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22
Moons
Ignota
Delivered on each new and full Moon, 22 Moons brought together 22 poets,
writers, artists, thinkers, astrologers, practitioners, witches
and technologists for 22 lunar phases.
Contents
The Fool 6
Jenny Hval
The Magician 9
CAConrad
The Empress 16
Sophia Al-Maria
The Emperor 22
Bhanu Kapil
The Hierophant 25
Ted Hand
The Lovers 28
Federico Campagna
The Chariot 33
Hoa Nguyen
Strength 36
Bones Tan-Jones
The Hermit 39
Alexis Pauline Gumbs
Justice 48
Himali Singh Soin
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Death 55
Ariana Reines
Temperance 58
Suzanne Treister
The Devil 61
Caspar Heinemann
The Tower 67
Johanna Hedva
The Star 70
Michelle Tea
The Moon 76
James Bridle & Navine G. Khan-Dossos
The Sun 79
Rebecca Tamás
Judgement 81
Jesse Darling
The World 85
K Allado-McDowell
Contributors 89
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The Fool
Jenny Hval
Le Mat, The Fool, is the opening card of the Major Arcana. Their lips
begin to move, but there is no sound. This is because the Fool marks the
beginning, or perhaps the time before the beginning, before a sound is
heard.
Because of this, The Fool exists solely in relation to other cards, not in
a realm of its own. If it is placed facing away from another card, that
other card is drained of energy. However, if it is placed facing another,
this other card is charged. If the lips of The Fool move, sound will be
heard in the following card.
In one depiction,* The Fool is a pilgrim about to step off a cliff, holding
a tiny red balloon. You are left to wonder if they know where they are
going or are blissfully unaware. You are left to wonder: that balloon
won’t hold. You are left to wonder: how eerily it reminds me of Equinor,
drilling of a new exploration well in the Cedona sub-basin in the Great
Australian Bight, while bush fires burn through half of the nearby
Kangaroo Island. It is estimated that half of the koala population there
has perished.
There will be no oil spill here: look, we have a balloon, we’re the safest,
most environmentally friendly, most Scandinavian oil company there is.
You are left to wonder: that The Fool is walking to their death blissfully
unaware, eerily reminiscent of the theory of free-market capitalism,†
that good old tune, that circular breath, that no stopping it because there
is no difference between nature and the flow of money. If we happen to fall
off a cliff (extinguish the earth) in the process, then we all died out of
natural causes, because this was nature.
†
In the Wikipedia article on Capitalism, the word «free» appears 68 times.
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why we can’t restore or save it. We can only jump to our death, blissfully
privileged, as long as this is the story we are telling.
I imagine The Fool as walking boldly into the future, over the edge of
the cliff, into the Cedona sub-basin, with a balloon in one hand and
the thumb of the other placed in their mouth. An image of narcissism
maybe, or an homage to the Anthropocene’s need to understand the
individual as a complete ecosystem (symbolised by the number of The
Fool: 0).
In the Equinor tarot deck there are 78 cards, and every single one
of them is The Fool, making not a sound and saying not a word but
pointing to the next card, which points to the next, which points to the
next.
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The Magician
CAConrad
We Must Understand Our Creativity Is an Organ, a Vital One
for Ian and Eleanor Swordy
The Magician is pointing toward Jupiter with one hand while the other
points to Earth for grounding of the transmission. Draw this card to be
told you are brilliant, and all you need to do is finally realise you must
fully embrace your creative tools and integrate them into your daily
life’s work, pleasure, and sustenance. The Magician has access to all four
Earth elements with the ability to draw down a fifth, and sometimes
the sixth element from Jupiter. It is time to awaken every living human’s
creative organ. There are catastrophic predictions for the near future,
and the only way we are going to survive and thrive together is to
imagine where to best place our energies today collectively.
You must listen to your intuitive self, which flows through your heart
chakra. Listen as in trust what you are hearing, then trust yourself that
you can do it. Now is not the time to hesitate, now is the time to leap
and know the forces guiding you also have your back. For a (Soma)
tic poetry ritual with the Magician in this time of ecological crisis
build it progressively for nine days, each day adding a new ingredient.
Start with how we take for granted our waste. Liquid, solid, which are
hazardous, which are biodegradable? Start with a daily awareness of all
forms of waste we produce and where we think they go, then investigate
further to find out where they actually go.
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of your body at once, eyes closed, quietly listening, feeling the strength
and also the fragility of your body and life.
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The High Priestess
Zola Jesus
there is no material without the spiritual: to live and exist solely within
the physical world without acknowledging the power of the unseen
begets imbalance and chaos. this new moon, let us listen on the border
with an ear to each side.
we think we are the smart ones. but we are foolhardy, greedy and
destructive. we are not graceful. we are not divine. we are young. we live
alone, consciously set apart from the one that gave birth to us. we do
not identify with her, the dark place where primal knowledge is born.
we do not want her. yet our survival depends on her conditions. we take
it for granted.
this self-imposed alienation sets us, in the west, against earth, destroy-
ing the equilibrium for all. though it may not feel like we are living in
nature within the big cities, we are. nature is all. it is the buildings as
much as it is the trees.
in order for a place like earth to exist, we must all play our part within
it. we must read the lines and then rewrite them all: the history of
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violence, dispossession, exploitation. respect the opportunity to feel
total presence.
find the way to the outside. the escape from this half life.
for once: listen to the spirit guides, listen to the shamanic trigger. the
witches. the medicine women. listen to her.
we must trust the power that rises. the high priestess empowered is
dangerous.
creature comforts
inoculate us
from the heavy handed truth
that waits outside our door
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maybe it’s enough --
-- (no)
meanwhile,
the chasm widens
and soon we will blister awake
to the flaming sirens of our lost great mother
‘
YOU JUST
HAD TO
LISTEN!
’
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The Empress
Sophia Al-Maria
III.
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And just an edgeland
Of undeveloped territory
It offers
Brief respite
On the high road
We running out on
The long freeway
Trafficked by lawmen
And the flashing brights
Of oncoming history
But hey all this is really
Going the wrong way
Cuz I got no truck with time
This time
And I’ll tell you a secret:
There’s no compass rose
Growing in my garden
And there are
No walls left for you to climb
I’m just out here
No fear
Flanked by the final harvest
The dusk of data
Feeding a dustbowl
And now things
Well…
They feel like
They’re getting really real
And like…
I’m as shocked as you
As pissed off
As that baby eagle
On the Empress’ lap
Shell-cracked too early
Like the dawn treading
Egg squinting up at
Tomorrow’s sky
With its stubbed wing
Held up half-formed.
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And its beak
Open wide to cry
Til she’s filled full
‘No hungry.’
She full
Like Sade’s voice
Holding us
Together
In synch
Tonight
Trooping the colours
of lunar rotations
And toy soldier’s formations
Of love
Marching waves
Under a shared shield
Airlifted off the battlefield
By metal wings
Following the directions
Of an escaped dove
The first dove
Who sighted land first
Belly-round and prey-gray
Who hatched us a hope
And now
Look!
