"Yeh

Dooriyan"
PROLOUGE
.Mohabbat .......ek aisa sabd jo insano ki zindgi badal
deta ,.Jise ap beintha mohabbat karte hai ....vahi agar
apse door ho jaye to Dil par kya guzarati hai ye to dil hi
janta hai.......
Mohabbat bhi Zindgi ki Tarah hoti hai,har mod asan nhi
hota .Har mod par khushiyan nhi milti....par jab ham
Zindgi ka sath nhi chhodte ...phir mohabbat ka sath kyo chhode....
Kuch aisa hi falsafa hota hai hamara .....Mohabbat ka
ehsas kabhi bhi dil se nhi jayega......yeh to sirf maut
hi.lekar aayega.....
Kahte hai risto ki buniyad badi najuk hoti hai..lekin jo
rishte dil ki gahraiyon se nibhaye jate hai...unka koi mol
nhi hota hai unhe saflata aur asfalata ka koi dar nhi hota
hai
Vishwas ki dor se jude huye ek dusre ke.prati
samparana hi riste ki jado ko majbooti deta hai agar ye
dor thoda sa bhi kamjor ho jaye to dararein paida ho
jati hai do logon ke darmiyan...galatfahamiyan paida ho
jati hai...aur yahi galayfahmiyan rishte tootne ki vajah
ban jati hai......
Rishtey bade hi anmol hote hai inhe sahejna sabse badi
chunauti hai.....aur sirf Mohabbat hi ek aisi cheej hai
janha ham badi asani se rishto ko bacha sakte hai....
itni shiddat se mohabbat karo kisi se ki apki mohabbat
uski jaroorat ban jaye ....bhale hi use apki mohabbat ka
aitbar na ho ...par apse door hone ke bad use aapki
kami ka ehsas ho ...aisi mohabbat karo usse.............
Main Tujhse Juda Hokar Kehta Bhi Kya.....???
Ke Tujhse Juda Hote Waqt, Mere Aankhon Mein Nami Thi...
Har Cheez Thi Paas Mere Par Meri Jaan Sirf Teri Kami Thi...
Kya Tujhe Meri Uss Baat Par Aitbaar Hota...
Kya Tujhse Ab Aur Intezaar Hota...
Tu Uss Dard Ko Aur Ab Sehta Bhi Kya...
Main Tujhse Juda Hokar Kehta Bhi Kya....???
Tujh Bin Jeena Mere Liye Bhi Asaan Nahi...
Ishq To Ishq Hai Koi Pal Do Pal Ka Mehmaan Nahi...
Kaash Mere Paas Kuch Pal To Aur Hota...
Aaj Tujhe Yaad Kar Main Yun Naa Rota...
Inn Aankhon Mein Ashko Ke Siwa Aur Behta Bhi Kya...
Main Tujhse Juda Hokar Kehta Bhi Kya...???
Mujhe Aaj Bhi Yeh Yakeen Zaroor Hai...
Tu Dil Ke Paas Hai Chaahe Faaslo Mein Door Hai...
Yehi Duniya Hai Har Koi Yahan Majboor Hai...
Kayi Khwaabo Ki Tasveer Toothkar Choor Hai...
Kisi Se Bichad Kar Koi Khush Rehta Bhi Kya....
Main Tujhse Juda Hokar Kehta Bhi Kya....???
Faasle Badhne Se Rishte Mar To Nahi Jaate...
Par Sach To Yeh Hai Ke Kuch Baaki Rehta Bhi Nahi...
Door Hone Se Dooriyan Badh Hi Jaati Hai...
Chaahe Lafzon Se Koi Yeh Baat Kehta Bhi Nahi...
Jahan Majbooriyan Sab Bol De, Wahan Main Chup Rehta
Bhi Kya....
Main Tujhse Juda Hokar Kehta Bhi Kya....???
Kuch Rishte Ehsaas Ke Dhaage Mein Piroye Hote Hai...
Kuch Lamho Ko Bas Yaad Kar Hum Rote Hai...
Kuch Ashko Ko Palkon Mein Qaid Kar Sote Hai....
Koi Chaahkar To Apno Se Door Nahi Hote Hai....
Yaron Dil To Dil Hai Yeh Chup Rehta Bhi Kya...
Main Tujhse Juda Hokar Kehta Bhi Kya...???

Ankhon me abhi bhi neend bhari huyi thi......mai bistar

par chupchap leta hua tha...Halki si ankhein kholkar
dekha to khidki se dhoop andar aa rhi thi aj bilkul bhi
bistar chhodne ka man nhi kar rha tha.....aur mai
dubara jab tak neend ki aaghosh me jata mere mobile ki
ghanti baj uthi.....
"Hello ,yar kanha hai tu" Dusri taraf se mere phone pick
karte hi aawaz aayi....
"So rha tha " maine kha ..
"Tu abhi bhi so rha hai ..time dekh sale pure 11 baj
chuke hai.....," us taraf se awaz aayi..
"Sar dard ho rha tha ."mai bola
"Utri nhi abhi tak rat ki " usne kha...
"Shayad Nhi yar ,Sar ghum rha hai. Joro se.." maine
bistar chhodte huyr kha..
"To phir tu ye bhi bhul gya hoga ki aj court chalna tha
..." usne badi gambhirta se kha....
" Yes,Shubham mere dost Bilkul...." maine ek lambi sans
lete huye kha
Subham - tu kabhi nhi sudhrega na Siddhant....
"Aisa nhi yar" maine muskurate huye kha ..
Subham - jaldi aaja ..thakur sahab aa chuke hai...tera
kab se intejar kar rhe hai........
"To tu mere ko ye bat ab bta rha hai .." maine khijte
huye kha....
"Phone rakh mai abhi aata hu...."maine call cut karte
huye subham se kha ...
Maine jaldi se snan dhyan kiya aur bina nasta kiye hi
court ki taraf nikal gya....
Maine court me ghuste hi mobile switch off kar liya
kyonki mai beech me kisi ka disturbance nhi chahta
tha....mujhe pta tha ki subham kanha hoga .....Advocate
Mr.R.K mishra ke cabine me jo city ke jane mane
advocate the....
Mai sidha unke cabin me ghus gya.......Mai jab vanha
pahucha to cabin me char panch log the...maine Thakur
sahab ke pair chuye ...aur phir unke sath vali chair par
baith gya.....hamare samne Mishra sahab baithe. huye
the....
Mishra - Aur beta kaise ho....
"Sab theek hi hai....sign kanha karne hai...." maine
thakur sahab ki taraf dekhte huye bola..
"Dekho beta maine bahut koshish ki Subhi bitiya ko
rokne.ki..But..." thakur sahab jab tak kuch aur mujhse
bolte maine beech me hi unki bat katte huye bola....
"Kya fark padta hai dadu ..jo hona hai vo to ho hi rha
hai.."
Yeh bat sunkar unhe samajh me hi nhi aaya aakhir kya
bole... kuch der bad
Dada ji - lekin beta mai ye bilkul nhi chahta hu ki aisa
ho...
"To phir mai aisa chahta hu .... "
Dada ji - aisi koi bat nhi hai beta .......
Mishra - Sid yanha sign kar do.
"Subhi ne sign kiye . "Maine Mishra ji se pucha..
Mishra .- Yes, usne paper ghar par hi mangwa liye the
vo yanha nhi aana chahti thi....
"Ya mera chehra nhi dekhna chahti hai..." maine
muskurate huye kha..
Dada ji - siddhant tum galat samajh rhe ho use vo aisi
ladki nhi hai.....
"Pta hai mujhe Dadu kaisi ladki hai vo ...samne paper
par dikh rha hai...kitni jaldi hai use..."
Maine paper par sign karte huye kha ....
Dada ji - Beta usme Subhi ki koi galti nhi hai ....Bahak
gyi hai thoda...ziddi ho gyi hai
"Sach kha hai galti aap ki hai.....kyonki apne kabhi nhi
samjha use aur na koshish ki samjhne ki...Dada hai ap
uske... ."
Mishra - Thank u beta ap logo ki kagazi lagbhag puri ho
chuki hai.....
"Thank u sir " maine muskurate huye mishra ji se kha ..
Mai chair se utha aur Dadaji ke pair chhuye aur vanha
se jane ke liye muda hi tha ki Dadaji bole...
Dadaji - ek bar phir soch lo siddhant....jo kar rhe ho sahi
kar rhe ho......
"Sochna apko aur apki natin ko chahiye tha....jab apko
sochna chahiye to nhi socha .......aur result apke samne
hai...
Dadaji - beta mai uski bhalai chahta tha .. .
"Uski marji ke khilaf mujhse shadi krake.....jab mujhse
shadi nhi karna chahti thi to kyo krayi....." maine unki
taraf dekhte huye kha...
Dadu ji - maine socha waqt ke sath sab kuch sahi ho
jayega ...
"Waqt ke sath ...haaa haaa.. pichle do salo se mai bhi
yahi soch rha tha .... Par aj Divorce ho rha hai na ..."
maine kha
Dadaji - mai janta hu halat bigad chuke hai par usse
samjhauta karna bevkoofi hai....
"Behtar hota agar ye bat Subhi ko samjhate " mai itna
bolkar cabin se bahar nikla ...lekin Mishra ne mujhe rok liya...
Mishra - ek min ruko ...beta ...mujhe tumse kuch bat
karni thi....
Itna bolkar unhone dadaji ke kan me pta nhi kya khusur
pusur ki aur meri taraf dekhte huye bole....
Mishra - Dekho Siddhant Law ke hisab se abhi 6 mahine
pure lagenge tumhe comlpetely divorce lene me ....
"Bilkul"
Mishra - to tumhe ye bhi pta hoga ki Tumhe Subhi ke
sath agle 6 mahine ek hi ghar me rahna padega ....
Ahhhhhh maine ek gahri sans lete huye bola.."to ap
kahna kya chahte hai.."
Mishra- tumhe aur Subhi ko ek sath agle 6 mahine
guzarne hoge .....
"Jo ki Namumkin hai ye ap ache se jante hai "maine kha
Mishra - ye is desh ka law hai aur ise tumhe aur Subhi
dono ko manna padega.....
"Okk good par Subhi ko kaun samjhayega ..."maine
mishra ji se kha..
Mishra - maine Isi silsile me abhi thakur sahab se bat ke
"To kya sujhav diya inhone"
Mishra - Tum inke sath inke ghar hi agle 6 mahine rah lo...
"Haaa Haaa Acha meri job ka kya...vo mere sath nhi rah
sakti par mai uske sath rahu..." maine Hanst huye kha ..
Dada ji - plz Siddhant bas ye ek request samajh lo...vo
nadan hai abhi nhi samajhti rishton ki ahmiyat...use nhi
is bat ka dard par mai janta hu ki vo jaldbazi me faisla
le rhi hai...tum samajhdar ho..plz..
Unki ankhon ki nami unki bebasi aur lachari saf dikha
rhi thi.......unko kitni thes pahuch rhi thi is rishte ke
tootne ki vajah se is takleef ko mai samajh sakta
tha....Kyonki mera Rishta toot rha tha to mujhe kitni
takleef pahuch rhi hogi .....shayad kisi ko samajh me aa
rha ho......
"Thik hai....mai sochkar btata hu....." maine unki taraf
dekhkar bola tabhi beech me subham bol pda..
Subham - Dadaji ye agle hafte pahuch jayega....ap
tension free hokar jaiye....
Maine use ghurkar dekha....par usne ek halki smile pass
kar di...
Dadaji - acha vakeel sahab mai chalta hu ....beta intejar
rahega tumhara....
"Ji Dadu....par ye bat kisi ko mat btaiyega..."
Dada ji - jaisa kaho......
Dadaji ghar chale gye.aur ham vapas court se bahar
nikal aaye ....bahar aakar Subham ne kha "coffe ke ke
liye chale"
"Aj pahli bar to pandey ji ne pucha hai to kyo nhi.."
maine hanste huye kha ...
Subham - sale kamine........mere ko mukka marte huye
bola .........
Kuch der bad ham ek table par baithe .....coffee pee rhe
the...
Subham - Mere se jyada kanjoos to tu hai sale.....
"Tune vanha jane ke liye han kyo kha " maine uski bat
ka jawab na dete huye apna sawal dag diya..
Subham - Kyonki beta tu jitna normal dikh rha hai na
...utna hai nhi..
"Matlab kya hai tere kahne ka.."
Subham - yahi ki tu dikhana chahta hai ki agar use koi
fark nhi padta divorce hone se to tujhe bhi nhi padta
....lekin tu galat hai yar ...mai janta hu.tujhe kitni takleef
ho rhi hai tujhe .....par tu dikhana nhi chahta ....kisi ko..
"Kise dikhaun aur kyo dikhaun..kya farak padta hai kisi
ko " maine tej awaz me kha .....
Mere tez awaz me bolne se coffee house baithe sabhi log
hame dekhne lage...
"Sorry " jab maine itna bola tab sabne ghoorna band
kiya ....
Subham - mai teri takleef ki bat kar rha hu....aur vaise
bhi mai tujhe bachpan se janta hu ..yar...ghut rha hai tu
andar hi andar se ...mai janta hu Subhi tumhare liye kya
mayne rakhti hai....
"To kya karu yar ..." aakhir me mera sabra toot hi gya
aur meri ankhon me nami chha gyi..
"Har mumkim koshis ki use khush rakhne ki,use apne
pas lane ki...par use mai pasand nhi hu use meri
mohabbat ka aitbar nhi hai.....nhi chahti vo mera
sath...mujhe ye bat pahle samajh jani chahiye
thi....bahut pahle...." aur aakhir mere meri ankhon se
aansu ki ek boond chhalak hi gyi....
Subham - galat bilkul galat....tujhe aisa to pahle kabhi
nhi tha ...Bebas ..lachar...kyo aakhir aisa kar rha
hai....tu..
"To kya karun ..."maine nirasah bhav se kha...
Subham - Ek aakhiri koshish ....apne is bhikhre huye
rishte ko sametene ki...Dadaji sahi bol rhe the Itni
samajh nhi hai Subhi me abhi ,nhi hi rishton ki kadra
use ya yun kahe bachpna nhi gya uske andar se.....pta
hai tujhe uski bas ek hi problem hai "EGO"
"Janta hu mai bahut acche se" maine subham ki taraf
dekh kar kha....
Subham - tujhe ehsas dilana hai apni mohabbat ka use
...in agle 6 mahino me...you have only 6 months...
"Ek aur nakam koshis karana chahta hai"
Subham - Harj kya hai isme ..Divorce to hi rha hai....use
to koi fark nhi padta kyonki use ehsas nhi hai abhi is
bat ka,teri mohabbat ka, aur yahi ehsas dilana hai tujhe
Subhi ko,ehsas apni ahmiyat ka ,apne rishte ka.....
"Aisa kuch nhi ho sakta hai..tu nhi janta hai use " maine
usi andaz me kha
Subhan- Dadaji to jante hai....just chill yar sab kuch sahi
ho jayega..
"Dekhte hai .." maine muskurate huye kha .. .....
Subham - Good yahi siddhant to vapas chahiye
mujhe.....to aj kya piyega .... Rum ,whiski..wodka..
"Bas Pandey ji ..mere divorce ki khushi me itna mat
kariye...
Aur isi tarah ham sham tak ghumte rahe puri city
me...rat ko kisi bar me talli huye aur so gye.....
Are han yar Kahani to btane lga ...par introduction to
karaya nhi.. Mera nam Siddhant Singh.... .HR
Managrr...Delhi ek multinational company me Age - 26
Aur Mera dost subham jo mere bachpan ka dost hai usi
company me software engineer hai....aur Mere Dadaji
mere asli Dadaji nhi hai ...meri wife ke grandfather hai
jiske sath mera divorce hone wala hai..jo ki hamare
Dadaji bilkul nhi chahte...par hamari madam chahti hai
kyonki unko mai pasand nhi tha aur sath me irritate bhi
karta hu jo ki bilkul sach hai Aisa nhi hai ki mai
Handsome ya Good.looking nhi hu ..par EGO problem jo
ki ek bonus thA hamare beech.....
Dadaji ka Nam Thakur Ranvijay Singh Rana tha..jo ki ek
ache businesman aur ek ache politician the.....ab ap soch
rhe honge ki hamari shadi kaise huyi ....vo aise ki
thakur sahab ko mai ek train me travelling ke time mila
tha aur vo mujhse itna impress huye..ki meri shadi apni
poti se tay karne mere ghar pahunch gye...aur mujhe
shadi karni padi kyonki mummy papa itne ache rishte
ko na nhi kahna chahte the......par shadike bad jo kuch
hua vo phir kabhi btaunga par abhi situation ye hai ki
mera divorce ho rha hai.....mujhe sasur ke ghar jana hai...
Par itne din ho gye par mujhe aj tak nhi samajh aaya
ki.aakhir Thakur Ranvijay Singh meri kis quality par
mar mite or mujhe bali ka bkra bnakar apni pyari poti
Subhi ke aage halal karne bhej.diya ...
Agle din.jab sokar uth to rat ka nasha abhi chada hua
tha......time dekha to 8 baj chuka tha ...Hangover shayad
abhi bhi tha.....as pas nazar daudayi to paya ki pandey ji
hamare bistar ke neeche pade huye hai.....
"Abe Subham uth office ki der ho rhi hai" maine use
jgate huye bola.
Subham - Abe sone de na ....
"Office"
Subham -yar takle ko bol dena kuch plz yar ....
Ye takla uska boss tha ...mai bhi jaise - taise ready hua
aur office ki building me pahuncha .....maine vanha
Reception me pucha "MD aa gye.."
Receptionist- ji nhi abhi tak nhi aaye sir.....
Mai apne cabin ki taraf aage bda ki achanak se mujhe
kuch yad aaya .....
"Suno "
Rec- ji sir ..
"Ek letter type karke bhej dena mere cabin me..."
Rec- kaisa letter sir ...
"Vo kya bolte hai usko....kya ......areee yarrr ..yad ..aaa
jjaa..tyag patra ....."
Rec - What sir ..
"Agle aadhe ghante ke andar.letter mere table par hona
chahiye."
Rec- yes sir....vo hadbdate huye boli....
Use kuch samajh nhi aa rha tha ..kya likhe jab maine
use kuch btaya hi nhi....mai chupchap cabin me jakar
baith gya....Hangover itna jyada tha ki mujhe neend aa
gyi aur mai vanhi table par sar rakh kar so gya.......
Lagbhag 1 ghnte bad MD sidha mere cabin me bhagta
huwa ghusa aur mai jaldi se apni position me aa
gya...jaisa bahut sara kam kar chuka hu...paruane
pakasliya
MD - tum so rhe the...
"Sorry sir vo aj health problem hai"
MD- mai kya sun rha hu ye ki tum resign de rhe ho....
"Yes sir .."
MD - why
"Maine VP se 6 mahine ka leave manga kal rat call karke
...mna kar diye..."
MD - u r mad koi itne leave par kaise rah sakta hai..aur
company aisa bilkul nhi karegi.....
"To phir resignation lijiye" maine kha
MD nhi chahta tha ki mai company ko tata bye bye
karu.......
Kanha se ,kaise I don't know par meri leave accept ho
gyi thi......Maine MDko thank u
Ab agle hafte mujhe sasural jana tha to maine packing
suru ki ...par packing kya karu . Samajh nhi aaya .
...office ke sare kam nipta diye....
Ek hafte bad mai apni car ke sath sasural rawana ho
gya.....6 se 7 ghante ka rasta tha city se....janha ghar tha
Thakur sahab ka vo ek kasba type tha jiski population
25000 thousand ke aas pasa hogi........Nam Sri Ram
thirth Nagar tha ..jo Thakur sahab ki hi den hai.
Bda nam tha unka bina kisi rukawat ke mai unke ghar
ke darawaze ke samne khda tha.....use ghar nhi Haweli
bolni chahiye....aur dwaraza to aise lag rha tha jaise koi
hathi mere samne soond uthaye khada ho.....
Gate par khade guard ne salam kiya aur darwaza khol
diya.....mujhe odd feel ho rha tha ..kyonki shadi ke bad
se bamuskil char ya panch bar aaya hu......
Are unki family itni lambi chaudi hai jaise ki Sooraj
Badjatya ki koi movie play ho rhi
ho....chacha,chachi.,mausa ,mausi bua,fufa,are btate
btate mai hi pagal ho jaunga ....sach kahun to mujhe
Subhi ki family ke bare me kuch nhi pta ....aur ye bhi
sach hai ki Dada ji ke alawa shayad hi koi ho jo mujhe
pasand karta ho....
Ek bar maine Dadaji se pucha tha ki..aakhir itna lamba
chauda pariwar ek sath rahta ..hai.....unhone itna lamba
chauda bhasan de diya tha ki mai bore ho gya
tha.....isliye mai apko bore nhi karunga.....
Ab mujhe un logon ke beech me kuch mahine guzarne
the jinhe mai ratti bhar bhi nhi janta .......aur mai jis
kam ke liye aaya hu ....uske pure hone ke chances na ke
brabar hai....
Par bat bat hoti hai... ab din hi katne hai to kat lenge....
Main gate se jab andar aaya to.Dadaji bahar hi wait kar
rhe the mera ....maine car park ki.....aur unke pair
chhuye..aur aashirwad mila ..
Par mere aane ki khabar to jaise haweli me jungle me
aag ki tarah fail gyi.. sare log apna kam jyon ka tyon
chhodkar mere pas bhagte huye kha.....are bhai isliye
nhi aaye the ki Bda pasand karte the...vo to bas meri
shakl dekhne aaye the...
Dadaji - aj se siddhant yahi rahega....
Sasu ma- ji kitne din ...
Dadaji - kyo...koi dikkat hai tum logon ko....
Bua ji .- Nhi...nhi...aisi bat nhi hai pitaji just for
knowledge..(Bdi bua Nam Sunita hai....Inke husband
ghar jamai ban kar rahte hai aur Real estate ke business
me thoda bahut kamkaj dekh lete hai..)
Dadaji - Sunaina bitiya inka luggage upar vale room me
shift kar do....
Sasu ji - par pitaji vo to subhi ka room hai na......
Dadaji - ye mera faisla hai....subhi se meri bat ho cbuki hai....
Uttam - aj tak sabhi faisle ham thop hi to rhe hai aap.....
(ye mera bda sala.hai...jise agar mauka mile to.mujhe
kaccha chaba jaye).........mna kiya tha maine ,ham sabhi
ne..kya kiya hamari subhi ke sath...
Dadaji - Sunaina luggage rkhwa do.. .. .
"Dadu agar in logo ko promblem...I m going..apka
pariwar hai ye...."
Dadaji bina koi jawab diye vanha se chale gye....ab mai
in logon ke beech me akela khada tha ...sare ke sare aise
ghur rhe the jaise koi alien dekh liya ho.. .. ..maine
sunaina ki taraf dekha .. usne apna sar jhuka
liya....vajah thi.Sunita bua ji....
Room to pta hi tha ......luggage uthaya ....aur bina kisi se
kuch bole ... Subhi ke room me chla gya.....
Mai dophar me 12 baje ke aspas yanha pahuncha tha...is
samay sham ke 5 baj rhe the....jab mai sokar utha ... pet
me chuhe daud rhe the....Subhi bhi dikhayi nhi de.rhi
thi....aj mujhe pta chla ki kitni nafrat jarte hai mujhse
......kamino ne khana tak nhi pucha ....problem ye thi ki
Dadaji kisi kam se bahar gye the ........aur kisi ko mai
janta nhi tha..Chehre par mere halki muakurahat fail gyi....
..kyo...kaise
..kisliye...sayad kuch purani yadein taja ho gyi thi....us
kamare ko dekhkar.. maine cigeret sulgayi aur khidki
par khada hokar bahar dekhne lga ......
"Maine kha na mujhe shadi nhi karni ..."
Papa - kya problem hai...jaise bad me karoge vaise abhi
kar lo.......
"Abhi mere khelne khane ke din hai bapu.."
Papa - Han beta Tu pani ko to abhi bhi pappa bolta hai...
"Kyo bacche ko moh maya me dal rhe ho ...meri azadi
dekhi nhi jati kya .." maine bistar par lete lete hi kha..
Papa - samjhao lad sahab ko itne acche rishtey bar bar
nhi aate ......aur han mai isse puch nhi rha hu...mai ise
bta rha hu.......
"Mummy plz . "
Mummy - sorry beta as your father wish.. ..
Papa - mai thakur sahab ko han karne ja rha hu
.....sabhi ko ladki pasand hai...bas tu dekh le ...
"Agar na pasand aayi to " maine kha
Papa - mujhe koi fark nhi padta .....itna bolkar papa
kamre ke bahar chale jate hai..
"Mummy ...ye kya ...itni jaldi...abhi ready nhi hu..."
Mummy - Dekho beta papa ne tumhare deciede kar liya
to ab faisla namumkin hai badlna....
"Abhi zindgi tak dhang se nhi suru.ki maine.."...
Mummy - Zindgii ..isliye kah rhi hu shadi kar le..
..kyonki ye to suna hi hoga ki ek se bhale do..hote hai..
"Huunnhh"
Mummy - zindgi apni biwi ke sath suru karo ..jo har
mod par ..har dukh me tumhara sath de....koi bhi
pareshani aayegi tumhari jindgi to tum kabhi akela
mahsoos nhi karoge ..kyonki tumhare sath vo rahegi jo
tumhare har muskil ko aasan bna degi ..ye mera vada
hai....
"Lekin ye bad me bho ho sakta ."
Mummy - jaroorat tumhe abhi hai ek sahare ki..aur vo
sahara tumhari patni banegi...
Matlab meri koi bhi bat ..ka kisi par ko asar nhi
tha...mai ulluon ki tarah bistar bar baitha hua tha....
Mummy - beta ye rhi lifafe me uski photo...dekh kar
mujhe msg kar dena ...mai niche intejar kar rhi ho..
Itna kahakar vo bhi bahar chali gyi thi...sab kuch sapna
sa lag rha tha..Shadi...jiska har koi khwab dekhta
hai...maine bhi dekha tha ..par itni jaldi bhi nhi ...24 sal
umar thi meri .....aur mera career to abhi abhi suru hua
tha...
Samne lifafa pda hua tha .....lifafa dekh kar mera dil
zoro se dhadkne lga......"Abe dar kyo rha hai " maine
khud se kha..
Maine apni ankh band karke lifafa utha liya ..lifafa
uthate waqt mere hath kanp rhe the......maine apni
ankhein band kar li...aur dhire dhire se lifafe me se
photo nikali....
Maine apni ankhon ko halke se khola .....Meri nazar jab
pahli dafa us chehre par padi jo meri hamsafar
thi....meri dhadkan ruk gyi...kya kashis thi uski ankhon
me...un nigahone me....sare jahan ki masoomiyat
samayi hui thi uske chehre me...mai to bas dekhta hi
rah gya sirf dekhta ...meri dhadkan si ruk gyi thi...
"Nam kya hai " maine mummy ke mobile par msg kiya
.....
"Subhi " rply turant aaya..
Ise meri mook swikrati man li gyi....thi..
"Kab se start kar di smoking " ye awaz mere piche se
aayi thi.. aur mujhe vapas present me aana pda.....
Subhi ...jise nazarein tab se dhoond rhi thi jab se is ghar
me kadam rakha hai.....par jab vo mere piche khadi hai
to himmat nhi pad rhi thi paltne ki......jiske liye mai
yanha aaya tha usi se nazare chura rha tha.......
Subhi - Mai apse hi puch rhi hu...Kab se start kar di
peeni ....cigeret...
"Kya fark padta hai "
Subhi - fark padta hai...it's harmful..
"Mar hi to jaunga . Jaldi khtm ho jayegi ye zalim jindgi.."
Subhi '- shut up..
"Itni fikar hai "
Subhi - My foot...Dadaji Dekh lenge aur vaise bhi yanha
smoking allow nhi hai ghar me aur specially mere room
me....
Maine koi jawab nhi diya aur na hi kuch pucha ....mai
abhi tak khidki se bahar jhank rha tha .. maine palta nhi
tha abhi tak.....
Vo bhi kuch pta nhi kis kam me busy thi....kuch der bad
vo khud hi boli..
Subhi - Khana Khaya ...
"Nhi ..Bhook nhi hai"
Subhi - Pet me to chuhe kood rahe ho aur bol rhe ho
bhook nhi hai...mujhe pta hai magne me.sharm aa rhi hogi....
"Aisa kuch nhi hai..." jabki asal me mere pet me choohe
kabbadi khel rhe the.
Subhi- Mai kuch lekar aati hu.....
Vo kitchen ki taraf chali gyi itna bolkar...jald hi...vo ek
thali me kuch lekar room me aayi.....
Subhi - Khana to nhi hai ab ... mai kuch nashta lekar
aayi hu..
Kar lo.....mai nahakar aati hu.....
Maine ab chain ki sans li aur jaldi se naste.par hi toot
pada .......aur mai beech beech me bathroom ki or dekh
leta kanhi darwaza to khul nhi rha ....pta nhi kyo samna
nhi karna chahta tha mai uska.......
Par khuda ko shayad aisa manzoor nhi tha ..maine pani
peene ke liye jaise hi muh khola bathroom ka darwaz
khul gya..........aur mera muh khula ka khula hi rah gya....
Meri nazar jaise hi uspar padi...meri ankhon ko jo
sukoon mila jise mai shayad hi bayan kar saku...mai us
ektak dekhta rha .....uske bhige huye jisme ki khusbu
mujhe yanha tak mahsoos ho rhi thi...ankhon ka mai to
uske mai bahut dewana tha...aj bhi uski kali ankhon me
vo kashis mahsoos ho rhi thi...uska vo bhiga hua roop
dekhkar to mere dil ke tar phir jhanjhna uthe .....
"Ise aise kaise chhod du.." maine khud se kha ..
Mai to bas nihare ja rha tha....palake to uski bhi nhi
jhuki thi ...par is silsile ko bhi usi ne toda..
Subhi - Aise kya dekh rahe ho kabhi dekha nhi kya .. ...
"Dekha hai na kai bar par ...Aj ki bat hi kuch aur hai.."
Subhi - Bahar jao mujhe kapde badlne hai......usne
darwaze ki or ishara karte huye kha ......
"Tumhe to phir se hasil karna padega meri jan.." itna
maine khud se bola aur bahar nikal gya..
Maine room se bahar aakar dekha to ghar me shanti
thi......
Maine idhar udhar dekha to koi nazar nhi a rha tha..to
mai vapas room me chla gya...
"Ohhh sit "maine turant apni ankhon ko band kar liya
aur hathon se dhak liya...
Subhi - door knock krna chahiye.....tha na...
"Tumko door close karna chahiye tha. "
Subhi - mujhe kya pta tha ki tum vapas phir se aa
jaoge...
"Meri jagah agar koi aur jata to.."
Subhi -jan le leti. . .....
"Meri bhi le lo....." maine halka muskurate huye kha.....
Subhi - shut up
Subhi - kya hua is tarah idhar udhar kya dekh rhe ho...
"Kapde to pahn lo...kab se dhikhaye ja rhi ho.. .apne
dono. .."maine apni ankhon ko gol gol nachate huye kha
.....
Subhi - Disgusting..Mummy...Mummy. usne apne upar
saree dalkar chillaya.....
Agle do min me.me hi sare ke sare room me jma ho
gye....
Mai bda hi confusion me tha abhi mai bahar se aaya to
koi nhi dikha ...ab iske chikhne se sare aa gye......
Sunita - kya hua subhi..
Subhi - He is irritating me....
Sunita - kyo...aisa kya kar rha ha..
Subhi - mai kapde badal rhi thi .... ....aur isne mujhe
kapde badalte huye dekha ( pair patkate huye)
Sunita ...sasu amma...aur ek hamari bhabhi ji thi.......
Sunita- mujhe to ye pahle hi lafanga lagta tha par
pitaji..ne suni hi nhi meri...
"Hello bua ji...meri biwi hai...agar dekh bhi liya to
problem kya hai isme.."
Uttam - ab divorce ho chuka hai tumhara ..
"Abhi hua nhi hai sale sahab."
"Dekho beta tumko knock karke aana chahiye tha...use
ye sab accha nhi lagta hi..." meri sas mere se boli..
"Mujhe andaza nhi tha mummy ji ...sach kahun to mai
bhul gya tha ki andar kuch...you know"
Subhi - maine apko btaya tha ..ki mai change kar rhi
hu...
"Til ka tad kyo bna rhi ho... aisa kya kar diya maine
...biwi ho meri...dekh liya to kaun sa gunah kar diya .. "
Subhi - biwi thi....hun nhi...
Mujhe is jawab ki umeed to nhi thi.....par pta kyo nhi
jawab sunkar ...mere ankhon me nami chha gyi.....aur
maine sabse us nami ko chhupa liya par Subhi ne mujhe
is hal me dekh liya...
"I m sorry....." maine itna kha aur ghar se bahar nikal gya....
Abhi rat ka 9 baj rha tha mai vanhi ek mandir me
baitha hua tha...tabhi Dadaji ka phone aaya .
Dadaji - are beta ji kanha ho....sab ghar par tumhara
intejar kar rhe ha...dinner ke liye...
"10 min me aata hu.."itna bolkar ghar ke liye nikal
gya...ek bat to thi jab usne ye kha ki biwi thi ...tab se dil
bda hi udas tha... .maine bhi move on karne ka nischay
le liya ..
Dinning table pr sabhi baithe huye the jab mai pahuncha..
Dada ji - are aao beta baitho....
Maine chehre par nakli muskan lakar han me sar hila diya...
Subhi mere samne baithi thi.....maine ek niwala muh me
dala hi tha bua ji ka kataksha phir suru ho gya....
Bua ji - kab tak Rahoge yanha par...
"Pta nhi .."
Bua ji - pta karo muft ki roti yanha koi nhi todta ...agar
jyada din rukna ho to kisi kam me hath bnta dena ....
"Ji " maine kha ..jab maine subhi ki taraf dekha to usne
nazare hi jhuka li..par pta nhi kyo mujhe aisa lga ..ki
use bura lag rha hi....
Bua ji - pitaji agar ye jyada dino tak yanha rahega to
iska rahne ka arrangement farm house par kra do...
Dadaji - kyo ghar chhota pad gya hai...
Uttam - ji nhi Subhi ko nhi pasand hai...aur vaise bhi vo
kisi ke sath room share nhi karti.....
Suman mausi - are tau ji pta hi aj ye bina btaye room
me ghus gya...janha Subhi bitiya change kar rhi thi...
Dadaji - to isme galat kya kar diya....
Suman - kal kabhi kanhi aisa na ho jaye ..ki hamare
room me ghus jaye....to kuch ulta sidha kar diya ..to...
Kasam se itna bardast mai kyo kar rha tha samajh nhi
pa rha tha...Dadaji chup the kyonki unhe samajh nhi aa
rha tha ki kya react kare....maine Subhi ki taraf nazar
ghumayi to vo lagatar mujhe ghure ja rhi thi...aur uski
ankhon se aisa lag rha tha ki mai kuch kahun apni safai me....
Agle hi pal ek jordar sandal ki nok mere pairon par
chubhi .......maine samne dekha to Subhi mujhe gusse
me ghur rhi thi...mujhe kuch bolta na dekh usne ek
jordar kick mere pairo par jad di thi .......
Subhi - ye kya bakwas lga rakhi hai ap logo ne bua
ji.....mujhe koi problem nhi hai inke yanha rahne se .....
Suman - mujhe pta hai...tum Dadaji ki vajah se ise room
me rakh rhi ho..hai na unki khusi ke liye....
Subhi - kyo ap log bat ka batangad bna rhi hai....akhir
kya kar diya inhone...aur vaise bhi galti...meri thi
,mujhe room lock karke change karna chahiye...
Suman - tum samajh nhi rhi ho...akhir isko bhi kuch
responsible hona chahiye..aise kaise kuch ...
Subhi - shut up mausi ji...aakhir aisa kya dekh liya....aur
agar dekh bbi liya ...to bura kya hai isme ..akhir mere
pati hai v..........
Gusse me aakhir usne kabool kar hi liya jo mai karwana
chahta tha...mai sar niche karke halke se muskura rha
tha....Subhi ne ek nazar meri taraf dekha aur aisa hi
khana chhodkar room me chali gyi....
Maine jaldi se khana khatm kiya aur uske picche hi
room me chla gya ...vanha maine panhuch kar dekha
to...Subhi khidki ke bahar dekh rhi thi.....mai bhi vahi
darwaze par tek lga kar khada ho gya...use mere aane ki
aahat shayad nhi hui thi .....mai piche khda usko hi
nihar rha tha ...bina kisi dar ke .....Khamoshi chayi huyi
thi ek ajeeb si khamoshi...
"Khana kyo chhod diya beech me....aise nhi uthkar nhi
aana chahiye beech me...." jab mujhse bardasht nhi hua
tab bola...
Subhi - acha ...ab ap mujhe sikha rhe hai...aur itna sab
kuch bol rhe the chehre par koi bhi shikan nhi...
"Kya fark padta hai"
Subhi - fark padta hai......
"Sach hi to bola kal kya pta tumhari cousin ke room me
is tarh ghus jaun to "
Subhi - just shut up .....mai apko pasand nhi karti iska
matlab ye nhi ki ap bure insan hai aur koi bhi kuch
kahta rahe apse.....mai janti hu ap bahut ache hai...
"To phir kyo ja rhi ho.....
Iska jawab to nhi tha uske pas par han kuch to ajeeb bat
thi..aj uske andar ...vo vanha se hati...aur bed par aakar
bistar sahi karne lagi.....
Subhi - I think ap bistar par so jaiye ...aur mai kisi aur
room me ya phir yahi sofe par.....
"Mai sofe par so jaunga tum bistar par so jana..."
Subhi jhuk kar bistar ko sahi kar rhi thi ...jhukne ke
karan uski julfe uske mathe se hote huye uske galo ko
choom rhi thi........mai abhi darwaze ke sahare hi khada
tha aur uska chehra meri taraf hi tha ....meri nazar phir
uske ...honthon par jakar ruk gyi.....
Uske hoth to mere liye amrit ke saman the ...itne lal to
rasile ki bayan karna muskil tha ...uski palkein jhuki hui
thi...uske bal hwa me lahra rhe the .. .. usne bistar sahi
karke jab meri tarf dekha to...uski vo katilana nazar dil
ko cheer gyi........
Mai to uski khoobsurti me kho gya tha puri tarah ..use
shayad jab is bat ka andaza hua....to usne meri taraf
dekh kar bola ..
Subhi - bua ji sahi kah rhi thi....
"Kya "
Subhi - maine sirf Dadaji ki vajah se apko apne sath
rahne ki ijajat di......sirf unki khusi ke liye.......mai apko
kabhi nhi pasand karti thi aur na karti hu.....
"Jhoot bol rhi ho tum ..."
Subhi - ye sach hai....aur jitna jaldi ho sake ehsas kar
lijiye is bat ka.......
"Ehsas tumhe nhi hai meri jan .."
Subhi - mujhe pta hai....ki ap mere liye nhi hai..
"Agar pasand nhi karti ..pyar nhi karti to abhi bahar kya
tha...kyo meri insult hote dekhkar tumhe bura lga ....kya
fark padta hai tumhe is par.. kya jaroorat thi bahas
karne ki.......
Subhi - Agar apki jagah koi aur hota to bhi mai vahi
karti jo abhi kiya ..agar ap galat nhi hai to mai apka
sath dungi......
"Yahi to pyar hai pagal ..."
Subhi - mai apki ijjat karti hu..pyar nhi ..
"Ya ehsas nhi is bat ka...."
Subhi - sona nhi hai...
"Topic kyo change kar rhi ho...."
Subhi - maine kanha kiya ...
"Abhi kiya ...turant..."
Subhi - apki galatfahmi hai....
"Is bat ko tum man lo jitni jaldi ho sake ...ki tumhe bhi
mujhse pyar hai..."
Subhi - phir vahi bakwas suru kar di.....apne...
"Acha ye bakwas hai ...mai tumse pyar karta hu ye
bakwas hai..."
Subhi - faltu bakwas hai.....plz ap man jaiye is bat ko ..to
jyada behtar hai...
"Mera pyar bakwas hai....mai bakwas hu...."
Subhi - nhi mera vo matlab nhi tha ....
"To phir kya tha ..."
Subhi - mere...matlab....voo..vo..
"Kya voo..voo...huannn" itna bolte bolte mai.uske pas aa
gya.....
Ab hamare beech muskil se ek feet ka bhi fasla nhi hoga
...hamari nazare apas me mil chuki thi....na uski
palakein jhuk rhi rhi aur na hi meri.........
maine uski hatheliyon ko apne hathon me thamkar bas
itna hi bola ......
"Aj tak hamare beech jo kuch hua vo sab bakwas tha ...."
Subhi - nhi....pagalpan ...tha ...
"Pyar tha vo ...pagalpan nhi..."
Subhi - galat ....hawas ..vasna ...thi vo pyar nhi...
"Hawas aur tum...jhoot"
Subhi - mai bhi to ladki hu mera bhi man karta hai .....
"Tum apne ap ko aise hi har kisi ke hawale nhi kar sakti
ho."
Subhi - behak gyi thi mai..mera bhi man ho gya..khood
par nhi kar saki thi kaboo...plz use pyar mat
samajhiye.....
Mai uske aur kareeb aa gya ...ham ek dusre ki sanso ko
mahsoos kar sakte the....sach kahun to hamare jism
aapas me jud chuke the .....
Nazaro se nazre abhi bhi takra rhi thi....maine uske
balon ko jo gal par aa gye the use kan ke upar set kar
diya .....uske hothon ki halchal mere dil me toofan paida
kar rhi thi.....
Maine uske galon ko sahlana suru kar diya .....uski
sansein gehri ho chali thi........
Subhi - plz ruk jaiye ......kyo meri hi nazaro me hi mujhe
girana chahte hai.....
"Kisi din tum khud hi apni nazaro me gir jaogi.....tumhe
tab zaroorat padegi sahare ke liye...."
Isse pahle ki vo aur kuch bolti maine apni ungliyon ko
uske hothon par firana suru kar diya ....
Subhi - plz bahak jaungi..
"Yahi to mai chahta hu..."
Subhi - isi tarah pana chahate hai mujhe ....
"Emotional blackmail "
Subhi - jo samjhana hi samjhiye.....par chhod dijiye...
"Acha "
Itna bolkar maine usko bistar par dhakka de diya ...aur
khud bhi uske upar late gya ....mere sharir ka aadha
hissa uske upar tha .......
maine apne hathon ko uski kamar ke upar sahlana suru
kar diya....uski sansein bhari ho chali thi.....subhi
nammatra bhi virodh nhi kar rhi thi......
Subhi - plz apne ap ko kabhi maaf nhi kar paungi....agar
aj hamare beech kuch hua to...
Jab maine itna suna to mere hath apne ap ruk gye ... aur
jab is bar maine uski ankhon me dekha ...to mujhe
dhakka lga ....kyonki na to usme vasna thi aur na hi
mere liye pyar....ek dard ubhar aya tha uski ankhon
me......ansu chhalak aaye the uski ankhon me......
Ye dekhakar to mera dil bechain ho gya ...mere ankhon
me nami chha gyi... .
Mai uske upar se utha aur takiya uthakar sidha sofe par
chla gya....usne bhi koi sawal jawab nhi kiya .....
Kahte hai na dil hai ki manta nhi ...ek nazar dekhne ka
man phir hua ...abki bar jab dekha to bistar ki silwatein
sahi kar rhi thi...uski ankhon me udasi saaf jhalak rhi thi....
Mai to uski khoobsurati me phir se kho gya...subhi ne
mujhe dekha aur ek fiki si smile pass kar di.....dil
dhadak utha mera ....
Teri saanson ki saans me jo hoon toh main hoon
Tere khawabon ki aanch me jo hoon toh main hoon
Tere hone se hi mera hona hai
Tujhko khona jaise khudko khona
Tu jo hai to mein hoon
yuun jo hai to mein hoon - .......tu jo hai to mai hoon yun
jo hai to main hoon
Mai sofe par lete lete yahi soch rha tha...mujhe pyar nhi
karti ..ye bat to mujhe pta hai...pasand to karne lahi thi
..to phir kyo.....achanak to sab kuch hua nhi ....aakhir
galti meri bhi to thi...shayad mere andar ke shaq ne
hamare sudharte rishte ko is muqam par lakar khada
kar diya ....lekin suruwat to usi ne ki thi.....
"Hello ,Subhi kanha ho tum.." maine subhi ko call lagakr
kha..
Subhi - vo aj thoda work jyada hai office me to thoda
late ho jaungi...
"Aj mai dinner par jane ka soch rha tha ..kitne baje free
ho rhi ho.."
Subhi - ap chale jaye mujhe jyada time lag jayega ...
"Ab dinner akele kiya jata hai kya..."
Subhi - ohh sorry yar mai bhi pagal ho gyi....sorry phir
kisi din...bad me karti hu ..bye...
"Bye...par aaogi kitne baje tak...."
Subhi -12 baj jayenge...
"Okkk waiting....."
Itna bolkar maine call cut kar diya ...karne ko kuch tha
nhi...bhook bhi joron ki lagi thi... to maine car nikali aur
city ki sadako par dauda di....
Agle aadhe ghante tak yun hi drive karta rha .....kyonki
mujhe ek hotel ki talash thi...janha khane ke sath daru
bhi ho...kyonki subhi aj late aane vali thi...to mai
chupchap peekar aaram se uski nazaro se bach sakta
tha...
Vo jab bhi ghar late aati .....mai aise hi karta tha...kyonkj
use drinking aur smoking dono pasand nhi thi......uske
samne No drinking.......
Mai yun drive karke aage chal rha tha to ..ek red signal
par car rok di....mai idhar udhar nazara daudane lga
...to achanak mujhe subhi kisia ke sath ke side seat par
baithi hui thi....ek ladka tha uske sath....
Maine socha meri shayad nazar chal gyi ho...Kash aisa
ho jata....maine subhi ko call lgaya to usne mobile
dekhkar call cut kar diya .. ...mera matha thanak
gya..mai Car se utarkar us taraf jane hi vala tha ki Signal
green ho gya ...vo dusri taraf car se chali gyi.....maine
jaldi se car us taraf modi ......mai lagatar isi beech call
karta rha par usne.nhi uthaya ....
Mai gusse se lala peela ho chuka tha..ki achanak vo car
ek restaraunt ke aage ruki .. vo restran ham dono ka
favorite tha......jab car us jagah ruki to subhi ne us ladke
ko gale se lga liya ......
