oungehesatmeont he
couchwenttohi
sroom camedressedi
n
sweatpant
sngavemehi st
shi
rt
Me: "
thanky ou"hesmi l
edandnoddedwentt o
thekitchencamebackwi t
hwi neandbeerand
warmr i
bswithwor swesati nthelounge
watchingeatingIfeltcompletefel
tli
keIbelong
l
ikethisishowIshoul dbespendi ngmy
Saturdaynightsanywaynott urni
ngupi nsome
club
Me:
"Lungel
o"
Lungelo:
"yesbaby"Idbeenmeaningtoaskhim
butIwasf r
eaknscaredthatI
'
m goingtorui
nus
butfuckthatIneedansweres
Me:"
what'
sgoi
ngonbet
weenus"hechokedon
hi
sbeernIwi
nced
Lungel
o:"
wher
eist
hatcomi
ngf
rom"
Me:
"Ij
ustwanaknow"
Lungel
o:"
wechi
l
li
ng"
Me:
"chi
l
li
ng?
"
Lungel
o:"
yeshangi
ngoutdon'
tputal
abel
oni
t
Nombuso"
Me:"oh"Icoul
dn'
thi
demydisappoi
ntmentwe
chi
l
li
ngwhatt hef
uckischi
l
li
nghesighed
Lungel
o:"l
ookNombusoIl
i
key
ouok"Inodded
"doyouli
keme"
Me:
"yes"mor
eli
keIl
ovey
ou
Lungelo:
" t
handon'tcompli
catethi
ngsandkeep
yourfeel
ingsincheck"keepmyf eel
ingsi
n
checkthehell
!!Iscreamedinsi
debutIgavehi
m
asmileandanod
Me:"
ok"heki
ssedmyf
oreheadwentbackt
o
hi
sbeer
Lungel
o:"
needar
efi
l
l"
Me: "
yespl
ease"hest
oodupwenttot
he
kit
chencamebackwitht
hewhol
ebottl
eand
twobeerswecarri
edon'
chi
ll
i
ng'GodIhat
ethat
wordnow
Me:
"whydoy
oukeepcondomsi
ntheki
tchen"
hel
aughed
Lungelo:"
Ihav econdomsalloverthis
apartmentIl
ov esexandIdon'thavet obei
n
bedroom tohav eit
"heputhisbeerdown
l
eanedov erthecouchcamebackwi thabox
tookoneoutl eanedoveragai
nputtingthebox
back
Me:
"oh"
Lungel
o:"
I'
dli
ket
otakenowr
ighther
e"
Me: "ok"indeedhet ookmehespr eadmyl egs
sowi dewhi leIwasont heedgeoft hecouch
andbur iedhimsel fdeepi nmebef oreturni
ng
meov ermaki ngmyhol dmyt oesaftercomi ng
wewentbackt oourdr inkingandwat chingt v
beforegoi ngtosl eephewashol dingmef rom
mybackwi t
hhisl egbet weenmi ne.It ol
d
my selfi
tf i
neI'l
ltakehim asIcangethi m no
l
abel snof eeli
ngsi tokIbitmyl i
phar dtost op
tearsfrom comi ngoutasIsl owlydr i
ftedof fto
sleep.
.
Nombuso.
..
.
Iwokeupf ir
stwenttotakeashowerIworehi
s
tshi
rtt
iedmybr ai
dsintoaponytai
lwentt
o
makebr eakf
astIfel
thishandsaroundmywai
st
asIwasst andi
ngbyt hestov
e
Lungel
o:"
mor
ningbaby
"heki
ssedmyneck
Me:
"mor
ningy
our
sel
f"
Lungel
o:"
sleptwel
l
"
Me:
"yepandy
ou"
Lungel
o:"ki
ndawassadt
onotfindy
ounextt
o
mewhenIwokeupIwasl ooki
ngfor
war
dto
l
azymor ni
ngsex"
Me:
"sor
ryt
houghtI
'
dpr
epar
ebr
eakf
ast
"
Lungel
o:"
it
'sal
lgoodi
m st
arv
ingany
way
"
Me: "
ok"hewentt omakehiscoff
eeandsaton
thehighchairdr
inki
ngi
tIfi
nshedwith
breakfastdi
shedupweateaftereat
ingI
cleanedwhi l
ehet ookashowerIwasi nthe
l
oungewhensomeonescr eamedLungel o's
namei nsidetheapartmentwhi chwaswei r
d
cozitwasl ockedIheardfoot st
epscomingi nto
theloungeIst oodupandt hereshewasl ooking
beautiful
inboy f
ri
endjeansnal owcutvestsn
fl
ipflopsImeanwhol ookslikethati
nabasi c
outfi
t
Si
no:"whoareyou"Ifel
tsosmall
and
i
nti
midatedshelookedatmefr
om myfeett
o
myfaceIshif
teduncomfort
abl
y
Me:"
I.
..
im..
.Im Nombuso"If
eltl
i
kedy
ingI
meansincewhendoIstutt
er
Sino:"
hiI
'm Si
no"shewal
kedpassmet ot
he
bedroom t
hanIheardscr
eamingIfol
l
owedher
tothebedroom st
oodbythedoor
Si
no:
"whoi
ssheLungel
o"
Lungel
o:"
Nombusof
rom campus"
Si
no:
"ist
hiswhyy
ourphonebeenonv
oicemai
l
si
ncelastni
ght
"het
ookhi
sphoneand
mutt
eredacurse
Lungel
o:"
sor
ryImusthav
eranoutofbat
ter
y"
Si
no:"
ranoutofbat
ter
yLungeloranoutof
bat
ter
y"herv
oicebr
okesheletoutasoftsob
Lungelo:"
heyheyhoneywhat '
sgoingon"he
heldhernslidedownuntil
theyweresitt
ingon
thefl
oorwithheronhislapherfacepressedon
hischesthisarmsaroundherIfel
tli
kerunning
awaybutIcoul dn'
tmovemyf eet
Lungel
o:"
tal
ktomehoney
"heki
ssedherhead
Si
no:
"Luv
uyowasi
nhospi
tal
lastni
ght
"
Lungel
o:"
what.
..
,whathappened"
Si
no:"shehadahi ghfeverandarashcoul
dn'
t
sl
eepsoy ourparent
st ookhert
othehospi
tal
we'
vebeent r
yingtogetholdofyouthewhole
ni
ght"
Lungel
o:"
howi
sshenow"
Sino:"
she'
salit
tlebetterIwassoscar ed
Lungeloandyouy ou"shel etoutanot
hersobhe
heldhereventi
ghterrockingherbackandf or
th
Lungelo:
"itoki
m her
enowshe'sf
ineourbaby
i
sfineokIgotyoutwo"heki
ssedherhead
again
Sino:"okIreal
l
yneededyouandIstart
ed
panickingwhenyourphonekeptonsendi
ngme
tovoicmail"
Lungelo:"i
m sor r
ybutI 'm herenowIl oveyou
oky outwoar emyl i
f e"Ifelttearsrushingdown
myf aceIwal kedt ot hecl osetgotthecl ot
hesI
waswear ingy esterdayandmybagIgot
dressedinthel oungeandl eftim surehehad
evenf or
gottenIwast hereIt ookacabt othe
taxiranktookat axi tor es.AssoonasIgoti n
myr oom Ithrewmy selfonmybedandcr i
ed
l
ikeI'venevercriedbef ore.
.
Twoweeksl
aterkeenanandIwer
ehav
inga
l
azySundayi twasahotdayIwasi nmyshort
sportshortsandaspor tbrawatchingkeenan
dolapsint heswimmi ngpoolwhilereadi
ngmy
novelhavinghomemadei cet
eawhent hedoor
bel
lrangwhi chwascr azycozthegat ewas
l
ockedandy ouhadtohav eapasswor dtoenter
orhavesomeonei nthehouseletyoui nIwas
sti
l
llostinmyt houghtwhenitrangagai n
Keenan:
"someonei
satt
hedoor
"
Me:"okI'
l
lgocheck"Iputonmyflopswal
kedto
t
hedoorwhenIopenedt hedoorIal
mostpeed
myselfNi
col
eandKy l
elookedatmewiththei
r
mouthshangi
ng
Ni
c:"
Nikkyno"shest
art
edshaki
ngherhead
Keenan:
"ohfuck"hesai
dbehindmehewas
topl
essi
njusthisswi
m shor
ts
Ni
c:"
nonono"shest
art
edcr
ying
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12,
21:
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:Inser
t33
.
Ni
c:"
no"
Me:
"ni
col
e"
Kyle:
"letusi
nDomini
c"keenannImov
edf
rom
thedoortheygoti
n
Keenan:
"whydi
dn'
ty'
all
tel
lmey
'al
lcomi
ngand
howdidyoutwogeti
n"
Ni
c:"don'
taskusst
upi
dquest
ionswepai
dfor
t
hishouse"
Me:
"ni
col
e!"
Ky
le:
"what
'sgoi
ngonher
eson"
Keenan:
"It
hinkev
ery
thi
ngi
spr
ett
ycl
ear
"
Ky
le:
"spel
li
toutf
orme"
Keenan:"
wet ogether
"outofnowhereaslap
soundrangthroughtheloungeIgaspedni
cole
sl
appedkeenanhi scheekturnedr
edsamet i
me
namar kfr
om herr i
ngshowed
Me:
"whatt
hehel
li
swr
ongwi
thy
ouni
col
e"
Ni
c:"
you"shepoi
ntedt
okeenan"
Itol
dyout
o
st
ayawayf
rom her
"
Me: "
buttohi
thi
mli
ket
hatni
col
ear
eyououtof
yourmind"
Ni
c:"
howcoul
dyoudot
hiskeenan"
Ky
le:
"ev
ery
onecal
m down"
Ni
c:"y
oursonisfucki
ngmydaught
erandy
ou
t
ell
i
ngmet ocalm down"
Keenan:"i
m notfucki
ngherni
coleweina
rel
ati
onship"hesaidwit
hhisvoi
ceti
ghtened
shethrewherhandsintheair
Ni
c:"
youknownot
hingaboutar
elat
ionshi
p"
Me:
"don'
tbej
udgement
alni
col
e"
Nic:"
shutupDomini
cyoudon'
tknowathi
ng
aboutkeenanhi
sgoi
ngtorui
nyoubaby
"
Ky
le:
"ni
col
e!"
Ni
c:"whatitt
ruehi
safucknmessnowyou
wanttodragmydaughteri
ntoy
ourf
ucknl
if
e"
Ky
le:
"st
opbei
ngdr
amat
icni
col
e"
Ni
c:"
hhedr
amat
ic"
Keenan:
"pl
easel
eav
emyhouse"
Ky
le:
"son"
Keenan:"
bothofyouout!
!"Heroar
edhisveins
werepoppingal
loverhi
sfaceevenIgotscared
ofhi
m
Ni
c:"
seehi
sgotangeri
ssues"
Ky
le:
"keenanDamonSmi
thcal
m downbef
ore.
."
Keenan:"
befor
ewhatyoushi
pmeof ft
omom
j
ustbecauseyourl
i
ttl
ewif
eisupset
"
Ni
c:"
that
'sanopt
iont
hej
eti
sav
ail
abl
e"
Me:
"don'
tbecr
azyni
col
e"
Ky
le:
"canweal
lj
ustsi
tdownt
alkaboutt
his"
Keenan:"whatthepoi
ntsheal
way
smakes
deci
sionsforyou"
Ky
le:
"keenanwewi
l
li
ngt
oli
stent
oyout
wo"
Ni
c:"
nowenotl
i
steni
ngt
oany
thi
ngy
ouwi
l
l
l
eav
emydaught
eral
oneandIt
hinkmov
ingt
o
y
ourmom wi
l
ldoyougood"
Keenan:
"im notl
eav
ing"
Ky
le:
"may
bey
oushoul
d"
Keenan:
"dad"
Ky
le:
"keenanpl
ease"
Ni
c:"
packup"
Keenan:
"im notgoi
nganywherewhatwi
l
lyou
doIdon'
tstayinyourhouse"
Ni
c:"
wepai
dfort
hishouse"
Keenan:
"hepai
dnoty
ouni
col
eandi
tinmy
name"
Me:"
let
'sgopackbabydon'
twor
ryni
col
ewe'
l
l
l
eav
e"
Ni
c:"
pack?
"
Me:
"Imov
edi
n"shel
etoutasob
Ni
c:"
Domi
nic"shecr
iedout
Me:"j
ustshutupni col
eokyou'vesaidyour
pi
ecebutnotoncedi dyouli
stenyouact i
ngl i
ke
hi
sacti
ngadv antageofmehi snotwet ogether
weloveeachot heryouwanthim outofthis
housethancool sobeitwe'
l
lgladlyl
eav eIgot
anapartmentthathasnothi
ngtodowi thy ou"
Ni
c:"
Domi
nic!
"
Me:
"nodonotDomi
nicme"
Ni
c:"y
outurni
ngmydaughteragai
nstme"she
l
ookedatkeenanwi
tht
ears
Me:"nobodyi
sdoi
nganythi
ngnicol
eweadul
ts
her
eim notbei
ngf
orcedatany
thing"
Ni
c:"
Nikkyhewi
l
ldest
royy
ou"
Me:"sobei
tift
hathappensi
tgoi
ngt
obeon
us"
Kyl
e:"
nicol
eisi
tsobadshewi
l
lbegoodf
or
hi
m"
Ni
c:"
yesdamitKy
leshecan'
tbewit
hhim she'
s
j
ustababyt
heyaret
echni
cal
lysi
bli
ngs"
Keenan:"
nowenotjustbecausey
ouscr
ewi
ng
myfatherdoesnotmakeyoumymother
"
Me:
"Keenan"
Keenan:"ar
ey'
al
ll
eav
ingorshoul
dwegopack
ourstuf
f"
Nic:"
justl
eav
emydaught erpl
easeyougotgi
rl
s
fal
li
ngatyourfeetbuty
oujusthadt
otakeher
she'
snotoneofy ourst
upi
dhoeskeenan"
Keenan:"
that'
str
ueshe'
snotIl
oveher
"she
chuckl
edsarcast
ical
l
y
Nic:
"loveaahwhatyouknowaboutlov
eally
ou
doissleeparoundandl
eaveatr
ail
ofbroken
hear
ts"
Keenan:
"she'
sdi
ff
erentf
orme"
Nic:"
meorkeenanDomi
nicy
oucan'
thav
e
both"
Me:
"ni
col
epl
easeIl
ovehi
m"
Ni
c:"
aar
gh"shest
ormedoutky
lef
oll
owedher
Keenan:
"wel
lthatwasf
un"Ichuckl
ed
Me:"
don'
tbesarcast
icl
ovecomeher
e"he
cametomeItouchedhi
scheekbr
ushi
ngit
Me:"
doesi
thur
t"i
twasreall
yredandswol
l
en
ar
oundwher
eherri
ngscrappedhi
m
Keenan;
"ki
ssitbett
er"Igi
ggledandki
ssedhi
s
cheekhescoopedmeupi nahugsqueezingme
makingmyfeetleavetheground
Me:
"Iam sosor
ryshehi
tyoubaby
"
Keenan:"
im sor
rytoobaby
"Istar
tedcryi
nghe
walkedt
ot hecouchwit
hmest i
lli
nhisarms
andsatdownmaki ngmelaybetweenhisthi
ghs
Me: "
Idon'twanttol
osemymot
herov
ert
his
keenanIjustfoundher
"
Keenan:"y
ouwon'
tthandolwam shewil
lcome
around"hewi
pedmyt ear
sbuttheykept
runni
ngdown
Me:
"Ican'
tbel
i
eveshe'
ssocr
uel
"
Keenan:
"she'
snotcr
uelshej
ustgoesabouta
wrongwayofprot
ect
ingyou"
Me:"younotbadIdon'
tneedpr
otect
ionf
rom
you"
Keenan:
"Ihav
eabadpast
"
Me:"exact
lypastnotpr
esentsheshoul
dn'
t
t
reatyouli
kethat"
Keenan:
"itok"
Me:"
ithur
tsmewhenshet
reat
syoul
i
key
ou
j
ustwantmykush"
Keenan:
"Il
ovey
ou"
Me:
"Il
ovey
ou"
Keenan:
"why
"
Me: "
youtallandhandsomemyv eryownbad
boy "welaughedhewi pedmyt earswi thhi
s
thumbnpr essedhisli
psonmi nesoftlysucki
ng
onmybot tom li
pweki ssedIsatuppr oper
ly
straddli
nghim aswedeepenedt hekisswe
endedupmakinglov
eont
hecouchndr
if
ti
ng
offt
osleeponit
.
.
Nkany
iso.
..
.
I
ml ayi
nginbedt hinki
ngabouttheepi
c
weekendIjusthadwhi l
eshe'
sonmychest
r
unningherfingersovermytatt
oo
Sethu:"Idon'
tgett histatt
ooIgetall t
heother s
j
ustnott hi
s"yepy our eadcorrectl
ySethuandI
spenttheweekendt ogetherIwentov erher
apartmentlookingf orSinoonlytofindoutshe
mov edinwi t
hthati di
otkeenanSet huwasj ust
i
nal owcutv estsnpant yIcouldn'
thelpmy self
shespentt heweekendi nmyapar tmentit
wasn'tthefir
sttimeany waywe'vebeenf ucking
foroveramont hj ustonadownl ownobody
knowingIguessherboy fr
iendain'
thit
tingit
ri
ghtandIdon' tcareImeanwhatguydoesn' t
l
ikesexwi thnost ri
ngs
Me:
"itcompl
i
cat
edy
ouwoul
dn'
tgeti
t"
Sethu: "
thest orm"sher eadoutmyt attooit
i
nkeddi rect l
ytowher emyhear tisonl ySino
andIunder standthemeani ngbehi ndmyt at
too
Ihav emov edonbutIhav entforget t
enandI
don'twantherbackl ov i
ngt hatgir
l comeswi t
h
alotofmi seryunfortunatel
yLungel ocan't
mov eoni ti ssosadshe' sgothi m wr apped
aroundhert inyfi
ngerhecan' tevenseest rai
ght
whatSi noandIhadwasmagi cbuti twasmor e
l
ustt henl oveoursexual chemi str
yi s
i
ntoxicatingt hethi
ngst hatgirlcandowi thher
bodyi senought odriveapast orcrazyandher
ti
ghthotcunti soutoft hi
swor l
dImadea
mistakeoff all
ingforherwhi l
eIknewmy
brotherhadbeeni nlov ewithherf ory ear
s
Set
hu:
"Nkany
iso!
"
Me:
"yeahwhat
'
sup"
Set
hu:
"beent
alki
ngt
oyoui
m hungr
y"
Me:"
youeatal
ot"shepout
edIlaughed
gr
abbedmyphone"whatdoyouwanaeat"
Set
hu:
"not
hing"
Me:
"comeonSi
phoset
hu"
Set
hu:
"imf
ine"
Me:
"wasj
oki
ngwhatdoy
ouwantt
oeat
"
Set
hu:"bur
gerwit
hlotoffri
esthosechi
cken
st
ri
psfrom kf
candhotwi ngs"Il
aughed"
don't
st
artNkanyi
soimjusthungry"
Me: "
Ididntsayany thing"Icall
edkfcplacedan
ordergotof fthebedputonmysweat pants
gaveherasof tpeckonherl ipsshegiggledand
rol
ledtot heot hersidegivingmeherbackIj ust
shookmyheadsmi li
ngwentt othebathroom
washedmyf acet ookoutmyt ongueri
ngIt ook
atowel r
ani tov erwar m waterwenttot hebed
pull
edbackt hecov ersshel etoutasoftscream
Iopenedupherl egsIcouldst i
llseemyj ui
ces
l
eakingoutofherIwi pedhercl eangaveher
kushaki ssshegi ggledshy l
yItookmyshi rton
thefl
oorputi tonher
Sethu:"
youcanbesweetsomet
imesi
fyou
decidet
oputasi
deyourjer
ksway"
Me:
"yeahwel
ltakei
torl
eav
eit
"
Sethu:
"I'
vebeent
aki
ngi
tfor6weeks"I
chuckl
ed
Me:"
youcounti
ng"shejumpedofft
hebed
st
oodonhertoeskissedmycheek
Sethu:"
may be"shewal kedawaygoingoutof
thebedroom leavingmewi t
hagoof ysmil
eout
ofallt
hegirl
si m chill
ingwit
hSethugetstome
she'ssoplayf
ul ngi r
lyitcut
eIfol
lowedherout
foundherintheki tchenmov i
ngherhipswhil
e
eati
ngchips
Me:
"yougoingt
ogetfati
fyoukeepgoi
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i
ke
t
hat
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ulofchi
ps
Set
hu:"openyourmout h"Ididshestuf
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chi
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mouthoccupied"Inoddednchewedont he
chi
psIgrabbedherwai stl
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owat
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v
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ouknowIpr
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out
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i
ket
his"
Set
hu:"
im notgoi
ngt
ogainweightNkany
iso
st
optal
kingaboutmybody
"Ichuckl
ed
Me:
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ouchy
"
Set
hu:
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oleav
eaf
terdi
nner
"
Me:
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e"
Set
hu:
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ost
ay"
Me:
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ify
oul
eav
eorst
ay"
Set
hu:
"doy
ouwantmet
ost
ay"
Me:
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ce"
Set
hu:"mmhim st
ay i
ngI
dli
kear
oundi
nthe
morni
ng"Il
etoutaloudl
augh
Me:
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ngy
oust
ay"shegav
e
measmi r
k
Set
hu:
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be"
Me:
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i
kemycompanyst
opf
ool
i
ngy
our
sel
f"
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ledherey
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ercom wentoffI
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etheguywascomi ngupIwentt owaitat
thedoorIpai
dgotthefood
Me:
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sher
e"
Set
hu:
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eatbr
ingmeagl
assofwat
er"
Me:"shot
"Igotherwat
erwestart
edeat
ing
whi
lewatchingsomestupi
dshowert
hatSethu
wasenjoyi
ng
Me:
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chagame"
Sethu:"
nope"Igr
oanedshej
ustgi
ggl
eddi
pped
herstr
ipinsauce
Me:
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nint
heass"
Set
hu:"
Ili
key
ourassi
tsot
ightandr
ound"I
l
aughed
Me:"
shutup"shest
uckhert
ongueouti
gr
abbeditpul
l
ingi
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Set
hu:
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upi
d"
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isi
twei
rdt
hatwat
chingyoust
uffyour
facetur
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aughedIwasjust
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ngwhi
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ti
ngmybottom l
i
p
Set
hu:
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dandIdr
athery
ouwai
tfor
metofi
nisheat
ingbef
oreyoumakey
ourmove"
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shupf ast"shetookahugebit
eoff
herburgerandwiggledherey ebr
owsIjust
l
aughedpul l
edhertosi tbet
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iedoneating
Set
hu;
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sschool
goi
ng"
Me:
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nyoursi
de"
Set
hu:"
kindabor
ingj
ustwi
shIdi
dsomet
hing
el
se"
Me:
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dn'
tyou"
Set
hu:"
mom want edadoct
or"shesi
ghedI
ki
ssedhercheek
Me:"t
hisi
sonethi
ngIli
keaboutbei
ngher
eour
par
entsar
enotaroundt
obedictat
ors"
Set
hu:"
yeahIhat
ebei
ngathomesomet
imes
hav
ingt
obesomeoneim not
"
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fi
stonmydad' sjawwhenhedoesn' tstopwit
h
thechurchbull
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ouknow"shegi ggl
ed"'you
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yourmessonedayy ougonnabeapr eacher
peoplewilll
ookuptoy ou'l
ikeIwanabea
preacher"
Set
hu:"y
ouknowifwewer et
ogetmar
ri
edyou
wouldsobeapreacherandI
dbeapr
eacher
's
wif
e"shegi
ggl
ed
Me:
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dmar
ryme"
Set
hu:
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tknow"
Me:
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otal
cat
ch"
Set
hu:
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ouachi
l
d"Ichuckl
ed
Me: "
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giggl
edandnudgedmyst omach"forreal
thoughSethuim 21andy
ou23t hat'
snotbad"
Set
hu:
"Iguess"
Me:"see"Iki
ssedherheadsheputherfood
downandsnuggledclosert
omeput t
ingher
armsaroundmywai stIhel
dhercl
oseshelet
outasigh
.
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ri
ngdayoncampusi twas
Wednesdayni coleandIhadn' tspokensi nce
SundayIwentpastt hemallgotdi nnerwent
homeIl eftthefoodinthekitchenwentt ot ake
alongbat hjustsoakingmysel fIhadmyey es
cl
osedwhenIf elthi
sl i
psonmi neIsmiledand
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ki
ssedf orawhilebeforehepul ledback
Keenan:"
Isur
ehopesomehowyouknewt hat
wasmebecauseIdhatet
othi
nkyoujustkiss
anybody
"
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oolof
cosIknewityouIcansmel
l
f
rom ami l
eaway
"hesmiledandkissedmy
f
orehead
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oiny
ou"
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eah"hestr
ippedqui
ckl
yandgoti
nbehi
nd
meandstart
edmassagingmyshoul
dersI
l
eanedinonhist
ouch
Me:
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ovey
ouDamon"hechuckl
ed
Keenan:
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easedon'
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lmet
hat
"Igi
ggl
ed
Me:
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eryownDamon"
Keenan:
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"wefini
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nggotout
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rontoft
heTVthe
doorbel
lrangKeenanwenttoopen
Keenan:"
real
l
yni
col
est
opshowi
ngup
uni
nvit
ed"
Ni
c:"
mov
easi
de"
Keenan:"
oohshi
t"Ij
ustsighedas3pair
sof
foot
stepscamei
ntotheloungeIjumpedof
fthe
couchwhenIsawdad
Me:
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"
Dad:
"Si
nov
uyo"Il
ookeddownt
heonl
yti
medad
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l
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sdi
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nted
i
nmeandmadatme
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dn'
tknowy
ouwer
einj
hb"
Dad:
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hercal
l
edme"
Me:
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heri
sindbn"
Dad:"shutup"Ilookeddownagai
nplayingwi t
h
mynai l
s"isthi
showy ouwererai
sedleaving
withaguyunmar r
iedaguyt
hatisyourbrother
evenwor se"
Keenan:
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elat
ed"
Dad:"
shutupbef
oreIpunchy
ouony
ourf
ace
andgi
veusspace"
Me:
"daddy
"
Dad:
"Si
nov
uyodon'
ttestme"
Me:
"sor
ry"
Dad:"haveyougotnomor al
snoshame
shackingupwi t
hy ourmother
'sst
epsonwhat
am Ipayingrentforint
hatapart
mentify
oujust
goingt
ocomeher ebesomeone' swi feareyou
outofyourmindSinovuyoy ougoingt olower
yourst
andardtakeeverythi
ngt hatyourmom
andIworkhardtoinstal
liny oujustthrowitout
thedoorforaguyyoul i
ke4mont hsago"
Me:
"itnotl
i
ket
hat
"
Dad:
"howi
sitl
i
ke"
Me:
"Il
ovehi
m"
Keenan:
"Il
ovehert
oo"
Dad:
"di
dInott
ell
youtogiveusspaceandy
ou
Si
novuy
owhatdoy ouknowaboutl
ove"
Me:
"daddyi
.."Heputhi
shandupsi
l
enci
ngme
Dad:
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ourt
hingswel
eav
ing"
Me:
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Dad:
"now!
"
Me:
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"
Dad:
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oughtmyey
ebr
owst
oget
her
t
ight
enedmyli
ps
Dad:
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nov
uyo"
Me:
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Dad:
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no"
Me:
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Dad:
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Me:
"mmh"
Dad:
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nov
uyo"
Me:
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"Iputmyf
ootdown
Dad:
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nci
"
Me:
"Il
ovehi
m"hesi
ghednl
ookedatni
col
e
Ni
c:"
no"herv
oicewassobr
oad
Dad:
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nov
uyo"Il
ookedatni
col
e
Me:
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eyou"Iwentupkeenanf
oll
owedme
Keenan:
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tgo"
Me:"nochoi
ceI
'
llcomebackwhendaddygoes
backhome"
Dad:"younotcomingback"hewasstandi
ngby
thedoorIjustl
ookedathi
m packedone
suit
case
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Dad:"noy
ounotIknowy
oupackupyour
cl
othesSi
nov
uyoyoumovingi
nwit
hnicol
e"
Me:
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m not
"
Dad:
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ouar
e"
Me:
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"
Dad:"pack"Ist
art
edcr yi
ng"thatwon'twork
pack"Ipackeduponemor esuitcaseal
ongwi t
h
myschool thi
ngshecar r
iedthem outto
Nicol
e'scarIwasfol
lowingbehi ndhim he
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engivemeami nutealonewi t
h
KeenandaddyandIgoti nmycarhedr oveI
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sappoi
ntedi
nyouSi
nov
uyo"
Me:
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rydaddy
"
Dad:
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syourst
epbr
other
"
Me:
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Dad:"
asforl
ivi
ngwithhi
m GodSinovuyoyou
needpray
erIshoul
dbetakingyouhomeas
soonasyourexamsareoveryoucominghome"
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r"
Dad:"
Godwheredi
dIgowr ongwi
thy
ouwhy
can'
tyoubel
i
keyoursi
ster
"
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"
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phosethudi
sappoi
ntme
l
ikey ouhav ethat
'sal
lyoukeepgiv
ingme
disappointments"
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m sor
ry"
Dad:"f
ir
sti
twast her
unningawayfoll
owedby
dati
nginhi
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lpregnantnow
thi
sJesusSinov
uy oy
ougoingtogivemea
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ookedout
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Dad:
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es"
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Dad:
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aightt
ocampusandcomeback
ni
col
esaidshewill
giv
eyouadri
ver
"
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'snotf
air
"
Ni
c:"
cel
l
phone"Igav
ehermyphone
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hyourf
ri
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comeherei
fyoucan'
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ngyoubacktodbnyoucangotoUkzn"
Ni
c:"l
uzukonowt
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eIneedher
t
hissi
de"
Dad:"
youcan'
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tyourf
aul
tshe
evenmethi
m"
Ni
c:"
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iedgi
vemesomecr
edi
twhatwasI
supposedt
odochasehi
m outofhi
shome"
Dad:
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'snotwhati
m say
ing"
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osl
eep"
Dad:
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col
ewi
l
lkeepy
ourphoneandcarkey
s"
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tev
enusemycar
"
Dad:
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Me:
"sobasi
cal
l
yimi
npr
ison"
Ni
c:"
don'
tl
ookati
tli
ket
hat
"
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ear
eyousl
eepi
ngdaddy
"
Dad:
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tment
"
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eftt
hem t
her
e
wenttocrymysel
ftosl
eep
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iso
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opeatme
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'sgoi
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t"Idi
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om apregnancytest
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egnant
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hu:
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onsi
m sur
est
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hu:
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m down"
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hu:
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upi
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egnant
"
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enmi
ne"
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hu:"Ibr
okeupwi
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i
mf uckn4weekspr
egnant"Ifel
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hu:
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aul
t"
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kehel
li
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hu:
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iso!
"
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ooked
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phosethu!
!"
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hu:"
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hu:"
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li
ng
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ont hefloorburr
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ftupwhenIgott ot hedoori twasn' t
l
ockt hatjustpissedmeof fsinceshe's
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ke
thedoorshoul dbel ockedt hewhol eti
meshe
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l
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heybaby
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ookedatmethrewtheice
cream t
ubatmeIduckedi
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ta
hugestain
Me: "
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m babyify
ou
goingtobethrowi
ngthi
ngsaroundyourai
m
needstobegood"Iswearifl
ookscouldki
l
lI'
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bedeadrightnow
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hu:
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!!
"
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"no"
Set
hu:
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ouwantNkany
iso"
Me: "
you"Ir
anmyt ongueri
ngov ermyli
pshe
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ckbr eathsIwal
kedt oherl
i
fted
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Set
hu:
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erk"
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erky
our
sonl
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om nowonand
youst
uckwit
hme"
Set
hu:
"hhu"
Me:
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"
Set
hu:
"yes"
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handwhi l
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l
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om now
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edacover
overus
Set
hu:
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ed"
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eI'
l
lbeher
ethroughev
eryt
hingI
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lowanythi
ngt
ohappentoyoutwo"she
noddedandkissedmychest
Sethu:
"youmeantwhatyousai
daboutbei
ng
minenmi neal
oneoryouwerej
usthor
ny"I
chuckl
ed
Me: "i
my our
sSiphosethui
nev er
ywayjust
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edpressedherhandsonmy
chestgavemeki ss
Set
hu:
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Me:
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ouknowi
m expect
ingt
hesame
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rom y
ou"
Sethu:"
im pr
egnanti
tnotli
keI'
ll
begoi
ng
aroundfucki
ngandfl
irt
ingwit
hpeopl
e"
Me:"ouchim hur
tsoyouonlymi
necozIgot
youknockedup"shegiggl
ed
Set
hu:
"may
be"
Me:
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ari
m al
lyouneed"shesi
ghed
Set
hu:"myparent
sar
egoi
ngt
obeso
di
sappoi
nted"
Me:"i
twil
lpassthebabyi
sherenowther
e's
not
hingwecandoaboutitbutl
ookfor
wardto
bei
ngthebestparent
sint
heworld"
Set
hu:
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ngt
oleav
eme"
Me:
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erI
'
llbeher
eev
eryst
epoft
heway
"
Sethu:"
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si
lentunti
lIheardherbreat
hingpatt
ernhad
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edheroutbutshedi dn'
trepl
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ftedofft
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ningIopenedmyeyesand
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e
Nic:"wakeupbabyy ougoingt obelate"Irol
led
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acketIfixedmyhai rwalkedoutt heclosettook
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rsIhadbr eakfastnicole
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ng
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Ronnywill
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veyou"Ij
ustlookedather
conti
nuedwitheat
ingshesatdownopposite
me" Domini
cyourfat
herandIjustwantwhat'
s
bestfory
ouandkeenanisnotit"
Me:"im Si
nov
uy oKwanel
eDeynotDomini
cand
Iguessamarriedmaniswhat
'sbestf
orme"
Ni
c:"
Nikky
!"
Me: "
justst
ayoutofmylif
eNicol
e"Ist
oodup
tookmybagwentoutt hehouseRonnywas
alr
eadywaiti
nginthecarhegotoutwhenhe
sawme
Ronny
:"mor
ningMsSmi
th"
Me:"
itDeynotSmi
thandpl
easecal
lmeSi
no"
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edandnodded
Ronny
:"Si
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n
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ngof
f
Me:
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dar
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"
Ronny
:"23"
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edandlookedatmeon
ther
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rr
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:"noma'
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ry"hel
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lyI
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ggled
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no"
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:"canIsaysomet
hing"
Me:"
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deri
ngt
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hat
"
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eahI
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m not
"
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ngseparat
edfrom
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ngtodowiththat
"
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Ronny
:"st
afft
alks"
Me:
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cos"
Ronny
:"y
oubeautif
ulbyt
heway
"thewayhe
sai
dmademebl ush
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ou"
Ronny:"
youwelcome"wer
emai
nedi
nsi
l
ence
unt
ilheplay
edsomemusic
Me:
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on"
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:"i
m sor
rybutMr
sSmi
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emest
ri
ct
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nstr
uct
ionsst
rai
ghtt
ocampust
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home"
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engot
othemal
l
"
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:"y
es"
Me:
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fIneedt
obuysani
tar
ypads"
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m guessi
ngoneofthemai dswi
l
lbuy
them f
oryouwhent heydogrocer
ies"
Me:
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l
shi
t"hechuckl
ed
Ronny
:"Iknowbuti
tyourmot
her
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der
s"
Me:
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aughed
Ronny
:"notpossi
ble"
Me:"weshal
lseeRonny
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terwhatf
eltl
ikean
hour wegottocampushegotoffwit
hme
Ronny
:"I
'
llbecl
osebutI
'
llgi
vey
ouy
ourspace"
Me: "
yeahsur
ewhatever
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assti
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ewbysooniwas
backathomeIhadlunchwenttosl
eep.
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vi
nwokemeup
Me:
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ubbedmyey
es
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vi
n:"
heysi
sKeenansai
dtogi
vey
out
his"i
t
wasani
6s
Me:
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edi
dyouseehi
m"
Kel
vi
n:"
mal
lwehadl
unch"
Me:
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hanky
ou"
Kel
vi
n:"
hemi
ssesy
ou"Ismi
l
ed
Me:
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dthat
"
Kel
vi
n:"
yesandIcoul
dseei
thi
smi
ser
abl
e"
Me:
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sshi
mtoo"If
rownedhechuckl
ed
Kelv
in:"
shamecal
lhi
mital
readysetupwi
th
ever
ythi
ng"
Me:"thankyou"Iki
ssedhischeekhewalked
outIunlockedthephoneandcall
edKeenan
Keenan:
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wam"
Me:
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ssy
ousobad"
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ethanImi
ssy
ou"
Me:
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air
"
Keenan:"
Iknowbaby
"hesi
ghed"
doy
ouwant
met ocomether
e"
Me:
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ou"
Keenan:
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ather
'shouse"
Me:"
don'
tyout
hinkweshouldj
ustgi
veni
col
e
t
imetoadj
ustt
ousbeingtoget
her
"
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l
lnev
eracceptourr
elat
ionshi
p"
Me:
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our
ight
"
Keenan:
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ngt
her
e"
Me:
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'
llseey
ousoon"
Keenan:
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ovey
ou"
Me:"
lov
ey oumor e"IdroppedthecallIgotoff
t
hebedwentt obathgotoutwor emywar m pj
s
t
ookmynewphonewentt owat chtvIsetupall
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ri
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dn'
tsay
anything"Domini
cpleaseyouhav etosee
thi
ngsf rom mypointofvi
ew"
Me:
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tunder
standwhyy
ouhat
ehi
m"
Nic:"
Idon'
that
ehi
m Ij
ustt
hinky
oudeser
ve
bett
er"
Me:"what'
swr ongwithhi
m hi seducat
ed,good
l
ooking,helovesmeandr espectsme, hi
sa
goodjob,hetreat
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for
getthathisbeyondhandsomemost
i
mpor t
antl
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Ni
c:"
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ugpr
obl
em"
Me:
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orehab"
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cedmynei cetoterminatea
pregnancy"Ipr
etendedtonotbef azedbuti
t
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old
met hathemadeBi ancapregnant
Me:
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orceaper
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odot
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ditcozshewant
edt
oit
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Ni
c:"
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okeherhear
t"
Me:"soyoudon'
twantustoget
herbecauseof
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"Istoodup"ni
cetoknowthatherhappi
ness
comesfir
st"
Nic:"
babythat
'snotwhati
m sayi
nghi
sgoingto
hurtyouIdon'
twantwhathedidtoBi
ancato
happentoyou"
Me:"
doy ouknowshesai
dIam y
ourwor
st
mi
stake"
Ni
c:"
what
"shest
oodup
Me:"
yourpr
eci
ousBiancacal
l
edmeyourwor
st
mi
stakesai
dim notwel
comeher
e"
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ssheoutofhermind!NikkyIloveyou
withallofmyhear ty
oumydaught ermyfir
st
bornthisisyourhomeandnotadaygoesby
whereIdon'tregrett
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elostwithyou
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omakey oufeell
ikeyou
notwant edi
ny ourownhome"
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ever
"
Ni
c:"
Nikky
"
Andr
e:"
dinneri
sreadyMr
sSmi
th"
Ni
c:"t
hankyou"henoddedandl
eft"
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pl
easecal
lyourbr
other
"
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sure"Iwentt
ocall
Kelvi
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ngroom westar
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le
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eningtoKelvi
ntal
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pto
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ngf
ami
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y"hesatnextt
o
Kel
vinruf
fl
edhi
shair
Ni
c:"
whaty
oudoi
ngher
e"
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ingdi
nnerof
cos"
Ni
c:"
leav
e"
Kel
vi
n:"
mom no"
Keenan:
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ather
'shouseNi
col
e"
Ni
c:"
wel
lhi
snother
eyoucanl
eav
e"
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opi
tNi
col
e"
Ni
c:"
Nikkyhei
..
."
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col
e!"
Ni
c:"
don'
trai
sey
ourv
oiceatme"
Me:
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g"Ipushedbackt
hechai
randst
oodup
Kel
vi
n:"
youupset
ti
nghermom"
Me:"
im donewit
hthi
sandi
m cer
tai
nlydone
wi
thyounicol
e"
Ni
c:"
Domi
nic"
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Kelvi
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atat
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oungeal
ongwi
th
securi
ty
Keenan:
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ehavey
oubeen"Ij
ust
l
ookedathim conti
nuedwit
hmywal
k
Ni
c: "
Domi
nic!
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oll
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ki
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ewer
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ery
onebeenl
ooki
ng
foryou"
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iousl
ynothar
denough"
Mam' nkosi
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mthatf
or
you"Iwaspour i
ngmilki
nacup
Me:
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hemi
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e
Keenan:
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'swr
ong"
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ir
edKeenanpl
easegi
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ktome"Isatup
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ougotBi
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eda
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se
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ledmet ohi m
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bodyheputhisl
egbetweenmine"
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et
goofme"
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Me:
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th"
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nov
uyodey
"
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g"
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fyouwon'tl
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wit
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air
"
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e
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ovey
ou"
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ovey
out
oo"
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et'
ssl
eep"
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oke
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ldi
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ce"
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alkingonthe
phone
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ll
ookedatme
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fi
c"
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o'
sbabymama"
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:"whatdi
dshedoy
out
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ngwi
th
herman"
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okeup"
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het
oldy
out
hatcozi
tdoesn'
tseem l
i
ke
t
hat"
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lki
nda"
Gugu:
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nda?
"
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hedidn'
ttel
lmebutshe'
sdat
ingsome
whi
teguy
"
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:"mmh"
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itnotfai
rshe'
stwot
imi
nghi
m hedoesn'
t
deservethat"
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:"l
i
fei
sn'
tfai
r"
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oputt
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ichbr
atsi
n
t
heirpl
aces"
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:"whowi
l
l..You?
" Wel
aughed
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ki
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on
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ookedatus
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nor
ightLungel
o'
sbabymama"
Sino:"It
hinky
oumeant hemotherofhischi
ld
babymamaki ndasoundsrat
chetdon'tyou
think"
Gugu:"l
i
stenherest
ayawayf
rom hi
m"Si
no
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ookedaway
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no:"
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pl
acefewweeksback"
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ookher
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sisnothi
ghschool I
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imefordramaifyouwantLungelo
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twantyouthenthat
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sit
uationi
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hme"
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edofgi r
lsli
keyouthi
nki
ngtheycan
j
usttakeandt akeevenwhatdoesn'
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them any
mor e"
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no:"GodIdon'thav
et i
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hi
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tdot
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fIwer
eyou"
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itokRonnyi twasj usta
mi sunderstandingjustsoy ouknowNombuso
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wayov erbecausewhenIt ellhi
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it
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?ButIdi
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hing"shewal
ked
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:"Nombusodon'
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tal
lyourf
aul
tGuguwhatwer
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t
hinki
ng"
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ryi
ngt
ohel
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oodup
Me: "
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tthem
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way
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l
o"
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o:"
wher
ear
eyou"
Me:
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ki
ngt
othecaf
e"
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tnow"hedropped
thecallIexhal
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ngupndown
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urnedandl
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uckiswr
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nced
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m
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ryIt
ri
edst
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o:"
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toffeel
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cosnot
"
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uststayt
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om herandst ayoutof
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ry"
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tmest andingther ewith
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ngIl ookeddownt hewhol ewayasI
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omydear
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nge
Me:
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eyou"
Pat:"
im goodoawhi
l
eitbeenhowar
eyoumy
Afr
icanqueen"
Me;
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ine"
Pat
:"Iam backfrom LagosIcomewi thgif
tsf or
myqueencanIseey outoni
ght"Ithoughtabout
i
tI'
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endsandI
methim atthemalli
nt hebegi
nningofthey ear
Me:
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oni
ghti
sfi
ne"
Pat
:"goodgoodIwi
l
lsendy
ouadr
iver
"
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ri
ckisa
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nessmanhi s43buthet akescareofhis
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.
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!!
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doest hisfuck!!I'
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goest ov oicmailIletoutl otoff uckst hanIgo
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i
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nky
:"hey
"
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eisCi
ndy
"
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nky
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nherr
oom comei
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easecal
lherf
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edCi
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othe
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Ci
ndy
:"hey
"
Me:
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"
Ci
ndy
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Me:
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l
edhert o
meki ssedherhardsheki ssedmebackj ustas
hardIlift
edherupwal kedust omybedr oom I
threwheront hebed
Me:
"st
ri
p"
Ci
ndy
:"what
"
Me: "takeof fy
ourclothes"Istartedtakingmy
clothesof fshedidthesameIt ookacondom
from thedr awerputitont hebedgotont opof
herwewentbackt okissingteethclashingli
p
biti
ngt ypeofkissesIst ar
tedfingerfuckingher
untilshewassoaki ngwetIpul ledbackf r
om
herlipst hr
ewt hecondom athersher ippedthe
foilandsuckedmehar dfir
stgaggingher sel
f
whenIwasaboutt ocomeshepul l
edmeoutof
hermout hputont hecondom
Me: "t
urnaround"sheobey
edandposi
ti
oned
herselfindoggyposi
ti
onIslammedi
ntoher
hardshecr i
edoutIwentoutonl
ytosl
am i
nto
herhar dagain
Cindy:"Lungel
oithurt
s"Igrabbedherhair
yankingithardshefacedtheroofIkepton
fucki
ngherhar dIfel
thermusclestight
ening
aroundmeIpul ledoutshegroaned
Cindy
:"don'
tyouf
uckndar
eLungel
o"Ispanked
hersohardacoupl
eofti
mesherasstur
nedr ed
Me: "
Iwon'tl
etyoucomei fyoudon'tshutyour
mout h"Isl
ammedi ntoheragai
nshescr eamed
Ikeptongoi nguntilshecamebutIdidn'tst
opI
fuckedherunt i
lherkushmadef ar
tnoisesI
turnedherov ercr
ossedherlegsputthem on
myshoul derIwenthar dIbi
therni
ppleintoa
pointofbloodasIcameaf t
ercomingI
collapsednexttoher
Ci
ndy
: "
whatwasthataboutLungel
oyouhur
t
meeverypar
tofmybodyissore"
Me:
"di
dyoucome"
Ci
ndy
:"y
es"
Me:
"di
dyouenj
oy"
Ci
ndy
:"y
es"
Me:
"st
opcompl
aini
ng"
Cindy
;"oh"someoneknockedIgotof
fthebed
putonmyj eans
Me:
"getdr
essed"
Ci
ndy
:"ok"Iwentt
oopeni
twasNkany
iso
Nka:
"mybr
other
"Il
ethi
min
Me:
"what
'sup"
Nka:"
getdressedwegoi
ngcl
ubbi
ngIneedt
o
cel
ebr
ate"
Me:
"cel
ebr
atewhat
"
Nka:
"guess"
Me:
"tel
lmef
ool
"
Ci
ndy;
"Lungel
oim done"shewasdr
essed
st
andi
ngnexttot
hecouchIwassitt
ingon
Me:
"cool
I'
ll
cal
lyouwe'
l
ltal
k"
Ci
ndy
:"oh.
.,
okby
e"
Nka;
"by
e"Irol
l
edmyey
esshel
eft"
youf
ucki
ng
Ci
ndybra"
Me:"mxm leav
ethatshi
tal
onesowhatwe
cel
ebrat
ing"
Nka:
"im goi
ngt
obeadaddy
"Il
aughedunt
ilI
sawhewasser
ious
Me:
"whi
chonedi
dyouknockup"
Nka:
"Set
hu"
Me:
"Set
hu?
"
Nka:
"Si
phoset
huDey
"
Me:
"noway
s"
Nka:
"yesway
s"
Me:"you'vebeenf ucki
ngsino'ssister
"he
noddedwi thahugesmi rk"fuckbr aSinowi
l
l
fl
i
p"hej ustlaughedstupi
df ool.
.
Si
no.
..
Iwasspendingt heweekendatKeenan'
splace
Nicol
estil
ldi
dn'tapprovebutt
herewasn'
tmuch
shecoulddoabouti tsoshesai
dIcouldspend
weekendswi t
hkeenanandweekday sathome.
KeenanandIhadj ustcamebackf r
om di
nner
hewasint hestudydoingsomewor khi
sboss
cal
ledwhil
ewewer ehavi
ngdinnersayi
ngshe
needshimtodosomet hi
ngsoIwaswat chi
ng
tvwhil
ehavingwi
netheinter
com rangIwentt
o
answer
Me:
"hel
l
o"
Lungel
o;"
open"
Me:
"Lungel
o?"
Nka:"
andme"Iopenedt hegateandwentto
l
eavethedooropentheygotinaft
erafew
minut
esandtheseidi
otsweredrunk
Me:
"whoi
sdr
ivi
ngwheny
'al
lbot
hdr
unk"
Lungel
o:"Iam honey
"
Nka:"
Iloveyousomuchbuddy"Ichuckl
ed"
you
andLungeloar
ejustt
hebest
"
Lungel
o:"
grouphug"Il
aughedast
heypul
l
ed
meupweshar edagrouphug
Nka:
"Igotgr
eatnews"
Me:
"iml
i
steni
ng"
Nka:
"im goi
ngt
obeadaddycany
oubel
i
evei
t"
Me:
"wow!
!"
Lungel
o:"
guesswhoi
sthemot
her
"
Me:
"who"
Them:
"Set
hu"t
heyl
aughedbutIdi
dnt
Me:
"whatt
hef
uckdoy
oumeanSet
hu"
Nka:
"yepy
oursi
steri
spr
egnantwi
thmychi
l
d"
Me:"
areyoustupi
dhowi
nthehel
lcany
ouf
uck
mysi
sterNkanyi
sodl
ami
ni"
Lungel
o:"whatyouwanthimt of
uckyouImean
consi
deri
ngthatyousti
l
lfuckmeev ent
hough
youwit
hthatwhiteboydoy oust
il
lwantt
ofuck
Nkanyi
soaswel l
"
Nka:"
shi
tbr
ayoutwoarest
il
lfucki
ngno
wondery
oucan'
tmoveon"
Me:
"shutup"
Lungel
o:"
behappyf
orNkany
isost
opbei
ng
sel
fi
sh"
Me:"
Iam happyforhi
m butwhydi
dhehav
eto
sl
eepwi
thmysi st
er"
Nka:"
maybeim meantt
ohaveachil
dwitha
Deygi
rlsi
nceyouki
ll
edourchi
l
d"Igasped
Keenan:
"bothofyououtofmyhousebef or
eI
comedownt her
eandbeatbot hyourasses"I
l
ookeduphewasst andi
ngbythestair
casehis
facewasredwithveinsal
loverhisf
orehead
andneckIfel
tli
kemyhear twantedtojumpout
ofmychest
Nka:"
noneedt obehostil
elet'
sgetoutofhere
br
o"heclenchedhisfi
ststheyfol
l
owedeach
ot
heroutIheardthecardrivi
ngoffkeenanandI
werej
ustlooki
ngateachot her
Me:"
babyIcanexpl
ain"Icoul
dhearmyv
oice
br
aki
ng
Keenan:
"don'
tbot
her
"hewal
kedaway
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08/
12,
21:
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:Inser
t35
.
Me: "keenanwai t!
"Ir anupt hestai r
s" baby !"He
gotinhi sstudywhenIt ri
edopeni ngt hedoori t
wasl ocked" keenanpl easel etmei nl etme
explain"Iknockedbuthedi dn'topenIst arted
cryi
ngbutIdi dn'tst opknocki ng" itfi
neDamon
I'
ll
wai theref oryout ofinishandcomeoutt o
me"hedi dn'
tsayany thingIkeptonknocki ng
unti
l myhandst art edt ohur tIstoppedIwent
backdownst airswi t
hmyheadhangi ngIwent
totheki t
chengotmybot tleofwi nef rom t he
fri
dgeIwentt osi tout sidebyt hepool sinking
myf eetinit.Ifyoui nthest udyy ougetav i
ewof
thepool njacuzzi Istay edt heredr i
nkingwhen
thebot tl
ewasf i
nishedIst umbl edbacki nt he
housegotanot herbot tlewentbackout side.
.
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throughthewindowt hecurtainswerenot
closedisatupIwaswear i
nghi stshir
thisside
ofthebedl ookedlikeithasn'tbeensleptthere
wasagl assofor angejuiceonmybedsi deit
wasst il
lcoldalongwi t
hapocketofadcol It ook
twogul peddownt heJui ce.Igotoffthebed
madei twentt othebat hroom washedmyf ace
thenrinsedmymout hafterthatIwentlooki ng
forKeenanhewasn' taroundt hehousebutt he
bedroom att heendoft hepassagewasn' t
madeIguesshesl eptItookmyphonecal l
ed
him butitrangtov oi
cmai lmyt ear
sstarted
fal
li
ngIcal l
ed4t imesunt ilIdeci
dedtol eave
him av oi
cemessage
Me: "Iam sosor r
ybabypl easejusttalktome
l
etmeexpl ain"thebeepi ngsoundgotmeso
angryIt hrewmyphoneacr ossther oom ithit
thewal landbr okeIj ustl eftitt
here.Iwentback
tosleepmor elikeIcr iedmy sel
ft osleep.Iwoke
uplat eronIcoul dn'tignor ethehungerIwas
feel
ingIgotoutt hebedt ookashowerwor e
shortsandat ankt opIwentdownst air
stot he
kit
chenwar medl eftov erporkchopsandf r
ies
poursomewi newentt oeati nfrontofthetvI
wasst i
lleati
ngwhensomeoneknockedt he
f
rontdoorIwentt
oopeni
twasRonny
Me:
"RoRo"hechuckl
ed
Ronny
:"heySi
noIgotdel
i
ver
yforKeenan"
Me:"comei
n"hecamei
n wewentt
othe
l
oungeheputi
tdown
Ronny
:"I
'
llseey
oul
ater
"
Me:
"youbusy
"
Ronny:
"noI
'
llbei
nthebackroom Ijusthadto
pi
ckthi
suphesaidIshoul
dn'
tleav
ey oualone"
Me:
"soy
ouspoket
ohi
mtoday
"
Ronny:
"yeahhelef
tint
hemor
ningsay
inghi
s
gotwork"If
rowned
Me:
"oh"
Ronny
:"y
ouok?
"
Me:
"youhungr
y?"Hechuckl
ed
Ronny
:"nobutIcoul
deat
"
Me:
"gr
eat
!Si
tI'
l
lwar
m somef
oodf
ory
ou"he
pushedbackhi
shai
r
Ronny
:"wi
l
lthatbef
inewi
thkeenan"
Me:"y
eahwej usteat
ingt
oget
hernotl
i
kewe
hav
ingsex"hechuckl
ed
Ronny:"
guessso"hesatdownIwenttowarm
somefoodforhim gothi
m abeerwesatdown
eat
ing
Me:
"what
'st
hat
"Ipoi
ntedt
owhathecamewi
th
Ronny
:"pi
ctur
e"
Me:
"yousawi
t"
Ronny:"nope"Igotof ft
hecouchwentt oi
tlai
d
i
tcarefull
yont hefloorItr
iedteari
ngthe
cupboardbutcoul dn'
tRonnyl aughedandcame
tomehekneel ednexttomehet ookouta
pocketknifecutitthenopenedi t,
itwasst
il
l
wrappedinwhi tefoilIt
oreitoff
Me:
"ohmyGod"
Ronny
:"wow"i
twasabl
ackandwhi
tepi
ctur
e
ofmy selfhehadtakenitplayf
ull
ywi t
hhi s
phoneIguesshehadi tprintedoutand
enl
argedi twasinahugef rame.Ihadmyback
onthecamer abutmyf acewasf acingi fIwas
weari
nghi sshir
tandsockswi thmyweav e
unti
edf all
i
ngovermyshoul dersstandingatthe
bal
cony
Me:
"it.
.i
t.
."Ist
art
edt
ear
ingup
Ronny :
"itabsolutel
ybeaut i
fulyoul ook
breatht
akinglyamazi ng"Iranmyhandov ert he
messagewr i
ttenoni t*atfi
rstIdidn'tbeli
evei tI
wast erri
fi
edofi tneverthoughtI '
dallowmy self
tofeelitunti
lImety ouFebr uary14t hedayI
all
owedmy selftofal
l madlyinlov ewi t
hy ou. .
..
Thandol wam*i twaswr it
tenatt hebot tom
corner
Me:
"pl
easeexcusemeRonny
"
Ronny:"
ofcos"hestoodupandleftIwentto
l
ockafterhim IwenttobedIj
ustcri
edfeel
ing
l
ikethebiggestfool
inthewor
ldhet ooka
chancewi
thhisheartonmeandIl
ethi
m down
Icri
edmysel
ftosleep.
WhenIwokeupi twaslat
ethel i
ght
swer eon
thebedr
oom Keenanwassitti
ngonacor nerof
thebedl
ooki
ngatt hepi
ctur
ethatwasnow
hangi
ngonthewall i
nourbedroom Isatup
Me: "baby"helookedatmehi sfacewasblank
showi ngnoemot ionsbuthisey
eswer epuff
yn
red,hestoodupandwal kedoutthebedr
oom I
j
umpedof fthebedroom ranaft
erhim"keenan
please"Iheldhisarm"givemeachancet o
explain"
Keenan:"Idon'twantt ohearasi nglewordf r
om
youIdon'twantt ot
alktoyousopl easeletgo
ofmyar m befor eIdosomet hi
ngt hatIwi l
l
regret
"hesaidsocol dlyIremov edmyhandhe
wentdownst ai
r sIfol
lowedaf t
erhi m he
stoppedi
nt hel ounge
Keenan:
"whowasher
e"
Me:
"nobody
"
Keenan:
"don'
tfucknl
iet
omeDomini
cyou
bri
ngi
ngyourfuckbuddi
est
omyhouse"
Me:
"keenan"
Keenan:
"who,
the.
fuck.
was.
her
e"
Me:"
nooneIswear
"hetookthebeerbottl
e
t
hrewitov
ermyheadIl
etoutasoftscream
Keenan:"
Iguessy
ouusetwoplat
eswhenyou
eati
ngandyoudri
nkbeernwi
neatthesame
ti
me"
Me:"
Ronnybr
oughtt
hedel
i
ver
ywej
ustat
e
t
oget
her"
Keenan:
"youf
ucki
nghi
m aswel
l
"nowt
hathur
t
Me:
"Keenan"
Keenan:"Idon'twantanyguyinmyhousewhen
I
'm notherearewecl ear"her
oaredInodded
l
ikeamadper sonhest art
edpaci
ngthelounge
pul
li
nghishai r
Me:
"Iam sor
ryKeenan"
Keenan:
"yousor
ry.
..Yousor
ry"hefl
i
ppedt he
gl
asscoffeet
abl
eov erandi
tbrokei
ntopieces
hewassoangryhisfacewasredwithtear
s
comingdownhischeeks
Me:
"itwasami
stake"
Keenan:"amist
ake!
!Don'
tfucknpat
roni
zeme
Dominic"Iwasshi
ver
ing
Me:
"itonl
yhappenedonceIam sor
ry"
Keenan: "
Iguessthat
'ssupposedtomakeme
feelbett
er!Whathisdickacci
dent
all
yfel
lint
o
yourpussy ,
youfucknhavetheaudaci
tytobri
ng
them inmyhouse"
Me:"i
tnotl
ikethat
"hetookafewstr
ides
comingtomei wal
kedbackwardsf
astuntil
Ihi
t
thewall
helookedall
overmyfaceIfel
tli
ke
wett
ingmyself
Keenan:"
whymusty oubehav
elikeahoodrat
hoe"Ibl
i
nkedthetearsaway"i
sthathowyou
wantmet ot
reaty
ouhhuy ouwantmet ofuck
youl ikeahoesi ncey oubehav ingl i
keone
clearlyt her espectIshowy oui sn'twhaty ou
need"hepunchedt hewal lrightnextt omyf ace
Ifeltdr opsofpeewet t
ingmypant y"GodIwana
messy ouupsobadr ightnow"hemov edf rom
megi v i
ngmehi sback" j
ustgetoutofmyf ace
Domi nicbef oreIhur ty oubecauser i
ghti ttaking
allmyst rengt htonotbeaty ouup"hedi dn't
hav et ot ellmet wi ceIr anupst airst oour
bedr oom If eltmyl egsget ti
ngwetasIcl osed
thedoorIr anf orthebat hroom t ookof fmy
shor tsandpant ywashedi tthent ookashower
gotoutwor emypj sIgotoutt hebedr oom
l
ookedar oundt hepassagehewasn' tt hereI
wentdownst airsIl ookedal laroundhewasn' t
thereIcl eanedupal ltheglassesi nthel oungeI
tookabot t
leofwi newentt owat chtvIwas
halfwayt hrought he2ndbot tl
eofwi newhenhe
walkedi nwi thpi zzahet hrewi tnextt omet ook
thewi neev ent heonet hatwasi nmyhandwi t
h
himt ot heki tchenIf ollowedhi m hepour edi tin
t
hesi
nk
Me:
"youl
ooksexy
"hewasi
nhi
sgy
m cl
othes
Keenan:"Iwill
notbeinarel
ati
onshi
pwit
ha
drunkar
di tbadenought
hatyoubehavel
ikea
hoe"
Me:"soi
m ahoenowKeenani
sthatwhaty
ou
seewhenyoul
ookatme"
Keenan:
"yes"
Me:
"fucky
ou"t
hanky
ouwi
ne
Keenan:"
fuckme?Real
ly
?Howaboutfuck
Lungel
oandNkanyi
soyoursocal
l
edf
ri
ends"
Me: "
ityourfaul
tifyoucouldmai ntainan
erect
ionlongenought oletmecomef i
rstI
wouldn'thavefuckedLungelo"fi
lterlef
tmy
mout hi
naspeedhehadmepr essedont he
wallchokingmemyf eetlef
tthegr oundIgot
soberthesamet i
me
Keenan:
"Iwanty
ououtofmyhouse"he
gri
ndedeachwordandl
etgoof
fmeIf el
l
Me: "
im sor
ryohGodKeenanIam sosorry
"he
cl
ickedhistonguewal
kedouttheki
tchenI
heardhimtalktosomeoneaf
terawhil
e
Keenan:
"takeherhome"
Ronny
:"i
sev
ery
thi
ngoksi
r"
Keenan:"j
usttakeherhome"Ist
oodupwiped
mytearstheygotintheki
tchenIst
oodup
st
raightpul
ledmyheadhigh
Me: "
I'
llbebackRonnythanwecanl eave"I
walkedoutIcouldfeelt
hatmyst epwasn't
st
raightIgotint
hebedr oom putonsweatpant
s
nahoodywi t
hmyuggsIgotdownst ai
rsRonny
wasbyhi mselfweleft
Ronny
:"y
ouokSi
no"
Me:
"Idon'
twanat
alk"
Ronny
:"oki
m sor
ry"
Me:
"cany
oubor
rowmey
ourphone"
Ronny
:"sur
e"hegav
eitt
omeIcal
l
edTeedoh
Teedoh:
"kf
ccust
omerser
vicehel
l
o"Il
aughed
Me:
"fool
"wel
aughed
Teedoh:
"heybbe"
Me:
"ar
eyoubusyIneedy
ou"
Teedoh:
"im nev
erbusywheny
ouneedme"
Me:"canIcomesl
eepovert
her
e"Ronnycl
ear
ed
hi
sthroat"
whatRonny
"
Ronny
:"Ihav
etot
akey
oust
rai
ghthome"
Me:
"Idon'
twanagohome"
Ronny
:"i
m sor
rySi
no"Ir
oll
edmyey
es
Me:
"cany
oucomehomewi
thme"
Teedoh:
"itokcomepi
ckmeup"
Me:"t
hankyou"Idr
oppedt
hecal
l"wehav
eto
passbyTeedoh'
sres"
Ronny
:"ok"ItextTeedohaski
nghimtopackup
aweekwor t
hofcl ot
hesandhisbooks.Soon
wewerehisresIcalledhi
mt ocomeouthedid
withhisduffl
ebagandbackpackRonnyputi tin
theboothecamet ositwit
hmei nthebackseat
Ijuststar
tedcryi
nghepul l
edmet ohim af
ter
calmingdownIputmyheadonhi sl
aphe
playedwithmyhai runti
lwegothomei twas
empt yguessstaffwenttothei
rroomscoz
Kelvinandnicol
ewer enothome
Teedoh: "
weneedal coholandsomet hi
ngf r
ied
pluslotoficecr eam andchocol at
e"Ichuckled
wewentt ol eavehi sbagsi nt
heguestbedr oom
wentbackt ot hekitchentookoutsomepr e
preparedfrozenchi ckendeepf r
ieditwhil
e
havingvodkawi thlemonadeIputsomer ibsin
themi cr
owav ewhi leTeedohf r
iesthefrozen
fri
eswhenev erythi
ngwasdonewet ookour
foodandal cohol tot hel
oungeopenedup
musi cchannel webeganeat i
nganddr i
nking
Teedoh:
"sot
alkt
omebbe"
Me:"ImessedupsobadTeedohIdon'
tev
en
knowhowt ofi
xthi
ngs"
Teedoh:"whathappened"Itol
dhi
m everyt
hing
fr
om sleepi
ngwi t
hLungelotoNkanyi
sogetting
mepr egnantt
heabor t
ionhowSethuis
pregnantnowhowNkany i
soandLungelocame
toKeenan'shousedrunktomebasical
lysaying
Keenandoesn'tsati
sfymesexual
ly
Teedoh:
"ohbaby
"
Me:"hechasedmeoutTeedohhehat
esme"I
l
etoutaloudsobhehel
dmewr appi
nghi
sarms
ar
oundme
Teedoh:
"younev
erl
ear
nSi
nov
uyo"
Me:
"Teedohpl
easeIdon'
tneedt
hel
ect
ure"
Teedoh:
"youfuckedupandy
ouhav
enoonet
o
bl
amebuty oursel
f"
Me:"Iknow"Igotoutofhi
sarmsandwi pedmy
t
ears"canweeatanddr i
nkanddancejustfor
t
onightyouwil
lgivemethewholespeechabout
messingandbeingahoetomorr
ow"hel aughed
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"ok"
Me:
"thanky
ou"
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ovey
ou"
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oveyoumor e"heki
ssedmyheadwhen
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oll
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adebeIbl
inkedacoupl eofti
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ore
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tti
ngupmyheadf eltsoheavy
Me:
"mah"
Mam' r
adebe:"
wakeupmychildandtellyour
fr
iendtogetupIneedtocl
eanital
readylate
andAndreisalmostdonewi
thbreakfast
"
Me:"okmah"Teedohwassleepi
ngbymyf
eetI
ki
ckedhi
m hegroanedandsatup
Teedoh:
"whatSi
no"
Me:
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ditandIl
aughed
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getupmam'r
adebewant
stocl
eanandi
t
br
eakf
astt
ime"
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ssmypl
aceal
ready
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up
Me:"
mahdoy ouhaveanyideawher
eIcanget
medi
cat
ioni
nt hi
shouse"shegi
ggl
ed
Mam'radebe:"
hangover
"Inodded"
gowash
yourf
aceI'l
lhavei
tforyouwhenyoucome
down"
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hanky ou"wewentupst ai
rstowashour
facesnr i
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ngr oom aft
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outwor eanar mygreenbodyhuggingdr ess
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ustbel owmykneeswi t
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meNi ke
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ednicol
e
Ni
c:"
baby
"
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sandphone"
Nic:"Ihear
dy ouwerehomeandyoubroughta
f
riendalsohear daboutt
hel
i
ttl
edr
inki
ngspree
y'
allhadlastnight
"
Me:
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opchecki
nguponmei
m ol
d"
Ni
c:"
IknowI
'
m sor
rybuti
sev
ery
thi
ngor
yt"
Me:"i
tall
goodj
ustneedcarkey
sandmy
phone"
Ni
c:"
inmyr
oom i
nasaf
epasswor
d9834"
Me:
"thanky
ouby
e"
Ni
c:"
wecomi
nghomet
oni
ghtIl
ovey
ou"
Me:"l
ov eyoutoo"Idroppedthecall
putt he
housephonedownwentupt othe3rdfloor
wentstrai
ghttothesafetherewerelotofcar
keystherebutminewasn'tthereIt
ookmy
phonetookthebmwkey swentdownf ood
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kingtomam' nkosi
whi
l
ehav
ingasnack
Me:
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'sgo"
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otheundergr
ound
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eli
ke4dif
fer
entbmw
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oadoptme"I
l
aughedpressedthekeyandanX2
Me:"l
et'
sgerr
ahere"wegotinthecarpumped
musical
lthewaytosandtonwhenwegotto
thegat
eIpunchedinthecodebuti
tsaidwrong
code
Me:"hef
ucknchangedhi
scode"Teedoh
l
aughedoutl
oud
Teedoh:"
servesyouri
ght"Ihootedandhoot
ed
evengotoutthecarscr
eami nghisnamebut
nothi
ngIstar
tedcryi
ng
Me:
"Teedohi
thur
ts"
Teedoh:
"gi
vehi
m spacel
etsgo"
Me:
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nthedr
iver
sseathedr
ovet
oa
shi
sanyamaplaceinSowet
owegott her
e
boughtmeatandsomeicet
roopssatdown
Me:
"im suchaf
uckup"
Teedoh:
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ouar
e"If
rownedhel
aughed
Me:
"yousuck"
Teedoh:
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erygoodatt
oo"hewi
nkedandI
l
aughed
Me:
"Il
ovehi
m"
Teedoh:"stopmessi
ngupyourrel
ati
onshi
ps
youluckyyougetguyswholoveyoubutyou
keeponf ucki
ngupstopl
ett
ingyourpussy
contr
olyou"
Jay
:"beaut
if
ulpeopl
e"hewassi
tt
ingdownnext
tome
Me:
"goawayJay
"
Jay
:"don'
tbehar
shbabymama"
Me:"l
eaveusJuni
or"heputhi
sar
m ar
oundmy
shoul
derImovedfr
om him
Teedoh:
"goawayj
uni
or"
Jay:"
fi
neyouguysar
enofun"IsawRonny
comingtowar
dsuswithabot
tl
eofwaterJay
stoodupandlef
t.
.
Lungel
o..
..
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soandIwereinhisapart
mentwat
chi
ng
soccerwhil
edri
nkingbeerIcoul
dn'
tst
op
thi
nkingaboutl
astnightandSi
no
Me:
"wemessedupl
astni
ght
"
Nka:
"IknowI
'
m sur
eSi
noi
spi
ssed"
Me:"weshoul
dn'
thavesaidal
lthoset
hingswe
sai
dweshouldn'
thav
eev engonether
e"
Nka:
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mostmur
der
edus"wechuckl
ed
Me: "
Sinowon'tfor
giv
eusi fwemessupher
rel
ati
onshipIthi
nkkeenanisfinal
lyt
heguyt
hat
sheloves"Isi
ghedNkanyisolookedatme
Nka:
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hatmakey
ouf
eel
"
Me:"f
ucknhurt
sbrafeel
sli
kemyhear ti
sbei
ng
ri
ppedoutofmychestIl
ovethatgi
rlal
ways
haveal
wayswill
"
Nka:
"shewi
l
lcomear
ound"
Me:"whenwil
lthatbeNkanyi
soIdoubtmy
hear
twil
lst
il
lbewhol ewhenthathappens"
Nka:"
lov
ingSi
nobri
ngsmi
ser
yLungel
oyou
needt
omov eon"
Me:"Ican'
tI'
vet
riedbutIcan'
tshakeherof
f
she'
sallIseeev
er ygi
rlImeeti
sher"
Nka:
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'shect
ic"
Me:"
I'
ddiefi
rstbef
oreIl
etsomeonehar
m her
i
nanykindaway"
Nka:"woah"weremainedsi
l
enceforali
tt
le
whil
e"didwejusthav
eahearttohear
ttal
k"I
chuckl
ed
Me:
"seemst
hatway
"
Nka:
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tlet
'
stal
kaboutsoccerandkush"we
l
aughed
Me:"i
m neverf
ucki
ngCindyagai
nbiggest
whol
eev er
"welaughedwentontoourstupi
d
conv
ersati
ons.
..
.
AFTEREXAMS.
..
.
Nombuso.
..
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onsi thadbeena
weekIhadt akenmyl it
tl
esi sterandcousi nout
forlunchandal it
tleshoppingPat rickbought
meapl aneticketandgav emecashwi ththat
moneypl usmysal ar
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ster
s
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esa2pl ategasst ov
e
thekidswer ehappybutIcoul dtellmyauntand
grannywer eal itt
lewor r
iedIkeptmynew
SamsungS7hi ddensowhensomeoneknocked
Iquicklyhi
di tundert hepill
ow
Me:
"comei
n"Sphomycousi
ncamei
n
Spho:
"aunt
yngr
annyar
ecal
l
ingy
ou"
Me: "
why "sheshruggedhershoul
derwentoutI
fol
lowedhert oaunty'
sroom wher
ewekeptt he
tvshesleptther
ewi t
hthegirl
swhil
eIsleptwit
h
granny
Me:
"youcal
l
ed"
Gr
anny
:"si
tdown"
Aunt
y:"
Sihl
eandSphogopl
ay"
Spho:
"butmah"
Aunt
y:"
go!
"Theywentoutdr
aggi
ngt
hei
rfeet
s
"
what'
shappeni
ngNombuso"
Me:
"Idon'
tunder
standy
ourquest
ion"
Aunt
y:"
themoneywher
edi
dyougeti
tfr
om"I
l
ookedaway
Me:"
IworkauntyItol
dy outhatagotapar
t
t
imejobataclot
hingstore"
Gr
anny
:"don'
tl
iechi
l
d"
Me:
"I'
venev
erl
i
edt
oyoui
m notgoi
ngt
ost
art
now"
Gr
anny
:"donotl
ett
hatpl
acechangey
ou"
Me:
"ser
iousl
yy'
al
lar
eov
err
eact
ing"
Aunt
y:"
justdon'
tfor
getwher
eyoucomef
rom"
Gr
anny
:"donotbel
i
key
ourmot
her
!"
Aunt
y:"
mot
her
"
Me:
"whati
sthatsupposedt
omean"
Granny:"
yourmot
herl
efther
etof i
ndaj
obin
PortStJohnsi
nst
eadshegotinvol
vedwit
ha
mar r
iedmanandcamebackwi t
hachil
dwhen
thatmanpackeduphi
sfamilyandmovedto
durban"
Me: "
that'
sal i
emom woul dnevergetinvolv
ed
withamar riedmanmyf at
herwasn'tmarri
edhe
l
ov edmymot herbuthecoul dn'
tpassupt he
opportuni
tyf orabet terj
obhet ookitr
ather
thanremai ningacl eaneratthehospit
albuthe
diedmont hsl aterheleftforus"
Aunt
y:"
ohmychi
l
dwher
edoy
ougett
hesel
i
es"
Me:
"mom woul
dnev
erl
i
etome!
!"
Gr
anny
:"shel
i
edmychi
l
d"
Me:
"noshewoul
dn'
t"
Aunty:"
yourfatherwasaclini
calpsychologist
hemov edbecausehegotabet t
erposit
ioni n
durbanhewasmar ri
edwith3childr
enalready1
ofthem wasjustay earwhenyouwer ebor n"I
wipedmyt earsinanger
Me:
"no!
"
Aunt
y:"
Idon'
tknowifhissti
ll
ali
veornotbuthe
i
snotsomeherowhol eftt
heloveofhi
sli
feso
hecanbet
tert
heirf
uture"
Me: "
I..
.Ineedtosleep"Ileftt
hem therewent
mybedr oom Igotinbedandcr iedIgrewupin
povert
ywhi l
emysi bl
ingsliv
edt hel
if
eofluxury
becausemyf atherchoosethem hechoosehis
famil
yov ermom andI ,hewalkedawayf r
om us
andneverlookedback.
.
Thesehav ebeent hewor seholiday severwe
alreadyont hel astweekoft heholiday sIspent
twoweeksathomei ndur banIwentt ogetmy
daught erassoonasIgoti ndurbanIwasn' t
talkingt oLungel oandNkany i
soal ongwi t
h
Set huwel lKeenanwasnott al
kingt omehe
didn'tanswermycal l
swewer esupposedt ogo
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ermyexamsbuthewental oneIhadn't
seenhi m sincet hatni ghtandt hatwas5weeks
backonl yLuv uy oandKel vinbroughtmej oy
afterspendi ngt woweeksi ndurbanIwentback
toj hbwi thLuv uy o,NicoleandKel vinwant edto
spendt imewi thherIwasgoi ngt ot akeher
backi nfri
dayi twasal readyWednesdayI
mi ssedkeenanmor ewhenIwasi nj hb
somet imesIsl epti nhi sroom.Wewer egoing
outNi colefedLuv uyowhi l
ewehadbr eakfast
shewassodi fferentwi thherLuv uy omademe
seet hemot heringsi deofNi coleitwas
fasci nati
ngt owat ch
Nic:"
whoset hemostadorabl
ebabyinthe
univ
erse"shepul
ledl
uvuyo'scheekshesmil
ed
showinghertwoteet
hsmybabyhadchubby
cheeks
Kel
vin:
"fi
nishf
eedinghermom Ial
sowana
car
ryher"hefr
ownedLuv uy
opull
edNi
cole'
s
hai
rshesquealed
Me:"woaht herebabygir
lwhatIsai
dabout
pul
li
nghair"Iremovedherfinger
sfr
om Nicol
e'
s
hai
rherli
psst art
edtrembli
ng
Kel
vi
n:"
she'
saboutt
ocr
y"
Me:"
moreli
kewail"andasi
fonqueLuvuyo
st
art
edwail
ingIt
ookherhushi
ngherunti
lshe
st
oppedcr
ying
Ni
c:"
yougoodwi
thher
"
Me:
"im hermot
heri
tnat
ural
"shel
ookeddown
Ni
c:"
Ifai
l
edy
ouDomi
nic"
Me:"ni
col
eyoudidwhatwasbestf
ory
ouandI
don'
tbl
amey ou"
Ni
c:"
im sor
ry"
Me:
"itok"
Kelvi
n: "nowy ougoi ngtocr ymom"wel aughed
continuedeat ingaf terbreakf astIt ookabat h
withmybabywegotoutIl otionedhergother
dressedi nj eanj umpsui tandsandl asIputher
i
nhercotl eftherpl ay i
ngwi thhert oysIloti
oned
gotdr essedi nshor tjeanjumpsui tandsandl as
ti
edmyweav einapony t
ailIgr abbedherbot tl
e
wewentdownst airswewai tedf orni col
eshe
camedownwel eftforthecar nival i
twasmor e
l
ikewewentt her eforKel vi
nandIcozni cole
andLuv uyodi dn'tgoonanyr idei twasall f
un
andgamesunt i
lwer anintokeenanwal king
withagi rleat i
ngcot toncandyIf eltli
kecurli
ng
i
ntof etusposi ti
onandcr yingmyey esoutthere
wasnoot herwayIcoul dn'ttur nar oundthey
werecomi ngst raighttous
Ni
c:"
youok"
Me:
"imf
ine"Kel
vi
nsawhi
m andscr
eamedf
or
hi
m keenancamet
ouswi
thasmi
l
e
Kel
vi
n:"
bigbr
o"t
heyshar
edahug
Keenan:"l
i
ttl
emanhowar
eyou"t
heydi
dthei
r
handshake
Kel
vin:
"im goodIdi
dn'
tknowy
ouwoul
dbe
her
e"
Keenan:"
wasn'
tplanni
ngt o"hel
ookedat
Luvuyoi
nthestr
oller"
itt
hewholefamil
yhowi
s
every
one"
Nic:
" wefi
ne"hest
il
lhadn'
tl
ookedatme
anotherguycametous
Guy
:"Mr
sSmi
thhel
l
o"
Ni
c:"
Drakohi
"
Drako:
"It
rustever
ythi
ngisok"ni
col
enodded
shekepthereyesonKeenan
Gi
rl
:"webet
tergetgoi
ngt
heshowi
saboutt
o
st
art
"
Keenan:
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oul
aterf
ami
l
y"t
heywal
kedaway
Il
etoutabr
eat
hIdi
dn'
tev
enknowIwas
hol
ding
Ni
c:"
Nikkybaby
"
Me:
"Iwanagohome"
Ni
c:"ofcos"welef
timmedi
atel
yIwasquietthe
wholeridewhenwegothomeIlef
tLuvuyowi t
h
ni
coleIwentstr
aightt
obedcri
edmyselfto
sl
eep.
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08/
12,
21:
25]Wadz
:Inser
t36
.
