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Carew, Jan R.
Ghosts in our blood with Malcolm X in Africa, England, and the
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1. X, Malcolm, 1925-1965. 2. Racism—United States. 3.
United States — —
Race relations. 4. Race relations Great Britain.
5. Great Britain —
Race relations. 6. Carew, Jan R. I. X, Malcolm,
1925-1965. II. Title.
BP223.Z8L57247 1994
320.5'4
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happened upon the village matriarch, Tanta Bess. The oral tradition
is alive and well in Tanta Bess, who had grown up with Louise
—
Langdon Louise Langdon Norton Little, Malcolm's mother.
Listening to Tanta Bess I could hear echoes of my mother's voice as
she sat at the head of a long table supervising my history homework,
inquiring wisely: "Didn't these great men in your history book
Drake, Hawkins, Raleigh, and the others —have grandmothers,
mothers, sisters, aunts, wives, or did they just fall out of the sky like
talking about his mother, he also provided insights into life in the
Little household in Omaha, Nebraska (where Malcolm was born
in 1925); in theIndiana Harbour (East Chicago) area, where Earl
Littlewas the chief representative of Marcus Garvey's Universal
Negro Improvement Association (UNIA); and in Lansing, Michi-
gan, where the family moved in 1928.
GHOSTS IN OIR BLOOD
use to obfuscate the truth as they peer from the top looking
downward. He taught us that it is the duty of leaders to be as
devastatingly critical of their own mistakes as of their opponents'.
During my conversations with Malcolm, he never failed to state
unequivocally that the system he was attacking was one based on
unbridled greed, on the exploitation of one race by another and
one class by another, and that it had to be radically transformed.
He also made it clear that his role as a leader was not just to analyze
the world, but to change it.
ONE
The tigers of wrath are wiser
than the horses of instruction.
—William Blake
1
GHOSTS IN 01 R BLOOD
feathers and for a moment I wished that I could bury my own head
under the covers for the rest of my life.
If you were like me, a Black man from Guyana living alone in an
old Victorian house after an acrimonious break with an angry
English wife and four bewildered children —three English step-
daughters and one of my own —talking to birds, plants, trees,
anything that was alive but not human, would seem to be a
perfectly natural thing to do. Besides, Magnet, the weekly Black
newspaper I was had finally rolled off the press at the end
editing,
of a hectic twenty-hour workday, and I was still in a stupor of
exhaustion.
But the sunlight, even appearing and vanishing as swiftly as it
H
Jan Carew
Guests who did not know my exact address could knock on any
door along the street and ask about the house in which a tall Black
man lived, and with an excessive show of British middle-class
politeness, any neighbor could direct them to number 58.
and the fact that he had shed his BBC British accent that something
calamitous had happened.
"Malcolm, man."
"Malcolm?"
"Yes, man, Malcolm X, him dead, assassinated, them blew him
away. Rass, man, the Brother was here only twelve days ago! Just
over a week! Jesus Christ! And now them gun 'im down in the
Audubon Ballroom where he was gwine talk 'bout his Organiza-
tion of Afro-American Unity! Is what him did say,
the God's truth
that he was a marked man and some folks high up in Yankeeland
had passed a death sentence 'pon 'im. That them folks was more
powerful than Elijah Muhammad and his Black Muslims
remember how him did say that the triggermen, the bombers or
whoever them send 'gainst him would be the puppets, and above
them would be a puppetmaster pulling the strings. If only the
Brother did listen to us, eh! We did tell him say that he should live
for the struggle, not die for it
—
" His voice broke off, and I could
hear someone talking to him.
"J.D.?" I said, urgently, because I wanted to hear more.
"I've got to go, old chap. I'm being summoned. The BBC
treadmill calls. Will contact you later!" Almost as naturally as
breathing, J.D. had switched back to an impeccable British accent.
J.D. hung up before I could ply him with questions. I rushed
downstairs to switch on the television. But standing before the
charcoal-gray screen, I changed my mind. If Malcolm was indeed
dead, then I'd defer facing that ugly reality for the moment. I
wanted him to be alive, and if I ignored the TV news for a while I
could pretend that he was, that he'd taken our advice and gone into
hiding. I slumped down on a couch, and it was as if the wind
outside had sneaked under the French windows in my study and
gripped my heart with icy fingers. "Why did you choose to die,
Malcolm?" I shouted at the empty room. "Don't we have enough
martyrs? It's time that we lived for the struggle, and not just keep
dying for it!"
word, whether it was better to live for a cause than to die for it.
I felt sad, desolate, and helpless about the way in which those
demon images sought to obliterate the soft-spoken, gentle Mal-
colm whose breeding and good manners had been inculcated in
him from birth by his Grenadian mother and his rural Georgian
father; the laughing, witty Malcolm; the pensive, lonely Malcolm;
and the restless, caged Malcolm pacing up and down and express-
ing opinions that burnt their way into one's consciousness like
incandescent flares. If only his detractors could have glimpsed
those other sides of Malcolm, they would have understood why
Ossie Davis could say in his eloquent and moving funeral oration
that "Malcolm was our manhood, our living Black manhood . . .
I met Malcolm when I was the editor of Magnet, the first news-
paper attempting to reach a nationwide Black readership in
in my living room, "Jan, there are two races on earth —talkers and
listeners — and Brother Dermot's a listener."
But on this occasion, an unusually excited Dermot became more
of a talker than a listener when he announced in a hoarse stage
whisper, "Malcolm's in town, man!"
"Malcolm?"
"Yes, Malcolm X! He's in town, man! Malcolm X is in town!"
"Then go and bring him to the reception," I said.
A music critic and civil-rights activist, Dermot had a passion for
Black music that bordered on fanaticism. He was also a denizen of
nightclubs, cafes, restaurants, and other dives that night people
patronized during the midnight to dawn hours. As a result, an
underground network of friends, hustlers, musicians, music lovers,
fellow journalists, and hangers-on invariably tipped him off when
prominent Black Americans were in town.
Dermot roamed the midnight jungle of London, rubbing shoul-
ders with folk who woke up to daylight only in the late afternoon.
The neon lights necklacing buildings like illuminated lianas and
the faces glowing momentarily under streetlights like black,
brown, yellow, or white night orchids never failed to fascinate him.
journals? For even after being recently exposed to the African sun,
he was still light-complexioned, and his gray-green eyes reminded
me of my late grandfather's. That venerable had been a
relative
village schoolmaster, and folks used to whisper behind his back
that he had cat's eyes. And like my grandfather's, Malcolm's eyes
could change from gray-green to a pale blue or a luminous gray
flecked with gold according to the color of his moods, the color of
his clothes, or the colors around him.
My eleven-year-old daughter Lizaveta was with me, and when I
rhetorically, "Why do they say he's a bad man? He's tall like you,
and he looks like he could be your brother."
That was her way of putting her own private stamp of approval
on Malcolm. Usually, adults treated her with a patronizing disre-
gard which she hated, but he had really paid attention to her and
made her feel like an intelligent being who had something worth-
while to say.
"We're both red people," I explained to her jokingly, "and if he
went anywhere in the Caribbean, people would immediately
assume that he was a native son. That's until he spoke, because the
moment he opened his mouth and said a few words, they'd know
that he was a Yankeeman."
As I looked around the hall that night, I couldn't help thinking
that there was something incongruous about a radical Black
newspaper being launched at the Commonwealth Institute. This
relic from a dwindling British Empire was formerly known as the
Jan Carew 11
ter with a man whom the media had consistently depicted as a fiery
leaned over and said, "When I get a chance, I'll tell you about
Rudolph."
"Yes, please do," he said, guardedly, never taking his eyes off
Rudolph.
After a pause, I said, "My Afro-Carib great-gran used to say that
the only perfect humans were illusory ones like the Virgin Mary,
the risen Christ, and the Messiah who is yet to come."
Malcolm's tone was conciliatory when he turned to me, smiled,
and said, "Too bad I didn't come across your great-gran during
those years when I believed that Elijah Muhammad was a divine
leader and that women were weak. But now, I'm learning
—
"Tolerance?" I inquired, finishing the sentence for him. Taken
aback, he looked at me wondered if I'd offended
searchingly, and I
him. But he smiled again and answered, "Yes, and good sense too."
"You'll need plenty of both when dealing with Black people
here," I cautioned.
"As if I don't I need truckloads of it back home too!" he declared
with a chuckle.
The reception ended with guests who'd had too much to drink
lurching uncertainly toward the front entrance and being ushered
out by uniformed guards. Rudolph, incoherent, happy about the
was led away by a friend.
reception and obviously deep in his cups,
A journalist from overseas whom I'd met earlier when he was
downing Scotch as if it were lemonade, was now in the ultimate
state of drunkenness. Tiptoeing unsteadily, gesturing like a mar-
moset, mumbling to himself, and occasionally bursting into song,
he slipped on a piece of smoked salmon and fell. Impersonal and
immaculately dressed waiters and waitresses stepped over him very
deftly as he lay stretched out on the floor. He groped for the
offending slab of salmon, retrieved and began to gnaw at it. A
it,
hefty guard picked him up like a rag doll, and with his feet barely
touching the ground the journalist and his piece of salmon were
deposited in a taxi.
Dermot and I escorted Malcolm to his taxi, and before we parted
Jan Carew 13
morning.
During the long drive back to Wimbledon, and with Lizaveta fast
asleep in the backseat, Dermot and I relaxed and indulged in a bout
of West Indian gaffing as we reminisced about the reception and
our meeting with Malcolm.
"I can hardly wait for tomorrow to come. After I put Lizaveta to
bed, I'll write down the questions I want to ask him."
"Then you're not going to get much sleep, Brother Man. It's
his mother? You know, West Indians carry a larger space around
them than Afro-Americans do, and they allow only the most
Jan Carew 15
space that their African ancestors brought with them just shrank.
What Malcolm, a denizen of cities, still
a contradiction, though!
carrying a sense of space he inherited from his Grenadian mother.
... I don't know where he got his aristocracy of the spirit from
either. But he's got it. You can't buy that or borrow it or pretend to
have it, you've got to be born with it. Jesus Christ! but the man's
lonely, eh! When he was talking to Lizaveta, I thought I saw a look
of pain and bewilderment flash across his eyes. It was a look of
such sadness and longing that I felt a pang in my heart, and I
Malcolm must've had his night of crying with his head on his wife's
bosom, or when he was alone in a hotel room, or during his Mecca
pilgrimage. Who knows?"
"There are folks out there who want to steal his life
—
"But there must be a part of him that wants to live; to see his
children grow up, and to be part of a movement that evolves and
—
matures that's what makes his secret nights of crying all the more
poignant."
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"Rass, man, the next thing you'll be doing is getting into your
crystal ball act."
"OK, I'll come down to earth again. What concerns me about
Malcolm in this British arena is that, since his visits are so short,
whole areas of our reality as immigrants and slums-of-the-empire-
denizens are bound to elude him. Take the cultural scene in the —
midst of the snide, ugly, and stubborn British racism, there's still an
explosion of art, literature, music, lifestyle, cuisine from the
Caribbean, Africa, Asia, and Latin America. You can't always see
it at a glance, but it's there burying itself into the flesh of Britain.
He'd need time to absorb and understand all of this. Although
Malcolm does have a mind like a giant clam that snaps up every
idea within its reach, he doesn't have enough time to understand
and analyze what's going on here. But he is a quick learner. I told
him that some of the Blacks here have a psychic impediment that
prevents them from acknowledging the links binding them to their
primary ancestral homelands, and because of this they become
mentally crippled by self-hatred. 'A psychic impediment,' he'd
repeated, moving his head from side to side and savoring the two
words as if they were something tasty. 'I like that term. I must
borrow it sometime.' If only he could buy more time! And he
could, if he wanted to."
"Man, it looks like friends and enemies alike are going to keep
cheating the Brother of time for reflection and a spell of lotus-
eating ease that everybody needs occasionally like the bread of
life."
"If those friends and enemies keep swirling around him long
enough, they'll create a whirlpool and drown him."
TWO
He began to fulfill the destiny that was concealed in the
went Malcolm we
The next morning I to see at seven-thirty as
touch the flesh at every turn —plus the lousy English weather in late
17
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summoned the energy to get up from his armchair and pace, slowly
at first and then, quite unconsciously, more quickly. And realizing
that he was wearing himself out, he'd stop abruptly, sit, and hug
himself as if he was feeling cold. I had brought herbal tea in a flask
and I drank a full cup before suggesting that he drink some.
"You should push liquids for that flu," I counseled.
"I'm OK," he said, barely managing a reassuring smile. I was
ready to leave at that juncture. I thought he should be left alone to
rest. But his eyes appealed to me to stay, and he added, "It's
nothing personal, my refusing the tea, but right now I don't think it
language is the fact that we play the same games, like cricket,
soccer, rugby, and field hockey. So despite enormous cultural
differences, we can still communicate fairly easily with one an-
other."
"And I can forecast that since all you have, more or less, just
of
arrived," Malcolm said, "being able to talk the same language and
play the same games will help for a while. But later on, they'll play
the divide-and-conquer game on you, too. In the States, they do it
with the Indians, the Asians, the Latinos, and even the West
Indians." He looked at me with a quizzical smile and said, "Tell me
about this Dunbar guy. I him out."
really couldn't figure
"Yes, old Rudolph, hmm! I could tell last night that you found
him fascinating. He's a strange old bird, our Rudolph is. First he
sees himself as a Black aristocrat, and then he's absolutely con-
vinced that creative people like composers, artists, writers, etc., are
superior beings
—
"What about the Black ones?" Malcolm asked.
