The Mbovu Dynasty by AyandaK

Description : You've probably heard the saying, "Can't live with them, can't live
without them." You may have used it once or twice when you've had enough of a
family member's antics, but so you know Some family trees bear an enormous
crop of nuts... Then normal people.But through family ties mean that no matter
how much you might want to run from your family, you can't. It's like that
annoying itch you can't scratch. They say the bigger the family, the bigger your
problems.We are: "THE MBOVU DYNASTY"
Chapter 1
[The Firstborn ]

What is a neglected child? He is a child not planned for not wanted Neglect begins before he is
born and that's me.

Raised by grandparents because my mother and father ware too young when they had me grew
up to be a man before I can be a boy learn the importance of being a protector of the family they
named me Vusimuzi
" raise of House "
but I have no wife and no kids I'm 36 years old and all I do Is run my grandfathers business I
hate farming but I have no choice in fact I was not given any choice to do what I like so here I
am smelling cow dung and sweat...

" I need you in the house at 19:00 "

My grandfather says I know it's serious because he never calls
Me: baba what's going on ?"
Him: you will find out when you get there....and Vusi leave your gun in your house...I'm tired of
doing cleansing ceremony for you can you just try and get along with your father! "
Me: respect is earned Baba...and I'm not promising anything I carry my gun everywhere "
He cliqued his tongue and dropped the call in my ear I banged the car door and walked inside the
house.
I drop my car keys in shock I swear to God I did lock my house what is she doing here? how did
she even get in? I opened my mouth and closed it when I was meet by my sister drinking in my
living room wait a second she is drinking my beer she hates beer how is it that she drinking it
with so much ease?

" what are you doing here?" I ask the question while I already have any answers for it She smiled
and walked around the kitchen counter she is limping ok what happened? she took my beer from
the fridge and down it
Me: Nelisiwe are you ok?"
She busts out crying holding her face God no! I'm not in the mood for this shit! I breathe out
loud and made my way to her I was about to hug her
" hhaybo wenzani ?" ...she pushed me with her hand
Me: Sisi uyakhala njena"
Her: and you just see fit to hug me while you smell of cow shit and sweat "she still has tears in
her eyes but you can't miss attitude and loud mouth I look at her folding my arms wasn't she
crying a few minutes ago?
Me: nkwenzakaleni onyaweni "
Her: I was chase by dogs and fell "
She pushes me off her way leaving me looking at her
"like what the fuck ???"
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[Second Born ]

Second-born children have long been believed to be the troublemakers in the family
I don't know if it's lack of attention that attributed to being rebellious or what?
I look at Vusimuzi I might have hated that I had to share the attention with him worst part he was
a boy and being raised by grandparents my grandfather molded him to be the best version of
himself.

My mother named me Nelisiwe ' fulfillment ' of her love for me.
She wanted me to live her dreams and climb all the ladder she never reached I was taught From
an early age about the advantages of success. Do well in high school so you can get into a good
college. Do well in college so you can get a good job. Excel at your job so you can get promoted
buy a lot of nice stuff and start a nuclear family of champions.

Ambition is often what separates the good from the mediocre and the exceptional from the great.
People are undeniably drawn towards those who want the best in life.
So I got married at the age of 20 just after graduation he was a successful businessman and I was
just this new hit shot lawyer who was unstoppable.

Everyone has the right to pursue happiness and fulfillment but when that desire drastically
reduces a significant other’s role in your life leaving you alone in the process something is
clearly wrong. In the end I had nothing left but infamy.

" God Nelly are you going to drink my whole beer "
He says walking in the room pulling his t-shirt down he smells fresh ... I guess he took a bath I
stood up and wiped my eyes

I heard a lot of commotion and twanging with her high pitch voice that can only mean u'girl
ongilamayo is here
" Sibizelweni vele la? ...you know grandpa thinks we have no life "
I roll my eyes she the stylish one in the family looks to kill banging body and lives her life the
way she sees fit I envy her at times I'm 30 and I still think I wasted my youth leaving my mothers
dream I don't even know who Nelly is and what she wants.
Me: unjani Okuhle"
She smiled and walks up to me and give me a brief hug I turn and walked outside
" Nelly what's wrong" she says walking to me I miss her so much but she does not seem to care
that cold hug just broke my heart with the shit I'm going through right now I really need my
sister.

Me: I don't want to talk about it "

She looks at me and frowns.
Her: you meet someone ?" I look at Vusi he was all puzzled with his eyes wide open.
Okuhle: you never cry so it must be a man involved...who is he?"
Vuyo: what did he do? I swear to God I will kill him!!"
her: " there is no man can you go away I need air"
Her: you have a fat big hickey on your neck so what happened..."
Urg did I say I miss her? Fuck she is so annoying I look at her and breathe out loud.

Me: it's not him it's me you know My ex-husband told me he loved me after we had been dating
for one week. One week! It totally freaked me out but I responded back because I thought he was
the one and now ...
eight and a half years later I'm divorced and told myself that I will never love again and I will
focus on my career and my kids but lust sneaks up on me.

I feel like a fool I don't know why I get emotional during sex and lose inhibition. so I bluntly
said I loved him. then he turns around and said "Um thanks. "
Okuhle: he said what?
Vusi: " wow ! "
Me: " the minute he left the room I ran away I missed few steps on the stairs and rolled down "
Them: " what? " Okukhe held her mouth
Me: while that was not enough I ran out of his house forgetting that he has big bulldogs bloody
beast chase me and I found myself on top of my car ..."
Vusi bust out and laughed
" you really love this guy...damn I need to meet him "
His phone ringed and Answers it
" sure mfethu..awuze nebhodlela...I got news to tell you about your big sister... " he busts out and
laughed walking out God why is my life complicated ngisemafamu drinking beer I'm limping
and I feel so stupid for falling for a man who said from the word go that he ain't looking for
something serious. Fuck!
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[Middle Child ]

The second child has trouble sharing the oldest is bossy the baby always gets what he wants and
the middle child is well stuck in the middle. Are these merely stereotypes or is there some truth
to birth order differences?

Trust me it's all true My father names me Okuhle " beautiful things" my birth brought so much
hope to my family my mother finally thought she will have my father heart since he came home
often and bonded with his family I set on his lap most of the time they say I'm the most beautiful
child out of my siblings but funny how they forgot my name or my existence all the time.

Growing up as a middle child I had to learn fast where I fit in this family I had figured that the
oldest siblings reap all the privileges and the babies get away with everything so middles learn to
negotiate to get what they want.
Yes it's true Middle-borns are the most willing to wheel and deal ... My beautiful face and smart
mouth got me where I am today.
Went to the best school followed my big sister footstep became a lawyer practice overseas and
now I stand a chance to make Partners in the biggest law firm in the country I'm only 28 and it's
good to say I'm young beautiful rich and self-made and to me this is just a tip of the iceberg.

But the sad part is we all know rich people are unhappy. “You can’t buy happiness” and that
goes the cliché of being too successful

I'm not close with my siblings I stay miles away from them I have no kids no man just me and
my money a big house fancy cars and status. I have no friends at all which lead me to spending
three days in a week on my therapy couch just to offloading my miserable rich life.

"beer ?"
Nelly says walking past me
Me: you drink beer now?"
I frown and pull my coat over my shoulder
Her: its the only thing in the fridge umfundisi ulindwa ngeculo your twin from another mother is
bringing booze"
Me: ill pass thank you ...besides I have my own wine in the cooler in my car "

She starts laughing mocking me

So here are the disadvantages of being me I am rude and I hate myself for that but I have no
intention to change it because I hate everyone else more. I have trust issues but I have no
intention to change it because I hate everyone else more. I have trust issues and I cannot find real
friends. I was diagnosed with major depression when I was 21 and currently it's just chronic.
Also yea my social skills suck as soon as I enter the room I feel suffocated and wish to walk out

Her: of course you do have wine in the cooler" she imitated my voice and rolled her eyes
Me: what does that suppose to mean!?"
Her: Nelly really? you going to sit there as if you in some cocktail bar with your red bottoms and
that coat over your shoulders you do know we at your brother's house... And you don't have to
rub it all up in my face that you better than me"
Me: Nelly really are we doing this now ?"
folded my arms looked at her I'm sick of being treated like an ignorant shallow spoiled daddy's
little girl. Even my dad has never called me "my little girl" not even once but my sister treats me
like I'm a spoilt brat.

She dreg her leg and sat on the opposite couch and place her leg on a coffee table I frowned
Her: your attitude stinks can you drop the attitude because it really pissing me off"
Me: just call indoda yezinja uphume Kumina..."
She looked at me and bust out and laughed.
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[Middle child Second but last ]

I grew up as a single child found out when I was 25 that I have siblings older than me apparently
my father lived a double life with a secret family that lived on the farm while I was hated and
misunderstood for having the best life ever living with both parents my siblings soon realized
that my father loves and cares for no one but himself.

I can't say I have the greatest relationship with my father but will rather say I have no
relationship or what so ever with him.
He named me " Menziwokuhle" the maker of beautiful things but all he ever saw in me was my
flaws and tried his level best to make me be like him but failed miserably

It is said that If a man has a son who’s the youngest or middle child they going to want to watch
them like a freakin’ hawk. Second-born sons are more likely to get suspended become juvenile
delinquents and go to prison.
while science blames my behavior I blame my father for not showing me how to be a man.
On the other hand how can he? I'm 29 years old and I'm more of a responsible man than he
would ever be. damn I hate him.

I was summoned to go home talk about being told to drop everything you doing and come home
hello!! I have a life demanding job crazy wife and two kids and one on the way you can't up and
tell me that :

" We have a family meeting at 19: 00. Don't be late "

Dam it! how is it even possible that I don't become late when I live thousands of miles away
from home?

But my grandfather is one of those people you can't go against his word is always final.
He never calls and when he does it always an emergency.

So here I am driving to Bergville to my grandfather's house

with my mini family I used to love road trips with my wife and kids but these days it feels like
I'm in hell.

" we approaching a quick service station can you pull over there" she says not even looking at
me
Me: Uhm honey do you need something maybe? "
Her: I need to use the ladies' room! "
She says looking at me I pop my eyes open and look outside the window and mouth fuck!!!
Her: say something ooh God I dare you too!!"
She smacks my shoulder and I jump it quite a hard painful smack she so aggressive these days.
Me: but my love I didn't say anything"
Her: don't piss me off its not my fault that I'm peeing all the time angithi you made this baby and
we'll his big head is pushing my bladder"
Me: babe I said I will stop by the rest shop...stop stressing its not good for your health and the
baby "

" don't give me that bullshit while you the cause of it "
I look in the review mirror and notice our daughters are just still watching cartoons on the
tablet thank God for those headsets I bought them.

Me: I'm sorry..." I say looking at her She pouts and look outside the window She not talking to
me now I know I run my hands on her thigh and she pushes it away I sigh and bite my lip God
knows I love sex but being sex-deprived feels like I'm in prison I'm not thinking about cheating
but I don't know how long will she keeps this up and I will keep fucking my hand.

I love her to the moon and back she is my high school love been married for three years now and
have been together for over a decade you would think I'm used to her crazy but every year she
evolves there is never a dull moment in our relationship.

I pack the car and she jumps out

Me: babe ..."
She swings her fat ass yes it's big now and I love how it looks on that dress pity I can't touch
fuck!
I take out my phone and text my grandfather
" we running late we stuck in traffic "
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[Last born]
At home four of us were almost at the same age which made it difficult for my parents and two
sisters and my brother to give me more attention than others.

It was 1996 when my father decided to build another home for his family which consists of my
mother big brother my two sisters me and himself.

Living in a new home where there is more space for me and my siblings was a life-changing
environment for me.

I enjoyed the special treatment as no one was competing with me for the attention and the love
that my family was giving to me.

What can I say I think my parents planned it from the start that when the firstborn was five years
old they will have another child and that was the case until they had their last born which is me.
They named me Nana which means ' baby' I have outgrown the name but in the eyes of this
family I'm still the baby of the family.

I still believe that I was that age gap that even my siblings made it their responsibility to ensure
that they also gave me their love and attention at all times.

When my mother passed the love and attention from my family increased but my father was
distant showed me love by buying me stuff
Which made my siblings angry a lot I took it upon me to be the glue of this family as young as I
am I hold my family together With all I have done for this family Trust me even today my family
still treats me as a young girl which sometimes I like but I must admit sometimes I don’t I'm only
25 years but have not lived my life outside Bergville it started off as a choice but now it's more
of a phobia.
So staying home and doing nothing I developed a bad habit along the way and no matter what I
do I can't shake it off " Drinking "... With the family I have it was a matter of time for me to use
any sort of drug just to keep sanity alive.

I drive through the yard and notice my sister's cars in my brother's yard I jump off my car the
minute I packed the car. I was holding woolies plastic bags the clicking of wine bottle makes me
smile to my self

I walk inside my brother's house Nelly is on her feet shouting my grandfather is looking down
Gogo Omcane is just shaking her head Okuhle grabs the plastic bag
"I need this" she said walking to the kitchen
Me: What's going on ?"
Vusi: are you drunk ?"
It's not even the answer to the question I ask why he always acts like this

" Hey baby" my father says giving me a warm smile and a reason to ignore Vusi.
"Should I tell him or should you?...never mind I will ..." Nelly jumps in " this man you call your
father made another woman pregnant! ... And it's not Menzi mother!"
Me: what....?!" I held my mouth in shock my father is old how can he? I start picturing it and I
feel my stomach turn.

"angizwanga? " we all turned and Menzi and Sindy walked in with the kids
Vusi: let me just rip the bandage ...he is sleeping with that women in my mother's house in my
mother's bed"
The whole house shook my grandfather was on his feet Vusi was walking around like a wild
animal Gogo took Menzi kids when she realizes she cant calm us down Nelly is crying and
shouting Okuhle is on her phone most probably business call.
" uyinja wena ....who is she!!?"
Sindy pulls her husband Stoping him from attacking his father I took the wine glass from Okuhle
hand and down it. Take a sealed wine bottle and step outside Fuck!

Well fam welcome to the Mbovu Dynasty.

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To be continued.
Chapter 2
[Vusimuzi ]

Mkhulu: "BOYS...GIRLS!!?? can you just shut the hell up !! . . ."

I inwardly cliqued my tongue and stood by the window and folded my arms the house
became dead silent its how Mkhulu just speaks once and we all look down the man is
old but the level of respect we have for him is mind-blowing his presence represents
that manly dignified calmness but yet
Strict and scary it's remarkable I don't want to mention when he speaks the world
standstill.

Mkhulu: " girls can you please give us space? "

Nelly: " Nami ? " she pointed at her chest with a frown on her face
Mkhulu: " ain't you a girl Nelisiwe ? "
her: " Mkhulu im the oldest I need to be heard"
Mkhulu: " in my house you will always be a child now get out I want to speak to my
sons? "

Okuhle: " this is discrimination at its best kanjalo nje Mkhulu?"

Mkhulu: say that again??... " he pointed his walking stick at her and she screamed and
ran and hide behind Nana

Sindy walked towards me while MKhulu was shouting at Okuhle for speaking back at
him serves her right.
Sindy: his still your father hear him out and stop overreacting"
Me: I'm overreacting ?'
Her: well yeah...look at how Menzi is acting? I trust you will be level headed when we
have gone"
Me: I'm not the reason why Menzi is acting like this! "
Her: you older Vusi When you can't find someone to follow you have to find a way to
lead by example
you already have him as a father ( she pointed at my father with her head ) at least try
to be a better man and not stood to his level...you just Making my crazy husband think
its right!"

I frowned and looked away

Her: we know what happens the last time Menzi fought with your father if your father
puts a hand on my husband again God knows what I will do to you "
Me: too me???" I said with my eyes out I looked at her and surprisingly she was not
joking how can she intimidate me like this? She rubs her tummy fuck! It's because of the
Mbovu heir.
The first greet grandson due to be born.

She squinted her eyes " do I make my self clear"

She said through her teeth frown she knows she has power over me now as I look down
why did Menzi Marry a girl who looks and acts like our crazy sisters.

Me: yes...yes mam of course I will protect him"

She smiled and hugged me
Her: thank you "
She broke the hug and Menzi was all up in my face

Me: and then?"

