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FIGURE 1. Mary Jones (Rowin Amone) stares into a bowl of water as Jones,
narrating over the image, recounts the story of the Flying Africans. Tourmaline,
Salacia (2019). 16 mm, digital video, sound. Frame grab.
Courtesy of the artist and Chapter NY, New York.

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T
he dominant aesthetic form of visual artist
Aesthetics of Brokenness Tourmaline’s 2019 video installation Salacia is of
fragmentation, or what I am calling an aesthetic
in Tourmaline’s Salacia of brokenness. Salacia produces a fictionalized imag-
ining of Mary Jones (fig. 1) — a black trans sex worker
living in New York City who became infamous when
DAREN FOWLER she was arrested in 1836 for stealing the wallets of her
white, male clients. Salacia imagines Jones living  in
a black queer and trans commune in (a not named)
Seneca Village, a settlement of landowning African
Americans that was seized by the government and
turned into Central Park, before her arrest and impris-
onment in Sing Sing, represented in the film by using
a former prison on Governor’s Island.
The film mixes fictionalized 16mm film and digital
images of Jones — some are totally imagined, while
others are speculative re-­creations of known events in
Jones’s life — along with archival video images of trans
activist Sylvia Rivera. In the sequence directly follow-
ing the title card, the film shows a fictionalized scene
of Mary Jones’s queer and trans communal family as
they live and play in Seneca Village (fig. 2).1 The form
of this sequence is built through three distinct im-
ages. In the background is a muddy and well-­used
dirt road that appears frozen. At the top and bottom
of this background image, however, the film strip is
made visible, marking where this present frame once
was and where it is going next. Sitting on top of this
background are two smaller frames. In the left frame,
there are two black women talking and laughing as

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An example of the aesthetic form of Salacia where smaller frames sit on a static background. Tourmaline, Salacia (2019).
FIGURE 2.
16 mm, digital video, sound. Frame grab. Courtesy of the artist and Chapter NY, New York.

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laundry dries on a line flapping in the wind. On the iya Hartman’s critical fabulation, an archival and his-
right, we see a brick home with two people sitting toriographic methodology of creative imagining of
on the front steps as a child moves toward the fore- the past that gives speculative richness to those ren-
ground where two other children are laughing and dered flat by the archival and puts pressure on the
dancing around a firepit. The only sound we hear over processes by which people are made narratively and
these images is the joyful laughter of the children, humanly one-­dimensional by history.3
though despite the closeness we feel with the image, The critical fabulation of this scene arrives in the
the laughter sounds as if it is blocks away — a faint “insurgent ground of these lives” — the lives hid-
trace, the echoing remainder of their playing. den and forgotten in the archive and the lives of
This sequence, like so many in the film, is an accu- those here now desiring after the past and future.4
mulation of distinct and contrasting and yet intimately This queer and trans black family, an image that
tied images and sounds. This aesthetic form creates Tourmaline presents to us not as a fantasy but as a
a juxtaposition between contexts — in and out of the dreamed-­of and believed past truth, may not be held
film — that expands what can be known but more of- in the archive, or at least its fragments may not have
ten leaves the viewer knowing that they have missed been found yet, but that does not diminish the affec-
something, forcing them to realize that there is an tively and intimately known truth of it for Tourmaline
excess of material, an excess of being, that will always and for black transness. This fabulative aesthetic sees
escape their gaze and comprehension. I term this an filmic brokenness as building an image and a history
aesthetic of brokenness to narrate how Salacia con- from what is available and from what broken pieces
tinually reminds the viewer that there are purposeful remain to be used, held, and seen, and from those
but also inevitable gaps in this or any attempt at tell- felt and known through the shared experience of bro-
ing the story of a person and their community, and kenness. Brokenness, then, is a pathway to connec-
thus by extension forcing the viewer to acknowledge tion and relation because, as Tourmaline tells us, to
that, if something is missing, something may have come undone is to come and be together in a shared
also been erased. From the outset, Tourmaline is not brokenness.5 The story and life of Jones is given an
covering over the artifice of narrative — both in film archival and historiographic abundance not through
and in the historical and archival. She declares the the archival record but by the speculative archival
fact of history’s narrative-­making, and acknowledges labor of Tourmaline visualized in the gathering of
that there is a hand piecing things together into an frames upon frames that gives a rich complexity to
overwhelming flow of images, desires, and possibili- Jones and the world she lives in without denying the
ties.2 As I will return to later in this essay, this diverse necessary constructedness of the image that the ar-
collage functions as a kind of aestheticization of Said- chive’s gaps produce. Through this aesthetic of bro-

