Thorns And Roses

by heartlessnostalgia

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Sandejas Siblings Fourth Installment:

Z I D N E Y

"Those who won't dare to touch the thorns should never crave the rose..."

Zidney Agnieszka Sandejas experienced every hard, bad things at a young age.
Separated from her family and having lost her memories, it was really awful.

Having her new identity and family, she never felt at ease. Being chase, being
called crazy and a killer. Then one night changes everything, waking up in a
facility and seeing the most beautiful man she'd ever seen since then, the man who
has those curvy thin lips, tousled dark brown hair and dreamy midnight eyes.

He's her hero, the man who took her out of the darkness. That man who gave her the
light of new hope and love but what if the light from the torch that man has made
suddenly went out? What if that darkness comes back, making the delicate rose bleed
and hurt?

Will someone be able to touch the rose despite the pain the thorns will give?

Book 4 of 4

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Thorns And Roses

Sandejas Siblings Fourth Installment:

Z I D N E Y
"Those who won't dare to touch the thorns should never crave the rose."
Zidney Agnieszka Sandejas experienced every hard, bad things at a young age.
Separated from her family and having lost her memories, it was really awful.
Having her new identity and family, she never felt at ease. Being chase, being
called crazy and a killer. Then one night changes everything, waking up in a
facility and seeing the most beautiful man she'd ever seen since then, the man who
has those curvy thin lips, tousled dark brown hair and dreamy midnight eyes.
He's her hero, the man who took her out of the darkness. That man who gave her
the light of new hope and love but what if the light from the torch that man has
made suddenly went out? What if that darkness comes back, making the delicate rose
bleed and hurt?
Will someone be able to touch the rose despite the pain the thorns will give?

Disclaimer: This is a work of fiction. Names, Characters, Businesses, Songs,

Places, Events and incidents are either product of the author's imagination or used
in fictitious manner. Any resemblance to actual person, living or dead or actual
events are purely coincidental.
PLAGIARISM is a crime √
Warning: This story contains typos, grammatical errors, strong language and
some scenes are not suitable for young reader. Please read at your own risk, I've
warned you. Beware. If you don't want the story, just please leave.
 I'm writing this on my phone so forgive my typos and grammatical errors!
Thanks!
[PG-16]
All rights reserved 2018
©heartlessnostalgia

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Simula

Sandejas Siblings Series #4:

Thorns And Roses
Simula
No... Hindi na ako babalik dito!
I screamed as the men dragged me. Hawak nila ang magkabilang braso ko at
hinihila ako papasok.
"N-No! Bitiwan nyo ako!" Sigaw ko at pilit na kumakawala.
"H'wag ka ng pumalag, Miss!" Ani ng isa at hinatak pa ako.
I cried, nararamdaman ko ang pagtulo ng luha ko habang hinihila nila ako.
Nanlalabo na ang mga mata ko sa kaiiyak pero hindi nila ako binibitiwan.
"Bitawan nyo ako!" Histerikal na sigaw ko at halos kilabutan nang makitang muli
ang puting mga pader ng institusyong ito.
Hindi! Hindi ako babalik rito! Nakatakas na ako!
"H'wag kang gumalaw masyado!" Sigaw ng isa. Nakita kong nakasunod sa amin ang
mga guard na humabol sa akin kanina.
"Ayoko dito! Bitawan nyo ako!" Sigaw ko. Pilit kong iginagalaw ang mga kamay ko
pero hindi ako makawala sa tela kung saan nakakulong ang kamay ko para hindi ako
makalaban. Naka-krus ito sa may dibdib ko at kahit anong galaw ko ay hindi ako
makawala.
Pero kahit anong sigaw ko ay hindi nila ako pinakinggan. Kinilabutan ako habang
nakatingin sa pasilyo, ang mga puting ilaw na miminsa'y namamatay.
Ang mga kulay puting upuan sa gilid at ang mga kwarto na may maliit na salamin
para makita ang nasa loob mula sa labas.
Nakita ko ang pagkalampag ng tao mula roon sa loob habang dumadaan kami. I saw
how they tried to knock the door and shouted but I can't hear anything!
Ang naririnig ko lang ay ang malakas na tibok ng puso ko, ang takot na
nararamdaman ko, ang luha sa mga mata ko at ang pawis na tumatagaktak sa noo ko.
"Parang-awa nyo na! Pakawalan 'nyo ako!" Suminghap ako at umiyak. Pinilit ko
silang sipain pero nakaiwas sila.
"Pwede ba, Scira! Sumama ka nalang!" Pero hindi ako sumunod. Sumigaw ako at mas
lalong napahagulgol.
"Bilisan natin at mapapagalitan tayo kapag nalamang nakatakas nanaman 'yan!"
Sigaw ng guard sa likod.
Mas lalo akong natakot. Parang naghahallucinate na ako habang nakatingin sa
paligid. Ang mga taong nakaputi! Ang injection at--
"Hindi ako baliw!" Sigaw ko. Kumawala pa akong muli.
"Baliw ka! Manahimik ka nga!" Sinigawan ako ng isa.
"H-Hindi ako baliw!" Umiyak pa ako. "Parang-awa nyo na, hindi ako baliw!" Sigaw
ko.
Umiyak ako ng umiyak na halos ikabingi nila pero wala akong pakialam. Walang
gustong maniwala sa akin!
Hindi ako baliw!
Gusto kong sumigaw at magmakaawa para paniwalaan nila ako pero walang sino man
ang gustong makinig sa akin.
"Patahimikin 'nyo ito pagpasok! Magagalit nanaman kapag nag-rounds dito si
Doc!" Sigaw ng isa.
Halos mamugto na ang mata ko kakaiyak at kakasigaw. Gusto kong makalaya! Gusto
kong tumakas!
"Please! Please! Hindi ako baliw! Parang-awa nyo na!" Pero hindi nila ako
dininig at mas humigpit lang ang hawak sa braso ko. Nang makita ko ang kamay ng
isang nurse na malapit sa akin ay kaagad akong tumungo at kinagat iyon.
"Shit!" Sigaw nya at mabilis akong nabitawan. Nagpanic sila sa ginawa ko at
mabilis kong sinipa ang isa na nagulat kaya nabitawan ako.
They shouted and tried to chase me but I ran. I ran as fast as I can.
"Bumalik ka dito!" Nakita ko ang paghabol sa akin ng guard pero tumakbo lang
ako.
Patuloy na tumakbo ako pero kaagad akong nabuwal nang may mataman, dahilan para
mapasalampak ako sa sahig.
I heard their steps, naiyak ako habang nakaupo. Nahihirapan akong makatayo
dahil sa sakit ng balakang ko.
Wala na, aabutan na nila ako! Ayoko na sa puting kwarto! Hindi ako baliw!
"What the hell is happening?" It was a cold, hard voice. I heard their steps
stopped. Napahagulgol lang ako.
"D-Doc kasi..." Mabilis akong nag-angat ng tingin at umawang ang labi ko nang
makita ang lalaking may tsokolateng mga mata.
Nakasuot sya ng scrub suit at kulay puting labgown. May hawak syang chart at
mas salamin sa mga mata nya.
"D-Doc..." I called him. Mabilis syang nagbaba ng tingin at nang makita ako ay
umawang ang labi nya at nangunot ang noo nya.
"What the hell did you do to her?!" Galit na sigaw nya sa mga guard at kahit
ako ay natakot sa boses nya.
"K-Kasi Doc, ano..." Hindi na nila natuloy ang sasabihin nila ng biglang
lumuhod sa harapan ko si Doc at hinanap ang mata ko.
Nang magkasalubong ang mga mata namin ay nawala ang takot ko at kumalma ang
puso ko.
"D-Doc! D-Doc, please, hindi ako baliw..." Suminghap sya sa sinabi ko at
napahagulgol ako.
"Sshh, I know, Scira... Hindi ka baliw..." Napaiyak akong lalo sa sinabi nya.
He believes me! Hindi ako baliw! Palagi syang naniniwalang hindi ako baliw!
"H-Hinuhuli nila ako! Hindi ako baliw!" Napatungo ako. Mabilis naman nyang
inabot ang baba ko at hinanap muli ang mga mata ko.
"Sshh, calm down..." Aniya. Mabilis nyang hinanap ang zipper sa damit ko para
makawala ang kamay ko sa pagkakakrus sa dibdib ko at binuksan.
Nang makawala ay bigla ko syang niyakap. Halos mabuwal naman sya sa ginawa ko
pero mabilis na nakasuporta kaya hindi sya natumba.
Yumakap ako sa leeg nya. Umiyak ako ng umiyak. Sya naman ay kinakalma ako at
tina-tap ang likod ko.
"Calm down, Scira..." Bulong nya. "Hindi ka baliw, okay?" Paulit-ulit akong
tumango.
"Now," Marahang humiwalay sya sa akin at pinunasan ang mga luha ko. "Come with
me,"
"D-Dadalhin mo ako sa puting kwarto? Ayaw ko 'dun!" I exclaimed in horror.
Nanginginig ang katawan ko.
"No, no..." Umiling sya at hinawi ang buhok ko. "Pupunta ka sa opisina ko,
huh?"
"A-Anong gagawin ko 'dun?" Tanong ko.
"May pag-uusapan lang tayo, ayos lang ba?" Mabilis naman akong tumango at wala
akong maramdamang takot sa sinabi nya.
"Okay, salamat..." He smiled. Nakita ko ang pagngiti ng mata nya at mabilis
syang tumayo at inilahad ang kamay sa akin.
"Come on, I'll help you..." Mabilis na iniabot ko ang kamay ko sa kanya at
mabilis syang umalalay sa akin ng ininda ko ang sakit sa balakang ko.
"Are you alright?" Marahang tanong nya. Umiling ako at tinitigan nya ang mata
ko. Napabuntong-hininga sya at nangunot ang noo bago bumaling sa guard na naroon.
"Where are her nurses?" Matalim nyang sabi at doon ko nakita ang hinihingal na
mga nurse na may hawak sa akin kanina.
 I saw how his stare brought horror to them.
"I will talk to you later. Go to my office." Mariin, galit at may halong lamig
na sabi nya bago hawakan ang pulsuhan ko.
"Are you okay, Scira?" Aniya na lumambot ang mata.
Tumango naman ako at hinanap ang mata nya. "N-Naniniwala kang hindi ako baliw?"
Tinitigan nya ako at halong kaba at takot ang naramdaman ko ng hindi pa sya
nakakasagot.
"Of course, I believe you..." He blurted out. Unti-unting sumilay ang ngiti sa
labi ko at napanatag ang loob ko. Hinawakan naman nya ang pulsuhan ko bago ako
marahang hawakan at inalalayan papunta sa opisina nya.
xxx

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Kabanata 1

Kabanata 1
A happy song is playing. Laughters and tickles. We sang, pulos tawanan at
asaran ang naririnig ko.
I was really happy, tanging ang mabilis na pagkabog ng puso ko sa saya ang
nararamdaman ko. This is probably one of the best nights of my life! Kasama ko
sila, nabuo kami...
"Princess..." A voice said. My forehead creased. I tried looking around but
everything is blurred, may mga tao sa paligid ko pero hindi ko sila maaninag,
habang tumatagal ay nawawala na sila sa paningin ko.
"Watch out!" My heart stopped. Sa muling pagharap ko ay isang napakalakas na
sigaw ang kumawala sa bibig ko nangmakita ang isang paparating na truck.
The car moved, animo'y paikot-ikot ito sa daan at halos mabingi ako sa sigaw.
Everything stopped, animo'y ang hangin ay tumigil sa ere. Natahimik ang
paligid. My eyes widen, trying to grasp for something but everything moves again at
isang malakas na kalabog at ang paghampas ng ulo ko sa salamin ng sasakyan ang
naramdaman ko.
The moment I opened my eyes again, tanging langitngit ng bukas na pintuan ang
naririnig ko. Sa paggalaw ko ay naramdaman ko ang pamamanhid ng katawan ko. I moved
but felt the excruciating pain on my head.
I moved my eyes and gasped when I saw the people, unconcious, bathing with
their own bloods. I tried looking at their faces pero malabo at nang maramdamang
gumagalaw ang sasakyan ay napabaling ako at napasinghap nang makitang nakabukas ang
pintuan sa side ko.
My heart beat wildly, almost going out of my chest. Sa muling paggalaw ay
tumagilid ang sasakyan at napasigaw ako nang makita ang bangin.
It was scary, like an abyss in the dark.
Napakapit ako sa upuan nang muli itong gumalaw. Isang maling galaw ay
malalaglag ang sasakyan.
"H-Help..." I cried, pilit kong inaabot ang mga walang malay na tao sa paligid
ko at sa isang galaw pa ng sasakyan ay napasigaw ako ng malaglag ako.
I grasped the side of the car, nang sumulyap sa ilalim ay mas lalo akong
nanginig sa takot. It was dark, sa sobrang lalim marahil nito ay mamatay ako.
The car moved again. I screamed and cried for help but suddenly, I felt numb,
unti-unting umikot ang paningin ko at ang kapit ko ay unti-unting lumuluwang.
I fell, naramdaman ko ang pagbagsak ng katawan ko sa ere at kasabay nito ang
pagkawala ng malay ko.
"Scira!" Bigla akong napabangon. I am breathing hard, napahawak ako sa dibdib
ko at sunod-sunod ang paghinga.
"Scira, nanaginip ka nanaman, hija?" I stopped at napatingin sa salita. I saw
the woman who took care of me.
"Nay..." Mahinang tawag ko.
 "Uminom ka muna..." Tinanggap ko ang tubig na ibinigay nya at napahugot ng
hininga.
That dream again. Why am I dreaming that?
"Ayun nanaman ba ang napanaginipan mo?" Aniya at kaagad akong tumango. I stared
at her, halata ko ang concern sa mga mata nya habang nakatingin sa akin.
"Gusto mo bang magpacheck-up na tayo?" I shook my head. Napasulyap ako sa kamay
ko at muling umiling.
"Ayos lang ako, Nay..." I smiled faintly. Even if I want, we can't... Wala
kaming pera, tumutulong lang kami sa pagsasaka kaya hindi ako pwedeng magdemand,
ang kinikita ay kasya lang sa kinakain namin sa araw-araw.

"Kung iniisip mo si Selmo--"

"Gising na ba 'yang palamunin mo?!" Napatalon ako nang marinig ang kalampag sa
labas ng silid. Nagkatinginan kami ni Nanay at napailing sya bago tumayo bago ako
tanguan.
"S-Susunod po ako..." Mahinang sabi ko. I saw her went outside at napapikit ako
nang mariin nang magsigawan nanaman sila sa labas.
"Uminom ka nanaman?!"
"Paanong hindi ako iinom?! Napakawalang-kwenta ng buhay na 'to!" Sigaw nito.
Mabilis akong kumilos at inayos ang higaan ko sa papag.
"Sa halip na ipunin mo ang pera ay inom ka ng inom! Tapos nagrereklamo kang
ganito ang buhay natin!" Sigaw ni Nanay.
Isinuot ang tsinelas at inayos ang shirt kong suot at umambang lalabas.
"Kung hindi ka kasi nagdagdag ng palamunin sa pamamahay na 'to! Kitang baon na
tayo sa utang, nagdagdag ka pa ng perwisyo!" I stopped. Napatungo ako at napahawak
ng mahigpit sa laylayan ng shirt ko.
I was shaking kaya humugot ako ng hininga at kinagat ang labi ko.
"Manahimik ka, Selmo! Marinig ka ng bata!"
"Hayaan mo sya! Para malaman nyang pabigat sya sa pamilyang 'to!" Sigaw nito at
mabilis kong hinawi ang luhang nalaglag mula sa pisngi ko.
"Selmo!" She shouted.
"Mga peste! Malas na buhay nga naman, o!" Sigaw nya at napatalon ako nang
marinig ang pagbagsak ng kung anong bagay.
Nang mawala si Tatay ay mabilis akong lumabas at nakita ko ang gulat sa mukha
ni Nanay Thelma.
"Anak... Kanina ka pa r'yan?" Gulat nyang sabi.
"T-Tutulong na po akong magsaka..." Mahinang sabi ko bago tumungo at naglakad
paabas.
I helped in harvesting the grains. Suot ang isang malaking sumbrero at jacket
ay tumulong ako.
The first time I did this, hindi ko talaga kinaya. I cried the moment I first
got a wound from this work, para bang hindi ako sanay sa gawaing ito pero kalaunan
ay natutunan ko rin.
I still remember the moment I woke up and remembered nothing, bago sa akin ang
lahat, walang maalala, ni pangalan ko ay hindi ko maalala.
We assumed that it was an amnesia, tho, hindi kami sigurado dahil hindi naman
ako nagpadoktor. Nanay Thelma treated me at home at nang gumaling ako ay tsaka ako
tumulong sa kanina.
The first times are hard pero dahil may utang na loob ako at gusto kong
makatulong ay kinaya ko.
Ang sabi sa akin ay nakita raw ako sa gilid ng bangin, walang malay tao at
punong-puno ng sugat sa iba't-ibang bahagi ng katawan.
"Scira, hija, kumain na tayo..." Aya sa akin ni Mang Delso.
"Susunod na po ako..." I smiled a little at nang mawala sya sa paningin ko ay
ipinagpatuloy ko ang ginagawa.
Hindi na rin ako kakain, nakakahiya naman kasi at wala naman akong naiaambag na
pagkain kapag tanghalian. It was always them who treats me food at sobrang nahihiya
na ako.

"May program bukas!" Mula sa malayo ay nakita ko ang grupo

ng mga magkakaibigan. They were always passing here kapag papuntang eskwelahan.
They were wearing white uniforms and skirts, ang kanilang mga bag ay nasa
likuran at mukhang ang saya-saya nila.
"Mabuti nalang, walang klase!" The woman cheered. Sa tingin ko ay college
students na rin sila.
Nakaramdam nanaman ako ng inggit, sana nakakapag-aral rin ako. I didn't know if
I had studied before the accident happened to me since I coudn't remember
everything.
Basta ang alam ko ay maalam ako sa english, math o kung ano pa. Siguro ay
nakapag-aral nga ako noon kung ganun, pero anong year na kaya ako? Does my real
parents treat me well? Hinahanap pa kaya nila ako kung sakali?
"Scira, bakit hindi ka pa kumain roon?" Napasinghap ako sa gulat at napalingon.
I saw a man about my age, kilala ko ito dahil nagsasaka rin sya pero hindi kami
nagkakausap.
Si Jace.
"Wala naman... I'm still full..." Mahinang sagot ko.
"Uy, marunong ka pala mag-ingles?" Natahimik ako roon at nag-iwas ng tingin.
"Medyo..." Mahinang sagot ko sa kanya at nagpatuloy sa ginagawa.
"Feeling ko mayaman ka dati, hindi kaya?" Aniya at nagkibit-balikat lang ako
roon.
I am not really into talking, madalang lang akong makipag-usap sa mga tao.
Tanging si Nanay lang ang kinakausap ko ng maayos at wala ng iba.
I am scared of everyone and I don't know why. Marahil ang dahilan ay dahil wala
akong maalala. I am aloof of them kaya iilan lang ang mga salitang lumalabas sa
labi ko.
"Alam mo, maganda ka 'e... Makinis, maputi, maganda ang buhok mo kaya feeling
ko--"
"Excuse me," Mahinang putol ko sa kanya bago nagbaba ng tingin at naglakad
paalis. Tinawag pa ako nila Mang Delso para kumain pero nagsabi nalang akong busog
pa ako at umalis.
I went back to our house pero narinig ko nanamang nagsisigawan sina Nanay at
tatay kaya sumilip ako roon sa bintana.
"Hindi ako papayag! Parang anak ko na si Scira!" Sigaw ni Nanay at natahimik
ako roon.
"Sya lang naman ang gusto ni Mayor! Alam mo namang may gusto iyon sa batang
'yun!" Sigaw ni Tatay.
"Pero anak mo sya!"
"Hindi ko sya anak! Inampon mo lang 'yan dito pero hindi ibig sabihin ay anak
ko na sya! Sya lang ang sagot sa lahat ng ito, Thelma!" Kaagad akong kinabahan
roon.
"Sino ba ang nagsabi sa'yong magsugal ka, huh?! Wala!" Sigaw ni Nanay. "Wala
tayong pera, Selmo kaya bakit ka nagsugal?! Alam mo namang..." Naiiyak na si Nanay.
"Wala kang pakialam 'dun! Ang batang iyon ang sagot! Isang linggo lang naman at
bayad na ako!"
"Mag-isip ka, Selmo! Buhay ni Scira ang kapalit 'nun--"
"Putangina, e, anong gagawin mo?! Sinasabi ko na sa'yo dati pa na ibalik na
natin ang batang 'yan sa pamilya kung sino man 'yun kapalit ng pera! Patubusin mo
'yan bata nang may silbi naman!" Sigaw nya at napaluha ako nang marinig ang sinabi
nya.

I clutched my chest, trying to catch my breath. Hindi ko

alam kung anong dapat gawin... Anong sugal? Bakit ako?
 "Hindi ako papayag!" Nanay Thelma screamed.
"Tangina, mamatay tayo! Papatayin tayo ni Mayor, Thelma! Akala mo ba ay
madaling lusutan ang utang na 'yun?!"
"H-Hindi ako papayag na si Scira!" She screamed at napatakip ako sa labi ko at
humikbi.
"Wala ka ng magagawa! Nangako na ako! Kukunin ni Mayor ang babaeng 'yan o
mamatay tayo?!" Sigaw nito. "Nasaan na si Scira, ayusin mo ang gamit nya at
dadalhin na sya kay Mayor mamaya--"
Hindi ko na narinig ang sasabihin nila dahil sa tumakbo ako palayo sa bahay. I
am sobbing hard, halos manlabo na ang mga mata ko sa luha sa mga mata ko.
He will pay him by using me... No...
Sumisikip ang dibdib ko habang tumatakbo palayo sa bahay, marami na akong
nadaanang mga puno, nadaanan ko na rin ang mga masukal na parte ng gubat at medyo
maghahapon na at nang makarating ako sa may gilid ng kalsada ay napasalampak ako sa
lapag.
I sobbed hard, my shoulders moving up and down. Ayoko na rito, hindi ko na
kaya...
G-Gusto ko nang makaalala! Gusto ko ng bumalik sa pamilya ko...
"Shit!" Napatakip ako sa bibig ko nang makarinig ng boses. Nag-angat ako ng
tingin at nagulat nang makita ang isang kulay itim na sasakyang nakaparada sa may
bandang unahan ko.
"Malas naman," I saw a tall man, sinipa nya ang gulong ng kotse nya at nakita
kong frustrated nyang nasuklay ang kanyang buhok.
Mabilis akong napatayo sa pagkakasalampak sa may damuhan at hinawi ang luha ko.
Humihikbi pa rin ako kaya huminga ako ng malalim para kumalma.
Pinagmasdan ko ang lalaki at nakitang kinuha nya ang telepono sa bulsa at
inilagay sa tenga nya.
"Hello, Ad..." He said. "Nasiraan ako, medyo malelate ako..." Aniya.
I bit my lip, muli kong pinunasan ang mga luha ko at kumurap-kurap para
kumalma.
"Yeah, I will just look for some help..." He said. I saw him moved at bago pa
man ako makaatras para makalayo ay nagtagpo ang mga mata namin.
I stopped. Kumalabog ang dibdib ko pero hindi ko naibaba ang tingin ko sa
kanya.
"I think I found someone..." He said, staring at me.
Ibinaba nya ang telepono at naglakad palapit, napaatras ako at nakita kong
nangunot ang noo nya sa akin.
"No..." He said softly. Natigil naman ako doon pero nanatiling nakatingin sa
kanya. "I won't hurt you..."
Hindi ako nagsalita at nanatiling nakatingin sa kanya. Kumakalabog ang dibdib
ko sa hindi maintindihang nararamdaman.
"Uh, I just want to ask some help. I am not a bad person, don't worry..." He
said at kumalma ako roon.
When he walked closer ay halos magpalpitate na ang puso ko and I cursed
silently at that.
I saw his deep set of dark, midnight eyes, his dark brown hair is fixed and
styled upwards and the back and sides of his hair are slicked to the back.

He has this greek-shaped nose, natural thin reddish-lips,

slightly parting as he talk to me. He has chiselled jawline, he has a thin beard
that make him look hotter. Napansin ko rin ang eyeglasses nya na mas lalong
nagpaganda ng mga mata nya.
"Miss?" He said.
"H-Huh?" Napakurap ako at napalunok.
Damn, Scira! Kung saan-saan ka nakatingin!
He chuckled, his deep voice almost made my knees weak.
"Sabi ko, may pwede bang hingan ng tulong dito?" He asked, hiding his side
smile.
Halos manuyo ang lalamunan ko roon. Damn, ngayon lang ako nakakita ng ganitong
kagwapo simula nung narito ako! Maybe, that's why I am mesmerized!
"U-Uh, sa may hindi kalayuan..." Nautal pa ako kaya napalabi ako.
"Thanks, can you come with me?" He asked. Napaharap ako sa kanya at nakitang
kinakagat nya ang pang-ibabang labi at nagkakamot ng kilay.
"It was my first time here so..." He smiled.
"S-Sige..." Mahinang sagot ko at napansing nakatitig sya sa akin ay nag-iwas
ako ng tingin.
Nauna na syang naglakad, sumunod naman ako habang kinakalma ang sariling h'wag
gumawa ng kahit anong nakakahiyang bagay.
He's wearing a black longsleeve and slacks, nakita ko ring nakaleather shoes
syang itim at mukhang pormal na pormal.
He has a lean shoulder, napansin ko rin ang katawan nya at gaya nga nung sinabi
nung mga naririnig kong estudyante kapag nakakakita ng gwapo, yummy...
What? Yummy?
Kinilabutan ako sa sariling naisip at kinurot ang daliri. Damn, Scira, what are
you thinking? Porket nakakita ka ng mala-Greek God ay ganyan na? Huh?!
"Are you fine?" Marahas akong napatingin sa lalaki at mabilis na tumango. He
chuckled again, inayos nya ang glasses nya at tumango sa akin.
"You're adorable, Miss..." He said. Nag-init ang pisngi ko at parang may kung
anong nagwawala sa tyan ko.
What, Scira? Gutom lang 'yan!
Nakarating kami sa may car station doon sa may unahan at nakita kong lumapit
ang lalaki roon na nag-aayos.
"Magandang hapon, Sir! Anong maitutulong ko?" The man said.
"Good afternoon," He said and smiled. "Uh, my car stopped in the middle of the
road, can you--"
"Sir, tagalog ho, medyo masakit sa ulo..." Tawa nung lalaki at napangiti ako
roon.
The man smiled and nodded.
"Sorry, uhm..." He cleared his throat. "Kasi nasiraan ako ng sasakyan, d'yan
lang sa may unahan..."
"Ano po bang dahilan?"
"The engines are out, I don't know..." Iling nya. "Pwede bang itulak nalang
natin hanggang dito?"
"Sige, Sir, walang problema..." Tango nito. Nanatili naman akong nasa tabi nung
lalaki at nakita kong napatingin sa akin 'yung lalaki dito sa may car station.

"Oh, Scira!" Bati nya. Ngumiti lang ako ng tipid, I

actually don't know him.
"She helped me..." Ani nung gwapong lalaki at nang mangunot ang noo nung isa ay
nagsalita ako.
"Nakita ko sya 'dun kaya 'yun..." Mahinang sagot ko.
"Uh, ganun ba..." Ngiti nito. "Sige, Sir, tara na..." Aniya at niyaya na 'yung
gwapong lalaki palabas.
Nang mawala sila sa paningin ko ay napangiti nalang ako at hinawi ang buhok ko.
I placed a small part of my hair at the back of my ear before walking.
Saan na ako nito ngayon? Uuwi na ako? Pero ai Tatay... Paano kapag totoo 'yung
utang nya sa Mayor? Paano kung... Ako ang ipambayad?
Bahala na... Ang kailangan ko ay ang panatilihing ligtas si Nanay.
"Wait!" Napatalon ako sa gulat nang may humawak sa palapulsuhan ko. Mabilis
akong napalingon at nakita ang lalaki kanina.
Wala na syang salamin ngayon, mas naging maganda ang kulay ng mga mata nya roon
kaya kumibot nanaman ang puso ko.
"B-Bakit?" I asked. Humihingal pa sya at nakita ko ang pawis sa noo nya.
Tumakbo sya pabalik? Bakit?
 "Uhm," He cleared his throat. Bumitaw sya sa akin na halos manlumo ako.
"I just want to say thank you..." Napatango ako roon pero hindi ko maitanggi
ang saya na nararamdaman ko.
"W-Walang anuman..." I smiled. I saw him stared at me for some time before
licking his lips.
"What's your name?" He asked.
"Scira..." Sagot ko naman. Nakita ko ang amusement sa mata nya sa sinabi ko
bago tumango.
"Beautiful..." He murmured at maya-maya ay may inilabas sa likuran nya.
I was shocked when I saw a piece of red rose on his hand, napatingin pa ako
roon pabalik sa kanya at ngumiti lang sya at nagkamot ng kilay.
"Uh, I was thinking of a thank you gift kaso wala, I saw that outside and
thought of you so..." He looks adorable saying that, nakita kong medyo nahihiya pa
sya roon kaya matamis akong napangiti at inabot ang rosas na ibinibigay nya.
"Salamat..." Dinala ko iyon sa ilong ko at inamoy.
"I'm Thorn, by the way..." He said and offered his hand, iniangat ko naman ang
kamay ko para tanggapin iyon at sabay kaming napangiti.
"See you next time, Scira..." He said, the intensity of his eyes is piercing
through me, shaking my insides.
"S-See you..." I said and I saw him put his hands on his pocket before looking
at me and nodding.
Masaya ako habang naglalakad pauwi. I was looking at the rose, pulang-pula iyon
at namumukadkad pa.
It was my first time receiving a flower from a man since I got here, wala naman
kasi akong kinakausap kahit may nagpapakita ng interes. I just like talking to
Nanay, hindi ko naman akalaing magiging komportable akong kausapin si Thorn na
ngayon ko lang nakilala.
Ingat na ingat akong h'wag mahawakan ang tinik para hindi masugatan, ngiting-
ngiti akong naglakad pauwi.
Medyo madilim na, hindi ko ring akalaing medyo malayo ang lugar kung saan ako
napapad kanina kaya medyo ginabi ako.

Thorn... Too unique for a name, hmm?

Naglakad akong masaya pero kaagad na napawi nang makarinig ako ng malakas na
sigaw. Kumalabog ang dibdib ko, ang lakad konay unti-unting bumilis hanggang sa
makita kong tumatakbo na ako.
"Wala sya rito! Umalis na kayo!" Nanay's scream is what I heard. Nakita ko ang
mga kulay itim na van sa tapat ng bahay at nilalamon na ako ng takot.
"Ilabas nyo 'yung babae o papatayin ko kayo?!" Kaagad akong kinilabutan roon.
Sinubukan kong iikot ang paningin ko pero walang tao bukod sa pamilya namin sa
parteng ito.
No...
"Ibibigay ko sa'yo si Scira pero wala sya dito!" Napatakip ako sa bibig nang
makitang sinipa nung isang lalaki ang Tatay Selmo.
"Putangina, h'wag mo kaming ginagago! Nasaan 'yung babae?!" Sigaw nito.
"Hindi ko nga alam! Hindi ko alam kung nasaan--" Nanginig ako nang makitang
tinutukan nito ng baril ang sentido ni Tatay.
Napasinghap ako roon.
"Selmo! H'wag parang awa nyo na, h'wag nyong sasaktan ang asawa ko!" Nanay
screamed. "M-Magbabayad kami! H'wag mong gagalawin ang anak at asawa--"
"Manahimik ka! Kahit ibenta mo ang kaluluwa mo, walang mangyayari! Mas mahal pa
sa buhay nyo ang perang nagamit nyo!" I shook when he slapped my Mother.
"N-Nay..." Nanginig ang kamay ko at akmang papasok nang bahay ng mahuli ko ang
tingin ng umiiyak na si Nanay.
Nanlaki ang mata nya, nagkasalubong ang mga mata namin at nakita ko ang simple
nyang pag-iling habang nakatingin sa akin.
I shook my head, stopping my sob.
 No... Nanay, ayokong masaktan ka...
"Hahanapin ko s'ya, bigyan nyo lang ako ng oras at hahanapin ko ang batang
'yun!" He pushed the gun on my father's head more at halos mabuwal na ako.
N-No... No, please...
"Selmo!" Sigaw ni Nanay. "H'wag mong idamay ang anak--"
"Hindi ko sya anak! Malas ang batang 'yan! Palamunin! Ibigay natin para may
silbi naman!" He exclaimed and my chest hurt. Sumikip iyon kaya napahawak ako ng
mariin sa dibdib ko.
"Ibigay nyo sa amin ang babae! Baka itinatago nyo lang rito!" The man mentioned
something kaya nagsipasukan ang iba. Sumiksik ako sa gilid para hindi makita at
nang dumaan sila ay mabilis ang kabog ng puso ko.
Nang magsalubong ang mga mata namin ni Nanay ay nanghina ako. She shook her
head, mas napaluha ako roon at umiling sa kanya.
"Cabinet..." She said slowly. Nakita kong nagsilabasan na sa kwarto ang mga
lalaki at sa labas naman maghahalughog kaya mabilis akong umikot sa bahay. Nang
makitang bukas ang bintana sa kwarto ay mabilis akong sumampa roon.
Holding the rose Thorn gave me, mabilis kong tinakbo ang cabinet para doon
magtago. My heart was beating wildly, narinig ko ang mga tunog ng yapak at sigawan
roon sa labas.
P-Please, God... Help us...
I stopped when I heard footsteps near me. Kumalabog ang dibdib ko, mas
nagsumiksik ako roon at mula sa butas na maliit ay nakita ko ang papalapit na
lalaki.

It was the man outside! 'Yung nagtutok ng baril kay Tatay!

Ito ba 'yung Mayor?
His footsteps are heavy, making the rattan floor make a sound at sa bawat
hakbang nito ay mas lumalakas ang kabog ng dibdib ko.
Napahikbi ako at nanlaki ang mata ko at tinakpan ang bibig ko. I saw his eyes
shifted from the room to the cabinet.
God, please...
Mas tinakpan ko ang bibig ko. Ang mata'y nanlalabo na sa mga luha. Nang
makalapit na sya sa cabinet ay halos hindi ako makahinga.
He held the handle at nanlaki ang mata ko roon, he was about to pull it when a
voice came.
"Mayor, nakita raw si Scira kanina sa may highway..." I stopped. Nang bitawan
nya ang cabinet ay napapikit ako at napahugot ng hininga.
"Pasundan nyo! Hindi pwedeng makawala ang babaeng 'yun!" Sigaw nito at
nagsitakbuhan ang mga lalaking nakaitim palabas.
"Ipasok mo rito 'yung dalawang matanda!" Sigaw nya at habang nakasilip roon ay
nanghina ako kung paano hilahin ang Nanay palapit habang lumuluha. Tatay Selmo was
fighting pero sinuntok sya kaya napaluhod sya sa lapag.
"S-Selmo..." Nanay cried at napasinghap ako roon at nanginig.
"Nasaan nagpunta 'yung babae?!" Sigaw nung Mayor.
"H-Hindi ko alam... Hindi ko alam..." Nanay cried as she speak.
"H-Hahanapin ko sya! Ibibigay ko sa'yo, pangako--"
"Shut up!" He exclaimed. "Sinabi nyo sa kanya, ano?! Na mangyayari ito?!"
"Hindi! Hindi namin sinabi!" Tatay exclaimed but the Mayor smacked him with the
gun kaya nagdugo ang labi nito.
"Sinungaling!" He said, enraged. Napalingon si Nanay at nang magkatinginan kami
sa siwang ng cabinet ay mas napaluha ako.
I saw how tears fell on her cheek, ang mga mata nya'y malungkot. Gusto ko syang
abutin, gusto ko syang yakapin. I wanted to save her but I can't move.
Natulos lang ako sa kinalalagyan at binabalot ng takot at kaba.
"Mayor, mukhang nakatakas 'yung babae!" Ani nung lalaking may tattoo sa leeg.
"Shit!" He cursed, nakita kong mahigpit na ang hawak nya sa baril at nakakuyom
na ang kamao.
 "Putangina!" Sigaw nya at halos mapasigaw ako nang itutok nya ang baril kay
Tatay.
No... No...
"Maawa ka, Mayor! Ibibigay ko--" Tatay begged.
"Manahimik ka! You fucking fooled me!" He screamed and I gasped when I heard a
gunshot.
"Selmo!" Nanay cried at nasapo ko ang bibig nang makitang nakahandusay na si
Tatay Selmo. His blood scattered on the floor.
"H-Hindi..." Bulong ko.
"Selmo! Selmo, gumising ka!" Nanay cried helplessly. "H'wag mo akong biruin ng
ganito! Selmo!"
"He's dead..." Tawa nung Mayor at nakita kong halos mapahiga na si Nanay sa
pag-iyak. "And now, you're next..."
"N-No..." I murmured and was about to move when I saw my Nanay's begging eyes.
"H'wag..." She murmured. I shook my head, crying.
H-Hindi, Nay... H'wag kang ganyan!
"Anong h'wag?" Ani nung Mayor. "Ano, sasabihin mo ba sa akin kung nasaan ang babae
o hindi?" He pushed the gun on her head at napahikbi akong lalo habang umiiyak.
P-Please, panginoon... H'wag ang Nanay... Kahit ako nalang...
"Hindi mo sya makikita..." Aniya.
"Ang tapang mo a!" Halos mapasigaw ako nang mas idiniin nito ang baril sa
sentido ni Nanay.
"Sasabihin mo sa akin, o hindi?" He said hardly.
I saw how my Nanay's eyes shifted to my direction. She smiled at me at halos
hindi na ako makahinga.
"Mahal kita..." She mouthed and my grip on the rose tightened.
I felt a sharp pain on my finger at umawang ang labi ko nang makita ang dugong
umaagos roon patungo sa palad ko.
"Hindi..." Nanay answered at halos mabingi ako nang makarinig ng malakas na
putok ng baril.
I felt like everything stopped, mabilis kong ipinaling ang ulo ko and right at
the very moment, I saw Nanay's sad, and teary eyes as she was looking at me,
kasabay nito ang maliit nyang ngiti sa akin bilang paalam bago tuluyang bumagsak sa
lapag katabi ng Tatay Selmo.
And that night changes everything, I saw with my own eyes and with my own blood
in my hands, how my family was murdered infront of me, blaming myself, for I could
have done something to save them... But I didn't.

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Kabanata 2

Kabanata 2
I was staring at their cold bodies on the ground. My hands are shaking, gusto
kong sumigaw pero hindi ko magawa dahil parang may pumipigil sa lalamunan ko.
The moment the men left, mabilis akong tumakbo palabas ng cabinet at ginapang
sila.
I cried as I held them, the years with them is enough to make me feel this way.
They took care of me, kahit hindi nila ako kilala.
Kahit hindi naging mabuti sa akin si Tatay ay may parte sya sa puso ko. He was
my father, nagtrabaho sya para sa amin at habang nakatingin sa kanila ay namamanhid
ang katawan ko.
Nang mapatingin ako kay Nanay ay mas nanghina ako. My hands are shaking harder
this time kaya itinago ko iyon sa may hita ko at tahimik na humikbi.
"N-Nay..." I whispered, even for he last time, she let me feel her love, her
unconditional love for me.
I don't know who are that people. Sila ba 'yung naghahanap sa akin? Sila ba
'yung kukuha sa akin para sa utang ni Tatay?
Hindi ako mapakali. I am starting to blame myself.
Kung...Kung lumabas ba ako at nagpahuli ay mangyayari ito? Kung sakaling
tumakbo ako para humingi ng tulong ay nailigtas ko sila?
I smack my chest repeatedly because I am lacking out of breathe.
"T-This is my fault..." I whispered.
I-I should have done something! Sana...sana tinulungan ko sila... Sana...
"Nay..." Bulong ko at inabot ang malamig nitong mga kamay. She was resting
beside Tatay at hindi ako magkandamayaw sa pagluha.
"P-Patawad..." I whispered and held her hand. "P-Patawarin nyo po ako..."
Bulong ko.
"H-Hindi ko manlang kayo natulungan... Sorry..." I held her hand and lower my
head.
"M-Mahal na mahal ko kayo..." Bulong ko at mariing pumikit.
Napatingin ako sa paligid, the place is a disaster, mga nagkalat na gamit, at
ang dugo sa paligid.
Nang makita ko ang isang baril sa tabi ng Nanay ay napansin kong pamilyar ito.
Nanginginig man ang katawan ko ay lumapit ako roon. My hand still has blood from
the thorns and from my parents.
Tinitigan ko ang baril at umawang ang labi ko nang makitang ito ang baril ni
Tatay na tinatago nya.
They...They used it to kill them?
"Ayun sya!" Napalingon ako at nanlaki ang mga mata ko nang makita ang mga
pulis.
I saw how their eyes widen, mula sa akin ay bumaba ang tingin nila sa baril na
akmang aabutin ko at mabilis kong nailayo ang kamay ko bago ko pa man mahawakan.
"Posasan nyo!" Mas kumalabog ang dibdib ko at napaatras. Napahawak ako sa sahig
at mabilis na umiling.
"H-Hindi..." I shook my head.
"Bilis!" I saw two police officers looking sharply at me, may hawak silang
posas at napaiyak ako ng makita iyon.
"Hawakan nyo!" I screamed when they held my arm, napaatras ako at pumalag pero
hinawakan nila ako.
"H-Hindi ako... Hindi..." Mahinang bulong ko.
"Sa presinto ka na magpaliwanag, Miss!" The police exclaimed. Mas nanginig ako
at kumawala pero hinatak nila ang braso ko.
"Two casulties," Ani nung isang pulis sa radyo nya at kahit anong kawala ko ay
nagpupumilit sila.
I felt the cold chain on my hands, napatingin ako roon at mas napaluha.

N-No... Hindi ako...

"Nay, Tay..." Bulong ko nang madaanan ko ang mga magulang ko.
They dragged me outside, hindi ako makaayos ng tayo sa pamamanhid ng mga paa
ko. I still can't process everything.
Sa paglabas ay halos manlumo ako ng makita ang mga kasama namin sa bukid at ang
mga pulis sakay ang kanilang mga sasakyan.
"T-Tulong po..." Mahinang sabi ko at nakita ko kung paano sila mag-atrasan
pagdaan ko.
"Mamatay tao ka! Pinatay mo ang mga magulang mo!" Sigaw nila Mang Delso. I
shook my head at nagsalita.
"H-Hindi po... Hindi ako..." Iling kong paulit-ulit, ang mga mata'y hilam at
nanlalabo sa luha.
"Wala kang utang na loob! Mamatay-tao!" Napaiyak ako lalo ng sugurin ako ni
Aling Carmen.
"Walanghiya ka!" She attacked me, hinila nya ang buhok ko at napasalampak ako
sa lapag.
"Bitiwan nyo!" Sigaw ng pulis at pilit akong pinapatayo.
 "Hindi! Mamatay tao ang batang 'yan! Baliw!" Sigaw nya at ang namumuhi nyang
mga mata ay nasa akin.
"Awatin nyo!" Sigaw nung isang pulis at nakita kong inawat ng pulis ang ginang.
"Mamatay-tao! Pinatay mo ang nga magulang mo!" Sigaw nya at nakita ko ang mga
pandidiri, galit at panghuhusga sa mata ng mga tao roon sa akin bago ako ipasok sa
sasakyan ng mga pulis.
"Secure na ang suspect." Ani ng pulis sa tabi ko. I was in the middle with both
of my hands in the chains, nanginginig ako sa takot.
My hands are shaking uncontrollably at naramdaman ko ang mahihinang bulong sa
tenga ko.
"Baliw ka! Mamatay tao!" I heard voices at mariing napapikit ako roon.
"Pinatay mo ang mga magulang mo!" Sigawan at ang mukha ng mga magulang ko
habang naliligo sa dugo.
I tightly closed my eyes, halos mabingi ako sa mga bulong na iyon kaya
napatungo ako at humikbi.
"H-Hindi ko sila pinatay... Sila... Sila ang may gawa!" I screamed to stop the
voices.
"Manahimik ka!" The police shouted at doon ako natauhan. Mabilis akong
napamulat at nakitang nasa byahe na kami.
Natulala ako, pilit kong ikinukubli ang panginginig ng mga kamay ko.
"Baka baliw nga talaga," Ani nung isang pulis sa tabi ko.
"Ewan ko, sino ba naman ang nasa matinong pag-iisip ang papatayin ang mga
magulang?" Ani nung isa at gusto ko mang tumutol ay nanghihina ako.
My body is in pain, sumasakit na ang ulo ko at nanginginig pa rin ang mga kamay
ko.
Nakita ko nalang ang sarili konv hinihila patungo sa presinto. It was the first
time I came here kaya wala ako sa wisyo.
Binalot ng takot ang puso ko, tumulo ang pawis mula sa noo ko at nakita ko ang
mga preso sa kabilang parte ng presinto.
Hiwalay ang babae sa mga lalaki, napansin kong lahat sila ay nakatingin sa akin
kaya nag-iwas ako ng tingin.
"Anong kaso?" Ani nang isang babaeng pulis habang hinahatak ako nung dalawang
lalaki papasok.
"Murder." Ani nung isa. "Hinihinalang pinatay nya 'yung mga magulang nya..."
"H-Hindi ko sila pinatay..." Mahinang sabi ko.
"Manahimik ka!" Sigaw nung isa kaya nagbaba ako ng tingin.
"Paupuin mo rito." Padarag nila akong iniupo sa isang plastic na upuan at
kaagad kong napansin ang lalaking nasa harapan ko.
He was a police officer, I think. Nagsusulat sya roon at nakita kong napatingin
sya sa akin at humarap sa mga kasama nya.

"Kaso?" Aniya. I think he was about my age pero nakakatakot

ang aura nya.
"Murder..."
"Murder? Sinong pinatay?" Ani nito at napatingin lang ako sa kamay ko na may
mga tuyong bakas ng dugo.
"Magulang nya, yung itinawag sa may bukid kanina..." Ani nito at nakita kong
tumango iyong lalaki.
"Nakita ba sa akto o hindi?"
"Hindi, pero ang sabi ng mga tao roon, wala namang ibang kasama ang dalawang
matanda roon bukod sa kanya. Nakita namin syang nasa tabi nung mga bangkay kanina,
nasa aktong aabutin ang baril..." Paliwanag nito.
"She's the main suspect for now?" Ani nito.
"Oo," Sagot nung isa. "Tama ng baril sa puso sa lalaki at sa ulo 'yung sa
babae."
"Anong pangalan mo, Miss?" Ani nung lalaki sa akin pero hindi ko sya sinagot.
Nanatili akong nakatingin sa duguan kong mga kamay.
 It's my fault... but I didn't kill them...
"Miss? Anong relasyon mo sa mga biktima?" Tanong sa akin.
"H-Hindi ko sila pinatay..." Mahinang sagot ko at napapikit nang manakit
nanaman ang ulo ko.
"Anong motibo mo sa pagpatay? Bakit?"
"Hindi ko sila pinatay..." Bulong kong ulit.
"Feeling ko, chief, may amats ang utak nito..." Sagot nung isa sa mga humila sa
akin.
"Meron?" Tanong nito at hinanap ang tingin ko pero nagbaba ako ng tingin lalo
at tinitigan ang posas sa kamay ko.
"Chief, nandyan 'yung mga kasamahan nila..." Ani nung pulis at sa pag-angat ko
ng tingin ay nakita ko sina Mang Delso, Jace at sina Aling Carmen ay napaayos ako
ng upo.
Magpapaliwanag ako... Alam kong maiintindihan nila ako...
"A-Aling--"
"Putangina mong babae ka!" Isang lagapak ng sampal ang natanggap ko sa pisngi
ko dahil sa sampal nya.
"Mamatay-tao ka! Bakit sila Thelma pa!" She screamed at maya-maya'y
napahagulgol.
"H-Hindi po ako..." Iyak ko.
"S-Sinungaling! Buong puso kang tinanggap ng mga taong 'yun pero pinatay mo
sila! Wala kang utang na loob!" Sigaw nya na lumuluha. Nang akmang tutumba na sya
ay umalalay si Mang Delso at si Jace roon.
"Nay... Kumalma ka..." Ani Jace.
"Makukulong kang babae ka! Mabubulok ka!" Sigaw nya.
"H-Hindi ko po sila pinatay... H-Hindi..." Iling ko pero hindi sya naniwala sa
mga sinasabi ko.
Napaharap ako kay Aling Delso at nakitang galit na galit sya sa akin.
I shook my head, patuloy na nalalaglag ang mga luha sa pisngi ko habang
nagmamakaawang paniwalaan nila ako.
I looked at Jace pero mabilis syang nag-iwas ng tingin. He seems disgusted,
galit na galit rin ang mga mata nya at mas napahagulgol lang ako roon habang
umiiling-iling.
Nang mapakalma si Aling Carmen ay naupo silang tatlo sa isang upuan habang
tumetistigo at naroon rin ako para magpaliwanag.
"Anong nangyari?" Sabi sa akin, hindi ako kaagad nakasagot roon. Nagsimulang
manginig muli ang mga kamay ko habang inaalala iyon.
"M-May..." I said but stopped and a sob left my lips.
"H'wag kang maniwala sa babaeng 'yan!" Sigaw ni Aling Carmen.

"Kumalma muna tayo, Misis... Pagpaliwanagin muna natin

siya..." Ani ng pulis bago bumaling sa akin.
"M-May...May mga..." I stopped when I saw someone entered the prison hall.
Kaagad akong namutla nang makita ang lalaki iyon.
It was the man who has a tattoo on his neck, 'yung kasama kanina... 'Yung
nakaitim...
"May ano, Miss?" Ani ng pulis pero napako lang ang tingin ko sa lalaking iyon.
He was staring at me, nang makitang nakatingin ako sa kanya ay tumaas ang sulok ng
labi nya.
He eyed me mockingly and act like he's zipping his lips.
Halos sumikip na ang dibdib ko at parang hindi na ako makahinga.
He grinned evilly at iniaktong gigilitan ang leeg kaya mas namutla ako.
Napaatras na ako sa upuan ko at napasigaw nang malaglag ako.
"Miss?! Miss?!" Mabilis nila akong dinaluhan pero sumigaw ako at pilit na
tinatakpan ang mukha ko.
"H-Hindi... Hindi ko sila pinatay..." Sigaw ko ng paulit-ulit. Nagwala ako,
pilit nila akong pinapakalma pero hindi ako mapirmi sa upuan ko dahil sa takot.
 I catched for my breath, naririnig ko ang sigawan pero tanging maliliit na
boses lang ang naiintindihan ko.
Napahawak ako sa dibdib ko, my chest moved up and down at I felt like it was
spinning. The voices are fading, the place becomes blurry at sa pagkurap ko at
pilit na pagtayo ay doon na ako bumagsak at nawalan ng malay.
"We'll arrive in five..." Mabilis akong nagmulat at napatayo.
"She's awake!" Napalingon ako at nanlaki ang mata ko nang makitang nasa isang
ambulansya kami.
Napansin kong nakahiga ako kanina sa isang stretcher at mabilis na hinanap ang
mga tao roon.
I saw a woman in her scrubsuit, naroon sya sa gilid katabi ang dalawang nurses
at bago pa man ako makapagsalita ay nagsalita na ito.
"Good Evening, I am Dra. Katrin Lim..." Pakilala nya at hindi ako nakaimik
roon. I felt scared at napaatras ako.
"No, h'wag kang matakot..." She smiled at napansin kong mukhang maayos naman
sya. "We won't hurt you,"
"N-Nasaan ako?" Bulong ko. Nang mapatingin sa kamay ko ay nakaposas pa rin ako.
"Nasa ambulansya ka, pupunta tayong ospital..." Aniya at ngumiti. She was
pretty, maputi, matangos ang ilong at singkit ang mga mata.
"O-Ospital?" I asked. She nodded, nakita kong nakamasid sa akin ang dalawang
nurse roon kaya nagbaba ako ng tingin.
I was barefoot, nakasuot lang ako ng shirt at pantalon na kanina ko pa suot-
suot. It has blood stains, nang mapatingin ako sa kamay ay naroon pa rin ang mga
natuyong dugo.
"Tell Dr. Valderama to prepare a room for the lady..." Aniya sa nurse at
napaharap ako kaagad sa kanya.
"W-What hospital are you from?" Mahinang tanong ko at ngumiti ang babae at
sumagot.
"You'll know later..." She answered me.
Hindi na ako nagsalita roon at nanatiling tulala, habang nakatingin sa pintuan
ng ambulansya ay nagulat ako ng makita ang ilaw mula sa ibang sasakyan sa likod.
Nakagat ko ang labi ko at napabuntong-hininga.
The police are still here... They will lock me in a jail, I knew it...
The man earlier, 'yung nagpakita sa akin sa presinto. I know he's threatening
me and... If I tell anyone about this... He'll kill me...
The vehicle stopped, napalingon ako sa doktor sa may tabi kong bumaba. I felt
someone drag my arm kaya napalingon ako roon at nakitang ang dalawang nurse ay
hawak ang magkabilang braso ko para ibaba akong sasakyan.

Sumama naman ako, nakita kong nagsibabaan ang mga pulis sa

likuran namin at pinalibutan kami.
The fear crept inside me again at nakita kong kinakausap ng mga pulis ang
Doktor. I looked around and to my horror ay napaatras ako nang makita ang pangalan
ng ospital.
Institute of Mental Health
I was starled, napatingin ako sa paligid ko at ang kamay ko ay nag-umpisa
nanamang manginig.
"H-Hindi ako baliw..." I whispered and moved backwards. Humigpit ang hawak sa
akin ng mga nurses at nakita kong naalerto ang mga pulis.
"H-Hindi ako baliw..." I said it again and shook my head, my tears fell like
they knew what to do.
"Ipasok nyo na 'yan..." Utos ng Doktor at napasigaw ako roon.
"No! Please!" I screamed and moved, I tried to free myself pero hindi nila ako
hinayaan. Their grip on my arm tightened at sigaw lang ako ng sigaw habang
ipinapasok nila ako sa loob ng institusyon.
"P-Parang-awa nyo na..." I cried. "H-Hindi ako baliw, please..."
"Hawakan nyo ng maigi..." Ani ng Doktor sa likuran namin. Nararamdaman ko pa
rin ang panginginig ng mga palad ko.
"What's her case?" Ani ng Doktor at humikbi lang ako habang hinihila nila ako
papasok.
I saw the white walls, ang malapad na hallway at ang mga upuan sa gilid. The
lights are dim at halos mapaupo ako sa panghihina roon.
"A suspect for murder..." Ani nung pulis. "Dinala namin dito kasi mukhang may
sakit sa ulo, kanina pa sya sigaw ng sigaw at bumubulong, ang sabi rin ng mga
kasamahan nila sa bukid ay madalang magsalita itong babae at medyo weirdo kaya
siguro..."
"Okay, we'll see what happened..." Ani nung Doktor.
I am not crazy... I did not kill them... I promise...
"Buksan nyo!" Napatalon ako at napalingon nang may sumigaw. I saw someone
locked in a room, may mga rehas ang isang parte ng kwartong iyon at ang tao'y
nagpupumilit lumabas.
"Fred, pakalmahin nyo..." Utos ng Doktor sa kanya.
"Sino 'yan, huh?! Bago?!" The woman screamed from that room. "Miss, lagot ka!
Mamatay tayong lahat dito!" Sigaw nya at tumawa ng malakas at naririndi ako sa
naririnig.
I suddenly heard whispers again, telling me I was a killer, I remembered my
parents face, the gunshot... 'Yung lalaking may tattoo...
"P-Pakawalan nyo ako!" I shrieked at gumalaw pero dumiin ang kamay nila.
"Manahimik ka nga, Miss!" The nurse exclaimed but I shook my head and cried,
telling them to let me go.
"What's happening?" I heard a baritone, cold voice.
Napatungo nalang ako at wala nang magawa, ang mga luha'y parang agos ng talon
na patuloy sa pagbasa ng pisngi ko.
"Good evening, Doc..." The nurses greeted.
"What's with the commotion?" He asked pero nanatili lang akong nakatingin sa
mga kamay ko.
"A mental patient, Thorn, suspected murder case..." Ani nung Doktor na babae at
natahimik ako pagkarinig ng pangalang iyon.
"Why are you dragging her?" He asked.
"Nagwawala kasi, Doc..." Sagot nung nurse at mabilis akong nag-angat ng tingin.
Our eyes met, nakita ko ang gulat sa mata nya pagkakita sa akin at umawang ang
labi nya. My heart throbbed.
He...was scared of me. I felt ashamed of myself...

"L-Let me go..." Bulong ko bago muling tumungo at kumawala.

Gusto kong tumakbo palayo, sana namatay nalang rin ako...
"Kumalma ka, Miss!" The nurse exclaimed at napapikit ako ng maramdaman na ang
kuko nya sa braso ko.
"P-Please... Please..." Bulong ko pero pinirmi nila ako.
"Let her go..." Parang nabuhusan ako ng tubig nang marining ang boses na iyon.
Nag-angat ako ng tingin at nakitang nakalapit na si Thorn.
He was looking at the nurses coldly, his jaw clenching as if he was gritting
his teeth.
"Doc, hindi pwede, magwawala lang sya--"
"I said let her go!" His voice roared at miski ako ay natakot roon. "You are
hurting her, let her go!"
Naramdaman ko ang pagkawala ng hawak nila sa braso ko at kaagad akong nanghina
roon. My knees become weak at akala ko'y babagsak na ako pero may sumalo sa baywang
ko.
I was shocked, sa pag-angat ko ng tingin ay nakita ko ang itim na mga mata ni
Thorn habang nakatingin sa akin sa kabila ng salamin nya.
He held my waist to support me at hindi ako nakagalaw roon.
"Are you alright?" He asked at nang bitawan nya ang baywang ko ay napaatras
ako.
 "No, I won't hurt you..." He said softly at ang hikbi ko'y hindi matigil.
"Damn..." He cursed at nakita kong mariin syang napatingin sa mga tao roon sa
likod at nagsalita.
"I always tell you to don't force the patient!" Sigaw nya roon.
"D-Doc, kasi nagwawala sya..."
"You should have talked to her nicely! Look what happened!" Sigaw nya roon at
napatingin sa akin. Maya-maya'y lumapit sya at nakita kong bumaba ang tingin nya sa
kamay ko bago napabuntong-hininga.
"Keys..." He said.
"Doc, hindi pa sya pwedeng pakawalan. Makakatakas iyan." Ani ng pulis.
He puffed and breathe and run his hand frustatedly on his hair.
"You know why is she like this?" He asked. "Because you're harassing her..."
"Ito ang protocol namin, Sir, kailangang posasan ang mga suspect--"
"I know but..." He bit his lip, nakita kong naiinis na sya. "Even if she's a
suspect, you should have treat her right. Hindi pa naman napapatunayan, diba?"
"Oo, Doc pero--"
"Maybe she was stressed that's why she's being like this." Aniya at nang
lumapit pa sya sa akin ay hindi na ako nakaatras.
"Keys, you have to let her go, she won't escape..." Aniya at hinanap ang mata
ko. "Right, Scira?"
"You know her?" The other Doctor asked.
"I met her earlier nung nasiraan ako and she's..." He stopped and searched for
my eyes. "She's not like this so assume na stress sya kaya ganito ang mga kilos
nya..." Aniya.
"Pero pinatay--"
"She's just a suspect at habang hindi pa napapatunayan ay wala kayong
karapatang itrato syang kriminal." He said sharply at napatungo ako roon.
Nahihiya ako para sa sarili. I was devastated.
"Give me the keys..." He said at nakita kong iniabot sa kanya ang susi. I saw
him stared at me, nang tumingin ako sa kanya ay kumalma ako.
"I'll just remove your handcuffs, 'kay?" He said softly. Marahan akong tumango
roon at nakita kong ngumiti sya.
"Okay, calm down..." Mahinang sabi nya at inabot ang kamay ko. I flinched when
he touched my hand, nakita kong nangunot ang noo nya ng makita ang panginginig ng
kamay ko at mabilis na hinanap ang mga mata ko.

"I won't hurt you..." Mahinang sabi nya. "You know me,
right? I'm Thorn, you helped me, right?"
Hindi ako nakasagot at napapahikbi lang.
"Sshh..." He hummed. "I won't hurt you," He said gently helding my shaking
hands.
I felt something when his skin touched mine, kaagad na nagsirko ang puso ko
roon.
"I promise..." Aniya at marahang tinanggal ang posas ko. My wrist hurt when the
cuffs were removed. Nakita ko ang pamumula roon at nanatiling hawak ni Thorn ang
mga kamay ko bago iabot sa mga pulis ang posas.
"I'll take care of her..." He said formally. "I'll treat her wounds and Dra.
Lim will entertain you..." He said.
"This way..." Dra. Lim said at narinig ko ang yapak nila paalis. I stayed
staring at my shaking hands, nakita kong humigpit ang hawak roon ni Thorn at
lumingon sa likuran ko.
"Follow me," He said to the nurses bago bumaling sa akin.
"Can you walk?" He asked at mahina akong tumango. He let go of my hands and
held my arm softly to support me at isang hakbang palang ng paa ko ay nawalan ako
ng lakas kaya napamura sya at muling inabot ang baywang ko.
"Careful... Can I carry you?" Tanong nya at nagtaka ako roon.
"I have to treat your wounds first. You're too weak to walk so, if you'll allow
me to carry you..." Paalam nya at tumango nalang ako roon.
I was starled when he put his arm at the back of my knee and his other arm on
my back and lifted me to carry me.
Nang tumama ako sa dibdib nya ay sinilip nya ako at nagsalita.
"Hold on tight," He said at dinala ko ang braso ko sa leeg nya para kumapit at
doon na sya nag-umpisang maglakad paalis.
I felt his warmth as he carry me, I heard his fast heartbeat. Naamoy ko rin ang
panlalaking amoy nya at habang nakakapit at dala-dala nya ako ay hindi ko maiwasang
maiyak.
He was so gentle, he wasn't scared of me. He didn't judged me rightaway. I felt
safe as he held me closer to his chest, looking so serious while looking at one
direction.
Sinipa nya ang pintuan ng isang kwarto at nakita kong nakasunod sa amin ang
dalawang nurse na lalaki.
He let me sit on the hospital bed slowly, nang mag-angat ako ng tingin sa kanya
ay nakita kong nakatingin rin sya sa akin.
"Are you fine?" I shook my head. Narinig ko ang buntong-hininga nya at ang
pagtango sa sinabi ko.
"It's alright, they won't hurt you anymore..." Pagkausap nya sa akin. "I won't
let them hurt you..."
"H-Hindi ko naman sila pinatay..." I said at napapikit.
"Sshh... I know you don't..." I opened my eyes, nakita kong nakatitig sya sa
akin at kaagad kong nakita ang sinseridad sa mga mata nya.
"Y-You believe me?" I asked.
"Yes," He smiled at me at pinat ang ulo ko.
"I know you're a good person, Scira... I knew it the moment I approached you to
ask for help..." He said, smiling.
Hindi ako kaagad nakasagot roon. My heart beat rapidly. He believes me, halos
hindi mawala ang sayang naramdaman ko.
"Bring me my things, pakidala nung medicine kit." Aniya sa nurse roon na kaagad
ring umalis.
"And Josh?" Nilingon nya iyong natira.
"Yes, Doc?"
"Pakiayos 'nung kwarto ni Scira. She'll rest after this." Aniya sa malamig na
tono at nagpaalam ang nurse paalis pagkatapos.

We were left in the room together, nakita kong pumunta sa

may lababo si Thorn... I mean Doc at nakita kong may hawak syang bimpo.
He was wearing a labcoat. I am staring at his back, I saw him wearing a baby
blue poloshirt and pants underneath his coat. He's still wearing his glasses.
Nang bumalik sya ay kita kong hawak na nya ang binasang bimpo at isang maliit
na planggana. He dragged a chair near me at kaagad na naupo roon.
"Gusto mo tubig?" He asked kindly at nang tumango ako ay iniiwan nya ang hawak
sa side table bago kumuha ng tubig.
"Here..." He hand me a glass of water na kaagad kong ininom.
Dire-diretsong ininom ko iyon at nakita kong nakamasid lang sya sa akin sa
ginagawa ko. His piercing black eyes is staring at me, ang kulay tsokolate nyang
buhok ay medyo nagulo dahil sa pagsuklay ng daliri nya roon kanina.
Kaagad akong nakahinga ng maluwang matapos ang uminom at nang ibaba ko iyon ay
nakangiti na si Doc.
"You like more?" I shook my head, napatawa naman sya roon bago tumango at
inabot mula sa akin ang baso.
"Alright, linisin na natin ang sugat mo, hmm?" Aniya at inabot ang kamay ko.
It was still shaking and I don't know why, sumulyap sya sa kamay ko pero wala
syang sinabi at hinugasan ang kamay ko sa planggana na dinala nya.
He cleaned my hands to remove the dry blood at nanatili lang akong nakatulala
roon. Matapos nito ay inilapag nya sa lapag ang planggana at pinunasan ng tuyong
bimpo ang palad ko.
"There..." He smiled.
Maya-maya'y dumating ang nurse dala ang medicine kit at umalis rin. I saw him
opened his kit habang nakaupo sa harapan ko.
He was searching for a certain thing from there kaya sumulyap ako sa kamay ko.
I have a wound on my fingers that was pricked by the thorns. Ang mga pulsuhan ko ay
mayroon ring kulay pulang pabilog na tanda ng mga posas ko roon.
"Give me your hand..." Aniya at inabot ko sa kanya ang kamay ko. He stared at
my fingers at nakitang may sugat roon.
"Where is this from?" He asked.
"D-Dun sa rosas..." He stopped, nakita kong nangunot ang noo nya at mabilis na
hinanap ang mga mata ko.
"Damn, I'm sorry..." He said. "I forgot the thorns..." Ngumiwi sya.
"N-Nadiinan ko lang naman... Ayos lang..." Sagot ko.
He nodded, nakita kong ngumuso sya habang nakatingin sa sugat ko bago naglagay
ng gamot sa cotton.
"I was in hurry about the roses, I forgot about the thorns..." Aniya.
"H-Hindi naman masakit..."
"Kahit na," Aniya at muling hinawakan ang palad ko. "Thorn pa man din ang
pangalan ko," Iling nya at napatawa ako roon.
Napaangat sya ng tingin ng marinig ako at tinagilid ang ulo nya.
"There, you laughed..." He said at natahimik ako roon. "Don't cry," Aniya sa
akin at pinahiran ng ointment ang palapulsuhan ko.
"You are beautiful when you smile, don't let your tears remove that beauty..."
Aniya at kumalabog ang puso ko.
"I'm sorry if they have to bring you here," Aniya. "But I think you are more
safe here."
"I-I'm not crazy..." Sabi ko. "P-Pangako, sinasabi nilang baliw ako pero
hindi..." Iling ko.
"You are just stressed, I think..." Aniya at nakita kong sumulyap syang muli sa
kamay ko.
"Anyway, Scira..." Sabi nya at doon na ako nag-angat ng tingin. I saw him
looked at me, his midnight black eyes is what I saw.
It was soft, like a calm dark sky.
"Kelan pa nanginginig ang kamay mo?" He asked.
Bumaba ang tingin ko sa kamay ko na nanginginig pa rin. I tried holding my
other hand to stop pero hindi ito tumitigil.
"K-Kanina..." Mahinang sagot ko. "It just happens..."
He sighed, nang abutin nya ang kamay ko ay nagulat ako roon.
"Let me..." Aniya. Inabot nya ang kamay ko, he caressed it softly. Marahan ang
haplos nya roon na parang kinakalma nya at nakatitig lang ako roon.
"Don't be scared..." Mahinang sabi nya at minasahe ang kamay ko.
"You are not crazy," He said.
"I'm not..." Bulong ko.
"Look at me," Aniya at nag-angat ako ng tingin sa kanya.
I saw his face and silently praised how good-looking he is. His eyes are soft
yet his features are hard. I saw how defined his nose is, his reddish lips, his jaw
and his thin beard on his jaw.
"I want you to calm down," He said, looking at my eyes. "Breathe in, breathe
out..."
I did what he asked me.
"Relax, think of any good happenings in your life... Forget what happened
today. Just relax..." His voice said soothly.
I suddenly remembered my parents, they were smiling at me. Nanay is waving at
me when I got home, si Tatay naman ay nanunuod ng TV at nang makita ako ay tumango
sya sa akin.
"You're safe," Aniya. "Nothing to be scared of..."
Marahan akong tumango, ang dibdib ko'y gumagaan na. He smiled at me, maya-
maya'y bumaba ang tingin nya sa kamay ko.
 "See?" He smiled at umawang ang labi ko nang hindi na nanginginig ang mga kamay
ko.
Nanlaki ang mata ko at napangisi sya at ginalaw ang kilay nya.
"Ang galing..." I murmured.
"Ikaw ang magaling," Tawa nya at hinaplos ang daliri ko. "You made it, you
calmed yourself down..."
I watched as he caressed my fingers, maya-maya'y marahan nyang inilapag iyon sa
hita ko at napahawak ako kaagad sa kamay kong nawala na ang panginginig.
"Thank you..." I whispered at nakita ko ang pagnigiti rin ng mata nya bago
guluhin ang buhok ko.

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Kabanata 3

Kabanata 3
"Is the room clean?" I am staring at the Doctor's back as he spoke with the
nurse.
"Opo, Doc..." Sagot nito. Napalingon sa akin si Doc sa akin, he smiled and
nodded at napatungo lang ako at tinitigan ang kamay ko.
He closed the door, muli syang bumalik sa pwesto ko at muling hinila ang upuan
palapit sa akin.
"Scira?" Sumulyap ako sa kanya. He smiled again, his eyes smiling as he did.
"You need to rest..." Aniya.
"S-Saan?" I asked.
"Room, we prepared a room for you..." Sagot nya sa akin. Napaharap naman ako sa
pintuan ng makitang bumukas iyon at umawang ang labi ko ng makita si Dra. Lim at
nasa likuran nya ang pulis.
My heart beat rapidly again, napausog ako sa kama na inuupuan ko nang makitang
tumingin sa akin ang pulis.
"What is it, Dra?" Dr. Thorn asked her at lkumalabog lalo ang dibdib ko nang
tumingin sa akin ang babaeng doktor.
I held my hand before it starts shaking again and when he saw my reaction, he
step closer and cover me.
"What is it, Dra.?" He asked again.
"About the patient..." She said at napasinghap ako roon, mas napunta sa harapan
ko si Thorn at nang makitang pilit nya akong tinatakpan ay humawak ako sa likod ng
labgown nya.
"She has to stay here for awhile," Ani ni Dra. Lim at napahugot ako ng hininga
roon.
"We will add securities to the vicinity of the hospital habang hindi pa
napapatunayan ang tunay na suspect." Sagot ng pulis naman. "We will also visit time
to time to check on the suspect."
"Okay..." He sighed.
"Doc Valderama, we have to check her for now and monitor her..." Ani nito.
"Alright," He answered.
"Pupunta rin kami rito para kwestyunin sya tungkol sa nalalaman nya. She's our
primary suspect kaya kailangan ng testimonya nya..." The police answered. Napapikit
ako ng mariin, muling nanginig ang kamay ko at mas humigpit ang hawak ko sa labgown
ni Doc.
"Give her some time befoee questioning her. She's not in a good condition." He
answered, his voice's stiff and cold.
"Kailangan naming--"
"Time." He cut them off. "Give her time to think,"
"Pero--"
"I'm her psychiatrist from now on so you should ask for my permission first
before doing something related to her..." Kumalabog ang puso ko. Humugot ako ng
malalim na hininga at napatitig sa likuran nya.
"Thorn, are you sure you can--"
"I am sure about this," He answered. "So, please, if you may leave... The
patient needs to rest..."
They were hesistant for a while, narinig ko ang buntong-hininga nila at mas
napahawak ang nanginginig kong kamay sa damit ni Doc at nang marinig ko ang pagsara
ng pinto, hudyat ng pag-alis ay bumagsak ang kamay ko mula sa damit nya at napasapo
sa mukha.

"Sshh, calm down..." It was his voice, inabot nya ang kamay
ko at nakita kong sinilip nya ang mukha ko.
"K-Kukunin ba nila ako?" I whispered, scared.
"No..." He answered me. "Dito ka lang, babantayan kita..."
"B-But I'm the suspect... Baka... Baka bumalik sila tapos hulihin ako..." I
stuttered, I can feel the hammer on my chest.
"You didn't kill them, right?" He asked and that made me stop. He was looking
at me seriously, eye to eye, like he was reading me and my thoughts.
"No..." I answered looking back at him. Maya-maya'y ngumiti sya at tumango sa
akin.
"That's what I wanted to hear..." He told me, nakita kong bumaba ang tingin nya
sa kamay kong nanginginig pabalik sa akin.
"You're shaking again..."
"S-Sorry..." Kinuha ko ang kamay ko pero kinuha nya iyon pabalik at hinaplos.
"I-It just happens..."
"Calm down," Aniya sa akin, muli nyang hinanap ang mga mata ko at inabot ang
pisngi ko. "And don't cry..."
"Natatakot lang ako..." Mahinang sabi ko.
"Don't be, they won't come to you without my permission..." He said.
"Ikaw ang Doktor ko?" I asked and he smiled and nodded habang hinahaplos ang
mga daliri ko.
"Hmm, is that fine with you?" He asked, a small smile escaped my lips and
nodded.
"Good, look..." He said, tumingin ako sa kamay kong hindi na nanginginig at
napahugot ng hininga.
"P-Paano mo ginagawa 'yan?" I asked at inilapag nya ang kamay ko sa hita ko
pabalik at inabot ang kit nya.
"I did nothing," He said. "Ikaw ang gumagawa nyan, maybe you're calming down or
you're comfortable..."
"A-Ako?" He nodded. Muli nyang inabot ang isang kamay ko at nakita kong may
hawak syang band aid.
"Let's cover your wound, 'kay?" Aniya at napatitig ako sa kanya habang seryoso
nyang nilalagyan ng band aid ang mga daliri kong nasugatan.
My heart skipped a beat, nang bumaba ang tingin ko sa kamay ay nakagat ko ang
labi ng makitang kulay pink na band aid ito na may design na mga rosas.
"Ang ganda..." I said and he just winked and chuckled.
"Let's go, pahinga ka na..." Aniya at inalalayan ako patayo, kumapit ako sa
kamay nya at nang makababa ay nakita kong napatingin sya sa paa ko at kumurap.
"Wait, stay there..." He said. Umalis sya saglit at nagulat ako ng maglatag sya
ng tsinelas sa lapag. "Wear that,"
"Salamat..." I smiled at sinuot iyon. He nodded, sa paglabas namin ay muling
bumalik ang takot ko, parang gusto kong umatras at bumalik nalang roon sa clinic
pero nang makitang nakasulyap sa akin si Doc ay humugot ako ng hininga.
"It's alright," He said. "Come here..." And I did.
Halos mabilang ko ang hakbang ko habang papalapit sa kanya. He was patiently
waiting at me, nakita ko rin ang isang babae ay lalaking nurses roon.
 Nang maabot ko sya ay kaagad nyang inalalayan ang braso ko
at inalalayan ako palakad. While we were walking, pinapalibot ko ang tingin ko sa
paligid at inobserbahan ang paligid.
Everything is almost white, from the walls and ceilings, ang mga ilaw ay nasa
gitna ng daan, it looks like a hospital but much more scarier for me.
Bawat kwartong nadaraanan namin ay may isang bakal na pintuan na may butas lang
sa may itaas na parte na parang rehas para makasilip sa loob ang mga tao sa loob.
It was like a cell, parang kulungan rin...
My heart stopped when we stopped in front of a door, umawang ang labi ko ng
magswipe sila ng card at bumukas iyon.
My knees weaken and my feet starts feeling numb, napakapit ako sa damit ni Doc
at nakita kong napatingin sya sa akin at kaagad na inabot ang kamay ko sa damit
nya.
"Don't be scared..." Aniya.
"D-Dyan ako?" I stuttered and he nodded, looking softly at me, inabot nya ako
at sumilip sa mga mata ko.
"No one's gonna hurt you there..." Aniya. Hindi ako nagsalita roon at bumaling
ang tingin ko sa loob, there's nothing in there but a single white bed and a white
side table. It was somehow a big room yet iyon lang ang gamit sa loob.
"Halika," Inaya nya ako papasok at nag-aalangan man ay pumasok rin ako kasabay
nya.
Iginaya nya ako roon paupo sa gilid ng kama at tsaka ako kinausap.
"Scira, you'll be fine here..." Aniya sa akin. "Walang mananakit sayo, di ka
nila kukunin..."
Lumingon ako at wala akong nakita miski isang bintana, isang pintuan lang ang
naroon na sa tingin ko ay banyo.
"A-Aalis ka ba?" Tanong ko. I may feel safe and at ease but maybe because he's
here, paano kung wala?
He nodded at kaagad na bumagsak ang balikat ko. What will I do if I'm alone?
What if the voices will return? Paano kapag pumasok dito bigla ang mga pulis?
"Hey, listen..." Aniya pero hindi ako nakinig at bumilis ang paghinga ko.
"Scira..." He called. Hinawakan nya ang pisngi ko kaya bumaling ako sa kanya.
"I will leave but I'll just be here, sa office lang ako..." Aniya. "If you need
me, you can ask the nurses to call me, I'll be here rightaway..."
Nag-aalangan pa ako nung una kaya napatingin ako sa kanya. He smiled but I can
see how tired he is at bigla akong nahiya roon.
I was such a burden, pasyente lang naman ako rito...
"I-I'm sorry," Mahina kong sabi at kinagat ang labi ko. "M-Magpahinga ka na,
pasensya sa abala..."
His forehead creased, nakita kong nagtaka sya sa kilos ko kaya nagbaba nalang
ako ng tingin.
"You're not a burden," Aniya at tinignan ko sya bago pilit na ngumiti.
"Salamat, Doc..." Bulong ko.
"I want you to sleep tight tonight, okay? Rest well..." Hinawi nya ang buhok
ko. "Try to forget everything happened today to have a good sleep."

I nodded at umayos sya ng tayo at nilingon ang mga nurse

roon.
"Nurse Elisha, please assist her..." Utos nya sa nurse na tumango sa sinabi
nya. "And call me if ever she needs me, nasa office lang ako..."
"Yes, Doc..." She nodded at nang bumaling si Doc sa akin ay pinat nya ang ulo
ko.
"Rest well, Scira. Goodnight." He said at ngumiti lang ako bago tumungo.
I watched him as he turned his back at me and left at nanlumo ako roon. Now I
was alone with the nurses at nakangiti man sila sa akin ay hindi panatag ang loob
ko.
 The nurse helped me in cleaning myself, she gave me clean clothes na kaagad
kong ginamit para magpalit. Matapos nun ay iniwan nila akong mag-isa sa puting
silid.
I was sitting in the middle of the bed, nakatulala sa kulay puting pader sa
harapan ko.
What now, Scira? What will you do?
I laid down the bed, binalot ko ang katawan ko sa kumot at tumitig sa kulay
puting kisame.
I wondered about my real life, sino ba talaga ako bago ako mawalan ng ala-ala?
Hinahanap kaya nila ako? Are they still thinking about me?
I yawned. My vision becomes blurry and that's when I fell asleep.
"Naalala ko dati, tinawag ako ng tindera, sabi nya, "Pogi, bili ka ng isda o!"
nasa palengke ako 'nun..." A manly voice said, it was cheerful.
"What did you do, Kuya?" I heard my voice. Sinubukan kong tumingin sa paligid
pero blurred ang nakikita ko.
"Syempre, hindi ako nagpauto! tapos ayun, natatawa nalang ako nung naalala
habang niluluto ko 'yung bangus..." We bursted out laughing.
"Gago ka, Zeij!" A voice said at mas napatawa kami roon. I looked around again
and my heart skipped a beat when I saw three pairs of blue eyes.
"H'wag mo ngang iparinig ang kahanginan mo sa prinsesa!" Ani nung isa at
iniangat ko ang kamay ko para abutin sila but before I could reach them ay nag-iba
ang lugar.
I screamed when I let my grip go from the side of the car, I felt myself
falling at napapikit ako ng mariin.
I was falling non-stop that I almost lost my breathe and I screamed when I
heard a gunshot.
"No!" Napabalikwas ako ng bangon at napahawak sa dibdib ko.
"Miss? Miss?" Mabilis akong lumingon at nakitang may mga nasa tabi ko. They
were waking me up at ipinaikot ko ang tingin.
That's where realization hits me, I realized it the moment I opened my eyes and
saw the white walls.
"Miss, ayos ka lang?" Napalingon ako sa tabi ko at nakita ang nurse kagabi. I
nodded. Nakita ko namang tumango ito at umayos ng tayo.
"Kanina ka pa kasi sigaw ng sigaw." Aniya sa akin bago tumango. "Magbihis ka
na, kakain na."
She left me after that at pagkatapos maupo ng ilang minuto roon ay tumayo na
rin ako. Tulala ako habang naliligo, I was staring at the water, sana kagaya ng
tubig ay mabilis na umagos paalis ang nararanasan ko.

I changed my clothes pero nanatili akong tulala sa salamin.

I was staring at the mirror, looking at myself.
What have I done to deserve this? Bakit...ang pamilyang kumupkop sa akin ay
kailangang mawala?
I wished justice for my parents but how could I do that kung hindi ko naman
kaya?
"Mamatay tao ka..." I closed my eyes tightly when I heard a voice inside my
head.
"Baliw! Baliw!" Huminga ako ng malalim at kinalma ang sarili ko. I heard
laughters at nang mas lumakas ang mga boses ay tinakpan ko ang tenga ko.
"Tumigil kayo!" I screamed.
"Baliw!" Boses iyon at napaluha ako roon.
"H-Hindi! Hindi ako baliw!" I screamed and closed my eyes.
"Pinatay mo ang magulang mo! Killer!"
"N-No..." I whispered and cried harder. Napadausdos ako ng upo at suminghap.
"H-Hindi! Shut up!" Sigaw ko at mas tinakpan ang tenga ko.
I heard a large sound from the door, sa paglingon ko ay nakita ko ang
humahangos na si Thorn at napaiyak akong lalo ng napunta sya sa harapan ko.
 "Scira..." He called at sa pagsinghap ko ay siya ring paghatak ko sa kanya para
sa isang yakap. I sobbed on his shoulder.
"Sshh... I'm here, you'll be fine..." Bulong nya at naramdaman ko ang pagyakap
nya pabalik sa akin.
"N-Nandyan nanaman..." Bulong ko at mas yumakap sa leeg nya.
"Who? Sinong nandyan?" Bulong nya at hinaplos ang buhok ko.
"Y-Yung mga boses... They're here..." I whispered.
"Sshh," Pagtahan nya at maya-maya'y lumayo sa akin.
My tears are still falling the moment he caught my eyes. He was still wearing
his glasses, his hair still damped like he was just fresh from the shower.
"Calm down, Scira..." Aniya sa akin. He held my cheek and dried my tears.
"N-Nandyan sila..." Kausap ko sa kanya at nakita kong tumango sya at kinagat
ang labi nya.
"We will let them go, okay? Papaalisin natin sila..." Aniya sa akin.
"Y-You'll help me?"
"Yes..." He breathe. "I will help you, papaalisin natin 'yung boses, hmm?" I
nodded repeatedly, at humarap sya sa mga nurse na naroon sa likuran bago nagsalita.
"Fix her bed," Utos nya at nagulat ako ng binuhat nya ako kaya napakapit ako sa
kanya. Iniupo nya ako sa higaan ko at nakita kong huminga sya ng malalim at
nilingon ang mga nurse roon.
"I told you to take care of her, right?" He said hardly.
"Opo, Doc kaso naliligo sya 'nun--"
"You should atleast helped her when you heard her screaming inside!" Sigaw nya
at  napapikit ako sa lakas ng boses nya.
"Pero Doc kasi--"

"I saw you, hinahayaan nyo lang ang sigaw nya sa loob!" He
hissed. "Kung hindi ako dumaan dito, huh?! Ano, hahayaan nyo lang sya? What if she
slipped and hit her head?!"
"Papasok na sana kasi kami dapat kaso--"
"You were just chatting! Wala kayong ginawa kung hindi ang tignan ang pintuan!"
He exclaimed at kumalabog ang dibdib ko sa sinabi nya.
"Sorry po, Do--"
"Apologize to her," He said coldly.
"D-Doc?" Nakita kong namutla 'yung isang nurse roon.
"I said, apologized to her..." Ulit nya. I saw his jaw clenching.
"Wala naman kaming ginagawa, Doc..." Giit nung isang babae roon.
"Will you apologize or not? Just tell me..." He said coldly. Nakita kong
nagsikuhan ang dalawa roon, I saw their names from their name tags.
Elisha is the other one while the other one is Lei.
They went infront of me at nakita ko ang peke nilang mga ngiti. I know fake
when I saw one at naramdaman kong hindi nila gusto ang gagawin.
"Sorry..." They said in unison, I saw them rolled their eyes at me kaya tumango
ako at nagbaba ng tingin.
They went out after that, naupo naman sa tabi ko si Doc kaya bumaling ako sa
kanya at nakita kong nakatitig sya sa akin.
"What happened?" Aniya.
"M-May mga boses..." Sagot ko.
"What are they saying?" He asked.
"That I am a killer, crazy..." Mahinang sagot ko. He sighed, nanatili syang
nakatitig sa akin bago tumango sa akin.
"We'll talk about it later, let's eat for now?" Anyaya nya at tumango ako roon
sa kanya. He offered his hand to assist me but we both stop when the door opened.
Sabay kaming napalingon at nakita ko ang seryosong si Dra. Lim na naroon.
"Doc, can we talk?" She asked, hindi manlang nya ako binigyan ng kahit ngiti.
"For?" I saw his forehead creased. "Can it wait? I'll just let Scira ea--"
"This is urgent, Doc..." She said at nakita kong tumango si Thorn at nagsalita.
 "Sunod ako..." He said and when she left ay nilingon ako nito. "Scira,
sorry..."
"Ayos lang..." I answered. Ngumiti ako at pinunasan ang luha sa pisngi ko.
"Sorry din sa abala..."
"I'll be back," Aniya at nagpaalam na sa akin para lumabas. The nurses came
back, hindi nila ako kinikibo kaya hindi rin ako nagsalita.
"Tumayo ka na d'yan, kakain na..." The nurse named Elisha said. Tumango ako
roon, hinawi ko ang buhok ko.
"Go, bilisan mo!" I was starled when the other nurse hissed at me kaya napaayos
ako ng tayo. "Hindi porket na mabait sa'yo si Doc ay ibig sabihin mag-fefeeling ka
na dito..."
"You're here because mas sayad ka, you know, amats?" Ani nung isa at napalunok
lang ako roon. I am doing my best to calm myself, ayokong magwala, ayokong
makaabala...

"H-Hindi ako baliw..." Sagot ko.

"Manahimik ka na nga, nagpapaawa ka lang naman..." Sagot nito at nang lumabas
ako ay kaagad silang sumunod sa akin.
The moment I stepped outside the room ay kinabahan na ako, the nurses doubled,
may nadagdag na dalawang lalaking nurse sa likuran ko habang binabantayan ako.
Tahimik akong naglakad, I saw some people sitting in the bench, nakaupo lang
sila roon at tulala. Some are screaming at hinihila sila at pinapakalma.
I saw the cafeteria at nang makapasok ako roon ay pansin kong tahimik ang
lahat. I stopped. Kinabahan ako roon at nakitang napatingin sila sa akin.
"Bago?" Someone asked.
"Oo, kagabi lang..." I saw a group of doctors in one of the tables.
"Pasok." May bumangga sa may likuran ko at nag-aalangan man ay pumasok ako.
"Dumiretso ka 'dun sa may counter." Utos sa akin ng nurse at pagkatapos ay
iniwan ako para makakain na rin. I walked towards the counter at nang makita ako ay
kaagad na inabot sa akin ang isang plato at baso ng tubig.
"Salamat po..." I smiled but they didn't smiled back, kaagad silang nag-iwas ng
tingin sa akin at hindi nalang ako nagreact at umalis.
Ipinalibot ko ang tingin. I saw an empty table on the side kaya doon ako
lumapit.
I sat in there and observed. Nakita ko ang grupo ng mga doktor na naroon pa rin
at nag-uusap, I saw some of them glancing at me, may iilang pasyente roon.
Most of them are not speaking, mayroong nagsasalita mag-isa at nagulat pa ako
ng makitang may nagsasabunutan roon sa may kabilang gilid.
Inawat naman kaagad sila ng nurse at bumaba ang tingin ko sa pagkain. It was a
cup of rice, a piece of small meat and a few carrots and corns, 'yung nabibiling
sliced na.
I stared at it. Ganito palagi ang pagkain nila rito?
Tumikim ako roon at pagkatapos ay uminom ng tubig. Wala akong gana, I felt full
pero wala naman akong kinain...
I saw someone entering the place. It was Thorn, napangiti ako roon, he was now
wearing his black longsleeves and pants, he wasn't wearing his labcoat this time.
He's wearing his eyeglasses and when his colleagues called him ay kaagad syang
sumaludo roon.
"Doc!" Ani ng mga kasama nito.
He was really kind, his smile is heavenly. 'Yung tipong mapapangiti ka rin.
My smile faded when I saw Dra. Katrin on his side, nakita kong kumapit sya sa
braso nito at nakita kong napatingin roon si Thorn at hindi naman umimik.
I felt my chest stung a bit. Ano kaya itong nararamdaman ko?
Habang nakamasid ako roon ay hindi ko maiwasang mainggit. Maybe, I will be
stuck here forever, kung hindi naman ay baka sa kulungan.
Kumain nalang ako ng walang imik, iilan pa lang ang naisusubo ko ay natigil ako
ng may humila ng upuan papunta sa harapan ko.
 "Doc?" Gulat kong sabi. He smiled and nodded. "W-What are
you doing here?"
Nagkibit-balikat sya sa akin.
"Wala na kasing pwesto..." He answered me, inilapag nya ang plato nya sa
harapan ko at kaagad akong lumingon pabalik sa upuan nya kanina kasama ang Doktor.
I caught them looking at us, nagbulungan pa sila roon at sa pagharap ko kay
Thorn ay nakita ko syang tinutusok nya ang straw sa yakult na hawak at inilagay sa
harapan ko.
"Ayan," He smiled.
"Bakit ka umalis 'dun?" I asked. Sumubo lang sya ng pagkain at nagsalita.
"Wala na kasing upuan," Aniya at nangunot ang noo ko roon. That's impossible,
may isa pang upuan 'dun!
"Meron naman--"
"You don't want me here?" He said at natigilan ako roon. I saw his shoulder
slacked, his lips protruded. "Sige, balik nalang--" Tumayo sya pero hinila ko siya
kaya napabalik sya.
"H'wag..." I stopped him. I saw his ghost smile, nang sinabi ko iyon,
napatingin sya sa kamay ko at napaabitaw naman ako kaagad sa kanya at tumikhim.
"Sige, If you insist..." He said. "Alam ko namang gusto mo ko dito at dahil
mapilit ka--"
"Doc, mayabang ka din e, 'no?" He chuckled. Napangiti naman ako roon at nakita
kong kinagat nya pang-ibabang labi.
"Di naman..." He answered. Bumalik sya sa pagkakaupo ng maayos at napatitig ako
sa Yakult na ibinigay nya sa akin.
"Is this mine?" I asked. Nakita kong sumulyap sya dun at tumango.
"Hmm, that's good for the body..." He answered. "Anyway, 'yan ang ulam mo?"
"Oo, bigay dun sa counter..." Sagot ko.
"Gusto mo?" Aniya. Napalingon ako sa pagkain, his food is different from mine.
Steak ang ulam nya kaya parang natakam ako.
I coudn't remember if I have eaten this but I am craving for it now na parang
paborito ko iyon.
Hindi na ako nakapagsalita at nagulat nalang ng ilagay nya ang ulam nya sa
plato ko. My mouth parted, napatingin ako sa kanya at nakita kong inilagay nya lang
ang daliri sa labi nya para h'wag akong magsalita.
"Akin nalang 'yung ulam mo..." Kinuha nya ang maliit na karne sa pinggan ko at
ngumiti.
Nabalot ako ng pagtataka.
"Why?" I asked.
"Para tumaba ka..." Aniya ng nangingiti. Napatingin ako sa braso ko at nakita
kong dumaan ang tingin nya roon at nagsalita.
"You're too skinny, mas maganda ka kung magkakalaman ka ng kaunti." Aniya sa
akin.
I smiled, medyo pumayat nga ako.
"Sakto lang," I answered. He rolled his eyes, I chuckled at that.
"You know, Scira, h'wag ka nang magreklamo..." Aniya. "Kapag nalaman nilang
nagpalit tayo ng ulam, yari tayong dalawa..."

"Kasi naman, Doc, bakit kailangang magpalit? Ayan tuloy,

kaunti nalang ang ulam mo..."
"Sshh, stop whinning, woman..." Ngiwi nya. "Just eat, bibigyan kita ng everyday
supply ng yakult..."
"Really?" My eyes widen at that.
"Hmm, kaya kainin mo 'yan..." Kaagad naman akong sumubo at natatawang ngumuso
sya at inayos ang salamin nya.
 "Anyway, I haven't introduce myself to you formally..." He said. Nag-angat ako
ng tingin sa kanya. "You're Scira, right?"
"Scira Lopez..." I answered. "Ikaw, Thorn lang ang pangalan mo?"
"Thorn Arzeus Valderama..." He answered me. My mouth parted a bit. Even his
name sounds handsome!
"Doktor ka 'no?" He nodded.
"I'm your Psychiatrist..." He answered. "Papatayin natin 'yung boses sa utak
mo..."
"Talaga?" I asked excitedly.
"Oo, kaya dapat tulungan tayo..." Aniya. "I am not just your Psychiatrist, I
can also be your friend so, you don't have to worry, I will listen to you..." He
offered his hand, akala ko nga ay makikipag-shakehands sya pero nagulat ako ng
makipag-fist bump sya sa akin.
One thing that I admired from him is his kindness and gentleness. He was the
only person beside from my Nanay who treated me like he knew me for so long.
"Doc, do you really believe I am not crazy?" I asked him. Walang pagdadalawang-
isip naman syang tumango.
I saw his black eyes the moment he stared at me, his stubbles make him look
more handsome like those hollywood hearthrobs na napapanuod ko sa telebisyon.
"Yes," He answered.
"Why?" I asked.
"Sa tingin mo ba makakausap kita ng ganito kung sakaling ganun ka nga?" He
said. "Stop saying you're crazy because you're not..."
"But I keep on hearing voices, I am always having nightmares, baka nga totoo--"
"That's probably stress," Natigil ako roon. "People tends to experience that
when they had awful moments in life..." Napatango naman ako roon sa sinabi nya.
I saw him staring at me, probably reading my every actions.
"Then, do you think, pwede na akong umalis dito, kung hindi ako baliw?" I
suddenly asked, he licked his lip and fixed his glasses.
"It'a dangerous, Scira. You have no guardian left and if ever we'll let you go,
mas hindi maganda ang mangyayari sa iyo sa kulungan..." Natahimik ako roon.
"I can't do that, risking you to go outside, you probably don't know how the
cruel world works so it isn't safe for you..." I nodded. I understand him and he's
right, I don't know how the world works so it might scare me.
I was interviewed by the police the afternoon that day, tinanong ako ni Doc
kung kaya ko at umu-o ako pero sa kasamaang palad ay hindi ko nanaman magawa.
When I started speaking ay biglang bumalik sa ala-ala ko ang duguan itsura ng
mga magulat ko, I remembered the man's face who shoot them and that man with a
tattoo. I remembered him showing me about slitting my neck to shut me up.

My hand started trembling again, ang luha ko ay nag-aamba

nanaman sa pagtulo at mabilis na inabot ni Doc ang kamay ko at mahinahong nagsalita
upang sabihing sa susunod nalang.
I slept earlier that night but woke up again because of nightmares.
I was anticipating to see my doctor the next morning but to my disappointment
ay hindi sya pumasok. I was only left with a piece of yakult from him.
I was quiet the whole day, wala akong makausap at tanging ang puting pader lang
ang nakikita ko. This is time that I hated the most, kapag wala kasi akong
nakakausap ay bumabalik ang mga bulong.
Calm down, Scira... Everything's going to be fine...
"Killer..." Napaayos kaagad ako ng upo ng marinig ang salitang iyon.
Calm down... Calm down...
Bulong ko sa sarili pero isang malakas na halakhak ang narinig ko sa tenga ko.
"Kasalan mo, mamatay-tao ka... Hindi mo sila tinulungan..." My body starts
shaking, kaagad akong napatingin sa kamay kong nanginginig at humugot ng hininga.
I tried calming myself, hinawakan ko ang isang kamay ko para tumigil ito sa
panginginig but everytime I'll do that, the whispers intensifies.
 "N-No..." Bulong ko and a scene flashed my mind, it was my Nanay, she was
smiling at me at kasabay nito ang malakas na putok kaya sumigaw ako.
"H'wag! H'wag mo silang patayin!" I screamed. The whispers almost filled my
head at hindi ko na alam kung anong ginagawa ko.
I am screaming, pilit kong tinatakpan ang tenga ko at sinasabunutan ang buhok
ko. Hindi ako mapakali, nang makitang may pumasok ng kwarto ay mas nagwala ako.
Their faces are changing! I saw how their faces turned to the face of the man
who killed my parents at may humawak sa magkabilang-braso ko.
"Let me go!" I screamed but someone dragged both of my feet, pilit akong
pinipirmi at pinapahiga.
"Give her sedative..." A woman said pero hindi ko na makita ang mukha nila. I
screamed, kicked them pero mas humihigpit ang hawak nila sa akin.
I saw a man with an injection on his hand and to my horror, it suddenly changes
to a gun.
"H'wag mo kong patayin!" I screamed and cried but I felt something on my arm at
ang lakas ko'y unti-unting nawala, kasabay nito ang pagdidilim ng paningin ko.
I woke up and felt the heaviness of my chest, I was sweating and my heart is
pounding real fast. I had a nightmare...again.
They called me for dinner at sa paglabas ko palang ay nakita kong ilag sa akin
ang iilang tao roon. I saw someone shouting, ang ibang mga pasyente roon na nag-
aagawan ng gamit at ang iba'y tulala pa rin.
"Sya 'yung killer, diba?" I overheard some nurses talking pero hindi ako kumibo
roon.
I ate food silently at hindi ko na iyon nakalahati dahil wala akong gana.
For days, I was like that, waking up because of a nightmare, breakfast,
maririnig nanaman ang boses, sisigaw at tuturukan nila ako para kumalma ako.

May hand just won't stop shaking, hirap na hirap akong

kumain roon at hindi ako matigil sa pag-iyak.
"E-Excuse me po..." I said to the housekeeper. Naroon sya at naglilinis pero
hindi nya ako pinapansin.
"M-Miss, pwede pong magta--"
"H'wag mo akong sasaktan! May anak ako!" I was starled when she exclaimed that,
natulala ako nang tumakbo sya sa labas ng kwarto ko habang nanginginig sa takot at
nagbaba lang ako ng tingin at hinawi ang luha ko.
Where's Thorn? I wanna see him... Ayoko na dito, natatakot na ako...
I saw the nurse named Lei entered the room at saglit nya lang akong tinapunan
ng tingin at nailing sa akin.
"M-Ma'am, I just want to ask if Doc--"
"Wala sya, nasa Maynila, may inaasikasong mahalaga..." She stopped me.
I bit my lip, itinago ko ang kamay kong nanginginig at kinuyom.
"Kailan sya--"
"Hindi ko alam, ang dami mong tanong!" She hissed at nang umalis sya ay nahiga
nalang ako sa kama at binalot ang sarili ko sa kumot.
The next morning, same scenario, the only difference is that I went to the
garden to get some fresh air.
Habang nakaupo sa bench ay nakita kong may tatlong pasyente roon sa may kaharap
kong parte. I don't know what their condition is.
"Mamaya ngang gabi walang nakaduty na guard!" The lady with short hair said.
"Gaga, paano tayo makakatakas?! Ang taas nga 'nung pader!" The lady with long
hair exclaimed.
"Anong gaga?! Huh, ako?! Gaga ka rin!" She pulled the other girls hair kaya
napakurap ako roon sa gulat.
"Tama na nga 'yan! Gaga kayong lahat!" Pigil sa kanila ng isa pang kasama.
"Ito kasi!" Nagturuan ang dalawa at nagsamaan ng tingin.
"Pst, hoy! May nakakarinig!" The other lady stopped them at kaagad na nanlaki
ang mata ko nang mapatingin sila sa akin.
 "I...I won't tell anyone--"
"Gusto mong sumama?" I stopped when she said that.
"H-Huh?" I blinked.
"Tatakas kami mamayang gabi, walang guard na nakaduty kaya mabilis lang
makalabas." Sabi 'nung may maiksing buhok.
"P-Pero diba...masamang tumakas?" Nagsitawanan silang lahat at ngumiwi sa akin.
"Bago ka lang, ano, Miss?" Tumango ako at tinitigan ko sila ng magtawanan pa.
Are they crazy or what?
"Sa una lang masaya dito, ilang taon na kami dito at hindi masaya! Impyerno
'to! Papatayin nila tayong lahat!" They hissed.
"W-What do you mean?" I asked, fear started to crept on my system.
"Baliw 'yang mga doktor! Wala silang magagawa sa'tin! Siraulo ba tayo? Huh?!"
They exclaimed at me.

"Kaya kong ako sayo, sumama ka na sa amin!" Anyaya nila.

They told me their names, Yeen, Aly and Angelica. Matagal na sila rito, sabi
nila ay five years na.
They stayed here because of mental problems and now, they are somehow good pero
hindi pa rin sila pwedeng umalis dahil hindi pa sila fully-recovered.
One thing is that, they didn't have any guardian, like me.
"Tumakas ka na hangga't maaga pa!" They told me.
"P-Pero kasi..." Nag-aalangan pa ako.
"Ikaw rin, sinasabi ko sa'yo, kung hindi ka man baliw, matutuluyan ka..." And
that caught me off guard. I was feeling nervous again but everytime I keep on
remembering the white walls, even the bed of this place ay binabalot ako ng takot.
So, I've decided to escape. Our plan is to start at twelve midnight, since
walang duty na guard roon sa labas.
I am nervous, pilit kong kinalma ang sarili at nang sumilip sa labas ng pintuan
ay nakita kong walang nurse o bantay manlang doon. I waited at nang makitang
palapit na ang tatlo sa akin ay mas dumoble ang kaba ko.
They swiped the card they're holding at bumukas ang kwarto ko.
"Salamat..." I whispered at mabilis silang tumango at sumenyas sa akin.
I closed the door silently and followed them. Everytime step I take is making
me nervous. Para akong kakatayin habang naglalakad palabas.
It was dark in there, mukhang kabisado 'nung tatlo ang daan samantalang ako
nama'y abot-abot ang kaba. The place becomes more creepy at this time of the night.
Madilim kasi ang pasilyo at kung nasa normal akong sitwasyon ngayon ay baka
nagsisisigaw na ako kapag may nakita akong nakaupo sa bench.
We managed to go outside the place and I saw one of them holding keys.
"Ayan na ba, iyon?" I asked.
"Oo," Sagot ni Yeen.
We were on the way to the gate when we heard a car beeping, kaagad kaming
napaatras. Nagtago kami sa may gilid na pader at nakita naming may biglang lumabas
na guard at bumukas ang gate.
I saw a black car entering the place. Nang makapasok iyon ng tuluyan ay mulinh
isinara ng guard ang gate kaya nagkatinginan kaming apat.
"Maya-maya, pupunta na tayo dun..." Aly mentioned the gate. I nodded, kagat-
kagat ko ang labi ko at humihinga ng malalim.
"Relax lang, Scira, kami bahala sa'yo..." Ani ni Angelica.
"Salamat..." I whispered and when Aly mentioned the gate ay marahan kaming
naglakad roon.
We suddenly heard a sound kaya nagmamadali kaming tumakbo sa kabilang parte ng
lugar. We hid on the wall, nasa pinakalikuran ako at nakita kong paikot-ikot ang
tingin nila.
Nang lingunin ko ang likuran ay napansin kong parking lot pala ang parteng
iyon. It was dark in there at kaagad akong natakot na baka may maaninag sa dilim
kaya dagling bumalik ang tingin ko sa kanila.
 "Ako ang mauuna..." Yeen said, we all nodded. "Bubuksan ko
ang gate at isa-isa kayong susunod sa akin..."
"Ready?"
"Go!" Angelica said at nakita kong tumakbo si Yeen patungong gate. My heart is
beating wildly because of the nervousness.
Yes, I can escape! Hindi na ako dito!
"Ako na!" Aly suddenly said and walked towards Yeen who successfully opened the
gate. I watched them as they walk at hindi na ako mapakali.
Damn, bakit ba ako nahuhuli?!
"Ako na, Scira, h'wag kang kabahan, okay?" Angelica said and when she left me
there ay nakagat ko labi ko.
Pinagmasdan ko syang naglalakad palapit sa dalawang kumakaway at mukha ng
masaya. She was almost reaching them when an alarm echoed.
I was starled. Nanlaki ang mata ko at napatingin sa tatlo na kumakaway.
"Bilis!" Sigaw nila and I did, I moved my feet, readying myself to run but a
grip on my arm stopped me from doing that.
I wash pulled back at napasinghap ako ng tumama ang likod ko sa pader.
"Habulin nyo!" Narinig ko ang sigawan roon at nanlaki ang mata ko.
I was covered by a chest, kumalabog ang dibdib ko roon. The man pushed himself
more, covering me at kinabahan na ako roon.
"S-Sino--"
"Sshh, it's me..." I was beyond shock when I saw Thorn. He was towering me,
nakalagay ang isang kamay nya sa uluhan ko at hawak nya ang braso ko.
"D-Doc..." I murmured. Nakita kong dumungaw sya sa may gilid at sinilip ang
nangyayari doon sa may gate.
Nagkakagulo ang mga tao, nakarinig ako ng sigawan roon.
"Tatakas kami! Tatakas!" My eyes widen, it was Aly's voice!
Dinungaw ako nito, I saw dishveled hair, I saw him wearing his glasses at
nabakas ko ang takot sa mata nya.
"Scira..." He breathe. Mas kumalabog ang dibdib ko roon.
"D-Doc, why..."
"Sshh, they'll hear you..." He whispered, trying his best to hide me.
"P-Pero bakit--"
"They'll just punish you..." Bulong nya. "So, please, cooperate..."
Wala sa sariling napatango ako. Nang makarinig ng mga yabag ay kinabahan ako
kaya napakapit ako sa shirt ni Doc at naramdaman kong humawak ang kamay nya sa
isang kamay ko mula sa braso.
I felt it shaking, naramdaman ko ang marahang haplos nya roon kaya napapikit
ako.
"Hanapin nyo baka may iba pa na nasa parking--"
"No one's in there, George!" Thorn suddenly exclaimed bago pa man makalapit ang
mga lalaki.
"Doc, baka po may iba--" Sumilip ako roon at nakita kong hindi nga ako nakikita
ng mga lalaki dahil sa pader sa may gilid ko at si Thorn sa harapan ko.
"Nothing, I checked it, bumalik na kayo sa loob..." He said.
"Sige, Doc..." Paalam nito at nang marinig ko ang yabag na paalis ay nakahinga
ako ng maluwang.
I almost gasped when Doc pulled away from me. Kaagad nyang hinanap ang mata ko
at natahimik ako roon.
"What are you doing?" He asked, napatungo naman ako at napasulyap sa kamay kong
hawak nya.
"S-Sorry, I was just..." My voice broke. "I'm scared..."
"Mas mapapahamak ka kapag sumama ka sa kanila, they were caught! Paano kapag--
damn..."
My tear fell, he's mad at me, ayaw na rin nya sa akin, di na sya maniniwala sa
akin...
 "S-Sorry... S-Sorry... Di ko naman alam na--"
"Damn it, Scira..." I was starled when he pulled me closer to his body and
hugged me. That made me sob, napakapit ako sa shirt nya at sumubsob sa dibdib nya.
"S-Sorry, Doc... K-Kasi ayoko dito... N-Natatakot ako..."
"I'm sorry..." He suddenly whispered. Naramdaman ko ang haplos nya sa likuran
ko at ang paghugot nya ng hininga.
"I had an emergency trip to Japan, hindi na ako nakapagpaalam..." Nilayo nya
ako sa kanya at nakita ko ang paglamlam ng mata nya.
I saw behind his glasses his midnight black eyes, nakatingin iyon sa akin at
maya-maya'y hinawi nya ang luha sa pisngi ko.
"Are you fine here while I'm gone?" I shook my head. Nakita ko ang paghugot nya
ng hininga bago tumango. "Anong ginawi nila?" He asked me softly.
"I-I am hearing the voices..." Sagot ko. "Tapos sisigaw ako para patahimikin
sila tapos they will come inside to calm me tapos..." He held my hand and caressed
it.
"Come on, tell me..." He encouraged me.
"T-Tapos they will inject something to make me sleep--"
"Fuck..." I saw how he clenched his jaw, his adams apple moved as he ran his
hand on his hair.
"G-Galit ka sakin?" I asked.
He will not believe me anymore, siguro akala nya nagsisinungaling ako...
"Not at you," He answered me, his brows almost met each other. "It's for
myself, I was really worried about you, I should have stayed here and took care of
you..."
The pace of my heart quicken.
"Y-You'll take care of me?" I asked him and I saw how he licked his lower lip
and answered.
"I will..." He said with utmost sincerity, making my heart double its pace.
Napahawak ako sa dibdib ko bago sya lingunin.
"D-Doc, ang bilis ng tibok ng puso ko..." I told him and I saw how his lips
parted. Nilapitan ko sya at hinawakan ang dibdib nya para damhin ang puso nya at
mabilis akong nagsalita.
"Yung sa'yo din..." I murmured at nakita kong napakurap sya at napahawak ng
wala sa sarili sa dibdib nya.
Pinakiramdaman nya ang puso nya at maya-maya'y napatingin sa akin. I saw him
gulped and bit his lip.
"That was weird..." He murmured.

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Kabanata 4

Kabanata 4
Kalat na kalat sa ospital ang pagtakas namin, tho, hindi ako nasama roon. I
don't know what happened to the girls at narinig ko lang kanina na nasa ibang floor
sila ng ospital dinala sa ngayon.
"All we need is to tighten the security," Narinig kong usapan nila roon. I was
just sitting on my usual spot whenever we're having a breakfast at nakita ko pang
sumulyap sa akin si Doc bago nagsalita rin.
"We'll have a meeting later," His voice is what I heard. He was formal, habang
sumusulyap ako sa kanya ay nakita ko kung paano nya ipinapakita ang awtoridad sa
simple nyang galaw.
I have heard that he was the Director of this institution and his family owns
this.
Nagsitayuan sila mula roon sa table kaya napatungo nalang ako at pinagpatuloy
ang pagkain.
I felt ashamed of myself because of what I did, mukhang mapapahamak ko si Doc
sa mga ginagawa ko but I really don't want it here, hindi kailanman ako nakatulog
ng walang bangungot.
Maybe I was not really in the right mind, siguro nga ay baliw na talaga ako.
Maybe those whispers are the proof.
"Here," Halos mapatalon ako sa gulat nang may maglapag ng yakult sa harapan ko.
Nag-angat ako ng tingin at nanlaki ang mata ko sa nakita.
"Doc..." I murmured.
"Morning," He smiled at bumaba ang tingin ko sa inilagay nya sa harapan ko.
"Thank you," I said softly, ininom ko iyon at napaharap sa kanya at nakitang
titig na titig sya sa akin. Napalunok naman ako roon. "Why?" I asked.
"Nothing," He smiled at me. "I just missed you for days..."
That stopped me, naibaba ko ang hawak ko at gulat na napatingin sa kanya.
"You--" I saw him stilled, nawala ang ngiti nya at biglang nagseryoso. He
cleared his throat and looked away.
"Uhm, I need to go..." He said at bago pa man ako makapagsalita ay bigla syang
tumayo.
Halos tumakbo pa sya palabas at napahawak sa batok nya kaya bigla akong
napangiti. Muli akong sumulyap sa ibinigay nya sa akin bago ko ubusin iyon na may
ngiti.
Bumalik ako sa kwarto ko matapos ang kumain, I was sitting on my bed again,
staring at the ceiling.
What to do?
I have to do something to divert my attention from this voices! Kailangang may
kausap ako... Hindi pwedeng ganito...
I decided to went outside, kaagad akong hinarang ng mga nurse kaya nagsalita
ako.
"Uhm, can I go to Doc Thorn?" I asked.
"Bawal, may meeting sya..." Sagot nung si Nurse Elisha. I nodded, kumalabog ang
dibdib ko roon sa lungkot marahil.
"Ganun ba?" I asked.
"Oo, kaya pumasok ka na..." Ani nito sa akin. Umatras na ako papasok sana pero
kaagad akong natigil nang makita ang dalawang nurse na papalapit.
This is the first time I saw them, nakasuot sila ng kulay puting scrubsuit.
"Uhm, is she Scira?" The nurse suddenly asked. She's kinda skinny but she's
beautiful.
"Oo, bakit?" Nurse Lei asked.
"Dr. Valderama wants her in his office..." Ani nung isang nurse rin. She's
pretty too at mukha naman silang mabait.
"Oh?" I saw Nurse Lei's forehead creased. Nagkatinginan pa sila ni Nurse Elisha
bago ako hinayaang sumama doon sa dalawa.

Tahimik akong sumunod sa kanila, I was staring at my

fingers, nakasuot ako ng kulay puting dress na naroon sa kwarto ko at at tsinelas
na pulang ibinigay ni Doc.
"Ikaw si Scira, diba?" Napaangat ako kaagad ako ng tingin at kaagad akong
tumango.
"Hi, Scira, I'm Dhelmira..." She offered her hand. Gulat man ay tumango ako at
napangiti.
"H-Hi..." I smiled softly. It's a first! May kumausap sa akin rito ng maayos
bukod kay Thorn!
"And this is Alexis..." Napalingon ako sa isa roon at napangiti ako.
"Hi..." I waved at her. The nurse smiled, her smiled with her.
"Hi, Scira... Nice meeting you..." I accepted her hand. Matamis akong napangiti
sa kanilang dalawa at hindi ko naiwasang matuwa.
"Sabi ko kasi sa'yo, mabait sya..." Nurse Dhelmira said.
 "Oo na, naniniwala na ako..." They talked at kaagad akong ngumiti sa kanila.
"Tara, pasok na tayo sa opisina ni Doc. Swerte mo, Scira, marami ang gustong
maging psychiatrist 'yan!" Dhelmira exclaimed.
"T-Talaga?" I asked.
"Oo, you're so lucky kasi sya pa pala ang nagpresintang Doktor mo! 'Yung mga
nurse doon, h'wag mo na pansinin, inggit lang 'yun..." Nurse Alexis told me.
I pouted, nagpigil ako ng ngiti at nang buksan nila ang opisina ni Doc ay
kumalabog ang puso ko.
Heart, why are you being like this?
I was smiling as I entered the room but faded when I saw Dra. Lim with him. She
was laughing, nakita ko namang nakangiti lang si Doc habang nakasandal roon sa
lamesa nya.
Something shifted on my stomach, I coudn't even name it at bago ko pa man
maagaw ang atensyon nila ay napabaling sa akin si Doc.
I saw his lips lifted, umayos sya ng tayo roon at nakita kong natigil sa
pagtawa si Dra. at napalingon. Napawi ang ngiti nya.
"G-Good morning po..." I greeted.
"Good morning," She nodded, she looks sophisticated, maganda sya at maputi,
halos magkasingtangkad lang sila ni Thorn.
"Anyway, the meeting, don't forget..." She told him at maya-maya'y tahimik
siyang lumabas.
Nanatili akong nakatayo roon sa may tapat ng pintuan habang nakatingin sa
papaalis na si Dra. I was suddenly feeling uneasy pero nawala iyon nang marinig ang
isang tikhim.
Natigil ako. Kaagad akong napalingon. I saw him looking at me, he was wearing a
blue scrubsuit, his signiture glasses is still on his eyes and his hair is on its
combed state.
"Hi..." I smiled.
"Hi..." He greeted, pumunta sya sa swivel nya at lumapit naman ako roon. "Sit,
Scira..." He said and I did. Naupo ako sa harapan nya at nakita kong may kinuha
syang papel roon sa may desk nya.
"I'll ask you some questions, is that fine?" He asked, still busy finding his
pen.
Hindi naman ako nakapagsalita roon, napalunok ako at napatitig sa mga kamay ko.
"Scira?" Napaangat ako ng tingin sa kanya. "Everything will be fine, it's
me..." He said.
"P-Paano kapag hindi ko nasagot?" I asked, nag-umpisa nanaman akong kabahan. If
it's about the incident ay hindi ko alam kung kakayanin ko.
"It's fine," He smiled softly. "Answer the questions you're comfortable with
and just shook your head if you can't."
"Okay..." I sighed at nagulat ako ng abutan nya ako isang kulay pink na bola.
Naguguluhang kinukuha ko iyon at tinitigan.

"What's this?" I asked and squeezed the ball.

"Stress ball..." He answered me. "If ever you felt like you're not okay then
just squeeze that, it can also help you control the trembling of your hands..."
"Thank you..." I smiled. "Bakit pink? Mahilig ka sa pink?"
He laughed. Umiling sya at sumandal sa swivel nya, I saw how defined his chest
is, humalukipkip pa sya sa harapan ko at napanguso ako nang mas nadepina rin ang
braso nya.
"Meron din ako," Aniya sa akin. "I don't have a certain favorite color, ang
kadalasang gusto ko 'yung black, white, gray... Anything like that..."
"Then why do you have this pinky stress ball?" I asked, pinisil ko pa 'yun at
napangiti.
"I bought that in Manila last time I'm gone," Aniya. "I think you'll need that
so..."
My heart skipped, naweweirduhang napahawak ako sa dibdib ko pabalik sa kanya at
mabilis na nagsalita.
"Doc, my heart's beating fast again..." I told him  at nakita kong napakurap
sya. "Diba 'yung sa'yo din, kagabi?" I asked and he looks taken aback.
Mabilis syang napaayos ng upo at tumikhim.
"Uhm, you're probably happy, right?" He asked. I nodded and smiled. Nakita kong
uminom sya ng tubig habang pinapakinggan ako.
"Yes," I answered honestly.
"Because you're good to me, you didn't judged me rightaway and you're
handsome..." Bigla nyang nabuga ang tubig. My eyes widen when he cough kaya
napasinghap ako.
"Oh my God!" I exclaimed. "S-Sorry, Doc!"
He coughed harder, napahawak pa sya sa dibdib nya habang umuubo at napatayo ako
at hinawakan ang likod nya.
Napatalon sya roon, hinuli nya ang kamay ko at hinawakan.
"N-No..." He coughed, nanatiling hawak nya ang kamay ko roon.
"H-Huh?" I asked pero hinawakan nya ang kamay ko. Maya-maya'y kumalma sya at
napakurap ako nang makitang namumula ang mukha nya.
"D-Doc?" Tawag ko.
"S-Sit..." He cleared his throat and let go of my hand kaya nagtatakang naupo
ako.
"A-Are you fine?" I asked. He nodded, huminga sya ng malalim. He pinched the
bridge of his nose and took a glance.
"You're too honest..." He said at hindi ko alam kung anong isasagot ko. I
blinked. Umayos ako ng upo.
"Is that a bad thing?" I asked.
"No..." Umiling sya pero nabakas ko ang aliw sa mga mata nya. "I was
just...flustered..."
My mouth parted, nakagat ko ang labi ko at tumango ako sa kanya.
"I can't lie to you anyway..." I answered him.
His forehead creased, tumikhim pa sya sa akin at pinasadahan ang buhok nya.
"I can't say if it's a bad thing or not, actually..." He chuckled. "I was just
shocked."
"Diba, totoo naman? You're handsome..." I told him and I smiled when I saw his
cheeks turned red.
"Stop it, Scira..." He said and I laughed.
"Gwapo naman ni Doc, hiya ka?" Asar ko pa at nagulat ako ng sumeryoso sya at
tumingin sa akin. That made me stop, I saw how his black eyes darken, his jaw
moved, his lips protruded at 'yun nalang ang pagsinghap ko nang tumayo sya sa may
swivel.
He put both of his hands on the table and leaned it at hindi ako nakagalaw
roon. Our eyes met, nakita ko ang seryoso nyang mga mata habang nakatitig sa akin.

"D-Doc?" I stuttered, my heart beats weirdly again. He

moved closer, napaatras ako roon pero nanatili syang malapit. I can almost feel his
breath, our nose almost touched but I stayed still.
"You're beautiful..." He suddenly said while looking straight to my eyes. My
cheeks heated up, napalunok ako roon at natulala.
Biglang naman syang tumawa at lumayo sa akin. Gulat lang akong nakatingin sa
kanya, naupo sya sa swivel habang tumatawa, his eyes smiled too and he glanced at
me before clicking his neck.
"Got ya..." He smirked at napatakip ako ng mukha at napasipa.
I'm freaking embarassed!
He was still laughing, nang mag-angat ako ng tingin ay sinamaan ko sya ng
tingin at ngumisi sya sa akin.
"Hate you!" I whinned.
"I'm just telling tha truth!" He smiled. "We can't lie to each other, right?"
Tinapon ko ang stress ball sa kanya at natatawang sinalo nya iyon.
 "Hindi na..." He chuckled. "Come on, let's start..." Aliw pa nyang sabi at
inabot sa akin pabalik ang bola kaya kinuha ko 'yun at nakasimangot pa.
I squeezed it, sumandal ako sa upuan habang nangingiting inayos nya ang papel
at tinaasan pa ako ng kilay.
"Shall we?" He asked at ngumuso ako bago tumango.
"Okay," I answered.
"This is about personal infos first," I nodded. Tumikhim naman sya at inayos
ang salamin bago nagsalita.
"Name?"
"Scira Lopez..." I answered him. He nodded as he write my name on the paper.
"Age?" He asked at hindi na ako nakasagot roon. I bit my lip, mula sa papel ay
napatingin sya sa akin. "How old are you?"
"Uhm, I honestly don't know..." Mahinang sagot ko. His forehead creased.
"What? Why?" He asked. I remained biting my lip and took a deep breath before
speaking.
"I was somehow adopted," I answered. Nakita kong nangunot ang noo nya at
ibinaba ang ballpen nya.

"Can you tell me about it?" He asked at kaagad naman akong tumango at maliit na
ngumiti.
I squeezed the ball, humugot pa ako ng malalim na hininga at bahagyang tumango.
This is one of the dreams I've been dreaming, about the crash, that time when they
found me.
"I..." I started. I saw him put the paper and his pen away and listen intently
at me.
"I don't know how that happened, ang sabi nila sa akin, nakita nila ako sa
gilid ng bangin..." I started. "They rescued me, brought me to their house to take
care of me, tapos nagising ako sa bahay nila, and I coudn't remember anything."
"You mean, you lost your memories?" I nodded. I saw his jaw tightened, he
combed his hair with his fingers and sighed.
"I'm sorry, Scira..." He breathe.
"A-Ayos lang," I smiled a little. "Nanay and Tatay took care of me kahit hindi
nila ako kaano-ano..." Pinisil ko ang bola para pigilan ang panginginig ng kamay
ko.
"S-Sila na nga lang ang nag-alaga sa akin, n-nawala pa..." I smiled bitterly,
ipinikit ko ang mata para kumalma ako.
"Scira..."
"S-Sorry..." Nag-angat ako ng tingin at hinawi ang mga luha ko. "I was too
emotional..."
He remained looking at me, his eyes blazing with a soft emotion.

"It's okay..." Aniya at inaantay akong kumalma bago muling

nagsalita. He gave me a glass of water at nang nakita nyang nanginginig ang kamay
ko ay hinanap nya ang mata ko.
"You don't have to tell everything right now..." Mahinahon nyang sabi. "Don't
force yourself, just calm down..." He sighed.
"S-Sorry," Singhap ko at malamlam ang mga matang nakatingin sya sa akin. He sat
infront of me and nodded.
"It's fine," He hushed me. "You can tell everything if you're ready..."
"Thank you..." I said and he smiled at me. Napapikit ako ng dumaan ang daliri
nya sa ilalim ng mata ko para punasan ang luha ko.
"Anything for you," He said at hinaplos ang buhok ko.
Ilang minuto kaming hindi nag-imikan at nanatili syang nakatingin sa akin. I
dried my tears, hindi naman sya umiimik at hinahayaan lang ako.
"M-May meeting ka diba?" I asked.
"Yes," He answered me.
"P-Punta ka na..." I smiled. "A-Ayos lang ako dito..."
 "Are you sure you're fine?" He asked me, concern was laced on his voice.
"Oo," I answered at nang ngumuso sya ay napangiti na ako at pinakita sa kanya
ang stressball na hawak ko. "I can manage..."
He sighed and stood. Napatingala ako nang guluhin nya ang buhok ko.
"Okay, you stay here..." Aniya at nakita kong inabot nya ang labgown sa gilid.
I gasped when I saw how he wore the gown from his back, its tips flowing in the
air. He actually look like a knight in shining labgown?
I chuckled when I thought of that, nakita kong natigilan sya sa pagtawa ko at
nang sumulyap sya ay ngumiti lang ako.
"Wala..." I smiled.
"Oh...kay?" He said, probably feeling weird about me pero sa huli ay napailing
at pinisil ang ilong ko.
"I'll be back, Scira... You stay here, there are books under my desk, you can
read if you want and there are foods in the fridge..." Aniya at nang magpaalam sya
sa akin ay napangiti ako ng matamis.
He really trusts me that much, he'll leave me alone in his office? Paano pala
kung may masama akong plano? Then, I probably succeeded.
Nang makaalis na sya ay pumunta ako sa hospital bed na naroon lang sa gilid. I
sat in there, swaying my legs. I am squeezing the stressball to reduce the
trembling of my hands.
I wanna tell him everything, about what happened but everytime I'll try, I am
too emotional.
I stayed playing with the ball and swaying my legs. What should I do today?
Ayokong walang gawin, the voices might come back once I am too focused on what
happened again.
Napatalon ako sa gulat nang magbukas ang pintuan ng opisina ni Thorn. Akala ko
ay sya iyon pero natigil ako nang makitang may pumasok na magandang babae.
Kaagad akong napatayo. I saw her eyed me seriously, she stared at me from head
to toe at kaagad na kumalabog ang dibdib ko roon.
"Where's Thorn?" She asked me stiffly, his voice laced with authority.
"Uhm..." I cleared my throat. Itinago ko ang stressball sa likuran ko at
hinarap sya. "He's at the meeting, Ma'am..." I answered.
Her brow raised, I saw her wearing a dark blue dress, her aura screams
sophistication.
I saw her stared at her watch at matapos ay sumulyap nanaman sa akin. I stayed
staring at her, she is really pretty.
"And you are?" She asked.

"Scira po..." I answered. She nodded, nakita kong muli nya

akong pinasadahan ng tingin.
"What are you doing here in his office?" She asked, malamig pa rin ang tono ng
boses nya.
I felt more nervous this time but I tried hiding it. I smiled at her and
answered.
"I'm his patient po," I said. "He left me here so he can attend his meeting..."
"Oh..." Napatango sya, I saw her eyes shifting from an emotion. "Akala ko babae
nya..."
Bigla akong nahiya roon.
"No po," I shook my head and smiled a little.
"I'm Gwyneth," She offered her hand. I was confused for a while when she
smiled, her features soften at that.
"Scira po..." I accepted her hand. She grip my hand at nagulat ako roon.
"Hindi ka talaga nya babae, huh?" She smiled.
Kanina lang mukha syang nakakatakot but now, she actually looked like an angel
to me.
"No po..." I answered.
"OMG!" She exclaimed and I gasped when she pulled my hand for a hug. "I finally
found a friend!" She shrieked.
"Po?" My eyes widen.
"May friend na ko!" She cheered at tumalon-talon kaya gumaya rin ako.
What? What does she mean?
She pulled away, natutuwang hinawakan nya ang balikat ko at ngumiti sa akin.
"I'm Thorn's sister..." She said at nanlaki ang mata ko.
"S-Sorry, di ko alam..." I blinked but she cheered again and held my arms.
"I'm so happy! Kasi kadalasan mga naaabutan ko sa opisina ng lalaking 'yun
'yung mga may gusto sa kanya. They'll pretend to be his patient just to talk to him
kaya iritang-irita ako!" Kwento nya.
Really? May mga nagpapanggap na pasyente?
"It's my first time seeing his office without a woman na nagpapanggap lang!"
"Talaga?" Gulat kong sabi at ngumisi sya bago tumango, she pulled me on a couch
in there so she could talk to me.
"Oo, grabe 'yang lalaking 'yan. Kaya Thorn ang pangalan 'e, kahit mga normal
nagpapanggap na baliw makita lang 'yan. Matinik!" She hissed and that made me
laugh.
"Gwapo kasi 'e..." I said and she rolled her eyes at that.
"Hindi a! Kapag may nagsasabi sa aking gusto nilang mameet 'yang si Thorn
naiinis lang ako. Gwapo daw, e hindi naman!" She seem to be bashing his brother
kaya napatawa ako.
"Mabait naman sya..." At gwapo pa.
"Well," Ngiwi nya. "Anyway, bakit ka nandito pala?"
"Nasa meeting kasi sya, sabi nya dito muna ako para magbasa muna..." I
answered.
She seems to be amused at that. Napatango sya at nagsalita.
"That was new..." She said. "He usually don't let his patients stay on his
place while he was gone..."
E bakit ako?
"But you..." Nanliit ang mata nya at pagkatapos ay ngumiti ulit. "Ang pretty
mo, Scira..."
Nag-init ang pisngi ko roon at mabilis na umiling.
"Totoo!" She exclaimed. "Ang pula ng cheeks mo o tapos ang kinis mo, walang
kapores-pores!"

"Ikaw rin, Ma'am..." Sabi ko nang matitigan sya.

She's pretty! Hawig sila ni Doc sa mga mata, her eyes are black too and her
hair is brownish, just like him.
"Ate nalang... " She smiled at napangiti rin ako.
"Ate Gwy..." I whispered and she cheered at that.
"There! I like you na..." She giggled and hugged me again and I coudn't get any
happier to talk to someone right now.
Someone knocked on the door, kaagad kaming napabaling roon at nakita ko ang
isang lalaki sa labas.
"Wait," She told me at tumayo. I watched her as she opened the door and saw a
man and a child there.
"Honey," She greeted the man and kissed his cheeks.
I think he's her husband and the child is her daughter.
"May ipapakilala ako sa inyo..." She cheered at hinila ang dalawa roon.
"Scira, this is my husband, Ark and my daughter, Kristy..." I smiled when her
husband smiled.
"Nice meeting you..." He offered at tumayo ako para tanggapin iyon.
"Nice meeting you po," Ngiti ko.
"Hi po, Tita! Ako po si Kristy..." Her daughter cheered at kaagad akong
napangiti roon.
"Hi, Kristy!" Ngiti ko at dumukwang. I was shocked when she jumped and hugged
me pero sa huli ay natawa ako at kinarga sya.
 Pumunta kami sa garden ng hospital, the nurses allowed me, nang makitang kasama
ko ang kapatid ni Doc ay walang pagdadalawang-isip silang pumayag.
I saw them taking a bow at them at hila-hila ni Kristy ang kamay ko habang si
Ate Gwy naman ay nakakapit sa braso ko.
We talked about random things, natatawa pa ako nang lagyan ako ni Kristy ng
flower crown.
"Yehey, Tita! You look like a princess na!" Tumalon-talon sya at natawa ako
roon.
"Ang cute mo rin!" I pinched her cheeks and she giggled at that.
"You like Tita Scira, Kristy?" Ate Gwy asked her. Sabay kaming napalingon rito,
at napangiti ako nang mabilis na tumango si Kristy.
"Yes, Mommy! If I grow up, I want to be pretty like her!" She exclaimed, making
us laugh at her.
Hindi nakasagot si Ate Gwy, I saw her staring at our back at kaagad akong
lumingon roon.
My heart skipped a beat when I saw Doc Thorn standing there, his hands is on
his pocket, staring at his family.
"Thorn!" Ate Gwy exclaimed at tumakbo roon.
"Tito! Tito!" Kristy left me and jumped. Napangiti ako ng takbuhin nila si
Thorn na lumaki ang ngiti ng makita sila.
"What are you doing here?" He said, smiling. Natatawang binuhat nya si Kristy
at niyakap ang kapatid nya.
"We're visiting you!" Her sister exclaimed at that.
"Kakakita lang natin 'nung isa araw, huh?" He chuckled at ibinaba si Kristy.
"Syempre, miss ka namin..." Ate Gwy smiled at him. I saw him and Kuya Ark made
a man hug.
"Anyway, Thorn, we entered your office kanina and met this beautiful girl..."
I was stunned when she mentioned that. Kaagad na nalipat ang tingin nya sa akin
at kumalabog ang puso ko nang magsalubong ang mata namin.
"Scira?" He asked, shocked. Nakita kong kumunot ang noo nya sa gulat pagkakita
sa akin.
"She's really pretty! I like her!" Ani Ate Gwy na tuwang-tuwa pa. Nagulat ako
ng lumapit sa akin si Thorn at hinawakan ang siko ko.

"Why are you barging inside my office?" Simangot nya.

"Syempre!" She exclaimed.
"Ayos ka lang?" Nilingon ako ni Doc at halos mapaatras ako sa gulat roon. He
held my arm. "Hindi ka ba inaway nyang babaeng 'yan?"
Before I could even answer ay umeksena na si Ate.
"Hoy, kapal mo! Di ko sya inaaway, huh!" She hissed.
"Malay ko," Ngumiwi si Doc kaya natuwa ako roon. Humigpit ang hawak nya sa
braso ko at tinago ako sa likuran nya.
"What did you tell her?" He asked sharply.
"Lahat ng dumi mo!" She laughed evilly as he cursed.
"Damn you, Ate!" He stomped his feet and I smiled, his back is on my sight.
Nilingon nya akong muli at nakita kong natigilan na sya roon.
I saw him stared at the flower crown on my head and stopped.
"Doc?" I called his attention.
"Huh?" He blinked and stared at me, I saw the intensity of his midnight black
eyes. I stared at them and my breathe hitched when his gaze went back on my head
and back to my face.
"D-Doc?" I asked.
He suddenly looks like he just went back from his reverie.
"I mean..." He cleared his throat. "You didn't believe her, right?"
"I do..." Ngumuso ako.
"Yari ka, Thorn!" Ate Gwy laughed at napasimangot lalo si Doc.
"Anong sinabi sayo, hmm? Inaway ba ako?" Tanong pa nya at hindi ko na nasagot
nang akbayan siya ni Ate at inipit ang leeg nya at hinila.
"H'wag mo ng tanungin!"
"Ate! Aww!" He exclaimed habang ipit-ipit nito ang leeg nya.
"Ikaw huh, hindi ka nagsasabing may pasyente ka palang maganda..." She teased
but Doc just cough and pushed her arms.
"Ate!" He whinned at nang mamutla na si Doc ay tsaka lang sya pinakawalan ni
Ate.
He instantly went back on my side and held my arm.
"H'wag, Scira... H'wag ka maniniwala..." He shook his head and I laughed nang
mabilis syang mapunta sa likuran ko at nagtago nang habulin nanaman sya ng kapatid.
Kristy and I played before they go. Nakatulog na nga sya sa sobrang pagod at
karga lang sya ni Kuya Ark.
"Bye, Scira..." Ate Gwy told me. I smiled at her, she kissed my cheek and
hugged me kaya matamis akong nangiti.
"Bye, Ate... Salamat..." I smiled and she nodded.
"Next time ulit, 'kay?" She told me and kissed her brother goodbye.
"Hoy, Thorn. Alagaan mo 'yan si, Scira! She's my new friend!" Sermon nya sa
kapatid na nakanguso lang at tumatango.
"I always will..." Aniya at halos ipagtulakan na ang kapatid. "Labas na, uwi ka
na..."
"Ihatid mo nga ako!" Aniya at natatawang umakbay sa kanya si Thorn bago
lumingon sa akin.
"I'll just throw this woman out, Scira..." Paalam nya sa akin at natawa ako at
tumango ako roon.
"Hoy!" Ate hissed at smacked his arm at inakay nya ito palabas habang tumatawa.
Kuya Ark waved at me at nakangiting kumaway rin ako sa kanila habang papaalis.
While I was staring at their backs ay hindi ko maiwasang matuwa. They've been
good to me, sana ay makita ko sila ulit.
"Tayo d'yan, babalik na sa kwarto..." Nawala ang ngiti ko nang makita ang mga
nurse ko.

Mabilis akong tumayo at nagsalita.