Double! No!
Triple Rainbow!
There!
In the shimmer
Dusted with petroleum dew
And now
I notice
Here I am
Again
At home
In exile
In this new (but familiar) cuntry
This secret homeland
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I was born in
But never visited
And find that
Now
I’m subject to this ruler
They call ‘Queen’
A star-crest figure
La Reina!
Al Malik/a!
So damn kingly!
In the cloak
She tore it
In the robe and the mantle
Of impossible possibility
And she speaks so wisely
Of unsayable things
With a subtle smile
Worn over sharp teeth
And I hear her in me
In us too
A deep root
A rhizome voice
Spreading and cracking
Sometimes adolescent
Somehow smoke-worn
But still with
A soft tremolo
Sounding out
The bright echoes
Of the thoughts we carry
Some still/unborn
So tonight I’m going to listen
To Pauline
And stay here
Keeping vigil
Til early morn
And hope
The Full Lune Leo
Might tell me
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A secret
Might call me
Out
And with a
Heavy hoist
Might raise me up
Like a flag
Announcing
The birth of this:
Her new regime
And the death of that
Big bad idea
Of the old
Not the free
The myth that
That there might ever be
Anything other
Than a revolution
Led by lovers:
That’s we
(123)
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The Emperor
Bhanu Kapil
8 * Quick Notes on the Emperor, Climate Grief and the Future of the
Real Moon
6. The Emperor, reversed, steps across the threshold only when invited.
The illusion of consent initiates the logic of descent. Down you go. The
Emperor, in this reversed form, has come to your house for only one
reason: to consume what gave you spirit, vitality, life.
7. Grate chalk on the step. Close the blue door. Look in. On the new
moon, write sentences on paper that’s fragile, plastic, ridged with petals.
It doesn’t matter what kind of paper it is. Perhaps there’s no paper.
DEAR ONE, I HOPE YOU HAVE A FANTASTIC AND
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8. It’s August, or almost August, the eighth month of 2019, as you read
these words in the place that you are reading them. Thank god that
Mercury Retrograde business is over. The Emperors will never read
this newsletter, and so let’s keep doing this: reading and writing in new
ways. Let’s build a pyre of red roses. Let’s bite the Emperor’s ankle if,
glancing up, we see the sole of their boot above our face. Let’s fight
them if we have to, if they invert themselves above us, and we will.
Because: the new moon is for not pretending any more. The new moon
is for the deepest form of play known to human beings but also animals,
robots and the invisible beings who inhabit every place on this planet,
whether we perceive them or not. And when I think about what this
deep play is, then I know it’s something like this, which is what Sayra
Pinto said to me, that fizzy, grey day on the Boston shore in March,
2015, as the new moon rose above the Atlantic. She said: ‘The ancestors
need us to grieve for them, but they need us to dream for them too. One
or the other is not enough.’
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The Hierophant
Ted Hand
‘Change yourself, the heavenly wisdom says, from dead philosophical
stones into living philosophical stones, because I am the true medicine
and I change everything which cannot exist into something eternal.
Why are you possessed by madness? Through yourself but not from you,
is everything which you need and which you wrongly seek outside.’
We chose Carl Jung as the Hierophant of the Philip K. Dick Tarot be-
cause of his influence on Dick, who also created a new esoteric tradition.
The Hierophant is a teacher who initiates students into the mysteries of
the hieratic art of theurgy, stretching back through esoteric traditions
like Tarot and Alchemy to the Neoplatonism and Hermeticism of Late
Antiquity. Dionysius the Areopagite had his Hierotheus and occultists
harken back to the legendary figure of Hermes Trismegistus.
Philip K. Dick was a faithful reader of Jung in the 1950s and 1960s
and in his novels we find characters like Mr. Tagomi of The Man in
the High Castle wrestling with Jungian ideas. Dick’s series of mystical
experiences in the 1970s referred him back to Jung’s work and its
esoteric influences, including the Hermeticism of early modern thinkers
like Paracelsus, Jacob Boehme and Giordano Bruno, reflected in Dick’s
masterpiece Valis.
Like Jung, Dick turned to the esoteric traditions for help with healing,
as part of a response to the trauma that he had experienced and
perceived in the world around him (when he had a vision of Asclepius
he asked for medical attention). We can understand Dick’s mysticism
in the context of the Kabbalistic tradition of Tikkun Olam, or repair
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of the world to bring it closer to a state of harmony. Just as the Jungian
alchemist seeks to bring light to the darkness of the Unconscious, the
Kabbalist performing Tikkun Olam redeems the spark trapped in the
darkness of matter.
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The Lovers
Federico Campagna
‘The Gods, who live on Mount Olympus, first fashioned a golden race
of mortals; … like the Gods they lived with happy hearts, untouched by
work and sorrow. … And then this race was hidden in the ground. But
still they live as spirits of the earth, holy and good. … The Gods, who
live on Mount Olympus, next fashioned a lesser, silver race of mortals.
… A child was raised at home a hundred years and played, huge baby,
by his mother’s side. When they were grown and reached their prime,
they lived brief, anguished lives. … The earth then hid this second
race, and they are called the spirits of the underworld. … And Zeus the
father made a race of bronze, … worse than the silver race, but strange
and full of power. They loved the groans of violence and war; … their
weapons were made of bronze, their houses bronze. But when this race
was covered by the earth, the son of Kronos made another, fourth, …
more just and good, a godlike race of heroes, who are called the demi-
gods – the race before our own. … Far-seeing Zeus then made another
race, the fifth, who live now on the fertile earth. I wish I was not of this
race, that I had died before, or had not been born. This is the race of
iron.’*
†
G. Leopardi, La Ginestra
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A trace of this saving medicine can be found already in Hesiod’s lines,
where it gleams like an interruption in the avalanche of the ages. The
race of heroes, incongruously emerging between those of bronze and
of iron, is an exception to the flow of time itself. For a few generations,
while the heroes took over the stage of the world, decline seemed to be
almost suspended. Although the freedom of mortals remained restricted
by the pitiless bonds of Ananke (divine Necessity, superior even to the
Gods), nonetheless it was possible to suspend their fall through the
ravine of time. It took heroes to do so – and not just one hero, but a
whole world that was full of them
With the typical irony that clothed his wisdom, Socrates replied: ‘I
think that there is no difficulty in explaining, for the name is not much
altered, and signifies that they were born of love (eros)… Do you not
know that the heroes are demigods? … All of them sprang either
from the love of a God for a mortal woman, or of a mortal man for a
Goddess; think of the word in the old Attic, and you will see better
that the name heros is only a slight alteration of Eros, from whom the
heroes sprang. Either this is the meaning, or, if not this, then they must
have been skilful as rhetoricians and dialecticians, and able to put the
question (erotan), for eirein is equivalent to legein. … All this is easy
enough; the noble breed of heroes are a tribe of sophists and rhetors.’*
Like Odysseus, who was among their ranks, the heroes were not only
sailors or warriors but also storytellers; rhapsodes capable of catching
time in its falls and of suspending it mid-air through the ravine of
the ages. Conscious of being partly fictional themselves, the heroes
knew how to enter the narrative wheel of time and to arrest its course.