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kenness and the openness and care of its fabulation,
Salacia produces a site of radical gathering for black TOURMALINE IS
transness to speak and see itself across time and
space. Tourmaline is offering an expansive encounter
OFFERING AN EXPANSIVE
of, and for, trans care.6 ENCOUNTER OF, AND FOR,
The choice to attach brokenness to black trans-
ness is not ignorant of the ways black transness, TRANS CARE
particularly black trans womanhood, is continually
marked and defined as being broken under the met- the lineage of queer negativity or Afropessimism. I
rics of white supremacy. Black trans people exist in am after a theory and practice of brokenness that is
“states of brokenness,” writes poet Nat Raha, where generative for black transness, to move beyond a de-
bodies are constrained and limited to the point of scription of the state of the world and one that de-
being unable to speak of the reality of those states.7 sires more than another battleground in the struggle
The act of being and surviving as a black trans person against normativity. This essay asks: What happens
is treated as an attack on those who live “proper” and when black transness orients itself toward itself — not
“good” lives. Further still, as C. Riley Snorton and Jin as a turning away from power but as a turning toward
Haritaworn have demonstrated, the generational suf- black transness?10 What would it mean for brokenness
fering and violation of black trans life functions as a to provide a methodology for black transness to be-­
necropolitics whereby the “death, in both quotidian with and be-­for black transness; a practice that culti-
and spectacular forms,” of black trans people pro- vates sites for an active and purposeful community of
vides the energy and force for the development and love and care for black transness?
sustaining of contemporary social life.8 For Raha and This proposed aesthetic archival practice is an
theorist Marquis Bey, the use of brokenness in relation outgrowth of Tourmaline’s preface to the 2019 reprint-
to black transness should be understood not as on- ing of Larry Mitchell’s gay manifesto fable The Fag-
tological but, instead, merely as a description of the gots and Their Friends Between Revolutions, where
conditions of black trans life that need to be rebelled she sees collapse and undoing not as negative condi-
against so that practices of healing, community, and tions but as practices of being-­with and being-­as the
militancy may be formed and mobilized.9 other. She writes,
In proposing a black trans aesthetic of broken-
I am still here because I have also been held, in
ness, I wish to offer a different conceptualization and
these moments of despair. . . . I have been held by my
use for brokenness. This is not a rejection of the con-
friends, my very own faggots, who after all this time
ditions described, nor is it a theory of negativity in
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stay silent. I have come undone, and this has kept
me alive. The faggots have helped me believe that if
we are to ever make it to the next revolution it will be
through becoming undone, an undoing that touches
ourselves and touches each other and all the broken-
ness we are. The faggots remind us that to become
undone is our greatest gift to ourselves.11
WHAT WOULD IT MEAN
In this quote, Tourmaline embraces the supposed
FOR BROKENNESS wrongness of otherness, but not as an antagonism or
TO PROVIDE A counter-­identification with the normative. The broken
are turned elsewhere. To be broken is to understand
METHODOLOGY FOR that one is not whole within the orderings of the nor-
mative and that the broken do not desire that whole-
BLACK TRANSNESS TO
ness. For the broken, being in pieces means one
BE-WITH AND BE-FOR can move through and with and as others. Another’s
pieces can be used to support your pieces, and your
BLACK TRANSNESS?
pieces can support another’s. To be broken is to be-
come undone so that one can become mingled and
intertwined. Coming undone is a path to being held,
and a path to community and survival. In this way, to
come undone, to break, is not to turn away from the
normative but to turn toward those who hold you and
whom you hold. A shift in orientation and desire, it
prioritizes the communal and the other over an antag-
onism with power.
Black transness, when positioned via Tourmaline’s
“being broken,” engages a unique praxis of being
that may use the same symbols and linguistics of the
normative but with fundamentally different semantics,
rhetorics, and orientations, and thus, a different flow
of material life — a readable but also fungible being.
To become broken, Tourmaline writes, “is our great-

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est gift to ourselves. It is truly our greatest path to be-
ing response-­able — to feel our feelings authentically
makes us able to respond to the conditions around
us with an open heart.”12 To be broken, then, offers a
different theory of relation to the normative for black
transness, a conceptual space where negativity pro-
duces the ability to hold and care for another. Thus,
an aesthetic of brokenness, I will argue, is fundamen-
tally and defiantly oriented to and for black trans life
in the “fugitive hope,” as Bey proposes, of sustain-
ing trans life and cultivating “all ways in which we do
and can connect meaningfully with one another. [For]
those connections matter a great deal; those connec-
tions are the world in which we (can) live.”13 This es-
say seeks to find and build and protect those sites of
gathering and being-­with that allow black transness
to be and to love and to hold.