"Si Doc pa..." I said but they just shook their head at nagulat ako nang
sumenyas si Nurse Elisha at may dalawang lalaking nurse ang humawak sa braso ko.
"You're too talkative, hindi ka marunong magpakita ng respeto, that woman you
are talking too is a Valderama, pag-aari nila ang ospital na 'to..." Ani Nurse Lei
at nang hilahin nila ako papasok ay nalaglag ang flower crown sa ulo ko.
"Yung..." They pulled me kaya sinundan ko lang ng tingin ang bigay ni Kristy at
wala nang nagawa.
"Sa susunod, hindi ka na dapat nakikipag-usap sa kagaya nila, you're just a
patient here..." They told me pero ang utak ko ay naroon pa rin sa bigay ni Kristy.
"Nakikinig ka, Scira?" Mabilis akong lumingon at tumango.
"S-Sorry..." I told them. "P-Pero bakit bawal makipag-usap? Mabait naman
sila..."
"You're a patient here! Respect them!" Ani Nurse Lei sa akin. "Ang you're
crazy! Paano kapag nasaktan mo 'yung anak? Hindi lang ikaw ang mayayari dito!
Tayong lahat!"
Nanahimik ako roon at nagbabawa ng tingin.
Hindi naman ako baliw... And I won't hurt them...
"Hindi porket close kayo ni Doc ay ganyan ang asta mo! You're nothing special
here!" She said at nakagat ko ang labi ko roon.
"Stop it," I cold voice said. Natigilan kaming lahat, napalingon ako at nagulat
ng makita si Doc sa likuran.
"D-Doc?" Nurse Lei said.
"Who told you to talk to my patient like that?" His sharp, cold voice said.
"Doc, hindi... I'm just..."
"You are asking for respect yet you don't give one..." I almost shivered with
his voice. His eyes are cold and his jaw clenching.
"S-Sorry po..." Paumanhin ni Nurse Lei pero hindi manlang sya sinulyapan ng
tingin ni Doc Thorn at lumipat ang tingin nya sa akin.
I swallowed the lump on my throat, nakita kong bumaba ang tingin nya sa braso
kong hawak ng dalawang nurse at nakita kong nagdilim ang mata nya roon.
"Let her go," He said and in instant ay nawala na ang hawak sa braso ko. Hindi
nagsiimikan ang mga nurse sa tabi ko at nakita ko ang pag-igting lalo ng panga nya.
"You can all go..." He said coldly at walang pagdadalawang-isip na nagsialisan
ang natatakot na nurse sa kanya.
Sinundan nya ang tingin ang mga paalis at nang mawala iyon sa paningin nya ay
bumaba ang tingin nya sa akin at nakita kong lumambot ang mata nya.
"Are you alright?" I nodded. He sighed and held his hand.
"Come here," Aniya at marahan akong lumapit sa kanya. I was starled when he
checked my arm and sighed.
"Sorry about them..." Aniya sa akin.
"Ayos lang," I smiled a little. He caressed my arm, bumaba ang tingin ko roon
at nakita ang pamumula ng braso ko.
"Masakit?" I shook my head. He bit his lip and nodded. "Mabilis ka bang mamula
kapag nadidiinan ang balat mo?"
"Oo," I answered. "Minsan kahit hindi sobrang diin, ganyan..." I answered him.
I saw his amused smile before putting my hair at the back of my ear.
"Come on, may papakita ako sayo..." He said and grip my wrist at hinila ako
kung saan.
A small smile left my lips, kaagad akong sumunod rin habang nakatingin sa
likuran nya. He was always there to rescue me and I coudn't get any happier now.

Dumiretso kami sa labas, kaagad kong inabot ang flower

crown na bigay ni Kristy at nagpahila sa kanya. We went at the back of the
hospital, may nakita akong hagdan doon at kaagad akong nilingon ni Doc at ngumiti.
"Saan tayo?"
"Basta..." He answered. "I'll show you my favorite place..."
Bumaba ang kamay nya sa kamay ko para alalayan ako paakyat. Medyo may kataasan
iyon at nang marating ang tuktok ay sinalubong ako ng malakas na hangin.
It was a cold, fresh air at nilanghap ko iyon.
"Dahan-dahan..." He said at doon ko napagtantong nasa itaas na parte kami ng
ospital. It was the roof, walang barrier ang gilid 'nun kaya nakakatakot.
We reached the middle part and amazement fills me when I saw the view below us,
it was almost filled with lights, ang puno roon sa labas ng ospital ay puno ng mga
christmas lights.
The skies are also beautifully darken but the stars give them lights.
"Wow..." I muttered under my breath.
"Sit here," Nilingon ko si Doc at nakita kong inilatag nya ang panyo sa lapag
para makaupo ako.
"Thank you..." I smiled at him at hinawakan nya ako paupo. He sat beside me the
moment I settled myself and stretched his arms.
"Nakakapagod!" He screamed and I saw him yawned kaya napangiti ako.
"Is this your favorite place?" I asked him, our arms touching each other.
Nilingon nya ako at tumango sya, I saw him took a glance at my face and nodded.
"Yes," He answered me. Nang magkatinginan kami ay napakamot sya ng kilay at
nahihiyang nag-iwas ng tingin.
"Weird as it sounds but this place makes me feel something you, I always feel
relax everytime I'm here..." He told me, his hands touched mine kaya napatingin ako
roon.
"Then...why did you brought me here?" I asked, glancing at our fingers almost
touching each other.
"I honestly don't know..." He chuckled. "I just never felt this comfortable to
anyone..."
 My heart skipped a beat, nagtago ako ng ngiti roon.
"Are you comfortable with me?" I asked him. "H-Hindi ka talaga natatakot na
baka baliw talaga ako? W-What if the nurses are right, paano kung bigla kitang
masaktan?" I asked, looking at him. Nakita kong mariin syang nakatingin sa akin.
I saw how his forehead creased when I told him that.
"I'll be the last one to think about you doing that..." He said and ran his
hands on his hair. "You're not crazy, believe me..."
"And yes, I'm comfortable around you..." He said, his eyes blazing with
sincerity. "You?"
"Hmm..." I nodded, smiling as I caught his hand. Mukhang nagulat sya sa ginawa
ko pero hindi sya umimik at hinayaan ko.
"Y-You believe me when no one believes me..." Mahinang sabi ko at hinaplos ang
kamay nya. It was warm against mine. "W-When I was scared, you were there, you will
hold my hand to calm me..."
Natigil ako nang sakupin nya ang palad ko. I watched as he entertwined our
fingers, his calloused hand brushing against mine.
"You're just so pure..." He said, his thumb brushing my hand. "The moment I saw
you... I knew you weren't and will never be that kind of person."
My heart fasten, I wanted to ask him about it but I chose not to. I held his
hand tighter and feel the air touching my skin.
"Thank you..." I whispered. Marahang sumandal ako sa kanya at hinayaan nya lang
ako, instead, he moved his shoulder more to give me place to leaned in.
I can smell his scent from here, musk.
Tinitigan ko ang flower crown na ibinigay sa akin ni Kristy at nakita kong
sumulyap roon si Doc. I touched the flowers with my finger.
"Is that Kristy's?" His husky voice asked.
"Oo," I answered at humiwalay sa kanya ng bahagya. Isinuot ko ang crown sa ulo
ko at matapos ay humarap sa kanya. I smiled cheekily and I saw his mouth parted,
maliit lang ang distansya namin.
"Maganda?" I asked, he didn't answer me. He remained staring, his eyes are dark
yet beautiful like the skies at night.
He was seriously staring at me and that complements his features more. His hair
is dark brown, which is thick and fixed just right to enhance his face.
His eyes were a mesmerising midnight black. His face was strong and defined,
his features molded from granite. He had dark eye brows, which sloped downwards in
a serious expression. His mouth is into a hard line across his face. His perfect
lips ripe for the kissing and I swallowed.
His strong hands, slightly rough and calloused held mine as he stared deep into
my eyes.
"Beautiful..." He said hoarsely. I couldn't help but blush.
"S-Salamat..." Nag-iwas ako ng tingin at tumikhim.
"Sabi ni Kristy parang Princess daw..." I told him bago lumingon but his brows
raised. He suddenly looks like he disagrees a lot kaya ngumuso ako.
"No?"
"Queen," He suddenly said.
"Huh?" I'm confused.
"You looked more of a queen, Scira..." He chuckled. "My Queen..."

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Kabanata 5

Kabanata 5
I woke up bathing with my own sweat again. Hindi ko alam kung anong dapat kong
maramdaman, the dream I dreamt of today is a man, that man who shoot my parents.
I saw in my dreams how he laughed after that. Lumakad pa sya at nagulat ako
nang buksan nya ang cabinet kung nasaan ako nagtatago at itinutok sa akin ang
baril.
I was shaking that time, patuloy na tumutulo ang luha sa mga mata ko when Doc
came, I saw how he get the gun from the man and I keep on screaming.
"Scira!" Thorn screamed and the moment I went out from where I was hiding, I
saw the man pointing the gun on his direction.
"Doc!" I screamed at the top of my lungs and I heard a loud gun shot at napaupo
ako ng makitang nasa lupa na si Doc habang nakatingin sa akin at nakahawak sa
dibdib nya.
"R-Run..." He whispered in soft, sad voice.
"N-No..." I screamed and that's when I woke up.
Tulala ako habang kumakain ng pagkain. That just keeps on bothering me. I am
scared not just for myself but also for his safety.
What if... They'd get him involved? Paano kung mapahamak sya dahil sa akin?
He wasn't here while I was eating breakfast kaya kinakabahan ako. I remembered
my dreams again.
"Scira, pinapatawag ka ni Dra. Lim..." I came back from my reverie when I saw
Nurse Dhelmira infront of me.
"Ako?" I asked. She smiled and nodded.
"Halika, inom ka muna tubig tapos akyat tayo..." She told me.
"Sige..." I nodded a little, uminom ako ng tubig at sumama sa kanila. Nurse
Alexis was also there, ngumiti sya ng makita ako at tumango sa akin.
I saw my nurses pagkalabas pero hindi nila ako inimik at hinayaan akong isama
noong dalawa.
"Nurse," I called Nurse Dhelmira's attention.
"Bakit?" She smiled at me.
"Uhm, do you know where Doc Thorn is?" I asked her.
"Hindi ako sure e, pero hindi ko pa sya nakikita simula kanina..." She told me.
"Bakit, miss mo na?"
"Huh?" Napalingon ako at napakurap. She chuckled and winked at me.
"Gwapo ni Doc 'no?" She teased. "Crush mo?" My cheeks heated up at napasulyap
ako kay Nurse Alexis.
She was smiling at me, more like teasing me.
"Uhm, ano..." I bit my lip to stop my smile.
"H'wag kang mahiya, secret lang natin..." Nurse Dhelmira said at napangiti ako
roon. Siniksik nila akong dalawa, halatang gustong makiusyoso.
"Scira, come on, tell us..." Nurse Alexis told me. Parehas silang kumapit sa
braso ko kaya napakagat ako ng labi at sumulyap sa paligid.
"Secret lang?" They both nodded at napatikhim ako at unti-unting tumango.
"Oo..." I whispered but they cheered. Nagulat ako ng tumalon-talon sila sa tabi
ko.
"Ayiiee!" They both giggled and my cheeks flushed.
"H'wag kayo maingay!" I told them. Mas naghagikhikan nanaman sila at mas inipit
ako.
"I knew it!" Nurse Alexis cheered.
"Yummy 'no? Grabe ang biceps, mamsh! Not just the face, pati 'yung body and
soul pa! Yummy like Thoron!" Nurse Dhelmira cheered and I laughed at that.

"Thoron?" I laughed.
"Yes!" She cheered. "Diba, Alex? Yummy 'no?" Nang tumango si Nurse Alexis ay
nagtititili nanaman sila roon.
My cheeks heated when they teased me again, natatawang nailing ako at
pinapatahimik sila pero ayaw nilang kumalma.
"What's going on here?" A woman's voice is what I heard. Napabitiw sila sa akin
at sabay kaming lumingon.
"Dra..." They called. I saw the beautiful Dra. Katrin Lim on his black dress,
nakapatong ang labgown nya sa balikat at seryosong nakatingin sa amin.
"What is the commotion about?" She asked stiffly, her face was straight.
 "Wala po..." Ani Nurse Alexis na napawi sa tuwa.
"Then why are you so loud?" She asked and I was starled at that.
"Sorry po," Nurse Dhelmira apologizes then lowers her head.
"Next time, ayokong nag-iingay kayo. This place is a private hospital and not a
marketplace." Pagalit nya at nakita kong iritang-irita sya.
It was different from the first time I saw her, she was good that night while I
was transferring here but now... She looks strict.
"Sorry, Dra..." They apologized at wala akong nabakas na ngiti sa labi nya. Her
glance shifted on my direction kaya napaayos ako ng tayo.
"Scira, follow me..." She said and turned her back kaya napakurap ako. I saw
the nurses nodded at me kaya tumango ako at dahan-dahang sumunod kay Dra.
I was nervous, alright. Ngayon lang kami makakapag-usap ng ganito and I don't
even know what this is all about so I was kinda scared.
I followed her silently. Her heels making a sound at mas lalo akong natakot
roon.
We entered a room, nakita kong nasa CCTV room kami napunta. I saw a man on the
computer at nang lingunin ako ni Dra. ay lumapit ako.
"Review the CCTV, Josh..." She said at lumingon sa akin. "Watch the footage and
explain."
Naguguluhan man ako ay tumango ako at lumingon sa screen. I was starled when I
saw Aly, Geen and Angelica going to my room.
Oh my God... That was when we planned to escape!
I saw how they opened my room and I went out with them at humarap ako ng
bahagya sa camera.
"Stop it." The video was paused and I began feeling nervous at that.
"Care to explain, Scira?" Her sharp voice is what I've heard.
"S-Sorry po..." Mahinang paumanhin ko. My hand started shaking so I hid it on
ny back.
"Sorry?" She laughed at that. "You think hindi ko malalaman ito?"
"H-Hindi ko po sinasadya..." I whispered but she cursed and shook her head.
"Not because Thorn is fond of you doesn't mean you have the right to do
everything you want!" Her voice roared.
Tears pooled on my eyes, scared of her.
"Dra... I'm sorry... A-Alam ko pong mali ang nagawa ko..."
"The three girls are at the isolated room because of what they did but you?"
She pointed me. "You were roaming around this place like you did nothing wrong!"
She hissed at me.
"And what? You like Thorn?" She cocked her head and eyed me angrily.
"He'll never like someone like you..." She mocked me. "Hindi kayo bagay, what
you are dreaming is utterly disgusting. You are a killer, woman. Dinala ka rito
para tumino at hindi ang maglandi!"

I sobbed at that. Napatungo ako at ikinubli ang nanginginig

kong kamay habang lumuluha.
That hurt my chest so much.
"S-Sorry po..."
"I don't want you pestering him around! He was good to you because you're his
patient and nothing special..." Mariing sabi nya.
"You know what? Once he's done diagnosing you, you will be thrown in the
prison!" She hissed at kinagat ko ang labi para matigil ang pagluha at paghikbi ko.
"Stop crying!" She hissed at nang mag-angat ako ng tingin ay nakita ko ang
talim ng mga mata nya. "Tanggapin mo na, you will be out here as soon as possible
and he'll never like you so stop your bullshit dreams of happily ever after!"
I breathe hard, doing my very best to stop my sob.
"And know what?" She eyed me from head to toe, bitching out. Nahihiya na ako
doon sa lalaki sa gilid na tahimik lang pero nakikinig.
"I'm his girlfriend..." She muttered and smirked. "And we're getting married
soon, so, stop dreaming..."
That was more painful than I thought it was. My trembling hands are
unstoppable, miski ang mga luha ko ay patuloy na umaalpas habang humihikbi.
"Go back to your room. Ayokong may makarinig sa pinag-usapan natin,
naiintindihan mo?" I nodded and when she mentioned the door ay kaagad akong
lumabas.
I ran when I went out, sobbing. Nakatungong tumatakbo ako at napasinghap nang
mabunggo.
Bumagsak ako sa lapag at mas napaiyak roon.
"Shit..." A baritone voice cursed, mabilis itong dumukwang and I was starled
when I saw Doc Thorn infront of me.
He looks shocked seeing me, his forehead creased and his lips was on a straight
line.
"Scira?" He whispered. I sobbed at that, nang akmang hahawakan nya ako ay
umatras ako at nakita ko ang pagtataka sa mga mata nya.
"Come here..." He said softly, reaching me at bago pa man nya ako maabot ay
dali-dali akong tumayo.
"S-Sorry, Doc..." I bowed a little and I saw how confuse he was. His mouth
parted, his black eyes darken as he stared at my tears.
"What happened?" He asked at akmang hahawakan ako pero umatras muli ako.
"Scira..."
"W-Wala po..." Mahinang sabi ko. "P-Pasensya na po sa abala..." I whispered at
bago pa man sya makapagsalita ay mabilis na akong tumakbo palayo sa kanya.
He called me but I ran faster, hikbi lang ang naririnig ko sa akin at ang
pananakit ng puso ko.
I went back to my room, mukhang nagulat ang mga nurse ko sa itsura ko but they
didn't said anything and let me in.
Tumakbo ako sa kama ko at humikbi. I covered myself with the white sheets and
sobbed.
Ayoko na... Ayoko na rito...
My heart is constricting in pain, because of myself and for the thing I've been
feeling for Doc. I was such a disappointment, I was naive...
Why am I thinking about my feelings for my Psychiatrist? I was really
disappointed of myself.
I keep on sobbing and the moment I heard the door opening ay hindi ako
natahimik. I don't care...
My trembling hands didn't stop shaking as I held it tighter. I sobbed and shook
my head.
Calm down... Calm down, Scira, please...
I keep on whispering to myself.
I was shocked when my blanket was suddenly removed from my body. Napamulat ako
at 'yun nalang ang pag-awang ng labi ko nang makita ko si Doc.

"Hey..." He hushed me at mas naiyak lang ako roon. Hinila

ko ang kumot pabalik sa mukha at humikbi roon.
"Scira..." He whispered. Sinubukan nyang alisin ang kumot sa mukha ko pero
hindi ako natinag.
"G-Go away..." I whispered.
"No..." He answered me. Nakipag-agawan pa sya sa akin pero hindi ako
nagpakahina.
"What happened?" His soft voice asked me, nang mahila nya ang kumot ay nagulat
ako ng makita kung gaano kalapit ang mukha nya sa akin.
I almost gasped at his face, he looked really worried but then I remembered
Dra. Lim.
"B-Baliw ako..." Sabi ko. "H'wag ka nang lalapit sa akin. I-I might hurt you,
I'm a killer..."
I saw how his eyes darken, his forehead creasing and his eyebrows almost
touched each other as he looked deeply at me.
"What the hell are you saying?" He said darkly.
"H-Hayaan mo nalang ako..." Bulong ko. Hinila ko ang kumot.
"No." He answered deeply and pulled the blanket back. Hilam pa rin sa luha ang
mga mata ko.
"Who told you that?" Mariing tanong nya. I shook my head and hid myself but he
managed to pull my hand.
My face was hidden but he was holding my right hand.
"Scira..." He called me.
"Wala..." Bulong ko, I felt his fingers opening my hand on fist. Nang mabuksan
nya ang isa ay kinuyom ko ulit ang kamay ko kaya napabuntong-hininga sya.
"Nakakapagod akong bantayan diba?" Bulong ko. "So, please... Just let me go...
Mamatay tao naman ako,"
"That's bullshit..." Mariing sabi nya.
"I-I'm a killer, baliw ako... A-Ayokong mapahamak ka sakin..." Bulong ko habang
umaalpas ang luha sa mga mata ko.
I was staring at the blurred sheets covering my eyes.
"You are not. Shut up." He hissed, impatient.
"I-I was just using you to have special treatment here..." Bulong ko. Please,
just go away... Nahihiya ako sa sarili ko.
Hindi sya nagsalita roon at pinilit pa ring buksan ang palad kong hawak nya.
"Wala naman talaga akong silbi... I-Ipapahamak lang kita... T-Tapos baka kung
anong isipin nila n-na ano--"
"You want mo to kiss you?" He said sharply.
Natahimik ako. My heart pumped faster.
Mabilis akong umiling at suminghot.
"Then, don't trigger me, woman..." He said coldly. "You are not what they're
saying, understand?"
Hindi ako sumagot roon.
"You are not a killer, hindi ka baliw. You are not that useless shit you are
saying." He said sharply.
"T-Talaga namang--"
"I will fucking kiss you if you won't shut up." He stopped me.
"P-Pero..." He pulled the sheets and my eyes widen at that. I saw his dark
eyes, mariin ang titig nya sa akin at natuyuan ako ng lalamunan roon.
"You saying?" He asked at nag-iwas ako ng tingin at hinila ang kamay ko sa
kanya. I dried my tears at akmang hihilahin ulit patakip sa mata ko ay inunahan nya
ako.
He pulled the sheets away and caught my hand.
"Stop it, my Queen..." He breathe and my throat went dry.

"D-Doc..." I murmured.
"Hmm?" Aniya na parang walang ginawa at napatingin ako sa kamay kong
pinaghihiwalay nya mula sa pagkakakuyom.
"A-Aren't you tired of me?" I whispered.
"What are you saying?" Iritang sabi nya at isa-isang inalis ang mga daliri ko
sa pagkakakuyom.
"N-Nakakahiya na sa'yo, y-you're the director here yet, I am acting like I'm
importan--"
"You're important..." He cocked his head and I saw how he filled the gaps
between my fingers with his fingers.
It was still trembling but it stopped the moment he held it. Nakita kong
sinilip nya ang isang kamay ko at inabot gamit ang kaliwang kamay at hinawakan.
"I don't like you crying like that..." He murmured, his eyes laced with
concern.
"K-Kasi..."
"Stop it," He shook his head and I saw his jaw clenched. "Tell me who made you
cry?"
I shook my head at nakita kong nangunot ang noo nya.
"Scira..." He warned me.
"W-Wala..." I answered. "A-Ako lang, nahihiya lang ako sa sarili ko atsaka
sa'yo..."
"You're unbelievable," He shook his head.
"Come here, tumayo ka d'yan..." Aniya. I was confused for a while but he stood
at inalalayan ako. Marahan nya akong inalalayan paupo ang nakita kong inayos pa nya
ang dress ko para makaupo ng maayos.
I was sitting on the bed while he was standing infront of me, ibinaba nya ang
kamay ko sa hita ko. I noticed it and it wasn't trembling anymore.
"Look at me..." Aniya at marahan akong nag-angat ng tingin.
He gritted his teeth when he saw my tears, naramdaman ko ang daliri nya sa
ilalim ng mata ko at tinuyo ang luha ko.
"There's nothing wrong about you," He explained. "And I am treating you special
because you are..."
My heart pound and I bit my lip.
"A-Am I?"
"Yes," He said and caressed my hair. "Kaya h'wag kang papaapekto sa sinasabi
nila..."
"S-Sorry... I was just..."
"Ssh, you only believe me, okay?" He caught my chin and caressed it.
I pouted at nagbaba ng tingin.
He sighed. Nagulat pa ako ng bahagya nya akong yakapin kaya sumandal ako sa
dibdib nya. His breathing is hard and fast and I encircled my arms on his waist.
"D-Doc..."
"Yes?" He asked in a low voice. Hindi ako sumagot at humaplos ang kamay nya sa
buhok ko.
"The queen is crying, I don't want that..." Mahinang sabi nya.
Hindi pa rin ako naglalalapit sa kanya kahit matapos iyon, lalo na nang makita
ko ang talim ng tingin sa akin ni Dra. Lim habang kumakain ako ng tanghalian.
Doc Thorn wasn't here and I somehow wishing he was here to protect me...
Nagbaba ako ng tingin at tinitigan ang pagkain ko.
Pagkatapos kumain ay naglakad ako palabas at nakita kong naroon si Dra. Lim at
Doc Thorn at nag-uusap sa may lobby ng ospital.
I don't want to eavesdrop but I saw myself walking towards them. Sumilip ako
roon sa kanila and to my horror, I saw a familiar man with them.

I-It was the man with a tattoo on his neck! Nakita kong
kausap nya ang dalawa at hindi na ako mapakali roon.
"Is she crazy?" The man asked him. I saw how Doc's jaw clenched.
"Why are you asking that?" He asked, his voice's cold.
"The mayor was worried when he found out about the incident last time, he was
worried about her, kung anong nangyari talaga."
"And why is he worried?" He asked, his forehead creased.
"They were a resident here, kaya nagtatanong sya. Ano, baliw ba?"
"No..." I saw him gritted his teeth. "It was just stress, trauma for what she'd
encountered..."
"Then, kapag napatunayang wala syang sala, anong mangyayari?" He asked and I
trembled at that.
"She'll be free..." He answered but I saw his jaw clenching. "Why is that? Why
are you so concern about her? She's my patient..."
"Nothing," Ngumisi ito and I shivered. "The mayor just want to take her if ever
she's not guilty..."
"What?" I saw his eyes darkening, I saw his hand formed a fist at nakita kong
inabot iyon ni Dra. Lim.
"Kukunin namin sya--" Hindi ko na pinatapos ang sasabihin nito ay tumakbo na
ako palayo.
I heard whispers again as soon as I ran away.
N-No, ayoko... Hindi ako pupunta sa kanila...
It's better if I'll be on jail... Papatayin din nila ako, just like what they
did to my parents...
T-Tatakas ako... That's what my mind is telling me.
I found myself at the garden, tulala ako roon at nag-iisip ng pagtakas ko. I
have to go out, I want to be out of here!
Kukunin nila ako! They'll kill me just like how they killed my parents!
I thought about horrible things, the scene of that day flashed on my mind and I
trembled. Mahigpit akong napahawak sa dress ko at humugot ng hininga.
Kailangan kong tumakas, a-ayoko na rito... Ayoko na sa puting kwarto... If I'll
stay here for too long then they'll take me, tapos papatayin ako.
I saw my nurses chitchatting, mabilis akong lumingon sa mga tao roon sa paligid
at napansing walang nagbabantay sa akin.
I stood, marahang naglakad paalis na parang normal lang. Once I was out of
their sight ay mabilis akong sumilip roon sa may gate.
I saw the guard there, sleeping. Nang makita kong may isang doktor na kinausap
sya ay umayos sya ng upo.
I saw them talking. I saw the doctor pointing at the gate na mukhang lalabas
sya.
That's when I thought of a plan to escape. I will go to that door after the
doctor!
I saw the guard nodded, nakita kong binuksan nya ang gate at lumabas roon ang
doktor. He left for a while after that at inilibot ko ang tingin bago humugot ng
hininga.
Go, Scira...
That's when I ran. Napahugot pa ako ng hininga ng makatapak sa labas ng
ospital.
"Ayun sya!" I stopped when I heard that, sa paglingon ko ay nakita kong
nagtatakbuhan ang mga nurse ko kaya kumalabog ang dibdib ko.
I ran faster at sumunod sila sa akin.
"Habulin nyo!" I heard someone shouted.
No... No... I have to get out of there! They'll kill me!

I ran faster, at sa bawat rinig ko ng yapak nila sa likuran

ko ay halos maiyak ako sa kaba.
They shouldn't catch me! Hindi na ako babalik roon.
I screamed when I fell on the ground. Nadapa ako at napasinghap roon.
"Ayun!" I tried standing but I can't. My body's shaking and I didn't had the
chance to run when they caught me.
The nurses held both of my arms as I tried screaming and pushing them away.
"Let me go!" I screamed.
"Shut up!" The man hissed but I keep on wiggling.
"P-Papatayin nila ako!" Bulong ko at kumawala pero hindi nila ako hinayaan.
"Tangina, malakas na ata ang saltik ng baliw na 'to..." I shrieked as they try
to pull me.
"N-No, please... Parang-awa nyo na..." I cried. "I-I'm not crazy, they'll kill
me..."
"Shut up!" I was in horror when I saw the other man let me wear a cloth.
Binalot nila ako roon but I keep on screaming.
They held both of my arms, crossed it around my chest and I coudn't move! I
cried, trying my best to let go but they just don't listen!
P-Please... Ayoko na...
I shook my head as they pulled me back to the hospital. No, paano kung nandito
pa ang lalaki? Kukunin nya ako!
No... Hindi na ako babalik dito!
 I screamed as the men dragged me. Hawak nila ang magkabilang braso ko at
hinihila ako papasok.
"N-No! Bitiwan nyo ako!" Sigaw ko at pilit na kumakawala.
"H'wag ka ng pumalag, Miss!" Ani ng isa at hinatak pa ako.
I cried, nararamdaman ko ang pagtulo ng luha ko habang hinihila nila ako.
Nanlalabo na ang mga mata ko sa kaiiyak pero hindi nila ako binibitiwan.
"Bitawan nyo ako!" Histerikal na sigaw ko at halos kilabutan nang makitang muli
ang puting mga pader ng institusyong ito.
Hindi! Hindi ako babalik rito! Nakatakas na ako!
"H'wag kang gumalaw masyado!" Sigaw ng isa. Nakita kong nakasunod sa amin ang
mga guard na humabol sa akin kanina kasama ang mga nurse.
"Ayoko dito! Bitawan nyo ako!" Sigaw ko. Pilit kong iginagalaw ang mga kamay ko
pero hindi ako makawala sa tela kung saan nakakulong ang kamay ko para hindi ako
makalaban. Naka-krus ito sa may dibdib ko at kahit anong galaw ko ay hindi ako
makawala.
Pero kahit anong sigaw ko ay hindi nila ako pinakinggan. Kinilabutan ako habang
nakatingin sa pasilyo, ang mga puting ilaw na miminsa'y namamatay.
Ang mga kulay puting upuan sa gilid at ang mga kwarto na may maliit na salamin
para makita ang nasa loob mula sa labas.
Nakita ko ang pagkalampag ng tao mula roon sa loob habang dumadaan kami. I saw
how they tried to knock the door and shouted but I can't hear anything!
Ang naririnig ko lang ay ang malakas na tibok ng puso ko, ang takot na
nararamdaman ko, ang luha sa mga mata ko at ang pawis na tumatagaktak sa noo ko.
"Parang-awa nyo na! Pakawalan 'nyo ako!" Suminghap ako at umiyak. Pinilit ko
silang sipain pero nakaiwas sila.
"Pwede ba, Scira! Sumama ka nalang!" Pero hindi ako sumunod. Sumigaw ako at mas
lalong napahagulgol.
"Bilisan natin at mapapagalitan tayo kapag nalamang nakatakas nanaman 'yan!"
Sigaw ng guard sa likod.
Mas lalo akong natakot. Parang naghahallucinate na ako habang nakatingin sa
paligid. Ang mga taong nakaputi! Ang injection at 'yung lalaki!

"Hindi ako baliw!" Sigaw ko. Kumawala pa akong muli.

"Baliw ka! Manahimik ka nga!" Sinigawan ako ng isa.
"H-Hindi ako baliw!" Umiyak pa ako. "Parang-awa nyo na, hindi ako baliw!" Sigaw
ko.
Umiyak ako ng umiyak na halos ikabingi nila pero wala akong pakialam. Walang
gustong maniwala sa akin!
Gusto kong sumigaw at magmakaawa para paniwalaan nila ako pero walang sino man
ang gustong makinig sa akin.
"Patahimikin 'nyo ito pagpasok! Magagalit nanaman kapag nag-rounds dito si
Doc!" Sigaw ng isa.
Halos mamugto na ang mata ko kakaiyak at kakasigaw. Gusto kong makalaya! Gusto
kong tumakas!
"Please! Please! Hindi ako baliw! Parang-awa nyo na!" Pero hindi nila ako
dininig at mas humigpit lang ang hawak sa braso ko. Nang makita ko ang kamay ng
isang nurse na malapit sa akin ay kaagad akong tumungo at kinagat iyon.
"Shit!" Sigaw nya at mabilis akong nabitawan. Nagpanic sila sa ginawa ko at
mabilis kong sinipa ang isa na nagulat kaya nabitawan ako.
They shouted and tried to chase me but I ran. I ran as fast as I can.
"Bumalik ka dito!" Nakita ko ang paghabol sa akin ng guard pero tumakbo lang
ako.
Patuloy na tumakbo ako pero kaagad akong nabuwal nang may mataman, dahilan para
mapasalampak ako sa sahig.
I heard their steps, naiyak ako habang nakaupo. Nahihirapan akong makatayo
dahil sa sakit ng balakang ko.
Wala na, aabutan na nila ako! Ayoko na sa puting kwarto! Hindi ako baliw! Ayoko
pang mamatay!
"What the hell is happening?" It was a cold, hard voice. I heard their steps
stopped. Napahagulgol lang ako.
"D-Doc kasi..." Mabilis akong nag-angat ng tingin at umawang ang labi ko nang
makita ang lalaking may itim na mga mata.
Nakasuot sya ng scrub suit at kulay puting labgown. May hawak syang chart at
mas salamin sa mga mata nya.
"D-Doc..." I called him. Mabilis syang nagbaba ng tingin at nang makita ako ay
umawang ang labi nya at nangunot ang noo nya.
"What the hell did you do to her?!" Galit na sigaw nya sa mga guard at kahit
ako ay natakot sa boses nya.
"K-Kasi Doc, ano..." Hindi na nila natuloy ang sasabihin nila ng biglang
lumuhod sa harapan ko si Doc at hinanap ang mata ko.
Nang magkasalubong ang mga mata namin ay nawala ang takot ko at kumalma ang
puso ko.
"D-Doc! D-Doc, please, hindi ako baliw..." Suminghap sya sa sinabi ko at
napahagulgol ako.
"Sshh, I know, Scira... Hindi ka baliw..." Napaiyak akong lalo sa sinabi nya.
He believes me! Hindi ako baliw! Palagi syang naniniwalang hindi ako baliw!
"H-Hinuhuli nila ako! Hindi ako baliw!" Napatungo ako. Mabilis naman nyang
inabot ang baba ko at hinanap muli ang mga mata ko.
"Sshh, calm down..." Aniya. Mabilis nyang hinanap ang zipper sa damit ko para
makawala ang kamay ko sa pagkakakrus sa dibdib ko at binuksan.
Nang makawala ay bigla ko syang niyakap. Halos mabuwal naman sya sa ginawa ko
pero mabilis na nakasuporta kaya hindi sya natumba.
Yumakap ako sa leeg nya. Umiyak ako ng umiyak. Sya naman ay kinakalma ako at
tina-tap ang likod ko.
"Calm down, Scira..." Bulong nya. "Hindi ka baliw, okay?" Paulit-ulit akong
tumango.
"Now," Marahang humiwalay sya sa akin at pinunasan ang mga luha ko. "Come with
me,"

"D-Dadalhin mo ako sa puting kwarto? Ayaw ko 'dun!" I

exclaimed in horror. Nanginginig ang katawan ko.
"No, no..." Umiling sya at hinawi ang buhok ko. "Pupunta ka sa opisina ko,
huh?"
"A-Anong gagawin ko 'dun?" Tanong ko.
"May pag-uusapan lang tayo, ayos lang ba?" Mabilis naman akong tumango at wala
akong maramdamang takot sa sinabi nya.
"Okay, salamat..." He smiled. Nakita ko ang pagngiti ng mata nya at mabilis
syang tumayo at inilahad ang kamay sa akin.
"Come on, I'll help you..." Mabilis na iniabot ko ang kamay ko sa kanya at
mabilis syang umalalay sa akin ng ininda ko ang sakit sa balakang ko.
"Are you alright?" Marahang tanong nya. Umiling ako at tinitigan nya ang mata
ko. Napabuntong-hininga sya at nangunot ang noo bago bumaling sa guard na naroon.
"Where are her nurses?" Matalim nyang sabi at doon ko nakita ang hinihingal na
mga nurse na may hawak sa akin kanina.
I saw how his stares brought horror to them.
"I will talk to you later. Go to my office." Mariin, galit at may halong lamig
na sabi nya bago hawakan ang pulsuhan ko.
"Are you okay, Scira?" Aniya na lumambot ang mata.
Tumango naman ako at hinanap ang mata nya. "N-Naniniwala kang hindi ako baliw?"
Tinitigan nya ako at halong kaba at takot ang naramdaman ko ng hindi pa sya
nakakasagot.
"Of course, I believe you..." He blurted out. Unti-unting sumilay ang ngiti sa
labi ko at napanatag ang loob ko. Hinawakan naman nya ang pulsuhan ko bago ako
marahang hawakan at inalalayan papunta sa opisina nya.
 "Scira, are you fine?" He asked me eagerly with his creased forehead.
I bit my lip and lowered my face.
"Hey..." His soft voice whispered. "Answer me, do you have wound? Did they
dragged you harshly?"
"H-Hindi ako baliw..." I whispered back and stared at him.
He sighed. Mariing tingin ang ibinigay nya sa akin kaya nangilid ang luha ko.
His dark black eyes meeting my black ones, his eyes raging with rage and concern.
"You're not..." Mariing sinabi nya.
"Y-You believe me?" I asked him, shaking.
"I always do..." He gritted his teeth, his jaw clenching. "Only believe in me,
okay? You are not crazy... Diba, sinabi ko na sa iyo kanina?"
My heart pound. Napahawak ako sa dibdib ko at hinanap ang mata nya.
"D-Doc, mabilis 'yung tibok ng puso ko..." Mahinang sabi ko.
He took a glance at me, his facade slowly disappearing.
I saw the side of his lips lifted. Umayos sya ng upo at napakurap ako ng ilagay
nya ang kamay sa itaas ng ulo ko.
He patted my head slowly.
"That's normal..." Aniya na may ngiti sa labi. "Are you feeling happy right
now?" I nodded, staring at him.
"Oo..." Because you always believe me.
"That's why your heart's pounding that fast..." Mahinang sabi nya.
I bit my lower lip at napamaang sa kanya nang dumampi ang daliri nya sa ilalim
ng mata ko. He wiped my tears softly that I almost grasped for air.
"Don't cry..." Aniya. "You only believe me, okay? Hayaan mo sila. You're not
crazy, I believe you..."

The pace of my heart doubled. Halos marinig ko na ito sa

pagkabog ng malakas at nanatili sya sa paglinis ng mukha ko mula sa mga luha na
nag-umalpas kanina.
"N-Naniniwala kang hindi ko sila pinatay..."
"Yes," Walang pagdadalawang-isip nyang sabi sa akin.
"I will always believe you despite of what they're saying..." Aniya at hinaplos
ang pisngi ko.
"D-Doc, papatayin nya ako..." Bulong ko.
"Who?" Pumikit ako ng mariin at humugot ng hininga.
"Come on, my Queen..." He breathe. "You'll be safe with me, no one's gonna hurt
you..."
I was about to open my mouth to speak nang may kumatok sa pinto at pumasok ang
isang hinahapong staff.
"Doc, emergency! Sa room 201!" She exclaimed. Mabilis na umayos ng tayo si Doc
at inayos ang salamin nya.
Humiwalay sya sa akin at mabilis na hinablot ang inilapag sa labgown sa
hospital bed. My mouth parted when he flawlessly wore his labgown from his back,
its tips floating freely in the air.
"Copy." He said and took a glance at me. Napaayos ako ng upo.
"Stay here, I'll be back..." Aniya at nawala sa paningin ko.
I think nababaliw na nga talaga ako, my mind was in chaos. Dumiretso ako sa
kwarto at nagkulong roon.
I suddenly remembered what the three girls told me at our first attempt to
escape.
Hindi man ako baliw ay mababaliw ako rito.
Nananakit ang ulo ko at nanginginig ako sa takot.
Whispers was back again, I think someone is beside me. Hindi ko alam, they
keeps in ruining my mind that I covered my ears.
Stop... Stop, please...
I keep on sobbing.
"Papatayin ka nila, baliw!" I heard a laughing voice and I shook my head at
that.
"N-No..." I whispered. Tinakpan ko ng unan ang mukha ko at pilit na kumakalma.
I was tired of the whispers, sa sobrang pagod at sakit ng katawan ko ay
nakatulugan ko na ito.
Weird but I didn't have a nightmare, mabilis akong napamulat at nagulat ako
nang makitang may lalaki sa tabi ng higaan ko.
I was starled when I saw Doc Thorn on my side, nakaub-ob sya roon sa tabi ko at
may kung anong kurot sa puso ko nang makitang hawak nya ang kamay ko.
Something tugged my chest, mahigpit ang hawak nya roon at nang makitang gumalaw
sya ay bigla kong naipikit ang mata ko roon.
I didn't have nightmares! I wanted to tell him that but decided to pretend that
I am sleeping.
"Sleepyhead," I heard his soft voice. Hindi ako sumagot at maya-maya'y
naramdaman ko ang haplos nya sa ulo ko.
"Sleep tight, hindi na kita inabutan sa office..." He said. "If you have a
problem, tell me..." Aniya.
He sighed and caressed my hand.
"I hate it when you cry and that was absurd..." His voice sounds soft. "But I
can't help it..."
"I know you coudn't hear me but..." His voice stopped and I almost opened my
eyes when I felt his soft lips on my forehead.
"Please always be safe," Aniya. "I want my queen to be safe, always..."
When he left, I was almost out of breath. May heart keeps on pounding faster,
not because I was scared, it was because I was happy.
What does he mean by that?

Napahawak ako sa noo ko at napahawak sa dibdib ko.

The door opened again, nagpanggap ulit akong tulog at inantay ang boses nito.
"Is it her?" A cold water almost splashed through me when I heard that voice.
"Opo, Sir... Bakit?" It was Nurse Lei's voice.
"Nothing, once she woke up, tell me about what is she doing, okay?" The man
said at bumalik ang kaba ko. It was the man with the tattoo!
I almost curled on the bed.
"Sir? Bakit po?"
"H'wag ka nang magtanong, I'll deposit money to your account and once she
confessed something, balitaan mo ako kaagad..." He answered and I am stopping
myself to cry.
P-Please, Doc... I need him right now... I'm scared...
"Sige, Sir..." Ani ng nurse.
I heard footsteps, kumalabog ang dibdib ko nang maramdamang palapit iyon sa
akin.
"Maganda pala..." His creepy voice said. "Kaya pala tipo ni Mayor..."
My hands started trembling so I hid it on the blanket.
"Don't tell anyone about this, okay?" Ani ng lalaki at narinig kong sumang-ayon ang
nurse sa kanya.
"Opo, Sir..."
"Sayang, tipo ka sana..." Tawa nito at halos manlamig ako nang dumapo ang kamay
nito sa balikat ko.
P-Please, help me... Doc, I need you...
"Kaso may nakita ka..." Tawa nito at halos mapaiyak na ako nang maramdamang
ibinaba nya ang bestida sa balikat ko.
He maliciously caressed my skin, sending me scary shivers.
A phone suddenly rang, naibaba nya ang kamay sa balikat ko at sinagot iyon.
"Yes, Sir..." Ani nito. "Everything is fine here, we'll shut the woman as soon
as possible..."
His voice is fading, I heard footsteps slowly disappearing and when I coudn't
hear any voices ay napaupo ako habang hawak ang dibdib ko.
 Tears pooled on my eyes, nanginginig ang kamay na inayos ko ang damit ay
mabilis na tumayo kahit walang tsinelas. Tumakbo ako sa pintuan at nang makitang
bukas iyon ay nakaramdam ako ng pag-asa.
I hurriedly walked out the door, lakad-takbo ang ginawa ko para makaalis.
He will kill me, I heard it!
Nagtago ako nang nakitang may mga nurse. Pasilip-silip ako at tumatakbo kapag
nakakita ng pagkakataon.
Nakalabas ako ng lobby ng walang nakakakita sa akin. Sa pagtingin ko sa gate ay
nakita kong naroon 'yung lalaki kaya mabilis akong lumipat ng pwesto.
I ran towards the parking lot without any plans and inhibition. I just want to
leave this place!
The moment I saw an open black car ay hindi na ako nagdalawang-isip na pumasok
roon.
I went to the backseat. Isiniksik ko ang katawan sa ilalim ng upuan roon. I
curled up and hid myself.
I was nervous, I am sweating a lot but I keep my mouth shut.
The moment I heard the door closing and the machine working, my anxiety
doubled. The car moved and I was quietly sobbing under the seat.
B-Bahala na... Kahit anong mangyari...
The car was still moving at pulos dilim lang ang nakikita ko. Nanginginig ang
kamay ko at nangangalay na ako pero hindi ako sumuko. Kailangan kong makalayo rito.
Suddenly, in the middle of the ride, a soft music played. It was so soft that I
felt myself drowning to sleep.
I woke up when my body hurt and realized that I was still in the car, it was
still moving at alam kong hindi rin ako katagalang nakatulog sa pagod roon.
The music is still playing and I wondered who the driver is. My heart was
beating faster, napahawak ako roon at huminga ng malalim.
I can still feel the touch of the man's filthy hand on my shoulder, I still
remembered him saying he'll shut me up as soon as possible and I am really scared.
And now, I am somewhere with a stranger driving the car, my anxiety doubled at
that. What if this person is bad? P-Paano kung ibalik nya ako sa ospital or the
worst, what if the driver is an accomplice of that man?
I bit my lip, my aching body triggers me.
L-Lord, please, have mercy on me...
I remembered Doc, parang bigla akong nagsisi dahil sa ginawa ko. I am lost now,
nawala ako sa sarili... Paano kung sinabi ko nalang kay Doc?
He told me he'll help me...
A sob left my lips. Natakpan ko ang bibig ko roon at humugot ng hininga.
Suddenly, the soft music faded. Kumalabog ang puso ko roon at hindi ko napigil
ang hikbi ko habang nakasiksik roon sa ilalim.
The car stopped and I am sobbing harder each passing time. I-I'm dead...
I heard the car opening, nanlaki ang mata ko roon at mas kumalabog ang dibdib
ko.
Marahas ang narinig kong pagkakabukas ng pintuan sa backseat at nakagat ko ang
labi ko.
I felt the cold air on my feet.
"Who are you?! Get out!" I heard a cold, hard voice at humikbi lang ako at
niyakap ang tuhod ko.
"Get out!" He screamed, enraged.
Hindi pa rin ako kumikilos at umiling lang ng umiling.
"Get out or I'll pull you?!" Hindi ako gumalaw pa rin. "I will call the police
if you don't get out of here!" What he said scares me kaya sa kabila nang
panginginig at takot ay dahan-dahan akong lumabas sa ilalim ng upuan.
I slowly crawled out of the seat and moved out of the vehicle with my head on
the ground.
My bare feet touched the cold road and I only saw the man's slacks and leather
shoes.
Kumuyom ang kamay ko at nanatiling nakatungo.
"H-Hindi ako masamang tao..." Bulong ko at humikbi habang nakatulala sa paa ko.
"P-Please, h'wag mo akong ibalik doon..."
The man didn't answer and that scared me more at nakagat ko ang labi at halos
matakpan na ng buhok ko ang mukha ko.
"H-H'wag mo akong ibalik... Parang-awa mo na..." I begged. "P-Papatayin nila
ako..."
He remained silent and my shoulders moved while I sobbed.
"P-Please..." I lifted my head to see who it was at napaatras ako nang makita
kung sino iyon.
I saw a familiar midnight black eyes behind those signiture glasses. His eyes
are wide open and his mouth slighty parted.
"Damn..." He cursed under his breath and my knees melted at that.

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Kabanata 6

Kabanata 6
"Scira...." I sobbed harder when I saw him.
"Doc..." My voice broke at bago pa man ako mawalan ng lakas ay nasalo nya ako.
I fell on his chest as soon as he caught my waist.
"Shhh..." He whispered and I cried on his shirt, napakapit ako roon sa damit
nya at napasinghap nang yakapin nya ako.
I hugged him back, mahigpit ang pagkakayakap ko sa kanya at mahigpit rin ang
hawak ko sa damit nya.
"D-Doc, help me..." I whispered as he nodded, ang kamay nya'y humaplos sa
likuran ko at halos mapakalma na ako nito.
"Calm down," He hushed me. "I'll help you, stop crying..." His soothing voice
whispered.
I coudn't thank the Lord enough because of what happened. I was scared for my
life because of my sudden decision but he was good to me because it was Doc all
along.
He held both of my shoulder, kaagad nyang hinanap ang mga mata ko at hinaplos
ang ilalim nito.
"Sshh, it's alright, I'm here..." He hummed and dried my tears.
"D-Doc, papatayin nila ako..." Bulong ko at nakita ko kung paano kumunot ang
noo nya. His eyes darken, nakita kong umigting ang panga nya at mabilis akong
kinabig at tumingin sa paligid.
"Let's get you out of here..." Aniya pero mabilis akong umiling. I pushed him
lightly and caught his eyes.
"A-Ayoko na 'dun," I whispered, shaking my head.
"Scira..." He breathe.
"P-Please," I tugged his shirt. "They were coming after me, help me..." I saw
how his eyes landed on my face and sighed.
He licked his lower lip, combed his dishveled hair frustatedly and nodded.
"Okay..." He told me like he was doing a big decision of his life. "Saan tayo?"
Aniya.
"A-Anywhere..." I murmured. "Just not there..."
He nodded again, bumaba ang tingin nya sa paa ko at nagulat ako ng sakupin nya
ang hita ko pakarga.
I was starled and encircled my arms on his neck, nakita kong sinipa nya ang
pintuan ng backseat at naglakad sa front seat habang karga ako.
"My Queen..." Nilingon ko sya at nakitang nakasulyap sya sa pintuan.
"Can you open the door for me?" He said and I did. Inabot ko 'yun at marahang
inilapag nya ako sa shotgun seat.
I noticed that we're really in the middle of the road, tanging ang mga puno
lang at ang malinis na highway ang narito. I shivered when the cold air touch my
skin at nakita kong mabilis na hinubad ni Doc ang suot na coat at inilagay sa
balikat ko.
Napasulyap ako roon at nakita kong itinakip nya iyon sa katawan ko.
"We'll go to my house..." Aniya sa akin at napakurap ako roon. "Is that..."
Nag-aalangan sya.
"Is that fine with you?" Mahinang sabi nya.
I nodded, there's no safer place than him beside me. Ayoko na roon sa ospital.
"Alright," He removed the hair on my forehead and put it behind my ear. "Let's
go..."
He jogged to the driver's seat and start the engine.
Tahimik lang akong naroon sa tabi nya habang nagdadrive sya. He was glancing at
me almost everytime at ikinukubli ko ang kamay ko sa loob ng coat nya sa balikat
ko.
My head is aching, napapikit ako roon and the trembling of my hands was there
so I heaved a deep breathe.
"Give me your hand..." He said kaya napalingon ako sa kanya. He glance at the
coat where my hand was hiding.

"A-Ayos lang..."
"No, it isn't..." Aniya at muling inilahad ang kamay. "Come on, it's
alright..."
Marahang inilabad ko ang kaliwang kamay ko at iniabot sa kanya. He held my
hand, entertwining his fingers bago iyon dalhin sa labi nya at hinalikan.
I was starled at that but I didn't say anything.
"I won't hurt you..." Aniya at dinala ang kamay kong hawak nya sa kambya. "You
trust me, right?"
"Yes..." Paos kong sabi. He glanced at me again, his dark eyes enhancing when
the light from the post reflected his face.
Hindi ko na sya sinagot sa sobrang pagod, I was really drained, my mind, body,
everything.
Nagising lang ako ng bahagya nang maramdamang may bumubuhat sa akin habang
naglalakad.
I opened my eyes, only to find Doc Thorn carrying me. I groan a little, nakita
kong sumulyap sya sa akin at mas inayos ang pagbuhat. My hands slowly crawled from
his chest to his nape and hugged him.
I can hear his fast hearbeat at sumandal ako sa dibdib nya sa ginhawang
ibinibigay sa akin nito.
The bright light from his house stopped me, sinubukan kong sumulyap doon at
nakitang may kalakihan nga iyon.
"Yaya," I stopped when I heard his voice. Mabilis akong lumingon at nakitang
may isang katandaang babae ang lumabas mula sa kusina.
"Oh, Thorn!" Ani nito at nakita kong nagulat sya pagkakita sa akin. "Bakit may
kasama ka?" Ani nito na sa akin pa rin nakatingin.
"Can you give me a basin with cold water?" He asked at napapikit nalang ako ng
maramdaman ang pananakit ng ulo ko.
"Huh? Para saan?"
"She's sick..." His soft voice said. "Pati na rin sana gamot at tubig, ya..."
"Oh, sige, sige..." Ani nito. "I-akyat mo sya sa kwarto na at dadalhin ko na
roon ang binilin mo."
"Thank you..." He answered and I felt him moving again.
I felt us going on the second floor, bahagyang nakamulat ang mga mata ko para
makita sya.
I heard a creaking sound, maya-maya pa ay naramdaman ko ang marahang paglapag
sa akin sa malambot na kama at doon na ako napamulat ng maayos.
"Scira..." He called me softly.
"N-Nakakaabala ba ako?" My hoarse voice said, nahihilo na ako at nananakit ang
katawan ko.
"No..." He shook his head and caressed my hair, tumagilid naman ako para makita
sya at napansing nakaluhod sya sa tabi ko.
"S-Sorry..." I whispered. "B-But can you not return me to the hospital?"
Hindi sya sumagot roon pero nanatili syang nakatingin sa akin.
"Please?" Inabot ko sya at hinuli nya ang kamay ko at hinaplos.
"Alright..." He smiled at me. "I won't give you back," I smiled at that. My
heart jumped and I coudn't explain what actually I am feeling right now...
"Queen," He suddenly said kaya nilingon ko sya. "Will you tell me everything
that happened once you are fine?"
"Y-Yes..." I murmured. I trust him, I really do.
"Good girl..." His smile is really heartwarming at nang muling dumampi ang labi
nya sa noo ko ay nakatulog na ako.
I saw myself on the side of the road, crying, asking for help.

I tried reaching or anyone that will see me pero parang

hindi nila ako nakikita. I stood up, yakap ko ang sarili habang naglalakad.
I saw a black car stopped infront of me so, I screamed for help.
"H-Help me!" I exclaimed at kinatok ang pintuan. It wasn't opening so I begged
harder. I knocked in the window and when it opened ay may kung anong pag-asa ang
naramdaman ko.
I was smiling. Finally, finally, someone will help me.
"Swerte..." My smile faded upon seeing them looking at me.
"Boss, kunin nyo na..." Ani nang isa at napaatras ako nang makitang may hawak
silang naglalakihang mga baril.
I screamed. It was the men who killed my parents and they are here to kill me
too!
I ran, I heard their laughs, napasigaw pa ako nang marinig ang putok ng baril.
I ran and find myself in the forest. Bawal hakbang nila ay sya ring pagbilis ng
takbo ng puso ko.
Suddenly, I saw the tress moving, sa paglingon ko ay nanginig ako nang makita
kung paano lumapit sa akin ang sanga ng puno.
The trees turned out to be monsters and when it tried catching me ay sinipa ko
ito.
"Help!" I screamed, crying. I fell on the ground, pilit akong gumapang roon
pero may humila sa paa ko kaya mas napasigaw ako.
"H-Help me! Please!" I kicked and pushed and I felt someone wrapping his arms
on my body.
"No!" I screamed and sob harder.
"Scira! Wake up!" Napahugot ako ng hininga at biglang napamulat. The place
changed, naguluhan ako nang makitang nasa isang hindi pamilyar akong kwarto kaya
napuno ng takot ang puso ko.
I jumped when I felt a pair of arms hugging me kaya sumigaw ako at pinagpapalo
iyon.
"Let me go! Please, don't hurt me!" Sigaw ko at kumawala pero mas humigpit ang
yakap nito sa akin.
"It's me..." A familiar voice said.
"L-Let me go!" Sigaw ko pa but his hug just tightened.
"My Queen, hush now..." I stopped and came back to my reverie when I heard that
endearment.
I relaxed, bumagsak ang balikat ko at napapikit.
"Doc?" I murmured.
"Yes, Scira... It's me..." He touched my back and pulled away. I saw his eyes
laced with concern, tanging ang lampshade lang sa gilid ang nagbibigay sa mukha
nya.
I sniffed, his hand find its way to my cheek and caressed it.
"Are you alright?" I shook my head, closing my eyes.
"I had a dream..." Mahinang sabi ko.
"It isn't true," Mahina nyang sabi at hinawi ang buhok ko. "Dito lang ako,
hindi ka nila sasaktan..."
"Talaga?" Paos kong sabi. He nodded, smiling at me.
"Yes, so rest now... Mataas ang lagnat mo..." Aniya sa akin.
"C-Can you stay with me?" I asked and I saw him stared deeply at me before
nodding his head.
"Of course..." He said at nakita kong may kinuha sya sa side table. He handed
me a tablet and a glass of water. "Drink this first..."
I did what he asked at mabilis nyang inabot paalis sa kamay ko ang baso. I laid
back to bed, nakita ko namang kinuha nya ang bimpo na nalaglag sa kama at muling
binasa ng malamig na tubig.

"Lay down..." Inalalayan nya ako patayo at inaantok na

tinignan ko sya. His eyes are still sleepy, hindi nya suot ang salamin nya ngayon
at ang buhok nya'y bagsak sa kanyang noo.
"S-Salamat..." I whispered and he glanced at me as he nodded.
"Everything for you," He said huskily, his black sleepy eyes making my heart
pound.
Ipinatong nya ang bimpo sa noo ko at iniangat ang kumot paakyat sa dibdib ko.
"Sleep tight," Mahinang sabi nya pero hinabol ko ang kamay nya nang paalis na
sya kaya napalingon sya sa akin.
"W-Will you stay beside me?" I whispered. I saw confusion on his eyes.
"I can stay in the couch..." Aniya.
"Please..." I smiled a little and I saw him defeated. He let out a chuckle,
naupo sya sa tabi ko sa kama kaya umusog ako ng bahagya.
"I think you're a spoiled brat before..." He said and I pouted at that.
"How can you say that?" I asked, looking at him as he sat near my head at
sumandal sa head board.
"Because you can easily get people do what you want..." Aniya and that confused
me.
"I do?" I asked.
"Hmm, maybe ako lang..." He said. Napatawa ako roon. Inangat ko ang tingin para
tignan sya pero natatabunan bahagya ng bimpo kaya tinanggal ko iyon.
"No," Inagaw nya sa akin ang bimpo at ibinalik sa noo ko.
"Wait, titignan pa kita..." I said and removed the towel but he shook his head
and caught the towel on my hand.
"No, ang kulit mo..." Ibinalik nya ang bimpo sa noo ko kaya napanguso ako.
"Hindi naman, I lived with my parents and helped them plant grains..." I said.
I felt him caressing my hair, nakatingin lang ako sa kisame at sya nama'y
nakasandal roon sa may uluhan ko.
"Then, the first time you did that, sanay ka ba?" Aniya.
"No..." I shook my head. "Honestly, hindi ako sanay sa pamumuhay namin dati..."
"Then you really are a Queen..." Aniya at nagsalita naman ako.
"Why are you telling me that? Bakit reyna?" I asked.
"I don't know," He let out a soft chuckle. "I just thought of a Queen the first
time I saw you..."
My heart pounded. Nakagat ko ang labi ko nang kunin nya ang kamay ko at
hinaplos iyon.
His strong, calloused hand caress mine and I coudn't get any comfortable than
that.
"Sabi ni Kristy, Princess..." I told him. "You think a Queen is too much?"
"Nah..." He played with my fingers and drew circles in my palm. "A Queen suits
you more..."
"Queen..." I smiled.
"Yes, and I am the only one to call you that, okay?" Natahimik naman ako roon
at tiningala sya kaya nalaglag ang bimpo ko.
"Why?" I asked but his forehead just creased at inabot ang bimpo ko.
"Don't move," Aniya at ibinalik ang bimpo. "Stay put, the towel will fall
again."
"Bakit nga?" Pangungulit ko.
"Because you're my Queen..." I smiled at that.
"Really?" Nilingon ko sya ulit pero tinakpan nya lang ang mata ko kaya napatawa
na ako.
"Sshh, quiet..." He chuckled.
"Why nga? Bakit mo ako Queen?" I asked him again pero pinisil nya lang ilong ko
kaya pinalo ko sya.

"Sleep, woman, ang kulit mo..." Tawa nya at hinigpitan ko

ang hawak sa kamay nya at tumagilid.
"Scira, the towel..." Iniayos nya iyon sa noo ko pero mas namumutawi ang saya
ko ngayon.
"Kahapon, while I was sleeping, I didn't have a dream..." I said.
"That's good..." He caressed my hair with his other hand at hawak nya ang isa
kong kamay sa kabila.
"Kasi you were holding my hand..." He stopped at that.
"What does it mean?"
"I don't know..." I answered. "That was strange, basta nagtaka rin ako nun but
then I woke up and saw you beside my bed, holding my hand..."
Sinilip ko sya at nakita ko kung paano manlaki ang mata nya.
"H-Huh?" Ibinaba nya ang tingin. "You're awake?" I nodded at nakita ko kung
paano umawang ang labi nya.
"Y-You mean..."
"I heard everything!" I cheered at napamura sya roon.
"Damn... Seryoso?" I laughed, sa kabila ng dilim ay nakita kong namula sya kaya
bigla akong ngumisi sa kanya.
"I want my Queen to be safe, always..." I mimicked at nakita ko kung paano
nanlaki ang mata nya. He blushed at that.
"Damn..." Matigas nyang mura kaya mas napatawa ako.
"I hate it when you--" I murmured and chuckled nang bigla nyang takpan ang
bibig ko.
"Scira!" He exclaimed and I laugh. Pilit kong tinatanggal ang kamay nya pero
ayaw nya paawat.
"Diba?" I exclaimed when I removed his hand.
"Shut up!" I laughed.
"Crush mo ko, Doc?" He blushed at that and I shrieked in shock when he tickled
me.
"Sshh, matulog ka na!" He exclaimed pero tumawa ako at gumalaw.
"Crush mo ko e!" I cheered at napasigaw ng sundutin nya ang tagiliran ko ulit.
I wiggled, laughing.
"Ayaw na!" Tawa ko at pilit syang tinutulak pero tumatawa lang sya sa akin.
"No! If I know, ikaw ang may crush sa akin!" Asar nya at nanlaki ang mata ko
roon.
"Hala, sinabi sayo?!" I exclaimed. His eyes widen too and he grinned at
napatakip ako sa bibig ko bigla.
What the heck, Scira?!
He smiled teasingly, the side of his lips lifting and my eyes widen.
"So, you really do?" Napakurap ako at mabilis na umiling.
"Secret lang kasi dapat 'yun!" Sigaw ko bigla at napahagalpak sya ng tawa
bigla.
"You brat..." He chuckled and my cheeks heated up.
"Hindi nga! Hindi!" I exclaimed and when he tickled me ay napatili ako at
kiniliti din sya.
"Fuck!" Tawa nya at napaigtad. I laughed, nasipa ko sya ng pisilin nya pa ang
baywang ko.
"You were the first one to have a crush on me!" I exclaimed but he shook his
head, his eyes smiling.
"No! Ikaw nga!" Tawa nya.
I was pushed back to bed, kiniliti pa nya akong lalo at napatili pa ako habang
sinisipa sya.
"Stop!" I hissed but he just cocked his head and grinned.
"No, I won't follow orders from the Queen..." Aniya at humawak pa sa underarm ko
kaya mas napaigtad ako.

"Doc nga!" Sigaw ko. I kicked him but he was too fast,
nanlaki ang mata ko ng bigla syang dumagan sa akin at inipit ang hita ko sa pagitan
ng paa nya.
I was still laughing because of his tickling and it was too late to realized
that our faces are just inches away from each other that I can almost smell his
minty breath!
My laugh faded, nakagat ko ang labi ko bigla nang makita ang tingin nya sa
akin.
I saw his eyes and realized I could never get tired staring at those.
We were both silent, tanging paghinga lang ang naririnig mula sa isa't-isa. I
gulped, nakita kong sumulyap sya sa labi ko kaya nanuyo ang lalamunan ko.
"Do you like me, Scira?" His husky voice said.
"H-Huh?" Halos pumiyok pa ako roon. His eyes glisten, hinuli nya ang mga mata
ko at malalim akong tinitigan.
"S-Sinabi naman na nila sa'yo..." My lips quivered. I saw his lips lifted, a
playful smirk playing on his lips.
"What if... Wala naman talagang nagsabi sa akin?" My mouth parted at that.
"W-Wala?" I stuttered and he chuckled, his deep voice echoing.
"How innocent can a queen could be..." He said in deep baritone at ngumuso ako.
"Talaga? Walang sinabi sa'yo?" Pangungulit ko pa at iginalaw nya lang ang kilay
nya.
"Huli ka..." He teased and I screamed, my face heating in embarrassment.
"H-Hindi 'yun totoo!" Palusot ko but he didn't buy it at all.
His hands remained in both sides of my head, supporting his weight.
I saw him stared at my lips and I unconciously stared back at his, it was thin,
naturally reddish and kissable.
I licked my lips and I heard him clearing his throat.
"Scira..." His husky voice said. Wala sa sariling napaharap ako sa kanya at
nagkasalubong ang mga mata namin.
I blinked when I saw how intense his stares are.
"Is..." He took a glance of my slightly parted lips and looked at my eyes
again.
"Is there any punishments if a mere servant kiss his Queen?" His voice echoed
making my stomach churned. Napakapit ako sa bedsheet at natulala lang sa kanya.
His breathing is uneven, heavy and unusual in pace.
Hindi ako kaagad nakasagot, nawawala pa rin sa mga sinabi nya.
"My Queen..." He called at mas umawang lang labi ko.
Damn, heart, what's happening?
"H-Huh?"
"What punishment?" He said softly, staring at me. I just bit my lip, unable to
answer.
"Whatever..." He chuckled, cocking his head. "Whatever punishment that might
be, I'll willingly accept it..."
I was starled as he leaned in, his lips touched mine, sending unusual beatings
of my heart. He gave me a soft, simple kiss that I almost ran after his lips when
he left.
"Y-Yun lang?" I whinned and I saw his eyes shifted from dark to amused. He
suddenly laughed, his eyes glistening in happiness at nahiya ako roon bigla.
What were you thinking, huh?
 "What?" He asked, laughing, his cheeks flushing.
"W-Wala..." Napahawak ako sa pisngi ko sa kahihiyan at mas natawa sya roon.
Nagulat pa ako ng dumukwang syang ulit at dinampian ang labi ko ng mabilis na
halik.
"What? Does the Queen wants more?" He teased at tinakpan ko ang mukha ko.
"Wala! Nabitin lang ako!" I exclaimed and he laughed heartily. Sumubsob sya sa
leeg ko habang tumatawa at napairit lang ako.
"D-Doc nga, alis d'yan!" I hissed but he keeps on chuckling on my neck.
"Damn it, I'm crazy..." He laughed at sa muling pag-angat ay malisyoso na akong
tinignan.
"Isa pa?" He teased and I just shrieked and pouted.
"Ayaw na!" I exclaimed but he's stubborn, sa halip ay muli sya dumukwang at
hinanap muli ang mga mata ko.
"Scira, you want?" He pouted his lips, teasing me and laugh at sa inis ko ay
hinawakan ko ang magkabilang pisngi nya at hinatak sya pababa.
I crashed my lips on his, trying to prove my point, making his eyes widen.
He was shocked so I pulled away, akmang ibaba ko na ang kamay ko sa pisngi nya
nang hulihin nya iyon at muling inilapat ang labi sa akin.
This time, it was longer, I felt his lips licking mine, moving sensuously as he
let my arm wrapped on his nape. I mimicked his move, trying my best 'cause it's
honestly my first time.
I hugged his nape, his lips tasting every sides of my mouth as I welcomed him.
His lips is too warm that I am thinking that it was me who was keeping the warmth.
The kisses goes deeper and deeper when I felt him stopping.
Humiwalay sya sa akin, sabay kaming naghahabol ng hininga at namungay ang mga
mata ko. His sleepy eyes bored into mine as he lick his lower lip, smiling shyly.
"I can't resist... Damn..." He whispered as he looked lost for a moment.
Napahawak sya sa batok nya.
Bigla syang humiga sa tabi ko at nakatulala lang ako sa kisame. We actually
kissed. Oh my God, we kissed!
I felt him sitting beside me, napaawang ang labi ko ng may napuntang malamig na
bimpo sa noo ko at ang paghawak nitong muli sa kamay ko na parang walang nangyari.
Napahawak ako sa labi ko sa mga nangyari ngayon lang.
"D-Doc, did we really kiss--"
"We did." He cut me off.
"Now, sleep, my Queen. Let me hold your hand so nightmares won't come
tonight..." He said, caressing my hand with his thumb.

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Kabanata 7

Kabanata 7
It was really unusual whenever I sleep without any nightmares. I opened my
eyes, feeling peaceful and fine.
I moved to my side, only to find Doc sitting beside me, his hands still holding
mine.
Kaya pala wala akong panaginip...
I smiled at that, glancing at his sleeping face. Nakasandal pa rin sya doon sa
headboard habang nakatungo at nakapikit.
His breathing in uneven, like he was in deep sleep at naawa naman ako sa kanya.
He stayed there sleeping because of me. Nagigising pa sya kada oras para tignan ang
temperature ko.
Isa pa, ang weird ng panaginip ko, we kissed in there!
Napahawak ako sa labi ko at napasulyap sa labi nyang bahagyang nakaawang
What if we really did kiss? Is that a dream or not?
Nag-init ang pisngi ko sa naalala at nakagat ang labi ko. That was real! We
really did kiss! I remembered how I pull his face closer, I still remember how I
insisted another one because I'm bitin!
What do I do now?
It was really awkward! I mean, he's my Doctor tapos pasyente nya ako tapos...
Nagkiss pa kami!
He stirred a bit at nanlaki ang mata ko roon. Okay, okay, pretend you don't
remember anything, Scira!
I cleared my throat, sumulyap muli ako sa kanya at napatingin sa orasan. It was
seven in the morning and he was still here, taking care of me.
I tapped his cheek softly to wake him up.
"Doc?" I called him. He groaned and yawned kaya napangiti ako.
"Doc..." Tawag ko ulit at kinalabit sya at nagulat ako ng bigla syang
mapamulat.
"H-Huh? May panaginip ka?" Bigla nyang sabi sa akin kaya nanlaki ang mata ko.
His eyes are still bloodshot and puffy.
"Huh?" I asked.
"Ano? Ano, sorry, it's fine, di 'yun totoo..." Bangag nya pang sabi at napatawa
na ako roon.
I pulled my hand from his grip and sat on the bed.
"Wala, wala akong panaginip..." I said and smiled softly. Napatitig sya sa
akin, maya-maya ay napahugot ng hininga at napasandal sa headboard.
"Akala ko..." He murmured and closed his eyes.
I stared at his face, his description really suits those of the greek gods.
Even the stubbles on his jaw never failed to make me swoon over and over again.
I've seen people with stubbles yet his was more attractive and hotter.
"I'm right, crush mo ko..." Napalingon ako kaagad sa kanya, he was grinning,
nakasandal ang ulo sa headboard pero ang buong atensyon ay nasa akin at sa pagtitig
ko sa mukha nya.
"H-Hindi kaya..." I answered but he just chuckled. Iniabot nya ang pisngi ko at
napasulyap lang ako sa kanya.
"Remember what happened last night?" His eyes glisten at that, malisyoso nya
akong tinignan kaya ngumiwi ako at lumayo sa kanya.
"Huh? May nangyari ba?" I pretended to know nothing and I saw his amused smile.
Umayos sya ng upo, tinagilid nya ang ulo para sulyapan ako.
"My Queen can pretend now, huh?" He teased. Inabot pa nya ako at ipinatong ang
kamay sa noo ko para tignan ang temperatura ko.
"Pretend? Hindi ko naman kasi talaga maalala. Ano ba 'yun?" I asked and I am
freaking aware how obvious my answer is!
"Gusto mo paalala ko?" He raised his brow at sasagot sana ako nang biglang
magbukas ang pinto.

Sabay kaming napalingon roon at nakita kong iyon 'yung

matanda kagabi.
"Thorn..." Tawag nya. Nakita kong umayos ng upo si Doc sa kama para tumingin sa
babae.
"Bakit, Ya?" Ani nito.
"May gusto kang makausap sa telepono, galing sa ospital..." She answered. I
froze at that, nakita ko ring natigilan si Doc at napasulyap sa akin.
I-Ibabalik na ba ako doon? Nakuyom ko ang kamay ko sa kaba.
"Salamat, ya... Can you tell them na pababa na ako?" He said at nakita kong
tumango ito bago umalis.
When the door closed ay napalingon na sa akin si Doc. I saw how concern his
eyes are pero natakot pa rin ako.
"Scira..." He called.
"I-Ibabalik mo na ako?" Paos kong sabi at ikinubli ang mga kamay ko.
"Come on," Aniya at inilahad ang kamay nya pero umiling ako. My heart was
beating faster, sa kaba at takot roon.
 "T-They will kill me..." Mahinang sabi ko sa kanya. "P-Papatayin nila ako
kagaya ng ginawa nila kina Nanay..." Nangingilid na ang luha sa mga mata ko.
I saw him lick his lip, muli nyang inilahad ang kamay pero umiling ako at
tumungo.
"P-Please, I'm begging you... H'wag mo na ako ibalik..." I begged him and
lowered my head.
"I won't..." His soft voice said kaya napaangat ako ng tingin sa kanya.
"I won't return you," Aniya sa akin kaya bumangon ang pag-asa sa puso ko.
"Y-You won't?" He shook his head at that.
"No, so, come here..." Aniya at unti-unti akong lumapit sa kanya. He caressed
my cheek, napapikit ako roon at naramdaman kong hinawi nya ang mga luha sa mata ko.
"I won't let them hurt you, understand?" I nodded, feeling his caress.
"I just have one condition," Aniya kaya napamulat ako roon. Inilagay nya ang
buhok sa likod ng tenga ko at hinanap ang mata ko.
"Listen carefully, My Queen, okay?" I nodded at him. "You trust me, right?"
"Yes..." I whispered. He sighed and nodded, I saw his jaw clenched a bit before
licking his lips.
"I want you to tell me everything..." I stopped at that. Panibagong kaba ang
naramdaman ko at muntik nang mapaatras nang mahawakan nya ang baywang ko para
pirmiin ako.
"Baby, listen..." He said softly, his eyes are reassuring me.
"I will keep you safe..." Aniya sa akin. "But how can I make you safe if I
didn't know what happened?" Hinaplos nya ang buhok ko.
"W-Will you help me? I-I don't know if I can tell that to you without breaking
down..." I whispered.
"I will, trust me..." Aniya at marahan akong tumango roon.
"Okay..." I breathe.
"Good girl..." He smiled, sighing. "Now, kakausapin ko ang nasa tawag, okay?
You tell me everything so you woudn't need to come with me to the hospital, okay?"
I nodded.
"Sige..." He nodded, tumayo naman sya at nakita kong may inabot sya sa gilid ng
sofa. I saw him holding a paperbag, inilagay nya iyon sa harapan ko.
"Here, change your clothes. Feel comfortable to use the bathroom then we'll
talk..."
"Salamat..." Mahinang sabi ko and he nodded, smiling at me. Dumukwang sya at
humalik sa ulo ko bago lumabas ng kwarto.

I took a bath and changed my clothes, isang kulay dilaw na

dress ang naroon sa paperbag kasama ang isang pares ng underwear.
I wonder who bought this and the size is just right!
Pagkalabas ko ng banyo ay wala roon si Doc, sinuklay ko ang buhok ko bago
bumaba. While I was going down, doon ko napansin ang estraktura ng bahay.
It was made with finest and I think one of the strongest materials. Sa disenyo
palang nito ay kita na ang kamahalan. I saw a chandelier in the receiving area.
How I missed this kind of view! Napangiti ako pero kaagad ring napawi. Why
would I miss this kind of view? Wala namang ganito sa bahay namin nila Nanay noon.
Napailing nalang ako at bumaba. I stopped when I saw Doc Thorn on his phone.
Nakatalikod sya sa akin pero kita ko ang ayos nya.
He was wearing a black button down shirt and slacks, ang basang buhok nya ay
nakaayos at nang lingunin nya ako ay nakita kong suot nanaman nya ulit ang salamin
nya.
"I'll go there later," He said, his eyes are fixed on mine. Nang ibaba nya ang
telepono ay lumapit sya sa akin at ngumiti.
I saw him took a glance for what I was wearing and chuckled a little.
"You're really good with dresses..." He said at napasulyap ako sa damit ko.
"Ayos lang ba?" I asked.
"Hmm, lovely..." He smiled. "Come on, let's have breakfast first..." Inalalayan
nya ako habang naglalakad kaming patungong kusina.
His table is kinda long, 'yung tipong kapag may party ay pwedeng-pwede ang
maraming handa dahil sa laki. He sat on the middle end of the table while I sit on
his side.
May pagkain nang nakahanda roon at nang makita ang isang puting tela ay inabot
ko 'yon at walang pagdadalawang-isip na ipinatong sa hita ko.
I saw him put a steak on my plate kaya nagpasalamat ako at maliit na ngumiti sa
kanya.
We ate in silence, tanging ang tunog lang ng mga kutsara ang naririnig at
kinuha ko ang maliit na kutsilyo sa gilid at tinidor para kumain.
I ate silently, with a little piece of meat at first.
"You're too natural," Napalingon ako at nakita kong nakasulyap sa akin si Doc.
"Bakit?" I asked at kinuha ang tissue at ipinunas sa gilid ng labi ko. He
glance at that and I saw him smiled and cocked his head.
"I mean, your actions are too elegant..." He told me. "Like you were born with
that kind of lifestyle..."
"Oh?" Nakagat ko ang labi ko. "Is that a bad thing?"
"No, of course not..." He chuckled. "I just can't help but to notice everything
you're doing, para kang si Ate Gwy kumilos minsan..."
Napanguso ako, mas tumawa sya at inabot ang baba ko.
"Eat more, My Queen... Patatabain kita dito..." Tawa nya and I hissed at him
pero kinindatan nya lang ako at nagpatuloy sa pagkain.
We went to his office on his home after we ate, busog na busog ako. I think my
stomach will explode in so much food intake dahil sa paglagay ng dagdag na pagkain
ni Doc sa plato ko.
I caressed my stomach, mabuti nalang at hindi lumaki, ngayon lang kasi ako
nabusog ulit ng ganito!
He opened the door, pagpasok ko naman roon ay kaagad kong ipinalibot ang tingin
sa opisina nya. The color of the place is visually pleasing, with it's black and
white combination.

I saw his office table, may mga papel roon at sa isang

lagayan nakalagay ang mga ballpen. I saw a pile of books on his shelf at the back
of his table and I was amazed who organized that is.
I saw a white couch, may mga puting unan roon at ang kwarto ay may carpet na
kulay itim rin. I saw displays in there, may mga nakasabit na parang bilog na metal
sa iba't-ibang laki roon sa may isang banda.
"Come here," Sumunod ako sa kanya. I saw him sat on his swivel at nakita kong
may hinalukay sya roon sa ilalim. I saw him give me a ball at napangiti ng makitang
isang kulay itim na stressball iyon.
I squeezed it, inayos naman nya ang suot na salamin at sinuklay ang buhok gamit
ang kanyang daliri.
"Are you ready?" He started. I nodded, sighing hard.
You can do this, Scira! Fighting!
"Kaya ko 'to..." Umihip ako at huminga ng malalim.
"You can do it..." He assured me. Nakita kong sumulyap sya sa may sofa pabalik
sa akin.
"Do you want me to just stay here or 'dun tayo sa sofa?" Aniya. "Where are you
comfortable?"
Sumulyap ako sa sofa at sa kanya bago ko tinuro ang sofa. He nodded, tumayo sya
habang hawak ang iilang papel roon at tumayo rin ako, pasunod sa kanya.
Nakita kong may dala syang recorder.
I sat on the sofa while he stayed beside me, he was staring at me, probably
waiting until I am ready so I stared at him.
"I-I think I am ready..." I said.
"Okay, I will record this conversation, okay?" I nodded. Umupo sya ng maayos at
hinanap ang mata ko. "Squeeze the ball if you're hands are shaking, okay?" I nodded
at that.
"Let's start, I believe you can do it..." He moved his brows at gumaan ang loob
ko roon.
"Salamat..." Sabi ko.
"Okag, Scira..." Hinanap nya ang mga mata ko. I saw his serious eyes, I saw how
his brows sloped downward, making him look more serious and authorative.
"I want you to look straight into my eyes..." His voice said, wala sa sariling
napatitig ako sa mga mata nyang nakasentro sa akin.
"I want you to breath in and out..." I did, still looking at him. "Now, I want
you to trust me..."
"Do you trust me, Scira?" I nodded without any thoughts, I started getting lost on
his eyes.
"Okay, can you tell me what happened?" He asks. "Everything, Scira, every
details..."
Napalunok ako at tumango.
"T-That was that day when I woke up again with a nightmare..." I started. "That
day, I woke up and Tatay was really mad, nag-away sila ni Nanay..."
He remained looking at me, listening to everything I am saying.
"Tatay has a debt, natalo sya sa sugal nila ni Mayor..." I said. "He can't pay
it kasi hindi naman kami mayaman, then I heard him saying he'll give me as a
payment, he told Nanay that the Mayor wants me as a payment..."
I saw how his forehead creased at that. His eyes darkening, his jaw clenching
but he didn't say anything.
"T-Tapos umalis ako 'nun ng bahay, pumunta ako sa bukid, tumulong ako sa mga
kasamahan namin magtanim..." I said, he nodded at that.
"Then, I went back home and found them arguing again..." I said, "Tatay keeps
on saying he'll give me as a payment, isang linggo lang daw iyon at ibabalik rin
ako..." Nakagat ko ang labi ng maalala.

My hand started trembling so I squeezed the stressball.

"Nanay was mad at him, ayaw nya akong ibigay but Tatay was really determined,
he said, dadating ang Mayor at ibibigay nila ako..." My voice broke so I swallowed
and heaved a deep breath again.
"S-So I went away, tumakbo ako roon sa may gubat tapos napunta ako roon sa
gilid ng daan..." I said.
"That's when I found you..." He said and I nodded at that, calming myself.
"Y-Yes..." Paos kong sagot.
"Then I went home..." Doon na nag-umpisa ang pagtulo ng mga luha ko kaya
mabilis ko itong hinawi at pinisil ang bola.
"I-I saw cars outside our house kaya nagtago ako..." I said. "T-Then, when I
took a peek, I-I saw my Mother and Father..." Pumiyok ako at kinuyom ang kamay ko.
"T-They're kneeling on t-the ground with a gun on their heads..."
Nakita ko ang pagkislap ng mata nya doon at mabilis na tumango.
"Okay, I'm all ears..." He said. "I'm listening, Scira..."
"T-Then, a man was looking for me..." I breathe hard. "Y-Yung Mayor..." I said.
"H-He was looking for me, gusto nya akong kunin..." Napasinghap ako at mas
dumoble ang panginginig ng kamay ko.
"T-Tapos nagtatago lang ako roon, Tatay said he'll give me but Nanay is
insisting she woudn't..." I said. "T-That time, Nanay caught me peeking. I saw her
eyes, they were sad... She mouthed, telling me to hide in the cabinet..."
"I-I wanted so bad... I wanted so bad to run and ask for help b-but I was
scared..." My eyes pooled with tears and I saw his concerned, soft eyes, staring at
me.
"I-I ran to the back of our house, entered and hid on the cabinet..." I said.
"T-Then, I saw him, the Mayor, he walked inside that room. H-He was near me, h-he
was about to open the cabinet so I am shaking with fear..."
"Did he saw you?" I shook my head, hinawi ko ang mga luha ko at huminga ng
malalim.
"N-No, someone called him, saying that I was seen on the highway..." I sniffed.
"Then, he called his men and I saw how they dragged my parents inside our
room... I was crying that time but I should be quiet, I-I saw them asking Tatay
where I am and he told them he'll give me...
"T-Tapos, I-I saw how that man with the gun shoot him, I saw how he fell on the
ground and how my Nanay cried but she managed to keep me safe..." My chest started
constricting in pain, halos hindi na ako makahinga kaya mas humigpit ang hawak ko
sa stress ball at pilit na kinakalma ang sarili ko.
"T-Tapos my Nanay and my eyes met, g-gustong-gusto kong lumabas nalang at
magpakuha para hindi nila saktan ang Nanay b-but she shook her head..." I sobbed.
"Her eyes are sad, but full of love..."
Patuloy na nahuhulog sa mga mata ko ang mga luha ko ay nakita kong malamlam ang
mga mata ni Doc habang nakikinig sa akin.
"S-She mouthed how much she loved me..." Naipikit ko ang mata at napahawak sa
dibdib ko.
"A-And you know what?" Hinawi ko ang luha ko at napasinghap. "I saw how he
killed her infront of me..." I broke down at naramdaman ko ang pagkabig sa akin ni
Doc kaya mas nanghina ako.
He hugged me at mahigpit akong yumakap sa kanya. I was sobbing hard as I
clutched his cloth.
"I-I saw them died infront of my eyes, Doc..." Singhap ko sa leeg nya.
"Scira, calm down..." He whispered and caressed my back pero mas napaiyak lang
ako roon.
"I-I should have done something," I whispered. "I-I should have asked for help,
I should have get out p-pero wala akong nagawa... N-Naduwag ako, I should have done
something but I-I didn't..."

"Sshh..." He whispered. Hushing me. "Go, cry all you

want... I'm just here, I'll listen to you..."
"L-Lumabas ako pagkaalis nila, t-tapos nakita nila ako roon sa tabi and t-they
accused me, s-sabi nila mamatay tao ako, s-sabi nila baliw ako..." I sobbed and his
hug tightened.
"Listen, Scira, you are not..." Aniya at humiwalay sa akin. He cupped my cheek
and caught my eyes.
"D-Doc..." Pumiyok ako.
"You didn't kill them, you are just scared. That wasn't your fault,
understand?" He said softly at ang pinunasan ang pisngi ko gamit ang daliri nya..
"Y-You still believe me?" I asked hopefully.
"Yes..." He smiled softly and my heart melted.
"T-Thank you," I whispered sincerely.
He removed the hair on my face, saglit syang tumayo at inabutan ako ng tubig na
kaagad kong ininom. I was breathing heavily at nakita kong nakasulyap sya sa akin
sa bawat ginagawa ko.
I saw how his eyes glisten with so much emotion as he stared at me and I
haven't saw that emotion from anyone before.
"Kaya mo pa?" He asked as he get the empty glass from me.
I nodded and sighed and he smiled again.
"My brave Queen..." He said with so much affection and caressed my cheek.
Lumunok ako suminghot at may maliit pa ring ngiti sa mga labi nya.
"That Mayor, is that the one here?" He asked, his tone sharp.
"I-I think so..." I whispered and he licked his lip at that. I saw him clicked
his neck and nodded, his eyes almost darkening.
"Alright, that asshole..." His jaw clenched but he calmed himself down. He
somehow looked dangerous for quite a while na kaagad ring nawala.
"Sorry..." He heaved a sigh and combed his hair with his fingers. "I just..."
He looked at me as his eyes lighten.
 "Okay, my Queen, tell me more..." He said. "Paano ka napunta sa sasakyan ko?"
"T-That time, I attempted to escape, right?" He nodded at that.
"Why? Why did you tried escaping this time?" He asked.
"I-I saw you, and Dra. Lim, you're talking to a man with a tattoo on his
neck..." I saw how his forehead creased, like he was remembering it at maya-maya'y
mukhang naalala nya at napatango.
"What about that? That man is suspicious," Aniya.
"K-Kasama sya ni Mayor..." I said. "While I was at the prison that night after
the incident, he threatened me..."
"What?" Napamura sya at umayos ng upo.
"I saw him and I was scared so I tried running away but they caught me
tapos...tapos 'nung gabi 'nun, pagkaalis mo?"
"What happened?" He asked, hinanap ko ang stress ball na nabitawan ko kanina
dahil sa nanginginig nanaman ang kamay ko pero nahuli nya ang kamay ko kaya
napasulyap ako roon.
"Let me hold you," He said, caressing my hands kaya mas nagrelax ako roon.
"I still prentended to be asleep, knowing it was you pero hindi ikaw..." I
said. "I-I heard a voice, I knew it was the man with the tattoo, he was talking to
some woman..."
"How?" His forehead creased. "I mean, paano sya napunta roon?"
"Pinapasok sya..." I said. "I overheard him saying that I should be always
watched by that nurse, k-kung may sasabihin raw ako dapat daw sabihin sa kanya..."

"Who was the nurse?" He asked, his eyes curious and somehow
in rage.
"I-I am not sure but it was Nurse Lei's voice..."
"That woman..." He said hardly, clenching his jaw. Mukhang sya at ang
kailangang kumalma ngayon kaya hinawakan ko rin ang kamay nyang nakahawak sa akin.
"T-Tapos, he said on the phone that he'll shut me up soon..." I told him. "T-
Then," I shivered when I remembered it.
"Then?" Hindi ako kaagad nakasagot at naramdaman ko ang haplos nito sa mga
daliri ko.
"T-Then he...he touched my skin..." I said. "I-Ibinaba nya 'yung bestida--"
"What the fuck?!" He cursed at hinanap ang mata ko.
"Where did the asshole touched you, huh?" Aniya at sumulyap sa katawan ko,
animo'y hinahanap ito.
"D-Dito..." I pointed my shoulder. "I-Ibinaba nya 'yung bestida ko
tapos...tapos..."
"Fuck..." He gritted his teeth, iniangat nya ang kamay sa balikat ko.
"Dito?" I nodded and he cursed again.
"I will fucking kill that fucking--" I squeezed his hand kaya umawang ang labi
nya at napatingin sa akin.
"P-Please be safe..." I whispered. "A-Ayokong mapahamak ka dahil sa'kin..." I
told him.
"I won't get hurt..." Aniya at napapikit. "I just... I didn't know what you've
been through..."
Napatungo ako roon at pinagmasdan ang mga kamay namin. He held both of my hands
and brought it on his lips kaya napatingin ako sa kanya.
"Do you trust me, my Queen?" He asked, his eyes blazing with softness.
"I do..." I answered and he smiled. Napapikit ako nang hagkan nya ang noo ko ng
ilang segundo bago lumayo at tumango.
"Ilang linggo ka nang ganyan?" He asked.
"S-Since the accident happened," I answered.
"That was two weeks..." He said. "Do you usually have nightmares? Flashbacks?
The voices?"
"Yes, dati, panaginip lang but when the incident happened, it was everyday, I
easily get paranoid... I was easily scared..." I confessed.
 "It was for two weeks now, I guess I am right..." He said kaya hinanap ko ang
mga mata nya.
"B-Baliw ba ako?" I asked and he shook his head.
"No," He pinch the bridge of my nose. "My Queen isn't crazy, you are a brave
and strong woman..."
"T-Then why I am like this? I mean... Bakit may mga bulong?"
"It was called Acute Stress Disorder," Aniya sa akin at nangunot ang noo ko
roon.
"That was usually because of traumatic experiences and from what I've heard
from you, I knew it was that..." Napatango naman ako at nagpadala nang abutin nya
ako.
Sumandal ako sa kanya, at umakbay sya sa akin habang hinahaplos ang braso ko.
"I will go to the hospital now, hmm?" I nodded habang nakasandal sa dibdib nya.
"Take care..." I whispered.
"I will," Aniya. "I will do my best for this, I will talk to the police,
nandoon sila sa ospital ngayon..."
"D-Did they know I'm here with you?" He nodded.
"Yes, there's a police outside when they found out you're with me..." Napaayos
ako ng upo. Mabilis akong lumingon sa kanya pero ngumiti lang sya sa akin at muli
akong hinila.

"They won't hurt you, they'll just be here to look after

you... Sinabi ko na ring nasa akin na ang statement mo so, you don't have to
worry..."
"B-But what if they'll jail me?"
"They won't..." Aniya. "Hindi ako papayag, they can't jail an innocent woman, I
will also give them my final diagnosis so, you don't have to worry, okay?"
I nodded, contented of what he is saying. Humugot ako ng hininga at napapikit
roon habang nakasandal sa kanya sa sobrang pagod at pagkabalisa.
There you go, Scira... You've told him everything...
Nagising ako nang alas-kwatro na ng hapon, I have slept too much. Hindi ko rin
napansing nakatulog ako kanina habang nasa tabi ni Doc.
Maybe because I was really exhausted.
Naupo ako sa kama at inayos ang nagulo kong buhok, I yawned. Iniikot ang tingin
sa kwarto ni Doc at nakitang kagaya ng opisina nya ay ang aliwalas rin sa paningin
nang kwarto nya.
It was in combination of black and white, actually the whole house is like
that. The room was too big, parang bahay na namin ito nila Nanay.
It has a king size bed, sa tabi ay may kulay itim na side table at lampshade. I
saw a vanity mirror on the side and sa isang parte ng kwarto ay ang kanyang walk-in
closet.
He was really rich, I think, kanina nga ay may jacuzzi sa banyo nya!
Saglit akong nag-ayos at bumaba sa sala. It was quiet, nakita kong may mga
pulis roon sa labas at kahit natatakot ako ay bumaba pa rin ako.
Nag-ikot ako roon sa may sala nila, I saw picture frames in there so I roamed
around. Una kong nakita ay si Doc noong bata pa sya.
He was wearing a cowboy gear that time, wearing his boots. Nakasakay rin sya sa
kabayo roon.
I smiled, he was really good looking, bata pa sya rito yet, he has that charm
that you'll actually look back once he walked passed you.
The next photo was is when he's in college, he was wearing his glasses here!
He's wearing a white uniform over all, wala syang stubbles rito at looking at him
made me smile more.
Nalipat ko ang tingin ko sa kanilang family photo at pinakatitigan ko iyon.
I saw a woman in her late 40's, nakakulay itim itong gown sa litrato, she was
looking strict and formal, wala itong ngiti sa mga mukha nya at nakatitig lang sa
camera. A man, also in his 40's was sitting beside him, he was wearing a black
tuxedo, like his wife, looking serious and strict.
In the back of the couch where they are sitting is their three children. Kaagad
na naagaw ng pansin ko si Ate Gwy na suot ang kulay asul na gown habang malambing
na nakatingin sa camera, she was smiling. Nakuha rin ng pansin ko ang isang lalaki
sa kanang parte, I wonder if this is his brother?
His eyes are the same as Doc's, he was serious, just like his parents. Napansin
ko rin ang pagkakahawig nila ni Doc sa shape ng mukha.
Now, my eyes shifted to my sweet doctor. His eyes are deep that you can get
lost in there forever. He was staring at the camera intensely and I somehow wonder
what happened to the man behind this photo after seeing his stares.
His red lips tugged into a half smile and I bit my lip at that. He didn't have
any stubbles here so I am having a nice view of his face.
He was wearing a blue armani suit, his hair tugged upwards.
"Hija?" Nawala ang atensyon ko sa litrato ko nang may tumawag sa akin. I looked
at her direction and smiled when I saw Doc's nanny.
"Hello po," I smiled.
"Hello," Ngiti nya sa akin. "Halika at kumain ka muna, hija, naghanda ako ng
makakain mo..."
"Salamat po..." I smiled at sumunod sa kanya.
I talked to her while we're eating, ang sabi nya'y bata pa lang si Doc ay alaga
na nya ito at isa daw itong napakabait na bata and I knew it was true.
She was fun to talk to, napakabait rin nya sa akin at magaan ang loob ko habang
kausap sya. I somehow remembered my Nanay to her.
Halos parehas kasi sila magsalita and I coudn't help but feel sad at that.
Lumipas ang mga oras at nanatili lang ako sa terrace ng kwarto ni Doc. It was
late yet he wasn't here so I was worried.
Umakyat na rin ako dahil natatakot ako doon sa mga pulis sa labas, they were
looking at me, na tila ba ay tatakas ako kaya naiilang ako.
Mula sa malayo ay may nakita akong papalapit na kotse kaya napangiti ako.
It was him! I knew it!
Mabilis akong tumakbo pababa at inabangan sya sa may pintuan pagpasok nya. I
saw him parked his car and get out of it.
I was smiling while waiting for him and when he saw me ay nakita kong
nagliwanag ang ekspresyon nya.
I waved my hand and smiled at halos malalaking hakbang na lumapit sya sa akin
at nagulat ako nang bigla nya akong yakapin.
I was starled, humigpit naman ang yakap nya at lumayo para halikan ang noo ko.
"I made it!" He exclaimed and my eyes widen.
"You do?" He nodded and I screamed in happiness at that. Yumakap ako sa leeg
nya at natatawang yumakap sya sa akin at sumubsob sa leeg ko.
"Thank you... Thank you..." I whispered, my heart pounding in so much delight.
Humiwalay sya sa akin at hinawakan ang pisngi ko.
"No, thank you..." He smiled. "Thank you because you're strong, thank you
because you weren't afraid to tell me everything..."
Nakagat ko ang labi ko nang nakitang masaya sya.
"Thank you for trusting me..." He said and I was in the verge of crying at
that.
"You are worth trusting for..." I murmured and smiled gently.
"I will tell you everything, hmm?" I nodded at that.
"Okay, thank you!" I cheered and tiptoed to kissed his cheeks.
He licked his lips, hiding his smile as he pinched my cheeks.
"I'm tired, reyna ko..." Humiwalay sya sa akin at bahagyang umunat. "My back
hurts," Ngiwi nya.
Napanguso naman ako at nagtanong.
"What can I do?" I asked.
Bigla naman syang ngumuso at tinuro ang labi nya. My eyes widen at that at
napangisi sya.
"Kiss lang, reyna..." His lips protruded and leaned in pero mabilis kong
tinakpan ang bibig nya.
 "No!" I shook my head at tinanggal nya ang kamay ko sa bibig nya at sumimangot.
"Why? I had a long day, my back hurts and we already kissed last nigh--"
"No!" I exclaimed at nangunot lang ang noo nya. "P-Panaginip mo lang 'yun!"
"What?" He chuckled. "I am wide awake last night, Scira, so..."
"No! Sinasabi ko sa'yo panaginip lang 'yun!" I exclaimed. "W-Wala nga akong
naalala na nagkiss tayo e!"
He raised his brow.
"Ows?" He mocked me at tumango ako para kumbinsido talaga.
"Yes, w-we didn't kissed at all!"
"Gusto mo paalala ko sa'yo?" My eyes widen at that. Nanliit ang mata nya sa
akin kaya tumikhim ako at umayos ng tayo.
"W-Wala ka namang ipapaalala kasi wala naman talaga nangyari..." I said
confidently.
"H-Hindi mo alam na crush kita, hindi ko alam na nagkiss tayo--" He gave me a
peck at umawang ang labi ko.
"There, remember?" He grinned at nang samaan ko sya ng tingin ay tumawa sya.
"Doc nga!" I hissed pero bigla syang kumaripas ng takbo sa harapan ko kaya
napasigaw ako at hinabol sya.

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Kabanata 8

Kabanata 8
I was at the side of the pool, playing the water with my feet. Sumipa-sipa ako
roon at matamis na napangiti ng makita ang pagtilamsik ng tubig.
I was really relieved today, knowing that I've said everything to Doc, it was
really helpful to somehow release my anxiety.
"Here," Nag-angat ako ng tingin at matamis na napangiti ng makita si Doc na
nakatayo sa likuran ko.
"Thank you..." I said before getting the Yakult he was giving me, inilagay ko
ang maliit na straw roon at napasulyap nang maupo si Doc sa tabi ko.
"Have you sleep well last night?" He asked and I nodded at him.
"Medyo," I said. "I had a dream but it wasn't that bad at all..."
"What is it?" He asked, I saw him wearing a gray shirt and khaki pants, inabot
ko ang eyeglasses nya at hinayaan nya lang ako.
"Malabo na eyes mo?" I asked.
"Hmm, yes..." He said and I bit my lip, smiling as I return the glasses on his
eyes.
Napapikit sya roon at nagulat ako ng hulihin nya ang palapulsuhan ko at humalik
sa balat ko.
My eyes widen, he chuckled at that and ruined ny hair.
"Sorry, can't help it..." He whispered and I pouted, feeling happy.
"Gusto mo malaman ang dream ko?" He nodded, placing my hand on his leg, gently
caressing my fingers.
"Yes..." He looked at me. "Would you tell me?"
"Of course," I smiled at him.
"Hmm, I dreamt about me, I was I think in college that time..." I told him.
"I wonder what you looked like in college..." He chuckled. "I bet you're
beautiful eversince..."
"Halata naman diba?" I faced him and smiled at napatawa sya bago kurutin ang
ilong ko.
"Yeah, I know..." He shook his head, laughing. "Then?"
"I was going out of the campus' gate when I saw a car, tapos 'dun sa sasakyan
may lumabas na tatlong lalaki..." Sabi ko and his forehead creased at that.
"Then? Anong ginawa sa'yo? Did they hurt you?" Tanong nya and I shook my head.
"No... No..." I said. "They were just fetching me..."
 "Hmm?" Takang tanong nya. "Why?"
"I... Don't know..." I said at nakita kong naguguluhan sya ng bahagya roon. His
lip twitched at stared at me.
"Perhaps..." He cleared his throat. "Do...you have a boyfriend back then?"
I chuckled and shrugged my shoulders.
"I don't know..." I said.
"Isipin mo!" Ungot nya at nakasimangot kaya nailing ako.
"Wala nga akong naaalala..." I told him at napakamot sya ng kilay nya.
"If you have a boyfriend back then, paano ako--" Bigla syang tumikhim at
tumahimik.
"Uy, ano 'yan, huh?" I teased at tinaasan nya lang ako ng kilay kaya natawa
ako.
"Nothing... Sige na, magkwento ka pa. I'll try helping you remembering para
magkaalaman tayo..." Masungit nyang sabi.
"Asus!" I bumped his shoulder and smiled. "Ganito 'yan, sinundo nila ako, then,
I saw their eyes, lahat color blue..."

"Ano mo 'yun?" I shrugged.

"I am not sure but I called them Kuya so, I assume..." Bigla syang napahugot ng
hininga roon. I grinned when I saw his relaxed face.
"That's good..." Napahawak sya sa sentido. "Akala ko kung ano na..."
"You think it's a just a dream?" I asked.
"I don't think so, it may be a glimpse of memories you have lost..." Aniya at
napatango ako.
"Siguro..." I smiled. "The men in my dreams are good, tinanong ko pa nga sila
kung bakit nila ako sinundo then they said kasi daw may dinner date kaming
lahat..." I chuckled at that.
He was just staring at me, smiling as he listened to me.
"I think you have a great family..." Aniya, I saw how a lone expression crossed
his eye.
"Sana..." I said softly. "B-But unfortunately, I coudn't even remember their
names, they didn't even searched for me..."
"How about their faces?" I shook my head at that.
"No, just their eyes... Blurred e..." He nodded, inilagay nya ang buhok sa
likod ng tenga ko at ngumiti.
"I wish I have a family like yours..." I stopped at that, my forehead creased
as I look at him.
"Why?" I asked. He gave me a half-smile and shook his head, sumandal sya sa
balikat ko at bumuntong-hininga.
"Let's not talk about that," He sighed. "I will tell you what happened
yesterday..."
I want to insist his story but I did not even try, first, I don't want to make
him uncomfortable and sad because he looks like it.
"Sige..." I said.
"So, I went back to the hospital, right?" I nodded.
"Then I give them your statement, I also gave them my diagnosis about you..."
Mataman akong nakinig sa kanya dahil sa sinabi nya.
"Then, nalaman ko rin na wala silang sapat na ebidensya for you to be the main
suspect of the incident..." My forehead creased.
"Why?"
"No fingerprints was found on the gun..." Aniya at napakurap ako roon.
"How? I saw in my own eyes how that man shoot my parents!" I told him.
"They probably wore something to cover the prints..." Aniya at napaisip ako
roon.
"I think meron..." I said, remembering the scene.
"Good thing you didn't touch the gun," He sighed. "If it's another case then
it'll be hard for us to do this..."
 "I was about to get it, kasi 'yung ginamit ay 'yung baril ni Tatay tapos 'nung
nasa aktong kukunin ko na, that's when the police came and saw me..." I said, I
felt a heavy pang in ny chest kaya napatitig ako sa tubig sa pool.
"What will happen now?" I asked him and he sighed.
"You'll be release because of the lack of evidence..." Aniya sa akin. "But
it'll be hard for us to prove that it's the mayor who did all these..."
Napaharap ako sa kanya at napahugot ng hininga.
"What can we do?" I asked.
"You'll serve as an eye witness," Aniya sa akin. "Pupunta tayong presinto para
kausapin ka ng mga pulis sa susunod na araw, they'll tell you everything..."
Nanghihinang tumango ako at humugot ng hininga. Bahala na... I will do
everything to justify my parent's death. I want justice for them...
Doc left and I was alone again in the house, napadpad ako sa library nya at
nang may makitang libro sa architecture ay hindi ko alam kung bakit natuwa ako.

I had fun browsing it, reading what was in there at

naintindihan ko pa nga ang mga terms so I am really enjoying it.
I spent my day sketching houses, pinakialaman ko kasi ang mga papel roon sa
library at lapis para makaguhit.
It helps me a lot to reduce my stress and anxiety, sa ngayon ay hindi ko pa
muli naririnig ang mga boses and that was really amazing.
I smiled when I saw the sketch I've been working for an hour now, it was my
Nanay, she was really pretty here, smiling like an angel at me.
I caressed the drawing and smiled. I know Nanay's on heaven right now, she's
been good to me, she treated me like her own...
"Hija?" Nawala ang pansin ko sa iginuhit nang may kumatok sa pintuan. I saw
Yaya Sita on the door and I smiled when I saw her.
"Bakit po?" I asked.
"Nasa ibaba ang kapatid ni Thorn, hinahanap ka..."
"Si Ate Gwy po?" I asked and when she nodded ay ibanaba ko sa lamesa ang papel
at inayos ang shirt na suot ko.
I walked downstairs and saw Ate Gwy sitting in the sofa, umiinom sya roon
kasama si Kristy at nang makita ako ni Kristy ay sumigaw sya.
"Tita Scira!" She exclaimed, I smiled at her, dali-dali akong bumaba at nang
tumakbo sya sa akin ay nakangiting binuhat ko sya at hinalikan sa pisngi.
"Hi, Kristy! How are you?" I cheered.
"I'm good po! How about you, Tita?" She kissed my cheek and I giggled at that.
"I'm good, thank you..." I smiled at her.
"Hi, Scira..." Nabaling ang tingin ko kay Ate Gwy at nangiti. Bumaba sa
pagkakakarga si Kristy sa akin at kaagad akong lumapit kay Ate para humalik sa
pisngi nya.
She hugged me and smiled sweetly.
"How are you?" She asked me genuinely. Hinawakan nya ang pisngi ko.
"I'm good po..." I smiled. "Doc Thorn helped a lot..." I said.
"Dapat lang!" She exclaimed. "Yari sa akin 'yun kapag pinabayaan ka!"
"He's great in taking care of me..." I chuckled.
"Good to hear that," Aniya at humawak sa braso ko. He pulled me softly to the
sofa at sat beside me.
"Ayos ka lang? Ang pakiramdam mo?" She asked and my heart warmed at that. She
was like my big sister...
"Okay lang..." Sagot ko. She sighed, hinawi nya ang buhok.
"I didn't know what you've been through," She stared sadly at me. "Sorry,
Scira... You've been through a lot..."
"It's fine," I smiled a little. "Maybe this is what God gave me, maybe he gave
me this challenges to be strong..."
"I really like you," Ngiti nya sa akin. "You're just so pure and a good woman,
now, I know what my annoying brother saw in you..."
 I chuckled at that at napailing lang sya habang natatawa.
"I'll tell you something later, okay?" I nodded at nanh niyaya nya akong kumain
ay kumuha ako.
We talked about random things, sinabi nya sa aking nalaman nya ang nangyari sa
akin dahil sinabi ni Doc. She was also in the hospital yesterday to check on me
pero wala ako roon at si Doc lang kaya nagtanong sya at nalaman nya.
Kristy is playing with me, ngayon naman ay barbie ang nilalaro naming dalawa.
Ate Gwy is with us, nagpapasalita rin sya ng barbie at natatawa ako sa kanya.

Hindi binagayan ng suot nya ang pagsalampak sa sahig at

paglalaro ng barbie. She was wearing a red longsleeve top and fitted pants,
nakapoytail rin ang diretso nyang buhok at siguradong pang-opisina nya iyon.
"Ate Gwy..." We both stopped when we heard a voice, sabay kaming napalingon at
nakita kong lalaki iyon.
It wasn't Kuya Ark, ang sabi ni Ate Gwy ay nasa site daw ito at may pasok.
"Darius, you came!" Ate Gwy smiled at tumayo and hugged him.
"Of course..." He chuckled at napatitig ako sa lalaki.
He was tall, just like Doc Thorn, his face is clean, without any stubbles on
like Doc but their eyes are similar to each other.
He was wearing a coat and tie, nakataas rin ang buhok nya at halos hawig sila
ni Doc, only that Doc has more strong features than him.
Halos magkasingkatawan sila ni Doc but I like Doc's body more...
"Scira, come here..." Napatayo ako mula sa pagkakasalampak at lumapit kay Ate
Gwy.
Nakita kong napatitig sa akin 'yung Darius. I saw how his eyes moved and
followed me kaya nahihiyang nagbaba ako ng tingin.
"Scira, I want you to meet Darius..." Napaangat ako ng tingin at ngumiti ng
maliit. "He was my brother, pangalawa, bago si Thorn..."
"Hello po..." I smiled and nodded.
"Hi, Scira... Nice meeting you..." He offered his hand at inabot ko iyon. We
shook hands and he smiled at me.
Now, I remembered him! Sya 'yung nasa picture kagabi na nakita ko!
Nagpatuloy kami sa paglalaro, nang sumapit naman na ang gabi ay nagpahinga na
si Kristy sa sobrang pagod at nasa sofa kaming tatlo.
Ate Gwy and Darius is speaking, naroon naman ako at tahimik na nakikinig lang
sa kanila.
"How old are you, Scira?" Ate Gwy suddenly asked kaya napaangat ako ng tingin
sa kanila.
"I actually don't know..." I smiled a little. I saw Darius' forehead creased,
hawig talaga sila ni Doc.
"Oh, I forgot, she had an amnesia," Kwento ni Ate Gwy at nakita kong napatango
si Darius roon.
"How did that happened?" He asked me and I cleared my throat and spoke.
"I-I think I fell on the cliff," I said. "Sabi dati nila Nanay ay doon nila ako
nakita..."
"Oh..." Napatango ito sa sinabi ko.
"Did you have any head trauma or what?" I shrugged my shoulders and smiled at
little.
"Thorn is working on that, he'll check on her once he's done..." Ani Ate Gwy
kaya nagulat ako roon. Mukhang nakita nya ang itsura ko kaya napangiti sya sa akin.
"Thorn is really fond of you, Scira..." She smiled at napalunok ako at
pinakiramdaman ang pagtibok ng puso ko.
Nang umalis saglit si Ate Gwy para puntahan si Yaya Sita ay naiwan kaming
dalawa sa sala, tahimik kong tinitigan ang daliri ko at nang tumikhim sya ay
napalingon ako.
"Scira..." Aniya.
"Why?" I asked.
 "Where did you met Thorn?" Aniya. He was almost a duplicate of Doc Thorn,
though, mas attractive pa rin talaga para sa akin ang huli.
"Nakilala ko s'ya 'nung nagpatulong sya kasi nasira ang sasakyan nya..." I
smiled upon remembering that, hindi ko alam na aabot sa ganito ang pagkakakilala ko
sa kanya.

I am started to think if that was a mere accident or fate

who let our paths cross each other.
"Nainis sya 'no? Nung nasiraan sya?" I smiled and nodded.
"Yes, I remembered him annoyed, the very first time I saw him..." Tawa ko. "But
he was kind and a good man, he even gave me a rose as a thank you gift..."
"Mabait talaga 'yan," Tawa nya. "But you know he's rude sometimes,"
"Oh?" Gulat kong tanong. "I don't know he's like that... Mabait naman sya
palagi sa akin..."
"There are times where he'll get mad at me because of stupid reasons," He
chuckled, remembering the memories.
"Anong mga reason?" I asked, attentive of the topic.
"Kapag nanalo ako sa video games, kapag sinasabi kong mas gwapo ako sa kanya,
things like that..." Natawa ako at tumango.
Mababaw nga.
"He was fun, a good younger brother to me..." Ngumiti sya pero maya-maya ay
nawala ito. "I hope everything is like the past..." I heard the sadness on his
voice.
"Bakit? Why now?" I asked curiously, naalala ko rin ang sinabi ni Doc kanina
nung nasa pool kami kaya nagtataka ako.
"Issues came..." He laughed, his voice faint.
"What kind of issues?" I asked but before he could answer ay nakita ko ang
pagpasok ni Doc at nagulat ako sa biglang paghatak nya sa akin patayo.
"What are you doing here?" Doc's voice is hard and cold as he stared darkly at
Darius.
Nagtaka ako roon at kumapit sa likuran nito pero itinago nya lang ako sa likod.
"Thorn..." Biglang tumayo si Darius at humarap rito.
"What the hell are you doing here?" He asked hardly and I couldn't even
recognize him kaya hinila ko ang damit nya.
"D-Doc..." I called.
"I just came here to visit--"
"Stop playing like you're a good brother, Darius..." He said coldly and I saw
how his jaw clenched.
My heart's pace doubled, looking at him staring darkly at his brother.
His leaned back is on my face but I can see how hard his expression is.
"Look, Thorn..." Kalmadong sabi ni Darius sa kanya. "I don't have any bad
intentions, I just came here to visit..."
Doc Thorn laugh mockingly, his voice filled with sarcasm..
"Visit?" He shook his head. "Kailan mo pa ako binisita na walang kapalit, huh?
When did you ever asked how I am doing without any favor from me?"
I felt his pain while he was saying that, Darius remained calm, his stares are
intense.
"Thorn..." He breathe. "If this is about our parents then--"
"Kompetisyon nanaman ba, huh?" He said, his voice full of bitterness. "What
will you tell our parents this time?"
"Look, Thorn..."
"Don't give me that bullshits, Darius! I'm done with that!" His voice roared at
napahawak ako sa braso nya sa kaba.
I saw his hand on fist, animo'y isang salita pa ay iigkas na ito kaya dagli
kong inabot iyon.
"Doc..." I whispered. I caressed his arm with my other hand and I saw him
relaxed.
 Inabot ko ang kamay nya at hinawakan ang nakakuyom nyang kamay.
"Calm down..." I whispered. Mabilis at malalim ang paghinga nya.

"Doc..." I whispered again and I felt how slowly he opened

his fisted palm.
He shoulders slacked, nakita ko ang paglalim ng hininga nya at ang pagbukas ng
palad nya. I felt how his fingers grasps mine, entertwining our digits in every
gaps.
"What's happening here?" Ate Gwy's high pitched voice is what I've heard, sa
paglingon ko ay kunot ang noo nya habang papunta sa pwesto namin.
"Ate..." I called her at napansing nagtatagisan pa rin ng tingin ang dalawa.
"Ano nanaman ba 'yan, huh?" She hissed. "Bata pa ba kayo, huh? Ano nanamang
pinag-aawayan nyo?"
"Why did you bring this asshole in my house?" Doc Thorn's voice laced with
hatred.
"Don't you call your older brother like that, Thorn Arzeus!" She hissed at him
at humigpit ang hawak ni Doc sa kamay ko.
"He's not my brother!" He exclaimed at nakita ko ang dilim sa mga mata nya.
"Sinabi ko lang naman sa kanyang bumibisita ako..." Darius told her at nakita
ko ang pag-igting ng panga ni Doc.
He was about to attack him kaya hinila ko sya at pinirmi.
"Calm down..." I said, holding his hands tight.
"Kumalma nga kayo!" Ate Gwy exclaimed. "Darius, maupo ka!" Naupo ito at nang
bumaling sya kay Doc ay napailing sya.
"Thorn, sit down, we'll talk about--"
"I don't wanna talk to that--" He said stubbornly.
"Doc," I called him kaya napalingon sya sa akin. Our eyes met, I saw how the
darkness faded at nakita kong lumambot ang ekspresyon ng mga mata nya.
"Thorn, calm down! Do you want her to see that side, huh?!" He closed his eyes,
calming himself and I just stared at him.
I caressed his fingers, just like what he is always doing to me.
He opened his eyes again and saw his soft eyes.
"I'm sorry..." He breathe, I saw regret on his eyes but I smiled at him.
"It's alright, just calm down..." I told him at tumango sya roon. I caressed
his cheek, he closed his eyes at that and nodded again.
"Okay... I'm sorry..." Aniya at marahan ko syang hinila papunta sa sofa para
maupo.
Darius stayed on the side of the sofa, Ate Gwy is in the middle while me and
Doc is at the other side of the sofa.
I was still holding his hand, wala naman syang imik sa tabi ko at malalim lang
ang paghinga.
"Ano bang nangyayari sa inyong dalawa, huh?" Ate Gwyneth asked.
Walang umimik sa dalawa at nakita kong seryoso lang si Darius habang tahimik
ring nakasandal sa akin si Doc.
"Sumagot kayo!" She strictly said at si Darius na ang sumagot.
"We were talking, me and Scira, then out of the sudden, he pulled her away and
hid him on his back..." Ani Darius.
Ate Gwy's lip twitched, nilingon nya si Doc na tahimik pero nakaigting ang
panga sa tabi ko.
"What can you say, Thorn?" She asked.
"He can't talk to Scira..." He said flatly and I was starled at that
"Oh?" Natawa si Ate Gwy. "Why can't he talk to her?"
"Kasi ayoko..." He answered hardly, nagkatinginan kami ni Ate Gwy. Her brow
raised and she winked at me kaya napakagat ako ng labi roon.
I saw Darius' lips lifted, nakakunot noo pa rin naman si Doc at nakahawak lang
sa kamay ko.
 "Yun lang?" Ate Gwy asked.
"Lang? Hindi lang 'yun..." Sikmat ni Doc at tumingin doon sa dalawa. "You know
what are the other reasons, Ate..."
"That was a long time ago, Thorn! Malalaki na kayo!"
Doc laughed sarcastically, raising his head and eyeing Darius on the side.
"Long time ago?" He smirked at that. "Asked him if it was a long time ago o
hanggang ngayon..." He said coldly.
I looked at them, naguguluhan ako kung anong pinag-uusapan nila pero hindi ako
nakiusyoso. Tho, I was curious, I will wait if he'll tell me or not...
"Enough with this..." Ate Gwy sighed. "Why don't you talk and end this feud?"
Walang umimik sa dalawa at nakita kong napatingin si Ate Gwy doon at napailing.
"Itong mga batang 'to!" She sighed. "Ang laki laki nyo na, ganyan pa rin kayo!"
Hinilot nya ang sentido at napailing.
"Anyway, Thorn..." Napalingon si Doc sa kanya mula sa pagkakasandal sa balikat
ko.
"Hmm?"
"I will take care of Scira, prepare her papers, doon sya sa bahay ko..." I
stopped at that. Nakita kong nangunot ang noo ni Doc at napatingin sa kapatid.
"What are you saying?" He asked.
"She will stay with me, doon sya sa bahay ko..." Ani Ate Gwy sa kanya.
"No way!" He exclaimed at napakurap lang ako.
What's happening?
"Anong no way? Scira will stay with me, doon sya sa bahay ko titira..."
"No..." He shook his head at sumulyap sa akin. "Scira will stay with me..."
"Hindi pwede, babae sya at lalaki ka! Hindi naman porket close kayo ay dito na
sya, she should stay with me, mas maaalagaan ko sya sa bahay..." She insisted.
"Ayoko..." His forehead creased. "Scira will stay with me, dito lang sya..."
"Isa, Thorn! Sakin titira si Scira! I need a friend there! Hindi mo naman sya
mababantayan--"
"I am taking good care of her here!" He held my hand. "So, she will stay
here..." Ngiwi nya.
"No--"
"No, she will stay here and that's final..." He said to end the conversation.
Tumayo sya habang hawak ang kamay ko kaya naguguluhang napatayo rin ako.
"Take care..." Ani Doc at napakaway nalang ako kay Ate Gwy na naiiling nang
hilahin ako nito paakyat sa second floor.
He dragged me upstairs, dire-diretso kaming dalawa sa kwarto nya at nakatingin
lang ako sa likuran nya habang naglalakad.
His grip on my hand is tight but he let go the moment we reached his room.
Pagkabitaw nya sa akin ay dumiretso sya ng terrace kaya sinundan ko sya ng tingin.
I bit my lip and sighed.
What should I do now?
I know he's not in a good mood right now...
Hindi ko rin alam kung ano ang nasa utak nya ngayon, Ate Gwyneth said they are
having a feud, sila ni Darius...
I found myself walking to the terrace, I saw him leaning in the railing, ang
dalawang kamay nya ang naroon at nakita kong nililipad ng hangin ang buhok nya.
He doesn't look like he'd noticed me so I stayed staring at him. I saw how he
unbuttoned the first two buttons of his shirt, I saw his longsleeves rolled up to
his elbows.

He combed his hair with fingers frustatedly, his hair is

now disheveled. He cursed and sighed.
Marahan akong naglakad palapit sa kanya, I bit my lip at that.
They said a hug can make a person feel safe and welcome so I lifted my arm a
little and when I found the gaps of his waist ay marahan kong iniikot ang kamay ko
roon.
I felt him froze, mas inayos ko naman ang yakap sa likuran nya at idinikit ang
pisngi ko sa likod nya.
I heard his sharp breath intake, malalim ang paghinga nya. He smells nice.
"Doc..." I whispered on his back, he did not answer me, naramdaman ko naman ang
kamay nya sa kamay kong nasa tyan nya.
I thought he'd ask me to remove my arms but instead, he shifted his position.
Napatingala ako sa kanya nang humarap sya sa akin.
"Scira..." He breathe and I saw his soft eyes.
"Ayos ka lang?" I smiled at him.
"No..." He honestly whispered and hugged me, he managed to fit his head on the
gap of my neck and sighed heavily.
"Did I scare you?" His tender voice asked me.
"No..." I answered him, caressing his back.
"I'm sorry..." He said. "I just can't help but to get mad, I want to be
protective of you..."
That made me smile, mas niyakap ko sya at parang batang yumakap rin sya sa akin
at pumirmi sa leeg ko.
The cold air was touching my skin but it was set aside because of the warmth
his body is giving.
"Do you want to stay at my sister's house?" He asked me, lumayo sya at
nasalubong ko ang mga mata nya.
It was black, like the skies at night, mysterious, full of secrets that I want
to discover...
"I can let you stay with her if you want... I want to give you the freedom if
you want to, I am not forcing you stay by my side, just tell me--"
"I want here with you..." I honestly said. His eyes soften, inabot ko ang
salamin nya at tinanggal.
I tiptoed and kissed the tip of his nose, making him smile.
"Talaga?" Maamong sabi nya. I nodded, I caressed his stubbles and smiled.
"Yes,"
"You sure? Kung napipilitan ka lang--"
"I am more that sure..." I chuckled. He stared at me for a bit before tilting
my chin and giving me a soft kiss.
Nagulat pa ako roon pero nag-init rin ang pisngi pagkatapos.
"I love seeing you," He sighed. "I want your smell, I want everything about
you, mababaliw ako kapag wala ka dito, reyna ko..."
Ipinatong nya ang noo sa akin at napapikit ako roon.
"I'm going crazy, gusto kong umuuwi ng maaga kasi nandito ka..." Bulong nya. "I
know how fast that is but I guess this feeling knows no time, right?"

"What feeling?" I asked. My heart's been beating wildly like I'll get lost if
this stops.
He lifted my hand and placed it on his chest.
"Feel that?" Aniya. I nodded, staring at my hand on his chest.
"I only feel that when I'm with you..." My mouth parted, kumalabog pa ng mas
malakas ang puso ko at nagkakagulo ang kung ano sa sikmura ko.
"M-My heart's like this too..." I told him and he smiled at that. He chuckled
before bringing my hand on his chest up to his lips.
"My innocent Queen..." He whispered.
"Doc..."
"Thorn," He said. "Call me by my name..."
"Thorn?" I said. He smiled at that, nakita ko pang nakagat nya ang labi kaya
kinurot ko ang pisngi nya.
"Why not Doc?" I asked him.
"You're not my patient anymore, baby..." He laughed.
I pouted, staring at him.
"Why not?" I asked, curious.
 "Because you're my Queen..." My heart thumped so I bit my lip.
"Queen? Ako lang talaga ang Queen mo?" I asked.
"May iba pa ba?" Lumingon sya sa paligid at inilingan ako. "No, you're my only
Queen..."
"Then..." Napaisip ako. "How about Dra. Lim?" I asked. "Isn't she your Queen?"
"Dra. Lim?" His forehead creased. I nodded at him, feeling hurt.
"She told me she's your girlfriend and...and you'll get married soon..." I told
him honestly at nakita kong nagsalubong ang kilay nya.
"When did she told you that?" He asked.
"N-Nung nakaraan, she told me that... So tell me, how can I be your Queen kung
may iba pa?" I asked sharply.
"Perhaps, is it that day when you cried?" I stopped at that. Hindi ko sya
sinagot, I saw his amused face, hinanap nya ang mata ko bago ako ngitian.
"What, hmm? Scira? Is that it?" I made a face, he laughed and kissed my head.
"Is my Queen jealous?" He teased.
"So, totoo nga?" I asked him pero natatawang umiling sya sa akin.
"Of course not," He said. "Where she'd get that?" I was relieved at that, ang
sakit sa puso ko'y naglaho ng parang bula kaya napahawak ako roon.
"T-Then, am I your only Queen?" He nodded, nagtaka pa ako ng may kung anong
kunin sya sa ere at ipinatong kunwari sa ulo ko.
"Sa'yo na ang korona..." Aniya. Natawa ako roon at napatawa rin sya.
"Mukha ba akong joke?" I hissed but he just chuckled, caughting my waist for a
hug.
"Of course, you're my only Queen. Sa akin ka lang, hmm?" He whispered softly,
kissing my ear.
"Hmm, e ikaw, are you only mine?" I asked, hugging him back.
"Yours, my Queen..." He said. "Only yours..."

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Kabanata 9

Kabanata 9
I woke up feeling light, I didn't have a nightmare again!
Inayos ko ang suot kong damit at naghilamos. I tied my hair in a ponytail and
walk outside the room. It was still early, probably five-thirty in the morning yet
I'm awake.
Habang nasa hallway pagkalabas ko ng kwarto ay nakita ko ang madilim na daan
kaya mabilis akong tumakbo patungo sa kwarto ni Doc.
I turned the knob and it opened, sa pagsilip ko sa kwarto nya ay medyo madilim
roon, kung hindi lamang sa lampshade na nagbibigay ng kaunting ilaw.
Dahan-dahan ko iyong isinara, I walked slowly towards his bed and saw him lying
there. Nakadapa sya sa kama habang ang mukha ay nakapaling sa may pwesto ko kaya
napangiti ako.
Dahan-dahan akong lumapit, dumukwang ako roon sa tabi nya para titigan ang mga
mata nya.
He sleeps like a baby, ang amo-amo ng mukha nya kapag tulog at kapag gising
naman ay sobrang gwapo. How can someone be this perfect?
I licked my lips, staring at me. I can't help but to notice every features of
his face, I didn't know what I would do if it wasn't for this man.
Hindi ko alam kung saan ako pupulutin kung sakali mang hindi ko sya nakilala,
maybe I was still in the hospital till now, siguro ay natuluyan na ako o kung hindi
man ay baka nakuha na ako nang mga pumatay sa magulang ko.
I sighed, I felt the beating of my heart. Still not normal in pace everytime I
get to stare at his face.
I lifted my hand and traced his face with my fingers. His eyes, his nose, his
lips. Napapangiti ako habang hinahaplos ang labi nya, it was soft, mas naging maamo
ang mukha nya dahil sa pagkakaawang ng labi nya habang tulog.
He moved, it was too late to withdraw my fingers from his lips when he caught
my hand. My eyes widen, unti-unti namang bumukas ang mga mata nya at mapungay akong
tinignan.
"Nightmare, baby?" He said hoarsely, his eyes still sleepy.
"N-No..." I cleared my throat at tumagilid sya ng higa habang hawak ang kamay
ko.
"What is it?" Iminulat nya ang mata at pinakatitigan ako.
"N-Nothing... " I answered. "I just want here..."
The side of his lips lifted for a side smile. His sleepy eyes glisten.
"My queen wants here?" He asked, smiling.
"U-Uhm, naistorbo ba kita?" I asked, shy. "S-Sorry, Doc, kasi... Ano, aalis
nalang ako." Tumayo ako at akmang aalis nang higitin nya ang hawak nyang kamay ko.
Napaupo ako sa kama nya at kumalabog ang dibdib ko nang marahang iniangat nya
ang ulo at umunan sa hita ko.
"Stay..." He hummed. I was starled when whe kissed my hand and gently hugged my
waist.
"Doc?"
"Hmm?" Aniya. I felt his lips on my stomach as he hugged me tight.
"N-Nothing..." Kinagat ko ang labi ko.
"Maaga pa," Sabi nya sa akin at marahang hinaplos ko ang buhok nya. His
breathings stilled, maya-maya ay nagrerelax na sya.
Marahang inalis ko ang kamay ko sa buhok nya at natawa ako bigla nang abutin
nya ang kamay ko at ibinalik sa buhok nya.
"Please, my Queen..." He whispered and I obligue. I brushed his hair with my
fingers.
"You like this?" I asked at iniangat nya ang mukha bago tumango sa akin.

"Yes," He yawned. "Keep doing that..." And I did.

Marahang hinahaplos at sinusuklay ko ang buhok nya at noong akala ko'y
nakatulog na sya ulit ay mali ako. Bigla syang umupo at humiga sa kama, akala ko ay
matutulog na sya pero hinila nya ako.
I screamed in shock when I fell on his chest. My eyes widen, pero nginitian nya
lang ako at niyakap ako sa dibdib nya.
Now, nakadapa na ako sa dibdib nya habang sya ay naroon at nakahiga habang
hawak ako.
"Doc?" I blinked and he shook his head and kissed my nose.
"Thorn," Aniya sa akin. "I'm Thorn, right?"
I nodded. Ngumiti naman sya at hinawi ang buhok ko.
"Then, what will the Queen call me?" He asked.
"Thorn," Sagot ko naman and his brows lifted and smirked.
"I like that..." Tawa nya at umusog ako mula sa dibdib nya. I fell on his side,
mabilis naman syang tumagilid at hinarap ako.
"Lift your head, Queen..." Aniya. I lifted my head, inilagay naman nya ang
kamay sa ilalim ng ulo ko at napangiti ako nang naunan ko ang braso nya.
Sumiksik ako sa kanya, he chuckled and hugged my waist that makes it feel more
comfortable and warm.
He smells nice, like musk. Kahit kagigising ay ang bango-bango nya kaya
isiniksik ko ang mukha sa dibdib nya. I heard his breathing, mabilis iyon at
malalim ang paghinga nya.
"Did you sleep well?" His husky voice asked.
"Yes," I whispered, snuggling.
"Have you ever dreamt of something?" Aniya at umiling lang ako sa kanya. I felt
his hug tightened, iniangat ko naman ang ulo ko pala sulyapan sya at nakita kong
nakatingin rin sya sa akin.
I noticed his beard again kaya iniangat ko ang kamay ko at hinaplos ang panga
nya. Matulis iyon sa kamay ko ay nangiti ako.
 "Thorn, how do you maintain this?" I asked.
"This?" Tinuro nya ang panga at tumango naman ako sa kanya. "Well, I'll just
shave it a little kapag kumakapal na..."
"Hmm," I nodded.
"Why? Do you find it ugly? You want me to shave it?" Nag-aalalang tanong nya
kaya mabilis akong umiling sa kanya.
"No," I answered. "I find it hot..." I said honestly.
"Oh?" Biglang nagliwanag ang mata nya. "You find it hot?"
I nodded, biglang syang tumawa at iniangat ang baba ko. He pressed a soft kiss
on my lips kaya nanlaki ang mata ko at mabilis na tinakpan ang bibig ko.
"Why are always kissing me?!" I exclaimed. He laughed, pilit nyang tinatanggal
kamay ko sa bibig ko kaya gumalaw ako at kumawala.
"No!" I screamed.
"Come on, baby! Kiss!'" He cheered and I shook my head.
"No!" Sigaw ko. "You're so unfair! Palagi nalang ikaw ang palaging nagkikiss!
Ako naman!"
He stopped at that. Ako ay natigilan rin at nakita ko kung paano nanliit ang
mata nya sa akin.
"You wanna kiss me?" He teased and my cheeks flushed.
"H-Huh?"
"My Queen wants to kiss me?" He teased at napaigik ako nang mahuli nya ang
kamay ko.
"W-Wala naman akong sinasabi!" I shrieked but he bursted out laughing. Maya-
maya'y ngumuso sya at inilapit ang mukha sa akin kaya nanlaki ang mata ko.

"Come on, my lips is yours to take..." He chuckled at

ngumuso ako.
"Sige na nga!" I gave him a peck at sya naman ang natigilan roon. I saw his
cheek reddened, bigla syang tumikhim at nag-iwas ng tingin kaya natawa na ako.
He lowered his face, I was starled when he hid his face on my neck and
whispered.
"I'm shy..." He said and I laughed at that.
Kasama ko si Thorn ay nagtungo kaming mall, I was beyond ecstatic. Sobrang
excited ako sa byahe at nakadungaw pa sa bintana ng sasakyan.
"You excited?" Nilingon ko si Thorn at tumango.
"Yes!" I exclaimed. He smiled, I saw his eyes landed to my face before
chuckling.
"Okay, your majesty..." Aniya. "I'll go fast..."
We reached the place and I was really amazed by the structure of the mall. It
was beautiful! Sa loob pa ay puno ng naglalakihang stalls ng mall.
I was holding Thorn's hand as we walk around the place. My smile is wide, it's
my first time going out since my parents got me here! Kadalasan kasi ay doon lang
ako sa bukid at bahay at kung aalis man ay sa palengke lang sa amin.
My eyes widen when I saw the thing they are calling escalator.
"Thorn! Look!" I exclaimed.
"Yes, baby?" Aniya at nang ituro ko sa kanya iyon ay natawa sya at inabot ang
baywang ko.
"Come on, para maexperience mo..." Aniya at naeexcite akong humawak sa braso
nya habang inaalalayan nya ako pababa.
"OMG!" I shrieked and he chuckled at that. Inakbayan nya ako at kaagad akong
humawak sa baywang nya habang naglalakad.
We were walking side by side, our fingers intertwined with each other at buong
oras na iyon ay nakangiti lang ako.
I swayed our hands as we walk, sya nama'y nakangiti lang habang nakatingin sa
ginagawa ko. He did not mind it at all, humigpit pa ang hawak nya sa kamay ko roon.
He was wearing a plain white shirt and maong pants, nakakulay puting sneakers
din sya white I am wearing a simple, off-shoulder dress.
 He looks rugged yet serious at the same time, mas nakakagwapo pa ang suot nyang
salamin kaya hindi ko maiwasanh mainis sa mga babaeng umaaligid sa amin rito.
Nagpalinga-linga ako sa paligid at hinawi ang buhok ko. I saw a bunch of men
looking at me, kumaway pa ang isa sa akin at naguguluhan man ay ngumiti ako.
They teased each other, bumping their shoulders and pointing at me kaya
nangunot ang noo ko.
"Damn it," I felt a grip on my waist, sa pagsulyap ko kay Thorn ay masama ang
tingin nya sa mga lalaki roon.
"Why?" I asked him. Hindi nya ako sinagot at nanatiling nakatingin roon kaya
inabot ko ang panga nya.
I moved his face softly so, he'd stare at me at nang mahuli ko ang malamig
nyang mata ay ngumuso ako.
"Why?" I asked.
"Nothing," He shook his head and licked his lower lip.
"Hmm? Then why is your eyebrows like that?" Hinaplos ko ang pagitan ng kilay
nya na halos magsalubong na.
"I just..." He closed his eyes tightly and heaved a deep breath, calming
himself down.
"Just?" I caressed his cheek at bumaba ang tingin nya sa akin at nakita ko ang
paglambot nya.
"You never failed to make me soft..." He smiled a little. "I was just annoyed,
those men keeps on staring at you..."
Nagulat ako roon.

