Feelings

Why do I feel?

Cuz sometimes it seems like I’ll never heal

Why am I so weak

Its like my walls have a leak

I put them up for safety not for show

But, they keep crumbling blow after blow

If only I couldn’t feel

Then i could tell my heart to heel

My brain is what will save me

Cuz, you see

My heart And my feelings

Are what will cause me to crash into ceilings

While my brain keeps me alive not necessarily happy

At least that’s better than being sappy

Someday I won’t feel

Then my heart will have finally figured out how to heel

Everytime I love

I must remember that doves

Are a sign of love, peace and joy,

But, I also must remember, they are weak

And, I refuse to not seek

Safety and security wherever I roam

Because not even all the books and tomes

Realized that it’s either safety or being happy

You can never have both without being sappy

I have to stay strong for my friends and family,

That’s why I can never feel, cuz it’s for my family.

Feelings suck and will get me killed

But, my brain keeps me sharp, and will keep me skilled.

In the fight between love and the brain,

Love loses, but the warriors we create will train.

Those trained warriors, and the walls we build,

Will keep our hearts from getting out, at that, we are skilled

We do these things, to keep us safe

In that, we must always have faith.

Feelings will kill us

Of that we are sure thus,

We use our brains

And murder our feelings.