Scrapbook:

Unpacking
The
Self
Submitted by: Kenny Shane Dimatulac
BSED English 1B
Submitted
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to:Ms.
Ms. Julia Yvette
Johanna Miranda
Bianca Cano
 Table of contents

Physical Facet………………1-2
Political Facet……………….3-4
Material Facet……………….5-6
Social Facet……….…………7
Sexual Facet………...........8
Digital Facet…………………9
Spiritual Facet……………….10
A. Physical Facet

Are you beautiful? Today the idea of physical beauty has changed drastically; we are
expected to have a tiny waist, perfect hair, and other impossible standards for beauty. This is a
prominent issue for every human beings nowadays who wanted to be accepted. The young
eyes for today have “bigger shoes” to fill, trying to “fix” themselves and be liked by their peers.
Beliefs like this can lead to people, not only children to think that they aren’t good enough,
which could cause to eating disorders, self-mutilation, and depression.

Am I Beautiful?
Do people find me attractive?
Can I do something to my features?

“You are better than you think, you are better than you think, you are
better than you think”, I always remind that myself every time I feel
nervous or in times of my self-doubt but little did I know it’s also
applicable to my physical self. I have so much worries from the day I woke up until I fight my
thoughts to sleep ever since I started to compare myself—different hair type, darker skin color, and
an asymmetrical portion of body type. Those adjectives are simply me.

I used to hate myself for the reason of not being someone

that has an innate detail or in other words, flawless. I started using
face-enhancers or in other words I tried body rituals that eventually
led to more irritations—break outs. I’m hopeless, I’m devastated
and even depressed. No one told me that agony will come
soon after the tenacity of trying hard to impress.
The Real
Symbol Of
Physical
Beauty Is
When A
Human Being
Exists

The exhaustion of pleasing everyone slaps me

all of a sudden. Little by little, step by step, as long as
I’m moving, I took that as my progress for my growth.
Starting from viewing myself as a person who can do
more than my physique figure—dance, play volleyball,
cook, bake, poetry, and to do art. How ironic is that when
a person who loves art wasn’t aware after all that she,
herself is an artwork. Now, I understand that I am so
much more than I look like. Being physically beautiful is
not about the race, ethnicity, measurement of facial
features, height, size, what media sets, and how the
society expects from you in view of the fact that the
problem isn’t with my body, the problem is what I think
of it. Beauty isn’t really having a beautiful face. It’s truly
about having a beautiful mentality, heart, and most
significantly a beautiful atmosphere. Beauty is the ability
to show who you genuinely are, not in looks; however,
with actions and your inner soul.
B. Political Facet

I gather things which I really think are related,

starting with Gomez, Burgoz, and Zamora or
also known as GOMBURZA--the three
Filipino friars who were executed for their
martyrdom. With that, I can’t imagine what
would be the Philippines is today. The
execution products are Rizal’s greatest
novels—Noli and El Fili, portraying the
unpleasant manners of the Spanish
Friars. Iron fist law after another,
again death was stated. Beyond
Nationalism, Patriotism led Bonifacio to
revolutionize against the dictatorship of
foreign dominancy due to that, KKK existed.

Those are only an overview of our History.

Even before that, Filipinos are known for
their traits—Hospitable, Respectful, Family
oriented, Personality, Self-sacrifice, and Unity
are the compliments we casually receive.
In spite of these, Filipinos are indeed Filipinos,
“Bahala na”, Colonial Mentality, Pride, Crab
Mentality and Filipino Time tears Filipino
apart. Personally, I think I’m suffering from
“Ningas Kugon”, an attitude of having the
burning desire of eagerness when I started
college but then I suddenly wish to finish this
whole course. Yet I’m thankful for the
lectures because it enlightened me that I’m
just reacting for the reason of being
overwhelmed. My dream is link with these
hardships so the moment I gave up the more
I’m going to lose myself.
 An Epitome
Of Dr. Jose Rizal’s
“Pag-asa ng Bayan”

In my 18 years of existence, I was fooled by my own mind—assuming that I do know everything.