Waswokenupbysomeoneshaki
ngmeI
openedmyey
esandsawNicol
eIsatup
Me:"
isev
ery
thi
ngfinewher
eisLuv
uyo"she
gi
ggl
edandsatpr
operl
yonthebed
Ni
c:"
ever
ythi
ngi
sokshe'
sasl
eep"
Me:
"ohokki
ndascar
edmef
oramoment
"
Ni
c:"
Iwanat
alkt
oyouaboutKeenan"
Me:
"dowehav
etot
houghIknowy
out
oldme
hewillhur
tmebutIdon'
tneedt
heIt
oldy
ouso
speech"
Ni
c:"
I'
dnev
erdot
hatNi
kky
"
Me:
"ok"
Ni
c:"
youl
ovehi
m"
Me:
"mor
ethanI
'
veev
erl
ovedaguybef
ore"
Ni
c:"helov
esyouaswel
lI'
veseenkeenanwi
th
di
ff
erentgi
rl
sbuthi
sdi
ff
erentwit
hyou"
Me:
"Idon'
tfeel
sodi
ff
erentr
ightnow"
Nic:"
whathappenedbet
weeny
outwo"Isi
ghed
astearsmadethei
rwaytomyeyes
Me:
"Imessedupnicol
eIreal
l
ymessedupI
m
t
ooashamedtoeventel
lyouabouti
t"
Nic:
" soi
tyounothi
m"Inodded"
doesi
tinv
olv
e
anotherper
son"
Me:
"yesandal
otofl
i
es"
Ni
c:"ohbaby"shegav
emeahughel
dmeunt
ilI
st
oppedcryi
ng
Me:"Ihurthi
m mom y
oushoul
dhav
eseenhow
dev
astatedhewas"
Ni
c:"
makei
tri
ght
"
Me:"Icanthehasmovedon"sher
emovedher
armsaroundmeheldmychinmakingmelook
athershewipedmytear
s
Nic:
"yousobeauti
ful
youmadeami st
ake
Keenanlovesyounowgetupputonsomethi
ng
ni
cegoaf t
eryourman"
Me: "
hedoesn'
tev
enanswermycall
sandhe
changedhi
scodeatt
hegate"shel
aughed
Nic:
"that
'ssopet
tyhemusthav
ebeenr
eal
l
y
angry
"
Me:
"I'
venev
erseenhi
mthatangr
y"
Ni
c:"
gofreshenupI'
l
lgett
hecodef
rom oneof
t
hesecur
ityguys"
Me:
"andLuv
uyo?
"
Ni
c:"
shehashergr
annyanduncl
ewe'
l
lwat
ch
ov
erher
"
Me:
"okt
hanky
ou"sheki
ssedmyf
orehead
Nic:"
youcall
edmemom thatwasoneofthe
bestmoment si
nmyli
fe"Icr
awleduponher
l
apweshar edawar
m hugthedooropened
Kelv
ingoti
n
Kel
vi
n:"
youabi
tol
dtobeonmom'
slap"
Me:
"she'
smymom t
oo"
Nic:
"shecoul
dnev
erbeold"hej
umpedont
he
bedputhi
sarmsaroundus
Kel
vi
n:"
Ineedl
ongerar
msy
out
woar
efat
"
Us:
"hey
!!
"Hel
aughed
Ni
c:"
Ilov
eyouki
ds"
Us:
"wel
ovey
out
oo"
Me:"
okenoughoutofmyr oom Ineedtogofi
x
what
'sl
eftofmyr
elat
ionship"t
heylaughed
Nic:
"ok"Igotof
fthebedwentt
otakeaqui
ck
showerwhenIgotoutthebedwasmadeIwent
totheclosetlot
ionedputonabl acklaceybra
withamat chingthong,tookoutmaroonleather
highwaistmi niski
rtandamat chi
ngcroptop
gotdressedputonkneel engt
hheelbootslet
myweav elosedidmymakeupIputona
sleev
elesscoatt ookmykey sandphonewent
downstairs
Ni
c:"
slay
!!
"Kel
vi
nandIl
aughedoutl
oud
Kel
vi
n:"
nomom y
ouol
d"
Nic:
"babesi
m sooi
ntouchwi
tht
hingsI
'
lll
eav
e
youdizzy
"
Me:"ohGodthi
siski
ndaembar
rassi
ngi
m out
ofhere"t
heyl
aughed
Ni
c:"
337890"
Me:"thankyou"Il
eftthewhol ewayt osandt
onI
wastryingt
ogetmyapol ogyspeechr i
ghtIwas
al
sotryingt
onotbef azedoutbyt hepossi
bil
i
ty
offi
ndingagirlt
here.Igottherepunchedinthe
codethegateopenedIdr oveupt hedri
veway
therewer eabout5car sparkedthereIsti
llhad
mykey sIj ustopenedt hegar agewenttopar k
i
ni tIgotint hr
ought hedooratt hegaraget hat
openst ot hekit
chent herewasnoonet herebut
Icouldhearmusi candv oicesintheoutsideby
thepool somei nthel oungeIwentt othe
l
oungef irstthereweref ewpeopl ether
ewi th
beerbottlesandpi zzabox esallover
Guy
:"Domi
nic!
"Ev
ery
onet
urnedt
olookatme
Me:
"uhm hi
?"
Guy
:"i
m Li
p"
Me:
"cool
wher
e'sKeenan"
Li
p:"
pool
didheknowy
ouwer
ecomi
ng"
Me:
"notr
eal
l
y"
Li
p:"
ok"It
urnedandbumpedi
ntot
hegi
rlIsaw
hi
m wit
h
Gi
rl
:"hi
"
Me:
"ja"Imov
edasi
dewentout
Gir
l:"t
hefucki
sherprobl
em"It
urnedt
olookat
herrai
sedmyey ebr
ow
Me:
"yousai
dsomet
hing"
Guy :
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t"Inoddedandst
arted
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ng
somet hi
ngsIwentoutIsawKeenanhehadhi s
feetinthepooll
ookingati
tsi
tti
ngal
onewhi lea
groupofpeoplewerestandi
ngnearthejaccuziI
walkedt ohi
m
Me:
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aisedhisheadandl
ookedat
methanl
ookedbackinthewater
Keenan:
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dyougeti
n"
Me:
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otal
k"
Keenan:
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hingt
osayt
oyou"
Me:"
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ealott
osayguessy
ougonnal
i
sten
whi
l
eItal
k"hesi
ghed
Keenan:
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evi
sit
ors"
Me:
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tcar
eandr
eal
l
yKeenanapar
tyon
Wednesday"hestooduphelookedatmefr
om
myfeethi
sey esstay
ingabi
tlongeronmy
t
highshesl
owl ywentupunt
ilhegottomyface
Keenan:
"youl
ookbeaut
if
ul"
Me: "
thankyou"hewalkedint
hehouseIwas
fol
lowingbehindhi
m hewentint
heloungeand
satdownt ookabeergulpi
ngal
mosthalfofi
t
Me:
"Damon!
"Dr
akoandLi
plaughed
Keenan:
"shutupf
ool
s"
Dr
ako:
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tbesourDamon"
Keenan:"
I'
ll
kicky'
alloutofmyhouse"t
heyput
thei
rhandsupwhilelaughi
ng"comehereNi
kky"
Iwenttohim hepul
ledmet ohisl
ap
Me:
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otal
k"
Keenan:
"im noti
namoodoff
ight
ingwi
thy
ou"
Me:
"Isai
dtal
knotf
ight
"
Keenan:
"notnow"
Me:
"shoul
dIl
eav
e"
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"ify
ouwantt
o"
Me:
"youhat
eme"hechuckl
ed
Keenan:
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shIdi
d"
Me:"whoi
sthatgi
rl
"Ipoi
ntedt
othegi
rlf
rom
ear
li
er
Keenan:
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ako'
sgf
"
Me:
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ed
Keenan:
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houghti
m wit
hher
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ooked
downandnodded"sweet
"
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"
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"what
"
Me:
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'
llbei
nbed"
Keenan:
"whatbed"
Me:"
ourbed"hechuckl
ed"
isi
tsomeoneel
se'
s
now?
"
Keenan:
"no"
Me:
"wi
l
lIneedt
ochanget
hesheet
s"
Keenan:"
evenifIwer
etof
ucksomeoneI
wouldn'
tuseourbedr
oom"
Me:"ok"wel
ookedateachot
her"
canIki
ss
you"
Keenan:
"no"If
rowned
Me:
"ohy
oust
il
lmad"
Keenan: "
youst i
ll
f uckedLungelo"Ilookedaway
Igotoffhim wentupst ai
rsIunlockedthedoor
gotinmypi ct
urewasst i
l
l onthewallIsaton
thebedcr ossedmyl egsIt ookmyphone
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tedchat ti
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l
ockedt hedoorhesatnextt ome
Keenan:
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edt
otal
k"
Me:
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emai
nedi
nsi
l
ence
Keenan:
"wel
l
"
Me:
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Keenan:
"cl
ear
ly"
Me:"Idon'
tevenknowwheret
ostarti
nst
eadof
bei
ngapologeti
cImadethi
ngsworse"
Keenan:"y
ouhurtmeNikkyyouknowt hepower
youhaveov ermeandyouhurtme,doy ouhav
e
anyideahowbadlybrui
sedmyconfidenceby
thatst
atementyoumade"
Me:
"itwassowr
ongofme"
Keenan:
"howmanyt
imes"
Me:
"justonce"
Keenan:
"don'
tl
ie"
Me:
"im notl
yi
ng"
Keenan:"youmaki
ngt
hingsworsebylyi
ng
Dominicyoumademeaf ooli
nfrontofyourso
cal
ledfri
ends"
Me:"
I'
ll
nev
erstopsayi
ngsor
ryovert
hat
"he
st
oodupstar
tedpaci
ngal
lovert
heroom
Keenan:"
youf
uckedt
hem bothandyoudi
dn'
t
thi
nktel
l
ingmeyou'
vefuckedNkany
isoaswel
l
wasagoodi
dea"
Me:
"Icoul
dn'
ttel
lyouIdi
dn'
twanty
out
ojudge
me"
Keenan:"
Icouldneveruseyourpastov
eryouI
havetheworstpastever"hepushedhi
shai
r
back"whatdoy out
akemef or
!!
"
Me:
"Iam sor
ry"
Keenan:"
youtol
dmey ou'
veonl
ybeenwi t
h
Lungel
oandthatguywhobrokeyourv
irgi
nit
y"
Me:
"thatwasNkany
iso"
Keenan:"
JesusDomi
nicwhatel
sedi
dyoul
i
e
about"
Me:
"not
hing"
Keenan:
"theobor
ti
on"
Me:
"Nkany
iso"
Keenan:
"any
thi
ngel
seIshoul
dknow"
Me:"
besi
desthatIl
ovey
ouandI'
vebeen
mi
serabl
efort
hepast5weeksnother
e's
not
hingel
se"
Keenan:
"yousur
e"
Me:
"yes"
Keenan:
"yourfr
iendshi
pwi
tht
hem endsnow"
hegotal
lauthori
tati
ve
Me:
"yes"
Keenan:
"Idon'
ttr
usty
ou"
Me: "
itmyf
aul
tI'
l
lwor
khar
dI'
l
lear
nyourt
rust
back"
Keenan:"t
hisi
swhyIdidn'
twanafal
linlovei
t
fucknhurt
s"Igotof
fthebedwenttostandin
frontof
Me: "
wouldy oubeli
evemei fIpr
omisedI'
l
l
neverhurtyouagain"heshookhisheadI
pushedbackhi shairandcuppedhisf
ace"I
underst
andbutIpr omisetoneverhur
tyouever
againIhurtwheny ouhurt
"
Keenan:
"ok"hel
ookedsof
ragi
l
e
Me: "
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hi
m hal f
wayweki ssedi
tstart
edof fslowlyand
passionatel
yhepushedmyski r
tupand
grabbedmyassl i
f t
ingmeupIwr appedmyl egs
aroundhiswaisthewalkedov ertobedl ai
dme
onitthengotbetweenmyl egs
Keenan:
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vemi
ssedy ou"heset
tl
edproper
ly
bet
weenmyt hi
ghsIpushedbackhishair we
l
ookedateachothersmil
ing
Me:
"I'
veal
somi
ssedy
ou"
Keenan:
"isi
twei
rdt
hatIj
ustwanacuddl
e"
Me:
"notatal
l
"
Keenan:"
ok"hegotof fmehewentinthecloset
gotoutwithhispjshegavemet het
opwet ook
offourcl
othesgotinpjswentbacktobedhe
gotbetweenmyl egsrest
inghi
sheadonmy
breast
sIwr appedmylegsaroundhi
m
Me:
"Il
ovey
ou"
Keenan:
"Il
ovey
oumor
ethandol
wam"Iki
ssed
hi
shead
.
Nkany
iso.
..
Iwassl owlylosi
ngmy selfinSethuIdidn'teven
gohomet hesehol i
daysshehadherpr aticl
es
sowest ayedinjhbshebasi callymovedinmy
pl
acei tseemedl ikethebestpl anbecauset he
goingbacknf or
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ringherandthat
wasn' tgoodf orourbabyi twasscar i
ngt he
l
ivingshi toutofmel astt i
meIl ostmyselfina
gi
rl Igotbur ntbi
gt i
me.Iwat chherasshe
sti
redt heny awnedshel ookedabsolutely
breatht aki
ng
Me:"
morningbeaut
if
ul"shebl
i
nkedacoupl
eof
t
imeswhil
esmili
ng
Set
hu:
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vebeenst
ari
ngatmeagai
n"
Me:
"noIhav
en'
t"
Set
hu:
"li
arany
wayIl
ovei
twheny
oust
areat
me"
Me: "i
fthat
'sthecasehecky eahI'
vebeen
stari
ng"shegiggledandarchedherback
reveal
ingherboobswhi chwer eget
ti
ngbigger
andit'
sMac' Diml ov
ingit
Sethu:"
mybodyisalr
eadychangi
ng"shewas
l
ookingatmyeyesthatcoul
dn'
tmovef r
om her
breast
s
Me:
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ti
ngmor
esexy
"shef
rowned
Set
hu:
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tl
ie"
Me:"Idon'
tl
iet
oyou"shepuckeredherli
psI
j
ustknewshewasabouttostartcr
ying
Sethu:"
im al
readygett
ingf
atim asize30
alr
eadyitonl
y2mont hs"Iwipedhertear
s
scoopedhermaki ngherst
raddl
eme
Me: "
younotfatl
ov ecouldneverbefatyou
havethemostamazi ngbodyIloveyourbody
thefactt
hatther
e'sami nimeinthatbodyjust
makesmel ovenappr eci
ateitmoreandIlove
you"shebli
nkedacoupl eofti
meswi thher
mout
hopeni
nshock
Set
hu:
"you.
..
.Youl
oveme"
Me:"
Idol
ovei
mfal
l
ingf
ory
oudeepereachand
ev
ery
day"
Set
hu:
"younotl
yi
ng"
Me:"I'
veneverli
edtoyouim notabouttostar
t
now"shestartedcr
yingalloveragai
n"wel
lifI
knewtell
i
ngy ouhowIf eelwasgoingtoupsetI
wouldn'
thavesaidanythi
ng"
Sethu:"
im notupsety
ouj
erki
m happyandy
our
babyismakingmeanemot i
onalf
reak"
Me:
"happyi
sgood"
Sethu:"
happyisgreatandIloveyoutoo"I
cuppedherfacekissedherwetli
psshepressed
herbodyonmi neharderandletoutamoan
anotherbestpar
taboutpregnancyshewas
al
way shornyIpul
ledoutofthekiss
Me:
"yougoi
ngt
obel
ate"sheexhal
ed
Set
hu:
"Iknow"
Me:
"gobat
hI'
l
lmakey
oubr
eakf
ast
"
Sethu:
"okdon'
tfor
get
"Ichuckl
edandr
oll
edmy
eyes
Me: "
Iknownoeggsanduseoli
veoil
"she
giggl
edgavemeababykissgotof
fmeandof f
thebedshowingmethebestv
ieweverIf
eltmy
dicktwi
tchi
ng
Me:"y
ourassi
sget
ti
ngbi
ggert
oo!
"She
l
aughed
Set
hu:
"fuckof
fyoul
ovei
t"
Me: "damnst raightIloveitwoman"she
spankedi tgrabbi ngitandwalkedint
othe
bathroom laughi ngIjustsmil
edshakingmy
head.Igotof fthebedputonmysweat pant
s
wentt othekitchenmademy selfcof
feewhi
le
defrosti
ngt hebaconandsausagesIputt he
breadont het oast erIt
ookmyphoneIhad
missedcal l
sf rom LungeloIcalledhi
m back
Lungel
o:"shefucknbr
oughtmychi
ldt
ojhb
wit
houttell
ingmeIhadtoheari
tfr
om mom!!
"
Me:
"woahcal
m down"
Lungel
o:"Iunderst
andshe'
sst
il
lpissedoffover
thewholeKeenanshitbr
abutseri
ouslyLuvuy
o
i
smi neaswel l
"
Me:
"she'
sst
il
lnotanswer
ingy
ourcal
l
s"
Lungelo:
"yeahandnobodyanswersthe
i
ntercom whenIgother
eseeshe'sfuckn
pl
ayinghappyfamil
ywithmychil
dandt hat
i
diot"
Me:"
shemovedi
nwi
thhermom shedoesn'
t
st
aywit
hhi
m any
mor
e"
Lungelo:"
oh...
..Butthat'
sbeyondthepointshe
can'
tjusti
cemeoutanddowhat evershewants
wit
hmychi ld"t
hemi cr
owav epi
ngedandI
beganonmaki ngbr eakfast
Me:
"she'
swr
ong"
Lungel
o:"
Iknowy
ouf
ucker
!"Ichuckl
ed
Me:"cal
lherusi
ngadi
ff
erentnumbershewi
l
l
answer"hesi
ghed
Lungelo:
"Iguess,
whaty
oubusywi
thl
et'
schi
l
l
today"
Me:
"I'
l
lcomeov
erdur
ingt
heday
"
Lungel
o:"shot
"hedr oppedt hecallIcar
ri
edon
makingbreakfastwhenIwasdoneIwentt o
cal
lSethufoundhert r
yingtosqueezeher sel
f
i
ntopairofski
nnyjeansIj ustchuckled
Me:
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er y
thi
ngoklove"shet
urnedt
olookat
melookingal
ldef
eated
Set
hu:
"Il
ovet
hesej
eans"
Me:
"I'
l
lbuyy
ouanewpai
rinbi
ggersi
ze"
Sethu:"
what ev
er"shet
ookoutaski
rtgot
dressedtuckedinhert
ankt
op
Me:
"youl
ookbeaut
if
ul"
Set
hu:
"thanky
ouIl
ovey
ou"
Me:
"lov
eyout
oobr
eakf
asti
sready
"
Set
hu:
"let
'
sfeedy
ourchi
l
d"
Me:"
yep"weateshewenttorinsehermout
h
whi
l
eIcleaneduptheki
tchen
Sethu:"
iml
eavi
ng"It
urnedshewasstandi
ng
behindmeiwal
kedtoherheldherwai
st
Me: "
I'
ll
mi ssyou"shegigglednstoodonher
toesgav emeasof tpeck"noway s"Ihel
dher
neckgav eherahotwetki sswhenIpul l
edback
shehadagoof ysmil
e"nowt hat
'
showy ousay
byetoy ourl
over"
Set
hu:
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eNkany
iso"
Me:"by
eDrDlamini
"shewinkedandlef
tI
cl
eaneduptheapar
tmentt
ookabat hgot
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essedwentovert
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splace
Me:"y
ohbro"IgotinIwaswelcomedbyat
oy
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hedoorandluvuyo'
sblabber
ing
Lungel
o:"l
ounge"Iwentt
her
efoundt
hem on
thefl
oorpl
aying
Me:
"heyt
her
eli
tt
lema'
Dlami
ni"Ipul
l
edher
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ustt
ooador
abl
e
"seeyougotholdofSino"
Lungel
o:"yeahshejustdr
oppedherof
fshe'
s
pi
ckingheruplater
"
Me:"t
hat
'sgoodguesswepl
ayi
ngdaddyf
ort
he
day
"
Lungel
o:"
yep"
Me:"knowhowmanygir
lswecanpickupj
ust
byhavingVuv
uwi
thus"hechuckl
ed
Lungel
o:"don'
tcal
lmydaughtert
hatandSet
hu
wil
lmurderyouinyoursl
eep"
Me:"
tr
uesheal
readyst
art
edwi
tht
hemood
swi
ngs"
Lungel
o:"i
fyouhadt ol
dmewhenwewer e
growi
ngupwewoul dhav echil
drenwit
hSino
andSethuIwouldhav elaughedatyou"we
l
aughedandLuv uyojoinedusIdon'tevenknow
whyshewasl aughi
ng
.
Nombuso.
..
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yIwasl ookingf
or
Patri
ckatt heairporthewaspi ckingmeupI
sawhi sdriverholdingaboar dwithmyname
writ
tenoni tIpulledmyonesui t
casetowards
him wegr eetedeachot herhecar ri
edmy
suit
casetot hecaropenedt hebackdoorforme
hegoti nanddr ov eoffInoticedhewasdr i
v i
ng
towardssandt oni nsteadofr es
Me:
"wher
ewegoi
ngt
o"
Dr
iver
:"bosssai
dtot
akey
out
ohi
shouse"
Me: "
hedi dn'tsayany t
hingtome"hej ust
shruggedhi sshouldersandwedr oveof fin
si
lenceunt i
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gbeautif
ul house
hegotof fopenedmydoorIgotouthet ookmy
suit
caseoutcar r
iedittothehousewithme
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i
nIsawPat rickcomi ngdownt hestai
rs
Patr
ick:"
leav
ethebagint
hemast
erbedr
oom"
thedri
vernoddedwentup
Me:"whydi
dn'
tyouaskmei
fIwant
edt
ocome
her
e"
Patr
ick:
"Imi
ssedyouIthoughty
ouf
eltt
he
samedon'ty
ou"no!Idon'
t
Me:
"that
'snotwhati
m say
ing"
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ick:"I
'vehaddinnerpreparedforus"het
ook
myhandl eadi
ngust othedinningareawher
ea
candlel
ightdinnerf
ortwowassetupi twasso
beautif
ulhepul l
edachairforme
Me:"t
hanky
ou"heki
ssedmycheekandsat
acr
ossme
Pat
ri
ck:"
any
thi
ngf
ormyqueensohowwas
home"
Me:"al
lgoodnocompl ai
nts"wef i
nisheddinner
whil
eli
steningtohi
mt al
kaboutthepl aceshis
beentoandt hepl
aceshisgoingtot akemet o.
Aft
erdinnerwehadwineov erthefi
repl ace
whil
eli
steningtomusicsi
tti
ngonat hrow
Pat
ri
ck:
"youhav
ebeaut
if
ull
i
ps"
Me: "ohthanky ou"hel
eanedinIkepton
mov ingbackunt i
lIwaslay
ingonthef l
oor
biggestmistakehesmashedhi sli
psonmi neI
feltmybloodl eavemybodyhedeepenedt he
kissasIt r
iedpushinghi
m backIregret
ted
wear i
ngadr esswhenhegotbet weenmyl egs
Me: "
Pat
ri
ckstop"hegr
oanedi
nmyearhewas
l
icki
ngandsuckingonmyneckwhi
l
ehishand
play
edwithmypunani
Patr
ick:
"I'
l
lmakeyoufeel
good"Ipushedhi
m
backhepressedhi
sbodyhar
deronmi neand
pi
nnedmyhandsabov emyheadwi t
honehand
Me: "
Patr
ickpl
ease"het
oremypant
yand
shovedhisfi
ngeri
nmypunani"
Patr
icki
m not
ready"
Patri
ck:"
ssshmyqueen"heremov edhisfi
nger
Ibreat
hedoutinrel
i
efwhichdidn'
tlastwhenI
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tIl
ookedathim hewast aki
nghis
pantsoffusi
ngonehandwhiletheotherpinned
myhands
Me: "nonononoPat ri
ckpl easeIwi..
."Ididn't
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smashedi ntomehar ditfeltasifi
ml osingmy
vir
ginityall overagainonl ywi t
hafistpoundi ng
meIwasnotev enwett hemor eIbeggedhi mt o
stopitseemedt of uelhim hewentdeeper
harderf asterhissweatf elli
ntomyey esIshut
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lwet ti
ngmycheeksI
shutoutev er
ythingthatwashappeni nghi m
poundi ngmehar dandhi ssweatf all
ingonmy
bodyev ent hesoundshekeptonmaki ngsince
myscr eamsofpai nandmebeggi nghi mt o
stopf ellondeafear sIpicturedthejoyi nmy
grannyandaunt 'seyeswhenIgr aduat eI
thoughtaboutmar ryingthel oveofmyl i
fe
abouthav ingmyownki dsonedayIdon' teven
knowwhathappenedorwhenhecamemy
brai
nst art
edf unctioningwhenmybodyhi tthe
hotbubbl ebat hhegoti nbehi ndmeandpul l
ed
met ohi mself
Pat
ri
ck:
"thatwasamazi
ngmyqueen"
Me:
"ok"
Patr
ick:"
Igotyouafl
atbyNor
thgat
eitf
ull
y
fur
nishedwit
hadriv
er"
Me:
"thanky
ou"
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08/
12,
21:
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:Inser
t37
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..
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ngout .Butitalsomy
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ce:
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sirsai
dtocal
lyou
downforbr
eakfast
"
Me:
"I'
l
lbedowni
nami
nut
ethanky
ou"
Voice:"y
esma' am"Igotoffthebedputona
robewentt ori
nsemymout handwashmyf ace
aftert
hatIwentdownstairstothedinni
ngareaI
foundPat r
ickonthephonehewasshout i
ngat
someoneaboutt hem beingincompetentwhen
hesawmehedr oppedthecallst
oodupgav e
meat ighthug
Pat
ri
ck:
"sl
eptokmyangel
"
Me:
"yesIdi
dandy
ou?
"
Pat
ri
ck:"Idi
dtoo"Ipull
edoutofhisarmshe
pul
l
edachai rf
ormet hanwenttositacr
ossme
westar
tedonbr eakf
astIwasquiethewas
busyt ypi
ngfur
iousl
yonhi si
Padhedidn'
tev
en
noticeIwasdoneunt i
lIpushedbackmychair
standingup
Patri
ck:"ohy oudone?Im sorryaboutthisthey
l
ostoneofmypr oductsdur
ingshipmentnow
wet r
y i
ngt olocat
eitIhavetogoi nattheof f
ice
Idon'tknowi fyouwanttostayher eorgot othe
fl
atbutI '
l
l bereal
lybusyunti
lwef i
ndt his
thoughIliket hei
deaofcomi ngbackf rom a
l
ongdayatwor kfi
ndingyounakedi nmybedso
Icanbur rymy sel
fdeepinyou"Iswal l
oweda
l
ump
Me: "
I'
ll
gotomyplaceIhav
etopr
epar
efor
schoolany
waycampusopensMonday
"itwas
Satur
day
Patri
ck:"
oky oushouldmov etodayIc.."His
phonerangheputhi shandupandst oodup
l
eav i
ngthedinningareahewasact uall
y
dresseduphel ookedhandsomei na3pi ece
sl
imf i
tsuitIst
artedcleani
ngupt hetablebuta
l
adydr
essedi
namai
duni
for
m camet
ome
Lady
:"I
'
lldoi
t"
Me:
"Icanhel
pyou"
Lady
:"pl
easeIdon'
twantt
olosemyj
ob"
Me: "
ohokbutIdon'
tseehowy
ouwoul
dlose
yourjob"
Lady
:"y
ouwoul
dntunder
stand"
Me:"or
yt"Il
efthert
hereImetupwi
thPat
ri
ck
asIwasaboutt ost
artt
aki
ngthest
air
s
Patr
ick:
"imleavi
ngthedri
very
ouwil
lhel
pyou
wit
hmov ingyourthi
ngsf
rom t
hatst
udent
accommodat i
ontothefl
at"
Me:
"okt
hanky
ou"hegav
emeabankcar
d
Pat
rick:"f
orwhat ev
ery ouneedt her
e'snol i
mit
pi
nis7641I '
l
lseeyouonceI 'vesortedthisout"
hepulledmei nforkissIact uall
yletmy self
enj
oyt hekissitwasdifferentfrom lastnights
hewasagoodki sserbyt het i
mehepul ledback
Iwasl
osti
nhisl
ipsandIwasbey
ondmoi
st
bet
weenmylegs
Patr
ick:
"mmhnowIdon'
twanago"Igi
ggl
ed
andpusheshi
m of
f
Me:"j
ustgoanddowhaty
ouhav
etodo"he
ki
ssedmyf or
ehead
Pat
ri
ck:
"by
e"
Me: "
by e"Iwat chedhi m ashewal kedoutt he
frontdoor .Iwentupt ot hebedr oom t ooka
bathgotdonegotdr essedIcal ledt hedr iverhe
tookmet or esIpackedupsomecl othesI
wasn' ttaki ngev erythingt henwel eftfort hef l
at
i
twasabsol utelyamazi ngj ustont heout sideas
wegoti nt hrought hel obbywepassedsecur i
ty
wentupt hel i
ftwhenwegoti nthef latmyj aw
dropi twasev enbet teri thad2bedr ooms2
bathr ooms, anopenar eal oungeanddi nning
area, abigbeaut i
fulfittedki t
cheni twasf ully
furnished, therewasar oundt ablewi t
hchai r
s
byt hebal cony
Dr
iver
:"wher
eshoul
dIputt
hebags"
Me:
"thef
ir
stbedr
oom"
Dri
ver
:"ok"hewenttherewhi
l
eIadmir
edmy
fl
ati
twasl i
keIj
uststeppedi
ntoaf
ant
asy
Dri
ver
:"shoul
dIt
akeyoutodoy
ourgr
ocer
yor
youwil
lwaitf
orMavi
s?"
Me:
"Mav
is?
"
Dr
iver
:"y
ourmai
dshewi
l
lbecomi
ngi
n3t
imes
aweek"
Me:
"oh"
Dr
iver
:"sogr
ocer
ynowort
omor
row"
Me:
"now"
Dri
ver:"
ok"wel efthedr
ovetowoolwor t
hsIdid
mygrocer ywithahugesmileonmyf acehe
waspushi ngthetrol
l
eyIhadneverwor n
woolworthsclothesbef
oreasforbuyi
ngf ood
fr
om thereitwasoutofthisworl
dIev entook
t
hingsI'
veseenoncooki ngchannel
saf t
erthatI
flashedoutmycar dandpai d.Hepushedt he
trolleyt othecarpackedt hepl asticsint heboot
whi leIwai tedi nt hecaraf terthatwel eftforthe
apar t
mentaf terleav i
ngmypl asti
csi nt he
kitchent hedr i
verl eftsayingIshoul dcal lhimi f
Ineedt ogoany wher eori fIneedsomet hingI
thankedhi m hel eft.Ipackedupt hef oodmy
fridgewassof ulltheonl ytimeIhadseena
fridget hatf ull waswhenIwasi nLungel o'
s
apar t
mentIsi ghedatt het houghtofhi m.Af t
er
packi ngupt hef oodIt ookat ubofmagnum i ce
cr eam wentt osi tinf r
ontoft heTVIchannel
hoppedunt ilIstoppedonE!Iwat chedt vwhile
hav ingmyi cecr eam andchat t
ingIt ooka
pict uresoft heapar tmentpost edt hem on
Inst agram wentbackt otheTVIwasst il
l
enj oy i
nganepi sodeofKeepi ngUpWi t
hThe
Kar dashi answhensexmoansandgr oans
star tedIr aisedt hev olumebuti tonl ygotwor se
Itr i
edi gnor ingi tbutIcoul dn'tandi twasj ust
annoy i
ngt heshi toutofmeIputonmysl ippers
wenttoknocknex tdoorIpoundedonthedoor
unti
li
topenedandt herestoodNkany
iso
l
ookingabsolut
elyhotwithjustat
owel
wrappedaroundhislowerbody
Nka:
"thi
sbett
erbef
ucki
ngimport
antmylove
wasaboutt
ocome"Ifl
ushedi
m sureIt
urned
al
lki
ndared
Me:
"Nkany
iso"hel
ookedatmepuzzl
ed
Nka:
"whoar
eyou"Inev
erf
eltsoembar
rassed
Me:"I
m Nombuso.
..Knowwhatnev
ermi
ndbut
pl
easekeepi
tdown"
Nka:"y
ouneedadi ckinyourlif
e"hecl
osedthe
doorIstoodther
econf usedashel l
Iwentback
topoundingthedoorlikehellhewasnotabout
totr
eatmel i
kethatLungeloandhi sbrot
herare
i
llmanneredagirlopenedt hist
imedressedi
na
robeshewasshor tndar kkindahadmyey es
Nkanyi
sowashov eri
ngbehi ndher
Gi
rl
:"sor
ryNkany
isol
acksmanner
scanwehel
p
y
ou"
Me:
"justpl
easekeepi
tdown"
Nka:"seeIt
oldyousheneedsadi
ckSet
hu"she
pushedhim back
Set
hu:
"sor
rywi
l
lkeepi
tdown"
Me:
"Idi
dn'
tmeant
odi
stur
b"
Set
hu:
"itoki
m Si
phoset
huj
ustcal
lmeSet
hu"
Nka:
"lov
e!"
Set
hu:
"shutup"
Me:"Nombuso"Nkany isol
ookedatmet han
l
aughedSet huandIlookedathim hedi
dn'tst
op
unt
ilSethustar
tedgetti
ngirr
it
atedhest
opped
i
mmedi atel
yandclearedhisthroat
Nka:
"sor
ry"
Set
hu:
"st
opbei
ngr
udei
tnotsexy
"
Nka:"
eish"hestr
atchedhi
sheadl
ooki
ngdown
andIchuckled
Set
hu:
"youl
i
veher
e"
Me:
"justmov
edi
nnextdoor
"
Set
hu:"
cool
weshoul
dhangoutsomet
ime"I
smil
ed
Me:
"I'
dlov
eto"
Nka:"
youknowshewasf ucki
ngLungel
oIdi
dn'
t
r
ecognizeherbef
ore"Il
ookedaway
Set
hu:
"don'
tembar
rasst
hepoorgi
rlIdon'
t
bl
ameyouNombusoLungel
oishot
"
Nka:
"hey
!!
"Set
hunIl
aughed
Sethu:"
tobadhehasachi
ldwit
hmylit
tl
esi
ster
Iwouldtot
all
ydohim"myhear
tski
ppedabeat
she'ssi
no'
ssist
er
Nka:
"fuckthi
sshit
"hewal
kedi
ntheapar
tment
l
ooki
ngf r
ustr
atedSet
huj
ustl
aughed
Sethu:
"payhim nomindheneedstogethi
sego
brui
sedsometimeshistooar
rogantI
'l
lmake
hi
mf eelbet
terl
ateri
fhedoesn'
tstoppout
ing"
wel
aughed
Me:"
wel
ll
etmel
eav
eyout
omaki
ngi
tupt
o
hi
m"
Sethu:"
seeyouaround"Ileftsheclosedthe
doorIwentbacktomyapar tmentitdi
dn'
ttake
l
ongt hesexmoansandt hebangi ngonthewall
start
edIcoul
devenheart hem tal
king
Sethu:
"oohGody
es"bangbang"
ohf
uck"bang
bang
Nka:
"tel
lme"bangbangbangal
oudscr
eam
Sethu:
"Idon'
twantany
oneelsej
usty
ou...
Oooohdaddy!!
"Bangbang"
aahaahfucknshi
t
yesyesyesdaddy"
Nka:"
tel
lmey oulov
eme"aloudpoundIswear
It
houghtthewall
wasabouttobr
ake
Set
hu:"
Ifucknl
ovey
ounkaaaaany
isooohmy
Godaah"
Nka:"
thi
sismineandmineonlyyourpussy
cur
vesformydickonl
y"Icoul
dn'
ttakeit
anymoreIpl
ayedmusicatmaximum v
olume
wenttomybedroom st
art
edreadi
ngmynovel.
..
.
Si
no
ItwasSat urdaykeenanandIwer eindur banwe
gother eyest erdayweleav i
ngthefol
lowingday
Ihadt obringLuv uy
obackhomemypar ent s
onl yknewt hatIwascomi ngtodurbanon
Sundaymor ningIwatchedkeenanpl ay
ingwi th
Luv uyonextt omeont hebedwewer eatt he
sout her
nsun.Hewassogoodwi t
hhershe
keptonki ckingt heairandlaughi
nghewas
tickli
ngher
Keenan:"
heyl
ookwhoseuppri
ncessit
mommy "hepi
ckedherupandsatpr
operl
yon
thebed
Me:"heywhydi
dn'
tyouwakemeupwhenshe
gotup"
Keenan:
"youl
ookedt
ir
ed"
Me:"Iwasy ouweretooener
geti
cinthe
morning"helaughedoutl
oudcausi
ngLuvuy
o
t
olaugh
Keenan:"
whatyoul
aughingatpr
incessyouli
ke
i
twhenIlaughdon'
tyou"hewentont i
ckl
ingher
Igotofft
hebedputonar obe
Me: "
comeherepr
incessl
etsgobath"keenan
gavehert
omeIgav eherabathdressedherup
keenanwasbusyonhisiMac
Me: "
Idon'
tunder
standwhyyouhav
etocar
ry
yourworkever
ywhereyougo"
Keenan:
"workisnev
ercompl
etet
handol
wam
youknowthat"
Me:"buty
ousai
dnowor
kthi
sweekend"he
si
ghed
Keenan:
"IknowIknowbutl
overi
t'
sjust
..
"
Me:
"nobut
s"heshuthi
siMacandputi
tasi
de
Keenan:
"coolim al
laboutmygi
rl
sfort
her
est
oftheweekend"
Me:
"thanky
ou"
Keenan:"anythingf oryounowcomegi v
eme
somesugar "Igi ggledcrawledont hebedt o
him wekissedIpul l
edbackaf terawhi l
ewentt o
showerhegoti nasIwasget ti
ngoutdr essed
upi nashortumbr ell
askirtacropt opand
sandlaskeenangotdr essedasIpackedup
l
uv uyo'
sbagwhenhewasdonewel efthehad
hir
edacarwhenwear r
ivedyester daywespent
thedayatUshaka.Thef oll
owingdayIwent
homei nthemor ningmadei tint i
mef orchur ch
aft
erchurchmypar entsLuvuyoandIwentf or
l
unchmom wasbei ngjudgement al asalways
aboutkeenan.Myr el
ati
onshipwi thmom ki nda
gotbadwhenImov edinwi t
hni coleshewas
pulli
ngbackhar dlyhadt imeformewhenI
call
edshewasj ustcol dbutther ewasnot hingI
coulddoaboutwhatwashappeni ngi tnotli
keI
choosetost aywi thNicoleitherhusbandwho
shippedmeof ftomi drand.Afterlunchwe
chill
edathomeal i
ttl
ethenItookLuv uyoto
Lungel
o'spar
ent
skeenanpickedmeupwel
eft
fort
heairpor
tst
rai
ghtt
ojhbhespentt
heni
ght
i
nMi dr
and.
.
Timef lewbyev eryonewasok, Lungel owas
goodnotl ookingf orlovehebur i
edhi mselfon
hispoet ryandschool workheenj oyed
meani nglesssexf rom thegi r
lswhot hrew
themsel vesathi m hegav eallhisl ovet o
Luv uyoandt hatmadehi m happy .Set huand
Nombusospentl otoft i
met oget hert heywere
gettingreall
ycl oset heirf
riendshipwasj ust
easyt het woconnect edinawaySet hunev er
connect edwi t
hSi noandNombusof eltli
keshe
foundabi gsisterinSet hu,Pat r
ickwashar dl
yin
j
hbhewasal way st raveli
ngspentmostofhi s
ti
mei nLagoswi thhisf amilyandNombuso
l
ov edt hatcozi tmeantnothav i
ngsexwi thhim
event houghshewasst art
ingt oenj oyi tandit
scar edhertohel l.Sinoandkeenanwer e
obsessedwi theachot hernot hi
ngcoul dkeep
them apar tev ent houghNi coletri
edbykeepi ng
Sini inmi dranddur i
ngt heweeki tseemed
usel essbecausekeenanwoul djustcomeov er.
Nkany isoandSet huwer ewor ki
ngSet hur eal
ly
tamedNkany isoi tirr
itatedhi sfri
endsbecause
hewoul drat herspendhi sFr i
daynightscuddl ed
ont hecouchhav i
ngt akeaway swithSet hu
rathert hangocl ubbing, hisl i
fewasbasi cally
aboutkeepi ngSet huhappyandsaf eeven
thoughsomet imessheannoy edhim withher
moodswi ngshewoul djustsmi l
eandt ake
what evershewasdi shingouti nthatmoment ,
Set huwasnow4mont hspr egnantshewas
def i
ni t
elyshowi ngbot ht heirparentsstil
ldidn'
t
know.Si nost illhadn' tseenSet husinceshe
hear dshewaspr egnantshewasst i
llnot
talkingt oset hu&Nkany iso, herrel
ati
onshi p
withLungel owasnott hesamet heyonl yspoke
toeachot heraboutLuv uyoandi tkill
edLungel o.
.
I
twasnowSept
emberhol
i
day
sIwasathome
i
ndur banf orPhi we'swhi t
eweddi ngSet huandI
hadmi ssedt hetraditional weddingbecauseof
testsandsubmi t
ionsi twasFr i
dayaf ternoon
SethuNkany isoandLungel ower edr ivi
ngdown
todbnt oget herapar tofmewasabi texci
ted
overseei ngSet huIj ustwant edt oseemy
parentsr eactionwhent heyr eali
zepr incess
Sethuispr egnant .Iwentdownst airswhenI
heardnoi set hehousewasal r
eadypackedwi th
myaunt snuncl esncousi nsevery onewasher e
fortheweddi ngot herswer eonthei rwayIgot
downst airsIsawmysi stershehadj ustgotin
shewasshar inghugswi thpeopl eherbump
wassov isibleevent houghshewaswear i
nga
real
lyloset ankt opandl eggingswi t
huggsshe
l
ookedatmewej ustst ar edateachot hershe
madeherwayt ome
Sethu:
"heysi
s"shewassoner
vousi
tmademe
chuckl
e
Me:
"hi
"shet
ookLuv
uyowhowasonmyar
ms
Set
hu:
"Iam sosor
rySi
nov
uyo"
Me:"
youonl
ygoi
ngt
oapol
ogi
zenowaf
ter4
mont
hs"
Set
hu:
"youwoul
dn'
tpi
ckupmycal
l
s"
Me:
"youdi
dn'
ttr
yhar
denough"
Set
hu:"
ouchVuv u"shewaspul
l
ingherhai
r
Luv
uyojustl
aughed
Me:"goonpri
ncesshur
therformommy "we
l
aughedLuvuyocl
appedherhandsexci
tedl
y
Set
hu:"
Ishoul
dhavetr
iedhar
dert
ogeti
ntouch
wit
hyouIshoul
dhavetol
dyouwheni
tstar
ted"
Me:"i
tshoul
dn'
thav
est
art
edSi
phoset
huhi
smy
ex"
Set
hu:
"Il
ovehi
m"hert
ear
sdr
oppedIl
etouta
si
gh
Me:"howi
sthepr
egnancytr
eati
ngyou"she
gav
emeaweaksmi lewhil
ewippinghertear
s
Set
hu:
"itok"
Me: "
don'
tl
ie"shepoint
edupwi t
hherheadwe
wentuptomyr oom shesatnexttomestar
ted
cr
ying
Me:
"nowwhat
"
Sethu: "
im sof ati
m a34alreadyIcr yover
stupidthingsimt hisemoti
onalfreakthatI
nev ersawbef oreIwakeupi nthemi ddl
eof
nightcravingpeanutbutterandbananai m
throwingal lt
het i
meIhatethisSinoIcan't
handl ei
t"Ijustlaughed
Me:"i
tnor
malsi
s"Iwasst
il
ll
aughi
ngwhen
Phi
wegotin
Phiwe:"Si
phoset
hu"hepul
ledherup"
whatt
he
fuck!
!"Set
hulookedaway
Me:
"language!
"
Phi
we:
"Set
huy
oupr
egnant
"
Me:
"obv
iousl
y"
Set
hu:
"I.
.Phi
we"
Phi
we:
"ohGodmom i
sgoi
ngt
ofr
eakout
"
Set
hu:
"wher
ear
ethey
"
Phi
we:
"wej
ustgoti
ntheydownst
air
s"
Set
hu:
"im soscar
edPhi
we"
Phi
we:
"can'
tbel
i
evey
ouhav
ingsex"
Me:
"wor
separ
twi
thNkany
iso"
Phiwe:"
nofucknway!
"Il
aughednnodded
"Nkany
isoasinNkany
isodl
amini
"
Me:
"yep"
Phi
we:
"si
no'
sex"
Me:
"oneandonl
y"
Set
hu:
"okenough!
"
Phi
we:"
IseethatDlami
nii
nyouisal
ready
maki
ngyoufeelbravey
oucanrai
seyourvoi
ce
atmenow"shelookeddown
Set
hu:
"sor
ry"
Phi
we:
"whati
sitwi
thy
out
woandt
hese
dl
ami
niboy
s"Ichuckl
ed
Me:"
itt
heDl
aminimagi
c"Set
huandIl
aughed
whi
l
ePhiweshookhi
sheadchuckl
i
ng
Phiwe:"gotomom'sroom I'
ll
gocallt
hem i
t
besttheyseeyoupri
vat
elyrathert
han
downstair
sinfr
ontofevery
one"
Set
hu:
"thanky
ou"
Phiwe:"comehereVuv u"hetookLuvuyoand
steppedoutSethufoll
owedaf t
erhim It
ookmy
phonest ar
tedchat
ting.Iwassti
ll
chatti
ngwhen
Iheardyell
ingcomingf r
om myparentsroom I
wenttoeav esdr
op
Mom:"
areyoucr
azySi
phoset
hunev
erhadof
t
hepi
l
lorcondoms"
Dad:"Ineverexpectedt
hisf
rom Sethuyouwer
e
al
way sthesmar tonehowcany oulett
his
happeny oualmostdonewithschool"
Mom: "
itt
hatdaughterofy
our
sshe'
sabad
i
nfl
uencetomychild"
Dad:
"theydon'
tev
enst
ayt
oget
herOngezi
we"
Mom:"nxaSiphosethuy
our eal
lydisappoi
nted
meIhavealwaysbeenpr oudofy oubutnow
youj
ustbehavi
nglikeNicole'sdaughter"
Dad:
"Ongezi
we!
!!
"
Mom:"shutupLuzuko!Whoisthef
atherSet
hu"
Idi
dn'
thearany
thing"Set
hu!
!"
Set
hu:
"Nkany
isodl
ami
ni"
Dad:
"Jesus"
Mom:
"seei
tSi
nov
uyo'
sfr
iend"
Dad:
"justst
opi
tOngezi
we"
Set
hu:
"Iam sor
ry"
Mom: "
atleasti
tnott
hatdemoni
cchil
d
Lungel
o"IgotinIwasbeyondpi
ssedof
f
Me:"Idi
dn'
tknowyoufel
tthatwayOngezi
we
whyhaven'
tyouchasedmeoutofyourhousei
f
youhatemethatmuch"t
heyalll
ookedatmein
shock
Dad:
"nci
nci
"
Me:"
itokdaddyIgeti
nnow"IwalkedoutIwent
t
omyr oom st
art
edpackingmybagsalongwit
h
l
uvuy
o'sIwasalmostdonewhendadgotin
Dad:
"whatar
eyoudoi
ngnci
nci
"
Me:
"youcansee"
Dad:"yourmom l
ovesy
ounci
nci
shewas
shocked"
Me:"
howisitmyf aul
tthatSet
huopenedher
l
egsforNkany
iso"Phiwegotin
Phi
we:
"what
'sgoi
ngonsi
s"
Me:
"im goi
nghome"
Dad:
"nci
nci
youar
ehome"
Me:
"itdoesn'
tfeel
li
kehomet
ome"
Phi
we:
"comeher
esi
s"
Me:
"younott
alki
ngmeoutoft
his"
Phi
we:
"Iwon'
tev
ent
ryy
out
oost
ubbor
njust
l
i
kedad"
Dad:
"hey
!"Wechuckl
ed
Phi
we:
"let
'
sgobuyi
cecr
eam"
Me:
"Phi
we"
Phi
we:"come"hetookmyhandwewentoutt
o
hi
scarItookLuvuyowedrov
emusgr
avewimpy
gotmi
lkshakeandsatdown
Phi
we:
"im get
ti
ngmar
ri
edt
omor
row"
Me:
"Iknowdwee"
Phi
we:
"youwantmet
onotenj
oymyday
"
Me:"
ofcosIwanti
ttobet
hebestdayofy
our
l
if
e"
Phi
we: "
itwon'
tbewi
thoutmyl
i
ttl
esi
sterand
myniece"Isi
ghed
Me:
"mom hat
esmenow"
Phi
we:
"shedoesn'
tshe'
sst
ressedout
"
Me:
"don'
ttr
ytoj
ust
if
yher
"
Phi
we:
"nev
er"
Me: "
itnotmyfaultPhi
weIdidn'
tevenknow
Sethuwassleepi
ngwi thNkanyi
soupuntilI
heardshewaspr egnanti
twasthefir
stseei
ng
herinover4mont hs"
Phi
we:
"youguy
sar
esi
ster
sthat
'
snotr
ight
"
Me:
"Iknow"
Phi
we:"st
aypl
easeI'
l
ltakey
out
otheai
rpor
t
mysel
fonSunday"
Me:
"ok"
Phi
we:
"Il
ovey
ou"
Me: "
lov
ey outoobigbr o"afterourmilkshakes
andfeedingLuvuyoheri cecream wewent
home.Mom i gnoredfort herestofthenight
Sethuapologi
zedbuti twasn'treall
yherfault.
Satur
daycamei twasabusymor ni
ngt he
weddingwentbybeaut i
full
yLuv uyoandSiviwe
(phi
we'sson)weret heflowergi r
landpeach
boyitwassof unnynwei rdLuthandoandI
carri
edt hem downt hei slePhi weal most
fai
ntedwhenphel okazi cameoutshewasso
beautif
ul.Theweddi ngwasatbot anicgar denI
gaveLungel ohi sdaught erandwentonwi th
beingbusywhenev ery thingwasov erthe
peoplewer ej ustdrinki ngLungel ot ookushome
Luvuyowasasl eepal ready .SundaySet hu
Nkany i
soLungel oandIdr ovebackt oj hbt he
ri
dewassol ongSet hukeptonwant ingt ogo
peeorwant i
ngsomet hingf r
om theshopsI
endedsl eepingj ustt oav oi dgettingir r
itated
mom hasn' tspokent omesi nceFr i
day ,
SaturdaynightIcal l
edkeenancr yinghewant ed
togetonapl aneandcomet odurbansame
ti
me.Wef i
nallygott oj hbwentt odr opof f
Nkany i
soandSet huf irstt hanLungel odr opped
meof fatKeenan' shouseheopenedhi sar ms
assoonasIgoti nthedoorIr antohi m andl et
outaNei l
RiverIcr iedsohar dmyv oicegotal l
huskyIwasj ustr eallyhur t i
ngov erwhatmom
hadsai dkeenanl if
tedmeupwewentt oour
bedr
oom wherehel
ovedandcheri
shedmy
bodyhemadeslowpassi
onatel
ovetomeitfel
t
somagical
hewasstari
ngint
omyey eswhi
le
movingi
nslowpace
Keenan:"
let
'smakeourownf
ami
l
y"hest
opped
moving
Me:
"what
"
Keenan:
"youmeLuv
uyoandourbaby
"
Me:
"im notpr
egnant
"
Keenan:"t
hat'saboutt
ochangel
etmef at
her
your2ndbor nlet
'shav
eourownchi
ld"hewent
deeperIarchedmyback
Me:
"aah"
Keenan:
"sayy
es"hesl
i
deoutonl
ytosl
i
deback
i
ndeeper
Me:"y
es"hesmashedhisl
ipsonmi
newe
ki
ssedashi
spacepickedup
Keenan:
"comewi
thme"
Me:"ok"hemov edf
oraboutaminuteIwas
movingrightal
ongwit
hhim wecameatt he
samehewentdeepergoingalli
nIfel
thisload
deepwithinmywomanhood.
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08/
12,
21:
25]Wadz
:Inser
t38
.
Iwokeupwi
thascr
eam onl
ytor
eal
i
zei
m saf
e
and
warm wi
thmyf
aceonhi
schesthi
sar
ms
ar
oundmybody
Keenan:
"itokyouokim her
e"Inoddedhehel
d
met i
ght
er"anotherni
ght
mare?"
Me:
"anot
her
?"
Keenan:
"yeahy
ouhadoneinthemi
ddl
eoft
he
ni
ghtbutyoudi
dn'
twakeup"
Me:
"oh"
Keenan:
"whatwasi
tabout
"
Me:
"don'
tremember
"
Keenan:
"okIgoty
ouandy
oual
way
ssaf
einmy
ar
ms"
Me:"
Ilov
eyousomuchKeenan"myv
oicewas
br
aki
ngheremovedhi
sar
msandheldmychin
maki
ngmelookathi
m
Keenan:
"what
'swr
ong"
Me:"j
ustt
hatsometi
mesitover
whelmsme
howmuchIloveyou"hewipedmytear
sand
ki
ssedmyeyes
Keenan:"Il
oveyouj
ustasmuchi fnotmor e"he
l
eanedingav emeasoftpeck"y
oumyl i
fe
Sinovuy
o"wekissedaslowheartwar mingkiss
Ipull
edbackwhenmyphonewasr ingingitwas
ni
cole
Me:
"mom"
Ni
c:"
Nikkybabyhowar
eyou"
Me:
"im okny
ou"
Ni
c:"It
alkedtoyourfatherlastnighthetol
dme
whatyourstepmothersaid"Ijustsighedas
tear
srol
l
eddownmycheekKeenant
ookt
he
phone
Keenan:"nicol
e...
.She'snotok...
.No..
..
.Damit
Nicol
eletmet akecareofhershe'smine..
..
.I'
l
l
bri
nghert herewhenshewant smet ori
ghtnow
sheneedsmeshecamet ome. ..
..
.Wellt
hank
youbye"hedr oppedt hecallandheldmecloser
Me:
"may
besheal
way
shat
edme"
Keenan:"i
mpossi
bleshewoul
dn'
thaverai
sed
youifshehat
edyoushewasjustangr
yn
hurt
ing"
Me:
"don'
tdef
endher
"
Keenan:"
Iwouldneveryoumynumber1i
m
al
way sonyourcor
ner"
Me:
"ok"
Keenan:
"youmyf
ami
l
y"
Me:"speaki
ngaboutf
ami
l
ylastni
ghtwer
eyou
ser
ious"
Keenan:
"yes"
Me:"i
m goodenoughtobet
hemot
herofy
our
chi
l
dbutnotyourwife"
Keenan:"
woah!!Wher
eisthatcomi
ngf
rom"he
satupandpul
ledmeup" Nikky
"
Me:
"itaquest
ion"
Keenan:
"youmor ethangoodenoughtobemy
wif
eDomi ni
cjustthatmarr
iagewasnotonmy
mindatthatmoment "
Me:"don'tgetmewr ongim notsayi
ngmarry
meourr elat
ionshi
pisnotevenay earol
dbut..
."
Ij
ustsighedhel ookedatme
Keenan:"i
m sor
ryi
fImadeyouf eell
ikeyounot
worthyofbei
ngmywifebutthetruthis
marriagei
snotsomet
hingIeverthoughtabout
butIwouldn'
tgetmar
ri
edtoanybodybuty ou"
Me:
"oh"
Keenan:
"Il
oveyouDomini
cjusty
ouI
'
llnev
er
l
oveanybodyel
sebutourki
ds"
Me:"okIl
ovey outoo"wekissedIsatonhim as
hedeepenedthekissslowl
ymov i
ngbackwards
unt
ilhewaslayingful
lyont
hebedwewer ehot
andheavywhenmyphoner angagain
Keenan:
"whati
nthef
ucknhel
l
"Il
aughed
Me:
"sor
ry"
Keenan:
"swi
tchi
tof
f"It
ooki
t
Me:"i
tdaddy
"hegr
oanedandIanswer
ed"
hey
daddy
"
Dad:
"heynci
nci
"
Me:
"howar
eyou"
Dad:
"Imf
inenci
nci
justwor
ri
edabouty
ou"
Me:
"imf
inedaddy
"
Dad:
"Ispoket
oyourmot
herandsh.
..
"Icuthi
m
of
f
Me:"
whyarey
ouandni
col
ecal
l
ingeachot
her
somuch"
Dad:
"nci
nci
"
Me:
"nodaddyanswermewhat
'sgoi
ngon"
Dad:
"wehaveachi
l
dtoget
hercommuni
cat
ing
i
ssomethi
ngwecan'
tavoi
d"
Me:"i
m notachi
l
ddady outwodon'
tneedt
obe
t
alki
ngtoeachothersoof
ten"
Dad:
"youwoul
dn'
tunder
standnci
nci
"
Me:
"youst
il
ll
oveher
"
Dad:
"of
cosshe'
sthemot
herofmychi
l
d"
Me:
"nodaddyar
eyoust
il
li
nlov
ewi
thher
"
Dad:"
ncinci
!Youcan'
tbeaski
ngmet
hatI
'
m
yourf
ather"
Me:"youmymarriedf
athernowonderyouwi f
e
hat
esmenowbecausey oubusychasi
ngafter
mymot herni
col
eisamar ri
edwomansoar e
younowactyourage"Idroppedt
hecalland
swit
chedoffmyphone
Keenan:
"ni
col
ebet
ternothur
tmyf
ather
"I
si
ghed
Me:
"canwenott
alkaboutt
hat
"
Keenan:"
all
im sayi
ngisthaty
ourmotherbet
ter
nothurtmyfat
her"Iki
ssedhim gi
vi
nghima
babykiss
Me:"wher
ewerewe"hesmi
ledandhel
dthe
backofmyneck"
yougotwork"
Keenan:
"I'
l
lcalli
nsi
ckt
odayisall
aboutus"I
ki
ssedhim sucki
ngi
nhi
sbot t
om l
ipheli
ft
ed
meupmaki ngmesitdi
rect
lyonhi
sdick..
.
.
Lungel
o
Olwet
huandIwerejustcomingoutoft
hecafe
aft
erget
ti
ngsomecof f
eeIneededthecaf
fei
ne
andwell
Olwet
huisaddictedtocof
feeIt
hought
myeyesweredecei
vingme
Me:
"check"Ipoi
ntedwi
thmyhead
Ol
wet
hu:
"nof
ucknway
s"
Me:
"Iknowr
ight
"shewascomi
ngourwayshe
wasaboutt
opassuswhenIhel
dherar
m she
t
urnedmaki
ngherweav
ehitmyface
Nombuso:
"ohhey
"
Me: "hi
"shesmi l
edwejustst
aredateachother
forwhatfeltl
ikeanhourshelookedli
keali
ght
skinnedversi
onofSethuOlwethuclear
edhi
s
throat
Me:
"howar
eyou"
Nombuso:
"im goodandy
ou"
Me:" i
m goodt ooareyoubusyI dl
iketo
apologizeforhowItreatedyoulastti
mewe
spokeIj ustf
reakedout"shelookedatmehar
d
andlong
Nombuso:
"Igott
ime"
Me:
"I'
l
lcat
chwi
thy
oul
aterOl
wet
hu"
Ol
wethu:"
dudey
oucan'
tmi
ss207McCal
lwi
l
l
ki
l
lyou"
Me:
"I'
l
ldeal
wit
hhi
mtomor
row"
Ol
wet
hu:
"yourf
uneral
"hel
eftuswal
ki
ng
t
owar
dsthel
ectur
ehall
Me:
"canwedobr
unch"
Nombuso:
"ok"Il
etgoofherar
m wewal
ked
t
owardsmycar
Me:
"howhav
eyoubeen"
Nombuso:
"soandsonocompl
ains"
Me:"youlookdi
ff
erentbeaut
if
ulbutdif
fer
ent
"I
openedthedoorforhercl
osi
ngitaft
ershegot
i
nandIwentt omysi de
Nombuso:
"thanky
ou"Idr
oveof
f
Me:"
seel
i
febeent
reat
ingy
ougood"she
gi
ggl
ed
Nombuso: "
Iguessy oucansayt hat"Ichanged
thegearaccidentall
ytouchi
nghert highshe
shivver
edmaki ngmechuckl e,shewaswear i
ng
highwaistedbum shor t
sandabr atopwitha
l
ar geunbutt
oneddeni m shi
rtandNi keroshers
herlongweav eleftl
ose
Me:"
youlookreal
l
ybeaut
if
ulNombusoy
ou
ev
enlostwei
ght"
Nombuso: "j
oinedvirginact
ive"thatki
ndamade
met hi
nkImeani m aguybutInot icethi
ngs
especi
allycl
othesIlov ecl
othesshewasal lMr
Pri
cebef or
ebutnowshe' sallFactor
ieI'
veseen
thewholeoutfitbef
or eonSinoandshehad
boughtitfr
om FactorieandIknowweav esare
expensi
v eespecial
l
yl ongones
Me:"seey
ougoty
our
sel
fabl
esser
"she
l
aughed
Nombuso:
"don'
tbecr
azyIgotapar
tti
mej
ob"
Me:"
nice"wegoti
natDrosfoundatabl
e
or
der
eddr i
nkswhi
lel
ookingatthemenuwhen
weweredoneweplaceourorders
Me:"Iwantedtoapol
ogi
zef orhowIhandl
ed
thewholesit
uati
onIwassuchanasst oyou
babyandim notli
ket
hatthat'
snotmeIjustl
ost
i
twhenSi nocal
ledme"
Nombuso;"i
tokIunder
standIoverst
epped
someboundari
esIshoul
dn'thav
eletmyfri
ends
conf
ronther
"
Me:
"canweputi
tint
hepastandmov
eon"
Nombuso:
"I'
dlov
rit
"
Me:"goodbecauseiv
rbeenmi ssi
ngyou"she
smil
edIleanedingaveherasoftpeckshe
bl
ushedhercheeksgett
ingrosey
Nombuso;
"beenmi
ssi
ngy
ouaswel
l
"
Me:"
that
'sagoodt
hingIl
i
kebei
ngmi
ssed"she
gi
ggl
ed
Nombuso:
"mustbeni
ce"
Me:
"mypl
aceal
somi
ssesy
ou"
Nombuso: "
didn'
tknowy
ourpl
acecanf
eel
t
hings"Ichuckl
ed
Me:
"youhav
enoi
deaespeci
all
ymybed"
Nombuso:
"guessweneedt
ofi
xthat
"
Me:
"youchangedy
ounol
ongershy
"she
shr
uggedhershoul
der
s
Nombuso:
"guessI
'
m gr
owi
ngLungel
o"
Me:"t
hat
'sgood"ourfoodcameweatewhi
l
e
cat
chi
ngupaftereati
ngIpaidwel
eft
Me:
"st
il
lgotl
ect
ures"
Nombuso:
"im done"
Me:
"wanawat
chsomet
v"
Nombuso:
"yepwecango"
Me: "gr
eat
"Idroveofft omyplacewhenwegot
ther
eIgotussomej uicewewantt owat chtv
shewassi t
ti
ngont hecouchwi thherlegs
underherthi
ghshershor t
swer epressedonher
bodyIcouldseeherkushev enthel i
neshewas
tal
kingaboutsomethingtel
li
ngmeshel ives
nextdoortoNkanyisoorsomet hingIcouldn'
t
evenhearherproperlyIwassohar dIwasi n
pain
Me:
"si
tonme"
Nombuso:
"what
"shel
ookedt
akenback
Me: "
comesi tonme"shenoddedandcameI
smashedmyl i
psonherweki ssedhungr
il
yI
tookoffherclothest
henIremember edt
heonly
condomsIhav earei
nthebedroom soIstood
upstil
lki
ssingherwewentt omyr oom .
..
.
Nombuso.
.
Lungelodroppedmeof fatmypl aceIdidn't
havelectureshewasl at eforhisafterspending
thenightyesterdayathi splaceIcouldn'tst
op
smili
ngIgotof ft
hel i
ftwentt omypl aceI
openedt hedoorl ockingaf termy sel
fIgotthe
shockofmyl if
ewhenf oundPat r
ickinthe
l
oungei nnot hi
ngbutsweat pantsandamuscl e
topIstoodf rozeny esterdaymor ningwhenwe
spokehewasgoi ngt otakeapl anef r
om
durbantohi shousei nLagos
Me:
"h.
..
h..
.hi
.
..Pat
ri
ck"Ist
utt
ered
Pat
ri
ck:
"wher
ehav
eyoubeen"
Me:"wasdoinganassi
gnmentwit
hmygroup
matesbythetimewefi
nishedi
twasl
ateI
deci
dedtosleepov
er"
Pat
ri
ck:
"mal
eorf
emal
e"
Me:
"femal
e"
Pat
ri
ck:
"whyy
oul
yi
ng"
Me:
"im not
"
Pat
rick:"
don'
tli
etome!
!"Her
aisedhi
svoi
ceI
shi
vveredinf
ear
Me:
"Pat
ri
ck"
Pat
ri
ck:
"youf
ucki
nghi
m"
Me:
"ther
e'snoone"
Pat
ri
ck:
"st
ri
p"
Me:
"what
"
Pat
ri
ck:
"ar
eyoudeaf
"
Me:
"Pat
ri
ckIdon'
tunder
stand"hest
oodupi
n
suchaspeedgav
emeaslapwitht
hebackof
hi
shandIstumbl
edbacki
tst
ingmycheekf
elt
hotsameti
me
Me:
"Pat
ri
ck"t
ear
sst
art
edf
all
i
ngf
rom myey
es
Patri
ck:"Isai
dtakeyourclothesof f"Idi
dwhil
e
heplayedmusi ctur
ningthewhol evolumeup.I
stoodinf r
ontofhim completelynakedhe
l
ookedal lovermybodyhewal kedaroundme
l
ookingatmewi t
hsomuchdi sgusthegaveme
anotherslapIfel
l
Patri
ck: "
ifyougoingt ogoar oundduckingboys
atleasttellt
hem tonotl eavemar ksony our
body "helif
tedmeupmademel ieonthecouch
"openy ourlegswide"Idi d"Isaidwidebitchy
ou
openedt hem lastnightnowy oucan't
"Ididhe
openedmypussyl i
psandsni ff
edaftert
hathe
spatinmypussyandpul ledmeup
Me:"Patr
ickim sor
ry"hedidn'
tev
enrepl
yhe
j
ustpunchedIswearIf el
tmycheekbonebreak
"
im sorr
ypleasedon'thur
tme"het hr
ewin
anotherpunchIcur l
edupont hef l
oori naf etus
posit
ionIkeptmyey escl osedasIl istent ohis
sneakerconnectingwi t
hmybodyandwi t
h
everyblowIfeltairl
eavemybodyev ent uall
ymy
brai
nshutev eryt
hingoutunt i
lIfelthiml if
tme
uphewal kedtomybedr oom st r
aightt othe
bathroom t
hebat htubwasal r
eadyf ill
edwi th
waterandfoam heputmei nIcriedoutasmy
bodysanki nthewat eritwasl ikerubbi ngsalt
onanopenwound
Patri
ck: "
washt hatdirt
ybody"hewalkedIcri
ed
Itouchedmyf aceitfel
tli
kethere'
sawhole
otherlayeront opofitmyey ewasclosedI
couldbar el
yseewi ththeotheroneIj
ustsati
n
thewat ercryi
ngunt i
lhegotin
Pat
ri
ck:
"Nombuso"
Me:
"yes"Icoul
dn'
trecogni
zemyownv
oice
Patr
ick:
"hurr
yandgetoutoft
hatwat
ert
he
doct
orwi l
lbeher
esoon"
Me:
"ok"hel
eftIgotoutoft
hewat
err
insedt
he
bathtubwrappedat owel
aroundmybodyIwent
tostandbythemi r
rorandIletoutal
oudsobhe
gotinthebathroom
Patr
ick:"
lookatwhaty oumademedot oy
our
beauti
fulfaceyoutr
yingtotur
nmei nt
oa
rut
hlessheartl
essmant hi
sisnotme
Nombuso"hel ookedlikehi
sinpai
n
Me:
"imr
eal
l
ysor
ryPat
ri
ck"
Patr
ick:"
don'
ttur
nmeintoanani
mal
Nombuso
promisemeyougoingt
ostop"
Me:"
Ipr
omise"hecamet
omegav
emeababy
ki
ssmyli
pwasbusted
Pat
ri
ck:"
thedoct
ori
sher
eputonar
obeand
cometothel
ounge"
Me: "
ok"hewentoutItookof ft
hetowelmy
wholebodywasredandbl uemyey ewas
cl
osedtheotheronewasal soswoll
enmy
cheekwasbustedstr
aightundermyey esmy
bott
om li
pwasopenIwentt othebedr
oom put
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he
l
oungehewastherewit
hanotherguywhowas
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ryi
ngamedicalbaghegaspedwhenhesaw
meandgavePatri
ckadisapprovi
nglook
Patri
ck:
"thi
sisdoct
orCowel
myl oveanol
d
fr
iendofmineheisgoi
ngtotakecar
eofyou"I
nodded
Cowel ;
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start
edchecki
ngmeouthest ar
tedsti
tchingup
myl i
pandcheekIcoul
dn'tst
opthetearsfrom
fall
i
ngwhenhewasdoneheappl i
edcream on
bothstit
ches
Cowel:
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ustkeepon
appl
yi
ngthesecreamsthebrui
sandswoll
eness
wil
ldi
sappearsoon"
Me:
"Tha.
..
.Thanky
ou"
Cowel:"
thi
sisanoteyouexcusedf
rom var
sit
y
for2weeksbythenyouwouldhaveheal
ed
complet
elyandher
etake2nowand2t hree
ti
mesadayi tf
orpai
n"
Me:"
ok"hel
ookedatmei
npi
tybef
orenoddi
ng
wi
thati
ghtsmi
le
Cowel
:"i
m donePat
ri
ck"
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ck:"l
etmewalkyouout"t
heywalkedaway
Itookthemedici
nethenwenttomybedroom I
careful
l
ygotunderthecov
ersandcr
iedmy sel
f
tosleepever
ypartofmybodywasinpain.
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eadydar
ktherewasa
bunchoffl
ower
snextt
omewi thacardandgi
ft
bagIreadt
hecard
*im sosorr
ymyqueenIpr omiseyouthi
swas
thefir
standthelastt
imeIletmyangercontr
ol
mepl easefi
nditonyourheartt
oforgi
veme. .
..
.
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attheoffi
ceI'
ll
beweeknextweekIt ookyour
phonewi t
hmet hedri
verwill
checkonyou
everyday*
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ustsi
ghedt ookthegif
tbagitwasabeauti
ful
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edit
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chedonthe
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ightwentaroundtheapar
tmentswitchi
ngon
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ghtst
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om Hilt
on
hotelIt
ookthefoodwenttoeati
nf r
ontofthe
TV.
.
Iknockedner vouslyatLungelo'spl aceIwas
j
usthopi ngtofindhi minagoodspaceaf ter
mom cal ledmeswear i
ngatmel astni ght
sayi
ngIwasagoodf ornothi
ngbi tchshet ried
rai
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lturn
outlikeacoldhear tedbit
chjustlikemymot her
andt hatshedidn'twantmei nherhouse, I
fi
guredImi ghtaswel lcutall
tieswi t
hdurban.
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hisbody
Me:
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imi
ng?
"Hechuckl
ed
Lungel
o:"of
cosnotij
ustcameoutoft
he
showercomein"Iwenti
nwewenttothe
l
ounge
Me:
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essedweneedt
otal
k"
Lungel
o:"soundsser
iousI
'
llbeback"hewenti
n
hi
sbedroom Iwasbitti
ngmynai l
sner
vousl
y
unti
lhecamebackandsatacr ossme
Lungel
o:"
what
'sup"
Me:"wasjust.
..
.Imean..
..Fl
ip!.
.,
uhm Iwant
Luv
uy ot
ocomest aythi
sside"
Lungel
o:"
what
?!Why
"It
oldhi
m whatwent
downwithmom
Me:"andwebot
hthi
ssideLungel
oy ouhar
dly
evengohomewhenschooli
sclosedanyway"
hepushedhi
shai
rback
Lungel
o:"
youar
enotaboutt
opl
ayhappyf
ami
l
y
wit
hmychildSi
nov
uyo"
Me: "
what?!I
sthatwhaty
out hi
nkofme
LungeloIj
ustwantmychil
dthissi
dewebot h
thi
ssideLungel
owhycan'tshebesideand
she'
sgoingtobestayi
ngwithmeathomenot
atKeenan'
shouse"
Lungel
o:"
yourhomei
shi
shomey
ouseem t
o
f
orgett
hathi
syourbr
other
"
Me:"st
opbeingunreasonableLungel
oyouwill
gett
oseehermor eoftenshecanev enspend
somenight
swi t
hyou"hel ookeddown
Lungel
o:"
Idon'
twantmychi
l
dfor
get
ti
ngt
hat
i
m herdaddy"
Me:"
thatwoul
dnev
erhappenLungel
oI
pr
omiseyou"
Lungel
o:"
Iguessherbei
ngt
hissi
demakes
sense"
Me:
"thanky
ou"
Lungelo:"
letmecal lmom"hecal l
edhismom
putheronl oudspeakeri
ttooksomeconv i
nci
ng
butshefinall
yagreedafterpromisi
ngthatIwil
l
sti
l
lletLuvuyocomet odurbanandthatthey
al
way swelcomet ocomeseeheri nJhb.
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woweeksf rom t
heni
twasmonth
endweekendLungel
o'
smom hadsaidweneed
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ormonthend,Lungel
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s
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sbeoveral
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m
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ort
hisshitshet
hrewanot
hergl
ass
andIducked
Me:
"lov
ecal
m down"
Set
hu:
"nowt
haty
ouhav
emef
atandcr
azyy
ou
goi
ngaf
terski
nnygi
rl
s"
Me:
"Idon'
tknowwhaty
out
alki
ngabout
"
Sethu:"t
hatgi
rly
ou'
vebeenf
li
rt
ingwi
thon
facebook"
Me:"babyIai
n'
tfl
i
rti
ngwi
thanygi
rly
oual
lI
see"
Set
hu:"ofcosim allyouseeim af
uckn
el
ephant"Ichuckledshethrewafryi
ngpanat
meIwast ool
atei tl
andedonmyhead
Me:
"ouchouchSi
phoset
hu"t
hisi
sabuse!
!
Set
hu:
"youcheat
ingonmeNkany
iso!
"
Me:"Iwoul
dn'tdot
hatyouallIneedhav
eyou
seenyour
selfyouf
uckngorgeous"
Set
hu:"
ofcosi
veseenmy
sel
fim af
uckn
whal
e!"
Me:
"lov
e"
Set
hu:"
IsawherNkanyi
soshegoestoyour
campusshecheckedi
nher
eatourfuckn
apar
tmentareyoufucki
ngheri
nourbedas
well
"Il
etoutasigh
Me: "
whatgirlarey
outal
kingabout"shest ar
ted
cryi
ngIfel
tlikeahugeassIhateseeingher
tear
ssomet hingbr
akesinmewhenev ershe
cri
es
Sethu:"t
hatskinnybit
chXol oslutNdl
ela!
!"I
tr
iedtonotlaughbuti tcameoutasachuckl e
shethrewapl ateatmeIbl ockeditwi
thmyar m
shewasaboutt otakeanotheroneIrantoher
andheldherhands
Me:"babyXol
oisalesbi
anwedot
hesame
cour
seshe'soneoftheguy
s"
Set
hu:
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tl
iet
ome"
Me:"I
'v
eneversleptwit
hher"whi
chisali
eXol
o
andIhadcasualsexbefor
eSethuandIgot
excl
usi
vebutifItel
lhert
hatshewil
lst
abme
Set
hu;
"Idon'
tbel
i
evey
ou"
Me:
"babyt
rustmepl
easeIwoul
dn'
thur
tyou
y
eahsur
eyoudr
ivemei
nsanebutIl
ovey
ou"
Set
hu:"
whyi sshetal
ki
ngaboutyourbodyand
l
iki
ngever
ythingyoupostunl
essyoutagme"
Me:
"Idon'
tknowl
ove"
Set
hu:
"Ihat
eher
!"Shecr
iedout
Me:
"im sor
ryl
ovewhatdoy
ouwantmet
odo"
Set
hu:"
im notgoi
ngtot el
lyouwhatt
odobutI
hat
eherIdon'twantheraroundy
ou"
Me:
"I'
l
lst
opbei
ngf
ri
endswi
thher
"
Sethu:"ok..
.,canyoukissmenow"Icuppedher
faceweki ssedwhichledtowi l
dsexont he
kit
chencount eraft
erthatIt
ookhertothebed
shewasf ucknheav ywest i
l
lhad2mor e
mont hsbeforemypr i
ncesscomesoutI
couldn'
twai tSet
huwaspsy chobutIlovedher
andIwasntaboutt oleavemypr egnantwoman
j
ustbecauseshe' sacti
ngpsy cho
Set
hu:
"im sor
rybaby
"
Me:
"what
'sgoi
ngon"
Set
hu:
"Ishoul
dn'
thav
eaccusedy
oul
i
ket
hat
"
Me:
"it
'sokIl
ovey
ou"
Set
hu:
"Il
ovey
out
oo"
Me:"
doyouneedmet ogetyouanyt
hingbefor
e
Igot
othegym orshoul
dIgetyouanythi
ng
fr
om t
heshops"
Sethu:"
ihm..
."Igotof
fthebedwhi
l
eshewas
thi
nkingIputonsweatpant
sandatankt
opwi
th
air
max
Me: "
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thebedandst aredatherIl oveherIlov eherso
muchI 'dl
aymywor ldatherfaceandki ssthe
groundshewal ksonIki ssedherforeheadshe
mumbl edsomet hingandwentbackt osl eep.I
tookmysweatt owel waterbott
leandl eft.Iwas
runningont hetrademi llwhenthischick
start
edwal kingont heonenextt omeshewas
i
nt i
ghtsandaspor tbrashesmi l
edIjustshook
myheadandi ncreasedmyspeedl evelr
unning
fast
ermy30mi nutesgotov erIwentt osit
downst art
edlif
ti
ngt heweightsthisgirl
came
tostandinfrontofmet ook2onekgwei ght
s
didsquatsherasswasonmyf aceIputdown
theweightandst aredatherafterall
that'
swhat
shewant ed
Me:"l
etmeknowwhenyoudonesweet
ie"she
t
urnedtol
ookatmegi
ggli
ng
Gi
rl
:"whaty
ousai
d"
Me:
"youhear
dme"
Gi
rl
:"i
m Sammy
"
Me:
"Nkany
iso"
Sam:
"youwor
koutal
ot"
Me:
"whatdoesi
tlookl
i
ke"
Sam:"l
ikeyoudo"Inodded"Iwasaboutt
oget
di
nneratthi
splaceitawal
kf r
om her
ewana
j
oinme"Iwasst i
ll
looki
ngatherwhenmy
phonerangItookit
Me:
"lov
e"
Set
hu:
"wher
ear
eyou"
Me:
"st
il
latt
hegy
mlov
e"
Sethu:
"pl
easebuymesomeMcDwi t
hext r
a
fr
iesandhotwingsal
ongwi
tht
hosestr
ips"
Me:
"ist
hatal
l
"
Set
hu:
"yes"
Me:
"yousur
e"
Set
hu:
"yhoay
ikeNkany
iso"Ichuckl
ed
Me;
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out
obesur
elov
e"
Sethu:
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amelfl
avor
"Il
aughedI
knewshewasgoingtosendmebackifIdi
dn'
t
getherMcfl
urr
y
Me:
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l
lleav
eri
ghtnowseey
ousoon"
Set
hu:
"okIl
ovey
ouhur
ry"
Me:"
lov
eyoutoo"Sammywasst
ari
ngatwi
th
wi
thanopenmouth
Set
hu:
"mcwa"shedr
oppedt
hecal
l
Me: "
gottapregnantwifeathomesheneeds
food"Istoodupt ookmyt hi
ngslef
twenttokfc
fi
rstthanMcDdr ov est
rai
ghthomeseeingher
onthecouchwear i
ngmycl othesj
ustbr
oughta
smileonmyf ace
Me:
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ourf
ood"
Set
hu:
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vemegi
veme"shecl
apped
Me:"kissmefir
st"shegavemeababyki ssI
l
aughedgavehert hemcfl
urryfi
rstshemoaned
andclosedhereyesinappreci
ati
onIlov
ethis
soul
.
