By : BENSABEUR Hajar

Hi, my name is John. Let us walk together and I will tell you my story and then
you can swap your life with me if you want to. Well, I am twenty-seven years
old. Still young isn’t it? I was born in Ohaio. I have half siblings from both my
mom and dad as well. However, I grew up lonely since all of them have lived
with their other parent. I felt that loneliness since my childhood until college.
There, where I have met the love of my life Emily. I still remember the first day
she crossed the crowd in her way to the library’s door. When she entered, my
eyes met her eyes and she smiled. I felt lost in her ocean eyes; her golden hair
was flying in the air just like the sunshine. Her beauty was so unique; she was
one of a kind. She had the innocence of a child, just like an angel. That was a
love from the first sight as they say. Ok, not everything was perfect actually,
because I have dropped coffee on my legs while looking at her, which was
embarrassing. She laughed and her laugh has captivated me. Later on, we have
started dating; we managed to get our diplomas and started planning how we
would like to spend the rest of our lives together. We have married, moved to
New York city, lend our first house, everything was perfect. Just a happy young
couple living the best days of their life. Wait, I will show you a picture, this me
and this Emily in front of our house, she looks amazing, isn’t it? Anyway five
years after that, everything started becoming monotonous. Nothing new, just
boredom. Emily has become unsupportable, she complains about anything and
everything. She stopped seeing me as her prince charming. Just a lazy buddy
who’s doing nothing special in his life. That boredom was poisonous, killing me
day by day. Until I felt for the first time that, I had enough of it. My single friends
are enjoying their life, from a club to another, caring about nothing and me, just
working all day long and by the end of the day, listening to stupid complains. I
wanted to escape from all of that and did not know what to do. One day, my wife
have been informed about a training out of the city, it has something to do with
her work or at least that is what she told me. The night she went, my best friend
Jack has invited me to a party, it was a chance to forget everything and remember
the days of college, the days where there was nothing on my shoulders. I thought
that it will be fun, so I joined them. I had a whale of a time; the loud sound of
the music brought me to life again. It was upbeat. I had a couple of drinks and
by couple, I mean out for the count. I was completely tipsy. All I still remember
is that a young lady approached me and then woke up like if it was just a dream.
I could not believe that I have cheated on my better half Emily. Days have passed,
I have tried to act as if nothing happened, but I could not. The sense of regret
was hunting me. I felt out of breathe, helpless and my heart was aching. So, I
have decided to tell her and that’s what I did, all of a sudden I was left alone,
everything has ended like if it has never happened. I lost the love of my life, but
not her alone. Because, I discovered that she was pregnant, she did not tell me in
order to keep it a surprise and what did I do? I betrayed her trust. She had a
principle in life, which is ‘To hope for the best and expect the worst’. However,
she has never expected that I will do such a thing someday, neither did I. I
thought that the feeling of boredom was heavy, until I have experienced the
feeling of guilt. My heart was empty yet my head was crowded of thoughts. This
may seem crazy, but in the silence I hear noise, hunting me anywhere,
everywhere and I am here stuck in the middle of the nowhere. Then I realised
that we always think that we are the heroes on the good side pending for the
situation that strips the reality of being the villains on the other. I have gotten
into a whirlpool of doubt. The doubt of loving her, asking myself if I really did,
why would I cheat on her? The doubt that led me to question myself if I am a
good person who mistakenly did bad, or a villain hiding behind the mask of
kindness. The real lost was not losing Emily other than that, it was losing myself.

Now you know my story said Jack

I think, it is all for today. Do not forget to take your pills ok?

Jack nod his head and Jennie leaves.

Heading to her office, she met his mom.

How is the treatment going doctor? Reassure me.

Well, sadly his condition is getting worse. He showed me a blank piece of paper
telling me that it is his picture with Emily. He forgot his real life and living in his
thought literally. His body is not responding to the anti-psychotics that we are
giving him either.

Who is Emily? His mom asked

Ugh... That is another story. He believes that he had a wife. Well, madam just
pray for him and I will do my best.

The end