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EXAMINATION NERVES
by *Rosamiond LEHMANN:
Judith walked in a dream among the pale examina-
tion faces that fowed "to theit doom’. . Already. at
nine o'clock the heat struck up from the streets, _roll-
ed downwards, from, the roofs. By..midday, it would
+be extremely unpleasant in’ Cambridge.
This. was the great. examination hall. Girls were
_filing in, each carrying'a glass of water, and searching
in a sort of panic for her place. Here was a white
ticket” Jebelled Earle, J, So Judith Earle really was
‘expected, an integral part of this grotesque organized
unreality. No hope now:
All over the room girls’ heads turned, nodding and
winking at friends, whispering, giggling. and grimac-
ing with desperate bravery. One simulated suicide
‘by leaning her bosom on her fountain-pen,
Just behind sat Mabel. Her face was glistening and ghastly , and
she sniffed at a bottle of smelling salts .
“Mabel, you're not going to faint?”
“No: I don’t think so. T’ll get better later, Good luck, Judith.”
~ She summoned a smile, even flushed faintly .
‘Then panic descended suddenly upon Judith. Her head was like a floating
bubble ; there was nothing in it at all. She caught at threads of knowledge
and they broke, withered ‘and dissolved like cobwebs in the hand. She strug-
gled to throw. off a crowding confusion of half-remembered words.” A headful
+5 of useless scraps rattling in emptiness—
‘The clock struck nine.
“You can begin now,” said a thin voice from the dais,
‘There was an enormous sigh, a rustling’ of paper, then silence.
_-The questions had, nearly all, at first glance a-familiar reassuring look: «Ir
se was all right.” Panic vanished, the mind assembled its energies coolly , pre-
cisely, the pen flew.
‘After an hour the first pause to cool her forehead with a stick of frozen. Eau
de Cologne and to sip some water. Behind, poor Mabel’s dry little cough and
_ sniif went on. s
ss Another hour fied . The trouble was having too much to say, rather than too
little. The room was rigid, dark with concentration now.
Three hours. It was over . You could not remember what you had written;,
but you had never felt more firm and sure of mind. Three hours nearer to life.
Dusty Answer, 1927.
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