.
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iso
7weeksl aterIwaswi t
hmygr ouponcampus
workingonapr ojecti
twaslatebutitdi
dn'
t
matterwithSethu'smom beingintheprovi
nce
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huwentbackt oherapar
tmenthermom
wasgoi ngtobeher eunti
lSethugavebi
rthmy
phoner angitwasanunknownnumberI
decli
nedt hecallwentbacktodr aft
ingmy
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ngingIputitonsi l
enceaf
ter
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dinnergetsomef oodIt ookmyphoneoutIhad
somanymi ssedcallsevenfrom mom ndadI
call
edmom f i
rst
Me:
"hel
l
o"
Mom: "
Nkany
isowherear
eSet
hui
sinhospi
tal
"
Igr
abbedmythings
Me:
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'sgoi
ngon"
Mom:"
she'
sinl
abour
"Iwasr
unni
ngt
omycar
byt
hen
Me:
"thef
uck!
"
Mom:
"languagePr
ince"
Me:
"sor
ry"
Mom: "j
ustgother
e"Idr
oppedthecallstar
ted
speedi
ngallt
hewayt ot
hehospit
al myGTIwas
onfir
esoonenoughIwasbusti
ngt hroughthe
hospi
tal
door
sIsawhermom t
her
ewentt
oher
Me:
"howi
sshe"
S'
smom:
"wher
ehav
eyoubeen"
Me:
"school
"
S'
smom: "she'
sint
her
eshewantsy
outhere
she'
sbeencall
i
ngfory
ouforov
eranhour
"
Me:"ok"Iwentt
owhereSet
huwas"l
ove"she
l
ookedatmewi tht
ear
srunni
ngdownherface
Sethu:
"im scar
ed"i
wentt
oherandhel
dher
hand
Me:"im hereandIlov
ey ou"shenoddedIki
ssed
hersweat yfor
eheadshecr i
edouti
npain
squeezi
ngmyhandhar d"itokyoudoi
nggood
i
m herey ousobeauti
ful
"
Set
hu:
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tst
op"
Me:"i
tal
mostoverl
ovejusthol
don"she
fl
oppedont
hebedIwipedherfacewithmy
hand.West
ayedli
kewit
hhercryingoutofpai
n
ever y10mi nutesorsount il
shest artedcr yi
ng
nonst opbyt hanIcoul dn' tevenf eelmyhand
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wasswear ingatmenonst opsay i
ngshewi ll
mur dermei nmysl eepi fIdon' ttakeoutt his
thingi nherourbeaut i
ful babygi rlcameout
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swer e
closi nginev erythi
ngchangedi nthatsecondI
knewIwoul dj umpi nf r
ontoft hetrainforherI
grabbedSet hu'sfaceki ssedherhar dast he
nur sescov er edourbabyt heygav ethebabyt o
Set huIl ookeddownatt hem t het womost
i
mpor t
antwomeni nmyl i
feaf terami nutethey
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wentoutLungel oandSi nower ealreadyt hereI
hadcal ledthem whi l
edr iving
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sbeaut
if
ul"Sinowipedat earIdidn'
t
evenf eel
comingoutthe3ofusshar edahugI
j
ustbr okedownIcriedIwassoemot ionaland
whoev ersai
dmandon' tcr
yclearlynever
wi
t nessedwhatIhadjustwitnessedweal l
pul
l
edoutoft
hehugaf
terawhi
l
e
Lungel
o:"
crybaby
"
Me:
"shutup"
Si
no:
"names"
Me:
"wehav
en'
tdeci
ded"
Si
no:
"howi
sSet
hu"
Me:
"beaut
if
ulandst
rong"
Lungel
o:"
sowhi
pped"
Me:
"what
ever
"
Sino:"
Ishoul
dgokeenaniswaiti
ngoutsi
deand
Igotaexam i
nthemorningsendmyl oveto
SethuandmyneiceIwil
lseethem t
omor r
ow"
Me: "
ok"wehuggedandshel efthermom was
si
tti
ngquiet
lyonthechai
rthingsbet weenSi no
andherwererockySinoi
st oost ubbornwitha
l
otofpridei
m sureshedidn'tev engr eett
he
poorwoman.IsatwithLungel ot hereunti
lIwas
cal
ledinIwenttoseemyt wobeaut i
fulgi
rl
swe
deci
dedt
onameherNosi
phoNkazi
mul
o
Dlami
ni
.
Ilef
tthehospit
alwit
houtsayi
nganythi
ngt omy
mom whenIgott hereshewasaloneIgreeted
hershedidn'
trepl
ysoIkeptmymout hshut
unti
lLungel
ocame.Idon'trememberthel ast
ti
meIsawNkany i
sothatemoti
onalIguessmy
stor
mr eal
lyhasmov edonIknowIshouldn't
feelt
hiswaybutI'
m alit
tl
esadIgotiti
nt hecar
Keenanwasonhi siPad
Keenan:
"shegav
ebi
rt
hal
ready
"
Me:
"yep"henoddedanddr
oveof
f
Keenan:
"what
'swr
ong"
Me:
"not
hingl
ovej
ustt
ir
ed"
Keenan:
"youknowIl
ovey
our
ight
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ggl
ed
Me:
"noIdont
"hechuckl
ed
Keenan:
"wel
lIl
ovey
ousomuch"
Me:"
Ilov
eyoujustasmuch"het
ouchedmy
st
omachrubbi
ngit
Me:
"im notpr
egnantkeenan"
Keenan:
"buty
ourper
iodsar
elat
e"
Me: "
doesn'
tmeani
m pr
egnanti
tcouldj
ustbe
becauseIst
oppedt
aki
ngtheinj
ect
ion"
Keenan:"
whywon'
tyoul
etmet
akey
out
othe
doctor
"
Me:
"ther
e'snoneed"
Keenan:
"ther
e'sev
eryneedIdon'
tgetwhaty
ou
scar
edoff"
Me:
"justdr
opi
t"
Keenan:
"woul
dbei
ngpr
egnantbesuchabad"
Me: "
Iwoul
dn'thavestoppedt
aki
ngt
he
i
njecti
oni
fIthoughtso"
Keenan:
"justt
hatIr
eal
l
ywantt
his"
Me:"
anditwi
l
lhappenwhent
het
imecomes"
hesi
ghed
Keenan:
"im get
ti
ngol
d"Il
aughedathowhi
s
voi
cesounded
Me:"youj
ustt
urned25younotev
en30busy
t
alki
ngaboutgett
ingol
d"
Keenan:"
soonI
'
llhav
egr
ayhai
rI'
l
lbea
grandpa"
Me:
"av
eryhotgr
andpa"hechuckl
ed
Keenan:
"hopet
her
e'ssomet
rut
hint
hat
"
Me:"t
hereis..
..Wishitwastomorr
owalready
soIcanjustwrit
ethispaperandbedonewith
2ndyear
"
Keenan:
"youal
mostt
her
ethandol
wam"
Me:
"yep"
Keenan:
"drakoi
shav
ingapar
tyt
omor
row
wanagot her
e"
Me:"wi
llhi
sgfbether
e"Drako'
sgfhatesmef
or
somereason3weeksbackweal lwentf
or
di
nnershekeptonthr
owingshadesatme
bloodywhi
tebi
boshel
aughsext
ral
ouderwhen
keenantel
l
sajoke
Keenan:
"yeahIt
hinkso"
Me:
"thatgi
rlwant
syouKeenan"hej
ustl
aughed
Keenan:
"don'
tbecr
azyshe'
smyf
ri
endsgi
rl
"
Me:
"that
'swant
swhat
'smi
ne"
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ngt
hings"
Me:"
mmh. .
..Al
li
m sayi
ngi
st hatshebett
er
wat
chher
selfbef
oreIgoal
lratchetonher"
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ouredbl
oodi
nyourv
eins
scar
esatmeatt i
mes"
Me: "
that'
ssost
ereot
ypi
cal
ofy
out
osay
"he
chuckled
Keenan:"don'
tmeanini
tabadwayImeanour
ki
dswi l
lbecolour
edaft
eral
l
"
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angebabi
es"
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!"Wel
aughed
Me:
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rue"
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"what
ever
"
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sDr
akohav
ingapar
tyonaTuesday
"
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havenoideaspeaki
ngofpar
ti
es
Luvuyo'
sbir
thdayi
sonThursday
"
Me:
"yeahbutt
hepar
tyi
sonSat
urday
"
Keenan:
"whatar
ewedoi
ngonThur
sday
"
Me:"sor
ryshoul
dhavetoldyouthi
sear
li
erbut
Lungel
oalr
eadyhasplansforThur
sday
"
Keenan:"yeahyoushoul
dhav
ebuti
thi
s
daughterIunderst
and"
Me:
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ou"
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sarenottogethersoIget
thesethi
ngsact ual
lyst
artednoti
cingthem wi
th
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ershe'
s
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lyyoungerthanKelvinmeaningNicol
eis
asidechickturnedwife
Me:
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ssedhi
scheek"
cany
ou
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ivefast
erI
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cemaki
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es"he
l
aughedandstartedspeedi
nghome
.
ThursdaycameLungeloandIwer
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entswerefl
yi
ngint
omor r
ow
alongwithmydadIwokeupwenttoLuvuyo'
s
room shewassti
ll
asleep
Me: "
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andkissedherf
oreheadIwentdownt othe
ki
tchenfoundAndreprepar
ingbreakfastI
greet
edandgotacupofcof feewentt ositin
fr
ontoftheTVchat t
ingunt
ilni
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n
me
Nic:"
morni
ngbaby
"sheki
ssedmyheadnsat
nexttome
Me:
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ningmom"
Ni
c:"
wher
ewi
l
lyourf
atherbest
ayi
ng"
Me:"i
nSet
hu'sapar
tmentt
hat
'
swher
ehi
swi
fe
i
s"Isai
dbi
tter
ly
Ni
c:"
don'
tuset
hatt
onewi
thme"
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sgoingonbetweenyouanddad
needstostop"shebrushedmeoff
Ni
c:"
Idon'
twanty
ourf
ather
"
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omakei
t
cl
eartohim"shegi
ggled
Ni
c:"
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atheri
sast
ubbor
nmanNi
kky
"
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l
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ast
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l
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lcameoutof
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hebedr
oom
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l
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ookedatmewi
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rown
Gir
l:"
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eyou"i
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l
yget t
ingt
ir
edof
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o'
shoegi
vi
ngmeatti
tude
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no"Lungel ocameoutal readydr essed
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ngblack
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e
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rl
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edhis
shi
rt
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ookgoodenought
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ed
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o:"
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oll
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es
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o:"i
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earedher
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l
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eryoucanfi
nd
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ans"
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: "
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ybumpedonmy
shoulderonherwayout
Me:"t
hedisr
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oay
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e"
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o:"sorr
yIdon'
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ssuei
s
thesegi
rl
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chi
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ons"
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im cat
chi
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li
ght
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l
eni
gger
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ch
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ions"
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o:"
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sshi
twi
l
lmakey
oul
osey
our
focus"
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ppingl
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tchal
oner aba
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et'
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l
ingupthecheques"we
l
aughed
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o:"
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rt
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incess"hegav
eher
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dhi
scheeks
Me:
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Lungelo:"
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eyout
eachi
ngmychi
l
d
Sinov
uy o"
Me:"habe!
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aughedLungel
otookasel
fi
e
st
ick
Me:
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"
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ngt oask
someone"het ookpi cturesofuswel eftusi
ng
hiscaraf t
erhepost edthepictureoni nstan
facebookt aggingme.Wespentt hedayi ngold
reefthanwewentt oyshoppi ng wet ooklotof
pict
ureswhoev ercameupwi thself
iesticki
sa
verysmar tpersonasst upidasitisitalso
usefulindeed.
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dayni
coleKelvi
nLuvuyoandIwentt
odo
somelastminuteshoppi
ngthepar
tywasgoi
ng
tobeatNicol
e'shouse.
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urdaymor
ningKel
vi
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ing
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eadyIwentnoj oinevery
onefor
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astLuvuyowasal r
eadyonKeenan'slap
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ni
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her
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ami
l
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eet
edbackIsat
nexttoKeenan
Ni
c:"
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ear
eal
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ti
ngupout
side"
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ly"
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e:"
nicolei
sacti
ngli
kei
tnotaki
d'
spar
tshe
i
nvi
tedallourf
ri
ends"
Nic:"
ther
e'snot
hingwr
ongwi
tht
hat
"Ij
ust
shookmyhead
Keenan:"
Ilovey ou"hewispheredandkissed
mycheekIsmi lednnoddedaf t
erbreakf
ast
ni
coleandIwentt ocheckoutsi
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e
st
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edthesmal l
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es
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comet ol
uvu'
s
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al'
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whoi sgoingtobest andingher ewel coming
people"weent eredthroughthet entaswegot
outofthet entther
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acef rom cupnsaucert omi ni t
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ionto
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carr acingsetup
Me: "
wow"shepulledmei nt
oaphot oboothwe
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ther
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funnel
cakes,acot
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machine,agamest at
ionwi t
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op,spi
nner,
bott
leri
ngtoss,i
nfl
atable,karaokemachine
Me:
"ni
col
ethi
sist
oomuch"
Nic:"
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er'
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thday
part
y"ther
ewasacor ndogstandandaf ast
foodstandtheywil
lbemakingminihotdogsn
bur
ger
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ongwi
thf
ri
es
Me:
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ail
tabl
esf
orki
ds?
" Wel
aughed
Nic:
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ri
endsKyl
ewastalki
ngabout
"aguy
camet oushehadacli
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d
Guy
:"mrssmit
hthewai
tersar
eher
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d
t
heydressupnoworl
ater
"
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essup?
"
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c:"cl
ownuni
form"Ichuckl
ed"
lat
erpeopl
ewi
l
l
st
artcomi
ngaround12:00"
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:"yesma'
am ever
ythi
ngi
ssetupwej
ust
wai
ti
ngfort
hebarmanandthedj
"
Ni
c:"
thanky
ou"
Me:"youknowLuv
uyowon'
tev
enr
ememberal
l
oft
his"
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c:"t
hat'swhatphot
osandv
ideosar
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et'
s
gogetready"
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nthehouse"
wher
e'smy
baby
? "
Kel
vi
n:"
whi
chonet
hebi
goneort
hel
i
ttl
eone"
Me:
"mychi
l
dyouf
ool
"hel
aughed
Kel
vi
n:"
pool
wit
hyourbi
gbaby
"
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diot"Iwenttothepoolkeenanwas
pl
ayi
ngi nthewaterwithLuv
uy owholookedso
ador
ablesitt
inginherswimmingdonut
Me:"
heyl
over
"Isatdownput
ti
ngmyf
eeti
nthe
wat
er
Keenan:
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wam"
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ery
thi
ngi
sbeaut
if
uloutt
her
e"
Keenan:
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herknowshershi
t"
Me:
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ouseem al
i
ttl
edown"
Keenan:"
Ijustr
eal
l
ymi
ssy
oumi
ssbei
ngi
nour
space"
Me:
"we'
l
lleav
etoni
ghtwhent
hepar
tyi
sdone"
Keenan:
"comeher
e"
Me:
"imi
nmypj
slov
e"hepul
l
edLuv
uyoswam
t
ome
Keenan:
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ovey
ou"
Me: "Il
ov ey
outwo"wekissedIwassti
lll
osti
n
thekisswhenhepulledmei nt
othewaterI
quicklyputmyheadoutofthewaterIwas
coughi nghewasl
aughing
Me:"
youf ool
!!
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ustl
aughedhar
derIpushed
myhairback"myhai
rkeenan!
"
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ovey
ou"i
spl
ashedwat
erathi
m
Me:"y
ousuchai di
ot"Iwasaboutt
ogetout
whenhepulledmebackinandsmashedhis
l
ipsonmine weki ssedunti
lsomeonecl
eared
t
heirt
hroatwepull
edapart
Me:
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ry"
Ni
c:"
thoughty
ouwer
eget
ti
ngr
eady
"
Me:"i
m goingnow"Igotoutgr
abbedatowel
wrappi
ngitaroundmybodyItookLuvuy
owe
wentinthehouseni
colewasfol
lowi
ngme
behi
nd
Ni
c:"
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ngherhereI
'
llgether
enannyt
ogether
r
eady
"IgaveherLuv
uy o
Me: "
thanky ou"Iwenttomyr oom myphone
hadsomanymi ssedcallsntextsLungelon
Nkany i
soaskingf ordi
recti
onsIsentittothem
wentt obathwashi ngmyweav eaft
erthatI
l
otionedandst art
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anafterdryi
ngIputonmy
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rtwithamat chingcroptopandwhi te
AirForce
Ni
c:"
Nikky
"
Me: "
yeah"Icameoutt
heclosetnicol
ehad
Luvuyowithher"
aahmanshel ooksso
adorabl
e"shewasweari
ngav erycolor
ful
tut
u
wit
hawhi tevest
sshehadcornrows
Ni
c:"
doesn'
tshe"It
ookher
Me:"ai
n'
tyoujustt
hemostador abl
ebabyint
he
wor
ld"shestar
tedblabber
ingherownthi
ngs
Ni
c:"
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hepeopl
ear
eal
readyst
art
ing
t
ocome"
Me: "
ok"wewentdownanditwasal
most
packedLungel
ocal
ledsay
inghewasout
side
Me:
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l
lbeback"
Ni
c:"
giv
emeLuv
uyo"
Me:
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tLungel
oisher
ewi
thhi
spar
ent
s"
Ni
c:"
comei
ntr
oduceme"
Me: "
sure"Irol
l
edmyey eswhenshewasn'
t
not
icingIfoundLungel
onhispar
entsout
side
Luvuyostart
edjumpingonmyarm whenshe
sawhi m
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o:"
vuv
u!"Sheputherhandsuphet
ook
her
Me:
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l
o"weexchangedgreet
ingsIi
ntr
oduced
t
hem weallwentinthehousetotheback
Lungel
o:"
wow"
Me:
"abi
tov
ert
het
opneh"
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o:"j
ustal
it
tl
e"wewer
ewi
spher
ingni
col
e
wastal
kingtohi
sparent
s
Me:"she'
soverdoi
ngi
tbuti
tcomesf
rom a
goodplace"
Lungel
o:"
yout
wol
ookbeaut
if
ulasal
way
s"he
ki
ssedmyhead
Me:"
thanky
ou"awhil
elaterIwaswit
hLungel
o
Amyandnannat
e,Luvuyowasplayi
ngwit
h
ot
herki
dswhenNkany i
socamet ouswi
th
NombusoandSethu
Me:"
didn'
tknowyouinv
itedyourgfLungel
o"
t
heyallt
urnedt
olookatthem
Lungel
o:"
Idi
dn'
tshe'
sfr
iendswi
thSet
hu"
Amy:"t
hat'
sthegi
rlt
hatgangedupony
ouwi
th
herf
ri
ends"
Me:
"yep"
Nan:"
she'
sgotner
vescomi
ngher
etoy
our
home"
Lungel
o:"
im sor
rySi
noIr
eal
l
ydi
dn'
tknowshe
wascoming"
Me:"
itok"t
heycamet
ousweexchanged
gr
eet
ings
Me:
"howi
sNkazi
"
Nka:
"ador
abl
eof
cos"wel
aughed
Lungel
o:"
wher
eisshe"
Set
hu:
"wi
thmom att
heapar
tment
"
Me:"
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herewentt
olook
f
orkeenanhehadn'tcamedownIwentt ohis
r
oom thedoorwasslightl
yopenhewastalki
ng
t
osomeone
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emeal
oneBi
ancabef
oreIst
art
bei
ngrude"
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ovey
ouKeenanwhydon'
tyouget
that"
Keenan:
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emyroom Bi
ancai
fNikkycomes
her
enf i
ndsyoui
tgoi
ngtoupsether
"
Bianca:"Ni
kkythi
sNikkythati
mt i
redKeenan
I'
vebeenher ef
oryousincedayonet hr
ough
everyt
hingevenwhenImi scar
ri
edourbaby"
Keenan:
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opt
ryi
ngt
omakemef
eel
gui
l
ty"
Bi
anca:"
whynotity
ourf aul
tthatt
her
ewereso
manycompli
cati
onsifyouwentalwayshi
gh
maybeourchi
ldwouldbealive"
Keenan:"
howmanymor eti
mesdoyouwant
met osaysor
ryBi
anca"hi
svoi
cewasbr
aking
Bianca:"
itnotfair
"Igoti
nKeenanwassi t
ti
ng
ont heedgeoft hebedwit
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ng
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Me:"ever
ythi
ngokher
e"keenanj
umpedupand
pushesherawayfr
om hi
m
Keenan:
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wam"
Me:"j
ustcametocheckony ou"It
urnedand
wal
kedoutIheardkeenanmut t
eri
ngacurseI
wasalr
eadyhalf
waythroughthepassagewhen
hehel
dmywai stfr
om theback
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eal
l
ynotwhati
tlookedl
i
ke"
Me;
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ost
andi
mfr
ontofme
Keenan:
"shewasjust.
..
..
.Thandol
wam .
..
..I
tol
dhertoleav
e"
Me:
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towemeanexpl
anat
ion"
Keenan;"baby"Ipeckedhisl
ipsBi
ancawalked
passuswi thasmuggr i
nshaki
ngherti
nyassin
abum shor tshestoppedwhenshewasbyt he
stai
rcase
Bianca:"
I'
llcal
lyouKeenany
oust
il
loweme
anotherround"
Keenan:"
whatt
hef
uckBi
ancaIdi
dn'
tsl
eep
wit
hy ou"
Bianca:"
ist
hatt
helieyoutel
li
ngHermxm hi
sa
l
iarNikkywesti
l
lfucknevergoi
ngtost
op"
Me:
"goodf
ory
ou"
Bianca:
"hel
ikessexhewi
l
lneverst
ickwi
thj
ust
youhedoesn'thav
eiti
nhi
m heli
keswant
ing
somethingheknowshecan'tgetthechase
exci
teshim nowthatyoutwoareoffi
cial
hewi
l
l
getboredandlookforhi
snextthr
ill
"
Keenan:
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!ShutupBi
anca"shej
ust
smil
edandwal kedaway
Me:
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art
edwal
ki
ngaswel
l
Keenan:
"Ni
kkypl
easeshe'
sly
ing"
Me: "
itmydaughter
'spar
tyIgotf
ri
endsand
famil
ydownstair
swewi l
ltal
kaboutt
hisat
night
"helookeddown
Keenan:
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Me:"I
'dsuggesty oucomedownst ai
rsIdon't
evenknowwhyy ouwer eupher einthefir
st
pl
ace"wewal keddownst ai
rstothebacky ar
d
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hi
shandar oundmywai stpull
ingmecl oserto
hi
m Ilookedathim withasmi lehegav emea
babykisswewal kedtot heothers
Keenan:
"Lungel
oNkany
iso"
Them:
"uhm hi
"
Lungelo:"l
ookwewantt
oapol
ogi
zef
ort
he
othernight
"
Keenan:
"youmeanthenighty
'al
lcamet
omy
housedi
srespect
edus"
Nka:
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ep"
Lungelo:"
lookwesorr
yy ouwithSinoshe'sour
fr
iendmor ethant
hatshe'smydaughter's
mot hert
hatmeansweal lhav
et ogetalong"
Keenan:
"asl
ongasweallknowourplacesin
herl
if
ewedon'tcr
ossanyboundar
iesim cool
"
Nka:
"cool
"
Lungel
o:"
cool"keenanl
ookedatmeandhel
d
mychinmakingmel ookathi
m
Keenan:
"Il
ovey
ou"
Me:"
Iloveyoutoo"wekissed wepul
ledback
whenIhear
dsomeonecal li
ngmynameitwas
Br
addl
eyIwalkedtohim
Me:
"what
'sup"
Braddl
ey:
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heri
slooki
ngf
oryou"Iwent
towheredaddywasstandi
ngwi
thLungel
o'
s
parent
shemetmehal fway
Me:
"daddy
"
Dad:
"whoist
hatnci
nci
"Il
ookedt
owher
ehe
waspoi
nti
ng
Me:
"whodaddy
"
Dad:
"thatgi
rlst
andi
ngnextt
oyoursi
ster
"
Me:"
oht
hat
'sNombusoshe'
sSet
hu'
sfr
iend
why
"
Dad:
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hingIt
houghtshewassomeoneel
se"
Me:
"ok"
Dad:
"Lungel
o'
spar
ent
sandIwi
l
lleav
eear
ly"
Me:
"okdaddyt
hanky
ouf
orcomi
ng"
Dad:"she'
smygr anddaught erof
cosIwas
goi
ngt obehere"heki ssedmyheadandI
walkedaway.Ther estofthedaywentbyr
eal
l
y
nicel
yev eryt
hingwasj ustper f
ectpeopl e
start
edl eav i
ngwi ththeirchi ldrenslowlyast he
nighttookov er, Bi
ancal ef tafterthatli
ttl
estunt
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Sethuwant edt ol eaveear lyshemi ssedher
daughtersoNkany isoal sohadt oleaveear l
y
sincehewasdr ivi
ngherLungel osai dhewoul d
takeNombusobackt oherpl acewhi chmeant
hest i
l
l neededherkush.Nombusopul l
edme
asideandapol ogizedIsai dcool butwewer en't
goingtobef r
iends.Af terput ti
ngLuv uyotobed
KeenanandIal soleftforhi splacethingswer e
coldbet weenuswheni twasj ustthetwoofusI
j
ustwentt obat handst raightt obedwhenwe
gottohi spl acehet ri
edt alki
ngt omebutIj ust
brushedhi m offev entual lyhegav eupwej ust
sleptIdi dn'
tev enwanthi mt otouchme.
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..
.
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obe
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lynexttomenakedwithawhi tesheet
coveri
ngjusthisassIl
ookedatmyr ingand
giggl
edhemov edandpul
ledmetohi m
Keenan:"
mor ni
ngmrsme"heki
ssedmycheek
"st
il
ladmir
ingyourr
ing"
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"itbr
eat
htaki
ngmyl
ove"
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ookbet
tert
handol
wam"
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oundedby
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ff
any &coitengravedwit
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nit
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nky
oul
ovet
hatr
ingmor
ethan
youloveme"
Me:
"itt
hemostt
reasur
edt
hingi
nmyl
i
fe"
Keenan:
"heywhataboutmeandourki
ds"
Me;
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scome2nd"hegotont
opofme
st
art
edt
ickl
i
ngmesohar
dIwasi
ntear
s
Keenan:
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eimpor
tant
"
Me:
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ougonamakemepeeonmy
sel
f"
Keenan:"
younakedanyway"hedi
dn'
tst
opunt
il
Iwasrunni
ngoutofbreat
h
Me:"youandthegir
lsar
ethemosti mportant
peoplei
nmylife"y
eahkeenanfinal
lygotthat
chi
ldhebeenwantingourbeauti
ful
Tay l
orKhloe
Smithshe'
ssuchadivaanday earold
Keenan:"
bet
terbethatway
"weki
ssedhe
pul
ledbackaft
erawhil
e
Me:
"im hungr
y"
Keenan:"youshoul
dbeconsideri
ngt heenergy
youwaistedlastni
ghtI
'l
lcal
lroom servi
ce"he
gotoffthebedhelaidonmyst omacht hi
nking
aboutyester
day.
>>>>>
Ihadj
ustcamebackf
rom campusasi
was
par
kingkeenanwascomingoutwi
tht
hegi
rl
s
andthei
rnannycar
ryi
ngbags
Me:
"wher
etof
ami
l
y"
Vuv
u:"
nenani
col
e"Igav
eKeenanababyki
ss
Keenan:
"spendi
ngt
heweekendi
nmi
drand"
Me:"whywasn'tIt
old"hef
ini
shedbuttl
i
ngt hem
i
ntheircarseat
sthenannyalsogoti
nKeenan
boughtAudiQ7whenTay l
orwasbornforwhen
wetravelwit
hthem t
heybothstay
ingwithusin
Keenan'shouse
Keenan:"
Idi dntthi
nkyouwouldcomeback
ear
lyIwant edittobeasurpri
sei
mt aki
ngy
ou
awayfortheweekendpackabagf ormeas
well
"Ismiledi nexci
tement
Me:
"wher
eyout
aki
ngmet
o"
Keenan:
"wher
eourl
ovebl
ossomed"
Me:"what?"Hekissedmyf or
eheadgotinthe
caranddroveoffleav
ingmeconf usedIwenti
n
thehousethefi
rstthi
ngthatwelcomedme
weret oysItookthetoybasketpackedt hem all
wentt oleavetheninVuv u'sroom Iwentt oour
room thepassagewasf i
lledwi thallour
pict
uresIpackedupourcl othesi nonesui tcase
packingal it
tl
ebitofeverythingt hantooka
duffelbagpackedourshoesIwentt otakea
showeraf tershoweri
ngIgotoutputonasexy
redunder wearwithacorsatandny l
onsanda
thongIwasst i
lli
nthatl
ooki ngf orsomet hingto
wearwhenKeenangoti nt hecloset
Keenan:
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oodyhel
lthandol
wam"Igi
ggl
ed
Me:
"itwassupposedtobeasurpr
isef
or
t
oni
ght"heal
readyhadmeinhisarms
Keenan:
"can'
twaitIwanty
ounow"helai
dme
onthecouchtor
eitoffmebur
yinghi
mselfdeep
i
nme
Me:
"nowIhav
etoshoweragai
n"
Keenan:"
there'
snopointl
et'
sgetdr
essed"he
gotofft
hecouchandpul l
edmeuphet ookout
ourri
ppedbluejeanswit
hgrayRawtshi
rtsand
blacksuper st
arswegotdressedIbr
ushedmy
weav elett
ingitl
osehetookthebagswelef
t
takinghisAMGC63coupe
Me:
"wher
ewegoi
ng"
Keenan:
"It
oldy
ouwher
eourl
ovebl
ossomed"
Me:
"sunci
ty?
"
Keenan:
"yousmar
t"Ichuckl
ed
Me:
"im agr
aduat
elov
er"
Keenan:
"obvi
ouslyandi
m sopr
oudofy
ou"I
ki
ssedhischeek
Me: "i
m glad"wesangal ongbet weental
king
aboutacasehewascur rentl
yworkingonand
myschool worktothet hingsthegirl
sgetup
unti
l wegottosunci tywebookedt hesame
room weusedt hefi
rst wewer eherewej ust
orderedroom servi
cespentt henightindoors
watchingtvandmaki nglov e.Thefoll
owingday
wespentout doorswhent hesunwasset ti
ng
wet ookahotai rbal
loonwewentbackt oour
sui
ter
estedabitbef
oret
aki
ngashowerwe
werel
oti
oning
Me:"whatdoIwear
"wewer
egoi
ngt
ohav
e
di
nner
Keenan:"
comenaked"hesai
dwi
tha
mischi
evousgr
in
Me:
"im ser
iousDamon"
Keenan:
"justl
ookgoodanddr
essup"
Me:"ok"Itookoutabodyhuggi ngr eddr ess
j
ustbelowt hekneewi thathighsl i
talltheway
upwithmedi um sl eevesIputonmyr edbot tom
gl
adiatorheel sdidmymakeupl etmyweav e
l
osebyt het imeIwasdonekeenanwasl eaning
onthewal llookingatmehewaswear ingblack
sl
imf i
tformal pant swit
habl ackshi r
tanda
maroonbl azerhi shairneatlyfal
lingtohi sface
heheldmef rom t hebackasIwasl ookingat
myselfinthemi rr
or
Keenan:
"youl
ookbeaut
if
ult
handol
wam"
Me: "
thankyoul
oversodoyou"hekissedmy
cheekItookmyblackcl
utchbagwel ef
tthere
wasat owncarwait
ingf
orusheopenedmy
doorhegotinaf
termeandt hedr
iverdroveoff
Me:
"wher
eto"
Keenan:"y
ouwi ll
see"itwasabouta10mi nut
e
dri
vehegotoutt ookmyheadIgotout .We
walkedthewholepl acewasdar kwi t
hjust
candlesonthegroundwi t
hr edrosepet alsthat
l
edawayunt i
lwegott othisshelterli
keplaceit
hadrosesalloveritwithl
i
ght sdrapedar oundit
andacandlelightdinnerf
ort wowassetup
Me:
"baby
"
Keenan:"Il
ovey ou"ashepulledmychairthe
l
ightswentonandamansi tt
ingabi
tfarfrom
usinfrontofthepianostart
edplayi
ngand
singi
ngsoftl
yawai tresscameoutwithstarters
weat eoverl
ightconv er
sati
onsunt
ilwefinished
desert
Keenan:
"dancewi
thme"
Me:
"Icant
"
Keenan:"I
'l
lgui
dey ou"hegotoffhischairt
ook
myhandIst oodthemanst art
edsingingJohn
Legend-YouAndI ,Ist
oodonKeenan' sfeetas
weslowdancedwhent hesongf i
nishedhe
star
tedsingi
ngBrunoMar s-Mar r
yYouI
watchedintear
saskeenanwentononeknee
andtookoutaTi f
fany&Coringboxt hemusic
wentsofter
Keenan: "
thandolwam, mot herofmychi ldren,
theoneper sonwhomakesmyhouseahome,
youmyhear tkeeper, youandt hegirlsar ethe
reasonIwakeupev eryday,youmakemest r
ong
withoutyouIam not hingbutashel lofaman, I
l
ov ey ouSi
nov uyoIwantt obey ourhappi l
yev er
afteryourfair
ytalehappyendi ng, wil
ly oudome
thehonoroft akingmysur nameofbei ngmy
wifeandmaki ngmet hehappi estmani nthe
universewillyoumar ry "Ij
uststoodt here
l
ooki ngathim withtear srunningdownmyf ace
heopenedt heboxandIgaspedt heringwas
Godl
y
Me: "
yeah.
..
.Yesy
es"hestoodupandscooped
meupi nahugwekissedashewasspinningus
aroundheputmedownandslidt
heri
ngi nmy
fi
nger
<<<<<<<
Keenan:"l
ovewher
eyourheadat
"Isnappedout
ofmyt hought
s
Me:"wasj
ustthi
nkingabouthowamazi
nglast
ni
ghtwas"hesmiledandgavemeasoftpeck
Keenan:
"im sogl
ady
ousai
dyes"
Me:
"soam I
"
Keenan:
"I'
ll
callt
ocheckont
heki
dswhi
l
ewe
waitf
orbreakf
ast"
Me:
"ok"
>>>>>>
Af
termont
hsoft
ryi
ngKeenanwasstar
ti
ngto
gi
veupweevenwentt
oseeadoctorandhe
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natur et akei tcoshegav emepi l
lst oimpr ov e
myf ertil
it
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ami nsmyper iodswer e
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ewhi chiswhyI '
mi nawai ting
room wai tingf ormyt urntoseeadoct orIdi dn't
tellKeenandon' twanagi vehi mf alsehopeIgot
calledi nIt oldt hedoct orwhatwasgoi ngonhe
didat esti tcamebackposi t
ivehedi dan
ultr
asoundandt hereshewasmyl ittl
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j
ust13weeksol dIaskedf orpictureIdr essed
upandl eftIwentt ot hehouseKeenanwas
wor kingl atehewasst ar
tingt owor klat eal ot
andgot ot heof fi
ceear l
yIwassohappyI
wai tedf orhi mt ocomebackbutIf ellasl eepon
thecouchIwokeupwhenhewasput ti
ngmet o
bedIl ookedatt hewat chont hewal litwas
01:30am Ij ustcl osedmyey esandsl ept.I
wokeupf irstIgotr eadyf orcampusIputt he
pictureonhi sbedsi dealongwi thapai rof
cream newbor nshoesIhadboughty est erday
afterthatIl eftforcampus.Hekeptoncal l
ing
andsendingmet extsthewhol edayIdidn't
readthetextsandIdi dn'
tanswerhi scall
af ter
campusIwenthomet oMidrandnothispl ace
whenIwokeupt hef oll
owingdayIwasi nhi s
armshewashol dingontomel i
kesomeone
wast ry
ingtosteal me.Afterthathewasj ust
thebestboyfri
endev eraftergivi
ngbirt
hLuv uy
o
TaylorandImov edi nwithhim.
<<<<<<
Me: "baby "Igotofft hebedputar obeonIwent
toanswert hedoori twasf oodaf t
ereatingwe
tookabat handl efthehadt odr opmeof ffi
rst
andt akeabi ggercart ogogett hekidst hey
camebackwewentoutf oramov ieandear ly
dinner.Iwasi nmybedgoi ngthr oughmysoci al
networ ksIsawapi ct ureKeenanhadpost edon
i
nst awi ththecapt i
on' shesaidy es#Mr sMe
#Mr &Mr Smi th'i
twasmyhandwi thmyr ingoni t
Ijustlaughedandl ikedt hepictureNi col
eanda
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hKy l
ehadal readycal ledsay ing
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ionsKel vinhadt opoi ntoutthat
bot
hmom andIaregoingtobeMrsSmithwe
l
aughedof
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dness.Ical
l
edLungel
ohe
pi
ckedupaft
eracoupl
eofr i
ngs
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o:"
honey
"
Me:
"heyguesswhat
"
Lungel
o:"
what
"
Me:
"im get
ti
ngmar
ri
ed"t
hel
i
newentdead
.
Lungel
o..
.
She'sget
tingmar ri
ed. .
..She'sgett
ingmar ri
ed!
!!
!
Myphonewasal readyi npiecesont hefloor
howcanshemar r
yhi mi mt heoneshe' s
supposedt omar r
ynothi m.Itbedenought hat
hegotherpr egnanthowcanshesayy estohis
proposalafterev
ery t
hinghehasputher
throughi
tseemedj ustlikeyester
daywhenshe
camecr y
ingt ome
>>>>>>>
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knockcamet hroughIwentt oopenSi nowas
standingt herepregnantashel lwithherey es
rednswol lenwithtearsrunningdownherf aceI
j
ustknewhehaddonesomet hingIdidn'tev en
needt oaskIopenedmyar msshegoti nthem I
closedt hedoorwal kedust omybedIl i
stened
asmyhear twasbr aki
ngwhi l
eshecr i
edf or
hoursunt ilhervoicewasgonet herewer ejust
tearsIwentt ogetheragl assofmi lkshedr ank
i
tonl ytot hrowitallupallovermycov erwegot
offthebedIwentt oprepareabat hforherI
cleanedupt hebedwhi leshet ookabat haf ter
bathingshecameoutt hebat hroom witha
towel aroundherbodyt hetowel wassmal lI
couldseehal fofherbodyev enpr egnantwi th
anotherman' schil
dshewasst i
ll
themost
beaut i
fulandsexywomanev er
Si
no:
"canIgetsomet
hingt
owear
"
Me:"
sure"It
ookoutsweat
pant
sandat shi
rt
shewenttogetdr
essedi
nthebat
hroom when
shegotoutwegotundert
hecov
ersIpul
l
edher
tomychest
Me:"whenev
ery
our
eady
"shest
art
edcr
ying
agai
n
Sino: "
hischeati
ngonmei m pr
egnantandhi
s
cheat i
ng"Ifel
tmyrangebuil
dupIsawr edI
want edtohurthimfornotr
eali
zingwhathehas
i
nSi nof ornotappr
eci
ati
ngherenoughtostay
fait
hful
Lungel
o:"
Howdi
dyouf
indout
"
Si
no:
"hi
sphonei
wentt
hroughhi
sphone"
Me:
"why
"
Sino:
"hewasacti
ngdodgeyunschedul
ed
Satur
daymeeti
ngshisphoneal
way sonsi
lent
answeri
ngcal
lsoutsi
deandhi
sphonewas
al
way sf
acedown"
Me:
"iam sosor
rydi
dyouconf
ronthi
m"
Si
no:
"noIj
ustl
efthewasst
il
li
nthebat
hroom"
Me:"hedoesn'tdeserveyou"sher ai
sedher
headupl ooki
ngatmeshel eanedin"Sinowhat
areyoudoing"shekissedIpul l
edbackand
pushedheral i
tt
le"Sinodon'tdothisyoutoo
emotionalri
ghtnowy ouwi l
lhaveregretsandI
don'
twanabey ourregret
"
Sino: "
pleaseIneedy ouLungel oIneedy outo
makemef eelbet
ter"Icuppedherf aceand
kissedwhi chledtomemaki nglovetohershe
fellasleepimmediatelyinmyar msshesl ept
ri
ghtt hroughthenight.Thef oll
owingdayI
wokeupwentt omakebr eakfastshecamei n
theki t
chenwear i
ngmysweat pantsandtshir
t
Si
no:
"im sohungr
y"
Me:"al
mostdone"shet
ookasaucagesst
art
ed
eat
ingi
t
Si
no:
"cany oufr
ysomeonionri
ngsputlotof
ar
omatplease"Ichuckl
ednt
ookouttheonion
Me:"
done"Ikeptonf
ryi
ngunti
lIwasdonewe
at
einfr
ontoftheTVshefel
lasl
eeponthe
couchaf
tereati
ngIwasst ari
ngatherwhen
someonestart
edpoundi ngonthedoorIwent
toopeni
rri
tat
edcozt heyweregoingtowake
herupIf
oundKeenanst andingther
eIdon'
t
wherei
tcamef rom butIpunchedhi
m hard
Keenan:"thatwasyouronlyshotIprobabl
y
deserv
ei tbuti
fyoudot hatagai
nIwi l
lbur
ry
you"Iwasaboutt othr
owanot herpunchwhen
Sinoscreamedstop
Si
no:
"whatar
eyoudoi
ngher
eKeenan"
Keenan:
"Icamet
ogety
out
handol
wam"
Si
no:
"im notgoi
ngany
wher
ewi
thy
ou"
Keenan:
"let
'sgohomeandt
alkaboutt
hisbaby
"
Sino:"noj
ustgoawaykeenanpl
ease"het
ri
ed
getti
nginbutIbl
ockedhi
m
Keenan:"t
handolwam"histonechangedal
ong
withthewayhel ookedather"Il
oveyouso
muchbaby "Sinolookeddownwi pi
nghert
ears
"Iwouldneverhurtyoubabyyouknowthat"
Si
no:
"youcheat
ingonme"
Keenan: "Iwouldnev ercheatonmypr egnant
womanpl easel etmet akey ouhomesowecan
tal
kaboutt hisandsol veitast wogrownups
whoar einl oveIlov eyout handol wam"hi stone
wassof tandcal mingIwat chedasSi nosl owly
walkedt ohim hemetherhal fwayhehel dher
waistandgav eherki sspr essingtheirbodies
togetherIfeltl
ikedy ingImov edfrom thescene
butstayedcl oseenought ol istenaft
erawhi le
theystartedtalkingagai n
Si
no:"butIsawever
ythi
ngony
ourphonet
he
pi
ctur
esandt ext
s"
Keenan:"ever
ythi
ngisjust
if
iabl
eletsmetake
youhomewe' llgopastmuggnbeangety ou
yourchocolat
ecakethanI'l
lexpl
ainever
ythi
ng
toatourplace"
Sino:
"ok"Iwentt
ositdownSi
nocametothe
l
ounge"uhm imleav
ingwit
hhi
m Lungel
owe
needtotalk"
Me:
"hi
snotwor
thi
tSi
nov
uyo"
Sino:
"Il
ovehi
m Ihav
etogi
vehi
mthebenef
itof
thedoubt
"
Lungel
o:"
hispl
ayi
ngy
oudon'
tl
eav
ewi
thhi
m"
Si
no:
"im sor
ryIhav
eto"
Me:
"lastni
ght
"
Si
no:"pleasedon'
t"shewal
kedawayIheardt
he
doorclosingshel
eftmefeel
ingshat
ter
ed
<<<<<<
She'sgoingt omar ryhimt hatwasnott heonl y
ti
mehehashur therev enwhenshef oundt hat
hercousinhadmi scarriedthebabyshewas
pregnantforKeenani nst eadofterminati
ngi t
l
ikekeenanhadsai dshedi dSinocamecr y
ing
tomeandnowshe' sjustgoingtomar ryhim.
Nx a!
!Imightaswel ll
eav etaketheoffertogo
studyatHav ardov erseasmydadbeenbeggi ng
met otaket heoffersincei twasoffered.Itook
myi Macr epli
edtot heemai l
sayingIwillbe
therebeginni
ngoft hesemesternextyearit
wasal readyt
owar dstheendofSeptemberI
hadaweekbef oreIstartwi
thexamsi fshe'
s
goingtodestroyherlif
ebymar ry
ingthatidi
otI
willnotbearound.
.
Nkany
iso
IwokeupwhenIf
eltsomeoneshaki
ngme
Me:
"mmh"
Set hu:"
wakeupbabyyougoi
ngt
obel
ate"I
l
if
t edherupmakinghersi
tonmymor
ning
erectionshel
aughed
Me:
"don'
tl
aughwomandosomet
hing"
Sethu:"wegoingtobelatebaby"webothdoing
ourinter
nshipsnowim doingmineateskom
she'sdoingher'
satalocalhospi
tal
inSoweto
Me:"domef astt
han"Ist
il
lhadmyey esclosed
If
elthermovingupsheslowlysatdownlett
ing
mydicksinkinher
Me: "
fuck"shest i
llgetstomeaf t
er3y ear sand
achi l
dherpussyst il
lfuckngett omeaf ter
seeingaheadcomeoutofherpussyIt hought
thi
ngswer egoi ngtochangebutI '
mj ustmor e
i
nl ovewi thherandIcr aveherpussyev enmor e
thanbef oreindeedshemov edfastgoi ngupn
downandi nci r
clesIheadherf i
rm boobsi nmy
handsatr i
skofsoundi ngl i
keawei rdoIl oved
herbr eastbetterwhenshewasbr eastfeedi ng
ourchi l
dthet asteofmi l
k.I
tdidn'ttakel ongf or
met oshootmyl oadinhert ightl
ittl
ewhol eshe
collapsedont opofme
Me:
"Il
ovey
ou"
Sethu: "
Ilov
eyoumor e"Igrabbedherface
kissedherhardIpull
edbackwhenmyphone
alertedmeofansmsSet hutookitandthrew
thephoneatmeget ti
ngoffthebedangril
yI
tookt hephonei
twasXol olett
ingmeknow
aboutherdoctorsappointmenttodayshe
want edmet ogowi t
hher.Imessedupand
gav einXolowouldn'
ttakenoshekepton
comi
ngatmeoneni
ghti
cur
ved
>>>>>>>>>
Iwasoncampusst udyingsethuhadbeen
givi
ngmeshi tov erput ti
ngmybooksf irstwhi ch
wasn'teventr ueIwasj ustspendingmor etime
oncampust hanusual l
yitwasexamst i
meI
neededtopul l upmysocksIcoul dn'taf fordto
fail
Ihadachi l
dt ot hinkasmuchasmypar ents
tookcareofNkazi sinceshest ayedwi tht hem I
neededtobeoutofv arsityandwor kingsoon
shewasmyr esponsi bili
ty.Iwasst udyingi none
ofthelectur
ehal l
st hatmygr oupandIusual l
y
studyatnightXol ogoti nwear i
ngt heshor test
skir
tandat shi rtthatshowedmor ecleav age
thanneccessar yshecameupt owher eIwas
sit
tingputherar msont hedeskpushi ngupher
breast
Xol
o:"
heyNka"
Me:
"Xol
o"
Xol
o:"
don'
tbecol
dimj
usther
etost
udy
"
Me:
"dot
hatsoIcanal
sost
udy
"
Xol o:"cool "shesatacr ossmeIf ocusedonmy
bookswhenIr aisedmyey esaf t
erawhi l
eher
l
egswer ewi delyopenshewasshowi ngherr ed
l
acepant ywhi chdi damaz ingthingsforher
thighsXol oi sy ell
owIcl earedmyt hr
oatdrank
mywat erwentbackt ost udyingwecont inued
study ingunt i
lshel etoutamoanIr ai
sedmy
eyesuponl ytol etoutagr oanshewaspl aying
withher selfherey eswer eclosedhermout h
formi ngasi lentOIwat chedasherf i
nger
disappear edi nherpussywhi l
eherot herhand
play edwi thhercl itIwassohar dIwasi npain
shesai dsomet hingt hatkill
edme
Xolo:"aahNkaohy es"shewasmov i
ngher
fi
ngerinnoutf astIdon'
tevenknowwhenIgot
outofmydeskbutIhadheront hedeskwith
hertinyexcuseofapantynt hecondom foi
lon
thefloorIwasburri
eddeepi nhershewas
screamingmynamewhi leherbreast
swer e
bouncingIfuckedherhardnf astIr
egret
tedit
themomentIcameIpul l
edupmyj eanspacked
mybagandl eftherlikeIdrovehomel ikea
mani acandfoundSet huasleepont hecouch
withherbooksar oundherIcar r
iedhertobed
wesl ept.2monthsl aterXoloinboxesme
sayingshe'spregnantIf el
tli
kedy i
ngIasked
whati ssheplanningt odowi thi
tshesaidI
must n'
taskherstupi dquestionsshe'snot
kil
l
ingherbabyourbaby .
<<<<<<<<<<<
Igotofft
hebedfol
l
owedSethutothe
bathr
oom shewasint
heshowerIgoti
naswel
l
Me:
"lov
e"
Set
hu:"
don'tevenst art
!"Set huwasscar ywhen
shewasangr yitscaredt heliv
ingshitoutofme
asmuchasi thurtmeseei ngherhurtbecause
ofme.ThedayIhadt ot ellheraboutXoloI
wentt
odrinkf i
rst
>>>>>>>>>>
Iwasinacl ubwit
hLungel
oOlwet
huandSi
veI
coul
dn'tputmyglassdownIwashav
ing
Hennessywi t
htoni
candwater
Me:
"she'
sgoi
ngt
oki
l
lme"
Ol
wet
hu:
"noshewon'
t"Lungel
olaughed
Lungel
o:"
yesshewi
l
l"
Me:"
ohfuck"Igul
pedt
her
estofmydr
ink
mi
xedanothergl
ass
Si
ve:"
itwon'
tbethatbadshef
indheri
nthe
ri
ghtmoodandtellher
"
Me:"
there'
snevert
her
ightmoodwi
tht
hese
ki
ndofthings"
Lungel
o:"
justsi
therdownandt
ell
her
"
Me;"i
m goi
ngtonow"Ifi
nishedmydr i
nk
pour
edabouthal
faglassofstrai
ghtdranki
tup
Ist
ooduptookmykey snphone
Me:
"iml
eav
ingi
tnowornev
er"
Lungel
o:"
goodl
uckbr
oify
oudi
etoni
ghtIwi
l
l
t
akecar
eofy
ourki
ds"
Me:"fuckoffasswi pe"Ileftt
hem l
aughingI
drov
est r
aighthomebyt het i
meIgotoutofmy
carthealcoholhadcaughtupIwasdr unkI
wentupopenedt hedoort hetvwasoni nthe
l
ounge
Me:
"heyl
ove"Isatnextt
oher
Set
hu:
"youhomeear
ly"
Me:
"weneedt
otal
k"
Set
hu:"
sur
e"shel
ower
edt
hev
olumeIl
ooked
down
Me:
"Igotsomegi
rlpr
egnant
"
Set
hu:
"excuseme"
Me:
"Igotsomegi
rlpr
egnant
"
Set
hu:
"Ihear
dyout
hef
ir
stt
imewhoi
sshe"
Me:
"Xol
oNdl
ela"
Set
hu:"y
ousai
dshewasal esbi
anyounever
hadsexwit
hhershewasoneoftheguys"
Me:
"im sor
ry"
Set
hu:
"howf
ari
sshe"
Me:
"3mont
hs"
Set hu: "ok"shest oodupwentt ot heroom Isat
ther ewi thmymout hopent hi swasnotwhatI
wasex pect ingSet hut ojustbecal m Iwas
expect ingmaj oractiony ouknowpl atesf l
ying
l
oudv oi cesj ustnott hiscalm Set huIst oodup
followi ngherbutt hedoorwasl ockedIdi dn't
ev enwanabot herherIsl eptont hecouch
wi thoutabl anket.Twomont hswentbySet hu
wasn' tt alkingt omeIsl eptont hecouchev ery
nightIt riedev ery
thingnot hingwaswor kingwe
wer elikehousemat esnotacoupl eandi tkill
ed
mei twoul dhav ebeenbet terifshej ustfought
meandgotov eritratherthangi vingmesi l
ent
treat menti twast hewor sefor m ofpunishment .
Itriedt al kingt omymom aski nghert otalkt o
Set huf ormebutshewoul dn'thearawor dofi t
i
nst eadsheswor eatmewhoknewt he
preacher
'swifehaditi
nhert oswearlikethat
butwhenshesai dshehopesSet huleavesmy
cheati
ngIjustbrokedownandcr iedIcriedli
ke
ababywhoj ustgothiscandystolen.Eventual
ly
Sethufor
gavemeandt hatwasamont hago
Xoloisnow6mont hspregnantshe'scarry
ing
myson.
<<<<<<<<<<<<
Me:
"shoul
dIgol
ove"
Sethu:
"don'taskmethatNkany
isoy oudi
dn't
askmei fyoushoul
dmakeherpr egnantornot"
Isi
ghed
Me:
"im sor
ryIwon'
tgo"
Set
hu:"
gocozi fyoudon'tgoi
mt heonewhois
goi
ngtoendupl ookingli
keabi
tt
erbabymama
whoiskeepingafatherawayf
rom hi
sother
chi
l
dsoj ustgo"
Me:"i
m sorr
yIputusi
nthismessl
ove"Ihel
d
herchi
nleaneddowngav
eherakiss we
f
ini
shedbathinggotdr
essedhadbr
eakf
astand
wentourseparat
eways.
.
Nombuso.
..
.
Ifi
nal l
ymetmyf athert hemanwhol eftmy
mot herandIbehi ndi npov er tyandi tal l
thanks
toPat rickhehadabusi nessconf erencei n
durbanhi scompanywasgoi ngt ofundsome
depar t
menti nKingEdwar dhospi t
al heasked
met ogowi thhim sincel asty earhest arted
taki
ngmet otheseIwasj ustt heretol ook
prettyinhi sarm andchatupt hewomenhi s
associat eswer ebringingbutIwassl owly
maki ngmyowncont act sespeci all
ywi thpeople
i
nt hel awdepar t
menti fthere'sonet hingt hatI
l
ear ntist hatbythet imePat rickandIbr eakupI
needt ohav egainedsomet hingf rom t hi
s
rel
at i
onshi pIgotmyl icenseheboughtmeacar
aMi ni CooperIhadi ttransf erredt omyname
themoneyhegi vesmemont hl yImov eittomy
pr
ivat
eaccountIl
eav
eonhi
scr
edi
tcar
d
>>>>>>>>
Wegotr eadyatt hehotelwewer estayi
nginat
durbanhewast hemajor i
tyshar
eholderofthe
hotel
,Istoodatt heful
llengthmirr
oradmired
myselfIlookedol dandsophisti
catedPatr
ick
gotmeast yl
istforwhenwegot otheseevents
Pat
ri
ck:
"let
'sgomyqueent
hecari
sher
e"
Me: "
ok"It ookmybagandhookedmyar m on
hisarm wel eftwef oundhiscaral r
eady
downst air
st hedr iveropenedourdoor she
droveof ftoI ccwhenwegott hereev er
y one
welcomeduswi thopenar msPat ri
ckwas
worshipedf orhi ssuccessIgoti ntr
oducedt oa
fewpeopl ebef orehet ol
dmet ogof indmy
fri
endswhi chhebasi cal
l
ysaidgopl ayletthe
grownmanwor kIwenttof i
ndacoupl eof
womenhehadsetmeupwi thitallstart
ed
whenIwentcl ubbingwi t
hmyf ri
endssomehow
Icouldn'thideany t
hingfrom him Iwentcl ub
whenIgotbacki nthemor ni
ngIf oundhi m
wai t
ingformewi thasjambokhebeatmeupso
badlyIpassedoutandwokeupi nahospi tal
afterthathetoldmet oleavemyr atchetfri
ends
theywi l
lnotbenef i
tmei nanykindawayhe
startedsetti
ngmeupwi thhisassociatesside
chicksmostoft hem areabunchofbr ainl
ess
sugarbabi esalltheydoi sgoshoppi ngandeat
atex pensi
v erestaurant
s.Iwasst il
lwithCindy
andZanel ewhent hisoldmanappr oachedus
hewasdr essedupr eal
l
ywel li
nast yli
sh
gentlement ypawayi nasli
m cutsuit
Man: "
hell
o"weallexchangedgreet
ingshe
askedtospeakwi t
hmeCi ndytoldmenotto
sheknowshowi nsecurenjeal
ousPat r
icki
sher
boyfr
iendisj
ustthesame
Me:
"yes"
Man:
"iml
uzukodey
"
Me:"NombusoNdi
za"t
heman'
sey
espopped
out
Zuko:"
JesusChri
sti
treal
lyi
sy ouIthoughtmy
eyesweredecei
vi
ngyoulookjustl
ikeZizi
pho"
Me:
"youknewmymot
her
"
Zuko:
"knew?
"
Me:"yesshedi
ed"hi
sey
eschangedi
ntopi
tyn
sadness
Zuko:"
im sorr
ytoheart
haty
ourmotherwas
beaut
if
ulalwaysdowntoear
ththemost
humblepersonIknew"
Me: "
excuseIdon'
tmeantoberudebutwhoar
e
you"helookeddownstar
tedshi
ft
ing
Zuko:
"im ZukoDeyy
ourf
ather
"Ichuckl
edi
n
di
sbel
ief
Me:"Idon'
thaveafatherhel
eftusandmov
ed
awaywithhisf
amilyhediedt
omet hemoment
hedroveoutofeaster
ncape"
Zuko:
"ohmychi
l
ddon'
tbecr
uel
"
Me:
"yout
hecr
uel
per
sonl
eav
ingy
ourchi
l
din
povert
ytogoli
vetheluxur
yl i
febuti
toki
m
grownnowmygr annym auntr ai
sedmeInever
neededyouIcer
tainl
ydon'tneedyounow"I
star
tedwal
kingawaybuthehel dmyhandand
gavemehisbusinesscard
Zuko:"pl
easecallmemydaught ergi
vemea
chancetoexplainandmaket hi
ngsri
ghtthings
werediff
erentbackt henIhada1yearoldchil
d
wheny ouwer ebornshewasnotmywi fe'smy
wifehadalreadytakenherinIj
ust.
..
"Heshook
hi
sheadt earswant i
ngtodrop
Me:"
soyouchooset
hem ov
ermom andImxm"
Iwal
kedaway
Cindy
:"thatl
ookedi
ntensewhatwasi
tal
l
about"
Me:"nothing"t
herestofthedaywasj ustadrag
Iwantedtogobackt ojhbtomyapar tmentand
crymyey esoutwheni twasall
ov erwewent
outIwatchedasmysocal l
edfatherdroveout
i
nabmwx2Pat ri
ckandIwentbackt ot hehotel
hewasqui etthewhol etimeassoonashe
cl
osedt hedoorhebacksl appedmeIf ellt
othe
fl
oorhest artedkickingmehewasal ways
carefulaboutmyf acehedi dn'twantpeopl
e
knowi ngthemi ghtysuccessf ulbusi
nessman
Patrickisawomanbeat erwhenhewasdone
hit
tinghesatont hef l
oorcrying
Patr
ick:"
whymusty oualwaysdothi
st ome
NombusoIgi veyouev er
ythi
ngbutyoustil
lnot
happyyoudon'tevenrespectmey oudoing
yourbit
chnessinfrontofme"IcrawledtohimI
l
ovedhim
Me:"what
everIdi
dmyl
ovet
oupsety
oui
m
sor
ry"
Pat
rick:"
youwanttocheatonmewit
habloody
psy
chologistt
hatmanwon'tev
enbeabl
eto
maintai
nyourli
fest
yle"
Me:"
hesai
dhewasmyf
atherhewast
ryi
ngt
o
r
eachout
"
Pat
ri
ck;
"oh.
..
..
.OhmyGod"hebr
oughtmet
o
hi
slapIsnuggledcl
oserasmuchasIwasin
pai
nIfeltbet
teri
nhisarms"
Iam sosor
rymy
queen"
Me:"i
tokyoudidn'
tknowi
tok"hehel
dmeasI
cr
iedunt
ilIwasdone
Pat
ri
ck:
"Il
ovey
ouNombuso"
Me:
"Il
ovey
out
oo"
Patrickconvincedmet ohearmyfatheroutand
IdidIcalledhimt hefol
l
owingdaywemetup
forlunchwegott oknoweachotherhetoldme
abouthisf amilyhehas3kidsofwhich2l eav
e
i
mj hband1l eavesinPE.
<<<<<<<<<<<
Sonextweekendi m goi
ngbackt odur
banheis
goi
ngtointroducemet ohisf
ami l
yhesti
needs
tosi
tthem downandt el
lthem aboutme

[
08/
12,
21:
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:Inser
t41
.
Iwokeupthef
ollowi
ngdaybecausemyphone
wasri
ngi
ngIpickedup
Me:
"daddy
"
Dad:
"nci
nci
"
Me:
"youokdaddy
"hesi
ghed
Dad:"
im oknci
nci
Ineedy
out
ocomehome"I
satup
Me:
"what
'swr
ongy
ouokdaddydon'
tl
iet
ome"
Dad:
"imfi
nenci
ncii
m notsi
ckIj
ustwanta
meeti
ngwit
hever
yone"
Me:
"ev
ery
one?
"
Dad:
"thewhol
efami
l
y"
Me:
"when"
Dad:
"thi
sweekend"
Me: "
ohdaddyexamsstar
tsMondayand
keenani
sbusyatwork"hesi
ghed
Dad:"y
ouwill
leaveonSat
urdayandKeenan
doesn'
thav
et ocome"
Me: "
youknowhewon' tletmecomet here
wit
houthim"duringthelast2y earsmy
rel
ati
onshi
pwi t
hmom wentf rom badtowor se
thi
sonetimedaddycal ledameet ingshesai
d
somanyhur t
fulthi
ngsIhadapani catt
ackI
endedupinthehospi t
al fr
om thenwheneverI
gotodurbanKeenancomeswi thmehedoesn' t
l
etmegowi thouthim
Dad:
"Ial
readyspoket
oyourbr
otherandsi
ster
t
heyokwiththi
sweekend"
Me:
"im sorr
ydaddybutIcan'
tj
ustpackupmy
f
amil
ywi t
hsolit
tl
enoti
ce"
Dad:"
okIguesswe'
l
lhav
etomeetwheny
ou
done"
Me:
"justt
woweeksandI
'
llbedone"
Dad:
"oksayhi
tomygr
andki
ds"
Me:
"Iwi
l
l"
Dad:
"andt
hatf
iancéofy
our
s"Igi
ggl
ed
Me:
"okdaddy
"
Dad:
"Il
ovey
ounci
nci
alway
snomat
terwhat
"
Me:
"lov
eyout
oodaddyal
way
s"
Dad:"bye"hedroppedthecal
lIgotoffthebed
putonmyuggswentt ocheckont heki
dst hey
werenti
nt hei
rroomsIwentdownst ai
rsfound
them i
nt heki
tchenVuvuwaseatingwhi l
ethe
I
zzytheirnannywasfeedingTayl
or
Me:
"mor
ning"
Vuv
u:"
mor
ningmommy
"
I
zzy:
"hell
oNi
kky
"Ichangedmynamet o
Si
novuyoDomi
nicDeyl
astyeari
tmeantal
ott
o
Ni
cole
Me:
"TayTay"Ipul
l
edhercheekwentt
ositnext
t
oVuvuIputheronmylapstar
tedf
eedingher
Vuvu:
"im notababymommyIcaneatby
mysel
f"
Me:"Iknowbuty
oumybabyandi
wanaf
eed
you"
Vuv
u;"
butmommy
"shef
rowned
Me:"butv
uvu"Ifr
ownedbackshet
hrewher
handsint
heairandIl
aughed
Vuv
u:"
fi
ne"
Me: " dramaqueen"shest uckhert ongueoutI
fedherwhenIwasdoneIat ewhi l
eI zzygav e
them Ibat haf tert
hatIspentmydayi nthe
studyIonl ywentoutl ateront hedayt ocook
afterdi nnerIwentbackt ostudyingwhi l
e
Keenangotsomewor kdone.Ther estofthe
weekwasmor eorlessthesamet hing.3weeks
passedIwasdonewi thexamsKeenanwas
takingmeoutt ocelebratewedr essedupr eal
ly
nicei ndat eni ghtclotheshet ookmet oFive
Hundr edaf t
erdi nnerwewentbackhomet he
kidswer easl eepwet ookal ongbubbl ebath
j
ustt alki
ngt heseki ndoft i
meswer eal i
tt
le
scar esi nourr elat
ionshipev ersinceTay l
orwas
bornandKeenanmadejuni
orpart
nerthi
ngs
ki
ndagothecticwetr
ytosendtheki
dsto
Nicol
eoneweekendamont handspendthat
weekendjustbei
ngus.Wegotoutofthebath
gotinourpj
sIwenttobedwewer ecuddl
ing
Me:"can'
twai
tformyresul
ttocomeoutIcan
f
inal
l
yapplyforajob"
Keenan:
"aj
obt
handol
wam"
Me:
"yesaj
ob"
Keenan:"
Ithoughty
ouwer
est
ayi
ngathome
nextyear
"
Me:
"whendi
dwet
alkaboutt
hat
"
Keenan:"
Idi
dn'
tthinkt
herewasar easontotal
k
abouti
t weget t
ingmar r
iedsoonTaylori
s
onealr
eadydon'
tyouthinkgivi
ngthem ababy
brot
herwoul
dbeagoodt hing"
Me:
"KeenanIwanawor
k"
Keenan:
"youdon'
tneedt
o"
Me:"Idi
dnotspend4year
sinvar
sit
yofwhi
ch2
oft
hosey ear
sIwaspr
egnantt
obeastayat
homemom"
Keenan:
"andwi
fe"
Me:
"Damon!
"
Keenan:"okIgeti
tal
lim sayi
ngi
sIt
hought
st
ayingwi t
hthegi
rl
sfulti
mespendsometi
me
wit
ht hem beamothertothem"
Me:
"youmaki
ngitsoundl
i
kei
m notagood
mot
hertomyki
dsDamon"
Keenan:"
all
im sayi
ngi
stheyneedyourful
l
at
tenti
onespecial
l
yLuvuy
oatleastTayl
ori
s
j
ustababy"
Me:
"Luv
uyoi
sgoi
ngt
opr
eschool
nexty
ear
"
Keenan:"exact
lymypoi
ntsheneedsanot
her
yearathome"
Me:
"thatdoesn'
tmeanIshoul
dn'
tbewor
king"
Keenan:
"st
ayathomet
handol
wam doy
our
mast
ersandbeamot
hert
oourchi
l
dren"
Me:"exact
lyourchi
l
drennotmychi
l
dren"he
si
ghed
Keenan:
"justt
hinkabouti
t"
Me:
"ok"
Keenan:"
nowhowaboutwewor kongi
ving
Luvuyot
hatbr
othershe'
sbeenaski
ngfor"I
gi
ggledashegotontopofme
Me:"condom baby"webeenusi ngacondom
si
nceTay l
orwasbor nsinceIwasn'tont
hepil
l
ori
nject
ionwedi dn'
twantcompl i
cati
onswhen
wedecidedtotryforanotherchi
ld
Keenan:
"thandol
wam"
Me:"nocondom nol
ove"hegr
oanedandt
ooka
condom f
rom t
hebedsi
dedrawer
Keenan:
"Iwantason"
Me:
"goodf
ory
ou"hechuckl
ed
Keenan:
"im ser
ious"
Me:
"keepy
ourey
esopenwheny
oucome"
Keenan:
"ohy
eah"
Me: "yeah"westart
edkissi
ngsl
owlywhi
chled
toanamazi ngsessionwemadesl owcr
azy
passionatelov
ewhenwewer edonehepull
ed
meont opofhim hepushedbackmyhairand
kissedmyhead
Keenan:
"Il
ovey
out
handol
wam"
Me:
"Il
ovey
out
oo"
Keenan:
"Iwantanot
herchi
l
dDomi
nic"
Me:"y
esDamon"hest
art
edpl
ayi
ngwi
thmy
hai
r
Keenan:
"weddi
ngdat
e?"
Me:"
summerweddingsosomet
imenexty
ear
ar
oundDecember
"
Keenan;
"nof
reaknwaynowayi
nhel
lam I
wait
ingt
hatl
ong"
Me:
"itnotl
ong"
Keenan:
"itov
erayearIcantNi
kkyyouwanta
summerweddi ngl
et'
str
yJanuar
y"
Me:
"youi
nsanei
tal
readyNov
ember
"
Keenan:
"youhav
eov
eramont
hthat
'
sal
otof
ti
me"
Me:
"noi
tnot
"
Keenan:
"youcanmakei
twor
k"
Me:"Febr
uaryv
alent
ineweekend"heputmeof f
hi
m grabbedhi
sphonecheckedthecalendar
Keenan:"
Febr
uar
y16si
ncet
he14i
son
Thursday
"
Me:
"thatgi
vesme3mont
hsand2weeks"
Keenan:
"getapl
anner
"
Me:
"ok16Februar
yI'
l
lbeMrsKeenanDamon
Smi
th"hel
aughedandgotont
opofme
Keenan:"Il
ovethesoundofthat
"Iwassti
l
l
l
aughingandhesl ammedi nt
omeIcri
edout
"I
'
vemi ssedthi
sfuckitbeensol
ong"hepull
ed
outandst
rokebacki
nhar
d
Me:
"condom"hewentdeeper"
keenan!
"
Keenan:
"Il
oveyou"hebi
tmyneckIcr
iedout
ashewentwil
derIhel
dontohi
mfordearl
if
e
unti
lwebot
hcameher ol
ledov
erput
ti
ngmeon
topofhi
m
Keenan:
"Il
ovey
ou"Idi
dn'
tsayany
thi
ng"
im
sorr
y"
Me:
"youdi
ditonpur
pose"
Keenan; "
technical
lyitwasntplanned
thandolwam Ihadnoi nt
enti
onsofdoi ngthat
j
ustthaty outurnedmeonsobadl yIcoul
dn't
controlmy sel
fthanwhenIent eredy oui
tfeltso
fucknunbel i
evableitbeenoveray earsi
ncewe
wentr aw"
Me:
"justshutup"
Keenan:
"im sor
ry"
Me:
"andI
'
llst
artappl
yi
ngf
oraj
ob"
Keenan:
"butDomi
nicwet
alkedaboutt
his"
Me:
"endofdi
scussi
on"
Keenan:"
sobei
t"hepl
ayedwi
thmyhai
runt
ilI
fel
lasl
eep
.
Thefoll
owi
ngmor ningIwaswokenupbysmal l
col
dhandstouchingmyf aceIopenedmyeyes
andfoundTayl
orplayingwit
hmyf aceshedr
ew
patt
ernsonmylips,Luvuyocameinon
Keenan'
sarmlaughing
Vuvu:"
daddysay
swegoi ngtoseepapa"she
gotonthebedcr
awledtomeIsatupkeenan
haddressedmeinhi
stshir
twhil
eIwasasleep
Keenan:
"mor
ningt
handol
wam"
Me:"hi
"Ipul
ledTay
lort
omyl
apwhi
l
eLuv
uyo
satonmylegs
Keenan:
"youst
il
lmad"
Me:
"gogetmeamor
ningaf
terandwe'
l
ltal
k"
Keenan: "I
'
llgonow"hecar ri
edTay l
orandheld
l
uv uyo'shandt heywal kedoutIgotoutt hebed
madei topenedt hewi ndowIwat chedthem
drivi
ngout .Itookabat hwentt omake
breakfastt heycamebackasIf inishi
ngupwe
allgotr eadyaf terbreakfastandwedr oveto
durban.Wegott herelateFridayni ghtwe
checkedi natt hehot elusi
ngt hepr esi
denti
al
suitethegi rlshadt heirownr oomsKeenan
didn'tli
ket hem shar ingar oom heal wayssaidit
willteacht hem i ndependencewehaddi nner
thensl ept.Thef oll
owingKeenanwentt odr op
meof fathomeaf t
erwehadbr eakfastdaddy
gotoutandgr eet edthem bef oret heywent
backt ot hehot el wewenti nmom was
wat chingt v
Me:
"hel
l
omom"
Mom:
"hel
l
o"
Me:
"howar
eyou"
!
Mom:
"imf
ine,
whaty
ourf
ami
l
ycan'
tcomei
n
andgr
eet
"
Me:"
oh.
,
,they
.,
,"Ij
ustexhal
ed"
im sorr
ythey
wi
ll
comeinwhentheycomingt
opi ckmeup"
Mom:
"mmh"Isatdown
Me:
"wher
esSet
huandPhi
we"
Dad:
"wentt
otheshop"
Me:
"oksowhat
'sgoi
ngondaddy
"
Dad:
"we'
l
ltal
kwhent
heyback,
soy
ouguy
sset
t
hedatey
et"
Me:"y
esbutIwasst
ill
goingt
otal
ktoyouand
mom abouti
twehaven'
tmadeanypl
ansyetwe
j
usthaveadate"
Dad:
"when"
Me:
"Febr
uar
y16nexty
ear
"
Dad:
"yhonci
nci
what
'
sther
ush"
Mom:
"she'
spr
egnantagai
n"
Me:
"im notpr
egnantwej
ustwanagetmar
ri
ed
soon"
Mom: "
Ihopey
ourmot
her
'ssi
nsdon'
tfal
li
nto
you"
Dad:
"Ongezi
wepl
ease"
Me:
"Isee"Phi
wegoti
nwi
thSet
hu
Phi
we:"nci
nci
!"Ij
umpedonhi
m hel
i
ftedmeup
andspi
nnedmear ound
Me:
"Imi
ssedy
ousobad"
Phi
we:"
yety
oudon'
tcomet
oseeme"heput
medown
Me:
"beenbusy
"heki
ssedmyf
orehead
Set
hu:
"heySi
no"
Me:
"hey
"
Set
hu:
"congr
atul
ati
ons"
Me:
"thanks"
Phi
we:"
letmeseet
hisshi
t"hehel
dmyhand
andl
ookedatmyri
ng
Phi
we:
"woahni
ce!
"Wehi
ghf
ived
Me:
"Iknowr
ighthedesi
gnedi
thi
msel
f"
Phi
we:
"Mr
sSmi
th"mom chuckl
edbi
tt
erl
y
Mom:"bothhernhermotherar
egoingt
obe
mar
ri
edt oSmithmensuchadisgr
ace"
Phi
we:
"mom st
op!
"
Dad:"
every
onesi
tdown"weal
lsatdown"
Ihav
e
somethi
ngtosay
"
Me:
"ar
eyousi
ckdaddy
"
Dad:"no.Longt i
meagot hi
ngsweredi f
fer
entI
wasadi ff
erentmanImademi st
akesmostof
whichIdon'tregretbecausethei
rresult
edin
beauti
fulthi
ngsnci nci
beingoneoft hosethi
ngs
butI'
m notthatmanany moreIvechangedmy
waysf ort
hebet t
er"helookeddown
Phi
we:"what
'sgoi
ngondad"daddyl
ookedup
wit
htear
sinhisey
es
Dad:
"im sor
ryOngezi
weIhadanaf
fai
r..
."
Us:
"thi
za!
!"
Mom:"
Zuko!
!"Shest
oodupdadst
oodupas
wel
l
Dad:"letmef i
nish,i
twas22yearsagoit
resul
tedinachi ldmydaught
er"wealll
ookedat
eachot herconfused
Me:"
heai
n'
ttal
ki
ngaboutmei
she"mom
st
art
edwai
li
ng
Dad:"Ihav
eanot
herdaught
erIj
ustmethert
his
year
"
Set
hu:"
wowdadjustwow"shewentt
ohol
d
mom whowasonherkneeswai
li
ng
Mom: "whymustyoudot hi
stomeLuzukoI
gaveyouever
ythi
ngturnedmybackon
ever
ythi
ngtobewithyou"
Phi
we:"
Ihatewhatyoudoi
ngtomymot herI
hat
eyoufordoi
ngthi
stoher"hest
ood
Dad:
"Si
mphi
wei
twasal
ongt
imeago"
Phiwe:"i
m outofher
eIgotawif
eandkid
waiti
ngformeathome"helef
tIsentkeenana
textsay
inghemustcomegetme
Me:"
howmanymoresecr
etsdoyouhavedad
j
ustl
ayev
ery
thi
ngouti
ntheopenri
ghtnow"
Dad:
"nci
nci
"
Me: "noser
iousl
ydadyousayima
disappoi
ntmentbutyou.
..GodyouIdon'
tev
en
know"
Mom: "
Ihat
eyouZukoIwanty
ououtofmy
house"
Set
hu:
"mom!
"
Mom:
"noi
mti
red"
Set
hu:"y
outheonewhotol
dmetofor
giv
e
Nkany
isobutnowyouwantt
ogi
veupondad"
Mom: "i
m soti
redyouwouldntunderstand
SethuIaccept
edSinor
aisedherasmyown
onl
yt of
indoutshe'
snottheonlybastardyour
fat
herhas"
Me:"oki m outofherei mleavi
ngt omor r
ow
dad"Iwal kedoutluckil
yKeenancal l
edasIwas
abouttoopent hegat esay i
nghisoutIgoti n
thecarwel t
oldwhatj ustwentdown.Wewent
toball
itobeachswam andchi l
ledf ortherestof
thedaywehaddi nneratt heboathousewent
backtot hehoteldaddycal l
edsay i
ngwe
meet i
ngmysocal ledsist
ertomor rowaf t
er
church.
.
Wewokeupgotr eadyf orchur chthewaymy
mom waspr et
endingt hatweal labi ghappy
famil
yshebr aggedt ot heotherpr eachers
wivesthatim getti
ngmar ri
edkeenanwasj ust
l
aughingatt hewhol ethingIf oundi tir
ri
tati
ng
thatshecanspi tvenom athomey etsmileli
ke
anangel atchurch.afterchurchKeenant ook
thegirl
soutwhi l
eIdr ov ewithPhi wegoi ng
homemom hadcookedahugeSundayl unchto
welcomet henewdaught er
.Thei nt er
com rang
daddywentt oopent hegat eaf terawhi le
ther
eswasaknockont hedoorever
yonesaid
comei nthesamet i
meandt her
eenter
ed
NombusoandSet huscr
eamedIwatchedthem
huggingeachotherwhil
ejumpingupanddown
Mom:
"yout
woknoweachot
her
"
Set
hu:
"she'
smyf
ri
endf
rom school
"
Phi
we:
"mmh"
Dad:"
guesst
hebloodwasspeaki
ng"Ichuckl
ed
andkeptmyeyesonthef
loor
Nombuso:"ohmyGodIcan'
tbel
i
evet
hisy
ou
mysi
ster"
Sethu:"
Iknowri
ght"shetookherhandpul
led
"t
hisismom Ongeziwe"t
heyhugged" t
hat
'
sour
bi
gbr ot
herSi
mphiwe"theyalsohugged
Phi
we:
"wel
comehomel
astbor
n"
Set
hu:
"wel
lyouknowSi
no"
Me:
"sur
e"
Nombuso:
"it
'ssol
ovel
ytomeety
oual
li
vebeen
l
ooki
ngf
orwar
dtot
hisdayf
orages"
Mom:
"wel
comehomemydaught
er"
Me:
"wel
lnowt
hat
'
sal
lset
tl
edIbet
tergetgoi
ng
j
hbi
sfar
"
Dad:
"nci
nci
what
'
swr
ong"
Me:"
nothi
ngdaddywelcomehomeNombuso
andj
ustsoweclearIdon'
that
eyou"
Dad:"
ever
yonesi
tdownncinci
yourmother
wokeupearl
ytocooksoyouwill
leav
eafter
l
unch"
Mom:
"lethergoi
fshewant
stoZukoj
hbi
sfar
"
Phi
we:"
comeher
enci
nci
"hest
oodupandt
ook
myhand
Sethu:"
alwaysseeki
ngatt
ent
ion"she
whisperedwhenPhiweandIwereaboutt
oget
outofthedoor
Me:
"whaty
ousaySi
phoset
hu"
Set
hu:
"not
hing"
Me:"
repeatwhaty
ousai
dsayi
ttomyf
acedont
beacoward"
Dad:
"gi
rl
s!"