Mai call lagatar lga rha tha ....par vo call dekhkar bhi koi
response nhi de rhi thi... ......
Isi beech vo dono andar chale gye....unhine jo table book
ki thi vahi table mai bhi book karta tha hamesha
.....aakhirkar usne mera call utha hi liya ...
Subhi - kya call par call kar rhe hai ..meeting me
hu....btaya to tha....
"Sorry .."
Subhi - it's ok ...aur han khana kha lena .
Maine bina jawab diye hi call cut kar diya .....
Mai chupchap vanha se vapas chla aaya ....nasha to door
maine khana tak nhi khaya us din....
Rat ko 12 baje uski ghar me entry hui ....
Subhi - abhi tak jag rhe hai....
"Meeting kaisi rhi ."
Subhi - achhi thi.....
"Hotel me ...bf ke sath ....."
Subhi - ye kya mazak kar rhe hai...mai office me thi...
"Office........sath me kaun tha..Green land me ..."
Uske chehre ka rang safed ho chuka tha ....
Subhi -.voo..oo vv..mere sath hi kam karta hai....
"Aj kal office valo ke sath dinner me jaya jata hai...."
Subhi - ab khana to khana hi tha ......thoda time mila to
socha vanha jakar khana kha lu..
"Mere sath bhi ja sakti thi na ....." maine chillate huye
kha
Subhi - maine socha aapko kyo pareshan karun.. .
"Tumhare sath time bitana mere liye pareshani ka sabab
bnta .........kab se chal rha hai uske sath....."
Subhi - kya kab se chal rha hai..
"Affair .. . .....uske sath"
Subhi - kya stupid vali batein kar rhe ho..He is my....
"Kisi ke sath bhi tum ghumo 12 baje tak ......"
Subhi -just shut up..
"Bura lag rha hai ...aur kya kya karti hai..."
Subhi - i think ...aapka ho gya ...na daily ka vahi drama
its over...mai sone ja rhi hu...kal office jaldi jana hai......
"Mujhe sex karna hai..."
Subhi - mera mood nhi hai..."
"Kyon uske sath ye bhi kar ke aa gyi..."
Subhi - it's over ..aur plz ye.behuda batein mat kariye....
"Kyo..mujhe to karna hai.."itna bolkar maine use apni
taraf khinch liya ...
Subhi - maine kha na mujhe nhi karna ....usne meri
bahon me kasmasate huye kha ...
Maine use kiss karne ke liye uske honthon ki taraf bda
par usne apna chehra dusri taraf kar liya ....maine ek
hath se uske chehre ko pakda aur thik apne chehra ke
samne laya ...par usne apne honth nhi khole ...maine
apne hathon se jabardasti uske jabde kholne ki koshish ki......
Jisse meri pakad us par dhili ho gyi.... ..is bat ka fayda
uthakar usne ek jabardast dhakka mar kar usne apne ap
ko mere changul se aazad kra liya.........
"Chattttaakkk" uski pancho ungli mere galo par
chhap.gyi.......
Suruwat maine hi ki thi.....ab sochta hu.. shayad galti
meri thi...bat ki gahrai ko maine samjha hi nhi.........
Yahi sochte sochte kab ankh lag gyi pta hi nhi.lga.....
Ankhon par kuch tej roshni jaisi hui to achanak mai uth
kar baith gya.....to dekha ki subah ho chuki hai....subah
ke.10 baj rhe the ..
"Kisi ne jgaya hi nhi sala ..."maine man hi man khud se
kha...
Room me idhar udhar nazar daudayi ..Subhi bhi nhi
nazar aa rhi thi.......mai fresh hua ..aur fresh hokar
niche aa gya to hall kuch log baithe the......par Meri jan
nazar nhi aa rhi thi.....maine Nitin ,jo uttam ka ladka
tha...usse bulkar pucha ....
"Bua kanha hai aapki ...."
Nitin - abhi to yanhi thi...
"Par nazar nhi aa rhi ..."
Nitin - janha tak lawn me hogi ....mummy vanhi hai...
Mai lawn ki taraf bda to vanha ka nazara anandit karne
vala tha ,kyonki meri madam aaram se ghas par laithi
hui thi vo bhi pet ke balbute par koi kitab read kar rhi
thi shayad..sath me bhabhi bhi thi....
Maine jaise hi dono ko Good morning kha ...to bhabhi ne
halki si fiki se muskan good morning bola ....
"Kya ho rha hi ....bda khush hai sab..."
Unhone meri taraf dekha aur....bina koi jawab diye
andar chali gyi.......
"Yar tumhare ghar vale mujhe pasand kyo nhi karte
...."maine subhi ki taraf dekh kar kha ...
"Kyonki mai apko pasand nhi karti ..."usne meri taraf
dekhe bina jawab diya...
Vo abhi bhi pet ke bal lete hui thi...to mera kuch sararat
karne ka man hua...halki gunguni dhoop thi....to maine
socha kyo na iska kuch fayada uthaya jaye....to maine
vanhi baithe baithe apni ek ungli ko uski peeth par
ghumane lga .....
Usne salwar suit pahna hua tha ....to back ki taraf kuch
hissa khula hua tha ...to maine apni do ungli usi hisse
par firane lga .....mai bas uska reaction dekhna chahta
tha...par usne kuch nhi kha to maine apni ungli ko uski
gardan ke pichle hisse par le gya...aur vanha par uske
balo ko vanha se hatkar ek taraf kar diya ......par vo
chupchap kitab padne me busy rhi ...mao uske hav bhab
ko pakdna chahta tha ...par mujhe kuch nhi mila ...
Aisa karte huye mujhe do min ho gye ...achanak se
Subhi uthi aur chupchap ..bina kuch bole vanha se
uthkar andar jane lagi ....
"Kanha ja rhi ho.."maine ghas par letate huye kha ...
"Shopping karni hai "usne bas itna hi jawab diya..
"Koi khas program....."
"Parso karvachauth hi ..usi ke liye ...."
"Kuch der aur nhi baith sakti ..."
"Nhi ,der ho jayegi..."
"Ya baithna nhi chahti ..."
"Dono ..."itna bolkar vo bhi chali gyi....
"Damn it "maine itna bolkar.
Ek mukka jameen par de mara....
"Aise gussa karne se kuch nhi hone vala......upar aa jao
...tumse kuch bat karni hai.."
Maine jab nazar daudayi ...to upar dadaji.khade the aur
mujhe upar hi bula rhe the ...
Are bilkul upar nhi ...first floor par....maine upar
panhuchte hi ..unke pair chhuye ...unhone Sda khushi
rahne ka aashirwas diya...
"Jiska patni se talaq hone vala ho aur sar par thand
mandra rhi ho to banda kaise khush rah sakta hai"
maine hanste huye kha ....
Dada ji - control beta ,emotion control...
"Kuch kam se bulaya tha ya ainvayi.. " maine unse
pucha ....
Dada ji - vo shweta (Subhi ki cousin) ke liye ladka
dekhne jana tha tha ...mai chahta hu tum bhi in logo ke
sath jao......
"Rishta kaun lekar aaya hai"
Dadaji - hamre dost ka beta hai ...bas aupchatikta puri
karni hi....
"Ghar vale pasand karenge ki mai vanha jaun .. "
Dadaji - tum bhi is pariwar ka ek hissa ho .....
"Mai nhi manta .....apke is pariwar ka koi member nhi
manta. ...."
Dadaji - yahi to tumhari galatfahmi hai beta .....
"Is bar chahte hai ki pura pariwar apke is faisle me
sahyog de..."
Unhone bas han me sar hila diya....
"Bas mera hi Bantadhar karna tha .."
Tabhi mere mobile ki ring baji....screen par MD ka
no.flash ho rha tha...
"Hello sir,good morning..."
MD - Problem ho gyi hai...
"Kya .."
MD - workers ne strike kar di hai....
"Kisliye "
MD - permanent hona chahte hai..
"Par hamne abhi kuch dino pahle hi to kiya tha
permanent kuch logo ko.."
MD - puri bat phone par to nhi kar sakte...agar ho ske to
kal ki meeting hai Subhankar seth ke sath .... .
"Subhankar bhi ha.."
MD - bat labour association tak panhuchi chuki hi...unhi
ke support se hua hi....
"Nya HR "
MD - join hone se pahle itna bda hungama ....ho gya to
usne hath khade kar diye hamare pas tumhare alawa
koi option nhi tha
"Ok ! Sir kal meeting kitne baje hai...join karta hu...."
MD - subah 8 baje...kab tak aa aa rhe ..hotel book kar
deta hu...
"Rat tak aa jaunga ...."
MD - thank's see u tomorrow....
Dadaji - kya bat hai..
"Vo strike vagairah ho gyi to mujhe emergency Delhi
niklna padega..."
Dadaji - par beta Subhi ...
Unki bat puri hoti ki mai bol pda ...
"Do din bamuskil lagenge..." itna bolkar mai room ae
nikalne vala hi tha ..Dadaji ki awaz sunkar mere pair
thithak gye....
Dadaji - pta hai Siddhant ,Subhi ke man me asamnjas ki
sthithi paida kar di hai tumne yanha aakar...use is bat
ka andaza bilkul nhi tha ki tum dubara uski life me
vapas aaoge......
Maine is bat par gaur kiya hai ki jab se tum yanha aaye
ho..vo kuch na kuch sochti rahti hai.....uski soch bhi tum
ho...aur sochti bhi hai sirf tumhare bare me.... . .
Uske antarman me ek bhayankar toofan aaya hua hai
.........sambhal lo use varna kanhi aisa na ho..ki sab kuch
tabah ho jaye........
"Toofan to kab ka aa chuka hai,aur apko abhi bhi tabahi
ka manjar nhi nazar aa rha ... hamara rishta toot chuka
hi ,tabah ho chuka hai puri tarah se aur mai bas use ek
nayi disha dena chahta hu...bas ek nayi suruwat..."
maine bina palte hi kha....
Dadaji - Subhi se jyada tum kasoorvar ho........jisse is
rishtey ki buniyad banne se pahle hi bigad gyi....
"Ab Subhi ka side le rhe hai..."
Dadaji - tumhare nazriye se ....aisa ho sakta hai...
"Mai manta hu ..maine galti ki thi..par ham is masle par
bad me bat kar sakte hai.....abhi mujhe Delhi nikalna hi..
"Maine Delhi ke liye car dauda di rat ko .Subhi se meri
koi bat nhi hui us mulaqat ke bad...
Achanak mausam ne bhi karvat le li thi....october ka
mahina tha ...barish ki fuhare ....mausam me thand bda
rhi thi maine car ke shishe band kar diye ...heater on
kar diya .....
Jaise jaise rat bad rhi thi ...vaise ..vaise barish bhi apni
purn aavesh me aa chuki thi ..matlab ab ..fuharo ki
jagah musldhar barish ne li thi...car chalna kafi muskil
ho rha tha ........Higway par car sannate ko chirte huye
aage chali ja rhi thi .........tabhi mujhe ek dhaba dikhayi
diya ...mausam bahut kharab tha ....
Achanak huye is mausam parivartan se mai bahut
hairan tha ....par ajkal Globel warming ki wajah se kabhi
bhi kuch bhi ho sakta hi.....Maine vanhi Dhabe par car
roki ...
"Oye paji kuch bacha hai abhi" ...maine dhabe par kam
karne vale
"Ab tennu...is time ka milego" mujhe ghurte huye bola...
"Mausam kharab hai paji.. thodi der ruk lo yanha " meri
taraf dekhkar vo fir bola...
Mai vanhi charpai par baith gya...abhi bhi delhi yanha
se kafi dur tha ...
"Chai piyenge " shayad mujhe kanpta dekh usne mujhse
pucha ...
"Bilkul " maine muskurate huye jawab diya ...us Dhabe
par kai truck ruke huye the ....Mai sham ko khana
khakar nhi nikla tha .....
Mai yanha apni kalkari ki vajah se fans gya tha...mujhe
driving pasand thi .. isliye maine long route pakad liya
thai ..isi vajah se janha 5 se 6 ghante lagte hai ..vo sidhe
8 cross kr gye the ...
"Kharab mausam ha na isliye tenu ..thoda shanti lag rhi
hogi ...varna kafi chahal pahal rahti hai rat bhar...."
usne mujhe chai dete huye kha ...
"Vaise yanha kuch milega "maine chai ki chuski lete
huye kha ...
"Btya to kuch nhi bacha hai abhi...."
"Matlab Daru..."
"Are sahab is time kaun jayega theke par ...stock bhi
khatm ho gya hi..han par potli mil sakti hai ..vo bhi agar
vo yanha dene aaye to ..."
"Potli matlab .."
Kacchi sharab..."
Kuch der bad vo kanhi se kacchi sharab le aaya ......use
piya aur ab kuch relax mahsoos kar rha tha.... ...
Tabhi mere mobile par koi unknown no.flash hua ......
"Suna hai chhuti par gye ho..."call pick karte hi udhar se
awaz aayi ....
"Subhankar Seth..."
"Bhule nhi ho abhi tak .awaz pahchan liye ...."
"Kya karu kuch log hote hai life me jo dimag ki tarah
chipake rahte hai..."
"Oohhh ho...to ye bat hai......potli vali daru kaisi lagi..."
"Tu hai kanha..".maine idhar udhar nazar daudate huye
kha.
"Are tu tension mat le mujhe pagal kutte ne nhi katA jo
itni rat ko is kharab mausam me piccha karunga ...."
"Kam ki bat bol...." maine sidha usse bola...
"Tu leave par hai na to us par kyo nhi rahta . ...."
"Matlab mai vapas na aaun ..."
"Bilkul sahi ......"
"Par isme mera kya fayda hai ...'
Seth - Blank chek....
"Par isme tera kya fayda hai..."
Seth - mere fayde ki chhod apni soch
"Cancel ....Deal cancel .."
Seth - soch.le ....varna teri ek khoobsurat biwi hai.....
"Thi hai nhi...mera koi vasta nhi hai..."
Seth - hai to tu vanhi par ...
"Phone rakh rat mat kharab kar ...."
Seth - offer accha hai ..man ja ...
"Koi aur deta to sochta ..par tu hai ..na ..tere se to
chhatish ka hai mera ...sorry bro....."
Seth - jaisi tumhari marzi.... .Milte hai kal...
Itna kahkar usne mera phone kat diya ......
Mera mood thoda sa disturb hua tha ...koi tha to mere
as pas...jo mujh par har pal nazar rakhe tha ....maine as
pas nazar daudayi .. to mujhe kuch khas nazar nhi aaya
...maine vanha se niklna hi accha samjha .....ab mai
khud ko kos rha tha ki aakhir me mai is time nikla hi kyo.. ...
Maine usi waqt drive suru kar di ...problem ho rhi thi
par kisi tarah sambhal rha tha
Kuch samay bad car control me aa gyi...to meri nazar
achanak Subhi ki picture par padi jo vanhi par rakhi hui
thi.....Saree me bilkul pari si lag rhi thi......
Karvachauth ..han shayad picchle....use Karvachauth ka
vart rakhna bahut accha lagta tha ....vo shadi ke pahle
bhi rakhti thi ...acche pati ko pane ke liye .......
Lekin uska khwab adhura tha ya mera ....
" ,
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,
!
Lekin khwab aj bhi adhoora tha ....Aj is pic me bhi
bahoot khoobsurat lag rhi thi ...
Yadein apka kabhi bhi pichha nhi chhod sakti ye tabhi
mumkin hai jab apka dimag bhavshunya ho jaye..,,
ek to rat vo bhi barshati upar se nashe ka suroor
...samne meri khoobsurat huzur agar bahek jaye kadam
to usme mera kya kasoor.....
car Highway par chali ja rhi thi...ek thandi hawa ka
jhoka mere jism se takraya..jisse automatic mere pair
break par lag gye .....mai bahar nikala ..jabardast tufan
aaya hua tha mere dil me.......yad aa gyi mujhe pichhli
karvachauth ki vo rat .....kyonki us din pahli bar uski
bewafai ka ehsas hua tha mujhe..........
'' Suniye chand nikal aaya hai ...pooja kar lete hai...''
''Bhookh to mujhe bhi bahoot tej lagi hai''
"Ek bat bolun ''maine uski taraf dekhte huye kha
''boliye''
''I Love U''
...............
"kuch bola nhi tumne ...i love u ka jawab bhi dena padta
hi...''
''time par mil jayega...abhi pooja kare''
''sure'' ek fiki muskan se maine kha ..uske jawab se
dhakka to lga par dil me ek ummed thi ..,use dil se apna
bnane ki....
Mai to bas use hi nihar rha tha
''ghoor kyo rhe hai''
''ye pyar vali nazar hai''
''ok okk ab pooja khatm hui ab ap khana kha sakte
hai..,mai khana lgati hu...''
''aur tum'' maine parshnvachak mudra me usse pucha
''sorry...mai apke sath dinner nhi kar skti kyonki mujhe
meeting me jana hai''
''aj ke din meeting ..vo bhi is samay''
''han vo foreign client hai na isliye abhi video confrence
se hogi''
''tum to kah rhi thi ki aj leave hai''
''emergency hai..samjhte kyo nhi hai'''
''ok baba par ek niwala mere hathon se khati jao''
''nhi ..,late ho rha hi vaise bhi chand ke chakkar me
bahut late ho gya''
''aisa nhi bolte...'' maine use niwala khilate huye kha...
Vo bye kahte huye jaldi se nikal gyi.....
Ab mere pas kuch kam to tha nhi ....ye bhi nhi btakar
gyi thi ki kab tak vapas lautegi.....khana bhi nhi khaya
maine kyonki jab usne nhi khaya to mai kyo khaun.......
Rat ke 11 baj rhe the ..abhi tak vapas nhi lauti thi
vo...maine kai bar call try kiya to disconnect kar de rhi
thi maine socha shayad meeting me hogi.....
Mai bhi bahut bore ho gya tha to car nikali aur dauda
thi sadako par....maine socha kyo na office chala jaye...
Mai uske office ke main gate par tha .....
"namste sahab itni rat yanha kaise'' yanha ke security
incharge ne mere se puchha
''vo subhi madam kya andar hai''
''nhi to sahab aj vo office hi kanha aayai''
''koi meeting thi is time'' maine shocked hote huye pucha
''nhi sir aj koi meeting nhi thi''
Mere pairo tale jameen hi khisak gyi...kanha gyi
hogi....,,mujhe kuch samajh hi nhi aa rha tha....
Maine Delhi ki sadako par car dauda di....mai uska
phone lagatar trh kar rha tha ya to vo cut kar deti ya
phir pick hi nhi karti .....achanak mai ek resaturant ke
samne se nikla ...,use dekhkar mai ruka ...ruka isliye
kyonki ye subhi ka fav resturant tha .....mai bhi yanha
aksar aaya karta tha.....jab maine car park ki to Subhi ki
car vanha khadi dhikhayi di.....
Ab mere jan me jan aayi....''to yanha hai memshahab''
mai jaldi se andar panhucha
pura restaurant vhhan mara phir bhi kanhi nhi dikhi
maine ek waiter ko bulaya...jo mujhe aur subhi ko ache
se janta tha....
"lalu ,yanha Subhi aayi thi...abhi kanha hai vo''
Lalu - Subhi madam aayi to thi par chali gyi...
"matlab ,ye ek aur surprise tha mere liye''
Lalu - Matlab yanha vo 9 baje ke aspas aayi aur koi bees
mint me hi chali gyi...
" tujhe pta hai vo kanha gyi hogi''
''nhi sahab par han unke sath ek sahab the ..''
''Nam bta sakte ho us sahab ka''
Lalu - mujhe to nhi pta par han vo kisi party sharty ki
bat kar rhe the ..,aj karvachauth hi na isliye......unhone
bill jarur pay kiya hoga aur shayad credit card tha ..''
''pta karke bta jaldi'' maine use ek hazar ka note
thamate huye kha ''
usne turant vo note liya aur do min ...ke andar hi adress
lakar de diya...
"Prem Singh Rajpoot ,H.S- 402,Yamuna Society , Yamuna
Vihar ,Delhi....''
Ab mujhe yad aaya vo to ghar se saree me hi nikali thi
usne to dress
tak nhi change ki thi...aur mere sath khana bhi isliye nhi
khaya ki use party me jana tha aaj ..par mujhse jhooth
kyo bola ....
Mai lagatar call par call kiye ja rha tha ...ek bar usne call
uthaya aur bas itna hi bola meeting me hu aur
disconnect......
Agle aadhe ghante me mai venue par tha .....ghar puri
tarah se saja hua tha puri tarah se mahaul rageen tha
dur se hi samajh aa rha tha ki koi party chal rhi hai....
Meri nazar to ek hi shaksh ko dundh rhi thi Mrs. Subhi
Sing. jald hi unke bhi deedar ho gye....khoobsurat to lag
hi rahi thi ...par ek cheej thi uske hathon me ek aur hath
tha ....ek Ladke ka ....Prem ka shayad.....bahut khush
nazar aa rhi thi ......
Maine use call lgaya ek bar phir....usne screen dekhi aur
disconnect....disconnet....
Dil to baith hi gya tha ...par ek bar aur call try kiya
maine..,.,.abki bar usne call uthaya aur side me jakar
boli ..,...''kitni bar bola meeting me hu sam......''
''Hathon me Hath....charo taraf barat si rangat ..aj
engagement to tumhari hai nhi ...hamari aj karvachauth
thi shayad na...to tumhe mere sath hona chahiye
tha....mere hathon me tumhara hath hona chahiye tha''
'' ap hai kanha.....''
''kya fark padta hai....''
jaise hi vo piche mudi ...mai theek uske samne khada
tha ....nazaro se nazarein mili ...par kya fayda meri
ankhon ne dhokha de diya aur galon par ek boond ansu
ki ludak gyi....uski ankhein ,chehra aise mauko par
hamesha bhavshunya ho jata hai...mai uske chehre ke
bhav hi nhi pad pa rha tha....
Mai bina kuch bole ....ankhon ne to sab bayan kar hi
diya tha....vanha se chla aaya.....
Vaise asli bat kya thi maine kbhi janna nhi chaha par us
din mere dil me ek beej bo diya gya vo tha bewafai ka...
Achanak mujhe pairo ki awaz sunayi di ......Mujhe aisa
lga ki koi mujhe dekh rha hi kyonki mai unki khusur
pusur ki awaz mai sun sakta tha
"kaun hi ..."...bina koi awaz kiye mai usi taraf bda par
kuch dur aage chalne par kuch khas nazar nhi aaya
Rat ka waqt tha isliye maine koi jyada janch padtal nhi
ki .....par mujhe koi anhoni ki ashanka thi.....
"mujhe is waqt car me hona chahiye"
mai turant hi car ki tarf chla aaya aur car start kar drive
kar di...maine car ko top gear me dal diya ...par mujhe
kuch to gadbad lag rhi thi ...kaun si cheej thi jo mai miss
kar rha tha ,
aur vo tha side mirror ...achanak meri nazar us par padi
.....to black Tata safari mera picha kar rhi thi...yeh mera
bhram tha ....ya sach yahi janne ke liye maine car ki
speed aur bda di....piche vali car ki speed kuch bdi
...maine phir slow kiya ...piche vali car bhi slow ho
gyi.....main agle 15 se 20 min yahi karta rha .....aur
mujhe pura yakin ho gya tha ki ye car mera picha kar
rhi hai
ab maine aage aane vale khatre ke bare me sochna suru
kar diya ...vaise mai nashe me tha par ye to sabhi ko pta
hi ki nashe me insan kuch jyada hi sochne lagta hi....gadi
me kam se kam 8 log honge with hathiyar ya without i
don't know........
tabhi mere mobile ki ghanti baj uthi .......
"'hello"
"to kya socha phir"
"fuck off...tumhe kya lga mai itna kaccha khiladi hun jo
tera plan samajh nhi aayega .... "
"kaisa plan"
vahi ..chase karna phir shoot karna ...ek insan ke liya 8
log..."
"vo sirf tumhara picha kar rhe hi"
"matlab "
'picha"
usne itna bola hi tha ki samne se ek truck meri gadi se
takrate takrate bachi matlab ye ki mai bach gya .......
"tu to gya subhankar "
'dekhte hi,,,kaun jata hi'
''tune galat aadmi se panga le liya hai hai ..subhankar''
''yahi to mai tujhe kab se samjhane ke koshish kar rha
hu ki tune galat aadmi se panga le liya hai..........tu kya
sochta hai..... jo abhi abhi tune teaser dekha .....uski
mere pas puri DVD hai ....tu apni driving se nhi bacha
hai ..mere rahmo karam se ..bacha hai isliye kah rha
hu....''
subhankar ne itna kah kar call kat diya ......mera sar
chakra rha tha ...mai soch bhi nhi pa rha tha ....maine
gaur kiya ki mere piche jo car thi vo pta nhi kanha
gayab ho gyi......mai var ki speed bda di aur
chupchap,bina kisi ke pareshani ke hotel panhuch
gya.....
Maine apn room dekha aur chupchp so gya.....mujhe
hosh nhi tha ...ek to rat bhar ka jga upar se hangover ka
nasha ....
koi 8 baje meree room par dastak hui....kai bar dastak
hui.....
''siddhant....siddhant'.........r u there'' bar bar yahi awaz
aa rhi thi mai soch rha tha ki mai kpoi sapna to dekh
rha ...meri nindra tab tooti jab mere phone ki ring bajni
suru hui .....mera man to ho rha tha ...ki mai call uthaun
par himmat nhi ho rhi thi....
aakhir thak har kar jo bhi mujhe uthane ki koshish kar
rha tha .....usne call kar rha tha vo band kar
diya.....mujhe pta nhi par mai sota rha kab tak .....
Meri jab neend khuli to maine time dekha to 12 baj rhe
the ....vo bhi dopahar ke....mai utha aur bathroom me
jakr fresh hua ....fresh hone ke bad achanak mujhe yad
aaya ....''oooohhh teerriii.......8 baje to meeting thi''
maine jaldi jaldi me call uthaya to usme 150+ miss call
aur msg pde huye the ..........ye to kuch nhi abhi ek aur
dhamaka hona baki tha .....achanak meri nazar date par
padi to mere dimag ka dhuan hi nikal gya ......
''matlab .....aj 24 tarikh hai ....maine socha ...mujhe kuch
ho gya hi,,,maine apne ap ko chigoti kati ....par sach me
aj.....nhi yeh nhi ho sakta ...maine khud se kha ....
maine confirm karne ke liye ....reception me panhucha
''ji sir aj 24 hi hai.....'' receptionsit boli'''
mera dimag chakra gya ....mera dimag kam karna band
kar diya ...mai picchle lagbhag 30 ghante se so rha tha....
maine apna mobile nikala.....aur subham ko call
lgya.....call uthate hi usdhar se bhadak utha ...
'' kanha hai tu .....'' ..gusse ki vajah se uske munh se
awaz nhi nikal rhi thi...
'' sorryy yar....par mujhse tu abhi mil ''
''tu hai kanha sale ..mujhe ye bta '' udhar se subham
chillate huye bola ..
''yahi hotel me hun''
''dimag kharab hai tera ...hamne kal se sara hotel
.....chhan mara ....pagal to nhi ho gya tu ....'' subahm
bola
''abhi bhi hotel me hun....''
''kaun se hotel me ho ''
''vahi Royal Cliff me ...jo sir ne book kiya tha ''
''dimag ka ilaj kar ....tu pahle pta kar kis hotel me hai...''
okk.....itna bolkar main ek bar phir receptionsist ki tarf
rukh mod liya ''
'' ye kaun sa hotel hai''
''ji sir ,,,Royal Mrime....''
''sorry yar lagta hai mai galat hotel me aa gya....'' maine
subahm ko call par blte huye kha ....''
''chal jaldi aa ....bahut jaruri bat karni hai .... tujhse...''
mai jaldi se office panhucha ....bol subham kya hua ...
''pahle tu ye bta ki tu galat hotel panhucha kaise ''
''yar mujhe kuch yad nhi ...dhang se ...bas itna yad hai
ki rat ko meri subhnkar se bahs hui thi...uske bad mai
sidha hotel panhucha ...aur so gya aur jab ankh khuli to
.......mai khuch samajh nhi pa rha hu akhir mere sath ho
kya rha hi .....''
''dimag sahi hai na puri tarah se ''
'' lat kahyega sale ''
'' ja MD bhadka baitha hai...mil le usse..maine use teri
position bta di thi ..''
mai sidhe MD ke cabin me panhucha ;;;;
mujhe dekhte hi ek sans me vo pta nhi kya kya bol
gya.....
''are sir /....thoda aaram se btaiye akhir hua kya ....''
MD- kal ki meeting cancel ho gyi ,,,sirf tumhari vajah
se...
''meri vajah se ....''
MD- han tumhari vajah se subhankar bola ki jab tum
nhi ate tab ta koi meeting nhi honi ....''
''to meeting kab hai ....''
''sham ko....''
dar ki vajha se kanhi phir kuch gadbad na ho jaye MD
mere sath din bhar bna rha ...yanha tk ki muhe
bathroom jane ke liye uski anumti mangni pad rhi thi...
Akhir rat ko 8 baje meeting start hui ....
subhankar ,md ,kuch aur log is meeting me the ....
''siddhant ...zara idhar aana '' subhankar ne mujhe
bulate huye kha ..
''dekh siddhant idhar abhi jo hone vala hai na vo sab
scripted hai .......isliye ek bar mere offer ke bare me
jarur sochana .....aur han mera trailer bhi tune dekh
liya....''
'' haa haaa ... acha to ye teri karamat thi ....vah bhai
peeth par var karne me tujhe kuch jyada hi maza aat hai
na ....to beta meri ek bat dhyan se sun ...mai darne vala
nhi hun teri in choti choti dhamkiyon se .....''
''dekhte hai ...''
''fuck off''
itna bolkar mai meeting place ki taraf nikal aaya ...
meeting apne time par start hui ....par nazara yanha
kuch aur tha ...association ke alwa bhi sahar ke kai log
bhi mauzood the
''sir yanha meeting hai ya party''
''ek teer se do nishane ''
''masla kya hai ''
''khud hi sun lo'' md ne sidha jawab chipka diya ....
tabhi subhankar bhaunk utha .....
''Gentel man sidhe mudde ki bat par aata hun .....'
''jaldi bol na ...'' maine muh bnate huye kha ....
''han Siddhant sir apse hi to asli kam hai ...dekho dil
tham kar baithna mai jo kahne ja rha hu.....bahut dhyan
se sunna .....jaisa ki sabhi jante hai ,,.... ki Black money
ko lekar Goverment kitni shakht ho gyi hai ....aur yanha
jo log bhi hai krodo
rupaye black money bhra pda hai inke pas ...''
'' isse hamara kya tallukat ..hamari company ka kya
connection hai isse..''maine sidhe shabdo me panhucha
''itne besbra kyo ho rhe ho bhai ....to suno ....hamare pas
jo paisa hai ....usko ab yun hi nhi barbad kar sakte ..ki
ham yun hi jla de ya aur kuch kar de .....to ham invest
karna chahte hai .....vo bhi tumhari company me ...abhi
tak ham invest kar chuke hote par ...hame pta chala kkii
tumhare pas bhi is company ke share hai vo bhi 21%...''
'' han sahi hai ....ham is company ke founder hai
....hamne cousin ke sath milkar company start ki
thi....par ham apka paisa invest nhi kar sakte ....so exuse
me....vaise bhi ye software company hai....''
''isliye kah rha hu ki REAL ESTATE me hath ajmao..kab
tak gadejts ke sath khelte rahoge ...''
''MEETING IS OVER.......EVERYONE CAN GO''.....maine
itba kha aur vanha se uth gya
subh - dekh siddhant tu janta nhi ki tu kitni badi galti
kar rha hai'
''sale tu nhi janta tu kitni badi galti kar rha hi...''
subh - mera power dekha nhi hai tune .....abhi ...teri
company kal pani bhi nhi mangegi share market me ......
'' tu sun ...agar black money invest karna hai to koi aur
jagah dhund lo ....''
subh - tere liye fayde ka sauda hai ..tune sidhe muh kisi
se bat tak nhi ki ..
''yanha se jayega ...ya dhakke mar kar bhagaun ....''
subh - pacchtayega ...bahut pacchtayega ......tu to
gya...gya ...bilkulo khatm ...''
ab mai tujhe apna power dikhata hun ....
''meri bat sun ....ab mai tujhe apna power dikhata
hun....chal ..'' ..itna bolkar maine subhankar ka collar
pakda aur janha worker strike par baithe the ...vanhi
panhucha .......
unhi ke dwara bnaye gaye manch par panhuchkar
....mike hath me thamte huye subhankar ko ek
jhhantedar tamacha mara ....chhattakk....ki awaz se
sabhi log hairan rah gye ''
''mai dikhata hun power......maine bolna suru kiye
....mere samne 700 logon ke as pas khade the ...maine
bolna suru kiya...''
'' sabhi worker ko meeri taraf se pranam ....ab sabne
....strike karke hame bahut bda nuksan kraya hai
.....karodo ki chapat lagi hai ....ab meri bat dhyan se
suno ...acche se ...jo rate goverment ne decide kiya usse
bhi jyada tumhe dete hai ham log ..kis bat par strike ki
...mujhe nhi pta ,,aur na hi janna hai ,.......
aur na hi mai tum logon ki koi mang manunga ...ab
mera faisla suno .......kal se jisko kam par aana ho vo
chale aao varna mai tumhara istifa bhi nhi manguga
balki tim logon ko nikal dunga ....I WILL FIRE U
.,.....understand everone ....aur jitne bhi log kal subah
office time tak compant nhi huye ...to unka koi intejar
nhi hoga ....aur unki jagah nyi hiring suru ho
jayegi.....jisko yanha strike karni ho vo kare ...nuksan
hame vaise bhi ho rha hai to kuch din aur sahi .....ab
tumhari wish hai ki tum log kya chahte ho ..is chutiye ki
bat manoge ya ....meri baton par gaur karoge.....u have
only 11 hours ........'''
Itna bolkar ek tamacha aur subhankar ko jad diya .....
''ye truck vale teaser ke liye tha ... aur han ..ab dekhna
mera power'' itna bolkar mai vnaha se sidha HOTEL
NIKAL AAYA ....
abhi kuch samay hi beeta hoga ki....meri mobile ki
screen par subhi ka no flash hua ......meri to jaise
dhadkan hi ruk gyi ho ......maine jaldi se call uthaya aur
''Hello'''
''subhi bol rhi ho....aj karva chauth tha ,,,pta tha ''
'' pta hai...shayd ''
''kanha ho ...''
''Delhi..''
''bina btaye chale gye ..''
''urgent the,..''....
''mujhse bhi jyada ...''
Usne itna bola hi tha ....
''kya kha tumne ...ek bar phir se bolna " maine hadbadi
ya yun kahe mai bechain ho gya tha ....dubara se vo lafj
sunne ko ,,,,
''mujhse bhi jyada urgent tha '' usne dhire se kha
sach kahun to us samay to halat ..aiusi thi ki ..mai khud
ko kanpta hua mahsus kar rha tha ......aj pahliu bar meri
jindgi me aisa hua tha ki mai khusho ki vajah se kanp
rha tha ...
''r u there '' usne dhire se kha ...mai uski awaz ki
kampan sun sakta tha
''its every thing alright ''
''ya '......chand nikalne ka waqt ho gya hi ..skype par aa
jao''
''ssuurreee....'' meri to khushi ka koi thikana hi nhi tha
...abhi jo kuch hua ,,,kuch der pahle jo bawal hua .....sab
bhul gya tha ......
mai bhagte huye apne room me panhucha ....bamuskil
14 min ke andar hi maine laptop on kar diya ,,,,
mera dil zoro se dhadak rha tha ..........jaise mai apni
biwi se nhi apni premika se milne vala hu vo bhi pahli
dfa ,........
aakhir vo lamha aa hi gya ...jab uska masoom sa chehra
screen par flash hua .....uski ankhein bhari hui thi
,...unme nami thi ,,,shayd ..aisa lag rha tha jaise soyi nhi
ho kai din se ......vo khoobsurat chehra aj utra hua tha
,,....pta nhi kyon.....ham ek dusre ko dekh rhe the bas
....kya bolun kuch samajh nhi aa rha tha .....
''kya hua ....itni udash kyo ho'' akhir maine hi chuupi
todte hiuye kha
''kuch nhi...''
''chand nikal aaya hi ....pooja karni hai ...''usne dhire se
kha
pooja vagairah karne ke bad .....usne khae ka ek chhota
sa niwala apne munh me dal aur baki khana vanhi rakh
diya ...
''acha ....ab pooja ho gyi hai...so jao ...gd nght...';' usne
chat band karne ka aadesh de diya tha ....
''maine ektak use dekha ....bhale hi is samay ham ek
dusre ke pas nhi the par dll ..dimag ....dhadkan bas ek
dusre ke pas hio tha .....
uske chehre par baichani saf dekhi ja sakti thi...
''suno'' maine kha
''huunnh''
'kuchder aur bat nhi kar skti''
''kya karoge ...ab kya bat karenge ,..jab karni chahiye thi
tab to ghar sw nikal diya ''
''aisa mat bol na ...yar ...galti ho gyi...'' maine badi
muskil se ye shabd apne dil se nikal paye the ....mera
gala rundh gya tha ...ansuon ne ankhon ke kinare par
dastak de diye the ...par subhi hamesha ki tarh
bhavshunya thi...
''galti apse nhi mujhse hui ......''
''meri galti hai ..sari galti hai ...mujhe bat pta karni
chahiye thi ...''
''apne jo kiya sahi kiya ,...koi bhi ...yahi karta ....''
''kya jaroorat thi ghar chhod kar jane ki....ruk bhi sakti
thi na ..'' maine usse kha ..
''galti meri thi ......faisla mera tha ....''
''phir bhi mujhe hath nhi uthana chahiye tha...''
''abortion ....kraya tha maine ..vo bhi apke marji ke
khilaf,,,,bina btaye ,,,,bahk gyi thi mai ,,,,...nhi samajh
aa rha tha kya karun .....kya galatr hai kya sahi
hai...mujhe nhi samjh aa rha tha .....manti hai vo bhi
mera ghar tha .....intejar kiay tha rat bhar ..us barsat
me...puri rat sadak par guzar di thi maine ...ap abji
aaoge ....kahoge ....chalo subhi tumhare bina ghar
adhura hai....par nhi mai bewajah ..ash lgaye rat bhar
bhigti rahi ....mai khud ko maf nhi kar pa rhi to phir
apse kya umeed karti .........''
uski ankho se ansu aj paHLI bar maine dekhe the
....mera dil kanp gya us halat me dekhakar ...mujhse bhi
jyad roi hai vo ..mujhse jyada dard use hua
''ek mauka ..aur de do na ...sach me tumhare bina ..ghar
adhura lagta hai ...maine ye din kaise guzare mai khud
nhi janta ...bechani si chhayi rahti hai tumhare bina
....man nhi lagta yar .....''kisi tarh maine apni ankho ko
roka hua tha ...
par aj subhi apne ap ko rok nh payi ..uski ankhon se
ansu nikalne lage .....
'' i love u subhi......ab aur intejar nhi hota ''
''mera bhi yahi hal hai...i love u to...jaldi se aa jao na
....ab intejar nhi ho rha ...''
''aata hu...abhi nikal rha hun.....subah tak tumhare pas
aa jaunga subhi .....''
itna bolkar maine laptop band kiya apne ansu poche
...aur kisi ko bina kuch btaye ...ghar ki tarf car dauda di
.......ab mujhse ek pal bhi bardasht nhi ho rha tha .....car
ko apni full speed se dauda di thi ....
maine car apni full speed me dauda di......mujhe kuch
samajh nhi pa rha tha ...ki aakhir ho kya rha hi...apne
ap hi mere hath gera badal rhe the ,..accelerator par
rakha pair apne ap ..speed bda rhe the .....mai apna
pura control kho chuka tha...mere dimag ka mere sharir
ke kisi bhi hisse par koi control nhi rah gya tha ...............
mere car ki speed is samay 130+ thi ...mai apne ap me
khud ko control kar rha tha .....par meri sari kosise
bekar ho rhi thi.....
akhir vo waqt bhi aa gya ...jab mere dimag ne bilkul
kam karna band kar diya ....bilkul bhavsunya ....mere
hath automatic car ki stering par jhool gye.....mai sirf
dekh sakta tha...ki aakhir ab mere sath kya hone vala
hi...lakh kosise ke bawjood bhi...mai bilkul bhi hil dul
nhi pa rha tha ...mere hath pairo ne kam karna band
kar diya tha ...maine apne sir ko seat ke sahare tika
diya ..,.aur ab sab kuch upar vale ke hath me chhod diya
lekin upar vala to tumhari chalti hui car to rokega nhi
......meri ankhein bojhil ho rhi thi,...mujhe sirf itna yad
hi ...ki meri car divider todkar wrong direction me
chalne lagi thi....kyonki samne se aane vale vehicles ki
roshni mere chehre par pad rhi thi..kuch der bad mujhe
ek jabardast jhatka lga ...aur front seat ka air bag
khulkar sidha mere sar par lga ...mai isse sambhla bhi
nhi tha ki koi bhari cheej mere sar se takra gyi jisse
mere ankhon ke samne bilkul andhera chha gya ....aur
isi ke sath mere dimag ne puri tarah se kam karna band
kar diya....
jab ankh khuli .....to mai ek hospital me tha ...mere as
pas do teen nurse khadi thi.......unhone jaise hi mujhe
hilte dulte dekha ...turant hi usne doctor ko awaz lgayi......
"docror ....patient ko hosh aa gy hi...''
doctor turant hi janha mai leta hua tha vanha bhagta
hua aaya ....ye andaza maine uski sanson ko dekhkar
lgya tha.....
"ab ap kaisa feel kar rhe hi''
''mujhe kya hua hai'' maine puri taqat lagate huye usse
pucha ..kyonki mera sharir bilkul bhi hil nhi pa rha tha....
"apka accident ..vo bhi apki car se ..bahgwan ka sukriya
ada kijiye ki ap bach gye....varna itni speed se hone vale
accident me on spot death hoti hai....''
Maine sirf jawab me sirf muskura diya .......doctor aage bola...
"apki kismat acchi thi ki apki car ped par latak gyi...''
''matlab'' maine chaunkte huye kha
Dr- matlab ki apki car ek pull se niche giri thi ...to vo
jameen par panhuchne ki bajay ek ped me ulajh
gyi.....are han iski pic bhi hai apke dost ke pas.....
"vo yanhi ha,..'' maine dhire se pucha ...
"han mai use bula dunga
''Ek bat samajh nhi aayi Siddhant'' Dr ne mujhse kha
''vo kya..''
''Kya apko pta hi ki apke body me alcohal ke sath me
poison bhi mila hai..''
''what the fuck''
''cool down..its true tumhe slow poison diya gya
tha...aur tumhari is condition ka jimmedar tumhari
sharab nhi balki vo poison tha...vo
tumhe dhire dhire khatm kar rha tha...par iska asar aur
bad gya jab ye alcohal ke sath miX ho gya...aur tum jo us
din itni der soye the vo bhi effect tha iska ..aur jab tum
us din car lekr gye the to iska effect apne high level par
tha ....aur tab bhi tumne drink ki hui thi..,jisse iska
prabhav aur bad gya ...isne tumhare mind par kabja kar
liya ,..aur tum vo sab assume karne lage jo tum vastvik
life me dekhna chahte ho....''
''thanks doctor,...ab kya condition hai..'' maine pucha ..
"bed rest for one month'' usne kha
''zra subham ko bula dena''
''okk''
Ab maine sukoon se apni body ka investigation kiya
to..paya ki mere dono pair par plaster aur patti ..bandhi
hui thi...hath me to definetly plaster tha ...kamar me ek
supporter bandha hua tha ..sar par patti thi...bhagwan
ka itna sukra tha ki chehre sahi slamat bach gya tha
vnha halki fulki kharoch type ki thi....mai apni dun me
tha ki tabhi,,,
''kya guru ,...kaisa hai ab'' pandey andar aate huye
bola...
"Mrwa li be....sala mai jinda hu '' maine muskarte
huye bola..
"mujhe believe nhi ho rha ki tu sach me jinda hai,...sale
tu kar kya kar rha tha'' subham thoda gambheer hote
huye bola..
"mujhe kuch yad nhi ...bas itna yad hai ki maine subhi
se bat ki aur usne bulaya phir usi time nikal liya'' maine
sochte huye kha
''tera dimag hil gya sale ..tu sharab pee rha tha ..peete
peete pta nhi tujhe kya hua tune laptoop khola ...aur
subhi ki photo ke sath kya kya bat karne lga aur
achanak tu darwaze ki tarf
bhaga ...pahle to maine tal diya par jab tune car start ki
to mai bahar ki tarf bhaga..lekin tab tak tu hotel se nikl
chuka tha ..maine rajeev ko sath liya aur tere piche
pichhe car dauda di..''
''ek min ruk ..pahle tu ye bta ki tune mera piccha kyo
kiya ...jab ki tu khud talli tha..'' maine use rokte huye
pucha...
"kyonki tu itne nashe me tha ki tu dhang se chal to pa
nhi rha tha car kya dhang se chlayega,..,mai bhi talli tha
isliye hi maine rajeev ko apne sath liya tha.....'' usne
sidha sidha bola
''chal aagge bola''
''jab ham tera picha kar rhe the to teri car ko speed
lgatar bad rhi thi...mera to sara nash utzr gya ...kuch der
bad teri gadi wrong direction me chalne lagi....uske bad
jo hua vo tete samne hi..'' subham ne ek lambi sans lete
huye bola ...
"matlab tu kahna chah rha hi ki meri subhi se nhi uski
photo se bat hui uska koi call nhi aaya.,ye sab mera
vaham tha.''
''exactly''
''yar subahm tujhe ek bat pta hi .''
''kya''
''mujhe slow poison diya gya ''
''kya bak rhe ho yar''
''sach me aisa ni hua hai......mujhe vanha kou marna
vhah rha ha us ghar me .....lekin kyo...''
''tujhr koi kyo marega vo bhi subhi ke ghar''
''ab bas yahi to janna hai...akhir chal kya tha hao vanha
...kuch to gadbad hai..acha vanha se koi aaya hai...''
