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—from the
acclaimed author of Hour of the Bees and Race to the Bottom of the Sea.
I pictured a rump made of stone, face toward the sunset. I imagined the gruff, frowning face of a
gargoyle and thought of disgruntled old men. I wrote down a few lines in a notebook in his voice: “All
I wanted was to be left alone.” “When it rains, gargoyles are the first to know.” “Only one gargoyle on
the roof of the unnamed cathedral faces west, which means only one gargoyle can see this sunset.”
Ideas tend to come to me all at once, like an avalanche. As soon as I heard the gargoyle in my head, I
knew he’d be a witness to something important from his rooftop perch. I knew there would be a street
gang of orphaned kids, à la Oliver Twist, thieving to survive the harsh world of a medieval village. I
knew there would be a quiet, unremarkable little girl who was placed in a bakery apprenticeship to
steal bread and coin.
I had the whole thing planned and ready in my head by the time I finished writing down the idea . . .
and then the idea sat. It sat and waited another four years.
In 2016, I had just launched Hour of the Bees, had a wedding, and had a baby. I had more books
under contract and plenty of deadlines, both editor- and self-imposed. I had my dream job and all the
momentum in the world to keep doing what I’d always wanted to do—sell my stories to any suckers
who would trade me stories for bread.
In truth, I had much more than that. I had a bad case of postpartum anxiety that stole my sleep. I had
a very clingy newborn who wanted to nurse ’round the clock. I had (at the time) undiagnosed ADHD
and a hyperactive mind that wanted to go, go, go . . . even when I should have been resting.
But instead, in the lonely stretches of nighttime nursing and the stilted, unproductive moments that
make up the reality of a mother of an infant, I reached for a clean notebook.
I had deadlines, yes. But I couldn’t resist the escape that comes with pressing pen to paper and
bringing forth a new world. The gargoyle, Duck, Gnat, Griselde Baker—all of them spilled out from
my head into my notebook.
No one needed this book. It wasn’t yet acquired, and no one really knew about it. It was my secret
respite, and I wrote it bit by bit, a paragraph or a page at a time over many weeks. I only needed it to
be a comfort for me. Something cozy. Warm.
And that’s how it’s remained, through all its iterations in revision—this isn’t a book with huge stakes.
There’s no imperative to save the world. This is not a book about a chosen one; it’s a book about a
chosen family. It’s not about life or death; it’s about bread, the stuff of life.
This book probably saved me. It reminded me, many times, that writing should be an escape for
me . . . because then one day it can be an escape for a reader.