"Oh?" Akmang susulyap ako sa pwesto ng mga lalaki at

mabilis nyang inabot ang pisngi ko.
"Don't..." Aniya. "You can attract men, Scira... Di mo lang alam..." He said,
annoyed.
Ngumuso ako, nangingiti at hinawi ang buhok ko.
"Then, did I attract you?" I asked. He stilled, like he was caught off guard
kaya napatawa na ako.
"Uy, Thorn..." Lambing ko. "Did I attract you too?" I asked. He shook his head,
rolling his eyes.
I giggled and tugged his shirt.
"Sige na..." Pangungulit ko. "Did I? Did I?"
He lowered his face, his eyes screaming adoration and amusement, nagpamulsa pa
sya habang nakatungo sa akin. I stared back at him too, smiling.
He licked his upper lip, stoping his smile to escape his lips.
"Hmm, yes..." My heart almost stop at that. Napaawang ang labi ko, that made
him smile and winked at me.
"I am damned, my Queen... Fucking damned..." He said and tilted my chin to kiss
me softly on the lips.
I had fun going out, kumain kami sa iba't-ibang restos. We spent time in
watching a movie and browsing the place.
He stayed on my side, telling me a lot of things, ang sabi nya sa akin ay dito
lang sya sa tabi ko. He said, he'll always stay with me, no matter what.
"Thorn?" I asked, we were eating ice cream. Nasa swing kaming dalawa. I am
eating a vanilla ice cream while he eats chocolate.
"Hmm?" He asked. He looks adorable sitting there with his large frame.
"Anong feeling maging matangkad?" I asked out of nowhere. He suddenly laugh,
ngumuso naman ako at natatawa lang sya sa akin.
"Hoy, h'wag mong pagtawanan ang tanong ko!" I exclaimed.
"Okay... Okay..." He said, stopping himself. Sumulyap sya sa akin bago ngumisi
nanaman.
"You're not small..." Aniya sa akin. "Matangkad ka naman, hmm?"
"I'm small kaya..." I whinned. "Hanggang sa may dibdib mo lang ako..." I said.
His lips protruded, inubos nya ang ice cream na kinakain bago tumayo.
 "Come here," He offered his hand, nagtataka man ay tumayo ako at lumapit sa
kanya.
"Why?" I asked, still holding the cone of ice cream na medyo paubos na.
"Lapit ka..." And I did, nang lumapit ako sa kanya ay hanggang dibdib nya lang
ako kaya ngumuso ako.
"See?" I whinned. He chuckled, tinungo nya ako at pinitik ang noo ko.
"Stop it, baby..." Aniya. "Mas matangkad ka kaysa sa mga kilala ko..."
"O, bakit si Dra. Katrin!" Reklamo ko at mas natawa lang sya roon sa akin.
"Halos magkasingtangkad nga lang kayo!"
"Your height isn't small or what..." Aniya sa akin. He patted my head at ginawa
akong bata kaya sumimangot ako.
"You're young..." Ani sa akin.
"O, sa tingin mo, ilang taon na ako?" I asked. Sumulyap sya sa akin, as if he
was reading my face.
"Hmm, twenty-one?" Aniya. "But your face is too soft," Aniya at hinaplos ang
pisngi ko.
"Sa tingin mo ganun na nga ako?" I asked.
"Hmm, probably..." Aniya. "Not sure tho..."
"E, ikaw, ilang taon ka na?" I asked him at nakita kong ngumiwi sya roon.

"Don't ask me..." Aniya. I stomped my feet.

"Madaya!" I exclaimed. "Anong nga?"
"I'm old..." Aniya at ako naman ang hindi naniwala sa kanya.
"E, kung konyatan kaya kita?" I said. "Ang gwapo mo nga e!"
Tumaas ang kilay nya. He suddenly brushed his hair with his fingers and stared
at me.
"I'm lucky my Queen is too damn honest..." Umirap ako. Ginulo naman nya ang
buhok ko.
"I'm Twenty-Seven..." Aniya sa akin at nagulat ako roon.
"Talaga?" He nodded. "Hindi halata..."
"I know right..." He shrugged his shoulders. "I'm handsome, I know..."
"Ewan ko sayo, magkakasundo kayo ni Kuya... " Tawa ko bigla at nakita kong
natahimik sya. Natigilan rin ako at napatingin sa kanya.
My eyes widen when I realized what I just said.
"C-Can you remember now?" Aniya sa gulat na tono. Mabilis akong umiling at
napahawak sa bibig ko.
"I-I don't know..." I answered. "It just slipped..."
"Come here," Aniya at nang lumapit ako ay niyakap nya ako kaya yumakap ako sa
kanya pabalik. I was still shocked, paanong nasabi ko iyon? Is it really true na
may mga Kuya ako?
"We'll find out what kind of amnesia you have, okay?" I nodded and he pressed a
kiss on my head.
"'l'll help you remember... I promise..." We stayed there, hugging and I really
wish... Sana nga ay makaalala na ako.
Habang naroon kami at nang kumalma ako ay ngumiti sa akin si Thorn.
His smile is heaven, animo'y kumakalma ako kapag nakikita syang nakangiti sa
akin.
"You alright now?" Aniya. I nodded and smiled softly at him.
"Yes..."
"Then, remember what you asked me?" Aniya at kumunot ang noo ko.
"What?"
"Sabi mo, anong feeling ng matangkad?" Nang maalala ay napatango ako at
napangiti.
"Oo..." I chuckled. "How does it feel?" Bahagyang lumayo sya sa akin, nagtaka
ako roon pero napatili sa gulat nang buhatin nya ang hita ko.
"Oh my God, Thorn!" Tili ko at napahawak sa balikat nya. Nalaglag pa ang cone
kaya napairit ako.
 "Scira, wait!" Tawa nya at nang kumalma ako ay tinungo ko sya.
"What are you doing?" I asked.
"Ganyan ng feeling ng matangkad..." Aniya. Nang marealize iyon ay bigla akong
natawa at napailing sa kanya.
"Seriously, Thorn?"
"Yes," He wiggled his brows, laughing. "Come on, my Queen, what does it feel up
there?" Aniya.
Doon naman ako tumingin sa paligid, dahil nga sa binuhat nya ako ay mas
matangkad ako sa kanya.
"Hmm, it's kinda cold up here..." I said. "Mahangin..."
"Good... Now you can look down on me..." Tawa nya at mas inayos ang buhat sa
akin. He really let me feel this, how cute. Kumalabog ang dibdib ko sa simpleng
kalokohan nyang ito kaya wala sa sariling dinungaw ko sya.
Our faces are inches apart from each other and I suddenly have the guts to ask
him the question I've been always asking on my sleep.
"Will you always be this good to me?" I asked him.

His face brighten, nakita ko ang tagong ngiti sa labi nya

habang nakatingala sa akin.
"Even better..." Aniya.
My heart thumped. Tumungo ako para abutin ang labi nya at nakita kong napapikit
sya roon.
I suddenly stopped, his eyes are now closed and waiting for the kiss kaya bigla
akong nangisi.
I flicked his forehead, napaungol sya roon at mabilis na nagmulat at
napahagikhik ako bago kumawala sa karga nya at tumakbo.
"Scira!" He exclaimed and I laughed.
"Akala mo, kiss na 'no?!" Sumimangot sya. I stucked my tongue out at him.
"You woman!" He exclaimed at napasigaw ako ng tumakbo sya. I ran, huli na para
mas bilisan ko ang pagtakbo nang mahuli nya ako.
He caught my legs, napatili ako ng buhatin nya ako at isampa sa balikat nya.
"Thorn!" I screamed, pinalo ko ang likuran nya pero tumawa lang sya at tinakbo
ang sasakyan habang buhat ako at ipinasok ako sa loob.
We excitedly went out of his car the moment we reached his house. I am just
feeling light today, I can't feel anything at this moment except happiness.
He told me that we'll watch a horror movie later at night at magluluto daw sya
ng popcorn kaya naeexcite ako.
I watched him as he jogged on my side and open the door for me. Nang ilahad nya
ang kamay ay mabilis kong tinanggap iyon at sa pagbaba ko ay humalik ako sa pisngi
nya.
He smiled at that. Inabot nya ang kamay ko at nangingiting hinawakan ko rin ang
kamay nya pabalik.
"Anong maiaambag mo sa ngayon?" Aniya habang naglalakad kami.
My lips protruded and looked at him.
"I can prepare drinks for us?" I said. "Juice?"
He chuckled, nodding his head.
"Great, I thought you'll say, I just have to serve you while you choose a movie
for us..." Aniya at ngumiwi naman ako.
I smacked his arm, tatawa-tawang umakbay sya sa akin at hinalikan ang sentido
ko.
"Joke lang, Reyna ko..." Aniya. "Come on..."
While were on our way inside, napansin ko ang ibang sasakyang nakaparada roon
sa gilid. My forehead creased, it wasn't Thorn's I think...
We went inside, it was still weird, seeing other people's car kaya nilingon ko
sya.
"Thorn..." I called him but I saw his eyes fixed infront of us. Nagtaka ako
roon kaya nilingon ko ang nasa harapan namin.
 I almost froze when I saw people infront of us.
"Mom..." Naramdaman ko ang pag-alis ni Thorn ng pagkakaakbay sa akin at mabilis
akong napaayos ng tayo.
Infront of us is a beautiful woman, probably on her mid-40s. She was wearing a
simple blouse and pants, with pearls around her neck and her ear, looking
sophisticated and strict.
Beside her is a man just like her age, pansin ko ang pagkakahawig nila ni
Thorn, he looks serious and respectable with his longsleeves and necktie, ang coat
na suot ay mas lalong nagdepina sa awtoridad nito.
"Thorn, hijo..." Ani nito. His eyes landed to me at halos kilabutan ako sa
lamig na hatid nito.
"Dad?" Sa paglingon ko ay nakita kong tikom ang bibig ni Thorn at seryoso rin
ang mukha nya.
"Let's talk..." Ani ng Mommy nya at nilingon ako, I stilled with her stares.
Mula paa ay hinagod nya ako ng tingin hanggang sa mukha ko.
I felt chills at that, malamig ang tingin na ibinigay nya sa akin bago
humalukipkip sa harapan ng anak nya.

Hindi ako nakapag-react kaagad 'dun, I felt really nervous

looking at them. They were honestly intimidating, like I felt ashamed of myself in
just a snap.
"Scira..." Kaagad akong lumingon kay Thorn at nakita kong seryoso syang
nakatingin sa akin. I coudn't read his emotions, ang kanina'y masaya ay nauwi sa
ganito.
He looks stiff but when I felt his hand on my skin ay bigla kong naisip na
hindi sya ganito.
"Can you..." Hinanap nya ang mata ko at nakita ko ang lambot roon. "Can you go
upstairs? We'll just talk..."
"S-Sure..." I nodded at him bago muling bumaling sa dalawang tao sa harapan
nya.
"G-Good evening po..." I bowed a little, showing my respect but I do not hear
any response. Mabilis akong umayos ng tayo bago marahang umalis roon sa harapan
nila.
I went upstairs but I was still on my midstep ay narinig ko na ang boses roon.
"Is that the woman?" Her mother asked. I stopped on my tracks.
"Mom..." Thorn warned her. Mabilis naman akong umakyat pero hindi ko alam sa
sarili ko kung bakit ko piniling manatili sa gilid ng hagdan sa ikalawang palapag
at nagtago.
"What now, huh? You're afraid she'll hear it?" Her sharp voice asked. "Let her
hear this!"
"Mom! Lower your voice!" Thorn's voice roared.
"Is that the woman? 'Yung sa murder?" I felt my chest throbbing at that. "Is
she the reason why you're fighting the Mayor, huh?"
"Mom, please, I know what I'm doing..." Ani Thorn.
"For pete's sake, Thorn! What the hell are you thinking?!" Galit nyang sigaw
doon sa ibaba.
"Wala syang kasalanan, Mom! I talked to her and she didn't kill them, I need to
defend her--"
"By what, huh? Kakalabanin mo si Sebastian?" His father's voice asked at
kumuyom ang kamay ko roon sa takot sa lamig nito.
"Dad..." Thorn heaved a deep breath. "You know that man has done a lot of
crimes, dapat lang na maikulong sya--"
"At ano, akala mo may laban ka?" He asked and I heard nothing but silence after
that.
"Even if we're influential here, Sebastian ang kakalabanin mo, Thorn!" Ani
nito. "You can't fight that person! Ano, gusto mong idamay ang pamilya natin sa
kahibangan mo?"
 "Dad, I just..."
"You're unbelievable, son!" Her Mom hissed. "Akala ko ay nagbago ka na! And
you're fighting for what? For that crazy slut?"
"Mom!" His voice raised at naramdaman ko ang pangingilid ng luha ko. "She's not
a slut!"
"Oh, come on, Arzeus!" Sigaw nito. "She's a murderer for pete's sake! She
killed her parents! She's crazy!"
"Stop calling her names!" Thorn's voice roared.
"What? Totoo naman diba? Baliw sya, Thorn! And what gave you the guts to let
her stay in this house?! What if she woke up in the middle of the night and struck
a knife on your chest?!"
"Stop it, Mom! She won't--"
"Let her leave! Paalisin mo sya dito, Thorn! She deserves to be on jail! Don't
get fooled by that pretty face! She's a demon in disguis--"
"Mom! Stop it!" Galit nyang sigaw. "Stop calling her names! Baka makalimutan
kong nanay kita!"
Sa pagsilip ko ay nakita ko ang seryosong mukha ni Thorn. His jaw is clenched,
his eyes are cold, ang kamay nya ay nakakuyom at kaagad kong naramdaman ang
pananakit ng puso ko.

"What..." His Mom breathe unbelievingly.

"Do not ever call her like that." Mariing sabi nito. "You don't know her, Mom,
you don't have the right to call her that."
"I can't believe you!" Nahihiwagang sabi ng Mommy nya and my tear fell at that.
I sobbed pero tinakpan ko ang bibig ko at naupo sa gilid ng hagdan.
"You're still nothing but a disappointment, Thorn..." His father said and I bit
my lip to stop myself from crying.
It's because of me... Pahamak ako sa buhay nya...
"I know..." I saw Thorn's bitter smile and the pain on his eyes.
"You will never be better than your brother and sister..." He said, shaking his
head.
I put my hand on my chest and felt its excruciating pain. I feel him, mas
masakit pa ang malamang disappointment ka para sa mga magulang mo kaysa sa mga
sinabi nila sa akin.
I saw Thorn nodded, his smile's fake and bitter.
"Please leave..." Thorn said.
"You're unbelievable..." Ani ng Mommy nya.
"You will regret this, Thorn..." Ani ng Dad nya. "You're such a
disappointment..."
Hindi ko na kinaya ang nakikita ko kaya mabilis akong tumayo at tinakbo ang
guest room kung nasaan ako nananatili.
I locked the door and settled myself on one side of the room. Ang luha sa mga
mata ko ay patuloy na umaalpas.
Nagiging pabigat na ako kay Thorn... I am crazy, hindi ako nababagay rito.
Nadadamay sya dahil sa akin, his parents are disappointed because he's keeping me
na hindi na nya dapat pa ginawa.
I am the reason of this, kung...kung siguro ay hindi ako nagpumilit na itago
nya ako rito, siguro ay hindi nya kakalabanin ang Mayor.
My chest tightened, napapikit ako ng mariin at napahawak sa dibdib ko.
"Mamatay tao ka..." I heard a whisper. Niyakap ko ang tuhod ko at humugot ng
hininga.
"Nakakahiya ka, Scira... Pabigat ka..." The voice said and I inhaled. Ibinaon
ko ang mukha sa hita ko para hindi marinig ang bulong.
What if I'm really crazy? P-Paano pala kung hallucinations ko lang ang lahat?
What if I'm the one who killed my parents?
What if they're true? That I'm really a murderer?
"Umalis ka na, pabigat ka..." My hand started shaking again. I bit my lip to
stop my sob and stared at my shaking hand.
Maybe, I need to leave... Ayokong madamay sya sa akin. Paano kapag sya ang
napahamak? He's just to good, he thinks of my welfare. Kung hindi dahil sa akin ay
hindk sya pagsasabihan ng ganun.
Napaluha pa akong lalo sa paninikip ng dibdib ko. I heard the whispers telling
me anything that might trigger me kaya nanatili akong tulala habang lumuluha.
"Scira?" I heard a knock on the door.
Suminghap ako at humugot ng hininga.
"Scira, come on, let's watch a movie?" He said, his voice light and I admire
how he shifted his emotion in just a snap.
Hindi ako sumagot at nanatiling nakayupyop roon.
"Scira?" He knocked again and stopped when he heard nothing. "Scira, are you
alright? Come on... Open this..." Aniya.
I sobbed at mukhang napalakas iyon kaya mas lumakas ang katok nya.
"Scira!" He knocked again.
I shook my head, clearing my throat and speaking.

"I-I'm fine... A-Ayokong manuod..." I exclaimed but he did

not answer me, I heard him knocking. Iniikot nya ang doorknob at nang hindi iyon
mabuksan ay narinig kong may pwersa roon.
I was starled when the door opened with his force. Nagulat ako ng bigla nya
akong takbuhin at pumunta sa harapan ko.
"Scira..." He murmured. I bit my lip and lowered my face.
"Shit..." He cursed and held my arm pero napaigtad lang ako at muling niyakap
ang tuhod ko. I sobbed, my trembling hands are still here.
"Hey, Scira... What happened?" He asked me.
"W-Wala..." I answered. "J-Just leave me alone for now... Please..."
"No..." He said and lifted my face pero iniiwas ko lang ang tingin ko.
"Come on, baby..." Aniya at hinuli ang dalawang kamay ko. That made me sob
more, ang kanyang daliri ay hinaplos nya sa palad ko para kalmahin ako.
"A-Aalis nalang ako..." Bulong ko habang nakatungo. "N-Nadadamay ka lang sa
akin... Pabigat lang ako..."
"What are you saying?" He asked sharply.
"A-Ayokong nagkakaaway kayo ng parents mo dahil--"
"We were never fine in the first place..." He said and that stopped me. Humikbi
lang ako habang nakatungo.
He held my hand, humigpit ang hawak nya roon at narinig ko ang buntong-hininga
nya.
"Look at me, Scira..." Aniya. I shook my head, I might melt if I look at him.
Ayokong... magbago ang isip ko, I have to leave for him this time, for his welfare
and safety.
"Scira..." He breathe. "Look at me..." Nang hindi ko ginawa ang sinabi nya ay
inabot nya ang baba ko.
He tilted my chin and made me stare at him and I saw his soft, sad eyes.
"Pati ba naman ikaw iiwan ako?" He asks and something tugged my chest at that.
"You're the only thing that I have, Scira..."
"Thorn..." I murmured.
"All this time, I've been a disappointment..." He shook his head and I saw his
eyes reddened.
"My parents hated me for any reasons, they said, my brother is way better than
me, na hindi ko sya kayang tumbasan..." He said bitterly at patuloy na nalaglag ang
luha sa mga mata ko.
"I lived in jealousy, I envy my sibling because my parents are too fond of
them, samantalang ako... I never did anything good even if I try my hardest..." He
sat infront of me and continued caressing my palm.
"I never heard any praises from my parents, they want me perfect but I just
can't..." His tear fell and that pained me.
 Sumisikip ang dibdib ko habang pinagmamasdan sya.
"May magulang nga ako, yet, I never felt like I have one... Palagi nalang si
Darius... Sya ang magaling, sya ang dapat gayahin..."
"I lived with their high expectations of me... I become a doctor because they
want me too... You know why I was here in this province?" Hindi ako sumagot at
pinagmasdan lang sya.
"It's because they want me to fly abroad and work there but I don't like it,
sinuway ko sila, that's why they threw me here... To punish me..." He smiled
faintly and I saw his vulnerable side. Like he'll break down any moment from now.
"But when I met you..." Sumulyap sya sa akin at nakita ko ang kislap roon. "I
felt alive," Aniya.
"Suddenly, the gray colors turned to something colorful..." Aniya sa akin.
"For the first time... I felt that I was needed..." He smiled and caressed my
cheek.
"T-Thorn..." My voice broke.
"For the first time, naisip ko, may nakakaappreciate pala sa mga ginagawa
ko..." He told me. "You taught me all the reasons to be felt alive again..."
Napasinghap ako at napaluha.
"B-But I'll just bring you down... P-Paano kung mapahamak ka? I-I can't bear
losing you..." Sabi ko sa kanya. "I-I am nobody, I am naive, I am crazy..."
"You're not..." He said.
"B-But that's what other people will say...or think."
"Does it matter?" Aniya sa akin. "Are their opinions matter to me? They don't
know you like I do..."
"But... " He placed his finger on my lips to stop me.
"Listen, Scira..." Aniya at hinanap ang mata ko.
"Don't let other people's opinion define you..." Aniya sa akin. "They don't
know you, they don't know what you've been through..."
"B-But I have flaws, n-nakakahiya makita ka nilang kasama ako..."
"I have something to tell you," Aniya at hinawi ang luha ko.
"There's this thing called, Kintsukuroi..." Aniya. "It means to repair a broken
pottery with gold..."
"This happens in Japan..." Tumango naman ako roon at nakinig. "They believe
that repairing it with gold means that the piece is more beautiful after being
broken..."
May mainit na humaplos sa puso ko sa narinig at nag-angat ng tingin sa kanya.
He smiled at me, assuring me.
"That flaw is seen to be the thing's unique piece that adds to its beauty..."
Aniya.
"And you... My Queen..." He inhaled and kissed my hand. "That flaws you have is
the beautiful broken piece of you, it's unique, an art that makes you beautiful..."
"T-Thorn..." I murmured and kneeled to hug him. I sobbed on his shoulder,
mabilis naman nya akong niyakap at humalik sa ulo ko.
"T-Thank you..." I whispered.
"Thank you..." Aniya sa akin. "For being my unique piece, you filled the broken
parts of me..." I nodded and sobbed quietly.
He caressed my back and whispered sweet nothings but enough to calm me. I felt
full, like my heart was filled with so much love.
"Y-You won't leave me? Kahit... Kahit ganito ako?" I asked at lumayo sa kanya.
I caught his eyes, he smiled softly at me and nodded.
"I'm more scared you'll leave me," Aniya sa akin at ngumuso ako. I sniffed.
Tumawa naman sya at ginulo ang buhok ko.
"Please, fight with me..." Aniya at tumango ako roon.
"I will..." I murmured.
He smiled and stared at my hands, napatingin rin ako roon na tumigil na sa
panginginig at napangiti.
"I would never leave you..." Aniya sa akin. May kung anong nagkagulo sa sikmura
ko roon.
I lifted my hand and showed him my hand. I closed my palm  except my pinky
finger and my thumb and showed it to him.
"Promise?" I murmured.
He smiled, nodding his head before raising his hand, he intertwined his pinky
finger with mine and pressed his thumb on my thumb.
"Promise..." He murmured.

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Kabanata 10

Kabanata 10
I was smiling as I cook hotdogs, eggs and bacons for our breakfast, nagpatulong
ako kay Yaya para gawin ito. I can cook naman, palaging tumutulong ako kay Nanay sa
gawaing bahay noon kaya hindi na bago sa akin ito.
I smiled sadly when I remembered her. Soon, Nanay, I will fight for your case.
I promise.
Nang maluto ang bacons ay pinatay ko ang kalan, I proceed on the table to make
an orange juice.
I woke up early for this, I wanted to cook something for Thorn.
Hinalo ko ang juice at tinikman at matapos ay napatango sa lasa. I was about to
put it on a glass when I felt something on my waist.
I almost jumped in shock, sa paglingon ko ay nanlaki ang mata ko nang makita si
Thorn.
"Thorn!" I exclaimed in shock.
"Morning, My Queen..." He greeted and kissed my head. My heart thumped, kaagad
na nag-init ang pisngi ko nang humigpit ang yakap nya sa baywang ko.
He settled himself on the side of my neck at nangiti ako roon.
"You cooked something for me?" He ssked, his voice laced with amusement.
"Hmm..." I hummed and nodded. I heard his chuckle, humalik sya sa leeg ko bago
ako muling hinalikan sa pisngi.
"Thank you..." He said, his beard almost tickled me, matulis iyon sa balat ko
kaya napaigtad ako ng kaunti at natawa sya roon.
"I will shave," He whispered and marahang kinalas ko ang kamay nya sa baywang
ko. Humarap ako sa kanya, nakita ko pang nagtaka sya sa ginawa ko pero nawala rin
nang makita ng buo ang mukha ko.
"No," I pouted and reached for his jaw. "I like it that way..." I said.
I saw his lips lifted, he licked his lower lip and I admire how it reddened at
that. He wasn't wearing his glasses now that I've got to see his beautiful midnight
eyes. I wonder how it got more prettier now that we're close to each other.
I wanna thank God for making that hollow more dreamy in my sight.
"You heels over head?" He asked, smiling naughtily. Umawang ang labi ko sa
gulat roon kaya natawa sya.
"You..." I smacked his arm. He laughed and caught my hand before putting it on
his shoulder.
"Kidding, baby..." He whispered. Ngumuso ako at nang dumukwang sya sa akin ay
inabot ko ang labi nya.
He smiled when I kissed him, I saw him licked his lower lip before catching my
lips again for a kiss. I tiptoed, embracing his nape, he crotched a little and
caught my waist to kiss me properly.
I mimicked his every move, the touch of his lips against mine, gently nibbling
my lower lip. He tastes heaven, like angels will sing their song for me.
I licked his lip, slowly parting my lips as he seeks entrance on my mouth. His
tongue knocked on my teeth and I welcomed him.
We kissed slowly, naramdaman ko ang pagtama ng likuran ko sa counter kaya mas
yumakap ako sa kanya, I felt his hand slowly moving on my back, circling his
fingers into shapes.
"T-Thorn..." I murmured, the unknown heat started gushing in between my thighs
that makes me somehow foreign with this feeling.
"Hmm?" He murmured, his kisses went down on my cheek, down to my jaw, I gasped
when I felt his lips on my sensitive skin, licking and kissing it sensually.
I soft growl escape his lips when I pulled his hair, chuckling a little because
of his ticklish beard.
"Damn it, baby..." He whispered, sniffing my neck.

"H-Huh?" Napapikit ako roon ay bumagsak ang kamay ko mula

sa buhok nya. I put both of my arms on the counter behind me, wanting for support
for my wobbling knee.
His kisses on the hollow of my neck is making me dizzy, nakaawang ang labi ko
habang humahalik sya roon. I felt his hand went down on where my hand is as he held
my hand.
He grasp my fingers, his kisses went back on my lips as we exchanged kisses. It
was intense, like the earth started shattering just right before my eyes.
He pulled away from me that we both gasped for air, he put his forehead against
mine and heaved deep breaths.
My eyes remained close as I felt his soft kiss on my cheek.
"I got carried away, Reyna..." He said hoarsely and I smiled shyly, opening my
eyes and meeting his black ones.
"M-Me too," Amin ko. He chuckled, slightly nodding his head as he lift his hand
to caress my cheek.
"You're so lovely," Aniya. My cheeks flushed, I pouted and he kissed my lips
again for the briefest instance and spoke.
"Does that make your heart flutter?" He asks.
"Hmm, yes..." I answered honestly. He but his lower lip, his lips lifting with
a proud smile.
"Only your king can make you feel that," Aniya sa senswal na tono.
My heart thumped, doubling its pace.
"Y-You're my king?" I murmured.
"Hmm," Aniya. Lumayo sya at hinawi ang buhok ko pabalik sa likod ng tenga ko.
"I can be your shield, I can be your doctor, I can be your King, your slave...
Whatever you want me to be, my Queen..." Aniya at halos mag-init ang pisngi ko sa
nararamdaman.
"I-Ito 'yung kilig?" I asked him. He looks shocked at that, halos manliit ang
mata nya bago natawa at niyakap ako. Sumubsob sya sa balikat ko bago bumulong.
"You, my innocent majesty..." He chuckled. "Gustong-gusto kita..."
Doon na kumawala ang malaking ngiti sa labi ko. I hugged him back and he swayed
me before speaking.
"Answer me, Scira..." Aniya.
"Huh? Is that a question?" I asked at bigla syang lumayo. Tikom na ang bibig at
sinamaan ako ng tingin kaya napatawa ako at ginulo ko ang buhok nya.
"I like you too, Thorn..." I said sweetly. "Sobra, cross my heart..."
He blushed at that, napanguso ako roon at napakurap sya at nahihiyang napakamot
ng kilay at kinagat ang labi nya.
"I think I need a Doctor," Aniya at humawak sa puso nya. "Mabilis ang tibok
nito..."
"Ayieee!" I teased at napatawa ako ng malakas ng kurutin nya ang pisngi ko.
"Kain na tayo, Ganda..." He chuckled at nakita kong may kinuha sya sa likuran
nya at inabot sa akin.
Nagtaka pa ako nang makaraan kung ano iyon pero kaagad akong kinilig ng
makitang may isang tangkay ng kulay pulang rosas na ang nasa harapan ko.
"For you," He said. "Wala ng tinik 'yan..."
"Thank you..." Inabot ko 'yun at inamoy at umakbay kaagad sya sa akin bago ako
dalhin sa dining area.
We spent our time in the house, nung umaga ay nagdilig kami, he cooked for us
in the noon and we watched movies all day long at his theater, eating popcorns and
fries.
We watched almost five movies, tawa ako ng tawa sa mga palabas at tahimik lang
ako kapag horror, tho, I was a bit scared, nakakagulat kasi ang biglang mga
lumalabas.

Parang may kakilala nga akong takot sa horror pero hindi ko

lang maalala, it may be slipped from my memory or what...
"Scira," Kaagad akong bumaling kay Thorn nang magsalita sya. He was looking at
me kaya nag-angat ako ng tingin sa kanya.
He was playing with my hair at inilahad ko sa kanya ang popcorn kaya kinain nya
iyon.
"What?" I asked him, smiling.
"Hmm, have you ever wondered when is your birthday?" He asked me.
Nagbaba ako ng tingin roon at napabuntong-hininga. I nodded, placing my head on
his chest.
"Yes..." I answered him. "But you know, how can I celebrate if I can't remember
anything?" I asked him. "I coudn't even remember my age..."
"I wish you'll regain your mem'ries soon," Aniya sa akin. I smiled sadly,
nodding my head.
"I wish..." Bulong ko. "You know, I was dying to know anything about me, about
my family, kung hinanap ba nila ako? Why they weren't there when I almost die?"
"I am sure they loved you," Aniya at humalik sa buhok ko. "Hindi ko pa
nakikilala ang pamilya mong totoo yet, I am already envious of you..."
I sighed and played with his shirt.
"You're lucky you have your parents, still..." Sabi ko. "Unlike me, I didn't
even know if they are safe..."
"But I never felt like I have one," Aniya sa akin. "Kasi, ayon sa mga panaginip
mo, you seems to be having the glimpse of your lost memories and it looks great so
far..."
"Sabi mo, maayos ang trato sa iyo ng mga tao sa panaginip mo..."
"Yes," Pag-amin ko. "But I coudn't see their faces, Thorn. It frustrates me
everytime..."
"It'll take time, baby..." Bulong nya. "Just relax, let me help you..."
"Thank you..." I whispered. I looked up on him and kissed his chin.
"I'm curious about my birthday," Bulong ko. "I coudn't even celebrate kahit
minsan."
"Then, let's make you one..." Aniya sa akin kaya nagtatakang napatingin ako sa
kanya.
"How?" I asked him.
"Hmm, can you remember the date 'nung natagpuan ka nila Nanay mo?" He asked me.
"Saan? Sa bangin?" I asked. He nodded, napaisip naman ako bago tumango.
"Yeah," I answered him.
"When was it?" Aniya.
"If I remember it right, hmm, it was March 21..." Sabi ko sa kanya.
He nodded, muli nyang sinuklay ang buhok ko gamit ang daliri nya at nagsalita.
"Let's replace your bad memories from that day..." Aniya sa akin.
"How?"
"Since, that was probably your second life, let's make that your new
birthday..." Aniya. "Is that fine with you, my Queen?"
"My birthday?" Napaisip naman ako roon. He was right, that was probably my
second life, like I was born again that day, with a new identity and family.
"Sige," I smiled and nodded at him. Sa paglingon ko sa kanya ay iniangat nya
ang baba ko para hagkan ang noo ko.
"We'll celebrate your birthdays together, baby..." Aniya sa akin. "I'll be
always there for you, your birthdays this year and the next next year... Hanggang
kailan..."
"Promise?" I smiled cheekily.
 He raised his hand, like he was promising me.
"I promise," Aniya sa akin. "Your birthday this year will be the first yet the
happiest and memorable, I promise..."

"Okay..." I smiled. "Tuparin mo 'yan, aasa ako..."

"Oo naman," Aniya sa akin. "Anything for my Queen..."
His phone suddenly rang, nagkatinginan kami at umayos ako ng upo para makaayos
sya.
"Sorry, Scira... I have to take this..." Aniya.
I nodded, smiling at him.
Inabot nya ang telepono nya at tumayo, I watched him as he go to the side to
answer the call.
"Yes?" Aniya sa kabilang linya. His back is on my sight, he was only wearing a
white shirt and a gray sweatpants.
"I'm off today," Aniya. I saw him put his hand on his pocket as he spoke. "I
won't--"
He suddenly stopped, I saw how he clicked his neck and stayed quiet.
"What?" He said hardly kaya nangunot ang noo ko roon.
"What do you mean by that?" Aniya. "I told you too--"
"That was impossible!" His voice roared like a wild animal. "Everything was
settled! How come it was dismissed?!"
Bigla syang napalingon sa akin at nang magtagpo ang mata namin ay nakita kong
kumalma sya.
"Sorry..." He mouthed. Tinuro nya ang labas kaya tumango ako at pinagmasdan
syang lumalabas roon.
I remained looking at the movie but my mind was on him, he seems really, really
mad. Ano kaya iyon? Sa ospital? What was dismissed?
Sa muling pagbukas ng pinto ay nakita ko si Thorn na naglalakad palapit sa
akin. I thought he'll stay here but I was wrong.
"I'm sorry, Scira..." Aniya sa akin. "I have an emergency, I have to go..."
"Huh?" Napatayo ako. "Gabi na, hindi ba masyadong--"
"Sorry, this is really important..." Aniya sa akin.
"Uh, sige..." Tumango ako roon kahit nagtataka. "I'll just wait for you to come
home,"
"No," Aniya. "Mauna ka na matulog, I'll be home late..." Nagmamadaling humalik
sya sa noo ko at hinabol ko nalang sya ng tingin habang nagmamadali syang lumabas
sa kwarto.
Napaupo ako sa sofa, I sighed and brushed my hair with my fingers. I hope he's
fine...
I have eaten dinner yet, he wasn't here. Sa sobrang bagot ko ay nagtungo ako ng
garden para pagmasdan ang mga bulaklak.
I saw the plants on their right places, maganda rin ang pagkakagawa ng mga
halaman sa paligid at ang mga shape nito. They have a great gardener, I think...
I looked up the sky and saw the darkness on it, I could get lost in there and
never come back, just like his eyes.
Napalabi ako at pinagmasdan ang bituin sa langit na nagbibigay ng liwanag sa
dilim. I am quite sure I'd remember his eyes everytime I'll look at the sky for its
beauty behind the darkness it has.
"Ang kapal ng mukha mong mag-feeling senyorita dito, huh?" I stopped on my
tracks, sa paglingon ko ay 'yun nalang ang gulat ko nang makita ang tao roon.
Mabilis akong tumayo roon.
"Dra. Katrin..." Tawag ko. She smirked at that, I saw how the side of her lips
lifted and her chinky eyes sharpen.
"What are you doing here?" Aniya sa akin.
"I...I'm staying here," I answered. I saw how her forehead creased, nagsalubong
ang kilay nya at napatawa sa akin.
"What? Thorn let a crazy bitch like you stay here?" She asked sharply at
umawang ang labi ko sa sinabi nya.
"I-I just, hindi naman ako baliw--"

"Oh, come on, stop fooling around!" She rolled her eyes at
me and crossed her arms.
"You're crazy, woman..." Aniya. "And what would other people think if a
psychiatrist lives with his crazy patient?"
Hindi ako nakapagsalita at naitikom ko ang bibig ko.
"Nakakahiya ka, even his parents are disgusted with you..." She said. "Wala ka
bang delikadesa? You killed your parents! You escaped the hospital! You think a
normal person would do that?"
My heart throbbed in pain, napahawak ako sa laylayan ng shirt ko at napatungo.
"I...did not kill them..." Bulong kong nanghihina.
"Oh, speaking..." Tawa nya. "Sinong pumatay? Si Mayor Sebastian?"
Nag-angat ako ng tingin sa kanya at nakita kong natatawa na sya.
"That person is powerful, woman..." Aniya at umiling. "And no one will believe
you, that person is too good to be true..."
"I-I'm not lying," I whispered, shaking my head.
"Oh? Really?" She mocked me. "Are you really that desperate to get Thorn's
attention? That you will stick with him and will always pretend to be helpless?"
Aniya.
"Know what? Hindi kayo nababagay..."
Napatungo ako at kinalma ang sarili, I can't be stress, ayoko na nung mga
bulong... Ayokong maging kaawa-awa nanaman...
"Thorn is the hospital's director, he passed school with flying colors and the
highest of his class..." Aniya sa akin na parang minamaliit ako. "And you? You're
nothing, you don't have memories, you're crazy, you're obsessed."
"Isipin mo nga, bagay ba kayo?"
We don't... Hinawi ko ang luhang nalaglag sa pisngi ko at hindi nagsalita.
"We are getting married soon..." Aniya at itinaas ang kamay nya. I looked up
and saw her finger with a diamond ring on it.
"See this?" Aniya sa akin at natahimik ako roon.
"He proposed to me earlier," Aniya at nawala ang ngiti ko roon. "And now, he
was lying on my bed, naked..."
May kung anong bigat ang dumagan sa puso ko. It almost stopped beating at
kumuyom ang kamay ko roon.
"H-Hindi ako naniniwala sa'yo," I told her but she just smirked at me.
"Then, ask him... Kaya lang naman pumunta rito ay para sa mga naiwan nyang
dokumento..." She smiled evilly.
"He'll drop you like a hot potato soon, Scira..." Aniya at umiling. "You were
just his toy, aliwan nya..."
She left with a triumphant smile on her face while I remained standing there,
staring at the emptiness. Is it true? Is he... Is he with her?
Kaya...Kaya ba sya umalis?
Kaya ba wala pa rin sya?
Tulala akong pumasok sa loob ng bahay. I sat on the sofa, staring at nothing.
Malalim na ang gabi pero wala pa rin sya.
Ako nalang ang naiwang gising sa bahay, I should have just sleep and don't wait
for him but I stayed.
Ayokong maniwala nalang basta sa babaeng 'yun, I believe whatever Thorn will
tell me. Sa kanya lang ako maniniwala kahit anong mangyari.
Sumandal ako sa sofa, nanuod ako ng palabas para malibang at napapikit sa antok
na naramdaman. I yawned, ipinikit ko ang mata ko saglit at hindi ko na napansing
nakatulugan ko na ang panunuod.
 Naalimpungatan na lang ako nang maramdamang nakaangat ako
sa ere. I opened my eyes a bit but it was blurry.
Mas inayos nito ang pagbuhat sa akin, nagtataka man ay muling kong ipinikit ang
mga mata ko.
I heard the creaking of the door, I opened my eyes and adjusted my sight, only
to find Thorn carrying me.
Kaagad na nagsikip ang puso ko roon, he was walking seriously habang buhat ako.
Did he really went out with Dra. Katrin, did he...stayed with her? Is he
engaged?
M-May nangyari kaya sa kanila?
I was starled when our eyes met, nakita kong nagulat sya ng makitang gising na
ako kaya nsg-iwas ako ng tingin.
"You should have sleep first," Marahang sabi nya bago ako ilapag sa malambot na
kama. He sat beside me and caressed my hair softly.
"You shoudn't have waited for me, ayan tuloy--" Tinalikuran ko sya at mabilis
na ibinalot ang sarili sa kumot.
"Scira?" Aniya. Hindi ako sumagot at nanatiling tahimik roon.
"Baby," Napapiksi ako nang hawakan nya ang balikat ko kaya itinago ko ang mukha
ko sa kumot.
"Hey..."
"Leave me," Mahinang sabi ko. Nanahimik sya roon sa sinabi ko, nang maimagine
ang sinabi ni Dra. kanina ay nanlumo ako.
Him, tangled on sheets with her. Him, marrying her. I coudn't stop my tears
from falling.
"Scira..." Muli nya akong inabot pero hinawi ko sya.
"Doon ka na sa babae mo," I whispered and sobbed.
"What the hell..." He whispered. "Scira, come on, what's our problem?"
"L-Leave..." Paos kong sabi sa kanya.
"Let's talk," Aniya pero kumawala lang ako at napasinghap.
"D-Doon ka na sa kanya! D-Doon ka naman galing diba?" I said but he did not
even bulge, napairit pa ako nang mahila nya paalis ang kumot sa akin bago ako
pinaharap sa kanya.
"What the hell are you saying?" He asked. I saw his dark eyes, ang mga mata
nya'y seryoso at naguguluhan.
It has a bit of unknown emotion and madness.
"Saan ako galing? What?" Aniya.
"M-Masaya ka naman doon, i-iwan mo nalang ako..." Bulong ko at nag-iwas ng
tingin. Humikbi ako, napamura naman sya noon at marahang pinaupo ako.
"What are you saying, baby?" Aniya sa akin. I shook my head and lowered my
head.
"Come on, look at me..." He tilted my chin and stared at my eyes.
"What's bothering you?" Aniya sa akin at nagbaba ako ng tingin at suminghap.
"W-Wala..."
"That's impossible," Aniya sa akin. "Come on, Scira, tell me..."
Umiling ako at hindi sumagot, hihiga sana ulit ako pero pinirmi nya lang ako sa
pwesto ko.
"Do we have a problem?" Marahang sabi nya. Hindi ako umimik. I forced myself to
lay down on the bed but his grip is too firm to let me stay.
"L-Let me go..." I whispered pero hindi nya ako pinakawalan.
"No, unless we talk about this." Aniya. Umiling ako at hinawi ang luha ko, I
was about to force myself again but he was too strong.
In just a force, he scooped me and placed me on his lap. I gasped at that,
kumawala ako pero pinirmi nya ang baywang ko kaya nanatili akong nakaupo roon.

"Scira..." Bulong nya. "What's bothering you?"

I did not speak. He reached for my chin and tilted my head kaya nagkaharap
kami.
 His eyes were full of concern and a bit of confusion.
"My Queen..." Aniya.
"L-Let me go..."
"No," He sighed. "What's your problem? Tell me, so, we could talk about it. I
don't want us sleeping with misunderstanding..."
Hindi ako nagsalita roon, I sniffed. Hinaplos nya ang balikat ko at marahan
akong inilapit sa kanya. Napasandal ako sa kanya, he kissed my cheek and hugged my
waist.
"Tell me, baby..." He said, whispering.
My heart constricted in pain, lumunok ako bago marahang nilingon sya.
"S-Saan ka galing?" I asked him.
"Hospital..." Sagot nya at muli akong nagtanong.
"S-Sinong kasama mo?"
"My staffs, co-doctors?" Naguguluhang sabi nya. I stared at him and saw nothing
but his confusion.
"Anong ginawa nyo?"
"We had an urgent meeting, I meet with the investigators..."
"D-Did you asked Dra. Katrin to go here?" Kumunot ang noo nya roon at umiling.
"No," Aniya. "I asked my secretary to get it here, why would I ask her to go
here?"
"D-Did you sleep with her?" I asked and I saw how his eyes widen.
"What--"
"See? Meron nga!" I exclaimed at kumawala pero napamura sya doon at muli akong
niyapos.
"What the hell, Scira?" He exclaimed and suminghot lang ako habang kumakawala
sa kanya.
"M-Mas nababagay naman kayo! I am nothing but a--"
"You're my fucking everything, Scira! What are you saying?!" I stopped at that,
mabilis ko syang nilingon at nakakunot lang ang noo nya.
"Mag-usap nga tayo," Aniya at pinirmi ako.
"Calm down, okay?" He said. "I went to the hospital and the precinct... Then,
I'm with my staff and mostly, we didn't sleep together..."
"So, what are you saying?" Aniya at natahimik ako roon. Napalabi ako at
suminghot. Hinawi ko ang luha ko at nilingon sya.
"I don't know about this feeling," I told him and his eyes remained hooded, ang
panga nya'y nanatiling nakaigting habang nakatingin sa akin.
"My heart was beating fast and it hurts," I confessed. "W-When she told me
that, I think I felt this breaking..." Turo ko sa puso.
He relaxed at that, and pagtataka sa mata nya ay napalitan ng aliw. He licked
his lip, cocking his head.
"You name it, what do you think that is?" He asked. I pouted, napapanuod ko 'to
pero...
"I-I think I'm inlove with you..." He looks like he expected it but still was
stunned. I saw how his red lips parted slightly. I suddenly saw his side smile
before shaking his head and chuckling.
Sumimangot ako roon, sumubsob sya sa leeg ko at mas niyakap ang tyan ko.
"Why are you laughing?!" I exclaimed. "I-I just told you I'm inlove with you!
Nakakatawa ba?"
"No, baby..." He said, hiding his face on my neck, tickling me with his beard.
"I just... I'm fucking blushing, that's gay..." I stopped, nakagat ko ang labi
ko at mas nagtago sya roon.

"You sure can make me feel uneasy, huh?" Bulong nya.

"Is that a bad thing?" Bulong ko.
"No," He laughed and rose up, inabot nya ang pisngi ko at hinanap ang mata ko.
"I'm out of my mind, my Queen..." Bulong nya. "I think I could never let you
go, mababaliw ako..."
 My heart pound, bumaba ang tingin ko sa labi nyang nakaawang sa harapan ko. I
saw him took a glance on my lips too...
Hindi kami nagkaimikan roon, I stayed silent while I hear his heavy breathings.
I felt the heat in between us like fire started igniting, burning me. His hand
on my waist tightened, sa paglingon ko ay halos magkadikit na ang mga labi namin.
Our eyes met again and I saw how he licked his lip and cleared his throat.
"I wanna kiss you, baby..." Bulong nya. "Is that a bad thing?"
"No..." Paos kong bulong. He smiled, sa muling paglapit nya ay dumampi na ang
labi nya sa akin.
I gasped at that, he nibbled my lips, kissing every part of it. Napaungol ako
roon, I encircled my arm on his nape and pulled him more.
Once, twice, until I’ve had a taste and realize I’ll never have enough. He’s
everywhere up my back and over my arms and suddenly he’s kissing me harder, deeper,
with a fervent urgent need I’ve never known before.
My mouth parted, gasping for air as his kisses moved to my neck, I tilted my
head giving him more access on the sensitive part of my skin.
He pushed me back slowly, my back dropping on the soft mattress. His kisses
started teasing my skin, growling softly as he bit it.
"If you want me to stop, just tell me now..." His voice sounds erotic, like
I'll convulsed with just his voice. Umiling ako roon at tinulak ang ulo nya.
"I can stop, Scira..." Aniya at humaplos ang kamay sa tyan ko. "Just tell me
and I will..."
"No..." Bulong ko. He pulled away from my neck, itinukod nya ang dalawang kamay
sa gilid ko at pinagmasdan ako.
"Are you sure?" Aniya sa akin. He seems to be concerned but his eyes says
otherwise, I saw how the fire ignited on that black eyes of his.
It was burning with passion, lust and wanting.
"Yes..." Bulong ko, his gaze dropped on my lips bago ipaling ang ulo nya at
muling hinanap ang mata ko.
"I think, we shoudn't be doing this--" I raised my hand, knotting my fist on
his shirt and pulling him against mine.
His lips crashed on mine, starled and gentle. He kissed me, gently, carefully,
like he's afraid I'll break but that wasn't the gentleness I would like this time.
I grinded my body, pushing my hand on his shirt. He heaved a deep breath, he
growled softly, low in his throat a he started kissing me urgently, with the
fervent need to ignite the fire that started burning.
His kisses were ecstatic, it steals my breath and gives it back, like it was
the oxygen I needed.
We are kissing like crazy. Like our lives depends on it. His tongue slips
inside my mouth, gentle but demanding, and I suddenly understand why people likes
this, I realized why they are stunned if they were kissed this way, they describe
kissing as melting because every square inch of my body dissolves into his.
I held his head, brushing his hair as he pushed him near me. I felt his
throbbing hardness against my stomach and I coudn't care less.
I moaned, kissing him the way he kisses me. His beard tickled my skin but I
don'g care, that's more I like it.

Napaigtad ako at hinaplos ang balat nya. I caressed his

hardened stomach, grinding my body against his as he growled like a wild animal. He
grinded his body against mine, cursing as he pushed himself to make me feel him.
He kissed my jaw, his hand slowly crawling on my shirt, gently caressing my
breasts against my clothes.
"I can't stop now," Nahihirapang bulong nya. I groaned, seeing him pushing his
hand inside my shirt and lifting my brassiere to feel my hardened peaks.
"Lift your hands, my Queen..." He said hoarsely, his eyes blazing with desire.
I obligue, raising my arms as he pulled my shirt out of my body, sa isang iglap
lang ay naitapon nya palayo ang panloob ko at sinakop ang dibdib ko.
 "Oh, Gosh..." I moaned, arching my back and pushing his face on it.
He lapped my peaks, sucking it like a wild animal and caressing the other one.
He cupped my breast, his fingers brushing against my peak that I almost convulsed.
"Oh my god..." Bulong kong hinahapo.
This feeling is foreign to me but I love it very much. My inner goddess started
screaming his name on my mind, arching my back to let him feel more of me.
His fingers went down on my shorts, nagmamadaling kinalas nya ang butones nito
at napaangat ako ng makitang nahihirapan sya.
I helped him, pushing him slightly, unbuttoning my own.
"Undress..." Bulong ko sa kanya at nakita kong napaharap sya sa akin. Mouth
parting, he looked like a Greek God who just won a war.
His face is angelic, his eyes piercing my insides with his stares.
"Damn it, baby..." Bulong nya at tinulungan ako sa paghila paalis ng shorts ko.
His jaw clenched, kaagad ko namang iniangat ang shirt nya at tinulungan nya ako
kaagad na gawin iyon.
I gasped when I saw his toned chest, they're just right in their right places.
His biceps are firm and strong, na parang mapapatahimik nya ako sa isang hawak nya
lang.
I saw his hairy chest, making him look masculine and hot on my sight.
He kneeled in front of me with his bare chest and maong pants and stared at my
body, I suddenly felt shy, naitikom ko ang hita ko at napatakip sa dibdib sa ginawa
nyang pagpasada ng tingin.
"Beautiful," He murmured, smiling naughtily at me.
"H-H'wag ka nga..." I whispered.
He chuckled huskily, tilting his head as he moved closer to me.
"Come on, my Queen..." Bulong nya. "They're beatiful..."
I didn't have the chance to protest when I felt his lips on my flat stomach. I
moaned, gripping the sheets beside me and arching my back.
He bit the side of undies, sexily pulling it out of my sacred part. I gasped at
that, lifting my head and seeing him.
He looked like a sex god ready to devour me. A wild animal wanting so bad to
eat his prey.
His fingers brushed on my leg and my mouth hanged open.
"You're so fucking wet..." He whispered in deep baritone.
"Hand me a pillow, baby..." Aniya. Naguguluhang inabot ko ang unan at ibinigay
sa kanya.
My body is on heat, the gaps in between my thighs almost convulsed.
I watched him as he put the pillow on my waist, lifting my lower body a bit.
I was shocked at that, sa muling pagsulyap ko sa kanya ay nakita ko ang dilim
ng tingin nya sa pagkababae ko.

I opened my legs more, more like offering myself and his

eyes darken more. His jaw clenched, gripping both of my legs and kissing my part.
"Ahhhh..." I moaned, napasinghap ako at naigalaw ang balakang ko nang
maramdaman ang labi nya roon.
He kissed my sacred part, teasing it with his tongue, I felt the unfamiliar
feeling of warmth as he placed his finger on my clit, slowly encircling it, teasing
it.
His kisses are ticklish and I chuckled when I felt his beard on my skin.
"Oh my gosh, Thorn!" I exclaimed. He laughed and lifted his head.
"I told you, I'll shave..." Parang batang sabi nya at napangiwi ako roon.
"No," Sagot ko. "J-Just slowly, ano kasi, makiliti..."
Natawa sya, his voice roared at napasipa ako roon kaya nailing sya sa akin.
"My Queen is adorable," Bulong nya at nagsalita. "Come on, watch me while I eat
you..."
My cheeks flushed. Napakurap naman ako roon at malisyoso nya akong tinignan
bago ngumuso.
 "Wait," Aniya. I almost cursed when he removed his finger on my part, tinanggal
nya ang unan sa balakang ko kaya napaupo ako.
He crawled beside me, inayos nya ang unan sa likuran ko at pinasandal ako roon.
I was still confused pero dumapa sya sa harapan ko.
"Watch me, hmm..." Bulong nya at halos himatayin ako ng iangat nya ang dalawang
hita ko sa balikat nya.
He kissed my feminity, his finger teasing my spot, growling lowly while I moved
my waist to let him kiss me down there more.
I closed my eyes in pain when I saw him inserting a digit inside. Mabilis syang
nag-angat ng tingin at pinagmasdan ako.
"Does it hurt?" Marahang bulong nya.
"M-Medyo..." Sagot ko, I swallowed hard and saw his intense eyes.
"I'll be gentle, I promise..." Bulong nya. He pushed his middle finger and I
groaned when he finally did.
Halos mapaluha ako sa sakit pero kaagad ding napalitan ng ibang pakiramdam.
Just like the feeling when he started eating me, parang may namuo sa sikmura ko.
He pushed his finger slowly, moving in and out, letting me adjust on him, he
was watching my reaction at nanatili ang tingin ko sa daliri nya.
"F-Faster..." Bulong ko. He moved faster this time, inserting another digit,
making me moan loudly and grinding my body against his finger.
"Damn, baby..." Bulong nya. His pace fasten, pushing his digits in and out and
playing my sensitive bud with his thumb.
I almost screamed when I felt my stomach clenching, napaawang ang labi ko, just
more movements and I felt something wanting to get out. I opened my eyes and moaned
when I felt myself convulsing.
I spasmed and watched as he delved his tongue on my part, tasting and licking
the juices of my first release.
Hinahapong napasandal ako sa headboard, I was damn tired and my eyes darken
with desire as I watched him licking my leg, he kissed my skin softly.
"Sweet..." Bulong nya. I bit my lip seductively when I saw him licking his fingers
while staring at me.
His eyes are dark with lust and desire.
"You like it?" Aniya.
"Hmm," I nodded, licking my lips.
I can feel that this is the very first time that I've ever saw this side of me.
His lips twitched, crawling near me and lifting his finger.
I sucked his finger, licking it, tasting my own juices and he remained staring
darkly at me.

"I want you now..." Bulong nyang nahihirapan. "Damn, Scira,

I'm out of my mind..."
I helped him unbuckling his belt, I kneeled and pulled his pants at nagmamadali
naman nya iyong natanggal at itinapon kung saan.
I gasped when he removed his underwear, his manhood sprang free infront of me
and my eyes widen at that.
"That is..." Turo ko at napatawa sya at napailing.
"This is yours..." Bulong nyang malisyoso kaya pinalo ko sya. Tumawa sya, he
kissed my lips and pushed me slowly on the bed as he placed himself on top of me.
I remained looking at his face, the most beautiful man I've ever seen, my
saviour, my king...
He kissed me again softly and gently and I was afraid to let go of his lips
because craving for it, like it was my favorite dessert.
He grinded his body against mine, his length slightly brushing on my sacred
part. I moaned and moved my body closer to him, grinding myself.
"Calm down, Scira..." Bulong nya sa labi ko at pinirmi ang baywang ko.
"I want..." Bulong ko.
"No, let me..." He whispered. "I might cum rightaway if you do that..."
 My cheeks flushed, nagsalubong naman ang mata namin at ngumiti sya at humalik
sa noo ko.
"I'll take this slow, hmm? Feel free to scratch my back if it hurts..." I
nodded, kissing his lips as he started pushing himself inside of me.
Natigilan ako roon. I groaned in pain when I felt his tip, napahugot ako ng
hininga at mabilis namang nahanap ni Thorn ang mga mata ko at muling nagsalita.
"Do you trust me?" I nodded at him, breathing hardly.
"Yes..." He smiled, nodding his head as he leaned in and catching my lips to
distract me from the pain I am feeling.
As our lips touched, I almost forgot anything. All I want now is Thorn, he's
the only thing I would want in this life.
The weight of his body on top of mine is extraordinary. I feel him, all of him—
pressed against me, and I inhaled his shaving cream, his shampoo, and that extra
scent that’s just...him. The most delicious smell I could ever imagine.I want to
breathe him, lick him, eat him, drink him.
He pushed himself and I gasped with the pain and his kisses distracted me
again, he leaned in, giving me all of him as he cupped my breast. He squeezed it,
giving it a little more touch.
It was painful but I don't care at all, his body on top of mine feels wonderful
and he started pumping his body, slowly at first, to atleast let me adjust as he
moved faster this time.
I groaned on his mouth, moving myself against his, I equalled his every thrust
that he cursed so hard and closed his eyes.
He moved on top of me, faster and faster as he took everything.
"F-Faster..." Bulong ko at kumapit sa likod nya. I scratched his back and
groaned.
"Damn! Fuck!" Mariing bulong nya.
Mas idiniin nya ang sarili, I heard the wild slapping of our skin, ang
langitngit ng kama ay napakaingay at kumapit ako ng mahigpit sa bedsheet roon.
"T-Thorn, oh my gosh..." Bulong ko at napamura.
"Yeah, baby, come for me..." I moved my waist and just a few more thrust and I
felt the familiar feeling in my stomach.
My moan filled the room as I convulsed hard, my body spasmed as I released my
juices.
"Damn," He cursed and moved at napasinghap ako ng mapamura sya at sumubsob sa
balikat ko. He groaned as he convulsed, filling his seeds on my womb.
Hinahapong dumapa sya sa akin. His weight is too much kaya tumagilid sya. I
gasped when he removed his length inside of me and scooped me closer to him.
"Scira..." Bulong nya.
I smiled, humming as I placed my head on his chest.
"Yes?"
"Will you promise you'll stay with me?" I nodded and played with the hair on
his chest.
"I promise..." Bulong ko. "I will stay with you here as long as you want me
too,"
"Aalis lang ako kapag ayaw mo na... I won't go unless you'll tell me too..." He
smiled. Nodding as he kissed my head.
"I won't tell you to go, ever..." Bulong nya at iniangat ang baba ko para
hagkan ang labi ko.
He hugged my waist at sumiksik sa balikat ko, napangiti naman ako roon at
napalabi.
"Thorn," Bulong ko.
"Hmm?" He kissed my neck.
"Uhm, are you engaged with Dra. Lim?" I suddenly asked. I did not hear any
answers, nanahimik sya roon pero mas lumalim ang paghinga nya.
His arms on my waist tightened, mas idinikit nya ako sa katawan nya at huminga
ng malalim.
"I'm inlove with you too, Scira..." Bulong nito at umawang ang labi ko. My
heart pounded like crazy, animo'y lalabas na iyon sa dibdib ko kaya napasinghap
ako.
I tried pushing him but he held my hand and breathe.
"Stay still..." Bulong nya.
"T-Thorn..."
"I love you so much, my Queen..." Aniya. "Is that enough reason for you to
trust me?"
"T-Thorn..." Bulong ko ulit.
"Stop saying my name," He groaned. "Say you love me too so I can calm down and
believe you'll never leave me in any possible reasons..."
"I love you," Bulong ko na nangingiti. He sighed in relief, pushing me softly
and caressing my face.
"I always loved you since the first time I saw you," Bulong nya. I saw the
sincerity on his eyes, his lips twitching for a soft smile.
"So, h'wag mo akong iiwan, hmm?" Bulong nya. I nodded, smiling as I reached for
his face.
"I won't..." Sabi ko.
"Trust me, Scira... I just want you to trust me and never let go of my grip in
your hands..." Aniya.
"Never let go of my grip too..." Bulong ko pabalik.
xxx
Malapit na, hahaha! Anyways, happy 90K, my archers!💖

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Kabanata 11

Kabanata 11
"Bakit Thorn ang name mo?" I asked him. He stared at me, his black eyes
smiling.
"Hmm," Mas hinigit nya ako kaya umayos ako. I was resting on his arm while I am
on my side and caressing his cheek.
"Because... I don't know..." He chuckled. I pouted, glancing at him.
"Siguro matinik ka sa chicks, 'no?" I asked him seriously. He chuckled,
sumimangot ako at pinalo ang dibdib nya pero natatawang humalik lang sya sa noo ko
at umiling.
"No, My Queen..." Aniya. "Hindi ako namamansin kapag ayaw ko..."
"Oh? Then, why did you talk to me at the side of the road?" I asked curiously.
"Hmm, kasi nga gusto kita..." My heart skipped a beat. Ngumuso ako at tumikhim
kaya hinaplos nya ang baywang ko.
"How about your heart? Kinilig ka?" He teased.
"No!" I exclaimed.
"Nah," He shook his head. "I saw you and thought you're beautiful..."
"I'm not..." I told him.
He licked his lip, taking a look at my face as he caress it.
"You are, your heart, you..." I smiled, kissing his chin.
"I love you, Thorn..." I whispered. He smiled cheekily, nodding as he place a
soft kiss on my lips.
"I love you too," He whispered huskily. "Thank you for being with me..."
"Thank you rin..." I answered. "For being my strength, for being my shield. I
don't know what will happen to me if you weren't here. Hindi ko alam kung nasaan na
ako, kung patay na ba ako, kung nabaliw na talaga..."
He remained staring at me, his eyes laced with adoration.
"It wasn't because of me, Scira. It is because you're strong..." Aniya. "You
know, I envy you a lot..."
"Huh? Me? Why?" I asked him.
"I may look strong but I am honestly a weakling," He chuckled. "I have
insecurities, I crave for my parents attention and that was my plain weakness..."
 My heart soften, looking at his fragile expression. He was smiling but I saw
how his eyes was left with a lone expression.
"Thorn..."
"Even if we're still a kid, I am no one's favorite, palagi nalang si Darius,
sya ang mas magaling, sya ang dapat gayahin..."
"But you are my favorite person..." I stopped him. I saw his lip lifted, hiding
his smile.
"Really?" His eyes glisten.
"Hmm," I nodded. "H'wag mong isiping walang nagkakagusto sa'yo, na walang may
paborito at pipiliin ka kasi kahit anong mangyari, ikaw ang palaging pipiliin
ko..."
Napapikit sya roon, inabot nya ang kamay ko at dinala nya sa dibdib nya kaya
napanguso ako nang maramdaman ang mabilis na tibok nito.
"Can't you stop making my heart flutter?" He asked and I laughed, shaking my
head.
"No..." I said. "You won't stop making my heart flutter too, so, quits lang..."
"Sumasagot na ngayon ang reyna ko?" Sikmat nya at tinusok ang tagiliran ko kaya
napatili ako at pinalo sya.
"Ang harot mo, Thorn!" I exclaimed.
"Oh? Ikaw nga d'yan ang maharot!" Tawa nya at muli akong niyakap. I was pressed
on his bare chest, sumandal naman ako roon, pinipigil ang kilig.

"Bakit sila ganun?" I asked him. He heaved a deep breath.

"I honestly don't know, I was pressured even at school. Kailangang straight one
ang grades ko, when I failed once, they scolded me, telling me I wasn't studying
hard enough even if I did my best..." Nabakas ko ang lungkot sa boses nya.
Hindi ako nagsalita at hinayaan lang syang magkwento sa akin. I caressed the
thin hair on his chest and let him speak.
"So, I tried my hardest, then I succeeded, I graduated as comlaude but they
didn't even bother attending my graduation..." I stopped. Nanikip ang dibdib ko
kaya mabilis akong nag-angat ng tingin at nakita ang luha sa pisngi nya.
My eyes widen, kaagad kong hinawi ang luhang iyon at hinaplos ang pisngi nya.
"They want me to be a doctor and I did, somehow it makes me happy, helping
those in need..."
"Those people you helped thanked you a lot, Thorn..." I told him. "And I am one
of them..."
"Thank you..." He smiled softly.
"I know and feel that your parents loves you..." Sabi ko sa kanya. "Maybe they
weren't be able to show it to you but I know they do. Darating din ang oras na
maipapakita nila iyon sa'yo..." I comforted him.
"Please be my angel, my Queen..." Aniya. "I hope that'll really happen..."
"Oo naman, 'no..."
"I have a big client tomorrow, you know I was the Director of our hospital
here, right?" I nodded.
"My Dad was pursuing that person to invest to the hospital we are planning to
build in Manila, baby..." Aniya.
"And since, my Dad went to Japan just last night, walang kakausap sa kliyente
bukas kung hindi ako... I have to please him, actually, so he'll invest. We need
funds for building the hospital itself."
"Then, what if you'll be able to convince him?" I asked.
"Then, we're good to go for the project." Aniya. "And maybe, my parents will
atleast be proud of me?"
"They will..." I smiled at him. "They'll be proud of you, I am sure of that.
Basta, gawin mo ang best mo bukas, huh?"
He nodded, smiling at me.
"Of course, I will... You'll wish me goodluck, right?"
"Yes," I chuckled and nodded.
 "Then, kapag natapos ko ito, I will do my best to help with your parents
case..." Aniya. I nodded and asked him.
"You said, galing kang presinto, diba?" He nodded at me.
"Yes, I talked to the police. They said, the Mayor was notified for the case
and that asshole has the law on his hands..." He sighed and shook his head.
"Why?"
"They said that we don't have enough evidences," He sighed, I saw how his eyes
darken at that.
"The voice record?"
"Yes, I gave it to them but they were doing everything para baligtarin tayo,
that's why I have to do my best and fight for you. It was annoying everytime
they're telling me the probability of the case to be dismissed..."
"What?" My forehead creased. "That isn't possible! I mean, hindi dapat ganun! I
am a witness, I saw how the man killed Nanay and Tatay!" I exclaimed. Bumigat ang
dibdib ko sa nalaman at hindi makapaniwala.
"Yes," He sighed heavily. "Isa pa, that man I will meet tomorrow has a well
known son, a lawyer, ang sabi ay wala pang naitatalong kaso so, maybe if I got the
chance, I will consult him about your case..." Aniya.

I smiled happily, nodding at him.

"Thank you, Thorn..." I sighed. "What do you want me to do to repay all your
goodness?"
"Just love me, ayos na ako..." Aniya na nakangiti.
"I already love you," Sagot ko. "Iba naman..."
Nanliit ang mata nya at nangiti sa akin.
"Kahit ano?" Aniya. I nodded.
"Oo, anything..." Ngiti ko. His lip twitched, looking evil kaya nanliit ang
mata ko.
He moved a little closer, whispering.
"Let's make love again," Bulong nya. "Bitin..."
"Thorn!" I hissed at humagalpak sya ng tawa roon. "I am still sore!"
"Oh, you know that word, huh?" Asar nya. Pinalo ko sya. His hand travelled from
my waist to the inside of my shirt kaya napasinghap ako at sinamaan sya ng tingin.
"Where does my Queen got that word, hmm?" He whispered sexily. He caressed my
stomach at napaigtad ako sa ginawa nya.
"Thorn..." Galit ko sanang sasabihin but I was wrong, it turns out to be a soft
moan at narinig ko pa ang ngisi nya sa gilid ng tenga ko.
"Uh-huh?" Bulong nya. He bit my earlobe, giving it a soft kisses.
His finger travelled down my stomach and I gasped in shock when he moved my
undies aside as he caressed my soft spot with his finger.
I groaned at that, I moved my waist at napahawak ako ng mahigpit sa kanya ng
dumiin iyon.
"Oh, damn..." I said breathlessly when he slipped his finger inside, giving my
whole body chills as he moved softly.
"Faster," Bulong ko at iginalaw ang balakang.
He chuckled coldly on my ear, kissing the back of it as he moved his finger in
and out.
"Oh, sore, huh?" Asar nya kaya napasinghap ako at bigla syang nilingon.
"You gotta be kidding me," I said sharply but he just laughed at me and made a
face.
"Love you," Kindat nya at bago ko pa man sya awayin ay iginalaw nya ang kamay.
Napakapit ako sa braso nya at umawang ang labi ko. He moved his finger faster
each passing time, making me gasped for air, squeezing my legs as he moved.
"Open your legs, my Queen..." Bulong nya.
I did, I opened my legs and closed my eyes tightly with the desire I am
feeling. My body is on heat and I almost convulsed with his touch.
"More..." Aniya. He cupped my breast as he moved his digits kaya napamura na
ako. "I want it wide, baby..."
He inserted another digit, moving it faster as he squeezed my breast against
the thin cotton shirt I am wearing. Hindi na ako mapakali, I keep on murmuring his
name as he do me.
He was on my side, I was lying on his arms squeezing my breast and his other
hand is on my sacred part. He moved his face, kissing my lips briefly before as he
moved down to my breast.
He sucked my breast against the shirt I am wearing, his finger down there
teasing my clit. Making circular motions inside and me calling his name.
"T-Thorn, faster!" I groaned, I opened my legs widely and touched his hand and
pushed it more inside.
"Oh, fuck, Scira..." Bulong nya.
I groaned and moved my waist, meeting his finger thrusts. I heard the erotic
sound our parts are making and that's turning me on more.

"I-I'm gonna..."
"That's right, Scira..." Aniya at 'yun nalang ang singhap ko ng alisin nya ang
daliri nya roon. My eyes widen when he moved his body above me, mabilis nyang
naibaba ang shorts paalis and I moaned loudly when he entered me fully.
My muscles clenching in pain and pleasure at the same time, he rocked my body
softly at first, making me adjust with his length and when I finally did, he
started moving roughly.
The bed moved with us, making its creaky sound as our body slapped against each
other. I cursed, pulling his hair and him, calling my name.
"Oh, damn..." He moved faster, and when our eyes met, I saw how dark his eyes
are.
His jaw clenched, making me have a clearer view of his face. He lifted his
finger and my mouth parted when he touched my lips.
I sucked his finger and looked at him darkly at nakita ko kung paano kumislap
ang mata nya roon.
His breathing become rugged as he thrusted harder. I moved with him, lifting my
hips and putting both of my legs on his waist for more access.
Just a few more thrusts and we both reached the highest cloud, for the second
time in one night and that was I think the best night of my life.
We fell asleep in each other's arms, mahigpit ang yakap nya sa akin habang
ako'y nakasubsob sa dibdib nya habang nakabalot ng kumot.
I woke up the next morning feeling sore all over, I stretched my arms, yawning
but stopped when I didn't saw someone beside me.
My forehead creased, kaagad akong lumingon sa oras at napangiwi ng makitang
alas-nwebe N ng umaga.
Napangiti ako at napailing. He probably went to his work, nalate ako ng gising.
Sana pala ay naipagluto ko sya ng agahan nya bago manlang sya pumasok.
I sat slowly on the bed, napasinghap ako sa pananakit ng pagitan ng hita at
katawan mo. I looked around and realized we were on his room all along and I didn't
even noticed.
Napahawak ako sa dibdib ko. My heart was beating faster as I thought of him, I
hope he'll do great today, sana ay makuha nya ang deal nila.
Inialis ko ang kumot sa katawan ko at napatawa ng makita ang damit ko. I was
wearing a pair of pink pajamas, mukhang pinalitan nya ang damit ko pagkagising nya.
Dahan-dahan akong tumayo, I was still still walking slowly because of the pain
I'm feeling. I was freaking sore!
Inayos ko ang kama nya at kaagad kong napansin ang isang tray na naroon sa may
gilid, kaagad ko 'yung nilapitan at nangiti ng makita ang isang baso ng gatas at
agahan.
He cooked fried rice and eggs today, may mansanas pa sa gilid 'nun kaya nangiti
ako. Kaagad kong inabot ang maliit na note sa gilid at binasa.
Morning, Reyna ko! Eat breakfast and smile for me. Love you!
 Beside the food is a piecs of red rose and a cellular phone kaya nagtataka
akong inabot iyon.
I opened it and chuckled when I saw his face on the screen. Nakapout sya roon
at nakapeace sign na mukhang kinuhaan lang kaninang umaga. He was I think just got
out of the shower, basa pa kasi at bagsak sa noo ang buhok nya at walang syang
shirt kaya nailing ako.
I saw a message kaya pinindot ko iyon at nakitang galing ito sa kanya.
From: My King
Hi, Reyna! :*
Napatakip ako ng bibig ko para pigilin ang kilig at napatili. Pinalo-palo ko pa
ang unan bago tuluyang nakarecover sa nabasa ko.
Nagpaturo ako kay Yaya paano gumamit ng phone at iyon lang pinagtripan ko buong
oras. It was I think, three in the afternoon when it rang.

My King calling...
My eyes widen, kaagad kong iniswipe ang screen at idinikit sa tenga ko.
"Hi, my Queen..." A hoarse voice murmured.
"Hello, Thorn!" I exclaimed happily. Biglang syang tumawa at nagsalita.
"You like it? My gift?" Aniya.
"Yes! Ang galing nito," Kwento ko. "I can play games here and watch videos..."
"Good to hear," Aniya sa malambing na tono. "Anyway, how's your day?"
"Great! You?"
"Great..." Aniya sa malambing na boses. "Everything's great, you want to have a
date later?"
"Date? You mean, we'll dine outside?" I asked.
"Yes," Aniya. "You want?"
"Of course!" I cheered.
"Okay," He chuckled. "Wear something nice, hmm? Manong Lando will fetch you and
take you to the place I'm in, take care..."
"Take care," Ngiti ko.
"I love you," Bulong nya sa kabilang linya. Nag-init naman ang pisngi ko at
walang boses na tumili at pinalo ang unan ko.
"Scira?"
"H-Huh?"
"Where's my I love you too?" Ungot nya kaya napangiti ako at nagsalita.
"I love you, My King..." I whispered.
I prepared for our date and wore a simple black knee length dress. I let my
long hair on my back and wore a small earring.
Nang maging kontento na sa ayos ko ay bumaba na ako. Sinamahan pa ako ni Yaya
sa driver at nang makasakay ay nakangiti lang ako at masaya.
I wish this day is just like this, masaya...
I watched the street as we travelled from the house to Thorn. I admire those
people playing on streets, 'yung mga naglalakad na mga bata kasama ang mga magulang
nila. I wish I have something like that.
"Ma'am, nandito na po tayo..." I smiled at nagpasalamat nang pagbuksan nya ako.
He come with me inside the building and amazement fills me as I looked around
the place. It was huge, with an amazing lobby and architecture.
The building was made of glass, kapag nasa loob ka ay kita mo ang labas pero
hindi mo kita ang loob mula sa labas. The designs are intricate and screams money
and elegance.
I saw people in their formal attires and dresses, ang iba'y may hawak na mga
folder at attache case at nag-uusap-usap.
We went to the front desk, kaagad kaming sinalubong ng receptionist at kaagad
namang nagsalita si Kuya Lando.
"Miss, kay Dr. Valderama..." Ani nito. I remained looking at them.
"Sino po sila?" Ani nito. Nilingon ako ni Kuya kaya kaagad akong bumaling sa
receptionist at ngumiti.
 "Scira Lopez..." I told her, I saw how she took a glance at me. Staring at me
from head to foot at kaagad akong naconcious roon, bago pa man ako magtanong ay
nakita kong iniabot nya ang telepono para tumawag.
"Okay, Doc..." Aniya sa kausap. She typed something on the computed as she look
at me.
"Third floor," Aniya.
"Thank you..." I smiled, she nodded, still not smiling at nang naglakad na kami
paalis ay nagsalita si Kuya.
"Ma'am, kaya nyo na po ba? Aalis na po ako..." He said.
"Opo," I smiled at him. "Salamat, Kuya..."
He nodded and let me ride the elevator first as he went out. I was nervous as I
rode the elevator, nakakaba naman kasi, about our date.
Do I look okay? Will he like it? Paano kapag hindi? Baka magmukha akong kawawa?
I almost jumped when the elevator opened, kaagad akong lumabas at napahugot ng
hininga.
This is it, Scira!
I moved slowly, clutching my black pouch on the side. Hinawi ko ang buhok ko at
nang makita ang opisina na tinutukoy ay kumatok ako.
I was welcomed by a middle aged woman, kaagad nya akong pinapasok at pinaupo sa
sofa roon sa gilid.
I sat there, waiting, ang sabi nya ang may kameeting pa rin si Thorn pero
patapos na raw so I waited patiently.
The place is spacious, sa pwesto kong sofa sa gilid ay may nakita akong mga
cubicle ng iilang empleyado roon. They were working and chatting, marami rin ang
napansin ko tinitignan ako kaya ngumingiti lang ako
Mula sa pwesto ko ay kita ko ang pintuan ng opisina ni Thorn, ang sabi'y naroon
daw iyon nakikipag-usap.
I played with the phone, nag-eenjoy ako sa paglalaro when I heard the door
creaking, tumahimik ang buong opisina. I heard someone walking kaya nag-angat ako
ng tingin at nakita ang isang lalaki mula roon.
I saw a man probably on his mid-40s or 50s, walking with his formal black coat
and tie. Standing proud and dignified.
My forehead creased. He was looking straight to the door, ang ibang nakatayo ay
bahagyang yumukod pagkakita sa kanya at maging ang babaeng nagpapasok sa akin
kanina ay nakangiti.
The man has a strict, straight face. Kahit may edad na ay kita pa rin ang
estado nito sa buhay at kung paano sya galangin ng mga tao.
When he walked passed me, I saw his ocean blue eyes and my heart skipped a
beat. My mouth parted unknowingly.
Napatayo ako.
"Mr. Sandejas!" The lady greeted and I saw the man nodded and smiled. I stopped
at that.
"Mila," Bati nito at nang marinig ang boses nya ay kumirot ang ulo ko.
My heart starts pounding faster kaya napahugot ako ng hininga roon.
"Kamusta na si Ma'am Lena, Sir?" Ani ng babae.
"Oh, my wife's doing great..." Sagot nito at napangiwi ako sa pagsakit ng ulo
ko. Sinapo ko ang noo ko at napatingin sa paligid at napansing nanlalabo na ang
paningin ko.
"Ikamusta mo nalang ako, Sir, doon sa tatlong magkakapatid..." Ani nito.
"I will." He chuckled. "I gotta go, Mila. Nice seeing you here, my wife's
waiting for me at the lobby..."
My head throbbed painfully at napapikit ako ng mariin roon. My breath quicken
and my heart almost went out of my chest as I watch the man went out of the door.
"Scira?" I heard a voice at sa paglingon ko ay nanlabo ang paningin ko ng
makita si Thorn.
He smiled at me, waving his hand but my head throbbed.
It felt like it was breaking into two, kaya napapikit ako at napahugot ng
hininga.
"Scira!" I heard a panicking voice but my head was really breaking. I felt like
I wanted to close my eyes, my head is spinning.
My knees weakened and my body fell on the ground.

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Kabanata 12

Kabanata 12
I opened my eyes and found myself in a four-walled room. Kaagad akong binalot
ng takot, I still remembered being trapped inside that horrible room that feeds the
monsters inside my head.
Kumalabog ang dibdib ko at mabilis na napabalikwas ng upo sa kama.
"Scira!" A voice said, sa paglingon ko ay halos manghina ako nang makita si
Thorn sa tabi ko.
"T-Thorn..." I whispered. He cursed, bigla syang tumayo sa upuan at naupo sa
tabi ko.
"Sshh, it's fine..." He whispered. Napabuntong-hininga ako at nang hawakan nya
ang baywang ako ay sumandal ako sa kanya.
He let me rest on his chest, humalik naman sya sa ulo ko at doon ko naramdaman
ang pagkalma ng puso ko.
"W-Where am I?" I whispered.
"Hospital..." Bulong nya. Napapikit ako roon at napahawak sa damit nya. "You
fainted,"
I nodded, still not speaking at mas humigpit lang ang hawak ko sa damit nya. I
need to get out of this room, I hate it!
"I wanna go home..." I whispered weakly.
"Are you okay?" Bulong nya. I nodded, humigpit naman ang hawak nya sa baywang
ko bago marahang silipin ang mukha ko.
"Yes," Sagot ko. "I just..."
He pulled away, saglit nyang hinaplos ang pisngi ko at pinagmasdan ang mukha
ko.
"What? May masakit sayo? Did you hit your head when you fell?" I shook my head,
tumango naman sya at hinawi ang buhok ko.
"It's stress, what are you stressing about, hmm?" Aniya.
Ngumuso ako, I suddenly remembered that man pero hindi ako nagtanong sa kanya.
Maybe I was just overreacting, baka wala lang iyon. Maybe that's what I am
stressing about kanina kaya nawalan ako ng malay.
"Will we go home?" Instead, I asked. He sighed, natigil ako nang umiling sya at
kaagad akong kinabahan roon.
"W-Why? Ayoko--"
"Look at me," I stopped at that. Mabilis akong tumitig sa kanya at nang abutin
nya ang kamay ko ay kumalma ako.
"I'll stay here with you..." Aniya sa mahinang tono. "I won't leave you here, I
promise..." He kissed my hand and I felt relieve.
In my world full of chaos, he is my calm...
"The Doctor just have to check on you more kung may injury o wala... Isa pa,
it's a hassle if we go home, gabi na..." Napasulyap naman ako sa orasan at nagulat
nang ala-una na ng madaling araw.
Mabilis ko syang nilingon at tinuro ang orasan. He chuckled and nodded at me.
"Yes, reyna, you slept that long..." Ngumuso ako roon. Tumawa naman sya at
inabot ang balikat ko.
"Tara, higa tayo..." Aniya. I lay on the bed, sa gulat ko ay humiga rin sya
roon at iniangat ang ulo ko para makahiga sa braso nya.
Kaagad ko syang nilingon at natawa ako ng pinagpilitan talaga nyang magkasya
kami sa hospital bed. I shook my head, kumindat naman sya sa akin.
"You're so cute," I smiled at him, marahang inabot ko ang salamin nya at
tinanggal bago ito inilagay sa gilid ng lamesa.
 "You made me so damn worried, I was smiling when I went out but then, you
fainted. Imagine my reaction, doktor ako oo, pero hindi ko pa rin maiwasan magpanic
dahil ikaw 'yun..." Natawa naman ako roon. Seryoso ang mga mata nya habang sinasabi
iyon kaya inabot ko ang ilong nya at pinisil.

"Sorry if I got you worried..." Paumanhin ko. He smiled and

nodded.
"It's fine, kiss mo nalang muna ako..." He pouted at nangingiting nag-angat ako
ng tingin at humalik sa kanya.
He kissed my lips softly, gently biting my lower lip. Nang maghiwalay kami ay
nakita ko ang kislap sa mata nya.
"I'm a bit sad we didn't have our date but... This is just fine, you beside
me..." Bulong nya. "This means the world to me, My Queen." My cheeks flushed,
kinagat ko ang labi ko at nangingiting pinagmasdan sya.
"How was your day, My King?" I asked him and he looks taken aback. Tumikhim sya
at natawa ako roon.
"Great..." Aniya. "I closed the deal, magsisimula na ang project this coming
week and I have to do my best to make this successful."
"Is your Dad still in Japan?" He nodded at me.
"Yes, so, I gotta take care of this..." He smiled. "And guess what, baby?"
Bulong nya, nabakas ko ang excitement sa boses nya.
"What?" I asked him excitedly.
"Uhm," He bit his lip. "I called Dad earlier, I told him that the project is
good, na matutuloy na... He was glad and you know what he told me?"
Nanatili akong nakatitig sa kanya at nabakas ko ang saya sa mga mata nya. He
was adorable, ang sarap i-pinch ng cheeks!
"Good job, son..." He quoted. "That's what he told me,"
"Really?" My eyes widen, he chuckled and nodded at me.
"That's a first!" Tuwang-tuwa pa nyang sabi sa akin. Naramdaman ko ang saya sa
puso ko roon. I can't help but to be proud of him!
"I'm happy for you!" I exclaimed. "I'm really proud of you, Thorn..."
"Thank you..." He smiled sincerely. "I have to do this right so, he'll tell me
he's proud soon..."
"He will..." I smiled. "Just do your best, okay? I believe in you..." Bulong
ko.
He kissed my forehead and we sleep together that night with our happy hearts.
Days have passed and he's gone busy. He's that busy where it comes to the point
na halos hindi na kami magkita sa bahay.
"Yaya, si Thorn po?" I asked her while she was cooking, nakaupo ako sa stool
roon at kanina ko pa inaantay si Thorn pero wala pa rin sya.
"Hija, ang balita ko'y pumunta ng Maynila para doon sa project nya..." I
stopped at that. Nawala ang ngiti ko at nangunot ang noo ko.
"Manila po?" Gulat kong sabi.
"Sa pagkakaalam ko," Tango nya. "Bakit, hindi ba nagpaalam sa'yo?"
"Hindi po..." I whispered. Nakakapagtaka naman iyon, busy man sya ay
nagpapaalam sya kahit sa text manlang. Kahit di naman kami nag-uusap ng madalas
ngayon dahil sa hindi kami nagkakakitaan ay hindi iyon ganun.
"Kasama ata ang parents nya," Sabi nya sa akin.
I nodded, sumulyap ako sa phone na ibinigay nya at ngumuso.
He didn't text me at all...
Buong gabi akong wala sa sarili dahil sa iniisip, alas-tres na ng gabi pero
wala pa rin akong tulog dahil sa pag-iisip.
I missed him, I really do. Isang linggo ko na syang hindi nakikita ng maayos.
Hindi kami nagkakaabutan. Tulog na ako kapag darating sya at ganoon rin kapag aalis
sya.
The next morning, narito sa bahay si Ate Gwy. She asks me to come with her,
magsashopping raw kaming dalawa kasama si Kristy.
 I wore a simple longsleeve top and fitted black pants. Nag-rubber shoes rin
akong puti at inilugay ang buhok ko.

I saw her waiting in our sofa downstairs at nang makita

ako'y dagli syang kumaway sa akin.
"Scira!" She cheered. I smiled and waved.
Mabilis akong bumaba roon sa hagdan at sinalubong sya ng yakap. We jumped up
and down as we cheered.
She's really lovely, she treats me like her sister, she's just too fund of me.
"Balita ko ay nahimatay ka?" Ani Ate Gwy habang nasa sasakyan kaming dalawa.
Their driver is on the front seat at kaming tatlo ang sa likuran.
"Hmm," I nodded. "Stress raw..."
"I knew it!" Sumimangot sya at nakita kong kumunot ang noo nya. Nagtaka naman
ako roon.
"Why?"
"Sana talaga ay sa akin ka nalang nakatira! I will take good care of you there!
I swear!" Aniya. "Bwiset na tinik kasi 'yan!"
Natawa ako sa sinabi nya at umiling.
"No, Ate Gwy..." I chuckled. "He's treating me right."
"Right? Kung maayos edi sana hindi ka stressed!" She hissed. "Yari talaga sakin
'yang--"
"He's taking care of me, promise..." I smiled at her.
"Hay naku, Scira..." Napairap sya kaya napatawa ako.
"Mommy, I know uncle is taking care of Auntie Princess naman e..." Kristy
suddenly said.
"Oh?" Ani Ate Gwy. "Your Aunt Scira fainted, darling. Mukha bang inaalagaan
'yan?" Sikmat nya.
"No, Mommy!" Ani Kristy. "Ganito kasi 'yan..." Paliwanag ng bata.
"Look at Auntie, she's blooming..." Aniya at nang nanliit ang mata sa akin ni
Ate Gwy ay ngumiti ako ng maliit.
"Yeah right," Ani Ate Gwy at hinawi ang buhok nya. She stared at me seriously,
her eyes glistening in such a reaction.
"You're glowing, hmm..." Turo nya at tinitigan ako. Nahiya naman ako bigla,
medyo hawig sila ni Thorn kapag ganyan ang ginagawa nya kaya nakakahiya.
"H-Hindi naman..." I whispered.
"Anyway, Scira..." She said kaya sinulyapan ko sya.
"Yes?"
"Don't tell me, nilalandi ka ni Thorn?" My eyes widen, napatikhim ako bigla at
nang napaawang ang labi nya ay nagulat rin ako.
"Oh my God!" She exclaimed in a slow motion. Nang sulyapan ko si Kristy ay
ngingiti-ngiti rin itong nakatingin sa akin.
"Omg, nilalandi ka nga talaga?!" She exclaimed. Nagtatakang sumagot ako.
"Landi? Ano, parang?" I answered.
"The heck, sabi na e!" She hissed at halos mamula na.
"I-Is that a bad thing?" I asked. Ayaw ba nya sa akin para kay Thorn?
"No!" Aniya. "Of course not!"
Nakagat ko ang labi ko roon.
"I just..." Ngumisi sya bigla. "Yieee, hi, sister-in-law!" My heart thumped.
"H-Huh?" My eyes widen at that.
"Thorn chose the right girl!" She giggled. "Pretty na, mabait pa! Bwiset lang
talaga, kaya pala nakikipag-away sa akin na doon ka sa bahay ko?!"
Natawa ako bigla roon. Ngumuso ako at natutuwang hinila ako ni Ate Gwy at
niyakap.
"Don't worry, Scira. Babantayan natin si Thorn, hindi pwedeng hayaan ka lang
nya." Aniya at napalabi ako roon at natawa.
 "Anyway, Ate Gwy, is he really in Manila?" I asked her.
"Si Thorn? Oo..." Aniya. "Kailangan sya roon e, since he represent Dad kay Mr.
Sandejas..."
I nodded, I felt something on my chest when I heard that surname.
"Sandejas..." I murmured. "Why does that sound so familiar?"
"Sikat kasi sila," Ani Ate Gwy. "Sandejas does ring a bell anywhere, lalo na sa
business. You know their children has their own names in their chosen careers?"
"Talaga?" I asked. She nodded at me.
"Hmm, the oldest is a lawyer, pilot iyong pangatlo, tho, I didn't know exactly
what is the exact work of the second one..." Napatango ako roon. Nangingiti akong
bigla sa naririnig.
"Anong itsura nila?" I asked her.
"Gwapo!" Tawa nya, "Kahit dito sa atin, kilala sila lalo na 'yung matataas,
hinahangaan. Girls are swooning over them, mayaman kasi at gwapo, dream boy
kumbaga..."
"Tatlo lang sila?" I curiously asked.
"Hmm, honestly they're four..." Aniya at nangunot ang noo ko roon. "May isang
babae, bunso, but I don't actually know what happened. Family secret, I guess?"
I nodded, I felt my heart aching kaya napahawak ako sa dibdib ko. Hindi na ako
nagtanong pa matapos 'nun pero ang utak ko'y gulong-gulo.
Ate Gwy shopped in different stores, kasama pa namin si Kristy at pinilit nila
akong mamili ng damit kahit ayos na ako sa pinamili namin ni Thorn noon.
They bought me expensive clothes at hiyang-hiya ako roon, ayoko namang
tanggihan dahil noong unang tanggi ko ay nalungkot si Ate Gwy.
I don't want to make her feel sad, she's like a big sister to me.
On our way home, I decided to call Thorn, I missed him so, so much. Gusto kong
ikwento sa kanya ang araw ko, how it went well, and how happy I was while shopping
with his sister.
Nag-uusap ang mag-ina sa tabi ko at sumulyap ako sa daan habang inaantay na
sumagot si Thorn.
One, two rings, he wasn't answering. Sinubukan ko pa ng isang beses at nang
sumagot sya ay halos mapatili ako.
"Hi, Thorn!" I cheered softly.
"Scira..." His voice said. Matamis akong napangiti roon.
"How are you?" I asked.
"I'm fine," Aniya. "You?"
"Great! You know I shopped with ate Gwy--" Suddenly I heard a voice on the
other line.
"Doc, pinapatawag ka ni Sir..." Ang sabi roon. Natigilan ako, I heard how deep
Thorn's breath is before speaking.
"Sorry, Scira, will talk to you later..." He said.
"Okay, I love--" The line was cut. Napahinga ako ng malalim at mabilis na
tumingin sa phone ko, he ended the call...
Napabuntong-hininga ako at ibinaba ang telepono ko.
"Okay ka lang?" Ate Gwy asked.
"Po?" Nilingon ko sya.
"I said, ayos ka lang?" Tanong nya. I smiled at her, kahit na pilit iyon.
"Opo..." Sagot ko. "Ayos lang..."
The whole duration of the ride, I was not in my right mind, nakatulala lang ako
roon sa bintana. My chest is hurting but I understand him...
He works hard, he works for his family and I don't have a say with that.
I waved at Ate Gwyneth goodbye, holding the shopping bags she gave me. Kristy
is also waving at me, all smiles. She was really pretty, kita talaga sa pamilya.

I smiled as I watch them go away, I had fun today, but my

real happiness isn't here so...
 Pumasok ako ng mansyon buhat ang dala ko. It was quiet inside the house,
nakakalungkot lang na wala si Thorn ngayon.
I stopped on my tracks when I saw Thorn's mother, Stella Valderama in her black
dress. She stood up the moment she saw me, ang mga mata nya'y matalim habang
nakatingin sa akin.
"G-Good evening po, Ma'am..." Mahinang bati ko. I was nervous.
I saw her took a glance at my face, she eyed me from head to toe and when she
saw the bags I am holding ay tumigil ang tingin nya roon.
"A gold digger, huh?" Matalim nyang sabi at natameme ako roon. "Saan ka
nanggaling?"
"K-Kasama ko po si Ate Gwy--"
"Oh, now, my daughter?" Mapanuya syang tumawa at umiling.
"H-Hindi po sa ganun, sinamahan ko po syang--"
"Leave him..." I stopped when she said that. "Leave my son..."
Hindi ako nakasagot roon. My mouth parted, humigpit ang hawak ko sa shopping
bags na hawak ko at mabilis na kumalabog ang puso ko.
"She's getting married, woman. He will marry the woman he deserves. High class,
not some trashy whore like you. My son deserves more, ayokong isipin ng ibang tao
na isang kagaya mo ang makakatuluyan nya."
Napalunok ako, nangilid ang luha ko roon at humugot ng hininga.
"Leave him, you're a toxic to him, wala kang kwenta..." She scoffed.
Napatungo ako at hindi nakapagsalita.
Am I really a toxic to him? Do I really don't deserve him?
"How much do you want to stay away from my son?" Malamig nyang sabi. I saw her
opened a handbag, napasulyap ako roon. I saw her getting a check at nanatili lang
akong nakamasid roon.
I saw her signed it and speak.
"Here, a blank check." Aniya. "Name your price, how much that is. Price your
worth..." Malamig nyang sabi.
She smirked at me at pigil-pigil ko ang luha habang nakamasid sa kanya. She
throw the blank check on my face and took a step out, leaving me dumbfounded and
hurt.
The moment she left, I broke down. Patuloy na nalaglag ang luha sa mga mata ko
at napasinghap ako. Napaluhod ako sa sahig habang umiiyak at hawak ang dibdib ko.
Am I really that low? Did I never deserve happiness?
Hilam sa luha ang mga mata kong dumiretso sa kwarto ni Thorn, binalot ko ang
katawan ko sa kanyang kumot at umiyak. I hugged his pillow, smelling his scent.
I wish he was here, I wish he was here to comfort me. Sana... Sana ay narito
sya para yakapin ako at sabihing magiging ayos lang ang lahat.
Thorn, please come home...
I found myself staring at my phone. I called him but he wasn't answering so I
did my best and waited for half an hour and called him again.
In the fourth ring, he answered me.
"Thorn..." Humihikbi ko pang tawag.
"Who's this?" A strong woman's voice is what I've heard and my voice faded.
"Hello? Who's this?" Ulit nito.
"S-Sino 'to?" My voice shook but I managed to say that. My heart's been beating
wildly.
"This is Katrin, Thorn's girlfriend..." My breath hitched at that.
Animo'y tumigil ang puso ko sa pagtibok at napahawak ako ng maigi sa bedsheet.

"He's sleeping right now," Aniya. "You can tell me your

name so, I can tell him when he wokes up..."
"No..." Bulong ko. "It's fine..."
"Oh, okay..." Aniya sa malambing na boses. "Pagod kasi kaya nakatulog," She
chuckled at nalaglag lang ang mga luha sa mga mata ko.
"Anyway, what's your name? Hindi kasi nakaregister ang name mo..." Mas sumikip
ang dibdib ko. Parang may sumuntok sa tyan ko sa sakit na naramdaman.
Kaagad kong pinatay ang telepono at ibinaon ang mukha ko sa unan. I sobbed
quietly and bit my lip.
I...still trust him. Ang sabi nya, ako lang... He told me he'll stay with me.
He promised that.
I won't go unless he'll ask me too, I'll stay because he wanted me too... I
will stay because that's what I want...
The next morning, I was stressed out. Mugto ang mata ko sa luha at nanghihina
ang katawan ko. Wala rin akong ganang kumain, nakita ko pang nakakalat ang mga
shopping bags sa lapag kaya itinabi ko iyon. I saw the blank check and my heart
constricted.
Itinabi ko iyon sa gilid ng vase at naupo sa sofa.
What do I do now?
"Hija, may naghahanap sayo..." Ani ni Yaya pagpasok nya. Nilingon ko sya, my
forehead creased when I saw Darius behind her, Thorn's brother.
"Scira..." Aniya. Napatayo ako roon, kaagad kong inayos ang damit ko at hinarap
sya.
"G-Good morning," Mahinang sabi ko.
He smiled and nodded.
"Good morning din..." Aniya.
"Sige, maiwan ko muna kayong dalawa at magluluto ako ng agahan..." Yaya left us
alone at kaagad akong naconcious sa itsura ako. I probably looked like a mess right
now.
"Anong ipinunta mo?" I asked him. Lumapit sya sa akin, with his hands on his
pocket. Naupo sya sa sofa at nanatili akong nakatayo roon.
"Sit first, Scira..." Aniya at nagtatakang naupo ako roon sa may tabi nya.
"Let's go to the event later tonight..." He said. My forehead creased, I am
confused.
"Event?"
"Yes, Valderama's event later tonight. In celebration of the new project..."
Napatango ako, naguguluhan pa rin.
"I-I don't know, hindi ako aalis kapag hindi kasama si Thorn..." Mahinang sabi
ko.
"He'll be there..." Aniya at natigilan ako.
"He's in Manila, right?" I asked.
"He came back early in the morning, he's in the mansion." Sagot nya sa akin. I
bit my lip, stopping myself from hurting if possible.
He didn't even tell me he's already here.
"Wait, don't tell me, hindi mo alam?" Aniya. I shook my head, his brow raised
and shook his head.
"Pupunta tayo mamaya, isasama kita..." Kaagad naman akong umiling roon at
sumulyap sa kanya.
"No, I mean, I am not invited... And Thorn is probably busy, ayoko namang--"
"I am inviting you then," Nagtaka ako sa sinabi nya.
"Why?"
"You are Thorn's girlfriend, hindi pwedeng wala ka roon..." Natahimik ako roon.
Am I?
"And Ate Gwy wants you there, she bought a gown for you later. She'll be here."
Hindi na ako nakapagsalita nang tumayo sya at muling nagpamulsa.
Magkasingtikas sila ni Thorn, matangkad rin pero mas matapang and features ni
Thorn kumpara sa kanya.

"I'll see you tonight, Scira..." He smiled sheepishly that

I almost have goosebumps.
When he left ay mariin akong napapikit. What is really happening?
One moment, we're good, then one moment, narito na kami.
Who do I really trust? Will he really stay with me? Would he really keep his
promise to never leave me?
I don't know where I actually belong... Pakiramdam ko ay isa lang akong sampid
na pinagpapasa-pasahan.
Looking at these people on their gorgeous gowns and suits is embarassing on my
side. I really felt like I never belonged here.
Pakiramdam ko ay nanliliit ako, I saw their stares. Nakita ko pang nagbulungan
sila habang nakatingin sa akin na kasama ang magkapatid rito.
Darius was beside me while Ate Gwy is on her shining blue gown.
"Come on," Darius said, nauna sa paglalakad si Ate Gwy habang kasama si Kuya
Ark at napatingin ako kay Darius nang ilahad nya ang kamay sa akin.
Napaangat ako ng tingin sa kanya at ngumiti sya.
"I think I am seeing what Thorn saw," Ngiti nya at nagtaka ako roon. "You are
more beautiful than I thought, Scira..."
Nag-init ang pisngi ko at nang abutin nya ang kamay ko ay gulat na napatingin
ako roon.
"Thorn, that asshole..." He chuckled and guided me inside the hall. Halos
napuno na kami ng tanong pagkaraan naming dalawa.
The place is huge, with chandeliers above. Round tables covered with gold
colored cloth covering it.
The hall is bright with lights, small whispers and chuckles from the guests,
looking wealthy and high class.
"Sit here..." Inalalayan ako ni Darius paupo at naupo ako roon habanv lumilinga
sa paligid. My heart's been beating wildly, I don't know why...
Ate Gwy with her stylists fixed me, they braided my black hair with a few
strands on each side of my forehead.
My gown is colored magenta, sweetheart tube like gown, my cleavage slightly
showing, making my fair skin shine more. They put a light make up on my face,
highlighting my soft features.
"You're really pretty, Scira!" Ate Gwy giggled when she came infront of me.
Maliit akong ngumiti at tumingin sa kanya.
"Thanks to you," I chuckled.
"Naku, kapag nakita ka talaga ni Thorn, maloloka iyon!" Aniya at kaagad akong
napanguso roon.
Where is he? I wanna see him... Ang sabi ay narito sya. I missed him so, so
much...
"Wow, bagay talaga sila!" I heard the people from the next table saying. Kaagad
kong sinundan ang tingin nila at nawala ang ngiti ko nang makita si Dra. Katrin at
Thorn na magkasama.
Dra. Katrin is wearing a red revealing gown, ang kanyang likod ay kita at hapit
ang damit sa kanyang katawan. Her hair is in a clean bun, her chinky eyes making
her look more fierce.
Beside her is a smiling Thorn, with his tailored gray suit ang pants fitting
perfectly on his body, enhancing his biceps. He was wearing a black dress shirt
tucked on his pants and a black leather shoes. His hair was perfectly brushed on
his head, his beard making him look more pleasing and manly. His glasses is almost
a curse for every maiden that they'll fall inlove in instant with that.
Nakita ko ang pakikipag-usap nya sa mga tao roon, beside him was his parents,
smiling, looking elegantly elite.
I saw them introduced Thorn to those people at nang napasulyap ako kay Ate Gwy
ay nangingiti sya.

"He looks happy," Ani Ate Gwy at nilingon ang nakatingin sa

aking si Darius.
"Thorn is taking the spotlight, now, hmm, Dar?" Ani nito.
"Yeah," Ani Darius at binasa ang labi. "He worked hard for that, he deserves
that..."
Napangiti ako sa sinabi ni Darius, I took a glance at him and when our eyes
met, nagthumbs-up ako.
"Hindi ka naman pala masama..." I murmured. His mouth parted, napatawa naman si
Ate Gwy at pumalakpak.
"Omg, Scira! You slay, girl!" I chuckled. Nag-apir kami ni Ate at napailing si
Darius at napatawa.
"Thorn's lucky, huh?" Aniyang pabulong.
Looking at my King, I never felt this proud of him. Ilang beses syang kinamayan
ng mga tao roon. His parents stayed on his side, nakakainis nga lang sa paningin si
Dra. Katrin na naroon rin.
The opening ceremony started, tahimik lang ako roong nakamasid sa kanila sa
harapan. Ate Gwyneth, Darius and Thorn stood in front and looking at them kinda
looks familiar.
Parang may ganyan din dati...
Sumimsim ako ng juice at hiniwa ang karne sa plato bago ito kinain. Sa pagbalik
ko ng tingin ko sa stage ay natigil ako ng makita ang mga mata ni Thorn.
His eyes widen, napaubo naman ako bigla at napainom ng juice sa gulat ng
pagkakatagpo ng mata namin.
The whole duration of the talk infront ay hindi lumubay ang tingin nito sa
akin. Nanliliit pa ang mata ni Thorn sa akin kaya ngumiti ako sa kanya.
Nang tumigil ang pagsasalita roon ay kaagad na bumaba si Thorn sa stage,
someone called him but he didn't even look at him.
Nanatiling nakamasid lang ako sa at sa gulat ko ay sakin sya tumakbo. I was
starled at that, napatayo ako at nanlaki ang mata ko ng higitin nya ako sa yakap.
My body froze. Kumalabog ang puso ko at nang mag-angat ako ng tingin ay
nakatitig sya sa akin.
"What the heck, Scira?" He hissed. Napanguso ako.
"What?" I asked.
"Your showing too much skin, My Queen..." He murmured. Nag-init ang pisngi ko.
I really missed him...
"Ate Gwy let me wear this..."
"That woman..." His teeth gritted, hindi alintana ang nasa paligid na
pinagtitinginan na kami. I was starled when he reached for the cloth on my chest
and pulled it up.
"Thorn..." I murmured, kunot-noo naman syang hinanap ang mata ko at napapikit
ako nang dumampi ang labi nya sa noo ko.
"I missed you, baby..." Bulong nya. I smiled, inabot ko ang leeg nya at niyakap
at kaagad syang yumakap sa baywang ko.
"I missed you too, you didn't even tell me..."
"I'm sorry," Aniya at hinaplos ang balikat ko. He smelled nice and addicting.
"My plan is, once I finished this night without bothering you, I will come home
tapos tayo naman para wala ng istorbo..." Aniya. "But then, Ate Gwy did this..."
Nailing sya.
I caressed his cheek.
"How's Manila?" I asked.
"Great, kasama ko si Dad doon..." He smiled. "Improvements, my Queen, there's a
lot of that..."
"Sinong kasama mo?" I suddenly asked him, remembering those I've been crying
all night long.
"Me, Dad, si Katrin ay bumisita rin sa site kahapon..." Aniya. "I did not
expect it..."

"Oh..." Napatango ako at hinanap ang mga mata nya. "M-May

kasama ka ba noong gabi?"
"Hmm?" His forehead creased and shook his head. "I'm alone, why?" He asked
innocently so I smiled at him.
"Wala..." I answered. I trust him, I know he's telling me the truth.
Nang maghiwalay na kami ay nakatingin sa amin ang mga tao, kaagad akong
nakaramdam ng hiya roon. I hid on his back pero kaagad nyang inabot ang baywang ko
para pumirmi ako sa gilid nya.
"Let's go..." He murmured and guided me in walking. Nagtatakang nakatingin sa
amin ang mga tao, I saw Dra. Katrin raising her brow at me, masama ang tingin nya
sa akin kaya nag-iwas ako.
Thorn remained holding me close to him like he'll never let go of his grip,
inabot pa nya ang kamay ko at pinagsaklop iyon at kaagad akong kinabahan nang
makitang papalapit kami sa parents nya.
Stella Valderama is staring at us coldly, matalim ang tingin nya sa akin while
her husband, Stevan Valderama is eyeing me.
Mahigpit akong napahawak sa kamay ni Thorn, bumaba ang tingin nya sa akin at
nagtatanong ang mga mata pero hindi ako nagsalita.
"It's alright," He smiled a little.
Sa paglapit namin sa magulang nya ay mabilis ang kalabog ng puso ko, I felt
like it'll go out of my chest but I was shocked when Mrs. Valderama flashed a
smile.
"Oh, sorry hija if I was rude to you at first..." Malumanay na sabi nya. Kaagad
akong nagtaka roon, this isn't exactly what she is last night when she throw the
blank check on my face.
"We were shocked at first, that is why ganun ang reaksyon namin, but now that
our son, Thorn, is doing great with things, we assume that you're a good
influence..." Ani nito.
"U-Uhm, ganun po ba..." I asked and smiled a little.
I don't have a good feeling at this.
"Sana ay magbago ang tingin mo sa amin ng Daddy nya, sorry, hija... Babawi
kami..." Malumanay nyang sabi.
I heard them talking how good Thorn's mother is kaya nilingon ko ang mga ito
pabalik sa Mommy ni Thorn na matamis pa ring nakangiti sa akin.
"Oh, hijo, dance with your girl..." Ani ni Mr. Valderama at marahan akong
hinigit ni Thorn patungong gitna.
He put his hand on my waist before I put mine on his shoulder. Nag-angat ako ng
tingin sa kanya ay nakita ang malambing nyang ngiti.
"Sorry about them, baby..." Mahinang sabi nya habang marahan akong isinasayaw.
"What happened?" I asked. "I-I mean, diba dati lang..."
"They talked to me last night and told me they were sorry on how they treated
me and you..." Aniya. "You know, they were sorry because they lack attention..."
"Oh," I nodded and smiled at him softly.
Maybe they are sincere, sabi ko na nga ba e, mahal na mahal nila si Thorn...
Maybe they have changed, kakalimutan ko nalang ang nangyari kagabi. Maybe it was
just her emotions... Pero baka naiayos na nilang pamilya.
"I hope you forgive my parents for saying that, My Queen... I hope you'll
forgive their words..." Bulong nya at kaagad akong tumango sa kanya at sumandal sa
dibdib nya.
"Of course, I will..." Mahinang sabi ko at gumaan ang puso ko roon. "Sobrang
na-miss kita, Thorn..."
He chuckled, kissing my head and swaying me.
"I missed you more, I was too busy doing the job so I never have time talking
to you... Sorry..." Bulong nya. "Your King will do anything he can to make you
happy, 'kay? Babawi ako..."

"Okay..." I murmured and we danced slowly to the soft music

playing.
"You're beautiful tonight, Scira. Tho, I don't appreciate you showing that much
skin..." He whispered huskily.
"Sorry," Tawa ko. "They let me wear this..."
He sighed, humigpit ang hawak nya sa baywang ko at akmang magsasalita ulit nang
matigil kami sa isang boses.
 "Mind if I dance with your girl, son?" Sabay kaming napalingon at nagulat ako
ng makita si Mr. Valderama roon.
"Dad..." Thorn said. "Of course," He smiled.
Lumingon sa akin si Thorn at kaagad na ngumiti. "It's alright, baby..."
Kinabahan na ako nang mapunta sa harapan ko si Mr. Valderama. He offered his
hand to me na kaagad ko namang inabot sa kabila ng pag-aalinlangan.
Thorn remained on my side and when I was alright ay ngumiti sa akin at tumango.
I put my hand on his father's shoulder and he put his on my waist.
Tahimik lang kaming nagsasayaw na dalawa. He wasn't speaking, so was I. Ang
kaba ko'y abot langit na parang kaunti nalang ay manghihina ako.
"Where do you first met my son?" Nag-angat ako ng tingin at nakita ang mga mata
ni Mr. Valderama.
My heart thumped and I swallowed and spoke.
"U-Uhm, nasiraan po sya ng sasakyan 'nun..." Mahinang sagot ko. He nodded,
still eyeing me coldly, marahan pa rin kaming nagsasayaw pero hindi ko pa rin
maiwasang kabahan.
"You really thinks he'll stay with you?" Malamig nyang tanong kaya nanahimik
ako.
"Look, Ms. Lopez..." Aniya sa akin. "Ayokong magpaligoy-ligoy pa..."
"Leave my son alone..." My heart almost stopped when he said that.
"He can do great things, he's my youngest yet the toughest one. He has a lot of
dreams and can achieve more if you leave him." Aniya. "You will only stop him from
achieving more by staying with him, he can do more when he's with Katrin. Her
family is rich, well-known and more influential unlike yours..."
Sumisikip ang dibdib ko sa sinasabi nya pero hindi ako nagsalita. I was
stopping myself from crying, I am doing my best to keep my promise to Thorn.
Nangako ako, nangako akong hindi ko sya iiwan...
"Look at them, Ms. Lopez..." Aniya at dahan-dahan kong iniangat ang ulo ko.
I was deeply hurt the moment I saw them together. They were dancing, his hand
on her waist while hers on his shoulder. They were talking, I saw how Thorn laughed
when she said something and shook his head.
"They looked good together, right?" Aniya sa malamig na tono at naramdaman ko
ang pagsikip ng dibdib ko.
They looked perfect together. He's handsome and rich, she is too. They have the
same status in life, bagay na bagay sila. If this was another case, I'll root for
them but it is not.
"That perfect relationship is what you'll deprived from having if you don't
leave him..." Ani Mr. Valderama.
Nangilid ang luha ko at sumikip ang dibdib ko.
Looking at them, being happy together makes me question myself. If I was rich,
if I came from a well-known family, would they accept me? Would they treat me like
this?
"Think, Ms. Lopez. If you love my son, you'll think of his welfare. If you love
him, you'll let him go..." Aniya at humiwalay sa akin. Nanghihina akong napakurap
roon at sumulyap sa kanya.
"Aasahan ko 'yan, have a good night, Scira..." Mr. Valderama smiled blanky as
he turned his back at me, leaving me alone on the dancefloor.
Sa kabila ng panghihina ay nanatili akong tulala sa gitna. They were all having
fun, I saw Thorn with Katrin still dancing and I coudn't help but to be hurt, too
much, I think I will broke.

I heard those people telling how good they are together.

How they admire them and I am really feeling jealous. Sana ako, sana ako ang
sinasabihan ng ganyan.
Sana, kami nalang ang bagay...
I felt someone staring at me kaya nawala ang atensyon ko sa dalawa. Kaagad kong
hinanap ang tingin na nararamdaman ko.
 The nervousness I am feeling doubled as I look around, someone is looking at
me, watching my every move.
I stopped when I saw a familiar black eyes, it was staring at me, piercing my
insides that I started shaking in fear.
My heart almost dropped on the floor as he smirked at me.
Mayor Sebastian, sitting comfortably on the side, staring at me and smiling
evilly.
"N-No..." I murmured. Kaagad na hinanap ng mata ko si Thorn pero wala na ito
roon.
My hand started shaking, my heart fasten in pace. I am having goosebumps, ang
pawis ko ay nalaglag sa noo ko habang nakatingin sa kanya.
"Long time no see..." He mouthed and my mouth parted when he lifted his gun and
showed it to me.
I took a step back, shaking as I watch him.
N-No,Thorn... Please, help me...
"You're next..." He mouthed and smirked. My tears fell, suddenly I remembered
my parents face when they died. That sad smile on Nanay face before he shoot her.
I remembered being harassed and dragged inside the hospital and my tears
uncontrollably went out.
Mas umatras pa ako habang nakatingin sa kanya. I have to get out of here, I
have to...
I screamed nang may maatrasan ako, napatid ako pagkaapak ko sa gown ko at
bumagsak.
I groaned in pain when I step on the tables with foods, nahila ko ang tela sa
panic at napadaing nang bumagsak ang pagkain sa lamesa. The cake fell on me at
napasinghap ako roon at napaiyak.
Sa muling pagmulat ko ay wala na si Mayor Sebastian subalit ang mga bisita ay
nakapalibot na sa akin. Their mouths parted as they stared at me like I did
something horrible.
Hilam sa mga luha ang mata ay napatingin ako sa paligid. The foods are
scattered everywhere, puno ng icing ang katawan ko at naninikip ang dibdib ko sa
nararamdamang pagkapahiya at takot.
"Scira!" Thorn's voice roared, kaagad syang tumakbo at lumuhod sa harapan ko.
"Are you okay?"
I sobbed and my hand is uncontrollably shaking.
"Nakakahiya..." Someone commented.
"The party is perfect but she ruined it!" Nag-angat ako ng tingin at nakitang
pinagtatawanan na ako.
I saw Thorn's parents in the middle of the crowd, looking so disappointed.
Kaagad kong nilingon si Thorn at nakita ko ang pagkapahiya sa mga mata nya.
I saw him stared at the crowd, his eyes blazing with embarassment for me and my
tears fell.
I saw Mr. Valderama shook his head at him nd I saw how Thorn's eyes laced with
sadness.
"Girlfriend nya ba iyan? Mukhang may saltik..." Komento nung babaeng katabi ni
Dra. Katrin.
"Let's go..." I was starled when Thorn held my arm and pulled me up.
Napasinghap ako sa sakit na naramdaman sa ginawa nya. Hinila nya ako palabas ng
hall habang pinagtitinginan kami ng tao.
I was sobbing, sobrang hiyang-hiya ako sa sarili ko at para sa kanya. I was
such an embarassment!
Punong-puno ng icing ang katawan ko, my hair is sticky and I just sob while
murmuring how sorry I am to him.
He dragged me on the parking lot and opened the car door, mabilis na lumabas
roon ang driver at gulat na napatingin sa akin.
"Ma'am! Bakit..."
"Take her home..." Malamig na sabi ni Thorn rito. Nanghina ako roon at mabilis
na sumulyap kay Thorn.
"T-Thorn... Sorry..." I murmured.
 "What do you think you're doing, Scira?!" Mariing sambit nya at mas nanginig
lang ako roon.
"T-Thorn, na-nakita ko--"
"You ruined the party!" He hissed at me and that was the first time I've ever
saw him this mad and shouted at me. I sobbed and shook my head.
"T-Thorn, I--"
"They're disappointed at me! Damn it!" Mariing mura nya at nang abutin ko ang
kamay nya para magpaliwanag ay umatras sya at ipinikit ng mariin ang mata nya.
"Go home, Scira. I have to fix this mess. Mamaya na tayo mag-usap." Malamig
nyang sabi bago tumalikod at tumakbo pabalik sa hall habang ako'y nanginginig sa
takot at kahihiyan.

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Kabanata 13

Kabanata 13
I came home with a heavy heart, nanatiling sumusulyap sa akin si Manong sa
salamin habang umiiyak ako roon sa likod ng sasakyan.
My heart has been hurting, ang pakiramdam ko ay dinudurog ito sa pinakamaliliit
na piraso. I still remembered how he raised his voice at me and I was so scared and
hurt.
I was such an embarassment! How can I ruin that party? Sobrang hiyang-hiya sa
sarili ko at ayaw ko nang magpakita sa kahihiyan.
Pinahiya ko si Thorn! He probably hates me now, he'll leave me! I knew it!
Gulat na gulat si Yaya pagkapasok ko sa bahay na ganoon ang itsura. Her mouth
parted, nabakas ko ang pag-aalala sa mga mata nya roon.
"Anong nangyari, hija?" She asked worriedly, hindi ako umimik at nanatiling
humihikbi lang. I saw her looked at Manong who only shook his head with a sad face
at nang bumaling muli sya sa akin ay nagsalita ako.
"A-Ayos lang po ako, pasensya na..." I whispered softly at mabilis na umakyat
sa kwarto.
I locked the door and went to the shower, kaagad akong naupo sa gilid ng banyo
at hinayaan ang tubig na basain ako habang umiiyak roon.
I thought of any scenarios I have in mind, the worst in fact.
Maybe, he'll push me away... But maybe, nadala lang sya ng damdamin nya.
Napapikit ako roon at may naisip nanaman.
He was mad, he...he never screamed at me like that and that was the most
hurtful words I've ever heard. Tanggap ko pa ang masasakit na salita mula sa mga
magulang nya, pero ang galing sa kanya ay hindi ko kaya.
Pakiramdam ko ay sobra akong nanghihina. My knees are too weak to even stand up
from the shower at nakatulala lang ako sa kulay puting tiles sa banya.
I was too wasted, I can't feel anything habang iniisip ko ang lahat. Their
words, the hatred his parents are having for me, ang pagpapahiya ko kay Thorn. His
words, sina Mayor...
Napasandal ako at wala na sa sarili habang nakatulala roon, my shaking hands is
still shaking with fear and cold.
I heard a knock on the door but I did nothing but to stare at it.
"Hija, ayos ka lang?" I heard Yaya's voice. "Tumawag si Thorn, tinatanong kung
ayos ka lang ba daw..."
I smiled faintly, shaking my head.
No, I'm not alright...
"Hija?" Aniya at muli akong kinatok.
"A-Ayos lang po," Sagot ko, pilit na pinapanormal ang boses.
"Sigurado ka?" Aniya. "Umiyak ka, hija... Nag-aalala na si--"
"Opo, Ya..." Malakas kong sabi. "H'wag nyo nalang pong sabihing umiyak ako..."
I heard her sighed.
 "Kung ano mang problema nyo ng alaga ko, pag-usapan nyo 'yan, huh?" Aniya sa
akin.
"Opo..." Sagot ko.
Nang magpaalam sya paalis ay tsaka lang ako nakahinga ng maluwang. I thought
that was Thorn, hindi ko alam ang gagawin ko kung sakaling sya nga iyon.
I don't know how I'll talk to him sa kabila ng kagagawan ko. I was so ashamed,
dahil sa takot ko ay nagulo ko ng hindi sinasadya ang pinaghandaan nila.
It was supposed to be a successful event but I... I ruined it.
Lumabas ako ng kwarto na balot ng robe, I changed my clothes and rest, I buried
my face on my pillow and tried my best to sleep but I found myself crying again.

Sa sobrang pag-iyak ay hindi ko na namalayan na nakatulog

ako and that night, nightmares came and visited me.
I was in a place where I was alone, strangers are around me while I cried and
cried. Begging someone to help me, begging anyone to hear just my cries. I begged
him to come back, but he just turned his back and left me there, alone, in the
dark.
Kaagad akong napatayo at napahawak sa dibdib ko. My chest went up and down,
catching my breath as I tried remembering very details of that nightmare.
I noticed that I was still on my room, the sunrays is visible on my sight,
slightly sneaking on the curtains.
"Scira..." I jumped in shock and looked beside me. Kaagad na pumilantik ang
puso ko ng makita si Thorn sa tabi ko.
"T-Thorn..." I murmured softly. I saw his soft eyes, kaagad nya akong inabot
pero napapiksi ako sa hawak nya at napaatras.
His mouth parted, nakita kong napakurap sya at binasa ang labi nya.
"Ayos ka lang?" He whispered. "Did you have a nightmare? Are you scared?"
I cleared my throat and lowered my head.
"I-I'm fine," Bulong ko.
He sighed deeply as he moved closer, kaagad nyang hinagilap ang kamay ko at
nagtatakang napatingin ako sa kanya.
"I'm sorry..." He breathe and sighed.
Hindi ako nagsalita, I remained looking at my hands with his, covering it and
bit my lip.
"Scira," Aniya. "I'm sorry, my Queen..."
Nangilid ang luha ko sa boses nya, it was soft, like he was really sorry for
what he did.
"I...I did not mean to shout at you, I was just shocked." Paliwanag nya at
muling lumapit.
"Hey, baby..." Aniya at hinagilap ang baba ko. He tilted my chin and when our
eyes met ay doon na tuluyang nalaglag ang mga luha ko.
"Fuck..." He cursed hardly and a sob escaped my lips.
"Shit, Scira..." Bulong nya at mabilis na inabot ang baywang ko sa isang yakap.
I cried on his shoulders, sa sobrang lakas nito ay halos mawalan na ako ng hangin.
"I'm sorry..." Bulong nya sa akin at hinaplos ang likuran ko.
"I-I'm scared..." Bulong ko at mas humigpit ang yakap sa akin ni Thorn.
"Sorry," Bulong nya sa pagtahan. "Tahan na, mahal ko..."
"I-I ruined your party... S-Sorry if I failed--"
"Sshh," Bulong nya at isinubsob ang mukha sa balikat ko.
"It's me that failed, reyna..." Bulong nya. "Sorry if you got scared, hindi ko
sinasadyang sigawan ka..."
"B-But I was embarassing..." Bulong ko.
"I'm an asshole," Bulong nya. "Sorry..."
Nanatili akong humikhikbi, I was clutching his shirt tightly as he caressed my
back.
Nang hawakan nya ang balikat ko palayo ay kaagad nyang sinakop ang magkabilang
pisngi ko. My eyes are hurting from the cries I had, namumula na ang ilong ko
panigurado at nabakas ko ang lungkot sa mga mata ni Thorn habang nakamasid sa akin.
"Damn..." Bulong nya at ipinikit ang mata. Mas hinawakan nya ang pisngi ko at
idinikit ang noo sa noo ko.
"I'm really sorry, My Queen..." Bulong nya. "Your King messed it up,"
Hindi ako umimik roon, I was still sobbing and he remained looking at me with
those soft eyes.
Inabot ko ang kamay nya sa pisngi ko at humugot ng hininga.

"H-Hindi ka ba galit sa akin?" Bulong ko.

"No..." Aniya. "I just... Nothing..."
Inabot nya ang kamay ko at hinalikan ang palad ko. He kissed my fingers while
looking straight in my eyes, hinawi nya ang luha sa pisngi ko bago humalik sa noo
ko.
"I'm sorry again," Aniya at hinawi ang buhok ko. "I made you cry, would you
give me this day so I can make it up to you?"
I nodded softly and I saw his eyes lighten up, he smiled sincerely and nodded.
"Thank you..." Bulong nya at inayos ang buhok ko paalis sa mukha ko.
That morning, gumaan ang pakiramdam ko. Inaalalayan nya ako pababa ng hagdan
nung umaga, he was holding my hand real tight, his thumb slowly caressing the back
of my palm.
"Oh, gising na kayo!" Kaagad kaming sinalubong ni Yaya pagkababa namin.
"Good morning," Thorn greeted her. Napatingin si Yaya sa akin pabalik kay Thorn
at napatingin sa kamay naming dalawa.
"Asus, ang mga batang ito..." Iling nya at matapos ay ngumiti. "Mabuti at
maayos na kayo..."
"It's my fault, Ya..." Ani Thorn at sumulyap sa akin. Ngumuso naman ako at
tumungo.
"Dapat lang na ayusin nyo 'yan. Umuwi si Scira rito ng umiiyak, ang kalat din
nya kagabi..." Ani Yaya at mas humigpit ang hawak sa akin ni Thorn at marahang
inabot ang baywang ko at doon sya humawak.
"I'll make it up to her," Aniya.
"Asus, kung alam mo lang, Scira..." Ani Yaya kaya napatingin ako sa kanya.
"Pagkauwi nyan dito kagabi, pinuntahan ako sa kwarto para tanungin kung ayos ka
lang tapos pagkasabi kong oo ay kumaripas ng takbo pataas..."
Napatingin ako kay Thorn at nakita kong ngumuso lang sya at lumunok.
"I'm worried..." Ani Thorn at natawa si Yaya at umiling.
"Ay naku, sya, kumain na kayong dalawa. H'wag na kayo mag-away ulit, huh?"
Aniya at iniwan kami roon.
Nang makaalis si Yaya ay nagkatinginan kami ni Thorn. He kissed my head and
guided me to the table.
Ipinag-angat nya ako ng upuan at kaagad syang tumabi sa akin. I just watched
him as he prepared my foods, inilagay nya ang fried rice sa plato ko kasama ang
bacons roon.
He gave me a glass of milk at kaagad na ngumiti sa akin bago naupo sa tabi ko.
"Let's eat?" Aniya at nang tumango ako at ngumiti ay napatawa sya at muli akong
niyakap.
"I love you, Scira..." Bulong nya. "Sorry again..."
That day, nagbonding lang kaming dalawa. When he told me he'll make it up to
me, he really did. Walang nasayang na oras nung araw na iyon.
We watched movies, watered the plants, swim on his pool and eat snacks.
Gumaan ang dibdib ko sa effort nya para lang makabawi and in my heart, mas
matimbang pa rin ang pagmamahal ko sa kanya. I trust him too much and I will hold
unto that.
Hindi sya mahiwalay sa akin, saglit lang syang mawawala at maya-maya'y didikit
nanaman at magpapapansin. He never stopped saying his sincere sorry and kisses me
everytime he got and that night, we were cuddling on his bed.
Nakahiga ako sa braso nya at nakayakap sya sa baywang ko. His bare chest is on
my sight, ang kamay ko'y marahang humahaplos sa manipis na balahibo roon.
"Reyna ko..." I looked at him and found him staring intently at me.
"Hmm?" I asked and smiled a little.

"I'm sorry again," Mahinang bulong nya.

"Ayos lang..." Bulong ko at matamis na ngumiti. "It's my fault anyway..."
"No," Aniya. "It's mine, I shoudn't have shouted at you, masyado akong nadala
sa damdamin. I got carried away, that's why I did that..."
"It's fine," Mahinang sagot ko at ngumiti ulit. "I understand you, Thorn. Alam
ko namang hindi mo iyon sinasadya..."
"I promise not to do that again," Aniya at pinisil ang ilong ko. "I cannot let
you cry again like that, ang sama ko..."
Hindi naman na ako nagsalita roon at ipinikit lang ang mga mata ko.
"Mahal na mahal kita, Thorn..." Bulong ko. "It was actually my first time so I
don't know what I'll do about this but I know I have to say this to you..."
"I love you too," Bulong nya. "Don't do anything about it, just love me and I'm
good at that..."
I smiled and reached for his lips, kaagad naman syang tumungo at muli ako
hinagkan. He kissed me tenderly, slowly but deeply. He made me feel his kisses
more, he let me feel his love for me.
Nang maghiwalay ay naghabol kami ng hininga, I smiled at him at ngumiti rin sya
sa akin at hinawakan ang batok ko para hagkan ang noo ko.
"I'll be at Manila tomorrow, baby..." Aniya at kaagad akong nag-angat ng tingin
sa kanya.
"Why?" I asked him.
"The project," He sighed. "I never wanted to leave you here but I have to...
Ako ang inaasahan ni Dad dahil ako ang nakausap ni Mr. Sandejas,"
"Oh..." I nodded, slightly disappointed.
"What happened last night," Aniya at sumulyap sa akin. "They were mad at that
at ayokong namang magalit sila ulit at idamay ka pa..."
"Sorry, kung hindi siguro ako nagpanic..."
"What happened, anyway? Why did that happened?" Takang tanong nya. I stared at
him and I stilled at that.
I opened my mouth to speak but I think that wasn't a good idea after all,
ayokong maging abala sa iniisip nya.
"Nothing," I smiled a little. "I just thought I saw something scary..."
"Ghost?" Gulat nyang sabi. I chuckled and shook my head.
"Wala 'yun," Sagot ko. "Just do your best, okay?"
"I will..." He smiled.
I watched him as he left the house with his car, I was sad for that but I
understand him. He needs to please his parents again after what I did last night.
Ayokong magbago ang pananaw nila kay Thorn. They build their trust up to their
son and I was really happy for that, ayokong mawala iyon dahil lang sa akin.
For days, we videocall. He'll tell me the things he did and I will tell him
mine. Simpleng bagay lang naman ang ginagawa ko, it's either I'll cook, help clean
the house, sleep, go out with Ate Gwy or read on his library.
He excels most in talking to people, ang sabi nya sa akin ay bukod kay Mr.
Sandejas ay may iilang kilalang tao rin ang gustong makisosyo sa ospital na itatayo
sa Maynila. After all, he's a psychiatrist, he can talk to those people skillfully.
He'll just apply what he is always doing to his patients at makakagaanan na sya
nito ng loob. That's an advantage for him, Thorn is a great speaker. Titingin ka
lang sa mata nya at alam mong sinsero sya sa mga sinasabi nya.
These passing days, I began missing and missing him, halos dalawang linggo na
kaming hindi nagkikita at hindi na nakakapag-usap.
He usually tells me he's busy everytime I'll try calling him, minsan naman ay
si Dra. Katrin ang sasagot at kahit masakit ay nagtitiwala ako kay Thorn.
 No one believes me but he did so I am giving him my trust.
"Hindi ka na busy mamaya?" I asked him.
"I'm sorry, Scira..." He sighed. "I won't be able to call later, marami akong
gagawin..."
My heart fell at that, mas masakit nga lang ngayon kasi ilang linggo na ang
nakalipas. Parang mababaliw na ako kakaisip kung kamusta na sya, I wanted so bad to
see him again.
"Ganun ba?" I whispered.
"Yes, I'm sorry..." He sighed.
"Hey, Thorn, let's eat?" I stopped when I heard a voice on the other line, this
seems familiar.
"Uh, yes, Kat..." Aniya at nakagat ko ang labi ko roon sa sakit ng dibdib ko.
"T-Thorn?"
"Sorry, I gotta go..." The line went off pero nanatiling hawak ko iyon.
Mahigpit ang hawak ko sa telepono at napahugot ng hininga.
Magkasama ulit sila? I smiled bitterly, he said, they're just friends... Wala
naman sigurong masama roon diba?
A week had passed and yet, we barely speak to each other. Naeexcite lang akong
maisip na birthday ko na bukas!
Tomorrow is March 21, this is the birthdate we made up. Ito ang araw na
natagpuan ako nila Nanay sa may bangin.
I am looking forward for tomorrow, tho, I ain't sure if he'll come home, since
wala naman ata syang balak at hindi pa nya ako nasasabihan.
Ayokong isiping nakalimutan nya ang araw na ito, he promised me he'll make this
day memorable for me since it's the first time I'll celebrate my birthday.
Noong gabi palang ay nagsindi ako ng dalawang kandila para sa mga magulang ko.
I stayed on the garden and prayed for their souls, I thanked them for everything,
for keeping me for years, for taking care of me for years.
Pumasok lang ako pabalik sa bahay nang maupos ang kandila at may ngiting
pumunta sa kwarto ko.
I dialled my phone to call and ask Thorn about tomorrow but his phone is
unattended. Sinubukan kong kausapin sya at kamustahin sa text pero wala rin akong
natanggap na mensahe pabalik.
I pouted, ang sabi naman ni Yaya ay maayos naman roon si Thorn. Ate Gwy also
told me that their parents is proud of Thorn and for what he can do now kaya doon
ako nakakabalita sa kanya.
I rest with my phone beside me, waiting for Thorn's call but I fell asleep
without it by my side.
The next morning, I am expecting a sad day but I was wrong.
My eyes widen when I saw arms wrapped around my waist, kaagad akong napahawak
roon at mabilis na pumihit.
I was starled when I saw Thorn beside me, he was asleep. Kaagad na kumalabog
ang puso ko habang nakamasid sa kanya.
He looks tired, nakapikit ang mga mata nya habang nakahiga sa tabi ko at
nakayakap sa baywang ko.
"Thorn?" I whispered, still amazed that he is here.
"Hmm..." He hummed. I smiled, kaagad ko syang niyakap at hinalikan sa pisngi.
"You're here!" I cheered.
He smiled, bumukas ang isang mata nya bago tumawa at inabot ang labi ko. He
planted a small kiss on my lips and stared at me with his lazy eyes.
"I just missed you," He whispered.
Kumalabog ang dibdib ko sa sinabi nya at nakagat ang labi ko. I excitedly
stared at him and speak.
"Did you came here with a reason?" I asked. "May event ba, or something?"
Nagbabakasali kong tanong.
 "Event?" His forehead creased. "Hmm, wala naman..."
Natahimik ako, hindi nya naalalang birthday ko ngayon?
He stared at me, I saw his confused face as he reached for my cheek and
caressed it.
"Why are you sad?" Malambing nyang sabi. "Did I do something wrong?"
I pouted, magsasalita na sana ako pero muli syang nagsalita.
"I came here 'cause I missed you and we'll go to different places later!" Ngisi
nya. My mouth parted, kaagad akong bumalikwas ng higa sa kama at excited na
pumalakpak.
"Really? Saan?" I giggled.
He remained staring at me, his mouth twitching for a smile. Nanatili syang
nakatitig sa akin ng parang kinakabisado ang bawat parte nito kaya ngumiti ako.
"Why?" I asked. His brow lifted, he shook his head, chuckling as he reached for
my jaw.
"Wala lang," Aniya. "I just want to remember every angle of your face so I
won't miss you that much..."
"Grabe 'to!" I hissed. Tumawa sya at pinisil ang pisngi ko, mabilis syang naupo
sa kama at pinantayan ako.
"Prepare some clothes, hmm?" Aniya sa isang maliit na ngiti.
"Okay!" I cheered and smiled. Inabot naman nya ang ulo ko, he tapped my head at
humaba lang ang nguso ko roon.
"Pakiss nga, reyna ko..." He said and reached for my face kaya kaagad ko syang
tiningala.
"Mwuah!" I gave him a peck, may sound effects pa iyon kaya tumawa sya at
hinalikan ang noo ko.
"I missed you so much," Aniya. "Let's make this day memorable, alright?"
"Alright!" I cheered and walked out of the bed. He was smiling as he glance at
me preparing my things for taking a bath at nang magkatinginan pa kami ay kumindat
sya.
I wore a simple, yet pretty white dress for our getaway. I wore a comfy flat
sandals and let my hair fall freely on my back. Inilagay ko sa isang hindi
kalakihang bag ang iilang damit para sa sinabi nya kanina at malaki ang ngiti
habang bumababa sa hagdanan.
I saw him on the sofa, nasa tenga nya ang telepono habang nagtitipa sa laptop
nya. I saw a handful of papers on the table and I felt sad, looking at him being
that busy that he doesn't have enough time for himself.
Marahan akong lumapit sa kanya. I saw him looked up at me and smiled.
Isinara nya ang laptop nya bago ilahad ang kamay sa akin. Nagtatakang inabot ko
iyon, I was starled when he pulled me on his lap kaya napaupo ako roon.
"Hmm," Aniya sa kausap sa telepono.
Nanatiling nakaupo ako sa hita nya at pinagmasdan sya. He caressed my waist,
sumandal naman ako sa kanya at bahagya syang yumakap sa akin habang nakikipag-usap.
"I already talked to him, ayusin nyo nalang ang mga materyales..."  Sagot nya
sa kausap. Sumandal sya sa sofa kasama ako at nangingiti lang ako roon.
I missed him so much, sana ay ganito nalang kami palagi.
"Yes, inform them of the upcoming board meeting." Aniya at nang magsalubong ang
mata namin ay ngumuso sya. I chuckled and pressed a soft kiss on his lips at kaagad
syang nangiti roon at humalik sa pisngi ko.
"Okay..." He turned his phone off and hugged me closer to his body.
"You ready, baby?" Aniya. I nodded.
"Yes! Ready na!" I cheered. Nailing sya sa akin, nagtatago ng ngiti. He bit his
lip and hugged me, isinubsob nya ang ulo sa pagitan ng leeg ko at humugot ng
hininga.

"Tired ka?" I asked him worrying.

