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Chapter One
It seems like such a long time ago, dreaming of walking in dad’s footsteps. To be a Green
Beret, and really make a difference in the world. The world needed more people to aspire to
difference making. So, at seven years old a training program continued every day in the martial
arts; a black belt eventually was awarded. High school classes were a breeze. Just had to wait for
the opportunity to enlist at the age of eighteen years old. We trained together. He trained to stay
fit, its what war heroes do, he had been a career soldier. So, he didn’t have any reservations about
me enlisting. Being his only son, he didn’t want to lose me, but if I was to go anywhere dad
expected the army to make a man out of his first-born, I told dad the bus was an option, he
finally relented after many conversations and drove me to Detroit, to the enlistment center.
Recruits were sent for basic training at Fort Benning, Georgia. Basic training was a ten-
week program. With traveling done, back to training felt good. The goal; to be platoon captain.
Faced very stiff competition from three other recruits. We constantly pushed each other to raise
the bar for this promotion. With it came a lot of responsibilities, If the platoon screwed up the
platoon captain took the brunt of punishment doled out by our instructors. We spent many an
hour on our faces doing an incredible number of pushups. We had a knife fighting class where
each member of the platoon competed against other recruits. Knife fighting had become our
family’s specialty, dad had taught well, cut through the recruits like a knife through butter
issued. All the recruits in our platoon formed a circle around us and started to cheer us both on.
The drill instructor was very adept with a knife, but so was I. The advantage was he didn’t know
I was well trained in knife fighting and hand to hand combat. He tried a forward thrust with his
knife and I stepped inside his arm, grabbing and slamming his knife hand against my knee while
using his forward momentum to flip him over my shoulder and onto his back on the ground,
swearing while on his back. Offering him a hand and helping pull him standing upright.
“Yes, “I answered.
He said, “give me 50 pushups recruit, never help your opponent up, finish the job, it
August 12th,1982
That was the turning point of my training. I did make platoon captain and upon
graduation, meritoriously promoted to Private Second Class. Upon graduation, orders were
given to report to Fort Rucker, Alabama, for infantry training. Once you are out of bootcamp
you have a lot more freedom. You report for training during the day and at night you can pretty
much do your own thing. Most guys hit the local bars and pubs. Settling for the gym, it felt so
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comforting, like a second home. A soldier could never be fast enough or strong enough. We
While at Fort Rucker we received news that our battalion was going to a hot spot over in
Iraq. This caused super excitement. Sure, enough word came down from our headquarters that
we indeed were going to Kirkuk, Iraq. A Patrol Base (BP) Outpost, not that far from the Iraq-
Iran border. Once our platoon arrived at Kirkuk, we settled in and started recon missions. Which
led to many a small skirmish between U.S. forces, Iraqi nationals, and Iranian militia. I
volunteered all the time for many a detail that was deemed dangerous.
Bound and determined to make a difference, no matter the cost, because we were in a war
zone, we were basically confined to camp. We could play soccer listen to music, watch an
occasional movie on an oversized white sheet that we stretched and tied to two poles. Life was
very dull unless you were on a mission which drew gunfire from opposing forces. This was a
new kind of warfare. You really didn’t see the enemy up close. Mortar rounds, sniper fire and
land mines that were planted under the sand on roads, these types of dangers were always
We were encouraged to attend services on Sunday’s. Our services were held outside with
a makeshift altar on the hood of a transport jeep. Confessions were always available before and
after services were finished. There were many different religious sects in our platoon. Mine
happened to be Catholic. Our platoon chaplain was Captain Ben Willis, a Toledo, Ohio native.
He had been a chaplain in the air force but because of the shortages of priest or chaplains,
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Captain Willis was on loan to our platoon. Captain Willis and I became good friends, often
hearing my confession. On more than one occasion I had fired on the enemy. I was pretty sure I
had hit the target because no return fire had happened, only a deafening silence. Which seemed
Telling Captain Willis of my want to make a difference in the world. I mentioned to him
how dad was a war hero, and the plan; follow in his footsteps. He often asked me, “Is that why
you volunteer for all these missions?” I sheepishly nodded. He would tell me that there were
many ways to make a difference in the world. He would tell me,” Look at me, never in a million
years did I think I would end up in a giant sand box like this”. This really is a God forsaken
Captain Willis encouraged me to take up writing to pass time when I wasn’t out on
missions. He said, “you might surprise yourself and come to like it.” “Especially writing poetry,
kinds of soothes the soul you might say,” he would go on to say. He gave me a worn brown
satchel in which to carry a journal. So, giving it a try and kind of liking it, managing to jot down
words and phrases every chance that came available. Even started putting a collection together,
although I was too embarrassed to send them to dad. Later found out he liked poetry, something
he had kept secret. Here is an example: The sky at times is completely torn, nerves, it seemed,
always worn. With bullets zinging, spraying sand, blood and sweat in a God forsaken land.
Boots sunk deep in pure white sand while your helmet and canteen carried in either hand.
Waiting for orders from our high command. No need to sigh and moan, U.S. soldiers here on
loan.
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February 8th, 1983
We had been here for at least 6 months. Patrols had been getting longer and seemed to
draw more gunfire each time we ventured out. Got winged a couple of times, flesh wounds, just
scratches, but enough to earn a purple Heart medal, which was awarded on February17th, 1984.
