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Dr. Warwick
Writing 1
What would you rather read, a story or a scholarly essay? Now this answer can vary
depending on the person however, we need to keep in mind that both are equally important
depending on the circumstance. Now what if I told you there was a way to combine both of these
styles of literature that can be used as a powerful tool for identity and culture. The answer to this
would be through the use of autoethnography. In a Ted Talk video, titled “Overcoming Shame
Using Black Studies and Autoethnography,” Dr. Katie Diter explains how “autoethnography
refers to both the methods and product of researching and writing about personal lived
experiences and their relationship to culture.” With the help of autoethnography, people outside
of their corresponding culture are able to understand other individuals who face different
Mexican-American first generation student, my life experiences have come to shape the person
who I am today. As I was being raised by a single mother and my uncle the only way towards
success, according to them, would be through my education. With this ideology engraved in my
educational career. Downside of this, was that it resulted in me feeling burnout most if not all the
time. Writing has been quite a journey for me since the start of elementary school up until
present time as I’m finishing my Writing 1 course as a university student. Throughout this course
I was able to reflect through the use of autoethnography to determine what writing means to me.
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my early days of school where the safe walls of my elementary classrooms nurtured my
bilingualism. Everything I was exposed to was taught, read, written, spoken in both English and
Spanish. It wasn’t until middle school and high school that I was faced with the harsh and
scholarly tone of writing that my English teachers released upon me. Resulting in the death of
my love for reading and creativity. This is where my constant state of tiredness and burnout
started as I tried to excel at this new discovery that riddled me with anxiety every time I heard
the word “essay.” Don’t get me wrong, being bilingual is a blessing that I appreciate to this day,
but in that transition it made everything harder to understand. There were concepts that I
understood since it was taught to me in Spanish but having to translate that in my head to English
had me working twice as hard. My elementary classmates all expressed the same dilemmas as
they struggled to handle these new expectations as well. To say the least, I lost many
Honors or AP English classes due to my low confidence in writing and intimidation from my
peers as they excelled at these insane writing expectations. Going into university I knew I had a
lot of expectations set on myself and from my family members. Everyone in my family, my
parents, my younger siblings, my cousins, aunts, and uncles, have me on this pedestal as I am the
first one to ever attend a university. The thought of disappointing them and myself makes me
uneasy. With that in mind, when I started my first year at UCSB, each quarter when I saw the
course syllabus and saw a final paper made up the majority of my final grade, it made me want to
drop the course immediately. My doubts clouded my mind even though at the end I did a
relatively good job on it. With this certain mindset, starting Writing 1 my second year at UCSB,
had me panicking the days leading to the first day of class. It wasn’t until I was welcomed by a
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friendly face on my first day of class by my professor that I thought to myself “okay this might
not be that bad.” As the quarter progressed I proved myself wrong each day and I have never
“What is freewriting?” something that I asked myself that first week of the quarter when
our professor introduced it to us. According to the professor's directions everyday before we
started class we would do a five minute free writing exercise. At first it was a bit confusing but I
went along with it. It was until the second week of the quarter where we read “Freewriting” by
Elbow Peter where he explains that freewriting regularly will help you write without the
blocking and the flow of words will come more easily. What caught my attention the most is
when he mentions that when we write and edit at the same time it can be negative toward us due
thought back to all the times where I had to revise papers for my English classes and somehow
there were always mistakes I was making even though I tried improving my skills. Yet
something so simple as freewriting wasn’t really convincing for the years of expectations I was
taught in middle school and high school. I was proved wrong as each week progressed and I
found myself writing my ideas down without stopping until my little adrenaline rush was over.
This new writer in me bled into my two other Spanish courses as well. Before this course, it was
common for me to not meet the word count of a given assignment and struggling to find ways to
expand my thoughts. Now I had the opposite issue where I had too much content and needed to
shorten it down. Honestly this was such a nice problem to have rather than the previous one.
