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Emily Lim
4, October 2023
Mr. Malashewski
If there’s one thing I have learned in my almost 16 years of existence on this planet, it
would be this. The truth about the world is that 95% of the stories and warnings you’ve been told
Since I was a young girl, I’ve been told the stories of what it’s like in the “real
world,” or so that's what my father always called it. What it’s like to grow up as a girl, how you
When I was younger I had this obsession with being “different” and “special” compared
to everyone else. I would always break these rules in terms of my physical appearance. I’d dress
in the most baggy, unattractive pieces of clothes, wouldn’t brush my hair, and wore quite
possibly the ugliest sneakers I have ever seen in my entire life. Maybe it was my obsession with
books and how the main characters always stood out. I wanted to be different like them, almost
like a “pick me” as teenagers call it now. I didn’t like these “rules” society had created for young
girls (like me!) and girls who were older than me.
Since the beginning of time, there have always been these standards and rules that had
been “written” for women to follow. During 1292-1069 B.C. in Ancient Egypt, women were
domesticated and had less rights than men. They were expected to look the same way: slender
bodies, narrow shoulders, high-waisted, and a symmetrical face. During 500-300 B.C. in Ancient
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Greece, they were expected to be fair-skinned and plump. They were expected to worship the
male figure, meaning that their bodies had to be masculine, a disfigured version of a male.
Chinese people favored women with femininity, long black hair, fair skin, and red lips during the
Han Dynasty (206 B.C. - 220 A.D.). They were expected to naturally be thin and have small feet
because shoes were made in 2 sizes at most. In the 1920’s, the ideal type was a flat-chested
woman with, a downplayed waist, short bobbed hair, and a boyish figure. Women at the time
Throughout time, women have had to learn to adapt their bodies to cater to a male’s eye
and needs. Even in the present, western standards are to be on the shorter side so you don’t
bruise a male’s ego, to be skinny but still have bigger breasts or larger curves at the hips. Most of
the time it would be preferable to have both because it’s “more fun” for a male. You should be a
Beauty standards are a fun thing you know. I’m a 15-year-old, Chinese American girl
living in Honolulu, Hawaii. This means I’m trying to fit in not one, but two (almost three)
different standards of beauty created by society. Most of the time, the beauty standards clash with
each other so it’s quite literally impossible for one to fit in multiple. For example, when it comes
to my body shape, I am told here in America that I should be skinny but have these bigger curves
to be considered “pretty.” In China, they don’t care about having curves, they want you to be
challenges on Chinese social media of holding a live goldfish in your collarbone because it’s a
test of whether you’re skinny or not. Another example is that in America, the majority of the
population is tanned. If you go anywhere in eastern Asia, you’ll find that they want you to look
as pale as possible. Being compared to Snow White is the best compliment you could get.
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Beauty standards have always existed in the world. New beauty stands are simple to start
as the male gaze gets bored easily. Basically, once a group of people can agree on an ideal “type”
of woman, the trend builds as more and more people jump on the bandwagon. Soon, everyone as
a whole agrees on this type of beauty, before the male gaze gets bored and moves on to a whole
new standard of beauty. These standards have escalated in this generation due to social media.
It’s so easy to see a girl from a totally different place in the world and do one of two things. One:
pick them apart to pieces because they’re not “perfect” enough or two: worship the girl and
declare that she’s the hottest girl alive. It’s also so incredibly easy for girls to see these people
who are considered beautiful by society and want to be them because everything is one click
away.
For me, the self-consciousness in my body and my physical appearance started when I
was around 7th grade. The reason? We girls were going through the starting stages of puberty.
My mind could not wrap around the fact that these girls were developing faster than me. “Why
am I not getting these natural curves that other girls around me have?” I’m naturally a late
bloomer by genetics. All the women in my family started going through puberty at a later age,
just like me. Growing up through middle school and my first year of high school not knowing
why I hadn’t started puberty was hell. I started to pick at my body and hated the way I looked. I
wasn’t considered pretty by Western beauty standards because I was a pale Asian girl with long
black hair. When I finally started the beginning stages of puberty late freshman year, I was so
happy.
Until I wasn’t.
