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The Emotional Life of an Actor
K BIR BEDI
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Copyright © Kabir Bedi, 2021
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Dedicated to all young techies,
like my son Siddharth,
and all the young people
who want to change the world for the better,
hoping you fulfil your dreams.
CONTENTS
BEFORE I BEGIN
STORIES I MUST TELL
1 LEAVING HOME WITH THE BEATLES
BOLDNESS AND BETRAYAL
2 CHANCES AND CHOICES KABIR AND
KISHMISH
3 DAYS OF LOVE AND GLORY
SANDOKAN AND PARVEEN BABI
4 REVOLUTION TO RELIGION BABA AND
FREDA
5 RAMBLINGS ON A BEACH BEACHES
AND BELIEFS
6 SAVING MY SON THE WOUNDED
SOUL
7 AGONY AND ECSTASY RUIN AND
RESURRECTION
ICONIC PHOTOGRAPHS AND MAGAZINE
COVERS
FOR THIS BOOK, I THANK
These are stories I must tell. Most
are told, perhaps unusually, through the
prism of people and places I have known
and loved. I tell them as truthfully as I
can, fallible as I am, as interestingly as I
can. They are emotional stories of turbu
lent times. Together, they are the story
of my tumultuous journey as an actor.
It's not easy to write of my life. I have
seen great glory and I tell you how I
got there. I've also made mistakes which
you'd do well to avoid. But remembering
stirs up some memories I had hoped to
leave behind. Yet, the pain and the joy,
the agony and the ecstasy, are insepa
rably woven in my life. So I share them
with you.
I write of the people and events only
related to the stories in this book. I seek
the forgiveness of friends, family and
colleagues not mentioned. I have other
stories that traverse the same eventful
years. You may yet appear in some of
them, for I have more to tell. For now,
forgive me. You are in my heart. But
some I must thank here, even if not in
my stories, for they have enriched my
writing. I thank many more at the end
for making this book a reality.
I must thank my guru from my adver
tising days, Gerson da Cunha; journal
ist, historian and author Andrew White
head; and Italian journalist, author and
friend Carlo Pizzati, for their invaluable
advice on this book.
I must thank my friend Mickey Nivelli,
his wonderful wife Chand, and his guid
ing spirit Lotte, for having helped me in
my time of greatest need. I will never
forget their humanity, nor let it be for
gotten.
I must thank Giampaolo Cutillo, once
Consul General of Italy in Mumbai, for
nominating me for 'Cavaliere', Italy's
highest civilian honour. Also, his beau
tiful wife, Elisabetta Salvatori, a vibrant
part of his life.
I must thank my wife Parveen Dusanj
Bedi for her abiding love. She motivated
me to finish this book after years of frus
trating starts. Her advice is no less than
others. To her, my eternal gratitude.
Bless all of you who wished me success.
Your wishes made much come true.
1
LEAVING HOME
WITH THE BEATLES
BOLDNESS AND BETRAYAL
ferent destiny.
................................................................
I'd made the right deci-
sion, I assured myself, as the train sped
on to Mumbai. But there was a pain in
my heart as I thought of what I'd miss in
Delhi.
I'd miss the smell of the first monsoon
rains on Delhi's dry earth. I'd miss the
eateries discovered by my pal Jiggs Kalra
in the gullies of Jama Masjid. I'd miss
the red flowering Gulmohar trees; the
calm of Lodhi Gardens near my rented
digs; the friends with whom I cycled
seven miles to school, burning summer
or freezing winter. I'd miss my darling
sister Guli, now at Miranda House, and
my fun cousin Mala Lever (then Lall).
I'd miss the rasgullas of Bengali market
and the samosas of Sukhiya outside our
college canteen and my college friends:
S.Y. Quraishi, later India's chief election
commissioner; Shekhar Kapur, director
of Bandit Queen and Elizabeth; and Arjuna
Award winner Randhir Singh Patiala.
Other friends came to mind: Roshan
Seth, Aftab Seth, Wajahat Habibullah,
Shivshankar Menon, Kapil Sibal, Mike
Dalvi, Siddharth ''Chickoo'' Sriram, Ra
jeev Sethi, Awadesh Sinha, Benjamin
Gilani, Siddharth Kak, Ketan Anand,
''Solly'' Solomon, Aroop Roy, Prakash
Mirchandani, and my closest buddies
''Bro'' Vic Adarkar, ''Daddy'' Lalit Sharma
and the brilliant Arif Hussain. I'd miss
my first girlfriend, who will remain
nameless. And I'd miss my philosopher
father, Baba Bedi. Saying farewell to
Delhi was emotional, but it had to be
done. My soul had whispered a very dif
ferent destiny to me.
The Beatles led to my leaving Delhi, and
I chose where to go. But I never imag
ined that the grim-looking city coming
towards me down the tracks would one
day become my springboard to fame as
an international actor.
Kabir in Delhi
On stage as Tughlaq
2
CHANCES AND
CHOICES
KABIRAND KISHMISH
word."
..............................
I couldn't imagine taking back
what I'd said to Protima. It was not my
nature. I believed she deserved to have
a life of her own. She stormed out of
her home after an easily provoked row
with her father. He informed the police
his daughter was ''missing''. In a twist of
fate, he caught her the next day walk
ing along Marine Drive, ordered her into
his car and told her all was forgiven. But
when she told him about me, they had
the mother of all fights. He drove away
swearing at her. Frankly, she didn't give
a damn.
In a tragic twist of fate, Protima's father
was killed in a car crash a few days later.
It unleashed a tsunami of emotions
in her. She wept for days thinking of
their terrible parting. Her grief was com
pounded by her mother, who blamed
her for his death. I felt guilty too; they
had fought about me. But the trauma
of her father's death cemented our rela
tionship. I couldn't think of asking her
to move out in such a fragile emotional
state. I felt duty-bound to shelter her.
She gave up her new flat and moved in
with me. I had a brand-new relationship
on my hands. Unsought and unwanted,
but not entirely unwelcome.
My new relationship created an emo
tional dilemma for me. I had enjoyed
being with Emmy, my American girl
friend, and wasn't ready to give her up
so abruptly. We both knew it was a no
strings affair. Our worlds were too far
apart. She planned to go back to Amer
ica in a year or so, and I was going
to be a filmmaker in India. But we had
grown to be good friends and the sex
was terrific. She was an intelligent and
sensitive soul. I didn't want to lose her. I
wrestled with my conflicting desires for
days. Emmy had shown me an exciting
new world and I didn't want it to dis
appear. Our relationship began through
a chain of events that culminated in
the strangest circumstances. It's a some
what convoluted tale but well worth a
listen:
I began my career in Mumbai at Lin
tas, a multinational advertising agency,
to learn filmmaking and hone my craft
as a director. That's why I'd come to
the city. Janki Gaur, my friend from All
India Radio in Delhi, had recommended
me to his ''good chap'' friend, Gerson
da Cunha, at Lintas. Gerson was a bril
liantly creative ad man, committed to
human and social causes. An intellec
tual giant with a compassionate heart.