"He thinks that the Black ones like himself are more superior
than the others."
"That guy's really mixed up."
"He is. Rudolph's case history would've made better reading
than all those used by Frantz Fanon in his Black Skin, White
Masks. The West Indies produced some types that are impossible
to label with glib, Black/whiteAmerican cliches. Rudolph's the son
of a Guyanese nanny who worked for an English governor and his
wife in Guyana. He grew up in a village that former slaves had
bought from their master. You see, some of the slave owners had
begun to pay wages to their slaves long before the emancipation act
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and how the village folk made moonshine. She was a West Indian,
from Grenada."
"Those sugarcane smells never leave you. Sometimes out of the
blue I remember them, too."
Malcolm brought me back to my Rudolph saga by asking, "So
how did Brother Rudolph get from his village to London?"
"While he was in elementary school, his mother paid for him to
take music lessons, and his music teacher soon discovered that he
was unusually gifted. He learned to play several instruments, but
ended up playing the clarinet in the local militia band. Then his
mother, with the help of friends and relatives, scraped up the
money to send him to study at a Paris conservatory. It was while he
was a student in Paris that the Associated Negro Press made him
their European correspondent. When World War II broke out,
Rudolph got a break to conduct the London Symphony Orchestra
in Albert Hail. He was also a war correspondent for the Associated
Negro Press, and as if this was not enough, he was one of the
founders of the League of Coloured Peoples, our British version of
your NAACP—
"Not my NAACP," Malcolm quipped.
"OK, the NAACP. May I continue?" I asked with mock defer-
ence, and he laughed and gestured with his hands that I should. "If
you had time, we could have visited Rudolph's apartment. It has all
blackness made him win special favors from the Soviet command-
ers. So he just collected some souvenirs from the bunker. He likes
him, and then they cast him aside. That Berlin triumph and a
concert in Paris were the high points of his career as a gifted
maestro, an and a man. For decades now, he's been on a
activist,
did. After my father was murdered, she had nine mouths to feed,
and she had to do it all by herself. It's only now that I can
understand what a terrible life she lived. We all had to pitch in, but
she did most of the toiling night and day, day and night ... I
. . .
seeing her slaving day after day, I began to hate the system that
made her life one of endless drudgery, so what I did was shut the
thought of my mother out of my mind, and lock it away." And
then, having revealed a glimpse of the tender recesses of his heart,
he suddenly turned, looked at me, and asked matter-of-factly,
"What was your mother like?"
"She was the youngest daughter of a village schoolmaster," I
said, knowing that while I talked about my mother he'd have time
to assuage the anguish that had aroused. "Her
remembering his
mother could've crossed the color and caste line if she wanted to. I
remember my mother telling me that when her mother visited
Georgetown without husband and children, everyone assumed
that she was a white woman and treated her with extra deference.
But when husband and children accompanied her, the reverse was
true— the same folks who'd deferred to her when she was alone
went out of their way to be rude, and she'd declare, 'If looks
could've killed, their malicious glances would've wiped my mother
"
off the face of the earth!'
"Funny how these stories are the same everywhere!" he said,
"My mother could've passed for white, too, and you should've
seen the evil looks the whites shot at her when she traveled with us.
And once she was with us, those rednecks thought she was prime
bait for their lechery. But she had a sharp tongue, and she could
make those lechers back off right away."
"Malcolm, they've quoted you as having said that you hate every
drop of white blood in your veins, that your grandmother was
raped by a white man."
"That was a political statement. That was the line Elijah
Muhammad laid down, and as one of his ministers, I echoed it.
That was when I was in a mental straitjacket. But I've broken out of
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relations since his break with the Black Muslims, so playing devil's
who was an officer in the Royal Air Force was shot down over
Germany during World War II. The Germans captured him and
before he was sent to a prisoner-of-war camp, they asked him what
race he was. So he said to his Nazi interrogators, 'Since you're
specialists on so-called racial purity, you work it out: I'm a mixture
of African, Carib, Portuguese Jew, Highland Scot, German, yes, even
some German, Irish, and French.' The Germans solved the problem
"
by listing him as 'race unknown.'
Malcolm threw up his hands, laughing, and conceded, "OK,
you've made your point. But right now I see 'Black' and 'white' as
political and ideological terms. I probably have just as much mixed
blood as you do, but politically and ideologically we're both Black.
We've got to be. The white racists in America don't bother to
differentiate between shades of black, brown, or yellow they —
color us black regardless of skin tones. African brothers and
sisters, too, accept us as one of them when we take sides with them
changing the way I see the world." After one of those meaningful
pauses that told me his restless mind was ranging across a host of
troubled thoughts, he continued, "I wonder how my life would've
turned out if I'd been born in the West Indies and my mother had
brought me here to Britain when I was thirteen."
Slumped in an armchair with shoulders hunched and arms
hugging his chest, he looked pale and vulnerable and defeated. And
I thought once again that the confident, charismatic Malcolm who
had come to the reception at the Commonwealth Institute last
night had been transformed by a flu virus and a bout of Hamletism
into a being full of doubt and self-pity. If only those who idolized
him or who denounced him as a prophet of violence could have
seen him now!
"Why thirteen?" I asked, intrigued.
"That's when I was farmed out to foster parents in Michigan. I'd
just finished the eighth grade. A white probate judge had manipu-
lated things so that he could steal our house and land and hand
them over to his relatives, and on top of that, having pushed my
mother until she was on the verge of a nervous breakdown from
overwork, this so-called white upholder of the law forced her to
sign herself into a mental hospital. None of us was old enough to
prevent the breakup and scattering of our family. Wilfred, my
oldest brother, was still in his teens," he said, removing his glasses,
closing his eyes for a moment, and pinching the bridge of his nose.
I waited for him to continue but when he didn't, I could see that his
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whole being. His limbs would relax, but his eyes never left you for
a moment.
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explained.
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from the white race and shoved into the ranks of the Black, brown,
and yellow. Racial democracy at the bottom! Poverty neutralizing
whiteness. That's our Caribbean scene. And that's why Yankee
tourists are often impressed or in some cases horrified, depending
on the eye of the beholder, when they see the racially integrated
poor in the Caribbean and Latin American blond, blue-eyed —
men, women, and children wallowing freely at the bottom with
Black, brown, yellow, quadroon, octoroon, or what-have-you
folks."
Malcolm shook his up with his fist,
head and, propping his chin
declared, "In the U.S.A., the powers that be keep the poor whites
happy by telling them that they might be poor, dumb, and
backward, but an illiterate white sharecropper is still superior to a
Negro no matter how high and mighty this Negro might think he
is. The Negro could be a priest, a professor with a Ph.D., a
"Let's get back to the scene where my mother and her seven kids
are emigrating to Britain," he said.
I sat back and continued:
"The worst part of that Genoa-Calais-London trip —crossing
Jan Carew 31
the English Channel —was yet to come, man. After a night and a
day in coffined spaces on a slow train with locked doors and
windows, your mama, you, your brothers and sisters, along with
the other immigrants, would've finally been disgorged onto a
Channel steamer. This last phase of the journey had its own brand
of horrors waiting for you. At the height of the West Indian
immigrant onrush, the folks always seemed to arrive at the
Channel ports when squalls, rainstorms, and high winds, some-
times blowing with hurricane force, churned up mountainous seas.
But let's track back a bit and talk about how, at the beginning of
this final ordeal, those travelers from the sun would've felt the first
bite of cold when they left the train at Calais or Boulogne and
would become fetid, heavy, and unbearable and even when one of
the braver souls opened the door to rush on deck and lean over the
rails, the clean sea air would refuse to mingle with the odious
the mother country, she would've been unable to get a clerical job.
Newfound friends would've persuaded her that a factory job was
her best bet; and someone would even have taken her to a factory
that hired West Indians. So working in a factory, she'd have
learned her first lessons in survival in a highly industrialized and
racist society."
clever at making you believe that since the white British male is the
most 'superior' being on earth, then some of that 'superiority' rubs
off on their Black, brown, and yellow lackeys, who in turn can claim
to be top dogs in the colonial-lackey limbo world of 'many dogs and
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few bones.' The British have more experience than the Yanks in
finding the right boreholes into the minds of their colonial subjects.
The Yanks are cruder.They tell you that their white Anglo-Saxon
males are 'superior' and if you don't acknowledge it, they're ready to
club you to the ground, shoot you, tar and feather and lynch you,
deny you jobs, decent housing, and even medical attention if you're
bleeding to death and a Black doctor or a Black hospital isn't nearby.
It isn't that their racism doesn't have its own brand of subtleties and
warts or that their Negroes are a special breed, but Black Americans
had different challenges to face and their responses were different.
from the blood, sweat, and tears of slave labor, so slavery clung to
the South like a malignancy and it took the killing spree of a Civil
War to remove it —
"Are you a Marxist?" Malcolm broke in. He had a way of
springing unexpected questions.
"Aren't you?" I shot back.
"Answer my question and I'll answer yours," he countered.
"I'll answer by telling you a story. Recently, a countryman of
mine, a Black vicar of Bray, who looks like a weasel and acts like
one, went to an English lord and told him that I was a Communist;
and this English aristocrat laughed in his face and said, 'Which
self-respecting Black man wouldn't be a Communist?' That lord
himself told me about it. There are some white people who like to
tell you with malice about the quislings who come to lick their
boots."
"You still haven't answered my question," Malcolm said with a
quizzical twist to his mouth and a tilt of the head.
"I'm a socialist, a Pan-Africanist, a Black Marxist, a nationalist
who believes in the cultural unity of the Black world based on our
common resistance to white racism. And I'm an off again on again
atheist, because the secret and forbidden spirit world to which the
polyglot races and cultures in my village introduced me still lives in
Jan Carew 35
air of embarrassment and asked, "How did you put it? Something
about Black and white conversation below the waist?"
"Ah, yes, I said that conversation below the waist is easier and
more pervasive in Britain and Europe, but I also said that it doesn't
make the slightest difference to the institutionalized racism in this
neck of the woods. Racism isn't resolved in bed no matter who's
sleeping with whom."
"I agree. It should be a personal and private affair, but when you
walk arm in arm out your front door, it becomes a political matter.
Besides, what about our Black women who are left on the shelf?"
"The chaps here say that while they're here they have to live off
the land, since they can't afford the fare to go searching for Black
women They say that no matter what color the wife is,
overseas.
cut off from a homeland forever the way they are, the woman they
—
share life with, who bears their children and hers she then —
becomes their country."
"The woman, white, brown, yellow, or black, is their 'country,'
that's a new one on me," Malcolm said, shaking his head and
creasing his brow in bewilderment.
I brought the conversation back to the subject of where he stood
^H
Jan Carew 37
—
merry men although not because Robin took from the rich and
gave to the poor, but because he was co-opted by the king and
became a knight and betrayed the partisans who had fought side by
side with him in Sherwood Forest. So Black children of the colonial
world identified with the victors and imagined themselves becom-
ing intrepid explorers, buccaneers, slave traders, missionaries, and
white "civilizers of savages." To compound the problem of aliena-
tion, the ultimate symbols of evil —
the bad man, the mindless
female, the half-breed, the savage — are always symbolized by
Negroes, Amerindians, coolies, and other Kiplingesque "lesser
breeds beyond the law."
But, somehow, I had always felt a sneaking sympathy for
Boadicea. She was the leader of a "tribe," and so, they dinned into
my head, were my African ancestors. I could not therefore envision
her being anything like the bigoted and nondescript wives and
daughters of the British proconsuls in Guyana. When I read of how
Suetonius Paulinus, the Roman general, had crushed the male and
female warriors who were fighting side by side under Boadicea's
command, I instinctively identified with the vanquished, not with
the victors. I tried to picture the dead Iceni men and women,
scattered like tacoubas across fields oftall grass and under verging
trees; and I pang of pity for the ones who surrendered the
felt a —
—
old folks, the women and children all of whom were rounded up
at spearpoint and herded together like animals to be shipped off
into slavery. As for the brave Boadicea, I was sure that she was left
with no choice but to commit suicide, shouting defiance at her
Roman enemies before she died.
"Would Malcolm ever have to follow in their footsteps?" I asked
myself, and my mind went blank, leaving the question unan-
swered.
Looking at him closely, I couldn't help thinking that away from
38 GHOSTS I\ 01 R BLOOD
the limelight and in the privacy of this hotel room, he really needed a
friend. Although we'd only known each other a short time, I was sure
that he had come to trust me as far as he would have trusted anyone
under the circumstances. I also thought that during this spell of being
sick and vulnerable he wanted, more than anything else, not only to
be at ease but also to be able to trust someone, even for a short while.
However, an incident occurred that made it clear to me that because
he was being hounded by what my mother would have described in
though, that red and white capsule sat on the bedside stand,
catching my eye reprovingly every time I looked in its direction.
Sffl£^
Jan Carew 39
push him closer to his "night of crying" so that he'd open up and
some of the pain might drain out of his heart.
"I used to think it was the Muslims, but more and more it's
dawning on me that the forces tracking me down are more
powerful than Elijah's hit men. After what happened in Egypt and
France I quit saying that it was the Muslims alone who were after
me," he said, looking away.