Mary’s Voice
The first record of Mary Jones as Mary Jones in the
archive is following her arrest in 1836, when she was
brought to her hearing still in the dress, makeup, and
accessories she was wearing when she was appre-
hended. The seeming disconnect and absurdity of
Jones, understood and described by the public as a
man in a dress, turned her into newspaper and soci-
ety fodder; the press dubbed her the “Man-­Monster”
(fig. 3). Her infamy only increased after further arrests FIGURE 3.“The Man-­Monster, Peter Sewally, alias Mary Jones.”
in the 1840s, when she gained another name,  New York, 1836. Lithograph. Harry T. Peters “America on Stone”
Lithography Collection, National Museum of American History.
“Beefsteak Pete,” which comes from the newspaper’s
scandalizing description of how Jones “deceived” the
men.14 Quoting from Snorton’s Black on Both Sides:

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“The Sun told its readership, in Latin, how Jones en- necessary to record in the first place. The histories
gaged in sex acts with her clients by wearing a ‘piece that are then built from those records are shaped by
of cow [leather?] pierced and opened like a woman’s the inevitable and deliberate gaps in what is and is
womb . . . held up by a girdle.‘”15 As Tavia Nyong’o not recorded.20 Mary Jones, and the complex nuances
notes, in the court and newspaper records, Jones is of her life, are not captured by the archive. All the ar-
referred to using both male and female pronouns and chive holds is the violations inflicted upon her. But
with both her chosen name, Mary Jones, and her le- how do we take those violations and produce a story
gal name, Peter Sewally, which only “highlight[s] their that performs Hartman’s critical fabulation and gives
[Jones’s] sense of transgression” for whiteness —  an image, if broken or undone, of Jones while also
further proof of blackness’s otherness.16 Jones’s gen- holding the reality of the archive as a record and as an
dered blackness reaffirms what Hortense Spillers has institution? To begin answering this, I will turn to Tour-
termed the ungendering of racialization, and thus, the maline and her history with Jones and the archive.
unhumaning of blackness.17 The process of Jones’s The story of Mary Jones, as told by Tourmaline,
racialization by the court and press and its dependent arrives because Tourmaline and her sibling, Che Gos-
gendering and hyper-­and desexualization sees un- sett, entered the New York Public Library (NYPL) and
gendering yield that which Calvin Warren describes dug through its archival content. The archive, as insti-
as a “(non)place” where the ungendered “is not tution and concept, is built on gaps — gaps of incom-
recognizable . . . within ontology.”18 Jones’s transgres- pleteness, gaps of ignorance, and gaps of access.
sion of gender, as Nyong’o argues, “produced evi- Tourmaline’s own experience with the NYPL was one
dence against the claims of abolitionists, as indexing of navigating and surviving anti-­trans, anti-­black, and
the social chaos that would accompany the overthrow anti-­poor assumptions, rules, and protocols before
of slavery and racial domination.”19 even being able to see the holdings.21 As Hartman
The concern of this essay is, in part, how one can tells us, “Every historian of the multitude, the dispos-
ethically and meaningful tell the story of Mary Jones sessed, the subaltern, and the enslaved is forced to
rather than the story of her violation. So little of the grapple with the power and authority of the archive
record regarding Jones is from her voice. And the his- and the limits it sets on what can be known, whose
tories we have of Jones, most notably from Nyong’o perspective matters, and who is endowed with the
and Snorton, while rich and invaluable texts on the in- gravity and authority of historical actor.”22 This experi-
timacies of blackness and gender, remain attached to ence and reality is what led to Tourmaline’s radical act
what is given by the archive. However, as Hartman has of laboring through the archive and its violence, to
taught us, the archive is shaped by what is deemed recording and capturing the texts and images of trans
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Tumblr blog, The Spirit Was . . . , and her Vimeo page. might have validated in the eyes of the state a further
This is a conscious and purposeful confrontation with violation of her. This lack of “evidence,” as defined
the reality that who has access, and what that access by the norms of disciplines, has made many who have
looks like, shapes history as much as what the actual written on Jones hesitant to name her and many oth-
archive holds.23 ers in the archive as trans.
In Archive Fever, Jacques Derrida extends the This hesitancy is made apparent in how histori-
effects of the archive’s form on its present access to ans and theorists come to name Jones, even those
its past realities: “The technical structure of the ar- invested in the transness of Jones. For example,
chiving archive also determines the structure of the Nyong’o refers to Jones as Peter Sewally, the name
archivable content even in its very coming into ex- she was given at birth, and addresses her using he/
istence and in its relationship to the future. The him/his pronouns. Nyong’o does this for two rea-
archivization produces as much as it records the sons. The first acknowledges that we do not know
