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VOICES
EARLY GESTATIONAL LOSSES
Mónica Álvarez
M.angels Claramount
Laura g. Carrascosa
Cristina Silvente
INTRODUCTION
If gestational losses are not treated, in general, as required by bereaved parents, those in the first half
of pregnancy are even less so, where misunderstanding and lack of validation and respect are
exacerbated.
The forgotten voices are those of these babies who lived alone in the womb, the voices of their
mothers who silenced their grief because they were too little, their babies were not big enough to be
mourned. And the voice of their parents who, even today, no one pays attention to them. The title also
refers to the social, medical and cultural oblivion into which these early losses fall.
In times of awareness: when so many couples must decide about the life of their babies because
medical advances detect so many fetal anomalies that were previously invisible; when medicine
speaks, and the head and the heart do not agree.
Early losses are real losses, bereaved families need to have their pain acknowledged: how small the
lost child is and how big a void it leaves.
It is important that, at the societal level, the mentality about abortion management changes. For years,
painkillers have been given at childbirth because women supposedly "didn't want to hear about it."
Nowadays, more and more of us want to know about our physiology in order to have conscious
deliveries. It should also be like this in the case of a loss: learn from the body, let it follow its rhythms,
its time to fulfill its mission. This is the true ritual, the most powerful one.
Does the image of a dead fetus disgust and frighten us? Or love and tenderness...? He is our son. We
talked about farewell rituals and their healing and transformative power for families, menstrual cycles
and their transformative potential. Repeated menstruation when seeking pregnancy means
experiencing a loss every month. The destructive nature of the comments of those around...
The beginning of pregnancy is the beginning of illusions, a project that is cut short when the emotion
of motherhood has just been felt; the shock of the positive news versus the shock of the negative news
in a short period of time. The loss of innocence and the theft forever of a happy pregnancy.
The phases of grief and the golden rules to go through it. The symbolic, the spiritual, the mystical. The
connection of life and death in the maternal womb. Subsequent pregnancies, repeat losses and fertility
problems.
Fear, that inseparable companion after loss that lurks forever from fertilization until after childbirth.
The anguish that this fear is bad for the life of the new baby on the way, brother of the one you are
suffering from.
The loneliness, isolation and misinformation experienced by the woman and her partner in the
experience of loss because there is no place to express or listen to a death that is not socially
contemplated.
The Forgotten Voices intends to deal in depth with a subject that humanity has been pending for
centuries: that oblivion gives way to a true interest; this is our objective and the work that moves us.
CHAPTER 1
It is special because of the time you put into it.
It is better to turn on a light than to curse the darkness (Arabic proverb).
When a couple decides that it is time to become parents and they start "looking" it is as if the being
that one day will be their child is already beginning to inhabit their lives. The couple is projecting into
the future.
The child begins to gestate on a mental and emotional level, even if it is imperceptible to those outside
the sphere of the couple. There are home tests that confirm pregnancy even before the due date with
surprising effectiveness. So the couple "knows" they are pregnant almost from the start. The euphoria
that can surround these moments can be incredible.
... the expectant mother has nausea, vomiting or any other symptom will feel unwell but pregnant, and
that will make her happy above any bodily discomfort she may have to endure. It is customary to tell
the family, to announce the good news, to let everyone know how happy and content you are with
your new status. Although it is too early to feel the little kicks or anything like that, the new mother
"feels" that this new being is inside her and she holds her hands to her belly in a protective gesture
towards this little embryo that is at that moment on its way to grow and take the shape of a human
baby. Happiness fills the home of the parents-to-be, who are amazed to see how such a small child can
already occupy such a large mental and emotional space in their lives.
A devastating experience strikes the couple's life. Something so painful and hard that it provokes a
deep and real existential crisis from which you don't get out the same way you came in.
The pieces can be reunited, but there will be gaps, grooves, that will leave a record of the work done
and of what is no longer there.
It seems that if there is something physical that "proves" that there was indeed a pregnancy, a being
beating in the mother's womb, it can be said that "nothing happened here".
We live under a paradigm in which Newton's mechanistic physics reigns: the person is a physical body
whose gears respond to a series of physical laws that can be anticipated, which does not give rise to
certain surprises. Inside the body there are a series of "tubes" of different types that allow liquids and
fluids to pass through the body, fulfilling their corresponding functions. Beyond the purely physical,
nothing exists. If it cannot be measured, counted, weighed, touched, seen, smelled... it does not exist.
If the little being that lived in her mother's womb is important for the time she dedicated to it while it
was beating inside her, for that time she spent thinking about it, imagining how her belly would grow,
the birth, the dreamed baby.
For part of society, it is nothing more than a bunch of dead cells that are not worth spending another
second on. On the other hand, for the mother, the father is special, he will always be in her heart, and
deserves to stop her life for a few moments to remember him, to cry for him, to feel how happy he was
while he was alive in her womb, to say goodbye to him and let him go.
Not measuring up
Imaginary baby/real baby
The problem for a mother who loses a baby at a few weeks gestation is not only that society does not
consider her as a mother and the baby as a child, but that she herself has difficulty imagining what is
popularly called "abortion" as a baby.
Talking about it and with other mothers and being accompanied in their process helps to address these
possible reactions and to be able to live without extreme anxiety the fact of having their dead baby in
the womb for a while; to be able, in the end, to talk about their desired and lost child.
It is very painful to imagine what it would be like if it never came to be, if it remained a project, a
disappointment and a scare.
To heal the pain it is necessary to go to the center, to the place where it hurts the most and let the tears
disinfect and heal the wound.
Many women cannot bear to see other babies when they have lost their own. But the problem is not in
those babies that a mother finds everywhere, but that the image she herself had of hers has not been
processed/healed and of which she will never have an image, a face, a smile.
A very important part of the postpartum period consists of adapting the real baby that the mother holds
in her arms to the one she had imagined during the 9 months of pregnancy.
It is a time of readjustment, of gradually finding the middle ground between the needs of mother and
baby.
But how will a woman who has not been able to hold her baby in her arms, who has not even seen it
because it did not even have a human form, carry out her puerperium? She imagines a "perfect baby".
But how will this image be checked against reality if permission to look at other babies is no longer
even granted? How will you make the transition from imaginary baby to real baby?
For a mother who loses her baby in late gestation, it can be terrible not to be allowed to see the baby.
Say goodbye to him as you would to any loved one. If you have a chance to see him, get to know his
face, take a picture of him, see who he looks like, you will have a good start to your mourning. At
least she would be left with the knowledge that her baby looked human, that she was just like the
others. But for a mother who loses her pregnancy in the first weeks, neither socially nor personally is
she allowed to imagine her child in human form because what she has expelled "was nothing more
than a fetus, something horrible, deformed that it is better not to see, a monster".
We know the therapeutic benefits of being able to see the child who died in childbirth in the
immediate vicinity, to see what it would look like, to give a real face to someone who for 9 months has
been an illusion. What happens when pregnancy stops in early stages has not been discussed. It is a
taboo, because, in addition to the fear of death, of seeing a dead being, there is also the latent fear of
seeing what we believe will be a "monster".
Why is it acceptable to see a photo of the living embryo but not to see the embryonic remains of what
is and will forever be your own child?
It may seem crazy to us, but not many years ago it was also crazy to expect to see the baby who dies in
the perinatal stage and now it is something that many people no longer question; on the contrary: those
of us who are dedicated to accompanying families in this trance see it as something normal and
necessary, that the mother may wish it and that it is also beneficial to say goodbye to the baby and to
manage the grief that she will have to deal with. Our minds are advancing geometrically and soon
seeing the mortal rest of the being that is your child will be the natural, logical thing to do, no matter
how big it is.
Poland is a country whose laws allow parents to bury the remains of their deceased children at any
time during gestation. They can be registered in the Civil Registry and in the Family Book. It also
makes it easier to have a community farewell ritual that recognizes you as a child in society. Maternity
leave is also available, which legitimizes the mother as a mother and allows her to take a few days to
rest and let her body recover from the hormonal imbalance of being pregnant and suddenly not being
pregnant, to organize her mental and emotional universe, to take time to establish a before and after in
her life.... This, in our country (Spain), is unthinkable, but also because our pace of life leads us to
forget that we have a body that needs some care and respect some times for its proper functioning. It
will be possible to bring about a change and achieve the necessary legal figures so that children who
die during pregnancy are socially accepted when we really value them, mourn them and recognize
within ourselves that we need time for our body, psyche and spirit to readjust muscularly, chemically
and hormonally.
The postpartum period without a baby
It is the total and sudden rupture with your own identity, with that which until the moment of giving
birth had defined you: your projects, your ambitions, your work, your friends, your body and
everything you called your own. Your time. Your life.
How do you live a puerperium when there is no baby? Some may read this and wonder what the
puerperium is. The puerperium is what used to be called "the quarantine": the forty days after
childbirth during which the woman did not leave the house and was cared for by other women while
she devoted herself exclusively to recovering and bonding with her baby.
It is a special period because during pregnancy there have been a series of hormonal changes that have
considerably altered the body. These changes were necessary for the normal evolution of the baby in
the womb, but after delivery, hormones must return to their pre-pregnancy levels.
This return to the origin does not occur quickly, but requires an intermediate period in which certain
hormones remain at different levels than they were before and during pregnancy. Why? The baby
needs to adapt to an environment that is very different from the mother's womb; it is very vulnerable
and needs maternal protection and care. The mother needs to know her baby, to learn to read his needs
in his gestures; to be one with him, to merge with him again.
Both need to recognize each other and meet again, in the fullest sense of the term. And to do so, both
must have their brains and bodies programmed and prepared for such an encounter, to pay no attention
to anything or almost anything else but themselves for the sole purpose of rebuilding that mother-baby
dyad that will guarantee their survival. A baby is life-changing in every way: the emotional state in
which the mother finds herself is a beautiful madness that takes over her life as if nothing else existed.
The mother should bond with the baby in a special way, and remain in this state of alertness, self-
absorption and absolute dedication for a while, at least long enough until the baby gains autonomy and
no longer needs such exclusive dedication.
All this is achieved thanks to a special hormonal state that will inevitably appear after childbirth. The
hormonal state of the puerperium creates a unique emotional state, ready to be impregnated with all
the details of the baby in order to achieve a unique bond. All the events that occur in the hours and
days and even months after delivery will be etched in the mother's mind in a special way. The
exacerbated maternal sensitivity will also make him especially vulnerable to any external stimulus that
disturbs him. Many are normal events that are part of the necessary mother-baby readjustment, and
since they can generate a certain sadness or distress, many people "misname" it as postpartum
depression, generalizing this state, as if all women suffer from depression in a physiological way after
childbirth. But postpartum depression and even the post-traumatic stress that occurs in many
postpartum women is something else: it is not physiological, but the consequence of suffering some
kind of traumatic event in this delicate period as a result of the puerperal hormonal balance. Hence,
when the mother has experienced a traumatic birth or her baby suffers some problem or simply as we
have mentioned, the image of her imaginary baby does not fit with the one she has in front of her, or
she encounters difficulties due to lack of support, help, empathy... all of them will affect the mother in
a unique way.
Within the hormonal constellation, another goal requires specific dedication and sensitivity: the
establishment and maintenance of lactation. This process also occurs as a consequence of a special
hormonal state that keeps prolactin levels elevated and unavoidably after childbirth, even if this
happens at a very early gestation period. This increase in prolactin will also reduce the mother's sexual
desire, prevent conception and ensure that the mother is fully devoted to her child.
For all these reasons, the puerperium is a special period that needs to be taken into account. Today it is
widely proven that the puerperium is not limited to those first forty days, but extends to the first years
of the baby's life, during which time the woman has to adapt to her new status as a mother, not only
socially, but also neurophysiologically and hormonally. It used to be said that "until the hormones
returned to their normal state", women lived in a kind of emotional roller coaster of joy, tears, various
emotions...
An old saying goes: "It takes a tribe to raise a child?
Many women who find themselves alone a few days after giving birth, with a crying baby who does
not respond to any manual, feel that they have gone crazy, with their universe turned upside down. Her
mental state is disrupted and she goes from being a woman with a schedule and an organization to
living immersed in a world of endless milk and diapers. Society does not validate these changes in
women, so the loneliness is double, because only another woman who has gone through it understands
what is happening to her. Currently, some psychologists are studying the needs of a new mother, and
the conclusion they reach is that many of them look to their own mothers for answers.
What does this have to do with gestational losses? Much because, together with the pain of loss, the
woman discovers to her astonishment that she has not only lost the child she was carrying in her womb
but that she is also going through this puerperal period in which she feels she is going crazy, and not
only with pain.
If the puerperium as a stage in the psychosexual and emotional cycle of women is generally devalued,
if there is no baby, it is not even taken into account.
The hormonal cocktail created during pregnancy brings out the most irrational instincts.