Him: you are my father's firstborn shoot me if I feel like the apple does not fall far from
the three"
Sindy: ooh God Menzi really..."
Him: babe he was conceived with the richest spam of that man he ruined him from
scratch ...there is no coming back"
Sindy and I looked at each other and laughed

" Sindy ...awuze !" Nana said pulling her

Menzi stole a kiss from her as she blushed he walked them out holding her waist God I
think I'm cursed why don't I have that in my life? A Good crazy woman!

The girls finally left the room Mkhulu walked in with his pipe and my father with his head
looking down behind him
" Does your wife know about this ?"
Mkhulu asked while we Menzi set down Mkhulu walked in with his pipe and my father
with his head looking down behind him
" Does your wife know about this ?"
Mkhulu asked while we Menzi set down
Father: We separated Mbovu and ... "
Menzi: I don't recall that being a questioned asked ?" father looked at him If looks could
kill Menzi would have been on a slab right now.
" she does not know...she kicked me out of the house ...we haven't spoken for over two
years now....and..."
Mkhulu:... you first leave Vusi mother heavily pregnant and run to Durban and seduce a
minister daughter get her pregnant and marry her without your family consent you build
your career through her sweat and blood and now just because you have all this you
dump her and go for the next available piece of ass "

Baba: it's complicated baba ..."

Vusi: what kind of a man are you? this woman was Khanya nurse and wena you
decided to fuck her ....ooh and you did not stop there you made her pregnant?"
Menzi stood up: you sleeping with Nonjabulo she is Nelly's age you sick busted!!!"
Baba stood up and was pulling Menzi by color ooh shit Sindy is going to kill me

Baba: you fuckin shit you forget that I'm your father...ukhuluma nobani kanjalo"
Me: get off him why don't you fight someone your own size "
"Don't piss me off...wena stay out f this!!"
I pushed him off Menzi and he marched towards me but something inside of me
triggered deep emotions that I found myself punched him in the mouth he dropped his
head bleeding is only now I realize what I have done he looks at me with shock
expression.
" ooh Shit !!" Menzi said looking at me
Mkhulu: Vusimuzi Ngubani!!!"
My hands are trambling ... I feel like throwing up!
Mkhulu: Vusi!...what has gotten into you you first shoot your father now you using your
own bloody hands "
Me: ill do it again and again till he gets it in his thick skull that my brother is not his
punching bag "
Mkhulu pointed a finger at me I notice my father moving towards me ooh shit I'm
screwed
" so you have balls new aluhlaza amasende? And I need to be thought by you how to
speak to my son? Ukwenzile kokuqala mfana wami ngathula and you think you going to
do it again and I roll over and say here is another cheek..."
He pushes me with his hands and I step back
Menzi: uuhm Mbovu I think it's the right time to call this meeting off !!...."
Me: stop putting your hands on me "I roughly pushed his hands off
Him: umthetho wakho wena uyadelela Vusi!! ..." He pushes me again
"MDUDUZI!! sit down!! ... you touch HIM and you will feel my wrath !! "

"baba I can stand here and allow them to speak anyway they want but for him to think
it's right to put a hand on me he has gone too far...I try God knows I try to be a good
father I can be to my kids but I won't tolerate being disrespected like this "
me: " are you even hearing yourself why in your delusional mind of yours assume that
just because you are our parent you deserve respect? Aren't you supposed to respect
to be respected? "

baba: "did you just call me delusional...hybo!! Vusi ngiyakukhuza...!!" He was mad really
mad it was my first time seeing him like this the look he's giving me is like he
constipated or holding in a big smelly furt
Menzi: " if the shoe fit! sithinike thina? "
baba: "Mbovu are you hearing them Mbovu so it's ok when they speak to me like this? "
Mkhulu just shook his head and took his hat
" there nothing that you can say right not that can make this situation better !!....this is
all your fault and I'm tired of this shit!...kill each other for all I care "
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[Nana]

I looked at them going back and forth they like children I tell you we had one plan ...go
to my mother house and face the women who is carrying my father's seed but like
always Okuhle thinks we acting out of character and we may face a lawsuit if Nelly
beats her up Sindy wants to pull the shrinking car and talk to her ' maybe she not that
bad ?'
What the fuck? Even if she was kidnapped and they sent a piece of her finger to us as
proof that she is my father's mistress we will still want more proof as in look in her in the
eye and confront her.

I don't like her nor hate her but she is pregnant and has been fucking my father in my
mother's house who the fuck does she think she is? I down my wine bottle and jump out
of the car.

" Nana!!! No girl... let's talk about this "Okuhle holds my arm.
Me: Okuhle talk about what?"
Nelly : that's what I'm talking about ...asambe girl Okuhle is afraid that she might break
a nail"
Okuhle: is that so now so what are you going to do beat up a pregnant woman?"
Nely' she not pregnant in the face "
Okuhle: oooh God Nelly do you even think?"
Nelly: how can I when you always negging !"

They start fighting clearly they forgot about why we here its always the case with them I
made my way to the house the door was open and I walked into Sindy's hand slapping
the shit out of my father's girlfriend
Me: Sindy!!!!"
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To be continued

Chapter 3
[Sindisiwe ]
" We bring you to our home andwena ufika la ubona indoda ?" I said looking at her

her: "I'm sorry Sindy this was not planed "

me: " ooh let's see his dick just drop dead inside your pussy ? "

her: " Sindy please ... I can explain "

me: " do you know how much havoc you brought this family? you sleeping in my mother
in laws bed with a married man as if that was not enough you decide to fall pregnant
yazi unginyanyisa Nonjabulo "

her: "I love him ... " I did not wait for her to finish and slapped her
her: " uuuuuh "
Me: uyithanda kanjani indoda eshadile?"
" Sindy !!! " Nana screamed walking in the door

"what? " I said looking at her

Nana held her mouth in shock looking at me I frowned and looked at Nonjabulo

me: " so you came in this house as my daughter's nurse and wabona indoda elahlile?
how long has this shit been going on ? "
she was holding her cheek and looking at me with disbelief with tears in her eyes

Okuhle: " oooh my God tell me that you did not hit her? ... "

Nana: "I'm standing by the door you sister in law did "

Kuhle: " better her than us she is pregnant ... no judge will put her behind bars ... damn
it I missed it!"
I rolled my eyes and focused on Nonjabulo

me: " how long have you been sleeping with a married man? "

Njabulo: " what? he is not married "

there was a roar of laughter coming from the door I turned and looked behind me ooh
God here comes trouble

Nelly: " wow! so you telling me that you met umxhelegu wekhehla elinezingane
ezingaka and you believed him when he said he is single ? "

Nonjabulo: " he told me there divorced... "

Kuhle: " darling all men say that and wena you either stupid or naive ...did you cook? "
she said walking to the kitchen
Nana set on the couch and looked at her " how far along are you? "

Nonjabulo just looked down " I'm six months pregnant "

Kuhle: " this is funny so technically when Menzi was on top of Sindy so was our father
was on top of you... " she bust out and laughed

ooh God I hate Okunhle when she drunk she talks a lot of shit
Nelly: this is not the time Kuhle? "

Kuhle: " HOLD UP...HOLD UP ...let me get this straight? so if she pregnant with our
father-child it means we going to have a little brother or sister which means that will
make a brother or sister-in-law to Sindy and that baby will be an Aunt or uncle to Sindy
kids and if Nonjabulo marries our father that will make her our stepmother and Sindy
mother in law so Kahle Kahle Sindy Ku mele uhlawule for raising a hand to your brother
or sister in law and future mother in law in your senior mother-in-law's house"

we all turned and looked at her what the fuck?

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[Nana]
This was all just day ha vu to me all again my father is doing this gain to me for the
longest time I hated my father for choosing his other family than me and my siblings
after mom died.

To be honest he never ever made us feel that he is an absent father he was the best
dad any girl could ask for but I wish that he had done right by mom He took away her
future knocked her up when she was only 17th she never finished school or made a life
for herself it was baby after baby while he lived his life in the town with Mrs perfect and
educated.

Even though his well know for notoriously having a lot of relationships with other women
over the years I just wish that that effort he put in screwing the ladies was the same as
paying attention to his kids we were raised by money not love from him and yet is
bringing another child to this circle?

I wonder if Mkhulu did not find out about this child if our father was going to tell us or
not

Me: " Sindy can you stop please with all the unnecessary question what's... done is
done Nonjabulo can you please sit down "

Nelly opened her mouth " yeyi ...Nelisiwe doesn't start Nonjabulo can you please sit
down "

Nelly opened her mouth " yeyi ...Nelisiwe doesn't start can you all please sit down "
me: " Look Nonjabulo I apologize for the way my sister acted you not the one who
wronged us you fell in love with the wrong man at the wrong time and by the looks of it
you going to be part of our family since you carrying our sibling in there "

Nelly: " speak for yourself ... "

I looked at her and she snotted and tried to fold her leg but groaned in pain I wonder
what happened? ooh well let me focus on this

me: " Sindy you had no right to raise a hand at her "

Sindy: "I'm pregnant I can't control my hormones so bite me !"

she took the piece of meat from Okuhle plate ignoring and disregarded what I just said
why do they always act like kids?

me: " again Sisi we sorry for coming here we just wanted to see if it's all true? I hope
you know what you getting yourself to that man I call my father can only love you so
much when he's able to get what he wants between your legs when there are children
involve he turns to panic and go for another piece of ass that has no attachment trust
me we this screwed up because of him "

I stood up and looked at my sister " Asambe ! "

Nelly: " ooh so you done? "

me: " Nelisiwe !"

Nelly: " your voice is really starting to pis me off wena you way younger than me and
you not my spokesperson stop detecting my actions and how I need to act I'm grown-
ass women Nana sit down and listen to me talk ! "

I popped my eyes open looking at her why is it always about who's older and younger
with her I sigh and dropped down on the couch folding my arms "
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[Nelisiwe ]

" first of all we SISIWE ... bakubiza ngobani konje? "

Nonjabu: " Nonjabulo "

Nelly " yeh yeh whatever look what you going to do is to go pack all of your belongings
and get out of my mother house this will be the last time any of us have to say this to
you because clearly wena awuzwa ... because two years back I believe my brother told
you and even went as far as shooting our father because of what he walked into in our
mother bedroom!! "

Nonjabulo: "I told your father ... but "

Nelly: " Yella wena did I tell you I'm done? ... did I tell you to talk ? "

Njabulo: ngiyaxolisa "

Nana: " Nelly come on ? "

Me: " ooh Kanti kwenzakalani did I disturb you when you were talking?.. awukahle
ukuba umiyane in my ear "

Okuhle: yoooh!" I looked at her and she raised her hands to surrender
Me: " lalela la wena Nonjabhiso ! ... this house is my mother's house and God will I be
damned if you think you entitled to have it because of that thing inside your tummy if
that man loves you enough the way he claims he does HE NEEDS TO BUILD YOU
YOUR OWN SHACK !! "

" that's enough Nelisiwe" a bold voice said I turned around and there stood my father
with a split lip

him: " all of you get out! "

Okuhle: " angizwanga? "

Sindy stood up I stopped her with my hand
Me: " kuphi khona ? "

Him: " This is my house I built for your mother ... "
Me: and so you have right to come and go as you please in my grandfather's yard with
different women ?"
Him: Nelisiwe!!"
Me: I know you never loved my mother but only made her carry your seeds but I know
that you did not only built this house for her but it was our family home ... And you
stand there and kick us out?"

Okuhle: I know how it is growing poor and when you finally make it you intitled to every
item or possession you bought with your money ...so how much will it be to buy you out
of these walls we grew up calling our home ?"
She looked at him I don't know when she sobbed up but I love it when she has my back
like this

He swallowed and looked at us he bites his lip and walked past us I presume he was
going to his bedroom
I looked at Nonjabulo and clicked my tongue
Me: now we can go ...."
I pointed at Nonjabulo
"wena go take your bags and follow us "
Nonjabulo: yebo"
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To be continued
Chapter 4
[Menziwokuhle]

I left Vusi house a bit uneasy one thing we hate doing me and my siblings is
disappointing Mbovu he is not only our grandfather but our father he has ears that truly
listen arms that always hold love that’s never-ending and a heart that’s made of gold. . .
he is every child's dream to have such a father a strong man wise and full of wisdom.
I don't know how we going to fix this shity feud we have with our father but for Mbovu's
sake I'm willing to do anything.
It’s amazing how quickly your mood can change how deep your heart can sink and how
much one person can affect you yes for me it was seeing my grandfather walk out on us
like more giving up in fixing our endless quarrel with our father that got me feeling like
shit.

I love my grandfather and it's so sad that I only knew of his existence in my adult life I
blame my father for that you know what scratch that he is to blame for everything I
almost miss out in this life of being surrounded by my uptight big brother who is quite
but speaks in volume with his actions and My loud mouth crazy Sisters who have
welcomed my wife with warms arms and made her a part of the Mbovu sister it's
surprisingly strange when I look at them it's like I married one of my sisters the way
Sindy has fit in this family like a glove bizarre as it might sound but I get the feeling that
they love my wife more then they love me.

Walking from Vusi house to mine was kind of tiring I mean this place is like a private
estate with Vusi house close to the main gate I had to pass Nelly house and Okuhle to
get to my house and then it Nana house that is neighbors with her mother's house and
Mbovu house is between the kraal and the Field crops. We say we in the farm because
of whats surrounds us but within the Mbovu yard you can hardly tell.

I breathe out loud as I walk inside my house I found the T.V playing not attended to I
made my way to the bedroom Sindy was applying some lotion on her tummy she looked
sexy with her shot nightdress down in her head simple yet sexy

I smiled and looked at my bed that was occupied by our two girls Jasmin and Minehle
Me: hi" I said softly as I kissed her neck she looked me in the mirror and frowned
She turned and looked at me
Her: are you ok? "
I crouched down and kissed her tummy
Me: hay big boy you not troubling mom I hope ?"
She laughed and pulled my face with her two hands and made me look at her her eyes
were full of consent

Me: I'm fine my love..."

Her: are you sure?"
I rubbed her tummy
Me: nothing can take away the joy you bring into my heart every time I see you... "

she looked so gorgeous and radiant I wish we could skip this chit chat and start
mourning as our bodies collide together

Her: Menzi?"
Me: when last did I tell you that I love you..."
She smiled and rested her arms around my neck
Her: you avoiding telling me what happened in our absence..."

I nodded and kissed her hands she side smiled shaking her head
Me: you so beautiful like the first day I saw you with a short netball uniform you walked
past me in the school stairway I would never forget the smile on your face my first word
to you was
" wow "
she said and I laughed
Me: and your response with a middle finger..." she busts out and laughed and placed
her head on her forehead
Her: The impression that you made made me fall instantly in love with you and from that
day I knew you were going to have my last name "
She looked me in the eyes
Her: I love you "
Me: I love you more "
She pulled my face and kissed me she has not initiated a kiss for weeks now and right
now I feel like I'm in heaven

" wow..." I said after she pulled out I looked at her with a smile
Her: you look surprised "
Me: you can say that ?"
Her: so now I need to have a reason to kiss My husband ?"
She raised her eyebrow lord no...no... Let's not fight we just had a moment...

Me: no ...not all my love "

Her: mmmm". She stood up and made her way to the bed I guess we sleeping with the
kids again more like I have to watch them sleep because Minie's feet will be on my face
the second I lay my head on the pillow.

Me: my love..."
Her: your food is in the microwave goodnight ..."
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[ Okuhle]

"I don't understand why she must stay with me "

I looked up and she walls to my house talking to her self she was wearing a romper and
dragging her sleepers I sigh and looked back at my screen and continued typing she
never knocks and has tendencies to budge in and eat my food and drink my booze she
moves to the fridge and takes a bottle of
chardonnay.

Her: God do you ever stop working ?"

Me: yes I do when I'm sleeping "
Her: Okuhle your life is work ...make money and more work have you ever go out "
Me: Nana I'm away from my house so consider this me being out "
She looked at me and rolled her eyes

Her: mi Phuza" she gave me a wine glass

Me: ain't you suppose to be babysitting your father baby mama "
Her: why is she leaving with me? "
I laughed
" It was either you or Sindy house but you saw what happened earlier"
Her: yah whatever...so what do you think of her?"

