Personal Self Assessment Journal

By Laura Fe A. Tubola, BSED SOCSTUD 1-F

My Purpose, My “Why”

In the present time, I cannot really distinguish what is my real purpose in this world. Maybe, I
already think of it, but I cannot just remember it or I am unsure if it is really my purpose in life. But, I
do believe that my purpose is based on what I believe in life, the cardinal rules that I impose in
myself, and the principle that I stand as I learn every day.

What’s my “Why?”

I want to accomplish my goals and dream in life.

I believe that if I reached and accomplished the goals and dreams that I listed in my memory, I will
be happier and will not suffer the same bad scenario in my future because it is traumatic for me and
I do not want to experience it again.

My Values

In no particular order, my values in life are:

 Settle the things in the past before forwarding in the future.

 Never settle for less.

 Be an asset, and not a liability.

 Never question one’s strengths, weaknesses, and capabilities.

 If life knocks me down, I need to slap it and to teach it a lesson.

 Will of its own.

 Expect the unexpected.

My Motivations

My motivation in life is to reach the future where I can live freely with fewer problems.

My natural motivation is my family and friends that reminds me to keep going and constantly saying
that they are proud of me.

Of course, my ultimate motivation to succeed is BTS. They are a Kpop boy group who I found
comfort and everything they do makes me happy and positive.
My Energy Needs

My “peak performance period” is in the morning where the internet is so slow, and the time where
my family is scolding me. This is the time where my brain cannot function even if I tried too hard. I
can restore my energy and drive every midnight because the internet is much faster and of course
listening to my favorite BTS track such as Zero ‘clock, Fire, and Spring Day.

My Daily Routine

When the school year with a distance learning modality starts, my daily routine really flips upside
down. I usually get up 9 in the morning and scroll my social media accounts for 1 hour then I am the
one who is in-charge in washing the dishes. I usually don’t take breakfast, but I eat in brunch (a meal
combination of breakfast and lunch). After I eat, I usually listen to music while sweeping our floor. I
could not make my assigned activities and outputs in daytime because my brain can only function
every night that is why I just take a nap for at least 1-hour. I am also in-charge in cooking the rice for
dinner and sometimes cooking the dish. I usually sleep around 12am to 1am, but it depends if I finish
the task in that time.

This daily routine is mostly the same everyday because of the pandemic. No special occasions or
exciting happenings, but rather pure déjà vu and the difference is the assigned outputs only.

My Work Needs

I really prefer working collaboratively because it lessens the workload rather than doing it alone. But
sometimes I got a little frustrated when my groupmates is sending their part later than the assigned
time. On the other hand, I understand them in a very best manner because I know that this kind of
set-up is hard for everyone to cope-up.

I like to work late at night because the internet is faster and less distractions from my family and
noises from our neighbor. I also like to work my outputs while listening to BTS’ songs especially the
ones that has a lively beats because it keeps me awake

What Restores Me

Sleeping for at least 8-hours a day and 1 hour naps is okay for me to be restored and ready to face
life’s challenges. I also watched 2 to 3 Kdramas to divert my mind from stressful academic
workloads. I also like to reward myself a box of takoyaki if I have a extra money to spend.

My Natural Preferences and Tendencies

I really like just to lay down all day and scroll my social media accounts if possible. I do not like to
chat nonsense things because I am too lazy to do so. I usually prefer to be alone and cherish that
precious time because I can be me. In terms of person which I can be with, I like those who likes the
concept of “give and take” and most importantly, the one who does not backstabbed his or her
friend just to satisfy his or her friends. I really want them to tell me what is the problem or issue so
that I can change it if its negative, but if it is a positive thing for me I will stand by it.

My Learning Style

I usually read and highlight the things that I think is important. I also do not just stick on the
modules, but I seek for the help of Google. I accompany this reading while listening to music. I
usually take a break every 30 minutes while I am learning. I also like if the teacher is having a Google
meet because the things that he or she taught retains in my memory, rather than just reading and
highlighting it.

My Strengths and Abilities

My strength is having a will to continue even if the plan does not goes well because I have
contingency plans for every actions that I make. With regards to my ability, I can sense whether a
person is true to his words or not.

My Personality

In order to learn what type of personality I have, I took a assessment similar to Myers Briggs.

The result says that I am a Doer or ESTP Personality has an Extroverted, Sensing, Thinking, and
Perceptive personality.

Myers-Briggs describes the characteristics of my personality that live for social interaction, drawing
power from feelings and emotions. This does not mean that ESTPs are flippant. They enjoy logical
processes and reasoning, provided this does not stand in the way of freedom in thought and deed.
Theory and abstracts will not retain the attention or interest of an ESTP for long. This personality
type prefers to leap before they look, fixing mistakes as they go. This is preferable to sitting idle or
preparing contingency plans.
My Emotional Intelligence

I can say that my emotional intelligence is not that stable and strong because I can easily cry on
something. I just let my frustrations in crying and when I finish crying I felt okay. However, I cannot
be easily persuaded by other people using my emotions.

My Source of Confidence

I can gain my confidence with the help of these following:

1. Myself. I know what are my capabilities and the things that I can do and can’t. I really know
where to draw my confidence and to bloom it even more.

2. My decisions. I barely make a right decisions in my, but I know that these decisions can bring
me confidence regardless of the level.

3. Family. They are the ones who pushed me to become confidence and show my true self and
personality.

4. Friends. My high school best friends really boost my confidence. From a introvert person t a
energetic and happy person. They taught me to become confident of whom I am because
they are just in my back to support me.

5. BTS. There music really helps me to build my confidence and accepts who really am.

My Fears

I have a lot of fears and phobias. I really do not like frogs and I don’t dare to touch or share a room
with them because I am scare of them. I am also scared to lose my love ones, especially my parents.
The thing that scared me the most is the awful situations might happen again.

My Unhealthy Desires

The unhealthy desire that I want is to be always right and correct. I know want I stand is really
correct in times, but my family or the people around me think the other way. They always thought
that the words that come out to my mouth are all wrong. That is why I want to sit the chair of right
and correct.

My Cravings
I have lot cravings, especially when I do not have money to spend. That is why I just dream of it. One
of my cravings are Mcdonald’s chicken ala king, hot fudge sundae, mushroom soup and fries. I
always dream and imagine every night that I can be able to eat it. The thing that I crave is money.
Money can buy everything. They say that money can’t buy happiness, but if you buy the things that
can make you happy then technically money can buy our happiness.

My Expectations

Before, I really expect everything and hoping that I will achieve it. But, when I experience a lot of
awful situations in the past months, I really do not expect things to be good or bad. Right now, I am
just going with the flow and accepting everything that may come that the destiny may bring. That is
why one of my values is expect the unexpected and be ready to conquer it.