We should not worry because we do not want to hold or look at other babies: we just want to look at
our own baby, hold it, caress it, smell it, kiss it... The fact that there is no baby in the puerperium does
not mean that all these desires are not there, so that the deepest primary instinct arises and instinctively
drives away from other puppies of the human species. This is the way it should always be done: do not
interfere in the relationship between mother and baby with smells different from their own. Supporting
the expectant mother means supporting her, not the baby.
The postpartum period is a special time in a mother's life, whether she is holding her baby or not. She
is not crazy; she is a woman full of love for her baby. If a woman has a healthy baby after childbirth,
she may even appear unbalanced to those who do not understand how this period is experienced. What
does it look like to be the one who, in addition to the need to embrace her baby, has to mourn her loss?
CHAPTER 2
Mourning: may the road continue with you
Shock: this stage may last minutes or a few hours. This is the moment when the awareness of what is
happening falls on us like a bucket of cold water. The body remains blocked, still, mute. We are not
able to react either rationally or emotionally. It is at this stage that many couples are put at the cruel
crossroads of having to make a decision: Leave tomorrow? Terminate a pregnancy without giving time
to ask for a second opinion or even take a breath?
At this stage, no one should be pressured to make momentous decisions that will influence our lives
for the rest of our lives. How many times has a mother wondered why she did not ask for a second
opinion, or why she did not get informed so she could do something other than curettage, blaming
herself for having decided what she decided when in fact she could not do anything else. It is
important to know that this guilt is not real. In a state of shock one is not able to decide anything; the
neural connections that perform this function are blocked. We are only able to trust the person in front
of us and let ourselves be the vulnerable beings we are in those moments. The professionals who give
this type of bad news should be aware of the enormous responsibility they have, since the degree of
vulnerability in which a person in a state of shock finds themselves makes them, on most occasions,
delegate their decisions (the transcendental ones and those that are not) to the people they have in front
of them, doctors, in whom they fully trust that they will seek their greatest benefit and that of the baby
they carry inside them. These situations, given the extreme fragility of the nervous and neuronal
system, are breeding grounds for the creation of traumas if things are not done with due tact and care.
This phase can last minutes, hours or days, so a mother who receives the news today that her
pregnancy has stopped and tomorrow goes to the operating room to have a curettage (because she has
certainly not been given any other possibility and the professional has made the decision for her) will
surely still be in a state of shock. Your mind is in a trance-like state in which the conversations,
images and smells you perceive during the procedure may be recorded. This is why you should be
very careful how you treat them and, above all, what you talk about in their presence. In any case,
doing things in a hurry, in a situation where there really is none, the mother will end up having to
process two grievances: that of the baby that is not there and that of the decision she could not make
because she was left with not enough time.
Denial: the hormonal discharge generated by the state of shock causes a state of immense fatigue in
the body. As this phase subsides and cortisol levels return to normal, the mother (and father) begins to
awaken from a bad dream. In most cases, they are faced with an empty womb in which life no longer
nests. Without time to process all the information that came to them at this moment, it is as if certain
parts of the person do not quite believe that "there is no longer a baby there". We don't want to believe
what is happening. One has the feeling that reality is a dream and that the unreal is true. Some
common thoughts are: "it can't possibly be happening to me", "it can't be"... or even worse: we may
even deny that there was life in that womb until recently.
In this phase can remain all those people who tell us: "you will have another one", "you have to live"...
It is their way of not stirring their own past and their own beliefs. Who knows if these people did not
go through similar experiences and, instead of growing up, denied and denied their feelings of loss.
They have become "blind" who do not see the pain of others because one day they decided not to see
their own. But the worst thing is not what others tell you, but what you tell yourself. Sometimes, the
easiest thing to do is to run away from the pain, and denial is a defense mechanism that contributes
perfectly to this. Those who deny what has happened to them do not do so out of malice or ignorance,
but out of an inability to face the truth. It takes a lot of personal strength to take this path and continue.
There will be those who take more or less time to go through it; there will be those who decide to stay
for a while at some stage of the journey, while they gather strength and continue to the next one. What
is true is that, at this moment, the mother and father are unable to face the pain, so they will need
another stop on the way, necessary to reach the maturity that will lead them to be able to look pain in
the face.
Anger: We talk about healthy anger, the one that leads us to defend ourselves, to look for
responsibilities that do not correspond to us. And regain dignity. Only when this stage has been lived
will it be possible to move on to the next one. The problem is that sometimes we confuse the tree with
the forest and it is fine to seek answers to questions, but we must not forget that in this life there are
questions that have no answers, which cannot prevent us from continuing to walk towards the next
goal. One can get into a legal process that lasts for years, encouraged in principle by this need to fight,
which is typical of this phase. The process can be delayed, and we can move on to the next phases and
live it more rationally, being cold in our responses and sometimes, thanks to that coldness, more
accurate.
At this stage, the person will be on edge and discussion will arise at many times. Keep in mind (the
partner and other family members) that these discrepancies should not be taken personally, but are a
way for the mother or father to release the anger and pain that is beginning to stir in the psyche. This
stage is usually very easy to see in men, but not so much in women who, because of their culture,
many have not learned to express their anger and rage. It would be necessary to be attentive that this
rage does not go inward and become violent acts against herself through food, alcohol... Externally,
the woman appears to be fine, but internally a sea of emotions swirls that can jump at the least
expected moment.
Although this taboo is beginning to be overcome, the truth is that we have a lot of difficulty expressing
our anger after generations of indoctrination in which we have been told that "we have to be good
girls". As Klarissa Pinkola Estés says, "we are domestic wolves, but underneath the skirt and the lace,
a beautiful Wild Woman's tail peeks out."
There is another characteristic of anger at this stage that occurs in almost all deaths of loved ones and
is a source of deep guilt: it is being angry at the dead person. A mother can get angry with her son for
leaving her, for not staying and making that beautiful life project they had a reality. Those who stay
are left disconsolate and with a thousand unanswered questions. Anger against the person who is gone,
in this case against the baby, is perfectly healthy. Getting it out and verbalizing it will do the child no
harm, and for parents it will be a sure passport to mental and emotional health.
Other emotional modalities can also occur, such as ambivalence, which is "wanting and not wanting
something", two opposite emotions that are experienced at the same time; it seems the height of
madness, but it happens ineluctably: that neighbor who approaches you and asks you about your loss
and how you are and it annoys you enormously because that person can have so little tact to ask you,
knowing what you are going through... Another neighbor who approaches you and does not say
anything and you think "how can this woman have so little tact and not ask me how I am, if she knows
what I am going through...". It may be that a woman who at the same time is grieving for her little one,
is pregnant with another one, and feels joy and sorrow... And she feels guilty for feeling joy for the
one who is coming, not being the other one; and she feels guilty for not feeling more love for the one
who is coming, for not giving herself permission to bond with him, lest he will leave too.
Love goes hand in hand with madness and it is possible for all these feelings to manifest themselves
simultaneously.
At this stage of the duel, the dangerous thing would be to feel nothing.
It may happen that the mourning of the lost child is joined by the mourning for those people who have
not been able to connect with the mourners, immersed in their own inability to live the pain and in
denial of it. Situations can arise that arouse anger because of the lack of understanding, because of the
well-intentioned words that hurt the deepest, because of the emptiness and the silence that is produced
as if nothing had happened. It is often recommended not to associate with people who do not
contribute anything positive, which can be difficult when it is one's own family. The moment of the
anger phase is not the most appropriate time to ask for accountability, nor to "try to make them see
reason". It may be interesting to avoid these family meetings and avoid getting into didactic fights that
lead nowhere, since everyone is right in their own way. Letting time pass, not to deny as they do, but
to be in another perspective oneself is often interesting. Over time, grieving parents learn not to let
themselves be hurt, although there are wounds of the soul that last forever. Sometimes, in addition to a
child, a parent is lost.
In short, we are talking about a time in which, especially in women, anger remains inward, often
overlapped by sadness (more socially accepted, although not too much). But just because we don't go
around hurling punches and swearing, doesn't mean that all that violence isn't there. We eat it. We
direct it to us. It is a stage marked by self-punishment (to a greater or lesser degree) brought about by
guilt (irrational belief). Until one moves from guilt to responsibility for oneself, one will not ascend to
the following stages: healthy anger, serene sadness, acceptance....
Denial: we start to believe what is happening and a negotiation against the clock begins with God,
with the Universe, with... If I stop smoking, if I rest, if I behave myself... will I recover? Sometimes it
works, and they tell us that all is not lost, that with a lot of rest or this medicine or whatever, we will
recover and have the baby. Most of the time, Life is not in our hands. In this story there is a third party
(the being of light that your baby is) who also chooses whether to leave or stay.
This negotiation can occur at a time prior to the loss or after the loss if another pregnancy is sought, or
if one is already pregnant... Dr. Kubler-Ross applied this phase to the time when the person who has
been diagnosed with a serious illness tries to negotiate a possible cure; a negotiation in which one
would "lose" something in exchange for gaining something else. He discovered that a large number of
his patients made this negotiation with God, that someone they each believed in even though prior to
the illness many had considered themselves atheists or agnostics. It also turned out that many of the
believers were angry with that god who allowed "this" to happen. In any case, he found that the
resolution of this phase was more accurate if the sick person was able to accept that there was a being
above him with the power to do and undo; that is, if he was able to awaken the spiritual part dormant
within him, possibly for many years. In our daily contact with grieving mothers, we observe that if
there is a religious belief, the grief is much easier to bear, although it is no less painful. Spirituality is
not a cover under which to keep the pain or an anesthetic, but rather a way of facing life and all that it
brings: the good and the bad.
Sadness: just as in a banquet, the other dishes are a kind of preparation for the main course. The first
few days after the loss, our psyche is not prepared to cope with all the pain we will feel. It needs a kind
of preparation, a long-distance race until we reach the point of maturity where we can finally accept
the pain of those who have not passed. Serene sadness. When one has expelled all the anger and can
finally cry, cry for the one who has gone and will be no more; cry for that part of oneself that we also
irremediably lose; cry for the situation that dies to give way to another perhaps not so pleasant; cry for
oneself, for the pain that tears.... Crying calms, and salty tears disinfect and help to heal the wound;
cry for the pain of our fellow men, who are more like us than ever. Crying for pain with capital letters.
In this phase we women have a small advantage over men, and that is that socially it is better seen the
cry of a woman (although not always) than that of a man. Men will also have to summon up the
courage to go through this phase without misrepresenting themselves, entering the open tomb through
the great door of pain.
It is known that the phases of grief will not be experienced by both partners at the same time. The
woman is in the throes of grief when she learns that she was carrying a child in her womb and that she
is no longer there. Sometimes a man is not aware that he is going to be a father until he sees his wife's
belly swell. He does not experience the discomfort of pregnancy from day one, so an early loss may
catch him not fully coming to terms with his parenthood. In any case, at first the father will be more
concerned about the life of his wife than that of the baby. It is more practical in that sense. And
someone is going to have to take care of the mother, who is also physically going through the process.
Therefore, the bereavement and its phases will be experienced differently by the father and the mother.
And if we add to this the difficulty that some men may have in entering this phase of pain, we already
have a formulated problem. When the man reaches this stage, perhaps the woman has already assumed
her own mourning, has completed her work and is in a position to be the one to take care of the man,
as a way of closing the circle.
Acceptance: when we have cried and healed, acceptance comes. This means having learned to let go
every day of the backpack that we unwittingly carry with us, a backpack that carries the weight of
those who are not here and those who, being here, do not mourn those who are not here. It is a weight
that prevents us from moving forward. We cannot weep for what belongs to others. Everyone must
carry their own backpack and drop it at the right time.
Letting go, loosening up, healing, walking without weight, with our heads held high and the sun and
the breeze caressing our cheeks...
We have explained grief as if it were exclusively a psychological event, but it is not. Many people who
knew the "theory", when they had to live the loss in their own flesh discovered that not only their soul
hurt, but also their body, in which multiple symptoms appeared. It is true that when the person does
not speak, the body speaks, and many times somatizations of an unresolved grief can appear even
many years later. Others are common manifestations. The problem tends to be that although almost
nobody consults a psychologist to help them through their grief, they do go to their family doctor
when they begin to have certain physical symptoms.If the doctor does not take into account that it may
be a manifestation of the grieving process itself, he or she will medicate and load them with useless
pills that will only mask some symptoms that, later on, will provoke others.
According to the Orientals, we have a physical body, a mental body, an emotional body, an energetic
body and other subtle bodies. All of them interact, and when there are movements in one (or
blockages), their manifestation may appear in another.