"Malcolm, in Guyana we call death's messenger Mantop, and
sometimes no matter how many assassins are out there trying to get
you, Mantop cuts his sly mongoose eye on them and lets you live
skin,your eyes, or the kind of nap you have on your head. They
look straight into your heart. And what good manners they have!
Africans and Chinese are the most polite folk I've ever met. I guess
that on the way to America we had to dump some of those good
manners in the Atlantic ditch. If a slave master's calling you names,
shouting at you all the time, putting you in chains and whipping
you, then you get accustomed to aggression, not polite conversa-
tion. So after four hundred years the good manners of our
promised.
"I'd appreciate that, Jan, really appreciate it."
"Wasn't it you who started Muhammad Speaks}" I asked. He
seemed pleased that I'd touched on this topic and he answered
immediately.
"Yes, I convinced Elijah Muhammad that the paper was neces-
sary as a unifying tool and an educational tool. What do you think
of it?"
"You want my candid opinion?"
"Yes."
"Its coverage of Third World news is tremendous, and it took up
a cudgel for Black peoples in America and elsewhere in the Black
world as, perhaps, no other major Black journal has done before,
but I can't for the life or tail of the mumbo jumbo
of me make head
that Elijah Muhammad upon readers in every issue."
inflicts
H
Jan Carew 43
find the time?" Malcolm asked himself rhetorically. "But let's get
back to Magnet."
"Well, to cut a long story short, those three Jamaican Muske-
teers knew that no matter how much I hedged and hesitated at first,
I'd finally agree to edit the paper, and I did. But I was convinced
that if Magnet were to succeed, we had to establish a reputation for
being fearless, for telling the truth, and we also had to offer our
readers the very best of everything —the best layout, the best
writing, the best graphic arts, the best photographs, and the best
investigative reporting about the Black condition in Britain. In
short, because everything was being run on a shoestring, we had to
produce a first-rate paper that both served the community and
looked good. What happened Rudolph Dunbar
next is that old
knew a sympathetic English lord who owned the most modern
printing press in Europe
—
"An English lord? Am I hearing right?"
"Yes, the House of Lords, that house of the living dead, sports
an occasional maverick who breaks ranks with his peers. There's
even the odd Communist lord. The British ruling class is deft at
kicking troublemakers upstairs and suffocating them with honors.
Long ago, they even made Henry Morgan, one of the most
murderous of pirates, a 'sir' and appointed him governor of
Jamaica, and old Sir Henry ended up hanging several of his former
buddies."
"Kicking people upstairs just wouldn't work in America,"
Malcolm said.
"I suppose that right now, it wouldn't work there," I agreed, and
we both laughed before I added, "It would need an old, urbane,
and decadent society like this one to make the good old British
kicking-upstairs business work."
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The curious thing, though, is that the fire will never burn itself out
for as long as you live," I said, and as the mood in the room became
heavy and somber, I tried to dispel it by continuing my tale about
Magnet in a light and almost facetious vein.
"Anyway, we phoned his lordship, and he invited us to dinner.
During dinner at his club, we convinced him to have our paper
printed at his plant at rock-bottom cost. He agreed to this, adding
that ours was the smallest venture he'd ever bought into. Then, on
top of what we'd asked him to do, he instructed his public relations
office to do everything possible to help us, and he also gave the
same instructions to his technical staff at the plant. That's why the
publication of the first issue was announced on the BBC news and
why we had that array of VIPs at our reception at the Common-
wealth Institute."
Without looking up, Malcolm said soberly, "Jan, we're both
Black. We even look like blood relatives, but your world's very
different from mine. And yet ... I wouldn't exchange places
. . .
that. This Blake fellah really hit a bull's-eye. The Scottish fellah at
the Oxford Union debate quoted him, too."
"McDiarmid," I said.
"Yeah, that's him. If only I had the time to read everything I should
read! Blake sounds interesting," he exclaimed and added with a
laugh, " Tigers of wrath,' huh! When did this Blake guy live?"
"In the mid seventeen and early eighteen hundreds."
"When was popping."
slavery
"But Blake was an enemy of slavery, and he wrote so passion-
ately about Black folk that, long afterwards, some of us, reading
him for the first time, believed that he had to be one of us."
"He was a white liberal then."
"He was a great artist, a poet, an engraver, a philosopher king, a
visionary," I said heatedly.
"All right, Jan." He laughed, stopped pacing up and down, put
a reassuring hand on my shoulder, and observed, "You get all
worked up about these bookish things, eh?"
"The Black activist part of me sometimes collides with the
creative part and sparks begin to fly inside my head," I confessed.
"Islam not only makes all the scattered pieces of my life fit, it
glues them together. So even though sparks still fly inside my head,
I can control them before they start fires."
outlaw and a criminal in New York and Boston, the time and space
he had carved out for himself won for him an outlaw's freedom.
For compared to the "straight" world, the world of crime was truly
an equal opportunity one, with its own codes for interracial
mingling andits own very different prejudices and taboos. While
"You said that you're an on again, off again atheist earlier on,
didn't you?" Malcolm asked suddenly, and, taken aback, I paused
before answering somewhat guardedly, "I'm somewhere between
being an agnostic and an atheist and a denizen of the African and
Amerindian spirit worlds." He kept his eyes fixed on me, and I
This was not true of my village as a whole but it was certainly true
—
about my extended family the women ruled and they almost
invariably outlived the men. The womb of a mother was regarded
as the only certain place from which an authentic blood line could
be traced. So I grew up convinced that my maternal grandparents,
uncles, aunts, great aunts and great uncles, and their broods were
my closest relatives. It was impossible for me to see myself as an
individual. I even had a female ancestral spirit protector. My
mother would say to me over and over again, 'Your grandmother's
spirit is protecting you' or 'Your grandmother's spirit will always
look out for your interests
" — '
relative who has already passed on to the Spirit World. That's what
my village folk believe. That's the
—
"And what about you? Do you believe it?"
"When had malaria as a child, night after night in my dreams
I
I'd seen the grandmother who'd died before I was born. She'd be
about this dream, she'd say, 'Don't worry, it's your grandmother
"
looking after you.'
"You'd get along well with my mother," he said with a cryptic
Jan Carew 49
smile. "She always believed in all this West Indian stuff about
spirits and dreams and things supernatural."
He shifted restlessly in his chair, obviously feeling uncomfort-
able. I felt, however, that if Malcolm could take the business of his
ancestral links more seriously, then he would no longer see himself
as a lonely, beleaguered figure surrounded by enemies and idola-
tors and trustingno one.
"Who would you choose to be a spirit protector?" I asked. He
tapped his forehead with his long fingers, and then he replied
haltingly, "I suppose . . . my father . . . my mother's locked away in
her own world."
It was on the tip of my tongue to ask him if he ever really tried to
enter her world, but this was so personal and presumptuous that I
that t-e-a-rV"
"No, t-a-i-r-er
"You speak French?"
"Reasonably well. I started learning it in high school, and then I
studied in Paris."
"Where haven't you been, man! I wish I could speak foreign
languages. I felt like a fool in Guinea and Morocco, and in Egypt
might have touched a sore spot, but he sat back in his chair, looked
at the ceiling, and admitted, "I know now that there are knaves and
fools in many religions and for twelve years, an important section
of my mind was shut tight. It's dangerous to put any human being
on such a high pedestal that all his faults are out of sight. I did this
with Elijah Muhammad. He was the knave and I was the fool, and
I can't you what a big fool I was! For a while, I sincerely
tell
protect themselves, the law won't do it for them, and the police
won't do it for them, and the good white citizens and many Black
ones will stand aside and look on without a murmur of protest, and
their silence will kill as effectively as the guns the racists use against
us. It's our destiny as an African people to fight for civil rights and
human rights."
And I mused silently, "Why can't they acknowledge that he's
changed? That at the heart of what he is now espousing is a
devastating critique of the conventional Black politics of tranquili-
zation and stasis? Gandhi, paraphrasing Thoreau, who was one of
his Western spiritual mentors, once said that absolute consistency
was the hallmark of a small mind,and Malcolm's mind was one
with an unlimited capacity for absorbing new ideas. That is why he
has now decided to 'join forces with whomever and whatever
benefits all peoples.' Why aren't they talking about his new goals
and the fact that he has changed his worldview? His concepts of
race and class and his political, social, and economic theories have
moved outside the narrow confines of his former religious beliefs.
And now he is working to wean his followers away from the
Black/white gridlock of perpetual racial antagonisms."
Malcolm came out of his long reverie to declare: "It's as if we're
on a perpetual journey on a slave ship, and when the slaves get
noisy and violent and threaten to tear the whole ship apart, the
white captain sends a delegation down below to negotiate with the
so-called ringleaders. The guys they send down have been dealing
with Negroes for a long time, and they know how to size them up.
So, as they talk to them, they make mental notes and separate the
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few who can't be bought or broken from the ones who can be, and
they open the hatch, invite them come on deck where there's
all to
air to breathe and sunlight to warm them. Once they're on deck,
the hatch is battened down again. The ones who can't be bought or
broken are quietly taken aside and thrown to the sharks. The
others know what's going on, but they pretend it's not happening
because they're in cahoots with the whites who are getting rid of
troublesome Black leaders. So those chosen ones are fed well, and
then they're dressed up and encouraged to strut around like
roosters. When the folks down below become impatient and begin
to create a racket, those bought-and-paid-for misleaders open the
hatch a little and shout down to them, 'Brothers and sisters, be
patient! Here we are negotiating with these white folk, while you're
making things difficult for us by acting so uncivilized!' Then they
go back to living high on the hog until the next blowup threatens.
And when those misleaders can't keep the rebellious brothers and
sisters quiet any longer, the whites get rid of them and another
with absolute clarity that socialism was the only system through
which our true histories could be told. "What kind of socialism?"
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56 GHOSTS IN OUR BLOOD
everyone immediately leaps into the fray and asks, and my answer
is, a humane and resilient socialism that is sensitive to the rhythms
of life and to all human needs —material, cultural, psychological,
and individual. Above all, it must be a patient
spiritual, collective,
"As I told you before, the Muslims say, 'It is written.' " He was
smiling, but his eyes were sad, reflective, and inward-looking.
I launched into reminiscences about my great-gran once more to
counter his fatalism.
"My great-gran Belle used to tell me that there are ghosts in our
blood, and that we're lucky because the lowliest, the ones who
suffer most in the world of the living, are always top dogs in the
mother. Well, I stood up to them, and they beat the hell out of me.
Later on, while my was daubing iodine on my
great-gran Belle
bruises, she told me, 'It's the Carib blood in us that makes us want
to fight to the death. But where are the Caribs now? Gone!
Vanished! Next time those children taunt and bully you, use your
brain, boy! Run, but keep encouraging them to chase you. Once
you reach your yard, grab your slingshot, sic the dogs on them, and
attack.' She'd then insert her favorite ending to this advice by
declaring, 'The Almighty gave everyone a home spot, a sanctuary
spot, on this God's earth, but in His infinite wisdom He gave us
—
two Africa and Guyana.' Malcolm, you also have two Africa —
—
and America so there's no excuse for rushing to meet Mantop.
Let him come looking for you after you've lived out your full
fourscore and ten years."
Ignoring the pointed suggestion at the end of my story, Malcolm
said, "So, I've got ghosts of Africans, Caribs, and Allah alone
knows who else swimming in my blood, huh, Jan? That's some-
thing new." And he added with an excess of joviality while he
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your arsenal? You could record speeches and your followers could
distribute the tapes
—
"I couldn't live like a fugitive. They'll never stop putting
contracts out on me," he said with a chilling certainty, and I
thought:
"But things will change . . . attitudes will change. Talleyrand,
that wily old fox of a French statesman, one said that treason is a
matter of timing. Your incendiary ideas will look normal in a
couple of decades." I had spoken with such urgency and passion
that I didn't even know I'd raised my voice. Malcolm paused in his
pacing and put a reassuring hand on my shoulder for a moment.
When I had cooled down, I thought:
"All too often, I'd heard the heroic rhetoric of transatlantic,
drawing-room revolutionaries, and then I'd seen those hot gospel-
ers of revolution return home and settle into a mute, neocolonial
opulence. Would Malcolm be any different?" I asked myself,
"Maybe, he's afraid that he, too, might succumb?"
For a moment, his calm and inexorable decision terrified me. I
knew that I might have made a similar choice in the heat of the
moment, but once I had time to reflect, I'd have mulled over a wide
range of options and ended up taking a less heroic way out.
I said to myself, "He's choosing martyrdom, but there must be
"So you hardly trust anyone? What about me? Haven't I earned
any marks?"
"Do you think I would have spent so much time with someone
who hadn't moved from zero?"
"You've been talking to me for two days."
"This business of trusting people carries risks, doesn't it? The
strange thing is that the more people I trust, the more it seems have
betrayed me. Just the other day, something happened, and it made
me stop and think —who was it that said you should trust all men
"Deschooling got rid of a lot of it, but I'll still have to take great
dollops of it to my grave."
He ended this interlude of banter by pacing back and forth. Then
pausing in the middle of the room, he said:
"One saw the OAAU doing from the very
of the things that I
start was collecting the names of all the people of African descent
reminded him that during the Haitian revolution, the only person
that Toussaint L'Ouverture could trust implicitly was Age, a white
Jacobin who was his chief of staff. "Age hated the bigoted French
planters almost as much as Dessalines did," I told him.