That perception grew for the reason of I thought after years of readings and skimming contexts
from books are the basis of a person’s worth and knowledge. I’m used to arguments where
I’m thrilled to convinced that my side is undeniably truthful. I was blindsided of my own ideology.
To sum it all up, I manipulated myself without me being aware. I used to be triggered by any
act of ignorance in social media; therefore, I burst everything out. Until one day, I accidentally
watch a woman who’s roasting her house members if not the government itself. At first, I’m
being denial and fed my mind that “I’m right all this time, I did nothing wrong because I see
myself in her.” I adore her bravery and her exceptional cleverness—indeed the brightest
senator of her age. I was sitting in our living room watching her speak and a sudden realization
panged my sanity when she utters the words “The cancer cells which are usually
repugnant, they eat anything around them.” She’s right, I should cure my mind set first, with that
I chose my battle the way she does, I learned to save my energy for valuable matters, I turned
to love my country more than ever and to fight anyone who has nothing but substandard intentions.
Suddenly, I grew from the typical girl who reads and skims but someone who analyze things
critically. I’m aware that I won’t ever be like her; hence, I’m convinced that a person who
truly care for its country knows history because knowing history is knowing yourself and if you
do, you won’t settle for sickening system
. C. Material Facet

After the lecture, I was able to identify more clearly

what is the reason behind my shopping—Retail
Therapy. The reason why I love to collect shoes is that
I’m an athlete; The purpose of my excessive clothe-buying is that
I love to take pictures of me; and The unexplainable feeling of
“I must go to the mall” without any motives is my remedy to feel
better because I have the sense of control that is unlikely from the
outside, in short it’s my glimpse of escape.

Every time that my peers and relatives commemorate their birthdays

or any kind of celebration, I make sure to hand them a present where
I express my gratitude at the same I consider it to something that could
help them. Owing to the fact that when I receive gifts—price, brand
and quantity are not the measurement of my appreciation but the
thought that counts.
 Symbol of My
Material Facet

Imaginations after imaginations, woke-up – eat – school works – sleep – repeat.

That’s how my every day of living in a sentence since the pandemic happened.
I’m at point in life where I doubt myself every time I think of the future, this cycle changed
my perception in life. So much “what if” and the phrase “bahala na” can’t aid nor lessen my
worries. It’s a big of a deal I assume. I grew up in an environment where Social Status is the
basis of your value. It’s one of the norms so who am I back then to preach myself whether
a thing is healthy for my existence. At the present, I’m at the verge of giving up. I don’t want
to live after the society where mansions, cars, money, and possessions are the case.
They say “money can’t buy happiness” but my alter ego told me “It can, you love expensive things
and by purchasing some makes your heart pumps into melody”. I can still remember what my
friends told me about being a multi-millionaire “Sis, choose between you sulk yourself in a
mansion or stressed yourself in a rented house. You see, if money can’t buy us happiness
at least it puts you comfort.”. Undeniably, these are somewhat true yet there’s still this unusual
feeling inside me and it bloom into realization of “Yes, you can buy your heart’s desire but does
it really came from your heart or it’s just the result of how your society honed you?” that’s when
I’ve decided to be someone who’s different from the others. I’m no introvert, I just love
tranquility where pressure and judgements are nowhere to be found. Sure, you can avail everything
and it made you the happiest today and the cycle continuous but until when? That kind of happiness
will fade away soon certainly. Having a sexy body, vast possessions, and wealth isn’t the measure of
success, it’s about how happy you can be although it’s a small amount of thing. I chose this symbol
because as we were introduced to this world, we’ll eventually bid our farewell soon enough.
Possessions won’t matter at the end line because in the end, we’re going to re-watch our life before
our very own eyes with the journal written by our choices and decisions in life so I’ll make sure it’s
worth watching.
D. Social Facet
Represents
the
Future Me

I go by the name Uno of my squad, Kenny in

school, Shane in my hometown, and Kenn for my
team. Normally speaking those names depict one individual however if you dig deeper, that person
portrays different attitude not for the reason of she has distinct names but in the view of fact that
she acts according to what she supposed to show or in other words it depends upon to where
situation she’s in. If you’ll going to ask people around me, you would get different descriptions
about myself and it’s up to you which is which to believe, besides I don’t even have the time
to explain why is this and that. I just acknowledge that people will only believe what they wanted to.
Also, I don’t label myself based from others’ view to direct my self-concept—yes, I’m not just who
they interpret. As much as possible I don’t want to compare my ability socially hence it’ll only lead me
to self-destruction. I don’t do upward nor downward social comparison, I’m just tired of self-
measurement when it comes to worth besides both of them aren’t my style even so I’m “better” in
some things or “worse” compared to others that doesn’t make any sense for me. Yes, I’m a part of
some clubs—spiritually, athletically, academically, and socially even so I don’t take my self-identity
from these. I yearn for something that even I couldn’t recognize what. That’s why I chose this
symbol or this picture as my Social self which is the future me who values her self-fulfillment,
self-contentment, self-worth, and self-love the way where ambiguity and uncertainty were eliminated
because in the view of my own perspective, self-presentation isn’t the measure of how much you have
succeeded but how can you influence others without disregarding their beliefs and values. I truly
believe that I can only achieve that after I undergone repetitive failures, downfall, exhaustion, and
every inch of my extraction for my own refinement. After all, that’s the procedure of how molten iron
becomes gold.
E. Sexual Facet