Only the heroes could postpone the final catastrophe of the world; not
indefinitely, alas, but only as long as their song continued.
‘Foul wars and dreadful battles ruined some; some sought the flocks of
Oedipus and died in Cadmus’ land, at seven-gated Thebes; and some,
who crossed the open sea in ships, … were killed at Troy.’ Thus ended
Plato, Cratylus (397 CE), translated by Benjamin Jowett
*
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the first age of heroes. And yet, Hesiod continues, they still live to this
day ‘a carefree life, besides the whirling Ocean, on the Blessed Isles.’*
The heroes have moved very little from the world, entering a realm
whose distance from us is ‘vertical’ rather than geographical. Safe on
the Blessed Isles, like the Mahdi of Shiism who lived in hiding over the
past thousand years, the heroes reside within the heart of each mortal as
one of their existential possibilities.
But our present generation wasn’t born out of the love between a mortal
and a God. Before us, the race of iron has done its best to sanitise the
sky and the earth from any trace of what is ineffable or divine. Our
birth was under nefarious omens. We are not the heroes: our words
are too stiff and frayed to be woven into a net as wide as a kosmos. The
quest of our generation cannot be to save time from its own collapse.
Again, the phantom of catatonia returns, as it did during the Greek
era… And it whispers: ‘What can you do, now, if you’re unable to
act effectively on the world?’ We cannot be heroes, but we can create
the conditions for others, after us, to be them. We can repopulate the
Lucian of Samosata, True Story, II, pp. 5–28
*
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sky and the earth in the same way as Eros, ‘born out of poverty and
expediency’,* can render fruitful even the most barren soil. Like those
who betrayed the age of bronze and its degradations, we can be the
exceptional lovers that bind once again the race of mortals and that
of the Gods. Even though we cannot conquer time, we have still the
freedom to betray our own time. Trans-dimensional lovers, we can be
the immediate ancestors of the heroes.
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The Chariot
Hoa Nguyen
Greedy, The Chariot can serve the needs of self, ego-in-the-world,
poised on the edge of a fortified city. The I wants to go faster at rest, can
be seen currently as car exhaust on King’s Highway 401. Vroom vroom
But The Chariot is also The Lovers’ after-echo, the small sun of the
solar plexus as a you/I, connected to grand purpose.
See The Chariot depicted at ease with the mythological Sphinx, symbol
of time, calm in endlessness, rivering.
appreciation drive
affinity branching
directed by stars
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Arrive as generative presents / presence
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Strength
Bones Tan-Jones
being at one with ourselves and our isolation requires strength.
in times like these i turn to what is around me — the plants and herbs
of the land, and my cupboards. the medicine is within.
i would like to share with you a potion, an ancient recipe passed down
through the mouths of many witches. recently this remedy was the
subject of a legal trademark battle in massachusetts. happily, the herb-
alists won, successfully defending fire cider as a medicine of the people
that cannot be patented by anyone.
fire cider
an immunity boosting tonic
an excellent way to connect with plants and herbs that you keep in your
everyday kitchen
re-defining them in terms of their power.
with intention, slice all your ingredients and place in a glass jar.
pour apple cider vinegar over them until all the ingredients are
submerged.
place in a cool dark place for optimal benefits.
each day, give the jar a shake or turn to let the liquid seep through all of
the herbs.
it is preferable to let the mixture brew for four weeks or longer; however,
the tonic can be drunk after a few days.
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i invite you to write, on a piece of paper, all the things you can think
of that make you feel strong, your inner strengths. celebrate these of
yourself.
place this paper under the jar for the length of time you have decided.
during your daily jar shakes, speak aloud your strengths, imbuing the
liquid with your power.
when ready to bottle, sieve out all the large ingredients and seal the
liquid in a glass bottle.
you can take a teaspoon daily, in the morning and night, to boost your
immune system. if you feel the onset of cold symptoms, increase to
hourly consumption.
you can also take a teaspoon in hot water, with honey or your choice of
sweetener.
this is just one simple kitchen witch’s tool to maintaining a strong inner
fire.
what are your daily tools for survival?
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The Hermit
Alexis Pauline Gumbs
now that you know that you are a planet, touch your continents, observe
your shorelines. tend to the holes you burnt into your atmosphere.
breathe. and since you are mostly ocean, honour your saline capacity
and cry, or sweat, or spit if you have to. let your own depth astonish you.
feel the heat of your core.
now that you know that you are a planet, consider your orbit. thank
yourself for the grace it took not to crash into other heavenly bodies.
balance your magnetism and your push. and thank the reckless meteors
that did scrape you. now you can call their deposits mineral and jewel.
finger the ridges of your scars and say this word: mine. remember that
no one can dig into you without your permission. it is for you to make
mountains, it is for you to make valleys out of what happens. listen to
your faultlines, the intimate edges of your hunger.
now that you know that you are a planet, be round around yourself
and whole. be old and patient with your days, remembering how you
used to be before oxygen was such a big deal. let yourself look back on
your sulphuric youth and then laugh at yourself, never forgetting how
that part of you still lives deep in your caves waiting. think back to the
time when everything that now makes up your day would have been
impossible for you to imagine.
now that you know that you are a planet, ask your rivers what they
want. ask them where they want to go, what and who they want to
nourish, and how much. meditate on your flood plains, the mud of you,
the fertile place of stuck. notice what is growing. acknowledge who
keeps coming back.
now that you know that you are a planet, listen to your sky. note exactly
where the lighting only almost lands. play with your clouds but lightly,
they will help you understand. the edge of you is not the end. and at the
end of you this is not over.
rain
earthquake
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wildfire
birth of a mountain ridge
whirlpool
lightning storm
tornado
thunder
overheating
winter
pollution
resurgence of an ‘extinct’ species
erosion
hurricane
pull of the moon on the ocean
clearcut
monsoon
whale migration
butterfly migration
meteor landing
volcanic eruption
coral bleaching
healing of a rainforest
birth of a new element
el nino
cooling of the ocean
pandemic within a parasitic species
explosion of a nearby star
diamond
birth of an island
melting glacier
wind
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The Wheel of Fortune
Nisha Ramayya
The Wheel of Fortune is the tenth card in the deck and rich with nu-
meric symbolism in its occasions of three, four, and ten. These numbers
can be interpreted is many ways: three rivers flowing through the earth
body, three sounds comprising the seed mantra om, three qualities of
all really existing things (whiteness, redness, and blackness). Four sides
of the triangle in space, four stages of vāc (voice, speech, language, and
sound; conceived as a goddess in Tantric Hindu philosophy), a poetic
meter made up in fours. Ten directions, ten Mahāvidyās (great wisdom
goddesses), ten states of the body produced by love.
