SYMBOLISM

I am turning in grade 8 since we transfer here in Subic Zambales. Because

the life in province was really hard .So my parent find a job here and enrolled us in
SNHS.My parents really trust me so much than my sister ,especially my father cause
Im papa’s girl before.Even in small achievements that I had ,they are really proud of
me even though my sister is more intelligent than me. Their love is over whelming,
their trust on me I really felt that.I love my parents,I appreciate everything theyve
done for us to have a better life and to give our wants in needs everyday.But suddenly
everything has changed.When I turned in grade 9 I didn’t expect that this will be the
stage wherin Ill be experienced things that are not expected to do by a person who
trust the most of my parents,which is me.Their trust on me is like a paper,very neat
and clean ,no dents or any wrinkles,in short its not a scratched paper.I started to do
things that I didn’t did before .I skip my class one time,because my bestfriend push
me to go with her ,I refused but she said that we will only do it once and it will not
going happen again and added that nothing much will be lose if we try it .She maid
me believed and curious ,I guess she has a point .I agree with her and we skip all our
subjects .My bestfriend introduce me to her group of friends and they’re all nice to
me.I really enjoyed to have bond with them.We just roamed everywhere and nonstop
talking nonsense things but to be honest I feel free that time.It just like I can do
whatever I want with np limitations.Because nobody seeing me aside from my
bestfriend and new friend .Im really happy and enbjoying that moment because I
think it will be the first and the last .After that we went home,Im so tired that day I
forgot to do my projects and assignment for tomorrow .When I arrived in school my
teacher told me that I missed one quiz but for me its not a big problem at all so
nothing to be worried.My bestfriend talk to me an inviting me again to skip our
class,I don’t wanna go with her but I cant stop myself .Its the feeling that when you
tried it once,you will become addicted to it.So I joined them again and I didn’t expect
that theres an alcohol and cigarette involves.I tried to stop them but they response
that they used to do it before thats why Ilet them to do whatever they want.Until I
followed to go with them many times to the point that even if theres no classes ,I go
out and hang out with my friends .I learned how to lie to my parents ,everytime I ask
permission to them to go out ,I always tell them that we have a group projects even if
we don’t have .I used to lie that time until it become worse.I always come home
late ,to the point that i got home in the morning ,its around 3 am .I also learned to
make fight in the school and being called in guidance office many times until they
called my father.Papa noticed everything ,my cutting classes,making fight in
school,missing quizzes,projects ,performance task and absences.My father was really
shocked and disappointed about what he found out about me .Ofcourse he got mad
and keep on asking if whats wrong with me,why I did that.And I only response him
by crying .After what happened we became stranged to each other ,our relationship
become far ,the closeness and bond before was not the same anymore.I ruined and
break my families trust on me .One day the Lord gave me an opportunity to confess
what Ive done to the whole member of our church,to my parents especially to the
Lord .I cried and ask for forgivesness,they also carried away by my emotion.After
that I hug my parents and say sorry to the both of them.Week passed ,I thought that
my family already forgive me at the same time ,also back their trust on me .But sad to
say its not that easy .Its really hard to move now because every wrong move has
always a judgement and doubt .Even though I prove it many times that I will not do
the the same mistake that again,but still they don’t believe me.3Yrs ago since I did
that mistake,but wherever I go they always monitoring me until now.Their trust issue
is really overwhelming and struggle to me .But I already accepted it but not losing
hope that someday my parents will fully forgive and trust me again.Thats why I want
to value my trust and my parents trust in me,cause its like karma is hitting me cause
Im experiencing it right now to some of my friends who I trust the most.Thats why
trust is like a paper,when you rubbed it,it will never go back to its former appearance.