Set
hu:"
Isai
dy oual
waysseeki
ngat
tent
ion"I
st
art
edwalki
ngtoher
Me;
"yougotgut
snow"shewentt
ohi
debehi
nd
mom
Dad:"
enough!!Yout
wobehav
eli
kesi
ster
s
bef
oreItakeoutmybel
t"
Me:"i
m outofhereI'
vehadi
t"Iwalkedout
bangedthedoorbehi
ndPhiwefol
lowedme
Phi
we:
"whatt
hehel
lwast
hataboutSi
nov
uyo"
Me:"she'
sfucki
ngLungel
othatnewsi
sterof
your
s"
Phi
we;
"oh"
Me;"sheandherfr
iendsgangeduponmeat
schoolwanti
ngtohitmesof or
giv
emei fI
'm
notthr
il
ledbythef
actthatbothmysi
stersbeen
doi
ngmyexzidon'
tmindSet
hubutLungel
ois
Luv
uyo'
sdadIl
ovehim"
.
Nombuso
Idon'
tknowwhatt heheckj usthappenedI
meanIknewt hatSi noandSet huwer enotcl
ose
butIdi
dn'tthinkitli
ket hatont hebri
ghtsi
deim
sohappyt hatSethui smysisterI'
vealways
beendrawnt ohersi ncethefir
stdayIsawherI
wishSi
nowasn' tpar tofthi
sfami l
ythoughbutI
guesstheyaf ullpackageIj ustgothereand
Sinoi
salreadyst artingdrama
Onge;"comelet'
shavelunchIhopey
ouli
ke
l
ampma' Dey
"shesmi l
edandtookmyhand
l
eadingmet othedinni
ngarea
Me:
"Il
ovei
t"
Set
hu:
"mom i
sthebestcook"
Me:"can'
twai
ttot
ast
e"Phi
wegoti
ncar
ryi
nga
bag
Phi
we:"i
twasgoodseei
ngy
ouf
ami
l
ybutIhav
e
tol
eav
e"
Onge:"
youcan'
tj
ustl
eav
eSi
mphi
wehav
elunch
fi
rst
"
Phi
we:"
im nothungr
yitwasni
cemeet
ingy
ou
Nombuso"
Zuko:
"sonpl
ease"
Phi
we:"
no,
yout
woawor d"Set
huandI
fol
l
owedhi
mtothel
ounge
Set
hu:
"whatup"
Phiwe:"
youtwobett
ernotganguponSino
especi
all
yinJhbort
herewil
lbehel
ltopay
"
Set
hu:
"what
?!Phi
we"
Phiwe:
"am Icl
earj
ustbecausey
'al
lfucki
ngher
exzy'
all
bet
ternotganguponher"Ilooked
down
Set
hu:
"don'
ttal
ktousl
i
ket
hat
"
Phi
we:
"hheSi
phoset
huI
'
llbeaty
oudon'
tmake
mecr
azy
"
Set
hu:
"sor
ry"hel
ookedatusbef
orewal
ki
ng
out
Me:
"whatwast
hatabout
"
Sethu:"f
ami l
ypol
it
icsSi
nohasalwaysbeenhi
s
fav
or i
tealongwit
hdad'si
mjustgladyouher
e
now"
Me: "soam I"wehuggedbef or
egoingt osi
t
downwehadl unchov erli
ghtconversati
onIfel
t
athomei twaslatewhenIst ar
tedsayingmy
goodby esIwasgoi ngbackt othehotelbut
sethu'smom of fer
edmear oom soIwentt o
checkoutatt hehot eltookmybagsbackt othe
houseIwasgoi ngtospendaweekt herebefor
e
goingt oEasternCapebondi ngwi t
hmyf ami
ly,
thewei rdthi
ngistherewasaguestr oom but
sheputmei nSino'sroom.
.
i
wokeupt
ir
edonTuesdaymor
ningIhadl
unch
planswi t
hni coleandanev entplannerwhowas
goingtopl antheweddi ngandt heengagement
partyIwant edadest i
nati
onweddi ngkeenan
j
ustsai d"what everyouwantt handolwam as
l
ongasy ouMr smeatt heendoft heday"it
kindairr
it
at edmet hathedidn'twanttoget
i
nv olv
edwi ththepl anningbutNi col
esaiditfor
thebestt hathedoesn' ttakepar t
.Igotoutof
bedmadei twentdownst airsIzzywasmaki ng
breakfastwhi l
eVuv unTay l
orwer ewatchi
ng
cartoons
Me:"whaty
oucooki
ngitsmell
shorr
ibl
e"she
l
ookedatmewithaconfusedl
ook
I
zzy
:"baconpor
ksausagesandeggs"
Me:"
somethingi
srot
tenpl
easedon'
tfeedt
he
ki
dsrot
tenfood"
Izzy:
"nothi
ngisrott
enNikky"IwalkedtowardsI
snif
fedthebaconIfeltasifIcoul
dn'teven
breathIrantotheguestbathroom downstai
rs
andthrewupwhenIwasdoneIr i
nsedmy
mout hwenttomakemuesl i
aftereatingI
wat chedthetvunti
ltheki
dswer edoneeat ingI
gavet hem abathwhenIwasdoneIl eftthem
playinginvuvu'
sroom Iwenttobat hgotout
l
ot i
onedwor eshortwhit
esundr esswi t
h
gladiatorheel
sItookmybagandl eft
.Ifound
them atmuggnbean
Ni
c:"
heybaby
"
Me:
"mom hi
"weshar
edahug
Nic:
"Nikkyt
hisi
sTessReedofReed&CoEv
ent
s
Tessthisi
smydaughter
"
Tess:
"pl
easur
etomeety
oudar
li
ng"sheki
ssed
mycheek
Me:
"sameher
e"weal
lsatdown
Ni
c:"
howar
emygr
andki
ds"
Me:
"okj
ustok"
Ni
c:"
let
'st
alkengagementpar
tyf
ir
st"
Me:
"Idon'
twantsomet
hingbi
g"
Ni
c:"
but
..
"
Me:"i
m ser
iousjustfami
l
yandcl
osef
ri
endsno
bussi
nessassociat
es"
Nic:"
thisisKeenanSmit
hsweddi ngdoyou
knowt hatassoonashewentpubl i
cwit
hyour
engagementcallsst
art
edf l
oodingi
n
magazi neswanti
ngtocovertheweddi
ng"
Me: "
nothappeni
ngmom wekeepi ng
every
thi
ngsmal l
andint
imateyouandkyl
ear
e
notall
owedtobringmorethan20guest
s10
each"
Ni
c:"
Domi
nic!
!"
Me:"
takeitorl
eavemom im notgoingtohav
e
myweddingturni
ntoabusi
nessev entora
medi
af r
enzy"
Ni
c:"
Nikkyy
oumyonl
ydaught
er"
Me:
"goodf
ory
ou"sher
oll
edherey
es
Tess:
"dat
es"
Me:"weddi
ngwill
beont he16ofFebr
uaryand
t
heengagementpart
yIdl i
kei
ttobe2nd
weekendofDecember"
Ni
c:"
whyt
he2ndweekend"
Me:"Bel
laandJordaancangett
ospend
Chr
istmaswithus"
Ni
c:"
youi
nvi
ti
ngt
hatwoman"
Me:"she'
shi
smot herandTay
lor
'sgr
andma
whatdoyouexpect"
Ni
c:"
ohnot
hing"shest
art
edsul
ki
ng
Me:
"ohmot
herdon'
tpout
"Ir
oll
edmyey
es
Tess:
"ideasf
ort
hev
enue"
Me:"Idon'
tknowaboutt
heengagementpar
ty
butIwanttheweddi
ngtobei
nCapeTown"
Tess:
"greatIhav
eafewv enuesbutwe'
llhav
e
togotherevi
ewthem andmakebookings"
Nic:
"gr
eat
!WhenI
'vebeenwant
ingt
ogoto
CapeTownneedt
odosomeshoppingwe'
l
ltur
n
i
tint
oat
ri
p"
Me:
"Keenanwoul
dhav
etocomewi
th"
Ni
c:"
Keenanwon'
tcar
ebaby
"
Me:"
that
'snott
rue"Ical
ledt
hewai
teror
der
ed
somelampchopsandr i
bs
Ni
c:"
all
thatf
oodf
orbr
unch"
Me:
"im hungr
yletmebe"
Nic:"
youwon'
tfi
tint
oyourweddi
ngdr
essi
fyou
gainwei
ght
"Ichuckl
ed
Me:
"wedon'
tev
enhav
eadr
essy
et"
Ni
c:"
justwat
chy
ourwei
ght
"
Me:
"yesmot
her
"
Nic:"
Ial
readycal
l
edVer
aWang.
."Iscr
eamed
peoplel
ookedatus
Me:
"real
l
ymom ohmyGod"shegi
ggl
ed
Ni
c:"
myweddi
ngpr
esentt
oyou"
Me:
"Ver
aWangasi
nAl
i
ceKey
s,Ki
m
Kar
dashi
anandVi
ctor
iaBeckham'
sdesi
gner
"
Tess:"
notf
orget
ti
ngMar
iahCar
eyandJenni
fer
Lopezandsoon"
Me:"
Ver
aishugemom howdi
dyougeti
n
t
ouchwi
thher
"
Nic:"Imetheryearsbackivrhadhernumber
si
ncet henwegoi ngtohavetogotoNewYor k
soonsheagr eedshedesignthebri
desmaids
dressesaswel l
"Ifr
owned
Me:"wil
li
tbewei
rdi
fIhav
eguy
sasmy
br
idesmaids"
Ni
c:"
yes"
Tess:
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erbeendonebef
orebutwecoul
d
tr
y"
Ni
c:"
Nikkyy
oucan'
tdot
hat
"
Me:
"whatam Isupposedtodomysist
ershat
e
meandmybestf r
iendsar
eboysal
l3ofthem"
Ni
c:"
Bri
oni
wil
lhav
ethet
uxedof
ory
ourf
ather
andKeenan"
Me:
"myf
atherwi
l
lbuyhi
sownt
uxedo"
Ni
c:"
wegoi
ngt
her
ewhynotgethi
m one"
Me:"
becausehisaproudmanhewil
lnotwear
somet
hingboughtbyanot
herman"
Ni
c:"
that
'sj
ustst
upi
d"myf
oodcameIr
insed
myhands
Me:
"youwoul
dn'
tunder
stand"
Ni
c:"
fi
newhat
eversoweget
ti
ngev
ery
thi
ng
ov
erseas"
Tess:"
weshouldj
ustgother
eonceeveryone
wil
lhavet
ofi
ndt i
meoneweekendbefore
Januar
yweallgother
eforfi
tt
ingandst
uff"
Ni
c:"
that
'sagoodi
dea"
Tess:"
ri
ghtNicoleisthathugebackwar
dat
yourhousest
ill
av ai
labl
e"
Ni
c:"
yes"
Tess:
"howaboutwehav
ethepar
tyt
her
e"
Ni
c:"ohmyGody
eswhydi
dn'
tIt
hinkabout
t
hat"
Tess:"
whaty outhi
nkNikky"Iputmyfingerup
tookanotherbi
teofthechopfini
shed
swall
owingIwipedmymout h
Me:
"thesechopsar
ethebest
"
Ni
c:"
Nikky
!"
Me:
"yesmot
her
"
Tess:
"par
tyaty
ourmot
her
'shouse"
Me: "
goodwi t
hme"Iwentbackt oeati
ngwhi
le
theytal
kedaboutcolourthemeswhenIwas
doneeatingwesaidbyt oTessNicol
eandI
wentbackt omyplace.
.
Ti
meflewbyitwasFri
dayIwashavi
ngdi
nner
wit
hTeedohNkanyi
soandLungel
owemetat
JB'
scorner
Teedoh:
"bbe!
"Wehugged
Me:
"heyguy
s"weal
lshar
edhugsandsatdown
Nka:
"soy
ouget
ti
ngmar
ri
ed"
Me:"
wowNkany i
soyounotevengoi
ngt
oask
howam Idoi
ng"hechuckl
ed
Lungel
o:"
howar
eyou"
Me:
"im oky
ourphonebeenof
f"
Lungel
o:"
Iknow"
Me:
"oh"
Teedoh:
"yougl
owi
ngbbe"weor
der
edsome
dri
nksnburger
s
Me;
"IguessI
'
m happy
"
Lungel
o:"
howi
smydaught
er"
Me:
"youshoul
dcomeseeherLungel
o"
Lungel
o:"
I'
ll
comegethert
omor
row"
Me:
"howi
snkazi
"
Nka:"goodjusteat
ingal
otshesget
ti
ngf
at"we
al
llaughed
Me:
"youguy
shear
dNombusoi
smyhal
fsi
ster
"
Teedoh:
"fuckno!
"
Me:"exact
ly"Nkany
isoandLungel
olookedat
eachother
Lungel
o:"i
fIhadknownSi
noIwoul
dn'
thav
eim
sorr
y"Ishr
uggedmyshoul
der
s
Me:
"youdi
dn'
tknow"
Lungel
o:"
itwi
l
lnev
erhappenagai
n"
Me:
"mysi
ster
sdoi
ngmyexz"
Teedoh:
"andt
heyhat
eyou"
Me:"
yepthataswel
lwhi
chbr
ingsmet
owhy
wehere"
Nka:
"what
'sup"
Me:"Il
oveyouguysImeani tonlymakesense
we'v
ebeent hr
oughshi
ttogetherbasi
cal
lyI
d
l
ikefory'
al
ltobemybridesmaid"theyl
aughed
Lungel
o:"
that
'scr
azy
"
Teedoh:
"Imightbegaybutai
n'
tnowayI '
m
weari
ngadress"theset
woweresti
l
llaughing
Me:"
youguy
spl
easeIdon'
twantt
oaskany
one
el
se"
Them:
"wi
l
ldoi
t"Isqueal
ed
Me:
"gr
eat
!!Ohman"
Nka:
"im wi
thTeedohi
m notwear
ingadr
ess"
Me: "
ofcoswe'l
lgety'
al
lGior
gioAr
manisui
ts
yougonahav etogetfi
tt
edsowegoingtoNew
York"theyscr
eamed
Teedoh:
"noway
s"
Me:
"yesway
s"
Nka:
"fucky
eah!
"
Teedoh:
"al
lexpensespai
dri
ght
"
Me: "of
cos"weallt
alkedeveryonewasexci
ted
besideslungel
oaft
erdinnerwealllef
tI
fol
lowedLungelotohisapartmentheopened
thedoorwegoti nhewentt ogetsomebeerwe
sati
nthel
oungel
i
steni
ngt
omusi
c
Me:
"im sor
ry"
Lungel
o:"
for
?"
Me:"
beingi
nconsi
der
atewheni
tcomest
oyour
emot
ions"
Lungel
o:"hemakesyouhappyIcan'
that
eyou
forwant
ingtobehappy"
Me:
"youdeser
vet
obehappy
"
Lungel
o:"
youmakemehappyandhemakes
youhappy
"
Me:
"Il
ovey
ouLungel
o"
Lungel
o:"
youj
ustnoti
nlov
ewi
thmeIgeti
t"
Me:"Ineedtoknowt
haty
ouokaywi
tht
hist
hat
youhappyforme"
Lungel
o: "
im notgoi
ngt
oli
etoyouSi
no"If
elt
tear
sthreateni
ngtocomeout
Me:
"lungel
o"
Lungel
o:"
don'
tmakel
i
eSi
no"Ibl
i
nkedandmy
tear
sfel
l
Me:"
im sorr
y"henoddedandwi
pedmyt
ear
s
wi
thhisthumb
Lungel
o:"
Ilov
eyou"
Me:
"Lungel
o"
Lungelo: "
I'
ll
bef i
nemar ryhi
m haveyourhappi
l
y
everafter"hegav emeababyki ssthanhe
star
edatmel ooki
ngdirect
lyi
nmyey eshe
l
eanedi nImethi m hal
fwaywekissedaslow
sensual ki
ssIpul l
edbackwhenmyphonewas
ri
nging
Me:
"hel
l
o"
Keenan:
"heywhenar
eyoucomi
nghome"
Me:
"im onmyway
"Ist
oodup
Keenan:
"ok"hedr
oppedt
hecal
l
Me:
"Ihav
etogo"
Lungel
o:"
ok"hewasl
ooki
ngdownIkneel
edi
n
f
rontofhi
m andcuppedhi
sface
Me: "
someti
meswhatwewanti snotwhat '
s
meantforusandsometimesGodt akesaway
thi
ngsfr
om usbecauseheisgoingtogiveus
what'
sevenbett
erj
ustletgoLungeloof
ever
ythi
ngsoyoucanbehappy "
Lungel
o:"
Iheary
ou"
Me:"andIl
oveyou"Ikissedhisfor
eheadstood
upandleft
,Iwaswelcomedbynoi seassoon
asIopenedthedoorIgotimf oundKeenan
pl
ayi
ngwi t
hthegir
lsintheloungeIjoi
nedthem.
.
Timef l
ewbyNi coleTessandIwentt olookfor
av enuei m CapeTownIdr aggedKeenanalong
wef ounditaft
ergoingaroundluckil
yTesshad
calledbeforeandmostpl aceswer eful
l
y
booked.The1stweekofDecemberweal lf
lew
toNewYor ki
ncludi
ngKeenan'sgroomsmenwe
l
ef tthegirl
sinMi dr
andandLuv uyowasnot
pleasedatal l
.TimeatNewYor kwasnotso
awesomef ormeIdi dn'
tgett oexplorewhilethe
otherswentoutNi coleTessKeenanandIwent
fr
om onemeet ingt oanotheritwasal l wor
k
arri
vedwet hereSat urdaymor ningasmuchj et
l
egwaski l
li
ngust herewasnot imet onurseit
wel ef
tMondayBel l
aandJor daanf lewinto
NewYor ktohav etheirdressesaswel l weal l
wentbackt oSAt ogetherhav i
ngNi coleand
Bellainthesamespacewasst raini
ngt her
e
wasl otoftensionbet weent hewomen.al lt
he
guy shadtheirsuitsIhadmydesi gnKeenan
al
sohadhi sDesignwewer egoingt oflyback
afteramont hforf i
tti
ng.
The2ndweekendofDecemberwehadt he
engagementpar tyitwassobeaut i
fult
heyhad
thebacky ar
dtransformedthegrasswas
coveredwi t
hwoodenf l
oorandtherewasa
whitestrechtent
.Mywhol ef ami
lywast her
e
i
ncludingmysi ster
sbesidesmom ev enPhiwe
camewi t
hhisfami l
yitwasabeaut i
fulni
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hreall
yclosefr
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08/
12,
21:
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openedmyey esandfoundJordaanKeenan'
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day
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l
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rl
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l
aughi ngIshutdownmyi Macwentt ofreshen
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rs
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u:"
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ngt
oyshoppi
ngmommy
"
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yTay l
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om shelf
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gir
lswait"Vuv uranfastertur
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uy o!!
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aughed
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ong
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aws,flawlesscaramelski
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ongtoatal
l
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nga
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rtandIt
ali
an
shoes
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l
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ted"he
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ushedmeoff
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nut
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ist
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ng"Igi
ggl
ed
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hingl
i
ket
hat
"
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ng
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lhe
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earedhist
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m
Nqubeko"
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no"Jor
daancamer
unni
ng
j
ordaan:
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pNi
kkyTay
lori
srunni
ngawayf
rom
me"
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ryIhav
etogo"It
urnedhehel
dmy
hand
Man:
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i
ket
hat
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ookedatmyhandand
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edwentafter
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orwasnowheldbythesecuri
ty
herfacewascover
edwithchocol
ate
Me:
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'si
tnomor
etoy
s"
Vuv
u:"
butmommy
"
Me:"noJor
daanar
eyoudone"Luv
uyowas
sul
ki
ng
Jordaan:"y
esjustneedtopay "wewentt othe
ti
ll
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yingTay l
orandholdingv uvu'
s
handafterpayi
ngwewentt ogetfrozeny ogurt
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erthatweboughtt akeaway sandleft.When
wegothomeKeenanwasbackJor daanr anto
Vuvu'sroom t
ohidethet hi
ngsshehadbought
shewasshar i
ngar oom withVuvuwhi leBella
sl
eptwi t
hTaylor
Me:
"baby
"
Keenan:"
thandolwam"hepul
l
edmet
ohi
slap
wekissedshortl
y
Me:
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ssedy
out
oday
"
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"thef
eel
i
ngi
smut
ual
lov
er"
Me:
"howwaswor
k"
Keenan:
"ti
ri
ngmyl
ove"
Me:"
let
'sgoupst
air
sI'
ll
prepar
eabat
hfory
ou
t
hengiveyoumassage"
Keenan:
"ai
n'tsayi
ngnot
othat
"Ist
oodup
pul
ledhi
shandwewenttoourroom wer
ani
nto
Bel
labythestai
rcase
Bell
a: "
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ourroom isnotsound
proofedIhear
denoughlastnight
"Igasped
Me:
"Jesus!
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ustl
aughed
Keenan:
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l
lkeepi
ndown"
Me: "Damon!"Hel i
ftedmeupput tingmeov er
hisshoulderspankedmybut twal
kedt othe
bedr oom Bel
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ngatuswhi l
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ng
het hrewmeont hebedwemadel ov ebefor
e
goingt obathtogetheraft
erbathi
ngweputon
ourpj swewentt oeatinf r
ontofthetvwewent
tosleeplateIlovedhav i
ngBell
aatt hehouse.
.
Thef ollowingdayIwokeupear l
yassoonas
Keenangav ememygoodby ekissinthe
mor ningIwentonl inelookedf orthenext
avail
abl ef l
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ghtt odur banl uckil
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ightfort onight .Ij
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oned
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edmyweav ei ntoapony tailItook
myhandbagandwal l
etwentdownst airshad
breakfastwhi l
eIwai tedf oracab.Thecab
cameandi twasof ft
ot heai rportImadei tjust
i
nt imef orchecki nsoonenoughIwasi n
durbanIt ookanot hercabt omyf at
her'shouseI
pressedt heintercoms
Dad:
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l
o"
Me:
"daddyopenf
orme"
Dad:
"nci
nci
"
Me:
"yeah"
Dad:
"myGodwhydidn'
tyout
ell
mey
ou
comi
ng"Il
aughed
Me:
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ouopent
hegat
e"
Dad:"
ohjasor
ry"hel
aughedthegat
eopenedI
wenti
nthedoorwasalr
eadyopenwhenIgott
o
i
t
Me:"daddy
"hecamei
nfr
om t
heki
tchenwe
hugged
Dad:
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oseey
ounci
nci
"
Me:
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oseey
out
obutI
'
m her
etosee
mom"
Dad:
"ohwhy
"
Me:
"weneedt
otal
k"
Dad:
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otheshop"
Me:
"I'
l
lwai
tforher
"
Dad:"
Iwasmakingsomef
oodcomehel
p"we
wentt
otheki
tchen
Me:
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ryi
ngmeatwel
aughed
Dad:"y
eahfood"hedishedupinoneplatet her
e
wassomuchmeatIgotj ui
cefrom t
hefridge
whil
ehetookoutbreadwesatar oundthe
count
erandstart
edeatingi
ttastedheavenly
Me:
"mmht
hisi
ssogood"hechuckl
ed
Dad:
"Iknowr
ight
"
Me:
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ethi
ngsbet
weeny
ouandmom"
Dad:"oknci
nciI'
vehur
tthatwomansomuch
butshe'
ssti
llher
e"
Me:
"shel
ovesy
ou"
Dad:
"youknowIl
ovey
ounci
nci
right
"
Me:
"yesandIl
ovey
out
oo"
Dad:"
Iwanty
out
owor
kthi
ngsoutwi
thy
our
si
ster
s"
Me:
"wenotf
ight
ing"
Dad:
"youmightaswellbef
ight
ingconsi
der
ing
howthi
ngsarebetweeny'
al
l"
Me:
"Iheary
oudaddy
"
Dad:
"pl
easef
ormenci
nci
"
Me:
"Iwi
l
l"
Mom: "mmhSi
novuyo"shewasget
ti
ngi
nthe
ki
tchenwit
hpl
ast
ic
Me:
"hel
l
omom"
Mom:
"howar
eyou"
Me:
"im goodandy
ou"
Mom:
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inewhatbr
ingsy
ouher
e"
Me:
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edt
oseey
ouandt
alkt
oyou"
Mom:"wehavenothingt
otal
kabout"she
l
ookedatdad"di
dNombusot el
lyouifshewi
l
l
beabl
etocatchali
ftwit
hPhi
we"
Me:
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sspendi
ngChr
ist
masher
e"
Mom:
"of
cos"Il
ookedatdaddy
Me:
"that
'sni
ce"
Dad:
"nci
nci
"
Me:
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omom al
one"
Dad:
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'
llbeupst
air
s"hel
eft
Me:
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alki
nthel
ounge"
Mom: "
ok"shewal
kedoutandIf ol
l
owedherwe
satdownontheopposi
tecouches
Me: "
mom whydoy ouhatemenowafteral
l
thesey ear
syou'vel
ovedmeandrai
sedme"she
chuckledbitt
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y
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for19y earsf rom thet imey oucamebackf r
om
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wheny ouwoul dn'
tsleepsl epti nhospi talswhil
e
youwer esi ckandy ourmot herwasoutt here
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ndingher selfbutassoonasshe' sbacki nyour
l
ifeyourfor getal l
aboutme, thatwomanwas
outofmyl i
f ey oubroughtherbacky out hinkit
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offtojhbassoonasy ourmot hercalled
becauset heydaught erwashav ingissues"
Me:"butmom itnotmyfaultt
hatdaddyran
whenevernicol
ecall
edit
riedmybesttost op
t
hem from call
i
ngeachotherandIneverforgot
you"
Mom:
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edi
nwi
thher
!"
Me:
"yourhusbandf
orcedmet
o"
Mom:
"youchangedy
ourname"
Me:
"im sor
ryaboutt
hat
"
Mom:"
youlef
therest
art
edspendi
ngmor
eti
me
i
njhbt
hanhereathomeyourhome"
Me: "
Idi dn'
treali
zeIam sor r
yIl ovey oumom
youraisedmewi t
hnot hi
ngbutl oveandcar eI
appreciateyousomuchi shappeni nginmyl i
fe
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encei tallwit
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drendon't
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pict
ures"shel ookeddownwi pinghert earsI
wentt okneel nexttoher"im heremom onmy
kneesbeggi ngforf orgi
venessIlovey oumom I
needy ouinmyl i
fei m get
tingmar ri
edIcan' tdo
thatwithoutyout shinma'Bhedlawam Iwant
youther enotjusttheweddi ngbutal lt
he
i
mpor tanteventsi nmyl i
fey outaughtmet hat
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styouwer esoexci tedov er
megoi ngt ovarsitybutyouwer enott herewhen
Igraduateditbrokemyhear tt
heresami ssi
ng
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eandonl yyoucanf il
lthat"shelet
outaloudsobwr appedherar msar oundmewe
huggedwhi lecrying
Mom: "i
m sorrySinoIam sosorr
ymychi l
dI'
ve
beensocr uel Il
etmyhatredforyourmother
i
nfluencemeIputy ouinthemiddleof
somet hi
ngt hathadnothi
ngtodowi thyou
pl
easef orgi
v eme"
Me:
"Il
ovey
oumom"
Mom:"Il
oveyoutoo"shestoodupandpul l
ed
meupwehuggedIf el
tanothersetofhands
ar
oundusIlookedupitwasdaddy
Dad:"i
m sopr oudofy outwo"wel aughed
thr
ought ear
sandpul ledoutofthehug.Istayed
athomecat chingupwi thmymom i twasjust
purebli
ssdaddyt ookoutbeforeitwast i
mef or
met ogocat chmyf li
ghtIcal
ledKeenanatt he
air
portIhadbeeni gnori
nghiscall
sandt ext
s
thewholedayhepi ckedi mmediat
ely
Keenan:"
wheret
hefuckar
eyouDomini
c"he
roar
edloudl
yImovedmyphonef
rom myear
Me:
"cal
m downi
mindur
banIwa.
."
Keenan:"
durban!Durban!
!GoddamitDomini
c
don'
tyouthi
nkhowcany ougotoanother
prov
incewit
houttell
i
ngme"
Me:"Idi
dntknowIneedt
orepor
ttoy
oui
fim
goi
ngsomewher e"
Keenan:
"don'
ttr
ytobesmar
tDomi
nicnotnow"
Isi
ghed
Me:"
im aboutt
oboar
dthepl
anebackpl
ease
pi
ckmeup"
Keenan:"
fuckyou!Youwi l
lfi
ndy ourownway
backhome"hedr oppedthecallIswi t
chedoff
myphonewentt oboardsoonenoughIwas
gett
ingoutofthedoorsatthejhbIt ookoutmy
phonetocallacabbutIsawKeenanst andi
ng
nexttohi
scarIwentt ohim whenhesawme
hegotinthecarIalsowenttogeti nhedr ove
offi
naspeedIqui ckl
yputonmyseat bel
t
Keenan:"
youmissedhi
mt hatmuchthaty
ou
hadtorunoffwi
thoutt
ell
i
nganyone"
Me:
"excusemewhaty
out
alki
ngabout
"
Keenan:
"don'
tfucknpat
roni
zemeNi
kky
"
Me:"noexpl
anewhat
'sgoi
ngoni
nthatbr
ainof
your
s"
Keenan:
"wher
ewer
eyou"
Me:
"dur
ban"
Keenan:
"why
"
Me:"neededt
ospeakwi
thmom sor
tour
di
ff
erencesout"
Keenan:
"don'
tl
iet
ome!
"
Me: "
im notly
ingIhavenoreasontol
ieify
ou
don'
tbelievemecal l
daddyhewill
tel
lyouthatI
spentthewhol edaywit
hthem andmom nI
workedthingsout"
Keenan:
"whywer
eyounotpi
cki
ngupmycal
l
s"
Me:
"wehadal
ott
otal
kabout
"
Keenan:"y
oucoul
dhavesentatextf
uckNi
kky
"
heturnedsof
astonastopsign
Me:
"canyoust
opdr
ivi
ngl
i
keamani
act
hisi
s
myl
ife"
Keenan:
"yousuchahypocr
it
eDomi ni
cift
his
wasmey ouwouldbebreat
hingf
ir
e"
Me:
"Isai
dsorr
yandIexpl
ainedwhatt
hef
uck
mor
edoy ouwantf
rom me"
Keenan:
"fuckyoubr
athewor
sei
sthaty
ou
don'
tseethaty
ouwrong"
Me:
"am Inotapol
ogi
zi
ng?Iwentt
oseemy
par
entswi
thoutt
elli
ngyou,nothingchangedt
he
worl
disst
il
lspi
nning"hechuckled
Keenan:
"youunbel
i
evabl
e"
Me:
"what
ever
"
Keenan:
"fucky
ou"
Me: "yeahwellfuckyoutoo"itwassil
encethe
whol ewayhomeaf t
erthat,
wegothomegoti n
throughthekitchenKeenanwentst r
aightupI
stoodbyt hestair
casewatchinghim unti
lhe
disappearedIheardthedoorbeingbanged
l
oudl yIfl
inchedBell
acamet ome
Bel
l
a:"
isev
ery
thi
ngf
ineNi
kky
"
Me:
"yesj
ustal
i
ttl
emi
sunder
standi
ng"
Bel
l
a:"okgi
vehi
m somet
imet
ocool
off
"I
smi
led
Me:
"theki
dsst
il
lup"
Bel
l
a:"
no"
Me:
"okGoodni
ght
"sheki
ssedmycheek
Bel l
a:"goodnightbaby"IwentupstairsIgoti
n
ourr oom lockedthedoorKeenanwasi nbed
wor kingonhi spcIwenttobat hgotour
l
ot ionedputonmypj sIgotinbedt ookthe
remot eopenedt hetvswitchedittosomeol d
blacknwhi t
emov ieIpull
edmykneesup
wr appedmyar msaroundt hem putmychi non
them
Me:
"Im sor
ry"
Keenan: "what ever"hegotof fthebedwentin
thebat hroom af terawhi
lehegotoutwi t
ha
towel wrappedar oundhiswai stwaterdrops
stil
lonhi sbodyhewast owel dry
inghishair
l
ooki ngabsol utelyhotIlookedawaywhenhe
noticedIwasst ar i
nghewenti ntheclosetgot
outinhi spj bottomsheswi t
chedt heli
ghtsoff
gotinbedl ookedt heotherwayf acingaway
from me
Me:
"di
dyoueat
"
Keenan:
"no"
Me:"
Icangotot
heki
tchenandmakey
ou
somet
hing"
Keenan:
"imfi
ne"Iswi
tchedoffthet
vsl
ide
downthebedIheldhi
mf rom t
hebackput
ti
ng
myfaceonhisback
Me:"im sorr
ymyl ove"Iki
ssedhi
sback" please
for
giveyourthandolwam IknewifIt
oldyouI
wasgoingt her
ey ouwouldwanttogowi thmeI
neededt odoital
one"heturnedandsli
dedown
l
eveli
ngus
Keenan:
"your
eal
i
zet
haty
ouf
uckupr
ight
"
Me:
"yesIf
ull
yacknowl
edgemyf
uckupness"
Keenan:"youscar
edmenev erdot
hatagainI
worrywhenIcan'tgethol
dofyouandtotopi
t
offyoulef
tyourcarandyoulef
twi
thout
securi
ty"
Me:"i
m sorr
ylover
"hepout
edIlaughedandgot
ontopofhim"youdoknowthatyousexyri
ght
"
Iki
ssedhisneck
Keenan:
"yout
ell
me"
Me: "
yousexyIgetwetj
ustbylooki
ngatyou
especial
lywhenyou'
vej
ustcameoutofthe
shower "
Keenan:
"soy
ouwetr
ightnow"
Me:"yes"Iwaskissi
nghi
sneckheputhi
shand
undermypj bot
toms
Keenan:"fuckyeah"heslowlysankinhisfi
nger
i
nmewehadamazi ngmakeupsexaf terwe
bothcamehewentt ot hefl
ushthecondom in
thebathr
oom camebackwi thawar mtowel he
wipedmet hr
ewitont hefl
oorgotinbedpulled
met ohischestmyasswasonf i
refr
om the
spanki
ngbutIl ovedit
, i
thei
ghtenedmyclimax
alongwithhisfi
ngerinmyass
Me;
"Il
ovey
ou"
Keenan:"
thandwandi
m"hekissedmyheadI
sl
owlydozedoffaswespokeaboutt
he
wedding.
.
Wewor kuponChr ist
masev ekeenanandI
wentt odosomel astmi nuteshoppingthanl at
e
i
nt heaf t
ernoonwepackedupourbagsi nt he
caralongwi thpresentsandi twasof ft
o
MidrandBel l
awasnotsohappyaboutt hatbut
shesai dsheandNi colewill
havetoputt heir
dif
ferencesasidef orthesakeoft hefamilywe
wereal lhappyaboutt hat.WehadChr i
stmas
Evedi nneroutatther estaur
antwebookeda
wholesect i
onbecauseKy l
e'
sbrotherHarv ey
andhi sfamilyj
oinedus.Chr ist
masmor ning
Luvuy owokeupshecamei nourroom jumpi ng
nscr eamingJordaanf ol
lowedherincar r
ying
Taylor
Vuv
u:"
present
sti
me"
Tay
Tay:"pr
izzt
aym"Igiggl
edgotofft
hebed
whi
leKeenangroanedandfacedt
heother
Me:"
comeonKeenan"Iputonmyr obewor
e
sl
i
ppersIwentt
othebat
hroom br
ushedmy
teet
hwashedmyf aceIgott
ookLuvuyowe
wentdownst
airskeenanwasf ol
l
owingbehi
nd
uswegotdownst air
sKelvi
nwasalr
eadyther
e
weopenedpresentwhenKeenangav emehisit
wasinasmallbox
Me:
"aski
ngmet
omar
ryy
ouagai
n"hechuckl
ed
Keenan:
"I'
ddoi
tallov
eragai
nthandolwam"I
openedi
twascarkeysRangeRoverkeys
Me;
"keenan"myv
oicecameouti
nawhi
sper
Keenan: "merr
yChri
stmasthandol
wam"Igot
offthefloorj
umpedonhi minaspeedhegot
knockedof fandl
aidonthefl
oorwekissedfor
suchal ongtimeunti
lsomeoneclear
edthei
r
throatIpull
edbackandgotoffhim
Bell
a:"i
fitnotsexitkissi
ngmmhmustbeni ce"
shelaughedwal kedinthekit
chenhetookmy
handledmeout si
deandt her
estoodablack
RangeRov erEvoquewi thmaroonleat
herseats
Ij
ustcriedhegav emeahughel dmeuntilIwas
donecry i
ng
Keenan:"
Ilov
eyousomucht
handol
wam y
our
happi
nessismyjoy
"
Me: "Il
oveyoumor e"Igi
ggl
edmovedfrom hi
s
chest"Ifeel
stupi
dy ougotmeacarIgotyoua
scrapbook"hegavemeasof tpeck
Keenan:"ascr
apbookt hat
'sfi
l
ledwithour
memor i
esfrom thef
ir
stpictur
ewet ooktothe
l
astitholdsomanybeaut i
fulmemoriesI
absolut
elyl
oveitwouldnttr
adeitf
oranythi
ng"
Me:
"Il
ovey
oukeenansmi
th"
Keenan:"l
oveyoumr sme"hehel dmychi nwe
ki
ssedpulledbackafterawhi l
e.Chri
stmaswas
j
ustthebestAndreout didhimselfwitht
hefood
ever
ythi
ngwasj ustperfect.KeenanandIspent
NewYear sevewithhisf r
iendswef ir
stwentfor
di
nnerthanspentther estofthenightat
Movidaclubwedr ankanddancedt henight
awayv i
pstyl
e.
.
Januar ycamewi thl otofstressBellaand
Jor daanl eftwer egoi ngt ocomebackt heweek
theweddi ngwasgoi ngt otakeplaceIwas
stresseat i
ngitwor riedNi colebutknowi ngthe
weddi ngwascl osewasst r
essingmeandIst i
ll
hadt hei nterviewKeenanwasnott hri
ll
edabout
i
tbuthewassuppor tivewespentt henight
bef oregoi ngov erinf ormati
onaboutt he
companyandaski ngmepossi blequestions.I
wokeupt hef oll
owi ngdaywentt oshowergot
outl otionedputonmakeupt oppingitoffwith
ar edl ipstickIwor emar oonbodyhuggi ngdress
j
ustbel owt hekneesputonmyr edbottom
platfor m heelsIl etmyweav eloseIstoodi nthe
mi rrorlooki ngatmyf acekeenancamebehi nd
andki ssedmycheek
Keenan:
"youl
ookbeaut
if
ult
handol
wam"
Me:
"thanky
ou"
Keenan:
"yougoi
ngt
odogood"
Me:
"Ihopeso"
Keenan: "l
et '
sgo"Igr abbedmybagwel eftwe
startedatmuggnbeanhadbr eakf astt hanhe
tookmet ot heof f i
ces west ay edi nthecar
unt i
ltherewas15mi nutesl eftbef or ethe
i
nt erviewIwenti nt alkedt ot her ecept ioni stI
wasshowedt oHRt hei ntervi
ewwentwel l
.
Timepassedaweekl aterIwascal ledIgott he
j
obIwasgoi ngt ost artinMar chdur i
ngt he
weekKeenanandIal ongwi thTesshadgonet o
NewYor kmydr esswasabsol utelygor geous
wewentbackhomewi thitIjusthadt owor k
har dinmai ntainingmywei ght .Timef l
ewbyi t
wast heweddi ngweekmyner veswer eshoty et
keenanwassocal mt raveli
ngar rangement s
alongwi t
hsl eepingar rangement sf orev er yone
wascov er edev er yonewasgoi ngt ol eav eon
Thur sdayf ormeet&gr eet ,
fridayi twasgoi ng
tober ehear saldi nnerni colebookedaspaf or
thef emal esandTeedohof cosf ordur ingt he
day .ItwasWednesdayIwasget t i
ngr eadyf or
mysocal ledbachel or ettepar tyIwasj ust
worri
edaboutKeenan'shewasgoi ngtohav e
hisaswellIsatdownont hecouchinthecloset
watchedhim gett
ingdressedIexhal
edloudly
keenanchuckledandlookedatme
Keenan:
"what
'sgoi
ngont
handol
wam"
Me:"pl
easepr
omisemey
ougoi
ngt
ocome
backinonepi
ece"
Keenan:
"whaty
ouwor
ri
edabout
"
Me:"Idon'
tknowjustt
hatI'
vewat chedal
l
Hangovermovies"hel
aughedthrowinghi
s
headbackhecamet okneeli
nfrontofme
Keenan:
"babyDr
akowaspl
anni
ngt
hewhol
e
thi
ng"
Me:
"exact
lyDr
akoi
swi
l
d"
Keenan:
"okIpr
omi
set
ocomebacki
none
pi
ece"
Me:"Ibel
iev
eIdon'tneedt
otel
lyout
onothav
e
sexwithanyone"
Keenan:
"noy
oudon'
twhataboutal
apdance"
Me:
"that
'sok"
Keenan:
"okIl
ovey
outhandolwam"weki
ssed
pull
edwhenmyphonest
artedri
ngi
ngIwentt
o
answer
Me:
"what
'sup"
Teedoh:
"opent
hegat
e"
Me:
"ok"Idr
oppedt
hecal
l
Keenan:"
Igotitf
ini
shgett
ingdr
essed"I
fi
nishedwentdownstai
rst
herewassomuch
noise
Me:"
mypeople"ev
eryonescr
eamedy eahi
twas
AmyTeedohNannateNkanyi
soLungelomy
ot
hercousi
nsNacyandKim
Teedoh:
"let
'sgetoutofher
e"
Keenan:
"myfiancéebet
tercomebacki
none
pi
eceorim ki
l
lingsomeone"
Amy
:"don'
tbeabuzzki
l
lKeenanl
etsgo"t
hey
star
tedwalki
ngt
othedoorkeenanpul
l
edmeto
hi
m andsmashedhisl
ipsonmi ne weki
ssed
sowi l
dlybyt
het
imehepull
edbackIwas
panti
ngandsuperwet
Me:
"fuckIwanty
ou"
Keenan:
"thatwi
l
lremi
ndy
ouwhaty
ouhav
eat
home"
Me:"Il
oveyou"ahootwentof
foutsideI
l
aughedkeenanwalkedmeouttherewasa
f
uckpartybus
Keenan: "
Ilov
ey ouandhav efun"hegavemea
softpeckIwenti nbusmusi cwaspounding
l
oudt herewasabarf i
lledwithal
coholanda
gi
rlstri
pperdoingherthing
Nka:"bott
omsup"hegav emeashotweal l
tookshotsthebusstart
edmov ing.Wewent
from oneclubtoanot
herfrom amal est
ri
pclub
toafemalest r
ipcl
ub,bytheti
mewegott othe
l
astclubIwaskakdr unkNannat emysocalled
shycousinwasshowi ngushowt odoablow
j
obwithtwoworsNkany
isoandLungel
ower
e
j
ustl
aughing.
Iwokeupi nnakedi
nmybedaf tert
hewors
sagaIdidn'
tremembershi
tblackouthi
tme
hardKeenanwassleepi
ngnexttomemykush
wasthrobbingIwasthr
oughl
yfuckedIshook
keenanhewokeup
Me:
"imi
npai
n"
Keenan:
"wher
e"
Me;
"myheadandkush"hel
aughed
Keenan:"
that
'swhaty
ougetforgi
vi
ngmea
st
ripshowandalapdance"
Me:
"real
l
y"
Keenan: "
yeahIgotherefir
stwhentheybrought
youbacky oudidntwanasleepyousaidyou
wantt oshowmewhaty ousawy oustar
ted
stri
ppingwhichwasf ol
l
owedt oalapdance
foll
owedbyy ousayingImustfuckyouhardand
that'
swhatIdid"Icoveredmyface
Me:
"ohGod"
Keenan:
"don'tIhadf
un"her
emov
edmyhand
fr
om myf ace
Me:
"condom"hel
ookeddown
Keenan:
"of
cos"
Me:
"di
dyouhav
efunaty
ourpar
ty"
Keenan:"notr
eal
lywasj
ustworr
iedabouty
ou
bei
ngar oundl
ungel
owhil
ether
e'sal
cohol
i
nvolved"
Me:"y
ouknowt
haty
ouhav
enot
hingt
owor
ry
about
"
Keenan:
"I'
l
lgogetyoubreakf
astandsomepi
l
ls
youneedtorestweleav
ingatone"
Me:
"ok"
Weleftatonei
twasjustmeandt hefami
ly
ev
eryoneelsewascominglaterandtheguest
werecomingonSatur
day.Themeetandgr eet
wentwellweall
wenttosleepitwasmyl ast
ni
ghtsl eepingwit
hKeenanasaDeycome
SaturdayIwasgoi ngt
obeMr sSmi
thitwas
fr
eakingmeoutmor easti
mewasgoingitwas
getti
ngcl osert
oSatur
day.
.
Nqubeko
Nqubeko: "sorti
toutKat ey oulosi
ngmemoney
Ihat elosi
ngmoney !
"Idr oppedthecallthese
stupidgi r
lswer elosingmemoneyal way s
i
nv olvingtheirpersonalissueswi t
hwor kissues
wor separ tKatewast heheadoft he
depar tmentImadeami stakeandfuckedher
nowshet hi nksshecandoasshepl easesi nmy
companyandi mf reaknt ir
edaknockdi sturbed
myt houghtAv amyassi stantgoti
n
Ava:"
her
earet
hesal
esr
ecor
dfr
om Car
l'
s
depar
tment
"
Me:
"thanky
ouAv
a"
Av
a:"
ohdon'
tfor
gett
heSmi
thweddi
ng
t
omor
row"
Me: "
whyt hefuckdoIhav etogot hereyou
knowmyweekendsar ef orOli
via"Oli
viai
smy
beauti
ful10y earsolddaughtermyl if
ebegins
andendswi t
hheri tj
ustbeenussi nceshewas
bornhermot herwasaf uckbuddywhosai dshe
wasn'treadytobeamot herwhensher eali
zed
she'
spr egnantafterbeggingandcr yi
ngtoher
shesawl ightandshedeci dedthathav i
ngan
abort
ionwasnotsuchagoodi deabutJessica
ski
ppedt hecount ryassoonasshegotoutof
thehospitall
eftmewi thmydaught ernever
heardfrom hersincethenIseeheront vand
magazinesev erynowandt henshe'sasuper
model i
nAmer i
ca
Ava: "
thi
shasbeenony ourcalendarforawhi
le
nowNqubekoy ouandMrSmi thhav ebeen
businessassociatesf
oroveray earnowy ou
needt obethere"Iownandr unOl i
ve
Enterpri
sesIstart
edthecompanywhi leIwasi
n
varsi
tywhenIf oundIwasgoi ngtobeadadI
droppedoutgotcapi t
alfrom myparents
star
tedmybusi nessitisnowoneoft hehugest
compani esinSAIdabbl et her
eandtherebut
mymai nfocusislogisti
csnpublicat
ionbutwe
al
sot akesmal lbusinessesbuil
dthem upand
sellt
hem tot hehighestbidder
Me: "whycan'tpeoplekeepthei
rbusi
nessli
ves
separatefr
om t hei
rpersonall
i
vesdoi
ng
businesstogetherdoesnotmakeusf ri
ends
fuck"
Ava:"
Iknowbutyoualsoknowthatmost
busi
nesshappensout
sidetheof
fi
ce"
Me:
"Ihat
edoi
ngt
hist
oOl
i
via"
Ava:"i
m sorr
yI'
l
l haveyoursui
tdel
iv
eredtoday
atyourhouseandt heweddingi
sinCapeTown
Igotyouplanefortomor r
owmorni
ngalready
bookedyouinatt hehotel
"
Me:
"yout
hebest
"shesmi
l
edandwi
nked
Av
a:"
bet
terr
emembert
hatwheny
our
evi
ewi
ng
cont
ract
sinJune"
Me:
"youknowi
m nev
erl
ett
ingy
ougo"
Av
a: "
IknowthatbutI
'
mtal
ki
ngaboutar
aise"
welaughed
Me:"getoutofhereman"sheshookherass
wentoutAvabeenwi t
hmef oral
most4y ears
nowIcan'ti
magenwhatmyl if
ewouldbel i
ke
wit
houtherIwouldn'
tmanage
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essed"
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n
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nci
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if
ul"Il
ookeddown
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y
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oudaddy
"
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tbel
i
evet
hisi
shappeni
ngnci
nci
you
j
ustmybaby"
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owndaddy
"
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il
landal
way
swi
l
lbemynci
nci
"
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oudaddy
"
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rl
syourageareout
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kethere'
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ovey
oudaddy
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eyouwantt
odot
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ghed
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ovehi
m"
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goodandr
emembery
ouhav
eahomei
fit
get
stoomuchcomehome"
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oudaddy
"
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her
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ts
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ckedi
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"
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way
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ookmyar
m daddy
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ybeauti
ful
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wam"
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ovey ousomuch
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omi seto
l
ov ehonorcher i
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ai
m
Sinojev ousadoretuesbellemafemmev otre
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pr
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thyoumay
ki
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ide"
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gavemet hemostamazi ngki ssitfeltso
dif
ferentIletoutamoanhemov edhi shand
heldmybackpr essi
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la:
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edandchuckl
edIwas
di
zzyever
yonearounduswaslaughi
ngwe
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peopl ecl appedwhi stledandt hr ewf lower
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our
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nic"
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ease"hel
etgoIr
anaf
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ungel
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hi
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k
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o"
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o:"
Im sor
ry"
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he
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llseey
ouwhenI
comebackfr
om myhoney moon"
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o:"
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m goi
ngbackt
ojhbIgotaf
li
ght
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owmiddayt
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ngim goingt
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udyt
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fe
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o:"
Sino"
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t"
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o:"
im sor
ry"
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onghav
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lasty
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odot
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ono!
"
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im sor
rySi
noIneedt
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or
myself
"
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easedon'
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o:"
youhav
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Nkanyi
so"
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uyol
ungel
owhataboutour
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o:"sheal
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get"
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sleav
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thur
tssobadNkany
iso"
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ougoi
ngt
obeoky
ouhav
eKeenan"
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ovehi
m"
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m go"Iwai
l
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Keenan:"
Nkanyi
sowhati
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ngon"Iwasst
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l
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sarms
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kky
"
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ouupset
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ghed
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thi
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m sorr
yy ouhurti
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ovey
ou"
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hevowsinf
renchwow!
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Keenan;"
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'ai
m mafemme"wekissedwhen
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fe"Igi
ggl
ed
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emeasof
tpeck
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hisi
sanamazi
ngf
eel
i
ng"
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esitis"wekissedagai
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sti
meit
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moont
imewi
fey
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ggl
ed
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easecal
lni
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efi
rstmyf
acei
sa
mess"
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if
ul"
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nned
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if
ull
etsgosaygoodby
eto
ourgi
rlsnwecango"
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ewegoi
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pri
se"
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ookmyhandwewal
ked
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ecametous
Ni
c:"
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eav
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c:"
leav
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moon"shej
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ell
i
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c:"
she'
smydaught
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eus
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c:"
hav
efuncomebackwi
thagr
andson"
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her
"
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eah"hel
ookedatmewi
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rk
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ggl
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der
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c:"
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lnoi
mtheonewhoset
aki
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f
thi
sdress"
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indkyle wesaidour
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lywe
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chmade
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terthatwewenttoourgi
rl
s
Vuv
u:"
daddy
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ookher
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incessdoi
ng"
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red"sheputherf
aceonhi
schest
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amatical
ly
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e'sTay
lor
"
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la:
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othe
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elwithherandJor
daan"
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ngl
eav
ewi
thoutseei
ngher
"
Bel
l
a:"
sor
ry"
Keenan:
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l
lgopasst
her
eyoucan
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e"
Me:
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ou"
Vuv
u:"
wegoi
ng"
Me:
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u:"
okIwanasl
eep"
Keenan:
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eepv
uvu"shecl
osedherey
es
Bel
l
a:"
she'
sasl
eepal
ready
"
Keenan:"
noways"wel
aughedsai
dour
goodbyestoBel
l
awestoodint
hecent
er
Keenan:"
uhm wewouldli
ketosaythankyouto
every
onefort
aki
ngoutti
mei nthei
rbusy
schedul
etowit
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ngthi
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ful
womanasmywi f
e"hepull
edmeclosertohim
Me:"notfor
gett
ingmemakingy
oumy
husband"peopl
elaughed
Keenan:"ofcosMrsmewereal
lyappreci
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ngwit
husandwewouldl i
keto
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i
esyoumadet
hispossibl
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deservessothankyouenj
oytherestoft
he
night
"
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ggli
ngshyl
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hpeoplecheeri
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Keenan:
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ouf
eel
i
ng"heki
ssedmy
head
Me:
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kei
mfl
oat
ingi
ntheai
r"
Keenan:"
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lbecauseofyou
andIknowy ouworri
edaboutl
ungelonotbeing
her
ebutI'm her
eIgotyouandLuv uyo"
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nedin
comfortablesil
enceunt
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ssedthem
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ort
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t
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ewegoi
ng"
Keenan:
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oundt
hegl
obe"
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Keenan:
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ell
i
ng"
Me:
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d
seducti
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i
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i
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ed
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eanedi
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keenan"
Keenan: "
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ngbuta
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s
soakingweti ski
l
li
ngme"hesuckedonmyneck
"whatkindofpantyareyouwear i
ng"hewas
star
ti
ngt okissmyj awl
ine
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tel
acet
hong"hegr
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Keenan:
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eah"
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ease"hesmashedhi
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ayontheseatt
he
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heopenedmydoort ookmyhand
Me:
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Keenan:
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readyi
nthej
et"
Me:"ok"wewentt
oboar
dwegoti
nhedi
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bel
twenttosi
tdown
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"
Me:"
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ougotplanned"t
hehost
ess
cameoutwit
hchampagne
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utur
e"
Me:"
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ure"hecl
i
ckedourgl
assesandt
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si
ps"st
il
lwon'
ttel
lme"
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ookof
foncewewer
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hehost
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dmovear
ound
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undi
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dalstyl
e
Me:
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oudoi
ng"Iwasl
aughi
ng
Keenan:"
bestIcoul
ddosi
ncewenotathome"
heopenedthedoortot
hebedr
oom usi
nghi
s
feet
Me:"youcr
azy"hethr
ewmeonthebedI
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tt
lehegotont
opofme
Keenan:
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if
ul"
Me: "soareyou"weki
ssedi
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ll
ed
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oveyoumyhusband"helookedat
mehi seyestwinkl
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ngwitht
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dhisface
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osi
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tearsdropped
Keenan:"
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e"he
kneel
edont hebedpull
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l
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t
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"
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pour i
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erent
"
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utel
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ewegoi
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rstst
opi
sDubai
"Il
ookedathi
m
Me:
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rstst
op"
Keenan:
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Me:
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ovey
oui
m gonnasl
eepnow"
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inkedacoupl
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"
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oeat
"
Me:
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her
eyet
"
Keenan:
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tmor
ning"
Me:
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heneatandgoback
tosl
eep"
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ome"
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eofitallof
cos"I
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ggledhepickedmewal kedtothebathr
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ki
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..
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l
atert
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ledhome
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j
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atEiffelt
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ng
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l
ov eintheseaandsunbat hingonedaywet ook
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after3day sn2ni ghtsitwast imewehead
backhome.
.
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scol
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psonmycheek
Me:
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Keenan:
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slaphegot
offt
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ng
Me:
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mti
red"
Keenan:
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ehomewi
fey
"Il
ookedathi
m
dumbfol
ded
Me:
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tpl
ay"
Keenan: "
wehome"Ilookedathi
m wi
thtears
blindi
ngmyv i
sion"
welcomehome
thandolwam"hetookmyhandwewal kedtothe
frontdoormylegswereshaki
ngheopenedthe
door
Keenan:
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omi
sedy
ouahomenf
ami
l
y"
Me:"baby
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ng
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om whatlookedli
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ed
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ookmyhandl
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upst
airs
Me:
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dn'
tyout
ell
me"
Keenan:"i
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pri
seIwant
edev
ery
thi
ng
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ght
"
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ousomuchmyhusband"
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ort
hebr
aai
"
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drat
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ustsl
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llent
ert
aint
hem unt
ilt
hey
l
eave"
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ypacked
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toil
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urehehadof
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picture
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ovei
tI'
l
lseet
her
estoft
hehousel
ater
"
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ly
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eftIstr
ippedandgotunderthecoveri
n
j
ustmypantynt anktop.
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l
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outwi t
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cesn
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ther
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ng
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sitnexttohim putmyheadonhi slap
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Iloveyou"heki ssedmycheek" l
et'
s
go"Istoodupwewentoutt hehousehada
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cott
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lysound
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rstdayatwor
k
KeenanandIwokeupthesamet i
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ori
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hadf i
nshedget ti
ngdressedfirst
Keenan:
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"
Me:
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l
lev
erbe"
Keenan:"
goodsti
ll
don'
tthi
nky oushoul
dwork
butI
'l
lbesuppor
ti
veandim happyyoudoing
somethi
ngyouwanttodo"
Me:"
thanky
ou"hegav
ememypl
atenki
ssed
mycheek
Keenan:
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thi
ngf
orMr
sSmi
th"
Me:
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hinkweneedamai
d"
Keenan:
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ltheagencyandsetupi
nter
views"
Me:
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Keenan:
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l
lbel
atet
oni
ghtt
her
esal
otofwor
kI
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vi
sit
stomyclient
swillcel
ebr
ateyourf
ir
stday
atworkontheweekend"
Me:
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"
Keenan:
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ovenl
eav
eyou"
Me:
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thbr
eakf
ast
"
Keenan: "
iml ate"heheldmychi ngav emea
kiss"Il
ovey ouseey oulat er
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efcaseandl eftIfi
nishedeat ing
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nsedt heplatesnglassest ookmyt hingand
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hadt ogomeett hemanager
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l
o"
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m: "whoar
eyou"y
hot
heat
ti
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f
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nicDe.
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ear
edmyt
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ehi
m
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nicSmi
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r"
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m:"ohy
outhenewrecr
uiter
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l
myey
esIwasmorethanthat
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'sme"
Hi
m: "
im Mi
keIdon'
tcar
eifyoumar
ri
edt
o
Smit
hjuni
orher
eyouunderme"
Me:
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Mike:
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dmei fyouthi
nky
oucan'
t
handl
ethatgobeahousewif
e"
Me:
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eit
"
Mike:"Goody oulosememoneyIl oset hebig
bossmoneyandi tmyasssodoasIsayf ol
low
myl eadwegoi ngtobeoki m noty
ourf ri
endim
notplanningonbeingyourfri
endsomeofus
actuall
ygotthejobbecausewewor kedourass
offnotbecausewemar r
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ch"Ifeltt
ears
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t
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ightnow
Me:
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i
fied"
Mi ke:"
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i
nt erninfactgogetmesomecof feewith
cream nosugar "Istaredathim"areyoudeaf "I
wal kedouti wentbackt omycubiclewipingmy
tearsIlockedmybagsi nthedrawerwentt oa
closecoffeeshopgothi scof
feeinamedi um
wentbackt otheoffi
ceIwentt ohisoff
ice
knockedhesai dcomei nIwentingavei ttohim
Mi
ke:"nextt
imegetal
argeandIpr
efermy
mor
ningcoffeewi
thamuffi
n"
Me:
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atev
ani
l
laorbl
ueber
ryorbr
an"
Mike:
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it
udemissygetoutofhere"I
wenttocubicl
esetupIhadt wopi
cturefr
ames
oneofkeenananotherhadthegi
rl
st hi
sgir
l
cametome
Her
:"i
m Ci
ndy
"
Me:
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no"weshookhands
Her:"
im ar
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dgototheI
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depar
tmentonthe9thfl
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osetup
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ourser
ver
"
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oor
"
Ci
ndy
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ept
heyj
ustbel
owt
hebi
gboss'
sfl
oor
"
Me:
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hewhol
efl
oor
"shel
aughed
Ci
ndy:"y
epi
tjusthi
m andt
hemai
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droom
upther
e"
Me:
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ce"
Cindy:"comeI '
l
lshowyouaroundbutwedon't
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ymanagementgo
thereorunlesshecall
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Me:
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sher
"
Cindy:"y
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chI
thoughtyouwoul dknowconsi der
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n
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hy ourfat
herinlaworshoul dIsay
stepdad"Ist
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ngnl ookedatherwi t
h
ar ai
sedeyebrowsheshr uggedhershoul der"
I
readthemagazi nesandIwat chnews"
Me:"y
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cktoj
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heri
nlawandI
hav
enoideaaboutKy
le'
sassoci
ates"
Cindy:"cool
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serversetupwhenIwentbacktomycubicl
e
therewasast ackoff
il
esandanotessayi
ng
comeseememi ke
Me:
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ke"
Mi
ke:
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rsoundsbet
ter
"
Me:
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r"
Mike:"
thosefi
lesarepotenti
alnextbi
g
soft
waresIneedy outoreadthem makea
sel
ecti
onoffivegi
v ei
ttomeI 'l
lgi
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outhe
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naloneandyoucanhav eyourfi
rstr
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l
l
seeifyouhavewhatittakes"
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ionisnotpartofmy
j
obdescr i
pti
onthat
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anal
ysist
sjob"
Mi
ke:
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ngi
tyour
s"
Me:
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hingbutsof
twar
es"
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shoul
dhavegott
enajobsomewher
e
el
sethannotinadepar
tmentt
hatdeal
swi
th
soft
ware"
Me: "excusemeMi kebutI'm heretobea
recruit
mentconsultantsandanODconsul tant
evenachangeconsul t
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tycounseli
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andmyj obdescri
ptionsaysnothingabout
selecti
on"hestoodcamet ostandinfrontof
met ower i
ngovermemy6i nchheelsdidn'
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Mike:"
youinmydepartmentundermy
superv
isi
onyoudowhatIsaygotaprobl
em go
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atheri
nlaw"
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fine!"Istormedoutofhi
soffi
ceIsaton
mychai rpulleditcl
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ted
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tat eardr oppi
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Me:
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"
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heywhat
'swrong"anot
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oll
owedbyothershear
inghisvoi
ce
mademewantt ocur
lupinbedwi t
hhi sar
ms
ar
oundme
Me:
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either
e"
Keenan:
"what
'sgoi
ngon"
Me:"mybossi
sanasshol
eIwanagohome"he
si
ghed
Keenan:
"what
'sgoi
ngon"
Me:
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str
eat
ingmel
i
keshi
t"
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wantmetocomet
her
eki
ckhi
sass"I
chuckl
ednsnif
fed
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ustgoi
ngt
omaket
hingswor
se"
Keenan:
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eyousur
eyouwantt
odot
hisy
ou
don'
thavet
oputupwit
hthi
sshi
t"
Me:
"I'
l
lbef
ine"
Keenan:
"Il
ovey
ouokay
"
Me:
"Il
ovey
out
oo"
Keenan:"
andyoustr
ongyoucanhandl
e
anyt
hingj
ustprov
eyourwort
htothati
diothe
wil
ll
ayoff"
Me:
"ok"
Keenan:
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ouathome"
Me:"
lat
er"Idr
oppedt
hecal
lwentonwi
thmy
wor
kafteranhourMi
kecametome
Mi
ke:
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tbef
orecl
osi
ngt
imeat17:
00"
Me:
"yessi
r"
Mike:"
nextti
mey ouwantt
otakeper
sonal
cal
l
s
waitf
or13:00luncht
ime"
Me:"yessi
r"hewalkedawayImubbledasshol
e
wentbacktomywor kbytheti
mei twasl
unch
ti
meIwasn'tevenhalf
wayfi
nishedIwentto
Stev
eheseemedni cewhenwemet
Me:
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eve"
St
eve:
"what
'supDom"
Me:
"Iki
ndaneedhel
p"
St
eve:
"about
"
Me:"choosingthebestfi
vesoft
waresandsi
nce
youanITspeci al
i
sthelpasi
steroutt
hisi
s
f
orei
gnl anguagetome"
St
eve:
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unch"
Me:
"anyr
est
aur
ant
"
St
eve:
"Cuba"
Me:
"deal
"
Steve:"
sur
e"hewentt
ograbanotherchai
rwe
satdownandgotbusyby16:50wewer edoneI
tookthefi
l
esdowntomyfloortoMike'
soffi
ce
Me:"i
m done"Igav
ehi
mthef
iveputt
heot
her
asi
de
Mi
ke:
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ble"
Me:
"cl
ear
lynot
"
Mi
ke:
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pedy
ou"
Me:
"whosai
dIgothel
p"
Mike:
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ouwer
enotony
ourdeskssi
nce
l
unch"
Me:"Igott
hewor kdonenowIdidn'
ttakelunch
soim goi
ngtogohome"Iwal kedoutwentto
packupmyt hingsItookal
if
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Igotfr
eshairIbreat
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up
Voi
ce:"
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hu:"
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hi
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ready
"
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tt
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out
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ngabout
"
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sfucknmi
nd"
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keenanSet
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m"
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ngwi
thy
ou"
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ngt
oseet
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i
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l
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nkaboutt
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l
lst
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"
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hyouI
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apart
mentwhi l
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m"
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ll
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l
ls"
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ssedmyfor
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l
lgochange"
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inkt
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hing
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owear"
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hu:
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sterSet
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way
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oveyout
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omy
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hem toher
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yordoy
ouwantt
ea"
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hu:
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eep"
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door
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tgeti
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vedSi
no"
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ououtofy
ourf
ucknmi
nddi
dyousee
howmysist
eri
s"
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ustgoi
ngt
omakehi
m angr
y"
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assoonasNkany isoopenedIslappedhim he
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hef
ucki
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thy
ouNkany
iso"
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ry"
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"
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tknowwhat'
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omeSino
ever
ythingi
sconfusi
ngever
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tyou
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si
sterdisgustsyounowthatyouhavenew
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esy ouf
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nopl
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m down"
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ooks
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obel
ate"hesi
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izewewentf rom hav
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dayt ohavi
ngsexonlyonweekends"Igotof
f
him andoffthebed
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oubr
ingy
ourwor
k
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rat
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ls"
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rue"
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'
str
ue"
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ynoti nthemoodofar guingabout
sexsoear l
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ookmy
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Me;
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eyou"
Set
hu:
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hu:
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ounot
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hu:
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standSi
no"
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her
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li
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hu:
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ttel
l
"
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omeI dsaygotothepol
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ce
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ionaswell
"
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hu:
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nopl
ease"
Me:"i
tyourchoi
cewhetheryoupresscharges
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ll
i
m sayi
ngisyouarenotgoingbacktohis
apar
tment"
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hu:
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"
Me:
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l
lber
eadywheny
ouar
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hankyou"Iki
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oreheadand
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rsmadebr eakf
ast
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fhegotdownwhenIwas
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feeorj
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feeact
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ll
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om thecaf
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"
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hing"
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way
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othe
off
ice"
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ayi
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youhav
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ort
hem i
nthe
off
ice"
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hem keenankeepthem i
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ngsputthem i
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l
lseey
oul
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ovey
ou"
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nner
"
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nner
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ke:"cancel
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ke:
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ke:
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ke:
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ke:
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ke:
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hi
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ke:
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srespect
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ke:
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ndy
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Ci
ndy:"
youknowy
oucan'
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ket
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management
"
Me;
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key
ouneedt
hej
oby
our
husbandisri
ch"
Me:
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ndypl
easegi
vemespacef
uck!
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ndy
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hat
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ri
end"
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evestood
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'
dtakey
out
olunch"
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ngdi
nner
"
Keenan:
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ckupy
ourcel
l
"
Me:
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ryi
t'
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icday
"
Keenan:
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il
lgo"
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ookedatSt
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t
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st
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hatst
eveguyar
ecl
ose"
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l
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ulwi
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rstpr
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iendsi
ncet
hen"
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tyoumakef
ri
endswi
th
females"
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tknowhowt oansweryoumy
husband"hechuckledandheldmychi nmaki
ng
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l
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llnotbedi
str
act
edbyy
oucal
l
ing
mey ourhusband"
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youaremyhusbandkeenan"Ist
oodonmy
toeswrappedmyhandsaroundhisneck
playi
ngwithhishai
rhel
eanedi
nonmyt ouch
closi
nghiseyes
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eel
sni
ce"
Me:
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fttookhi
scarwehadlunchaft
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ce.Theday
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lopenedweari
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nkanyi
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ou"shef
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er
herchest
Her:"
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l
yar esel
fcent
eredwe'
vemet
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eim Xol
o"Ipushedherasi
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n
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oucan'tdothatSi
no"
Me:"shutupthisi
sasmuchasmysi ster
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apar
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l
oungewat chi
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Me:"I'
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Nka:
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oudoi
ngher
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Me:"
lastti
meIcheckedi
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oundthisapar
tmentandhernamei
sont he
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vet
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ingy
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rt
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sl
uti
nhere"
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o:"
Iwi
l
lnotbedi
srespect
ed"
Me:
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oest
ekoutofher
e"
Xol
o:"
whodoy
out
hinky
ouar
e"
Me:"
Nkanyi
soyoubetterputyourdogona
l
eashbef
oreIgetpi
ssedoff"
Xol
o:"
nxay
..
"
Nka:
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o"
Xol
o:"
whatNkany
iso"
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"im her
etopackmysi
ster
'scl
othes"
Nka:
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oucan'
tdot
hat
"
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lether"It
urnedandslappedhersohard
shetri
edf i
ghti
ngbackitri
ppedhershefel
l
hi
tti
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herneckmyheel di
ggi
ngoni t
Nka:
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nocomeonbr
a"
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oldyout
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eash"I
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essedhardershewasst
art
ingt
ogaspforai
r
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ti
ngher
"
Me:"
notsonicei
sitwhensomeonehur
ts
someoneyoucar
eabout"
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Sinothi
sisnoneofy
ourbusi
nessl
ether
go"hewalkedtowar
dsme
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orwhatyougoingtohitmeNkany i
soid
l
iketoseeyout r
yyouknowKeenanwi llf
uck
youandLungelowillneverf
orgi
veyou"he
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ngIpressedharderbef
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ti
ng
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ng
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o:"
bit
ch"Ichuckl
ed
Me: "
youdon' tlear
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i
nal ecturehall
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mi ndisbeli
ef
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everyt
hingandhowy ouclai
medy oubought
yoursont
hingsj
ustt
obr
inghi
m backi
nyour
apart
ment"
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"shutupSi
nov
uyo"
Me:
"andy
oumyst
orm suchadi
sappoi
ntment
"
Xol
o:"
what
"
Me:
"ohy
oudi
dn'
tknowseet
het
att
ooo.
."
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nopl
ease"
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letpackthoseclothesandl
eav
eI
haveahusbandnki dswai ti
ngformeathome"I
wenttoherbedr oom packedherthi
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le
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othe
l
ounget heywerestil
largui
ng
Me: "
ohandNkany isodonotcomeaf t
ermy
si
sterletherheal bot hemot i
onalI
yand
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l comet oy ouifshewant sand
dareev erevenli
ftaf i
ngeronherI '
l
lforceherto
presschar gesandt oapplyforful
lcustodyof
Nkazi beli
evemewewi l
lwin"
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"Si
nobr
adon'
tdot
his"
Me:
"youdonet
aki
ngadv
ant
ageofmysi
ster
"
Xol
o:"
she'
spat
het
icany
way
"
Me:
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Xol
o:"
shecan'
tev
enf
ightherownbat
tl
es"
Me:
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iso"
Xolo:"shecouldn'
tkeephi
mjustl
i
key
ou
couldn'tkeephim"
Me: "
isthatthestor
yhetoldyouthatheleftme"
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fat
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lpl
easecalmy ourcl
it
Nkanyisoisnotallt
hat"
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no!
"
Xolo:"
yety
oulethi
mf ucky
ousl
ut"Idr
opped
thebagIwascarry
ing
Me:
"cal
lmet
hatagai
n"
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o:"
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U.T"shesai
ditsl
owl
yIchuckl
edi
n
di
sbel
i
ef
Nka:
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oshutup"
Me:
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hehoespeak"
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o:"
fuckof
fandgetoutofher
e"
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leXoloNkany isohecould
dropy ouifIwant edhim backheknowst hatthe
onlyreasonwenott ogetherisbecauseIdon' t
wanthi m Ihavebet terthattattooonhisheart
caget hat'
sallme"shel ookedathi m helooked
away" butthisisn'taboutmei taboutmysi st
erI
don'twanty ourmanhi sweakkeephi my oudid
mysi sterafavorGodbl essy ouchil
d"Itookthe
bagandwal kedoutIt ookal iftdowngoti nmy
cardrov ehome.WhenIgott hereKeenan'scar
wasal readythereIgotof ft
ookt hebagIgoti n
Keenanwaswat chingtvwi ththegirl
sand
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erbutshewaswear i
ng
glassesIgiggled
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ghsi
s"shel
aughedl
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ght
lyIdr
opped
t
hebag
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rl
s:"mommy
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ecamer
unni
ngIpi
cked
t
hem up
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hu:
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ssedKeenan'
scheek
Vuv
u:"
nenasai
dwegoi
ngt
oher
"
Me;
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ytbaby
"Iputt
hem down
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ate"Imout
hedsor
ry
Me:
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ouy
ourcl
othes"
Keenan:
"howdi
dyougett
hose"
Set
hu:
"thanky
ou"
Keenan:
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kkycanwet
alk"
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"
Tayl
or:"
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i
ftedherar
msI
tookher
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etmeent
ert
ainherf
ir
st"Isatdownwi
th
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lorvuv
ugotontopofme
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u:"
let
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aymommy
"
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ay"
Tay
lor
:"Bar
ney
!!
!"
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sgo"Itookofmyshoesputv
uvu
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ey ouguyseatn"
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ourf
oodi
sint
he
oven"
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room weplayed
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ilI
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imeIalso
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oeat
i
nfrontoft
hetvwithSethu
Me:"whathappenedbet
weeny
ouand
Nkanyi
so"
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hu:
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lydon'
tknow"
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out
hinkhi
sseei
ngsomeone"
Set
hu:
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ble"
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dyougi
vehi
m achancei
fheasked
f
ori
t"
Set
hu:
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sNkazi
'
sfat
herSi
noIl
ovehi
m"
Me;"It
hinkact
ual
l
yIknowyoudeser
vebet
ter
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wayswil
l
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osedshewascryi
ng
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tSi
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ovehi
m wecanwor k
thr
oughitIknowwecanIneedt
odobet
ter
"
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phoset
huy
oudeser
vebet
ter
"
Set
hu:
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vehi
m Iwanthi
m"
Me:"
noy ouar
enotget
ti
ngbackt
oget
herwi
th
hi
m Set
hu"
Set
hu:"
don'tt
ell
mewhatt odoandy
ouknow
whatI
'
ml eavi
ngim goi
ngbackt
omyplace"she
st
oodup
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tyourassdown"
Set
hu:
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mleav
ing"
Me:
"hi
scheat
ingony
ou"
Set
hu:
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tl
iewhatdoy
ouwanthi
m back"
Me: "
ohGodhi scheat
ingonyouhisbeendoi
ng
i
tformont hsshe'sinyourapar
tmentaswe
speakingsleepingi
nyourbed"
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hu:
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yi
ngy
ouwanthi
m back"
Keenan:"
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snot"hewasleani
ngonthewal
l
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anceSethuj
ustwentupcr
ying
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Keenan: "
youcouldhavef
oundabet terwayto
tellher
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nishedmyf oodIwaswat chi
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ect
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i
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zzy
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hegi
rlar
eint
hei
rbedbutt
heywai
ti
ngf
or
y
ou"
Me:
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ouI
zzy
"
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:"goodni
ghtNikky"Iswi
tchedevery
thi
ngoff
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edwithvuv
ushe
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orwant edmet ogeti
nbedwi t
h
herunti
lshefal
lsasleep
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her
epr
incess"sher
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Vuv
u;"
mommy
"
Me:
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ghtbaby
"
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u:"
goodni
ghtImi
ssLuh"
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l
lcal
lhi
mtomor
row"
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u:"
ok"
Me:"mommyanddaddyl
ovesy
ouokLuhl
oves
youaswel
l
"
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eyoumommy "Iki
ssedherfor
ehead
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celyIswi
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hemain
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ightsleavi
ngherdimmeronIwentt oTayl
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ayt
ay"shewasst
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ngher
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ney
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lor
:"mommy
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et'
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hecov
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ghtangel
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oves
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lor:
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ght
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ull
ygot
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ightandwalked
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wenttomyr oom keenanwasinbedIswitched
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ghtsof
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m
Me:
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edt
otal
k"
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ermi
nd"
Me:
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ktome"
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Ithoughtwespoker
egar
dingseei
ng
Nkanyi
sowi t
houtmehecouldhav
ehurtyou"
Me:
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dn'
t"
Keenan:
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sey
esIki
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eltgui
l
ty
Me:
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scol
dkeenan"
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edmecl oserwrappi
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hi
sarm aroundmybodyput t
ingourlegs
bet
weeneachot herheki
ssedmyhead
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nthegi
rl
stomor
row"
Keenan:
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ovey
ou"
Me:
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ovey
out
oo"
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ssus"
Me:
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oumean"
Keenan:"
befor
ethekidsandthemarr
iagewhen
wewer ej
ustli
vi
ngtogethert
hetwoofus"
Me:
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Keenan:"
itokourl
i
vesar
echangi
ngIneedt
o
adapttot
hechanges"
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ilov
eyoumyhusband"weki
ssedand
sl
ept
.
.
WhenIwokeupt
hef
oll
owi
ngdaykeenanwasnt
i
nbed
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oset
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ehewasget
ti
ng
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Me:
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ning"
Keenan:
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ningt
handol
wam"heki
ssedmy
head
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l
lgobat
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eady
"
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ionIgotdr essedwi t
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ack
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skeenanwas
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ookal
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ttl
etoosexyf
orwor
k"
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edeat
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Keenan:"
I'
ll
pickyouupf
orl
uncht
ell
yourf
ri
end
Icanfeedmywi f
e"
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'
llwai
tfory
ou"
Keenan:"
Ithi
nkweshoul
dsendthegi
rl
sto
Midrandt
hisweekendwecanhavet
hehouse
tooursel
ves"
Me:
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hu"
Keenan:
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rownedpl
ayi
ngwi
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s
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unch"heusedwe
kissed"Il
oveyou"
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IloveyouI'
l
l l
ookforaquietcot
tage
outsi
dethecityyouknowapl acewit
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icemakingbabies"helaughedsocare
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eelyitmademegi ggle
Keenan:"
youdot hatandI
'
dbesohappyImiss
you"wekissedagainwepull
edapar
twhen
Sethugotin
Set
hu:
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ning"
Keenan:"
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ss"
I
l
ovey oumywif
e"hewalkedout
Me:
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lygoi
ngt
owor
k"
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erIgotanot
eI'
l
lonl
ygo
backnextweekMonday "
Me:
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m sor
ryabouty
est
erday
"
Set
hu:
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sosorr
yIdontknowwhatgot
ten
i
ntomeIshouldn'
thav
espoketoyouli
ket
hat"
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ustpr
omi
semesomet
hing"
Set
hu:
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Me:"stayawayfrom Nkanyi
soify
ouneedNkazi
cal
lhismom lethimfigur
ehisshi
tout
"
Set
hu:
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l
l"
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'
llseey
oul
ater
"
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ookmybagsandleftwhenIgot
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edtoMike'
soff
icehewas
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gnedthewrit
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l
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.
