RANGPAS, HAYSELLE A.

BSTM 2-B

Who am I?

"They don't know who I am, the length of my journey, who I am as a person" Catriona Gray once said
when I was watching her on an interview. As I am looking at her on screen, I took a deep breath and
realized that I wanna be her. It is not because she's gorgeous but a person who stands for herself. Who
knows herself well. I wanna be her someday. She's the person who inspires me to find the answer of the
question bothers me for so long. Who am I?

When I was just a 4 year old girl, my relatives keep on asking me of what I want to become
someday. "I want to have a big house that has full of ice cream" I always reply. They laughed at me while
I am wondering why they make fun of my idea when that is what I really want to. But even at the young
age, I didn't want to change my thought of having a big house that is full of ice cream because I strongly
believe that I can have it and it will make me happy.

As time goes by, I met a lot of people. I hangout with lots of friends everyday at school. But
definitely, I have my very own best friends. We tend to share with each other our sorrow, the food the
we love to eat and especially our dreams. One day, we decided to become a flight attendant in the
future. We dearly treasure each one of us that is why we decided to have the same dreams for us not to
be separated. We are together for how many years since elementary and high-school for us to think that
we knew each other in every inch of our hair. As we grow, we realized that no matter what we do, there
will be decisions in our life that makes us separate. That we no longer need each other to fulfill our
dreams. And that the dream we used to dream is not the real thing that we wanna achieve. We need to
take different ways to find ourselves. So, as we took different paths, I asked myself " do I really want to
become a flight attendant?". They left me hanging in the thought of we will achieve that one dream.
That is why it was really hard for me to decide without including the along with my journey. "Maybe I'll
continue of dreaming about having a big house with full of ice cream" I whispered while I am staring at
the mirror looking to my growing self. But I am too old for that dream. What I really want to become?

From the day I needed to decide for my own, I keep on wondering who am I. I keep searching for
the answers. Not until someone judged me for taking the course I want. One day, my uncle visited our
house. He is a big fat guy and has a successful son. While I am sitting alone, he went to me and suddenly
asked me "what profession you want to become?". With all proudest and sweetest smile, " I want to
become an owner of a beach resort someday tito that is why I am taking the bachelor of science in
tourism management" I responded. I thought he will cheer me up and encourage me to do so. But it was
a surprise to me that he just make a face and looked at me with unsatisfying reaction and just like when
I am still a young girl, he laughed at me. He used to tell me that his son took accountancy that I should
be one like his son because the dream of mine will not become successful. But why he always compare
me to his son? He only hurts my ego and starting to question about my own decision in life. It pressures
me thinking that what if should listen to him and believe that I will not succeed if I pursue the dream I
am really passionate about.
 No! Why would I listen to my uncle? Why would I let him destroy the decision I already want to
achieve? There's no way I could be. As I am watching Catriona Gray on screen, I remember who am I.
Just like when I am a four year old, I will do what ever makes me happy. Though, its not having a big
house with full of ice cream anymore. It does only mean that I am changing but never lose hope. I am
finally sure that I don't want to become a flight attendant. No one ever will decide for my life even if its
my best friends nor family. I would never let them question my own sanity for taking the path different
for what they are taking. Its ok to become different. I would never listen to anyone because finally, I
strongly believe that they don't know who I am, the lenght of my journey and who I am as a person. I'm
the one who own my self and I am the only one who knows me. For I am a Dreamer.