I've seen him as an inspirational figure
ever since. He was the creative head of
Lintas and hired me to make ad films. I
must have made a big impression when
we met. He recently told me, perhaps
in jest, ''Three ladies from creative, two
copy writers and an art director, walked
into my room after I saw you. They
said that if Lintas did not hire you, they
would resign.''
I reported to the brilliant and charis
matic Alyque Padamsee, a tall and wiry
man who stood like a question mark. He
had a trademark goatee and loved open
waistcoats. Some of his ad campaigns
had become legendary. But his real pas
sion was theatre. He was a founding
member of Mumbai's famous ''Theatre
Group''. He was delighted to know I had
won the Kendal Cup for Dramatics at
Sherwood, my school in Nainital, acted
in my college years at St. Stephen's,
and performed for theatre doyenne Joy
Michael's Yatrik in Delhi.
Alyque became my guru in the theatre.
He gave me a small role in Peter Weiss'
Marat/Sade (Fully, its title is the longest
in the history of theatre: The Persecu
tion and Assassination of Jean-Paul Marat
as Performed by the Inmates of the Asy
lum of Charenton Under the Direction of the
Marquis de Sade). It was set in a lunatic
asylum during the French Revolution.
Gerson played the sadistic Marquis de
Sade; Alyque played the revolutionary
Jean-Paul Marat. I was a madman who
went on a rampage at the end of the
play, scaling the nets and terrifying au
diences in the balconies of St. Xavier's
college. My brief outburst impressed
Alyque enough to cast me in as the lead
in his next play.
During the rehearsals of Marat/Sade, I
got to know Mumbai's theatre elite. The
Padamsee family were theatre royalty.
Alyque was married to Pearl, another
great theatre director. Raell, their daugh
ter, went on to become a famous pro
ducer and director too; Ranjit Chowdhry,
Pearl's son, was a well-known actor.
During the rehearsals, I introduced
Alyque to Dolly Thakore, a talented ac
tress I'd known from my Delhi days. He
fell in love with her and eventually mar
ried her. Quasar Padamsee, their son, is
a brilliant and innovative theatre direc
tor today. In jest I say, ''he has a lot to
thank me for''. But let me get on with the
real story.
Sabira Merchant, a star actress of the
Theatre Group, invited me home for a
party. I was introduced to Karishma,
an attractive jazz singer, whose name
I have changed. We got talking and
danced into the early hours. I don't
know what bravado propelled me to
drink more than I could handle. I've
never been a heavy drinker-if anything,
I'm bit of a lightweight. I soon passed
out cold. I awoke the next morning with
a pounding head, on an unfamiliar bed
in an unknown house, wondering how I
got there. I looked down to check if my
jeans were still zipped. They were. Still
mystified, I opened the door and walked
into an old-fashioned sitting room.
Karishma appeared from nowhere with
a cheery, ''Oh hi! Are you okay?''
She was beautiful in an Indian way. A
brownish complexion, dark eyes, a face
with soft cheekbones. Her lips had a
naughty twist at the ends.
''Why am I here?'' I asked, happy to see
her again.
''You drank too much. Nobody knew
where you lived, so I brought you home.''
I was mortified. How would I face
Sabira? And Alyque? And Gerson? Oh
God! I'd made a real tit of myself.
''I'm so sorry,'' I mumbled, embarrassed.
''Oh, don't worry," she said with a
laugh. ''I'll get you some breakfast. But
you'll have to leave right after that. My
boyfriend is coming.''
Boyfriend? Who was he? Why wasn't he
at the party?
Over breakfast, Karishma told me of
her affair with Brad, an American diplo
mat in his thirties, whose name I have
changed. He was also acting as an
''extra'' in the Merchant-Ivory film, The
Guru, being shot in the city at the time. A
strange role for a diplomat, I pointed out.
''Brad wants to experience his creative
side," Karishma explained admiringly.
She wanted to go to his next shooting
location. But Brad's wife was going to
be there. A married man, I realised. Kar
ishma suddenly came up with an idea.
''Why don't you come along to the shoot
ing as my 'boyfriend'?''
''Great idea!'' I said enthusiastically. All
film buffs knew the films made by
producer Ismail Merchant and director
James Ivory. The Householder and Shake
speare-Wallah, starring the stunningly
handsome Shashi Kapoor, had wowed
the art-film world in the 1960s. The Guru
also starred Shashi, along with Michael
York, Rita Tushingham, Saeed Jaffrey,
Utpal Dutt and Aparna Sen. It would be a
treat to watch those great actors at work.
Films shot in exotic settings are notori
ous for the romances they breed. The lo
cation of the film that night was the tow
ering Mahalaxmi Temple. It had a wide
angle view of the Arabian Sea glittering
in the moonlight. The Haji Ali mosque
looked like a surreal island in the bay. It
was a breath-taking setting.
Karishma spotted Brad the moment we
walked onto ''the set''.
''That's him," she squealed excitedly.
He was sitting cross-legged among a
group of westerners in Indian kurtas.
James Ivory was rearranging the for
eign ''extras'', as Junior Artists were then
called, in front of the Guru, played by
Nana Palsiker. A blaze of arc lights shone
down on them. Karishma had eyes only
for Brad. I looked around but none of the
actors I'd hoped to see were there. I no
ticed a foreign girl chatting with the film
crew in the distance. She had the air of
an actress. Her laugh was louder than
suggested by her slender figure. She was
perched on a folding chair in a dress
as yellow as daffodils, oblivious of the
spectators held back by the ropes behind
her.
James Ivory called ''Cut'' and Brad came
to meet us. He was a good-looking man
with a pale face, wavy brown hair and
round glasses. Karishma shook his hand
a bit too formally and introduced me.
''This is my lovely Kabir," she said with
a naughty smile, loud enough for Brad's
wife to hear as he turned to welcome
her.
''Please meet my wife, Emmy," said Brad
cheerfully. It was the girl in the yellow
dress.
''Emmy, this is Kabir, and his girlfriend,
Karishma.''
Emmy shook my hand with a warmth
that felt sexy. I was puzzled: Why would
Brad be having affairs when he had
a wife as attractive as her? Between
Karishma's excited banter and Emmy's
laughter, the evening passed like the
warm breeze of the Arabian Sea. I could
see Emmy was more than curious about
me, a glance too many told me so. I was
sure she'd clocked my interest too. It
was the portent of things to come.