The wheel itself might be the spinning wheel as turned by the Fates; or
the discus, thrown by Viṣṇu to cut Satī’s corpse into fifty-or-so pieces;
or the wheel used for raising water from a well; or the sun god’s chariot
as it rolls over his dominion; or a potter’s wheel; or the circle of a
peacock’s tail; or the belly-button, as used for mystical purposes. Before
counting your luck, remember that the wheel of fortune is sometimes
regarded as a weapon; a weapon without rule even for the ones that
wield it; it chops, it drags, it turns, it turns.
Infatuation
Beginning again, the goddess is rendered susceptible. Her body sets the coordi-
nates of the whole wide world, but she herself is stuck: believing in the reality
of worldly objects; watching the news; falling in the direction of the wound.
She falls upon the grave of the wilful child, upon the raised arm of the corpse.
A tree trunk stops five arrows. Sara Ahmed’s rod as the will of the parent, our
arms as life after death. Bhanu Kapil’s mother’s memory of a woman who
had freed her arms. Nat Raha’s arms kind and close arms, brown arms and
private disarmed. The two of us with Sandeep Parmar with David Marriott
with Suzanne Césaire’s arms of miraculous refusal, talking, taking notes. This
tender extraction of ourselves from our wounds.
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Making stupid, stand in business, ‘by the
jingling of ’ class stupefaction in love
as the strong one ‘their bracelets | as they bend
their graceful’ breaking off their weakest arms.
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‘Will of the parent’ waving from windows
winnowing baskets learned from the parents
‘hands attached & gathered’ produce neighbours
‘dead labour’ tongue your enemy your arms.
mohana / infatuating
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Enjoying self as ‘smooth and cool as pearls’
you come home to smiling to downcast eyes
gestures bloodied by the love in your arms.
mohanāstra / attacking
Radiant arm.
‘Consciousness arm.
Of kind’ make arm.
Can get to armed.
Fuck bright bend arm.
Twitching make armed.
Exciter arm.
Brown sphere fake arms.
Embrace disarm.
Secure stars armed.
‘A gude’ arm.
Setting arms.
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‘Cause maks’ arm.
On fire armed.
‘A strong arm’.
Failsafe arms.
Many armed.
Take brown arms.
Inflame arms.
Fall to arms.
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Justice
Himali Singh Soin
the suffix -ice, describing the state of
Justice hears its own echo for miles. My, language that gathers like a
ghost inside you. Overflowing, you pour mood and structure, word and
margin equally, into two crevasses. From here, you can see yourself,
long and thin in the brass of the binocular. A mood is a structure, a
word a margin. Ritually, it swings one way –
Justice is a medium between the poet and you, between cloudless skies
and windless streams. A state of bounded boundlessness – stressed
syllables but no definite period – expands and contracts the lines, which
swell and shrink as they ripple through the stanza. Justice pendulums
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between past and future, holding together a present made up of the
parts that make up the whole span of time, just like the singular
Chorus, made up of a collection of entities. Each line comprises three
trochaic feet with a half-foot catalexis; an expected tetrameter whose
missing syllable suggests a kind of refusal to end. Prometheus hangs on.
Justice comets out to where you think you will never go: Travelled o’er
by dying gleams. Dying seems antithetical to gleam, yet it pinpoints
a cosmic quandary: the light that reaches us long after a star – in a
constant process of compression – has combusted. The photons inside a
star lose energy over their lifetime, till its wavelengths are visible: The
line ends with a semicolon, ; , visually mimicking the particle-wave
duality of light, leaving you to live in the afterlife of the line.
This sense of the self extends into the next line. The letter ‘b’ alliterates
– Be it bright as all between – and in doing so, calls attention to the
verb ‘to be’. Justice is the preposition o’er and between, tipping from the
metaphysical to the meta-poetic, so that it considers how to reconfigure
a tender future while remembering its ruthless, Icarian trajectory.
Justice is all, and -less. The words pivot on an axis of antithetical imag-
ery: bright and dying; birds and fish, man’s mind and the grave. Bright
and between; skies and streams; silent and serene; wind and wave; man
and mind; liquid and lair: alliteration calls attention to the letter within
language and the alphabet within the lexicon.
Float through all above the grave, the heavy, consonant-ridden word,
grave, marks a concrete cul-de-sac. Suddenly, you feel the weight of
Prometheus’ past and his potential fate, but this is quickly overcome by
the lightness and lyric of liquid lair and voyaging, cloudlike. The idea of
liquid is flux, and to harness habitat in water is to necessarily live with
change. Words will change with every re-interpretation. The berg is
only as big as fear.
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analogies deceive you with an expectation of a secondary clause, which
never appears. This is the boundless element: the ever-changing idea
that cannot be defined, Justice’s need for your judgement.
That ineffable other, the one that can only be described via metaphor.
It is itself that it carries across: it is a meta-medium. Love is the chorus
of our ancestors, those that continue to live after they have died; the
pulse and the throb of word and breath; the grains of sand in glass; the
theft of ice and its immortal ability to keep us; you and me; the endless
source, –ice as a way, –ice as an end. Just-ice is cradled by something
that comes after crown and sword, by even and mean.
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The Hanged One
Nā-kojā-Ābād
This is the last transmission of 22 Moons and it comes in two forms: audio
and text. The audio is a meditative practice that will guide you on a yoga
nidra journey. Touch the dreamworld. This audio can be accessed here
(right click, save as).
To practise the yoga nidra, you will need a pair of headphones and a quiet
space where you can lie down on your back. Ensure you are warm and
comfortable. You may wish to use a pillow, blanket and an eyemask. Put on
the headphones and play the audio file, then follow the instructions.
You open your eyes to the morning light, rising before the other souls
wake.
The air is fresh and green. The scent of last night’s rain lingers; gems of
moonwater upon the grass glisten in the dawning light. You leave your
home, which you have known since birth, which made you. You walk.
You are looking for something.
The morning sky above you is an unfamiliar red. Crimson. The streets
are silent. In the Chinese garden, there is a moongate. A stone portal
arching over an electric grid covered in ivy. A tunnel that is also a key.
In the garden you meet a stranger. ‘Where are you from?’, you ask. The
reply is this: ‘I come from Nā-kojā-Ābād.’
‘What horizon did you penetrate to come here?’ you ask. They respond:
‘The red door to the temple is guarded by two elephants, both vomiting
rainbows. Their vomit meets in the sky above them and fuses to form
a lunette. The lunette is decorated with brides-to-be standing a corpse-
width apart. One is to be enjoyed; one worshipped only. The brides are
protected by lions, who are nothing like the real police sitting across
the street from the real temple. They protect and enforce the reality that
requires them; you do not require them.’
She gives you a gift. It is something you already possess. You close your
eyes and enter the temple covered in leaves, pushing open the red door.
The temple (which others call the Library) is composed of an indefinite,
perhaps infinite number of hexagonal galleries. A sphere whose exact
center is any hexagon and whose circumference is unattainable. The
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Library (which others call the universe) has existed for eternity. A place
where no matter how long you walk, you will arrive back at the point of
departure. A mirrorworld of your own making.
