Professional Documents
Culture Documents
ANU 2017
This anthology compiled by A New Ulster
Copyright © 2017
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Lammas Day
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1920: The year diphtheria struck.
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The Winter Of Forty-Seven.
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Inishowen
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ABOUT THE AUTHOR
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TRISH BENNETT
I.
Clerics came,
they scripted my tale in “post truth”.
Two thousand years on
pilgrims still climb Knocknarea
with a stone for my cairn
believing I lie there
instead of Rathcroughan — my home.
II.
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script your celtic truth
let the tale prevail
or sit there
doing nothing
and become a relic too.
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Wisps
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The Legacy of Care
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Rituals.
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Stick
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ABOUT THE AUTHOR
Trish Bennett grew up in County Leitrim. She moved to Northern Ireland to study and
was charmed into staying by a Belfast biker. They have settled themselves into a small
cabin by Lough Erne’s shore and try to keep the noise down in their bee loud glade.
Trish writes poetry, short stories and memoir essays. She has been published in several
magazines and anthologies and read her work on BBC Radio Ulster. She was long
listed for the “Over the Edge ‘New Writer of the Year Award” in 2013 and won the
Leitrim Guardian 2017 Literary Award for poetry.
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LYNDA TAVAKOLI
Is this what I do? and KItchen Comforts - both in The Irish Times, Hennessy New Irish
Writing.
Moving Day - 4 by 4 Special Edition for International Women's Day
Done - Live Encounters magazine
Moving Day
I moved my mother
into our dining room
her presence boxed and waiting
for the final shift
to a shed outside
‘just in case’
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Is this what I do?
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Kitchen Comforts
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Done
You ask,
‘Is someone dying here?’
and to the silence add,
‘You’re good. I’ll keep you,’
the words
your parting gift -
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ABOUT THE AUTHOR
Lynda Tavakoli lives near Lisburn, County Down where she teaches special needs in a local primary
school and facilitates a creative writing course at the Island Arts Centre. Her literary successes include
short story and poetry prizes at Listowel, the Mencap short story competition and the Mail on Sunday
novel competition. Lynda’s poems have been included in a variety of publications including Templar
Poets’ Anthology Skein, Abridged, The Incubator Journal, Panning for Poems, Circle and Square, The
Honest Ulsterman and Live Encounters magazine. She was selected as The Irish Times Hennessy poet of
the month for October 2015. Lynda’s poetry and prose have been broadcast on BBC Radio Ulster and
RTE Sunday Miscellany. She has written two novels Attachment and Of Broken Things and has been
the recipient of both the Tyrone Guthrie and John Hewitt bursaries.
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SHELLEY TRACEY
Visit
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On The Shore
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Asymmetries
in a room of silence
straight-spined tulips in a vase
incline themselves apart
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Spare
Space
Pine
Spare
words
lean
deep
into
their roots.
Forest
Lightened
pathway
through
an arc
of highness.
Home
Door
threshold
one
step
closer
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ABOUT THE AUTHOR
Shelley Tracey is a South African who has made her home in Lisburn, County Antrim,
where she has been living for the past 25 years. Shelley is a member of the Women
Aloud NI writing collective.
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ÓRFHLAITH FOYLE
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A Snail Yawned
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Poet Junkie
And Akmatova, her length and beauty, starving for her words,
loving Osip long before he died, and her Grey-Eyed King turned
Harlequin in the end.
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The Boot Man
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3 How The Boot Man Survives in My Mind
Kiss him.
Kiss me.
He sits in his room, in the hot stink of his fear,
like a muscled cat with half-broken claws and
he spits when I come near, with my deformed
head and my tarmac breath.
I want him dead.
So I kiss him dead
Feel his suck and moan.
My own sweat is his and
he recedes to my own bone
and I tip-toe out into the
night where night birds
stare down.
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The Dead Mosquito
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Summer
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ABOUT THE AUTHOR
Órfhlaith Foyle is a poet and writer and not on Facebook. Her website is
https://orfhlaithfoylewriter.wordpress.com and her latest collection of short stories
'Clemency Browne Dreams of Gin', was published by Arlen House in 2014. She is
currently writing a novel.
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ORLA MCALINDEN
Tug and twist. Tug and twist. Down on your hunkers. Pull the blades of coarse meadow
grass away from the thick red stems of the ragwort. Grass roots pull up hard, and the
task is hard enough already. A drop of sweat falls from your eyebrow into your left eye,
blinding and stinging. You dash the tears from your eye, rub your sleeve across your
forehead.
Gather the stalks again, strong thumb of the right hand seeking the bend of the stem
as it curves off and becomes root. Hands between your feet, arms between your
hunkered knees. And pull and twist. And rock and rock and rock your weight gently,
left and right and backwards. Left and right and backwards and the thumb in its
workman’s glove following the many-fingered root down into the soil.
Crunch and crunch and easing up into the daylight the snaking white root, obscene
pale ghost of the sturdy red stem above. And try not to fall over at the pop and
sudden release of the buachallain buí, the yellow boy, the deadly poisonous ragwort,
as it gives up its grasp upon the land.
Across the country the buachallain buí has been setting its hold deep, and sending
out scouts to colonise new pastures. “One year’s seeding means seven years’
weeding,” your husband says, shaking his head at the lunacy of weeding the field,
when the co-op sells squat tubs of herbicide and the licensed sprayer lives in the next
townland. “Take out the whole of each root,” he adds, “or bear in mind that every
plant that snaps off in your fist will be back to taunt you in six weeks’ time.”
The deeds of the paddock are sitting on the desk in your room, beside the guide to
self-sufficiency. You are still calling it the yellow-streaked field but soon you will christen
it afresh, when it is clean and green, docks and thistles beaten back into the
hedgerow and ragwort not tolerated even there.
You turn and throw the uprooted plant onto the rising pile, carefully, so that the full
extent of the root network can be seen, in case your husband will notice when next he
comes to empty his bucketful of weeds upon the pile. He need not be here, but he
has come — shaking his head — his forearms as thick as your calf, his shoulders
massive under the collarless shirt, he will pull, in the half hour he has free, as much
ragwort as you will pull in all the yawning gap of time until dinner.
Gather the stalks, the strong thumb of the right hand seeking the bend of the stem as it
curves off and becomes root. Hands between your feet, arms between your hunkered
knees. And pull and twist. And rock and rock and rock your weight gently, and snap
and fall backwards and stare at the broken stalks in your hands and the thick tap root,
as big across as a main-crop carrot, still buried deep beneath the soil. And know that
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soon the deadly leaves and stalks will have pushed back up through the grass and the
root will be more wicked still.
Damn and blast and hell’s curse it and blink away the stupid childish tears.
The grass is mowing-high and bending with the weight of its own seed, dragging at
your legs as you swim through it, from one buachallain buí to the next, and the
paddock must be cleaned and the weeds carted away for burning soon. The hay
must be cut and won before the days shorten too much and the dew falls too heavy
on the curing grass.
A foot away, another plant, eighteen inches tall and the yellow blooms already
shifting to the grey of seed. One years’ seeding is seven years weeding you think to
yourself. In seven years your oldest boy will be nineteen. And, one day, will he pour
chemicals on the soil over which you now sweat? Time will tell.