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ngSethuifIhaven'
tlostheralready
andXol oiscl
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m goi
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ngpart
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mymemor i
esIknowthatthi
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shouldbebutIdon'
tknowhowt heyshoul
dbe"
Doc: "
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m everyt
hingI
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cki
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l
ookedather
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"
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l
ldoi
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ti
me"
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ngi
tnow"
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o:"
no"
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ouhi
ding"
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o:"
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hingIj
ustdon'
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odoi
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bodyaboutt
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"
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sey
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l
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"
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l
yyouknowwhatt
akemet
o
Si
no'
shouse"
Me:"
aibomahyouher
eformenott
ost
ayat
Si
no'
shouse"
Mom: "
im her
eforSet
huandshe'
st her
e"Xolo
l
etoutasoftsobIwentt
oherbrushingher
back
Xol
o:"
whywon'
tyougi
vemeachance"
Mom:"becauseyouev i
lNoxol
oNdlel
amyson
l
ovesSethuyoujustwarmingyourwayi
nhi
s
l
if
ethr
oughchildren"
Me:
"she'
st hemot
herofyourgrandchi
ldr
en
mom wil
lyouatl
eastbeci
vilt
owar dsher
"
Mom:"Iwi
ll
donosuchathi
ngt
akemet
o
Si
no'
shousenowNkany
iso"
Me:"mom pleasedon'
tbeunreasonabl
ewhati
s
dadgoingtosay"Xol
owouldntstopcryi
ngshe
hadherfaceonmychest
Mom:
"yourf
atherdoesn'
tev
enwanaheary
our
v
oice"
Me:"pleasecanev
eryonej
ustcalm downy
ou
upsett
inghermom andyourharmingmy
daughter"
Mom:"Idoubtt
hisi
sev
eny
ourki
d"Xol
ocr
ied
l
ouder
Xol
o:"
stopi
nsul
ti
ngme"
Me: "
nowyoupushi
ngitmot
her"shegotup
walkedcl
osert
omeIletgoofXoloandmov ed
back
Mom:
"whaty
ousayPr
ince"
Me:
"not
hingmom"
Xolo:
" Nkany
iso!"Thi
swomandoesn't
understandmom coul dsti
l
lbeatt
hel
iv
ingshi
t
outofmeandt here'
snothi
ngIcandoabouti
t
Me:
"mom howabouty
our
estf
orabi
t"
Mom:"j
ustt
akemet
oseeSet
hubef
oreIgo
cr
azy
"
Me;
"okl
et'
sgo"
Xol
o:"
youar
enotgoi
ngt
her
e"
Mom:
"excuseme"
Xol
o:"
heisnotgoi
ngther
e"shewi
pedhert
ear
s
andst
oodmorestr
aight
Mom:
"youwi
l
lnott
ell
mysonwhatt
odo"
Xol
o:"
wel
lIam andhisnotgoi
ngthereifyou
wantt
oseeyourSet
hutakeyoursel
fthere"
Mom: "
hhethi
schi
ld"sheclappedonceIj
ust
f
eltf
rozen"
Nkanyi
soletsgo"
Xol
o:"
Isai
dhi
snotgoi
ng"
Mom:
"hi
smyson"
Xol
o:"
hismymant hefat
herofmychil
drenit
mehesleepswit
handim sayi
nghi
snotgoing
any
where"wit
hthatXol
owenttoourbedroom
Mom:
"Nkany
isol
etsgo"
Me:
"im sor
rymom"If
oll
owedXol
oleav
ing
mom st
andingt
her
enotknowi
ngwhattodoI
fi
guredshewill
justwatchtvorgotorestbutI
wasn'tgoi
nganywhereifXolodi
dn'twantmeto.
Igotinthebedr
oom foundhersit
ti
ngont he
bed
Me:"
youokbaby"Ikneel
edinfr
ontofherand
br
ushedherbabybumpkissi
ngit
Xol
o:"
mybackhur
tsbaby
"
Me:
"takeyourdr
essofandl
i
edownI
'
llgi
vey
ou
amassage"
Xolo:"thanky oubaby "shestoodupt ookofher
dressshedi dn'thav eunderwearonshel aidon
herstomachIt ookt hemassagingoi lgotonthe
bedbet weenherl egsstar
tedmassagi ngher
shekeptonmoani ngi
twasmaki ngmesohar d
Ispankedherl i
ght l
ysheletoutasof tmoanI
foundmy selfst
rippingwheni wasnakedi
penetratedherwi thmymi ddl
efingershe
mov edherl owerbodyIst uckint he2ndoneI
keptonmov i
ngthem whi l
emassagi nghercl i
t
unti
lIfeltherinsidesclencharoundmyf inger
sI
pulledbackcausi nghert ocompl ai
ni hel dher
assmaki nghersi tindoggypost ionIr ammed
i
nt ohershecr i
edoutl oudl yXol ohasal way s
l
ikedi troughsomet imesi twor r
iesme
concer ningthebabyshescr eamedmor easI
wentdeeperunt ilIwasal lin" fucknkahar der"i
pulledoutwenti nhar dercausi nghert omov e
forwar dIheldheri npl ace" y essssNkaaah"t he
soundsofourski nslappi ngt ogetheral way s
drov emecr azy" shit!
!Baby "shest art
ed
twer ki
ngIcoul df eelmyr ealiseappr oachi ng
faster"babysl owdowny ougonamakeme
come"shewentwi ldershemov edf orwar dand
pushedmebackget t
ingont opofmer everse
cowgi rlsofastmymi ndonl ycat chedupon
whatwasgoi ngonwhenshesl i
ddownonme
onlyt oslidupndownf astIgr abbedherweav e
hardshet hr
ewherheadbackandwentf aster
"fuckbaby !!
"Shewebtev enf ast er"aahaahaah
yessssnkaaaaahohf uck!!!"Iexpl odedi nher
assheal soaf t
ercomi ngshecol lapsedonher
st
omachImov
edupandbr
oughthert
ome
Xol
o:"
Ilov
eyouNkany
iso"
Me:"
Ilovey out
ooNoxolo"Ipushedherhai
r
f
rom herfaceki
ssedherfor
ehead
Xol
o:"mmh"shesnuggl edcl osertomychest
shesl
owl ydrif
tedofft
osleepIwasaboutt o
sl
eepwhenacal lcamethroughonmyphoneI
qui
ckl
ydecl i
nedont hecal
l befor
eitwokeher
upIgotoffthebedputonsweat pantsntshi
rtI
wenttotheloungemom wasn' tt
hereIguess
shewasasl eepIcall
eddadback
Dad:"arey ououtofy oumindNkany i
soDlami ni
Ididnotl etmywi f
ecomet heref oryoutotreat
herthatwayy ouneedprayermysonandIdon' t
everwantt oseet hatgi
rli
nmyhouse"he
droppedt hecallaft
eryel
li
ngIj uststoodthere
withitpressedonmyearconf usedasf uckas
whatj ustwentdown.Iwentt ocheckonmom
i
nt heguestbedr oom butIdidn'tfi
ndherthere
evenhersui tcasewasgoneIcal l
edherbutshe
di
dn'
tpickupIalsocall
eddadbutheal
sodidn'
t
pi
ckupIletoutasighbefor
ecal
li
ngSethushe
pi
ckedupafterawhil
e
Set
hu:
"hel
l
oNkany
iso"
Me:
"hi
Siphoset
huhowar
eyou"
Sethu:
"imf
inewhatdoy
ouwant
"Icl
ear
edmy
thr
oat
Me:
"mymom"
Set
hu:
"she'
sonherwayher
eIsentacabf
or
her
"
Me:"she'
smymot herSiphosethunotyour
swhy
youacti
ngli
keshe'
sy ourmot herwenot
t
ogetherany
morelearntoletgo"
Sethu;"I
'
llgethertocallyouwhensheget s
here"shedr oppedthecallIcall
edherstraight
backbutshedi dn'
tpi
ckupaf tercal
l
ingher10
ti
mesIgav eupIwant edtodr i
vetoSino'
s
houseandbeatherupnxaSet huwasj ust
annoyingmet othecorebutIknewIwoul dnt
evengetinthepr
emiseswi
ththei
rbl
oody
bodyguar
dsallovert
her
eXolocri
edouti
nthe
bedroom Ir
ushedtoher
Me:"
what
'sgoi
ngon"shepul
l
edbackt
hecov
er
andt
hebedwaswet
Me:
"youwety
our
sel
f"
Xol
o:"
mywat
erbr
oke"Il
aughed
Me;"
don'
tbecr
azyy
ouj
ust6mont
hs"shecr
ied
outi
npai
n
Xolo:"Nkany
isoithurt
smay beitwast
hesexI
don'tknow"Ist
artedpanicki
ngwehaven'tev
en
boughtthebabyclothesIpull
edherof
fthebed
putthedressonher
Xol
o:"
gett
hebagi
ntheot
herr
oom"
Me:
"whatr
oom"
Xolo:"
guestbedroom i
nthecl
oset"Ir
anther
eI
foundthebigbagIopeneditt
herewasbaby
clot
hesherclot
hesanddiaper
sIwentbackto
her
Me:
"whendi
dyoubuyt
hese"
Xolo:
"Nkanyi
soi
thur
ts"Icar
ri
edherbri
dal
sty
le
tookthebagwewenttocarst
rai
ghtt
othe
hospi
tal
.
Nombuso
PatrickandIwerespendingtheweekendinhis
housei nsandtonweusuall
yinmyapar tment
butt hi
sweekendwewer einhishousehedi dn'
t
l
iket akingmetohishousesincei
thisfamil
y '
s
house.Thehousebackathomewasdonef ully
furnishedanditwasamazingevery
onehad
theirownr oom i
tevenhadrunni
ngwaterand
electri
city
Me: "
baby
"Ipattedt
hebedbuti twasempt yI
openedmyey eshewasn'
tther eIf
igur
edhe
wouldbetir
edconsi
deri
ngt hatwelandedat
05:45wejustcamebackfrom DubiaIgotoff
thebedwenttoshowerIfeltthedoorsl
idi
ng
openhegotin
Patri
ck;
"morni
nglov
e"hehel
dmywai
st
"shower
ingwit
houtme"
Me:
"youwer
enti
nbedwhenIwokeup"
Pat
ri
ck:
"needt
ocal
ltheof
fi
ce"
Me: "ok"heki ssedmeIst oodonmyt oes
kissinghi m backIcoul dfeelhishar ddickon
myst omachhel if
tedmyl egst rai
ghtuphol di
ng
i
tandsl ammedi ntomehar dIcr i
edouti npain
"sorrymyqueen"usual l
yhegoesi nchbyi nch
l
et t
ingmegetusedt ohi m beinginmePat ri
ck'
s
dicki shuge" aahi tokbaby "hemov edbackand
slowl yslideintomeIl etoutal oudmoanhe
keptongoi ngunt i
lIcameaf t
ercomi ngheput
myl egdownIdr oppedt omykneeshel dhis
shaf ttakingitinmymout hIrelaxedmy
muscl eslett
ingi tgoasmuchasi tcould"tshii
ii
okwe! !"Hehel dthebackofmyheadf ucked
himsel fwi t
hmymout hwhenhewasaboutt o
comehemademest andupandpr essedmeon
thewal lopenedmyl egssl i
ghtlywi t
hhi sknee
hewenti nhar dhittingi tfrom thebackaf t
erwe
bothcameweshower edqui cklygotoutoft he
showerl ot
ionedgotdr essedIputonbum
shor t
sandacr opt opwhi lehewor ejeanshorts
andat shir
twewentt ohav ebreakfastafter
breakfastwesati nt heloungepl aying
monopol ywebasi cal l
yspentt hedaypl ayi
ng
boar dgamesheor derdI tali
anf ordinner we
ateinf rontofthet vwhi lehav ingwi neIwas
si
ttingbet weenhi sl egsont hecouchhekept
onni bblingonmyearandneckwhenwehear d
voicescomi ngt owar dst hel oungei ncamea
womanshewasf atandy ell
owf ol
lowedbyan
oldboywhol ookedhotwi t
hagi rl
thatlooked
myageandasmal lboy
Woman:
"tshi
neke!
!!
!Godf
orbi
dsPat
ri
ck"
Olderguy
: "
dad"Patri
ckwascalm asa
cucumberItriedget
ti
ngofft
hecouchbuthe
heldmetightersi
nki
nghisnai
lsonmywaist
Gi
rl
:"daddyno!
"
Me:"Pat
ri
ckl
etgopl
ease"Iwhi
sper
edIal
ready
f
igur
editwashi
sfami
ly
Wife:"
Pat r
ick!Isthi
si tyoucheat ingonmewi th
akid"shecl appedherhandsbef oreholdingher
head"myey eshav eseenmyear sItellyou
nowoPat ri
cky ougodomel ikethisGodf orbi
ds
kil
lmenowohheeee"Pat ri
ckl etgoofmewe
bothstoodupIsawt heol dsonl ookingatme
allov
ermybodyhi sey esflashingwithlustn
fi
reIremember edthatmyzi pnbut tononmy
bum shortwasundonecozPat ri
ckhadhi s
handonmypussyIj ustl ookedathi m witha
rai
sedey ebrowwhenhef i
nallygottomyf ace
heclearedhi sthr
oatandl ookedaway
Patr
ick:
"whatar
eyoudoi
ngher
eTi
wawi
thout
tel
l
ingme"
Wi
fe:
"thi
sismyhouse"
Olderson:"LeroyKimmyletsgoupstai
rs"t
hey
draggedtheirsuit
casesupstai
rsl
eav
ingPatri
ck
thei
rmot herandmedown
Me:"uhm Pat
ri
ckIt
hinkIshoul
dgot
omy
apar
tment"
Patr
ick:"y
ounotleavi
nggotobedNombusoI'
l
l
bethere"shest
artedwai
li
ng"Ti
waandIneedto
tal
k"
Ti
wa:
"whatbedar
eyout
alki
ngabout
"
Patr
ick:
"mybedi
nthemast
erbedr
oom"she
cr
iedevenl
ouder
Ti
wa:
"mybedPat
ri
ck"
Me:
"Pat
ri
ckpl
easel
etmel
eav
e"
Patr
ick:"
im comingwithyouwai
ther
eI'
l
lgoget
thekeysandy ourhandbag"
Me: "
im comingupwi t
hy ou"Iwasnotaboutt o
stayalonewiththatwomanf orami nutewe
wentupIgotmybagal ongwi t
ht hethingsIhad
boughtinDubai hetookhi scarkeysandhi s
workthingswewentbackdownt hewif ewas
nowont hefl
oorcryingloudlyheroldestson
washol dinghertr
yingtocomf orther
Him: "
daddon'
tdothi
stomom wheresthe
respecti
sthi
swhathappenswheni
mi n
London"
Pat
ri
ck:
"shutupPj
"
Pj:
"thi
sgir
lhasyoudoi
ngthi
st oyourwif
e
wouldshebearoundi
fyoudidn'
thavealloft
his
i
fyoudidn'
thavethemoney,
thecars,t
hehouse
orthechar
m"
Pat
ri
ck:"
guesswewoul dnev
erknowcozI
'
ll
al
wayshavethoset
hings"
Tiwa:"myt ear
sdon'tf
alloninf ert
il
esoi l
Patri
ck"wegotoutandl eftdrivingst r
aightto
myapar tmentwhenwegott her eIkneel edin
fr
ontofmehewassi t
ti
ngont hecouchi gav
e
him ablowj obwhenhewasaboutt ocomeI
gotont opofhim androdehim" Ilovey ou
Nombusomar r
yme"hewasl ookingst raight
i
ntomyey esIstoppedmov i
nghebr oughthis
l
ipsclosertomi ne weki ssedhehel dmy
waistmov i
ngmeupanddownunt il
webot h
cameIwr appedmyhandsar
oundhisneck
breat
hinghardhest
oodupwenttoputmeon
thebedwher ehemadesl
owlovetomeIwas
abouttocomewhenhestoppedmov i
ngI
openedmyey es
Pat
ri
ck:"marr
ymeNombusoI '
l
lleav
eheri
l
l
di
vorceherj
ustsayy
espl
ease"
Me:
"I'
l
lmar
ryy
ou"heki
ssedme
Pat
ri
ck:
"thanky
ou"
Me:
"makemecome"hel
aughedandst
art
ed
movi
ngagai
n
.
I
twasSundayi wasinnor t
hgateaf t
ermeeting
aclientiwasr ecrui
tingthemeet i
nghadgone
wellhet ookthecont ractsayinghewi l
lhavehis
l
awy erlookati tbeforesigningitandIwasso
happyi feveryt
hinggoeswel lhewoul dbemy
fi
rstcli
entMi kehadbeenamaj ordickthese
pastmont hsiendedupbei ngattheof f
icef
rom
Mondayt oSat urdayandwor king8t o7i nstead
of8t o4i ftherewasonet hi
ngt hatIpickedup
from Mi ke'sst atement sandat titudeist hathe
thoughtIdi dn'tdeserv ethej obandt hatIhad
onl ygot tent hej obbecauseofmyr elati
ont o
Ky lesoIhadapoi nttopr oveIwor kedhar der
thanany bodyel seatt hedepar tmentIdi d
ev erythingheaskedofmewi t
houtat t i
tudeev en
athomeIwentt osleepl aterKeenan' sst udy
becamemyst udyf i
nallymyhar dwor kwas
pay ingof fthemanagementf r
om t he
publ icationdepar tmentnot i
cedandr equest edI
bemov edt oherdepar tmentt her ewasa
meet ingbet weenbot hhernMi kealongwi thHr
andmei twasdeci dedt hatI '
llwor konbot h
depar tment sgetar aiseIf oundi tali
ttl
ef unny
thatMi kedi dntwantt ol etgoofme, hername
wasKat esuchasweet hear ttowor kwi thshe
wasl ooki ngf oraedi toroft hef ashionand
l
ifest ylesect ioni nthemagazi nesot hatwhoI
wasmeet ingupwi thIwaspoachi nghimf rom
anothermagazinehewast hebestthereisto
offeri
njhb.Ir
emai nedinthetabl
ef i
nishingmy
glassofwinewhiletal
kingtoKateont hephone
abouthowt hemeet i
nghadgonewhen
someonesatont hev acantseatIlookedupand
sawNqubekol ookingdeli
ciousl
yhot
Me:"
uhm smi
thi
ngcameupwe'
l
ltal
kint
he
of
fi
ce"
Kate:"
okbyeNi
kkyandthankyou"Idr
opped
thecal
landl
ookedatNqubeko
Nqubeko:
"fancymeet
ingy
ouher
e"
Me:
"Iwasj
ustl
eav
ing"
Nqubeko;
"don'
tl
eaveonmyaccountpl
ease
st
ayjoi
nmef orl
unch"
Me:"ihadal
unchmeeti
ngsoIal
readyat
eI
shoul
dgo"Ist
art
edpacki
ngupmyt hi
ngs
Nqubeko:
"atleasthav
eanothergl
assofwine
pl
ease"Il
ookedathim hesmil
ed"pleaseSi
no"
Me:
"your
emember
edmyname"
Nqubeko:
"coul
dnev
erf
orget
"
Me:
"onemor
egl
ass"
Nqubeko:"gr
eat
"hecoul
dawaiterandor
der
anothergl
assofwi
newit
haglassofcogni
cn
toni
c"sohowdidyourmeet
inggo"
Me: "
verywel
lIt
hinkt
hebosswi
l
lbehappy
whichisgoi
ngtomakethebi
gbosshappy
"he
chuckled
Nqubeko:
"thebi
gboss"
Me:
"yep"
Nqubeko;"y
ousai
dyouwor
katOl
i
ve
Ent
erpri
ses"
Me:
"yep"
Nqubeko;"
andy
oudon'
tknowt
he'
bi
gboss'
as
yousay"
Me: "
yessomedouchwhodoesn'
tassoci
ate
wit
husl owerl
evel
peasant
s"hel
aughedwhil
e
shaki
nghishead
Nqubeko:
"ist
hatwhaty
out
hink"
Me:
"yes"
Nqubeko:
"whydon'
tyouknowwhopay
syour
sal
ary
"
Me: "
asl
ongasabanknoti
fi
cati
oncomes
thr
oughonmonthendIdon'
treal
lycar
eabout
him"
Nqubeko:
"yousomet
hingel
se"
Me:
"whywer
eyout
her
ethatot
herday
"
Nqubeko:
"meet
ing"
Me:
"cool
"It
ookasi
pofmywi
ne
Nqubeko;
"youbeaut
if
ul"Igi
ggl
edbl
ushi
ng
Me:
"thanky
ou"It
ookanot
hersi
p
Nqubeko:
"Iwantyou"Ichokedonmywi
ne
al
mostspit
ti
ngitoutItookanapki
nwi
pingt
he
cor
nerofmymout h
Me:
"excuseme"
Nqubeko;"IwantyouIwantt ohavesexwit
h
youthethoughtofjusthowy ourl
ongsexylegs
wil
ll
ookwr appedjustaroundmyneckwhi l
eim
bal
lsdeepinyouitdrivi
ngmecr azy"
Me:
"ohmy
"Ipr
essedmyt
highst
oget
her
Nqubeko:
"onequest
ion"
Me:
"hhu"
Nqubeko;"howloudwilly
ouscr eam whenI
fuckyourbrai
nsoutSino"helookedsoseri
ous
thewayhewasbi ti
nghisbottom li
pmademy
cli
tdodancesIgulpedtherestofmywi ne
Me: "
youmustcr
azyIgotahusband"Ist
oodup
benttaki
ngmybagswhenIstooduphewas
standi
ngbehi
ndbreat
hingonmyneck
Nqubeko:"IwantyouSi
noandIalwaysget
whatIwant "hehel
dmywaistpr
essingmyass
onhisdickwhichwashardmybreathi
ng
escal
ated
Me:
"Nqubeko.
..
..Let.
..
go.
..
.pl
ease"
Nqubeko:
"yousosexy
"hekissedmycheekand
l
etgoItur
nedhewasst i
l
lst
andingt
her
e
Me:"
canIpasspl
ease"hewast
ower
ingov
er
me
Nqubeko:"
of cos"hemov edasi deandIwal ked
outoftherestaurantasi fitwasonf i
reIgotin
mycarasIdr ov eoutIsawhi m standingthere
l
ookingatmewi thhishandsi nhispocket
smirki
ngIdrov efastgoinghomewhenIpar ked
outsi
dethegar ageIbr eathedinandouta
coupleoft
imesbef oregoi ngoutIwenti n
thr
oughthelounget othet vroom nkany i
so'
s
mom andSet huwer etherewat chingtv
Me:
"hel
l
o"
Them:
"hey
"
Me:
"wher
ear
emychi
l
dren"
Set
hu:
"nappi
ng"
Me:
"andKeenan"
Set
hu:
"hesai
dhe'
l
lbebacksoon"
Me:
"ok"
Set
hu:
"weaboutt
oleav
eimt
aki
ngNkany
iso'
s
mom t
otheai
rpor
t"
Me:
"ok,
itwasgoodseei
ngy
oumah"
Nka'
smom:
"thanky
ouf
orhav
ingmeIhat
e
hot
els"
Me:"y
ouf
ami
l
yyouwel
comeher
eany
timey
ou
i
njhb"
Nka'
smom:
"thanky
ou"
Me:"t
rav
elsaf
elyI
'
llgor
esti
tbeenahect
ic
weekandanewonebeginst
omorrow"
Nka'smom; "t
hankyou"Ismil
edwentupt omy
room odr oppedthebagswentstrai
ghtt othe
bathroom Itookalonghotbubbl
ebat h.Iguess
Ifell
asleepcozIwokeupwhent hewat erwas
coldIgotoutwentt othecl
osetputonpj sI
wentt obedIsleptassoonasmyheadhi tt
he
pil
low.
Iwokeupwhensomeoneswi
tchedt
hel
i
ght
son
Isatupr
ubbi
ngmyey
esi
twaskeenan
Me:
"baby
"
Keenan:
"hey
"hekissedmyforeheadhe
smell
edli
kehisbeendri
nki
ng
Me:
"wher
eyoucomi
ngf
rom"
Keenan;"wasout"hewalkedt
owardsthecl
oset
Icheckedtheti
mei t02:
30guessIwasreal
l
y
ti
redcozIcamebackar ound17:
00
Me: "
outwher
ekeenanthi
slat
eonasunday"I
fol
lowedhi
mt ot
heclosethewaschangi
ngto
hispjs
Keenan:
"outdr
inki
ng"
Me:
"wi
thwho"
Keenan:
"myf
ri
ends"
Me:"
atthi
sti
mekeenany
oudi
dn'
tev
ent
ell
me
youwer
egoingout
"
Keenan:
"di
dn'
tknowIhav
etor
epor
ttoy
ou"
Me:
"that
'snotwhati
m say
ingwhyy
oubei
ng
unr
easonabl
e"hechuckl
ed
Keenan;"knowwhatunr easonabl
eitgoi
ngto
sleepwithoutmywi feinbedi twaki
ngupinbed
withoutherithav
ingt otuckinmyki dsi
nbedal
l
thetimebecauset heirmotheristoobusyi
nthe
study"
Me:
"that
'snotf
airi
m agoodmot
herkeenan"
Keenan;"
ally
oudoi
sworkDomini
c!!You
dedi
cateyourti
met
oajobyoudon'
tevenneed"
Me: "
ist
hiswhatthi
sisabouty
ouact
ingout
becauseIgotajob"
Keenan: "
ofcosnotIlov ethatyougotajobthat
youwant edwhati m notaf anofishowthi
sjob
hast ur
nedy ouDomi nicyou'vebecamethi
s
personIdon'trecognizeallyoudoisworkI
don'tevengettospendt i
mewi thyou"
Me:"
im busyKeenan!Youwantmet
oqui
tmy
j
ob"
Keenan:
"of
cosnot
"
Me:
"thanwhat
'swr
ong"
Keenan:"
spendt
imewi
thmespendt
imewi
th
thegi
rl
s!!
"
Me:
"imt
ir
edkeenanIcomehomet
ir
ed!
"
Keenan;
"whatdoyouwantmet odoDomini
cI
gotyouanannyamaidfuckevenachef
thi
nki
ngyouwill
havemoreti
me"
Me:
"whatdoy
ouwantf
rom meKeenan"
Keenan: "
howaboutcookingformel et
ti
ngme
got obedwi t
hy oui
nmyar msfuckingmeona
regularbaseorbettery
etbeastayathome
rai
seourchi l
drenwhoknowsImi ghtendup
havinganotherchil
d"
Me:"anysol
uti
onthatdoesn'
ti
nvol
vemegoi
ng
backtothe80s"
Keenan:"
youknowwhatfuckyouDomi
nic"he
walkedoutandIf
oll
owedhim
Me:"
isthatwhaty
ouKeenanyouwantsex
comeletshav
esex"It
ookoffmypjt
op
Keenan:"
youthinkaftermonthsofnotbei
ng
i
nti
mat ewithyouim goingtohav
esexwi t
hyou
l
ikethi
s"Itookofmypj shor
ts
Me:"comeont hat'
swhatyouwantr
ightmy
pussytakei
t"hejustshookhi
shead
Keenan:
"I'
drat
hergofuckaprosti
tut
e"he
openedthedoorandwalkedout
Me: "
keenancomeback!!
"HeclosedIqui
ckl
y
putonmypj srandownst
air
sbythetimeIgot
tothemaindoorhewasdr i
vi
ngout
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12,
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:Inser
t48
.
Ipacedupndowni nthel
oungeIwasso
fur
stratatedIsatonthecouchafterwhatf
elt
l
ikeanhourt herewasst i
l
lnothi
ngIwenttothe
kit
chent ooktheinhousephoneIdailed
Ronny '
slinehepickedupimmediatel
y
Ronny
:"hel
l
o"
Me:
"Ineedt
ofi
ndKeenan"Ihear
dshuf
fl
ing
Ronny:
"whaty
oumeany ouneedtof
indhi
m we
j
ustcamebackli
ke2hoursago"
Me:
"hel
efthej
ustdr
oveouti
naspeed"
Ronny:
"shi
tim comi
ngup"Idroppedt
hecal
lhe
wasinthehousewit
hin2minutes
Ronny
:"what
'sgoi
ngon"
Me:
"wegoti
ntoanar
gumenthej
ustt
ookof
f"
Ronny:"
ishecr
azy
!Fuck"hewaspani
cking
morethanIwashetookouthi
sphoneand
di
aledanumberwhoeverhewasdi
ali
ngpicked
upfast
Ronny:"IneedgpsonKeenan". .
..
.."
Damit
JasonIwasasl eephowt hefuckwasI
supposedhei sgoingtorunoffat3:00j
ustget
those".
...
."I
'
llf
indhim Iknow"hedroppedthe
call
Me:
"what
'sgoi
ngonRonny
"
Ronny:"
can'
thi
sgoi
ngt
otel
lyouifhewant
ed
youtoknowhewoul
dhavet
oldyou"
Me:"don'
tfuckwi
thmeRonnyt
ell
mewhat
'
s
goi
ngonnow"
Ronny
;"Ni
kkypleaseIdon'
twanalosemyj
ob"
somanythoughtwererunni
ngthr
oughmymind
l
ikei
shefuckncheati
ngonme
Me: "
ishecheati
ngonmet hat'
swherehewas
allal
ongwit
hher "hel
ookeddown" damit
!!
Ronnyyouwor kformeasmuchasy ouwork
forhi
m soyoubet t
erstar
ttalki
ngbef
oreyou
pissmeoffmor ethanIal
readyam"
Ronny:"Idon'
tknowabouthim cheat
ingi
m
mor eofyourgui
dthanhi
snowaskmeabout
thatnqubekoguywhoisalloveryouandI'
l
ltel
l
you"
Me:
"shutup"at
extcamei
nthr
oughhi
sphone
Ronny:
"hei
satDr
ako'
sapar
tmenti
m goi
ng
ther
e"
Me:"
youdon'
thav
etohewi
l
lcomebackwhen
hewant
sto"
Ronny
;"okher
e'st
het
hingy
ouguy
sar
ebei
ng
tai
l
ed"
Me:
"excuseme"
Ronny:"someoneisf ol
lowingyoukeenanand
thegi
rl
swest i
ll
investi
gati
ngthat'
swhyIhave
togothereKeenanknowst hathecan'
tgo
anywherewi t
houtsecurit
yIdon'tknowwhathe
wasthinking"
Me:"some. .
..Someonei sfoll
owingusandy ou
nyourteam don'tknowwhoi ti
s"helooked
away"keenanandIwer ekidnappedhewas
beat
enupal mostki l
l
edandsomeonei saft
erus
youdon'tknowwhoi ti
s!"
Ronny
:"I
'
llgof
indhi
m"
Me:
"whydi
dn'
tany
onet
ell
meaboutt
his"
Ronny
:"keenansai
dnott
o"
Me:"youandkeenanbet
tersor
tthi
sshi
tIwi
l
l
nothavemychil
dren'
sli
fei
ndanger"
Ronny
:"y
esof
cos.
..
..
.I'
l
lgot
ohi
m now"hel
eft
l
ockingthedooraf
terhi
msel
fIwentupst
air
s
tookmyphonemadeacal l
hepickedupaft
er
somet i
me
Jay
;"Si
no"hesoundedsosl
eepy
Me:
"isi
tyou"
Jay
:"hhu"
Me: "i
sityouareyoufol
lowi
ngmyf amil
ydamit
JuniorIthoughtwetal
kedaboutt
his,mygi
rl
s
Junior!
!"Ihear
dsomeshuf f
li
ngheclear
edhi
s
thr
oat
Jay:"
calm downandtellmewhat
'sgoi
ngon
becauseim cl
uel
ess"Iexhal
edl
oudl
y
Me:"
someoneisf
oll
owi
ngusJuni
ori
sity
ou
andy
ourgang"
Jay
:"of
cosnotIwoul
dnev
erdoany
thi
ngt
o
har
my ourf
amil
y"
Me:
"thanwhoi
sit
"
Jay
:"IdontknowbutIwi
l
lfi
ndoutIpr
omi
se
y
ounoonewi
l
lhur
tyouory
ourki
dsI
'
llsor
tit
"
Me:
"ok"
Jay
:"nowsl
eepgeeseIgotacl
assi
nthe
morni
ng"
Me:"ok"Idroppedthecalli
wenttocheckon
thegi
rlstheyweresleepi
ngpeacef
ull
y.Iwent
backtoourbedroom Iopenedthetvtuni
ngto
someTom &Jer r
y.
Iwokeupwhenmyal armr angIwasi nsomuch
paini twast hefol
lowingdayIwast uckedinon
mysi debutKeenan'ssi dewasntsl eptinIgot
offt hebedpul l
eddownt hecov er
sbecauseI
want edtomaket hebedt her ewasbl oodmor e
bloodt hanneccessar yItookof ft
hesheet
l
ucki lytherewasnot hingont hespongeIwent
tot hebat hr
oom soakedi tinhotwat er
.Itooka
hotbat hgotoutputonat amponandmypj sI
changedt hebeddingt ooksomepi llscall
ed
Mi ke
Mi
ke;
"thi
sbet
terbegoodwher
ear
eyou
Domi
nic"
Me:
"im si
ckMi
ke"
Mi
ke:
"youdon'
tsoundsi
ck"
Me:
"howam Isupposedt
osound"
Mi
ke:
"li
key
oudy
ing"
Me;
"Iam dy
ingi
minpai
n"
Mi
ke:
"soy
ounotcomi
ngi
n"
Me:
"yes"
Mi
ke:
"nopay
"
Me;
" f
inenopay
"hedr
oppedt
hecal
lIj
ustwent
t
osleep.
IwokeupwhenIfel
tcol
dhandst ouchmyface
Iopenedmyeyesi
twasTaylorandLuvuy
oon
mybedplay
ingwit
hmyf ace
Me:
"heygi
rl
s"
Vuvu:
"mommy "Tay
lorj
ustki
ssedmyl
i
psI
pul
l
edt hem t
othecover
Me:
"mommyi
ssi
ck"
Vuvu;"
sor
rymommy
"shet
ouchedmyf
orehead
sodidTay
lor
Tayl
or:"
angeli
sburni
ng"Il
aughedt
hat
'
swhatI
usual
lydotoheri
fshe'
ssick
Vuv
u;"
tel
ldaddyt
akey
out
othedoct
or"
Me:
"wher
e'sdaddy
"
Vuv
u:"wor
k"Igotoffthebedwenttochange
mytampontookanotherpi
llwentbackt
obed
Me:"comesnuggl ecl
osetomommy "they
camecloserIopenedcartoonsf
orthem we
satundert
hecov erst
alki
ngandwatching
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oonsunti
ltheyfel
lasl
eepIalsoslept.
IwokeupagainwhenIfel
thandswraparound
mybodyhisscentj
ustt
ookov erev
ery
thi
ngin
ther
oom
Me:
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edcl
oser
Keenan;
"Ihear
dyousi
ck"
Me:
"yeah"
Keenan:
"what
'swr
ongy
ouev
enmi
ssedwor
k"
Me:"badcaseofper
iodpai
ns"heki
ssedmy
head
Keenan:
"tooky
ournur
ofen"
Me:
"yes"
Keenan:
"youat
e"
Me:
"no"
Keenan:"y
ouhavet
oeatwhatdoy
ouwantme
togetforyou"
Me:
"imf
inebaby
"
Keenan:
"tel
lmewhatt
ogety
ou"
Me: "
okIdl
ikesoupchi
ckensoupwi
thbr
ead
st
icksandchocolat
ecake"
Keenan:
"I'
l
lgobuyt
hose"
Me:
"don'
tl
eav
eme"hechuckl
ed
Keenan:
"justgoi
ngt
otheshopsI
'
llbeback"
Me:
"pl
easej
usthol
dme"
?
Keenan:
"okl
etgoaskBr
iant
ogobuy
"
Me:
"cal
lhi
m don'
tgo"hetookhisphonet
alked
t
oBri
anthentur
nedmet ofacehim
Keenan:"i
m sor
ry"hepushedmyhairfrom my
face"Iwasanassearl
ieri
nthemorning"
Me:"i
m al
sosorr
yI'
l
lbebet
terIpr
omi
se"he
cuppedmyface
Keenan:"I
'
v emissedyouthandol
wam"he
crashedhisli
psonmi newekissedforsucha
l
ongt imeIgotsohornyithadbeenmont hs
si
nceweshar edsomet hi
ngsopassi onateIput
myhandunderhi ssweatpantsgrabbinghis
di
ckhegr oaneditwassohar dhepul ledand
gavemeababyki ss
Keenan:
"youony
ourper
iods"
Me:
"yeah"
Keenan:
"wecan'
t"
Me:
"Iknow"
Keenan:
"Imi
ssy
ou"
Me:
"Il
ovey
ouMrSmi
thy
oumyl
i
fe"
Keenan:"
Ilovey
oumoreMrsme"Iputmyf
ace
onhischesthehel
dmeti
ghter
.
Nkany
iso
Il
ookedatXoloshewasbackf r
om getti
ng
cl
eanedwewer esti
llwai
ti
ngf orourdaught
er
nobodyhadsaidanyt
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nursecameinwithher
Nur
se:"
ther
e'st
henewmemberoft
heDl
ami
ni
f
amil
y"shegaveXol
othebaby
Me:
"shoul
dn'
tshebei
nacubeorsomet
hing"
Nurse:
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sfull
ydev elopedbornaweek
ear
lybutper
fect
lyhealt
hy"IlookedatXoloshr
l
ookedawaywi t
htearsfal
lingfrom herey
es
Me:
"thanky
ou"
Nurse:
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l
lcomecheckonthemommyn
daught
erl
ater
"shewal
kedout
Xol
o:"
im sor
ry"
Me: "
whydidyoul
ie"Xol
oandIwerenoteven
onspeaki
ngterms9mont hsagoshekepton
cr
ying
Xol
o:"
Ilov
eyousoomuchNkanyi
soIdidn'
t
wantt
olosey
ouIdon'
twantt
oloseyou"
Me:"
youli
edtomeall
thist
imey
ouknewshe
wasnotminebuty
ouli
ed"
Xolo:"
IloveyouIknewyouwoul
dn'
tgi
vemea
chanceifItol
dyouthet
ruth"
Me:
"Il
oveyouXol
oy oushoul
dhav
etol
dme
t
hetr
uthf
rom t
hestart
"
Xolo:
"im sor
rypl
easedon'
tl
eavemedon'
tleav
e
us"Iwalkedtoherwi
pedhert
earsgav
ehera
babykiss
Me:"
im notl
eavi
ngSt handi
lei
sasmuchas
mi
neasshe'syours"shelookedatmebeami
ng
Xol
o:"
sthandi
l
e?Il
ovei
tIl
ovey
ou"
Me:"
it'
sperf
ectThandolwet
huandSthandil
e
t
hei
rbothourchil
dren"shenoddedr
epeatedl
y
wi
thtearsr
unningdownherface
Xol
o:"
Ilov
eitIl
ovey
ouSt
handi
l
eXol
i
swa
Dl
amini
"
Me;
"yes"
Xol
o:"
thanky
ouandi
m sor
ryf
orl
yi
ng"
Me:"y
oushoul
dn'
thav
eli
edpl
easedon'
tmake
ahabi
tofi
t"
Xol
o:"
Iwon'
tIpr
omi
se"
Me: "ok"Ikissedherf orehead,Istay
edwi t
h
them untilshefellasleepIwenthomeIwas
exhaustedIhadbeeni nthehospitalsi
ncelast
nightitwasnowdur ingt hedayIgothomet ook
abat hwentt ot
heguestbedr oom Ij
ustlooked
atitbeforeleavingIwentt ot hebabystore
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hernecessar ynewbor n
thingswitht hehelpoft hesalesladyther
eI
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whenIwassat i
sfiedIleftwentpastr estaur ant
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al weat e
togetherwhilebondi ngwi t
hourdaught erthe
doctorsaidtheircanl eavethefoll
owi ngdayI
wentbackt ot heapar tmentatnightImov edt he
cottoourbedr oom Iwaswat chingt vwhena
knockcamet hroughIwentt oopenandi twas
SethuIimmedi atelyfel
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kethrowingupmy
hateanddi sgustf orherwasget ti
ngst r
onger
everydayitli
ket hemor eIlovedXol ot hemor eI
hatedSethu
Me:
"whatdoy
ouwant
"
Sethu:
"itst
il
lmyapart
mentNkany
iso"she
pushedmeasi deandgoti
n
Me:"
Sethugett
hef
uckoutofher
ebef
oreI
messyouup"
Sethu:"
yougoi
ngtodoshittomeim soti
redof
youNkanyisoi
vel
eavedthepast5monthsin
feari
tendsnowI'
mtiredofpeopl
ewalki
ngall
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aughedI
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lyl
etoutaloudlaughshelookedaround
andsawt hebabyblanketthatwasonthe
couchandsomecl othesthatwerest
il
linthe
pl
asticonthefl
oor
Set
hu:
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ebi
rt
hal
ready
"
Me:
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if
ulbabygi
rlSt
handi
l
eXol
i
swa"
Sethu:
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vebeendoi
ngthebot
h
ofusforsuchal
ongIwasafoolal
lal
ong"
Me:
"yourwor
dsnowwhatdoy
ouwant
"
Sethu:"
nowhowgr eathatecanbei fit
tr
ansformeddir
ect
lyfrom l
ov eIl
ovedy ouso
muchIlivedandbr
eathedf oryousoy oucan
j
ustimaginehowgreatmyhat ef
ory ouis"
Me:
"andt
hepoi
ntoft
hisi
swhat
"
Sethu:"
youwil
lgetwhat
'scomi
ngt
oyou
soonerorl
ater
"
Me:
"ist
hatal
l
"
Set
hu:
"yes"
Me:
"goodnowl
eav
e"
Sethu:
"youal
wayswer eweak"Idon'
tknow
whereitcamefr
om butIsl
appedherwiththe
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samet i
meshespatitonmyf aceaft
erget
ting
up
Set
hu:
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eyou"Ipi
ckedherupchoki
ngher
Me: "
youeverdi
srespectmel i
ket
hatagainIwi
l
l
kil
lSi
phosaboIwillfucknki
l
lyouungrat
eful
bit
ch"Il
etgosgest umbledbackherhandwent
toherbackshepulledoutagunIlaughed
Me: "
sowhaty
ougoi ngtoshootmenowbit
ch"
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tupwithherfi
ngeronthet
ri
ggert
ears
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ngdownhercheeks
Sethu:
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edforyouwhenIl oved
younowt hatIhateyouIdrat
hery oudiethan
me"herey esshowednoemot ionsjustasher
tonewascol dasice
Me:"Siphosam l
etstal
kaboutt
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s
i
smeNkazi '
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rai
ght
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owmot i
onasabull
et
cameoutoft heguncomingstr
aightt
omyface
thesoundr i
ngi
nginmyear s
.
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.
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placewet alkedaboutt hewholemar r
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ng
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s
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hi
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h
adar kmar oonl i
psti
ckIlookedhot .Wepar ked
outsidethegar agehegotoutcamet oopenmy
doorwewal kedinthehousehandi nhandt hey
wereal l
int heloungewat chingtv
Patri
ck: "
goodev eningf amily
"nobodysai d
anythi
ng" Isai
dgoodev eni
ng"hi svoicewebt
l
ouderf il
ledwit
haut hor i
tytheirgreetedbackwe
wentt ositonthecoucht hatwasempt yI
crossedmyl egscausi ngmyski r
ttogoupI
l
ookedatPj hewasl ookingatt hesamel ustn
fi
reIhadseeni nhi sey esthatni ghtwasstil
l
therejustmorethist ime
Patr
ick:
" i
m her
etot
alkt
oyourmot
herkids
pl
easeexcuseus"Ki
mmyandLeroystoodup
butPjdidnt
Pj
:"i
m st
ayi
ngwi
thmymot
her
"
Pat
rick:"
alway
swer eamommy'
sboyi
m
sur
prisedyoudidn'
ttur
ngay
"
Me:
"Pat
ri
ck!
"
Pj
:"pi
tyi
m st
rai
ght
"
Ti
wa:
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ouwantPat
ri
ck"
Pat
ri
ck:
"iaskedNombusot
omar
ryme"
Tiwa:
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eredhermout
hwi
thher
hand
Pj
:"sowhaty
oul
eavi
ngmom f
oraki
dshe'
s
pr
obabl
yKimmy'
sage"
Pat
ri
ck:
"shesai
dno"
Ti
wa:
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dyousayno"shewasl
ooki
ngat
me
Me:"asmuchasIlovePat
ri
ckandwantt
o
marryhi
m Iwil
lnotagr
eet
omarryhi
m whil
ehi
s
st
il
lmarri
edtoyou"
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wa:
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ouwanthi
mtodi
vor
cey
ousi
ck
t
wist
edchi
l
d"
Me:
"nonono!That
'snotwhatIwant
"
Ti
wa:
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eyouf
ucki
ngamar
ri
edman"
Me:
"Il
ovehi
m"
Tiwa:"
mxm"shelookedattheothersi
dewi
th
herhandsf
loodedoverherchest
Patri
ck: "
shesuggest edwegoseeamar ri
age
counselorTiwahonest lyIseenopoi ntinitI
l
ov eyouTi wawe' v
ebeent ogethercloset o30
yearsbutI '
m noti nlovewi thyouany mor ey ou
mor eli
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nk
thi
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spendwhat sleftofmyl i
fewi t
hherbei nghappy
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entl
yi nPj'
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ll
stil
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i
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lltakeherasa2ndwi f
e"Ichokedandst art
ed
coughi ngnonstophewasbr ushingmybackPj
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Me:
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ou"
Pj
:"sur
e"
Patr
ick:
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vesai
dal
lIwant
edt
osaysowhatdo
yousayTiwa"
Tiwa:"youcant akePjandKi mmytomor r
owt o
gov i
ewt hatpenthouseifthei
rfi
newi t
hitim ok
withI'
ll
mov eoutofyourhousebyt omorrow
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ti
redofy ouwheny ourviginast
art
spoppi ngout
chil
drenandi tnotsoti
ghtany moreorwhen
thatsmal l
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ledwith
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enor
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bodyany more
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him andhi schil
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on
ofy ouwi l
lcomear oundt hesamet hingisgoing
tohappent oyouIpromi sey out haty ouwillbe
forcedt omov eoutofy ourhol i
dayhome
becauset henewwomani nhislifeismov i
ngin
yougoi ngtobet hemi ddlewi f
ebecausehewi l
l
takea3r dwi f
emar kmywor ditwi l
l happen"
shest oodupandwentupst airsfuckt he
womanwasf atshewasl ike4t i
mesmysi ze
Pj:
"wellgoodnightf
atherandNombusoguess
I
'l
lseey ouinthemorningtoviewthat
penthouse"healsowentupstair
sIletoutasi
gh
Patr
ickandIleftgoi
ngbackt omyapar t
ment
Me:"
whatwast hatPat
ri
ck2ndwi
feandmov
ing
t
othathouse"
Pat
ri
ck:"
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ovedt
hehouseNombuso
nowity
oursyoushoul
dtel
lMavi
stost
art
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ngupourthingsintheapar
tmentasfor
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ey oudidn'
twantmetodivor
ceher
sothatwasthebestIcouldcomeupwith"
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ick:"y
hot
hisi
stoomuchIneedadr
ink"he
chuckled
Pat
ri
ck:
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ewi
nei
ntheapar
tment
"
Me:
"yeah"
Patr
ick:
" Il
oveyouNombusoandstayaway
fr
om mysonbecauseIwi l
lbur
ryy
oubot hi
f
somethinghappens"
Me:
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Patr
ick:
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dIknowyousawt
he
wayhewasl ookingatyou"Igi
ggl
ed
uncormfor
tabl
y
Me: "don'
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l
ymyl oveIlov
ey ouonlyyouivr
neverlovedanothermanbutyouI dnevercheat
ony ouletal
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hyourson"Ikissedhis
cheek
Pat
ri
ck:
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'shopesocozIr
eal
l
ylov
eyouand
ki
lli
ngyouisnotsomethingIwantt
odo"he
stoppedattherobothehel
dmychingavemea
babykiss"Il
oveyoumyqueen"
Me:
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ovey
oumyki
ng"heki
ssedmyf
orehead
.
I
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tamponbutIwasst i
llf
eelingsomedi scomf ort
Keenanhadl eftforwor kbyt hetimeIgotupI
wenttobathgotoutl oti
onedputonat ampon
j
ustincaseIgotdr essedi ndarkinkboy fri
end
j
eanwi thalowcutwhi tev estsandawhi te
boyfri
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eallstartsItied
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gir
lsinthekitchenwhi l
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makingbreakf ast
Me:
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ning"t
heygr
eet
edback
Tay
lor
:"mommy
"
Me:
"whatIsai
daboutt
alki
ngwi
thf
oodi
nyour
mout
h"
Tay
lor
:"sorr
y"shespatoutsomeofherf
ood
whi
let
alkingLuvuy
olaughed
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lorst
uckhert
ongueout
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l
owingthefood
Me:"Tayl
or!
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ookedatmegi
ggl
i
ngwi
thher
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u:"
yunky
"
Me:"y
esyunkyTay
lor
"shejustl
aughed"
y'
al
l
l
eftmeal
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erday"
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u:"
daddysai
dyousi
ckandt
ir
edy
our
est
"
Me:
"daddyi
ssmar
tbutImi
ssmygi
rl
s"
Tay
lor
:"mi
ssy
oumommy
"
Vuv
u:"
Imi
ssy
ouandLuh"
Me:
"Luhmi
ssesy
ouaswel
l
"
Vuv
u:"
daddysai
dwe.
..We.,,
we"shel
ookedat
mefur
str
atat
ed"
mommy !
!"
Me:"comeonpr
incessdon'
tgetangr
ywhatdi
d
daddysay
"
Vuvu:"wetalkt
oLuhont hatt
hingymommy..
,
,
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hing.
.,ondaddy
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kwi
th
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ojoon"
Me:
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pev
uvu"shegi
ggl
ed
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es"Isatdownont
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erand
st
artedeat
ing
Me:
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rl
swanav
isi
tnenaNi
col
e"
Them:
"yes!
!"
Me:
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eat
"
Tay
lor
:"swi
m mommy
"
Me:
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zzy
"shel
ookedatI
zzy
I
zzy
:"af
terr
eadi
ngt
ime"
Tay
lor:"
yeah!
!"Shecl
appedherhandsexci
tedl
y
wejustl
aughed
Me:
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e'sSet
hu"
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zzy
:"she'
sona48hourshi
ftst
art
edl
astni
ght
"
Me:"ok"Ifi
nishedeat
ingki
ssedt
hegi
rl
s"l
ove
youbabies"
Them; "l
oveyoumommy "It ookmybagl eftI
wentt omygy naeneededt ofigurethisperi
od
shitoutIcan'
tbleedl i
ket hatt hansuddenl y
stopIdidn'
thav eanappoi ntmentl uckil
ythere
wasanopensl othet ookmei n(i
si tmeorar e
mostgy naesmal e?mydocKusasai samal e
beforehimitwasmyst epdadMi keandmyex
Tysoni sal
soagy nae).
.
Doc:
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sSmi
th"
Me:
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eyou"hechuckl
ed
Doc:
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'smyl
i
ne"
Me:
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l
"
Doc:"sotowhatdoIowethepleasur
ecozour
nextappoi
ntmenti
snextmonth"
Me:"
Iwokeupbl
eedi
ngyester
dayitwasheavy
t
houghti
twasmyper
iodsbecauseIhadperi
od
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nsbutmyperi
odsst
opIwokeupt
odaywi
th
acl
eantampon"
Doc:
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astmont
h"It
houghtabouti
t
Me:
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Doc:
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dn'
tgett
hem"
Me:
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vebeensostressedbeentr
yingtofind
myfeetatworkIdi
dn'tr
eali
zebutIdi
dn'tget
t
hem fort
helast2mont hs"
Doc:
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oconf
ir
m wi
that
est
"
Me:
"uhm y
eahsur
e"
Doc:
"ul
tr
asound?
"
Me: "
yeah"Ihadsomanymi xedemotionstal
k
aboutbadt i
mi ngKeenanandIneedtowor kon
oursel
veswi t
houtinvol
vinganot
herchil
dIcan
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tyl
eavewhenIjustfi
nall
y
foundmypl aceatwor konethi
ngIknowf or
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lwantmet ost
ayathomeI
changedandwentt oli
eonthebed
Doc:
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ardoy
out
hinky
ouar
e"
Me:"over3mont
hs"helaughed"
shutupI
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ve
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k"Igi
ggled
Doc:
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aughed
Me:"
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unny"hepour
edt
hecol
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st
art
edmovi
ng
Doc:"
oht her
ewegol it
tl
ebabySmithi
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ive
andki
cking"hepressedonthesoundt
heheart
beatf
il
ledtheroom
Me:
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tst
rong"
Doc:
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'sgood"
Me:
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ehowIf
eel
aboutt
his"
Doc:"Keenanwi
ll
behappyl
et'
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t
cryandpassoutthi
sti
mear
ound"welaughed
"y
epy ou3monthsand2weeks"
Me:
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nedweightIhav
eno
mor
ningsicknessorcrav
ings"
Doc:
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obabl
yhav
en'
tpi
ckeduponi
t
youdidsayyouwerestr
essedsol
esswor
k
moresexandhealthyf
oodgobacktot
hegym
butkeepitst
eady
"
Me:"
yeahyeah"hewipedoft
hegel
Igotof
fthe
bedwentt
ogetdressed
Doc:"
sall
ywi l
lcal
lyouwit
hy ournext
appoi
ntmenttheresapict
ureforDaddyKeenan
andyourprescri
pti
onli
stforvi
tamins"
Me:
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ouDocandf
orsqueezi
ngmei
n"
Doc:
"any
thi
ngf
ormyf
avor
it
e"
Me:
"im sur
eyousayt
hatt
oal
lyourpat
ience"
wel
aughed
Doc:"
may bemaybenot"Ir
oll
edmyeyesand
l
eftst
art
edatthepharmacyIcal
l
edTeedoh
Teedoh:
"bbe"
Me:
"heybooy
oubusy
"
Teedoh;
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eal
l
y"
Me:
"wanacat
chbr
unch"
Teedoh:
"sur
emeety
ouatoceanbasket
"
Me:
"cool
lov
eyou"
Teedoh:"l
oveyou"Igoti nthecarandleftIgot
ther
efir
stIstartedwindowshoppi ngforbaby
clot
hesIfoundt hecutestpinknewbor n
j
umpsuitatkiddoIboughti tactual
lyIendedup
buyi
ngmor ethanIshoul dhav eTeedohcall
ed
sayi
nghiswai t
ingIwenti nfoundhim
i
mmedi atel
yhegotupgav emeahug
Teedoh:
"shoppi
ngf
ort
hegi
rl
s"Iputdownmy
pl
asti
csnsatdown
Me:
"ki
ndahowar
eyou"
Teedoh;
"im goodbbeal
readygoty
ouy
our
wine"
Me:
"shoul
dhav
emadei
tanor
angej
uice"
Teedoh:
"comeoni
tnotl
i
key
ougoi
ngbackt
o
work"
Me:"
speaki
ngofworkhow'
syournewj
ob"he
wasworkatmul
tichoi
ce
Teedoh:"
bor
ingIt
hinkIpi
ckedawr
ongcar
eer
"
Igi
ggled
Me:"shamey oucoul
dal
way sgobackt
ovar
sit
y
anddoy ourhonor
sincl
i
nical"
Teedoh:"
andhavetodealwit
hthatshi
tagai
n
nopemissmewiththatti
p"ourdri
nkscameI
changedmywineforj
uice"whatt
hefuckis
wrongwithy
ouhoe"weor der
edfood
Me:
"im pr
egnant
"hescr
eamed"
hushTeedoh"
Teedoh:"
congr
atsbbe!OhmyGodt
hisi
s
amazing"
Me:
"ihav
emi
xedf
eel
i
ngsaboutt
his"
Teedoh:
"whyyoumarri
edwait..
.Ohmysweet
JesusSi
noyoudidnotcheatonthatman!
"
Me;"
hey!Thef
uckTeedohofcosIdi
dn'
ti
this"
het
wist
edhismouthplay
ingwit
hhisnai
ls
Teedoh:"
youandIbot
hknowwhaty
oul
i
ke
whenitcomestobei
ngfai
thf
ul"
Me;
"shutupIwoul
dn'
tcheatonmyhusband"
Teedoh:
"sowhat
'
sthemi
xedf
eel
i
ngsabout
"
Me:"Ij
ustfoundmyf eetatwor ki
m star
ti
ngto
enj
oyababywi l
lj
ustslowmedownKeenani s
al
readysayi
ngim notagoodmot herthi
swil
l
j
ustmakethingsworseatl eastLuvuy
oand
Tayl
oraregrown"
Teedoh:"yousomeone'swi feamot herof2
now3y ouhav etolearntoprior
it
iesbbework
normalwor khoursdon'tbr
ingwor kathomeif
youcan'tbalancethi
ngsstayathomegoback
toschooldoy ourmasterswhent hekidsar
e
grownyoucangobackt owork"
Me:
"Il
ovemyj
ob"
Teedoh:
"youdon'
tl
ovey
ourf
ami
l
y"
Me:
"of
cosIdodon'
tbecr
azy
"
Teedoh:
"whatcomesf
ir
st"
Me:
"myf
ami
l
yal
way
s"
Teedoh:
"bet
teractl
i
kei
t"
Me:
"mxm"hel
aughed
Teedoh:"y
ouknowi mright"weateov erstupi
d
convothendecidedtotakemydoct or'
snot et
o
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.Wegott o
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veEnter
pr i
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ttomy
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sof f
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rst
Mi
ke:
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n"wewenti
n
Me:
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kehi
"hecl
ear
edhi
sthr
oat
Mi
ke:
"thoughty
ousi
ckDomi
nic"
Me:"
im hi
ghonpaindr
ugsri
ghtnowIbr
ought
yout
henote"Igav
eitt
ohim her
eadi
t
Mike:
"youknowt
hisi
snopayr
ightt
hewhol
e
week"
Me:
"of
cos"
Mi
ke:
"wel
li
fthat
'sal
li
m busy
"
Me:"
seey
ounextweekMonday
"wel
eftt
aki
ng
al
if
tdown
Teedoh:
"hei
ssogay
"Il
aughed
Me:
"don'
tl
ie"
Teedoh:"Iswearnostrai
ghtmanlooksatme
l
ikethatunlesshi
sbicuri
ousbutnahMikei
s
gay"
Me:
"don'
tbel
i
evey
ou"
Teedoh:
"hashemadeamov
eony
ou"
Me:
"no"
Teedoh:
"exact
lyhi
sgay
"
Me:"y
eahyouri
ghtwhatst
raightmandoesn'
t
wantme"welaughed"
youstupid"
Teedoh:
"I'
l
lpr
ovei
ttoy
oui
l
lfuckhi
m"
Me:
"si
zwewi
l
lcuty
ourbal
l
s"hegi
ggl
ed
Teedoh:"
sizwegetsmeandI'l
lfuckMi
kehe
won'tf
uckmeSi zwewon'
tfeelshit
"
Me:
"ai
dswi
l
lki
l
lyou"
Teedoh:
"yout
hebi
ggestcar
ri
erofai
ds"
Me:
"bi
tch"hel
aughed
Teedoh:"pr
oudbi
tchbbe!
" Wewer
enowat
theparki
nglot
Me:
"letmegot
omyhusband"
Teedoh:"I
'
llseey
oul
aterbbegr
eetmyGod
daughter
s"
Me:"ok"wehuggedheki
ssedmyf
orehead
"
lov
ey ouboo"
Teedoh; "
loveyoutoo"wegoti nourcarswent
ourseparateway sIdrovetoKeenan'
sof f
iceI
wassoexci teddidn'
tevenwanttowai tunti
lhe
gothomeIgott othei
roffi
ceswentpass
recept
ionaftergreeti
ngIgotinhisoff
icemy
heartdropped
Me:"what '
sgoingonher e?
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ngona
couchwi thagirl
thatwaswearingaskirtthat
hadat highsl
itwithherl
egscrossedshewas
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gh,herbrown
l
onghai rletl
ose3but t
onsofherblouseleft
undoneshowingcl
eavageaKeenanjumpedoff
thecouchandcametomet heyweresitt
ing
closet
ogethert
heyl
egsrubbi
ngtogether
Keenan:
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wam"
Me:"
Iaskedwhati
sgoingon"hecamet
ome
t
ri
edholdi
ngmywaistImovedback
Me:"
yougoingtoanswermeKeenan"t
hegi
rl
st
oodupbroughtdownherski
rt
Keenan:
"of
cosI'
l
lanswery
out
handol
wam"she
cametowardsus
Her
:"hi
I'
m Samant
haKey
shi
sassi
stant
"
Me:
"andi
m hi
swi
fenowexcuseus"
Sam:"of
cos"shewal
kedoutcl
osi
ngt
hedoor
behi
ndher
Me;
"fi
reher
e"
Keenan:
"Ni
kkyshe'
sgoodatherj
ob"
Me:"Idontev
enwanat
hinkaboutwhatel
se
she'
sgoodat"
Keenan:
"Ni
kky
"
Me:"fi
rehergetamal
eassi
stantDamoni
m
ser
ious"
Keenan:
"done"
Me:
"ok"
Keenan:"nowcomeher
e"hebroughtmecloser
tohim gr
abbedmyasswekissedIpul
ledback
aft
erawhi l
e
Keenan:
"st
il
lbl
eedi
ng"
Me:
"im done"
Keenan:
"gr
eatl
etsgohome"
Me:
"im pr
egnant
"hel
etgoofme
Keenan;
"what
"Ismi
l
ed
Me:
"im pr
egnantkeenan"
Keenan:
"whosei
sit
"
Me:
"excuseme"
Keenan:
"whot
hef
uckmadey
oupr
egnant
"he
cl
enchedhi
sjaw
Me:"
areyououtofy
ourmi
ndhowcany
ouev
en
askmethat
"
Keenan:
"isi
tSt
eve'
s"
Me:
"fucky
oukeenan"
Keenan: "
whatdoy ouexpectmet osaywe
haven'thadsexi nover3mont hsnowy oucome
tomesay i
ngy oupregnantyouspendmor e
ti
mewi t
hStev ethenyoudowi thme"Itookout
thepictur
efrom mybagt hr
ewi tathi
m and
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hing
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ightsout
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.
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etwentstr
aightt
othewal li
tmissedme
byaninchmyheartwentcolditstopped
beati
ngforafewsecondsherhandswer e
shaki
ngandhertearswouldn'
tstopfall
i
ng
Me:"Si
phosethu"It
ri
edwal
ki
ngtowardsher
shepoi
ntedthegunatmeagainaf
terset
ti
ngit
Sethu:
"im goingt
oki
l
lyoul
ookatwhaty
ou'
ve
tur
nedmei nt
o"
Me:"Iam sosor
rypl
easef
orgi
veme"sheshook
herhead
Sethu:
"younotsor
ryyoul
yingt
omey
ousucha
l
iarwhywon'tyoust
oplyi
ng"
Me:"i
m sor
rySiphosam Il
oveyousomuch
l
ove"shefi
redagainhi
tt
ingthewal
l
Set
hu:"st
opl
yi
ngtome!!Youdon'tl
ovemeyou
neverl
ovemeyoudon'
tcheatonsomeoney
ou
l
ove"
Me:"t
hisismeloveyourNkany
isoNkazi
'
s
f
atherthefat
herofy
ourchil
dIlov
eyou"
Set
hu:
"st
opl
yi
ngt
ome!
!!
!"
Me:
"putt
hegundownl
ovel
etmehol
dyou"
Sethu:
"youkeephur
ti
ngmeIl
ovey
ouandy
ou
keephurti
ngmewhy"
Me:
"Im ast
upi
djer
klov
ebutIl
ovey
ou"
Set
hu:
"youl
oveme"
Me:
"mor
ethanany
thi
ngl
ove"
Set
hu:"but.
..
.Buty
ouwithXol
oandherki
ds
Nkazi
andIar enol
ongeri
mport
anti
nyourl
if
e"
Me:
"yout
woar
emygi
rl
sIl
ovey
'al
l
"
Set
hu:
"ok"
Me:
"putt
hegundownl
ove"sheshookherhead
Sethu:"
yougoi
ngtohitme"hel
lyeahamabeat
theleav
ingshi
toutofyou
Me:"
Iwon'tl
oveIdneverl
ayafingerony
ou
l
oveI
'vechangedmylovefory
ouchangedme"
Set
hu:
"Iwantmydaught
ert
akey
ourphonecal
l
yourmot hertellherI
'm comi
ngtogetmy
daughterwemov i
ngtodurbandadgotmeaj
ob
athishospital"great
!!
!
Me:"
oki
m goi
ngt
otakemyphoneandcal
lher
now"
Set
hu:"
doi
t"It
ookmyphoneoutofmypocket
andcal
l
edmom put
ti
ngi
tonloudspeaker
Mom:
"Nkany
iso"
Me:
"heymom howar
eyou"
Mom:
"im goodandy
ou"
Me: "i
m wel
lim withSet
huher
ewe'v
ebeen
t
alkingshe'
smov ingtodur
banandwoul
dli
ke
t
ot akeNkaziwithher"
Mom: "
whatwhyIlovehavingNkazihereI
'v
e
rai
sedsi
nceshewasbor nSethudon'tt
ake
awaymygranddaughteri
fyoufight
ingwit
h
Nkanyi
sodon'
tinv
olvethechil
d"
Me:
"mom pl
easel
etSethut
akehersheneeds
t
obewit
hhershewil
lcomegether"Il
ookedat
Set
hu
Set
hu:
"tomorr
ow"Ihear
dmom sni
ffIknewshe
wascr
yinganditbr
okemyhear
t
Mom:
"okI
'l
lpackhert
hingswi
l
lseey
ou
t
omor
rowSethu"
Set
hu:
"yebomah"Idr
oppedt
hecal
l
Me:
"happy
"
Sethu:"y
esandby ei m donewi thyou,younot
worthmehav ingament albr eakdown, Iwil
l
mov etodur banwi t
hmychi lddon' tevercallus
everundernoci rcumst anceswi l
lyoumake
contactwit
husot herwi seIwi ll
shooty ouIkept
onmi ssi
ngonpur posemynewboy fri
endis
tr
ainedinkilli
nghet aughtmehowt oshoott o
ki
ll
"Ichuckledshepoi nt edt hegunt omyf ace
"i
m notjokingstayt hef uckawayf rom my
daughterandINkany isoPr i
nceDl ami niyou
deadt ous"shekeptonbacki ngawayunt ilshe
wasoutt hedoort hemi nut esheoutofsi ghtI
goonmykneesandpr ayt hatwast hescar i
est
momentofmyl i
fe.Hermov ingtodurbanisthe
bestthingshecoul dhav edonefort
hebot hof
usandNkazi Idon'tknowbutIwasev en
start
ingtodoubtt hatshe'smineSethuhas
al
way sbeenl ose.Ijustl
ockedthedoorwentt o
sl
eept omorrowmor ningIhadtogopi ckupmy
gi
r l
sfrom t
hehospi t
al
.
Icoul
dhearabeepi
ngnoiseandsomeone' s
voi
ceIwasinsomuchpai nt
hev oi
cesounded
l
ikekeenanhewascryi
ngntalkingItr
iedto
i
gnorethepai
nsothatIcoul
dlistentohim
Keenan:"im sosor r
yt handolwam pleasewake
upIneedy outof i
ghtthegi r
lsneedy ouplease
wakeupIwontsur vi
vewi thoutyouIcan't
breat
hwi thouty oupleaseIf eel
paralyzedIfeel
solostpleaset handolwam"hel etoutamuf fl
ed
sobIwant edt owakeupsobadbuti couldn'
t
openmyey esormov emybodyIwant edtocry
outforhelpbutIcoul dn'tmov easinglepartof
mybodyanot
herv
oicet
alkedIl
i
stenedcar
eful
l
y
i
twasmom
Nic:
"youneedt
ogor
estoratl
eastf
reshenup
Keenan"
Keenan:"
im notl
eav
inghertheonlyt
imeI'
l
l
l
eavethi
splaceiswit
hherinmyar ms"t
he
voi
cesfadedasthei
rargueditwasli
ght
sout
agai
n.
WhenIwoket hi
sti
mear oundmyey esopenI
sawKeenanhewassi t
ti
ngonacouchatt hef ar
endcorneroft heroom l
ooki ngoutt hewi ndowI
wantedtot alkbutmymout hfeltsodr ymy
headfel
tlikeitbeenrunov erat ruckev ent he
worstmot herofhangoversdi dn'
tf eelt
hisbad
whenhel ookedatmeandsawt hatIwashe
j
umpedof fthecouchandt ookt wol ongst rides
Keenan: "
ohbabyim sosorr
yI '
m suchanidiot
pleaseforgiv
emepleaseforgiveyourhusbandI
fail
edtopr ot
ecty
ouinst
eadofbei nghappyI
pushedawayIam sosor r
yNi kky..
..OhGod"his
voicebr
okeattheendtearsswam t heywayout
ofhiseyeshewenttostandbyt hedoorstar
ted
screami
ng"nur
sedoctorshe'supsomebody "
hecamebackandhel dmyhand" oh
thandol
wam"adoctorenteredfoll
owedbya
nurse
Doc: "
mr sSmithhowniceofyoutojoinusi
m
gonagi v
ey outhi
stakesmallsi
ps"hesatmeup
nicestart
edhelpi
ngmedr inkwaterwit
hastraw
taki
ngsmal lsi
psittast
esheavenly"
ther
ethere
slowlynowwedon' twantyouchoking"I
fi
nishedtheglassheputitdown"sohowwe
feeli
ng"
Me:
"be.
.bet
..
bet
ter
"
Doc: "
wej ustgoi
ngt ocheckyouup"theydi
d
theirt
hingKeenanwasj ustlooki
ngatmewi t
h
pitynworr yal
loverhisfaceIwasgiv
ingacold
stareIhatedhimf orwhathesaidtome
Doc:
"okev
ery
thi
ngi
sfi
nehowy
ouf
eel
i
ng"
Me:
"myheadhur
tsandIcan'
tfeel
myar
ms"
Doc:"y
ouhurtt
hosepart
sreal
lybadlybuti
twas
not
hingsev
ereyouwil
lheali
nnot i
me"
Me:
"mybaby
"
Doc: "
thebabyi sfi
nebutwegoi ngtokeepa
closeey efornowaftert
hesekindofaccident
s
theplacentatendstodetachit
selfsowewi l
l
moni t
ory ouclosel
ybutthehearti
sstrongand
l
ouder "Inoddedwi t
htearsr
unningdownmy
cheekNi colecamein
Me:"mommy
"sher
ant
omeandhel
dmeIcr
ied
outi
npai
n
Ni
c:"
sor
rybaby"sheki
ssedmetouchi
ngmeal
l
ov
ermyface"ohbabyi
m sogl
ady ouok"
Me:
"im ok"
Ni
c:"
yourdaddyi
sonhi
sway
"
Me:
"ok"sheki
ssedmybadgedhead
Doc:"
I'
ll
comecheckony
oul
ater
"hewal
ked
outwi
ththenur
sefol
l
owi
nghi
m
Ni
c:"
im sogl
ady
ouokbabyy
ouscar
ed"
Me:
"howl
ongwasIout
"
Keenan:
"3day
s"
Me: "
mom howlongwasIout
"shelookedat
keenanwholookeddownt
hanbackatme
Nic:
"3daysandcongr
atul
ati
onsont
hebaby
Keenanhasbeenwanti
ngababy"
Me:
"itnothi
s"
Keenan:
"Ni
kky
!!Pl
easeIam sor
ryIwaswr
ong"
Ni
c:"
what
'
sgoi
ngon"
Me:"
Iwanthi
m outofherehi
sst
ressi
ngme
andt
hat
'snotgoodfort
hebabyIwanthi
m out
"
Nic:"
Dominicthat
'snothowthi
ngsaredone
whatevery
ouandkeenanar egoi
ngthroughy'
al
l
havetosorti
toutasamar ri
edcoupl
e"
Me: "
hesai
dmychi l
disnothi
sIwanthi
m out
ofhereandIwanthi
m outofmychi
ldr
en'
s
l
ives"
Keenan:
"Domi
nicpl
ease"
Me:"
GETOUT!
!!NOW!!OUTOUT!!
!"Iscreamed
i
gnor
ingt
het
hrobbi
ngpainIwasf
eeling
Ni
c:"
Keenamay
bey
oushoul
dgi
veherspace"
Keenan:
"im notdoi
ngt
hatshi
tim notgoi
ng
anywher
e"
Me:"
ity
ourfaultIcouldhavelostmychil
dit
woul
dhavebeenal lyourfaul
t"Iwascr
ying
Ni
col
ewastryingtocal m medown
Keenan: "
Iam sor
rythandolwam Iwasshocked
i
twasunexpect editwast helastthingonmy
mi ndIshoul
dhaver eact
edbet terIam sor
ry
pleaseforgi
vememywi fe"hekneel edbyt
he
bed" i
m onmykneesbeggi ngyouf or
forgi
veness"
Nic:
"hi
sonhiskneesont
hef l
oorweari
nga
R40000sui
tcomeonbaby "Il
ookedtheot
her
si
deawayfr
om them
Me:
"im hungr
yIwantchi
ckensoupandgar
li
c
br
ead"t
heyl
aughed
Nic:"I
'
llgobuyyoutwosortoutwhatevershi
t
y'
allgoi
ngthrough"shewalkedoutkeenan
walkedtowhereIwasf aci
ng
Keenan:"
canI
"Ishi
ft
edhegotont opofthe
bedwhenhewascomf ort
ablehecaref
ull
yheld
myheadputti
ngonhischesthewrappedhis
armsaroundmeputt
ingonehandonmy
stomach
Me:"y
ouhurtmeKeenanIwoul
dnev
ercheaton
younomatt
erwhat
"
Keenan;"i
m sor r
yIdon' tknowwhatIwas
thi
nkingj
ustt haty oudon' tl
ookli
kesomeone
whoi sover3mont hspr egnantyouhaven'
t
beenhavingmor ningsi cknessesyourstomach
i
sf l
atbesidesthechi ckensoupy ouhaveno
cravi
ngsandchi ckensouphasal waysbeen
yourgotof oodwheny ouunwel lsowheny ou
saidypupregnantIpani ckedandthoughtthe
worstIam sor r
yt handol wam pleasetel
lmey ou
f
orgi
vememywi
fe"
Me:
"If
orgi
vey
ou"heki
ssedmyhead
Keenan:"
can'
tbel
i
evewehav
ingababy
"I
gi
ggled
Me:
"yeswer
ear
einabout5t
o6mont
hs"
Keenan:"
thankyoumywi f
eIl
oveyou"hehel
d
mychinli
fti
ngmyf aceupweki
ssedIpull
ed
backaft
erawhil
e
Me:
"im sur
eIl
ookugl
yAF"hel
aughed
Keenan:
"justal
i
ttl
e"Ir
oll
edmyey
es
Me:"say
sy ouwi
tht
heSant
aclausebear
dwhen
l
astdidyoushav
eorev
enbath"
Keenan:
"thedayy
ougothi
tbyacar
"
Me:
"ohmyGodt
heot
hercarhowi
sthedr
iver
"
Keenan:"
hisgoodhewant
edtosuewhenhe
foundoutwhoy ouar
esowehadtopayhi
m of
f
toshuthi
m up"
Me:
"ohsonoonegothur
tbesi
desme"
Keenan:"y
es.Im sor
ryDomi
nict
hisi
sall
my
faul
tIshouldn'
thavemadey
ouangry"
Me:"i
tnoty
ourfaul
tIr
eact
edbadl
ymyhead
hur
tssobadly
"
Keenan:"
youluckyi
tjusty
ourheadthecari
s
fuckedupIdon'
tknowhowy oumanagedt o
comeoutwi t
hjustaminorheadi
njur
y"
Me:"t
hecarKeenanim sosorr
yithasn'
tev
en
beenayearandIcr
asheditim sosorr
y"
Keenan:"
youandthebabyareokthat
'
sallt
hat
matter
stheinsur
ancewil
lpayof
fthecarI
'
llget
youanewone"
Me:"
okIl
ovey
ou"hehel
dmychi
nIl
ookedat
hi
m
Keenan:
"youmakemehappyt
handol
waIlov
e
youandourki
ds"hegav
emeasoftpeckt
hen
l
ookedatmehehadagoofysmil
eon
Me:"y
ouexci
tedaboutt
henewbabyhey
"we
l
aughed
Keenan:"
youhavenoi
deawhataret
he
chancesofhav
ingaboy"Igi
ggl
ed
Me:
"ita5050chancebaby
"
Keenan:
"I'
dlov
emy3rdpr
incessbutachamp
wouldbeamazing"
Me:
"Ial
sohopei
taboy
"
Keenan:
"met
oo"wechuckl
ed
Me:"whenam Iget
ti
ngoutofher
eIneedt
orest
athomeforawhil
ebefor
eIgobacktowor
kon
Monday"hefr
ownedlooki
ngaway
Keenan:
"don'
tyouwanast
ayathome"
Me:"
im notresi
gningfr
om wor
kKeenany
ou
canf
orgetaboutthat"
Keenan:"
thi
nkabouti
tworkstr
essesyouout
youdon'
tneedthestr
essIdon'
twantanyt
hing
happeni
ngtoyouorthebaby"
Me:"not
hingisgoingtohappent
ousI
'
llwor
k
upunti
lItakrmaterni
tyl
eave"
Keenan:"
im nothappyaboutt
hisNi
kkynot
happyatall
"
Me:
"wedon'
tal
way
sgetwhatwewant
"
Keenan:"
itf
inebutonewordfr
om t
hedoct
or
youstay
ingathomeNi kkyt
her
ewil
lbenot
hing
todi
scuss"
Me:"f
inewi
thme"t
hedoorswi
ngedopen
daddywal
kedi
n
Dad:"l
etgoofmydaught
erkeenant hatbedi
t
sotoosmallf
or3peopl
e"wel aughedhe
walkedtous"
howareyouncinci"
Me:
"im okdaddyy
oudi
dn'
thav
etocomeher
e"
Dad:
"youwer
einacaraccidentnci
nciIhadt
o
comebesi
desim hel
pingSet
humov e"
Me;
"she'
smov
ing"
Dad:
"di
dntshet
ell
yousheandNkazi
are
comi
ngbackhome"
Me:
"noshedi
dn'
t"Il
ovemysi
sterI
dtakeheri
n
anyt
imeordayshe'
sbeenst
ay i
ngwit
hmeov
er
4monthsnowshe'sl
eavi
ngjustli
ket
hat
wit
houtt
ell
i
ngme
Dad:
"ohIdon'
tknowbutwegoi
ngbackhome
t
omorrow"
Me:
"whataboutwor
k"
Dad:
"shewi
l
ldoi
tatt
hehospi
tal
"
Me:
"guessshehasev
ery
thi
ngf
igur
edout
"
Dad:
"yeahsohowar
eyouandmygr
andchi
l
d"
Me:
"weokdaddy
"
Dad:
"youscar
edus"
Me:
"im sor
ry"
Dad:
"itoknci
nci
asl
ongasy
out
woar
eok"
Me:"wefine"ni
col
egoti
nwit
hmyfoodkeenan
gotofft
hebedandhelpedmesi
tup
Me:
"thanky
ou"hesmi
l
edandki
ssedmyhead
Ni
c:"
eatnowi
tst
il
lwar
m"
Me:
"thanksmom"
Dad:"
can'
tbel
i
evewegoi
ngt
obegr
andpar
ent
s
agai
n"
Nic:"
yeahgrandpa! "TheylaughedNicoleand
dadsharedamazi ngchemi stry
,Ist
artedeati
ng
whil
etalki
ngabi tlaterni
coleanddadl eft
keenanwasst andingbyt hewindowlookingout
Me: "
gohomebabyt
akeabat
heatt
hencome
back"
Keenan:
"I'
l
lgowheny
oul
eav
ing"
Me: "
younouset omewheny oul
ook
exhaustedgocheckont hegir
lsi
tbeen3days
si
ncet hei
rlastsawthebothofusgohome
babybr i
ngthem wit
hwheny oucomingback"
Keenan:
"I'
l
lbebacki
nanhourokay
"
Me;
"okay
"weki
ssed
Keenan:
"Il
ovey
ou"
Me:
"goandbr
ingmygi
rl
spl
ease"
Keenan:
"ok"heki
ssedagai
nthenl
eft
.
.
Nombuso
.
Ihadbeendebati
ngwi t
hmy selfi
fIshoul
dgo
seeSinoornotwewer ebotht ryi
ngtogetalong
fordad'
ssakebutitwasnoteasywhendad
call
edmesay i
ngshe'supIgotdr essedgotin
mycardrovetothehostipi
talwentbyashop
gotherfl
owersandagetwel lbal
loonIknocked
andwentinshewassi t
ti
ngonherbedwat chi
ng
tv
Me:"heysis"shet
ookof
ftheheadseti
m
sur
prisedshe'sal
onet
hathusbandofher
sis
al
way saroundher
Si
no:"heyt
hankyouforcomi
ngandt
hese"she
poi
ntedtowhatIhad
Me:
"Icamet
ocheckony
ou"
Si
no:
"wef
inej
ustwi
shIcoul
dgohome
al
ready
"
Me:
"we?
"Shegi
ggl
ed
Sino:
"yeahI'
m pr
egnant
"yhot
hewayt
hisgi
rl
l
ikespoppingchi
l
dren
Me:
"wow!
!Congr
ats"Ismi
l
edshesmi
l
edback
Si
no:
"thanks"awkwar
dsi
l
ence
Me:
"so.
..