In his book "The Way of Tears", Jorge Bucay talks about "the mourning of the body" and notes the
following list of symptoms: nauseas, palpitaciones, pérdida de apetito, insomnio, fatiga, sensación de
falta de aire, punzadas en el pecho, pérdida de fuerza, dolor de espalda, temblores, hipersensibilidad al
ruido, dificultad para tragar, oleadas de calor, visióblurred vision, crying, sighing, looking for and
calling a loved one who is not there, wanting to be alone, avoiding people, sleeping too little or too
much, distractions, forgetfulness, lack of concentration, dreaming or having nightmares, lack of
interest in sex, not stopping to do things or apathy.
All of these symptoms are normal in a normal bereavement, and it is also possible that they may be
reactivated on anniversaries, perhaps even for years. When much time passes and we may even forget
that "so many years ago today it happened..." a headache or a tightness in the throat will remind us of
it. Because if we don't speak, the body will do it for us.
Enter spiral
It can take years to come to a total acceptance of what has happened (we are talking about intense
emotional losses). The beginning is experienced as if in slow motion. The first weeks are days full of
anniversaries: the first week after "your" loss; if this happened on a Thursday, for example, all
Thursdays will be especially intense, although the first days, they all are. The first hour or the first
fifteen days are still tinged perhaps with physical wounds that keep present and real what has
happened. The third week arrives against all odds (one never ceases to be amazed at every moment
that the entire planet continues to spin and that each person who inhabits it continues with his or her
life as if nothing had happened) and the date of the first month surprises with the certainty that even if
one does not want to, time passes marking a terribly painful distance with the loved one who is no
longer there. The day of the week and the day of the month in which it occurred are dates that are
engraved in the personal calendar of the mother who no longer has a baby in the womb to take care of
(and be cared for) and expect to feel it grow. Perhaps there was already an agenda of days marked with
medical visits, the "echo" of the twelfth week, the twentieth week.... These are key days on the
calendar that, without realizing it, come and go, irremediably marking a physical distance from the day
on which the world stopped, diluting a pain that one does not want to give up, as if deepening the
wound so that it continues to hurt would make a pregnancy and a being that few people remember as
someone who existed in the world more real. When the probable date of delivery approaches, a
curious phenomenon may occur: the parents may need to give birth to themselves as new persons, in
an attempt to give vent to the energetic need to give birth that the mother may feel, as if she were
preparing for a real birth, for another culminating moment in her life. These are sad days, but they can
be filled with meaning if you know how to take advantage of them to carry out the corresponding
therapeutic work. Perhaps it is time for another ritual and to say goodbye again to the baby that will
not fill her arms. There is usually then a small truce until the date when the mother became pregnant
again, the experiences she had, the moments of happiness, the terrible news... and then it starts all over
again.
However, many people say that the second year "is easier". This may be because they relive moments
that they have already lived through, but with the baggage that comes from the experience already
lived. Thus, the first anniversary can be very hard, but it is lived from the distance of the elapsed time.
Some of the phases can be reactivated but from a different perspective: that of experience and learning
from what has been experienced and having integrated everything a little more. The same will happen
in the following years. Time does not cure everything, but it gives enough perspective to see
everything from a distance. Suddenly one day you start to cry, you take out your box of memories and
burst into tears for what could have been and was not. And maybe in that first year you didn't give
yourself permission to cry because you had enough to survive and simply inhale air, one breath after
another. You discover that the passage of time has been necessary to discover what comforts crying.
We would speak of grief as a spiral that grows upwards in time, as a path that we travel through which
we go back over the starting point, of the different moments that were important a year ago, two years
ago or whatever, but that are lived from the distance that marks time and being another person.
This happens, at least, most of the year, because it is also true that the days close to the anniversary
dates are very hard, as psychoemotional and physical mechanisms that one thought had been
overcome are set in motion again. But it is part of the lot, it is expected that after a year, two or more
the person will have overcome their pain.
These anniversaries are often lived in solitude, since the rest of the family has long since moved on.
They are painful in themselves, and even more so because they revive the feelings of loneliness and
isolation that surrounded the loss of the baby due to the lack of social and family support that many
parents suffer.
It is a road that must necessarily be traveled. Some studies show that the medication sometimes given
to attenuate symptoms only postpones what must inevitably be experienced. Not only that, but it
prevents the brain from creating the necessary connections to be able to grieve and grow through it.
It is interesting to count on the hand of someone who accompanies us along the way, guiding us,
reminding us that at the end of the tunnel we will see the light again.
A professional will not make the grief go away, but it will help us to go through it in a more conscious
way. Therapeutic groups, either face-to-face or online, are also a great emotional support for these
parents. Seeing how others have already traveled the road ahead and seeing that they "did not die in
the attempt" is a point of hope.
A loss is always a test that life gives us to learn something. It is not the most pleasant way to learn, I
wish it could be acquired in another way, but since there is no other choice, it is interesting to make
the most of it.
Our society does not help us to grieve properly. Introspection is frowned upon.
The previous generation lived the gestational losses from denial (nothing happened here, let's pretend
nothing happened, we will suffer less). Those of us who want to live our losses from the point of view
of conscience clash terribly with our mothers, friends, with a large part of society that has remained
anchored in this phase of grief. For those who want to know, to see, to be informed, to touch, to
smell... the messages of those who should be a support on their path of personal discovery, on their
initiatory path, can be terribly offensive. But how are they going to accompany us in our transit, in our
therapeutic path if they have not done it before and do not even know what it is?
Grief is a path of learning, of initiation, an opportunity that life gives us to wake up and recover our
nature, our wildness, our strength.
The last phase of the duel will be "Restarting the wheel whenever necessary".
Psychologization of loss
People look for the cause of the loss, we need to understand why it happened.
And in this process of questions and answers, psychological causes also appear.
At present, it is impossible to establish a direct cause-effect relationship. It is clear that psychological
factors affect health, but from there to claiming that an unconscious desire has caused the pregnancy
not to take its course goes a long way.
In the grieving process it is normal for guilt to surface. They are attempts of the mind to find an
answer. Mothers already feel guilty.
The problem with guilt is that the person is left with guilt and no tools to deal with it. It is easier to
accept that the cause is external to us, but if we join this guilt to others that we may carry in our life, it
can become unsustainable.
It also doesn't help to say: "don't feel guilty" because we are putting them in a paradox: making them
feel guilty for feeling guilty! And not being able to stop doing it. Mothers have the right to feel what
they feel, to have us listen to them and, if necessary, confront their thoughts: Do you think all women
who have stress lose their babies? Is it possible that there are other causes that are currently unknown?
In the mourning process, there is often an additional loss: the lack of control.
Some people may have the feeling that they have no control over their emotions, and if they cause the
end of a pregnancy, this lack of control appears even more strongly. Precisely, we have to work so that
people acquire greater control over their process.
In some cases we have seen that some mothers, years ago, even in adolescence, had interrupted a
pregnancy. Guilt and doubts as to whether they did the right thing sometimes make them
uncomfortable to the point of thinking that they even deserve the current loss. In these cases, alluding
to psychological causes can plunge them into a pit that is difficult to get out of; therefore, it is essential
to be careful about what we say, since we do not know the story behind each woman.
But what do we do with the guilt?
Guilt is not a welfare state, but the opposite. It is part of the emotional and cognitive state that
surrounds a bereavement. There is no time limit, but it must be done.
However, we all know people who have been mired in guilt for years and years without being able to
get out of it.
Guilt is another defense mechanism that the psyche has to avoid facing raw pain when one is not yet
ready to face it. But it is not good to leave the person immersed in guilt for a long time, because he
will forget to walk his path and will end up feeling that guilt is better than continuing to work on his
conflicts in order to continue.
No one likes to suffer from guilt, of course. Psychologists speak of "secondary benefit" when someone
chooses a non-beneficial situation rather than evolve and take on the work involved.
We can review the situation that makes us feel guilty and see to what extent we were really
responsible for what happened. If we have a 20% responsibility, we will have to assume it and work
on the repair and apologize. If it is proven that there is indeed 0% responsibility, this should be enough
to dissolve the guilt, and if it is not, we will have to see what other psychic aspects are influencing the
person to choose to feel guilty (and be bad) rather than to grow and evolve.
Another way to rationalize guilt is to confront the person with the following reasoning: one is
responsible for an act if one had the power to change something.
Degradation rituals
They are those that aim to reestablish the lost status of a person by degrading the one who "ascended"
in status to put himself above him. They may be acts of denunciation or simply acts aimed at
repositioning one individual or another within the social hierarchy.
Clinical practices and, more specifically, certain professionals who use their status to violate those
who are actually their equals.
The clinical protocols that should be a guarantee of good treatment of the client are used as
instruments of power that end up contributing to the mother being deprived of her status as a "woman
with the capacity to give birth to a healthy child". By inculcating a vision of fertility in which
technology and a set of practices and techniques are necessary both to conceive and give birth to a
child, whether it is alive or dead, feelings of inadequacy are generated in women that make them feel
degraded and inferior. The conclusion reached by women, at different levels of consciousness, is that
she alone "cannot" and that she is somehow imperfect.
As women's fertile life is understood today, a woman who loses her baby in the womb does not feel
her status as a mother if it is not through the curettage that was done and the medical discharge paper
that corroborates it.
We need in our society other types of rituals that replace in some cases, and completely in others, the
clinical practices, that are the ones who give these women their status as mothers and who also help to
heal the wounds derived from the loss or the treatment received in the hospital.
People need rituals through which to identify ourselves as members of a tribe. Specifically in the field
of gestational mourning we find a series of social rituals that, although medically in principle they
collaborate in the process of the expulsion of the remains, neither culturally they contribute anything
nor do they help to go through the mourning that a mother and a father necessarily have to elaborate in
these circumstances.
The hospital admission, the medicine to induce labor, the analgesia to erase pain (and physical
sensations), the surgical process that "cleans" the uterus with the connotation that it was "dirty"? are
routines that truly prevent the secretion of the chemical-hormonal cocktail that the body has at its
disposal to prevent the subsequent depressive state, discharge and leaving the hospital "as if nothing
had happened". The woman who does not undergo a curettage because her loss was at such an early
gestational stage that the doctors considered it unnecessary, has to fight hard for others to believe that
what she had was really a pregnancy, and not a hallucination more typical of an abnormally hormonal
woman. The positive pregnancy test or the discharge report after curettage are the reliable proof that
you have indeed been pregnant, that you belong to the group of fertile women.
Thus, in these times when hospitals are beginning to realize that in case of gestational loss it is best to
intervene as little as possible, women, instead of being admitted for curettage, are sent home for
bleeding and ambulatory follow-up. This, which would be appropriate, when not properly
contextualized and explained, makes many pregnant women feel neglected and abandoned to their
fate. They should be helped to understand that they do not need surgery to feel their pregnancy and
their loss validated by society. They would need contact with other women who, having gone through
the same thing, help them connect with their inner wise woman.
The treatment received in the hospital is often more traumatic than the loss itself.
Receiving coldness when humanity is expected can be a great trauma, especially if the person is in a
state of deep vulnerability, as is the case of a woman in labor. The term "obstetric violence" is
beginning to be heard more and more in our society and, although it is not yet recognized as such in
our country, more and more women have decided to come out of their passivity and have denounced
the bad treatment when they were most vulnerable. These attitudes are also considered rites of
degradation, since they degrade those who have put themselves on a pedestal that did not correspond
to them, proceeding as if they were gods on earth.
One of the most subtle ways of violence is verbal violence: some words hurt more than a punch, and
when we talk about gestational losses, the type of vocabulary used (from medical jargon but without a
real adaptation to people who do not belong to this profession) is more often than not cold, aseptic, if
not directly provocative and terribly painful for the parents. Perhaps we need to reinvent a vocabulary
through which we can talk about lost children without reducing them to the status of "surgical offal".
In the book "The Empty Cradle" we believed that "an abortion" is not a concrete physical thing, that
which our soul child becomes when it dies in our womb and which we have to get rid of immediately.
An abortion is a process, something that begins at a given moment (when an intrauterine death occurs
or when, for whatever reason, the mother goes into ultra-preterm labor that will result in the death of
the embryo or fetus outside the uterus), the body continues with the inevitable delivery, the event
known as birth, and the return of the uterus to its cycles and routine.
A miscarriage is a set of processes included within the female psycho-sexual, emotional and spiritual
cycle that occurs naturally in the body-mind-spiritual of a pregnant woman that results in the birth of
the baby in its development being her death the cause or consequence of it. This process will occur
regardless of whether or not medical intervention is involved.
You don't say goodbye to someone you love who is gone forever and that's it. It is a process in time:
the friend prepares to leave, he notifies us, we set a date for a farewell dinner, we prepare the clothes
we will wear, the places we will go to, the gifts we will exchange, the dinner is prepared, the day of
his departure arrives, we accompany him to the station, we say goodbye for the last time, he leaves,
and we are left with the memories, the common photos, the gift we receive and the mourning road we
have to travel while our friend leaves.We say goodbye for the last time, he leaves, and we are left with
the memories, the photos in common, the gift we received and the road of mourning that we have to
travel while our heart, our mind and our spirit are getting used to the idea that it is like this: he is gone
and there is no going back, we will never see him again.