Suspended from a tree, which rises high into the sky and reaches down
into the centre of the earth, you turn into the void inside yourself and
meet your twin on the convex surface of the sphere of spheres.
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Death
Ariana Reines
DELTA DELTA DELTA
CHANGE CHANGE CHANGE
Welcome to the winter of our surrender and to the season, also, of our
tireless work.
The Unnamed is a living energy. A thin, living person – with a red heart
at the base of the spine and bloody genitals, this reaper is the indiscrim-
inate giver of the planet’s most mysterious and universal blessing. This
card means surrender and this card means change. This card reminds
you: there is more, far more to this reality than what you can see.
It’s a time of surrender, but this surrender expresses itself through labor.
This card is the card of a worker. The work is endless and to do it right
requires a kind of sainthood.
Things have gotten to such a point that we all are being forced,
reshaped, into sainthood. There is no escape: we must change. Death is
one form of alchemy, but there are many kinds of death. The blood at
the base of this figure’s spine signifies life force, the continuity of life,
and the mirthful boner of real honesty. To know oneself, which used
to be the dictum of philosophy, is no longer the luxury of philosophers.
We cannot pay others to do our thinking and our knowing for us. Just
being alive on the planet right now implies a Bodhisattva vow: one that
you have already taken, whether or not you remember it. We are here to
help one another change. We can none of us escape the metallic shock
of blood on our blade. It is also true that in order to live at all we have
to cross the charnel ground, literally stepping over dead bodies, moving
from bardo to bardo among beings in torment, delusion, and pain. And
we ourselves are the dismembered bodies upon that ground, our craving
hands still reaching up in yearning. This is where we work. It is on this
strange terrain that we marry the truth, and in so doing, transform fate
into destiny.
You know what is wrong with you. Marry that until it drops. Surrender
to it now. Build your virtue not upon some vague yearning to become
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someone else, but on the X-ray vision of a being that can’t even SEE
lies, let alone engage with them. This realm is a holograph; I am not
asking you to shame yourself. I am asking you to trust what feels dead,
let it die, do not slow down or stop as you swing your sickle across the
ruined fields and burned-out majesties of who you yearned to have
become right now. I am saying: you must keep going, CHANGE
CHANGE CHANGE, for the being that knows us all at our most
secret has the world under its acid eye right now. Does it feel leaden?
Hell yes. But the only way out is through.
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Temperance
Suzanne Treister
The flight beyond the Kuiper Belt through turquoise stardust enveloped
death of cyber dreams of old Earth in century-based spans of Moon
worship becoming ultimately un(space)timely lost and deprived of
sustainable ecologies internalised by hope exacerbated by greed and lost
by billions despite the now euphoric travelling sensation through cosmic
particles bathed in light no longer required but there in any case despite
it all and beyond it all.
But now the stars rush towards the spacecraft at light speed casting
green shadows of lost ecosystems in our path towards the single moon
of Earth, the two moons of Mars, the five moons of Pluto, the thirteen
moons of Neptune, the twenty-seven moons of Uranus, the sixty-two
moons of Saturn and the sixty-seven moons of Jupiter and we are out,
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out there beyond the solar system, out there beyond our mind’s eye.
And there looking at us, un-judging or datacollecting or even really
noticing us, is the end.
But sometimes the end contains a beginning. Ask the algorithm at the
next séance. Ask the schoolteacher, ask the politician, ask the electri-
cian, ask the technoshaman, now switch on the lights.
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The Devil
Caspar Heinemann
GOATSE OF THE HEART
‘Have compassion for other people, especially when it’s hard, because
that resistance you feel when you don’t want to have compassion for
somebody, that’s just stretching, that’s just stretching, it doesn’t mean
that’s your limitation, it’s just stretching. I tweeted recently, jokingly,
that it’s like an anal training kit, to try to have compassion for people.
I’m like, ‘You feel that resistance, you feel that resistance?’ And then it’s
uncomfortable, it’s like ‘Just relax around it and see if you can go a little
bit bigger.’ So that’s my porn-witch answer. But I think people would be
surprised how much their heart can gape.’ – Bailey Jay, in conversation
on Ultraculture with Jason Louv
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THIS IS ADAMANTLY NOT A LIBERAL CALL TO HAVE
TEA WITH NAZIS OR LOVE THE POLICE. I VISCERALLY
HATE THE POLICE AND AM NOT SEEKING TO FORCE
THAT OUT, THE COUNTERPRODUCTIVITY OF THAT
EFFORT TO FORCE OUT IS KIND OF THE POINT.
CLENCHING SO HARD TO KEEP EVERYTHING IN AND
OUT IS EXHAUSTING AND BAD FOR YOUR BREATHING,
SO I AM TRYING TO ACKNOWLEDGE THE WAYS IN
WHICH MY HATRED OF THE POLICE IS IN PART PARTS
OF MYSELF THAT I HATE (THE DESIRE TO MITIGATE
FEAR THROUGH CONTROL) BEING REFLECTED BACK
TO ME, AND HOW FTP IS ALSO UNDOING THIS DESIRE
TO CONTROL IN THE REALM THAT IS WITHIN MY
POWER TO CONTROL (MYSELF).
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Marie White, the Mary-el Tarot
The Tower
Johanna Hedva
No Future
The Tower is the card of punks, that special kind of punk who knows
how to build a bomb out of wires and old batteries and sets it off for the
insurrection of it, but also for the lulz. The Tower is ‘NO FUTURE’
stick-and-poked onto a face. It’s that one guy in the pit at the hardcore
show, shirtless, rabid, wet eyes rife with a menace that makes everyone
around him give wide berth because you know that, tonight, he wants
to break himself, and if you get in the way, you’ll get broken too.
The Tower is the major arcana card ruled by Mars. Red planet. Ancient
god of violence, rage, and war. Mars is virility, physical strength, force,
warriors, athletes. Today, his reign would include guns, bombs, combus-
tion engines, and teargas. In appropriating Mars from the Greek war
god Ares, the Romans tried to smooth over Ares’ deranged bloodlust
(he demanded sacrifice in the form of puppies), but Mars is still savage,
from and of the wild, deity of thunder and storms, in some myths he
rides fire-breathing horses. In astrology, Mars shows what will incite
a person onto the metaphorical battlefield and what weapon they will
use when they’re on it. In death transits, Mars is the culprit of sudden,
unexpected accidents; injuries to the head. I like to point out that Aries,
the first sign of the zodiac, which happens on the spring equinox,
cracking through the ice of winter to begin the new astrological year, is
ruled by Mars.
To begin, to begin anything, we need a spark, a flame, a big bang, a fist
punching through a wall.
