“I am not your game”

Does he think of me as a game!

I am not thinking to come back again!
I gave him one chance, two chances
But he did not think of my circumstances!
He came in and out, as he wants
As if he is watering flowers or plants,
He came back as if there is nothing
Holding flowers in his hands and smiling
I could see the sun shining,
to my whole life redefining,
Then, I did not think of anything,
I did not even except something,
I kept calm and looked at him,
Possibly, he understands my silence,
my patience is the reason for my resilience,
I took his flower and said thank you!
You really did not have to!
“All my pleasure” he replayed
“If that is your way” I said,
“I am afraid you came too late”
“it is not flowers that would stimulate
my feelings towards you, and needless to speculate”
strangely he said “ I don’t know what you mean!”
Then I replayed “don’t pretend that nothing you’ve seen “
“For all that time, where have you been?
“ at first, on you, I felt a bit keen,
as if I was still eighteen !
Then, with time, I found myself in between
and could withdraw when I saw how were you mean”
he panicked ! and state: “ but you don’t understand !”
“I don’t want to, your plans won’t land!,
“I am not a puppy in your hand,
you come closer then go far away,
without having a word to say,
I have been waiting for you for long,
But please don’t get me wrong!
You’re my pain but not necessary my cure !
I can heal myself by myself, be sure !
I am not like you, an obscure !
I am a person, who is mature,
Enough to realise that you are my cause to endure,
But don’t worry I can get along,
Because thankfully, I am strong”
I am sorry if that would hurt,
I just thought you should be alert,
To things that would be reversed!
you acted…..I decided
I was so patient but misguided,
and now, here is the conclusion I provided