"Don't worry," he said, with a broad smile, "I might not have a
white chief of staff. But I'll work with everyone who believes in my
cause."
"Really?" I said, looking up at him with mock disbelief, but his
rejoinder was a serious one.
"Yes. But I've got to go about building a movement carefully.
The last thing an Egyptian friend said to me when we were parting
is that I should never get too far ahead of my followers, because if
I'm so far ahead that I'm out of sight, they might turn back. I don't
want that to happen."
Sitting down directly opposite me, he confessed, "The first time
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Isaw you, I thought that I was looking in a mirror and seeing the
West Indian part of me that I know so little about."
"My great-gran Belle used to say that we're blessed with the
blood of the most persecuted folks on earth —Africans, Caribs,
Portuguese Jews, French convicts from Devil's Island, Highland
Scots, and only the Lord alone knows what else — so whenever we
cut ourselves, we can see the ghosts of those others peeping out
from among the African and Amerindian blood seeds. The ghosts
are always there talking their conflicting talk until there's a tower
of Babel inside your head. So we've got to listen well and search out
the kindest, the strongest, the most human of those voices and
make them our own, and that's where the African and Amerindian
part of us takes over."
"You're lucky," Malcolm said quietly, "you had a great-
grandmother who linked you directly with your African past."
"She died when I was twelve," I explained, "and at that time she
was well over a hundred. Nobody ever saw her birth certificate, but
my grandfather, the schoolmaster, said that she was a hundred and
sixteen when she went to meet her Maker."
"You're lucky," Malcolm repeated. "In America, Black folks are
mostly a people without a past. I always wanted to find out more
about my mother's Grenadian family, for example. I know about
my father's family, but I know very little about hers. I'm always
promising myself that I'll sit down with her and let her tell me
everything she can remember about her family. Perhaps I'll do that
when return
I home. Last time I saw her, her mind was clear as a
bell." He paused and added reflectively, "You know, she's been a
Garveyite since she was nineteen, and, boy-oh-boy, was she ever
the strict West Indian mother! When I was younger, I couldn't
understand how she was pushed over the edge by those racist
officials, but now I can. She was a widow working to support her
"I wonder why! They'd cheated her out of the insurance money
after my father's death, and a white judge coveted our house and
land —the house my father had built with his own hands. That
££
Jan Carew 63
judge wanted the house for one of his relatives. So the state took us
away from our mother and parceled us out to foster parents, and
she was shoved into a mental hospital. But after twenty-five years
of incarceration, twenty-five long years, she came out looking in
better shape than those who railroaded her into that institution. I
went to see her a couple of weeks after she was released. Twenty-
five years had gone by since Ihad last seen her "He paused and
looked into the distance. "Twenty-five years . .
," he repeated and
.
*»V»"
Jan Carew 65
could talk directly to Allah and have the Lord of Worlds talk to
them; and when no one dared make this claim, he'd remind them
that he, and he alone, was the Chosen One, the Messenger. Having
silenced them, he would then reveal, slowly and deliberately, what
Allah had allegedly told him.
Malcolm, however, never attempted to make any such claims.
His followers saw him as a bold, transparently honest, and
incorruptible leader. His mesmeric voice called on the lowliest and
the most despised to standup and stretch limbs that were stiff from
too much kneeling, and thousands responded.
Malcolm was, indeed, like that archetypal figure in Teme
cosmology, a truth-teller who was willing to risk all in defense of
the scorned, the rejected, and the despised. He told truths to his
followers with an unsurpassed eloquence before the bullets of
assassins silenced him.
raCSfc
FOUR
To be, or not to be — that is the question
It's
unfortunate that those bent on making Malcolm X into an
icon now that he's safely dead are, in fact, inventing a legendary
being that threatens to supplant the real one. A new generation of
idolators has either deliberately or inadvertently ignored the two
crucial speeches that Malcolm made Oxford Union and the
at the
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hood of all men, this did not mean that Black people in the name of
amity with all human beings should forgo all rights to defend
themselves against the violence of racists.
expected, and slower and older. Age was just seeping out of the
pores of every stone. The students were wearing caps and gowns as
if they graduated the first day they arrived and were then handed
diplomas years later, and they were riding bicycles that should've
been dumped long ago. I couldn't help wondering if I'd made a
mistake accepting the invitation to take part in the debate. But
Tony Abrahams had met me at the train station and, somehow, his
Jamaican ease banished some of my doubts. From the moment we
met, I couldn't help noticing how easily he dealt with those white
folks at Oxford, and them seemed to know him. He kept his
a lot of
Jamaicaness and yet he walked around Oxford like he owned it.
Negroes at Harvard and Yale always looked to me as if they were
being apologetic and making excuses for their Black selves in what
they're tricked into thinking is a white holy-of-holies. Looking
back, I must admit that I liked Oxford. It was old and cold, but the
students had open, inquiring minds. It was a place where a ruling
class reserved a special space for the best of minds to be thrown
into a brain-pool where they could learn to think their way out of
Jan Carew 69
Harlem never failed to break into the silence and remind me that
there at Oxford, I was near the top of a pyramid while below were
the oppressed carrying it on their backs."
Malcolm was assassinated less than three months after his Oxford
visit, and Anthony Abrahams never again saw him alive. A year
later, after Anthony had graduated from Oxford, I ran into him in
they asked if there was anybody from Jamaica or anywhere else that
I would like to invite. I said, 'Yes, Malcolm X!' 'Malcolm who? The
man in America who's causing all those problems?' That's the sort of
reaction I got. I think they thought he was Martin Luther King. They
didn't seem to know the difference. Anyhow, they agreed, and we
made contact with Malcolm X and sent the necessary tickets and
what have you, but it turned out at the last moment that he called and
said he wouldn't be able to make it because he was going to Mecca.
We spoke again, and he then agreed that on his way back from
Mecca, he would pass through Britain. And he did. He came up to
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Oxford and spent four days with me. The four days, of course,
included the Thursday night of the debate. I think he came on
Tuesday or Wednesday and stayed till Friday.
"Well, I've always followed the American civil rights struggle,
and I saw him as very much the person who was making the most
sense to me. I didn't believe in those days that nonviolence was
going to be the answer. In fact, I really am surprised at the extent to
which America, short of a violent overthrow or a violent upsurge,
would have agreed to go along with the degree of social changes
that have taken place. So my hopes were on Malcolm X, not on
Martin Luther King. I saw Martin Luther King as well, I saw . . .
night during the four nights and four days he was there. ... I was
sharing this apartment with Richard Fletcher — Richard is now
with the American Development Bank — and we opened the doors
between our two rooms, and sort of turned the two rooms into a
mini-mall and Malcolm would sit there and talk to those white
. . .
hearing him talk about white devils, and the white students would
clap. I thought that was a most remarkable experience. Here was
this man talking about racial injustice, and, well, he didn't mince
words. If you looked at his thoughts, they were not violent
thoughts, they were reasoned thoughts. But his language was
violent. I really mean it, he didn't mince words! And seeing those
white kids cheering this man who was talking about white oppres-
sion was remember that very clearly.
really something. I
him that I'd already raised the question with my committee and
everyone had agreed to make this exception for him. He said
nothing. And we walked out and about. You know, we must have
walked for about twenty-five yards when he turned to me and said,
'I really don't like wearing tails, but if it's going to be any
embarrassment to you at all, I'd be happy to wear tails.' I just
thought that in those days you would hardly expect anyone from
the radical side of things to make that kind of concession. Perhaps
that was indicative of how much he had changed since his early
days of hot gospeling.
"We spent a lot of time discussing his relationship with Martin
Luther King and the whole civil rights movement in America. He
told me and Martin corresponded and that they spoke to
that he
each other, but there were real differences between them, even
though the differences were sincere and genuine ones. Yes, Mal-
colm never spoke disparagingly of him at all. He confided that even
if King's approaches were right, he felt that his approach, at worse,
exactly a girlfriend, but one of the young ladies around the Oxford
Union with whom
was very friendly. And she, listening to this
I
came back rather speedily, sort of surprised that there was this rare
Black man who turned down a beautiful woman. Which again
reenforced for me, in a very small and insignificant way, I suppose,
his integrity.
"... The actual motion of the debate was 'Extremism in the
defense of liberty is no vice, moderation in the pursuit of justice is
no virtue.' This was a statement made by Barry Goldwater from
the far right, and I had adopted it as the motion.
"... You must understand Cambridge is the
that at Oxford,
only other place that exists, and vice versa. The Oxford boat . . .
race is all about beating Cambridge, and with cricket it's the same
thing. It was crucial that the president of the Oxford Union [with
his chosen partner] win the debate against his Cambridge oppo-
nent [and bis chosen partner]. But Malcolm was not the usual
. . .
speech and, I mean, he just tore him up. I myself was always careful
in dealing with race with people on the other side of the aisle. I
didn't want to ruffle their sensibilities too much. But with Malcolm
and Humphrey, it was something else. The amazing thing, though,
was to see those white people standing up and cheering Malcolm X
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where his death might have come from because, reinforced with his
visit Mecca, he probably would have started his own church,
to
something much more fundamental than Muhammad in terms of
being true to Islam. He was very, very preoccupied with the
possibility of his death. I'm not absolutely certain, but my recollec-
tion is that he was more fearful of the American government
authorities than he was of Elijah Muhammad.
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American white audiences might not have sensed that this was —
not a man motivated by hatred of white people. This was a man
who operated at a totally cerebral level. You got the feeling that
you were dealing with a very careful, scholarly man who saw clear
distinctions and who could illuminate those distinctions by anal-
ogy. I had expected to meet someone who was hurt, angry,
quarrelsome, bitter. This wasn't the case. He was totally cerebral,
totally intellectual, and a nonemotional person."
The motion that was debated was, in fact, one of the more
famous statements on extremism made by Barry Goldwater at the
Cow Palace in San Francisco when he accepted the Republican
nomination for the American presidential election. There had been
an attempt by more moderate Republicans to induce the party to
condemn certain extremist right-wing groups, especially the John
Birch Society, but Goldwater had brushed this aside and had given,
it seemed at the time, a green light to these right-wing groups that
veered close to the lunatic fringe. But subsequent events proved
that Goldwater had greater prescience than his detractors had
credited him with. He foresaw the national shift to the right more
clearly than they did.
In order to discredit whatever Malcolm said during the debate,
the BBC announcers made sure to point out that among those
arguing in favor of the motion were Malcolm X, "one of the
leaders of the BlackMuslims in America," and Hugh MacDiarmid,
a Scottish nationalist who, even more dreadful than being Black,
radical, and a nationalist, had the malice to be a Communist. So
Malcolm was, by implication, firmly relegated to an extremist
corner. The contumacious labels were meant to intimate to the
viewers that these two debaters were not to be taken seriously no
matter what they said. Incidentally, Malcolm was, at the time, no
longer a Black Muslim, a point he made very clearly at the
beginning of his speech when he said, "I am a Muslim and my
religion is Islam. As a Muslim, I believe in the brotherhood of all
peoples,and Iam absolutely against discrimination in any shape or
form." The BBC commentators, however, deliberately chose to
ignore these statements. They wanted to demonize Malcolm and
portray him as a bigot. A Black male truth-teller was a threat to
their cozy and racist beliefs.
Nevertheless, there was still much that could be seen even on the
edited tapes of the BBC. Anthony Abrahams set the tone of the
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—Shakespeare, Hamlet
"I liked the way Shakespeare portrayed that Hamlet guy. Read
the play in prison, and learned whole passages by heart."
"So that's why you ended your Oxford Union debate with 'To
"
be or not to be, that is the question. . . .
'
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"That Hamlet guy was really mixed up. He couldn't make up his
mind about some things, but he loved his father and never forgave
his mother for betraying him and then jumping right into marriage
with the uncle," he said.
began to find him a bit of a bore, and when the fun-loving and
unscrupulous uncle came along, she fell for his line of sweet talk.
Now Hamlet, on the other hand, was in love not with a flesh-and-
blood mother but with a perfect being he had created in his
imagination, and when he saw her having a ball with his raunchy
uncle, jealousy began to gnaw at his guts."
really was. I'll start digging into the family history as soon as I'm
back home," he promised.
"You should begin with your mother," I suggested, "A Chinese
proverb says that women hold up half the sky."
"I and I sensed that he was talking
need time," Malcolm said,
ences, good and bad, that made the Oxford one so stimulating. If I
stayed there too long, I'd just dry up and wither away. So I've got to
go back to a brutal, racist country where our folks have to learn
how to organize for self-defense. The theory has to be part of that
struggle or else would be
it like froth that disappears before you
can taste it, I know
that you mean well with all this talk about
ancestors and roots, and what did you call it? Hamletism? You're
telling me in so many words that I shouldn't go back right now. But
I've made up my mind, and I'm going back," he said, facing me.
"All right," I said, looking him in the eye, "the real issue is this:
our ancestors survived because there were those who were willing
to live for the struggle, and those who were ready to die for it. I'm
suggesting that you should seriously consider the option of living
for the struggle, going into hiding, writing, studying, evolving ....