event.”24 This shaping of the “archivable content” how Jones identified. The little knowledge we have
is what propels Hartman’s histories of black women of Jones comes almost exclusively from court records
during slavery and in its afterlife. The enslaved’s social and the press, and she is gendered according to her
and economic position as commodity dictated what state-­recorded gender. Nyong’o’s choice of naming
kinds of records were kept, and thus it structures what follows, though with more generosity to Jones as a
histories can be built from them.25 Hartman’s work trans subject, the standard practice of historical nar-
is a response to those histories narrativized through rative that avoids editorializing beyond the archival
those archival records that then only recommodify record. More crucially, Nyong’o retains the archival
blackness as evidence of slavery’s trauma. The inhu- record’s gendering to emphasize how the press and
manity of the records becomes the inhumanity of the court used Jones’s performance of gender to ensure
history whereby the enslaved are visible only in their the racialization and ungendering of blackness. Work-
deaths. Only court records and newspaper reporting ing within a similar political and theoretical frame-
of Mary Jones are left in the archive. In both, the me- work, Snorton refers to Jones as Mary Jones and uses
dia mark her as at the bounds of the proper and thus she/her/hers pronouns. Snorton also focuses on the
as evidence of black transness’s inferiority — as the intimacy between racialization and gendering in the
abject. There is little of Jones by Jones, except in the story of Jones, but to articulate the ways transness
passing moments she could speak in court. These re- becomes formulated in both. Snorton is pointed in
cords never show her naming herself as trans, for such not wanting to easily construct Jones as a transgen-
language did not exist at the time, and any contem- der historical figure — not because she is not, since
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ing how Jones would have identified, she functions why of it, or, rather, the who of it. Tourmaline is ori-
as vital trans performance at the intersections of ra- enting her film toward black transness. The film is un-
cialization and gendering. That is, Snorton under- invested in the strictures of historical narrative and
stands Jones as an enactment of the fungibility and normative archival practices. Because it is about and
fugitivity of gender for blackness. In part, Snorton for black transness, Salacia can sidestep the tension
and Nyong’o’s turning to Jones is to better enunciate over what the archive does and does not tell us be-
a central thesis of black feminist thought and black cause the archival record is so rarely concerned with
trans theory: “Blackness is gender trouble.”26 the affective and material abundance of abject life.
While Nyong’o and Snorton offer rich and vital Transness is found and even enacted by trans people
readings and histories of Jones, Tourmaline produces in the archive through their use of and movement in
a far different relationship and goal in her naming the archive.
and relation to Jones. She finds the small moments Tourmaline’s archival practice prioritizes the em-
Jones’s voice arrives in the court records, and in the pathetic and personal, enacting her own version of
historical violence whiteness inflicted upon her, as Snorton’s description of “trans”: “ ‘Trans,’ is more
evidence of Jones as a black trans woman, as an an- about a movement with no clear origin and no point
cestor that may be a guide for Tourmaline and others. of arrival.”28 That is, Tourmaline offers us an archival
Tourmaline is consistent and explicit in her introduc- practice of, for, and by black transness. This is a cen-
tion to Salacia at the online screening for the video’s tering and orienting toward and with black transness,
acquisition by the Museum of Modern Art and in the whether it is to tell the stories of violence, the stories
numerous interviews she has done for the film in nam- of joy, or the stories of the mundane. Or it is, as Bey
ing Mary Jones as Mary Jones and as a black trans argues, a bearing witness to how “centering black
woman. Tourmaline sees kinship and intimacy in Mary trans women alters what qualifies as knowledge, or
Jones; she finds a narration of her own trans being in what is deemed ‘the world.’ ”29 The story (the labor)
Jones’s testimony, and even calls what happened to of Salacia is as much a representation of Jones as it is
Jones as an “outing.”27 Tourmaline’s naming of Jones a space for black trans people in the present to per-
is an attempt to validate the historical truth of black form acts of trans visioning and dreaming on and with
trans lives prior to the contemporary —  the past — a making of another world, a filmic version
a rejection of the myth that transness is a modern of Hartman’s critical fabulation. We can see this prac-
invention — as well as the vitalizing energy such a tice enacted in the opening of the film.
naming can produce for the present. What is distinct Salacia opens on a small bowl with a hand lightly
about Tourmaline’s decision, compared to Nyong’o touching its edge. As the camera moves up the body,
and Snorton, is not just its forcefulness but also the it shows the viewer the face of Mary Jones (Rowin

