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‘The Phantom of Ninth Street’:

A Bon Vivant’s Lonely Decline
He lived every New Yorker’s dream life. And then it all slipped away.
By Michael Wilson
Feb. 20, 2020 Updated 3:43 p.m. ET
When the police arrived at his apartment in Greenwich Village, Paul Pannkuk didn’t know what they
were talking about.
Someone had entered the apartment next door, taken a random armload of the tenant’s belongings —
photo albums, a doormat, a shoe holder — and dumped it all with the garbage in the basement. The
burglar was captured on security camera, and he looked an awful lot like Mr. Pannkuk.
He told the officers he had no memory of the incident. He would never steal, he said.
He stood in his once-grand one-bedroom home, with marble floors and windows onto tree-lined West
Ninth Street. The home’s former elegance was now hard to imagine.
The living room was dark, most of its lights missing. There was little furniture, and what remained
was old and worn, with stuffing sprouting from holes. Newspaper clippings were stacked in tidy piles
on the floor beside black-and-white family photographs.
On a side table was a sheet of paper with what looked like random doodles and reminders. In fact, it
was a map of sorts for a man hopelessly lost, guideposts to his old life: “Morgan Stanley,” “Drake
University,” the name of the composer of “The Music Man” (Meredith Willson). There was a verse
from a child’s prayer: “If I should die before I wake/I pray the Lord my soul to take.”
Mr. Pannkuk had once lived in comfort approaching extravagance, split between the Village and the
Hamptons, his future secured by a career in finance many dreamed to have in 1990s New York. He
traveled the world, returning to the city to share his stories with his friends.
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Most of those friends were gone now. He had driven them away. At the age of 68, he was on a path
many single New Yorkers dread. He was alone, with no one to take care of him, the mysterious
occupant of Apartment 1A. But he was too far gone to realize what was happening. His brain no
longer worked the way it once did.
His story is one steeped in kindness and frustration and hope misplaced, framed by addiction and a
shattering accident on the eve of a new start. It is the tale of a recluse in plain sight, a man left to
compulsively wander the place he called home. A friend gave him a dubious title: The Phantom of
Ninth Street.
A career’s rise and fall
Sam Hodgson for The New York Times
Mr. Pannkuk was a product of the midcentury Midwest, born in 1948 in Mason City, Iowa. He
attended Drake University, in Des Moines, studying economics and foreign policy before going to
work for the World Bank in Washington, D.C., in 1979.
By the mid-80s, he had moved to New York City with a career on the rise, first as an analyst with
Standard & Poor’s, and then — as his cheat sheet reminds him — with Morgan Stanley. He became
that firm’s manager of risk in its dealings with some 85 countries on three continents, traveling
frequently and living for a time in London.
“Very smart, extremely well read,” said Susan Saxe, a former analyst at Morgan Stanley who worked
with Mr. Pannkuk in the ’80s and ’90s. “He knew what was going on in the political regime of any
country you could think of.”
His sister, Jan, lived in Illinois and spoke to Mr. Pannkuk often by phone. She knew little of New York,
and imagined his days and nights busy with high living. She was not far off.
In a corporate world that leaned steadfastly straight, Mr. Pannkuk was a regular at the city’s gay
clubs. Tim Riordan, a Manhattan schoolteacher, met him at a gay bar in the ’90s, “in a long, kind of
serpentine coat line at a dance party,” he recalled.
“Mr. Pannkuk was very fun-loving and loved to dance,” Mr. Riordan said. “He mixed the corporate
world very well with the world of gay men.”
He lived for several years on the Upper West Side, and in 1990, he moved downtown, buying the one-
bedroom on West Ninth Street. Years later, real-estate agents would call the block, between Fifth
Avenue and Avenue of the Americas, the “Gold Coast” of the Village, but in 1990, it retained some of
the scruff and bohemian flair of the ’60s and ’70s. He loved his new home.
He also painted — “impeccable reproductions of Picassos,” Mr. Riordan said — and mounted the
large works in his living room. “People would walk by at street level and stop dead in their tracks,
thinking the owner had an original in there.”
Barbara Martinez, a musician who was raised by her mother, said Mr. Pannkuk, a family friend, was
like a father figure. She remembered his annual Christmas parties: “Lots of silver and white
balloons,” she said. He had shelves filled with dozens of Champagne flutes.
At some point in any story about Mr. Pannkuk, the teller invariably arrives at a memory of clubbing
or having long conversations over drinks — always over drinks. In his younger days, it seemed
harmless enough. “When I met him, he drank a fair amount of wine,” a longtime friend, Pablo
Scheffel, said. “But we all drank a fair amount of wine.”
As the years passed, the fair amount increased.
In 2005, after 13 years with Morgan Stanley, he left the firm. He was vague when he explained his
situation to friends — there was a new boss he didn’t get along with, he said. But some suspected
that he was let go. Ms. Saxe, his colleague at Morgan Stanley, had been unaware that his drinking