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Developing at a much later time than everyone else still meant that I stuck out like a sore
thumb compared to everyone else. My body was still developing and I was at this awkward stage
of puberty. I still couldn’t understand why I didn’t develop the same natural curves every single
other girl did. The picking apart started all over again, but it was worse.
During lunch one day, my friend and I were standing in the plate lunch line at the
cafeteria. We were talking about something and were waiting until we got to the front of the line
to pick up our food. My friend and I finally got up to the front where we were finally served our
food. My friend is naturally on the skinny side, and I definitely have more weight on me than she
does. I remember I was looking at the worker who was serving everyone their food, and he was
focused on the plate, scooping food. He took one look at me, made a disgusted face, and
proceeded to scoop off half the food on the plate. He handed the plate to me and looked at my
friend while filling up her plate. Again, he makes a disgusted face and adds more food to hers.
We left the lunch line, one plate having half the serving size and the other with double the
amount. We were both so incredibly self-conscious after that. This proceeded for about 3 months.
Throughout these months, the repetition got to a point where I was picking apart my body
more and more. Ultimately, this led to my eating disorder. I stopped eating for about 4 or so
months. It started with slowly lessening the amount of food I was consuming, eating half the
amount of food I was originally eating, to only eating lunch and the smallest amount of dinner
(due to my parents’ protests of course). The funny thing about eating disorders is that you don’t
even realize what’s happening until it's too late. Even with my eating disorder, my body wasn’t
decreasing in size, I wasn’t losing as much weight as I had hoped. Every night, I took Sharpies to
my body and drew out the imperfections on my stomach, creating the curves I wanted.
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You might be reading and thinking “wow she’s so dramatic” or “oh she’s making all of
this up” but I’m not. Breaking down in a room every single day and starving yourself is not
something that can be a joke. This happens to thousands of girls the same age or younger than
me, and even to girls who are older than me. Thousands of girls out there are struggling with
these standards that ultimately lead to taking whatever extremes you can just to fit into what
Recovery is hard. When you feel like you’re the only abnormal one because you’re the
only girl in the world doing this to herself, it’s incredibly hard to continue. When you feel alone
Recently, women have been given the platform to speak through versions of art about
Anyone who knows me knows that my favorite artist of all time is no other than the
songwriting queen herself, Taylor Swift. You might know her as “the girl who only writes songs
about her exes” but she writes about so much more. Taylor Swift, too, struggled with an eating
disorder throughout 2014 during the release of her album 1989. You know, Shake It Off, Blank
Space, Bad Blood? Around the time of the start of my recovery, I had rediscovered her music and
what she has done in her career. Taylor Swift is one of the only songwriters and music artists
I remember on October 21st, 2022 at 5:50 pm Eastern Standard Time, I was waiting
anxiously for Midnights, Taylor Swift’s 10th studio album to drop. When the album dropped,
around 6:15 pm that day, You’re On Your Own Kid, the 5th track on the album, played. One of
the things she loves to do is make Track 5 her most emotionally valuable song in the album. I
was so excited to hear this song. The bridge was what did it for me. I remember hearing her
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practically summarizing the events that she's been through in her life, and crying right there on
the spot. The bridge opened up with “From sprinkler splashes to fireplace ashes I gave my blood,
sweat, and tears for this. I hosted parties and starved my body like I’d be saved by a perfect
kiss.” The song ends with one of my favorite lyrics: “So make the friendship bracelets, take the
moment and taste it, you got no reason to be afraid. You're your own kid, yeah you can face
this.” This bridge itself made my struggles feel seen, and millions of other people on the internet
can agree.
The ability to feel connected to her songs as a girl growing up within the standards set for
women is evident in many of her other songs and forms of media. She’s spoken so much about
her body image (Miss Americana - 2020), and the comparison of women online (You Need To
Calm Down - 2019). She’s written about how much women need to do to actually accomplish
something compared to a man (The Man - 2019), and how hard we need to try to fit in
(mirrorball- 2021). She’s created songs about confidence and loving yourself (Shake It Off -
2014) and has called out the media on cyberbullying (Mean - 2010). Even from her debut album,
she’s talked about staying true to yourself (Stay Beautiful - 2006) and she is truly inspiring with
her recovery (Clean - 2014). She’s created a safe space for women to just… feel.