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I SEE IN SALACIA A RADICAL AND GENERATIVE AESTHETIC
ARCHIVAL PRACTICE OF BLACK TRANSNESS THAT NOT
ONLY HOLDS THE FACT OF ARCHIVAL GAPS BUT ALSO
MAKES THOSE GAPS USEFUL AND USABLE

Amone). Throughout this camera movement, Jones, Aesthetically, however, the film’s opening also calls
in a voice-­over narration, quotes a refrain from Vir- attention to the fact of the film having been made.
ginia Hamilton’s children’s book The People Could Fly While Salacia was shot, edited, and screened on
(1985): “They say the people could fly. Say that long video, Tourmaline includes traces of analog filmstrip
ago in Africa, some of the people knew magic. They sprockets at the edge of the film’s frame, along with
would walk on the air like climbing up on a gate. They the bottom edge of another frame of the film (fig. 2).
flew like blackbirds over the fields. Black shiny wings This aesthetic choice appears to undermine the di-
flapping against the blue up there.” Jones’s narration, egetic closedness of the film and the ability to sus-
and Hamilton’s book, recounts the myth of the Flying pend disbelief and fall into the world of the film, thus
Africans, a group of Africans who, on arriving in the acknowledging the artifice of historical narratives. I
Americas and witnessing the horrors of slavery, took see this decision — one that orients the political and
flight and returned home.30 “Flight,” writes Michelle D. aesthetic desires of the entire film — as an aesthetic
Commander of the tale, “is transcendence over one’s practice of critical fabulation toward a fuller and richer
reality — an escape predicated on imagination and envisioning of the possibility and contextuality of
the incessant longing to be free.”31 The Flying Afri- their world. In Hartman’s description of the archive’s
cans offer a balm and an orientation meant to find the violating record is a description of fragmentation.
transcendence of blackness and to solidify the possi- The record of enslaved women that provides the im-
bility and faith in freedom. Put differently, the Flying petus for Hartman’s theorizing of critical fabulation
Africans function as a kind of “freedom dreaming” for exists in pieces that are found here and there. In ren-
Mary Jones.32 The material and magical story of the dering this archival methodology in aesthetic form, I
past becomes a reminder as well as a guide for imag- see in Salacia a radical and generative aesthetic archi-
ining and laboring toward freedom in Jones’s present val practice of black transness that not only holds the
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and usable. In making visible the film, its sprockets, what the broken and the othered know to be held in
and its other frames, Tourmaline aestheticizes her the gaps. This produces not an image of wholeness
film as a piece of analog, tactile media — a piece and or completeness, as that is only possible for those al-
fragment of material evidence of historical black lowed access to the proper status of the human and
transness. the subject; nevertheless, it expands the image into
Salacia’s aesthetic practice of critical fabulation an overflowing abundance that bursts the limits of the
gives generously to those the archive and history frame and history with the intimacy and entanglement
have violated, and it does so through being present of desires of the past, the livedness in the present,
for and with those subjects of the past. This open- and labors for the future. The making of an image
ing sequence enacts what Hartman calls “a mode of of abundance is not just to rehistoricize the past or
close narration, a style which places the voice of the demonstrate the richness of Mary Jones’s life, though
narrator and character in inseparable relation, so that both are vital to the work of Salacia; rather, it is to be-
the vision, language, and rhythms of the wayward gin cultivating a site whereby the broken, those who
shape and arrange the text.”33 It rejects the objective have come undone, can gather and be together for
distance of the historian and embraces the generative each other. This aesthetic of brokenness and the site
tension, connections, relations, and futurity that can of gathering it opens for black transness, as Bey calls
be found in standing with those whose story you wish for, creates a space where the broken can imagine
to tell.34 In making explicit the artifice of the image and cultivate another world together — to enact their
while also attaching that image to the generational dreams of the future.
folktales of black Americans, Tourmaline keeps her Following her arrest, Mary Jones is sent to prison
own voice, the voice of Jones, and the voice of black at Sing Sing. When she arrives in her cell, the frame
life in intimate, conscious, and purposeful relation. It is composed of a full moon in the background and
does so by being present for and with those subjects Jones filling the one and only frame (fig. 4). Being in
of the past, rejecting the objective distance of the a frame within a frame within a frame, she appears
historian and embracing the generative tension, con- small and distant from us. On the right edge of this
nections, relations, and futurity of standing with those smaller frame, we can also see a pulsing red-­orange
whose story you wish to tell. light that looks almost like a flame stretching across,
trying to burn the image or even the film itself. As
Gathering in Brokenness Jones collapses on her thin blanket and damp mound
The work of brokenness I have described thus far fills of hay, she begins to cry, exhausted from her day and
out the image through the piecing together of what terrified of her future. As she cries, a voice is heard
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FIGURE 4.Mary Jones (Rowin Amone) enters her cell dwarfed by the moon and the frame. Tourmaline, Salacia (2019). 16 mm, digital
video, sound. Frame grab. Courtesy of the artist and Chapter NY, New York.

cuts from the night sky to a river shoreline, the sound Unlike the crisply constructed 16mm film and dig-
of lapping waves and seagulls echoes along with the ital images of Mary Jones, this is archival footage
voice, before the video dissolves into a rising sun. The filmed by Randy Wicker in 1992 on the West Village
voice calls out to Mary once more as the background Pier. Rivera was houseless and living on the pier, like
changes to a barnacle-­covered dock post and, in the many queer and trans people before and after her.
center of the video, sits a new frame within a frame of Following the murder of Marsha P. Johnson that same
documentary footage of Sylvia Rivera, the Latina trans year, Rivera returned to New York City for the first
activist, who, with her friend Marsha P. Johnson, was a time since the late 1970s — when she left the city and
central figure of the queer and trans rights movement stopped her organizing work, exhausted from the
of the 1960s and 1970s with radical organizations such endless acts of transphobic violence of the state and
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FIGURE 5. Sylvia Rivera on the West Village Pier. Tourmaline, Salacia (2019). 16 mm, digital video, sound. Frame grab. Courtesy of the
artist and Chapter NY, New York.