Gather the stalks again, strong thumb of the right hand seeking the bend of the stem
as it curves off and becomes root. Hands between your feet, arms between your
hunkered knees. And pull and twist. And rock and rock and rock…
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Christmas in October
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then I’ll know. Surely to god, it couldn’t be worse than ham sandwiches?
God, how Cathy hated ham! The thin, almost transparent slices, glistening with
unspeakable jelly. Boke.
Lorna, the kind lady behind the counter at Marley’s butcher, often set aside the tail
end of each breaded ham for Cathy’s mother — the little nubs too small and fiddly to
bother pushing through the slicing machine and trying to sell. Big, fat Lorna would drop
the nubs into the bag along with the slices — fifteen slices every week — after she had
weighed them, and wink at Cathy’s mother. Her drooping jowls would quiver as she
smiled conspiratorially. On those days, Cathy wanted to die. “It’s the least she could
do,” said her mother, “the amount of money I spend in there every week.”
Fifteen slices of ham every week. Three rounds of Ormo ham sandwiches every day.
Monday to Friday. Cathy, Liam and Mark. When things were good, the bread would
have butter. When things were tight, it was Flora margarine.
Couldn’t Cathy maybe, just some days, have cheese? Just for a wee change, now
and again? No, ham was better for growing children. And what was wrong with the
ham? Freshly sliced ham from a butcher, not out of a packet? Did Cathy think ham
grew on trees? Did Cathy think her father was working himself to the bone so Cathy
could turn her nose up at butcher’s ham, when children in Africa were starving to
death? If Cathy thought she was too good for ham, maybe she would prefer caviar?
God, how she hated — even more than the jelly — the slimy rim of lurid yellow crumb.
She dreaded biting into a sandwich to find her teeth closing upon the grotesque
horror of white, connective tissue gristle.
Even worse were the days of Plumrose Chopped Ham: tinned, spiced, sliding
glutinously out of its container with a sickening slurp. On weeks when the fifteen slices
could not be stretched until Friday, when an unexpected visitor had called to the
house, prompting sandwich-making and the sending of a child helter-skelter to
McKeevney’s shop for Bourbon Creams, Cathy’s mother would reach into the larder
and produce an emergency tin of Plumrose chopped ham. On those days Cathy’s
lunch could not even be salvaged by the usual remedy of removing the hated ham
and eating the bread. Plumrose Chopped Ham sullied even the innocent bread,
leaking its ghastly juices deep into the white crevices.
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the wrought-iron gate which separated the playground from the convent garden. To
her left lay the nun’s graveyard, she could just duck in there for twenty minutes. She
took a quick duke around, but no-one was watching her. Would anyone be any the
wiser? Would oul bootface McAliskey think of double-checking? In the end she was
too cowed, too institutionalised to disobey.
She pushed the gate open and trailed her feet towards the pair of doors in the
basement of the convent, one leading to Sr Monica’s room where the slow girls
revised the cat sat on the mat and the six-times tables, one — never broached before
— leading to the kitchen.
“What is it, child?” asked the elderly nun who answered her knock.
Cathy didn’t know the nun’s name, or recognise her face. She must be easily a
hundred years old. She didn’t teach in the school, didn’t come across to demonstrate
knitting, or needlework, didn’t even appear for the May procession when the statue of
Our Lady was carried around the nun’s graveyard by Stephen the caretaker while the
girls walked behind carrying flowers and chanting, “I’ll sing a hymn to Mary, the
mother of my God, the virgin of all virgins, of David’s royal blood…”
Maybe this nun was a prisoner in the basement, nameless, never seeing the sun, nor
feeling the wind on her face.
“Come in, come in, you wee pet,” a big smile creased the old nun’s wrinkled cheeks.
“You must be starving. Sit yourself down beside the range.” Heat belted out from the
big cast-iron cooker, which had several pots rattling and hopping on the hotplates. A
glass of creamy cold milk appeared by magic in her hand, and Cathy took it from her
and sipped gratefully.
“Forgotten your lunch, daughter dear, and you working away over in school, with your
stomach thinking your throat’s been cut.” The nun was opening and closing
cupboards, drawing out a long, vicious looking knife. “I’ll sort you out in two shakes of
a lamb’s tail. God called me to the life, and for sixty years my vocation has been to
feed the hungry.” She smiled and opened the door of a huge floor to ceiling pantry.
“How about a nice ham sandwich?”
Fuck. Fuck. Think for fuck’s sake.
“Sister, I’m actually a vegetarian.”
“A what, dear?”
“A vegetarian, sister. It means I don’t eat meat.”
“Don’t eat meat? I’ve never heard such oul guff, your mother should be ashamed,
allowing such nonsense.” Cathy thought of the fifteen slices of ham, and the fact that
her mother never ate one. Never ate, nor got the chance to eat, the five slices of ham
that every week Cathy crammed down the side of the lunchroom bin, or sometimes
gave away to another girl, if she were discreet enough about asking. She thought
about her mother hacking at the little nubs of leftover ham from Lorna, salvaging
whatever could be trimmed off for her own lunch. A small tear sprang up at the side of
her eye.
“Ah, don’t! Don’t be crying. My bark is worse than my bite. Do you know what that
means?” Cathy nodded. “Good girl. Just wait a wee minute and you’ll be as right as
rain.” Jesus, two clichés in the one breath, Sr Brid would take away marks for that.
Cathy nodded again and tried to smile.
The nun bustled about, sawing two thick cuts off a crusty loaf and covering them with
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as much butter as Cathy’s mother would have spread between the six slices of Ormo.
That’s perfect, that’s enough, don’t destroy it with ham!
Next, a huge platter banged down onto the table. Cathy stared it in wonder. On the
platter sat, resplendent, a large pink ham, its rind blackened and sticky with a honey
glaze.
It’s a ham, a Christmas ham, a “Turkey and Ham” ham. But it’s October. What’s
happening?
The nun hacked an enormous slice off the joint and placed it between the lavishly-
buttered bread slices.
“Drink up your milk and eat your sandwich, daughter dear, and hurry off back to your
classroom, for the sisters will be finishing their own lunch now at one o clock, and I
need to clear the dining room.”
Cathy bit into the bread. A taste explosion. The firm fibrous texture, the salty butter and
the honey-sweetened ham melting together. The cold fresh milk. The dense, nearly
black crust of the bread. For the first time Cathy realised that a slice of ham, could
mean a slice of a ham. A Christmas ham.
At three o clock Cathy didn’t even have time to think about the unfairness of life as
the other girls with their bus passes, or their fifteen pence bus fare, were left behind by
her flying feet. She was round the corner and out of sight of the bus queue within
seconds.
She burst through the door of her home, slamming into the kitchen.
“Mammy, wait til you hear. Would you would believe it! My lunch got wet from my
water bottle and I had to eat lunch in the Convent. Would you believe it — the nuns
eat Christmas ham all year round.”
Her mother turned from the sink, turnip in one hand, knife in the other. “I’m uneasy
about them,” she snapped, “I’d like to see them feed five people on thirty pounds a
week.”