Me: who?"
Her: Nonjabulo"
Me: you mean Nonjabhiso??"
We bust out and laughed
Her: yoo udade wenu kodwa..."
We continued to laugh

Me: honestly I don't like or hate her but I just feel sorry for her for being in love with
Mduduzi I mean sikhuluma ngobaba la the man wahluleka ukuthanda uMa after so
many years and so many kids she gave him..."

Her: Is that the reason why you single ?"

I looked at her
Me: Nana I don't have any Daddy issues stop analyzing me "
Her: do you blame me Okuhle umuhle successful and independent but deep down you
are lonely "
Me: When did being single become some sort of disease that everyone wants to get rid
of? Why does everyone think that being in a relationship or married is superior to being
alone? I'm content with my life just the way it is I'm not looking and if it's God will love
will find me and if it doesn't it doesn't"

Her: mmmm I see but know that I worry about you Kuhle there is a stigma that single
people are less secure more unhappy and more self-centered than people in
relationships. . .

God this child she so dramatic I think she needs a man more than I do
Me: that's not true look A lot of single people are doing just fine. However that is not to
say that I don't feel lonely at times. Being single can be tough but when coupled with
loneliness it can be a truly difficult combo... But I got work gym wine and you guys...I'm
never lonely"
Her: ncoooooh
She hugged me

Her: so your 25 birthday is coming up when are you going give up that jewel between
your legs ?"
I pressed my lips suppressing a laugh the look on her face was priceless.

Her: ok that's my queue good night !"

Me: Nana you got to be a woman someday you can't be a baby all your life "

Her: leave me alone "

Me: I can hook you up you know!!"
Her: shut up....you need that more than I do!'
She threw a pillow at me and took the wine bottle
Me:" I'm telling Mbovu to arrange a husband for you "
" fuck you!!....ngoshada mhla ushada nawe!!"

I bust out and laughed

" don't forget to tuck in your stepmother and lock the door so that your father won't
sneak in for one round !"
She gave me a disgusted look
" uuweee!!"
I bust out and laughed throwing my head on the pillow.
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To be continued.

Chapter 5
[Nana]

" hi babe are you good ?"

I faintly smile I don't know why I'm still with him he the worst kind of boyfriend there is
arrogant and I have caught him cheating more than once.

I feel like every relationship I have goes the same way. I haven’t had one that’s lasted
longer than a year since I left university. Every time the same thing happens. Things
start out great but then somehow it doesn’t work. Either I get bored or he gets bored or
life gets in the way. This didn’t use to feel like a problem but now I’m on the wrong side
of 24 turnings 25 soon and I’m starting to worry. Am I doing something wrong or am I
just unlucky?
He says he loves me but I know Love isn’t a game. Our hearts aren’t chess pieces.
That’s why there’s no valid reason for a man to play with a woman’s heart I find
relationship hard maybe I'm wired differently So wired in fact that at times I try to force
relationships with people with whom I don’t have a sustainable connection. I push
myself to a guy like mismatched puzzle pieces and get frustrated at the other person
when the corners don’t quite fit. I get angry at myself for consistently picking the “wrong
person.”

Me: what do you want"

Him: Kanti how many times must I say I'm sorry"
Me: goodbye Zuko"
Him: hay ...hold up hold up ...I'm sorry ok look I'm in town I was hoping we can meet "

Me: I can't...got the family staff to deal with"

Him: I'm only here for few days Nana come on ...Please"
I breathe out loud
Me: town square at 14h00"
Him: aish but I was hoping you come to my place "
Me: forget it ..."

The last time he said we must meet at his house he wanted sex which I was not ready
to give he told me he can't wait for me forever he has dozens of women lining up to
replace me Of course he clearly don’t know what true happiness is because he never
stuck around for long enough to experience it. . . or say sorry for the hush words he
throws at me and now a few months later he calls and says he miss me as nothing
happened in his house the last time I was there.

Me: bye Zuko"

Him: ok ...ok ...will text you "
I dropped the call I held my face a part of me wants to cry that I have the worst case of
relationship...I'm the one to blame being Virgin makes you hop from one guy to another
even date two guys at the same time just because you having fun and you not giving
them anything to hold on to I guess growing up I played a lot of guys could it be true that
my past is catching up on me? Because now I'm ready and I'm looking for love but all I
find is Karma waiting for me behind the door.

After doing my hygiene process I walked out and I was meet by voices coming from the
kitchen
" are you sure you ok?" It was my father's voice
" I feel like ngisesithenjini la but instead of facing the other women I'm doing that with
you kids "
Him: just give me time I will talk to them"
Her: nawe baba u-wrong I told you about you bringing me in their mother's house that it
was a bad idea"
Him: I just did not think it's a big deal "
" and Menzi's mom was not a big deal too? Because you forgot to mention that you not
divorced "
My father breath out loud
" baby we separated it's been three years "he said

Me: but you still married to her... Are you going to turn Nonjabulo to what you did to my
mother too ?"
He looked at me and ran his hands on his face
Me: she will be staying with me till you sort out this mass she is already on her third
trimester...stop stressing her with your lies..."
I opened the door for him he stood up and looked at me before walking out

Nonjabulo: thank you "

Me: don't mention it so how did you sleep?"
She did not say a word but just bust out and cry.
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[Nelly ]

" you not picking up my calls?"

I bite my lip looking at the screen of my phone I'm sweating it's only an SMS but already
I feel like he's watching me or saying it in front of my face
I jump off the bed I look at my ankle it's swollen now maybe I should see a Dr.

I switch my phone off again and tossed it on the bed I made my way to the bathroom I
look at my self in the mirror and smile it's so crazy how he told me that
' if I fuck you even when this thing with us does not work out you will feel me inside of
you every morning when you wake up and overnight when you go to bed I don't just
fuck I leave an imprint.'

God was he right because he has the biggest cock I’ve ever seen. It’s long thick and
smooth the kind that would be a perfect mold for a dildo bathroom is our favorite place
how he looks me deep in my eyes God I could already feel his cock stiffening against
my pelvis as his firm hands cupped my waist. Pulling my ass up and one leg on the sink
spread my other legs wide with his feet

As he devours me His balls smacking against my ass as he fucked me harder and

harder. The fact that his cock feels like it belonged in my pussy is just an amazing
feeling even got me shouting " I love you " my smile faded away just the thought of
that God what was I thinking!

I ran my hands on my private part "fuck!"

I'm wet we not even fucking his miles away but damn it like his cock is inside of me
whenever I have flashbacks of our rough sex.
After jumping out of the shower I took my tab to call my kids it's so hard being a mom
after divorce my ex-husband is always out of town and raising kids on my own is a
mission I try to be the best mom even though I'm a career woman with a demanding job
I got two girls one is a teenager she just turned 14 her name is Olivia
and the second born is Piper she is 10 years.

" hi baby..." I smiled at her but she just looked at me and passed her phone to her sister
Olivia blames me for the divorce ever since me and her father separated she has never
been the same...
"Children need to feel love than to be shown take time off work and take them on
vacation " Lubanzi will say it's crazy how I feel I'm divorced and decided to fall in love
with a divorced gut with three kids.

Piper: when are you coming back"

Me: in a few days how is school ?'
Her: urg I hate it ..."
Me: you still struggling to make friends?"
Her: it's just different ...from my old school...can I join the karate class?"
Me: why? Are you being bullied "
Her: No...can you think about it please mom?"

I smile and nodded the divorce really changed our lives everything became like a
volcano we moved to Durban and we had to start a new life I got a new job working for
the biggest law firm at least my family is close by but my kids are struggling to adjust.

My door swag open and Sindy walked in fixing her doek

Me; I have to go baby I love you and tell Vee I will call her later"
I blow kisses and hang up
Sindy: hide me "
Me: what ?"
Her: he wants sex ...just hide me and stop asking me stupid question "
I looked at her and bust out and laughed Sindy and Menzi are one crazy couple
.
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To be continued
Chapter 6
[Vusimuzi]

I found him sitting on his favorite stool and under his big mango tree I have so much to
apologize for and I know that he does not want to talk when he's sitting all alone like this

Me: sawubona Mbovu"

He puffs his pipe and looks at his big land
Me: Mkhulu ngiyaxolisa "
He ignores me I sit next to him and look at nothing but the beautiful vellies

Me: Mbovu... "

Him: Vusimuzi awingixege "
Me: ngiyaxolisa baba"
I rubbed my hands together looking down
Him: ngikukhuzile and wena you constantly disrespect me"
Me: kube yiphutha"
Him: how long will this accident continue to happen under my house?"

He looks at me and looks down "

Me: ngiyaxolisa ngokukuhlaza..."
What haunts me the most now is how he acted last night the look in his eyes when he
finally realized what I had done. His mouth dropped open slightly and he was at a loss
for words. He didn't need to say anything because I saw it all in his eyes the betrayal
disillusionment revulsion. At that moment I just wanted to crawl under a rock
somewhere and hide. But now that I understand the gravity of what I've done my actions
have filled me with self-loathing and remorse. It's difficult for me to look at him and I'm
not proud of the man I have become in actual fact he did not raise me like that.

Me: Mkhulu I have no excuse for what happened and saying "I'm sorry" hardly seems
adequate. But if you could forgive me this time I promise you this will never happen
again."

Him: Vusimuzi kunini usho njalo?"

I looked down
Him: your father is my son...my only son... And wena you decided to shoot him and
while that is not enough you put your hand on him again in my yard!!"
That's a big deal to Mkhuli he is old and cultured to him that means no matter how bad
the parent's action might be you never talk back let alone raise a hand on them.

Me: baba I'm sorry but what I'm about to say those not go against your parenting skills
but Mduduzi is a gigolo and has the brain of chicken...."
Him: he still your father...damn it Vusi your mother died telling you that stop fighting her
battle I know you the oldest and you saw a lot of shit that your father did but my son No
family is perfect. Even in the happiest home problems pop up and people argue from
time to time. Usually the family members involved get what's bothering them out in the
open and talk about it. Everyone feels better and life can get back to normal. . . this
hate you have for your father is becoming toxic right now!"
Me: he's not acting like a parent Mkhulu does not think do things that are childish and
disrespectful... I know what I did was wrong but baba do you really blame me "
Him: you holding a grudge and it goes deeper than you not even willing to try to forgive
him your mother and father did not have the best kind of relationship I get that but it was
their business not yours "

He looks at me with his eyes narrowed

Him; Vusi...Being part of a family means everyone pitches in and tries to make life
better for each other. Arguments happen and that's OK but with love understanding and
some work families can solve almost any problem...right now asazi udliwa yini and lento
iyumthelelo to your siblings too"
Me: ngiyakuzwa "
Him: I'm not saying have a relationship with your father but all I'm saying is talk to him
tell him why you resent him so much ...stop curring this anger and pain with you"

Me: but Baba uyazi unjani he never listen "

Him: then talk to me and I will talk to him I will make him listen"
I nodded
Him: Look my boy...I know you don't get along with your dad I just think the best thing
you can do for yourself now is to get out and do stuff my boy...I know you don't get
along with your dad I just think the best thing you can do for yourself now is to get out
and do stuff things that young people do...stop fighting him and arguing stop acting like
a parent in his house"

Me: I do what I do because I don't have a choice Mkhulu you always remind me of our
family that I need to continue when my father had me it like you saw another chance to
have a son that's why you call me and Menzi your son because we respect and love
you and will do anything to make you happy... But Mbovu I'm tired of that man I call my
father he brings out the worst in me it was not enough that he treated my mother like his
doormat but look at my siblings izinto zethu azisilungeli ngenxa yamaphutha akhe. '
I breathe out loud
Him: maybe I'm the one to blame when it comes to that you my first grandson but
instead of treating you like one I groomed you to be the kind of a man I wish your father
would have become gave you a life that was never yours that why you feel entitled to
act the way you do now I understand you angry and yes my son is stupid but Vusi ulaka
lwakho is becoming uncontrollable now it making things worse"

I swallowed and looked down

Him: Vusi I'm sorry for making you my firstborn son I just don't have the kind
relationship with Mduduzi the way I have with you ...I'm tired and want to leave this
house in peace not looking back and wondering if you going to kill each other in my
absence...so the decision I will make now I pray it will shape this family "

Me: yosophi leso sinqumo?"

He puffs his pipe and frown
Him: how long has this girl been in your father's life?
Me: almost three years..."
Him: mmmm"
He looks at me
Me: what do you need me to do"

Him: I will deal with it"

I frown what the bloody hell I deal with everything in this house according to his
instructions of cause

Him: as of today I'm giving you leave from work family responsibilities and anything to
do with this dynasty "
Me: angizwa ?"
I frowned I held on to my shoulder and slowly stood up whole I helped him stand
Him: go find yourself a woman"
Me: I don't have time for that "

I say as I help him walk he stops and looks at me

Him: it either you do it or I will "
Me: baba this is not the good time..."
Him: Sindy is not going to be popping babies for this family fuck someone and bloody
make babies...I need the Mbovu dynasty to grow...build a house of your own and stop
controlling your father's house"

I frowned his got be joking my life revolves around the farm this family and the family
business same routine I have been doing ever since I was 17 I'm a boring person and
hate socializing.

Him: " you have been sheltered far too long and never had a chance to make choices of
your own "
Me: kodwa baba... "

Him: one of these days mina as your soul provider who provided everything for you will
not be around and you will be alone having no help to take you or assist you in that
direction your life was intended for.
Stand on your two feet and take yourself in a direction that will meet your needs and
achieve it then absorb and instill this area of your life and increase to obtain satisfying
your wants until you are content and all areas of your life are too."
Me: I don't know..."

Him:manje ngoba umqolo ongumbe etsheni ochoba intwa zami izowazi njani "
I chuckled looking away the sarcasm in his voice was so loud it was deafening
Him: get out there and it is then that you will know what direction your life is required to
go and you will know what to do to get yourself there. Now Stand ON Your Own Two
Feet! And Go."
Me: but what does this have to do with having a woman in my life?"
Him: you have blue balls all that anger and energy Chanel it in between a women's
thighs I'm giving you therapy lessons take it or else I'm arranging one of Eric daughters
to be your wife"

Me: what? that friend of yours from Mozambique?"

Him: he got beautiful daughters ... They even colored "
Me: no ...baba please im capable of finding a woman on my own"
Him: action speaks louder than words yazi its questionable that your father and brothers
are ....what the word you called them Gigolos...
"
I bust out and laughed shaking my head
Him: but wena you turn out differently should I be worried about your sexuality"
Me: I guess ngifuze wena"
He snickered
Him: ooh my poor son stop fooling yourself and thinking highly of me you know the
saying that apple does not fall far from the three"
Me: ooh God not you too !! .."

Me: I had two wives God did not bless me with many kids but that does not meet I was
not trying ..."
Me: Mkhulu !!" I drop my mouth open in shock
Him: have you seen my second wife young and damn is she active"
Me: ok.... that's my queue bye Mkhulu"
Him: uyaphi I was about to tell you how she almost broke my hip...
"
Me: ooh thixo no !!! ...." I said jogging away from him
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To be continued

Chapter 7
[Nelisiwe ]

" why you don't want to give my brother sex "

Her: I don't know...maybe I hate him for making me fat again "
I chuckled looking at her she is definitely losing it these days.

Me: Sindy Menzi has a track record of cheating that is long as the Nile river are you
really going to push him to another woman by depriving him of his pussy "
Me: don't make me mad Nelly... Don't you think I know that!"
Me: I'm stating the obvious it's been how long Six months and you give him less if no
sex at all..."

Me: it's complicated..."

Her: wenja don't come here is Mbovu and give us ' it's Complicated ' we paid 50 cows
to your family because Menzi was hypnotized by that pussy of yours and now you going
to say it's complicated fuck Sindy I need a better explanation than that "

Her: it's different now this pregnancy is just different his son does not want him close to
me"
I stop and rested my foot that was killing me
Me: fuck!!"
Her: we need to get that checked" she said looking at my ankle
Me: we? ... Forget it awuyi ndawo till you make my brother cum tonight I'm babysitting
and I want it to be a jungle in that house fuck him like it's your last day...stop blaming my
nephew for you bloody lazy ass"

Her: Nelly Please don't if the children are gone uzongibulala ngo cansi"
Me: that marriage babe three years in this union and you already acting lazy what the
fuck is wrong with you?"