Pride Rally in New York City where gays and lesbians In this way, Tourmaline is producing an image that
harassed and booed her as she fought to give her moves across a multitude of aesthetic and historical
speech.35 In the footage and in the voice that Jones and conceptual borders, borders that are meant to be
hears, Rivera reassures her trans sister: “You got to distinct and yet become fluid under her transarchival
keep fighting, girly” (fig. 5). Tourmaline cuts between filmic gaze. More importantly, through her aesthetic
the filmic Jones in her cell and the video Rivera on the of brokenness and the openness and care of the tran-
pier — a linking of the material past reality of Jones sarchival fabulation, she produces a site of radical
and the diegetic future reality of Rivera alongside the gathering for transness to speak and see itself across
present performance of Jones by the actress Rowin time and space. Tourmaline is offering an expan-
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to once more guide and propel trans possibilities; to
give Jones, even in its fiction, an image of what is one “YOU GOT TO KEEP
day possible for transness; and to provide the con-
temporary life of transness the affective and material FIGHTING, GIRLY”
fact of trans freedom dreaming. This is the dream of
the aesthetic of brokenness: this free and safe and
loving realm of being-­with black transness. diacy assumed of phone-­captured video that has be-
Further still, this transarchival gathering in Salacia come an everyday practice of contemporary life — as a
exists across Tourmaline’s filmic and archival work and record of the mundanity of one’s day or as a record of
thus needs to be understood as a black trans aes- protest and state violence.
thetic archival practice. With her film Atlantic Is a Sea This pier, too, becomes a critical site of trans gath-
of Bones (2017), Tourmaline produces an experimen- ering across time. As the films show, it is part of Labei-
tal meditation on the interference of waves that forms ja’s life, it is where Sylvia Rivera was unsheltered in her
the rippling particularities of black trans womanhood. interview seen in Salacia, and it is where the body of
Commissioned by Visual AIDS for their twenty-­eighth Marsha P. Johnson was found after the 1992 Pride Pa-
annual Day With(out) Art exhibition focused on the rade.37 Further still, just four miles south of the West
ongoing AIDS epidemic, Atlantic Is a Sea of Bones Village pier at the mouth of the Hudson River is where
aestheticizes the “energetics and violences that much of Salacia was filmed: Governors Island, where
shape a person’s life and social space, from the trans- Dutch colonizers arrived in 1624, and where two years
atlantic slave trade to HIV criminalization.”36 The film later the Dutch West India Company brought eleven
opens on Egyptt Lebeija, filmed using a vertical enslaved Africans to New Amsterdam. The Hudson
iPhone, looking down on the former West Village River, in black trans affective and archival history, be-
Piers from an office building across the street. Lebeija comes a transtemporal and transspatial site for black
lived on that pier, “in a hut,” when she was unshel- trans life — a churning flow of roiling violence and
tered in the early 1990s. As she looks down on where community, death and survival, pain and joy.
she used to live, she chokes up and reflects: “The The Hudson River as a site of black trans gather-
times of the Village, from Fourteenth Street to Chris- ing offers its own kind of archival accumulation dis-
topher Street. The memories. People should never tinct from the archive fever of normative desire. This
forget where they came from.” This footage, like Rive- accumulation produces the sense of scale and com-
ra’s, is a documented record of a material and actual plexity at hand within this location — it does not flat-
life lived. However, it also holds the sense of imme- ten like the commodity records of enslaved African