What we have done to say goodbye to our friend is a farewell ritual. If it was abruptly and there was
no time to say goodbye, the ritual will have to be done later, perhaps alone, with his memory and
photos, but it will have to be done sooner or later.
The father
The pregnant woman is the one who physically experiences the loss, but the father faces two
situations: the loss of the baby and the concern for the loved one. There may even arise the fear of
losing her too, the one who was, and also a real loss. This fear may not be objectively motivated,
because there was no risk to the mother's life, but the couple may experience it in a very real way.
In the past, grief was different in men; today, fathers can feel more of a bond with their developing
child than their ancestors did, thanks to new imaging technologies during pregnancy and the wealth of
information available about the first important weeks of embryonic development.
The studies and articles published on gestational loss deal with the discomfort of mothers, but little on
the impact on fathers, and much less on cases in which the partner is another woman. In the support
forums where grief experiences are expressed in great detail, the presence of men is anecdotal, and
their feelings are an "interpretation" of the women, not their first-person voice. Perhaps the couple's
grief is silenced from the outside, by society, and from the inside, by the individual himself, for
cultural, educational, social reasons...
Parents are in mourning after a perinatal loss: they suffer shock, anger, emptiness, helplessness and
loneliness, although guilt does not appear as the first response. It appears that the response is less
intense than in women. They comment that this may be due to the role of caregiver that is socially
given to them.
Each person reacts in a unique way to a loss; it depends on the bond with the baby, and we are also
aware that men and women, by physiology or education, deal with grief in different ways. In general,
if the mother tends to introspection, the father tends to action. For example, they may force themselves
to leave home, to recover their former life soon...; in this circumstance, the woman often feels
overwhelmed, and tends to interpret a lack of mourning on the part of the man who is her partner,
which in turn can become a source of conflict in the couple. We would be faced with two forms of
grief: one more inclined to go out, to be distracted, to do, and the other to be recollected, to focus on
one, to feel. The communication, the capacity that each one has to reach the other and to dedicate time
to him/her will often benefit the union, and the couple will be strengthened. Failure to achieve this
could be a major gap for the future of the union. When the two manage to "find each other", they
understand how important it is not to isolate themselves from each other, each living their grief
separately.
It appears that the greater the disparity in the couple's grief reactions, the greater the negative effects.
The woman sometimes suffers for the baby, for example, in case of termination of pregnancy. The
father suffers for the baby and for the mother. When it all passes, the man may be relieved that he still
has the woman he loves. And this relief may be misunderstood by the woman, reproaching her for
being less sorry for the loss of her baby.
Bereaved couples resort to the following strategies:
- Acceptance of differences: some couples see the positive side of grieving differently: "he pushes
me out, she helps me focus on what is happening to us".
- Spending time together. In the wake of a loss, many couples spend more time together, some
sharing their feelings and thoughts.
- Allow time to be apart. While some women prefer to share with support groups or see a therapist,
some men turn to sports as a tool for assimilation.
- Find the common point of their duels.
- Caring for each other, creating positive memories.
- Healing takes time
In the vast majority of cases, the loss of a baby a few weeks old occurs in a heterosexual couple, but it
should not be forgotten that there may be other cases, such as women who have decided to become
single mothers. Your grief will be lived with some slight differences, for unless you have a family or
"tribe" with strong ties, you will not have the advantages of alternating grief states or the
disadvantages of reproach.
We also take into account the increasingly visible case of female couples who choose to be mothers:
this situation carries very different connotations compared to heterosexual couples because, as a
natural rule, both can procreate. This fact gives the loss some very special conditions that would need
an in-depth study: both can become pregnant and both can breastfeed their baby.
Pregnancy loss can therefore have very peculiar repercussions. One of the biggest difficulties when a
woman loses a baby is seeing other pregnant women and other babies. But, what happens when in the
grieving process for the lost baby the one who is pregnant is the partner herself?how is the grief in
these couples?
The couple
A loss is a major life crisis and, as such, directly affects the couple. Some explain that the loss has
brought them closer together, especially when they have been able to do psychotherapeutic work
together; others have drifted apart, to the point of separation.
When grieving, sexual relations are directly affected. In addition, physically there may be some
impediment to penetration, especially in the process of loss of the remains or after curettage. Sexual
relations are intimately linked to the fact of reproduction itself, which could have been affected even
before the loss, since it is customary to control them for the exclusive purpose of using fertile days.
Our experience is focused mainly on the feelings of women, who are the ones who resort more to
forums and professionals; in this aspect, men are still a great unknown due to their less emotional
expression.
CHAPTER 5
Attempts
Gestational losses are sometimes associated with difficulty in becoming pregnant again. It can take
months, a whole year, sometimes even longer before the pregnancy test is positive. In these cases, all
the monthly losses of receiving a menstrual period month after month are added to the mourning.
What is a pleasurable act becomes almost an obligation. Half of the month is spent waiting for the
fertile days to arrive, and the other half in an anxious wait to see if that month is the definitive one.
The onset of the hated period culminates a cycle of ongoing anxiety and distress.
To finish off the picture, there is always someone well-meaning to remind the would-be pregnant
woman that all this anxiety is not exactly the best thing for getting pregnant and that, in any case,
obsessing about it is not a good thing. We have a breeding ground in which guilt is assured.
Perhaps it would be necessary for this couple overwhelmed "by the obligation" to achieve pregnancy
to open a therapeutic process to help them to effectively reduce anxiety: to put in place the emotions
for the lost baby and those generated by the current situation. Neurobiological therapies are showing
very good results in cognitive and emotional information processing.
It would be necessary to see if physical reasons could be hindering this pregnancy. Sometimes a
change in diet works miracles. It is also interesting to assess whether the partners know the woman's
fertile days. Each body and each cycle is different, and not all women ovulate on the fourteenth day of
their cycle. There are natural methods and urine tests to know which would be the right days to
attempt fertilization.
Waiting for a positive result can be very stressful; moreover, a couple lives immersed in a social
network whose people take it for granted that "it's time for them to have a baby", and do not hesitate to
tell them so actively and passively whenever the occasion arises, without any tact or respect: "When is
the baby due?"What are you waiting for?", "I already had 4 children at your age"....
The therapeutic technique of defocusing can be very effective in these cases: when we have a problem,
we tend to dive headlong into the search for solutions, put everything else aside and race against the
clock to find an answer.
De-focusing is about trying, as much as possible, to have other goals that also fill your life, stories
other than negative pregnancy tests. Allow yourself to laugh, "make humor", remembering that the
true essence of sexual relations is to share pleasure. Rescuing the passion for life in its broadest
sense...
Cycles
There is something in which medicine has been pigeonholed for a long time: in considering the
woman's body as something imperfect and, therefore, sick; and, as such, it is necessary to cure it and
help it in its irregular and impure processes so that it becomes as similar as possible to the man's body,
which is still considered the reference model of health. History has wanted to forget the thousands of
years in which women were masters of their lives and their cycles; beings, like men, complete and
perfect in themselves.
When a girl is born, she already carries within her ovaries the eggs that will mature in her adult life.
With menarche begins her fertile time, which will be marked by menstrual cycles: every 28 or every
30 or every 40 days an ovum will mature inside her, which will culminate and die if it is not fertilized,
leaving the body through menstrual bleeding. This will be repeated every month, as long as you do not
become pregnant. If you become pregnant, these cycles will stop, giving way to another time marked
by other mysteries: pregnancy, childbirth, upbringing...
There will come a time when a woman will reach climacteric, also known as menopause, when the
cycles will cease and she will enter another period.
Wisdom is present in all stages of a woman's life. It is this wisdom that we have to recover. Our bodies
know what to do at all times: they know how to ovulate, gestate, give birth to living and dead children,
breastfeed....
Each feminine archetype teaches us something. Each phase of the moon reflects a part of the immense
and rich prism that is woman. Only by discovering and healing each of our inner wounded women will
we be able to recover and enjoy the gifts that our body offers us in every moment of our lives.
Breast ages
The biological age of the mother who has suffered a loss often increases the anguish for the passage of
time, the uncertainty of each passing day is worse to conceive and give birth happily. The social and
cultural pressure on this issue adds anguish to the recovery time of a mother who feels she is running
against the clock.
Michel Odent says that women are always considered by the system as imperfect for this function: too
short, too thin, too full, too narrow, too young, too old, etc. They are almost never at the optimum time
to become pregnant and give birth.
If nature favors the perpetuation of the species, a woman who can become pregnant, no matter how
old she is, it seems logical that she should be able to give birth and breastfeed. A girl who does not
menstruate cannot give birth because her body has not made the necessary changes to adapt to possible
motherhood and does not release eggs; a menstruating girl can. In fact, changes for adequacy already
start before menstruation.
A woman over 40 who ovulates may want to become a mother, and the decision is hers and legitimate.
We should not sacrifice this desire for exogenous or theoretical reasons. We face enough impediments
to motherhood without leaving it to age alone. It is nature and not man who determines whether it is
suitable or not.
Equalizing the correct age for childbearing is unfair because not all women start the changes at the
same age. And even more difference in the age at which each woman starts menopause: women stop
ovulating at very different ages: there can be fifteen years of difference from one woman to another,
and in this time you can try to be mothers many times if that is the desire.
The optimal age set by maternity manuals, from 20 to 35 years, is an exaggerated prophylaxis. A
woman's reproductive life is limited by nature, there is no need to limit it further.
A woman becomes pregnant and gives birth to a healthy baby boy or girl at the optimal time when she
does, not when the manuals say so.
Our society views motherhood beyond the age of forty with reprobation, but the last children of our
multiparous grandmothers were born at this age, and their physical conditions were, in general,
because of their harder lives, worse than ours, and their life expectancy was shorter.
The uterus is a powerful muscle that has a prominent role in pregnancy and childbirth, it moves
exercising it with the movements of menstruation, with orgasms, with belly dancing, etc.. And this fact
can lead us to consider that a uterus at the age of 40 can be much more exercised than at the age of 20.
The vast majority of women who lose a baby feel that they have a pending subject, and sooner or later
they are encouraged to try again. Many of them succeed, and despite all the fears, uncertainties and
anxieties that surround a pregnancy after loss, they finally get to hold their baby in their arms. It is
obvious that these mothers who are mothers after one or more losses are older than when they lost
their babies. So how can we go about adding so much angst to all women with the age issue?
Albert Einstien said that "when the laws of mathematics refer to reality, they are not true; when they
are true, they do not refer to reality".
No one can know at what age a particular woman will have a successful pregnancy and delivery. No
one.
CHAPTER 6
Time to decide
Pregnancy termination
If the couple decides to terminate the pregnancy, the following are some considerations that it would
be advisable to take into account:
- Naming the baby: it will depend on whether or not the sex of the baby is known. Some women
think it is a boy or a girl and name it what they would have liked. Putting a name means making it real,
validating that he or she has been part of the family. The option of not naming the child would also be
valid if the parents so choose.
- How to terminate a pregnancy: parents should be aware of the different ways to terminate a
pregnancy and choose the one that is most appropriate for them. A very important issue that is not
usually taken into consideration, especially in these cases, is that this is not a common loss, because
when the woman comes to the clinic her baby is alive in her womb. If she dies, the delivery takes
place in the private or public hospital where she would have had it anyway. If the baby is alive, the
mother is referred to a center specialized in voluntary termination of pregnancy, most of the time
private. It can be painful for the woman to agree to the termination of pregnancy if she feels or has felt
the movements of the baby in her womb; it is traumatic in itself to know that with her decision she is
going to kill her child, even though she feels fully justified in doing so, since all the mother's cells are
oriented towards life. To avoid possible feelings of deep guilt, it would be advisable a therapeutic
treatment for both partners in order to learn how to manage all these feelings and emotions that will
erupt like an erupting volcano. Some parents have explained that they would have liked to have more
information about the pregnancy termination procedure before going to the hospital/clinic. Some
women have described the day of the termination as the worst day of their lives, complaining of being
alone (without their partner), of not feeling accompanied, of crying and feeling questioned for their
sadness, of being next to teenage girls who terminated their pregnancies for reasons other than their
own... Ideally, the procedure itself should not add more pain: to have information, to be accompanied,
not to see the pain minimized, not to feel judged....
- The birth: it is important to have options, to have real and contrasted information about the pros
and cons of each one of them, and to let the mother and father decide. Some women may receive
general anesthesia, may not be allowed to have a physiological delivery... For the mother, feeling the
baby going through the birth canal may be the only experience of physical contact she will have with
the baby, and it will stay with her forever. The contractions may be more painful, the labor longer...
but a good accompaniment during labor can give very good results. Choosing a cesarean section, in
addition to the loss of experience for the woman, may compromise future deliveries.