''Han,dadaji ,bhabhi,aur bhi do char log the ...tere
mummy papa bhi aa gye hai.....'' o bade pyar se bola
''are han subhi bhi aayi hai ...abhi fresh hone gyi e gyi
hi''meri vyakulta ko dekhkar vo bola...
tujhe kisse milna hai...subham ne mujhse pucha ..jabki
vo jawab janta tha ..phir bhi..
"aram karne ki soch rha hu,.'' chahta to mai bhi tha par
nhi bola maine..ki han mujhe jarurat hai sirf
uski ,..dekhna chahta hu uski ek jhalak.......
"dadaji...tujhse milna chahte hai..''subham ne meri
tandra ko todte huye kha,,
usne mere jawab ka intejar
bhi na kiya aur jake.,,bahar se sabhi ko andar bhej diya
..maine sabhi ko ek ek karke..andr aate huye dekha
..par ek bar phir mujhe mayushi hi hath lagi..kyonki
subhi ka koi thikana nhi tha,...sabhi log mera halchal
lene me lage the ...par mera man to kanhi aur tha kisi
aur ke khyalo me.......
"vo yanha aayi kyo aayi...agar yanha aayi bhi to phir
mere pas kyo nhi aayi......''
mera jyada mood nhi tha kisi se bat krne ka ....shayad
bhagwan ne meri sun bhi li aur isi beech doctor ko bhej
diya jisne treatmant ka bahana lekar sabko bahar ka
rasta dikh diya....,maine doctor se time pucha to usne
chup rahne ka ishara kiya ...maine bura sa munh bnate
huye usse bola .,,,''tumhara chal paunga''
''pair tute hai kate nhi'' usne sidhe jawab diya..
"kafi khadoos doctor ho'' maine vyangatamak lahje me
kha
''chupchap aram karo..mai subah phir aunga agar
washroom vagairah jana ho..to ye batan dba dena ..usne
ek gol dibbi se mere pas rakhte huye bola...
Use tretmant karte huye aadhe ghante ho gye
the...,sabkuch clear karne ke bad vo vanha se jane lga
''koi bahar ho to bhej dena''
''hoga to bhej dunga''usne teekhe lahje me kha..
"'iski maa ki..'' apne apne mn me hi kha agar sahi hota
to tujhe btata ..kya kare jab apni hi kismat footi ho..par
ye subah vala doctor nhi tha ..koi nya murga hoga....ab
kya kiya jaye,.,ek to sala icu tha ,,,upar se koi bolne vala
bhi nhi...boriyat mahsus ho rhi thi..kya kiya jaye yahi
sochta hua mai apne sir ko idhar udhar ghuma rha tha
,.ki achanak maine icu ki window par kisi ko khda
dekha ,,.., han vo vahi thi...jiska mujhe intejar tha.....
Meri nazarein ab sirf usi ko dekh rhi thi....ek tak use
nihare ja rha tha...vo bhi bina palak jhukaye..bas mujhe
hi dekh rhi thi....uski ankho ko pdna chaha maine ,..par
har bar ki tarah bhavshunya thi...itna to mahsoos ho gya
tha ki dard hai..tadap hai....par kis bat ki aur kyo
....agar pyar karti hai jo ki sach me karti hai..to phir
kisse dar lagta hai ,...usse ...mai ye sab soch rha
tha...yahi sochte sochte pta nhi meri ankh lag
gyi.....shayad ye us dawai ka asar tha
Mujhe kisi ke kadmo ki aahat sunayi di par mai apni
ankhon ko na khol saka ...bo ahat mere pas aayi...itni
pas ki mai uski dhadkano ko mahsoos kar sakta
tha.....us saye ne mere hatho ki hateliyo par apne hath
rakhe aur..,dhire se usne dbaya ,...mujhe aisa mahsus
hua ki usne mere mathe par ek chhota sa chumban liya...
Vo halke se fusfusayi''kya karu...jagte huye bol nhi sakti
apse...bat karne ka man hota hai par nhi kar pati..sote
huyr dekh kar hi tasalli kar leti hu...apko kya lagta hai
apki aisi halat dekhkar mujhe kuch nhi hota ....fata ja
rha hai mera dil....''
Apko bhi lagta hoga na ...ki mai apse pyar nhi krti
..,sach bhi to hai...kabhi bhi to pyar nhi diya....,chahkar
bhi pas nhi aa payi...kitni bar try kiya..apne nazdeek
aane ka par har bar maine khud ko rok diya....kyonki
dar lgta hai mujhe...kanhi vo apko kuch kar na de...,.mai
pyar karti hu apse...ye bat unhe pta hai....par apko
nhi,,,,agar apko pta chla na...to ye log apko mar
denge.,,,,,.....isliye khud ko dur rakhti hun....aj tak nhi
bola isliye dil me ek bojh sa rahta hai.....aj bhi bol rhi
hu,,,par ap nhi sun sakte,,,,par mere dil ka kuch bojh
utar jayega...,ye sab mujhe apko jagte huye me bolna
chaiye par ....mai shant rahti hu..,,.kyonki...mujhe apse
pyar hai....aap dur rahkar bhi mere pas hai...ye jo ap ki
aj halat hai uski bhi mai hi jimmedar hu.......kyonki
unhe lgta hi ki agar mai apke pas rahi to vo kamyab nhi
honge,.,,ap jo bhi sochte hai mere bare me..,.lekin itna
pta hai ki ap mujhse pyar abhi bhi karte hai...
bhale hi maine itna bura kam kiya ho kaun mar sakta
hai ...apne bachhe ko lekin maine mara ...kyo mara
..kisliye .,,.iski vajah nhi bta sakti..,,har waqt pahra
rahta hi mujh par,..aj apki halat dekhkar bardasht nhi
hua....,,
shayad uski ankhon se ansu gire honge kyonki mujhe
apne hathon par kuch nami sa ehsas hua.,mai sun
sabkuch rha tha par pta nhi mujhe kya ho gya tha ki
mai chahkar bhi apna hath nhi hila sakta tha...bol nhi
sakta tha ,.,uske ansu pochna chahta tha .....bolna
chahta tha,...mai hoon na ...mai sab sahi kar
dunga.....par mai bebas lachar ..usi awastha me pda
tha....usne phir bolna suru kiya...,
Pta hai,,,hame vo saja mil rhi hai ...jo khta hamne ki hi
nhi....khud ko akela mahsus kar rhi hu...chhalawa hi sab
kuch....rishte nate ..sab khokhle hai,,,,ek khel chal rha hi
yanha ...jisme jeetkar bhi mai har jaungi....
apne jo dekha suna ...sab sach tha par isme kitni sacchai
hai...kisko pta hai..mai apko dhoka nhi de rhi par apne
sachhai janne ki koshish nhi ki..hamari mohabbat sacha
hai ya jhooth apne iska faisla bhi kar liya ....aur ab jab
ehsas ho rha hai..to..lekin ab bahut der ho chuki
hai....samne bhi ye sab kah sakti hu par nhi kyonkikai
logo ki jindgiyan judi hai.,,ab hamare rishtey
par..........ab kuch acha lag rha hai..par dukh bhi hai
ki..ye sab kuch samne nhi bta sakti......''
kuch der yun hi khamoshi si chhayi rhi...mujhe aisa lag
rha tha ki vo mujhe jee bhar kar dekhna chahti hai.......
"ab jana hoga jan.....isse pahle ki mujhe koi dekh le...i
love u ...aur hamesha ap mere dil me rahenge '' vo bas
itna fusfusai aur ek bar phir mere mathe par halka sa
chumban liya ..meri hatheli ko kaskr jakda....aur ab uski
ankhon shayad anshu tej ho gye the kyonki uske
subakne ki awaz sunayi de rhi thi.......ab use jana tha
...shayad usne mujhe dekha ho picche mud ke kyonki
uska hath mere hath se alag ho chuka tha...darwaza
band ho chuka tha vo ja chuki thi.......par jate jate kai
sare sawal chhod gyi thi mere dimag me........
Darwaza band ho chuka tha ..vo ja chuki thi par jate jate
mere sine me kai sawal chhod gyi thi....jiske jawab ab
mujhe dhoodne the.....
mai hil nhi sakta tha ,bol nhi sakta tha...kisi ko pukar
nhi sakta tha,....par han mai khud se batein kar sakta
tha....kasam se phir se is doctor ne aisa kiya na...to jan
le lunga mai iski,,,.,.....
Mai khud se batein kar rha tha...kya philosphy ka gyan
dekar gyi ye....agar itni problem me hai...to pahle kyo
nhi btaya mujhe...iske piche bhi reason hai..kai
zindgiyan judi hai,..hamare rishtey..par chalo ye bhi bat
man lete hai....ek to mai ho gya ,,aur ye ho gyi....koi aur
bhi hai....agar hai bhi to kaun ..aur kyo ...
Ek bat aur samajh ke bahar aur ye ki nazar kaun rakhe
hai....aur kyo...kya chahiye use hamse..,ek aur
gyan,,,rishtey nate sab kuch dikhawa hai....iska matlb to
mai nhi nikal sakta ..kyonki har joint family me aksar
hota hai ...ki sare log apne fayde dekhte hai.......
ab mujhe uljhan ho rhi thi...apni halat se,..mai uthna
chahta tha....par ..kasam se us doctor ke upar bahut
gussa aa rhi thi....ab mai aur jaldi thik hona chahta
tha.....
pta nhi kya time hoga..par ab mai hil sakta tha aur .,bol
bhi sakta tha...maine apni ankhein kholi...aur...samne hi
subham aur dadaji ko paya...
"kitna sota hai..yar'' subham bola..
"vo doctor kanha hai...agar aj usne koi injection lgaya na
to use mar dalunga...''
''thik hai..beta'' dadaji ne haste huye kha...
"abhi kitne din mujhe sahi hone me lagenge''
''itni vyakulta kyo hai....'' dadaji phir muskuraye..
"subhi sath aayi hai..'' kyonki mujhe ab in logo se bat
karne me interst nhi tha...
"thik hai...par..mujhe tumse kuch bat karni hai,,''dadaji
ne mujhe dekhte huye bole...
Aur subhi ko awaz lga di...
Kuch der bad chehra mere samne tha..uska vo udas
,murjhaya hua,..jisme koi sikan nhi thi ..bhavshunya
thi...jo aksar vo ho jaya karti hai.....
"mujhe akele me bat karni hai...'' maine dadaji ki taraf
dekhkar kha...
"par ham hai tum bat to karo..''dadaji ne kha..
"par dadu ap personal ka matlab samjhte hi..''
vo bina kuch bole subham ke sath bahar nikal gye....
Ab mai aur subhi sirf do log hi kamre me bache the...
"apna hath dena '' maine uski tarf dekhte huye kha...
Usne meri tarf parshnvachak nigah se dekha..
Maine apne hathon ki taraf dekha to plaster hate huye
the,...mera dimag ghuma,..
"mai behosh tha..'' maine usse pucha..
"han'' usne sidha jawab diya..
Uski is awaz ko sunne ke liye hi to tarsta hu mai...
"kitne din tak''
''vo ek hafte se.''
''what''
''hun..doctor ne hi bola tha ki ye jitni der behosh
rahenge..utne hi thik rahenge,,,'' subhi chehre par bina
koi expression laye boli jaise use kisi bhi bat par koi
fark nhi pdta...'
''ye kaisa ilaj hi sala behosh hi kar do'' mai chillate huye
bola...
Ab uske chehre par thodi hansi thi...
"doctor ne bola tha ki jitna kam hosh me rahenge..utni
jaldi thik honge ...kyonki inhe aaram ki jarurat hai....'' vo
bina ruke bolti rahi,....
"Maine tumhara hath manga tha.....'' maine topic change
karte huye kha...vo kuch nhi boli...mujhe pta to chal hi
gya tha ki ye drama karti hai aur kuch nhi.....to maine
usse pucchna jaruri hi nhi samjha aur uske hathon ko
hatheli me liya ..aur use halke se dba diya....vo thodi
chaunki jarur par hatn nhi hataya.,...
"I love u''
''sudhoroge nhi..kitni bar bolun ..now i hate u ...icu me
pde ho par..aadt se majbur ho''....bina hichkichaye vo
boli...
"kya kare jitni bar samne aati ho..bahak jata hu,,,...dil
karta hu..tumhe bahon me bhar lu..'' itna bolkar maine
use apni taraf halka sa khinch liya...iske liye vo taiyar
nhi thi...aur vo sidhe mere upar jhuk gyi...maine apne
hath ko jitna ho sakta tha,..uski kamar me dal diya
thoda dard tha par itna nhi ki sahan na ho......
''chhodo mujhe...'' usne thoda sa virodh jataya...par itna
bhi nhi ki vo chhut sake jabki vo changul se nikal sakti
thi.....mai apne dusre hath ko thik uske sar ke picche le
gya aur uske sae ko apni aur dbaya jisse uska chehra
thik mere chehre ke samne the...usne koi bhi virodh nhi
kiya....mai uski sanso ko mahsus kar sakta tha,..uski
dhadkano ki gati bad gyi thi...maine ek nazar uske
chehre par dali...uske chehre ki us gahri udashi
ne..mujhe hila kar rakh diya tha.......uski ankhien mujhe
hi dekh rhi thi...nazaro se nazrein takrayi....uske narm
honth tharthara rhe the..mai halka sa utha...uske sar ko
thoda aur dbya .usne bhi koi virodh nhi kiya...mere
honth jaise hi uske honthon ko sparsh huye ...ek currant
sa daud gya mere sharir me.,,maine uske upar vale
honth ko apne dono honthon ke beech me dbaya ...par
usne koi sahyog nhi diya...agle hi pal maine uske niche
vale hoth ko dbaya ...uski taraf koi responce nhi mil rha
tna...par bhi mai use kiss kiye ja rha tha.....kuch second
hi beete honge ki achanak usne khud ko upar ki taraf
khincha...mere hath se apne hath ko chhudaya ....aur
lagbhag daudte huye kamre se bhag gyi...ek sec ke liye
vo darwaze par ruki ..apne ansu pochene ke liye taki
bahar dekh na le.....mujhe ehsas ho gya tha ki vo rote
huye gyi hai,...kyonki ansu ki ek boond..ek bar phir
mere chehre ko bhigo gyi thi......
Ab mere ankhon me bhi ansu the....aisi kaun si majboori
hai...mai jarur pta langaunga,..kisi ko bhi kuch nhi pta
chalega...kuch bhi nhi...aur tumhe jarur apne pas
launga...ye mera vada hai...tumse...........You look great
today. How do I know? Because you look great everyday.
Kuch der bad...dadaji andar aaye...vo akele the...''ye mai
kya sun rha hu,.'' vo mere karib aate huye bole....
"ap sahi sun rhe hai........maine jo kuch kha hai....mujhe
hospital se chhuti chahiye...''
''lekin abhi tumhari halat sahi nhi hai...doctor tumhe
leave nhi de sakte...''
''kitne din tak''
''yahi koi ek hafte aur...'' vo bde pyar se bole..
''acha....par ye ham kya sun rhe hai ki tum hmare ynha
rahna chahte ho...jabki tumhare papa tumhe lene aane
vale hai....''
''ap jante hi hai ki mere pas yahi kuch din bache
hai....aur mai ghar jakar mai ise barbad nhi krna chahta
...''
''ye to bat sahi par...''
''i don't care mujhe jana hai to jana hai..,.'' maine unki
bat ko beech me katte huye kha..
"ok ...par chhuti to le lo ..aur sahi jao..bahut kam baki
hai abhi,..'' unhone..muskarate huye kha...
"apko mujhse kuch bat krni thi..''
''han par abhi nhi...abhi tum pahle thik ho jao..''
Maine bhi bas musukarkar han me ..sar ko hila diya...
Mujhe har hal me subhi ke yanha rahna tha..aur isliye
maine mummy papa ko bhi mna liya tha...unhe maine
sari batein to nhi ..par itna jarur bta diya tha ki kuch to
gadbad hai.....unhone mujhe best of luck kha..aur
akhirkar agle 15 dino me mai subhi ke kamre me pda
tha.,...aur maine dadaji ki bdi req ki thi is bat ke
liye..aur vo bhi man gye the...
finally mai uske room me leta hua tha,,maine ek cheej
gaur ki thi...ki us din ke bad kabhi subhi dikhi nhi
mujhe,,,kyo par mujhe nhi pta....vo sab kuch btane se
pahle...vo roj mujhe dekhti thi,,,kya kisi ko pta chla ,,ki
usne kuch btya hai.,jaisa ki use andesha tha......
Lekin mai yanha kyo aaya hu....Subhi ke liye ,,uske
hothon ki muskurahat vapas lane ke liye.....Mere samne
kai sawal the aur un sab ke jawab..mujhe khojne the,,vo
bhi akele,.pahle maine socha..subham ko bula lunn,par
company ki bhi problem thi.....,...
Maine pahle apne sawalo ki list taiyar ki ...mujhe kya
kya janna hai...
Pahle to mujhe poison kisne diya....dusra kaun hai jo
nazar rakhe hai subhi par..aur kyo....aakhir me..hamare
rishte..ki vajah se..kis kis ki zindgi danv par lagi
hai....bahut si cheeje thi .....par suru kanha se karu....
Maine nya kya
socha picchle kai din se mai yahi sab to soch rha
hu....par suru kanha se karu,........meri soch ko viram
tab lga...jab...kisi ne darwaze par dastak di....vo kuch
thaki thaki..si lag rhi thi....andar aate hi usne mujhe
ghura...
"aise ghur kyo rhi ho....''
''tumhe yanha kaun laya '' usne jawab diye bina hi nya
sawal dag diya..
"pahle maine pucha ..''
''jawab dena jaruri nhi hai''
''to mai bhi nhi samjhti.'' vo gussate huye boli.... Kuch
der yunhi ghurti rhi phir vo bathroom me chali gyi...
Mai yun hi jate huye use dekhta rha.......uthkar uske pas
jane ka man kar rha tha...par ....pair me itni jan nhi thi
ki khud uth sake....use sahare ki jarurat thi.....,mai
bistar par bina sahare ke sirf baith sakta tha...aur kuch
nhi kar sakta tha.....uske pas jana to bahut dur ki bt
hai....
Thodi der bad vo bathrom se nikli.....abhi kam halat
kharab thi....jo bhagwan ne uske is roop ke darshan kra
diye.....
bal sukhate huye vo bathroom se nikli thi...meri jan
nikalne ke liye itna kafi tha....na chahte huye bhi...upar
se niche hone lagi.....uski ankheino me ajab ki kashish
thi...uske chehre par udashi ka samandar dur se dikhayi
de rha tha...uske honth....kisi fool ke rash se bhare lage
rhe tha ...dil kar rha tha..bhaura ban kar jaun...aur uske
hothon ke sare rash ko chuus lo....
"ghoorna band karoge..''
uski is awaz me phir se mujhe real duniya me ptak
diya...janha mai use sirf dekh sakta tha....
''ab is tarah aaogi to dil to bahakega na..aur usme
aankhon ka kya kasoor..jab ho hi itni khoobsurat..to
nazr to phislegi....'' mera jawab sunkar usne tirchhi
nazzr se ek bar mujhe ghura.........phir vo shishe ke
samne baithkar khud ko taiyar krne lgi....
"kanhi ja rhi ho...'' maine uski trf dekhte huye bola..
"kyo..kanhi jane ke liye hi taiyar hua jata hai''
''Nhi.....maine socha ..shayad prem ke sath ja rhi ho...''
usne ek nazar mujhe dekha....vanha se uthi ..aur kamre
se bahar chali gyi...lekin maine uski ankhon me aayi
nami dekh li thi....vo mere samne nni rona nhi chahti
..isliye yanha se chali gyi........
Mujhe poison kisne diya,....ye pta lgana jaruri hai....chal
beta ho ja suru.....ab mujhe ghar ke har sadsya...ke upar
nazar rakhni hai...kaun kya karta hai....par sala kamre
se kya khak nazar rakh paunga.....par agar usne ek bar
koshish ki hai...to dubara jarur karega...maine aj tak nhi
dekha tha...ki is ghar me kitne log hai....par ab samay aa
gya tha ki mujhe ...inke aur karib ..jana chahiye...har ek
person ke bare me jankari.........ye jo mai karne vala tha
,.,,..subhi chahe to do min me clear ho jata....par vo
apna munh nhi kholegi...itna bhi mai acche se janta tha.
ab mujhe ye dekhna tha ki mere yanha sift hone se kis
kis ki jal rhi hai...vaise jal to sabki rhi
hogi...par..mujhme interested kaun hai...aur sath sath
me subhi par bhi nazr rakhna aur vo tab hi rakh sakta
hi jab vo ghar me hi rahe,.....ab use rokun kaise...ye bhi
ek samsya....dadaji se sampark karun...ya..pahle apni
halat sudhrne ka wait karun....jisme abhi hafte bhar
langenge kyonki jab tak mai apne pairo par nhi
chalunga .....mera kuch nhi ho sakta ............
mai kar kya rha hu@......mai khud confuse ho rha
tha.....isliye jab tak mai chal nhi sakta tab tak har
shaksh ke bare me hi jankari jutani pdegi......
Kahte hai dil ki lagi matlab dillagi bdi hi ...kamini hoti
hai....har waqt ...bechain kare rahti hai.....jab tak mujhe
malum nhi tha...ki uske dil me kya hai.....meri
jindgi...kafi achi chal rhi thi...itni complicated nhi
thi.....aur ab...har waqt ..usi ka khyal aa rha tha rah rah
kar..........use dekhne ka har waqt dil karta tha....
Mai kya karu...isi chahat me.Maine apna phone
uthaya...aur chupchap.,subhi ko dial kar diya ...aj kal
kismat kafi jordar thi..usne pick kar liya phone....
"Hello....''
''kanha ho''
''chhat par''
''niche ...aaogi..''
''kya kam hai,.''
''aao to sahi...''
''okk''
kuch der bad darwaza khula aur samne nainika khadi
thi...main apna sir pakadkar baith gya...
"ji ...vo didi ne bheja tha....bola ki apko kuch kam hai...''
''han...kam to hai...par jo kam apki didi mere liye kar
sakti hai...kya vo ap mere liye kar sakti hai..'' maine
uski ankhon me ankhein dal kar kha...vo mere is tarh
ghurne se vo thoda sakpaka gyi......
"ji ...samajh gyi...mai unhi ko bhej dungi....''
''Good girl'' maine muskurate huye kha...
Kuch samay beeta tha ki is bar phir darwaza khula......is
bar anjali bhabhi thi....
"kya kam tha..,.''
aur maine phir...se unhe vhi jawab diya jo nainika ko
diya tha...
Aur jab abki bar darwaza khula to ...vo mere samne
khdi thi...chudidar salwar kurta ...vo bhi lal rang..ka
..hay...meri jan..hi nikal gyi......ankhon par chasma
tha...ye aj maine phli bar notice kiya...tha..
"chasma kab se lag gya tumhe...'' maine..bed ke sahare
baitha hua tha....jameen par...
"koi khas problem nhi hai,.bas..thoda jalan thi....''
''chasme me hot lag rhi ho..''
usne mujhe ghura...par isme bhi mujhe vo pyari lag rhi
thi....na chahte huye bhi,...meri nazar uske gardan se
hite huye uski chhati par jakar tik gyi.....aur meri nazar
vanhi jam gyi ho...
"sudhorege nhi ap..''
''nhi..''
''kam kya tha,,''
''pahle darwaza to band karo,,,''
''aisa kya kam hai...''
''bathroom jana tha...aur tumhe pta hai..ki mere pair no
chaling....''
''isme meri kya jaroorat thi,..''
''sahara,...'' maine muskurate huye kha...
Usne kuch der socha aur phir dhire dhire mere pas aane
lagi...
"tum mere pas aane me itna sochti kyo ho...''
''i hate u,.''
''really''
''koi shaq..''
''Bilkul ..'' jab maine ye kha to..vo mere karib hi
thi....apne uski hatho ki kalai ko apne hatho se pakda
aur..use apni tarf khinch liya...vo hadbda kar thik mere
upar hi giri,...is samay uske honth..mere honth,..kuch
inch ki duri par the,..mere dono hath..uski kamar par
jame huye the.....hamari nazarein apas me takrayi......vo
kuch bolna chahti thi....par..bol na payi...uski awaz gale
me hi atak gyi thi,,..uske honth tharthra rhe the,........
Achanak....mujhe kya hua..jaise kisi chumbak,,,.ne uski
tarf attract kar liya ho.,,,,.....
Maine...uske honth par apne honth rakh diye,,,....uske
narm hontho ke us mulayam sparsh se mere dil ko vo
currant lga ki mere hathon ne uski kamar ...ko apni tarf
khinch liya....mere pairo me dard ho rha tha...par vo
dard mere dil ke dard se bda nhi tha....ye ashiqi bhi
..jan le leti hai....meri kismat aj sach me achhi thi..usne
bhi kiss ka responce dena suru kar diya..maine uske
kabhi upar ke hontn to kabhi niche ke honth,....chusna
suru kar diya.....achanak .....mere pair me dard utha,,....
"kya hua...'' jab usne meri ah ki awaz suni to boli...
"dard...ho rha pair me...''
''jyada...to nhi ho rha ,,''vo vanha se uthi...aur vanhi
jameen par mere pairo ke pas baithkar...mere ghutne ko
sahlane lagi,.......
Aj achanak ise kya hua...''tube kanha hai....mai lga deti
hun...'' usne meri tarf dekhte huye kha,..
"upar bed par..''maine laparwahi,....se kha,..
"koi cheej to dhang se rakha karo,....''itna bolkar vo bed
par tube khojne lagi...
''tum ho to...,..,''maine uski tarf dekhe bina hi kha...
"kab tak,.''
''jab tak,....ye sansein chal rhi hai...mere jism me....'' mai
bed ke sahare utha...aur uski kamar ko piche se
pkda,.aur apni tarf ghuma liya...mai bhale...hi dhang se
khda nhi ho pa rha tha,,,par mai is pal ko is toote huye
pair ki vajah se chhodna nni chahta tha,.....dusra mai
yah bhi soch rha tha ki shayad bhavnao me...ye koi bat
bta de ,.ya koi clue janha se mai suruwat kar
sakun...par aisa abhi tak to nhi hua tha,.
"Meri tangein bhale hi kamjor ho par tumhe sambhal
sakti hai...''
''abhi bhi mere share hi khade hai...'' jaise hi usne ye
kha...mai use lekar aise hi bed par kood gya......
"wazan bad gya hai....'' maine uski ankhon me dekhte
huye kha,....
Uski sansein bhari ho chali thi....maine dhire dhire apne
hath ko uske kadhon par le gya..aur vanha se duppate
ka ek kona pakadkar ....use khinchkar jameen par
phenk diya...ab mujhe uske chhati ke bahari hissa
dikhne lga tha....ab mujh par kamdev ka teer chal chuka
tha......mujhe aisa lag rha tha ki hame koi dekh rha
hai.......mera andaza sahi tha ....bahar koi tha.....
"ap yanha se chale jao ....kyo life barbad krne par tule
huye vo...mujhse achi ladkiyan mil jayegi apko....''
''par tum to nhi...''
maine gahri sans li aur peeth ke bal let gya....subhi
uthi,..aur apna dupptta uthya........
"apko washroom jana tha...''
''nhi...''
''vo to bas bahana tha..'@
usne yun dekha..ki jaise abhi daudkar aayegi aur gale
lag jayegi..par vo bahar chali gyi.....par jate jate
,....mujhe ek aur uljhan de gyi..jab maine uska..duppta
htaya tha....to uske duppate me ek microphone lga hua tha.....???????
Vanha kaun tha...ye pta karna ...jyada muskil nhi tha
..par ..mera chalna kafi muskil tha....mai ab itna to
chalne hi lga tha ki khidki ki trf panhuch jau....mai
thoda late hi sahi par panhucha....
"kitna acha hota ki mai...fingerprint expert hota to
shayad.....'' maine khud se hi kha,.maine khidki se bahar
jhank kar dekha to ..koi nazar nhi aaya tabhi....mujhe
udhar se nainika ..aati dikhayi di...
"nainika jra idhar aana ..'' maine use awaz di...
Nainika ne mujhe dekha aur boli ''kya hai...''
maine use ishare se apne pas aane ko kha....
"yanha abhi kaun khda tha...''
''mujhe kya pta ...''
''baithi to samne hi thi...''
''Han ,vo uttam bhaiya the,,...maine unhe jate huye
dekha hai..par yanha khade hote nhi...''
''ap kyo puch rhe the...'' usne mujhe sandeh ki drashti se
dekhte huye kha..
"katl karna tha...'' maine pyar se kha..
Pta nhi vo kya budbudayi aur vanha se chali gyi...tabhi
mujhe vnha ...mausi aati hui dikhayi thi...vo sidha mere
pas aayi aur bhadak uthi..
"'tum nainika se dur hi rha karo..''
''kyo''
''tum par doubt hota hai..''
''kya ..''
''han...kanhi tum..use ''
''rape na kar dun ..''
Bc ,,yanha aana hi bekar tha ..,,maine khud se hi kha....
Uttam bhaiya...ko jate huye dekha ...par nhi aisa nhi
,..vo apni bahn ke sath aisa kyo karenge.....maine turant
doctor ko call lagaya....
"kya ap bta sakte hai ki mai kitne din me chal sakta
hu.....''
''ye bat mujhse ap din me kitni bar pucchte hai...'' doctor
ne mujhse hi sawal kar diya....
"kitni bar kahun ki tum abhi aaram karo..''
''thik hai,.'' maine call cut kiya..aur chupchap.....vapas
bistar par aa gya...mai jab jyada pareshan hota to ..apne
langde pair ko gali deta tha.....aur phir Doctor ko call
lagata tha.......
Idhar subhi vnha se nikal kar....garden me aa gyi...vo
khud ki soch me gum thi,....god help me....mere sath hi
aisa kyo,.....agr mai unhe sab bta du..to ..vo jyada der
nhi soch payi ki uski soch ko uske phone ne bhang kar
diya...
"Hello''
"Good job''
''Hmmmm''
''Ab jyada dur nhi hai ham..........bus kuch din aur ...uske
bad tum azad...''
''tum koi aur tarika nhi dhoond sakte...'' subhi ne us
sakhs se pucha....
"Kai tarike hai meri jan....par ye sabse simple aur
perfect hai....''
''Mai unhe is halat me nhi dekh sakti....'' subhi ne kha..
"jitna vo tadpega...utni hi jaldi to hamara kam hoga..''
''par mujhe kyo istemal kar rhe ho...''subhi ne ankho me
aye ansu ko rokte huye kha..
"kyonki tum ek galti ho....mera matlab tumhara ye janm
hi istemal karne ke liye hi hua hai..meri
jan...hahahahaha'' usne ek kutil si smile chipakyi....
"apni aukat me raho...mai tumhari jan nhi hu,.....'' ab
uske chehre par udashi aur lachari ki jagah gussa tha........
"Ek bat yad rakhna ......I love sid.....aur unhe agar thodi
si bhi bhanak lagi na...to tum jaoge ......mai tumhara
sath kyo de rhi hu......,..,,mujhe tum ab aur majboor nhi
kar sakte,,,,,,,,,,,,...,''
''ha ha ha .,,tum sid ko jakar btaogi,,,.,....jao bta
do.....roka kisne hi...''
''fuck off...''
''aur vaise bhi vo ashiq hai....koi hero nhi.....vaise bhi
tum meri jan hi ho,,,,,,jab tak mera kam nhi ho jata tum
kuch bhi nhi bta sakti....ye tumhari majboori hai....ha ha ha.''
''kaun sa aisa kam hi jo picchle dedh salo se pareshan
kar rhe ho......''
''samay ke sath pta chal jayega...,...just enjoy with your
hubby,,,,,.,,''
''what is your mean''
''use lagna chahiye ki tum usse dur bhag rhi ho....tumne
vo exmaple suna hai....vo bndar aur chane vala...kya tha
...yad nhi aa rha....han yad aaya..agar kisi bandar ko
pkdna ho..to ek matke me chane rakh do...to bechara
badar matke se chane to nikalega par mutthi band hone
ki vajah se hath bahar nhi nikal payega.....bus vahi krna
hai.....tum uske pas rahogi.....par vo tumhe hasil nhi kar payega.....''
''isse tumhe kya milega......'' subhi ne muskurate huye puccha....
"Aage pta chal jayega....''udhar se awaz aayi....
"tum mujhe btane vale nhi ho,,..''
''nhi...han par tum jald hi azad ho jaogi........''
phone cut ho chuka tha....Aur Subhi ke chehre par ek
bar phir mayushi laut aayi....jo koi bhi ho....pta to lga ke
rahungi.,..,is tarh nhi rah sakti....aisa kya hi..jo ye sab
kar rhe hai...kai sawal the uske samne bhi....
Insan ishq me sab kuch bhul jata hai...Dard..bhookh
pyash,..sab kuch...mera bhi yhi hal tha...ab to duri
bardasht ke bahar thi...,rat ho chuki thi...par tab se
subhi knhi nazar nhi aa rhi thi....
"aj ap khana dinning table par kha lijiye'' Sunaina ne
darwaza par khade khade hi bola....
Meri nzar usse mili aur maine han me ishara kar
diya......
"apko agar koi dikkat ho to mai kisi ke hathon apka
khana upar bhej du....''
mai bhi thoda alas kar gya...aur han me sir hila
diya...........vaise mujhe khane ki koi iccha nhi thi....phir
bhi stock full rakhna jaruri hai..pta nhi kab jaroorat pad
jaye.........
ek ghanta beet gya.,hoga ...mujhe subhi ab nazar ayi
thi,,,,,us incident ke bad.,,,,...,,,,is bar uske hath me
khane ki thali thi....vo chupchap andar aayi .......,
''tum khana lekar aayi ho,,.''
''han.,,vo mai aa rhi thi room me isiliye bhabhi ne bola
ki...sath me lete jao....''usne vnhi table par khana rakhte
huye kha....
"tumne khaya ...,''
''han..''
''man nhi ho rha abhi khane ka yar,.,,,'' maine uski or
dekhte huye kha...
"jab man ho tab kha lena pr tab tak ye thnda ho
jayega.....''
''tum apne hatho se khila do...to man ho jayega...''maine
muskurate huye kha
''bhagwan ne do hath diye hi...''usne vnhi bistar pr
baithe huye bola.....
"uthane par dard ho rha hai.....''
''bahane mat bnao....''
''sach bol rha hu....''
usne table par rakhi thali uthyi aur bistar par hi mere
samne baith gyi........
"bistar par khana gir sakta hai...'' maine kabhi bhi hone
vali samnya ghatna par uska dhyan kendrit kiya....
Subhi- sofe par baithe ...
"hmmm'' par mai kuch sochne lga....
"ab kya hua...'' mujhe is trh sochte huye vo boli..
"pair me dard ho rha hai...vnha kaise panhuch paunga''
''yanhi par le aati hu ..bad me saf kar dungi....'' subhi ne
thali uthkar kha....
"are rahne do .....mai aata hu kisi tarh...'' itna bolkar
mai utha...aur janbujhkar..ladkhdane ka natak
kiya.......mere natak krne se asar ye hua ki vo turant
bhagti huyi mere pas aayi....
"maine kha tha na ki ynhi kha lo mai...saf kar dungi
sab.,.'' usne mujhe sahara dete huye kha......
Maine apna ek. hath uski kamar ke ird gird lapete huye
tha......,...main uske sahare ke sahare bistar par
panhucha......vaise mujhe ek sharart krne ki sujhi par
nhi ki,....kyonki mai uska mood kharab nhi krna chah
rha tha.........
Abhi ham dono sofe par baithe huye the.......khane ki
thali samne table par rakhi huyi thi...subhi ne ek nivala
toda...aur mere muh ke pas layi,...par pta nhi mujhe kya
sujha maine apna munh nhi khola.....kuch pal vo isi
tarah use apne hath me liye rahi..phir dhire se boli...
"muh kholenge ya mai jaun...''
uski ankhon me.. dekh kar lag rha tha ki vo aisa kar
sakti hai......
Maine jhhat se apna muh khol diya...aur jaise hi pahla
nivala gya....kasam se bta nhi sakta kya feelings
..thi..pahli bar...khana itna swadist lag rha tha....
mera phir se shararat krne ka mood hua aur maine is
bar....nivala khate waqt ..uski anguli par halka sa kat
liya,....
"ooouucchhh.....pagal ho kya..'' subhi ne chillate huye
kha...
"kitni bar bola hai....ha hun pagal tumhare ishq
me,.........''
mai use ektuk dekh rha tha ..uski julfein uski mathein
par latak rhi thi......pta nhi mujhe kya hua....mere
hatho..ne apne ap ek nivala toda aur uski taraf bda
diya,....uski ankhon me ascharya tha.....
"apke hath abhi kam nhi kar rhe the ...isme dard ho rha
thaa....''
''sahi ho gya.....tumhare hathon me jadoo hai..''
''bahane bnna chhodo'' usne halki si smile di,...
"ookkk baba...kam se kam ek bar muh to kholo,..''
''mai already kha chuki hun...mujhe bhook nhi hai..''
usne sidha sapasht sa answer de
diya,,.....
"mere hathon se ek bar kha ...lo..'' maine uski ankhon
me dekha ,,,jo sirf mujhe dekh rhe the............
Naino ki to baat naina jaane hai
Sapno ke raaz to Raina jaane hai
Naino ki to baat naina jaane hai
Sapno ke raaz to raina jaane hai
Dil ki baatein dhadkan jaane hai
Jispe guzari woh tan jaane hai..
Hum deewane ho gaye hai aapke
Hum to gbas itna jaane hai
Tu mera hai sanam
Tu hi mera hum dum..
Tere sang jeena ab saaton janam
Tu mera hai sanam
Tu hi mera hum dum..
Tere sang jeena ab saaton janam..
maine uski julfo ko kano ke piche kiya .....aur subhi ne
bhi jyada na nukur nhiki khane me.....
"hamne kabhi aise nhi khaya ...l''
''hmmm,''
sara khana khatm ho gya ..par meri nazar abhi bhi uske
chehre ki tarf thi..........
"mai thali kitchen me rakh kar aati hu....'' itna bolkar vo
uthi aur kamre se bahar chali gyi............
Mai vnha se utha aur khidki ki tarf chla gya...aur vanha
se bahar ki tarf dekhne lga ...Dil me ek tadap si ho rhi
thi....isi bechaini ko shant karne ke liye ek cigerat
hontho ke beech me dba li....ki tabhi darwaza band
hone ki awaz ne mera dhyan andar ki tarf gya...subhi
andar aa chuki thi.......maine turant cigerat khidki ke
bahar phenk di...lekin tab tak der ho chuki thi......
"bahar kya fenka apne...'' aur vo sidhe khidki ke pas aa
panhuchi aur...niche dekhne lgi....
"kuch bhi nhi tha..'' maine anjan bnne ka natak kiya.....
"cigerate......thi...maine dekh liya tha..'' usne ajeeb sa
muh bnate huye kha,......
"jab dekh liye to puccha kyo,....''
'' maine pahle bhi kha hi ki yanha smoking nhi krni
hi....''
''mera dil mai kuch bhi karu...tumhe kya isse,..''
''par mere room me nhi......'' itna bolkar bo chupchap
bistr par late gyi..jakar.....
Mai chupchap vnhi khda hokar bahar ki tarf dekhne
lga.....subhi ke room khidki garden ki tarf khulti thi..to
mai aaram se bahar ki tarf dekh sakta tha,....thandi
thandi hwa mere chehre ko bar bar chhu rhi thi...jisse
mere sharir me siharn daud rhi thi bar bar,,,.......maine
ek nazar subhi ko dekha jo shayad so chuki thi,....uska
chehra bahut hi shant tha,.,..jaise bahut sakoon se soyi
ho,.....ab mujhse bardast nhi ho rha tha,....ye doori....kyo
maine ....us din nhi roka use,......kash mai use rok
leta.....mere ankhon me nami aane lgi thi,...dhire dhire
mai uske pas bdta ja rha tha,......mai uske sirahne baith
gya.......bilkut shant chehra tha uska,...uske galo par
ansu ki ek lakeer thi jo sukh chuki thi....vo shayad ,,,,,
sote waqt royi hogi....barbas hi meri ungli uske galon ke
us hisse par panhuch gyi janha par ansu sukh chuke
the.....,,,
'' shayad maine tumhe kabhi samjha hi nhi subhi
....kabhi janne ki koshish hi nhi ki...,,,,,,.tum kisi aur ki
ho hi nhi sakti....tum mujhe kabhi dokha de hi nhi
sakti....par kya karu,,,,,kha na tumhe kabhi samajh hi
nhi paya......mujhe nhi pta tha ...ki bat is had tak aage
bad jayegi......... .
Mai roj ki tarh hi sham ko ghar lauta tha,....aj mausam
me bhi tanhai si thi,,,....ya mujhe mahsus ho rhi
thi.......''subhi....subhi.'' maine do bar usko awaz lgayi
par uska koi response nhi aaya.....Jab se maine use Prem
ke sath us din dekha tha...tab se hamari bat nhi hui
thi,..,ek ghar me hote huye bhi....par aj pta nhi kyo dil
me ghabrahat si ho rhi thi,......mai chupchap jakar bistar
par let gya....ankhon se neende to koso dur ho chuki thi
ab to har pal ......har lamha katna muskil ho rha
tha,........ki tabhi mere phone ki ghanti bji.....
"ji ap Mr Siddhant bol rhe hai...'' us tarf se awaz aayi...
"ji han..''
''apne jo us din apni wife ka checkup karaya tha..uski
report aa gyi hai....''
''yes mam....kya ap bta sakti hai kya hua tha...''
'' congratulations....Your wife is pregnant...''
''what.,.,,,,.'' mera muh khula ka khula rah gya...
"ji han...ap papa bnne vale hai....us din vo behosh sirf
kamjori ki vajah se hui thi....Now she is pregnant....''
''thank u so much doctor ..mai apko bta nhi sakta apne
kitni bdi khushi sunayi hai,..,,''
mera to nachne ka man kar rha tha....dil kar rha
tha....bas nachun gaun..jhoomu.....dil ka kona kona
khushi se phoola nhi sma rha tha.......sare gile shikwe
door ho gye the...subhi se....ab to bas usko dekhne ka
man kar rha tha.....
aakhir har insan ko yahi chahat hoti hai ki ....vo
saubhagya mujhe milne ja rha ..tha..,.ab mujhse intejar
nhi ho rha tha......maine subhi ko call lgaya...par out of
reachable....bar bar vahi...par abhi mujhe gussa nhi aa
rha tha........mai uska besbri se intejar kar rha tha.....
aakhir vo ghadi bhi aa gyi...darwaze par halka sa knock
hua...mai bhagte huye gya ..aur darwaza kholte hi use
bahon me utha liya..........
"tum nhi janti subhi mai aj kitna khush hu,...is khushi
ko shabdo me byan krna muskil hai.....i love u...tumne
mujhe sare janha ki khushiyan de di hai....''
''pahle mujhe niche utariye...''usne mere kandho ko
jhakjhorte huye kha,.......
Uska chehra shant tha na..koi khushi.,na koi
dukh,.,chehra bhavshunya tha.....
"tum itni pareshan kyo ho...'' maine uske chehre par
aayi udashi ko dekhte huye kha.........
Vo kuch nhi boli ...aur chupchap jakar sofe par baith
gyi.......mere dil me ek anjana dar sa sma gya.....
"kya hua subhi......kuch btaogi..''
usne ektuk meri tarf dekha aur phir ek bar nazr table ki
aur daudayi....maine uski nazar ka piccha kiya to table
par ek file rakhi thi jo usne abhi kuch der pahle vnha
rakhi thi.....,...maine vo file uthayi............aur uska title
pdte hi mere hath se vo file chhut kar gir gyi...''
"kyo,..''
usne koi jawab nhi diya.....
"kyo....kiya tumne aisa,..''
''i don't want child ''
Mere sare arman ...pal bhar me hi bikhar gye,...mere
sare khwab ki dhajjiyan ud chuki thi.....abhi kuch der
pahle jo sapne sanjoye the....,,.mera dil baith gya
tha...mere ankhon se ansu nikal aaye the........
"tumne aisa kyo kiya Subhi....''
vo abhi bhi sofe par baithi thi,....usne koi jawab nhi
diya......
"mai tumse kuch pucch rha hu....''
''i don't know ''
''ye mere question ka answer nhi hai .....''
Tabhi uske phone ki ring baji.......
"Hiii Prem...how r u..'' itna jaise hi subhi ne call pick
karke bola ki mere sabra ka bandh toot gya.........meri
ankhon me ...ab ansu ki jagah gussa aa chuka
tha......mai apni jagah se utha aur ...subhi ki tarf dekha
jo hans rhi thi .......use hansta dekhkar mera khoon
khaul utha...,.,
''kiska call hai..''
Subhi - kisi ka nhi,..mera ek friend hai.....
"Maine tumse pucha tumne absortion kyo kraya...'' itna
kahkar maine uski banh ko pakad kar apni tarf
khincha....usne mujhe ghoor kar dekha jo mai bilkul
bardasht nhi kar paya.....
"cchhhatttakk'' ki awaz goonj uthi us rat ke sannate me
...bahar ka mausam bhi bijaliya gira rha tha...par kise
parwah ho jab andar ki khwahishe dam tod chuki ho.....
Us jhhannatedar tamache ke sath hi subhi ke hathon se
mobile chhot kar neeche gir gya..jisse speakar on ho
gya....
"What happened darling...........u r alright....'' us tarf se
awaz aayi...
"He is your friend or your fucking buddy....'' aur itna
kahkar maine use ek aur jhhanatedar thappad lga
diya....ek hi gal par do bar marne se uski gal par neela
nishan pd gya...tha...uski ankhon se ansu niklne lge
the,.....
"Subhi...r u there..,.'' ek bar phir udhar se awaz aayi....
"ya,,,,.she is here ...now ..u fuck off..'' aur us bar maine
use rply kiya....
"hey buddy...don't touch her...'' phir udhar se awaz
aayi......
"she is my wife......i can touch her...i can fuck
her.....everything i can do with her.....now u get lost
damn it..'' itna kahkar maine mobile par ek lat mari
jisse vo dur aur chla gya......meri ankhon me ansu sukh
chuke the.......ya yun kah sakte hai ki mai apne dil me
hone vale dard ko dikhana nhi chahta tha............
"He is your friend.....''
subhi ne koi rply nhi diya....mujhse ab aur bardasht nhi
ho rha tha.......uski khamoshi mere dil me teer ki tarh
chub rhi thi
"tumne aisa kyo kiya ..subhi....''