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ABOUT THE AUTHOR
Orla McAlinden is a Pushcart Prize nominee, the Cecil Day Lewis emerging writer 2016,
and winner of the BGEIBA Irish Short Story of the Year award. Her debut collection The
Accidental Wife won the 2014 Eludia Award from Sowilo Press in Philadelphia, and was
published in July 2016. The fourth story from the collection, BGEIBA winner The Visit, is
freely available online. During March 2017, The Accidental Wife was the chosen text
for the inaugural Armagh Big Read hosted by Libraries NI, and Orla attended library
events throughout her native county of Armagh, discussing writing, and her own work,
with members of writing clubs, schools, reading groups and the general public. The
Accidental Wife was also chosen as the BBC Radio Ulster Nolan Show bookclub
choice July 2017. She is delighted to announce her upcoming participation in the John
O’Connor Writing Festival in Armagh in November 2017. Orla is working on a
forthcoming novel The Flight of the Wren and a second collection Full of Grace. Her
website is www.orlamcalinden.com
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SEANÍN HUGHES
for boyprey.
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Equilibrium
saturnine.
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Showreel
*Shortlisted for the Fifth Annual Bangor Poetry Competition 2017; as yet unpublished.
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I Don't Believe In God, But
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Fireproof
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ABOUT THE AUTHOR
Seanín Hughes is an emerging poet and writer from Cookstown, Northern Ireland,
where she lives with her partner and four children. Despite writing for most of her life,
Seanín only began to share her work in late 2016 after penning a number of poems for
her children and since then, she has been steadily working on an ever-increasing
volume of new poetry. Drawing from her varied life experiences, Seanín is attracted to
challenging themes and seeks to explore issues including mental health, trauma,
death and the sense of feeling at odds with oneself and the world.
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CATHY DONELAN
Ma used to tell you of the dying flames that fall from the sky as the cold sets in. Orange
flecks lining the paths. They stuck to your boots in the rain and sound like Salthill when
you ran through them. She loved it when it rained pink in the Spring, soft velvet that
lands on your face with the breeze. You found cherry blossom puddles down the
market where you could feel your stick run smoothly through them. The men on the
stalls would curse you and your stick, knocking on their tents. They speak like the men
around your Ma, always looking for something from her.
You liked it down the arch, you can sit and the heat spreads over your eyelids, you
can taste its brightness. You know there’s a dirty rain cloud coming when the cold
takes over. The place quietens and darkens. You won’t hear children teasing around
you anymore and you rush for shelter, you always find a shadow that corners the wind
out of your hair.
She told you, your eyes were taken at birth so you could see the world inside out. Feel
its corners with your fingers, taste the seasons on your tongue, hear the earth
underneath and smell the souls around you. She said you were born under the faerie
tree, on the longest day of the year.
Ma would love the story. You’d listen, on the edge of the crumbly kitchen counter as
she cleared her throat and scraped her hands downwards, to straighten her dress. The
starch cracking in the folds, her voice would rise an octave. The labour began the
moment the sun rose till the fields darkened. She was walking to coax you out, said
that tree was calling her to it. They didn’t believe in going to a doctor back then,
robbing bastards she’d call them. She said the little people saved a breach birth but
took their dues. Always a price on the soul.
You waited until your twelfth birthday. Cocooned in your duvet, you counted to three-
hundred and fifty-four after you heard her soft steps down the hall and felt her
bedroom door scrape shut. The key was left in the back door as you felt your way
around, you slipped out and closed it with such silence, you could imagine not even
disturbing the fat snail crawling up its glass. The grass was wet under your toes, it made
your nightdress cold and soggy. You lifted your head above and could see under your
eyelids the spreading of stars above, lighting to the full moon as you stood among the
large roots of the faerie tree. You knocked and waited for the little hands to welcome
you in.
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They were silent when they came, you sensed them before you heard them and they
whispered a tale in your mind. A blind woman who sacrificed a child’s eyes for her
own, eyes that still let you dream through hers. They whispered in tongues you never
knew existed, sharp clicks in their lisp dialect. They carried you back to your bed and
you woke to the quiver of a swallow’s song outside the window’s pane and Galway
Bay FM blaring from the kitchen as you longed to touch the eyes that had belonged
to you.
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ABOUT THE AUTHOR
Cathy Donelan is a writer from the West of Ireland, she's in her final year of Arts with
Creative Writing at NUI Galway. Her poetry has appeared in The Galway Review, A
New Ulster and The Blue Nib. Her fiction has appeared in ROPES, The Honest Ulsterman,
Dodging The Rain, Spontaneity, The Lamp Graduate Journal, The Nottingham Review
and Smoky Blue Literary and Arts Magazine. She has been highly commended in the
Fool For Poetry International Chapbook Competition.
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J.S. WATTS
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the touch of a once loved hand in the endless dark
It is hereit is now
it is always
listen
*First published in Psychic Meatloaf and appearing in “Years Ago You Coloured Me” -
published by Lapwing Publications
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Woollens
This jumper
was knitted with love
and made to last.
It’s seen out many winters,
the advancing cool of autumn
the unexpected chill of spring.
It still has
a few good years left in it
if treated respectfully
and as I wash it through
yet one more time
feeling its fibres
under my finger skin
I wonder if
it might out last me,
if it will still hold my shape
when my shadow
no longer fills it.
Who will bother
to wash it by hand
when my hands
no longer can
and what will they think,
if anything,
of the painstakingly crafted stitches,
the soft but serviceable wool,
the practical colour,
the one who used to wear it?
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ABOUT THE AUTHOR
J.S.Watts is a UK poet and novelist. Her poetry collections, "Cats and Other Myths”, “Years Ago
You Coloured Me” and "Songs of Steelyard Sue”, are published by the Belfast-based Lapwing
Publications. She may, or may not, have Irish ancestry (family legend, no proof), but she’s
visited Ireland and fallen in love with the music of Christy Moore.
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MORNA SULLIVAN
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Come Outside
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Stretch Marks
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As our adoration develops, deeper, stronger
Our roots have become entwined.
I cannot imagine a day without you now.
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Treasures from the Depths
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You Have Gone, Journeying
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THERESE KIERAN
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Life Lines
It was 1993.
San Francisco in the spring and the sun freckled my Irish skin. Its shine was mine and
life was wave upon wave going west. I took a
bus across The Golden Gate to an artist’s
commune near the woods. Forest bathed under
towering giants; leaf canopies of shade but
excitement coursed my veins. So later, in the line, I offered up my palm to one who
told me
she could see. There, she said, right there, your
life line changed and nothing will be the same.
I shrugged it off and hugged the trees. Made
daisy chains and strung them through my hair.
Hatched plans and plotted, screamed who I
would be. The scene was set. I’d made my move.Then one week later, two lines of
blue
confirmed what she already knew.
His life in my hands.
*Published in Tales of the Forest January 2017, and short-listed Poems for Patience
Galway Hospital Arts trust 2017
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Forest Bathing
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The Handmaiden
People say, she sits at home all day and paints her nails.
So one day, a Monday, as I recall, she decides, I’ll show them,
I’ll just show them.
And right after the laundry and before peeling potatoes
for the evening meal, she drives into town,
heads for a high-end department store and marches straight to
the glossy counters of Nail It.
