RQ #4: How did you cope with the experience of being smart shamed?

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Actually, I
handled it the
wrong way. At
that time, I let
them have
their way, and
I allowed
myself to be
affected by
what they
were saying
about me.
However, time
truly works
its magic. As I
grew up, I performing outcomes Surviving
realized how well and
foolish I was Thriving
and how
immature coping
they were. mechanisms
Now, I'm
currently a
graduating
senior from
high school,
and I can
confidently
say that I
have achieved
satisfying
academic
results. I have
been
consistently
performing
well since the
1st semester
until now. All
of this
 wouldn't have
happened
without me
experiencing
those things.
The past truly
teaches us.

Personally, Personally, I Personally, I

ano kasi eh just decided just decided
hindi ko to ignore them to ignore
nalang sila since you them since
pinapansin know? It’s you know? It’s
kasi alam mo just me that’s just me that’s
'yun? ako going to be going to be
lang din stressed and stressed and
naman mas- besides I besides I
stress tsaka know to know to
alam ko myself that I myself that I
naman sa am deserving am deserving
sarili ko na of everything I of everything I
deserve ko have gained have gained
lahat ng so I’ll just let so I’ll just let
nakukuha ko them be with them be with improving
so whatever that whatever that academical
hinahayaan makes them makes them performances
ko nalang happy. I also happy. I also
kung saan came to a came to a
sila masaya realization realization
kasi that you that you
dumating din cannot please cannot please
ako sa everyone everyone
realization na despite of despite of
hindi talaga- doing doing
hindi talaga everything everything
lahat ng tao because because
map-please whatever you whatever you
mo kahit na- do if there’s a do if there’s a
kahit na ano person out person out
pang gawin there who there who
mo meron doesn’t like doesn’t like
talagang you then you you then you
taong may really won’t be really won’t be
ayaw sa'yo eh able to do able to do
wala kang anything. I anything. I
magagawa. turned it as a turned it as a
Ginawa ko motivation to motivation to
nalang siya improve my improve my
as motivation performances performances
na mas and also to and also to
pagbutihin prove to prove to
pa sa school everyone that everyone that
para all of the all of the
mapatunayan things I have, things I have,
ko na lahat I gained them I gained them
ng meron ako through hard through hard
dahil 'yun sa work. I also work. I also
paghihirap ko want to show want to show
in a way na to their faces to their faces
parang gusto that they’re that they’re
ko din ipa- wrong about wrong about
mukha sa me. That’s all. me. That’s all.
kanila na
Mali 'yung
sinasabi nila
tungkol
sa'kin. 'Yun
lang.
Hindi ko I just ignores I just ignores
nalang sila them. them.
pinapansin.
ignoring

Ano lang, Well, what I Well, what I

ayon nga did was I gave did was I gave
ginagalingan my best even my best even
ko pa lalo more so that more so that
para mas they’ll shut up they’ll shut
manahimik with their up with their
sila sa mga nonsense nonsense
sinasabi nila since there’s since there’s doing the
kase wala rin nothing much nothing much utmost
naman akong to do anyway. to do anyway.
magagawa e. No matter No matter
Kahit naman what I do, what I do,
anong gawin they won’t they won’t
ko hindi din even try to even try to
naman nila understand understand
ako me. me.
susubukang
intindihin.
Ah siguro Ah my coping Ah my coping
‘yung isa sa mechanism mechanism
naging coping back then was back then was
mechanism to just ignore to just ignore productive
ko noon is them, I’m not them, I’m not
ano, deadma- really the type really the type
hin nalang to fight to fight
‘yung ahhh, someone or someone or
‘yung have a have a
ginagawa nila confrontations confrontation
kasi ahh. I'm with them s with them
not really ano and when it and when it
na.. happened to happened to
lumalaban or me I did not me I did not
ah considered in considered in
nagsasalita a bad way but a bad way but
against them instead I tried instead I tried
and syempre to look at it in to look at it in
ah do'n a positive a positive
naman sa way. I am also way. I am also
nangyayaring somehow somehow
bagay na 'yon thankful that thankful that
ahh.. hindi it happened it happened
ko siya kino- since that was since that was
consider as one of the one of the
ano bad side reasons why reasons why
or as bad my my
scenario na relationship relationship
nangyari with God with God
sa'kin kundi became became
ahh stronger and stronger and
tinitignan ko one of my one of my
siya in a good coping coping
way na ahm mechanism mechanism
thankful din back then too back then too
ako na were prayers. were prayers.
nangyari 'yon Because of Because of
kasi una sa that I became that I became
lahat lalo more more
akong productive productive
napalapit sa and I tried to and I tried to
diyos at 'yon busy myself busy myself
din ‘yung up with up with
naging ano.. things to do things to do
isa sa mga so that I’ll be so that I’ll be
coping able to take able to take
mechanism my mind off of my mind off of
ko yung the things the things
prayer. Mas they’ve been they’ve been
lalo akong doing to me. doing to me.
naging
productive
and bini-
busy ko sarili
ko sa mga
ginagawa ko
para ahm
makalimutan
ko ‘yung
ginawa nila
sa'kin.