Brad took me to meet Ismail Merchant.
His films were directed by James Ivory,
known as ''his domestic as well as
professional partner'', and scripted by
Ruth Prawar Jhabwala, a German-born
British American. They were an interna
tionally respected team of filmmakers.
They made the best ''cross-over'' films
of the 1960s, taking Indian stories in
English to the West. Shakespeare-Wallah
had been inspired by the life of Geoffrey
Kendal, an Englishman who had trav
elled to schools across India perform
ing Shakespeare. It was a story close to
their hearts. Shashi Kapoor had been a
member of Kendal's troupe and married
Kendal's daughter, Jennifer. His other
daughter, Felicity Kendal, was now the
heroine of The Guru.
Ismail greeted me warmly, but his mind
was on the problems of director James
Ivory. I watched them in action for a
while before drifting away. It was the
first of my many meetings with Ismail
across the world.
A few days later, Brad invited Karishma
to a party at Gorai, a palm-fringed beach
on the northern reaches of Mumbai.
Emmy was going to be there, so Kar
ishma asked me to come. I couldn't wait.
The party overflowed with drunken Brits
and Americans ambling around a huge
''shack'' on the beach. Brad and Kar
ishma wandered off to the beach in the
darkness of the night. I found Emmy
at the edge of the garden, sitting on
a mat by herself, lost in thought. Her
curly brown hair was pulled into a pony
tail over her floral sarong. Her blue eyes
sparkled to life as she saw me coming. I
greeted her with a kiss on the cheek and
settled down beside her.
An unmistakable chemistry buzzed in
the air as we got to know each other. She
was ''an average New York Jewish girl''
who graduated from an elite American
college. She'd known Brad since their
college days and married soon after. She
was seven years older than me.
''We had a great honeymoon and a few
good years," she said casually. ''Then ev
erything went downhill.'' I was stunned.
Was she giving me permission to make a
move? With barely a pause, she dropped
another bomb.
''You're not really Karishma's boyfriend,
are you?''
''What makes you say that?''
''Brad and I had a talk. He told me every
thing.''
''What's everything?''
Emmy suppressed a giggle. ''Do I have
to tell you he's having a scene with Kar
ishma?''
''And ... you're okay with that?''
''I'm fine with it. It sets me free too."
Whoa! Another invitation? She looked at
me directly and asked. ''Are you mar
ried?''
The thought of an affair with her excited
me.
''No, I'm single. And ready to mingle." I
wished I'd said something more original.
Ad men like to be creative. But it's all
that came to mind.
''You can think of me as single too,'' she
said with a twinkle in her eye.
We began our affair beneath the palms
of Gorai beach. We met a couple of
times a week at her home. At first,
when Brad was at work. Soon, even that
veil was lifted. There were times when
Brad and Karishma, Emmy and I would
be together in their drawing room, chat
ting and drinking happily, then go off
to different bedrooms. It wasn't always
peaceful. When Brad had to leave with
Emmy for official functions, Karishma
would throw a high-decibel tantrum.
She once threatened to trash the house.
I was asked to stay back to keep her
in check. But she locked herself in the
bathroom and defaced it with her lip
stick. It was a whole new world for a
middle-class boy from Delhi.
Now, I had Protima in my life. I decided I
wanted an honest relationship with her.
I ended the relationship with Emmy re
luctantly. Saying goodbye wasn't easy.
She ''understood'' why I wanted to begin
a new life though not without tears. Our
affair had to end one day. And, for me,
the time had come. But it saddened me
for a while.
Then, I fell completely in love with
Protima. I started calling her ''Kish
mish'' (raisins), ''Kish'' for short, as she
was ''sweet, dark and juicy''. ''Kish''
sometimes became ''Kidoo''. When she
was exuberant, I called her ''tiger''. She
would dance around, singing ''Kiddoo
ti-ger, Kidoo ti-ger'', stretching out the
''tiger''. She was a boisterous extrovert; I
was a shy introvert. It made her all the
more attractive for me. Not many peo
ple realise how shy I am. I' m not afraid
of acting on stage or speaking to a sta
dium of 5,000 people. But at times I'm
tongue-tied in a room full of people. If
I find someone interesting, I won't go
explore the others. I'm never sure that
what I'm thinking will interest them and
vice-versa. Some call me the ''strong and
silent type'', though there's an ocean of
thoughts swirling in my head. Protima
was my saviour. She was always the
life of the party and saved me from the
small talk I disliked. She remembered,
or invented, a joke for every moment. I
loved her effervescent aplomb.
Things were going well professionally
too. At Bensons, I was at my creative
best. My Liberty Shirts ad, with Pro
tima and the supermodels in Juhu, had
been loved. Clients loved my launch film
for Bru Instant Coffee. All praised my
sparkling film for Yera Glass. My radio
spot for Trinca Rubia Voile, with music
by the then unknown Jagjit Singh, won
an Asian Award. Though I was work
ing at Bensons, I was picked by other
agencies as a model for big advertising
campaigns. I was the ubiquitous face of
ITC's newest cigarette brand, Wills Fil
ter Kings, with a risque slogan, ''Start a
long affair''. Liberty Shirts put me on bill
boards across India. I became the man
in Thackersey Suiting, a big brand at the
time. Zeenat Aman and I did a beautiful
ad film for Cinthol. I was soon hailed as
India's most famous male model. (Years
later, Dhirubhai Ambani made me the
ubiquitous face of his Vimal Shirting
campaign for Reliance.) Protima and I
became well-known in Mumbai ''soci
ety''. We moved from my ''paying guest''
digs into a stylish one-bedroom flat in
''Bayview'' on Malabar Hill with an ex
pansive view of the city.
Protima's vivacious nature lit up my
life. Getting used to each other's pecu
liarities, tics and rhythms, moods and
temperaments wasn't as hard as I'd
imagined. But living together was rare in
India of the 1960s. People started gossip
ing about us. Protima was thrilled when
society magazines headlined our ''Living
Together without Being Married''. She
loved publicity with a passion. I was
also carried away by the excitement of it
all. It felt deliciously rebellious. We felt
we were heralding a new era of permis
siveness. When people talked to Protima
about security, she'd say, ''Security is for
fearful people, for the old-fashioned and
conventional." We loved the unconven
tionality of our unmarried coexistence.
And I was madly in love.
My joy started unravelling two months
after we moved into ''Bayview'' with the
''Homji Drama''. I worked long hours at
Bensons while Protima planned to open
a boutique of Gujarati mirror-work fab
rics. She wore them on her blouses and
Indian ghagra skirts, even decorated the
house with them. Early one morning,
she announced she was going to Bhav
nagar in Gujarat to buy mirror-work for
her planned boutique. The suddenness
of her announcement surprised me, but
I didn't say anything. Something didn't
feel right as she left for the airport that
afternoon. Instinctively, I called Homji's
office. By then, she'd told me all about
their past affair. He was out of town.