She proffers her white, crepe-paper hands,
stretches and flexes her fingers hoping for spindles, or wands or something.
She wiggles the nicked and chipped nails, patched up, hanging together
under four layers of smudged matt Mule.
It’s no problem, there’s enough to work with, they can do gels,
can take her straight away. She sits back, she’s in safe hands,
she doesn’t even ask how much, as I recall
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Haibun
The smell of fresh hedge cuttings took me to a student summer in East Hampton, Long
Island, New York. Some might have called it work, but it was never work to me.
Housekeeper, Chambermaid, serving or cleaning, it was more about gleaning another
point of view. I was winging it really, but when Fred Perry’s assistant, hosting dinner for
a select few, asked who had taught me such skills, I simply replied - my mother. “Don’t
brush the dirt under the mat” - I told that to FP’s assistant, who laughed while
instructing I pat each Lolla Rosa leaf dry, serve on the right, clear away on the left, he
handled the wine. They dined at nine and together we plated asparagus tips in
straight lines. He served Chateaubriand blue, but I hadn’t a clue about
Chateaubriand, never mind the reduced red wine jus. I hadn’t a clue until then. By
ten the guests had gone. I wondered was there anything wrong with the food for only
the salad got pushed around. He boxed and bagged, filled my basket with goodies,
including the Valrhona bar - he told me I’d been a star. And you were the perfect
host I thought, cycling post to post under the warmest, blackest, starriest sky, feasting
on fresh hedge cuttings.
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ABOUT THE AUTHOR
Therese Kieran is a trainee poet living in Belfast. In 2016, with writer, Lucy Beevor, she
conceived and curated Death Box, an exhibition of poetry and prose including
contributions from 25 writers. In October 2016, another collaborative piece, Try Me,
was exhibited in The Free Word Centre, London. In 2015 she was a runner up in the
Poetry Ireland/Trocaire poetry competition. She has been long-listed for the Seamus
Heaney New Writer’s Award in 2015 & 2017. Her work has featured in a variety of
anthologies including those published by Shalom, Community Arts Partnership, Belfast,
Queen’s University, Panning for Poems - Poetry NI, Four X Four, 26 Writer’s group, The
Incubator magazine, The Blue Nib, Arlen House and Tales from the Forest.
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JENNY METHVEN
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Hawthorn
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ABOUT THE AUTHOR
Jenny Methven recently published her first book of poems, which she also illustrated.
Following a career in teaching and social work she has returned to her first training in
art is now a full time artist. Jenny focuses on nature as the inspiration for her work. She
has an MA in Education and an MSc in Peace and Conflict studies. Jenny lives in
Fermanagh.
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BEVERLY M. COLLINS
Sir Rancid
He regarded the three of us with a gaze that was molded. His sour life announced itself
like a bitterness-tattoo expression on his face, accented by the unruly patches of gray
hair that crowded his cheeks and chin.
He leaned forward just as two Holly Blue butterflies fluttered pass in failed attempt to
improve the view of him.
You need to bounce that ball some place else! he said. I wondered how he
concluded the park an inappropriate place to bounce a ball.
At this point, laughter bubbled from my cousin like a quick vibrato, light and
contagious in how fast it spread to all three of us.
We turned and ran along the wet walkway that had been sprayed by an earlier
afternoon shower.
Gleefully we jumped over puddles as we left him to covet the city’s soiled scented
bench and the lonesome embrace of his own rancid outlook.
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Defiant
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Luster
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Slide
Meanwhile...
We proceed...
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ABOUT THE AUTHOR
Beverly M Collins is the author of the books, Quiet Observations and Mud in Magic. Her
work has appeared in the California Quarterly, Bits & Pieces Magazine, The Altadena
Poetry Review, Poetry Speaks! Year of Great Poems and Poets, Spectrum, The Journal
of Modern Poetry etc.
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LIZ QUIRKE
Housework
ii
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Waiting Room
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pop songs by girls promising
something new, crooning with sentiment
about an abstract forever, never to know
how their voice hangs over people who can only wait
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Nocturne With Bathtime
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Night Vision
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A Record Of You
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ABOUT THE AUTHOR
Liz Quirke’s debut collection is scheduled for publication with Salmon Poetry in April 2018. The
collection will be called The Biology of Mothering and explores parenting within a same sex
family and motherhood in a non-biological sense. The "Housework" and "Waiting Room" poems
are poems from the fertility treatment phase of the collection. "Nocturne With Bathtime", "Night
Vision" and "A Record Of You" are snapshots of family life.
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FIONA PERRY
Breakers
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ABOUT THE AUTHOR
Fiona's short stories and poetry have been published in The Irish Literary Review, Spontaneity
Magazine, Into The Void, Dodging The Rain and Skylight47 amongst others. She grew up in
Ireland but has lived most of her life in England and Australia. She currently lives near a
volcano in New Zealand. Follow her on Twitter @Fionaperry17.
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FRANCES BROWNER
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Great Style
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Old Fashioned
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Magic Moments
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In My Wheelie Bag
A journal
with classy cover
Pens
A book to read
or write
And then
Leggings, knickers
bed socks,
fleece
Under Armour
runners, eye mask
sleeps
Shorts, sandals
bikini-top
shades
Sunscreen, sexy dress
in case the weather’s
ablaze
Cleanser, toner
bags of cotton
balls
Moisturizer, Mac
Touch lipstick
BB cream, skin
perfector
Frizzeaze, phone
glasses. Clairol
touch-up,
Gmail, Facebook
WhatsApp
What’s up?
Toothbrush, toothpaste
invisible Invisaline
braces
For a smile
that can change
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everything
And, for
fear of the
night
An angel stone
to press in
my palm
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ABOUT THE AUTHOR
Frances Browner was born in Cork; grew up in Dublin; spent twenty years in America,
and now resides in Wicklow. Her short fiction & memoir pieces have appeared in
magazines and short story anthologies, been short-listed for competitions and
broadcast on radio. Poems have been published in the Ogham Stone, Tales from the
Forest, Poems on the Edge, the Limerick Poetry Trail and Skylight 47.
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VICKI MULLAN
Fear Of Flying
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Damascene
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Extinction On Wings
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Goldcrest
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The Murderer
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ABOUT THE AUTHOR
Vicki Mullan has scribbled on and off for years and has had a poem accepted for
publication in The Scottish National Poetry Competition anthology many years ago.
Vicki recently had a poem selected for the Bangor Poetry Competition
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ELLIE ROSE MCKEE
Detachment
Most young people want nothing more than independence; freedom to be wild, and
free, and… well, young. To make mistakes and discover the world for themselves. To
not be limited by what other people thought best. To make friends with whoever they
wanted and not be limited at the end of each day by homework and a curfew.
Kerry Hamilton, on the other hand, had never much understood the impulse.
“But why?” she asked her father when he suggested she start looking at colleges
further afield.
He paused before answering, setting his mouth as if physically chewing over his words
before releasing them.
“Because we live in the ass-crack of nowhere,” said Kerry’s brother, Kit, while their
father was still musing on a more diplomatic way of delivering the same sentiment.
“So?” said Kerry. “I happen to like this ass-crack.” Her eyes went almost as wide as Kit’s
grin when she realized what she’d said and she swiftly added that he should shut up
and stay out of it.
