If my fate is to disappear like this, then this is my last letter

Penned words,written and then erased

Feelings for you, Ohh there’s just so many to let go
So be it, don’t cry. I’m gonna let you go and fly
Hectic days,keeping myself busy
Distraction filled schedule
But I won’t forget your memories,imprinted like the tatoo behind my head
We can’t return to those days, could we??
But If I could I would call your name still
I guess it is really time to say goodbye
Before we say goodbye and let go
I wanted to tell you this but I couldn’t
From stereo to mono
That’s how the path splits
But the color of the sky
And the scent of the path that walked together
Just don’t forget them
And I know all is that your warmth is real
The comfort I got near you felt like a never ending dream
The red flower that your hand was picking
I want to hold onto it too
But it’s my fate so
Don’t smile on me
Because I cannot get any closer to you
There is just no name you can call me with
I cannot show the ruined part of myself
So I wear this mask again to go see you from afar, yet you’re still beautiful
But it hurts to realise that you’ll never be mine
I always wanted to show you me
But i cannot do that because once I remove this mask
I am just a monster nigga
Hence I’m shattered, afraid that you will leave me again in the end
So I wear this silly mask once again to go see you
The only thing I can do in this garden
Is to bloom a pretty flower just like you
And admire it from afar
Maybe back then
A little, if I had this much courage to stand before you
Would everything be different now ??