I'm certain that you'll never sell out .... Before the Harpers Ferry
raid,John Brown had a secret meeting with Frederick Douglass
and pleaded with him to call for a general slave uprising. But if
Douglass had done this, he'd have been a martyr, and after the
bloodbath the Black struggle would've been held in check for at
least fifty years."
didn't for one moment flatter myself that I was some kind of special
being talking to them, because I knew that through me they were
expressing their solidarity with the twenty-two million oppressed
Negroes in America. So they spent hours talking to me. Those talks
broadened my outlook and made it crystal clear to me that had to I
that I steered our talk away from the morbid subject of the threats
to his life and said, "The Ejaus of the Niger say that journeys to far
places help to scrape you down to the simplest common denomina-
tor of what you really are as a human being."
"Scraping, huh? My father used to preach about the scales
falling from people's eyes, but that African scraping deals with the
whole body. Can you imagine our Toms being scraped down to the
simplest common denominator of what they really are as human
beings?" he asked rhetorically. "It would turn them into jellyfish,
because it's only the crusts that are holding them up." After
reflecting for a while, he asked, "Look, why not tell me more about
yourself? How is it that you survived this scraping?"
that every Black man has a magical sugar stick between his legs.
The word is out on the gossip-gram over here that J. Edgar
Hoover's obsessed with this myth of the black super-stud. I heard
this from a Negro journalist who was on the Washington beat. But
isn't that the archetypal myth that's lodged in the mind of every
white male, and the American white male in particular? And many
white women believe it, too, while all too many Negro men try to
live up to it. White racism credits us with having phenomenal
way of intelligence."
"And what about your wife's friends?"
"She lost a couple, but of the ones who remained her friends, a
few of them wanted to find out if sleeping with a Black man did,
indeed, bring magical sexual delights. Every time she turned her
back, one of them tried to explore that myth with me. My wife's
father, though, is a white settler in Kenya, and he refused to have
anything to do with her. But, then again, she was a rape-child. Her
mother hated her, and she hated her mother right back. As for her
father, during her entire adult life she must have seen him only half
a dozen times."
"This is a strange place," Malcolm said. "I've seen the insides of
travel of their own free will either, after that first, forced Atlantic
defend yourselves. You can take my word for it, law won't defend
you," Malcolm warned.
"The aggression stage is already upon us, man, but it will take a
long time and almost unbearable racist pressures for our dark
million to realize that they must unite and link up with Black and
other Third World peoples all over the world," I cautioned.
"Then you'd better get to work right away."
"That's what we're trying to do with Magnet. Garvey said that
first we must change our way of thinking, and then, peacefully,
fashion the weapons with which to fight, and we're trying to follow
that Garveyite advice. That's the only way we can survive with
dignity as a people."
"Those are good points," Malcolm declared, nodding his ap-
proval, "and I like that part about peacefully fashioning the
weapons to fight with! That's good advice."
"You know, when it comes to race relations, the British are even
more arrogant and ignorant than the most benighted white Ameri-
cans. In their heart of hearts, they'd like to see every man, woman,
and child of color dispatched to some faraway limbo-land. The
American whites, in the midst of their virulent race baiting, know
in their bones that they need to have Blacks around. Without those
been taking place since the time of Elizabeth I, the Virgin Queen.
She got so upset about the sizable Black population in England that
she passed an anti-Black immigration law. Then more recently,
during the two world wars, thousands of West Indian, African,
Afro-American, and colored Commonwealth servicemen and
women helped to increase the mixed-race population."
Malcolm brought me back to the story of my life in Britain when
he asked with an amused insistence, "So what about this English
colonel, the one whose wife you stole? Didn't I hear you say that
you were still on friendly terms?"
"Stole is not the right word —" I chided him, and he recanted.
"All right, pitched some woo at and married."
"Yes, the colonel and I are friends. Relations between us have
always been pretty cordial. After all, I had custody of his children."
"It sure is different here," Malcolm acknowledged ruefully.
outsider who hears about this kind of thing, but the white man
plays all kinds of mind games on us. In the midst of lynching and
brutalizing us, he has still persuaded most of us that U.S. Blacks are
superior to you King George Negroes or anyone else of color for
that matter."
"The do that everywhere. First they overwhelm us
imperialists
with their white, male symbols," I concurred, "then they play
divide-and-rule games with us. They sell us the idea of a white God,
a white Jesus, the West on top, the rest of us below! The white king
is dead, long live the white queen! Right now, it's different here,
vision of the struggle has been broadened, that's true, but my basic
commitment is the same. Is racism dead and buried? Can I trust the
white American any more than I did before? Are white liberals less
treacherous than they were before?"
"But some of your views have changed," I insisted.
and that of all of my ancestors, and that denial would haunt her for
the rest of her days."
Malcolm nodded soberly and looked away for a few seconds.
Then, turning back to me, he said, "The little bit of walking around
The same heart, the same pulse that beats in the Black
man on the African continent today is beating in the
heart of the Black man in North America, Central
America, South America, and in the Caribbean. Many of
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decidedly better as the time drew near. Dermot Hussey had joined
us and there were desultory exchanges as Malcolm got ready. I said
jokingly, "We'll act as your bodyguards," but he did not respond.
As we watched Malcolm getting dressed, it struck me again that,
somehow, no one had ever captured what he really looked like. It
was easier to match iridescent colors in a kaleidoscope than to
capture the real persona of this remarkable man. It would forever
elude the bright lights, the television cameras, the swift, incandes-
cent flare of flashbulbs. And as for artists trying to paint portraits
of him, the more the artists watched, the less they appeared to have
seen. And I thought:
"They say that not even the most gifted artists of their time could
capture a reasonable likeness of Ignatius Loyola on a canvas or in
stone. Malcolm X —
and Loyola five centuries separate them and
how different one is from the other but they have this in com- —
mon: no one will ever know what Loyola looked like, and no one
who didn't see Malcolm in the flesh will ever know what he really
looked like."
When we were about to leave the hotel, he said, "It would be
better if we didn't leave together."
white hunters and their Black gun carriers, trackers, and house
boys are out to bag him."
As we walked toward my car, he said casually, "They warned
me that England was cold, and it is." He adjusted his Astrakhan
hat and buttoned his coat. But I noticed that despite his easy,
bantering tone, he trusted no one at that moment, for he knew in
his bones that those tracking him down had eyes and ears in every
corner of the earth.
I thought that we'd become very close, but out there on the cold
and impersonal London streets a chasm opened between us. I knew
that neither the adulation of thousands nor the devotion of many
who were willing to die for him would have been enough to fill the
void of loneliness surrounding him. For in the midst of fighting for
the dark millions in Africa and the Americas, he was in danger of
being transformed into a black version of that Dostoyevskian
character who loved the human race so much that he could not
bear to have another person in a room with him for long.
As we settled into my car, I bridged an uncomfortable silence by
talking about the weather.
"When you first come here, the weather torments you, perse-
cutes you, goads you to despair, and dries your dark skin until it
that they can't take them off. Then you boast to yourself that the
sun's in your blood, that you've inherited an invincible heart from
ancestors, and that in spite of the darkness that comes in the
afternoon, you still keep seeing the bluest skies and the brightest
suns in your mind's eye."
"Toms who wear white masks for so long that they can't show
their real faces anymore!" He laughed out loud, and the chasm that
had opened between us was narrowed by that laughter.
I parked on Norfolk Street and as we walked toward Aldwych
and the London School of Economics, I pointed out the West India
Committee building, Fleet Street, the BBC Bush House, the Indian
High Commission, and the theater district.
"This whole area is where the past and the present collide.
There's the West India Committee where the sugar barons had
their headquarters. They made the deals to buy and sell millions of
our ancestors, to scatter them across a hemisphere, and often to
work them to death on plantations, but they themselves were
careful never to touch the money while it was still slippery with our
blood. By the time it reached them, it was laundered and per-
fumed."
"Tell me more about those students I'm about to face. Folks say
they're liberal, but how liberal are they?"
you know of such a country, please write and tell me about it. I
reached the LSE, the gray morning and the gray, somber afternoon
looked the same.
While we were waiting backstage in the Old Theatre, I peered
through the curtain and reported, "The room's packed. Students
are sitting in the aisles. After your triumph at Oxford, you're a hit
with these university types."
"I like the intellectual give-and-take at universities, but I'll never
stop seeing the big picture through the eyes of my folk in Harlem.
For, after all my travels, Harlem's my take-off spot on this earth.
Nothing will make me forget the suffering of our folk who endured
all kinds of punishment for no reason other than that they have
black skins. No and no matter if I'm a Muslim,
matter where I go,
Christian, Hindu, atheist, or agnostic, I'll keep on keeping on in
From behind the curtain, I could see the white, black, yellow, and
various shades of brown faces looking up at him, and adding an
exotic touch to the gathering was a sprinkling of turbaned heads
like night The murmurs that rose
orchids blooming in the daytime.
and fell after the applause died down were like waves climbing and
retreating up and down a beach at ebb tide. The audience expected
an ebony Savonarola, and what they saw instead was a tall,
elegant, light-skinned Afro-American with gray-green eyes that
appraised them coolly from behind rimless spectacles.
What was significant about this and other forums at which
Malcolm spoke in Britain and France was that African students
were the principal organizers. Everywhere that he had gone in
Africa, young people had come in the hundreds to hear him speak,
and the news about his bold and stirring call for a transatlantic
minds. He thanked the Africa Society for inviting him and said that
he had been told that students at the LSE were smart, enlightened,
and noted for giving controversial speakers like himself a hard
time. "I look forward to the verbal contests that will ensue after I
Harlem.
The opening themes he touched on in his talk at the LSE were
loaded with coded messages to his grassroots constituents in
America's inner cities. The media had noised it everywhere that he
had "changed"; that after his pilgrimage to Mecca he no longer
denounced whites as devils; that he had abandoned Elijah Muham-
mad's Manichean doctrines. The underlying suggestion in these
rumors was that somehow he had "sold out" and betrayed his
"gullible" followers. The grassroots folk were accustomed to hot
gospelers of Black revolution assailing the citadels of white, male
power with incendiary words and then, in a thrice, being co-opted,
neutralized, silenced, or killed. But they trusted Malcolm above all
contempt that had been foisted on the backs of slave ancestors and
then on theirs. He was more in tune with the secret rhythms of their
lives than any Black leader had been since Marcus Garvey.
So speaking to that sophisticated audience at the LSE, he was
also sending messages to calm the fears and apprehensions of his
inner-city devotees. He knew and they knew that the media would
automatically misconstrue his words, quote him out of context,
and attribute the basest of motives to his deeds, but they were
skilled at reading between the lines, ignoring the sly, racist innuen-
dos, and drawing their own conclusions.
The enthralled listeners at the LSE did not realize that Malcolm
was at once speaking to them and to a transatlantic audience. He
explained that he was now an orthodox Muslim and that his
religion taught brotherhood. He no longer judged people by the
color of their skin, but, he added, "I have to be a realist — I live in
do it himself."
While sending coded messages home, he was also warning the
new immigrants of color in Britain that in white-dominated
societies, they should never rely entirely on laws and statutes for
their protection from racism; that when the agencies of the state are
those brutes had gone insane while they were beating him to
death."
His bald, detailed account of the murder of three civil rights
I wondered whether Malcolm had seen the tears and the anger in
the eyes fixed on him —
white tears and Black tears, white anger
and Black anger for transatlantic victims of racist violence.
Threading its way through that brilliant speech was a pristine
belief in the "African revolution." This was a declaration of faith
by someone who would not live long enough to see the twists and
turns that revolution would take or the brutal and savage low-
intensity warfare unleashed against whole societies that were
trying to free themselves from the imperialist yoke.
Toward the end of his speech Malcolm the visionary moved
away from parochial moorings into the open seas of world
revolution. "The Black man in the Western Hemisphere," he
declared, "and especially in the United States, is beginning to see
where his problem is not one of civil rights, but it is rather one of
human rights. Once this problem is brought onto the world stage,
then we can join forces with brothers and sisters in Africa, Asia, the
Caribbean, Latin America, and those people in Europe who would
join us to see that our rights are guaranteed, because," he con-
cluded, and his voice was charged with a passionate conviction,
"the oppressed masses of people all over the world . . . are crying
out for action against the common oppressor."
In that last part of his speech, Malcolm gave the clearest
indication of how he had changed and, consequently, how his
as they had done before him, that when Africa is free and united,
then Black people everywhere will be treated with respect.
Malcolm was appealing directly to the finest instincts of the
overwhelming majority of young people in the audience. He was
calling on Black people everywhere to unite and stand shoulder to
shoulder with Asians, Latin Americans, and "those people in
Europe, some of whom claim to mean right, [to] do whatever is
The ones that had served him well when he was transforming
Elijah Muhammad's obscure, millenarian movement into a nation-
wide one that was alarming the white power structure were no
longer valid. The theory that Black people should own the small
businesses in their neighborhoods was central to the economic
philosophy of Black nationalism. It is, of course, a perfectly valid
theory. But the theory caged itself in the ghettos and suggested that
in a capitalist system one could have capitalist communes that
could exist largely unto themselves. It became more theology and
wish fulfillment than economic fact. Malcolm had pointed out that
when the people of the inner cities could not have face-to-face
confrontations with absentee owners of businesses in their neigh-
borhoods, they would attack their property instead, that when
those folks were accused of rioting and "destroying their own
neighborhoods," this was false, since the majority were tenants
and itinerants in the inner cities who owned little besides the
clothes on their backs.