Me: urg Nelly Marri is not about sex why am I even talking to you...you divorced"
I dropped my mouth open Sindy is definitely a Mbovu wife her mouth has no filter or
whats so ever.

Me: I'm your favorite sister in law and Sex was not the reason my marriage fell apart he
was just ...urg I don't want to talk about it my point is I don't want what happened to me
to happen to you which is getting a divorce and left with the kids
I love you enough to tell you that this shit will affect your marriage...so fix it before that
big head young brother of mine starts thinking with his dick"
She sighs and looked away
Her: know...hayi Nelly this thing is just difficult...I'm not a puritanical person. My
husband and I were extremely sexual pre-pregnancy. I love sex I love my husband and I
love having sex with my husband. Naturally the revelations I found all over the Internet
about crazy hot highly orgasmic pregnant sex made me very excited indeed our first
pregnancy was mind-blowing I reap the benefits of extra estrogen progesterone and my
newly minted enormous breasts he loved my body and sex was like heaven it was
orgasms after the next he will even sleep with his dick inside of me and will wake up
and it all over again"

Me: that's what I know...but what changed?"

She breathes out loud
Her: we had this unplanned pregnancy I decided to tell after my first trimester but I got
carried away since he hated the idea of having another child while Minenhle was still a
toddler."
Me: that didn't mean that he did not want another baby Sindy? and he was old enough
to know that hitting raw came with consequences"

Me: I know that but I was afraid of telling him when he mistakenly found out from a loud
friend of ours he was furious we fought like crazy he blamed me for depriving him yet
again the excitement of being the first one to see the two pink lines of my pregnancy
result.."
Me: you married Sindy that was just wrong...you shouldn't have kept something this big
from him "

Me: I know ....God I know he forgave me and we were good but second trimester was
the worst time for us to be intimate "
Me: what ...are you always wet maybe sex is that bad?
She shook her head
Her: even worst you see one night I attacked him on the couch intending to ride him
cowgirl style and shove my new on-loan pornographic breasts in his face. This is every
man's dream right?..."
I chuckled nodding
Her: Menzi tried to get into it. And I think he did for a moment until we both realized
things were Sahara-dry down there. "
I dropped my mouth open
" What??"

Me: Weh Nelly ngiyakuchazela! No matter how many hot foreplay moves we broke out
my vagina felt parched and penetration was painful. Lapho We didn't have lube on hand
because I hadn't needed it until then. And remember those breathtaking breasts? "
I nodded pressing my lip together holding on to my laugh
Her: ayke wentombi The second my husband's fingers grazed over them they made it
known they were nobody's playthings by delivering an agonizing gust of pain that
seemed to originate in the nipple and spread out from there."
Me: awe Ma!!!" I bust out and laugh

Her: just to put it plainly sex didn't feel good to me at all ..."
Me: ouch I could imagine"
Her: angithi I love Menzi and I don't consider myself a quitter or a wuss and I know that
the mind is far more powerful than the body and that negative physical sensations can
be suppressed ..."

Me: yebo girl!"

Her: So I decided We tried a few more times but we always ran up against the same
challenges I had to cup my breasts because every bounce felt like I was being stabbed
in the chest and while lube made it physically possible for penetration to occur without
accompanying screams I didn't feel an ounce of desire to actually do it. It felt as if my
uterus was feeding off of my libido to create the ultimate incubating experience for my
baby leaving me high and dry when it came to my own pleasure. . . "
Me: so you just threw in a towel"
Her: habe wena ubungenza njani? even Virgin first time far is more less painful than
what I'm feeling uyangibulawa umfoweni phela"
Me: so how long will you run away from him"
Her: till I give birth ...uthini uganga "
We bust out and laughed as we walked inside Nana's house ...

The house smelled of bacon and sausages.

We found Nonjabulo cooking and humming on the stove Nana was sitting on a barstool
in the kitchen counter about to gag
Nana mouth " save me "
Sindy looked at me and we bust out and laughed
Nonjabulo turned and looked at us with a smile

Me: ooh Stepmother dearest we sorry you had to go through so much trouble but your
stepdaughter is a vegan."
Njabulo looked at Nana " ooh my God why didn't you say so? ...I'm so sorry "
Cindy and I cracked out and laughed
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To be continued

Chapter 8

[Okuhle]

"I knew that you will be hiding here kodwa nje uke wadla ? ..."
Me: Gogo"
I jumped up from my sit and hugged her I love these women she married my
grandfather around the time I was born she is beautiful a bit too young for my
grandfather I love her beautiful heart and how she has kept this house a home even
after my mother passing.

Her: Okuhle you should be focusing on getting yourself a man work and success does
not build a home nor does it bring you happiness"
She took my laptop and placed it aside
I smiled and nodded Gogo omcane is an ex-teacher Mkhulu forced her to give up work
once she married the Ngubane family... The reason for her to be my grandfather's
second wife was for her to bore him more kids but they say my late grandmother cust a
spell on her womb before she died yooo impilo yesithembu injaloke...
Gogo Mncane only has one child my Aunt... She ran away from home when she fell
pregnant and we have not had from her ever since....like most things in this family it's a
topic we don't talk about or dwell on ...Mbovu orders.

Me: mmmm all of this is for me? ...yooo Gogo it's too much I can't eat all of this! "
Her: it's your favorite and you deserve a decent meal once in a while"
I don't know how and when she found time to cook me ubhatata and spicy chicken feet
she right it's favorite so I wasted no time and dive in

I looked at her and smiled I love her more than my biological mother it's like on the back
of my mind she the mother I long to have

Trust me I love my mother but she was just a naive typical rural girl who gave her life
away for a man who did not give a shit about her but what was between her legs nxa!
No ambition or courage or what's so ever just pretty face and only words she said to my
dad was
" yebo baba " urg !

Her: So unjani ....last time we talk you told me about this big case you working on "
I lick my fingers and smile
Me: won the case and I'm in line to make partner"
Her: unamanga!" The excitement in her voice was priceless I giggled
Me: well I'm the only female candidate and I'm nervous "
Her: you work for the Mnguni law firm why don't you tell Menzi to motivate your
application he is after all the Senior publishing and Marketing manager for the firm "

Me: angazi Gogo I mean don't you think that will be more of nepotism at its best ..."
Her: Nelly is working at the very same law firm got that Job because she is a bloody
good lawyer and you got that internship to do your articles in the UK because of your
grades...getting a position to work at the Mngungi Johannesburg branch was because
of how you excelled so this has nothing to do with your surname but what you bring in
the table
Just ask Menzi to put in a word for you and the rest it's all you ..."
Me: yah ...Ngizomucela"

I said pushing my plate away ... I felt a bit sick I hate talking about UK ... I mean I used
to love bragging about it but it took one night to change my life I lusted over the wrong
guy even gave him access to my never been touched jewel it felt good that he made me
a women best first sex experience but worst sex story to tell people because I later
found out that the man who took my virginity was my brother ooh God just the thought
of it just makes me wish I did not go to the UK at all.

Her: I'm sorry I did not mean to bring up UK"

Me: I have a strange relationship with Menzi because of that one night ... God why did
my father have to hide the fact that he has another child ...if only I knew I would not be
in the mess"
Gogo held my face
Her: it's all in the past baby Mkhulu said we must never talk about this don't do this
waking up Ghost from the past ..."
Me: I just feel so much shame "
She pulled me to hug and hushed me.
Her: Menzi is your brother stop thinking about this and holding on to sentiments
memories of that night...kuyisijesiso lokho"
I nodded it's funny how we are forced to just forget about that night how a simple Goat
ceremony was supposed to give us amnesia
and taking a bath in goat bile and its shit was supposed to wash away the shame of our
salacious act.

It's one of the reasons I stay away from home it's because of 'Shame' Shame is different
from embarrassment or guilt. Embarrassment is to be uncomfortably visible. Guilt is the
sense that we have violated a standard we feel bad about something we did. With
shame we feel bad about who we are. And when that happens we go into hiding.

Shame is about unworthiness. It’s an emotion that constantly pulls me inward. It makes
me feel inadequate like somehow I am not measuring up. The root of the word “shame”
means “to cover.” And with shame I forever “cover” myself emotionally.
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To be continued
Chapter 9
[Nana ]

" and where are you going?

I look Menzi and Vusi out of all places they decided to sit by the gate really?

Me: are you playing guard now? "

Menzi chuckled while Vusi kept a straight face
Him: uyaphi?"
Me: to buy Milk"
Urg that sounded stupid
Vusi: I have milk in my house why don't you go get it there"

Me: Vusi ngicela ukuphuma"

Menzi frowned and stood up
Vusi: ngithe uyaphi?"
Menzi: shit your father's car is approaching"

Vusi stood up and looked at me and to the direction where my father's car is coming
from
Vusi: uzohamba isinda wena!"

he pointed his finger at me and they ran behind the guard's room I finally breathe out
loud I pressed the remote and drove out I looked in my mirror my dad was on my tale
fuck another interrogation

Him: uyaphi Nana?" His car was packed across mine on the T - junction
Me: one of the farmworkers is sick I'm just going to but him a few med's and take it to
her house "

He looked at his wristwatch while I was biting my tongue praying that he buys my story
Him: don't take long I don't want you driving at night "
Me: off course baba "
I faked the most biggest smile as we drove off in different directions

On the road I am tapping the steering wheel with my nails thinking about what I'm doing
I don't like Zuko that's a fact I'm not even romantically attracted to him anymore he hurt
me but I'm busy giving him chances after chances as if he will change why am I so
hell-bent to get a man?
Is it pre-pressure that all my mates are in a relationship and starting a family and I'm just
lost with no direction? that I'm just willing to settle.

" hay love where are you?" My phone flashed with his massage I clique my tongue and
continue to drive.
Things have really worsened over the past few months. He broke up with me did not
say many words but he posted pics of him and with some white bitch

"She's just a friend ". He said

" babe my heart is yours to keep " he tried convincing
"Nana you are my future ...don't give up on us " he made me cry made me wish that he
meant those words.

I don't think I trust him enough to even try to talk about us or the cheating. Already we
rarely spend any time together and when we do it feels awkward and uncomfortable like
it feels right now do all relationships feel like this? God I'm stupid for meeting up with
him or even having the slightest hope that this time it's love.

I pack my car outside Steers urg just because I once said I like their fries he always
takes me out to this place.

" hi" he said hugging me his hand run down to my ass wrong move for wearing these
tight ass jeans I step back and look at him
Me: hi ...unjani?"
He has another piercing on his lip now and a big fat tattoo on his neck this is another
turn off I prefer my guys to be clean dress good smell good with one hidden tattoo or
non at all but hay look at me now sitting in front of a guy who is the totally the opposite
of what I prefer...no doubt his hot if only he paid attention to his hygiene and dress
sense.

Him: you look good "

I smile " thank you... You look good too"
I feel like gagging he looks like shit dresses like hobbo ooh God why am I dating an
artist these people belong on their own planet I'm even afraid to be seen with him.

" girl he has his own studio he looks like shit dresses like hobbo ooh God why am I
dating an artist these people belong on their own planet I'm even afraid to be seen with
him.

" girl he has his own studio his art has been exhibited in The National Arts Festival is an
annual festival of performing arts in Makhanda South Africa girlfriend the guy has
rubbed shoulder with the international award-winning female artist Queen Sbahle
Mnguni this guy is rich and your type just say 'hi' he won't bite "

I regret listening to Barbara yet along agreeing to go with her to this art event in
Grahamstown
It was five months ago and she convinces me that this 21 Savage look-alike is a catch
no offense but my best friend is slut with her anything with a dick and moves is a catch.

Him: how have you been?"

Me: I should be asking you that since you rolling with flat ass white bitches?"

He popped out his eyes

Him: that just a friend babe you know in this industry..."
I cut him off
Me: ufunana "

I can't go on like this anymore. I need to end this relationship.

Trying to improve this relationship is all I've focused on lately and it has negatively
impacted other areas of my life like Scool my friends and my family. I have been
stressed out and on edge with everyone around me. I don't like who I am right now. I
need to focus on getting back to where I feel happy and at peace with myself and my
life.

Him: babe I miss you "

He tried to hold my hand but I folded my arms
He's talking but I just looking at him with my head miles away to think I kissed those lips
and was all caught up in his bubble went as far as to cry over him when I caught him
with a girl in his condo makes me sick.

I really hated the statement “hate the player not the game.”
No doubt he played me with his werk game he kept me all up on his infatuation
He is leaking his lip and giving me a side smile while I'm screaming in my head
" STFU! !!!"

Me: ubona kubhalwe Isilima la ekhanda you hit me up with few Xhosa lines and you
think that all is forgotten?"
Him: I'm sorry ok"
Me: if you apologizing that means you have done something wrong "
Him: Nana...I was away on work and when I get back you drop this shit on me... "

Me: This might seem strange because hooking up with players is usually the opposite of
standards but you actually made me realize what my standards are! And today I realize
that you’re far far below what I find acceptable. . . so go fly a kite broke ass Nigga you
can't even take me to proper restaurant nxa what do you think... I am 5?"

Him: you sure acting like a 5-year-old now...congratulations the description fits you
perfectly "
Me: fuck you "
I stood up but he held my hand and his eyes change
Him: sit the fuck down! "
Me: you hurting me "
I tried pulling my hand from his hold but he grabbed me tight

" Is there a problem here?" a big guy in a suit said he looked at me and back at Zuko
Zuko: no sir my girlfriend and I are still talking ain't we babe " he said faking a smile
looking at me
I took a glass of water and plashed it on his face he let go of my hand to wipe his face
Me: I ain't dating this piece of shit "

I pushed the guy off my way and ran off to my car I jumped in my car my eye sting a bit
my lower lip and looked up breathing out loud I started my car and drove off.

I found myself inside checkers liquor wine aisles I need something strong so it will be
dry white tonight.
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To be continued

Chapter 10
[Menziwokuhle]
"Sanibona..."
The girls kept quote and looked at me it was just my sisters and my wife
Me: ngicela umfazi wami "
Sindy turned and looked at me with a smile on her face she is crazy and everyone
knows it but never ever does disrespect me in front of anyone it one of the trades I love
about her

" Girls ill see you tomorrow goodnight "

She stood us as they bid her good night and mocked me for fetching early

Her: you do know we live down the road why did you fetch me with a car? "
I chuckled and held her hand
Me: I figure you must be tired..."
She nodded and blushed
Me: so how was your day?"
She smiled and looked at me as I opened the car door for her

I lean ever and pulled a seat belt over her I love how she smells I ran my hands on her
bump and looked at her
Her: it was fun Nelly loves tormenting Nonjabulo...she even named her maka Mistake "
I looked at her and laughed while she shook her head

I walked over to the driver's seat in stitches

Me: yooo abo Nelly they live in there own world...that our little brother njalo"
Her: or Sister "
Me: naaa babe baba can't do this to us we already outnumbered sodinga more boys
lekhaya"
The drive down the road to our house is full of laughter and joking around...
Me: why don't we just name him Pension Ngubane"
Her: or Retirement Ngubane"
Me: LastSpam Ngubane "
We cracked up and laughed again I miss moments like this when it's only us and our
laugher

I packed the car in our yard I looked at her she is still wearing a smile on her face she
caught me glaring at her and she blushed
Her: what ?"
Me: I miss seeing that smile "
She looked down " musa ukudlala ngami..."
I held her hand and rubbed her wedding ring

Her: udlile kodwa? "

Her voice was soft and a bit seductive
Me: ya I went to Mbovu's house...and you two " I said brushing her tummy "are you
two hungry...or maybe craving something?"
She giggled
" We just need a warm bath and a bed ....Maybe ice cream too"
Me: and Oreo's or avocado?"
She grinned " both "

I took her hand and kissed the back of it there is something about looking at her face
glow in the moonlight damn she is so beautiful.
Me: come le me run you a hot bath "
I jumped out of the car and opened her car door I helped her jump out and we walked
inside our house holding hands
Me: Sindy "
Her: mmmm'
She looked up and looked at me
Me: I love you "
She grinned and kissed me she attempted to pull out but I pulled her close shaving my
tongue down her throat she let out a soft moan and I gently place her down on the
couch

We haven't kissed this long for months now it feels so good to blatantly invade her
space I feel a wall of electrically charged energy making our breath come in short
gasps. It is warm I can feel the heat from her body moving into me as blood rushes to
my head my face becoming flush with desire. I'm hard and all want is her
I pull out to catch my breath our eyes locked together now I start searching for a

" stop I'm not in the mood "

" get off me...you too heavy"
" I'm Tired Menzi leave me alone!"