“The schools around here aren’t so great,” her dad said, finally. “You’d have better
opportunities closer to the big city.”
“Which city?”
“Any of them.”
Kerry groaned, her head falling back to gently thud the headrest of the old, battered
recliner she was sitting on. A moment after that, she sat up again – her back straight
and a glint in her eye. Her dad gave her a wary look.
“I could go,” she said, “Get into a really good school. Do really well and get a good
job…” There was a pause as she judged her father’s expression, but he was set on not
responding until she’d gotten to the crux of her brainwave. Huffing out a breath, Kerry
finished, “You could come with me.”
Kit rolled his eyes but she ignored him, too busy still giving her dad the hard sell
complete with toothpaste commercial smile.
Their dad sighed and folded his paper in his lap, raising a hand for silence when Kit
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went to speak again. “Will you give us a moment, Sport?”
Shoulders slumped, Kit left the room, closing the door behind him quietly on his way
out. Neither he nor Kerry could deny their father anything.
Their dad was the strong yet gentle type. Wholesome, Kerry would describe him, if only
to herself. Stalwart. How he treated people and the way he made them feel was what
she loved most about him, and his guiding influence was she feared losing from her
life.
If things were great and they worked, why change and risk ruining them? It just made
no sense.
Turning to her, he asked, “What’s this really about, Sport?” He called everyone sport,
whether they were a little girl or an old, old man; a dog, goldfish, or someone he saw
on TV.
Kerry worried the hem of her shirt, taking a leaf out of his book for once and pausing to
think before answering. This was important, she wanted to say it right.
It took her even more time than that before she dared to look up at her dad again,
but she saw that he had worried eyes when she finally did peak. Her insides twisted
and the thread of her shirt made a creaking sound under her fingers.
“I’m sorry,” she said, her eyes moistening. She never wanted to worry him. Hell, she
never wanted to cause her dad any negative emotion. Ever. It hurt too much to see it
etched across his expressive face.
Again, she saw that he was waiting for her to speak. To explain.
“When mom left,” she said, her voice cracking. “You were here for us. For both of us.
You- you’re safe, don’t you see?”
He shook his head and Kerry had the urge to reach out and shake him until he
understood. Why couldn’t he just get it? He always did before, and it seemed so
obvious to her. With horror, she wondered if it was happening already – the
detachment kids have from their parents when they grow up and aren’t kids anymore.
Mouth opening and closing like a fish, Kerry was only able to say, “Umm.” She didn’t
have the first clue where to go from there.
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Her dad reached out and put his arm around her, pulling her in for one of his famous
bear hugs. “Listen,” he said. “Growing up is scary, I’ll grant you that.”
“No,” said Kerry. “I mean, yes, it is – of course. I just mean, that’s not what I’m scared
of.” Her dad raised his eyebrows, which she took as an invitation to continue.
“Growing up’s not optional, right?” she said, and he nodded. “Right, so there’s no
point in worrying about that. I just don’t want to…” she paused, then added, “Grow
apart.”
Her dad’s lips turned into a frown but remained closed, whereas Kerry forced a smile
again, even though it had nowhere near the same shine as before.
“This is the part where you tell me you’ll always be here for me,” she prompted. “You
know how, even if I go away, I can always come back, right?”
“Wrong.”
“What?” she almost yelled the word, it was pulled out of her with such sudden
brutality. What was wrong was the entire conversation? They never spoke like this. Her
dad had always understood before. And now – now it seemed like he almost didn’t
care, except that couldn't be right, either. “Dad,” she pleaded. “That’s not–” she
wrung her hands, not knowing how to finish.
“I wish I could tell you I’ll always be here,” said her dad, “But that’s not how life works.
Life ends.”
After a sharp intake of breath that Kerry was sure had shredded her lungs on the way
out, she petitioned her father again. “Don’t say that!” she cried.
Kerry began to sob and her dad held her tighter still. “Don’t,” he said, his tone turning
gentle. “It’s no bad thing.”
Through blurry eyes, she looked at him, completely blind to what he was saying. “I
don’t understand.”
He gave a small, reassuring smile. “It’s just life. It’s the way it goes.”
“That it does,” her dad agreed. “But it doesn’t have to be the end of the world. In fact,
it shouldn’t be. Not if you’ve done it right.
“If I kept you close – never let you learn to fly and live in the world for yourself – one
day, when I’m not here anymore, you won’t survive. It’s a father’s job to equip his kids
for life, not hide them away from it.”
Kerry pouted, starting to recognize the wisdom in his words even if she still didn't fully
understand or accept it. “So,” she said, forcing her voice to be steady, “You want me
to go away so that when you die I won’t be upset?” she summarized. It definitely
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didn’t sound right when she put it like that. How come he’d made it sound rational?
Her dad chuckled and said, “You can stay or go as you please, Sport. As long as
you’re not only here for me, like I’m some kind of salvation.”
“Wait,” said Kerry. “I can stay?” she was so thrilled by the prospect that she almost
forgave the verbal torture that preceded it and stood up to declare her dad the best
man ever to live. “But, wait,” she said again, “What’s the catch?”
With a wry expression, her dad said, “There’s no catch,” but Kerry still looked skeptical.
“There’s no permission needed, either,” he continued. “What you do is up to you. It’s
not the decisions you make that matter so much as the fact that you make them.”
Huh, thought Kerry, feeling like she finally understood. Maybe he wasn’t the one who
didn’t see after all.
“You’re a great girl,” her dad told her, making pride swell in her heart. “I just can’t wait
to see what kind of woman you turn into.”
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ABOUT THE AUTHOR
Ellie has been writing poetry and short stories since primary school and blog posts for
ten years, since attending university in Lincoln. She lives in Belfast with her husband and
spends her non-writing time enjoying art, photography, and animals.
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EILEEN SHEEHAN
*First published in The Enchanting Verses: Irish Issue (editor Patrick Cotter)
The Tuesday Poem The Irish Examiner (poetry editor Patrick Cotter)
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Say Nothing
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Playing Shops
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What of the Heart?
*First published in Sixty Poems for Haiti (editors Ian Dieffenthaller & Maggie Harris/ Cane
Arrow Press)
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ABOUT THE AUTHOR
Eileen Sheehan: is from Scartaglin, County Kerry, she now lives in Killarney. Anthology
publications include Best Loved Poems: Favourite Poems from the South of Ireland
(editor Gabriel Fitzmaurice with photographs by John Reidy/ Curragh Press); The Deep
Heart's Core: Irish Poets Revisit a Touchstone Poem (editors Eugene O'Connell & Pat
Boran/ Dedalus Press) and TEXT: A Transition Year English Reader (editor Niall
MacMonagle/ The Celtic Press).Her work features on Poetry International Web. Her
third collection, The Narrow Way of Souls, is forthcoming from Salmon Poetry.
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MARGARET O’DRISCOLL
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Symbols Of Escape
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Take No Shit
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Warrior Woman
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ABOUT THE AUTHOR
Margaret O'Driscoll is a writer, editor and curator and is a mother of seven and
grandmother to eleven who lives in Co' Cork, Ireland. She is a Social Care Worker and
has been a full time carer for many years. Her poetry has appeared in various
magazines and anthologies worldwide. She published her first poetry collection on
Bloomsday, 2016, 'The Best Things In Life Are Free' - it has received star reviews. She was
awarded a full bursary to attend The John Hewitt Summer School in 2016. Her work has
been translated and published internationally in many languages.
