Mandigma, Joshua Vergil V.

CESE/A10

What Do I Really Believe In?

Everybody has something that they deeply believe in. It might be the idea that animals
and other kinds of life exist on other worlds, or it could be the idea that we were already bonded
to and connected to our soulmate since we were born. Ever since, I, for one, have begun to
believe in a boatload of other things. I think that we are all made with a definite purpose in mind.
So far in my 19 years of life, I've gone through a lot. I've had good and difficult moments, and
those experiences have taught me a lot. As I go about my regular daily activities, I overcome
issues one by one, and as time went on, I established my convictions. This will share the faith I
have built-in academics, relationships, and myself. And find out the answer to the question,
"What do I truly believe in?". A question that is simple yet one that is difficult to answer.

The most crucial thing we must concentrate on is our school works as a student. Climbing
to the top 1 was never my thing as a kid. I felt that the only way to achieve this was to attend a
class every day—my attitudes toward studying evolved as I proceeded through high school and
into a pilot section. Before enrolling, I believed that earning a grade was sufficient as long as I
learned and had fun. But, as I was surrounded by brilliant individuals coming from different
elementary schools, I had no choice but to adapt. If before, I wasn't already a grade-conscious
person, now, I've started to become one this semester. I felt that an 85 was insufficient for me
because I believe I need to perform more and be more like my new classmates. I worked hard,
and I graduated from junior high school with honors. Then, as I entered senior high school and
was surrounded by average students from the same campus and transferees, my attitudes toward
studying changed. For four years, I was surrounded by clever individuals, and I haven't observed
any differences in our attitudes toward one another because grades are what meant to most of us.
However, when we worked on various projects in senior high school, the personalities of my
previous classmates emerged. Discrimination existed between pilot section and lower section
students. At that point, I realized why we, the pilot section, were separated from the regular
students on our campus. Even though I was not on the side of my former pilot section classmates
when we had an argument with the other sections, I was also guilty of our personalities. I
consider myself fortunate to have lower-section friends and classmates on my side, even though
I've only known them for a few months. After that disagreement, I concluded that intelligence is
nothing if you have a lousy personality. Additionally, people you've just met may be more
trustworthy than those you've known for years. I was saddened by losing my previous pilot
section classmates, but I was also relieved to meet new friends who had been there for me
through thick and thin.

I've built relationships with various people as I've met new people. These folks taught me
many lessons that I now use in my daily life. First is my connection with my family. As I've
grown older, I've realized that I'm not close to my family. I used to think that being an introvert
excused me from sharing my troubles with them. As I went through life's ups and downs, I
realized that my family is always there for me, no matter what. Second, my friendships. As a kid,
I was not very excellent at making friends. During my elementary school years, I had more
enemies than friends. At school, they think I'm a troubled child because I'm always in the
principal's office for fighting with bullies. Because of that experience, I believe that being a bully
won't help me make friends.

I was immature at the time, so I transformed myself and remained a neutral person. When
I moved to a different school, I was called by a student who eventually became my first friend,
and it was the first time someone attempted to be friends with me. I didn't hesitate and soon
became friends with him. But as time went on, I known that he didn't want to be friends with me.
I didn't know her actual purpose for pretending to be friends with me, but he back stabbed me. It
hurts because my one friend has deceived me. I realized I couldn't trust people easily, even if
they say they want to be my friend. You have to get to know them well before you can trust
them. Then, as I entered high school, I made some friends, and for four years, I was surrounded
by them, so I built a close bond with them. But not all of my friends remained till the end, and I
refused to accept this even though I knew it was true. It's difficult for me to take that someone I
once considered a friend has become a stranger, but I have no choice but to accept it.

Nonetheless, I graduated from junior high school with five great buddies who remain my
closest companions. As I entered my senior high school years, I was surrounded by new
individuals, including new girl best friends. I always wanted to have girl best friend in junior
high school, but I never had any. I realized that having a girl best friend differed from having guy
best friends because I can be honest with them. They are also the finest advisers and comforters
and true one-call-away buddies. And there came the relationship with a special someone. Before,
I was the only one in my circle of friends who didn't have a partner, and I believed I needed one
since everyone else did. Because I was under too much pressure to have that someone, I went
into the incorrect relationship, resulting in losing a close friend of mine. That realization taught
me that I don't need to rush things like this, since genuine love will make its way to me. But I
didn't learn the lesson because I had my legal girlfriend months following that event. Everything
occurred too quickly, and I lost friends because I wanted to be loved by that someone. From now
on, I will continue to believe that everything happens for a reason. When it gets out of hand, love
may be genuinely terrible. I regretted having a girlfriend for a while because I forgot about my
friends. Still, I honestly didn't regret having the relationship since it offered me a lot of great
memories that only a partner could give me. I believe that experience taught me to treasure every
moment with someone I love since I never knew when it would end. I also realized that people
come and go and that not everyone stays. Finally, first love never dies, but it doesn't make it my
true love.

As I progressed through my challenges, it was always me who made the decisions that
terminated a problem and provided answers to those problems. I grew as a person with the
support of those around me and my own experiences. Also, as I grew older, I got more mature
and acquired specific lessons on my own. The first is that I am the only person who can solve my
issues; friends and family are there to help me; the final choice is always mine. Second, every
action I do has implications, whether positive or negative. Therefore, I should be cautious about
every decision I make. Third, self-care and self-love are essential. I am not currently practicing
this belief of mine, but I am working on it. I've always taken my problems seriously, and my only
remedies have been to cry and skip meals. However, doing so will not address the problem I am
now having, and I will be creating a new one concerning my health. Recently, I've been dealing
with myself, attempting to control my emotions so that I don't hurt myself again.

Finally, God will always find a way. In my 19 years of life, I never imagined I would be
able to overcome the issues I've faced in the past. I would never wish to go through the
challenges I have, but I believe that going through them has helped me develop and become a
better person. Our beliefs change as we become older. Life is full of surprises, and every day we
learn something new about ourselves, but what do I truly believe in? These are difficult questions
to answer as I have various views in life. But what counts most is that no matter what I go
through, whether it's happiness, grief, or just a regular day, I will always believe in God. Know
that everything He wants me to go through has a purpose, and one day I will get answers to all of
my questions concerning the causes for the troubles I had gone through. We all want to have a
joyful, flawless life, but we will never feel happy if we don't experience problems, because with
these problems we learn the true value of life.