- Photographs: one way to make the baby real is through photos. Sometimes, it will be necessary to
wrap it to conceal abnormalities. In some hospitals a photograph of the baby is taken as a matter of
protocol; even if the parents are not at the best time to take it or see it, after a while it will be a good
souvenir.
- The time to say goodbye: it is important that the woman or both members of the couple decide if
they want to say goodbye to the baby, either themselves or other family members. In this regard, it
would be appropriate for both mother and father to do what they consider beneficial for them.
Sometimes, seeing that the malformation was real and not a mistake and that the baby was a baby and
not a monster can be very helpful in the grieving process. A U.S. study has shown that seeing and
cuddling a baby reduces symptoms of anxiety and depression.
- Depending on the type of termination, it is likely that there is no possibility of seeing the baby,
but in such a case the parents can resort to ultrasound scans, a pregnancy test, a diary, planting a tree
or any ritual to help them come to terms with the loss. For many couples, the worst part of the
experience has been the feeling of loneliness, the impossibility of being able to explain what
happened: few people around them knew about the pregnancy, there is a fear of being judged, the pain
is often minimized or they feel that they deserve the bad things they are going through and do not even
deserve comfort because, after all, it was their decision.
Postpartum
Sometimes mothers do not even take time off work to recover from pregnancy, childbirth and/or
termination, perhaps due to a need for denial and to get back to normal as soon as possible.
Professional psychological accompaniment and support can promote emotional well-being for both the
mother and the father, a well-being that in turn will lead to a better physical recovery of the woman.
CHAPTER 7
Voluntary Interruption of Pregnancy (VTP)
From time to time, in dealing with and accompanying unintended gestational losses, the question of
voluntary loss arises. The information on this subject is very controversial, because behind extreme
conclusions there are extreme positions, both for and against. There are very few objective studies,
free of ideological contamination, in this regard.
A large number of women are concerned because, although the law (in Spain) allows abortion, they
end up doing it alone, without adequate accompaniment and even paying for it out of pocket in private
clinics. They recount desolate experiences, fast, cold, lonely and uninformed care. Sometimes, the
professional attitude and the intervention can be more traumatic than the decision itself, from which
we deduce the need for more information and rigorous studies on abortion.
Making the decision whether or not to continue with an ongoing life in the womb is transcendental.
Whether one chooses to continue or to interrupt, the decision will transcend: a child is for life, they
say, and, we add: an abortion, too.
The adjective "voluntary" has been repeatedly put in quotation marks because in a society where
gender equality does not exist, where abuse has not been eradicated and where motherhood is so
unprotected, it is very upsetting. There is a temporary urgency in making the decision, sometimes
accompanied by coercion from the environment. Female fertility is thus approached in a timely,
synchronic manner. Without a holistic approach, this specific pregnancy is focused and solved, but the
subsequent history is not studied diachronically, and we are not referring only to the psychology, but
to the history of fertility and motherhood of each woman who has opted for a VTP.
The duel
A woman who voluntarily decides to stop the gestation of the healthy child she is carrying has specific
motivations that no one has the right to judge. No one makes such a decision happily unless he or she
has thought long and hard about the pros and cons.
The problem is that the legalization of voluntary abortion has led to such a minimization of the loss
that many mothers find themselves in desolation in the face of the mourning that they will necessarily
have to develop. In general, and to avoid the emotional impact, words such as "what you have inside
you are only cells at this moment" are usually said.
If a pregnancy desired and then lost is a taboo that is minimized and ignored as something that "did
not happen", a planned abortion is even more so, because the woman finds no place to express her
pain and grief for a child she may have wanted but could not afford to have. One of the messages you
might receive is, for example, something like, "You should be happy about the laws in this country,
which allow you to own your body and have an abortion if you get pregnant and don't want to have it."
Socially, mourning is denied, and women also deny it, because it seems to be the easiest way out of
such an emotional situation, but denial is not the most appropriate thing to do. Ideally, parents should
be able to grieve for their child and have access to counseling as part of the voluntary termination
process.
Supposedly, voluntary abortion should not provoke any feelings of guilt in the woman and/or her
partner, but rather allow her to feel her emotions, make the transition, say goodbye to the baby's soul
and allow it to leave. A woman who chooses to say goodbye to a child by aborting it makes a great
sacrifice, and these are never gratuitous. Although she may not be aware of it at the time, it would be a
good idea to gain this knowledge in order to be able to live in peace with herself for the rest of her
days.
CHAPTER 8
Loss management
There should be absolute transparency in the medical information that the mother receives when
deciding how to deliver her stillborn baby. It should also be based on scientific evidence, seeking and
proposing the least invasive method that is of greatest benefit to the mother.
When a woman is faced with the hard moment of assuming the loss of a desired pregnancy, she
usually does not know what to do, what is the right way to approach it. You will need a lot of support
to be able to make appropriate choices, and you will also be very vulnerable and manipulable.
In the mind of the expectant mother facing the loss of her baby, a whole set of feelings that complicate
the decision making process are usually mixed.
The inability to understand what happened and the pain of loss are mixed with the deceptive need to
turn the page urgently to mitigate that same pain. Sometimes she is even confused with feelings of
guilt that she cannot manage, overwhelmed by the bewilderment of seeing how her body begins the
path of no return towards the loss of her baby without her being able to do anything to avoid it; unable
to control it. His mind and body radiate frustration and anger.
Many women feel deep fear and mixed feelings at the thought of having their dead baby inside their
body. The deep pain from which they feel they need to emerge is met by a certain resistance to the
arrival of the inevitable moment when they will experience that fatal farewell. In addition to this, the
collective ignorance regarding the handling of abortion, besides ignoring and underestimating this
maelstrom of feelings, has imprinted in the subconscious the idea that it is very dangerous for the
mother "to have her baby inside" and that it is necessary to take it out as soon as possible. Once again,
haste is the order of the day. For the mother, the idea that the baby that is the fruit of her wishes and
desires may also be detrimental to her health can be traumatic. Their fears will be even more
accentuated, which may precipitate inappropriate decisions as a result.
The fact that the baby is already dead at the time of delivery tends to depersonalize the process and not
to value the impact of the interventions exerted on the mother, because the baby can no longer suffer
them. The baby is often considered an object that can and should be acted upon without too much
sentimentality.
As stated, for example, in the WHO definition of fetal death, the baby is a product to be removed by
the physician (called active management). The tendency to resort to active management to remove it is
so frequent that this type of action is implicit and even included in the definition itself: "death prior to
the expulsion or complete removal of a product of conception from its mother, regardless of the
duration of the pregnancy".
Gestational loss is a real shock for parents. The way in which the parents and the professionals interact
and the way in which the abortion is carried out will be key to the subsequent experience of the
parents, not only from an emotional point of view, but also from a physical point of view.
During gestational loss, the same shortcomings that have been demonstrated in childbirth care
continue to occur, except that unlike childbirth, there is a great gap in the development of consensus-
based strategies to promote the implementation of good practices in the case of pregnancy loss.
One of the key aspects to promote is empowerment. The mother needs to receive accurate, complete
and unbiased information. The woman needs to know what she is facing, what options are available,
not only the one suggested by the physician, and she must know the risk versus benefit balance of each
of them. You need to know why the doctor believes that the option he or she suggests is the best one,
and above all, if that option is the one that really suits your needs. Also if it is the method that will be
the least invasive to your physical and emotional health.
In addition, in this decision making process there must be a certain empathy on the part of the
professional to understand the feelings and needs of the mother at such a delicate moment, and with
this, to adapt the final choice and the necessary times.
A physician can help initiate good grief and anticipate situations that may be stressful.
The woman needs to have her feelings validated, as the social silence that is generated around the loss
makes her feel that no one is able to see how bad she feels internally.
Professionals therefore play a crucial role in how the experience of loss is defined. They have a great
power to reduce the impact of this and the associated trauma, and with it, the possible psychological
sequelae of the same.
Women cannot be treated (or feel) as a mere womb or container for babies. They are individual beings
who require individualized and personal treatment and action, and we must demand that this be so.
The psychological pain of the loss may be too much knowing that the dead baby is still with her.
Knowing both sides of the coin, the advantages and risks of these two management options, will help
empower the woman, providing her with greater internal resources to decide the option that best suits
her physical and emotional needs and that will result in a greater benefit to her health.
Active management
Active management consists of resorting to some type of medical intervention, either by drug
administration or surgical technique, to induce the mother to expel the baby. It is an artificial process
that requires specialized medical supervision and action, since it involves the manipulation and
alteration of the body's natural physiology and can generate complications that must be closely
controlled. From less interventionist to more interventionist, the methods can be classified as follows:
- Pharmacological abortion.
- Surgical abortion: by aspiration curettage or curettage. It would also include abortion by cesarean
section, although this case is only indicated in advanced gestations with fetal presentations and/or
situations incompatible with vaginal delivery.
The choice of one or the other depends not only on maternal desires but also on other factors, such as
gestational age, if the abortion has already begun but has only partially elapsed (incomplete abortion)
and the process does not progress on its own, or if signs of infection or excessive bleeding appear.
Accordingly, some methodologies will prevail over others because they are the least complicated and
have the greatest benefits for maternal health in their particular circumstances. But when there are no
circumstances that demonstrate, based on scientific studies, a preferential need for one technique over
another, the mother should choose the method that best suits her own needs, cultural background and
desires. And physicians should put on the same level the different options that are safe for their
individual circumstance without imposing their personal preferences on top of it.
What happens when the physiology is altered: in a normal pregnancy, for it to progress normally, it is
necessary to maintain a specific level of hormones, mainly estrogen and progesterone. Estrogens are
responsible for making the uterus grow, while progesterone ensures that the uterus does not contract
during this growth and that the cervix remains closed. When the concentration of progesterone
decreases (as occurs at the end of pregnancy), the natural production of prostaglandins is activated,
which in turn activates the contractility of the uterus increasing the endogenous production of
oxytocin, favoring the dilatation of the cervix and the subsequent exit of the baby. Pharmacological
abortion can therefore be achieved when these natural mechanisms are artificially altered and the
pathways that stimulate labor are activated. (i) drugs analogous to natural prostaglandins or (ii)
oxytocin that activates uterine contractions (although it is relatively ineffective if the pregnancy is not
full term or if labor has not started spontaneously, requiring that some form of prostaglandins have
been administered beforehand) or (iii) antiprogestagens that block progesterone receptors and decrease
their inhibitory action.(iii) antiprogestagens that block progesterone receptors and decrease their
inhibitory action on uterine contraction, activating the consequent synthesis of natural prostaglandins.
Another way to induce labor pharmacologically is to inject hypertonic saline solutions that induce an
osmotic change resulting in necrosis of the amnion, the chorion and the fetal surface of the placenta
causing the release of prostaglandins and causing the onset of uterine contractions a few hours after
the injection. At present, this option is not usually chosen in isolation but as a complement to others; it
is used, above all, in voluntary terminations of pregnancy that take place above 14 weeks of gestation
in order to ensure the death of the baby before proceeding to the abortion itself, since the baby ingests
the solution and dies shortly after the poisoning. Hydrophilic dilators can also be introduced into the
cervical os. These are rods, usually made of polymer, which absorb cervical fluid by expanding and
stimulating the production of prostaglandins. The same effect can be achieved by introducing
mechanical dilators of different sizes, such as Hegar stems, which are metal cylinders in increasing
order of diameter that gradually open the cervical os. It is an aggressive procedure, particularly in the
case of mechanical dilators that can cause tears in the cervix, which can be avoided if the cervix is
previously softened or dilated. This can easily be done by resorting to the use of prostaglandins hours
before the procedure.
Surgical treatment of abortion is based on the techniques of aspiration curettage (vacuum aspiration)
or curettage with curette (simple curettage). Both are invasive techniques that must be performed in
the operating room and under some type of anesthesia. Years ago they were used as the first option in
first trimester gestational losses because of the feeling that they did not involve major risks, but it is
known that surgical management seems to involve a higher risk of infection and adverse effects on
future fertility, in addition to a higher overall cost. Therefore, nowadays, especially in early gestations,
it is also considered safe to use labor-inducing drugs as a first option. Increasingly, this type of
technique is left only for cases in which complete expulsion of the remains is not achieved, or in any
case, depending on the mother's wishes and provided that there are no other circumstances that
indicate that the surgical option is more appropriate. If the mother wishes to ensure that the abortion
proceeds quickly and with a high probability of being complete on the spot, then surgical abortion is
the method of choice.
Curettage by aspiration consists of the extraction of the embryo or fetus by means of a cannula
connected to a vacuum pump (electric aspiration) or to a syringe through which suction is performed
(manual aspiration), both techniques being equally safe. The cannula is introduced through the
cervical orifice, and then aspirated by means of a rotational movement through the cannula for
evacuation. Depending on the gestational week, a greater or lesser degree of dilatation of the cervix
may be required prior to aspiration. Below nine weeks gestation, a maximum of an 8mm cannula is
used, and many women do not even require dilation. If necessary, hydrophilic or mechanical dilators
are used. For this reason, in early gestations this method is called aspiration only, and in more
advanced gestations that require prior dilatation, it is called dilatation and evacuation. Depending on
the degree of dilatation required and the mother's wishes, less or more analgesia may be required.