Nothing is there but her panting as she runs her hand on my arm I feel her gaze
uncover my soul the very core of my being in her eyes I'm utterly naked now she jumps
as my hand come to contact with her sensitive skin her inner thighs following movement
was to her the new built-in curves

I lean over and devour her lips she does not resist
Only my son is a bare fraction of an inch separates our bodies and time comes to a
complete stop as we continue our erotic dance with our lips It is amazing how aroused I
am becoming locked together by lips and hands she has not once pushed me off her I
feel as though I cannot get enough air Nervous or is it exciting energy flows through my
stomach and yes my dick is about ready to explode now as I yearn to taste her other
lips. A gentle grind on her making her feel my hard shaft
Her: baby ....."
Me: mmmm" I say kissing her neck
Her: where are my kids ?"
Me: they with Gogo tonight my love "
She pushed me " FUCK!" I curse inside my head
Her: angizwanga!"
God here comes the thunder those eyes are a killer

Me: babe listen..." I try to soften her up running my hands on her face but she slept my
hand off her
Her: No! Go get them..."
I drop my mouth open " get off me" she pushed me off her
Me: Sindy ...come on "
she stood up walked to our bedroom slamming the door
Me: Shit !" I punched the couch with my fist.

I'm contemplating if I should run after her or let her cool off God I'm tired of this...
Well let me tell you how we got here it all started with stolen moments of sex in the
office and she fell pregnant she did not tell me till she was almost four months
"I was waiting for the right time to tell you"
That was her excuse we started fighting like crazy thereafter this pregnancy has been
nothing but a rollercoaster. This is her second pregnancy and she claims her first
pregnancy was horrible I beg to differ.

We only 6 months pregnant now but she has already declared in her head that she
hates me she makes me sleep on the floor because she doesn't wanna be touched by
me and I apparently snore.
She says just looking at me pisses her off and she hates me and feels stuck and lonely.
Mind you I work at home most of the time. I have at least one full week off a month and
some days I work half day I spend all my free time with her and the kids at home.

While She is a qualified Dr runs a medical center and spends most of her time in the
office guess who's lonely but what can I say I married crazy.

I feel it may be the hormones that causing a drift in our life because she was never like
this till I got her pregnant again. I love her and she is carrying my baby...my Son so I will
stick with her till the end of it and try to toughen up but yoo kunzima!

I finally find the courage to walk inside of our bedroom the shower is running I look at
my dick getting bigger just the thought of Sindy Naked behind that bathroom door I sigh
and strip off my clothes making my way to the bathroom. Our eyes locked

" I'm not taking a bath with you! "

She said looking at me
Me: we saving water !"
Her: I said go get my kids!"
Me: I requested an Uber for them..."

She clicked her tongue and tried to step out of the shower I pushed her inside her back
was pinned to the wall
Me: I know for a fact that in the ten commandments it says 'they shall fuck husband
when his horny' "
Her: Menzi!! ..."
I place my hand on the wall looking at her in the eyes
Me: you can't go against the word of God Sthandwa sami ....come on let me wash you
back my love"
She bites her lip looking at me with her eyes wide open
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To be continued

Chapter 11
[Sindisiwe ]

I'm scared my heart is telling me that in horny but the terror of feeling his hard dick
penetrating my dry pink flash was overwhelming

Only the balloon I call my tummy is on the only thing standing on his way his breath on
my neck sends shivers down my spine his washing my body so gently as if I'm fragile
His forward baby started kicking and hiccuping
Menzi drops his attention to my belly

Him: talk to daddy my boy...so mommy is not tired tonight....mmm is that so?"
He says and looks at me
Me: Menzi not tonight babakhe "

Him: you so beautiful "

I rolled my eyes. It's not that I didn't think I was a beautiful pregnant woman it's that I
also felt like a very round fully occupied completely sexless beautiful pregnant woman
who's suddenly terrified of having sex with her husband.

Me: Menzi..." His lip was on mine ooh God I hate how my body gives in to his touch I felt
ashamed by my inability to get into sex and was certain I had been brainwashed by
the Sahara desert between my legs I can't deny that my mind was elsewhere the entire
time during him initiating what I crave the most right now I'm wondering whether doing it
doggy style would cause his penis to penetrate too rough and causing bruising if we do
the missionary position it will make it hard for him to cum no! that not happening I won't
have him spreading my leg that wide while its dry season down there Spooning irritates
me he kisses me too much on my neck and I will end up on my knees for that deep
penetration he enjoys doing oooh God so much pain I cant!

I'm also wondering what would happen If I tell him I can't give him sex he most
probably gets it elsewhere now I'm debating whether I should have a post-sex spoonful
of peanut butter and ice cream with avocado not forgetting coconut flake wait his
scooping me up and he bites my lip

Me: ouch"
Him: focus on me ..." He looked at me he saw how disconnected I was and he lost
interest like literally he was annoyed he place me down
Him: woza solala"
He said walking out of the bathroom. I held my mouth No...no...what have I done.

I ran out of the bathroom found him putting on his pyjama pants
Me: I'm sorry ..." He does not say a word He takes a towel and starts drying my body he
then apply tissue oil all over my body
Me: my love?"
Him: what's happening between us ...Sindy"

I open my mouth and close it he looks at me and I looked away

Him: you get paid to talk for a living but I'm asking you one bloody Question you can't
even answer me...am I the problem?"
Me: no..no Sthandwa sami don't do this to yourself"
Him: You haven’t touched me since we conceived this baby. All I want is to be held to
be brought a cup of tea in the morning to be told I am appreciated to be told I am
appreciated to enjoy life’s simple adventures with the women I am meant to share my
life and my world with. You are irritated by any plans I make to ensure our free time as a
family is spent as best we can together. All you want to do is sleep...shout or refuse to
make love to me clearly im the problem "
My tears start blinding me as He helps me put my nightdress over my head I try to hold
his hand but he untangles himself and walks away

Me: Menzi?"
Him: I promised you a snack didn't I?"
He walks out ... His pissed or hurt its hard to tell I'm married to the most emotional man
on earth I have seen Menzi cry more than a thousand times behind that fun goofy idiot I
love dearly is a highly sensitive Man Just because men aren't adept at expressing their
feelings don't for a minute think they don't feel and feel deeply. Many times Menzi
expresses his feelings using a secret code a code that even he can't decipher...he
would rather walk away and cry in his dark corner than hurt me this thing of him
protecting me even when I'm the one hurting him breaks my heart.

I find him in the kitchen wiping a spoon his head is miles away as he sniffs and clears
his throat I tiptoe and hug him from behind placing my head on his back
" I'm sorry ..."
Him: it's ok ... We ran out of avocado" he clearers his throat
Me: it's ok... I don't need that... I need you "

Him: I doubt you do my Value as a husband to you is zero to none and I Don't know
what to do or say to you anymore"
Me: Menzi I love you "
He turned around and looked at me
Him; a good friend of mine once said that When a women find a guy who calls her
beautiful instead of hot who calls her back when she hangs up on him who will stand in
front of her when other’s cast stones or will stay awake just to watch her sleep who
wants to show her off to the world when she is in sweats who will hold her hand when
she is sick who thinks she is pretty without makeup the one who turns to his friends and
say ‘that’s her’ the one that would bear her rejection because losing her means losing
his will to live who kisses her when she screws up watches the stars and names It after
her and will hold and rock that baby for hours so she can sleep…..you marry that kind of
a man all over again. . . yazi I am that man but somehow I'm not meeting your
standard...we been married 3 years and you already lost interest."

I was in tears lost of words ...as he kissed me goodnight and walked past me
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To be continued
Chapter 12
[Okuhle]

I woke up with Nana's leg on my chest

My phone is ringing nonstop I jump off the bed " Shit " my head felt like a yoyo bouncing
up and down
" damn you Nana for making us all alcoholics

I Answered my phone yawning

Me: Okuhle hallo "
" Okuhle Monday morning we have a meeting at Durban head office 8:00 am don't be
late"
I pop my eyes open and move my hair from my face tucking it behind my ear I hate how
his voice demands my attention and makes me all sweaty

Me: Me uuum sir I'm on leave "

Him: see you Monday..."
He dropped the call on my ear I breath out loud shit!
I made my way to the bathroom I washed my face but I felt hot flashes with his voice
ringing in my ear I decided to jump inside the shower to cool myself off

I wrapped a towel around my body once I was done I made my way to the kitchen I
jumped as I found a man in Nana kitchen
Me: who the fuck?"
He turned around and looked at me his one of our head boys...I could tell by the way
he's dressed
Him: uxolo..."
Me: what are doing here?....who let you in?"
Her: I came to drop off this "
She points at two bottles of Milk I raised my eyebrows...

Me: and you decided to come inside the house!...did you even knock?"
Him: I was instructed to bring it here "
Her: next time you leave it by the door outside !"
Him: we have dogs in the yard I can't just live milk ...'
Me: so you decide to walk inside my sister's house without knocking who the fuck are
you ?"

He nodded " ngiyaxolosa it will never happen again "

Me: I'm telling Mkhulu about this sekuyachanaswa nje kaMbovu"
Him: ngiyaxolisa ..."
Me: Get out!!"
He nodded holding hands together as I pointed at the door
Him: ube Nosuku oluhle Okuhle again I'm sorry for intruding"
I frowned he called me by my name does he know me? urg he probably does all the
help in this place know who we are He walked out
Nana walked in with her index finger in her mouth ain't she turning 25 in few months and
still sucking fingers
Me: who was that ?"
Her: whooo?"
Me: the milk guy who walks in and out of your house in the wee hours"
Her: milk guy ....really Okuhle?"
She walked away laughing

I found Nelly sitting on the couch with a coffee mug in her hand lost in thought
Me: hi"
Her:...why those Nana have the perfect view than all of us "

Me: she the last born she gets everything girl she even has indoor milk delivery from
some guy..."
Nelly laughed " some guy yooo Okuhle why imali ikwenze ube nje"
Me: why must you turn everything to be about my finances"

Her: because ukhukhumele...that not how you speak to people Kuhle "
She looked at me
Her: you know very well that we came from nothing... All of this was made possible by
Mkhulu so wena get off from that Golden seat and humble your self...just because his a
head boy does not mean he is not human"

Me: he was invading our privacy !"

Her: ooh really now? It's not even your house but look at you acting like Queen"

I looked down and drag my feet and set next to her and place my head on her shoulder
Her: you need dick"
She sips her coffee and looked outside
Me: I have trust issues every man I see I compare them to my father "
She looked at me but I decided to look straight ahead

" Good Morning " ...we turned and was meet with Nonjabulo
Nelly: what's so good about it?"
I pinched her and she jumped " hhhayi mani Kuhle!"
Me: Morning "
I stick my tongue out at her

Me: I think baba loves her...". I said whispering in Nelly's ear

She breathes out loud
Her: I think so too...how do you feel about that...about her being part of the family"

Me: I should be asking you that "

Her: as you can see I don't have daddy issues ..."
I drop my mouth open
Her: isho phela if nginamanga !"
Me: urg what can I say a part of me wishes to dig my mother grave and smack her and
then bary her again "
Her: this is not about mom"
Me: well maybe if she did not let our father play her we would not be here now angithi"

Her: she loved him..."

Me: but he never loved her "
Her: Okuhle..."
Me: you were not there Nelly I was there when he left her I still remember that day
clearly in my mind even if it was more than 2 decades ago. I remember seeing mom
crying and pleading for him not to go. I also remember him looking at me in the eyes
like he wanted to say goodbye but he just kept quiet and left. . . mom did not achieve
anything leyandoda took her future ...got her pregnant when she was still young and left
her manje uthi wena I need to accept this girl ..."

I stood up and but she called out my name

Her: Okuhle!!"
I stopped and slowly looked at her Nelisiwe Mbovu is more than just a big sister to me
she is that straight talker Aunt we all run away from when she enters the room
Her: so in your twisted mind mom did not achieve anything?"
Me: she died unhappily...she had dreams hopes and goals but..."

Her: wesilima!!! Look around you sisemafamu she is that straight talker Aunt we all run
away from when she enters the room
Her: so in your twisted mind mom did not achieve anything?"
Me: she died unhappily...she had dreams hopes and goals but..."

Her: wesilima!!! Look around you sisemafamu have you seen the lives of the women in
this area? From the little girl who is strapped to her battered mother’s back to the old
woman who is living on a dwindling pension fund women and girls in the remote rural
area seem to have been left behind by the surge of gender equality movements Having
grown up in this village and where a woman’s place is still perceived to be only in the
kitchen I know this very well I witness it with my own eyes.

You despised our mother for her upbringing ashamed to even call her your mother
because she does not fit the Okuhle perfect world guess what we do not choose our
upbringing! you call her rural idiot while I have learned that my mother was rural but was
never dumb...
she was uneducated I get that wena what did you expect? She was kicked out of her
house because she got pregnant with Vusi at the 16 she dependent on dad's family for
everything if it wasn't for Mkhulu who knows what would have become of her you angry
yes I know it you have been like this for years

But guess what Women were born to make sacrifices it's in their nature especially when
they become mother through our mother's perseverance and being an idiot as you may
call it she achieve things that none of the women in this area did...look at us all of
her children are varsity graduates..."

I looked down

Her: While dad thought she had an upper hand our mother silently was building not one
hand but four mighty hands that will stand tall one day. . . stop blaming my mother for
your own pathetic life she lived her's now start living yours.."

She walked past me bumping me in the process I sank and held my face.
Her: and the Milk boy is Enzo...Enzokuhle Khoza does the name ring a bell..."
I slowly looked at her

Her: you went to preschool with him...humble yourself Okuhle never forget that uyinzalo
yasemafamu ezalwa isiqhaza "
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To be continued
Chapter 13
[Sindisiwe]
Years in these relationships with this man he has never slept on his side of the bed he
always spoons me till I feel suffocated and starts sweating but last night he just pulled
the covers and slept in one position...and I woke up with an empty bed.

I'm the problem here I think I’ve given our relationship a bloody good push... it's on edge
now and I'm not sure if I can handle losing him.

I should have skipped the crying last night and decided to talk to him but knowing Menzi
he would have gone even madder that I decided to hide this from him again and
resorted to physically rejecting him.

He has been nothing but loving towards me he is a good Husband goes out of he is way
to make me happy his considerate thoughtful and a great lover the best I’ve had. So
why do I treat him this way? It seems completely irrational now that he has spoken how
he feels his words cut like a knife in my heart I suck in being a wife why do I fail so
much in making happy.

I think... In fact I know I took him for granted took his love for granted.
Yes he has cheated in the past forgave him but never forgot about it a part of me thinks
he would never change I have left room for disappointment for so many years that I
forgot to love him right.

After taking a bath I put on my maxidress and sleepers and made my way to the main
house I just want to get my kids and lock my self in my house I love my sisters in law
but if they found out that I made their overly sensitive brother cry again they will skin me
alive.
" sawubona Gogo" I said walking inside the main house
" you know when I came in this house my sister wife never allowed me to sleep till this
late you lucky to have me as your grandmother inlaw ..." she looked at me and her smile
disappeared
Her: Ma-Nene kwenzenjani? "

I looked away but my tears came rushing down damn these hormones
She pulled out a chair for me and I sat down I was sobbing so loud that I even started
having hiccups.

Her: ooh Nkosi yami yini Mtanami"

Me: I'm scared Gogo ... I feel like ngiyahluleka ukuba umfazi? ...Menzi walked away
from me last night and I feel like my entire world has just crumbled down on my feet I
have pushed him so much that I feel like udikiwe manje "
Her: you pregnant that's normal..."
Me: I don't ...think it the pregnancy Gogo...he loves me soooooo much that I struggled
to love him the way he deserves to be loved"

Her: do you love him?"

" yebo Gogo his my life "
I said without thinking about it
Her: pho uhlulwa yini ukumhlonipha ?"