When did he leave? Yesterday. It was
too much of a coincidence, and I saw
red. Cancelling my appointments for the
day, I raced to the airport and caught the
afternoon flight to Bhavnagar. I had no
idea where Protima was staying, or how
I'd find her. I didn't care. I was on fire. I'd
find a way.
As the plane came to a halt at Bhavna
gar airport, I looked out the window. It
was a small airport, very basic in those
days. Arriving passengers had to walk
past the departing ones who stood at
the end of the tarmac. I looked a little
more closely and got a massive shock.
Protima was standing alongside the pas
sengers waiting to board. Homji stood
arm in arm with her, his silver hair ruf
fling in the wind. My stomach turned
and my anger flared. She had cheated
on me! She'd gone back to her old lover!
I waited till the last passenger got off
and emerged suddenly from the plane. I
charged across the tarmac towards Pro
tima. Her eyes widened in horror as
she saw me coming towards her. She
scuttled back towards the airport tower
while Homji scooted sideways. I ran
after her through the airport to the road
outside. She scrambled into an autorick
shaw, but I pulled her out. She looked
at me with the bulbous eyes of a caught
rabbit, breathing hard.
''What the hell are you doing?'' I yelled
as she quaked.
A crowd started to gather, curious to see
what was happening. It was time to get
away. I hadn't checked-in any bags. I
grabbed a taxi to her hotel which looked
like an old haveli. She kept saying she
had only gone to see off Homji but I
didn't buy it. We went up to her room,
ignoring the bewildered receptionist.
She collapsed onto a carved four-poster
bed and began to cry. My anger reached
boiling point.
''Stop this bullshit," I yelled. ''Enough of
your bloody drama!''
Tears flowed down her cheeks, smudg
ing her face with mascara. Her crying
grew louder, her chest started heaving
and she started wailing. It reached such
a crescendo I feared the hotel would
call the police. I found myself calming
her down, even though I was seething.
By the end, I was utterly drained. I was
deeply wounded in my soul. I wanted to
cry but my macho pride prevented me.
I didn't want to show weakness. I was
going to end our relationship. But first, I
wanted to know why she'd done it.
''You won't understand' '' she said in a
faint voice.
''Of course not! Make me understand
why you sleep with a wrinkled old prune
when you have me in your life?''
She shook her head and sighed. ''I
can't ..."
''Give it a try," I said. ''I'd really like to
know.''
''Homji is an old friend. There's no sex
really.''
''No sex?!'' I sneered. ''Not even on a cosy
four-poster bed?''
''That was in the past. He's too old for
that. He's a sweet old man.''
''What a consolation!'' I snapped sarcas
tically. ''You come to Bhavnagar with a
man who has been humping you for
years because he's a sweet old man."
Protima's watery eyes fixed on me. ''Do
you know what Homji did for me?''
''He seduced you and banged you. That's
what you told me."
She winced but stood her ground. ''He
gave me self-respect."
''And I didn't? What the hell is that sup
posed to mean?''
She looked defiant, took a deep breath
and spoke haltingly through her tears.
She told me how she'd been mocked for
being the ''ugly duckling'' in her family,
''fat lips, bug eyes, wide nose, dark skin''.
They said no one would marry her. Then
she went to college, grew boobs and
boys suddenly liked her. She told me of
her many boyfriends.
''But boys were, you know ... boys. Homji
flattered me and made me feel impor-
tant. I liked being wanted by a gentle
man. He was kind. I slept with him be
cause I liked him. He taught me many
th.1ngs ...''
''Cut all that crap," I said angrily. ''That
was long ago. Why are you still seeing
him? Is it for money?''
She shook her head, but the air went
out of her body. ''I don't know why I did
it ... I was a fool ... I'm sorry."
''Oh, you will be," I growled. ''Very bloody
sorry!''
''I know I made a big mistake. But ... I
love you."
''You have a bloody funny way of show
ing it. I've had enough of you.''
I told her what I thought of her in
unprintable language. Copious tears of
remorse flowed down her face. I was ex
hausted by the time I lay down to sleep,
emotionally drained, still fully dressed.
I rose at dawn the next morning. Trees
were radiating the chirping of birds as I
walked down to the garden below me.
''What's it all about, man?'' I asked
myself. ''Is loving someone so difficult?
Why would she throw everything out
the window for a clown like Homji?''
I calmed my mind as I communed with
the trees. In times of trouble, nature
is always my refuge. As I collected my
thoughts, I sensed a feeling I tried to
resist. But it persisted. I still loved her.
Could we begin afresh? No, that was im
possible!
The songs of birds sounded like di
vine melodies in the dawn that fil
tered through the trees. I thought more
deeply about my conflicting feeling. It
was a painful process. Though reluctant
at first, I finally made a decision. I would
forgive Protima, because I still loved her.
In retrospect, perhaps it was naive of
me. But I didn't want to lose the joy
she had brought into my life. I wasn't
going to allow an old fart to ruin our
happiness. It was my first live-in rela
tionship, and I didn't want it to end so
ingloriously. Protima broke into tears of
joy when I told her. She'd feared it was
over. She told me she loved me more
than ever. I was filled with silent joy.
On her return to Mumbai, innovative as
ever, she sold her consignment of mir
ror-work by stringing them up outside
the Jehangir Art Gallery, the centre of art
in Mumbai.
Our relationship found its boisterous
groove again. I remember the day I re
turned from work and found I'd lost my
wallet. It upset me greatly, I'd just made
a big cash withdrawal. I didn't realise I'd
dropped it as I stepped out of my car.
A watchman had found it, took all the
money and threw the wallet down the
hill. It landed on the roof of a building
below us. A good Samaritan picked it up,
saw my card and called me. I picked up
the wallet, all the money gone, and fig
ured out what had happened.
''Leave the rest to me," yelled Protima.
''I'll get back your money too!''
She called all the watchmen, seated
them in a circle and unwrapped the wal
let from a hanky with care.
''Whoever took our money," she said
sternly, ''is almost as good as dead. Your
fingerprints are all over this butwa. If
the money isn't returned by tomorrow,
we're going to the police with THIS.''
She waved the wallet in front of their
awed faces. Next morning, my money
came back in an envelope stuck to the
door. Protima couldn't stop singing and
dancing at having been so clever.
''Kidoo ti-ger! Kidoo ti-ger!! Kidoo ti
ger!!!''
I joined in the dance as she sang on with
abandon.
My joy was soon to be shattered. I re
turned exhausted from work one day
and made myself a cup of tea. Protima
came out of the bedroom, dressed im
maculately, with perfect make-up, and
gave me a big kiss.