..Whenar
eyouget
ti
ngdi
schar
ged"
Si
no:
"notsur
ebutIhopesoon"
Me:
"sur
ethegi
rl
sandkeenanwanty
ouhome"
Sino:"
yeah"awkwar dsil
ence"how'spatri
ck"
theyalldon'tapproveofmyr elat
ionshi
pwith
Patri
ckatleastPhiwenSet hunev ersai
dout
l
oudSi nov oicedherdisapprovalal
ongwithdad
Patri
ckis3y ear
sy oungerthandad
Me; "
hisokweokwemov edintoget
her
off
ici
all
yinhi
shouseatsandt
on"shefr
owned
butquickl
ycover
edi
twit
hat i
ghtsmil
e
Si
no:
"youhav
eusnowNombusowet
akecar
e
ofeachotherther
esal
somom ndady
oudon'
t
needthatLi
festyl
eany
more"
Me:
"itnotaboutmoneywel
oveeachot
her
"
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e'st
hatbeaut
if
ulsmi
l
eiv
ebeenmi
ssi
ng
heybaby"
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oubeenmi
ssi
ngy
ou"hesmi
l
ed
Pj:"
Ili
kebeingmissedbyy
outhoughi
m not
suchaf anofmissi
ngyoui
thurt
s"
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hatf
eel
i
ng"
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ouapl
anet
ickety
oucoul
d
comevisi
tme"
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youknowIcan'
tdot
hatIhav
eschool
and
yourfat
heri
sh.
."
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:"whenar
eyoul
eav
inghi
m"
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eav
inghi
m Pj
"
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:"okby
e"
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comeonbr
u"
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ngwe
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m
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li
nginlovewithmyfather'
s
womanbutdami tNombusot hi
sisitformey ou
can'thaveyourbreadbut
teredonbot hsi
des"
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ghtnowImissy ouandt
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t
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iedhi
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ucky
eah!
"
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ssy
ou"
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abthem f
orme"Igi
ggl
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l
aughed
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ly"someonet
alkedont
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son:
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iveri
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esi
r"
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urnedt
ome"
Ihav
etogo
babyIloveyou"
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ey outoo"heloggedoutsodidI.Iput
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Patr
ick:"
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erawhileIfel
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nginthebedi
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e
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ohim.
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weaveIhadanothertowelaroundmybody
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lyi
ngacr oss
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urnedandl ookedathim wi
tha
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Me: "
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idescamet ome
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l
aughingl i
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ngy
out
hesepass
monthsbeentoolong"
Me:"Il
oveyou"hehel
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psonminewhenhepul
ledbackI
wasdizzy
Pj
:"Il
ovey
out
oo"
Me:
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dn'
tyout
ell
mey
oucomi
ng"
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isebaby"Igiggl
ed"Ineedtorestcome
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room het ookoffhisclot
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ngbackonFr
iday
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ri
ckwasinGhana
Me:
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:"per
fectt
imi
ng"Ij
ustchuckl
ed
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es"heputhi
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het
shi
rtand
hel
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:"f
ucky
ou'
vebeenmi
ssed"Il
aughed
Me:
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art
ingt
othinkyoumissedt
hetwi
ns
mor
ethanyoumissedme"hechuckl
ed
Pj
:"may
be"
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"hey
!"Inudgedhi
m hel
aughed
Pj:"
youwerealsomissedbutt
hetwi
nsdamn! "I
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edandgav emeasoftpeck
"t
het wi
nsareapartofyoumylov
e"
Me:
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ever
"hel
aughedget
ti
ngont
opofme
Pj
:"y
oust
il
lsl
eepi
ngwi
thmyf
ather
"
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"
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ket otakeour
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at ionshiptothenextlevelmakesl ow
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nghi swaistinci
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eshi serectionhi
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please"
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:"t
ell
mey
ouwi
l
lst
op"
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l
lst
op"
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psonmewhi l
e
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amazi ngwi thsomuchemot i
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imat e
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ont opofhi m
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ovey
ousomuch"
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ovey
ou"
.
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ow
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ery
ourphonei
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ngi
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t"Idi
d
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l
o"
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er:"
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nici
tDav
id"Dav
idwasheadof
securi
ty
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ngthings
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om mer egar
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easetakemeofspeaker"
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ehim adeadstar
e
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kDav
id"
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id:
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ostt
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ain"
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l
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m down wegoi ngto
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ndt hegirl
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ri
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ighti
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Keenan;"
doctor!
!!
!!Nurse!!
!!
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ati
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..
..
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..
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ome
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nhi
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e
ki
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'
m
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Me:"ohGod"hehel
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ustsobbed"
my
baby
"
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l
lfi
ndt
hegi
rl
s"
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dImi
scar
rymybaby
"
Keenan:"
what?!
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l
edback"
youdi
dn'
t
miscar
rythebaby"
Me:
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"
Keenan:"
thebabi
esar
efi
nebabyt
heyatt
he
nurser
ytota.
."
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?"Hechuckl
ed
Keenan:
"twi
ns"
Me:
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'si
mpossi
ble"
Keenan:"
Iknowri
ghtbutt
hedoctorsai
d
sometimestheot
heronehi
desandguessour
l
itt
lechampwantedtosur
pri
seus"
Me:"
itaboy
"hesmil
edandnoddedwi
thhi
s
ey
esfil
l
edwitht
ear
s
Keenan:
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if
ulbabi
esgi
rlnboyt
hey
perf
ectt
handol
wam"
Me:
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dmeIj
ustcr
ied
Keenan:"
theyper
fectt
handol
wam t
inybut
perf
ectourbabi
es"
Me:
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ny?
"
Keenan:
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Me:"Tay
lorandLuv
uyowerebi
gbabies"Il
et
outamuffl
edsobIhadmymouthcov er
edwith
myhand" y
ouhavetof
indmygir
lsKeenan
pl
ease"
Keenan:
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l
lfi
ndt
hem"
Me:"
theymustbescaredsoscar
edwithoutus"
hedi
dn'tsayany
thi
ngunti
lIwasdonesobbing
Keenan:"securi
tyi
sdoingev er
ythi
ngtofind
them ev
ent hepoli
ce"Inodded" I
'l
lgoaskthe
nursestobringyouthetwins"
Me:
" ok"her
emovedhi
sar
msf
rom mewi
ped
mytearsandki
ssedme
Keenan:
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eyouandyoumakemesohappy"
Ij
ustsmil
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er
awhil
ewithanur
sepushi
ngt wocubes
Keenan:
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e'smommy
"Isatup
Me:
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hem out
"
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se:
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orlong"t
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hem out
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henur
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t
hebedwitht
heotheronethenur
selef
tus
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inyandpi
nk"hechuckl
ed
Keenan:
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sandnamel
ess"t
hedoor
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nwit
hKy l
e
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"
Me:
"hel
l
o"
Ni
c:"
howy
ouf
eel
i
ng"
Me:"numbi wantt
obehappyaboutt
het
wins
butIcantIneedmygi
rl
swithme"
Dad:
"itoknci
nci
ever
ythi
ngwi
l
lbef
ineI
pr
omise"
Me:"f
inehowwhenmykidsbeenmi
ssi
ngf
or
day
stheywereabduct
eddaddy"
Ky
le:
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l
lfi
ndt
hem Domi
nic"
Me:
"youshoul
dhav
ehadf
oundt
hem al
ready
"
Keenan:
"Ni
kky
"
Me:"
pleaseputt
hem backi
nthei
rcubeI
'
dli
ke
t
orestri
ghtnow"
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ouhav
etobondwi
tht
hem"
Me: "
notri
ghtnowsomebodypl easetakehim"
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schildout
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lingNi
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edhushinghim Il
aid
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of
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edsil
entl
y
Dad:
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nci
"
Me:
"canIpl
easebeal
one"
Dad:
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efory
ou"
Me:
"Iknow"
Ni
c:"
tal
ktous"
Ky
le:
"Ni
kkywewi
l
lfi
ndt
hem"
Me: "
ok"t
hebedmov edagai
nhishandscame
aroundmybodyhepressedhi
sfaceonmy
backandletoutasi
gh
Me:"t
heymustbesoscar
edKeenanourl
i
ttl
e
gi
rl
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one"
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ythi
ngwil
lbefi
ne"If
elthisbody
j
erkIknewhewascr y
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wil
lfi
ndthem t
handol
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se"heki ssed
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ngme
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Keenan:
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oeatcomesi
tup"
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y"
Keenan:
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eni
fyounothungr
yyouhav
etoeat
"
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bet
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enbei
ngf
edkeenan"
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thandolwam pl
ease"Istar
tedcr
ying
"pl
easedon'tcr
yDomi ni
citnotheal
thy
anymore"
Me:"Ijustwantmyki
dswhywon'
tyou
understand"
Keenan:
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stand"
Me: "
noyoudon'
tyouj
usthappyyougotyour
stupi
dsonandmykidsaremissi
ngnobody
underst
ands"
Keenan:
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m al
sof
eeli
ng
whatyoufeeli
ngst
opthi
sjustl
etmetakecar
e
ofy
ou"
Me:
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eep"hesi
ghed
Keenan:"
sleepDominic"If
acedt
heot
hersi
de
j
ustcri
edmy sel
ftosleep.
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twasthe
fol
lowingdayIgotof
fthebedwal kedslowl
yto
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ookashowergotoutputonmy
pjstookmyphoneev er
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cupboardnexttomybedIcal l
edJay
Jay
:"heySi
nohowar
eyou"
Me:"
mykidshavebeenmi
ssi
ngf
or5day
s
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uni
or"hesi
ghed
Jay:"Iknowi sawthenewswe'vebeenl ooki
ng
SinotheyarenotinGautangotherwiseIwould
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nedt hewhole
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tedcr y
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ustbabi
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s"
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:"Iknow.I
'
llf
indt
hem Igotguy
sal
ready
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ooki
ngi
not
herpr
ovi
nces"
Me:
"pl
ease"
Jay:
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l
lcal
lyoui
fsomet
hingcomesupf
ornow
pl
easetryt
obeok"
Me:
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l
ltr
y"
Jay
:"i
m her
eokal
way
s"
Me:"
ok"Idroppedt
hecal
lwentt
ost
andbyt
he
wi
ndownicolegoti
nwit
hdad
Them:
"hey
"
Me:
"hi
"theycamet
omeweshar
edhugs
Ni
c:"
youbet
ternow"
Me:
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i
ttl
e"
Ni
c:"
wej
ustsawt
het
wins"
Me:"
isn'
titwei
rdthatIhadtwinswhil
ether
e
ar
enot winsi
nmyf amili
es"t
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ot
herbeforel
ooki
ngdown
Dad:
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eah"hechuckl
eduncor
mfor
tabl
y
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sjustamy
thNi
kky
.Kel
vi
nwi
l
lcome
byafterschool"
Me:
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hat
"
Them:
"what
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ookedateachot
her
Me:"
thatbet
weeny
out
wowhatar
ey'
al
lhi
ding
f
rom me"
Ni
c:"
not
hing"
Dad:
"youbei
ngpar
anoi
d"
Me:
"ohmyGod"
Dad:
"nci
nci
"
Me:
"no!
"
Dad:
"nci
nci
please"ni
col
est
art
edcr
ying
Me:"outnowbot
hofy
ou"t
hedooropened
Keenangotin
Dad:
"nci
nci
letusexpl
ain"
Me:
"OUT!
!!
!!
"
Keenan:
"what
'sgoi
ngon"
Me:
"keenangett
hem out
"
Dad:
"nci
nci
cal
m down"
Me:"
keenanplease"hecamet
omeandhel
d
myshoul
ders
Keenan:
"thandol
wam"
Me:
"pl
easegett
hem out
"
Keenan:
"im sor
rybutpl
easel
eav
e"
Dad:"
nci
nci
"Icov
eredmyf
acewi
thKeenan'
s
chest
Keenan:"
im sor
ry"theylef
tnicol
ewoul
dn'
tst
op
cr
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Me:
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l
lneverbehonestandIdon'
twant
t
hem i
nmychil
dren'
sli
fe"
Keenan:
"that
'sext
reme"
Me:
"theysuchl
i
arsIcan'
tev
enst
andt
hem"
Keenan:
"whathappened"
Me:
"It
hinkIhav
eorhadat
win"
Keenan:
"woahhow"
Me:
"canwet
alkabouti
tlat
er"
Keenan:
"okIbr
oughty
oubr
eakf
ast
"
Me:
"whenam Il
eav
ingt
hispl
ace"
Keenan:"t
odayIjustcamebackfrom seei
ng
thetwi
nst heyokayyoual
sookaywecango
homet odayjustwai
ti
ngforyourdoct
ortodo
somecheckupony ou"
Me:
"Ok"
Keenan:
"weneedt
onamet
hem t
handol
wam"
Me:"
can'
tdot
hatnow"hecuppedmyf
ace
gi
vi
ngmeasoftpeck
Keenan:"wehaveto"heki
ssedmeagai
n"j
ust
thi
nk"anotherki
ss
Me:
"Engl
i
shnames?
"Hechuckl
edl
i
ght
ly
Keenan:
"Iwoul
dsayconsi
der
ingt
hei
rfat
heri
s
whit
e"
Me:
"whatdoy
out
hink"
Keenan:
"ky
leandKy
li
e"
Me:
"youwananameoursonaf
tery
ourf
ather
"
Keenan:
"yesi
twoul
dmeansomucht
odadand
I
"
Me:
"okKy
leandKy
li
eiti
s"
Keenan:
"2ndnames"
Me:
"DamonandDomi
nic" wegi
ggl
ed
Keenan:
"real
l
y"
Me:
"no!
"
Keenan:
"itnotbadt
hough"
Me:
"nomay
beJadenandJanel
l
e"
Keenan:
"Kyl
eJadenandKyli
eJanel
l
eSmi
th"I
noddedheki
ssedme"thankyou"
Me:"
justf
indmydaught
erskeenani
tbeent
oo
l
ong"
Keenan:
"wehav
eal
ead wegoi
ngt
ofi
nd
them"
Me:
"whati
f.
."Ij
ustcr
ied
Keenan: "don'tthi
nkofftheworstscenar
io
please"therewasal i
ghtknockthedooropened
andPhi wecamei nIgotoutofKeenan'sarms
rantomybr otherignori
ngthepain"yougoi
ng
tohurtyour selfNi
kky"
Phiwe:"
ohncinci
"hepi
ckedmeupandheldmy
ti
ghtl
y"Iam sosor
rySi
no"heki
ssedmyhead
Me:
"theyt
ookmygi
rl
sPhi
we"
Phi
we:
"sshi
toky
ouwi
l
lgett
hem back"
Me:
"whati
ftheyhur
tthem Phi
we"
Phi
we:
"thenweki
l
lthem"
Me:
"mybabi
es"
Phiwe:"
Sshdon'tcr
yncinci
youneedtobe
str
ongfortwi
nsbabiescansensewhenthei
r
parent
sarenotok"Inodded
Me:
"thanky
ouf
orcomi
ng"
Phi
we:
"sor
ryIcamel
atebutPhel
owasn'
twel
l
"
Me:"youher
enow"hel
etgoofmeandshook
handswit
hKeenan
Keenan:
"thankf
orcomi
ng"
Phiwe:"
ofcos"t
heyspokewit
hthei
reyesev
en
noddedli
ketheyspeaki
ngsomesecret
l
anguage
Me:
"donothi
det
hingsf
rom me"
Keenan:
"wewoul
dn'
t"
Me:
"Isawwhat
everpassedbet
weeny
out
wo"
Phiwe:"
Sinocomeonlet
'sputy
out
obedand
getyousomef ood"
Me:
"im nothungr
y"
Phi
we: "
butyoustil
lgoi
ngtoeatbecauseyour
chi
ldr
enneedy ouhealt
hy"helif
tedmeupput
onthebedkeenanpul l
edatrayformeputa
wimpytakeawayoni twit
hjuiceIst
art
ed
havi
ngbreakfast
Phi
we:
"I'
l
lgoseet
het
wins"
Keenan:"letmeshowy ou"t heywalkedoutt hey
weredef i
nit
elyhidingsomet hingf
rom meIt ook
aremotopenedt hetvt henewschannel wason
thei
rwer etal
kingaboutt hekidnappingoft he
Smithgrandchildrentheywer etal
kingabout
howitleft2deadIcr i
edoutl oudtherewasso
muchbl oodKeenannPhi wecamei nr unni
ngI
wasjustcr yi
ngrockingmy sel
fbacknf orth
Keenan:
"damitDomi
nic"heswi
tchedof
fthet
v
hegotonthebedandheldme
Me:
"somuchbl
ood"
Keenan:
"sor
ryy
ouhadt
oseet
hat
"
Me:
"whoisdead"hehel
dmet
ight
err
ocki
ng
me"answerme"
Keenan:
"no"Ij
ustcr
iedl
ouder
Me:
"letgoofme"
Phi
we:
"Si
no"
Me:
"st
ophi
dingt
hingsf
rom mei
nnotweak!
"
Keenan:
"wedi
dn'
tsayy
ouweak"
Me:
"st
opkeepi
ngt
hingsf
rom me"
Keenan:
"Il
ovey
ou"
Me:
"ohGod"Ipushedhi
m of
fbuthedi
dn'
t
move"
Phi
wepl ease"
Phi
we:
"Si
nowenothi
dingany
thi
ng"
Me:
"canIbeal
one"
Keenan:
"no"
Me:
"pl
ease"
Keenan:
"no"
Me:
"don'
tmakemehat
eyoukeenan"
Keenan:
"thandol
wam pl
ease"
Me:
"I'
l
lhat
eyou"
Keenan:
"I'
l
llov
eyouenoughf
ort
hebot
hofus"
Me:"ok"Ical
meddown"canIrestabi
t"t
he
dooropenedthedoct
orgoti
nwithtwonurses
car
ryi
ngt het
wins
Doc:
"hel
l
o"
Us:"hey"keenangotof
fthebedhi
m nPhi
we
tookthebabies
Doc:
"let
'schecky
ouupsoy
oucangohome"
Me: "ok"hedidhischeckupsIgotmy
prescripti
onli
stIgotdressedwhil
eKeenan
wentt osigndischar
gepaper swealll
eftgoi
ng
homewhenwegothomei tal
lcamebackina
speedmygi rl
sweremissingwet ookthem t
o
thenur serywhichwaspink
Keenan:"
weneedtogetthi
sfi
xed"Idi
dn'tsay
anyt
hing"t
handol
wam"IputKyl
einthecot
wenttomybedroom l
ocki
ngthedoorIcall
ed
Jay
Jay
:"hey
"
Me:
"whodi
ed"
Jay:"Jasontheguar
dandnkosinathihewas
partofthegang2areinarr
est
edi nthehospi
tal
Jasonwentouti nafi
ght
"
Me:
"oh"
Jay
;"If
oundt
hem Si
no"
Me:
"ohmyGod"t
ear
sst
art
edf
all
i
ng
Jay:"t
heyi
nEaster
nCapeim wait
ingf
ormy
guystocomebackthenwewill
gogetthem
thatpl
acehasl
otofguysweoutnumbered"
Me:
"cal
lthepol
i
cet
ell
them"
Jay:
"theywil
lki
l
lthem.Ri
ghtnowt
heyhav
eno
useforthem"
Me:
"what
"
Jay:"
thoseguysaskedf or10mil
li
onandSmi th
gaveitt
ot hem buttheyst
il
ldi
dn'
tgetthegir
ls
somethingwentwr ongduri
ngtheexchangeso
nowtheyhav ethemoneynt hegir
lswecan't
j
ustgogett hem bli
nd"
Me:
"Iwantmyki
dsJay
"
Jay
:"y
ouwi
l
lgett
hem"
Me:
"thanky
ou"
Jay:
"ial
wayshav
eyourbacky
ouknowt
hatand
Ioweyou"
Me:
"thanky
ou"
Jay
: "
lat
er"Idr
oppedt
hecal
lwentt
obed
watchedtv
Keenan:
"Ni
kkyopent
hedoor
"
Me:
"pl
easegi
vemespace"
Keenan:
"Ican'
tpl
easedon'
tshutmeout
"
Me:
"Ineedt
orestal
one"
Keenan:"
thandol
wam openplease"Iwentt
o
openhegotinwitht
hemoni t
orwegotunder
thecover
sandcuddledIfel
lasleep.
IwokeupbecauseKeenanwasshaki
ngmeI
satup
Me:
"what
"
Keenan:
"comehav
edi
nner
"
Me:"
ok"Igotoft
hebedwentt
ori
nsemy
mout
handwashedmyf acewewent
downst
air
sdadNicol
eandPhi
wewerether
e
eat
ingi
nfrontoft
het
vthet
winswer
einthei
r
cot
s
Me:
"hi
"keenannIsatdowntogetherhegav
e
memyfood"anynewsonthegirl
s"
Keenan:
"no"
Phi
we:
"nonewsi
sbet
tert
hanbadnews"
Me:"ok"weatewhilewatchi
ngtvinsil
ence
af
tereati
ngNicolecl
eanedupcameback
si
tt
ingnexttodadIlookedatthem shecaught
myey esnlookeddown
Me:
"am Iat
win"ev
ery
onel
ookedatme
Dad:
"nci
nci
"
Me:"
itasi
mplequest
ion"nicol
ewaslooki
ng
downtheent
ir
eti
me"y outwoareunbel
iev
abl
e"
Phi
we:
"what
'sgoi
ngon"
Me:"j
ustt
ell
thet
rut
hforoncest
opbei
ng
di
shonest
"
Ni
c:"
yes"
Me:
"wow"
Dad:
"thi
ngswer
ecompl
i
cat
edbef
ore"
Me:
"isshedead"
Ni
c:"
wedon'
tknowandi
tahe"
Me:
"whaty
oumeany
oudon'
tknow"
Dad:
"wegav
ehi
m upf
oradopt
ion"
Me:
"ohwow"
Ni
c:"
babyIwasast
udent
"
Me: "
ohshutupNicol
eyouweredoi ngyourl
ast
yeari
nmedicineheisapsychi
atr
istsodon't
givemethatmoneybull
shi
t"
Dad:
"languagenci
nci
west
il
lyourpar
ent
s"
Me:
"y'
al
ldon'
tder
ser
vet
obepar
ent
s"
Ni
c:"
Domi
nicpl
ease"
Me:"whyhaven'ty
'al
llookedf
orhi
m Nicol
eyou
gott
heresourcesifyouwantedhi
my ouwould
havefoundhim hi
snothidingjustli
keifyou
wantedmey ouwouldhav efoundmewi thout
wai
tingforamagazinetodoast upidart
icl
eon
mebecauseofsomeoneIwasdat ing"
Ni
c:"
im sor
ry"
Me:
"don'
tbe"Ist
oodup"y
outwoaredeadt
o
meIdon'
ty'
all
aroundmeormyfamil
y"
Dad:
"don'
tbecr
azynci
nci
"
Me:"noim notbeingcrazyi
m beingrati
onalI
don'
tneedy '
all
inmyl i
fe"Iwentupnicolewas
scr
eamingf ormeIgoti nmyroom justcri
ed
Keenangotinaftermewehel deachot herunt
il
Iwasdonecr yi
ng
Keenan:
"wow!
"
Me:
"Iknow"
Keenan:
"im sor
ry"
Me:
"itf
ine"
Keenan:
"Il
ovey
ou"
Me:"l
oveyout
oo.Whenwegett
hegi
rl
sbackI
wanttomove"
Keenan:
"what
"
Me:
"notf
oral
i
fet
imej
ustf
orf
ewmont
hs"
Keenan:
"Igotwor
kIj
ustmadeseni
orpar
tner
"
Me:
"youdon'
thav
etocomewi
thus"
Keenan:
"y'
al
lcan'
tgowi
thoutme"
Me:"j
ustafewmonthswe'
l
lgost
aywi
thBel
l
aif
shedoesn'
tmind"
Keenan:
"mom wi
l
llov
ehav
ingy
ouandt
heki
ds"
Me:"j
ustfewmonthsy
oucancomeseeus
wheneveryoucan"
Keenan:"
okwhent
hegi
rl
scomebackwe'l
lgo
aft
eryouandt
heki
dsset
tl
einni
cel
yI'
l
lcome
back"
Me:
"thanky
ou"
Keenan:
"domeaf
avor
"
Me:
"yeah"
Keenan:
"bondwi
tht
het
wins"
Me:
"gi
vemet
ime"hesi
ghed
Keenan:"
theyneedyouasmuchasTay
lorand
Luvuyoneedsyou"
Me:
"don'
tmakemef
eel
gui
l
ty"
.
.
(Iam sosobusyIknowi tnotmuchbuti tway
bettert
hennothi
ngim sorryI'
l
lmakei tupto
youguy sassoonasIfindtime..
..
..
..Lotsof
l
ov eLelot
hando)
[
08/
12,
21:
25]Wadz
:Li
ke,
commentandshar
e
.
I
nser
t52
.
Acr
ycomi
ngt
hrought
hemoni
torwokemeup
Keenanwasfastasl
eepbehi
ndmewi
thhi
s
ar
msar oundme
Me:"
baby
"hel
etoutasoftgr
oan"babywake
upt
hetwi
nsar
ecryi
ng"hegroaned
Keenan:"i
m soti
redNi
kkyIhav
en'
tbeeni
nbed
forover5dayspl
ease"
Me: "but
..
"Hest ar
tedsnoringsoftl
yagai
nIj ust
huff
edgotof ft hebedhistheonewhowant ed
babiesnowhi stootir
edIgottot hei
rnur
sery
Kyli
ewascr y
ingIf edherthenchangedher
nappyIrockedherunt i
lshewentbackt osleepI
changedJaden' snappyaswel l
.Itwasal
ready
earl
ymor ningIwentt othet vr
oom openednew
channelIcalledJay
Jay
:"hel
l
o"
Me:
"heyi
tme"
Jay
:"heyhowy
ouhol
dingup"
Me:
"im okanynews"
Jay
:"bepat
ientSi
noI
'
llcal
lyouwhen
somet
hinghappens"
Me:
"im goi
ngoutofmymi
ndher
eJay
"
Jay
:"keepy
our
sel
fbusy
"
Me;
"mxm ok"hechuckl
ed
Jay
:"I
'
llcal
lyou"
Me:
"Jay
"
Jay
;"y
eah"
Me:
"thanky
ou"hesi
ghed
Jay
:"hangi
nther
eok"
Me;"ok"Idr
oppedthecal
lchangedthechannel
tuni
ngintot
raceIzonedoutunti
lPhi
wesat
nexttomeheputhisarm aroundmyneck
Phi
we:
"youoksi
s"
Me:
"yeahandy
ou"
Phiwe:
"yeah"webot
hsi
ghedt
hesamet
ime
"t
winhey"
Me:
"Ihav
ethewor
stpar
ent
sint
hewor
ld"
Phi
we:"don'tknowaboutni
col
ebutI'
m so
di
sappoint
edi ndadIwantmom t
oleavehi
m"
Me:
"Phi
weno!
"
Phiwe:"
yesimti
redofwipi
ngmymot her
'stears
becauseofhi
m Ihar
dlysl
eptlastnightshewas
cry
ingthewhol
enightandshe'sallal
onet here
Sethumovedoutwit
hNkazi shegotherown
pl
aceanddadisherewithNicole"
Me:
"wher
eisheany
way
"
Phi
we:
"upst
air
ssl
eepi
ng"
Me:
"mmh"
Phi
we:
"wi
l
lyoul
ookf
ory
ourt
win"
Me:"Idon'
tknowri
ghtnowIj
ustwantmy
daughter
sthenwegoingt
oLondonforawhi
l
e"
Phi
we:
"Londonwhy
"
Me: "
justneedabreakf
rom ni
col
eanddadwe
gonast aywit
hKeenan'
smom besidesi
m not
l
ovingjhbrightnow"
Phi
we:
"don'
tgof
orl
ong"
Me:
"justf
ewmont
hs"
Phi
we:"
im sor
ryyougoingthroughal
loft
hissi
s
Iwi
shIcoulddosomething"
Me:"il
oveKeenanbutI '
m st
art
ingtot hi
nkthi
s
wasn'
tagoodi dealooknowmyki dsar e
nowheretobefoundwhatwi l
lIsaytoLungelo
i
fsomethinghappenstoLuvuyohet rustedus
wit
hhisdaughterandnowshe'smi ssing"
Phiwe:
"don'
tbehar
dony
our
sel
fanddon'
t2nd
guessyourmar
ri
age"
Keenan:"
you2ndguessi
ngourmar
ri
age"he
wasstandi
ngbytheentr
ance
Me:
"keenan"hel
ookedsosadIst
oodupgoi
ng
t
ohim
Keenan:"i
m sorryDomini
c"Iwrappedmyarms
aroundhiswaist"i
m sorr
ythandol
wam pl
ease
dontleav
eme"
Phi
we;
"I'
l
lgi
vey
ouguy
sspace"hewal
kedout
Me:
"im notdoubt
ingourmar
ri
ageKeenan"
Keenan:"
ify
ouwer ewithLungel
oyouwouldn'
t
havetoworryaboutyoursaf
etyory
ourki
ds
saf
etythi
sisallmyfault
"
Me:"i
tnotyourf
aul
tandIl
oveyouIdon'
tdoubt
usorregr
etusgett
ingmar
ri
edIlov
eyoumy
husband"
Keenan:
"justdon'
tl
eav
emepl
ease"
Me:"
I'
dnev
erKeenan"hewr
appedhi
sar
ms
ar
oundme wehugged
Keenan:"
Ilov
eyousomuch"Icoul
dfeel
his
chestf
all
i
ngandri
sing
Me:
"pl
easedon'
ti
m notgoi
ngany
wher
e"
Keenan:"i
m scar
edIdon'twantt
oloseyou"I
movedmyf acef
rom hi
schestwelookedat
eachotherhisey
eswerer ednhi
snosewas
pi
nkIwi pedhist
ears
Me:"
younotgoi
ngtolosemeIpromisey
ouour
l
ovei
sforet
erni
ty"wekissedf
oral
ongti
me
unt
iloneofthetwi
nscrycamet
hrought
he
monitorhepul
ledback
Me: "
feell
ikei
thasn'
tevenbeenay earsi
nce
Tayl
orusedt obetheonedist
urbi
ngus"he
chuckled
Keenan:
"twomor
ethanwedone"
Me:"mustbecr
azyonemor
ethanwedone"he
gav
emeasof tpeck
Keenan:"
we'l
lret
urntot
hisconv
ersat
ionaf
tera
yearI
'l
lgocheckonthem"
Me: "
ok"hewentupIwentt ogetst ar
tedon
breakfastwhenIwasdoneweal l
at eitwas
awkwar dbecausePhiweandIwer en'
ttalkingto
dad.Af t
erbreakf
astIgavethetwinsabat hf ed
them theywenttosleep,
Itookabat h
addressedmyst i
tchesputonwar m pajamasI
wenttowat chtvPhiwehadl ef
tafterbreakf ast
Dad:"
nci
nci
"hesatnextt
ome"Iam sor
ryI
knowyoupr
obabl
yhatemeri
ghtnowbutI'
m
sor
ryIhav
enoexcuseIwasjustareal
lybad
per
sonbackt
henbefor
eIchangedandbecame
apast
orImadereal
l
ybadli
fechoices"
Me: "Iaskeddadwheny oubroughtNombusoif
there'
sany moreskel
etonsyousaidno,we'
re
youev ergoingtocomeoutwi t
hthist
winthi
ng?
Ijustdon'tknowdadIdon'tknowyou"
Dad:"
im sorr
yncinci
IknowIkeep
di
sappoi
ntingyouandyoursi
bli
ngs"
Me:"whataboutmom youbr
aki
ngherdadno
wif
edeservestobet
reatedt
hewayyoutr
eat
her
"helookeddown
Dad:"
Iknow.Mypastishaunt
ingmeandi
t
af
fect
ingmyfami
ly"Isi
ghed
Me:
"Il
ovey
oudad"hel
ookedatme
Dad:"Il
oveyout
oonci
ncipleasedon'tshutme
outofyourl
i
feormygrandchil
dren'
slif
e"
Me: "
youmyfatherandt
heyy ourgr
andchi
ldr
en
Icouldnev
ershutyououtbutIdon'
tli
kethat
youandni
col
esepar
atedmef
rom myt
winand
hidi
tfr
om me"
Dad:
"sor
ry"
Me:
"wher
eishe"
Dad:
"Idon'
tknow"
Me:"
okIneedtogor
esthav
easaf
etr
ipback
home"Ist
oodupsodi
dhe
Dad:
"canIgetsomelov
e"Igiggl
edwehugged
heki
ssedmyf or
ehead"
sorr
yIhavetol
eave
now"
Me:
"itwor
kIunder
standandmom i
sal
one"
Dad:"yeah"Iwalkedhi
mt othedoorhekissed
myheadandgoti nthecari
ttookhimtothe
ai
rport.Iwentbackinthehouseupstai
rstoour
bedroom Keenanwasont hebedwi t
hthetwins
watchingtvhehadbot hofthem ont
opofhi m
Me:
"lov
er"
Keenan:
"comeher
e"Igotont
hebedsnuggl
ed
cl
osert
othem wewat
chedt
v.
.
Thef ol
lowingdayIwasmi serableJay '
sphone
wasonv oicmailt
hewholedayIcr iedmostof
theday .Thenextdaywast hesameIcal l
edhi
m
everyhourKeenanwant edtogetmydadt o
prescri
bemeant i
depr
essantsbuther efused
gavesomeexcuse.I twasatni ghtKeenanwas
watchingt vIhadmyheadonhi slapjust
stari
ngatt hetvwhenmyphoner angi twasan
unknownnumber
Me:
"hel
l
o"hecl
ear
edhi
sthr
oat
Jay:"
itmeweher
ecometothegat
e"Idr
opped
thecall
andj
umpedof
fthebed
Keenan:
"what
'sgoi
ngon"
Me:"come!!"Iwasalreadyrunni
ngoutthe
bedroom Iwenttothekitchenopenedthegat
e
ranouthewasr unningaftermewhilecal
li
ng
mynameImetupwi thizzyshewascarryi
ng
t
hegi
rl
s
Me:"
mybabies!
"Theycri
edItookt
hem wenton
mykneesweallj
ustcr
iedKeenanwrappedhi
s
ar
msaroundus
Keenan:"i
m sosor
ry"t
hewayLuvuyowas
cryi
ngbrokemyheartshehel
dontomytshi
rt
fordearl
if
e
Vuvu:"
sc.
..
.sca.
..
.scar
edmommy
"shehad
hi
ccups
Me:"i
m sorr
ybabymommywi l
lneverletyougo
younevergoi
ngtobescaredagain"Taylorl
et
outaloudsobandpassedout"keenanwhat '
s
happeni
ng"
Keenan:
"Ronnygett
hecar
"ronnyr
anupwhi
l
e
Keenantookt
heTaylor
Me: "
babywakeup"Ishookher"
Tayt
aywake
up"Iwascryi
ngloudl
yandshaki
ngherKeenan
tookherj
ustasRonnywasparki
ngnextt
ous
weallgoti
nthecarRonnywasspeedi
ngallt
he
wayt othehospi talIwascr yingsowasLuv uyo
shedidn'twantt oletgoofme.Whenwegott o
thehospitaltheywer eal r
eadywai t
ingforus
theytookTay lorandI zzyforcheckupsIhadt o
goinwi t
hLuv uyobecauseshedi dn'twanttol
et
gomybabywoul dntst opcr y
ingitbrokemy
heartaft
erchecki ngherupt heygav eher
i
njecti
ont ocal m herdownshef ell
asleep.I
wentoutt ocheckonTay lorshewasst il
l
passedoutI zzywast alki
ngt otheDav i
dthe
mainent r
ancewasal readycr owdedwi thnews
channelsIjustsankdownont hefl
oorandcr i
ed
sil
entl
yKeenancamet okneel i
nfrontofme
Keenan:
"theyhomet
handol
wam,
theysaf
ejust
l
ikeyouwanted"
Me:"
imr el
i
ev edthatt
heyhomeri
ghtnowIj
ust
wanatakethem homeandsleepwit
hthem"
Keenan:
"isi
twei
rdthatwef
orgotaboutt
he
twi
ns"Il
etoutagi
ggle
Me:
"ohmyGod"
Keenan:"
itokNicoleandKel v i
narethere"he
pull
edmeupandhel dme" everyt
hingisgoing
tobeokthandolwam t heyarenothar medi n
anywaythedrugwasj ustt omaket hem sleep
andtheyhadIzzywitht hem may beLuvuy owil
l
needtoseeapsy chologistsinceshe'solder
shemusthav ebeenawar e"
Me:
"whencanwet
aket
hem home"
Keenan:
"mor
ningwanagohomensl
eep"
Me:"i
m nevergoi
ngt
olett
hem outofmysi
ght
"
hechuckl
ed
Keenan:
"thoughtI
'
dgiveitatry
"Ihel
dhim he
l
etoutasigh"Iwon'tl
essthi
shappenagai
n"
Me:"
IknowbabyIl
ovey
ouandy oudi
dn'tf
ail
us
somet
imeswenoti
ncontr
olofsi
tuat
ions"
Keenan:
"Il
ovey
ou"
Me:"weloveyoumoreandthankyou"he
cuppedmyf aceandki
ssedmeweki ssedfor
suchalongtimeunti
lsomeonecl
earedthei
r
t
hroatIpul
l
edbacki
twasDav
id
David:
"sorr
ytodist
urbbutKeenancanwet
alk"
keenanlookedatme
Me: "
itfine"hegav emeababyki sswel etgoof
eachot her .West ayedi nt hehospi t
al therestof
theni ghtwel eftduringt hedayt hef ollowing
dayt hegi rlswer egoodj ustdi dn'twantt oletgo
offmet heysl eptwi thusf oll
owedme
ever ywher e,Tay l
oroncesl appedJadenmy
poorbabyscr eamedhi sl ungsouthi sf ace
turnedr edsamet imewhenIaskedherwhydi d
shedot hatshej ustcriedsay i
ngshe' smybaby
nott hem.Twoweeksl atert heki dsIzzyRonny
KeenanandIgoti nt hejetwewer eof fto
Londont r
av el
ingwi t
hf ourki dsf orcl
oset o12
hour swasani ghtmar ewegott hereKeenan
rentedacarwel eftforKensi ngt onW8, Bell
a
wel comeduswi t
hwar m openar mst hegi rl
s
shar edar oom sodi dthet wi ns.I twasaf tera
weekKeenanwasl eav i
ngt hef ollowingdayhe
tookmet oani ceromant i
cdi nnerwewer enow
i
nbedaf
terani
cehotbubbl
ebat
h
Keenan:"
Idon'tt
hinkthi
sisagoodidea"I
snuggl
edcloserpressi
ngmybreast
sonhi s
chest
Me:
"I'
l
lmi
ssy
ou"
Keenan:
"im notsur
eaboutt
hist
handol
wam"
Me:
"wegoi
ngt
obef
ait
hful
toeachot
her
"
Keenan:
"Iknowbutwe'
venev
erbeenapar
t"
Me:
"It
rusty
ou"
Keenan;
"Ial
sot
rusty
ou"Igi
ggl
ed
Me:"
ain'
tl
ikeI
'l
lgetuptonogoodi
m st
ayi
ng
wi
thyourmother"hel
aughed
Keenan:
"IknowIl
ovey
ou"
Me: "Il
oveyou"Igotontopofhim wekissed
hadsol i
tup69wef el
lasl
eep.ThenextdayI
helpedhim pr
epareforhisf
li
ghtthegi
rlsandI
drovehimtot heai
rport
Keenan:
"I'
l
lmi
ssy
ouguy
s"
Vuv
u:"
missy
oudaddy
"
Tay
tay
;"y
oul
eav
ingusdaddy
"
Keenan:
"I'
l
lcomeback"
Vuvu:"
takeJadenandKy
li
e"t
heset
wower
enot
feel
i
ngthetwins
Taytay:"
yesdaddy
"Keenanj
ustl
ookedatmeI
shruggedmyshoulder
shekneel
edinf
rontof
them
Keenan:
"thet
winsar
eyourl
i
ttl
ebr
otherand
si
ster
"
Them:"mmhmm noha.a"t
heyshookt
hei
r
headsKeenanl
ookedatme
Me:"I
'
lltal
ktot
hem"hegav
ethem hugsand
ki
ssesthei
rfor
eheads
Keenan:
"daddyl
ovesy
ou"
Them:
"lov
eyou"hest
oodupandki
ssedme
Keenan:
"lov
eyout
handol
wam"weki
ssedagai
n
Me:
"Il
ovey
oumor
e"heki
ssedmyheadwe
watchedhiml
eav
ing,
wewentt
othecarRonny
dr
ov eoff
.
.
Nombuso
.
Pjhadlef
tlastweekImi ssedhimt erri
blyIwas
madlyinlovewi t
hhim, hewassonewsof r
esh
andfun.Hewant edmet oleavePat r
ickIalso
wantedtoleavePat r
icksoIwaspaci ngupn
downinthel oungewaitingforhi
mt ocome
backfr
om ashowerPj waspr essuringmeIwas
scar
edbutt hesoonerIendedt hingst hebetter
,
hecamedownst air
s
Patri
ck:"babyhav
eyouseenmywat
cht
heone
thatconnectstomyphone"
Me:"
wasont
hebedsi
dedr
awer
"hel
ookedat
me
Pat
ri
ck:
"youl
ookf
reakedoutwhat
'
swr
ong"
Me:
"canwesi
tdown"hechuckl
ed
Pat
ri
ck:
"ok"heki
ssedmyf
oreheadwesat
down
Me:
"Il
ovey
ouPat
ri
ck"
Pat
ri
ck:
"andIl
ovey
ou"
Me:"uhm.
..Yousee"Ipl
ayedwi
thmynai
l
s"I
can'
t
.."
Pat
ri
ck:
"cal
m downandt
alkt
ome"
Me: "
Idon'
tthi
nkIwanttoconti
nuewit
hthis
rel
ati
onshi
panymore"helaughedIbr
oughtmy
eyesuplookedathi
m
Pat
ri
ck:
"howl
onghav
ewebeent
oget
her
"
Me:
"4y
ear
s"
Pat
ri
ck;
"whatdontIgi
vey
ou"
Me:
"not
hing"
Pat
ri
ck:"
sowhat '
sthepr
oblem"Iwasnotabout
tot
ell
himitbecauseofPj
Me:
"Ij
ustdon'
twantt
hisany
mor
e"
Patri
ck:"
don'twantwhatmyl ove,mymoney ,
thesex,mytimewhatdon' tyouwantanymore?"
Ilookeddownt onguetied"talkt
omeNombuso
whatisitt
hatyoudon' twantany mor
e"Ididn'
t
sayanythi
ngher eachedf ormylegpull
edmeI
fell
ontheti
leshitti
ngmyasshar d
Me:
"ouchPat
ri
ck"
Patri
ck:"ohsoy oucant alk,nowgetupand
comesi tonmyl ap"lasttimehet oldmet odo
thathechokedmet oapoi ntwhereIalmost
passedout ,
Istoodupwi thaai m ofrunni
ng
upstai
rswhicht urnedoutt obeahugemi stake
whenhepul ledmyl egIf ellonmyst omachhe
pull
edmedownt hestair
sIcr iedoutinpain
Pat
ri
ck:"
tal
ktomemyqueenwhatdon'
tyou
wantany
more"
Me:
"Pat
ri
cky
ouhur
ti
ngme"heki
ckedme
Patr
ick;"
itdoesnotamounttot
hetypeof
emotionalpai
nIam feel
i
ng.Whatdon'tIgi
ve
youNombuso?Whoi she?"Hekeptonkicki
ng
merepeatedl
ywhil
easkingwhoisheIl
etouta
l
oudscream whenIfel
tasharppai
ninmy
st
omach
Patri
ck:"
shit
.Nombuso! "Ifel
tdizzy"staywith
mebabykeepy oureyesopen"If el
thim
wrappingsomet hi
ngaroundmybodyhel i
fted
meupIcr iedoutinpain"keepyourey esopen
babypleaseim sosorry"hewalkedoutputme
i
nt hecarIpassedoutassoonashest art
ed
dri
vingout.
Iwokeupt oaver
yirri
tat
ingbeepi
ngsoundI
hat
edt hesoundi
talwaysremindedmeof
Patr
ick'
sbeati
ngthedooropenedPatr
ickgoti
n
wit
ht hedoct
or
Doc:
"howy
ouf
eel
i
ngMsNondi
za"Ismi
l
ed
Me:
"im hur
ti
ng"
Pat
ri
ck;
"yougoi
ngt
obef
inebaby
"
Doc:
"nextti
mebecaref
ulwhenwal
ki
ngdown
t
hestai
rs"Il
ookedatt
hisl
yi
ngpi
ssofshi
the
j
ustlookedawayfrom meIfeltl
ikescreami
ng
thathebeatmeupIdidn'
tfallbecauseim
clumsy"youneedtol
ookafteryoursel
fandthe
l
ittl
eone"Ichuckl
edi
ndisbeli
efandsatup
Me:
"li
tt
leone"
Doc:"ohofcosPatri
cktol
dmey ouweren'
t
aware,youpregnant3monthsand2weeks"I
fel
tli
kedyingIwouldneverhav
ehim outofmy
l
ifenow
Me:
"oh"
Pat
ri
ck:"
itamazi
ngnewsmyqueeni tj
ustwhat
weneedtomakeusstrong"If
akedsmil
e
Me:
"yesi
tis"
Doc:"y
oufi
net
hebabyi
sfineI
'l
lreferyout
oa
fr
iendofmi
newhoi
sdealswit
hpr egnancy
"
Me:
"thanky
ou"hesmi
l
ed
Doc:
"congr
atul
ati
ons"
Pat
ri
ck:
"thanky
ou"hewal
kedoutPat
ri
ckgot
cl
osert
omeheki
ssedmyf
orehead
Me:
"youal
mostki
l
ledmychi
l
d"
Pat
ri
ck:"i
m sor
ryIwasn'
tawar
eyouwi
thchi
l
d.
I
sitmine?"
Me:
"yes"
Patrick; "
ok"heheldmychi nandki ssedme" i
f
youev ertryt
opullastuntlikethatagainIwill
stri
py ouofev ery
thingthecar ,t
hedesi gner
clothes, myhouse,thecards, I
'
llst
oppay i
ng
yourschool f
ees,I
'l
lstopfeedingy ourfamily
andt hathouseIbui l
twillgetdestroyed.Okmy
l
ov e?"Inoddedwi thtearsrunningdownmy
face" Iloveyou"
Me:"Il
ovey
out
oo"hewi
pedmyt
ear
sand
ki
ssedme
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t
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ngmeIhear dtoheari tf
rom
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ngforhert ocal lmebutshe
didn'
tev enaf t
ert heyfoundt hem stil
l nothi
ngI
wasbey ondhur t.Imeany eahsur ewehav en'
t
reall
yspokei nmont hst heonlycommuni cati
on
we'vehadwast hef i
rstemai lIsentherwhenI
gother ethatwasi t,
mov i
ngtoher emeant
cutti
ngal lti
esIknowi twasahugedi ckmov e
buttheyhadKeenansot heydidn'tneedme.
Knowi ngt hatfucknhur tsomuchbuti tiswhat
i
tis,herf aceshowedont hescreenshel ooked
sobeaut ifull
astt i
meIsawherf acei twasher
wedding
Si
no:
"hey
"
Me:
"heyy
ou"
Si
no:
"wowy
oul
ookdi
ff
erent
"Ichuckl
ed
Me:
"andy
oul
ookbeaut
if
ul"shegi
ggl
ed
Si
no:
"thanky
ou"
Me:
"howar
eyou"
Si
no:
"im okLungel
ohowar
eyou"
Me:
"imf
inei
tbeenawhi
l
e"
Sino:
"yesithas"awkwardsil
enceIj
ustknew
shehasn'tfor
givenmeforleavi
ng
Me:
"im sor
ry"
Si
no:
"why
"Ipushedbackmyhai
r
Me:
"leav
ing"sheshr
uggedhershoul
der
s
Si
no:
"yourchoi
ce"
Me:
"youhat
eme"
Si
no:"
no.IwishIdid"IsighedIcall
edher
pi
ssedofft
hatshedidn'ttel
lmeaboutLuvuy
o
nowhereIam feel
i
ngal lguil
tyandsad
Me:
"im sor
ry"
Si
no:"
stopapologi
zi
ngLungel
oyoudi
dthat
wi
thanemail"
Me:
"Si
no"
Si
no:
"anemai
lreal
l
yLungel
o"
Me:"Iknowi
twascol
dof
fme.Imi
ssy
ou"she
si
ghed
Si
no:
"real
l
y?"
Me:"l
i
keever
yday,Imi
ssever
ythi
ngabouty
ou
honey
"shegi
ggledsweet
ly
Sino:
"Ial
somi
ssyou,
somuchhasbeen
happeni
ngIwi
shy
ouwereher
e"
Me:"
tal
ktome"shel
ookedatmeherbot
tom l
i
p
st
art
edtr
embl
ingIwi
shIwasther
etohol
dher
Sino:"t
heytookLuvuyoshewaski dnappedwit
h
Taylorbysomegangi nE.Cformoneyi twasso
badLungeloandasi ft
hatwasn'tbadenoughI
al
mostl ostmytwinstheyhadtobet akenout
beforeti
me"hervoicebrokeatt
heendshewas
i
nt ears
Me:
"hav
eanyar
restbeenmade"
Sino:"
yeah"someonecameint
her
oom
screamingmommySi noqui
ckl
ywi
pedhert
ear
s
Si
no:
"gocal
lVuv
uTay
tay
"
Me:
"howi
sshe"
Sino:
"she'
sfineIguesstheyj
ustnothappy
abouttheaddit
iontothefami
ly"i
chuckled
Me:"that
'sbad"Ihear
dherv oi
ceshewas
sayi
ngmommymommyal loverSi
noleaned
downcameupwi thLuvuy
oonherar mssheput
herbetweenherlegs
Vuv
u:"
Luh"shet
ouchedt
hescr
een
Me:"heypri
ncess"Ii
gnoredthelumpinmy
t
hroatImissedthem andknowingthatI
'
m Luh
whil
eKeenanisdaddyalwayshur tme
Vuv
u:"
missy
ou"
Me:
"Imi
ssy
out
oomypr
incess"
Vuv
u:"
byei
m goi
ngt
oJoj
o"
Me:
"by
eIl
ovey
ou"
Vuvu:
"lov
eyou"shel
ookedatSi
no"
putme
down"shedi
d
Sino:
"wasgoi
ngt
otel
lyouwei
nLondonf
ora
fewmonths"
Lungel
o:"
youcoul
dhav etol
dmeSinoj
ustl
i
ke
youshoul
dhavecal
ledmet hemi
nutey
ou
heardLuv
uyowasmi ssi
ng"
Sino: "
youmeantheminut
ewhereIalmost
mi sscarr
iedmyt
winscozIwasblendi
ngto
deat hthatmi
nut
e"
Me:"i
m sor
ryIdi
dn'
tmeanitl
i
kethatj
ustthat
youshut
ti
ngmeoutofourdaught
er'
sli
fe"
Sino: "
youleftLungel
o!Youlefti
nFebruaryi
t
Nov embernowandal ly
ouev erdi
dwassenda
stupidemai lsayi
ngyousorry.No!Youknow
whati m notgoingtogetangryoverthi
s"nowI
feltl
ikemaj orasshol
e
Me:
"looki
m sor
rydon'
tgetupset
"shehuf
fed
Sino:"
youdon'tgett odothi
sLungel
o,youdon'
t
gettodisappearthanjustcomebackli
kethi
s.
Thisi
snothowt hingswork"
Me:
"Iknow,
Isucki
m sor
ry"
Si
no:
"whenar
eyoucomi
nghome"
Me:"Idon'
tknow"shest
art
edcr
ying"
please
don'
tcryhunplease"
Sino:
"youcan'
tjustsayy
oudon'
tknowwhen
youcominghomel ungel
oyouhav
eadaught
er
forGodsakes"
Me:"andshehasyouandkeenan"sheputher
handoverhermouthandl
etoutamuf f
ledsob
Sino:"y
ouunbel i
evableLungel
o!"Sheendedthe
callandloggedoutsamet i
meIclosedmy
l
apt ophard,Ist
oodupchangedi ntomygy m
clot
hesIneededt oblowoffsomest eam.Fuck!
IhatedthisIhatedhowIeasi l
yfal
lintoher
,
thosebigey esandhertearsalwaysmademe
goonmykneesi tbeenthatwaysincepri
mary
andIhatedit
.Idr
ovetothegym spent3hour
s
thereaf
tert
hatIwentbacktomycondotooka
coldshower,
myphoner anganditwasmom
Me:
"mom"
Mom:
"heybabyhowar
eyou"
Me:
"im okmom andy
ou"
Mom:"
Ijustmissyouthi
shouseislonel
yitj
ust
meandyourfather
"mom neverwantedmeto
l
eav
e
Me:"
im sor
ry"shesni
ff
ed"mom"kant
iwhati
sit
wi
ththesewomenandt ear
s
Mom:
"canLuv
uyocomeov
er"shi
t!
Me:
"mom Luv
uyoi
sinLondon"
Mom:
"doi
ngwhatt
her
e"
Me:
"she'
swi
thhermot
her
"shehuf
fed
Mom:
"forhowl
ong"
Me:
"justacoupl
eofmont
hs"
Mom:
"andy
ouokaywi
tht
hat
"
Me:"
yeswetal
kedabouti
tandIsai
dshecan
t
akehert
her
e"
Mom: "Lungel
oIrai
sedthatchi
l
dfort
hefi
rst
yearofherli
fenowIdon'tev
engett
oseeher"
Me:
"mom pl
ease"
Mom: "Ishoul
dhav ehadanot
herchil
dmay beI
shoul
dadopt "t
het hi
ngismymom isnotfert
il
e
soim alsoadoptedshegotmethroughan
agency
Me:
"may
bey
oushoul
d"shesi
ghed
Mom: "
I'
ll
tal
ktoy ourf
atherbutmaybeget
ti
nga
daught
erwon'tbesuchabadi dea"
Me:
"itwi
l
ldoy
ougood"
Mom:
"Il
ovey
ou"
Me:
"Il
ovey
out
oomom"
Mom:
"cal
lhomemor
eof
ten"t
her
ewasaknock
Me:
"Iwi
l
lmom"Iwentt
oopeni
twasCece
Mom:
"by
ebaby
"
Me:
"by
emom"Idr
oppedt
hecal
l"heyy
ou"
Cece:
"hey
"shepeckedmyl
i
psandgoti
n
Me:
"whydi
dn'
tyout
ell
youcomi
ng"
Cece:
"thoughtI
'
dsur
pri
sey
ou"
Me:"
nextt
imecall
mef i
rst
"lastthi
ngIneeded
wasScot
tyfi
ndi
ngherhereorvicever
sa
Cece:
"sor
ryIj
ustmi
ssedy
ou"Icl
osedt
hedoor
Me:"i
tok"Iwentt
othel
oungeshewas
f
oll
owingme
Cece:
"sor
ry"Isatont
hecouchandpul
l
edher
tome
Me: "
yousocutest
opapol
ogi
zi
ng"she
puckeredherl
i
psIgav
eherasoftpeck"
what
doyouwanado"
Cece:"j
ustwanabewi
thy
ou"Ihel
dthebackof
herneckwekissed
.
Nkany
iso
.
Iwasatt hisreal
lyscarywei r
dpl aceinBizanmy
auntwasconv i
ncedthatXol ohasmeonsome
kindofv oodoobull
shit,Iwoul dn'
thav ecamei f
i
twasn' tformydadnuncl e(lungelo'sdad)they
forcedmeIr eall
ydon'tunder standwhymy
familyhatedXolo.WhenIl etitslipthatSthais
notmi netheyallwentcr azyformewhi chis
whywear ehere,wait
ingt obecal l
edi ntothi
s
smal l
esthutIhaveev erseen.
Guy:"
youcancomei nt
akeyourshoesoff
"Idi
d
thenwenti
nsidethepl
acewasfreakyanddar
k
smell
edreal
lybadl
y
Man: "
sit
"Isathestart
edmaki ngsomewei r
d
groansandsoundshest art
edt alki
ngi navery
fr
eakyIwassoscar edIwant edt orunouthe
saidsomethi
ngaboutXol ousingmut hionme
andthatnotever
ythingisati
tseemsIneedt o
welcomemychi l
dhomewhi chj ustconfused
meevenmor
e,hewal
kedoutcamebackwi
th
t
hatguy
Guy :"come"Iwentt ohi m wewal kedout si
de
tothebackhegav emesomet hingina2l iter
toldmet odrinkitIgav ehim awt fl
ookhej ust
shotmear eall
yscar ylookIstarteddrinki
ngi t
tastedsobi tterandy unkyIdidn'tevenf i
nish
halfofi tIt
hrewup, Ithrewupt oapoi ntwher e
myv omi tt
urnedr edthatdreadmeouti tl
ooked
l
ikebl oodwhenIwasdonehesai dImust
continuedr i
nking
Me:"y
oumustbeoutofy
ourmi
ndIal
mostdi
ed
r
ightt
her
e"
Guy
:"don'
thav
eal
ldaysodr
ink"
Me:"
fuckthi
sshi
t"whenIt
urnedmyauntwas
st
andi
ngthere
Aunt
:"dr
inkt
hatPr
ince"f
uck!
Me:
"but.
."
Aunt
:"dr
ink"Isi
ghedanddr
anki
tunt
ili
twas
f
ini
shedonl
ytothr
owupal
lov
eragai
nwhenI
wasdoneIf
eltl
i
keIwasempt
y
Guy:"come"IswearIroll
edmyey esrightther
e
butIkeptmymout hshutandf oll
owedhi m
walkedtoafarendoft heyar
dt herewasa
basinwit
hwat erandsomesticksl ooking
thi
ngsinit
Guy
:"y
ouhavet
obath"Iputmyhandi
nthe
wat
erandi
twasfr
eezi
ng
Me: "nowayhozeyman"hej ustlookedatme
notsay inganythi
ngasIshookmyheadwal ki
ng
upndownev entuall
yIst ar
tedst r
ippi
nghel ef
t
meIwashedmybodykeptmyunder wearonby
thetimeIwasdoneIwasf r
eezing.Hecamet o
mewi ththatmanhehadar azorwithhim he
explainedwhathei sgoingt odo,hest ar
ted
cutt
ingmeal loverput ti
ngabl ackthingonthe
cutsitwasi tchi
ngl i
keabi tchwhenhewas
doneIputonmycl ot hes.Wewentbacki nthe
huthegav esomet hingsonef orbathingthe
ot
hert
odr
inkandt
hrowupIpai
dandl
eft
Aunt
:"y
ouseeIt
oldy
out
hatgi
rli
snotgood"
Me:"y
esaunty
"actual
l
yithadn'
thi
tmeIgot
whathesai
dbutIcoul
dn'tbel
i
evei
tIdi
dn'
t
wanttobel
i
eveit
Aunt
:"i
m sur
eThandoisnotev
eny our
sthat
boyl
ooksnothi
ngl
ikepeopl
efrom home"
Me;
"aunt
ystopt
hat
'smysonIr
aisedt
hatboy
f
or4year
s"
Aunt
:"mmhay
i!Wedon'
tknow"
Me:
"justdon'
ttal
kpl
easeIbegy
ou"
Aunt:"
Ijustfeel
forSi
phosethuandNkazi
"Ij
ust
fel
tli
keshitIhadn'
thear
dfrom Set
hufor5
monthswhenshecameov erwithagun
Me:
"pl
easestop"shedidn'
tsayanyt
hingwegot
t
oherhouseIwentstr
aighttobed.
.
Isl
eptr
ightt
hrought
hedayandt
heni
ghtwhen
Iwokeupt hef oll
owingdayIf el
tli
kedy ing.I
realizedhowbadl yImessedt hi
ngsupwi th
Set huIdi dn'
tev enknowwher etostartfixi
ng
thingsIcur ledupi nfetusIcri
edmyey esoutI
criedl i
keal it
tl
esi ssyXoloreall
ymessedmeup
Ididn'tev enwanaseehercozIwoul dendupi n
j
ail auntyknockedandgoti nwithouteven
wai ti
ngf ormet otellhert
ocomei nthisiswhyI
didn'tli
ket hiswomanshehadnoboundar i
es
Aunt
:"wakeupy ouneedt
ousey
ourher
bs
bef
oreyouleav
e"
Me:
"ok"
Aunt
:"nowPr
ince"
Me;"letmegetdressed"shewal kedoutIgot
outthebed,Iwenttothebat hroom everyt
hing
wassetIdrankthatshitIthrewupaf terI
washedmybodyt hengotinashowerIt ooka
hotshower.Aft
eritIwentt ogetdressedin
sweatpant
snasweat erwithsneakersIkom
myfadewentt ohav ebreakfastmycousi n
Babal
owaswat
chi
ngt
vIsatwi
thhi
mint
he
l
oung
Babal
o:"
hear
dXol
ori
cay
ou"
Me:
"shutup"shel
aughed
Babal
o;"t
hatwi
ll
teachnottofuckever
ythi
ng
wit
htwolegsandav i
gana"t
hisgir
lisj
ustl
ike
hermother
Me:"Iwoul
dntfuckyouevenifyouwer
enotmy
cousi
nyouuglyshit
"hereyesbecameglossy
Babal
o:"
sheshoul
dhav
eki
l
ledy
ou"
Me:
"andyouwi
l
ldi
eal
oneal
lbi
tt
erl
i
key
our
mot
her"
Babalo:"f
ucky ou"shestoodupandl eftI
fi
nshedeat i
ngwentt ogetmybagIsai dmy
goodbyesaf t
eraspeechf rom auntaboutnot
getti
ngintobedwi thever
ygirlIl
eft.I
nsteadof
dri
vingtojhbIdr ov
et odbnwhenIgott ot he
garagebyber eacenterItookoutmyphonej ust
thescreensav ermademewantt obreaki t
,it
wasapict
ureofXol
osl
eepi
ngIcal
l
edhershe
pi
ckedup
Xol
o:"
heybaby
"
Me:
"Noxol
o"
Xol
o:"
what
'swr
ong"
Me:"l
istenandli
stentomegood.Iwantyouout
ofmyapar tmentbytomor
row,y
ouandy ou
daughter"
Xol
o;"
wai
twai
twhat
'
sgoi
ngon"
Me:
"Iknowy
ouusedmut
ionmei
fIf
in.
..
"
Xol
o:"
babyIdon'
tknowwhaty
out
alki
ngabout
"
Me:"
don'
ttr
ytopl
aymeNoxoloyoujust
maki
ngmemor eangr
y"shest
art
edcryi
ng
Xolo:
"Il
ovey
ouNkanyi
sowhyar
eyoudoi
ng
thi
stomewhyar
ey oui
nsul
ti
ngme"
Me:"i
m notdoi
ngshittoyoubutifIfi
ndther
eI
wil
lki
ll
you,Iam goi
ngtodoaDnat eston
Thandoandyoubetterpr
aythoseresult
scome
backposi t
ivebecauseIftheydontIwi llhunt
youdownnomat terwherey ouar eIwi l
lfi
nd
youandIwi llfuckyouupy ourfami l
ywon' teven
recognizeyourfaceatt hemor t
uary"she
startedwail
ingIdroppedt hecal lIaskedt he
petrolatt
endanttof i
l
lupmyt ankIwenti n
boufhtabot tl
eofwat erIcalledSet hushedi dn'
t
pickupIkeptoncal l
i
ngov er6t i
messhepi cked
up
Set
hu:
"whatdoy
ouwantNkany
iso"
Me:
"wher
ear
eyou"
Set
hu:
"whatNkany
isoi
m busy
"
Me:
"justwantt
oseey
oul
ovewher
ear
eyou"
Sethu:"no!Youdon' tgettodothat"she
droppedt hecall
,Itri
edcalli
ngheragainbutit
wentt ovoicemail.Iwenttogardencourtgota
room Ilai
dont hebedwi t
hmyphoneIcal led
Sinoitwentst r
aighttovoicmai
l Ideci
dedtocall
Mbaliherf r
iend
Mbal
i
:"hel
l
o"
Me:
"itmeNkany
isoNkazi
'
sdad"
Mbal
i:
"whatt
hef
uckdoy
ouwantj
erk"Il
etout
asi
gh
Me:
"Ineedhel
p"
Mbali
:"nof
ucky
ou"shedr
oppedt
hecal
lI
cal
l
edagain
Me:
"pl
easedon'
thangup"
Mbal
i
:"whynot
"
Me;"
Ineedt
ogetint
ouchwit
hSethuIneedt
o
t
alkt
oherpl
easehel
pmeplease"
Mbali
:"why
"lastthi
ngIneededwaspeopl
e
knowi
ngmybusi nesst
hisshitandi
twas
embarr
assi
ng
Me:"ImessedupokayImissherImi
ssmy
daught
erIjustwanaseeher
"
Mbali
:"sheworksatNt
abeni
hospit
althat
'sal
l
yougetti
ngfr
om meandshe'satworkri
ght
now"
Me:"thankyou"Idr oppedthecallandj
umped
offt
hebed, leftst
raightawaydri
vingtontabeni
Iwenttotger ecepti
onistandaskedforherI
hadtowai teventuall
yshecameoutshewasi n
herscrubslookingreall
ybeauti
ful
Set
hu:
"ohGod"shet
urnedgoi
ngback
Me:"
Set
huwai
tpl
ease!
"Shedi
dn'
tst
op"
Set
huI
mi
ssyou!
!"
Sethu:
"st
opi
tyouembarr
assi
ngme"shespoke
thr
oughhert
eet
hIranuptoher
Me:"
im sor
ry"shewal
kedIf
oll
owedhert
oher
of
fi
ce
Set
hu:
"whatdoy
ouwantNkany
iso"
Me:
"Iwanty
ou"sheshookherhead
Set
hu: "
itdoesn'
tgolikethat
"Ilookedatt
he
pi
ctureofNkazionherdeskshewassmi li
ng
l
ookingsobeautiful
Set husnappedherfi
nger
sI
l
ookedather
Me:
"sor
ry"
Set
hu:
"whatdoy
ouwant
"
Me:
"Imi
ssy
ouandNkazi
"
Set
hu:
"wher
eisXol
oandy
ourchi
l
dren"
Me:
"Imessedup"
Set
hu:"
Idon'
tcarepl
easeleav
eNkany
isodon'
t
comebackwefinewit
houtyou"
Me:
"Iwanty
oubackSi
phosam Iwantusback"
Set
hu:
"no!
"Iwentonknees
Me: "
pleaseSethuIneedyouIloveyou"I
start
edcr yi
ngwhil
etel
li
ngheraboutwhatXol
o
didandt hatSt
haisnotmineshewentonher
kneesandhel dmeuntilIf
ini
shedmymi ni
breakdown
Me:
"im sor
rySet
hui
m sosor
ry"
Set
hu:
"itoki
tnoty
ourf
aul
t"shest
oodupand
pul
l
edmeup
Me:
"Imi
ssy
ouSet
huy
ouandnkazi
Imi
ssusI
needusback"
Sethu:"
thatcan'
thappenNkanyi
soI'
vemoved
on"Ifel
tmyhear tbr
akingi
ntot
inypi
eces
Me: "
thisi
smeSethuIlov
eyou"Il
ookedather
,
thedooropened"
youokaybabyIhear
d
somet hi
ng.
..
"Hest
oppedwalki
ngandtal
ki
ng
whenhesawmeSet humovedfr
om mewentto
him
Set
hu:
"it
'snot
hingi
m ok"
Hi
m: "ohokwel
lI
'l
lseey oul
aterIneedtost
rap
upforsur
ger
y"hekissedherforehead
Sethu:"ok"t
hedudenIl ookedateachotherI
rai
sedmyey ebrowIam agoodlookingmother
fuckerbutIwasal i
tt
lefragi
l
eatthatmoment
soseeinghimj ustbr
uisedmyegomor e
Sethu:"uhm Sandil
ethi
sisNkanyi
soNkazi'
s
father,
Nkanyisothisi
smyboy f
ri
endSandil
e"
wej ustcont
inuedlooki
ngateachotherSet
hu
clearedhert
hr oat
Sandi
l
e:"okbabyI
'
llseey
ouaf
teri
m donewi
th
mysurgery
"
Sethu:"
ok"heheldherchi
nandkissedherIfel
t
l
ikepunchinghi
m Sethupul
ledbackhekissed
herheadandwalkedout
Me:
"adoct
orSet
hur
eal
l
y"
Sethu:
"say
sy ou.Lookim sorr
yXolopull
eda
numberony ouIreal
lyam Ihateher
,ify
ouwant
toseeNkazicallmewe'l
larrangesomethi
ng"
Me:
"yougoi
ngt
oletmeseeher
"
Sethu:
"im notbi
tterwecancoparentshe'
s
ourseventhoughy ousai
dshe'snotyour
swhi
l
e
youhady oufeetonmyf ace"Il
ookeddown
Me:
"im sor
ry"
Set
hu:
"pl
easel
eav
ethi
sismywor
kpl
ace"
Me:"ok"Iwal kedoutwhenIwasatt hedoorI
l
ookedat" im notgivi
ngupSet hunotonusl ov
e,
Il
ovey ou"Ileftdrov
epastliquorstorebought
someal cohol dr
ankmy sel
ftosleep.
Thef ol
lowingdayIspenti twit
hNkazi at
Sethu'sapartment.Lateatni ghtIwentbackt o
j
hbt herewasnot raceofXol ojustasti
ckynot e
onthef ri
dgesayingsor ry.Ithr
ewoutal lthe
foodIhadi nthefridgeandt hecupboar ds,I
wasal lmyclothesbur ntthesheet sIwasal i
ttl
e
paranoid.Iaskedmom t omai lmeast ri
ngon
Thando'shairandshedi dIwentf orthetest.
2weeksl at
erIgottheresul
tsandThandowas
notmi neIfeltl
ikemywal l
swer ecl
osingin.I
criedmyey esoutIcall
edSet hucryi
ngbutt hat
asshol eSandi l
eansweredherphonesay i
ng
she' sinashowerIdr oppedthecallcri
edhar der
Idr ankthewhol eweek.Wentt oworkdr unkgot
suspendedXol owasnowher et obefoundev en
herf ami l
ydidntknowwher eshewas.Her
fami lydidn'
twantThandot heysaidtheydon't
hav et hemoneyt ofeedanext r
amount ,Ifel
tso
aloneIcoul dn'tgethol
dofLungeloorSi no.
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08/
12,
21:
25]Wadz
:Inser
t54
.
3y
ear
slat
er
.
Nkany
iso
.
Iwokeupwithmyf aceonmybae' sbreastt
his
chi
ldwasgif
tedtheywereli
kemyv er
yown
comfort
abl
epil
lowi bur
ri
edmyf acedeeper
shookmyheadnl etoutagroanshegiggled
sweetl
yandheldmyhead
Zonke; "
morni
nghandsome"ZonkeandIbeen
togetherof
fi
cial
lyf
orabout8monthsbutbeen
havingcasualsexf
oroverayear
Me:
"mor
ningbaby
"
Zonke:
"comeonwegoi
ngt
obel
ate"
Me:
"dowehav
etogo"
Zonke;"
yesitimport
antt
ome"shewasaCFO
atOli
veEnterpr
isest
heywer
ehavi
ngayearend
awar
dcer
emony
Me;
"ok"Imov
edf
rom hershegotof
fthebed
Zonke:
"comej
oinme"
Me;
"okI'
l
lbether
enow"Iwat
chedhergoi
ngt
o
t
hebat
hroom myphoner
angitwasSet
hu
Me:
"heybeaut
if
ul"
Sethu:
"hey.LookIcan'
tbri
ngNkazithereso
youwillhav
etofetchherattheai
rportorIcan
sendherstrai
ghtt
oCapeTown"
Me: "
I'
llf
etchheratt heair
portcozThandohas
aplayatschool andNkazi wantstogoseei t"
Thandost ayswi t
hmeatmyhousei nHydepar k
Xolonev erbotheredeversi
ncei f
oundsheused
mutionmeshej ustdi
sappearedneverlooked
backagai nThandomi ghtnotbemi ne
bi
ologicall
ybuthi sbeenmysonf rom theti
me
hewasbor n.His7nowandNkazi is8
Set
hu:"
okcool
wil
lcal
lyouwhenshetakesof
f.
Don'
tl
etmychi
ldst
andattheai
rpor
talone
Nkany
isoshebet
terf
indy
out
her
e"i
chuckl
ed
Me:
"andshewi
l
ltr
ustme"
Set
hu:
"okby
e"
Me: "bye"SethuandIwer enottogetherbutshe
wasst i
l
lmyweaknessshedi dn'
twantmeback
afterlotofbeggingIeventual
lygaveupIl ov
e
thatwomansheputupwi thlotofshitfr
om me
Ialmostl ostevery
thi
ngbutshewast here
<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<
Iwokeupbecausesomeonepour
edcol
dwat
er
al
lovermeIopenedmyeyes
Me;
"whatt
hefuck!
"Shepouredt
herestofi
tI
j
umpedoutofbedi
twasfil
l
edwithi
ce
Me:
"whatt
hehecki
swr
ongwi
thy
ou"
Sethu:"y
ouwhat '
swrongwi t
hme!WhenIget
call
edbecausey ouwentMIAatworkandwhy
thefuckam Iyouremergencycont
act
"she
thr
ewt hebucketdown"im heremi
ssi
ngwork
becauseofyou"
Me:
"youst
il
lcar
e"Ismi
l
ed
Sethu:"
fuckyou"shewalkedoutoft
he
bedroom whereIhadpassedoutwhil
edri
nki
ng
l
astnightIfol
lowedher"
whyt hehel
li
sthi
s
pl
acesof il
thyitev
ensmells"
Me:"
I'
ll
getitcl
eanedassoonasIdo
somet
hingaboutthi
shangov
er"shel
ookedat
meandhuffed
Set
hu:"j
ustgobat
hNkany
isoI
'
llgett
hispl
ace
cl
eanedout"
Me: "t
hanky ou"Il
eanedinshepushedmeIj ust
chuckledwentt othebathr
oom It ookalonghot
showerwhenIgotoutt hebedr oom wasclean
withfreshaircomingin.Il
otionedputonmy
sweat pant
sIwentoutt heloungewasal so
cleanedshewascl eaningtheki t
chenIwent
theretookoutabeerf rom t
hef ri
dge
Set
hu:
"doy
out
hinkt
hat
'sagoodi
dea"
Me:
"yep"It
ookasi
p
Sethu:"
youhav en'
tev
enhadbr eakf
ast
"Iwent
tostandinfr
ontofherherbreathi
ngpi
ckupI
gotevenclosersheputherhandonmypacks
Set
hu:"
stop"shet
ri
edpushi
ngmebutIdi
dn'
t
move
Me:
"Imi
ssy
ouSet
hu"
Sethu:
"don'
tdot
hisNka"shepl
eadedImov
ed
back"t
hankyouandpl
easeputonatop"
Me:
"why
?ithot
"
Sethu:"
Nkanyi
so"Ikissedherheadandwal
ked
outthekit
chenwentt owatchtv
.Whenshewas
doneshecamet ositonacouchopposit
emine
Sethu:
" y
oudon'
thav
efoodwasgoi
ngt
omake
yourbreakf
ast
"
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"whyar
eyouher
eSi
phosam"
Sethu:
"I.
..
uhm"shel
ookedev
ery
wher
ebutme
"wasworri
ed"
Me:
"mmh.Wecangot
othemal
lhav
e
br
eakf
astt
hengetgr
ocer
ies"
Set
hu:
"ok"
Me:"
I'
ll
gogetdr
essed"webot
hst
oodupatt
he
sameti
me
Sethu:"Ineedt
ofr
eshenupsoI
'
llmeety
ou
there"
Me:
"wher
eyoust
ayi
ng"
Set
hu:
"hot
el"
!
Me;
"what
?Why
?WhataboutSi
no"
Sethu:"she'
sinLondonandshedoesn'
ttr
ust
NombusoandIar oundKeenanwhenshe'
snot
there"Ichuckl
edcozIdon'
tblameher
Me:
"st
ayher
e"
Sethu:"
inabedthaty
ousharedwi
thXol
oor
thatguestr
oom yout
urnedi
ntoanur
ser
y"poi
nt
taken
Me: "
ohokwelll
etmegetdressedwil
lst
artat
yourhot
elbef
oregoi
ngtothemall"
Sethu:"
ok"Iwenttochangethenwel
eftst
art
ed
atherhotel
shefreshenedupwewenttohave
brunch
Me:
"thanky
ou"
Sethu:
" y
oumydaught er'
sdadNkany isoim
doingthi
sforhershe'
sdoesn'tderservean
unemployeddrunkar
df orafat
her"Ilooked
down
Me:
"thanky
ou"
Sethu:"whyhaveyounotbeengoingtowork
andt helandl
ordal
socal
ledmey outwomonths
behindwi t
hrenthewant
sy ououtNkanyi
so"
Me:"alothasbeengoi
ngonsi
phosam i
m
bar
elysurvi
vi
ng"
Sethu:"
youdidthi
stoy
our
sel
fNkanyi
sohad
youbeenfait
hfult
omenoneoft
hiswoul
dhave
happened"
Me:"Iknowandimreall
ysorr
ySethupl
easeI
needyou"sheshookherhead"pl
easel
oveI
needyouIloveyousomuchSiphosam we
coul
dbef ami
lyyouNkaziandI
"Ireachedf
or
herhandbutshemoveditmyfeltmyheart
cl
enching
Sethu:"
don'tlookatmewitht
hoseeyes"I
bli
nkedandt ri
edopeningt
hem evenmore
"Nkanyi
sost op"Ist
art
edfr
owningshesighed
"pl
easestop"
Me:
"Ineedy
oul
ove"
Sethu:"
justpaysowecango"Ical l
edthe
waitr
esspaidwel eftgoi
ngt opi
cknpaywedi
d
thegroceryandleft
.Igrabbedabeerand
watchedherunpacki ngi
t
Set
hu:
"youneedt
ost
opdr
inki
ng"
Me:
"itj
ustabeer
"
Sethu:"i
m nott
alki
ngaboutnowImean
dri
nkingduri
ngtheweekskippingworkand
goi
ngt oworkdrunkthatneedstost
op
Nkany i
so"
Me:
"okl
ove"
Set
hu:
"thi
sbet
ternothappenagai
n"
Me: "i
twon't
"shesmil
edandnoddedshe
fi
nishedupandaskedmet ot
akeherbackto
herhotelshehadamor ni
ngf
li
ghtthefol
l
owing
day.Idrovehert
her
eIgotoutthecarwhenshe
gotout
Set
hu:
"wher
eyougoi
ng"
Me:"needtomakesur
eyousaf
e"If
lashedher
asmileitday
sli
ket
heseImi
ssedmyt ongue
r
ing
Set
hu:
"Nkany
iso"
Me:
"comeonl
ove"It
ookherhandwewentup
t
oherroom
Sethu:
"im saf
eyoucanl
eav
e"It
hrewmy
sel
fon
thebed
Me:
"im spendi
ngt
heni
ght
"Ipul
l
edhert
ome
Set
hu:
"im wi
thSandi
l
eNkay
ouknowt
hat
"
Me:
"Idon'
tcar
ethi
sisaboutus"
Sethu:"
Icant"It
ookthetvremotopeneda
mov i
eIli
ftedherput
ti
ngherbetweenmyl egs.
Wewat chedthemov i
eincomfort
ablesi
lence
unti
lasexscenecameonIst art
edkissi
ngher
neck
Set
hu:
"Nkastop"Iputmyarm ar
oundherwai
st
pul
l
edhercl
osersheletoutasof
tmoan
Me:"I
'vemissedyouloverememberhow
magicalweare"Isuckedonherneckshedugi
n
hernai
lsonmyt high
Set
hu:
"Nka"
Me:"y
eslove.
..
.Str
addleme"shetur
nedandsat
onmeweki ssedIbroket
hekisst
ookoffher
topIf
li
ppedusovergotbetweenherl
egs
Me: "y
ousobeaut i
ful
love"shelif
tedherbody
upherkushmaki ngcontactwithmycock
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ookoffhershortsalongwithherpant
y
Istart
edkissi
ngherfrom herjawli
nedownher
necksl owlybitti
ngheral lthewayt oherl egs
backupt oherkushIsni f
fedi tshegi ggled" j
ust
l
ickmeal r
eady"Ilaughed" pateinceisv i
rt
ue"I
start
edr ubbingonherkushshel etoutanot her
softmoanwemadecount lessl ovethewhol e
night.Thef oll
owingdayshel ef t
.Shegav emea
trybutherbei ngi ndbnwhi leIwasi njhbdi dn't
dousanygoodIwasf ait
hf ultoherev ent hough
herwor kkeptherbusywet ri
edourbestt o
spendt imet ogethershewast ooinsecur eit
droveusbot hcrazybutIkeptupwi thi t
becauseIl ov
eherunt ilay earlatershewas
visi
ti
ngme.Shebr oughtmel unchf oundmei n
myof fi
cewi t
hacowor kerjusthav ingl unchshe
readt oomuchi ntot hesituationandt hrewaf i
t
shehadanemot i
onal breakdownIt riedmy
bestt oassurehert hatim her sI'l
lneverhur ther
butshet houghtitbestwebr eakupsowebr oke
upev ent houghIdi dn'twantust oshesai di tfor
herownsani ty.Nowshe' sdat ingtharsame
douchbagSandi le,Ihat etheguyheact stoo
per
fecthewear
sey
egl
assesandcar
digansl
i
ke
WTF!