It’s masculine, but it doesn’t only belong to men. The Greek goddesses
of vengeance, the Erinyes (which the Romans made into the Furies),
are archetypally martial – when a crime has occurred, they transform
into shrieking winged creatures with blood shooting out of their eyes,
tormenting the perpetrator until he (almost always, he’s a he) is brought
to justice. The Tower is Medea killing her children and Jason’s new
wife – not because of jealousy, but because, by divorcing Medea, Jason
rendered her and their children stateless: murdering them was a political
act. I imagine, if Medea had had her cards read then, The Tower would
have appeared.
After the 2016 US election, I started wearing a pin on my lapel of The
Tower card.
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As much as it is destruction and chaos, it is also generative. Crisis is
perhaps the most generative thing of all – the forest fire necessary for
new growth – for how many of us change unless we are forced to?
The Tower’s chaos is far more upheaving than the wisdom and con-
clusion of Death. When it came up in a reading for Asher Hartman
around a new play he was working on, he said, with relief, ‘Oh, good,’
and this changed everything I thought I knew about how to approach
The Tower. Asher told me that he hopes to get The Tower when he’s
making something new, because that’s how he knows the work is going
where it needs to, and that he should keep following it.
As an artist, feeling like you’re falling from a great height with your
head on fire is a sign that you’re being propelled forward by something
vehement, explosive, something that’s crackling alive and blasting apart
the ground beneath your feet, and what else should an artist hope to be
guided by than a force with enough rupture to raze everything to the
ground?
What are you doing with your art if it’s not blowing shit up? I’m not
talking about just any shit – The Tower is not simply chaos, it’s institu-
tional chaos, and it has actual, material consequences: the thing on fire
in The Tower card is the tower itself.
And remember: after The Tower, when you’ve landed in the charred
field, and the horizon is now visible in all directions, the space liberated,
flattened, purged, in the emancipated vacuum that arises after a great
disruption, you can see The Star.
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The Star
Michelle Tea
In order to talk to The Star to discuss the apocalypse
In the afternoon I laid upon a yoga mat on my floor. I breathed the way
my teacher – a vegan mom at my son’s preschool, who takes ayahuasca
and who cut the aetheric cords that would otherwise have bound me for
lifetimes to a fickle Gemini lover – taught me. It is simple to breathe.
In through the mouth to the stomach, then filling the lungs. Then out
through the mouth, again and again until your breath is a smooth circle,
a merry-go-round spinning through your body.
I had crystals around me. Good for communing with The Star are
quartz, and amethyst, and celestine, and selenite. I placed them above
my head, in the path of the emanations/sucking whorl of my crown
chakra; and I placed them in the path of my root chakra’s vibrations, the
v-for-void between my thighs; and I placed them on my heart chakra,
that stage, which flares without fail every time I breathe like this; and
also on my solar power center; and even balanced on my third eye,
teetering like the top stone in a rock pile on the side of a desert road.
I had music around me, too. I have always looked to pop stars the way
people in Greece looked to the oracle women of Delphi. Music is a
shortcut to emotion. People who have Alzheimers and dementia and
cannot recognise the face of their beloved can remember all the words
to the song that seized their heart when they were sixteen years old, so
music lives in a magic and untouchable part of our brain, maybe not
even our brain, maybe it has been uploaded to our mind, that cloud.
And so it made sense to me deeply and intuitively when, during my first
time entering into a breath trance, in a room full of other Los Angeles
preschool mothers, my teacher blasted Concrete Blonde’s Joey. We were
in the proper space to receive the song, not as such but as an archetypal
story of broken love and everyone cried.
Excuse me – but if you do lie upon a yoga mat upon your own floor
and attempt to commune in this way with The Star or any entity of the
Tarot or elsewhere, prepare to cry. I did not believe my teacher when
she offered us this warning, or when she described the way our (your)
hands might clench into claws and our upper lip might crawl up our
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gums, shrinking creepily, like a mummy. All of these things happened
and have continued to happen, every time, so just know that they might
happen to you, too.
For this particular trance I looked to Aquarian pop stars, as The Star
corresponds to that sign. It shares its traits of big visions, inspiration,
idealism, and download from other realms. My intention was to
commune with The Star around the issue of this planet: what humans
have done/are doing to it, and the coming apocalypse. The Star is really
a great card to have a conversation about the apocalypse with, because
in the order of the major arcana she comes directly after The Tower, a
glyph of Apocalypse. It is The Star that we turn to after the structures
of our civilization have fallen. It takes The Star’s utopian dreamer-vision
to have the glittering faith that better, love-centric structures can be
built, and built to last. It is The Star’s energy of pure belief that will be
necessary to pull remaining humans out of the pall of apocalypse-trau-
ma, to shake them out of nihilism, to challenge pessimistic death-cen-
tric philosophies that will inevitably sprout in the wake of catastrophe.
My playlist was as follows:
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like the voice of the reaper. Did we think we could go on this way
without a price being exacted? Welcome to the jungle, it gets worse here
every day. Got it. Check.
You were my sun, you were my earth, Justin Timberlake starts so literally.
But it’s the chorus, Cry me a river, over and over, mocking the actual
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tears streaming from the corners of my eyes. All I know to do is cry
about it. Cry and fuss guiltily over, like, paper towels. Cry over the
gorgeous, ferocious survival of Black people in a place designed to kill
them every day, to send Black people, Black men especially, to prison;
cry over the men who have been languishing in Guatanamo for decades,
decades. How can this be someone’s destiny. I want to refuse a world, a
universe that permits such a thing but such things are probably more
common than my own reality: safe, white, living in a house no bomb
will fall on, wringing my hand over paper towels, unable to join an
armed revolution even if one were to miraculously occur because I have
brought a child into this and now I am required to stay alive. Cry me a
river.
This trance, broadcasting from it after the fact, is like that beautiful
stone you find in the river and it dries up and it’s just, like, a rock.
What’s the big deal? But in its element, it glistened. In my element, my
trance, these streets will make you feel brand new, big lights will inspire
you. I admit I put this song in the mix because of the pure joy in the
chorus, it is good to feel a burst of lyrical joy in the psychedelic breath-
work trance. When I took my class in Portland into it it was Lizzo who
finally brought everyone to tears. We need to hold onto the joy, even
if we don’t deserve it — no, The Star would never see it that way: it’s
not about ‘deserve’, a human concept. Though The Star does appear to
be human, she certainly has so much compassion for human foibles; so
much empathy that she is there to help us rebuild our systems after they
took out the entire planet. So, joy. It is the order of the day. Even in the
apocalypse. Especially in the apocalypse. Otherwise you might as well
extinct yourself for good. Otherwise there is no point to any of it.
After joy comes war. Me say war. Dis a war. War in the east. War in the
west. War up north. War down south. The fight to save the planet is the
fight for Black lives, Brown lives, because what is killing the planet
is capitalism and capitalism makes its dough on the broken bodies of
people of color, everyone knows this right? I mean everyone reading
this. I should hope so. Good over evil, yeah. Bob Marley has that
Aquarian energy so perfectly expressed, communicating it so clearly:
until the philosophy which hold one race superior and another inferior is
finally and permanently discredited and abandoned everywhere is war. See?