''Where are you going?'' I asked.
''Nowhere," she replied smiling. ''Unless
you want to take me somewhere.''
''Not today, Kish. I'm whacked."
''Let's sit and chat then," she laughed as
she led me to the sitting room.
I sat down beside her, wondering what
she had in mind. I sensed something
strange was afoot. But the announce
ment she made knocked the wind out of
me.
''I'm pregnant," she said, watching my
reaction closely.
Was she serious? How could it have
happened? I reacted angrily, raising my
voice sharply. ''Didn't you say you were
taking the Pill?''
She flatly denied it. Had I imagined it?
No, I knew she was lying. But it wasn't
the time to fight over who was to blame.
We were in a crisis that had to be
resolved. We were far too young to be
having children. I was twenty-three, she
was just nineteen. There were things to
do, places to go, adventures to be ex
perienced. We'd be losing the freedoms
of youth while there were worlds to dis
cover.
''Guess we'll have to have an abortion," I
suggested gently.
She looked at me as if I was an alien. Her
reaction unsettled me.
''I'm having the baby," she said firmly.
Another blow to the solar plexus.
''You can't decide just like that for both
of us,'' I protested.
''Well, I'm having the baby. I won't kill a
child of mine.''
''What if I don't want a child now?'' I said
indignantly. ''We can always have one
later, can't we?''
''No," she said stubbornly. ''I'm going to
have the baby." She saw how upset I was
and softened her tone. ''Don't worry. I'll
take care of the child. You don't have to
marry me."
She was forcing me to accept her deci
sion. It infuriated me.
''What if I leave you?'' I said, raising my
voice in threat.
''That's for you to decide,'' she said, un
moved. ''I know what I'm going to do.
I'm having the baby."
I stormed off and drove aimlessly
around Marine Drive. It was her bloody
mistake! She'd said she'd take care of
birth control. Didn't I have the right
to decide whether I wanted a child or
not? Then it struck me: maybe it wasn't
a mistake. Perhaps it was deliberate. I
knew she could be devious as hell. Was
this her way of forcing me into mar
riage? She'd said she didn't want to be
married but, despite her bravado, I knew
she did. I raged against her as I drove
through the welter of traffic, cursing the
day I met her. What was I to do? Ac
cept the baby or walk away? Leave her
or stay? How would it look to my bosses
and colleagues at work if I abandoned a
girl who I'd made pregnant? Wouldn't it
be manna for the magazines that gos
siped about us? What would our friends
say? Whose side would they take? And
what did I really want? Did I still love
her?
My feelings were in turmoil for days. If
I wanted Protima in my life, I'd have to
accept the child. And if we had a child,
we'd have to get married. For all our
bohemian beliefs, I knew that a child
born to unmarried parents would have
a tough time growing up in India of the
1960s. At the heart of it was the same
question I'd asked myself in Bhavnagar.
Did I love Protima enough to accept what
she had done? It came more reluctantly
this time, but the answer was still yes.
I loved her. With the wisdom of today,
I would have walked away then. I was
being manipulated by a clever woman,
as I had been from the beginning. But I
wanted to do the right thing. It's what
my parents had taught me.
I hadn't always done the right thing
though. I finally told my girlfriend in
Delhi the truth. I was marrying Protima
because she was pregnant. I'm sure she
suspected our relationship was fraying.
My calls and letters had been few and far
between. I was her first love, as she was
mine, and it must have hurt her deeply. I
felt terrible. But my life was in emotional
upheaval, and I had to put it in order. My
guilt haunted me for months. My first
love was a wonderful, creative, loving
soul who deserved more devotion from
me. Perhaps she would have been better
for me. Yet I failed her in every way.
Protima and I married when she was
two months pregnant. I couldn't afford
a big wedding, so we kept it simple. No
body got an invitation. Friends received
a small ''intimation card'', designed by
me, on handmade ochre paper:
We married this day, October 14,
1969. It was a simple Buddhist cer
emony; just chanting and incense.
There will be no reception, no
presents, no damn dowry. Just register
your shock/disapproval/ joy the next
time you see us.
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know the price I paid for being an im-
pulsively emotional man.
Partings are always painful, no matter
what the reasons. Parveen returned to
Bollywood, and I set my sights on Holly
wood. It was time to conquer the world. I
had freedom, money and European star
dom. I needed an American film to get
into Hollywood. But in the 1970s, they
weren't writing roles for Indians. Since
my looks were not typically Indian, I told
my agent at William Morris to cast the
net wider. I was willing to play any na
tionality that looked ''foreign'' to Holly
wood eyes. I was soon cast in The Thief
of Baghdad, a film for American NBC
with Roddy McDowall as the ''Thief'' and
me as the ''Prince''. Ironically, I'd played
the same role in India with Shatrughan
Sinha as the ''Thief''. Sha tru is one of the
most charismatic people I know. I've al
ways admired him immensely.
With that start, I moved from London to
Beverly Hills and bought myself a Mer
cedes 280 SE. It didn't impress anyone
who mattered in the business. I hired
Rogers and Cowan, the most powerful
PR agency, paying a hefty fee. It got me
a mention and a half. ''Bachelor of the
Month'' in Cosmo magazine and the odd
gossip column. I remained a nobody in
Tinseltown. Hollywood is the most insu
lar place in the world. It's three thou
sand miles away from New York, the
nearest city they consider important. It's
a fortress of studio executives who guard
it behind impenetrable barriers. It has
a rigid caste system of meeting, din-
ing and socialising, with wannabe actors
being the lowest of the low. Except for
the biggest stars, actors have to audition
for every role, no matter how good their
past performances. Hollywood was of
fering me peanuts while I was a king in
Italy. Luckily, I managed to land a bigger
American film through a Swiss producer
who had seen my success in Europe.
In 1978, I starred with Michael Caine
in Ashanti. It had a great interna
tional cast: Peter Ustinov, Omar Sharif,
Rex Harrison, William Holden, Beverly
Johnson. But the story of Ashanti be
longed to Michael, Beverly and me. It
could have been my breakthrough film
in Hollywood. Tragically, its launch was
subdued after Georges-Alain Vuille, its
mercurial producer, had a fight with
his distributors at Warners. The conse
quences were terrible. Given a small US
theatrical release, it made no money. It
was a painful setback for me, though
it fared well around the world. Alas, it
didn't rate in Hollywood which mattered
the most.
After returning to Bollywood, Parveen
began a relationship with my friend Ma
hesh Bhatt. He was the best man she
could have chosen. He was deeply in
terested in philosophy and psychology.
He had been a follower of Guru Osho,
who taught dynamic meditation and
talked of awakening the energy centres
of the body. Then, he moved on to
U.G. Krishnamurti, a guru with a razor
sharp nihilistic mind, who he adored.