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
Igotoffthebedwentt
ojoi
nmybabyinshower
igrabbedherassshet
ri
edtogetawayf
rom me
Zonke:
"Nkanyi
so!Don'
thavethet
ime"zonke
gotabodyofagoddessroundper
fectass,bi
g
boobs,
hipsandasmallwaist
Me:"babypl
easel
ookatme"Ipoi
ntedt
omy
ver
yhardcockshegi
ggl
ed
Zonke:
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ck"
Me:"ohyeah!
"Igr
abbedhercl
osersmashedmy
l
ipsonhers.
Wewer eknowgetti
ngdressedactuallyIwas
dressedjustsi
tt
ingint
heclosetwat chingherI
hadmar oonsuitwit
hawhi teshir
tnbl ack
sl
ippers.Shewaswearingawhi tebadgedr ess
withlacebackandmaroonheel s,shewas
fi
xingherweaveItookmyphonesentSi noa
DM onTwi
tt
er
Me:
"youcomi
ngt
othi
sawar
dshi
t"
Si
no:"yep.Whatsugarmamadraggingyou"Il
et
outachuckleZonkeis4year
solderthanmeI
fi
ndgrownwomanmor eappeal
i
ng
Me:
"yesandshutup"
Si
no:"
lol
seey
out
her
egi
veThandoaki
ssf
or
me"
Me: "wil
ldo"Il
ogoutlookedatZonkeshewas
standinginfr
ontoft
hemi rr
orIwenttost
and
behindmehel dherwaist
Me:
"youl
ookbeaut
if
ulmyl
ove"
Zonke:
"thanky
oubaby
"Iki
ssedhercheek
Me:
"let
'sgo"
Zonke:
"gi
vemeami
nut
eI'
l
lfol
l
owy
ou"
Me:"
ok"IwalkedoutwenttoThando'
sroom he
wasnotther
e,Iwentdownstai
rsf
oundhim
wat
chingtv
Me:
"dude"
Thando:
"pops"
Me:
"youat
e"
Thando:
"yepaunt
yalr
eadymademefood"I
hadamaidmor el
ikeanannyf
ormyl
i
ttl
e
champ
Me:"cool
ZonkenIaregoi
ngoutsolet'
str
y
l
esstvandmorerehear
sal
foryourshowon
Fr
iday"
Thando:
"Iwi
l
l"
Me:
"good"
Thando:
"Nkazi
sti
l
lcomi
ng"
Me:"
youknowshewoul
dn'
tmi
ssi
t"hel
ooked
atmeandsmil
ed
Thando:
"gr
eat
!"Zonkecamedown
Me:
"seey
oul
aterchampl
ovey
ou"
Thando:
"lov
eyout
oopops"
Me:
"let
'sgobaby
"
Zonke:
"by
eThando"
Thando:
"happymeal
please"
Zonke:
"of
cos"t
heyf
istpumpedwel
eft
.
.
Nombuso
.
Everwai tedforsomeonet oj ustdiesoy oucan
fi
ndhappi nesst hatwasmysi tuat
ionIwasj ust
waitingforPat ricktodieIl ovedmysonIhat ed
hisfather.Wewer emar r
iednowIwassohappy
onmyweddi ngdayt hi
ngswer epictureperfect
butast imewentont hepi cturestartedgetti
ng
tornay earintoourmar ri
agehest arted
cheat i
ngandImeanopenl ycheat ing.Istar
ted
regrett
ingnotl isteni
ngt oPj whobeggedmet o
notmar ryhi m ev enthoughIwashav inghishalf
brotherhest il
lwant edmeandboywasi thard
tel
li
nghi mi m pr egnant
<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<
Iwas7mont hspr egnantandIwasser i
ously
gaini
ngwei ghtIwashuge.Pat ri
ckwassucha
sweet hearthewasbackt othatPat r
ickIhad
fal
leni nl
ov ewi t
h.Hespentmor et i
meathome
onlytraveledwi t
hinthecountryandnev erspent
mor ethanoneni ghtawayf r
om home, hewas
att
ent i
veal waysmadesur eIhadev erythi
ngI
want edandneeded.Ihadbeeni gnoringto
skypewi thPj formont hsIkeptonmaki ng
excuses, thi
soneaf t
ernoonIwaswat chingtv
whileeatingmypi ckl
esdippedinmay owhenI
heardv oicescomi ngintothetvroom Ial most
wetmy selfwhenPat rickgoti
nwi thPj
Patr
ick:
"heyl
ove"heki
ssedmycheekandsat
nexttome
Pj
:"hel
l
o"
Me:
"hi
"
Pat
ri
ck:
"how'
smybabydoi
ng"
Me:
"hei
sok"
Pj
:"y
oupr
egnant
"
Pat
ri
ck:"
yes!Wehavi
ngababyandget
ti
ng
marr
iedassoonasshegi
vesbi
rt
h"
Pj:"
wowcongratul
ati
onspl
easeexcusemeI
needtogetgoi
ng"
Pat
ri
ck:
"youj
ustgother
eson"
Pj
:"i
mti
reddadI
'
dli
ket
orestI
'
llseey
ou"
Patr
ick:"ok"hest
oodupandl
eft"
hemustbe
real
l
yt i
red"
Me:
"wher
eishegoi
ng"
Patr
ick:
"penthouse"hestoodupwentupst
air
s
j
ustasat extcamet hr
oughmyphoneitwas
fr
om Pj
*
youbet
terbr
ingy
ourassher
eweneedt
otal
k*
Ist
oodupf
oll
owedPat
ri
ckt
oourbedr
oom
Me:
"baby
"hecameoutoft
hecl
oset
Pat
ri
ck:
"yes"
Me:
"im gonnagof
ormyappoi
ntment
"
Pat
ri
ck:
"whatappoi
ntment
"hehel
dmywai
st
Me:"massagebabyr
ememberIt
oldy
ouabout
i
t"heki
ssedmyhead
Patr
ick;
"okwishIcoulddr
iveyouther
ebutIgot
thi
sconfer
encecalli
n10mi nut
es"Ipret
ended
tofr
own
Me: "i
tokbaby"wekissedhebrushedmy
stomachIwentt ori
nsemymout htiedmy
brai
dsi ntoabunnychangedi
ntoamaxi dr
ess
andi l
eft.WhenIgottothepent
househewas
pacingupndown
Pj
:"y
oupr
egnant
!!
"
Me:
"don'
tyel
latme"
Pj:"
youfucknpregnantNombusoandyoudidn'
t
tel
lme"myey esstart
edwater
ing"
ohrelaxwit
h
thewaterworks"
Me:"Icoul
dntIt
ri
edev
eryt
imewespokebutI
coul
dnt"
Pj
:"JesusNombuso!I
sitmi
ne?
"
Me:
"no"
Pj
:"howsur
ear
eyou"
Me:
"im 7mont
hs"hel
ookedaway
Pj
:"oh"
Me:
"im sor
ry"hesatdown
Pj
:"i
t'
sok"
Me:
"ok"
Pj
:"i
tdoesn'
thav
etochangeany
thi
ngbaby
"
Me: "
itchangeseveryt
hingPj
im pr
egnantwit
h
yourfather
'schi
l
di tahugegamechanger"
Pj
:"NombusoIl
ovey
ouandy
oul
oveme"
Me: "
doesn'
tchanget
hef
actt
hati
m hav
ing
yourbrot
her"
Pj
:"soy
ouj
ustgoi
ngt
omar
ryhi
m"
Me:
"yes"
Pj
:"youdon'
thav
etomar
ryhi
m Nombuso
pl
ease"
Me:
"Ihav
eto"
Pj
:"noy
oudon'
t,
don'
tyoul
ovemeany
mor
e"
Me:"whateverwehadhastostopandf orbot
h
oursakesIhopeyourf
atherneverf
indsout
aboutthi
s"
Pj:"
soy
oujustgoi
ngt
owal
kawayf
rom us
fr
om me"
Me:
"doIhav
eachoi
ce"
Pj
:"y
esy
oucoul
dbewi
thme"
Me:
"Ican'
t"
Pj
:"whyar
eyousoscar
edofmyf
ather
"
Me;"
im notscar
edIl
ovehi
m Iwantt
obewi
th
hi
m"
Pj
:"y
ouhur
ti
ngme"
Me:
"im sor
ryt
hat
'st
hel
astt
hingIwantt
odo"
Pj:"Il
ov eyouNombusoi m hereinfrontofy ou
i
m wi lli
ngtobewi t
hyouregardlessoft hefact
thatyouhav ingmylit
tl
ebrotherandt hatmy
fami l
ywi l
lhatememyf at
herwi ll
probabl y
disownmeandf i
remebutI'm heresay ingI
l
ov ey ouIneedyouandwecanmaket hiswork"
Me: "
im sor
ry"Iwalkedoutandl
eftwent
strai
ghttospurIgotacornert
abl
estuff
edmy
facewithri
bsandwi ngs
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
Sonowher eIam drowningmysor rowsi na
bottl
eofwi newhil
ewat chingNewGi rl.I
twas
the3rdnightintherowt hatPat r
ickwasl at
ehe
waswor kingaroundjhbonl ynowPj tookover
Patri
ckwasj ustsuperv
isinghi m.Itookmy
phoneandcal l
edhim buti trangtov oicmail
I
j
ustst ar
tedcryi
ng.Hehadi solat
edmef rom
everyoneIwasast ayathomewi fewhohadno
fri
endsev enwithmysisterswehar dlyhangout
Sinowasbusywi t
hherfami l
yandbusi ness,
Sethuwasal waysbusyatwor kort r
y i
ngtobea
perfectmommyt oNkazi.Icouldn'
tevengo
visi
tthem cozPatri
ckdidn'twantmet o,
my
auntnt hekidshadtocomeher eift
heywant ed
toseemebecausePat r
ickdidn'tevenallowme
togohome.Hegoti nourbedr oom looki
ng
real
lyhandsomet hebastardrefusedtoagehe
j
ustl ookedbett
erwitht
ime
Patr
ick;"
mylovey
oustil
lup"It
ookmyphone
checkedthet
imeit01:
35
Me:
"wher
eyoucomi
ngf
rom Pat
ri
ck"
Pat
ri
ck:
"ohdon'
tbeanag,
wher
e'sChr
is"
Me:"asl
eepobv
iousl
yitaf
termidni
ght"he
ki
ssedmycheekthesmellofcheapperfume
mademesneeze
Pat
ri
ck:
"bl
essy
ou"
Me:
"atl
eastbuyy
ourhoeapr
operper
fume"
Pat
ri
ck:
"Idon'
tknowwhaty
out
alki
ngabout
"he
wal
kedtot
hebat
hroom Igotof
fthebed
f
oll
owedhi
m
Me:
"whoi
sshePat
ri
ck?
!!
"
Pat
ri
ck:
"don'
tbei
nsecur
eNombusoi
tpat
het
ic"
Me:"y
ouhav
eaner
vet
ospeakt
omel
i
ket
hat
Pat
ri
ck"
Pat
ri
ck:"
doInotsl eepi
nourbedever
ynight
?
DoInotsupportyouinever
yway?AndI'
m
al
wayshereforyouandourson"
Me:"youdon'
tev
enspendti
mewithChr
issoI
don'
tknowwhatyoutal
ki
ngabout
"
Patri
ck:"
Nombusoi
mtir
edIhadal
ongdayl
ast
thi
ngIwantist
ocomehometoanaggi
ng
i
nsecurewif
edon'
tmakemewantt
ogogeta
hotelr
oom"
Me: "
areyouev enusi
ngacondom act ual
l
yyou
knowwhatf ucky ouPat
ri
ckfu.
."Ididn'
teven
fi
nishheslappedmesohar dIgotsobersame
ti
meIheldmycheekwi t
htearsburningmyey es
Patr
ick:
"justshutuppl
ease!Jesuswomany
ou
needahobby "
Me:
"Pat
ri
cky
oupr
omi
sedme"
Pat
ri
ck:
"justl
i
key
oumadeav
owt
orespect
me"
Me:
"im sor
ry"
Patr
ick:
"justcomet obedIwanttosleep"he
tookmyhandwewentt obedhegotbetween
mylegsandst ar
tedkissingmewhichtookme
byasurprisecozithadbeenmor ethan2
monthssincehetriedanyf or
m ofi
nti
macywi t
h
meheki ssedmyneckIl etoutamoanhet ook
offmypaj amashorts
Pat
ri
ck:"l
et'
sgetyoupr
egnantyouneed
somet
hingtokeepyoubusy"Il
etoutamoan
whenheenteredme.
.
Lungel
o
.
Iwasgoi ngbackt oSAf ort hefir
stt i
mei nover
4yearsIhadsomanymi xedf eel
ings.Ifit
wasn'tforScottyIwouldn' thaveev enbothered
butitwashur t
ingherthataf t
er3y earsofbeing
i
nar elati
onshi
pshest illhadn'tmetmyf ami l
y
whichnowhadanext r
amembermyl i
tt
lesister
shewassuchacut i
epiewegotherwhenshe
was2y ear
ssonowshe' s4.Sowehadj ust
l
andedi nDbnwai ti
ngf ordadt opickusup
Scottywasbeingcut enextt omeshewas
fr
eakingoutasmuchasshehadsky pedwi t
h
mypar entsshewasst ill
r eall
ynerv ousandi t
wassocut e
Me:
"babycal
m down"
Scotty
;"doyout
hinkthi
sdressisappropri
ateI
meanIdon'twanalooktoofatbutIal
sodon' t
wanttoputmybumpoutt here"yepshe's
pregnant5months
Me:"youl
ookbeaut
if
ulbabycal
m down"my
phoneri
ngsi
tdad"dad"
Dad:
"im out
side"
Me: "ok"Ist
oodup" comel
etsgobaby"Itook
herduf f
lebagpul l
edmysuitcasewhi
leshe
pul
ledhersui t
casewewal kedouttodadhe
smiledaswecr ossedther
oad
Scot
ty:
"baby
"
Me:
"cal
m down"
Scot
ty:
"ok"wegott
odad
Me;
"daddy
!"
Dad:"
son"wehugged"
andt
hismustbet
he
beaut
if
ulScot
ty"
Scot
ty:
"mrDl
ami
nihel
l
o"dadchuckl
ed
Dad:
"don'
tbef
ormal
dadi
sfi
ne"shesmi
l
ed
Scot
ty:
"thanky
ou"
Me:
"let
'sgetoutofshe'
sti
red"
Dad:
"of
cos"wegotinthecarandlef
tdri
vi
ng
homeoverl
ightconv
ersat
ionunti
lwegothome.
Mommycameoutwi t
hLil
leywhensheheard
t
hecar
Mom: "
baby
!"Shepul
l
edmei
nforahugwe
hugged
Me:
"mom t
hisi
sScot
ty"
Mom:
"she'
sbeaut
if
ulwel
comesweet
ie"
Scot
ty:
"thanky
ou"
Me:"andt
hat
'sLi
ll
ey"Ir
eacheddownandl
i
fted
herupshegi
ggl
ed
Li
ll
ey:"
Lul
u"sheki
ssedmynoseshe'
ssucha
happychi
l
d
Me:
"how'
smybaby
"
Li
l
ley
:"f
inemommyandIar
ebaki
ng"
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"ni
ce!
"
Mom:
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nIgotl
unchouti
nthebacky
ard"
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lgoti
nIt
ookScot
tyt
omy
bedr
oom
Scot
ty:
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l
lfr
eshenupqui
ckl
ybef
orel
unch"
Me:"okbaby"Ihel
dherchi
nandgav
eheraki
ss
"
Ilov
ey ou"
Scott
y:"l
oveyoutoo"Iwal
kedoutgoing
downstair
s.Aft
erl
unchScott
ywentt osleep
dadandIwer ehavi
ngbeer
swat chi
ngar ugbyI
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edwhenIsawBat hotheguyplayed
prof
essionalr
ugbynowhewasont henat i
onal
team
Dad:
"youneedt
omar
ryt
hatwomanLungel
o"
Me:
"im notr
eady
"
Dad:"
younotget
ti
nganyyoungandyoucan'
t
keeponhavi
ngdif
fer
entbabymamas"
Me:
"mar
ri
agedad"
Dad:"yesLungeloyougotanamazi ngjob,
you'v
emadeanamef oryourselfasascr i
pt
writ
eryouar ef
inanciall
ystable.Mar r
ythat
womany outwoalreadyleavet ogetherandshe
l
ovesy oustopholdingont oSinoshe'smar ri
ed
withchil
drenmov eon"
Me:
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tthi
nkI
'
mreadyf
ormar
ri
age"
Dad:
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eadySi
bal
'khul
utr
ustmeI
'
llnev
er
l
eadyouonawrongpath"
Me:"
ok..
..
.Im askhert
omar
ryme"hepat
ted
myback
Dad:"good.Waitdoyouthi
nkherf
ami
l
ywi
l
l
acceptlobol
a"welaughed
.
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ssful forthe
Smi t
hhousehol dourchi ldr
enar eallhealthyand
alwayshappyVuv uis9she'sbecameherown
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she'staki
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inguptomi schief
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ckast hieves.Keenanwasname
partneratt
hef irm, Ihadmyowncompany
Smi t
hsDev elopment sdealswi t
hor ganization
developmentandr ecruit
ment ,
Oliveent er
prises
wasourmaj orclientalongwithSmi thhol di
ngs.
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gooddaysthanbadsometi
mesIfeel
li
keki
ll
i
ng
hi
ml i
kethi
sonetime
<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<
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erspendi
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fr
om bei
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i
ghthecoul
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ontthisgi
rl
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Me:
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eyou"
Her:"
mrssmi
thi
m Tr
acyt
henewnanny
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elt
l
ikedyi
ng
Me:
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"
Tracy:"
yes"thi
st hi
ngwasi nshortsandat ank
topwithoutabrashewasmodel bodytypeand
prett
yIhadgainedwei ghtIwassupert i
red
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splay
nowt ocomehomet oal loft
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perkyforthefi
rstti
mei nmyl i
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i
ntimidatedbyanotherfemale
Me:"okmov efr
om thedoorIdli
ketogetinmy
house"shemov edwegotinIzzyandItookthe
twi
nstot heirr
oom theywereasleepwhile
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iedTaylornLuvuy
ot heywerealso
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nbedIwentt oshowerandwentt osleep.
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s
Tr
acywaswatchi
ngtvi
nthetvroom
Me: "
youdoknowt hati
nthebackhouset here'
s
aloungewitht
vthat'
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fst
ay s"
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ikeim notl
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i
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acey
:"ohsor
ryj
ustt
hatKeenandi
dn'
tmi
nd"
Me;"i
tMrSmi
thandimtel
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ngyou"okthatwas
abit
chmoveconsi
der
ingt
hatt
hestaffusesour
name
Tracy:"
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ry"shegotupandl
eftj
ustasKeenan
gotin
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wam"Ij
umpedonhi
m he
dr
oppedhisbri
efcaseandhehel
dmyasswe
ki
ssedIpul
ledout
Me:
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vemi
ssedy
ou"
Keenan:"
sohav eI
"hegavemeababyki
ssand
tookusupstai
rswemadelove.Wewer
enow
cuddl
ingaft
eroursessi
on
Me:
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acy
"
Keenan:"
wit
hthetwi
nsIfigur
edIzzywi l
lneed
helpsoIcal
l
edtheagencyandtheirsenther
over"
Me:
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redherwi
thoutt
alki
ngt
ome"
Keenan:
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yingtobehel
pful
thet
winshave
beenahandf
ulIdidn'
twantt
oaddastressof
fi
ndi
ngananny"
Me:
"Idon'
tl
ikeher
"
Keenan:
"oh,
why
?"
Me:
"justdon'
tyouneedt
ofi
reher
"
Keenan:
"Ni
kky
"
Me:
" i
m beingseri
ousDamonfir
eherandget
t
heagencyt osendisacoupl
eofpeopl
eI'
l
ldo
t
heinter
viewsmy sel
f"
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"okI
'
llf
ir
eher
"
Me:
"di
dyousl
eepwi
thher
"
Keenan:
"what
?!Ar
eyoucr
azy
?"
Me:"i
tasimplestr
aightf
orwar
dquest
ionI
d
r
atheraskyouthanassume"
Keenan:"noIdi
dnotsl
eepwi
thherIwoul
d
nevercheatonyou"
Me:
"let
'shopey
oubei
nghonest
"
Keenan:"
tr
ustme"i
ndeedhefi
redherIdi
dthe
i
nterv
iewsgotsomeonewhodi
dn'ti
nti
midat
e
meinmyownhouse
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
NqubekoandIhadjustf
ini
shedameeti
ngwith
amanagerofaresort wewer egoi
ngtouse
f
orateam bui
ldi
ngweekend,themanagerhad
j
ustlef
tIwaspacki
ngupmyt
hingsasusual
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rd
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il
lcan'
tgetov
eri
t"
Me:
"itbeen4y
ear
smov
eonNqubeko"
Nqubeko:
"Ist
il
lwanty
ouSi
no"Ist
oodup
Me:
"getov
eri
t"
Nqubeko: "
seey ouatt heteam buildingawhol e
weekendwi thme"hepl ayedwi thhiseyebrows
suggest i
velyIlaughedandl ef
thimt hereitwas
myl astmeet ingoft hedayt herewasnor eason
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iceIjustwenthome.
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chen
Ijustletoutasi ghatt hesight
Me:
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'sgoi
ngon"
Jay
den:
"mommy
"
Ky
li
e:"
itwasJadenmommy
"
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oulyi
ng"theywerekneel
edaround
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st
uff
ingt
hei
rfaces
Me:
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dthatmov
efr
om t
hecount
er"
Ky
li
e:"
Jay
denmommy
"
Jay
den:
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ing"hepushedher
Mom:
"hey
!Yougoi
ngt
ohur
tyoursi
ster
"
Jay
den:
"sor
ryKy
"
Me:"
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dn'
tIsay
askf
orsomet
hingdon'tj
usttakei
t"
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rymommy
"
Me:"gowatchtv"theywalkedoutIputmybags
onthecounterandcleanedIhadjustf
ini
shed
whentheint
ercom rangIwenttoanswer
Me:
"yes"
Voi
ce:
"hey
"
Me:
"lungel
o"
Lungel
o:"
yeahopenup"
Me;
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..Aah.
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cos"Iopenedt
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e
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meIsawhi m
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onl
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vi
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hewalkedmywayasi fhewaswal kinginsl
ow
motion.Helookedsobeaut i
fulhewast all
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waymor emuscularandr eallyyell
owhi shair
wascuthenowhadashor tfade
Lungelo:
"honey
!"Hescoopedmeupinahug
myf eetl
eftt
hegroundhesmel
ledheav
enl
y
Me:
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e"
Lungel
o:"yes"heputmedown"
youl
ook
beauti
ful
"
Me: "
youlooksohandsomeandgrown"he
chuckled"
wow!"Hekissedmycheekwestar
ed
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oandTay lorgotoutwi t
htheirschool
bagsRonnyj ustshotmeal ookandwentt he
otherway .Thegi r
lscameourwayl ikemy
daughtersar esobeaut if
ulyoupeopl e
Them:
"heymom"
Me:
"heyhowwasschool
"
Tay
lor
:"f
un"
Vuv
u:"
okay
"
Me:
"justokay
"
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u:"
yes"shel
ookedatLungel
o"hi
Luh"
Lungel
o:"
hey
"
Tayl
or:"
whywereyoukissi
ngmymom Luh"
Lungel
onIlookedateachother
Me: "
hedi
dn'
tki
ssmeTay
lor
.Whatyoutal
ki
ng
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ustr
emov
ingani
nsectonmy
face"
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or:
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nLuv
uyowasj
ustl
ooki
ng
atus
Me:"vuv
uy ourfathercametoseey ou"Luvuy
o
knowsthatLungeloisherfatherandt hat
KeenanisTaylorandt het
win'sfatherbut
Keenanisherdadsi nceheisallsheknows
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lokayt
hat
'sni
ceofyouLuhsowhat
youwanttodoIdon'
thavecl
asstoday
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o
j
ustlookedatme
Me:"she'sgrown"Luv
uy oi
smor ereserv
ednow
goesstraightt
othepointwhenspeaking
Lungel
o:"
Isee"het
ookherhand"
let
'sgo
hangout
"
Vuv
u:"
hangout
?"
Lungel
o:"
yes"
Vuv
u:"
I'
ll
gochangef
ir
st"
Me:
"needmet
ohel
pyoubaby
"
Vuv
u:"
I'
ll
bef
inemom"shewal
kedi
nthehouse
Lungel
o:"
wow!
"
Me:
"she'
sourdaught
er"
Lungel
o:"
whathappenedt
ot hatcrazyVuv
u
whowouldhavejumpedatthesightofme"
Me: "
shegrewupLungel
oyoulef
tfor4year
s
andonlyspoket
oher4timeswhatdoyou
expect"
Lungel
o:"
Imessedupdi
dntI
"
Me:
"yesy
oudi
dbuti
tok"
Lungel
o:"
weneedt
otal
k"
Me:
"about
"theR8r
oar
edbef
orest
oppi
ngand
Keenancameoutwal
kedt
owar
dsusl
ooki
ng
l
ikeamodeli
nnavysui
t
Keenan:"t
handol
wam"hegavemeababykissI
fel
tapingofguil
tknowi
ngIj
usthadl
ungel
o'
s
tongueinmymout h
Me:
"heybaby
"hegav
emeat
ighthug
Keenan:"
Lungel
odi
dn'
tknowy
oui
nthe
countr
y"
Lungel
o:"
justgother
e2day
sback"keenan
l
ookedatme
Me:
"Idi
dn'
tknow"
Lungel
o:"sorr
ytopit
chupiny
ourhouse
wit
houtlett
ingyouknow"
Keenan:
"it
'sok"
Lungel
o:"
thoughtI
'
dst
eal
Luv
uyof
oracoupl
e
ofhour
s"
Keenan:"
it
'saschool
nightshehasaschedul
e"
Lungel
olookedatme
Lungel
o:"
Iwasn'
tawar
e"
Me:"shedoesn'
thavecl
assest
odayy ouj
ust
havetobri
ngherbackbefor
e18:00cozthat
'
s
homeworktime"
Lungel
o:"
okI
'
llmakesur
ewebackby18:
00"
Keenan:
"y oudothat
"Vuvucameoutinskinny
j
eansallstartav
estsnjacketwi
thherhai
rti
ed
i
napony tail
Vuv
u:"
daddy
"
Keenan:
"heypr
incess"
Vuv
u:"
Luhwant
stohangout
"
Keenan:
"hav
efun"heki
ssedherhead
Vuv
u:"
wecanl
eav
e"
Lungel
o:"okbyeguy s"t
heyl
eftwhenthecar
drovedownthedrivewayKeenanandIwentin
thehouse.Thetwinscamerunningwhenthey
sawKeenanhepi ckedthem up
Keenan:
"youguy
swer
egoodt
oday
"
Ky
li
e:"
Jay
denpushedme"
Jayden: "
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ryKy"Ilef
tthem ther
ewent
upt oourroom wentstr
aighttothebathroom
tookashowerwhenIgotoutKeenanwasl y
ing
ont hebedbusywi t
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closetlot
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aI
wentt obedgotont opofhim helaughed
Keenan:
"mywi
fe"
Me:
"for
every
our
s"
Keenan:
"youok"
Me:
"im sor
ryaboutLungel
ojustpi
tchi
ngup"
Keenan:"
itnotyourf
aul
t"Il
eanedi
ngav
ehi
ma
ki
ss"Ilov
ey ou"
Me:"
Iwantanotherchi
l
d"hel
aughedand
f
li
ppedusovergetti
ngbet
weenmylegs
Keenan:
"yousur
e"
Me:
"yes"
Keenan:
"wanast
artnow"hest
art
edki
ssi
ngmy
neck
Me:
"yes"wemadesl
owl
ove
Keenan:
"Il
ovey
ou"hegotof
fmel
aidnextt
o
me
Me:"
Iloveyou"hesatupkneel
edbet
weenmy
l
egsl
iftedt
hem up
Me:
"whatar
eyoudoi
ng"Iwasl
aughi
ng
Keenan:
"maki
ngsur
emyswi mmersswimfast
"
Il
aughedheli
ft
edmylegshi
ghershaki
ngt
hem
Me:
"babyst
op"heputapi
l
lowundermybut
t
Keenan:"
stayl
i
kef
or5mi
nut
esdon'
tmov
e"I
gi
ggled
Me:
"youcr
azy
"
Keenan:
"youl
ovemeany
way
"
Me: "
yesIdo"heki
ssedmyf or
eheadwe
remainedi
nourroom t
alki
ngunti
lsomeone
star
tedknocki
ng
Keenan:
"yes"
Vuvu:"
im backdaddyandLuhwant
stot
alkt
o
youandmom"
Keenan:
"okwecomi
ng"
Vuvu:"ok"Igotof
fthebedputonmy
sweatpantsnsportbr
awithf
lopswhi
lekeenan
j
ustputonsweat pantswewentdownst
airs
foundLungelointhel
ounge
Me:
"youguy
shadf
un"
Lungel
o;"
yeahfel
tli
keget
ti
ngt
oknow
someonedif
fer
ent"
Keenan:
"she'
sgr
owi
ngup"
Lungel
o:"
yeah"
Me:
"shesai
dyouwantt
otal
k"
Lungel
o:"yeah,
I'
dli
ketohav eherforthe
weekendmypar ent
smi ssherIalsowouldli
ke
tospendti
mewi thher
"keenannIl ookedat
eachother
, t
hethi
ngisKeenanisVuv u'spar
ent
asmuchasLungel oandIaresodeci si
ons
aboutherhavetobeokwi t
hKeenanaswel l
Keenan:
"thatshoul
dn'
tbeapr
obl
em r
ightbaby
"
Me:
"uhm y
eahi
tcool
"
Lungel
o:"
thankyouguessI'
ll
seey
ouguy
s
tomorr
ow"itwasThursday
Me: "ok"heleftIwentt
ohel pVuv unTaytay
withhomewor kaft
erhomewor kshaddinner
afterdinnertheyal
lhadtheirbathsIt
ucked
them inwentt obed.Iwenttomyhusbandhe
waswat chi
ngt vi
nbedIjoinedhim snuggli
ng
closerhewr appedhisarmsar oundme
Keenan:
"theki
dsi
nbed"
Me:"
yep.Il
oveyou"hehel dmychinweki
ssed
whi
chledtoanothersessionoft
ryi
ngf
ort
he
newbabyaft
erthatwesl ept
.
Thefol
lowi
ngdayIstartedatmydoctorf
ora
checkupandevery
thingwasgoodt ogohe
gavemepill
stoimprovemyf er
ti
li
ty.
.
Nombuso
.
IwokeupwhenPat ri
ckwasget t
ingoutofbed, I
watchedhim goingtothebat hr
oom Ihat edhi
m
andIlovedhim atthesamet imeIjustwi shI
couldswit
choffmyemot ionalswitch.Igotof
f
thebedfoll
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theshowerIjoi
nedhi m andheldhimf r
om the
back
Pat
ri
ck:
"imr
unni
ngl
atenombuso"
Me:"ok.Doyouneedmet
opr
epar
ewor
k
cl
othesfory
ou?"
Patri
ck:"yes"Igotouttheshowerwi thout
shower i
ng,Iputonar obewentt otheclosetI
tookoutanav ysl
imf i
tchinopants,awhitelose
tshi
rtandabl ueblazerwithwhiteyeezyhegot
outloti
onedgotdr essedIkneeledinfrontof
himf l
oodedhi spantsatthebottom hepulled
hisblazertositattheelbows
Pat
ri
ck:
"thanky
oumywi
fe"heki
ssedmyhead
Me:
"youwel
come"
Patri
ck:"youalwaysmakemelookgood"
may beifIdidn'
tyouwoul
dn'
tbecheat
ingI
thoughttomy sel
f
Me:
"youmyhusbandi
tmydut
y"
Pat
ri
ck:
"Iappr
eci
atey
ou"
Me:"
fi
nishupI
'
llgomakesur
ebr
eakf
asti
s
r
eady"
Pat r
ick:"
ok"Iwenttothekitchenthechefwas
donewi thbreakf
asttheywer eset
tingupt he
nannywasf eedi
ngChr i
smybabyt ookhis
fatherfaceshapeandmycompl exion.Patri
ck
camedownwehadbr eakf
astwhenwewer e
donehel eft
.Itookabat hgotoutlotionedgot
dressedcalledSino
Si
no:
"heysi
s"
Me:
"heyhowar
eyou"
Si
no:
"im goodwhat
sup"
Me:
"Ineedy
oudoct
orsdet
ail
s"
Si
no:"
whathappenedt
oyourdoct
or"hi
s
Pat
ri
ck'
sfr
iend
Me:
"hi
sawar
eandIneedt
oseeadoct
ort
oday
"
Si
no:"okI
'
llt
exty
out
hedet
ail
sandcal
lfora
sl
ot"
Me:
"thanky
ou"
Si
no:
"cool
got
tago"
Me: "
okby e"Itookmyhandbagansmscame
throughj ustasIwasget t
inginmycarIwentt o
thedoct orwai t
ingf orabitbeforegett
ingin.I
didapr egnancyt estitcamebacknegat iveIdid
ani njection,therewasnowayIwasgoi ngt obe
pregnantagai nwhi l
ePat r
ickisoutt
herewi th
youngergi rl
sbei ngabl esser.Aft
erseeinga
doct orIwentt odr opofmycvi ndif
fer
entl aw
fi
rmsIhav eabl oodymast ersinl
awIdi dmy
arti
clesbutwhenIgotof f
eredajobPat ri
ck
didn'twantmet owor kbutfuckthatnow.Af ter
droppingoffmycvIwentt osandtoncit
yf or
someshoppi ngIhadj ustcameoutofChanel
afterget
ti
ngahandbagwhenIsawPat r
ickwith
somegi rl
wearingav eryskimpydresswith
heelscarr
yingpaperbagsf rom ZaraIwalked
towardsthem Patr
ickf r
ozewhenhesawme
Me:
"hel
l
o"Icar
ri
edonwal
ki
ng
Pat
rick:
"nombuso!
!..
..Baby
!!
"Herantomeand
hel
dmyar m"babyitnotwhati
tlooksl
i
ke"
Me:
"okbabyl
etmyar
m goIneedt
ogohome"
Pat
ri
ck:
"wi
l
lleav
etoget
her
"
Me:
"Idr
oveher
e"
Pat
ri
ck:
"I'
l
lsendadr
iverf
ormycarwecan
l
eavewi
thyours"
Me:"ok"Il
ookedatt hegir
lshewasstil
l
st
andingther
elookingatus" shoul
dn'
tyou
at
leastsaygoodbyet oyourf
r i
end"
Patr
ick:
"nol
etsgo"heki
ssedmeandputhi
s
handonmylowerbackwel ef
tgoi
ngt
omycar
heopenedthepasagersi
tformegoti
nthe
dr
iver
ssitanddroveoff
Pat
ri
ck:
"Il
ovey
oubaby
"
Me:
"Il
ovey
out
oo"her
ubbedmyt
high
Pat
ri
ck:
"I'
dli
ket
otakey
out
odi
nnert
oni
ght
"
Me:
"I'
dlov
ethat
"
Pat
ri
ck:
"ok,
youl
ookbeaut
if
ulbyt
heway
"
Me:
"thanky
ou"
Pat
rick:
"youknowIthi
nkweneedt
ogoona
hol
i
dayev eni
fitj
ustaweeky
oualway
slov
ed
Par
is"
Me:
"thatwoul
dbef
un"
Pat
ri
ck:
"youcantalktoNikkyaboutChri
s
st
ayi
ngwiththem,Idon'
tfeelcomfor
tabl
ewi
th
mysonstayi
ngwithstaf
fforsolong"
Me:
"ok"hel
etoutasi
gh
Pat
ri
ck:
"im sor
rynombuso"
Me:"whyy
ouapol
ogi
zi
ngbecausei
tnotwhatI
t
hink"
Patri
ck:
"arey
oucheati
ngonmeNombusoi
s
thatwhyyounotupset
"
Me:
"ei
!!Ther
ewego,
im notcheat
ingony
ou"
Pat
ri
ck:
"so?
"
Me:
"Idon'
twantt
ogetbeat
enup"
Pat
ri
ck:
"im notamonst
ernombuso"
Me:
"Idi
dn'
tsayy
ouar
e"
Pat
ri
ck;
"butt
hat
'swhaty
oui
mpl
yi
ng"
Me:"canwenotdot his?Youcheat
ingonme
Patr
ickther
e'snothingIcandoaboutthat
cl
earlyi
m notdoingi tfory
ouanymorewe
mightaswelldiv
or ce"
Patr
ick:
"nowyoutal
ki
ngcrazy
"hepunchedi
n
thecodethegat
eopenedwegotin
Me:"
im notgoingtostayfory
ourcheati
ng
way
s"hepar kedthecarIgotouthetookmy
paperbagsnfoll
owedmeIgoti
ntookmyson
fr
om hisnanny
Chr
is:
"mamam"
Me: "y
esmyki ng"hejustsmi l
edandheldmy
cheeksIwentupt oourr oom Isatonthebed
play
edwi thmyson.Pat r
ickgotinwenttothe
cl
osetleftthebagstherencameout ,Iwatched
hi
m pacingupndownwhi leIti
ckl
edChriswho
couldn'
tstoplaughi
ng
Pat
ri
ck:"y
ounotl
eavi
ngmeoversomet
hing
st
upidnombuso!
"Ii
gnor
edhi
m
Me: "
whosethemostadorabl
eboyinthewor
ld
..
..Yesi
tyouitbabychr
is..
.Yesi
tismyboy"
Chri
s:"
mama"hewasj
ustl
aughi
ngnki
cki
ng
theai
r
Pat
ri
ck:
"nombuso!
!"
Me:"
let
'sgogety
ouasnackbaby
"Igotof
fthe
bedt
ookchri
swithme
Pat
ri
ck:
"nombuso!
!!
"
Chri
s:"dada"Iwalkedoutwentt ogetchri
sa
snackwesatdownwat chedt vunt
ili
twast i
me
fordi
nnerIsentPat r
ickansmst ocomedown
toeatandhedi d.AfterdinnerIgavechri
sa
bathtookhimtobedaf terreadi
nghim astoryI
wenttomyr oom tookabat hPatri
ckgotin
whil
eIwasbat hinghesatnextt othetub
Pat
ri
ck:
"younotl
eav
ingmenombuso"
Me: "y
esIam"hest oodandl if
tedmeof fthe
tub" putmedown! !Patri
ckl etgoof fme"he
threwmeont hebedqui cklygotbet weenmy
l
egsev erythingmov edsof astsonenoughhe
hadmyhandspi nneddownwi thhi shands
whi lehewasbal l
sdeepi nmeIkeptoncr y i
ng
beggi nghimt ostopbutmycr iesonlyseemed
tof uelhim hemov edf asterpoundi ngme
harderhebi tmybr easttoapoi ntofpainhe
roar edloudlyashecamewhenhewasdonehe
pushedbackmycur lsandgav emeababyki ss
Pat
ri
ck:
"Il
ovey
ouwoman"hegotof
fmeIj
ust
facedtheothersi
dehepull
edmeclosetohim
spooningmehest ar
tedsnor
ingsof
tl
yinst
antl
y
Ijustcr
iedsil
entl
y
.
Lungel
o
.
Spendi ngt heweekendwi t
hLuv uyowasni ce
butmydaught erreal
lyhadchanged, shel ov
ed
differentthingsnowshespokedi fferentlyIjust
didn'tknowany moreandi thurtmesobad.She
wasnotaf anofScot tyandithurtScot tyshe
j
ustcr i
edIt ri
edmaki ngherfeelbetterabouti t
butt herewasn' tmuchIcandoi fthechi l
ddi dn'
t
l
ikeher ,
ev enwhenIt oldherthatScot tyis
pregnantwi thherli
tt
lebrotherorsistershej ust
saidokandwentonwi t
hherbusiness.I twas
Sundaymi ddaywhenIdr oppedherof fatSino's
houseSi nowasnott hereandIreallyneededt o
talktoherbef or
eLuv uyotoldheraboutScot ty
soIcal ledher
Si
no:
"hel
l
o"
Me:
"heywher
ear
eyou"
Si
no:
"justdr
ivi
ngi
ntot
heci
ty"
Me:"i
m atnkany
iso'
spl
acepl
easecomebywe
needtotal
k"
Si
no:
"okgi
veme15mi
nut
es"
Me: "
sure"shehangupIwat chedtvunti
lshe
cal
ledwhenshewasatt hegateIopenedfor
youandwai tedbythedoorl
ucklyNkanyisowas
outwithhischil
dren
Si
no:"
hey!
"Shecametowar
dsmel
ooki
ng
gor
geousi
nasimplesundr
ess
Me:
"heycomei
n"wegoti
n
Si
no:
"wher
e'sev
ery
one"
Me:"out"wesatdown"
thanky
ouf
orgi
vi
ngme
Luv
uy o"shegi
ggled
Si
no:
"she'
syour
slungel
o"
Me:
"uhm"Ist
racheedmyhead"
lookIcame
homewi
thsomeone"
Si
no:
"oh"
Me:
"yes"
Sino:"y
oubeeninarelat
ionshi
pforthatlong
thatyouwoul
dbr i
ngherhomeandi ntroduce
hertoourchi
ld"shesoundedsohurt
Me:
"yesandshe'
spr
egnant
"
Si
no:
"oh"shest
oodupIdi
dto
Me:"dadwantsmetomarr
yher
"at
earf
ell
from
hereyeshequi
ckl
ywipedi
t
Si
no:
"ist
hatwhaty
ouwant
"
Me:
"Idon'
tknow"
Si
no:"
wel
lcongr
atul
ati
onsi
m happyf
ory
ou"I
wal
kedcl
osert
oher
Me:"
thanky
ou"Iheldherar
msbr
oughther
cl
osetomefastshegasped
Si
no:
"whaty
oudoi
ng"
Me:"
Ilov
eyou"Iki
ssedhershepushedme"j
ust
sayt
hewordSinot
ellmeyouwill
leavehi
m"
Si
no:
"st
op"
Me: "Idon'
twantto"Ikissedheragai nbutthi
s
ti
mesheki ssedmebackIl i
ft
edherupshe
wrappedherl egsaroundmywai stItookherto
theroom Iwasusi ngandl ai
dheront hebed
quicklygotbetweenherlegsi tf
eltri
ghtat
homeIl etoutasigh
Me:
"Il
ovey
ouSi
nov
uyo"shel
i
ftedherwai
st
Sino:"
ilov
ey ou"wewentbacktokissi
ngwhil
e
stri
ppi
ngeachot herwemadeloveIwasata
ti
ppingpointaft
erIhadmadesureshecame
whenshescr eamedcondom butIcoul
dn'
thol
d
Ishotmyl oaddeepinher
Me:"i
m sorryyouj
ust..
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unabl
etofindthewordstotel
lherhow
amazingherkushi
s
Si
no:
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ssedandpul
l
edbackaf
ter
awhi
le"Ihav
etogohome"If
eltmyhear
t
dr
opping
Me:"y
eahofcos"shegotofft
hebedIdi
das
wel
lwedressedupinsil
enceIwal
kedhert
oher
car
Me:
"nowwhat
"
Si
no:
"whenar
eyougoi
ngback"
Me:"i
m notsur
e"honest
lyIwashav
ingdoubt
aboutgoi
ngbacktothestat
e
Sino:"ok.
..
.Ineedtimetoprocessthis.I
ma
mar r
iedwomanl ungel
oitnotjustaboutme
anymor eIgotki
dstothinkabout"
Me:
"of
cos"
Si
no:
"I'
l
lseey
ou"
Me:"bye"Iki
ssedherheadshegoti
nhercar
anddroveoffaft
erhooti
ng
.
I
thadbeen2day
ssi
nceLungel
oandIhadsex,
I
'v
ebeenavoidi
nghi
m si
nce.Ij
ustdidn'
tknow
whatt
osayordo.Iwasi
nthetvroom watchi
ng
t
vwiththet
winswhenRonnygotin
Ronny
:"canwet
alk"
Me:
"sur
e"
Ronny
:"st
udypl
ease"
Me:
"ok"Ist
oodupwewentt
othest
udy
Ronny:
"If
inal
l
yfoundhi
my ourtwin"myhear
t
ski
ppedabeatwehadbeenlookingforov
er
months
Ronny
:"i
m sor
ryDomi
nicbuti
t'
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tonCowel
l
"Il
ookedat
hi
m dumbf ol
ded
Me:"asi
nSasat
heguywhoki
dnappedmy
chi
l
dren"
Ronny
:"y
es"myhear
tst
art
edbeat
ingf
astasI
t
houghtabouthowKeenansai
dhewasntev
en
r
emorsefuldur
ingt
hetr
ial
Me:"I.
..
..Ican'
t"myheartwasbeat
ingtofastI
suddenl
ygotdizzyandIcouldn'
tbr
eathIfel
t
l
iketheroom wasspinni
nganditwaslight
sout.
.
Nkany
iso
.
Zonkehadbeensul ki
ngt hewhol eni ghtlast
ni
ghtov ermegoi nghomewi t
hSet huandt he
ki
dsbutt herewasnot hi
ngIcoul ddoabouti t
mypar entswerehav ingar i
tualandt hey
wantedSet huthere.Soshewasf l
y i
ngint oday
wewer ealldri
vingtoCapeTownt ogether
Zonkeletouta7t hsighf orthelast10mi nutesI
i
gnoredheragai nshel etoutanot heroneIgot
i
rri
tat
ed
Me:"
what?
!Zonkeyougotsomethi
ngt
osay
j
ustt
alkmani
tearl
yinthemorni
ngyouhav
en'
t
ev
enbr
ushedy
ourt
eet
h"shesatup
Zonke:
"don'
tber
udeNkany
iso"
Me:"y
ou'
vebeenact
ingl
i
keateenagersince
l
astni
ghtIdi
dnotsi
gnupfort
his"Igotofft
he
bed
Zonke:"
ohandIdi d?Ial
sodi dn'
tsi
gnupf or
bei
ngtreatedli
keanoutcast.Iam notgoingto
si
therepretendtobeokwi t
hy ouspendingthe
wholeweekendwi t
hyourex"
Me:"babyasy
ousayanex
,ar
ey ouhear
ing
your
self
?She'
sanexi
m wi
thyou"
Zonke:
"youwoul
dn'
tunder
stand"
Me:"ok"Iwassoov
ert
hisconv
ersat
ionIgot
outoftheroom
Zonke:
"Nkanyi
soim notdonet
alki
ngt
oyou!
!"
shewasfoll
owingme
Me:
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ngt
owakeupmyki
ds"
Zonke:
"whycan'
tyouseet
hisf
rom my
per
spect
ive"
Me:
"whatper
spect
ivei
sthat
"
Zonke:
"im hur
ti
ngov
erthis,Nkazii
sol
dshe
doesnotneedhermothertofol
lowherar
ound"
Me:
"ok"
Zonke: "
ok?!Justli
kethatok"Ishruggedmy
shoulderssheturnedaroundandst ormedback
i
nt heroom.Iwentt othekitchenstar
tedon
breakfastIwashalfwaythroughitwhenZonke
camei nwi t
hherduffl
ebagandt oi
let
rybag
Me:
"andnow?
"
Zonke:
"im goi
ngbackt
omyhouse"likear
e
womanal waysthi
swayorIj
usthav
ebadluck
Me:
"thoughty
ouwi
l
lleav
elat
er"
Zonke:
"whyshoul
dIst
ay"
Me:
"ser
iousl
yZonke"
Zonke:
"yesser
iousl
y"
Me:
"st
aypl
ease"
Zonke:
"why
"
Me:"becauseIwanty outoim onlyl
eavi
ngat
ni
ghtIdli
ketospendsomet i
mewi thyoubaby"I
movedf r
om thestov
ewentt ostandi
nfrontof
herhol
dingherhips"please"
Zonke:"
youhurt
ingmeNkany i
soandy
ounot
evensorr
yaboutit
"Ipeckedherl
i
ps
Me:
"im sor
rymyl
ove"nkaziandThandocame
i
nwhil
elaughi
ngatsomethi
ng
Nkazi
:"mor
ning"
Zonke:"
morni
ngkids"Il
etgoofherwentt
o
cont
inuewi
thbreakf
ast
Thando:"howisever
yone"weallexchanged
greet
ingsZonketookherbagsbacktot he
room tal
kaboutunnecessar
ydrama
Nkazi
:"wheni
smom comi
ng"
Me:
"ar
ound15:
00"
Nkazi
:"cool
cozweneedt
obuysomecl
othes"
Zonke:
"I'
l
ltakey
ouguy
sshoppi
ng"
Nkazi
:"i
tokwewi
l
lwai
tformom weal
ready
spoketoher
"
Zonke:"oh"Icur
sedontheinsi
decozIknew
that'
oh'meantdisappoi
ntmentshewasgoi
ng
tostar
tnaggingmeagain
Thando:"
yeahpl
usshepicksthebestcl
othes"
Sethual
sotookamotherrol
eonThando
Nkazi
:"t
otal
l
y"t
heyhi
ghf
ived
Me:"br
eakf
asti
sreadywhati
sev
ery
one
dr
inki
ng"
Ki
ds;
"jui
ce"
Zonke:"
I'
llhavecof f
ee"Ifi
xedev ery
onedri
nks
weallsataroundt hecounterstart
edeat
ing.
Aft
erbreakfastthekidswentt obathwhil
eI
watchedsomesoccerhi ghl
ightsZonkewas
cl
eaningthekitchen
Zonke:
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l
lmissyou"shesatont
opofmeI
ki
ssedhercheek
Me:"I
'
llal
somissyoubuti
tonly3day
sI'
l
lbe
backMonday"i
twasThursday
Zonke:
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s"Igav
eherasmuggr
in
Me: "
wanar ideme"shegi ggl
edwhil
enoddi ng
"l
et'
sgo"wewentt omyr oom wheresherode
mel i
keamani acIknewshewast ry
ingtopr ov
e
apointafterthatwet ookabat hhadanother
sessi
ont hensheleft.Iwenttocheckonmy
ki
dst heywer ewatchingtv
Me:
"youguy
sreadyt
ogoSet
hui
sonherway
"
Them:
"yeah"
Me: "cool
"Iqui
ckl
ywentt
omyr oom got
dressedtookmykeysnwall
etwentback
downst ai
rs
Me: "
let'
sbounce"weallgotoutlockedandleft
singi
ngalongtosomehi phopaswedr oveto
theairpor
twewai t
edabitbeforeIsawher
comingmywayl ooki
ngli
keshej ustcameout
ofamagazi neshootwit
hhert i
nyhipsswinging
asifshe'
sli
steni
ngt osomemusicshesmil
ed
whenshesawust hekidsmetherhal
fwayt
hey
huggedandcamet ome
Set
hu:
"heyy
ou"
Me: "
heybeaut
if
ul"wehuggedIki
ssedher
cheek"howwasthefli
ght
"
Sethu:"
shor
t"wechuckledItookhersuit
case
putiti
nthebootweleftfort
hemal lwhenwe
gotther
ewest ar
tedatwoolworths
Set
hu:"wher
e'sy
ourwoman"Ichuckl
ed,
Nkazi
nThandowerefi
tti
ngcl
othes
Me;
"her
einf
rontofme"
Set
hu;
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tpl
aygameswi
thme"
Me;
"woul
dn'
tdr
eam ofi
t"
Set
hu:
"don'
tbeaj
erkNkany
isoandmessup"
Me;
"bei
ngwi
thy
oui
snotmessi
ngup"
Set
hu:
"Imeanwi
thZonkeshe'
sgoodf
ory
ou"
Me;
"yougoodf
orme"sher
oll
edherey
eswent
tocheckont hekidsIjustchuckl edlikeherass
ont hoset inyshortslookedamazi ng, Sethuhas
abodyofasi dechickshe' st i
nywi t
ha
manageabl easst ypegi rl
y oushowof ftoy our
fri
endsandcol legueswhi leZonkehasabody
ofawi feshe' sthickyouknowt hattypeof
womany ouwantpr egnantandi nthekitchen.
TheycamebackIwentt opayt hanwewentt o
Guessf orj eansnt hando'scl ot
hesaf terpay ing
wewentt ospor t
scenegott hem sneaker s.We
hadl uncht henwentbackt othehouseSet hu
helpedt hem packwhi l
eIpackedmybagaf ter
thatshechangedwel eftforCapeTownIdr ove
12hour sl aterwegott hereearlymor ningwent
strai
ghtt obed
Sethu:
"Nkanyi
soi m sur
eyourmom canfi
ndme
aroom"wewer eshari
ngaroom whenmom
sai
dshewi l
lpreparearoom f
orSethuIt
oldher
i
tcoolwe'l
lshare
Me:
"naht
hehousei
spackedwi
thr
elat
ives"
Set
hu:"
ohwell
"shet
hrewher
sel
font
hebed
st
il
li
nsweat
pantsnsweat
er
Me:
"don'
tyouwanachange"
Set
hu:
"naaha"
Me;
"don'
tyouneedt
obecomf
ort
abl
e"
Sethu:"shutupandgettobed"Ichuckl
edtook
offmysweat ernsweatpantsonl
yremained
withjustboylegj
oinedheri
nbed
Me;
"wanacuddl
e"
Sethu:
"shutupi
mti
red"Ipul
l
edhercl
oseIl
et
outasigh.
Shewokemeupwhenshewast
ryi
ngt
omov
e
fr
om myar
ms
Me:
"lov
e"
Set
hu:
"heyl
etgoofme"Ihel
dont
ight
er
Me:
"feel
ssogood"
Set
hu:
"ital
mostaf
ter
noonIneedt
ogetup"
Me:
"noy
oudon'
t"
Set
hu:
"Nkany
iso!
"
Me:"fi
ne"Il
ethergoshewenttothebat
hroom
Igotofft
hebedtookmyphoneIhadmi ssed
cal
lsfr
om ZonkeIcal
ledherback
Zonke:"
beentry
ingt
ocall
youNkany
isodoy
ou
haveanideahowworri
edIwasyouj
ust
di
sappeared"
Me:
"hel
l
oZonke"
Zonke:
"don'
tst
artNkany
iso"
Me:
"howar
eyoubaby
"shehuf
fed
Zonke:
"imf
ineandy
ou"
Me:"i
m okbaby,sor
ryIhady
ouworri
edIj
ust
wentstr
aightt
obedwhenIgother
e"
Zonke:
"it
'sokIunder
stand"
Me:
"Ihav
etogobabyIneedt
obat
h"
Zonke:
"Il
ovey
ou"
Me:"
loveyout
oo"shedr
oppedthecallImade
t
hebedSethucameouti
nat owelIf
eltmydick
t
wit
ching
Me:
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e"
Set
hu:
"no"
Me:
"but
..
"
Set
hu:
"no"
Me:
"justonce"
Set
hu:
"no"
Me:
"pl
ease"
Set
hu:
"no"
Me: "
eish"Iwentt
otakeashower.Ther
estof
theweekendwentbyt her
it
ualwentsmoothl
y
Sethuwasupndownt hewhol
etimebeinga
wife.
.
WhenIopenmyey esIwasi
nthehospi
tal
keenanwassi
tt
ingnextt
omewithhisheadon
myst
omachIpl
ayedwi
thhi
shai
rhewokeup
Keenan:
"hey
"
Me:
"hi
"
Keenan:
"youscar
edme"
Me:
"im sor
ry,
whathappened?
"
Keenan:
"pani
cat
tackbuty
ouok"
Me:
"ok.Howl
ongwasIpassedout
?"
Keenan:
"day
.Ronnyt
oldmeabouty
ourt
win"
Me:
"canwenott
alkaboutt
hatnow"
Keenan:"of
cost
handol
wam,
I'
ll
got
ell
the
doctory
ouup"
Me:
"okandgetmesomej
uicepl
ease"
Keenan: "
Ilov
ey ou"hestoodupki ssedmy
foreheadandwal kedout.Aft
erafewmi nut
es
thedoctorcamei nhecheckedonmesai d
everythi
ngwasokhewi lldi
schar
geme.Keenan
camebackwi t
hmyj uiceIgotdressedhe
signedmypaper swel ef
t.WhenwegothomeI
wentstr
aighttothebathroom t
ookahotbath
gotoutl
otionedputonmypj swenttobed
openedtvitwasal r
eadynightt
ime.Keenan
walkedi
nwi thatrayoffoodnjuice
Me:
"thanky
oubaby
"
Keenan:"
youwel
comenowsitupsoy
oucan
eat
"Ididandst
art
edeat
ing
Me:
"st
opst
ari
ngatme"
Keenan:
"Idon'
twanal
oseNi
kky
"
Me:
"andy
ouwon'
t"
Keenan: "
youreal
l
yscar edlov erwhenRonny
calledsayi
ngheisrushingy out ot
hehospit
alI
almosthadmyownpani cattackIwasspeeding
throughredrobot
sim sur pr
isedIdidn'
tget
pulledoutTom wasevenhav ingahardti
me
keepingup"Tom wast heguywhogotJason' s
place
Me:
"youknowIhat
eitwheny
ouspeed"
Keenan:
"Iwasscar
ed"
Me:"i
m sorr
ylovebutI
'
m her
eandi
m good"he
ki
ssesthesideofmyhead
Keenan:
"IknowIl
ovey
ou"
Me:"andIl
ovey
ouj
ustasmuchi
fnotmor
e"he
puthi
sheadonmyshoul
der
.
FewdayslaterIwasdr i
vi
ngmycaronmyway
backf
rom theof f
iceRonnywasdr i
vi
ngbehind
measusual, Ihadn'
ttol
dany bodyaboutLusasa
onl
yKeenanRonnynIknew.Idai ledRonnyhe
pi
ckedupalmosti mmedi at
ely
Ronny
:"ev
ery
thi
ngok?
"
Me:"
im maki
ngat
urnatt
heof
frampi
m goi
ng
t
othepri
son"
Ronny
:"noy
ounot
"
Me:
"excuseme"
Ronny;"Iam sor
rybutcomeonDomi nicyou
can'
tjustgoseehim atleastt
akeKeenanwit
h
you"
Me: "
mymi ndi
salreadymadeup"Idroppedt
he
cal
lwhenIgottotheof fr
ampItooki
tdrove
str
aightt
othepri
sonRonnyparkednexttome
andrushedtomysi de
Ronny
:"t
hisi
snotagoodi
dea"
Me:"hi
smybrot
hert
heonl
yper
sonIshar
ebot
h
par
entswi
th"
Ronny:"
Ical
l
edkeenanhi
sonhi
swayl
etswai
t
forhi
m"
Me:
"youhadnor
ightt
ocal
lhi
m Ronny
"
Ronny:"
justwai
tforhim pl
ease"wewentinwe
weretol
dt ocomebackt omorrowbecause
vi
sit
inghourswerelongover
Me:"
no!GetmeinRonnyIknowy
oucanpul
l
somestr
ings"
Ronny
:"no"
Me:
"excuseme!
"
Ronny
:"f
li
p,okwai
ther
e"
Me:"
bett
er"hewenti
ncamebackaf
terf
ew
mi
nutes
Ronny :
"come"wewentinsomer oom wait
ed
forli
ke5mi nut
esandlusasawalkedinI
actual
lygotachancetolookathim,Idi
dn'
t
att
endt het
rial
whenitwasgoingon
Lusasa:"MrsSmi t
handherdog"hesatdown
withasmuggr inheact ual
lyl
ookedli
keamale
versi
onofmej ustli
ghterinski
ncolourandhe
tookNicole'
shairhelookedmorecolouredt
han
black
Me:
"hi
"Il
etoutasi
gh
Lusasa:
"towhatdoIowet
hepl
easur
e"
Me:
"Ronnypl
easeexcuseus"
Ronny
:"youknowIcantdot
hatNi
kkydon'
tbe
i
mpossible"
Me:
"hewon'
tdoany
thi
ngt
ome"
Lusasa:"ar
eyousureaboutt
hat
"helookedat
mybr eastwhi
lebi
ti
nghisbot
tom l
i
pwi t
ha
r
aisedey
ebr
ow
Me: "
whoharmsthei
rownsister
"hi
sface
becameemot i
onl
esssametime"di
dyouknow
thatyouadopt
edLusasa"
Lusasa:"
myper
sonal
shi
tgotnot
hingt
odo
wit
hy ou"
Me:"ar
eyousur eaboutt
hat?Imeany oudi
d
makemyper sonalshi
taboutyou.Whenyou
andyourgangfoll
owedmyf amilyand
ki
dnappedmyki ds"
Lusasa:
"thatwasbusi
ness"
Me:"
abusinessthati
nvol
vedmyper sonal
shi
t.
Soagai
n,di
dy ouknowthatyouadopted"
Lusasa:
"fucky
oust
upi
dhoe!
"
Ronny
:"watchyour
sel
fIcoul
dbeatyouupand
youwouldn'
tbeabl
etodoshither
e"
Me:"
whycan'
tyouanswerme?Whyi
sitsuch
ani
ssuei
fyouwereadopt
ed"
Lusasa:
"itnoneofy
ourf
ucknbusi
ness!
!"I
stoodup
Me:"wedoneher
e.YouknowIt houghtmaybe
seei
ngyouher
eandtalki
ngtoyouwi l
lmakeme
seeanot
hersi
deofyouclear
lyIwaswr ong"
Lusasa:
"yesy
ouwer
e"Ronnyopenedt
hedoor
forme
Me: "j
ustsoy ouknowy ouwer eadoptedand
youat win.Yourparentsareluzukodeynnicol
e
smi t
h, youmyt winbrotherthosegir
lsyou
ki
dnappedandmay bewoul dhaveki
ll
edareyou
nieces.Goodby elusasaIhopel if
etr
eatsyou
wellher e"Ilef
thim withhismouthhangingand
hisey esfil
ledwithtears.Assoonaswegot
outsidekeenanwaspaci ngupndownnextt o
ourcar sshout i
ngont hephone
Me:
"baby
"
Keenan:
"nev
ermind!
"Hedroppedthecal
land
walkedt
owardsmehewrappedhisarms
ar
oundme
Me:
"hei
ssocr
uel
baby
"
Keenan:
"Iknowl
oveIknow"
Me:"
Ican'tbel
iev
eIshar
ebl
oodwi
thsomeone
l
iket
hat"heletgo
Keenan:"
hisnotyouoky
ouyourownperson"
hecuppedmyf aceweki
ssedpul
ledbackaft
er
awhil
e
Keenan:
"let
'sgohome"hethr
ewhi scarkey
sat
Tom wegotinmycarwithhim dr
ivi
ngwent
home.
2dayslaterIwasintheof
ficehavi
ngour
weekl
ymeet ingwit
hthestaffwhenmy
assi
stantJessycameinkneelednextt
ome
Jessy:"
youhav eacallf
rom someonecall
ed
Lusasahesay situr
gentItr
iedtel
l
inghi
my ou
i
nameet i
ngbuthewasv er
ypresi
senti
tkinda
scaredme"Iletputasigh
Me:
"itokI
'
llt
aket
hecal
li
nmyof
fi
ce"
Jessy
:"ok"shewal
kedoutt
heconf
erencer
oom
Me:"excusemef oraf
ewgotani mportantcal
l
toat
tendt o"Istoodupwentt
omyof f
iceIsat
downandbr eat
hedoutbef
oretakingt
hephone
Me:
"hel
l
o"
Lusasa:
"y ouahardwomant
ogethol
dof
fsi
s"
hechucklednerv
ously
Me:
"whatdoy
ouwant
"
Lusasa:
"ei
sh.Uhm Iwantt
oseey
ou"
Me:
"why
"
Lusasa:
"weneedt
otal
k"
Me:
"Ihav
enot
hingt
osayt
oyou"
Lusasa:
"Ihav
eal
ott
osaypl
easemt
ase"
Me:
"soi
m notahoeany
mor
e"
Lusasa:
"im sor
ry"
Me:
"fi
neI
'
llcomedoy
ouneedany
thi
ng"
Lusasa:
"noi
mfi
ne"
Me:
"whenshoul
dIcome"
Lusasa:"t
odaybutwheneveryoucanjustask
foroff
icerLeboni
hewil
lletyouthr
ough"
Me:
"ok"
Lusasa:
"thanky
ou"
Me:
"by
e"
Lusasa:"
seeyou"Idroppedthecallwentback
tomymeet i
ngafterthemeetingIgotsome
paperworkdoneafterworkIwenttosee
Lusasa
Lusasa:
"doeshehavetofol
lowyouaround
evenwheny oumeet
ingyourbrot
her
"
Me:
"youdi
dki
dnapy
ourni
ecessoy
eah"
Lusasa:
"Idi
dn'
tknow"
Me:"y
oudidn'
thav
etoknow,youshoul
dn'
thav
e
donei
tev
eni fy
ouhadnorel
ati
onstothem"
Lusasa:
"nowIknow"
Me:"doyouhaveanyideathet
ypeofmi
ser
y
youputmethroughIalmostmi
scar
ri
edmy
t
winst
heywer ebor
nat7mont
hsbecauseof
y
ou"helookeddown
Lusasa:"t
ot hi
nkyouwentthr oughall oft
hat
becauseofsomet hi
ngIhadapar tiny oucan'
t
evenimaginehowbadIf eel Ican'tevenshow
youortellyouIam sosorry.IfIcoulddo
somethingtomakei tr
ightIwoul d"
Me:
"yousor
ry.
..That
'si
t?Yousor
ry?
"
Lusasa:
"Iam"
Me:
"whydi
dyoudoi
t"
Lusasa:
"qui
ckeasycash"
Me:
"fuckt
hel
i
vesl
ost
"
Lusasa:
"don'
tmeani
tli
ket
hat
"
Me:"
can'
tbel
i
evei
shar
edwombwi
thsomeone
socr
uel
"
Lusasa:"
easyf
ory
out
osayy
ouhadbot
hour
parent
s"
Me:
"Iwas19whenIf
oundoutmom wasn'
tmy
r
ealmom anddon'
tusethatasanexcusey
ou
wer
erai
sedbytwopresentparent
s"
Lusasa:
"Iknow"
Me:"
Ineedtogobef
oremyhusbandst
art
sto
wor
ry"Ist
oodup
Lusasa:"
pleasecomeseemeagai nI'
dli
keto
havearelati
onshi
pwithy ougettoknoweach
other
.May bewhenI'm donewithmysentence
andifyoucomf or
tabl
eenoughIcoul dmeet
yourki
dsbeanuncl etothem"
Me:
"wi
l
lsee"RonnyandIl
eft
.
2weeksl aterLungelowasst il
lim SAIwasst i
l
l
avoidinghim IknowIwasabi tchforit
.Lusasa
andIhadf orm someki ndofbr othernsist
er
rel
ationshipIwentt oseehi m almostev er
yday
afterourfirstencountersincehef oundoutwe
twins.Ihadn' tf
ull
yforgiv
enhi m buthewasmy
brotherandmyf amilyalway shadbeenmy
weaknessIwantedhim outofj
ail
.Nobodybut
RonnynIknewIhadbeengoi ngtoseehim dad
nnicol
edidn'
tevenknowIhadf oundhim.I
t
wasFridayKeenanandIwerewat chi
ngtvi
nour
room
Me:
"baby
"
Keenan:
"yeah"
Me:
"Iwantmybr
otheroutofj
ail
"heswi
tched
t
hetvof
f
Keenan:
"Idon'
tthi
nkIhear
dcor
rect
ly"
Me:
"youdi
dIwantLusasaoutofj
ail
"
Keenan:
"no"hegotof
fthebedwentt
othe
cl
oset
Me:"don'
tdothatkeenanyouknowi
tir
ri
tat
es
mewheny ouwalkawayf r
om me"Iwas
f
oll
owinghim
Keenan:"
hewi
l
lser
vet
her
emai
nderofhi
s
sent
ence"
Me:
"that
's17mor
eyear
s"
Keenan:
"yes"
Me:
"keenanno!Hi
smybr
other
"
Keenan:
"thesamebrotherwhoi
sther
eason
wealmostlostal
lourki
ds"
Me:"butwedi
dn'
t,
hemadeami
stakehi
ssor
ry"
hechuckl
ed
Keenan:
"hi
ssor
ry?Hei
sfucknsor
ry"
Me:"
yeswetal
kedkeenanher
egr
ets
ev
ery
thi
ng"
Keenan:"
heisaspoiltgr
ownassmanwho
becameagangsterbecausehewantedtopiss
ofdaddynmommyhi sarichki
dwhodoesn't
wanttogrowup"lusasaadopti
vedadi
sawel l
knownwhitebusi
nessmani nPEhismom isa
Xhosahousewife
Me:"Idon'
tcareaboutal
lofthatIcar
eabout
now!!KeenanIwantmybrotheroutofthat
pl
ace"
Keenan:"get
ti
nghi
m outmeansget
ti
ngt
her
est
ofthem out"
Me:"y
oualawy
erKeenananamepart
nerinone
oft
hemostwellknownr
espect
edl
awfir
msin
SAworkar
oundit"
Keenan:
"ther
eisnowor
kingar
oundi
tDomi
nic"
Me: "Ican'tbel
ieveyour i
ghtnow! !"Hewal ked
outthecl osetIgotinthebat hroom tookaqui ck
showergotoutwentt otheclosetl oti
onedgot
dressedinnav yink3quar t
erwi deleghigh
waistpant swithawhi teloselacycr optopI
worenav yheel sbrushedmyweav eletti
ngit
l
oseIt ookmycl utchbagwal kedout
Keenan:
"wher
eyougoi
ng"
Me:
"out
"
Keenan:"
don'tfuckwit
hmeDomini
careyou
goingtohimlungelonowt
hathi
sbackheis
yourrunto"
Me:
"im goi
ngoutwi
thmyf
ri
endsIneedt
o
breat
ht al
ktosomeoneel
sewhomightget
whereI'm comi
ngfr
om wi
thwant
ingmybrother
outofjail
"
Keenan:
"thi
sisj
ustcr
azyandy
ouknowi
t"
Me:
"Idon'
tknow"
Keenan:"
sowhaty
ouj
ustgoi
ngt
orunt
o
al
cohol"
Me:
"may
be"
Keenan:
"al
cohol
won'
tsol
veany
thi
ng"
Me:"
maybebutr
ightnowI'
l
lsol
veev
ery
thi
ng
wi
thabot
tl
eofvodka"hesi
ghed
Keenan:
"canIcomewi
th"
Me:
"no"
Keenan:
"letRonnydr
ivey
ou"Il
ookedathi
mfor
aminute
Me:
"okt
hat
'sok"
Keenan:
"I'
l
l callhi
m"hecalledRonnyhecame
upandwel eft.Ical
ledTeedohfi
rst
Teedoh:"y
es"Itookashar
pbr eat
hour
rel
ati
onshi
pwasal it
tl
estr
ainedafterIr
efused
tohir
ehim, Idi
dn'
twantmyf amil
yorfri
endsat
mycompany
Me:
"itmeIneedy
ou"
Teedoh;
"okcomeov
er"
Me:
"im onmywaygetdr
essedIwanagoout
"
Teedoh:"
ok"Idroppedt
hecall
,call
edSet
hushe
wasinjhbfort
heweekendstayingwit
h
Nombuso
Set
hu:
"si
s"
Me:"i
m comingtopicky
ounNombusoupget
dr
essed"shegiggl
ed
Sethu:"ok"Idr
oppedthecal
l west art
edwith
Teedoht henwenttogetmysist
erwhenwegot
therePatri
ckcameoutwiththem Ihat
edthe
guyhewasabusi veandNombusodi dn'
twant
toleavehim
Me:
"wher
ethef
ucki
sthi
sgr
andpagoi
ng"
Teedohl
aughedwegotof
fthecar
Pat
ri
ck:
"Ni
kky
"
Me:
"Pat
ri
ck"
Pat
ri
ck:"br
ingmywif
ebackinonepi
ecebef
ore
01:
00"TeedohnIl
aughedoutl
oud
Teedoh:
"she'
syourwi
fenotchi
l
dwhatt
he
fuck"
Me:
"rel
axPat
ri
cki
m al
sosomeone'
swi
fe"
Pat
ri
ck:
"youdon'
trespecty
ourhusband"
Me:"y
oudon'tknowshi
taboutmymar
ri
age
Pat
ri
cksofuckoff"
Nombuso:
"okokl
et'
sgo.I
'
llbehomesoon"
Me:"gotobedPatri
ckpeopleyourageare
asl
eep"hejustcl
i
ckedhistonguewentinthe
house
Nombuso:
"real
l
ySi
no"
Me:"hewi
llgetoveri
t,l
et'
sgo"weal l
gotint
he
carandl
eftstar
tedatsteakhousehadsome
meatthenwentt
oTabooRonnygoti
nfi
rstt
o
getusatabl
eint
hevi
psecti
onthanwewentin
Nombuso:"
can'
tevenr
ememberl
astt
imeIwas
i
nacluboroutatni
ght
"
Me:
"that
'sbecausey
oui
npr
ison"
Nombuso:
"let
'snotdot
hist
oni
ght
"
Me:"f
inebyme"Ronnycamebackwi
thour
al
coholwestar
teddr
inki
ng
Me:
"If
oundourbr
other
"
Set
hu:
"no"
Me:
"yep"
Nombuso:
"Idi
dn'
tknowy
ouwer
elooki
ng"
Me:
"di
dntwanagetany
body
'shopehi
gh"
Set
hu:
"thi
sisgr
eatwher
eishe"
Me;
"pr
ison"
Them;
"what
?!"
Me:
"hei
spar
toft
hegangt
hatki
dnappedv
uvu
nt
ayt
ay"
Teedoh:
"ohshi
t"
Voi
ce:"
Iknewi
twasy
ou"weal
ltur
nedt
osee
whoitwas
Me:
"ohf
uck"
Nqubeko:
"youl
ookgor
geous"Ichuckl
ed
Me:
"whaty
oudoi
ngher
enqubeko"
Nqubeko:
"boy
sni
ght
"
Me:
"mustbeni
ce"
Nqubeko:
"int
roduceme"
Me:
"thosearemysisterSet
hunNombusot
his
i
smyf r
iendTeedoh"
Nqubeko:"y
ourfat
herisbl
essed3beauti
ful
daught
er"hhe!Mysist
ersst
artedgi
ggl
i
ng
Me:
"don'
tst
art
"
Nqubeko:
"comej
oinus"
Me:
"wegoodher
e"
Teedoh:
"wewoul
dlov
eto"hest
oodupf
ir
st
Set
hu:
"yes"
Me:
"sl
owdownbef
oreIcal
lyourmen"
Nombuso: "ohdon'tbeapar t
ypopperSino"
nqubekojustchuckled,nqubekoishotn
charmingwiththatdarkishgoingon
Me: "f
ine"Ronnyjustl
ookedatmeshaki nghis
headindi sapprov
alImouthedsor r
y.Wewent
tositwithnqubekoandhisf ri
ends,dr
inkswere
fol
lowingal ongwit
hconversati
onslotoffli
rt
s
thr
ownar oundsometi
mel aternqubekowas
sit
ti
ngnextt ome
Nqubeko:
"let
'
stakethi
spart
ytomyhouse"I
l
ookedathim hewasgivi
ngmethi
sweir
dly
sexyl
ook
Me:
"ok"hesmi
l
ed
Nqubeko:
"ok"
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Ronnysatabi tfarfr om thegr oupt hatwas
dri
nkingandwat chedast heDeywomenwho
werei ncommi t
tedr elationshi pst wooft hem
evenmar riedf
li
rtedwi thot hermenev enget ti
ng
allt
ouchyf eel
y.HowIhat emyj obsomet imes
hethoughtt ohimsel fknowi ngt hatthewoman
heissupposedt obepr otect i
ngkeeps
endanger ingherselfwi tht hesewei r
dguy sshe
hangswi thandthatshekeepssl eepingwi thher
ex.Beingputont hespoti swhatmadehi m
hatehisj obmor ehav i
ngKeenanaskhi m about
thethingshi swifeget supwhi leheknowsv ery
wellthathewon' tl i
ket het ruth.Andt hef act
thatheal sohadf allenf orhermadet hingsev en
hardert hatwast heonl yr easonhewasst i
ll
workingf ortheSmi thshef elttheneedt okeep
hersaf e.Hemov edf rom wher ehewassi t
ti
ng
walkedcl osertot hegr oupt hatwasst andingup
i
nasi gnofdepar ture
Ronny
:"shoul
dIbr
ingt
hecarf
orwar
dNi
kky
"
Si
no:
"uhm"
Nqubeko:"t
her
e'snopointI
'
lldr
iveher
"Ronny
fel
thi
sbloodboilhehatedt
heguynqubekohas
beenstal
ki
ngandf l
ir
ti
ngwithherfory
ear
s
Ronny
:"t
her
e'snopoi
ntI
'
llt
aket
hem home"
Guy:"
dowehav eapr
obl
em"af
ri
endof
Nqubekoj
oinedin
Nqubeko:
"noev
ery
thi
ngi
sgood"
Ronny:"
itlateNikkyIthi
nkyouneedbed"he
watchedast hewomanhehadf all
enforyear
s
backcouldn'tmaintai
neyecontactorl
eastof
al
lbeablet ostandstrai
ghtshewasdrunk
Guy:"youabodyguardbr
uthefuckyougoi
ngt
o
tel
lherwhattodo"thi
sguyistest
ingmy
pati
enceRonnythoughtoutl
oud
Set
hu:
"what
'sgoi
ngon?
"
Si
no:"
im goi
nghomeImissmyhusband"t
he
guy
slookedateachot
herIsmi
l
edalit
tl
e
Teedoh;
"thoughtwegoi
ngt
oNqubeko'
shouse"
Sino:"
im goi
nghomeIdon'
tknowaboutyou
guys"shethr
ewhersel
fatRonnyandhehel
d
herfi
rmly
Ronny
:"l
et'
stakey
ouhome"hel
ookedatt
he
ot
hers
Sethu:"weshoul dalsogohome"hewal ked
awaywi thSinoi nhisarmst heother
sfoll
owed
l
eav i
ngNqubekoandhi sfri
endsdisappoi
nted
atthemi ssedoppor tunit
yofpussyespecial
ly
Nqubekowhot houghthecoul dfi
nal
lygetSino
i
nhi sbed.Ronnydr oppedev er
yoneoffwhenhe
wasget ti
ngint hegat eatSino'
shousehecal l
ed
keenant ocomegethi swi f
ewhohadpassed
outinthecar ,herpassingoutgav eRonnya
momentt ojustlookather ,hehadeven
stoppedt hecaralongt hewayandwat chedher
asherbodyr osenf ell
.
Keenan:"
Issheok"heaskedpicki
ngherupshe
mubbledhowmuchshel ovesherhusbandand
wentbackt
osl
eepl
eav
ingKeenansmi
l
ingl
i
ke
afool
Ronny:"y
eahj
ustwental
i
ttl
eov
erboar
dwi
th
thevodka"
Keenan:
"any
thi
ngIshoul
dknowabout
"
Ronny
:"not
hingi
nter
est
ing"heli
edashe
al
waysli
edwhenheaskedt hi
squest
ion
Keenan:
"okgoodni
ghtRonnyandt
hanky
ou"
Ronny :"i
tmyjob"keenansmil
ewentinthe
housel ocki
ngitandsettheal
armtookherup
totheirroom helai
dheronthebedstar
ted
undoingherpantsbutsheheldthem
Sino;"
stoppl
easemyhusbandwill
kil
lyou"her
speechwasbrokenKeenanchuckl
ed
Keenan:
"Thandol
wam"sheopenedherey
es
andsawherhusband
Si
no:
"baby
"
Keenan:
"itmel
etmet
akecar
eofy
ou"she
smi
l
ed
Sino:"ok"hereyesshutagainhetookofher
clot
hes, gotherdressedi
nhershirtpj
,wentto
thebat hr
oom camebackwi t
hwipesandwiped
hiswife'sfacethenhetuckedherinbedholdi
ng
herclosely
.