I sent it home to dad, told him to put it in our trophy case for now. The months flew by, another
tour in Iraq requested and granted, getting accustomed to the feel of sand everywhere, it almost
felt like home. Captain Willis also stayed on as Platoon Chaplain. Nice to have a familiar face to
share meals and conversation with. He was going out on missions with us. Giving us blessings,
last rites. Hearing confessions of dying soldiers, always seeming to make a difference to those
around him. Growing admiration for him by all the soldiers more and more with each passing
day.
Kept track on a whiteboard of how many missions went on and how many days injury
free, had racked up several weeks of plus days, not so great was other soldier’s luck. Several
had died and a few others badly wounded. Many returned to stateside with a flag draped over
their casket, others to nurse injurie, both came home, their time in Iraq abruptly ending with a
long flight home to a hero’s welcome. Captain Willis had said, “Those soldiers had made a
difference and those that died, should be remembered for their sacrifice while those that lived
still had emotional scars to match their physical scars.” I wasn’t sure which was worse, to be
going out twice a day and even at night. We went out on the 5th day of June, a Saturday. We
headed out at night trying to reach Al Kut. We were lulled by the beauty of the Iraqi skyline,
beautiful pink and yellow colors. The colors should have been a warning to us we were 20 miles
out, and the night was eerily quiet. We were on a road that was uncharted. So hard to see when
you’re running with no lights on to not give our position away. This night it wouldn’t matter.
Iraqi nationals had set up land mines and had set a trap for convoys traveling at night.
The attack started with flares going off, it seemed in all directions. The nighttime sky
which moments earlier had been so quiet and beautiful had turned deadly bright. We were
sitting ducks on this road, exposed to enemy fire. Iraqi nationals were armed with night vision
scopes on their rifles. They could see us even when the overhead flares and burned out. There
were makeshift buildings to the right of our position, but we were pinned down. Our convey had
some kick-ass soldiers on it and they quickly countered with their own weapons. I was shot in
the arm; luckily it was my left arm. I could still shoot back. Once we had our wits about us
those flairs helped us return fire. We were holding our own. The lieutenant in charge of the
convoy made sure he radioed in our position and command was sending Choppers and troops to
our location as backup. The Iraqi’s started using mortars to keep us in check. Each minute
seemed like hours. The radio man and the Lieutenant were hit by mortar fire. Parts of their
bodies went flying past me. Looking at what was left of the lieutenant’s head, one eye still open
staring at me with his one remaining eye. Fighting off the urge to throw up, grabbed my rifle
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The reinforcements were still several minutes away, so we were still being shot at with
rifle fire and mortar fire. I spotted Captain Willis blessing a bleeding solder. Seems like his
work was never finished. Mortar shells were landing all around us, seemed like it was only a
matter of time. Several soldiers decided to try and slide into the driver’s seat of each convoy
truck. I was next to the leady truck when it finally moved. I moved with it. We had gone about
20 feet when the truck’s driver’s side wheel hit a land mine. The explosion sent me flying about
10 feet backwards. Part of the front part of the truck became detached and flew in the air and
When you’re in a situation where you’re incapacitated the seconds turn to minutes then it
seems to be hours. This was a weakness of mine that crops up from time to time. I was pinned
under heavy metal, all I had was my knife, which by the way was a gift from dad. “Never leave
home without it,” he would say. Solid advice from a soldier to a soldier. The situation being
under this heavy piece of truck, my knee was bad, even if I wasn’t trapped, I doubt if I could run
for cover much less walk. Stray bullets were still zinging by the truck where I had stood just
moments before.
My pant leg felt very wet, knew it wasn’t sweat. The mind starts to unravel when you go
into shock. Voices of soldiers moaning in the night air, most of it friendly. A familiar voice
whispered loudly. Barely recognized Captain Willis’s voice as he crawled towards me on the
ground, his 45 drawn and ready to fire. His neck and shoulder were bleeding from gunfire, but
he was alive, and he was coming for me. He whispered so softly, could barely hear him. He
whispered, “the chopper will be here in a few minutes,” but Iraqi national soldiers were
approaching. We had to make it to the building that was on the right side of the road. It would
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provide some cover for us until help arrives. He started to use his helmet to dig. So, he could
pull me out from under the truck metal. He dug for a couple of minutes and then pulled me out.
Not able to stand, so he threw me over his shoulder and slowly started for the building.
I heard a couple of bullets hit the doorpost and heard Captain Willis gasp. He had been hit
again. Somehow, we got through the doorway, before he collapsed on top of me. He rolled off
me facing the doorway. An Iraqi national was coming through. Captain Willis got off two
rounds to the chest, and the Iraqi fell in a heap right in the doorway. As Captain Willis bent over
a bloody crucifix dangling from his neck and whispered, “I hear the chopper, you’re safe now”.
He said, “go make a difference,” That was the last thing remembered before losing
consciousness.
When I woke up, a male nurse had just changed the bandages on my leg. Grabbing his
arm and asking at the same time, “What bed Captain Willis was on”. The nurse gently took my
hand and said, Captain Willis didn’t make it back alive. He then handed me a box with Captain
Willis’s crucifix in it, still had blood on it from his neck wound. “What about a brown satchel is
The nurse said quietly,” yes, I’ll bring it to you”. I wrote dad a letter. Telling him what
had happened and told him that on Captain Willis’s tombstone at Arlington it should read
Captain Ben Willis “A Difference Maker.” I pulled out my journal, held it in my hands and
began to cry.