I look down
Her: I get it you grew up with him you were boyfriend and girlfriend for a long time young
and free but when he married you you still continued to act as his girlfriend while his
mindset was now set to being a good father to your kids and an outstanding husband to
you..."
Me: Gogo I can't lose my husband "
He: then stop pushing him away and start acting like a wife
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you still continued to act as his girlfriend while his mindset was now set to being a good father to
your kids and an outstanding husband to you..."
Me: Gogo I can't lose my husband "
He: then stop pushing him away and start acting like a wife a Mbovu wife...we don't
break down but we face challenges"

I sniffed and wiped my nose

Me: I just want to be a perfect wife to him..."
She laughs shaking her head
Her: I have been married to Mbovu for almost 29 years now and trust me my baby the
trick is in working towards being a good wife as opposed to the perfect wife. First of all
there is no such thing and even he knows that. . . "

I nodded
Her: you need to understand that you are not married to his Sisters but to him...Sindy A
good wife listens to her husband. She won't always agree with him but she'll listen in
just the same way she wants her husband to listen to her. A wife lets her husband know
she is sexually attracted to him. ... And tells her husband that she loves and appreciates
him every single day. . ."

I nodded
Her: Sindisiwe Umshado is not about wearing an expensive ring and being a perfect
couple in other people's eyes iqala endlini into learn to submit to your husband..."

I looked at her with my eyes out

Her:yebo Dr. Ngubani! Lalela la in this house you are a wife not a Dr...
I know you will think I'm too educated and too proud for this look as much as
Submission in marriage has a bad rap in today’s world. When society hears “wives
submit to your husband” they raise up their hands with the belief that submission to a
man is demeaning. But let me ask you something are you are married to them or
Menzi?"
Me: to Menzi"

Her: Than do like I do the way you respect Gog respect your husband equally First let
may say I believe submission in marriage is not reticence servanthood inferior docile
degrading and not a sign of weakness. In fact submission in marriage is a sign of
strength not of weakness. It requires a great degree of personal strength of character.
Submission in marriage is a spirit of respect a wife has toward her husband. It is an
attitude intended to help her and her husband to live a more contentful peaceful life
together. Problems and disagreements between a husband and wife in marriage are
inevitable. But when a woman has an attitude of submission in marriage a heart of
respect for her man it is much more likely the inevitable problems will be resolved
harmoniously without unpleasant quarreling and without bitterness and resentment.

A man whose wife truly understands and practices biblical submission acquires a
greater sense of self-respect. He knows she respects him as a husband who accepts
his responsibility as a leader in the home. He has confidence that she respects him and
she is not in any way trying to belittle him...now go find him and fix this"

" yooo engabe nihleba ngobani "

Nana said walking in I quickly stood up and wiped my tears
" Hello my baby " Gogo said to her

Me: thank you Gogo but let me be on my way"

Nana: hi Sindy uright "
I avoided eye contact
Me: ya the baby is just acting up ... I just need to rest "
Gogo gave me a tight hug "it's going to be ok my baby" she whispered in my ear.
I smiled and walked out.

Driving to my house I was meet with Menz jogging in our yard with shorts and no t-
shirts
I walked inside the house and he was wiping himself with a towel
Him: I need to get back home...there is a meeting for all management team on Monday"
Me: Menzi I was hoping we could talk "
Him: can we do it later...I need to bathe and go meet with Mbovu ..."
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To be continued
Chapter 14
[Nana]

" Hello baby"

I walked to Mkhulu house and found Sindy and Gogo having heated conversations it
was way too serious because they immediately stop talking when I walked in
Sindy avoided eye contact at all cost but I could see her face was flushed as if she was
crying she said just a few words to me and left

Me: Is she ok?"

I ask Gogo
Gogo: she pregnant baby and you know how grumpy pregnant women get "
She laughed avoiding the question and ask me about our appointment at the salon this
afternoon yes me and Gogo are close mom died when I was still young and Gogo
raised me like her own so just like how Vusi calls Mkhulu baba I call Gogo mom
Me: well the appointment is set and this time around you will need to put eyelashes
yabona nje ma sibangene"
" over my dead body..."
We bust out and laughed as Mkhulu walked in
Him: sawbona Sthandwa sami"
He said looking at my grandmother's eyes she leaned over and kissed his cheek...this is
the kind of love I want to grow old and grey with the love of my life and when he looks at
me I will blush and feel all gooey inside.

Him: did you get your milk"

I bust out and laughed thinking about how Okuhle overreacted this morning
Me: yes... thank you "
Him: why did you go out to buy milk yesterday wazikahle that we got Milk in this house "
I scratched my head damn you Vusi for snitching
Him: if it's not in the fridge you can even go and milk the cow Nana yini nihlushwa imali
eningi?"
Me: uuuum...Mkhulu I did not say milk I said I mouse as in chocolate mousse cake
uVusi akazwanga"
He looked at me he's not buying it ooh God why am I such a bad lier

Him: mmmm in that case I need a piece of that cake "

I pop my eyes open Gogo just looked at us and laughed
Me: Mkhulu I finished it.."
Him: urg yekela manga Nana ayakuhlula....come with me we need to talk ..."
I looked down and followed him we walked to varenda and set down

Him: your 25 birthday is coming..."

Me: yes and please can you be so kind to convince my sisters that I don't want a party "
Him: you know how Okuhle is with spending I can't stop her even if I try "
I laughed and folded my feet he bites his pipe and looked at me
Him: awusho uzimiselengani vele ?"
Me: excuse me "
Him: you finished your articles and instead of taking the job offer at a local government
firm you decided to continued studying again business diploma right ?"
Me: yes ..."
Him: why that career path now?"
Me: I don't think I want to be a lawyer Mkhulu... So PDM tends to work well with LLB
degrees. By me having an additional degree or diploma will not only make me more
attractive to law firms but it will give me work options outside of the traditional attorney
career path"
Him: did you tell your father this ?"
I shook my head looking down

He breathes out loud

Him: Vusi studied Marketing and he has been so preoccupied with maintaining the farm
that he forgot what his goals and ambitions are I don't want the same with you Nana "
Me: Mkhulu I know what I want..."
Him: Which is?"
I bite my lip thinking have you ever heard that cricket sound in your head that indicates
there nothing there at all
Him: I think you studying because you don't want to be bored in this house
Him: I think you studying because you don't want to be bored in this house not because
you goal-driven to do something "
I look down
Him: Do you why we have a farm in the first place?"

I nodded " we distribute crops and meat to local consumers "

Him: why must it be local? "
I frown and looked at him
Him: I need your brain to work outside the books ...you doing a diploma in the business
right so guess what you are hired "
Me: I'm not following "
Him: I'm hiring you to manage the production and distribution ... Basically taking over
the project..."
Me: I don't know anything about farming Mkhulu "
Him: you lived on the farm your entire life what do you mean awazi litho"
Me: Mbovu u-Vusi uzowenzani yena"
Him: so why must he work so hard so hard to give you all of this?"
Me: I did not mean it that way ?"

I set straight and looked at him

Me: Mbovu. ...I'm studying I can't be working here "
Him: all I see you doing is drinking...
Getting in your and going God knows where next thing you will come here pregnancy
with a baby of low life you 25 years Nana you don't have a purpose in life you indecisive
and we baby you too much that you forgot how to act like an adult...."

I look down he is shouting and when he is like this you never speak back but you just
say

"Ngiyaxolisa"
" yebo"
" ngiyezwa "

He places a key on the table

Him: from now on it's your office key ... "
I looked at him
And he looked at me like daring me to say something

My father walked in and looked at my face

Him: Sanibona ... baby are you ok "
I took the key and wiped the tears with the back of my hand
Mkhulu: Go call your siblings and tell them we have meet esigodleni in an hour"

Me: yebo Mkhulu..." I said with my shaky voice.

I walked out with tears blinding me I was meet by Vusi with Enzo coming from the field
he packed his truck next to me
Vusi: need a ride ?"

Me: no thank you..."

He stopped the car and jumped out wow he wearing his casual clothes it must be
Christmas
Him: What's wrong? Why you crying "
Me: Vusi I'm fine!!"
He raised his eyebrow looking at me
Me: ngiyaxolisa Mfethu...Mbovu wants to see you ... Tell Menzi and Nelly on your way
down "

I walked past him but he is on my face again

I breathe out loud looking up I decided to jump inside the car
Enzo: hi Nana"
Me: hi"
Vusi drove to my house and gave Enzo the car key I jumped out leaving them talking
and made my way inside my house I opened the fridge fuck these girls cleaned me out
I made my way to my bedroom and found one bottle on my side drawer Vusi found on
the passage making my way to the kitchen

Him: what's wrong "

I placed the office keys on the counter and opened my wine
Him: this is Mbovu's office keys ...
Me: aint this supposed to be with you? "
He held his mouth and looked at me

Him: I was angry like you to yesterday when he told me to 'find myself' but looking at
my life I realized that I spend years filling my father's space in my grandfather's heart
that I forgot who I am I love this place and what I do trust me but I don't know if I will
love anything else if I don't leave this place"
Me: ooh my God Vusi No ...you Leaving! Ngizosala nobani mina la ...."
Him: I'm Sorry Baby ..." I held my head and started walking around I felt his hands
around me
Him: I'm so sorry I did not mean for you to find out like this ..."
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To be continued
Chapter 15
[Nelisiwe]

I jumped off my couch as a knock was persistent on the door

Me: I'm coming! ooh God..." I'm limping and this leg is taking its bloody time to heal I
have tried everything rubbing it with different ointments even resorted to using Gogo
homemade herbs but this thing is just not coming down I take bloody 15 minutes
moving from my couch to the door

I opened the door and there was one of the lady's who works on my grandfather farm on
my doorstep
Me: sawbona"
Her: yebo sisi...kunobhuti la who said I must give you this "
Me: Bhuti?"
I take the piece of paper
" Come outside now!"
I pop my eyes open
Me: uphi?"
The lady pointed outside the gate I look at my leg ooh God I can't walk that far
Me: thank you "
I say to the lady I made my way inside the house and took my car keys my heart is
raising I walk out but forget that I don't have shoes on I limp back cursing and
shouting
I put on my uggs I look at my self in the mirror

" calm down Nelly... You can do this "

I limp out and was meet by Okuhle on my driveway as I reverse out
Her: uyaphi because Mbovu just summoned us "
Me: ngiyabuya now .. Cover for me "
Him: oooh my God you meeting him the leg guy ?"
Me: Okuhle shut up!"
Her: I want to meet him "
Me: urg you wasting time "
I drove out leaving her shouting my name

As I drive out of the Mbovu gate I see his car I feel like peeing myself I park behind his
car I breathe out loud and jumped out of my car I'm trying to control my limping but I fail
dismally
I jump inside the passenger seat his cologne just makes me have goosebumps

Me: what are you doing here?"

I say looking at him he bites his lip and looks at me before leaning over and kissing me
he bites my lip and looks at me
Him: you expecting someone else here?
Me: Of course not ..."
Him: we need to talk about your actions and but most important what you said "
Me: Lubanzi can we do this when I get back to Durban"
Him: you can do that I won't stop you but right now I will talk "

He's cocky rude and full of himself

But what would you expect from a hot rich guy?
This might sound crazy but his attitude was what attracted me to him just looking at him
turns me on or is it his hand that is on my lap or the fact that he is driving with one hand
and looking at me taking few glasses at the road

Him: so the day you were in my house ..."

He frowns looking at me" what are you doing Nelly"

I was not having this conversation with him like this so I did what I know will make him
lose his focus I teased him and open the buttons on the front of my shirt exposing the
flesh beneath but not opening it wide for him to see. Just enough skin to tease. I lifted
the soft fabric of the skirt higher on my thighs showing a glimpse of the delicate pink
lace of my underwear covering my now burning womanhood.

Him: uuuuum Nelly stop it "

He said Shifting in his seat I bite my lip and lifted my hips and quickly shrugged off the
panties looking furtively around for onlookers. The country road had quietened
considerably since we left my grandfather's yard with only the occasional passing car.
Me: increase the speed " I threw my panty on his face he breathe out loud and stepped
on the accelerator good now we hurtling too fast for anyone in a car passing to be able
to see anything thank God for the tinted windows

I spread my legs making sure I do not inflict more pain on my swollen leg I slowly
moved the fabric of my skirt covering my thighs slowly moving up till my nana was
visible for him to see my hands quickly found their target. Gently and delicately I ran my
nails through my shaves pussy biting my lower lip an immediate tingle of electricity
flowing into my abdomen. Made me drop my head back as the wave passed over me

Him: ooooh nkulunkulu I'm driving babe don't do this to me !"

I smile licking my lip I was overtaken with the need to seek climax. So I started rubbing
my labia lubricating them with the juices flowing from me pressing my index finger
against my clit

Me: mmmm"

I rubbed my clit purposefully

Him: ooh shit! "
With my heat rising... my pussy called out for attention crying out for the stimulation My
nails dug inside my wet pink flash as I inserted a finger parting my labia and seeking
the g-spot. Lost in the hotness of my core I did not care who was watching now but I
knew that he would be glued to the scene next to him. Instinctively I turned so he could
see pushing my legs wide letting him watch as I rubbed myself toward a climax.
Me: yes ...mmmmm"
Him: fuck Nelly you killing me "

I rested my one foot on the dashboard not caring about this delicate but powerful
machine car interior Inserting another finger as I ground down on my hand feeling the
waves and ripples of the touch inside of me washing over my abdomen.

He could not help himself but touched my calf running his fingers across and up my
thigh toward my core. I opened my eyes to look at him and he was flicking his vision
between the road ahead and the sight of the way I was furiously rubbing my pussy. The
road ahead had straightened as we leveled off and he was able to watch more than
when on the twisting road below.

“I want to cum for you while you watch and drive” I said with my voice so sensual.
Not raising his eyes from my hand action between my legs he nodded in agreement
ready now for the climax to wash over me. my hips bucked in rhythm with my fingers the
index finger finding the g-spot on each insertion.

Him: holly Shit!!!!....'

All along images of him pounding me was making me go deep and increase pleasuring
myself Finally the wave reached a climax as I rubbed my clit to push my self over the
edge
Me: oooh my God Banzi yes ...yes "
I started tensing my body and my hips against my hands. The pulse within my veins
echoing through my body my pussy clasping at my hand as the climax gripped me.
I drop my mouth open

I came calling out his name as release repeatedly pounding my fingers inside my
already dripping pussy
Finally my climax subsiding I breathe out loud and turned to look at him. He was flush
with excitement both on his bulge and obvious on his facial expression. I leaned toward
him…

“Did you like that?” I asked as he reduces the speed of the car
“Definitely.” he grinned in response.

" now take me back home... I have a meeting with my grandfather ...”
Him: but..."
I leaned to his neck brushing my lips against his sensitive skin He sighed. I took his
earlobe in my mouth nibbling biting and teasing it. I then breathed hot air into his ear
He bit his lip sighing at his frustration he shifted in his seat as his cock pushed
uncomfortably against his pants. I ran a hand down his chest and down to his bulge
rubbing it lightly teasing him while continuing to breathe hotly into his ear.

Me: I'm running late babe please take me back"

He sighs taking a U-turn
“I don’t think I can do this for long...I want to be balls deep inside in you" he complained.
I chided “I think you can…just have some willpower. And drive straight!”.
Him: damn it Nelly I drove all the way here to speak with you "
He shifted deeper in the seat both hands on the steering wheel rotating his hips to push
the bulge out further. His cock is aching for my hands my lips and for me to caress him.
Him: ubizwe ubani?"
He tried to look at me but I kissed his neck and cupped his balls sending shivers
through his abdomen and a sharp intake of breath. I kissed him slowly softly down his
neck and he took in the scent of my perfume
Him: God you smell good enough to eat"

I reached for the zipper slowly drawing it down and releasing his cock. He leaned back
in the seat aching for the release and my hands to stroke it.
I gently at first circling the with her index finger drawing a sharp reaction when my finger
idled on the top. I slid my hand down the shaft my nail dragging purposefully along the
length God his so big I hardly go down on him the reason being my mouth is small his
big and long and has made me vomit so my mouth is not going near this beast.
I feel his cock bulging with excitement I'm slowly stroking it biting his neck more
deliberately now.