Complete evacuation of the baby and placenta should be verified by examination of extracted
contents. This is essential to ensure that there are no remains, that they correspond to a baby of the
expected gestational age (to rule out molar pregnancy) and that there is no ectopic pregnancy, in which
case the uterus will be empty, and the abortion will have to be performed in another way. Ideally,
these cases should be previously diagnosed by ultrasound.
Simple curettage with curette, also called dilatation and curettage in the case of advanced gestations, is
a methodology that involves more risks than vacuum aspiration. Compared to the latter, it has a lower
rate of complete abortions and higher rates of complications such as more blood loss, longer hospital
stay, higher risk of infection, uterine perforation or uterine adhesions, as well as a greater need for
anesthetics. On average, it is estimated that curettage with curettage implies a 2, 3 times higher risk of
presenting complications of any type compared to aspiration.
Thus, with the option of choosing alternative methods, curettage should be relegated to oblivion.
Specific risks associated with curettage:
Because of the discomfort involved, it must be performed in the operating room and usually involves a
higher degree of anesthesia than vacuum aspiration. It is usually performed under general anesthesia
or sedation (in some cases it can be performed under regional anesthesia). The methodology involves
separation of the vaginal walls with a flap and subsequent clamping of the cervix by traction to avoid
perforation. If the neck is closed, it is instrumentally dilated using hydrophilic or mechanical dilators.
This dilatation is greatly facilitated if the cervix is previously softened by means of prostaglandins, or
if labor has begun naturally, in which case it would already be partially dilated. Once the cervix is
dilated, the curette is introduced, which is like a sharp blade that will allow the walls of the uterus to
be scraped to detach the placenta and the baby from them. Always choose the largest size curette that
fits through the cervical os and insert it into the uterine fundus. Then, by means of a return movement
towards the cervix, the four walls are explored until the entire uterine cavity is evacuated. The critical
point of curettage, and what makes it potentially dangerous, is that although the process can be done
with ultrasound monitoring, many professionals do not do it following this method and scrape blindly.
Another difficulty is to know when to stop scraping, because excessive scraping can lead to the
removal of internal uterine layers, leaving the uterus heavily damaged. Intrauterine trauma resulting
from curettage is a common etiologic agent in the development of intrauterine adhesions that can lead
to local synechiae. Therefore, the origin of synechiae as a consequence of curettage is nothing other
than a "traumatic ablation" of the endometrium; this is due to the fact that during the procedure, if the
procedure is too vigorous, it causes the basal layer of the endometrium to be exposed to the
myometrium. Fibroblast activity and collagen formation are promoted before the normal endometrial
regeneration process takes place, which is then hindered; this favors the adhesion of adjacent walls of
the uterine cavity. The different regions of the uterus are fused by "cables" of connective tissue,
sometimes even creating authentic "spider webs" inside the uterus, which can generate not only
numerous discomforts and gynecological problems, but can also be the cause of secondary infertility.
Symptoms vary according to the extent of the lesion: menstrual disturbances, chronic pelvic pain,
recurrent miscarriages, placental insertion disturbances and infertility; and in extreme cases it can lead
to Asherman's syndrome and be associated with the development of endometriosis (endometrial tissue
growing outside the uterus invading other adjacent organs and structures).
It has been found that about 60% of the synechiae or uterine adhesions associated with Asherman's
syndrome are the result of curettage. Synechiae can also generate the "amniotic savannah", which can
be confused with the casuistry of the "amniotic bridle". The term "amniotic sheet" was used to
describe the particular ultrasound image in which a cross-sectional synechia is seen encompassed by
the amnion and corin, similar to the relationship of the peritoneum and mesentery to the bowel. The
"amniotic bridle", which causes a multitude of fetal malformations, has an origin unrelated to
synechia. The two events should not be confused, although unfortunately their similarity may result in
the presence of synechia leading to an erroneous prenatal diagnosis of "amniotic bridle". Synechiae are
generally uncomplicated during gestation, although there is evidence to suggest that large uterine
synechiae may be the cause of presentation dystocia and low birth weight babies. On the contrary,
amniotic bands can cause fetal malformations, often incompatible with life, and can lead to voluntary
termination of pregnancy. The key is to use color Doppler ultrasound to differentiate it, with which
blood circulation can be seen at the level of the synechia, which is not seen in amniotic bands.
Synechiae can also be confused during a healthy gestation with the presence of other problems such as
a suction hemorrhage, giving the impression of the placenta, an image that can simulate this type of
hemorrhage.
Post-graduate procedures have been proposed to help reduce the likelihood of synechiae formation,
such as the implantation of an endometrial cavity device (IUD) into the uterus to separate the uterine
walls to the greatest extent possible during endometrial regeneration. Cyclic therapy with conjugated
estrogens and progesterone at high doses is another resource that actively stimulates endometrial
proliferation reducing the incidence of intrauterine synechiae. But the truth is that, since there is an
alternative method, such as vacuum aspiration, which lacks these risks and is, in general, much safer,
this should be sufficient reason to invite professionals to refrain from using this technique. Finally, it is
also worth mentioning an increased risk of uterine perforation with curettage; although its incidence is
low and is reduced when the professional is highly experienced, it is still an important risk. Treatment
for perforation varies depending on the symptoms. If perforation is suspected, curettage should be
interrupted, maintaining a conservative approach unless there is peritoneal irritation due to visceral
injury, intense bleeding or extensive hematoma, in which case urgent abdominal surgery should be
performed. Because of all the risks, we assume that curettage should be exceptional. For this reason,
we call this method illegrade (unnecessary curettage), since we find many cases in which this
technique is used without being necessary or appropriate, when the abortion could have been managed
in a much less invasive way (pharmacological or vacuum aspiration) or expectantly.
The crux of the option to choose is to select the appropriate management according to the gestational
age and also taking into account the side effects of the same for each case and, of course, taking into
account the maternal wishes. It is also necessary to take into account whether the miscarriage was
spontaneous or the result of an abortion, either because of problems that prevent the normal
development of the baby or for other reasons. These factors may tip the balance toward one method or
the other because they may require additional procedures during the abortion process. However, we
will focus mainly on the methods mostly used in the first case, in which the abortion was spontaneous,
although in reality, most aspects of the procedures are valid for any type of abortion.
Pharmacological management vs. surgical management: up to 9 weeks of gestation, pharmacological
management is a very effective method in most abortions, although surgical management is also used,
especially when the aim is to shorten the process and guarantee the success of the abortion in the short
term. In this case, most often, in fact, both options are combined using drugs (prostaglandins) to soften
the cervix and facilitate subsequent aspiration. Pre-dilation of the cervix also reduces the incidence of
other complications such as damage to the uterus and/or cervix, hemorrhage and retained debris. The
scientific evidence suggests that both methods are equally safe if there are no other indications of
problems that would suggest that one type of action should prevail over the other. Both options have
the same degree of performance should prevail over the other. Both options present the same degree of
complications and generate similar rates of complete abortions (although slightly higher in the case of
vacuum aspiration).
However, this method of acting invites us to ask ourselves to what extent the end in itself of using the
surgical method because of its greater speed justifies it being the first option, since it is still a very
invasive method. If prostaglandins are considered for use to soften the cervix prior to surgery, the
woman will be given the same medication as if only the pharmacological option were chosen, but she
will not be offered the alternative of waiting to see if she will expel the baby on her own, in which
case the surgical procedure would be spared. Thus, the woman will suffer the effect of the sum of the
two options in exchange for greater speed. This is despite the fact that this speed is not always ideal in
all cases and depends very much on the emotional state and the mother's wishes.
Provided that there are no signs of complications and unless the mother expressly wishes, once the
woman has been given the drugs, it should be possible to allow time to pass and check their
effectiveness, so that she only undergoes surgery if strictly necessary.
It is important to keep in mind that not all pharmacological options work the same and do not have the
same risks. For example, prostaglandins alone (misoprostol) are not sufficiently effective (between 3
and 7% of women experience incomplete abortions and will need curettage). In addition, several
successive doses are required, and bleeding can last for many days. If bleeding is very profuse,
emergency curettage for homeostatic purposes may be necessary. Something similar occurs with
antiprogestagens (mifepristone), which have an even lower effectiveness (between 60 and 70%).
However, the process of expulsion of the remains is more effective if both drugs are combined; in such
a case, it usually leads to a faster abortion, with fewer side effects and a higher rate of complete
abortions, avoiding the need for surgical management. An interesting option is the combined use of
mifepristone and misoprostol because of the advantage that misoprostol can be administered orally
instead of vaginally (which some women find uncomfortable or unpleasant). Several studies have
shown in first and second trimester gestations that administration of misoprostol 24-48 hours after
mifepristone allows complete abortion in a high percentage of cases, and if an additional dose of
misoprostol is administered within hours after the first dose, the success rate may be even higher. This
method could even be compatible with managing the abortion at home rather than in the hospital.
From the 14th week of gestation until the end of pregnancy, due to the size of the baby, the use of
vacuum aspiration as the first method is complicated, since it is necessary to dilate the cervix well and
fragment the baby before extracting it. This can be especially traumatic for the parents, particularly
when the baby is wanted, and can be an impediment to internalization and grieving, as the sight of the
baby after such a procedure would be very violent; they will not be able to say goodbye to the baby for
this reason. Because of this, and the reasons previously mentioned for first trimester losses, the
pharmacological option is more suitable. In general, the uterus at this gestational age is more sensitive
to pharmacological stimulation, and with proper treatment it is effective and relatively easy for labor
and expulsion of the baby to be accomplished by this means. Among the different pharmacological
options, mifepristone, administered 24-48 hours before inducing abortion with prostaglandins, also
tends to become the ideal method. The combination of both drugs reduces the active labor phase time
from 14-36h of isolated prostaglandins (depending on the prostaglandin and the method of
application) to only 4.5 - 8.5h. In addition, it reduces the dose of prostaglandins needed, thus also
reducing pain, digestive discomfort caused by prostaglandins alone, and cervical tear rates. On the
other hand, it has a comparatively higher rate of complete abortions (66% vs. 50%). Hydrophilic
dilators can be used as an alternative to prostaglandins, and oxytocin can be applied as a booster to
ensure a higher labor success rate. If dilatation is good and labor starts normally, the mother will have
a normal delivery, and it would only be necessary to verify by ultrasound and visual inspection that
there are no remains that would require a subsequent curettage by vacuum aspiration.
The problem with the choice of pharmacological management appears, however, in losses between 9
and 14 weeks of gestation. There is a prevailing belief that pharmacological induction, although a
good option, would not generate complete abortions in such a high percentage as when performed in
the first trimester up to week 9 or in the second trimester from week 14 onwards (although in these
cases a higher and repeated dose of drugs is required). This could be because it may be more difficult
to achieve the necessary dilatation of the cervix, and some debris, due to the larger size of the baby,
could be retained. Vacuum aspiration, on the other hand, would offer a higher rate of complete
abortions. On this basis, most obstetricians consider it better to opt for vacuum aspiration, thus
subjecting to this process women who could have expelled the fetus on their own without the need for
this procedure.
Although it is true that we do not have too many studies that analyze this aspect at this gestational age,
this change in criterion is not, however, supported by the latest scientific evidence. For example, in
2006, a large randomized study was carried out in pregnancies up to 13 weeks showing that
pharmacological induction is safe, with no major disadvantages compared to surgical management. A
2007 review by Cochran also shows that pharmacological induction in gestations up to 24 weeks is
safe. Therefore, we question this ambivalent criterion according to which pharmacological
management is only appropriate up to week 9 and after week 14, but not at intermediate gestational
ages. For some strange reason, which is certainly not based on scientific evidence, it seems as if the
work that the mother's body does outside is more defective and incapable just in that interval than in
the others. This reasoning seems implausible. The criterion of the size of the baby does not seem to be
sufficiently substantiated either, since from week 14, when the baby is older, pharmacological
management continues to work (although in different doses).
Perhaps the difference in criteria is due precisely to this: the exact dose in these cases is not
sufficiently studied and it is more difficult to find the adequate dose to be effective without adding
more side effects, since it is difficult to find a consensus, and there is a great disparity of regimens and
doses of administration. In general, what does seem to be demonstrated is that the use of misoprostol
vaginally would be the most effective option, rather than orally. Therefore, it is a possible and
recommendable option, although it would nevertheless be necessary to have more extensive studies
that analyze this intermediate period of gestation between the first and second trimester to investigate
the suitability of the drug to be used and the most appropriate dose of pharmacological management
with respect to surgical management, and thus favor a change in the current paradigm that has
obstetricians so anchored in surgical management during this period of gestation.This would favor a
change in the current paradigm in which obstetricians are so anchored in surgical management during
this gestational period. Aspiration at this gestational age is comfortable and easy to perform, since it
does not require excessive dilatation and the baby does not need to be fragmented, which is one of the
reasons why it is so frequently avoided after the 14th week.