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CHRIS MURRAY
Alongside [it a babel-brook] a river there is [sings of her silks and silver, many tongued
she is
[Her song] A river does not ‘sing’ is of salmon, of hazelnut(s) [a visual image omitted, Editor’s
Note].
Boann The River Boyne flows between two ancient towers at Trim, Co. Meath. [two
ancient towers shot through, blasted into ruination]at Trim, Co.Meath, Ireland.
Alongside [Boann] the river there are the remnants of an extensive settlement which
consists of a curtain wall, gate tower remnants, including the Barbican Gate, a great
standing tower, a ruined great hall, and other. architectural curiosities which have
become known collectively as ‘Trim Castle’. [*We will concern ourselves only with one
of the towers, Editor’s Note]
The River Boyne flows between two ancient towers at Trim in Co. Meath, Ireland. [Shot
through / blasted into ruination], [T]he ruins present a stark picture to the walker poet.
It is time for us to infuse Boann with song, with images. It is time to let the past lie down
in its wreckage. We must begin to listen to her notes, illuminant, discordant; the babel
of the female poet singer. The woman poet takes her language from Boann.
The dark shape of the river passes us. It is silver and brown, its deep blue is endlessly lit
from above. Boann is asking us for music and for light. It is time to question tower’s
austere note. Its commission of dark wordless functionality. It is time to fill the valley with
the sound of our singing.
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The Tower
The tower is a physical entity, lock-gripped and tenaciously clinging to the landscape
from where it arose. Yet it can be changed into a useful metaphor for the purposes of
this essay. We can examine the tower metaphor as the ’weight’ of male poetic
‘authority’, the type of poetic language that dominates a canon that has relentlessly
excluded women poets. The Irish woman poet should not take on the burden of the
tower, which is in fact an unattainable linguistic remnant of the past. An austere shape
that intimidates us and refuses to beguile us with its plain blank note, it's simple
austerity.
Women poets wear multiple corsets. They are the best self-editors, doing anything to
achieve critical recognition in an Irish canon dominated by the male poet’s voice,
including writing a poetry that fits into their idea of the austere, the heroic, the
conquering.
We are never allowed to forget the dark tower. The structured language, the idiom of
false praxis. It dominates the dreaming lives of those of us who cling to the literary
landscape. ‘Tower’ is alwayspresent, a colossus,
sounds,
unsound,
it cannot
upbuild
its wall.
There is space to walk beneath the tower. A huge mostly dry and cavernous space. It
feels light beneath it because the arches are doing the work carrying that fearful
weight of poetry tradition. Small trickles of water run down the old walls nourishing blue
flowers, daisies, maybe there are some forget-me-nots.
Small and quite insignificant flowers dwell beneath this dark austerity. The run-off
makes its way to an underground drainage system, eventually it emptying into the
adjacent river,
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Alongside tower the babel-brook sings out her silks and silver, many-tongued she is.
Her song is of salmon, of hazel nuts, of night and men. Boann shrugs off the
impertinence of the tower in the great schema of things.
The rulers, those king-worshippers, idolaters, leave no space in their making for light, for
the shallow play of water, for a sliver of coloured glass to carry the multiplicit y ies of
her reflection(s) There is in fact nothing to blunt the edge of the austerity in their
conception of ‘tower’. It is not a burden due to us, nor ours to carry.
The corbelled stonework in the archway under the tower allows air to drive through
while keeping the rain off. Of course the supporting arches are of low roman design.
These huge arches have the ability to carry great architectural weight.
Tower
Alongside Tower the babel-brook sings out her silks and silver, many-tongued she is. Her
song is of salmon, of hazel nuts, of night and men. Boann shrugs off the impertinence
of tower in the great schema of things.
Boann- her language is a babel brook, containing both dark and light. Her language,
the language of river is an eternal thing. Boann flows between the ruins of two towers,
that one with the fabulous curtain walls, down-fastened, fixed, creeled in by the
language of stone. That old tributary alongside it was a much disputed redirection.
Heaving with rushes now, it is a mirage, the ground looks solid enough to the unwary.
That tower opposite might well be the end wall of some castle.
Boann passes darkly and rapidly, giving not a thought to these ancient ruins. Her
waters are alive with silk and silver. ‘Tower’ was an episode, an ancient and tawdry
memory. The tower-makers neglected her, there were no places of shallow and light
for her waters to play. There was no place for her to capture their hearts of stone, their
worldliness. They built no place for a chapel, or for her lights to play out their mischief.
There would be no ease for the dead of that house. She passes the old curtain wall,
shrugs off the memory now, an aberration.
We must examine the ruin of tower in order to understand how it has colonised our
imaginations for thousands of years. It Is not externally buttressed, so its foundation
must strike deep into the bedrock and soil that it is built upon. Kids can run around it,
this rain-blackened tower. They can climb and jump over what was the cess pit and
its sliding garde robe. Festooned now with blue spotlights edging its ancient clinging to
the landscape- we are not allowed forget it, even at night,
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sounds,
unsound,
it cannot
upbuild
its wall.
If we investigate closer, we can see that tower is buttressed internally with a never
ending series of internal scaffoldings, rigorous shunting of metals into walls has
occurred. Rust bleeds down onto the exposed sills. New wooden doors hang dark-
oakly from its lintels and other more ancient architectural extrusions. We can see that
tower is an image of austerity, with its weird militaristic ringing.
There is no decoration evident here. Gargoyles are fashioned from strict limestone, no
grinning monsters or weird beasts relieve its upward sweep. Music and merry making
happened in the roofless hall that is set at a distance from the business of tower. Its
windows are always slits for arrows, for defence.
There were picture windows made up of tiny panels, mullioned and closed in. There
were no wide open windows here. No vistas, maybe the sun once made a play with
the glass panels in their plain whiteness, unrelieved by stain of blue or deep orange.
Tower clutched onto the landscape that it arose from. A sister tower across the river is
without interest, a gutted needlelike structure, flimsy walled, raided by farmers for out-
buildings, for old stone walls. It's weird music only heard by sheep and wild animals
now.
Tower appears to be impenetrable, but it is not a babel tower. It is not the queen's
rook, the richly interpreted, the feathered by music and song tower. It is an austerity, a
precise note on the poetry landscape, a darkness of function and direct language.
Here, you are aware that you stand outside of it. An alienated being.
It is good to find one’s feet, to know that they can take you away from the austerity of
‘tower’ back to the river. Back to Boann, back to her eternal song.
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ABOUT THE AUTHOR
Chris Murray is an Irish poet. Her chapbook Three Red Things was published by
Smithereens Press in June 2013. A small collection of interrelated poems in series and
sequence, Cycles, was published by Lapwing Press in autumn 2013. A book-length
poem, The Blind, was published by Oneiros Books in 2013. Her second book-length
poem, She, was published by Oneiros in spring 2014. A chapbook, Signature, was
published by Bone Orchard Press in March 2014. “A Modern Encounter with ‘Foebus
abierat’: On Eavan Boland’s ‘Phoebus Was Gone, all Gone, His Journey Over’ ” was
published in Eavan Boland: Inside History(Editors: Nessa O’Mahony and Siobhán
Campbell) by Arlen House in 2016.