Fucking SIMPLE. Direct Aquarian clarity. And he thinks we will win.
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That is the Aquarian, that is The Star. And we know we shall win as we
are confident in the victory of good over good over evil yeah good over evil
good over evil yeah good over evil. An Aquarian mantra.
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The Moon, Navine G. Khan-Dossos
The Moon
James Bridle & Navine G. Khan-Dossos
Landsat is the longest running satellite programme for earth obser-
vation: a continuous stream of images dating back to 1973, shot from
orbit. It’s an extraordinary archive of the planet, and the changes we
have wrought on it. Through Landsat’s cameras, more far-sighted yet
more attentive than any human eye, we can see the shrinking of the
Aral Sea, the wildfires burning in the Amazon, the methane explosions
carving holes out of the tundra, the glaciers marking their slow retreat
towards the ice pack.
And so once a month at the full moon, Landsat turns around, and takes
a picture of the moon. It is this image which is used to calibrate its
sensors, to ensure their continuing fidelity. While fires scorch the earth,
sea levels rise, rivers shift their course, and deserts creep across the land,
the moon remains the same. That which, earthbound, we think of as
the most changeable, is in truth the most constant and steadfast. Even
our most advanced technologies, the ones we have set up to watch over
us and warn us of the changing world, turn, in the darkness, towards
the moon.
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private journal, in the bleakest months of the First World War, Virginia
Woolf observed that ‘The future is dark, which is the best thing the
future can be, I think.’ As Rebecca Solnit writes in Hope in the Dark,
‘It’s an extraordinary declaration, asserting that the unknown need not
be turned into the known through false divination, or the projection
of grim political or ideological narratives; it’s a celebration of darkness,
willing – as that ‘I think’ indicates – to be uncertain even about its own
assertion.’
Revealed in the shimmering light of The Moon are the waters of the
littoral: the temporary autonomous zone at the edge of the sea, between
high and low water. Defined by both the tidal pull of the moon, and
our own actions in raising sea levels, the littoral is another domain of
possibility: an ever-shifting, ever-changing terrain between land and
sea. As the waters rise around us, we shall have to learn to be littoral
too, and learn from its existing inhabitants. Like the crayfish, symbol of
the unconscious, the unquantifiable and the unknowable, shattering the
calm surface of the sea, urging us to embrace darkness, uncertainty, and
the possibility of change, and to embrace as well our non-human allies,
who learned this lesson long ago.
It’s dark and we know it’s dark; we all feel it. It is dark, and shall be for
some time. And that’s the best thing for the future to be.
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The Sun
Rebecca Tamás
spell for joy
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Heavenly Body in the Night Sky, Albrecht Dürer
Judgement
Jesse Darling
It was 2012 and the world was about to end. The clickbait press ran
ludic articles about Mayan apocalypse and the death star Nibiru and
I was still clicking on that shit like I didn’t know better. It was the
year of the London Olympics, and the city felt like wartime: gunners
on the roof and KEEP CALM posters on the tube. My friends were
all estranged or busy or out of town. I didn’t have money or a place to
live and was bouncing around between house-sits and couches. And
sometime during that summer, an ambient anxiety began to curdle into
form in my head.
Freud was supposed to have said that one’s greatest fear is secretly one’s
greatest desire, or something along those lines. I wouldn’t say I wanted
to die, exactly. But in my life and in the world things were spiraling
and I couldn’t figure out what to do about it. Things had gone on too
long, had gone too wrong. Death would have been one way to solve the
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problem, but now the world was ending. It felt like the law of Karma.
Something had to give.
You may know that the word ‘apocalypse’, ἀποκάλυψις in ancient Greek,
simply means ‘uncovering’, or ‘revelation’ – with all the Christological
context that implies. It feels like the present crisis is in part epistemo-
logical, a shift in understanding. The faith structures of the modern
project have all failed to deliver us from our own certain deaths – as
bodies, as ‘people’, but also as a society, a ‘civilization’ in itself. There are
many for whom this fact is self-evident: those to whom the freedoms
and excesses afforded by racialised imperial capitalism were extended
only conditionally, if at all. For others within a collective, or cultural,
consciousness, it feels like the beginning of a new understanding.
Something had to give.
In 2013 I was a little better, still alive. I wandered into the Tate Britain
and encountered a painting by John Martin, from a triptych called The
Last Judgement. This was The End of the World, made in 1851. There were
billowing black clouds and the earth rent asunder and rivers of molten
lava flowing red as blood. It was an image of rupture. Of rapture. It is
said that this painting was inspired not by a prophecy of the future, but
by what had already come to pass in the recent and ongoing industriali-
sation of North-East England. All those monstrous new god-machines
in the hammering forges, working through the night black as the
guzzled coal and red as the very fires of hell. Ceaseless as demons, they
worked without wage or sleep to make those tonnes and tonnes of steel
required to build that old vainglorious, victorious, nefarious, precarious
infrastructure of imperial modernity.
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How long does it take for a story (an empire, a civilization) to die?
There’s another painting I want to tell you about. One made in 1476. It’s
on the back of another painting featuring Saint Jerome, a problematic
favourite of mine. I went for the saint but I stayed for the apocalypse,
for Durer’s Heavenly Body, which is a hot catharsis, exploding comet,
warm blood, a release like orgasm, everything you ever prayed for. You
may have heard the phrase ‘it’s easier to imagine the end of the world
than the end of capitalism’. This, if you consider Freud’s contention that
our worst fears represent our truest desires, is what seems to be happen-
ing in terms of collective storytelling right now. Narrating ‘apocalypse’
seems to be part of what we do from time to time – as species-specific
storytellers – perhaps to get us out of one place, narratively speaking,
and into another. Perhaps the function of ‘apocalypse’ is to aggregate
and give language to a number of significant changes that took place
too quickly, and perhaps too quietly, to make sense of as a single phe-
nomenon. Or perhaps ‘apocalypse’ is just one more magnificent piece
of hubris in the short and magnificently hubristic life of any sovereign
civilization.
In any case, the world has always been just about to end.
What we’ve got now is the stories we tell around the dying embers of
our epistemological campfires. Stories that produce violence, or try to
prevent it. Stories that help to make a bad lot better. Stories that work
until they don’t. Stories that will make the dying easier. Stories to pass
on to whoever survives us.
All love,
JD
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The World
K Allado-McDowell
Deep inside yourself, beneath the shuttling transport of the conscious
mind, there is a vast black tube of sky, which you fall through. At the
bottom of the fall lies a cold obsidian lake. Its surface is perfect and
unperturbed. You pass into it, like a ghost passes through a wall.
There is pressure here, pressure on the lungs and the skin. Tender flesh
rips at your neck as gills slit open. You inhale deeply and cough, exhal-
ing the last of your air, which dissolves in a thousand tiny worlds.
You sink down. You slow. Your feet touch rough stone – the bottom of
the lake. Under the sole of your left foot a small ache becomes a stab-
bing then an ejection and a release. You bend down to pick up a pebble.