"Hmm..." He nodded and napabuntong-hininga ako roon. "But I'll be fine, just
let me hold you..."
My heart thumped wildly at that, bahagya akong humarap sa kanya at niyakap ang
leeg nya. I kissed his head and smiled sweetly.
"You did a great job, Thorn! I'm proud of you..." Bulong ko.
"Thanks..." He whispered, caressing my hand. "I love you..."
My heart melted, kinagat ko ang labi ko para hindi magpahalata at sumagot.
"Mahal din kita," Sagot ko. "Sana ganito lang tayo palagi, 'no?"
I saw his eyed shifted from an emotion to one.
"Sana..." He answered, smiling sadly.
"Today, I want us to be together. Just you and me... That's all that
matters..." He whispered.
Magkahawak-kamay kaming naglakad patungo sa sasakyan, he opened the door for me
and smirked.
"Kindly, my Queen..." He offered the door. Natawa ako, I even flipped my hair
and entered the car kaya natawa sya at mabilis na tumakbo sa kabilang side ng
sasakyan.
He even fixed my seatbelt once he got inside and drove the car, holding my hand
when he always got the chance.
I was excited the whole ride, huli ko na ng malamang sa isang amusement park
kami pupunta kaya sobrang saya ko.
"Oh my God!" I cheered and jumped up and down.
"You like it?" He asked me, smiling and I nodded happily and give him a thumbs
up.
"Yes! I've been wanting to see this! Hindi ko naman ineexpect na ngayon iyon!"
I cheered.
"Well, let's make this memorable, shall we?" Ngisi nya at kaagad akong tumango.
May inilagay na parang bracelet sa kamay namin at nang makapasok ay kaagad syang
umakbay sa akin.
Like a kid, I stroll around the place with him, following me everywhere.
Sinundan nya ang lahat ng kalokohan ko, we laughed our stomachs out as we watched
the clowns.
Naglibot-libot rin kami sa kami mga rides at sumakay. We rode extreme rides and
that was fun! Thorn, on the other hand is pale when we finished the roller coaster
kaya nag-alala ako.
"Are you fine?" I asked, panicking. Lumubo ang pisngi nya at ipinikit ang mata.
He nodded, mas humigpit ang hawak nya sa kamay ko kaya napalabi ako.
"Thorn?" I called him but he suddenly run. Nagulat ako roon at mabilis na
sumunod sa kanya. He's vomitting!
"Oh my God!" I exclaimed, kaagad kong hinaplos ang likuran nya at napahawak sya
sa basurahan at mas nagsuka.
Pinagtitinginan na kami dahil sa kanya at nanatili akong hinahaplos ang likuran
nya.
I saw him closed his eyes kaya kaagad ko syang inalalayan at inabot ang panyo
ko, I cleaned his mouth and he remained staring at me as I do that.
Panaka-naka kong hinahaplos ang buhok nya at nakita ko ang kislap sa mga mata
nya.
"Ayos ka lang?" I asked him softly.
"Ayos na..." Aniya at ngumiti. "Just don't let me ride that damn thing
again..." Ngiwi nya kaya natawa ako at tumango sa kanya.
Nang magbanyo sya ay bumili ako ng cotton candy na kulay pink at hugis baboy at
naupo sa bench habang inaantay sya. I was moving my feet back and forth, I had fun
today!

Kahit hindi pa nya ako binabati sa birthday ko ay sulit na

sulit na. I am thinking that maybe, he really did remembered it. Ayaw lang aminin
sa akin.
He made this event perfect for me. I'll never forget this!
 Nang kumagat ako ng cotton candy ay nakita kong lumabas sya galing banyo.
Wearing only his black shirt, pants and a jacket, he's a head turner.
Nakita ko pang pinagtitinginan sya roon pero wala roon ang pansin nya. I saw
him talking to someone on his phone, his forehead creased and his lips is on a thin
line.
I smiled and waved at him, I saw his lips lifted and waved his hand back.
Nakita kong nawala ang inis sa mukha nya at mabilis na ibinulsa ang telepono at
nagjog palapit.
"Hi!" He exclaimed and sat beside me, nilingon ko sya, nakita kong sumulyap sya
sa baboy na hawak ko at ngumuso.
"Pig, huh?" He grinned.
"It's cute e!" Ngiti ko at inilapit sa kanya ang cotton candy. He ate it and I
watched him as he nodded his head.
"Masarap?" I asked. Hindi nya ako sinagot, kumagat muling ako sa cotton candy
at hindi ko pa nakakain ng buo ang parte nito nang hapitin nya ang baywang ko.
I gasped when he gripped my waist, my eyes widen when he ate the side of the
cotton candy that hasn't been eaten yet from my mouth.
"Thorn!" I screamed at tinakpan ang bibig ko. He laughed, his lovely baritone
voice roared as his shoulders moved.
"Masarap nga," Aniya at tinaas ang kilay nya. Lumabi ako, ngumuya naman sya at
muling humirit.
"Pero mas masarap ka..." Bigla akong napaubo, natawa naman sya lalo at hinampas
ko ang hita nya ng paulit-ulit.
"Kasi naman," Reklamo ko. Nag-init ang pisngi sa kalokohan nya.
"Hindi, ayoko na..." Tawa nya at yumakap sa akin, I smiled when he hugged me
tightly. He settled himself on the gap of my neck and I caressed his hair slowly.
"Thorn?" I called him.
"Yes, baby?" He whispered, sighing.
"Why are you so clingy today?" Bulong ko.
"Don't you like me clingy, hmm?" He whispered. I smiled, shaking my head.
"No, I like it that way..." Bulong ko.
"Just let me hold you, Scira..." Bulong nya. "Please..."
"I won't stop you," Bulong ko sa kanya pabalik.
"Thank you..." Aniya at nanahimik roon, hinagilap nya ang kamay ko at hinaplos
ito. I watched him as he filled the spaces in between my fingers with his and
smiled sadly.
"When you feel alone, just look at the spaces in between your fingers and
remember that's where mine fits perfectly..." He murmured.
"Why are you saying this?" I asked him.
"I just missed you so much, reyna ko..." He held my chin and stared intently in
my eyes.
I suddenly felt my heart constricting in pain. Sumikip iyon habang nakatingin
sa kanya at hindi ko maintindihan kung bakit.
Inabot nya ang cotton candy sa kamay ko, he placed it back to its plastic and
put it beside him.
Nanatiling nakatingin ako sa kanya, he held my cheek and caressed it while
looking deeply in my eyes.
We stared into each other's eyes and just like a song with the same melody, our
lips met in briefest instance.
He kissed me softly like he never did before and bit my lip. It was as if the
worlds separated from each other collide.

His hand find its way to my cheek. His kisses feels

different, it screams different unknown emotions. It was sad, longing...
I moved closer and as I responded to his kisses, the fireworks lit and made a
sound. Making different, beautiful colors in the dark, dull sky.
Kaagad nyang idinikit ang noo sa noo ko at tinitigan ang mata ko, catching for
my breath, I smiled at him.
That time, we watched the fireworks in the sky with my heart full of love. He
made this day special for me and I coudn't thank him enough.
Later at ten, we rode his car, ang sabi nya ay may pupuntahan kaming dalawa. I
was humming and moving my head with the beautiful song from his playlist.
I felt his stares at me at kapag nahuhuli ko sya ay malaki akong ngingiti.
He reached for my hand, kaagad ko namang inabot ang kamay ko sa kanya at dinala
nya iyon sa labi nya.
Ipinatong nya ang kamay ko sa kambyo na nasa kamay nya at hinayaan lang ito
roon.
I remained staring at him and we stopped in an unknown place. Kaagad na
inilibot ko ang tingin ko roon at nilingon sya.
"Where are we?" I asked him curiously.
He just stared at me, his eyes soft.
"Bus station..." He answered me. I nodded and smiled.
"Dito tayo ngayon?" I asked. He noddes, still not smiling so I cheered him up.
"Excited na ako! Tara na?" Aya ko at kinuha ang kamay ko mula sa kanya. I
removed my seatbelt and opened the door and in the verge of going out when he grip
my arm back.
Napabalik ako sa upuan ko at nagulat nang yumakap sya sa likuran ko. I was
confused kaya nilingon ko sya.
"Thorn?"
"Wait..." He breathe, hiding his face on my hair. "Let me hold you..."
Hindi ako kumibo roon at hinayaan sya. We remained sitting like that, me
confused and him, sighing deeply.
"Thorn..." I murmured.
"Let's go..." Aniya at humiwalay sa akin. Nang lingunin ko sya ay nag-iwas sya
ng tingin sa akin at lumabas ng sasakyan.
I went out, dinala ko ang bag ko at hinawi ang buhok ko. I fixed my white dress
and followed him.
Nauuna sya sa akin kaya tumakbo ako pakapit sa braso nya. He stared at that,
nakita kong bumaba ang tingin nya sa hawak ko bago ito abutin mula sa akin.
He caught my fingers and intertwined it, marahang humahaplos ang daliri nya sa
palad ko at nanatili akong nakangiti.
My heart feels full of joy and love.
Best birthday ever!
I looked around me, I saw people on their seats, may mga dala silang bag na
malalaki at nakaupo roon. Kaunti nalang din ang tao dahil sa oras at nakita ko ang
mga nakapilang bus roon sa malayo.
Thorn remained silent beside me, mukhang malalim ang iniisip kaya hindi ko sya
ginulo. Saan kaya ang punta namin? Will we go to the most beautiful places here?
Nang makarating kami sa isang walang taong bench sa isang gilid ay marahang
inalalayan nya ako paupo. I sat there, sitting comfortably. Nakita kong inilagay
nya ang bag ko sa may isang gilid ko at lumuhod sa harapan ko.
I watched him as he held my feet softly and changed my sandals to a comfy
slippers.
"May paltos ka..." Mahinang sabi nya habang nakatungo. My heart jumped and
loved him more for his gentleness.

"Thank you..." I smiled. Hindi sya sumagot, he kept the

sandals with him and looked up at me.
"My Queen..." He whispered, his voice laced with loneliness.
"Yes?" I asked and caressed his cheek. "Bakit ka sad?"
"Hmm, I just..." He bit his lip.
"Aalis lang ako saglit, may naiwan ako sa opisina..." Aniya habang nakatitig sa
akin.
"Oh?" Gulat kong sabi. "Then, kunin natin..."
 "No," He sighed and gulped. "Ako lang, you stay here para mas mabilis tayo..."
"Huh?" Gulat kong sabi at inilibot ang tingin ko. "But--"
"Mabait naman ang mga tao rito," Aniya. Naguguluhang tumango ako at kinagat ang
labi ko.
"Saglit ka lang?" I asked him.
"Hmm..." He nodded and smiled at me but it wasn't that sincere.
"Sige..." I nodded. "Balik ka kaagad, hmm?"
He lowered his head, nanatili syang nakaluhod roon sa harapan ko at hinagilap
ang mga daliri ko.
Hinaplos nya ang kamay ko at hinalikan ang bawat daliri ko, I am looking at him
but my heart is thumping wildly. It was hurting, maya-maya pa ay naramdaman ko ang
basa sa kamay ko kaya nagulat ako.
"T-Thorn?" I whispered. He looked at me and my mouth parted when I saw a tear
on his cheek.
"W-Why..." He pulled me for a hug, kaagad ko syang niyakap pabalik kahit na
naguguluhan sa kanya.
"Why are you crying?" I asked. He didn't answer me and squeezed me tightly,
holding me close to his chest.
"Why are you like that?" He shook his head and pulled away, hinagilap nya ang
pisngi ko at dinampian ng halik ang labi ko bago mariing pumikit.
"I'll go..." Aniya. Lumayo sya sa akin at hinubad ang jacket nya, ipinatong nya
iyon sa balikat ko at hinawi ang buhok ko.
"Dito ka lang, huh?" Malambing nyang sabi.
"Of course..." I nodded, ngumiti pa rin ako kahit nagtataka. He looked at me
intently and showed me his sincere smile.
"Take care..." Aniya and hand me a single stem of a red rose. I nodded, kaagad
kong inamoy ang rosas at nasiyahan sa amoy nito.
Tumayo sya sa harapan ko at pinat ang ulo ko. I looked up at him, his eyes are
midnight black but never failed to brought colors to my life.
"You did a great job, my Queen..." He said.
"I'm so proud of you too, Thorn... You are the best, I love you very very
much..." His eyes glisten, nakita kong kumislap ang mga luha roon pero nag-iwas sya
ng tingin at tinanggal ang salamin nya.
"I gotta go..." Mabilis nyang sinabi.
"Okay, ingat..." I smiled cheekily. "You'll be back, right?"
He stared at me, he opened his back to speak but stopped and smiled instead.
"Goodbye, Scira..." He said sadly and turned his back at me. He walked straight
away from me and I suddenly felt my heart getting heavier and heavier.
"Thorn..." Bulong ko.
"Thorn!" Sigaw ko pero hindi na sya muling lumingon sa akin pabalik.
Hindi na ako nakaimik roon, I remained seated in there. Kipkip ko ang bag ko ay
nanatili akong nakaupo habang hawak ang rosas na ibinigay nya.

My heart's been beating painfully but I stayed calm. I

breathe hard, ipinalibot ko ang tingin ko at nakitang nawawala na isa-isa ang mga
tao.
I shivered with the cold air touching my skin, binalot ko ang katawan ko gamit
ang jacket ni Thorn at pinaglaruan ang rosas sa kamay ko.
I stayed there but hours passed and he wasn't back. The people slowly
disappearing into from my sight, iilan nalang ang naiwan rito at nakaramdam ako ng
takot at kaba roon.
"Nasan kana, Thorn..." Bulong ko sa hangin. Mas lumamig ang hangin kaya mas
iniayos ko ang jacket at tumingin sa paligid.
Inilabas ko ang phone ko at kaagad na nagtipa ng mensahe.
To: My King
Where are you? Come back, please... I'm scared...
I saw a bunch of men staring at me, nakita kong nagbubulungan sila habang
nakatingin sa akin kaya kinakabahan na ako. Malagkit ang tingin nila sa akin kaya
sobra ang kalabog ng puso ko.
I texted him the same message and waited but I didn't received any messages.
"Thorn..." I whispered. Nangingilid na ang luha ko.
I saw one of the man walking towards me, hindi ako tumingin roon at tumungo.
"Hello, Miss? Mag-isa ka?" He said maliciously. Hindi ako sumagot roon at
nanatiling nakatungo. I clutched my bag tightly on my chest as it beat wildly.
"Miss, h'wag ka ng mahiya..." Aniya. Nang tumabi sya sa akin ay naramdaman ko
ang panginginig ng kamay ko.
"Saan ba ang punta mo, huh? Hatid ka na namin..." Tumawa sya.
"M-May kasama po ako..." Sagot ko.
"Talaga, Miss? Nasaan?" Aniya at luminga sa paligid.
"B-Babalik na sya," Sagot ko at ikinubli ang kamay kong nanginginig sa bag ko.
Thorn, Thorn, please come back...
"Ayos lang 'yan, Miss... Sumama ka nalang samin..." He touched my leg kaya
napapiksi ako at napaiyak.
"D-Don't touch me!" I exclaimed.
Please... Please, Thorn...
"Woah, mukhang mayaman... Jackpot!" Tawa nito at muli akong hahawakan nang may
sumigaw kung saan.
"Hoy! Magsiuwian na nga kayo!" I was expecting it to be Thorn but I was
disappointed when I saw the guard approaching.
Mabilis na nagsitakbuhan ang mga lalaki palayo at naiwan ako roong nanginginig
sa takot.
"Naku, hija!" Gulat na sabi ng guard at kinagat ko ang labi ko para hindi
mapahagulgol.
"Ayos ka lang, hija?" The guard asked me and I nodded slowly, doing my best to
be strong kahit takot na takot na ako.
"O-Opo..." I answered and heaved a deep breathe. Hinawi ko ang luha ko at
sumulyap sa kanya.
He looks good but the nervousness and the fear I felt didn't lessen.
"Ikaw ba si Scira, hija?" Aniya.
"O-Opo..." I nodded slowly, confused.
"May nagpapabigay nga pala..." Aniya. Naguguluhan kong kinuha sa kanya ang
sobre.
"K-Kanino po galing?" I asked. My heart beating fast in pace.
"Hindi ko kilala, matangkad na lalaki e..." My heart quicken, humigpit ang
hawak ko sa sobre at mabilis na tumango.
"S-Salamat po..."
"Sige, mag-iingat ka..." Aniya at iniwan ako.
With my shaking hand, I opened the envelope at nanlaki ang mata ko ng makita
ang makapal na lilibuhing pera sa loob nito.
My hand shook harder this time, kaagad kong inabot ang ibang laman ng envelope
at nakitang isang piraso iyon ng papel at isang ticket sa bus.
Natulala ako sa papel na hawak ko at dahan-dahang binuksan. I saw a handwritten
letter and I could feel my heart beat... every single pound in my chest.
Please, leave. I'm sorry but I won't be back. Goodbye.
My eyes drip with tears. My walls, the walls that hold me up, make me strong
just... collapse.
"N-No..." I whispered, sobbing. "T-This isn't him..."
Mahal nya ako, he won't leave me! He'll come back! He promised me he'll stay
whatever what happened!
My body felt numb but I did my best to get my phone and called him. I was
sobbing hard, my tears, moment by moment, they fall. Salty drops fall from my chin,
drenching my dress.
It was still ringing, I was biting my lip and cried like a lost child.
The ringing stop and my breath hitched and with a shaking voice, I spoke.
"T-Thorn..." Pumiyok ang boses ko. "N-Nasaan ka na?"
I heard his deep breath, hindi sya sumagot and I cried more.
 "B-Babalik ka diba?" Bulong ko.
"P-Please, baby, come back..." I said, begging. "I'm scared..."
"Leave me alone..." His cold voice stopped me.
"T-Thorn..."
"I'm done with you, Scira..." He said.
"N-No..." I sobbed. "Y-You're joking right? N-Nasaan ka na? H'wag mo naman
akong lokohin ng ganyan--"
"Do I sound like I'm joking?" He said sharply and I clutched my chest. My hand
forms a fist as I muffled my cries.
"T-Thorn..."
"I'm marrying someone," He said.
"S-Sabi mo... S-Sabi mo, mahal mo ako?" Bulong ko. "Y-You said you'll stay with
me?"
"My parents doesn't want you," Aniya. "I'm sorry..." Mahinang sabi nya.
The sobs punched through, ripping through my heart, and guts. I pressed my
forehead against my palm, bit my lip and began to let my heart yank in and out of
my chest.
"I-I promised you, Thorn..." Bulong ko. "I-I promised you I'll stay with you
unless you'll let me go away..."
"Then go away," He said harshly. "I can't take care of you, leave. I don't
wanna see you anymore..."
As much as I tried to hold it in, the pain came out like an uproar from my
throat in the form of a silent scream. I wanted to scream but no words came out
from my mouth.
The beads of water started falling down one after another, without a sign of
stopping.
"I-I love you..." I whispered weakly.
He remained silent, hearing my silent cries before deciding to speak.
"I'm sorry..." He whispered and ended the call.
My hand fell, bumagsak ang telepono sa lapag at humagulgol ako habang sapo ang
mukha ko.
My noisy sobs filled the place, I did not care who was looking as I cry my
empty heart out. The walls he built inside me crumpled down.
The muffled sobs wracked against my chest, destroying everything inside me.
Kinuyom ko ang nanginginig kong kamay at inilagay sa dibdib ko at mapait na ngumiti
habang hilam sa luha ang mga mata.
I stared at the bus ticket on my hand and with my shaking feet, I stood up,
walked towards the direction where people is going.
"Maynila! Maynila!" The man from the bus shouted. "Huling byahe na!"
I walked and gave him my ticket, nagtataka man sa akin ay inabot nya ang ticket
ko at tumango.
"Sige, Miss, pasok na..." He guided me towards the bus and I sat on my assigned
seat and stared at nowhere.
"Happy birthday, Scira..." I whispered with a lone tear in my eyes.
How memorable this day is. I never know that the birth of my second life will
also be the death of it.
Maybe, in the end, I was meant to be alone... No one will ever love me. No one
will ever accept me.
The last painful emotion slammed against me before I lost the feeling of
feeling.

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Kabanata 14

Kabanata 14
I survived the day, tired and wounded.
 I am staring at the moist glass window as we travel towards the place I didn't
know, tahimik lang ako habang nakatulala roon at wala sa sarili.
A soft music was playing, making me calm somehow. The rain drops are falling
from the sky, just like how my tears are falling from my eyes.
Pagod na pagod ako sa lahat, my shaking hand calmed down when I forced myself
to, I tried to sleep but will end up crying again silently that I woudn't want to
feel any emotion anymore at all.
The pain I am feeling is too much that I literally felt my heart breaking, my
stomach clenching, the pain of my head is unbearable and it's killing me.
How funny this thing is?
Knowing that that someone you trusted the most and loved with all your heart
who promised to stay will be the first one to leave? Not just leave, abandon you?
A bitter and sad smile escape on my lips. Mas niyakap ko ang bag ko at tumungo
para pahirin ang mga luha ko.
Maybe I was undeserving of that love I crave the most. Maybe it was my destiny,
to be alone, to be left behind, to be used and taken for granted.
It wasn't shocking anyway that now, I was not surprised that people actually
leave, I'll be more surprised if they stay.
It felt like everyone gave up on me, sino ba naman ako? I am crazy, I am
someone who's not worth having for, maybe I was just a trash you can dispose
everywhere, anywhere you want.
A puppy you will just abandon anywhere when it's too much to take care.
Sa ilang oras na byahe ay tanging mga puno at bundok lang ang nakikita ko but I
noticed how the place changed.
From the trees, it was now a busy highway. Diretso lang ang byahe at ang mga
sasakyan ay mabibilis na ang takbo.
The car will go fast, ang iba pa'y nauunahan pa kami sa bus. I saw billboards,
if I am right about that, malalaki ito at iba-iba ang mga mukha ng mga personalidad
na nakikita ko.
The lights from the houses and establishments lit on the place near the
highway.
It somehow amazes me, hindi ko maiwasang matuwa at gumaan ang loob habang
nakatingin roon sa paligid.
"Titigil muna tayo sa Bulacan! Tanghali na at kumain muna kayo!" Sigaw ng
driver at napatingin ako sa kanila roon.
I saw the people around me fix their small bags, nakita ko ring inaayos nila
ang mga tulog pang mga anak para gisingin at sabihing kakain na.
Nakaramdam ako ng inggit habang pinagmamasdan sila. Will I ever have a family
to take care of me like that? Will someone will ever love me even if I'm like this?
Even if I'm broke? Wasted?
Pumarada ang bus namin sa may malapit sa isang tent, nang tumigil iyon ay
nagsitayuan ang mga tao at umalis.
I just stared at them, confused of what to do.
Hinawi ko ang mga natuyong luha sa mga mata ko at abo't-abot ang kaba habang
pinagmamasdan sila.
Gutom na gutom na ako pero hindi ko alam ang dapat kong gawin. How will I eat?
Susunod ba ako sa kanila?
"Tara, Miss!" Halos mapatalon ako sa gulat nang tawagin ako ng katabi ko.
"H-Huh?" I saw the woman smiled at me, she was probably years older than me,
she's simple yet pretty.
"Tara, kain tayo..." She smiled at me. Napakurap ako, mukha naman syang mabait
pero natatakot talaga ako para sa sarili ko.

It was my first time being alone with total strangers and

that's too scary.
"U-Uh, ayos lang po ako..." Mahinang sabi ko.
Tumawa sya, her eyes glowed as she stared at me.
 "Oh, h'wag kang matakot..." Tawa nya. "I'm Ritchelle and it was also my first
time here..."
My eyes brighten, nagulat ako roon at kaagad na nagtanong.
"Really?"
"Yup!" She smiled. "Kaya nga ay dapat magkasama tayong dalawa, kahapon ko pa
pansin ang tahimik mo tapos umiiyak ka that's why I was bothered."
"N-Naistorbo ba kita?" Nag-aalalang tanong ko. "I-I'm sorry, h-hindi ko
sinasadyang mag-ingay--"
"Hala, hindi!" Umiling sya. "Bruha ka, ayos lang..." Tumawa sya.
Kumurap naman ako at hinawi ang buhok ko.
"Mahirap talaga kapag nalalayo sa mga mahal sa buhay kaya naiintindihan
kita..." Aniya.
No, hindi ako nalayo, iniwan ako...
"U-Uh, pasensya na..." Sabi ko.
"Ayos lang! Talaga..." I nodded. She smiled at me, bigla syang tumayo at inaya
ako.
"Tara na, kain tayo!" Aya nya at nang hindi pa ako tumayo ay nailing na sya at
hinila ako patayo.
Naguguluhan man ay sumama ako sa kanya palabas ng bus, yakap-yakap ko ang bag
ko at pagkababa palang namin ay nakita ko ang napakaraming tao roon.
I took a step back in shock pero kumapit sa braso ko si Ritch at inaya ako.
"Ayos lang 'yan, the people here won't hurt you..." Aniya.
"O-Okay..." I nodded.
She smiled, kumapit sya sa braso ko at sa muling paghakbang namin ay umawang
ang labi ko ng makita ang iba't-ibang mga stalls sa paligid.
I saw a food truck, street foods and even home made with rice. May nakita akong
mga palamig na pagkain roon at kung ano pa at talagang natakam ako.
Napahawak ako sa tyan ko sa sobrang gutom at pagkalam nito.
"Oh, diba... Sabi ko sa'yo gutom ka na..." Ngisi ni Ritch at ngumiti ako ng
maliit at nagsalita.
"P-Parang gusto ko nung mami..." Turo ko sa isang stall roon at nakita kong
sumulyap sya bago ako tanguan.
"Sige, tara, mukhang masarap!" Aniya at hinila ako palapit roon.
She fell in line while I stayed on our table to wait for the food. I was so
hungry, muli akong humawak sa tyan ko at sumulyap sa paligid.
I am thinking what street foods tastes like...
Napangiti ako ng makita ang mga tao roon na kumakain at sarap na sarap. I saw a
mother feeding her kids and that was too sweet.
Sana sa sunod na buhay ko, kung meron man ay maranasan ko na magkaroon ng
pamilya. How I wanted to have loving parents, protective brothers or even sweet
sisters!
Puro nalang ako sana but why not? There's no bad in dreaming and hoping, right?
Malay ko, magkatotoo...
"Ay, kaloka!" Nagulat ako ng bumalik si Ritch na dala ang isang tray na may
mami at dalawang baso ng tubig.
I was too hungry, kaagad akong natakam sa amoy nito kaya napalunok ako at
sumulyap roon.
"Oh, ang bango 'no? Nakakagutom..." Aniya at inilapag ang pagkain sa harapan
ko. "Sige, lafang na!" She chuckled kaya nangiti ako pero walang salitang kumain
kaagad ng nasa harapan ko.

It tastes good! Ang init at lasa nung sabaw ay sakto lang

ang pagkakahalo, pinagtripan ko rin ang nilagang itlog na ibinigay nila.
"How much is this?" I asked Ritch who was eating her food slowly.
"Mura lang 'yan," Aniya at ngumiti sa akin.
She's really good, I can sense it with her eyes and smile.
I bit my lip and opened my bag, a painful feeling strucked my chest when I saw
the enveloped filled with money.
Paying someone to compensate? Halos matawa ako sa dismaya at sama ng loob.
Kumuha ako ng isanv libo mula roon, I gave it to her at nakita kong nanlaki ang
mata nya sa akin.
"Sobra 'to!" Aniya. My forehead creased, sumulyap ako sa pera sa kamay ko at sa
kanya.
"Why? Is this too much?" I asked her, confused.
"Oo naman," Aniya. "Loka-loka ka, wala pang isang daan 'to!"
Naguguluhan man ay inabot ko pa rin sa kanya ang pera.
"Take it," I said. "Sorry kasi di ko talaga alam..." I answered her honestly.
"Keep it, magagamit mo iyan sa Maynila..." Sabi nya sa akin at napasulyap ako
sa kamay ko. I put it back to the envelope and spoke.
"How much is this?" I asked. "I...actually don't know what to do with this..."
Iniangat ko ang bag ko, I showed her the content and I saw how her mouth parted
in shock.
"OMG!" Gulat nyang sabi. I saw a handful of people looking at us at mabilis na
inabot ni Ritch ang bag ko ang ibinaba.
"Itago mo!" She hissed and I bit my lip and lowered the bag.
"Why?" I asked.
"Money is a big deal here! Baka manakawan ka pa kapag ipapakita mo ng ganyan
lang ang pera mo, keep it..." Aniya at tumango ako at binalikan ang mami ko.
"Anyway, kaloka ka..." Napahawak sya sa dibdib nya kaya sumulyap ako. "What's
your name?"
"Uh, Scira..." I answered. How I hate that name.
"Oh, ang pretty, huh..." Tumango sya. "Anyway, are you rich? Mukha kasi e,
tsaka bakit ka napadpad dito?"
Hindi ako kaagad nakasagot sa sinabi nya.
"Uy, Scira, sorry, huh... Kung pakialamera ako, kung ayaw mo namang sagutin--"
"I was left in a bus station," I confessed. I saw how her eyes widen, naibaba
nya ang kutsara at gulat na napaharap.
"Seryoso? Weh?" She exclaimed.
"I am too much for those people, that's why..." I smiled a little and lowered
my head.
Nanahimik rin sya, miski ako ay hindi na rin naimik at pinagpatuloy nalang ang
pagkain.
"My husband left me too," Ani Ritch kaya napatingin ako sa kanya. I saw her sad
smile and shook her head.
"He left me for another woman, mas bata, mas maganda..." Aniya sa akin at
napatango ako roon. I feel her, halos magkaparehas kami sa parteng iyon pero iba
ang naging takbo ng akin.
It was the almost happy ending then realizing you were at a wrong story at all
that the characters all asked you to leave the story you mistakenly thought
yours...
"Maybe that's how life is," Mahinang sabi ko.
"Yeah..." She nodded.
"Too harsh for us," Sabi ko at sabay kaming napahugot ng hininga.

When we came back to the bus ay tabi ulit kami, this time,
having her with me is a relief, kahit na hindi ko alam kung paano na ako pagdating
namin sa Maynila.
We talked about random things, gumaan ng bahagya ang loob ko pero nanakit pa
rin ang katawan ko. My head was still aching but I chose not to give attention to
it.
Kapag pipikit ako ay minsa'y makikita ko ang mga asul na mga mata, I will
sometimes hear voices calling me princess pero sa muling pagmulat ako ay nasa bus
pa rin ako.
The city is visible now, I saw the wonderful buildings and vehicles, ibang-iba
ang itsura nito doon sa probinsya. It was amazing, nakakapanibago pero kakaiba.
The view I am seeing is new kaya naaliw ako at saglit na nakalimutan ang mga
bagay na nagpapasama sa loob ko.
What I did was to realized everything that has happened today.
Sumulyap ako sa nakapatay kong telepono at inilapag iyon kung saan. It stayed
there, hindi ko na iyon muling binuksan at binalikan.
Sa pagbaba namin ng bus ay nasa terminal kami ulit, mas malaki iyon kumpara sa
terminal ng Sta. Lucia. Maraming mga tao rin ang naroon kaya kinabahan ako.
"Ayos lang 'yan, ganun talaga..." Sabi nya sa akin.
"I...I don't have a place to stay..." I honestly told her. She pouted,
napakamot sya sa kilay nya at ngumisi sa akin.
"Ako rin..." Aniya at malamyang tumawa. Sabay kaming napabuntong-hininga at
tumingin sa paligid.
People are all busy minding their business and we just stared at them.
"Bahala na..." Aniya at nilingon ako. "Tara?"
I nodded, she walked first and I followed her, mahigpit ang hawak ko sa bag ko
habang naglalakad nang may tumawag sa amin.
"Miss!" We stopped, sa paglingon ko ay nakita kong hinahabol kami nung
konduktor.
"Bakit po, Kuya?" Ritchelle asked him.
"Uh, Ma'am, nakita namin sa upuan mo... Naiwan ata..." Baling nito sa akin. My
forehead creased and was about to ask him when he gave me the rose.
I stopped, kaagad na kumirot ang puso ko ng makita ang rosas.
"Sa'yo ba ito, Ma'am?" Ani nito.
"Oo, sa kanya 'yan..." Ani Ritch at inabot ang bulaklak bago nagpasalamat sa
konduktor.
He left, tahimik naman ako at nang iabot sa akin ni Ritch ang bulaklak ay
kaagad ko iyon inabot at lumapit sa basurahan.
I threw the rose where it actually belongs and I saw her mouth parted as she
stared at me.
"Did you just..." Itinuro nya ang basurahan.
"I don't need it," I told her.
"Kanino galing? I mean, the rose is beautiful so why..."
"It's from a worthless person I know..." I said bitterly.
Nakita ko ang gulat sa mata nya sa sinabi ko pero sa halip na magkomento ay
nanahimik na rin sya. We did not speak for a while, nanatili lang kaming nakaupo sa
bench roon at tulala kung saan.
"Can we atleast rent a house or something?" I asked her.
"Oo naman, kaso mahal..." Aniya. Hindi naman ako nakasagot roon. I nodded,
napabuntong-hininga ako at sumandal roon.
"We can use the money..." I told her but she shook her head at me.
"No, ibalik mo ang perang 'yan sa mga taong iyon. Ano ka, binayaran para
umalis?" Aniya sa akin. The pained me but that was the truth, suhol ito para umalis
ako.

Kahit na hindi ko alam... Pinaalis ako ng hindi ko alam...

"Pabigat na nga kasi ako..." I tried joking pero sumimangot lang sya sa akin at
nailing ako. "It's okay, Ritch... Tanggap ko naman..."
"You still need to keep that money and give it back to them, ipakain mo sa
kanilang mga hinayupak sila!" She exclaimed. "Ngayon lang kita nakilala pero alam
kong mabuti kang tao kaya wala silang karapatang ganituhin ka..."
I shrugged, smiling a little.
"Saan na tayo ngayon?" I asked. We sat there and both sighed, I saw checking
her money and shook her head.
"Hindi na kaya 'tong pera ko, pangkain lang natin 'to..." Aniya.
"We should use the money..." Sabi ko pero pinagpilitan nya talagang ibabalik ko
iyon sa mga nagbigay at sa huli ay sumuko na rin ako.
 We wandered around the busy Manila streets, me holding my small bag and her
dragging her luggage. Pinagtitinginan na nga kaming dalawa pero hindi ko nalang
pinapansin.
Ang mahalaga lang sa akin ay may kasama ako ngayong araw at hindi nag-iisa. We
tried going to apartments and asked to rent and pay later pero pinagtatabuyan lang
kaming dalawa.
That's what we did all day until we got tired and hungry. Kumain rin kami nung
tanghali kaya wala talaga kaming natirang pera. I wanted to insist the money I have
for it will help us pero ayaw nya talaga.
She said, if I spend that money, parang ayos na rin sa akin ang ginawa ng mga
taong iyon at hindi iyon ayos para sa akin kaya hindi ko nalang ginalaw ang pera.
In the end we slept in the streets, naglatag kami ng dyaryo at doon nalang
natulog. It was a cold night, nanginginig ako sa lamig at takot pero iniisip ko
nalang na may kasama naman ako.
I hugged my bag tightly and sleep soundly, releasing all the feelings I felt
this day. I cried until I fell asleep, feeling lost, wishing to end all the
suffering I've been experiencing even if it's impossible.
The next day, we searched for rooms for rent but we're rejected right away
without even asking. We haven't eat at all, wala ng natira sa pera nya kaya nagtiis
kami at nag-usap nalang para maibsan ang gutom at pananakit ng katawan dahil sa
pagtulog sa gilid ng daan.
My head has been aching too much, my stomach is crumpling oit of hunger so I am
really tired and weak.
Sumapit ang gabi at napansin kong pagod na pagod na rin si Ritch. Sumandal sya
sa gilid at ipinikit ang mga mata.
Bigla akong nakaramdam ng awa sa kanya at sa akin na rin.
"Ritch," I called her. She opened her eyes weakly and spoke.
"Hmm? Gutom ka na rin? Pasensya na, Scira..." Aniya. I shook my head, smiling
and spoke.
"No, don't worry, mukhang may extra naman ako..." I told her.
"Sigurado ka?" Gulat nyang sabi. I nodded, umayos ako ng tayo at tumingin sa
paligid.
Ang mga tao ay nagliligpit na ng mga paninda para sa kanilang pag-uwi.
"Saan ang bilihan rito?" I asked her.
"Hindi, ako nalang ang bibili... Baka maligaw ka..."
"No," Tinignan ko sya. "Stay here, ako nalang. K-Kaya ko naman..."
"Sige..." She sighed. "Lakad ka lang ng diretso, turn left then you'll see a
supermarket..."
"Thank you..." Tumayo ako at kinipkip ang bag ko.
"Sige, pero Scira, mag-ingat ka, okay? Mapanganib dito... Maraming mga siraulo,
keep everything safely, h'wag kang lilingon kapag may kumakausap sa'yo. Don't even
stop walking..." Bilin nya.
Mas natakot ako roon pero tumango sa kanya at ngumiti.
"S-Sige, babalik rin ako kaagad..." Sabi ko at ng tumango sya ay halos bilangin
ko pa ang hakbang ng paa ko habang palayo.
I am scared, it was my first time roaming alone here and I'm afraid I'll be
lost.
Habang naglalakad ay nanibago ako sa paligid, the lights are really everywhere.
I saw bars, may mga nag-iinumang mga lalaki pa sa bawat dinadaanan ko pero
ibinababa ko ang ulo para hindi sila makita.
Some are whistling and calling me names but I am not looking at them. Basta,
ang mahalaga ay makabili ako at makabalik kay Ritch. Mamaya ko nalang iisipin kung
paano ako makakabalik ng hindi natatakot roon.
"Miss, apply ka?" Napatalon ako sa gulat nang may humawak sa braso ko. Sa
paglingon ko ay nanlaki ang mata ko ng makita ang isang lalaki, he looked like a
gay because of his heavy make up.
"H-Hindi po..." Sagot ko.
"Hindi, mag-apply ka. Mataas ang sahod rito." Aniya. Umiling ulit ako at
nakitang may mga babae sa likuran nya.
 They were wearing short skirts and small tops, halos ang dibdib nalang nila ang
natatakpan and like him, they were  wearing heavy make ups.
"Oo nga, Mamang. Mukhang mabenta 'to kung sakali, mukhang inosente o pero may
hubog..." Ani nung kulot.
My heart thumped wildly, kinagat ko ang labi ko at mabilis na umiling.
"H-Hindi na po, salamat..." I pulled my arm pero pinilit nila ako kaya mas
nagpanic ako.
"B-Bitiwan nyo ako..." I said and my eyes started stinging out of fear at nang
ipilit nila ay nagpumiglas na ako.
"P-Please, ayoko..." I forced myself.
"Sige na, Miss! Malaki ang sahod, paniguradong papatusin ka 'nung mga VIP..."
Pilit nito and I pushed him, nang hindi sya papatalo ay inapakan ko ang paa nya
kaya napabitaw sya.
"Tangina!" Sigaw nya but I just hugged my bag and cried, tumakbo ako kung saan
man ako aabutin habang lumuluha at nanginginig sa takot.
I sat on the road, crying and sobbing.
I am hurt in many ways, scared and wounded at the same time. I wished fate has
plans for me, o kaya sana ay isinama nalang ako nila Nanay noon.
I realized that this time, surviving is the worst kind of pain. Kasi nakaligtas
nga ako pero naiwan naman akong mag-isa.
I clutched my aching chest and lowered my head. Some unknown scenes keep on
flashing on my head, I am hearing familiar voices again, I saw smiling faces and
deep blue eyes.
My brain is in chaos, pumipintig iyon sa sakit. Ang sakit ng puso ko ay hindi
ko maihambing sa kahit ano.
I'd rather be hurt physically than emotionally because I know I can put band
aid on my finger but I can't put one in my heart.
Iniangat ko ang tingin ko at nakitang nasa gilid ako ng kalsada. An empty road
defines how empty I am feeling right now.
It was quiet, yet I felt the comfort of it being empty as me...
Nahihilo na ako sa pananakit ng katawan but I stood up, I found myself crossing
the road.
I saw a light from a car going near me but I remained walking non-chalantly.
Narinig ko ang marahas nitong pagpreno pero hindi na ako nakaalis sa gitna ng
daan kahit na muntik na akong masagasaan.
I remained standing but my head and whole body is aching.
"Miss! Get out of the way! Bigla ka nalang sumusulpot! We nearly hit you!" My
head stung more when I heard that familiar deep voice, one of the voices that keeps
on bugging my head these days...
I never had a brief span seem like an eternity. As I feel my consciousness
ebbing away, as clear and concise as it was mere moments ago, it was coming to an
end.
My eyes flickered into darkness because of the exhaustion.
I started feeling numb. At once, I was struck with incoherence, an
inconsistency to my thoughts, I felt my body getting weaker and weaker as I kneeled
down, for I had already decided to give myself away to my pursuer, to exhaustion,
to be dead to the world before the rest of me ever hit the cold concrete road.

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Kabanata 15

Kabanata 15
I was sitting in a long couch, I saw myself as a small little girl in pig
tails. Beside me is three boys, all of their eyes are blue, unlike mine.
Ang sabi nila Mommy at Daddy, I got my eyes from my Mom and they got Daddy's
eyes.
 "Okay, malalaki na kayo... You were in highschool, boys..." A beautiful lady
lectured us. She was really beautiful, fair and has a long, black hair. Kitang-kita
ko ang pagkakahawig naming dalawa.
"Opo, Mom..." The oldest boy answered.
"I want you to behave in school, Iñigo, okay? Ikaw ang nakakatanda, be a good
example to your siblings..." Ani nito. The boy smiled and nodded.
"Tapos, kayong dalawa, malaki na rin kayo..." My Mom said. I saw my other
brothers nodding, si Kuya Dash ay sumaludo at nang sumulyap ako sa Kuya Zeij ko ay
nakangisi lang sya kay Mommy.
"Kuya, you should agree to Mommy..." Bulong ko.
"Hmm, yes, princess..." Bulong nya pabalik. "Ako pinakamabait sa lahat..."
"At ikaw, Zeijan..." Her eyes shifted to my brother.
"Po?" He suddenly becomes attentive, tumikhim pa sya at umayos ng tayo.
"Ano itong nababalitaan kong napaaway ka nanaman?" She asked him. Napanguso
ako.
I saw my Kuya Iñigo at Kuya Dash shaking their heads.
"It's nothing, Mom..." Sagot nito. My Mother's forehead creased, nagsalubong
ang kilay nya.
She looked suddenly strict and scary at mabilis kong siniko ang Kuya Zeij kaya
tumikhim sya at napakamot ng ulo.
"It's because I was annoyed," Ani nito.
"Why?" Kuya Iñigo asked him. "Is the reason valid?"
"Yes, I won't fight if it isn't valid, Kuya Raf!" Iling nito.
"What is it, then? Why are you present in the guidance office this time?" Kuya
Dash asked. Kahit mas matanda ang Kuya Zeij kay Kuya Dash ay mas matured pa ata ang
huli.
"If you'll know Dash, you'll also get annoyed..." Ani Kuya. Miski ako ay
naguluhan rin doon, I fixed my skirt and stared at my brothers.
"What is it?" Kuya Dash asked. I saw my Mom crossing her hands on ger chest and
listening at them.
"My classmate is hitting on Zid! Sabi nya, ano daw number nito!" Tinuro nya
ako. My eyes widen, I saw how emotions changed on my two brother's face.
I saw how rage form on their eyes.
"Shit!" Kuya Iñigo cursed.
"What the fuck? Anong pangalan?!" Kuya Dash exclaimed at akmang tatayo pero
nauhan sila ni Mommy.
"Ang bibig nyo!" The both shut up. Nakita kong hinila paupo ni Kuya Zeij ang
Kuya Dash kaya naupo ito sa sofa pabalik.
I saw how my Kuya Iñigo's jaw clenched, his eyes darkening as he ran his
fingers on his hair.
"H'wag na h'wag kayong makipag-away ng kahit kanino lang!" Sermon ni Mommy.
"But Mom, they're hitting our princess!" Kuya Zeij exclaimed.
"No, kahit na..." Ani nito at napailing. "I raised you all to be good and kind
to others, okay?"
"Mom, ayaw ko lang na pinapakialaman nila si Zid!" Kuya answered. "I was
annoyed that he's asking me directly about her number. Like, have shame, Kuya ako
'nung gusto mong pormahan!"

"Listen, Zeijan..." Ani Mommy. "Kayong tatlong lalaki,

narito kayo para protektahan ang prinsesa nyo..." Paliwanag nya.
"That's what he's doing, Mom..." Ani Kuya Iñigo. "Kahit ako 'yun, I will beat
the man to death if he touch my sister--"
"Protect your sister but not in that way," Ani ni Mommy.
My brothers seems attentive, inayos ko naman ang ponytail ko at iginalaw ang
paa ko ng pabalik-balik.
"Let her stay away from men, h'wag nyong hayaang mabastos ang kapatid nyo but
don't hurt those people, especially kapag hindi naman nila sinaktan o pinakialaman
ang kapatid nyo..."
"But he asked for her number..." Kuya Zeij whinned.
"He just asked, hindi naman nya pinakialaman si Zid." Ani Mommy. "You can just
tell him no and leave..."
They all pouted, I saw their resemblance, tuwang-tuwa akong pinagmasdan ang mga
Kuya ko na pinapagalitan ni Mommy. They looked cute, and I love how they're
protective of me...
"Sorry, Mom..." Kuya Zeij sighed. "But I won't promise this will be the last,
kapag may nakialam pa dito sa prinsesa, hindi ko na talaga alam..."
"Me too..." Kuya Dash and Kuya Iñigo sighed in unison.
Mom shook her head, a soft smile playing on her lips as she tap my brother's
shoulder.
"Kayong tatlo talaga, mana kayo sa Tatay nyo..." My Mom laughed.
The next day, parang bodyguard ang tatlong kapatid ko sa likuran ko. I told
them I can go inside my room alone but they insisted to come with me.
Kaya ayan tuloy, ang hallway namin ay napuno ng mga babaeng nagbubulungan at
kumukuha ng litrato makuhaan manlang ang mga kapatid kong overreacting.
Wearing their white uniforms, a necktie and a brown coat with their name plates
on it, they looked handsome. Ako nama'y naglalakad sa harapan nila habang nakasunod
silang tatlo sa akin.
I am wearing a white longsleeve uniform, a necktie and a brown skirt just above
my knee, my blouse isn't tucked on my skirt at nakapatong lang ang brown coat ko sa
balikat ko.
I saw one of my admirers attempted to come near me pero napaatras ng makita ang
mga Kuya ko. Napailing ako, tatawa-tawa naman si Kuya Zeij sa tabi ko sa atensyon
ng mga kaklase ko at si Kuya Dash naman ay nangingiti lang.
Kuya Iñigo remained serious that makes him look cold, nakita ko ring
nagsibabaan ang mga seniors at nakiusyoso sa pagdaan naming lahat.
I am not that popular in school but because I have my three brothers with me
then it's a different story.
"Kuya, I can go to my room..." Paliwanag ko doon sa tatlo.
"No, Princess... Ihahatid ka na namin..." Ani Kuya Dash.
"I'm already Grade 6!" I exclaimed.
"Yeah, yeah..." Kuya Zeij rolled his eyes. "You're just grade 6 but you have
too many admirers,"
He pointed my locker kaya napatingin ako roon at napangiwi ng makita ang mga
sticky notes na nakadikit at ang kumpulang bulaklak roon.
"See?" He mocked kaya ngumisi lang ako.
Hinatid nila ako sa room, I saw them wait for me until I was settled on my seat
and they nodded and waved goodbye at me before they left.
Kaagad akong ginulo ng mga kaklase ko pag-alis 'nung tatlo, asking me their
numbers and I shrugged my shoulder and didn't say anything.
Kung protective ang mga kapatid ko sa akin ay protective rin ako sa kanila. I
won't appreciate it when girls go around and flirt with them in my sight.

Hindi natapos ang klase ng wala akong natanggap na

bulaklak. I thanked those people who gave it to me and left.
"Girl, OMG!" I saw one of my friend screaming.
"Why?" I asked. Itinabi ko ang bulaklak sa bag ko at niyakap ang libro ko.
"Your brothers!" He said, kaagad akong kinabahan roon. Nang tumakbo sya ay
sumunod ako at 'yun nalang ang gulat ko ng makita sila.
My three brothers are sitting inside the guidance's office because they punched
my admirer. Napapikit ako at napa-facepalm.
"Come on, princess, wake up..." A soft voice said. I stirred a little, marahang
binuksan ko ang mata at kaagad na nagulat nang makita ang mukha ng isang pamilyar
na lalaki sa harapan ko.
"Z-Zid?" His voice shook. His blue eyes filled with worry and sadness.
 "N-Nasaan ako?" I whispered. Inilibot ko ang paningin at nagulat nang makita
ang mga tao sa paligid.
Three men was standing beside me, doon sa gilid ay nakita ko ang isang tulalang
babae. I saw a man and a woman in there probably on their 40s or so...
The woman is sitting on the wheelchair while the man stayed behind her, I saw
them wiping their own tears at kaagad na kumalabog ang puso ko sa pamilyar na
pakiramdam nito.
"P-Princess..." A voice said. I stared at that familiar face and saw his black
eyes, kaagad na nangilid ang luha ko roon at bahagyang napaatras sa takot.
"W-Where am I?" I whispered again.
"Y-You're at the hospital..." My mouth parted  suddenly, I heard voices,
biglang bumalik sa utak ko ang mga ala-ala kaya kaagad akong nanginig sa takot.
"N-No..." I whispered in horror, umatras ako, I hugged my knees and when the
other man tried reaching for me ay sumigaw ako.
"No! Ayoko dito! Pakawalan n'yo ako!" I screamed at the top of my lungs.
"H-Hey, Zid, calm down... This is Kuya Dash, do you--" I saw tears on his eyes
but I screamed and pushed them away when they tried reaching me.
Kukunin ba nila ako? Would they try getting me inside the facility again? Are
they going to jail me? Would they kill me?
Sa bawat pagpiglas ko ay sya ring pagtawag nila sa akin. I cried, kasabay ng
pag-iyak ko ay ang iyak rin nila. I jerked and pushed their hand away, nang may
pumasok na mga taong nakaputi ay mas lalo akong nagwala.
"B-Bitiwan nyo ako!" I screamed out of horror. "Get off me!"
The nurses pinned me on the bed, they held both of my hands and feet and I am
hysterical. I cried more and sobbed.
"Z-Zidney, this is your Kuya--" The familiar man walked near me and tried
talking to me.
"H-Hindi ko kayo kilala! S-Sino kayo?! P-Please! Pakawalan nyo ako!" I
screamed.
I saw a Doctor in his white coat running towards me but it brought more horror
to me. He's gonna put me forever in this white room! He'll jail me here!
"Calm down, Miss..." Ani ng Doktor.
"N-No! Ayoko na dito! Ayoko sa kwartong 'to!" I answered, screaming in fear.
"Z-Zidney, please..." The familiar man with black eyes walked but I just kicked
him. The nurses held me tightly to stop but I didn't.
"D-Di ko kayo kilala! Please, pakawalan nyo na ako dito! Ayoko dito!" Umiiyak
kong sabi.
"Zid..." The man called me.
"H-Hindi ako si Zidney! H-Hindi ko kayo kilala!" Iyak ko. Paos na ang boses ko
at halos magmakaawa na. "P-Parang-awa nyo na, h'wag nyo akong ikulong dito!"

Nakita ko ang pag-abot ng nurse sa Doktor ng isang

injection at nang makita iyon ay mad lalo akong nagwala.
They'll put me to sleep! Tapos...tapos mahuhuli ako tapos... Papatayin ako at
ikukulong...
"N-No! Ayoko nyan! Please!" Nagpumiglas ako sa hawak ng mga nurse at lumapit sa
akib ang doktor.
My heart beat faster, nanginig ako sa takot at malakas na sumigaw para
makawala. I heard the people around me cried but I just jerked and pushed the
nurses away like I wanted to run and hide.
Suddenly, the man with a familiar face and a familiar blue eyes walked near me
and hugged me.
"C-Calm down, princess..." Mahinang sabi nito pero umiling lang ako.
"A-Ayoko!" He hugged me tighter and I felt myself slowly calming.
"Calm down, princess, we won't hurt you..." Bulong nito. "This is Kuya Zeijan,
okay?"
I stopped when I heard that, their names sounds so familiar and my heart
skipped a beat. I felt a sharp object getting inside my body as I felt the fluid
from it rush on my veins.
"K-Kuya..." I asked weakly.. "K-Kuya kita?" Nanginig ang boses ko at mas
napasinghot sa pag-iyak.
My body felt weak, my eyes started getting heavy again but I started
recognizing his familiar face. Muli akong sumulyap sa dalawang lalaki roon sa
likuran nya at mas nanghina.
"Yes, princess... I'm your brother, we'll take care of you..." He whispered, I
opened my mouth to speak but I am too weak to even move and that's when my eyes
fell.
"That's right, princess, sleep..." I even heard him saying but it was too low.
I was in the dream land again, my breathings are heavy and deep as I saw the
beautiful flowers in a garden fade and turns to a dreadful thorns.
Hindi ako makagalaw, I shrieked in pain when I felt the thorn on my skin,
wounding my body. I screamed and run, asking for help but the thorns grow sharper
and sharper, targeting me, piercing my insides and making me bleed to death.
I grasp for something but my hand bled when I saw the thorns from the bloodly
flower piercing my hand. I cried and grasp more but my hand never stop bleeding.
The scary creeping leaves slowly went on my back, slowly moving around my neck
and I gasped when it strangled me, hinawakan ko iyon, I tried pulling it but it
gets tighter everytime and when it tightened, I choked.
Umubo ako ng umubo and I tried screaming but no voice comes from my throat.
"Zidney! Zidney, wake up!" My eyes opened, I saw how the familiar man came
closer and pulled my hand from my neck.
Napaubo ako roon, kaagad nya akong inalalayan ng upo at naghahabol lang ako ng
hininga.
Why am I strangling myself?
"Hey, Zid..." I heaved a deep breath, I started shaking in fear but he suddenly
hugged me. I sobbed, mas humigpit naman ang yakap nito sa akin at sumubsob ako sa
dibdib nito.
"Sshh, it's alright, princess..." He whispered sweetly. I melted on his arms,
unti-unti kong naramdaman ang pagkalma ko at ang pagiging komportable sa kanya.
"I-I'm scared..." I whispered weakly.
"I know, Zid..." Aniya at hinaplos ang buhok ko. "I'm not gonna hurt you, okay?
Kuya Iñigo will take care of you..." Bulong nya.
Lumayo sya sa akin at nang makita ang mga asul nyang mga mata ay hindi ko
maiwasang makita ang pamilyaridad roon.
"A-Are you my brother?" I whispered. I saw how his eyes soften, he nodded and
catch my tears from my cheek.

"Yes, princess... I'm Kuya Raf, remember me? We used to

play barbies in your doll house..." I shook my head and he nodded at that.
I saw how pain reflected his eyes but he remained calm.
"It's alright," Aniya at pinat ang ulo ko.
"A-Am I in a hospital? Are you gonna jail me--"
"No, princess... Of course not..." Aniya at lumuwang ang dibdib ko roon.
"B-But why am I here?" I asked him.
"To be safe, you fainted, your Kuya Dash saw you in the streets luckily..."
Aniya at naupo sa tabi ko. I lowered my head and closed my eyes.
Sumulyap ako sa kamay ko at sa hospital gown na suot ko. This all looks
familiar.
"Don't be scared, Zid..." Aniya sa akin. "I...know you don't remember us and
we're not gonna force you too... Just remember that we love you so much and there's
no way we'll do anything that can hurt you..."
My heart thumped in familiarity, sa muling pag-angat ko ng tingin ay nakita ko
ang sinserong kulay asul nyang mga mata at naalalang sya ang isa sa mga palaging
nakikita ko sa panaginip.
 "I-Is Zidney my real name?" I whispered.
A soft smile crept on his lips as he nodded at me.
"Yes, princess... You're Zidney Sandejas..." Aniya.
My mouth parted in shock, mabilis akong napakagat labi at muling nagsalita.
"I-I'm a Sandejas?" I asked him, shocked. I saw how his forehead creased but he
answered me.
"Hmm," He nodded. "You're a Sandejas, our only princess... I hope you'll
remember us kasi miss na miss ka na namin..." Bulong nya at kaagad na hinawi ang
tumutulong luha kaya kaagad akong nakaramdam ng lambot roon.
I remained staring at him as he cried in front of me. He said he's my brother,
d-does that mean that I have a family?
Did God finally grant my long time prayer?
Hindi ako makahanap ng kahit anong pagdududa sa puso ko habang pinagmamasdan
sya, all I felt was love and sincerity and his longing for me.
"I love you so much, Zidney..." He whispered. "S-Sana maalala mo na kami..."
Nanatili akong pinagmamasdan sya habag lumuluha sa harapan ko. He did not say
anything, he just stayed lowering his head and sobbing infront of me, I saw the
clock reads three in the morning but he remained here beside me.
Hindi na rin ako umimik, nang kumalma sya ay sya ring pagkurap ko at pinunasan
ang luha sa mga mata ko.
My stomach crumpled, napahawak ako roon at nakita kong sumulyap sya sa akin
habang inaayos ang sarili.
"Are you hungry?" He asked.
"O-Opo..." I answered shyly. I saw him smiled, inayos nya ang mukha nya at
hinawi ang kanyang buhok.
"Alright, stay here... Kuya will get you some food to eat..." Aniya at
nagmamadaling lumabas sa kwarto para kumuha ng pagkain.
I smiled, nakaramdam ako ng kapayapaan sa puso ko at nang bumalik sya sa kwarto
na may dalang pagkain habang may excited na ngiti sa labi ay natuwa ako.
'"Here, princess..." Aniya at inilapag ang tray sa harapan ko. "Eat well, okay?
Magpakabusog ka, you fainted because of stress and hunger..."
I nodded slowly, sumulyap ako sa pagkain at mabilis na inabot ang kutsara.
"I will just stay in the couch so you can est comfortably, h'wag mong isiping
nandito ako, huh? Kain ka lang..." Aniya at naglakad palapit sa couch, before he
could even reach the sofa ay bumukas ang pintuan.

Nanliit ang mata ko sa biglang bukas nito ar nagulat ng

makita ang isang magandang babae mula roon.
The beautiful woman looks fierce but has a soft smile on her lips, nang
magtagpo ang mata namin ay kaagad syang tumango at matamis na ngumiti.
"Baby..." My K-Kuya Iñigo walked towards her and I saw how he gripped her waist
and hugged her.
She looks shocked at miski ako rin ay nagulat sa kilos nya. I saw her hugged my
brother back and whispered something while caressing his hair at nakita kong
tumungo si Kuya sa balikat nito at suminghap bago umiyak.
I was in awe as I stared at them, nakita kong inalalayan ng babae ang Kuya
paupo sa sofa at nakita kong sumisinghot pa itong yumakap sa tagiliran nya.
"I'm sorry about Iñigo, Zid..." The lady smiled at me, nang sumulyap ako kay
Kuya ay pikit na ang mata nito kaya nagtanong ako.
"I-Is he asleep?" I whispered.
"I think so..." She smiled. "Sorry for that, h'wag mo nalang kaming pansinin, I
know you're hungry, sige, kain ka na..."
"W-Who are you?" I curiously asked.
Nakita kong umayos sya ng upo, gusto man nyang tumayo ay hindi nya nagawa dahil
sa pagyakap ng Kuya kaya ngumiti nalang sya.
"I'm Thallia..." Aniya sa malambing na tono. "But you can call me Ate, I am
your brother's wife..."
 My mouth parted in shock. Napatango ako roon at nakagat ang labi ko.
I think I missed a lot, kahit na hindi ko sila maalala ay nararamdaman kong
marami akong hindi alam kaya mas gusto kong malaman ang mga ito.
"Your family loves you so much, Zid..." She said. "They misses you so much and
you're their only princess..."
"A-Am I?" I asked. "D-Do I really have a family?" Gulat ko paring tanong sa
kanya.
"Yes, Zid..." Aniya. "We're your family, we love you so much..."
The next days, I seldom talk to them. I still can't process everything, parang
nakakapanibago at nakakabigla kasi na may pamilya talaga ako.
I was taken care, I felt like I was loved. Kada gabi ay salit-salitan sila sa
pagbabantay sa akin, minsan ay si Kuya Iñigo, minsan ay si Kuya Zeij o kaya ay si
Kuya Dash.
They always call me princess, they never failed telling me they love me and
making me feel it. Suddenly, it felt like I was finally home. Binabalot ng
pagmamahal ang puso ko sa pag-aalalaga at pagtatyagang ipinakita nila sa akin.
Kahit na gigising ako sa madaling araw na sumisigaw sa panaginip at sinasakal
ang sarili ko, nagwawala kapag nakakakita ng mga nurse ay hindi nila ako sinukuan.
I am seeing them crying on my sleep, ang mga Kuya ko, ang mga magulang ko at
hindi ko maiwasang makaramdam ng sakit habang pinagmamasdan silang ganoon.
"Look at her, Jer... She grew up still beautiful and sweet..." A soft, womanly
voice is what I've heard.
"Yes, Lena..." A manly voice said. "Manang-mana talaga sa iyo ang prinsesa ko,
she looks a lot like you, honey..."
"Of course..." She chuckled, I felt a caress on my hair and a soft kiss on my
forehead. "Nagmana na sa'yo 'yung tatlong lalaki, syempre, ipaubaya mo naman sa
akin si Zidney..."
"You two looked a like, honey. No doubt about that..." Tumawa ang lalaki.
"Hmm, who would have thought that we'll get to see our lovely princess again? I
still can't get over it, Jer, natatakot akong baka panaginip lang ito at baka
magising akong wala na ulit ang anak natin..." Humina ang boses nito.

My heart ache at that, maya-maya'y narinig ko ang mumunting

hikbi nito at ang paghawak nito sa kamay ko.
"I'm sorry if I am too emotional, Jer... I still can't imagine that I am
holding my daughter's hand again... Akala ko, wala na... I was too scared that
we'll never see her again but now, I can look at her face and touch her..."
"Lena..." My Dad whispered.
She sobbed more, maya-maya pa'y naramdaman ko ang mga luha nya sa kamay ko kaya
unti-unti akong nagmulat. I saw her lowering her head as she kissed my hand and
cried.
I saw how my father tried stopping his tears but ended up crying with her too,
I saw how tears fell from his eyes but he remained smiling and wiping his tears.
"D-Dad?" That came out from my mouth. I saw how his gaze shifted to me and his
mouth parted in shock.
It was the first time I'll ever talk to them. Ngayon lang ako nagkaroon ng
lakas para kausapin sila.
I gave him a soft smile at nakita kong mas nagtubig ang mga mata nya habang
nakatingin sa akin.
Who would have thought that the man I saw is my father all along? How did fate
managed to play with us?
"Z-Zid?" My mother's voice shook at nang sumulyap ako sa kanya ay inabot ko ang
malambot nyang kamay at hinaplos.
"H-Hi, Mommy..." Bulong ko.
Her eyes watered. She sobbed at kaagad akong umupo sa kama at gumapang palapit.
I enveloped her into a warm and tight embrace as I sobbed with her. Kaagad kong
naramdaman ang mahigpit na yakap sa amin ni Daddy kaya mas nanginig ako sa
pangungulila at mas umiyak.
My heart unknowingly lightened with that. I smiled as I watch the television at
nakita kong naroon lang sa gilid si Kuya Iñigo kasama si Ate, they said they have
kids, nasa bahay nga lang daw.
Who would have thought? Bukod pala sa mga magulang, kapatid ay meron na rin
akong pamangkin!
I was eating the apple when the door opened, I saw two men from outside.
Nagtutulakan ang dalawa papasok at nang magtagpo ang mga mata namin ay kumurap ako.
"Hi!" Their high-pitched voice said. I smiled shyly and nodded, nakita kong
nagsikuhan ang dalawa at nagbubulungan roon.
"You assholes, talk to your sister. Para kayong tanga dyan." Kuya Iñigo said.
They both stood straight and stared at me.
The other man has blue eyes while the other one has black ones. Bakit sa
panaginip ko tatlo silang may asul na mata?
"Hi, princess..." The man with blue eyes said. I smiled and nodded. Nahihiya pa
rin ako sa kanila.
"I know, you don't remember me..." Aniya sa akin. "But I'm your Kuya Zeijan,
uhm, as you can see ako 'yung pinakagwapo mong kapati--"
"Gago, panget mo!" Nanlaki ang mata ko ng sumimangot ang kapatid kong may itim
na mga mata.
"Dash! Your mouth!" Kuya Iñigo hissed.
"Sorry..." He cleared his throat. "Uh, anyway, princess..." He smiled.
"I'm your Kuya Dash, uhm, if you need anything then you can ask me..." He
smiled cutely.
I stared at them, mukha silang kinakabahang dalawa sa magiging reaksyon ko. I
saw them almost pale, halos magholding-hands na sila kaya medyo parang natatawa na
ako.
The man with blue eyes has a rugged look, looking more of a bad boy in school.
Medyo magulo ang buhok nya at may iilang hibla rin ang nasa kanyang noo.
Samantalang ang kapatid kong may itim na mga mata ay may pinaghalong seryoso at ang
malambot na emosyon sa mga mata.

Kuya Dash resembles Kuya Iñigo more, parehong may

pagkastrikto ang mukha nila pero hindi pa rin ikakaila ang kagwapuhan nito.
I suddenly remembered that one dream when they were in the guidance. Lahat sila
ay may mga pasa sa mukha. Sa pagkakaalala ko ay si Kuya Zeij ang unang nanapak at
umawat ang dalawang Kuya ko, but when Kuya Dash was punched, nawalan na rin ng
pasensya at nanuntok rin.
Kuya Iñigo stayed calm for a while but when they mocked him ay halos
makipagrambulan na ito at nagtulungan ang tatlo para mang-away.
I remembered how my mother punished them at sa ala-alang iyon ay matamis akong
napangiti.
"Hello po..." I smiled. I saw them heaved a deep sigh, looking relax. Nag-apir
pa sila kaya natawa ako at nailing.
"Thank, God..." Kuya Dash sighed.
"Princess..." I saw Kuya Zeijan's teary eyes kaya lumambot ang puso ko.
"C-Can we hug you, princess?" Kuya Dash's soft voice said. Sumulyap ako sa
kanilang dalawa. I saw Kuya Iñigo smiling at me kaya marahan akong tumango.
"Okay po..." I smiled. Kaagad nila akong dinamba ng yakap. I hugged them back,
mahigpit ang yakap nila sa akin na para akong mapipisat pero sobrang nangungulila
ako.
My tears fell again as I hugged them. Narinig ko rin ang pagsinghot at pag-iyak
nila sa balikat ko.
"I missed you, Zid..."
"I love you, prinsesa..." They said in unison that I felt my heart at ease.
That atlast, I can finally say that I am home.
"Kuya, can I have a favor?" I asked my three brothers, naroon sila sa tabi ko
sa may sofa at binabantayan ako.
"What is it, Zid?" Kuya Iñigo asked.
"Uhm..." I cleared my throat. "I have a friend, kasama ko sya nang pumunta
rito..."
They listened to me intently.
"Her name's Ritchelle, I left her when Kuya Dash found me. Bibili sana ako ng
pagkain, hindi ko na sya nabalikan..." I said.
"Surname, princess?" Kuya asked.
"I'm not really sure," Mahinang sabi ko. "But I remember her face, can you find
her for me? Please? She's been good to me..." I told them, begging.
I have to find her, I have to thank her for everything...
"Okay, Zid..." Kuya Zeij smiled. "Leave it to me, princess..."
Sobrang naninibago pa rin ako kapag tinatawag akong Zidney or princess. I still
can't process it, they were taking care of me like I was a lost gem finally found
after years of being missing.
"Hi, Zid. I'm Rheallyn, your Kuya Dash's fiancee..." A tall woman said.
"Hi..." I smiled. She nodded and flipped her hair.
"I wish we could be friends..." She smiled but it doesn't reached her eyes. It
was fake, I knew when I saw one. Nakita ko pang bahagyang umirap sya.
I almost shook my head.
Bitch.
Hindi na ako umimik matapos iyon at sumulyap kay Ate Fleureah sa tabi ko. She
was reading a book at nang makitang seryosong-seryoso sya roon ay ngumiti ako.
"Hi, Ate Reah!" Kaagad syang nag-angat ng tingin, a soft, sincere smile
plastered on her face.
"Hi, Zid, you need anything?" She asked. I shook my head, ngumiti ako pabalik
sa kanya at muling sumulyap kay Rheallyn na nagtitipa sa telepono habang
nakasimangot.

There's no doubt Kuya Dash loves Ate Reah kaysa sa babaeng

ito. She's beautiful but she doesn't have that beauty I saw in Ate Reah.
I'm their shipper, hindi pwedeng ito ang makatuluyan ni Kuya. I can also see it
on his eyes, twinkling whenever he's looking at Ate Fleureah. So, there's no way,
he's marrying Rheallyn.
Imagine my shock when we finally went back to our home, I sighed, sounds music
to my ears.
It was big, and I didn't imagine it would be this huge. Kaagad akong nagulat
nang makitang nakahilera sa isang banda ang mga maid at sa isang banda naman ang
mga guard.
The moment I stepped out of the car ay sabay-sabay silang nagbow at nagsalita.
"Welcome back, Ma'am Zidney!" My mouth parted, nanlaki ang mata ko at mabilis
na napatingin kay Kuya Zeijan pero ngumisi lang sya at inakbayan ako.
"You'll get used to it, Princess..." Aniya at nakita ko ang pagtango ng mga
Kuya ko.
My Dad and Mom is the first one to go inside the mansion, sumunod sina Kuya
Iñigo at Ate Thallia habang bibit ang kambal at sina Kuya Dash.
Kuya Zeijan was assisting me inside at nang madaanan ko ang mga maid roon ay
nakita kong naluluha sila habang nakatingin sa akin.
I was confused but then I smiled at them.
"Ma'am!" I saw an old lady wearing white scrubs running near me. I was starled
when she hugged me tightly.
"Hindi ko inaasahang makikita ka ulit namin!" She cried on my shoulder and my
heart soften. I bit my lip, naramdaman ko ang pamilyaridad sa puso ko at iniangat
ko ang kamay ko para yakapin sya pabalik.
Mas nagulantang pa ako ng makita ang napakaraming handa sa mahabang hapag para
sa pagbabalik ko.
I have known that my real name is Zidney Agnieszka Sandejas, I'm twenty and my
family lost me in a car accident three years ago. They did everything to find me
but found nothing. Kagaya ng kwento nila ay ganoon rin ang napapanaginipan kahit
noon pa man.
I started having flashbackd as I stayed here but I noticed how nightmares
visits me again everytime in my sleep. Kung dati ay mga halimaw, ngayon ay
kadalasang magdurugo ng kamay ko dahil sa mga tinik.
There are times where I am waking up strangling myself until I lost my breath.
It was getting harder in harder to control my dreams and the trembling of my hands.
Aside from my family, I started become aloof of people.
I always dream of Nanay at Tatay and this time, I was with them, kneeling on
the floor then a gun was pointed on my head as it shoot directly and kills me.
I have known that I've been studying Architecture all along and with the past
years I am with my family, I experienced a lot and they embraced every bad and
broken parts of me.
They took care of me until my memories started coming back.
I am home studying until I got my degree and finally ready to face the people I
should have met a long time ago. I did study personality and etiquette lessons.
I have learn a lot of things and I saw how much I've changed with all those
challenges I've been through in the past few years.
"My! My!" Inialis ko ang tingin ko sa papeles na hawak ko at ibinaba ang
tingin.
A smile crept on my face as I saw my two year old daughter running from my
office door.
"Hi, baby..." I smiled, mabilis akong tumayo sa upuan at sinalubong ang anak
ko. She cheered, hugging my neck as I kissed her chubby cheeks.
"P...Play!" She exclaimed.
"Oh, sorry, baby. Mommy's busy today..." I sighed, I saw her pouted, her
reddish lips protruding and her lovely eyes twinkling.
"N-No?" Aniya. I kissed her cheek and shook my head.
"Mommy is busy, nak. We'll play later nalang when we got home, hmm? Mommy
brought you barbies!" I saw how her eyes widen, mabilis syang bumaba sa akin at
natawa ako ng makitang tumakbo sya palapit sa laruang ibinili ko sa may sofa at
iyon ang pinagtuunan ng pansin.
Clytemnesta Alyona grew up beautifully and I coudn't help but to smile
sincerely at that.
Nawala lang ang pagtitig ko sa anak kong naglalaro sa sofa nang bumukas ang
pinto. I saw my secretary at the door, pilit na iniiwasan ang mga mata ko.
My eyes shifted emotion, I hid the softness in it and was replaced by extreme
coldness.
"M-Ma'am?" She stuttered. Hindi ako nagsalita at nanatiling nakatingin lang sa
kanya.
"Nan...Nandito po si Sir Zeij..." Ani nito sa akin.
"Let him in..." I lowered my head and signed the papers at nang bumukas ay
nakita ko ang Kuya ko.
He was wearing a white shirt and ripped jeans, ang magulong buhok nya ay nasa
noo nya at nang makita ako ay mayabang na ngumiti.
"Gwapong-gwapo?" I teased. He laughed, ngumiti na ako at kaagad syang lumapit
sa akin at ginulo ang buhok ko.
"You're scaring your secretary again?" Aniya. I shrugged. He kissed my forehead
and spoke.
"You ready?" Aniya.
"For?" My forehead creased. Nakita kong sumulyap sya kay Clyte bago lumapit
rito. I saw him carry my daughter and walked towards me.
"The event? Final na 'yun..." Aniya. I sighed and nodded, nakita kong nilaro
nya si Clythe at kiniliti kaya humagikhik ito at kumapit sa leeg nya.
"I have no other choice..." I said. "If only I can hide here forever and never
show my face."
"Nah, a heiress must face the world." Aniya. "You're the Sandejas' princess,
Zid. The world should know you..."
 "Ano pa nga ba?" I said and sipped on my coffee.
"Show them who Zidney is, Princess..." I nodded, raising my brow.
"Ready?" He asked me, grinning.
"Ready..." I smirked.

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Kabanata 16

Kabanata 16
"Good morning, Architect..." The employees said in unison, bowing their heads
as I passed through them.
I did not speak nor throw a glance at them. With my head held high, I walked
straight, staring at the hallway, depriving them of seeing any emotion from me.
Nanahimik ang hallway pagkadaan ko, it suddenly sounds empty but if only I
know, they were already killing me in their minds.
I straightened my red fitted dress, hinawi ko ang bagsak na buhok sa balikat at
dumiretso sa elevator.
I saw employees falling in line just to enter kaya pumunta ako sa likuran nila.
I clutched my pouch, not saying anything until they noticed my presence.
"Sinasabi ko na kasi sa'yo, magresign nalang tayo-" A woman hissed at nakita
kong napalingon ang kasama nya sa akin.
I saw her eyes widening, diretso pa rin ang pagrereklamo ng kasama nya tungkol
sa mga patakaran ng kompanya at mabilis nya itong tinapik.
"Rona!" She hissed.
"Ano?!" The woman she called Rona exclaimed.
Nanatiling tulala ang babaeng nakatingin sa akin. I saw other people waiting
for the elevator going to each side, leaving me and that complaining woman in the
middle.
"Wala namang kwenta dito! Sa tingin mo ba--" Natigil sya ng mapansin ang mga
tahimik at nakatungong tao sa gilid. Lumingon sya sa akin at nakita ko kung paano
manlaki ang mga mata nya at malaglag ang panga.
"A-Architect..." She stuttered, I saw her pale face like she'd seen a ghost.
Hindi ko sya tinapunan ng tingin, I remained staring at the elevator that's already
on the second floor.
Animo'y may kuliglig sa paligid sa katahimikan, maya-maya'y muling nagsalita
ang babae.
"M-Ma'am, iba po 'yung sinasabi ko--" The elevator door suddenly opened, nakita
ko ang gulat sa mga taong naroon sa loob ng makita ako at nag-unahan palabas habang
binabati ako.
No one attempted going in kaya naglakad ako papasok sa elevator. My heels made
a sound, walang kibo ang nasa paligid.
Nang makapasok ako ay kaagad kong binalingan ang babaeng iyon.
She remained pale, akmang magsasalita muli para magpalusot pero inunahan ko
sya.
"I expect your resignation letter tomorrow morning." I said before the elevator
closed at nakita ko pa ang gulat nyang itsura sa sinabi ko.
I stared at my watch as I wait for the elevator to go up my office, at lunch, I
will talk to my designer.
Naayos na kasi ang gown na susuotin ko sa event at kailangan lang ng final
fitting. I think my gown's color is blue, ang sabi ko nga ay pula pero mas babagay
daw sa kulay ko ang asul ayon sa stylist ko.
I have no choice but to do what he told me, gusto rin nila Kuya na mag-iba
naman daw ako ng kulay ng suot at hindi kulay pula.
Napailing ako at pumasok sa opisina.
Gulat na gulat ang secretary ko pagpasok ko, napatayo pa sya sa upuan nya para
lang batiin ako.
 "Good morning, Ma'am!" Aniya na nakangiti. Dinaanan ko sya ng tingin at pumasok
sa mismong opisina ko.
She followed me quickly when I got inside, telling me about my schedules at
pinapakinggan ko lang sya at nanatiling walang imik.
She was holding her tablet and recite all of my activities at nang naupo ako sa
swivel ko ay napansin ko na kaagad ang mainit at matapang na kape.

"The blue prints are ready, Ma'am..." Pagtatapos nya sa

sinasabi at ngumiti ng alanganin.
"Is that it?" I asked.
"Y-Yes po..." Tumikhim sya at tumango.
"Okay, you can go..." Sumimsim ako sa kape. She nodded and pointed the door.
"S-Sige po, Architect. Uhm, salamat po..." I nodded. Lumakad naman sya roon at
sinundan ko lang sya ng tingin, I was waiting for her to go out pero bigla syang
tumingin sa akin ng may maalala.
"Ay, Ma'am!" Aniya. Muli syang lumapit sa akin at nagsalita. "I forgot to tell
you, may nagpadala nga po pala ng bulaklak."
"From?" My brow raised.
"Wait, Ma'am, kunin ko..." Mabilis syang lumabas at pinagtuunan ko ng pansin
ang phone ko. Wala pang ilang minuto ay muli syang bumalik.
I saw her holding a bouquet of red roses. My forehead creased, kaagad na nawala
ang timpla ko ng makita ang bulaklak.
"Where did that trash came from?" I asked.
"P-Po?" Nanlaki ang mata nya.
"U-Uh, sa mga Valderama po. Sabi po ni Mrs. Valderama salamat daw po sa
imbita." Aniya.
I almost laughed at that pero binasa ko lang ang labi ko at nagsalita.
"I did not invite them, my parents did." Sagot ko at naiiritang napatingin sa
hawak nyang mga rosas.
"And please, throw that trash. I won't be accepting roses as a thank you
gift..." Balewalang sabi ko at pinakialaman ang mga naiwang kong papel sa lamesa.
"Pero Ma'am, sayang naman po--"
"Then keep it, just don't let me see that or I'll throw you and that flower out
of my sight." I said sharply and she was starled.
Nakita kong nanlaki ang mata nya. Mabilis syang tumango, nagpaalam at
nagmamadaling umalis sa loob ng opisina ko.
The moment the door closed, napahilot ako sa sentido. I sat comfortably on my
swivel chair and heaved a deep sigh.
Can I not go to that event?
I am good with this, working without all of those people knowing me. I am good
with just my family and daughter, the last thing I'd like to do is to get involved
in the family again.
Sa pagsapit ng tanghali ay nakita kong nasa basurahan na ang bulaklak, nakita
ko pang kinakabahan nanaman ang secretary ko ng lumabas ako pero hindi ko na sya
pinagtuunan ng pansin.
I still remembered how I hate that kind of flower, it annoys me everytime I see
it everywhere. Miski nga sa mansyon ay nakiusap akong h'wag nang magtanim ng
ganoon.
Noon nga ay may dalang bulaklak ang Ate Reah ko, I asked her a few flowers and
not expecting it to be roses. I pretended to be happy because of that at nang
makaalis na sya ay tsaka ko ibinigay iyon sa maid kaysa sa itapon.
"Busangot ka nanaman, Zidney?" Rocky said as he fixed my gown, inaayos nya ang
tamang hapit nito sa baywang ko.
It was beautiful, I saw Swarovski crystals all over the shining royal blue gown
and it was beyond my expectations.
"When did I ever smile?" I asked. Humagalpak sya ng tawa, pinalo pa nya ang
braso ko kaya ngumiwi ako.
 "Look, namumula na!" I hissed, mukhang wala naman syang pakialam. Tuwang-tuwa
pa sya sa nakasimangot kong itsura.
"Loka, balita ko may tinanggal ka nanaman sa trabaho! Anong churva ba?" Aniya.
My brow raised, pinasadahan ko ng tingin ang sarili ko sa salamin at nakitang
saktong-sakto ang hubog nito sa katawan ko.

"I did not fire her, she wants to resign so I did her a
favor..." Sagot ko. Mukhang naaliw sya sa akin at tuwang-tuwa pa ang bakla.
"Stop laughing, you're annoying..." I hissed.
"Alam mo maldita ka talaga!" He exclaimed. "I remembered seeing you for the
first time and you're like so shy and looking untouchable and now you're bitching
out!"
"I though you've already adjusted?" I asked.
"Oo nga, pero syempre, ang sama ng iniisip sa'yo ng mga tao, lalo na sa
trabaho."
"Kailan ba may nag-isip ng maganda sa akin?" I asked him. "Never, so I won't
force anyone to think of me as a good person 'cause I'm not..."
"Mabait ka naman talaga, Zid..." Aniya at ngumisi.
"No, akala mo lang 'yun..." Sagot ko. "I don't care if people think of the
worst of me, I don't care if they talk behind my back. I am used to people bad
mouthing me anyway."
"Dami mong hanash, mamsh!" Aniya. I rolled my eyes.
"Ikaw rin, daldal ka ng daldal." Sagot ko.
"Kaloka," Hinawi nya ang buhok. "Sa sabado, pupunta ako sa mansyon tapos sa
hotel ka na aayusan, 'kay?"
I nodded, tinulungan nya akong magpalit ng damit at inayos ang buhok ko.
"Would you like to change your hair?" Aniya.
"Bronde babylights?" I asked. He nodded, nakita ko ang ngisi nya at hinawi ang
buhok ko.
"Yup, bagay sayo..." Aniya.
"Will go to salon later to change it," Sabi ko sa kanya. He nodded, kaagad
syang nagbilin sa mga kasama tungkol sa adjustments sa gown ko at inihatid ako sa
sasakyan.
I waved him goodbye and drove myself home. Sa pagdating ko sa mansyon ay natuwa
ako ng makitang kumpleto ang mga Kuya ko roon.
All smiles, I entered our house. Nakangiting binati ako ng mga tauhan na syang
naging malapit na sa loob ko kaya ngumiti ako at bumati pabalik sa kanya.
Sa pagdaan ko sa pool ay nakita kong naglalaro roon sina Kuya Iñigo. I saw him
teaching Alchiel how to swim while Ate Thallia was on the side of the pool and
looking at them.
Kaagad akong lumapit at nang makita ako ni Ate Thallia ay nagliwanag ang mata
nya.
"Zid!" She cheered. Mabilis syang tumayo at humalik sa pisngi ko at bahagya ko
syang niyakap bago lumingon doon sa dalawa sa pool.
"What happened?" I asked.
"Ayan, nagpapaturo si Chiel lumangoy. He was jealous because Crest can swim but
he can't so, Iñigo is teaching him how..." Aniya.
Sumulyap ako sa pool muli, determinadong lumalangoy roon si Chiel sa tulong ni
Kuya kaya nangiti ako.
"Daddy material?" I exclaimed. Napalingon ito sa akin.
I saw how my brother's eyes brighten when he saw me.
"You're early, princess..." Aniya. I smiled and nodded, nakita kong inalalayan
nya si Chiel palapit sa amin at kaagad na ngumiti sa akin ang pamangkin ko ng
makita ako.
"Chiel, you can do it!" I cheered him. He smiled cheekily.
"Right, son? Tita Zid is right, you can do it!" Kuya motivate him. Habang
nakasulyap sa dalawa ay nakita ko ang pagkakahawig nila, para silang pinagbiyak na
bunga!
"Hawig sila, Ate..." Bulong ko.
"I know right," Tawa ni Ate Thallia. "Everytime I am looking at my son,
nakikita ko ang Tatay kaya di mawaglit ni minsan sa paningin ko ang mukha nyang
kapatid mo..."

I chuckled.
"What is that? Pinagtsitsismissn nyo ako?" Kuya asked and we just grinned at
him.
Sa pagpasok ko ng bahay ay kaagad kong nakita ang Kuya Dash kasama si Ate Reah,
they're with their son, Marcus and their dog, Skye. Naghaharutan sila sa may sofa
roon sa may gilid.
Marcus or Macky as they call him wanted to cuddle his mom but Skye will also
go, cuddling Ate Reah. Nag-aagawan ang dalawa sa atensyon ni Ate kaya nangisi ako
nang napakamot ng kilay si Kuya Dash.
I greeted them and went to the living room and smiled when I saw Clyte with her
Ate Crest playing barbies and dolls.
"Hi, babies!" Bati ko. Their eyes shifted to my direction.
"Hi, Tita!" Crest greeted me. I smiled at her, nang makita ako ni Clyte ay
nagmamadaling tumayo sya mula sa pagkakaupo at tumalon-talon.
"My! My!" She ran, kaagad ko syang sinalubong at mabilis na binuhat.
"Hi, baby ko..." I greeted.
"My!" She said repeatedly, I chuckled, kissing her chubby cheeks simultaneously
as she giggled.
"Na-miss ba ng baby ko si Mommy?" I asked. She nodded, her brown eyes
twinkling.
"Namiss ko din ang baby ko..." Ngiti ko. Kumapit sya sa leeg ko at sumiksik.
Binuhat ko naman sya palapit sa Ate Crest nya at naupo sa sofa.
"Come on, Crest, kiss Tita..." I said, Crest, looking more of a combination of
her parents stood and kissed my cheeks. Kaagad ko syang niyakap at humalik sa
pisngi nya bago pinagtuunan ng pansin ang baby ko.
"Would you like to play with Ate pa?" I asked her. She looked at me with
shining eyes as she nodded.
I kissed her cheek again, ang ganda-ganda talaga ng baby ko. Her black hair is
shining, hinawi ko ang bangs nya ang pinagmasdan sya.
"Play na kayo ni Ate, hmm?" I told her. "Be a good girl, Clyte. Doon muna ako
kay Kuya Zeijan..."
Nang iwan ko ang dalawang bata ay muli silang naglaro ng barbie, they were
eating gummy bears. Close na close ang dalawa dahil silang dalawa lang naman ang
babae.
My Mom and Dad went to the hospital for my Mom's therapy with Doc Ad.
Sa pagsulyap ko sa malaking sofa ay naroon ang Kuya Zeijan, he was looking
engrossed again everytime he's watching telenovelas in the afternoon, nanonood sya
tuwing hapon ng TV at subaybay na subaybay sa palabas, sa gabi rin ay may replay
ito at hindi nagsasawang panonoorin rin.
Marahan akong lumapit, I lifted my hand at hinawakan ang balikat nya para
magulat kaya napatalon sya.
"Oh God, Zidney!" He exclaimed, shocked. Napahawak sya sa dibdib at huminga.
"Gulat ka no?" I teased.
"Hindi a!" Aniya. Natawa ako at mabilis na tumabi sa kanya sa sofa.
He held my arm to kissed my forehead kaya sumulyap ako sa kanya.
"Favorite mo?" I asked, pointing the television.
"Huh? Yan?" Aniya sa palabas. I nodded, tumango naman sya at sumulyap sa TV.
"Not the show, Zidney-tot, the actress..." Aniya.
"Oh? Si Alyx?" I asked. Hindi sya umimik roon at nanatiling nakatitig sa TV.
I saw Alyx the actress with his loveteam, Brad. Nag-uusap ang dalawa sa isang
isla roon, they were fighting I think. The woman is really beautiful, fierce and
just my brother's type.

Brad and that Alyx is good, huh? Patok na patok sila sa mga
tao ngayon, and even Kuya is watching them!
"Bagay sila, sila ba real life?" I asked him curiously. I saw how his face
crumpled, sumimangot sya sa akin at pinitik ang noo ko.
"Fucking no!" He hissed, annoyed. "Mas bagay kami!" Aniya.
"Chill lang!" Naguguluhan kong sabi at tinuro ang TV. "Luh, Kuya, wala ka bang
lovelife kaya pati artista?"
"Wow, huh! Hiyang-hiya naman daw ako sa'yo, Zidney-tot..." Irap nya. I
chuckled, muli ako sumulyap sa TV at sa kanya.
"Bakit di mo ligawan?" I asked. "Kung crush mo si Alyx, pormahan mo na, malay
mo ma-notice..."
"Why would I court her? She's my wife..." Seryosong sabi nya kaya napatawa na
ako ng malakas.
"Oh my God, Kuya!" I exclaimed at pinalo ang hita nya. "Dream on!"
Nagsalubong ang kilay nya at umawang ang labi nya.
"Aba't--"
"Masyado kang patay na patay d'yan, baka nananaginip ka lang, Kuya..." I
chuckled.
Ngumuso sya at nagkamot ng kilay. Muli syang sumandal sa sofa at sumulyap sa
TV.
"Bakit walang naniniwala sa akin?" He whispered, annoyed.
"Kasi di naman kapani-paniwala..." Sagot ko. Sinimangutan nya ako, I giggled
and hugged his waist at naiiling na umakbay sya sa akin.
Nang natapos ang palabas nito ay inilipat na ang channel dahil narito na ang
mga bata. We were all seated on the sofa, pinag-uusapan na nila ang event at ako'y
nanatiling nakaupo sa tabi ni Kuya Zeij.
He cooked popcorn for us habang naglilibang naman ang mga bata sa palabas.
Clyte is resting on my lap, she was sleeping on my arms while I caress her
hair.
"Ready ka na, Princess? Businessman and professionals are all there and wanting
to meet you..." Ani Kuya Dash.
"Hmm," I nodded. "Do I have a choice? Decided na kayong lahat..." Nagtawanan
sila sa sinabi ko.
"You should get ready, Zid. It's a big world you're gonna enter now but
reminder, princess, don't entertain any men there 'kay?" Ani Kuya Iñigo.
"Ano pa nga ba?" Tawa ko. "Kulang na nga lang mambugbog ulit kayo kapag may
lalapit..."
"Of course! We are just protecting our princess, walang pwedeng manakit
sayo..." Ani Kuya Dash kaya napangiti ako.
"Aww, I love you talaga..." I said sweetly.
"We love you too..." Sabay-sabay nilang sabi kaya mas nayakap ko si Clyte at
hinalikan ang buhok nya.
Napasulyap ako kay Kuya Zeij na kanina pa tahimik at nangunot ang noo ko ng
makitang nakatitig sya sa TV.
Wonder pets was playing on the television, ang mga bata ay tuwang-tuwa sa
panonood pero seryoso lang at nakakunot ang noo ni Kuya roon.
"Uy, Kuya, don't tell me favorite mo rin 'yan?" I asked.
"Of course not," Aniya at nailing. "I was just stressed."
"Why?" I asked, concerned. "Masakit ba ang ulo mo?" Napansin kong natigilan rin
at napabaling sa amin sina Kuya Dash at Kuya Iñigo.
"No, kanina ko pa kasi di ma-gets..." He pointed the TV kaya sumulyap ako roon.
"Yung bibe sa wonderpets, mingming ang pangalan, di naman pusa..." Napasentido
sya.
 My mouth parted in shock. Napamura naman sina Kuya at
hinagisan sya ng unan kaya natawa ito ang Nagpeace-sign.
I heaved a deep breathe as I stared at myself in the mirror. I still can't
believe this is me, this is what I look like, this the kind of life I had before
the accident.
Wearing the extravagant gown Rocky made specially for me, I honestly looked
elegant. The gown fits perfectly in my body, emphasizing my curves.
My long hair is in a combination of brown and blonde, fixed in a majestic big
wave curls. My hair is parted in one side with a crystal headpiece.
My make up was made by Rocky's friend, my make-up artist. Deep red lips, smoky
eyes, pointed nose and high cheekbones, he emphasized that features of my face,
hiding my soft features and was replaced by sophisticated ones.
Nasa ibaba na sina Kuya at narito pa rin kami sa may kwarto ni Kuya Zeijan. He
was wearing a blue armani suit, gwapong-gwapo at fresh na fresh ang kapatid ko sa
ayos nya kaya nangiti ako.
"You're so handsome, Kuya..." I complimented him.
"I know, Princess..." Sagot nya pa. I almost shook my head at that.
"Wow, thank you, huh?" I asked. He laughed, nodding his head.
"Welcome, Zidney-tot. You're beautiful yourself too, thank you very much for
coming back to us..." He said.
I smiled softly, standing up ang hugging him.
Naghiwalay lang kami ng may kumatok sa pintuan. The woman said we're up to go
downstairs kaya kumapit ako sa braso ng Kuya ko.
We walked outside the door towards the round stairs and I sighed and closed my
eyes.
"Ready, princess?" Kuya asked. I nodded, taking a glance at the huge crowd
downstairs. It was unbelievable, seeing them waiting for us to come down.
The place is great and huge, it can probably accomodate hundreds of people!
This place is one of the most prestigious hotels in Makati, sa labas palang ay
kita mo na ang naglalakihang chandelier. Everyone is busy, nakita kong may mga
waiter na may dalang mga drinks habang papasok sa loob mismo ng venue.
Even the waiters look so elegant with their uniforms. I saw a couple of people
entering the main hall in a red carpet.
A soft music is playing from a piano and a cello, may malaking hugis araw ang
nasa itaas ng kisame at there's a pine tree like structure in every sides of the
room, making it more beautiful.
There are two floors inside, sa ibaba ay may mga bisita na at ang mga musikero
ay nasa itaas.
There's also an elegant white round stairs connecting the floors in the side
and that's where we'll go down.
"Ready, Kuya..." I breathe, pinuno ko ng hangin ang dibdib ko at mas humigpit
ang kapit sa kapatid ko.
He looks confidently good with his looks, wala akong nabakas na hiya sa kanya.
Like he was prepared at sanay na sa mga ganito.
It wasn't shocking at all, gayong laman ng parties, website and magazines ang
aming pamilya. Well, except me, bukod sa party noong birthday ni Kuya Dash ay hindi
na ako sumama sa mga party na iyon.
Basically, it was my first time being here and the event was made just for me.
I saw politicians, celebrities and even high class people in the crowd.
Pinagmamasdan ko na sila roon habang nasa itaas ako.
"Good evening everyone," The emcee started, I bit my lip and closed my eyes.
"It's alright, Zidney-tot, you'll get used to it..." Kuya whispered and I
nodded and smiled.

"Everyone please give a round of applause for Miss Zidney

Agnieszka Sandejas!" The emcee announced and that's when the spotlight hit us both
in our place.
Nagkatinginan kami ni Kuya at kumindat sya sa akin, he mouthed fighting and he
assisted me while we walked down the stairs.
The crowds eyes were all on me, I saw how amazement filled their faces as they
stared at us, they started whispering about my comeback, and how it is possible
that I was still alive.
Mas lumakas ang palakpakan, as I was the center of their attention, hindi naman
nagpakabog ang kapatid ko na naging bulungan rin habang kasama ko sya.
"Kuya, mana kaya ako sa'yo?" I whispered. He laughed, nodding his head at me.
"Uh-huh, ako pinakakamukha mo, Zid..." Aliw nyang bulong sa akin. I smiled,
napasulyap ako sa isang tabi at nagulat nang makita 'yung artistang crush ni Kuya.
I was about to tell it to him but he already found her at nakita kong sumeryoso
ang mukha niya ng magtagpo ang mga mata nila kaya hindi na ako umimik roon.
The spotlight followed us as we walked to the stage designed majestically
gorgeous. I saw the screen flashing a photo of a crown with my name below it and I
smiled.
Talagang pinaghandaan nila! I can't help but to be thankful of that, in those
years, they never failed showing me their love and now that I am seeing their
efforts about this event ay mas lalo akong napamahal sa pamilya ko.
We reached the stage and I immediately went and hugged my loving parents.
My Dad was wearing a black tuxedo and my mom is wearing a black gown.
"Thank you..." I whispered and kissed them both, inalalayan muli ako ng Kuya ko
patayo at inihatid ako sa isang kulay puting sofa roon sa gitna ng stage.
I saw my brothers in the stage, looking dominant and sinfully handsome. I saw
how girls are ogling over them but sorry, meron na silang mga asawa.
I saw Ate Reah and Ate Thallia on the other side of the stage, looking gorgeous
with their gowns. They waved at me and I smiled, waving back. Beside them were the
kids, mas tumamis ang ngiti ko ng makita ang baby Clyte ko na kinakagat ang daliri
nya roon kaya napailing ako.
"Good evening, everyone..." My Kuya Zeijan's voice echoed the room, natahimik
ang lahat.
"It was years ago when we lost our youngest, Zidney because of a car
accident.." Aniya. I swallowed as I am hearing that, it was still fresh.
"But three years ago, we finally found her unexpectedly. It took us a long time
to see her so we kept it a secret to all about her, for her safety and welfare..."
Aniya.
"It was hard for us when we lost her but it was harder when we found out that
she's alive but we didn't know about it..." Tumikhim sya at humugot ng hininga.
My heart melted, gustong-gusto kong yakapin ang mga kapatid ko dahil roon. They
were my heroes, my princes.
"We lost track for her in years as she grow up and that was the hardest,
because we weren't there when she needed us the most..." Aniya na nagpatahimik sa
lahat.
"But after all the hardships, we finally found our long lost princess..." He
smiled genuinely and stared at me.
"And now, let me formally introduced the Sandejas' one and only heiress,
everyone," Aniya.
"Zidney Agnieszka Sandejas..." I rose from my seat. Mas lumakas ang palakpakan
at hindi pa rin ako makapaniwala habang nakatingin sa mga taong iyon.
Kuya Dash guided me towards the middle and I almost closed my eyes with the
camera flashes.
He gave me the stage, kaagad akong tumikhim at nakagat ang labi ko.

"Good evening," My cold voice echoed. Natahimik ang lahat,

ang mga camera ay patuloy pa rin pero hindi ko na iyon inalintana.
"First of all, I wanted to thank everyone of you sincerely for making it to our
event tonight..." I said, scanning the crowd.
 "This isn't possible without all of you and thank you..." I said, they clapped
their hands again. I smiled softly at that.
"I actually don't know what to say..." I chuckled softly and they laughed with
that. "It's my first time speaking with a lot of people so I was kinda nervous,"
"But give me the opportunity to thank those people who were with me in my
toughest and hardest times..." I breathe and closed my eyes.
I opened my eyes and my smile faded when I saw a familiar midnight black eyes
from the crowd, staring intently at me. I saw how shock he is as he stared at me.
His mouth slightly parted, his disheveled hair were on the right place, I
noticed his beard disappeared. He looks clean with no facial hair, his jaw
emphasizing more as he clenched it.
He looks years younger his age with that look.
How can you still sleep soundly after what you did, asshole? I wanted to laugh
with sarcasm.
But worthless people doesn't deserve any of my time. I withdraw my stare from
him and took a glance at my family.
This is my treasure.
"To my Mom and Dad..." I said sweetly and smiled at my loving parents.
"Thank you, Mommy and Daddy..." I said. "I love you very much for everything,
for being with me in my weakest parts..."
I saw how my Mom tried stopping her tears but ended up shedding tears, my Dad
smiled at me, nodding and hid his tears but I know better.
"I love you, anak..." They mouthed and my heart thumped.
"And of course to my loving sisters and brothers," I took a glance at them. Ate
Thallia gave me a finger heart, even Ate Reah blow a kiss kaya napatawa ako.
My baby Clyte smiled cheekily when she saw me. She clapped her hands and I
coudn't help but to giggle at that.
"To my loving and handsome brothers..." Nagsitayuan ang tatlo kaya napahiyaw
ang mga tao. Nailing ako sa karisma nila, kahit may mga anak na hindi papatalo.
"Come here, Kuyas..." I called them kaya lumapit silang tatlo sa akin. "These
people gave me everything, their love, support, patience..."
Kuya Dash put his hand on my shoulder and kissed my head.
"I wanted to thank them for the love, for being my heroes, my knights, my
princes..." I said sweetly.
"I love you very much, Kuya Dash, Kuya Zeij and my Kuya Iñigo..." I said. My
parents joined us in the middle as the waiter gave us each a glass of champagne.
"To the Sandejas one and only princess..." My Dad raised his glass as we raised
ours too.
"To the Sandejas family, everyone!" Kuya Iñigo said and we clicked our glasses
and drink it infront of the crowd.
Kaagad akong kinausap nang mga tao nang makababa ako sa stage. My Dad was
beside me all the time, assisting me in talking to those people.
"You're an Architect, right, Miss Sandejas?" A man just years older than me
asked.
"Yes..." I nodded.
"Oh!" Gulat nitong sabi at napatingin sa Daddy ko. "Napakaswerte mo sa mga anak
mo, Mr. Sandejas!"

My Dad chuckled and nodded.

"Of course I am, I am lucky with my kids and my wife." Aniya.
"Then, can we get you as an architect for our new project, Miss Sandejas?" Ani
nito sa akin.
I raised my brow, smiling at him.
"I've got the highest fee, can you do it?" I joked kaya natawa ito at
pumalakpak.
"God, I like you already!" He said, amused at nakita kong pumirmi ang labi ni
Daddy.
 I bit my lip, chuckled awkwardly and spoke.
"Uhm, excuse us first..." Sabi ko at hinila si Dad na nag-ngingitngit na.
"Calm down, Dad..." I chuckled. He raised his brow and stared at me strictly.
"H'wag mong tatanggapin ang offer ng lalaking 'yun, Zidney, sinasabi ko sa'yo."
Aniya. Napatawa ako, kumapit ako sa braso nito at tumango.
"It's work, Dad..." Sabi ko. "Sayang ang kita."
"What? Kahit h'wag ka na magtrabaho, kami ang bahala sa'yo..." Aniyang
nakasimangot kaya napailing ako.
"Parehas talaga kayo nila Kuya..." Sabi ko.
I saw my Kuya Iñigo with Ate Thallia and the kids in the buffet table, sina
Kuya Dash at Ate Reah naman ay nakikipag-usap roon sa mga tao kasama ang mga bata.
Ate Reah was carrying my daughter who's playing with her hair.
My forehead creased, where's Kuya Zeijan?
"You're here, Stevan!" I stopped when I heard that, muli akong napabaling sa
harap at nagulat nang makita kung sino ang mga narito.
"Good evening, Jer..." My forehead creased when I saw Stevan Valderama infront
of us.
Hindi ko na napansing napadpad kami rito!
"Good evening, I'm glad you all made it here tonight..." Ani Dad. From that
man, I shifted my gaze and saw his family here.
I saw Stella Valderama staring at me with her pale face. Hindi ito nagsasalita
at nakatingin lang sa akin, beside her is her children. Darius, Ate Gwy and that
man.
Hindi ako umimik roon at nanatiling nakatingin lang sa kanila. My Dad is
talking to Stevan Valderama who's been slightly awkward.
I saw their pales faces and parted mouths and I remained looking at them
blankly.
I saw how that man's eyes are glued to me, they were glistening, nabakas ko ang
kung anong emosyon sa mga mata nya habang nakatingin sa akin. His eyes are as if
they were begging, nakita ko rin ang hiya roon.
"Anyway, Stevan, this is my daughter, Zidney..." Pakilala sa akin ni Dad.
From Thorn, my eyes shifted to Mr. Valderama.
"Zidney, this is Mr. Valderama, business partner ko..." Ani Dad. I stared at
Mr. Valderama and I saw how he avoided eye contact.
"N-Nice meeting you, Ms. Sandejas..." He said, extending his hand.
"Nice meeting you too, Mr. Valderama..." I said and accepted his hand.
"Princess, this is Stella, Stevan's wife..." Aniya.
Sa pagsulyap ko ay nakita ko ang gulat sa mga mata ni Stella. She cleared her
throat, her face still pale as she looked at me.
"A-Ang ganda mo, hija..." Mrs. Valderama said. I did not say anything, she
smiled at me and I remained looking at her.
Her smile faded when she saw me having no reaction at all. Tumikhim sya at
maliit na ngumiti.
"And this is their children, Gwyneth, Darius and Thorn..." Ani Dad.
I took a glance at Darius, he smiled at me, I nodded at him. Nang sumulyap
naman ako kay Ate Gwy ay kaagad na kumalabog ang dibdib ko.
She was teary eyed, I saw how her eyes glisten in tears and I was starled when
she ran towards me and hugged me.
"Scira..." She murmured. I did not say anything, lahat sila ay nakatingin lang
sa akin at sa kanyang nakayakap lang sa akin habang umiiyak.
My eyes stung a little, I wanted to hug her back but I did not lift my arms,
instead, I remained motionless.
"Gwy..." Kuya Ark said.
I saw how Thorn's eyes reflected pain and despair if I was seeing it right.
Kuya Ark slowly pulled Ate Gwy away from me. I did not say anything, nakita
kong naguguluhan si Dad sa akto ni Ate Gwy.
"Did you know her, Zid?" My Dad asked me curiously.
Kuya Ark pulled the crying wife for a hug and took a glance at me. Lahat sila
ay pinagmasdan ako para sa sagot at kaagad akong tumikhim.
 I deprived them from seeing any emotion from my eyes as I stared coldly at
them.
"No..." I answered.
"S-Sorry about my daughter, Ms. Sandejas..." Ani ni Mrs. Valderama at
alanganing ngumiti.
"S-She just remembered someone..." Aniya.
"Excuse us," Ani Kuya Ark bago inakay ang asawang lumuluha.
"Anyway," Mr. Valderama tried lifting the mood. "She's pregnant so, she's kinda
emotional..." Aniya.
"Oh, I see..." My Dad smiled. My heart ache, gusto kong kausapin si Ate Gwy but
I chose not to.
This is the only thing that can make me strong. If depriving anyone to see my
emotion is the only key then I will just to be strong. Because I know, showing
people your feelings is like giving them the opportunity to hurt and break you.
Just like what I did years ago. I let these people see everything in me and
they broke me.
"This...is my son, Ms. Sandejas." Ani Mr. Valderama.
Sumulyap ako sa lalaking tinutukoy nya at pinakiramdaman ang puso ko. I felt
nothing but rage as I stared at him.
"This is Thorn, my youngest, he's a doctor..." Ani nito. Thorn bit his lip and
tried smiling at me but it was something more.
I saw how sadness reflected on his black eyes, like skies deprived of having
bright stars. He lowered his head, his jaw clenched as he tried to relax.
"Scira..." He said my name like it was the only thing he knew.
The sharp pain pierced my heart. I did not say anything at first, I remained
staring at him and noticed everything about him.
The sadness flowed through my veins and deadened my mind. It was a poison to my
spirit, dulling me to kill off my other emotions until it was the only one that
remained.
I still remembered how he abandoned me, alone in the dark. Like a lost puppy in
the streets, begging anyone to just take me. To felt love just for a while.
I remembered the love I gave but set aside and thrown away when not needed
anymore.
The sharp words and broken promises that destroyed everything in me. I
remembered how he lit a light and let it lose it shine.
When he planted a flower inside my heart, I thought he'd water it too... But he
just left and it withered through time and died.
Now, who gave him the right to feel and look sad and in pain as he stared at
me?
His mouth parted, wanting to say something but I spoke.
"Nice meeting you, Doc..." I said, bitterly cold and humid.

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Kabanata 17

Kabanata 17
"If you'll excuse us..." My Dad finally spoke after the long silence.
Kaagad na tumikhim si Mr. Valderama, Darius bit his lip and I saw Thorn lowered
his head and put his hand on his pocket.
"Nice meeting you all..." I said in finality as I withdraw my stare from them.
I took a glance at him and saw him staring at me with those gloomy eyes again.
Tumalikod ako, my Dad held my arm softly habang naglalakad kami palayo.
I managed to smile at those people who greeted me on my way to my brothers.
Dad was silent beside me, nang nginitian ko sya ay bigla syang nagtanong sa
akin.
"Do you know them, Zidney?" My Dad suddenly asked.
 Nilingon ko sya at pagkatapos ay umiling.
"No..." I answered him, his forehead creased at me.
"But why are they calling you Scira?" He asked. "That's the name you had when
you were gone, right?"
"Yup," I answered him, sumulyap ako sa mga tao roon at nagsalita. "Maybe a
coincidence? We really don't know, it was my first time seeing that family..."
Napatango si Dad, still confused of what happened. Hindi sya umimik at ngumiti
lang sa akin.
"Okay, if you say so..." Aniya. I smiled and nodded, inalalayan nya ako palakad
at kaagad kong dinaluhan ang mga kapatid ko sa pagkain.
Clyte stayed with her yaya, nakatulog na raw ito kaya naroon na sa kwarto sa
itaas. We ate food and I noticed my Kuya Zeijan's absence.
"Where's Kuya Zeij?" I asked Kuya Iñigo who was feeding Crest.
Nag-angat ng tingin sa akin si Kuya. Wearing his black tuxedo, I can't help but
smile, father material talaga ang Kuya, o!
"Where is he? I don't know..." Ani Kuya at umiling. Napalabi ako, bumaling ako
kay Kuya Dash pero nagkibit-balikat lang sya kaya napanguso ako.
Where possibly he could be?
"Kumain na ba ang baby ko?" I asked Kuya Dash and he nodded at me.
"Yup, she ate with Kaia, ayun nung nabusog at nakapaglaro nakatulog kasama ni
Macky..." Aniya.
I smiled and drink my wine, muli akong sumulyap sa paligid at natigil nang
makita ang ang mga matang nakatingin sa akin.
His eyes are still on me, tila natatakot kumurap at mawala ako kaya kumunot ang
noo ko.
What's his problem anyway? I hope I won't see them again after this.
Iniiwas ko nalang ang tingin ko sa kanya at muling bumaling sa pagkain ko.
The party went on and on and it was fun, I have talked to a lot of people I
haven't seen before. I saw different personalities everywhere and they greeted me
with smile on their faces.
Nang nag-aanounce ng sayawan sa gitna ay kaagad akong isinayaw ni Daddy. I was
giggling as I danced with him, who would have thought I'll get to dance with him?
I asked for a family dati pero ngayong mayroon na ako ay hindi pa rin ako
makapaniwala. It was magical, knowing that there's a family waiting for me to come
back kahit noon pa man.
I also danced with my Kuya Dash and Kuya Iñigo, men I didn't even know also
want a dance with me at pahirapan pang napapapayag ang mga lalaki sa buhay ko para
lang maisayaw ako.
I was tired the moment na naubos na ang kasayaw ko. Naupo ako pabalik sa upuan
ko at hinawi ang buhok ko.
Nakakapagod rin pala 'no? Mas masaya pa ring humiga at matulala kung saan, it
was somehow tiring to socialize.

My brothers are beside me, drinking their wines, mukhang

napagod sa kakataboy ng lalaki kaya natawa ako sa kanila.
My sisters are upstairs, nakatulog na kasi ang mga bata kaya sila ang
nagbantay. My Mom and Dad are also with them, pagod na kasi ang Mommy.
Naiwan lang kaming tatlo rito para daluhan ang mga bisita at para na rin mang-
away at magtaboy ng lalaki na aaligid sa akin.
They didn't even changed a bit, still protective as ever.
Napatungo ako at sinilip ang heels ko, mukhang may paltos na ata ako, ilang
beses rin akong natipalok dahil sa mga kasayaw ko and I'd been walking for a long
time now so...
I stopped when I saw a black leather shoes infront of me, kaagad akong nag-
angat ng tingin at natigilan ng makita kung sino ang nasa harapan.
Infront of me is the man I've been wishing not to see again, my forehead
creased at him.
 "Can I..." He bit his lip and stared at me, tila nagtatanya. "C-Can I dance
with you?" He asked.
Hindi ako nakapagsalita roon, kaagad akong napatingin sa dalawang kapatid ko at
nakitang nakabusangot ang mukha nilang dalawa.
There, good, hindi nila ako papayagan...
I took a glance at Thorn as he nervously wait for my brother's response at
akmang magsasalita para sabihing hindi ako pinayagan ng dalawa ng magsalita si Kuya
Iñigo.
"Pati ba naman ikaw?" He asked. I saw Thorn stood straight, taking a glance at
me and nodded.
"K-Kung pwede lang naman..." Aniya. "Kahit... Saglit lang, if you permits..."
I almost rolled my eyes, binasa ko nalang ang labi ko at nakiantay rin ng sagot
sa kapatid ko. If I know, he won't allow him to dance with--
"Okay, swerte mo, kilala kita..." My mouth almost parted when Kuya answered.
What?!
I saw how his eyes brightened, napalingon sya sa akin at kaagad na sumilay ang
maliit na ngiti sa labi.
Damn, bakit naman ngayon ka pumayag, huh, Kuya?!
"He's the last dance, princess..." Aniya sa akin. "Wala ng kasunod yan, okay?"
Hindi na ako nakaimik, I wanted to curse or even pulled my brother's hair
because of it. Kanina galit na galit sa gustong makisayaw tapos ngayong dito naman
ay pumayag?!
"Take care of the princess, Thorn..." Ani Kuya Dash. "Kapag 'yan natipalok,
tusukin kita nito." Pinakita nya ang tinidor kaya nangiwi ako.
"I will..." He smiled a little.
"Sige, sumayaw na kayo..." Ani Kuya Iñigo at nang sumulyap muli ako kay Thorn
ay nakalahad ang kamay nya sa akin.
"Can I?" Nagtatanyang tanong nya at doon ko na tinanggap ang nakalahad nyang
kamay.
I suddenly felt uneasy with the touch of his hand on mine, I wanted to go and
never touched his hand again but I stayed casual.
I stood gracefully from my seat, sya naman ay nanatiling nakaalalay sa akin
habang naglalakad papunta sa gitna.
He was wearing a black three-piece tuxedo and a bow tie, his disheveled hair is
just on the right place, it's still new to me seeing him without his beard so I was
kinda adjusting with his look.
His signature glasses was still on, his jaw clenched as he held my arm softly
towards the crowd.
It was actually my first time seeing him without his facial hair in person and
he looks younger and more of a head-turner. I got to see his angled jaw and that
small dimple on his cheek whenever he smiles na natatakpan ng manipis na facial
hair nya noon.

We settled ourselves in the middle of the crowd, eyes are

all on us, marahan nya akong binitawan at umayos ako ng tayo.
He cleared his throat, sa muling pagsulyap ko sa kanya ay nakita ko ang kanyang
malamlam na mga mata habang nakatingin sa akin.
"C-Can I touch you?" He said in a soft voice.
I gave him a dull look, hindi ako nagsalita, I put my hands on his shoulder as
he put his hand softly on my waist.
Nakita ko ang paglunok nya, I did not give a comment. We started swaying with
the soft music at walang mga salitang namutawi sa labi naming dalawa.
Deep breaths and broken hearts. That's what I've been hearing, I closed my eyes
and lowered my head while he remained holding my waist softly.
Naramdaman ko ang paghigpit ng hawak nya sa baywang ko. I can feel his stares
but I did not look at him.
"S-Scira..." I heard his broken voice.
 "That isn't me..." Sagot ko, nag-angat ako ng tingin and I was starled when I
saw his bloodshot eyes. "I am not Scira if you're going to ask me that."
"P-Please..." He whispered. "C-Can I talk to you?"
"We were talking now, Mr. Valderama..." I answered him with my stoic
expression.
Pain registered on his eyes, nakita ko ang pag-iwas nya ng tingin nang may
malaglag na butil sa kanyang mata.
My forehead creased, my stomach clenched but my heart remained untouchable and
cold.
"If you're going to insist that I am Scira, whoever is that then we're done
talking." I said.
Mabilis syang sumulyap sa akin. He shook his head, nakita ko ang pamumula ng
mata nya at mas humigpit ang hawak nya sa akin.
"No..." Iling nya. "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, no..." He said as if he was scared
I'll let go of his grip on my waist.
"Please, stay..." He breathe. He pulled me closer to his body and my eyes widen
when he pulled me by my waist and wrapped his arms on my back.
I froze, gumalaw ako mula sa yakap nya pero pinirmi nya ako at napasinghap ako
ng bumaba ang ulo nya sa balikat ko.
"What do you think you're--"
"P-Please..." He whispered, his voice trembling. "K-Kahit saglit lang, I'm
begging you, please..."
"I-I missed you so much, please..." He begged.
Hindi ako nakagalaw. Nakuyom ko ang kamay ko, my body started trembling with
his touch at nang mapansing nangingilid na ang luha ko ay mabilis ko syang
itinulak.
He looks taken aback, nakita ko ang gulat sa mga mata nya sa ginawa ko and I
stared at him coldly, my jaw clenching.
"You don't have a right to touch me, Mr. Valderama." I said hardly. "Hindi kita
kilala at wala akong panahon kilalanin ka pa."
"S-Scira... H'wag ka naman ganyan..." He whispered, shaking his head. "L-Let's
talk--"
"I am not Scira..." Malamig kong sabi. "I will never be her..."
Tumalikod ako mula sa kanya, I walked out from the crowd and he ran after me.
He called me but I walked faster, dire-diretso lang ang lakad ko.
Wala kang karapatang harapin pa ako, you left me remember? You fucking asshole,
wala kang karapatang iyakan ako. Wala kang karapatang makiusap pagkatapos mo akong
iwan ng ganoon lang.
What am I, a fucking animal you'll just leave?
Nag-ngingitngit sa galit ang puso ko, my stomach clenched, gusto ko syang
sampalin pero hindi sya karapat-dapat sa oras ko.

I found myself in an empty hallway, ang ingay ay nanatiling

naroon sa loob. I stood straight, naglakad ako patungo sa walang taong lugar na
'yun at mapait na napangiti.
I heard footsteps at hindi ko ito pinansin.
"Scira..." He said, hindi ko sya nilingon at pinagpatuloy ang paglalakad.
I gasped when I felt a grip on my arm, mabilis akong napalingon at pumirmi ang
labi ko ng makita sya sa harapan ko.
He was towering me, his grip's soft but not wanting to let go of me.
"What?" I spatted out.
"Let's talk, please..." Aniya. "K-Kahit saglit lang..."
"Pwede ba, Mr. Valderama..." I breathe. "First of all, I don't know you..."
"Five minutes..." Pakiusap nya, hawak pa rin ang braso ko.
His eyes screams grief, still bloodshot from the fake tears he'd shed.
"I don't have anything to do with you." Mariin kong sabi. "Stop following me
around!"
 "S-Scira..." He shook his head. "I'm begging, please, give me a minute..."
"Can't you not understand o sadyang tanga ka lang talaga?" Mariing sabi ko.
"S-Scira..." He murmured, hurt.
"I'm not that fucking Scira for pete's sake!" My voice raised. "My name's
Zidney!"
I pulled my arm from his grip harshly, I threw him a sharp, cold look as he
look at me with those gloomy eyes.
"I don't want to see you again, Mr. Valderama. Just looking at you disgusts
me." Mariing sabi ko.
Tumalikod ako, leaving him with his bloodshot eyes and unshed fake tears. With
a brave heart, I turned my back against him and walked out.
Look what you've turned me into, Thorn.
Wounds may heal over time but the scars it left don't fade...
I hope I'll never get to see you again for it might only bring the memories
back.
I stopped when I heard the alarm ringing, the place was suddenly surrounded by
red warning lights.
My breathe hitched at that, kaagad kong ipinalibot ang tingin ko at kumalabog
ang dibdib ko.
I heard a gunshot, my ear started ringing loudly. Naipikit ko ang mata ko at
napaatras.
My hands are cold, my body's numb. My head started pounding and my breath
hitched.
Sunod-sunod na putok na baril ang narinig ko, I tried closing my eyes to relax
but it was hard. I heard faint screams and a memory flashed on my mind.
The red lights turned to a house and I was hiding in a small, dark cabinet,
seeing my parents with guns on their heads.
Napaatras ako at napahawak sa pader, I wanted to scream but no words came out
from my mouth.
I saw how that man shoot my parents who only tried to protect me.
I put my hands in both of my ears to stop the sound of the gunshots. My tears
started falling, napadausdos ako sa gilid ng pasilyo habang nanginginig.
"P-Please... Stop..." I whispered, trembling.
"Please... Please..." I begged.
I opened my eyes and I saw in my blurry vision how a man ran closer.
"S-Scira..." I closed my eyes, ibinaon ko ang mukha ko sa tuhod ko at
suminghap.
"P-Please, let it stop..." I whispered as the gunshots continued.

"Shit..." He cursed, kaagad nyang hinanap ang tingin ko at

nakita ko ang panic sa mga mata nya.
"Look at me..." Aniya. I shook my head and tried closing my eyes again but he
held my arm and tried shaking me softly.
"You'll be safe..." Aniya. "Come on, calm down..."
"S-Stop..." I whispered, my hand trembled hard and I was starled when he held
both of it.
"Look at me, please..." He whispered. Nanginginig ako sa takot at patuloy sa
pag-alpas ang luha ko.
Ayoko, ayoko nang dumepende sa'yo...
"N-No..." I avoided his gaze and with another sound of gunshot ay napatalon ako
at mas nanginig.
"Sshh, please, trust me..." Aniya at sinasapo ang mga kamay ko. "Just this
once... Please..."
I opened my eyes and saw his soft ones. Nang mahanap ang mga mata ko ay
malumanay syang nagsalita.
"I'll keep you safe, okay?" Marahang sabi nya. "Come on, I won't let you
hurt..."
 Hindi ako sumagot roon, patuloy pa rin sa pag-alpas ang luha sa mga mata ko at
nanginginig pa rin ako sa takot.
He held my arm and I gasped when he hugged me. Napapikit ako ng tumama ako sa
dibdib nya at mas binalot nya ako ng yakap.
I heard his fast hearbeat, mabilis syang humiwalay sa akin at inalalayan akong
patayo. He removed his coat and put it on my shoulder as he guided me outside the
empty hall.
Mas lumakas ang sigawan, napaatras ako nang tamaan kami ng nagtatakbuhang tao
palabas.
"Fuck, watch out!" Mabilis akong tinakpan ni Thorn at kaagad na hinawakan ang
balikat ko.
The alarm is still ringing, mas malakas na ito kaya nagpapanic na rin ako. My
sweat started dripping, paano kapag nakapasok ang mga tao rito sa itaas? Paano
kapag nabaril kami rito?
"Sa parking daw galing!" Sigaw nung isa. Mas nakagulo, halos nagkakagitgitan na
ang mga tao at naiipit na kami.
Thorn's grip tightened, halos isubsob na nya ako sa dibdib nya para hindi
tamaan. Hinawakan ko ang dress shirt nya at nakita ko ang pagsulyap nya sa akin.
"It'll be alright, okay..." Aniya. "I won't leave you..."
Really?
Pain struck on my chest, I wanted to push him away from the lies escaping from
his lips but I was too weak to even move. Alam kong mas magpapanic ako kapag lumayo
ako at nakisalamuha sa mga nagkakagulong mga tao para lang makalabas.
"Damn..." I jumped when someone pushed us, napaatras ako at napadaing at
napamura si Thorn at inilayo ako.
I closed my trembling hands, I closed my eyes tightly, trying to catch my
breath.
Calm down, Zid... You will be fine...
I whispered to my self, I remembered what my psychiatrist said, think of the
good things... Think of something positive...
I was still shaking in fear as we got along the crowd who was existing the
venue. Nang makalabas ng maayos ay tsaka lang ako napahugot ng malalim na hininga.
"Scira..." He held my shoulders and stared at me.
"Come on, breathe in, breathe out..." Marahang sabi nya. I clutched my chest,
trying to catch my breath.
"Fuck..." He cursed, nakita ko ang nagulong buhok nya at ang takot sa mga mata
nya. "Ayos ka lang ba? Should we go to the hospital?"
"N-No..." I answered.
"Are you hurt? Saan banda? May sug--" I screamed in shock when someone came and
punched him infront of me.
My eyes widen, napaatras ako at napasigaw ang mga tao sa biglang pagdamba ng
kung sino kay Thorn palayo sa akin.
"Saan mo dinala ang kapatid ko?! You fucking asshole!" My mouth parted when I
saw Kuya Iñigo punching Thorn.
"K-Kuya!" I screamed in shock.
"Gago ka! Hinayaan ko sa'yo ang kapatid ko and you--"
"Kuya! Stop! Wala syang ginawa!" I screamed, panicking.
He remained punching Thorn. He grabbed him on his collar and pushed him to the
wall.
"Kuya!" Sigaw ko, gusto ko na sanang awatin pero may humawak sa braso ko. Sa
paglingon ko ay nakita ko ang nag-aalalang si Kuya Dash habang nakatingin sa akin.
"We've been looking for you inside!" He said. "Saan ka galing? We're afraid you
were hurt--"
"Kuya! Kuya Dash, please stop him!" I said.
Nakita kong hindi lumalaban si Thorn, he was just letting my brother punched
him and I saw his bleeding lips.
"Pinapahamak mo ang kapatid ko--"
"Kuya, let him go!" Kuya Dash's voice roared. Nakita kong natigilan si Kuya
Iñigo sa akmang pagsuntok at nilingon kami.
 "The princess said enough!" He exclaimed. Nakita kong napatingin ang Kuya ko sa
akin.
I shook my head, my tears are in the verge of falling again at nakita ko kung
paano lumambot ang mata ng kapatid ko roon.
"Princess..." Bigla nyang binitawan si Thorn na nanatiling nakatayo roon at
malungkot na nakatingin lang sa akin.
"Wala syang ginawa..." I said and stared at my brother. "Let him go,"
Nakita ko ang pagtango ni Kuya, he took a step back, frustrated na sinuklay nya
ang buhok at humugot ng hininga.
I saw Thorn's bleeding lips, he remained staring at me with those sad, dark
eyes. Kaagad akong nag-iwas ng tingin sa kanya.
Hinawakan ni Kuya Dash ang braso ko at marahang sinuri kung may sugat ako at
umiling lang ako sa kanya. He heaved a deep sigh, maya-maya'y nasa tabi ko na si
Kuya Iñigo na mabilis akong inalalayan at hinalikan ang noo ko.
"Ayos ka lang?" Aniya. I nodded, nakita ko ang pag-igting ng panga ng kapatid
ko at tumango sa akin.
"S-Si Clyte?" I asked him, worried about my baby.
"Your daughter's fine, Zid..." Ani Kuya. "She's in the car..."
Nagulat ako sa biglang pagsabi nya noon, wala sa sariling napasulyap ako kay
Thorn at nakita ko kung paano umawang ang labi nya at nakita ko ang pagkislap ng
mata nya sa luha.
Hinanap nya ang mata ko at nang magtagpo ang mga mata namin ay mabilis akong
nag-iwas ng tingin ay sumama sa mga kapatid ko.

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Kabanata 18

Kabanata 18
"My, play?" A soft smile escaped my lips when my daughter crawled on my lap.
"Hmm, what do you wanna play, baby?" I asked her. Her brown eyes twinkled,
nakita kong sumulyap sya sa mga laruan na nasa gilid at itinuro iyon.
"Bie! Barbie!" She exclaimed. I chuckled at that and caress her hair.
"Okay, Clyte, but give Mommy a kiss first?" She jumped and I lowered my face. I
laughed when she gave me a kiss along with a kissing sound.
"Mwuah! Me loves My!" My heart thumped, kaagad kong pinaulanan ng halik ang
anak ko at napahagikhik sya roon at tumawa.
"My!" She exclaimed.
"What, huh..." I teased. I tickled her, she screamed in glee and reached me.
"My! No! No!" Iling nya. Her blushing cheeks reddened more, parang
pinapagalitan ako kaya napatawa ako.
"Galit ka na ngayon kay Mommy?" I asked. She giggled, napatawa ako ng abutin
nya ang pisngi ko at tumawa.
"My, pretty!" Aniya.
"Oh, my baby's pretty too..." I chuckled. "Mana ka kay Mommy, if pretty si
Mommy, syempre mana si baby!"
"Pretty ako?" Humawak sya sa magkabilang pisngi at ipinikit-pikit ang mga mata
nya.
"Of course you are!" I cheered. "Ang cute cute mo talaga, kiss nga!" I kissed
her cheek, pinanggigilan ko ito kaya mas humagikhik sya at yumakap sa leeg ko.
"Lurv you, My!" She cheered.
"I love you too, Clyte!" I kissed her neck and hugged her.
Ako na ang kumuha ng mga barbies nyang nakaupo sa sofa at inilagay sa kama. She
played with her dolls, natatawa ako habang pinapakinggan syang binibigyan ng boses
ang mga laruan.
She was murmuring words, ang iba'y naiintindihan ko but most of them are ay
hindi ko na magets.
 I was combing her black hair, inabot ko ang tali nya sa may drawer sa side
table ko para matalian sya.
I put her hair in pig tails, nang matapos ako ay nakipaglaro ako sa kanya at
kinuhaan sya ng litrato.
I changed my wallpaper to her picture, kagat-kagat nya ang daliri nya roon at
nakangiting nakatingin sa camera.
She was really a cutey, gustong-gusto ko syang panggigilan at gawing keychain!
I saw her yawning, nang makitang pumipikit-pikit na sya ay itinabi ko ang mga
laruan nya.
"Is my baby sleepy?" I asked her. Tumango sya sa akin gamit ang mapupungay na
mga mata.
She yawned again and lifted her small hands kaya kaagad ko syang binuhat. She
settled herself on my neck, I can still hear her yawning.
"Sleep now, baby..." I whispered.
"My, sing me a song..." Bulong nya. I nodded, caressed her back and kissed her
hand.
"What song do you want Mommy to sing?" I asked.
"Twinkle?" She whispered back.
I smiled, nodding my head as I sway her slowly to sleep.
"Twinkle twinkle little star," I whispered.
"How I wonder what you are?
Up above the world so high,
Like a diamond in the sky...
Twinkle, twinkle little star..."
I closed my eyes when I heard her breathing slowly settling. I hummed more,
sway her slowly and when I felt her head fell on my neck ay nangiti ako.

My baby's asleep now?

Ilang sandali pa ay marahang lumuhod ako sa kama, I slowly fixed her pink
pillows at nang maayos ko ay marahan ko syang ibinaba roon.
I saw her lips pouted when she moved, kaagad ko namang hinawakan ang pisngi nya
at marahang hinawi ang buhok nya sa kanyang mukha.
"I love you, anak..." I whispered. "Dito ka lang sa tabi ni Mommy, hmm?" She
moved a little, I moved closer to her and hugged her softly, wrapping her with my
arms.
I slept almost half an hour with my daughter beside me hugging me all the time.
Nagising lang ako nang makaramdam ng gutom at tumayo mula sa pagkakahiga.
My nightmared didn't visited me this time and I coudn't get any thankful with
that.
I fixed Clyte, iniayos ko ang kumot nya at inabot ang teddy bear at pinayakap
sa kanya. She changed her position to the other side of the bed and hummed softly.
I chuckled and kissed her head, tumayo ako mula sa kama at inayos ang shirt ko.
I left her in the room and went dowstairs and found Kuya Iñigo sitting on the sofa
with his laptop on the table.
They're here? I almost jumped in happiness, mabilis akong naglakad pababa at
tumabi sa kanya.
Napalingon sya sa akin, sipping his dark coffee, I saw him smiled at me.
"Hi, Princess..." Bati nya.
"Hi, Kuya..." I smiled. "Why are you here?" I asked, slowly going near him as
he kissed my head.
"My wife with Reah and the kids went to the mall," Aniya.
"E, si Kuya Dash? Is he here?" Ipinalibot ko ang tingin.
"Yup, he's outside. Tignan mo 'dun, baka nagrambulan nanaman sila ni Zeijan..."
I nodded, saglit akong nagpaalam sa kanya bago naglakad palabas.
My forehead creased when I saw Kuya Dash laughing hard as he look at something.
"Kuya?" I called him.
"Tangina mo, Zeijan! Gago, takbo!" He laughed again, napahawak sya sa tyan nya
at naglakad ako ng kaunti at 'yun nalang ang panlalaki ng mata ko ng makitang
hinahabol ni Skye si Kuya Zeijan!
"You asshole! I will fucking kill you!" Kuya Zeijan screamed. "Oh, fuck! Skye,
bati na tayo!"
"What's happening?" Naguguluhang sabi ko at nang makita ako ni Kuya Dash ay
natatawang pinalapit nya ako sa kanya.
"Come on, Zid..." Aniya. I walked slowly, nang maupo ako sa tabi nya ay
naguguluhang tinignan ko si Kuya Dash at tinuro si Kuya Zeij.
"Nyare?" I asked.
"Oh, shit! Aww, ayoko na! Zidney-tot! Help me!"
"Wala! Di ka tutulungan nito!" Ani Kuya Dash. Mabilis akong napalingon sa
kanya, he laughed and shook his head.
"We we're casually talking kanina then he told me that he's more handsome than
everyone else in the world na kahit daw aso hahabulin sya..." Aniya.
"Kaya ayan, pinahabol ko kay Skye..." Ngumisi sya.
"Kuya nga!" I laughed, pinalo ko sya at natatawang pinagmasdan ko si Kuya
Zeijan na umaakyat na doon sa may terrace sa second floor para di abutan ni Skye.
Bulagta si Kuya Zeijan nang patigilin na ni Kuya Dash si Skye mula sa paghabol
sa kanya. He was panting, his sweat dripping on his forehead habang nakahiga doon
sa may damuhan.
"Ang yabang mo daw kasi, Kuya..." Sermon ko sa kapatid kong parang mawawalan na
ng malay doon at nakahiga.
"What? Totoo naman talaga, I am--"

"Feeling ko Kuya, nung pinanganak ka binagyo sila Mommy..."

His lips turned to a thin, straight line. I grinned at nang akmang tatayo sya ay
bigla akong tumili at tumakbo paalis.
"You woman!" He hissed at mas natawa ako at nilingon sya.
"Panget mo, Kuya!" Sigaw ko. Kuya Dash laughed hard and pointed him, mas
bumilis naman ang takbo nito kaya sumigaw ako at nang makita ang papalabas na si
Kuya Iñigo ay mabilis kong hinila ang braso nya at nagtago sa likuran nya.
Gulat nya akong tinignan, his forehead creased in confusion kaya tinuro ko lang
si Kuya Zeij na papalapit.
"Kuya, Kuya! Itago mo ko!" I shrieked and pulled his shirt.
"Zidney-tot! Yari ka sakin!" Kuya Zeij exclaimed kaya mas tumili ako.
"Hoy, Zeijan!" Kuya Iñigo hissed at nang gusto akong abutin ni Kuya ay
tinatakpan ako ni Kuya Iñigo.
"What the heck are you doing?" Kuya hissed.
"Sabi nya, panget daw ako--"
"Totoo naman, huh?" Kuya Iñigo mocked. Sumimangot si Kuya Zeij, natawa naman
ako at nang sumulyap sa akin si Kuya Iñigo ay nag-apir kaming dalawa.
We were making fun of Kuya Zeijan as we sat and watched television in the sofa.
My baby was still sleeping, naroon din ang yaya nya para bantayan sya kaya narito
ako sa mga kapatid ko.
We were watching random movies, enjoy na enjoy ako samantalang ang Kuya Zeijan
ko ay nakatutok sa phone nya at nangingiti habang nagtetext.
"You okay?" Siniko ko sya.
"Hmm? Yup..." Aniya na nangingiti. I pouted, sinilip ko ang phone nya at
nanliit ang mata ko nang makitang nagsesend pa sya ng mga kiss emojis sa katext.
"The heck, Kuya? Seriously?" Nanliit ang mata ko.
"Oh?" Sumulyap sya akin at nang nakitang nakatingin ako sa phone nya ay mabilis
nya itong itinago sa akin.
"Oy, ano 'yan?" Kuya Dash asked. I grinned, kaagad kong inagaw ang phone ni
Kuya Zeij kaya napamura sya roon.
"Zidney!" He screamed. I laughed, mabilis kong hinagis kay Kuya Iñigo ang phone
nya at nakita kong kinulikot nila iyon ni Kuya Dash bago humalakhak ng malakas.
Maya-maya pa'y binasa ni Kuya Iñigo ang mensahe roon sa phone nang naghihimutok
na si Kuya Zeijan.
"To: Misis ko
Have you eaten yet, Misis? Kainin kita mamaya. I love you." Kuya Iñigo read his
message out loud.
My eyes widen.
"Tangina?" Kuya Zeijan cursed hardly. Nag-init ang pisngi ko, nagkatinginan
naman ang tatlo at maya-maya pa'y nasa tabi ko na si Kuya Dash at tinakpan ang
tenga ko.
"Wala kang narinig, Zidney!" Kuya Dash exclaimed.
My eyes were still wide open. Naagaw naman ni Kuya Zeijan ang phone nya kay
Kuya Iñigo na namumula na at pinipigil ang tawa.
"Gago, narinig ata ni Zidney!" Kuya Zeijan exclaimed.
Anong akala nila sa akin, walang tenga?
"Tangina nyo kasi!" Kuya Dash cursed at pilit tinatakpan ang tenga ko pero
rinig na rinig ko pa rin silang tatlo.
"What the hell, Zeij? Sino 'yun? Landi nito!" Kuya Iñigo laughed.
"Wow, Kuya Raf, huh!" Kuya Zeij hissed. "Hiyang-hiya naman ako sa inyong
dalawa!"
"Hoy!" The both exclaimed at him at nang bitiwan ni Kuya ang tenga ko ay
napakurap ako sa kanilang tatlo.
"Wala kang narinig, princess, diba?" Kuya Iñigo asked. I looked at them
weirdly, nakatitig sa akin ang tatlo at inaantay ang reaksyon ko.