Mahesh understood Parveen's condition
better than anyone around her. He was
with her when she was hit by the
worst of attacks. By the middle of 1979,
Parveen had signed over thirty films.
Her problems only grew worse as she
shot for them. In her biography, Parueen
Babi, Karishma Upadhayay said, ''One
of the first publications to write about
Parveen's mental illness was Stardust.
The 'Scoop of the Month' for its Decem
ber 1979 issue declared that 'Parveen
Babi had cracked up'." The article said
our break-up had ''left Parveen in a
dizzying vacuum. She was like an ob
ject hurtling aimlessly through space."
Parveen's world had fallen apart, and I
was portrayed as the villain. Karishma
described it well: ''The narrative spun by
the magazine portrayed Parveen as 'a
girl with a broken heart' and supported
the idea that 'being unlucky in love'
pushed her over the edge. This is, in
fact, what most people in Bollywood still
believe.''
Terrible things were written about me.
It wasn't a fair perception. Truth is, she
was the one who left me and refused to
let me help her. I chose to keep silent
at the time. What the Indian magazines
said didn't affect me, I was living abroad,
and I knew she needed the sympathy.
Parveen was rebuilding her career in
Bollywood. I finally spoke out five years
later in an interview with Uma Keni of
Stardust in 1982. I said what I'm saying
here: I didn't ditch Parveen and didn't
cause her breakdown. But I'm glad she
resurrected her career.
Tragically, Parveen was totally alone at
the height of her glory as a star. Pro
ducers panicked as she cancelled shoot
ings or suddenly left the sets. She had to
be taken out of Mumbai as she couldn't
cope. Mahesh took her for healing to his
guru in Bangalore. U.G. advised him to
leave Parveen.
''She needs to leave the film industry,"
he told him. ''You represent films."
Mahesh left Parveen with his trusted
guru. She listened to U.G. and finally
saw the best doctor in Bangalore, even
took her medicines. Then began a series
of travels with U.G. and his companion
Valentine. They took her to Kodaikanal,
where she recovered for a while. Then
she relapsed with a vengeance. It was
an ongoing see-saw of recoveries and
breakdowns.
After six months, in a period of clarity,
she returned to Mumbai in December
1979. She started shooting in Bollywood
once again. Mahesh started seeing her
again secretly. In the end, she gave him
an impossible choice: his guru or her.
That ended it for him. He knew he
couldn't do any more.
I must have called after she broke up
with Mahesh, though I don't remember
it. But she wrote to me on 25 November
1980 saying: ''After a long silence it was
nice to hear a uoice that touches. The worst
is ouer. Clarity reigns again. So much has
been added to that which is me and so nat-
urally. Fears and insecurities seem to have
vanished ... You might be happy to know
that there is still the joy of life throbbing
within me." I was glad she was sound
ing normal again, though I knew it was
a slippery slope. I just wanted her to be
happy.
Happiness came into my life again when
I met Persis Khambatta in Hollywood.
I'd known her from our modelling days
in Mumbai. Her striking beauty had won
her the Femina Miss India contest when
she was just sixteen. She'd done two
small roles in English films before com
ing to Hollywood. When I met her again,
a few months before Ashanti, she was
shooting for her most famous role: Lieu
tenant Ilia in Star Trek: The Motion Picture.
She was bald as a Buddhist monk for the
part. Her baldness didn't diminish her
beauty. It made her even more stunning.
We bonded as two Indians in Hollywood,
comforted by the familiarity of Indian
ness far from home. All the same, we
were very different people. Whenever I
am attracted to a woman, I see only
the good in her. I never see the tell-tale
signs, which are always there, that bring
it down in the end. She was a kind and
sweet girl but I soon realised we were
not meant for each other. Our relation-
ship ended on my return from Ashanti,
yet we stayed in touch. Twenty years
later, I attended her funeral at the Parsi
Tower of Silence in Mumbai when she
tragically passed away at fifty.
Once again, not learning from my past,
I lit a romantic fire amid the embers
of the old. On the day it ended with
Persis, I met the woman who became
my next wife. Ixchel Leigh, then called
Susan, was a down-to-earth person. I
was done with divas. Ixchel was an at
tractive American girl with wavy brown
hair and blue eyes that creased when
she smiled. Ixchel's spiritual curiosity
grew with time and, after studying with
the best masters, she became an au
thority on essential aromatic oils. Today,
she sells the best of them on artisanpar
fums.com. Gossip mags in India said I'd
married her for a green card in America.
That wasn't true at all. It was a rumour
spread by someone envious. If I was
a man who calculated his marriages,
I would have found a rich American
girl. Ixchel wasn't a fancy Hollywood
babe; she was a policeman's daughter.
We married in 1979 at the Self Realisa
tion Fellowship, founded by the Indian
Yogi Paramhansa Yogananda, on Sunset
Boulevard. We were wedded around its
lake of blossoming lotus in a ceremony
we wrote for ourselves. In 1981, our son
Adam was born, fair as his mother, with
the same wavy brown hair. His eyes
were so blue that strangers stopped us
in streets. I adored him madly. Ixchel
was a great mother, and I loved her for
it. She was also wonderful to Pooja and
Siddharth when they came for their va
cations. But being married to an actor
couldn't have been easy for her. Films
are a very different world. Its insecurity
bites hard.
Hollywood finally cast me as an Indian
in the James Bond film Octopussy. A vil
lainous role that had me fighting Roger
Moore all through the film. It was the
first time an Indian actor had been cast
in a major role in a Bond film. Bond
films are the oldest film franchise in
the world and one of the most success
ful. Their classy mixture of guns, girls,
glamour and gadgets has billions of fans
worldwide. Producer Cubby Broccoli, his
daughter Barbara and stepson Michael
Wilson, spared no expense to keep Bond
flying high. My climax scene atop a
plane with Roger Moore was filmed on
three continents. The plane taking off
was shot in Udaipur, our fight on top of
it was in a studio in London, and me
plunging from the plane was a skydiver
in America. That's why Bond films are
always so slick.
Among the best perks of starring in
a Bond film, I met Prince Charles and
Princess Diana in 1983 at the premiere
of Octopussy in London. The stars of the
film stood, side by side, in line to greet
the royals in the foyer. I remember the
meeting with a wry smile. Prince Charles
shook my hand, and I told him I came
from India.
''Oh, India!'' he said in surprise. ''I have
fond memories of Jaipur ..."
I didn't hear what else he was saying.
I felt my left hand being pulled away
by Princess Diana, who dazzled me with
her smile. I was in a fix. Should I listen
to the Prince and ignore the Princess?