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MOYRA DONALDSON
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Black Dream Bird
It was yesterday
that I was a crow
with horse hair in my beak
and my nest half built
and my black feathers
shining through the early mist
of belonging to the world
of knowing how to balance
on the air of the world
and my shadow
the same colour as myself.
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Glory and Tragedy at Cheltenham
BBC Sport Online 28th January 2017
A found poem
Press
After lowering the colours of hot favourite, Thistlecrack
in a sensational battle, in the best race of his career,
better even than his win in the 2015 Grand National -
Many Clouds collapsed moments after crossing the line.
Gallops Jockey
What was great about him
but was also his downfall,
was that he didn’t know
when to quit, that’s our sport
and it makes us love it
and makes us hate it.
Trainer
I’ve had two large vodkas and tonics,
basically IV vodka just to be able to speak to you,
he was the horse of a lifetime,
I always said he’d die for you and he died
for me and the team today, doing what he loved.
Veterinarian
On behalf of the owner and trainer and with their permission, the BEVA can confirm
that Many Clouds was found to have suffered from a severe pulmonary haemorrhage
which was the cause of his death after the race. No significant underlying health issues
were discovered in the autopsy. Our thoughts remain with everyone connected to the
horse.
Groom
I regret not patting him – I just went away too upset
and I wish I’d said goodbye; I didn’t go down
to the yard this morning; it hit me last night
when I saw his box and knew
it was never going to be used by him again.
It broke my heart, you never get over it.
I’m sixty-two and I’ve been in the sport
since I was fifteen, but you never get used
to losing them, if you do you shouldn’t
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be working with horses.
I’m due to retire in two years
when he’d have been twelve,
I was hoping we could have gone out together.
He wasn’t a good horse, he was a great horse.
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Return
I would dig them up, the wings of scapulas, the skulls of air,
the golden saddle cloths; reconstruct the horses,
the black horse and the white horse and the horse of fire.
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ABOUT THE AUTHOR
Poet, creative writing facilitator, editor. Experienced mentor for those working towards
a first collection. Moyra’s publishers are Lagan Press, Belfast and Liberties Press, who
published her Selected Poems in 2012 and her most recent collection, The Goose Tree
in June 2014
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MAEVE MCGARRITY
Churston Cove
The pink-pebbled shore is deserted but for a boy and his tattooed father
Skimming stones out to sea.
Backs arched, wrists flicking, stones low-leaping.
The sea will thrust them forward again,
Their smooth forms nudged to the foreshore.
Wave by wave, tide by tide,
Ground to gravel, to sand,
A red salty coarseness cut with bone and glass.
The day is marked. The guard has changed. The tide has turned.
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Squeeze tight; let go
Remember how I used to hold your hand towards the end, in the last few weeks? I’d
squeeze tight, then let go. I do that now but with my fists pumped to stop the pain
from rising in my chest. It was ages since I’d actually held your hand like that. I used to
have to hold to keep you safe and stop you falling over.
Like when you used to walk along the top of that old stone wall in the park in Islington
where we used to live, squishing the trailing rosebuds in a pair of soft, pink leather
sandals, your hair a bouncing ball of yellow fuzz in the morning light.
I’ve had rabbit eyes for weeks now - feel about a hundred years old!
Listen to me spouting on - I suppose I shouldn’t pour my heart out like this. HaHa!
I could go with the flow and get a smaller teapot, but then I’ll have to buy a smaller
tea cosy too, so maybe I’ll just go to Sainsbury’s and buy some decent strong teabags
and be done with it!
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You see all the problems I’ve got all because you passed a few exams!
Think I’ll put the kettle on, that tingling is back again!
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The Hair of the Dog
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Days later, the jacket is discovered.
One crinkled, rough, yellow hair of the dog clings to the
inside of the cotton lining.
The rightful owner is established.
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Heron Landing
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AMY BARRY
We persist.
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ABOUT THE AUTHOR
Amy Barry writes poems and short stories. She has worked in the Media, Hotel and Oil &
Gas industries. Her poems have been published in anthologies, journals, and e-zines, in
Ireland and abroad. Her poems have been read and shared on the radio in Australia,
Canada and Ireland. She loves traveling and trips to India, Nepal, China, Bali, Paris,
Berlin, have all inspired her work. When not inspired she plays Table Tennis.
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GAYNOR KANE
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Bandage the bullet wounds and dress
the damage done by imperial oppression;
these scars will mark you forever.
Raise the blood-stained sheet, and mourn
the child that fought for life
for six days. Don’t wear black;
say ‘I do’ under the shadow of death
and against the executioner’s ticking clock.
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Abraxas
Do we see differently?
Is your world in sepia,
or monochrome,
or technicolour?
Have you lost hope in humanity?
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Winter Self-help
Fold
your blank page
in half,
bend from top to bottom
smooth with finger nail
fold each hoary edge
back on yourself.
Trim off a border in zigzags or curves
depending on your mood.
Or if you need help use this as a template,
cut out
of the emptiness -
angles, anger and bubbles are good.
Under foot
a flurry of flakes,
the trimmings
of excess.
Tenderly unfold your new page
reveal your creation,
beautiful in your uniqueness.
Sometimes you have to cut
things out
to make
the perfect
snow
f
l
a
k
e
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After birth
“When one door closes another door opens, but we so often look so long and so
regretfully upon the closed door, that we do not see the ones which open for us.”
Alexander Graham Bell
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ABOUT THE AUTHOR
Gaynor Kane is a graduate of the Open University, with a BA (Hons) Humanities with
Literature. She has had poetry published in the Community Arts Partnership’s ‘Poetry in
Motion’ anthology Matter and in online journals, such as: Atrium Poetry, The Galway
Review and The Blue Nib. In 2016, Gaynor was a finalist in the annual Funeral Services
NI poetry competition. In June 2017, she was appointed as a member of the Executive
Board for Women Aloud NI.
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EITHNE LANNON
Companion
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ABOUT THE AUTHOR
Eithne Lannon is a native of Dublin. She’s had poems published in The Ogham Stone,
Boyne Berries, Skylight 47, FLARE, Stanzas and The Limerick Magazine. On-line she’s
published with Sheila-na-Gig, Headstuff, Bare Hands, Tales from the Forest, The Galway
Review and A New Ulster. She had poems long listed for the Dermot Healy competition
this year and was short listed for the Galway Arts competition last year. Eithne is
involved in the open mic scene around Dublin and was Artist in Residence in
Loughshinny Boathouse in summer 2016.
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YVONNE BOYLE
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Writers' Group Day Out
We walk hesitantly
into the literary landscape.
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Remembering being in love with Tony Jaques at Cambridge
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Pink Towerblocks
Pink towerblocks
against a grey Belfast autumn skyline
as I drive down the MI
from a visit to my mother’s Lisburn Nursing Home.
In her room
catching sight us both in a mirror
I notice how alike our face shapes are;
I a reflection of her.