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women that reduce them to a singular repeating fig- the livability of life lived otherwise.”43 Like the break-
ure or the way annihilating repetition of trans death ing of time away from linearity, these transarchi-
erases the possibility of trans life.38 Rather, this accu- val aesthetics rupture thought and knowledge into
mulation is an engagement with, and acknowledg- practices of speculation and becoming. The mate-
ment of, the continual returns to this river across time rial aesthetic politics of black trans life arrives via this
for blackness and transness.39 Tourmaline’s lens sees thinking thought and archival giving.
into the Hudson River and opens a space for a
gathering — a crossing the River Jordan to a shared Turning Toward
freedom, as Rivera names it in the video clip included From Rivera’s call to survive, Jones dreams of an es-
in Salacia — that brings together the fictional and cape back to her trans, queer, black community; she
real, the material and the abstract, the lived and the dreams of being held and of holding. Although this
needed. In this way, Tourmaline continues her proj- dream does not come true in the way Tourmaline
ect of building a transarchival form, borrowing from dreams it, for Jones, in this film, Rivera’s mantra and
Nyong’o the “propositional mode of revised histories the fugitive hope it makes imaginable does propel
[that] allows for the retrieval of abandoned practices Jones and prepares her to keep fighting. As the film
and unspoken scenarios.”40 Via Tourmaline’s imag- closes, the image is broken into pieces once more.
inings, we see a filmic answer to Eliza Steinbock’s In the background, Jones curls up and cries as she
question about trans embodiment: “What if trans em- comes to terms with her imprisonment and the im-
bodiment is not primarily about sex or gender, but possibility of escape — this is her life now, or at least,
about experimenting with the aesthetics of corporeal- for now. On the surface of the image, however, the
ity in terms of efficacy and political purchase?”41 enclosed frame of the film has broken down once
Ultimately, what I see occurring in the moment more and opened a site for another emergence.
Mary Jones and Sylvia Rivera connect, as well as A red-­yellow light, like a flame, begins flashing out
within the accumulation on the Hudson via Tour- from the right side of the frame as if it is beginning to
maline’s suturing, is a transtemporal, transarchival burn, or as if the darkness that is needed to expose
touching — a gathering of bodies and affects. The a film was being ruptured by the sudden and feared
transarchival, the aesthetic of brokenness, and the intrusion of light. Something is breaking through the
critical fabulation of black transness come together frame, through the film, through history and time. The
in a “conditional temporality of ‘what could have closed system of the filmic diegesis is deteriorating,
been.’ ”42 This black trans aesthetic enacts thought, allowing for something beyond its narrative to ar-
“where thought,” as Bey puts it, “is a hieroglyphic rive. On top of this collapsing and burning frame of
and radical commitment to concerning oneself with Mary Jones crying appears another Mary Jones, also

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FIGURE 6. Mary Jones (Rowin Amone) superimposed on herself declaring the fact of her being. Tourmaline, Salacia (2019). 16 mm,
digital video, sound. Frame grab. Courtesy of the artist and Chapter NY, New York.

played by Rowin Amone. She too is crying. As this it is this mantra of creativity and survival, a voice of
Jones stares down, she begins whispering, “We can defiance in the face of annihilation that is made most
be anything we want to be” (fig. 6). She repeats this radically present on the surface of the image. Like Ri-
as a chant, a mantra, a vitalizing phrase of commit- vera’s transtemporal call to keep fighting, Jones is de-
ment and purpose. With each repetition, her eyes be- claring the fact of herself in her present time but also
gin moving up from the downcast defeat she began in the continual fact of her as a black trans woman
with before eventually staring defiantly at the camera having been and continuing to be.
with a force and absolutism in her voice as she re- In this final scene of Salacia, Tourmaline explic-
peats one final time, “We can be anything we want itly includes Mary Jones as a history that black trans
to be.” The intrusion I referenced above is the arrival women have, and in having her, they also have a
of Jones upon the image, yes, but more importantly, marker and a guide for imagining new futures from

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gathering, this turning toward itself and away from
“WE CAN BE ANYTHING the view of normativity, is an antagonistic act that re-
jects the latter’s power and centrality. The normative
WE WANT TO BE” is dangerous and powerful, but it has no value out-
side the confines of itself. Instead, a turning toward
has nothing really to do with normativity; rather, it has
the realities of the past. The “we” Jones names is a to do with whom we labor with and for; whom we are
black trans community that is denied and violated for building an active and purposeful community with;
the fact of being. The rupturing of the filmic diegesis and where we want our energy, love, desire, and com-
occurs as the film explicitly turns toward black trans mitment to go. As Tourmaline tells us, “The faggots
women and allows them to speak as they are. The remind us that to become undone is our greatest
speaking of the “we” is a speaking to Jones’s future, gift to ourselves. It is truly our greatest path to be-
so that same future, our present, can listen and even ing response-­able — to feel our feelings authentically
speak back to her. This gathering across time and the makes us able to respond to the conditions around
archive is what pierces the film with a burning light: us with an open heart.”44 The pieces that come
the gathering of black transness with itself so that from being marked as broken are not hindrances but
the future can remember a denied and covered over an opening, an emergence — “in moments of appar-
past, and so that the past can know that a future has ent scarcity, our best defense is to respond with
already been made possible because of, and through, abundance.”45 ■■
them.
This essay has desired many things from Salacia, DAREN FOWLER is an instructor in the School of Film,
Tourmaline, and Mary Jones. It has hoped for a way Media and Theater at Georgia State University. Their re-
for black transness to find and narrate itself in the ar- search examines the aesthetic politics of trans/queer media,
chive without threat and violence — however momen- art, and activism, with particular focus on the material prac-
tary that reprieve may be — as well as a way for it to tices of AIDS activists. Their work has appeared in The Rout-
build and fill its own archive. It has narrated practices ledge Companion to Media and Risk, liquid blackness, and
of intimate togetherness that supports and cares for In Media Res.
black transness. It has imagined transarchival sites of
Notes
gathering and creation so that black transness can
love and survive. Brokenness is a theory, aesthetics, 1  It is unlikely that Jones lived in Seneca Village. Tourmaline is
purposefully connecting the story of Mary Jones, a black trans
and politics of being-­with and being-­for so that these
woman violated by the state, and the story of Seneca Village, a
radical possibilities can be felt, seen, and made. This black community violated by the state.

