I was allowed to breathe life into my suppressed self and dreams. Books were like a friend in hard times. My mother died of cancer when I was five, leaving her five daughters and son alone in this life. Even though I was too young, it was agony beyond the power of speech. A mother’s death isn’t like any other. I thought it was really hard, little did I know that it was only the beginning. Not more than five years later, my dear sisters Maria and Elizabeth died of Tuberculosis. Oh how young and innocent they were! As for me, I was immediately removed from the school for the school's poor conditions permanently affected my health and physical development. I soon got used to this, acting as a mother figure to my younger siblings. I was terrified of another death and I almost expected anything of this life, only my faith in god and then writing kept me strong enough to confront this. There, I wrote my first poem, where I started my writing journey. Soon, my siblings and I dwelled in the magical world of imagination, and each of us had her own journals where she used to pour her heart and soul into. After I finished my education, I returned back to my school as a teacher. I felt like my life was pale; my prospects were desolate. To rise I had no will, to flee I had no strength. I stayed there, longing to be dead. One thing only throbbed life-like within me, which is writing. The sight of words on pages, the feeling of pen on paper, brought me indescribable satisfaction. It was my sole consolation that continued even after I changed course and started a job as a governess. It was utterly ghastly how people treated me for my social status only. My employers treated me almost as a slave, constantly humiliating me. Indeed, it is in vain to say human beings ought to be satisfied with tranquillity: they must have action; and they will make it if they cannot find it. But it is better to live without logic than without feeling. In 1843, Emily and I travelled to Brussels to enrol at a boarding school there, but our time was cut short when the grave news of my aunt’s death arrived. She was a sister, a teacher, and a mother. But in her last days, with the wreck of her frail body, her soul grew strong. And though she spoke little, those around her felt that she was ready. I recognized the beauty of my aunt’s soul, for though she was unambitious and modest, I could see the beauty and sacrifice in her. Days passed and I decided to go back to Brussels to continue my education. My second stay there wasn’t how I expected, for I soon felt homesick and had to go back to Haworth. For the next three years, I retreated into the world I created, a world of literary fantasy. Writing has always provided me with an outlet to express myself. It became my therapy. And so writing made me appreciate life again. Finally in August 1847, Jane Eyre was published. It was a joy to behold. This first publication encouraged me to do more in life. I felt like I had a reason to live and I did what I wanted. But unfortunately, death has always plagued my family, and even in my happiest times, it visited me again. In eight months, my family experienced the death of three of its members. It was beyond comprehension. The pain was excruciating, and all I could do is just try to survive with it somehow. Then, unable to live with this grief, and searching for anything to give purpose to my life, I started to write again. In 1853, I received an expected proposal from Arthur Bell Nicholls. I initially turned down his proposal for I wasn’t attracted to him at all. My father, too, rejected him, but that was because he was poor. My best friend Elizabeth Gaskell, on the other hand, who believed that marriage provided "clear and defined duties" that were beneficial for a woman, encouraged me to consider the positive aspects of such a union and tried to use her contacts to engineer an improvement in Nicholls's finances. Meanwhile, I became increasingly attracted to Nicholls upon seeing him a lot in the house, for he works for my father, and by January 1854 I had accepted his proposal. I always wrote of simple women, who relied upon the respect of themselves, rather than society. Through my characters, I gave the gift of the modern woman, a woman determined to make her own way, and live her life by her own set of standards, dictated not by society but by herself, and herself alone.