''kyonki mujhe na apme koi interest hai....aur na hi
mujhe is samay kisi bachhe ki jarurat hai....''
''ye koi reason nhi hai...''
''to phir aur koi reason nhi hai....'' usne muh bnate huye
kha,. Mere andar lagi aur bhadak gyi,,.......uske is jawab
se aur uske bolne ke andaz se......
Maine uske balon ko pakda...........aur ek aur tamacha
uske galo par mara.......
"kya boli......mujhse koi matlab nhi hai...thik hai,...mat
rakho.......mujhse koi matlab.... Par mere is bacche ka
kya kasoor tha......'' mai pagal huye ja rha tha....maine
uske sir ko pakda aur ek jabrdast dhakka use picche ki
or diya...jisse uska sir sidha diwal se takra gya..........aur
uske sir par halki sujan aa gyi.......par na hi usne aaahhh
ki awaz ki aur na hi usne mujhe roka .....mai iske bad
bhi nhi ruka....mujhe koi fark nhi pd rha tha ki uske sir
se khoon bah rha hai ...ya use chot lagi hai.........
"sali ....randi.....meri biwi hote huye bhi...kisi aur ke
sath gullchhare udati hai........aur ...iski saza ,..mere
hone vale bachhe ko di.....you kill my child.....,.....''
mujhe pta nhi kya ho gya tha.....maine phir use pakda
....aur nonstop thappad marne lga.....lekin uske muh se
aahhhh tak nhi nikli....uski ankhon se lagatar ansu bah
rhe the.......aur koi din hota,..to uski ankhon me ansu
dekhkar mai uski jan le leta ...jisne bhi use rulaya
ho...par aj mere liye iska koi mol nhi tha..............jab
mera hath dard krne lga to ..mai kuch pal ruka,,,..maine
uske chehre ki tarf dekha....uske honthon se khun bah
rha tha....dono galo par kai jagah neele nishan pad
chuke the....bal puri tarah se bikhar kar uske chehre par
aa chuke the...................par mujhe abhi bhi dya nhi
aayi...maine use ek jhatka diya...ek bar phir vo jameen
par gir gyi....
"aahhhh....'' ki awaz uski aayi bas ....iske siway kuch
nhi.....uska kuch na bolna mujhe aur nagwar guzar rha
tha....,....
Mai lagbhag bhagte huye uske kamre me gya....uska bag
pack kiya....aur darwaze se bahar fenk diya.....
"tujhe mere se problem hai......na ..mai pasand nhi hu
na tumhe...to kya karegi mere sath rahkar,.....abhi aur
isi waqt mai tujhe apne ghar se niklta hu....aur kabhi
shakl mat dikhana abhi.....'' itna bolkar maine...uska
hath pakda...aur ghasitate huye ghar ke darwaaze par le
aaya.......bahar barish apne pure ufan par thi....par
mujhe shayad kuch hosh hi nhi tha.....
"itni rat ko knha jaungi mai...'' itni der bad uske muh se
kuch nikla tha......
"knhi bhi ja...mar jao jakar par mere ankhon ke samne
se door ho jao....'' maine itna bolkar use dhakka mara
aur darwaza band kar diya...darwaza bnd krne ke bad
achanak mujhe room me uska mobile dikha.....maine
uska mobile uthaya...to dekha vo sahi salamat chal rha
tha......maine ek bar phir gate khola ....usne socha
shayad andar bulayenge....par uska andaza galat
tha...maine uske hath me mobile thamaya aur bola...
"ab kar jis bhi yar ko call karna hai.....bitch...'' aur maine
darwaza band kar liya tha......mai andar
baithkar....apne ansu rokne ka barshak prayatn kar rha
tha,..par aakhir vo galo par ludak hi gye............aur mai
...ek bacche ki tarh vahi baithkar rone lga..rote rote pta
nhi mujhe kab neend aa gyi...pta hi nhi chla....aur subah
jab ankh khuli..to sab ujad chuka tha......''
Aur aj jab ye sab soch rha tha....to phir se ansu ki ek
boond galo par ludak hi gyi,....maine bde pyar se
uske...chehre par aayi lat ko uske kano ke picche kar
diya......mera man isse bhi nhi bhra,,.aur jhukar usko
forhead par kiss kar liya.....................mujhe bhi ab
neend aa rhi thi,,,,.... Mai uthakr light band krne hi vala
tha ki achanak meri nazar khidaki ke bahar pad
gyi,..........bahr ka nazara dekhkar meri ankhein
bhauchkki rah gyi....''
Maine jaise hi bahar dekha ....meri ankhein fati rah
gyi.....
"chor..'' mere munh se achanak nikl gya....par mai
chillya nhi....
Jo bhi tha...vo garden ki diwar par chada hua tha...aur
niche koodne ka pryash kar rha tha...par uski himmat
nhi pd rhi thi uski unchai dekhkar....aur kuch der bad
vo apne hatho ko hilane lga.....aur khud se hi bdbdane
lga........mujhe uske chehre ki expression dekhkar hansi
aa rhi thi phir mujhe samajh aaya ki vo apne hath se
ishara kar rha hai kisi ko,.....maine uske hathon ke
ishare ka piccha kiya to samne ka nazara dekha to vo
aur bhi surprising scene tha mere liye,.....Nainika ke
room ki khidki khuli thi...aur vo bhi use ishare me usse
kuch kahna chah rhi thi...vo bar bar apna matha peet
rhi thi........
"Bda vala joker hai...''mai man hi man hansa....
Par agle hi pal mai serious ho gya...mai kautuhalvash
vahi khda rha....aur dekhne lga ki aage kya hone vala
hai..........vo kisi tarh diwal ke sahare niche jameen par
utra...uske expression dekhkar lag rha tha...ki jaise usne
mairathon jeet li ho.....usne as pas upar neeche har tarf
nazar daudayi...aur usi waqt me thoda side ho gya...aur
jab use sab clear dikha to vo bhagte huye uski khidki ke
neeche.....panhuch gya....nainika ne bina deri kiye ek
rassi khidki se niche gira di.....aur agle hi pal ...vo khidki
ke andar tha....nainika ke room me.......
"ye ashiqi kya kya krwa deti hi.....'' mai man hi man
muskuraya.........khidki band ho chuki thi....aur mujhe
bhi neend nhi aa rhi thi...to kyo na mai...jkar dekhu ki
kaun hai.....kisliye aaya hai....kyonki mai nhi chahta tha
ki jante huye bhi anjan bnna.....aur koi bakheda ho...
Maine subhi ki tarf dekha .to.vo so rhi thi,........mai apne
langdate huye kadmo se kamre se bahar nikla....aur
darwaza band kar diya....mai chupchap gallery se hote
huye....uske kamre ki tarf bad rha tha......meri
dhadkane ....apne ap bad rhi thi....,...mai kuch minato
me hi uske room ke darwaze ke bahar khda tha.......mai
soch rha tha ki ab kya karu,......
Maine as pas dekha to sare kamro ki light band ho chuki
thi....,....maine darwaze ke us par kya ho rha hai...janne
ke liye....jee tod jugad kar rha tha....
"par mai ye sab kyo kar rha hu...'' maine khud se hi
kha...
"pta nhi..'' maine phir khud se hi bat ki,...
Tabhi mujhe khidki me ek hole dikha....
"lo ho gya jugad..'' maine muskuraya aur us hole me
apni ankhein dal di...ek cheej aur mere liye plus point
thi ki idhar thoda andhera bhi tha........
Jaise hi andar ka nazara dekha....mere shareer me to
420 volt ka jhatka lag gya.......Nainika aur us ladke ke
honth ek dusre se gunthe huye the...,,.dono ke shareer
ke beech itni bhi jagah nhi thi...ki hwa bhi nikl sake....us
ladke ke hanth....uske picche ke hisse ko itni tej dabocch
rha tha ki nainika ki cheekh nikl ja rhi thi par honth me
honth mile hone ki vajah se...muh se awaz nhi nikal rhi
thi.......
"mai ynha kya kar rha hu..galat bat kisi ka personal life
hai....'' itna sochkar mai vnha se utha...aur jaise hi
darwaze ke pas panhucha.....mere hathon ne apne ap
uske darwze par knock kar diya.....ek bar ,do bar...teesri
bar jab maine kiya...shayad uske hath panv fool gye ho
dar se...shayad.......isilye agle panch min bad...Nainika
ne darwaza khola.......uski ankhon me dar saf dikhayi de
rha tha,,..vo apni sanso ko control karne ka bharpoor
pryash kar rhi thi........aur aise dikha rhi thi...jaise vo
abhi so kar uthi ho...
"tumhe acting krna bhi nhi aata nainika'' itna kahkar
main uske room ke andar chla gya.....
"kkkyyyyy hh..uu..aa..jiijuu..is ttii mmme,...me..re..
Room..me kisi ne deeekkkhh liiyya....too..'' vo haklate
huye boli
''vahi to kah rhu nainika...is time room me....'' maine
hanste huye kha...
"mujhe neend nhi aa rhi thi...to mai bahar aise hi tahlne
nikal aaya....to tumhare room se awaze,..sunayi di...to
chla aaya...'' maine normally uski ankhon me dekhte
huye kha....
Uski ankhon me dar saf dikhayi de rha tha.....par kisi
tarah vo use dbane ka pryash kar rhi thi...aur mai ye
dekh rha tha..ki aakhir vo ladka gya knha.......
"kkooii kaammm tha jiju...''
''nhi mai chlta hu......enjoy...but carefully.......'' mai itna
kahkar muskuraya.....aur mera matlab shayad vo
samajh gyi....aur usne sir niche kar liya ....sirf hmmm
me jawab de diya......
Room se bahar niklte waqt mai soch rha tha...ki maine
kya kiya ynha..akar...bechari ko disturb.... Kar diya.......
"abki bar awaz kam karna....aur koi bhi aa sakta....so be
carefull.. Ham subah bat karenge.....'' main itna bolkar
chupchap nikal liya......
Nainika ke chehre par sharm aur dar dono ke bhav
the...par maine dubara picche palat kar nhi
dekha.....tabhi darwaza band karne ki aahat
hui....matlab darwaza band ho chuka tha.......
Mai chupchap room ke andar aaya.....dekha to subhi so
rhi thi.....sote waqt vo itni pyari lag rhi thi ki dil kar rha
tha ki abhi .....kaccha chba jaun uske galon ko...mai
dhire dhire uske karib aa rha tha......mai uske sirahne
ek bar phir baith gya....is bar uske sar ko uthya....aur
apni god me rakh liya vo thoda kasmasayi....aur phir so
gyi....isse pta chal rha tha ki vo kitni gahari neend me
hai............maine uske sar par pyar se hath ferna suru
kar diya....uske chehre par ajeeb si muskurahat thi....pta
nhi kaisi par mere hath pherne se use bahut hi sukoon
mahsus ho rha tha...shayad ye mera vaham tha...par
mohabbat ke jajbato ko kaun kabu kar sakta hai.. ..........
aj mujhe vo kuch jyada hi haseen lag rhi thi......pta nhi
par use chhodne ka dil bilkul bhi nhi kar rha
tha..................vo kabhi kabhi sote waqt haule se
muskura rhi thi shayad koi sapna dekh rhi ho accha
sa........meri ankhon se neend bilkul hi gayab..thi..mai
lagatar uske sar par hath pher rha tha....achanak meri
nazar uske honthon,..par gyi..,gulab ki pankhudiyon
jaise the,..mera dil unhe chumne ka kiya....isliye maine
apne sar ko uske chehre ke thik samne le aaya....uski
sansein meri chehre se takra rhi thi....ye wo lamha
tha..jab meri mohabbat ka rang vasna me tabdil ho
gya...par agle hi pal...phir se mohabbat ka rang chad
gya.......lekin shayad us upar vale ko ye manjoor nhi
tha...ki mai use kiss karu......jaise hi mere labo ka milan
uske labo se hone vala tha ki usne karwat badal li...aur
mere honth uske galo par sparsh ho gye...,...
Par mere chehre par muskurahat aane se na rok
saki....vo halka sa chumban uske galo ka.............
Mai vnhi uske sar par hath ferta rha....,.hath ferte ferte
mujhe neend ne kab aagosh me le liya ...mujhe pta hi
nhi chla......Aur subah jab meri ankh khuli to.....
Aur subah jab meri ankh khuli...to samne subhi khadi
thi........
"Bdi jaldi uth gyi...'' maine use dekhte huye puccha....
Subhi -...mai jaldi nhi aap late uthe hai....''
"time kitna hua hai..'' maine ghadi ki tarf dekhta huye
kha.,,,
''10 baje....''
itna sunte hi jaldi se mai utha...aur jaise hi pair jameen
par rakha...ek jabrdast dard ki lahar mere pairo me
daud gyi.....mai shayad bhul gya tha...ki mere pairo me
jabardast chot lagi huyi hai......mai apna pair vahi pakad
kar baith gya......maine subhi ki tarf nazar dali jo abhi
bhi...sheeshe me dekhkar apne bal sawar rhi thi.....vo
aise dikha rho thi jaise use koi fark hi na pda ho
"tumne nha liya....''
''han..''
''lag to nhi rha..''
Itna sunte hi Usne mujhe ghur kar dekha....aur maine
kan pakdar sorry ka ishara kiya.....usne abhi salwar suit
pahna hua tha,..jo uske sharir ke har hisse me chipka
hua tha...Mai phir dhire se utha ...aur thik uske picche
khda ho gya jakar.....hamare beech,..ab sirf ek inch ki
duri rah gyi thi...ek kadam aur ..aur vo meri banho
me...meri nazar sheeshe par pdi....uska chehre...ke
expression dekhne ko koshis.....ki..par bhavshunya...thi
vo...matlab vo kisi udhedbun me thi...par uski sansein
bhari hone lagi thi....maine bhi socha kyo na thoda maje
liye jaye........vaise bhi thi to meri biwi.....ab hamare
bich jo inch bhar ka fasla tha....vo bhi maine mita
diya....mai thik uske picche khda tha....mere sharir me
kamukta ka asar hone lga tha...ek to subah ka
samay...jnha pahle se hi...topo ki salami mili rahti
hai...aur ab is harqat ne mujhe andar tak baichain kar
diya..........use mai andar tak mahsus kar rha tha....use
bhi shayad iska ehsas ho chuka tha....aur usne apni
ankhein band kar li..matlab..mujh par hi chhod diya ki
mujhe kya karna hai.......maine apne hathon ko uski
kamar par rakha aur thoda use aur picche apni tarf
khinch liya,.........mere hath dhire dhire uski navel par
ghoom rhe the......uski sansein ukhad chuki thi....maine
uske chehre ki tarf dekha jo lal pd chuka tha.........maine
jaise hi..,use apni tarf ghumaya ki... mujhe alarm bajne
ki awaz sunayi di,.......
"oohh...teri ye sapna tha...'' maine surprisly idhar udhar
dekhte huye kha....maine alarm band kiya....aur tabhi
meri nazar subhi par pdi..jo abhi bhi so rhi thi.......
''subhi....maaf kar do.,,yar..kitna ab aur staogi..mujhe..''
maine uski tarf dekhte huye kha....ab to kah do ek bar I
Love u...''
uske hoth khule aur band ho gye...jaise vo kuch kahna
chah rhi ho......par mujhe pta tha ki vo neend me
hai......mai bistar se utha...par use nhi uthaya...fresh
hua....aur langdakar ...room ke bahr nikal
aaya....lagbhag sabhi log uth chuke the.....aur Hall me
baithe huye the....,..mujhe dekhte hi ..sabne ghurna suru
kar diya,,,..mujhe samajh nhi pa rha tha..kyo..par tabhi
meri nazar ...Nainika par pdi ..jo chehra niche kiye huye
khadi thi...............uske chehre se saf pta chal rha tha ki
vo rat bhar jagi hai,,......,.
"Sid...ynha aana...'' dadaji ne mujhe bulate huye kha..
Ab chor ki dhadi me tinka...mujhe shak hone lga tha ki
jis tarh se sabhi mujhe aur nainika ko ghoor rhe the....
"ji dadaji....kuch kam tha...''
''kaisa bhola ban rha hai..''.itne me mausi chillate huye
boli...
"matlab...''
''maine tumhe kal hi mna kiya tha,,.ki meri beti se door
rho...''
''to door to hun...aur kitna door jaun.....''
Dadaji- beta kya tum rat me nainika ke room me gye
the....
Ab mere kato to khoon
nhi........,....''jjii...dadaji...mattllabb...''
''kya tum nainika ke room me gye the....''
Maine nainika ki taraf dekha..jo lachari se meri tarf
dekh rhi thi,,,use shyad ye pta tha...ki mai uske bare me
jan chuka hu......maine uske kampte huye sharir ko
dekha...jo shayad dar se kanp rhe the ki knhi mai sach
na bta dun........
"Ji han....mai gya tha..'' maine sidha sa jawab de diya.....
Itne me nainika ki mummy mere pas aayi aur thik mere
samne aakar khadi ho gyi thi......
"kya karne gye the,,,,..'' usne mujhe gusse me dekhte
huye kha...
"kuch nhi....bas neend nhi aa rhi thi...nainika jag rhi thi
to uske kamre me chla gya......usme kaun si bdi bat ho
gyi....'' maine kha..
"Maine pahle hi kha tha...ki ise ghar par mat
rakho....,....usi din mna kiya tha,...jab ye subhi ke room
me gya tha...'' tabhi bua tunkate huye boli........,
Mai bda asmanjas me tha...ki Nainika ki aslayit sabke
samne kholkar khud bach nikalu...ya ,..khud....hi
bura..bna rhu...vo to mai already hu....
"ek minut......kyo na iska fayda uthaya jaye ...mera
matlab is secret ke badle...me apne secret janne me
nainika ki help li jaye.............'' ye mai khud se hi batein
kar rhe tha......
"kya karne gye the....'' tabhi dadaji,..ki awaz gunz uthi....
"btaya to neend nhi aa rhi thi.....'' tabhi pichhe se ek
awaz ne mujhe apni bat ko rokne par majboor kar
diya................
"Vo dadu...maine bheja tha...........,,.... Nainika ko bulane
ke liye..''
''par nainika to apne room se bahar hi nhi niklali thi....''
tabhi bua...beech me bol padi...
"Han....to usne ...mujhse call par bat kar li ...thi...'' subhi
ne bina ruke jawab diya.....
"par ise room me bhejne ki kya jaroorat thi....tumne kha
ki tumne bheja aur isne kha ki ise neend nhi aa rhi
hai...kuch to gadbad hai'' Bua phir se subhi ki tarf dekh
kar boli.....
"gadbad hai apke dimag me apko kya jaroorat hai til ka
taad bnane ki har bat ko.....jab maine kah diya ki maine
bheja to bheja...kisliye bheja kyo bheja...ye btane ki kisi
ko jarurat nhi hai......'' usne ek sans me hi itna bol diya...
Mai to khda khda kabhi Subhi ki tarf dekh rha tha....aur
kabhi Bua ki tarf........
"dekha,papaji,,..iske bat karne ka tarika....aise bat kar
rhi hai hamse,...vo bhi iske liye,....jisne ise aadhi rat ko
ghar se bahar nikal diya...vo bhi mar mar kar...''bua ke
mirchi lag chuki thi...par iska asar ye hua ki unhone jale
par namak chhidak diya tha..........
Dadaji vnha se uthe...aur bina kuch bole hi vnha se chale
gye......mujhe pta tha ki ye bat unhe bahut hi buri lagi
thi......Maine subhi ki tarf dekha ....jo chupchap phir se
apne room me chali gyi......usne lakh koshish ki ho khud
ke anso chhipane ke par mujhse chhupa nhi
saki,,.,.............Itna bawal hone ke bad Nainika se sabhi
ka dhyan hat gya tha.....Maine uski tarf dekha...jo
ankhon me ansu liye vnhi khadi thi......,use pta tha....ki
bua ki bat ka kitna asar pda hai,........
Subhi kamre me ja chuki thi.......Dhire dhire sab hall se
khisak liye the.....par maine buaji ke chehre pr ek
muskurahat dekhi.........thi...jaise usne kuch hasil kar
liya ho.........
Nainika mere pas aayi....aur ankho ankhon me hi thanks
bola......aur maine bhi muskurakar uska welcome
kiya......
"ab kya vnha khadi khadi kar rhi
hai,...kalmunhi.....apne kamre me chal...'' tabhi mausi ki
awaz vnha gunz uthi...aur Nainika...bhagti hui kamre
me chali gyi.....
Ab mai kya karu..jo hall ke beecho beech akela khda
tha....,..abhi kuch der pahle hua kya....kuch samajh nhi
aaya.......maine phir se rewind kiya sabkuch,....pause..
"par nainika to apne room se bahar hi nikali hi nhi....''
pause...bas..ynhi...Bua ki ye awaz mere dimag me
ghoom gyi.....par ye bat bua ko kaise maloom .....ki
Nainika room se bahar hi nhi nikali......itni confidently
kaise bol sakti hai vo sabke samne.....kya mujhe vo dekh
rhi thi....matlab mere room par nazar rakhe hui thi
kya...par ye kaise possible hai,.unka room to niche
hai....aur mere room ya nainika ka room dekhne ke
liye...unhe upar aana jaroori tha....Chalo bad me sochta
hu...is bare me aaram se...kuch to sala mila sochne
ko.......Tabhi Mujhe Subhi ki yad aa gyi...jo Ankhon me
ansu liye room me gyi thi,,...
Mai halke halke kadamo se sidiyan chad rha
tha...mujhe...gussa to bahut aa rha tha bua par...unhone
to vahi kha jo sach tha....maine hi to use mara
...tha...aur ghar se bahar nikala tha ...itni rat ko ...vo bhi
itni barsat me....meri aatma kanp gyi...ye sochkar...
subhi ne rat me mera intejar kiya tha...kya halat hui
hogi....us samay......mujhe gussa aa rha tha us insan par
jo...subhi ko majboor kar rha tha.......beta bas tum ek
bar mil jao......ek ek ansu ka hisab lunga...mai,.........
Mai jitna jaldi ho saka,,utni jaldi..Room me
panhucha...to dekha..Subhi abhi abhi washroom se
bahar aayi thi............
"tumne itni jaldi nha bhi liya..'' maine darwaze par
khade khade hi puccha...
"han.....aj bal nhi dhone the...to jaldi hi ho gya...'' uski
awaz me mujhe bharipan mahsoos ho rha tha.... shayad
usne apne ansu ko chhupane ke liye hi itni jaldi nha liya
............maine uska chehra dekha...jo puri tarh murjha
gya tha.....yahi chehra subah kitna pyara lag rha
tha....raunak thi...aur ab uspar mayushi thi..,dard tha..jo
shayd maine diya ....ya meri vajah se tha,.................
Mai chuchap andar aaya aur bistar par baith gya...mai
uski taraf dekh rha tha.....jo khud ke bal sanwar rhi
thi....mere dimag me Bua ji ki bat phir se ghum
gyi......Bua ji ki ne knha se dekha hoga....mere dimag me
ek hi cheej ghoom rhi thi ...kaise bua itni confident
hai,....is bat ko lekar.....Inhe hamari life me itna interest
kyo hai.......kya kisi aur ne bhi dekha....tbhi mere dimag
me ek sambhavnaya jag gyi......kya hame koi aur bhi
dekh rha tha....dekh rha tha...par kyo.....,,...matlab to
yahi hai.,..kuch bhi ho par mujhe ek suspect mil gya
tha....ab sirf mujhe confirm karna tha....ki kya vo bua
hai...ya koi aur.....lekin agar koi aur bhi hai,..to is bare
me bua ko pta jaroor hoga............
''Mai andar aa sakta hu .....tabhi dadaji ki awaz ne mera
dhyan bhang kiya....
"isme pucchne ki kya jaroorat hai...'' maine unki tarf
muskura kar dekhte huye kha....
"Are mai ynha baithunga nhi.....bus itna btane aaya
hu,.ki ....hamare ynha ek pooja hoti hai har
diwali.....jisse shanti aaye khaskar tum dono ke
beech.......tum dono bhale hi alag hone ki kagar par ho
par abhi alag nhi huye ho....to...tum dono pooja ki
taiyari kar lena.,,,,'' itna kha aur vo darwaze se laut
gye....
Unke jane ke bad Maine Subhi ko dekha...jo phir se
apne kam me lag gyi.......mujhe thoda ascharya ho rha
tha ki na hi subhi ne aur na hi dadaji ne Abhi kuch der
pahle...huye bawal ke bare me puccha.......
Mai sab kuch clear karna chahta tha...ki isse pahle subhi
ko kuch galat sandesh panhuche.....
"Mai Nainika ke room me gya tha....par mera koi galat
irada nhi tha....'' maine apne tarf se hi bat aage bdayi....
"Maine clearance nhi mangi apse....aur na hi puccha...ki
ap uske room me kyo gye.,,'' usne sidha sa jawab mujh
par thop diya,.,..maine usse is jawab ki umeed bilkul nhi
thi.......
"kya tumhe koi fark nhi pdta ..ki mai tumhari bahn ke
kamre me aadhi rat ko jaun.......''
''Nhi pdta....'' subhi phir boli...
"To phir mujhe bchaya kyo...'' mujhe gussa aa rha tha
par kyo ...ye mere samajh ke pare tha...
"Maine apko nhi...use bchaya tha,....vo bechari bholi
bhali hai.....in sab pachado se uski hi badnami hogi....''
usne phir se kha....
"ye bat tum meri ankhon me dekh kar kho...'' ab mai
dhire dhire uski tarf bd rha tha.....
Vo jaise hi picche mudi...mujhe achanak apne picche
dekhkar thoda chaunk gyi...........
"thoda dur chaliye..'' usne mujhe picche dhakelte huye
kha...
"kyo...jaun picche,...meri ankhon me dekhkar kaho ki
tumhe koi fark nhi pdta ki mai Nainika ke room me rat
ko kyo gya...''
''Nhi pdta.....mujhe koi fark nhi pdta.....''usne meri
ankhon me dekhkar kha.....par mai uske andar ki
lachari dekhkar vyathit ho gya............
"ek bar bta do...aisi kya majboori hai...jo mujhse pyar
karte huye ..,bhi mujhse dur bhag rhi ho...'' maine subhi
ki tarf dekha...
"kisne kha ki mai apse pyar karti hun..........vaise bhi
meri shadi,.meri marji se nhi hui thi....mai Prem se pyar
karti hu.....'' usne meri ankhon me dekha aur halka sa
muskura di......uski vo muskurahat dekhkar mera dil
jhalani ho gya.....Prem ka nam sunkar .......to mere tan
badan me aag lag gyi thi........
Maine ek hath se uska gla dbate huye sidha picche
diwar me sta diya...,..
"Mera gla chhodo....." vo ruwansi hote huye boli..
Mujhe pta tha ki mere gla dbane se usko takleef ho rhi
hai.........
"Mai bhul gya tha....ki tum apne hi bachhe ki katil
ho....''maine uski tarf dekhkar bola...
"mai sans nhi le pa rhi hu....mera gla chhodo...'' vo
chhudane ki nakam koshish karte huye boli....
"Bas isi tarh mujhe lagta hai...jab tum us prem ka nam
leti ho..jab tum uske sath hoti hai....jab tumhare hathon
me uska hath hota hai...isi tarh ki chhatpatahat hoti hai
Subhi...,,,..Nhi ji sakta tumhare bina....ye bat tum kab
samjhogi,....'' maine uska gla chhodte huye kha.......
"Mar dalo mujhe,.,..sari dikkat khatm ho jayegi..........Na
mai rahungi...aur na ye ladai.....na hi koi kahega ki mai
katil hu...han mara maine bacche ko...har koi bas mujhe
istemal kar rha hi.....kisi ko mai chahiye ...to kisi ko
meri daulat.......'' vo vnhi ghutno par baith kar rone
lagi......maine uski tarf dekha ,.ek nazar....aur tabhi meri
nazar gate par khadi thi.....Jaise hi maine use dekha....vo
turant vnha se chali gyi........
Subhi dinbhar kamre me hi baithi rahi........,.Na bahar
nikali aur na hi kuch khaya..........aur mai tabhi room se
nikal gya tha...mujhe rat ho gyi thi .......rat ko jab ghar
lauta ....to Dadaji..hall me hi baithe mil gye.....
"Knha gye the sid...''
''Knhi nhi.....bus yunhi ghoomne nikal gya tha....''Maine
sidhe kha....
"tum Subah se rat tak bahar ghumte rhe,....Vnha subhi
din bhar room me rhi....tum dono ke beech kya hua
tha....''
''Kuch bhi to nhi Dadaji...'' Mai itna bolkar upar jane
lga.....
"Nainika ne mujhe btaya tha........ki tumne uske sath kya
kiya tha.....'' Unki awaz me gambhirta thi......
"Vo to bus...yun hi..'' mere pas koi jawab nhi tha...
"akhir tum kab sudhorege....tum mamle ki gambhirta ko
kyo nhi samjhate....''
''Kaise samjhun mai mamle ki gambhirta....usne mujhse
kha ki vo Prem se pyar karti hai......''
''tumne use aadhi rat me ghar se peet kar bahar nikal
diya tha to use koi aur mil gya ...isme uski kya galti
hai.....'' bua beech me hi bol pdi....
"mujhe gussa aata hai jab...vo Prem ka nam leti
hai.,.,mai apna aapa kho deta hu..jab vo kahti hai..ki vo
Prem se pyar karti hai mujhse nhi....'' maine bua ki tarf
dekh kar kha....
"ho sakta hai ki vo baccha bhi Prem ka ho... Aur Prem ke
kahne par hi usne aisa kiya ho,...'' Bua ne vyang karte
huye kha...
"Agar apne ab muh khola to muh me bhar dunga....ap
apni uske charitra ke bare me bolne se pahle ek bar to
soch leti ki apka usse kya rishta hai..... '' Maine unhe
ghurte huye kha...
"pahli bat ki usse mera koi bhi rishta nhi hai.....aur rhi
charitra ki bat..to keechad to tumne hi phenka tha...''
Bua ne ball mere pale me dal di thi...
"apke kahne ka kya matlab hai..ki apka usse koi rishta
nhi hai..apki beti hai vo...''
''vahi jo tumne suna..aur meri beti nhi hai vo.....vo to....''
jab tak bua kuch bolti ...Dadaji..ne unhe tok diya...
"tum ynha se jao...Sunita..''
Vo bhi muh bichkate huye vnha se chali gyi....
"tum bhi khana kha lo.......thak gye hoge...''
''vo kuch kahne vali thi....unka matlab kya hai...iska..''
''Inko khana khilao....''
''kya khana khana...lga rakha hai....bua kya kah rhi
thi..mai bus itna janna chahta hu....''
Par Dadaji,.meri bat ka bina jawab diye chale gye......aur
mai hall me bevkoofo ki tarah khda tha....par mujhse ab
bardasht ke bahar tha...itna sara confusion kam tha...ki
ye aur dekar chali gyi.......
Mai room me gya....aur chupchap,...vnho sofe par baith
gya....Subhi vnhi leti thi...uska chehra dusri tarf
tha.......mujhse ye khamoshi bardasht nhi ho rhi
thi....mai phir se bahar nikal aaya.......mera dimag kam
krna band kar chuka tha.....Maine bhabhi ko kamre me
jate huye dekha....pta nhi aj mujhe kya hua....Mai
bhabhi ke room ki tarf bd chla....drwaze par panhuch
kar knock kiya
''Mai andar aa sakta hu bhabhi...'' Maine unse puccha....
"Ab darwaze tak aa gye ho,..to andar bhi aa jao...ajkal
vaise bhi rat ko dusre ke kamre me jane ki aadat jo pd
gyi hogi....'' bhabhi ne pyar se bola...
"Mera majak bna rhi ho...''
''Nhi bas bta rhi hu,,...''
''Pta nhi mai ynha kyo aaya...mujhe khud nhi pta...aj tak
na maine apse kabhi bat ki.,..na ap mujhe pasand karti
hai....ap kya ghar me shayad hi koi aisa ho jo mujhe
ynha dekhna chahta ho......'' Mai vnhi diwar se tek
lgakar khada ho gya.....
"Tum kahna kya chahte ho....'' bhabhi pahli bar meri
tarf mudi...aur boli...
"Knha se suru karu samajh nhi aa rha.....''
''subhi ke bare me...hai...''
''han.....''
''tab bolo...''
''Jab se mai Subhi se mila hu,..bas aj tak use samjhane ki
koshish karta rha....par kabhi samajh nhi paya......uska
behaviour ,nature,sab kuch meri samajh ke bahar
hai....kabhi aisa lagta hai.....Ki vo mujhse bahut pyar
karti hai....aur Dusre waqt aise dikhati hai....jaise vo
Mujhse nhi Prem se pyar karti hai,...mujse door bhagti
hai...,Har waqt ghut ghut kar jee rha hu,,,...kabhi kabhi
mujhe lagta hai ki kya maine ynha aakar galti kar
di......mai bus use khush dekh a chahta hun,,,har hal me
par vo andar hi andar kis chakrvyahu me fansi hai use
khud nhi pta,,... Koi bat nhi btati aakhir uske man me
kya hai..use kis bat ka dar hai...aisa kya hai..jo use har
pal use aise jindgi jine ko majboor kar rhi hai.....'' mai
itna bol gya...vo bhi ek sans me....
"shayad wajah tum ho tumse dur rahna chahti ho,..''
''agar aisa hota to kab ka hamare raste aalag ho chuke
hote...''maine kha...
"Tumhe pta hai sid...Subhi aisi nhi hai..jaise tumko dikh
rhi hai..maine bhi uske badlate vyvhar ko notice kiya
hai...... vo tumse pyar karti hai...ye mujhe pta hai,...is
ghar me har kisi ko pta hai.....''
''to phir ye sab kyo......Ye Prem kis bla ka nam hai...''
''vo subhi ka cousin brother hai...''
''to phir affair kaise ho sakta hai....''
''tumko nhi pta ...''
''kya.....vo jo tumhari sasu maa hai jo dinbhar ghumti
huyi dikhayi deti hai,..vo uski sauteli maa hai....''
''what the fuck...'' meri dono ankhien bdi ho gyi.....thi..
"tumhe dadaji ne nhi btaya ...subhi to btane se rhi....''
''mujhe kisi ne kuch nhi btaya...kabhi bhi''
''to tum subah Dadaji,..se mil lena.........tum is mamle me
unhi se bat karo to jyada munasib hoga...mai nhi chahti
ki mai buri banu unke samne....''
''hmmm'' maine itna kha aur darwaze ki tarf bad chla
''suno..'' bhabhi ki awaz sunkar mai picche muda..
"kya use koi blackmail kar rha ha...''
''Blackmail..''mere munh se nikal to gya....mujhe to ye
pahle se pta tha...par mujhe janna tha..shayd koi clue
mile...
''Kyonki maine use kal kisi se bat karte huye suna....''
''kya suna....'' meri utsukta bad gyi thi,..
"jyada kuch khas...Dekha ,.suna nhi...vo bat krte waqt
hoda gusse me thi...bus itna suna tha..ki agar sid ko ye
pta chla to tumhe nhi chhodega.......''
''thank u ...very much..'' mere chehre par khushi ki lahar
daud gyi....
"kya apne subhi se puccha nhi...'' maine phir se sawal kiya
''puccha par usne hans ke tal diya...''
"mai samajh sakta hun...''
''ab ap jayenge...ya phir meri bhi what lgayenge....'' vo
hanste huye boli
mai unka matlab samajh sakta tha...maine gd nght bola
aur Darwaze par panhucha hi tha......
"ek min ruko.....Subhi ne aj kuch nhi khaya...uske liye
khana lete jao...''
''Bilkul....pta hai bhabhi apse bat karke accha lga...''
''mujhe bhi....''
Kuch der bad mai room me tha,..
"Khana kyo nhi khaya tumne.....'' maine subhi ki tarf
dekhkar kha jo abhi bhi dusri tarf chehra kiye so rhi
thi,....maine do char bar use awaz di par usne suna
nhi..Dadaji ne kha ki aj vo dinbhar room se nhi nikali
.....kya sach me.....par isne aisa kyo kiya..agar ise ko
pacchtawa hai to ye bar bar prem ka nam kyo leti
hai.....iske bare me to mujhe kuch pta hi nhi tha...jo bhi
kuch bhabhi ne btaya...par kaise pta chlata...subhi ke
gharwalo se mujhe koi khas matlab tha nhi...aur na
unhe hamse...subhi se bhi bus apne matlab tak hi matlb
tha.....ye maine kabhi nhi socha tha ki iske dur jane se
itni takleef bhi hogi mujhe..par ab ho rhi hai...,.maine
pas jakar dekha to vo so chuki thi...mai kuch jyda hi rat
ko ghar aaya tha.....ye mujhe abhi pta chla.....
Kamal hai..mujhe kisi ne khane ke bare me puccha bhi
nhi...jabki Dadaji ne bhi kha tha.....Ki isko khana khila
dena.......maine subhi ka chehra apni tarf
ghumaya....phir vahi masoom chehre ki udashi dil ko
cheer gyi......
"Kyo nhi samajh pa rha hu ,.mai...kyo...hamre beech ye
dooriyan hai....''
Ki tabhi subhi ne vo kiya jiski mujhe sapne me umeed
bhi nhi thi....mai uske siharne par baitha hua tha to
usne apne sar ko meri god me rakha aur apne hathon
ko mere kamar ke ird gird lapet liya........isse pahle mai
kuch bolta ya karta ...ki vo badbdayi shyad neend
me.........
"knha gye the...subah se wait kar rhi hu......kitana royi
hu pta hai.....Kab samjhoge meri feelings.....'' vo vaise hi
neend me badbda rhi thi ki achanak meri nazar uske
mobile par jalti notification light par jali...maine uske
mobile ko uthaya to dekha kisi no par se msg
tha....unknown number se tha,....maine uske thumb ka
use kiya uske mobile ka lock kholne ke..kitna accha kiya
ye smartphone valo ne ...yahi ek bahut bdiya kam kiya
tha......agar mai notification pdunga to isko shaq ho
jayega ......pahle maine vo number note kiya ....phir
dekha to us number se kai msg the.......par pd nhi
sakta..tha..ki achanak mere dimag ki batti jali kyo na
whatsapp check kiya jaye...net pahle se hi off tha to
online status dhikhane sawal hi nhi uthta.....maine
whatsapp open kiya....to uski kuch friends ke...msg
the..uske bad kuch relatives ke ..par meri nazar me ek
Number aaya...Prem.... ..
Maine uske msg open kiya to kuch jyada hi msg
the....usne kai sare love emoji bnakar bheje the..kiss
wale..love wale ... Ye dekhkar mujhe itna gussa aaya ki
maine type karke likh diya,,.
"kutte kamine ..b*** m**** ek bar mil teri g*** na kutto
se na marwayi to bolna....''
Mai msg bhejne ke bad khush ho gya...par tabhi hosh
thikane aa gye jab dimag me ye aaya ki are sala isse to
ise aur use dono ko pta chal jayega ...ki iske alwa kisi
aur ne phone uthaya hai.....turant hi maine msg delete
kiya aur rahat ki sans li....vo to accha hua ki Internet on
nhi tha.........
Maine uske msg ko scroll karne lga ....mai usme ita
bekhabar ho gya ki ye kisi aur ka phone hai.....,
''i love u ''
''i know..''
''to kab han kahogi...''
''don't know''
''plz ....ek bar to han kah do kab se aash lgaye baitha
hun.....you love me...''
''hmmmm'' yhi ek word se mujhe khud jyada hi nafrat
hai..maine khud se kha...
"to kya plan hai..''
''plan..''
''ham mil rhe hai na kal....''
''tum india me ho..''
''nhi....but i m coming india..tomorrow.''
''why..''
''tumhare liye....suman mausi ka call aaya tha ki tum kal
aa jao.....''
''but why...''
''i don't know...bol rhi thi ki urgent hi..''
''okk..see u later ..bye..''
''are knha chali....itni jaldi...u r coming to receive me..''
''may be...''
''sure...u r coming..koi bahana nhi''.
"ok ..'' itna bolkar usne ek relax ka emoji send kiya...
Uske bad us gadhe ne kai sare love emoji send kiye jiska
koi bhi jawab bhi subhi ne nhi diya....
"ye kaisa pyar hai sala..ye to meri samajh ke bahar
hai..na to ye mujhse pyar karti hai aur na hi Prem se
phir karti kisse hai'' mai apna sar khujate huye bola....
"ye ynha kyo aa rha hai....Bua ji ne bulaya hai.....Prem
ko ...par kisliye ye to aane ke bad pta chalega...''
meri buri tarh se jali thi ki ye use receive karne jayegi
Delhi...mai kisi bhi keemat par ye nhi hone dena chahta
tha......isiliye aanan fanan me maine bhi Delhi jane ka
faisla kar liya....iske bad maine uska mobile vnhi rakh
diya jnha se uthaya tha...
Phir mujhe khane ki yad aayi ki tabhi mere dimag me
bhabhi ki kahi bat yad aa gyi...ki kisi se ye bat kar rhi
thi..subhi...aur maine usi anguthe se phir se lock khola
aur call detail dekhne lga...
"ye to vahi number hai...jisse msg aaya hai....'' maine
dimag par ek bal dete huye kha.....pet me chuhe kood
rhe the maine sab kuch chhoda aur khane ke pass aaya
jo itni der me thanda ho chuka tha.......
Maine Uski tarf dekha vo so rhi thi...mujhse lipati
huyi.....use ek tarf kiya aur khane ki plate lekar kitchen
me gya....khane ko garam kiya....thoda khana aur bacha
hua tha..use bhi garam karke apne plate me dala aur
chupchap kamre me chla aaya.....
Abki bar maine sidha uska kandha pakda aur jor jor se
hilane lga...''ye uth kyo nhi rhi hai...subhi,,subhi..
'' mai chillate huye bola..
"uummm,'' usne itna kahkar apni ankhein kholi ..par
puri nhi...vo abhi bhi uneendi thi..
""Khana kha lo..'' maine use hilate huye kha....par
shayad vo kuch jyada hi neend me hi thi......
"Mujhe sone do....'' itna kahkar vo phir se sone
lagi..............
Maine uski ankhon me dekha jo puri tarh se band thi ....
"uth jao....yar...khana thanda ho rha hai..''maine use
phir se utha kar baithya.......lekin is bar...vo phir mere
kandhe ka sahara lekar baith gyi ..uski ankhein aadhi
khuli thi.......''aap hi khila do,...'' vo dhire se fusfusayi...
Maine bhi ek nivala thoda aur uske muh ki tarf
bdaya...to usne jhaat se use kha liya......
"jaldi jaldi khilao...'' vo phir dhire se budbudayi..
"okk..'' itna bolkar ..mai use jaldi jaldi khilane lga....kitni
ajeeb bat hai,..kal ye mujhe khila rhi thi...aur aj mai
ise......use khilane ke chakkar me khud khana bhul
gya.....jab sara khana khatm ho gya...tab ye bat mujhe
yad aayi.....
"or khilao...'' vo neend me bdbdayi....
"mujhe kha le..'' maine man hi man socha...use pani
pilaya aur phir sula diya,,......
Neend me kitni pyari lagti hai bas yahi pal hota hai ..jab
vo shanti se soyi rahti hai.....aur mai bina kisi
dakhalandazi ke use nihar sakta hu......
Mai bhi ek kone me uski tarf chehra krke use dekhne
lga...apna ek hath uske gal par rkha...aur use dekhte
dekhte...hi kab so gya....pta hi nhi chla...subah jab
neend khuli to Subhi ja chuki thi.....
Mai uth kar angdai lene lga....to tabhi mujhe yad aaya ki
subhi to Delhi jane vali hai..us kalmunhe ko lene....
"oye shhiit....knhi chali to nhi gyi...''
mai aise hi bistar par se utra ..aur lagbhag bhagte
huye...Bhar ki tarf bhaga....Subhi ko Hall me dekhkar
maine raht ki sans li...vo taiyr ho chuki thi..
"Are Subhi,wait .....mai bhi chalunga....'' mai vnhi se chillaya...
"Are vo Delhi ja rhi hai...'' Buaji apni nak sikod kar
boli....maine bhi man hi man socha kya is pakode vali
nak ko kisi din fry karke billiyon ko khilaunga...
"Mai bhi Delhi jaunga...tum wait karo..bus panch
minute...me aaya..'' itna bolkar .mai turant bathroom
me ghus gya....aur taiyar hokar...jald hi sabke samne
khda tha.....
"tum ...kyo ja rhe ho...'' bua boli..
"mujhe company se call aaya hai...kuch jaruri kam
tha....'' mai unse itna bola ...aur Subhi ki tarf dekhkar
bola...''Chale subhi...''
Dadaji bas dekhkar muskura rhe the........maine unki
tarf ankh mari..aur vnha se bahar nikal gya...kuch der
bad...Subhi bhi bahar aayi....uska reaction dekhna
chahta tha...par ..billkul spat tha...koi expression....nhi..
"Tum har waqt neend me hi raha karo...'' Maine car ke
darwaze..ko kholte huye kha...
"car mai drive karungi...''usne meri bat ko ignore karte
huye bola...
"kyo,..''
''kyonki ye meri car hai aur maine apko lift di hai...''
''okk'' itna kahkar mai side hokar baith gya...
Vo car me baithi aur drive karne lagi...
"mere suggestion par gaur karna..'' maine hi batcheet
karna start ki...
"aise bakwas idea ap apne pas rakho...''
''sach kah rha hu....''
''ok fine...shut up..''
Mai bhi chup ho gya....par mujhse jyada der na chup rha gya....
"Mujhe bhookh lagi hai..kal se kuch khaya nhi hai....''
maine masoom sa chehra bnate huye kha.....mera focus
sidha uski tarf hi tha.....mai samne to bilkul bhi nhi
dekh rha tha....
"sorry..''
''kis liye..''
''kal ke liye..''
itna sunkar mujhe usne ghoora aur bas itna hi kha.....
"Drive karne me problem ho rhi hai..plz batein band
karenge...''
vaise hi kuch der baithe rha ...mera man nhi lag rha
tha...ek to bhookh lag rhi thi...dusri vo bat nhi kar rhi
thi....hey bhagwan ise samjhane ki shakti de de......itni
dua kabool kar le meri.......................iske bad mai
chupchap vnhi seat par sone ki koshis krne lga par
nakam rahi.....achanak se break
lga...aur agar seat belt nhi pahna hota to shayad ...mera
sar foot chuka hota.....