The fact that from the 14th week of gestation onwards pharmacological management is the first option
has been driven by the size of the baby, which makes it more laborious. The inertia of aspirating
between 9 and 14 weeks seems, therefore, to be linked to it being a comfortable choice rather than
because pharmacological management does not work.
In order to choose between the different methods, it is necessary to be aware of the associated risks.
Both labor-inducing drugs and vacuum aspiration have significant side effects, so this treatment
should never be performed without strong medical supervision, and the mother should receive a clear
and effective explanation before making a conscious decision. Many prostaglandin analogues can
cause severe digestive discomfort, such as diarrhea and/or vomiting.
They can also cause cervical tears in 1% of cases, although this percentage drops to 0.1% if combined
with anti-protegens.
Oxytocin should not be used in early gestations because of its relative ineffectiveness. It may be
necessary in pregnancies beyond the 3rd trimester as a means of strengthening and increasing uterine
contractions provided that medications have been previously administered to soften the cervix and
activate uterine contractility. It has the adverse effect of being an important anti-diuretic, because it
could cause water overload if the symptoms are not well recognized or it is not properly administered,
and there have been cases of brain damage or even death due to this cause. In high doses, oxytocin can
cause uterine hypertonia and uterine rupture, so special care must be taken in its use, especially in
women with previous cesarean section. The same care should be taken with prostaglandins, which can
also be a risk agent for uterine rupture in patients with previous cesarean section. Apart from all this,
the administration of any of these drugs is usually accompanied by severe pain and abundant blood
loss. It is crucial to monitor the level of bleeding, the presence of fever as an indication of infection
and to perform frequent ultrasounds to verify the complete expulsion of the baby and placenta.
When vacuum aspiration is chosen, to these effects of the drugs used to dilate the cervix must be
added those specifically associated with the aspirate, which are mainly those derived from anesthesia.
This typically includes nonsteroidal anti-inflammatory drugs and paracervical blocks with 10-20cc of
1% lidocaine. To prolong the anesthetic effect, agents such as ropivacaine and fentanyl can be
included in the anesthetic cocktail, or oral or intravenous sedation or anxiolytics can be administered,
although these have not shown a significant effect on pain reduction. After the process, a uterotonic
agent such as methylergonovine is usually administered to promote uterine contraction and reduce
vaginal bleeding. If the mother is also Rh negative, she should be vaccinated with Anti-D
Hyperimmune Gamma Globulin.
Finally, there is a low but existing risk of uterine perforation that cannot be neglected, although the use
of ultrasound methods during the process can reduce this risk considerably.
Expectant management
Few women know that the abortion process, whatever the gestational age, can be carried out
differently. What is known as "expectant management" involves allowing the body to do for itself,
letting the body recognize the death of the baby and deliver it; its safety is scientifically supported.
The only requirement is to give the body the necessary time to do so, as it can take from several days
to several weeks.
Many doctors who are outdated in their protocols consider this option to be nothing less than reckless,
or only recommend it in very early gestations or in those where an imminent miscarriage is confirmed,
but advise against it for pregnancies with a gestational age of more than 9-12 weeks. Thus, many of
these professionals omit this option from the available alternatives, forcing the woman to choose
active management, whether pharmacological, by vacuum aspiration or curettage.
Sometimes, even if the woman asks for it, she is often frightened by a myriad of risks that would arise
in case she chooses the option contrary to active management, conditioning her final decision. It
should not be forgotten that, for a professional, to be attentive to a pregnant woman for weeks,
performing ultrasound scans and giving them their time and dedication has an assistance and personal
cost that not everyone is willing to assume. In the face of this, active management allows the
professional to solve the problem more quickly. This is similar to what has happened with medicalized
childbirth, which went from being an exceptional or infrequent option in its beginnings, to being the
option of choice. All deliveries, including those of low risk, have been actively treated, relegating
low/no intervention natural childbirth, which should be the majority of cases, to a true exception,
without this change in care being supported by scientific evidence or resulting in greater benefits for
maternal and fetal health.
It is enough to take a look at the scientific articles on the management of gestational loss to see the
indisputable change towards the medicalization of abortion in the same way that childbirth began to be
medicalized. As in normal childbirth, this change is not adequately supported by scientific evidence,
and responds to other reasons, such as greater comfort from the point of view of care and the
overvaluation of medical intervention, becoming a routine and insufficiently questioned type of action.
So, it is worth asking ourselves: is expectant management really dangerous, and active management
safer? To what extent are these complications that obstetricians always mention real and to what
extent are they incompatible with the possibility of expectant management? Are we talking about
safety for the woman or comfort for the gynecologist?
The main problems with E management are: the appearance of cogulopathies and infections as a
consequence of incomplete abortion. With respect to coagulopathies, they are frequent when four
weeks after fetal death are exceeded. It is estimated that they occur in 25% of gestations with E
management above 4 weeks, but in spite of this, they usually do not involve serious sequelae.
However, to prevent this potential complication it may be useful to perform blood tests from time to
time (blood fibrinogen levels below 100mg/dl). are usually indicative of coagulopathy).
With respect to infection and the presence of incomplete abortions, it would be sufficient to monitor
for the appearance of fever, pain and/or excessive bleeding and to perform frequent ultrasound scans
to evaluate that there are no retained remains, in which case surgical management would be used.
However, it is also not advisable to exacerbate the surveillance process with ultrasound scans, as this
can lead to impatience and may result in the patient finally being operated on, rather than waiting a
little longer.
At this point it is important not to confuse expectant management with abandoning the woman to her
fate, or doing nothing. Always keep a watchful eye. From the moment the case is diagnosed, each
situation must be assessed, risks must be weighed and, if possible and if the mother so decides, the
mother must wait with vigilance. It should also be noted that vaginal ultrasound scans have a very high
value in the follow-up of expectant management abortion, since it has the capacity to diagnose the
presence of adherent fetal tissue that has not been expelled very accurately, so that active management
could be left for the case that it is strictly necessary. With these precautions, E handling is a safe
option.
Ignorance: it is a major difficulty not to know the physiological process of an abortion, its phases.
Not knowing what to expect, what is normal and what are the warning signs. Treating miscarriage as a
disease that requires intervention, medication, anesthesia, surgery, instrumentalization... Allowing the
unfounded idea to spread that if a miscarriage is not curetted, the woman will bleed to death and die
without remedy. All of these are prejudices, conjectures not based on scientific evidence that
undermine, once again, a woman's confidence in her body, the vision of her body as something
defective, that does not work well.
In general, ignorance implies leaving the process passively in the hands of others, leaving the body at
the mercy of unnecessary invasive interventions that physiology would carry out without so many
added risks. Others decide how, when and where to intervene, without being made aware of the
possibility of expectant management with unnecessary urgency, since most abortions are not medical
emergencies, and the mother can be given time to explain the alternatives and to participate in making
decisions about her sexual and reproductive health in a conscientious and adult manner.
Ignorance also means not having complete information about what active management means: how it
is performed, the risks it may entail and the complications that may occur during the intervention and
afterwards.
In this context of ignorance we could also include the perception that many women may have of
expectant management as if it were a lack of medical attention, a saving of resources at their expense,
a feeling of neglect in the care of their early loss. This invasive procedure has been used for so long, as
a matter of routine, that there is a popular belief that without curettage the woman will bleed to death,
or that it is dangerous to have something dead in the uterus, but there is no perceived risk involved.
Fear: hinders expectant management, and is a consequence of the ignorance described in the previous
section. Fear of the unknown, of the physiological process, of abortion being a threatening event for
our life, or for our reproductive life and not being able to have more children... Fear of dying, of
bleeding to death, of catching infections... Fear is a very powerful feeling, which clouds reason and
wisdom, the innate certainties. Fear can be physically and mentally upsetting. The women often say
that because of the fear and sadness they felt (a fatal combination), they let it happen, trusting that
those who cared for them would act in the best way possible. Knowing the source of the fear and
addressing it with a good accompaniment would be a good way to deal with it.
Respectful professional accompaniment in the management of expectant abortion would also help.
Today, too many women who choose this path are abandoned by professionals to their fate because
they have not obeyed and have not followed the only career path indicated: active management. And
they spend the non-medicalized physiological loss alone, in their homes, with professionals looking
the other way, threatening them that their behavior entails a risk of death, labeling this decision as
foolish.
Pain: knowing why a miscarriage hurts, what its phases are, knowing what to expect and knowing
what means are available to defend oneself from this pain without causing harm or undesirable
consequences for the woman would help to understand it and, therefore, be able to cope with it much
better. Filled with emotional pain from the loss, too often without adequate support, women feel a lot
of physical pain. Others do not. As in childbirth, not all women experience contractions and the phases
of labor in the same way. But the experience of a physiological abortion is a work that helps to say
goodbye, to begin the path of mourning. It is important to note that the natural hormonal cocktail that
is set in motion implies an important release of endorphins, important pain palliative agents that make
the breasts feel a euphoria, a power that helps them to cope with the loss and to reconcile with their
body. Michel Odent explains it very clearly (personal communication: "the hormonal cocktail that is
set in motion in a respected loss is an antidepressant in itself, the best".
Abortion is surrounded by taboos that have prevented women from passing on this wisdom of
physiological loss from generation to generation. Today, in the supposedly era of "open and taboo-free
sexuality", abortions continue to be hushed up and treated in the operating room as something to be
urgently removed, like an annoying appendix. And, in fact, the remains of that baby are treated in this
way: as surgical offal, which says a lot about the sensitivity and understanding of this subject by our
culture. Since abortion is considered a disease that requires surgical intervention with general
anesthesia, its logical consequence is to think that it is a process so painful that it cannot be endured
alive; pain that is difficult to bear without a good accompaniment, because it must be added to the pain
of loss that diminishes the feeling of strength to face it.
The disadvantage of dispensing with the wisdom of the woman's body to expel that pregnancy which,
for whatever reason, is not progressing, is that some women live without living it, with an unnatural
rapidity without the psyche internalizing it or recording it. No time to register it.
Impatience: Abortion, as a general rule, is not a medical emergency. In fact, waiting for the body to
start up, i.e. 6 to 8 weeks after the arrest of the heartbeat, would avoid many curettages and aspirates.
Many more if we take into account that most of the interventions are performed while the woman is in
the middle of the bleeding process. It is as if a woman in dynamic labor, without any complications,
were to have a cesarean section. Sometimes we might even wonder if the curettage is done so quickly
to ensure the intervention, because if we waited a little longer, it would no longer be necessary. To this
type of behavior we must add the attitude we have towards death today: we run to hide it, to deny it,
especially intrauterine death, so that we can quickly say: nothing happened here. But nothing could be
further from the truth. As in childbirth, respecting the woman's time is fatal for the professionals'
schedules and the hospital infrastructure.
It is not surprising that in a time when everything has to be done so quickly, impatience occupies a
preeminent place in a process as hard as waiting for the outcome of the expulsion of a baby in
formation without life. Once it is known that the pregnancy has failed, the impatience comes from the
lack of knowledge of the physical labor of the abortion, of the mini-labor. Most of the time it is not
known exactly when the baby's heart stopped beating, the fatal outcome, but just when the
professional informs the woman, an incomprehensible rush invades him to act immediately, without
time for the couple to digest the news, without time to inform the various possibilities of approach.
The breast is usually curetted in a state of shock, stretched out on the verge of being put to sleep under
general anesthesia, most of the time, without having been able to react; full of fear, anguish, pain and
alone; without adequate accompaniment.
This haste deprives the woman of this fundamental accompaniment: neither her emotional needs nor
those of her partner are met, and sometimes there is even obstetric abuse. The baby's remains are
treated as an excised appendix, a surgical offal, a foul cyst to be thrown away.
An abortion, unlike childbirth, is not planned in advance unless the woman has undergone repeated
abortions, has a history of miscarriages and, just in case, respectful treatment is sought. This is why it
is so important for obstetrical professionals to be trained to care adequately in such circumstances for
bereaved parents who have suddenly found themselves in the worst of situations in their state of good
hope.
The advantages of natural abortion are rapid physical recovery, regaining confidence in one's own
body and its power and wisdom. It means being able to resume the search for the desired child the
moment the desire arises without having to wait for the uterine walls to recover from an artificial
curettage.
The approach to abortion with curettage takes into account a small part of the loss: the physical. The
problem is solved by immediate elimination. But abortion involves much more complexity and much
more to attend to; a range that encompasses the emotional, spiritual, psychic, social and cultural
spheres. The characteristics of these spheres feed back on each other, and it should be noted that they
are not resolved at the same time. It is obvious that a holistic approach to gestational loss is urgently
needed.