had become a liability — “until, at some point, I knew it had gotten the better of him.”
He was just 56. He started his own consulting firm, and created a LinkedIn profile with blurbs from
former colleagues. (“He was a terrific boss and a patient mentor, with great insight into human
nature as well as economic analysis.”) He bought a baby grand piano, playing for friends by ear. He
had a dog.
And he drank. “Early retirement didn’t serve him well,” Mr. Riordan said.
Adam Cohen, an artist, met Mr. Pannkuk in 2008 through a dating site. “Everything was revolving
around a drink,” he said. “‘Let’s meet here for a drink.’ ‘After the gym, let’s have a drink.’”
He was a regular presence at the Lion, a restaurant down the block from the apartment, and French
Roast, around the corner. “He’d spend a thousand bucks a week on drinks and lobster pot pies,” Mr.
Cohen said.
“He identified a lot with his job. It gave him his identity. He never replaced that,” Mr. Scheffel said.
Except, of course, with alcohol. “He told me he would get up at 3 o’clock in the morning and start
drinking.”
He would drift from bar to bar. Ms. Martinez, who grew up thinking of Mr. Pannkuk as a part of the
family, had a key to his apartment, and would sometimes find him incoherent or passed out.
“He would go on binges,” she said.
The night that changed everything
The Picasso replicas Mr. Pannkuk painted. Sam Hodgson for The New York Times
Six years after he left Morgan Stanley, with no progress toward finding work or keeping vague
promises to cut back on his drinking, his friends intervened. In 2011, a group gathered at his
apartment and told him he needed real help. He didn’t disagree. Ms. Saxe had found a rehabilitation
facility in Connecticut. The night before he was to go there, she called and told him she would pick
him up in the morning. Mr. Pannkuk said he would be ready.
The next day, a Saturday in October, Ms. Saxe arrived at West Ninth Street and rang his buzzer. No
answer. She feared he had started drinking again, so she headed to the Lion. He wasn’t there. She
passed by French Roast and his other haunts, but she didn’t find him.
She returned to the apartment. Worry grew to fear when she heard Mr. Pannkuk’s dog barking
inside. She called 911. Firefighters arrived and banged on Mr. Pannkuk’s door, and when they got no
answer, they broke it down.
Ms. Saxe was horrified at what she saw. Mr. Pannkuk was lying unconscious on his marble floor,
bleeding from his head.
Paramedics arrived and loaded him into an ambulance. Ms. Saxe fought to stay calm. “They were
looking around for his shoes, and they pulled out some fancy pair of shoes, and they made a remark
about them,” Ms. Saxe said. “I said: ‘You have to understand. He was always so beautifully dressed.’”
He ended up at Bellevue Hospital Center, where doctors discovered a traumatic brain injury caused
by his fall.
Mr. Pannkuk seemed to have damaged his medial temporal lobe, a zone in the brain deep behind the
ears, where new experiences are converted to long-term memory. His injury permanently disrupted
this function. In practice, Mr. Pannkuk is incapable of creating new memories.
Doctors at Bellevue fitted Mr. Pannkuk in a helmet while he healed. He believed he was in London,
oblivious to reality. He spent months in the hospital that way.
Ms. Saxe called Mr. Pannkuk’s sister, Jan, after the fall to share the news. “I was shocked,” Jan said.
“He was so close to going to a facility that was going to help him.”
She had her own set of health issues within her family in Illinois, but she traveled to New York and
visited him at Bellevue. After stopping by the apartment to fetch clothes, she walked the streets of
Greenwich Village. “It’s just one bar after another, basically,” she said.
Her brother returned home in 2012 to Ninth Street a very different man. He was no longer able to
hold a conversation, losing the thread almost immediately, starting over several times in a period of a
few minutes. He had magazines and the newspaper delivered, but he could not comprehend what he
was reading.
Worried about his finances, Jan took control of his checking account and the amount of cash
available to her brother at the A.T.M., putting him on an allowance.
She soon discovered that he was drinking again, his debit card charges betraying him and listing
two, three, even four bar tabs a day at his favorite Village spots. It is not unlikely that he simply
forgot earlier visits that day, and entered the bar each time as if it were the first.
She could also tell when he used an A.T.M. He tried to withdraw cash several times a day, even when
the account was empty, having forgotten earlier attempts. The pings from the bank brought her
comfort.
“I know he’s OK,” she said. “He’s walking around.”
But his old circle of friends were increasingly frustrated.
“I had a relatively young daughter at the time, and I felt I was maybe investing too much time in
him,” Ms. Saxe said. “I stopped going around to see him.”
Mr. Riordan would stop by and ask the doormen how his friend was getting along, but he found
himself reluctant to ring his bell. He once happened upon a wild-looking Mr. Pannkuk — who in the
past had been known to return to his stylist after a haircut if it wasn’t to his liking — shambling along
the sidewalk.
“I watched people’s faces as they approached him,” he said. “He was an eyeful — people were having
second takes. Little did they know he was about to take a right into a very chic apartment.”
Pulled from the shadows

