Chapter I

* There is no dime in this life

the soul died a while ago.

Sound of wind tells loneliness of the world and takes you with it, clouds, few days old full and grey,
cover the scene. The most of the looks

sky is full with grey.. not even clouds share the same thoughts, lighter there, darker there, a
story packed for everyone.. Earth around you covered in blank taste of autumn, green grass now is a
memory in grey, brownly face.. a second takes its time..
The wind gives lifely dance to all thats surrounding with free heart, its dancing flawed steps, a calm
silence, all the cracks and steps of life thats surrounding, snakes crawling in bricks' and sticks, leaves
and seeds, roots of trees and ground itself, deers running fields of harvest and brush in the look, birds
hug the sky with arms open and go, carelessly.. Lake to the right always loves to keep time busy, somehow
inviting.. everyone goes there, especialy the little ones.. bugs and ants carry around their constructions,
flies and insects glide above, sometimes swans.. one or two or more, gather 'round for a fish or just a
swim and with their beautiful white workful necks they garden above the water.
And nights' are scary.. when sun starts to walk down, madness opens sleepy eyes and the ones
to enjoy shout cheerful laughs, frogs going wild competing with voices, catching flies! Bugs' hidden
in grass say their sayings' and distant voice of bird calls for order!' ,but madness plays around for
everyone, always busy..
But not today.. today time decides to stop for a breath from all the rush. It takes another look at future
and', is here, it’s really here.. standing.. standing everywhere and doing..something.. what it does,
does someone know? Sound' is clear though, clear and easy and today it shares a scene with all of them.
...the dark blue clouds, months of age, in distant scene have souls full with thickness too..
Far fall.. of above.. still is the last look in back of the skull, green wooded chains sleeping the ground,
have these thoughts freezing around getting looks and touches for time to time, some rain if clouds
go for a cry. Sand full rocks an' scraps gives back a bed.
To remember the place when clouds broke to free... is covered by same old lake, but in morning mist.. ,
thought takes a second.. .
- Is it worth to go back..?.. -
Look' to left' through eyes that run the earth to jump in sky! Lifeful turns' whip
the scene with blank! , taste of whip'.. it gives'..! ....

..thunderous monsterous sounds dance the sky in dark blue. Black feel has it. Upper right still throwing
sunlightly peaces here and there.. an’ a little gold sharpens its blade on the edge,
sound bites the ear everytime it jumps new places,
beast playing.. ..playing... playing?

*Here and there

was light,
was everywhere,
darkness' thick in might.

and sets..
a mood..
Black breath breathes the sky, a colour of eyelook colours the same, trees giving green and brushing the look,
sand roads empty only bathing rocks. Wind that runs singing low voices, but no one else..
rush .. is no ones game, lake gives looks to time in questioning faces, time' under a tree waiting curiously,
but look is told,
look is waiting, view is calm, silence! ..looking for the right spot..
- thunder brawls it’s enemies..

Them wanting.. not saying.

A place to be!

*to watch the tides collide

and feel of motion cracks inside.
the stars'
of the memories'
now turn to black dust' and travel the world

Is what clouds hava as a guest. More or less..

- It’s how it feels, that brings the pain - , a thought to head.. look turns other cheek. Silence, now is
the scream of the scene, confused shadows run skin full blackness willing to win the race, a wish
to explode travels so loud, so loud it almost takes place! ..stutter in a soul breaks the rythm..
Fear of fear that fears itself - hateful laugh lets to be known - a fearful path that went' leeds only to
cliff that's downward look, steady shook up on a hook, breeze hits it! ..earthly balance figures new moves..
.. dark sweaty fire clears a head with kick' of lifeful feeling, fire! Of rage, pain and truth! And soul beneath.
To run the earth to jump the sky’, in playfulness, that soul has a wish',

Run!.., kid full empty colors shouting funny thoughts, scene slips out of stance' , faster!
faster and
faster and faster and faster!
*To jump the sky!

to see the clouds

to sit on edge
to feel alive
in deep of earth
to dig a grave
to feel
the warmth
of beat
of heart.

Wings as wide as possible, bird travels the scene! Through dustful spin it enters the room of sky, to take
a right, to take a left, to stop and look, a soul is friend'.
A cloud sneaks on back and follows around, spin in circles' dive the sky! To left and under cloud to hide..
Travel 'round the scene to get the right of feels..
then fall under the clouds..
Where stormfull wind drops a knot' leaving tail behind and it’s dust through your.. - head flies dizzy! -
storm dancing the earth,
fast again',
A heart ripping storm with will of existing in blackfull peace. Clouds swim around the sky as
sea pumps red beats. A wish to explode travels so loud, so loud it goes in clouds' to find the heart!
a look of star,
middle dark of clouds reveals a star of harmfull red for heart to beat.
Black shadows recall this a memory and part of it hides in ways of storm and travels ahead!
Both, in helpful reach, touch the glimse of each face!

..

The look of own evil welcomes the scene

- I'm here to take over. -,
sounds raw, from a dark man, spit splatters out of his mouth, these words take my
heart and soul cries words of freedom, it gets me excited -

- Im here to take part -, foolish mouth runs the words and I snap only after,head so fast, I become a passenger.

