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How I finally lost my heart, written by Doris Lessing tells, in first person, in
which the narrator speaks directly to the reader, the story of how she "lost her heart",
initially she tells the reader that in her life there have been different true loves that
have given her joy and pain, excluding in this count the two men who have always
The narrator, who is inferred to be a woman by her own description in one part
of the story, is waiting for a man she calls C after having had lunch with the man she
calls her first true love A and a man she calls her second true love B with whom she
had tea. As she was about to leave after realizing she had not felt the click (as the
narrator defines it), she feels something slip into her hand, something she describes
dismissively as "a large red pulsing bleeding repulsive object", she tries to throw it
away but the heart clings to her hand, so she covers it with tin foil and wraps it
carefully -contradicting the dismissive treatment she initially gave it when she
described it-. then she finally called C, whom she would no longer consider a
4 days passed and his heart was still stuck in his hand, when he looked out
the window and she noticed something that made him act excited, a woman whose
footsteps stood out in the middle of the street scene. This made him leave, although
without a concrete direction. she took the train and there she saw a young woman
who was "mad" for the way she was accusing a man and a woman in the train
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carriage, in the middle of the analysis that the narrator made to the young woman
she felt how her heart was detached from her hands, she took it with the care that it
would not stick again to her hand and left it on the chair near that woman who took it
with affection and disowned her husband letting him go from her life. The narrator
Once the story is briefly described, it is understood (even from the title) that
the central topic of this story is love, the search for love and how the pains and
sorrows that this can mean leads the narrator to desist from feeling love but not from
feeling in love. We cannot fail to mention how in the final part of this story is
mentioned several times the expression "a golden cigarette case" or "case" which is
what the mad woman says when accusing some passengers of the train
compartment, being the "case" the person who keeps your heart, being as precious
as a golden case and that after having recovered a heart, even if it was not hers, she
is no longer afraid to part with that "golden case" because she already has a silver
heart.
But what if all this episode that the narrator lived in that train carriage was
nothing more than the reflection of her subconscious to express that desire to free
herself from the ties that her loves entailed, since she entered the train carriage she
speaks of that "golden case" that were her loves, A, B and the possible C, those that
as she did when it was in her hand, could take care of and protect her heart, and it is
at the end, after recognizing the defects and inaccuracies that her heart is free, and
that she presents to herself the heart that now is not tied even to her hands, and that
she no longer sees as that repulsive object, but as a silver heart and feels the joys
and congratulations after "having lost her heart". Even this concept can be further
denoted when the last locution of the narrator says. "Hear that sound? That's
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laughter, yes. That's me laughing, yes, that's me" because now, without those
Another very important aspect to highlight is how the story totally breaks the
stereotype of the demure and submissive woman, in the story the narrator openly
accepts that she has more than one man in her life and instead of considering it an
unnatural or even sinful act, she justifies it as the search for love, as steps to get to
real love, to serious love in her own words, even the same day she saw two men (A
and B) and was waiting for C, all this could be scandalous even in modern society (of
the XXI century) so we must imagine how transgressive she could have been at the
even without knowing much about the author, or the writer, we can discern
the intention of resignifying the role of women, not only in society but as the owner of
her own being, her body and her will, the narrator in the story does not tell in depth
how she is but we can say that she feels beautiful, she even tells the reader this, she
is a woman who feels calm about the decisions she has made and that her anguish,
without her being aware of it, was not to look for real love, but her own love, the one
that does not have to look for a man to take care of her, that does not take care of
her heart, because she was able to do it and turned it into that silver heart.
It is possible to argue that the story "how I finally lost my heart" is not about
how a woman lost her heart but on the contrary, she made it free, away from the
need imposed by society to have a man to take care of it and that the love of a man