But those invisible agents of exploitation —the absentee land-
lords —were actually piggybacking on the bigger capitalists such as
the real estate conglomerates, the food industry, the banks, and so
on. These were the most formidable predators in the capitalist
free-market forests, but their invisibility was more absolute than
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that of those riding on their backs. They were screened from the
gaze of have-nots in the ghetto by towering battlements of class,
race, gender, and an elaborate state apparatus.
While he was abroad, Malcolm could see the whole network of
exploitation and not just its strands in the ghettos. His meetings with
heads of state and his long conversations with them had helped him
to see the visceral connections among imperialism, colonialism, and
racism. He also saw clearly that religion, be it Christian, Muslim,
Hindu, Buddhist, or any other, could be used either to anesthetize the
The laughter that greeted this statement was both friendly and
spontaneous. I kept thinking as I watched those eager faces in the
"but after they had time to think things over, he'd be manning the
barricades alone. Still, one or two people in that crowd will always
remember what he said, and it might change their lives. And then,
perhaps, they'll change the lives of others."
On the way to his next appointment, the flu reasserted itself and
Malcolm slumped down in the backseat of the car.
"I was trying to detect who the British and American agents were
in the crowd," I said, and he perked up. "Did you notice the man
with the child in his arms?" I asked.
"Yes, I spotted him," Malcolm said. "He wasn't an agent, but
there was a white guy sitting a few rows from the back. I recognized
him. He follows me around everywhere."
"A secret agent who isn't Dermot commented.
so secret,"
"They try to intimidate me," Malcolm said, straightening him-
selfand laughing.
"He's pumping up the adrenaline for his next meeting," I told
myself, looking at him in the rearview mirror. "Jesus Lord, the
chap's amazing." Somehow, at that moment I remembered the
simple inscription on Henri Christophe's tomb: "I WILL RISE AGAIN
FROM MY ASHES." And I thought, "The only way they'll be able to
prevent Malcolm from rising again from his ashes would be to let
him live and discredit himself. If they kill him, he's sure to rise from
his ashes again and again."
7Si
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SEVEN
I was afraid of life and asked myself, what will it be like
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female of color is one of those sexist cliches that dies hard even in
the minds of its victims. Rufina Wynter, a professor at Stanford
University, once confessed that the first time she saw a true literary
image of herself as a West Indian woman of mixed blood was when
she read Edgar Mittelholzer's novel The Life and Death of Sylvia.
Before the rewarding discovery of the Sylvia in that sensitively
wrought and illuminating novel, she had invariably seen
said, she
women of color as unintelligent, oversexed, and exotic creatures
breathlessly waiting to be used and rejected by white heroes.
Literature, films, and television have provided us with an infinite
number of distorted images of the fictitious and dehumanized
mulatto female. This was part of a rationale used to justify slavery
and its monstrous cruelties. Frederick Douglass, in his brilliant and
moving autobiography, left us an unforgettable record of how
mulattoes, both male and female, had to face a special brand of
and exploitation in the American South. The
malice, spite, hatred,
offspring of white plantation owners and slave women, he said,
were almost invariably treated more harshly than their unmixed
African kin. He himself, he attested, grew up knowing that his
father was the owner of the plantation on which he worked as a
slave. The white wives of the planters, in particular, he said, vented
individuals whom
one occasionally runs into in Black communi-
ties. After dropping out of college, he devoted his life and personal
both by the content of the material he had amassed and by the way
he had carefully arranged and meticulously classified the priceless
documents. Seeing the array of research material in his study, a
still with his large hands in repose when he spoke stood out in stark
contrast to the restless Malcolm I remembered; Malcolm could
never sit still for long, and his eloquent hands constantly re-
the strongest man I ever knew, though, and even in my prime I was
never as strong as he was."
My first serious conversations with Wilfred began when I was a
guest in his house in 1991. They continued later in the year when
he visited me in Bloomington, Illinois. Before launching into
reminiscenses about his mother, Wilfred said, "We're living in a
world of illusions. When I talk to people, I tell them that all the
great, big phony world! What you think you see is not really what
you see.' They teach a lot of idealism to students in the best schools,
but when they get out into the real world, they find that it's a whole
different way that things are run out there, that there's a whole lot
of lying, deceiving, cheating, and murder out there. My mother
knew it, and Malcolm knew it. But I'm proud of my family, and
proud that my way made us grow up with
parents in their modest
a self-identity and with pride in what we were. Malcolm continued
the work that my father and mother started. He took their Marcus
Garvey philosophy a step further."
In his quiet avuncular fashion, Wilfred began telling an entirely
different story of his mother's life from the one that the biogra-
phers of Malcolm X had so far penned. "The story of her life was
an epic one," he declared proudly. "The epic began in Grenada,
continued in Canada, and ended here in the States. In all three
countries there are parts of her life waiting to be resurrected.
"She was a small-boned and slender woman, five feet eight
inches tall, and she carried herself well. Because she always held
herself erect, she looked taller, but beside my six-foot-four father
she looked short. She was and had a full head of
also fair-skinned
hair. Her feet, though, were narrow, and she had a time finding
shoes. Yes, she carried herself well, and the springs didn't go out of
her legs until she was past eighty and talking about feet, I —
remember Malcolm's feet and the way he used to walk. With his
tall self, he had what I called a tiger-boy walk. He sure had his own
special way of walking. You could tell from a distance that it was
Malcolm. But my mother didn't simply disappear into a world of
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madness after my father's death, so let me try and fill in some of the
missing pieces for you.
"When my father died on September 28, 1931, we were living in
that it looked real nice. He literally built our home with his own
two hands. He had to build it one section at a time. Because of his
Garveyite beliefs, nobody would give him a regular job. The whites
said that he was uppity, and there were a lot of frightened Negroes
who grumbled that he and my mother were rocking the boat. But
he was a resourceful man and she was a resourceful woman. He'd
leave home early and walk the roads, going from farm to farm and
offering to do whatever repairs the farm buildings needed and he —
could point out to the farmers where repairs were needed, so those
white farmers would allow him to do that kind of odd-job work for
them. He was good at it, and they had a respect for his skill as a
worker.
"But let me back up a bit. We plowed and planted crops on our
own land and raised most of our own food, so before he home
left
well into the night; she made dresses and crocheted gloves for
mostly white women. If my father had continued to live, no telling
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what we would have turned out to be, because we were a very tight
family. We worked together, and our parents always had us
working toward some useful goal.
"But my father's death had a devastating effect on our tight
family unit. We were living in Lansing at the time, and I'll always
remember the night he was almost cut in half on the streetcar line.
He had come home after a long day's work and was just about to
settle down for the night when he announced that he was going
something bad could happen to you out there tonight.' She had a
way of foretelling events, and I don't remember her ever being
wrong. But my father had made up his mind. He put on his jacket
and left saying that he'd be back soon. She ran after him, calling
out, 'Don't go, Earlie! Come back, Earlie!' I can't remember ever
seeing her like that before. Anyway, I stayed with her as usual
while she did her chores, and a couple of hours later we heard a
noise as if someone opened the front door, entered, and walked
upstairs. 'Did you hear your father come in and go upstairs?' my
mother asked. 'Yes, I heard as if someone come in,' I said, but when
she went upstairs and checked, he wasn't there. It wasn't too long
after that that a state trooper came to the door and told my mother
that she should come to the hospital right away because my father
had been seriously injured in an accident.
"So, all of a sudden, my mother was on her own with all those
children and no help from anywhere. Other Black people who lived
in the city looked upon us as being odd because we were always
going against the stream and our parents were always challenging
things that they didn't think were right. My father was always out
there trying to encourage our people to get together and do
something to improve their lives, but they felt that he and my
mother were rocking the boat and that she, in particular, didn't
think the way they did. She didn't like the idea of charity, but all of
a sudden she had no husband, and there was no way with all those
children but to accept charity. The house was unfinished, the
insurance company was saying that my father's death was a
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Wilfred explained. In 1993, after visiting Grenada for the first time,
he said, "Perhaps someday her remains can finally be laid to rest at
La Digue, where she was born and where she grew up."
As my conversations with Wilfred continued, images of Louise
Little as a tragic, victimized female faded and bold new ones
portrayed her as a complex, heroic, strong-willed, and intelligent
Grenadian woman who, despite all of the tragedies that had
befallen her, played a vital role in shaping the character of her
children."During the years between childhood and early youth,"
Wilfred said, "my mother and father, who were both staunch
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and now I can understand why they had to be strict. But in addition
to drilling her in the three R's as if her life depended on it, my
mother's Grenadian teachers taught her to recite poetry and helped
her develop a love for words. My mother constantly dinned into
our heads that a good education offered the best chance for us to
make something worthwhile of our lives."
Wilfred could sit as still as a Native American shaman, and I
thought, "He never gestures with his hands they way Malcolm did.
How different the two are! Even after a short time in his presence,
you can see how all his life he has had to be cautious, disciplined,
dedicated, and absolutely responsible." He reminded me of a wise
old elephant who always tests bridges before crossing them. There
was a chuckle in his voice when he continued:
"Every day when we came home from school, my mother would
sit us down and have us read aloud passages from Marryshow's
paper The West Indian. Marryshow was her countryman and
somebody she boasted about all the time. He and Garvey were her
two idols. Marryshow, a Black Grenadian, could write the English
language with more polish and, at the same time, tell you more
about the world situation than all those white reporters writing in
Anyway, when we were doing our
the Detroit papers put together.
homework, was always a dictionary on the table, and when
there
we mispronounced a word my mother made us look it up and learn
both to spell and to pronounce it correctly. By reading that
Marryshow paper day after day, we developed reading and writing
skills superior to those of our white classmates. By reading
but I had heard enough. The picture he had drawn of his mother had
already brought her to life for me. The burst of strictness was part of
a desperate bid to teach last-minute lessons in survival to her children
before a concatenation of pressures overwhelmed her.
Wilfred then emphasized a point that the biographers of Mal-
colm have ignored: "Although the family was broken up, my
mother's early teachings stayed with us. I always remember that
she didn't like to live in the city, and my father didn't like it either.
nation. This was only natural, since, as the eldest in the family, he
had been her principal confidant after her husband's death.
After his visit to Grenada in 1993, Wilfred confessed that the
journey to his mother's homeland had been one of the most
important and rewarding in his life. That visit, he said, helped him
to gather fragments from stories of her early life that she had told
him over the years and to piece them together as he had never been
able to do before.
One of the highlights of his visit was when his Grenadian hosts
took him to the spot on which his great-grandmother's house had
once stood. All traces of what had once been the family home for
three generations, however, were erased by time, neglect, hurri-
canes, and successive growth of and yet it was
tropical vegetation,
in that vanished house that his mother was born and it was there
that she had grown up. Apart from stating the bald facts about that
historic visit, Wilfred told me nothing about how he felt while
looking at that vacant, overgrown plot of land. A few months later,
however, he confessed that he would like to have his mother's
ashes returned to Grenada and buried on that spot, so that
although the house was no longer there, the memory of this place
where she had and played and dreamed her first dreams
lived
would be kept alive. For Malcolm, her world-renowned fourth
some little person can strut and shine for a moment, there's always
room for him or her to jump at the chance to do this, and this applies
to folks in Grenada just like it does to folks here."
An American biographer of Malcolm X who
was obviously
unaware of the complexity of social customs in West Indian
society, wrote somewhat prissily that Louise's mother had had
three children out of wedlock. The implication was that this
showed a terrible flaw in her character. Although Louise was
definitely not the child of common-law parents, it should have
been pointed out that the term "out of wedlock" is largely
meaningless unless one is talking about the elites or the "respect-
able" lower middle class in West Indian society. The majority of
West Indians do not regard "illegitimacy" as something to be
excoriated. The fact is that a significant percentage of West Indian
children born "out of wedlock" are the offspring of parents living
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"La Digue? Isn't that where Malcolm X's mother grew up?" I
asked.
"That's where Louise Langdon was born," she confirmed. I
already knew that she and Louise had grown up together. Someone
had told me so, and that was why I had asked a friend to take me to
her house in the hills. Once I had befriended her and allayed her
suspicions, she began to talk to me freely about Louise and her
family. must confess, though, that talking to a number of other
I
folk, I often recalled Oscar Wilde's quip about the Irish, and I
echoing inside the room. Because of the way in which she spoke to
me at first, I could not help concluding that in her silent rumina-
tions she had grown accustomed to past events flashing across her
mind, not in chronological order, but according to her mood at a
were something that they were not. Like my family, they weren't
poor, but they weren't rich either. They were comfortable, though,
and didn't have to scratch and scrounge for a living. If Louise
wanted to play white, she had the color and hair to do it, but, even
if it wasn't in her nature to do stupidness like that —
and to tell you
—
the God's truth, it wasn't that grandmother of hers wouldda put
a stop to that kind of behavior from the start. It still have plenty
foolishness in this place. Take the matter of hair. Stupid people will
say that there is good hair and bad hair, but what I say is this:
there's obedient hair and unruly hair. Hair that can give a comb a
hard time is obedient hair, the strongest wind can't blow it all over
the place, water can't paste it to your skull and block your vision
with it, and no matter how hard you shake your head, it will stay in
place
—
"What was Louise's mother like?" I asked, interrupting her.