Or talk to the Princess and cut short
the Prince? Prince Charles saw my con
fusion. He glanced sharply at Diana
and quickly walked past me, obliging
her to follow him closely. I later met
Prince Charles twice, but never again the
legendary Diana. I've always admired
Charles, yet Diana had a radiance I'll
never forget.
Another interesting footnote: The stars
of Bond films are dispatched to different
continents to promote it. Roger Moore
and Maud Adams toured America and
Europe, while I was sent to South Amer
ica with two of the Bond girls. In Rio de
Janerio, I met Ronnie Biggs, legendary
for the Great Train Robbery of 1963 in
England. He'd been living as a fugitive
from British law in Rio for almost two
decades. Ronnie showed me a tourist T
shirt emblazoned with the words ''Rio! A
Great Place to Escape to!'' with a naughty
smile. Then he pulled out a felt pen and
wrote below it, ''Even for The Thief of
Baghdad!'' my first Hollywood film, and
signed it with a grand flourish: ''Ronnie
Biggs''. I've kept the T-shirt safely since
1983.
That year I heard disturbing news of
Parveen. She had arrived in New York
and created a scene at Immigration.
They handcuffed her and sent her to
an institution for mental health. I'm
told doctors diagnosed her as a manic
depressive. Mahesh asked U.G. Krishna
murti, who now lived in America, to
rescue her. Mahesh was determined to
help Parveen when she was in trou
ble abroad. He was grateful to her for
being beside him when his career was
in shambles in India. After U.G. had her
released, I learnt later, she spent many
years with him and Valentine in Hous
ton. At the time, I wondered how she
would fare in America with her fragile
mind. I had feared her journey would be
tough.
It wasn't an easy time for me either. For
all the glory of battling Bond on planes,
my career went into a tailspin for years
after 1984. I played a string of guest roles
in eleven American television series like
Dynasty with Joan Collins, Knight Rider
with David Hasselhoff and Murder She
Wrote with Angela Lansbury. Some had
substantial parts: the daytime series One
Life to Liue, the mini-series On Wings of
Eagles with Burt Lancaster and the comi
cal The Days and Nights of Molly Dodd with
Blair Brown. But it didn't add up to a
hill of beans compared to the heights I'd
imagined.
By 1988, my marriage with Ixchel had
also fallen apart. She had many won
derful traits. Yet, whatever the reasons,
the chemistry had gone. We couldn't
communicate anymore; we just weren't
happy as a couple any longer. And I was
unfaithful. But that's a story for another
time. In short, I went through the pain
of another divorce. We reached an agree
ment on alimony for her and child sup
port for Adam. I looked to other women
for solace. One was too clingy, one too
needy. One of them was deeply spiritual
and remains a friend even today. For all
the fleeting joys, nothing filled the void
within me or took away my fear of fail
ure. Personally, and professionally, my
life was a mess. I asked the universe to
show me the way out.
The answer came soon enough. In Feb
ruary 1988, I was shooting in Hawaii
with Tom Selleck for Magnum P.I. when
the phone trilled in my hotel room. The
sun was setting in Honolulu and the sea
was flecked with gold as I answered.
It was Rakesh Roshan, a.k.a. ''Guddu'',
calling me from India. We had acted to
gether in Seema. Now, he was a suc
cessful director and producer. After the
pleasantries, he got to the point.
''I want you to be the hero of my next
film,'' he announced grandly.
''Why me, Guddu?'' I said, surprised.
''Are all the Bollywood heroes on strike?''
He laughed aloud. ''You see, Kabir," he
explained, ''it's like this. In my film the
hero turns out to be the villain, so no
hero will do it. And if I put a villain in
the role, the surprise will be lost. You are
perfect. No one will suspect you. You can
play anything.''
''Who is the heroine?'' I asked, always an
important factor.
''Rekha," he said, blowing me away. An
iconic actress, unforgettable in Muzzafar
Ali's Umrao Jaan. I couldn't ask for more.
I thanked Rakesh Roshan for casting me
in his film, and still do.
Khoon Bhari Maang became my biggest
hit in Bollywood. Rekha was brilliant in
the role of an ever-forgiving wife who
becomes an avenging angel. I'd known
Rekha from the 1970s, when we both
lived in Beach House. Despite her early
success with Sawan Bhadon, the indus
try thought of her as an ugly duck
ling, a dark and plump South Indian
actress. But Rekha converted them with
a vengeance. Film by film, she trans
formed herself into a swan. When I was
paired with Rekha in 1988, she was one
of the ruling queens of Bollywood, win
ner of Filmfare and National Awards.
Her second Filmfare Award came from
Khoon Bhari Maang. She was shy and
reclusive on set. I tried to broker peace
between her and Shatrughan Sinha, who
was also in the film, over an old dis
agreement they had but failed miser
ably. She refused to talk to him, though
he was more than willing. She had the
air of a Garbo in recluse.
Allow me to digress. Bollywood has per
fected the art of interspersing songs into
their stories, tragedy, comedy, horror,
drama or action. So, I'm cutting in a
humorous tale of how the wind blows
in Bollywood. After the success of Khoon
Bhari Maang, one of the films I did was
Kurbaan. A conflict between two power
ful men in a village, friends turned en
emies, and a lesser story of two young
lovers. It was, the producers told me, a
battle of ''two giants'', Sunil Dutt and me.
I was thrilled to be paired with a legend
I'd adored since I was eleven. I'd been
his fan since Mother India. He was a man
with a great soul. The producers asked
me to name ''newcomers'' for the young
roles. I suggested Salman Khan who had
just begun his career as a leading man.
While our filming plodded along in slow
''instalments'', Salman's first four films
became big hits. Instantly, extra scenes
and more songs for the young lovers
were added to our film. Sunil Dutt and
I became background music. Salman
wasn't to blame at all. Producers try to
make the most money, it's a part of the
job they do. Salman rocked the box of
fice and went on to become Bollywood's
most popular star. Among the big he
roes, Salman Khan has the biggest heart
of all. I've always loved him dearly.
People in the West find it hard to
understand how actors in India shoot
for many films at the same time. It
was how the system worked in those
days. Distributors who financed films
gave money to produces in instalments.
They wanted to see what they had
filmed before giving them more money.
So most films were shot in schedules
spread out over years. To fill the gaps,
actors signed other films, as did every
one else, from directors to cameramen.
Every producer's biggest problem was
synchronizing the dates of everyone for
his shooting.
One day, on the sets of a Bollywood film
in 1989, I heard someone say, ''Parveen
Babi has come back to India." I was
happy to hear it. She'd been ''missing''
for six years. But when I read the
press reports, I was alarmed. She'd ac
cused Amitabh Bachchan, with whom
she'd done twelve films, of being a CIA
agent, a drug smuggler and an interna
tional gangster. The media ridiculed her
charges. The industry felt sorry for her,
yet she was totally on her own. I thought
of going to see her. But it happened, as
often in life, by accident.