"Uhm, wala?" I pretended. I saw their deep sighs, nag-

ilingan sila at tumango.
"Good, you can't be tainted, princess..." Inakbayan ako ni Kuya Zeij at inakay
ako pabalik sa sofa.
Sumunod 'yung dalawa, nang maupo kami sa sofa ay kaagad akong nagtanong.
"Who was that, Kuya?" I asked.
I saw his sweet smile, nagblush pa sya kaya ngumuso ako.
"Si Alyx, my wife..." Aniya. Tumaas ang kilay ko, my two brothers laughed hard
at pinalo pa ang sofa.
"Assumero!" They screamed at napasimangot lang si Kuya Zeij at napakamot ng
kilay.
The next morning, I was at my office, katatapos lang ng proyektong ginagawa ko
kaya medyo naging maluwang ang araw ko.
I was sipping my coffee as I stared at the buildings infront of me. It was
pleasing in the eyes, seeing the high buildings and their structures.
I always thought that my world will only revolved around our small house and
the farm, and still can't believe that there's a bigger world out there for me...
I heaved sigh, putting my hair behind my ear.
Nanatili akong nakatitig sa mga buildings roon. The skyscrapers towered above
them as great monoliths of concrete and glass.
"Ma'am?" I shifted my gaze and found my secretary on the door.
I remained staring at her, not speaking at all.
"Uhm, Ma'am, remind ko lang po ang lunch meeting nyo later..." Aniya. Ibinalik
ko ang tingin sa labas at nang magpaalam sya ay sinuklay ko ang buhok ko gamit ang
daliri ko at bumalik ng upo sa swivel.
I fixed my things, inilagay ko ang gamit ko sa pouch ko at dinala ang laptop ko
at iilang hardcopies.
I smoothened my wine red jumpsuit, I fixed my straight brownish blonde hair and
place it on my back, revealing the sexy front of my clothes.
I walked casually outside with my three inches silver heels. Nang makita ako ng
secretary ko ay nagmamadaling sumunod sya sa akin at inabot ang laptop sa kamay ko.
I let her bring that, pinindot nya ang elevator at sumunod sa akin nang mauna
akong pumasok roon. She remained silent while I stared blankly at my reflection in
the mirror.
 Sometimes, I coudn't even recognize myself as I look at myself in the mirror.
It reflects a strong and brave woman but was broken inside.
Thinking of what I've been through is too much, in my first year with my
family, it was the hardest. Sometimes, when I look at myself in the mirror, I can
see myself crying, thinking what I could have done wrong?
If I can just wash away the stains of my broken heart and tainted soul then I
will, but I coudn't, the stain will always remains and it can never be the same...
"Good noon, Architect Sandejas..." An employee bowed.
Diretso akong naglakad at diretso ang tingin, everyone is bowing their heads,
greeting me a good noon kahit wala namang maganda roon.
I suddenly noticed the different presence in the lobby, nakita ko ang kakaibang
pagtahimik roon, tho, palagi naman talagang tahimik kapag nariyan na ako.
"Sino ang ipinunta? Kanina pa r'yan nandito..." I overheard the receptionist
and the other girl saying, not noticing my presence.
"Hindi ko nga alam, baka may girlfriend? Gwapo..." Aniya. My forehead creased,
kaagad kong inilipat ang tingin at natigilan ako nang makita kung sino ang nakaupo
roon.

Sitting in the couch is that certain man I hated with even

just a sight of him. Nakita ko ang pag-ayos nya ng upo at ang biglang pagtayo ng
magtagpo ang mata namin.
I withdraw my gaze from him and stared at the two girls still gossiping about
that man.
I did not say anything and just stared at them coldly. I saw the receptionist
stared at me, nanlaki ang mata nya at nakita ko kung paano nawalan ng kulay ang
mukha nya habang nakatingin sa akin.
"Baka naman may itatanong? Parang gusto kong lapitan--"
"Then go and asked him..." I cut her off. Nakita kong napalingon sya bigla, her
mouth parted in shock, napaayos sya ng tayo at nakita ko ang pagputla ng mukha nya.
"M-Ma'am..."
"Go, sumama ka na rin sa paglabas nya..." I told her stiffly.
"A-Architect, ano po--"
"No gossips in work hours, Miss..." My cold voice said.
"P-Pero Ma'am..." Kinakabahang sabi nya. Nakita kong napatungo na ang katabi
nya at mukhang kinakabahan na rin.
"This is the first warning..." I said. "Once I caught you again for the second
time then prepare your resignations with you..."
"O-Opo..." They both nodded.
Hindi ako nagsalita, my heels made a sound as I walked away, parang may
kuliglig sa lobby sa sobrang tahimik kung hindi lang may lumapit sa akin at
nakipag-usap.
"Uhm, hi..." He said in a deep baritone. Hindi ko sya nilingon at diretsong
naglakad paalis but he ran after me.
"Uhm, can I talk to you?" Ani nito sa akin. "Are you hurt last time? May--"
"What is it, Mr. Valderama?" My brows lifted. Nakita kong natahimik sya sa akin
at nakita ko ang pagkurap nya.
He was wearing a simple black dress shirt and slacks, his hair stayed the same.
His midnight black eyes illuminating the lights as he stared at me softly.
"Uhm, Scira..." He cleared his throat. "Can I have some time with you?
May...sasabihin lang ako..."
"How many times do I have to tell you that my name's Zidney?" My brow raised.
"I-I'm sorry..." He breathe, I felt the stares the people is giving.
"Z-Zid..." He said, adjusting to my name. "Can I have a minute with you?"
"Now?" I asked. He nodded, his eyes shifting to an emotion, I saw hope in there
and I can't look at it so I shook my head.
Sumulyap ako sa pulsuhan ko, I checked the time and looked at him.
"I'm busy, Mr. Valderama..." I said.
 "Thorn..." Aniya. "My name's Thorn..."
I checked my watch again as I started getting bored. Hindi ko na sya sinagot,
muli akong tumalikod mula sa kanya pero muli syang humabol at nagsalita.
"Kahit saglit lang..." Aniya. "Please..."
"Then kindly set a schedule for the meeting, Mr. Valderama..." Sabi ko sa
kanya. Nakita ko ang gulat sa kanya roon at muling nagsalita.
"C-Can you hear my explanation?" Aniya sa mababang tono. "I swear, it won't
take long..."
"Is that too important?" I spatted out.
He shook his head, nakita kong nagbaba sya ng tingin at kinagat ang labi nya.
"Not really but I really have to--"

"Then I gotta go..." Mariing sabi ko at tinitigan sya.

"You know, Mr. Valderama, I don't waste my time to people who doesn't worth
just even a second of it..." I saw how pain registered on his eyes.
I heard gasps, nakita ko rin ang paglamlam ng mata nya sa sinabi ko at ang
paglunok nya.
"Kahit saglit lang..." Pakiusap nya ulit, hindi binibigyang pansin ang sinabi
ko.
"I don't think we'll have to talk about some important matters..." Sabi ko.
"Kasi unang-una sa lahat hindi kita kilala..."
Pinagmasdan ko sya at pinasadahan ng tingin ang itsura nya.
"And it's beyond impossible that we had something special..." I mocked and
stared at his eyes coldly. "Because I don't think a person like you is capable of
loving truthfully..."
"Z-Zid..." Nakita ko ang takot nya roon. "Let's talk, kahit saglit lang..."
"I don't have time listening to bullshits," I closed my eyes and walked again.
Nagpapanic na sumunod ang secretary ko sa akin pero hindi pa rin papatalo ang
lalaking nakakairita na 'to.
"Zid, please..." Aniya. "I'm sorry if I was too annoying but I really want to
talk to you..."
"Then set an appointment!" Nangunot ang noo ko at nilingon sya. "My time's too
expensive, Mr. Valderama and I have a meeting to attend kaya pwede ba?"
"Pagkatapos ng meeting..." Aniya na mukhang determinado. "Saan ka? I can fetch
you so we can--"
"You're annoying..." Sumimangot ako at tumalikod sa kanya.
"Zidney!" Sumunod syang muli at nang lingunin ko ang secretary ko ay
naguguluhan na rin sya sa aming dalawa.
"Don't mind him..." I told her, mabilis syang tumango at walang imik akong
sinundan.
"May driver ka ba? I can drive you--" Naiiritang nilingon ko sya at kaagad
syang umayos.
"Would you please leave me alone?" Naputol na ang pagtitimpi ko. "I hated being
followed around!"
"Sorry..." Aniya at napahawak sa batok. "I just want to offer a ride..."
"Whatever..." I rolled my eyes. "You're creeping me out..."
Naglakad ako paalis at halos mapamura pa ako nang hindi sya nagpatalo at maya-
maya'y nasa harapan ko na.
"Uhm, by the way, I want to introduce myself if you didn't know--"
"Could you please stop?" I said, irritated and cold.
Nakita kong natahimik sya roon, he bit his lip and stared at me with that
annoying sad eyes.
"S-Sabi mo di mo ako kilala, so I was just trying to introduce myself..." He
whispered.
"And so?" I exclaimed. "I don't know you and I don't have plans to even know
you..."
"People like you doesn't worth my time, okay? Ilang beses ko pa bang sasabihin
sa'yo?" I said harshly. "I don't want to see you again, you understand me?"
He lowered his head, looking like a lost boy.
I almost rolled my eyes, he looks deeply in pain but I shrugged it off. I know
how he can fake everything and making me believe it.
Just like years ago? I know he mastered the art of pretending and faking his
feelings to just play with mine.
"I'm sorry..." His voice lowered. "N-Nagbabakasakali lang naman akong makausap
ka..."
"Then stop your expectations," I said. "You're just wasting your time on me..."
"I-I heard your brother, he...he said you have a daughter..." Aniya and I
heaved a deep sigh and stared at him blanky.
"Yes, and?" I asked.
"I...I was just..." Hindi nya masabi kaya natawa na ako at inilingan sya.
"Don't tell me you were thinking you fathered my child?" Natatawang sabi ko.
Hinanap nya ang mata ko, I saw how his eyes glisten. Lumunok sya at sinubukang
hawakan ang kamay ko.
"Z-Zid... I just want to know if--"
"Goodness!" My eyes widen and I ran my fingers on my hair.
"Ni hindi nga kita kilala tapos iisipin mong ama ka ng anak ko?" I asked him,
shaking my head. "You're unbelievable!"
His eyes looks tired, downcast and lonely.
"I-I'm sorry..." He whispered again, avoiding my gaze at him. I saw how his jaw
clenched, his lips quivered as he tried blinking his tears away.
"I hope you mean that this time, Mr. Valderama..." I told him. "Cause I don't
wanna hear any lies from you again, I don't want to see you kaya h'wag ka nang
papakita sa akin..."

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Kabanata 19

Kabanata 19
"Hi, Dra..." I said softly.
"Oh, good morning, Zid! How are you?" Aniya. I smiled and nodded.
"Kinda good..." I answered. Sumandal ako sa swivel ko at pinaglaruan ang
fountain pen ko.
"Still having nightmares?" Aniya.
"Yup..." I answered comfortably. "Always, still the same dream for years."
"Are you doing what I've told you?" Aniya.
"Yes, I keep on thinking about positive things but it always slipped. Kapag
nasa trabaho ako nawawala ako sa sarili, I always gets serious and annoyed..."
Sagot ko sa kanya.
"It's getting more and more serious..." Aniya.
"Dra., my hand started shaking again last time, when I heard a gunshot."
Pagkekwento ko sa kanya.
"Then, what did you do?" Aniya.
I suddenly remembered Thorn and for what he did pero hindi ko ito sinabi kay
Dra.
"I tried to stay calm but it isn't working, my ear started ringing, tapos
nanlalabo ang paningin ko. I easily gets paranoid and scared." Sabi ko.
"I wanted to talk to you in person now, Zid but I'm in States now..." Aniya.
I sighed. Hinawi ko ang buhok ko at tumango ng kaunti.
"Too bad, I really wanna talk to you so bad..." Mahinang sabi ko, walang gana
"I'll be back soon, Zid." Ani Doctora. "Anyway, the results for your recent
tests are in the hospital."
"Can I get it?" Tanong ko sa kanya.
"Of course, nasa kasama ko iyon. May pamangkin ako na naroon ngayon, he's a
psychiatrist..." Aniya. "Iniiwan ko lang 'nung umalis ako para sakaling gusto mong
makita ay madali lang."
"Thank you..." I breathe.
"If you were curious about the results, pwede mo namang ipabasa sa Doktor
doon." Aniya.
"Okay," Sagot ko. "You'll be back soon, right?"
"Yes, Zid." Aniya. "But remember to take good care of your mental health, okay?
If possible, stay with your family more often dahil mas komportable at masaya ka
kapag kasama sila..."
"I will try, Dra." Sagot ko.
"Okay, Zid. I'll see you soon, okay?"
"See you..." Paalam ko at nang mawala na sya sa kabilang linya ay inilapag ko
ang telepono ko. Minasahe ko ang sentido at huminga ng malalim.
Relax, Zid. You're back at it again.
Sumimsim ako ng kape at napatingin sa orasan, ala-una na ng hapon kaya tumayo
ako mula sa sa swivel ko.
I walked towards the door at mukhang nagulat ang secretary ko sa biglang
paglabas ko.
"Ma'am!" Aniya at napatayo.
"Cancel all my appointments for today." Sabi ko sa kanya.
"But Ma'am, may ka-meeting po--"
"Sino bang boss mo?" I spatted out.
"P-Po?" Nagulat sya. "K-Kayo po..."
"Then do your job, cancel it." Sagot ko at iniwan sya roon bago dumiretso sa
elevator.
On my way to the hospital ay nakatitig lang ako sa daan. I was too preoccupied,
I'm nervous about my results for this examination we had.
May development naman ako kahit kaunti dati pero ganoon pa rin ang diagnosis sa
akin. Would it make any difference now?

I was diagnosed having a Post Traumatic Stress Disorder or

PTSD after the incident. Noong bumalik ako sa pamilya ko at mas lumala ang mga
nararanasan ko ay palihim akong pumunta sa psychiatrist para magpakonsulta.
I was nervous that time, thinking about psychiatrists and the hospital. Mabuti
nalang ay tinulungan ako ni Ate Thallia at sinamahan ako sa ospital.
I still didn't tell her everything, ang sinabi ko lang gusto kong magpatingin
at sinasamahan nya ako sa ospital hanggang sa makaya ko nang pumunta mag-isa.
PTSD is the more severe type of stress I had experienced years ago. What I had
that time was Acute Stress Disorder that only happens in the range of one month at
nangyari ito sa akin pero saglit lang but then, after that scene...
That scene in the bus station, my anxiety triggers more and the nightmares came
back, I easily gets frightened and I developed PTSD which takes years, ang sabi ni
Dra. Ong ay dahil sa lumagpas na ng isang buwan ang mga sintomas ko at umabot na ng
taon ay iyon ang naging diagnosis sa akin.
That maybe is the reason why I am aloof of other people, I don't want them to
see my weakness for they'll only use it to destroy me.
Maybe by defense mechanism para hindi nila maramdaman ang mga takot ko.
I have told my psychiatrist everything, for what happened from that day of my
parent's death to the moment my brother found me in the streets.
I didn't tell her names, only the events at wala akong pinaligtas na
impormasyon ni isa and she helped me a lot.
I somehow learned socializing to other people but there always comes the time
where I am easily annoyed and got mad. Mabilis mag-init ang ulo ko at kadalasa'y
pinagtataasan ng boses ang kahit sino.
I was walking in the hospital's corridor and all eyes on me, hindi ko alam kung
bakit pero hindi ko ito pinagtuunan ng pansin.
"Good afternoon, Ma'am!" The nurse smiled.
 "Can I go to Dra. Ong's clinic? I have to get my results..." Sabi ko.
"Ms. Sandejas po, tama?" Aniya. I nodded, nakita kong nagtype sya roon sa
computer bago tumango.
"Sige po, Ma'am. May Doctor po pansamantala sa clinic ni Doktora. Kunin nyo
nalang daw po ang resulta." I nodded, tumalikod ako sa kanya at naglakad patungong
elevator.
I pressed the elevator and waited to reached the floor. Nang makatapak ako sa
fifth floor ay dire-diretso lang ang lakad ko.
I walked towards her clinic's door and knocked.
"Come in..." Ani ng isang boses.
Inayos ko ang sarili, I slowly opened the door and found someone sitting on her
desk.
My forehead creased, I walked closer and he lifted his head and my eyes widen
when I saw who was it.
"Z-Zid?" He called my name, starled.
I easily got recovered from my shock, kaagad akong umayos ng tayo at nagsalita.
"Good afternoon," I cleared my throat and walked towards him na mukhang hindi
makapaniwala.
"What are you doing here?" Aniya, confusion is written on his face.
"Did Dra. Ong left my results here?" I asked. Nakita kong napasulyap sya sa
gilid at may envelope roon na kulay puti.
"This is yours?" Gulat nyang sabi. I nodded non-chalantly, gazing at him
coldly.
"Yes, any problem with that?" I asked. His parted mouth closed, he bit his lip
and I saw his jaw clenched.

"Why? I mean, why are you visiting a psychiatrist?" Aniya

sa akin na hindi pa rin makapaniwala.
"Because I'm sick? O kaya baliw ako?" I asked him, my brows lifted. "You're a
psychiatrist, Doc, If I am not mistaken, so you probably knows what patients are
doing here..."
"But..." Aniya na naguguluhan pa rin.
"Can I get my results so I can go?" I asked him. Nakita kong napatingin sya sa
envelop at nakita ko ang paglamlam ng mga mata nya.
Inabot nya ang envelop, I saw him stared at it for a while and sighed.
"What happened?" Aniya sa nag-aalalang tono. "What's your diagnosis? May--"
"That's too confidential for you to know, Doc..." I cleared my throat. "Now,
can I get it?"
Nag-aalangan pa sya, I saw how he stared at the envelope deeply at nang ilahad
ko ang kamay ko ay inabot nya sa akin iyon at napatayo.
"Dra. Ong said that if you have questions then I can--"
"I'm good, Mr. Valderama." I told him. "I'm kinda familiar with this, sa tagal
ba namang may ganito ako palagi?"
"Zid..." He murmured.
"I gotta go..." I said and turned my back at him. Lumabas ako ng clinic at
narinig ko ang yapak nyang nakasunod sa akin.
I almost rolled my eyes. What is it this time, huh? Now, he was bothered about
me, visiting a doctor?
You are one of the reasons why I was here, anyway.
"Zid..." Tawag nya. Hindi ko sya nilingon at diretso lang ang lakad ko
patungong elevator.
"Zid, please..." Aniya. "I just want to know why you're visiting--"
"I have PTSD, okay?" I told him and I saw how he stopped at that. His mouth
parted, nakita ko ang takot sa mga mata nya sa sinabi ko.
"Now, can I go? Did I answered your questions?" Tanong ko at nang nanatili
syang nakatulala roon sa akin ay tinalikuran ko na sya at tuluyan nang umalis mula
sa harapan nya.
 Nang makababa ako sa ground floor ay naglakad ako palabas ng ospital. I heard
the other elevator opened.
"Zid, wait!" Aniya. Lumingon ako and my forehead crease at him.
He was wearing a white dress shirt and slacks with his labgown and eyeglasses.
His jaw clenched as he look at me, his reddish lips slightly parting.
"Ano nanaman?" I asked him with a deadpan look.
"Uhm, I've scheduled a meeting for us to talk..." Aniya.
"Tinotoo mo talaga?" I asked.
He nodded slowly, biting his lip.
"I'm sorry, I really just want to talk." He smiled a little, his side dimple
showing.
"Hmm, then?" I crossed my arms.
"And, your secretary called, you cancelled your appointments for today..."
Aniya. He scratched his brows.
"Oh, then next time... You see, I've cancelled it for this." I lifted my
envelope.
"Then, may gagawin ka after this?" He asked hopefully. I shook my head.
"I'll go home..." I said.
"Pwede mo ba akong isingit?" Aniya sa akin.
I was about to say something but he stopped me and shook his head.
"Promise, saglit lang... This is about work..." Aniya.

I sighed, napasulyap ako sa paligid at nakitang lahat halos

ay nakatingin sa aming dalawa. Nakakakuha na kami ng maraming atensyon kaya
tumikhim ako, I don't want na may isipin sila ss aming dalawa. I hate issues.
I stared at him, inayos nya ang salamin nya at sinuklay ang buhok gamit ang
daliri nya.
"Saglit lang, understood?" I said.
"Talaga?" His eyes brighten.
"Edi kung ayaw mo, h'wag--"
"No! I like it!" He exclaimed. "Can you stay here? Ibabalik ko lang 'tong coat
ko sa opisina..." Aniya.
"Magkita nalang tayo roon..." I said and took a glance on his hopeful face. "I
have my car, Mr. Valderama..."
"I see..." Aniya at ngumuso. He nodded, nakita kong namulsa sya at tumingin sa
orasan nya.
"Let's meet at a coffee shop nearby, I'll be really fast, I promise..." He
said.
"Okay, faster..." Sabi ko at tumalikod sa kanya. I crossed my arms walked away
from him but he screamed.
"Thank you, Zid!" He exclaimed at napairap ako ss hangin at hindi sya nilingon.
I drove myself to the coffee shop he's been telling me, hindi pa man ako
nakakaupo sa upuan doon ay nakita ko na syang nagmamadaling pumasok.
Our eyes met, I saw him smiled pero bumaling lang ako sa paligid at natuwa sa
pagka-antique ng datingan ng lugar.
He sat infront of me while I remained looking around the place.
I bit my lip when I saw old sticky notes on the side of the café. I wonder what
was written in those notes.
Pumahalumbaba ako at sumulyap pa sa ceiling and it was amazing, ngayon lang ako
nakapunta rito at hindi ko akalaing ganito ito kaganda.
I felt his deep stares at me, sa paglingon ko ay nakita kong nakatitig sya sa
akin kaya umayos ako ng upo. I throw him a bored look and spoke.
"So, what is it?" I asked.
"Uhm, order muna tayo?" Aniya sa akin. My lips protruded, tumaas ang kilay ko
at sumandal sa upuan ko.
"You know, Mr. Valderama. You only asked for a little of my time." I said.
"Coffee lang..." Giit nya pa. A waiter come near us, asking us our order. Bago
pa man ako makatanggi at sabihing hindi ako oorder ay naunahan na nya ako.
Sinabi nya ang order kaya napailing ako sa kanya.
"You're too annoying, Mr. Valderama..." I said straightforwardly. "Una,
namimilit ka na kausapin ako tapos ngayong pumayag ako at kaunting oras lang ay
ganito?" Sikmat ko pero natigilan ako nang makitang nakatitig sya sa akin at
inoobserbahan ako.

"Why aren't you smiling?" He asked me.

"Why would I? Is there any reason for me to smile?" I asked him.
Nakita kong natigilan sya, I heard him sigh. I saw how his jaw clenched with
his sudden emotion and he stared at me softly.
"I...miss your smile..." He whispered.
"I missed my sincere smile too," I said bitterly. Mabilis syang nag-angat ng
mata at hinanap ang akin.
"R-Reyna ko..." My heart thumped painfully with that.
"How could you still call someone that after you left her alone in the dark
castle, huh?" I said coldly.
Nabakas ko ang kung ano sa mga mata nya at nakita kong nagbaba sya ng tingin at
pumikit ng mariin.

"S-Scira..."
"Tell me, tell me kung paano mo nasikmurang iwan nalang ako ng ganun lang?"
Mariing sabi ko. Our eyes met again and the pain on his eyes reflected mine.
"I-I'm sorry..." He whispered, a tear escaped his eyes and I coudn't look at it
so I bit my lip and did not say anything.
Iiyak ka nalang ba palagi sa harapan ko? You think that can soften me, huh?
"K-Kung hahayaan mo lang akong magpaliwanag..." Aniya at inabot ang kamay ko sa
lamesa.
"Talking to you is a waste of time..." Mahinang sabi ko at ibinaba ang kamay
ko.
"Y-You said, you didn't know me, why?" Aniya, bakas pa rin ang panibugho sa
mukha.
"Why? Because I told myself to forget every bad thing that's ever happened to
me." I said coldly and with my stoic expression.
His eyes glisten with pain and that emotion I coudn't even name. Like I've hit
something sensitive on his heart and he coudn't bear it.
"Am I a bad thing to you?" He whispered, pained.
"You're the baddest thing that ever happened to me, Thorn..." I spatted out and
stood.
"I am wishing I'd never met you..." I told him as I stared directly on his eyes
and left. Mukhang nagulat ang guard sa pagdaan ko pero mabilis akong nakalabas at
pinasibad ang sasakyan ko paalis.
I was frustrated the whole day, I found myself on Rocky's store, waiting for
him to finish his works so we can go get wasted.
"Ayos ka lang? You look stressed, Zid..." Aniya.
"I'm always stress, Rocky..." I lifted my brows.
"Pero iba ngayon 'e, parang iritadong-iritado ka..." Aniya. "Okay ka lang?"
"Hmm," I hummed. "Just let's go..." I told him.
Sumakay ako sa sasakyan nya para makapunta kami sa bar. I was wearing a body
hugging, deep red bandage dress. My cleavage was on the view, emphasizing my breast
and its round shape.
Habang papasok kami ay iniangat ko ang baba ko at hinayaan ang mga taong
titigan ako. Rocky was holding my arm, assisting me to go inside.
Kaagad na sumabog ang napakalakas na kanta pagpasok namin sa loob ng bar. I saw
smoke all around the place, the colorful disco lights giving the bar life.
I licked my red lips and stared at the crowd, they were wild, dancing with
their own free will.
 Damn, I missed bars! The last time I got here was almost months ago! Masyadong
akong nabusy at nawalan ng oras!
"Rocky! Zidney!" My lips lifted when I saw Wendell in the crowd. Kaagad nya kaming
sinalubong, nakipagkamay sya kay Rocky at hinalikan ang pisngi ko.
"Himala at napunta kayo dito..." Ani Wendell.
"Ayan o," Turo sa akin ni Rocky. "Nag-aya ang babae, stressed ata..."
"You're stressed, huh?" Ani Wendell at inabot ang baywang ko.
I chuckled and put my hand on his waist too.
"Yup, help me reduce it then..." I winked at him and he smiled at me and kissed
my cheek.
"Let's drink first, beautiful..." Aniya. Inalalayan nya ako papunta sa couch. I
saw their other friends sitting in there, kaagad nila akong binati at tumango lang
ako bago binigyang pansin ang alak na ibinigay sa akin ni Wendell.
I drinked it in one gulp, kaagad akong inabutan ni Wendell ng panibago kaya
natawa ako at nilagok din iyon.
"You wanna get wasted tonight, huh..." He whispered huskily on my ear.

"Uh-huh..." Bulong ko pabalik sa kanya. Sumandal ako sa

kanya, kaagad na pumaikot ang kamay nya sa baywang ko at hinigit ako palapit sa
kanya.
Wendell is good-looking, tall and lean. He's been my somehow friend for years
and for some times, a fling. We flirted and flirted to each other everytime I am
bored.
I sipped another drink and raised my hand.
"Cheers, guys!" I exclaimed.
"Cheers!" They raised their hands as we clicked our glasses together. I
laughed, nakita kong tumaas ang kilay ni Rocky at maya-maya'y nakikipaglandian na
sa mga boys nya kaya nailing ako.
As the night goes, unti-unti nawawala ang tao sa mga harapan namin. I saw them
dancing in the middle of the crowd, mahaharot ang naging paggalaw sa pagsabay ng
mga ilaw.
"Wendell, stop it..." I groaned when I felt Wendell's lips on my neck.
"I thought you wanna get wasted?" Bulong nya at hinalikan ang leeg ko. I tilted
my head, giving him more access to my skin.
I chuckled, crossing my legs.
"I do..." Mahinang bulong ko. I was kinda tipsy, medyo nahihilo na rin ako pero
nasa tamang wisyo pa rin.
"Then, wanna get laid?" Bulong nya at humalik na sa pisngi ko.
"Let's dance first..." Bulong ko sa kanya. He smiled naughtily at me, kaagad
syang tumayo at nang iabot nya sa akin ang kamay nya ay kaagad kong tinanggap.
He pulled me slowly to the crowd, nang mapalitan ang tugtog ay natawa ako at
kaagad na humawak sa balikat nya. He put his hand on my waist and he swayed with
me.
I danced slowly, my waist moving in a slow manner. I saw how his eyes darken,
mas humaplos sya sa baywang ko at sumabay sa akin.
I pushed him slowly, ipinadausdos ko ang kamay ko mula sa ulo ko pababa sa
katawan ko. I stared at him intently and his head clicked and watched my body moved
seductively.
"You're such a tease, Zidney..." Aniya. I grinned, I put my hands on his neck
and swayed.
"Oh, yeah?" Bulong ko. The influence of liquor is taking over my body.
"Yup..." Bulong nya at humalik sa pisngi ko.
He turned me slowly against him, my back on his chest. I grinded myself against
him, I felt his growing erection on my back.
"I can't wait to kiss every inch of your body, Zid--" I heard a scream, nabilis
akong napaayos ng tayo at lumingon at 'yun nalang ang panlalaki ng mata ko ng
makitang nakaupo na roon sa lapag si Wendell habang hawak ang panga nya.
 "You fucking asshole!" My eyes widen when I saw a man beside me, with his jaw
clenching and his dark, sharp eyes piercing against Wendell on the floor with his
bleeding lips.
"Ano bang problema mo?! You just came here, barge in and punched me!" Wendell
hissed.
Naguluhan ako roon, nakita kong nakaagaw na kami ng atensyon kaya napasulyap
ako sa lalaking 'yun.
"You are touching her!" He exclaimed. He frustatedly ran his hand on his hair
and gritted his teeth. "You can't fucking touch her like that!"
"At bakit?! Sino ka ba?!" Wendell exclaimed at akmang tatayo para sumugod pero
mabilis kong hinila si Thorn papalabas ng bar.
I was pulling him out of the crowd, wala naman syang imik at nagpahila lang sa
akin. Nagmartsa ako patungo sa parking at nang bitawan ko sya ay masama ko syang
tinignan.
"Ano bang problema mo, huh?!" I exclaimed.
"That asshole is kissing you!" He said and closed his eyes. "He's fucking
kissing you, Zidney!"

"So? Anong pakialam mo?" Sigaw ko pabalik.

"He can't touch you like that! Wala syang karapatang hawakan ka sa kahit anong
parte ng katawan mo!" He groaned like a beast.
"At ikaw, may karapatan ka?" I mocked him. "Wala ka ring karapatan sa akin!"
"Then, give me a right!" He hissed. "Fuck, I can't look at you with that man!"
"Then, h'wag mong tignan!" I screamed on his face. "Problema ba 'yun? Wala kang
pakialam sa akin at sa gagawin ko, naiintindihan mo?! The moment you left me, wala
ka ng karapatan pa sa kahit ano sa akin!"
Nakita ko ang pagkalma nya. His eyes soften, he cursed, ran his hand on his
hair and gritted his teeth.
"I am fucking jealous, Scira..." He breathe. Natigilan ako at hindi umimik.
"I hate it, I hate seeing other man making you smile. I hate it whenever I'm
seeing them touching you, kasi ako lang dapat e..." He breathe. "Pero tangina ko
lang, ang gago gago ko..."
I did not say anything, my heart was pounding hard and painfully. My hands
forms a fist and gritted my teeth.
"Zidney..." He whispered. He took a step forward towards me and I remained
looking at him wearing my irritated look.
"Just go, leave me alone..." I whispered eagerly.
"I can't..." Bulong nya. Napaatras ako nang muli syang humakbang.
My forehead creased, I took a step back again and was starled when I suddenly
lack balance, akala ko ay matutumba na ako pero mabilis nyang nasalo ang baywang
ko.
Our eyes met and I saw how black his eyes are, twinkling as he stared at me.
"Bitiwan mo ko..." I said hardly.
"No..." He whispered, napasinghap ako ng maitayo nya ako ng ayos at tumama ang
likuran ko sa nakaparadang kotse sa likod ko.
"Mababaliw ako, Zid..." Aniya. "Those years are torture and I can't..."
Sumulyap sya sa mga mata ko at pumikit. "I can't let you go anymore..."
I stayed looking at him, my eyes dilated as his breathings deepened. He moved
his body closer to mine, his chest touching my breast.
"If only you could let me explain..." He whimpered. He placed his hand above my
head and when our eyes met, nawala ako sa sarili ko.
Maybe it was alcohol kicking in but I pulled his head closer and caught his
lips. He was starled with my sudden move, I saw how his eyes widen, still not on
his right mind so I bit his lower lip and stared at him darkly.
"Kiss me..." I whispered at parang naputol ang pagtitimpi nya roon at mabilis
na hinaklit ang baywang ko para hagkan ang mga labi ko.
We exchanged kisses like we'd never kissed before, I encircled my arms on his
nape as he lowered his head and kissed every parts of my mouth.
I groaned, he held my waist tighter and pushed me inside the car behind me,
nagulat ako roon, mabilis akong napahiwalay sa kanya at napatingin roon.
"It's mine..." Aniya at hindi pa man ako nakakapagsalita ay mabilis syang
pumasok pagkatapos ko at muling hinuli ang labi ko.
We kissed hungrily like wild beasts, I heard our kisses, his hand slowly
crawling on my exposed leg.
I titled my head when his kisses went down on my neck, he kissed my sensitive
skin, giving a few bites and I groaned and pushed his head more.
I felt the electricity flowing from his lips down to my spine, I pulled his
hair and gasped. That kiss was different from what Wendell gave me earlier on my
neck, I didn't feel anything earlier but this...

Ibinaba nya ang strap ng damit ko, my mouth parted when he

suckled my breast. Napaigtad ako, I moaned and he cursed hardly and I saw how his
eyes darken when he saw my face.
"Why are you going out without brassiere?" He hissed.
"Paki mo?" My brows lifted.
"You can't just go outside without--"
"Damn, kung madami kang reklamo babalik nalang ako sa loo-" He kissed me
fervently on the lips again, stopping me from saying anything.
I felt the heated pleasure in between the gaps of my legs. Lumalim ang
panghinga ko, I moaned softly and kissed him back urgently.
I can feel my cheeks burning, the desire and alcohol taking over my system.
His hand find its way to my breast, slowly massaging it, giving each a few
squeeze and he breath deeply on my lips.
I pushed myself closer to him and he groaned and let me feel his growing
erection.
"Damn, Scira..." Bulong nya. "I love you so much..."
Hindi ako sumagot roon, I just moaned in pleasure as he sucked and licked my
breast.
"We can't do this here..." Aniya at lumayo sa akin. My mouth parted at him,
nakita ko ang dilim at pagnanasa sa mga mata nya habang nakatingin sa akin.
"I can't let anyone see what we're doing..." Aniya. "They can't see you moaning
while I thrust inside you..."
"Fuck you, Thorn..." I gritted my teeth, closing my legs to stop the wetness.
"Damn it, Zid..." Aniya at mabilis na sinuklay ang buhok nya gamit ang daliri.
"Damn, I'm going crazy..."
Hindi na ako nakapagsalita nang mabilis syang bumalik sa pwesto nya sa driver's
seat at pinaharurot ang sasakyan nya paalis.
I didn't even noticed the distance from the bar to his pad because of his
speed. Nagulat nalang ako na nasa parking na kaming dalawa at inaayos na nya ang
damit ko para makapasok sa loob.
"Bakit ganito 'to?" Iritable nyang sabi habang ibinaba ang dress ko.
"Ganyan talaga 'yan!" I hissed. Nakita kong napatingin sya sa dibdib ko, he
cursed when he realized na mas nakikita ang dibdib ko sa bawat paghila nya pababa.
"Damn this, saan mo nabili?" Reklamo nya at ang damit naman sa may dibdib ko
ang inayos nya.
"Sa boutique!" I hissed back. My forehead creased, nang makitang nakasimangot
nanaman ako sa kanya ay nakita ko ang pagtikhim nya at mabilis na sinapo ang mukha
ko.
"Can't you smile at me?" Aniya.
"Wala namang kangiti-ngiti sa ginagawa mo..." I hissed.
He groaned, maya-maya pa ay hinawakan nya ang baywang ko papasok at nang
marating namin ang kwarto nya ay wala sa sariling nagtagpong muli ang labi namin.
I kneeled on the bed and helped him unbutton his blouse, nagmura sya, his
disheveled hair made him look hotter and seductive on my sight.
 I unbuckled his belt and he pushed me softly on the bed as he pulled my dress
out of my body.
We kissed and touched each other's body like we craved for it for a very long
time. I writhe and moaned his name as he pushed himself inside me.
I scratched his back as he moved slowly inside me. His strong hands placed in
both sides of my head and his body moving and visible on my sight.
Our eyes met, nakita ko ang lambot ng mga mata nya habang nakatingin sa akin at
muli nyang pinaghugapo ang mga labi namin.
"You're tight, Zid..." He groaned, pushing himself more, his face on my neck,
kissing it if he has time.
"F-Faster!" I hissed as he slammed his body in one, full thrust. I cursed in
anticipation and desire as it burned me.
"I love you..." He groaned and my legs straightened when I felt my stomach
twisting.
We kissed again. The next kiss is the kind that breaks open the sky. It steals
my breath and gives it back. It shows me that every other kiss I’ve had in my life
has been wrong all this time.
I grunted, he whispered softly in my ear, his thrusts more slow that before as
I closed my eyes tightly for the indescribable feeling about to burst out.
I scratched his back, moaned a little as I convulsed. I felt weak after that at
naramdaman ko ang paghalik nya sa pisngi ko at muling gumalaw ng marahan.
For a few more seconds, he cursed and put his head on my shoulder as he emptied
himself inside of me. My hand forming a fist as I ran after my losing breath.
We stayed silent for a minute, nakadagan sya sa akin habang ako'y nakatulala
kung saan. His breathings are hard, nakasubsob pa rin sya sa balikat ko ang mukha
at mahigpit na nakayakap sa katawan ko.
"I love you..." He whispered again. "Please, come back to me..."
Like a daydream, I suddenly woke up from my dreamland.
What the hell are you doing, Zidney?
I pushed him away from my body and I saw how starled he was from what I did.
I stood up, even with my shaking feet, pinilit kong tumayo ng normal at mabilis
na naglakad para pulutin ang mga damit ko.
"Z-Zid..." Aniya. Hindi ako nagsalita, I remained looking straight from what I
am doing. I wore my underwear, nakita kong nagmamadali rin syang nagbihis roon.
"Zid, let's talk..." Aniya.
"We both know what happened between us is nothing, Thorn..." I told him. Nakita
kong nagulat sya roon, I saw how his eyes soften and he shook his head.
"Don't say that..." He breathe. "I-I'll take the responsibility--"
"Oh, don't throw me that bullshits, Mr. Valderama." I chuckled dangerously and
wore my dress.
"Z-Zid, please, don't say that..." Aniya. "I'll take responsibility for--"
"Sana noon pa, diba?" I said sharply. Nilingon ko sya at nakita kong lumamlam
ang mga mata nya roon.
"Z-Zid..." Tumayo sya matapos suotin ang slacks at sinubukang lumapit pero
umiling lang ako sa kanya at sinuklay ang buhok ko gamit ang daliri ko.
"We are two consenting adults, Thorn..." I said stiffly. "And if you're afraid
and will keep on insisting that responsibility you're talking about then don't
bother, hindi ka lang naman nag-iisa..."
"Zid..." His voice lowered and moved closer.
"If you'll excuse me..." I said coldly. "Thank you for the night, Mr.
Valderama..."
I turned my back at him, mabilis kong inayos ang heels ko pabalik at nagmartsa
palabas. He followed me, he kept on calling my name as he ran after me. Nagsusuot
pa sya ng dress shirt nya habang sumusunod kaya mas binilisan ko ang lakad.
"Zidney!" Aniya. I cursed under my breathe, I walked a little more faster to
reach the elevator but stopped when I felt his grip on my arm.
"What?!" I hissed at him when I heard a voice infront.
"Thorn?" Gulat nitong sabi.
Nakita kong natigilan si Thorn na nasa tabi ko na at napatingin roon. I slowly
shifted my gaze at that person, only to find Dra. Katrin Lim on her shock face as
he stared at Thorn who's still holding my arm.
Her face shifted from Thorn to mine and I saw how her mouth parted in shock.
Nakita kong nanlaki ang mata nya ay namutla sya.
Oh, here comes the bitch.
"Fancy seeing you here, Dra. Lim..." I said coldly, taking a glance at her from
head to toe.

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Kabanata 20

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Kabanata 20
"What..." Nakita ko ang gulat sa mga mata ni Dra. bago muling sumulyap kay
Thorn.
"Thorn, what's the meaning of this?" She said, shocked.
"Meaning? What are you saying?" Nakita ko ang pagkunot ng noo ni Thorn.
"Why are you with..." Sumulyap sya sa akin at nakita ko ang takot sa mukha nya.
"Me?" I suddenly said. Nakita kong kumunot ang noo nya at tumalim ang tingin sa
akin.
She can easily shift her facial expression now, huh?
"Bakit kasama mo ang babaeng 'to, huh? Thorn?" Aniya at nakita ko ang paghugot
nya ng hininga. "I thought you--"
"Who told you to come here, anyway?" I heard his voice.
"Gusto lang kitang kausapin but then, I saw you with--"
"Work will only stay there, okay? You don't need to visit me here if you have
concern, Kat..." Ani Thorn na seryoso.
Nakita ko ang pagpirmi ng mukha ni Dra. Lim, I saw how her eyes sharpened.
Nakita kong sumulyap sya sa akin at umismid.
"And how did you happen to be here?" She said sharply at me. "Ano, hinanap mo
talaga si Thorn para makahuthot ng pera--"
"Don't wanna boast but I can donate some money for you if you want..." I mocked
her.
I saw how her eyes widen, nawala ang poise na iniiangatan nya at nakita ko ang
pagtingin nya sa akin ng mariin.
"You know what, you are nothing but a-"
"Stop it, Katrin!" Thorn's voice roared.
"Why are you defending her again? You left her already! Then why..."
"Binabalik-balikan kasi ako..." I stopped her. I saw how her mouth parted from
what I've said, my brow raised, giving her a mocking smile.
"S-Scira! You bi--"
"Me?" Natawa ako at sinuklay ang buhok ko gamit ang daliri ko. "It's Zidney
Sandejas by the way..."
She blinked, nakita ko ang gulat sa mga mata nya at mabilis syang napatingin sa
tabi ko, kay Thorn na walang imik.
"T-Thorn," Ani nito na mukhang maamong tuta.
I almost rolled my eyes at her, sya ata ang baliw sa aming dalawa...
"T-Thorn, don't tell me you'll come back to her--"
"I'll always come back to her, Kat..." He breathe. "Don't push it..."
I almost laugh at her reaction.
"But..." She bit her lip and took a glance at me while I stared at her blankly.
"We're getting marrie--"
"I never said I'll marry you..." He said and I saw her teary eyes.
"Oh, pity..." I whispered and I knew she heard it, nakita ko ang galit sa mata
nya. She was in the verge of attacking me but I stood straight, staring at her, not
minding she'll hurt me.
"T-Thorn..." Her voice broke, nagpapaawa. "Thorn, she's the bad one here! Hindi
ko naman sya sinasaktan yet--"
I almost made a face, nang sumulyap ako kay Thorn ay kunot noo lang itong
nakatingin sa kanya. His hair is still disheveled, I can still freaking remember
kung paano ko sya sinabunutan kanina kaya halos mapamura ako.
"Kat, please..." Ani Thorn. "Don't make a scene here..."
"Pero Thorn! That woman is a conniving bitch! She'll just ruin you like
before--"

"Ang drama nyo..." I said out of nowhere. She stopped, nang

sumulyap ako kay Thorn ay kumurap sya sa akin at tinaasan ko sya ng kilay at
mabilis na umalis sa tabi nila.
I left the two of them there while I rode the elevator. I was fixing myself as
I stared at my reflection in the mirror.
What the hell are you doing, Zidney? Seriously, having sex with that man?
Inihilamos ko ang kamay sa sobrang inis sa sarili ko but why would I be
affected anyway? It's nothing so, there's nothing to be bothered about.
Nang makalabas ako ng elevator ay sinigurado kong presentable na akong tignan
muli. I brushed my hair and was midstep towards the exit when I felt a grip on my
arm.
Here we are again...
"What?" Malamyang nilingon ko si Thorn na humabol pa sa akin.
"Ihahatid na kita..." He breathe.
"Know what? Flings don't do that..." I said. "They usually leave alone so, why
bother?"
"Zidney..." Aniya at mas humawak sa braso ko. "Don't be like that, I hate
seeing you become like that..."
"Then, hate me..." I spatted out. "I am not forcing anyone to like me anyway,
because I've learned how to be hated in any ways, Thorn. Kadalasan nga hindi pa
nila ako kilala may sinasabi na sila sa akin..."
"Zid, no..." Marahang inabot nya ang baywang ko palapit sa kanya at maya-maya'y
sumubsob sya sa balikat ko.
"I love you, I really do..." Bulong nya sa akin at mas humigpit ang yakap nya.
"I don't care whoever you've been with, what you've become, even if you...have a
child basta mahal kita..."
I did not answer him, nang sumulyap ako sa likuran ay nakita kong naroon si
Dra. Lim at gulat na gulat na nakatingin sa amin at napangisi ako.
"It's my fault anyway," He whispered. "Please, hear me, Zid..."
I saw how agony escaped from Dra. Lim's eyes as she stared at us and I felt the
bitterness on my heart as I stared at her reaction. See that, Dra.? That's what I
felt everytime you'll tell me harsh words, mas malala pa.
Lumayo ako mula sa yakap ni Thorn at nakita ang pagod nyang mga mata.
"Ihatid mo na ko..." Mahinang sabi ko at nakita kong tumango sya at kaagad na
humawak sa siko ko para alalayan ako palabas.
I was silent the whole ride, tulala lang ako kung saan habang sya ay
nararamdaman kong kada-minuto ay sulyap ng sulyap sa akin.
Wala ako sa sarili, my head has been aching, gustong-gusto ko nalang na umuwi
sa bahay at yakapin ang anak ko. She's my safe haven, whenever I'm with her,
gumagaan ang loob ko...
I closed my eyes and settled myself on the seat. I heaved a deep sigh, maya-
maya'y naramdaman ko ang pagtigil ng sasakyan at ang nang bahagya akong magmulat ay
nakita kong ipinapatong nya sa katawan ko ang kanyang jacket.
Our eyes met, nakita ko ang lambot ng mata nya bago hawiin ang buhok ko.
"Sleep first, gisingin nalang kita mamaya..." Aniya.
"Ibabalik ko nalang sa'yo 'yung coat mo nung nakaraan sa sunod..." Bulong ko.
"Hmm, okay..." He whispered at tuluyan na akong napapikit at nakatulog.
 I woke up when I heard loud voices. I opened my eyes and glance beside me but
found nothing.
Where's Thorn?
"Saan mo dinala ang anak ko?!" Napalingon ako at 'yun nalang ang panlalaki ng
mata ko nang makita ang Daddy sa labas habang nasa harapan nya si Thorn.

"It's my fault, Sir... I'm sorry..." Thorn lowered his

face.
"Where did you brought her? Sinasabi ko sa'yo, kapag may nangyaring masama sa
anak ko--" Dali-dali akong lumabas sa sasakyan at lumapit.
"Dad..." I called him. His eyes shifted to me, nakita kong unti-unting nawala
ang lamig sa mga mata nya at lumambot nang makita ako.
"Princess..." He breathe. Kaagad akong lumapit sa kanya at nakita kong sumulyap
rin sa akin si Thorn at nakita ko ang lambot ng mga mata nya.
"What happened? It's late, Clyte's looking for you... Saan ka dinala ng
lalaking 'to?" Asik nya at mabilis akong umiling sa kanya.
"Hinatid nya lang ako, Dad..." I told him.
I saw how his forehead creased. He stared at me and I saw him took a glance at
Thorn.
"Saan?" He said strictly.
"I..." Sumulyap ako kay Thorn at mabilis na nag-iwas ng tingin. "Nasiraan ako
ng sasakyan then, he saw me and took me home..."
I lied, my car is in Rocky's boutique.
Nanahimik si Dad, I saw Thorn stared at me with those sad, black eyes of his.
"Let's go na, Dad..." Sabi ko. "I wanna see my daughter..."
Thorn remained staring at me, his eyes confused and gloomy.
"Thank you, Mr. Valderama..." I told Thorn at nang akbayan ako ni Dad ay kaagad
akong sumama sa kanya at tumalikod mula sa kinaroroonan ni Thorn.
I told Dad I was tired at hindi na sya nagsabi pa nang kung ano roon. I saw him
nodded and kissed my head at kaagad akong dumiretso sa kwarto ko kung nasaan ang
natutulog na si Clyte.
She was sleeping peacefully, hugging her pink teddybear.
Naramdaman ko ang pagod ng katawan at nang utak ko, kaagad akong naligo at
naglinis ng sarili at muling bumalik sa kama.
I crawled softly beside my daughter and gathered her in my arms.
"M-My?" Her eyes opened a little.
"Mommy's here, nak..." Bulong ko at humalik sa pisngi nya. "Sleep na, baby,
hmm..."
"Lurv kita, My..." Bulong nya at may matamis na ngiti ang gumuhit sa labi ko.
"Mommy loves you too," I whispered. "Better than anyone else in the world,
baby..."
I woke up sweating and with a nightmare again, this time, I saw people getting
my daughter away from me. I was shaking in fear when I woke up at kaagad na hinanap
ang anak ko sa tabi ko.
"C-Clyte?" I stuttered. I started panicking.
Where's my daughter?
Kaagad akong bumalikwas  ng bangon at kaagad na kinabahan.
"Baby?" I called her and when I heard nothing ay kaagad akong tumakbo palabas.
I searched every corner of the hallway at nangingilid na ang luha ko.
"Dad! Mom!" I started screaming. My tears are in the side of my eyes, wanting
for it to fall down my cheeks.
Mabilis akong naglakad sa hagdan at halos takbuhin ito pababa.
"M-Mom! Si Clyte!" My tears started falling, my heart started beating hard and
fast.
I heard giggles and my heart almost stop when I saw my Mom playing with my
child.
"Clyte..." I murmured, my heart started melting.
 "My!" She waved her hand at me at ngumiti sa akin si Mom.
"Hey, Zid, princess... Sorry, kinuha namin si Clyte kanina kasi nagising sya ng
maaga..." Ani Mom at nakita ko ang gulat nang makitang lumuluha ako.

"Zid?" Aniya. I sniffed, maya-maya'y tinakbo ko sila at

mabilis na lumuhod para mayakap si Clyte.
"My?" Gulat na sabi ni Clyte.
"Baby, don't leave Mommy..." I murmured and cried. I felt her hugging my neck
and I cried more.
"Zid, anak..." Mom whispered. "What happened?" Nag-aalalang tanong nya at
mabilis akong umiling sa kanya at mas humigpit lang ang yakap ko kay Clyte.
I was sitting comfortably on my swivel, drowning myself to work again. Hanggang
ngayon ay hindi pa rin ako makamove-on sa panaginip ko kagabi.
Rocky is here, telling me stories pero hindi ko na rin sya naiintindihan.
"Zid, balita ko iniwan mo si Wendell kahapon sa bar, huh?" Aniya sa akin.
"Hmm..." I hummed and nodded at him, sumimsim ako ng kape at sumandal habang
nakikinig sa kanya.
"Ang sabi nya, he was punched and then you left with another man, nag-aalala
daw sya sa'yo..." Aniya sa akin.
I rolled my eyes at that, humalukipkip ako at nagsalita.
"Worried my ass," I shook my head. "That man is just trying to get on my
pants..."
"Kaloka ka, girl!" Aniya at umiling sa akin. "Ilang buwan nang nagpaparamdaman
sa'yo yan, si Wendell, huh? Bakit di mo pagbigyan? Mamaya maging madre ka nalang
d'yan..."
"I'm good with just myself, my baby and my family..." Sabi ko. "I don't wanna
get involved with guys, Rocky, alam mo 'yan..."
"Akala ko nga umalis kayong dalawa kahapon e, ayun naman pala, may sinamahan
kang iba..."
"Wendell and I are just flirting," I sighed. "That's it, wala akong balak na
maging girlfriend nya or what, I coudn't even imagine myself having sex with any
men!"
"E, nagyayabang nga iyon, sabi nya makukuha ka na daw nya sana kaso di daw
natuloy..." Aniya.
I almost puke in disgust, napasuklay ako sa buhok ko at binasa ang labi ko.
"In his dreams, we kissed but I've never thought of doing something beyond
that..." Ngiwi ko.
"E, kamusta naman 'yung sinamahan mo kagabi? Bakit may suntukang naganap?"
Aniya at muli akong bumaling sa blue prints sa harapan ko.
"That's nothing," Balewala kong sabi at sumimsim ng kape.
"Weh? E, bakit umiiwas ka? H'wag mong sabihing nagpadilig ka!" Nabuga ko bigla
ang iniinom ko.
"Oh my God!" He exclaimed and I coughed hard and pulled his hair.
"You jerk! Anong nagpadilig?!" I hissed at him.
"E bakit ka namumula?" Gulat nyang sabi at tinuro ako. He laughed at me,
pointing my face and clapped his hands.
"Hoy! Hindi 'no!" I hissed.
"Then, why are you defensive?" Hirit nya at ngumisi sa akin. "Ayiee, akala ko
ba huli kang nadiligan three years ago tapos ngayon..."
"The fuck, who told you that?" My eyes widen.
"Ikaw! When you're drunk months ago!" He hissed at napamura ako at sinabunutan
ang buhok ko.
"Get out, Rocky!" I hissed.
"Asus, nadiligan si Ate mo Zidney!" He teased.
"Rocky!" I screamed. Humalakhak naman sya at kulang nalang ay kumendeng sa
harapan ko.
"Sinetch itech na nakalandian ni Ate mo Zidney na talagang hinarot nya ng
bongga?" He quoted at bago ko pa man sya masabunutan sa inis ay malanding tumakbo
na sya palabas ng opisina ko habang tumitili.

"Nakakastress..." I puffed a breath at inisang lagok ang

kape ko. I cursed when my tongue hurts at nasapo ang mukha ko sa inis.
Nagulat lang ako nang kumatok ang secretary ko at kaagad akong nag-angat ng
tingin sa kanya at nakita kong naroon sya sa may pintuan.
"Ma'am?" Aniya.
"Yes?" I asked.
"Uhm, regarding po sa new project nyo. 'Yung sa sinabi ni Mr. Sandejas?" Aniya
at lumapit. She hand me a folder and I opened it.
"You'll be the Architect po for the hospital," Aniya sa akin. "Yung sa kasosyo
po ni Sir..."
Pumahalumbaba ako at binasa ang nakasulat roon sa folder.
"What about this hospital?" I asked.
"May bagong building daw po kasing pinapatayo, ang sabi, they're now aiming to
be a general hospital..." Sabi nya sa akin.
"Then, why am I the Architect?" I asked. "Did Dad requested that?"
"Opo, Ma'am..." Aniya. "He wants you to be the Architect of the hospital so,
mas matututukan raw po..."
I nodded, inabot ko ang ballpen ko at pinirmahan ang kontrata bago iabot sa
kanya ang folder.
"And Ma'am, doon daw po muna kayo mag-oopisina pansamantala para mas
matutukan..." Aniya. My mouth forms a thin line as I stare at her.
"Bakit ngayon mo lang sinabi?" I said coldly.
She paled, nakita kong nanlaki ang mata nya at nakagat ang labi.
"M-Ma'am, nakasulat pa sa kontrata..." She whispered, stuttering.
I sighed and shook my head, pinaglaruan ko ang fountain pen ko at hinarap sya.
"What hospital is that then?" My brow raised.
"Desert Springs Mental Facility..." I sighed, nakagat ko ang labi ko at
sumandal sa swivel ko.
Why are you pushing me more to that family, Dad? I don't think you can do this
anymore if you found out the truth.
Wala akong gana habang pababa ako ng opisina, it's been a tiring day for me,
wala naman akong masyadong ginawa pero parang nadrain ako.
The employees greeted me again, like how they used to and like usual, hindi ko
sila pinagtuunan ng pansin o binati manlang.
"Uh, uuwi ka na?" Halos mapatalon naman ako sa gulat nang biglang lumitaw si
Thorn sa tabi ko at nagsalita.
"You're scary!" I gasped.
"Huh?" Napakurap sya at pinasadahan ng kamay ang buhok. "Sorry, did I scare
you?"
"Ewan ko sa'yo," I rolled my eyes at him and walked. Pinagtitinginan kami pero
wala akong pakialam, sunod naman sya ng sunod sa akin at pilit nakikipag-usap.
"Kumain ka na ba? Do you wanna eat--"
"I'm full..." Mabilis kong sagot.
"Then, do you want to--"
"Ang kulit-kulit mo, 'no?" Kumunot ang noo ko at sumulyap sa kanya.
He stood straight, nakita kong binasa nya ang pang-ibabang labi at tumitig sa
akin. He was wearing a jeans and a plain white shirt hugging his body fully, I saw
how his muscle ripped on his shirt, bakat pa ang abs nya doon kaya muli akong
sumulyap sa mukha nya.
"Can you leave me alone?" Sikmat ko.
"Ayoko..." Iling nya sa akin. "I will follow you until you talk to me..."
"I have no time for you," Irap ko.
"Kaya susundan kita, and I can't stop following you dahil na rin sa kagabi. I
am telling you, Zid, I will take responsibility for--"
 "I don't ask for responsibilities from my other men, Thorn, kaya bakit ako
hihingi sa'yo?" My brow raised. He stopped at that, I saw that familiar pain on his
eyes again and he gulped.
"I-I don't care..." Aniya. "Basta... Susundan lang kita hanggang sa kausapin mo
na ako."
"What we had was just casual sex, nothing's new about it so..."
"Kahit na..." Giit nya.
"Bahala ka hanggang sa magsawa ka," Iritang sabi ko at tumalikod sa kanya.
"Ma'am!" I stopped when I heard a familiar voice.
Lumingon ako at 'yun nalang ang panlalaki ng mata ko ng makita si Yaya kasama
ang anak ko.
"Mommy!" Clyte exclaimed.
"C-Clyte?" Mabilis akong napalingon kay Thorn at nakita kong nakatitig sya sa
anak ko.
"Naku, pasensya na, Ma'am!" Ani Yaya at lumapit sa akin. "Iyak ng iyak kasi si
Clyte at gusto kang makita kaya wala na kaming choice at pinuntahan ka namin
dito..."
"My! My! Hug!" My daughter offered me her hand at naguguluhan pa akong binuhat
ang anak ko at mabilis syang yumakap sa leeg ko.
"Clyte..." I whispered.
"My! Mish you!" Bulong nya at humalik sa pisngi ko.
"Ya..." Nilingon ko si Yaya at tinanguan. "Sige na, ako nang bahala kay
Clyte..."
"Sige, Ma'am..." Aniya. "Pasensya na po, ayaw talaga tumigil sa pag-iyak..."
I nodded, nang umalis na siya ay narinig ko ang hagikhik ng anak ko habang
nakatingin sa likod kaya napalingon ako at nagulat ng makitang naroon si Thorn at
hinaharot si Clyte.
I saw his finger on my daughter's small hands at nang magtagpo ang mata namin
ay nakita kong lumambot iyon.
Clyte chuckled again and I saw her extended her arm and look at me, then she
pointed Thorn and stared at me with her soft brown eyes.
"Dada?" She mumbled.

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Kabanata 21
"Dada?" She mumbled.
I gulped. Kaagad akong napaharap kay Thorn at nakita kong nakatitig sya sa anak
ko.
He was staring at her deeply and I saw how my daughter smiled cheekily when she
met his black eyes.
"He's not Dada, Clyte..." I whispered.
"No?" I saw how her lips protruded at that.
"Hmm," I nodded. She blinked, nakita ko ang lungkot sa mata ng anak ko kaya
napahugot ako ng hininga at humalik sa pisngi nya.
I'm sorry, Clyte...
"Okay..." She smiled a little but still staring at Thorn who's still looking at
her intently.
"Hi, little girl..." Thorn suddenly spoke, his eyes screaming adoration with a
bit of sadness.
"Hi! I'm Clyte!" She exclaimed.
 "I'm Uncle Thorn," Aniya. I saw my daughter closing her eyes, nagpapacute
kumbaga sa lalaki.
"Candies?" She suddenly asked him. I heard Thorn chuckled and nodded.
"Yes, Clyte... I have candies..." Aniya sa malambing na tono.
"She can't eat candies..." I stopped him, nakita kong nag-angat ng tingin sa
akin si Clyte at napatingin naman si Thorn.
"W-Why?" Clyte pouted. I sighed, mas inayos ko ang pagkakakarga sa anak ko at
nagsalita.
"Your teeth will hurt, baby ko..." Lambing ko. She put her hands on her cheek
and stared at me softly.
"Tooth fairy?" She asked. Napatawa ako bigla roon, I nodded, chuckling and
kissed her cheek.
"Yes, baby. Toothfairy will go get your teeth if you eat sweets..." Paliwanag
ko sa kanya.
I suddenly become aware of Thorn's stares kaya napabaling ako sa kanya. I saw
him staring intently at me and my smile faded.
"We gotta go..." I cleared my throat bago tumalikod sa kanya.
I carried my daughter on my arms as I felt her pointing at somewhere.
"T-Tito!" She exclaimed. I stilled, nang humarap ako sa anak ko ay nakita kong
nakatitig pa rin sya kay Thorn at inaabot ang kamay nya rito.
"P-Play!" She exclaimed.
"Clyte, baby..." Tawag ko sa atensyon nya. "We gotta go, tayo nalang maglaro sa
bahay..."
"No! No! Play!" Pagpupumilit nya.
"Baby..." I sighed.
"Play! No!" She wiggled from my arms and tried reaching Thorn. "I want play!"
My forehead creased, kinagat ko ang labi ko at mahinahong nagsalita.
"Baby, we can play with Tito Zeijan and--"
"No! Tito! Play!" Maktol nya at nang makitang naluluha na sya habang pinipilit
ako ay napasulyap ako kay Thorn.
I saw him smiling a little when he met my eyes, kaagad akong tumikhim at
nagsalita.
"She wants to..."
"Let's go?" Aniya at mabilis na nakalapit sa akin. I was starled at that,
nagulat nalang ako ng humagikhik ang anak ko at inabot ang kamay nya kay Thorn na
inaayos ang salamin habang nakatingin sa kanya.

"Karga! Karga!" She exclaimed at kumalabog ang dibdib ko

roon.
"Can I?" Thorn looked at me with his hopeful eyes at nang sumulyap ako kay
Clyte na mukhang excited ay tumango ako.
I saw how Thorn reached for her and gathered her on his arms.
"Yey!" Clyte cheered, clapping her hands.
"Hi, Clyte... Nice meeting you, you're lovely like your Mom..." Aniya at
humalik sa pisngi nito. Clyte giggled and touched his jaw, napansin kong may kaunti
nang facial hair sya roon kaya napalabi ako.
"I'm pretty?" Clyte asked him with her twinkling, beautiful eyes and put her
hand on her cheek.
Thorn's eyes filled with amusement and nodded at her.
"Yes, Clyte... Pretty..." Aniya at mahinang tumawa.
I watched him as he play with my daughter on our way to his car, he was
tickling her and she was laughing hard and pulled his hair.
"No! No!" She exclaimed.
"Na-uh," Thorn teased her and kissed her neck, making her chuckled heartily.
Thorn honestly looks good with a child with him, he can gather her in his arms
perfectly and I saw how the ladies from our building looked at the both of them
with amusement.
 As if they were amazed, glancing at such a good looking man with a child with
him.
"We can actually use my car..." Pagpuputol ko kay Thorn.
He stared at me, I saw him smiled and shook his head.
"No, we can use mine..." Aniya. "Ihahatid ko na rin kayo mamaya pauwi..."
Wala na akong imik roon, gusto ko mang tumutol ay hindi ko nagawa dahil na rin
sa kagustuhan ni Clyte. I only want the best for her and if she wants to be with
Thorn for a while then fine, even if that tortures me a lot.
Active na active si Clyte habang nasa byahe kami, I remained silent, ngingitian
ko lang ang anak ko kapag titingin sya sa akin. Thorn was talking to her, kahit
minsan ay hindi na maintindihan ang pinagsasabi nito ay sagot pa rin sya ng sagot
sa bata.
We reached the mall at nang pumarada si Thorn at lumabas ay kaagad nya kaming
pinagbuksan. Clyte instantly went to him, asking him to carry her at walang pag-
aalangang binuhat nya ito.
He treats Clyte like its his and I coudn't help but to stare at him.
It's a good sight to see but still, the pain is still unbearable, na kahit
ilang taon ang lumipas ay sobrang nasasaktan pa rin ako sa ginawa nyang pag-
abandona sa akin noon.
"Pink!" Clyte exclaimed as she hugged her new barbies. Ilang ulit kong pinigil
si Thorn na bilhin ito dahil marami naman syang mga barbies sa bahay pero hindi ito
nagpaawat at ibinili pa rin ito.
"You like that, baby?" Thorn asked her as he fixed her hair. Clyte was sitting
on his lap with her new barbies, nasa isang fast food chain kaming tatlo dahil sa
request rin nito.
"Yesh!" She cheered. Nangiti ako nang makita ang saya sa mga mata ni Clyte,
this is the first time I see her this excited and happy again.
"Then, Tito will buy you more more barbies if we meet again!" Lambing ni Thorn
at humalik sa noo nito.
"Yehey! My! My!" Tawag sa akin ni Clyte kaya nilingon ko sya at nginitian.
"Yes, Clyte?"
"I'm happy, My!" Sinserong sabi nito sa akin at lumambot ang puso ko roon.

"Then, Mommy's happy too..." I whispered and she gave me a

flying kiss and winked playfully.
Thorn feed her the food she requested, ako nama'y tahimik lang ring kumakain sa
harapan nila at nakikita ko ang panaka-nakang sulyap sa akin ni Thorn.
He's smiling everytime he'll caught my eye at umiiwas lang ako ng tingin sa
kanya at hindi sya tinatapunan ng ngiti.
"Zid?" I stopped from my tracks when I heard my name. Kaagad akong nag-angat ng
tingin at 'yun nalang ang gulat ko ng makita kung sinong nasa may harapan namin.
"Wendell?" I called him.
I saw Thorn stilled, nakita kong nawala ang ngiti nya habang hinaharot si Clyte
at iniangat ang tingin nya.
"Kasama mo 'to?" I saw how shocked Wendell is when he saw Thorn with me.
"Wen..." I called him.
"Any problem with that?" Thorn's hard, baritone voice said and looked at him
coldy. I saw his jaw clenched, the nerve on his neck slightly showing.
"Seriously, Zidney? Itong nanapak na 'to ang kasama mo?" Asik ni Wendell sa
akin. I almost rolled my eyes at him but I remained calm, I won't bitch out infront
of my daughter.
"Please, leave us alone, Wen..." My cold voice said.
"Hindi e, you were cheating on me--"
"You fucking asshole--" Nanlaki ang mata ko ng umambang tatayo si Thorn kaya
mabilis kong hinaklit ang kamay nya.
"Si Clyte! Calm down!" I told him sharply.
Nakita kong natigil sya. I saw him took a deep breath and closed his eyes
tightly, nakita kong muli syang humawak sa anak ko at sumubsob sa balikat nito.
"Oh, ano? Weak ka naman pala e!" Wendell mocked. "Akala mo kung sinong
nanununtok, ang yabang--"
"Don't let me start bitching out, Wendell..." Malamig kong turan sa kanya.
"But Zidney..." Wendell's jaw clenched. "Ayokong-"
"You won't like it if you keep on doing that," I said and throw him a bored
look. "Not on my daughter's watch..."
"Zidney! I can father your child! Hindi mo na kailangang--"
"I'm cutting off our family's connection, Mr. Ramos..." I said in finality. I
saw his mouth parted, nakita ko kung paano manlaki ang mata nya at akmang
magsasalita ay kaagad akong tumayo sa upuan ko.
"Let's go, Thorn..." I said coldly and I saw Thorn stood from his seat, his
eyes still cold and sharp. Maingat nyang binuhat si Clyte na mukhang walang kaalam-
alam sa nangyayari at sumulyap kay Wendell na gulat na gulat pa rin.
He walked at binangga pa ang balikat nito kaya napamura ang huli pero kumunot
lang ang noo ni Thorn at hinawakan ang baywang ko.
I walked gracefully and mg head held high towards the exit. Thorn was still on
my side and Clyte is on his arms, hugging his neck, clinging to him.
"Gago, akala nya..." Thorn said out of nowhere kaya nangunot ang noo ko. Kaagad
ko syang nilingon at sinimangutan.
"Your mouth!" I hissed.
"My, what's gagow?" Clyte suddenly spoke and stared at me curiously.
His eyes widen, nakita kong napakagat sya ng labi at halos murahin ko na rin
sya dahil sa bibig nya.
"Uhm, baby..." Thorn said kaya pinanlakihan ko sya ng mata. He cleared his
throat and shook his head.
"Wala 'yun, baby... Tito's just murmuring some words..." Ani Thorn sa
inosenteng si Clyte kaya napailing ako roon at nang marealize na nasa baywang ko
ang kamay nya ay kaagad ko iyong tinapik paalis.

"Don't touch me!" Mariing sabi ko bago tumalikod sa kanya

at mabilis syang napasinghap at humabol sa akin.
"Zid, saan nyo gustong gumala?" Thorn asked when he caught me but I didn't get
to answer him when I saw someone familiar to me and my dreams.
I froze.
Kaagad na kumalabog ang dibdib ko at napaatras nang makita ang lalaki roon sa
hindi kalayuan na nakatingin sa akin.
I saw in my very eyes that man with the tattoo on his neck, staring at me with
a smirk on his face.
"Zid?" Thorn called me.
Nanlamig ako, my body started shaking when I saw him took a glance at Thorn and
my daughter as he shook his head disapprovingly.
"Hey, Zid..." Thorn's voice soften and held my arm softly but my attention is
still on that man.
He saw my scared face and he grinned evilly and put his hand on his neck,
making it look that he'll kill me.
Bumilis ang paghinga ko, my chest went up and down and my hand started shaking
when Thorn held my arm and shifted my position.
I was starled when he pushed me softly on his chest kaya napasubsob ako roon at
napatalikod sa lalaki.
"Sshh, Zid... Don't look at him..." Thorn whispered darkly and held me on his
chest.
Suminghap ako, my tears fell and I sobbed and I felt his heavy breaths.
"Damn it, they still won't stop..." He whispered.
I gulped. Mas nanginig ang katawan ko at narinig kong suminghap sya at mas
niyakap ako para takpan.
"My, crying?" Clyte's voice asked.
 "Mommy's fine, Clyte..." Ani Thorn at naramdaman ko ang kamay nya sa buhok ko.
"He's gone now, Zid..." He whispered. "It's alright, Queen..."
"P-Papatayin nya ako..." I whimpered.
"No... He won't..." Bulong nya. "I won't let him, hindi na ako papadala sa
kanila..."
"My is crying! My, candies?" Clyte asked at nang humiwalay ako kay Thorn ay
kaagad akong sumulyap sa anak kong malambing na nakatingin sa akin.
"Clyte..." I called her and gathered her in my arms. Mahigpit ko syang niyakap
at humikbi.
"My?"
"Baby..." Bulong ko at humalik sa pisngi nya. I silently cried while carrying
her, my body still shaking and my hand still trembling in fear.
I can almost see blood, this is what happened when I'm about to have an episode
so I closed my eyes tightly and heaved a deep sigh.
Calm down, Zid!
"Zid, shit..." Naramdaman ko ang pagkuha mula sa akin ni Thorn kay Clyte at
mabilis akong inakay pabalik sa sasakyan.
My mind's in chaos, my ear started ringing and my eyes swelling from tears.
Isinakay ako ni Thorn sa sasakyan, my daughter stayed on his lap while I did my
best to control myself.
"Zid, come on, calm down..." Aniya. I shook my head, kumuyom ang kamay ko at
nang makarinig ng mga boses sa tenga ko ay napaigtad ako at napatakip roon.
"Ikaw na ang susunod..." The voice said.
"N-No..." I whispered.
"Zid, come on..." Thorn said but I was preoccupied with the voices inside my
head. My hand trembled more and I closed it to stop shaking but I just can't.

"Pinatay mo sila..." Whispers again.

"H-Hindi ko sila pinatay..." I murmured. I felt something in my hand, napatalon
ako roon at kaagad na iniwas ang kamay ko.
"H'wag! H'wag mo kong sasaktan..." I whimpered, my eyes still closed.
"It's Thorn, Zid..." A voice said. "Come on, open your eyes, its just me..."
I swallowed hard, breathing heavily. Naabot nya ang kamay ko, I felt him
opening my fisted palm and caressing it softly.
"Hey, it's just me..." Masuyong sabi nito at mas hinaplos ang palad ko. "It's
Thorn, you know me right?"
"Open your eyes, Zid... Come back to me..." He whispered softly.
Unti-unting bumagal ang paghinga ko. My heart slowly calming, naramdaman ko ang
pagtigil ng panginginig ng kamay ko.
"Sshh, it's alright..." Aniya. "When you open your eyes, your daughter's
waiting for you..."
Slowly, I opened my eyes and I saw a pair of midnight black eyes staring right
through mine, his eyes are bloodshot and laced with concern.
Mula sa kanya ay bumaba ang tingin ko sa anak ko. She was eyeing me softly and
my mouth parted when I saw her crying.
"M-My, why cry..." She murmured and sobbed at nanghina ako roon at marahang
kinuha ang anak ko at tinahan sya.
"N-No, Clyte... Sorry..." I murmured and repeatedly kissed her head.
"D-Did I do bad and--"
"No, anak... You did not..." Bulong ko at mas niyakap sya. Habang lumuluha rin
ako ay nakita kong nakatitig lang sa amin si Thorn.
I saw how he removed the tears on his cheek and lowered his head.
"I-I'm sorry..." He whispered, stared at me at hindi na ako sumagot roon at
sumulyap nalang sa anak ko.
The whole duration of the ride is filled with silence. Clyte already fell
asleep in my arms while I stared at the lights from the posts we're passing.
I still can't process everything, I was still in shock. I still remembered how
I break down infront of him and I blame myself for that.
Bakit ba kahit anong pilit kong maging matatag ay ang hina-hina ko pa rin?
We stopped in front of our mansion, my Mom and Dad isn't here because they went
abroad at kami lang ng anak ko at mga tauhan ang tao dito ngayon.
Kaagad akong sumulyap kay Thorn na nakatitig lang sa manibela at walang
sinasabi.
"Thank you for today..." I said out of silence. Nang hindi sya sumagot ay
tinanggal ko ang seatbelt ko para makalabas pero nahawakan nya ang braso ko kaya
nilingon ko sya.
"C-Can we talk, Zid?" His tired voice said, nakita kong malamlam ang mga mata
nya at dahil ayoko na ring makipagbangayan sa kanya ay tumango ako.
"Wait for me here..." I said coldly. He let go of my arm softly at nang lumabas
ako ng sasakyan ay kaagad akong dumiretso sa kwarto namin ni Clyte at marahang
inilapag ko sya sa kama bago kunin ang envelope na itinago ko sa loob ng tatlong
taon.
I kissed my daughter and went down, nakita ko pang nagluluto ang nga kasambahay
at binati ako kaya pagod akong ngumiti at tumango lang sa kanila.
Naglakad ako palabas ng gate ng mansyon at kaagad kong nakita si Thorn
nakatungo at nakasandal sa sasakyan nya.
I took a step forward at nakita kong napaayos sya ng tayo nang marinig ang
takong ko.
"Zid..." He smiled a little when he saw me. "Thank you for letting me speak to
you..." Sinsero nyang sabi.

I stared at him coldly, nodding my head.

"I hope this will be the last time I'll get to talk you..." I said.
I saw how his smile faded with my remark. Nakita kong umayos sya ng tayo at
pinasadahan ng kamay ang magulong buhok.
"Z-Zid, what are you saying?" Aniya.
"I appreciate everything today and I thank you for making my daughter happy and
for calming me down earlier..." I told him.
Lumamlam ang mata nya, I saw him bit his lip but still tried smiling at me
again.
"You're welcome, I...I won't hesitate to do that again if--"
"Please stop this..." I stopped him.
"Zid?" Pumiyok ang boses nya at pumikit. "Don't be like this, please, give me a
chance?"
"Then explain now, I'll just hear your explanation then we're good..." Mahinang
sabi ko.
"Zid..." He breathe and took a step closer while I remained standing there.
"I...I never wanted to do that..." Bulong nya.
Oh, really?
"I was forced to do that," He whispered, staring at me with his gloomy,
bloodshot eyes.
"I...I was left with no choice, my Queen..." Pumiyok sya at tumiim ang bagang.
"Then, did your parents finally become proud of you?" I asked him, still aching
for the memories and how he left me alone, tired and wounded by that said love.
"Z-Zid, no..." He murmured. "It's not them--"
"They must have felt really proud of their youngest son..." I said bitterly.
"Z-Zid, it's not--" He tried reaching me but I shook my head.
"I was really proud of you, Thorn..." I murmured and stared at his eyes. "Kahit
'nung hindi ka pa nila napapansin, sobrang hanga ako sa'yo..."
His tears fell, nakita ko ang pag-iling nya sa akin at ang pag-igting ng panga
nya.
"K-Kasi you understand me, you helped me a lot, pinaramdam mong mahal mo ako
kahit hindi..." Hinawi ko ang luhang tumulo sa mga mata ko at kinagat ang labi ko.
"I-I love you, Scira..." He stopped me.
 "Stop lying, Thorn..." Pagod kong sabi at muli syang hinarap. "We both know you
don't..."
"R-Reyna ko," He murmured. "I love you, please..." He begged.
"But you know, I was very disappointed at you when you left me there, alone..."
I said and I saw the pain escaped his eyes. The agony filled the hollow of his eyes
as his tears fell down uncontrollably.
"S-Scira..."
"Here..." I lifted my hand and showed him the envelope.
Umiling sya habang nakatitig roon at nakita ko ang hindi maipaliwanag na sakit
sa mga mata nya.
I am hurting too, I can feel my heart breaking into tiny pieces as I reminisce
the scenes.
"Walang bawas 'yan..." I told him.
"S-Scira..." He stared at me and shook his head.
"Sorry if I gave the money back too late," Sabi ko sa kanya.
"Y-You don't have to--"
"I don't want any connection for us, anymore..." Nanghihina kong sabi.
"D-Don't say that..." Bulong nya. "I-I'll make it up to you, I...I promise I'll
be a good man, I won't do anything--"
"Just go..." Sabi ko. "You'll only bring the bad memories back..."
"P-Please?" He murmured and begged.
"I'm sorry, I can't..." I sighed.
"Give me a chance," Aniya at hinagilap ang kamay ko. "I-I won't mess it up,
promise... H-Hindi na ako magpapakaduwag--"
"Just leave..." Inabot ko ang kamay nya at ibinalik sa kanya ang envelope at
nakita ko kung paano sya napatitig roon at mas napaluha.
"Z-Zid..." He murmured and closed his eyes. I saw him weakened, maya-maya pa ay
napaatras ako sa gulat nang walang pagdadalawang-isip syang lumuhod sa harapan ko
at tumungo.
"T-Thorn..." My mouth parted.
"I love you..." He cried. "P-Please, Zid... Don't push me away..."
"J-Just go, stop kneeling..." I murmured and shook my head.
"N-Nagmamakaawa ako..." Bulong nya. "H'wag namang ganto, Zid... Please..."
I closed my eyes tightly when he hugged my legs and sobbed.
"I-I need you, Zid... Please, g-give me a chance..." Napahikbi rin ako but my
heart remained hard and untouched.
I held his hand, pilit ko iyong kinalas sa paa ko at iling sya ng iling roon.
"Z-Zid, no..."
"I'm sorry..." I murmured and when I took a step back, I saw him lost his
remaining strength at napasalampak na sa semento.
I entered the mansion and ran towards my room, kaagad akong tumabi kay Clyte at
niyakap sya bago tahimik na umiyak roon.
The next morning ay para ata akong magkakasakit, I cried the whole night. Sa
banyo ako nagtungo para hindi maistorbo si Clyte at kahit napapagod pa ay
napagdesisyunang pumunta sa isang lugar kung saan ako palagi nagtutungo kapag
nalulungkot ako o gusto kong magkwento.
My Clyte played beside me in the back of the car while we're on our way to the
place.
"Ma'am, dito na po..." I stopped and stared at the place.
"Sige po, pahintay nalang po kami, mabilis lang..." I said at nang tumango sya
ay dagli akong lumabas buhat si Clyte na naglalaro sa buhok ko at ang pumpon ng
bulaklak na hawak ko.
I walked slowly towards the place and I smiled when I saw the place where she
is.
Marahan akong lumapit roon at ngumiti.
"Hi," I smiled softly, greeting her.
Ibinaba ko si Clyte sa tabi ko at ang bulaklak na dala ko bago sintidihan ang
kandilang puti doon sa gilid.
I closed my eyes and smiled.
 "I have so many stories to tell you..." Bulong ko sa hangin at ngumiti. I miss
her, my friend for almost a year, that one who helped me and stayed with me even
just for a while.
"Hey, baby Clyte, come here..." I called her.
Clyte immediately crawled on my lap from observing the place and smiled, her
brown eyes smiling too.
I kissed her cheek, she giggled at nakangiting tinuro ko ang lapida sa harapan
namin at nagsalita.
"Say hi to your real Mommy," I said. She blinked, nakita kong sumulyap sya sa
itinuturo ko bago ngumiti ng matamis at pumalakpak.
"Hi, Mama Ritch!" She exclaimed happily.

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Kabanata 22
We found Ritchelle the same day I asked my brothers to find her. She was
looking for me for days, halos tumambay na nga raw sya sa police station para lang
makabalita sa akin.
She asked the police for help to find me and still none so she waited there
kaya mas mabilis syang nahanap. She went to the hospital and was shocked after
knowing everything about me.
We took her in of course, isang araw nalang habang nag-uusap kaming dalawa ay
bigla syang hinimatay kaya isinugod namin sya sa ospital, only to find her pregnant
for almost three months with her baby. It was fine, but that wasn't just a case,
she was also diagnosed of having a stage 4 lung cancer at the same time.
We were really saddened with the news, hindi namin alam, ni hindi rin nya alam
kaya hindi nya napaghandaan. We did everything for her, not just because she's my
friend but because ofmy family becomes really fond of her, she was good, she's like
a sister to me.
Kahit na noong sa bus station lang kami nagkakilala at nagkausap ay
nakapalagayang loob ko na sya.
We offered her to have chemotherapy but she declined us rightaway after knowing
it'll be harmful for her unborn child.
I was hurt at that, I remembered how much I cried after begging her to save her
life, she's my only friend, that one friend I got to tell everything that happened
to me but she chose to save her child at sino ba ako para magdesisyon para sa
kanya?
Each passing months, she was confined to the hospital, weak and pale, minsan ay
umiiyak nalang ako ng tahimik habang binabantayan sya. We still talk to each other,
tho, kadalasan ay ako nalang ang nagsasalita dahil hindi na nya kinakaya.
Her stomach grew bigger and bigger and I saw how she struggled hard to still be
alive and save her daughter and I stayed with her and support her all the way.
"Z-Zid?" Her weak voice said. Kaagad akong umayos ng upo, hinagilap ko ang
kamay nya at hinanap ang mga mata nya.
"Ritch? May gusto ka kainin?" I smiled but it was hiding the sadness wanting to
burst out any moment.
"No..." She smiled faintly, her lips pale, nangangayat rin sya.
"What do you want? Gusto mong lumabas? Sa garden tayo?" I said eagerly but she
shook her head and heaved a sigh.
"M-May sasabihin lang ako..." She said softly.
I stopped, I held her hand and stared at her at ngumiti sya sa akin.
 "K-Kapag lumabas na si baby, sana...sana alagaan mo sya..." Aniya.
My chest started hurting, nangilid ang luha ko roon at napatungo bago umiling.
"D-Don't say that, you'll live... Maaalagaan mo pa sya..." My voice broke.
"Zid, alam nating hindi na ako aabutin..." She whispered.
"N-No... H'wag mo kong iwan, Ritch..." I sobbed and shook my head. "Y-You're my
only friend, p-pati ba naman ikaw iiwan mo ako?"
"Z...Zid..." Nang sumulyap ako sa kanya ay umiiyak na rin sya kaya nakagat ko
ang labi ko ay hinawi ang luha ko.
"Sorry... " She whispered. "K-Kung alam ko lang sana na ganito ang
mangyayari..."
"Ritch..." I called her name and sobbed quietly.
"W-When I'm gone, please, take care of my daughter, Zid..." Aniya at napasubsob
ako sa kama nya at suminghap.
"Name her for me, treat her like your own..." Bulong nya.

"I-Iiwan mo rin talaga ako?" Bulong ko at nang makita ang

lungkot sa mga mata nya ay mas nanghina ako.
"T-Take care of her, Zid... Kahit anong mangyari, h'wag na h'wag mo syang
ibigay sa kanila..." I nodded and closed my eyes.
"I-I promise..." Bulong ko sa kanya at niyakap sya ng mahigpit. "I...I will
take good care of her, Ritch. I will love her like my own..."
"Thank you..." She whispered with her shaking voice. "S-Salamat sa lahat-lahat,
Zid..."
The day Clyte was born is also the death of her Mother, sobrang pagluluksa ang
naramdaman ko at ng pamilya ko sa pagkawala nya, it was as if, we lost a part in
our family and that is her.
But despite of her going far away from us, she left us a gift, the angel who
brought joy not just for me but for my family.
I will forever keep you in my heart, Ritch. Thank you very much for the
friendship. Pangako, mamahalin ko si Clyte sa abot ng makakaya ko.
"My, gummies?" Nangiti ako ng abutan ako ni Clyte ng gummy worms nya mula sa
maliit na tupperware na hawak nya.
"Yes, baby..." I smiled and opened my mouth when she gave me one. "Thank
you..."
"Welcome, My! Kiss!" She pouted her lips at nangingiting pinatakan ko sya ng
halik at binuhat para yakapin.
"I love you, Clyte..." I whispered in her ear.
"Ma'am, we're already here..." Ani ng secretary ko sa akin. Inilibot ko ang
tingin ko at nang mapansing nasa tapat na kami ng ospital ay kaagad akong tumango
at inabot ang hand bag ko.
I saw the driver ran outside to open the door for me, I slowly went out of the
car, putting my shades in my eyes.
I fixed my hair in a high ponytail and smoothened my white blouse, I took a
glance at my outfit and looked at my secretary.
"Does this look good?" I asked.
"Ma'am?" Nagulat sya pero mabilis na tumango pagkatapos ako pasadahan ng
tingin.
"Opo, bagay po pala sa inyo kahit hindi kulay pulang damit..." Aniya. I nodded,
checking my tight black jeans and two inches sandals.
"Let's go..." I said and walked inside, she followed me. Inayos ko ang purse ko
at medyo nabigla pa nang makitang nakaayos ang mga empleyado ng ospital at
nakahilera sa harapan ko.
Ibinaba ko ang shades paalis ng mata ko, my forehead creased when they bowed in
unison as they greet me.
"Welcome, Architect Sandejas!" Bati nila. Napatingin ako sa secretary ko, she
shook her head at me and I blinked.
May paganito talaga?
 I walked passed them but my mood shifted when I saw Stella Valderama with her
husband beside her, mas nanliit pa ang mata ko ng makita si Dra. Katrin doon na
hindi halos mabasa ang ekspresyon ng mukha.
"Welcome, Miss Sandejas..." Stella smiled at me.
"I hope you enjoy your stay here," Ani Stevan at halos tumikwas ang kilay ko sa
kanila.
Hindi ako kaagad sumagot roon at napabaling kay Dra. Lim, she remained stoic
there and my lips lifted when I saw her annoyance.
"Won't you welcome me, Dra. Lim?" I asked her.
Nakita kong pumirmi ang labi nya, kumunot ang noo nya at napalingon sa dalawa
roon sa tabi nya.
"Tita, do I have to--"
"Greet her, Katrin." Giit ni Stella at nakita kong pumirmi ang labi ni Dra.
Katrin at huminga ng malalim.
"Welcome." Walang buhay nyang sabi, my lips protruded, like a brat, I crossed
my arms and spoke.

"I felt like I wasn't welcome," Malungkot kong sabi.

"Katrin! Greet her!" Stella exclaimed at nang sumulyap ako sa kanya ay kaagad
syang tumikhim at umiwas.
"W-Welcome," Dra. Lim suddenly said, her voice low like an angel and I almost
smirked at that.
"Thank you for the warm welcome," I said sweetly but it was full of sarcasm and
I know they heard it.
"D-Do you wanna see your office?" Ani Stella at ngumiti. "We prepared a lot for
your stay--"
"Thanks for that then," I said coldly. I looked at my secretary who stayed
quiet beside me and nodded my head.
"Let's go, Vane..." I said. Her eyes widen when I called her name, napatikhim
sya at mabilis na tumango.
"O-Opo, Architect..." Aniya at nakita kong napangiti.
I followed Stella and her husband with Katrin the bitchy as we walked towards
my office. The hospital looks like that hospital I stayed three years ago, medyo
mas moderno nga lang ito at mas maganda sa mata kumpara sa noon.
I saw familiar workers here, kaagad na nanlaki ang mga mata nila ng makita ako
pero hindi ko sila tinapunan ng ngiti.
I saw my nurses here, my old nurses that time, their mouths parted as they
stare at me.
"Mom..." I stopped when I heard a voice, I shifted my gaze and my mouth
slightly parted when I saw Thorn infront of us.
He was wearing a gray scrubsuit underneath his labgown and he's wearing
glasses.
I saw him licked his lip when he saw me at nanatili syang nakatitig sa akin.
I lowered my gaze and I heard him spoke.
"Saan kayo?" He asked.
"Thorn, we're gonna tour Architect Sandejas towards her office..." Malumanay na
sabi ni Stella.
Napalingon ako sa secretary ko ng humagikhik sya sa tabi ko at nakita kong
namumula sya roon.
"Why?" I asked.
"Ay, Ma'am, ang gwapo! 'Yan yung sumusunod sa'yo?" Bulong nya. My forehead just
creased at muli syang nagsalita.
"Doctor pala, kaloka! Ang tsalap!" Pumirmi ang labi ko sa kaharutan nya at
muling napasulyap kay Thorn na nahuli kong nakatingin sa akin, napasuklay sya sa
buhok nya at sumimangot ako at muling binalingan ang secretary ko.
"You can't like that man," I said stiffly.
"Po? Bakit naman?" Bulong nya.
 Masama ugali nyan!
"Try or I'll fire you," Mariing sabi ko. Her eyes widen, napaayos sya ng tayo
at mabilis na umiling sa akin kaya napairap lang ako sa hangin at humalukipkip.
"Let's go, it's hot in here..." I said out of nowhere at pinaypayan ang sarili
ko.
"Oh, sige, I'm sorry..." Stella panicked and nodded. "This way Ms. Sandejas..."
Nauna sya at nang nagkatinginan kaming ulit dalawa ni Thorn ay tumikhim sya.
"Mom, I want to come..." Ani Thorn sa ginang.
"Uhm, okay..." She nodded at nakita kong nakagat ni Thorn ang labi at mabilis
na nagjog palapit.
Halos mapamura ako. Bibilisan ko ang trabaho ko kung kinakailangan para hindi
lang makita ang lalaking 'to, damn, I will just stay in my office and the site in
the duration of my stay here!
"Thorn..." I stopped when I saw Katrin held his arm. Nakita kong natigilan si
Thorn roon at mabilis na ibinaba ang tingin sa babae.
"Why?" He asked.

"Can you stay beside me?" She murmured, clinging on his

arms like a tarsier kaya napairap nalang ako at nagmartsa paalis.
"Ay, hala! Architect, wait!" Vane exclaimed and walked faster para abutan ako.
Stella was telling something as we walked but I am not listening, malamig lang
ang tingin ko sa daan at diretso.
"Ang bilis mo maglakad..." Halos mapatalon ako sa gulat nang makarinig ng boses
sa tabi ko. My eyes widen, kaagad akong tumingin sa kanya at nagulat nang makita si
Thorn sa tabi ko.
"Why are you here?" My brow raised. "Sana tinabihan mo nalang 'yung Katrin
mo..." Tukoy ko sa babaeng nakasimangot habang sumusunod.
I saw his amused face, he licked his lip and he smiled at me na parang di ko
sya inaway kagabi at pinapaalis.
"Mas gusto kita katabi..." He whispered.
Kumunot ang noo ko at tinapunan sya ng naiinis na tingin pero ngumiti lang sya
sa akin at sinamaan ko sya ng tingin nang dumikit sya sa akin.
"Ano ba!" I hissed.
"Uh, Mom?" Thorn suddenly speak kaya nilingon sya nito.
"Yes, hijo?" Ani nito.
"Ako nalang ang maghahatid sa kanila sa opisina..." Aniya at nanlaki ang mata
ko roon.
Napatingin sa akin si Stella at hindi ako umimik roon at diretso lang ang
tingin.
"Oh," Nakita ko ang dismaya sa mukha ng ginang at tumango ng marahan. "Sige,
hijo... Ikaw na ang bahala..."
Thorn nodded, kaagad syang nanguna roon at bumaling sa akin si Stella at
nagsalita.
"I'm sorry, hija..." Ani Stella. "I hope you enjoy your stay here..."
"I hope so too," I smiled timidly and walked passed her.
Malaki ang opisina kung saan ako mags-stay dito sa ospital, it was beyond my
expectation, anyway, akala ko ay simple lang pero ganito talaga at mukhang
pinaghandaan.
My secretary will stay outside my main office, may desk sya roon at ako naman
ay sa loob, parang sa opisina ko lang na sa kompanya ko. I think my employees there
are celebrating because of my absence.
My secretary sat comfortably on her swivel at dumiretso ako sa opisina ko at
ipinatong ang gamit ko sa lamesa.
I walked slowly towards the place and he followed me silently, sumilip ako sa
glass window doon sa opisina at kaagad kong nakita ang construction na nangyayari
roon.
I stared at it, may naisip na akong plano doon at hihingin ko nalang ang
suggestions ng kanilang Engineer at syempre ang approval ng mga board members.
"When will I meet the Engin--" I shifted my position and gasped when I saw our
face just inches away from each other.
Napasandal ako sa salaming bintana sa gulat roon. His eyes remained staring at
mine, my throat went dry when I felt his body against mine.
"W-What are you doing?" I whispered.
His eyes darken, he towered me, I saw him put his hand just above my head and
cornered me.
"T-Thorn..." Matapang kong sabi pero naging tunog malamya ata.
"I don't want you pushing me away," Bulong nya.
My heart thumped, tumikhim ako at sinubukang salubungin ang titig nya pero
hindi ko nagawa.
"Let me go..." I whispered.
"I can't," He breathe, I felt his hand on my waist and I was starled when he
pushed my body on the glass. "I love you so much..."
"I told you already, I don't want us to have any connection anymore..." I said.

"Uh-huh..." Bulong nya, mas idinidiin ako roon. I felt his

breath fanning my nose and my stomach clenched at that.
"Mr. Valderama..." I warned.
"I wanna meet Clyte again," Aniya sa akin. I bit my lip and I saw him took a
glance at that.
"After this, I don't want any connection from us anymore..." Giit ko.
A saw his side grin, making him look hotter. I loved it when he has facial hair
but I can praise his clean face now. Kitang-kita ko kasi ang maliit na dimple sa
isang gilid ng labi nya kapag ngumingiti sa lagay na ito.
His angled jaw is more visible and his reddish lips looks more seductive.
"I want a connection with you," Sagot nya. "Papakilala ako sa pamilya mo, I
will accept all their beatings and..."
Nangunot ang noo ko, I was about to lashed him out when I saw Dra. Katrin
entering the office.
I suddenly had an idea, before she could even call Thorn ay kaagad kong hinila
palapit ang leeg ni Thorn at sinakop ang labi nya.
He was shocked, I saw how his eyes widen when he realized what I did but
eventually kissed me back.
I saw his eyes brighten, I felt his smile on my lips as he held my waist
tighter and lowered his head to claim my lips fully.
I opened my mouth and accepted his kisses and I saw how Katrin's jaw dropped.
Her eyes started to water and before she can shed that ay marahan ko nang tinulak
si Thorn palayo sa akin.
"Zid..." He whimpered, trying to get my attention again.
Nang hindi ko sya sinagot ay inabot nya ang pisngi ko pero hinawi ko sya at
ngumuso.
"May bisita ka ata..." I said.
Nakita kong natigilan si Thorn, I saw him took a glance at his back at nang
makita si Katrin ay nangunot ang noo nya.
"Kat?" He called.
"That woman is only playing with you, Thorn!" Her sharp voice said. I licked my
lower lip and stared at her coldly.
"What the hell are you saying, Kat?" He asked.
"Pinaglalaruan ka lang nya! She doesn't like you anymore, Thorn! You're mine!"
She hissed. "When she saw me, she kissed you! Para ano, para inggitin ako?!"
"I don't think you'll get jealous anyway," I said and smirked. "If it's true
that he's yours then, why get jealous if you can just claim him?"
Her eyes sharpen, nakita ko ang pagtiim ng bagang nya at sumigaw at sumugod.
"You bitch!" She screamed and attacked me but before she could even do that ay
humarang na si Thorn sa gitna.
 "Katrin! Stop it!" His voice roared.
"No! I will slap that slut! I will--"
"Stop it, Dra. Lim!" He exclaimed and I saw how her mouth parted in shock when
he raised his voice.
"T-Thorn..." She was teary-eyed.
"I told you to stop, Kat..." Thorn sighed and ran his hand on his hair.
"Please, just don't touch her..."
"She'll only play with you! Ako...Ako Thorn, hindi kita pinaglalaruan! I love
you and..." She sounded desperate.
"I love her, Kat, I'm sorry..." He breathe.
I saw how her tears fell on her cheek, she took a step back and shook her head
after throwing me daggers and ran outside.
I sighed, nakita kong sumilip si Vane doon sa may pintuan at mabilis ring
umalis at naiwan kaming dalawa ni Thorn sa loob.

I walked towards my swivel, naupo ako roon bago sumandal at

ipinikit ang mga mata ko.
"I'm sorry about her..." I heard him say. Hindi ako umimik roon, I heard him
sigh and when I opened my eyes, I saw him sitting infront of me, just staring
quietly.
"What if I'm really playing with you?" I asked. "I kissed you because she's
coming, Thorn..."
"So?" Aniya.
"Anong so ka d'yan?" Reklamo ko at nakita kong napangiti sya at tinanggal ang
salamin bago inihilamos ang palad.
"I was tired the whole day but that kiss steals all the tiredness away..." My
heart skipped a beat, tumikhim ako roon at nakagat ang labi ko at nakita kong
tumaas ang sulok ng labi nya inilahad ang kamay nya.
"Can you hold me, Zid? I think I'll faint..." He sighed.
"Whatever," Umirap ako at napatawa sya roon at ibinalik ang salamin sa mga
mata. "May lipstick ka pa sa labi mo, ayusin mo nga..."
His brow raised, inilagay nya ang daliri sa gilid ng labi at umakmang pupunas
roon.
"Wala na?" He asked.
"Meron pa..." Nginuso ko ang kaliwang parte ng labi nya. He put his hand on
that side of the lip and tried cleaning the stains but he failed.
"Ayan, ayos na?" He asked. My forehead creased, umayos ako ng tayo at inabot
ang mukha nya para tanggalin ang lipstick.
I put my finger above his lip to clean the stains but my mouth hanged open when
he caught it and kissed the back of my hand.
"Thorn!" I hissed and tried pulling my hand but he just smiled at me and kissed
it again.
The next morning I came to the site and met the Engineer.
Engr. Clark Espirito was the one assigned to do the project with me, una palang
ay alam ko nang magaling sya. We talked about the plans and we never had trouble
doing that because we both like each other's plans.
Nakausap rin namin nung araw na 'yun sina Thorn at ang board at wala silang
problema sa mga gusto naming gawin.
I was on the site one morning as I inspect the workers, I was holding the blue
print at nasa tabi ko si Engineer habang nakikipag-usap sya sa mga tao roon.
Engr. Espirito is still young, almost a year older than me. Masaya sya kasama,
we often joke around kahit sa trabaho para hindi kami ma-bored na dalawa.
"After this, Architect, what's your next project?" Aniya habang nasa tabi ko.
"I have a housing project after this then pagkatapos 'nun, wala pa naman..."
Sabi ko sa kanya.
"That's good to hear then," He smiled at me. "I have a proposal, I think we
both click."
 "Yeah?" I chuckled and he nodded at me and fixed my hard hat.
"Yup," Aniya. "I have a project this coming December abroad, would you mind
being my Architect?"
"Why not?" I exclaimed. "It'll be my pleasure..."
"That's good to hear!" He laughed at me, adoration is visible on his eyes.
"Send me the proposals maybe after the housing project?" I told him, smiling
sincerely.
"Of course, can I get your number so I can message you if--"
"Here..." Napalingon ako at nagulat nang makita si Thorn na nasa tabi ko na.
"Mr. Valderama?" Ani Engineer.
"Here's my calling card, you can text me instead about her proposals..." Aniya.
Napalabi ako, nakita kong naguguluhang inabot ni Engineer ang calling card nya.

"Okay, Mr. Valderama..." Ani nito na nalilito pa rin. My

lips protruded, I was about to fight with Thorn when I saw him not wearing a hard
hat kaya napasinghap ako at pinitik ang noo nya.
"Aww, what?" He exclaimed.
"Bakit walang kang hard hat?!" I exclaimed. Nakita kong napakamot sya ng kilay
at sumimangot sa akin.
"Kasi nga nagseselos ako d'yan sa--"
"Ang kulit mo talaga!" I hissed, mabilis kong hinawakan ang braso nya at hinila
sya papunta sa isang gilid.
"Kapag nasa construction site ka, you have to wear this!" I lectured him,
"Paano kapag nalaglagan ka ng mga bato d'yan sa ulo edi naospital ka!"
"Concern ka?" He smiled cheekily.
"Asshole," Sikmat ko. He chuckled heartily, nakita ko ang pagkislap ng mga mata
nya roon at inabot ko ang hard hat sa isang gilid at hinila ko sya pababa.
I tiptoed to let him wear the hat at tumungo sya maabot ko. Ipinatong ko iyon
sa ulo nya, pagbaba ko ng tingin ay magkatapat nanaman ang mukha namin at bago pa
nya ako malandi ay tinampal ko ang bibig nya.
"H'wag mo nang subukan..." Banta ko kaya napatawa sya roon at tumango.
Napaiwas naman ako ng tingin dahil kumalabog ang dibdib ko ng malakas.
The days passed, I am focusing more to the hospital to finished my job earlier
than usual. Naisip ko, if I finished this then there's no way I'll get to see
Valderamas again.
I hate being with them for it only bring the memories back, si Thorn din ay
ayaw mapirmi sa isang tabi at sunod ng sunod at puro lang kami bangayan ni Dra. Lim
kaya naiinis na ako.
I have to finish this and return back to my life, I do overtimes, I skip meals,
minsan nga ay pati sa bahay ito na ang ginagawa ko para lang matapos kaagad. Hindi
ko na nga minsan napagtutuunan ang anak ko at naiinis ako sa sarili.
"Here," Nag-angat ako ng tingin at nakitang inilapag ni Thorn ang isang yakult
sa harapan ko.
"Ano nanamang drama mo ngayon?" I asked him.
"Nothing, just visiting you..." Aniya at ngumiti. "Sorry hindi kita nasabayan
mag-lunch, I was with a patient earlier..."
"Di naman talaga ako nagpapasabay sa'yo," Reklamo ko. "You were just barging
out of nowhere at makikisingit kapag kakain ako..."
He bit his lips, nakita kong ngumuso sya para itago ang ngiti at tinusok ang
maliit na straw sa yakult at iniabot sa akin.
"Are you alright? Matamlay ka..." Pagpapansin nya sa akin.
"Hmm? Oo," I answered. Napatitig ako sa yakult sa lamesa ko at napailing pero
inabot rin iyon at ininom.
"Are you sure?" He asked. Nag-angat ako ng tingin, I saw him staring softly at
me and lifted his hand to touch my cheek.
Napapikit ako roon at napabuntong-hininga.
"I was just a little tired," I whispered.
 Nawala ang kamay nya sa pisngi ko, I thought he would leave pero nagitla nalang
ako nang lumutang ako sa ere.
Sa pagmulat nang mata ko ay nakita kong buhat-buhat na nya ako. His strong arms
is carrying me, his other hand behind my knee and the other was guiding my back
softly.
"Thorn?" Matamlay kong sabi. "Saan tayo?"
He did not answer, he just walk and I got to see his face closer, he has this
serious look on his face as he stare at somewhere.

Ibinaba nya ako at nagulat nalang ako nang inihiga nya ako
sa sofa. Nag-angat ako ng tingin sa kanya, nakita kong inabot nya ang isang unan
doon bago inilagay sa ulo ko.
"Sleep first," Aniya.
"Huh? But I have work--"
"Come on, Zid. Please, take a rest..." Aniya. I sighed, nakita kong hinubad nya
ang suot na labgown at marahang ipinatong sa katawan ko.
Dumukwang sya sa tabi ko, bumigat ang mata ko nang haplusin nya ang buhok ko at
humalik sa noo ko.
I slept peacefully and that was the first time again, kadalasan kasi ay
nakakatulog lang ako ng mahimbing at walang panaginip minsan kapag katabi ang anak
ko so now, sleeping peacefully is kinda weird.
I woke up in my office, medyo madilim na ang langit at naalala kong nakatulog
nga pala ako kanina dahil sinabi ni Thorn.
I stared at the watch, bakit kaya wala akong panaginip? It's so refreshing to
feel and sleep tight!
Tumagilid ako ng higa at napaawang ang labi ko nang makita si Thorn sa tabi ko
habang nakasalampak sa lapag at nakasandal sa sofa.
I bit my lip, napasulyap ako sa kamay ko at parang may kung anong humaplos sa
puso ko nang makitang hawak nya ang kamay ko.
I blinked, wala sa sariling pinagmasdan ko ang kamay kong hawak nya at inabot
iyon palapit sa dibdib ko. I clutched our hands together on my chest and closed my
eyes.
Is it you, then? You're still the reason why my nightmares disappears?
I stared at him and saw his glasses, malalaglag na iyon sa mga mata nya dahil
sa lalim ng tulog nya kaya napangiti.
I reached for it and removed it from his eyes at napansin kong gumalaw sya
roon.
His face stays the same, the combination of softness and hardness of his
features didn't even changed. He just got more matured and manly compared to his
looks years ago.
Hanggang ngayon ay maharot pa rin sya at malandi minsan. Kahit saan ako pupunta
kapag wala syang pasyente ay sunod sya ng sunod na parang ewan minsan at naninira
ng araw.
He was still sweet and witty just like what he is years ago...
I froze when our eyes met, parang walang lakas na napatitig ako sa kanya at
nakita ko ang pagngiti nya ng maliit at ang pag-usog nya palapit sa akin.
"You slept well?" His husky voice said.
"Hmm..." I hummed softly and nodded, mas lumapit pa sya sa akin, he rested his
face just beside mine on the sofa and kissed my head.
"You hungry? Kain na tayo?" Bulong nya.
"Can I bring Clyte?" Bulong ko pabalik. "She told me she wanna eat outside
tonight..."
Lumayo sya sa akin, I saw how his eyes lightened and he nodded at me.
"Of course," He smiled. "Let's fetch the little kiddo, then..."
Inalalayan nya ako patayo sa sofa. I stayed there, fixing myself and he fixed
himself too. He was smiling, I saw happiness on his eyes as he find his car keys.
Suddenly, I felt dizzy. Napapikit ako roon, I bit my lip and closed my eyes to
relax pero parang nanghihina ang katawan ko.
"Thorn..." I called him.
"Yes?" Nilingon nya ako. I heaved a deep breath and I saw how his eyes panicked
at that. I can feel myself losing balance but he ran faster and catch me before I
lost my consciousness.
My head's hurting, I woke up with soft voices talking.
"I have to talk to her, she's been hiding this for years, Dash!" A familiar
voice said.
"Then, we should atleast let her rest for awhile, Kuya... She's stressed..."
I opened my eyes slowly, only to find a familiar four walled walls. I blinked,
adjusting my sight to the lights.
I moved my head slowly and find my brothers arguing beside me.
"K-Kuya?" I murmured.
"Princess!" Kuya Zeijan ran towards me at marahan akong inalalayan paupo sa
kama. I closed my eyes again and stared at them.
Kuya Zeijan was beside me and I saw my Kuya Iñigo's dark look. Kaagad akong
kinabahan roon at hindi ko alam kung bakit.
"Kuya?" I called them.
"Tell me, Zid..." Kuya Iñigo sighed and his jaw clenched kaya mas kinabahan ako
roon.
My brothers are good but when they're like this, they become scary and honestly
looks ruthless...
Kuya Dash is shaking his head at nang sumulyap ako kay Kuya Zeijan ay tahimik
sya pero mariin ang tingin ng mga mata.
"W-Why?" I asked, still confused with their serious reaction.
"What happened, Zidney Agnieszka?" Ani Kuya Iñigo at nakita ko ang pamumula ng
mga mata nya sa ambang mga luha.
"Tell us what happened three years ago..." He asked me and my mouth parted.
"H-How..." Pumiyok ako at nakita kong tumulo ang luha sa mga mata ni Kuya Raf
at mariing nagmura si Kuya Zeijan at Kuya Dash roon.
"W-Why didn't you tell us, Princess?" He asked me softly and I cried and
sobbed.
"S-Sorry, Kuya..." I whispered. "I...I was scared..."
"Damn it..." He cursed hardly and combed his hair frustatedly. "It's true,
then?"
My heart pound harder this time, napasulyap ako sa kanilang tatlo bago tuluyan
humagulgol at tumango.
"H-Help me, Kuya..." I whispered and sobbed when my brothers enveloped me in
warm hugs as they cried with me.
Kuya Iñigo pulled away from the hug, I saw his jaw clenching, his dangerous
blue eyes piercing.
"Dash, prepare the private jet..." Ani Kuya.
"Noted," Kuya Dash nodded and stared at me softly with his black eyes.
"What's the name of that motherfucker?" Kuya Zeijan clicked his neck. "Mayor
Sebastian?"
"Yup." Kuya Dash answered seriously.
I saw Kuya Zeijan smirked. Umigting ang panga nya at nabakas ko ang galit sa
mga mata nya.
"Looks like I'm gonna break someone's neck..." He said at nang napasulyap ako
kay Kuya Iñigo ay seryoso lang sya roon pero kita ko ang muhi sa mga mata.
He looks dangerous, like our Dad as his blue eyes lost its emotion and was
replaced by ruthlessness.
"Set me an appointment with the police and the asshole's lawyer..." He said
dangerously and cold.
"And what about that asshole outside, Kuya Raf?" Ani Kuya Dash na mukhang may
masamang balak.
"You two hold him, let me kill that asshole myself..." He said and clicked his
neck.
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Kabanata 23

Have a safe night everyone! And happy happy birthday to

mamshie, Dhelmira na tagapagtanggol ni Thorn! You know naman who you are hahaha!
Keep slaying, girl! See you soon!♥
xxx
Kabanata 23
Tumalikod na sila sa akin, before I could even say anything ay nag-unahan na
'yung tatlo palabas.
"Kuya!" I exclaimed. Nawala sila sa paningin ko at sa panic ko ay kaagad akong
napaayos ng upo sa kama.
"Tangina, hawakan nyo 'yan!" My eyes widen when Kuya Iñigo's voice roared.
"What..."
"Gago ka!" Kuya Dash's voice hissed at napasinghap ako at dali-daling sinuot
ang tsinelas sa gilid ng kama at tumakbo palabas.
I was panicking, the moment I opened the door, I saw my two brothers holding
both of Thorn's arms and Kuya Iñigo is punching him!
"No! Kuya!" I exclaimed in horror.
I saw how Thorn's gaze shifted to me pero nang nasuntok sya muli ni Kuya ay
napaatras ito at napaubo.
"You fucking asshole! Ipinasayaw ko pa sa'yo ang kapatid kong hayop ka!" Kuya
Iñigo hissed and punched his stomach.
Kumalabog ang dibdib ko roon at napuno ako ng takot.
"Sige, Kuya Raf! Tangina nyan!" Kuya Zeijan cheered and held Thorn's arm
firmly.
Iniikot ko ang tingin ko, only to find the guards on the side and did not do
anything.
"Kill him!" Kuya Dash hissed. Sa paglingon ko ay nakita kong sinikmuran ni Kuya
Iñigo si Thorn kaya napamura ito at napapikit.
His mouth parted, I saw pain on his face kaya dagli kong nilingon ang mga guard
na walang ginagawa.
"Won't you do anything?!" I screamed.
I saw how they paled with my scream, nagtutulakan sila at akmang aabante pero
sumigaw si Kuya Zeijan kaya natigil sila.
"Subukan nyo at ipapatanggal ko kayo!" Kuya hissed. My eyes widen with his mad
voice, lumingon muli ako sa mga guard pero naabutan ko lang silang umiiling sa akin
at humihingi ng paumanhin.
"P-Pasensya na, Ma'am..." Ani nung isa.
"A-Ayaw po naming masesante..." I closed my eyes tightly and run my hand
frustatedly on my hair.
"Kuya!" I hissed but Kuya Dash pushed Kuya Iñigo and continued his beatings.
"S-Sorry..." Thorn coughed hard but Kuya Dash just slammed him on the wall and
punched his jaw.
"Tangina, h'wag kang papakita sa amin ulit!" Galit na galit na sigaw ni Kuya
Dash. Kuya Iñigo's eyes are still dark but he let Kuya Dash do some beating.
"Stop! Ano bang ginagawa nyo?!" I screamed at akmang lalapit pero may humawak
sa braso ko kaya napamura ako.
"What the hell are you doing?!" I hissed madly when the guards held my arms.
"M-Ma'am, pasensya na..." Ulit nito. Kumawala ako pero hindi nila ako
pinakawalan.
"I-I love her, I'm sorry..." Thorn looks seriously wounded and my heart ached
at that.
Nagkatinginan kami, I saw his gloomy eyes and my mouth parted to speak but he
shook his head and smiled a little like he wasn't hurt at all.
"Gago, kapag mahal mo hindi mo iiwan na putangina ka!" Kuya Zeijan bursted out
and pushed him on the floor, naluha ako ng makitang dumagan sya at sinasapak nya si
Thorn ng walang awa doon sa sahig.

Each punches are like steel, nakita ko ang pasa sa gilid ng

labi ni Thorn at ang pagdugo ng labi nito.
"I-I have no choice but--"
"My choice is to kill you!" Hindi lumaban si Thorn. I heard his groans of pain
with every punch my brother is giving. Kuya Iñigo cursed hardly and kicked him at
mas nasaktan ako roon.
"Kuya! Stop!" I screamed but they didn't even bulge.
Kuya Dash kneeled and was about to throw him a deadly punch ay biglang
napahikbi na ako.
"Enough!" I screamed, crying as I stare at them.
I saw how his arm remained in air, natigilan rin si Kuya Zeijan. Nakita ko ang
paglingon ni Kuya Iñigo kaya mas umiyak ako roon.
"S-Stop, please, stop..." I sobbed, begging them.
"P-Princess..." Nakita ko ang pagtayo ni Kuya Zeijan at ang galit sa mga mata
nya ay biglang naglaho.
Suminghap ako at umiling, hinila ko paalis ang kamay ko sa dalawang guard at
tinignan sila.
"Do you seriously want to hurt someone?" May hinanakit kong sabi.
"Princess, we're just trying to--" Kuya Dash murmured.
"S-Stop it, just stop..." I murmured with a shaking voice.
Medyo lumayo sila sa kinaroroonan ni Thorn, I saw him coughing there, a few of
his shirt's buttons are open, nakita kong napahawak sya sa tyan nya at bahagyang
tumagilid.
I felt sad at that, akmang lalapit ako sa kanya ay nagsalita si Kuya Iñigo.
"Stay there, Zidney..." Aniya sa malamig na tono. I stopped, muli akong
sumulyap kay Thorn na pilit na tumatayo pero tinutulak ni Kuya Zeijan pahiga kaya
nangunot ang noo ko.
"Kuya..." I called.
"You won't be seeing that asshole anymore..." Ani Kuya Iñigo sa akin.
Nanahimik ako, I saw how cold and scary my older brother look. Parang syang-sya
si Daddy kaya tumango ako ng marahan.
"Z-Zid..." Thorn called and did his best to atleast sit pero ayaw syang bitawan
ni Kuya Zeijan at tinulak pa pahiga.
"Humiga ka lang para mas madrama!" Kuya Zeij hissed. Nasapo ko ang mukha ko,
biglang tumawa si Kuya Dash at umigting ang panga ni Kuya Iñigo.
"Shut up, Zeijan!" He exclaimed.
Nanlaki ang mata ni Kuya, mabilis syang tumayo at tumikhim bago tumango.
"Sorry na," He said and smiled at me pero kinunutan ko lang sya ng noo.
"You are forbidden to see this family again..." Ani Kuya sa akin at kaagad kong
nakita ang tumatakbo mula roon sa malayo.
"Thorn!" Stella exclaimed, nakita kong mabilis syang tumatakbo palapit roon
kasunod ang asawa nya at si Katrin.
Kuya Iñigo and my two brothers went to my side, kaagad akong hinawakan ni Kuya
Dash at nakita kong parang hinaharangan ako ni Kuya Zeijan na parang guard sya.
Kuya Iñigo remained standing there, cold and untouched, I saw him took a glance
at the Valderamas who's been helping Thorn to get up from the floor.
"Sinong may gawa nito sa anak--"
"Me..." Kuya Iñigo said.
I saw how Stella's eyes widen when he realized it's the Sandejas standing
infront of them.
"A-Atty. Sandejas?" Gulat na sabi nito.
I saw Katrin helping Thorn at pilit itong hinahawakan pero lumalayo sa kanya si
Thorn at pinupunasan ang dugo sa labi nya.
 "Bakit..." Ani Stella. I saw Stevan silently sighing there,
si Kat ay pilit pa ring tinutulungan ang ayaw magpahawak na si Thorn.
"Maybe you remembered how you treated my sister, right?" His cold voice said.
Nakagat ko ang labi ko, niyakap naman ako ni Kuya Dash kaya sumubsob ako sa
dibdib nya at pumikit.
"P-Pero paano mo..." Her voice started shaking, sa pagmulat ko ay nakita kong
kinakabahan ang mukha nya habang si Katrin ay nakasimangot sa akin.
Thorn was standing there with his lowered head. Nakita kong di na sya maayos na
makatayo pero pinipilit nya.
"Ask your son, he confessed everything..." Nagulat ako roon. Miski ako ay
napaharap kay Thorn at nakitang punong-puno ng pagsisisi ang mukha niya.
I saw his broken glasses on the ground kaya suminghap ako.
"Why..." Nakita ko ang pangingilid ng luha ni Stella roon. "A-Atty. Sandejas,
hindi naman sa ganoon 'yun--"
"I am not my father but I can stop all your negotiations with the Sandejas,
Mrs. Valderama..." Kuya said.
"Tama, tama!" Bulong ni Kuya Zeijan sa tabi kaya binatukan siya ni Kuya Dash at
muli akong niyakap.
"Attorney..." Ani Stella. "H-H'wag namang ganyan, we've started the proje--"
"Then stop it," Sagot nya. I saw how my brother evilly smirked and I saw Mr.
Valderama shaking his head.
Nang magtagpo ang mga mata namin ni Thorn ay nakita ko ang humihingi ng tawad
nyang mga tingin sa akin.
"Sorry..." He mouthed at para hindi makaramdam ng awa sa itsura nya ngayon ay
nag-iwas ako ng tingin.
"Atty., maybe we can talk about this..." Nagulat ako nang magsalita na si
Stevan roon. "It'll be hard to stop the project now, marami na ang nagawa sa--"
"Is that my problem now, Mr. Valderama?" Kuya Iñigo asked at nakita kong
natigilan si Stevan roon. "After knowing everything, you think even my father will
have mercy in your project?"
"Attorne--"
"What you did was fucking horrible," Kuya Iñigo said dangerously. "And the last
thing we would want to happen is for our youngest to get hurt."
Natahimik silang lahat, lumayo ako kay Kuya Dash at hinawi ang natuyong mga
luha ko.
"The Sandejas will pull the investment out," Ani Kuya. "Let's go..."
Naguguluhang sumama ako sa kanya. Kuya Iñigo put his arm above my shoulder
while the two stayed behind me.
"Attorney, please! Pag-usapan nalang natin!" Stella exclaimed in desperation
but he did not look behind.
"Wait, Zid!" I was shocked when Thorn reached us, hinawakan nya ang braso ko
kaya napalingon ako sa kanya.
I was in awe looking at his closer look, may pasa ang pisngi nya at dumudugo
ang hiwa sa labi nya.
"Thorn..." I murmured.
"C-Can we talk, please..." Nagmamakaawang sabi nya pero natulak sya palayo ni
Kuya Dash.
"Leave her alone!" He hissed.
"S-Saglit lang po, I promise, wala akong gagawing masam--"
"I said leave her alone!" Kuya Dash scowled at him at nakita ko ang pagtulak
nya kay Thorn kaya napaatras ito at mariing umigting ang panga at tumungo.
"K-Kuya..." I called Kuya Dash but he shook his head and pointed the way.
"We will go home, Zidney." Aniya sa matigas na tono at inakay akong muli ng
tahimik pero galit na si Kuya Iñigo.
 We went home in silence, tanging si Kuya Zeij lang ang nag-
iingay at nagjojoke pero nasusupalpal lang siya ni Kuya Dash sa backseat.
"Ito last na!" Ani Kuya Zeijan pagkatapos nilang magsakalan sa backseat ni Kuya
Dash.
"Can't you shut up, Zeijan Ruias?" Kuya Iñigo said sharply as he drive the car.
He was wearing a plain gray shirt and pants.
"Hindi na, Kuya Raf! Sige na! Last na!" Pagmamaktol nya.
"Seryoso, Zeij, kung hindi lang namin nabasa 'yung kalandian mo sa text,
iisipin kong bakla ka..." Ani Kuya Dash.
"Gago, mas gwapo pa nga ko sa'yo!" Kuya Zeij hissed. "Akala mo, ano, gusto mo
kiss kita?" He teased his brother.
"Tangina mo, kadiri!" Kuya Dash exclaimed kaya tumawa itong isa.
"Ito na, bilis, 6+5?" He asked.
"Eleven, asshole..." Sagot ni Kuya Iñigo.
"Ilan kamay mo?" Aniya.
"Sampu!" He answered.
Kuya Zeij bursted out laughing, clapping his hand at nagulat ako roon. What's
wrong?
"Ang dami mo namang kamay! Sakin dalawa lang e!" He answered. My mouth parted,
bigla akong natawa nang marealize iyon at humagalpak rin si Kuya Dash sa likod.
"Witty..." Kuya Dash said at tawang-tawa lang si Kuya Zeij. Kuya Iñigo was
smiling but shaking his head.
"Naisahan ako, langya..." Bulong nya kaya natawa ako roon.
I went home with a happy yet a heavy heart instead. Kaagad akong sinalubong ng
anak ko pagdating kaya kaagad akong ngumiti at humalik sa pisngi nya.
"How's your day, baby?" I whispered.
"Good, My! Play barbies!" Aniya na masayang-masaya.
"Hey, are you alright?" Kaagad akong napalingon at ngumiti ng makita ang
papalapit na si Ate Thallia at Ate Kaia.
"Opo..." I smiled a little.
"Maupo ka nga, magpahinga ka..." Ani Ate Thallia at kinuha naman ni Ate Kaia si
Clyte at naupo sa tabi ko.
"Bakit ka nahimatay?" Ate Kaia asked.
"Stress at pagod daw, Ate Reah..." I said. Her eyes soften and she nodded at
me.
"Subsob ka kasi sa trabaho..." Aniya sa akin.
"And what happened to your brothers? Mukha silang problemado..." Ate Thallia
asked at nang napatingin ako sa tatlo ay lahat sila may kausap sa telepono habang
seryoso.
"It's a long story..." I sighed. Kaagad akong napatingin kay Kuya Zeij nang
bigla syang magmura roon habang may kausap.
"Alyx? Damn, where are you?" Mariing sabi nya. "Shit, answer me..." He closed
his eyes at maya-maya'y nagulat ako nang tumakbo sya paalis.
Nagkatinginan kaming tatlo and we just sighed at niyakap ako ni Ate Thallia
kaya yumakap din ako sa baywang nya habang nilalaro ni Ate Reah ang anak ko.
Clyte was already asleep and I decided to stay on my balcony and drink wine.
Tahimik ko itong sinisimsim habang nakatulala kung saan.
My brothers told me I shoudn't be scared anymore, Thorn really told them
everything, from my Nanay to that day he left me in the bus station.
I coudn't blame my brothers because of what they did, I understand them, dahil
sobrang nasaktan rin ako dahil doon at alam kong sobrang sakit din nito para sa
kanila.

My family loves me so much and I coudn't get any thankful

of that. Pakiramdam ko ay para akong diyamante na ayaw nilang mahawakan ng iba
dahil mababasag.
They treated me like a princess, like I was the lost treasure they finally
found after years of searching.
I love them so, so much. My brothers, daughter and my parents are my gifts from
God after those years I've suffered.
With the effect of the alcohol, I fell asleep and woke up faintly. Nasa mga
kapatid ko ang anak ko paggising ko at napilit ko pa silang babalik ako sa ospital
nila Thorn para kunin ang gamit ko.
They are really decided, nang makauwi si Dad kinabukasan kasama ang Mommy ay
kaagad na nilang pinawalang-bisa ang kontrata nila. They paid for all the damages
at dahil ang Kuya ang abogado ay madali nila itong naayos.
I was walking in the hallway of the hospital to get my important things in the
office. Isasama ko sana si Vane para kunin na rin ang mga gamit nya pero may
pupuntahan daw sya kaya bukas nalang nya kukunin.
I saw the staffs looking at me with uneasiness in their eyes. They looked
honestly intimidated by my presence, sa bawat pagbati nila ay diretso lang ang
lakad ko at hindi sila iniimik.
I remembered how people look down on me when I was still the young, naíve girl,
Scira, compared to how they looked up on me when I am Zidney Sandejas.
I realized that in this world, madalang nalang ang magmamahal sa'yo ng kung ano
ka, sa panahon ngayon, mamahalin ka nalang nila base sa kung anong meron ka...
Guess, being a Sandejas does ring a bell?
"S-Scira..." I stayed still when I heard that name. Lumingon ako at nagulat
nang makita ang mga nurse ko dati.
It was Nurse Lei and Nurse Elisha on my sight.
"Uhm, m-mayaman ka na pala ngayon..." Nurse Lei murmured.
Hindi ako nagsalita, nanatili akong nakatingin sa kanila at narinig ko ang
tikhim ni Nurse Elisha.
"Uh, S-Scira, pasensya nga pala sa nangyari dati..." Aniya.
"Ay, oo..." Ani Nurse Lei. "K-Kung may kailangan ka o ano--"
"I don't need anything," I cut her off.
"Uh, pero Scira, sana h'wag kang magtanim ng sama ng loob sa--"
"Don't wanna cut you off but I am losing a lot of time talking to you..." I
said and her mouth parted in shock.
She was about to say something but I turned my back on her and walked away.
My heart feels heavy as I am walking away, I still remembered how that people
treated me while I was still in the hospital.
I went to my office and get all my important stuffs, my laptop, blue prints and
such. Sumulyap ako sa lugar bago napabuntong-hininga.
The project is almost great but I can't do anything about it.
I brushed my hair with my fingers and went out of the room.
"Ms. Sandejas!" My forehead creased when I saw Stella Valderama walking closer.
Nang mapunta sya sa harapan konay kaagad sya nagsalita, bakas ang malambot na
ekspresyon sa mga mata.
"Zidney, hija..." Aniya. "Y-Yung tungkol sa project, pwede bang pakiusap mo ang
magulang mo?"
Hindi ako nagsalita roon but she remained speaking.
"P-Pasensya na, hija sa mga nagawa ko dati... Pangako, pangako di ko na ulit
gagawin 'yun!" Aniya at umiling-iling.

"Mrs. Valderama..." I said.

"Please, h'wag namang ganto..." Aniya sa mahinang tono. She was teary eyed and
I coudn't found any soft spot in my heart at that.
"K-Kung gusto mo si Thorn, hija, h-hindi ako tututol!" Aniyang desperada na.
"P-Pakiusap, h'wag mo namang hayaang--"
"I'm sorry, Mrs. Valderama." I sighed and stared at her. "But I am not my
father, hindi ko hawak ang kontrata..."
"H-Huh? Pero baka pwede mo naman syang makausap--"
"You talk to him yourself," I said in a low tone. "I coudn't do anything about
that, I'm sorry..."
Her mouth parted and I sighed and shook my head.
"I'm sorry, Mrs. Valderama..." I said and turned my back at her.
She was calling me but I never had the guts to look at her from my back.
This is what you deserve, you left me a permanent scar in my heart and it'll be
forever stuck in here.
"You bitch!" I screamed in shock when someone pulled my hair. Bumagsak ang
gamit ko sa gulat at sa paglingon ko ay nakita ko ang galit na galit na si Dra. Lim
habang nakatingin sa akin.
"What the heck do you think you're doing?!" I hissed.
"You slut! Akala mo porket mayaman ka na ay sasamba na lahat sa'yo!" She
screamed. I gasped nang humapdi ang anit ko roon.
"Damn!" I cursed and pulled her hair back with more force. Napatili sya sa
sakit at hinila ang buhok ko ng mas masakit kaya iniangat ko ang isang kamay ko at
inilagay rin sa ulo nya.
"Atleast I have class unlike you!" I screamed back.
"Ang kapal ng mukha mong bumalik pa, malandi ka!" Sigaw nya at napasinghap ako
ng kalmutin nya ang braso ko.
"Damn you!"
"Akin si Thorn, naiintindihan mo?!" Sigaw nya. "He's mine! Mine!" I pushed her
and stared at her sharply.
"Edi sa'yo na lamunin mo!" Sigaw ko. When she attempted to slap me ay kaagad
kong hinawakan ang braso nya at inunahan sya ng sampal.
My slap made a sound, I saw how her mouth parted at that as she touched her
cheek.
"Malandi ka!" Tili nya at sinugod ako, napaatras ako roon at nawalan ng balanse
dahil sa bench sa likuran ko.
I fell on the floor at nakarinig ako ng sigawan nang dambahin nya ako at hinila
ang buhok ko.
"Get off me!" I hissed and pulled her hair. She looks like she'd just went on a
war kaya sinipa ko sya.
Napadaing sya, natumba sya sa lapag kaya ako naman ang dumamba sa kanya at
sinampal sya.
"Matagal na akong naiinis sa'yong babae ka!" Sigaw ko.
"Gosh! Help!" She screamed.
"Oh, now, you're weak?" I mocked her.
Narinig ko na ang pagkakagulo sa likuran namin pero ginagantihan ko pa rin ang
pagkalmot nya.
"T-Thorn! Help!" She screamed at nagulat ako nang kalmutin nya ang pisngi ko
kaya nawalan ako ng balanse.
I fell again, pumaibabaw sya sa akin at akmang mananakit nang may humila sa
kanya pataas.
"Enough, Kat!" A baritone voice roared.
Sa pag-angat ko ng tingin ay nakita ko si Thorn habang hawak si Katrin sa
dalawang braso.
"T-Thorn! Thorn, help me!" She exclaimed at him.

My forehead creases, nananakit ang likod ko sa pagsalampak

ko sa lapag pero gustong-gusto ko syang sakalin.
She hugged his neck and cried.
"T-Thorn, hindi ko naman sya sinasaktan!" Sumbong nya. "She just pulled my hair
and hurt me!"
Hindi lang tarsier, dapat pala award-an rin ito ng Oscars dahil sa galing sa
pag-acting!
I saw the staff looked at me with sympathy and I hate it. My jaw clenched as I
stared at her hugging Thorn and crying like a loser.
Nang magsalubong ang mga mata namin ni Thorn ay kaagad akong nag-iwas ng tingin
at mabilis na kinuha ang mga gamit ko sa lapag at mabilis na tumayo.
"Zid!" I saw Thorn pushing the crying bitch away from his chest and I rolled my
eyes and hugged my laptop.
Kahit iika-ika dahil sa nasirang sandals dahil sa pagkakatipalok at gulo-gulong
buhok ay nagmartsa ako palabas.
Pinagtitinginan ako dahil sa itsura ko pero wala na akong pakialam, I was
walking straight, still with my head held high. I walked with confidence kahit
mukha na akong gusgusin.
No one could ever make Zidney Sandejas melt. No one.
Nakalabas na ako nang building pero sigaw pa rin ng sigaw ang nakakairitang si
Thorn habang sumusunod sa akin.
"Zid, wait!" He exclaimed.
Hindi ako nakinig sa kanya, I am aiming to get inside my car and go first but
he was too quick. I screamed when he scooped me from the ground and carried me.
"Thorn!" I hissed.
"Stay still." Aniya at nakakunot ang noo at may band aid ang mukha.
"Get off me you freaking asshole!" I screamed and tried pushing him but he held
me closer to his chest.
"Calm down, my Queen..." Malambing nyang sabi.
Natameme ako roon, nang makitang napirmi ako ay nakita kong umangat ang sulok
ng labi nya.
"I-uwi mo nalang ako! My brothers won't like it if they see me with you!"
Pagpilit ko matapos ang ilang segundong katahimikan.
"I-uuwi kita," Aniya.
"Then let me go, kaya ko namang maglakad!" I hissed.
"Why are you so feisty now, hmm?" Aniya sa nang-aasar na tono kaya hinila ko
ang buhok nya.
"Damn you, Thorn. Ibaba mo sabi ako e!"
He opened his car's door, marahang ibinaba nya ako sa shotgun seat at mabilis
syang lumipat sa kabila para makapasok.
Nakakunot lang ang noo ko habang nakatingin sa kanya, nang ngumiti sya sa akin
ay umirap ako at inayos ang sandals ko.
How can he actually look so good with that freaking band aid on his face? Maga
pa nga ang pisngi nya pero ngingiti-ngiti pa sya! Akala mo gwapo ka, huh?
"Sumakit anit mo?" Tanong nya at inayos ang buhok ko. I eyed him harshly and
scowled.
"Obvious ba? Sinabunutan nga ako, diba?" I mocked.
He looks amused, I saw him lick his lower lip. Halos manliit ang mata ko sa
inis sa kanya, bakit tuwang-tuwa sya kapag galit ako?
"Let me fix that," Aniya at sinuklay ang buhok ko ng daliri nya.
"Bakit ka pa sumunod?" I asked him while he was fixing my hair. He has a new
pair of glasses now, brown ang kulay ng frame nito at mas bumagay sa mukha nya.
"Because you went outside," Aniya. "Of course, I'll follow you..."
"Oh, iniwan mo 'yung tarsier mo?" I asked. His forehead creased, bumaba ang
tingin nya sa akin na nagtataka.
"What?" He chuckled.
"Dapat hindi mo iniwan!" I exclaimed. "Dun ka sa kanya, diba? Ako nga daw ang
unang nanabunot e, she was crying like a baby, akala mo naman kagandahan!"
He bit his lip, stopping his smile. Pilit syang nagseseryoso pero nakita kong
nangingiti rin sya kaya napasimangot ako.
"Oh, now, you think I'm joking?" Reklamo ko.
"Oh, no... No..." He chuckled and shook his head. Akmang aabutin nya ang pisngi
ko pero hinawi ko ang kamay nya at nagsalita.
"Nung nakaraan pa ako naiinis d'yan! Sorry, huh, kung close kayo." I quoted the
word close. "But honestly speaking, parang sya dapat ang i-confine sa ward at
kailangan ng counseling!"
He chuckled, naiiling na sya sakin pero hindi ko matigil ang bibig ko sa
sobrang irita.
"Diba, kapag psychiatrist marunong mag-hypnotize?" I asked and he nodded,
staring softly at me with his amused smile.
"I-hypnotized mo nga 'yun minsan tapos pagnagawa mo, bigay mo sakin, ilalaglag
ko sa ilog Pasig--" I stopped when I saw him staring intently at me.
Hindi na ako nakapagsalita, his stare is too deep he can almost penetrate my
soul and thoughts. I somehow got lost in it, his dark, midnight black eyes still
hides a lot of secrets.
His eyes is like an abyss of eternity, walang hangganan, na para bang kapag
nahulog ka ay hindi na matatapos kailanman.
He suddenly grinned, bigla akong napakurap at bumalik sa sarili. I blinked my
eyes, umawang ang labi ko at nang sumulyap ako sa kanya ay natatawa na sya kaya
suminghap ako at pinalo sya.
"You used that trick on me!" I exclaimed.
"Matagal ko nang di nagawa 'yun," He chuckled and I hissed and slap his arm.
"I hate you! Muntik na ako!" Napailing-iling ako at kinurap pa ang mga mata ko.
"Nakakainis ka! I hate you, I hate you--"
"Love you, Reyna ko..." He cut me off.
My heart suddenly fasten in pace. I swallowed hard.
What the hell, Zid? You'll get swayed at that?
I cleared my throat and avoided his gaze.
"Uwi mo na nga ko..." Bulong ko.
He was silent for a while, nanatili syang nakatitig sa akin. I heard him sighed
and entered his keys to start the car.
"Is your Dad home?" He said after the silence.
"Oo, bakit?" Nagtatakang tanong ko.
"Let's go to your father, papabugbog ulit ako..." Aniya kaya napaubo ako doon
at nilingon sya.