"kya hua..'' maine uski tarf dekhkar puccha...
"hotel...bhookh lagi thi apko...'' usne ek traf ishara karte
huye kha...
"kitna khyal rakhti ho mera...'' itna maine kha..par
shayad ansuna karke bahar nikal gyi....mai bhi picche
picche..ho liya....achanak mujhe us number ka yad aaya
jo maine subhi ke mobile se nikala tha........
Maine turant hi subham ko call lgaya..
"Han bol '' udhar se awaz..aayi.
"sun mai tujhe ek number send kar rha hu...us number
ki mujhe puri detail chahiye....har kimat par...''
Subham -''okk kal tak pta chal jayega..
"Aaj aur agle teen ghante me ,..''
Subham - pagal itni jaldi kaise ho payega...
"Mai pahunch rha hu agle teen ghante me....sab kuch
vanhi aakar samjhaunga...sare kam chhodkar ye kam
kar tu'' maine use itna bolkar phone cut kar diya.....
Jab maine samne dekha ..to vo mujhe ghur rhi thi......
"vo subham ko call lgaya tha...btane ke liye ki mai aa
rha hu...'' maine use pahle hi bta diya isse pahle ki vo
kuch pucche..
"Maine apse puccha.....jaldi se khana khao ...uski do
ghante bad ki flight hai...'' uske is jawab se ...mera
aadha pet bhar gya.....
Maine khana order kiya....aur use ghurne lga...usne
ankhon par sunglasses lga rakhe the.....jo chehre..par
fab rha tha uske......
Maine khana khatm kiya....aur chupchap...akar..car me
baith gya.......''
""Kya kam hai apko'' jab mujhe shant dekha to vo boli
''Bus....office ka kam tha...''maine itna hi jawab diya...
Mai bus use hi dekh rha tha........pta nhi uske chehre me
kya jadu tha ...ki jab bhi mai use ektak niharta rahta to
mujhe neend aa jati.....aur yahi phir se mere sath hua......
Meri neend tab khuli jab usne mujhe jgaya..
"apka office...''
''thanks for lift..''
''hmm'' vo muskurayi....
"Maine bhi tumhare sath hi vapas chalunga.....kya tum
mujhe ynha se pick up kar logi...'' maine uski tarf dekhte
huye kha...
"nhi....ap airport aa jaiyega.....ya fir call kar lijiyega...jab
ap free ho jayenge ....to mai apko current location bta
dungi ki apko knha aana hai....'' usne meri bat ka is tarh
rudly jawab diya ki mere dimag ka fuse ud gya....
Maine bhi sirf han me sir hilaya....aur use bye
bola..usne bhi muskura kar bye bola.....
"kamal ladki hai....'' itna sochkar ..maine turant
....subham ko call lagaya.......
Aur use ....jaldi se office me aane ko bola.....
Mai jaise hi office me ghusa....good after noon sir,how r
u sir,hii sir,,,.bolne valo ki line si lag gyi....sab mere
himayati bnna chah rhe the....well mai bhi sidha MD ke
cabin me panhuch....kyonki subham detail niklwa rha
tha...isliye thoda time lagne vala tha.....
"Hii sir..'' maine cabin ke darwaze se hi bola.....
"ohh ho Siddhant.....here...come dear....how r u..'' MD to
dekhkar aise khush hua jaise ....mai uska ghar jamai
bnne vala hu.....
"fine..sir thoda sans bhi le lijiye....''
''ok..fine...what r u doing here...''
''Nothing....just time pass..'' maine kha...
"acha hua tum ynha aa gye...Mr.Tyagi...mujhe nhi lgta
..us project ko handle kar payenge...''
''Nye HR hai...'' maine unki bat sunte huye kha....
"Kyonki.,abhi hame jyada time nhi hua hai Real estate
ke business me aaye huye...hamri pahchan...Softare
industry me hai...par ynha competion kam cheating
jyada hoti hai....''
''apke kahne ka kya matkab hai.....''
MD- ham ynha kyo invest kar rhe hai,..ap apne bhai
sahab ko kyo nhi samjhate ki...ynha cheater hi jitte hai...''
''Ap puri bat btayenge...''
MD-Gurdaspur Highway contract hame milne vala
tha....par aakhir waqt me hamari bid se bhi kam bid
tender me bhari gyi.......
"jiska final project maine submit nhi kiya tha...''
MD- han vahi vala...Hansraj Construction hai..vo jisko
contract mila hai....aur ab ham nhi chahte ki ....aisa
dubara ho....to hamne is project ke liye...alag se time
bnayi hai...tum ho nhi to maine Tyagi ..ko hi leader
bnaya hai...
MD-3000 karor ka project hai kam se
kam......Siddhant.....mujhe tumhari jarurat hai...mai ye
bat kah nhi skta ..par yhi sacchai hai aj ki...
"Aur agar mai aj ynha nhi aata to...''
MD- to agle char din me tumhare pas news panhuchne
vali thi....aur han tumahri personal life ke bare me mai
tumhe janta hu.....take care....abki bar mat
thokna....knhi..
"vaise mere pas...ek file is project ki bhejwa dena....mai
Bid report taiyar karta hu.....Bid kitni ki hogi...kisi ko
bhi disclose nhi ki jayegi...ap uska roadmap taiyar
kraiye....mai agle hafte aaunga....
MD-thanks.....file panhuch jayegi....
Aise hi vo kuch der aur dimag khata rha ...MD pta nhi
kya soch kar bhai ne bnaya tha ise....agar waqt ye mere
aage rota rahta hai..........Meri post HR manager ki
hai..par mai 15% shayre rakhta hu...hmari cmpny mere
cousin ki den hai,,,,jinhone software industry me pahle
apni dhak jmayi.....aur jisme mera bhi yogdan
tha....ham log best...software devloper the.....par ek din
pta nhi unke dimag me kya aaya aur unhone Real estate
me paisa invest krna suru kar diya.....iska saf matlab
tha...paisa jyada aa gya tha.....Kam samay me jyada
paisa....Dimag kharab kar deta hai.....ye to koi bat
nhi....REAL ESTATE ka sara zimma mere kandho par dal
diya.....aur MD koi aur nhi unke sasur the......jo pahle..se
hi Real estate ke business me the....aur mujhe devloper
se uthakar ek contracter bna diya tha.......khair ye to
mera itihas tha ..shayd hi kisi ko isse lena dena ho.....
Subham aa chuka tha..aur thik uske hk cabin me mere
samne baitha hua tha...
"Number delhi ka hai,..kisi Rmashankar prjapati ke
nam..se.thik ek hafte pahle on hua hai..5 sep
ko..Adress.-ymuna bihar..H.N-302...''
''hmmm...chalo mil kar aate hai prjapati uncle se..''
Subahm- tujhe aisa nhi lagta ki ye fake id se liya gya
number hai....
"Bilkul yar....''
''phir vnha jakar kya karega...''
''pta nhi....tu bas gadi nikal aur chal...''
Agle aadhe gahnte bad ham uske doorbell ke samne
khade the....
"ting tong...maine doorbell bjayi....ghar dekhkar samjh
aa rha tha ki ye middle class family hai...
Kuch der bad ek buddhe ne darwaza khola...
"ji ap kaun..''
''Rmashankar prajapati..''
''ji han...''
''sir ap ek bat btayenge...apne picchle ek mahine me koi
sim activate krayi hai..,.''
''ap log kaun...'' uski ankhon me sandeh ne ghera dal
diya tha...par maine bhi ...usko jakdne me koi kami nhi
chhodi..
"CBI...full form to pta hi hoga...'' maine hanste huye
kha..''
"ji hh..aaa..nn..siirrr...''
''aage..''
''vo maine picchle mahine ek sim active krayi thi...
"ap mujhe vnha ka adress dijiye jnha se apne sim
kharidi thi...''
Usne darwaze par khade khade hi mobile shop ka
adress diya....adress note karne ke bad..mai aur subham
us pate par chal diye.
Subham- kya chutiyapa tha..ye..
"abe check kar rha tha..kam kar gya...''
Subahm - ab aage kya...
"dekhta ja..''
Mobile shop ki dukan jyada dur nhi thi....ham uske
andar pnhuche...ekka dukka grahak hi the vnha par...
"Ye number tumhari dukan se activate hua hai...kaun le
gya hai ise...kya tum bta sakte ho.....''
Subham-isse pahle ki tum puccho ki ham kaun..to Ham
Delhi Police se hai.....aur ye number suspect list me
hai...jo tumhare ynha se activate kiya gya hai.....
Itna bolte huye subham chauda ho gya tha....samne vale
insan ki fat chuki thi...ye ham asani se dekh sakte
the........
Usne number dekha....kyonki maine pahle hi bta diya
tha ki last week hi number activate hua hai.....to usne
apni daiary me us date active ki gyi ..sim par ek nazar
dali....
"Sir...is number ko Ramashankar prajapati ke nam se
active hui hai...'' retailer bola..
"Vo farji id thi....ab sahi sahi btaoge ...ya phir farji sim
bechne ke jurm me ,,,,'' maine raub dikhate huye kha..
"are nhi sahab,....ham aisa nhi karte,...lekin 50 ki sim ke
liye 150 de rhe the....to kisko katta hai.....char sim lekar
gya..''Retailer ne kha..
''kaun tha..''
''jyada nhi yad hai..par ek ladka tha..22 sal ke as pas
hoga....car se aaya tha...jisme char challe ek dusre se
jude hote hai....'' Retailer ne sari chije ek sans me hi bak
di..
"itna to tumse nhi puccha tha..''
''Are sahab bhi CID dekhte hai...''dant niporte huye bola
''kuch nam vagairah..''
''sorry sahab..''
''han..par..us car me picche ek admi baitha tha....jo bar
bar jaldi krne ko kah rha tha......vo gol topi..lgaye tha...''
''Memory acchi hai..''
''roj badam khate hai sir..''
''chalo koi bat nhi,,dubara dikhe to is number par call
kar dena...'' maine subham ka number dete huye kha....
Kuch khas hath nhi lga..par han itna pta ho gya tha
ki....vo admi hai maldar...audi se tha.....beta tujhe
dhoondh kar to rahunga.........
Maine subham se sidhe airport chalne ko kha...kyonki
Subhi mujhe vnhi milne vali thi......ye bat usne mujhe
khud msg kiya tha.............khair Us kamine Prem se
kaise nipta jaye..mai ye soch rha tha...aur sochte sochte
airport bhi panhuch gya...par phir bhi kuch soch nhi paya......
Sid ne subhi ko call lgaya to usne sidha airport me bane
cafe me aane ko kha aur call cut kar diya ...
"Kamal hai..yar...'' Sid ne khud se kha..aur cafe ki tarf
chalne lga.....kuch der Me hi vo cafe ke samne khda
th......
"sala ..inko vnha baithne ki kya jaroorat hai,,,'' Sid ne
man hi man kha......pta hone ke bavjood ki vo knha hai
Sid ne tumhara call lagaya...udhar se call pick karte hi..
Sid- knha ho...i mean kis cafe me..
Shubhi- apko sach me nhi pta ki ...ham knha hai..
Sid- sach kah rha hu...
Subhi ne use cafe ka nam btaya aur call cut kar diya....
Sid ki call lgane ki vajah kya thi ye use khud nhi pta tha
shayad jalan....jo kuch bhi ho.....par jaise hi vo andar
jane ke liye muda...ki uski nazar samne jma hui bheed
ki tarf...gya,,........aur achanak hi uski nazar vnha ke
nazare par jam gyi....'
''kya khoobsurat lamha hai..'' ye uske muh se achanak hi
nikal gya.....
Asal me Samne ek ladka hatho me ek ring lekar..apni
girfriend ko marriage ka proposal de rha tha.......Sid ne
ladke ki tarf dekha...jo us ladki ke chehre ki tarf ek
umeed se dekh rha tha.. ...aur jaise hi...ladki ne han
kha...taliyon ki awaz ke sath pura hall gunz utha......un
Zindgi me kuch aise bhi lamhe bhi hote hai...jo apke liye
khas hote hai...jinke mayne apki zindagi se jude hote
hai......un lamho ko ap bar bar jeena chahte hai.....aur
sochte hai...kash ham waqt ko apni kabu me kar
pate....aur samay ke pahiye ko picche ghuma dete...par
apke pas..sirf yadein hi rahti hai.....sirf yadein...aur un
yado ki tasveero ko ap apne dil me sja kar rakhte hai......
Ye to sabhi log jante hai ..ki Subhi aur Siddhant ki
aarange marriage huyi thi...
...par ye sach kuch logo ko hi pta hai...ki ..inki
shadi..Arrange nhi love thi.....
Ateet ya to sunhara hota hai...ya..dard bhra...par ateet
me khas lamhe aise hote hai...jo apne ap yad aa jate
hai....Na chahte huye bhi Sid vanhi...un attet ke panno
me khud ki us parcchai ko dhudne lga jo...usne abhi
abhi dekha tha........
Vo Subah ..Sid ki ..jindagi ki sabse haseen subah thi.......
Subham- uth ja bhai...tere hath jodta hu,..ek ghanta
bacha hai,..collage jana hai...
Sid- abe sone de yar...abhi 1 ghanta hai....
Subham- sale hame apne collage nhi jana..hai..
Sid- function hi to hai chale jayenge...
Subham- abe gadhe....comptetion bolte hai use...function
nhi hai....
Sid.- okk..wait five minute....
Aur agle 10 minute me dono apne...collage ki bus me
the.....
Sid - engineering kitni mast hoti hai na.....
Subham-sun...tujhe to job ke liye jhak nhi marni
hai.....apna final year hai......
Sid- isliye tune..paarticipate kiya ..taki tera...internal
accha ho jaye.........ha ha ha..
Subham- Dant dikhana band kar......
Tabhi bus me ..hamare co-ordinator chadte hai...aur
...apna speech suru kar dete hai......
"Dear Student,ham sabhi log jante hai...ki ham knha ja
rhe hai,,,..inter collage chamapionship me hissa
lene.....R.K.D engineering collage .....
Is bar hame nhi harna hai.....picchli bar ham sirf
mamuli antar se chuke the.......so is bar hame har hal
me jitna hai.......chahe vo football championship ho ya
phir...singing..dancing...kuch bhi ho..H.E.C engineering
collage top par hona chahiye......''
Subham - ye buddha itna pakata kyo hai....
"kyoki ye hamara co-ordinatar hai....aur taiyar ho
ja..agle dus din aur pakayega.....'' picche se ek ladki
Subham ke sir par marte huye boli...
Sid - oohh ho...panditain.....tu bhi hai...
"tujhse kitni bar bola hai..ki Mera nam ..Shikha hai,..''
Sid - yad dilane ke liye sukriya....
Sikha - tujh jaisa alsi kyo ja rha hai......vnha...tune to last
year chhod diya tha na....
Sid- bahut lambi kahani hai....
Shikha- agle do ghante hame bus me hi makkhi marni hai...
Sid- asal me unka mere bina bhla nhi hona..to hmare coach pandit M.K
Sharma..mere pas gidgidate huye aaye....plz siddhant...mere pas koi
player nhi hai....jo tumse accha khel sake...plz vapas join kar lo.....
Itna bolte hi Sikha ke mukke Sid ko pdne lagte hai...
Shikha- vo mere dad hai...thoda tameej se....aur maine hi kha tujh jaise
bandar ko le jane ke liye......nhi to mai vnha bore hone vali thi.....aur
tere pas bhi koi kam nhi tha...maine tera bhla kiya hai
Sid - bahut bahut sukriya..panditain ...abe subham ise beech me jagah
de.....
Subham- mai uth jata hu bhai...tu hi bore ho,..mai to apni rashmi ke
pas chla......
Ye thi hmari dost Sikha Sharma....ekdum bindas thi....Dance ka shauk
tha...to Dance competetion me hissa lena tha ise..........
Agle do ghante bad ham...R.K.D engineering collage ke base par the...
Sid - oohh teri ynha to sala alag alag tamboo hai...har collage......ke
Sid jab bus se utra..to bus ek bade se ground me ruki thi...jnha aur bhi
collage ke student aaye huye the......
Sikha - is bar bhi bheed hai...
Sid - collage student ke liye kisi olmpyic se kam nhi hai.....
Sikha - salo ne is bar bhi khule asman me hi dera dlwaya...kanjoos...
Sid - Kiske sath dera dal rhi hai....
Sikha - tere sath...
Sid - kuch gadbad ho gyi to...
Sikha - ho jane do....
Isi tarh apas me bat karte huye dono apne apne tent me panhuch
gye...jo unhe allot hua tha.....ye ek inter collage championship thi...jo
har sal
alag alag collage me krayi jati thi..vnha pdne vale student ke liye ye 10
din kisi olmpic games se kam nhi the.......har koi is championship par
kabja karna chahta tha...ynha singing,dancing,painting,sports..har tarh
ki activity ki comptetion hota hai.......Sid ka collage..picchle teen salo se
iska champion nhi ban paya tha.....par top three me jarur rahta tha
Champion ka decesion is bat se hota tha ki apke collage ne kitni
comptetion jeeti hai......har bar Ye mamuli antar se chuk jate the........
Sikha - Sid tumhe Dad ne bulaya hai....
Sid - abhi..
Sikha - abhi ...ke abhi..
Sid - is buadu ko problem kya hai...sala chain nhi lene deta hai...
Sikha - agar ek shabd aur mere dad ke bare me bola to dant tod
dungi...
Sid bhagte huye coach ke pas jata hai.....
Sid - sir apne bulaya...
Coach - han..siddhant..tum is bar Attacking position par kheloge...
Sid - what...sir..
Jaise coach ne Sid ke sar par bum phod diya ho..
Coach - tum is bar attacking position me kheloge..aur mujhe koi bhi
bahs nhi chahiye....is bat par...aur agle ek ghante me tum mujhe
collage ke indoor stadium me miloge.......
Sid - par sir..meri bat to suniye...
Coach ne ek bar sid ko ek bar ghur kar dekha...aur chupchp vnha se
nikal gye...Sabko pta tha ki Coach M.K.Sharma dicipline ke mamle me
kitne shakht the....
Sid - budau sathiya gya hai....
mai attack kaise karunga...
Pawan - usne is bar Nishant ko captain bnaya hai....
Sid - kya...bat kar rha hai...
Pawan - han mere bhai...puri team ulat palat kar di hai....inhone..
Sid - ab kya kiya jaye...
Pawan - practice....
Sid - mujhe bhi bula lena.....jab jana to..
Pawan - thik hai......
itna kahkar sid apne thikane par jane lga...uska dimag bilkul upset
tha....kyonki vo hamesha midfielder ke taur par team me khelta
tha...par ynha use sidhe sidhe Attacking postion me bitha diya gya
..tha...use koi khas dikkat nhi hoti par usne football ko ek sal se hath
nhi lgya ...na hi koi practise..na koi excersise......achanak se is position
par khelna ....bahut hi muskil tha...upar se..Nishant captain.....vo isi
soch me gum chla ja rha tha...ki tabhi uski takkar ...samne kisi se
huyi...
"oouuch...'' samne vala sakhs itni jor se chillaya...ki Sid thoda dar
gya...tabhi vo uske upar chillane lagi....
"sari painting kharab kar di....pta hai kitni muskil se bnya tha ye
sab....dekh kar nhi chal sakte....''
Sid - I am sorry....voo..maai..
"vo kya...ab kharab ho gyi hai...pta hai kitna waqt lga tha bnane me
ise...tumne to sorry bol diya....''
Sid chupchap use sun rha tha....kyonki usne sach me us ladki ki
painting kharab kar di thi.....kyonki uski painting par uske hath me liye
huye colors gir gye the.......vo uski tarf ghure ja rha tha........aur vo ladki
apni painting aur vnha bikhre painting ke saman ko uthane ka praysh
kar rhi thi.....par saman jyada hone ki vajah se...kuch na kuch bar bar
gira de rhi thi......
''Kaise ..bandaro ki tarh hans rhe ho....jab saman gira diya hai,..to ab
uthayega kaun....itne bhi manners nhi hai...aake help karo meri....
Sid - kitna bolti ho yar.....kis collage se ho....
"Goverment Girls collage...se..''
Sid - Nam kya hai..
"Ab flirting karne ki koshis mat karo chupchap saman uthwao ..aur
nikalte bano....''
Sid - aj ka din hi kharab hai........
Us ladki ke jane ke bad Sid apne camp ki tarf bd chla...vo kuch jyada hi
upset tha...coach ke is faisle par.....
Shikha - kya hua tera muh kyo utra hua hai...
Sid- tere bap ki vajah se....
Shikha -kya kiya unhone ne..
Sid- Attacking positin de di hai,..
Shikha- to khel na problem kya hi....
Sid - teri tarh kamar nhi mtkani hai...
Shikha - mai kuch nhi bol rhi tere se...tu kuch bhi kar....bas ek bat
rakhna ...mujhe tum par pura bharosha hai...aur dad ko bhi...isiliye ,.vo
tumhe ynha apne sath lekar aaye hai.....
Sid - par tune to kha tha ki..tune sifarish ki hai...
Shikha- majak tha gadhe....pure staff se fight ki hai tere liye,.....
Sid - kyo..
Shikha - jo tune sanyasi ban baitha tha sab kuch chhodkar picchle
bar....ek match har gya ..to kya sab kuch har gya....
Sid - chal sone de..tere bap ne ek ghnte me bulaya hai...
Shikha - ..............................
Sid - tej bol kuch sunyi nhi diya...
Shikha- samjhdar hai ishara bahut hai...
Ek ghante kab beet gye pta hi nhi chla,..jab pawan ise uthane aaya
tab...ise hosh aaya....aur panch minute bad aane ko bola......
Sid apne camp se niklkar stadium ki tarf nikl pda ....kuch der chalne ke
bad achanak use vahi ladki dikhayi di ....jiski usne painting kharab ki
thi.....
Uske chehre ko dekhkar ..lag rha tha ki vo apni painting....yun hi ..vo
uske pas ja panhucha......
Sid - hii...painting to ab jyada khoobsurat ho gyi hai....
"tum ja rhe ho ya nhi ynha se,...''
Sid - bhadko mat....mai jata hu....
Sid jaise hi ...muda tha...ki vo dusri tarf se aati huyi ek ladki se takra
gya........
"oouuchhh'' itna kahkar usne Apni ankh band kar li....aur apne gal par
pdne vale thappad ka intejar karne lga...........
"Hello Mr..apko ladkiyo se takrane me mja aata hai... ye shauk bachpan
se hai...ya ye nya nya hai.....''
Itni khoobsurat awaz jisse vo kuch pal ke liye un alfajo me kho
gya....aur ab usne dhire dhire apni ankhein kholi.....aur jaise hi uski nazr
us awaz ki malkin ke chehre se takrayi.....uske to hosh hi chale
gye.....kali ankhein...gulabi honth....
"kya hua..'' us awaz ne phir use jhakjhora....
Par vo usme itna kho gya tha ki...use sunayi bhi tab diya ..jab us ladki ki
awaz uske kano me sunayi thi ...
"Didi isi ne apki painting khara ki thi....''
Sid ka to ab muh kya ankh bhi band ho gyi ye sunkar....isse phle koi
kuch bhi kahta .....sid vnha se nikal liya kyonki pawan ne ishara jo kar
diya tha.........vo jaldi jaldi stadium ki tarf ja rha tha...par uski ankhon me
abhi bhi vahi chehra vahi ....ghum rha tha......
Vo apne khyalo se vapas tab aaya jab....uske upar football aakar giri,..
"Kaun hai...bc...'' vo jor se chillaya....
"Mai hu,..'' jaise hi Coach ki awaz sunayi thi....
"Sorry sir...''
''Focus on the game..''
''okk sir..''
Par ab dil me to koi aur tha...jo bar bar uske focus ko hta rha
tha....usne practise band ki...aur chupchap side...me aakar baith gya.....
"Kash tujhse mulaqat na hoti....vo halki si bat na hoti,..... Aj mere dil ka
ye hal na hota,.....Agar yun dekhkar tum muskurayi na hoti....''
"Agar aapka aaram ho gya ho to thoda practise kar le..'' coach ki awaz
phir se mere kano me pdi ...
"sure sir,...''
''buddha jina haram kiya hai sala...'' Pawan ne mere kano me aakar
kha....
Mai bas yun hi muskura diya.......
Beman se practise kar rha tha...ek to usko manpasand position
nhi...upar se ....ladki ka bhi mamla....pahli nazar me hi use ehsas ho
gya tha.....ki teri jan to yahi hai,...........Practise khatm karke...vo vapas ja
rha tha ki...use tennis court me phir se vahi ladki dikhayi thi.........jisse
uski sansein phir se ataak si gyi....
Us ladki ke jane ke bad Sid apne camp ki tarf bd chla...vo kuch jyada hi
upset tha...coach ke is faisle par.....
Shikha - kya hua tera muh kyo utra hua hai...
Sid- tere bap ki vajah se....
Shikha -kya kiya unhone ne..
Sid- Attacking positin de di hai,..
Shikha- to khel na problem kya hi....
Sid - teri tarh kamar nhi mtkani hai...
Shikha - mai kuch nhi bol rhi tere se...tu kuch bhi kar....bas ek bat
rakhna ...mujhe tum par pura bharosha hai...aur dad ko bhi...isiliye ,.vo
tumhe ynha apne sath lekar aaye hai.....
Sid - par tune to kha tha ki..tune sifarish ki hai...
Shikha- majak tha gadhe....pure staff se fight ki hai tere liye,.....
Sid - kyo..
Shikha - jo tune sanyasi ban baitha tha sab kuch chhodkar picchle
bar....ek match har gya ..to kya sab kuch har gya....
Sid - chal sone de..tere bap ne ek ghnte me bulaya hai...
Shikha - ..............................
Sid - tej bol kuch sunyi nhi diya...
Shikha- samjhdar hai ishara bahut hai...
Ek ghante kab beet gye pta hi nhi chla,..jab pawan ise uthane aaya
tab...ise hosh aaya....aur panch minute bad aane ko bola......
Sid apne camp se niklkar stadium ki tarf nikl pda ....kuch der chalne ke
bad achanak use vahi ladki dikhayi di ....jiski usne painting kharab ki
thi.....
Uske chehre ko dekhkar ..lag rha tha ki vo apni painting....yun hi ..vo
uske pas ja panhucha......
Sid - hii...painting to ab jyada khoobsurat ho gyi hai....
"tum ja rhe ho ya nhi ynha se,...''
Sid - bhadko mat....mai jata hu....
Sid jaise hi ...muda tha...ki vo dusri tarf se aati huyi ek ladki se takra
gya........
"oouuchhh'' itna kahkar usne Apni ankh band kar li....aur apne gal par
pdne vale thappad ka intejar karne lga...........
"Hello Mr..apko ladkiyo se takrane me mja aata hai... ye shauk bachpan
se hai...ya ye nya nya hai.....''
Itni khoobsurat awaz jisse vo kuch pal ke liye un alfajo me kho
gya....aur ab usne dhire dhire apni ankhein kholi.....aur jaise hi uski nazr
us awaz ki malkin ke chehre se takrayi.....uske to hosh hi chale
gye.....kali ankhein...gulabi honth....
"kya hua..'' us awaz ne phir use jhakjhora....
Par vo usme itna kho gya tha ki...use sunayi bhi tab diya ..jab us ladki ki
awaz uske kano me sunayi thi ...
"Didi isi ne apki painting khara ki thi....''
Sid ka to ab muh kya ankh bhi band ho gyi ye sunkar....isse phle koi
kuch bhi kahta .....sid vnha se nikal liya kyonki pawan ne ishara jo kar
diya tha.........vo jaldi jaldi stadium ki tarf ja rha tha...par uski ankhon me
abhi bhi vahi chehra vahi ....ghum rha tha......
Vo apne khyalo se vapas tab aaya jab....uske upar football aakar giri,..
"Kaun hai...bc...'' vo jor se chillaya....
"Mai hu,..'' jaise hi Coach ki awaz sunayi thi....
"Sorry sir...''
''Focus on the game..''
''okk sir..''
Par ab dil me to koi aur tha...jo bar bar uske focus ko hta rha
tha....usne practise band ki...aur chupchap side...me aakar baith gya.....
"Kash tujhse mulaqat na hoti....vo halki si bat na hoti,..... Aj mere dil ka
ye hal na hota,.....Agar yun dekhkar tum muskurayi na hoti....''
"Agar aapka aaram ho gya ho to thoda practise kar le..'' coach ki awaz
phir se mere kano me pdi ...
"sure sir,...''
''buddha jina haram kiya hai sala...'' Pawan ne mere kano me aakar
kha....
Mai bas yun hi muskura diya.......
Beman se practise kar rha tha...ek to usko manpasand position
nhi...upar se ....ladki ka bhi mamla....pahli nazar me hi use ehsas ho
gya tha.....ki teri jan to yahi hai,...........Practise khatm karke...vo vapas ja
rha tha ki...use tennis court me phir se vahi ladki dikhayi thi.........jisse
uski sansein phir se ataak si gyi....
"Kitna ghurega use ab to ghurna band kar de " pawan ne mujhe tokte
huye kha
"mai kise ghur rha hu"main usse saaf mukar gya
"chal rahne de beta ishq aur mushq chhipaye nhi chipate ...pahli nazar
ka pyar hai sambhal kar aage bdna aur han dil mat lga lena abhi se
warna dil tootne ke baad hmare game ki dhajjiyan ud jayegi.." pawan ne
muskurate huye itna kha use shayad mera reaction pta tha shyad isliye
vo mere se dur chla gya....
shayad sahi kah rha tha vo ye ishq ka hi to asar tha .Jo mera man
practise me bilkul bhi nhi lag rha tha ...abhi to dekha hai use itni jaldi
ishq ...
mujhe sochta vicharta dekh pawan phir mere pas aaya
"beta game pe dhyan de nhi to aj tera muhbola sasur teri band bja dega
"
maine phir use ghoor kar dekha aur muskura diya ...vo coach ko
muhbola sasur isliye bol rha tha kyonki meri aur shikha ki.bonding hi
girlfriend aur boyfriend jaisi thi...par aisi feeling kabhi shikha ke liye nhi
aayi jaisi abhi is tennis girl ke liye aa rhi thi
" vaise uska nam pta hai kya"pawan ne phir mera majak udate huye kha
kyonki ye bat use bhi pta thi ki mujhe uska nam nhi pta hai
"itni jaldi bhi kya hai .ise ankho se dil me to utar jane do" maine thoda
romantic hote huye kha
isse pahle ki pawan kuch.kahne ke liye muh kholta coach ki whistle ki
awaz hmare kano me pdi ...par pawan ko is bat par bhi majak sujh rha
tha usne phir kha
" chalo sasurji ko.is par dya to aayi ..ja beta aaram se.uska nam pta
karke aa ..aur haan shikha se mai bol dunga tu yunhi bahar ghum rha
hai""
Maine pawan ko phir.ghurti nazaro se.dekha kyonki mai nhi chahta tha
ki ye bat kisi aur ko pta chale vaise mai to ye bhi nhi chahta tha ki ye
baat kisi ko pta chale par is.kamine ko pta chal hi gyi aur jab sab playe
pas aa rhe the to ise lagatar.masti sujh rhi thi ....par shayad usne mere
man ki bat pd li aur chupchap bahar ki tarf jane lga par jate jate
angutha dikha gya ...sabne puccha bhi ki ye kyo nhi aa rha par pawan
ne bahana bna diya hoga aisa mujhe lga kyonki mujhe kisi ne aane ke
liye kha nhi...
Mere liye to ek pal bhi ab bhari lag rha tha ..isi bechaini me maine
andar jane ki koshish bhi ki par security ne andr jane nhi diya
Meri bechaini mera gussa bda rhi thi aur isi gusse me mai dubara
andar jana chaha Lekin phir vahi hal rha usne phir bhi andar nhi jane
diya ...is bar to mai usse kuch jyada hi ulajh gya par jab mujhe ehsas
hua mai knha hu ...chupchap vapas aa gya
ye ek indoor stadium tha jnha kai sare hall bane the
fotball,tennis,basketball,cricket sabke alag alag hall the ....tennis court
inner hall me tha jabki football outer me aur rasta ek hi tha jane ka
...sahi wo bhi tha andar ladkiyan hi practise kar rhi thi aur vnha ladke
not allowed the ...
dhire.dhire.8 bjne ko aaye par maine vnha se hilne ka nam tak nhi liya
...mai sirf uski tarf dekh rha tha dur se kabhi kabhi hmari nazre takrati
bhi thi ..shayad use bhi ehsas tha ki mai vnha kyo hai par uske reaction
dekh kar to aisa nhi lag rha tha .....aakhirkar vo.lamha aa hi gya jab
usne apna sara saman smeta aur towel se pasina pocchte huye bahar
nikali ...uske liye to ye aam bat hogi par uski is harqat ne dil me ek dard
sa utha ...rongte tak khade ho gye ....shyad yahi to ehsas tha ishq ka
mohabbat ka ...
Maine apne kadam dhire dhire uski taraf bdaye wo aage ja rhi thi aur
mai uske picche ...mera dil joro se dhadak rha tha ...mai jaise jaise
uske karib ja rha tha mere hath pair sunn pad rhe the ...ajib sa dar dilo
dimag par havi ho rha tha ..par kuch himmat jutayi ...pairo ki chal bdayi
aur uske sath sath chalne lga ..uske brabar panhuchne par usne ek
nazar meri tarf dekha aur phir aage bad gyi use dekhkar maine smile
bhi pass ki thi par usne koi response nhi diya
"gyi bhains pani me " maine man me hi socha aur bol hi diya
"hi"
"hello" uska jawab sunkar mere sans me sans aayi
"tennis accha khelti ho"
"huh " usne ek nazar meri tarf dekha par boli kuch nhi
"nam kya hai tumhara "maine himmat karke pucch hi liya
"ek mahan poet the william shekspear unhone kha tha ki nam me kya
rakha hai " uska ye jawab sunkar to mere pairo tale jameen hi khisak
gyi jise mai ab tak sidhi sadhi sushil ladki samajh rha tha vo to ek
chhapanchhuri thi ...
"Par ek mahan darshanik ne ye bhi kha tha ki naam me hi to sab kuch
hai ,"
"kaun sa aisa darshanik tha Jo itna ghisa pita gyan deta tha "vo mera
jawab sunkar hanste huye boli
"naam ke liye itne drame kyo kar rhi ho " ye shabd mai bolna nhi chahta
tha par achanak nikal gya tha muh se mere ...aur agar ek bar jaban
fisal gyi to phir L lagne to tay hote hai, usne ektak mujhe ghura aur phir
chalne lagi ...
"mera piccha kyo.kar rhe ho " ab us ladki ne sidha question mujh par
de mara tha ..jise sunkar mai thoda hdbda gya par khud ko sanyat
rakhte huye jawab diya ....
" kya tumhe sach me nhi pta "
" mai galat bhi to ho sakti hun""
"ek ladka jo picchle ek ghante se ynha baitha ek ladki ka intejar kar rha
hai aur bad me aake vahi ladki kahti hai ki mai galat bhi ho sakti hun "
"par us ladke ko ye bhi pta hona chahiye ki us ladki ko abhi kuch chand
ghanto pahle hi dekha hai"uska jawab sunkar mai phir se shant pad
gya mere pas phir koi jawab nhi tha...
"par mohabbat to ek nazar me ho jati hai uske liye mahino intejar nhi
krna pdta" mera itna kahna tha ki uska chehre par gambhirta ne apna
prachand Roop dharan kar liya tha par vo ek bar phir kuch nhi boli ...
"mai soch rhi thi ki maine tumhe thappad kyo nhi mara " kuch minute
bad vo khud hi boli
"kyonki yahi mohabbat ka asar hai jo door se hi dil me apni jagah bna
leta hai"" maine phir kuch jyada hi romantic hote huye kha iske jawab
me vo halka sa muskurayi aur boli
"suno ,mera piccha ab mat karna "
usne itna kha aur teji se aage chali gyi
" are nam to btati jao " mai jor se chillaya par udhar se koi response nhi
aaya ...mai use bas apni kamar par hath rakhkar jate huye dekhta rha
jaise maine milo ka safar paidal hi tay kiya ho ...
mai chupchap vnha se apne camp me aaya aur bistar par late gya ,pta
nhi par kyo uska is tarh jana mujhe akhar rha tha, mera man udashi ki
gahrayi me gote lgane hi vala tha ki sikha aake bistar par mere bagal
me late gyi..
"kya hua mister bda udash lag rhe ho"
"kuch nhi"
"mujhse tum kuch chhupa nhi sakte "
"kya bar bar ghisa pita dialouge marti rahti hai "maine uski tarf takiya
marte huye kha...usse kuch der yun hi bewajh bahas karta rha aur vnhi
so gya .,
Agle din coach hame outdoor practise ke liye lekar gye jo mujhe bilkul
bhi pasand nhi aaya par us khadoos ke aage meri ek bhi na chali .....us
din hmne itni practise ki jab whistle bji to pair uthne ka nam nhi le rhe
the ..ghadi ki tarf nazar daudayi to sham ke panch baj chuke the ...mai
turant vnha se indoor stadium k liye bhaga kyonki mujhe umeed thi ki
vo jarur vnha aayi hogi ..,aur is bar bhagwan mere sath tha vo vnhi par
practise kar rhi thi ...lekin security vale ne mujhe andar jane is bar bhi
nhi diya mere pas vnhi baithne ke alawa aur koi option nhi tha ....lekin
aj waqt kab guzra pta hi nhi chla ...usne packup kiya aur bahar aa gyi ...
usne mujhe dekha aur aage bad gyi ,
" koi ijjat hi nhi sala" itna soch kar mai bhi uske sath chalne lga
"hi"
"hi"
"to kya socha mere bare me "maine style marte huye kha,
" mai kyo sochu tumhare bare me " usne sidha sa jawab diya .,
"ek bat bolni hai tumse ,soch rha hu knha se suru karu ..vaise tum
samajh rhi ho na mai kya bolna chahta hun..." maine uski tarf dekhte
huye kha
"nhi ,mai kuch bhi nhi samajh rhi " itna bolkar vo aage bad gyi
mai samajh rha tha ki vo samajh rhi hai ki mai kya bolna chahta hu par
vo mere hi muh se sunna chahti thi ,.aisa mai samajh rha tha ..ho
sakta hai jo mai samajh rha hu ..vo galat ho.
"mera kal match hai ,mai chahta hu tum bhi aao "
" mai aati jarur ..par kal mera bhi match hai "
" kitne bje se hai "maine uski tarf dekhte huye kha
"9 bje se " usne bina meri tarf dekhe huye kha
"mera 10 bje se hai ,samne vale ko aadhe ghante me hra kar aa jana "
maine khush hote huye kha
" itna asan hai kya "
" shayad nhi par agar mujhe yaad karogi to jarur hra dogi "
"par aisa kyo "
"practile karke dekhna par han match dekhne jarur aana ".itna bolkar
mai wapaas apne camp me aa gya
waise mai jo gul khila rha tha uske bare me Shikha ko khabar ho gyi thi
par usne.mujhse kuch kha nhi ...
Agle Din subah maine ye pta kiya ki tennis match kis jagah ho rhe.hai
..aur jaldi se us jagah par panhucha jnha us ladki ka match ho rha tha
..mera match 10 Bje se tha to mai aaram se ek ghanta uska match
dekh sakta hu ..vaise mai ynha uska match nhi balki uska naam
dekhne aaya tha jo vnha lagi screen par dikhayi de rha th ...
"Subhi" Maine man me kai bar uska nam apne man me dohraya Aur
uski tarf dekhne lga jo abhi abhi court me aayi thi ...
Katili kamar ,tikhe nain haayy meri to jaan hi nikalne ke liye kafi tha ...
uska match suru ho chuka tha ,jaise jaise khel aage bad rha tha Subhi
samne vali ladki par apna dabav bna rhi thi aur achanak uski nazar
mujh par pdi aur service break aur samne vale ko ek point ...Subhi ka
muh khula ka khula rah gya...uski nazar sirf mujh par hi jami thi ,maine
bhi "hi" ka ishara hath hila kar diya usne apne racket ko meri tarf
dekhkar ghumaya ...mai bhi use yun khelte dekhta rha aur khush hota
rha aur ant me vo jeet gyi .,
" match to tum jeet gyi ho to ab mera match dekhne aaogi na abhi 15
Min bache hai ,"maine uske pas jate huye kha
Subhi ne na meri tarf dekha aur na hi kuch bola ...
Mujhe late ho rha tha to maine use bye bola par usne is bar bhi koi
responce nhi diya ..
"Khana bhi kha liya karo Subhi Madam jab dekho tab bhav khati rahti ho
..." itne logo ke hone ke bavjood bhi maine aisa kah diya aur vnha se
bhagta hua apne ground par panhucha ..abhi hmari team warm up hi
kar rhi thi ..mujhe dekhkar coach bhadke to par maine pet me gadbad
hone ka bahana mar diya
par coach ko pta tha ki main bahana mar rha hu par kisliye isme unka
andaza galat tha ...
Match suru hua.. mujhe Attacking ki postion di gyi thi starting me to
meri football par pakad majboot thi par jaise jaise game aage bad rha
tha vaise vaise us ladki ka khyal dimag me bar bar aa jata jisse meri
concentration bhang ho jati aur mere hath se football chali jati thi ..
"fuck ..fuck" main khud se hi kahta hua maidan ke bahar chla gya
kyonki coach ne mera game dekhne ke bad mera substitude le liya tha
abhi bhi game me 25 Min bache the par meri nazerein maidan me kam
aur darshako ke beech jyada thi ..shayad vo knhi nazar aa jaye par vo
knhi nhi dikhi ..ham ye match jeet to gye par mere man me kuch ajeeb
si kasak thi aisa aksar sabhi logo ko mahsus hota hoga.jab ap kisi ko
chahne lage vo bhi dil se.aur vo apke dil ka hal jante huye bhi apko
ignore kar de ...us waqt jo feeling hoti hai na use shabdo me byan
karna muahqil hota hai ...
Mera mind is samay hyper mod me tha mai vnha se.nikal.kar turant
uske camp ki taraf chal diya ..vnha jakar pta chla ki vo ynha aayi hi nhi
match khatm hone ke baad ...
" vo gyi knha phir " mai man me sochta hua vnha se wapas chla aaya
aur sham hone ka intejar krne lga ..Shikha ne mere behavior ka reason
puccha par maine mna kar diya
Sham hote hi mai uske practise ground ki tarf nikal pda ....mujhe
umeed thi ki vo mujhe vnha milegi par mere armano ki us samay
dhajjiyan ud gyi jab vo vnha mujhe knhi dikhayi nhi di ....mai wapas
uske camp ki tarf aaya ...par vnha bhi uska koi pta nhi chla ...
"kamal hai ..ynha ek ladki subah se gayab aur kisi ko koi fikar hi nhi hai
" itna kahkar maine use pure collage me khoj aaya ..jnha jnhq mujhe
lga har jagah mai gya par mujhe vo knhi nhi mili ...mai thak har kar
wapas apne camp me chla aaya ...aur bina kuch khaye hi so gya
Subah uthte hi mai phir usi ki talash me niklane vala hi tha ki Sikha ne
mujhe rok liya
Shikha:- do din se dekh rhi hun ..na koi bat cheet ,na time par khana ,na
time par sona ..chal kya rha hai aakhir
Sid:- Kuch bhi nhi ...(muskurate huye)
Sikha:- Jyada ban mat pawan ne mujhe sab bta diya hai ...
Sid:-ohh teri ,
Sikha:- Dikhti kaisi hai ...
Sid:-khud hi dekh lena par abhi to vo mujhe hi ghuma rhi hai pahle mai
hi usse mil lun ..
Sikha:- best of luck mere raja
usne mujhe itna bol to diya tha par mai janta tha Ki uske dil me kya
chal rha tha ..Sikha bhi mujhe pasand karti thi par mai nhi ...aur jab
mujhe usne is trh kisi ke liye pagal dekha to mujhe pane ki uski hasarat
bhi khatm ho gyi ....
Maine use puri tarh ignore kiya aur Subhi ki talash me nikal gya ...ab
mai ye to jan gya tha ki vo mujhe janbujhkar ignore kar rhi hai par aisa
kyo han ye sirf vahi bta sakti hai ..maine phir us painting vali ladki se
Subhi ke bare me puccha par usne kha ki usne Subhi kosubh se nhi
dekha ...
ye mujhe bhi pta tha ki ye sare log mujhe bevkoof bna rhe hai.par mai
jyada hungama nhi katna chah rha tha aur na hi ye ki koi bhi ye baat
jane...aakhirkar aj meri kismat ne mera sath de hi diya aur mujhe vo
swimming pool ke kinare baithe huye mil gyi par uske chehre par
gambhirta chhayi huyi thi aur vo ektak pani me lagatar dekhe ja rhi
thi..mai uske karib panhucha...
"ynha kya kar rhi ho " maine uske karib jate huye puccha
Subhi:- tum mera pichha kyo kar rhe ho ..
"sach me tumhe nhi pta ki mai tumhara pichha kyo kar "
Subhi :- isliye pucch rhi hun kyonki mujhe pta hai ...
" to phir han kyo nhi kah deti "
Subhi:- Ajib kism ke pagal ho yaar jab maine kah diya ki mai tumhare
sath koi rishta rakhna nhi chahti ....to han kahne ka sawal hi nhi hota ....
"to phir kal se ignore kyo kar rhi ho ..mera matlab mujhse dur Kyo
bhag rhi ho ..."
Subhi:- meri zindagi hai mai kuch bhi karu ...do din pahle koi life me
achanak aata hai jo mujhe har jagah follow kar rha hai aur kahta hai I
love u...na use mai janti hun aur na hi vo phir bhi pooch rhe ho ki
aakhir kyo ...
"han to kaho ek baar ..jan pahchan bhi ho jayegi "
Subhi:- Ynha se ja rhe ya nhi ...
"jawab to de do "
Subhi :- Meri sandale ka number pta hai ...
"propose kya kar diya tumne to abhi se farmaishe chalu kar di ...."
