I PONDER FOR MYSELF

While standing in the aisle and having a deep sigh,

I saw myself drifting from realities that broke apart.

Seeing those possibilities and asking why?

Why is this happening to me from the very start?

Watching from afar, precepting for a star

Searching for the answers that clear my wonder

I'm questioning myself, asking who you are.

I'll wait to see the rain drops pour over my head and listen

to the loud bangs of thunder.

Having night thoughts, listening to a broken record

Watching my life to break apart

Wasting my time I cannot afford

I'll leave the room and go depart

While sitting on the bench and making my amends,

Over and over I said to myself, “I'll make it up to you.”

I can't foresee the future, but I hope if this ends

I'll see you to the other side that we want and persue