Fear
It is a human emotion that helps us to protect ourselves, to be alert. Being afraid is healthy. It is
logical to be afraid in certain situations.
Losing a baby we were expecting keeps us on our toes; it is logical not to want to go through the
same thing again. We need to further verify that everything is going well, that the pregnancy is on
course.
After a first baby whose heart stopped beating, subsequent pregnancies experience a state of
alertness that, although it is reduced after the dates of the previous loss, does not disappear until
the day the healthy baby arrives. There is also a greater difficulty in bonding with the baby
growing in the womb, in case the same thing happens. Thus, both subsequent pregnancies after
the loss and deliveries will be affected.
In addition to this fear, there are all the other fears related to childbirth. Factors influencing fear
and pain in childbirth: culture has led us to have a registered model of painful childbirth, from
which the woman has no possible escape. Although there have been cases of pleasant deliveries
throughout obstetric history, the myth of pain seems to be indelible. Expectations have a clear
effect. The mido influences the secretion of oxytocin, in turn influencing the muscular
movements of the uterus and, consequently, causing painful contractions. The lack of knowledge
of the physiology of childbirth on the part of the population in general and of the health workers
themselves in particular means that the accompaniment of childbirth (observation, monitoring,
use of invasive techniques) is an environment conducive to the secretion of adrenaline, thus
blocking the effect of the other neurohormones responsible for childbirth (oxytocin, dopamine,
etc.).The lack of knowledge of the physiology of childbirth on the part of the general population
and of the health care professionals themselves in particular, means that accompanying it
(observation, monitoring, use of invasive techniques) is a favorable environment for the secretion
of adrenaline, thus blocking the effect of the other neurohormones responsible for childbirth
(oxytocin, dopamine, etc.).
Studies and the experience of various professionals show that preparation for childbirth focused
on reducing fear and promoting a state of mental relaxation reduces pain. It would be important to
take these factors into account in preparation for childbirth after one or more losses.
PdP
Labor after one or more losses can be affected in many ways.
The birth of a new baby may be a reminder of the one that is gone, so the woman will be faced
with both feelings of faithfulness to the stillborn baby and fear of a new loss, increasing her
alertness levels. This fear can make contractions more painful. Trauma pain in the body, if not
previously released, can lead to more pain in labor. The contractions themselves may be a
reminder of the contractions of the body when the baby was lost.
The upcoming arrival of a live baby can give them a lot of strength and a very satisfying birth.
We know that uncertainty and fear block the effect of oxytocin, one of the hormones responsible
for childbirth and breastfeeding. Some studies have observed, for example, a relationship between
trauma and pain in childbirth.
For example, in a group of women with a history of childhood sexual abuse, almost all reported
pain in childbirth. Uncertainty and fear can affect the functioning of the uterine musculature and
the blood supply to the uterus, which can cause not only more pain but also a slower and harder
labor. All this, if not handled with care, can lead to more unnecessary interventions: oxytocin to
accelerate labor, fetal distress, use of instruments, cesarean section, mother-baby separation...
The emphasis should be on minimizing the sources of fear, building confidence in the mother,
empowering her and also using the same resources we have discussed for pregnancy to reduce
fear: defocusing, helping the mother not to think that her health or that of her baby may be
threatened in any way. This will be all the easier the more you have worked from this point of
view during gestation.
It would be very beneficial for the medical staff to have an empathetic attitude and not threaten
her with oxytocin or a cesarean section because of the slow progression of labor, as the woman
would feel more frustrated and distrustful of her ability to achieve this.
Although high-grade panic or fear of childbirth tends to be more prevalent in late gestational
losses or when those were related to childbirth, the fear of losing the baby again or having
something happen to the baby may still be anchored. Perhaps the fear is not processed at a
conscious level, but it will be installed in our brain, in our limbic system, so that all the stimuli
and circumstances of childbirth can bring it to light and trigger the reaction of fear and with it will
come the tension, the resistance to the progress of labor, to the contractions to follow...
Our uterus will have to fight against this resistance. The cervix will remain contracted, and each
contraction will have to be stronger, more intense and more frequent to soften and open it. This is
what generates the pain of childbirth. If we fail to break this vicious circle at some point, the pain
can grow like a spiral and become unbearable; and it can not only cause more pain, but delay,
block and hinder labor. Some mothers use this unbearable pain to give up in despondency, to
surrender to childbirth, to abandon themselves. In these cases, the Plan B that the body deploys in
the face of extreme pain can be of great help: the body will generate a cascade of endorphins that
lead the woman to an altered state of consciousness thanks to which she stops focusing on the
pain and childbirth flows again. But for this to happen, the birth must take place in the right
environment: empathy, respect, good accompaniment, warm temperature, safety... If this is not
possible in any way. Epidurals may be the key for the woman to get some respite and relax.
Although epidurals may facilitate relaxation and dilation in some women, it is not advisable to
resort to them without taking into account the disadvantages. In this case, the most important
thing for the woman's peace of mind and the proper progress of labor is the attention of health
professionals.
If the fear of childbirth is very intense at the end of pregnancy, some women, to avoid the
anxiety, will believe that a cesarean section is the safest option and will opt for a scheduled
cesarean section. Although the woman should always have the final decision on delivery, far from
cesarean section representing a safer option, it is the other way around. Cesarean section is a
delivery option that involves greater risks for both mother and baby. The decision to request a
cesarean section as a safer route has more to do with our view of the supremacy of technology
and medicalization over natural physiology, strongly rooted in our culture, but as the scientific
evidence shows, this belief is a mistake that holds no truth whatsoever. It would be desirable for
women considering a planned cesarean section to receive adequate care and information about
each intervention, and to obtain good informed consent about the risks of the interventions.
In general, women who have been able to experience expectant management are able to face the
delivery of a live baby with more internal tools, as they are more aware of their body's reactions
and regain confidence in it; after delivery, they feel full of endorphins, triumphant and strong.
They know that giving birth to a live baby is a prize they did not get with the loss, even if the size
changes. Expectant management of the loss is a good psychological preparation for future
deliveries. These women require a more careful, but not paternalistic, accompaniment, with more
patience and respect for time, without pressure, although this would really be the appropriate care
for any woman in labor, whether it is a live or dead baby, weighing 2 or 4kg.
In childbirth after one or more losses, several factors come together: the attitude of the mother
and her partner, the attitude of the professionals and her environment, and the physiological
consequences of the loss itself. It should not be forgotten that a birth after loss is not a risky birth,
but it is a special birth, although all births should be special. Under no circumstances should
women in labor be considered hysterical, neurotic or exaggerated. They have reason to feel this
way.
Is early gestational loss related to obstetric complications in subsequent pregnancies and
deliveries? A study conducted in the United Kingdom concluded that they do. Comparing women
who had previously had several miscarriages (averaging 9 weeks) with women who had had
successful pregnancies, the former had a higher risk of obstetric complications including:
preeclampsia, threatened miscarriage, preterm delivery, low birth weight, malpresentation,
postpartum hemorrhage, induced labor, instrumental delivery, and manual removal of the
placenta. However, it was found that these risks were no greater than in primiparous women, and
it was therefore concluded that women with gestational or perinatal losses behaved like
primiparous women in their subsequent pregnancies. This study dealt with the difficulty of
finding several investigations on a single previous abortion; the results do not determine the
origin of the risks, but they do point out that, for example, a premature delivery could be due to
the interventions performed in the previous abortions.
It is possible that, during childbirth, it is the father who is reactivated by the pain of the previous
loss. He (or she in the case of another woman) may also need attention. The couple will need
support and attention.
Once the baby is born, there is virtually no reason to separate the mother and baby. For any
mother it is essential to know that her baby is well, but when there have been previous losses,
even more so. The immediate establishment of breastfeeding is a very beneficial factor for both.
Sometimes, bonding difficulties with the new baby, if any, can be compensated by permanent
skin-to-skin contact with breastfeeding on demand.
CHAPTER 11
What did your baby teach you?
Despite the pain of loss, women are able to take something good out of this experience. After a
period of mourning, sometimes even at quite recent stages of the loss, they talk about what the
baby who left them has left them as a gift. There are technical terms to designate this reaction as
resilience, or in the case of trauma, post-traumatic growth.
Although going through this life experience is so hard for the mothers and none of them would
choose it consciously, there is a very important common point in all the testimonies: none of them
would change the time they spent with their babies in the womb, none of them would erase this
experience. They thank life for sending them this baby. Those who were not yet mothers, made
them mothers; those who already had children, learned fundamental aspects about themselves,
about life. They say they feel deeper, wiser, better people. They learn to love themselves, to take
care of themselves and to be more aware of themselves. It is a gift of long duration, and the
lessons they have taught are manifested not only at the onset of the loss, but throughout the
bereavement and throughout life.
What did your baby teach you? I don't just leave them with sadness. It also left them with a lot of
love, a growing love for the lost baby, for their partner, for the new people they met and
accompanied them... They value the discovery of a deeper, timeless, perennial love that goes
beyond a physical presence. Love in its purest form, some call it.
They learned to recognize what was true and important in their lives: the truth of many of their
social, family, work relationships... that were already that way but for many reasons they
overlooked it.
They learned that babies also die: without warning, without any symptoms, without even
suspecting it, and even if it happens so soon, in gestation time, their memory will last forever.
They all agree that the baby has taught them to value the present more, the importance of the here
and now. The past may be bitter, and the future is unknown. They have learned to value the little
things in life that are important to each of them. The loss has made them stronger: they have
realized how much more courageous and feisty they are than they ever thought they would be;
they can fall down again and again and get up and keep going. Seeing this courage reflected in
other women who have gone through the same thing (and seeing it for yourself) gives you a lot of
strength to get through the grief successfully, as well as to apply these new strengths to different
facets of your life. They learned to accept that life is not under our control, neither our own nor
that of others.
They consider banalities, superfluous aspects, issues that may be important to other innocent
mothers, such as the sex of the baby or having material things ready for its arrival or the fear of the
physical pain of childbirth.
They learned to value and know what helps them: silent and empathetic accompaniment instead of
empty words.
They learn to forgive each other, since they all felt guilty in one way or another for what
happened, and to value the time they lived together, the immense joy with which they received the
knowledge that they were pregnant and the excitement of being pregnant for some time, wonderful
sensations that they feel that reached the baby.
All the moms say they have never been the same; therefore, it was their babies that made them
different. This change does not mean anything to them so much a transformation into another
person, but rather the change of someone who has grown up, who has expanded their boundaries.
These creatures of fleeting life in our bosom did not just happen. It is part of the way to find out
about the gifts they brought us.
CHAPTER 12
Pedagogy of death
When we look at the formation of the individual, in the educational curriculum, we see that death
has no place. It is not talked about, it does not have a space. It is hidden in textbooks, in
classrooms, in our environment and in hospitals.
Gestational death is not discussed in the topics of sexuality and reproduction. On the other hand,
there is currently talk of assisted reproduction, that is to say, of problems that can occur in
fertilization and possible medical-scientific solutions, when it is precisely a major source of
gestational losses, of pregnancies that do not progress, of the loss of one of the twins, of embryos
that are rejected because the desired ones have already been implanted? Let us remember that the
success rate of these techniques is far from 100%.
Sex education and the couple's fertile life is focused on contraceptives and the possibility that a
woman can become pregnant around every corner, but people are not prepared for the difficulty of
conceiving when they finally want to.
When children grow up and reproduce, they do not find anything in books dedicated to
accompanying motherhood or in childbirth preparation classes that deal with this type of death. It
is like a bad omen from which the pregnant partner is protected. But it also leaves them illiterate
and helpless in the face of loss. One out of every 3 pregnancies is lost, it is not something so
exceptional, and no one has been prepared for it. Talking about gestational death in childbirth
preparation, in pregnancy books... does not kill intrautero babies. Talking about or discussing the
subject while pregnant, either. It is important to make this clear because it is a prejudice that exists
in pregnancy support settings.
It is important to prepare all people who are likely to have children for this possibility.
Our society has, with increasing intensity and urgency, the need to be trained on an emotional
level, a field that is very neglected in our culture. This emotional education should include the
subject of death and also specifically gestational death: what is a grieving process, its phases, the
feelings that may arise and the ways to cope with it. Focused on resilience, creativity, humor,
introspection... enriching emotional bonds, giving and receiving affection, empathy, altruism, self-
esteem... all with coherence and a sense of life. We would learn to cope with future gestational
losses and also any other traumatic situation.
It would be of great help, therefore, not only for fathers and mothers who will inevitably go
through it, but also for those who are lucky enough not to have to live through it, to know how to
better understand, accompany and help their friends, siblings or relatives who will experience a
loss. Who doesn't know someone who has lived through it? Who has not lost a sibling, a nephew,
a cousin, a neighbor... in gestation?
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