"Mummy..." usne roni si surat bnate huye kha .,
" ek bat boli Subhi "
usne meri tarf dhyan se dekhte huye kha .."kya"
"mujhe nhi pta ..tum mere bare me kya soch rhi ho ...par mai tumhare
bare me kya sochta hu ye tumhe janna jyada jaruri hai ,...mujhe nhi pta
ye ishq pyar kya hota hai ..inki kya feelings hoti hai par jab maine
tumhe us din dekha na to achanak pta nhi dil me kya hua ajib sa ...aise
emotions the jo mai byan nhi kar sakta ...dubara jab tum mujhe
practise karte huye mili to meri nazrein tum par se hat hi nhi rhi thi
..chahkar bhi nhi hta pa rha tha ...tumhare chehre ki masumiyat bar bar
mujhe tumhari tarf khinch rhi thi ...mujhe tab bhi yakeen nhi hua ki
mujhe tumse pyar wagairah kuch hua hai ....phir ka kal jab mai ground
me tha to meri nazare football par nhi thi sirf aur sirf tumhein dhund
rhi thi ...mujhe phir bhi yakeen nhi hua ki mujhe tumse pyar hua hai
...lekin mai bewajah tumhe kal dhundta rha pure din ..ynha ka chappa
chappa chhan mara tha maine ...aur mai phir so gya aur jaise hi mai aj
utha mujhe sabse pahle khyal agar kisi bhi chij ka aaya to vo sirf tum
thi ....jabse tumhe dekha hai ..jagte ,baithte ,sote har waqt mere dimag
me ghumti rahti hai ...agar ye pyar nhi hai to phir kya hai ...agar ise
mohabbat nhi kahte to phir kise kahte hai ...thik hai mai tumhara
pichha karna chhod dunga....par apne is chehre se kaho mere khyalo
me aana chhod de ....Subhi pta hai tumhe meri zindagi pahle jaisi
normal nhi hai ..isme tum aa chuki hai ...." maine itna kahne ke baad
uska reaction dekhna chaha ..vo bas mujhe ghoor..ghoor kar dekh rhi
thi ....ab meri bari thi use gaccha dene ki aur mai turant vnha se
muskurta hua nikal aaya han par itna khyal rakha ki vo mujhe
muskurata hua na dekh sake varna itne lambe chaude dialouge ki mitti
palit ho jayegi ...mera manna hai ki ladkiyon ki khoobsurti ki tarif kro
par itni bhi nhi ki unke bhav itne bad jye ki ap use kharid hi na sako to
unki khoobsurti ka gana gane ki bajay apni baton me uljhao yani apne
hal-e- dil ko is tarh bayan karo ki uski tareef bhi ho jaye ,aur tumhare
dil ka hal bhi use pta chal jaye ...vaise ap baton ko ghumane me jitna
jyada expert honge ladkiyon ki sankhya apki life me utni hi bdti jayegi ....
Abhi Abhi Maine Subhi ko jo itna lamba gyan dekar aaya tha usse meri
rah aur aasan ho gyi ...pahla to vo mujhe ab seriously legi aur jab
seriously legi to mere bare me sochegi aur phir jab mere sochegi to
automatic uske dil me kuch na kuch halki si hi feeling paida ho gi ..agar
Uske dil me 000000.01% bhi meri tarf jhukav hua to vo asani se meri
tarf aa jayegi aur mujhe Koi bhi problem nhi hogi use apna bnane me
..ab bas uske aage ke reaction ka mujhe besbari se intejar tha
Agle din mai uska match dekhne nhi ja paya kyonki hmare matcho ka
timing ek hi tha ..is bar bhi ham jeet gye aur abki mere Game me bhi
sudhar aaya par mai khud ka best nhi de paya .....
"tujhe pta hai Subhi aj apna match har gyi " Sikha ne pas aate hi
mujhse kha
maine uski tarf dekha aur ankhein band kar li..
Sikha:- Tu aisa kyo dikhane ki koshish kar rha hai ki tujhe fark nhi
pdta...
"sach me mujhe fark nhi pdta "
Sikha ne mujhe ghoor kar dekha aur achank se jor jor se hasne lagi
ab ghoorne ki bari meri thi ..
"kya hua"
Sikha:- Mai soch rhi hun jab tujhe ye pta chalega ki maine use bag pack
karke collage me bahar jate huye dekha hai to ...
"to ..to mere ghode baj jayenge"
" Kitni der ho gyi " maine Sikha se puccha
"ab tak to vo city se bahar hogi "
"to tu ab mujhe bta rhi ha "maine chillate huye kha ..
"Ishq me itna bhi mat bhool galib ki ham bhi ynh hajir hai "pandey andr
aata hua bola ...
"chup raho dono ke dono" maine apna sar pakdte huye kha
"ab knha dhoodunga use"
"uske collage ka adress pta hai mujhe aur ghar ka bhi " Sikha khade
hote huye boli ..
" kab ,kaise " mera munh khula ka khula rah gya ..
"is khule huye muh me pizza thuns " pandey ne mere munh me pizza
ka ek piece thunste huye kha
main itna jyada khush hua ki maine sikha ko gale lga liya aur jaldi se hi
usse adress dene ko kha.
"par meri ek shart hai "usne mujhse dur jate huye kha ..
"mujhe championship chahiye "
"kya "maine pizza ko andar krte huye kha
"mujhe pta hai ki ye tumhare bina nhi ho sakta kyonki tum ek best
player ho ..aur jab tum aisa kar doge to mai tumhe adress bhi bta
dungi"
Main vnha se chupchap bhar nikal aaya ..
"pagal ho gyi hai ye ladki "
Mai sham ko practise ke liye Nikla par mera man usme bhi nhi lag rha
tha ...
Hamne kisi tarh se championship par kabja jamaya vaise kha jaye to
isme.mera yogdan nammatr hi tha agar final match ke antim lamho me
kiya gya goal chhod diya jaye....
Sikha se maine uske ghar ka adress liya ...mai sidha uske ghar ki tarf
gya kyonki mujhe us painting vali ladki ne btaya tha ki vo collage me
nhi balki ghar gyi hai....
Subah ke time mai uske saher me panhucha vaise ye sahar nhi ek
kasba tha ....chupchap maine uske ghar ka adress pta kiya aur jaise hi
mai uske ghar ke samne panhuch mera to kaleja.muh ko.aa gya jab
maine uske ghar ko dekha ise ghar kahna galat hoga ye to ek haweli si
lag rhi thi ...
"Hay Ri meri Kismat "pair ptkte huye mai wapas station aa gya kyonki
mujhe pta tha ki haweli se to vo bahar kam hi nikalti hogi ...jnha tak
mera andaza tha ...par mai wapas ja bhi nhi sakta tha kyonki train
sham ke waqt thi ...to maine sham tak ke liye vnhi ek laudge me rukne
ka intejam kiya aur wapas uski Haweli ke darwaze ke bahar khda tha ....
Is bar.meri kismat achhi thi vo mujhe bahar dikhi par vo turant car me
baith gyi aur Knhi bahar ki tarf nikal gyi uske sath kai log the jaise vo
knhi ja rhi ho ..maine vnha khade chaukidar se puccha to usne kha ki
shayd shopping gye hai ...mere kahne par usne mujhe vnha ka pta bta
diya jnha vo jane vale the ...mai jaldi se vnha pnhucha ...to ye ek lamba
sa complex tha ..,
Jab maine uski tarf dekha to mera dil joro se dhadkne lga ...uski
ankhon me jo nasha tha usne mere dimag ko madhosh kar diya aur
mai bas use ektak dekhta hi rha ...salwar suit me to vo kisi ko bhi
ghayal kar sakti hai ...usne kuch kapde uthaye aur trial room ki tarf jane
lagi ...idhar meri liye ek golden chance tha usse.milne ka ....mai bina
kisi nazrein me aaye huye teji se trial room ki tarf chalne lga maine ek
do kapde yun hi utha liya ...jaise jaise mai uske nazdeek jane lga mere
chehre par pasine ki bunde saaf nazar aane lagi .,par pta nhi himmat
knha se aa gyi thi.mujhme .,maine idhar udhar dekha ki hame koi dekh
to nhi rha jaise hi ye confirm hua maine teji se uske karib se nikla aur
trial room ka darwaz khola aur usko khinch liya ,....achanak se huye is
tarh attack se uski jan nikalne vali thi vo shayad chikhna chahti thi par
maine turant uska muh band kar diya .,
uski ankhein band di dar ki wajah se aur mujhse chipaki khadi thi
...subhi meri bahon me thi ..uske vo gulabi Honth mere hothon se
jyada dur nhi thi ...sach me kahu to mere sharir me current sa daud
gya ...jab usne haule haule se apni ankhein kholi aur jaise hi usne
ankhein kholi mujhe dekhkar vo aise chaunki jaise koi bhoot dekh liya
.,vo mujhse chhutne ki nakam koshish karne lagi...jab vo thak gyi to ek
nazar meri tarf dekha aur kasam se jab usne dekha to mai dekhta rha
...
"agar na chillane ka wada karo to hath hta dunga " maine uski.ankho
me dekhkar kha ...
Subhi Ne apna sar han me hilaya...jaise hi.maine apna hath htaya
Subhi:- Tum ynha kya kar rhe ho ..ynha kaise ..tumhe mera adress
kisne diya .,kisi ne dekh liya to bewajah hath pair toot jayenge.,,
"shant ho ja balike ..shant ho ja thoda sans bhi le lo ...tum sach me
bewkoof ho "
"kyo"
"mai ynha tumhare liye aaya hun "
subhi kuch der yun hi mujhe dekhti rahi .,aur phir bolti hai..
"mere bare me kuch nhi.jante ho tum ...agar jante to ynh nhi aate
...agar tumhare sath ynha mujhe kisi ne dekh liya to tumhare sath mai
bhi.marungi ,,,,,"
"koi bat nhi pyar karne wale sath me hi jite marte hai "
" very funny " itna kahkar usne meri bahon se khud ko azad kraya ..aur
bhar jane lagi ki tabhi maine use picche se.pakda aur apni tarf khinch
liya aur usko.maine room ki diwaro se sta kar khda ho gya,....
"to kya socha mere bare me ".maine uske.karib jate huye.puccha
Subhi :- "tumhe mera jawab vanhi mil gya tha "
"vo mere matlab ka nhi tha "
Subhi :- tum ynha kya karne aaye ho ..
"jitni bar pucchogi utni bar mera jawab sirf itna hi rahega ..sirf tumhare
liye aaya hun"
Itna kahkar mai uske honthon ki trf bdne lga ...subhi ki dhadkne tej
chalne lagi ....mai uske honthon ke karib tha jab maine usse apne sawl
ka jawab manga ...
Subhi :- tum jitni bar pucchoge ...mai utni bar yhi jawab dungi ..hmare
beech.kuch nhi ho sakta
"to jab tak han nhi kahogi mai tumhara piccha karta rahunga "
Subhi :- Bat ko samjho aur ynha se chale jao ...mai kisi se pyar nhi kar
sakti ...
"par mai to tumse karta hu na pyar "
Subhi :- To krte raho ....usne itna kahkar mujhe ek dhakka mara aur trial
room ke bahar nikal aayi ....mai bhi bahar nikla aur bas use vnha se
jate huye dekhta rha vo jake apne ghar valo.ke sath shamil ho gyi ...
"aakhir kab tak mujhe yun tadpdaogi janeman ..."
vo bar bar tirchi nazaron se mujhe dekh rhi thi...jaise hi uski nazare
mujhse.milti vo palke jhuka ke khud ko dusri tarf dekhne lagti ...
"aisa mat kar yar ...jan chali gyi " mai khud se hi bat kar rha tha
...shopping karke vo bhi ghar chali gyi aur mai hotel chla aaya ...
rat ko koi 10 Baj rhe the ...mai chupchap us haweli ke andar dakhil hua
Ab mai andar ghus to gya par mere liye sabse bdi problem thi ki uska
kamra knha hai ...vaise mujhe pta nhi tha ki mere andr itni daring knha
se aa gyi thi ...vaise mai agr ynha pkda gya to mujhe jail ki hwa to pakki
khani pdegi isliye mai kadam bdata hua ek khidki ke niche panhuch
gya...vaise jo abhi mai karne vala tha vo maine bahut sari movies me
dekha tha .,aur vo tha pipe ke sahare upar chadna ...achanak mere
dimag me ek idea aaya aakhir mai ye sab kar kyo rha mai to use kabhi
bhi mil sakta hu matlab subah bhi mil sakta hun .,ek man to kah rha
tha ki wapas laut jao par kahte hai na admi kabhi acchi chijo ke bare
me dhyan nhi deta hai ...mai pipe ke sahare upar us khidaki par
panhucha aur vnha se andar kood gya ...andar thoda andhera tha jise
dekhkar mai bhut khush hua ...subhi ka room upar hona chahiye...aisa
mera dil kah rha tha kyonki movies me aksar unke liye upar hi room
hote hai...mai dhire dhire har kamre ki khidaki se jhankne lga ....
Aur mera andaza sahi nikla kyonki khidaki se us khoobsurat hasina ka
chehra meri nazaro ke samne jo tha ...maine idhar udhar nazar daudayi
to mujhe koi nazar nhi aaya ....ab ynha tak to.panhuch gye the ab
sochne vali bat ye thi ki andar kaise jaya jaye .....main uske darwaze ke
pas panhucha aur uspar jordar apne hath se ek thappi lgayi ...mujhe
dar bhi lag rha tha ki iski jagah koi aur na uth jaye isliye mai vnhi ek
khambe ki aad me chhip gya ..par jab phir se koi halchal nhi huyi to ek
bar maine phir vahi kam kiya aur is bar bhi koi halchal nhi ...maine aisa
kai bar kiya par koi halchul nhi...na hi Subhi ki tarf se aur na hi pure
ghar me
"sab ke sab deshi tharra markar sote hai kya ..." Mai phir se khidaki ke
pas panhucha aur uski tarf niharne lga ...kitni shanti thi uske chehre
par ...kitna masoom chehra tha uska ..
"bahut jald hi uske shant chehre par mai ashanti failane wala hu...he he
ha ha ha" itna sochkar main phir andhere me Kuch dhoodne lga ...tabhi
mere chehre par chamak aa gyi jab maine ek patle dande ko vnha pde
dekha maine dbe panv use uthya aur khidaki ke pas jakar khda ho gya
....maine us patli si dandi ko khidaki ke andar dala Aur uske bistar ke
nazdeek le.jane lga ....par meri umeedo ko jhtka tab lga jab vo uske
bistar se ek hath doori par hi rook gyi ...uski panhuch yahi tak thi
...maine kai bar try kiya par vo uthne ka nam hi nhi le rhi thi .....maine
us dandi ko bahar nikala aur vanhi sar par hath rakhkar chupchap baith
gya ....mujhe rulayi aa rhi thi ...mai phir se khda hua aur andar jhakne
lga ...uske chehre ki us massomiyat ke na jane kitne diwane honge
...uske chehre ki khoobsurati ko dekhkar to pathhar dil khud-b-khud
dhadkane par majboor ho jaye ...phir mera dil to sona tha ,...uske
chehre par khidaki se aa rhi roshni use aur khoobsurat bna rhi thi
.....aur tabhi mere dimag ki batti jali ...aur maine ek nazar us roshni.ki
tarf dali jnha se vo aa rhi thi ...mera chehra khil utha ....
"Mai tere pas aa rha hu meri bulbul " mai itna khush hua ki mai vanhi
nachne lga ..par jaldi hi pta chal gya ki mai knha hun....
"kitne bde bewkoof hai is ghar ke log ...ghar ke andar vali khidaki par
jali aur bahar vali par kuch bhi nhi lagya ..chalo accha hi hai varna mai
aj andar kaise jata ...."Mai khud me magan corridor se hote huye use
khidaki ke pas ja rha tha jnha se mai abhi upar aaya tha ki tabhi mere
samne ek kamre ka darwaza khula aur koi bahar nikla ...vo theek mere
samne tha ...jo koi bhi tha ...vo theek mere samne khda tha ...
Mai uski nazaro se bach nhi ska ...kyonki uski awaz mujhe sunayi di ..
"Kaun"
Main uski bat ko ansuna karke aage chlta raha ...
"are bhai mai tumhi se pucch rha hu ..kaun ho tum" usski awaz phir
sunayi di ...uski awaz se saaf pta chal rha tha ki vo neend me hai
....mujhe bachne ka bas ek hi tarika nazar aaya aur use sochkar mai
man hi man hasne lga...
"Mai ...Mai bhoot hun ...kabhi dekha hai ...nhi .na aj dekh lo " itna kahkar
maine apni putliyo ko upar chda liya aur is tarh chalne lga jaise zombie
chalte hai ...vo kuch der tak mujhe yun hi ghurte rhe ..mai jaise jaise
unke nazdeek panhuch rha tha ...mujhe unki sanson se pta chal rha tha
ki vo dar rhe hai ...mai jaise hi unhe cross hua ek ghuma ke thappad
unke gaal par jma diya ...
"Mummy ..." vo aadmi itna zor se chikha ki uski awaz sunke lagbhag
ghar ka har koi shaksh bahar nikal aaya ..aur vo aadmi chupchap
thappad khakar vnhi baith gya .tha shayad dar ki wajah se ..
"Sala budape me bhi mummy ko bulata hun ...iske chakkar me knhi
pakda na jaun" maine itna socha aur chupchap vnha se khidaki par
panhucha ...aur vnha se pipe ka sahara liya ..niche aaya ..aur niche se
phir kisi tarh Subhi ke room ki khidaki par panhucha aur andar ludak
gya ...uski khidaki par koi pipe nhi tha ...bas uske ghar ki desigin Aisi
thi kisi tarh diwalo par grip bnakar upar chad paya tha ...is chakkar me
mere hath chhil gye the jo jal rha tha is samay...
Mai jaise hi khidki se andar kooda ...mujhe vnha koi nazar nhi aa rha
tha ..kamre ki light jal rhi thi ...darwaza khula hua tha ...shayad us
aadmi ke chillane ki wajah se vo bhi bahar chali gyi thi ...mai vnhi
khidaki ke kinare hi baith gya ..vaise mai baitha is tarh tha ki mujhe
bahar se koi bhi nhi dekh sakta tha.,kuch der bad mujhe aisa lga ki koi
andr aa rha hai maine uthkar dekha matlab chhupkar dekha to vo Subhi
hi thi jo Darwaza band kar rhi thi ...maine rahat ki sans li aur ankhein
band kar li...
"Tummmmm...aurrr ynhhaaa.," Achanak Subhi ki awaz mere kano me
pdi ...isse pahle ki vo kuch aur kahti ...maine uska muh phir se band
kar diya ...aur use vanhi diwal ke sahare khda kar diya ...vo phir se
mera hath htane lagi ...jaise jaise vo shant hone lagi vaise hi maine
Uska munh khol diya aur jaise hi muh khola uska muh chalne lga .
Subhi :- ek number ke pagal ho ,khidaki khuli hai ..koi dekh lega to mai
mari jaungi ...
itna kahkar vo bhgti huyi gyi aur khidaki band ki..par uska muh band
nhi hua ...
Subhi :- Tum ynha kya kar rhe ho ..pagal ho kya ..koi agar tumhe ynha
dekh lega tumhare sath mai bhi mari jaungi ...
" aisa kya "
vo bas mujhe ghoore hi ja rhi thi ...
" pyas lagi hai pani milega "
Subhi:- zahar pi lo
usne mujhe ghoor kar dekha aur ek glass pani mujhe pakda diya ...
"itne me kya hoga ..thoda aur do aake na "
Subhi :- Agr kisi ne dekh liya na to tumhari lash bhi nhi milegi ...
" Darling abhi dekha to ek ne .." maine hanste huye kha ...
Subhi :- Tumne mere mama ko chata mara ...
" varna mai pakda jata "
Subhi :- abhi aur isi waqt jao ynha se ...
" sab jag rhe hai ..pakda jaunga darling..samjha karo "
Subhi mujhe kuch der yun hi
dekhati rahi aur kuch der bad boli .,
"ye chot kaise lagi "
"ise chot kahte hai "
Subhi :- jyada oversmart na bano jitna puccha hai utna btao....
" khidaki par chadte waqt ...ek pipe nhi lgwa sakti apni khidki ke pas
..taki aane jane me asani ho .."
itna sunkar vo phli bar hansi thi ...mera dimag ab bhi nhi man rha tha ki
vo hansi thi ...par usne darwaza khola aur bhar chali gayi...jab vo kuch
der bad laut kar aayi to uske hath me ek dibba tha ,....
"ye kya layi ho"
Subhi:- First aid box hai...
"iski kya jaroorat hai ..sahi ho jayega "
Subhi :- Apna muh band rakho ..itna bura chhila hua hai ...aur aise hi
sahi ho jayega ...jaruri tha aise chadna ...kal mil lete ..jab subah mandir
jati to ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,
usne ruyi me dettol lgaya aur chille huye hisse ko pocchne lagi ,..
"oouchhhhh"
Subhi:- Dard ho rha hai..
"nhi jalan"
Subhi:- to kisne kha tha pipe chado ...
"tumne .."
usne iske bad na koi sawal puccha aur na maine vo bas mere hatho
par dettol ragde ja rhi thi aur mai uske chehre ...ko jo is samay halka
meri trf jhuka hua tha ...jis karan uske balon ki ek lat bar bar uske
galon par aa ja rhi thi jise vo bar bar hta rhi thi .....par vo bar bar uske
galo ko chum leti thi ...
maine jab aise dekha to muskurate huye uski lato apne hathon se uske
kano ke pichhe le jake rakh diya ...usne mujhe ek bar nazar utha kar
dekha aur phir apna kam karne lagi ...mai bas use hi dekh rha tha ...is
lamhe ko apne dimag me kaid karna chah rha tha ...ek aisa pal tha
...jise na mai bhool sakta tha aur na vo ...mujhe itna andaza jarur ho
gya tha ki bhale hi vo bahar se kaisi bhi react kar rhi ho par mujhe ynha
dekhkar uske chehre par chamak aa gyi thi ..,
Subhi:- Tum bahar kaise jaoge ...
"bahar jane ki jaroorat kya hai Jab samne mahboob ho aur tanhai ka
alam.."
Subhi :-tumhare us thappad ki wajah se sab jag rhe hai ....aur mujhe
nhi lagta ab mamaji kisi ko sone denge ...sab hoshiyar ho gye hai...
"acchi bat hai .,aj ki raat meri mohabbat ke nam" itna kahte huye maine
use bistar par khinch liya ...vo theek mere upar aakar giri ...uska pura
sharir mere upar tha ...mere is tarh se khichne se uske galo ko ek bar
phir us lay ne chhu liya ...maine haule haule uske balo ko galo se htakar
uske kano ke picche kiya ....
"kitna pyara chehra hai tumhara ...dil kar rha hai bas isi me doob jaun"
Subhi :- Agar ynha se abhi nhi gaye to sach me bath tub me dooba ke
mar dungi ...
par na hi usne vnha se uthne ki koshish ki aur na hi kuch bas vo meri
ankhon me dekhe ja rhi thi...tabhi maine karwat le li ..
aur ab vo niche mai upar ...
"is tarh meri ankhon me ankhein dalkar mat dekho "
Subhi:- Kyo ...pyar ho jayega .,
"pyar ho chuka hai tumhe "
Subhi :- mai nhi manti ...
itna kahte huye usne dhkka mara aur phir haste huye boli ..
Subhi :- apne jane ka program bnao ..warna subah ho jayegi ...
"par meri bhi ek shart hai .,"
Subhi:- kya ..
"kal subah mandir par "
Subhi :- sab log sath me rahenge ...mai sochungi ,
"mai bhi jane ki sochta hun .."itna kahkar mai bhi bistar par ludak gya .,
Subhi:- Ok done ..par jaoge kaise....
"ab dekho apun ka kamal " itna kahkar maine uske table.lamp ke tar ko
kaichi se kat diya ...
Subhi:- par karne kya wale ho..
"batti gul " itna kahkar maine dono taro ko aaps mila diya aur jhhay se
pure ghar ki light gayab ,.
"kaisa rha mera kamal " maine turant hi Subhi ke karib panhucha aur
use apne karib khinch liya
Subhi :- Ye kya kar rhe ho..
"sach btaun"
"hmmm"
"tumhe kiss"
"No"
"yesss" itna bolkar maine apne honth sidha uske honthon par rakh diya
.,vo to ekdum shocked ho gyi .,.maine turant hi use chhod bhi diya ,
"kal subah mandir me milta hun'' itna kahte huye maine ek gal par
bhi.kiss kar liya aur Khidki se bahar latka diwal ke sahare niche utra
aur vnha se bhagte huye diwal kood kar haweli se bahar ...ab jake
mujhe chain ki sans mili ...
"Hay re ye ashiqi ..kisi din ye jan na le le "
Mai chupchap hotel me aake so gya.,
Agle din subah mai mandir apne time par panhuch gya ....par abhi bhi
use aane me time tha kyonki mai exictment me bahut jaldi aa gya tha
...........Subah ke 8 baj rhe honge jab vo mandir me aayi ....kahte hai na
apne mahboob ki har ada par dil fida ho jata hai ...dil ki dhadkne bar
bar daudte daudte ruk si jati thi ...jaise hi maine usko dekha mere
chehre ki muskan mera hal byan kar rhi thi ....uske chehre par halki si
muakan ..mere dil ke arman ko bda rhi thi ....uske vo hwa me
lahrate.huyi julfe mere dil ki bechainiya bda rhi thi ....
Ye upar vala bhi bda berham hai ...us haseen nazare ko jald hi ankho
se ojhal kar diya .,mai hadbda kar wapas is duniya me aaya ...to dekha
vo andar pooja karne ke liye ja chuki hai ....mai bhi bhagta huya andar
aa gya kyonki mai aa to jaldi gya tha par bahar mandir ki seediyon par
baith kar uska intejar kar rha tha...
mai jab phir se uske samne panhucha to dekha vo Hath jodkar
bhagwan ke samne khadi hai ....uski ankhen band thi ...is samay uske
chehre par jo shanti thi...uske chehre par jo sadgi thi vo mujhe sukoon
de rhi thi ...shayad yahi to pyar hota hai ...pyar ka asar hota hai ...uski
har ek bat dil ko acchi lagne lagti hai ....
”Hame knha malum tha ki...
Ishq hota kya hai...
Ek tum mile aur Zindagi..
mohabbat ban gyi...
..pooja khatm hone ke baad jab vo palti ..tab uski nazar meri nazaro se
..mili ..ye pahli dfa tha jab usne apni ankhon se isshara kiya ...
"ab kya "
Maine to pahle hi jagah dekh li thi jnha mujhe usse milna tha ...use
ankhon hi ankhon me ishara kiya aur apne picche aane ko kha ....
usne kuch bahana bnaya aur mere picche aane lagi ...mandir ke
picchle hisse ki aur ek sankra rasta tha jnha se hote huye ham ek aisi
jagah the ..jnha charo tarf ped hi ped the ....mere panhuchne ke kuch
min me hi vo bhi aa chuki thi ...
"kyo milna tha janab ko "usne jis andaz se puccha tha ..sala dil me ek
saanp sa lot gya ...maine use apni tarf khinch liya vo sidha meri bahon
me thi aur mai ek ped ke share ...
usne mujhse chhotne ki koshish bilkul nhi ki ...
"irade to thik hai aapke "
"vaise is sunsan jagah par irade nek kaise ho sakte hai " maine uske
honthon ke aur karib jate huye kha ...
Subhi:- Itne karib mat aao varna baad me pacchtaoge .,..
"agar kisi ko ek bar mohabbat ho jaye to use zindagi bhar pacchtana
pdta hai "
Subhi :- jaan se bhi ja sakte ho ..
"Vo ishq hi kya jo sala salamat rakhe "
Subhi :- Beech me saath chhod diya .,
"Meri kashti kabhi beech manjhdar me nhi fansti ya to is paar ya us
paar "
Subhi :- knha tak sath tak le chaloge ...
"bahut dur tak .."
Hmare honthon ke beech sirf kuch inches ka fasla tha ham sirf ek
dusre se itni dhimi awaz me baat kar rhe the ki.ped ke is tarf khda
insan bhi use nhi sun sakta ...
"To mai han samjhun "
Subhi :- Picchle do min se aapki bahon me hun ..ab bhi ikrar ki jarurat
hai ...
"Tumne to aankhon se hi apna hal-e-dil byan kar diya tha bas ..jo
sukoon alfaj dete hai na mohabbat ki..." maine apni baat ko pura kah
bhi nhi paaya ki uske honth mere honth se ja takrye ......
yahi to tha ..mohabbat ki us raah me hmara pahla kadam ...uske
honthon ki garmahat ne mere sharir ke sabhi taron ko jhanjhna diya
...meri pakad bahon me aur maujood ho gyi ...uske honthon ko vo
geelapan ..uske un rashilo hontho ki vo mithas ...mere dil me aag lgane
ke liye kafi tha ...
Subhi :- Ab bhi inkar ki gunjaish lag rhi hai ..
usne mere honthon ko chhodte huye kha
mai bas uski ankhone me hi dekhta rha ...kal tak jin ankhone me mere
liye pyar ka namonishan nhi tha aj unhi ankhon me mere liye mohabbat
ka sagar bhra pda hai ...
Subhi:- Itne chaunk kyo gye hai ...achanak aake aapne koi mashal nhi
jalayi mere dil me...ye pahli nazar ka pyar tha ...ya nhi bas mujhe yahi
janna tha ...is tarh mere aage piche..college me ghumne se mai nhi
man pa rhi thi ...ki apko bhi mujhse pyar hai ...agar ap kisi ko dil se
chahe aur vahi aapke picche lattu ho jaye to thoda yakeen karna
mushkil ho jata hai...
"ye last ki.line.ka matlab kya hai " maine hairan hote huye puccha
Mere is sawal par vo muskura gyi ..
Subhi :- dil to aap par last year hi aa gya tha ..jab aap final hare the ...
"matlab"
Subhi :- matlab ki apse pahle mai apko pasand karti thi ....jab maine last
year aapko isi festival me dekha tha tab .,
"tab itne nakhre kyo dikha rhi thi " maine subhi ko.apni or khinchte
huye kha
Subhi :- nakhre to ladki ka gahna hota hai ..par mujhe bhi janna tha ki
ye sirf attraction hai ya sach me pyar ...
"aur agar mai ynha nhi aata to"
Subhi :- vaise maine ye nhi socha tha ki ynha aaoge..
"to kya socha "
Subhi:- Collage me mere picche aaoge ..bas
"aur nhi aata to"
Subhi :-abhi jo ye kiss mili hai vo phir nhi milti ....
itna kahkar vo khilkhilakar hans pdi ....
mai bas uske hanste huye chehre me kho sa gya ...jise mai apna bnana
chah rha tha vo to meri kab se hai par mai jaan abhi paya hun ...
"knha kho gye janab ..kabse ham wait kar rhe hai aapka ..aur itna
muskura kyo rhe hai"
"Abhi jo ye kiss mili hai ...phir vo nhi milati ..bas vo line yaad aa gyi ..."
Itna kahkar mai subhi ki tarf dekhkar muskura diya.
Subhi ne dekha par boli kuch nhi ...pta nhi kya hua hai ...agar pahle vali
subhi hoti hai to kam se kam hans kar itna to bolti .
.
"Aur ek kiss du kya " par ab vo subhi nhi thi jise mai janta tha ..jo mast
maula thi...jise kisi ki fikar nhi thi ...bas Apni dhun me khoyi ...par aj bhi
use kisi se koi matlab nhi hai bus Uski hansi khi gayab ho gyi thi...
"ye kis kiss ki bat kar rha hai " Prem ne Subhi ki tarf dekhkar puccha
Subhi :- hme ab niklna chahiye...
vo bina koi jawab diye aage bd gyi
"bdi teekhi hai " maine hanste huye Prem se kha
Prem :- pta hai
"kabhi test kiya hai kya jo pta hai " maine hanste huye kha
Prem:- Kitne badtameej ho ..pta nhi kaise Isne tumhe pasand kar liya...
"kabhi hmare sath sham guzariye pta chal jayega btw I m Siddhant ..."
maine apna hath aage bdate huye kha
"Disgusting ...I m not a gay jo tumhare sath Raat guzarun "itna Kahkar
Prem aage bd gya
" ab sala sharab pine ke liye yahi to pucchunga ki kabhi hmare sath
sham guzariye ab isme disgusting aur gay vali kya bat thi ...apne
ko kya chutiya ..chutiya hi rahta hai " itna kahkar mai khud hi
hans liya
Prem:- Drive mai krta hun...
" aage mai baithunga " Maine aage ka darwaza kholte huye kha..
Subhi :- Aap picche baithiye varna Prem ka dimag khayenge aap ...
"Iske pas dimag hai jo mai khaunga " ye baat maine uske kan me kha
tha ...Subhi ne itna sunte hi ghoor kar dekha
Prem:- Kya kha isne Subhi ,
"aapki tareef ki thi janab " maine aage ka darwaza Subhi ke liye phir se
kholte huye kha aur mai picche aage baith gya ...
Prem :- Tumhara chehra dekh kar to nhi lagta ... ..
"Shakl se mai gay bhi nhi lagta " maine picche baithte huye kha
Subhi :- Prem tum Drive karo ye to aise hi pagal bnate rahenge
itna sunte hi acche bacche ki tarh vo Car Drive karne lga ...
Prem :- To Subhi kya socha hai tumne aage ka ...
"tu drive kar na Aage dekh kar ..." Maine gusse se dekhte huye kha
Prem :- Kar to rha hu..ab mai bat bhi na karun isse....
"ek sath do kam krega to uske bigadne ke chances jyada rhte hai ...aur
han ek mast dhaba dekhkar vnha rok dena ..mujhe bhook lagi hai "
Prem :- Kitna khayega ...abhi vnha khaya nhi tha..
"Nhi"
Subhi :- mile to rok dena Prem ...
kuch der bad phir usne ek dhabe par car khdi ki vo accha khasa dhaba
tha ...
Ham sabhi vnhi utre aur khane ka order diya ..Subhi washroom ka
kahkar chali gyi .,
Prem :- Kitna khata hai yarr tu"
"Mera pet pizza ,burger me nhi bharta teri tarh ..mujhe khana chahiye
vo bhi thaali ..."
Prem :- vo to fitness dikh rhi hai .,
"tere se to smart hi hun"
Prem :- kya galatfahami.pali hai.tumne ...well I don't care aur abse
Subhi se door hi rhna ..
"Hello ye dialouge mera hona chahiye ..."
Prem :- tujhe ab bhi yahi lag rha hai ...
"tujhe kyo lag rha hai ...sun meri baat dhyan se ...agar tu mere aur
subhi ke beech me aaya ..nhi..nhi aane ki koshish bhi ki to ye jo teri
chuje jaisi shakl hai na uska bharta bna dunga ...kaise rhega chuje ka
bharta ..." maine pani pite huye kha ..
Prem :- tu jyada nhi bol rha ..Subhi meri hai bachpan se meri hai ...kisi
aur ka us par haq nhi hai ..aur tu mera chuje ka.bharta bnayega to mai
tera keema bna dalunga "
"abe thulle ...Jawani me to mere pas hi hai na to chhod na bachpan ki
yadein aur meri bat gaur se sun .."
Prem :- Bol
"Dekho Prem jis condition me ham hai vnha se ye mayne nhi rakhta ki
tum ab uske bare me kya sochte ho ..mayne ye rakhta hai ki ab Subhi
kya sochti hai ..pahle mai nhi tha lekin ab mai hun uske dil aur dimag
me ..mujhe pta hai vo mujhse pyar karti hai ...manta hun maine kuch
galtiyan ki hai ..aur uski sja mai bhugat rha hun ...ek aakhiri koshish kar
rha hu main ...use apna bnane ke liye..to please beech me koi kand
mat karna samjhe .,"
Prem :- Tujhe kya lgta hai teri in bato ka mujh par koi asar pdega ...
"ek baat to jan gya ..chutiye kabhi apna chutiyapa band nhi kar sakte"
itna kahkar mai vnha se hath muh dhone nikal liya...
Prem :- kya bola tune mai chutiya hun ...badtameej knhi ke..
" maine kab bola ..tujhe hi bnne ka shauk hai to mai mua karu..."
Mai vnha se bahar nikal aaya aur car ke pas aa gya kyonki itna khna
khane ke baad mujhe neend aane lagti hai ..aur Prem vnhi Subhi..ka
wait krne lga ..lekin aj kismat shayad acchi thi meri Subhi andar na
hokar bahar thi par ye aayi kab ..mujhe kya matlab mai ye sochkar uske
pas aa gya,.
"tum ynha ho aur vo dhakkan tumhara andar wait kar rha "
Subhi :-to bulao use hame niklna hai ..
"Rahne do use kuch der alag ....hmari privacy to khatm nhi hogi "
Subhi :- kaisi privacy ...
usne chaunkte huye kha .,usne bas itna hi kha tha ki maine uski kamar
me hath dala aur apni tarf khinch liya ...
Subhi :- Pagal ho kya ..kya kar rhe ho ye highway hai ghar nhi hmara ...
"hmara ghar hai hi knha ...use to.tod diya na hamne milkar ..."
Subhi ki sansein bhari hone lagi thi ...uske dono honthon ki pankhudiya
apne ap phadphda rhe the ....uski ankhon me ek alag sa hi nasha tha
...alag sa hi jadu tha jo maine kabhi mahsus nhi kya tha ...
"tumhe meri jarurat hai subhi "
usne meri bat ka koi jawab nhi diya bas yun hi meri ankhon me dekhti
rahi .,uski sanson ki gahrai bdti hi ja rhi thi ...aakhir thi to vo ek ladki hi na
...
maine use car ke sahare khda kiya aur uske honthon ki aur apne honth
le jane lga ...ek halka sa sparsh uske honthon se hua Aur ek aisa
current lga ki.pure sharir ki nashein daudne lgi .,usne na hi koi virodh
kiya na hi mujhe picche dhakela.. uske hath mere sine par the jise
usne peeth par rakh liya ...iishara saaf tha ..aur maine bina deri kiye
uske honthon ko apne honthon ke beech dba diya ...,aur unhe chumne
lga ...full response to nhi tha par tha jarur
"Guys plz ..it's public place ..not your home " ek awaz mere kano me pdi
...
"Aa gya chutiya Rang me bhang dalne .." maine car me laat marte huye
kha ...maine gusse me uski tarf dekha to vo halka sa muskura rha tha
" tu bhootni ke chutiya hai chutiya hi rahega " ye shabd maine silent
mod me kahe the ..jisse subhi ko to kuch pta nhi chla par vo shayad
samjh gya tabhi uska muskurta hua chehra gussse me badal gya ...
"Bastard " itna bolkar vo car me baith gya ...ab Prem ko ek sadma aur
lga jab vo uske sath aage baithne ki jagah mere sath picche aa gyi ....
"Prem ab tu pakka driver lag rha hai...picche kuch dekhna mat " maine
us par tanj.kaste.huye kha ..
Subhi :- plz apna muh band rakhenge aur Driver sahab gadi aage
bdayenge " itna bolkar Subhi bhi hsne lgi .,.
"yeh pahli dfa tha jab maine.use muakurate huye dekha..
Prem:- Kya yar subhi Tum bhi ..
"teri mauj lene ka haq sabko hai .."
Prem:- Subhi isse kaho ki shant ho jaye nhi to...
"nhi to waps vnha chla jayega kya jnha se Aaya hai "
Subhi :- accha ab aage bdao gadi ...
mai kuch bolne hi vala tha ki tabhi Subhi ne ghoor kar chup rahne ka
ishara kiya..
Subhi Mere sath hi picche baithi huyi thi ....mujhe to bas shararat hi
sujhati hai jab bhi Subhi ko apne karib pata hun... Maine dhire dhire
apna hath uske sar ke picche se le jakar uske left kandhe par rakh diya
...vaise mai ye krne nhi chahta tha par uske itne karib hone pr mai
control bhi nhi kar pa rha tha...is mera hath uske kandhe par tha jo
dhire dhire niche ki or sarak rha tha ....sansein meri to bad hi rhi thi aur
sath me uski dhadkano ki Raftar,..par achanak Subhi ne mera hath
pakad liya ...aur ghoorkar dekhne lagi ..
"Hath chhodo na "
Subhi ne phir se ankhein nikalkar mujhe ghura ..
"ok " maine itna kahkar wapas hath khinch liya ...
Kuch der shanti me baithne ke baad phir mera dimag ghuma .,
maine Subhi ki tarf dekha ...par usko dekhkar hi maine apne agli
shararat ko cancel kar diya kyonki vo khidaki se bahar dekh rhi thi
..uske chehre par bar bar uski julfein aa rhi thi ...hwa ka jhonka hi
shayad vo wajah tha jo abhi uske chehre par masoomiyat ka chadar
oda gya ..maine use disturb nhi kiya ..maine apni position badli aur
apna sir uski godi me rakha aur chupchap aankhen band kar ke let gya
...
Mujhe is trh dekhkar to vo ekdum chaunki Par kha kuch nhi ..Prem ne
bhi mujhe is trh dekha par bola vo bhi kuch nhi ...
"Ghar aa gya ..utho" Mujhe hilate huye subhi boli
"Itni jaldi "
Subhi :- ghanto se so rhe the ..
Mai jab car se niche utra to dekha Sabhi log darwaze par aa chuke the
aur Prem ki Aarti utar rhe the ..ye kam kar rhi thi meri pyari subhi.ki bua
ji ..meri to dushman thi ..
"Nazar na lag jaye kisi manhoos ki " ye shabd usne mujhe hi dekh kar
khe the ..
"Are Bua ji ek kala tika aur iske galo par lga dijiye Kyonki jab
manhusiyat ka saya iske upar aayega.na to shayad ye kala tika bhi ise
bacha le "itna kakar mai muskura diya
Sabhi log mujhe ghure ja rhe the aur mai bua ka intejar kar rha tha ...
"chup kar ..bda aaya bhasan dene vala ..chal beta Prem thak gya hoga
..itni dur se aaya hai ..."Bua ne Prem ko andar hall me bulaya ...uska
saman uske kamare me panhuch chuka tha Mai bhi Apne kamre me
jakar bistar par ludak gya ..aur phir mai gahari neend ke aagosh me
chla gya ...Jab Meri ankh khuli to Raat ke 9 baj rhe the ....Mai utha aur
angdai lete huye bistar par baith gya ....
Maine dekha Subham ke kai Miss call pde the ....
Maine use call lgaya
...
"Han Subham ..kya hua ..."
"Kuch nhi bas ye bta ki Prem kaisa hai dikhane me."
"Ekdum Macho ..Handsome"
"Tab to tera patta kat gya "Subham Hanste huye bola
"tune isiliye call kiya tha " Maine gusse se puccha
Subham :- maine call detail check ki ..
"kuch pta chla "
Subham :- Nhi ..kuch khas nhi ..bar bar bas ek hi number par yani ki
Subhi ko hi call kiya gya ...
"Matlab kuch bhi nhi mila .,"
Subham :- nahi ..koi surag nhi hai...
"Koi to surag chhoda hoga usne ,kuch to aisa ..hai jo samajh nhi aa rha
.."
Subham :-ab kya karein..
"ek min..Subham hamne sirf Us unknown number ka call detail niklwya
hai .."
Subham :-Han...
"Par Subhi ka nhi...is number par se to sirf Subhi ko hi call kiya gya hai
..Par Subhi ke mobile number ki call detail niklwane se hame vo sare
number pta chal sakte hai ..jinse Subhi ko call kiye gye.."
Subham :- Bat to pate ki hai ...
"Shayad koi clue mil jaye "
Subham :- mai kal tak koshish krta hun,
."Par tune itni jaldi call detail kaise niklwayi "
Subham :- Bhai paisa fenk tamasha dekha ..
"Chal apna dhyan Rakhiyo "
Subham :- bye...
"bye"
Maine call cut karke samne dekha to Nainika Khadi thi ..
"Knhi isne kuch sun to nhi liya " mai man hi man sochne lga ..
"Tum kabse khadi ho "
Nainika :- aapko bulaNe aayi thi ..
"Kisliye "
Nainika :- Didi ne bola tha aapko bhi bula laun sab hall baithe Hai
,Dinner krne ja rhe hai .,
"To khade.hokar batein kyo sun rhi thi "
Nainika :- Subhi Di ka kisi ke sath affair nhi hai samjhe ..bewajah shaq
kar rhe ho aap ..
Isne sun to sab liya tha par uska matlab galat nikal liya ..maine ab
sukoon ki sans li aur usse puccha ..
" Kyonki ap jise khoj rhe hai vo Niche dinning hall me baitha hai ..agar
affair hoga bhi to usi ke sath hoga .."Nainika ki baton me gussa saaf
jhalak rha tha
" Tumhe pasand hai vo .." mai to bas ek sathi chah rhe tha jo in sab me
meri madad kare
Nainika :- Bilkul nhi ..
"to phir mera sath do use bhgane me "
Nainika :- mere pyare jiju sabse pahle to aap apne ko aap ko lead me
laiye kyonki Prem puri family ke beech limelight me aa chuka hai to
kripya niche chaliye aur apna kuch kamal dikahiye ..ynha sone se kuch
nhi hone vala ....
"okk.."
Nainika :-ek bat yad rakhna Prem ko ynha Subhi di se shadi krne ke liye
hi bulaya gya hai ...agar is baar Subhi di ne aapko reject kar diya na to
Nanaji bhi kuch kar nhi payenge ....
Itna kahkar vo niche chali gyi aur mai sirf muh khole use jate huye
dekhta rha ...
"Ye kab se itna bolne lagi .."
Mai chupchap vnha se utha ..fresh hua aur Niche hall me aaya ..vnha
sabhi baithe huye the ..mai bhi Prem ke side vali kursi me baith gya
Prem :- Bas aapki hi kami thi Sarkar ...miss kar rhe the aapko ham ..
"aapki bekrari bardasht na huyi janab...aur dekho ham chale aaye "
Prem :- tujhe pta hai mai ynha kya karne aaya hun..
"Apna bna bnaya picchwada tudwane .,"
Prem :- subhi se shadi karne ..sab surprise rakhna chah rhe the par
maine tujhe bta diya taki baad me tujhe shock na lage ...
"ammme yaar...bhookh lagi hai khana khane de bad me usse Shadi kar
lena .."
Prem :- as ur wish
"Kya kanafooshi chal rhi hai dono me " Bua ji shaq ki nazar se dekhte
huye boli
" Kuch nhi Bua ,bas inhe ladki ptane ke tips de rha tha " Maine jis
laparwah andazz me jawab diya usse sabke muh achanak band ho gye
jab maine charo tarf dekha to sabhi mujhe ghoor rhe the .tab mujhe
ehsas hua ki aakhir maine kya kha tha ..