By 2017, he was destroying that apartment from within. He carried his valuable books and treasures
from his world travels to the basement for disposal, Mr. Cohen, the artist, said. He threw away his
television, his stereo, even his light bulbs, casting the apartment in dim shadows. He threw away
food he didn’t remember buying, filling his refrigerator instead with rows of plastic cups of water.
Mr. Cohen began visiting once a week just to make sure Mr. Pannkuk was eating. Ms. Martinez, the
friend who looked to him as a father figure, dropped by the liquor stores and the Lion; she claimed to
be his daughter and begged them not to serve him anymore.
It was in this period, in the spring of 2017, that Mr. Pannkuk was arrested after throwing away his
neighbor’s belongings. In all likelihood, he probably believed he was in his own apartment, and
treated those things like he did his own property that he did not recognize.
I first encountered Mr. Pannkuk after reading a police blotter that detailed the bizarre burglary. Why
would a 68-year-old man steal random stuff from his neighbor? And then just put it in the trash?
I knocked on his door and was invited into his dark, curious surroundings, where the disheveled man
before me told me the same facts about himself, over and over. Morgan Stanley. Drake University. An
old friend he expected to arrive any time now. Morgan Stanley. Drake University. Old friend.
He said he was aware of having been hurt in a fall, but that it was minor.
The victim in the burglary case declined to be interviewed for this article, and it’s unclear why he
chose to press charges, but in doing so, he set into motion events that pulled the recluse from the
shadows and into the city’s view.
Mr. Pannkuk’s sister and friends contacted for this story agreed to speak about his past and present
with the understanding that no article would be written until his situation stabilized. Jan, his sister,
said she saw an opportunity to share her brother’s story with others facing addiction or brain trauma
issues.
After his arrest, Mr. Pannkuk was appointed a lawyer, and while the criminal charge was later
dropped, the matter of what to do about Mr. Pannkuk lingered. In 2017, his case was referred to
Surrogate’s Court, where he sat in silent bewilderment as his lawyer and representatives from the
city and the Mental Hygiene Legal Service, which represents the disabled in need of care, discussed
his future before a judge.
The primary obstacle to bringing Mr. Pannkuk the aid available to many New Yorkers was his
wealth, as manifested in the apartment on Ninth Street. He had too much money to qualify for free
assistance, and not enough for live-in care.
“There are a lot of difficulties going on in your life right now,” Judge Kelly O’Neill Levy told him in
September 2017. “The court finds that the appointment of a guardian is necessary.”
At the same time, the apartment building, a co-op, was threatening eviction proceedings against Mr.
Pannkuk. His guardian, Sabrina E. Morrissey, a Manhattan lawyer who worked with clients from
vulnerable populations, represented him and his wishes to stay in the apartment, but in reality that
appeared less and less of an option. His sister and Ms. Morrissey agreed: It was time for him to go.
Late in 2018, his guardian led Mr. Pannkuk, 70, from his apartment of 23 years to his new home. He
had no idea that he would never be back. His apartment was going on the market. It would sell
quickly for $1 million.
The income from the sale would go to pay for an assisted-living facility in Queens, a journey of some
17 miles, but a world away.
I have visited a few times over the past months. He has a room on a special unit for residents with
memory issues. To get to that wing, you pass through a door designed to keep residents from
wandering off. It has an alarm that is disarmed with a code that Mr. Pannkuk, if he learns it, is
unlikely to remember. The hope for residents like Mr. Pannkuk is that, over time, they become more
at ease with their surroundings and come to think of it as home.
Earlier this month, I arrived, and he smiled brightly when he heard his name called.
“Aren’t we in Queens?” he asked, correctly, before inquiring about the status of the impeachment
hearings against President Trump.
He sat in his room’s sole chair and crossed his legs. Behind him, three of his prized paintings from his
apartment, the Picasso reproductions, leaned against a blank wall. A health aide knocked and offered
him a bowl of rice pudding. Mr. Pannkuk asked if she would please put it in the refrigerator.
“I’ve been to London, France, Russia,” he said, and for a moment, he looked like any other retired
executive, thinking back over the good times. “I’ve been to India.”
Then, inevitably, that look of comfort shifted to one of urgency, and the room around him changed
from comfortable studio to forbidding cell.
“You know, my apartment is in Manhattan,” he said. “I’d love to go home.”
Michael Wilson has been a reporter and columnist at The Times since 2002, writing stories for the New York, National, International
and Arts pages. @MWilsonNYT

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‘The Phantom of Ninth Street’: A Bon Vivant’s Lonely Decline - The New York Times 2/20/20, 11:31 PM

‘The Phantom of Ninth Street’:

Feb. 20, 2020 Updated 3:43 p.m. ET

A career’s rise and fall

Sam Hodgson for The New York Times

As the years passed, the fair amount increased.

“He would go on binges,” she said.

The night that changed everything

“I know he’s OK,” she said. “He’s walking around.”

But his old circle of friends were increasingly frustrated.

Pulled from the shadows

“You know, my apartment is in Manhattan,” he said. “I’d love to go home.”

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