“You think you can keep driving while I lick it?” I asked ...teasing him as I see him
approaching my car
Him: I'm so going to fuck you !"
Me: I could not have it any other way..."
I kiss him and jump off his car
Him; hay what happened to the leg? "
He asks holding his laugh looking at me
Me: just go!"
Him: switch your phone on ..." He takes my panties and sniff them and drives off

I jump into my car I take wipes and wipe myself and my hands I look at the time
" shit"
I drive inside my yard oooh God everyone is inside I could tell by the shoes by the door
esigodlweni

" oooh thank you Mafungwaso to finally join us "

Mkhulu said with a sarcastic tone ok great his pissed
Me: sorry Mkhulu ... it just that Gogo pills knock me out" I faked a yawn
Him: Oooh it's Gogo pills now. . . Kanti you did not go to see a Dr? "
I look at Okuhle and pop my eyes open
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To be continued
Chapter 16
[Vusimuzi]
The Mbovu sigodlo which is also known as the ancestral room in my house is split into two it's a big
rondavel that has two sections there is one where we consult with idlozi your normal msamu with
grass mats on the floor imphepho ukhaba animal skin the whole shebang of umsamo and the other
section is more of a boardroom long wooden vintage table with chairs it's where we have our family
meeting before we proceed to inform idlozi (emsamu )about what we plan to do this big rondavel is
called isigodlo(ancestral place ).
This boardroom is sacred just like Umsamu when we are called in this place we know that shit is
about to go down.
Only Mkhulu talks in this place and we only listen as he is the head of the family and his word is
final.
It's forbidden to fight or throw shades in this place and only Mbovu blood is welcome to sit at this
table the wives are not welcome to sit amongst us while we deliberate the matters at hand they will
need to wait to hear the details of the meeting from there husbands. So they prepare our meal and
wait impatiently.
Him: as I was saying ... I'm glad that all of you are here there not too much discussion on the
agenda but only a few things that I need to fix with this family "
We look at him
Him: what transpired here three days ago broke my heart not only did you sit down and listen to
each other but you all talked at the same time and the worst part there was a physical fight amongst
you I'm tired and constantly having this talk with you it's draining I already know that the toughest
part of loving you will be one day leaving you. Until then I plan to shape this family to what it's
supposed to be ...not what I want it to be.
Trough out this fighting and biting heads you forgot the most important rule I instill in you for years
was that you all need to 'mindful'!
This is pretty much the key to everything. Be mindful of your decisions and actions. Don’t get crazy
with impulsive or spur-of-the-moment decisions. A little spontaneity is good. It’s fun. Rushing into
important decisions and acting without thinking not so much..."
We are all looking down
Him: Mduduzi "
Mdu: Baba..."
Him: Respect is earned my son I don't know how many times must I tell you that it's not given... if
you want to be respected you cannot force your children to respect you just because you want them
to...you did not raise them never was there for them in actual fact you don't know them you are their
father I get that but can you at least try to listen to them ... Listening is an active process not a
passive one. Actively listen by taking your own opinions and thoughts out of your mind and actually
hear what the other person is trying to convey. . . look at them Badala labantu stop treating them as
brainless idiots!"
Our father looked at us sitting around the table and nodded
Mkhulu: Vusi... Menzi violence does not solve anything but makes it worse When everyone stays in
the process of argument violence isn’t necessary and solutions can be had for everyone. But when
you refuse to argue properly and try to force submission violence simply puts an end to that effort.
In my opinion wena Vusi your problem is not that you raised your hand on your Father. Your actual
problem is anger. In a fit of rage you become so angry that you raised your hand even on your father
you know very well that it's wrong and I will not accept that in my house ever again do I make myself
clear!!"
Me: yebo baba"
Him: I trust I am saying this for the last time"
Me: yebo baba ngiyaxolisa "
Him: you know what do "
I stood up and took a basin and poured water in it
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I took it to my father and kneeled down

Baba: trough this water I am cleansing my hands my heart my soul and my anger please forgive me
for what I have done said and what I feel you my son and I love you ngixolisa kuwena kubaba
nasedlozini "
I look at him and I nod and I wash my hands too in the very same basin saying the very same words
Menzi came with a towel and he also kneeled before our father and wiped his hand and then mine
and he also washed his hands repeating what we said and I and my father wiped his hands He then
stood up with a basin and walked out he must splash the water in the kraal and ask for inhlambuluko
and peace amongst us.
Nelly walked is she late like really late
" oooh thank you Mafungwaso to finally join us "
Mkhulu said with a sarcastic tone Nelly bite her lip she looks guilty
Her: sorry Mkhulu ... it just that Gogo pills knock me out"
I chuckled as I stood up walking to my sit
Him: Oooh it's Gogo pills now. . . Kanti you did not go to see a Dr? "
Okuhle just looked away avoiding eye contact from everyone damn she is busted!
Nelly: you see what happened ..."
Mkhulu: sit your bloody ass down ...and stop making me upopayi nxa!"
She sat between me and Okuhle
Her: really Okuhle Dr?..."
Okuhle: it's was the only thing that came to mind ..."
Me: cut it off you two ..."
I said through my teeth Menzi sat down and Mkhulu cleared his troat
Mkulu: Mduduzi thank you for telling me about Nonjabulo and the baby this is the only pregnancy
you had guts to tell me about which shows that you must really feel something strong for this women
..."
We all looking at him with a bored face as Mkhulu spoke to him
Baba: yebo Baba I do "
Mkhu: what's your intention with her ?"
Baba: I want to make her my wife "
Nelly clapped hands " yooooh!"
I nudge her this is not a place to act like this damn Nelly
Mkhulu: Nelisiwe don't make me regret making you a part of this family again "
Her: ngiyaxolisa "
Mkhulu: nxa nangu mabuya emendweni bo nxa! "
Nelly looked down damn this old man can really bust a bubble
He turned and looked at my father
Him: so you want to marry this girl so you say?"
Baba: yes "
Him: Good ke but she is not the only women you will marry the right way lento uzoqala emuva we
need to go pay ilobolo for Phumla Vusi mother you have to marry her as your first wife and then
Victoria Menzi mother must be your second wife we need to do the same for her tooo then you can
marry this girl"
Baba: what?... Vusi's mother is dead...and Victoria and i ..."
Mkhulu: you failed this woman treated them like shit bouncing from one woman to another right now
Vusi wish to make an unveiling ceremony for his mother
but he can't because she is buried in the Ngubani land but she is not recognized by the family while
she gave this family four kids you will marry her and give her the respect she deserves...and lomfazi
wakho wephepha she must know koNgubani you need to marry her traditionally athelwe ngenyongo
she is your only living wife and she needs to part of this family.
I also need amathambo ka Jasmin Menzi sister to buried along with her ancestors and will do an
unveiling ceremony for her and Phumla on the same day ...then you can marry your beloved
Nonjabulo"
Baba: Victoria will not allow for that
Baba"
Mkhulu: will see about that"
I look at everyone in this room in shock Nana mouth is on the floor Menzi eyes are popped out
Okuhle hand is on her mouth and Nelly is smiling from ear to ear
"what's just happened" I found myself saying out loud.
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To be continued

Chapter 17
[Menziwokuhle ]

" Vusi is taking an extended leave this farm is a family business and it's not only his
responsibility to take after it So Nana has stood up to fill his shoes while he's gone "

I turned and looked at Nana this is not like her...

" Okuhle I expect to see more of you in this house you just a stranger and you forever
running away from your roots this home must be your refuge not that fake life you
living... "
Okuhle: yebo Mkhulu"
Mkhulu: since Vusi will be away I need your brains and ways to organise your father's
weddings events "
Okuhle: yebo Mkhulu"
He turned to look at me
Menzi: you will be taking care of mom'ncane Nonjabulo and your mother till your father
make a decent woman out of them ... I believe maNene will teach them everything
they need to know about being a Mbovu wife if she needs help we have uGogo to step
in"
Me: yebo Mkhulu..." I want to say more but Okuhle pinch me to zip it I can't take care of
my father mistress and my mother that like asking for world war three...I have my own
problems to worry about my marriage that is cold as ice I can't deal with this shit!

" get yourself a man to father your children because I will be damned if they turned out
like you..'
I was brought back to reality by my grandfather talking to Nelly
Nelly: I just came out of divorce! "
Mkhu: I told you he's not a man for you but you went ahead and married him"
Nelly: but Mkhu..."
Mkhulu: it's that loud mouth of yours that drives me crazy weekends I want you here in
my house with the kids helping Nana out "
Her: but..."
Him: Nelisiwe !!!!

She folded her arms and huffed the minute Mkhulu said we can leave we all jumped up
but I was called to sit down damn what have I done now
Mkhulu: how is your mother?"

Me: she only speak to Sindy not me in her eyes I betrayed her "
Him: mmmm we need this wedding to happen Menziwokuhle"
Me: with all due respect Baba my mother is a very proud woman she will not agree to
this "
Him: that why you going to help me with this "

I shook my head " why me?...this is more of a Vusi thing to do the impossible"
Him: because you like it or not you took after your father when it comes to the women
you married "
I pop my eyes open
Him: you see Menzi a Men’s needs in marriage differ from women’s needs. We are
often attuned to what women need in our culture today and men have had to work hard
to better understand the needs of women. But how much do women understand what
men truly need? In a culture where women have worked so hard to achieve
equality and women have more power of choice in their lives and don’t depend on men
for financial survival so ask yourself what is happening to men in marriage now?"
I looked at him

Him: you married a woman you scared to lose

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scared to confront you put her on a pedestal and you forget that you are a man in that house ..."
Me: I'm handling my house "
I say softly trying to convince my self instead of him

Him: you fighting like cats and dogs and you doing it in front of your kids does Sindy
know what you want in this marriage? "
I look down I hate it when he talks the truth like this I shook my head no
Him: I know that right now you are not feeling admired in your marriage and this is
making you vulnerable so you will seek validation outside your house when a woman at
work or female friend shows that admiration. You know what will happen next...."
Me: I'm not that man anymore "

I say standing up

Him: I didn't say you were but look at you you in the same boat with your father you are
both madly in love and married to powerful strong women they have become
independent and self-sufficient. This is a wonderful thing trust me I know but men are
suffering in many marriages because of it I look at you and your father and I can see
that you have lost your place in your marriage.
You have tried several attempts to want to feel useful purposeful and admired for your
use and purpose.

You see son when women are too independent and don’t “need” their partner for
anything men can become lost in where their place is. I foresee a huge problem about
to occur in your house As your father I know what you going through and I know what
will result too ...I am only touching on one of the many problems you will face if you
don't man up..."
I folded my arms and looked down
Him: do you love your wife?"
Me: with my every breath "
Him: Then take this task to fix your fathers marriage with Help from Sindy this will bring
you closer and help rebuild what you have lost "
Me: Yebo Mbovu"
Him: So tell me about my inlaws your mother's family... What kind of people are they..."
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To be continued

Chapter 18
[Nana]

The minute that Mkhulu said the minute is adjourned I was the first to jump up and left
the room crazy how we all were mumbling about the outcomes of this meeting

"So where too ?"

I asked Vusi who caught up with me and placed his arms around my neck
Him: there is a friend of mine that I went to school with he is running a AD company I'm
thinking of visiting him... I want him to help me brand our diary product"
Me: this was supposed to long deserve leave from work but wena you thinking about
the family business "
He chuckled
Him: what he doesn't know won't kill him besides can you believe him that he wants me
to get a wife"
Me: it's long overdue Vusi you know that "

Him: urg... Come let me show you something "

I pulled me in the direction of the pig farm
Me: what are we doing here?"
Him: yesterday I was supposed to have a meeting with some inverters regarding
piggery farming..."

Me: and you telling me this because? "

Him: because you need to know this and fill our money bag to start this business this
was my new project me and Enzo just artificially inseminated the pigs with semen using
AI stalls. This affected embryo placement leading to a system rethink this stage there
are in now affected the number of piglets born alive "

I looked at him and nod

"I know Mkhulu said handle everything that has do with farming ...but If you can get an
investor we set for life"
Me: making money from Pigs?"
Him: it's a white man job and we back people are too lazy to do it but to grow in this
business we need to hog everything "
Me: hog? We talking pig language already "
He busts out and laughed
Him: just think it Hamwork... " I bust out and laughed

Him: I left some files in the office for you to reschedule that meeting and get us that deal
can you handle that kid!"
I bite my lip thinking
Me: I can try..."
Him: Good I trust you can let me finish up with work I will pass by your house later to go
over the working schedule and production"
I nodded we hugged and he walked away I can't believe I'm doing this farm job Me
Nana ... I know nothing about business language better yet running a farm.
I walked into my house and found my father sitting with Nonjabulo with Menzi rascals
Minehle who was busy wracking my house
Him: hi baby "
Me: baba "
Minehle ran to me with her bottle in her hand
Me: hay Minni " I picked her up and kissed her all over she is sucking a cute baby looks
like Sindy but has Menzi eyes and bushy eyebrows

"I just came to say hi to Nonjabulo I hope you don't mind "
Nonjabulo stood up and walked to her room
Me: I don't "
Him: thank you "
I put Minni on the kitchen counter and continued to play with her
Him: out of all my kids you the one that is not mad at me"
Me: do I need a reason to be mad baba ?"
Him: I believe I screwed up "
I laughed
Me: you did but ain't we all supposed to screw up at some point to find our right path "

He chuckled
" you only human dad it's what you do next that determines that you see your mistakes"
He leaned on the kitchen counter with his arms folded and looked at me with a smile
one thing I came to understand is that there is nothing like a perfect dad What makes
me get along with my dad is he is a man’s man in a sea of women three daughters and
four granddaughters and he loves it...

My relationship with my dad was always exciting jotting back to my early childhood
memories I was his little girl who used to squeal every time I heard his car pull up the
driveway every day he returned from work. He was my daddy whose arms would open
wide to catch me as I ran and jump towards him
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and I would give him his '15 minutes of fame. We played and teased like two monkeys and I so
wished those moments would last forever. I didn't have a doubt love ruled our home it was to be the
most beautiful thing. If there were problems I had no clue. I was either too naïve and too happy.
What a wonderful bubble. Little did I know that was what it would turn out to be...something fragile
like a balloon that could 'burst' right in your face and leave you shocked if not broken. I didn't see it
coming the 'bombshell' that would hit our home so hard. And change the landscape of our lives
forever

But frank it's not my business to chose sides I'm only his child in this mass he calls his
life and I'm too young to fight my mom battles and to hate dad for something I have no
control over I don't recall any fights between them. I knew their hands were full
managing a big home with five mischiefs. But mom was the perfectionist impeccable
homemaker the original 'Martha Stewart'. She was Sargent of arms disciplinarian
'superwoman' who ran our home like a well-paid CEO/CFO. A respectable and humble
woman she was admired in the community. She was a real gem. She didn't deserve to
be betrayed and to be hurt by the one and only man she loved and completely trusted.
But it happened to our tragedy with us her kids caught up in between.

Me: So have you told her?"

Him: where do I start "
Me: by telling her how you feel about mom Victoria"
Him: it's complicated Nana"
Me: it's not...I know and you know that it's always been here my mom might have come
first but she the one who is Ndlokulu in your heart "

Him: you talk too much Nana"

I laughed
Him: give me my granddaughter ..."
he took Minnie and walked down the hall
Me: no funny business in my house baba you already strip me the title of being last born
"
Him: Visit your sisters or something "
Me: Baba !"
Him: leave me alone Nana ... I need to bond with your Mam-Ncane "
He walked inside Nonjabulo room the thought of my father having sex in my house ooh
God I need to vomit!
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To be continued
Chapter 19
[Nelisiwe]

" I need to speak to Dr. Ngubane "

I said walking into Menzi house I walked to the kitchen and found Sindy packing a
picnic basket
" I'm off duty..."
I look at her packing goodies
Me: Sindy awukame "
Her: talk and make it fast..."

I breathe out loud and started walking up and down

Me: I'm going back to Durban tomorrow "
Sindy: I know Okuhle told me about a big meeting with the partners..."
Me: yes that...but nginenkinga"
Her: " Nelisiwe khuluma...im planning a surprise picnic for my husband "

Her: ok...ok...Okay so I have a little dilemma. As you know Menzi is overly protective of
me and we have become really close these past years. We work at the same place
along with his best friend and his friend that walk in and out of there like it's a retail
shop"
Her: get to point "
Me: it was not planned it happened few weeks before Bongani's wedding There was a
case I working on and I had to work very closely with this guy he made it clear to me
that no string attached I thought I was going to handle it but Sindy he is just perfect...
broken but perfect for me "

Her: you agreed to fucking a guy with no feeling "

Me: yes I just got out of a divorce he was sexy... hot and damn can he fucked it was just
a simple arrangement"
Her: ooh Nelly for a lawyer you stupid we can't play that game as men can woman get
attached and meaningless sex start feeling like making love women always want more
....and more"

Me: I know. . . God I know Basically my question is how do I go about pursuing the
relationship with this guy without hurting myself I already confessed that I love him and
he said thank you!
' Thank you Sindy !' "
She clapped once and shook her head " you are screwed !"