Within those first two weeks we also watched a video called “Gibbs’ Reflective Cycle
Explained” that walked us through the six different categories–description, feelings, evaluation,
analysis, conclusion, and action plan–on how to reflect on an experience. It was through this
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method that our class recorded our progress each week for the course. Now at the end of the
quarter, I can tell there has been some differences regarding my feelings toward writing and
As the course progressed, we had different readings that were introduced to us that
drastically changed my way of seeing the power that writing has and that I don’t have to follow
these specific expectations I was taught. In the reading “Storytelling and Identity: Writing
Yourself Into Existence” by Sarah Aird explains the power of the different aspects of storytelling
as it can result in “a powerful space to reclaim ourselves and discover our hero’s journey.” As I
read this, I immediately thought of my Latinx community where a majority of people see us as
criminals. This ugly stereotype breaks my heart because they don’t realize the struggle one goes
through when they leave their native land for a better life for themselves and kids. I firmly
believe that without immigrants this country would not run properly and plummet to the ground
without the help we provide. Yet we are underestimated all the time. This ideology people have
doesn’t weigh me down but builds a fire in me to excel in everything I do. Proof of that is my
presence at UCSB. Which in turn also connects to why I feel tired most of the time as I have
observed in my autoethnography journals. Our community has to work twice as hard just to
prove that we are more than the stereotypes. In the same way, I had an epiphany after reading
“Working Languages: Who We Are Matters in Our Writing” where the authors talk about how
schools made us believe there was only one certain style of writing that is based on “an ideal that
centers a “norm” often conceived as white, upper-middle class, “accentless,” and male, built
from a myth that our society needs only one language for unity.” Reading these words made me
realize why my love for reading died, it was because I was no longer connecting with these
hundred year old pieces of literature. Whereas in elementary school, the literature we were given
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was based on experiences that my classmates and I had lived, making us more interested in the
representation behind the beautifully put together words. They point out that when we write
about our identity and what community we are part of “is a way to show that our families,
friends, and people in our communities and their lives—their language and cultural practices,
histories, and ways of living—and the knowledge from their lived experiences matter.” These
words here inspired me on topics for my Project 1 and 2 for this course resulting in an easier
writing process. Whereas, in middle school and high school I was never given the opportunity to
write anything based on my identity which resulted in the writing process being so much harder.
I reflected back on how much I enjoyed writing a scholarship essay for my school district during
my senior year of high school opposed to my English class where I had to write an essay for a
Shakespeare play. I got an A on my Shakespearean paper but the ultimate reward was reading
my winning essay in front of the board of my school district. My family is a huge part of my
identity and ideologies which is why as the course progressed I didn’t feel burnout when writing
these essays but I actually enjoyed them and felt proud to be able to give a platform for my
family.
All in all, as the quarter is wrapping up on its final days I am feeling bittersweet as this
course comes to an end which is not a usual reaction from me and past English/Writing classes. I
look forward to applying all the new information I have learned throughout this course into
future writing assignments I know I will have. Now I know how to use my bilingualism as a tool
for writing like author Cristina Rivera Garza mentioned when I saw her last month for a book
presentation in LA. In the same way, all the comments from my peer reviews and professor
feedback have validated me in ways that I cannot describe. The overachiever in me will probably
never die out as I feel like that is rooted in me, but my anxiety levels for writing assignments are
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slowly decreasing. Who knows, maybe I might even submit a piece of my writing to Starting
Lines as Dr. Warwick, my amazing professor, suggested that I do. If I told my past self from
middle school or high school that I am considering this notion, she would be distraught and
laugh in my face. I am confident enough to say that I once thought that writing controlled me but
Bibliography
Aird, Sara. Storytelling and Identity: Writing Yourself Into Existence. Salt Lake Community
College, 2016.
https://slcc.pressbooks.pub/openenglishatslcc/chapter/storytelling-and-identity-writing-yo
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Dieter, Katie. Overcoming Shame Using Black Studies and Autoethnography. Youtube,
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ifcH91tjIgQ
https://www.research.ucsb.edu/sites/default/files/RD/docs/FREEWRITING-by-Peter-Elb
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Gibbs Reflective Cycle. Youtube, uploaded by Expert Program Management (EPM). 3 May
2019. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-gbczr0lRf4
P. Alvarez, Sara, et al. Workin’ Languages: Who We Are Matters In Our Writing. Working
https://ucsb.instructure.com/courses/14664/assignments/178525?wrap=1