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ABOUT THE AUTHOR
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MARGARET SAINE
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PREGNANT
Inside me
there is movement
an incomplete compass
striking capricious and tender
the beat of a second heart
In my bowels
Inside me
there is a voice
speaking
unfinished vowels
hushed consonants
I will never throw away
my tale as begun
though it promised
only ashes
and sorrows
There is still
inside me
this new voice
that softly
moves to rule me
and win me regardless
of consequence
Softly touching
my breast
in a farewell
to myself alone
Inside me
this creature is
the nearest I've felt
to myself
in my life
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JUST ASKING
How can it be
there’s never been
a pregnant saint
[un saint enceint]
--une sainte enceinte
if you insist--
No saint was ever pregnant
though pregnancy is a miracle
--life’s greatest mystery--
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ABOUT THE AUTHOR
Margaret Saine is a poet who lives near Los Angeles. She writes and translates in
different languages and writes one haiku daily since 2008. Her last book is “Lit Angels”
Moonrise Press, Tujunga-Sunland CA, 2017
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ANNE MCMASTER
These are the days when the light moves slowly on.
When summer, wrapped up gently as any precious gift,
ebbs slowly - and in leaving us seems sweeter than before.
I search for beauty in the fields around the farm
and find berry-clustered hedges, limned in leaf of gold,
glowing brightly, still-life like, rich with colour,
holding the weight - if not the heat - of the lowering sun.
For autumn light brings with it a fading memory of warmth
and falls in layers of stillness now - a slow retreat -
pressing more lightly in against the shortening day.
These days I carry close to me - as something treasured -
my memories of this farm on a clear summer's day.
Dawn brought with it, then, rich promises of toil.
Unwrapped in soft blue mornings, filigreed with mist,
thick swathes of grass, falling freshly-mown behind my father's blades,
dried, crisp and fragrant, under a golden sun.
We carried light within us - in childish voices and in laughter -
from fields to kitchen, then racing back outdoors:
each voice, a note of busy happiness we did not know we sang.
Later, in the room we shared, folded and tucked in tight,
summer light pooling in golden shadows at the foot of each small bed,
mist softening, again, the edges of the glorious day,
roads, hedges, cattle, cats still warm with the memory of sun,
and a waterfall of birdsong echoing through the falling dusk.
The fading light of autumn, now, is a different, sombre thing.
The yard is stilled: old houses empty, tractors gone.
The choir of birds is silenced too: some have already flown.
Those remaining have withdrawn from the immediacy of the day.
Leaves are weighted now and still: caught on the cusp of colour, waiting to fall.
Only shadows fill the quiet, lonely byres.
The pale light of winter will be a barren gift - something to yearn for and yet lose too
soon.
Such meagre light will prove a mere echo of the generous summer sun
and will not fill the faltering heart or thaw the frozen soil.
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The frosted light draws out, instead, the scents and sounds of the fading year:
the sweetened smoke of peat fires fragrance the still, cool air,
and in the icy, lowering darkness a fox's bark echoes harshly across the empty, frozen
fields
while glittering stars burn cold
and the old farm lies quiet and still.
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End of Year
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Dereliction
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Autumn Manuscript
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Relay
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ABOUT THE AUTHOR
Anne McMaster’s work is shaped and informed by nature, by the seasons and by both the history and
landscape of the old farm where she lives.
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CSILLA TOLDY
Late
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Meta-strategies
tv announcements.
Two rangers saw
two boys and a canoe
on the way up-up, playing
Rock-paper-scissors.
They were warned,
what else could you do.
Rock-paper-scissors
carried by the wind.
Two tree trunk bodies
tossed around the river’s algorithm
awe-trapped totems of never-end.
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Shakti
I don’t feel poetic today, I just want some peace – you cannot give me, no more -
We struggle on the waves of acceptance, of our new life together - or apart
I want to move you want to stay – we bury our romance
Duty, dharma - yours is light mine is dark – but there is a need for
Darkness, otherwise, how could anyone see your light? And the shape of things.
The depth of dark is your doom - intense not knowing – the reptile brain of religion
Sex, sacred trance – woman’s instinct holding your point in the dance
The smallest phase, the non-manifest being of all that was and is and will be:
Light.
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ABOUT THE AUTHOR
Csilla Toldy’s poems appeared in numerous literary magazines and anthologies, in the
UK, Ireland and Canada. Her awards include the Katapult Prize, The Hartley-Merrill Prize
and The Special Prize of the Motion Pictures Association of America. Her poetry
collection Red Roots - Orange Sky was published by Lapwing Publications Belfast in
2013, followed by an anthology of short fiction, poetry and memoir with the title “The
Emigrant Woman’s Tale” in 2015. Her poems were long and short listed for the Fish,
Oxford Brookes and Bridport poetry prizes.
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LIST OF IRISH AND NORTHERN IRISH WOMEN WRITERS PUBLISHED BY
LAPWING PUBLICATIONS
2016 978-1-910855-14-0 Up on the Hills and All at Sea x Rosy Wilson 31-Mar-16 Irish
978-1-910855-22-5 Blue Moon Rising x Vivienne Hannah-Artt 31-July -16 Irish
978-1-910855-25-6 Confluence of Wakes x Jean Folan 31-July-16 Irish
978-1-910855-27-0 Years Ago You Coloured Me x J.S. Watts 31-Aug-16
978-1-910855-33-1 The Phantom Fundamental x Ruby Turok-Squire 31-Oct-16
978-1-910855-34-8 Disappearing Tracks: A Story in Verse x Geraldine Paine 30-Nov-16
978-1-910855-35-5 The Meadow of the Spell x Rose Moran RSM 30-Nov-16 Irish
978-1-910855-36-2 Loose Leaves: A life in Vignette x Sue Norton 30-Nov-16 USA-Irish
978-1-910855-38-6 The Shadow Behind Me x Paula Matthews 30-Nov-16 Irish 2017
978-1-910855-39-3 Keeping Watch x Katherine Noone 31-Jan-17 Irish
978-1-910855-41-6 Obsession x Valerie Masters 31-Jan-17 Irish
978-1-910855-42-3 Imperatives x Pat Farrington 31-Mar-17 English
978-1-910855-43-0 Foxes Don't Wear Watches x Belinda Singleton 28-Feb-17 English
978-1-910855-44-7 As I Go In The Dark x Sally Wheeler 30-Apr-17 Irish
978-1-910855-45-4 Lilac & Gooseberries x Aoife Reilly 31-Mar-17 Irish
978-1-910855-46-1 Pages of Travel x Silvia Baron Supervielle trs Peter Schulman 31-Mar-17 Argentina
978-1-910855-48-5 Voices in the Garden x Julie-ann Rowell 31-Mar-17 English
978-1-910855-52-2 Roots and Wings x Rose Moran 30-June-17 Irish
978-1-910855-54-6 Going West x Rosy Wilson 31-July-17 Irish
978-1-910855-56-0 Everyday Islands x Julie Fuster 31-Sept French
978-1-910855-58-4 Ancestral Bones x Judy Russell 31-Aug-17 Irish
978-1-910855-61-4 Lifespun x Pat Farrington 31-Sept-17 English
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