In the darkness you see nothing. Yet the pebble radiates visible empti-
ness. You hold it up to one eye. This is what you perceive:
You hear the patter of rain on stone. You smell petrichor swirling in
vines. You reach down to stroke your child’s soft skin. On your wrist is
a golden bracelet.
You snap in the leather seat, twisting to face your spouse. The freeway is
a symphony. The windows go dark.
The walls of your cage tremble. The door wrenches open. A balaclavaed
face – run!
Machete in hand, you sweat and hack at sugar cane, beneath a blazing
sun.
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You pull the brown hood over your head. Potent light streams through
glass stained in red, piercing blue, burning yellow, a flower of life, air
cold with dust.
Everything smells like green tea. You run the customer’s credit card. A
migraine is coming.
You dig through a box of receipts and pay stubs. You remember break-
ing your arm. Your partner grew weary of your need for help. You had
to learn how to wipe with your left hand. Painkillers messed with your
memory.
You woke one day and five chicks had died, their feet caught in wire too
close to the heat lamp. It’s part of farm life but you’re not a farmer. You
were just house-sitting. Death seemed to follow you around that house.
You’re falling asleep in your best friend’s sweater. Your flight leaves at 7
a.m.
You taught the machine to sing. No one liked the way it sounded. You
published the paper anyway.
You were chopping celery to make soup and you wanted to cry because
you felt trapped.
You remembered your first breath of air. You tried to write down what it
tasted like but the words escaped
You swim toward light and the surface. A point pierces the water,
screaming through your spine and gills. A rock crushes your skull.
You are walking down a familiar street, the one that takes you home.
Your calves are sore from running. You count the final steps. Your
hands are stiff. Your mind is a barren landscape, a simple cover for an
exhausted body. You’re hungry. There is food for you. A guest, a secret
lover, cooks in your kitchen. They greet you with a strong shoulder, with
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fingers that run through your unwashed hair and massage the knots in
your scalp. You relax into their structure.
You smell cumin toasting in oil. Steam finds its way from the kitchen,
bringing turmeric and frying onion, peppers, the singe of plants on
hot metal, the graceful fragrance of rice. You climb the stairs to your
bedroom. You can’t remember waking this morning. It was decades ago.
Someone else made the bed. Cool linen beckons.
You unzip your uniform, starting at the crown of your head. Your zipper
is a line of light. You draw it over your forehead, feeling fluid release as
your uniform parts in two. It drips down your face and over your eyes.
It is warm, the temperature of blood, but its taste is milk, honey and
salt. You wait to feel the ambient heat, to see the steam. Then you dive
in. You are drenched in the flow. Moving liquid wraps your body like a
ribbon, an ouroboros.
You rise to the peak of a Ferris wheel. Feel yourself freed from gravity.
Cresting the wheel, your body is filled with light. You are cleansed.
Naked, you are complete. You have become what you set out to be. Your
mind is a diamond. You are light.
Then . . .
A downward rush and the perfect force of gravity. Matter rolls you
under, pulling you forward again. The void is a moment drawn behind
you. A future appears to take its place. A hunger, made within you,
is growing within you. Across a distance neither time nor space, your
consort’s touch awaits.
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Contributors
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Death and The Book of Frank. They received a Creative Capital grant, a
Pew Fellowship, a Lambda Literary Award, and a Believer Magazine
Book Award. They teach at Columbia University in New York City and
Sandberg Art Institute in Amsterdam. Please visit their website.
Nika Roza Danilova has been recording and performing as Zola Jesus for
more than a decade. As a classically trained opera singer with a penchant
for noisy, avant-garde sounds, she launched her career with a series of
lo-fi releases that pitted her soaring vocals against harsh industrial clatter
and jittery synths. The signature Zola Jesus sound became more hi-fi as
she began to explore her own skewed vision of pop music combining
industrial, classical, electronic, goth and experimental rock influences
on releases like Stridulum, Valusia, Conatus, Versions and Taiga. Her
latest and darkest album Okovi, coincides with her return to both the
Wisconsin woods in which she was raised and her longtime label, Sacred
Bones. It is, in Danilova’s words, ‘a deeply personal snapshot of loss,
reconciliation, and a sympathy for the chains that keep us all grounded
to the unforgiving laws of feral nature.’
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Ted Hand is a teaching credential student and independent researcher
working on esotericism who lives in Sonoma, California. He is the co-
creator of the Philip K. Dick tarot deck.
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Poetry), winner of the 2020 TS Eliot Prize, and Incubation: A Space for
Monsters (a new edition, forthcoming from Kelsey Street Press in 2021).
Hoa Nguyen is the author of several books including Red Juice: Poems
1998 - 2008 and the Griffin Prize nominated Violet Energy Ingots. Her
latest collection of poems, A Thousand Times You Lose Your Treasure is the
winner of the Canada Book Award and finalist for a 2021 National Book
Award and the General Governor’s Literary Award for Poetry. In 2019,
her body of work was nominated for a Neustadt Prize for Literature, a
prestigious international literary award often compared with the Nobel
Prize in Literature. Born in the Mekong Delta and raised and educated
in the United States, Hoa lives in Tkaronto with her family.
Himali Singh Soin is a writer and artist based between London and
Delhi. She uses metaphors from outer space and the natural environment
to construct imaginary cosmologies of ecological loss and the loss of home,
seeking shelter somewhere in the radicality of love. Her book ancestors of
the blue moon (2021), comprises flash fictions from the perspectives of lost
deities in the Himalayan canon.
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Bones Tan-Jones is an artist traversing pop music, sculpture, alter-egos,
digital image and video. Tan-Jones is the co-founder of Shadow Sistxrs
Fight Club, and founder of Fertile Souls. YaYa Bones is their musical
alter ego. Their debut EP EARTHEART was released in 2020.
Michelle Tea is the author of eleven books of poetry, memoir and fiction
that explore the queer, feminist, working class experience in the United
States.
Suzanne Treister lives and works in London and the French Pyrenees.
She has been a pioneer in the digital/new media/web-based field since
the late 1980s, when she began developing projects about video games,
virtual reality and software. In 1995 Treister made her first web project
and invented a time-travelling avatar, the subject of an interactive CD-
ROM. An ongoing focus of her work is the relationship between emerging
technologies, society, alternative belief systems and the potential futures of
humanity. Recent projects include HEXEN 2.0 (2011), Post-Surveillance
Art (2014), HFT The Gardener (2015), SURVIVOR (F) (2016–19) and
The Escapist BHST (Black Hole Spacetime) (2018–19).
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First published by Ignota 2019–20
This selection © Ignota 2019
The contributions © the contributors 2019
The book in this form © Ignota 2022
‘The Fool’ by Jenny Hval was originally published on 24 January 2020 for
the New Moon in Aquarius.
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‘Death’ by Ariana Reines was originally published on 10 January 2020
for the Full Moon in Cancer.
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