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Kabanata 24

Kabanata 24
"Are you serious?" I asked him. He remained driving, I saw him bit his lip as
he slowly nodded at me.
"Yup..." Aniya na parang wala lang.
"You gotta be kidding me..." I hissed, shaking my head. "Look at you, ni hindi
pa nga gumagaling 'yang pasa at sugat mo!"
"It'll be fine, Zid..." Aniya at nilingon pa ako. He smiled at me reassuringly
but I just shook my head in annoyance.
"After you take me home, aalis ka na, okay?" I said. "Don't even think of going
in our house, you wanna get killed?"
"It'll be fine, I promise you..." He said.
I sighed, sinuklay ko ang buhok ko at pinagmasdan ang braso kong may kalmot
'nung tarsier na may lahing pusa.
"Are you hurt?" Aniya at sumulyap sa akin. Hindi ko sya sinagot at naiiritang
pinagmasdan lang iyon kalmot ko.
Suddenly, I felt him pulled the car over. I stopped, nilingon ko sya at nakita
kong tinatanggal nya ang seatbelt at lumapit sa akin.
"Let me see..." He said huskily. I didn't do anything when he held my arm
softly to examine my scratches, I saw him sighed and caressed it.
His eyes were deeply serious, like he has a problem as he stare at my skin. His
thick, silky brows furrowed, almost meeting each other.
His reddish lips slightly parting and his angled jaw clenching tightly.
"Why?" I asked.
"Nothing, I just wanna say sorry..." He sighed. Nakita kong binuksan nya ang
maliit na compartment sa kanyang sasakyan at kumuha ng ointment roon.
"It's not your fault anyway," Sabi ko. "It's that woman, I wonder kung paano mo
sya natiis ng ilang taon?" My forehead creased.
"We weren't seeing each other that often," Aniya.
"Oh? Thought you'll marry her?" I asked him stiffly.
He stopped, I saw him closed the ointment and put my hand slowly on his.
"It wasn't true..." Aniya sa akin.
"Oh, really?" My brows raised at him. "I remembered it clearly, Mr.
Valderama..."
"Zid..." He sighed, dinala nya ang kamay ko sa labi nya kaya sumimangot ako at
hinila ito mula sa hawak nya.
"I came and looked for you," He whispered. Hindi naman ako umimik roon at
tumitig sa kawalan. Humalukipkip ako roon at nagsalita pa sya.
"I...did everything but I coudn't find you..." He said quietly.
"Then you didn't do everything," I stopped him, staring at the empty road.
"K-Kung nakakilos lang ako kaagad, I should have find you sooner..." He
whispered. Nilipat ko ang tingin ko sa kanya at nakita kong nakatingin lang sya sa
manibela at parang wala sa sarili.
"Why?" I asked. I saw him stilled for a while and stared at me.
"Nothing..." He whispered. "It's my fault anyway... I abandoned you, I'm a
coward..."
"Did you regret it?" I asked with full of coldness.
"Noon, oo..." He said, staring at me, his eyes full of unnamed emotions. Every
glint of his eyes makes my heart beat fast.
"But now, not anymore..." He smiled sadly, heaving a deep sigh. "Seeing you
right now, made me happy. You're successful, you have your family back... You had a
lovely daughter and I'm really proud of that..."

Hindi ako nagsalita roon. My heart is beating fast and

hard, pakiramdam ko ay lalabas iyon sa dibdib ko kaya nanatili akong tahimik.
"That's what you won't have if you stayed with me..." Bulong nya, nabakas ko
ang sakit roon. "I am nothing, you see, sunod-sunuran lang ako sa mga magulang
ko... I was a good for nothing son, pakiramdam ko wala na akong nagawang tama..."
"I know I don't deserve you," He said. "Who's on their right mind to leave that
someone you love the most alone, right?" He chuckled, unamused.
"Ako lang ata..." Aniya. "I-If I can take everything back then I will but I
can't..."
I bit my lip and sighed, sa muling pagsulyap ko sa kanya ay nakita kong may
luha na sa mga pisngi nya pero pilit nyang itinatago ang mukha nya sa pagtungo.
"I-I'm sorry," He said. "Alam kong sawang-sawa kana sakin, alam kong para akong
tangang sunod ng sunod but I just want to make it up to you..."
"Even if I'm undeserving of your love, gustong-gusto pa rin kita. I told myself
to just leave you alone and let you live your life without me pero pinapahirapan ko
lang ang sarili ko..." Aniya.
"K-Kasi bawat oras na sinasabi kong hayaan ka na, kailangang-kailangan ka
nito..." He pointed his chest and I lowered my head as my tear fell on my cheek.
"I-I need you so much years ago, Thorn..." Sagot ko. "I-I was scared, I begged
you to come back but you didn't..."
I broke down, nanginig ang boses ko at napatungo habang sapo ang mukha ko. I
felt his hand on my shoulder at mas nanginig ako sa pag-iyak nang isubsob nya ako
sa dibdib nya habang hinahalikan ang buhok ko.
"I-If only I can, Scira..." Bulong nya. "Hindi kita hahayaang malayo sakin..."
"Y-You didn't know what my heart was made of the moment you left me..." Bulong
ko pabalik habang humihikbi.
"I'm sorry..." He whispered, his faint cries echoing my ear. "P-Patawarin mo
ko, Scira..."
The whole ride was filled with silence, kung hindi lang dahil sa malambing na
musika sa stereo ay parang magkakaroon na ng kuliglig sa paligid.
I am staring blankly at my hands and sighing almost everytime. Why did I cry?
Why am I letting my guards down again?
The walls I've created to keep my heart safe is slowly breaking at hindi dapat
ganun! You were tough, Zid! What are you doing now, huh?!
"What are you thinking?" He suddenly asked out of silence. I took a glance at
him and saw his strong arms on the wheels, his few veins showing behind the thin
hair of his arms.
He looked like a Greek God in a human's body, with his deep set of eyes and
black, thick eyebrows and hard features, walang-wala ang mga artista sa kanya.
"Zid?" He took a glance at me and that's when I came back to my reverie.
"Nothing," I blinked. "I'm just thinking of the new ways to shoo you away..."
Tumaas ang sulok ng labi nya, he took a glance at me, suppresing his smile as
he nodded.
"Hmm, okay, you do that..."
"Hindi ka na natitinag sa masasakit na salita e," I said. He chuckled, nodding
his head and his smiling eyes smiled at me.
"It hurts a lot but I can bear it," Aniya. "Think of more ways, Zid... Kaso
makakaya ko rin 'yan kahit ano..."
"Bakit ba kasi di mo nalang ako patahimikin?" I hissed, my irritation coming
back again. "You see, Doc, I'm a mother now, I have men all around me playing
around..."

I said, trying my best to turned him off but instead he

smiled, his face screams mockery and amusement.
"Clyte's adorable, I love her..." Aniya sa masayang boses at may kung anong
humaplos sa puso ko roon.
"Kahit... Anak ko sya sa iba?" I asked him, brows furrowed.
"Hmm," He said sincerely. "That child deserves everything in the world, I don't
care who is father is. Tanga nga lang kasi pinakawalan ka pa..."
"Edi tanga ka rin?" I spatted out annoyingly.
The amusement on his face faded. He eyed me seriously kaya napangiti na ako at
nailing.
"There, you smiled at me..." Aniya at ang ngiti ko'y naglaho. My lips protruded
as I crossed my arms on my chest.
"Lumayas ka na paghatid mo sa'kin, huh... Yari ka kay Daddy..." I said.
"I'm ready tho, nagstretching ako kanina..." He said and clicked his neck.
"Does your body hurt from yesterday?" I asked him.
"It hurts, your brothers slammed me on the wall and on the floor so..."
Bahagyang inunat nya ang likuran at pumikit pa.
Nang may maalala ay ngumuso ako. Muli akong sumulyap sa kanya na busy na sa
pagdadrive at nagsalita.
"You're thirty now, right?" I asked him curiously.
"Hmm, yes?" He said, confused. Napangisi ako roon at napasulyap sa braso nyang
namimintog pa.
Pano pa kaya sya nagkakatime mag-gym? I mean, he's a busy man so, I wondered...
"Oh, Kuya na pala kita..." I smirked.
He stopped, I saw how his forehead creased as he threw me a deadpan look.
"Shut up, Zid..." He hissed. Natawa ako, sumulyap ako sa paa nya at sa likuran
nya bago nang-asar.
"You probably shoudn't see, Dad..." I said and eyed his body.
"Napaisip kasi ako, I'm just concerned huh, kasi baka mapano ka... Ang kasu-
kasuan mo..." I mocked but gasped when the car stopped. Sa sobrang biglaan nun ay
napakapit ako sa seatbelt at nanlaki ang mata ko.
"What the heck do you--" My voice faded when I saw him staring darkly at me.
Nakatanggal na ang seatbelt nya at matiim lang ang tingin sa akin.
Nanuyo ang lalamunan ko, kinakabahan na ako sa tingin nya pero dahil strong ako
ay suntok sa buwan na nang-asar pa rin ako.
"B-Bakit, Kuya?" I said evilly.
 He moved his face closer to mine, my eyes widen with that at napasandal ako ng
mariin sa upuan ko dahil sa kanya.
"What did you say, hmm?" He asked me dangerously, without any humor in it.
Hindi ako nakasagot, my gaze fell on his reddish lips slighly puckering with
his teasing.
"Hmm, what is it, baby..." I swallowed hard with his sensual voice. Napahigpit
ang hawak ko sa seatbelt at mas nagpakain sa upuan ko.
"Na...Nag-aalala lang ako baka may arthritis ka na..." Hirit ko pang
kinakabahan.
"Ah-huh..." He hummed, mocking. "Would you like me to let you remember how you
screamed my name that night while I was above you and taking you slowly..."
The dirty and erotic images comes on my mind, me, scratching his back, moaning
his name as he thrust hardly inside me.
Oh, shit!
"Remember when I put my hands above your head, kneeling in between your knees
as I let you feel all the pressure... Remember how I sucked all your sweetness--"

"T-Tumigil ka nga!" I hissed on his face.

His face brighten, his brow raising as he licked his lower lip slowly right
before my eyes.
"Don't worry, My Queen..." He smirked, placing a soft peck on my lips. "I can
still do an all-nighter with you..."
Sumabog ang init sa pisngi ko, mabilis kong hinawi ang mukha nya palayo sa akin
at tinakpan ang bibig ko habang masamang nakatingin sa kanya.
"Y-You pervert! I-I..."
"Daming I..." He teased. Sumimangot ako.
"Don't worry, baby," He patted my head. "Your old man will make his baby scream
so loud in pleasure again..."
My mouth parted. Humagalpak sya ng tawa at tinakpan ko ang tenga ko bago
sumigaw at sinipa-sipa sya.
On our way home ay masama lang ang tingin ko sa kanya, he was chuckling
everytime he sees me.
"Manahimik ka nga!" I hissed.
"Hmm, ayaw..." He said childishly and grinned. Humalukipkip ako, I raised my
brow and shook my head.
I was supposed to irritate him pero ako na ngayon ang naiinis!
"We're here..." Aniya na nagpatigil sa akin. I immediately look around and saw
our mansion kaya umayos ako ng upo.
The car stopped, from my place ay kitang-kita ko si Daddy na naroon sa labas ng
gate at karga-karga ang anak ko.
He was talking to her habang sinasayaw-sayaw pa kaya nangiti ako.
"Uhm, you better go..." I told Thorn who was sighing hard beside me.
"Huh?" Aniya at nilingon ako. He suddenly become pale, I saw him bit his lip.
"Uwi ka na," I said. "Thanks for the ride..."
He blinked and shook his head. Nakita kong humawak sya sa pisnging may pasa at
lumunok.
"I can do this," He breathe. My brows furrowed.
"Bakit?" I asked. He stretched his hand, umunat-unat pa sya run at minasahe ang
panga nya.
My eyes widen when realization hits me.
"Don't tell me you'll be doing it?!" Gulat kong sabi.
He smiled and winked at me.
"Yup, pray for me, Reyna ko..." He smirked, heaved a deep sigh before doing the
sign of the cross and went out of the car swiftly.
"Oh, gosh!" I exclaimed. Tinignan ko sya habang naglalakad palapit sa Daddy ko
na hindi pa pansin ang presensya nya at napailing.
"You gotta be kidding me..." I breathe. "Damn, Thorn! Nandyan sina Kuya!" I
screamed but I know he coudn't hear me.
Dali-dali kong kinalas ang seatbelt ko at mabilis na lumabas ng sasakyan.
I saw him bowed a little and talked to my father at nakita kong pumapalakpak pa
si Clyte nang makita sya.
My father's forehead creased as he remained listening to him then suddenly, his
eyes darken. I saw how his jaw clenched tightly at kumalabog na ang puso ko nang
makitang inabot nya sa yaya si Clyte.
"You fucker!" I screamed when my Dad punched Thorn's bruised cheek.
"Dad! No!" I screamed.
"Sir, I'm..." Lakas loob na sabi niya kay Dad pero sinapak lang sya nito. I saw
him fell on the floor and I ran faster.
"Dad! Stop!" I said. I saw Clyte with her yaya.
"G-Go, To! Go, Papa!" She chuckled like she was watching barbies fighting with
each other.

"Ipasok mo si Clyte!" I exclaimed, panicking.

"Ay! Opo, Ma'am!" She exclaimed and carried my giggling daughter inside then I
heard her screaming as she enter.
"Ay, Ser Iñego! Ser Dash! Ser Zeejan! Hala e, round two na sa labas!" Sigaw nya
doon at tinatawag ang mga kapatid ko.
I cursed loudly. Sa muling pagsulyap ko sa dalawa ay nakasandal na si Thorn sa
bakal na gate ng mansion at sinasakal na sya ni Dad.
"S-Sir! Let me--" He coughed hard as he choke.
"Oh my God! Stop!" I screamed exaggeratedly.
"Hayop kang gago ka! Ang lakas ng loob mong pakita dito!" Sigaw ni Dad sa
mariin na boses.
I tried pulling my father's hand away from Thorn's neck as he lost his breath.
"Dad! No! Don't kill him!" I screamed.
"Shut up, Zidney! Stay there!" He hissed and let go of his neck. Sinapak nya
kaagad ng malakas si Thorn kaya muli itong bumagsak ay napaungol sa sakit.
"Nasaan na 'yung bakbakan?!" My eyes widen when I saw Kuya Zeijan running near
us.
Sa paglingon ko sa likuran nya ay naroon din 'yung dalawang kapatid ko. They
were pushing each other outside and I gasped when Kuya Iñigo rushed and punched
Thorn on his other cheek the moment he saw him.
"No!" I screamed in exaggeration.
Tatakbo na sana ako pero hinawakan ni Kuya Dash ang kamay ko at inilingan ako.
"Stay, Zidney!" He said strictly and kicked the groaning Thorn on the concrete.
I saw his bleeding lips, his eyes are too swollen and his cheeks reddened with
their every punch.
"Please! Stop!" Sigaw ko.
I saw Kuya Zeijan taking a video as he cheered for the three men beating Thorn.
"Wooh! Sige! Ganyan!" Sigaw nya.
I saw my Ate Thallia and Ate Reah rushing outside, panicking and I called them.
"Ate! Ate! Help!" I screamed.
Mas bumilis sila at nakita ko ang panlalaki ng mata nya habang nakatingin sa
mga lalaki.
"Iñigo!" Ate Thallia screamed. I saw Kuya Iñigo stilled, nakita kong
napakabilis ng pag-ayos nya ng tayo at mabilis na lumingon sa asawang sumigaw.
"B-Baby!" Alanganin syang ngumiti.
Ate eyed him seriously and my mouth parted when she marched near him and pulled
his ear away.
"Aww! Damn, baby!" Sigaw nito.
"You freaking jerk! What are you doing?!" She exclaimed at hinila si Kuya
papasok ng mansyon.
Sa paglingon ko naman sa kay Kuya Dash ay hinihila ni Ate Reah ang kwelyo ng
damit nya.
 "Dash! Isa!" Ate Reah exclaimed angrily.
Kuya Dash was determined to help my father.
"Dalawa!" She screamed. He didn't bulge and I saw how my sister's forehead
creased.
"Hindi ka titigil?" She spatted out. "Then, fine! Manakit ka d'yan! Hiwalay na
tayo!"
Doon na tumigil ang Kuya Dash, I saw his mouth parting. Mabilis syang nilingon
si Ate Reah pero sumimangot ito at galit na pumasok sa mansyon.
"K-Kaia!" Kuya Dash paled and he bit his lip nervously.
"You gotta be kidding me..." He said.
"I'll prepare the annulment, don't worry!" Ate screamed and Kuya Dash cursed
loudly and ran after her.

"Kaia! No! Babe!" He screamed and tried holding her but she
was pushing him.
Halos mawalan na ng malay si Thorn and I am doing my best to stop my Dad.
"Kuya Zeij! Help!" I hissed at him, he's still taking a video.
"Nah..." He grinned and I held my Dad's arm.
"Dad, no!" I begged.
"Ejercito!" Suddenly, a womanly voice roared the place. I saw how my father's
hand stopped mid-air.
I saw my Mom seriously looking at him from her place at nakita kong madilim ang
mukha nya.
Napaharap si Dad, I saw how his mouth parted and spoke.
"L-Lena, honey, I'm just..."
"Pumasok ka." She said strictly at walang pagdadalawang-isip itong umayos ng
tayo bago iwan si Thorn sa lapag habang nakasandal sa gate at bugbog-sarado.
Mabilis ko syang tinakbo, I held his cheek and my heart fasten in pace when I
saw his bleeding nose.
Sa paglingon ko kay Kuya Zeij ay nakaawang ang labi nya habang sinusundan ng
tingin si Dad.
"Tangina, understanding silang lahat!" He hissed unbelievably.
Humarap sya sa akin, nang nakitang nakaluhod ako sa harap ni Thorn ay bigla
syang tumawa ng alanganin at binack ang video sa phone nya, then he typed something
and I saw him talked to a person from the other line.
"Misis! Nakipag-away ako, pagalitan mo nga ako..." He giggled like a gay and
entered the mansion at napasabunot ako sa buhok sa inis at hinawakan si Thorn.
"Can anybody help me?!" I shouted.
My Dad and annoying brothers are seating on the couch, with their backs
straight. Kanina pa sila pinapagalitan ni Mommy at tahimik lang roon ang apat at
nakatungo.
Ate Thallia and Ate Reah are behind Mom, kanina pa nila inaaway 'yung dalawa.
Samantalang si Kuya Zeij ay walang umaaway kaya gustong merong aaway rin sa kanya.
I was shaking my head and sighed, dinampian ko ng cotton ang labi ni Thorn at
napaigtad sya roon.
"Ouch..." He whinned.
"Ikaw kasi," I sighed, hinawakan ko ng marahan ang panga nya at dinampian ito
ng cotton muli.
"Sorry..." He sighed. "I just wanna talk to your Dad, di ko naman aakalaing
sobrang lakas manuntok." Bulong nya.
"E diba, sabi ko, h'wag mo nang ipilit?" Nanliit ang mata ko.
"Kasi..." Ngumuso sya kaya diniin ko ang bulak sa labi nya kaya napasinghap
sya.
"Zid..." He breathe. I shook my head disapprovingly at him,
"Look at you, para kang kamatis na tinapakan!" I hissed. Ngumiwi sya, ang
namamaga nyang pisngi ay nakakabother.
Wala na! Nabawasan na ang mala-Greek God na mukha!
 "Kiss mo nalang..." He teased me. Nakarinig ako ng malakas na tikhim.
Napatingin ako sa mga lalaki at 'yun nalang ang panlalaki ng mata ko ng
makitang nakabaling sa amin 'yung apat habang nakatingin kay Thorn na nanahimik
bigla.
They were piercing him with sharp eyes, nakita ko ang pag-igting ng panga nila
habang nakatingin at nang lumipat ang tingin nila sa akin ay bigla kong sinampal si
Thorn.
"M-Manyak ka!" I groaned.
"Ouch!" He held his cheek and he looks like he's about to cry.
I bit my lip, I stared at his eyes and mouthed sorry at tumatangong napahawak sya
sa pisngi na nangingilid na ang luha.

While my Mother is lecturing the boys, I saw my daughter

running near us.
"Baby, slow down..." I told her but she didn't listen, I saw her crawled on the
sofa and my mouth parted when she smiled at Thorn.
"Hi, To!" She cheered. I saw Thorn sat properly, his eyes brighten as he held
her arm.
"Hi, Clyte..." He said sincerely.
"Karga?" Clyte offered her hand and Thorn smiled and carried her. She sat on
her lap and I saw her hugged Thorn's neck.
"Mishyow, Tito!" She said. My heart melted, nakita ko ang tamis ng ngiti ni
Thorn at ang paghalik nya sa pisngi ng anak ko.
"I miss you too, baby..." Aniya. "Tito loves you so, so much..." He said
gently.
Nakagat ko ang labi ko, nang magtagpo ang mata namin ni Thorn ay ngumiti sya at
kiniliti si Clyte na humahagikhik.
"I won't say sorry," Ani Kuya Iñigo na nakabusangot pa. Napalabi ako, I saw
Thorn silently sitting beside me like a lost puppy.
"Isa, Iñigo Rafael!" Ate Thallia hissed.
"Abogado ka pa man din, Iñigo..." Ani Mommy. "You know he can file a case on
what you all did, right?" Her brow raised.
"Yeah," Kuya rolled his eyes stubbornly. "Pero subukan nya, di na sisikatan ng
araw 'yan..."
Thorn coughed beside me as if he was choking at nakita kong ngumisi sina Dad at
ang dalawa kong Kuya roon.
"Dash, how about you bring Skye here?" Kuya Zeij asked.
"Huh, bakit?" Kuya Dash asked.
"Para may iba nanaman syang hahabulin, di na ako..." Kuya Zeij answered evilly.
My eyes widen, nakita kong nangisi ang mga walanghiyang lalaki habang si Thorn ay
pasimpleng humuhugot ng hininga sa tabi ko.
"Oh, ano bang pinunta mo dito?" My Dad suddenly asked. Natahimik kaming lahat,
I saw Thorn lifted his head and cleared his throat.
Naku, naku, sayang ang kutis! Mas may wala pa syang pores sa akin!
"Uhm, I just want to sincerely apologize for everything..." He breathe.
Mas tumahimik ang loob ng mansyon, even my daughter stopped murmuring and she
stared softly at Thorn beside her. Ang mga pamangkin ko ay naroon din kasama ang
mga yaya nila pero nakakagulat na tahimik, it was only his voice.
"I...know how thick my face is to even show myself here after what I did..."
Aniya. I saw his sincerity as he stare at my family.
"But...I just want to ask for your forgiveness, for everything... For hurting
the princess... For abandoning her..." Aniya sa mababang tono.
My heart constricted in pain, it was as if I was being squeezed.
"I...wanted to tell you all the reasons but I just want her to know first,"
Aniya at sumulyap sa akin. I avoided his gaze, tumikhim ako at niyakap ang anak ko
bago pumikit.
 "I'm sorry..." Aniya. "I want to prove my love for her whatever it takes, you
can all hurt me and I won't fight..."
"Aba, gusto pa, tara!" Kuya Zeij exclaimed.
"Zeijan Ruais!" Mom hissed. He bit his lip and nodded.
"K-Kahit gaano katagal, maghihintay ako... I will do everything to be worthy of
her." He sighed and stared at us, nakita kong ipinalibot nya ang tingin nya sa
aming lahat at nanlaki ang mata ko at napasinghap nang walang sali-salitang lumuhod
sya sa harapan ng pamilya ko at tumungo.

"P-Patawarin nyo po ako..." He whispered. I heard their

gasps, nakita kong napailing sina Ate sa gulat roon at gulantang ang mga kapatid at
magulang ko.
"T-Thorn..." I called him.
"I will do everything to prove myself, I will do everything I can to fight for
her... To love her and her flaws..." Bulong nya at nangilid ang luha ko.
"I hope you will give me the chance," Aniya. "I'm begging you, please..." He
begged.
My tear fell, I saw how he lower his head and his shoulders started shaking.
Hinawi ko ang luha ko at niyakap ako ni Clyte at bumulong.
"My, candies?" She whispered. I shook my head and kissed her cheek.
"Just hug Mommy, Clyte..." Bulong ko.
Thorn stayed there kneeling, I saw scratches just at the back of his elbow as
he kneeled there from the fight he had.
My Mom was teary eyed, I saw her removed the tear on her eyes and looked at my
Dad who was just staring at him.
Miski 'yung tatlo ay nanahimik rin, they were just looking at him.
"G-Gagawin ko po ang lahat... Pangako..." Aniya.
Sabay-sabay kaming napatingin kay Daddy nang humugot sya ng hininga at sinuklay
ang buhok nya gamit ang daliri. I saw him fixed his glasses as he sighed and tapped
his shoulder.
"Stand up, Mr. Valderama..." He said and I saw Thorn lifted his gaze to see
him.
"S-Sir..." Ani nito.
"You will prove yourself to my princess and not to us..." He said. Mas nagulat
ako roon, my Dad sighed and nodded.
"We are all assholes here," Aniya at tinuro ang mga kapatid ko. "We've all done
terrible things to our wives and we did everything for us to be forgiven..."
Nakita kong nagpunas ng luha ang Mommy ko sa sinabi ni Dad at lumapit sa kanya
sina Ate Reah at Ate Thallia para yumakap.
"You will only know if you were deserving of the love she has if you will prove
it to her." Aniya. "Begged her to take you back, tell her everything, let her feel
your love..."
I was touched with what my father was saying, nakagat ko ang labi ko at
hinalikan ang buhok ng anak ko habang nagpupunas ng luha.
"Admit your wrongs, fight for her, that's what a real man is, Thorn..." My Dad
said and smiled a little at him.
"I was amazed you let us beat the hell out of you," Nailing ito at natawa.
"I deserve it..." He answered.
"Oh, hell yes, you do..." Ani Dad at tumango. "But I'm telling you again, show
her your love and melt that wall she has in her heart years now..."
I saw Thorn nodded, he was crying softly there.
"I-I will, Sir... I promise, I wil..."
"Okay, then, stand up..." Ani Dad. Slowly, Thorn stood up, I saw his shaking
knees kaya dagli akong tumayo habang karga si Clyte at hinawakan ang siko nya.
Napalingon sya sa akin at nagulat ako ng higitin nya ako sa isang mahigpit na
yakap and because my Clyte is in the middle, she was squeezed there kaya humagikhik
sya at nakiyakap.
 "But anyway, Dad?" Suddenly Kuya Zeijan cut the silence kaya bahagya akong
sumilip sa balikat ni Thorn na nakasubsob pa rin sa leeg ko.
Napatingin sa kanya ang lahat, he smiled cutely and raise his hand.
"I disagree, kayo lang 'yung asshole, di ako kasama... Mabait ako 'e..." He
suddenly said.
"Oh, damn, here he is again..." Dad exclaimed at nakita kong nasapo ni Mommy
ang mukha nya at pagod na napatingin kay Dad.
"Jer, we should have abort him the moment he was born..." My Mom exclaimed and
I laughed, nakita ko namang binatukan ni Kuya Iñigo si Kuya Zeij na nakasimangot
na.
They let Thorn stay for dinner, kahit na hindi sya kinakausap nung apat na
lalaki ay mabait ang pakikitungo sa kanya ng Mommy. We ate in silence, kalong-
kalong ko si Clyte at nasa tabi ko si Thorn.
In the middle side of the long table is my Dad and beside her is Mom, sa
katabing gilid naman ay naroon si Kuya Iñigo kasama si Ate Thallia at ang mga bata
pati na rin si Kuya Zeij.
Ate Reah was just beside Mom and next to her is Kuya Dash with their kid.
"Here..." I was starled when Thorn put foods on my plate. Napatingin ako sa
kanya at nakita kong seryoso nya lang na inilalagay ang pagkain roon.
My baby is also watching him, I saw Clyte biting her fingernails as she stared
at Thorn innocently.
"My, I want Dada..." She suddenly whispered. I was shocked at that, mabilis
akong napaharap kay Thorn na nilagyan pa ng juice ang baso ko.
"You want him to be your Dada?" I whispered back.
"Hmm!" She nodded and her cute round eyes widen. "Yesh!"
Napaharap sa amin si Thorn, I saw him smiled when our eyes met and his eyes
went down to my daughter.
"What is it, Clyte?" He said gently.
"Dada?" Clyte smiled at him and my heart leaped when Thorn, bit his lip,
supressing his smile as he nodded at Clyte.
"You want me to be your Dada?" He whispered to my kid. She nodded, I saw how
Thorn shifted his gaze to me at nang tumango ako ng marahan ay malambing syang
ngumiti at binuhat si Clyte paupo sa hita nya.
"Anyway, Zid..." Kaagad akong napatingin ng magsalita si Kuya Iñigo.
"Po?" I asked him.
"A week from now, we'll be meeting Mayor Sebastian..." Aniya, "We'll be seeing
him in the court room..."
I stopped, bigla akong nakaramdaman ng panlalamig roon.
"Isn't it too sudden?" I asked. My heart started beating fast and hard.
"We have to do this as soon as possible," Aniya sa akin. "You want justice,
right?" He asked.
I nodded slowly, my hand trembled a bit as I remember everything. I closed my
fist, itinago ko iyon sa gilid ng upuan pero nagulat ako nang may palad na umabot
roon.
Napasulyap ako sa ilalim, I saw Thorn reached for my hand slowly. Kinakausap
nya si Clyte pero hinahaplos nya ang palad ko at marahang pinipisil.
"I'll be your lawyer, Princess..." My brother smiled reassuringly. "We'll give
your Nanay and Tatay justice..."
"Thank you..." I said sincerely at him and my hand calmed down with Thorn's
touch.
"But be ready, Princess..." Ani Kuya Zeijan.
"We won't settle just for the case, hindi lang iyon titigil dahil lang
d'yan..." Nakita kong huminga sya malalim at sumulyap kay Clyte na nakikipaglaro
kay Thorn.
"He wants his daughter back..." He said and I gritted my teeth and stared at my
Clyte.
No, the devil won't have this wonderful angel back.
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Kabanata 25

Long update ahead, unedited. Goodluck and goodnight!

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Kabanata 25
For the next few days ay inasikaso ko na ang dapat kong magawa para sa susunod
na linggo, we were getting ready for the case, ang sabi ni Kuya ay nagsampa na sya
ng kaso laban kay Mayor at ang hearing ay malapit na.
I was nervous, kapag pinag-uusapan ang Mayor ay kabang-kaba ako na hindi ko
maintindihan. I was sweating and my heart will beat fast everytime but despite
that, I have to overcome the fear and face the nightmare I've been avoiding to
dream eversince.
Napadalas ang pagdalaw nila Kuya sa mansyon nitong mga araw, especially now
that the Mayor will undergo trial. Mas mapanganib and the mansion's security
tightened and doubled.
Even Clyte has her own security na kasama nila palagi ng yaya nya para sa
kaligtasan nya.
Clytemnestra is my daughter, she may not come from my womb but she came from my
heart and that was enough reason for me to keep and take care of her.
Hindi ako papayag na ganun nalang ang gawin nila, he can't take everything from
me, never again. Like promise, I will keep my daughter safe for her mother, my dear
friend, Ritchelle.
"How about bodyguards, Princess?" My Dad asked me.
"I'll be fine, Dad..." I smiled. "Pagdating ko naman sa opisina ay maraming
guards doon, I'll be safe..."
He sighed, I saw him shook his head and pat my head.
"You're really a grown up now," He said. I smiled, hinaplos nya ang pisngi ko
at ngumuso.
"Dati, liit-liit mo pa..." He motioned the distance between the floor from his
hand kaya natawa ako roon.
"Grabe ka!" I exclaimed. He laughed, marahang hinila nya ako at niyakap bago
hagkan ang noo ko.
"Basta, you will still Daddy's princess kahit malaki ka na..." Aniya. "Take
care of your self, Zid, don't stress too much..."
"Thank you, Dad... I love you..." I smiled and kissed his cheeks.
"Love you too, now go, baka di ka na namin palabasin..." He teased kaya natawa
ako at humiwalay sa kanya. I kissed my Mom and my daughter goodbye before marching
outside the mansion.
I stopped and my mouth parted in shock when I saw Thorn leaning on his black
Range Rover. He was wearing a white collared dress shirt under his gray sweater and
jeans, his brown hair fixed upwards and an aviators placed on his eyes.
He was biting his lip and staring at his phone, I saw him playing with his keys
on his finger at kaagad na tumaas ang kilay ko nang nakitang seryoso sya sa
tinitignan sa telepono.
I cleared my throat, getting his attention at nakita kong mabilis syang
napaayos ng tayo at napatingin sa akin.
"Morning, Zid!" He said. Hindi ako nagsalita, I saw him put his phone on his
pocket.
"What are you doing here?" I asked him in a cold voice.
"Uhm, I'm fetching you... Ihahatid na kita sa opisina..." Aniya at tinanggal
ang aviators. I saw his black eyes looking sincere but I just rolled my eyes at
him.
"No, I have my car... I can go there without you..." I said.
"Come on, Zid..." Aniya. "Please, please..."
"Who let you enter the mansion anyway?" I asked him, my arms crossed on my
chest.
"Si Tita..." He smiled at me. I wasn't that shock at that, tumaas ang kilay ko
at pinasadahan sya ng tingin bago tumalikod at naglakad patungo sa sasakyan ko.

"I'll just take you to work..." He followed me around. I

shook my head but he just pouted and held my arm softly.
"Zid, please?" He said. My forehead creases, nilingon ko sya at sumimangot.
Wagas makatitig sa phone kanina tapos ngayon! Siguro katext nya 'yung tarsier!
"Stop pissing me off, you're annoying..." I spatted.
His lips protruded more and stubbornly shook his head at me and caught my eyes.
"Ihahatid lang kita. Promise! I swear I won't talk to you, if I'll piss you
off, di kita kakausapin. Sige na..." Pakiusap nya.
I stared at his eyes boredly and then smiled timidly.
"No," I said.
"I swear! Zid, hatid lang!" He whinned like a child.
"I can drive my own car..." Sabi ko sa kanya pero ayaw nya paawat.
"Hindi ako kikibo, promise!" He swear. "I'll just--"
"Uy, nandito 'yung bayani!" My forehead creased when I saw Kuya Dash on our
gate, papalapit sya habang nakapamulsa sa amin habang may malamig na ngisi sa labi.
"Kuya..." I called.
"Good morning, Sir..." Magalang na sabi ni Thorn at nakita kong tumaas ang
kulay ni Kuya Dash bago ngumuso at sinulayapan ang lalaki.
"Ay, pagaling ka na a..." He grinned. I saw Thorn swallowed hard, nakagat ko
naman ang labi ko at pinanlakihan si Kuya.
"Gusto mo, isang round pa--"
"Kuya Dash!" I hissed. Tumawa si Kuya roon at kumindat sa akin. "Yes,
princess..."
"Stop it." Ngiwi ko.
"Why? Kuya is just making his baby sister safe..." Aniya sa akin at lumapit
para bahagyang haplusin ang buhok ko.
"Don't hurt anyone," I told him. "Sige na, pumasok ka na 'dun, aalis na
kami..."
"Kasama mo 'yan?" Kumunot ang noo nya at bumaling kay Thorn.
"Oo," I answered. His mouth parted, he was about to say something pero tinakpan
ko ang bibig nya at tinulak sya patungo sa pintuan ng mansyon. "Bye, Kuya!"
"Zid!" He groaned, natawa ako, I immediately held Thorn's hand and pulled him
closer to his car before I entered on his front seat.
"Tara!" I called him, sa paglingon ko ay nanatili syang nakatulala sa akin sa
tabi ko. He was blinkling at me, almost in awe as he spoke.
"Akala ko..."
"Ayaw mo ba?" My brow raised. "Then, I'll just..." Akmang bababa ako pero
pinirmi nya lang ako sa upuan at mabilis na umiling.
"No, come on, let's go..." I saw a soft smile on his lips, he's almost grinning
at natawa ako ng dagli syang nagtatatakbo sa kabilang side at mabilis na sumakay.
He checked if I was wearing my seatbelt at nang makitang ayos na ay ginulo nya
ang buhok ko at pinaandar ang sasakayan.
"What did you do to my hair?!" I hissed, he chuckled, shaking his head.
"Hmm, don't worry, you're still beautiful as ever, My Queen..." He said
languidly and I rolled my eyes at him.
In our way to my work, I was still quiet, true to his words, Thorn didn't spoke
nor irritate me. I was staring at the road and thoughts are still running inside my
head.
I don't know what I will do of I happened to see the Mayor again.
Mayor Israel Sebastian is Ritchelle's husband. He was I think, a bit older than
Thorn, more of 35 or so. Ritchelle was the payment of the debts of her parents, sad
to hear but that's what my friend told me.
 They were married for almost a year but that man never
treated her right, she knows almost all of his transactions at dahil hindi ko nga
sinabi ang nangyari sa akin noon sa mga kapatid ay wala silang kaalam-alam sa
pinangagawa ng Mayor na iyon sa akin dati.
Knowing that my friend is the bastard's wife, sobrang sakit ang naramdaman ko.
How could fates play with us like it was just a small world revolving around us.
My friend told me her sincerest apology when I knew about her husband, nagulat
man sya roon at sobrang nasaktan ay mas humingi sya ng tawad sa akin dahil sa
kalapastanganan ng asawa.
At first, hindi ko matanggap but as time goes by, alam kong nangyaring magkita
kami ni Ritch dahil sa napakaraming rason.
Ritchelle didn't gave her all to that man after she saw him having affairs,
doing illegal works and all. Because he was a high profile man in the society,
Ritch is afraid to expose him for it may harm her and her family.
Mayor Sebastian was frustrated one day and force himself to his wife and that's
when Clyte was made. Nalaman ni Ritch ang babae ng asawa kaya lumayas sya at
tumakas sa security, her only safe place is Manila that's why she decided to go
kahit walang kakilala.
We did not inform Ritchelle's family as per her request at mas lalong hindi
namin ipinaalam sa Mayor ang nangyari sa kanya. I promised her to take care of her
daughter as if she was my own, walang kasalanan ang kaibigan ko at ang bata sa
kademonyohan ni Mayor Sebastian. Nalaman lang ng lalaki ang lahat nang magsimulang
kumilos ang Kuya Iñigo.
Ritchelle and Clyte are Godsend. They were my angel during my dark sides and I
will protect them whatever it takes.
Like what I promised and what I want, I will fight for Clytemnestra, even if
she wasn't my daughter, I loved her like my own and I wouldn't let that demon take
away my baby from me.
"You alright?" Thorn's worried voice stopped me from drowning of my thoughts.
"Hmm," I nodded quietly. I saw him stared at me, his eyes dark and filled with
unnamed emotions.
"Kanina pa tayo nandito..." Aniya sa malambing na tono. Kaagad akong natigil, I
looked around and my mouth parted when I saw the building.
"Oh, sorry..." I apologized. "Hindi ko napansin."
"It's alright," He smiled at me, I nodded. Kinalas ko ang seatbelt ko at akmang
lalabas ng higitin nya ang pulsuhan ko para makabalik sa upuan.
I stared at him, confused and he remained holding my wrist.
"Why?"
His grip on my wrist soften, pero nakahawak pa rin sya roon. I saw him bit his
lip, nakita ko ang matiim na tingin nya sa akin na para bang binabasa ako pero
nanatili ang malamig kong tingin sa kanya.
"Uhm, here..." Aniya at nakita kong may inabot sya sa backseat at ibinigay sa
akin.
My forehead creased, napasulyap ako sa pumpon ng mga rosas sa hita ko at may
kung anong ala-ala ang pumasok sa utak ko.
"I don't want this..." I murmured.
"Oh..." He nodded softly, I saw that pained reaction on his eyes as he softly
removed the flowers on my lap.
"Then, what flowers do you want now? Para sa susunod ay iyon nalang ang
bibilhin ko sa'yo..." He said.
"I...don't want any flowers," Tikhim ko at umiwas ng tingin pero nakikita ko pa
rin sya.
I saw his eyes filled with sadness, nakita ko ang marahan nyang pagtango roon
at ang pagbasa ng kanyang labi.
"Sorry..." He said quietly and was about to put the flowers back to the
backseat when I spoke.
 "But...I can give that to my secretary..." I said and
stopped him.
"Oh, sure..." Nakita ko ang pagtataka sa mga mata nya. "Wala naman akong
pagbibigyan pa nito..."
"If I know, ibibigay mo lang naman sa Katrin mo..." I suddenly said, nanliit
ang mata nya, his sad eyes suddenly shifted from the agony to a mockery.
"Yeah, you're right, ibibigay ko nalang kay Kat--"
"Sa secretary ko nalang nga!" I hissed at him, suddenly enraged of him.
Kinuha ko ng mabilis sa kanya ang bulaklak ang idinikit sa dibdib ko, I wrapped
my arms possessively on the flowers and gave him a sharp look.
"Alright," I saw his side smile, his lips lifting in amusement.
Sumimangot ako at mabilis na kinuha ang bag ko at hinagis sa kanya.
"There, dalhin mo sa loob! Ihatid mo ko!" I demanded. He suddenly laughed, I
saw how he ran his hands on his disheveled hair and nodded.
"Alright, your highness..." He chuckled and went out of his car, pinagbuksan
nya ako at inilahad ang kamay nya para alalayan ako pero hindi ko iyon tinanggap at
bumaba habang nakataas-noo.
Nang akmang kukunin nya rin ang bulaklak sa akin ay mas niyakap ko iyon at
sinamaan sya ng tingin.
"Sa secretary ko 'to!" I hissed, he closed his eyes in amusement, stopping his
smile from escaping his lips.
"Alright, sa secretary mo na..." Tawa nya na parang may nakakatuwa roon. I
rolled my eyes, masungit akong naglakad at mabilis syang sumunod sa akin.
We entered the building and I saw how the employees stopped upon seeing me,
they were informed of my come back! Hindi na dapat sila nagugulat.
But I was wrong all along, ang buong akala ko ay ako ang tinitingan pero hindi.
I shifted my gaze, only to find Thorn being checked by the security, ayos lang sana
kung lalaki pero babae!
I gritted my teeth, Thorn looked innocent as he was being checked. Nakita ko
ang lady guard na mukhang sinasadya, she was touching his pockets down his leg.
Aba, bakit kapag ibang lalaki, tusok lang ang ginagawa sa bag oara kunwaring
na-check?!
Parang wala lang na nakasulyap sa akin si Thorn na hawak-hawak pa ang bag ko.
Halos sumabog na ako nang sa baywang na ang hawak nung guard, I saw her reddened
and when she touched his abs ay napamura na ako sa isipan.
Ako lang pwedeng humawak d'yan!
"He's with me!" I exclaimed. Natigilan ang lady guard at mabilis na napaayos ng
tayo, gulat syang napatingin sa akin.
"That man is with me!" I hissed. "And you can't touch him like that!"
"Ay, Ma'am..." Gulat nyang sabi. She paled with my sudden outburst, damn, I was
cool even if I'm always cold at them but it was my first time to freaking raised my
voice!
"Let him go." I said coldly at mabilis syang tumabi para makadaan ang gulat na
si Thorn roon.
"Mr. Valderama, follow me!" I hissed and turned my back at him. Mahaba na ang
nguso ko sa sobrang inis.
Manhid ba sya, huh?! Sinasadya lang 'yun ng lady guard para maka-chansing! She
wasn't like that to other people!
I almost jumped in shock when I felt a strong arm wrapping territorially on my
waist. Gulat akong napatingin roon and I stopped when I saw Thorn towering me, his
arms holding me softly but possessively.
"What are you doing, Mr. Valderama?" I gritted my teeth.
"Men are looking at you, it's annoying..." He spatted angrily.

"Oh?" I was starled, mabilis kong inilibot ang tingin ko at

nakita ko ang sabay-sabay na pag-iwas ng tingin ng ilang mga nakabusiness-suit at
'yung iba ay lantarang nakatingin pa rin.
"See?" He hissed, annoyed.
"Wow, parang ikaw hindi pinagtitinginan, huh!" Reklamo ko at siniko sya, I
tried pushing him but he was too strong he didn't even bulge.
Diretso kaming naglalakad patungong elevator habang hawak-hawak ako.
"You're possessive of me that's why I'm possessive of my property too." Tiim-
bagang nyang sabi.
My heart thumped but I cleared my throat.
"Hoy, hindi mo ako pag-aari, Doc!" I exclaimed.
"Maybe for you, but you'll be always mine for me, Reyna..." He said and
clenched his jaw.
I bit my lip softly, bigla akong nangingiti. Pumunta kami sa likuran ng mga
empleyado at nakatungo lang ako para itago ang pamumula ng pisngi.
"Do you have a lot of work today?" Suddenly, he asked. I stopped at that, I saw
how the employees shifted their eyes to us as their eyes widen.
Not just because it was me, but I know it's because of that man snaking around
me like I'll get lost if he lets go of my waist!
"Uh, medyo..." I answered awkwardly.
"Hmm, kumain ka sa tamang oras..." Mahinang sabi nya at humalik sa sentido ko.
I heard gasps, sumabog ang mukha ko sa init at sa lantarang tingin nila sa
amin.
Suddenly, they went on each side when the elevator opened. Nakita kong nagtaka
si Thorn doon pero hindi sya nagsalita, nakita ko rin ang takot sa mga tao mula sa
elevator nang makita ako pero nagulantang ng makita ang lalaki sa tabi ko.
We entered the elevator, everyone still shocked of what they saw.
"Pasok, why aren't you entering?" Thorn's baritone confused voice asked.
"Uh, Sir..." Alanganing sabi nung lalaking empleyado, he looked at me, nang
mapasulyap ako kay Thorn na nakamasid din sa akin ay tumango ako.
Mas nagulat sila, halos mag-unahan sila papasok ng elevator para makasabay sa
amin at nanatili lang kaming tahimik roon ni Thorn.
This seems new, ngayon lang ako sumabay sa mga empleyado sa elevator dahil
hindi sila sumasabay sa akin sa takot.
We're on the side, hawak-hawak pa rin ni Thorn ang baywang ko habang bitbit nya
ang bag ko, nangingiti nga ako kasi mukha syang assistant sa tabi ko habang hawak
ang bag ko pero gwapong version.
I saw women looking at me secretly and the flowers on my arm. I smirked.
He gave this to me! Akin 'tong bulaklak!
Marahang ipinatong ko ang kamay sa baywang ni Thorn at marahang humilig sa
kanya. He looked at me, naramdaman kong marahang hinaplos nya ang baywang ko at
muling humalik sa buhok ko.
"You alright?" He whispered huskily.
I nodded, marahang sumandal pa para ipakita 'dun sa mga babaeng akin sya.
The elevator opened, habang nawawala sila ay ganoon pa rin ang pwesto naming
dalawa and when the elevator opened, we walked together.
Nauna ako ng bahagya sa kanya sa paglalakad at nakasunod sya sa akin, he was
fixing my bag on his arm, natatawa ako sa itsura nya habang naglalakad nang may
pambabaeng bag kaya umiling ako.
"You looked good in the bag," Puna ko.
"I'm always good at anything," He rolled his eyes mockingly. Natawa ako,
marahan pa syang naglakad at nirampa ang bag ko habang nilalagay ang kamay nya sa
baywang kaya napapikit ako at umiling.

"Bagay!" I exclaimed. "Don't tell me you're gay, baby?" I

asked.
He stilled, I saw how his mouth parted in shock as he blinked rapidly.
"W-What did you say?" He looks flabbergasted.
 "Sabi ko, bakla ka ba?" I asked, chuckling but there's no humor on his eyes.
"I mean... That last word you said..." Gulantang nyang sabi.
"Huh?" My forehead creased. "Did I say anything?" Wala akong maalala!
"You do!" He said, convincing me. "You called me baby!"
"Oh?!" My mouth parted. "D-Did I?"
Sumilay ang nang-aasar na ngisi sa labi nya, he suddenly looks like an evil
handsome villain. Nag-init ang pisngi ko sa titig nya, he licked his lip, staring
at my lips and raising his thick brows.
"Uh-huh, my Queen calls me baby..." He teased.
"Hindi a!" I exclaimed. "Wala akong sinabi! I swear!"
"You do..." He said. I shook my head exaggeratedly.
"No!" I hissed. "Ang sabi ko lang...bakla ka!"
"Gay?" Nanliit ang mata nya. "Nung nakaraan matanda tapos ngayon bakla?"
Ngumisi ako, 'yung ngising nang-aasar at gustong mangulit.
"Bakit, hindi pa?" I raised my brow.
His lips forms a thin line, his eyes darken and I saw him licked his lower lip
as he stared at me lazily.
"I don't care if your family will beat me up again if I get you pregnant right
now..." He said hoarsely.
My mouth opened...and closed again.
I pointed him and when he took a step forward ay dagli akong tumakbo sa opisina
ko.
Gulantang ang secretary ko nang dumating akong parang wala sa sarili, hindi na
nya ako nabati at bago pa man sya makapagsalita ay nanlaki ang mata nya nang makita
si Thorn na tatawa-tawa roon nang pumasok.
"D-Doc..." Gulat nyang sabi. She blushed, nanliit ang mata ko roon at tinaasan
sya ng kilay.
"Vane, timplahan mo kong kape." I said.
"Ay, opo, Architect!" Aniya at sumulyap pa kay Thorn bago umalis.
"Is that your secretary?" Aniya sa akin.
"Huh? Oo... "
"Hmm, give her the flowers, 'kay? Sabihin mo galing sakin..." He said and
nodded and he followed Vane's direction.
"Why would I?" My brow raised.
"Sabi mo, ibibigay mo..." Aniya nang naguguluhan.
"Ayoko!" I made a face. "Akin 'to, walang pagbibigyan!"
"Oh, I thought you don't like roses anymore..." He said teasingly.
"E-Eh, gusto ko na 'e!" I hissed. His aura darkened, his lip twitched and
laughed.
He moved closer to me at napaatras ako roon. Every step I took back is his
doubled steps forward. I gasped when I was pinned on the door behind me towards my
office.
"W-What are you doing..." I whispered. He lowered his head to see my eyes and I
saw the glint of attraction and naughtiness in it.
"You're teasing me in any ways possible, Zidney..." He whispered tauntingly.
Napalunok ako, napasulyap ako sa mga mata nya at 'yun nalang ang singhap ko ng
pihitin nya ang pintuan papasok sa opisina sa likuran ko.
He held my waist softly and let me entered my office as he slammed me on the
door and lock it behind.

I gasped. Wala sa sariling binasa ko ang labi ko at humugot

ng hininga.
"I love you..." He murmured softly on my lips.
"T-Thorn..." I whispered. His eyes are intense and burning as he stared on my
face. Nagkatinginan kami at nang may kung anong init na lumukob sa sikmura ko ay
wala sa sariling nalaglag ko ang bulaklak at hinagilap ang leeg nya.
He lost his control and dropped my bag as he scooped my butt and pushed me on
the wall. I groaned and without second thoughts, I caught his lips for a sensual
and heated kiss.
Nagtagal iyon ng hindi ko alam kung ilang minuto at pareho kaming hinihingal
habang magkadikit ang noo. He groaned as if he was hurt at marahang pinadaan ko ang
labi sa baba nya.
He caught my chin softly and gave me a light kiss on the lips.
"I will go to the court with you..." He whispered softly on my ear. "I will
defend you, my Queen..."
The day has come and my hands felt cold, I was seating on the chair and waiting
for the hearing to start, still we don't know kung ilang hearing ang magaganap
pagkatapos nito o kung meron pa man.
I saw my parents, with my brothers and their wives on the chair with the crowd.
May nakita akong iilang pribadong reporter doon, most of them are with their
laptops and some are with their small notebooks to take notes.
Who woudn't be interested anyway, after the warrant of arrest the Mayor has
received, he was in jail. Kumalat ang balita, hindi lang dahil sa nasa pulitika sya
at dahil na rin sa aming pamilya.
My brother is a controversial yet the highest paid lawyer in the country. He
was sought by famous politician or public figures pero bilang lang ang kinukuha
nyang kaso.
What my brother wants is to be honorable and stayed as a lawyer with dignity
like what my father is before he retired.
My brother always comes to the poor, he always helped those in need, na kahit
wala nang ibayad sa kanya ay ilalaban nya ang kaso dahil alam nyang iyon ang tama.
He did not care what is the position of those people he's fighting if he knows
he was right and that, is what makes me proud of him.
He never bowed to anyone, pwera nalang kay Ate Thallia na naroon sa harapan nya
at inaayos ang necktie.
I saw her whispering on his ear and he was nodding, his lips protruding as he
listened like a tamed beast infront of his trainer.
I saw my Kuya Dash with Ate Reah and my Kuya Zeijan with his wife.
Gulat kami nang malamang totoo ngang asawa nya 'yung artista pero hindi na rin
masyado. My Dad was here but my Mom stayed in our house with my daughter.
They were fragile and can't go here to avoid stress. The mansion is in tight
security, maging dito ay nagkalat ang pulis, ang alam ko'y kilala ito ni Kuya
Zeijan.
I saw Ate Alyx roaming her eyes around as she observed, I saw her whispered
something to my brother as he fished his phone out and call someone.
"Here," I lifted my gaze and my heart soften when I saw Thorn infront of me.
May hawak syang isang bote ng tubig at kaagad ko iyong tinanggap ang ngumiti sa
kanya.
"Hi..." I smiled.
"Are you alright, don't be nervous, hmm?" I nodded and sighed.
I saw him bit his lower lip, his eyes screams concern.
He looks good with his white dress shirt underneath his dark blue suit, his
gray pants hugging his strong thighs perfectly on its shape.
I still wonder how is it possible to be that good on his spectacles, his black
eyes enhances more as you stared more at it. It will definitely lead you to
something deeper and treacherous, you'll get drown with it, lost with it.

"Hey, Zid... Look at me..." He said softly, he tapped my

chin, lifting a little.
"Are you honestly fine?" He asks the question smoothly, the baritone of his
voice reverberating through my bones as he slides a soft caress on my cheek.
"No..." I answered. He heaved a deep breath as he nodded his head.
"Would you want to talk first?" Aniya sa akin. "Saglit lang, tayong dalawa..."
Wala sa sariling tanong nya at dahil sa sobrang kaba habang nakikitang
pumapasok na ang panig ni Mayor ay tumango ako sa kanya.
I saw Thorn talked to my brother and my Dad and with his creased forehead, my
Dad allowed us pero saglit lang.
Inalalayan nya ako at dinala ako sa labas ng court room, we went on the hidden
side of the place just near the room and when we're alone, kaagad nya akonh kinabig
at mahigpit na niyakap.
I closed my eyes, feeling his comfortable warmth around me.
"Listen, Zid..." Aniya sa mababang tono, I looked at him, his calloused hand
held mine softly and starts caressing it.
"I'll give you ways on how calm down inside, okay?" Aniya. I nodded attentively
and he smiled.
"Okay, first, I want you to heaved a deep breath, inhale and exhale..." I did
what he asked me too, I did it multiple times.
"Then, I want you to clear your mind..." Aniya at tumango ako. "Come on, Zid,
look at me..."
Hinanap ko ang mata nya at nakita ko ang kalma roon.
"I want you to clear your mind, Zidney, forget the fear, forget every bad thing
that happened..." I just stared at his eyes as he spoke. "I want you to leave all
the fear behind, I want you strong, my Queen..."
"I'm scared I'll break down if I see him..." I said honestly.
"Then, look at me..." Aniya. "If you're scared, I want you to look at me and I
promised I'll be looking back at you."
I nodded slowly, swallowing hard.
"I want you to forget every negative thing inside your head, kalimutan mo
pansamantala 'yung mga pananakot nila. Just think of every positive things, na
makakaya mo, na malakas ka. Remember, your family is here to support you, hindi ka
nila papabayaan..." I nodded at that and he remained calming me down.
"Your lawyer is your brother, he will give justice to your parents, he will
save you. You are strong, Zidney, you understand me?"
I heaved a sigh and closed my eyes to concentrate.
"The Mayor will get what he deserves. Malalagpasan mo 'to dahil tutulungan ka
namin, dahil narito ang pamilya mo. We got your back, Zid..." He said soothingly.
"You will not break down because you're a strong woman, you're brave, my
love... Kaya mo 'to..." He said in persuasion and my heart began remembering his
words.
Suddenly, I felt the fear slowly disappearing but was replaced with power and
strength.
I opened my eyes and I saw how he smiled at me, his black eyes smiling with him
behind his spectacles.
"There, ready?" He whispered. Then, a smile escaped my lips and nodded at him.
"Ready..." I whispered.
Sabay kaming pumasok sa court room, the people are already there, I saw them
shifting their gazes at me and starts murmuring to each other.
Thorn held my arm as he guided me to my seat, he was gentle to me, marahan
nyang inalalayan ako paupo bago ngumiti at tumango at lumapit roon sa isang upuan
rin.

"Hi, princess..." I smiled when I saw my brother. Kuya

Iñigo sat beside me and kissed my head.
"Don't be scared, okay?" Aniya. I nodded slowly.
"Thank you..." I whispered.
"Anything for you, Zid. Kuya will do everything for you..." Masuyong bulong
nya.
The prosecutor is already here, I saw him stood and announced the rival's
entrance.
We all stopped when we saw Mayor Sebastian's lawyer entering the place, in his
black suit, the man just about my brother's age entered.
 He looks mocking as he stared at us with his annoying face, meanwhile, my
brother was just beside me, looking cold and dangerous as he stared blankly at that
man.
Then, behind him is the Mayor, standing proud behind him is Mayor Israel
Sebastian wearing a formal suit, his hand is still handcuffed but he's wearing that
kind of clothes.
My forehead creased, napasulyap ako kay Kuya at nakita kong seryoso pa rin sya
sa tabi ko pero alam kong punong-puno na sya ng galit.
Suddenly, the Mayor looked at me, with his mocking and fierce sharp eyes, he
eyed me seriously.
My heart flinched at that but I stared back at him with equal and cold stare.
His mouth lifted, ngumisi sya sa akin nang pang-aasar at nang makaramdam ako ng
takot ay kaagad akong sumulyap roon sa upuan sa hindi kalayuan.
I saw Thorn looking intently at me and when he caught my eyes ay tumango sya sa
akin at ngumiti.
I can feel myself calming at nang humarap akong muli ay nakita kong may
sinasabi sa kanya ang abogado.
"You can do this, Princess..." I heard Kuya whispering. "Just tell them
everything you know and you'll be fine. I got you."
"Thank you..." I said sincerely and he smiled and nodded at me.
The prosecutor also announced the judge's arrival and we all stand to wait for
him. Wearing a black robe is an old man with a serious, cold face. Kaagad syang
pumunta roon sa gitna at nang may nagsalita ay nanguna sa pambansang awit at isang
oath.
I was just sitting there, with my simple yellow dress and flats, my hair is in
high ponytail.
The prosecutor stand infront and start the trial.
"We will officially start the trial..." He said in a low tone.
"Last February 2, 2022, the defendant was arrested after a case was filed
against him. Murder, Grave threat and Assault is what filed against Mr. Israel
Sebastian." Ani ng prosecutor roon sa gitna.
"Four years ago, Thelma Lopez and Anselmo Lopez, sixty and sixty-three years of
age was found dead in their house, dead by the gunshot in the head." She said.
I stilled, parang kailan lang nangyari ang mga bagay na iyon. The memory
flashed right before my eyes before I could even stop myself.
"The police came to the crime scene, and found their sheltered daughter Ms.
Scira Lopez just beside them and in the act of getting the gun from the ground that
killed the two people. The daughter was arrested and later was said to have an
Acute Stress Disorder and was soon transferred to a mental facility. However, the
plaintiff claims to have witnessed the death of his parents and pointed our
defendant, Mr. Sebastian to be responsible of the incident." Pagtatapos nya.
Suddenly, Atty. Melo Alejez raised his hand to speak.
"You may come infront..." Ani ng prosecutor bago umatras sa kanyang pwesto.

"Good afternoon everyone," Ani ng lalaki at tumingin sa

paligid. I saw him stared at my brother who was silent the whole time beside me,
miminsa'y hahawakan nya ang kamay ko para kumalma ako.
"It was an honor seeing everyone here again, especially, Atty. Sandejas..."
Bati ng lalaki na may hilaw na ngisi. I saw that man took a glance at my Ate
Thallia and smirked.
I saw how Kuya Iñigo lost his cool, nakita ko ang pag-igting ng panga nya at
ang bahagyang paghila nya ng necktie para lumuwang.
"My client, Mr. Israel Sebastian strongly denies the charges and accusations,
your honor..." Ani Atty. Alejez at bumaling sa judge.
"That night, January 27, 2018, Mr. Sebastian was having a party for his wife's
birthday, Ms. Ritchelle Sebastian." Hearing my friend's name is hurting that I have
to sighed and took a glance at Thorn who was seriously sitting there, with his arms
crossed and clenched jaw.
"If that was the case, then, how would my client go and kill the late Lopez? My
client is known to be charitable and a good person who always take care of the
poor. The people love him so, I coudn't find any possible reason why, my client
wanted to kill the two innocent people?" Aniya. "So, we strongly denies the
charges."
Atty. Alejez nodded confidently and left the pavement.
"Atty. Sandejas?" The prosecutor said and I saw how my brother stood from his
seat proudly, without any fear and arrogance.
"Good afternoon," He said in a cold baritone.
"First of all, I strongly believes to my client's words, your honor..." Ani
Kuya sa matigas na ingles.
"As what Atty. Alejez said, what was the motive of Mr. Sebastian in killing the
two people? Well, the late Anselmo Lopez is indebted to Mr. Sebastian, his debts is
worth more than half a million that he failed to settle." Suddenly, the the screen
lit just near the judge and a document was shown, where my late father has debts to
the Mayor.
It was shown here the date and the amount to be payed.
"Anselmo lost to the gamble against your client and when he failed to settle
the amount, the Mayor have said to brought their sheltered daughter that time, Ms.
Scira Lopez to him as a payment." Aniya. I closed my eyes at that and focused.
"And where do you get that information, Mr. Sandejas?" Atty. Alejez suddenly
asked.
"From my client herself, Attorney..." Aniya.
"How did she knew that if that's the case?"
"She confessed everything she had heard that time while she was seeing her
parents on the floor, kneeling and a gun was pointed on their heads." Ani Kuya sa
seryosong tono.
"May I know the reason why is she standing there? Bakit sya naroon at hindi
manlang tumulong kung sakali?" Ani Atty. Alejez na parang hinahamon ang kapatid ko.
"That morning before the incident happened, she overheard her parents talking
about the Mayor taking her as a payment. Thelma refused that and insisted to pay
the debt in any way she can but Anselmo wants to give his daughter to the Mayor."
He answered. "She ranaway that day and looked around and that night, when she
decided to comeback, she saw her parents there and more that five men in their
black shirts are roaming around."
"She hid herself and saw the Mayor himself pointing the gun to her parent's
head. Her mother saw her and told her quietly to hide so she ran to their room and
hid herself to the cabinet. She overheard the defendant telling his men to find her
as he forced the two people to tell him where she is."
"Her father told the Mayor that he will give her as a payment but her mother
refuses that and keeps on telling they'll pay him in other ways." Aniya.

"That's where it happened, the Mayor killed the old people

and seeing it with own eyes as she was hiding herself in the cabinet." Paliwanag ni
Kuya.
"Objections, your honor..." Ani Atty. Alejez at tumayo rin.
"You were saying that my client killed Selmo and Thelma, then?"
"Yes," My brother answered without second thoughts.
"Then, tell me why is she beside her parents the moment they came? Why is her
hands and body filled with blood?" Ani nito.
"Her hands bleed because of the rose she was carrying that night, Atty.
Alejez." I stopped at that and I saw how Thorn's mouth parted, his eyes closed and
clenched his jaw.
"And about her dress, she hugged her parents as she cried and she saw the gun,
her father's own gun who was used to kill them." Aniya.
"The police told us, Atty. Sandejas that your client, the complainant has
motives of killing her parents..." My mouth parted with that. Nangunot ang noo ko
at naguluhan.
"Then, we have witnesses here, proving the said daughter have motives of
killing the person who took care of her." Aniya.
My brother came back to his seat next to me, somehow tensed and kinda mad.
Sumulyap ako sa kanila at nakita ko ang malaking ngisi ni Mayor.
Nang sumulyap ako sa mga kapatid ko ay nakita kong mariin din silang nakikinig.
My Dad has his arms folded on his chest with a strict facial reaction.
My heart flinched as I saw the man and woman entering the court room, there, I
saw Manang Carmen, Mang Delso and his son, Jace.
That's our neighbors there!
"You know that people, Zid?" My Kuya whispered. I nodded and still shocked.
"Here are the people lives not that far from the Lopez's home..." Ani Atty.
Lejez.
Hindi ako makapaniwala, my heart is palpitating fast and hard as I stared
unbelievably at them.
Hindi sila tumitingin sa akin, I saw Aling Carmen lowering his face and also
her husband, samantalang si Jace naman ay nakatingin na sa akin na may kung ano sa
mga mata.
I saw Aling Carmen going in the pavement, she said the oath of the court,
swearing to only tell the truth and nothing else but truth.
"Palagi po naming naririnig kapag bumibisita kami sa kanilang tahanan ang pag-
aaway ng mga magulang nya, tungkol po sa kanya iyon." Panimula nya.
"What are they arguing, Mrs. Mendez?" Ani Kuya sa malamig na tono.
"Ang sabi po, pabigat sya... Tapos ang sabi ay palamunin, na mas naghirap sila
nang matagpuan sya sa gilid ng bangin..." She said.
"Then? Continue..." Ani Kuya at humalukipkip roon habang nakatitig sa matanda.
"Naririnig naming madalas na nagagalit sa kanya si Selmo, tapos ang balita ko
may sayad 'din si Scira, minsan tulala nalang at masyadong tahimik, masyadong
misteryoso kaya isa iyon sa dahilan kung bakit marahil nya pinatay ang mga
magulang."
My brother's jaw clenched as he eyed the woman when she looked away.
"Is that the reason, what else? Could you convince me more that it was my
client who did that to the people who took care of her?" Aniya sa malamig na tono.
"S-Si Selmo din ay pinagbubuhatan sya ng kamay minsan sa galit sa kanya..." Her
voice shook and she lowered her head. "K-Kaya marami sa amin ang nakaisip na sya
nga, dahil gusto nyang makalaya sa kanyang magulang..."

Of course not! Pinagsasalitaan nya lanv ako pero hindi nya

ako nasasaktan ng pisikal! Kahit ayaw sa akin ng Tatay ay mahal na mahal ko sila! I
woudn't even think of hurting them!
"At isa pa, isa sya sa nakakaalam nang lagayan ng baril ng Tatay nya kaya..."
She heaved a scared sigh.
Nang sumulyap ako kay Mayor ay nakasandal sya sa upuan nya at mukhang masaya.
His lawyer was grinning wide and shaking his head.
"Then, tell me Mrs. Mendez, did you saw the incident itself?" He asked coldly.
I saw how her eyes widen, kumurap sya at nanginginig na salita.
"S-Sa tingin ko ay sya ang may gawa--"
"We don't need opinions here, Mrs. Mendez." My brother cut her off grimly. "We
need facts, and if it's your only opinion then please, can you tell us if you were
really sure of that you were saying to us?"
"O-Opo..." She stuttered. "Ang alam namin sya talaga ang pumatay..."
I gasped at that and my heart feels heavy.
"Are you sure of that?" My brother smirked coldly as he walked closer to her,
pulling his necktie on his neck.
"O-Opo..." Namutla sya nang makita ng malapitan si Aling Carmen.
"Perjury is the case to be charged for those who will tell any lie after
swearing to only say the truth..." He said darkly at her and she almost cried in
fear.
"Don't scare the witness, Atty. Sandejas!" Atty. Alejez stood and exclaimed
that.
"I am not scaring your witness, I just want to make sure of what she is
saying..." Malamig na turan ni Kuya. "If she was true to her words then she woudn't
be afraid of the charges, she won't be afraid to be jailed for years if she was
telling the truth..."
"Atty. Sandejas!" Atty. Alejez exclaimed.
"Stop!" Ani ng judge na kunot ang noo ng makitang nagtataasan na ng boses ang
dalawa.
"The two of you, go back to your places!" He said strictly.
I saw Atty. Alejez gritted his teeth as he walked back to his position while my
brother combed his hair with his fingers frustatedly and pulled his necktie more
kaya nagulo iyon.
"Now, talk, Atty. Sandejas, ask the witness calmly." Mariing sabi ng judge
habang matiim na nakatingin sa kapatid ko.
"My apology, your honor..." He said coldly and closed his eyes, then he
continued his questioning.
"Mrs. Mendez, tell us if you witnessed the crime and you can prove my client
guilty of murder you are claiming..." He said darkly.
I saw how Aling Carmen cried and I heaved a deep sigh when she shook her head.
"P-Pasensya na pero opinyon ko lang talaga ito..." Mahinang sabi nya.
I heard gasps, nakita ko ang pagkawala nang matagumpay na ngisi mula roon sa
dalawang demonyo sa kabila. I took a glance at my family and saw them smirking
while Thorn was nodding seriously and biting his lower lip.
The witness left the pavement and Atty. Alejez stood, his face straight.
"One of the factors that she was the one who killed her own parents is because
she loathe them, for hurting her..."
"That wasn't the case, Atty. My client loves her Mom so much, even if her
father is treating her bad, she loved them as if they were her parents..."
"Then how about that mental illness they were telling? Sa pagkakaalam ko ay may
amnesia si Ms. Lopez noon nang matagpuan sya, how sure are you that it wasn't her
frustrations that cause her to do that?" He asked and stared at me kaya mariing
tinignan ko rin sya.

"If you were asking about the gun, I wanted to tell

everyone that there were no fingerprints discovered in there. Here's our proof."
Ani Kuya at lumitaw sa screen ang isang dokumento kung saan naroon ang negative na
resulta.
"Also, it wasn't as if she was crazy, Attorney..." He said. "Her doctor itself
told me and showed me the files about her and her condition."
"Then, how about we hear her psychiatrist's statements?" Ani Atty. Alejez.
I shifted my gaze and saw Thorn standing from his seat, he looks cold and
stiff, the softness I always see on his eyes disappeared completely like a beast
ready to kill to protect his property.
He looks dashing and hot on his dark blue suit and the way he sat on the chair
in the pavement made me shivered.
What I am seeing is a different Thorn Arzeus Valderama.
I suddenly saw the dark side of him and his eyes cold as snow, his angled jaw
moving as he clenched it tightly with his gritted teeth.
Like Aling Carmen he said an oath, swearing he would only say the truth before
they started.
"So, Dr. Valderama, am I right?" Atty. Alejez eyed Thorn mockingly.
"Psychiatrist, huh..."
Kumuyom ang kamao ko sa pang-uuyam nya kay Thorn. He didn't even bulge, I saw
Thorn's dark aura as he stared blankly at the lawyer.
 "So, what is her illness you say? Isn't she crazy?" Atty. Alejez asked.
Kuya sat beside me and leaned in to whisper.
"He can do it, Zid, I believe him..." Bulong ni Kuya kaya napatingin ako sa
kanya. "I feel bad for that man, actually..."
"Why?" I asked.
"Let's listen..." Aniya at marahang hinawakan ang nakakuyom kong kamay para
buksan. "Calm down, princess..."
"She wasn't crazy, she was suffering from Acute Stress Disorder that time,
that's a case where patients usually suffers because of trauma within a week or
more, if they witnessed murder or any kind to trigger the mind..." He said.
"Oh, interesting..." Tumango si Atty. Alejez roon at ngumisi.
"Then, Doc, what are the signs of that disorder?" He asked.
"Nightmares, avoidance, thoughts relieving the incidents, hearing non-existing
voices and hallucinations..." He answered stiffly.
"Oh, hallucinations..." Nakita ko ang pag-ngisi ni Atty. Alejez bago
ipinuntirya si Thorn.
"How sure are you that everything she was claiming to see is just her
hallucinations? Diba nagkaroon sya ng trauma noong natagpuan sya? It is possible
that she did that because she has that kind of stress for years since the accident
and what if she heard whispers telling her to kill them and she did? Then started
hallucinating what did not happened?" He smirked.
Damn... Mariing napapikit ako sa pananakit ng ulo. Kuya cursed and gritted his
teeth and I saw the judge nodding at that.
I looked at Thorn and saw him looking at me, he's not saying anything and I
smiled at him and nodded.
You can do it, Doc...
"What, Doc? Got tongue-tied? Naisip mo bang tama ako?" He spatted.
"Maybe that's wrong research you've read, Attorney..." I saw Thorn's lips
lifted for a smirk.
He was confused, I saw him creased his forehead and spoke.
"What do you mean by that?" He asked.

"She wasn't suffering from that after they found her, she
experienced the disorder the moment the accident happened..." Aniya sa malamig na
tono.
"And you were saying she may be hallucinating? My answer is no..." Thorn said.
"Witnesses of a real life incident had remarkable accurate memories of a stressful
event involving weapons."
"How sure of you about that? Paano mo nasabing ganyan--"
"I'm a Doctor, Attorney..." His jaw clenched. "Don't underestimate us..."
"I'm not! I am just sayinv that what if she really had episode that time that
triggers her to kill? Isa pa, she heard her parents talking about making her as a
payment--"
"Oh, so you agreed when Atty. Sandejas said she will be a payment for his
family's debts to your client?" He mocked him.
My mouth parted with what Thorn had said. Napatango ang judge sa sinabi nito,
even the Atty. Alejez's mouth parted and Kuya chuckled beside me, shaking his head
amusingly.
"He can be a lawyer..." He whispered.
"H'wag mo akong baligtarin, Mr. Valderama!" He exclaimed angrily. Thorn smirked
and shook his head.
"Is that a threat?" He asked coldly and Atty. Alejez clenched his jaw and
pulled his hair annoyingly.
"Just answer me, how sure are you that she's not hallucinating?" Ani nito sa
mariin na tono.
"I met her even before the incident," Ani Thorn at saglit na sumulyap sya akin.
"She wasn't what you were thinking she is, she won't do that to her parents and I
know, as a doctor, if my patients are true to their words or not..."
"But she had a trauma and--"
"Let me inform you that witnesses who experienced the highest levels of stress
where actually closer to the event, and this may have helped with the accuracy of
their memory recall." He answered stiffly and I shook my head in amazement.
"Brainy..." Kuya whispered and smiled a little.
"So... You were saying that she was telling the truth?" He asked.
"Yes, like how Atty. Sandejas believes in his client, I strongly believe what
she is saying too because she's my patient..." Aniya.
Suddenly, I saw a woman, giving everyone a paper, dumating rin sa akin iyon
kaya binasa ko iyon.
"This is the results of my examination to her years ago and the other one is
the result from her psychiatrist now. All of it shows that she wasn't crazy, she
was stressed and traumatized because of the incident she witnessed." I saw the
judge nodded and stared intently at Mayor Sebastian who was looking at me darkly,
as if he was threatening me but I wasn't scared of him.
Suddenly, Kuya Iñigo stood infront and spoke.
"Your honor, everyone, my apology but let me tell you that Dr. Valderama is
also a victim of grave threats and assault from Mr. Sebastian..." Ani Kuya.
My mouth parted in shock and I blinked.
"My objections, your honor! My client and I strongly denies that accusations!"
He exclaimed hardly.
"Then, should I show some evidences?" My Kuya said confidently and showed
another file on screen and spoke.
"Mr. Valderama claimed that that day when he was at work, he was kidnapped and
tortured to an abandoned factory, where they threatened him about filing a case
against your client..." He said. "They threatened him to stop and if he won't they
will kill Scira infront of him..."

I gasped. Napatakip ako sa bibig ko sa gulat roon.

"After that, they released him, she was confined in the hospital for days until
he gained his strength and healed his wounds. Then, they threatened them again by
giving a dead animal on his condo unit here in Manila..." I saw a photo on screen
and my heart broke when I saw his face while he was at the hospital and that animal
he received.
I thought he was working in Manila with his family to the new hospital?
"He told them to pushed Scira away to stop the case or even see her, and if
not, they will kill her and his family..." He said and when I saw Thorn, nakita
kong nakatungo sya.
His hands are in fist and he was sighing hard, as if he remembers everything.
"That night, March 21, 2018, he decided to pushed her away by leaving her to a
bus station bound to Manila for her own safety. She left but when Mr. Valderama
decided to go after her, they cornerned him to stop him, beat him to his own death
and his head hit the concrete floor..."
My tear fell, nanginig ang katawan ko nang makita ang mga dokumento ng ospital
at ang litrato ni Thorn sa ospital habang nakahiga, may benda ang ulo at maraming
nakakabit na aparato.
"He was comatose for almost half a year and it was a miracle because he hit his
head so bad it might cause his death..." Tinakpan ko ang bibig ko sa mga hikbing
kumawala sa labi ko.
Sumulyap ako kay Thorn at nakitang nakatingin sya sa akin gamit ang pagod nyang
mga mata. His eyes are bloodshot as he stared at me at lumuluhang nakatingin lang
ako sa kanya habang umiiling.
I thought... I shivered and drink water and did my best to calm down.
Natahimik ang korte roon at mas naging matensyon. Mariing nag-uusap na si Atty.
Alejez at ang Mayor samantalang si Kuya ay tahimik at pinagmamasdan akong umiyak.
"I-I didn't know..." I whispered at him. My brother sighed and held my arm to
calm me down.
The trial started again after an half an hour break, nang sumulyap ako sa upuan
ay wala na roon si Thorn kaya nakagat ko ang labi ko.
I wanted to talk to him! I wanted to be with him! I judged him rightaway
without knowing his side!
"Why is the Mayor's child with you, then? Anong balak nyo sa bata gayong anak
ito nang sinasabi nyong suspect?" Atty. Alejez said.
It was for my friend's defense now.
My brother told them everything about my friend, about how she told us
everything before she died.
"It wasn't rape because they're married!" Atty. Alejez defended.
"Then, it was a marital sexual assault..." Ani Kuya sa malamig na tono. "She
was forced and sexually abused by her husband, Attorney..."
"They're married so there is no way it was forced!"
"Sexual abuse includes any conduct of a sexual nature that abuses, humiliates,
degrades or otherwise violates the dignity of a woman." Ani Kuya Iñigo. "So,
married or not, he still forced himself to his wife."
"Of course not!" Suddenly, the Mayor exclaimed kaya napatingin sa kanya. "Why
would I force my wife? I loved her!" He exclaimed, teary-eyed.
"Mr. Sebastian..." The judge started.
"I loved my wife and that's why, I have to have my daughter back! I am
innocent! I am not a killer!" He screamed.
"Atty. Alejez! Calm your client!" Ani ng judge kaya lumapit roon si Atty.

"He has another woman, and your late wife confessed to us

your infidelity." Ani Kuya.
Mr. Sebastian's face paled as he shook his head.
"O-Of course not! Mahal ko ang asawa ko at akin ang anak ko!" Sigaw nya. "You
stole my daughter away from me, you bitch!"
My forehead creased in annoyance. Gustong-gusto kong sumagot pero ayokong
ipahamak si Kuya.
"She was adopted," Ani Kuya sa nang-uuyam na tono. "Your late wife signed the
documents of adoption and you lost your rights to have your daughter the moment you
cheated..."
"Liar! You tricked my wife! I love her!" He screamed as if he was a beast
wanting to go out of his cage.
He lost his cool and started making a scene.
"Atty. Lejez!" The judge exclaimed.
"I'm sorry..." Ani Atty. Alejez at kinalma ang nagwawalang Mayor.
Sa muli kong pagsulyap sa upuan ay wala roon si Thorn kaya hindi ako mapakali.
Nagsilabasan rin ang iba pang mga dumi at baho nang dating huwarang Mayor, and
because the media is here, mabilis na kumalat iyon.
I was starled when I found out he was a drug user and dealer, I also found out
that he was vote-buying every election and he was corrupting the funds of the
people from his city.
I was amazed by how my brother found everything that easily. Ang ibang tao nga
ay hindi naungkat ang duming iyon ni Mayor Sebastian but he did it that fast!
Marami pa silang naging palusot but my brother will always find a way to caught
them with their lies.
And now, we were all seated, with our hearts pounding and craving for justice.
The judge was now back infront after talking to the jury, he was still looking
blankly and didn't even say anything for a while as he observed the two teams.
"Good afternoon, thank you for the patience..." He said. "We have now come to a
decision and I announced that there will be no more trial, this is the first and
the only trial of this case as I announced it closed."
Humawak ako sa kamay ni Kuya at nakita kong ngumiti sya sa akin at tumango. He
held my hand tightly too, as if reassuring me.
 "The juries and I had the meeting and comes up with a decision and we will
announce the verdict..." Aniya.
"The plaintiff, Ms. Zidney Sandejas with his lawyer, Atty. Iñigo Rafael
Sandejas filed charges against the defendant, Mr. Israel Sebastian of murder,
assault, marital sexual assault, grave threat, abuse of his power, infidelity and
use of illegal drugs..." Aniya.
"Therefore, we concluded and decided that the defendant, Mr. Israel
Sebastian..." He stopped and my heart start beating fast like it will go out of my
chest.
Please, God... Please...
I gripped my brother's hand more and he held me softly as he was securing me.
"Is found guilty..." He ring the cartoon gavel and my smile escaped my lips.
Kuya Iñigo cursed in happiness and my tears fell down my cheeks.
Mayor Sebastian screamed in exaggeration and frustration as Atty. Alejez shook
his head in disappointment.
"Hindi ako papayag! Mga sinungaling! Hindi ako masamang tao!" He screamed but
as his voice becomes louder, the police pulled him out with cuffs on his hand.
"Princess..." Sa pagtayo ko ay kaagad kong dinamba si Kuya Iñigo.
"Thank you... Thank you..." I whispered, crying on his chest.
"Zidney..." Bulong nya sa marahang tono. I cried more, mas niyakap ko sya at
yumakap sya pabalik habang hinahalikan ang noo ko.
"K-Kuya, maraming-maraming salamat..." Buong puso kong bulong habang nakayakap.
I heard his soft cries, maya-maya'y lumayo sya at masuyo akong tinignan.
"Anything for you, Princess..." Bulong nya. His bloodshot eyes reddened more as
his tear fell on his cheek.
Mabilis akong lumapit sa pamilya ko at nakitang lumuluha sila sa kasiyahan. I
saw how my Kuya Iñigo went to his smiling wife as he enveloped her in a warm, tight
hug.
I hugged my crying sisters, Ate Alyx, together with Ate Thallia and Ate Reah
told me their sincere happiness. They were crying, maging ang mga Kuya ko at ang
papa ko ay umiiyak roon habang niyayakap ako ng mahigpit.
"I'm so happy for you, Princess..." Kuya Dash murmured and cried at bago pa nya
ako mayakap ay naunahan sya ni Kuya Zeijan.
"Princess..." He cried and hugged me, tinulak sya ni Kuya Dash palayo pero
hindi ako nito pinakawalan at mas yumakap.
"Ako muna ang yayakap!" He hissed.
"Nauna ako, huh!"
"Ako ang mas Kuya sa'yo kaya ako muna!" He hissed at Kuya Dash who was eyeing
him sharply.
"I'm so happy for you, Princess..." Yakap sa akin ni Kuya at umatungal na
parang bata. Nangingiti ako pero niyakap ko sya ng mahigpit.
"Thank you, Kuya..." I murmured.
Lumayo sya sa akin, his bloodshot eyes visible as he sniffed infront of me like
a kid.
Suddenly, I saw Ate Alyx looking at us softly and when my brother noticed that
ay kaagad syang ngumuso at nagsalita.
"Umiiyak ako a, pero hindi ako bakla!" Maktol nya sa asawang malakas na tumawa
at umiling-iling roon sa kanya.
Then, I saw Thorn near the door, staring at us with a smile on his face and
bloodshot eyes.
May kumalabog sa dibdib ko. He did not noticed me looking at him so he turned
his back on us. I saw how he put his hands on his pockets and walked towards the
door kaya mabilis akong humiwalay kay Kuya.
He called me but I did not listen, mabilis kong tinakbo ang distansya namin ng
paalis na si Thorn at mabilis na ipinalibot ang kamay ko sa kanyang baywang mula sa
likod.
He froze, I saw how his muscle tensed with the sudden move. Akmang gagalaw sya
pero mas hinigpitan ko ang pagkakayakap ko sa kanyang baywang.
"T-Thorn..." I whispered, napasinghap ako at ibinaon ang mukha ko sa kanyang
likod.
Nanay, Tatay, Ritchelle... I hope you are happy up there. Thank you very much
for everything, I love you and finally... I got the justice I've been longing to
give to you all...

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Kabanata 26

4 more chaps! Goodnight!

xxx
Kabanata 26
I was just quiet as we walked outside the court, Thorn is holding my waist,
assisting me as I go outside with my family.
Wala rin syang imik sa tabi ko pero mahigpit ang hawak nya sa akin, my brothers
did not say anything, nauuna lang sila sa akin at hindi namumuna.
After I hugged Thorn, marahan syang humarap para yakapin ako pabalik. I
swallowed hard when I felt his warmth and my tears fell on my cheek.
I gasped and sobbed, narinig ko ang mahinang bulong nya sa tenga ko ng pagkalma
kaya medyo kumalma rin ako.
He hugged me tightly infront of my family and they did not say anything, I saw
how concerned and soft Thorn's eyes are as he dried my wet cheek.
"C-Can you take me home?" I suddenly whispered when we reached the parking lot,
nakita kong sumasakay na ang pamilya ko sa kanilang mga sasakyan.
"You want me to take you home?" Marahang tanong nya, his eyes still looks tired
but he smiled at me softly.
"Yes..." Paos kong bulong at marahang tumango.
I saw his eyes brighten and he nodded, marahang hinawakan nya ang siko ko para
alalayan ako palapit sa Daddy kong nag-aantay sa akin.
"Good evening, Sir..." Bati ni Thorn kay Dad na seryosong tumango lang ang
sumulyap sa kamay nya sa siko ko.
"I just want to ask for permission if I can take her home using my car, susunod
lang po ang sasakyan ko sa inyo..." Aniya.
I saw my Dad shifted his gaze at me at nang magtagpo ang mga mata namin ay
napabuntong-hininga sya.
I thought he'd say no but he nodded and took a glance at me.
"Alright, sumunod ka nalang sa amin..." Aniya. "Just take care of my princess,
okay?"
"Yes, Sir..." Thorn nodded politely.
"Bring her in one piece, safe and sound. Kapag may nangyari sa anak ko, alam mo
na..." Banta pa nya kay Thorn na ngumiti lang at tumango.
"Noted, Sir..." He said.
"Bring my driver with you, ako nalang ang magmamaneho ng sasakyan ko pauwi."
Aniya. "I know it's hard driving now in your case..." My Dad said and stared at me
briefly.
"Thank you, Sir..." Ani nito.
"Princess, take care, okay?" Ani Dad sa akin at ngumiti ako ng maliit roon at
tumango. He kissed my head, sighed and nodded before letting me go.
The driver come with us and I saw Thorn giving the man his keys as he guided me
towards the backseat.
Nang maupo kami sa likod at pumunta sa harapan ang driver ay mas tumahimik
kaming dalawa. I don't know but the silence never bothered me, napakomportable ng
katahimikang ito ngayon.
"You alright?" Nag-angat ako ng tingin kay Thorn at tumango. He smiled, hinawi
nya ang buhok patungo sa likod ng tenga ko at hinalikan ang noo ko.
I sighed, my heart keeps on beating in fast pace I coudn't even explain why,
marahang yumakap ako sa kanya.
 I softly wrapped my arms on his waist and held it. Napansin ko ang mahinang
tawa nya roon sa ginawa ko but he did not say anything, instead, marahan syang
sumandal sa upuan habang kasama ako.
He placed his hand on my back and caressed it, napapikit naman ako sa
pakiramdam at sumandal sa dibdib nya.
I heard his fast heartbeat resembling mine, his scent taking over my senses.

"T-Thorn..." Bulong ko.

"Hmm?" Aniya at humalik sa ulo ko.
"Nothing..." Bulong ko pabalik. He held my shoulder back softly to stare at my
eyes.
"My Queen's clingy now, hmm?" He teased.
Ngumuso ako, tumawa sya roon at marahang pinalo ko ang dibdib nya kaya mabilis
nyang hinuli iyon at dinala sa labi nya.
"Feeling mo! Hindi porket niyayakap ka clingy na!" Irap ko.
He chuckled more, his eyes screams amusement as he caressed my cheek slowly.
"I love you..." He said slowly as if he wants me to feel it right through my
soul.
Natulala ako sa kanya, my heart is almost running it might go out my chest.
Hindi ko maintindihan, para akong nakalutang habang nakatingin sa kanya.
I saw his face, that face I never got to stare this close for the past three
years we're apart. It was as if the worlds separated finally met.
Bumalik lang ako sa sarili nang maramdaman ang kamay nya sa pisngi ko, marahang
hinaplos nya iyon at may kung anong pinahid.
"Don't cry, hmm? I don't want seeing you crying..." Bulong nya.
"A-Am I?" I whispered. Napahawak ako sa pisngi ko at naramdamang may basa nga
roon galing sa aking luha.
"I-I'm sorry..." I told him. "Hindi ko napansin..."
He nodded, tinanggal nya ang salamin bago pumikit at marahang kinabig akong
muli palapit sa kanya.
Sumandal ako sa balikat nya at humawak naman sya sa baywang ko at ang isang
kamay ko'y inabot ang kamay ko at hinaplos ang palad ko at tamad na naglaro ng
daliri ko.
Nakanguso ako habang nakatingin sa kamay nya na naglalaro sa kamay ko, it
somehow feels different. I felt like a large load of heavy thoughts are finally
lifted off my chest.
In our way home, we settled with the soft music in the background, ang driver
naman ay tahimik roon sa harapan.
"Kumain ka na?" Bulong nya.
"No..." I answered him.
"Are you hungry, then?" Lumayo ako sa kanya at hinanap ang mata nya bago
umiling.
"Makita lang kita busog nako..." I said and smiled.
His eyes widen, nakita kong namula ang pisngi nya at ang tenga nya kaya natawa
ako.
"You..." He mouthed and closed his lips again.
"Oh my God!" I chuckled when he avoided my gaze, nakita ko ang marahas nyang
paglunok at ang pagkunot ng noo nya.
"Stop it, Zid..." He groaned. I laughed and held his cheek.
"Kilig ka, Doc?" I lifted my brows and he gave me a sharp look kaya mas natuwa
ako.
"Don't flirt with me, woman, baka di ko mapigilan ang sarili ko..." Mariing
bulong nya sa mababang tono.
My smile widen more at that and I pouted and took a glance at the driver na
mukhang wala namang pakialam sa aming dalawa.
"He can't see us anyway..." Bulong ko. Nanliit ang mata nya, mas natawa ako ng
sumulyap sya sa driver na diretso lang ang tingin at pabalik sa akin.
 "Zid..." Banta nya.
I raised my brow, nang tumiim ang labi nya ay bigla kong hinawakan ang pisngi
nya at inilapit sa mukha ko.
I pressed my lips on his for a couple of seconds at nang lumayo ako ay nakita
kong natulala sya. Ngumuso ako, hinanap ko ang mata nya at napakurap lang sya sa
akin.

"Why..." He murmured kaya pinitik ko ang noo nya at

sumimangot.
"Choosy mo," I hissed.
He stared at me, I saw how his eyes darken and his jaw clenched.
"Damn you..." He tsk-ed and it was now my time to get starled when he caught my
cheek and lowered his lip to claim my lips.
I groaned at that, sinubukan kong itulak sya pero hindi sya patalo. I chuckled
slowly and he groaned and bit my lower lip.
He kissed me deeply, his tongue devouring every part of my lips and I kissed
him back as I hugged his neck.
We almost got drowned with the addictive kisses when we heard a clearing of
throat.
Bigla ko syang natulak, akmang lalapit pa sya pero tinakpan ko ang bibig nya at
napatingin sa harap at nakita kong tumikhim ulit ang driver.
"Ma'am, ayos lang po ba kayo?" Aniya sa seryosong tono.
"O-Opo, Manong..." Tumikhim ako. He nodded, nakita kong muling bumalik ang
tingin nya sa daan at nang sumulyap ako kay Thorn ay nakanguso na sya habang
nakatulala sa labi ko.
"My Queen..." He murmured.
"No, tama na..." I stopped him. Sumimangot sya at sinamaan ako ng tingin kaya
natuwa ako roon at pinisil ang ilong nya.
Humalukipkip sya at seryosong pumikit kaya nailing ako at mabilis na niyakap
ang baywang nya. I kissed his cheek at isiniksik ang mukha ko sa leeg nya.
"Thornie..." Bulong ko. Hindi sya umimik roon kaya ngumuso ako at nagkunwaring
sumisinghot at paiyak na.
"Damn..." Bigla syang umayos ng upo at mabilis na humawak sa baywang ko pahapit
sa kanya.
"Hindi na, sorry..." Bulong nya. Napangiti ako, sumandal ako sa dibdib nya para
mas yumakap at hinalikan nya ang ulo ko.
"Baby, can we talk about us?" He suddenly whispered in a soft voice.
"Why...didn't you tell me?" Bulong ko pabalik. I placed my hand on his leg and
looked up at him.
"Nothing..." Bulong nya, I saw his sad eyes kaya umayos ako ng upo at
pinagmasdan sya. "I...just don't want you to feel pity for me, kaya kapag balak
kong sabihin, hindi ko natutuloy kasi baka maawa ka lang. I don't want that..."
I sighed, hinaplos ko ang pisngi nya at nakita kong pumikit sya at sumandal sa
kamay ko.
"Do you live for years like this?" I asked him softly. He opened his eyes,
nasalubong ko ang itim at malamlam nyang mga mata.
"I failed in loving you, my Queen..." Bulong nya sa akin. "How dare me tell you
to stay but I left you first?"
"T-Thorn..." Nang makita ko ang basa sa pisngi nya ay napasinghap ako at
pinunasan iyon.
Tumungo sya sa balikat ko at hinigit ang baywang ko, he settled his face on the
crook of my neck at nangilid ang luha ko at hinaplos ang buhok nya.
I brushed his soft, dark brown hair softly and murmured.
"Saan ka tumama?" Bulong ko at hinawakan ang ulo nya. "Masakit pa ba? Shall we
punish that man who made that?"
He lifted his hand and caught my hand, dinala nya ang kamay ko sa malapit sa
may likod ng ulo nya bago humalik sa balikat ko.
 "There..." He murmured.
"Masakit?" I asked him and caressed that part of his head softly.
"Dati," Sagot nya. "But it's all healed now, don't worry, Reyna..."

"Sorry..." Mahinang sabi ko.

"It's not your fault, okay?" Lumayo sya sa akin at marahang hinawakan ang
pisngi. "It will never be..."
"I was too harsh at you," Malungkot kong sabi pero ngumiti lang sya at umiling.
"I like it that way, you look sexier and beautiful, my Queen..." I bit my lip,
nakita kong sumulyap sya roon pero tumikhim at muling bumalik ang tingin sa mata
ko.
"Can we talk about this more? So, I can explain it to you..." Aniya at hinaplos
ang buhok ko. I nodded slowly and asked him.
"I-Is it possible to talk to Ate Gwy?" I suddenly asked him.
"Si Ate?" Aniya. I nodded, I remembered how I treated Ate Gwy, she's been good
to me but I was too harsh because of the pain and madness I've felt.
"She actually wanted to talk to you, 'nung nakaraan pa sya nangungulit 'nung
nalaman nyang ginugulo kita..." Aniya.
"Talaga?" My eyes widen. "I-Isn't she mad at me? I-I pretended to not know
her..."
"Who would get mad at you?" Bulong nya at ngumuso ako. "She would love it to
talk to you, don't worry..."
"You think so?" Tanong ko.
"Of course, don't worry..." He smiled.
Napapikit ako, muli akong sumandal sa kanya at yumakap sya sa baywang ko at
hindi na nagsalita.
We were silent for quite sometime before the driver announced that we've
reached home. I bit my lip, napabuntong-hininga ako roon at hinawakan ni Thorn ang
braso ko at marahang hinaplos.
"Tara?" Aniya.
Sumulyap ako sa mansyon at nakitang nag-aantay roon si Dad at Kuya Iñigo kaya
tumayo ako at tumango kay Thorn.
Nauna syang lumabas ng sasakyan at inalalayan rin ako palabas. He held my arm
softly and guided mo towards my father and brother na nakamasid lang sa amin.
Nakita ko ang tingin nila kay Thorn, they were eyeing him coldly but didn't say
anything.
Marahan akong kumalas kay Thorn, nakita kong bahagyang lumungkot sya roon pero
hindi na umimik.
"Thank you..." I whispered softly.
He nodded slowly and I saw him took a glance at my Dad and Kuya before
speaking.
"Thank you, Sir... Mauuna na po ako..." Aniya.
"Okay..." My Dad nodded at him and took a glance at me, lumapit ako kay Dad,
mabilis nya akong inakbayan at napaharap ako kay Thorn na nakangiti lang.
"Thank you for today, Mr. Valderama..." My brother said and I Thorn nodded.
"No problem, Attorney..." Ani nito.
"Ayaw mo ba mag-abogado? Tara, ako bahala sa'yo..." Kuya said. Napangiti ako,
Thorn chuckled and shook his head.
"I'm old for that already..." Iling nya at natawa si Kuya sa kanya.
"Quit medicine, mag-law ka nalang..." Asar ni Kuya sa kanya at nanatili lang
ako nakatitig kay Thorn.
"No," Tawa ni Thorn at sumulyap sa akin at napakurap nang mahuli ako. "I'm good
this way..."
Nahihiyang nagbaba ako ng tingin at nakagat ang labi.
"Alright," Kuya nodded and smiled. "Ingat pauwi..."
Nang muling bumaling si Thorn sa akin na parang nagpapaalam na paalis ay
tumango ako na may tagong ngiti.
 "Ingat..." Mahinang sabi ko. That was his cue, I saw him smiled, brushed his
hair with his fingers and nodded before turning his back at us.

"Come on, princess..." My Dad assisted me to go to the

mansion when Thorn ran infront of us.
Nagulat ako roon, nakita kong nangunot ang noo ni Dad sa kanya at sumulyap sya
sa akin bago nagpaalam.
"Uhm, Sir, is it possible... If I can meet Zidney tomorrow?" I gasped at that,
kumalabog ang puso ko at narinig ko ang tawa ni Kuya at ang titig ni Dad kay Thorn
na mukhang kinakabahan roon.
Tumikhim si Dad, akala ko ay hindi ako papayagan pero sumulyap ito sa akin at
nagsalita.
"It's my daughter's decision..." Ani Dad at sumulyap sa akin. "Princess, you
want to meet him?"
I stopped, napasulyap ako kay Thorn na nag-aantay ng sagot ko. He was biting
his lower lip, his eye's screams hope and I woudn't want to take that away so I
nodded.
"Shege..." Inilagay ko ang buhok ko sa likod ng tenga ko.
Nanlaki ang mata nya, my Dad cleared his throat, biglang natawa naman si Kuya
roon at napatikhim ako bigla.
"I-I mean, sige..." Mabilis kong sagot at kumurap.
"Alright, bye..." I saw Thorn's smile widen. "Good night, Zid..." Aniya at
tumakbo na sa sasakyan nya pabalik.
"What was that, Zidney?" My brother asked.
"H-Huh?" Kumurap ako kunwari at nang tumingin ako kay Dad ay naiiling na sya sa
akin.
"Mukhang lumalabas na 'yung ugali mong nakuha sa Kuya Zeijan mo..." Ani Dad.
"D-Does that sounds too pabebe?" I exclaimed. They nodded, napatakip naman ako
ng bibig ko at mabilis na nagsalita.
"You didn't hear anything! You didn't!" I exclaimed and I ran towards the
mansion when they laughed at me.
Wearing my white longsleeves blouse, an above the knee pencil skirt, three
inches heels with my beach curls hair, I entered the cafè with my chin up.
"Welcome, Madamè! This way please..." He walked passed me to guide me inside.
Kaagad akong sumunod sa kanya, I saw some customers it the cafè looking at me
as I entered. One in the business suit totally forgot his girl as she pulled his
ear to bring his attention back to her.
I smirked, hinawi ko ang sadyang kinulot na buhok at naupo sa upuang
nakareserve sa akin. I sat there, looking at the sea just beside the cafè and
smiled.
"Do you want to order something for now, Madamè?" The man asked.
"No, I'll just wait for my friend..." Sagot ko. He nodded, nang maalis sya sa
harapan ko ay muli akong bumaling sa lugar at dinama ang malamig na hangin na
tumatama sa mukha ko.
Earlier in the office, I've decided to take the project offers in overseas.
That was a big opportunity for me, and maybe a time for me to freshen up and think.
"Scira?" I stopped when I heard a familiar voice. Kaagad akong lumingon at
mabilis akong napatayo nang makita kung sino ito.
"Ate Gwy..." I murmured. She smiled, that smile she always give everytime she
sees me and when she opened her arms ay walang pagdadalawang-isip akong naglakad
palapit sa kanya at niyakap sya.
"Ate..." I whispered. She hugged me, I heard her sob and I broke down, mahigpit
ko syang niyakap.
I gasped and sob and she cried more and hugged me tighter.
"I missed you, Scira..." Bulong nya. I nodded, suminghap ako sa balikat nya at
tumango.
"S-Sorry, Ate..." Bulong ko. "I-I was just mad and confused..."
 "I know, dear..." Mahinang sabi nya at marahang inilayo ako
sa kanya.
I saw her black, teary eyes, magkahawig na magkahawig ang intensidad nang mga
mata nila ni Thorn kaya hindi ko maiwasang mamangha.
"Thorn told me everything," Marahang sabi nya at ngumuso.
"Nagkausap na kayo?" Aniya.
I nodded slowly, nakita ko ang pagngiti nya at ang paghawi sa luha nya.
"Hindi masyado... He didn't tell me everything," Sagot ko. "Nalaman ko lang
dahil sa hearing, mag-uusap palang kami..."
She nodded.
"Tara, let's sit first..." Aniya. Kumapit sya sa braso ko at dumiretso kami sa
napiling upuan ko.
We sat there and I dried my tears, my heart feels happy and comfortable with
her. Masayang nakamasid lang sya sa akin habang inaayos din ang sarili nya.
In her age, she still looks graceful, she looks pretty with her high ponytail
and black eyes. Her red lips complimenting her soft features.
"Kamusta ka na?" Aniya.
"I'm fine..." I smiled at her. "I found my family..."
"That was good to hear, Scira... I mean, Zid..." Tumawa sya. I chuckled with
that, nang dumating ang waiter ay um-order kami at muling nag-usap.
"I'm really sorry, Ate Gwy, if I ignored you last time at the party..."
Marahang sabi ko. "I badly want to talk to you but..."
"It's alright," Ani Ate Gwy. "Hindi biro ang nangyari sa'yo kaya naiintindihan
kita at ang mga reaksyon mo..."
"Thank you..." I smiled at her.
"I missed hanging out with you, you're like my little sister. Kahit sa simpleng
bagay ay nagkakasundo tayo..." Aniya. "And Kristy misses her Tita so much..."
My heart melted at that, kaagad akong nagtanong sa kanya dahil roon.
"Where is she? Can I see her if she has time?" I asked her.
"Of course!" She smiled. "She's with Ark today, may pasok kasi..."
Dumating ang order namin, kaagad akong sumimsim sa kapeng naroon at nagtanong.
"Wala bang kasunod?" I asked teasingly. It was as if there's no year separate
us.
"Hmm, meron..." My eyes widen. Tumawa naman sya at humawak sa tyan nyang impis
pa.
"You mean..." I pointed her stomach.
"Yup! Three months, di pa alam ni Ark..." Natawa ako at napailing sa
pagkamangha.
"Wow! He'd be shock at that!" I chuckled. "Ninang ako, Ate, huh?"
"Of course, Zid!" She chuckled. "Anyway, you already have a daughter, right?"
"Yup, she's Clyte..." I answered her proudly.
She smiled, but I noticed it somehow bittersweet.
"How old is she?" Aniya.
"Two turning three..." I answered her. She noddes, nakita kong sumimsim sya ng
juice na in-order bago nagtanong.
"Don't answer me if it's uncomfortable, huh, but can I ask... Who's her
father?" Aniya sa akin.
Nakagat ko ang labi ko. Nakita kong napakurap sya at tumikhim.
"Ay, no, sorry, h'wag mo nalang sagutin..." Aniya at ngumuso. "I'm being
careless..." Nguso nya.
"It's fine..." I smiled ay her. Kumuha ako ng cheesecake at tumikim bago
nagsalita.
"Uhm, honestly, Clyte isn't my daughter..." I told her and watched as her eyes
widen in shock.
 "Huh?!" Her mouth parted.
"I mean, yes, she's my daughter, I adopted her..." Sagot ko sa kanya. "She's my
friend's daughter, when she died, I promised her I'll take care of Clyte..."
"So, meaning, wala kang anak talaga? I mean, a child that comes from you?"
Aniya. I nodded, napasinghap naman sya at napatango-tango.
"Damn, iniyakan ni Thorn 'yun!" Aniya na biglang natawa.
"He did?" My eyes widen.
"Yes!" Aniya. "The moment he found out about her that night at your party,
uminom 'yun hanggang sa natumba na sya tapos biglang nag-iiiyak sa akin!"
Nakagat ko ang labi ko at marahang tumango. My heart was beating to fast!
"Tapos, nitong nakaraan, kinwento nyang nakasama nya kayo... Then, he started
telling me stories about Clyte, ang ganda-ganda daw tapos makulit. He often tells
me how cute she is, he's too fond of her..."
Napakurap ako, sumimsim muli ako ng kape at hinawi ang buhok ko.
"I thought he knew..." Sabi ko.
"He did not, hanggang kagabi nga ay nagkekwento tungkol sa nangyari 'dun sa
kaso mo, tapos sabi nya hindi daw nya nakita 'yung anak mo kagabi..."
Diba kasama ko sya kahapon sa korte? So why... I suddenly remembered him, wala
sya sa korte matapos ang testimonya nya at bumalik lang 'nung tapos na kaya...
Napatango ako bigla. That's why...
"Then, I'll just tell him about that..." Sabi ko na gulat pa rin roon.
"You should..." Aniya at humugot ng hininga. "We're too sad we lost you,
Zid..."
Napahugot ako ng hininga roon at tumango. Hinawi ko ang buhok ko at tumikim ng
pagkain.
"Sorry if we didn't find you rightaway," Aniya. "While Thorn was comatosed,
ipinahanap kita kaagad. Akala ko nga ay nakuha ka ng mga Sebastian pero 'nung
nalaman kong hindi ay mas sumubok pa ako..."
"Unfortunately, we didn't found you..." She sighed.
"H-How many months is he out?" I asked hee, kinagat ko ang labi ko at nakinig
sa sasabihin nya sa akin.

"Six...seven months?" Aniya na nag-iisip. "One night, we received a call from

the police, may nakakita kasi sa kanya sa gilid ng daan, duguan..."
May gumuhit na sakit sa puso ko habang pinapakinggan sya. I closed my eyes for
awhile then heaved a deep sigh.
"He suffered from head trauma, Zid. Ang sabi ng doktor sa amin nang ma-coma sya
ay kaunti nalang ang tyansang gumising sya dahil sa pinsala nito sa kanya..."
Something tugged my chest, parang may kung anong nararamdaman ako sa sikmura ko
habang nakikinig ako sa kanya at tumango ako roon.
"Bukod kasi sa pagkabagok, he was stabbed on his back for atleast two times,
nanlaban kasi..."
Nakuyom ko ang kamay ko, suminghap ako at nakita kong nag-alala si Ate at
mabilis na inabot ang kamay ko sa lamesa.
"Are you alright?" Aniya. "Hindi ko nalang sasabihin if it makes you--"
"I-It's alright..." Sabi ko at pilit na ngumiti. "I can do this..."
"Are you sure?" Aniya sa akin. "If something happens to you, hindi ko kaya,
Zid..."
"No, I'm alright, Ate..." Sagot ko.
She sighed, hinawakan nya ang kamay ko sa lamesa at humugot ng hininga.

"Bilin sa akin ni Thorn na h'wag i-kwento sa'yo 'yung

nangyari dahil baka mapahamak ka lang daw kaya lagot ako..." Ngumuso sya.
"Please..." I said. "Please, tell me, Ate Gwy..."
She sighed, tumango sya at nagsalita.
"Okay, but don't tell Thorn, hmm? Yari ako..." I smiled and nodded at her.
 "So, ayun, it's a miracle he woke up..." Aniya. "You know who was the first
person he asked?"
"Who?" I asked.
"You..." My heart tugged painfully. Lumunok ako at pumikit, pinipigil ang luha
sa mga mata ko.
"He woke up but he wasn't himself," Aniya sa akin. "Ipinahanap ka nya agad,
there's a time where he looked for you himself in Manila pero naloko lang pala s'ya
'nung mga tambay na nagsasabing nakita ka..."
"What happened?" Kinakabahan kong sabi. "Is he hurt?"
"Hmm, they beat him up to stole his cards and car..." Aniya. My mouth parted,
suminghap ako at hinawi ko ang buhok ko.

"Is he nuts?" Sumimangot ako. "What happened to the men? Nakulong ba?"
"Gusto ko nga kaso sabi nya hayaan ko nalang..." Reklamo nya.
"That's bullshit!" I hissed.
"I know right!" Reklamo nya rin. "Ayaw rin magsalita kapag tinatanong ko, puro
iling lang ang sagot nya sa akin tapos hahanapin ka nalang ulit..."
"He's crazy..." I breathe. My forehead creased in annoyance. Dapat ay
ipinakulong nya!
"Yes, and pinabayaan 'yung project nya kaya ayun, pinatanggal syang Director sa
ospital. Then, he's going home everynight drunk..." Iling nya.
"T-Then, sinong nag-aasikaso sa kanya?" I asked. "Sinong kasama nya sa bahay?"
"Si Yaya..." Aniya. "Nandun din kami minsan nakikitulog nila Ark para bantayan
sya..."
I sighed. My jaw clenched and my lips forms a thin line.
"Then, you know, Zid... Hindi sa bias ako kasi kapatid ko sya, huh?" Aniya at
tumango ako roon.
"But you know he waits for you every anniversary of your disappearance at the
bus station..." Aniya at malungkot na ngumiti.
Natahimik ako, napatungo ako roon at naramdaman ko ang hapdi sa puso ko.
Wala akong alam sa nangyari sa kanya! I thought he left me because of his
parents! Akala ko...
"He waits for you there, sabi nya baka daw kasi bumalik ka... Buong araw sya
ganoon..." Nang mag-angat ako ng tingin sa kanya ay nakita kong naluluha na sya.
I sniffed, at nang tumulo ang luha nya ay naiyak rin ako at napasapo ng bibig
ko.
"S-Sorry..." I murmured. She gasped.
"Zid..." She murmured and ran towards me and hugged me slowly.
Tulala ako habang nakaupo sa swivel ko, I didn't know that's what happened to
him. I thought, he did that for his family...
Napapikit ako at hinilot ang sentido ko.
Suddenly, my phone rang. Kaagad kong sinilip 'yun at nakagat ko ang labi ko
nang makita ang pangalan ni Thorn sa telepono.
I slowly placed my phone on my ear and I heard his deep, happy voice.
"Good afternoon, Reyna ko! Kumain ka na?" He said happily.
Napangiti ako, sumandal ako sa swivel ko at pinakinggan lang ang boses nya. Who
would have thought he can still sound this happy after everything?
"Hello, baby?" Bulong nya sa kabila. "Zid?"

"Hi..." Sagot ko.

"There..." I heard him sighed. "I thought I've called the wrong number..."
"No..." Ngumiti ako. "What's up? Ikaw, kumain ka na?"
"Hmm, no..." Aniya. My forehead creased, sumimangot ako roon.
"What? It's already three, Thornie! Eat!" I hissed sharply.
He chuckled, narinig ko ang pagsandal nya sa swivel nya at hula ko ay
sinusuklay na nya ng daliri nya ang kanyang buhok ngayon.
"Okay, Reyna ko..." Aniya sa natutuwang tono. "But, why, Thornie?"
 "Para cute, duh!" I rolled my eyes and he laughed.
"Date later?" Aniya. I bit my lip, muntik na akong kiligin pero sumeryoso ako
nang makitang papasok si Vane sa loob.
"Ay, Architect, ito po 'yung files na kailangan mo..." Aniya. I nodded, lumapit
naman sya sa lamesa ko para ilagay.
"No," Sagot ko sa kausap.
"Why?" He chuckled. "Come on, Zid... Let's date..."
"Ayokong mag-date..." Sagot ko.
"I wanna date you," Aniya. "Please, baby..."
Nag-init ang pisngi ko, napasipa ako sa lapag at iniikot ang swivel ko habang
nakangisi.
"Pilitin me mene eke," Inarte ko.
"Oh, damn you, my Queen..." Tumawa sya sa kabilang linya at napatawa rin ako.
Napahawak ako sa pisngi ko at tahimik na tumili pero napaawang lang ang labi ko
nang makita ang nanliliit na mga mata sa akin ni Vane.
Napaubo ako, mariing nakatitig sa akin ang secretary ko na parang may ginawa
akong hindi kapani-paniwala kaya napaubo ako.
"What?" I asked.
"Uh, Architect..." Ngumuso sya sa phone ko sa tenga kaya tumikhim ako at umayos
ng upo.
"Labas na... Labas..." Taboy ko at ngumuso sya sa akin.
"Sino 'yan, Ma'am?" Aniya. "Si Doc?" Ngumisi sya.
Ano, ano, bakit type mo?
"Oo, bakit? Sakin 'to kaya h'wag ka na umasa..." I mocked. Napatawa sya at
narinig kong tumatawa rin si Thorn sa kabilang linya.
"I love you, Zid..." Aniya roon na naaaliw makinig.
"Di ko naman aagawin, Ma'am..." Aniya at tumawa kaya umirap ako sa kanya.
"May pa-tsalap-tsalap ka pa ngang nalalaman..." Reklamo ko at namula si Vane.
"Ano..." She murmured.
"Oh, sya, sige na labas..." Taboy ko at nakangusong lumabas sya at bumalik ako
sa kausap.
"So, ano nga, pilitin mo na ko..." Bulong ko.
His laughter filled my ears, I heard him sighed and spoke.
"I wanna see you so bad..." Aniya. "Can I see you, please? Please, my Queen..."
"More pa..." Hagikhik ko.
"Hmm, I love you so so much..." He said. "Mamatay ako kapag di kita
makikita..." He pretended to be chocking kaya napatawa na ako at tumango sa kanya.
"Okay, you won..." I said and he groaned.
"Yes!" He said. I shook my head, tumawa sya at narinig kong nagkissing-sound pa
sa kabilang linya.
We decided to have our so-called date in one of the finest resto in Makati,
wearing my black off shoulder longsleeve dress, taas noo akong pumasok.

Thorn said he'll be late for an emergency patient kaya

nauna na ako rito.
The waiter assisted me inside towards our assigned seat. I slowly seat on my
chair, fixing the white overflowing skirt of my dress and my curly hair.
Maaga kasi akong nakaalis ng opisina para sa lakad naming dalawa, hindi ako
excited, huh, I was just too bored kaya 'yun...
I was sitting on my chair, waiting for Thorn when a man sat infront of me.
Nagulat ako roon, maayos akong napaupo at nangunot ang noo ko nang makita si
Jace, 'yung kapitbahay namin dati sa probinsya at anak ni Aling Carmen.
"Jace?" My forehead creased.
"Uhm, hi, Scira..." He smiled at me. "Napadaan lang ako and I saw you here..."
Aniya. I nodded slowly, sumimsim ako ng tubig at hinawi ang buhok ko.
"What do you want?" I asked him.
"Uhm, gusto...ko lang sanang humingi ng tawad tungkol sa nangyari sa korte..."
He said, he looks really sorry but I coudn't let go of the memories I've got.

"We had no choice... Gusto lang naming makatulong--"

"Makatulong na idiin ako?" I asked him.
"Scira..." Aniya sa malambing na tono. My forehead creased, my jaw clenched and
my lips met each other in a tight space.
"It's Zidney Sandejas, for your information..." I said coldly.
"S-Sorry..." He sighed. "I...I just want you to know that we're very sorry..."
Hindi ako umimik, punong-puno ako ng galit sa pinagsasabi nila sa korte. They
lied!
"A-And Zidney... Gusto ko lang malaman mong matagal na kitang gusto..." He
looks at me and I did not gave him any emotion.
"Dati palang, gusto na kita... Kahit bilang Scira palang, ang kaso ay nangyari
ang trahedya..." Aniya. "But now, gusto kong magtapat sa'yo..."
"Alam kong noon ay gusto mo na ako..." Nagulat ako nang hawakan nya ang kamay
ko sa itaas ng lamesa.
My eyes widen, mabilis kong hinila ang kamay ko mula sa kanya at nangunot ang
noo ko. I was about to shout and lashed him out when a tall man blocked him on my
view.
I saw Thorn infront of me, his forehead creased and his eyes are dark. I parted
my lips, about to explain my side when he leaned in, lift my chin and claimed my
lips territorially infront of Jace.
My eyes are wide for that sudden action, he bit my lower lip and deepened the
kiss. Nagulat ako nang hawakan nya ang batok ko kaya wala sa sariling hinawakan ko
ang pisngi nya at humalik pabalik.
Hinabol ko pa ang labi nya nang pakawalan nya ako pero hindi ko nagawa, I was
about to call him and request for a kiss when I saw Jace's shocked face.
Natahimik ako, I saw how Thorn's jaw clenched, his lip twitched for a smirk and
spoke.
"And you are?" Thorn asked him coldly.
"I...gotta go..." Nakita kong sumulyap sa akin si Jace bago tumayo. I saw him
walking fastee on his way out kaya ngumuso ako at nag-angat nang tingin kay Thorn
na nakasimangot lang.
"Hi, Thornie..." I cheered, hinila ko ang baywang nya para yakapin habang
nakaupo ako at sumulyap sya sa akin at umiling.
"Tell me, how can I push men around you?" He tsk-ed and I smiled, shaking my
head.
"No, you can't..." I answered. "They're too many to even count,"
Nagsalubong ang kilay nya, mas sumambakol ang mukha nya kaya natawa ako at
pinakawalan sya.

"Upo na, let's eat..." I smiled.

Naupo sya, his face still serious that I almost laugh at him.
"That's not my man, si Jace 'yun, 'yung anak ni Aling Carmen..." Sabi ko.
"Then, why is he holding your hand?" Sikmat nya.
"Because nothing..." I answered. "He said he likes me..."
"And?" Mas nagsalubong ang kilay nya.
"And I did not say anything..." Sagot ko.
He rolled his eyes, I chuckled at that and watched him as he drink the water
from my glass in one gulp.
"I'm stressed about those men, Zidney..." Aniya. "Tatanda akong maaga d'yan..."
"You're old naman na," Biro ko. "Pero no hassle, meron ako biniling
salonpas..."
He eyed me seriously and I laughed again in amusement as he shook his head at
me.
"Isa pang tawa mo, hahalikan kita..." Banta nya and my eyes widen, bigla akong
tumawa pa para asarin sya pero hindi ko naman akalaing tototohanin nya.
 Tulala ako matapos nya akong halikan at nailing sya at pinisil ang ilong ko.
"Sige, tawa pa, Zidney Agnieszka..." Asar nya
We had fun while we're eating dinner and this was the first time my heart feels
so light.
Hindi ko mapaliwanag ang pakiramdam ko sa saya but I still feels na parang may
kulang pa... I think that's what I want, to clear my mind and heal myself.
I felt the warm hug he gave as I was staring at the lights from the city.
We were on his condo unit, matapos ang pagkain ay mas pinili kong dito kami
mag-usap para tahimik at kaming dalawa lang.
My mind still can't process how Thorn lived like that, how he suffered like me.
Akala ko kasi ay ako lang, pero sya rin pala...
"What were you thinking?" He whispered.
Hindi ako umimik roon, mas binalot nya ang katawan ko sa isang mahigpit na
yakap at isiniksik ang mukha nya sa leeg ko.
It's almost dejavù, I remembered being held like this years ago with the same
person.
"I was just thinking..." Bulong ko.
"Hmm? What is it?"
"Kung hindi mo kaya ako iniwan, nasaan na kaya tayo ngayon?" Wala sa sariling
tanong ko.
"Still there in my house," Bulong nya. "Me, hugging my innocent Queen in the
back after a long tiring day..."
Naramdaman ko ang pagkabog ng puso ko roon, marahang hinawakan ko ang kamay nya
sa tyan ko at naramdaman kong hinawakan nya rin ang akin at pinagsaklop ito.
"Mahal na mahal kita, Zid..." Paos nyang bulong. "I've never stopped loving
you..."
"T-Thorn..." Bulong ko.
"I was a wreck when I woke up and realized you weren't there anymore, kasalanan
ko kasi..." He said. "I was too weak to fight them, kung mas nakaya ko sanang
labanan sila, sana nahabol kita... Sana nahanap kita kaagad..."
"S-Sabi ko kahit anong sabihin nila, iingatan kita, I will keep you because I
love you. I promised to never leave you but I left you first." He whispered. "I was
such an asshole, a weakling, ang tanga-tanga ko, Zid..."
I felt his tears on my shoulder kaya nakagat ko ang labi ko at napasinghap.
"Y-You suffered because of me, n-naisip ko, paano nalang kung hindi ka nahanap
ng pamilya? Where will you be? Paano kung napahamak ka? What will I do?" Aniya.

"T-Thorn, everything happens for a reason..." I whispered,

my lips quivering in sadness. "Malay mo, kaya nangyari ito ay para makita ko talaga
ang pamilya ko..."
"S-Sana nga ganun lang, but... Tell me, why do you have to suffer so much
because of me?" He asked me painfully. "Your sickness got more severe, you lived
those years in dark and..."
"You suffered too," Bulong ko. "H'wag mong ibase sa akin ang lahat..."
"B-But yours are too much--"
"Why didn't you tell me about what happened? Bakit hindi mo sinabing muntik ka
nang mamatay? Thorn, I've spent my years mad at you!" Marahang hinarap ko sya at
nakitang nakatungo na sya roon.
"A-Ayokong isipin mo pa 'yun," He answered. "Ayokong maawa ka sakin... Ayokong
awa lang ang maibigay mo. It's fine to see you mad at me than you seeing me with
pity in your eyes... Ayoko ng ganun, Zid..." Nahihirapang bulong nya.
"A-Ayokong maging dagdag iisipin pa ako sa'yo, it's my fault, I deserve your
rage, I left you there, alone... Kung sana hindi nalang ako nagpadaan sa damdamin
at ginawa ang lahat para maligtas ka edi sana..." He blamed himself.
"Y-You did the right thing, My King..." I said softly. Napaangat sya ng tingin,
nakita kong namumula na ang pagod nyang mga mata kaya ngumiti ako ng malambing sa
kanya.
 "Think positive," Sabi ko. "That's what you're always telling me so why are you
blaming yourself now?"
"B-Because I'm worthless, h-hindi kita naipaglaban--"
"You fought hard for your life, baby..." Mahinang sabi ko at hinaplos ang
pisngi nya. "Kung hindi ka lumaban edi sana wala ka sa harapan ko ngayon, di ba?"
"M-My Queen..." He murmured, his eyes bloodshot at kaagad kong sinalo ang luha sa
mga mata nya.
"Ate Gwy told me everything," I told him. "Ikulong natin sila, Thorn..."
He shook his head, tumungo sya at suminghap.
"N-No, I deserve the beatings..." Aniya.
"But you were hurt, Thorn! They can't hurt my King like that!" I hissed. His
tears fell more, naluha rin ako habang pinagmamasdan syang nakangiti pero umiiyak.
"Zid..." He murmured.
"Tell me their faces so I can tell that to my Kuya Zeij--" I stopped when he
hugged me again.
Malalim syang huminga sa may pisngi ko at hinalikan ang tenga ko.
"P-Please give me a chance..." Bulong nya. "P-Please, Zid..."
"Thorn..."
"I'll prove myself to you, p-pangako mas magiging mabuti ako. I promise I will
do anything to deserve your love..." He begged.
"B-But I have to leave, Thorn..." Bulong ko sa kanya kaya mas humigpit ang
yakap nya.
"Reyna ko..." Bulong nya. "Y-You don't want me anymore? A-Am I too annoying?
What can I do to..."
"Sshh, it's not that..." I hushed him and pushed him softly. I stared at his
eyes and saw his eyes full of agony.
"N-Nagmamakaawa ako," Bulong nya. "H-H'wag mo naman akong iwan..."
"This is for the both of us, Thorn..." Bulong ko. He lowered his face and shook
his head stubbornly.
"N-No..."
"Hey, baby..." Bulong ko. "Look at me, come on..."
Iniangat ko ang pisngi nya at pinahid ko ang luha nya.
"I lived for years mad at you..." Paliwanag ko. "I closed my heart to any
people, I was harsh, I become mad... 'Yung puso ko nitong nakaraang taon Thorn ay
punong-puno ng galit at sama ng loob..."
He remained listening but his eyes are still bloodshot from the unstoppable
tears.
"I lived in trauma, Thorn, hindi ako makatulog ng walang panaginip na masama at
takot. I was sick so I didn't enjoy my years..."
"I-I can try to heal you... Whatever it takes, I will--"
"You already healed me, Thorn..." Bulong ko at matamis na ngumiti. "It started
in my office in your hospital, when you held my hand and slept beside me in the
couch, my nightmares stopped since then..."
His eyes soften, pumikit sya at sinandal ang noo sa noo ko at bahagyang
tumungo.
"Hate was my poison but the love you gave me was my cure..." I sobbed and
closed my eyes.
"Y-You didn't give up on me kahit anong taboy ang gawin ko, you showed me you
were deserving of my love, Thorn..."
"T-Then why do you have to leave..." He asked painfully and caught my eyes.
"To find myself," I smiled. "To forget the rage I had, the sadness, to forgive,
to forget the trauma, to love you freely without the bad things we had... Gusto
kong maging mas mabuting tao kasi napuno ako ng galit, Thorn. Gusto kong iwan ang
lahat ng masamang nangyari sa akin sa malayong lugar... Para pagbalik ko ay buo na
ulit akong mahalin ka..."
"P-Paano ako?" He asked sadly.
"You find yourself too, baby..." Sabi ko at hinaplos ang pisngi nya. "You lived
years blaming yourself of what happened to me, you also lived those years in
sadness and fear..."
 "P-Parang di ko kaya..." Iling nya.
"Y-You can," I told him. "So one day, we will meet again and the bad things
happened will just be a bittersweet memories..."
He nodded, hinalikan nya ang palad ko at dinala sa pisngi nya.
"B-But I'm scared, what if you'll find a better man than me?"
"There's no better man than you..." Sabi ko. "Ikaw lang simula dati pa..."
"B-But..."
"I lied but... I don't have any other men, Thorn..." I confessed.
His eyes opened, nakita ko ang gulat nya roon kaya hinaplos ko ang pisngi nya
at hinalikan ng marahan ang labi nya.
"You're the first and the only man I have and gave myself with, my body,
mind...heart..."
"B-But Clyte..." Aniyang naguguluhan.
"She's my daughter in my heart..." I told him. "She's my friend's daughter, I
adopted her when my friend died..."
His mouth parted, nakita kong napakurap sya at mahinang napamura roon.
"Kaya bakit mo iniyakan?" I smiled and his eyes widen at that.
"Did Ate also told--"
"Uhm, yes..."
"Oh, shit..." He cursed and I chuckled when he held my cheek and kissed me
softly on my lips.
"Then, can I be his Dad?" He asked me, hoping. "I really like her..."
I smiled sincerely and nodded at him.
"Of course, she wants you to be her Dada too..." Bulong ko at nakita kong mas
napangiti sya.
He tilted my chin again and kissed me softly on my lips as he kissed my nose.
"Ayaw na kitang paalisin..." Bulong nyang pagod. I smiled, sinapo ko ang mukha
nya at hinalikan ng mas malalim ang labi nya.
"I have to..." Bulong ko.
He sighed and closed his eyes. I saw him bit his lower lip and spoke.
"Then... Will you come back to me?" He asked me eagerly, his black eyes deep
with emotions, like a vast ocean and the skies at night.
"I will..." Sagot ko at matamis na ngumiti.
"Promise?" He asked me this time, lifting his hand and showing me his pinky
finger and thumb.
My heart thumped, I remembered this! Ngumiti ako ng matamis bago tumango.
"Promise..." I said and intertwined my pinky finger and placed my thumb on his.

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Kabanata 27

Kabanata 27
"Ma'am, coffee..." I lifted my gaze and saw my secretary infront of me.
"Thanks..." I smiled at her. She nodded, ngumiti sya sa akin at bumaling sa mga
gawain ko.
"You need help, Architect?" She asked. "I can help you with that..."
"Oh, no..." I said. "I'll be fine, you can go home now, may snow na sa
labas..."
"Sige po, salamat..." Aniya. "Mauna na ako..."
I nodded, nang magpaalam sya at umalis ay napahikab ako at napasandal sa swivel
ko.
It's been a tiring day for me, ito na ang last project ko and it was great and
sad at the same time. Kapag natapos ko ang pipirmahan ko ngayon at last inspection
ay tapos na!
Tumayo ako at sumilip sa bintana at nakitang may snow na, kakasimula pa nga
lang pero mas magandang makauwi na para hindi mahirapan.
It isn't also the first time I am seeing snow but it neved failed to amaze me.
The time I had was enough to heal myself, the hatred I have felt and the
nightmares are finally gone and was washed away.
Dati, I was thinking, how would I turn pain into something beautiful? And now,
I found the answer.
Forgive.
Few years ago, my heart was covered with snow, cold, almost untouchable and
stiff but now, I've come to realized that forgiveness, is like snow, it beautifies
everything it covers...
I bit my lip and smiled, inilapit ko ang daliri ko sa moist na salamin ng
gumuhit ng puso at napagdesisyunan nang umuwi sa unit ko.
Kinuha ko ang scarf na nasa swivel ko at inayos ang kulay brown na coat ko. I
put the scarf on my neck, get my bag and went outside my office.
"Good Evening, Ma'am!" The guard greeted me.
"Good evening," I smiled, nodding my head.
"Would you like the service to bring you home, Ma'am?" Magalang nyang sabi.
"Oh, no... I have my car, thank you..." I said kindly. He smiled, nodding his
head as he told me to take care on my way home.
Binalot ko ang sarili ko sa coat at mabilis na tinakbo ang sasakyan. It was
chilling outside, cold. I shivered when my face hit the cold air kaya mas binilisan
ko ang lakad ko.
Nang makapasok ng sasakyan ko ay tsaka lang ako nakahinga ng maluwang.
"Ang lamig!" I hissed, hinawi ko ang nakalugay kong buhok at kinuha ang susi ko
sa bag para paandarin ang sasakyan.
On my way home, I settled myself looking at the snowflakes falling freely from
the sky. How captivating this could be?
I tapped my fingers on my steering wheel and sing along with the soft music on
the radio, it was from a band I've been hearing and it was great.
Pagkaparada ko ng sasakyan ay kaagad akong umakyat sa unit ko at binuksan ang
heater, it was the second day of winter so, napakalamig.
Ibinabad ko ang sarili sa mainit na tubig sa tub at nahiga sa kama. I fished my
phone out of my bag and checked if I have messages but I got nothing.
My forehead creased. Why is he not texting? Kahapon pa 'to, huh?q
I tried calling his phone but I got nothing so I sighed. Maybe he was busy?
Or...Am I being too clingy?
Hindi naman ata... But I always talk to him, kapag nandito sya ay hindi ako
mahiwalay kaya...
Hindi kaya nagsawa na sa akin?

With that thought, mabilis akong napaupo sa kama. Kaagad

kong kinuha ang telepono ko para i-stalk ang profile nya at nanliit ang mata ko
nang makita ang nakatag sa kanyang litrato.
It was their team's get along, nakita ko ang maliit nyang ngiti sa camera pero
halos mapamura na ako nang makita ang isang picture.
It was a photo where they sit together in the resto, sa litrato ay nakita kong
nakatingin sa telepono nya si Thorn habang nasa tabi nya si Katrin at nilalagyan ng
pagkain ang plato nya.
What the heck, bitch?
Sumimangot ako, I even saw her reacting to the photo with her friends! Pa-puso-
puso pang nalalaman!
Walang sa'yo, Ate girl! Akin si Thorn!
Halos magngitngit ako, nakakunot lang ang noo ko habang tinitignan ang mga
tagged photos ni Thorn at nakitang puro papansin lang ang babaeng 'to sa kanya!
I tried calling him but his phone is still unattended.
So, ganun... Ipagpapalit mo na ako sa babaeng 'yan? Excuse me but mas maganda
ako!
 I bit my lip gusto ko na sanang magtititili sa inis pero biglang kumalam ang
sikmura ko kaya tumayo ako. Naiinis na tinapon ko sa kama ang phone ko at pumunta
sa kusina.
Pinagtripan ko ang cookies mula sa counter at dumiretso sa kama ko habang
nilalantakan ito. I even drinked two glasses of milk because I'm craving too much!
Nakatulugan ko rin ang inis ko, inisip ko nalang ang pagkaing gusto ko 'dun sa
cafè na nakita ko kanina at kakainin ko kinabukasan.
I woke up the next morning with the rays of sun escaping from the curtain,
nagmulat ako, napasulyap ako sa orasan at halos mapamura na ako nang makitang alas-
nwebe na ng umaga!
I cursed, napabalikwas ako ng bangon at tsaka nasapo ang noo ko nang maalalang
linggo pala ngayon.
"Damn, I'm still sleepy..." I murmured softly, hihiga na sana ako pabalik sa
kama nang manlaki ang mata ko nang makita ang anak kong nakapulupot sa kumot ko at
mahimbing na natutulog.
"C-Clyte?" My eyes widen. Sa akalang naghahallucinate lang ako ay inabot ko ang
pisngi nya at mas umawang ang labi ko nang makitang nagmulat sya ng mata.
"Mommy..." She murmured, her pinkish red lips pouting and her brown eyes
shining.
"B-Baby? Why are you here..." I was shocked!
"Daddy..." She murmured, her eyes closing again.
"R-Really?" Napaayos ako ng upo at hinaplos ang buhok nya. "Baby, where's your
Dad?" I asked.
She yawned and pointed the door.
"Okay..." I nodded and kissed her head. "Stay here, Clyte, sleep first... Mommy
will talk to Dad first..."
She nodded and closed her eyes to sleep kaya dali-dali kong sinuot ang tsinelas
ko at halos takbuhin ang ibaba para kausapin sya.
This man! Kaya siguro hindi ko mahagilap, pumunta pala dito! And he even
brought my baby here!
I suddenly smelled hotdogs on my kitchen, kaagad na kumalam ang sikmura ko. I
walked slowly towards the kitchen and was about to scold him when I saw him
shirtless while cooking.
Halos malaglag ang panga ko, he looks edible as his muscular back is on my
view, his blue jean slightly loose on his waist, making me see a peak of his calvin
clein briefs.
I swallowed hard, naka-apron pa sya roon habang nagluluto at nakapamaywang pa.
"W-What are you doing here, huh?!" Halos pagalit ko nang sabi.