Me: I know... I now feel like shit. He came here and he wants to talk I avoided the whole
thing and distracted him I have never been dumped and I think he might want to cut it
off "
Her: shit Nelly you in love with this guy?"

Me: yes I am stop repeating everything I'm saying wena tell me What do I do? "
She chuckled " do what you do best give that thing between your leg"
Me: I dropped that card today he is not going to buy it the second time
Tomorrow I'm going back home and he will want to meet Do I dump him first ?"
Her; what if him coming here was not to dump you fuck boys do this shit over an SMS
so this might mean he has some feelings for you too why take four-five hours to drive
just to talk ?"
I smiled " so he loves me "
Her: I didn't say that I just said he wanted to talk but not dump you "
Me: Ooh God why do man have to be so complicated"
Her: trust me that what they say about us "
I huffed

Me: so I patiently wait around for him to say something? If so how long do I wait for him
to realize if he's in the same place? Do I shut my yap and not say it again now even
though it's how I feel? Help me sort this out. What the heck do I do now and where do I
go from here?"

Her: hold up do I know this guy "

Me: what NO!! Why would think that ?"
Her: then tell me what does this have to do with Menzi ?"
I pop my eyes open
Me: because the guy is one of our big clients at our firm "
I said looking at him straight n the eyes it's true after all Banzi company is one of our bid
clients

Her: how long have you been fucking"

Me: few years "
She smiled " as on two yeas ...or so ?"
Me: Sindy that not the point! "
She chuckled
Her: mmmm I see"
Me: can you help me and stop laughing at me!!! "
Her: Well I don't think there is a certain right thing to do after this sort of situation. You
can wait talk to him not wait kukuwena dali but I'd keep in mind that nothing has really
changed other than you saying those 3 words before he was ready to say them. So if
you still like the relationship stay in it as long as you still like it. If it's really important to
you that he loves you RIGHT NOW maybe talk with him and get an idea of how his
feelings for you are progressing and how seriously he is taking the relationship."

She takes her things and walked out

Me: you not helping "
Her: you not paying me for advice"
Her: I'm your sister in law "
Her: and In order for you to keep calling me that I need to fix my married ..."
I sigh and thew my self on her couch
Me: I so hate you right now "

Her: ncoooo I don't care babysit my kids like you promised yesterday"
Me: what?"
Her: ooh and by the way a piece of friendly advice for you my sister-in-law if I was in
you're shoes I'd rather have someone wait to say "love you" than to say it and not
mean it ... "

She blew me kisses and walk out

I should have not gotten in myself into this mass I'm in love with a man who MAYBE
loves me back or NOT!
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To be continued

Chapter 20
[Nonjabulo ]
I came to this family as Jersmin personal nurse never intended to be highly pregnant
with a baby of my ex-bosses father

For a guy who's 50 years his just handsome tall fit and has a way with words that makes
any women blush he did not need to say much to me for me to be screaming in the
back seat of his car just a few hours after we meet yes I was seduced and taken it was
even crazy how and where he got that endurance and stamina to ride me all night I'm
not sure if it goes with age but he knows how to work a woman's body I even forget that
he is old enough to be my father.

I would say sex got me to be with him but few months with him I got to know him.
The love he has for his children is just amazing but our relationship has so many rules
it's a true definition of an affair

I don't know how I fell in love with him but I did and I can't let him go when I fell pregnant
he hinted marriage and told me it's not going to be easy I was worried about his wife
finding out but he was worried more about his kids.

I know he is still with Menzi mother because he only spends two weeks with me and
another away on a " business trip" he says

I know this because his wedding ring band mark on his finger never fades and how he
takes calls outside the house when he is with me he does not want to talk about his wife
and I respect that he only told me they are separated but I know that there are still
together and he loves her he never bad mouth her or talks about her in any kind of way
that side of him is a no go arear...
" hay ... I just put her to bed "
He said kissing my shoulder and my neck he wants sex I felt it in his touch and the way
he is kissing me
Me: baba we can't do this here "
Him: Nana is gone... We won't take long... Ncane"
Yes he calls me Ncane short ' Mam- Ncane' he does not want me calling him by name
and already I'm submissive in calling Baba even worse now since I'm carrying his baby

We’ve always had such passionate sex I know the sex lives of couples can fizzle out
over time leading to a sexless boring and sad existence especially since we pregnant
But that’s never really been a problem for us. Sure we’ve gone through stretches where
we have the same routine and it can get a bit boring especially if one or both of us
wasn’t really into it but our love for each other is so strong that we express it in the best
of ways when we make love.

It’s rare that we ever just strip down and start fucking. It almost always starts with a lot
of foreplay. Kissing making out real hot and heavy tongue kissing not the normal kind of
make-out you’d occasionally do in public. Like porno tongue kissing but sexy and
passionate.

Me: lock the door "

Him: stop worrying I have done that ...mmmm yes "
I don't know what demon posses me to play with his cock it's already hard he pulls me
by my legs to the edge of the bed.

I start biting my lip his hands under my ass holding me up with his mouth on my cutchy
His licking eating and devour my pussy sucking and biting on my foldes
" I can't hold "
I cum while he eating my pussy he sucks and licks me
" you so fucking hot" he says turning me to be on my four

I'm on my knees and He stood upright behind me and started teasing my pussy with his
cock rubbing it to my pussy lips under my pussy which was a real turn-on for me making
my pussy leaking wet and more than ready for him to fuck me.
He started pushing his cock head in between my pussy lips with his fingers still teasing
and rubbing my engorged clit it did heart a little but his cock head was already inside my
pussy as he pushed it further in I felt fully stretched my pussy inner walls welcoming him
stretching to the utmost they could my pussy was stuffed with lots of cock meat
he was very careful fucking me slowly and carefully making sure never to hurt me or
cause any pain to my pussy ever since I became pregnant he has been too extra
careful when thrusting.

It felt sweet and tempting to try to take his dick no matter what I started moving my hips
but he held me in place
He kept pushing it in and out slowly each time going deeper in then out till finally his
cock was balls deep inside me I moaned out loud I was fully stretched oooh God I love
how he feels inside of me
While enjoying his rhythm slow and deep he froze for a couple of minutes in me without
moving he pushed his hands under me grabbed my tits and started rubbing them
pinching my nipples while frozen with his cock in my pussy.
Me: Mmmmm"
Him: shooooo"
I want to ask what wrong but I head car doors bang
Him: shit Vusi just packed outside "
Me: ooh God not this again ... Stop baba ..." I Try move but he held me close glue my
bussy to his cock

Him: ok....just a minute"

He started pulling it out slowly then back in I wanted to protest but he started speeding
the pace he was actually fucking me deep hard and fast I place my head on the pillow
holding my moans

"Nana....!!"
Vusi called out right outside my room while his father fucking me hard our body clapping
... Clof clof sound so loud that I was scared of how thin these walls might be
I try to push him off but he was deep inside me with no care in the world ooh God I hope
he locked the door...the handle started moving... I held my breath.
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Chapter 21
[Sindisiwe]

I took a drive to the main house where I know I will find Menzi I found Gogo and Okuhle
cooking up a storm
"Thank you " I mouth to Okuhle I'm supposed to be the one slaving in this kitchen but
because I'm carrying the next Mbovu generation my sister is treating me like an egg

Gogo: there in the veranda my child "

Me: ngiyabonga Gogo"

I found him and Mkhulu talking softly they looked pretty serious maybe this was the
wrong timing but I'm not going to go back to Durban without fixing things between us.
Me: sanibona "
I say bowing my knees a bit
" ooh ma-Nene unjani Mtanami "
I smiled and looked down
Me: I'm well Mkhulu "
Him: that's Good...how is Nkosana treating you?"
Me: his one crazy boy I don't get any rest and he eats too much "

We all laugh I look up and notice that Menzi was just looking down not even finding this
whole thing amusing
Me: Mkhulu I'm sorry to disturb you but may I have a few moments with baba ka
Khanya" I call Menzi that in this house my inlaws are highly cultured traditional people
and know the value of a man so his Menzi inside our house and in public his baba ka
Khanya our firstborn child.

Mkhulu smiled and nodded

Him: ayikho inkinga I hope you will make it in time for supper"
Me: yebo mkhulu will do "
Menzi: may you kindly give me just a few minutes I will be with you shortly "
Me: yebo"
I walked out and waited for him in the car

My phone beeped I took it out and looked at the screen

"Don't forget we have a meeting with your mother in law on Tuesday"
It was a message from Zoe I don't know how or where she got Blake and Blaik inc. to
invest in my business idea but she did it I had already given up on the proposal I sent
to B&B inc. years back when they declined my request for funding to open up a chain
of medical center around Durban but Zoe did her magic and Boom we on business I
don't know how it will be like working with my best friend but all I know is that she is a
hard worker never sleeps to get the job done thank God I will be going to maternity
leave she will do this on her own for few months. Getting the business up and running.

Me: noted Dr. Dlamini "

Her: Don't be late Dr. Ngubani please !"
I was about to respond to her but Menzi walked into the car

Him: hi"
Me: hi" I started the car
Him: God I'm tired ..."
Me: How did the meeting go ?"
Him: crazy ... looks like our world is going to be turned upside down "
Me ain't it already is ?"
Him: I mean Victoria Ngubane crazy "
Me: your mother "
Him: yes your mother in law"
I looked at him to go on
Him: babe you know my mom very well you spend more time with her than I and she a
woman...right?"

Me: ooh my God Babakhe what are you trying to say "
He laughed shaking his head
Him: do you think she... My mother will agree to polygamy?"
Me: what!!!?"
I popped my eyes opened and looked at him
Him: Mbovu thinks that if that happens it will sort everything in our family "

I laughed throwing my head back

Me: " did you tell him about your mother and her side of her family"
Him: Yonke into"
Me: and he still wants to go through with this ?.... "
Him: yap"
Me: hayboooo! Does he know that your mom is not different than maMkize Mpisase's
ex-wife? The money...the glam life... The IDC kind of an attitude her reputation that
matters more than anything in this world ?"
Him: baby I told him that!!"
I bust out and laughed as I parked my car
Me: wow isithembu and your mother I don't think it will jell together "
Him: God this will be a disaster..."
I looked at him and jumped out of the car I offered him my hand to hold and we walk

Me: well one thing I know is that your mother loves your father and storage as it looks
he loves her back Those two have what you call love and hate relationship your mother
is a perfectionist and your dad well he was born and raised here he loves the simple life
... Their two opposites definitely with them it's possible to love and hate someone at the
same time.
I understand that one he loves her but she's not the way he wishes she was at least not
all the time."
Him: but We all want love to be perfect"
Me: but it rarely is. Like the old saying goes "love hurts" which is often true. You'll be
unhappy when you together and it will probably be even worse if you two split up. So
only love can make her agree or disagree to this "

He looks at me without blinking

I look down
Me: may I show you something "
Him: what ?"
His tone sounded like he's not interested I open the door of a hay house and lead him
in

"Wow when did you get time to do all this?"

Me: when I woke up and you were not next to me "
Him: I had to clear my mind in sorry
...this is beautiful... "

I pulled him to sit next to me on top of the rug

He looked at me and the romantic setting it was picnic inside a hay house
Him: thank you "
I started taking food out of the bucket
Me: I know we don't do this a lot and for Phycologist it strange that I do not practice
what I pritch'

He started eating and looking at me

Me: please talk to me my love tell me how you feel so I can fix this "
He breathes out loud and places his food aside

Him: I'm not happy Sindy haven't been in a long time in this relationship I'm emotionally
drained and I hate pretending that we are ok"
Me: I know "

Him: these days you hate me you even say it Kanti ngenzeni ...or kumele ngenzeni "
I looked at him and I felt nervous
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Menzi is handsomely gorgeous the more he grows up the more I see the distinguished features of
an attractive man his light skin nicely trimmed facial face bushy eyebrows pink lips and that ever so
bright smile of his makes me wants to run my hands on his face just looking at him gives me
butterflies in my tummy

Me: I love you "

He smiles and holds my hand wiping tears from my eyes that I never thought there were
there
Him: I know but sthadwa sami love is not enough "
Me: I don't want us to end up like your parents ...having a love and hate relationship "
Him: Sindy please stop crying you know what this might do to the baby"
Me: I don't want to lose you Menziwokuhle... "
Him: shooooo....you not going to lose me my love please don't do this "
Me: I have failed as your wife I can't even make you happy you with me because you
love me and tolerate me because of our kids but given a chance I know one day you will
be fed up and you will walk out on me "

He pulls me into his arms and I cry I cry for the time he chased me for years and I told
him I'm not interested when he wanted to marry me and I said No when he waited for
me to finish school because I said no to having his baby when I shout at him and
disregard his feeling when I kicked him out of the house and out of our bedroom I cried
because a man can take so much 12 years he is still with me but for how long? I'm
scared to lose the man I love ...

Him: baby please come down we can work this out I know...."
Me: I feel very misunderstood by many people but worse I feel most people don’t want
to understand me. But you you always seek to understand me. You know my heart.
You know that I always have the best of intentions. You understand me. You get me. In
fact I think you’re the only person who truly does. But only because you are the only
person who has taken the time. You always know what I need to hear"
Him: Sindy..."

Me: let me finish...I felt empty before I met you. Empty like a piece of me was missing
and I was tirelessly searching for it. I knew I found it when I met you. I can’t even put
into words the wholeness that I feel every day knowing you are my husband. When I
was pregnant with our firstborn I felt special. I felt connected to you. I felt honored and
chosen to carry your baby. We are distinctly different. But you always make up for all
that I lack.

You are my home. You are my family. No matter what happens in our future just know
that I am complete with you. I will go where you go. Your enemies are my enemies.
Your family is my family. Your home will be my home. Forever...."
He did not say anything and kisses me
Me: I need you to know how much I appreciate your sacrifices and tireless efforts. I
want you to know it matters and it doesn’t go unnoticed. I love you. More than I could
ever put into words. More than I could ever show you...."
Him: I know...you have a strange way of showing it but I know "
Me: do you still love me "
He wipes my tears

Him: as crazy as it might sound yes

I still love you and despite the hurtful things you do to me I don’t know if I will ever stop
loving you. It’s hard to think what life will be like without you You have been the center
of my life for years now my life will be empty without you our years together are full of
happiness and filled with enormous pain as well. They say love is beautiful but what I’ll
remember from this experience when I entered our marriage is pain both huge and
pure.

You know I have made mistakes during our relationship I have cried more than I would
have thought possible and I have also hurt you. I am aware of my mistakes and not a
day goes by without me being sorry for the harm I have done to you. I wish I had been
good enough wise enough to love you without hurting you but I was not. I have however
always been sincere always been honest about my feelings for you. I have loved you
like I had never loved anybody else with incredible power and passion. To me you are
the Queen of my life the only one with whom life could even exist. I know will lose a part
of myself without you that I would be incomplete. I can still remember the first time I told
you I love you and even if right now I’m suffering even if my heart has been shattered
into a thousand pieces I can’t help but smile at the memory. When you told me you love
me now you just gave me an incredibly reassuring feeling and made me the happiest
man "
I held my breath as he kissed me
Him: can you wipe your face im kissing your mucus now"
Me: shut up !!"
Him: I'm not going anywhere ok"
I smiled and nodded
Me: thank you ..."
We kissed again and it got heated up he pulled out and looked at me
Him: feed your Husband women I'm hungry..."
Me: yes my love I packed all your favorite"
He smiled " this might be a good time to ask you to help me convince my mother that he
needs to marry my father traditionary and become his second wife "
Me: what ?"
Him: think of this as a therapy for us "
Me: " what ?"
Him: you said you don't want to lose me Sindy ...." He gave me a puppy look
.
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To be continued