Symbolizes
Knowledge

Sexuality throughout the years has been a truly

begging to be proven wrong point and has lead numerous
to various arrangement dependent on their own philosophies
as it identifies with sex and sexuality. These convictions have formed our general
public with regards to the suitability of sexual conduct as it identifies with
masculinity and femininity. Personally speaking, I was curious by my gender identity
where I so I came to the point where I entertain both sexuality. I experienced both ways of
being loved by different gender. To be honest, they are just similar if biological
portion is deduced. I’ve realized that I laugh, care, understand, appreciate, and love
s someone according to my heart without any conditions and that itself proves that
my happiness and the world’s validation has nothing do with it.
This lesson made me learn things that made my reach of visions more like
how should I care for my sexuality with the most efficient response, how I deeply
understand why people reproduce and why contraception exists. Having a physical
intercourse is somehow beneficial yet it should be practices with moderation before
it leads to any kind of Sexually Transmitted Infections.
I chose this symbol where a book with lightbulb is best seen. Why? In my
virtual point of people who lack knowledge about our sexual self are the one who
bark a lot. I’m liking the way we were educated by this and if I reflected and realize
well, how it is possible if others would open their minds to critically apprehend
those undeniably helpful information.
 F. Digital Facet

Salvador Dali
Mask Portrays
Digital Self

On this 21st century, we live in a world where cyber-media is at its dominancy. It’s as if we share half
of our lives with it. Facebook, Twitter, Instagram, and other platforms that practice interaction digitally,
undoubtedly influenced the way we view life. There’s a motto of “we are what we tolerate” and that applies
into this whenever an individual cyberspace content includes blog that can help her/him grow or the opposite of it.
Cyberspace offer freedom of speech and expression without the means of obligation that’s why most of the
people become less attentive and more of a compulsive thinker. Nowadays, youth are literate about how
social media works and it caused both the good and bad. For instance, a child who exposed itself to this may be
taught good things by its careful usage of social media platform guided by its guardian but in other cases it
may lead to a child’s nasty attitude. I chose the mask of Salvador Dali as my symbol of digital self because
aside from it depicts revolution which I root for this elaboration: Most of us are different from what we show
in digital self to our reality, maybe you’re someone who’s quite introvert yet you’re an intellectual type of a
person so you wear a mask by being brave and confident to spill what you think is right and authentic; A person
can also be pressured by posting something that she/he isn’t in real life in the view of being under the
validation of cyberspace and whatever it is, we couldn’t just throw shades to anyone because our digital self
is the persona we chose to display online according to what we decide. At the end, we use cyberspace to improve
ourselves’ confident, growth for personal betterment, and if we influence others the good way our name itself
would be a trademark that can be traced to the real world.
G. Spiritual Facet

Phases of
Moon as my
Spiritual Self

Featuring the psyche body-soul association, the profound self is a continuous, individual life
venture, contextualize by the faith in a higher being, culture, connections, nature, and the
revelation of importance in one's life. There are a few definitions that have been figured with
respect to spirituality. Spirituality is connected to numerous significant parts of human
working—profound individuals have positive connections, high confidence, are hopeful, and
have importance and reason throughout everyday life. Spiritual individuals self-realize. We differ by
ritual, beliefs, and religion but we seek the same reason—to be saved. I realized
after ending this chapter that Spirituality is better than Religiosity for the view of the fact that
it’s not about the church where you go every Sunday or the day of your mass was held but
the fulfillment of your soul. This phases of moon shows how I am as a person—unpredictable,
has distinct faces according to mood, messy, dimed, and chaotic. Yet, I’m still worthy in
spite of how careless, sinful, unappreciative, and every bad deeds I’ve done because I truly
believe that your worth doesn’t define by your wrong doings and for me he’s the only one who’s
capable of loving you however complete, absent, and half you are. We’re only human so no one can
run away with committing mistakes. He matters, she matters, they matter, you matter, we
matter, and above all we’re valuable in His eyes.