Trigger Warning Sexual Assault of a Minor and Suicidal Ideation.

All names are fake

I met Josh in middle school and by freshman year we were friends and both in drumline. He knew my
brother and was a grade above me, by the end of sophomore year we were dating. I fell head over heels
loved him loved his family. He got along with my family and everything was as healthy and loving and
special as I thought a relationship could be. He wanted to be a youth pastor and maybe one day to be a
head pastor. I grew up in a ministry family so that just felt like another plus to me.

Anyway, after dating for 3 years he proposed to me in August of 2019. We got married in my parents
backyard in may of 2020 due to covid then had a bigger covid friendly celebration later that year. During
our marriage I was working 40+ hours a week and doing piano lessons to help support us. He had a paid
internship as a youth leader and then was doing Uber Eats when he wasn't busy with his final semester
of his biblical studies degree. When we first got married he was able to uber a lot and it made our
financial situation easier then he started saying he couldn't uber as much because school was getting
stressful.

Then Josh graduated and started applying for youth pastor jobs. He got an interview and hour away
from where we lived and they wanted to do a second interview with both of us. Second interview went
great and the pastor said he wanted me to quit my job and basically co pastor with Josh just without the
official title and he would pay us enough without me having to get a job. One of his exact quotes was
"Josh you're great and all, but your wife is your ace in the hole". We accepted the job found a