Meanwhi l
eNombusowastryi
ngtosneakinher
room sotonotwakeupherhusbandbutwhen
sheclosedthedoort
hesi
delambcameon
Patr
icksatup
Pat
ri
ck:
"Isai
dcomebackearl
y"t
hroughher
bl
urr
yvi
sionshel
ookedatt
hewatchonthewal
l
i
twas04:30
Nombuso:"
welostt
rackofti
meIam sor
ry"
Pat
ri
ckgotofft
hebedwalkedcl
osert
oher
Patri
ck:"
yousmel
ll
ikeaman"shequi
ckl
y
thoughtofal
ie
Nombuso:
"IhuggedTeedoh"hegav
ehera
har
dsl
ap
Patr
ick:"
don'tlietoherthatgayusedwoman' s
perf
ume"her oaredandslappedheragainshe
fel
lwhenhest art
edkicki
nghershewi shedshe
hadjustl
eftwi thMthokoandcamebacki nthe
morningatleasthewoul dhav ehavebeatenher
upforsomet hingmor ethanjustamessilyki
ss
nhug
Nombuso:"Patr
ickst
opImightbepregnant
!!
"
Sheknewhewoul dneverl
ayafi
ngeronher
whil
eshe'
spregnantwithhi
schi
ldhelif
tedher
upstar
tedshaki
ngherroughl
y
Patrick:"youhav eanerv et
ogooutdr i
nking
whiley out hinkyoumightbepregnantarey ou
crazywoman"Nombusocoul dn'
ttakeit
anymor esher eachedforsomethi
ngont hemi ni
tableint her oom andhithi
sheadwi t
hithel et
goofherst umbli
ngbackNombusost i
llhadt he
vasei nherhand
Nombuso:
"imt
ir
edoft
hisPat
ri
cki
mti
redof
bei
ngy ourpunchi
ngbag"shethrewt hevaseat
hi
mi thithi
sarm andf
ell"
imy ourfucknwife
Patr
ickshowsomedamnr espectandstop
abusingme"
Patr
ick:
"ohmywif
eIam sosorr
y"hesatdown
andpull
edhert
ohisl
apshecrawledev
en
cl
osercryi
ngsi
l
ent
ly
Patr
ick:
"Iam sosor
ryIhav
enoi
deawhati
s
wrongwithme"
Nombuso:
"it
'sok"heki
sseeherf
orehead
Pat
ri
ck:
"goshowerandcomet
obed"
Nombuso:"
ok"shegotupwentt
oshower
camebackworeherpj
sandjoi
nedherhusband
i
nbed.
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
Thefoll
owi
ngdaySinowokeupnexttoher
husbandwhowasalreadyupst
ari
ngatherwi
th
eyesfi
ll
edwit
hlov
e
Si
no:
"baby
"hesmi
l
edandbr
ushedherhai
r
Keenan;
"thandol
wam"
Me:"i
m sor
ryIgotdr
unkl
astni
ght
"shepopped
herbi
geyesoutevenmor
e
Keenan:
"yousocut
e"heki
ssedhernose
Si
no:
"youj
ustl
oveme"
Keenan:
"of
cos"hetr
iedki
ssi
ngherbutshe
cover
edmouthhelookedatherconf
used
Sino:"al
cohol
br eath"helaughedqui
cklymoved
herhandandki ssedherdeepl yhegotbet
ween
herlegsknowingt hatshewasnakedunderthe
shir
tsentwavest hroughhisbody
Sino:
"lov
er"shear
chedherbackpushi
ngher
cooki
emor eint
ohishandcausi
nghimtogroan
Keenan:"baby"herubbedonhercl i
tmor ehe
l
aidbesidesherli
ftedherupputti
nghercooki e
onhisfacetheywent69whenhi sdickbanged
herdeept hr
oatkeenanlostal
lsenseand
stoppedsuckingherforasecondSi nofeltt
he
samewaywhenhest ar
tedpenetrat
ingherwi t
h
histongueaft
ert heybothcameshemov ed
theykissedt
ast i
ngeachothersor gasim since
theybothswallowedKeenanf eltallhisblood
rushingtohi
scockagai nheflippedt hem ov er
getti
ngbetweenherl egshefeltherkushand
shewassoaki ngwetheent eredhersl owly
.
MeanwhileinmidrandNicolehadjustf
ini
shed
gett
ingdressedshetookherbagncarkey s
wenttothegaragetookthebmwx6dr oveto
thepri
sonaskedforLeboni hetookhertothe
room whereshewasmeet ingwi t
hhersonshe
gotinandsatdownLusasacamei n
Lusasa:"dearmother"turnsoutNi colehad
foundhersonbef oreSinof oundhim she
star
tedlookingforhim afterthegirl
swere
foundsoshe' sbeenvisit
inghi mforthelast3
yearsbutfail
edtoment iont hathehasat win
Ni
c:"showsomerespectandsi
tdownShel
ton"
l
usasasatdown
Lusasa:
"whatdoy
ouwantmot
her
"
Nic:"
justcametocheckonyou"shel
ookedat
hersonwhol ookedsomuchli
keher
Lusasa:"i
mfineyougotmepr ot
ect
ionand3
ful
lpropermealsadayim good"
Nic;"
Iwi
sht
her
ewasawayt
ogety
ououtof
here"
Lusasa:
"doy
ouhav
esomet
hingt
otel
lme"
Ni
c:"
no"
Lusasa:
"wel
lImetsomeonef
ewweeksback"
Ni
c:"
who"
Lusasa:"theyoungMrsSmi t
ht urnsoutshe'
s
notjustyourstepdaughteri
nlawandmyf at
her
i
sstillal
i
ve"nicolewastonguet i
ed
Ni
c:"
Shel
ton"
Lusasa:
"no!!"Lusasaf
eltangerbui
ldi
nguphe
haddevelopedsomuchl oveforhismother
Ni
c:"
Shel
tonbaby
"shest
oodupandcupped
hi
sface"
Iam sosor
ry"
Lusasa:"
youli
edtome"hepushedherback
andstoodup"youfucknli
edt
omenicole!
!"He
wasont hever
geoftears
Nic:"Iwashopingwecouldworkonyour
sentencegett
ingdecr
easedthenwhenyouout
Idtel
l y
ouaboutevery
onentellev
ery
oneabout
you"
Lusasa:
"she'
smybl
oodyt
winsi
ster
"
Nic: "youthereasonsheal mostl osther
childrenandy ourf atheri sapast orhowdoy ou
thinkhewasgoi ngt of eelknowinghissoni si
n
j
ail forkidnappinghi sgr andkids"histears
star t
edf al
li
nghef el tsobr okendeepdownt he
har dcorewel l
respect ednf earedgangst erof
PETa' Sasawasav eryf r
agilemanandonl y
nicolenSi noaswel l ashisgfhadhadt he
chanceofseei ngthatsi deofhi m
Lusasa:
"youashamedofme"
Ni
c:"
ofcosnotShel
ton"
Lusasa:"so"shewr appedherarmsaroundher
sonashecr i
edshekeptonhushi nghi
mt elli
ng
him every
thingisgoingtobejustfi
neunti
l he
wasdonecr yi
ngonet hi
ngnicol
eknewf orsure
wast hatall3ofherchil
drenwerecrybabies
especial
lythesons
Nic:"
IloveyouShelt
onyoumysoni m not
proudofwhaty ou'
vebecomebutIl
ovey ouand
wheny ououtofherewegoingtofi
ndy oua
goodjob"lusasawasaquali
fi
ed
physi
otherapi
st
Lusasa:"ok"sheki
ssedhi
sfor
eheadandwent
tositdown
Ni
c;"
howhasy
oursi
sterbeensof
ar"
Lusasa:"
she'
sgreatshewantsmeoutofher
e
shesaidshewil
lspeaktoKeenan"
Ni
c:"
ohIdoubtt
hatwil
lworkKeenanl
oveshi
s
ki
dst
oomuchhel ov
esthoseki
dsmorethanhe
l
ovesher "disappoi
ntmentf lashedallover
Lusasa'sfacehehat edjai
l andhewant edtobe
outtherespendingtimewi thhissibl
ingsn
ni
ecesnnephewsgoi ngfrom af amil
ywher ehe
wast heonlychildt
osuchahugef ami l
ywasa
bl
essingt ohim.Hewast heonl ychi
ldandhi s
mother '
sfamilyhat
edherbecauseshemar r
ied
awhi t
emansohedi dn'
tknowt hem andfrom
hi
sf ather'
ssideitj
usthisaunt
Lusasa:
"IguessIunder
stand"
Ni
c:"
im sor
rybaby
"
.
Intheot hersi
deofj hbNombusowasi nbed
havingbr eakf
astherhusbandhadbr oughther
breakfastinbedi twasnothi
ngnewhedi dit
everytimehef eltguil
tysheknewthatahot
bubblebat hwithcandleswasnextfoll
owedby
bestlovemaki ngsessionPatri
ckgotinwith
thei
rson
Pat
ri
ck;
"hi
supguesshi
sexci
tedt
hathi
sol
der
si
blingsarecomi ng"nombuso' soheartski
pped
abeatPat ri
ck'sdaught erhatedherwhi l
ethe
othersonLer oyjustdidn'tcareasforPj t
helast
shesawhi m wasatherweddi ng2y earsback
event henhehadn' tsaidmor ethan10wor dsto
her
Nombuso:
"theycomi
ngher
e"
Pat
ri
ck:
"yesl
andi
ngi
naf
ewhour
s"
Nombuso:
"youshoul
dhav
etol
dmePat
ri
ck"
Patr
ick:
"sor
ryIdi
dn'
tthi
nki
twoul
dbeabi
g
deal
"
Nombuso;
"itnotabi
gdeal
butahandsup
woul
dhavebeennice"
Pat
ri
ck:
"sor
rymywi
fe"hesatdown
Chr
is:"mamam"hestart
edcr
awli
ngtohis
mothernombuso'
ssonwasalwaysl
aughi
ngn
smil
ingevenwhenhispar
ent
swerefi
ghti
nghe
di
dn'twit
nesst
hatatal
l
Nombuso:
"myki
ng"sheputt
het
rayasi
de
Patri
ck:"i
my ourki
nghei syourpr
ince"hehad
suchaser i
ouslookNombusocoul dn'thel
pbut
l
etoutgigglesshetrul
ylovedherhusband
regar
dlessofevery
thingbadhehasdone
Nombuso:"
yesyoumyki ng"theyki
ssedshor
tly
causi
ngChr
istoclaphishandsthecoupl
e
l
aughedwhi
lelookingatt
heirsoninadmir
ati
on
Patr
ick:"youli
keitwhendaddyki
ssesmommy "
hestartedti
ckli
nghim Nombusosatback
watchinghertwof av
ori
temenfeel
ingnot
hing
butjoyandl ov
e
.
.
(I
mt r
yinganewform ofwr
it
ing,
howi
sit
?.
Feedbackpl
ease)
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08/
12,
21:
25]Wadz
:Inser
t58
.
Aft
ert
hei
rlov
emaki ngkeenanandSinotooka
l
ongshowerthecoupl
ecouldntkeepthei
r
handsoffeachotherkeenansmashedhisl
ips
onapantingSinoafteranext
remel
yrough
roundi
nt heshower
Keenan:"ndi
yakut
handathandolwan"Si
no
blushedli
kether
e'snotomorrowshealways
founditsexywhenkeenanspokeherlanguage
orfrench
Sino:"uthandwandi m muntuwam"theyki
ssed
againbutshor t
lyretur
nedtoshoweringaft
er
thattheywentt otheclosetKeenankepton
singi
ngFut ureftKanyeWest-IWon, whil
ethey
gotdr essedinmat chi
ngblacknoli
vegreen
outfi
ts
Sino;
"youl
ooksofuckabl
e"sheadmi
redher
husbandwit
hhisj
ustfuckedhai
r
Keenan:"wenotgoi
ngtoleav
ethi
sroom i
fyou
keeplooki
ngatmeliket
hat"
Sino:"
nopelet'
sgo"shet
ookherbagthey
walkedoutthebedroom,
thechil
drenwere
havingbr
eakfasti
ntheki
tchenaft
ergreet
ing
them theyleftgoingtoprisontoseeLusasa.
Whent heygott heretheywer edirect
edto
wher eLusasawaswi thNicol
et heyjustgoti
n
thelaughterbetweenNi colenhersondi ed
i
mmedi at
elywhenSi nogoti npani cwashedall
overNicole'sfacesheknewt hatasmuchas
herdaught erhasaf orgi
vi
nghear twhenshe's
angrynicolecan'thandleher
Sino:"
what'
sgoi
ngon"nobodysaidanything
anditonl
ymadeSinomorecurious"Iasked
what'
sgoingon?
!!
"Sheaskedloudermaki ng
Nicol
efli
nch
Ni
c:"
baby
"
Si
no:"mom"keenanwasj ustst
andingther
e
l
eani
ngont hewallwit
hhishandsinhispocket
asal
way sheknewhiswifecanhandlehersel
f
i
nthesetypeofsi
tuati
onshewouldonly
i
nter
ferei
fshe'
sthreat
ened
Nic:
"Iseey
oufoundy
ourbr
other
.Whydi
dn'
t
youtel
lme?"
Si
no:
"excuseme?
,whydi
dn'
tIt
ell
you?
"
Ni
c:"
yes"
Si
no:
"howdi
dyouf
indhi
m"
Nic:
"mypir
ecent
lyf
oundhi
m"l
usasashookhi
s
headatt
heli
es
Lusasa:"don'tl
i
e"sino'
sangerbuil
tupas
l
usasat oldherthewholet
ruththatni
col
ekept
them apartfort
helast3years
Si
no:
"younev
erl
ear
nni
col
e!!Li
esal
lcat
chup"
Ni
c:"
Idi
dthi
sfory
ouDomi
nic"
Sino;"y
ousuchamani pulat
ivebi
tchnicole"a
l
oudsl apsoundr angintheti
nyroom asni col
e
slappedSinoshewasaboutt oslapheragain
whenKeenanhel dherhand.Sinolookedather
mom wi thhervisi
onblindedbytearsthatwere
fall
ingunstoppable
Sino:
"Iam sodonewithyouNicol
e"sher
eall
y
meantitt
histi
meev enthewomanwhor ai
sed
herhadneverhi
theraswellasherdad
Nic:
"Iam sosor
ryDomi
nicIdon'
tknowwhat
goti
ntome"
Sino:
"getheroutofyourli
feifyouwantpeace"
shewasl ooki
ngatherbrotherwhowasst ar
ti
ng
toseeasi deofni
col
ethathehat ed
Ni
c:"
Nikkypl
ease"
Si
no:"
stayawayf
rom meandmyf amil
y"she
wal
kedoutwit
hKeenanri
ghtathert
ail
Lusasa:"
Ithi
nki
twouldbebesti
fyoudi
dn'
t
comet oseemeforawhi
le"
Ni
c:"
butShel
toni
m sor
ry"
Lusasa:
"Iknow"
Ni
c: "
Ijustwantwhat
'sbestf
ory
ouandy
our
si
ster"
Lusasa:
"youj
ustgoabouti
tthewr
ongway
"
.
Sinoandkeenanwer
einthecargoingt
o
sandtonci
tywhenhi
sphonerangitwas
connect
edt
othebl
uet
oot
h
Keenan:
"yeah"
Dy
la:
"MrSmi
th"Dy
lanwashi
sest
ateagent
Keenan:
"im wi
thmywi
feDl
yan"
Dl
yan:
"Mr
sSmi
thhel
l
o"
Si
no:
"hi
"
Dyl
an:"wel
lIwi
ll
calllaterMrSmi
thjustwant
ed
t
otell
youthatever
ythingwasdel
ivered"
Keenan:
"thanky
ouDy
lan"hedr
oppedt
hecal
l
Si
no:
"whatwast
hatabout
"
Keenan:
"not
hingbaby
"
Si
no:
"youknowIhat
esecr
ets"
Keenan:
"Ial
soknowy oulovesurpr
ises"
Keenanwasworkingonsomet hi
ngforhiswif
e
i
tbeen3mont hsnowf i
nal
lyitwasalmostdone
Sino:
"ok"shel
etoutagi
gglehel
ookedather
andsmiledhesti
l
lcoul
dn'
tgetov
erhowmuch
helovesher,
couldnev
eri maginehurti
ngher
that
swhyhet ri
edhisl
ev elbestt
omakesur e
sheneverfi
ndsoutaboutthatstupidnighthe
waswor ki
nglat
efewy earsbackwhi l
eshewas
InLondonendeduphav i
ngsexwi thhis
assi
stant
Keenan:
"Il
ovey
ou"
Sino:"
Ilov
eyou"theygottosandt onci
tydid
someshoppingwhilewaiti
ngforKeenan's
fr
iendstocomewi t
htheirpart
nersthegroup
wasgoingoutformov i
eearlydinnerandsome
cl
ubbing
.
Pjandhi sl
itt
lebrothernsist
erhadj ustlanded
i
nj hbthedriverwasal r
eadywaiti
ngf orthem.
Aftersomanyexcusesov erthelasttwoy ears
toav oi
dbeinginthehousehef inall
yr anoutof
them andhecoul dn'tsaynotohisfatherwhen
heaskedt hem tocome.Whent hecarst opped
i
nf rontofthehouset heygotoutPj andLer oy
pull
edthei
rsuit
caseswhil
ecarryi
ngsomeof
Kimmy '
sbag.Patr
ickandhiswif
ensonwere
al
readystandi
ngbythedoorNombusowas
shif
ti
ngnervousl
ynexttoherhusband
Patrick;"kids"gr
eeti
ngsandhugswer e
exchangedt hekidshuggedt hei rst
epmot herin
aawkwar dcoldwayaf t
erthatt heywenti nthe
housegoi ngt ol
eavetheirbagsi ntherooms
Nombusowentt ocheckifthemai dhadsetup
l
unchal r
eadyandi twas.Af terlunchNombuso
cleanedup, shewasgoi ngupt hestai
rsleaving
Patrickbondi ngwithhischil
dr enwhensher an
i
nt oPj whoj ustgaveheracol dst arewhent heir
eyesmetNombusoqui cklylookeddownand
rant oherr oom shebreathesoutwhenshegot
i
n.I tdidn'teventake5mi nutesf orPatri
ckt o
geti n
Pat
ri
ck:"
I'
ll
ber i
ghtbackmyqueenj
ustt
alki
ng
adri
vewit
ht heki
ds"
Nombuso:
"ohok"heki
ssedherbef
orel
eav
ing.
Pjwaswat chi
ngaft
erhisfatherandyounger
si
bli
ngsl ef
twhenNombusocamei nthelounge
hi
shear tski
ppedabeat.Nombusosatdown
eventhoughshewasn'tsureitwasifi
twasa
goodideaornot
Nombuso:
"It
houghty
oual
sol
eft
"
Pj
:"nope"
Nombuso:
"youhat
eme?
"Pj
justchuckl
ed
Pj
:"wi
l
lthatmakey
ousl
eepbet
ter
"
Nombuso:
"of
cosnot
"
Pj:"Ihavenofeelingstowar dsyouwhat'
sso
every ouwerejustwal kingpussy"Nombuso's
tearsstart
edstreamingdownhercher ksshe
ranupst ai
rsli
tt
ledidsheknowt hatPjwasjust
l
y i
nghest il
ll
ovedher .Pj l
etoutasighandran
afterherhegotinherr oom shewaslayi
ngon
herst omachont hebedcr y
ing
Pj
:"i
m sor
ry"
Nombuso:
"do.
.Don'
t..
.Bot
her
"hewal
kedt
o
thebedfl
ippedheroverget
ti
ngontopofher
,
hishear
twasbeatingasfastasher
s
Nombuso:"
whaty
oudoi
ng"shewasbr
eat
hing
openl
ynheavi
l
y
Pj:"
Idon'
tknow"hespoket
het
rut
hcozhe
real
lydi
dn'
tknowwhathewasdoi
ng
Nombuso:"
getof
fme"hekissedherhar
dshe
l
etoutamoanthatonl
ydrov
ePj cr
azywil
dhe
l
if
tedupherdr
essandtor
ethroughherl
ace
pant
y
Nombuso:"
ohGod"Nombusof el
tPj
'sthi
ck
l
ongfi
ngerent
eri
ngherf
orbi
ddenplaceshelet
outabr
okencryPjj
umpedoffher
Pj
:"t
hisi
swhyIdi
dn'twantt
ocomeher
e!!
"Pj
wasangr
yathi
mselfforbei
ngweak
Nombuso:"y
oucameinmyroom!
"Shequi
ckl
y
satuppul
l
ingdownherdr
ess
Pj
:"f
uckt
hisshi
t"
Nombuso:
"justl
eav
ePj
gost
ayatt
he
pent
house"
Pj
:"dadi
srent
ingi
t"
Nombuso:
"towho"
Pj:"
somest udent
"theybot
hlookedateach
otherasifali
ghtbulbhasbeenl
itt
heyboth
saidfuckthesamet i
me
Nombuso;"nostudentcouldaf
for
dtor
entt
hat
pl
ace"Pjsmikeddevil
ishl
y
Pj
:"wanacomewi
thme"Nombusost
oodup
Nombuso:
"letmeputonf
reshpant
ies"
Pj
:"y
oudon'
thav
eto"hegav
eheragr
in
Nombuso; "don'
tst
art"shewentt othecloset
putonf r
eshpanti
estheyl ef
tdrivi
ngtothe
penthouseNombusowasner v
ousncur iousat
thesamet imewhil
ePj justcouldn'
twaittobust
hisdadmay beNombusowoul df i
nal
lyseehim
forthecruelmanthathei s.
Pj
:"y
ousur
e"t
heywer
epar
kedi
nfr
ontoft
he
bui
l
ding
Nombuso:"
yeah"shewashesi
tant
.Pj
knocked
bef
oreheusedhiskeyt
ogetin
Pj:"
hell
o"sof
tmusicwaspl
ayi
ng,
agi
rlmet
them bythel
ounge
Pj:
"whoareyou"thegi
rldidn'
tknowwhatt
o
sayseei
ngPatri
ck'swi
fejustshockher
Nombuso:"
you"i
twast
hesamegi
rlshehad
seeni
nthemall
Gi
rl
:"i
...
"
Pj
:"whoi
sthi
s"
Nombuso:"
yourf
ather'
smi
stress"thegirl
l
ookedatPjandstar
tedwonderingjusthow
ol
dPatr
icki
sifhehasasonthatold
Pj:
"youf
uckingmyf atheri
sthatwhyhegav
e
youmymot her
'spenthouse"
Gi
rl
:"I.
.,
im sor
ryIdidn'
tknow"Nombusofeltso
muchangersheslappedtheli
vi
ngdayl
ightout
oft
hepoorgi
rl
Nombuso:"youdi
dn'tknowt hathewasmar r
ied?
Stupi
dbit
ch,whenhel efty
ouatt hemal
lthat
daywhodidy out
hinkIwas? "Nombusogav e
heranot
herslapt
hegir l
cri
ed
Nombuso:
"packy
ourshi
tandl
eav
e"
Gir
l:"
oklookIr espectasPatri
ck'swifeandim
sorr
ybutI '
m notgoingany where"Nombusof el
t
herbloodboilshegotont opofhergav ehera
beati
ngofal i
fetimePj wasjustwatchingin
amusementasNombusobeatt hepoorgirlher
weavef l
yi
ngall overt
heplaceasNombuso
pul
leditout,whent hegir
lstar
tedbleedingPj
pul
ledherback
Pj
:"I
'dsuggesty
outakeyourshitandleavewe
wi
llwaitf
oryousoIcantaket hekeys"she
st
oodupwentt opackherthingssti
l
l i
ntear
s
whenshewasdoneshegav ePj t
hekeysand
l
eft
Pj
:"can'
tbel
i
evey
oubeatherup"
Nombuso: "
mxm"t heyl
aughedbutNombuso'
s
l
aughturnedint
oloudsobskarmareal
isa
bi
tchshethoughttoher
self
Pj:
"hey
,itokhedoesn'
tdeser
veyourt
ear
s"he
hel
dheeuntilshewasdonecryi
ng
Nombuso: "Ishoul
dn'
thavemar
ri
edhimyou
wereright
"Pj di
dntwantt
oberi
ghtather
expense
Pj:"
lookatme"heheldherchint
heylookedat
eachboththei
rhear
tspoundingi
nsync
Pj:"
youdeser vesomuchbet t
er"Nombuso
noddedt hetwokissedthi
ngsmov edf astsoon
Pjwasbur ri
eddeepi nNombusospar kswer e
fl
yi
ngi tfel
tli
keNewYear seveforthebot h
part
ies,sexwithPjwasalwaysdiff
erent .Pj
madel ovetoNombusophy si
cal
lynemot ional
ly
hefedhersoul .
.
I
twasFr
idayaf
ter
noont
hesmi
thf
ami
l
ywas
goingonasur pri
set r
ipt odurbanKeenanhad
organizedevery
thingSi nowascl ueless,when
shecamebackf rom wor kherhusbandt ol
dher
topackt heyweregoi ngawayf ortheweekend
shepackedhersui tcaseexci t
edlythekidswer e
readyactuall
yeveryonewasr eadyjustwai t
ing
forSino.Thefamilydr ovetogetherwhi l
ethe
staffwasf ol
l
owingbehi nd
Ky
li
e:"
oldMcDonal
dhadaf
arm"
Jay
den:
"iy
ahi
yahoh"
Ky
li
e:"
onhi
sfar
m hehadsomedogs"
Jay
den:
"iy
ahi
yaoh"
Twins:"woofwooft
hereandwoofwoofther
e"
thetwinssangal
ongtothi
erdiskpl
ayi
ngint
he
carir
ri
tati
ngTayl
orandLuvuyoevenmore
Keenan:"
woofwooft
her
eandwoofwoofher
e"
healsosangal
ong
Vuvu:
"reall
ydaddy!St
opent
ert
aini
ngt
hem"
Si
nojustlaughed
Tay
lor
:"t
hisi
sjustst
upi
d"
Sino:
"I'
l
ltel
lyourfat
hert
ostopt
hiscarsoyou
cangor i
nsethatdir
tymout
hofyourTayt
ay"
Taylor:"sor rymom butr eallyt hismusicisso
notcool "Sinoshookherhead" oldMcDonald
hadaf ar mi yahiyahohandonhi sfar
m hehad
somechi ckeni yahi yahohandaqweekqweek
thereandaqweekqweekher e"keenanSino
andt winssangl oudl ymakingTay l
orand
Luvuyowantt ocry .Theridet odur banwas
shortduet oKeenan' sspeedi ngwhenhewas
approachi ngt hehousesont hebeachhi s
start
edsweat i
nghewassoner voushopinghe
didn'
tmaket hewr ongdeci sionbutSi nohad
beent alki ngaboutget ti
ngahol idayhousefor
thefami lysomewher earoundt hebeachso
whatot herpl acer atherthandur banshehated
ECandKy lealreadyhadahousei nCapeTown
Keenan:"
thandolwam wehere"heshookhis
sl
eepingwifeevery
oneinthecarwasasleep
Sino:
"mmh"shey awnedthecarwasdrivi
ngin
abeautif
ul houseasmuchasi twasl at
eat
ni
ghtthelightsmadet hehouselookso
beauti
fulKeenangotoutaf t
erparkingt
hecar
wenttoopent hedoorforSi
nohet ookherhand
shesteppedout
Si
no:
"babywhosehousei
sthi
s"
Keenan:
"our
s"hesai
dner
vousl
y
Si
no:"youboughtusanot herhouse"t
hehouse
wasabeautiful
doubl estor
ywith5bedrooms6
bathr
oom alounge,openar eaki
tchenndinni
ng
area,
withapool housethathad2bedrooms.It
wasinball
it
obeach
Keenan:"
youwant
edabeachhouse"Si
nojust
cri
ednotknowi
ngwhatt
osayshecouldn'
tfi
nd
thewords
Si
no:
"yousuchabl
essi
ng"
Keenan:"
youablessi
ng,
youandourbeaut
if
ul
chi
ldr
en"theyki
ssedbef
orewaki
ngupthekids.
Whorani
nsi
descreamingwi
thexci
tementas
t
heywentt
ofindt
heirr
ooms.
.
Thef ol
l
owi ngdayar oundmiddayLungeloand
ScottydrovetoSino'snewhouse.Lungelowas
alit
tl
ener v
ousaboutScot tymeet i
ngSinobut
whenSi nocall
edint hemorninginvi
ti
ngthem
forl
unchhecoul dn'tsayno
Scot
ty:
"whati
fshedoesn' tlikemebaby "Scotty
hadsomanymi xedfeel
ingsov ermeet
ingt he
womanwhohadcapt ur
edl ungelo'
sheart,as
muchassheknewLungel ol ovedhersheal so
knewhewasnotov erhisfirstlove
Lungel
o:"
youdon'
tneedherappr
oval
"
Scott
y;"
oh"Lungel
opull
edupatt
hegat
ethe
housewasevenbetteri
nday
li
ght
Scotty:"
wow"Lungel
ocli
ckedhi
stongue
withoutmeani
ngtothegatej
ustopenedt
hey
droveandparkedout
sidet
hegarageScot
ty'
s
gaspedwhenshesawSi nowhowasjust
weari
ngabum shortnbiki
nit
opshowingher
perf
ectl
ysl
im st
omachwi t
habsheri
nsecuri
ti
es
shotupshetouchherf
atbell
y
Scot
ty:
"im sof
at"
Lungelo:"
youpregnant
"theygotof
fthecarmet
thecoupleSi
nolookedatScottysi
zi
ngherup,
greet
ingsandintr
oduct
ionstookpl
ace
Sino:"
welcometoournewhome"Scot t
ysmil
ed
uncormfort
abl
yshehatedheral
readyandher
beingpoli
tewasnthel
ping
Keenan:"t
hekidsar
eswi mmingandim br
aii
ng
i
nt heback"Si
notouchherman'sexposed
packsabsentl
ybutLungelonot
iced
Sino:
" l
etmefi
xyouadr i
nkScot
tyIgotv
irgi
n
cocktai
lsi
nthefr
idge"
Keenan:
"don'
twor
ryshe'
sal
sonotdr
inki
ng"
Si
no:"
wetrynagetpregnantmydoctorsai
dno
moreal
cohol"Scot
tyfakedagi
ggle
Lungel
o:"
whenlastdi
dy oucheckmaybey
ou
al
readypr
egnant
"Sinojustchuckl
ed
di
smissi
vel
y
Sino: "
let'
sgeti n"theyfol l
owedheri ngotdr inks
wentt ot hebackSet huwasal sot heresipping
onbel lai
rroseandSandi le.Scottyev enfel
t
mor euncomf ortableSet huwasi nabi ki
nianda
l
ar geseet hroughdr essshi rt
.Thedaywent
al
ongpr ettywel lwithgoodmusi cl aughtereasy
conv ersati
onsbutl ungelocoul dn'
tst opthinking
aboutwhatKeenansai d, thathenSi noar e
tr
y i
ngf orababyt hatmeantSi nowasntonapi l
l
orinjection.Si
nost oodupgoi ngint hehouse
Lungel oletaf ewmi nutespassbef oregoing
afterherhecor neredheri nthekitchen
Lungel
o:"
Sino"
Sino:
"she'
sbeaut
if
ulLungel
o"f
orsomer
eason
shecouldn'
tl
ookathi
m
Lungelo:"
whenlastdi
dyouchecki
fyou
pregnantornot
"
Si
no:"
that'
snonofy ourbusi
nessLungelo"Sino
wasal
sof r
eakedoutbyt het
houghtthatifshe
wasal
readypregnantthechi
ldcoul
dbe
l
ungel
o's
Lungel
o:"
youcouldbepregnantwi
thmychil
d
Goddamit!
!"Scot
tyf
eltt
earspouri
ngoutofher
eyes
Scot
ty:"
excuseme"shehadhear
dthewhol
e
conv
ersati
on
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21:
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t59
.
Panicsetal
lov
erLungel
oandSi
nowhi
chonl
y
fuel
edangeronScot
ty
Scot
ty:
"what
'sgoi
ngonLungel
o?"
Si
no:
"takeherhomeLungel
o"
Scot
ty:
"no!Someonet
ell
met
het
rut
hnow!
"
Si
no:"
Lungel
ogetherundercont
rol
ort
akeher
homeIdonotwantdramainmyhousemy
husbandnkidsarehere"Si
nospoket
hrough
herteet
hlastt
hingshewantedwasScott
y
makingascene
Scott
y:"ohnowyoucarewheny ouwere
fucki
ngmyboy f
ri
endhady ouforgot
tenthaty
ou
haveahusband!!
"Scott
yscreamedlouder
whichjustmadeSinoangr
y
Si
no:
"shutt
hef
uckup"
Scott
y:"youshutuphoe"Si
nolookedatlungelo
wit
hal ookthatmadeLungel
oshivveri
nf ear
.
Onethingforsureal
lthemaninSino'
sli
fe
hatedseeingherangr
yorsad
Lungel
o:"
calm downScot
tyy
oudon'
tknow
whatyouheard"
Scott
y:"
don'tf
uckwithmeLungelo!
!"Scot
ty
tur
nedredifshewasacartoonsmokewoul dbe
comingoutofhernoseandears
Si
no:"
Lungel
odamitgetheroutofmyhouse"
l
ungel
owalkedcl
osert
oScot t
y
Lungel
o:"
let
'sgot
alkaboutt
hisathomel
ove"
Scot
ty:
"yousleptwi
thherdidnty
ou"shejust
want
edhimt oconfi
rm whatshealr
eadyknew
Lungelo:"
thi
sisnottheti
met otalkaboutthat
babywecan'tdiscussourbusinessin
someone'shouse.Letmet akeyouhomesoI
cantakecareofyouandexpl ai
nim sureyou
ti
reditbeenalongday"scotty'
stear
scouldnt
stopfall
i
ng
Scot
ty:
"st
opt
ryi
ngt
ohandl
eme"
Sino:
"youknowyourwayout
"shelef
tthem i
n
theki
tchenwentoutt
oherhusbandt
hekids
werealreadyi
nbed
Sethu:
"weleavi
ngSandil
ejustgotcal
ledi
n"
whichwasal i
eSethuwasjusthornyand
neededherman'sdick
Si
no:
"ohwel
li
twasgoodseei
ngy
out
wo"
Sandi
le:"
thanksf
orhavingusyouhavea
beaut
iful
home"Sinolookedatherhusband
wi
thnot
hingbutl
ove
Keenan:"
thankyou"Sethunsandil
esaidthei
r
goodbyesandlef
twalkingpassthekit
chen
whereScottywassti
llcry
ingLungel
ocouldnt
cal
m herdown
Sandi
l
e:"
what
'sgoi
ngonwi
tht
hem"
Sethu:
"havenoi
deabutI
'm sur
eithas
somethingt
odowithSi
no"Sethupit
iedt
he
poorgir
l
Sandi
le:
"Deywoman"hechuckl
edashesped
tohi
shouseinmorni
ngsi
deSethu'
sphonerang
Set
hu:
"hel
l
o"
Nka:
"heybeaut
if
ul"
Set
hu:
"whatdoy
ouwantNkany
iso"
Nka:"
you"Nkany
isowasdrunki
nacl
uband
wheneverhewasdrunkheal
waysmi
ssed
Set
hu
Set
hu:
"by
eNkany
isoi
tlat
eandI
'
m busy
"
Nka:
"youwi
tht
hatcar
diganwear
ingner
d"
Set
hu:
"yes"sheshutt
hephone
Sandi
l
e:"
Nkany
iso?
"
Set
hu:
"yeah"
Sandi
l
e:"
mmh"
.
..
..
.
Backatt
heSmit
hhouseScot
tywasr ef
usi
ngto
cal
m downandshewasr
eall
yir
ri
tat
ingLungel
o
Scotty
:"whydoesmyrel
ati
onshi
pgetst
obe
fuckedupwhil
ehersr
emainsgood"
Lungel
o:"
don'
tbepet
tyScot
tyi
tnotcut
e"
Scot
ty:
"ist
hiswayyouref
usi
ngt
ogoback
home"shemeantthest
ate
Lungel
o:"
Iam homeScot
ty!
!"
Keenanhear
dtheshout
inghehadSi
noonhi
s
l
apthetwoweremakingout
Keenan:
"what
'sgoi
ngonwi
tht
heset
wot
hey
've
beenati
tforsomet
imenow"
Sino:"
Idon'
tknowwhytheydon'tgobackt
o
thei
rplaceandfi
ghtt
her
e"hertonewassocol
d
Keenan:
"may
bey
oushoul
dcheckont
hem"
Sino:"r
athernotgetinvol
ved"shewentbackto
kissi
ngherhusbandwhohadhi shandsonher
ass.Theywer edist
urbedbyScottywhowas
rushingtothepoolareawithLungel
obehind
tryi
ngtogethertost op
Scott
y:"soyoubusyhappywhil
emy
rel
ati
onshipi
sfal
li
ngapartbi
tch!
!"
Si
no:"watchyour
sel
fScot
tyIwi
l
lnotbe
di
srespectedi
nmyhouse"
Scott
y:"
yougoingtotal
kaboutdisr
espectwhile
youbusyf.
."Shedidn'
tevenf
ini
shhersentence
Sinomovedfastfr
om keenanandstoodinfront
ofher
Sino:
"pregnantornotIwi
ll
fuckyouupScott
y"
Lungelomov edScott
yknowingt
hatSi
noreal
ly
woul
dfuckherup
Keenan:
"what
'sgoi
ngon"hest
oodup
Lungel
o:"
not
hing"
Scot
ty:
"li
kehel
lnot
hingi
shappeni
ng"
Si
no:
"justgetoutofmyhouse!
!"
Scott
y:"
whatscar
edyourhusbandi
sgoi
ngt
o
real
i
zeyounotperf
ect
"
Sino:
"youdel
usi
onal
"keenanput2n2t
oget
her
cameoutwith4
Keenan:"whatdidy
oudot omywi f
eLungel
o"
hestart
edwalkingtowar
dshim Scott
ycr
ossed
herhandsoverherhugechest
Scot
ty:
"youbi
tchofawif
eopenedherl
egsfor
hi
m"Keenanlookedathi
swi
fewhojustl
ooked
down
Keenan:
"Domi
nic"
Si
no:
"im sor
ry"
Keenan:
"whatt
hef
ucki
swr
ongwi
thy
ou?You
comet omyhousesmi
l
ingsayi
ngyouher
efor
yourdaught
erbuty
oul
usti
ngaft
ermywif
e"
Lungel
o:"
keenanbruI.
."Keenanpul
l
edLungel
o
byhist
shi
rtonlyt
opushhim backwit
hahard
punchonhisj
aw
Si
no:"keenanholdon"Sino'
sv oi
ceonl
ymade
hi
m mor eangryhebeatuplungelotoapoi
nt
wher
ehewasunconsci ousignor
ingSi
non
Scot
ty'
scr y
,heonlystoppedwhenRonnyn
Tom pull
edhim back
Keenan:"gett
hispi
eceofshitoutofmy
proper
ty"Scot
tywenttokneelenexttoanun
consci
ousLungelohisfacewasfil
ledwit
h
bl
ood
Sino:"y
ouneedtot
akehi
mtot
hehospi
tal
"she
couldn'
tst
opcry
ing
Keenan:"y
ou!!
"Hepoi nt
edtoSi
no"Igi
vey ou
ever
ythi
ngsot hatyoudon'
tgol
ookingforit
fr
om otherpeople"
Si
no:
"I.
..
..I
m sor
rypl
ease"
Keenan:
"im sof
uckndonewit
hyou!
!"Keenan
wassoangryhisfacewasr
edwithv
einsall
overi
t
Si
no:"
babypl
ease"shewentonherknees"
Iam
sososor
rykeenanplease"
Keenan:"youpromisedmey oupromisedwhen
wegotmar r
iedthatal
loft
hisshi
twillr
emaini
n
thepast"helookedathiswif
efeeli
ngangern
defeathejustwalkedawaySinostoodupand
walkedafterhi
m hegrabbedhiscarkeys
Si
no:
"keenanpl
easei
m sor
rydon'
tgo"
Keenan:"l
eavemet hefuckaloneSi no"hegotin
hiscardroveoutTom droveafterhiml eavi
ng
Sinoonherkneesandi ntear
s.Ronnyst ood
ther
enotknowi ngwhattodohewant edto
comfortherbuthealsodidn'
twanacr ossany
boundari
esev ent
ual
lyRonnycoul dn'ttakeher
l
oudsobshewentt oholdherunt i
lherv oi
ce
becamehoar sy
Ronny
:"l
et'
sgety
out
obed"sheshookherhead
Sino:
"Ineedt
ocheckonLungelo"heletgoof
herstoodupntookherhandshestoodup
Sino:"
thanky
ou"whent
heygott
othebacky
ard
Lungelowasupshewentt
okneel
enextt
o
them
Sino:
"im sorr
y"Keenanreal
lyfuckhi
m uphis
wholefacewasswol lenandhisbott
om l
iphad
acuthet ri
edsit
ti
ngupbutwi ncedinpai
nSino
tr
iedli
ft
inghistshi
rtup
Scot
ty:
"whaty
oudoi
ng"
Si
no:
"fuckof
fnxast
upi
dshi
t"
Scott
y:"
excuseme"Sinoli
ft
edhi
stshi
rthehad
navynredbrui
sesshestar
tedt
ouchi
nghim
soft
lyhecri
edoutwhenshegottohi
sribs
Si
no:
"youneedt
oseeadoct
or"
Scot
ty;
"heneedst
orepor
tKeenanhi
saf
uckn
ani
mal"
Sino:
"bit
chyour eall
ygett
ingonmyner veshad
youshutthatpi
ewhol ewewouldn'tbei
nthis
messsoshutt hef uckupbefor
ey ouseemy
animalsi
de"shehadsuchascar ylookScot
ty
shutupimmedi ately
Lungel
o:"
Iwon'
trepor
thi
m"
Si
no:
"Iknow.Cant
hiswhal
edr
ive?
"
Scot
ty:
"whoy
oucal
l
ingawhal
e"
Sino:"
lungel
ocansheorshoul
dRonnyt
akey
ou
tothehospit
al"
Lungel
o:"wewi
llmanagethanky
ou"Si
nost
ood
upnhelpedhi
m standup
Lungel
o:"
Iam sosorr
ySi
no,
ifIcoul
dmake
thi
ngsbet
terIwoul
d"
Si
no:"i
t'
sokj
ustt
akecareofyour
sel
f"Lungel
o
noddedandt
heyl
eftScot
tydr
ivi
ngtothe
hospi
tal
Scot
ty:
"yougoi
ngt
obeok"
Lungel
o:"j
ustshutuppleasehadyoukeptyour
mouthshutnonoft hi
swouldhavehappened
butyoucouldn'
tdoonet hi
ng"t
hosewordscut
deepinScotty'
sheart
Scot
ty:"
howi si
tmyf
aul
tthaty
oucheat
edon
melungelo"
Lungelo:"
itwasbetweeny ouandInobodyelse"
therestoftheri
dewasf il
l
edwi t
hdeafeni
ng
sil
encewhent heygotinLungelowashelpedhe
got2st i
chesonhislip,
hehad3br okenri
bshe
alsohadtoget3ot hersti
tchesonhisfor
ehead
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
Itwasl at
eSundaymorningSmithfami
lywas
goingbackt ojhbSi
nohadn'tsl
eptawink
Keenandi dn'
tcomeback.Shegotoutofher
room thehousewasalreadybuzzi
ngwi t
hthe
kidsthenanniesweremakingsureal
lthe
clothesarepacked
Jay
den:
"mommyi
sdaddyup"
Si
no:
"yeahbuthej
ustst
eppedout
"
Jayden:"ok"Sinowentbacki nherr oom tocall
Keenanforl i
kethe50thtimeandi tr ang
unanswer edshejustwentbackt obedcr ied
unti
lnomor etear
swer ecomingoutshest ayed
i
nbedpl ay i
ngoutdiff
erentscenarios,thedoor
openedKeenangoti nlookingdr ai
nedhehad
al
sodidntsl eepawinklastnighthest ayedin
hi
shot elroom dri
nki
ngandcr ying
Sino:"
wherewerey ou"shegotofft
hebed"I
'v
e
beensowor ri
ed"shethrewhersel
fathi
m
holdi
nghim buthedidn'tt
ouchher
embarrassmentranalloverher
.Sheremov
ed
hersel
flooki
ngdown
Sino:
"sorr
y "Keenanjustmov edawayf r
om her
wenttotakeahotshowerl eavi
ngSinointears.
4hourslaterev ery
onewasi nthecarKeenan
hadn'
tsaidawor dtoSinoandev er
ytimeshe
l
ookedatherhusbandshej uststart
edcryi
ng
thecolddi
st antlooki
nhisey estor
eherapart.
Ther i
debackt ojhbwasj ustfi
ll
edwi thnoi se
from t
hetwi nsnTay lor
,Luvuyohadher
earphonesonl i
steningtoheriPodwhi l
er eading
HarryPotter.Whent heygothomei twasl ate
theyhaddi nneraf t
erdinnerthekidst ookbat hs
wenttobedKeenanwentar oundt uckingt hem
i
nt henreadt het winsabookbef oregoi ngt o
hisroom Sinowasont hebednotknowi ngwhat
todoKeenangoti nwentst r
aighttothecl oset
taki
nghissui tcasehest art
edpacki ngi tSino
heardtheshuf fleshewentt ocheckwhatwas
goingon
Sino:"
baby"heignoredhercarri
edonpacking
hi
ssui t
case"keenanplease"hezippeduphis
suit
casetookhismat chi
ngduffl
ebagbutSi no
grabbeditf
rom me
Si
no:
"tal
ktomedami
t!
!"
Keenan:
"don'
tyoudar
erai
sey
ourv
oiceatme"
Si
no:"
whatdoyouwantmet
odokeenany
ou
won'
ttal
ktome"
Keenan:
"gof
uckLungel
omay
bet
hatwi
l
lhel
p
you"
Si
no:
"im sor
ry"
Keenan:
"soam InowcanIhav
emyduf
fl
ebagI
needtofi
nishpacki
ng"
Si
no:
"wher
eyougoi
ng"
Keenan:
"hot
el"
Si
no:"yougoi
nganywher
eDamonyougoi
ngto
si
tyourassdownwegoingt
oworkthi
soutl
i
ke
amaturemarri
edcoupl
e"
Keenan:"nowyouremembert
haty
oumarr
ied
wheny ouwereopeni
ngyourl
egsf
ory
ourex
youdidn'
tremember"
Sino:
"itwasami st
akeIam sorr
y.Comeon
Keenan"hegrabbedhisbagSinopushedhi
m
andgrabbeditback
Keenan:"
DominicIhaveneverhi
tawoman
befor
eandthelastthi
ngIwantistost
artwi
th
mywi f
enowgivemet hatbagsoIcanconti
nue
andl
eav
eI'
vegotwor
kint
hemor
ning"
Si
no:
"whatdoIt
ell
theki
ds"
Keenan:"
tel
lthem t
heymotheri
sahoe"Sino
sl
appedKeenansohar dwit
houtevent
hinki
ng
abouti
theheldherneckli
ft
ingherupwhil
e
choki
ngher
Keenan:"Iwill
ki l
lyouDominicy ouwillnotgo
aroundfuckingpeopl eanddot hattome"hel et
goofhershef ellwhi
lecoughingnonst ophe
tookhisbagshov edhisshoesinf ur
iouslyand
l
eft.Si
nogotof fthefl
oorwentt obedshecr ied
hersel
ftosleep.
.
Meanwhi l
einNombuso'shousePat r
ickcouldn'
t
sleepaf
terNombusohadbeat enuphi sside
chickNdaloenhl
eandtheychasedherout ,
Patri
ckkeptonwaiti
ngf orNombusot osay
somethingbutshehasn'tsai
danythi
ngand
Patri
ckhatednotknowingwhat'
sgoingoni n
thatsmartbrai
nofher.Thatwasoneoft he
t
hingst
hathadmadePatr
ickf
all
inl
ov ewi
th
Nombusoshewassmartandambit
ious
Nombuso: "
youcan'
tsl
eep"shel
ookedupat
herhusband
Pat
rick:
" y
eahjustnotsureaboutyouwor king"
hel
iedy eahsurehehatedthethoughtof
Nombusowor kingaroundmenbutt herewasn' t
muchhecoul ddoshewasf i
nal
lyatatipping
poi
nthecouldf eelsodenyi
ngherofwor king
wasonlygoingt opushherovertheedge
Nombuso:"ev
eryt
hingi
sgoi
ngtobejustf
ine
t
rustme"shecuppedhi
sfaceki
ssi
nghim
Pat
ri
ck:"Itr
ustyou"theyki
ssedwhichl
edto
l
ovemaki ngithadbeenoveraweeksinceshe
sl
eptwit
hPj ,Pjandhissi
bli
ngshadlef
ton
Sat
urday.
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
Thefol
l
owingdaySi
nodidn'
tgotoworkshe
st
ayedinbedi
twasaft
erlunchwhenRonny
knockedinherbedroom shewentt oopenhe
hadat raywi
thherfavori
techocolatecakef r
om
muggnbean, chickensoupngar li
cbr eadsti
ck.
Heknewshewoul dn'
tsaynotot hemeal she
l
ovedt heset
hingswhenshewasn' tfeeli
ngwell
Ronny:
"thoughty
oumightneedt
hese"Si
no
smil
edthroughHert
ear
s
Si
no:
"yout
hebest
"sheki
ssedhi
scheek
Ronny: "
youwel come"shetookt hetr
aycl osed
thedoorwentt oeati nbedwhilewatching
ti
tani
c.Whenshewasdoneeat i
ngshewant ed
total
kt osomeonebutshedi dn'
tli
keshar ing
hermar ri
ageissueswi t
hfri
endsorhersi sters
allal
ongwhenev ershenkeenanwentt hrough
somet hi
ngshekepti ttohersel
fbutthistime
sheneededt otalktosomeonesoshecal l
ed
hermom Ongezi we
Mom:
"Si
nohel
l
o"
Si
no;
"mom"shest
art
edcr
ying
Mom:
"heywhat
'sgoi
ngon"
Si
no:"
hisl
eav
ingmethist
imehealr
eady
movedout
"Ongegaspedi
nshock
Mom: "whathappened"Sinotoldhermom t
he
tr
uthwhilecry
ingOngelistenedwithher
heart
breaki
nghearingherdaughtercry
Onge:
"ohnci
nci
"
Sino:
"Imessedupmom Idon'
tev
enknowwhat
todo"
Onge:
"thatmanl
ovesy
ouSi
nogi
vehi
m space
hewil
lcomebackhome"
Sino:
"im soscar
ed,
Idon'
twantt
olosemy
husbandmom"
Onge:"y
ouwon'tlosehi
m Si no,
justprayfor
for
giv
enessputGodi nyourmar r
iage"guil
t
washedallov
erSinohonestlychurchorprayi
ng
i
ssomet hi
ngthatshehasn'tdoneiny ear
s
Si
no:
"ok"
Onge:"l
etGodbet
heonl
y3r
dper
soni
nyour
marri
age"
Si
no:
"Iheary
oumom"
Onge:"
I'
ll
checkonyoulat
erokayy
ourfat
her
andIar
epr epar
ingf
orachur
chmeeti
ng"
Si
no:
"ok"t
heybot
hhangupatt
hesamet
ime.
Ongezi
wel
ookedatherhusbandf
ixi
nghi
sti
e
Onge:
"If
eel
sor
ryf
ory
ourdaught
ers"
Zuko:
"whywoul
dyousayt
hat
"
Onge:
"becausetheyexact
lyl
ikeyouall3of
t
hem"Zukol ookedathi
swifeconfused
Zuko:
"whatdoy
oumean"
Onge;
"st
ubbor
nandcan'
tbef
ait
hful
"
Zuko:
"wel
lthat
'shur
tful
"shest
oodupf
ixedhi
s
ti
e
Onge:"
youwereluckytogetmebutmancan't
handl
ewhatcomeswi thbeingwi
thsomeone
l
ikeyouandyourdaughter
sareexact
lyl
i
keyou"
Zuko:
"Iam l
ucky
"theyki
ssed
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
Amont
hlat
er
.
Lungelohadgonebackt othestatewi t
hScot t
y
theyfi
xedt heirprobl
emsandLungel opr oposed
Scott
yl eftSAasav er
yhappywomanshehad
herbeaut i
fulsonandar ingonherf inger.
Nombusowasl ovingworkev enthoughPat ri
ck
hadat endencyofj ustshowingup, sheandPj
nevertalkedaboutwhathappenedbet ween
them atthepent house.
Sinoandkeenanwer eatt herockbottom,
Keenanhadbeenst ayi
ngatt hehot elsi
ncethey
camebackf r
om thedur ban.Sinohadt r
ied
every
thingtogethimt of orgi
veherbutnot hi
ng
waswor king,sheonlysawhi m duringthe
weekendswhenhecamet oseethekids
somet i
meshecameatni ghtjusttohavedinner
withthekidsandtuckt hem inhewasst i
ll
not
tal
kingtoSi
no.Sinohadbeenfeel
ingali
tt
le
underthewatersoshewasatherdoctor
's
off
icetheyweremakingsmall
jokeswhil
e
waiti
ngfort
het estr
esul
ts
Doc:"
welli
tposi
ti
ve"hesmil
edbutSi
nodi
dn'
t
bri
ngi
ngababyrightnowtot
hemixwasnota
goodidea
Si
no:
"oh"
Doc:"It
houghty
ouwoul
dbehappyy
ouand
keenanwantedthi
s"
Si
no:"y
eswedidbutnowthet
imi
ngisj
ust
wrongbuti
tokcanwechecki
fev
ery
thi
ngis
fi
ne"
Doc;
"sure"Si
nowentt
ochangeandt
heydi
d
t
heultr
asound
Si
no:
"itst
rong"
Doc:
"heal
thyl
i
ttl
efel
l
ow"
Si
no:
"howf
ar"
Doc:
"3mont
hs"
Si
no:"shi
t"3mont
hsmeanti
tcoul
dbeLungel
o
orkeenan
Doc:
"what
'swr
ong"
Sino:"
nothi
ng"t heyfi
nishedupshewentback
toheroffi
ce,after3weeksofst ayingathome
feel
ingsorr
yf orherselfsheret
urnedtowor k.
Shewasbusywi t
hsomepaperwhi lemunching
onsomecucumberdi ppedinmay oaftershe
sentKeenanat extsay i
ngshe's3mont hs
pregnanthejustreplywithcongratul
ati
ons.
Jessy
:"del
i
ver
y"shesai
dget
ti
ngi
nwi
thaguy
Si
no:
"thanky
ou"Jessyst
eppedout
Guy:"i
mf r
om thecourthouseyouhavebeen
serv
ed"theguygav eherabigbrownenv el
ope
shesignedthedeliv
erypapershel
eft.Sino
openedtheenv el
opewithherhear
tpounding
onl
yt ofi
nddivorcepapersandasett
lement
pageofthethingsKeenanwaswi l
li
ngt ogive
her.Shequickl
ycover
edhermouthwithher
handletti
ngoutamuffledsobshecr
iedsi
lent
ly
asshef el
tthewall
sclosi
ngin
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08/
12,
21:
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t60
.
Sinosatont hefloorshehel
dherstomachas
shesi l
entl
ycriedhereyesoutshecoul
dn't
beli
evet hi
swashappeni ngKeenanwasjust
givi
ngupont heirl
ove,t
hei
rrel
ati
onshi
pand
mar r
iage.Jessyknockedoncebeforegett
ingi
n
withoutwaitforherbosstosaysomething
Jessy:
"Nikky
"shewalkedt owar
dsherand
kneel
ednexttoher"I
st her
esomethingwrong?
Areyouinpain?
"Sinojustshookherhead
Si
no:"
pleasecal
lRonnyf
orme"hert
onewas
hi
ghpit
ched
Jessy:"
ok"shetooktheoff
icephoneandcalled
Ronnyaftercal
li
ngshewenttogetheraglass
ofsugarwater.Ronnycameinrunni
ngkneeled
nextt
oher
Ronny:"
what'sgoingonNikky"hescannedthe
hugecornerglassoff
iceandsawthedivorce
paper
sont hedeskhemut ter
edacur se
i
nwardly
Si
no:
"Iwanagohome"
Ronny :
"canyouwalk"shenoddedhehel ped
herstandupJessypackedSi no'
sbagsheal so
sawt hepapersandquickl
ythoughtabouthow
muchshecoul dgetbysell
ingthest or
ybutshe
couldn'
tsinceshesi
gnedaconf identi
ali
ty
agreementalongwiththerestofthestaff
Ronny:"
let
'stakey
ouhome"het ookhertot
he
caranddrovehomeSi nowascryi
ngthewhol
e
waythereRonnystoppedattheshoppi
ng
complexandwentt oopenherdoor
Ronny
:"comeon"
Si
no:
"IwantmybedRonnyt
akemehome"
Ronny
:"comeon"het
ookherhandshej
umped
of
fther
anger
overhewi
pedherf
ace
Si
no:
"whatwedoi
ngher
e"
Ronny:
"get
ti
ngyoufoodt
her
apy
"Si
nosmi
l
edat
hi
m andhishear
tfel
twar
m
Si
no:
"hi
sdi
vor
cingme"
Ronny
: "
hisl
ossanymanwoul
dbel
uckyt
o
haveyou"
Si
no:"y
oujusttr
yingt
omakemef
eel
bet
ter
"
Ronnychuckl
ed
Ronny
:"i
sitwor
king"
Si
no:
"may
be"
Ronny
:"goodbutIdomeani
t"
Si
no:"ok"t
heywal
kedtopicknpaygotl
otof
bakedgoodsandsnacksRonnypai
d
Si
no:
"youdi
dn'
thav
eto"
Ronny:"
mytreat
"Ronnyknewthathecould
neverpr
ovi
deSinowit
hthetypeofli
fest
yle
she'
sused
Sino:"t
hankyou"theywentbackt othecar
strai
ghthomeSinowentt oherroom wi t
hher
j
unkshegoti nherpjsatewhilewatching
BridgeJonesshehadSexi nthecityandHow
tobesinglesatouttopl
aynext .
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
AweekwentbySi nohardl yleftherroom her
phonehadbeenof fthewhol et i
me.Fi nall
yshe
hadhadenoughofbei ngsadonmor ningshe
gotoutt hebedwentt ot akeal onghotbubbl e
bathshegotoutl oti
onedgotdr essedi nawhi t
e
bodyhuggi ngdressjustbel owt hekneewi th
blackheel sshehadashor tblackper uv i
anwith
bluet i
psshet ookherhandbagput t
ingt he
divorcepaper sinanddr ov etoKeenan' s
wor kplacewher ehewasi nameet ingwi thhis
assistanttalki
ngabouthi sschedul ethet wo
wer esitti
ngprettyclosely.Sinogoti nwi thout
knocking
Keenan:
"Al
exexcuseuspl
ease"Al
exl
ookedat
Si
noherv
isi
blebumpwasr
ightt
her
e
Al
ex:
"of
cosKeenan"
Si
no:
"shoul
dn'
ti
tbemrsmi
th"
Alex
:"ofcosmrssmit
h"Alexwalkedoutwhen
shewasbehindSinoshelookedatkeenanwho
j
ustlookedawayfeel
i
ngguiltyhehadmessed
upagainandhadsexwithherforthe2ndti
me
Keenan:"
whatareyoudoi
ngher
e"heasked
af
terthedoorcl
osed
Si
no:
"yousl
eepi
ngwi
thherar
en'
tyou"
Keenan:"noim not
"theyl
ookedateachot
her
"si
t"shedid
Si
no:"
youdiv
orci
ngme"keenanl
ookedawayhe
wasn'
tsur
ehelovedhi
swif
ebutshehurthi
m
sobad
Keenan:
"It
hinki
tfort
hebest
"
Si
no:"f
orwhocositdef
ini
tel
ynotf
ormybestor
ourchi
ldr
en'
sbest
"
Keenan:"
whoisthefatherofy
ourbaby"Si
no
l
ookeddownt heconfi
denceshehadcoming
her
edisappeared
Si
no:
"Idon'
tknow"
Keenan:
"sowhatam Isupposedt
odoNi
kky
"
Me: "Idon'tknowbutIl ovey ouKeenanandI
don'twantt olosey oupleasewehav ekidswe
mar r
iedy oucan' tjustdecidedtodivor
cemewe
afami lyIdon'twantmychi l
drengrowi
ngupina
brokenhome"t hatcutkeenandeephesaw
whatdi vorcedi dtohi sl
itt
lesist
erhedidn'
t
wanthi schildrengoi ngthroughthat
Keenan;
"im sor
ryDomi
nicbutmymi
ndi
smade
up"
Si
no:
"youj
ustgi
vi
nguponus"shewasi
ntear
s
Keenan:"
yourepeat
edl
ysleptwi
thy
ourexwhi
le
youwithmeDomi ni
cyouneedtoworkon
your
selff
indoutwhatyouwantnwhoyouwant
cozri
ghtnowy ouconf
used"
Sino:"
im notconf
usedIwanty
ouIl
ovey
ou
keenanyoumyhusband"
Keenan:
"im sor
ryDomi
nic"
Sino:
"wecouldtrycouple'
stherapyKeenanwe
beentoget
herfor9y ear
sy oucan'tj
ustgi
veup
onusnow"heal sodidn'
twanttol osehi
swife
helovedher
Keenan:
"okwecangoforcoupl
e'
st her
apy
"
Si
nojumpedonhim gi
vi
nghim ati
ghthug
Si
no:
"Il
ovey
ousomuch"shecr
ied
Keenan: "
Iloveyout oo"hecuppedherfaceand
theykissedthekisswasget ti
nghott
erwith
everypassingsecondAl exgotinwit
hout
knockingherhear tbrokeatt
hesightshe
clear
edhert hroatthetwostoppedkissi
ng
Al
ex:
"younextmeet
ingi
sher
e"
Keenan:"
cancel
iti
mtaki
ngmywi f
ehome"Alex
l
ookedatkeenanwant
ingtocr
yyeahsur
ehe
di
dn'tpr
omisehert
heworl
dbutitwasj
ust2
weeksbackwherehehadf
uckedheral
lni
ght
l
ongandtoldherhewasdi
vor
cinghi
swife
Al
ex:
"yessi
r"shewal
kedout
Si
no:
"I'
vemi
ssedy
ou"shegav
ehi
m aki
ss
Keenan:"
notasmuchasI '
vemissedy ou.Come
l
et'
sgo"theyst
oodupt ookthei
rbelongings
andlef
t.Al
exwatchedthem wait
ingfortheli
ft
Keenhadhishandaroundhiswife'
swaistwhile
shehadherheadonhisshoulder
Sino:"
thatgir
lhasacrushonyou"t
heli
ftwas
abouttocloseKeenanlookedatAl
exwhowas
sti
lll
ookingatthem
Keenan:"
doesn'
tmat
terbecauset
hef
eel
i
ngi
s
notmutual
"
Sino:
"don'tl
eadheron"keenanhel
dhi
swi
fe'
s
chinmakingherl
ookathim
Keenan:
"Iwoul
dnever
"whenthetwogotdown
Keenangoti
nSino'
scarsi
nceTom haddr
iven
hi
m
Keenan:
"arewegoi
ngstrai
ghthomeory
ou
wanttostar
tsomewher
e"
Si
no:"hot
elfi
rstwechecki
ngyououtofthat
pl
ace"helaughedanddrov
etowardstheHil
ton
hot
el
Keenan:
"Il
ovey
ouDomi
nic"
Sino:"Iloveyoujustasmuchi fnotmoremy
husband"shel eanedinandkissedhischeek.
Whent heygottothehotelshepackedhis
thingshecheckedout .Theywentt ohavel
unch
bef or
egoi nghomewher etheyspentthewhole
daynni ghtl
ockedinthei
rbedroom.
.
Meanwhil
einrosebur
ghNombusowasatthe
off
icewhenshegotacal
lfr
om ani
nter
nat
ional
number
Nombuso:
"hel
l
o"Pj
ner
vousl
ycl
ear
edhi
sthr
oat
Pj
:"mom hi
"Nombusol
aughed
Nombuso:
"hel
l
oson"
Pj
:"Imi
ssy
ou"
Nombuso:
"oh"
Pj:
"im ser
iousNombusoim comi
ngt
her
eto
seeyouIwontt el
lmyfat
her
"
Nombuso:
"Pj
youcan'
tj
ustdot
hati
myour
st
epmom"
Pj
:"don'
tmakemelaughNombuso.Younotmy
st
epmom youmightaswel
lbemygf"
Nombuso:
"Pj
?!
"
Pj:"
lookImi
ssyouandim comi
ngt
her
eto
spendsometi
mewithyou"
Nombuso:
"ok"
Pj:"
good.Nowhowi
sworkdadt
oldmeyou
fi
nall
ydeci
dedt
ogetaj
ob"Nombusogi
ggl
ed
Nombuso:
"mor
eli
kehef
inal
l
yletme"
Pj
:"y
oushoul
dn'
tl
ethi
m cont
rol
you"
Nombuso:
"youdon'
tknowy
ourf
ather
"
Pj
:"Iknowt
hathi
sabusi
ve"
Nombuso:
"hehaschanged"
Pj
:"anabuserwi
l
lnev
erchange"
Nombuso:
"canwenott
alkaboutthi
s?.So
whenar
eyoucomingImissyou"
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
Fourmont
hsl
ater
.
KeenanandSi nofinall
ydeci dedt ocall i
tquit
sit
wasamut ual understanding.Thet herapy
broughtupt oomanysecr etsfrom theNqubeko
sagat oAlexaswel lasthedr ugst het wojust
didn'ttrusteachot herany mor e.Therapybr oke
them apar tinsteadofhel pingt heyfoughtal ot.
Oneni ghttheywer ef i
ghti
ngi nt helounge
becauseKeenanwaswor kingl ateafterSino
foundoutaboutAl exshedi dn'twanthi m
wor king.Shehadbeenpaci ngupndonet ry
ing
tocal lhim buthisphonewasof f.
Si
no:
"wher
ewer
eyoukeenanbeencal
l
ingy
ou"
Keenan:
"workIranoutofbat
ter
y"het
ookhi
s
phoneoutanditwasoff
Sino:
"sother
e'snopl
ugpoi
ntattheof
ficeor
youdon'thav
eacarchar
geranymore"
Keenan: "Si
noplease"keenanwastrul
yti
redhe
wasrepr esent
ingamaj orbusi
nessmanwho
wasbei ngchargedwi t
hfraudandthecasewas
notgoinghi sway
Sino:
"wherehaveyoubeenKeenanar
eyoust
il
l
fuckthatski
nnyhoe"
Keenan:
"theonl
yper
soni
mfucki
ngi
syou"
Si
no:
"whywon'
tyouj
ustf
ir
eher
"
Keenan:"
she'
sdamngoodatherjoband
get
tinganewassi
stantr
ightnowi
snotasmar
t
move"
Sino:"
Idon'
tunder
standwhycan'
tyoul
etgoof
her"
Keenan:"
justl
i
key
oucan'
tst
opf
ucki
ng
Lungel
o"
Si
no:
"what
?!"
Keenan:"
actuall
yIgetLungel
oasfornqubeko
areyousureyoudidn'
tfuckhi
m Imeanseems
l
ikeonedickain'
tgoodforyou"
Si
no:
"fucky
ou"shet
ookagl
asshi
thi
m wi
thi
t
Keenan: "
nof uckyoubraIam tir
edIcome
homef rom wor kandthi
siswhatIget?Im out
theremakingsur eyourl
if
estyl
eistakencare
off!Youdon'tcomplainaboutthethi
ngsyou
hav esojustgivemesomef ucknspaceplease"
Si
no:
"Idon'
tneedy
ourmoneynev
erhav
e"
Keenan:"of
cosyougotNqubeko'
s.I
fIdidn'
t
knowbetterI'
dcal
lyouapowerhoe!
!Doesit
giv
ey outhr
il
lhavi
ngall
thesepower
fulmenon
yourhand"
Si
no:"yousonofabitch!
!!If
ucknhateyou"she
openedthepl
atecupboardstar
tedthr
owing
plat
esatkeenanhewasabl etododgesome
buttherestlandedonhi
sbodyhecoveredhi
s
facewit
hhi sarmsshekeptthr
owingthem
whil
escreami ngnsweari
ng
Luv
uy o:
"mommystop!"Thekidswer
est
andi
ng
bythedooratt
heki
tchencry
ing
Tay
lor
:"y
ouhur
ti
ngdaddy
"
Kyli
e:"
daddy
"keenanwentt
okneel
einf
rontof
them
Keenan:
"hey
,whyar
eyouguy
snotasl
eep"
Ki
ds:
"can'
tsl
eep"
Luv
uyo:
"wasr
eadi
ngt
hem ast
oryi
nmyr
oom"
Jay
den:"whyismommyhitt
ingyoudaddy
"Si
no
j
usttur
nedaroundncr
iedsi
lent
ly
Keenan:
"wepl
ayi
ngmommywoul
dnev
erhi
t
me"
Luvuy
o:"y
ouandmommygetti
ngadi
vor
ce"her
tonewassol
owSinol
etoutamuf
fl
edsob
Keenan:
"of
cosnotv
uvu"
Tay
lor
:"what
'sadi
vor
ce"
Luvuyo:"
itwhenpar
entshat
eeachotherso
theydon'
tstayt
oget
herorbemarri
edli
keMel'
s
parent
s"thetwi
nsstar
tedcr
yingl
oudl
y
Tay
lor
:"mommyy
oucan'
that
edaddy
"
Keenan:
"not
hingy
ouhav
etowor
ryabout
"
Jay
den:
"mommydoesn'
that
eyou"
Keenan:"mommyandIl oveeachot herandwe
l
ov eyouok"t
heynodded" nowcomel et
sgot o
bed"keenantookhischi
ldrenupstai
rstucki
ng
them i
nthei
rbeds.Whenhegott ohisbedroom
Sinowasinbedcr y
inghewentt otheclosetgot
i
nhi spj
swentt osl
eepintheguestbedr oom.
WhenSinowokeupt hefol
lowingdayjustaf
ter
l
unch,shesleptalotnowhardlywenttothe
off
icebutherstaf
fhadt hi
ngsundercontrol
.
Shetookabat hgotdressinanklegr
azerntank
topherstomachwashugebuti twastheonly
thi
ngthatwasbi
galongwithhercheeksshe
tookthedi
vor
cepapersal
ongwi t
hherpurse
andwenttoKeenan'
soffi
ce.Hehadameet i
ng
withsomeparal
egal
nassociat
eswor ki
ngona
case
Keenan:"excusemeguy
s"ev
ery
onewentout
af
tergreeti
ngher
Keenan:
"Idon'
twantt
ofi
ghtNi
kky
"
Sino:
"that
'snotwhyam her
e"shesatdownand
tookoutthedivor
cepaper
s
Sino:"whenyousaypayf
orever
ythi
ngwhatar
e
youtalki
ng?"Shewastal
ki
ngaboutthe
settl
ement
Keenan:"
Imeanev er
ythingt
hatIhavebeen
payi
ngforthehousebil
ls,st
aff
,car
ds,t
uiti
on
fort
hekidsuptovarsi
ty"
Si
no:"
doyougetaccesstot
hedurbanhouse"
bot
hhousesweregoingt
obeinhers
Keenan:
"onl
yifi
m goi
ngt
her
ewi
tht
heki
ds"
Sino:"
youwon'tchangeyourmindaboutthe
custody"hewasgoingtogettheki
ds2
weekendsamont handsomeschool hol
idays
Keenan:"
notunlesst
here'
saneedtoIwillnot
l
etmykidsgrownupi nanenvi
ronmentim not
comfort
ablewit
horaroundpeopleIdon'
ttrust
"
Si
no:"ok"shesignedthepaperskeenanf
eltl
i
ke
dyi
nghedi dn'
twanttolosehiswif
ehekept
hopi
ngt hi
ngswillgetbet
ter
Keenan:
"justl
i
ket
hat
"
Si
no:
"whatdoy
ouwantmet
odokeenan"
Keenan:
"yougi
vi
nguponusj
ustl
i
ket
hat
"
Si
no:"
Idon'
tev
erwantmychi
l
drent
owi
tness
whatt
heysawlastni
ght
"
Keenan:
"butwecanmakei
twor
kNi
kky
"
Si
no:"
ifi
tmeanttobeitwill
beKeenanev eni
fit
af
tery
earswewillf
indourwaybacktoeach
ot
herri
ghtnowthi
smar r
iageisnotworki
ng
we'
vebothhur
teachotherweneedt oheal
separ
atel
y"shewi
pedhert
ear
s
Keenan:
"af
ter9y
ear
sNi
kkyj
ustl
i
ket
hat
"
Si
no:
"thi
siswhaty
ouwant
ed"
Keenan:
"Iact
edoutofanger
!!
"
Sino:
"well
.
...Idon'
tknow"shestoodup"
we
needtotel
lthekids"henodded
Keenan:"I
'l
lcomehomeear
lywe'
l
ltel
lthem
af
terdinner"
Sino:"ok"shel ef tkeenanpushedal lt
hepaper s
onhisdeckt ot hef loorinanger.WhenSinogot
i
nhercarshebr okedownshewasst il
lcryi
ng
whent hedooropenedandkeenanhel pedher
getoffthedr iverssi thewr appedhisarms
aroundhershecr i
edl i
kesomeonedi ed.After
calmingdownheputheri nthecaranddr ove
home.Atni ghtt heyt ookthekidsoutfordinner
attheirfavori
tepi zzaplaceaftert
hekidshad
thei
rnightbat ht heysatt hem downi nthe
l
ounge
Keenan:
"wel
ovey
ouokay
"
Sino:
"youguysarethebestt
hingtoev
er
happentoyourdaddyandIwel ov
eyouso
much"
Kids:
"Il
ovey
ou"t
heki
dsscr
eamedatt
hesame
ti
me
Keenan:"
Iwantyouguy st
oknowthatmommy
andIlov
eeachot hersomuch,wecoul
dnever
hat
eeachot her
.Icheri
shyourmot
herandone
daywheny ouall
grownupy ouwi
ll
underst
and"
Sino:
"wear
eaf ami
l
yandwi
l
lfor
everbea
famil
ynomatt
erwhat"
Keenan:
"mommyanddaddycan'
tbet
oget
her
ri
ghtnowbutwel
oveeach"
Luv
uyo:
"Idon'
tunder
stand"
Sino:
"seedaddyandIar
egetti
ngadi
vor
ce"
LuvuyonTaylorst
art
edcr
ying
Luvuyo:
"buty
ousai
dyounotgoi
ngt
ogeta
di
vorce"
Tay
lor
:"mommyhatesdaddy
"theycr
iedl
ouder
whi
chmadethet
winscry
Si
no:
"Idon'
that
edaddyIl
ovehi
m somuch"
Luvuy
o:"
thendon'
tdi
vor
cehi
m"Sinodidn'
t
knowwhattodoanymor
eorwhattosay
Keenan:
"thi
sisnotgoi
ngt
ochangeany
thi
ng"
Luvuy
o:"yougoi
ngt
ohav
eanot
herf
ami
l
yjust
l
ikeMel'
sdad"
Keenan:
"nev
ergoi
ngt
ohappeny
ouguy
sar
e
myfamily
"
Tay
lor
:"don'
tdi
vorcemommy "nowev
ery
one
wascry
ingkeenankneel
eddown
Keenan:"cometodaddyeveryone"theki
ds
wenttotheirdadhehuggedthem "comeon
mommycomet odaddy"Si
nochuckl edt
hrough
hertear
st heyal
lshar
edabighug
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
Twomont
hsl
ater
.
IndurbanSandil
ewasaner v
ouswr eckatthe
rest
auranthewasplanningonproposi nghe
sawherwal ki
ngtowardshim wit
hsomuch
confi
denceinabodyhuggi ngshortdressthat
showedhert i
nybabybump
Set
hu:
"heybaby
"
Sandil
e:heyl
ove"hepul
l
edachai
rforheraf
ter
gi
vingherasoftpeck
Sethu:"thi
si snice"theywer esitt
ingata
secludedt ableinthev eryfarendoft he
rest
aur ant
, softmusicpl ayi
nginthe
background.Af t
eralov el
ydinnert heywere
havingmal v apuddingwhenSet huf el
t
somet hinginhermout hshet ooki tandstarted
cryi
ngi twasadi amondr i
ngwentt okneelnext
toher
Sandi
l
e:"
Ilov
eyousomuchSi phosam y
oumy
sunnmoon,youmakewanttobeabet t
erman
act
ual
lyy
oumakemeabet terman.Inever
thoughtIwouldfi
ndmy sel
fononekneebut
hereIam andital
lbecauseofyouIl
oveyou
ma'Deypleasemarryme"Sethunoddedl
ikea
fatki
dbeingoffer
edcupcakes
Set
hu:"I
'
llmar
ryyou"sandi
lestoodupand
spi
nnedherar
oundtheykissed.
.
Meanwhi l
einjhbPj
wasi ntownt ocheckonhi s
gf/st
epmom thetwower etogetherPatri
ckwas
i
nCapeTownonabusi nesst r
ipt hepl
anwas
heisgoingtocomebackt hefollowingday.So
thelovebir
dswerestayinginhav ingdinner
whilewatchi
ngamov ie
Pj:"
whatwoul
dy ousayifIaskedyoutomarry
me"Nombusol augj
edthi
nkinghowcrazyis
thatPj'
smom woulddi
eofahear tat
tackand
Patri
ckwoul
dkillt
hem
Nombuso:
"thatwoul
dbecr
azy
"
Pj
:"Idol
ovey
out
hough"
Nombuso:
"Iknow"
Pj:"comesi tonme"Nombusowentt ostraddle
him andt heykisseditst art
edof fsl
owlybuti t
turnedintosomet hingr oughtheyst ri
ppedeach
otherandst artedhav ingsexrightthereont he
couchNombusor odel i
tt
ledidtheyknowt hat
Pat r
ickwaspul li
ngupt hedrivewayhepar ked
i
nt hegar agegotint hehousewhathesawi n
frontofhim wasenought ogiveany oneahear t
attackhiswi f
er i
dinghi ssonhewat chedhis
wi f
egoingcr azynscr eami nghisson'sname
l
iket her
e'snot omor rowasangr yashewas
disappointmentnsadnessov erpower edthe
anger
Patri
ck:"no.
...
Nombuso"thetwost opped
Nombusowassoshockedshecoul dn'
teven
mov e.Patri
cktur
nedwentt ohiscaranddr ove
outinaspeedhedr ovenotknowi ngtowher e
Nombusokeptoncal l
ingandsendingt ext
s
begginghimt ocomehomet ear
sbl i
ndedhis
vi
sionhet ookhisphonetocallhi
sf ir
stwife
whiledial
i
nghernumberhel ostcontrolofthe
stari
nghehi tthecaronhi sri
ghtont hefreeway
thecarspinnedoutofcont r
olandst oppedon
theothersideoft hefreewaywher ecarswer e
goingtheot heroneacarhoot edbutf ail
edto
brakeandithi tPatr
ick'
scarwhi chroll
edov er
andlandedi nal ake
.
Rightaboutthesamet imeSi nowasscr eami
ng
l
ikethere'
snot omorrowi nthelabourward
Keenanwast her
eholdingherhandnwi pi
ngher
swearhet ol
dhi msel
fthatnomat t
erthe
paterni
tyofthebabyev enifheabdSi noare
offi
cial
l
ydivorcedhewi ll
lovethebabylikehe
l
ov eshis4otherchil
dren
Doc:
"onel
astpushNi
kky
"sheshookherhead
Si
no:
"Icant
"
Keenan:"
yesy
oucanyoumywar r
iorj
ustl
ast
pushbabysowecanmeetourson"shecr
ied
l
oudernsworeathi
m
Si
no:
"ithur
ts"
Keenan:"
pushthandol
wam"shepushedonl ast
ti
meandal oudcryechoedintheroom t
hey
wrappedhiminablanketandgavehimtoSino
Sino:"
ohmyGod"keenanl aughedthr
oughhis
tearsastheylookedatt
hei
rnewcolouredbaby
boywhol ookedsomuchl i
kekeenanevenhad
hiseyes
Keenan:"
ourKorr
yAubreySmit
hhisso
beaut
iful
"heki
ssedSi
no'ssweat
yforehead
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
Thefol
l
owingmorningNombusoandPjwer
eat
anot
herhost
ipi
tal
Patri
ckwasi
nsurger
y
Nombuso: "
thi
sisallmyfaul
tIshoul
dhavekept
mylegsclosed"hereyeswer
eswol l
enand
bl
oodshotred
Pj:
"itnoty
ourfault
"het
ri
edhol
dingherbutshe
pushedhim back
Nombuso:
"letgoofme!
!Don'
ttouchme"Pj
fel
t
sohur
tbyt
hewor
ds
Pj
:"Nombusodon'
tpushmeaway
"
Nombuso: "
fuckoff
"thedoct
orcamet othem
Nombusodi dn'
thearawordthedoctorsai
d
after'
im sor
rybuthedidn'
tmakeit'
she
droppedt othefl
oorwail
edli
keitt
helastdayon
earth
.
.
ENDOFSsn1