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Author(s): Marlon T. Riggs
Source: Art Journal, Vol. 50, No. 3, Censorship I (Autumn, 1991), pp. 60-64
Published by: College Art Association
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he Soviet Empire is in a shambles. Pick up any am moved to recite a familiar, though slightly revised, nurs-
newspaper today; watch the morning, midday, eve- ery rhyme:
ning, late-night news-the announcements are
inescapable-and you will witness, up close and personal, Joseph McCarthy sat on the wall
TrickyDick 'n Joe had a great fall
reports of a society profoundly dysfunctional, teetering on the And all of Reagan's horsemen
edge of chaos. Gorby wins the Nobel prize! But can he And all Jesses kin
salvage his political economy? Will he last? Will the nation? Will neverput the old hegemony
Most of us have been captivated by such news, by the Back together again.
sights and sounds of walls ripped apart and flooded over by
60 an angry, impatient humanity, unwilling to live by dissem- As a Black Gay Signifyin' Butch-Queen devoted to the fine
bling myths of the past, to live with the worsening perils of and sometimes martial "arts" of the Wicked Read and the
the moment. Subversive Snap, I cannot help but jump with jubilation over
The Eastern Bloc crumbles, and millions of Americans the quickening disintegration of the American myth, the
watch, at once riveted and, reassuringly, cocooned by their implosion of America's cultural center. For the myth and the
belief that the Soviets have finally arrived at an inexorable dominant culture have been my prison: each time another
fate, while we, the victors, stand tall and intact, the armor pillar of the myth crumbles, I inhale-taste-freedom, gain
of American might-and ideology-gleaming radiantly new vistas on the world and my life. The Old American
throughout the world for others, at best, to emulate, and at Empire-the old, imposed American identity-is cracking
least, to defer to. up. Our mythic center will not hold. Of course, I bless this
Few Americans have noticed-in part because our destruction. With it, you see, arrives the opportunity for my
popular media have scarcely bothered to inform them-that too-long-delayed, my truest Emancipation.
here at home, our walls, too, are profoundly fractured and Fifteen years ago, the vista before me was decidedly
crumbling, that just as the Second Worldis on the verge of an different, was, in fact, quite bleak. As an undergraduate at
overdue collapse, so is the First. Harvard, I was as much a prisoner as a student. Like most
The mythology of America, the myth of what it means to others, I had gone there to learn, but above all I had gone in
be an American, is facing, at last, its own inexorable fate. For search of community, of people like myself-the young,
what this myth required for too long, for too many of us, was gifted, and black; Nina Simone's song was my anthem then-
the soul-crushing negation of our lives and our struggles, the who shared my values and concerns, my intellectual and
silencing of our most intimate, deepest, life-sustaining political commitments. I had gone to Harvard, naively, in
truths. The mythology of America always demanded of its search of my own black reflection. I awakened, after I ar-
devotees and its victims more than mere assimilation: it rived, to the realization that I was also gay. And the reflection
forced us to view the best within ourselves as the worst. The of myself that this new me suggested I found nowhere. Worse,
most precious within us, that which shaped and nurtured our I believed it existed . . . nowhere.
distinctive character, our visions of the world, our identities, There were no programs in lesbian/gay studies, then.
we jettisoned. For the sake of cultural and political There were no lesbian/gay/bisexual students associations.
conversion-or better still, conformity-to the status quo, There were no "out" faculty, to my knowledge, nor confer-
we've paid a price, and are paying it still, with currencies of ences or seminars that addressed, in even the remotest way,
self-abuse, self-hatred, alienation, violence, isolation, si- the turmoil or the raging questions within me. There was no
lence, and brutal death. The price of America's mythology is In the Life, or Other Countries, or Lookingfor Langston, or
measured in our spiritual devastation and-too often, too Tongues United (fig. 1), or Gay Men of African Descent.
literally-in blood. And the reason America's mythic walls Nothing ostensibly "gay" seemed to embrace the totality of
are finally crumbling is simply this: we are no longer willing me; nothing "black" did either.
to bleed, and hence, to pay. Most days, at lunch and dinner, over the course of my
As I gleefully survey the falling wreckage around me, I freshman year, I self-consciously surveyed the dining hall,
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steereda course beyondthe anonymousrowsof young,white, dridge, Angela, Martin, Malcolm, Stokeley,and Jesse, my
animated faces, among whom I clearly did not belong; moved time, back then, had decidedly not arrived. No prophets of
furtherstill beyond the cluster of "black tables," where I revolutionspoke to me, spoke of me. The Last Poets did not
knew, deep down, that no matterhow much I masqueraded, mentionmy name. The New Nationalists, on the rare occa-
my trueself wouldshowandwouldbe shunned;and sat, often sions when they acknowledgedmy existence at all, spoke of
alone,eating quickly, hurryingmy exit froma roomwhereall me with utter contempt, spat and twisted my name like the
eyes, I felt, condemnedme with unspokencontempt:misfit, vilest obscenity.