"Khana suru kare " Maine sabhi ki tarf Dekhte huye kha ..
Dinner khatm karne ke baad mai bahar garden me chla aaya ...kyonki
meri ankhon se neendein koso dur thi ..jitni jaldi ho sake mi guthhi ko
suljhana chahta tha..par vastavikta me mere kadam ek inch bhi aage
nhi bde the ....lekin aj mere dil me ek dar sa tha ...Subhi se hamesha
dur hone ka ...
kuch pal yun hi ghumne ke baad mai wapas apne kamre me aa gya
...sach kahun to aj dil knhi aur gum tha ....Anjana sa dar mujh par hawi
tha ...Mai bistar par let gya..Subhi abhi tak kamre me nhi aayi thi
..shayad vo Prem ke sath thi ...bas yahi khyal hi to bechain kar deta hai
mujhe bar bar ...aur agar sach me usne Prem ko chun liya to ..phir mai
kya karunga ..kaise jiyunga ...par vo use kyo chunegi ..pyar to mujhse
karti hai ..usne hospital me bhi kha tha ...kuch majbooriyn hai ....
kya meri galti itni bdi thi...jo itni bdi sja mile ..mera gunah to uske
gunaho se kam hi tha phir kyo ..nhi vo aisa kuch nhi kar sakti ...
ye sari batein sochte sochte meri ankhon se pani aane lga ....maine
apni ankhein pocchi aur khidaki par aa gya ..ek cigret sulgayi ..
"aaj to sala isse bhi tension nhi ja rhi "maine cigret ka ek kash lgate
huye khud se kha ..
"mera room smoking zone nhi hai ..kitni baar samjhaun " Subhi picche
se chillate huye boli ..
Maine uski tarf dekha ..aur cigret ko khidaki se bahar bhej diya .....Na
jawab diya ..na uski tarf dekha ...bas dekhta rha to bahar ka syah
andhera jo meri Zindagi me saye ki tarh chal rha tha .....
Subhi but bankar meri tarf dekhe ja rhi thi ..mai wapas muda ..use bas
ek nazar dekha aur jake sofe par let gya ...
Subhi ke chehre par hwaiyan udi huyi thi .,par phir bhi mai us chehre
par Prem ke aane ki khushi dekh sakta tha ..itne dino ke baad uske
chehre par jo khushi mai lana chah rha tha vo sirf Prem ke aane se
hai...aur aj pahli dfa mujhe ye ehsas hua ki Subhi mujhse ab ek kadam
dur nhi balki ek meel dur chali gyi hai ....meri ankhon se ek aanso ki
bund galo par ludak gyi ...jisse shayad Subhi ne dekh liya ..kyonki uske
baad vo bina meri tarf dekhe sidhe bistar par let gyi ....
Us Raat mai to so gya ..par mere khyalo ki potli me sirf Subhi hi jagti
rhi ..usse dur hone ka dar ....mujhe sapno me hi stata rha ...
main jab subah utha to Subhi uth chuki thi ..mai bhi fresh hoke niche
aaya aur nainika se ishare me puccha ki Subhi knha hai to ..usne bahar
ki tarf ishara kiya ...mai bahar aaya to dekha ..Prem Subhi dono ek kone
me amne samne khade ek dusre ko hi dekhkar batein kar rhe the
...Prem ke chehre par halki muskurahat mai dekh sakta tha aur Subhi
ke chehre par sirf confusion ..mai unhe tab tak dekhta rha ..jab tak unki
nazar mujh par na pdi ....mujhe dekhte hi Subhi vnha se chali gyi ...par
Prem ko maine ishare se rukne ko kha ...
"Kya baat hai " Prem bola ..
"ynha kya khusur pusur kar rhe the "
Prem :- Aane vali zindagi ka discussion ..
"to usme mera chapter to jarur hoga ..."
Prem :- Afsos hai is bat ka ki tera chapter usne close kar diya hai ...
"aisa hargiz nhi ho sakta ..vo khud aisa kuch kahe to soch sakta hu
varna nhi "
Prem :- sahi time ka intejar kar Sid ...sab khud -b-khud clear ho jayega
"yar tu kyo meri bni bnayi duniya ujad rha hai ..." is bar meri ankhon me
bebasi thi
Prem :- kyonki tu meri duniya pahle hi ujad chuka hai ..
"maine kya kiya tere sath ..maine to tera kabhi bura nhi chaha ..kabhi
tujse mila tak nhi "
Prem :- Yahi to problem hai ki tune bina mile hi sab kuch barbad kar
diya ..tune meri sabse pyari chij cheen li meri Subhi ko ..
"tu kyo ab ham dono ke beech me aa rha ,"
Prem:- Tu use kitne dino se janta hai ..
" three years "
Prem :- Aur mai 25 ..to kaun kiske beech me aaya ye btane ki jarurat
nhi hai ...
"Dekh boss yar ..kyo picche pde ho meri zindagi hai vo .."
Prem :- meri bhi jan hai vo ..tune mere pyar ko mujhse chhina hai ..aur
jab mera vahi pyar mere pas vapas aa rha hai ..to tujhe kya problem hai
"Nhi jee sakta uske bina "
Prem :- mai bhi pal pal mra hun uske bgair ...vo meri amant ki tarh thi
tere pas ...jise tu sambhal na ska,..use tere andar apni khushi dikhayi
di thi ...aur maine bhi socha agar vo khush to mai bhi khush ..par kahte
hai na ..insan us cheej ki bilkul kadra nhi krta ..jise vo aasani se hasil
kar leta hai ...
"Pyar karta hu mai usse ..manta hu galti huyi hai mujhse par iska ye
matlab nhi hai ki use sudharne ka bhi koi mauka na diya jaye .."
Prem :- Kabhi kabhi kismat sambhlane ka mauka nhi deti Sid ...
itna kahkar vo to nikal liya par mai andar hi andar se bikhar rha tha
....toot rha tha ...meri liye sabse bdi chunauti yahi thi kya mai Subhi ko
wapas la paunga ....ya meri zindagi ka yahi aant hoga..
Aaj Diwali thi ..har tarf khushiyon ki barish ho rhi thi aur ek mai tha
..jise aj bhi dar tha kisi ko khone ka ...na hi mujhe koi aur clue mila aur
na hi kuch aur ajeeb ..jabse Prem ynha aaya .,par itna jarur tha ...ki
Ab mujhe koi quick reaction to lena tha ....par kya lun samajh nhi aa
rha tha itna to jarur tha ki agar mai jald hi mai kisi nateeje par nhi
panhucha to mera sab kuch barbad ho jayega .....
Sabhi Diwali ki taiyariyon me mast the aur mai ek shaksh ki talash me
tha aur vo the uttam bhaiya ......jald hi maine unhe khoj liya ...
Maine unka hath pakda aur teji se unhe ek kone me le gya vo bas
chillate rhe ..
"ye kya hi..kya kar rhe ho ..knha le ja rhe ho "
lekin mai unki ek bat bhi sunne ko taiyar nhi tha ...
jab mujhe tasalli ho gyi ki ab hme ynha koi nhi sun sakta tab maine
unse puccha ...
"Aap hmare kamre ki khidaki par kya kar rhe the .."
Uttam :- Kab
unhone anjan sa bnne ki koshish ki ..vaise mai sure nhi tha bas nainika
ki btayi huyi baton par chal rha tha ......
"mujhse kuch chhupa nhi hai bhaiya "
Uttam :- bhla mujhe kya jarurat tumhare kamre me jhankne ki ,...
"yahi to mujhe bhi janna Hai"
Uttam :- maine kbhi aisa nhi kiya ..
"Maine apko dekha tha "
Uttam :- .......
"ab sach bol bhi dijiye "
Uttam :- mai soch rha hu ...tumhe kaise btaun ...
"ab mera sabra toot rha hai ..
Uttam :- meri himmat nhi ho rhi hai .,pta nhi phir tum kya sochoge
mere bare me ...
"mai kasam khata hu mai kuch bhi nhi sochunga ..na hi kuch bolunga
.."
Uttam :- Ba..a.t aii..sii.. Hai ki ..mai us din tum logo ko romance dekh
rha tha ..
"kya " main ek jhatke me picche me hat gya ..
"par kyo " maine ek gahri sans lete huye kha
Uttam :- kyonki bed par mai jaldi ..You know .,to maine socha ..shayad
kuch ...mujhe Idea mil jaye taki ..meri timing bd jaye ..
unki bat sunkar maine apna sar par hath rakh gya .,
"apke is milage ke chakkar me pta nhi kya kya soch rha tha apke bare
me ...ye batein chhup kar nhi jani jati ....samne aakar pucch lete....kisi
doctor ke pas chale jate .,"
Uttam :- sharm aur dar ..ki wajah se ..mai knhi nhi gya ..
"Kal mujhse milna mai apko sare idea bta dunga ..apka sab kuch bad
jayega ..vaise aur kitno ke kamre me jhankte ho ..aap " maine muskurte
huye puccha ...
Uttam :- vo pahli aur akhiri bar tha yar ...
itna kahkar vo bahar jane lage ...
"ek bat pucchun..."
Uttam :- kya
"Mai ya Prem ..."
Uttam :- Iska faisla hame us par chhod dena chahiye ...
"phir bhi .."
Uttam :- tum mujhe kabhi pasand nhi the ...
"Hmmm"
Mai bas itna hi bola aur vnha se chla aaya ...mere chehre par meri
bebasi saaf dekhi ja sakti thi .....
Ab mera agla target Nanika thi vahi thi ..jo mujhe agle kuch ghanto me
hone vali pooja me
Meri jagah dilane me meri madad kar sakti thi..use jyada dhudne ki
jyada jarurat nhi pdi ..vo mujhe samne se aati huyi hi dikhayi di ...
"Nainika mujhe tum chhat par aake milo ..vo bhi turant "
isse pahle vo kuch react karti mai bina ruke .. chhat par panhuch chuka
tha ..itna to andaza tha ki vo chupchap si khadi hai mere jane ke
bad..uski samajh ke bahar thi ..aakhir maine use vnha kyo bulaya
.....Use kafi der ho gyi par vo nhi aayi ..mere liye ek ek pal bhari hota ja
rha tha .....
aadhe ghante ke upar ho gya par vo nhi aayi ..to maine Bhabhi ko call
lgaya ...
"Hello ,Bhabhi Sid bol rha hu "
"Han bolo "
"Kya kar rhi ho "
"Kam kar rhi hun ..diwali hai aaj bhool gye kya "
"sare kam chhod do ,aur plz nainika ko lekar upar chhat aa jao.."
"what "
"Plz.."
"Pta hai..kuch bhi nhi lagta mai aapka ...Mujhe pasand nhi karti ho pta
hai ..par itni nafrat bhi nhi karti hongi ..kya ek bar mere liye ..meri
zindagi ka sawal hai ...ye "
"Subhi ko lekar koi baat hai "
"Han .."
"Tumhe pta hai na is time aur upar aana ..Kitne kam hai ..aur kisi ne
dekh liya to ..specially bua ji ne to .."
"sirf panch minute "
"try karti hun "
"thanks"...
kuch der baad mera mobile baj utha ..
"Han bhabhi bolo "
"Mai chhat par to nhi aa sakti par mai aur nainika abhi tumhare room
me hai ...idhar hi aa jao "
"okk"
itna bolkar mai bhagte huye apne room me panhuch gya ....,mai bhagte
huye aaya tha .isliye hanf rha tha ..par mujhe dono is tarh dekh rhi thi
jaise koi bhoot dekh liya ho ....
"Kya bat hai ..is tarh ..kya hua ..aur is tarh ..mai to dar gayi thi .."bhabhi
mujhe dekhkar boli
"Mujhe apse bahut pahle mil lena chahiye tha ...aur jo mai bat karne
vala hu vo mujhe bahut pahle kar leni chahiye thi ...par sala dimag kam
nhi karta to aisa hi hota hai ....."
Bhabhi :- aakhir bat kya hai ..kuch bologe bhi ..
"ek bat btaogi "
Bhabhi:- Kya ..
"itne din ho gye mujhe ynha rhte huye ...aur har din subah sham mere
liye khane ki thali bas aap dono me se hi koi ek lekar aata hai ..."
Bhabhi aur nainika dono ne hi han me sar hilaya ...
"to thali me khana bhi aap hi lgati hogi ..kitchen se lekar mere room tak
lati bhi aap hi hogi ... "
Bhabhi :- kahna kya chahte ho saaf saaf bolo..
"mujhe poison kisne diya tha ..."
"whattttttt" bhabhi ka muh achanak se khul gya ...
"ye..kyyaa..bakwas kar rhe ho .."bhabhi chikhte huye boli
"mai is ghar se khane ke alawa aur kuch bhi nhi khata ...aur khane ki
thali kaun lgata hai ..bas aap dono ..."
"Han to iska matlab ye nhi ki mai Tumhe zeher de dun "bhabhi apne sar
par hath ralhkar boli..
"Matlab to ye bhi nhi hai ki Subhi meri jagah kisi aur ko de ,.par de rhi
hai na ...isse pahle mai ye baat kisi aur ko btaun ...hath jodkar nivedan
hai Mujhe sach sach bta do.."
Dono ke chehro ki hwaiyan ud chuki thi ....
"Mai tumhe pasand nhi karti hu par iska matlab ye nhi ki mai tumhe
zeher de du ...itni nafrat nhi karti mai tumse "..
bhabhi meri ankhon me ankhein dal kar boli ...mujhe pta tha ki bhabhi
jhooth nhi bol rhi ...kyonki utni der se sirf bhabhi bole ja rhi thi jabki
Nainika bilkul shant khadi thi ...aur meri nazar to sirf nainika par thi
..aur uske chehre par jnha..par paseene ki bundein saaf jhalak rhi
thi...uska chehre par chhaya dar hi uske gunah ka saboot tha ...
"Nainika ab aur bhi kuch kahne ki jarurat hai " Maine uski tarf dekh kar
kha ...
Mere itna kahne se vo do kadam picche hati aur phir ghutno ke bal
baith gyi ...usne apne dono hath mere aage jod liye ...
"maine aise janbhujhkar nhi kiya tha jiju ...mujhe to bas .."
isse pahle vo kuch aage aur bolti bhabhi ne uske galon par thappado ki
barsat kar di ..
Bhabhi :- tune aisa kyo socha ..apni hi didi ko widhwa karne ja rhi thi tu
..itna kaise gir gayi nainika ...
Nainika :- mai majboor thi ..bhabhi ..
Bhabhi :- aisi kaun si majboori thi Nainika jo tu is had tak gir gayi ...
Nainika :- Mai ek ladke se pyar karti hun ..jiju jante hai is bare me ....
Bhabhi :- to is bat ka ise jan se marne ka kya connection ....
Nainika :- Apko bta hi hoga ki jab Hema Mausi ne pyar kiya tha to unke
sath Nanaji ne kiya tha .....
Bhabhi :- suna hai maine ...
"ab ye kaun sa nya character hai ..aur kya kiya Dadaji ne unke sath"
Bhabhi :- Jan se mar diya tha ..apni hi sagi beti ko ..
"what.."
Bhabhi :- shock kyo ho rhe ho sach hai ye ..Maan ,maryda ke naam par
inhone apni hi beti ko apne hi hathon se jan se mar dala tha ...sath me
use bhi jise vo pyar karti thi ...
"Aisa kaii...se"
Bhabhi :- Rajputo ki Haveli hai Sid ..ynha ijjat ,man maryada ke aage
insan ki jan ki koi keemat nhi hai ...
"mujhe zeher kyo diya "maine topic change karte huye kha
Nainika :- mai marna nhi chahti thi jiju .... ap akele nhi hai jo Ravi ke
bare me jante hai...
"Aur kaun janta hai "
Nainika :- Subhi di ..
Bhabhi :- ab bato ko ghumao mat ..kyo kiya aisa ...ye btao ..
Nainika :- Mujhe pta bhi nhi chla maine vo poison kab aapke khane me
mila diya ...
"Kaise "
Nainika :- ek din aapke khane me namak kam tha..wahi lene me kitchen
me gayi..to Subhi di ne mujhe ek katori me namak de diya ..mai to bas
isi bat se khush thi ki unhone pahle hi samajh liya ki mai kya lene aayi
hun ....aur kiskeliye ..mai to bas ise aapke liye pyar samajh baithi thi
.....aur maine namak ki jagah use apke khane me mila diya ..aur jab mai
wapas kitchen me panhuchi to maine namak samajhkar apne hath me
lage us powder ko test kiya ...test karte hi mera dimag sunn ho gya ...
"Ye namak to nhi hai "
"Sahi samajhi Nainika ye namak nhi hai "
Mere picche se mere kano me ye awaz panhuchi
"To phir kya subhi di ..lag to Namak jaisa hi rha hai"
Subhi :- hai to namak hi ..
"par thoda ajeeb test aa rha hai ..."
Subhi :- vo to aayega hi ..maine isme ye mila diya hai ..
"what " meri ankhein fati ki fati rah gayi ..us bottle ko dekhkar ..
Subhi :- to meri pyari behna to agar aapne ye bat kisi ko btayi ..to mai
Ravi ke bare me Dadu ko bta dungi ..aur uske bad kya hoga tumhe pta
hi hai ..
"par ap jiju ke sath ..kitna pyar karte hai vo ...aapko ..ap phir bhi "
Subhi :- By the way meri behna bhool jao ..is bat ko to jyada better hoga
.....
itna sunte hi bhabhi ne jordar tamacha nainika ko mar diya..
Bhabhi :- tune kiske upar iljam lgaya hai ..tujhe pta bhi hai Subhi ..Subhi
khud marna chahti hai .isko ..khud ko bachane ke liye use badnam kar
rhi hai..
Nainika :- mai sach kah rhi hun bhabhi ...plz bhabhi ..mera yakin karo "
"Hahahahahahahaha hahahaha..bagal me chhora aur nagar bhar me
dhindora Hahahahaha "
Mujhe is tarh hansta dekhkar bhabhi ko nainika ke upar aur gussa aa
gya
Bhabhi :- Sid mai dave ke sath kah sakti hun ye jhooth bol rhi hai ....
"Bhabhi ..jab apna sikka khota hota hai na ..to dusaro ko kasoorvar nhi
manna chahiye .."
Bhabi :- tum iski bat ka yakeen mat karo ..ye jhooth bol rhi hai .,
"Ye sach bol rhi hai "
Bhabi :- vo khud se bhi jyada tumhe pyar karti hai ...aisa vo sapne me
bhi nhi soch sakti ...
"Accha bhabhi ye btao ki apne us din garden me kya suna tha"
Bhabhi :- ki agar sid ne is bare me jan liya to vo jan le lega tumhari ...
"Aur aapne samjh liya ki use blackmail kar rha hai ...hahahaha"
Bhabhi :- mai usse abhi bat karti hun ...
"Koi kisi se is bare me bat nhi karega ....aaj raat burai ki acchai par jeet
hogi ya acchai burai par qahar bankar tootegi ...apne to abhi jana par
maine to us din hi jan liya tha .."
Bhabhi :- kab..
"Prem ke aane ke dusre din jab subah Subhi ko dhoondte huye garden
me gya to dekha Subhi aur Prem ek sath khade batein kar rhe hai .."
Bhabhi :- Kya...
" sahi waqt aane par aapko sab pta chal jayega ..."
Bhabhi :- tumhe pura yakeen hai ...ki Subhi ...
Mere pas unke sawalo ka jawab nhi tha ...par jo bhi maine apne kano
se suna tha use bhi galat sabit nhi kar sakta .....
Jis sham ka mai besbari se intejar kar rha tha ...aj vo sham to aayi par
manhoosiyat ka ek saya bankar ...
Pooja ki taiyari ho chuki thi ...mai bhi theek samay par vnha panhuch
gya ...Prem ,Subhi,Nainika,Bhabhi ,Dadaji,Bua har ek ynha par maojud
tha ...par aane vale samay ke bare me sab anjan the ...
"Sabhi log kripya apne apne sthano par baith jaye ..."pandit ji ne sabhi
se aagrah kiya ...mai to bas lagatar Subhi ko hi dekhe ja rha tha ...Red
saree ..mathe par bindi ...hathon me chudiya ..aur in sab se pare uske
vo honth jinhe dekhkar bas unhe choomne ka dil kare ....
"Subhi Beta ..ye sindoor aur mangalsutra pahna hai " ...Bua Subhi ki tarf
dekhte huye boli
"Dadaji ne kha tha ki sirf suhagine hi is pooja me baith sakti hai..to
isliye.."
Buaji :- Par beta tum ab to sugahin ho nhi ..mera matlab ab to tumhara
talak ho chuka hai ....Phir kyo ..
usne Bua ki bat koi jawab nhi diya ...bas ek nazar meri tarf dekha aur
apne kaam me lag gayi ...
Bua :- lagta hai Prem ke naam ki mala japne ki bdi jaldi hai tumhe ...
Aur is baat ko sunkar bas vo sharam se muskura di ...har roj uski is
muskurahat dekhne ke liye mai ghanto bechain rahta tha par pta nhi
kyo aaj dil ko vo muskurahat chubh si gayi...
"Ji nhi ...mera abhi tak divorce hua nhi hai ..." Subhi meri tarf dekh kar
boli ...Mujhe aisa lga jaise Vo mera majak uda rhi ho ....
Kuch ghanto pahle tak jiski har ada par dil fida ho rha tha pta nhi kyo
ab aisa lag rha tha ki jaise vo har pal sirf mera majak uda rhi ho .......
Mai use dekhkar bhi aab dekhna nhi chahta tha ....
"ab vanhi par khade rahenge ya idhar bhi aayenge " Subhi meri tarf
dekhkar boli ....
Maine uski tarf dekha aur halka sa muskura diya ..
Bua :- Tumhara uske sath Rista toot chuka hai ..jiske sath naya jeevan
suru karna hai uske sath is pooja me baitho to aane vala jeewan
mangalmay hoga ...iski tarh karam nhi footenge...
Subhi :- apse aisa kisne kha ..ki ....mai kisi ke sath nya Rishta suru
karne ja rhi hun ...."
ab muskurane ki bari meri thi ...
Bua :- matlab tum prem ke sath nhi baithne vali ho ..
Subhi :- ji nhi ..Na hi mai uske sath baithungi ...aur na hi mai uske Sath
shadi karne vali hun ...meri shadi already ho chuki hai ..mere pati aapke
samne khade hai ...
Maine apne aage picche dekha to mai sirf akela khda tha ..,
maine ungli se use khud ko ishara kiya ...usne bhi han me sir hila diya
...
Mai uske sath me khda ho gya jakar ...jaise hi mai uske sath khda hua
Achanak meri nazre jo subhi ke chehre ko dekh rhi thi ..jisne Subhi ki
nazaro k piccha kiya to dekha vo meri sasu maa ki tarf dekh rhi hai
...jinki ankhon me ansu hai ..
ek aur confusion ..aaj tak jisne kabhi subhi se baat nhi ki ..Subhi ko
dekhkar uski ankhon me ansu ...
Pooja start huyi ...aur khatm ..ho gayi ...hmari phir se shadi huyi ...ek
bar phir uski mang mere rang me rang thi...ek bar phir saat fere lekar
agle sat janmo tak sath rahne ki kasme khayi ......aj bhi thik usi tarh
uske chehre par vo sharmahat thi ..jo shadi ke pahle thi..pooja khatm
huyi .... ...usne mere pair chhuye..maine use gale lgaya ....
Meri jindgi me sab kuch itni aasani se kaise ho sakta hai ..
Bhabhi :- subhi ab ye sab natak karne ki kya jarurat hai ...
"Matlab Bhabhi " subhi confuse hote huye boli ..
Bhabhi :- itna anjan banne ki jarurat nhi hai ...mai tumhari sari sacchai
janti hun ..ynha tak sid bhi ...
Subhi :- kaisi sacchai bhabhi ...mai kuch samjhi nhi ..
Bhabhi :- aacha tumhe nhi pta ..tumne uske sath kya.kiya..
"Maine kya kiya "
Bhabhi :- tujhe pta tha vo tumhe ynha mnane aaya tha ,Wapas le jane
vala tha ...are agar nhi jana tha to mna kar deti ...par tumne use marne
ki koshish ki ..vo bhi jan se ..
"Yekya bakwas kar rhi hai aap " subhi chaunkte huye boli..
Bhabhi ki bat sunkar sab muh khole khade the ..
Bua :- tum pagal ho gayi ho kya
Bhabhi :- mai ainvayi nhi bol rhi mere pas proove hai ..
Subhi :-mai sach kah rhi hu...maine aisa kuch nhi kiya hai ...
Bhabhi :- Nainika btati kyo nhi sabko sach ...
Nainika .:- kka..uu.n. Sa sachhh.. Bhabhi
Dar ki wajah se.uski awaz kanp rhi thi ...
Bhabhi :- Jo tumne mujhe aur sid ko kamre me btaya tha ...
Nainika :- maine kya aapko btaya tha ...
uski awaz me dar dikh rha tha ,Bhabhi :- tumne sid ke khane me zeher
milaya tha ...
"Kya .." subhi ki ankhein chaudi ho gayi thi ..uski ankhon me nami si
aane lagi thi ....
usne meri tarf ghum kar dekha ...par maine usse apni nazarein hta li ...
Subhi :- apko bhi aisa lagta hai ...
Maine na uski tarf dekha aur na hi kuch bola ..lekin uski awaz se pta
chal rha tha ...uski ankhon me jo pani tha ..vo galon par ludak chuka
tha ...
Subhi :- mai sach kah rhi hun ..mai aisa kabhi soch bhi nhi sakti ...apko
mere upar vishwas nhi hai ...aapse pyar karti hu.mai..
shayad meri chuppi use chubh rhi thi ...aur Prem ka chehra uski halat
bayan kar rha tha ....
"plz nainika ..mai tumhare aage hath jodti hun ...plz sabko sach bta do
..bol do sabko ..tum jo kah rhi ho vo jhooth hi ..."
Nainika :- Mai kyo jhooth bolun ..ap ne hi to diya tha mujhe ..namak ki
jagah par vo zeher ...
Subhi:- maine to namak diya tha ..to usme zeher kaise ho sakta hai.....
Bua :- bas chup kar Subhi ..jaisi maa thi vaisi beti ...vo mere bhaiya ko
kha gayi ...aur tu apne hi pati ko khana chahti hai .,lanat hai ..tum par
..aur meri beti jo kah rahi sach kah rhi hai ...
Subhi :-plz bua meri maa ke barr me kuch mat bolna ...
Bua :- kyo na bolun ....usne hi mere bhai ko fansa tha ....ye pta hote
huye bhi bhaiya ki shadi ho chuki thi ...unke sath nazayaz rishta kyo
kayam kiya ...
Subhi :- ab to vo is duniya me nhi ..hai na .. Vo rote huye boli..
Bua :- sharm se suicide kar liya tha ...bina byahe maa jo ban gayi thi
...vo to shukra bhaiya ka aur papa ka jo tujh jaisi nazayaz aulad ko apne
ghar me pnah di ...apni beti ki tarh pala ...varna sad rhi hohi ...kisi kothe
..par ...
"chaa...taakkkk"ek thappad ki awaz pure hall me gunz uthi ye thappad
subhi ne bua.ko.mara tha ...
Subhi :- mera khoon itna bhi ganda nhi tha ...bua ..
Bua :- .......
Subhi palati aur mere samne khadi ho gayi ...
"plz meri bat suno aap ...mujhe koi fark nhi pdta ...ye log kya sochte hai
...mujhe sirf aapse fark pdta hai ...aap kya sochte hai..is baat se fark
pdta hai " ..
Mai bas idhar udhar nazrein ghuma rha tha ...
"Sid plz mujhse nazrein milayiye ..meri tarf to dekhiye ek bar ...ek bar .."
ek bar ...jaise hi maine uske chehre ki tarf dekha...mera dil kanp utha
tha ...usne mera chehra apne hathon me le rakha tha..uski ankhon se
lagatar ..aansu gir rhe the ...
chehre par registan si mayushi chha gayi thi ...maine apne charo tarf
dekha ...sabke chehro par bas ..aascharya ki hi mudra me ek but
bankar khade the ..ek dum shant aur chupchap...
"kuch bolte kyo nhi ho ...mera yakeen karo .."
"kahne aur sunne ko bacha hi kya hai Subhi ....ek bar bol diya hota ...ki
dur jana hai mujhse ...mai kabhi nhi aata ...dil phat rha mera ..tumhara
ye roop dekhkar ...jindagi ho tum meri ...aur tumne hi kar diya ...mere
pyar ka khoon ..."
Subhi :- mai sach kah rhi hun ...
"sab kuch khatm.. ..ho chuka hmare beech ..." maine uske hathon ko
apne chehre se htaya ....Subhi dhamm se jameen par ghutno ke bal
hath jodkar mere samne baith gayi
Subhi :- aisa mat boliye ...pta hi hai aapko ..nhi jee sakti aapke bina ...
"to aadat dal lo..mere bina .."
Subhi :- mar jaungi ...
"....." kya jawab deta use ..han mar jao ...dil to kah rh tha bas hat pagli
...aisi kisi ki batein thodi man leta hun ....bas kuch din aur ...khud ko
sambhal lena ...uske baad dekhna ...mai kya karta hu sabka ...
Mai vnha se use aise hi chhodkar apne kamre me chla aaya....aur daru
ki bottel nikalkar puri ek bar me hi pi gya....Mujhe agaraaj ke ghatna me
jo.khal rhi thi ..vo thi Dadaji ki chuppi ...aakhir vo kyo shant rahe ....jo
apni poti se itna pyar karta ho ..use bhare smaj me itna jaleel kaise
hone diya ...kaise unhone ek shabd bhi nhi bola ...mera dimag hil gya tha
..jab subhi ki maa ke bare me jana ...jab uski asliyat jani ...par mujhe
vnha khud ke emotions par kabu karna tha ... ..mujhe jo karna tha vo
maine kar diya tha ...ab bas mere action ka reaction hona baki tha ...aur
ye reaction kaun dega ..bas yahi pta karna tha ....
Jo ladki mujhe beintha pyar karti hai ...jo mujhe ek kharonch tak nhi
aane deti thi ..vo meri jan kaise le sakti hai ...nainika ne kah diya ...aur
mai maan lun ..mera pyar itna bhi kamjor nhi tha ...mere vishwas ki dor
abhi tak tooti nhi thi...
"sahi waqt aane par aapko sab pta chal jayega ..."
Bhabhi :- tumhe pura yakeen hai ...ki Subhi ...
Mere pas unke sawalo ka jawab nhi tha ...par jo bhi
maine apne kano se suna tha use bhi galat sabit nhi kar
sakta .....
"Nainika plz tum bahar jaogi "
Nainika thoda confuse ho gayi ...par maine janbujhkar
use kha tha..
"Aapko kya lagta hai ki Subhi aisa kar sakti hai .."
Bhabhi :- yakeen karna mushkil hai ..
"Vo kitni bhi bdi musibat me kyo na ho par mere sath
kabhi bhi aisa nhi kar sakti ...itna to mai janta hun .,"
Bhabhi :- phir baat kya hai ...
"Mujhe lagta hai nainika jhooth bol rhi hai "..
Bhabhi :- is natije par tum kaise panhuche...
"Nainika ko Blackmail Subhi nhi koi aur kar rha hai "
Bhabhi :- mai samjhi nhi ...
Us din jab maine Prem aur subhi ki bat suni thi ...
"Kaun si bat .." Bhabhi boli ..
Prem :- tumne kha tha ki tum mera har kadam par sath
dogi ...
Subhi :- ab aur nhi Prem plz ...
Prem :- tumne mujhe ek bar phir thukra diya uske liye
...
Subhi :- Aisa nhi hai ...main tumhare liye unke karib
dubara gayi ....vo files layi taki tumhe vo contract mile
...agar unhe ye bat pta chalegi .. ...to.kya bitegi ..un par
..aur ab tum mujhe ek aur project ki file lane ko kah rhe
ho ....
Prem :- Vo sabse bda project hai ...usse meri condition
sudhar jayegi .,
Subhi ;- ab mai kuch nhi karungi ...plz ..jo insan apne
sare kam chhod kar sirf isliye aaya taki apne pyar ko
wapas hasil sake ...us insan ke sath uska hi pyar dhokha
kar rha hai ..jab ye pta chalega ...bas bahut hua ...Pooja
vale din mai divorce paper usi hawan kund me fenk
dungi ...
Prem :- tum aisa kuch nhi karogi ...bhool gayi ...vo Raat
jab bhari barsat me usne tumhe ghar se bahar kar diya
tha ...
Subhi :- mai.kaise bhool jaun ki maine hmare bacche ki
jaan li ..iske samne unka gunah to kuch nhi ...
Prem :- use tumse pyar hota hai to shadi ke baad kyo
badal gya ..
Subhi :- Hmare aane vale jindagi ke liye taki mai aisho
aaram se rah sake ..mujhe koi takleef na ho ...par
mai.pagal thi ..jo sirf apne swarth ko dekhti rahi ...
Prem :- Tumhari ankhon par patti bndhi hai ...use sirf
tumhari vo jaydad chahiye ...isliye vo tumhare picche
hai ....janti bhi ho ..uski kimat.kitni hogi ...
Subhi :- nhi janna hai ...bas us din mai sabke samne
unhe kabool kar lungi ...
Prem :- tum galat kar rhi ho Subhi ...maine bachpan se
tumhare har sahi galat me sath diya ..kam se kam meri
...
Subhi :- isliye main tumhare liye vo file layi ..socho agar
unko ye pta chalega to phir unki nazaro me mujhe knha
jagah milegi ...phir bhi maine kiya kyonki tum mere liye
dost se bhi bdkar ho ...
Prem :- par mai kabhi Sid ki jagah nhi le sakta ..hahaha
Subhi :- tumne aisa soch kaise liya Prem ki mai tumhe
unke upar consider karungi....
tabhi Subhi ki nazar mujh par pdi ....
"Ye to mujhe us din hi pta chal gya tha .....ki Subhi
mujhe Aaj chunne vali hai ...isliye thoda shant tha ..phir
bhi mere dimag me bas ek bat ghum rahi thi ki mujhe
zeher kisne diya ...islie maine aap dono ko ynha bulaya
....aur nainika pkdi gayi ..abhi kamre me use dekhte hi
pta chal gya tha ki ye kam uska kiya hua hai ...par ye
kiske kahne par kiya ye pta chlna chahiye ....."
Bhabhi :- Ahhh to ye bat hai ..phir to Prem hi hoga ..
"Ho bhi sakta hai aur nhi bhi...par us din jo usne
vaseeyat ke bare me jikra kiya tha ...vo kuch samajh nhi
aaya .."
Bhabhi :- iske bare me kisi ko kuch nhi pta bas itna pta
hai ki papa ji uske nam koi vaseeyat likh kar gaye hai
...jiske bare me sirf Dadaji.ko pta hai ..asal me vaseeyat
me hai kya...
"Maine bhi pta karne ki koshish ki par kuch pta hi nhi
chla ..vakeel ne saaf mna kar diya..vo kuch bhi nhi bta
sakte ..."
Bhabhi :- purana wafadar hai vo ..ab waseeyat ke bare
me sirf Dadaji hi bta.sakte hai ....ab kya karoge..
"pahle pta lgana hoga Nainika ko blackmail kaun kar
rha hai...kyonki uska motive sirf Subhi ko meri nazaro
me girana hai ..."
Bhabhi :- to kya karoge ab ..
"Ek plan hai ...jisme aapka sath chahiye ..."
Bhbhi :- kya hai ...
Uske bad maine unhe Raat me kya kya kahna hai..karna
hai sab kuch bta diya ....
Bhabhi:- Subhi ..
"uski tension mat lo ...itna dard mila hai kuch aur sahi
..."
Bhabhi :- isse hasil kya hoga ..
"Bas ajkal sabke chehre pdne ka nya shauk chda hai ..."
Lekin Bua ji ne jo nya rocket launch kiya tha usne mere
dimag ko hila diya ...isne mujhe kisi aur chhor par
panhucha diya tha ....Subhi ...mere sasur ki Prem kahani
....ab mujhe agar janna tha to ...us vasiyat me kya likha
tha ......Ek nya sawal paida ho gya tha mere samne ki
..jo insan apni beti ko sirf isliye mar sakta hai kyonki
usne pyar kiya tha ...phir aisi kya wajah thi ki usne
apne hi bete ki nazayaj ko apna naam diya..itna pyar
diya ....jab Subhi apne kadamo par baithi thi ..mai to bas
Dadaji ki tarf dekhkar hi dekh Rha tha ...aakhir unhone
ek lafj kyo nhi bola ....Mai lgatar daru par daru..peeta ja
rha tha ......tabhi Darwaze par kisi ki knock huyi ..
"Ab kaun aa gya itni Raat ko ..".
Maine jaise hi Darwaza khola samne vale sakhsh ko
dekhkar meri ankhein fati rah gayi ..
"Sasu maaaaa..." maine apne daru ki bottle ko drwaze
ke picche chhipate huye kha ..
"Mai andar aa jaun " unhone ek fiki muskan apne
chehre par late huye kha.. ,
" ab apko bhu pucchne ki jarurt hai kya.."
"Sharab bhi peete ho .."
"Nhi ..bas vo kabhi kabhi "
jawab me vo bas muskura di ....hmare beech bahut der
tak chuppi bani rahi ...na vo kuch bol rhi thi aur na maikuch ....
"Mai aj achanak kyo aayi ..pta hai "
"Mujhe kaise pta hoga ..mujhe to bas isi bat par khushi
hai ...ki aap ynha aayi ,"
"Aaj jo halat tumhare aur Subhi ke beech paida huye hai
...bas usi ko lekar kuch bat karni thi.."
ye bat mere liye aur surprising tha ...
"Mai kabhi nhi man sakti ...ki vo tumhe Zeher de sakti
hai ...bahut pyari hai bilkul apni maa ki tarh "
"Aap janti thi unhe .. ..." Mera nasha kuch kam ho rha tha
"Amrita Naam tha uska...meri bachpan ki hi saheli thi vo
..."unhone ankhon se ansu pocchte huye kha...
"Mai akele uski maa ko kaise dosh de sakti thi.....kyonki
utna hi zimmedar to Subhi ke pitaji bhi the....."
"Mujhe aap ab flashback me le Jane vali hai"
"Han kuch chije ab tumhare liye janni jaruri
hai.......Subhi ke paida hone ke baad Amrita use lekar
hmare ghar aayi thi.......usne mere anchal me daal kar
bas uski acchi parwarsish ki guzarish ki thi...kyonki
sabhi ko pta hai ki nazayaz aulade kaise jeeti hai is
duniya me .......mai to bas kalpna matra se sihar uthi
thi.....jab Dadaji ko is bare me pta chla ....to unka para
satwe aasman par panhuch gya....unhe aisi umeed nhi
thi....par aisa karke vo apne pairo par kukhadi mar rhe
the ......subhi ke pitaji unke eklaute ladke the.......par
unse ye bardast nhi ho rha tha......dono ki bolchal ek
dum band ho chuki thi ....Subhi hmare ghar ke aangan
me palne lagi ........abhi sab kuch shant hi hua tha ki
achanak ek din khabar aayi ki Amrita ne suicide kar
liya ...usne apne hi kamre ke pankhe me sari se fansi
lga li thi......inhe is baat ka bilkul bhi yakeen nhi tha ki
Amrita aisa kar sakti hai....ynha tak ki mujhe bhi
vishwas nhi ho rha tha.......par ek din Inki aur dadaji ki
beech aagan me jamkar ladai huyi.....kyonki Inhe knhi
se pta chla tha ki Babuji ne hi Amrita ka gla DBA ke
marwaya hai....ab ye kitna sahi tha aur kitna galat .....ye
to kisi ko nhi pta tha........aur isi wajah se vo apne hi Pita
ke khilaf report likhwane police station ko nikal gaye
.....par vo kabhi wapas nhi laute..." Unki ankhon me
ansu aa chuke the...
"Aur aisa kyo tha " mera nasha puri trh utr chuka tha.....
"Raste me hi unka accident ho gya....."
"Hmmmm"
"Aur us din ke baad maine kabhi Subhi ke Dadaji se bat
nhi ki ...."unhone pallu se ankhon me aaye aansuyon ko
pocchte huye kha ........
"Iske picche kya wajah thi..."
"Kyonki mai unhe hi us hadse ka jimmedar manti hun..."
"Aur Subhi ki maa se apko koi gila sikwa kyo nhi
tha.....aapne chupchap Subhi ko apna kyo liya......"
"Maine kya kha.....usne meri jagah nhi li ....aur na hi
mujhse manga ...manga bhi to kya apni bacchi ke liye
chhat to kaise mna kar sakti thi mai....itni kathor dil ki
nhi thi mai......"
"Hmmm"
"Apne bat kyo nhi ki ....kabhi" ...."
"Subhi ki wajah se....uski masoomiyat ne dil me ek jagah
si bna li thi.....pta nhi kyo Subhi ko Jinda rakha
babuji.ne....jabki Inke jinda rhne tak vo iske khoon ke
pyase the......"
"Iski wajah kya ho sakti hai...."
"Pta nahi ....bas itna janti hun ki Subhi ko zinda rakhne
ki wajah unki waseeyat hai....jo inhone Marne se pahle
bnwayi thi....."
"Kya Dadu ne hi accident krwaya tha...."maine kisi trh
puccha...
"Nhi pta.....bas dua karungi is sachhai ke bare me kabhi
pta na chale...."
Itna kahkar vo uthi aur jate Jate bas itna hi bola...
"Subhi ko jarurt hai tumhari....mai bas itni hi salah
dungi .....Jake ...us wasiyat ko pdo ...jiske bare me kisi ko
nhi pta....Dadaji ke siway.....isse pahle ki der ho
jaye....ya kuch aur galat ho jaye....."
Itna sannata tha kamre me ki mai apni dhadkano ki
awaz tak sun sakta tha........mai yun hi khyalo me baitha
hua tha..ki aakhir ho kya RHA hai tabhi ek bar phir
drwaze par kisi ki dastak huyi ....mai beman se darwaz
kholne utha ....aur jaise hi maine darwaza Khola....
"Dhhadaammmm" aisa lga jaise kisi ne dande se mere
sar par tej war kiya ho..... ...asal me aisa hi hua
tha....kyonki mere sir me jabardast dard ho RHA
tha.......mere dono hath mere sar par the.....mai kuch
soch pata ....ya samajh pata....usse pahle ek aur danda
mere sar se takraya...is baar maine hath se bchane ki
koshish ki...isliye sidha sar me nhi LGA...mai ab do
kadam picche hua ....aur achanak huye is hamle ke
kasoorvar insane ko dekhne ki koshish karne LGA......jab
tak mai use pehchan pata ......tab tak usne ek aur war
mere chehre par kiya .....aur is baar mere chehre se
khoon ki boonde tapkane lagi ....aur mai vahi .....nidhal
hokar gir PDA........
Mai behosh nhi hua tha.......na hi MRA tha......mai us
bande ki har activities ko dekh rha tha ....par react nhi
kar pa RHA...tha.....usne ...mere pure kamre me petrol
chhidka ......aur aag lga di.........
"Puri taiyari ke sath aaye ho"Maine apni puri taqat
lgakar uthate huye kha....
"Abhi bhi jan baki hai beta.....Subhi bitiya ka pyar hi
hai....Malik se kha tha...kya milega...par nhi
mane.."usne hanste huye kha....
"Upar Jane ki taiyari karo ...kaka..."itna kahkar maine ek
jordar danda unke sar par de Mara....mere andar kitni
taqat bachi thi ...iska andaza isi bat se lgaya ja sakta
hai...ki unko Marne ke baad mai wapas gir PDA...aur
sath me vo bhi.....mai to kisi trh phir utha....par kaka na
uth sake....budape ka sharir jo thehra......maine unke
upar apna shirt utar kar phenk diya.....aur sath me ek
anguthi ...bhi jo mere aur subhi ki nishani thi.......
Kamre me dhuan fail RHA tha
Maine kamre ki khidaki kholi ......jate jate mai Kaka ko
puri tarh sula gya...MATLAB ek aur danda unke sar par
de Mara...maine unke body par halka petrol dal
diya....aur khidaki se niche utar gya......ab mujhe Subhi
ki chinta stane lagi thi .....vo knha hogi is waqt......kisi
tarh mai ......Nainika ke room me ghusa.....kyonki vnha
tak panhuchne ka rasta aasan tha.....aur Subhi ko maine
vnha panhuchkar call lgya....
"Hello"
"Knha ho...Subhi "
"Bahar hall me...."
"Jaldi se Nainika ke room me aao...."itna kahkar maine
call cut kar diya....
Agle panch minute me hi kisi ne darwaza
khatkhataya......
"Andar aa jao...."
Subhi jaise hi andar aayi ....meri ye halat dekhkar
.....uska sar chakra gya....aur vo lagbhg bhagte huye
mere upar giri aakar....
"Sambhal kar Subhi ....tum is tarh girogi to ....mujhe
kaun sambhalega....."
"Ye...kyyaaa....kaiseee....kisnnne....kaabbb......bttaooo...itta
khoon.....mai abhi Dr.ko bulati..hun .."vo chikhte huye
boli...
"Ruko ...shant ho jao....sab btata hun..." Aur maine use
....us kamre me huyi sari ghatyane bta di......
"Chhodo un sab baton ko.....ap pahle Dr.ke pas chalo...."
"Nhi ....Subhi ..plz tum first aid kar do....khoon ruk jaye
baki sab theek hai....."
Subhi :- kya theek hai....abhi ke abhi Dr.ke pas chlna
hai....
"Waqt ki najaqat samjho Subhi ......abhi mujhe Dr.ki
jarurat nhi hai....tumhari hai....." Itna kahkar maine
uske hathon ko apne hathon me le liya.....
Uski ankhon se ansu nikalne lage.....
"Maine apko zeher nhi diya tha....."usne meri ankhon
me dekhkar itni masoomiyat se kha ki .....maine use
khinchkar gale se lga liya....
"Pta hai...mujhe...."
Subhi :- to phir sabke samne.....
"Pahle first aid lga do jan nhi to is jan ki jan nikal
jayegi......"
Subhi :- mai to bhool hi gayi.....
Vo jhatpat ....bahar gyi aur kuch min me first aid lekar
wapas aa gyi....usne mujhe dwai lgayi....sar me patti
bandhi......khoon ka risaw band ho chuka tha.......