Recently, another form of media created solely for girls growing up in society was
released. The Barbie movie is one of my favorite moments in film history… ever. Gloria, a
character in the movie, has a monologue about her experiences of being a woman in today’s
society. “It is literally impossible to be a woman… Like, we have to always be extraordinary, but
somehow we’re always doing it wrong…. I’m just so tired of watching myself and every single
other woman tie herself into knots so that people will like us. And if all of that is true for a doll
just representing women, then I don’t even know.” Her monologue brought me to tears and I
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could hear sniffles of every other girl, young, and old crying in the theater about how true the
Internationally, women have started to take that step as well. I’m a big fan of K-pop.
Many female idols perform songs about body image and fitting into the standards that are put
upon them. Tally (2022) by BLACKPINK shares a message about doing what makes you feel
good and happy. Songs Tomboy (2022), Nxde (2022), Queencard (2023), and Allergy (2023) by
(G)I-dle share powerful messages about not fitting into the beauty standards and being okay with
it, a callout to people who take everything a girl does and sexualize it, being confident in your
own skin, and the effect of media in one’s confidence about their body.
The struggles of a girl should be heard. No one should feel alone while being in recovery,
getting into recovery, or even the feeling of having self-conscious thoughts about your body
image. We as a society need to start to acknowledge the struggles we’re putting on women, and
change the mindset of tying us down to a certain image. We shouldn’t need to feel like we have
to look the same, act the same, or be the same just to get the slightest bit of acknowledgment of
“Yay you’re starting to fit!” from the public. Beauty standards have never been the same, so why
do we try to fit in them? Why do we have them? Why do we need to have them?
Take my story. Let it be a story you tell to the younger girls growing up. Let them know
that they don’t have to be the same. Or use it as an example of a person who wasn’t good enough
and didn’t put enough effort to be perfect. Use my hurt as a warning of what happens to a girl if
they don’t follow the leader. Make your decision. But don’t come back years later regretting not
listening to me when you contribute to the hurt of another young girl like me.
Works Cited
Burack, Emily. "Read America Ferrera's Powerful Monologue in Barbie." Town and Country, 5
arts-and-culture/a44725030/america-ferrera-barbie-full-monologue-transcript/. Accessed
29 Sept. 2023.
Edwards, Vanessa Van. "Beauty Standards: See How Body Types Change Through
Emily Lim
4, October 2023
Mr. Malashewski
Rhetorical Analysis
Lim begins her paper fighting female standards by establishing that women have had to
listen to these standards from when they were young, throughout the rest of their lives. She
narrates her experiences with standards and her childhood, starting with her experience of being
told “the stories” growing up. She expresses her young, rebel-like mindset of not wanting to
follow the standards and how she had an “obsession with being ‘different’ and ‘special’.” She
then explains that the point was that at a young age she “didn’t like these ‘rules’ society had
created” for girls like her. Lim establishes the fact that not just teenagers and adults have to
follow standards, but every girl young or old knows of these standards and are pushed to follow
them.
She describes that these standards have gotten to the point that she, like many other girls, took
whatever it took to “fit into what someone considers ‘pretty.’” She paints images of her pain and
recovery, and opens up about how difficult her recovery was. Her story brings emotions to the
reader, quietly pushing them to do something about these impossible standards set for women.
When describing her recovery, she lists music artists that have helped her in her recovery,
including Taylor Swift. She then not only provides the meaning behind some of her music, but
tells her story or how she’s struggled with these standards too. This gives examples of how the
author was able to connect, but shows the readers the “ability to feel connected” if they need to
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too. Giving a synopsis of Swift’s music shows the readers an example of another girl who’s
struggled against these standards who is now pushing for more change.
Lim ends her paper by warning readers of what could happen and to take what
she’s written and to do something with it. She confronts the readers with the decision to use her
story to uplift “the younger girls growing up” or as an “example of a person who wasn’t good
enough.” She pushes a choice on the readers to choose the choice that will be the least hurtful to
an innocent young girl and warns to pick that choice “wisely.” The pressure of choice after
reading her story pushes readers to do better, think better, and make a change to protect women