"Fuck!" Napatalon sya sa gulat, mabilis syang napalingon sa

akin at nakita kong nanlaki ang mata nya nang makita ako.
"Ikaw, huh, hindi ka nagsasabing pupunta ka dito. And you even brought Clyte,
ayon, may jetlag 'yang anak mo at tumba sa taas!" Sermon ko at namaywang.
He blinked, I saw how his eyes landed on my body and stopped on my chest, he
smirked at that.
Nanlaki ang mata ko at napatingin sa suot ko at mabilis na niyakap ang dibdib
ko nang mapansing suot ko pa ang see-through spaghetti strap na night dress ko! And
I am also not wearing a bra!
"T-Titingin-tingin mo?!" I hissed.
He licked his lips, nakita kong pinatay nya ang apoy sa niluluto at mabilis na
tinanggal ang apron nya.
I remained eyeing him sharply, halos suminghap naman ako nang makita ang
katawan nya sa harapan ko.
It was almost in 3D, he combed his hair with his fingers, licked his lower lip
at halos mapaatras ako nang naglakad sya palapit sa akin.
"H-Hoy! Ano?! Huh, bakit mo pa dinala si Clyte dito?!" I tried hissing at him
but he just smirked.
 His handsome face visible on my view, he grew his beard back, looking more
matured and serious. This is what he exactly looks like years ago!
I took a step back as he took a step forward towards me.
I gasped when I hit the wall, kaagad akong napasinghap nang malamang wala na
akong aatrasan.
"Why are walking around here with just that, hmm..." He hummed and stared at my
body boldly.
Ngumuso ako at sinamaan sya ng tingin.
"Paki mo?" I raised my brow.
He chuckled huskily, staring at me in amusement as he place his hand on the top
pf my head. He towered me, halos manliit naman ako nang makita ang tangkad nya.
"You can't walk around here wearing that, my Queen..." Bulong nya. Sinalubong
ko ang mata nya.
"So?" Matapang ko sanang sasabihin pero naging malamyos ang boses ko.
The emotion on his eyes intensifies as he stared at my face, kumalabog ang puso
ko. I am really excited seeing him again after a month so I wanted to hug him pero
paninindigan ko ang reklamo ko.
"Paano kapag may iba akong kasama dito?" Malamyos nyang bulong. "Edi nakita ka
nilang ganyan..."
"Natulog naman kasi ako e, kaya ano naman?" Sagot ko.
He shook his head and sighed.
"Why do you have to be that sexy..." Reklamo nya at nagulat ako nang tanggalin
nya ang kamay nya sa may itaas ng ulo ko at pagtripan ang suot kong nighties.
I saw him as he tried lifting the dress up my chest to cover the upper part of
it.
"You can just wear a shirt, baby..." Reklamo nya at ngumiwi ng hawakan ang
strap ng damit ko.
"E, di comfortable e..." I murmured and pouted.
He tsk-ed, natawa pa ako sa reaksyon nya ng makita ang ribbon sa bandang
baywang ko. Napasinghap sya at hinawakan ang ribbon.
"Damn, ano ka regalo?"  Reklamo nya.
I laughed, pinisil ko ang ilong nya at hinawakan ang panga nya bago halikan ang
pisngi nya.
"I'm a gift to all men--"
"Oh, damn you, woman..." He hissed. "You're only mine, you understand me?" He
said sharply.

Nanliit ang mata ko, I bit my lower lip and stared at him
darkly. I saw his eyes shifted, mas nangunot ang noo nya habang nakatitig sa akin.
Mas napasandal ako sa pader nang bahagya nya akong idiin. He pushed his body on
mine as he stared deeply on my lips.
"I missed you, baby..." He suddenly said. A smile engraved my lips, marahan
kong ipinatong ang kamay ko sa balikat nya at naramdaman ko ang pagdulas ng kamay
nya sa baywang ko.
"I missed you too..." I whispered back sincerely.
His lips lifted for a smile, nang tumungo sya ay kaagad akong tumingkayad para
hagkan sya at salubungin ang labi nya.
The first touch of our lips is too much I thought I haven't seen him for years,
marahan syang humahalik sa labi ko na tila hangin na humahaplos, hindi ko nakikita
pero nararamdaman ko.
I closed my eyes as I encircled my hands on his nape and pushed myself to his
body. I felt him on my stomach, the heat in between my thighs started gushing.
"T-Thorn..." Bulong ko.
He kissed me senseless, devouring every sides of my lips as he held my waist
tightly. I felt him caressed my back, down my buttocks and a gasp escaped my lips
the moment he squeezed it.
I groaned, hinaplos ko ang magulong kulay tsokolateng buhok at pinadulas ang
daliri ko sa dibdib nya. I caressed his hard chest softly, putting my finger on his
nipple and pinched it.
"Fuck..." He groaned. Mula sa labi ko ay mas napasandal pa ako ng bumaba ang
halik nya sa panga ko, pababa sa tenga ko.
A soft giggle escaped my lips the moment his ticklish beard touched my skin.
"Thorn..." Sita kong natatawa. He chuckled, naramdaman kong itinataas nya ang
night dress ko para hawakan ang pang-upo kaya napaigtad ako.
"Will you shave me..." Bulong nya sa akin habang kinakagat ang balat ko. I
gasped as he sucked my skin and licked it, leaving a small kiss mark on my neck.
"Thorn!" I hissed. Lumayo ako sa kanya para hawakan ang leeg ko kaya natawa sya
at sinilip iyon.
"Maliit lang naman..." Hirit nya. Magrereklamo pa sana ako sa kanya pero inabot
na nyang muli ang baba ko para abutin ang labi ko.
His other hand find its way to my undies and a moan escaped my lips the moment
he touched my bare butt. Marahas akong napatingin sa kanya pero ang madilim lang na
mga mata nya ang nakita ko habang nalulunod sa sariling emosyon.
My head moved and my knees wobble the moment his finger touch my flesh, naibuka
ko ang hita ko at napakapit nang mahigpit sa mga balikat nya nang maramdaman ko ang
ambang pagpasok nya.
I swallowed hard. Our eyes met and without warning, he dipped his finger inside
my core, putting me on the edge of my self-control.
He slowly massaged my sensitive part, making me writhe in pleasure. Nang
pakiramdam ko ay bibigay na ang tuhod ko ay napatingin ako sa kanya.
He was just watching my reaction as I got drowned with his every move. He
pushed his fingers up and down, his thumb on my clit teasing it to trigger me.
I gave him a pleading look, humawak ako ng mahigpit sa kanya at naramdaman ko
ang paghawak nya sa hita ko. He lifted my leg to his waist, making my core more
accessible on his liking.
"Fuck..." I groaned and moved myself together with his fingers. He inserted
another digit and a long moan escape my lips as I lose my sanity.
"T-Thorn, faster, baby..." I hissed.

His fingers fasten, nang masalubong ko ang mga mata nya ay

nang-aakit at nang-aasar ang kanyang ngiti.
"I...want you..." I groaned like a wild cat thirsty for his touch.
"Do you?" He whispered darkly and I nodded.
"Y-Yes..." Bulong ko at napapikit ng mariin. Mas idiniin nya ang kamay at
napaigtad ako sa pag-ungol na kumawala.
He kissed my jaw and lowered my night dress, exposing my blessed breasts. I saw
how his jaw clenched with the sight, with just one stroked of his fingers, I
convulsed.
My juices spilled on his fingers and I wasn't been fully recovered when he
kneeled infront of me, placing my leg on his shoulder as he licked me clean.
His tongue flickered on my core, cleaning the juices I spilled. The heat then
started igniting again as he rose up from kneeling, holding my waist as he spoke.
"Open your mouth, my Queen..." He said hoarsely and I parted my mouth slowly.
"Suck your juices, baby..." Aniya at nang idikit nya sa labi ko ang daliri ay
walang pagdadalawang-isip na ginawa ko ang utos nya. I sucked his finger, holding
his wrist and staring at his dark eyes as I do my dirty deed.
I cleaned his finger, tasting the juices I spilled, showing him how I licked
his fingers.
He withdraw his finger from my mouth and I almost screamed in shock when he
held my butt, lifted me on the air as he slammed me on the kitchen counter.
We kissed like tomorrow, touching each other's body intimately and kissing like
crazy.
I pulled his hair as he sucked my breast and molding the other with his hand.
He squeezed my breast and my body craves for him more and more.
 I still remember it, how my nightmares turned to my wet dreams of him, touching
me like this, claiming me as his own and slamming himself against mine harshly.
Damn, I missed him!
Hinila ko ang belt nya nang mawalan ng pasensya but he didn't seem to care. He
was too engrossed in giving my two mountains his full attention, sucking it like a
baby having his share of milk.
I caressed his bulge, molding my hand on his maleness.
"Oh, fuck..." He groaned deeply, like I wild animal wanting to go out his cage.
I slipped my hand on his briefs and caress his maleness, making me have his
full attention. He stopped sucking my breasts, halong galit, pagnanasa at
pagmamahal ang nakita ko sa mga mata nya habang nakatitig sa akin.
I started stroking him, softly at first and his jaw tightened more at that.
"It's been months since the last..." I groaned seductively, moving my hands on
his part.
I saw how his chest blushed, nang tignan ko sya ay namumula na rin ng bahagya
ang mukha nya sa pagtitimpi sa akin.
"Stop it, my Queen..." He whispered inwardly, placing his head on my neck and
kissed my shoulder blades.
"I want..." Bulong ko na puno ng kagustuhan. "I missed you so much, Thorn..."
"I want to take you so bad, Reyna, but our baby..." He groaned, referring to
Clyte.
"Clyte will be fine..." Tiis kong sagot. "She's sleeping..."
"What if she caught us?" Bulong nyang nahihirapan. His hand was squeezing my
breast as I stroked him.
"She won't..." I said. "Please, baby, I want you so bad..."
He cursed hardly, pushing all his inhibitions away, he opened my legs widely on
his view, move his body closer and entered me in one full thrust.

"Ahhh!" I moaned loudly, mabilis na nagdikit ang katawan

namin nang gumalaw sya.
I encircled my legs on his waist and he pushed himself deeply inside of me.
I purred like a cat when he claimed my lips as he thrust inside of me. I felt
something on my stomach, wanting to get out of my core.
"Come back home, Zid..." He whispered huskily.
I scratched his back and moved my body with his.
"I-I'll just finish my documents then--"
"No," Bulong nya. When I was in the peak of bursting out, he stopped kaya
umawang ang labi ko.
"Baby..." I whined.
"No, woman, you'll come home with me..." Bulong nya. He moved slowly, teasing
me and stopped again.
"Y-Yes, but I have to finish--"
"Stop being stubborn, pinagbigyan na kita ng ilang taon..." Ganti nya sa akin.
"Yes, but you're still going here naman so it was't counted as years--"
"No, my Queen..." He molded my breast, thrust slowly again and stopped so I
gasped.
"Thorn! Let me cum!" I groaned frustatedly.
"Then, go home first..." Sikmat nya. "Mahirap magpabalik-balik dito, wala na
kong pera..."
"Money, my ass!" I groaned.
"You naughty little girl..." He smirked and spanked my leg kaya nanlaki ang
mata ko.
"Thornie!" I almost screamed.
"Sige, sumigaw ka. Kapag nagising ang anak natin mas mabibitin ka..." Asar pa
nya.
I honestly noticed his hotness, the sweat falling from his forehead down to his
cheek is utterly sinful.
 "Kasi..." Sikmat ko. "I want you! I want you!" I cheered.
His forehead creased, I saw his brows met each other as he dipped his head to
claim my lips.
"Promise me you'll be home with me, Zidney..." Aniya. He thrust again slowly at
first so I gasped for air and caught his lips, hinawakan ko ang dibdib nya pero
hinuli nya ang kamay ko at dinala sa leeg nya.
"You can't tease me like that, Reyna, promise me..." Bulong nya.
He slammed his body harder and harshly, like a dominant beast.
"Promise..." Hinihingal kong sabi. "I-I'll be home with you, promise..."
His lips lifted, he moved more faster than before, no teasing this time so my
stomach started clenching.
"You'll get thirsty of me, you woudn't like to be away anymore..." Bulong nya
at muling umulos.
"Thorn!" I screamed.
"Shit, baby..." He whispered in hard voice and in one more thrust, I convulsed
for te second time, my face slammed on his damped chest.
He thrusts again inside of me and not a minute had passed, he spilled himself
inside of me, his juices filling my womb.
Tulala pa ako matapos iyon, I was on his neck, his hand is on my back and
caressing me softly.
"You okay, hmm?" Bulong nyang nang-aasar.
"Hmm," I nodded. "You're too annoying, pabitin ka..."
"Sorry, love you..." He chuckled like a kid. Inayos nya ang damit ko at
iniangat ang underwear ko.

I helped him buckled his belt and I brushed his hair and
kissed his chin.
"I missed you but why are you here again?" I asked him, naupo naman sya sa
stool sa may harapan ko habang nakaupo sa counter at umusog palapit.
He faced me, placing my legs on his side as if I was straddling him.
"Clyte was asking me to go so, who am I to say no to her?" Aniya at hinawi ang
buhok ko sa mukha ko.
"And I wanted to see you..." Ungot nya. I pouted, hinawi ko ang buhok sa noo
nya at humalik sa noo nya.
"I missed you too, but I just saw you last month and we videocall just two
nights before..." Sagot ko.
"Kaya nga pinapauwi na kita, so I ever I'll miss you, papabugbog nalang ako kay
Tito tapos makikita na kita..." He smiled cheekily.
My lips formed a small, sweet smile. Kinurot ko ang pisngi nya at hinaplos ang
panga nya.
"Kamusta panliligaw mo kina Daddy at Kuya?" I asked him. He pouted, natuwa ako
ng mapakamot sya ng kilay at nagsumbong.
"Okay lang naman but your brothers are making it hard for me..." He said.
"Last time, we went out and went to the bar, we drink 'till we're wasted, but
you know, baby, Iñigo fell asleep in just three shots. Why is that?" He asked
curiously.
Bigla akong natawa. Napatango ako at naaaliw na nagsalita.
"It was because he's alcohol intolerant, Thorn..." I said. His mouth parted and
nodded.
"Oh, that's why I was left with Dash and Zeijan..." Aniya. "But they're
crazier..."
"Oh? Anong nangyari?" I smiled. Hinaplos ko ang buhok nya habang humahaplos sya
sa binti ko at magkekwento.
"We had truth and dare, then I chose dare, I was drunk, my Queen..." He
confessed. "So, I didn't know what I am doing..."
"What the heck, nambabae ka?!" My brows shot up but his eyes widen at that.
"Sino, huh?! 'Yung doktorang tarsier na 'yun?!"
 "No..." He chuckled and shook his head. "And Katrin's not my woman, she's just
my colleague..."
"E, may papicture pa nga kayo!" I hissed and gave him a sharp look.
"I didn't know that photo, nagulat nalang ako..." Aniya at hinaplos ang baywang
ko.
"E, may katext ka nga e!" Sikmat ko.
"Oh, magkatext tayo that time, remember?" He said. Nang maaalala ay napanguso
ako. I bit my lip, natawa naman sya at humalik sa may taas ng dibdib ko kaya
tinapik ko sya.
"Manyak!" Reklamo ko.
"Sus, gusto mo nga minamayak kita..." Loko nya.
Napalabi ako at ngumuso.
"Enebe keshe..." I murmured and bit my lip kaya humagapak sya at niyakap ang
baywang ko.
"So, there, truth or dare. I chose dare then, they asked me to dance to that
korean song..." Aniya.
"Oh?!" My eyes widen.
"Yes! That song with the boom boom something, then with a heart sign?" He
lifted his hand and showed me that finger heart innocently kaya natawa ako at
napapalakpak.
"Oh my God, Thorn! You danced that?!"
"Yes! Infront of the stage, damn it..." Namula sya. I laughed, and held his
cheek and saw him blushing
"Who taught you, then?"
"Zeijan..." Nguso nya. Natawa akong lalo at tumango sa kanya.
"May saltik iyon si Kuya Zeij!" I exclaimed. "Yan 'yung muntik na ipa-abort ni
Mommy kasi nasa tyan palang siraulo na..."

He chuckled heartily at that, his black eyes smiling with

his lips.
"He gets that a lot..." Aniya. "Minsan nga tinanong ko, baka gusto nyang
counseling pero tinutukan lang ako ng baril!"
Mas namula ako sa kakatawa sa kanya, I kissed his head again and bit his cheek
kaya ngumuso sya.
"That hurts..." Ngiwi nya at humawak sa pisngi nya.
"E, sorry, kagigil e..." I giggled at him.  "But anyway, hari ko, can I have
hotdogs with tomatoes?" I asked, my stomach suddenly feeling empty.
"Tomatoes?" His forehead creased.
"Yup!" I said. "I'm hungry and I want that so, can you do that?"
"Alright," He smiled and kissed my head. "Sit there, okay? Lutuan lang kita..."
Aniya at tumayo.
Habang naglalakad sya ay halos tumulo lang ang saliva ko sa likod nya kaya
nagsalita ako.
"Thorn, can you dance that song for me?" I asked him. Bigla syang lumingon at
nanlaki ang mata nya.
"N-No way!" He blushed.
My lips protruded, I showed him my puppy eyes and spoke.
"Please, Thornie? For your Queen?" Paawa ko pa.
Napatitig sya sa akin, noong una ay akala ko hindi na talaga sya papayag pero
nang nagsimulang gumalaw ang baywang nya ay napatawa nalang ako bigla.
He danced the song while I hummed and clapped my hands, nakasimangot lang sya
pero todo bigay kaya mas natuwa ako.
"Lover..." He sang and showed me the finger heart kaya halos napahagalpak ako.
He moved his waist and danced effortlessly that I almost died laughing.
He suddenly stop kaya natigilan ako, nang paglingon ko sa may pintuan ay
nanlaki rin ang mata ko ng makita ang anim na taong gulang kong anak habang
nakanganga roon at nakatingin sa Daddy nya na namumutla na sa kahihiyan.
 "Mom..." My daughter looked at me and blinked before pointing his Dad who was
embarrassed.
"You think I can change my Dada?" She asked innocently kaya napahagalpak ako at
nakanganga lang si Thorn sa anak.
We spent our days together shopping, bonding and going to different places,
sabay-sabay rin kaming tatlong umuwi ng Pilipinas.
I have spent years overseas, going to different countries for my projects. I
gained different awards, recognitions and achievements for that.
For two years, I spent my days alone by myself, reflecting, healing myself,
changing for the betterment and striving to gain more experiences.
Pero nitong huli lang ay hindi na nakatiis ang Lolo Thornie ko, he began
stalking me, kahit nagtatago man sya ay nakikita ko rin. He pretends to be someone
as he follow me around, he wears moustache, baggy clothes and such but I memorized
his features so I found out its him.
Hinayaan ko nalang rin, doon na sya magsimulang magpabalik-balik sa ibang bansa
kung nasaan man ako para makigulo ang mangulit, he often brings Clyte with him so,
I won't scold him, pampagaan ng loob kasi di nya ako tinatantanan ng kalokohan nya.
He courted me, for those years, he's secretly taking me to dates, ang akala ng
pamilya nya ay nasa convention pero ang totoo ay naghaharutan lang kaming dalawa.
We did that deed a couple of times already, he often seduce me at dalagang
pilipina lang ako, marupok din kaya humarot din pabalik...
"Welcome back, Zidney!" My eyes widen when I saw my whole family in our
mansion, with their wives and kids.

I greeted them with a soft smile on my face. I really did

missed them! Sa videocall ko lang silang lahat nakikita so, I was really happy!
I greeted them, kissed them all on their cheeks and gave them hugs. Kumain rin
kami ng mga handa pero habang kumakain ay sumama ang pakiramdam ko.
Kaagad akong napatingin sa inihaw na isda sa lamesa at parang umikot ang tyan
ko.
Mabilis akong napatayo sa hapag.
"Zidney-tot?" Kuya Zeij raised his brows.
"I...gotta..." I stopped when my head suddenly spinned, napaatras ako ng
bahagya roon at muntik nang matumba nang may humawak sa baywang ko.
"Zid?" Thorn's voice echoed my ear. "Are you alright?" He asked me.
I nodded slowly and was about to tell him I'm fine when my world spinned again
kaya nagpanic sila.
"Princess!" My Dad exclaimed.
Naramdaman ko ang paglutang ko sa ere, Thorn lifted me on his arms and carried
me towards my room.
Nagkagulo sila roon, nagpatawag pa ng doktor ang Mommy ko para sa akin pero
nagsalita ako.
"B-Baka jetlag lang..." I murmured, Thorn was sitting beside me, holding my
hand.
"Kahit na, paparating na si Doktora!" Ani Mom na nag-aalala.
I waited there and when the doctor came ay kaagad akong ineksamin at tinanong
at nanatiling nakamasid lang sa akin ang buong pamilya ko.
"What is it, Dra.?" Kuya Iñigo asked.
"There's nothing to worry about..." Ani Doktora na may ngiti sa labi. "It's
normal but I still want to confirm..."
"Ms. Sandejas, can you come with me?" She asked. I nodded, nakita kong
nagtataka na si Thorn sa sinabi ng doktor pero hinawakan nya ang braso ko para
alalayan.
"Is she going to be fine? Bakit pa kailangan d'yan?" My Dad asked eagerly and
concerned.
"Jer, hayaan mo na..." Ani Mommy at hinawakan ang braso nya.
Thorn assisted me inside and I saw the doktor looking at him and nodding.
 "Is he your boyfriend, hija?" Ani Doktora.
"Po?" Napasulyap ako kay Thorn na seryoso lang at tumango. "Yes po..."
"Oh, I see..." She smiled at me at looked at Thorn. "Can you wait outside so I
can talk to Ms. Sandejas?"
I saw him took a glance at me, nag-aalala kaya ngumiti ako at tumango.
"Ayos lang ako..." Malumanay kong sabi.
He nodded, I saw him smiled and stared at me again.
"I'll just be outside, call me when you need me, okay?" He said.
Nang makalabas sya ay kaagad akong binalingan ni Doktora at nagsalita.
"Can I ask you personal questions, hija? So I can confirm your condition?"
Aniya. I nodded slowly, still feeling weird about her.
"Okay, when was the last time you had sexual contact?" Aniya. My eyes widen at
that, nag-inkt ang pisngi ko roon.
"P-Po?"
"Don't be shy," She smiled. "It's normal..."
"Uhm, ano po, few days ago..." I cleared my throat ang blushed.
"Hmm, if ever, have you had contact in the past few months?" Aniya. I nodded
slowly at her.
"Yes po..." Napaubo pa ako sa hiya.
"Oh, then, use these..." She gave me three boxes and I almost scream in shock
when I saw pregnancy tests on her hand.
"B-Bakit po?" I asked.
"You might be pregnant, hija..." Aniya.
Oh my God! I might be pregnant!
But I am taking pills to regulate my menstruation! How... Suddenly, I
remembered stopping months ago.
Oh, God!
Mabilis kong ginamit ang mga tests at nanatiling nakatitig lang sa stick habang
nag-aantay ng resulta.
My heart was beating wild, excitement was taking over me as I watched the lines
appearing.
Two lines...
Positive! I'm pregnant!
I almost screamed in happiness and glee, mabilis kong ipinakita kay Doktora ang
mga resulta at nang tumango sya sa akin ay napasinghap ako at nangilid na ang luha
ko.
"I will call your boyfriend, hija... Congratulations..." She smiled at me and
my tears fell in happiness.
Napahawak ako sa impis na tyan ko at sobrang kasiyahan ang naramdaman ko.
"Uh, sino po ang pwedeng makausap tungkol kay Ms. Sandejas?" I heard her
saying. Lumapit ako sa pinto at sumilip at nakita kong sabay-sabay na nagsitaasan
ng kamay sina Dad, mga Kuya ko at si Thorn.
"Uh," The Doctor smiled. "Maybe, ikaw nalang..." She said and called Thorn.
"What! Ako nalang--" Dad exclaimed but my Mom shook her head kaya sumimangot
ito.
Thorin followed her at nang makapasok sila ng banyo ay tumingin sa akin si
Thorn at nakitang nagulat sya sa mga luha ko.
"Baby, why..." He murmured.
"Uhm, we conducted tests to Ms. Sandejas..." Aniya. I saw her showed Thorn the
pregnancy tests and I saw how my boyfriend's jaw dropped.
"Congratulations, she's pregnant!" The Doctor said and smiled.
I saw his tears fell on his cheek at napaiyak rin ako roon.
"Tangina..." I cold tone said. Natigilan ako, marahas akong napatingin sa
pintuan at nanlaki ang mata ko ng makita sina Kuya Iñigo, Kuya Dash, Kuya Zeij at
Dad na nakasilip sa siwang ng pinto at masama ang tingin kay Thorn.
"D-Dad..." I murmured.
"Tangina, Zeijan?" My Dad's jaw clenched.
"Yes, Dad?" Malamig na sagot ni Kuya at masama pa rin ang tingin kay Thorn.
"Bigyan mo nga akong granada, may papasabugin ako..." He said darkly and my jaw
dropped.

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Kabanata 28

2 more chaps! Goodnight!

xxx
Kabanata 28
I don't want to be loved for my petals but to be loved for my thorns. That part
that would hurt, break and will make you bleed but would still try to hold despite
the pain.
The love that can wait, that can endure and forgive. That love that will
forever stay, like a withered flower that might lost its beauty but will still keep
in between the pages of your diary.
I want that...
"T-Thorn?" I woke up in the middle of the night, my stomach feels empty, my
mouth has been watering as I crave for something.
I heard deep breaths on my ear, bumaba ang kamay ko sa tyan ko at naramdaman ko
ang mahigpit nyang yakap roon.
I held his hand on my stomach, his face on my nape as he sleeps.
"Hari ko..." Mahinang bulong ko, he stirred a bit, marahang humarap naman ako
sa kanya at nakitang nakapikit ang mga mata nya habang malalim na natutulog.
Did I tire him too much today?
My lips protruded as I was staring at his peaceful, sleeping face. His stubbles
still visible on my view that I coudn't help but to lift my hand and touch his
tickling whiskers.
I am now living in the condo unit owned by my family, I asked them to get me
one so they did, and now, Clyte and me are staying here.
Thorn oftens visits me here, dito na rin sya natutulog para bantayan kaming
mag-iina dito at mabuti nalang at napapayag ko ang mga Kuya at Daddy ko.
It was hard convincing them, para kasama ko pa ata si Thorn na pumasok sa butas
ng karayom para payagang bumisita-bisita sya rito.
When my family found out about my pregnancy, they were both glad and starled,
lalo na 'yung mga lalaki, kulang nalang ay tambangan nila si Thorn at kung hindi pa
ako nagkunwaring umiiyak ay babangasan na nila si Thorn.
I wouldn't want them to beat him again! Hindi lang naman sya ang gumawa sa baby
namin, ako rin 'no! Ginalingan nya lang sa performance kaya may trophy sya kaagad.
Kanina, when I was craving for mangoes, sya ang pinaakyat ko sa puno. My Mom
keeps on insisting she'll let the workers do it but I really wanna see my Thornie
climbing the tree with his muscular back exposed so I insisted, wala naman syang
reklamo at walang pagdadalawang-isip na umakyat sa puno para kuhaan ako ng mangga.
I even asked my my three brothers to catch every mangoes he would get from the
tree, sabi ko pa sa kanilang kung sino ang pinakamaraming nasalong mangoes ay
magiging ninong ni baby ko kaya nag-unahan sila.
Halos magtulakan pa 'yung tatlo habang sinasalo 'yung nilalaglag na mangga ni
Thorn at tawa lang ako ng tawa ng halos magsakalan na silang tatlo habang nag-
aagawam sa manga.
Mas lalong ayaw pakabog at patalo ni Kuya Zeijan at nagulat nalang kami nung
umakyat din sya sa puno ng mangga at pumitas ng para mas marami ang kanya and
because he obviously gets more mangoes that Kuya Iñigo and Kuya Dash ay sya ang
Ninong ng baby ko!
Thorn with his eyes close still looks handsome for me, I mean, really, like a
Greek God personified.
I like his clean, bare face but I want his face with whiskers more, I want the
ticklish feeling I am having everytime he'll kiss me.
"Thornie?" I whispered and caressed his cheek. He moved, mas humigpit ang hawak
nya sa baywang ko at mas lumapit sa akin. "Baby..."
"Hmm?" His lazy, sleepy eyes opened and he smiled when he saw me staring at
him. "What do you want to eat, My Queen?" He hummed.

"Hmm, sorry..." I pouted. "Antok ka pa?"

"Hmm, no..." Aniya pero ang mata'y namumungay. He caressed my cheek, humalik
sya sa labi ko ng bahagya at nagsalita.
"What do you want to eat?" Bulong nya.
"Uhm, I want marshmallows, 'yung inihaw..." Nguso ko. He chuckled, nakita ko
ang pagkaaliw sa mga mata nya bago tumango.
"You have weird cravings, my Queen..." Bulong nyang paos.
"But..." Tumingin ako sa orasan at nakitang alas-tres palang ng madaling-araw.
"But maybe, bukas na lang? It's too late na and you're still tired..."
He stared at me, his midnight black eyes shining even more with the darkness of
the room.
"No, I'll be fine..." Aniya at hinawi ang buhok ko.
"Pero kasi..."
"There's a 24-hour grocery shop there, I'll get it for you..." Aniya.
My heart pounded, wala sa sariling yumakap ako sa kanya at hinalikan ang chin
nya.
"Thank you, Thornie..." I said. "But if I was too annoying, then you can ask me
to--"
"You weren't annoying," Aniya at dinungaw ako. "I'll do anything for you. If my
Queen and my child wants marshmallows then Daddy will get it for them..."
Ngumuso ako, tinatago ang ngiti, tumango ako sa kanya bago haplusin ang
stubbles nya at ang pisngi nya.
"Buti nalang nandito ka," Ngiti ko. "I didn't know what I'll do if you weren't
here..."
"I am happier you're here by my side," Aniya at nangingiti. "Pero sa susunod,
kakausapin ko ulit sila Tito at ang mga kapatid mo, sa bahay ko na kayo titira..."
"Then, mabubugbog ka ulit?" Nguso ko. "Puro ka nalang bugbog, Thornie, paano
naman ang face mo?"
"Mabugbog naman talaga ang role ko dito," Ngumisi sya. I laughed, pinalo ko ang
braso nya at natatawang humalik sya sa noo ko. "But beatings are nothing just to
bow down to my Queen."
I blushed, humagikhik ako at pinagmasdan sya.
"You're making me too kilig," I said, giggling. "Baka bigla akong manganak,
Thornie..."
Tumawa sya, his thick eyebrows almost met each other and when he licked his
lower lip, I melted.
"I love you..." He suddenly said.
Halos mag-somersault na ang puso ko dahil roon, I gulped, nang makitang sinsero
at malambing ang mga mata nya ay tumango ako.
"Mahal na mahal din kita..." Bulong ko pabalik.
I saw how his eyes brighten, nakita kong nagtubig ang mata nya kaya nanlaki ang
mata ko.
"Why..." His tear fell, napasinghap ako at mabilis syang kinabig para yakapin.
"Are you crying?"
"Nothing," He sniffed and hugged my waist tightly. Suminghap sya at sumubsob sa
leeg ko.
"It's just that... It was the first time you told me those words again..."
Bulong nya.
Nakagat ko ang labi ko, hinaplos ko ang buhok nya at mas niyakap sya.
"Talaga?" I asked innocently. I didn't know!
"Hmm," Bulong nya. "That's why I am too happy, thank you..."
"I love you, Thornie ko..." I whispered cutely. "Love na love na love kita!"
"I love you too, so much..." He whispered and kissed my neck. "I will protect
you from anything, my rose..."
"Thank you, Thorn..." I whispered sincerely. He nodded, saglit syang nagpahinga
roon at nang umayos na ang pakiramdam nya ay humalik sya sa noo ko at nagsalita.

"Sleep first, Zid. I'll check on our Clyte first then will
go to the store, I'll just wake you up if the food is ready..." He said and stood
up.
I watched him as his bare back was exposed on my sight, he was only wearing a
black boxers and he's shirtless, I saw him get his blue jeans on the sofa and wear
it as he brushed his hair with his fingers, his chest still exposed.
Nakagat ko ang daliri ko, I was looking at him, almost drooling and my eyes
widen when he took a glance at me. He caught my eyes and I saw how his lips lifted
for a naughty smile.
"Don't bite your finger like that..." He said hoarsely, wearing his white shirt
infront of me.
"Kasi..." I bit my lip.
He chuckled, shaking his head at me.
"Na-uh, my Queen... Don't drool too much, you gotta sleep first..." He teased.
"F-Feeling mo!" I groaned. "Di kita pinaglalawayan 'no! Alis!"
"Oh, yeah, right..." Tawa nya. "I'll be back, love you..."
The moment he left the room ay kaagad akong napahawak sa pisngi ko sa mga
realization sa buhay. Oh my God, I think I am craving for Thorn!
Madalas kasi ay gusto ko syang nakikita, gusto kong pagtripan ang stubbles nya,
kapag bored naman ako ay para akong ewan na hindi mahiwalay sa kanya!
I mean, is that possible? Craving for a person?
Napapunas ako ng imaginary saliva ko, napailing ako at tinapik ang pisngi ko.
"Damn, he's hot..." I murmured non-chalantly.
I was in a light, almost blinding place. Nagtaka ako noong una, ipinikit ko ang
mga mata ko nang tumama sa mukha ko ang nakakasilaw na liwanag.
Where am i? Why I am here?
I opened my eyes and my mouth parted in shock when I saw a plantation of roses
infront of me, they were bright red and beautiful.
I took a step forward, ready to touch the roses when I saw wolves coming on my
way. Nagulat ako roon, kaagad akong napaatras at nagtago sa puno at nakita ko kung
paano nagtungo ang mabangis na hayop sa mga napakagandang bulaklak.
My heard pounded when I saw the wolves howling, looking around and staring
sharply at the beautiful, untouchable flowers.
I bit my lip, I saw how the wolves tried attacking the roses. They opened their
mouths, their sharp teeths targetting the roses.
Napasinghap ako ng kagatin nila ang katawan ng rosas, I was in the verge of
crying, thinking that the roses might get broken and died but I saw how the wolves
moved a step back, crying and I saw how the bloods from their mouth escaped when
the thorns wounded them from hurting the rose.
They ran, their mouths filled with blood and I saw how the rose went back to
its original beauty. Lumapit ako, marahang hinawakan ko ang rosas at namangha nang
makitang parang walang nangyari roon.
It was as if the wolves never tried destroying it, it went back to its original
beauty, almost untouchable, fragile...and it was because of the thorns.
The thorns helped the rose to overcome the danger coming, it helps the rose
maintain its beauty...
"Anak..." Suddenly, a womanly voice said.
I shifted my gaze, only to find my Nanay and Tatay, with my friend, Ritchelle,
standing next to the tree where I hid.
My mouth parted, my tears fell as I watched her opened her arms for me.
Ritchelle waved and my Tatay smiled sincerely, for the first time, his eyes
glistening in happiness.
 "N-Nay..." My voice broke, wala sa sariling tinakbo ko ang
pwesto nila at mabilis silang niyakap.
I hugged them like it was my very first time seeing them again, I hugged them
like I'd never want to let them go again.
"T-Tay, Ritch..." Bulong kong lumuluha.
"Salamat..." They whispered and that's when my eyes opened.
Napaupo ako sa kama, sapo ang dibdib ko ay naghahabol ako ng hininga. My tears
are falling and my heart pounding in happiness.
I saw them! Parang hindi panaginip ang lahat! I felt their warm hugs and
sincere gratitude as they hugged me!
Nilingon ko ang tabi ko at kaagad na tumayo sa kama nang makitang wala roon si
Thorn. Barefoot, I walked and searched for him hanggang sa mapadpad ako sa rooftop
ng unit ko.
I saw him, with his shirt on and boxers, grilling my marshmallows on the
sticks.
Tinakbo ko ang direksyon nya at mabilis na niyakap ang likuran nya. He jumped,
mariin syang napamura sa gulat at suminghap.
"T-Thornie..." I whispered and sobbed.
"Zid?" Gulat nyang sabi at mabilis akong nilingon. I saw the shock registered
on his face the moment he saw my tears.
He panicked. Mabilis nyang sinapo ang mukha ko at hinanap ang mata ko.
"Damn, baby... What happened?" He asked eagerly.
I sniffed, hinanap ko ang mga mata nya at sumagot.
"I had a dream..." I murmured. Mas nagsalubong ang kilay nya, bahagya syang
lumayo sa akin at nakita kong mabilis nyang tinanggal sa ihawan ang marshmallows
bago tumingin sa paa ko.
I saw his jaw cleched when he saw my bare feet, mabilis nyang akong binuhat
kaya suminghap ako at kumapit sa leeg nya.
He carried me towards the couch near the door and settled me on his lap. Kaagad
nyang hinawakan ang braso ko at hinawakan ang mukha ko.
"Is it a bad dream?" He asked eagerly. "Ngayon ka lang ba ulit nanaginip o nung
nakaraan pa? How often do you have those nightmares--"
"No..." I whispered. "It's not a bad dream..."
"Then?" He asked me, his forehead creased and his eyes filled with concern.
"What is it? Tell me, so I can help you..."
"Kasi..." I sniffed again, humigpit ang hawak nya sa baywang ko at marahang
hinawakan ang balikat ko.
"It's alright, My Queen..." He encouraged.
"I...dreamt about Ritchelle, si Tatay, si Nanay..." I said. I saw him nodded,
listening carefully in everything I am saying. "It's the first time again after
years..."
He dried my tears on my cheek and listened attentively.
"P-Palagi kasing masama iyong panaginip ko, tapos...ngayon, Thorn, nakangiti
sila sa akin..." I said.
I saw him smiled, tumango sya sa akin at hinawi ang buhok sa pisngi ko.
"Then, they hugged me, si Tatay ay masaya rin. Tapos...tapos they told me their
thank you's..." I said.
"T-Thorn, masaya sila... Sobrang saya ko..." I said sincerely and he smiled
sweetly and licked his lips.
"They must be really proud of what their brave daughter achieved..." He said.
"They were thankful not because you gave them justice, but because you were strong
enough to overcome those fears, baby..."
I nodded, my tears still falling.
"You want us to go to the province to visit your parents? Daan din tayo kay
Ritch?" He asked me softly. "Talk to them, I assure you they were really happy
because of you..."
 "Y-You think so?" I murmured, looking at his eyes. Nakagat
ko ang labi ko nang tumango sya at humalik sa balikat ko.
"Yes, my Queen..." Aniya. "You are brave enough to face the difficulties the
life gave you, you were strong in your own way and they are happy for you, I know
that..."
I bit my lip, suminghap ako at tumango sa kanya. Unti-unti ko syang niyakap, I
felt him hugged my waist tightly too.
Sumubsob ako sa balikat nya at marahan naman nyang idinikit ako sa katawan nya
at halikan ang buhok ko.
It was my first time going out again and visiting my office in Manila after
years of being in abroad.
Wearing my Chanel's red silk chiffon pleated shift knee-length cocktail, I
entered the building. My head held high, my black pouch is on my hand as I walked
inside.
Kita ko ang gulat sa mga mata ng mga empleyado pagpasok ko. Their jaws drop
upon seeing me walking, nagsiilagan sila sa akin.
The usually loud receiving area was suddenly filled with silence.
Namangha ako roon at napailing, really, huh? Ganito talaga ako ka-maldita noon?
Habang naglalakad ay halos marinig ko na ang pagtunog ng sandals na suot ko, I
admit it was creepy as you are hearing it!
"Sya ba 'yun, 'yung boss dito?" I heard whispers.
"Oo, 'yung masungit..." Sagot nung isa.
"Ahh... Nakapula nanaman o..."
"Sshh, baka marinig ka! Gusto mo mawalan ng trabaho?" Ani nito. The side of my
lips lifted, tinanggal ko ang sunglasses ko at tumigil sa gitna ng lobby.
They become more silent, I bet they stopped breathing this time!
Nilingon ko ang nga tao sa labi at nakitang lahat ng atensyon nila ay nasa
akin. They were looking at me that when I am looking back ay nag-iiwas kaagad sila
ng tingin sa akin.
Ngumuso ako, I honestly think I was a devil and a witch before!
"Come on, guys, breathe!" I said. Sabay-sabay silang napabuntong-hininga,
napakurap naman ako doon.
Oh, they really stopped breathing!
"Uhm, alright..." I smiled. "Good morning!" Bati ko.
Nanlaki ang mata nilang lahat, halos mabulunan pa sila sa laway dahil sa akin
pero nagsalita rin.
"G-Good morning, Architect!" Gulat nilang sagot.
I smiled and nodded, tumalikod na ako para pumunta sa elevator at ganoon pa din
ang tensyon roon.
Parang may nakakahawang sakit ako kung lumayo sila sa takot, hindi nila ako
tinitignan sa mga mata kaya napailing ako.
I entered the elevator. Hindi din sila umimik roon at hinayaan akong mag-isa sa
elevator kaya nagsalita ako.
"Aren't you going in?" I asked.
Nanlaki ang mata nila, nagtulakan sila papasok sa elevator at nang magsara na
ay tinitignan nila ako na parang naguguluhan sila sa akin.
"Sya ba 'yung devil in a red dress?" Bulong nitong isa sa may bandang pintuan,
mukhang bago.
"Oo, kaya h'wag kang maingay!" Hinawi ko ang buhok ko at sumulyap sa kanila
kaya nanahimik silang lahat roon.
"It's a beautiful day, right?" I asked.
"P-Po?" Gulat nilang sabi. Naramdaman ko ang tensyon, lumabi lang ako at
nagsalita.

"Nothing, I just want to appreciate the day..." I smiled at

them. Nanlaki ang mata nila at nagsikuhan roon kaya napatawa ako ng mahina.
"It's alright, no need to be scared, you're lucky I wasn't your boss the first
time you're here..." I said.
"Uh, ano, Ma'am..." Aniya.
"No, I didn't mean to scare you, huh!" Gulat kong sabi. "I mean, it's alright,
hindi naman ako galit..." I shook my head.
Oh, gosh, that was weird of me! Grabe talaga, Zidney Agnieszka, huh? You were a
bitch!
"Uh, sige, Ma'am..." They smiled.
I smiled back at them and nodded. Ngumuso ako at sumulyap sa phone ko.
It'll be hard approaching the employees now, huh?
After I was done with my works, I decided to go to Thorn's hospital, wala lang,
I would like to go there so I can uhm, read books?
Or maybe, baka bored lang ako kasi wala akong ginawa kanin kung hindi ang
magdrawing at mag-ayos ng plano sa building.
Nakataas ang noo ko habang naglalakad sa pasilyo ng ospital, kilala na rin
naman nila ako kaya wala na silang ibang sinabi nang makita ako. They even welcomed
me here and told me where is my boyfriend's office is kahit na alam ko na.
Humalukipkip ako habang naglalakad, inayos ko pa ang damit ko sa may dibdib na
bahagyang nakikitaan na ng cleavage at medyo itinaas.
Kung sakaling makikita kasi ito ni Thornie ay maiinis nanaman 'yan, he'll
either pull my dress up or will let me wear his labgown or what...
Conservative kasi iyang si Lolo Thornie ko e, palibhasa, tanders na kasi...
My lip twitched when I saw Katrin walking with her colleagues. She was laughing
softly with them, nag-aasaran pa ata.
"I told you, Thorn likes me!" She exclaimed.
Hindi ko na sana papansinin pero kumunot ang noo ko sa sinabi nya.
"Kat, we know!" The other woman laughed. "But he has a girlfriend, right? Doc
Ad told me last time..."
"Ako 'yun," Sagot nya. "We were keeping it a secret to everyone..."
Tumikwas ang kilay ko roon, nagpakita na ako sa kanila. Diretso ang lakad ko
habang kunwari'y walang naririnig ay tinawag ako ng isang doktor.
"Uh, Miss, anong kailangan nila?" Aniya. She seems new, I saw how Katrin's face
become more uglier than she is.
Witch!
"I was looking for--"
"Oh, Zidney, fancy seeing you here!" Dra. Katrin's high pitched voice said.
Kaagad ko syang nilingon at kaagad na napangiwi nang makitang parehas kami ng
suot! Damn! She was wearing a dress underneath his labgown the same as mine!
Nang makita nya rin ang suot ko ay nagulat sya pero sa halip na mairita ay mas
nang-uyam ang mukha nya sa akin.
"Anyway, Zidney, my colleagues and I were going to the spa later!"
Pagmamayabang nya sa akin. "We were stressed kasi so we'll relax, lalo na at nakita
kita ngayon... Mas lalong nakakastress!"
My brow raised, crossing my arms on my chest, my long black hair falling freely
on my back and I smiled timidly at her.
"Oh, sorry, Dra. but I won't be having any time going to spa. I'm a busy woman,
you know..." Sagot ko.
"Oh?" Tumaas ang kilay nya sa akin at nang-uyam. She crossed her arms too,
akala nya ay bagay sa kanya ang damit pero mukha naman syang poste na dinamitan!

"Don't tell me naubusan na kayo ng pera? You're poor now,

maybe the reason why you were wearing imitation..." She eyed my dress originated
from the auction itself in states, it was made from Chanel itself. Their very first
pair so there's no way...
Mas tumaas ang pang-uuyam ko sa kanya. I smiled at her, nakita kong natensyon
sya at ang mga kasama nya sa ngiti kong iyon.
 "Firstly, I don't need a spa to become pretty..." I said. "Second, why would I
lose money if my family's richer than yours?"
She gasped at that, nakita ko ring napalunok ang mga kasama nya.
It's my time to mocked her, you think you can belittle a Sandejas? No, you can
never do that!
"And goodluck, I suggest na magpa-foot spa ka na rin sa mukha mo para hindi ka
lang magmukhang paa ko..." Her mouth parted, namutla sya sa sinabi ko ay tumaas ang
sulok ng labi ko bago bumaling sa mga kasamahan nya.
"And anyway, have you seen my boyfriend, Doc?" I asked the girl behind the pale
Katrin.
"B-Boyfriend?" Gulat nyang sabi.
"Si Thornie ko..." I said. They gasped, nagkunwari naman akong nagulat at
malamyang tumawa at nagtakip ng labi ko bago humarap kay Katrin at nang-asar.
"Oh, I'm sorry, I mean Dr. Valderama..." I said. "Nakakahiya palang mag-address
ng ganun sa mga katrabaho ng boyfriend ko..."
"Uh, Ms. Sandejas... Nasa opisina po nya..." Ani ng isang babaeng doktor roon.
"Oh, thanks, Doc..." I smiled. "And anyway, enjoy sa spa session nyo, the
facial spa for you two and foot spa for Dra. Lim..." Nang mamula ang mukha nya ay
napatakip ako ng bibig.
"Oh, I mean facial spa..." I said. "It slipped." I smiled cutely and turned my
back at their shocked faces.
"You bitch!" Sigaw nyang galit na galit kaya tumaas ang sulok ng labi ko at
ngumisi.
Nang makalagpas naman ako ay nabadtrip ako kay Thorn kaya dumiretso ako at
nagmartsa sa opisina nya. Aba, aba, paano nasabi ng babaeng 'yon na gusto sya ni
Thorn?! There's no way! Unless my ginawa itong lalaking ito.
"Hoy, Doktor Kwak-kwak!" I screamed at the top of my lungs when I entered his
office.
Napatalon sya sa gulat, mabilis nyang naibaba ang paa sa lamesa at napatayo.
"Baby?" Gulat nyang sabi.
"Hoy, ano 'yung sinasabi ni Dra. Tarsier na--"
"Damn, kita 'yung cleavage mo!" He exclaimed and walked towards me. Nagmartsa
sya palapit, tinaasan ko naman sya ng kilay at nagsalita pa.
"Anong ginawa mo 'dun para masabing gusto mo sya--"
"Dapat binabalutan ka ng kumot e, tignan mo 'yan!" Problemado nyang iling at
tinitigan ang dibdib ko.
"Inaano ka ng boobs ko?!" I screamed. He sighed, iniangat nya ang damit ko at
nakasimangot.
"Hoy, ikaw ang tinatanong ko, anong ginawa nyo ni Dra. Tar--" My eyes widen
when he pulled me softly on the shoulder and kissed my lips.
I blinked, napailing sya at pinirmi ako.
"I love you, okay? Now, shut up..." He hissed. Sumimangot ako, pinisil naman
nya ang ilong ko at nagsalita.
"What is it then? What's with Dra. Lim?" Aniya at hinawakan ang baywang ko.
Marahan nya akong dinala sa couch kaya naupo ako at tumabi sya sa akin.
"Kasi sabi nya gusto mo sya!" I hissed. His forehead creased, marahang
hinawakan nya ang braso ko para tumingin ako sa kanya pero umiling lang ako.
"No! Ayoko!"

"Come on, listen..." Aniya sa mababang tono at marahang

hinawakan ang pisngi ko. "Look at me..."
"Ayaw!" I whinned. He chuckled at that, muli nyang hinanap ang pisngi ko at
nagsalita.
"Sige na, reyna ko..." Lambing nya.
"Pagpapalit mo na ko 'e! Porket tataba na ako tapos mukha na akong drum ng
tubig ayaw mo na!"
"That was crazy..." He chuckled and caress my hand. "Come on, my Queen, makinig
ka sa hari mo..."
Ngumuso ako roon at medyo sumulyap sa kanya at nangiti sya roon.
"Kahit maging kasing laki mo ang balyena, mahal pa rin kita..." Aniya.
"I hate you!" I hissed. He laughed amd caught my wrist.
"Kidding," Tawa nya. "But between us, there's no such thing as us. Binigyan ko
lang sya ng tubig kanina..."
"Tubig lang?!" My brow raised. "You know they're making it a big deal!"
"Really?" His eyes widen. "I am giving every health care professionals water
there! Nagpapahinga na kasi ako kanina sa medical mission at may ginagawa pa 'yung
iba kaya namigay muna ako..."
""Patay na patay nga kasi 'yun! Tignan mo, sa next nyo, ikaw nanaman ang
puntirya nyan!" I hissed.
"Mas patay na patay ako sa'yo..." He said. Ngumuso ako, natawa naman sya bigla
at wala sa sariling niyakap ako.
I held his back, mahigpit naman ang yakap nya sa baywang ko at humalik sa leeg
ko.
"But Thornie, who looks better in this dress?" I asked him. Bahagya syang
humiwalay, tumingin sya sa damit ko at nagtaka.
"Huh? Wala, sinong lalaking matutuwa na kita ang cleavage ng girlfriend nya?"
Simangot nya.
"Hindi!" Pinalo ko ang balikat nya. "I mean, diba parehas kaming damit ni Dra.
tapos--"
"Oh? Parehas kayo?" Gulat nyang sabi. My forehead creased, he blinked at that.
"Seriously, Thorn?" My brow raised.
"I don't know, hindi ko naman sya napapansin so I honestly don't know..."
Aniya.
"Weh, promise?" Matalas ko syang tinignan kaya tumawa sya at hinaplos ang
pisngi ko.
"Yes, my Queen, promise..." He chuckled. "And I bet, you looked prettier with
that than anyone else in the world, lalo na kapag walang suot? Damn, tara hubaran
kita..."
Umawang ang labi ko. Napasinghap ako at sinipa sya kaya tumawa sya at pinisil
ang ilong ko.
"Joke lang..." He laughed at nag-init ang pisngi ko.
"Eng heret-heret me!" I exclaimed and smacked his chest. He laughed more,
ngumuso na ako ng mamula sya kakatawa at niyakap ako.
"Are you hungry?" Aniya. "Gutom na ba ang baby ko dito?" Marahang humaplos ang
kamay nya sa maliit kong tyan kaya ngumuso ako.
"No, Daddy..." I answered. "I'm still full..." I said in a small voice.
"Then what do you want me to do? I can buy or cook you food or what..."
Suggestion nya.
"Hmm..." Humawak ako sa baba ko at nag-isip, nanatili naman syang nakatitig at
inaantay ako.
"Hmm? What is it?" His hand moved on my stomach softly, caressing it.
"Uhm, diba, Thornie, kapag Doctor ka you know about anatomy?" I asked.
"Yes..." He nodded.
"Then also, the body of a baby?" I asked. He nodded, inabot nya ang kamay ko at
hinaplos ang daliri ko.
"Uhm, ganito nalang, i-drawing mo sa akin si baby natin!" I exclaimed in
happiness.
His eyes widen.
"What?"
"I-drawing mo si baby natin, bale 'yung possible na mukha nya kapag infant na
sya ganun, with the parts..." I said.
Kumurap sya, nakita kong napatingin sya sa lamesa nya at lumunok.
"Are you serious now, Zidney?" Aniya sa seryosong tono.
"Yup!" I cheered. Ngumuso naman sya at napasuklay ng buhok. "Sabi mo kasi kahit
ano gagawin mo so, draw..."
"I am not really that good, baby, I mean I can draw but not as good as you..."
He confessed.
"No problem, I just want to see your drawing, label the parts din para mas
astig!" I smiled.
"Then, why don't we just go to ultrasound so we can see--"
"No, gusto kong magdrawing ka..." I whinned. "Sige na, Thornie!"
Napatitig sya sa akin, I smiled at him and kissed his cheeks and I saw him
flabbergasted. He sighed and when he nodded ay napahiyaw ako at pumalakpak.
"Minsan lang 'to, huh..." He said.
"Yes!" I cheered.
Nang tumayo sya para magdrawing sa desk nya ay nagpaalam akong lalabas muna at
babalik rin agad. He allowed me, pero pinasuot nya sa akin ang labgown nya kaya ang
laki-laki!
Gusto ko mang panoorin sya sa pagdrawing ay hindi ko ginawa dahil gusto kong
surprise and baka biglang mahiya, galingan masyado.
My eyes widen when I saw Nurse Dhelmira and Nurse Alexis on their way to a ward
holding their charts.
They were my favorite nurses back then! They were the only ones who treated me
right!
Napatingin rin sila sa akin at nakita ko ang panlalaki ng mata nila.
"Scira!" They screamed and ran towards me.
We had fun, halos kinse minutos kaming nagkwentuhan at sinamahan pa nila akong
bumili ng cookies sa cafeteria.
They said, they were sent here in exchange of Nurse Elisha and Nurse Lei, my
nurses the last time.
They went back to work and I went inside his office and found him stretching,
the two buttons of his black dress shirt are opened with his white pants on his
strong, firm legs and brown belt on powerful waist.
Nag-unat sya, mukhang katatapos lang gumuhit kaya ngumisi ako.
"Ayos pa ba ang buto-buto?" I teased. Napaharap sya, nakita kong napaayos sya
ng tayo at sumimangot..
"Sige, Zidney, gagawin kong kambal 'yang anak natin, sinasabi ko sa'yo..." He
said at ngumisi ako at kumindat.
"Sige, game, mamaya!" I exclaimed kaya natulala sya.
Tumikhim sya bigla, natawa nalang ako nang halikan nya ang pisngi ko bago
nagpaalam na kukuha ng kape para makatakas.
I was eating my cookies as I sat on his swivel, paikot-ikot pa ako roon habang
pinaglalaruan ang mga ballpen nya nang maalala ko ang drawing.
Nakaipit sa isang medical book ang drawing nya kaya kinuha ko ang bondpaper. I
was chewing my cookies as I flipped the paper at halos mabulunan ako nang makita
ang drawing nya.
Oh my God!
Nagbukas ang pinto, nakita kong pumapasok na si Thorn doon habang sumisimsim ng
kape nya at nang makita ako ay ngumiti sya.
My lips closed, sinamaan ko sya ng tingin at nangingilid na ang luha ko habang
nakatingin sa kanya kaya nagtaka ang mata nya sa kilos ko.
"Why, baby? Don't you like the drawing?" He asked confidently, not minding my
tears and sipped on his coffee.
"Ang sabi ko baby, hindi tyanak!" I whinned at nabuga nya ang kape nya sa
narinig.

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Kabanata 29

Belated Happy Birthday to Ayieng! More birthdays to come,

mamsh! Love you and Godbless!💖
One more chap+epi then we're done, thank you for making this far, Archers! May
your heart filled with love. Be happy!
xxx
Kabanata 29
"Happy Birthday..." Soft whispers and a tender kiss on my cheek, napasinghap
ako sa gulat at napalingon.
My lip twitched to a happy smile when I saw Thorn beside me, holding a piece of
red rose on his hand.
"It isn't my birthday yet..." I answered him.
"Scira..." He said. My mouth parted, naalala ko kung anong petsa ngayon kaya
kumalabog ang puso ko at napangiti.
"D-Doc..." I stuttered.
He smiled, his dark eyes brighten with that. I saw how emotions play on his
eyes, I saw how the dark orbits of his eyes gloom.
"I love you..." He murmured. I bit my lip, kumalabog ng malakas ang puso at
kaagad syang dinamba ng yakap.
"Thornie..." I whinned, he chuckled, kaagad nyang hinawakan ang baywang ko at
yumakap. He place his head im between my neck and kissed my skin.
"Sorry for everything..." He whispered huskily.
I smiled, mas yumakap ako sa leeg nya at narinig ko ang halakhak nya roon.
"I'm sorry too, for everything..." Bulong ko. "I should have let you explain, I
should have not told you those words... Hindi ko alam ang mga pinagdaan mo..."
"I am still wondering what might have happened if your family didn't found
you," Aniya. "Kapag napahamak ka, hindi ko kakayanin..."
Lumayo ako sa kanya. I smiled sweetly when I saw his face and I cupped his
cheek.
"I told you, everything has a reason..." Sinsero kong sabi sa kanya. "Siguro
kapag hindi nangyari 'yun, wala tayo rito ngayon... Siguro walang baby Clyte, wala
'yung baby natin dito..."
He lowered his head, I saw him stared at my stomach and caressed it.

"H'wag mo nang sisihin ang sarili mo," Bulong ko sa kanya. "We made it past
through it, Thorn, this day might be bad for the both of us but we can change it,
right?"
Nag-angat sya ng tingin, I saw how his eyes was suddenly filled with something
unreadable.
"Could we?" Bulong nya.
"Yes..." I caressed his soft cheek. "You don't have to wait to the bus station
anymore, dito lang naman ako..."
He bit his red lips, he nodded, convincing himself as he lift his hand to touch
my cheek too.
"H'wag ka nang aalis, hmm..." Aniya at hinawi ang buhok ko sa likod ng tenga
ko.
"I won't..." I answered him. He let a relaxed sigh out, muli nyang iniangat ang
rosas at nangingiting inabot ko iyon at tumingkayad para patakan sya ng halik.
"Thank you..." I said sweetly.
He nodded, I saw him smiled and kissed my head.
"Should we go out today, my Queen? Alis tayo?" Bulong nya.
"Sure!" I cheered. He chuckled lightly, I saw him brush his hair with his
fingers.
"Kumain ka na ba? What are you craving for today?" He asked me, caressing my
stomach.
"Hmm, nothing in particular..." I said.
"Okay, that's good." He smiled and I bit my lip when he kneeled and kissed my
stomach.

"Then, did you vomit?" He asked, hinaplos ko naman ang

buhok nya habang nakaluhod sya roon at dinudungaw ko sya.
 "Hmm, yup, isang beses lang..." Sagot ko. "I'm not really sensitive..."
"Hmm, that's good, my child..." He said, caressing my stomach. "H'wag mo
pahirapan ang Reyna natin, huh? So, Mommy won't go to hospitals often..."
I looked at him and saw how adorable he is, he looks like a child and an
excited father at the same time.
"Daddy!" Sabay kaming napatingin sa pintuan kaagad akong nangiti nang makita
ang anak kong pumasok roon.
"Hi, baby..." Nakita ko ang pagngiti ni Thorn at ang pagtayo nya sa
pagkakaluhod.
"Miss you po!" She exclaimed I chuckled when he jumped on his father. Thorn
catched her, narinig ko ang hagikhik ni Clyte nang halik-halikan ni Thorn ang
pisngi nya.
"It tickles, Daddy!" She exclaimed.
"Uh-huh? Hindi kita nakita kahapon..." Tawa ni Thorn na patuloy sa panghaharot.
"Because you were busy!" She pouted, her pinkish, pouty lips looks adorable.
"Yes, and I missed you and Mommy yesterday!" He chuckled and Clyte screamed
when he hugged her.
Naaaliw ko silang tignan, they looked very much like a father and daughter.
Thorn loved my baby with all his heart, like she was his own.
In those years, Clyte treated him like he's her own father and they really
looked good together. My daughter grew beautifully and smart, nang pumasok sya sa
school ay palagi syang na-a-award-an, she was a good girl, kind and really
beuatiful.
Clytemnestra Alyona Sandejas... I smiled at that, my rose...
"Mommy! Mommy!" I chuckled when she called me.
"Hi, baby, ang aga mo nagising..." I told her.
"Because I heard Daddy's voice!" She exclaimed. "I heard him talking to Yaya so
I rushed outside!"
"You really love Dada, huh?" I chuckled and came closer. Thorn caught my waist,
napalapit ako sa kanilang dalawa habang buhat ng isang kamay nya si Clyte.
"Yes! He's the best Dada in the whole world!" Sabay kaming natawa ni Thorn.
I saw how Thorn's eyes smiled and he kissed her chubby cheeks.
"Hmm, and my Clyte is the best baby!" Aniya sa anak na tuwang-tuwa sa sinabi
nya.
"Punta muna tayo sa inyo?" Ani Thorn at nakita kong pinaglalaruan ni Clyte ang
buhok nya.
"Why?" I asked.
"Hmm, papaalam tayo kay Tito tsaka sa mga Kuya mo then, we'll go out maybe
later?" He asked.
"Okay!" I smiled, tiptoed and kissed his cheek.
I really loved how gentleman Thorn is, he never changed. I saw how he get along
with my brothers, my family, kahit harsh sa kanya 'yung mga lalaki. He never failed
asking for permission whenever we're going out, also, sya na rin ang nagsusundo kay
Clyte kapag wala syang ginagawa.
"Come on, baby, bihis na tayo... We'll go to Papa later..." I told Clyte na
mabilis na bumaba sa bisig ni Thorn.
"Where are we going, My?" She asked.
"Kina Papa muna tapos alis tayo nila Daddy..." He said.
"Yehey!" She cheered and I chuckled when she jumped. "My, I wanna wear my pink
dress tapos ponytail mo ako like a princess!"

"Okay, my princess..." I smiled and kissed her cheek.

"Hmm, what does my Queen and Princess wants to eat?" He asked, holding his
daughter's hand and caressing my waist.
"Nuggets!" We cheered and he laughed, kissing my head.
"Alright, I'll cook..." Aniya.
I was smiling as we were on our way to our mansion, wearing a simple black
dress and my daughter with a cute pink dress. Thorn was wearing a gray shirt and
black jeans. His dog tag dancing freely on his neck.
Napalabi ako, kung may tao man akong pinaglilihian ay si Thorn iyon at wala
nang iba. I crave for different foods but he's the only person I want and to see.
Sometimes, I look immature kasi gigisingin ko sya para magpabili pero hindi
naman sya nagrereklamo. He was really understanding and responsible. I've never
felt alone whenever he's here.
Nang makapasok ng mansion ay kaagad syang lumabas para pagbuksan kami. I
watched him as he carry my daughter on his arms and extended his hand for me.
"Thank you!" I smiled cheekily and I saw him mouth formed a side grin before
nodding.
He held my waist, pumirmi ang kamay nya roon habang naglalakad kami at nang
sumulyap ako ay nag-aabang na ang tatlong lalaki doon sa pintuan.
My lips protruded and when they smiled ay kaagad akong humiwalay kay Thorn at
tumakbo sa kanila.
"Kuya!" I cheered. They chuckled, kaagad akong sinalubong ni Kuya Iñigo at
humalik sa ulo ko.
"How's our Princess?" He asked me, natawa ako nang makiyakap din 'yung dalawa
at humalik sa ulo ko.
"Good!" I smiled.
"Kamusta ang pamangkin namin? Hindi naman ba makulit?" Aniya at sumulyap sa
tyan ko. I shook my head, nakita ko ang pagngiti ni Kuya Iñigo at hinaplos ang
buhok ko.
"Good..." He smiled. "Any cravings?" He asked.
"Anything lang..." I answered.
"Mabait," Kuya Dash said, nodding his head.
"Duh, kasi mana sakin!" Kuya Zeij rolled his eyes at sumimangot ako sa kanya.
"Mana sakin!" I hissed. "Hindi sa'yo, Kuya, h'wag kang feeling..."
Ngumuso sya, natawa naman ako at nakita ko ang pagbaling nya sa likuran ko.
"Clyte ganda!" He exclaimed. I saw my daughter's smile widen.
"Tito gwapo!" She exclaimed. Napailing 'yung dalawang kapatid ko habang tuwang-
tuwa naman ang Kuya Zeij.
"Nauto nya si Clyte..." Kuya Dash sighed, shaking his head. Nakita ko ang
pagngiwi ni Kuya Iñigo bago lumapit rin sa anak ko para bumati.
I smiled, nang makitang pinagkakaguluhan 'nung tatlo ang anak ko ay sumulyap
ako kay Thorn. I saw him glancing at them with a small smile on his face kaya
lumapit ako sa kanya.
I slowly wrapped my arms on his waist at nakita kong napasulyap sya sa akin.
"Hmm, ayos ka lang?" Masuyong bulong nya at tumango ako sa kanya na may ngiti
sa labi.
"Yup..." I tiptoed and kissed his jaw, I saw him smiled and kissed my head.
"I love you, pasok na tayo?" He asked. I nodded, sinabihan ko 'yung tatlong
pumasok na kami sa mansyon at sumunod naman sila kaagad habang pinag-aagawa kung
sino ang kakarga kay Clyte.
I am holding Thorn's hand as he was guiding me inside at natawa nang makitang
nagkakagulo ang mga pamangkin ko sa sala.
"Tita!" They exclaimed and I chuckled when they ran towards me.

"Hello, babies!" I cheered happily. I kissed their cheeks.

Crest and Alchiel, Kuya Iñigo's twin children kissed me first. Nangiti ako at
niyakap ang dalawa bago niyakap sina Marcus at Daru na pamangkin ko kay Kuya Dash.
"How's your vacation?" I asked them.
"Good, Tita! We went to Cali!" Daru exclaimed.
Napatawa ako roon at nang makita ang baby Zion ni Kuya Zeij na tumatakbo galing
kusina habang may hawak na pritong manok ay natawa ako.
"Zion!" I exclaimed.
"Tita!" His blue eyes widen when he saw me, tumakbo sya sa akin at natutuwang
yumakap ako sa kanya at pinanggigilan ang pisngi nya.
My niece and nephews grew up well and healthy. Pinalaki sila ng maayos ng mga
magulang nila. They were focused on giving them a good life and I am proud how my
brothers are doing their best for their families. They were giving their families
the best life like how our parents gave us their best too...
Nang sumulyap ako kay Thorn ay nakita kong kinukuyog na sya nung mga bata para
maglaro kaya nangiti ako. I saw him kneeling on the floor, talking to the kids.
"Ate!" I walked towards my sisters and gave them a kiss.
"Oh, Zid, everything good?" Ate Thallia asked me.
"Yes po," I smiled.
"Kamusta ang pagbubuntis mo? Are you sensitive?" Ate Reah asked me and I shook
my head at that.
"Not really, kahit ano ay ayos lang sa kanya. Hindi naman ako pinapahirapan..."
Sagot ko.
"Morning sickness, Zid?" Ate Alyx asked me with concern. "Ayan ang iniiyakan ko
dati, kapag nagigising ako ng umaga at nagsusuka..."
Napatango rin 'yung dalawa, humaplos naman ako sa tyan ko at ngumiti.
"Minsan, Ate Lyx, but not that often..." Sagot ko.
"Then, Thorn must be taking care of you, hmm?" Ate Thallia teased kaya nangiti
ako at tumango.
"Look, masama ugali 'nung mga kapatid mo minsan but look at them now..." Aniya.
Sumulyap ako at nakagat ko ang labi ko nang makita ko ang mga kapatid ko at si
Thorn sa sofa na nag-uusap at nag-aasaran.
Clyte was seating on his father's lap and the kids are playing on the floor.
Yumakap ako kay Ate Thallia habang pinagmamasdan 'yung apat sa sofa.
My Mom and Dad is here, kagagaling lang nilang dalawa kagabi sa ibang bansa.
They were celebrating their wedding anniverary overseas and I coudn't help but to
smile everytime I am seeing my parents happy.
"Nagluto ako kasi feeling ko dadating ka..." Ani Kuya Zeijan na inakbayan ako.
"Hmm, thank you!" I smiled. "Then, paano mo nahulaang pupunta ako?"
"Advance kasi ako mag-isip..." Aniya at ngumisi. Sumimangot ako, tumawa naman
sya at maya-maya'y nagsalita si Thorn.
"Wala na, finish na..." He exclaimed in a girly voice kaya napamura si Kuya
Zeij at naghagalpakan ng tawa 'yung dalawa sa hapag.
We decided we will just stay here for the meantime to bond with my family,
Thorn was getting fond of them, I saw his eyes smiling everytime he's talking to my
Mother.
Pinagmamasdan ko sila habang magkausap. My Mom was seating on her wheelchair
and Thorn was kneeling infront of her. He was telling her things and I saw how my
Mom laughed and caressed his hair.
"I am glad he found family with us..." Napasulyap ako kay Kuya Iñigo nang maupo
sya sa tabi ko.
"Kuya..." I called him.

He glanced at my Mom and Thorn and kissed my head.

"Hindi ba sya malapit sa pamilya nya?" He asked me.
"Uhm, not really..." I answered him. "Si Ate Gwy ang kalapit nya, si Darius
naman hindi masyado and his parents? Uhm... Hindi ganoon..."
"Oh, that's why..." He smiled softly at me. "You know what he's been telling us
whenever he's here for Clyte nung nasa ibang bansa ka?"
"What?" I asked, curiosity is kicking in.
"Everytime we'll ask him why is he still staying despite the things we're
doing?" Aniya. "Tinatanong namin sya palagi bakit kahit ayaw namin sa kanya ay
hindi sya sumusuko... You know what his answer is?" He asked.
"What?"
"He said you're his family..." Aniya. I gasped, kumalabog ang dibdib ko roon at
nakagat ko ang labi ko.
 "He said you're his home, sa'yo lang daw sya nakakaramdam na tanggap sya...
Sa'yo lang daw sya nakakaramdam ng ganoon..." Aniya at ngumiti sa akin.
Nangilid ang luha ko, suminghap ako at sumandal kay Kuya at niyakap nya ako at
tinahan.
"Who are we to stop him from being with his family?" Bulong nya.
"I understand him, Princess, hinding-hindi rin ako papayag na mapalayo ako sa
Ate Thallia mo..." Aniya. "She's my home too, so, why would we stop him from
pursuing you?"
"We may have faced challenges that almost made us stop hoping for better but
still we found each other, andito tayo ngayon, may pamilya na kami, masaya sila
Mommy, ito kayakap ko ang prinsesa namin..." Suminghot ako at mas niyakap sya.
"Now, that your brothers are happy with their own families, who are we to stop
our only princess' happiness?" He kissed my head.
"I want you and Thorn to be happy, Zid... Kahit siraulo 'yang Tinik na 'yan,
kaya nyang makisabay sa kalokohan namin..." He chuckled.
"K-Kuya, thank you..." Bulong ko.
My heart has been pounding fast, with full of love and happiness.
Sobrang...saya ko...
"Anything for the princess..." Bulong nya sa akin.
Tanghali na nang magdesisyon 'yung tatlong lalaki na maglaro ng basketball sa
may malapit sa garden. Naghanda ang mga maid ng snacks sa may malapit sa amin
habang naglalaro 'yung tatlo.
My Mom and Dad are inside the mansion, playing with their grandchildren at
narito kami sa labas habang pinapanuod 'yung tatlo.
Beside me was Thorn, his hand was wrapped possessively on my waist and his
other hand is on my stomach. Nakagat ko ang labi ko ng marahang humaplos sya sa
tyan ko habang humahalik sa pisngi ko.
Ate Thallia, Ate Reah and Ate Alyx is beside me, watching the boys play.
"Saan tayo mamaya?" Bulong ko.
"Hmm, let's eat outside..." He whispered huskily and kissed my cheek again.
"Ang clingy naman ni Thornie..." Bulong ko. He chuckled, nodding his head and
moved closer.
"My Queen, I think I want mangoes..." Bulong nya. Tumawa ako, hinaplos ko ang
buhok nya at humalik sa ulo nya.
"Ikaw ba ang buntis?" I asked, amused. He shook his head, pouting.
"No, but..." He sighed. "Maybe after we eat later, punta tayong bilihan ng
mangga..."
"Okay..." Bulong ko. "Then, if we got home, can you give me grilled
marshmallows?"

"Hmm..." He nodded. "You have weird cravings, 'nung

nakaraan gusto mo ng sinabawang talong tapos 'nung naluto ayaw mo na..."
I pouted.
"Are you getting tired of me?" Malungkot kong sabi at mabilis syang napaayos ng
upo.
"Of course not!" He exclaimed. "Hey, baby, look at me..."
Sinamaan ko sya ng tingin at nakita kong kumindat sya.
"Ang gwapo ng boyfriend mo, ano?" He teased. I shook my head, my lips still
protruding.
"Of course I won't get tired of serving my Queen..." He said. "Kahit sa
kabilang mundo pa 'yang cravings mo, bibilhin ko..."
"OA naman nito sa kabilang mundo!" Kinurot ko ang pisngi nya at natatawang
inabot nya ang kamay ko at hinalikan ang likod ng palad ko habang nakatingin sa mga
mata ko.
"Oh, sa harapan mo pa talaga namin hinaharot ang Prinsesa!" Sabay kaming
napalingon sa harapan at nakitang nakatayo roon ang tatlo.
They were all topless with only their basketball shorts on, pawis na pawis
iyong tatlo habang hinihingal kakatakbo.
"H'wag nyo nang awayin ang Thornie ko!" I exclaimed. Sumimangot sila, umirap
naman ako at niyakap ang baywang ni Thorn na nangingiti sa akin.
"Hoy, Zidney, akala mo nakakatuwang tignan kayong maglandian?" Singhal ni Kuya
Dash kaya umirap ako sa kanya. "Baby ka pa!"
"Wow, nagreklamo ba ako nung naglalandian kayo ni Ate Reah sa harapan ko?!"
Sikmat ko. Ate Reah chuckled, bigla namang napakurap si Kuya Dash at tumikhim.
"Sali nyo nalang si Thornie sa laro n'yo, para kayong ewan, pinagkakaisahan
n'yo si Kuya Zeij!" Reklamo ko 'nung kanina ko pang napapansing nagkakampihan sina
Kuya Iñigo at ayaw ibigay ang bola kay Kuya Zeijan.
"Tama-tama!" Kuya Zeij exclaimed. "Pinagkakaisahan ako, Princess! Misis ko,
inaaway ako nila Kuya!" He whinned.
Sumulyap ako kay Thorn, I saw him staring at me, smiling. His face is on my
full view and I always want to thank God for making me have this wonderful man.
"You wanna join?" I asked.
"Hmm, if they'll allow me..." Aniya. I smiled.
"Play for me, please?" I asked. "I wanna watch you play..." I giggled when he
nodded, kaagad akong bumaling doon sa tatlong nagpupunas ng pawis at nagsalita.
"Kuya, isali nyo si Thorn!" I cheered.
Natahimik sila, sabay-sabay silang napalingon sa akin. I saw my Kuya Iñigo's
serious face as he was staring at us.
He seems serious, please, Kuya, pumayag ka na...
I took a glance at Thorn and he was staring at them, probably waiting for their
answer.
He looks hopeful to join so I pouted.
"Kuya... Please..." I said.
"Go, baby, let Thorn join..." Ani Ate Thallia kaya nangiti ako roon at nang
sumulyap ako kay Ate ay kumindat sya sa akin.
I glanced at Kuya's serious face,  papayag na 'yan! Papayag na...
"No..." He said.
My mouth parted, I saw Thorn's shoulder slacked.
"Pasok, Moira!" Kuya Dash exclaimed.
"At tumigil ang mundo..." Kuya Zeijan sang dramatically at napangiwi ako nang
makitang lumapit doon si Ate Alyx at hinila ang tenga nya.
Napailing ako at natawa.
"Aww! Misis!" He whinned.
"Ikaw na lalaki ka, pinatulan mo pa ang kalokohan ng kapatid mo!" Pagalit ni
Ate kay Kuya Zeij na parang maamong tupa.

"Tara..." Kuya Iñigo chuckled kaya napasulyap ako sa kanya.

He smiled and winked at me kaya napapalakpak roon.
"Go, Thornie!" I exclaimed.
I saw Thorn's jaw clenched, sumulyap sya sa akin bago humalik sa noo ko at
tumayo para sumali sa tatlo.
Inabot ko ang juice ko sa lamesa roon at sumimsim habang pinagmamasdan sila.
Thorn was walking towards the boys and my eyes widen when he suddenly removed
his shirt from the back, his strong back is on my sight, leaving him only with his
jeans.
Nabulunan ako, pumasok sa ilong ko ang juice at napaubo.
"Oh my God!" Ate Thallia exclaimed and caressed my back, patuloy ako sa pag-ubo
at nakita kong napalingon si Thorn.
His forehead creased, nakita ko ang pag-aalala sa mata nya at akmang lalapit na
sa akin pero mabilis akong umiling at nagthumbs-up.
Hindi sya nagpapigil, mabilis syang lumapit, walang shirt na suot kaya mas
naubo ako at masilaw sa katawan nya.
"Hey, baby, are you..."
"Yes!" I exclaimed and nodded. "Sige, sige, 'dun ka na..."
 "Are you sure--"
"Yes! Sure na sure!" I exclaimed.
"But..." Akmang hahawakan nya ako.
"Thorn, she's alright, sige na..." Natatawang sabi ni Ate Thallia kaya
napatango si Thorn roon at napasulyap sa akin.
I saw his forehead creased at my sight and I forced a smile and nodded.
"Y-Yeah..." I said.
He nodded, nagdadalawang-isip pa syang tumalikod sa akin bago bumalik doon sa
tatlo.
"Ikaw, huh, hindi mo kinaya?" Ate asked.
Napalabi ako, natatawang tumango at uminom ng juice.
Gosh, hindi ko kinakaya si Lolo Thornie! Looking at the four of them running
under the sun, playing with the ball ay hindi kapani-paniwala.
My mouth was parted as I watched Thorn bathing with his sweat but with a grin
on his face. He brushed his wet hair with his fingers and chuckled when Kuya Zeijan
shoot the ball.
Nag-apir silang dalawa at nangiti lang ako roon at nang sumulyap ako sa tatlong
babae ay parang namamangha rin sila habang nanunuod sa apat adonis roon na
naglalaro sa ilalim ng araw.
Sa sunod papa-car wash ako kay Thorn habang wala syang pantaas at nakajeans
lang tapos dadala ako ng kanin tapos papanuorin ko lang sya para sa ulam.
Wearing a blue bodycon, backless dress, I felt confident. My curly hair was on
my both shoulders falling freely on my chest.
My cleavage was slightly exposed, the curves of my body is obvious and my
stomach still flat like I wasn't pregnant at all.
"You should atleast wear my coat..." Thorn whinned for the nth time, buong
byahe ay nangulit lang syang magsuot ako nang coat nya pero ayaw ko.
"I'm fine nga kasi..." I smiled sweetly. He glanced at my chest and sighed.
"Come on, baby..." Sinuklay nya ang buhok gamit ang daliri kaya mas nangiti
lang ako at pinagmasdan syang ayusin ang spectacles sa mga mata nya.
"You're here naman so you don't need to be worried. No one will drool if you're
here beside me..."
"As if I can stop them..." Iling nya. "Yes, I am here but your skin is too much
to bear, my Queen."

"You're too much to bear too, my King..." Tawa ko. "Look at

you, ang gwapo-gwapo mo..." I said, glancing at him.
He was wearing a black dress shirt with three buttons opened and a part of his
toned chest was shown. He was wearing a black coat and slacks, with his white
sneakers. His wavy, dark brown hair is utterly good, suiting his look. Plus, his
glasses and the beard that's making him look more of a Greek God too perfect for a
human like me.

"You're beautiful too," He said, amused.

"I know..." I chuckled. "A Queen needs to be beautiful at all times..." I said
confidently and he chuckled and nodded.
"Uh-huh..." He said, raising his brow and glancing at me. Naningkit ang mata ko
nang humawak ang kamay nya sa hita kong nakalabas dahil sa slit ng damit ko kaya
napailing ako.
His hand moved upwards so I gasped and slapped his hand away.
"We'll date, Thornie! No love making for the mean time!" I said.
He sighed, umakyat ang kamay nya sa tyan ko bago marahang lumapit at humalik ss
labi ko.
"Alright, but how about later?" He teased. I remained serious and when he
stared at me ay hinila ko ang batok nya para halikan ang labi nya.
"Shege..." I murmured and he chuckled, placing a peck on my lips and going down
the car.
 Sinundan ko sya ng tingin at nang katukin nya ang bintana sa pwesto ko ay
binuksan ko ito.
"Let's go inside, Zid?" He asked.
"Hmm..." I nodded.
"Roses at the backseat, Reyna ko..." I took a glance at the backseat and saw
the elegant red roses at the back.
"Thank you..." I said softly, my heart filled with love.
"Happy Birthday again, my innocent Scira..." He murmured and moved his head, I
held his cheek, mula sa labas ng bintana ay inabot ko ang labi nya at kinintalan ng
malalim at malambing na halik ang labi nya.
"Thank you, Doc..." I smiled cheekily, kissed his cheek and when I got out ay
kaagad akong kumapit sa braso nya papasok ng resto.
I was amazed the moment we entered the place, it wasn't a typical restos we
often visits.
Nang pumasok na kami at nakarinig ng luma pero sikat na kanta noon ay gumaan
ang loob ko. I smiled, I watched the neon lights on the place as Thorn guided me
inside.
It was a 1950's themed diner! It gives me a lot of feels! It was as if I was at
America in their 19's!
"You like it?" I smiled and nodded. Natutuwang pinagmasdan ko ang lugar at
nakitang dalawa lang kami ang tao roon.
The round, old designed lights was in every top of the table and a red chair.
An old 19's red car is in the middle and old magazines, newspapers and
photographs was scattered as a design. The lights are in different colors, with
cozy vibes.
"Why here?" I asked Thorn who was watching my reaction.
"Nothing, I just saw this place and thought of you..." He chuckled, assisting
me to sit.
Nang maupo ay may lumapit sa amin para ibigay ang menu, I am having fun as I
was staring at the staffs, all of them are wearing pink, cute dresses and a cap
same as a sailors on their heads.
I saw mannequins here, Marilyn Monroe and the likes.
Thorn ordered foods as I took photos on my phone, naramdaman ko naman ang
paghawak nya sa baywang ko kaya nangiti ako at sumandal sa kanya.

"Is that it, Sir?" The lady in pink uniform asked.

"Yup..." He smiled and nodded. I saw the lady blushed before leaving kaya
napanguso lang ako at humalik sa panga ni Thorn.
"You rented the place for this?" I asked him.
"Yes..." He whispered, kissing my ear. "Hope you like it..."
"Of course!" I cheered. "I loved it!"
Yumakap sya sa akin, I lifted my phone, taking a photo of us and he looked
seriously in the camera.
"Ang serious naman!" I said. He chuckled, mas yumakap sya sa baywang ko at
bahagyang tumungo sa leeg ko.
He nibbled my skin, giving me a few, light kisses and I giggled when the
stubbles tickled me.
"Thorn..." I whinned.
"Yes..." He asked huskily and kissed my earlobe, hinawi nya ang buhok ko kaya
mas nangiti ako at iniliyad ang leeg ko.
"Let's take a photo again," Bulong ko. He nodded, placing his chin on my
shoulder and smiled at the camera.
I smiled too, malaki ang ngiti ko at sya nama'y may maliit pero sinserong
ngiti. He kissed my cheek, nakuhaan ko iyon kaya natutuwang nag-swipe ako sa camera
at ipinakita sa kanya ang litrato.
"Should I post this in insta?" I asked him. He nodded slowly, caressing my
stomach.
 "Yes," Bulong nya. "Then open my facebook account too, post it on my wall..."
"Should I?" I took a glance at him and he nodded. Kaagad ko namang pinost iyon
sa instagram ko with a heart caption at pagkatapos ay nilagay ko ang email nya sa
phone ko.
"What's your password, baby?" I asked him. Dumungaw sya sa phone ko at
nagsalita.
"Zidney..." He said. My eyes widen, nilingon ko sya at napailing.
"Don't tell me..."
"Yup, baby, open it..." He said, naguguluhang binuksan ko iyon at nagulat nang
mag-open ang account nya. My mouth parted, binuksan ko kaagad ang profile nya at
nakitang ang picture naming tatlo nila Clyte ang kanyang profile picture.
I chose three photos from my phone, the same photos I posted on insta. Isang
larawan roon ay ang seryoso sya, the next one is him, smiling and him kissing my
cheek for the third one.
"What caption, Thornie?" I asked him.
"My Queen..." He whispered huskily. My heart almost burst, napatikhim ako at
nang lingunin ko sya ay naaaliw na pinagmasdan nya ako.
"T-Talaga?" I stuttered.
He chuckled, umayos sya ng upo at kinuha mula sa akin ang phone ko at sya na
ang gumawa ng caption sa litrato.
"There..." He gave me back my phone and I blinked when I saw the photos having
a lot of reactions in just a minute.
Thorn Arzeus Valderama added 3 photos.
I saw his captions at nakagat ko ang labi ko at niyakap ang baywang nya. I
kissed his cheek at umakbay sya sa akin at bumulong.
"Thank you for being my family, Zidney..." He whispered softly. "For being with
me at all times, for forgiving me, for understanding me and accepting the only
things I can do..."
"Thank you din..." I whispered softly, taking a glance at his face and
caressing his jaw. "For accepting me for who I am, kahit noong akong pa si
Scira..."
"Even if you're Scira or Zidney... You'll always be my Queen, kahit anong
mangyari ikaw lang ang Reyna ko..." Bulong nya. "And I love you so, so much..."

"I love you too, My King..." I whispered.

"Thank you for being strong even if I did horrible things to you, thank you for
not relying on my sword while I was gone because you're carrying your own..." Aniya
at hinaplos ang daliri ko.
"You know a Queen can build her own empire with the same stone thrown at her,
right?" I smiled.
His eyes soften, licking his lips and cocked his head.
"That's my Queen..." He said proudly.
"And I am proud of my king..." Ngiti ko at humalik sa baba nya. "I'm proud of
you, Thorn... Really really proud..."
He cleared his throat, stopping his tears from falling so I kissed his lips and
hugged him.
"I'll be your family, Thorn..." Bulong ko sa kanya. "I'll always be proud of
you no matter what happened..."
"Zid..." He whispered. He held my shoulder, pushing me softly away from him,
nagtaka ako roon. I saw him cleared his throat and brushed his hair with his
fingers.
Marahan syang tumayo sa upuan, nagtataka akong tumayo nang ilahad nya ang kamay
nya sa akin, I accepted it, marahan nya akong dinala sa gitna at nangiti ako nang
lumamlam ang ilaw sa lugar.
I heard a soft music from the piano and I took a glance and was starled when I
saw one of the employees singing there.
Wise men say only fools rush in
But I can't help falling in love with you...
Shall I stay?
I put my hands above his shoulder and he held my waist slowly, staring at my
eyes and swaying me slowly.
Would it be a sin?
If I can't help falling in love with you?
A soft voice sang in the background as we swayed, my heart pouding as I am
staring at his midnight eyes illuminated with the colorful, dimmed neon lights.
Like a river flows surely to the sea,
Darling so it goes...
Some things are meant to be...

He spinned me and a smiled escaped my lips as we danced softly with the music.
He held my waist and moved my body on his chest and kissed my head.
He mouthed his I love you and pulled my waist slowly.
Take my hand, take my whole life too...
For I can't help falling in love with you...
"I know I was an asshole, I was a good for nothing man..." He whispered. "I am
every bad thing and you're the only good thing that's ever happened to me,
Zidney..."
"Thorn..." I whispered. I sniffed, I saw how his eyes glisten with tears as he
smiled softly and kissed my head.
"You know a King woudn't be a King without his Queen, right?" He asked and I
nodded, tears started falling from my eyes.
He breathe hard, lowered his head and sighed before placing his hand on his
pocket. He stared at my eyes and I gasped when he kneeled infront of me, showing me
a red, elegant box.
"T-Thorn..." I murmured.
Oh my God! Nasapo ko ang bibig ko at nanatili syang nakaluhod roon sa harapan
ko at binuksan ang pulang kahon. I saw the shining diamond ring and my heart
hammered.
"Zidney Agnieszka Sandejas..." He said, breathing hard and nervous. "My Scira,
My baby... My Queen..."
"Will you give me the honor to serve you for the rest of my life?" He asked me
sincerely. "Will you give me a chance to build an empire with you?"
"T-Thorn..." My voice broke in anticipation.
"P-Please, Zid..." He begged. "G-Give me a chance to prove my love for you for
the rest of my life, give me the chance of officially making you my Queen..."
"W-Will you marry me?" He asked, shaking, hoping I'd say yes and as I was
looking at him, I realized so many things.
I realized that no matter how bad your past is, there is still that someone who
will accept you for everything. For all the mess, for all the harsh experiences...
He didn't judged me, he was the only person who believed in me when no one else
could. He is my King, my love, my thorns...
"Z-Zid, say yes..." He murmured like a lost boy, sniffing and I chuckled, with
my eyes pooled with happy tears.
"N-Nagpaalam ka ba kina Kuya?" I asked him and he nodded, still sniffing.
"T-They'll kill me if I don't..." He said and I giggled, nodding as I stared at
him.
"Y-Yes, Thorn... I'll marry you..." I answered.
He breathe hard, a relaxed sigh left his lips as he cursed loudly and slipped
the ring on my finger.
"D-Damn..." He murmured and hugged me and I sniffed, hugging him back as he
kissed my head repeatedly.
"I love you... I love you..." Bulong nyang paulit-ulit. "I...I promise I will
be a good husband, I'll be a good father... Pangako..."
"T-Thornie ko..." Atungal ko na naging sobrang emosyonal at mas niyakap sya ng
mahigpit.
"Ay, hala! Hindi nag-aya ng kainan!" My eyes opened when I heard Kuya Zeij's
voice and my eyes widen when I saw my family on the entrance.
"D-Dad?" I stuttered at mas nanlaki pa ang mga mata ko ng makita ang pamilya ni
Thorn na naroon din.
Mabilis akong sumulyap kay Thorn at nakitang nakangiti sya habang namumula ang
mga mata sa kakaiyak.
"Daddy! My!" Clyte exclaimed and I smiled when she ran towards us, mabilis
syang binuhat ni Thorn at lumapit sa akin at may kung anong saya ang lumukob sa
puso ko nang yakapin ni Clyte ang leeg naming dalawa habang tuwang-tuwa.
"Yehey! Happy family!" She screamed in happiness and I hugged Thorn and her
back tightly as Thorn placed his head on my neck and hugged us.
"Z-Zid, bili tayong mangga..." Ungot ni Thorn kaya napatawa ako at mas yumakap.

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Kabanata 30

Long message for my Archers,

Hi, Archers! This will be the last chapter of the Sandejas Siblings Series,
thank you for making this far! I know all of you are saddened for this will be my
last story FOR NOW. I will be back soon and I hope you all enjoyed reading the
Sandejas family, same as I enjoyed writing them. This is the best series I've
written so far for it brings me out of my comfort zone.
Remember, smile, don't ever let anyone bring you down. Remember what Zidney
said? A real Queen can make her own empire with the same stone thrown at her,
right? You are a Queen, a majesty who can stand on her own. Remember that there
will always be someone who will embrace everything, your flaws, your messy life,
scars and all. I hope you learned a lot and keep the lessons in your heart forever.
I will be back soon,
Heartlessnostalgia ♥
xxxx
Kabanata 30
"I'm sorry..." Mrs. Valderama's voice said softly.
I remained looking at her. She asked me if she and her husband can talk to me
and I allowed them to talk to me, I guess this will be the start.
"I know what we did was unforgivable, we judged you rightaway, naging mapagmata
kami. Naging makasarili..." She said.
I bit my lip, tumango ako at humugot ng hininga.
"Marami kaming nagawa hindi lamang sa'yo, pati na rin kay Thorn..." Malungkot
nyang sabi. Nang makita ko ang lambot ng mga mata nya ay alam kong sinsero sya sa
sinasabi nya.
"You were his only strength but we pushed you away from him..." Aniya at nakita
kong inalalayan sya asawa nang maluha sya.
"K-Kung naging matapobre kami, patawad..." She sniffed. "Patawad sa lahat,
hija..."
"Mrs. Valderama..." I breathe.
"S-Salamat, hija..." She sniffed. "Thank you for giving our son your love and
attention that we lacked in giving him..."
"I did that because I love him..." Sagot ko.
"N-Nagkamali kami sa maraming bagay, hindi namin napagtuunan ng pansin si
Thorn, we judged you, we don't deserve your forgiveness but please... Sana mahanap
mo iyon sa puso mo..." Sinsero nyang sabi.
"I'm sincerely sorry for everything, Ms. Sandejas..." Mr. Valderama suddenly
spoke. "We only want what's best for our son, not knowing you were the best for
him..."
He sighed and lowered his head, nabakas ko ang resemblance nila ni Thorn sa mga
itim nyang mata.
"What my wife and I did was horrible." Pag-amin nya. "Hindi lang sa'yo pero
pati na rin sa mga anak namin, we forced them to be someone they don't want to be,
napagkompara, nagkalamangan at naging magkaagaw sa atensyon..."
"I-I know Thorn will understand, talk to him..." Sabi ko at hinawi ang buhok
ko.
"He will," He smiled sadly. "He's a good man, understandable, loving but we
know we can't easily removed that scar on his heart for what we have done..."
Sumulyap ako kay Mrs. Valderama at nakita ko ang lungkot sa mga mata nya. She
aged a bit, napansin ko ang bahagyang pagkawala ng tapang sa mukha nya.
"He will understand you..." Sagot ko sa kanila. "Ako naman ay wala na ang
nangyari noon, I honestly was hurt but that was in the past now..."
"H-Hija..." Stella's voice broke. "S-Sorry, I am really sorry..." She sobbed.
"N-Naging masama ako sa iyo... Patawarin mo ako..." She begged and as I was
looking at her, wala na akong kahit ano mang galit na makapa sa puso ko.

Maybe time heals wounds, hmm?

"W-We're very sorry, Ms. Sandejas..." Stevan Valderama lowered his head.
I sighed, sumulyap ako sa kanila at naramdaman ang paglambot ng puso ko.
Everything happens for a reason, that's what I am always thinking, maybe how they
treated me in the past is just a challenge to make me strong now?
Maybe they were my hindrances that suddenly turned to something wonderful right
now. Everyone deserves a second chance, right?
Wala namang masama ang magpatawad? You will be truly free once you forgive and
I am anticipating it right now...
"I forgive you..." I said softly and they both looked at me, shock.
"Nothing's wrong in second chances, right? You all taught me to be strong, isa
pa, my child needs grandparents..." I smiled sincerely.
"H-Hija..." Stella's voice broke.
"S-Salamat, hija..." She gasped unbelievably and glance at my stomach. "P-Pwede
ba kitang mayakap?"
I nodded and I smiled and hugged her back when she sobbed and hugged me
tightly.
"S-Salamat, Zidney... Salamat..." Bulong nya at nang sumulyap ako kay Stevan ay
nakita kong nakangiting nakamasid sya habang may luha sa mga mata.
The moment we entered the diner again ay nagkakasiyahan sila sa loob, the kids
are playing with the car display, 'yung mga babae ay kumukuha ng litrato at nakita
kong nag-uumpukan ang mga lalaki roon sa gilid.
A smile engraved my lips when I saw Thorn talking to his brother, Darius, he
was smiling, nakita kong may sinabi si Darius kay Thorn kaya natawa ito at nailing.
I saw Kuya Ark in there, with my brothers, nagkakasiyahan sila roon.
"Zidney!" Ate Gwyneth screamed when she saw me. My smile widen, kaagad akong
lumapit at yumakap sa kanya habang tuwang-tuwa sya.
"Ate Gwy!" I cheered and we jumped in happiness.
"Congrats, Zidney! Magiging kapatid na talaga kita!" Tuwang-tuwa nyang sabi sa
akin.
"Of course, I'm happy too!" I chuckled.
"Teka, patingin nga ng singsing!" Aniya at inangat ang kamay ko at napatili sya
nang makita ang kamay ko. "Oh my God! Ito 'yung pinili nya!"
"Kasama ka nya mamili?" I asked her and took a glance at the lovely ring I have
on my finger.
"Hindi, pinapili nya lang ako, he's been stressing himself for a week finding a
perfect ring for you!" Aniya at tumango. "Dami kasi 'nung arte, akala mo babae,
kesyo baka daw di mo magustuhan..."
"Lahat naman ay magugustuhan ko..." Ngiti ko.
"Yeah right, masyadong kabado lang si Thorn kaya nanggugulo..." Tawa pa nya at
niyakap ako. "Congratulations, Zidney! Galingan nyo pa sa sunod para mas bongga ang
kalalabasan ng baby!"
We went home after the long, peaceful night, nagising lang ako nang maramdaman
ang haplos ni Thorn sa pisngi ko.
"Hey, baby..." He whispered. I opened my eyes and saw his face near me.
"Nandito na tayo..." Bulong nya. I nodded, napamulat ako ng ayos at hinaplos
nya ang buhok ko at inalalayan ako paupo.
"Si Clyte?" I asked him.
"Backseat, sleeping..." He said at nang sumulyap ako sa likod ay nakitang
natutulog roon ang anak ko habang yakap ang teddybear nya.
I yawned, humalik naman sa pisngi ko si Thorn at marahang hinawakan ang kamay
ko.

"You sleepy?" He asked me. "Sorry if I woke you up, hindi

kita makakarga papasok kasi tulog rin si Clyte, ayoko namang iwan ka rito sa
baba..."
"Okay lang..." I smiled softly at him.
He nodded, sumulyap ako sa kanya nang lumabas sya ng sasakyan at marahang
binuhat ang natutulog na anak sa backseat. He placed her on his neck and carried
her at kaagad akong lumabas roon.
He offered me his hand, kaagad naman akong kumapit sa kanya at sumabay nang
maglakad sya.
"Come on, careful..." Bulong nya sa akin. I bit my lip and nodded, naagaw
kaagad ang atensyon ng mga tao nang pumasok ko.
I was wearing Thorn's coat, leaving him only with his black dress shirt on.
Ako na rin ang pumindot ng elevator para makapasok kami at nang makarating sa
unit ko ay dumiretso na kami sa kwarto ni Clyte.
My daughter was sleeping peacefully with her lips protruding. Her long
eyelashes looks good on her and her shiny black hair makes a good combination of
her fair skin.
"Ako na dito, Thorn, shower ka muna..." I told him.
"No, ako na, you sleep first, nagising kita..." Aniya pero ngumiti lang ako at
umiling.
"I can handle this," I told him. "You don't need to worry, shower ka na tapos
ayusin ko lang si Clyte tapos matutulog na rin ako sa kwarto..."
"Alright," He smiled and placed his hand on my hair. "Make it fast,"
"Okay..." Sagot ko, he nodded, I saw him kissed her daughter's head before
whispering his goodnight and leaving the room.
Binihisan ko si Clyte at inayos ang kumot sa katawan nya. She was fast asleep,
paano ba naman kasi ay sobra ang pakikipaglaro nya kanina sa mga pinsan at mga Tito
at Tita nya.
She was having fun kaya ayan, sobrang pagod...
I sighed, humalik ako sa noo nya at muling pinayakap sa kanya ang kanyang
teddybear.
"Sleep tight, my love..." I whispered softly. "Mommy loves you so much..."
"My, love you..." I smiled when she murmured that, kaagad kong hinaplos ang ulo
nya para makatulog syang muli at inayos ang kumot sa katawan nya.
I came back to our room and heard the shower from the bathroom, sumandal ako sa
kama, inabot ko ang sandals ko at marahang kinalas sa paa ko.
I removed Thorn's coat and placed it on the side table as I wait for him,
kanina ay gutom na gutom ako pero nawala na ngayon. Gusto ko nalang ang matulog at
yakapin si Thorn.
The door opened and I was starled when I saw Thorn going out, a small, white
towel was wrapped on his waist and his hair still wet from the shower.
Each drops of the water is dripping from his head down his cheek kaya nabasa ko
ang labi ko. His well-toned chest is on my view, his abdomen exposed that I
suddenly wanna touch it.
Nang masalubong ko ang mata nya ay nakita ko ang pagkislap ng mata nya sa
kalokohan kaya ngumuso ako at nag-iwas ng tingin.
"You were craving anything, Zid?" He asked, amused.
 "Shut up, Thornie, di ako papaakit sa'yo..." I cleared my throat.
"Uh-huh?" He chuckled, walking slowly towards me at 'yun nalang ang pagmumura
ko sa gulat nang i-angat nya ang kamay ko at ipatong sa abs nya.
"Gosh!" I exclaimed in shock, trying to withdraw my hand but he held my wrist
and did not allow me.
"Uh-huh," He murmured. "No, baby..."

"I-I'm not a slave to my sexual needs, Thorn..." I said

sharply and his lips lifted for a grin.
"Hmm?" He put my hand slowly on his abs, down to his v-line at napapamura na
ako sa isipan ko.
Oh my gosh, lower pa!
His damped, and with a thin hair chest is on my full view, tila nang aakit na
hawakan ko sila. His nipples is also in my view and I licked my lip to stop the
burning desire from escaping my body.
"M-Magsa-shower na ako, Thornie..." Matapang ko pang sabi. His brow raised,
smirking at me.
"Alright, your bath is ready..." Malamyos na sabi nya at bago pa man ako maakit
sa kanya ay halos tumakbo na ako sa banyo.
My cheeks are flushing the moment I entered the bathroom. Damn, Thorn is a
freaking temptation! A kind of sweet dessert I coudn't avoid to eat.
Hinubad ko ang damit ko at pinusod ko ang buhok ko bago sumalampak sa
maligamgam na tubig para magrelax.
I closed my eyes, the rose scent of the water is too pleasing, relaxing,
nakakawala ng stress.
I heard the door creaking at magpapanic na sana ako nang makita si Thorn na
nakasuot pa rin ng towel na pumasok sa banyo.
"What?" I said sharply.
"My fiancée's moody..." He teased at lumapit kaya sumimangot ako.
"T-Tigilan mo ako, Thorn..." Reklamo ko pang kunwari and he shrugged his
shoulders, akmang tatanggalin nya ang twalya sa baywang nya ay napatili ako at
umiling.
"H-H'wag!" I screamed. "As in no, hindi ako papalandi sa'yo!"
He chuckled shaking his head at me.
"You can't stop me..." He answered naughtily. "Isa pa, tutulungan nalang kitang
maligo..."
My eyes widen when he removed his white towel, making me see him on his
birthsuit that I screamed and closed my eyes.
Itinakip ko rin ang daliri ko sa mga mata ko pero may kaunting siwang para
makasilip lang. Konti lang, promise.
"Oh, don't play innocent now, my Queen..." Amused nyang sabi.
"I-I'm innocent 'no!" I screamed. "T-Tsaka diba, bakit mo ako tutulungan, kaya
ko naman..."
"I insist." He said.
"H-Hindi ako papalandi sa'yo..." Mariing sabi ko pero humalakhak lang sya at
sumampa sa bathtub. The water from the tub went out the moment he entered kaya
siniko ko sya.
"Ang laki mo kasi!" Reklamo ko.
"Malaki talaga..." Tawa nya at bahagyang pumwesto sa likuran ko at bahagyang
idiniin ang sarili.
My eyes widen, napaubo ako sa gulat at mabilis syang nilingon at sinamaan ng
tingin.
"See? It's massive, thick and--"
"Shut up na!" I hissed kaya napahagalpak sya ng tawa at niyakap ako mula sa
likod at humalik sa balikat ko sa loob ng tub.
"Pagod ka?" Aniya. Ngumuso naman ako at medyo tumango.
"Konti lang, it's fine naman..." Sagot ko. He nodded, I felt him get the soap
from the side and get the sponge to help me clean my back.
"Thornie, they said kapag daw pregnant iitim 'yung ibang parts ng katawan, is
that true?" I asked him curiously.
He cleaned my nape, bahagyang humaplos ang kamay nya sa balikat ko roon.
"Hmm, yes, for some..." Aniya. "But don't worry, hindi naman umitim..."

I sighed, nilingon ko sya at nakitang ang basang buhok ay

nasa may noo nya at nakabagsak.
"Would you still love me if I become really fat because of pregnancy?" I asked.
"I mean, there are other girls more beautiful than me, si Katrin mo, 'yung ibang
patients mo--"
"You're the only woman I'll ever want in this lifetime and the next, Zid..." He
stopped me.
"Talaga?" I whispered innocently and took a glance at him. He smiled, nodding
his head as he raised my hand and cleaned my underarm kaya napaliyad ako sa kiliti.
"Yup, you'll always be the most beautiful for me..." Sagot nya.
"Kahit mukha akong drum?" I asked and he chuckled and kissed my cheek.
"Yes, kahit ano pa 'yan..." Aniya. "And you're pregnant with our child so
there's nothing wrong with it. That's normal, baby..."
"Sabagay, but Thornie, it's weird, wala naman akong masyadong cravings and is
that normal?" I asked him.
"Yup," Aniya. "And for the record, my Queen, your cravings all went to me, you
know how much I wanted to eat mangoes right now, right?"
Napatawa ako, sumandal ako sa hubad nyang dibdib at naramdaman kong napunta ang
kamay nya sa dibdib ko at marahang humaplos roon.
"Kasi nga love na love mo ako kaya pati paglilihi ko kinuha mo..." I said. He
chuckled, shaking his head and moving his head closer on the gap of my neck.
"May bagoong ba tayo?" Bulong nya. "I think mangoes will be great with that..."
"Diba, may binili ka?" I asked. "May bagoong na kasama 'yun diba?"
"Oh," He said when he remembered something. "That's right..." Tumango sya at
nang bahagyang pumisil ang kamay nya sa dibdib ko ay napasinghap ako at pinalo ang
hita nya.
"Thornie! You're so bastos!" I screamed.
"Uh-huh?" Tumawa sya. "But baby, hindi ba parang lumaki 'yung dibdib mo?" Aniya
pa na bahagyang minasahe ang dibdib ko kaya napamura ako at napaliyad.
"Thornie nga!" I exclaimed. He laughed huskily on my ear, sending a few light
kisses in my earlobe.
He moved his hands slowly on my breast that I started feeling hot right now.
Tumikhim ako, hindi ako muna gumalaw para damhin ang hawak nya. He put my peak in
between his thumb and index finger and played with it.
"I'll always be greatful to you..." Bulong nya. "You're aware you're my first
love, right?"
"I am?" Nilingon ko sya at ngumisi sya at tumango. His hand moved slowly on my
stomach and softly caressed it under the water.
"Hmm, I honestly know where the repair shop is," Pag-amin nya.
"Oh? Then why did you asked me?" Gulat kong sabi at nilingon sya pero ngumisi
lang sya sa akin at kumindat.
"Para magpa-cute..." He said. My mouth parted. Hinampas ko ang hita nya at
napahagalpak sya ng tawa sa akin.
"You asshole, akala ko pa naman naging matulungin na ako!" I hissed but he just
laughed, shook his head and kissed my neck.
"Ang ganda mo 'nung nadaanan kita e, and you looked really sad so..." Nagkibit-
balikat sya at nailing ako sa kalokohan nya pero nangiti rin.
"Then paanong first love mo ako?" I asked him.
"Hmm, you're so innocent and I love the way you were really fond of me..."
Aniya at ngumiti. "I don't really know, basta gusto ko nalang na hindi ka na
umiiyak, the last thing that I would want is to hurt you... Gusto ko lang na ligtas
ka palagi, na nasa tabi lang kita para bantayan..."

"Thorn..." I sighed and closed my eyes.

"Hmm?" He whispered.
"I love you..." Bulong ko.
"Mahal din kita..." Bulong nya. "Sobra..."
"Ako din ba ang first love mo?" Bulong nya kaya ngumisi ako at nilingon sya.
"Hindi!" I exclaimed. Bumusangot sya, nakita kong nagsalubong ang kilay nya.
"The fuck?" He cursed. "Sino 'yan, huh?!"
"I don't exactly remember," I told him. "I was a kid back then, nagba-bike ako
'nun e, tapos natumba 'yung bike ko..."
"You were just a kid back then, woman! Ako pa rin ang first love mo!" Reklamo
nya kaya tumawa ako at siniko sya.
"Sshh, shut up ka muna..." Pigil ko. "Tapos ayun, my knees are scratched tapos
hindi ako makatayo sa sakit ng tuhod ko then a man, years older than me helped
me..."
"Older than you? Mga ilan? Hindi kayo bagay!" Reklamo pa nya.
"Loko! Hindi pa ba halatang lapitin ako ng mga tanders?" Nilingon ko sya at
nginisian. "Ikaw nga o, tanders ka na nga e..."
"Isa, Zidney..." Sumimangot sya.
"Wawa naman si lolo Thornie ko," I pouted teasingly and moved my body closer to
his. He tensed up, I softly moved my hand on his part and teased him.
"Tapos ayun, hinatid nya ako sa mansyon. He was really good-looking and a
gentleman. Hawig mo nga e..." Asar ko pa at mas dumilim ang mata nya sa akin.
"Zidney..." He warned.
"Yes, Doc?" Maarteng sabi ko at bahagyang ginalaw ang pang-upo ko kaya napamura
sya ng mariin at bumilis ang paghinga.
"You know what will this old man do to you..." He said darkly that I smirked
and flirted him more.
"What?" Paos kong sabi. "Ayos pa ba ang buto-buto?"
"Oh, damn you..." He cursed and I gasped when I felt his finger on my entrance.
"T-Thorn!" I groaned.
"Hmm? What? Afraid of what your old man will do to you?" Paos nyang bulong sa
tenga ko.
"N-No! I just..."
"I'm your first love, Zidney... Don't push it..." Bulong nya.
"H-Hindi 'no! S-Sya kaya..." He groaned and pushed his finger inside of me kaya
suminghap ako at napakapit sa braso nya.
I closed my eyes as I felt his finger moving slowly on my soften core, I
groaned, gasping for air as he moved his hand.
Humawak ako sa hita nya at marahang gumalaw. I moved with his finger and
swallowed hard as he inserted another digit.
"Thorn!" I screamed.
"Hmm... Now, tell me who's your first love?" He whispered.
"S-S'ya..." He stopped his hand kaya suminghap ako at pinalo sya.
"D-Don't stop!"
"Tell me first who's your first love..." Nang-aasar pa nyang bulong kaya
napairit na ako at exaggerated na sumigaw.
"O-Oo na, ikaw!" I hissed.
"Hmm, bakit parang napipilitan ka?" He mocked kaya pinalo-palo ko sya.
"J-Joke lang, sige na, Thornie..." I whinned and he chuckled.
"Sure?" He whispered huskily.
"Sure na sure!" I exclaimed and he laughed deeply, kissing my shoulder blades
before inserting his digits fully.
 "Damn..." Mariing mura ko at napahugot ng hininga. He moved
his fingers slowly at first, I was scratching his arm as I moved my body with him.
He groaned, tilting my head for a deep kiss and pumping his fingers sending me
to the edge of my sanity.
A loud moan escaped my lips when I convulsed, nanghihinang napasandal ako sa
kanya at narinig ko ang malalim nyang paghinga sa tenga ko.
"Stand up, Zid..." Bulong nya.
"Hmm?" Nilingon ko sya at nakita ko ang dilim sa mga mata nya.
"We're not finished yet, my Queen..." Bulong nya.
I groaned, mas sumandal ako sa kanya at inangat ang ulo ko para hagkan sya. He
kissed me back fully, caressing my jaw.
"Stand up, baby, come on..." Bulong nya.
"Hmm, why?" Mapungay kong tanong.
"Basta, you'll love this..." Bulong nya sa akin at inalalayan nya akong patayo.
I stood infront of him, naked and I saw how desire played on his eyes as he ran his
gaze on my body.
I saw him gulped and I can't help but to be mesmerized on his look in my tub.
His large frame almost claimed all sides of my tub, his both arms are placed to the
side and his proud chest was on my view with his thin hair damped because of the
water.
Desire and lust consumed me, he looks like a sex god ready for my fucking.
He ran his fingers on my leg and he smirked when he saw me flinched with the
sudden heat.
"Ride me..." Aniya at nag-init ang pisngi ko.
"T-Talaga?" I blinked and his mouth parted sexily as he spoke.
"Hmm... I wanna feel your walls stretched against me, Reyna..." Bulong nya sa
akin at napasulyap ako sa kanya.
I saw his length, standing in all its glory.
"Come on, I'll guide you..." Marahang sabi nya at inilahad ang kamay sa akin. I
bit my lip, accepting his hand and a womanly moan escaped my lips when I sat on his
length.
His manhood stretched the walls of my feminity to the edge that I gripped his
shoulder tightly and groaned.
He held my waist, caressing it gently.
"Hey, baby, look at me..." He said and I stared at him and saw how he equalled
the desire in my eyes.
"Move slowly, hmm..." Paos nyang sabi at marahang ginalaw ko ang balakang ko.
He gripped my waist, assisting me to move.
I moved up and down, slowly at first and I saw his face reddened, he bit his
lip sexily and moved his waist.
"Oh, fuck..." He cursed and I moved with him, slowly at first and when I
coudn't stop myself from moaning ay malakas itong kumawala sa labi ko.
I slammed my body against him, riding him like a pro. He cursed hardly, his jaw
clenched and he gritted his teeth.
"F-Faster, Reyna..." Bulong nyang mariin at ngumisi ako na napalitan rin ng
ungol nang gumalaw sya sa ilalim ko.
Our bodies met as I writhe with his touch, he sucked my breast, playing with my
peaks as I moved above him.
"B-Baby, I'm gonna..."
"Do it..." Hinihingal nyang sabi. "C-Cum for me, Zidney..."
Few more thrust then I released all my juices, my head lowered on his neck as
he he hugged my back and kissed my ear.
"Sinong may arthritis sa atin, huh..." Asar nya kaya tumawa ako ng mahina at
humalik sa leeg nya.
"Still, tanders ka pa rin..." Bulong nya.

"I'm your first love anyway..." Aniya at niyakap ang hubad

kong katawan.
"Hindi nga kasi..." I whinned pero humalakhak lang sya sa akin.
"Let me clean you first," Bulong nya. He guided me to stand up and scooped me
up to the shower, I watched him as he cleaned my body and wrapped a towel around my
chest when I'm finished.
He cleaned himself too and I was just pouting as I was staring at him.
Hindi naman sya tanders, inaasar ko lang sya kasi nakakagigil sya e. Sarap
ikiss.
"Tara, sa kama..." Ngumisi sya nang manlaki ang mata ko. I gasped, pinalo ko
ang braso nya pero humalakhak sya sa binuhat ako.
"Let's celebrate our engagement in the bed, my wife..." He grinned and I
screamed in delight when he lowered my body to the soft mattress.
"Kneel, baby... Show me your behind..." He whispered and I bit my lip, shifting
my position.
I laid my face to the bed, I felt him kissed my back and licked my skin.
"Hand me a pillow, my Queen..." He whispered huskily and I get the pillow and
gave it to him.
He softly lift my body and placed the pillow under my stomach, bahagya akong
umayos, nang lingunin ko sya ay nakita kong nakanguso sya roon.
"Baka mataamaan ko si Baby..." He murmured kaya natawa ako sa kanya.
He lifted my waist, making me kneel a little, my head is on the mattress and my
hand gripped the sheets tightly as he slammed himself inside of me from behind in
one, full thrust.
Nagising ako ng madaling araw ng wala si Thorn sa tabi ko, I groaned, nang
sumulyap ako sa orasan ay nakita kong alas-kwatro palang ng madaling araw.
"Baby?" I called him but he wasn't here, I yawned. Hinaplos ko ang pwesto nya
sa tabi ko pero wala sya.
Nang silipin ko ay nakasuot na ako ng shirt nya at undies, nakabalot rin ako ng
kumot kaya napangiti ako.
But where is he?
Marahan akong tumayo mula sa pagkakahiga at hinawi ang buhok ko, I yawned
again. Ngumuso ako at inayos ang shirt na umabot hanggang sa hita ko at naglakad
palabas ng kwarto.
I checked my daughter first, mabuti nalang at hindi nagising ang panganay ko sa
kalokohan namin ni Thorn kagabi. Damn, he was too insatiable! I swear!
Paulit-ulit pa nyang pinipilit na malakas pa daw sya sa kalabaw kaya
tinatawanan ko lang sya at inaasar kaya napaparusahan tuloy ako.
He was gentle and hard at the same time last night, there's this time where I
was gripping the headrest tightly as he slammed himself inside me tapos tumama
'yung ulo ko, he even slapped my butt cheek unknowingly at nang marealize ay
nagpanic sya at natakot na baka daw masaktan ako at ang anak namin kaya mas natawa
ako sa kanya.
Bumaba ako sa hagdan, I saw the dimmed lights on the kitchen kaya ngumuso ako
at naglakad papasok ng kusina.
My forehead creased when I saw Thorn on the kitchen counter, he was sitting
there, engrossed in anything he was doing.
Pinusod ko ang buhok ko at lumapit sa kanya at 'yun nalang ang panlalaki ng
mata ko ng makitang nilalantakan nya ang mangga doon sa counter na sinasawsaw pa
nya sa bagoong!
"Baka ikaw na rin ang manganak?" I said.
"Fuck!" He jumped in shock, mabilis nya akong nilingon at nakita kong nanlalaki
ang mata nya ng makita ako.
"Baby..." He pouted.
"Oh, talagang gumising ka para lang kumain..." Natatawang sabi ko at inilahad
nya ang kamay kaya napalapit ako sa kanya.

He held my waist, I chuckled when he ate the mango on his

hand and I watched him chew his food.
"Pang-ilang mangga mo na 'yan?" I asked him, inalalayan nya naman ako paupo sa
tabi nya at iniabot sa akin ang cookies sa counter.
"Four..." Aniya at nanlaki ang mata ko at nilingon sya.
"Really?" Nahihiyang tumango sya at natawa ako at sinuklay ang magulong buhok
sa noo nya. "Dahan-dahan lang, Thornie baka mangasim ka..."
"Okay..." He sighed. "Kanina pa kasi ako natatakam so, when you fell asleep,
hindi ko na napigilan..." He confessed kaya naaaliw na humalik ako sa pisngi nya.
"Okay lang 'yan, Daddy..." I giggled. "Para naman daw kay baby..."
The next days, we planned for my brother's birthday celebration. Ate Alyx asked
me if I can help her so I did, kasama ang mga Ate ko at mga Kuya ay nagplano kami.
Thorn was helping us, sya ang nagsabi kung anong magandang pakulo ang pwede
naming gawin sa party ni Kuya.
It was somehow a kid's birthday party, since isip-bata naman ang Kuya Zeijan
ko.
I saw how his eyes brighten when he saw our surprise for him, it was fun, we
danced to the song played on the speaker. Ayaw ko man sumayaw ay napilit ako 'nung
tatlo kaya hiyang-hiya ako pero sumayaw rin.
We had our bonding, si Clyte ay nakikipaglaro sa mga pinsan nya at napasulyap
ako sa telepono ko at nabasang papunta na raw si Thorn.
He had an emergency patient kanina kaya pumunta muna syang ospital, I waited
for him and remained staring at the door with a smile on my face.
Tumayo ako nang magsalita na ang Kuya Zeijan sa harapan. We were all wearing a
party hat, may mascot din roon sa harapan.
I stood next to my brothers and sisters at nang makita ako ni Kuya Dash ay
ngumiti ako at umakbay sya sa akin.
I saw my parents smiling sweetly while looking at us, my Mom was teary-eyed and
my Dad was smiling softly and kissed her cheek.
Kuya was saying his wish at napansin kong napatingin ang Kuya Zeijan ko sa akin
at ngumisi bago nagsalita.
"And of course, I wish for pure and overflowing happiness for our sister, our
princess..." He said softly and I bit my lip, I was in the verge of crying for what
he is saying kaya mabilis akong tumakbo sa kanila at yumakap.
I hugged my brothers and kissed their cheeks at natawa sila sa akin at hinaplos
ang ulo ko.
"Ang baby namin, hindi na baby..." Nguso ni Kuya Iñigo kaya ngumisi ako at
tinaasan sila ng kilay. "I'll be forever your princess, Kuya..."
"And she'll be my Queen..." Sabay kaming napalingon at lumaki ang ngiti ko nang
makita si Thorn na kakarating lang.
He was still wearing his gray scrubsuit and he grinned when I ran toward him.
Kaagad nya akong niyakap at humalik sa noo ko at napatikhim naman 'yung mga lalaki
roon sa likuran.
"Hala, ayan na 'yung mang-aagaw sa prinsesa..." Kuya Zeijan murmured kaya
tumawa ako at lumingon sa kanila.
Thorn held my arm softly and assisted me towards my family and smiled.
"Hoy, Tinik!" Kuya Dash exclaimed kaya natawa si Thorn at sinalubong sina Kuya.
I saw them bump their fists and did a manly hug before he kissed my head and
went to greet my parents. Nag-bless sya sa mga magulang ko at saglit na nakipag-
usap bago ko sya nakitang pumunta sa pwesto ni Clyte at ginulat ito kaya napatili
at tumawa sya ng malakas at niyakap ito.

I watched my brothers with their families and a smile

escaped my lips.
Kuya Iñigo Rafael is with Ate Thallia and their kids, Alchiel and Crest, the
twins. Medyo may baby bump na rin si Ate sa pangatlong anak nila.
Kuya Dash Rakiel is with ate Reah, buhat-buhat nya si Daru habang si Macky ay
nasa lapag at nilalaro si Skye.
 Kuya Zeijan Ruais is with his wife, Ate Alyx with their son, Zion. Nakita kong
nagsasabunutan 'yung mag-ama kaya napangisi ako at nailing.
And me, I'm with Thorn Arzeus now, with our Clyte and our baby inside me...
"Can you call your brothers, princess?" My Dad went closer and asked me.
Nilingon ko sya, I smiled and nodded, nang tawagin ko 'yung tatlo ay kaagad silang
lumapit.
We went closer to my parents, my Mom and Dad was there at umakbay sa akin ang
Kuya Iñigo ko.
My Mom was seating on her wheelchair and my Dad was standing next to her, nang
makita kami ay nakita ko ang pagngiti ng matamis Ni Mommy Lena at tumango sya.
We kissed her cheek, yumakap naman kami kay Daddy Jer at nakita kong naluluha
si Mommy habang nakatingin sa aming magkakapatid.
"I can't believe you were all having your own family now..." She said sweetly,
with her eyes laced with tears.
"Dati lang ang liit-liit nyo pa..." My Dad spoke, his eyes glistening with
tears.
"Dati lang umiihi pa si Dash sa kama..." Kuya Zeijan said emotionally kaya
napamura si Daddy at sumimangot si Kuya Dash.
"Tangina mo, Zeijan..." Sumimangot ito.
"Parang dati lang gusto kitang ipa-abort anak," Ani Mommy kay Kuya Zeij. "At
hanggang ngayon..."
Napatawa ako. Humalakhak naman kami nila Kuya at ngumisi si Daddy habang
nakanguso naman si Kuya Zeijan.
"Palagi nyo akong inaapi sa pamilyang 'to!" He whinned at binatukan sya ni Kuya
Iñigo at tinakpan ang bibig nya.
"H'wag mo sanang kalimutang muntik ka ng kumain ng tae sa diapers mo dati..."
Bulong ni Kuya Iñigo kaya napaubo ako at humagalpak ng tawa sina Mommy at tumango.
"Oh my God, Jer... I remembered it..." Mommy exclaimed and I saw how horror
escaped on my brother's face.
"The fuck, talaga?!" He exclaimed at nang tumango si Mommy ay napasinghap sya
at napatawa naman ako.
"Oh my God! I will tell Ate Alyx!" I exclaimed.
"Don't you dare, Zidney!" He screamed kaya humagalpak ako at yumakap kay Kuya
Dash.
"Tama na..." My Mom chuckled. "I called you all here because I wanted to thank
you all, my children, for being responsible and an honorable person you are now..."
"M-Mom..." I pouted.
"Iñigo, for being a good brother to your siblings... Thank you..." I saw my
brother nodded at her and smiled.
"Dash, for being responsible enough for our family, for fighting for what you
love..." Aniya at tumango si Kuya Dash na naluluha rin at mas niyakap ako.
"And to my Zidney..." Ani Mommy.
"Thank you for coming back to us, Princess..." She said and my tears fell.
Hinawi ko ang luha ko bago tumango sa kanya. "Thank you for not giving up, for
letting the hatred go, for forgiving..."
"M-My," My voice broke.
"Salamat sa inyo mga anak--"
"Paano ako?" Kuya Zeijan whinned kaya umurong ang luha ko. Napasulyap ako sa
kanya at nakita kong natatawa si Mommy pero gusto nyang mang-asar.

"Wala akong message sa'yo, nak..." She said. Humaba ang

nguso ni Kuya Zeijan at nagkunwaring nagtatampo kaya tumawa si Mommy at pinalapit
ito.
"Joke lang, ito naman, tara dito..." Ngumisi si Kuya at lumapit. He hugged my
mother and she smiled and caressed his hair.
"Syempre, para kay Zeijan na special kong anak..." Aniya. "Special child..."
"Mameh!" He exclaimed kaya nailing si Daddy at ngumisi.
 "Thank you for being our protector," Ani Mommy sa kanya. "For keeping our
family safe, for always keeping your eyes open for the enemies... Salamat, hijo,
dahil kaya mong ibuwis ang buhay mo para sa mga mahal mo..."
"My..." Atungal nya at hinaplos ni Mommy ang buhok nya.
"I am glad you all grew up well and beautiful..." My Dad spoke and sighed.
"I wish you all a happy family like ours, love your wives like how I loved your
Mom and love your children like how we love you all..."
Lumunok ako. I was smiling the whole time, with my heart bursting in pure
happiness and love.
"For the Sandejas family?" My Dad placed his hand in the middle, ipinatong ni
Mommy ang kamay nya sa kamay ni Daddy at sumunod kaming apat. We placed our hands
in top of each other's hands in the air and smiled.
"To the Sandejas family!" We screamed and lift our hands in the air with happy
smiles in our faces.
Time flies so fast, hindi ako makapaniwalang sa kabila ng lahat ay narito ako
ngayon sa puntod ng mga tumayong magulang ko at hinahaplos ang kanilang mga lapida.
"I hope you're all happy up there, Nay... Tay..." I whispered softly, the cold
air touching my skin.
"Thank you, for taking care of me, kahit hindi nyo ako kilala noon... Salamat
dahil itinuring nyo akong anak..." I dried my tears, inilagay ko ang buhok ko sa
likod ng tenga ko at pumikit at mahinang nagdasal.
"Mahal na mahal ko po kayo..." Bulong ko sa hangin at sumulyap sa kandila na
naroon sa gilid.
I smiled, muli kong inayos ang bulaklak na binili namin kanina at hinaplos ko
ang lapida.
"Nay, Tay, bibisita ako ulit dito, hmm?" Malumanay kong sabi at hinawakan ang
umbok sa tyan ko.
"Kapag lumaki na ang prinsipe namin, bibisita ako ulit... Si Clyte, ayun,
malaki na rin, pasaway na nga sa Daddy nya..." Kwento ko.
"I love you so much, Nanay, Tatay..." Bulong ko at sumulyap sa puntod bago
marahang tumayo.
I fixed my white dress and placed my hair behind my ear, naglakad ako ng
marahan patungo sa labasan ng sementeryo at inaantay si Thorn na dumating para
sunduin ako.
I was staring at my phone, kagat ko ang labi ko habang inaantay sya at
napangiti ako nang makitang papalapit na ang sasakyan nya.
I waved at the car but I stopped when the car went past me. Nagtaka ako roon,
tumigil iyon sa may bandang unahan ko at nakita ko si Thorn na bumaba ng sasakyan
habang may kausap sa telepono.
"Hello, Ad..." He said. "Nasiraan ako, medyo malelate ako..." Aniya.
Ngumuso ako at nagtaka sa kanya.
"Yeah, I will just look for some help..." He said. I saw him moved at nang
lumingon sya sa akin ay nagtagpo ang mata naming dalawa.
I stopped. Kumalabog ang dibdib ko pero hindi ko naibaba ang tingin ko sa
kanya.
Why do I feel like this already happened?
"I think I found someone..." He said, staring at me.
Ibinaba nya ang telepono at naglakad palapit, napaatras ako at nakita kong
nangunot ang noo nya sa akin.
"No..." He said softly. Natigil naman ako doon pero nanatiling nakatingin sa
kanya. "I won't hurt you..."
Hindi ako nagsalita at nanatiling nakatingin sa kanya. Kumakalabog ang dibdib
ko sa hindi maintindihang nararamdaman.
Oh my God, I think I knew this!
"Uh, I just want to ask some help. I am not a bad person, don't worry..." He
said at nangingiti na ako roon.
When he walked closer ay halos magpalpitate na ang puso ko and I cursed
silently at that.
I saw his deep set of dark, midnight eyes, his dark brown hair is fixed and
styled upwards and the back and sides of his hair are slicked to the back.
He has this greek-shaped nose, natural thin reddish-lips, slightly parting as
he talk to me. He has chiselled jawline, he has a thin beard that make him look
hotter. Napansin ko rin ang eyeglasses nya na mas lalong nagpaganda ng mga mata
nya.
"Miss?" He said.
"H-Huh?" Napakurap ako at napalunok.
Damn, Zidney! Kumalma ka, bruha! Asawa mo 'yan, hoy!
He chuckled, his deep voice almost made my knees weak.
"Sabi ko, may pwede bang hingan ng tulong dito?" He asked, hiding his side
smile.
"Anong drama mo, Thornie?" Nguso ko bigla, nangingiti. Tumawa sya, his eyes
brighten and he licked his lips.
"Hmm, naalala mo ba?" He asked and I grinned, marahan akong yumakap sa kanya at
natatawang yumakap sya sa akin at humalik sa noo ko.
"Hmm, this is what exactly happened..." Bulong ko. "Then should I help you get
into the repair shop?"
"H'wag na, alam ko naman na e..." Aniya at humaplos sa tyan ko kaya nakagat ko
ang labi.
"Hmm, how about let's skip to the part where I will give you roses?" Aniya at
bago pa man ako makasagot ay humiwalay sya at bumalik sa sasakyan.
The backseat opened and I saw Clytemnestra opening the door and giving his Dad
the bouquet of roses.
"Mommy!" She waved when she saw me, nagtataka man sa trip nung dalawa ay
kumaway ako sa kanya.
Thorn jogged closer to me, extending the flowers and giving it to me.
"Uh, I was thinking of a thank you gift kaso wala, I saw that outside and
thought of you so..." He looks adorable saying that, nakita kong medyo nahihiya pa
sya roon kaya matamis akong napangiti at inabot ang rosas na ibinibigay nya.
"Salamat..." Dinala ko iyon sa ilong ko at inamoy. He remained staring at me
with his soft, black eyes.
Hinaplos ko naman ang mga pulang rosas at nang mapansing peke 'yung isang
rosas.
Nagtatakang hinaplos ko iyon at napansing ganun nga iyon, my forehead creased,
nag-angat ako ng tingin at napansing nakatingin sa akin si Thorn at nag-aantay ng
reaksyon ko.
"Why is this rose fake?" I asked him curiously and he licked his lip, glancing
at the rose and stared at me for a long time before speaking.
"Because I will love you till the last one dies..." He said gently and
lovingly.
They said, a thorn defends the rose, harming only those who would steal the
blossom. A unique piece of a flower, the dark side of the reddish beauty it has.
There is no way you can hold on to something that is truly beautiful without
getting hurt, that is why, maybe roses have thorns.
To harm, and protect you at the same time. To see the beauty of the sharp
thorns it has.
And now, I know the reason why roses has to have its thorns and that is to make
it more beautiful.
Thorn is the light of my dark past, the king of my heart, my hero, my knight,
my saviour. And the thorns I had, will always and forever be the unique piece of
me.

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Wakas

This will be the last installment of Sandejas Siblings

Series. Hope you'll find someone who will embrace the thorns of a beautiful rose
like you have. I would love to hear your thoughts in the comment section below!
Thank you!
'Till we meet again♥
xxx
Wakas
"You are a disappointment! Napakasimpleng bagay ay hindi mo magawa!" My Mom's
voice echoed my head like she was just beside me, scolding me.
"Ito na nga lang ang magagawa mo sa pamilyang ito ay hindi mo pa mabigyan ng
halaga!" My Dad exclaimed.
I smiled faintly, nanatili akong nakatitig sa mapunong paligid at mabatong
daan. I tapped my fingers on the steering wheel, I have an appointment today to the
hospital.
I will be appointed as the director of our main hospital here, hope I'll meet
my parent's expectations this time.
My friend, Ad, called.
"Where are you?" He asked me.
"On the way..." I answered, bahagyang umalog ang sasakyan nang may matamaang
malalaking bato kaya kumunot ang noo ko.
"Faster, Thorn, the board is here..." Aniya. Hindi naman ako umimik at
nagpatuloy sa pagmamaneho.
If only I didn't get drunk last night ay malamang hindi ako magigising ng late,
I am sure as hell I will be scolded later.
I stopped on my tracks when I saw a woman at the side of the road, my forehead
creased. She was just standing there, blinking her eyes, innocently drying her
tears at nang bahagya na akong lalagpas ay sinundan ko sya ng tingin.
Is she lost? Should I go back?
I cursed when my car suddenly stopped, kaagad kong inulit ang paghawak sa
kambya pero hindi na ito muling umandar.
"What the fuck?" I cursed hardly.
"What happened?" Ad asked me in the other line. Tinanggal ko ang earpiece sa
tenga ko at mabilis na inabot ang telepono ko at lumabas ng sasakyan.
"Nasiraan ako, medyo ma-lelate ako..." I told him. Sumilip ako sa gulong ng
sasakyan ko at hinawi ang buhok ko.
How unlucky I could be?
"Yari ka talaga, Thorn! Namumuro ka na kay Tita Stella!" Humalakhak sya pero
napabuntong-hininga lang ako. "But anyway, may malapit naman atang repair shop
d'yan, sa may unahan lang..."
"Yeah, I will just look for some help..." I answered him and looked around.
I stopped when I saw the woman I just saw still standing there, nabakas ko ang
gulat sa bilugang itim na mga mata nya ng makita ako.
She blinked, her pouty reddish lips protruded.
"I think I found someone..." I told him, still staring at that girl who looks
flabbergasted as she stared at me.
Lumapit ako, bahagya naman syang umatras kaya nagulat ako roon.
"No..." I said softly. Natigil naman sya doon pero nanatiling nakatingin sa
akin. "I won't hurt you..."
She didn't speak, nanatili lang syang nakatitig sa akin at doon ako halos
mamangha habang nakatingin sa maamo at inosente nyang mukha.
"Uh, I just want to ask some help. I am not a bad person, don't worry..." I
told her but I know where is the repair shop, sa unahan lang iyon, panigurado.
She suddenly looks like she's in awe, halos makita ko na ang pagkislap ng mga
mata nya kaya nabasa ko ang mga labi ko at napansin ang ganda ng mga mata nya.

Her doe like black eyes is deep, pleasing and full of

innocence. I saw the softness of her face and noticed her delicate skin, pointed
nose, heart-shaped face and pouty, natural red lips.
 Walang kahit anong kolorete ang mukha nya na halos bago sa paningin ko. All the
girls I am seeing, mostly my age and younger often wears make ups but she's not
wearing one like what others did.
Habang nagsasalita sya ay hindi ko maiwasang mapalunok, her voice sounds to
sweet for a baritone like me. I could sleep with the softness it has. Her long,
shiny black her is just below her shoulder at nang ngumiti sya ay halos mapakurap
naman ako.
She smiled...
She fucking smiled at me!
Nangiti ako ng wala sa sarili doon at natutuwang pinagmasdan sya, it's honestly
my first time seeing a girl this delicate and pure.
I wanted to talk to her more but she wasn't speaking that much kaya nahiya ako.
Habang naglalakad kami patungong repair shop sa may unahan lang ay pasimple akong
sumusulyap sa kanya.
Nauuna sya sa akin ng bahagya kaya medyo nilakihan ko ang lakad ko para
makisabay.
I wonder why is she crying when I saw her? May problema kaya sya?
Uhm, boyfriend?
No, sana hindi... But it's impossible! No one could possibly resist the beauty!
Pero sana wala talaga. My subconscious mind said.
At ano, huh, ano ngayon kung wala? Liligawan mo? The fuck, Thorn! You just met
her! Why are so fucking whipped?
How about I ask her name first?
I raised my hand, readying myself to tap her and ask her name pero nasa ere
palang ang kamay ko ay bigla nya akong nilingon kaya nagpanic ako at mabilis na
inilagay sa batok ko ang kamay.
"Bakit?" She asked me softly.
"Uh, malapit na ba?" Instead, I asked.
She nodded softly, akmang magtatanong pa ako ay humarap na ulit sya sa daan
kaya napisil ko ang ilong ko.
Tangina mo, Thorn. Tatanungin mo lang ang pangalan! Sa susunod pa 'yung ligaw!
Parang wala ako sa sarili habang kausap 'yung taong tutulong sa akin sa
sasakyan ko dahil sa kakasulyap ko sa kanya na nakatingin lang at tahimik habang
nagmamasid.
I saw the reddish part of her cheek, I saw her unconsciously licked her lower
lips and brushed her hair with her fingers kaya napalabi ako.
The othen men here is obviously look at her!
Nang ayain ako nung lalaki palabas ay sumama ako, she was left there inside
kaya nag-alala ako kaagad at nagsalita.
"Uhm, Sir, papasalamatan ko lang 'yung babae..." I said.
"Sige, Ser... Mabait naman iyan, mailap lang sa tao..." Aniya sa akin at
nagtaka man ay tumango ako.
I was about to go inside again when a flower caught my attention. Doon sa may
gilid ay may mga nakatanim na namumukadkad na pulang rosas kaya nabaling roon ang
pansin ko.
This honestly suits her, beautiful...
I went closer to the rose and plucked it without second thoughts.
"Fuck!" I cursed when the thorns cut my finger, may namuong dugo roon but it
didn't stop me from getting the rose.
Ngumiwi ako, napailing ako at napasulyap sa dugo sa kamay ko at inalis iyon.