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2  Hartman, Wayward Lives, xiv – xv. 20  Hartman, “Venus in Two Acts,” 5.

3  Hartman, “Venus in Two Acts,” 11. 21  Tourmaline, “Tourmaline on Transgender Storytelling.”

4  Hartman, “Venus in Two Acts,” xiv. 22  Hartman, Wayward Lives, xiii.

5  Tourmaline, preface, viii. 23  Contemporary knowledge of Sylvia Rivera and Marsha P.
Johnson cannot be solely attributed to Tourmaline, but it is hard
6  My use of “trans care” is in part informed by Hil Malatino’s to overestimate her role in it. Many of the images we have of
book Trans Care, where he asks “How do we care for these both women are easily accessible to the public because Tour-
ghosts that take such care of us?” Malatino’s empathetic ques- maline digitized parts of the archives of NYPL and assisted in
tioning pushes us to take seriously how we connect with and digitizing the personal archives of people like Randy Wicker, a
make use of those that are so vital to us as individual and collec- gay activist who was among the most visible gay people in the
tive trans/queer people (Trans Care, 7). United States before Stonewall with his work at the Mattachine
7  Raha, “Transfeminine Brokenness, Radical Transfeminism,” 632. Society and other early gay rights groups and who eventually
began interviewing important figures in Greenwich Village as well
8  Snorton, Haritaworn, “Trans Necropolitics,” 66. as filming protests and gatherings throughout the Village from
the 1960s through the early 2000s. This act of making easily ac-
9  Raha, “Transfeminine Brokenness, Radical Transfeminism,” 637; cessible materials that were technically already public or public-­
Bey, Black Trans Feminism, 5. adjacent demonstrates facets of the barriers and tensions within
10  I am inspired here by the brilliant work of the liquid blackness the physical and conceptual archive for transness, as well as what
research group and their 2020 event and research project, “Fac- a transarchival practice can look like.
ing the Band: Elissa Blount-­Moorhead and the (Ana)Architectures 24  Derrida, Archive Fever, 17.
of Community Ties” (https://liquidblackness.com/elissa-­blount-­
moorhead-­research-­project), and Michele Prettyman’s interview 25  Hartman, “Venus in Two Acts,” 10.
with Moorhead in issue 6.1 of liquid blackness: journal of aesthet-
ics and black studies, “Doing It, Fluid: Elissa Blount Moorhead 26  Yancy and Gossett, “Black Trans Feminist Thought.”
and the Making of a Moving Image Arts Community.” 27  Tourmaline, “Tourmaline Introduces ‘Salacia’ (2019).”
11  Tourmaline, preface, viii. 28  Snorton, Black on Both Sides, 2.
12  Tourmaline, preface, viii. 29  Bey, Black Trans Feminism, 60.
13  Bey, Black Trans Feminism, 205. 30  Commander, Afro-­Atlantic Flight, 4.
14  Nyong’o, Amalgamation Waltz, 98. 31  Commander, Afro-­Atlantic Flight, 7.
15  Snorton, Black on Both Sides, 63. 32  The term “freedom dreaming” here arrives from two loca-
16  Nyong’o, Amalgamation Waltz, 194n75. tions: first, from Robin D. G. Kelley, where freedom dreaming
is a form of purposeful thought between the present and the
17  Spillers, “Mama’s Baby, Papa’s Maybe,” 68. past — an “effort to recover ideas.” Tourmaline also offers her
own conception of freedom dreaming as an everyday practice of
18  Warren, “Calling into Being,” 269. survival. “Freedom dreams,” writes Tourmaline, “are born when
19  Nyong’o, Amalgamation Waltz, 99. we face harsh conditions not with despair, but with the deep

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knowledge that these conditions will change — that a world filled 44  Tourmaline, preface, viii.
with softness and beauty and care is not only possible, but inev-
itable” (Kelley, Freedom Dreams, xii; Tourmaline, “How to Free- 45  Tourmaline, preface, viii.
dom Dream”).
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