I met Parveen at the Holiday Inn on
Juhu Beach as she lay in the sun by the
pool. She had changed beyond recogni
tion. Her eyes still had the same dark
beauty, her hair was still as lustrous,
her skin still as beautiful. Tragically,
her body was much heavier, and her
face was almost round. I felt my heart
twinge. It was painful for me to see her
so changed. It was hard to believe she
was the same woman I'd loved so deeply
little over a decade ago.
''Hi Kabir," she smiled in surprise as I
greeted her, pleased to see me again.
She struggled to sit up and covered
herself with a towel. I could tell she
was embarrassed. I sensed her journey
hadn't been easy, and the taunts of the
press must have hurt.
''How are you?'' I asked, a question sin
cerely meant.
''Everyone thinks I'm mad," she said bit
terly. What was I to say?
''People are not always right," I replied
carefully, not wanting to upset her. ''Ev
eryone has their opinion.''
She turned on me with dark blazing
eyes, a look I knew well.
''You also think I'm mad, don't you?'' she
hissed, keeping her voice low. ''You're
just like the rest of them," she contin-
ued, catching her breath. ''You're one of
them. I know. I don't want to talk to you
ever again. Leave me alone ... Just go."
''Parveen ...'' I began with a heavy heart,
unsure of what to say.
''Don't bother, Kabir," she snapped as
she slowly lay back in the sun. ''I can
take care of myself."
It's what she had said to me, many years
ago, on the day our romance began.
Through the grapevine of film friends, I
heard she was doing interior design for
some clients. I was glad she had a new
career. I knew she owned a flat in Juhu.
With her manager Ved Sharma still re
porting to her, I guessed she wasn't lack
ing for money. It mattered to me that
she was secure, though our romance
was now long over.
A year later, love entered my life again
in the form of forbidden love. In 1990,
I was playing Shakespeare's Othello, di
rected by Alyque Padamsee, and Nikki
was my Desdemona. With her blue eyes,
fair skin and blonde hair, she was per
fect for the role. She looked as English
as her mother Jean, though her father
Arvind was Indian. He was the son of
Sumant Moolgaoker, legendary for his
brilliance at Tata Motors. Othello and
Desdemona's love and passion on stage
soon entered our lives. But she was mar
ried at the time. We tried hard to conceal
our feelings from the others as she was
married. Alyque screamed for more pas
sion in rehearsals while we pretended
it didn't exist. Vijay Crishna's immacu
late performance as the villainous Iago
was also greatly admired. In the end,
love has its ways. Almost three years
later, on 7 Januar y 1993, we were mar
ried by my father Baba Bedi in Mumbai.
Thousands of earthen lamps flickered
on the banks of the Ban Ganga reservoir
surrounded by age-old temples. But riots
erupted in Mumbai that day, with conse
quences I speak of in another story.
Nikki and I attracted each other like
magnets. She was intelligent, well-spo
ken and well-read. She loved her Indian
roots though she was English as straw
berries and cream. My English side may
have had something to do with the at
traction. God, she was a barrel of laughs,
heard all the way down the street. Our
chemistr y was brilliant too. The intro
vert in me loved the extrovert in her.
We were opposites in other ways too. I
was a tall 6'2', she a petite 5'4'. She was
the talkative one, I far more reserved.
Socially, we were a great team. And we
both loved being in showbiz.
The early 1990s was a time of profes
sional rebirth. As Parveen found a new
calling in design, my own life was trans
formed. Paola Bonelli, my famous Italian
agent, brought me loads of good fortune.
In 1991, the Italians came roaring back.
I played an Indian warrior in Mysteries
of the Dark Jungle, an adventure series
in British colonial times. Beyond Justice,
with Rutger Hauer, reunited me with
my friend Omar Sharif, who I'd known
since Ashanti. We came together again
the next year in Ken Follet's Red Eagle, a
miniseries with Timothy Dalton.
Omar Sharif and I became good friends
over the three films we shot together. He
was the first actor from the East to be
come a big star in Hollywood and was
an inspiration for me. But he had his
quirks. While shooting films, he metic
ulously organised a dinner every day
for ten people. He invited the people
he liked on set to dine with him. If
the conversation bored him, he'd pick a
fight. He was a highly intelligent man, a
champion bridge player, who didn't suf
fer fools. There was a fight almost every
night. It always ended with someone in
tears, or Omar storming off in anger. He
messed with me once and left in a huff.
It never happened again. He called me
for many more dinners and we shared
many laughs on locations. He will al
ways be a legend for me.
In 1993, more good roles came my way
in India. I gave a memorable perfor
mance as Abraham in Bible ki Kahaniyan
(Stories of the Bible) for Door Dar
shan, India's national television chan
nel, where I'd once begun my career. But
it was banned by the Congress govern
ment, because a Muslim group objected
to the Christian Biblical story of Abra
ham, who they revere as well. Politicians
protect their vote banks. Luckily, greater
joys were on their way.
In India, I starred in an Italian mini
series, The Maharaja's Daughter, with
Hunter Tylo. She was one of the biggest
stars of the American television series
The Bold and the Beautiful. People maga
zine had rated her twice as one of the
fifty most beautiful women in America.
She was as talented as she was beau
tiful. The Indian press thought I was
having an affair with Hunter. They were
wrong. She was smitten by an Indian
stuntman who'd saved her from being
bitten by a snake while filming. He fol
lowed her to Hollywood and asked her to
marry him, but she wisely showed him
the door. Brad Bell, the dynamic pro
ducer of her American series, liked what
he saw of me in The Maharaja's Daughter
and cast me opposite Hunter in The Bold
and the Beautiful. It was one of the most
watched TV shows in the world. Only
Baywatch had more eyeballs at the time.
Over a 350 million people a day saw me
as the Moroccan Prince Omar for almost
a year. Another milestone achievement.
My mailbox overflowed with requests
from fans, my fame reached interna
tional heights and Hollywood tempted
me once again. I stayed on in Los Ange
les to see what Tinseltown had in store
for an actor with proven worldwide suc
cess.
Alas, as my idol John Lennon said, ''Life
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Kabir as Sandokan
Freda in meditation
Baba
Freda
Kabir as monk in Burma
Son Adam
Daughter Pooja
Son Siddharth
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MBLINGS ON
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BEACHES AND BELIEFS
Siddharth Bedi
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SAVING MY SON
THE WOUNDED SOUL
Kabir as a monk
Kabir with Parveen in Rome
Grand-daughter, Alaya
Kabir in Ashanti
As Sandokan
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