"How you mean? What she looked like or what she was as a
woman?"
"Both."
"She died when was too young to remember, but my mother
I
told me that she was a good looker, with color and good hair.
Musta had some coolie blood in her, or Carib in addition to the tar
brush, she said, though she wasn't sure exactly which one. Mother
and daughter, though, were cut from the same cloth of wayward-
ness. But Granny Gertrude Langdon brought Louise up with a
strict hand. Now that was a woman with a wise head on her
shoulders!"
"Who?" I asked, because as the words flowed from her lips she
seemed to assume that I was already intimately acquainted with all
"The same school, yes, and we sat side by side on the same
bench. Every day Louise turned up with her school uniform
starched and stiff as buckram, and clean, but by afternoon she'd be
going home with her clothes all rumpled up. She could run deer
speed, and we used to play rounders and hopscotch and climb up a
mahogany tree in the school yard. You know how many times that
girl get me in trouble? More times than I can count. We used to
take a shortcut home, pelt the cows, tease the ram-goats, chase the
fowls —we got plenty
— beatings for that
wild, tomboy behavior, but
that didn't stop us
"Was she bright?"
"Bright? She was brighter than all of us, but she didn't settle
down to studying until her grandmother started watching her like
a hawk and paying Teacher Ansel to give her private lessons after
school. Teacher Ansel was from Dominica, and he was part Carib.
I
—
never could " Her voice trailed off, but I encouraged her to
continue, saying, "So she did better at school after this teacher
began giving her private lessons? Her grandmother must've been
fairly well off then, to afford those lessons? Did Norton help in any
way while she was growing up?"
She replied impatiently, "I told you already that Granny Lang-
don wasn't rich and that she wasn't poor either. And as for that
Norton man, this island too small for Louise not to have met him
face to face. Granny Langdon was proud, and she owned land;
besides, she had relatives in Canada who sent her money." After an
uncomfortable pause, she closed her eyes and reflected aloud, "On
the way home, me and Louise used to sing out the poetry we learnt
by heart from the Royal Reader."
"Do you remember the poems?" I asked. Tanta Bess opened her
eyes wide. "Of course I remember them!" was her indignant
rejoinder, and without further ado she recited excerpts from
different poems; "The cottage was a thatched one, the outside old
and mean, yet everything within that cot was wondrous, neat and
—
clean The boy stood on the burning deck when all but he had
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—
home across the sands of Dee There were maidens in Scotland
more lovely by far who would gladly have wed the young Lochin-
var. . .
."
The Royal Reader was a standard text in schools all over the
British Empire. It had been replaced by more modern and relevant
texts decades ago, but the old woman still remembered those
disparate lines from poems that she and Louise had to learn by
heart in elementary school.
"So you both liked to read and to recite poems?"
"With the kind of teachers we had, we didn't have any choice. It
was wild cane on your back like fire if you didn't know those poems
by heart! But Louise was also a champion for making up stories. The
story of hers that I will always remember is this one: She would make
up a tale 'bout how her real father was a prince who sailed the seas
and how wicked strangers captured him, but someday he was going
to escape and come back to Grenada to claim her as his daughter. I
had a father when I was growing up, but she didn't, so she was
creating a make-believe one to replace that good-for-nothing Norton
man. Because the children at school would tease her by asking 'Who
is your father, Louise?' But the ones who asked her that had to look
out, because that girl had a temper, and when that temper rise up in
her, she wasn't afraid of God or man." She switched from this topic
life short."
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always said that if she was a man she'd have joined up too, just to
get away from the small-minded Grenadian people."
I changed the subject, convinced that Tanta Bess was using
Louise's name to express her own ire with small-minded Grenadi-
ans.
"Tell me something? Did Louise's mother die giving birth to
her?"
"No, she went to meet her Maker a little time afterwards. But my
mother told me that when the poor woman was heavy with child,
she used go by the seaside all by herself, and sometimes she would
get really vexed and curse Norton out loud so that the wind could
carry her words to him. My mother said that there was fire inside
her even though sickness was wracking her young body. Granny
Gertrude used to say that her daughter fought like a Trojan to stay
alive for the sake of her one-child, but she lost the fight."
letter said that when she boarded the ship, they wanted to put her
with the white people, but she told them that she was a Creole and
that she preferred to travel with home folks who she could chat
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with and be at her ease. Then she wrote how all the way up, they
had lifeboat drills, and after those drills was hard for her to fall
it
asleep because she'd get nightmares that she was drowning and
that the ship was her coffin. I still remember that part of her letter,
because I read it over and over again before I burn it. I never set
eyes on Louise after she left for Canada. I heard that she married a
Yankeeman — a black one — but she never came home again."
Ihad noticed that when Tanta Bess spoke about her school days,
she'dcome alive and shed years as she spoke, so I said, "Tell me
more about the school you and Louise attended." She smiled and
launched into recollections of those salad days immediately.
"Our school was next door to the Anglican church. From first to
sixth standard, the classes were separated by rows of benches. The
schoolmaster always walked around with a wild cane in hand. The
people in La Digue treated him like if he was God Almighty,
though. He was like the schoolmaster in the poem we had to learn
by heart
—
"Which one was that?" I asked, but instead of replying directly,
she recited:
that it made her afraid of the dead, it just made death too familiar
and ordinary."
"What's the other thing you remember?" I asked.
"An old Carib woman told her that she was going to have to face
five sorrows in her and that she'd already faced two of the
life,
clasped her hands to her chin, and said, "We used to sneak out at
night and try and see the Ligaroo moving like a ball of fire the devil
pelted across the swamps and cow pastures."
"Did you ever see the Ligaroo?" I asked, trying to pull her leg,
because this legendary African and Amerindian spirit of fire was an
important demon
figure in Grenadian folklore.
"If I do you think I'd be here to tell the tale?"
did,
"It's a pity you didn't keep those letters from Louise. They
continued, "She said that over there, she had to make a choice
between being Black or white."
"Yes, up there, you have to choose."
"That Yankeeland too complicated for my old brain to under-
standit. That's why I never wanted to live anywhere else but right
here."
"Do you know that when Louise went to Montreal to stay with
her uncle Edgerton Langdon, she became a Garveyite?"
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"Well, white as she was, you would've expected her to turn her
back on Black people. But not the Louise I knew. No, sir. She had
too much gumption and pride. Fair-skinned as she was, she always
saw herself as a Grenadian Creole woman. That's who she was
when he left here, and that's who, I'm sure, she'd remain right up to
the day she goes to meet her Maker."
1917, the same year in which Louise Langdon had done so. When
I was in my early teens, I remember him telling me jokingly that
once they were on board the ship, my aunt was assigned to a cabin
for whites only, while he had to be content with one close to the
steerage. My aunt objected to being separated from her brother,
and she was relegated to a "for natives of color only" section.
When Louise boarded that ship for Canada, she too was called
upon, for the first time in her life, to choose between being white or
colored, and she also made the choice unhesitatingly. Both my aunt
and Louise had been brought up in similar rural, middle-class,
colonial settings where they were thoroughly Creolized. They had
made this choice even though the infinite gradations of class, color,
caste, and status in their village societies were full of subtleties and
complications. My aunt, who lived to ninety-eight, was never fully
integrated into theNorth American society and its culture of racial
discrimination, and after working as a nurse for forty-five years she
returned to Barbados to live out the final decades of her life.
Louise, however, was integrated into American society through her
uncle, her husband, her children, and her commitment to the
struggle for Black liberation.
It was during the turbulent aftermath of World War I that my
father mentioned in a letter to his sister that Garvey's philosophy of
Black pride, African liberation, and the return of the sons and
daughters of the African diaspora to their ancestral motherland
began to create seismic rumblings throughout the Black world, The
tremors of that Garveyite movement and its aftershocks affected
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Black people not only in Canada and the United States but also in
the Caribbean, Central and South America, Africa, and Europe.
Louise first heard of Marcus Garvey from her Uncle Edgerton
Langdon. In 1916, a year before she immigrated to Montreal, he
had traveled to New York to visit friends in Harlem, and they had
taken him to a meeting in St. Mark's Hall to hear Garvey speak.
That meeting had marked a turning point in his life, and he began
to spread the Garveyite message soon after his return to Montreal.
It won a sympathetic response from members of the Black commu-
nity. That message has reverberated for three-quarters of a century,
for today there is still a functioning chapter of Garvey's United
Negro Improvement Association in Montreal. Louise Langdon
Little, her uncle Edgerton Langdon, her husband Earl Little, as
Garveyite devotees and new converts, laid the foundation on
which all the succeeding Black Power movements in Canada and
the United States were built.
Louise met Earl Little at a Garvey conference in Montreal. No
one knows how long their courtship lasted. However, they were
married in Montreal on May 10, 1919, two years after Louise
arrived in Canada. In just over a decade of that marriage, Louise
had seven children by Earl Little. Wilfred was the eldest, and there
followed Hilda, Philbert, Malcolm, Reginald, Yvonne, and
Robert. The May 1919 marriage certificate confirms some interest-
ing facts about Louise's early Her maiden name is recorded as
life.
the life of her famous son, biographers have ignored or passed over
many events that shaped her life and, through her, Malcolm's life.
But there is also the fact that Louise arrived in Canada already
steeped in the lore, the magic, the complex village culture of La
Digue, with its codes of morality and its tradition of loyalty to
family and place.
Stepping off the gangplank of the ship that brought her to
Montreal, Louise must have seen that in her journey from La Digue
she had, in fact, not only sailed thousands of miles north, but had
also leaped across centuries. My father, my aunt, and Louise
Langdon, coming from their villages in and seeing a
the sun
metropolis like Montreal for the first time, must have viewed it
with the same wonder. They must have felt the same apprehension
about where they would find a human sanctuary in the midst of the
city's monuments in stone and its towering buildings. For the first
time, too, they must have been conscious of being dwarfed, not by
cliffs, mountains, and forests but by man-made structures. But they
and their eagerness to hearnews from home, Louise's uncle and his
friends would have subjected her to the same welcoming ritual.
Soon after my father and aunt's arrival, my father got a job with
the Canadian Pacific Railway, while she, traumatized by the cold
and the daunting business of finding her way in a labyrinth of city
streets, left for Tulsa, Oklahoma. She complained that the icy wind
splinters of glass. She had relatives in Tulsa, and they had arranged
a job in a hospital for her.
Louise survived the crossing much better than my aunt did.
Although there is no record of her having done so, she must have
worked in Montreal soon after her arrival. What is obvious,
however, is that staying with her uncle, she had a crash course in
the crucial basics of survival in a society in which the format of
institutional racism was entirely different from the one in her
semifeudal Grenadian society.
In retrospect, it is compare my father's reaction to
interesting to
racism in Montreal with that of Louise and her uncle. His art was
his life, and he felt that the most effective way of answering those
who sought to denigrate him because of his color was through his
paintings and sculpture. Louise, on the other hand, deeply influ-
enced by her grandmother's teachings and politicized by her uncle,
entered the fray directly, and by the time she had married an
activist in the Garvey movement they were fully aware of the risks
my final
A month had gone by
conversations with him, and
neglecting to post
since Malcolm's LSE speech and
my habit of writing letters and
them had caught up with me. As a result, I was
left with a long letter that I had penned to Malcolm but had not
mailed.
For me, writing letters has always been a painful chore. It's how
I imagine a postman feels about going for a walk after a long day of
trudging from door to door with a heavy mailbag. My letters are
never like the chatty, amusing, and lighthearted ones I often receive
from friends. Mine are invariably long, and my incurable habit of
storytelling turns them into a kind of anecdotal essay. It is either
this or a businesslike ten-line missive.
Having written this letter to Malcolm and put it aside, I was glad
that I'd never posted it because it would have arrived after he was
assassinated and would most likely have been intercepted. Looking
at my letter, I often speculated about the fate of letters from all over
the world that must have been written to Malcolm and posted
while he was alive but that had arrived after his death. Some of
still
those letters must have eventually reached his wife and the sister
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who had taken over the leadership of the OAAU, but others are
most likely languishing in some secret archive where the passage of
time will render them meaningless.
There was also the strange phenomenon that occurs when a
relative or friend dies in another country and you don't actually see
the corpse or attend the funeral. A vague feeling lingers in your
mind that somehow the person is permanently suspended in a
twilight zone between the world of the and that of the dead.
living
Rereading my unposted letter more than two decades later, I
could not help thinking of the hundreds of intimate questions I
as an outlaw and about how his being a father and loving husband
squared with his decision to die for the cause he believed in so
58 Ridgeway Place
London SW 19
Dear Malcolm,
Your visit was all too short, but folks speak about you as though
you'd never left. During our talks, so much was left out, and before
we parted you'd asked mehadto write. I the distinct impression
and your two recent visits to
that one of the results of our meeting,
Britain, is that you're keen on finding out more about the West
Indian side of your family history. There are a lot of Grenadians
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here in Britain, and I've already asked some of the older folk
among them to find out what they can about your mother's family.
You also asked me to tell you more about my own family
background, so I'll do that in some detail for you.
important to hear your story. You said that you wished you had
had my formal education. Well, isn't that strange, because, I envy
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I was five, and Maudie, the youngest, was two, when we migrated
to the States.
