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i can say the harm was golden,
gorgeous, even, now
because it was mine;
it belonged to no one else
& it taught me to poke
at my own wounds; &
i hummed to myself
that everything would
grow back in time
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like how this morning
for the first time
in months i saw
my face in the cup
of rippling coffee
& i kept drinking
anyway
& i tried to
speak last night
& i’m sorry that
my voice went
only as far as my
fingers
rain: to give
something a name
only to watch it
fall
110 degrees with ginger ale
unmarried; you
were sweeter than
a sugarcane
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slice the carrots thin, add them to the pan with
oil; bread in french is pain. pain in french is
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love. which is funny (cut
up the coriander, add, let wilt, add
egg, watch as it turns sun-yellow;
add sprig of parsley, steam)
because nothing good
ever came easily.
i have not one word from friends frankly, i wish we were dead
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take me
all around the world tonight
show me a picture of myself
i dropped clean,
like a penny in a slot machine
into the sea where
only love remains;
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as i followed you
& there wasn’t a color that had made me shy
until i saw the blue
somewhere in the night with
a light in my eyes & wasn’t it
true?
in incandescent lights
antisocialites
watch a wilting flower
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i didn’t see you in the street
so why were you in my dream
last night?
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i was priceless
undeserving
your eyes
were a hopeful
kerosene
blue; i watched the sprig
of summer evening light
falling upon the latticed
apple pie on meré’s
windowsill
where we sat and
watched the sun
set as if
called
time is a motherfucker
“time is a
motherfucker” i
almost said once, to nobody
wondering how
we will cry in the snow
& that isn’t it cool that
lowercasedly
we lounged in your
loveseat, a pretty name
for that sort of thing.
i burn; i shiver;
out of this sun, into
this shadow.
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it didn’t matter
because we were going
to mariner’s apartment
complex, or somewhere
similar– we’d overlook the
red oily waters & think
of living, & think of sin
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because i feel as if my
life has been a
series of withdrawals
shortcomings
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it’s been an
amazing feeling
planning a picnic for two
swinging in hammocks
on the south lawn
sangria, the stars, and u
III
is it cheating
if you’re in love
with the better version
of myself ?
michelangelo II
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& i could keep doing this until my
brain doesn’t work anymore
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the room was charged
with hope; we flung our words
into the air
III
i enter the room
with the assumption
that nothing needs to
be fixed
ambition is powerless
in the face of a name
a sonnet
trees, paternalism
trees, again, being repeated, self-paternalism
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linguistic registers
temporal proclivities
never felt better
than
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this: all i needed was this
passing a green apple jolly rancher
back and forth, tongue to tongue
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i wanted for, i longed for
a taste of his
divine specificity
a sip, perhaps
of the sublime reciprocity
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and when i speak the
word “love”
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if i cannot escape it
i must tend to my
curiosities
beyond my identity
a shattered monolith
with escapist dreams
nothing i ever write
is what it shouldn’t seem
written out on
printed maroon ink
on pressed yellow pages
in michelangelo’s afternoon
the hissing of summer longs
an evening, summerless
godless and so daring:
quiero alguien que se atreva
just so i might have a dance
once again
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i am punctuated, punctured
by this summer longing:
long days, long daze, longer nights
when we get on
the midnight train: we alight
eventually
such a lovely word, a whispered word
& laid the blanket down to rest, in the sun, in the shade
in the shadow & light
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