Maine dhire se uski god me apna sar rakha aur kamar
me apne dono hath dal liye.....
Subhi :- ye kya kar rhe ho.....
"Tumhare karib aane ki koshish...."
Subhi :- mujhse door hi kab the......
"Kitna to door tha mai....janti ho Yeh Dooriyan maine
kaise bardasht ki hai...."
Subhi :- han ....mujhe kya pta hoga...mere to panch
pandav jo thahre .....
Tabhi Bahr aag aag ....ka shor sunayi dene lga.......Subhi
uthkar bahar Jane lagi.....maine uska hath pakda....usne
palat kar dekha....maine use na Jane ka ishara
kiya...usne mera hath chhudaya....aur darwaze tak
gayi.....use lock kiya ....aur wapas mere samne aakar
khadi ho gayi.....
Subhi :- aaj ki raat kisi ka disturbance nhi chahiye......
"Room hmara nhi hai...."
Subhi :- maine aate waqt hi nainika ko bol diya
hai.....chahe kuch bhi ho jaye.....mujhe bulana mat...mai
tumhare kamre me ja rhi hun sone .....
"Irade kya the madam ke ..."
Subhi :- khud ko nirdosh sabit karne ka....
"Vo to sabit ho chuka hai....to ab kya kare....."itna
kahkar maine use apni oor khinch liya......
Subhi :- aaj ki Raat ....hmari hai........jo chaho vo karo.....
Uski garam sansein mere chehre par pd rhi
thi......penkiller lene se mere sar ka dard khatm hone lga
tha....aur iske sath hi ek alag sa suroor mujh par chhana
suru ho gya tha.........
"Rukun ....ya phir......"
Subhi :- ab ......ruke to zeher dekar jan le lungi......
"Ye jan bhi tumhari....aur mai bhi....jab chahe tab le
lo...."
Subhi :- thappad khane ka man kr rha hai.....pta hai
kitna miss karti thi....
* Subhi ne mere sine par apna sar rakh liya ......
"Maine miss nhi kya tumhe.....specially tumhare in
honthon ko....tum kya jano inko bina kaise jiya hu
mai....."
Subhi :- tharkipna thoda kam kar do....Darling....
"Tum jo Prem ke sath kar rhi thi...."
Subhi:- bas aapko jlana tha...isliye thoda uske karib ja
rhi thi .....
"Aur usne galat soch liya to...."
Subhi :- already soch chuka hai ....vo sochta hai ...uske
kahne par aapke sath jo kiya maine.....uske bad ham
dono hi ek dusre se nafrat karne lage honge..
"Par aisa kiya kyo..."
Subhi :- Btya to abhi .....bas dekhna tha ki aap kaisa feel
karte ho.....par isse phle hi......
"Hmare beech jo Yeh Dooriyan thi ....uski wajah kya
thi......"
Subhi :-Abortion .... *....
"Hmmm"
Subhi :- shadi ke bad ....hmare beech kis tarh ki bonding
thi.....mera ishara....kis tarf *hai....
"I am sorry Subhi.....but you knew that...ki mai kitna
busy ho gya....tha...nayi company ...nya kam.....
Subhi :- itne busy ki ...apni biwi tak ke liye time nhi
nikala.....
"I am sorry... Meri success se hi to future tha hmara...."
Subhi :- yahi future dene ke liye .....rahi bat abortion ki
....aapko to mujhse koi matlab tha nhi...subah gye. ..rat
ko aaye..phir so gaye....ek din mujhe dophar me chakkar
aaye Aur mai Doctor ke Check krane ke liye gayi* aur
phir mujhe pta chla ki mai *.....mai pregnant
hu......aapke pas time nhi tha....isliye maine Prem ko call
kiya.....isse pahle ..ki aap kuch soche ..mai bta dun....vo
mera ek accha dost hai..friendzoned vala ....us din
mere kuch checkup huye.....
"Abortion se kya MATLAB iska...."
Subhi :- beech me mat toko nhi to mai kuch btane vali
nhi hun.....
"Sorry..."
Subhi :- jab reports aayi to ......use dekhkar mai shocked
di.....mere andar itni shakti nhi di ki mai bacche ko
janm de sakun......delivery ke time meri maut tay
di.....par mai hmare pyar ki nishani ko is duniya me
Lana chahti thi.....par Doctor ne salah di....ki tumhara
treatment ho sakta hai ....par tunmhe next pregnancy
tak rukna hoga aur isilye bacche ka abosrtion .......
"Aur tumne kra diya...."
Subhi ne meri bat ka koi jawab nhi diya.....uski ankhon
me ansu the.....
Subhi :- Prem mujhe bar bar ...bas abortion Krane ko
kah RHA tha...kyonki vo mujhe khona nhi chahta
tha...vo bolta....ki bhale hi tum meri na huyi ho ...par
mere samne to ho.....
"Aur itna bda faisla ...tumne"
Subhi :- pregnancy ke bare me kisi ko khabar nhi
thi....yaad hai .....maine kitani bar apse baat karne ki
koshish ki...par aap to mujhse baat karna hi nhi chahte
the.......vo Karwachauth vale din...jab maine aapse
jhuuth bola tha....suhag ke jode maine *Me apne bacche
ki sansein cheen li....kaun maa apne bacche ko marna
chahti hai...par maine khud ko bchane ke liye .....apne
bacche ko hi is duniya me nhi aane diya......iske baad
bhi maine kai bar koshish ki...par himmat nhi kar
saki.....kyonki mujhe aapke naraz hone ka andaza tha.....
"Puri pagal ho tum.....tumhari in khamoshiyon ki wajah
se hi hmare beech Yeh Dooriyan bdi......."
Subhi ne mujhe ghoor kar dekha...aur maine Kan
pakdkar sorry bola.....
Subhi :- lekin aapke liye ye janna jaruri thi aur isliye
maine us din abortion ki file table par rakh di....par
shayad meri kismat itni aachi nhi thi....aur mai bhool
gayi thi ki Prem ke sath Jane se pahle ...ek bar maine
apke sath hi Normally checkup kraya tha....aur usi din
Doctor ne bhi aapko ...meri pregnancy ki khabar di........
"Aur sab kuch ulta ..pulta kar diya ..maine....apni jaan
se bhi jyada pyari jaan ke ...upar hath uthaya...use ghar
se bahar kiya.....lanat hai ....puri bat hi janne ki koshish
nhi ki....har bar bas ....tumhe dekhkar khud hi faisla
liya....tumse bat karne ki jarurat nhi samjhi....jab tumhe
meri jarurat thi ...tab mai nasamjho ki tarh behave kar
rha tha.....phle agar mujhe ye bat pta hoti to mai khud
hi ye sab krta.....bacche se jyada jaruri tum ho mere
liye...par mai pagal ho gya tha report dekhkar......maine
socha tumhara Prem ke sath aafair hai.....aur uski wajah
se hi tumne aisa kiya....aur us raat jo maine bhool ki
uska khamiyaja tumse door hokar chukana ...Pda....."
Meri ankhon se ansu...aur uski ankhon me pyar chhalak
aaya.....maine use kas kar apni bahon me bhar liya...
Subhi :- I Love You..
"I love u to ..."
Hmare beech Kuch der *yun hi khamoshi chhayi
rhi.....mai bas usko apne sine se lgana chahta tha .....
"Par tumne meri files kyo di Prem ko...." Maine muskura
kar puccha....
Subhi :- sacchi btaun to mujhe gussa aa gayi thi aap
par.....mujhe hurt hua tha us din...bhale hi galti meri
thi..par us din apne mujh par hath uthaya aur isliye
maine ...soch liya ...ki apko mere liye time nhi hai...na
to mai bhi apki files dekar apke kam ko hi ...down karna
chahti ....mai aapko marna nhi chahti thi bas aapko
down krna chahti thi.....taki Ap pahle ki tarh free ho
jaye....
Mai bas uski nadani par muskura diya...
"Maine to socha ki tumhe koi blackmail kar rha ...."
Subhi :- isiliye jasoos bne ghum rhe the.....koi nhi kar
rha tha blackmail ......Jan....
"To phir vo tumhare duppate me microphone ......"
Subhi :- aap bhi na....apko pta nhi...mai kbhi kabhi
Bluetooth use karti hun...
"Vo bluetooth tha....."
"Subhi : han....
"Use ear me lgaya jata hai...dupatte me nhi...."
Subhi :- ab har waqt to lgakar ghumati nhi....isliye wnha
fnsa liya tha....mujhe kya pta aap jasoos *bne * Phir rhe
ho....
Aaj pahli bar sukoon mil rha tha mujhe.....sach kahun to
ye meri hi to galti thi.....hmare beech ki in *dooriyon ki
wajah bhi to mai tha...maine to Subhi se kabhi bat
karne ki bhi koshish nhi ki...uske bare me janna bhi nhi
chaha.....itna busy jo ho gya tha.....shadi ke baad mera
behaviour change ho gya tha...shadi ke phle jnha mai
uske aage picche ghumta tha...aur shadi ke baad
mushkil se hi time nikal pata ...lekin usne kbhi koi
shikayat nhi ki...
........
Subhi :- par apko poison kisne diya .....phir....
Uski ankhone me halka dar tha jo mai Jan gya....
Subhi :- apko poison diya aur phir....aaj phir se kisi ne
.......
* *Subhi ne mujhe kas kar pakad liya.....
"Tumne kabhi mujhe apna past kyo nhi btaya..Subhi...."
Subhi :- buri cheejon ko bhul Jana hi behtar hota hai......
"Par hmara past hmara future decide karta hai...."
Subhi :- matlab jo kuch bhi ho rha hai....uske picche
kuch purana kissa hai....
"Hame vo vaseeyat pdni hai...jo tumhare papa ne
tumhare nam likhi thi......"
Subhi :- usko pdne ki jarurat kya hai....vo to Dadaji jante
honge.....unse pucch lete hai...
"Are bewadi......kisi ki bat par ab mujhe bharosha nhi
hai...."
Subhi :- kya bole ..bewadi...aur upar se Dadu par
shaq.....
"OK sorry...pyari ...par ab hame vo vaseeyat pd Leni
chahiye....."
Subhi :- kal subah ham chalenge.....
"Tab tak ham kuch karein......"
Subhi :- ab mood change ho gya hai....to jab tak
Honeymoon nhi...tab tak kuch nhi.....
"Are meri honey ....in honthon ki honey ka swad to lene
do......"
Subhi :- ji nhi......
Ab confirm tha mujhe kuch Milne vala nhi hai....isliye
maine use bahon me bhra aur ankhein band kar
li.....aur dhire dhire ......mai neend ki aagosh me chla
gya......
*Subah meri neend Subhi ke jgane se khuli....
"Kyo jga rhi ho...."
Subhi :- utho abhi knhi chlna hai na....
"Huh...''
Ham dono bina fresh huye hi chupchap bahar
nikale....bahar ka nazara thoda sa bikhra bikhra
tha....do teen fire bigred ki gadi khadi thi.....
"Abhi to panch baj rhe hai...."*
Subhi :- kamre se kaka ki lash milegi....aur naye lfde
...isliye ...ankh bachakar abhi nikal chalte hai.....
"Itna Dimag vo bhi tumhare pas...."
Usne is baat ka koi jawab nhi...diya
Hamne subah subah hi wakeel ke ghar ka drwaza
khatkhatya...
"Subhi beta ...itni subah...kya bat hai..."darwaza kholte
hi Mr.Sinha jo advocate the..subhi ke ghar ke aur Subhi
ke papa ke ek acche s
Dost bhi....
Subhi :- uncle mujhe vo vaseeyat pdni hai...jo papa ne
banwayi hai....
Mr.Sinha:- kya ye bat Tumhare Dadaji ko pta hai....
"Nhi...."
Maine jawab dete huye kha....
Sinha:- Aap kaun....mai aapse kabhi mila nhi ....
Subhi :- ye mere husband hai....aapse kabhi mulaqat to
ho nhi payi inki....
Sinha:- mai shadi me to aaya nhi tha....to mulaqat knha
se hogi
..
Batein karte karte ....ham unke drawing room me aa
gaye......
Sinha :- mai jaroori kagajt ghar par hi rakhta hun.....
Subhi :- I know uncle ...isliye mai chember me Jane ki
bjay ynha aayi.....
Sinha :- vaise mai soch rha tha ki tumhe bulakar vo
vaseeyat pda di jaye.....kuch der ruko mai.....lekar aata
hun....
Subhi ki dhadkne tej chal rhi thi....vo bar bar apni
ungliyon ko tod -marod rhi thi....
"Mai todne me help karu...."
Subhi :- jarurat nhi hai....
"Are beta maine chay ..coffee to puccha hi nhi...."
Subhi :- koi bat nhi uncle.....
Sinha :- pta hai beta ...maine apni Jan se bhi jyada is
vasiyat ko sambhl ke rakha hai...
"Aur iski koi khas vajah..."
Sinha :- ek wada jo tha...mere marhoom dost se...jo usne
liya tha mujhse...
"Kaisa wada...."
Sinha :- ek din achanak tumhare papa mere ghar
aaye.....vo thode pareshan the....
Sinha :- itna pareshan kyo ho....
"Dekho Rajat mujhe ek aisi vasiyat chahiye ...jo Meri beti
ko zinda rakh sake...."
Sinha :- hua kya...btaoge...
"Tumhe to Amrita ke bare me hi pta hai....."
Sinha :- Hmm...
"Mujhe apni fikar nhi hai....us nanhi si Jan ka hai....kisi
tarh uski Jan bcha le...."
Sinha :- hua kya hai....
"Amrita .....ne suicide nhi kiya tha mere bhai....."
Sinha :- toooo....
"Tu bcha kisi tarh meri beti ko...kuch kanooni*Danv
pech LDA....mai chhodunga nhi kisi ko...ek ek ko sja
dilaunga"
Mere bar bar kahne ke bavjud usne mujhe kuch khas
nhi btaya...bas ise bachane ki jugad dhundta
RHA......pucchta RHA...aur achanak usne mujhse kha ki
"Meri sari property iske naam kar do..."
Sinha :- what...
"Jab daulat hi meri beti ke sath rahegi ..to koi uska kuch
nhi bigad payegi..."
Aur tab maine ye vasiyat bnayi......maine Subhi ki tarf
dekha jo vaseeyat pdne ke baad sunya ki mudra me
thi...MATLAB hamesha ki tarh blank face.....maine uske
hath se vaseeyat li aur khud pdne LGA...
"Mai ..Aaditya Vardhan...apne pure hosho hwash me
...apni sari chal - achal sampati ...apni beti...Subhi ke
naam karta hun...samaj ki nazaro me vo bhale hi
najayaj ho...aur aaj se vo meri har sampati ki jayaz
haqdar hai........Mujhe aisa mahsoos hota hai...ki meri
aur meri beti ki jaan ko khatra hai.....isliye agar Subhi ki
maut 18 saal ke pahle hoti hai....to meri sari jaydad
..."orphans homes" naam ke charity trust ko de diya
jayegaa.......
2- agar 18 sal ke baad uski maut huyi ...vo bhi kisi bhi
wajah ....chahe bhale hi natural hi ho us condition me
bhi......sari property charity trust ko jayegi....
3- uski shadi ghar ke kisi bhi member ke relation me nhi
hogi....aisa hone par bhi sari property trust ko jayegi...
4- shadi ke teen saal ke andar agar Subhi ki maut
huyi...us condition me bhi kisi ko kuch nhi
milega......Sab kuch trust ko jayega...
5-Subhi ki umra jab 26 sal cross kar jayegi....uske baad
agar uski maut hoti hai....to uski Property par haq jtane
vale ko sabit krna hoga ki uski death natural hai....us
document par meri patni ke signature hone jaruri hai
par Kisi bhi tarh ka hadsha sabit hone par ye property
charity ko chali jayegi......"
4.meri patni ki maut agar pahle ho chuki hai to us
condition me sirf aadhi property hi mere baccho ke
naam par ki jayegi...
"Ye kaisi ajeebo garib condition hai...mera matlab aisi
waseeyat kabse bnne lagi....jisme sirf Marne ka hi
andesha tha"
Sinha :- beta ...vo mera dost kam bhai jyada tha....jab
subhi ke sath maine uska ye attachment dekha to
mujhse dekha nhi gya....use bas dar iski maut se
tha....kyonki use shayad pta tha ki Amrita ke Jane ke
bad vo kuch din hi aur ji payega.....aur uske Jane ke bad
Haweli me namumkin hai ki koi use pale....use jaan se
bhi Mara ja Sakta tha.....isliye usne aisi ajeebo garib
vaseeyat bnayi...taki....Haweli vale use Har Hal me jinda
....rakhe.....uska kahna tha ki Daulat ke aage sari maan
...maryadein dhwast ho jayegi...... Aur is waseeytt ke
bare me tab take kisi ko btane ko nhi kha jab tak ...uski
maut nhi ho jati.....aur jab Aaditya accident me MRA tab
jakar maine uski waseeyat ke bare me thakur sahab ko
btaya tha....
Subhi chupchap unki baton ko sun rahi tha....idhar suraj
ki pahli kiran ne jnha Sara andhera nigla ...vnhi hmare
jivan me bhi roshni sansein *lene lagi thi.....
"Ab Hame chlna chahiye ..Subhi. "
Subhi :- hame dadu se is bare me bat krni
chahiye....unhe bta dena chahiye ki meri maa ke Katl
hua tha....aisa papa ko pta tha..vo qatil ko bhi jante
the.....isliye kisi ne unhe accident me marwaya.....
"Mai bat krunga..par tum koi kadam mat uthana...jab
tak mai na kahun....."
Abhi mera mood bilkul bhi nhi tha ghar jane ka ....isliye
maine Subhi se kha...
"Kyo na aaj date par chale...."
vo muskurayi ....aur han me sar hila diya....
Subhi :- vaise chale knha....
"Mandir..."
Subhi :- vnha jnha hamne pahli bar ek dusre se ikrar
kiya tha ....
"Han...."
Subhi ne mere ek hath ko apne hathon me le liya...ham
kuch der me hi mandir par panhuch gye...
Subah ka time tha....Aarti hone hi ja rhi thi....ham dono
ne aarti ki...aur picche ki tarf aa gaye....
Subhi meri tarf bas taktaki lga kar dekh rhi thi....
"kya hua"
Subhi :- mujhse ab door mat Jana kabhi....mai galati
karu phir bhi...
Maine to itna sunkar use apni bahon me khinch liya...
"Ab ham sath rahenge....duniya ki koi bhi taqat hame
alag nhi kar sakti....."
Subhi :- ab ham Prem ko samjha denge ...ki vo ab mujhe
bhool jaye ...aur kisi acchi ldki se shadi kar le....
"Milkar samjha denge...."
Ham dono do premi ....duniya ko bhulakar ek dusre ki
bahon me hi khoye huye the....Mandir ke picche vaise hi
koi aata jata nhi tha....kisi bat ka dar to tha nhi
Subhi :- Jan bhookh lagi hai....
"Mujhe kha lo..."
Subhi :- sachhi lagi hai...
"Kya khana hai..."
Subhi :- Date par aap laye ho mai nhi....
Mai Subhi ko sath lekar mandir ke samne ki tarf
aaya....ab itni subah kya milega....tabhi mujhe ek theli
vala dikhayi diya...
"Chalo ...aaj tumko band aur mattha(chhachh)khilate
hai..."
Subhi :- Date par koi ye khilata hai...
"Ye special Date hai my pyari..."
Ham theme vale ke pas panhuche.....aur use do band
aur do Mattha bnane ko kha...
Subhi :- accha lag rha hai....
"Bhookhi hogi bewadi " maine man hi man muskurate
huge kha....
Vaise accha to lagta hai....khonki jab mai jab
engineering ki preparation krta tha ...mera subah ka
nashta yhi hota tha...
Subhi ko itna aacha lga ki usne panch band aur char
glass mattha hajam kar liya....
"Kitne janm se khana nhi khaya" Maine Subhi se
puccha*
Subhi :- 24 ghante se...
Ham dono bas sham take yun hi ghumate rahe....hme
kisi ki fikar nhi thi....hmare sath kal kya hua ..kyo
hua....kisliye hua....ham dono to bas is pal me kho jana
chahte the....Subhi me bhi mujhse ek bar bhi ghar Jane
ko nhi kha....
Sham ke Saat baj rhe the ...jab ham ghar
panhuche....abhi mahaul thoda shant tha....ghar me utni
chahal pahal nhi thi...hame is tarh dekhkar kisi ne koi
sawal nhi puccha....
"Dadaji knha hai...."
Maine vnha khade logo se puccha....
Sabne upar *ki tarf ishara kiya ....
Maine Subhi se kha ki tum aaram karo jakar ...mai abhi
mil kar aata hun...
Usne bhi han me sar hila diya...aur apne kamre me
chali gayi...aaj uske chehre par sukoon tha...Jise mai
dubara khona nhi chahta tha.....
"Kya mai andar aa Sakta hun...."
Dadaji :- Isme itna pucchne ki jarurat kya hi.....
Dadaji khidaki ke bahar dekh rhe the....
Dadaji :- aaj tum Rajat ke ynha gaye the...vahi jo
advocate hai....
"Han....vaseeyat ke bare me janna tha...jo hame..."
Dadaji *-:- to kya Jana tumne....
"Bas ......aaj tak Subhi ke jinda rahne ki wajah ...."
Dadaji :- ab kaise bachaoge...use....
"Aapne aisa kyo kiya...."
Dadaji :- Maine aisa kyo kiya....maine kiya kya hai....
"Jankar bhi anjan ban rhe hai..."
Dadaji :- tumhe aisa lagta hai ...ki mai hi hun in sabke
picche....
"Mujhe thoda sa shaq tha...par vasiyat pdne ke baad
yakeen ho gya......"
Dadaji :- bolte raho...
"Aisi kya wajah thi ...jo subhi ke papa ne vaseeyat me
sirf*use bachane ki ...use*
Zinda rakhne ki hi condition rakhi....us hisab se dekha
jaye to Mr.Aaditya Vardhan ko kisse dar tha....sirf
aapse...
Dadaji :-*vo agar mujhse drta to ...mere khilaf police
station kyo jata.....vaise tum Bach kaise gaye......
"Bas ....aapki dua thi...mujhe Marne ke liye itne buddhe
aadami ko bheja...kya socha tha..."
Dadaji :- aaj tak Dayaram hi mere liye sare kam krta
tha....vaise vo itna budda bhi nhi tha....
"Par Jan to chali gayi na uski...."
Dadaji :- Afsos hai....
"Jisné apne bete aur beti ko Marne ka afsos nhi
kiya...use aaj apne naukar ke Jane ka afsos hai..."
Dadaji :- kisne kha aisa ki mujhe afsos nhi hai.....apne
eklaute bete ko accident me .Marne ka gam tum kya
jano.....
"To phir Mara hi kyo...."
Dadaji :- hmari ijjat aur sakh sab kuch danv par lga diya
usne.....hmari sari maan maryada ki dhajjiyan uda kar
rakh di thi usne.....
"Is nakare samajh me apni ijjat bachaye rakhne ke liye
apne apni bete ko bhi mar diya....sath me Subhi ki maa
ko bhi .."
Dadaji :- Amrita ...bdi pyari bacchi thi....mai use marna
nhi chahta tha...par kya karu Aadi usse shadi karna
chahta tha.....
"Jab bdi mummy ko koi problem nhi thi to phir aapko
kya dikkat thi...."
Dadaji ne ek minute meri tarf gaur se dekha....
Dadaji :- Rajput hai ham....aur hmare liye Jan se jyada
kimati hmari shan hai.....
"Uske liye chahe apni beti ya bete ko marna pde ...."
Dadji :-Beti...to uma ke bare me bhi pta chal gya....ek
Rajputo ka khoon jiski nashon me ho ...aur usi khoon
me kisi nichi jaat ka khoon mix ho jaye...aur yahi bat
agar kisk ko pta chal jaye...to phir kya ijjat raah
jati....Use seher pdne bheja*tha...na ki apni maryada ki
hadein par karne ke liye...use bahut samjhaya gya...par
vo nhi Mani...ek din pta chla vo pregnant hai....
"Aur aapne unhe maar diya...."
Dadji :- maine nhi Mara...apne hathon se kaise mai apni
bacchi ko mar sakta hu...Dayaram ne Mara tha
usko.....seher se ganv aa rhi thi bechari...mujhe mnane
ke liye.....aur agar vo ganv aa jati to....bas raste me hi
use gadi se utara ....uske hone vale pati ko gale se
lgaya....aur peeth me chhura ghonp diya.....bechara dard
se vahi tadap rha tha....meri beti use bachane ki guhar
karti rahi...to Maine use bhi zeher de diya....usne aisa
isliye kiya taki ....uska aashiq Bach sake...par agar uske
ashiq ko bachana hi hota to Marta hi kyo.....
"Aur aapne un dono ko mar diya..."
Dadaji :- teen the....Uma ke pet me uska baccha bhi
tha.....
"Itni krurta ...itne shant chehre ke itni **
Khatrnak chehra......"
Dadaji muskuraye ...aur bole...
Dadaji :- Aadi ko maine MNA kiya tha....ki bhul jaye
Amrita ko ...jo hua so hua...uski apni duniya hai is ghar
ki bahu ke sath....is ghar ke chirag ke sath.....par ishq ka
bhoot sawar tha us par.....hame pta bhi na chla kab
*Amrita maa ban gayi.....duniya vale kya kahenge ....kya
ijjat rah jayegi....is dar se usne pregnancy ki khabar ko
dbaye rakha ...par bacchi paida hone ke baad...kya
karti.....hmari haveli aayi ...royi gidgidayi...bas ...Subhi
ko apnane ki guhar lgayi....usne Subhi ke liye bahu ka
sahara liya...Aadi aur*bahu ke dwab me hamne Subhi
ko ghar me rakh to liya...par ....
"Par sawal ab bhi tha ....hmari ijjat ka kya hoga....jab
duniya ko is bare me pta chalega...." Maine muskurate
huge kha...
Dadaji :- aaj nhi to kal...sabko pta chalna hi
tha.....Amrita ke sath Aadi ka Rishta...to ek Raat mai aur
Dyaram ...uske ghar gaye....use bahut samjhaya ki Subhi
ko lekar knhi dur chali jaye....par na to vo khud Jana
chahti thi ...aur na hi Subhi ko wapas Lana chahti
thi.....Subhi to hmare ghar me thi...use kabhi bho mar
sakte the .....bachi Amrita....to DayaRam ne mere kahne
par uski gardan dba di......
"Unhe Marne ki kya jarurat thi......"
Dadaji :- mai problem ko jad se khatm karne ki koshish
krta hun ...na ki upar se...kya pta kal uske andar apna
haq lene ka kida kulbulane lgta.....
"Apne bete ko kyo..."
Dadaji *:- Amrita ki suicide se vo tut gya tha ...isliye
kuch din Subhi ko nhi Mara....taki vo Is ladki ke sahare
apne aap ko sudhar sake...hua bhi aisa...par pta nhi ek
din use knha se ye pta chal gya ki mai Amrita ke ghar
gya tha....bas usne mujhe katil samajh liya.......isliye
aaye din vo mujhse ldta tha...
"Sahi to samjha tha"
Dadaji :- tab mai samajh gya...ki ab mera beta ...mera
nhi rha....uspar abhi tak nasha chda hai us ladki ka....ek
din aaya ...mujhse jhagda kiya ...bola mai aapke khilaf
police complaint karunga......
"Aur ek bar phir ....aapka beta ...aapki man maryada ke
beech me aa gya...."
Dadaji :- marna PDA isliye....mai apni shan se koi
samjhauta nhi kar sakta .....
"Jab vaseeyat ke bare me pta chla to subhi ko jinda
rakhna majboori thi...."
Dadaji :- beshak.....usne hmari jaydada ko apni dhal bnaya.....
"Ab kyo.....phir *mai kyo..."
Dadaji :- Ye to hona tay tha....Subhi ki maut to tay
thi....bas tum beech me aa gaye....tumhe kya lagta
hai...ki tum log love marriage kar loge ....meri ankhon
me dhool jhonkar aur mujhe pta bhi nhi chalega.....
"Par maine aapki anumati se shadi ki thi..."
Dadji :- Subhi ki niyati uski maut hai....jo maine Apne
bete ki vaseeyat pdke hi decide kar di thi......tum to
bewajah beech me aa gaye...
"Ab aap kya karoge ....."
Dadaji :- Subhi ki maut ko tum rok nhi sakte .....
"Kash .....maine aapka ye roop na dekha hota ....."
Dadaji :- tumhara bad luck beta par tumne dekh liya
hai......
"Mujhe Zeher aapne hi diya tha ...."
Dadji :- han....slow poison tha ....
* * * * * Maine socha tume aaram se mar denge ...dhire
dhire krke ....par Us Subhankar ne Sara mamla hi bigad
diya .....
"Phir mujhe ynha vapas kyo laye...."
Dadaji :- ek plan fail ho chuka tha mera ....mujhe thoda
samay chahiye tha ..mamle ko suljhane ke liye ...
"Aapko pta tha ki ye janne ke bad ki mujhe kisi ne
zeher diya hai...."isse pahle ki mai kuch bolta unhone
bat ko katte huye kha...
Dadaji :- hame Tumhari har Aadat ke bare me pta tha
....mujhe ye bhi pta tha ki tumhari curiosity ...tumhe
iske piche rahne vale chehre ko janne ki iccha jarur hogi
....
"Aur isliye aapne nye sim card liye ....aur Subhi ko
blackmail krna shuru kar diya ......"
Dadaji :- hahaha.....mai aur blackmail ...aisi baccho vali
harqatein...even kisi ne use blackmail nhi kiya ....bas
tumhari khali khopadi ne ....jisme jasoosi ka kida bhra
tha ....usne ye maan liya ki koi Subhi ko blackmail kar
rha tha ......
"Aur Aapne Subhi ko hi mere samne lakar khda kar diya
....jabki aap jante the mai Ye bat nhi man Sakta tha ..."
Dadaji :- han par na...kuch se kuch bhla hi accha hota
hai...."
"Hmare rishtey ki dor itni bhi kamjor nhi hai ....ki kisi
ke kahne par mai ye man jata ki Subhi mujhe mar sakti hai ....."
Dadji :- situation aisi ho chuki thi ....Prem ka
aana....Subhi ka uske prati jhukav tumhe vichalit kar
rha tha ....."
"Aur aapne iske liye nainika ka istemaal kiya ...par use kaise ...."
Dadaji :- har insan kabhi na kabhi ye pyar vali bimari
se grashit hota hai....Tumhe kya lagta ki meri Haweli me
koi bhi yun hi muh uthakar chla aayega aur mujhe pta
bhi nhi chalegi ....
"Aur aapne use isi bat par zinda rakha ....ki vo aapka a
sath degi ...."
Dadaji :- Nhi ...maine to bas apni beti se bat ki thi ....aur
use to Uma ke bare me pta tha ....aur jab maine Nainika
ke bare me btaya ki vo kya gul khila rhi hai ...to mere
pairo par vo girkar Nainika par raham ki bheekh
mangne lge....
"Isliye vo mujhse itna khfa rahti thi ...."
Dadaji :- use maine hi kha tha ki ...ab Prem ko wapas
bulao ....use Subhi ke karib Jane ke liye kaho ...taki
tumhare beech Yeh Dooriyan kayam rahe ...."
"Aapko pta tha ki Prem Subhi se pyar karta hai ....aur
aapne iska pura fayda uthaya ....."
Dadaji :- jnha tak mujhe Subhi ke bare me pta tha to vo
tumhe na kuch btati aur na hi koi hint deti ....
"Aur isiliye aap mujhe Subhi ke pas Jane ko kahte ....taki
aap sure ho sake ki Subhi mujhe kuch btayegi ya nhi ...."
Dadaji :- han ...iske liye maine Bitiya se kha ki Prem se
kaho ...use revenge Lena hai....jo tumne uske sath galat kiya ....
"Aur Prem Kamayab hua ...."
Dadaji :- usne tumhari files Prem ko de di taki tumhe
contract na mil sake.....
"Kisi na kisi din ye bat mujhe pta chalegi aapne iska
andaza pahle hi LGA liya tha ...."
Dadaji :- Han ....aisi batein kabhi chhupati nhi ....
"Ab puri bat samajh aayi .....jab mujhe ye pta chalegi ki
Prem ko sirf mujhse badla lene ke liye Subhi ne file di
hai ...to zeher bhi de sakti hai ....par isse hota kya ...."
Dadaji :- to shayad tumhari Jan bach jati *..
"Matlab"
Dadaji :-Tumhe is bat ka gehra sadma lgta jo ..tumhe lga
bhi aur tum Use *Chhod kar chale jate ....uske bad Subhi
toot jati.......Prem uska sahara bnta...kuch dino me ham
Prem ki shadi krte...aur uske baad Prem aasani se Subhi
se sign kra leta ....
"Ye mujhse hi kah diya hota ..."
Dadaji :- ham aur tumhare aage apni property ke liye
.....kabhi nhi....
"Aur agar Subhi MNA kar deti to....."
Dadaji :- Subhi ke sath Prem bhi divya darshan ko jata....
"Lekin ab to Kahani badal chuki hai...."
Dadaji :- han ...Mujhe nhi pta tha ki Bdi Bahu ...achanak
sabke samne ye bat bol degi ....maine nhi socha tha ...ki
Uma achanak use itna jaleel karegi ....sabke saamne use
yun jaleel hota dekhkar maine socha ...ki bas tum aur
mna kar do ek bar....
"Aur maine MNA kar diya ...."
Dadaji :- maine turant hi nya plan bnaya ki aaj Raat hi
tumhe mar dunga ....tumne nashe me bhi the ..
"Aur jab Subhi ko ye pta chalega to khud hi ko nuksan
panhuchayegi ....."
Dadaji :- par tumne Sara plan hi gadbad kar diya .....
"Vaise aapko pta hai ki Bhabhi ko maine hi uksaya tha
...kyonki Mai Subhi ki ankhon me dekhna chahta tha
....uska pyar ...uska vishwas aur har vo cheej jo apni
ankhon se * Byan *karti *hai ...Apne liye uski ankhon
me maine pyar dekha tha ...atoot mohabbat ...thi ...usne
sab by an kar diya tha apne ghutano pr baith kar....."
Dadaji thoda chakit huye par bole kuch nhi ...hmare
beech me thodi der shanti chhayi *rahi ...
Dadaji :- phir tumne Sabke samne use yun jaleel kyo
hone diya ....
"Taki aapke chehre par aayi vo muskan dekh sakun..."
Dadaji :- hmmmm....
"Ab aap kya karenge ..."
Dadaji :- hamesha plan B hota hai....
"Par subah to mai aapko sabke samne lane vala
hun...aapki haqeqat sabko btane vala hun....."
Dadaji :-par manega kaun....kaun yakeen karega tum
par....aur kisme itni himmat hai ki vo mere khilaf ja sake .....
"Mere pas aapka confession hai..."
Dadaji :- kaisa...
"Aapka video confession jo ..aapne abhi kha ...maine sab
record kar liya ....hai...ab aur nhi Dadu ...aapko apke
kiye ki sja jarur milegi...kal subah suraj * Ki *Pahli kiran
ke sath aapka *ghamand * bhi chur ho jayega ... *."
Dadaji :- Bacche ....yun hi nhi log mere aage sar jhukate hai.....
"Aapke pas koi chara nhi hai ...siway mujhe apni baton
se drane ke alawa ...aap mujhe Marne me do bar fail ho
chuke hai....iska matlab ki par upar wala bhi hmare *
*sath hai...."
Dadaji Vo bas muskurate rhe.......unki is rahasmayi
muskan ke mayne mere liye samjhna mushkil tha.....
Dadaji:- Is Haweli me koi bhi paida nhi hua hai jo mera
sar jhuka sake.....
"Kal Subah suraj ki pahli kiran ke sath.aapko aapke
ghamand par jo chot panhuchegi ..." Isse pahle mai aage
kuch aur bolta ....
Dadaji :- Jindagi bhar ham is Haweli me shan aur sar
uthakar rahe hai ...aur aage bhi rahunga .....marte dam
take ...han marte dam tak......
"Jaisa aap chahe.....aap khud ko bachaiye ...aur ..."
Bina bat puri kiye mai vnha se utha....aur Subhi ke
kamre ki tarf chla aaya ....Subhi andar bed par leti thi
...shayad kisi gahan soch me thi....Mere aane ki aahat se
vo meri aur palti ....Mai bas use dekh kar muskuraya ....
Usne bhi apne chehre halki fiki si muskan le aayi....mai
uske sirahane baith gya usne apna sar meri god me rakh diya ....
Subhi :- mai kitni buri hun na.....
"Kyo...kisne kha...tum to meri jaan ho..."
Subhi :- aisa aap sochte hai...par mera dil abhi tak nhi
man rha....
"Tum masoom ho na ...isliye ....dil ki sacchi ...tumne jo
kiya gusse me kiya ...uske liye knhi na knhi mai bhi to
jimmedar hun ...".
Vo kuch nhi boli ....bas apne sar ko palat kar mere sine
par rakh diya ...aur kaskar jakad liya....
Maine bhi use kuch nhi kha ....bas kuch der mai yun hi
baitha rha ....Subhi so chuki thi ....maine use bistar par
letaya ...aur vnhi uske pas hi let gya....mai bas uske
chehre ki tarf hi dekh rha tha....shanti aur sukoon aaj
uske chehre par thi....itni masoomiyat bhra chehra
dekhkar mai uske mathe ko bina chume nhi rah ska
......aakhir mai bhi to thaka hua tha ...neend ko apni
aagosh me lene me koi jyada waqt nhi LGA....
* *
* * * "Thaapppp...thapppp....thappp...." Meri ankh khuli
jab kisi ke darwaza thokne ki awaz sunayi di ....
Subhi bhi alsayi ankho se uthkar dekhne lagi .....Maine *
Jake darwaza khola to samne Bhabhi khadi thi ....unki
ankhon se aansoo rukne ka naam nhi le rhe the....
"Kya hua bhabhi " maine kisi anhoni ki aashanka se puccha ...
Bhabhi :- vo dadaji ....jaag hi nhi rahe....
Tab tak Subhi bhi darwaze par aa chuke thi ....
Subhi :- kya hua unhe ....jaag nhi the MATLAB...
*Itna bolkar vo kuch der but bankar khadi rhi...aur rote
huye Dadaji ke kamre ki tarf bhagne lagi....Mai aur
bhabhi bhi uske picche bhage......
* *Jaise hi mai unke kamre me ghusa ...meri ankhein
khud -b-khud us nazare ko dekhkar nam si hone lagi
thi.....Dadaji ne is duniya ko alvida kah diya tha
....Doctor se pucchne par pta chla ...shayad unhone
neend ki goliyon ko overdose le liya ...jisse shayad unke
lungs ne kam krna band kar diya ...aur sote huye hi
unhone is duniya ko chhod diya.....
* * *Mai dhire dhire unke karib jane lga jnha unka
chehra ab bhi chamak rha tha...."
* *"Mai Janta tha unhone aisa kyo kiya .....apni shan
...apni ijjat ke khatir jo apni sagi auladon ko mar Sakta
hai uske liye khud ko khatm karna kitni bdi bat ho sakti
hai.....maine ek nazar us dwai ki bottle ki bottel par dali
jo ...lagbhag khali ho chuki thi.....phir unke us nirjeev
sharir par jisme ab koi Jan nhi bachi thi......Dadu ne jo
kuch bhi kiya ...mujhe iska koi dukh nhi ....ab bhla mai
kaise unse itni nafrat karta jisne mujhe hamesha aage
bdne ke liye protashait kiya .....jisne mushkil ghadi me
mujhe aage bdne ka hausla diya .....mai manta hu ki
unhone jo kiya apne swarth me kiya tha ...par mere liye
unka ye chehra anjan tha ...aur jab tak mai unke is naye
roop se nafrat kar pata tab tak unhone khud hi duniya
chhod di....vo kabhi kisi ke aage sar nhi jhuka sakte
the.....iske liye khud hi unhone maut ko gale lgana sahi
samjha .....mere charo tarf bas rone ki hi awaze aa rhi
thi....meri khud ki ankhon me ansu the ....Subhi unhe
betahasha hilaye ja rhi thi ....uski ankhon ke aanshoo
rukne ka naam nhi le rhi thi ....
* * *Ab Mere aage ek nya sawal tha ....kya mai dadaji ki
Haqeeqt kisi ko btaun ....ya unhone jo kiya use unki
nadani samajh kar bhool jaun.....Mere liye faisla karna
bahut hi mushqil tha .....Maine Subhi ki tarf dekha
....maine har us shaksh ki tarf dekha jo abhi is kamre
me maujood tha ....sabki ankhon me unse door hone ka
dukh tha .....kisi ki ankhon me unke liye apman nhi tha
ynha tak ki meri sauteli sasu maa ke bhi ......phir maine
nainika ki tarf dekha jo mere aage hath jode khadi thi....
* * Maine faisla kar liya tha ....unhe maaf karne ka
....unhone apni sja khud chuni thi....apni maut ko gale se
lgaya ....kyonki vo apna sar jhukane ka sapne me bhi
nhi soch sakte the...
Ye Sab jankar Subhi par kya gujregi....itni aasani se vo
sab sahan *kar payegi ....shayad nhi ....unki aakhiri
iccha bhi shayad yahi hogi...jo ho gya use ab bdla to nhi
ja sakta tha ....unke prati logo ka vishwas dekhkar Maine
vo Confession delete karne ka faisla kar liya.....
Maine apne kamre me gya aur mobile uthaya ....to usme
ek msg ka notification aaya hua tha jisme dadu likha
hua tha maine use open kiya ....

"Abhi abhi tumhare kamre ki tarf aaya ....khidaki khuli

huyi thi ...yunhi andar jhank kar dekha to tum dono
shanti se ek dusre ki bahon me lete huye the ...pta nhi
mujhe kya hua ...aaj pahli bar Subhi ko tumhare sath
dekhkar dil ko thodi shanti mili ...pta nhi kyo hua aisa
....mai wapas apne kamre me chla aaya ...tumhare Jane
ke baad me ajeeb si bechaini hone lagi....mujhe is baat
ka dar nhi tha ki subah kya hoga .....lekin aaj pahli bar
mujhe ehsas hua hai ki Subhi kya sochegi ....jab vo
janegi ki uske maa baap ka katil vo insane hai jispar vo
khud se bhi jyada vishwas karti hai....us par Jan
nyochhawar karti hai...uski jindagi me aaye toofan ka
uska bhla chahne vala insaan hi jimmedar hai.....Aaj
pahli bar mujhe man maryada ki jagah kisi ki najaro me
girane ka bhay sta rha hai ......
* * *Pta nhi kyo jab aaj maine apni picchali jindagi ke
panno ko palat kar dekha to usme mujhe siway apno ke
khone ke alawa kuch nhi mila ......han Sid beta ...mujhe
aaj ahsas hua hai rishton ke aage man maryda ,shan -o-
shaukat sab bekar ki batein hai....lekin ye bat samjhane
mujhe bahut der ho gyi beta ....aur jab aaj ye bat samajh
me aayi ....to khud ko kitne hi gunaho me lipt
paya.....mujhe ab sans Lena bhi mushkil ho rha hai....ek
ek pal meri ankhon ke samne se ghum rha hai ....tumhe
aur subhi ko sath dekhkar ...aaj mujhe apni uma aur
aadi ki yaad aa gayi.....aisi shan kis kaam ki jab aapne
hi na sath ho.....
* * Mera ye faisla kayartavash liya hua faisla nhi
hai...tum logo ka apradhi hu mai mere liye ye sja bhi
bahut kam hai....bas apne apradho ka prayaschit krna
chahta *hun....mujhe apne aap se nafrt hone lagi
hai....jise kandhe par baithaya ....Maafi ke layak nhi
hun....ho sake to maaf karna ...alvida ...bas yahi ishwar
se kamna krta hun tum hamesha khush raho....subhi ko
hamesha pyar dena...kabhi uski ankhon me ansu mat
aane dena.....
* * *Tumhara Dadu ...."
Msg pdne ke bad meri ankhon se aansu khud hi galo par
ludak gaye......maine msg aur video dono hi turant
delete mar diye ...aur wapas vnhi aa gya ..jnha unka
parthiv sharir rakha hua tha ......
Tabhi Subhi mere gale lag gayi aur rone lagi .....maine
use *Samjhya par uski ankhone se ansu band hone ka
naam take nhi le rahe the *... ....sham ko unke parthiv
Sharir ka antim sanskar kar diya gya .....aur maine Unke
is *Dusre pahlu ko unke sath hi vida .kar diya ....kyonki
mai Subhi ki ankhon me aur udashi nhi dekh Sakta tha
...mai uska vishwas aur nhi tod sakta tha ..ab to bas use
duniya ki har khushi deni thi....uske chehre ki
masoomiyat dobara vapas lani thi...
* * *
* Har Insan ka apna Ateet hota hai ...aur har insan se
galtiyan hoti hai....bas itna hi kahunga ki un galtiyon pe
parda dalne ki bjay un galtiyon se sabak le ...Man
Maryada apni jagah hoti hai ...aur prem apni jagah
.......Agar aap pyar karna hi chahte hai to apne ghar ke
sanskaro ke dayare me rahkar ....kare aapko koi nhi
rokega.....log kahte ki pyar me ...jaati dharm kuch nhi
dekha jata ....Rang roop...jati paat sab jayaj hai....han
manta hu jayaj hai....par agar aapko us pyar ko apna
hamsafar bnana hai...to pahle aapko apni*
* Ab jyada mujhe kuch samajh me nhi aa rha mai kyalikhun .....
Are Are ja knha rhe hai ....Apne Prem ke Premkahani
sunte jao.....usko saja bhi saja deni jaruri thi ....isliye
uski shadi maine Shikha se krwa di
* Bechara ab subah sham office Jane ki bajay ghar par
jyada rahta hai....
* Nainika ko apna pyar mila aur uttam bhaiya ko maine
sex time bdane ka idea bhi de diya .......aur Mai....
Subhi :- Darling knha ho ....
"Kitchen me baby "
Subhi :- ek ghante ho gaye aur abhi tak aapne dinner
nhi *ready kar paya :
* * *"Bas ho gya Jan..."
Subhi :- agar next 10 minute me dinner ready nhi hua to
bahar couch par sona pdega vo bhi bina chadar ke

* * * * * * THE END