Agricola Rome would have been like the village where your
mother grew up in rural Grenada. These villages sprang up all over
the Caribbeanand the Guyanas after slavery was abolished. It was
Africans, Du Bois tells us, who in ancient times first created the
eyes.
During our second year in the United States, Maudie was
kidnapped, and I remember every detail of that drama. It was a
cool afternoon and sunlight flooded the street after a cloudy spell.
touched the most prosaic of objects with magic. She pointed out
the vendors who were selling potent love potions extracted from
perfumed qu'ille blossoms. Exquisitely carved wooden dishes,
ladles, doors, paddles, furniture, and every intricately wrought
design was different. Then there were herbs that could cure fevers;
poultices that could soften bones and make bowed legs straight;
even herbal medicines that could resuscitate a heart that had
stopped beating. After that visit to the market, I could always spot
the Maroons in the city, not only by their distinctive African attire
but by the way in which they walked in single file as though
following a forest trail.
—
and the girl the boy was four and his sister eight were left —
entirely in her hands. When my mother broke the news that her
eldest sister, who was looking after us, was about to get married
and she would therefore have to return to Guyana, the family
offered to pay our passages back to the U.S. and to underwrite all
the costs of our upbringing and education. But my mother was
congenitally unsuited to being a servant. Besides, there was a wild,
reckless streak in her, and she hated being tied down anywhere for
long. She dramatized the whole affair by declaring, "It's better to
catch hell in 'brutish ghenna' (her derisory name for her native
British Guyana) than to live as a servant in the Yankeeman's
heaven! What a place that Yankeeland is! Millions of people
around you —you don't know them from Adam, and they don't
know you —and yet they hate you because of the color of your
just
skin! Friends had told me what to expect beforehand, but I didn't
believe them until I actually set foot there."
My father eventually graduated as a dentist, and this was after
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to swallow him.
He chose instead to be a tailor, a sculptor, and an artist. As far as
Catholic faith all of his life —was revealed only on his deathbed
when he asked her to fetch a priest. The priest came, mumbled
prayers in Latin, and lit a candle that burned by his bedside until
pain that's biting inside our bellies, and stubborn hope are what we
inherited from our devil's cauldron of ancestral bloods."
When she was angry with me and I tried to make myself scarce,
she'd summon me and say, "You're standing there quiet as a
mouse and looking you fool yourself that I can't
contrite, but don't
hear you thinking. You're growing up to be just like your father,
always burying thoughts deep inside your mind! You're not
burying any thoughts with me around, Mister Man!" That was the
name she gave me when she was really angry, and, invariably, a
slap would accompany the name.
If I did well at school, this was attributed to our Jewish blood;
but she'd add a rider to her praise, saying, "Book learning and
lifemanship are two different things. Jews are supposed to be clever
and good at making money, but we had a lot of clever people in this
family and not one of them ever made any money to speak of.
Besides, those who managed to make a little money could never
hold on to So it. and break the tradition by mastering the book
try
learning and having some glue in your palms."
Stubbornness and duplicity were blamed on our English blood:
"How else do you think the English were able to grab an empire
and vampire its riches for so long?" she'd ask, raising her eyes
toward the heavens, and then she'd answer the question. "They
had to lie and cheat and steal whole countries, and they learned
how to do this in their cradles. God knows, if we could drain some
of the unwanted blood out of my veins, the English blood would be
the first to go. And as for the Scottish blood, that first Robertson
man who came to Berbice was anxious to dip his wick and light a
fire between the legs of women of every color and shade. But to
give him his due, once he settled down, he founded a school,
gathered his brood of bastards around him, and saw to it that they
all got a solid education. The English hated him, and he hated them
right back. And anyone the English hated qualified as a candidate
for his friendship."
Everything my father did turned out to be successful at first, but
financial success invariably brought on moods of grim depression
and bouts of melancholy. As a result, all of his enterprises
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a magical place with demon shapes and dark blue shadows. Once,
when I could not sleep, I looked out of the window and saw my
father standing in the midst of his magical, petrified garden. I heard
the clock strike two, but he did not move. His shadow striped the
dew-spangled grass, and he could have been a Shaman performing
a strange and secret ritual. I remember hearing my mother calling
out softly, "Come to bed, Alan, you'll catch cold standing in that
earlymorning dew!"
The gentleness in her voice surprised me. I had never heard her
speak to him with such tenderness and affection. And I thought,
"Perhaps they both live a secret life in the early hours of the
morning, one that was hidden from me and my sisters and far
then they sped away. Do you know, on that clear bright morning,
it was as if those two human-beasts had polluted the air with their
insane hatred.
remembered your idea of having a register listing Blacks
I
jotting down names since you left. I hope that the OAAU is going
from strength to strength.
Warmest fraternal greetings,
Jan
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His face is on the earth
his drum is silent . .
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and after he got the job with Michigan Bell, the personnel manager
complimented him on the way in which he conducted himself
during the interview. 'Well, to tell you the truth,' this young man
said, 'a friend named Wilfred Little coached me.' That was a time
when they were interested in employing more Blacks in the
company, so this personnel man said, 'This Wilfred Little should
be working for us. You should try and persuade him to come and
see me.' So I went to see this man, and when I took the tests I came
out at the top of the group of applicants, although all of them had
more formal education than I had. I got the job, and I would have
risen higher in the company if I hadn't started so late in life. Every
job I ever had in my life, I gave all I had into doing it."
that when Garvey was on the run from the FBI, my mother hid him
in our house and wrote letters and dispatched for him. She had a
good education and could write clearly and well; and a couple of
times she received commendations from the leaders of the UNIA
thanking her for the good work she had done for that movement."
Then, with hardly a pause, he switched to an entirely different
topic and declared, "Malcolm demanded attention from the day he
was born. I remember that when my mother brought him home
from the hospital in Omaha, Nebraska, he used to bawl his head
off, and my mother would say, 'Wilfred, give this child the bottle, I
don't have enough milk to breastfeed him the way he wants me to,'
and with Malcolm red in the face and making himself heard, she'd
say, 'This one is going to grow up to talk to people.' She had a way
of forecasting what each of us would do from early on, and every
one of her predictions came out just like she said."
"What did she predict that you would do?" I asked.
"She said that in my quiet way, I'd always be helping those in
need. I'm a careful person, never owed a debt in my life that I didn't
repay
—
"You must have done something reckless in your youth," I said.
He laughed and confessed, "I'll tell you what the most reckless
thing I did was. When I was a boy, we had a neighbor who made
fifty-gallon barrels of cherry wine. It would start out as cherry juice
because the old folks used to say that cherry juice was good for
people suffering from rheumatism. When that juice fermented, it
became cherry wine, and they claimed that that was good for
rheumatism, too. So when people knew that it was ready they
would come, and you would think there was nothing in the world
like cherry wine. 'Oh, it's so great!' they'd say. So, I wondered, if
this stuff is so great, how come they keep saying that children
shouldn't drink it? So one day I figured out how I was going to get
some. There's a weed that grows out in the field; it grows up
straight and has some greenery on top of it. When you break it off
and it dries, the inside of it has some cottony stuff, but you hit it
against something and all that white stuff comes out, and you have
a long drinking straw. I went down into the neighbor's basement,
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inserted my straw into the barrel, and sucked away. And boy, it
tasted good! I'd go sit down a while and rest,and then go back and
get some more. When I finally got ready to go back upstairs, I could
hardly make it up the stairs. When I did make it, and came out into
our kitchen, my mother looked at me and asked, 'What's wrong
with you?' She could see that something was wrong, but I managed
to stagger to my room, and every time I looked at my bed it seemed
to be moving. I got next to it where I could feel it and just fell over
and went to sleep. Next morning when I woke up, I drank some
water, and by drinking that water I was drunk again. So my mother
got me straightened out that day, but I told her she would never
have to worry about me and that stuff anymore. I've stayed away
from alcohol ever since. People used to laugh at me, but I just didn't
care."
I said to myself, "You and Malcolm were opposites, Wilfred.
You moved through life at a steady pace, always testing the ground
before you moved forward, but he was reckless, where you were
cautious. He wanted to fly like the wind."
As if reading my thoughts, Wilfred said, "I've met a lot of people
in my lifetime, but I'm telling you, Malcolm had the quickest mind
of anyone I ever met. His mind worked like lightning. Almost
before the words had left your mouth, he had grasped the idea.
That was the way he was. He could see right into what you were
saying, right to the heart of it. He found out early that in schools
they give you all this idealism and everything, but when you get out
into the real world where Black folks are always up against it, you
find out that it is a whole different way that this world is run out
there. Out in that real, white-male-dominated world, there's lying
and deceiving, cheating and murder, and one illusion piled on top
of the other. So it's not what people think and the masses are
it is,
being manipulated and don't even know it. How do you think that
you can convince thousands of young men to go and give their lives
for some patriotic reason, when all it boils down to is that they're
being sent to protect somebody's interest and to take control of
someone else's resources? Malcolm found this out earlier than
most. He knew from the inside how the svstem works. He studied
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from prison. People often ask, 'Which one of the family was he
closest to?' Well, he was close to all of us in different ways. But he'd
confide in me because he knew that whatever he told me would
stop there, so he felt like he could tell me anything, even his
wrongdoings. Sometimes I would try and dissuade him, but he had
there for him. Many times he would tell me, 'If you ever hear that
I'm in jail, come and bail me out, because if you leave me in there,
they'll find somebody to frame me for whatever they want to
charge me with. They know that they can pick me up and hold me
in jail for three days with no charge, and if they didn't charge me
during that time, they'd have to release me.' So he'd get caught in
those places where he would White people would come to
hustle.
those joints to buy marijuana and Anything they wanted, he
stuff.
knew where to get it for them. Every now and then, they'd run a
raid on those places and take him to jail, but he'd get word to me,
and I'd go and get him out right away. As far as I can remember, he
didn't really start having problems and getting involved in things
until he was around seventeen. I always felt that he'd wake up one
day and walk away from that gangster world, and prison did this
for him. He didn't just serve time, he let time serve him. When he
was paroled to me, I got him a job in the furniture store where I was
working. I remember that when he held the first paycheck in his
hand, he turned to me in amazement and said, 'I could earn this in
five minutes on the street.' But he moved forward and never looked
back. You know, every now and then, when fame had caught up
with him, he'd talk to an all-Black audience when there were no
whites in sight, and he would get right down to business. 'Now
listen,' he would say, 'there's nobody here but us, so we're going to
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have a good old down-home talk.' Then he would tell them how
uncouth they were — yes, he'd use the word 'uncouth' and he —
would show them how a lot of the problems they had were things
they perpetrated against themselves and tell them that they had it in
their power to overcome their problems. That's why I tell students
all the time it's a family legacy to go into the community and try to
show young people how to rise above the conditions they find
themselves in. I still get mad when one them comes and tells me,
of
'I can't do this, and I can't do that, because I'm Black.' We've been
so brainwashed! A lot of things we accept that we can't do, we
really can do if we try."
Once, when Wilfred had said something about "the mystical
side of Islam," I Muslim?"
asked, "Are you still a
"I'm a believer in Islam" was his rejoinder, and I understood
that he was making it clear that he wanted to distance himself from
the movement that Elijah Muhammad had started and to which he
had devoted so many years of his life, so much of his energies, and
the quiet dedication that was as much a part of him as the sweat in
his pores.
located, and he told me. I went there and liked what they were
saying, and I joined up. But it was a small movement then. It took
Malcolm to make it a nationwide movement, to found the newspa-
per, to create the Fruit of Islam, though some of the people he
recruited turned on him like vipers. Malcolm made the movement
rich and powerful, then jealousies began creeping in. There were
little men who couldn't bear the idea of Malcolm being a national
and international figure. I used to try and warn him about what
was going on, but he wouldn't listen
—
"Malcolm was a reincarnated Othello surrounded by Iagos," I
ordinary folk who worked for American diplomats would tip him
off. Lots of times, the ordinary folk working for those diplomats,
cleaning up and doing things like that, would hear them discussing
things. So those very folk who they thought didn't know anything
would be and they'd put the word out as to what was
listening,
The last time I saw Malcolm X, he was in the lobby of the Mount
Royal Hotel, surrounded by reporters, leaders of the Council of
African Organizations and a bevy of camp followers. We greeted
each other fleetingly. There was a handshake, a smile, and a hasty
reminder,
"Remember to send those things to me," he said, hurrying away,
and not looking back. He was assassinated ten days later.
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interaction with Malcolm in the crucial last
"Through reconstruction of and reflection on his
few months of his life, Carewdeepens our sense of the possible courses that Malcolm's Me
as a plaster saint or claiming his
might have taken, while avoiding straightjacketing him
symbolic carcass for any doctrinaire program."
—Adolph Reed, Jr., Northwestern University
the predica-
"Every scholar of social and religious thought, every white American who ponders
every Block American who feels the need to know
more about the
ment of Block Americans,
Molcolm X."
history of this great man will need and appreciate the scholarship Jon Corew brings to
—Nikki Giovanni, author of Racism 101
With
"Jan Carew ranks among the legendary black intellectuals of the twentieth century.
L R. James, Walter Rodney, and George Padmore,
Carew combines a sharp intellect with
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change. . . . Carew's observations
a passion for political justice and radical democratic
Malcolm from block nationalism to
and critical analysis shed new light on the evolution of
radical internationalism.''
literature, poetry,
"Jan's achievements are legion and cut across such diverse fields as politics,