freak, faggot. Dutifully,nevertheless,I attendedclasses, in search of
Beneath such judgment I did as millions have done somethingmorethan knowledgeor scholarship-in search
beforeme and since: I withdrewinto the shadowsof my soul; of a history, a culture that spoke to my life. A history and
chainedmy tongue;attemptedas best as I could, to snuffout culture that, simply, talked to me.
the flame of my sexuality; assumed the impassive face and Because of this search I began a lesson that, in truth,
stiff pose of Silent Black Macho. I wore the mask. I was I'veneverstoppedlearning:when nobodyspeaks yourname,
serving time; for what crime I didn't know. But I wore the oreven knowsit, you, knowingit, mustbe the firstto speak it.
mask, howeverstiff, confining, suffocating:I served,in rage, When the existing history and culture do not acknowledge
pain, and bitter,needless solitude, for three and one-halfof andaddressyou-do notsee ortalk to you-you mustwritea
my undergraduateyears, ignorantthat there could be any new history, shape a new culture, that will.
otherway. By the winterof my senioryear in college, I learnedto
What time was it? speak my name. At first it was just a whisper.Yet it was not
Certainlynot NationTime, not for this young, gifted, the wordsI utteredthat were most important,but the will to
black-and queer!-student. No nation, howeverrevolu- utter them: I am young, black, gifted-and gay: from this
tionary,had dared claim me. No revisionist history, black, knowledge, this quiet certainty, I shall not, must not, be
Marxist,or otherwise, dared to mentionmy name. moved.
Whosetime was it? Intenton knowingmore about what being gay meant,
Certainly not my time! Despite Douglass, Tubman, notso muchin the presenttense but (typicallyforme then)in
Sojourner,DuBois, Garvey, Langston, Rustin, Ella, El- the past, I petitionedmy departmentfor a special indepen-
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Thus we affirmour right and our fight to live. across our multiple oppressions and strategies of self-
Weare on the brink, I believe, of a newwaveof media- empowerment,in ways that build a truly radical multi-
arts activism, catalyzed in part by the explosionof low-cost, culturalcoalition, perhapseven community.Wemust create
high-qualityvideo, and, ironically, by the repressive mea- a cultural language, a notion of identity that appreciates
sures of the conservative and fundamentalistright. This difference yet escapes the tragic pitfalls of outsiderversus
activism will most likely not gather its strongestforce until insider and the resultant tendency toward an exclusivist,
the twenty-firstcentury, when notions of identity, whether privileging subjectivity.
gender-,race-, sexuality-, or nationality-based,will explic- Again, this will be no easy task.
itly embracemultiplesubjectivities of humanexperienceand Thus far we have chosen, for the most part, an easy
points of view. multiculturalism,a polite, deferentialappreciationand re-
Whatmedia artists are nowchallengedwith, it seems, spect forpoliticaland culturalpluralism, withoutdeveloping
is not just combating the ideological right, whose "con- a rigorous discourse that analyzes how multiple subjec-
sensus" is crumbling, and whose days are numbered, no tivities intersect, compete, and collide.
matterhow much they posture, pray, bash, and sue. Our Perhapswe have failed to do this because the media
greatest challenge rests in finding a language, a way of arts are still very young and many of us, having only just
communicatingacross our subjectivities, across difference, learned to speak, are addressing primarilyour own subjec-
a way of negotiating the political and cultural bordersbe- tive selves. Butas we contemplatethis time in ourhistoryand
tween and within us so that we do not replicatethe chauvin- the promiseof the time to come, recall the greaterworkwe
ism and the reductivepolitical agendas of the past. have to do. Forwhatwe do in this dialogue and otherslike it
This is no easy task. will decide whetherthis age is rememberedas the adventof a
An all-too-frequent, unfortunatepattern among peo- moreprogressive,inclusive, dynamic constructof humanity
ples achievingsocial empowermentis their predispositionto and culture or yet anotherhistorical promisedeferred. ,
reformulatesocial hierarchies, so that they become privi-
leged while others are oppressed. The system of hierarchy
remains intact; only the relative placement of the groups MARLON T. RIGGS is a film director and producer,media
changes. The burden of today's historical moment, when activist, and lobbyistfor independent,point-of-view
identitiesworldwideare radically reformulating,is for us to programming in public broadcasting. He lectures at the
speak to and with each other,across the bordersof identity, Universityof California, Berkeley.
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