Langhiyang 'to, sinasaktan ako ng kapangalan ko!

I saw her walking out the shop kaya nagpanic ako, nang tumalikod ma sya paalis
ay halos takbuhin ko na ang distansya namin at inabot ang pulsuhan nya.
She jumped and shifted her gaze and my mouth parted with the sudden flinched of
my heart kaya tumikhim ako. I remained composed and stared at her.
"I just want to say thank you..." She looks shocked but nodded.
 "W-Walang anuman..." She smiled. Bahagya akong nagulat sa ngiti nya kaya binasa
ko ang labi ko.
Go, Thorn! h'wag torpe! I almost tap myself.
"What's your name?" I asked her bravely.
"Scira..." She answered and I was starled to the uniqueness of her name.
This is my first time hearing that kind of name.
"Beautiful..." I murmured and slowly showed her the rose I saw for her.
She looks starled, she stared at me with those innocent eyes of hers and stared
at the roses and at me again kaya nahihiyang ngumiti ako at nagkamot ng kilay.
"Uh, I was thinking of a thank you gift kaso wala, I saw that outside and
thought of you so..." I said shyly and I saw her smiled sweetly before getting the
rose from me.
"Salamat..." She smelled the rose.
"I'm Thorn, by the way..." I said and offered my hand that she instantly
accepted.
I felt the softness of her palm that I gripped it tighter to shake it.
"See you next time, Scira..." I told her slowly and I watched her as she
blushed.
"S-See you..." Malumanay nyang sabi at nangingiti man ako sa kanya ay nanatili
akong nakaayos at namulsa.
I nodded at her and watched her as she go away at nakagat ko ang labi ko sa
nagtatagong ngiti sa labi ko.
I'll definitely have to see you again...
I am thinking about her all day, napagalitan man ako pagdating ng ospital ay
hindi nasira ang mood ko. I was smiling the whole time, napahiya pa ako sa board
kanina dahil kay Mommy pero hindi ako naapektuhan dahil sa ayaw kong mawala ang
saya ko.
Saan kaya sya nakatira? Maybe I'll just ask the men from the repair shop? I
wanna talk to her parents, kung papayagan ay parang gusto ko syang ayaing kumain sa
bayan.
Atleast for a thank you dahil sa pagtulong sa akin...
Kailan kaya kami magkikita ulit? I was asking that the whole day that the fate
heard me and played with our paths to crossed again.
Imagine my shock when I saw her being dragged by the nurses on her arm, crying.
My mouth parted. I saw her eyes swollen from crying, her lips are pale and I
saw her shaking in fear. Nang magtagpo ang mata namin ay nagulat sya at nakita ko
ang hiya sa mga mata nya.
What the hell?
Why are they dragging her?!
She sobbed quietly, napunta naman ang tingin ko sa mga nakahawak sa braso nya
at nangangati akong manugod at manuntok sa paghawak nilang iyon.
Kaagad akong lumapit at hindi ko naiwasang magalit sa ginawa nila sa kanya. How
could they hurt her? She's fragile for pete's sake!
Mas hindi pa ako nakapaniwala noong sinabi nila sa aking pinatay nya ang
kanyang mga magulang. That was just plain absurd! Impossible 'yun!
I saw her earlier! Sa saglit na panahong iyon na nakilala ko sya ay alam kong
hindi nya magagawa iyon.
She's innocent, I knew it! The first time I saw her swollen eyes as she was
being dragged ay alam ko na ang totoo. Lalo na noong makita ko ang panginginig ng
kanyang kamay.

Most of the people suffering from trauma tends to be

scared, weird or even aloof of people kaya hindi ako naniniwalang magagawa iyon ni
Scira.
My heart aches for her, I am scared for her. I wanted so bad to heal her, to
embrace everything she has. She needs me and I need her so much too...
She can't be the criminal, I am sure of that!
 Damn, she's innocent! And the last thing I would want her to feel is to be
hurt, ayokong makitang muli nya ang mga taong nanghuhusga sa kanya, I don't want
her to cry again, ayokong natatakot sya.
If she has to stay with me to keep her safe then I will keep her.
I won't let anyone touch my Queen, no one can hurt her.
"N-No! P-Please, don't touch me!" A faint, crying voice woke me up.
I panicked and sat on the bed and saw my Queen crying beside me, with her eyes
closed and deep breaths.
She's dreaming again!
"D-Doc, doc, help me!" She screamed so loud that I held her arm swiftly.
"Scira..." I murmured, waking her up.
"G-Get off me!" Sigaw nya at mas umiyak kaya mas kinabahan ako. I should be
calm at situations like this but I just can't!
"Hey, baby, wake up!" I called her again and shake her arm kaya napamulat sya
bigla.
I saw how pain and fear escaped her eyes.
"S-Scira, are you--"
My mouth parted when she sat on the bed and hugged my neck. Halos mabuwal ako
sa biglang pagyakap nya pero mabilis kong naitukod ang kamay ko sa kama.
"D-Doc, papatayin nila ako..." She sobbed and pulled my shirt. My heart pounded
weirdly, kaagad kong naramdaman ang bigat ng pakiramdam dahil sa takot nya at
mabilis ko syang niyakap
"No, no..." I whispered softly and caressed her back. "I'm just here, baby..."
"M-Mapapahamak ka rin, ayokong...ayokong madamay ka..." She sobbed. I sighed, I
heard the fear on her voice, her hand started shaking on my back kaya mabilis akong
umayos.
I sat on the bed and removed her hand softly on my back but she hugged me even
tighter.
"N-No, sasaktan ka nila..." Bulong nya.
"They won't," Masuyong bulong ko. "Come on, Scira... I will save you..."
"B-But,"
"Sshh, come on..." Bulong ko at nang tuluyang bumitiw sya sa likuran ko ay
marahan ko syang binuhat paupo sa hita ko.
Her shoulders are moving up and down with her sob, her beautiful, black eyes is
covered with tears and her red lips trembling.
"Hey, Scira, look at me..." Marahang bulong ko.
She slowly stared at me, tinigan ko naman sya at unti-unting inabot ang kamay
nya para haplusin at kalmahin.
"Don't let them in, my Queen, hmm?" Marahang kausap ko sa kanya. She sniffed
and looked at me softly.
"H-How?"
"Inner demons played their battles with fire," Marahang paliwanag ko at
hinaplos ang pisngi nya. "They don't play fair, they don't play with the rules..."
"D-Doc..." She whispered.
"I want you to fight back," Bulong ko at ngumiti. "Fight the inner demons, my
angel..."
"N-Natatakot ako..." Bulong nya.
"If you were afraid, they will stay there, in your mind..." I caressed her jaw.
"I know you're brave, you can fight them..."

"They have guns and..."

"You have your crown, my Queen..." I stopped her. "Your strength will be their
weakness, alam kong malakas ka, makakaya mo 'yan. And Doc will always stay here
beside you kaya h'wag kang matakot..."
"T-Talaga?" Her innocent eyes glisten so I smiled and nodded at her. I held her
waist, marahan syang yumakap sa leeg ko at inilagay ko ang baba ko sa balikat nya.
"Yes, Reyna ko..." Bulong ko. "Go get the throne for those who stole it from
you, I, on the other side will stay beside you, I will help you get justice for
your parents..."
True to my words, kaagad kong ipinaalam sa awtoridad ang totoong nangyari. I
brought my Queen's voice recorder in the police station and tell them what
happened, I also showed them the results of my diagnosis.
"Naku, Sir, mahihirapan tayo d'yan..." Ani ng pulis sa akin.
My forehead creased, hinawi ko ang buhok ko at suminghap ng marahas.
"What do you mean by that?"
"Mataas na tao po ang Mayor, hindi basta-bastang--"
"He murdered someone, officer!" My voice growled.
"Sir, hindi sapat na ebidensya ang pinakita mo para--"
"I have an eye witness!" I said frustatedly and closed my eyes. "I can give a
lawyer for this! We just need to set a schedule for Mr. Sebastian and lawyer about
this--"
"Sir, pasensya na talaga pero parang impossible iyang sinasabi mo... Napakabait
na tao ni Mayor Sebastian kaya baka hindi po mangyari ang gusto nyo..."
"For fucks sake, lives were taken here! Hindi lahat ng akala nyong mabait ay
ganoon nga! The--"
"Sir, mawalang-galang pero mas mabuting manahimik nalang kayo. Ayaw po naming
madamay sa mga bagay na ito sa Mayor..." Aniya na naiinis na.
"Fuck," I cursed loudly. "Fuck the injustice in this town, officer..."
"Pasensya na talaga, Sir, kung gusto nyo kayo nalang ang kumausap kay Mayor--"
"Then what, you'll blame the real victim? That woman is innocent!"
Tumungo sya nakita kong gusto nyang magsalita pero hindi nya ginawa kaya
napatawa ako roon at napailing.
"That's how money works, huh? He must be feeding the police..."
"Sir! Pakiayos po ang sinasabi mo!" Nakita ko ang galit sa boses nya pero
nabakas ko ang konsensya sa mga mata nya.
The side of my lips lifted and my jaw clenched. You can't lie to me, you can't
fool me...
Kaagad kong kinuha ang mga gamit ko sa lamesa at malamig na tumingin sa kanya.
I shook my head and spoke.
"Hope you can sleep at night thinking of those innocent people's lives taken by
the devil you've been hiding..." I said coldly. His mouth parted, akmang
magsasalita pero tumalikod na ako at lumabas ng presinto.
Pagdating ko sa ospital ay kaagad akong sinalubong ng sampal ni Mommy.
"You ungrateful child! Ilang beses ko na bang sinabi sa'yong tumigil sa
kahibangan sa baliw na iyon?!" Her voice roared the lobby, natahimik sila,
samantalang ako ay napatungo nalang roon.
I was in the middle with my mother mad at me, people were staring at us pero
hindi ko naman magawang sumagot.
"M-Mom, let's talk at the office..." Mahinahong sabi ko.
"Nakakahiya ka! You were meddling with the Sebastians! At dahil kanino? Sa
babaeng iyon?!" She hissed. "Thorn, that woman is crazy!"
"Mom, please don't say that..." I sighed, bit my lip ang stared at her. "She's
just stressed and she wasn't--"

"I don't care! Leave that woman, Thorn Arzeus!" She said
hysterically and stared at the people around us. "Tignan mo sila, huh, nakakahiya
kang anak!"
My heart ache, nangilid ang luha ko sa talim ng mga salita nya pero hindi ako
nagpatinag.
Scira said my Mom loves me, hindi nya lang maipakita and I believe her. My Mom
loves me...
"Mom, please..." I said, trying to calm her down. "Sa loob nalang tayo mag-
usap..."
"Isa pa, Thorn Arzeus..." Mariing sabi nya. "Isa pang pangingialam mo sa kaso
ng babaeng 'yun ay mapapahiya sya sa maraming tao..."
Despite of my determination to help my Queen, I was also determined to please
my parents in any ways I can that when my Dad asked me about the project he was
aiming to have ay kaagad akong pumayag.
I did my best to help my Dad in talking to the Sandejas about this new project
of them and when they approved ay sobrang saya ko.
That night when I told my Dad about Mr. Sandejas' decision, I've heard his very
first, I'm proud of you, son.
It was my first time hearing him call me his son and I was just too happy at
that and I worked harder to make them more happy. I am so tired being compared, I'm
tired being the one left behind.
Since I was a child, I was pressured in school. Dahil nga sa bunso ako ay
malaki ang expectations sa akin ng pamilya ko.
My sister, Ate Gwy was a successful businesswoman, she was our family's pride,
bata pa lamang ay na-expose na sya sa business. My brother, Darius is a surgeon.
My brother and sister is the pride of our family, they excels a lot in school
and the world they were in that my parents are too proud of them.
While me was an average man, hindi ako kasing talino nila. Hindi rin ako ganun
kagalingan sa pag-aaral, I only got flying colors because I studied hard, really
hard that I was hospitalized twice in dehydration, stress and lack of sleep but
they didn't bother going in the hospital to visit me because of their busy
schedules.
Tanging si Ate lang at ang kaibigan kong si Kat at Ad ang bumisita sa ospital
noon.
"Is there any way I can talk to Atty. Sandejas?" I asked Atty. Sandejas'
secretary.
I wanted to talk to him regarding my Scira's case, kailangan ko na ring gumalaw
para sa reyna ko. I've left her alone in my house while I work here, hindi ko na
rin sya masyadong natatawagan dahil sa oras na nagagamit ko.
I have to work harder and faster so I can go back to her quickly.
"Mr. Valderama, pasensya na po pero nasa ibang bansa po ang Attorney ngayon
kasama ang asawa at anak nya..." Aniya sa akin.
I sighed, I licked my lip and nodded.
"Then, can I schedule an appointment? Kahit kailan sya pwede?" I aked him.
"For now, Sir, he still isn't accepting appointments but you can give me your
number so we can contact you in case..." He said.
I felt the disappointment of not being able to talk to Atty. Sandejas but I
still gave him my calling card in the hopes of talking to him.
"Please, contact me if he's available..." Pakiusap ko. "This is really
urgent..."
"Okay, Sir..." Aniya.
I went back to my car with a heavy heart, kailan ko kaya sya makakausap? He's
the only person I know capable of helping my Queen on her case, wala akong tiwala
sa mga abogado sa probinsya namin dahil hindi ko alam ang panig nila.

They might do something that might harm Scira so I won't

risk.
Sumulyap ako sa telepono ko at napangiti ng makita ang wallpaper ko, it was
Scira, smiling at the camera with her gentle face and lovely smile.
Don't worry, my Queen. I will help you to your case, we will give justice to
your parents...
I love you...
I closed my eyes and sighed, I still remembered how I scolded her that time at
the party, I still remembered how hurt she is when she saw me mad.
I was worried when I saw hernon the floor with icing from the cake all over her
body. Kaagad ko syanh tinakbo para sana tulungan pero nakarinig ako ng bulungan.
Suddenly, I felt concious, I lost my mind and when I saw how disappointed my
parents look ay kaagad akong nakaramdam ng takot roon.
They were disappointed! I was doing my best for this but in the end, they got
disappointed in me!
My mind was suddenly filled in different thoughts, nawala sa isip ko ang lahat.
Ang nasa utak ko lang ay ang atensyon nila at ang kanilang pagkadismaya sa akin.
Wala sa sariling hinila ko si Scira patayo sya lapag at hinila palabas. She was
sobbing but I don't seem to hear her cries, I was absent-mindedly dragging her out.
"Ma'am! Bakit..." The driver was shocked.
"Take her home..." I said coldly at nang sumulyap ako sa kanya ay nakita ko ang
takot sa mga mata nya.
"T-Thorn... Sorry..." She murmured.
You're a disappointment, Thorn Arzeus! Wala kang nagawang tama! My mind was
telling me.
"What do you think you're doing, Scira?!" Mariing sambit ko at nakita ko ang
pagtalon nya at ang pagluha roon.
"T-Thorn, na-nakita ko--"
"You ruined the party!" I exclaimed, enraged. She shook her head, her lips
trembling with tears on her cheek.
"T-Thorn, I--"
"They're disappointed at me! Damn it!" I cursed loudly in my head.
Nang makitang aabutin nya ang kamay ko ay kaagad akong napaatras roon at
ipinikit ang mata ko.
My head was aching, I was such a disappointment. Wala kang kwentang anak,
Thorn...
"Go home, Scira. I have to fix this mess. Mamaya na tayo mag-usap." I said and
turned my back.
I ran inside and saw the ruined place, may naglilinis na roon pero may usapan
pa rin tungkol sa nangyari.
"Thorn!" Kaagad akong napatingin sa tabi ko at nangunot ang noo ko nang makita
si Kat sa tabi ko.
"Kat..."
"Mabuti at bumalik ka na," She smiled at me but I did not smile back. "Tara,
may announcement sila..." Aniya.
Nagtatakang napatingin ako roon at sumama sa kanya, I saw my parents talking to
her parents. Nang makita ako ay nakita ko kaagad ang malamig at galit na mata ni
Mommy.
"Hijo!" Mrs. Lim kissed my cheek at magalang na tumango ako roon. Katrin placed
her hand on my waist and my forehead creased.
She held arm, clinging at mabilis akong lumayo sa kanya.
"What are you doing?" I asked her.
"Don't be like that, Thorn... We're getting married soon..." She said and my
forehead creased even more.
"What? No..." Iling ko.
"Anyway, hijo, pag-usapan natin ang kasal nyo ni Katrin sa lalong madaling
panahon..." My voice faded with that.

"Matagal na rin naman kayong magkasama at alam naman naming

mahal nyo ang isa't-isa--" Mrs. Lim said.
"I have a girlfriend, Ma'am..." I cut her off. Her mouth parted, nakita ko rin
ang gulat ni Kat roon.
"Anong sinasabi mo, Thorn?!" My Mom exclaimed. "Pasensya na, nagloloko lang
iyang batang 'yan--"
"That woman here earlier is my girlfriend." I stopped my Mom from saying
anything.
Mrs. Lim was shocked, nakita kong napahawak sya sa braso ng asawa sa gulat.
"Thorn!" My father exclaimed.
"W-What's the meaning of this, Thorn?" Kat whispered, almost crying.
 "You knew about my girlfriend, Kat..." Mariing sabi ko.
"Apologize, Thorn! H'wag ka ng magsinungaling!" Ani Mommy pero umiling ako at
frustrated na sinabunutan ang buhok ko.
"I'm sorry..." Mahinang sabi ko at mabilis na tumalikod sa kanila.
I walked away, shaking my head and gritting my teeth.
Fuck you, Thorn! Si Scira! What the hell did you just did?!
"Thorn Arzeus!" My Mom screamed and I stopped, nang lingunin ko sya ay kaagad
nya akong sinalubong ng sampal at napatiim lang ako ng bagang doon.
"What the hell are you thinking?! Si Almira ang kausap mo!" Sigaw nya. "You are
marrying Katrin and--"
"I won't, Mom..." I said and I saw how rage formed her eyes.
"Arzeus!" Sigaw nya. "H'wag kang magpapaloko sa baliw na 'yun! That woman is a
filthy bitc--"
"You're my mother but I would never let you call my woman that..." I said
hardly.
"Totoo naman! Hiwalayan mo 'yang babaeng 'yan! Magpapakasal kayong dalawa ni
Katrin sa ayaw at gusto--"
"I won't," I brushed my hair and licked my lips. "Mom, please... I won't, I
have my girlfriend, I don't need any other woman..."
"Wala ka talagang kwenta! You are a disappointment in this family! A disgrace!"
She exclaimed.
I felt the sharp pain on my chest, probably breaking my heart into two.
"I already know that..." Mahinang nasabi ko "I've never been someone's
pride..."
"Buti alam mo! Wala kang ginawang tama! Ang pagpapakasal na nga lang ang kaya
mong gawin para sa pamilyang ito ay hindi mo nagawa!" She hissedd. "Mabuti pa si
Darius, marunong makinig!"
"Then, I'm sorry to disappoint you, Mom..." Bulong kong nanghihina.
"I'm not Darius, nor Ate Gwy..." Bulong ko at pumikit at humugot ng hininga.
"I'm just Thorn Arzeus, your disappoinment son...."
"You're unbelievable!" Sigaw nya at naihilamos ang lkanyang palad.
"I'm sorry but I don't think I can ever reach your standards, Mommy..."
Mahinang sagot ko. "I don't care now if you'll be proud of me or what... But I am
keeping Scira with me."
She looked at me with her ridiculous face, disappointed and shakes her head.
"Sorry..." Muling bulong ko at mabilis na sumakay sa sasakyan ko.
Mabilis kong pinaandar ang sasakyan para makauwi lang sa bahay. Parang bigla
akong natauhan at naalala ang ginawa ko sa reyna ko.
I was such an asshole, she was delicate you prick! Why would you shout at her?!
Halos takbuhin ko na ang kwarto ni Yaya at nang sabihin nyang umiiyak si Scira
pag-uwi ay hindi na ako napakali at mabilis na pumasok sa kwarto.
My heart melted when I saw her in the bed, tangled with my sheets and my heart
broke when I saw the sadness on her soft face and the dried tears on her cheek.

Kaagad kong hinubad ang coat ko at umakyat sa kama. My

tears fell as I stared at my woman, how could I hurt my Queen?
Napakagago ko!
I slowly slipped beside her and placed her head on my arm. Namumula pa ang
kanyang mukha sa pag-iyak at napamura ako at napapikit bago sya hinigit sa katawan
ko at masuyong humalik sa noo nya.
That's when I realized how lucky I am to find my delicate rose despite of
everything.
I realized that I don't need a thousand people to adore me for what I can do, I
just need someone who will love me despite the things I can't do...
And she's that person, my only Queen.
Through the cracks in the road, the flowers grow... and she's the unique flower
that grew from the broken cracks I have.
 "What the fuck do you need?!" I tried moving but I was strapped in both of my
hand and feet.
"Simple lang, you will leave the case alone or you'll die..." Mayor Sebastian
looks so dangerous infront of me pero hindi ako nagpatinag.
Why would I be afraid of him?
"Then, kill me..." I said coldly. "I won't let the case go if that's you're
saying..."
I saw how his forehead creased, nakita ko ang galit at insulto sa mga mata nya
at napaungol ako sa sakit nang may sumuntok sa sikmura ko.
"Fuck!" I cursed.
"Ano?! Ang yabang mo!" A punch in my jaw made me close my eyes.
I moved my body, trying to get away and fight them but they were punching me.
"You fucker!" I coughed and tried kicking but I can't!
"Akala mo? Umpisa lang 'yan..." Aniya. "I will still give you time to choose,
it's either you'll push Scira away, or I'll kill your family and her infront of
you..." He smirked.
"Damn you!" I cursed and spitted. "You don't have a conscience! How dare you
still serve the town after killing innocent lives?!"
"H'wag ka ng madaming satsat..." Tawa nya at umiling sa akin bago itinaas ang
baril nya at ipinakita sa akin.
"Choose, Mr. Valderama..." Aniya. "Or your love ones might get hurt..."
"Fuck you! Mabubulok ka rin sa kulungan! I will fucking assure you'll leave in
jain forever!"
"Go, make that man unconscious..." Aniya. "Tapos iwan nyo sa harapan ng ospital
nya..."
My jaw clenched, I moved my hand, trying to remove the rope but before I could
even do that, a hard object hit my head and the next thing I knew, I was in the
hospital.
I was weak to even move, my sister visited me there and started asking me what
happened pero hindi ko sya inimik. I remained silent, oras-oras ay halos
pinapatawagan ko si Yaya sa bahay para kamustahin ang reyna ko roon.
She can't see me like this, she might get afraid. Baka mapahamak lang syang
lalo dahil sa akin, I even doubled my house's security to assure her safety.
Pero akala ko'y magagawa ko ang mga plano ko nung nakausap ko na si Atty.
Sandejas pero nagkamali ako. That one night while I was in Manila and went back to
my unit ay nakakita ako ng kahon sa tapat ng pintuan ko.
I was confused at that but to my horror, I saw a dead, mutilated black cat in
the box, its blood is scattered around the box.
Suddenly, my phone rang and an email caught my attention.
"Choose now or you might regret it all..."
That's what the message has been saying and I saw the photo attached on the
message and my heart pound rapidly when I saw Scira in the photo outside my house
and a red dot was placed on her head from a gun.

So like how fucker I am, I made an absurd decision, to make

Scira leave me for her own safety and that was the most fucked up thing I ever did.
I did my best to make her happy that day na kaagad ko ring binawi dahil sa
kaduwagan ko.
Pangako, babalikan kita... I will follow you, I promise...
"You did a great job, my Queen..." I said and caressed her hair, my eyes was in
the verge of crying but I still smiled at her.
My body was almost trembling in fear, I can't do this but I have to...
Pangako, pangako ko ay susundan kita. I will assure your safety before
anything, my Queen. Mahal na mahal kita...
"I'm so proud of you too, Thorn... You are the best, I love you very very
much..." My heart thumped painfully, nangilid ang luha ko pero hindi ko iyon
ipinakita sa kanya at mabilis na nag-iwas ng tingin at tinanggal ang salamin ko.
 Would you still be proud of me after this?
Your king messed it all up, baby... I felt ashamed of myself. I'm sorry... I'm
sorry...
I almost begged her to never let me go but what right do I have when I asked
her to stay but I was the first one to leave?
"I gotta go..." Mabilis kong sinabi.
"Okay, ingat..." She smiled cheekily. "You'll be back, right?"
Of course, I will... Gusto kong sabihin pero hindi ko magawa.
Babalikan kita, I will follow you and keep you safe, I promise...
I stared at her lovely, innocent face and cursed myself for hurting my Queen. I
was such an asshole, parang may nakadagang mabigat na bagay sa puso ko habang
nakatingin sa kanya na gusto kong humingi ng tawad at iuwi sya pabalik sa bahay
pero ayokong mas ikakapahamak nya iyon.
"Goodbye, Scira..." l said sadly and I saw her scared eyes and turned my back
at her.
It was like a death sentence to me, I'm sorry, baby...
Please, please forgive me...
I will be back for you, I promise, pangako ay gagawin ko ang lahat para maging
ligtas ka.
Iniabot ko ang sobre sa guard at sinabing ibigay kay Scira at nanatili ako sa
sasakyan ko sa labas ng terminal at mahinang umiiyak at minumura ang sarili ko.
My phone rang, kaagad na nahulog ang luha sa mga mata ko nang makita ang
pangalan nya sa telepono. I shoudn't answer her but my heart tells otherwise,
kahit...kahit boses lang nya...
"T-Thorn..." Her voice trembled.. "N-Nasaan ka na?"
I breathe hard, hinawi ko ang luha sa mga mata ko at tumungo. I lowered my head
and bit my lip. I gulped and shook my head.
"B-Babalik ka diba?" Bulong nya.
I'm sorry... Parang-awa mo na, patawarin mo sana ako, mahal ko...
"P-Please, baby, come back..." She said, begging. "I'm scared..."
I'm scared too, mahal kita... I'm sorry...
"Leave me alone..." I said coldly.
"T-Thorn..." She whispered.
"I'm done with you, Scira..." I said.
No, baby... I just have to do this. Please, please...
"N-No..." She sobbed. "Y-You're joking right? N-Nasaan ka na? H'wag mo naman
akong lokohin ng ganyan--"

"Do I sound like I'm joking?" I said and my heart almost

felt like breaking. Lumunok ako roon at pumikit ng mariin.
"T-Thorn..." She sobbed.
"I'm marrying someone," I lied.
"S-Sabi mo... S-Sabi mo, mahal mo ako?" Bulong nya. "Y-You said you'll stay
with me?"
Mahal kita, mahal na mahal kita...
"My parents doesn't want you," I whispered. "I'm sorry..." Mahinang sabi ko.
Her sobs punched through, ripping through my muscles, heart, and guts. Hinang-
hina ako sa mga hikbi nya na halos mapuno na rin ng luha ang mga mata ko.
"I-I promised you, Thorn..." Bulong nya. "I-I promised you I'll stay with you
unless you'll let me go away..."
I promised you too... But sorry to break it...
"Then go away," I said harshly. "I can't take care of you, leave. I don't wanna
see you anymore..."
"I-I love you..." She whispered weakly and my eyes shut down and I placed my
head on the steering wheel and bit my lip.
"I'm sorry..." I whispered and ended the call.
A loud, angry roar left my lips as I punched the steering wheel. I was shaking
my head, my chest was fucking heavy at that.
Hindi ko ata talaga kaya... Ayoko, ayokong lumayo sya...
Putangina, anong klaseng desisyon 'yan? You are honestly telling your Queen to
go away?! You prick, you promised to keep her safe no matter what! Pero bakit mo
sya iiwan? Is that the best you can do?
You took care of her just to break her again? Putanginang desisyon 'yan, Thorn!
I am taking it back, no... No, baby, hindi ko kaya...
Mabilis akong lumabas ng sasakyan at hinawi ang mga luha ko.
I'm sorry, my Queen... Babalik na ako sa'yo, please, h'wag kang aalis...
I walked towards the entrance but stopped when I saw a familiar bunch of men
infront of me.
My forehead creased, my jaw clenched and walked but they pushed me kaya
napaatras ako roon.
"I have to go inside..." I said stiffly and hardly and tried getting in but
someone grabbed both of my arms to stop me.
"Let me go!" I hissed hardly and pulled my arms away.
"Iniwan mo na nga diba? Akala ko ba sumunod ka sa utos ni Mayor?" The man with
a tattoo on his neck said mockingly.
"I don't care, just fucking let me in..." Mariing sabi ko.
"Kung kaya mo..." He smirked and someone hit my back at something kaya napamura
ako roon.
Kaagad akong nakaiwas sa suntok nung isang lalaki at mabilis na sumuntok
pabalik. I punched his face, napamura sya roon at ginantihan ako pero nakaiwas ako
at pinilipit ang kamay nya.
"Tangina mo!" I cursed loudly when that man with a tattoo punched my jaw, my
teeth gritted, mabilis ko syang nilingon at malakas na sinipa.
He sat on the side of the road at halos magdilim ang paningin ko sa galit sa
kanya. I moved and punched his face, mabilis ko syang hinawakan sa kwelyo at
sinalampak sa lapag.
"You fucker!" I cursed loudly and punched his face at sinubukan nyang labanan
ako pero hindi nya magawa.
I punched his face non-chalantly, enrage at him. I almost killed him but
someone hit me with a wood on my back kaya nawala ako sa balanse.

I fell on the ground at mabilis silang dumamba sa akin

roon.
"Tanginang, patayin nyo ang hayop na 'yan!" Sigaw nya.
I fought them, I punched them and tried saving myself to go and get my Queen
but they were too many I can't fight them enough with my strength.
Mabilis kong pinunasan ang dugo sa gilid ng labi ko at kinwelyuhan ang nasa
harapan ko but someone pulled my shirt and dragged me on the floor.
"Fuck!" I cursed loudly with the pain. Mabilis nila akong itinayo at nanghina
ako nang may sumuntok sa sikmura ko.
The cornered me, beat me to my own death that I almost lost my consciousness.
My Queen, please, umalis ka... Mas magandang lumayo ka nalang...
I closed my eyes and a lone tear escaped my eyes and promised to be back for
her, I will find you, baby...
A slammed on the ground made me weak, they dragged me on the ground and
continued beating me until I lost all the strength I have at sa isang hampas pa
nila sa akin ay naramdaman ko ang paghampas ng ulo ko kung saan at ang panlalabo ng
mga mata ko.
"S-Scira..." I murmured quietly and tried lifting my hands but my body was too
weak and that's when darkness took over me.
Tahimik lang akong nakaupo sa bench at nakamasid sa mga tao. I was holding a
piece of rose and staring at nothing, waiting for her to come back.
Where will you find her now, Thorn?
I closed my eyes and stared at my palm and the flower in my hand.
 "When you feel alone, just look at the spaces in between your fingers and
remember that's where mine fits perfectly..." I remembered what I told her, is she
thinking of me? Kahit minsan?
Nasaan na kaya sya? Is she eating right? Nasa mabuting kalagayan kaya sya?
Napapikit ako sa luha sa mga mata ko at sinabunutan ang sarili ko. I breathe
hard and took a glance at the bus going in and out of the station.
You are a worthless person, Valderama. Wala kang kwenta, duwag!
I need her... Scira... Please...
"Sabi na, nandito ka na naman..." I saw my brother, Darius infront of me.
My forehead creased, tumikhim ako at hinawakan ng maigi ang rosas sa kamay ko
at hindi umimik.
"Nahanap mo na ba?" He asked. I shook my head and stared at nothing.
"Anniversary 'nun ngayon, diba? Kaya ba nandito ka?" He asked, referring to the
bus terminal.
"Help me find her..." Mahinang sabi ko at nilingon sya. This is my first time
asking him something like this.
"Darius, please, I just really have to find her..." Halos magmakaawa na ako sa
kanya para tulungan ako.
"Sige..." Aniya at ngumiti. "Basta ba, bati na tayo?"
The side of my lips lifted, I smirked at that kaya napatawa sya roon at
tumango.
When I woke up six months later after my comatose, ipinahanap ko kaagad sya. My
sister helped me while I was still out but like her, we found nothing.
Halos suyurin ko na ang buong Maynila para hanapin sya, I was scammed a lot of
times, my cards were stolen, everything, my car and all but that didn't stop me.
I am still searching for her pero wala akong kahit anumang balita. I was really
weak, walang ganang kumausap ng kahit sino.
My Mom suspended me and removed me as the director of the hospital because of
my incompetence and I accepted that.

Eversince I woke up, hindi na ako makafocus sa

pagtatrabaho, I was always not in the right mind, palagi kong iniisip si Scira.
Is she safe right now? Is she good?
Halos hindi na ako makatulog ng maayos at ang tanging paraan lang para kumalma
ako at makapagpahinga ay ang pag-inom.
"You need to come back here time to time so we can check your progress..." I
told my patient.
I still wonder how could I help other people heal themselves but I coudn't heal
mine?
"Sige, Doc..." She smiled. "Can I ask if--"
My forehead creased when I saw a woman on her white dress walked passed my
clinic. Mabilis kong inayos ang salamin ko at kumalabog ang puso ko roon.
"Doc?"
"Uhm, excuse me..." Mahinang sabi ko at hindi ko na sya binalingan at mabilis
na tumayo at lumabas ng opisina ko.
I saw her on the elevator and my mouth parted in shock when I saw her face. My
heart hammered, mabilis kong tinakbo ang elevator pero hindi ko na sya naabutan.
"Fuck!" I cursed loudly.
"Scira..." I murmured and ran towards the other elevator and waited for it to
come down pero nung wala pa rin ay mabilis kong tinakbo ang hagdan pababa.
No, no, I found her!
Halos magpanic ako at mabilis na tumakbo pababa. My chest was moving up and
down, catching my breath as I scanned the lobby of the hospital.
Where is she? Damn!
Marahas na kumalabog ang puso ko at mabilis na tumakbo palapit sa guard na
mukhang nagulat sa akin.
"Doc!" He exclaimed.
 "Have you seen a woman this tall?" I motioned my hand. "Maputi tapos
maganda..."
"Anong kulay ng suot, Doc?" Aniya at mabilis akong nagsalita.
"She was wearing a white dress," Sagot ko habang nagmamasid at sinusuyod ng
tingin ang paligid.
"Hala, Doc, nakikita nyo rin pala?" He said.
I was confused, nangunot ang noo ko roon at nagtatakang tinignan ko sya.
"What?" I asked.
"Naku, Doc! Nagpapakita rin sa amin 'yung white lady dito! Minsan nga may dugo
pa sa damit na puti!" He exclaimed. My mouth parted, umigting ang panga ko at
napahugot ng hiningi at hinilot ang sentido ko.
"Nevermind..." I shook my head and left him there.
"Hala, Sisa, nakikita rin ni Doc 'yung nakaputi!" He exclaimed kaya napailing
ako at mabilis na lumabas ng ospital. I looked around the place and I sighed when I
saw nothing there.
No, Scira... No anything...
Maybe this is one of my conscious dream, sa sobrang gusto ko s'yang makita ay
nawawala na ako sa sarili. I think I'm seeing her...
Bagsak ang balikat na bumalik ako sa clinic ko at nang makita ang Tita ko na
naroon at palabas ng opisina nya at nang makita ako ay ngumiti sya.
"Thorn, hijo!" She smiled.
"Hello, Auntie..." I smiled at her, nagmano ako sa kanya at natatawang hinaplos
nya ang buhok ko roon.
"Tapos na ba ang ospital nyo?" Tanong nya kaya umiling lang ako doon sa kanya.
"I'll still stay here in weekends tapos sa weekdays sa ospital naman ako..." I
chuckled.
"Ikaw talaga," Tawa nya. "Sya nga pala, uuwi na ako, huh? Kakauwi lang rin kasi
ng pasyente ko..." She said.

Kaagad akong natigilan, I was suddenly curious kaya

nagtanong ako.
"Uhm, can I ask the name of your patient?" I asked her.
"Zidney..." Aniya sa akin at may kung anong lumukob sa puso ko ng marinig iyon.
"Bakit kilala mo?" She asked pero umiling lang ako at napahugot ng hininga.
I was not in the mood but my sister forced me to go to the party of the
Sandejas'. Ayoko mang pumunta ay kailangan dahil malaki ang utang na loob namin sa
mga Sandejas, they were kind to our family.
They helped us a lot in our hospital so we should really go.
Wearing a black tux and tie, hinawi ko ang buhok ko at inayos ang salamin ko,
kinausap ko na ang mga imbestigador ko kanina na hanggang ngayon ay wala pa ring
balita tungkol kay Scira.
Wala ako sa sarili at nakatulala lang kung saan, my Mother was telling me to do
everything to please the Sandejas heiress they were saying pero hindi ako umiimik.
I was just quiet there, tahimik lang akong nakaupo habang katabi si Ate Gwy na
maliit na ngumiti lang sa akin at marahan akong niyakap.
"Kamusta na ang paghahanap mo?" Bulong nya.
"I will try searching in provinces near here," Sagot ko. "Baka sakaling nandun
sya..."
We all stopped when the emcee spoke, kaagad akong napabaling sa hagdanan nang
i-anunsyong nariyan na ang bunsong anak.
I stared at the stairs and my mouth parted in shock when I saw a woman in her
royal blue gown, her arms were linked at Zeijan Sandejas beside her and my heart
started beating rapidly.
"S-Scira..." I murmured.
"Oh my God!" Ate Gwy exclaimed and my parents are in complete shock, nanlalaki
ang mga matang nakatingin sila kay Scira na pababa ng hagdan.
My eyes never left her the moment she went up the stage, I am doing my best not
to break down and run towards the stage to hug her.
Habang nakatingin sa kanya ay gustong-gusto ko syang buhatin at yakapin ng
mahigpit. I wanted her to hug me, to tell me that she's there and will assure me
that she will not fade from my sight.
I am wishing this isn't just my conscious dream, sana ay totoo ito...
Our eyes met while she was at the stage, I saw her looking at me but she didn't
look twice.
My heart ache, napapikit ako at humugot ng hininga roon.
She looks happy...
She found her family, hindi na ba nya ako kailangan? Kasi ako... Sobrang
kailangan ko pa sya...
She will be the cure for the loneliness I've been feeling for years but how?
How can I even tell her everything if she loathe me a lot?
With my shaking hands and feet, I walked towards her as she was sitting with
her brothers. My Scira looks so damn beautiful on her gown, she looks more of a
Queen now...
A royalty, s'ya 'yung tipong kailangan mong magmakaawa para lang sa atensyon
nya and I...regret everything.
Halos maluha ako nang payagan ako nila Iñigo na isayaw ang reyna ko, it was
like a dream come true, the empty spaces of my heart was suddenly filled with
longing.
Gusto ko syang yakapin, halikan, gusto kong magmakaawa ng kapatawaran sa
kanya... Sa lahat, gusto kong ipangakong hinding-hindi ko na sya iiwan, gusto kong
mangakong magiging malakas ako para sa kanya, na hindi na ako papadala sa takot.

My grip tightened on her waist, my hand is almost

trembling. I'm holding her, damn it! She's infront of me... Hawak ko s'ya...
She wasn't looking at me, her head was lowered down but I stayed staring at
her. I didn't blink, takot na mawala sya sa isang kurap ko.
I am afraid I am imagining things, natatakot akong pagmulat ko ay mawala sya sa
harapan ko na parang panaginip lang.
My heart was thumping hard, glad, hurt, scared... I'm missing her...
"S-Scira..." I have the courage to speak.
"That isn't me..." Sagot nya, nag-angat sya ng tingin at halos mapasinghap ako
nang makita ang itim nyang mga mata.
"I am not Scira if you're going to ask me that." She said coldly, dull, with no
emotion on her eyes.
Kinabahan ako, my tears were in the verge of falling but I opened my mouth to
speak.
I have to talk to her! Magpapaliwanag ako...
"P-Please..." I whispered, trembling. "C-Can I talk to you?"
"We were talking now, Mr. Valderama..." She answered me with her stoic
expression.
My heart broke, my lips parted.
Why am I am seeing her like this? Bakit...wala syang reaksyon?
This is my fault...
I coudn't read her eyes! Nang makita ang tapang ng mga mata nya ay nanghina
ako. It was as if my knees weakened, para akong pinagbagsakan ng langit.
Nag-iwas ako ng tingin para hindi nya makita ang luha sa mga mata ko. I have to
talk to her without breaking down.
Kasalanan ko 'to kaya kailangan kong maging malakas. Even if I have to kneel,
to die again for her then I will, just to touch her again. Tanggapin nya lang akong
ng isang beses pa, gagawin ko ang lahat.
Sumulyap ako sa kanya at nakitang walang kahit ano sa minsang maamong mga mata
nya. I gulped, her stares are making me weak.
Scira... My Queen...
What happened? Did...I really made you like this?
 You know what hurts the most? Seeing the woman you made whole broken again
because of you?
It hurts, thinking that the person who accepted me, the person who stayed and
appreciate me when no one else could is the one who coudn't take with just a sight
of you now...
She loved me more than anyone else in the world but I destroyed her...
I broke my precious gem, I took the crown away from my Queen, I let her
bleed... And I didn't know that the thorns I once embrace as a part of her will be
me.
I became her thorns, the ugly side of her, the one who caused her pain...
And even if I have to bleed just to reach her then I am more than willing to do
that, I will kneel if needed, I will beg for her attention, for her love, for her
forgiveness.
Tatanggapin ko ang lahat, even if she has a daughter, kahit meron pa syang iba
ay kaya kong tanggapin ang lahat.
All I want is the love that only Zidney can give, as long as she's proud of me
ay maayos na ako roon. I don't need anyone's approval, I just need her...
"Ilang beses ko na bang sinabi sa'yong ayaw kitang makita?" Her sharp voice is
what I've heard pero ngumiti ako.
"Morning!" I exclaimed.
She rolled her eyes, her lovely face seems so soft yet fierce. Minsan hindi ko
maseryoso ang galit nya dahil sa amo ng mukha nya, she looks like a goddess forcing
herself to be mad at mere mortals like me.

"Walang good sa morning lalo na at nandyan ka," She hissed.

Nagmartsa sya papasok sa ospital at parang tangang sumunod ako sa kanya.
"You look beautiful today..." I said and tried getting her bag from her hand
but she refused.
"Everyday naman," She rolled her eyes adorably.
"I know..." Sagot ko at pilit kinuha pero ayaw nya patalo at parang mga bata
kaming dalawang nag-aagawan ng bag nya roon sa gitna.
"I can bring my bag with me!" She hissed.
"Kahit na, tutulungan kita..." Inabot ko ang bag nya pero ayaw nya patalo.
"May kamay naman ako, kaya ko!" Sigaw pa nya roon kaya pinagtinginan na kami
but I don't care.
"Just let me do that for you, Zid..." I said.
"E, sa ayaw ko nga e!" She hissed but the side of my lips lifted, nang makitang
naiirita na sya sa akin ay mabilis kong hinapit ang baywang nya palapit sa akin.
She gasped, tumama sya sa dibdib ko at napakapit sa damit ko kaya tumawa ako. I
quickly get the bag away from her hand and kissed her head before letting her go.
"There, I love you.. " I smiled and she eyed me sharply. I pinched her cheek, I
saw her cheeks flushing.
"Namumula ang reyna ko, ang cute naman..." Asar ko at nang mas sumama ang
tingin nya ay mabilis na akong lumayo at tumakbo nang sumigaw sya sa inis sa akin.
"Thorn Arzeus!" Sigaw nya at binato ako ng blueprints kaya napahagalpak ako ng
tawa at tinakbo ang bag nya.
Sa lahat ng araw na naging Architect sya ng ospital ay wala akong ginawa kung
hindi ang mangulit sa kanya. I am giving her foods, lunch, snack or anything.
Tuwing gabi ay pinipilit ko syang ihatid pauwi at sa umaga naman ay aabangan ko
sya sa tapat ng hospital para ako ang makikita nya kaagad. And the coldness from
her eyes disappears everytime she sees me, napapalitan iyon ng inis at sisimangutan
na ako kaya ngumingisi ako at halos mag-hop na palapit sa kanya.
She's mad but it's better than to feel nothing at all, right?
Minsan ay mang-iistorbo ako sa site nila, kapag wala na akong pasyente ay
kukulitin ko sya roon kahit na naiirita lang sya sa akin, kapag kakain ng lunch ay
pipilitin kong makasabay sa kanila at kapag nakikita kong kausap nya 'yung Engineer
ay bigla akong sisingit sa gitna nila sa upuan at ngingisi kay Zidney na naiiling
lang.
"Yakult?" I offered her, not minding the Engineer beside me.
"Seriously, Thorn?" She raised her brow.
"Uh-huh," I chuckled and placed a straw on her yakult.
But things are not always alright, we reached that point where we have to face
the demons we both left in the past.
The case of her parents. I served as her psychiatrist that time in the court
and Iñigo is her lawyer, hindi na rin naman akong nahirapan magpaliwanag kay Iñigo
dahil nasabi ko na ito sa kanya noong si Zid ay Si Scira pa.
I deserve her family's punches, wala akong pakialam kung masira man ang mukha
ko sa mga suntok nila, ginaganti lang nila si Zidney sa kagaguhan ko...
We have given justice for her and I coudn't get any happier seeing my Queen
happy and relieved but that wasn't the end.
We have jailed Mayor Sebastian and his men but they attempted to escape the
prison, while my Queen is overseas to clear her mind ay inasikaso namin ang mga
tauhan ni Sebastian.
Zeijan helped me in catching them, dahil sa koneksyon nya ay nahuli namin sila.
Mayor Sebastian even attempted to hire someone to kidnap my daughter, Clyte
pero mabilis kong naagapan. Mabuti na lamang ay maaga akong napunta sa school nya
para sunduin sya at nakuha sya bago pa man magawa ng mga inutusan ng masamang ama
nya.

Bugbog-sarado ang Mayor pati ang mga kasamahan nya ng

mahuli namin sila. The brothers did their revenge to the one who took everything
from Scira.
We beat him up, napuno ng galit ang puso ko habang naiiisip lahat ng ginawa nya
sa babaeng mahal ko. I remembered how he killed her parents, how he threatened her,
how he tried killing me.
Nakita ko rin ang galit 'nung tatlo but we didn't put the law in our hands, we
will give them the time of their lives in jail, in where they actually belong since
the very start.
And now, all I have to do is to make my family happy, to make my Zidney, Clyte
and our prince happy.
I will give them everything, I will provide for them and give them all the love
I wish I have. I will give my kids the attention I once craved from my parents and
I will give my utmost and sincere love for my Queen who accepted everything, my
flaws, the cracks of my soul and the mistakes I made in the past.
Kinuha ko ang hose sa lapag at pinagpatuloy ang paglinis ng sasakyan ng asawa
ko. I brushed my hair with my fingers, medyo basa na rin ang dibdib ko habang
naglilinis roon.
My wife woke me up early in the morning asking me to clean her car, I agreed
with that, kaso ay ang problema ay ang gusto nya lang ay magsuot lang ako ng blue
jeans.
She asked me to wear only my jeans, with my torso showing at nagtataka man ay
ayaw kong magalit ang buntis sa akin.
Naiinitan na nga ako pero baka mahuli akong nakadamit ni Zidney at magalit kaya
hindi na ako gumawa ng kahit ano.
Binanlawan ko ang kanyang sasakyan gamit ang malinis na tubig at kaagad na
umangat ang labi ko nang makitang palabas ng bahay si Zidney.
She was only wearing her black night dress, ang umbok sa kanyang tyan ay halata
na kaya napangiti ako.
She looks cold as she walked softly outside, may hawak pa syang plato ng
pandesal at gatas kaya natatawa na ako.
"Morning, baby..." I said.
Ngumuso sya, nakita kong sumulyap sa katawan ko bago tumikhim sa akin.
"Bilisan mo d'yan, pacute ka pa..." She hissed.
Natatawa ako, nagsusungit na sya ngayon. Hindi nga nagkecrave ng pagkain at
hindi masyadong nagsusuka pero may oras na susungitan ako.
Selos na nga ako minsan 'e, tabi sila ni Clyte matulog tapos ayaw nila ako
isama kasi girl's night daw.
Nang matapos ko ayusin ang kanyang sasakyan ay naglakad ako palapit sa kanya. I
brushed my hair with my fingers, my jaw clenched as I stretched my arm.
Kapagod!
I saw her staring at me with her dark, innocent eyes, nang makita ko syang
sumulyap sa katawan ko ay bigla nyang kinagat ang pandesal at napakurap.
Oh, my Queen craves for my body today, hmm...
I am chuckling at that, nang tuluyan akong lumapit ay kaagad akong dumukwang sa
kanya sa lamesa at uminom ng gatas sa baso nya.
I licked my lips when I drink only a little and removed the stain on my mouth.
I smiled when I saw her mouth parted sexily, I saw her licked her lips and
before she could say anything ay kaagad kong ipinatong ang kamay ko sa lamesa at
tumungo para abutin ang labi nya.
I gave her a soft kiss on the lips before leaning in to eat the bread from her
hand. I chewed it and saw her eyes went down to my abdomen and gulped.
"Ang sherep nemen nyen..." She said.
Bigla akong naubo, napatakip ako sa bibig ko at nakita kong nanlaki ang mata
nya sa sinabi at napakurap.

"I-I mean..." She flushed.

"You..." Mas naubo ako at halos matawa nang mapasinghap sya at napatayo.
Kaagad nya akong inabutan ng gatas nya para malunon ko ang pagkain ko at nang
malunok ko ay halos mapatawa na ako sa kanya.
"Mesherep, huh?" I murmured and she screamed. Napatakip sya sa tenga nya at
napatawa ako at mabilis na hinablot ang baywang nya.
"That's too pabebe! Oh my God!" She hissed and I chuckled and hugged her on her
waist.
"Why is my Queen too pabebe now, hmm?" Natatawang bulong ko at humalik sa
pisngi nya.
She giggled, nawala bigla ang kasungitan at yumakap rin sa akin.
"Lumalabas na ang inner Zeijan Sandejas ko..." She murmured and I chuckled,
hinaplos ko ang buhok nya at sinilip ang maamo nyang mga mata.
"Hmm, you wanna visit your family?" Bulong ko at umiling sya sa akin at yumakap
pa.
"Bukas nalang, I wanna spend the day with you with the kids..." She whispered
on my ear.
Bahagya syang lumayo sa akin at napangiti ako ng makitang kinuha nya ang bimpo
sa lamesa at pinunasan ang likuran ko. He removed the sweat on my back and spoke.
"Ikaw kasi, bakit ka nakahubad?" She murmured. "Ayan tuloy, kita na 'yung abs
mo..." Hinawakan pa nya ang sa may tyan ko kaya natawa ako at hinaplos ang kamay
nya.
"Pasimple ang reyna ko," Bulong ko.
"Hindi a! Concern lang ako, tsaka sayang, balak ko sana kanin ang dalhin dito
palabas tapos ikaw ulam..." Humagikhik sya. "Kaso wala pang sinaing..." Humaba ang
nguso nya kaya natawa ako at binuhat sya.
She gasped when I carried her, naupo naman ako sa upuan roon at mabilis syang
pinaupo sa hita ko.
"Ikaw nalang gawin kong ulam..." Bulong ko at napaigtad sya sa bulong ko at
pabirong hinampas ang balikat ko.
"Thornie nga!" Irit nya at sinundot ko ang baywang nya kaya napatawa sya at
yumakap sa balikat ko.
"How's your sleep?" I whispered and she kissed my cheek and started clinging.
"Good," Bulong nya. "Kasi katabi ko si Thornie..."
"Uh-hmm..." I whispered and kissed her neck, napaling nya ang leeg sa ginawa ko
kaya nangiti ako.
 I gently kissed her stomach and smiled, marahang hinawakan ko ang panga nya at
inabot ang labi nya.
"Do you wanna visit the hospital tomorrow?" Bulong ko.
"Hmm, can I? I am bored here, my King..." She whispered back and smiled at me.
"Yes," Sagot ko. "You and Clyte can stay at my office so I can work comfortably
there, mas bibilis..."
"Okay..." She giggled and kissed my cheek. I saw her caressed my beard and
hugged me.
Nang makita ko naman ang papel sa lamesa ay kaagad akong napasulyap roon at
inabot.
"Can you hand me my glasses, Queen?" Sabi ko at nang iabot nya sa akin ang
salamin ko ay kaagad ko iyon isinuot at binasa ang nakasulat sa papel.
I saw that it was a drawing of a rose with a crown beside it kaya ngumiti ako
at sumulyap sa kanya.
"You drew this?" I asked her and she nodded at me and smiled.
"Hmm, ayos lang?" Bulong nya kaya ngumiti ako at tumango sa kanya.
"It's beautiful..." I told her. It was really beautiful, sabagay, she's an
architect, bigla ko tuloy naalala 'yung pinadrawing nya ako ng baby pero tyanak ang
kinalabasan.

Iyak sya ng iyak 'nun dahil sa drawing ko. Paanong ganun

daw ang mukha ng baby paglabas kaya nagpanic ako at pinakalma sya.
Napailing nalang ako at napangisi roon.
"Thornie, if I removed your glasses, malabo ang eyes mo?" She asked and I
nodded.
"Yes," Sagot ko at ngumuso sya.
"Oh, try natin..." Aniya. Napapikit ako nang tanggalin nya ang salamin sa mata
ko at sa pagmulat ko ay nakita kong kinakaway nya ang kamay sa harapan ko.
"Baby, can you see this?" She asked and I nodded, nagtataka.
"Ilan 'to?" She showed me her two fingers so I answered.
"Two?" I answered.
"E, ito?" She showed me four kaya napatawa ako at mabilis na hinuli ang kamay
nya at dinala sa labi ko.
"It's four, come on, baby, malabo ang mata ko pero hindi ako bulag..." I
chuckled.
Humaba ang nguso nya, sinamaan nya ako ng tingin kaya mas natawa ako at
niyakap.
"I hate you na!" She whimpered kaya sumubsob ako sa balikat nya at mahigpit
syang niyakap at bumulong.
"Mahal kita," Bulong ko.
"I love you din but I hate you!" Maktol nya pa sa akin at yumakap.
"Thank you for being my light, my Queen... If you made me your King, thank
you..." Bulong ko at mas niyakap sya.
I closed my eyes and she caressed my hair, sumubsob rin sya sa balikat ko at
humugot ng hininga.
"I love you too, Doc..." Bulong nya. "Scira...or Zidney loves Thornie so...so
much..."
I closed my eyes, humugot naman sya ng hininga pero tumawa rin sa akin.
"Pero hindi pa rin kita first love..." She teased kaya pinisil ko ang baywang
nya at napasigaw sya.
I was walking to our house, hawak-hawak ko ang handout na ibinigay ng professor
kanina at nagbabasa roon para sa aaralin namin bukas ng umaga.
Wearing my all white uniform, I fixed my glasses and sighed.
Wala kasing sasakyan ngayon na magsusundo sa akin dahil may event sa school si
Darius kaya sya ang susunduin. Ayoko rin namang magcommute dahil sayang ang
pamasahe at kaya naman lakarin ang papasok sa village.
"Aww, sakit!" My forehead creased when I heard a womanly voice.
 Mabilis akong nag-angat ng tingin at nakitang may nakatumbang bike roon sa
isang gilid.
Mabilis kong itinago ang papel na hawak sa bag ko at naglakad palapit roon and
my brows lifted when I saw a girl crying on the road.
Hawak-hawak nya ang kanyang tuhod at umiiyak.
"Miss?" I called.
"Kuya! Kuya, tulong!" She cried when she saw me.
"What happened?" My eyes shifted on the bike and sighed, mabilis akong lumapit
sa kanya at sinuklay ang buhok ko.
"Masakit! Nalaglag ako!" Maktol pa nya kaya napangiti ako.
"It's alright," Marahang sabi ko. "Show me your knees, let's see if you have
deep wounds..."
Nang hindi sya gumalaw ay marahan kong hinawakan ang paa nya, I slowly
stretched her leg, making her whimper.
"Aww!"
"Sshh, it's alright, hindi naman 'to masakit..." Sabi ko.
"Talaga?" She blinked and I saw how her black, doe eyes shined under her thick
eyelashes. Her pointed nose and reddish lips suits her really good.
Ang mahabang, itim na buhok nya ay nakalaglag sa kanyang balikat. She was
wearing a school uniform, she's probably still in elementary? Grade six?
"Doctor ka?" She asked me. Napangiti naman ako roon at umiling.
"No, pero sana..." Tawa ko at inabot ang bag ko, good thing is that I am always
packed with my emergency kit.
"Tara, gamutin natin ang tuhod mo," Paos kong sabi at tumango sya bago
napatingin sa hawak ko.
She blinked, nabakas ko ang takot sa mga mata nya kaya umiling ako at pinakita
ang hawak ko.
"This won't hurt, I assure you..." Sabi ko.
"But..."
"Then, do you trust me?" I asked and I saw her stared at my eyes, tumitig rin
ako sa kanya. I felt my heart tugging weirdly.
"I do..." She said sincerely and my heart felt warm.
Lumunok ako, para hindi maakit sa kanyang maamong mukha ay sumulyap ako sa
sugat nya at umiling.
That's just a kid, Thorn...
Nang matapos ang paggamot ko sa tuhod nya ay nilagyan ko iyon ng maliit na
bandage para hindi malagyan ng dumi.
"Wala kang kasama?" I asked and she shook her head and pouted.
"Nothing," Aniya. "Tumakas lang ako sa bahay..." Napatawa ako, ginulo ko ang
buhok nya at luminga sa paligid.
"Then, can you tell me your house so I can take you?" I asked at nang ituro nya
ang malaking mansion sa di kalayuan ay tumango ako.
"I'll carry you..." I whispered and she gasped when I lifted her, kaagad syang
napakapit sa batok ko at habang naglalakad ay hindi ko maintindihan ang pagtibok ng
puso ko.
"Kapag naging doctor ka na, papagamot ako sa'yo..." Hagikhik nya kaya
napatingin ako sa kanya.
"Talaga?" Tawa ko at tumango sya, her cheeks flushing.
"Yes! I won't eat apples so you can come and cure me!" She exclaimed.
"Then, okay, when you grow up... I will find you, hmm?" Asar ko at nagliwanag
ang mata nya at tumango sa akin.
"Okay! You do that! I will wait for you when I grow up! Ang gwapo-gwapo mo kasi
tapos ang bait-bait mo..." I stopped, nag-init ang pisngi ko at napatawa sya roon
at mas kumapit sa balikat ko.
"Kilig ka, Doc?" She asked, teasing. "Kasi ang bilis ng tibok ng heart mo e!"
I felt the large beating of my heart but my lips just lifted for a smirk and
stared at her.
She's really a beauty...
"Dito na tayo!" She exclaimed and my smile faded when I saw the mansion infront
of me. Nandito na kami? Ang bilis naman ata?
Kahit ayaw ko man ay wala akong choice kung hindi ang ibaba sya sa tapat ng
kanilang mansyon. Namulsa ako at nakita kong maayos na syang nakatayo at ang
mapungay nyang mata ay nakatingin sa akin.
"Thank you..." She smiled at me and I nodded, nang mahagip ng mata ko ang rosas
na nakatanim sa gilid ng kanilang mansyon ay wala sa sariling lumapit ako.
I plucked a flower slowly and walked closer to her, nagtatakang nakatingin lang
sya sa akin at binasa ko ang labi at sumulyap sa rosas na hawak ko.
"Then, I will see you when you grow up?" I asked her, giving her the rose.
She smiled cheekily, nagliwanag ang mga mata nya sa akin bago tumango at inabot
ang rosas sa kamay ko.
"You should..." She answered, staring at me. "Cause I'll wait for you..."
I felt the contentment in my heart when she said that, narinig ko na ang boses
na papalabas ng gate ng mansyon nila at hinahanap sya kaya ginulo ko ang buhok nya
at tumango.
"See you..." I said and turned my back, naglakad ako palayo pero hindi pa ako
nakakalayo ay sumigaw sya.
"My brothers said I'm a princess! Can you be my prince when you found me when
I'm already a grown up?!" She exclaimed at nakagat ko ang pang-ibabang labi.
Slowly, I turned to her and spoke.
"You look more of a Queen," I answered back and smiled.
"My Queen..." I murmured.
Even if love is full of thorns, I'd still embrace it for I know that in between
those thorns, there is a rose that is worth all the pain...

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TAR Special Chapter

TAR Special Chapter

"Bye, Architect!" I smiled when the employees greeted me.
"Bye, ingat sa pag-uwi..." I answered. They smiled, tumango ako nang kumaway
sila sa akin at lumabas para sumakay sa sasakyan ko.
It's already three in the afternoon and I called my day quits, mamaya kasi ay
aalis kami ni Thorn kasama ang pamilya para pumunta sa probinsya sa Sta. Monica.
I drove my car and listen to the soft music from the stereo. My children is
already at our house at tumawag kanina si Clyte para sabihing maayos na daw ang mga
damit nila kaya natawa ako.
They seems really excited, kaninang 12 ang uwian nya kaya sinabing naayos na
daw rin nya ang damit ng kapatid nya.
I parked my car to my husband's hospital and went out. Nang makita ako ng guard
ay kaagad syang sumaludo kaya ngumiti ako at tumango sa kanya.
"Magandang hapon, Architect!" Aniya.
"Good afternoon..." I smiled at him.
"Nasa loob po si Doc..." Aniya at nagpasalamat ako sa kanya bago pumasok sa
loob. Binati ako ng mga empleyado pagkapasok ko.
The nurses bow their heads at ngiti ang sukli ko sa kanila sa bawat pagdaan ko.
The hospital, Valderamas owned is really a general hospital now. Napag-alaman
ko rin kasi noon pa man, na itinuloy ng pamilya ko at pamilya nya ang pagpapatayo
ng ospital.
Parang dati lang ay hindi ito kalaki pero ngayon... A soft smile left my lips,
hinawi ko ang itim na buhok ko at inayos ang kulay asul na dress na suot ko.
While I was walking towards the elevator, I saw a group of health care
professionals talking in one side at nang makita ang isa roon ay kaagad na tumalon
ang puso ko.
The Director of this hospital, my husband, Dr. Thorn Arzeus Valderama is
standing proud as he talk to his co-doctors.
 Bahagyang nakaharap sya sa pwesto ko kaya hindi ko maiwasang mamangha pa rin sa
Thornie ko. He seems soft and sweet at all times pero kapag nasa trabaho sya ay
palagi syang seryoso.
Wearing a plain gray dress shirt with three buttons opened from the top and his
labgown, I almost cursed. He was wearing a black slacks, ang salamin nya ay naroon
pa rin sa mga mata nya gaya ng nakasanayan ang ang magulong buhok ay mas lalong
nagpadagdag sa super ka-gwapuhan nya.
Marahan akong naglakad palapit, I saw how his colleagues took a glance at me,
nakita ko ring nagsalubong ang kilay ni Dra. Lim nang makita ako pero hindi ko sya
binigyan ng kahit ano mang reaksyon.
"When I get back, I'll schedule a meeting to talk about the patient's
situation..." Ani Thorn sa malamig na tono.
Bigla akong nahiya, isn't it appropriate to go there? Mukhang may importanteng
pinag-uusapan?
Maybe I should wait on his office?
Aatras na sana ako roon kahit nakita na ako ng mga kasama nya pero natigil ako
sa isang boses.
"Reyna ko..." Mabilis akong napaayos ng tayo, nang lumingon ako ay nakita kong
nakakunot ang noo ni Thorn habang nakatingin sa akin.
"Where are you going?" He asked me at napakurap ako roon. "Come here, baby..."
Lumapit ako roon, tahimik naman ang mga kasama nya habang palapit ako at kaagad
na inabot ni Thorn ang braso ko at marahan akong inilapit sa kanya.
"Ang aga pa..." He said. He towered me, nalanghap ko ang pabango nya at
napapikit ako ng bahagya syang tumungo at hinalikan ang sentido ko.
"Maaga akong nakaalis sa opisina..." Sagot ko. He suddenly smiled, the coldness
disappeared and was replaced by his soft eyes.

"Hmm? Kumain ka na?" Bulong nya na parang walang tao sa

harapan namin. I shook my head and his lips protruded.
Nangiti ako ng i-angat nya ang baba ko para patakan ako ng halik at natigil
lang ako nang may tumikhim.
"Sa office nalang 'yan, Doc..." Natulak ko si Thorn. Napasulyap ako at nangiti
bigla ng nahihiya nang makita si Ad sa harapan namin.
"Doc..." My cheeks flushed and he chuckled at us.
"Ikaw na magpakalma d'yan sa tinik mo, kanina pa nakasimangot..." Aniya.
Nang sumulyap ako kay Thorn at nakatingin pa rin sya sa akin kaya natawa ako at
inabot ang kamay nya.
I caressed his hand and nodded at Ad.
"Kapag tanders talaga bugnutin, hayaan mo na..." I joked. Napatawa ang mga tao
roon at napangisi Si Ad.
"The hell?" Thorn hissed kaya humagikhik ako at yumakap sa baywang nya.
"Nakahanap ng katapat na talaga..." Tawa ni Ad at nailing.
"Syempre, ako pa!" I chuckled. "Mahirap talaga intindihin ang mga tanders lalo
na kapag asawa mo na kaya--"
Napatili ako ng bigla akong kilitiin ni Thorn kaya napalo ko sya.
"Thornie!" I hissed.
"Excuse us, papatahimikin ko lang 'tong feeling bata..." Aniya kaya napatawa
ako. Napatawa rin ang mga tao roon at napatango.
"Alright, Doc..." Sagot nung isang matanda.
"Well..." Sumulyap sa akin si Thorn at kyeme akong ngumiti nang nanliit ang
mata nya.
Yari ako...
Thorn held my waist softly and lead the way kaya nakagat ko ang labi ko at
kinabahan na.
Damn you, Zidney, yari ka talaga!
"Ingat, Doc! Architect!" The other Doctor said kaya napangiti ako at
napalingon.
 I nodded and smiled.
"Thank you!" I smiled pero nagulat ako nang makitang inabot ni Doc Ad ang kamay
ni Dra. Katrin.
Bumilog ang bibig ko, bigla akong sumulyap kay Thorn at hinila ang labgown nya.
"Baby! Baby!" I called him at napalingon sya sa akin.
"Don't baby me, kanina, kung makatawag kang tanders..." Reklamo nya kaya
napatawa ako at kumapit sa braso nya.
"Joke lang, love you sagad..." I whispered at sumimangot sya sa akin.
"Baka ikaw sagarin ko d'yan..." He said. My eyes widen, nag-init ang pisngi ko
at bigla syang napangisi kaya umiling ako.
"Shut up, Thornie!" I hissed at napasigaw ako nang bigla nya akong buhatin at
sinalampak sa balikat nya kaya pinalo ko ang likod nya.
"Thornie, ang kasu-kasuan mo!" I exclaimed, shouting at napatawa sya at inayos
ako sa balikat nya.
"Mas malakas pa ko sa kalabaw, Mrs. Valderama..." Aniya at humalakhak.
Pagkasakay namin sa elevator at pagkalabas ay mabilis nyang naglakad sa opisina
nya at napasigaw ako roon.
"Yari ka sakin..." He teased and pushed his things away from his table and let
me sat there, lifting my dress up to my waist.
He lowered his head and claimed my lips at nawala na ang pag-iinarte ko dahil
sa huli ay nagpaharot din ako.
"How's the kids?" Thorn asked me as he was seating on his swivel, nakaupo ako
sa hita nya at pinaglalaruan ang buhok nya.

"Good, Clyte said she's preparing her things and her

brother's..." I answered him.
He claimed my waist with his arms and kissed my jaw.
"Anong oras ang flight mamaya?" Aniya sa akin.
"Eight?" Sagot ko at hinaplos ang panga nya. "Kuya Dash will be our pilot
so..."
"Good," He smiled and leaned on his swivel. Sumama ako sa pagsandal nya kaya
napasandig ako sa katawan nya at humalik sa labi nya.
"Thornie, may tanong ako..." I asked him.
"Hmm?" Aniya at hinaplos ang balikat ko. "What is it?"
"I saw Ad holding Dra. Katrin's hand..." I told him at pinagmasdan ang reaksyon
nya.
"Oh..." Tumango sya at wala akong nabakas na gulat sa mukha nya.
"Sila ba?" I asked curiously.
"Hmm, I think so..." Tumango sya. "Walang sinasabi si Ad sakin but, yeah, I'm
seeing them together sometimes..."
Napatango ako roon at hindi makapaniwala.
"Why do you ask?" Tanong nya sa akin.
"Wala lang, I'm just shock--"
"Don't tell me crush mo si Ad?" Sumimangot sya. Bigla akong napatawa, pinalo ko
ang braso nya at umiling.
"What are you saying?" Aliw kong sabi.
"I saw you smiling at him..." Ungot nya. "Mas gwapo naman ako 'dun..."
"May sinabi ba ko?" I chuckled.
"Wala... But, uhm... I'm more handsome, right?" Parang bata nyang sabi at
kumalabog ang dibdib ko nang kumurap-kurap pa sya sa harapan ko.
"Oo naman!" I said and kissed his cheek. "Ikaw ang pinakagwapo sa lahat!"
He blushed, nakita kong napalunok sya roon at hinaplos ko ang pisngi nya ng
marahan.
"No one can beat my King..." Sabi ko. He cleared his throat, napangisi ako nang
mag-iwas sya ng tingin sa hiya kaya niyakap ko sya.
"Thornie, mabilis nanaman ang tibok ng heart mo..." I said and placed my hand
on his chest. "Kinikilig ka?"
 "H-Huh?" Gulat syang napasulyap sa akin. "Hindi kaya..." He denied, I giggled,
umayos ako ng upo sa hita nya at humalik sa pisngi nya ulit.
"Amin-amin din," Asar ko pa kaya napatawa sya at ipinatong ang baba sa balikat
ko.
We remained silent for a while, nakasandal lang ako sa kanya at nanatili syang
nakayakap sa akin. Everything... Just feels comfortable and perfect.
"Reyna ko?" He said out of nowhere.
"Yes?" Paos kong bulong at ipinikit ang mata ko.
"Mahal kita..." Bulong nya. My heart leaped, a soft smile escaped my lips as I
nodded at him.
"I love you too, Doc..." Bulong ko pabalik. "Kahit tanders ka na..." Hirit ko
at biglang ngumisi.
He groaned, nang sulyapan ko sya ay nakasimangot na sya sa akin.
"We're just seven years apart, Zidney..." Reklamo nya at napatawa ako at
pinugpog ng halik ang mukha nya.
"Oo na, joke lang!" Tawa ko.
"Damn you, woman... Gusto mong anakan kita ulit?" Bulong nyang naiinis kaya
pinisil ko ang ilong nya.
"Sus, antayin mo lang, baka nag-uunahan pa sila..." Sagot ko at nakagat nya ang
labi sa tagong ngiti bago nailing sa akin.

Magkahawak-kamay kaming naglakad papasok sa bahay namin at

kaagad na sumilay ang ngiti sa labi ko ng makita ang dalawang anak namin.
"Mommy! Daddy!" Clytemnestra Alyona exclaimed.
"Baby!" I cheered at bumitiw kay Thorn para salubungin sila.
Nang bahagyang nauna si Clyte sa pagtakbo ay napansin ko ang baby kong bunso na
tumatakbo rin palabas na mukhang excited na excited.
Deion Rheus Sandejas Valderama, our son, is running next to his sister and his
black eyes brighten when he saw us.
"Dada! My!" He exclaimed.
Nang masalubong ko si Clyte ay kaagad akong dumukwang at niyakap sya at nang
dumamba sa amin si Eion ay mabilis ko syang niyakap din.
"Kamusta ang mga baby ko?" I asked them and kissed their heads.
"Good! Mommy, maayos na po ang gamit namin ni Eion!" She exclaimed.
"And did you helped your sister, Eion?" I asked my son.
"Yesh!" He nodded cutely at napatawa ako at humalik sa pisngi nya.
"How's my prince and princess?" Thorn said and I saw how they cheered and ran
towards their father.
The kids went to the car first habang inakyat naman namin ni Thorn ang mga
gamit namin sa kwarto.
I changed my clothes to a simple white blouse and pants and tied my hair in a
high ponytail.
Nang makitang nakapagpalit na ng kulay puting dress shirt ang asawa ko at kulay
abong pantalon ay nangiti ako. He was leaning on the bed to fix my bag kaya
naglakad ako palapit sa kanya.
I took a glance at him and placed my hand on his butt kaya natigil sya.
Nilingon nya ako at tumaas ang kilay nya kaya ngumisi ako.
"Cute e..." I said and he chuckled, umayos sya ng tayo at hinayaan ang kamay ko
sa pang-upo nya bago ako marahang hinapit.
"I liked it when you're so clingy," Aniya. His hand softly went on my back and
squeezed my butt kaya napasinghap ako.
"Pa-kiss..." His lips protruded at yumakap ako sa leeg nya bago abutin ang labi
nya.
Pagkarating palang namin sa airport ay kaagad kaming inasikaso ng mga tauhan. I
was walking inside with the two kids holding my hand at ang asawa ko naman ay nasa
may likuran at buhat ang gamit naming apat.
"Zidney-tot!" My smile widen when I saw Kuya Zeijan on his plain white shirt
and blue jeans.
"Kuya!" I smiled.
"Hi, pamangkins!" Aniya doon sa dalawang bata na mabilis na tumakbo para
magmano.
Nang makitang kinakausap sila ng Tito nila ay nilapitan ko si Thorn at kinuha
ang isang maleta sa kanya.
"Ako na, Reyna..." Aniya.
"No, tulungan kita..." I said and he smiled and nodded. Hinawakan nya ang kamay
ko at sabay kaming naglakad sa pamilya kong nag-aantay roon.
I kissed my parents and my brother and sisters, niyakap ko rin ang mga
pamangkin ko.
I saw Kuya Iñigo with Ate Thallia, he's wearing a black longsleeves and Ate
Thallia in a plain tees and leather pants.
Maging si Ate Alyx at Ate Reah pati na rin ang mga bata ay narito at
nagkukulitan.
I saw Thorn talking to my brothers and Dad kaya napangiti ako roon.
"Hi, Ate Reah!" I smiled at her.
"Hi, Zid..." Malambing nyang sabi at yumakap sa akin.
"Where's Kuya Dash?" I asked her.

"Oh, he's in the office..." Aniya sa akin. "Nagpapalit

ata..."
"Oh, ayan na si Captain!" Kuya Zeijan exclaimed and we all shifted our gaze and
saw my brother, Kuya Dash walking towards us.
With his navy blue coat and pants and white dress shirt inside he looks so
cool! I saw the necktie under his coat and the winged badge he have on his chest.
Nakita kong hinawi nya ang buhok nya nang tanggalin nya ang cap na may badge
rin at nakita kong napapasulyap sa banda naming pamilya ang mga tao.
Nang sumulyap ako kay Ate Reah ay nakita kong nakatulala sya kay Kuya Dash kaya
humagikhik ako at tinusok ang tagiliran nya.
"Ayiee, kilig sya..." Asar ko at namula sya roon kaya mas tumawa ako.
Sabay-sabay kaming pumunta roon sa private jet ng pamilya at mas nauna pa ang
mga batang nagsi-akyatan ng eroplano.
We were all here together, my Kuya Iñigo with Ate Thallia. Kuya Dash with Ate
Reah, Kuya Zeijan with Ate Alyx and me with my King.
"Anong gagawin natin pagdating 'dun?" Ani Kuya Dash sa likuran.
"Laro tayo..." Ani Kuya Zeij.
"Gago, ano ka, bata?" Ani Kuya Iñigo kaya natawa kami sa kanya.
"KJ nyo, kaya kayo tumatanda agad e!" He hissed. Napatawa ako, siniko ko si
Thorn at ngumiwi sya sa akin nanlg kumindat ako.
"H'wag daw KJ..." I whispered.
Nang makarating kami sa loob ng private jet ay kaagad kaming naupo. We settled
ourselves in the seat, nasa gilid ang mga bata habang kami ni Thorn ay nasa may
aisle at magkatabi.
"We're going in five..." Ani Kuya Dash na naroon sa gitna, nasa tabi nya si Ate
Reah na inaayos ang badge sa damit nya at nakita kong humalik sya sa noo ni Ate
Reah.
"If you're tired, sandal ka lang sakin..." Bulong ng asawa ko sa tenga ko kaya
tumango ako at humawak sa kamay nya.
He lifted my hand and kissed my fingers and smiled at me.
"Excited ka na ba pumunta sa probinsya namin?" I asked him.
"Of course," Bulong nya. "I love being with your family..."
"Welcome aboard..." A baritone voice filled the speaker at nangisi ako roon.
"Si Kuya 'yan!" I cheered at natawa si Thorn at tumango sa akin.
"Thank you for choosing Sandejas International Airlines and before we depart,
here's our safety instructions..." Ani Kuya Dash sa speaker.
My brow raised when I saw Kuya Zeijan went infront of the aisle and lifted the
sample seatbelt.
"First things first, let's buckle up those seatbelts..." Maarteng sabi nya.
My mouth parted, napahagalpak si Thorn sa tabi ko at narinig ko ang mura ni
Kuya Iñigo.
"First, insert the metal end into the buckle and and pull the strap..." He
motioned the seatbelt at napatawa lalo nang kumindat pa sya doon.
"Mister, lumayas ka dyan!" Ate Alyx screamed kaya natawa ako. Napuno ng tawanan
ang lugar pero ngumisi lang si Kuya Zeijan roon.
"But of course, I have back ups with me..." Ani Kuya bago lumapit. My eyes
widen when he gave the other seatbelt to my husband and went on the back for Kuya
Iñigo.
"Tangina mo, Zeijan!" Kuya cursed.
"The hell?" Thorn shook his head kaya tumawa ako.
"Let's go girls!" Kuya Zeijan laughed and placed his hand on his waist na
parang rarampa lang na bumalik sa harapan kaya napailing ako.

"Go, Thornie!" I exclaimed happily.

"Oh no, baby... I can't--"
"Go, Daddy!" Nakita kong napasulyap si Thorn sa dalawang bata at napatawa ako
nang ngumuso sya.
"Reyna ko..." He pleaded.
"Na-uh, don't say no to the kids..." Tawa ko. He bit his lips, akmang aayaw pa
sya pero nagmartsa si Kuya Iñigo palapit habang hawak ang seatbelt.
"Samahan mo ko, Thorn..." Ani Kuya Iñigo at halos hilahin na si Thorn.
"Ayoko..." Ani Thorn at umiling.
"Tangina, bilis, tara! Hihiwalayan ako ni Thallia!" He exclaimed at napatawa
ako kay Kuya.
"But..."
"Hala, sige, hihiwalayan ka ni Zid!" He hissed at nakita ko kung paano nanlaki
ang mga mata ni Thorn at napalingon sa akin kaya tumango ako.
"He's right, sige, kapag--" Bigla nyang kinalas ang seatbelt at tumayo at
sumama kay Kuya kaya napatawa ako at nakipag-apir sa mga bata.
They both went behind the shameless Kuya Zeijan at napangiwi rito.
"Pabibo nito," Binatukan ni Kuya Iñigo si Kuya Zeijan na tumatawa lang.
Inilabas ko ang camera ko at napahagalpak ako ng tawa ng magsalita nanaman si
Kuya habang nagdedemo 'yung dalawa sa likuran.
They even did the life vest demo at ang pabibo kong kapatid ang tuwang-tuwa sa
pinanggagawa nya.
"Thank you, Zeijan-panget..." Kuya Dash's laughing voice is what I've heard on
the speaker at nakasimangot na bumalik sa tabi ko si Thorn habang halos mamatay ako
sa kakatawa sa kanya.
"That was great, baby!" I cheered at bored na tinignan nya ako bago binasa ang
labi nya.
"You think I deserve a kiss?" His lips protruded at napatawa ako bago hawakan
ang pisngi nya at patakan ng halik ang labi nya.
We reached Sta. Monica after an hour, kalahating oras ang naging byahe namin
patungong mansyon at pagod man ay masaya ang aming naging byahe.
Carrying my son, Deion kissed my cheek and smiled cheekily.
"Why, baby? Tired?" I asked him.
"I'm hungry, My..." He pouted. I chuckled and kissed him, he looks a lot like
his Dad, lalo na ang mga mata nya.
"Okay, may pagkain daw sa loob..." I told him and he nodded excitedly, hugged
my neck and chuckled.
I saw Clyte with his Dad, magka-holding hands ang mag-ama habang papasok at
nang makita ako ni Thorn ay kaagad silang lumapit dalawa sa amin ni Eion.
I was shocked and happy when I saw the long dining table in our kitchen. It was
filled with different foods, sabay-sabay na nagbow sa amin ang mga tao roon at
nangiti ako sa kanilang pagbati at tumango.
We ate and had fun, matapos kumain ay naglaro pa ang mga bata hanggang sa
makatulog sa pagod at kami nama'y napag-isipang magsama-sama muna ang uminom ng
kahit kaunti.
We were near the pool, nakapaikot kami roon at may alak sa gitna. Thorn is
beside me, sa tabi ko naman ay si Ate Reah at Kuya Dash habang nasa harapan ay si
Kuya Iñigo at Ate Thallia at Kuya Zeij at Ate Alyx.
"Ayun, kompleto na!" Ani Kuya Zeijan na natatawa.
"Kumpleto?" I asked.
"Hmm, kasi dati it's either wala akong partner or wala kang partner..."
Halakhak nya. Sumimangot ako, ngumisi naman sya kaya niyakap ko si Thornie at
ngumuso.

"H'wag mo ko idamay sa'yo, forever alone ka lang talaga..."

I mocked.
"Misis o, inaaway ako ni Zidney!" Reklamo nya sa asawa na sinakal nalang ito
kaya natawa ako.
"Sorry ka, ako kinakampihan ni Ate Lyx..." Nguso ko. "Diba, Te?"
"Hmm, h'wag kang papaniwala kay Zeijan... Scam 'to..." Aniya.
We started drinking with Kuya Zeijan's different unbelievable stories,
nakikisabay naman ang Kuya Dash ko sa mga kalokohan nito habang naiiling si Kuya
Iñigo.
"May mga saltik din minsan mga kapatid mo..." Bulong sa akin ni Thorn kaya
natawa ako at tumango.
"Yep, lalo na 'yan..." Nginuso ko si Kuya Zeij.
"Mana ka rin kaya..." Asar nya kaya siniko ko sya at tumawa.
"Grabe ka!" Ngiwi ko.
"But anyway, may papakita ko sa inyong video..." Ani Kuya Iñigo at nagtatakang
napasulyap kami sa kanya.
"Ano 'yan?" I asked curiously.
"It's a video when we're just a kid, you won't fucking believe this..." Aniya
at nagtatakang lumapit ako sa kanya at sinilip ang phone nya.
"Patingin..." I said and my eyes widen when I saw myself in the video, maliit
pa ako roon at nakatungo habang nakatayo sa camera.
"Oh my God! Don't tell me I'm sadako when I was a kid?!" Gulat kong sabi at
napahagalpak si Kuya at pinisil ang pisngi ko.
"No," He chuckled. "Look..."
My forehead creased when I heard a song in the background, maya-maya pa ay
inikot ko ang buhok ko at sumayaw sa camera.
"Oh my God!" I exclaimed.
Maya-maya pa ay lumabas si Kuya Zeijan na maliit pa sa video at sumayaw sa tabi
ko, kasunod ang Kuya Dash at Kuya Iñigo.
My eyes widen when we danced weirdly with the weird song at nang dumating sa
climax ay grabeng hataw namin sa sayaw.
"Sabi ko sa'yo, Zid, dapat sa amin ka nagmana ni Kuya Dash mo, hindi kay
Zeijan..." Ani Kuya Iñigo.
"Sorry, sakin nagmana ang prinsesa, fave kasi ko ni Mommy!" Kuya zeij said
proudly kaya umiling ako sa kanya.
"Atleast ako di muntik ipa-abort..." I murmured and he eyed me sharply kaya
tumawa ako.
Mas sumayaw pa kami at kaming dalawa ni Kuya Zeij ang agaw pansin talaga.
"Oh my God!" Napatakip ako sa mukha ko habang nagtatawanan ang mga kasama namin
roon.
"Galing naman, sayaw ka minsan sa kwarto, hmm..." Maharot na bulong ni Thorn
nang yumakap sya sa likuran ko kaya napatili ako at pinalo sya.
Habang umiinom kami ay nagbigay ng cupcake si Thorn na binili nya kanina. It's
a chocolate cupcake na may icing pa kaya sarap na sarap ako.
 "Hala, bakit ngayon mo lang binigay?" Reklamo ni Kuya Zeij at tumayo sa upuan
nya.
"Busog pa ko pero masarap kaya tatago ko muna sa ref..." Ngisi ni Kuya Zeij at
tumakbo sa kusina kaya sinundan ko sya ng tingin.
I ate the cupcake and saw them eating it too, si Kuya Iñigo naman ay isang
beses lang uminom at kumain lang ng pagkain roon.
"You like more?" Thorn suddenly asked me when he saw me engrossed of what I'm
eating.
"Yep..." Ngumuso ako at natatawang inayos nya ang balat ng cupcake nya at
iniumang sa bibig ko.
Inabot ko ang cupcake nya na ako na ang kakain at nangingiting hinawakan nya
ang baywang ko at isinandal ako sa dibdib nya.

"Ayiee, ikaw na ba ang icing sa ibabaw ng cupcake ko?"

Bulong ko pa at humalik sya sa pisngi ko at mas niyakap ako.
"Pati 'yung palaman sa loob ako," Tawa nya.
Nang bumalik si Kuya Zeij ay tuwang-tuwa pa sya roon at tumabi kay Ate Alyx na
napapailing na sa kanya.
"Have you checked Zion?" She asked.
"Hmm, gwapo pa rin, Misis..." Tawa nya.
"Bakit kaya malakas ang hangin sa ulo nitong Zeijan na 'to?" Ani Kuya Iñigo na
nagtataka roon.
"Kasi nausog 'nung bata pa..." Sagot ni Kuya Dash kaya napahagalpak kami.
"Bakit palagi nalang ako? Inaano ko ba kayo?" Sikmat nya at pabebeng ngumuso
roon kaya napailing ako.
"I even asked him if he wants counseling..." Ani Thorn sa tabi ko kaya
napasulyap kami. "And he just... Pointed a gun at me..." Kwento nya.
"Oh, gago ka! Dapat nagpacounsel ka!" Kuya Dash threw a piece of nut to Kuya.
"Gago, sige, next time, feeling ko nga may ibon sa utak ko..." He said and
blinked.
"But anyway, I have a story to tell..." Ani Ate Alyx kaya napalingon kami sa
kanya.
"The last time we had our mission..." Aniya.
"Ay, oo! Misis, ang galing ko 'nun!" Kuya cheered.
"Pumalpak ba dahil d'yan?" Tawa ni Ate Reah.
"Hoy, grabe ka Reah-tot! Ang galing ko kaya 'nun, sabi ko, bang bang bang!" He
made a gun with his fingers.
"I can bet my Iñigo, he did something crazy..." Ani Ate Thallia kaya natawa
ako.
"Yeah," Pag-agree ni Ate Alyx. "Kasi, ang mission namin sa museum..." Aniya.
Sumandal naman ako kay Thornie at nakinig kay Ate.
"Tapos ayun, nakabasag ng vase..." Kwento nya.
"Oo! Grabe, kinabahan ako 'nun!" Kuya Zeij exclaimed. "Tinanong ko kaagad 'yung
babae 'dun kung magkano 'yung vase kasi kinabahan ako!"
"Anong sabi?" Thornie asked curiously.
"Sabi nya, Naku, 50 years na 'yan, Sir!" Aniya at umawang ang labi ko.
"Then?"
"Tapos nakahinga ako ng maluwang, akala ko bago e!" Tuwang-tuwang nyang sabi at
nakita kong napangiwi si Ate Alyx.
"Tangina..." Thorn cursed.
"Sana pina-abort nalang sya..." Ani Kuya Dash at napangiwi si Kuya Zeij.
"Hoy, buti nga luma na e! Nakakatakot kaya kapag bago--"
"That was a fucking museum, asshole! Alangang may bago?!" Kuya Iñigo hissed and
I saw how Kuya Zeijan's eyes widen in shock.
"Ay, puta..." Napamura sya nang marealize at doon na ako napatawa sa kanya.
"Sabi na e, may kaabnormalan syang ginawa..." Ate shook his head and Thorn was
just chuckling on my ear.
 "Hala, Misis, kaya pala ko nabatukan ng Daddy mo..." Ani Kuya Zeij at sumiksik
sa leeg ni Ate Alyx na halos mamula na kakatawa.
Sa bawat pag-inom namin ay hindi ko maiwasang antukin. Kaunti lang naman ang
ininom ko pero 'yung mga lalaki ay marami-marami na.
Thornie is drinking the liquor I was supposed to drink kaya medyo lumalalim na
ang paghinga nya sa balikat ko.
Kuya Iñigo was already asleep on my Ate's lap. Si Kuya Dash, Kuya Zeij at Thorn
naman ay strong pa rin at sila nalang ang nag-iinuman dahil ayaw na nung mga babae.

"Thornie, may cupcakes ka pa?" Bulong ko.

"Hmm, wala na..." Aniya. "Bakit, gusto mo pa?"
"Oo sana pero..." Ngumuso ako.
"Then, maybe I can go and see if I can find outside--"
"No, h'wag na..." Iling ko pa. "Ako bahala..."
Naguguluhang tumango sa akin si Thorn at doon ako marahang lumapit kay Kuya
Dash at nagtanong.
"Kuya, may tira ka cupcake?" I whispered.
"Oh, wala..." Aniya at sumulyap sa akin. I saw him asked Ate Reah pero umiling
din si Ate.
"Come here, may idea ko..." Ani Kuya kaya lumapit ako.
"Zeijan still has a cupcake, nasa ref, kainin mo pero quiet ka lang..." Bulong
nya at ngumisi ako. I took a glance at Kuya who was busy whispering to his wife and
nodded.
"Okie dokie!" I showed him my thumbs-up and kissed my husband's cheek and
entered the house.
Nang makita ko ang cupcake sa ref namin ay halos magliwanag ang mata ko. Ang
sarap kasi talaga 'nung cupcake na binili namin ni Thornie kaya kulang!
"Yari ka sa Kuya mo..." I almost jumped in shock when someone spoke, nang
lumingon ako ay nakita ko si Thorn kaya nakahinga ako ng maluwang.
"Thornie," Ngiti ko. "Sshh ka lang..."
"Alright," He chuckled and came closer, marahang humalik sya sa labi ko at
gamit ang mapupungay na mata ay sumulyap sya sa akin.
"Love you, Reyna..." He murmured.
"Love you too..." I smiled cheekily and ate the cupcake. "Sige na, ikaw muna
ang spy ko, dun ka sa may pinto para makita mo kung papasok si Kuya..."
Mabilis kong napakiusapan ang asawa ko at habang naroon sya sa may pinto ay
nilantakan ko ang cupcake.
It was really good, I mean really. Pure chocolate talaga sya so, napaka-malasa
nya...
"Baby! Hurry!" Thorn's hissed ay nanlaki ang mata ko at mabilis na inubos ang
cupcake at sinuksok sa bibig ko bago itapon ang balat.
Mabilis kong tinakbo si Thorn at nanlaki ang mata ko nang makitang papalapit na
si Kuya Zeijan.
"Uy, hala, bakit kayo nandito?" Ani Kuya na namumula na rin.
"Uhm, sinamahan ko lang si Zid uminom..." Ani Thornie na pinagtatakpan ako at
nang lumingon si Kuya sa akin ay mabilis akong tumungo para di nya makita ang bibig
ko.
"Asus, kunwari pa kayo, NAG-MOMOL kayo 'no?" Aniya. My eyes widen, napaubo
naman si Thorn at mabilis na humawak sa baywang ko.
"No..." Ani nito pero humalakhak lang si Kuya Zeijan roon.
"Asus, gawain 'yan ng pamilya..." Tawa nya pa. "Swerte n'yo lang di kayo
nahuhuli kasi yari ka, Tinik..."
He placed his finger on his neck and showed Thorn an act slitting his throat
kaya namutla si Thorn at napakurap.
Ngumuya naman ako at halos singhalan ang Kuya sa pananakot kay Thornie
patootie.
"Uy, ano 'yang kinakain mo, Zid?" Ani Kuya Zeijan at mabilis kong nilunok ang
pagkain at umiling.
"Wala!" I hissed. "H'wag mo nga tinatakot si Thornie!"
Nakita kong napatitig sa akin si Kuya, I saw him staring at me at nagulat ako
nang biglang tinakpan ni Thorn ang bibig ko at sinubsob ako sa dibdib nya.
"Uy, di ko tinatakot a... Bati nyan kami ni Tinik e, diba, Tinik?" Ani nito at
kumawala ako kay Thorn pero niyakap nya lang ako pasubsob sa kanyang dibdib.

"Yeah, una na kami Zeij..." Ani Thorn.

"Wait, ito muna... Tanong ka sakin ng kahit ano tapos sasagutin ko ng
Spanish..." Ani Kuya Zeij at halos sabihan ko na si Thorn na h'wag patulan ang
Kuya.
"Uhm, okay?" Napatikhim si Thorn. "Wala ka bang balak magpa-counseling?" He
asked at halos mapahagalpak ako ng tawa roon.
"Tangina nito..." Kuya cursed and Thorn laughed.
"Where's the answer?" He asked.
"Tanong mo ulit..."
"Wala ka bang balak magpa-counseling?" He asked.
"Spanish..." He answered and I rolled my eyes. "Panis..." Humalakhak si Kuya.
"I really suggest you'll come to my clinic..." Ani Thorn na natatawa at narinig
ko ang apir nilang dalawa roon.
"Sige na, lumabas na kayo at maglandian... Kakainin ko lang ang cupcake ko..."
Aniya.
My eyes widen, mabilis na hinawakan ni Thorn ang kamay ko at tumakbo kami
palabas.
"Oh my God, Thornie, 'yung cupcake!"
"Sshh," Aniya. "Mabilis nyang inilabas ang panyo at pinunas sa labi ko kaya
napakurap ako.
"You'll expose yourself if you did that, puno ng chocolate ang labi mo..."
Aniya at napatango.
"So, that's why you hugged me?" I asked.
"Yes," He answered. "Go, akyat ka muna sa itaas, yari tayo kapag nalaman ni
Zeijan..."
"Sinong kumain ng cupcake ko?!" Kuya Zeijan whinned when he went out the
kitchen kaya mabilis akong tumakbo paakyat ng kwarto kasi yari ako.
I fixed my children in bed and rest for awhile at bumaba para i-check sila at
'yun nalang ang gulat ko nang makitang nakasalampak na ang apat doon sa lapag
habang lasing na lasing.
Nakabulagta sa sala si Kuya Iñigo at Kuya Dash at halos magyakapan naman na si
Kuya Zeijan at Thorn doon.
"Kaya dapat di sila nalalasing..." Ani Ate Reah at nang lumapit ako kay Thorn
ay nanlaki ang mata ko ng sampalin ang asawa ko ni Kuya Zeijan.
"G-Gago, bakit mo kinain 'yung cupcake ko?!" He hissed and I bit my lip at
that.
Pahirapan pa ang naging pagpapaakyat ko kay Thorn sa itaas, ang sabi nila Ate
ay napagbintangan daw si Thorn na kumain ng cupcake nya sa ref kaya inaway nya si
Thorn.
And my husband, being a superhero, said he ate it kaya ayun, naglasingan 'yung
dalawa hanggang sa makatulog.
The guards helped me in taking Thorn in our room at nang bumagsak sa kama ang
asawa ko ay pulang-pula na ang mukha.
"Bakit mo sinabing ikaw ang kumain?" My lips protruded.
He groaned, marahan kong kinalas ang butones ng damit nya para punasan sya.
"Yari tayo bukas kay Kuya..." Kausap ko sa kanya at nang maayos ko na sya at
mapasuotan ng damit ay kaagad akonv tumabi sa kanya.
"Baby..." He murmured, bahagyang iminulat nya ang mata at nangiti ako at
hinaplos ang mukha.
"Sleep," I whispered. He groaned and lifted my head and I chuckled when he made
me sleep on his arms.
"Love you..." I whispered and he smiled at me, his eyes shining and sleepy.
"Love you..." His lips protruded and lowered his head on my neck and claimed my
waist for a tight hug.
The next morning, wala na si Thorn sa tabi ko, I checked the children's room
and wala na roon ang mga anak ko so, I assume they were with their father.

I took a bath in our bathroom and wrapped myself with my

robe, naglagay rin ako ng twalya sa buhok ko para matuyo.
I stared at my face for a while and went out of the bathroom at 'yun nalang ang
pagsigaw ko sa gulat nang makitang may nakasilip na mukha ni the grudge doon sa may
pintuan ng kwarto at may kamay.
"Oh my God!" I screamed in horror and jumped up and down.
Sumabog ng bukas ang pinto at nanlaki ang mata ko at mas napatili nang makita
si Thorn na gulantang roon.
"Zidney! Zidney! What..." Tinakbo ko sya at niyakap.
"Thorn! May multo!" I screamed and pointed the bathroom door.
"Huh?!" Gulat nyang sabi at hinawakan ang baywang ko. "Where..." Bahagyang
inilayo nya ako sa kanya at hinawakan ang balikat ko.
"Where baby?" He asked, his forehead creased and when I pointed the door again
ay tumango sya at tumitig sa akin.
"Okay, calm down..." He stared at my eyes and I calmed down. "Titignan natin,
hmm..." Marahang sabi nya.
He held my arm at mahigpit akong humawak sa kanya roon.
We walked closer, nakakapit ako ng mahigpit sa kanya at naiiyak na.
"P-Paglabas ko kanina..." I whispered and I saw how Thorn's forehead creased
when he saw the ghost I am saying.
"Ayan!" I screamed.
"Wait, no..." His jaw clenched and my eyes widen when he pulled the ghost and
my mouth parted when I saw that it was a paper after all!
"It's nothing, baby..." Aniya at nilingon ako.
Nagpuyos ako sa inis.
Someone pranked me!
"Sinong pumasok dito?" I asked Thorn.
"I saw Zeijan went here..." Aniyang nagtataka.
"He pranked me!" I screamed and I saw how Thorn's eyes widen.
"Damn, I think so too..." He murmured at tumalim ang mata ko.
"Yari sakin 'yang--" Nagmartsa ako palabas ng kwarto pero natigil ako ng
biglang hablutin ni Thorn ang baywang ko papasok ng kwarto kaya napasulyap ako sa
kanya.
"What? I will have my revenge--"
"You can't go out our room wearing that..." He murmured.
"But--"
"Bihisan muna kita," Aniya at napakurap ako nang paupuin nya ako sa kama at
punasan ang basa kong buhok.
"Gumanti siguro sakin 'yun nung kinain ko 'yung cupcake!" I hissed at tumango
si Thorn habang inaayos ang bra ko sa likuran.
"I saw him printing something earlier..." He told me.
"That asshole! Susumbong ko kay Kuya!" I hissed.
"I promise hindi ko sinabing ikaw ang kumain," Aniya at humalik sa pisngi ko.
"I know naman but yari talaga sakin 'yang lalaking 'yan!" I groaned.
Nang makababa kami ay naabutan ko ang hunghang kong kapatid na sisipol-sipol
pang naglalakad.
I bet he heard me screaming!
Binitawan ko si Thorn, nakita kong natawa sya sa akin at kumindat kaya ngumisi
ako.
I followed Kuya Zeijan in the kitchen and was about to scare him, I lifted my
arm, readying myself to make him scream in shock but he instantly looked at me kaya
sa halip na sya ang magulat ay ako ang nagulat.
"Huli ka!"
"Oh my God!" I screamed in shock. Napahawak ako sa dibdib ko at napahagalpak ng
tawa si Kuya at pumalakpak pa.
"I hate you!" Sigaw ko.
"Akala mo, huh..." Humalakhak sya. I kicked him, nakaiwas naman sya at ngumisi
pang tuwang-tuwa.
"Pano mo nalamang nasa likod ako?!" I whinned and stomped my feet.
"Malakas kasi guardian angel ko sa likod..." He smiled sheepishly at mabilis
akong tumingkayad at hinila ang buhok nya at napasigaw sya nang sabunutan ko sya.
"Misis, tulong! Inaaway ako!" He screamed.
I entered our room and saw my husband with the kids, nakahiga ang dalawa sa
kama habang hinahaplos nya ang buhok ni Clyte at kalong si Deion.
"So, what happened to the Queen trapped in the tower?" Clyte asked her father.
"The Queen then did her best to escape the witch..." Ani Thorn.
"How?" Deion asked.
"She fought hard to escape the witch, baby..." Aniya sa anak. "She fought her
bad dreams and slayed the monsters in her head..."
"Then, a dragon came..." Ani Thorn.
"Wala po syang King?" Ani Clyte sa kanya.
"Of course she has a King..." Ani Thorn sa kanya.
"Hindi po ba sya tinulungan?" Ani Clyte.
"Of course, he helped the Queen..." I said kaya sabay-sabay silang napatingin
sa akin.
I smiled, kaagad akong naupo sa tabi ni Thorn at napangiti sya at humalik sa
pisngi ko.
"Mommy!" Deion exclaimed and I kissed his cheek, umupo naman si Clyte at
yumakap sa leeg ko kaya kinalong ko sya.
"The King helped the trapped Queen escape the tower..." I said and I saw how
Thorn stared intently at me, with his black, deep midnight eyes and hiding his
smile.
"How?" My baby boy stared at me with his black eyes, resembling his father.
"He gave her strength..." I said and stared at Thorn.
"Strength po, My?" I nodded and caressed Clyte's hair.
"The Queen slayed the dragon herself, my Princess..." Ani Thorn at inabot ang
baywang ko.
"Oh? Then, how did the King helped her, Dad?" My princess asked.
"He ate the dragon?" Deion asked innocently and I chuckled and shook my head.
"No, my prince..." I told him.
"Hmm?" He blinked at nang sumulyap ako sa kanila ng hari ko ay napatawa ako at
ngumiti.
"He gave her Queen a sword to slay the dragon..." I said softly and I saw how
Thorn's eyes soften, and he leaned in and kissed my head.
I closed my eyes, niyakap ko ang baywang nya at napahagikhik ang Clyte namin at
mabilis na yumakap rin sa amin.
"Sama!" Deion exclaimed and I chuckled and hugged my family back tightly.
Thorn smiled kissing his children before Iooking at me with his tender eyes. I
saw how happiness reflected on his eyes as he murmured.
"I love you, thank you..." Bulong nya sa hangin.
I bit my lip, stopping my tears from falling and nodded at him.
"Thank you, my King... For helping me slay the dragons..." I murmured and saw
him nodding at me and realized how much this man helped a lot since day one...
This is him, the same man who I loved since the first time I saw him. My
saviour, my king...
"Hug natin si Mommy!" He cheered at dinamba ako ng mga anak ko at ng asawa ko
ang mahigpit akong niyakap.
"We love you, our Queen!" They cheered and I closed my eyes, feeling all the
love they have given me and realized that all the pain that I have been through, is
all worth it...
They said, problems is not about the matter of load, it's just the way on how
you'll carry it with a smile and being not afraid to fight.
xxx
Goodbye, Sandejas fam! See you again soon, Archers!♥

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TAR Special Chapter 2

Hi! Because Zidney and Thorn won "The Contemporaries" on

Watty's 2018, here's my surprise and a simple gift for you! Thank you!
xxx
Thorns and Roses Special Chapter 2
"Okay, kids, behave, okay? Dad's still at work, yari tayong tatlo kapag magulo
dito..." I told my children and caressed their hair.
"Yes, Mommy!" Ani Deion kaya ngumiti ako. "Alright, baby, Ate Clyte, how about
you?"
"I'm good, My! I promised Daddy I'll behave kasi daw kapag makulit kami ni
Eion, mapapagod ka. Daddy said we should take care of you kasi daw po ikaw po ang
Queen namin!" Aniya sa masayang tono.
A smile engraved my lips, pinagmasdan ko ang mga anak ko at pinisil ang pisngi
nila.
"And Dad is our King, isn't he?" I asked.
"Yes!' They cheered.
"Tapos ang dalawang baby ko ang princess at prince namin?" Nang tumango silang
masaya sa akin ay matamis na akong napangiti at humalik sa ulo nila.
"Mommy, Eion and I will play outside po, huh?" Ani Clyte habang inaayos ko ang
pigtails nya.
"Sure, Clyte but don't run, magkakasugat kayo..." Sabi ko. She nodded, nang
sumulyap naman ako kay Eion ay seryoso lang itong nanunuod ng TV at inaayos ang
salamin nya.
Nagmana talaga sa tatay, even his eyes are not that good na paniguradong namana
nya sa asawa ko. At young age, he already has a poor eyesight pero kung sa mukha
naman ay parang pinagbiyak na bunga sya ng Daddy nya.
I smiled at him when he saw me. He smiled too, like how my husband smiles
softly which he obviously got from his father.
Good boy na good boy ang itsura ng Eion ko, si Clyte naman ay may pagkamaldita
na pakiramdam ko ay nagaya nya sa ugali ko.
Hinayaan ko silang maglaro sa bakuran ng bahay habang nag-aayos ako ng mga
gamit namin sa sala. The maids are off today, and I had my day-off to be with the
kids.
Ayaw nga rin pumasok ni Thorn but as a doctor, he has responsibilities kaya
pumasok rin sya pero nangakong uuwi ng maaga.
I stopped when I heard the phone ringing, lumapit ako roon at inabot ang
telepono bago nagsalita.
"Hello, Valderama's residence..." I said softly.
"Reyna ko..." I stopped and a smile left my lips when I heard his husky voice.
"Thornie ko!" I cheered.
He laughed, I am imagining him leaning on his swivel as he talk to me.
"How's my Queen?" Aniya sa malambing na tono.
"Great!" I answered. "Katatapos lang maligo ng mga bata tapos nasa labas sila
ngayon."
"Hmm," He hummed. "How about you? Anong ginagawa ng reyna ko?" Aniya.
I giggled, naupo ako sa may kitchen counter at nagsalita.
"Hmm, I cleaned the living room?" I said. "Then, I cooked food for breakfast,
anyway, have you eaten yet? You didn't eat anything earlier..."
 "Meron," Aniya.
My forehead creased, hinawi ko ang buhok ko sa pagtataka. As much as I
remember, hindi ako nakapagluto kanina nung pumasok sya.
"Huh? What? Cereals? Hindi ako nakapagluto--"
"Ikaw," Aniya sa malisyosong tinig. My mouth parted and gasped.
"Thorn!" I groaned, my cheeks heating.
Humagalpak sya ng tawa roon sa kabilang linya at napanguso naman ako.

"Kidding, My Queen..." Tumawa sya roon. "But I ate you

earlier so, medyo busog pa naman--"
"Thornie, sinasabi ko sa'yo!" Mas natawa sya. I shook my head in disbelief and
hissed.
"Kidding, baby..." Aniya. "Kumain na ako ngayon lang, ikaw?"
"Hmm, I ate with the kids." Ngiti ko. "How's work?"
"Hmm, good but missing you..." My heart thumped. Napalabi ako at nagpigil ng
ngiti sa kilig sa sinabi nya.
"Ayiee, kinikilig ka?" Aniya. Nanlaki ang mata ko.
What? Paano nya--
"Don't even think I'm a mind reader, Queen..." Tawa nya.
"Wala naman akong sinasabi!" I said. "Tsaka paano mo nalaman? Nandyan ka sa
ospital tapos nasa bahay ako!"
"I memorized everything about you, Zid..." He chuckled. Napanguso ako, parang
nagmahaba ang buhok ko hanggang edsa kaya humagikhik pa ako at hinawi ang buhok ko.
"Talaga? Ganun mo ako ka-love?" Nag-baby talk ako.
Narinig ko ang malamyos nyang tawa sa boses ko at humugot ng hininga.
"Of course, sobra, Scira..." Aniya. I bit my lip, pigil akong tumili na parang
napansin ng crush at kulang nalang ay sumayaw ako sa kusina habang may hawak na
sandok.
Hindi muna ako nagsalita, narinig ko ang pagtunog ng tasa nya roon at parang
uminom ng kape kaya sumagot ako.
"Uhm, I love you too..." I answered.
My eyes widen nang marinig kong may bumuga. Napaayos ako bigla, napaubo roon si
Thorn sa kabilang linya na parang nabilaukan.
"Thornie! Are you fine?" I panicked.
He just coughed.
"Thornie!"
"Y-Yeah," Napaubo pa sya at nagsalita ako.
"Thorn, should I go and check? May tubig ka ba d'yan or anything--"
"I'm alright, Reyna ko..." Napaubo pa sya at nag-alala na ako.
"Thorn?"
"I'm alright, baby, don't worry..." Aniya na kumalma na. "I was just shock of
your I love you..."
"Hmm? Why?" I asked.
"My heart is weak of your I love yous, Reyna ko..." Aniya.
My smile widen, nahihiyang tumikhim sya at mas nangiti ako.
"Love you, Thornie ko..." I repeated.
He gasped, maya-maya'y tumikhim sya at sumagot.
"I can't wait to eat you later, my Queen..." Ayun ang nagpatigil sa akin. Ako
naman ang napaubo at napatawa sya roon.
"Thorn! You're so meheret telege!" I exclaimed.
"Uh-huh, I can't wait to get home, Zid..." Aniya. "Just wait for thirty
minutes, nasa bahay na ako at ikukulong na kita sa kwarto..."
I gasped again. Mas mukhang naaliw sya sa akin roon kaya sumagot.
"And get ready to strip, Doc, your patient might be hot as hell later..." I
answered seductively, that stop him.
Parang dinaanan sya ng hangin roon sa kabilang linya dahil lumalim ang kanyang
paghinga at bago pa man sya makapagsalita ay ibinaba ko ang telepono na tumatawa.
 Akala mo, huh...
Malaki ang ngiti ko habang naglilinis, nang matapos ay naabutan ko ang dalawang
bata na naglalaro roon sa bakuran namin.

Clyte, being a big sister assists her brother in

everything. Nakita kong may luto-lutuan pa sila roon at ngayon naman ay tinuturuan
nya magbasa ang kapatid.
Nakarinig ako ng busina, maya-maya'y nagbukas ang gate at napangiti ako nang
makita ang pulang sasakyan ng asawa ko.
Sumulyap ako sa orasan at napailing, twenty-minutes, huh?
"Daddy!" The kids cheered when they saw his car, hindi pa maayos na nakakapasok
ang sasakyan ay nagsitakbuhan na ang mga bata.
"Careful, kids! Let Dad enter first!" I said.
Hindi nagpapigil ang dalawa na mukhang sabik na sabik sa Daddy nila.
"Daddy Thorn!" Sigaw pa nila. Natawa ako, naglakad ako patungo sa laruan nila
para mag-ayos pero mapasinghap ako nang may parang humarang sa paa ko.
"Shit!" I cursed when I step or what on something, I gasped when I fell on the
ground on my knees.
"Fuck..." I cursed silently and sat properly, kaagad kong naramdaman ang
pananakit ng tuhod ko at halos mapapikit dahil sa dugo na namuo sa sugat ko.
"Zidney!" Kaagad akong nag-angat ng tingin at nakitang lumabas ang asawa ko sa
kotse na hindi pa nakaayos ang pagpapark at mabilis na tumakbo palapit.
"Thorn..." Tawag ko.
"Ayos ka lang?" Mabilis syang lumuhod sa harapan ko at hinawakan ang braso ko.
"Hmm," I nodded pero nangiwi nang bahagyang galawin nya ang paa ko at nanakit.
"Damn, come here..." Aniya at mabilis na tumayo at sinakop ang binti ko para
buhatin.
I wrapped my arms on his nape, inayos nya ang pagkakabuhat sa akin at sumandal
ako sa dibdib nya para pasimpleng umamoy.
Gosh, he smells good! Halos mag-agaw ang amoy ng pabango at nang kanyang
natural na amoy!
I watched him as he held me, his strong arms assuring me that he won't let go.
His face remained serious, his beard is visible on his jaw.
Marahang iniupo nya ako sa bench na naroon, napangiwi ako nang bahagyang
magalaw ang tuhod ko at mabilis syang lumuhod sa harapan ko at sinilip ang sugat
ko.
"How is it? Does it hurt, Zid?" Saglit syang sumulyap, ang kanyang itim na mata
ay kumislap.
"Hmm," I nodded.
He sighed, marahang hinawakan nya ang pisngi ko at napapikit ako nang mariin
nyang hagkan ang noo ko bago bahagyang lumayo.
"Stay here, my Queen. I'll go get the emergency kit..." Aniya at nangiti ako
habang pinagmamasdan syang tumatakbo papasok ng bahay.
"Mommy! Mommy!" My shift shifted to my children and caught them running.
"Careful, babies!" I exclaimed.
Nang mapunta naman sila sa tabi ko ay kaagad na yumakap sa akin si Clyte kaya
ngumiti ako at bahagya syang niyakap.
"Sorry, Mommy..." Magkapanabay na sabk ng dalawang anak ko.
"Hmm, why?" I asked them. "It's not your fault, Mommy accidently stepped on
something, that's why..."
"It's our fault, My... Sowi..." Eion said sadly.
"Oh, why?" Inabot ko ang anak ko at kagaya ng ate nya ay nakiyakap din sa akin
ang lalaki ko.
"Kasi Mommy, Eion and I are playinh and we wanted to trick yaya so she will
fall pero ikaw po pala..." Ani Clyte.
"What?" My eyes widen. "What have you done, Clyte, Eion?"
"W-We put a string para po mapatid..." Ani Clyte at maya-maya'y umiyak nya. "S-
Sorry, My, we were just playing around..."

"S-Sowi, My, h'wag ka po mad..." Eion also cried, his

blazing black eyes shining. Nagsumiksik sila ng yakap sa akin habang humihingi ng
tawad at umiiyak.
My heart soften, what they did is not good but admitting it is good.
"What happened?" Sabay-sabay kaming napatingin kay Thorn na may hawak na
emergency kit at mas nag-iyakan ang mga bata.
"D-Daddy, sorry!" My husband's forehead creased. Binitawan nya ang kit at
bahagyang lumuhod kaya nagsitakbuhan sa kanya yung dalawa at umiyak.
"W-We hurt Mommy, Dy!" Iyak ni Eion.
"Huh? Why?" Ani Thorn at bahagyang lumayo para marahang silipin ang mga anak.
"K-Kasi po, we...we want to prank yaya so we put a string on the way but... But
Mommy stepped on it..." Ani Clyte.
"And she fell?" Ani ni Thorn.
They both nodded, guilty and I just sighed at that.
Napasulyap sa akin si Thorn, I saw him mentally asked me what to do so I nodded
at him, he smiled. Nakita kong muling pagsulyap nya sa mga anak at nagsalita.
"We're not mad, did you apologized to your mother?" Ani Thorn habang
nakadukwang roon at kinakausap nang marahan ang dalawa.
"Yes po..." They both answered.
"Alright, Daddy's not mad, just don't do it again  kahit hindi sa amin ng reyna
natin, okay? What if someone got hurt of that?"
"Sorry po..." They both said.
"That's fine," He smiled at his children and kissed their heads. "Gamutin natin
ang sugat ng reyna..."
Bumaling sya sakin. I smiled, naupo naman si Clyte sa tabi ko kasama si Eion at
si Thorn ay bahagyang iniangat ang paa ko papatong sa hita nya.
"Did you scratched your knees on stones, Queen?" Aniya.
"I think so?" Sagot ko. "Yes, I think, I felt something sharp..."
Tumango sya at inabot ko ang kit, I saw him checking it before looking at his
son.
"Eion," He called him. Eion looked at him and I definitely saw their
resemblance.
Parehas na may tsokolateng buhok at itim na mata, ang tingin nila ay parehong
malalim at malambing.
"Po?" He's too attentive.
"Can you get Dad's glasses on my car?" Aniya. "I have to check Mommy's wound so
it won't get infected..."
"Yes po!" He cheered. Nang tumayo si Eion sa bench ay dali-dali ring sumama sa
kanya si Clyte at tumakbo palapit sa sasakyan ng tatay nila.
I saw Thorn getting a piece of cotton to clean the blood at seryosong hinawakan
ang paa ko para malinisan.
I brushed his hair, nag-angat naman sya ng tingin sa akin at ngumiti.
"Hey, baby, this won't hurt much, okay?" Aniya.
"Okay..." I nodded. Slowly caressing his hair and watching him. "Thornie
sobrang napaaga naman ata ang thirty minutes mo?"
"I just missed you," He glanced at me and smiled. "The moment you left me
hanging on the line, umalis ako kaagad para ikulong ka na sana..."
"Oh, sabik na sabik?" I chuckled. Ngumuso sya at tumaas ang kilay sa akin.
"Hmm, no..." He denied.
"Asus, I know your tone, Thornie ko..." Tawa ko.
"Bakit ka kasi nadapa? Ayan, napakalampa..." Tumawa sya. I slap his arm, mas
natawa naman sya at nailing sa akin.
 "Ah-huh?" I hissed. "Makaasta ka, gusto mo lang maka-score
kaagad..."
"Hmm, yeah..." Tumango sya. I felt his hand on my thigh, going up of my skirt
kaya pinalo ko ang kamay nya.
"Thornie nga!" I hissed.
He chuckled, nang matapos tanggalin ang dugo sa may tuhod ko ay nakita kong
tumatakbo na ang dalawang bata pabalik.
"Daddy! Daddy! Here!" Umayos akong upo at nangiti sa dalawa. I saw Eion holding
his father's glasses and Clyte is holding flowers.
I saw how Thorn's eyes brighten, naaaliw na pinagmasdan nya ang dalawa at
kaagad na inilahad ni Eion sa kanya ang salamin.
"Suot mo sa'kin, 'nak..." Ani Thorn na kaagad na sinunod ni Eion.
Thorn closed his eyes when his twin, his son let him wear his glasses at nang
sumulyap sa akin si Thorn ay halos pumilantik nanaman ang puso ko.
Wala kang kapaguran, heart, ano? You're good at making fast beats kahit ilang
taon ka nang kasama ang asawa mo?
He caught me looking like a teenage girl flushing. He gave me a boyish grin, he
cocked his head for a smirk and I pouted.
"Don't be so overwhelmed, Thornie..."
"I didn't say anything," He chuckled and stared at his daughter.
"Clyte, princess, can you give our Queen the flowers?" Aniya at nakangiting
lumapit si Clyte sa akin at ngumiti.
"Mommy Reyna, flowers po!" She cheered at nakangiting iniabot ko ang bulaklak
at kumuha ng isa bago iniabot sa prinsesa ko.
"For me po?" Aniya.
"Yes, baby..." I answered.
"Yehey!" She cheered and smelled the flower.
"Eion, Daddy bought you books and barbies for Clyte, nasa loob ng sala..." Ani
Thorn at ayun nalang ang pagliwanag ng mata ni Eion bago nag-unahan sila ng takbo
ni Clyte sa loob ng bahay.
Nang maiwan kaming dalawa ay pinagpatuloy nya ang paglinis sa sugat ko at
habang pimagmamasdan sya ay hindi ko maiwasang may maalala.
If I am imagining this right, ang alam ko ay noong nalaglag ako sa bisikleta ay
may tumulong rin sa akin. He was like my husband, I saw how Thorn focused on my
wounds, trying to calm me down when I'm about to panic.
"Thornie..." Nag-angat sya ng tingin at nakita kong nilalagyan nya ng betadine
ang paa ko.
"Hmm?" He asked.
"Uhm, you look familiar." Ngumuso ako. I saw his lip lifted, his eyes smiled
too and spoke.
"Who?" He asked.
"Uhm, that man who helped me years ago..." I said. "Yung first love ko..."
"Uh-huh..." He chuckled. "What if...I tell you we're the same?"
I stopped at that. Nakagat ko ang labi ko at nag-isip, nakita ko naman ang pag-
ngiti nya at pinagmasdan ko sya habang nilalagyan ng manipis na bandage ang sugat
ko.
"Really?" I whispered. "Pero parang hindi, I mean, kasi diba, hindi ka naman
dito nakatira dati tapos..."
Umangat ang sulok ng labi nya at itinago ang gamit, itinabi nya ang kit at
naupo sa tabi ko. Kaagad akong yumakap sa baywang nya, umakbay naman sya sa akin
bago halikan ang sentido ko at bahagyang sumandal sa bench.
"I told you I'm your first love..." Bulong nya.
"Hindi nga," I insisted, sumubsob ako sa dibdib nya bago sya amuyin at humalik
sya sa buhok kong muli at natatawang nagsalita.

"I remembered walking on your village, Reyna..." Aniya.

"Then, I heard a crying lady who fell on her bike, di naman kasi marunong pero
pinilit..."
Hinampas ko ang dibdib nya, mas natawa naman sya at sumulyap.
"Tapos ginamot ko 'yung tuhod nya at kinarga sya papunta sa mansyon nila."
Ngumuso ako, naramdaman ko ang malakas na pagkabog ng puso ko at naisip na baka
sya nga iyon.
"Baka gumagawa ka lang naman..."
"Why would I?" Tumawa sya. "Binigyan pa nga kita ng rosas galing sa may harapan
ng mansyon nyo tapos sinabi mo saking gusto mo kong maging prinsipe..."
Oh my god!
Mas lumakas ang kabog ng puso ko, humigpit ang yakap ko sa kanya at mas nagtago
sa dibdib nya.
"Isa pa, kapag naman nagsinungaling lang ako para ako ang first love mo, bakit
ko pa gagawin diba? Sa akin ka naman na kaya wala kang kawala..."
I bit my lip and sighed, mabilis akong nag-angat ng tingin sa kanya at marahang
inabot ang labi nya. He closed his eyes, tumungo sya para hagkan rin ako at humawak
sa batok ko.
I bit his lip, I saw him opened his eyes and glance at me darkly with a glint
of amusement of his eyes.
"I missed you, baby..." Aniya at umayos ng upo. "Kaya maaga akong umuwi kasi
gusto kitang makita."
"Talaga?" I chuckled. Tumango sya, marahang tinanggal ko ang salamin nya at
inilagay sa mata ko at nailing sya sa akin at hinagilap muli ang salamin nya.
"No, lalabo ang mata mo..." Aniya at humalik sa tungki ng ilong ko. I pouted,
humuli naman sya ng halik bago itinapat sa akin ang ilong nya para magkalapit kami.
I touched his nose with mine, humaplos sya sa pisngi ko at paulit-ulit na
humalik sa pisngi ko na parang nangigigil at yumakap sa baywang ko.
"Quits na tayo? We're each other's first love, Zid."
"Love you," I said in a small voice.
"I love you too..." Bulong nya pabalik bago ako buhatin paalis sa bench.
Yumakap ako sa leeg nya, sa pagpasok namin sa bahay ay naglalaro ang mga bata sa
sala at marahang ibinaba ako ng asawa ko sa sofa para halikan ang dalawa.
He went inside the kitchen to cook for us at habang nag-aantay ay sinubukan
kong tumayo para makatulong sa kanya.
I saw him with his back exposed cooking on the kitchen, bahagya akong lumapit at
yumakap sa likod nya at gulat syang napatingin sa akin roon.
"Zid?"
"What are you cooking?" I asked.
"How's your knees? Ayos lang ba? Masakit?" He asked. I nodded, mas humigpit ang
yakap ko sa kanya.
"But it's good, nakakalakad naman ako..." Bulong ko.
He sighed, marahan syang humawak sa braso ko at inalalayan akong paupo.
"Sit here, baby, ako na ang magluluto. Wait for me there, hmm?"
"Pero pagod ka pa..." I said. "You just came from work."
"I'm good, Queen. Kiss mo nalang ako." He pouted his lips at nangingiting
inabot ko ang labi nya para patakan sya ng halik.
"There, better..." He said and kissed my head before going back to his work.
I remained looking at him as he was cooking, minsan napapaisip ako kung anong
mas masarap, 'yung ulam o sya?
"Tanders ko..." I murmured.

Bigla nya akong sinamaan ng tingin. I laughed and flashed a

grin.
"Baka gusto mong hubaran kita dito, Zidney Agnieszka?" Sikmat nya.
I smirked, tinaasan ko sya ng kilay at pinagkrus ang hita ko. His eyes darken,
licking his lip and shaking his head.
"You're such a tease," He said laguidly.
"Am I?" I said softly, bahagya syang lumapit sa akin. He caressed my cheek and
I just stared at me him innocently with a hidden motive.
"Makikita tayo ng mga bata, reyna ko..." He said.
"Hindi 'yan..." I said and encircled my arm on his neck and pulled him closer.
I pulled him closer, kissing his jaw. Humawak sya sa hita ko at lumalim ang
paghinga.
"Good morning, mga pamangs!" Nanlaki ang mata ko nang marinig ang boses ng
kapatid ko.
"Tito!"
I stopped, I felt Thorn kissing my cheek and my jaw kaya natulak ko sya ng
bahagya. Namungay ang mata nya, I saw Thorn closing his eyes snd sighed.
"There he is again..." He groaned like a sad beast.
I chuckled. Hinigit ko sya para yakapin ang kanyang baywang at nag-angat ng
tingin sa kanya.
"Love you, Thornie..."
"Oh, hi! Anong makakain natin d'yan?" I rolled my eyes when I heard Kuya
Zeijan's voice.
"Ano nanamang ginagawa mo dito?" I groaned. Sumubsob ako sa dibdib ng asawa ko
at narinig ko ang tawa ni Thorn at hinaplos ang buhok ko.
"Makikikain..." He answered me.
"Wala ka bang pagkain sa bahay n'yo?" I said. "Siguro naasar nanaman sa'yo si
Ate ano?"
"Paano mo naman nasabi?" Aniya. Ngumuso ako, lumayo ako kay Thorn at sinamaan
sya ng tingin.
"Wala namang bago dun," Sikmat ko.
He grinned and shook his head.
"Love ako ng Misis ko," Aniya.
"So? Love din ako ng Thornie ko!" I hissed. Tumawa sya roon, kinurot naman ni
Thorn ang pisngi ko kaya mas humaba ang nguso ko habang pinagmamasdan syang
lumalapit sa Kuya Zeij para makipag-fist bump.
I scratched my head, maya-maya pa'y narinig ko ang iba pang boses roon sa labas
at nagliwanag ang mukha ko nang makita ang dalawa kong mga kapatid.
"Kuya!" I jumped from the stool but groaned when my knees hurt. Napaupo muli
ako sa stool roon at mabilis na lumapit si Thorn sa akin at bahagyang lumuhod para
tignan ang sugat ko.
"What happened?" Kuya Iñigo asked, lumapit sya at humalik sa ulo ko at sumunod
naman si Kuya Dash bago nila tignan ang ginagawa ni Thorn.
"What happened to the princess' knees?" Kuya asked.
"She scratched her knees, nadapa kanina sa garden." Aniya. Napalabi ako roon,
pumunta naman sa tabi ko si Kuya Zeij at pi-nat ang ulo ko.
"Masakit prinsesa?" Aniya. I nodded slowly, nakita kong napangiwi si Kuya Dash
at nagsalita.
"You think we can bring her to the hospital?" Aniya.
"No!" My eyes widen. "Masakit but it's tolerable, don't worry!" I said.
Lahat sila ay mukhang nag-aalala, natawa naman ako at umiling. Marahan kong
hinila si Thorn na nakaluhod doon sa may harapan ko at nagsalita.
"It's alright,"

"Are you sure, queen?" Thorn asked. I nodded and smiled,

sabay-sabay namang bumuntong-hininga ang apat kaya napangiti ako.
"Alright, aayusin ko lang ang niluto ko..." Aniya at tumuloy na roon.
Napabaling naman ako sa mga kapatid ko at nagtanong.
"What are you doing here? I mean, where's my sisters and pamangkins?" I asked.
"Ayun, lumayas ng sama-sama, iniwan kami..." Nguso ni Kuya Iñigo. Napatawa ako,
nagsitanguan naman ang tatlo at napakamot ng kilay.
"Ikaw ba, Zid? Hindi ka sumama sa mga Ate mo?" Ani Kuya Zeij.
"No, niyaya nila ako kaso hindi ako pumayag. Maaga kasi uuwi si Thornie ko e at
magba-bonding kami kaso dumating kayo..." Sinamaan ko sila ng tingin.
 They all laughed, nang sumulyap ako kay Thorn ay nagpipigil sya ng tawa roon
habang nakasandal sa counter at nakahalukipkip.
Inirapan ko sya nang kumindat sya sa akin.
Asus, kainis! Napaka-yummy! Sarap kainin!
"Anyway, anong ulam nyo, Zidney-tot?" Ani Kuya Zeij na suminghot roon.
"Bicol's express, bakit?" I answered. Bumilog ang bibig nila at napatango.
"OMG, ang yaman nyo!" Kuya Zeij's mouth formed an O and gasped.
"Huh? Bakit? Naghihirap na ba kayo?" I said.
"Paano mo nasabi?" Ani Kuya Zeij sa akin. I smacked his arm, nagsitawanan naman
sila roon.
"Zeijan, kaunti nalang at magiging kamukha mo na 'yang ginagaya mo!" Kuya Iñigo
said.
"Dapat ipa-drug test mo nalang ako para masigurado mo!" Ani Kuya. Napahagalpak
ako, binatukan naman sya ni Kuya Iñigo at napatawa si Kuya Zeij at ginulo ang buhok
nya.
"Joke lang..." Ani Kuya at lumapit sa asawa ko para tumulong sa paghahanda ng
pagkain.
I stayed seated, nang maayos nila ang hapag ay tinawag na ang mga bata para
kumain. Beside me is Thorn, sa gilid ko naman ang mga bata at nasa kabila ang mga
Kuya ko.
Akmang tatayo sana ako para kumuha ng pagkain pero hinawakan ni Thorn ang braso
ko at pinaupo akong muli.
I watched him fixed my food and for the kids. Kagat ko ang labi habang
pinagmamasdan sya.
Wearing only a simple white shirt, hugging his toned body and khaki pants, he
looks edible more likely than the food.
Nakita ko ring pinagmamasdan siya ng mga kapatid ko at maya-maya'y
nagbubulungan na roon sa gilid.
"Thank you," I said. Tumango naman sya at pinisil ang kamay ko bago lagyan ng
juice ang baso ko.
"Inaalipin mo pala 'to dito, Zid..." Ani Kuya Dash kaya ngumiwi ako.
"Hoy! Di huh! Love ko 'to si Thornie ko kaya nagseserve sya sa akin! Palibhasa
di ka love ni Ate Reah!" I hissed.
"Of course not, Kaia loves me so, so much..." Asar pa ni Kuya sa akin.
"Love mo mukha mo!" I hissed.
"Mama mo..." Aniya.
"Mama mo rin!" Sikmat ko.
"Mama mo--"
"Shut up, you two! Parehas kayong mana d'yan kay Zeijan, iisa lang Mama natin,
manahimik kayo. Sumbong ko kayo kay Dad." Sabay-sabay kaming natahimik.
"Luh, inaano ko kayo? Behave na nga ako dito..." Kuya Zeijan said stubbornly.
"Liar..." Halos magchorus na kami sa pagsasabi.

"Totoo nga! Ako nga ang role model sa pamilya natin, gwapo
na, mabait tapos behave tapos--"
"Masama magsinungaling, Zeij..." Ani Thornie ko.
"To lie is not a sin!" Ani Kuya Zeij na parang nagka-bombilya sa utak.
"Because to lie is a bridge and a sin is a salt..." He laughed hysterically.
"Putangina?" Kuya Dash and Kuya Iñigo whispered.
Kinuha ko ang baso ko, akmang tatayo na ako para hagisan sya ng tubig pero
mabilis akong nahaklit ng tumatawang si Thorn at ibinaon ako sa katawan nya.
"Pagpasensyahan nyo na at mukhang nakaligtaan ang gamot..." Ani Thorn at
sumambakol lang ang mukha ni Kuya.
I had fun with my brothers, matapos naming kumain ay nanuod kami ng movie
kasama ang mga anak ko at ang asawa ko. We talked about our lives, on how
everything is doing great. I really missed them, kahit palagi ko naman silang
nakikita dahil sa pagbisita nila sa akin kadalasan ay hindi pa rin maiwasang
hanapin ko ang presensya nila.
Also, mukhang nag-enjoy ang mga magulang ko sa kakagala sa iba't-ibang bansa.
Uuwi lang sila ng isang linggo at tapos ay mababalitaan namin na nag-to-tour
nanaman ang dalawa sa kung saan nila gusto.
Tumanda atang paurong ang Mommy at Daddy ko, kung kailang nagka-edad atsaka
naging feeling Dora.
And me? Well, I have the happiest days with my family. I have a good and happy
life with my husband with our two kids.
Sa bilis ng panahon ay hindi ko na napansing napakatagal na pala naming mag-
asawa, pero hindi nawala roon ang lambingan at suyuan.
Those years we're together is the happiest day of my life, hindi man maiwasan
ang minsang tampuhan pero kaagad na nasusolusyunan ng maayos na usapan.
Ibinalot ko ang katawan ko sa robe at lumabas ng banyo, I saw my husband on the
bed with a laptop on his lap, wearing his glasses and sipping on his coffee.
Ang workaholic ng lolo Thornie ko! Sa bagay, he's the director of our hospital,
hindi talaga maiwasang napakarami nyang mga gawain.
Marahan akong naglakad, sa isang hakbang ko palang ay nakita kong nag-angat sya
ng tingin para sundan ako ng titig.
"Busy ka?" I said and smiled.
Umiling sya, napangiti ako nang isarado nya ang laptop sa kanyang hita at
inilapag sa side table.
"Here," Aniya at inilahad sa akin ang kanyang hita.
My heart thumped, I almost hop on the bed to get to him at marahan nya akong
inalalayan paupo sa hita nya at sumulyap sa tuhod ko.
"Is your wound okay?" He asked. I nodded at him, marahan kong inalis ang
kanyang salamin at humalik sa noo nya kaya napapikit sya at humaplos sa likuran ko.
"Thank you, Reyna ko..." Bulong nya.
"Pagod ka?" I asked him. I caressed his cheek, marahan naman syang sumandal sa
headboard habang namumungay ang mata.
"Medyo but it's good, kasama kita e..." Hirit nya.
I bit my lip, naramdaman ko namang marahang kinalas nya ang robe ko kaya
hinayaan ko lang sya at pinagmasdan.
"What time is your out tomorrow, Thornie?" I asked.
"Hmm? Uhm, 5PM?" Aniya. "Sunduin kita bukas sa opisina mo? Let's dine outside."
"Sure," I said. Nang tuluyan nang bumagsak ang robe sa kama ay kaagad syang
humalik sa balikat ko.
"My Queen?" Nilingon ko sya.
"Yes?"
"Umalis ka ba kanina?" He asked me.
"No, nandito lang ako sa bahay..." I answered.
"Saw you..." He said. My forehead creased and stared at him.
"Huh? I did not go out--"
"Saw you lang ako..." He said smoothly.
My mouth parted, ngumisi sya. Bumilis ang tibok ng puso ko at nag-init ang
pisngi ko kaya napaigik ako at pabebeng pinalo sya.
"Luh? Parang tanga..." I smacked his arm softly and laughed very conciously.
He chuckled, brought my hair behind my ear and whispered.
"Kilig sya... Ayieee..." He teased.
"Hoy, hindi porket yummy ka, ganyan ka na!" I glared at him.
"I know," He laughed. "But baby, let's date tomorrow?"
"Are you trying to have kids with me?" I groaned and he laughed more and kissed
my neck before hugging me.
"Uhm, yes?" He said maliciously. "Pwede bang pa-isa pa?"
Nanlaki ang mata ko. Hinampas ko ang hita nya at napaawang ang labi.
"Ikaw, huh! H'wag mo akong nilalandi pero shege, saan ba?" I asked and blinked.
"Kahit saan..." He chuckled and bit my earlobe. "Ang mahal ko talaga
napakaharot..." Bulong nya.
"Pero love mo pa rin ako diba?" I asked and stared at him. "Kasi love kita from
the bottom of my heart!"
 His midnight black eyes smiled and nodded.
"Sobra, tagos hanggang sa lungs, Reyna ko..." Bulong nya bago akong marahang
itulak sa kama at pumaibabaw.