Wish to know and I get closer, but so does he, we meet at hands reach and I continue my movement
forward’ to see him passing by. Turn! Look at his back. - Speed up! -, to come closer
the faster I go the faster he runs. Runs so fast,
so fast in lightning he takes a stormload,
so fast he does to explode!

too much running we both disappear..

thunder cracks own bones..

I open my eyes only that he opens his.. look turns down, hands white with veins pumping black, nails covered
in mud, skin in bruises, pain in bones and lips are dry. A finger crosed over your lips and breath' alive, back
floating free in dark shadows to neverending universe.
- I'm allie with clouds -, thunder speaks deep out my throat. Feel how it vibrates your chest.. I do.
- so eyes we share the same..
I'm now with a one I used to hold, free to go... -, .. and I improvise.. , I speak to my head, life plays
inside
'fraid to survive
yet 'live to try..

Present already shaking in my hands as it knows the future.

So I fly lower and turn in the middle of the sky, it might get ugly, but let it be damned.. what a view..
Earth cleansing with swiming green sea of grass under the feet yet sky 'bout to die full passionate red
above the head.
But the middle... is with calm.. trees and bushes wash in wind, roads white with green tracks in between
to help the road... Sun.. is set. Red purple yelloworangepink watever......... whatever that is
in the middle, might be it..
but it’s distant and looking a friendly face.. whatever that is..

,stutter in soul breaks the rythm,

Smoke cover the head from inside to out and get thicker' and
dark....
- Oh..yess.. -

With blood.. already boiling I cramp my fists and start to gather the winds, I feel those savagery..
- I know it know! -, I gather the earth the ground and the sand full wind and roots and pull' the scene
inside’, mind travels ahead to see whats coming, and 'smash it to the ground! It takes a part and leaves
me on the knees, no breath, I explode! Right from the earth to fly mid air where winds gather themselves!
I take a look at home, - stutter in soul breaks the rythm -, and break’ it how much I dare with frames
keeping thoughts I bite my memories and breathe predators blood now! More of it and I pull to source an’
explode again!
Ashes in the air fall like snow. I feel it, I see it! Teeth scrapping, fists cramped I gather the fellow shadows
and build a nerve from new! To push above trees, I fly in direction that leeds to my neighbour, I feel the
earth reaching, - more to the sky, a look' and I drop with fire on his yard! Face him! -
Opens his chest and comes full force! Block! Turn to the side! Crush him, crush him! Block! Breath the
fire in his glimse!
A feel of his home,
and I burn his fire!
Punch I do' cry I do' how much I can, I scream, I shout, I end! Reach my hands to the sides! Nerve
shaking! Open up and through madness turn them in long chains of 'strong, violent fire! Spin' and I burn it,
shake it, live it, kill it!
Fire,fire,
fire!
Burns!
*I punch the trees
and smoke the water
I bring the roads
so full of slaughter!

crazy eyes take a breath.

The sound after somethings burning,

- know it? -,
- but like hot poisonous snakes!.. -. - Further don't go! -, a set of thought wants to break it away, but'
- I dont care..
So I breath in' and earth' with me.. lift from my knees. I build a heat' and earth' with me, scene starts to
shake! I start to burn' and earth with me! It starts to fall'
and I with it! -

*It is at this moment

I feel my rage,
and wish it upon the world
It is at this moment
I feel insane
And crumble in fields of rage thy have I built.
- It's me and what I do! -, burns high', so high, so loud and destructive I become a
star, so hot I burn it all!
*he kills the life
to keep alive
in death he gives
a life
thats mine

- and a burst' of cryful ragefire!

...
 Sound of wind tells loneliness of the world and takes you with it, clouds - chest full breath! -
few days old, round and grey, cover the scene - heart bouncing! Most ..of the looks!
And my feet on the ground, mind.. ..st-stuttered..
Hands are mine.. unfortunately.. is what I think, from time to time.. .
Wreck under feet kicks the ear open! Green little forest underneath' has houses broken' of my feet.
Little bugy friends screaming from demage and I blow my mind!..
Another thought now past.. few steps already tooken forward' till I realize I'm here..,
I put my eyes on my feet and start walking around in wonder, I sing but my heart is broken. I feel..
- How do you feel? -,
place between my ears is empty, legs full weight, eyes wondering empty rooms and flesh is calm but
head is empty.
- tired.. tired of not wanting to feel.. tired, just tired.. -,

Eyes close, palms open, just give it time..

Sound of wind'
tells loneliness of the world,
and takes you with it..
I drop my ears
and my soul'
hear the tears'
drop my clothes'

Blankness of life.
Lonely' blankness of life.. so lonely, that stories tell themselves. Stories full colour and sound, dance and
dream, laugh and cry, truth or dare, life and death..
- heart falls down from the cliff..

..and I'm good.. -

- I'm now the one I used to hold, free to go... ..and I improvise.. -, with blood..

at ease I cramp my fists to warm them together into a breezing wind and listen, I feel
those savegery.. I know it now.. I think..